It’s really hard to talk about it but I’ve been depressed for about a year now and I just can’t find my self to talk to my family about it. I was diagnosed depressed and they know about it and they gave me pills for about a month or so. They probably think I’m fine now but deep down I’m lost and I can’t find a reason to live. I’ve felt selfish about taking my own life and thinking how people I love might feel. I also felt selfish about taking my own life because it just seem selfish to do such a thing. I’ve been trying to work on myself and find things I love to do but nothing gives me the excitement and I just can’t find my passion. I look back when I was 12 or 9 and just think about how happy I was and how everything seemed ok than but now everything just feels empty. I’ve hidden it very well and I know that there are a lot of people like me who feel the same way but just don’t want to talk about to . I used to mock people with mental illnesses but now I find myself in the same situation and I hate myself for ever criticizing those people without knowing how they felt. It’s hard to live with and it takes up a huge amount of my time. If you know anyone or if you also have a mental illness, try to talk to someone about it. I’m trying my best to get better and hopefully I will but never judge someone by the way they act because deep down they may feel the same way.