Today was difficult for me. I showed up to work with a positive attitude and did what was expected of me. During my shift, I couldn't get out of my own head. I struggle with BPD and the self loathing got really bad. I went home on my break and took my mood stabilizers but that somehow made it worse, I just felt lifeless and even more deflated than before. I had to reschedule my appointment at the mechanic because I can't deal with that. I'm jamming with a friend later on, so maybe that will help.

I'm not having a crisis right now, I'm just venting because life sucks and today was really difficult. I hope you're all doing great!