I never used to suffer with anxiety and how I envy those days. I’m a 20 year old male 6ft 95 kg. For the past two months I have suffered with GAD. When the anxiety first started 2 months ago I was just non stop playing scenarios of tragic events happening to loved ones in my mind and asking myself how I would cope with them because It just wouldn’t be possible to cope if anything happened. This in turn caused me to have major panic attacks where my heart rate went up to 160 BPM from a feeling of dread rushing over my body and health anxiety which led me to getting my heart checked out with 2 ECG’s done and a blood test with everything coming back normal at the start of my anxiety. For the past 3 weeks whenever I wake up from sleep my resting HR is 80 and will go to 120-130 just from standing up. All day until the evening it won’t go down past 90 even if I’m resting for long periods of time and always shoots up 20-30 BPM just from standing up and will stay in the 120 range just from slowly moving around in the house. In the evening it goes back to normal at around 70-78bpm resting HR and when I’m asleep around 50BPM but the past 3 days I have woken up multiple times in the night because my heart rate is through the roof at around 100-120 BPM and will go back down to 70 BPM after waiting 10 mins then I fall asleep and wake up again after 2 hours with a heart rate of 100-120BPM. This has been happening several times in the night for 3 nights and I just feel so drained mentally and physically. I know people have anxiety but I feel like no one can relate to me as they all suffer different health issues to me. My constant high heart rate has made me quit being active, I’ve stopped working out because I don’t want to put more strain on my heart it’s already working hard pretty much 24/7, even walking worries me because my Heart rate is 130-140 just light walking. My sex life is over I’m not even interested in masterbating and I used to daily before this happened.  I have constant feelings of dread and always have some physical symptoms like chest pain or shortness of breath going on. Anything and everything startles me now a delivery driver ringing the doorbell will cause my heart rate to go up because the small and sudden sound of the doorbell will shock me. I feel dizzy in the morning and at night and if by some lucky chance I ever start to feel calm or relaxed just for a minute which has only happened twice in the last 2 months I will then have a panic attack just because I haven’t felt normal for 2 months so just feeling as a normal human being should be gives me a panic attack with a high heart rate because my new normal is feeling worried and exhausted. Sorry for rambling on I’m just at a point where I have no clue what to do and every day it’s constant agony. I don’t understand why my heart rate is high in the mornings and normal towards the ends of the night and I’m concerned about how much stress this is putting on my heart.