I have depression and BPD. Both make me feel suicidal. I plan on chocking myself tomorrow while my boyfriend works out at the gym. If that doesn’t pass me out, I plan on getting sleeping pills and just sleeping the days away. I have goals, but in moments like this, it doesn’t matter. I got out of the hospital 2 weeks ago and even had an attempt where I got a curtain and tried to choke myself with it. I’m prone to suicide attempts yet not even my boyfriend takes me seriously.