i don’t exactly know how to put this into words, but for so long, as long as i can remember, i’ve just felt so indifferent from everyone. i dont know if it’s just my victim complex speaking, but i just feel like i’m different and no one can ever fucking understand me. it’s so mentally draining because i feel like i try so hard to be “normal” to please others around me, and whenever i let go and act myself the vibe just kinda changes and people tend to distance themselves. i just want so badly to feel caught up with everyone and connected, but i literally feel disconnected.