A lot of my bpd mood swings seem to be stuck in numbness as of late. It’s horrible. I would rather be experiencing daily heartbreak than this. Nothing I do makes me feel. I have found no healthy alternative that helps. In turn, I get these horrible urges. I won’t go into detail, but they include the harm of myself and others. The desperation of it all drives me insane. I feel like a zombie and it feels like I’m losing my mind. Not sure if anyone else feels like this.