I have been trying super hard to get better I don’t want to be depressed. I don’t feel like there is anything left for me. I smoke a lot of weed and my family is disappointed in me. I haven’t had my antidepressants in almost a week because my Pharmacy is closed or doesn’t have my meds ready and they should’ve been a week ago. I don’t enjoy anything anymore, I mean that literally. I feel like there is nothing left for me in life. I don’t feel like I’ll ever enjoy anything ever again. My grandma keep saying “I’m dropping out of college” when Im graduating community college with a general so I guess the past two years have been pointless and worthless. I have been trying to correct my thought process but… clearly I’m not doing well. I don’t know about religion or anything. I feel worthless and have been for a long time. I have no energy or will to go on.