I haven’t been formally diagnosed but connect to a lot of what is being written here. 

I’m in my late twenties and am only recently experiencing major mood swings and self sabotaging behavior that I know is associated with BPD. When I was in my early twenties I went through a few years of dissociative episodes and had a hard time holding onto friendships.

I remember analyzing those incidents as reactions to my childhood traumas and to some very difficult experiences that I had experienced at the time. 

What worries me is that now when I am under great stress I create damaging narratives, am suspicious of others and do not give myself space from the stressors. Does anyone have advice for me?

When I am better resourced and the love in my life is abundant (or I guess it’s when I’m allowing myself to recognize it’s there), these worries and insecurities are at bay. At this point I feel like I have done so much work that it’s shocking to be feel so unhinged…