We do we have to live every second of our lives just to suffer.  The more older I get, the heavier it feels. I wish we just weren't born with emotions. I am tired of it. 
I can't get over a person. I thought I had gotten over her, it felt like everything came back to normal. Why do we fall for people we can't be with. I don't think I can keep doing this any longer. And I am not even capable of keeping myself distracted by seeing someone else, even though that's not a good approach, but nothing wrong in engaging in something casual to keep my mind off. I just can't do it. I don't how this works.