I’m still kind of shaken but I’m 99% sure that I just had a brief episode of psychosis. It’s was so scary I’ve never experienced it before. I thought I was having a panic attack but it wasn’t the same. Like I was aware that I was not being myself but it didn’t change the fear I had. It started at 5:30 am and it kinda faded out around 8:30am. I was trying to fall back asleep because I woke up and I just kept seeing things in the dark and I managed to stay somewhat calm because I’ve always been scared of the dark and I tell myself it’s just my eyes playing tricks and so on. Anyways the sun started coming up and my room wasn’t dark anymore but I was still seeing things move. I thought my bfs hat was a slug and my computer mouse was a rat and I just felt this sense of evil like something was going to get me and I felt that it wasn’t my eyes playing tricks but it was the devil trying to hurt me. It felt like everything was alive and watching me somehow like I thought the devil was watching me through tall my things like the tv remote and water bottles and stuff. So I sat up and tried to breathe and calm down because I had a job orientation today at 9am. I woke my boyfriend and asked him to go to the kitchen with me because I was scared to get out of bed. I just had this feeling of being watched I was so terrified of everything every movement and noise. He came and I made coffee and I asked him to not leave me out of sight until I went in the shower. I put on music and it didn’t help either. He knew there was something wrong so he asked me if I was ok from the bedroom and it scared me so bad that I yelled bloody murder and I just balled up and cried and started trembling. In my head I thought someone was murdering him and he was calling my name for help. Anyways I quickly finished my shower and ran to the bed with him and laid there and I was freaking out and sobbing and trying to explain to him what my head was thinking and it just went downhill from there. I was talking really fast and I started stuttering and repeating the same thing over and over because it like comforted me to repeat things. I don’t remember what I started babbling about but i remember he said let me love you I want to smother you and I starting freaking out because I thought he was trying to kill me. He managed to calm me down and I found comfort when I stared at his left eye and just focused on his pupil. At some point I remember clicking the charging port of my phone like popping it open and close and I just lost myself in that. The closest thing I can describe it to was when I overdosed on adderall. I was just laying there staring at the ceiling and I was moving my mouth around and blinking but I couldn’t stop myself it felt almost orgasmic to pop my case open and close. I remember my bf trying to ask me if I was ok but I couldn’t talk I couldn’t respond to him I was just lost in the moment. Eventually I went from paranoid to just feeling like I was high on something and then getting paranoid for a second and then high again. I’m finally feeling completely normal now and I really need to call my psychiatrist but they’re closed so idk what to do. It’s the first time anything like this has ever happened to me. I’m not on meds or drugs I only take a prenatal vitamin because I’m pregnant so I’m baffled. Definitely don’t want that to happen again. Btw I forgot to mention that during most of it I was aware I was being not normal but I wasn’t in control. 