Hey again me here guys.

I have some of the worksheets but I'm having trouble filling them out.

I'm getting shaky and have that persistent nauseous feeling, mixed with dread. I have to work today, so hoping for any feedback I could get from you guys about exercises to stop circular thinking.

My BF wrote me back last night "Hey I'm not trying to ignore you but I hit my breaking point this weekend and I need to decompress and take some time/space. I hope you understand that. Hope you're feeling well." 

Flooded with dread -- one positive flicker, then just dread, sickness, depression, tears. With no end date of taking time/space..i'm sure you guys get it.

I didn't even send my loooong email about getting this diagnosis, I couldn't bring myself to send it.

I had a spinning class and got a smoothie, so trying to stay physically positive.

What hasn't worked for me today: it shall pass mantras, trying to stop thoughts, redirect, and trying not to futurize (this IS over, sending the email WILL sever the last tie, etc).

What's interesting is my mom has been checking in on me -- and is being so supportive. She's like, this all makes sense now, and I can't understand it, that's why I always said I don't get you, etc.

Anyways -- any other tricks I can try to stop feeling so helpless about my BF? 

I won't have a mmtg with therapist until at least Friday.