this is quite possibly the stupidest thing ive gone through but i straight up cannot listen to music. whenever i want to, it's like everythinf says NO.

it's almost as if im scared i won't like the song im listening to? so i just don't in order to leave that untested. it's the same with responding to texts, opening emails, but it just sucks extra hard that it's expanded to one of my favourite passtimes.

in addition to this i also cannot exercise or do significant work because i need music to make both those activities bearable.

my only relief is my extremely sub par singing.

such is life