i gave everything i have with no regrets especially to those people i cared about the most. i gave my time. the only thing that i can do to make a physical contact with them. i support them always but sometimes when i forgot, they made me feel like im biased to a different circle of friends or something. i always buy stuffs and foods for them. i never complain or think twice when i'm doing this. 'cause all that i can ever think is that they deserve it. they deserve my love, time, and affection. that i can go down deep to save them. without regrets.

but it all boils down when things get rough. i don' t know why it's not always reciprocal. i just want them to stay and stay a little longer in my life. i didn't wish for anything. i want them to know that they can trust me enough to be a comfort zone. that they can be vulnerable around me. but why? why do they even have to lie about things infront of me?? why can't they just not tell me and not make any dumb excuses??? to make me feel better? idk why. i don't wanna please them but for pete's sake, don't make any excuses just to get away with me.

i said it before, they can tell me directly if they're not comfortable or any opinion that wouldn't invalidate their feelings. what's hard with that? it's like the same scenario but with different people. people i cared the most in my entire life.

but at the end of the day, after all these exhausting things going around and around and around in my head and making me feel anxious, there's one thing that i want to hear from them with this question:


WHO AM I TO YOU?