So I'm a pretty idgaf type of guy, people around my hostel know me as the weirdo and people in my class call me the class clown because I'm always messing with our teacher's and cracking joke's.

I dance in the corridor's, at the gym without any care of whose looking whose not, I sing loudly in crowded lift's until some one ask's me to stop, I start conversation's with random people and fist bump anyone randomly.

Now you know my perosnality, all these thing's I do is around guy's, cause when it come's to girl's boy oh boy does my personality take a turn, I'm shy asf I start overthinking thing's, I fuck up most of the thing's I say and have the most awkward convo's of my life.

Ans specially around my crush, wow like yesterday she was unwell and I just wanted to ask her if she was okay and what happened, but the moment I walked up to her, my mouth froze shut, I didn't knew what to say, like dude if it was a random dude, I would fully diagnosed bro out, But this was my crush I was flabbergasted, just asking how she was  is so hard, mostly because I think I kept overthinking that I'll ask her this and that but when the opportunity came , I froze.

I don't want to be like this, I want to talk to women like I talk to dude's, I want to be able to go up to a random girl and fist bump her, ask her how she was and stuff.

Please guide me with your wisdom oh smart people.

(I legit have no female friend's in my college col{Crying out loud})