This is slightly complicated, but not rly. 

{background info} My BFF/Roommate and I are in a platonic relationship but have romantic feelings for eachother. Its something we dont really talk about because neither of us are in the right headspace for a relatsionship, but our sexual tension has been building. He knows about my BPD and that he was once my FP.

I've been recovering and lets just say I feel better than I have in SO LONG. (I was attacked a couple months back so PTSD was the main trigger of my BPD. I've always been a silent sufferer, so there wasn't much issue for him. 

HERE'S THE QUESTION: I really want to have a night in and just express my thanks for him and my love for him . I want to do this is a way that FEELS BPD free for him. If that makes sense. I want to express to him that I thank him, I love him and I LOVE him. (this he all knows but i never verbally confirmed my romantic feelings for him so i kinda want to HINT that to him a little bit as well.)

Suggestions?