I hate that I have resorted to posting on Reddit, but I have noone around who understands me. My life seems so shitty, but I don't know how to fix it. People on the outside looking in might think that I have it made, but they do not see the struggle behind the "success." I (in my opinion) have to fight harder than anyone around me to achieve anything. Case in point, I recently quit teaching after 5 years (fucking hated all 5 years) in hopes of getting into Tech. After countless applications in the last three months, I have only received about 5 interviews, two of which I made it to the final interviews. They strung me along for an entire month, and still did not hire me. I have a master's degree and so many tansferable skills, but clearly I am not good enough. I cry so much because I am tired of struggling mentally.  Although I have a supportive mate (and a small savings) I do not want to depend on her. There is nothing like having my own. Unfortunately, I also have communication and conflict issues with my mate (unrelated to finances) and I just recently had to cut off my toxic mother, AGAIN. I also relocated to a different state two years ago and still have no friends. I will not go into all the details of my life for sake of length, but I needed to get this off my chest. I just want to be happy, you guys. That's it. I am tired of everything being a challenge for me. I need a miracle.