I feel like it's because my ability to get things done is just not there .It's been going on for a long time .I really used to enjoy. But now it's time for a break from things just idk enjoy things as it comes.Its because of my laziness and being reminded I can just visit home from time to time from college that life hasn't been too tough to suicide but all that's coming to an end ,with pretty much wasting four years because I was holding onto my past mistakes and opportunities not taken. That I will be finally able to do it.so I'm taking a break from reddit,youtube, and  the worst thing for me is not feeling enough to watch blank panther.Ok bye 👋