i actually posted something like this a few months ago and I don't really feel like I've made progress. i had one holiday job that I hated (idk wtf to do career wise or how to navigate that) and i finally went to the dentist and started brushing my teeth twice a day and flossing consistently. at 29. those are my accomplishments if you can call them that. the most i've ever made per year is 15kish and that was from unemployment. i've never dated and i don't have friends. still a virgin and no kids. 

i remember when i was upset at 18 and my mom saying something like "do you still wanna be living here when you're 30?" welp here we are. my favorite pet also died and i'm lonelier than ever. not to mention moving last year in the midst of covid. i miss my own town even though i was lonely there too. 

sometimes i think i'd be way happier and more motivated if i had my own place. but idk how to navigate that crap and rent is so high. i struggle to even keep my freaking room clean. been the same patterns for 10+ years. i'm always numbing out on the computer and crap. just to pass the hours. i even looked at porn even though i don't like it. recently i was reflecting on my life and i honestly feel happy like i've had an ok life. but as far as living life into the future it just feels hard and always anxiety about "what should i do" "doing" is exhausting. idk wtf to do since forever. i just wanna lay around