I was diagnosed with depression in Middle School, but now I'm 19 and I never thought I would get this bad. I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years and it was great at first, but now it's just very abusive and dysfunctional. We both piss each other off and I know I fuck up. He just doesn't seem to care that he fucks up or to apologize. We got into a car accident at the end of December and totaled the car. He convinced me to buy a shitty car, because we were going to try to get our own place. (We were living with my grandparents) well, that ended up falling through and due to our fighting, we were kicked out. So I'm homeless again, in a shitty car and there's a new problem with it everyday. 
I don't know who to talk to anymore or how to deal with this anymore. I love making other people happy, but no one really knows I'm dying inside. I don't know how to tell them, I don't want sympathy or for them to think I'm using them. In this world just seems so fucked up I don't have the energy to do anything.