Lately I’ve been feeling incredibly irritated, almost enraged, by absolutely everything anyone says, even just their presence in a room. 

I know it’s irrational, there’s no reason to hate someone who says “I’m making eggs” or just happens to be standing several feet away, but it’s like the second I see or hear anyone my brain goes into fight mode. 

I always have to be careful of everything I say because logically I know I love my family and friends, but still, when they ask me if they look good in a certain outfit my knee jerk reaction is to tell them they’re ugly as s**t and to get out of my face. I don’t want to be such an angry person. I do care about people. I’d lay down my life to help any of them. 

But it’s like my depression turned into intense, constant anger and fear. I always feel terrified of everyone around me for no reason at all. My kind old grandma isn’t going to kill me, I don’t think I’ve ever once seen her even get irritated, but that’s how I feel when I’m around her or anyone else. I know I’m a caring person, in the past I was almost never angry at all and loved to be with my family, but not anymore. I just feel scared, very angry, and uncomfortable.

Does anyone have any advice for dealing with this? Just practical day to day tips? I know I should get a therapist, I’m going to have my first session very soon.