Does anyone else have kind of a lone wolf mentality ? 
Basically I don’t feel comfortable with calling one person my best friend. I ultimately prefer to be alone.
Although, I wasn’t always this way. I feel like it’s a bpd thing after dealing with the pain that’s created from your favorite person figures in each time in your life disappointing you- which happens in most of my best friend relationships (meaning they become my fp bc they’re my best friend naturally) 

Now the idea of a best friend just doesn’t sit right with me. like it’s always fake or toxic. One friend always likes the other friend more and if your the one being liked more it’s annoying and when you’re the one being liked less it hurts. 

This could be to specific to me though....