I don’t understand why the people I care about most in this world lie to me and continue to hide things from me time and time again. Both of my partners recently attempted a joint suicide on my meds and I didn’t know about it till I attempted a few weeks later and one of them told me in the hospital. We talked it through and while yes I’m still absolutely petrified that they’re going to do this again. They promised me they got rid of the rest of the meds. Well while I was looking for something of mine in their room that I had thought fell out of my suitcase when it was in there I found my bag of meds that went missing around that time. I don’t know what to do. I feel hurt and angry and just not cared about over all. Why do they choose to do this. What is it about me that makes people feel the need to hide shit from me. I don’t know what to do. I know if I bring it up it’s just gonna lead to another huge argument that I am mentally incapable of handling right now. But if I don’t I know I’ll stew on it they’ll eventually notice that something is wrong and try to pry it out of me. And it’s like if I do tell them, argument, if I don’t tell them they’re mad at me. I just don’t fucking know what to do anymore.