I am 23M (Asian), but disabled with mobility and hearing difficulties, and so my parents have always been around me for as long as I remember. Very rarely they let me see my friends alone, but they'll spam me with texts if I am away for 30 minutes too long, and they keep asking me to keep them on tab on where I am. If I don't, they will become very angry at me, and stonewall me for many hours or even days when I get home.

I'm now a working adult but I'm really suffering from social anxiety and separation anxiety. My self-esteem is very very low, and on some days, I realized how low my self-esteem was when I cannot even stand for myself and do the right thing. I am always having to seek my parents' permission on this or that, and I get very very anxious when they cannot help me out on my troubles. 

But now with Covid, it's even worse. My dad is not allowing me to see my friends, trying to fear-trip me whenever possible, using the oh-so-famous "better not go out of the house or you get covid" mantra. It has been working with my mom very well (she's not allowed by my dad to have any friends or relatives come over to our house or go out at all even before I was born). It's beginning to work with me, I guess. 

And my parents have forced me to stop physiotherapy for 5 years (and still counting) and disallowed me to take up any para sports in university. Now that I've graduated, they've begrudgingly allowed me to take up a new para sport over last weekend (that I went to register without their approval first), but they've been very negative about me taking up any form of para sports. I was at the trial lesson just last weekend, and they left me alone there, leaving me to struggle with my separation and social anxieties alone with the coach... 

Please, **any advice much appreciated on how to manage with my social and separation anxieties**. I can't move out on my own, I can't live independently. And no helpers or other caregivers are accepted in my household too. My parents bullied them very badly the last time we had helpers.

I don't know if my parents are suffering from any kind of paranoia themselves. 

But they will laugh if they see me or anyone in pain.

I'm trying to see a counsellor/therapist soon. Already signed up at a mental wellness center.