Hi everyone, I terribly suffer with focus and I'm facing problems in many areas of my life. I feel like I'm slower than other people. 

If people speak to me, it's hard absorbing much of what they say and I usually zone out. I'm even unable to comprehend information while reading any article or a book. I usually have to read a sentence 5-6 times or more for it to stick in this shitty brain only to forget any knowledge my brain accumulated within a day. Lol 

While communicating my mind just freezes mid sentence and all the thoughts just vanish. It's embarrassing given that it happens in a social situation. I'm unable to socialize and enjoy the moment without my mind drifting. Even if it doesn't drift, my mind is totally blank hence I don't have any topic to talk about. 

It honestly sucks being this way and I'm constantly  being self-critical 24/7 judging every word I say and any task that goes wrong at work. I feel worthless with 0 self esteem. 

I don't even feel like working hard or socialising any more because no matter how much I try I'm only bound for failure. Regardless I'm still trying my best to progress in my career but what's the point if you always end up in the same situation? I'm average at best in my work and I'd like to learn more of what I don't know but it's frustrating living with the fact that your brain takes ages to retain information. 

My bosses appreciate me and say that I'm the best employee, even behind my back but what if they say that only to boost my confidence? Probably because they know about my personality. I feel like a fraud at times to be honest and every complement seems fake. 

Lastly, I'm severely depressed all the time and don't have the energy to do anything because of this. Is depression the culprit? IQ? Slow processing speed? ADHD? I don't know. I'm lost and all I'm seeking is guidance. I hope no one suffers like I do.

I'd highly appreciate your support &amp; guidance &lt;3