I feel worthless. Like no one really cares about me and that if I was gone tomorrow nobody would even notice.  I am a failure and people only tolerate me and hate when I'm around. I have wasted what potential I have and will never find love. I put a mask on for everyone and it hurts even more pretending I'm happy when inside I just want to die. I don't want my friends to worry so I don't tell them but I hate myself and wish it was all over. I want to get help but therapy is so expensive and I feel selfish for taking up a therapists time when they could help someone more worthy.