I FUCKING HATE THIS. I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS. One day I'm fucking fine and then the next I blow up at nothing. Literally, everything sets me off, and I don't want sympathy or to be treated like a child. I don't want to be condescended or have to explain every action I make because everyone thinks I'm gonna kill myself. Literally all I want is to feel fucking flat. I don't want to tick people off or concern them. I want to actually be able to sleep again instead of having to take drug after drug to even begin to feel drowsy. Please don't comment, I literally just need to put this out.