So to begin with im a 20M, im still a virgin fucking hate to say that shit, but i hate myself lately, my voice is fucked up, i was born 3 months too early i could have died, but while there were problems something had to go trough my throat and it damaged my vocal cords, it sounds soft and like i smoke 100 years. I just hate to talk to new people they think im probably weird, if i talk i have to watch out how hard im speaking &amp; if i speak clearly enough. On top of that i had a back surgery last summer and i got a whole scar on my backbone, its really ugly. On top of that because of my voice i have big social anxiety i dont like to talk because i feel i annoy ppl with my voice, same with girls i just cant talk to them. Wish I was death i dont have to live with pain, anxiety &amp; depression