Hi all. I have been experiencing depression I’m pretty sure my whole life. I didn’t start seeing a doc until 3 years ago. I’ve been on so many things, and I can never feel right. I miss the more common happiness I felt when I was younger. Almost any meds I’ve been prescribed just make me feel further from the happiness I once had and desire. Here’s my timeline and effects of the meds I’ve had below.. I already have another appt with doc tomorrow but I’m just getting drained of the negative effects of being on the meds, and then the withdrawal effects.  If anyone has any advice of what types of medicine I should mention to my doctor I would honestly appreciate it so much

April 19 Venlafaxine-37.5 up to November 225mg felt like I was going through the motions like a drone

Dec2019Bupropion severe anger 
Venlafaxinr
Jan 2020 
Sertaline Zoloft- too emotional neck pain at 200ng
June 2020
Lamactal- anger and severely easily offended 
Busiprone- combative and argumentative anger
Aug2020
Ability (don’t remember)
Sep2020
Duloxetine- 30up  severe blunting, no sadness or anger, just boredom of everything
Off everything Dec 21
Jan 2022
Escitalpro Lexapro -anxiety anger 
March 2022
Desvenlafaxine- irritability quick to snap
April 2022
Mirtazapine- severely tired, drained all the time body depression feeling
May 2022
Duloxetine 20mg- blunted, boredom
June 22 Venlafaxine 37.5, was fine for 3 weeks but now depression and regret feeling every day.