Had my appt with a temp psychiatrist attached to the outpatient program I am starting. He says it def sounds like I have bipolar, and that my elevated mood and clearer thinking from latuda are confirmation on the diagnosis. He also wonders if my adhd and anxiety are not separate issues but directly tied into bipolar because I am have the most significant improvement with those areas on latuda. 

I am normally in an elevated mood that fluctuates and would it not be quite the amazing thing if I did not have anxiety. And that my constant switching interests and racing thoughts were simply bipolar. And apparently  some of my other adhd symptoms could also be attributed to trauma. So maybe, maaaaaybe, I can get the one thing under control and get my life back. 

I have been in a great mood the past few days, and it feels nice to have this appointment be a positive thing.