So my boyfriend is ignoring me and turned his phone off and it makes me act so crazy that I had to sit in a parking lot for a hour waiting to chill out  bc I know I’ll impulsively crash to Jill myself, and when I get home I start pacing and screaming and looking in the mirror calling myself names punching myself and I grab sharp things and run them back and forth on my arm and flop around like a fish bc of how much I can’t handle and choke myself but idk how to help myself anymore I feel lost