I’m 26, english. I don’t have many irl friends. Most my friends I met through the internet and a lot of them are American. I guess I share a lot of interests with them. The music they listen to, the way they dress/fashion they like, the events they go to. 

Sometimes I watch their instagram stories &amp; feel sad I can’t be there with them at these events. The moments they live through almost make me feel jealous. I am stuck alone in my room. Meanwhile they go to house parties, see artists and surround themselves with likeminded people without even having to try. 

I cant help but feel hopeless and like I’m getting too old. I’ve missed out on a life I never had given but one that was for me regardless