I feel like I was way smarter when I was young. My memory is not as good anymore. I now forget things. It's my mind's way of protecting me from pain and recurring flashbacks. I'm not on meds because I have no money for consulting my preferred psychiatrist and the meds make me dead. Like the q makes me doze off for 2-3 days. I feel like my body is so heavy and I can't do it. 

Is it possible to deal with this illness without meds. So far, I'm still good. Only downside is my spending habit. Not good since I was like 10. I'm 22 now. I'm seeing a psychiatrist on November 12. I just want to ask you guys because I think you know better.