I am so damn ugly to the point it pains me when I look at myself in the mirror. My physical appearance is the main cause for feeling depressed and hopeless in this life. I've always been called ugly by others growing up and alongside having very few friends, it has damaged my self esteem beyond belief. I can't help but feel jealous when i look around me and see attractive people enjoying their lives to the fullest and I almost want to curse God for making me born this way. 

Of course, being attractive won't solve all my problems but it certainly would help me in being more respected by others and be treated like a human being ffs. Doesn't help that being ugly with an annoying as fuck personality has contributed to me being a socially awkward loner with very minimal good qualities and stunted social growth. I never chose to be born in this body for crying out loud. I never had a choice to begin with.