me and my fp have been friends for years and recently gotten very close over the past few months. i an diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have severe abandonment issues (i match the diagnosis criteria for bpd more than the one for bd which is leading me to believe i was misdiagnosed.) my entire life i have been abandoned by my closest friends and it hurts like hell. this friend was the one to point out my abandonment issues and ironically abandoned me anyway. i have so much anger toward this person but i’d do anything to be friends with them again. i have no idea what to do without them and my only coping is being high or crying. i just wish someone cared about me the way i cared about them. or even would be honest with issues at the time instead of just building up hatred toward me and abandoning me. i’ve never felt worse or more alone in my life.