I have been struggling with severe anxiety and bouts of depression since I was around 8/9 and it got worse and worse til I had a major panic attack when I was 14 which left me bed bound for 2 weeks. Since then I have been on sertraline (ages 17-19) which got me out of bed but I had every side effect and in my opinion made my anxiety worse in many ways. I also started therapy at 16 and have tried hypnotherapy, CBT, havening, and some other trauma therapies along the way. None have helped particularly. In my first year of university I was a total mess and handed everything in late, barely went in and struggled to make friends. I am now 22 years old and about to go to prague for 6 months on a semester abroad, but am terrified that my anxiety will completely ruin it like it did in my first year so I went to the GP today and explained I wanted to take something but not SSRIs and suggested beta blockers or pregabalin of ones I’ve read about. She told me I can’t take beta blockers because I have asthma as a child (but haven’t had it since age 5?!) And point blank refused it totally whilst simultaneously going on and on about her own asthma and how she would never take beta blockers etc. (basically going on about herself for 5 minutes). I then asked about pregabalin and she said no way it’s addictive and we can’t monitor u in prague. I wanted to scream at her that SSRIs are addictive aswell so what’s the bloody difference? In the end she said she would refer me to counselling which I’ve been through with the NHS before and it’s an absolute shit show where I live and I’ve also done therapy for 6/7 years now! What are my options? Is how she reacted normal/fair ? Please help!