hey ya'll

so this is a vent/thought i wanted to share since i feel like it might help someone out there.

i suffer from my share of mental health issues, but for the sake of this post i'm primarily talking about depression and anxiety; everyone's favorite co morbids.  i've dealt with them for a number of years (15+years and going strong) and one thing i have always had to deal with is guilt. I've been easily guilted into doing things for people in the past and felt immense guilt when things went wrong., even if i had nothing to do with them going wrong. 

back when i was younger there was this show on playhouse Disney called "PB&amp;J Otter." the show revolved around the lives of 3 otters names peanut, jelly and baby butter and all their woodland friends living on a lake.  one of these friends was a raccoon with a little brother named "Scootch." Scootch was known for having a tenancy to accidentally break things and his catch phrase was "sorry sorry, my fault."  the exception to this was one episode where someone else broke something on purpose and he said "sorry sorry...not my fault?" 

this got me thinking

we get so used to feeling like things are our fault or we caused issues that when we are confronted with something going wrong or a problem we had nothing to do with that our first instinct is to feel guilt/blame for it since it's what our brains are used to telling us.(sorry sorry my fault).  but when we start to heal and realize that not everything is our fault and that the guilt we're feeling is out brain lying to us, we stop accepting that feeling of guilt. (sorry sorry...not my fault?)  and maybe that's what healing can look like for some. acknowledging that something bad happened and you feel bad it did but not taking on the responsibility of that guilt.

not sure is this will make sense to anyone else, but thought i'd share it.

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p.s. i had to look up the name of the raccoon and not the otters because even after all these years, i can remember the damn noodle dance song, their catch phrase and names, but not the raccoon this post is about. and yes, this made me laugh a little.