I’ve always had bad anxiety ever since I was a kid , I’m 21 now,  I’ve been to doctors and I’ve been thru different medications that don’t work and make me feel weird (one made my head feel like It was on fire ) I’ve been taking my grandmas Xanax she gave me and it works wonders . Im aware of the addictive tendencies and stuff but how should I go about telling my doctor that’s the only thing that seems to help without them thinking im just seeking drugs ?