Sure, some triggers still destroy me 

BUT

Wooo, I am so much better at controlling bad thoughts and emotions and I am trying to reduce the black and white thinking as much as possible. I am becoming less judgemental and my confidence also improved a bit. I am able to spend a bit of time alone without panicking. My suicidal thoughts are decreasing and sometimes I can even act like an adult.

I love my therapist and she does magic to my brain and I do the work as much as I can and it shows. I hope to improve more and more and one day become good. It is a long and super hard journey but I am grateful for the fact that the pain is decreasing and I feel a bit better.

It makes me wonder, how amazing it can be when you are almost recovered?? Must be a dream. And I want to get there! I can do it. You can do it. Keep going!