I’ve been slowly recognizing I might have BPD in the past several months and time by time I would dedicate my free time in doing research about it. It all started in me not knowing such disorder existed, to knowing a friend of a friend has it, and then I would search general questions about myself whenever I had a breakdown or emotion overload such as “why does my mind keep on changing” and BPD would show up. (I’m the type to search things up when I’m extremely confused about something)

Of course at first I genuinely thought it was just a coincidence and I don’t have BPD so I just let it slide. And then weeks after or days after, I would search a different question again and BPD showed up again. It went on like this for months until I started thinking if I have it. I went deep into research and also went here on reddit a few months after ‘cause I did knew there are people here who shares real life experiences and I wanted to know more about BPD. I found myself relating to almost all of the symptoms and shared experiences and I am mostly convinced I do have it at this point.

I was diagnosed years back with depression but I stopped reaching out for more help because of how different my parents treated me back then and made me feel like burden for having depression. I won’t forget the look of their faces that time and how the psychiatrist depended on my parents answers and say it was all in my head. I decided after then that I could heal by myself and shut everyone out.

How do I get diagnosed here in the Philippines and how much is it? Is it okay if I could come by myself since now that I am 18? Any mental health services that you could suggest to me?