I think I might have it. I’m 16 and recently I’ve come to terms with the fact that I lie all the time. I don’t even think I was fully processing it before. It was calculated but I didn’t think much about the fact that I was lying. It’s usually not to get out of anything, and it’s always for attention to some degree. It’s almost always sympathy, I always just want to be comforted. The thing is nothing all that bad happens to me but I don’t want to tell people that I’m just kind of sad for no reason, so I’ll make something small up in hopes that they’ll comfort/validate me. I don’t really align with the other symptoms. I don’t care about being the center of attention in most situations, but I am very fixated on appearance. I feel like my looks are the only real part about me. I put a buffer between other people and everything else about me, but I can’t change how they perceive my looks. I used to dress really provocatively all the time, and flirted with just about everyone, but I got into a pretty serious relationship lately and that’s not really a problem anymore because I get that kind of validation from him. He’s the main reason I started looking into this, because I really don’t want to lie to him. I haven’t so far, but there have been so many times when I just want him to be sympathetic towards me and I’ve been so tempted to make something up. I want to stop, but it’s become such a habit. I’m trying to get down to the root of this behavior so I can stop it. Its making me start to think I’m just a bad person. I also don’t feel particularly troubled, so thinking I might have a mental illness or disorder feels a bit melodramatic. At the same time I’m wondering if my constant craving for comfort is a sign that I’ve got more going on then I realize? My childhood wasn’t great, my dad used to give me the silent treatment a lot when I was a kid (that’s a true thing haha, I swear), like for days, over nothing, and I was never really sure what I did wrong. He’d yell at me whenever I cried or got upset in any capacity. As I got older he started just yelling all the time over nothing and now we just don’t really talk (our relationship has improved though). Maybe the lack of positive/sympathetic attention then is making me overcompensate now? My relationship with my mom is great though, I feel like it should’ve been enough to counteract that. I don’t know. It’s confusing me and I’m scared to ask for therapy. Just wanted to know if anyone might have any idea what I should do more research into, especially if they thought it might align with hpd?