Going on 12 hours or crying now. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. My brain feels like a tangled insane mess. My eyes are so swollen that they hurt. I feel that all hope is lost and I have nothing to live for. I’m losing everything I have. I have no motivation and no energy left.

I’m so emotionally distraught I gave myself a fever. I hope I just get really sick and die. Maybe I’ll just starve myself.