Country town. Be me driving to store. Pull in with my music loud as always because it helps with anxiety. Well, here in the south its odd to see a white guy listening to some mexican music, a famous cartel song by a cartel for the cartel. I accidentally had it saved in regular playlist. The only mexican lady and son ive seen in this town in 12 years geta out of csr beside me. She listened and froze like a statue and walked fast inside. I go to get items but im walking fast too, she sees me and grabs her son in fear to leave. It hit then and there that was the cartel song I had playing. God knows what lady has been through, tons leave mexico because of all the bloodshed and chaos between cartel, the resistance to the cartel, military, blackops etc.....I didnt mean for this to happen but she probably thought or thinks the worse who really knows. Then I go home and relapse on drugs one day before my first day of work in a year. What a day. This drug particularly drains on a mass scale catecholamines, serontonin/dopamine, so tomorrow will be a lot of anxiety :( universe help me.