I'm so fucking tired of being tired. No meds have been helping. I get a few hours every few days. I'm tired of being awake and having no energy, being awake with my thoughts 24/7. I'm tired of being stressed out and having bills I can't pay for because I can't get a job even though I have applied to nearly everywhere in a 15-25 mile radius. I'm tired of trying and not catching a break. I need a day just one where I can sleep and not feel like I'm a burden or like where I'm at would be better if I wasn't a sack of shit. I'm scared and lost and confused. I live day to day because I never thought I'd make it to my age. One day I woke up 23 and I'm alone. Anyone that had love for me is gone and I'm not even sure if the ones around me like me. I think about the relationships I had and then end in me loving them and thinking about them even YEARS later. I just don't want to keep going if life is going to be as terrifying and painful it is right now, why is it that I feel like no matter what I try to do I'm not good enough. Is it because I wasn't supposed to reach this age? Is it because of that that I feel even worse than I did before?