lately ive been thinking about maybe telling my friends about my bpd. the only person who knows right now is my boyfriend. I am very afraid to tell my friends because of the whole stigma behind bpd and I already feel like they hate me anyways so I don’t want to make it worse. I’ve been isolating myself from them alot recently like I’ve left the gc I’m in I’ve stopped interacting with them as much because I feel as if I have to leave people before they are able to leave me. I’m so scared of being left alone and being abandoned but I can’t help but try to remove myself to avoid even more hurt. I still care about them a lot and they say they care about me it’s  just I always doubt that people care about me, I have a hard time trusting peoples words. Should I tell them what’s going on with me? How would I even go on about it? Like how would I even say anything. Help please I just don’t want to be alone I want them to be able to understand me