this question is more geared towards those on this sub in their 20’s but all answers are welcome. how does anyone handle gen z or early millennial dating or hookup culture with BPD? 

I want to partake in it because every aspect of it is exactly what I crave such as attention, impulsivity, recklessness, having an FP, etc but the one con outweighs all the pros and I just can’t get past it. 

My jealousy of my partner(s) being with others is killing me even though I know they are allowed to do whatever they want just as I am allowed to do whatever I want but that doesn’t change that I want them all to myself. My jealousy, especially for my FP (who is my main friends with benefits) is so intense that I have horrible nightmares/night terrors about it.

A while ago I decided to stop dating anyone new because it hurt so bad and I tried shutting off my emotions to keep those already in my life but it still hurts so bad, I don’t know how people do it.