I've suffered with depression from i was 14 but it's been shakey. I'm fine then I'm suicidal in the space of a day. I'm 17 now and I've recently feel into a deep depression. It's the worst it's ever been. I've stayed off school because of no motivation and just wanted to stay in my bed with the duvet over my head to block out the world. I've pushed away the few friends I have and now they've actually gone. I don't know what I expected. Of course they were going to leave if I pushed them away and isolated myself from the world. Now my depression is 10x worse because you can say that people don't care about you but its different when you realise that people genuinely do not care about yoh anymore. I have nobody to tell me it's ok. I have nobody to talk to. I have nobody to love me. I have my family but they have their own problems. And I wouldn't burden them with mine. So now I'm alone and depressed laying in bed all day wanting to break out of the cycle but the painful comfort holds me down. I just want to know if anyone has felt this way.
Can people share similar experiences?
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