I’ve been dealing with mental illness my entire life, have been in and out of the ward about 9 times not including partial programs. My main issue has always been depression and I’ve yet to find a medication combo that helps me. I got diagnosed with Bipolar in June and was taken off of most of my previous meds and put onto Lithium. It does absolutely nothing for me btw. I dropped out of school when I was 16 due to not being able to take care of both mental health and grades. The only job I’ve ever had I have had to go on medical leave for mental health struggles twice and i’ve been working there since March of this year. Was on leave from early June-Late July and mid October-Now. I have intense manic and depressive episodes, so when working, I will either be the most efficient worker there or I’ll be days behind deadline. I feel like I genuinely cannot handle adulting, I have no income currently, I was kicked out and live in an extremely overpriced apartment, and my BF covers all my payments currently but he doesn’t make enough to do that without spending more money than he’s making. I feel so shitty because I can’t even put in the effort to do the chores when it’s the least I can do to help him.
I feel so alone at this point, I just don’t know what to do anymore now.. I want to work but I feel like within one week I’ll be back on medical leave. Any advice on what I can do from here?