Alright guys 

We all know there’s the inflation and deflation phases of a relationship, and sometimes the deflation comes after the relationship ends (especially if it ends in a horrible way), currently I have a favorite person, and I am honestly in love with him (well not sexually, but he means EVERYTHING to me) well, the horrible thing is: I don’t think that I actually went into the deflation phase with my previous (favorite persons) all of them ended in a really horrible way that destroyed me entirely, and despite how much I got hurt by their actions yet I still care about them and think about them so much that they are still in the inflation phase (well to some point) my therapist told me to give up hope on having the relationship back with them (and he was right, it was over 2 years maybe 3 ) since I even texted them yet they still mean so much for me 


And there is the current relationship where I am being very careful not to mess it up, but it’s been a while (my therapist thought that by now I would reach the deflation phase with my current relationship) however, I didnt not only that but I think I keep getting attached more and more 

And whenever I am away or I know that I’ll be away off him, I get extremely anxious 

It eats me up alive, I can’t even function well 

I know I won’t see him for a while feeling super anxious about it (really need help here)

And with my previous experience seeing that I never actually reached a deflation phase .. right now I really doubt that I’ll ever recover from BPD



Please guys tell me what you truly think and please dont give me false hope 


Please please please don’t tell me that things will get better, just tell me what you really think of my situation