For context, I am a college going guy.

There is this really beautiful girl who hangs out with me everyday, and is really smart. However, I kind of feel I am not good enough and I don't deserve to be with her.

She should have better friends than me. This is driving me crazy. Like she decides to spend her free time with me when there are boys that are a lot more handsome, smarter and socially active than me.

Should I just tell her everything and run away? She deserves to be friends with someone not as boring as me. I almost tried telling the last time we met, but I couldn't muster the courage to go through with it. I don't wanna hurt her feelings.

Its been weighing on me and I feel guilty for it. I feel like I can't come up with interesting topics so I kind of go back to college topics and general small talk.

I am really pathetic. I don't know how she can even put up with me.