I don’t know why I do this shit. Actually, I do. It’s the desire to feel “normal” and not swallow pills twice a day, and force myself to eat specific type of food amounts 15min but no less than one hour before I take the meds even when I’m not hungry and just want to go on about my day. 

I’m trying to get back on track but sometimes I really resent geodon. It’s a high maintenance drug. It has a short half life so I’m taking it twice a day. It works well but dammit man. Sometimes it gets to me. 

Thanks for listening. Hope everyone is having a good Sunday.