I've come here because I don't really know who else to talk to about it but I've been sober about 5 months now (court appointed breathalyzer 3 times a day) and it has been such a weird mixture of exhausting and refreshing. Normally when I would have a shitty day I would go to the bar and get at least a decent buzz and sometimes even just when having a good day. I have been drinking pretty consistently since I was about 16 I'm now 25 and finally realizing that it was not a healthy way for me to deal with my problems and I feel some kind of proud of myself even if no one else can see it. It has taken a lot for me not to just turn right back to the bottle whenever i have a shitty day at work or a shitty mental health day or when I'm just bored and I don't know if this post necessarily belongs here but I just felt like I needed to be heard by someone maybe someone can relate to me a little bit or something. Sorry this was sort of just a word vomit but man I really just needed to talk about it I guess. And as for right now I just feel completely exhausted and like I can't do good enough even though I'm trying so hard.