I was hospitalised for suicidal thoughts yesterday. They considered institutionalising me but all  the institutions in the area have long waiting lists so they sent me home. I’ll be going to therapy more often and possibly getting on medication. I was told  for the time being to talk to friends and find support. But the thing is I don’t have any friends to talk to. I wish I had friends but I don’t even know how to make any. Why would anyone want to be friends with me anyways.