So, life has been railing me pretty hard lately and I've finished DBT and seem to have fallen off the wagon with all my skills and everything. 

This weekend I decided to make a giant diary card/mood tracker (DBT people will be more familiar with this) out of an old whiteboard. Just so I can try and identify triggers and give myself a pat on the back when I am doing well. 

A big part of my BPD is the whole object/person/emotion impermanence. When I'm low, I cannot remember a single good thing or a time I felt happy (kind of weird because it feels like it's the only time I live in the present)... so, similar to a gratitude journal, I made myself an envelope to put notes and reminders of small every day things that made me smile, to pull out and read when I'm in distress. Like, yesterday a lady complimented me on my hot dog shirt. I had a pleasant chat with a stranger in an art class, I snuggled a dog... you get the drift, small things that seem so normal to people without mental health troubles, but seem like major victories to someone like myself. 

Anyway, I did a pretty little doodle on it, so I wanted to show off, and also encourage everyone to count every little small victory, and write them down if you can, it really helps for those times you feel like you can't do anything right.

Peace. X

http://imgur.com/a/scnYw

(man, linking images is a pain on the iPhone)