Im F(25) who is convinced I’ll die alone. I keep going for toxic men who only use me and don’t genuinely care about me and only want me for their comfort. They are emotionally unavailable or like someone else but string me along. And honestly as self aware as I am with the situation, I think that’s as much as I deserve. But then I always dream about having a family and wanting to grow with a partner and being in love and having a stable relationship. Healthy men scare me and I have nothing in common with them. I remember going on a date with a healthy guy and it was just so awkward and he didn’t want to see me again. I’m not really that negative, I have lots of trauma and depression and all but I don’t know I try to be aware of how much negativity I project. 

Any advice will help