I  constantly find myself thinking how easy it would be for me to go down  the slippery path of substance abuse. Some negative self-soothing habits  I have been prone to in the past is alcohol, weed, sex, and binge  eating.

I've been mostly good at  not engaging in most of these for the past year or so (since I moved in  with my partner). I feel bad for having a part of me wanting to give up  on everything and die or even just go down the route of drugs. This is a  mostly constant feeling and not sudden brought on my impulsiveness -  hence why I have decided to start antidepressants after nearly 4 years  of  psychotherapy.

Can anyone else relate? I feel so crazy sometimes.