im F18, and i’ve been dealing with depression and mental health for years and years now. I didn’t even get to enjoy so many things in life because im just so broken. I feel like i’m doomed as long as i’m here unless i break the cycle myself and just end everything because i can clearly see nothing ever ever getting better… i feel like it’s too late and that im going to never truly smile and mean it, i feel like i’ll never see life the way i saw it once when i wasn’t this depressed. i feel like all the help in the world wouldn’t help me. i’ve been to so much therapy, i’ve had so many medications which none of them have managed my symptom instead just made me feel even more empty. i’ve been to inpatient which was horrible and me and made me scared of asking for help ever again. i’m just done. i’m so tired, i feel like i’m so weak and there’s no point in fighting this battle against myself anymore.