Basically what the title says. I've been in a dark place for a long while now and today was a complete spiral. I ended up calling the psych ward and asked to get committed basically because I want to kill myself. After extensive questioning and hours of waiting, I've started questioning myself. I feel like they don't believe that I am sick enough to be here. I feel embarrassed AF and stupid and I feel like I made an unnecessary issue for everyone and I am so mad at myself. They're keeping me for the night and then reevaluating in the morning. On one hand I really regret calling and just want to go home, but I'm so ashamed of making such a fuss that I feel like I need to be here at least a couple of days to not look like an overdramatic, attention seeking wh*re to both the doctors/nurses and my boyfriend/roommate/parents.