my mom and her boyfriend just sat at the kitchen table crying asking me to say something to them but i couldn’t. i can’t say anything. i don’t feel anything. i hate them and i don’t know why. i can’t even look at them. i don’t want to live anymore.

i don’t want a job. i don’t want to finish my GED or go back to school. i don’t want to meet people or live with other people but i certainly don’t want to live alone. i don’t want to be a part of society but can’t leave it either.

it feels like my only option is ending it but i can’t even push myself to do that.