this years been hard for me. i’ve lost things i care about. i’ve grown to loathe myself, and the things around me. the only thing that kept me going was my
girlfriend, whom i loved with all my heart. i loved her. but…it couldn’t last. everything is fleeting: happiness, life, sadness, my own relationship. she got distant the last few months, and i never even knew…but she’d cheated on me. a whole separate life almost. a full month with some guy, parading him off to her family as her new boyfriend. while i’m not even there. forgotten. i didn’t find out until today. her cousin, really. i feel empty without her. lost. my world, the light that shone it, is gone. she was the only thing that acted as a barrier in my mind to self-harm….now i don’t know what to do. i was hoping some
people here could relate, and maybe help. i feel so broken and empty, like a hollow
fool. i should have seen it…but i was too enamoured. too infatuated to see the obvious. and now the curtain falls, and i’m alone once more. happy 2022 kids.