**tldr** *I have a 30 day Lexapro prescription, but my follow up doctors appointment is in 36 days. Should I wait until I'm about 28 days away to start? I'm also terrified to start it, then stop it between the days of finishing the dose and seeing my doctor to refill.*

I've (29/f) )had anxiety my entire life. I remember distinctly being in kindergarten, having the classroom phone ring, and immediately preparing for horrific news about my family or something. When the teacher would hang up, I'd just kind of be like oh.. okay.. we're fine, and go on with my day. A little older, I was always the kid who was scared to get up and sharpen my pencil in class, cough or sneeze or even ask to go to the bathroom. I went through an extremely difficult time in my late teens where my group of lifelong best friends cut me out of their lives.

Up until now, I've been SO great at recognizing a bout of anxiety and talking/breathing myself through/out of it. Until May when I spent almost a week unable to leave my house.

Since then, I've been almost constantly anxious, but now with physical manifestations like nausea and diarrhea. I decided to finally accept that this is truly an issue and if I don't work on it now, I will only ever get worse.

Today I got prescribed a daily 10mg dose of Lexapro. I hate taking medication, and am scared the dosage may be too high. I truly do not feel that I am affected by depression, either - really just anxiety. I'm scared that it's going to make me depressed or give me more anxiety, or just absolutely fuck with me and I'll feel crazy.

I have a 30 day prescription, but my follow up doctors appointment is in 36 days. Should I wait until I'm about 28 days away to start? I'm also terrified to start it, then stop it between the days of finishing the dose and seeing my doctor to refill.