I know that I look and act a fool when I've been drinking. And I've really been trying to drink less to avoid the shame and embarrassment that inevitably follows any drinking binge. Tonight I went to a concert with my husband and 14 yo son. I was going to have a max of 2 drinks so that I could stay in control of myself in public and in front of my kid. But my husband kept bringing me drinks, and I knew they were expensive at this venue so I kept drinking them until I was completely out of control. It's now been some hours later, middle of the night, and I feel humiliated thinking of my drunken behavior this evening. It's so awful. I do not know how to keep this from happening. Once I've had one drink it's so hard to stop.