Hello, I am a 25-year-old male finishing my last year of grad school. Since I was 18 and out of high school (and since I became cognisant) I have just always felt empty. I tried going to therapy but that has not worked for me. I have continued to go to therapy, see different therapists and counselors, seen various psychiatrists and taken various medications and antidepressants (16 in total), have recently started Electro Convulsive Therapy, and have even lost nearly 200 pounds. I'd say I am a pretty social person and I don't have any trauma or childhood issues, but still, through all of this I do not feel anything at all and I am very worried. There are several days where I just cannot get out of my own head and I just sit in a chair for the entire day watching YouTube. As I said, none of the medications or therapy have helped at all, but the ECT has definitely made me more social and more of a better person to be around, but still I just do not feel anything at all. 

 Any advice at all would be greatly appreciated.