I’m bipolar and most people would never suspect it because I’m well managed on my medication and I am doing pretty good right now. However I’ll be listening to youtube videos, tiktoks, or see posts in support groups I’m in where people rationalize the horrible actions of abusers by saying they’re bipolar. And it really hurts me, deep down inside. My own dad was intensely abusive and bipolar as well, and it makes me feel sometimes like even though I’m good right now, I’m destined to wind up a piece of shit. As much awareness of mental illness as people have I’m constantly seeing people refer to bipolar individuals as dangerous, hateful, and violent in a way I seldom see other mental illnesses portrayed. 
It makes me worry that people who I disclose my illness to will think I’m a bad person or something. I’m so tired of this.