I lost my faith not long ago and ever since then my whole worldview has crumbled and everything seems so cold and violent. The main thing that has really hit me like a ton of bricks is the idea that animals ruthless and cruely kill each other in the wild. I know they have to to survive but imagine the killing from the prey's perspective. I cant even imagine how horrific the experience is. I mean like imagine watching your parent brutally destroyed in front of you before the fang-filled monster moves in and tears you limb from limb while you are still alive being as slow and pain-filled as they want because they can. This is all very dark and even though I probablly will never be mauled to death by an animal the fact this stuff happen leaves me feeling a way I cant even put to words. On top of all this I really dont think there could possibly be an afterlife or reincarnation for any of these innocent creatures. Or maybe there is and it is awful, nature is cruel to these creatures so there is no reason to think an afterlife couldnt be the same or worse. Is the entire point of these creatures existance to fight as hard as possible before being enevitably eviscerated and not only their bodys but as well as their very consciousness or soul or whatever being destroyed as well? Sorry but this makes me feel awful and Idk what to think of any of this. Hell, some animals kill for fun like orcas. They beat seals to death and regularly drown whale calfs and keep the mother away while they do it. How can anyone possibly deal with any of this information. Please someone talk to me about this.