I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder a couple years ago and things have significantly gotten better. However, I still get this terrible feeling where I cringe whenever I think about my failures or ruminate on bad memories. It may be just that, a cringe, but sometimes it'd make me want to literally curl up into a ball or punch a hole in the wall lol. I don't really know anyone with depression, or I hope I don't so I'm wondering whether or not this sensation is common. Moreover, I thought depression is just that seemingly everlasting feeling of hopelessness. Maybe this has more to do with anxiety?

The best way I could describe the sensation is that it's like a cringe, but it feels like my soul is literally being shaken from my body and then returns quickly after. In other words, I could be sitting completely still but if feels like my consciousness/mind is separating from my body. Also, sometimes my heart would sting intensely. At my worst, I felt like a depressed zombie that would get electrocuted every so often.

Interestingly enough, I think this sensation is what caused my depression because it probably made me miserable from constantly feeling it. However, whenever I'm not depressed or anxious the frequency and intensity of the sensation is less. 

Does anyone else experience anything similar? Is there a name for it?

Many thanks.