Who else gets palpitations before the panic attack starts or during the panic attack? Or when talking to someone while you’re super worn out and you can feel your heart stop, then thud again, then stop again and thud again. I hate it. Makes my panic attacks worse - especially when you think you’re gonna die. Then in the midst of this all that, the manic feeling kicks in, the tension feels so tight and you can’t seem grip reality anymore and you’re ready to get locked up in the ward because that manic feeling feels way to strong. I don’t know, I had a bad day after having a tense conversation with someone. It’s all calmed down now, but fuck I hate it. I’m sick of feeling like my heart is gonna POP. New Zealand’s mental health system is trash. 

If you can relate, leave a comment, makes me feel better.