I’m so frustrated by being able to rationally tell myself that I’m overreacting and that the way I feel is because of my disorder and then stiiiiiill freaking and having the stupid feelings. Why can’t I just listen to myself? 

My bf is going to watch some fights with his friends and literallyy no other females are going to be there at all so I know I’d feel awkward being the only girl and they would too and it would be all around a bad idea and I’m still shaking and about to cry about the fact that I’m not going. Why am I like this? 

I hate hate hate feeling like this.