I’m male 35+ and I’m having a hard time snapping out of this thing. 

Just exhausted to be in this constant agony. I do experience and see the joys in life but I feel completely inadequate. 

Being single for 7 years and having no luck finding a partner compounds on my current state. I have lived a much more active lifestyle this year that had kept me afloat over the summer. 

I’ve had to cut ties to a very close friend, whom I’ve known for 5 years and had developed an intimate connection between us. We decided to end our friendship because we wanted more than that but distance was hard too overcome. 

Many of my holidays are shared alone. Or intimately alone… I do have friends and family, but loneliness looms over me. 

I understand that I have to love myself and find ways to enjoy my own company. When I’m on my own, with my thoughts, I think of other people out there who are spending their time with a significant other. 

It does sound petty to write. I am my own company, and I need to treat myself with respect and dignity. It seems so simple enough but if that were true, depression wouldn’t be so prevalent in our world. 

Thanks for reading.