i have such a good little group of friends and yet i’ve felt the worst i’ve ever felt? idk if it’s expectations and fear — when i don’t have close friends i don’t worry about being abandoned by them or anything but like i’ve started doing some bad habits again like even worse than before. i got blood on my favorite jeans because i couldn’t clean up in time before my roommate came in and had to throw everything into a drawer. i know it’s bad but i don’t know why just i love having these friends but i’m literally declining?? i want to keep these friends so idk what’s wrong 😭 does anyone else understand