I often feel like people think I'm way more happy, outgoing, and casual than I really am. They also think I'm gay just because my voice isn't super deep or full of that cliche masculine certainty when I talk. I have this feeling that people think I'm generally well off and come off as well adjusted when I'm really not.

Just the way that people respond to me is odd. My neighbor's friend (who I don't even know) knocked on my door today at 2pm (while I was sleeping) wanting to do a jam session and record music, because I have a computer and a MIDI keyboard. I didn't have the heart to say what I was really feeling:

* I'm sleeping at 2pm on a Tuesday. Who else besides somebody who doesn't want to be here anymore does that?
* I have to troubleshoot something again that I've been working on for a month and I am really dreading it. If this goes south, then my self image goes down the toilet too. I know it's not logical but it's how I feel and you woudln't understand
* I feel asocial as hell. I don't want to talk to you or anybody else. I want to be left alone.
* I understand you want to have fun but I am not in a mood at all conducive to this. I'm not ready to be ON right now. I don't even know you!
* Everybody seems to think I'm some kind of musician or waaaaaaaaaaaaay more skilled than I am when in reality but I just bought some stuff a long time ago because I have audiophile tendencies and was pipe dreaming a while ago. But in reality, I'm like a child. I picked up something new without the discipline to get better. I can do basic things but I can't produce."
* And finally, looking at you, I don't even feel like I relate to you and that makes me mildly uncomfortable

Maybe I'm overthinking all of this as one of my friends would say, but I really find my interactions with people at odds with how I feel or know who I am as a person. Going back, why would somebody approach me like that this afternoon if they knew all that I just said?

I marked this as input, but I'm not sure if it's input or really just venting. I love getting any kinds of answers (input) or perspectives back TBH.