I'll try to explain my situation as short possible. I'm perfectly aware of the fact, that I am in deep depression - and I don't wan to be here. I do know the tools how to get out of it (exercise, meeting people, sunshine, healthy eating, no alc abuse, more sleep etc.) - probed, done. I do manage to keep that up for a few weeks in a time and I feel great when doing so, but then emptiness hits me (again). And I am back to 0. Yes, I tried therapy (with multiple psychiatrists) - they all kept repeating the same thing: wow, you are SO aware of where all of this is coming from and you are SO perfectly aware of the fact what you need to change. Keep that going. (lol). Changed/tried meds, too. They don't really help me - except for making me completely numb. I am much better off when I have those times/weeks when I decide (and successfully) force myself to change shit. Any similar experiences out there? Tipps?