Anyone else feel this a lot? I'm finally in a good relationship, I'm pursuing my passions, and I haven't experienced much stress for the past two months or so. As a result, I've been basically symptom free for those 2 months--no SH, few intrusive thoughts, no crushing depressive episodes.

But...now I'm starting to romanticize the bad parts. Even though everything I have now feels so good. A friend texted me that one of his friend's from inpatient the other day committed suicide and I was instantly triggered, like I'm missing some beautiful tragic drama. I saw a woman with bipolar disorder in a tv show do coke and it made me want to break down and destroy everything I have. I looked at my body and wanted to see black blood trickle down...

Anyone have tips to stop this? I'm spiralling but I just want to hold on to all the good. Because right now, I have everything. And I don't want to lose it. But I can't help feeling like I'm about to...