I love my bike. I love biking, but my anxiety is completely ruining it.

I have had my bike for almost 2 months, and have ridden it 3-4 times a week since. Almost every single of those times I quit early because I start feeling extremely anxious because of something I did.


For example, today I was riding it on the right side of the road and came up to a parked car. There was a car coming down the other lane so I was struggling trying to decide whether to go in between the parked car and the car coming down the road, or just waiting. I decided to just wait for it to pass. When I was finally went my brain starts wondering "what if I hit the parked car with my tire or something and now I commited a crime by riding away, or what if I was too close to the other lane and almost caused the person driving to crash. Things like that. The other day I rode around someone in the road and start panicking thinking "what if I almost hit them, or what if I clipped them without realizing". 

It fills me with so much anxiety and I just quit riding and spend the entire day thinking about it. I'm like 90 percent sure that stuff hasn't happened, but that ten percent uncertainty is eating at me constantly. Its like this every single time I ride.

I am so tired of feeling like this. Why cant I just enjoy something? Its at the point where I am honestly considering quitting riding my bike and I hate that. I wanted a bike for so long and finally got one, and now I cant even ride it without my anxiety ruining it.