I don't rlly post here but i'm like so done with everything that's happened recently.

I'm 16 and got professionally diagnosed with BPD at 14 after a long long process. Since then i've had countless therapists, all which have not worked. I got a new therapist and we had our first meeting and within 4 minutes of the call she said she couldnt work with me and HUNG UP on me??! It's so defeating because all of these therapists are either uneducated about BPD or have rlly bad opinions on it. I had to go tell my mom she hung up on me and she had to call their office. It's so hard to keep working with therapists when stuff like this happens. I'm only 16 and this is so tiring i hate it, does it get better? does it get easier? i'm on 5 different medications right now , i dont know why they have me on so many or why theyre mixing them all. Im on lexapro, lamictal, lithium, mirtazapine, and zoloft. These medications are not working, i still feel the same. They just make me sick and feel like a brain dead zombie. I am so sick of everything revolving around my BPD, i have no friends and i can't talk to anyone about anything,