I've felt this way for years now. Whether or not I'm 'doing well', whether or not I'm 'doing poorly', none of it feels real. I always feel like I'm just drifting, like I'm controlling a puppet. When I'm alone I feel it most, this emptiness. I got a girlfriend, I got my fitness in order, I socialised, I started working hard in school and doing well; and none of it helped. I still feel empty, my emotions still feel hollow, I still feel this damp nothingness gnawing away at me, and I don't know what to do anymore.