Since I got my diagnosis and realized I really do identify with the symptoms of BPD, I've been especially conscious about how what I say could effect people. When I've opened up about my problems in the past, I ended up hurting my friends' feelings or even inducing a panic attack. 

I imagine it'd be distressing to hear about the kind of thoughts I've been having and how I've been feeling lately. The last thing I want to do is hurt the people I care about. I couldn't and I can't forgive myself for that.

I've pretty much dissolved the only support system I had because of this fear. Basically, I'd rather watch myself drown than risk dragging someone else down with me.

Does anyone else have this problem?