I "graduated" college in December 2017. I never got my diploma because I owed $3,000 and I couldn't even make myself look at it. I was so panicked and didnt know what to do and couldn't afford to pay the bill. I told all my friends and family I had graduated and went on for 8 months pretending it didn't exist. I was too terrified to ask my family for help, coming from an emotionally abusive backgroun. So I just let it go unresolved  while I worked seasonally in environmental education. Finally  when visiting home I saw a  notice it had gone to collections adding nearly $2000 on it combined with late fees. I've been paying in installments since then  and I'll be done next month and can finally apply for graduation. 

 But this is just an example of how my BPD causes me to waste ridiculous amounts of money, and make  life altering mistakes. I also stop renewing my prescriptions for months at a time in periods of depression, and avoid everything that I'm anxious about, until I convince myself it doesn't exist. I feel so overwhelmed and dont know what to do and am too ashamed to go to anyone for help. 

Does anyone else struggle with this? Fixing their mistakes and playing catch up when they are well, and avoiding everything when you're unwell.