I want to enjoy summer, i want to go and see the waves of the sea. 
I want a vacation but I’m not going to have one. 
My anxiety is getting worse with the period of the exams becoming closer. I can’t do this anymore. I just want to enjoy myself like my friends. I can’t do this anymore. I just feel that I’m not enough all the time. Everything seems impossible. Every exam worse than the one before. I see everyone doing fine without problems. It’s just me behind. Everything is too much. 
I can’t do this. I want to rest. I want to go to the sea like my friends, instead i have to take a lot of exams and anxiety is making everything more difficult that it already is. 
I feel that i can’t continue living in this way and maybe university it’s not for me.

Sorry I know it’s messy but I needed to get this out