It pains me so much to deal with my depression to the extent that I do but I can’t talk about it with my parents cuz they’re powerless to help me and they don’t understand what I need. I lie to them every time I talk to them about how I’m doing cuz telling them the truth would just ruin their day and they’re unable to do anything from across the country where they’re at. I can barely make any friends as it is to talk to about this so I wish I could talk to them about what I deal with but I can’t.