We had a short work trip/vacay together and had a great, fun time. I hadnt seen her in so long and was really looking forward to this. We caught up and talked about everything from deep to shallow, including some serious mental health struggles I was having that she related to. Then, at dinner, she asked if I "Really needed my meds", or something along those lines, and I blew up. I just went off, straight nuclear. I was vitriolic and mean. The words left my mouth before my brain could even process it. She was there for me, but as soon as I calmed down, she had an anxiety attack :(

We talked it out, last night, and this morning, and I know I need to just give her space and time. But when she left for the airport this morning, all I could think was that this could be it for our friendship. That hug could be our last. And it wrecked me. My mind won't stop replaying it over and over. 

Just looking for support.