So my gf says she loves me and everything but i can’t but think it’s a facade to make me not feel bad, she’s been hanging out with friends as of recent and i don’t have an issue with that but the part that gets me is the ridiculous amount of time she spends with them, it’ll go to literally till 3am and she’ll call like she didn’t just leave me the whole day, she’ll even do it on her days off and i’ve talked to her about it but she insists on getting upset and idk if it’s my poor choice of words or something but i tell her that it’s okay i just want more time together then just only 30mins at a time for each day. even her days off she’ll wait till 3am or 2am to even care enough to call me. i love her to death that it’s been hurting my ability to think,sleep,eat etc to a large extent. i’ve had instances where i’ve hurt myself due to my inability to control my anger and frustration at not feeling the love that i put out being received and reciprocated back to me. all i want to do is see her for just some more time or at least set days where we can talk more then just an hour or less. she’s told me to be grateful that she talks to me at all which ofc i am but that can’t possibly be normal to not talk to your SO for days straight and only communication you have is 30mins of barley talking. I just feel like i’m not as important to her anymore and i feel annoying to her and it’s been making me want to just go away and never comeback and never open my heart up again, i’ve poured in so much and it’s hurting that only on some days it’ll be taken well or not at all on other days. i’m trying to think logically and realistically about it but my whole perception is being warped cause my love for her is clouding my vision on the whole thing, i even spoke to my mom about it and she said it seems like i’m miserable cause i’m caring so much. i get that i might’ve said i love you a lot but there’s no real reason that she’s being so cold to me. i’ve tried all i could to make the relationship a good one but if the spark supposedly is “dying” for her but i love her just as much as the day i met her. it’s not fair and i don’t wanna leave her i just want her to realize how much pain and suffering i’m in cause i never ask for too much, i ask for the bare minimum