Honestly, how the actual fuck do you all deal with the ups and down? 

I’ve had a milder hypo version for years but I am now properly bipolar 1 and it’s just infuriating. No matter what I am doing, whether I’m up or down or in the middle, im always aware that im teetering on the drink of a big up or a big down and it’s driving me mad. 

For clarity, it’s the constant expectation of impending madness is the problem rather than the ups or the downs.

Please tell me what to do/how to manage/what to take etc.