I’ll admit early: I’m here to vent. If you’re not in a place to here that right now, I’d click away. 

In the last week, my relatively new and previously better life has crumbled around me. I moved to a new city for law school to restart because I had a rough time in my hometown. I didn’t have friends, my romantic prospects were non-existent, and I had a complicated relationship with my family. 

My first week in the new city was ok. The second week (the previous week), everything fell apart. I asked a random pretty girl out and for her number, only to have her give it to me and then promptly cancel the date the night before. Due to circumstances beyond my control, the family drama has gotten worse. I have friends now thankfully, but I really am having to hide all this sudden angst and darkness. Add on all the overwhelming tension and anxiety of law school 

It’s never hit me this hard before. The city was supposed to be a new start for me, but I feel like life is just trying to pull me back. I’ve gone from starting to thrive to barely holding myself together. I’m over-caffeinated, sleep-deprived, and full of confusion and turmoil. The only reason I keep going is because I can’t successfully end it. This sucks.