I’ve always had problems but I was able to contain it in, but I had a recent psychotic and depressive episode which caused me to take a year break from university, I am now staying at home.

I promised that I would find a job, I haven’t been trying and I hate myself for it, I’m trying to get over that hurdle but I just don’t have energy at all. I’ve told my parents about my condition but they still insult me and call me names behind my back, narcissistic cunts. It’s making it worse. I can feel my family changing for the worse and my Dad is getting more erratic behaviourally, it makes me really angry and uncomfortable.

My mother doesn’t love me, she is completely cold and I hate her.