I ofc get out of bed daily but still sleep at least 10 hrs a day. Even then aside from that I may lie in bed for several hours before getting up - watching my choirs, aspirations and opportunities for the day, tick-by. I'm doing the laundry.. Working on a few projects, kinda... I grind my teeth constantly now. But I shower, dress, etc. 

I used to be very into rock climbing but I dont see any point in it anymore it just seems.. silly? I'm just trying to give some context, but I struggle with eating.
Some days, I may nibble something in the morning. In general, I have about one, probably oversized, meal a day. Even then, I haven't cooked in ages, resorting to take-out. And when I have food in front of me it can be stared at for hours, often until I take my nightly meds which make me rather ravenous 🙈 (mirtazepine, not that I think it's relevant). I'm grinding my teeth more these days and waking up from horrible sweaty nightmares. 

With regards to the project I'm working on. I've worked myself into debilitating pain/strain. And since 21st May I haven't rested for more than a day. Waking up in the evenings is also an issue, as I have to wait until morning before I can work. Nothing about this is "working correctly"... I've been trying for a good couple years now to get better at sleep and wake, but I fall into days where I just go back to sleep in hopes of a better tomorrow. Other days, I may stay up, either until absolute shivering exhaustion, or take my meds to help fall asleep. It's an antidepressant, being used off-brand, so I can't exactly stop it. But I kind of need as well?... like, either way I'm not coping.

If anyone has advice, regarding eating. I dont like it feeling like a choir. I just feel this pit of dredge inside of me when it comes to eating.

Hope this isn't violating any community guidelines. Really didn't even want to ask the question in physicality... but I've "wanted to" twice now, so... I hope I asked it correctly?

Thanks, keep well.