I’m in a completely new relationship. Happy. But i still feel off. Now i know, i brought this upon myself, as my actions caused this. Backstory - i cheated twice. I knew what i was doing. I asked and asked and asked for more love. More affection. More attention. Never received. I took it into my own hands to feel wanted. Since that time, I’ve felt guilt. I’ve been trying to justify my actions, to myself (to my conscious). I’ve been riddled with anxiety and guilt, forcing me to not act like myself and the person i am. I recently realized, 2 days ago, that this is the root cause of my problems. SIX YEARS LATER. I’m ready to move on. I’m ready to understand mistakes are necessary for growth. I’m ready to be truthful with myself as I’ve kept this bottled up for so long. And it feels damn good to pinpoint the source. I want to talk about it with my people. But that will come in time. I made a huge step and I’m excited. Talk to me, please. Honest opinions