Fuck all of this shit. I'm really annoyed. I'm really fuckin frustrated. I never talk about when I'm angry or upset so fuck all of this just keeps on building up. Can't spit it out either. Every time I have the chance to talk about it, whatever the fuck it is. I can't fuckin vent. Not even letting everything out on here, cause I'm afraid of being judged for it. Everything is just fuckin annoying at this point. I'm trying to get where I wanna go and people keep on telling me all kinds of shit along the way and a lot of the time I don't even know what to listen to. It's all so aggravating. I've learned so much, but people don't see me any different than I was before; keep on comparing me to how I used to act or things I used to do. I just keep on fuckin going, and try not to give a fuck. Force myself to focus and just keep going. There's so much I wanna do and so much I wanna work on, and I'm trying to make it work and move it along. I know what I wanna do, and I'm in the process of making it happen. I honestly thought family would have the same interests as me and thought that shit would work out with me following the path they want me to. I was wrong, and it sounds kind of moronic like oh you actually thought people would care about what you wanna do?? yeah, i did i'm an idiot, what a wake up call.