everything scares me now. i used to be able to function and was quite independent but now i just cant do anything. i hide in room and im afraid of leaving it. i can barely do my homework. i probably can do it if i really wanted to but im sick of getting anxiety headaches whenever i try to do it. same with everything else. i dont do my chores because they give me anxiety headaches and basically my mom has to do it all. i just freeze up whenever i realize oh shit i have to do this and then i worry and make up a plan how to do it and i never get around to doing it which isnt a very good excuse. i want to be independent again but in the same time i dont really want to? everything just feels so easy just hiding away and pretending i don't exist and hoping one day ill explode from the guilt and anxiety and no one will ever have to deal with me again. but i know the better thing to trying become a functioning human being again. sorry this is big rambling mess.