I phoned up the doctors today because i’ve been believing people i barely know or have never met are all scheming to hurt me and want me to kill myself. it’s over tiny things like somebody didn’t look at me, or they did look at me but weird and from that i think they hate me and want me to kill myself and i’ve ruined friendships and blocked close friends and even strangers because i believed this. I phoned the doctor and she told me it was normal and to stop googling things and made the phone call really awkward leaving silences in between everything like she was looking down on me and now i’m convinced she wants me to kill myself too. i don’t know what is going on with me and nobody will help me.