I hate having BPD last night my husband and I got into a fight which he picked with me about my boob not being completed covered up for a OF pictures from last Xmas which I got on trouble for last year well I'm autistic I got over stemmed so I started hitting myself in which his response was want help  I said no he kept picking at me  which all ended up with me having a loaded shot gun waved in my face and a broken nose  it's now almost 4 and I'm drinking energy drinks cuz I'm scared to got to sleep tonight idk what to do I hope things work out I don't wanna lose him I love him but if this is gonna work out it's gonna take alot for me to trust him again