I’ve been overthinking this situation for literal weeks and I hate myself for it cause I know it doesn’t matter in the slightest but I have been constantly thinking about what I could’ve done/said differently.

Basically I was alone in quick play just messing around with a character that I liked and someone on the other team was apparently so offended by me playing said character and called me out for it. I just don’t understand why it mattered. I tried to respond and told them to maybe go to competitive if they wanted to play with people who really cared about the game/winning constantly but they were mad at them too for whatever reason so I have no clue what this guy was on. To make matters worse someone on my own team acted as a third party and tried to call me out too. I told them they were playing a video game of all things and just said gg and left. 

It was annoying and my blood felt super cold and I was lightheaded. Terrible feeling combined with the reeling anxiety from it.

I’m kinda ashamed that such a small ordeal is effecting me this much and I keep telling myself that I don’t care but my brain keeps going back to it. That instance just added another intrusive thought to the list that plagues my mind constantly which sucks.