I have 0 energy. I hate my retail job and since having a bit if a breakdown at work, I feel even more isolated from my coworkers. 
I feel so disillusioned with life. I worked my ass off for 5 months, was told they would talk to me about a potential promotion only to be told later that they can't promote someone with my job title.
I was bullied for calling out sick. After my breakdown I've gotten 0 apology. I feel like I'm such an emotionally exhausting person no one wants to be around me. 
I can't even talk to my family because they're all going through their own stresses/problems right now and I dont want them to worry about me. My parents also tend to be very controlling and unsympathetic. 
I've fallen into bad coping habits; drinking A LOT, shopping online, binge eating. I just want to stay in bed and sleep. I've stopped taking meds because I feel they've done nothing for me. I'm in full self sabotage mode and can't see a way out.