20 M. Ive been in the military, and because of incidents in my experience ive attempted to commit suicide. Now that im out, i am better, but that same feeling of depression lingers. 

I dont think i have a chemical imbalance or anything, but i constantly think about the world and how shitty it is. How absolutely disgusting the world works. Everything from corporate entities doing the bare minimum for their workers, and doing anything to make an extra dime, to how shitty we treat each other on a daily basis. 

I DO understand that there are good things about living. Relationships, good music, the little things, etc. But constantly thinking about the shitty things makes me not want to be a part of this world anymore. 

I live every day, doing different things, along with my routine, and i still just feel like i will come to an end sooner than later. Not like i think everything would be better without me, but more like i dont want to go through experiencing the constant depressing reality of the world we live in. 

How do i keep going, in a world where everything is so dark and vile?