To start this off I am 21m and recently lost the only thing I had in life too keep me going. I have 2 kids (3yo &amp; 3mo) and the mother and I were together for 5 years until 3 days before Christmas when she told me to leave. There is only 4 members of my family not including me and none of them talk to me or want me apart of their lives so my kids and ex was everything I had. I was somewhat recently diagnosed with “bipolar” as all the anti depressants etc they tried getting me to take always had an opposite effect and bipolar disorder apparently makes uppers downers and downers uppers and the constant mood swings it’s just all a lot. I also don’t have many friends the 1 person I had vanishes until they need me so I always feel so alone and it breaks me. I’m not exactly suicidal but when I’m driving or am working at heights I have to close my eyes and hold on sometimes because I feel myself steering towards the rail or leaning off the ledge and it’s not even intentional. Anyways I don’t want any you’ll get through this or motivation speeches I just want a friend or someone to talk to just to feel like I’m not fucking everything around me over and over. I don’t know what this post will change, but someone please help me.