My significant other has not shied away from giving me details about ex-lovers/people he’s been attracted to. This is something that I told him upset me at the time, and he has refrained from doing it since then. However, I have not been able to let go…

Nowadays I feel anger about certain people. For example, he told me he’d had a crush on a certain singer and lately I’ve been SEETHING whenever I see her or see her name mentioned (if you’re on r/popheads and mention **** **** I WILL block you /hj). This is someone that I didn’t hate before, but I sure as hell do now. I am especially jealous because this celebrity, while beautiful, has some unconventional features. People have always told me that I’m ugly because my nose is big and because my face isn’t conventionally attractive. I bet my SO thinks I’m ugly too and thinks my nose is too big. 

The details that he has given me about his ex lovers also make me hate people with similar traits. I get so angry when I see someone who’s similar to any of them. 

The anger is just so visceral. It’s a rage I’ve never experienced. Honestly, it scares me a lot. I’m not really sure what I should do about it. I’d rather be angry than suppress my emotions. I like being angry about this because I want people to feel bad for hurting me. But on the other hand, I feel like it’s not that deep? Idk anymore haha