I’ve tried talking with a couple trusted individuals about this, but none of them have bipolar and I don’t think they can really understand

For a multitude of reasons I don’t want to get into, I’m in love with someone and I need to figure out how to fall out of love with them. But my emotions run deeply, and I so rarely feel deep romantic connections with others though they often feel them with me. And never have I ever not gone from suffocating obsession to icy indifference with a lover, fucked up as it may sound. But this one…god, it changed me. The indifference never comes, no matter what has happened the last few years. For the first time in my life I think I might’ve experienced true, unconditional love. And turns out that, that can goddamn hurt. 

But it’ll never happen between us again, and I have to figure out how to let it go. Maybe it’s dramatic, but I swear it’s killing me. I rot a little more every day, and I just need to know if anyone else has experienced anything similar. I need advice from someone who understands what it is to feel so much you feel like you’re drowning in it. 

Idk if all of that even made sense, but thanks for reading everything regardless ✌🏼