Six years ago I had some really horrible things happen and some of the most distinct and harmful abandonment took place. I relive it everyday. Not on purpose the invasive thoughts just play so vividly in my mind and it’s painful. I can’t use any kind of social media for fear of seeing some of the people who left my life at tht time and it hurts too much to see them or think about it. The thoughts are invasive and nothing I do seems to help distract from it or face it or anything. Almost every night I have nightmares about it. It’s been 6 years and I feel like it’s never gonna end. Does anybody have any ideas on how to deal w it in a healthy way? I’m so sick of reliving traumatic memories in such a graphic way. I’m in therapy but it’s only once a week talk therapy because the resources where I live are so scarce especially for bpd. Thanks for listening.