i basically always have to be addicted to something but it doesn't have to be anything specific, like i can easily quit smoking but then i start binging and i can easily stop binging if i start self harming and i can stop self harming if i start restricting and i can stop restricting if i get high and i can stop getting high if i get a new hobie and then when i eventually get bored the cycle repeats itself. i always have to be addicted to something but nothing in specific, i can't just chill and do my thing, i always have to do something self destructive and excessive. i don't think there is anything that i can ever get permanently addicted to mostly because i keep getting bored with it, even if it's drugs or smt that people usually get very addicted to.