Hi all. Your local 20, turning 21 in a month lump of a man here. After being a chronic liar to pretty much everyone I've known in my life, (including and *ESPECIALLY* to my family), I'm finally at the end of my rope! 

Because I'm a pathetic bastard, I've been playing hookey for since COVID started online college, and doing jackshit at my parents house, floundering and smoking weed with my brother. 

This, combined with an ever present hate for myself, constant anxiety about with other people are saying about me, and cutting off ties with pretty much all my friends made a perfect powder keg that I kept topped up with a little lie every time I opened my mouth.

I'm going to ""graduate"" next year, and at this point, I quite frankly want to end it before the going gets tougher, since running away from my problems is 99% of what I do anyways.