Hey guys,
So here is my situation. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and neurosis three years ago. I had  various issues over time, but now I have this very interesting case. I generally really want to sleep. However, when I’m trying to fall asleep at the very moment, when I’m about to pass out, I suddenly get scared and wake up instantly. as I have observed, this fear comes from anxiety to be unconscious which is super weird for me since I really enjoyed it, be asleep and avoid any kind of thinking these days. So all these things are so contradictory I don’t understand what is going on. I cannot tell, but I’m suffering from particularly strong nightmares, I do have bedrooms, but nothing too scary (since I used to suffer from severe nightmares before and even then I didn’t have any issues with falling asleep). what do you think it might be, I cannot afford to go to the therapist at the moment, and I cannot find much googling either so maybe you can share some of your experience. Thank you.