"Oh, this person is my age and has done so many things! Travelled to other countries, in a long term and apparently happy relationship/is engaged, bought a house..."

I know this isn't exclusively related to people with BPD, but I think I keep feeling like I’m always a step back, even though I’ve achieved a lot more than most of my friends, since my parents also help me financially while I'm in college. However, I keep comparing myself to other people's achievements even if their achievements aren't exactly what I want, but they have this in common: love, happiness, money and independence. 

I come from a country where the currency is devalued. There are many injustices and only those with money know what it is like to have what they want or "enjoy life" (traveling, having all the courses they want, not having to worry too much about future, etc). Sometimes I even compare myself with people from european countries or even USA but I know life is so much easier there and I know it's not right. 

I also know I shouldn't compare to those people and I'm more privileged than many people because I have parents financially supportive (although it's not a lot, they help me with house, food and sometimes clothes), but I get sad anyways. At my age, many people had everything I'm probably gonna have my whole life. 

Still, I feel like I'm in a minefield, because I don't know what I want, and I feel like that's part of the reason I feel this way. But oh well... Just venting.