I'm scared that my anxiety will literally kill me. I've been struggling more with health anxiety lately because I've now got higher levels of a hormone caused by my anxiety meds.


I sometimes get an increased heartbeat again (about 120bpm. The highest I once had happening was 166bpm during an argument with someone) and since 2 months ago I've been really careful with my daily fat/sugar intake because I'm afraid I'll get a heart attack, **it's so annoying because I don't wanna be scared but my brain will choose to make me scared anyway.**




*Well, now coming to the point of why I made this post: I'm afraid that my anxiety will literally kill me. I'm afraid that once my oldest cat dies, I'll get a heart attack. Well that's one of my biggest worries of what might give me a heart attack. I feel lost and although the chances of me dying at a few months of being away from turning 18, I'm still really scared. I don't have any death wishes. So for the most worst-case scenario, I put a little paper in my phone case saying:* 
^"bury ^me, ^don't ^cremate ^me"

Just wanted to get this off my chest honestly.