I last went when I was 15, two and a half years ago. I was in school, but skipping lessons and managed to go outside so my GP told me it had to be more serious as they're hesitant prescribing medication to children. Now I'm 18 in about 4 months. I've been in college since September 2021 and I have never been able to stay on a course or do my maths GCSE. My attendance is 34 percent. I can barely leave the house, I can't remember the last time I did. I have extreme germaphobia to the point where I can't even touch things in my own home and let other people touch me or my things or enter my room. Recently I haven't been able to leave my room as much. I can't eat, my head is killing me but I'm so scared to go get medication because there's currently people downstairs. It's becoming a problem. I need help, but I'm so scared. I'm scared of being rejected. I'm scared that if I go to the doctor and explain she will think I'm too self aware therefore faking. I don't know. I know alot about how my anxiety and how it affects me. It was the same with my autism diagnosis, because I know everything about how it affects me I was terrified my assessor would think I was faking. I got my ASD diagnosis in July, after three years of assessment. I have been in CBT twice, once for anxiety once for OCD, and it has done nothing for me. I really need to tell a doctor and get something done. I don't know if I'm posting this for tips or to vent, but comment anything I will read it all. I live in England if that's relevant.