One time I dated a manager I worked with. He was married. I worked in Human Resources. He left his wife and then I left him.

One time I was at a work function and didn’t want to stop drinking so when the bar called last call, I started drinking leftover drinks my coworkers hadn’t finished. In front of several VPs and directors I worked with. 

One time a good friend came to visit and I got mad at her. I told her she had no friends because she was a stupid bitch. I told her I hated her. 

One time I had sex with someone but I was mad when he left. So I called someone else and had sex with him. He left so I called a third person and had sex with him too. I didn’t wash in between. 

One time I got drunk with my moms new husbands family. I told them how much I hated them because they were Republicans. I stormed out after my mom got mad and got even more drunk at the airport. I woke up on a bench and vomited all over myself in front of several people. 

One time I got mad at a party because one of my friends had drama going on. I was mad I had ditched my boyfriend for a lame gathering. I made a scene. 

One time I went to another country to visit a friend. I felt like she was being accommodating enough so I stormed out. I didn’t talk to her for an entire year. 

I’m a horrible person who has done horrible things. I can’t get past the things I’ve done and I keep making more mistakes. How can I possibly forgive myself? Am I even capable of recovery? Am I worth it?