I just turned 20f years old this month and I feel like I've achieved nothing in my life so far. I have autism and I still don't know how to count money properly or how to take care of myself like an adult should. I still live with my mom while my brother and sister already live by themselves. I also have bad social anxiety and I've tried to get over my fear of talking to people through online but it just made me feel eve worse about myself from the people I've met. I wish I was smarter like my mom and my siblings and I wish I could do jobs like they do. But for now all I can do is help my mom with the house until she finds me a a program that can help me she says. I don't know what to do about how I feel  I'm sorry if what I said didn't make any sense I'm not that good at expressing how I feel