I'm so tired of feeling like I love and care for everyone so much more than they ever do for me. I try to be a thoughtful, supportive and good friend/whatever. But it's never reciprocated. No matter what I do. I wish I had someone like me in my life. I feel like my 'friends' are fake as fuck and my family is too. The lot of them are just a bunch of selfish fucking assholes. What the fuck is the point if you always end up being a third wheel or not even a thought in anyone's head. Fuck everyone. It's not fucking worth it. At least if I'm alone I can't keep getting let down and hurt.
Fuck everybody. I thought if I tried again to have friends and a social circle as an adult it would have better results but no, of course not. I'll ALWAYS be giving more than I'll EVER get from anyone and it makes me hate people as a whole. Fuck people.