Hello everyone, i am just wondering if anybody has any thoughts on my issue. I obsess over beautiful, smart you know godess-like female lecturers (i am female as well) or other 40-50smth old women. The problem with that is that this is deliberating - i want their attention, to make them love me yet it is hurtful bc it is completely innapropriate and unrealistic, super odd. Very hurtful, i literally had to change my studies so that i do not see one particular lecturer, i just couldnt handle the thought of seeing her. The worse part is that they get stuck in my head - i start to see myself from the eyes of theirs, talk with them in my head. They become like God for me.  It seems that i wont outgrow out of it (i am 21). Any thoughts?