I'm 19 and first year student and I'm currently struggling really badly with low grades. I procrastinate and put everything off until the last day and in some cases I even miss the deadline and not do the work if I deem it too hard. I shut down whenever I face something too difficult and avoid doing it. I have a short attention span and can't concentrate on much. Its like I'd rather do anything other than study. I used to get good grades when I was 13-15 when school work was easy and you never really needed to study, but from age 16 to now at 19, things get harder and you actually have to study hard to do well, but I never bothered and learnt how to actually study and be disciplined in anyway. I'm now struggling really bad at uni. I now get anywhere from 0-50% in some exams. For some of my modules I didn't bother turning in essays, and I would probably have to resit. I think I probably (just barely) 3 of the modules out of 6 and the other 3 I failed since I didn't do the assignments well because I couldn't be bothered to study or do anything until the last minute or submit it. For one of the failed modules I submitted it and started working on it the day before it was due, and obviously it was rushed and rubbish/poor quality for uni standard. Here's the bad part. I got an email saying that there was a suspected academic offense and misconduct (I think because of plagiarism) and I now have to have a meeting in just under a week's time and IM ABSOLUTELY terrified. I can't stop thinking about it and the fact that it's several days away makes it worse since I now have these thoughts lingering everyday, and I'm going to be extremely depressed and anxious until then, my heartbeat was extremely fast when I saw the email and I don't want to tell my parents since they would be very upset and disappointed at me. The prof said it was the second time I copied sources (since I failed the first time and did the same thing, even though I tried to reference but I guess I did it incorrectly and fucked up as usual). I'm now so scared and upset since I'm in trouble and I don't want to repeat the year or be kicked out from uni since it's the only option I have rn for a better future for me, but I'm still screwing and fucking my own life up because I don't know how to act right. I feel like a fucking loser all the times, why can't I fucking study like everyone else. Why am I so bad at doing everything. I put off any assignments and just scroll on Reddit/YouTube and other apps. I'm extremely addicted to my phone, especially for the past 2/3 years when I lost my friends and started using my phone more, and I think it's shortened my attention span so much and I put aside my education, especially when it also became more difficult and I just shut down. Even if I put my phone away (which is hard because I need it to study) and just tried to revise, I'd end up just zoning out and imaging different things and scenarios instead of working. I'd even rather do nothing than study, especially since there's so much to study and it's too difficult and overwhelming for me. Sometimes I feel like I can't do this on my own, I need to fix this issue since it's absolutely ruined my life. When I was 16, I did poorly in my important exams, my parents were upset and I told them I'd do better when I do another set of important exams at 18, but not surprisingly, I did even worse at 18 and almost didn't get accepted to uni, they wet very disappointed in me and they told me I actually have to take things seriously, and I said I'd do well, and here I am now at 19, doing even worse now in my exams, still acting the same way, screwing my own life up. I went from being happy and cheerful, to depressed, anxious and a failure (especially when it comes to school). I can't take it anymore, I just want to be better and do well in school, but I don't make the necessary changes anything since I don't know how to. I went to know how to concentrate and study well. I really really need help.