Hey all,

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As someone who has been trying to figure my head out, I first went through various other patch solutions, most recently being 20mg of Cilift a day, added to my 10g of Cannabis that I've had every day for about 2 years to avoid physical confrontations.

Just a touch of advice from personal experience, SSRI's dont work. I went onto a course of them as an attempt to manage Intermittant Explosive Disorder, and found the results fairly odd, although atleast noticeable. It did however eliminate IED as a diagnosis, settled it on BPD with indicators of OCPD and Agoraphobia. So there is that.

I noticed a decrease in agitation (I have many projects that I'm constantly busy with), and I just didn't feel a need to stay busy the whole time, either by excercising, eating, picking at myself (I've torn open my earlobes from constantly scratching them).

I noticed a decrease in high emotion anger. Whilst my goal was to medicate until I cannot explode and go on rants at those around me, all this did was have me be a callous and cold bastard in a friendly and conversational tone

My sleep pattern changed, from me going to bed on schedule after a run to not even considering a bed time, and then also waking up at around 8 or 9, and not my usual 5am. I wasnt more tired, I was just gaurenteed to roll over and go back to bed and not get my butt in gear for the day. Zero desire to actually get up. But very mellow about that fact.

I have always suffered from stomach ulcers and the SSRI completely killed me with them. I mean, I've never known such fire in my guts.

So yes, Whilst a doctor is the person to trust with this, BPD isn't a chemical problem TO MY KNOWELEDGE, and medicating only goes so far.