Today was fine, I worked my 8-4 and came home and had dinner with my family. I then was sitting in my room and I was wondering where I misplaced my airpods. This happens to me every time I lose something, I feel like my life is over. I couldn’t find them anywhere, and when this happens my body feels like its going to explode with anger. I want to destroy everything and tear it apart. I hit myself, calling myself stupid for losing something of so much value. My head is saying things like: “You can never be a wife, you’ll lose the ring” or “You can never have anything nice, you’ll just lose it or break it.” I could not stop crying, I was practically hyperventilating. I can never just give it up, or just realize that everything is replaceable. Can someone offer some advice on this issue? Does this stem from something in the past? How can I control this?