I work in live production. I was assisting at a local festival over the weekend. I unexpectedly quit via text one morning. It was all getting to me. My body physically ached, I was so stressed and anxious, afraid of what else I would have to cope with. Quitting seemed like the best option at the time.

I learn today that there’s paperwork to do for me to get paid.

I feel an overwhelming sense of shame and dread. I am leaning toward just not getting paid because the idea of facing them after all this makes me want to cringe so hard and crawl into a hole.

Obviously that’s irrational. 

I know this isn’t strictly BPD related, but I figured you guys would understand. I don’t know if I’m looking for advice or encouragement or what. Any comments are appreciated though.