I cannot sleep more than two hours a night and I can only fall asleep when exhausted. Every single night I dream of my ex boyfriend cheating on me and abandoning me, because that’s what really happened. It’s so traumatic to live through it every day. I also cannot eat or drink anything so I have lost a lot of weight and feel even sicker. I have multiple panic attacks a day, sometimes losing consciousness. I know he was awful and no matter how hard I try to get him out of my mind, he still lingers there and torments me all the time. My brain keeps coming up with excuses for his hurtful actions and thinking he still loves me. When in fact he was treating me terrible and was with other girls for the last month of the relationship. And has probably already forgotten me and gotten close to the other girl. While I suffer because I really loved him. I don’t know what to do.