I’ve been diagnosed with depression senes I was 17yrs old I’m going on 27 now.After I wake up do my 9 to 5, go to the gym with my buddy I come home and do 5-8 shots and have about 5 beers. I do this to try and numb myself enough to where I can go up to my dresser where I keep my handgun and end my life. I haven’t been successful yet in doing it yet and I think there is a reason for that. I just wanna know that I’m not alone In this and know that other people have over come this issue cause I really need the help.