I've been looking at it lately, and I feel like employment is honestly the source of my issues at this point.

The math of it being, if I'm up at 8am, and intend on being asleep by 12am, so I can get a solid 8 hours of sleep, and I'm not home til 7:30/8, basically 12 of my hours are accounted for. Four hours remain, but about 30/45 minutes of that is getting to bed/sleep. So there's like 3.5 hours remaining. And I should still eat. Which, is either cereal, or something else horrid for me, or I spend 30mn-1hr making something actually good, so I can be left with 2.5 hours remaining, and I'll probs take 10-30 minutes to eat it, depending on what it is. So as little as 2 hours ACTUALLY remain in my day after work.

Of course, I get more time to myself by neglecting myself. Most nights I'll "go to bed" and be doing anything else on my phone than sleeping because I just don't want to teleport back to work by closing my eyes.

Of course, there's 32 hours a week that aren't on working days, but working days are the worst. I may as well be dead. It'd be just as beneficial for me to stand outside in the street for twelve hours with my eyes closed. I'd get just as much value out of it. I'm just throwing my time away.

Though then again, maybe I'd get more out of that. I'm vitamin d deficient, so if I could get some time outside, that would be better, too.