I quit my job, losing my mind again. Did good for about a year. Saved up to get my own place, held a job. I’m financially okay for a few months due to good savings. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m basically just laying in bed all day. Barely can take care of myself. Ready to die. I really hate myself and what I’ve become. I have so much social anxiety that I’m paranoid to leave my house. Only time I feel human is when I use Adderall or kratom. Tired of numbing my pain. I’m burnt out and hopeless. Trying to get in therapy. Any advice? Don’t bother sending a stupid fucking hotline number.