Hi! So I looked at this subreddit and felt like it needed more recent positivity. I had my first therapy appointment today and it was literally life-changing. I let everything out, was completely honest, and faced everything. My therapist diagnosed me with BPD. Everything she was saying was exactly how I felt or behaved. For the first time in my 25 years of living, everything makes sense. I feel seen, I feel heard. All the stress relating to my past trauma, or my current relationship, it just all made sense why I react the way I do. I once was someone who refused to consistently seek help or follow through, but now I am a firm believer of therapy and just talking to someone. I feel as if this is a first solid step towards being healed, or being “normal”. For anyone who is suffering like I am, please seek help. It really works as long as you put the effort in. I know it’s hard to be vulnerable and honest, trust me, it has taken me 25 years to unload things that happened when I was 7. I honestly feel great, and now that I know what is wrong with me, I feel even more confident in myself and feel confident that I can tackle my issues and become healthy! If you’re suffering from BPD like me and many others here, just know three things:

1. You are NOT crazy.
2. You are NOT the negative things you say about yourself. 
3. It is a personality disorder, it is not permanent, you can heal, you can cope, you can conquer.