I’m only 19 and I feel like i’ve fucked my life up already. 

I had a seriously rough family life so friends and school were my top priorities. I did great in school, hung out with friends daily, a complete social butterfly, I wasn’t afraid to speak my mind and go out, and most importantly I loved myself. 

Shit hit the fan about 3 years ago. I got committed for an attempt and was prescribed medication for depression. Turns out I was misdiagnosed [ I’m bipolar ] and the medication they prescribed just turned my brain into mush. I mean I wasn’t even me anymore. Angry, aggressive, sad, and anxious constantly. One or the other or all at once. All.The.Time. I lost everything. I lost my friends because I was so unbearably depressed and angry, my grades plummeted, fights with family almost daily. 

I went to therapy and i’m much better now with my aggression and anger but i’m so lonely and sad still. I can’t find it in myself to get out of bed and go out. I just want to stop punishing myself like this but I’m stuck here.