I just finished staying at my boyfriends house while his family was away for 11 days and ive never felt emptier. Being home and with my mother doesn’t feel the same now, nothing feels right and it’s like I wont be happy until I can be with him all the time. It felt perfect, we argued and he upset me a few times but it still felt right, waking up with him, going out with him, shopping with him and then making dinner and watching TV and everything in between made me feel complete and gave me a weird kind of peace like that’s how life should be and I feel like until I can have that again I won’t be happy and nothing will be okay.

I didn’t like being at home because my family is complicated but now I hate it, I feel empty and miserable and like I’m missing something huge. It’s like my mind is saying going on dates and staying over a few times a week isn’t enough now.

Sorry if this is stupid I just feel so sad and empty.