Most days I can ignore my mental health. I do my best, go some time exercising and eating right... but it returns like cancer. The invasive thoughts you are not like them this is why your alone.
You get to fucked up and push people away. The few people you like will settle for a bit .. but only for a moment. And what's it matter... we will die soon and in the grand scheme of things it's but a very small small moment in time we all have . Our ego only tells us it's important.but we're just a flash in the pan Anyone close will be gone too. But atleast some will feel love with those fleeting moments. But I just live to make my tooth stop hurting or my heart
Stop hurting and pay bills.. I'm dying alone and have done nothing. I would take my life if I atleast acompshid something.but I can't yet,on the small hope. I did something.  I'm not sure what I'm writing but I miss someone being there it's been so long
The one I love I wrapped in another's arms but doomed to the same fate. We're all dying I wish I wads less awkward so I could leave with someone.