I am currently in therapy but I have to pause it again after blocking off. I have problems reaching my emotions and can't really feel my fear which is basically everything.

I am currently still doing everything to keep me alive and try to get through with it but I know if I don't shut off my feelings I won't be able to do that anymore.

I am afraid to go outside, to drive my car, to talk to people, afraid of men, rejection, loneliness, death, doing things wrong, beeing feminine and beeing treated as a woman not a human and that anything could trigger my PTSD. It's like everywhere I go and in everything I do there is fear and I don't know what to do with it.

By now the world is just like a big scary place with scary people and if I admit it to myself I will break down completely.

How are you working with your anxiety? I don't want to keep going I just want to keep getting better.