Im sick of everything about myself, I got kicked form a reddit group because I asked a question in another reddit group. Dealing with BPD makes it worse and im trying not to cry just because I got kicked from a group. I just want to feel accepted for once and its really hard when my emotions get the better of me and I feel like I'm spinning out of control. I'm reaching the point where I am going to end my life. I've been wanting to since I was 12 and I feel like I'm finally at that point. There's no reason to live anymore. Every part of my life has fallen to pieces. I have no job, no people who care about me, I am constantly isolated and I feel like I'm going mad. I don't want to live like this anymore. Is there a painless way to go? 
Im sure nobody is going to care to even read this message, and I know that sounds like "oh pity me" but I'm serious no one cares when I'm at my lowest and it shows. I'm not a priority in anyone's life.