Whirlwind online romance. Shes even more damaged than me but we click. Video chat all day for weeks. Iron out hang ups. We fall asleep together in chat repeatedly. Both declared love. Discussed future plans. Both overshare (with catfish proof evidence).

Last (my) night (we are 8 hours 20 years and 4781 miles apart) she fell asleep as we watched a significant film (for her) together. After a fairly gruelling emotion audit.

Cool. I did my things with her sleeping onscreen beside me. As is our thing.

5 hours later she awakens and moves to her laptop. A crash and shes gone. Fine. Disconnect through fumble. But the sound reconnects and shes watching a video. 

Bear in mind I've written a tonne of stuff in those 5 hours. Dont be so intense, let her wake up.

So I do. We get chat back. Laptop fell explanation all cool.

Then she cuts sound and video and radio silence for an hour.

There are reasons why I know why she does that and that's cool. But not in this moment. All I need is a si gle word. Like 'later'

I'm calling her at 1am her time having pre warned

No response its goodnight from me