I just want to be okay, not really asking for much. Don't need to be blissfully happy, I just don't want to be miserable anymore. Feels like everything I try is just a diversion, the pain is just there. Years, for years why is it still there? 

I just want to be okay. 
Can't even function at work properly, I'm not okay with anything, nothing feels worth trying anymore. 

I miss the old me, I miss the happy me.
I'm so tired of waking up everyday now.... man I'm pathetic.