I've realised that if I want to succeed in life I'm going to be depressed

I've already tried tons of different antidepressants and therapist but nothing has really worked. Therapy just stated the obvious and antidepressants gives me bad brainfog
 
So recently I just kind of stopped using my antidepressants and I haven't been this depressed and productive in a long time. My grades are up and it's easier to converse with people. But at the same time I feel worthless and dumb.

I geuss some things are just meant to be.