I can’t handle my own thoughts. My emotions are out of control my bipolar is going insane switching to all these moods within minutes of eachother. I don’t recognize myself in the mirror. I don’t see a purpose to stay, i literally cannot envision a future for myself.  No motivation to do anything. I want to sleep all the time but the intrusive thoughts prevent that. I have no support system. No plan. Nothing. I can’t stop. I’m in so much pain i can barley move. I just want it to stop. Nothing helps. Nothing numbs the pain, no drug, no drink, no person. It remains taking over my life. I don’t know what to do. Considering a mental hospital. I just want it to stop. Why won’t it stop.