I was falsely accused of cheating by my best friend with whom I wasn't in a relationship. He had other intentions and when they didn't fulfill he started abusing me that I cheated on him and is circulating bad things (which aren't true) about me and my character with my other university friends. People are showing sympathy towards him and all of a sudden EVERYONE left me. They are sending wrong texts, using cuss words, and are making things difficult. 

A little about me : 
I was brought up in a toxic family and I was always an extrovert. Because of the physical abuse at home, I tried to move out but that couldn't happen. I'm not allowed to cry or be sad at home. This is happening from last 13 years and I was not allowed to go out most of the times other than college. I didn't get enough exposure of what precautions/red flags are to be kept in mind while interacting with people. I was going through a rough phase (health wise). At this point, 2 of my best friends proposed me almost at a same time when my surgery was in 2-3 days. On one hand, doctors were saying that my lump could be cancerous, on other hand I clearly told them that I don't want to be in a relationship. Meanwhile hey both met and gotta know that they both proposed to me and one guy out of those both(who was having adult conversations (in this phase) with other girls, talks stuff with them) was furious and verbally abused me. I was shocked. He shared completely different story with all of my friends and most of them left me, few sent abusive texts and EVERYONE stopped talking to me. No one's even ready to hear my side. I'm feeling terrible because I gave more importance to other people all my life. It's getting difficult to get better. I tried everything - journalling, meditation, yoga, sleep stories etc. I can't afford a therapist and also I'm not allowed to see a therapist because of my parents. There are many other situations going on paralelly but this is the root cause of it and now I'm feeling pathetic &amp; terrible to cope with this. I've always had anxiety issues and after this I'm often getting panic attacks. I feel empty and I've tried so hard to live. I'm getting suicidal thoughts but I feel it's better than to be stuck in this false accusations and the pain that I couldn't stand up for myself and prove my side. I tried to, but none of my friends are willing to hear my side.