one of the many thoughts that have been making me anxious lately is that i feel like i've wasted the past 2 years of my life to my ed. i didn't let myself enjoy because i kept putting things off for when i was in better shape. and i feel like it affected the people around me too. i've been so selfish and preoccupied by disordered thoughts that i didn't take time to appreciate the good things happening and the people around me especially my family. 

regret and guit has been eating me up. and now i don't want to waste my life again to anxiety.