I’m currently 1 month behind in online school and retaking all my classes from last year. I’m so fucking sick of feeling terrible every single day.

I hate how my parents and siblings act like I’m just lazy when I can’t go to school or out with my family. I hate how my family relates my depression and anxiety to their nervousness and sadness when my mental illnesses have literally ruined my life. I hate that my illnesses aren’t taken seriously. 

I hate how mental health and illness is stigmatized so much. If mental health wasn’t stigmatized so much and I wasn’t so embarrassed of my mental health I could’ve been diagnosed years ago. 

I’m just so tired of feeling like this. I wouldn’t wish my illnesses on anyone. My mental illnesses have ruined my life and almost killed me, yet mental illness is either romanticized, not taken seriously, or portrayed as evil. 

I literally did nothing to deserve this.