I’m trying really hard to not SH right now but I’m struggling. I just want to feel something but I can’t even cry over what’s hurting me emotionally right now. I need a release and I can’t get it out. I hate myself and I hate that no one ever loves me back the way I love them. WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I don’t get it. I could give him so much love if he just let me and he already makes me happy. FUCK I feel so dumb for feeling this way because we weren’t even dating and I knew he didn’t want to from the beginning but I had so much hope he would just come around but he just views me as a friend.