I got broken up with. I fully realised that we were bad for each other and I keep wanting to go back and beg for forgiveness. I want to fix it. 

I blocked his number and deleted him on everything but I know his number by heart and my head keeps pounding to message him, talk to him, my heart misses him. 


I could never have been his friend. 

I was in love with him for years. My only love. My rock. How could he expect that of me. 


Idk. Anyway. Guys how do I stop? I keep justifying the messages like. I just want to check if he's ok. 
I want to hear about his dogs. 

But I just want him to love me but he won't and can't.

Any advice?