I need help.
I have always been the person who is in control, helps everyone and does everything but I am unraveling fast.
In the last 3 weeks I have had 2 panic attacks and today almost another while shopping.
I know the theory behind CBT and challenging the negative thoughts etc but am struggling to implement them. This is a snippet of my brain today while shopping.
'ok get the ham, oh no someone's in the way, don't worry just wait, ok got the ham. Can't remember what's next, can't breath, just breath normally, shit what's normal. Fuck there's my husband's renters, really don't wanna talk, walk quietly, quick shit before they turn round. Gotta get out, need bread, breath damn it. Shit dizzy, don't breath like that your fine just walk. We need diet coke, that ones on offer is it cheaper, fuck knows I can't work it out get it and go. Shit tingly fingers till pat go.'
I just need people's top tips that have worked for them, before I went I was looking forward to shopping without anybody else taking my time and having some peace. Brain decided that wasn't to be!
I can't eat, can't sleep, snap at everyone around me and just want it to end 😭