Hey guys, im a 27 year old male diagnosed with very mild schizoaffective depressive type (2020) and adhd inattentive (2016) I'm starting to think this is not normal. I've been trying to resolve an issue where i literally fall asleep anywhere while doing anything.

This got me fired from 2 jobs cause i wasnt meeting performance expectations. I also recently started reconnecting with my step-brother and he always complains that I'm quiet tells me to say something, anything. My father recently told me maybe i fall asleep so easily because my mind isn't stimulated.

I'm noticing that I always have a blank mind when im in conversation with anyone and almost all of the time. I have thoughts but they are very few. 

The only time my head gets filled with thoughts and I'm more talkative is if i vape cannabis (i got my license before i had delusions and voices) i do 1 puff and BAM! I'm hit by nonstop thoughts sometimes it's good sometimes it's bad. i know its a bad idea for me to use it but for some reason it doesnt trigger me like i thought it would. 

I wanted to know if any one else here experiences this and how do you overcome it? I want to be more social and access more life experiences. I want to get closer to my step-brother. But my blank mind is getting in the way.

Thank you for reading this.