It’s a well known fact that roughly less than 10% of schizophrenics maintain a full time job. I used to make a lot of money, the exact amount isn’t important, but enough to support myself and a family. Unfortunately I came down with bipolar schizoaffective, delusions, hallucinations, countless involuntary hospitalizations, and a gradual decline in my functioning. I take seroquel like 800mg and have tried many other anti-psychotics. I have learned the hard way that schizophrenia and employment do not go well together. So fast forward, I am on long term disability after onset of my last psychotic episode. Soon, that runs out, and I’m still trying to get approved for SSDI.

My dad paid for my health insurance up until recently. I’ve been financially independent. I told him I’m going to need his help as I am disabled now. This is like my worst nightmare. So my dad made like $80,000,000 last year. He says he’ll “help me financially” and offers to give me less money a month than a minimum wage worker in a big city would make. He tells me health insurance is a privilege and cuts off my health insurance actually. This is not good as I’ve had over $300,000 in medical bills covered by my insurance recently and lots of psych hospitalizations. He abuses me verbally, and curses me out over using a special needs trust with my assets and tells me he’s paying for my medical pills which is not even true. He told everyone in my family I had a substance induced psychosis which is flat out not true. I’ve been diagnosed by countless board-certified psychiatrists with chronic schizophrenia or Schizoaffective who all know my history. I’ve done electric convulsive therapy and I still can’t get to a point where I can work. My dad basically tells me that I gave myself this illness with drug use and that it’s too bad if my life sucks now and I can’t afford basic necessities because I chose to do drugs at one point in my life. The verbal abuse never stops. I’m constantly reminded of how “out there” my delusions have been and how crazy I am. At this point I feel like I have PTSD-C if that’s even possible from ongoing abuse. I graduated top of my class at a top 50 business school and was a top software sales rep, and then I had onset of schizophrenia and slowly deteriorated while all of my “friends” ditched me because they were embarassed of my delusions. I spent money like crazy in a manic episode too. I just watched my life go down hill so fast and there’s nothing I can do to fight back it feels like and the people I called my family actually aren’t there for me in times of a crisis and deny I’m even disabled. I can’t work because of so many issues Schizo has caused. I’ve lost everything including my own hygiene.

Has anyone here been through something like this? Am I in the wrong or is my parent really greedy? How do you deal with this? Any advice for any of these situations?

I have a great gf too but I’m scared if I can’t provide for her she is going to have to leave me. I love this girl so much, and want to start a family with her. I’m really drained, embarrassed, &amp; depressed. It makes me paranoid to even post this.