I guess I just need to vent but I also feel really guilty about all this. 

For context, we’re on vacation and today we went to find one of the stops which was one of the national parks. On the way there I had a panic attack but I’m not too sure why. I think it’s possible that it was because my mom was driving too fast but that seems dumb since I’m used to it by now. Anyways my panic attacks are basically just me crying and zoning out with quick breathing. On the way to the park I had the panic attack and after we finished the tour I told my mom how embarrassed I felt about it and she said not to worry about it and that it’s no big deal. 

Well a few hours later I got hungry and we went to get mcdonalds but I had another panic attack on the way back to the hotel. This time, my mom got really mad at me and said “you know if you can’t handle going on vacation and stress out this easily then you should just stay home.” I felt really bad about it but I didn’t apologize because I just feel like she will get more angry. Now she’s giving me the silent treatment and neither one of us even ate the food we bought. 

I feel so awful because I feel like I had those two panic attacks over something so stupid and ruined the vacation.