Hi everyone. This is a post inreally dont want to write but I feel as if I have to to see what the response is to it.i am32 and I was diagnosed with bipolar 5 years ago and as most of you already now.after the first med run..you seem to think it's gone away.and stop with the meds.well 4 months into diagnosis inwas doing some weird things..I was making fake life on the internet not like catfishing like really deep stuff.givingbmyself a whole new persona telling the people I loved them when indidnt.it was like writing a novel as i was typing all these thing up..I feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself as some of these people believed me and just indidnt feel anything while doing it.like I said It was like writing kind of novel..i got married to my gf at the time.and she found out and support me through it all.and then it's happened again and i think I have lost her for good..2 days ago untried to kill myself because of the guilt and shame of it all..I'm gettingbthrough it day by day..injustbwant to hear your thoughts...
Thanks for listening