I'm a 21 yo dude who was just diagnosed today with BPD. I'm actually quite happy to finally have a diagnosis! I've already kinda got past feeling like a monster, as I've been aware that I may be borderline for over 2 years. A lot of my behaviour the past 2 years has been clockably borderline so I've had people around me make comments. 

Now I'm just happy that I have SOME clarity about who I am, but I'm still a little embarrassed it's only happening now. I kinda feel like just barely a tween not a young adult, and I know everyone can see it. I know they can see it, people have said things, and the ones who dont still treat me like it.

I'm not entirely sure whether this is just venting; however, I guess I'm open to helpful advice.