After finally getting out of a fucked depressing life and a failed suicide attempt I started to turn myself around. Been going to the gym for nearly a year now, a want to be a pro body builder. These guys at school don’t stop calling out to me, and making fun behind my back. They call me names and make fun of my max lifts. I just have to laugh and play along. I feel like everyone is laughing at me all the time. I’ve never done anything to them I don’t know what they get out of it. I go to school fucking terrified that they’ll find me and start talking to me. Now I even feel like my friends are making fun of me. I fucking hate my shitty body and ugly face and stupid fucking red hair. I can’t fucking take it anymore. My parents won’t let me dye my hair so I’m stuck looking like a fucking loser. I’ve come full circle.