Having no friends at college really took a toll on me. I am super depressed all and it’s affecting my academics. I forget to do assignments, I skip classes because I don’t want to be around people, and had to withdraw from the hardest class I’ve had because I didn’t try enough and was going to fail. Why couldn’t I have just been normal like everyone else. My family has been really supportive of my mental health, but, and idk why, I keep pushing them away and don’t want to spend time with them either. Other guys my age want to better themselves, want to go to the gym, be active, join clubs, do internships, have a social life. Why not me? Why do I not have the drive or even want to better myself? And it all comes back to spiral in to more self hate which is getting worse every year. I hope and pray this part of my life gets better. I’m in my prime years and they’re being wasted.