met this girl in late 2020 she’s beautiful she’s everything i’ve ever wanted we connect but we’re both having mental
illness issues and fear of commitment i really want her and she isn’t reciprocating the way i am i’m drunk and can’t say how much i care for her i’m gonna starve myself and workout so i’m good enough for her or at least a bunch of women i can fuck and never talk to again i’m empty inside and i need to fill this void idk why i’ve been put on this earth just to suffer but i’m at least gonna make the most of it