My life should actually be good right now. I inscripted in History classes in University a few months ago. I‘m in a relationship for the first time in my life since 9 months (I‘m M21 btw). It‘s everything I set myself to achive just a year back. But now it‘s the same as always. I set myself goals like graduating high school, getting into uni, beeing part of a realationship but whenever I reach those goals I feel no satisfaction. It just all feels so pointless.  History, the only thing I feel slightly passioned about is just not what I imagined I guess. Same thing with my relationship. Nothing fullfils me. Everything seems pointless as nothing brings me joy. I‘m not looking forward to anything anymore as everything just feels the same. Not bad necessarily just numb. I just wonder what the point of my life is if every „major“ step that I take just feels like another checkpoint on a usless journey not heading anywhere. Can anyone relate ?