I just need to let it out. I swear to God, if i had a way to end my life right now, i would. I am so sick and tired of people, especially my parents. Why don't i have a right to feel bad ? Why can't everyone just leave me the fuck alone. My parents were abusive fucks that left me all fucked up and now, after getting diagnosed, they want to "help". They keep coming back to my fucking house, being ignorant and abusive, once fucking again. I have enough on my plate already and they keep making it worse. I don't know what to do, i just wish i were dead or not born in the first place. It's clear to me that i wasn't meant to be here, i am not strong enough to deal with this bullshit, i want a way out of it right now.