So I have really bad anxiety, diagnosed with General anxiety disorder and meds really don’t help. The longest I’ve kept a job is 2 years. I’ve had over 20 jobs within the past 4 years because I just panic once I have to start so I quit and start, quit and start. Basically after I’m done with training and have to actually perform the job, I just get overwhelmed, feel like there’s too much pressure or that I’m being micro managed, I’ll call out and then I panic from calling out thinking I’m a bad employee so I must quit and just start over so it just cycles. Sometimes I’ll just pace back and forth in the morning and just won’t go in because I’m thinking of what’s going to go wrong at work. The trigger is customer service jobs, absolutely hate working in the open or call centers, I hate answering phones or people staring at me if I’m taking too long then I feel like they’re becoming upset at me so sometimes I’ll go in the bathroom and have a meltdown. So fast forward to now, I’m completely broke and been unemployed for months and unemployment ended and I finally got a job offer. 

It’s the most money I’ve been offered, $21 an hour but it’s at a bank, and that’s triggering as heck, I’m already having anxiety, but I couldn’t afford to not say yes. I just hate myself. What should I do?