I’m at a point in my life where I can’t find my passion. I feel like such a useless person and coming home to a toxic environment is so difficult because of the constant push to commit myself to a career I have zero passion for. I have been depressed for so long and I’m tired of masking it and making it seem like I have this amazing passion and my family support when I have felt zero of it. The thoughts of suicide are constantly lurking in my mind. The beauty of life is nonexistent in my eyes. I’m stuck in an endless loop.