Hi I’m 22 yom, I’ve been dealing health anxiety on and off for years, it doesn’t help I work in health care as an EMT and constantly see people at there worst, as well as every terrifying medical condition you can imagine, but the past few months it’s been terrible. My most recent fixation has been MS and ALS (also leukaemia but only part time) it’s honestly driving me mad. It started when my tricep started twitching, or more like pulsating. Then every day since then all different parts of my body will twitch.

Of course against my better judgment I googled it, and of course the first thing that catches my paranoid thoughts is ALS. Well I ruled it out (mostly) cause the pulsating isnt isolated to one place or the more distal parts of my arms and legs.  it’s anywhere on my body, (arms, legs, back,pecks, occasionally ears etc..) mostly legs tho. Sometimes it pulsates like once, and other times it’s continuous for for less that 30 secs. It such minuscule thing. I feel like it happens more every day. 

I try to keep it to my self about it, but my girlfriend notices that it upsets me and effects my mood. I dont like to talk to her about it tho because I feel like she gets annoyed, and I don’t want to be a burden or nuance to her. 

I also really don’t want to be seen by a doctor out of shame because I’ve been seen multiple time in the past 5 months for different paranoid health reasons. 

This all sounds ridiculous and Evening reading it back Im honestly embarrassed. I want to enjoy my life and not worry about disease or dying but my anxiety has a tight grip on me. 

Anyway thanks if you read all of this