Hi I just recently started dating this guy who I reconnected with from high school who is so healthy it hurts. It’s not that I don’t feel good enough for him, but that I feel as though he’s just so much healthier than me mentally and physically and that he wouldn’t want someone like me once he gets to know me further. 

He’s slept w one person, me 30+ 
He’s never done drugs and barely drinks while I’ve been addicted for a portion of my life and smoke everyday. (Trying to quit and haven’t touched drugs in a long time)
He’s mentally healthy, from a good wealthy family. While I’m so screwed up in many ways (that I’m trying to fix but can only do so much) and I come from a broken home.
I have huge self harm scars for many reasons and he hasn’t seen them yet because he wants to wait to have sex. 
My skin is far from perfect and I’m also anorexic now and I don’t think he knows that yet. 

I’ve never been in a healthy relationship, I don’t think I know what it looks like.I rlly don’t wanna fuck this up.