For me, when I’m at my best, I still have all of my BPD symptoms, I just don’t act on them / shut up and learn not to care. Growing up, I was not diagnosed yet, but I always felt that something was wrong with me. I learned to channel my horrid thoughts inward by going on Tumble n stuff. 

I still felt every emotion and every thought but my parents were strict so they taught be very well have to behave, but I still was imploding. 

As an adult, I still feel the “does X hate me?”, “everyone thinks I’m stupid” and raging anger but I taught myself so well how to hide these thoughts &amp; not work through them.

The people I care about the most get the grunt of my BPD, because I’m really good at faking it with strangers / acquaintances. 

Anyone else identify? It sucks to know that I won’t ever really be cured, but just a really good actor.