in the beginning of the year i lost connection with most of my friends and ended up with only one. her and i got really close but i always kinda knew that i didn’t get along with her the way i did my real friends. i started to question if i really wanted to be her friend or if i just needed someone. now everytime she asks to hangout i get uncomfortable and anxious- and almost like i CANT hangout with her. when we hangout it’s draining, i feel like i have to fake interest in a lot of stuff and a lot of things she does irritates me (sometimes for no reason). i just feel really bad avoiding her cause it’s hard to explain to her how i’m feeling. i don’t want to hurt her with the truth, but also know i’m hurting her by not saying anything. i guess i’m looking for a perspective on this, but mainly just venting since i’ve been feeling this way for months.