Triggerwarning Suicide.

&gt;! Not a single thing I do kills me. Seriously. 4 Days ago I drank two bottles of vodka and took 30 pills of antidepressants, didn't go to a doctor whatsoever, next day I just wake up like nothing happened.
I drove on the freeway, right line, &gt;140kmh, closed my eyes for a minute straight, nothing happened.
Whilst cutting myself on my arm, I hit a blood vessel, nothing happened. 
I do things, which should kill me, on daily basis. Still haven't died yet...

Why can't I die?! !&lt;