I am broke and dont have anyone by my side. I thought I was doing good career wise but not even that is fucked up. I wont get any job after graduation, I will work jobs that dont require a college degree since my degree is useless and that is all because of my monster mom who is a horrible person and ruined my life even though I met all the requirements to study something more specific such as Finance! I cant forgive my mother and I cant live like this! I am too damaged to continue and to ever be okay

I hate my life 

I dont know what to do. I majored in International Business in University and I have a couple of subjects left before I can graduate, I still havent graduated and I dont know what kind of job I can get with this degree. I hate this degree, nobody is gonna hire me with this degree :( most of my colleagues majored in either accounting or banking + finances, I wanted to major in that as well but my mom talked me out of it.. and now I am stuck here with a useless degree. I struggle to find the motivation to finish this degree.. it is literally useless, what can I even work with this degree? We are all economists, but it is our major that separates us. I am going crazy. I LIVE IN A COUNTRY THAT 99% OF THE WORLD HAS NEVER HEARD OF. THERE ARE NO INTERNATIONAL COMPANIES IN THIS STUPID COUNTRY AND I CANT WORK IN FINANCE BECAUSE I DIDNT MAJOR IN THAT! I AM DONE, I DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE! THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO STAY ON THIS FUCKING PLANET AND LIVE THIS HORRIBLE LIFE, SUFFERING ALL THE TIME AND NEVER ENJOYING ANYTHING AND NO GOOD THINGS HAPPENING, ONLY BAD THINGS HAPPENING! THIS IS NOT LIFE, THIS IS LIVING HELL!

I will have only one more piece of paper at home and I can only use it to wipe my a**, not to look for jobs once I graduate. I resent my mom. She did this to me and now I will be even more depressed since I will be stuck at home with a college degree that is equivalent to a high school degree. I hate my major, I have no motivation to finish it since it wont get me anywhere and EVERYBODY on the Internet says that! No matter what I read, they always say that studying this in college is a waste of time! I HATE IT AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! DID I JUST WASTE 4 YEARS OF MY LIFE ON SOMETHING USELESS? I WANNA PUNCH MY STUPID UNEDUCATED MOM SINCE SHE DID THIS TO ME! SHE DOESNT TAKE ANYTHING SERIOUSLY AND NOW WHEN I TELL HER I WONT BE ABLE TO FIND A JOB SHE JUST SAYS SOMETHING ALONG THE LINES OF ‘OH YOU WILL’ ! WHAT A STUPID MORON! SHE HAS RUINED MY LIFE AND I AM TIRED OF HER AND OF EVERYTHING! I AM ANGRY BECAUSE NOW MY LIFE HAS UTTERLY BEEN RUINED! I WILL WORK FOR A MINIMUM WAGE IN A PLACE WHERE YOU ONLY NEED A HIGH SCHOOL DEGREE OR NO DEGREE AT ALL! I AM RAGING! I COULD HAVE WORKING IN A BANK BUT NOW I CANT BECAUSE OF THIS! SOMEONE WITH A DEGREE IN BANKING AND FINANCES WILL HAVE A PRIORITY OVER ME WITH THIS STUPID AND USELESS DEGREE! ALMOST NOBODY MAJORED IN THIS SHIT AND THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO DID WERE PEOPLE WITH LOW GRADES AND I AM A PERSON WHO STUDIES HARD! ALL MY EFFORT WAS FOR NOTHING! I HATE EVERYTHING, I WANNA GO BEAT HER UP SINCE IT IS HER FAULT, SHE WANTS TO BE INVOLVED IN ALL OF MY DECISIONS! I HATE THIS DEGREE! I DONT WANNA HAVE ONE MORE PIECE OF PAPER! IT IS LITERALLY USELESS, IT WONT GET ME ANYWHERE! IT WONT! I WONT BE ABLE TO FIND ANY KIND OF JOB WITH THIS PIECE OF SHIT, I WILL JUST HAVE ONE MORE PAPER AND I AM ASHAMED TO TELL OTHER PEOPLE WHAT I STUDIES HONESTLY!  I AM BECOMING MORE DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL EVERY SINGLE DAY!

Have you ever seen a job ad saying ‘we are looking for someone with a degree in INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS?’ ME NEITHER! EVEN PEOPLE IN DEVELOPED AND FAMOUS COUNTRIES CANT GET A JOB WITH THIS USELESS DEGREE!