I’ve never felt so awful before. I’m pretty sure I have high functioning depression but somehow today it snapped and I have felt disgustingly sad. I’ve been hyperventilating and sobbing non stop, it hurts so bad. I wish I didn’t feel like this it’s truly fucking awful. I went looking for a rope to hang myself with but then I thought how embarrassing it would be if I tried to hang myself and the ceiling fan fell on me 😭 I ended up breaking down and telling my family that I wanted to die which was so embarrassing, then I had a doctors appointment and I went there with bloodshot eyes and a stuffy nose and got interrogated by the doctor if I was gonna harm myself or not. I still feel horrible, I also feel physically sick too, like being mentally unwell is enough as it is can I at least go a day without a burning headache or nausea? I hope things get better and I suddenly feel happy again, unlikely though