I really feel hopeless right now and don't know what to do. I know it may be a bad idea asking for strangers advise but it sounds much better than staring at the wall with dead eyes wishing for death. 
I already tried Lexapro 10mg zoloft 50mg risperidone 1mg before with no success. Prozac only made depression more tolerable but it's still there I really hate living like and I want this to end.
I can't keep a mind altering drug if it's not helping me enough.. Wasted loads of money on psychiatrists with no results. I'm 25yo and I feel like I'm 100yo with terminal disease I'm not even exagerating.