I've been feeling really suicidal lately and I've been doing my best (literally), as I've been getting 8 hours of sleep everynight, eating enough food everyday, no substances (alcohol, drugs, and vape/cigs included), have been doing dbt individual and group once a week (through video chat since pandemic), have been working out 5 times a week, and have some very supportive friends. My boyfriend and I decided that we aren't going to talk for 2 weeks while I start on an atnidepressant, because he already has to deal with schizophrenia and depression. So he said "he doesnt want to breakup but he can't keep going until I get more help." I'm praying starting a medication helps because he's my favorite person and I love him and I'm not ready to lose him. I know all that needs to happen is for me to focus on myself for 2 weeks and thats a good thing. But I just idk how I'm gonna do that, cause not being able to talk to him has made me feel even more suicidal. So plz send love or some advice as I'm blind here and won't be seeing my therapist till tuesday♡ thx