I’m not just talking about not getting a text back for a few hours. 

It’s been since Friday since I’ve heard anything at all, after there had been more distance than usual between us. Not on my end, but from hers. 

I wanna send a message about how it’s the last time I’ll bug her until she wants to talk, but that if she wants me to fuck off then I’d at least like my shirt back. That’s not too dramatic, right? I also don’t want to strain things if she’s just in a rough spot and taking some time to herself, potentially making things worse on her. The last message I sent - that got no response - was asking if she’d been doing okay. 

Am I the only one who this sort of thing is absolutely soul crushing for? I’ve been checking my phone every few minutes and it’s driving me insane. I just want to know if I did something wrong, if she found somebody she likes more - whatever the case may be. I’d like to try to fix it or at least know to fuck off. 

In our few months there was never a fight, no negativity whatsoever. Just great times spent with great company. A lot of talking about being excited to spend the winter and the fall together, a lot of her calling things that were hers “ours.” Her bed was our bed now, her room was our room. She’d constantly (albeit jokingly) call herself my wife, and me her husband. 

Am I overreacting? I’m trying so hard to just be okay but goddamn, this bites. I cannot shake the actual physical weight of it.