

so i’ve been in the hospital for a week now, i tried to kill myself. finally came to this. i’m not suddenly okay but i’m finally getting the help i need and my broken body parts are keeping me safe for now. 

anyway when i’m discharged in like 6 weeks and i’m wheelchair bound i was thinking i wanted to leave flowers at the spot i jumped from. for closure and acknowledgement that i did this and an act of self love, it’s not far from where i live and that could be my first independent activity. is it stupid?