I can't do this anymore. I'm 24, I am just living it for the sake of it, I don't have any goals, any milestones to look forward to, any accomplishments I want to achieve. I'm just living for the sake of it. What is life? Why do I have to live till death naturally comes to me, why do I need to pretend? I just want to feel nothing, all this pressure, these things I have to do to pretend,  it is too much man. I feel like a mistake, everyone seem like they have something to look forward to, something that will happen, I don't know, am I wired different?

I do not know how to feel, how to exist, how to act, I am just tired. I am sorry if this is incoherent, but I do not know how to be human, where is my instruction manual?