Cw: light nsfw talk (nothing graphic), brief mention of medication 


Was dumped on Tuesday. Saw it coming and don't need to talk about it indepth because even though it wasn't mutual, it was fair (LDRs are hard) and we are no longer speaking which is for the best for me even though he was my FP and now I have lost the only validation I cared about. But I hate that as soon as I'm single I go running to dating apps to try and find validation in the form of hookups and random men complimenting me. I'm a bit of a dirty liar with partners regarding my past promiscuity because it's so shameful to me that I cannot control myself (but I am always safe and careful oddly enough). Supplementing love with sex and it's not even something I enjoy. I'm picky about the people I let into my life, sure, but I already have a week of hookups scheduled. And I scheduled it all within 30 minutes of being dumped and while he was dumping me. It's.. sad. 

But the good news is my darling mother who is so anti therapy and medication said that I am simply too broken an individual and told me to go see a psychiatrist so maybe my sex drive will be gone and I can really heal. That would be nice.