Im sorry, i just wanted to vent. I struggle with some memories nowadays, about my childhood. I was quite foul-mouthed as a child and my parents saw spanking and some kind of physical punishment as a way to raise me. Also, my family chose irony and sassiness as method of communication. All the time I was said that I should get thinner or that I should do better. My efforts were never enough. And I was a good student and normal kid and calm teenager. But I was called lazy when I prefered Reading Books instead of cleaning. I am still called lazy, when I'm writing my thesis and I have job. Im never enough, never will be. For them I always be lazy, stupid kid. I'm sorry, i had to pour it. Thankfully I have therapy, so I'll be fine. Im just sad.