Not even that long ago, about 10 months ago or so it was bad, but not that bad. Depressed and stressed, but not to the level I am now.

Suddenly a video on youtube jumps out at me, from a game, a music video clip or whatever, and my head goes to the first related memory. When I was a child or when I was younger. And it makes me think, that I barely remember what it was like to live like this. Without having to see how long I can take a tranquilizer to get me through the day. Without having to fight against the darkness that makes me not feel like anything.

I'm nostalgic for when I was still sufficiently protected from what the world really is.