I've been out of school for 2 years now (18yo.) I've just been working occasional jobs for close family since then - garden work, DIY, etc but every time I find a job I want to apply for, the voice in my head gives me a million reasons why that would be a terrible idea...

Anyway, I finally plucked up the courage to apply for an electricians course last week, it was literally perfect - within walking distance of my house, small class size, a decent amount of study could be done from home, it was financially viable, etc,etc. I was feeling better than I had in ages and thought maybe, just maybe, I'd be able to break out of the vicious cycle.

A couple days passed and i got an email back, I was accepted onto the course. All I had to do was confirm it... and then it hit me. My mind started racing, as though the evil that imprisons me had decided to pull me back and tighten my chains.

I'm pretty sure the application deadline has passed now and it really sucks.

I'm not an doctor or anything but I would guess my anxiety is largely situational, when I was a kid I'd always get super anxious about school after summer break but once I was 20 minutes into the first day I'd be fine. My hope has always been that my anxiety will significantly reduce if I can just grit my teeth and start a job (and even if it doesn't help my anxiety, I don't think I could take being a NEET for much longer) It's just every time I try I get crushed.