I really need to know if im alone in this feeling. Almost every day, i think when its late at night and I get bored and in my head, i start to feel an urgency. It's like Im numb, but theres something in me that's freaking out? On the outside I can act fine but I feel like randomly screaming, thrashing or hitting something. I've described it as my brain being set on fire, mental violence or an itch I can't scratch. My head is  LITERALLY screaming like it's been set ablaze. The only way i can 'scratch it' is through pain (which I inflict on myself) or drugs, and my tolerance for weed is way too high for it to even sedate me anymore. It's maddening and I feel alone in this feeling, Ive been on prescribed pills for years but they've never helped. 

 I'm not even usually a violent person so it really does feel awful. I have to stop myself from literally blurting out "I want to kill myself"  over and over when I'm in these moods. Does anyone else feel this way? Like you just need to freak out and get violent for absolutely no reason?