Im 14 and my brain is so fucking messed up!!! I literally hate my self soooooo much!!!! So i just remembered, months ago, i was fapping to a hot woman on ig and theres a pic of her with her daughter, that looks 4 years younger than me... So what happened was i fapped to both of em... I remember feeling utter disgust and guilt after doing that... And another one was when, ive fap to someone 3 years younger than me, and i did it a couple of times, and after finishing fapping to her each time, i feel sooo fucking disgusted.. And a few days ago i did it again..  AND I'VE NEVER BEEN SO DISGUSTED OF MY FUCKING ACTIONS RN!!! I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!! I DONT WANNA BE A PEDOPHILE!!! I feel so fucking utterly disgusted of my self!! Why did the universe even fucking created me, or god.. Fuck, im gonna go to hell for this... I just wanna be normal... I wanna change.. Am i a pedo for doing that??? Also, I dont EVER think of harming children, and i dont have any random intrusive sexual thoughts of childrens, I just only did THAT.. Which is wayyyyyyyy wayyyyyy wayyyyyyyyy worse than the thoughts of sexualizing childrens... I FUCKING HATTEEEE MYSELF!!!!!!!! And im gonna carry this guilt and it will haunt me for the rest of my life. I'm probably never gonna live a peaceful life.