so last four weeks ago, i had protective intercourse, took an emergency pill, had my period a week after intercourse, tested negative on PT when I tested two weeks and 27 days after. i’m suffering from anxiety because my mind keeps telling me that i might belong in one of the rare ones who will still get pregos even if i had negative tests and had my period. i keep repeating myself that i am not but my mind is telling me otherwise. every change in my body, i keep noticing tho i know that i am diagnosed with peptic ulcer and i am currently suffering from ibs. i can’t calm my mind and convince myself that i am not but i guess it’s really hard when the negative mind overpowers my optimistic side. i had a sesion with a counselor, tried meditation, and distraction techniques but any of it didn’t work.

i really want this thoughts of mine to end and i can’t stop thinking about the fact that guilt is eating me up for doing the deed and if i ever get pregos it’s a punishment. argh i don’t know how i can overcome this. i only keep drowning everyday