I'm a freshman in college as of a month ago.

I used to be the kind of person who always did really well at everything. Sports, school, work, etc. I was happy and boisterous.

College is killing who I was.

I'm a STEM Major at a large university in the southeast United States. I spend every single night doing homework I don't understand. I wonder if my grades will stay up so i can keep my scholarship. I wonder if there's some assignment I  missed. I wonder if I'm smart enough to be pursuing this major. 

I hate this. I can't imagine living like this for 4 years. 

I dont have anyone to talk to. 

Someone help me. 

I'm begging you.