I have bad anxiety and ocd. My family and close friends know. I felt fine for about three years and accepted a job in a different country, I'm a bit isolated and lonely.

Had a relapse last summer and I'm slowly getting worse. I got prescribed lexapro 10mg yesterday, I'm doing online counselling.

On the outside I have a great life. I work hard, play sports, do normal stuff but still struggle a lot with my demons. I feel like disaster is always just one step away and I'll be responsible. I have intrusive thoughts all the time but do my best to just carry on with my day.

I'm supposed to go to a nightclub tonight with a girl I'm dating and the thought of it terrifies me. It's hard pretending I'm okay.