my bf and i have been dating for 2 months. he's my first ACTUAL relationship. he's an amazing person and he treats me well, but my brain won't leave me alone. sometimes he takes a few hrs to reply, he didn't want to hang out on our 2 month anniversary and sometimes we don't hang out for a few days and when we do hang out he leaves a bit earlier than at the start of our relationship. i can't stop thinking about how he's going to leave me and how he doesn't love me even tho i constantly rationalize his behavior in my brain. i'm currently debating telling him all of this just to get it off my chest, but i'm not sure should i share it with him or will he think i'm crazy. i feel like if i don't tell him it's gonna eat me alive and potentially ruin our relationship, but i feel like telling him will also ruin our relationship because who wants to be with a crazy bitch, right?

TLDR: irrational bpd thoughts acting up, should i open up about it to my boyfriend of 2 months?

also please don't give me reassurance as much as i want it because i suffer from ocd as well and it's gonna make it worse. if you have any advice on coping it's welcome.