When I get manic I feel super paranoid about my friend killing me?? Sounds weird but there’s some history that feeds into my delusions. We used to mutually like eachother when we first met online, for many many months. I broke it off because I was manic and started dating a guy I knew irl (shitty move I know, mania sucks) anyways we became friends again fully platonic a few months after I left the guy I was dating. Whenever we could call though he would be trying to talk to me about how he loves me and he can’t get over me and it always upset me. I told him this and we “worked past it”, he got very outwardly suicidal and claims it was “only a little about me rejecting him”  I feel that he resents me for this. He calls me his best friend, we talk all the time about anything and everything, he’s never treated me poorly but I still feel like I’m being set up to be hurt somehow. I feel trapped and I feel like I have no reason to be this paranoid..