Hey everyone,

I'm really struggling with some overwhelming sadness. I was triggered earlier today and now I'm just feeling so low... On my way home from work I saw a dead groundhog on the road. And it has just sent me through a fucking tizzy... I am a huge animal lover and I feel absolutely heartbroken every time I see roadkill. I was having a great day up until that and it's been hours since and I am just spiraling. I keep thinking of how terribly mean the world is. I have this pit in my stomach of just devastation. There is so much sadness that it's overwhelming. I feel like I see or feel more pain than I experience happiness. I'm overwhelmed by the abundance of sadness this world is filled with. And it's like I try to think of happy stories or stories of justice and it just doesn't help. There are so many people and animals struggling and I feel there is nothing I can do to lessen the burden on other life forms. I've been told so many times that these are burdens I shouldn't take on, or at least so personally. But it breaks my heart to think of how sad the world is and how heartless some humans can be. I'm 24 and it feels impossible to think I can live a full life in such a cruel world that is only getting worse. I haven't had thoughts of ending it for a while, which I am SO proud of... But today, just sitting in my house alone thinking of the evil that's all around me is freaking me out. I'm safe and I am not going to do anything. But, how will I live a full life being constantly plagued by meanness? Does anyone have any suggestions of things I can do to help lift my thoughts? I am a teacher, also a caregiver for adults with special needs. I've worked in animal shelters and even though I don't have much money I try to donate as much as I can. I'll do anything to give back and help vulnerable populations just to feel like I am adding some kindness to the world. But even then I don't feel like my efforts are ever enough.   
Please- if you don't feel the same way about animals or people please don't leave a comment belittling my feelings on the matter. I'm really just looking for people who feel the same and maybe some suggestions. Comments that belittle my raw feelings will only add to my overwhelming sadness right now. I just need support, please...