I’ve been having a lot of intense emotions and my half brother won’t speak to my and I am having family moving away, I’ve been feeling more lonely than ever. I’m starting a new job soon so I decided to go to some guys house and drink excessively as some sort of last hoorah before being a normal adult. I thought we were just going to drink and hang out as buddies but when I was intoxicated he started touching me and kissing me etc. when I didn’t want to. I decided to leave in a hurry as I was scared of him taking advantage of me. I left in a hurry, drunk in my car. I accept full responsibility for how I handled it. I should have ordered an Uber. I’m just shocked that these feelings of loneliness and abandonment could lead me to doing something like this. I wanted to bury my emotions and escape but made a shit decision. To my fellow BPD havers, for the love of god if you are drinking don’t fucking drive.