I know reddit isnt the best place for medical advice but I don't know where else to turn I'm broke. So pretty much if I'm not doing something to distract myself from reality like if I'm trying to go to sleep, bathroom, conversation really anywhere I don't listen to YouTube videos I get these intense thoughts and visions of my dad killing himself next to me on a camping trip and me being alone trying to help him in his last moments. This has not happened mind you. My sister flipped someone off in a car and I got this intense vision/thought that the other person was going to pull out a gun and kill her on the spot and I could feel her blood on my face. I don't think I need to get into the bad ones but you reading probably get the point. What do you think this is? Anxiety to a higher degree or something greater? Perhaps paranoia might be fitting but I don't know. All I know that it has taken over my thoughts, I have always been able to put myself in the shoes of others as I have a super active and intense imagination. This is different, this is me putting myself in my own shoes in these situations and feeling the emotions in full. As you can imagine this has worn my mental health down to the point that going outside I feel as though someone is going to shoot me or my family member or friend. Any advice would be so helpful and if you made it this far I want you to know you are an amazing person and will do amazing things. I will probably post this to a paranoia subreddit just to have differing perspectives.