I’ve been struggling mentally since sixth grade, and I can vividly recall the symptoms and harmful actions towards myself and others getting worse and worse over time. I’ve been flying through different therapists for years, and have been told all sorts of things. Depression, anxiety, PTSD, EDs, ADD, insomnia. On my own time, I’ve struggled with substance abuse for over a year. The only medication I’ve only ever been put on was Zoloft, and I didn’t see any progress. A few days ago I got diagnosed with BPD and I learned what it was, and all of my symptoms and past diagnosis’s just kind of lined up together and the last couple of days, I’ve just been connecting the events in my past to the contribution of the development of my BPD and God I just wish I had known sooner. My treatment plan I was put on only really covers therapy, but I can’t talk about my substance abuse, and have struggled with honesty about how horrible my symptoms truly go with other therapists because the last thing I want is inpatient. And truly, I can’t afford to be put in inpatient at where I am in life right now. I understand I’m suffering from BPD but I don’t really know where to go from here. How do I make finally understanding how I’m suffering actually contribute to overall progress? How do you guys cope with BPD on your own time? I really just need some insight from someone other than a person who understands BPD by first learning it from a textbook.