I've been single since the last disaster 4 years ago. Closed myself off ever since. Was having a nice morning at work, managed 6-7 hours of sleep after so long. Enjoyed a nice breakfast. Then someone showed me this and I broke down in the office bathroom

[https://i.redd.it/3zxz80tgvyh31.jpg](https://i.redd.it/3zxz80tgvyh31.jpg) / [http://prntscr.com/ovztfl](http://prntscr.com/ovztfl)

Now i cant stop feeling like shit. I miss experiencing physical affection and hate myself for not allowing it. Worst thing is I can't see me putting myself out there really ever again. Some things fundamentally change you even later in life.   
Just venting