Hi guys. 

I need help. I’m desperate. I go crazy whenever I feel as though I’m being ignored. It’s a huge trigger for me. Everyone knows this. 

And I know they try their best to accommodate me. BUT. There are times when it’s jst not feasible. 

I felt as if my FP was ignoring me. I had Msged him n saw that he was active. No biggie. 

This continued for a few hours and every-time I saw he hasn’t replied but was active. My self control got weaker and my rage got bigger. 

I tried my best to calm down. I tried my best to let it go. 

He never intentionally ignores me. But everytime I’m faced with those situations I lose my absolute shit and split. 

Which I did. He told me how he loves to talk to me and reassured me he still does. But that he wishes I wouldn’t polarize so much. But that he tries his best to be understanding cuz of my BPD. Honestly he’s been so great. I’m terrified of losing him. But I self sabotage. 

He told me it feels like I want him to jst cater to me. That when I txt him he thinks that I think I want him to jst stop everything for me. And that broke my heart to hear. 

It hurt Becuz that’s not what I want at all. But my behavior is making him think that way. And I’m terrified of it pushing him away. 

Do u guys have any helpful tips??? In those moments where I feel like I’m being ignored I jst lose it. It’s gotten bttr. Like I said. I was fine until a few hours had passed. So there is progress. 

But I dnt want to lose him over this. Does anyone have any advice. I’m desperate.