Today I texted a friend who said she loves mental health chats and always used to ask how I was doing, about how I had just been diagnosed with pcos and how it could have added to my low moods as thats a symptom. Then I said ill start working out. All she texted back was “mhm”. I instantly felt like a burden and more suicidal. When people ask me how im doing im honestly not doing well and dont want to lie. So i try to express that im not doing my best but in a positive way. But these days she only gives one word responses to me. My cousin who I also talk to doesnt seem that into it either. I constantly am fighting to stay alive and if I cant be honest with anyone without them ending up annoyed then ill have to bottle it all up. From this day forward ill just say im ok.