I'm so sick of life. I didn't ask to born into a family that would abuse me. The only solace I ever had in life was video games. My family and everyone at school only made me question why I even bothered being born.

Now I can't trust anyone and feel horrible being around people. I always feel ostracized and like I don't matter and I'm being ignored and abandoned. I'm jealous of everyone and their happy relationships. All I want is someone I can share gentle affection and kindness with. I just want to love and be loved in return.

I wish I had a girlfriend I could play video games with. I'm the quiet, sensitive type. We don't need to do much. Just be in each others' presence and know we care for each other. That's all. Is that so much to ask?