It’s like you wanna think and digest your thoughts to understand and grow as a person but like those certain thoughts you can’t. It’s like poison to your brain and the most you digest it the more poisoned you’re getting but it’s like you gotta understand I digest it because the only way you’re gonna understand the root cause of something is to think about it. But you keep on thinking and worrying and you get no where. I just wanna be critical and grow. I don’t wanna be an optimistic and apathetic person. I’m scared. I wanna be critical, I wanna be a realistic and empathic but I fear I’m not. Im scared.