I just woke up in the middle of the night and my heart is racing. I feel so anxious and been crying since yesterday. I hate going back to university. I hate the work, I can’t focus and on top of that I’m going through losing someone close to me (which is so hard and my time away from them makes me so nervous). Everything worsen my anxiety. If I manage to sleep, I get nightmares and had to wake up sweating and hyperventilating. You can check my post and see what I planned to do for tonight (TW) and even that makes me anxious. I’m a mess and I don’t have a support system. No friends, and I don’t have the courage to talk to my mom. I’m so isolated. I genuinely feel scared right now and I need a way to escape.