So I was recently diagnosed with bipolar I disorder after a 2 month long manic episode. I spoke with my friend because I was slightly unsure about my diagnosis due to the fact I no longer get depressed. It's been about 2 years of being depression free after my daughter was born. In some way I feel like having her cured a chemical imbalance I had. Don't know why it just did. 

My friend said to me, that your depression state could be viewed as a state of normalcy in a regular person. but feel extremely down to you, because you are not high on endorphins like you would be in a state of euphoria. 

To me it made alot of sense. I am very intune with myself and I do understand my states of ups and downs. I also try and br aware to not make rash decisions in my up states and understand the days when I'm feeling blue that it will be okay tomorrow. 

thought I would share for anyone who has experienced the same feelings I have. Just another perspective that could be helpful and insightful in some ways. 

* please note I do understand depression during a manic episode is completely different than day to day. Because during my episode I was done with everything due to it not stopping. Hope everyone has a good day!!