My childhood trauma stuff came back, i keep on having flashbacks EVERY SINGLE DAY and i am tired. What happened to me was traumatising, disgusting and vile. I wish i would go back in time and change it somehow. My depression came back too and it's horrible. Every single day is hard. I wanna sh so bad. Just why me? But then again I'm glad it was not anyone else( i hope). I can't even say anything to my family coz that would be horrible it would destroy my family and split them apart LITERALLY.
I don't wanna die , i just want it all to stop. It hurts, it hurts so bad. I just wanna be okay.