I'm a teen girl but I feel like I'm slowly drowning and I can't do anything. I had a horse he was like my support animal. I loved him with all my heart but officially he wasn't mine and someone else bought him. I lost my happiness it took me months to realize what happened and now I'm grieving  or something like that but before that I got a boyfriend. Because I lost my support animal he became that person who give me happiness. I was in love you know that first young love but after 3 week's he broke up with me because he didn't want a relationship and wanted to hangout with he's friends more so he won't have time for me. The only thing that I didn't lost is my best friend. But she has a bf who can be kind but mostly annoying and he friend with old alcoholic homless people (normally I don't  problem if some homeless if they are a normal person). If i'm not well I push people away from me and it's the second time I pushing my bsf away but she doesn't really care or know what to do. I can't feel that I deserve to be loved. I don't want to talk with my parents to go to therapy only if it's the only way out but I'm afraid they would not get it and just be mad or something. They not really good at this once I opened up they didn't take it seriously and my dad didn't even listened. Maybe It's a teenager thing but I can't be happy I feel like I lost everything important so basically I'm just exist this days. 

(English is my second language please don't hate)