Seemed like a good idea 2 months ago but now that I have to go there in 2 weeks I'm driving crazy. Stupid anxiety, panic attacks, bad sleep,... I'm just not sure if I really should consider going there when I definitely don't want to go. My therapist sadly would ditch me if I won't show up which means I gotta look for a new one but then again when he's kind of forcing me to go there to still do sessions with me he's probably not a good one.

It might be actually a good idea to look for a new therapist the one I have right now only has time for me once in a month. Never needed a lot of sessions but at the moment I do and I think that would make more sense than going to the clinic. I'm just not sure what to do