I am 15 years now(soon 16) and I got a small friend group that we have had in over 6 years. I have always been the odd one out because I don't like sports and don't talk much. Before everyone used to play games online with each other but now I am the one left all alone. All off my friends have made some new friends because of sports but I am the only person that hasn't made a new friend in ages. Ever since I was a child I always didn't talk as much as other people because I don't know what you would talk about in certain situations and sometimes my brain gets completely empty and I can't think of one single thing to talk about. Because of this problem I am scared to talk to other people online and in school I only talk to my friends and sometimes other people in my class but that's only when I get asked a question. Recently I have realised that I don't have any real friends anymore and I am all alone. The only time we talk is during school and I never get invited to anything and I think that they possibly have a group chat without me. Most people would try to get make new friends in this situation but we are in the last years of what I think is junior high school so either way we are soon gonna part. I just have felt so fucking alone this last months and I cry myself to sleep at least ones a week. I have even sometimes like to clip my fingers with the nail clipper but I just clip the skin and it doesn't even hurt or go deep, I just like having something to remind me. I am just so terrified about life and where it leads me and having to go free in this big ass world and make friends.