Boyfriend just left to take time to think for a few days. I’m overly snappy with him and I just switch up on him so easily. I feel like I’ve been so irritated at him for such small things since becoming pregnant and he doesn’t deserve it but it seems so hard to control. I’m upset that it probably wouldn’t be this bad if it weren’t for BPD. I feel SO incredibly depressed and anxious because of this. Now I feel alone and have the abandoned feeling in the pit of my stomach. Gosh… I just feel like I ruin EVERYTHING. I just want to scream! I wish I was normal… :,(