Its a huge relief because I know now whats going on in my head, I’ve been suspecting it for two years so yeah its relieving to get clarification. Also the fact that I can now get propwr treatment. However I feel scared too because of all the stigma surrounding it and also the fact that my best friend (who I also think is my fp..) who moved out of town recently (which has been an actual hell for me) came to visit yesterday snd she’s gonna stay with me until next monday. I already noticed that my mood swings (especially the bursts of rage/anger) were more stronger yesterday and idk if its because now that I know I’m diagnosed I know where its coming from. Bc I’ve always been the type to mostly implode when I get really angry or feel rejected because I felt so much shame about showing my anger full-on when I splitting on people or just when smth triggers my anger bc I always felt so dramatic and I was scared of ruining our relationship. But now that I know where its coming from I feel like I might hide my symptoms a little less which idk if its a good thing or bad thing.. or if anyone else also felt this after getting diagnosed? idk. Anyway. I just wanted to let y’all know bc I’ve been lurkikg on this subreddit for a while since I’ve suspected it for so long and now I have a community to share my experiences with. But its also scary ahh