[M23] 2 years ago my ex broke up with me and left me for my friend, that triggered severe depression and anxiety.. which led to early pre-mature hair loss (alopecia), then worsening of my mental health further due to lack of confidence. Lost all my friends. Didnt go out. Trapped inside my house for nearly 2 years rotting in hell. Reason why my ex had such a huge impact on me was because she was the reason i developed a health concern that will decrease my quality of life for the rest of my life (not sti or std) but related to penile function. As a male, you can imagine how traumatic it is to have an impaired sex sexual function.. and the worst part? at such a young age too.  Im suffering from severe hair loss due to chronic stress, depression, anxiety and insomnia, lack of sleep causes a whole long list of things that negative affect my daily functioning. My stress level is always elevated due to chronic lack of sleep, which makes  my hair loss even worse. I cant function to do my daily activities no more than 2-3 hrs before i need to lie down to rest but i cant rest bc of how my body is reacting to this depression. 

I was such a happy, positive person before, i went to the gym nearly everyday i was fit, my hair was thick and looked great, my skin was youth and plump, i was so happy and confident with myself until she happened.  Not to mention, she was the reason my grades dropped immensely making it that i couldnt get into the post grad program i wanted (i had a 3.85 gpa prior to my final year).

My mental health (severe insomnia, constant stress, depression, anxiety) - hair loss - premature aging skin - penile function - drop in self confidence. One negative event leading to another and another... 

Why am i so depressed, anxious, and angry still?
I hold a lot of resentment for what she did to me. I am depressed because im not my best self nor will i ever be back to how i was, physically and internally. Hair loss wont resolve on its own - there are meds like finasteride but that causes severe side effects (decreased sex drive, decrease in cognitive function etc). Im afraid i wont be able to find a potential lifelong partner because of how i look for my age, my health conditions and bc of my lack of self confidence. I am already a very short male as it is, and theres not much i could really "make up" for besides the personality part which i dont really have either. Given my lack of sexual function i now even have another concern on top of everything that makes me a less of a potential parter to women. 

I literally had everything in my life and now i have nothing. 

Already saw my doctor, did lots of tests everything came back normal. Went to see a psychologist, psychotherapy, counselling, nothing worked. They just tell me to accept things for what it is and move on in addition to giving me a lot of relaxation techniques and basic stuff that doesnt work.  I dont want to take meds for the rest of my life either. 

Im really at the end of my rope here and i really dont know what to do. Ive been suffering for more than 2.5 years every single day now and if this continues i really dont know what is going to happen to me.  I feel like the reason why my mind is so fixiated on this bc i cant let go for what shes done to me. How can i feel better? Ive always wanted to confront her for all the bs she put me through. Is that the smartest thing? Idk. But i know i would feel a lot better. I dont know what this post is, im just ranting at this point.. what can i do ?

TLTR; ex broke up with me 2 years ago, led to decline of mental health, intense stress levels trigerred the onset of my hair loss, pre mature aging skin, lost of confidence. Impaired sexual function bc of her. Couldnt get into post grad program bc of her