My boyfriend and I recently broke up for around 3 weeks, though we maintained contact every day and nothing really changed before he asked to get back together. I’ve chosen to forgive him for what happened but I keep passive aggressively throwing it in his face. I think I’m doing it because I’m always the asshole, the one who overreacts, the one who fucked everything up and I have something that I can say wasn’t my fault and I know I was hurt and I didn’t make it happen for myself. At least to my own knowledge. 

I keep making “”””jokes”””” about it, getting passive aggressive, throwing it in his face, etc etc etc. And I feel so fucking guilty and I want to stop immediately. I just cry all the time because I know he doesn’t deserve it, and I chose to date him again, and it’s my responsibility to deal with how I feel about what’s happened with a bit of support from him. He’s so much better than I have ever deserved for one second in my fucking life and I hate that I knowing destroy everything I care about or want. Like fuck man.