I feel like I’m drowning anything I do just feels so draining to me, I had a kid two years ago and I’ve been jobless for all two of those years, not having my OWN things is the most lifeless feeling, I feel like a pimple that someone can’t get rid of.. I don’t even feel comfortable being around people anymore because I feel like a bother to everyone, I’ve always had depression but this is worse than ever, I cry in the bathroom atleast once a day.. I just feel so hopeless, I contemplate being here on earth every single day.. I try to talk to friends and loved ones about these feelings but I just feel like I’m brushed off because no one really understands how I feel and when they say “I know how you feel” I can’t help but ask “do you really?” Im at the crippling age of 25 and I can’t help but think I’ve ruined my own life, will I ever be good enough for myself again? Do people really even like to be around me anymore? I can never seem to not beat myself up anymore.. I have a “fiancé” but he doesn’t understand how I’m feeling and honestly anymore I really don’t think he cares…I just don’t want to feel anymore.. thank you all for listening