hello all. 21F here, mentally unstable and needing some advice, or guidance. i’ve recently been coming to terms with the fact that there is a good chance i have BPD, i have previously been diagnosed with depression and anxiety but from the research i’ve done on bpd, it seems to line up pretty well. compulsive liar. history of body dysmorphia. terrible fear of abandonment, even with little things like not being able to see someone i love or care about because of a last minute change in plans. things like that really cause a lot of stress. i overthink a lot, been hit with recent waves of paranoia, definitely mood swing-y. i feel like i go from feeling like shit about myself to being extremely confident, but also sarcastic and mean. constantly irritable. my friend group changes often, i jump from relationship to relationship, i quit jobs for no reason or because i’m
bored. have had a past of self-harm and of cheating, definitely known for being extremely impulsive and terrible with money (big spender). also had a bad history with drug use. generally unhappy with where i’m at. constantly sad for self-sabotaging. but also feel like i try to change and recognize these things, to no prevail. tried therapy several times, unfortunately they were religious therapists that my parents sent me to, so you can imagine that didn’t go over well. 

can someone with more knowledge or experience tell me if these things sound like BPD? obviously planning on seeing a new therapist soon, but wanted to ask some fellow users.