Oh, look, my hobbies I enjoy. Eh, I don't feel like doing them, suddenly. 2 days pass. 2 weeks pass. 2 months pass. It'll come back, right? Another employer I didn't hear back from. That really sucks. Maybe I'll get the next one. Maybe I'll like the next one.  I'm bored. Hm. 0 notifications. Well, of course, I'm alone. Let's join some online groups and servers. Guess I'm pretty shy, but how bad can it be? Doesn't seem like I'm getting any attention here. I have to literally fish just for a little acknowledgement. Maybe it's too soon. 1 week. 2 weeks. A month. I don't think this is going anywhere. I'm treated like I'm not even here. Even people who have been here shorter than me are getting way more attention. Guess I'm forgettable. I'll just leave. No one would miss me.  That happens a lot. I'll just..stop? It doesn't matter how nice or respectful I am. I don't..fit. It's getting late now. I barely ate, maybe I should? Instead, I'll just roll over and shut my eyes that have been brimming over with tears for the last 10 minutes. Tomorrow will be better, maybe. No, maybe it won't. Now, something's changing. All of a sudden, yeah, it'll be all right. Who needs friends? Who needs a S/O? Who needs companionship? I can make it all on my own. I'm the greatest. That didn't last very long. I'm sad again 3 minutes later. I'll just play a game to pass the time. So, I log into a virtual world where no one gives a fuck about me. This is..just like my reality, though. I'm not into this at all. I'll just turn it off. It's really late, now. I'll just put a bunch of Youtube videos on, just to listen to people talk while I lay there, completely over with life. Just over it. I'm over it.