Hello everyone. I have had an interesting borderline journey. I have evolved from the gregarious, outgoing, happy go lucky (but of course neurotic and unstable af) borderline type of my youth to being so depressed now in my late 20's that I can't get out of bed for hours upon waking up (even if I have somewhere to be), no spark &amp; no joy type with the last ounce of my ambition and excitement for life gasping it's final breaths. I wouldn't ever commit suicide, although one could argue that's what I'm very slowly doing with my current lifestyle. I know how I need to live my life to achieve the life that I want, but I just feel like I don't even have the gumption to take care of basics in my life anymore. I know a couple of close ones who swear that cymbalta helped them pull themselves out of their funk, but I'm really nervous about taking it for some reason. Perhaps on some level I'm afraid that it'll actually work (crazy, I know). I've always hated the idea of taking psychemeds. Part of me is nervous about that transition phase of the first couple of weeks where things get worse and then they get better... But I also can't go on like this, I'm absolutely at the end of my rope right now. 

If you have experiences like this or encouraging vibes to send my way that would be appreciated.