Love is my addiction,  I feel so much, so deeply. But I'm tired of my black and white thinking, of idolizing patterns and devaluating, of feeling good then feeling like my life depends on other people, making all my decisions around my favorite person. I love love, the idea of love. 

I have a lot to give. But I know I can't keep it up like this. It's been draining me. The fantasy of finally being loved, of living with someone, being ...someone, because of someone else.

I wanna give real love, not this codependent kind of love.

So ... besides therapy, any ideas what I can do to get over a breakup and stay single? And also helping myself to grow as a person? 

Maybe some book recommandations?

thank you for reading