I had an episode of emotional dissociation last Saturday and it’s confusing me because it doesn’t seem to fit into anything I’ve read up online. 

I woke up completely fine and then began reading articles online, I often read about major tragedies because I guess I’m intrigued by them. After reading a few my husband called to suggest that after he finishes work we go to the beach and it’s like I turned into another person. She needs to have another name because it wasn’t me at all. I drove to his work to pick him up and all I had in my head was this burning rage and that I wanted to hurt him emotionally as much as I could. I was smiling the whole time as I cut up some of his clothes, broke stuff and told him how much I didn’t care about him. I tried to make him believe I would hurt him physically. After he refused to engage after an hour I started to feel large bouts of remorse and stitched up his clothes. But I wasn’t myself yet, it was like I was a transitioning person, not quite this evil person but not quite me. After another 10 minutes it’s like I came to and I was back to myself. All in all it was about 3 hours and while I can recall what I did I can’t bring back that feeling to understand just why I decided to do that.

Honestly it felt like someone else had taken over my body, I was kind of in there but I couldn’t access myself if that makes sense. I’m just really confused about what happened and who this person was that I became. I havnt had an episode like this in years and even then it was only like 10 minutes at a time. 

Long story short, who was this psycho and has anyone experienced anything like this? 