Sooo hi i have  been in depression in for like 6 months now and i wanted to talk with this with someone so it started with that everything what i did was wrong people only hated me and when i did something good or perfect they didnt say anything they could only hate at the start it wasnt that bad next thing that got me worst was that i didnt have much of life my friends was hanging out with other friends almost every day and i hang out with someone only like 3 times in my entire life by the way im 14 im only playing pc games thats why i feel i dont have life they didnt bully me they are having fun with me in school (i think) but i never hang out with them thats when i started crying a lot and i wanted to kill my self but i was too scared to do that so i didnt. after 1 month it was better but then i started to feel worthless i was bad at games at everything i didnt know anything good im playing games like 5 years or more but i still suck at games and everything, anything i know is  to play games and im still bad so im not good at anything and i wanted to be girl yes im boy but transgender is not the best solution i think girls have easier life they dont need to invite someone to date because boys always do that its in a big shortcut and i dont know if it makes sense but now im getting again more sad and whats makes me happy now is if i can help people   
yea so bye and have a good day :)