So, Ive been depressed for a good 10 years. It got really bad when I was 18, and eventually I got over my fear and got help. Was put on medication, eventually did better and got off meds, but I dropped out of school. My family was never supportive, told me I had nothing to be sad about, was looking for attention, etc. I know Ive been depressed again for several years but it’s a different kind, like before I was suicidal and sad, now Im just unmotivated and feel nothing. It definitely stops me from keeping up with friendships and relationships but I’m too scared to take that step again to get help. I have a better support system now, and a husband who wants me to get help, but Idk why being on meds is so hard for me to accept. I have no opinion if others take them, it’s just when it’s a label on me personally. I feel like I should just be able to force myself to do and be better. It’s so dumb