I met this girl and it's going great, we have been dating for 2 months now but every step of the process I cheated almost instantly. We decided to be gf/bf, i cheated with a man the next day. We say I love you, I cheated with a women the next day. I don't understand why I keep doing this and I hate myself for it... I crave for stability and healthy relationships but every time I get close to it I do insane things to prove myself I don't deserve it and to fuck it up. I hate this and I feel exhausted... I'm a horrible person :(