I haven’t had a *huge* interest in sex for years. Probably since I was 18. I find it interesting that a lot of girls my age are still sex-obsessed. 

Now, and for months, the idea of it is just *incredibly* unappealing. I’ve wanted it less and less, and I’m getting to the point where I find it abhorrent. 

I was the horniest 15 year old in the world, but it was only because I was inexperienced. Now I know what sex is. Anyone who knows the nature of humanity, who understands sex and everything else, cannot find sex enjoyable. It’s impossible. 

I don’t know if this is really a depression thing- I think it’s more of a revelation. BUT, I am certainly depressed that I have one less thing to enjoy/ look forward to. I’ll never stop masturbating (though I do that much, much less than I used to as it is), but it is a little sad that I don’t get to look forward to losing my virginity one day. I’m sure I still will, just to be able to say I did it, but I’m certain I won’t enjoy it.