I'm so annoyed rn. I'm grateful that there are people around me. But they are they same ppl that messed me up this bad to begin with.

I'm so used to doing things myself. Even with my stupid fears and limitations. But with the online shopping world being the way it is at the moment. I'm stuck. Asking for help, asking for things, or just generally being a leech.

And it is pissing me off ! Because these people don't really 'help'. Like I may have bread right now, but to get it, was an emotional upheaval with my manipulative mother.

And I'm OVER IT!. 

EDIT: Yeah I'm going on. But nowhere to vent so, forgive me if I sound like a whiny child.