I wish I would get help from somewhere. I'm always anxious around other people and my mood seems to jump around day-to-day. I'm supposed to be studying but I've stopped going to school since last summer. I'm not even motivated to study now that I think about it. I have an apartment that's only meant for students so I'm kind of just waiting until something happens because I don't know what to do.  

I don't have hopes of making friends because I'm very quiet and not good at talking. For example I joined an online community recently with really friendly people but I have ended up saying nothing and just reading other people's conversations.  

I keep thinking that talking to a professional would be helpful for me. I've tried to bring it up once or twice at some general physical examinations at school but they have led nowhere. Maybe I just downplay my experiences and don't want to bother them too much. I want to talk to someone about these problems... I think it would be nice to have someone who listens to me and is able to help.

I keep typing these types of posts but have never posted them because every time it starts to feel like I'm just complaining over some tiny problems that I should just get over.  

I don't really know why I wrote this. It's not going to do anything and I keep thinking of more things to write about. It's been over two hours for me to write this mess lol... I feel like I get overwhelmed because I don't know what to write so I just keep deleting and adding stuff and the text doesn't make sense. That's also one reason I'm scared of talking to some professional. I'm not sure what I would say to them and they might think I don't actually have any problems.  

I'm going to sleep right after I post this, good night. :D