i've literally never been this depressed before. its taken me weeks just to post something or try to even talk about this. when it first started i couldn't leave the house. now i have trouble leaving my room or even my bed. i'm already a low to non-functioning bpd and this is the worst its ever been. i live with my parents and am a single mom and i just dont know what to do anymore. my area has terrible mental health resources and the closest mental hospital that is actually equipped to handle my issues is like 3 hours away. i dont know if i should try to seek inpatient treatment or what. its like my entire life has been swallowed by apathy and despair. every day i wake up knowing i'm a terrible person, a shitty mom and a worthless girlfriend. i feel like my life is spiraling into nothing. i struggle to even get up and eat and take showers. i have medication and have been taking it but its like its stopped working.i know you guys aren't professionals but have any of you gone through this? how do i make it stop? should i try to go to a hospital or something? i feel like i just keep letting everyone down. i honestly want to hurt myself but i dont even have enough energy or care enough to do that. everything in my life just seems empty and meaningless and i'm tired of being a burden on everyone in my life.