so i recently realised how bad my anxiety has gotten. i start panicking, over thinking, projecting onto people i care about, having complete emotional lash outs before realising oh fuck and just shutting down completely. it’s pretty cyclical because i’ve seen this happen every 2 weeks or so and every time i make a plan of action and i tell myself this is what i’ll do but in the moment i just can’t. it’s like my anxiety literally controls me. like in the moment bc of my intrusive thoughts I’ll get these waves of overwhelming emotions where ill do things that ik calm me would not agree w but in the moment i have to do them. (it’s more of a paranoia kinda thing tbh). any advice or suggestions???

im f18, never been to a therapist about my anxiety and idt my parents would let me go tbh 

tldr: anxiety getting rlly bad fucking my life uh oh what do i do!