I have to do a review in my new company talking about my concerns, my aspirations, how I see myself in a few years and things like that...

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And what do I tell them? If I have a hard time getting through the day? I have no aspirations or any motivation or anything.

I don't even like that my colleagues talk to me on the work chat in case it's to tell me that I've done bad things and feel useless

I get up every day doing my best to endure the anxiety, the tachycardia and my desire to die... And hoping that day the anxiolytics take effect on me, which many times they don't and I'm sick almost all day.

My only goal for the day is to finish and be able to get into bed, hopefully, and I don't get up the next day.

I don't want more responsibility, I don't want people in my charge, I don't want to have to deal with more people.

I just want to disappear