I have a fantastic husband and gorgeous step kids and I am so entirely certain from his words and from his actions that he loves me and wants to stay with me, but my mind is so convinced that be wants his baby mama more
Or she still likes him
Or he thinks she’s prettier ? 
I have no idea. It changes a lot. None of the things I’m worried make ANY sense with this situation. My husband has given me NO REASON to believe any of this is happening and he is so supportive and helps me see what’s real and what isn’t and I entirely trust him. But my mind just won’t listen ? And some days while he’s at work and not next to me I feel like my chest is on fire and I’m so overwhelmed with this worry that has no reason to exist. I feel like I’m chasing nightmares. I feel like I’m creating problems just because there isn’t one. 
I don’t know how to regulate this. I don’t know what to do. 
And I want to scream because I know these worries aren’t even real. I just don’t know how to make myself realize this. 
I’m sorry this is just word vomit but I just need to get this off my chest and hope that someone even remotely understands. Because no one in my life knows what it’s like to be so worried about things that I know aren’t even real. I don’t know what to do. 
My life is so good except for me and my mind