Hello. I have never had friends, I have never gone out to a party (or even gone somewhere with friends) when I started my adolescence around 12 or 13 years old I had to emigrate to another country because of the situation in mine, when I got to the new school I started to make "friends "I started talking to people but a few days later I had to move back to another part of the city, I had to drop out of that school and that's how I've been all my life, moving from city to city, country and country, always for my family's work. I can't talk to them, they're not very talkative for this kind of thing. What should I do by killing myself? the only thing that saves me is that sometimes I use weed and my guitar is the only thing that doesn't make me feel lonely writing some songs sometimes. And I don't know what I'm going to do. It's what I ask myself every fucking night. What should I do? THAT? and I don't know because every day I feel like I want to kill myself more and honestly I can do it I don't know what stops me I don't know what. Thanks for reading this