When I think about the life I've lived so far I feel like nothing has really happened to me. It seems like I have these beliefs of my past but I wasn't there. Like I've been from the outside of my own life looking in. It seems like I've lived forever (I'm 27). 

I consider trauma a really big word, and I don't believe I had trauma growing up. Rather, I had an average childhood but I'm highly sensitive and the negative aspects of growing up effected me greatly. For example, I grew up with 4 brothers and sisters who used to pick on me often. I don't remember specific incidents but I remember how I used to feel around them. My dad was pretty strict and harsh with his words. He would never really say things like "you're acting stupid right now", but more like "why are you so stupid?" My mom was sort of non existent, there physically but not there emotionally. Anyway, I've done alot of drugs in my life and this disconnection might be related to that. But does anyone else feel like their life is not their own?