I got my first job at and I started training yesterday. It went really well, the work was reasonable, the people were all really nice abd supportive.

Yesterday was great, I came home happy and excited for the next step, but after I came down from the adrenaline rush of being out in public and overstimulated, I crashed. Hard. I've been having a panic/anxiety attack ever since and I wasn't able to make it into the workplace.

Do I just give up? It honestly feels like the only option. I feel like such a basket case. If I do make it in tomorrow, what happens if I get asked why I wasn't there? Throw myself into a panic trying to explain? I just don't know ehat to do anymore.

Life is hard enough, let alone when paired with mental illness and being misunderstood.