The constant over sharing and feeling uncomfortable because I just told a stranger my whole life story.


The need for approval which causes me to wear something nice or put on makeup just to go out but feeling out of place whenever I do.


Analyzing everything I write/send/say to a point it takes me forever to get a point across, and then having it come out wrong anyways?


Posting something on social media and feeling confident about it and then seeing it later and thinking, "why tf did I post that" and then deleting it eventhough it was probably fine. 


Not being great at socializing. Repeating the same words over and over eventhough I feel like I have a decent vocabulary.. I just can't seem to use it sometimes? Hell, even telling a story just causes my insecurities to come up sometimes.


Not knowing what to talk about but still needing the other person to keep conversing with me so stupid just comes out.


Ghosting people because I don't want them to eventually think I'm weird and/or lose interest. 


Not talking to anyone at work because I don't want to be seen as less than my actual intelligence or potential. Or cause them to regret my hiring? 


And oh God, the stupid, tiny, mistakes I make all the time. I *fixate* on them like it's going to cause my downfall. 

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Like wtf. Why. What am I? Fucking 5? It feels like it sometimes. Does anyone else feel any of this? Does it get better?