**I have so many dreams! :) Im anxious to show my face on here because of all my insecurities. But, I am fully done with letting insecurities rule my life!**

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Hello. I hope that you are having a lovely day!

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I am a neurodivergent American guy in his late twenties that lives in the USA. I’ve decided to give vlogging a solid shot. I have briefly tried vlogging before a long time ago in the past but I sadly quickly gave up on the hobby because life got in the way and plus speaking is very hard for me (i have so many insecurities), but this time around I’m extremely determined to STAY vlogging. To be very blunt, vlogging is a very difficult thing for me because I have a speech impediment and a few disabilities - but - I want to get out of my comfort zone! :) I am too stubborn to fully give up on my dream of vlogging, lol. 

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Im mainly just a huge lurker but I have decided to actually show my face on here because I’m so tired of not really doing anything productive in life because of all my insecurities/fears! Having disabilities is very hard for me and I’m still fully coming to terms with my situation even tho I’m in my late twenties, - my childhood was full of special ed classes and doctor visits. I am determined also to stay positive. I have very loving parents/family that I live with and I’m super thankful that I have such a awesome family - but - my family literally does most of everything for me, I have become totally codependent because its way easier for me to let my loving family do all the difficult things for me even tho theres actually a lot of things that I’m way capable of doing but I’ve become lazy (also mostly I fear of failing. There are so many things that are extremely difficult for me because of my disabilities. I know that I shouldn’t spend my whole life in fear of the unknown/failing, I got to start fully trying things that are out of my comfort zone.)

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My loving brother is going to move out soon because he’s getting married soon. Im not going to be able to spend as much time with him anymore. I love my brother and I think his future wife is very nice, but I’m going to miss him living with me! My brother is one of my best friends haha my other best friend is my Service Dog. I don’t have much friends - my friends are mainly just my family members. I have a wonderful family but sometimes I feel VERY ALONE. Im going to start daily vlogging and I have a long list of difficult things that I’m going to try to achieve, vlogging is just ONE of the things that I’m going to do to to get me out of my comfort zone. I believe vlogging is a very healthy way to get me out of my comfort zone. My parents/family are encouraging me to vlog haha they think its a fantastic way to get me out of my comfort zone in a super healthy way.

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I am a guy that has never been on a date before and I am also a guy that still lives with his parents even tho he’s a adult. But thats totally okay. Im starting to finally fully learn: I don’t have to compare my life to others. Also theres a few toxic people in the world that dislike people like me because they don’t like disabled people, but who cares what the toxic haters think. 

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A few of my hobbies/interests are: anime, casual gaming, hiking, camping, cooking, poetry, road trips, baking, violin, cosplaying, reading fantasy novels, skateboarding, and etc.

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This is [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjobWgaiR2o](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjobWgaiR2o) my first video of my brand new vlogging journey. Don’t feel any pressure to subscribe tho :) I only want you to subscribe if your actually interested in subscribing to me. Maybe you can relate to me in some way? I am very excited for this channel! I am going to do daily uploads (one upload each day) and be speaking about many different topics in the channel! This channel is going to be a virtual diary of my life. Some of the topics that I’m going to be speaking about in the future are: mental health, living life with disabilities, Marine Biology because I dream about being a Marine Biologist someday haha even tho I would need to go to ‘scary’ college for that, gardening, chats about music in general because I’m totally obsessed with music, travel blogs, etc. 

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I have no idea how many people will actually watch my videos but I will be happy no matter what because im actually getting out of my comfort zone. :D

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I dont have a drivers license but I also want to learn how to drive. Im going to take driving lessons soon! I have so many dreams and goals. 

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Thank you for reading my post if you read it. :) I appreciate it. You reading my post makes me feel less invisible. I know im a human but sometimes I feel like a alien because im so 'weird'. I have a tough time connecting with strangers because a lot of people have a hard time understanding what I say because of my speech disorder.

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:) Have a wonderful day! Stay positive! :)