 This year's been horrible I graduated in 2020 in a bad town with nothing to do or anything around. had horrible anxiety so I never went out with friends. so once I graduated I lost all my friends they barely reply to my messages even when I told my grandfather passed.

 My mom mentally isn't here anymore so she's at a nursing home.  I quit my job because when I was taking care of my mom my boss wanted me to come in so I quit. I wanted to quit four years mentally it was horrible but that was the last straw.  

I don't know what to do I went to therapy for a year and started taking medicine for anxiety and depression. but my therapist just didn't feel like she cared and insurance ran out so I can't go to therapy anymore like I said it didn't seem like she cared anyways.  

now I'm sitting here at home questioning what's the point struggling trying to find something to do try to find what I'm passionate about drawing writing YouTube I just can't figure anything out. 

I don't see any point in getting my driver's license because it doesn't feel like going out with friends and doing stuff as an option. so I feel like I'll just be wasting money on insurance and car payments and stuff.

  Even if I got my dream job something like working for Game Theory as an editor I don't think I would be happy I think I will still feel this way.