I just want to write this story somewhere down.

I (14m) had an school Meeting with my mom yesterday and she talked about my younger life which I know nothing about, because I was bullied from students and teachers, and tried to forget about everything. I started getting suicidal at age 8 but kind of handed it all. Now, 4 years later, I’m suicidal again. I don’t know what to do but I made a plan. I thought a lot about it and decided that I’m gonna kill myself at the age of 21. I don’t know why 21, but it seems long enough to potentially handle the situation. I don’t know what to say anymore, so good evening to you all.