Hi there. I was diagnosed with BPD about 3.5 years ago and I never properly took care of it. I went to my psychiatrist and took meds here and there but never went to therapy. All of my symptoms have now caught up with me. My husband found out lies I have been telling. Including inappropriately talking to someone for a while and lying about it when he messaged my husband about it. And that was kind of the last straw and I knew I needed help. I have been talking to a therapist now but I still feel stuck and depressed and just like a failure and a crappy person. I know I’m not one but that’s where my mind constantly goes. I just can’t control my feelings lately either. I snap at my husband and daughter and get really angry at them and feel terrible about it later. I just feel lost and stuck and don’t know how to go up from here anymore.