I’m sorry that this isn’t flaired right I just don’t know how to do it. 

Back to the post though, is there a way I can make sure I have this condition and it isn’t all in my head? I don’t want to ask a therapist cause if it turns out it was all in my head then it’s going to be a waste of money, but at the same time I missed my chance today at my annual exam to ask the doctor about it cause I chickened out. I know that there are symptoms lists you can match yourself to, but I know the dangers of that.

Also just a wee rant about earlier today, but I’m so mad at myself for that. I was hyping myself up for a week or two since my last big mental break down. And then today here I am and I say, “No, I think that we are all good”. Dang it!