In a way it’s a relief after a crippling depressive episode, and so far it’s been more of a hypo mania but now my teeth are chattering and Im shaking, which is usually an indication I am headed for full blown mania. I’m taking Depakote and recently doubled my dose but I feel like I maybe need another mood stabilizer on top of the Depakote. For now I’m just checking in with people like my parents and my boyfriend to make sure I’m still in touch with reality and avoiding making any big or permanent decisions. I’m also making sure I’m not so much as texting anyone outside of my immediate circle (basically my parents, sister, boyfriend and 15 year old daughter) I’m just waiting for it to be Monday so I can call my psych and get something added. I’m the meantime, I hate this feeling. The limbo between hypomania and full blown mania is the scariest part of this illness for me. I feel like Alice in Wonderland teetering on the edge of the rabbit hole. I really hope I don’t fall in.