i have really extreme scoliosis and as of my last visit to the doctor it turns out that im going to need to get surgery immediately . the very latest we can try to put it off is this summer . im scared . im not scared of dying in the surgery but its gonna take me so long to recover and i could potentially be paralyzed if things go wrong . ive always felt really unlucky but i think its more than that now . i just dont really know what to do or how to respond to this