Hey guys,

I’m currently at work trying to calm myself down. I took half a klonopin out of desperation. 

I have GAD but in the past year my health anxiety has been really bad. I am always told I am perfectly healthy by doctors, the model patient. Why doesn’t my body believe it or feel it? This morning at work, I had a quick sharp pain in my head, and an on and off tension headache since yesterday. That sharp pain flew me into an anxiety attack, that upset my stomach and had to use to bathroom at work. Now my brain is telling me I can’t breath or swallow correctly. I’ve had headaches as far back as I can remember and even went to a neurologist as a teen. I should be used to headaches. 

I take klonopin as needed (I can force myself to make a bottle of 30 pills last a year, I take half only when I’m panicking in public settings) and have been off Effexor for 4 years... because  I hate depending on medication to make me feel normal. I should be able to be stronger than my mind. Why is it so hard to rewire my brain? Also, my health anxiety makes me not want to take daily meds because of long term adverse effects. 

Can talking to a therapist actually rewire my brain, does that actually ever cure lifelong anxiety??