Hey everyone. At this point in time I've not been diagnosed with BPD, but I do have an appointment with a psychiatrist next month. I'm hoping posting here can maybe help me, or someone else who might relate to my problem.

I'm a 31 y/o man, in college, and working. I have a long-term girlfriend and I feel like I'm pretty outgoing in social situations. I'm overweight, but working on it. I feel pretty stable in most areas of my life, except for one.

Lately I feel like what I wear needs to reflect my personality on a particular given day. I have many passions including, but not limited to: horror movies, hockey, baseball, video games, music (listening and playing), as well as others. I feel like I have two personas - there's the dark, horror version of me who wears horror movie shirts, a leather jacket, pins, etc. But there's also the version of me that is comfortable being in a sports team shirt (or jersey), hat, etc.

For some reason that I can't quite articulate, I can't seem to reconcile the two. I feel like if I dress either way, I'm "cheating" on myself with that other version. If I don't dress with horror shirts or whatnot, I feel like I'm not being true to myself, and I feel like people in the world around me aren't seeing the real me. In my head, I know it doesn't *really* matter, but humans are visual animals and we glean a fair bit of information about someone with how they present themselves.

I also concede the fact that being overweight is absolutely *not* helping my self-confidence, which is why I'm working on it.

I'm not sure what to do, and I keep overthinking this issue. Any tips, advice, or anything positive would be greatly appreciated.

P.S. - No, the irony is not lost on me that Jason wears a *hockey* mask and is one of the all-time favorite horror franchises, haha.