I have been thinking about admitting myself to a mental hospital lately. My mental state keeps going down hill and i guess im delusional? anyway, i dont want to cause last time i said anything (i was a minir at the time) my mom just said "you're not going back to the hospital" eventhough it had been a bit over a year since i had gone at the time. i felt i really needed it and was spiraling but i made it somehow. now i feel like everything is out of my control, im overwhelmed and majorly stressed and i dont feel like i belong here, i have many bad thoughts in my mind, i hate how i am rn and have no clue on how to get outta this slump...... anyways, ummm id like some opinions or anything about weather its a good idea to go or not

TL;DR i need some opinions on weather i should go to a mental hospital and get help.