i have this guy that i really like and there’s times he can be very emotionally unavailable and i’m completely unsure if he even wants anything to do with me , everything i feel revolves around his responses and when he doesnt say anything all day i try to send a song or say something and it takes him hours to respond. there will be days he texts me out of the blue saying romantic shit or calling me cutie and acting like he likes me and we’ve hung out a couple times and i really enjoy being with him but i’m afraid i’m
not deserving of love and i’m being unrealistic and it’s been making me extremely suicidal for the last few months. i don’t want to fuck anything up and we’ve sorta communicated about this but i just am afraid to tell him how i truly feel in fear of abandonment as always