Hi all,

Glad to find this group! 
I've struggled for as long as I can remember with relationships, trust, having an unshakable idea that I should just let anyone do whatever they want to me and it's okay because I have so little self esteem (neglectful and emotionally abusive parents - took me so long to say that after studying the four types of abuse when becoming a teacher) 
I have been in and out of hospital and therapy, tried multiple different antidepressants and have also self medicated with alcohol and drugs.
I am from the UK and whilst I really appreciate the NHS, I haven't been able to find any diagnosis except for general anxiety and depression. Having paid for my first psychiatrist he has mentioned I might possibly be BPD (others have said bipolar in the past).
I'm scared but hoping this can only be a good thing and they have recommended CAT treatment along with different medication.

Any advice on how to cope would be really appreciated 🙏