I've suffered from depression since I was a teenager (now 26), self harming from about 16/17 and first suicide attempt when I was 19.  Have been on various medications for depression for the last 5 years, never felt it improved much.

Have finally gone through enough of the process of psychotherapy to get an assessment (it's partially my own fault I have failed to get so far in the process before) and they've diagnosed me with BPD and referred me to a service for that.

I am in a stable relationship - a first - previously I would sleep with someone for at most a few weeks before getting freaked out if anyone mentioned the world relationship.  That or one night stands.  Slut would be a fair description but one that generally makes me very upset.

The boyfriend is really good, he looks after me, friends think he's been a good stabilising influence on me, it's been really hard for him at times, he's ended up in A&amp;E with me a few times following me eating poison and taking over doses and dealt with other instances of self harm.

While I've heard of it's not something I've ever known anything about before looking over the last couple of days, I'm not sure that everything really fits, it's fair to say I am pretty unstable in terms of emotions, I get very upset very easily over nothing, get angry over nothing, although can also get really excited and hyper over relatively small things.  Impulsive is definitely a good description, I've ran up large amounts of debt in the past with reckless shopping and attempts at suicide are very impulsive, it's never planned and by making it hard for me to access things we've prevented me doing much harm.

I'm not really sure what to say, I figured this might be a good start for getting information, although my assessment at the BPD service is only next week, it's just hard to patiently wait that long!