I'm having another particularly painful time due to some surprising (shocking for me) things I found out last night from some friends. 
I still dont know how to deal with the intensity of the pain &amp; I really wanna kill myself (I wont of course, but its on that level of pain) or do something to numb the pain, I cant find anything to distract me &amp; I just keep crying. If anyone has any suggestions, please please let me know. 

Thank you 💕