I am so scared of death like really scared of dying. The thing is i am so very suicidal the impulses of suicide are there so much. I have in the past attempt to end my life, which failed or I just snapped out of it.

I am so lonely, I have no friends at all I have never had a girlfriend or had sex and I am 28 years old. I feel the need to lie to people all the time just to appear normal.