Whenever I like something -really- much, like a painting, a building, a song, anything really, I feel overwhelmed. It's like I become obsessed with it until it makes me feel empty. 

Okay, I like it. Now what? I need positive things in my life and I want to enjoy them, but this overwhelming sensation just makes me feel empty. My life consists of constantly protecting myself from negative things and the moment I enjoy something it feels so unnatural and obsessive that I feel empty.

Honestly, this sentiment is ineffable, I can't describe it, but I'm hoping some of you will understand and relate.