I want to start by saying I have some comorbid diagnoses Bipolar, ADHD, Body Dysmorphia, Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I’ve been dealing with all these things for more than 10 years and I feel it’s taken it’s toll on my mind and body. While I’ve dealt with a ton of fatigue during depressive episodes my whole life. Particularly over the last 3-4 years I’ve notice that even when not in episodes I am exhausted almost every minute of the day everyday. 

Everyone tells me to “exercise” “eat well”, I eat fairly ok and also I’m too exhausted to exercise i attempt it often and it falls to crap in minutes because I become so exhausted and frustrated easily. I have back pain and aches from depression, but also from just being constantly tired. By body is always physically in a state of feeling like I didn’t get enough sleep or that I’m ready for bed even if I got good rest. My concentration sucks from having ADHD, but it’s even worse because of the exhaustion. I’ve been able to produce anything creative or put any effort into anything I enjoy because I feel physically so run down that I just want to crawl up into a ball on my couch. I also have been getting sore throats recently which is also a symptom of Chronic Fatigue. 

I feel like people really don’t understand how tired I am when I say that I’m tired, it’s always brushed off. It’s also even more difficult because I’m a stay at home and have no energy or concentration to be attentive to my child and I feel so down about it, i watch everyone play and interact so effortlessly with my child and the only thing I can do is give him hugs. I feel like an awful mom, but I’m trying the best I can. I’m just ridiculously tired all the time.