No matter who I hang out with, or how good it was, I'll always feel empty and depressed after we finish hanging out. It happens all the time to the point where I dred having to end hang outs but that's not realistic or fair on them ofc.

I guess it has alot to do with the fact that I'll probably never see them again cuz they might abandon me, they might internally hate me, me not knowing who I am, and so on. Its hard for me to not feel awful after a good day out with people and I hate this instability