Im beyond my breaking my point. No one cares. No one is listening. Im always crying. Always struggling.  My life feels like a hellish nightmare from which there is no escape. I landed back at my moms house. She's always belittling me. Yelling at me when im down. She doesn't care when I say I'm hurting or I don't want to be here anymore. My sons father went and ditched again. I lost my job. I don't have a car. All my dreams I had to put on the shelf have all since been crushed and shattered. Im afraid ill never be happy or have the life I so desperately want. Im unlikable. Hell, im downright unlovable. The stress is aging me. I no longer feel beautiful. I look in the mirror and im instantly panicked by what I see. No matter what I do or how hard I try I always fall short. 


How do I turn this around? How do I make things better? All my life has been trauma after trauma and I have never known comfort or safety. How do I obtain what feels so... damn unobtainable? Its not getting better... and everyone keeps saying g it'll get better.......