Hi, all. 

So, I'm thinking about switching doctors. I saw mine two days before I got admitted into the psych hospital recently. She told me the hospital wouldn't do me any good, but she didn't refer me to a CSU or even bother changing my medicine or anything. Instead, she just discussed the possibility of ECT with me and then sent me on my way. It was my therapist who got the ball rolling for Hospital Land. 

I'm kinda mad at my psychiatrist for not doing enough when I was so bad off. I'm also mad, because I feel like every single psychiatrist I have ever encountered has failed me in some capacity. I've decided I'm going to address my physical health concerns and see where that takes me. Specifically, some family members of mine recently learned that they have a rare genetic disease. I'm going to get tested for it next week, and my results should be back from that two weeks after I'm tested. The rare genetic disease in question is called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, or EDS. EDS does cause hypermobility of virtually every joint in your body, and it can cause inflammation everywhere. That inflammation can contribute to mood instability, and I'm starting to think that's where part of my issues are coming from (I also mentioned my theory about a nerve pressing somewhere it isn't supposed to in another post). 

So, I want a new doctor for a few reasons. I want somebody who will take me seriously and do something when I'm in crisis mode. But I also want a doctor who is educated about physical health matters. This isn't even the full extent of my health concerns. For example, when I was four or five years old, I was bouncing on top of a bouncy ball, and I fell on top of a doorknob and busted the back of my head open. I wonder if I have brain damage from it today that is manifesting itself as mood instability. These are things someone with a neurology background might know. 

I just want some answers, and I feel like the entire field of psychiatry has failed me. That's why I'm looking elsewhere. I'm getting a neurologist, rheumatologist, and even a dermatologist (to perform the skin punch to test for EDS) on board. I'm fed up with psychiatrists. Had my way about it, I'd get my psych meds from a neurologist. They'd probably know more about it than these damned psychiatrists do. Ugh.