my teenage years are wasted. all i have to look forward to is my schooling and a job which is all fucking pointless. itll never make me happy. im so estranged from society, i dont know how to fit in or act normal.  i will never be normal. my anxiety will keep me from ever feeling normal in this world. i cant do anything right. im so disconnected socially and i feel out of place no matter where i go. i have nothing going for me. anything good i have going for me, i just fuck up because im incapable of doing anything right because thats how i was destined to live this pathetic life. this isnt even being pessimistic, i genuinely cannot find a reason to look forward for today or the day after. i want to quit and leave it all.