I don’t know who I am anymore and it’s kind of scary to me, I have four kids and have been married for almost a year. And I’ve been together with my partner for almost 5 years total. I don’t know what to do, I don’t even know really if I belong here anymore. Trying to do anything at this point proves to be a very big hassle. Doing anything with my four children, getting up out of bed. Taking a shower or even cleaning my home. My wife has been amazing through this. However, I don’t know how long I can continue to hold on like this. I can’t go and check myself in anywhere because i would lose money from work. I can’t really talk to her about it because she seems to think that I don’t care about her when I can’t even care about myself right now.  I’m scared. And it sucks.  Does anybody else have any suggestions or is anybody else going through the same exact thing?