I always ruin happy moments or times by just being me. I make up fights out of nothing, wanting people to read my mind or give me 24/7 attention and assurances. I really hate myself and my life, I've always had but this time is different because my life is actually good, i have a really good boyfriend and I'm in a healthy relationship. It's been 4 months since i last harmed myself. Though university isn't going well neither my relationship with my family, still, i think it's better than the old dark days and I just hate how im ruining it by just being me.. a stupid dramatic asshole.