Jesus am I just an emotional trainwreck.  I take lamictal, gabapentin, olanzapine, and lithium. But Wait It gets even better… I found out recently that I’m 7 weeks pregnant. So I’m all over the place. I sadly have to discontinue the gabapentin and lithium because it hurts baby. I don’t even know if my meds work tbh. I always have a mental breakdown at least  2 times a week. I grab all my meds and try to overdose or just scream, shake, and punch everything to feel the pain. I’m over sensitive and feel like I’m attacked all the time. I have bad anxiety, worse than before. Like pregnant woman are usually sensitive and anxious but imagine having EUPD, social anxiety, and ptsd while pregnant. I don’t know how moms do it. If any of you have children or went through pregnancy… I praise you!!! This shit is hard. I’m always so upset: enraged and suicidal.