I can't take my depression anymore. I hate me so much. I get close to someone that wants to help me that wants to shower me with love and attention and support and I just upset him to not talk to me anymore. I'm tired of hurting people I want to just disappear and leave everything behind for the pets in a will so they will be taken care of. I'm just tired of life. I want to be held and loved but I always fuck it up in the end. I'm better off alone hiding away in my room.