No matter what I do it comes back, I truly believeI have it since I relate to other people who show signs and I get so depressed I can’t do anything, I think life is so useless if it’s going to end at some point, it will all end and nothing will be remembered, all ends that’s how it all goes, I’m not feeling confident in my hobbies and I can barely go anywhere, I just want to go somewhere I just want these thoughts gone but that will never happen, I will never be happy it keep coming and never getting better, the pills don’t help even work longer, Will I even live longer will life keeping changing and making me more depressed, life isn’t a living person but it’s like it’s playing with me like a puppet putting worse things on my life as enjoyment for some universal show..