I wanna talk about this while I’m still sure of how I feel but I despise my family. Or atleast the part I live with (though most of the ones I don’t live with I also hate). It’s not because of something stupid like not getting me what I want it’s because they all specialise in different ways to make me feel awful or annoyed or whatever. My oldest sister completely disregards any privacy and ruined my first date in a very long time when we saw her patrolling the area to “find out who I was with” and this is not the first time she has ruined interactions with other people for me. My 2nd youngest sister is the most okay of the two and I actually don’t mind her most days tho she has her moments but I guess that’s just people in general. But my youngest sister is well the word failure incarnation. Not like she’s bad at anything no she fails to be a decent human altogether. She has no regard for how mentally or physically damaging she can be. For examples, she has multiple times attempted to hurt me as I was closing my door to my room usually leading to objects like metal beams going through my door. On the mental side she is worse she cares 0 about how badly she can hurt me and has wished death on me and my family multiple times and also at one point made me consider suicide due to how badly life was for me though it wasn’t only her she contributed to it. But what allows my sister to function the ways she does is my mother who same as my father are failures as parents. No matter what I do my youngest sister kaci is always more important in my moms eyes and no matter what happened in an argument even when my sister hit me straight in front of my mom she never cared. My mom has also on multiple occasions threatened to leave this family. My dad is the most simple he just doesn’t care. If I didn’t go out of my way the only contact we would have would be him asking me to make him coffee. It is so crushing to want to tell him something just to be either ignored or cut off while he talks about what he wants. There’s a lot more wrong with my family but that’s it for now.