I could have gone to college with my best friend but decided to go to the cool party school instead, he ended up making great friends, joining clubs and having the time of his life with a great job lined up out of college. I struggled socially my first semester, isolated and dropped out of at 19 due to insomnia and a bad depressive episode. Never recovered from that, I stayed in the college town and worked part time but never made friends or did anything fun, just worked 3 days and slept away the other 4.
Now I'm 27, no job, no skills, no friends, no money. I was just taking it one day at a time until one day turned into 3000 days. Feel hopeless about any future for myself other than being homeless or working retail. Sucks I ruined my life over one decision