Those words hurt even without context. I saw my partner and his ex text and she wrote “that’s crazy” I recently had an episode— he thinks It wasn’t an episode— even if it was it was my fault because I haven’t gone to therapy and I stopped taking my medicine. 

Last Thursday I made us lies about his ex and now they are probably laughing about it, getting in some good zingers about how I am crazy. 

I hate having BPD, I hate not having anyone to talk to. After this episode I’m not going to be able to tell my partner. It’s going to be my responsibility to have it in check. I just have to journal about it and talk to my therapist. I feel like I’m against the world now…here’s to black and white thoughts. 

What todo if you saw something you want to forget and cutting is no longer the answer?