Honestly in last couple days I'm thinking about just ending it... I have no interest in living or achieving anything... I know there are people around me that care but if I don't care I feel like I'm only gonna make em suffer... I'm just a lazy fuck who lost interest in every aspect of life... I don't care about literally anything.. I see this people be trying to help me but what's its good for when I don't want to be helped. I don't wanna harm nobody no more. They will deal with my death but they won't deal with how I fuck up my life for years and in the end they all gonna leave me because they gonna understand I just don't care... I have really good life and I should be thankful but I'm not .. I'm just numb ..