me (24f) and my husband (22m) have been seriously getting into it lately. we had an argument I regret a lot two days ago and it's been sitting on my spirit. we both said things I personally think we don't mean but when I went to apologize at the end of the night and make up he was basically nonverbal. so I told him I was gonna leave him alone and I went to bed. he comes into the room later on and flashes his phone light in my face waking me up and then spends the rest of the night tossing and turning between holding me and having his back to me. usually he just picks one (and they don't usually have emotional meaning. just favor over facing a certain way) but this felt like he didn't know whether or not he was feeling me at the moment. so that's how I took it and I couldn't sleep. I've just been super anxious since the fight and honestly I'm anxious enough on a daily basis I literally don't need any extra adding to that. but then yesterday when I think we're better we get into it again. he came home on lunch and took a nap by me on the couch instead of upstairs in bed which was a good sign to me that he wanted to be around me. he initiated a hug even. and we were good when he left for work again. he came home. still good vibes. he went and worked out in our home gym and I went to cook. I cut my toe (broke a jar of garlic) and he stopped his workout to clean and bandage me. he relaxed in the room alone after his workout. that was fine. I ate my food and spent time alone. later on he came into the living room with me and played the game with his friends. this went on until about midnight and I asked somberly if he was actually going to bed or if he had just said that to them for some reason and he was. in my mind we had spent no time together and I wanted to. before he'd gotten online to play with his friends I asked if he wanted to play a game we like to play together and he said not right now. so when I asked him if he was going to sleep he asked if I was trying to ask him to play the game again and I said no that wasn't it I just wanted some attention. in any way he wanted to give it. and this sent him over the edge? I didn't mean it in any type of negative way but it really seems like the word attention is a trigger for him. I speak very plainly and he always gets on me for things "sounding bad" when I say them. I'm just stating facts. I would like attention. I don't know any other way to communicate this..he said "the way you said that. and when you say things like that it makes me not even wanna talk to you" and he basically kept trying to storm upstairs and I kept trying to keep him downstairs because what the heck? I basically just said I just wanna be around you. I want you to look at me. what is so bad about that? I hate that he makes things into something they're not. I'm never trying to fight with him. I literally hate confrontation. it makes me itchy and sweaty. I also hate that when he was leaving the living room he turned off the light like I was supposed to go with him. it felt like he was shutting me out physically. and then when he finally got up to the room he closed the door too. I hated it. so I just decided to go play with my switch upstairs since that's what I was doing downstairs. he laid under the blanket with his head covered watching videos  for a while and I played my game. we didn't talk to each other really. but I showed him a meme later into the night and it was well received. so I figured we were good again. he went to the bathroom like he always does before bed and I asked if he could get me a new bandage because mine was peeling. he reapplied the new one and even doubled up to make sure it was secure. we joked and laughed and I told him about me not sleeping well lately and we joked about that he tried to give me some tips and he held my hand so I could sleep (physical touch helps me feel safe which calms me so I can sleep) I know I'm really needy. I try not to be but I am. this morning like many mornings we fought about alarms. I'm a full time housewife so I don't have a need for alarms most mornings but I try to be considerate of him because he's such a heavy sleeper but this morning I counted 15 alarms spanning from 6:20-7:15 and he just ignores them. snoozing them so they repeat. and he has his phone ringing off with alarms as well as the actual alarm clock we got. I know he has trouble waking up for work in the morning and he'd get in a lot of trouble for not showing up I just feel like the consideration stops at me. he won't change the sound (it's so harsh and really takes me out of my element) I've offered to be his alarm but I'm not consistent enough to do it for him. some mornings I don't even hear the alarms. but most mornings they keep me up. it's really frustrating and he won't budge on them. so now here I am. awake when I'd like to be sleep because once I'm up I'm up. it's so annoying. idk who believes in this but I think this retrograde is taking a huge toll on us. I've been thinking about looking into therapy so I can have someone to talk to or journaling about my feelings but he's nosey and I know he's gonna read them. maybe I should write things specifically for him to find. but I'm torn on that. idk....