I can't, my life is just hit after hit after hit to my soul, i'm in a constant state of fight and struggle against life, i think i'm not made for this, i never think of suicide tho cuz i love life but i feel everyday with no hope of things getting better, i also sometimes cry at night that i wasted my childhood and part of my teenage years 😞😞😞 i have the hope that one day i will finally heal my wounds and just think of the past as a bad nightmare