I recently finished my masters. I need to update my CV to get a job to move out of my parents', a literary agent has asked me to send some of my novel through, I have a fashion fitting in 5 days and my body isn't ready .... I can't do any of it. I just can't. I've spent the week nursing my ED, and being completely mentally checked out. Every time I think of 'bringing myself back into the present moment,' I look at the present and think 'nope', then mentally check back out. 
I don't know what to do. I don't like being in touch with reality because i don't like my reality. Hence, I'm struggling to stay in it long enough to change it.  
I've tried to 'just do it,' and 'break it down into small steps,' and 'write a schedule,' and 'visualise' and 'meditate.' I wake up, work out, procrastinate and daydream at my desk, binge, then go back to sleep.
Any advice on how to remove this block I've put on myself? 