Isn't it so ironic?

And even if you tell friends that you have trust issues they kind of take it personally that they don't trust you and they distanced themselves.

Where you are forced to lie to act so "trustworthy" so you can feel less shitty about yourself for not trusting then yet hate doing it because if lying isn't productive saying the truth isn't either.

Mental health professionals often say there's a way out but is there?? If you can't have no one to live and yet you really cannot have anyone.

I think BPD is just full of irony.