My BPD is ruining my fucking life and I’ve never been more alone than right now because of it. I’m in therapy but one appointment a week isn’t enough to stop me from wanting to die every day. Multiple times a month multiple people ghost and block me from everything, they say my bpd causes them too much stress, or I always act too toxic. It feels like all my friends are vanishing and the pain in my chest is becoming too much. It hurts so much and I don’t know what to do anymore, everyone is leaving me because of my behavior due to this fucked up nightmare of An illness