all i do is sleep.. seizures make ms so tired and depression and suicidal thoughts... i'm about to join the dead i guess. i will see if there is a hell or if there's nothingness. i have access to his gun. i see no reason to continue living this way.  i mean what else can i do? i am sick of seizures, i am sick of it all. i am sick of hearing him complain, i am sick of being dependent on him, i am sick of pissing myself... i just want to rest forever. 

my mom doesn't want me to live with her.. she says i'm just a child that is a mistake and nobody wants an adult that's 23 that pisses their pants and seizures daily living with them. my dad says I'm

all i do is get denied medicaid.. i get seizures daily.. my father is ma king me g et off of al my meds so he can stop paying for health insurance and retire so he can just sti back and watch tv all day and do nothing else.

dad told me i'm just going to hell.. he hates the thought he says, and he's going to heaven and god will wipe the thought... i guess i will see if there is a god shortly idk what else to do