I know I deserve to be stabbed but I'm trying to be better, but it's not working. And I know I shouldn't be posting this but I want to feel loved but I also know I'm not supposed to want that. I miss my fp, I hate having to have an fp, I hate this, I know I deserve to be punished but no one will do it and I'm scared of blood. I'm only writing this for attention please don't hate me I just want to feel loved I'm sorry, I shouldn't post this I know I shouldn't post this I know I shouldn't post this I know I shouldn't post this I know I shouldn't post this I'm sorry too drunk to be smart I'm sorry