I hate that I push people away. I hate that i'm so negative. I hate that I can never forgive myself, or move on from a situation. I hate that I can't just "relax". I hate that I suffer sensory overload. I hate that i'm too sensitive. I hate that I constantly have no motivation. I hate that I can't focus. I hate that I have so many issues.

I realise that i'm not the only one who suffers, and i'm not trying to be selfish. I just get tired of suffering so much. Trying to constantly get over obstacles. 

I just want no issues, even if  it's just for a day.

All comes from;

The Anxiety disorder.
The OCD.
The ADHD.
The possible** autism.
The trauma.
The loneliness.

They all cause issues, whether it's overthinking for days, extreme anxiety attacks, not being able to focus, or even just wanting to get away from places where there's too much stimulation happening. 

Multiple issues is the worst, it causes so much pain and distress. I just wanna be free from it all, is it really too much to ask?