It’s getting bad again and I dont know what to do with myself. I dont know what to do with all these thoughts. I really cant take this anymore.  
I guess I’m writing this here to see if anyone can relate, because I am so alone and I never fit in anywhere. I try so hard and at the end of the day I’m still all alone.

I have gotten help and I have gotten medication and it has helped, a little. But I always fall back to this and I just feel so alone and overwhelmed and like I cant take another second of it. I dont know what to do with myself. 
But maybe its supposed to be like this? Because everyone I have talked to has just kinda forgotten about me. “Heres your shitty meds, lets talk in a year” and then dont even reach out... its the same damn thing every time. Is this just how it is? I really cant tell anymore? Maybe I’m just too weak and living is too hard for someone like me. Maybe I’m just not meant to be here? That has to be it


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