And nothing is ever going to change for me. I’m going to keep ruining relationships. I’m never going to be able to feel anything. I’m drowning in this empty sad sea and no one can help me. I’m a burden on so many people over and over again. I can’t support myself. 

All I do is feel like crying, do drugs to make it from one side of the day to the other, the same things over and over. I want to rip my skin off. 

I’m so embarrassed of everything I’ve ever said or done. I wish I was gone. I wish I could give all the help I get but don’t deserve to my friends. 

I’m so scared and hurt. I wish I were dead.