You know when someone is talking to you and you can feel unsolicited anger just building up inside of you and you just pray the conversation can end before you explode?

They can be talking about anything in the world but for some reason, you just don’t want to listen. You get an attitude and they question what’s wrong. You don’t know why but that makes you more angry. You snap and scream at them. You blow the situation out of proportion and hurt their feelings. You feel guilty, even before you lost your cool but you can’t stop yourself. Your words spew out without your consent like lava. 

You hurt someone you care about and you weren’t strong enough to stop yourself. The guilt takes over. You deem empty and alone. Why do you always do this? You push people away. You deserve to be alone.

The next few days are full of darkness and depression. Until one day, something inspires you and you have an epiphany. Suddenly, you feel like you can do anything! you try to make amends with anyone you hurt and reach out to new friends. Maybe pick up a new hobby you probably stole along w the entire character of someone you saw on tv. Life is great until the cycle starts all over.

This is exhausting...