I’m 30.

I had anxiety since age 6. 

I’ve been to the emergency room 3 times this past two weeks for heart palpitations, they say everything’s fine. 

I’m beginning to be afraid of leaving my apartment, I’m afraid to be alone, drop dead, last month is was my lower back, the month before that something els.

I was really sick last year and in hospital for 3 months and now I’m not a human any more.

I’m a burden for my mom and boyfriend, I’m not a functioning adult right now and I don’t know what to do. 

I’m stressed and sad, I envy people who can enjoy life without feeling like dying.