I wouldn't necessarily say "I don't know what I really want in life". It's more like, I'm still experimenting on what I enjoy to draw...and to make a career out of it. Hopefully replace it with the current job I'm working in.

As for the current job, I'm working as a custodian. Housing custodian at a university. It's a lot of work and you got to be extremely fast pace and versatile. I'm diagnose with Chronic Depression, Anxiety, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. It's so hard trying to keep up everyone's expectation. I'm always slow and having a hard time trying to finish everything. I just feel like...I'm letting people down and I try so hard to push myself over my limits to match theirs. I can only do what I can and I even told my supervisor about my disorders, to accomodate me. Which he did....but I still feel like perhaps I'm not the right canidate and I'm fearing the call of being fired and getting complaints for not finishing certain amount of floors on time. 

My mindset so far: I'm doing what I can, and if it's not enough... then I tried my best. But I know with my mental disorder, I will go back down the spiral.