I know this is kind of a weird title, but it's something I really struggle with. 

So, I've had a falling out with someone I love and we haven't spoken in a while. I'm feeling like I should reach out and be the one to try to resolve things, but I legitimately do not know what I should say. I've typed up like 3-4 different notes on my iPhone of messages I could send, but every single one is a completely different interpretation of the problem. 

One message more or less blames the other person and says that THEY misunderstand me, another one completely blames myself and feels like I'm a horrible human being who needs to beg for forgiveness, another one says that the other person hates me and secretly always has, another one says that things are probably just too damaged to be fixed by now, so on and so forth.

 I don't even know if I should bother because I can't tell what's real and what's not. 3 completely different interpretations of the same situation. I know that they all sound kinda distorted, but I genuinely can't tell which one is at least closer to the truth and which are just the disorder talking. I'm always like this with people, especially when we fight.

Does anyone else have these rapidly changing perceptions with people?