Everything about me constantly changes, one minute I’m fine the next I get these depressing thoughts out of no where and everything is shit, I don’t know if the people in my life who im close to love or hate me. I then start brewing up extreme distrust that anyone would truely have my best intentions at heart, then I love life and I’m positive and I think about all the positive things I could do, then we’re back to the random depressing thoughts and paranoid beliefs that others truely either hate me or want to do wrong against me and then back to pure happiness and extreme trust. 
This is my mind frame of probably an hour of my day and it just repeats , my whole world can shatter and nothing makes sense and I do weird impulsive things to only later regret it.