I really messed something up and it's coming to a head now. I had my first depressive episode in the pandemic and it made it really hard to ask for help. I also think I have undiagnosed ADHD. I think my ADHD comes with a lot of falling into emotions and struggling to shift out of them, especially guilt and shame.

I feel like I'm a fraud and unworthy of love and care. I also feel like there's no way out of this moment. Can anyone relate? I also feel like I'm too old to be dealing with this and I should be more settled and have more self awareness so this never happened in the first place.  I'm really overwhelmed and want to give up. Me failing in this  way really makes me question everything about who I am. Thanks for listening.