I had some motivation for the past couple months. I was staying medicated, working full time, getting into a relationship, etc. 

And then I got pregnant.

My body doesn't like being pregnant. It was my first, but I had to be hospitalized twice before having an abortion. I couldn't keep food, water, or medication down. Most of my time was spent vomiting bile and trying not to sweat all over the couch. With most of my meds being discouraged during pregnancy, my hormones were all over the place. I even yelled at my BF over a grammar error, like a total doucher...

I have been working a warehouse style job, and while my supervisors have been extremely accommodating, I've missed about a month of work at this point. And now that I've been having a bad reaction to my implant, the nurses I've been in contact with are telling me not to lift over 15lbs for another month.  

My boyfriend/FP has been and continues to be amazing throughout all of this. He has severe anxiety and chronic depression, so he is mostly able to understand what I'm going through (and I him). However, the rest of my life has gone down the toliet. I miss being out and about and going to work and getting paid to work out (in essence).  Even though work was stressful, I could have kept doing it for a while if my body wouldn't betray me. At this point, I have to take just above the daily recommended amount of ibuprofen just to get up and take care of myself. I'm rooted otherwise. 

And being constantly broke after making  good wages for a minute is exhausting. I'ven job hunting for administrative work for when I eventually get let go, and I'm trying to cook more often since I was living off of prepackaged food while I was I injured, but it's so depressing, it's hard to stay motivated.

Not to mention, my boyfriend is at work all day. I miss him so much, the loneliness on top of all this BS just kills me. I get spoiled on his weekends when he spends all day with me, and then I go all lonely puppy when he's gone again. I hope he's not annoyed with me yet.

Ugh, end rant. Thanks, everyone. 