For the past month, I’ve been juggling a full time internship, my masters course, an art course, orders for artworks, and art for myself. I feel like I’m not giving my 100% to any of it. However I don’t want to give up, and be that person, who gives up when it gets difficult. Because I WILL NOT hear the end of it from my mother. All of it is just making me exhausted, but not physically, which I guess is somehow making me restless, which makes me anxious when I interact with my friends/colleagues. And it’s not that I’m not grateful for any of the opportunities, I really am. And I think I’m confused too. Idk, sometimes I think maybe it’ll all be better if I was dead,more so because I can’t really “see a future” for myself. No matter what I have planned/worked towards,it somehow goes horribly wrong every time. So, I’m tired, I guess.