So I decided to start going to the doctor to check up on my health. I haven't been to a doctor in years as I have just a negative vibe about going. 

At my first appointment, he found a thyroid nodule. No biggie, lots of people have them. Being a primary care physician, he would Like for me to go get it looked at by a specialist to make sure it is nothing.

I lost my s***

I've had an ultrasound done to check it's size (I have no idea how big it is). I also got blood work, which came back pretty normal. 

My anxiety is through the roof. Ever since going to the doctor's, I suddenly have all these pains I've never noticed. I believe they are being brought on by anxiety and stress.

So I have a follow up appointment today and I'm kind of freaking out, though doing a follow up is normal. I also got a notification of what mail I should be getting today and lo and behold, I have a letter from the doctors office. I am currently losing my mind and scared. 

I am freaking out and just want to go home and see what the doctors office wants. It could just be a bill, but not knowing is making me go into a tail spin. Im overwhelmed and it could all be for nothing. 

How do you deal with what triggers your anxiety? How do you convince yourself that everything is going to be fine? 

Thank you for making it this far!!