This past week has been an enforcement of Murphy's law. My dog got rehomed, I got trapped in an elevator alone for an hour, I met my childhood sexual assaulter, found out my family has a group where they have just been hating on me, got three panic attacks, found out no one truly cares about me, on my birthday my cousins decided that they didn't want to spend time with me so I spent my birthday alone. And this all occured while I was on vacation. 

I do not have the strength or the will to get through another week of this. Every day I kept thinking okay, its going to get better now and it just never did. I have just been drowning in anxiety.

 I would really like to take a break from my life. I really am done. I am so tired of not having anyone understand what I'm going through and I'm so tired of losing friends and loved ones to depression and anxiety.