Earlier this year I had to quit a sport that I had been doing for 5 years. I moved out of state for college and joined my college’s club for the sport and I went to the first practice and we were working on footwork. All of the new members (many of whom I know were new to the sport) seemed to easily get it, but I had to get one-on-one help to get the footwork and it still took me like twice as long to even kind of get it. At the end of the practice, there was a review and I could not remember anything from the practice. Then, we were told that the way this sport works at my college is very dangerous if you don’t know the movements correctly. At that point, I knew that I’d likely have to quit. Even though this happened like 7 months ago, I still cry when I think about it because I had to quit something I really liked and it makes me feel useless and clumsy. 

In general, I am terrible at sports, I can’t catch a ball for the life of me and every time I play a game with any sort of projectile I tend to get hit in the head. I’ve also been told that my dancing looks like I am having a medical emergency.

I also have a lot of trouble with fine motor skills (I had to get handwriting lessons as a kid and needed a lot of extra typing practice). 

In addition, I often got comments about my lack of writing and drawing skill when I showed it to my family.

I want to start a new hobby and meet people but I just feel like I’d embarrass myself in front of everyone. I’m also really worried that I might buy stuff I need for a personal hobby and then find that I can’t do it very well since I have very limited money available. I just feel like I’m going to be terrible at any hobby I try.