why do my parents want to send me away. why do I get bullied in school like this is a kindergarten playground. why do people move when I sit next to them. what is it about me that screams that something's wrong and to stay away. why doesn't anyone actually want to talk to me about stuff we both think is cool. why is everyone so mean and angry and insecure all the time. why were my roommates scared of me. what did I do. why was I born. when will this end.