Feeling worthless all the time is exhausting. I’m constantly messing up at work . When I get home I have to much rage I don’t know where to put it so I just scream and punch walls. Yesterday I got the cops called on me, it was embarrassing. I live in a one bedroom apartment that’s falling apart and my dog just had unexpected puppies that I can’t seem to get rid of . My husband is currently out of a job, which I fine I can support us for a month or two, but when I come home from a 10 hour shift nothing is clean and smells like dog poop and when I confront him it’s always the same excuse “I just woke up two hours ago.” Or “I have a big paper to write.” It’s feeling like I’m constantly doing everything but also nothing at the same time . My job is mind-numbing and I cry everyday while I’m there, it makes me want to die but if I quit we will be homeless. So today when I got home from work I just took a shower and went to sleep till it was time to wake up again, sleep is the only place I can escape.