I have been suffering panic attacks recently, and although it's going better and better it's still absolute shit. 

So today I had plans to go to my mom for a weekend since I haven't had a panic attack in a week, but low and behold guess what happened, and I decided to stay at home and go in a few days. 

My GF on the other hand had plans to invite a friend of ours for drinks. I'm at home, in the middle of a panic attack and the last thing I can use is having people over. Am I a dick for not wanting this? 

It's not the first time that when I had a panic attack that people are coming over and I'm ''just feeling under the weather again'', but I find it extremely frustrating that I have people in my tiny shit apartment when I'm in the middle of a panic attack.