Now, if cleaning your room does help you and makes you relax a lot more then I'm happy for you. But this post is mostly of a me thing.

I see a lot of posts about trying to push people to tidy their rooms and it's like, I get it. It's not pleasing seeing a messy space when visiting someone or having one in general, but having a clean space for me does nothing since it only makes me think how fast will it take for it to be messy again. I will say this that I love cleaning and I enjoy doing it but often when I get stressed, I focus more on the thoughts rather than on the surrounding around me and get very low motivation for stressing all the time about my thoughts which causes messy room. My room is my comfort space but it doesn't erase the anxiety I feel from school and stuff. I do clean up my mess, especially when guests come over but I generally think it's useless to clean it up like sometime today because tomorrow it will be a mess again (when guests aren't over). I only clean it up once I *finally* resolved my problems which cause less stress meaning less messy room along with more motivation to keep the room clean for awhile. I also get mood swings from my meds so essentially I'm not in control a lot. The more I clean my room, the more messy it becomes. I'm not saying I'll trash my room completely, I will pick up the little bits by the day so it'll look much more appealing but not the entirety in one day otherwise the clean-mess daily cycle starts on.