Without being too specific I've fallen back into someone's open arms after having a few months break and messy break up. It is difficult for 2 people with BPD who are so similar to date.  Especially when our manic highs and lows sync together. Shes still emotionally unstable and her headspace is writing about drugs, mental illness and manic sexuality. Whereas i fill my time with work and distractions and let her contact me. She has all the BPD markers and ADD whereas I have been diagnosed with a few markers with bipolar tendencies and ADHD . We are extremely similar,  both keep secrets and are skilled liars on the bad side. Keep long distance  partners who eat our bullshit and we know it, they don't.  But together or when we talk it's eerily similar, whether we are manic and cutting each other off talking but still understanding every scatter brained talk or making each other laugh or our extreme intimatacy and intense sex life we both adamantly agree we click. The  toxicity we had was drug fueled and also, her lying and my outbursts were very unhealthy. Im very sensitive and trusting, sometimes I feel like she takes advantage of that. We're about to reconnect for a short time and then see where it goes. Obviously it's gonna be very emotional for both of us. I needed to get it off my chest and If anyone can relate PM me. We will see where it goes from there. Hope y'all are doing well and not letting our "illness" take control. Thanks.