So, based on my previous posts, some of you may know I live in assisted living where there’s 24 hr care all round. When I can’t sleep I go hang out with the night shift. I have been told multiple times that I shouldn’t be in that house with all those people and that I should be elsewhere, with people my age who aren’t criminals and drug addicts. 

The reason I’m here is because I have a severe anxiety disorder and panic disorder that stops me from being able to live a normal life and has made me very dependent on other people.

Anyways, sometimes the night shift is someone I don’t know. So, I sat in the office with them last night and we got to talking and it came up that I’ve been living here for 3 years and she was like: 

Her: Wait, you live here? (She assumed I was another care worker)

Me: Yeah?

Her: But, you seem so normal.

Me: Thanks?

Her: No, I just mean…

Me. I’m not a junkie? No. I’m here because of my BPD, C-PTSD and anxiety and panic disorder.

Her: Wow. I mean, you look great.

Me: Thank you.

Her: Usually people with BPD are super crazy.

Me: Yeah, we’re all clinically insane.

Her: Really?

Me: No. But, we have a hard time processing our emotions in a healthy manner. Inter personal relationships are hard, we CAN become either super co-dependent or split completely. Sex can also be pretty tricky.

Her: I heard people with BPD have incredible sex.

… What a fucking idiot.

Me: Yeah, the clinically insane have the best sex, we’re like animals.

Her: Really?

Me: No. Bye.

I agree that I could have used this opportunity to educate her but then again it’s not my responsibility and it was 2 in the morning. The ignorant usually stay ignorant.