This is something that’s always bothered me when I’m feeling especially low. Today is one of those days. 

When I was younger I remember getting excited for so many things; going to grandparents for the weekend, spending time with my cousins, vacations to theme/water parks. I was excited to go to school, and even though I struggled in some areas I really was excited for maths, science, biology, and history. Learning new things - the world seemed so expansive and bright. There seemed like there was so much to be seen/done but never the time for it all. 


Today I woke up feeling especially low. It (depression) had me thinking — I am alive but I don’t feel alive. 

There are things I do because I have to; self-care, work, manage household. 

There are things I do that I enjoy; gardening, reading, roleplay, games, music. 

These things don’t spark the same feelings I had when I was younger. Today, and I know it’s because I am feeling low, I question what I can do to feel more alive. 

I want to pose this question to you;

What do you do that makes you feel alive?

Whatever it is I would like to hear about it and what it means to you.