but my fp has found someone new within like three weeks? but yea they stopped talking to me bc they said they’re too fucked up for “everything rn”, and idk if they meant a relationship or me. it’s not like he was a good influence on my mental health either, or that we were in a relationship. i had said that i’m v fucked up cuz i knew what was gonna happen. i was preparing myself from the start. i’ve definitely felt better with other people, but i connected with them very hard and we all know how fps are like. i’m pretty sure i was way too much and not good enough. it’s very common for me. i just don’t know how to trust and each time something like this happens, it is so expected, because my thoughts just expect the worse, and the worse usually happens , lol. i can’t explain the inferiority i feel and the abandonment i feel. romance is one the scariest things ever, and i can never trust it. that doesn’t mean my brain doesn’t do things like developing fps just like that. i feel like i should find a new obsession so i can get over them. it’s not like it doesn’t hurt because i’m trying to suppress it as much as i can. feeling pain over these things makes me feel weak and pathetic. can anybody offer me support? i just feel like a glass vase that was already in pieces on the floor, and they ran me over w a truck, lol. 

lol , lol.