Hey guys! This is my first time posting here so hope yall will go easy on me haha well anyway, just sharing my experience with anxiety, social anxiety to be specific. 

So I’ve been dealing with social anxiety for a few years now. I’m in my mid 20s. If anyone is curious. And the past few years has been my absolute worst years of my entire life. Not kidding at all. It was really bad that taking my own life was an option that popped in my head. But I knew that wasn’t gonna do anything but bring sadness to my loved ones and I didn’t want that. I felt so alone and felt like the world was against me. I was stuck in a very routine job that felt really boring and in a environment that was full of toxic people. So my first instinct was to get out of that environment. And so I started thinking of ways I can “be myself” while I work. The thought of becoming a freelancer or a digital nomad popped in my head and slowly I began to look into things I can do. 

Having a background in design, I knew I wanted to do something design related. And I continued to search more for the type of job I can do. One day at my job, I came across an article on Complex.com which was about streetwear brand owners who are under 30 (forget what the title was exactly). But then reading that article, it was like a light bulb turning on and it just clicked to me then. I generally liked fashion all my life and also had people compliment my style at times. And so that’s when I came up with the idea of starting a streetwear brand but not just a streetwear brand. I wanted to pursue starting a streetwear brand around mental health and help people who are struggling like me. 

So what started off as a therapy for my ownself, quickly became a mission for me to pursue for the people as corny as that may sound. It’s definitely is a win-win and finding this passion really has been therapeutic. Everyday I wake up excited and motivated. Cuz I wanna put out something in the world that would help people like me feel better and not feel bad about their struggles. And most importantly, this new passion of mine gave me the confidence that I lacked from ages ago. I do believe that low esteem significantly impacts anxiety levels. Trust me, I’ve been through that so I know. So with this new found confidence I have, my anxiety levels are a lot lower than before and life is getting better. 

Morale of the story: Find a passion, a purpose, anything that is close to you and chase after that. Find something that brings out the energy from you. This will do wonders to you and you’ll be surprised. 

Not sure how many people will read this if not any but, I hope that you all can find something you’re passionate about. If you already do have something, keep chasing it and immerse yourself to it. Slowly but surely it’s gonna build that confidence in you. If you don’t have anything just yet, try out things to figure out what makes you lose track of time and forget about everything else. 

If you’ve made it this far, I truly truly appreciate you. Thank you so much for taking the time to read. 

And if anyone wanna talk or need someone to talk to, I’ll be glad to chat! Just dm me or leave a comment! 

Take and Stay safe everyone!