So today has been pretty shitty. I cried for about 10 minutes and then scarfed down a breakfast sandwich. So... not great but not the worst. I honestly cannot tell you what lead me to crying. I guess maybe because I have 3 work meetings and while I don't really need to do anything I am still constantly anxious. I really don't know whats wrong with me. I don't think I want to stay in the job but I don't even know how I would quit. Confrontation is something I avidly avoid in life (thank you mom). I have messes to clean up but I don't know how to do that either. I just want to be done with all this. I can't shut my mind up. It's constantly running.