Today, I sent this as my last email for the person I loved the most in my life, my perfectly imperfect pwBPD. I thought maybe this could find refuge here.


Dear X,

Life is strange. You are one of the sweetest humans I have known. I wish someday you can see what I saw in you. I wish people would see what I saw in you. You were the smartest, and the prettiest girl in my eyes (I know you do not believe me, but you have the prettiest body I have ever seen, I promise).

Take one step at a time, do not think too hard about the future or money. One step infront of the other and I promise you will reach where you belong and deserve.

It is ok to be confused about life, where you are going, who you are and what you want. Try to be patient with yourself. You will have answers as you go.

Do not worry you don’t have any answers. Do not worry that nothing is clear. It will be. Give yourself time. It’s ok, keep walking, slowly. I will be walking right next to you. I will always be there.

If you ever need support, I am here. I hope when that time is here, you can put aside your pride and rely on me.

You do not need to act tough infront of me, or pretend. I will accept whatever you show me, without any judgement. Don’t be afraid.

Shame, guilt, anger, pain, you can show me whatever you really feel and I will still be there, without ever changing my opinion of you. Without ever judging you.

Keep walking X. I love you.
Astrocytopene