25M I find no joy in life anymore, things that used to make me happy don’t anymore. I never have any happy or positive thoughts all I can think about is ways I can die or kill myself and other sad depressing stuff. I can’t even remember the last time I smiled and didnt fake it. I’m an amateur fighter and lately I’ve been skipping my training sessions. On the way to the gym sometimes I’ll just break down and start crying and I’ll turn around and go back home. I shouldn’t feel like this, I have a good heart and Im a good person