I worked a full shift of overtime today in work, that’s 12 hours on top of the 40 I did during the week. I agreed to the overtime because I’m the breadwinner in my relationship. My boyfriend is currently finishing an apprenticeship in the UK so he doesn’t earn much. So I send him money every week just so I know he’s ok. We are currently long distance. Because of my job I don’t get to call him often but I always try to accommodate him. I fit myself into his schedule even though he’s not back to work yet as he works in a school. 

Today after I got home from work we agreed to FaceTime after he was home from the shops. I waited 2 hours before calling him, and when he answered he was drunk with his mother who he hates. He asked could he call me tomorrow instead and this really upset me because I got up at half 5 in the morning worked 12 hours extra just so I could earn enough money for the two of us. And then he doesn’t even have the decency to message me and let me know he’s not calling me. 
It took a lot of effort but instead of reacting with my emotions I simply told him he really upset me again because he constantly puts me in second place to his social life. And he told me to chill. 

I’m currently not talking to him until he apologises but it will be a long time before he even messages me again as I am so unimportant in his life, the life that I mostly pay for. It cut me so deep to learn he puts his mother who abused him for years and who he hates, above me. I have never felt so unwanted before in my life and while it kills me to even think about, if he continues like this I will end up leaving because I won’t spend my life being someone’s second choice when everything I do is for them