Unlike me who had a shitty abusive mom who ruined me and brother, they all have great lives

Most of them already have jobs, are living on their own, some are dating/have lovers, and are independent. They're mental health isn't as fucked and they can move through life even with their issues

But me? I can't. I have no motivation and is too hellbent on suicide to care. I've accepted that I am trapped in a situation that I can't get out of anytime soon. Thanks to continued abuse throughout my life all my good years of life has been ruined. At 24 I would rather die than to heal my trauma and just be at peace for once...