God where do I start. Recently my health anxiety has been returning and I've been trying hard not to spiral— tonight being one of the hardest nights so far.

This past month I've been taking medication for Thyroid issues (which thankfully I feel is most likely temporary), and I've been feeling great. Mentally I was thinking clearer and just feeling less anxious in general. Especially in regards to my health. However, the past week or so it feels like all that progress I've made is crashing down on me. My sleep schedule is struggling to return to the decent one I had finally managed to get, I constantly feel like every single thing I feel is a sign of something seriously wrong, and some nights now I'm getting the feeling of dread of sleeping at night because I worry I may not wake up. It sucks because I've been doing so great, the best I ever was in years.

Tonight in particular has been rough with the world just seemingly trying to get me in a panic with a ton of illness related content coming my way (some examples I can name on the top of my head is news of a member of Blink-183 having pancreatitis, an article of someone who has recently developed monkexpox, and a thread on Twitter if the worst physical pains popping up a ton). It's like the world is trying to scare/warn me. I know I'm not the healthiest, but I'm pretty sure I'm nowhere near deaths door. Hey my brain has been telling me otherwise and I hate it.