In my teens until I was around 20 I had no idea I even had any kind of mental health issue or that anything was different with me, and I have a narcissistic mum who was no help to the situation. I was horrible. To my parents, to my first two girlfriends. I was violent, full of rage, abusive, manipulative etc. I had no idea why I just acted out, I didn't think there would be consequences to my actions. 

Now I'm 26 and I am so much healthier. I am not abusive, I'm in a healthy relationship and I have control over my emotions. I've worked so hard to get here, but I can't forgive myself for the past. I don't feel like I deserve to. I was a monster.

Anyone else in the same boat ?