*I'm sorry in advance, english is not my native language.*

I don't know where to start, because I've never written a post like this.  I don't know what I'm looking for in writing this.  Maybe someone will be able to resonate with this little post. 

A little history of me, a few years ago I wanted to take my own life, because I wanted to stop suffering; I am medicated for depression, ADHD and anxiety; I have a psy; I'm currently waiting to see a psychiatrist and I'm lucky because I have a very good support system.  However, despite all this, I find it extremely difficult to navigate in my mid-twenties. Currently, I work about 40 hours to meet my basic needs, but I live paychek to paychek and I have a loaded credit card with thousands of dollar on it. I don't practice my "dream" profession, because I have no idea what I want to do. I feel like I'm on a artificial respirator and accomplishing nothing. My days consist of sleeping around 15+ hours (when I can) and endlessly scrolling on my cell phone to get away. I feel caught in a cycle, I work; I sleep to escape reality and I pay my bills and debts (which never go down). I know that money is a factor that makes me very anxious, because I'm always afraid of running out of it since at the end of the month, I have practically nothing left. I try to start small projects to stimulate myself, but I always end up giving up because I lose interest or have no energy. Fortunately, I know how much potential I have and that I am a brilliant person.  This is one of the reasons why I feel taken.  I've been caught in this loop for several years and I sincerely want to get out of it, because I don't want to remain in a "victim mentality". I know this short post doesn't quite represent the pain I'm going through, but I know that even though I'm in a completely dark, windowless tunnel right now, one day there will be light.  I have confidence, but it's just very difficult at the moment.