I have already given up on my life cuz I have realised no matter what I do nothings ever gonna make me happy . Happiness is an illusion a myth  and it's always the next step like do this after that  you will be happy do that you everything will be fine but that next step where the door of  happiness exists never comes .We are always step /steps back to happiness ,most close you can get is that you can knock on the door .