so i was with my bf and he hates when i leave bc my mom or sister calls for me and i came back to him late and got pissed bc he was sleeping. and then he felt bad i think and asked to cuddle. then later i was on my phone and he yelled at me that i keep waking up but i thought my volume was minimal and i didnt know he could hear it :( and i just went to a different room and started quietly sobbing and im very much splitting on him rn. idk what to do. i was picturing him neglect me more even though he is rarely like this (i think today was a tiring work day) and usually so loving (like he would hold me and talk to me and then snore loudly bc i asked him to and it made me feel safe) and i got so traumatized by my imagination (i was imagining me asking him to abuse me and if he didn’t - bc he told me he would never hit me or anyrhing - i said i would hurt myself) and it hurt so much that i kept scratching myself for relief as self harm until it burns and leaves scratches. i want to wake him up and talk but i feel terrible for not giving him rest. i think writing this post is helping me calm down but i really need coping skills