I broke a rule and lied to my boyfriend a few weeks ago and I’ve apologized and apologized and apologized and Now he’s saying he should be able to go break a bunch of rules and I started to have an episode and he’s telling me this isn’t normal and he won’t help me and I can’t stop crying I can’t breath I feel like I’m breaking I feel like I’m going to die or that I just should someone please help me idk how to calm down