Hi everyone. This is my first post here. 

I've had a coming to consciousness moment over the past few months. I've recently engaged in therapy for the first time in a decade &amp; am finding out that I have BPD. 

Looking back through the catalog of my life, I am just beginning to realize what prey I've been to this monster of a disorder. 

Right now, I'm oscillating back &amp; forth between bouts of dissociation, depression, &amp; a sense of bleak optimism that I now have a label for everything that is wrong with me. 

I don't have much else to say, but I am filled with inexpressible questions &amp; am wondering where can/do I go from here. 

What helped you when you first realized you had BPD?