So I nearly blew up my life (again) by going on vacation without my partner and coming extremely close to cheating on them this past weekend. Realized there was a manic episode underway &amp; told her when I got back, and we're now trying to work through it. 


I'm still feeling incredibly hypersexual &amp; in the danger zone, and our sex life frankly has not been great for a long time. Now she's saying she doesn't feel safe around me because I'm so unstable so naturally she doesn't want to have sex with me as a result. Which is reasonable. 


On the less reasonable side of things, she won't stop taking about how she thinks I'm unstable *because* of meds, like we're all overprescribed pharmaceuticals which have negative effects that end up being greater than they problems they're intended to solve. Be that as it may, I'm in contact with my actual mental health care providers who are actually doctors and diligently taking the meds prescribed by them to try to get better. 


But meanwhile I'm struggling a lot, still feeling so hypersexual I'm in literal physical discomfort, and 
consumed with regret at not hooking up with the hottest guy who's ever hit in me in my life. And here we are. Have you been here? Please help.