Just seeing if anyone can relate. I have difficulties in friendships… I don’t have a lot of friends and I feel like I shouldn’t put effort into friendships (even though I do put way too much thought/care into them. Ie. I care so much and I give my all and will talk so much I worry I’m annoying or that I’m being to personal or over sharing) because I know that I have difficulty with interpersonal relationships and I’m scared I’ll push all friends away eventually with my weird ways of thinking. 

I hope I articulated this well lol. In short, I want friends, but also don’t want to bother because *inevitably* I’ll end up pushing them away (and why waste the energy), but I end up always being what I feel is overbearing anyways.