For me, every night is misery. I smoke a joint or two before going to bed, but I still cannot get a good night's sleep. I am an introvert who does not participate in any activities. When I go to bed, I cry a lot, I feel embarrassed, and I occasionally dream about disappearing somewhere and being alone. However, I enjoy hanging out with my friends. When I want to do something fun with them, I occasionally back out, and other times I make the party boring. This makes me feel a little anxious. That is why I prefer to be alone. It's less painful, and I will not panic. Having less money does not bother me, but when I am unable to do something I enjoy or when I am left out on purpose, I can't handle it, which happens every day.