I posted about this same thing on two other subreddits, but I’m trying to cast a wide net for help.

22F, medicated with Lexapro and Pamelor with PRN hydroxyzine, seeing a psychiatrist (who is also my therapist). Diagnosed with dysthymia (double-depression), generalized anxiety disorder, and, now, ADHD.

All 3 of my diagnoses are bouncing off of each other like a hellish game of mental pinball. The depression and anxiety aren’t as bad as they used to be but still hold their own. The ADHD is the worst (and probably exacerbated by the other two). Never got tested as a kid, despite elementary school teachers asking. Did really well in K-12, then turned over and died upon reaching college, already failed nursing school twice (trying again in the coming month).

Psychiatrist doesn’t want to treat the ADHD symptoms and wants to focus on treating the anxiety. Tbh, I feel anxious because my fucking brain doesn’t let me do what I need to do. I know I need to clean and study and return those texts from 3 weeks ago, but I just...can’t. When I try, it’s like my brain forgets how to work. My body shuts down while my brain is screaming for help.

I know nobody here is a doctor, but I’m really struggling. In therapy, my doctor is great, but I have to beg her to pay attention (haha) to the ADHD symptoms. She said that I “grew out of it” and “treated it on my own” and “did too well in school for it to be considered severe.” 

I mean, I trust her. Her suggestions have really helped my anxiety problems, but they’ve only gone so far. I live with my brain 24/7, you know?

Suggestions? Tips? Survival stories? Anything is welcome.

Thanks for reading my post. Stay safe.