Alright so... I've been diagnosed with BPD for a bit now. And my mood swings are fucking horrible. I got really high highs, and then I crash to the point of horrible self harm. And then I got horrible lows. Sprinkle in some really bad hallucinations in between. 

My doctor suggested putting me on antipsychotics. And now all of a sudden, when I'm at my worst, she says she doesn't believe in antipsychotics or mood stabilizers for BPD, and I'm just gonna have to deal with it until I start DBT. Which is??? God knows then. Nothing's confirmed.

I've got no idea what to do. Gimme advice please, I'm losing it.