I'm crying.. I feel so useless and so pathetic. It's depressive episode again and I hate it. I hate it so much.

My partner got scammed again today but she already reported it. Some countries are so corrupted like that, it's so insane.

I feel like I'm not in control, and I'm a mess. I feel like I'm gonna die young. I was so passionate with life before, but I was bitter. Now I'm much more mature in handling situations without hurting people, but I don't have the same passion anymore.

I'm so unhappy with myself.. And I can't stop crying and this anxiety will kill me one day.

I want a hug. LDR is so tough when I'm in this condition.