My hair is too long and I want a haircut the problem is that I am freaking out about going to the fucking barber. It's so ridiculous it's just a fucking barber I know nothing bad is going to happen but I am still freaking out. First off I need to call them and make an appointment that in itself is already fucking terrible cause ya know calling somewhere is terrible enough and then I have never called a barber before. The last couple years my sister has been cutting my hair cause pandemic shit and all and before that my mom made the appointments so I have never called one before and I am stressing cause I don't know what the fuck to say. 

And then idk how to tell the barber what kinda haircut I want. I used to have long hair and that was easy just told them how much shorter to make it but now I need to know like what kinda fade I want and shit and how many millimetres my hair is supposed to be long on the sides and everything and I don't know any of that cause I just told my sister to do what she wants and she did and that was alright. 

And just it's all so dumb cause I just puked cause all this shit is stressing me so much and it's just a HAIRCUT. I hate myself so much. Why am I like this? I hate having anxiety other people just go and get a haircut and I have been wanting my hair cut for a fucking month now and it's bothering me so much and I just can't do it and I told myself I am gonna call today and I just can't manage it ffs. All I managed is make myself absolutely miserable over a fucking haircut, maybe I should just give myself a buzzcut and call it a day and never bother with a fucking barber again