i feel so defeated. ive had 3 blood draw attempts and 2 covid booster attempts and i can't resist to urge to scream and cry and run out of the medical facility. everytime someone brings a needle near me im filled with such intense panic and i cant sit still. ive tried valium and it doesnt fucking work. i cant get any of my medical shit done like this even though i want to so badly. im so fucking done. im so defeated.