I am currently 22 years old and as the title says, I no longer feel any kind of joy or happiness from anything in lifeLately I’ve been going through some really rough times in my life and it has gotten to the point to where I just feel completely empty inside about everything.

My girlfriend (who I currently live with) and I used to always be so happy together and we’d never fight. However, lately we’ve only been bickering with one another and always end up upset with one another at least 5 times a day. 

I’ve realized that I have no true friends left in the world that actually care about me or my well-being. For example: I was recently extremely sick with a stomach flu that made me miss an entire week of school and work which resulted in me losing 12lbs (I felt skeletal) and the only way I could get any rest was from fainting. But once I had recovered, I realized nobody ever checked in on me or was concerned about where I was. Then when I told people about what happened nobody really asked or cared where I was. Not even the people who I considered to be my good friends.

At school and work I feel like I am not cut out for my profession (culinary arts). Everything I make isn’t right and is very disheartening because I try so hard only to fail.

I feel like my main issue is that I care more about people and making them happy then they will ever care about me. It’s not that I don’t have any “friends” or people that I interact with. I always am friendly to everyone and make sure that everyone is included in a group, however, nobody ever takes the time to ask how I am doing despite the fact that I’m always looking out for my peers. I know that I’m well liked among my classmates and co-workers, but not enough for anyone to want to strike a conversation with me or sit with me.

All of these things culminate into me feeling like I don’t have anything to look forward to, nothing to be proud about, nothing to be excited about, nothing to come home to, no friends to share a laugh with, and no reason to feel anything other than emptiness. It really takes a toll on my mental health leaving me to just feel useless. 

TL;DR, nothing in my life is going well and leaves me in a deep state of depression.