Yesterday, my wife needed to go to the ER. She had some leg pain for a few days and then noticed some swelling in  that leg. Those are signs of a blood clot and require an immediate diagnosis for obvious reasons.

I'm a hermit. Going out into the world is generally a big ordeal for me, so when I was settling in to play Sims and my wife suddenly needed to go to the ER, I had to quickly shift gears. My brain did not like this. I needed to find clean clothes I hadn't showered in a week, my two usable bras were missing/dirty, I was worried for my wife, and the list goes on.

I was so mad at myself. I'm still mad at myself. My wife should not have had to comfort me when she was the one who needed comfort. I really fucking hate this. 

As for my wife, they did find a blood clot, but we caught it early and it's small. She'll be on blood thinners for the next 3-6months, and we'll follow up with our pcp this week.

She's doing as well as can be expected. It kinda feels like there's a ticking time bomb in her leg, but we know all the warning signs to look out for.