Which I could at least touch myself. But everytime I do I wanna think about my bf, and then I think how he has a porn addiction and isn’t ever thinking about me. And then I hate my body and feel so ugly for even wanting to do it. I wanna sext him and send nsfw pics. But I know he won’t use them and he’ll probably do it to all the porn he looks at daily. I feel so stupid for trying to be sexy and turn him on and begging for his attention. He’s the absolute apple of my eye only thing I ever think about. I guess I just wish he felt the same. I can’t enjoy anything sexual without thinking about it.