I am a 19F and went through a hard breakup in mid October 

For context, my ex boyfriend had to move across the country for work, and we had been in a cycle of miscommunication. I was completely broken. 

Since then we have taken space but talk here and there. Recently we have spoken a lot, and I decided (with him too) to go visit him in January (does NOT mean we will be together again) to see how he has changed. 

However, i have been seeing a friend. I told him that I still love my ex, but it didn’t bother him. I was and still am single, but i feel guilt for doing things with someone else. 

I truly love my ex boyfriend. I just feel so guilty. And now i have to figure out how to tell this “friend” that I am going to visit my ex

How do I get rid of this guilt and cut off the other person? Im so anxious about this