It might appear as of there is a small ray of hope at the end of the tunnel but there isn’t. Trying to fake all the happiness,sarcasms will last only till there is another soul to receive it. The moment you get alone the reality will start haunting that whatever u do however optimistic it will be difficult to get away from this never ending feeling of dying but existing at the same time. Ending it all seems like a good plan but then your
 realise that you don’t have the guts to do it.