I just turned 30 few months ago.

Long story short I had a mental breakdown and delayed my plans to move out. I had been working past few years and working weekends to save up aswell. I felt like I was always under pressure etc so I can move out, get independence etc alwayd negativr and feeling behind in life etc. In the end, it was my doing but I blame society aswell for having this stigma on people living home or if you havent moved out by 30 you are a failure.

Ive had bouts of depression and anxiety in the past but at 27 I had an anxiety attack and I havent been the same since. 

After my mental breakdown I have opened up to fsmily about what I am going through and that I have had this for a long time. I have come to terms with my living situation and I have gone to therspy and started medication since march

I have still been getting mood swings and episodes of depression and anxiety. I have felt like dieing and absolutely worthless everyday now.

I hope to start having a shift in my mindset, function as a normal adult again so I can move on with my life but also so I can start enjoying my life instead of the constant negative self talk, pessimism and anxiety about the future and regret over the past.

What are your thoughts?