i’m in a relationship with this person but i am constantly being emotionally manipulated and physically hurt. i am typing this with marks on my face and bruises on my arms. i am so self aware of how toxic and self destructive this relationship is but i genuinely lost all my friends. he is all i have. will it always be like this? me too afraid to leave abusive individuals because i rather be hit than be alone? why can’t i leave when i know the night will just end with him putting his hands on me? it should be easy but it isn’t.