Does being alive suck for anyone else? I feel like I can’t ever win. I’m on a fuck ton of medication. I picked up my apartment a little last night- but I got so exhausted by it. (Which is why it’s always a disaster!). I literally fell asleep randomly last night at 7pm &amp; woke up at 5:30am for work. Everything I eat makes me feel sick.. I get shaking, I throw up, I get migraine. Seriously what kind of life is this?! Yes.. I am doing well for myself on the outside. I work two jobs, and I do fast track full time college online. But on the inside I feel like I’m a complete failure at life. No matter what. If I’m already this tired... what would it be like if I had a child one day? a family? 

I do trauma therapy weekly AND I’m starting DBT in a couple of weeks. I’m really trying to create a great life for myself. I’ve stayed on the right path.. I keep my friend circle small. 

Does anyone else feel like this... I know people probably do. But I feel like no one around me at least understands to this extreme.