Definitely may have lost track of days as I've been medically signed off work since the start of December as I seem to be spiralling... got upset Tuesday because my Doc was supposed to call me and she hadn't. By 6pm, I figured my 10:40 phone appointment probably wasn't going to happen which would mean I'd have to sort an excuse to not go to work... fortunately¿ I've got a mild case of covid atm, so rested on that to email my boss 😅 I drafted it around 3/4am Wednesday morning and hit send around 7am when I woke up to feed my cats. I checked the NHS app later Wednesday morning to see if maybe the appointment had been rescheduled, but it was still saying Wednesday at 10:40... WEDNESDAY AT 10 FUCKING 40 🤯💩☠ I had started drinking whiskey neat and vodka mixed with whatever fruit juice I had in the house Tuesday evening as a kind of excuse/fuck you to the doc... but I was a day ahead of myself...

My days are a blur, I have no routine, I know the drink isn't helping, I see no point.