I have no motivation to do anything. Not sure what I'm waiting on. I'm looking for something to fill my empty soul but nothing on this earth seems to be able to fill that empty void. Feels like the days are just flying by. I'm not sure what I should do. I don't enjoy video games. I just hop on the internet and learn a few things here and there and do the same thing the next day. I kind of just want to hop in a car and drive away without specifically going anywhere. I just want to run. Go scream my lungs out in the woods or something. I want something NEW. I'm tired of being slapped with this same reality everyday. I want to see what's on the other side (after life). I want to go on so many adventures that don't involve money or bs like that. I wish I lived in a fantasy world where I was a powerful being or something. I'm just tired of this crappy world we live in where everything revolves around money and getting the permission from others before doing things. I just want to be free to do whatever the fuck I want. I'm tired of mainstrean science saying we are just an accident because nothing exploded billions of years ago. It's blatantly obvious that's not the case. I know there's a God and there's a greater purpose. There just has to be. I've talked to angels, angels have saved me from death multiple times so I know whats up. I'm just tired of this fake lie we live in. It's almost like a soul prison here specially for those that are poor like me.