Hey there. I guess I'll go straight to the point. 

I've struggled with mild anxiety for most of my life, nothing too bad. I don't know if it's relevant but I might as well share everything. Recently, I lost my apartment and I'm for the first time in my life living in a rented room, had a fallout with my mother and my father has maybe 1 month to live, all in the past 2 weeks.

My anxiety got real bad. Everyday I feel this pressure in my heart and a knot on my throat, I get heart palpitations and my teeth chatter, but no panic attacks as of yet. My social life is pretty much non existent since I've no desire to go out, and even if I did I'm not economically stable. Fortunately, I'm able to do my job, though its definitely a struggle. 

Some days are too rough and I have to take some xanax. I've struggled with xanax addiction in the past, ended up in rehab so I know better than to rely on it too much. I might take xanax 2 times a week, sometimes 3.

Therapy is currently not an option, as I cannot afford it. I guess all I'm looking for is some sort of advice on how to cope or maybe someone shares my experience and can tell me how do they deal with it. I'm open to anything.

Thank you.