I've always been a very independent person. I dont like asking for help. But recently it's been getting worse, I sleep all the time and when I'm not sleeping I'm crying or just watching tv. I used to have lots of hobbies and a job but now I feel no motivation for anything. I wanted to tell my doctor but I'm scared they will just put me in a mental hospital (I have self harmed and one of my friends was sent to a hospital for that). A mental hospital would be the last thing I'd want because I've heard not such good things in my area. I dont want to ask my parents because they dont think of mental health as very important and I'm young so they dont think I can have stress or depression or anxiety so it's hard to get any real diagnosis (they also dont know about my self harming). My friends also just dont understand, I've tried explaining but they dont get it or dont care or cant help because they have their own issues. I cant afford a therapist and dont have time. I dont trust my school counselors because they will call my parents despite me being 18. Recently I've been getting suicidal thoughts again (I had them about 3 years ago and now they are back) How do I get help? I feel like I'm stuck.