Apologies for format and wording, I am using a phone and this event was recent 

Usually I am able to control how I act when I am triggered and find less harmful ways to control a situation however today I think I have just ruined relationships with 3 of of closest friends because I was called ‘an idiot’ and told they would reach out to other people for support instead of me. For some reason this triggered the most severe reaction I’ve ever had, and I have now blocked the person that originally called me an idiot and ruined my image for good. I feel awful. I love them all and I hate that I did it. I have already apologised however I think the damage I’ve done is permanent.

This situation feels so childish and I just want my friends back. I can now acknowledge that while they shouldn’t of said those things to me it was wrong to have the reaction I had and I hate it.