I just need to vent (and ask for advice) because there's no one unbiased I can healthily tell this all to.

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One of my closest friends was supposed to live in an 4-person on-campus double bedroom apartment with me next year (I am already bound to its housing contract), but they've decided to take a semester off, so I'm going to be put with a random person. If I'm not allowed to cancel my lease, I'll have to live in the same very tiny room as this random person as well as share a kitchen + living room with 2 other people I don't know. I'm really scared of this because it takes me an extremely long time to open up to people, so I would have no safe place or person to talk to in that environment, and I've heard horror stories of sharing rooms with random people. My friend knows that I was only okay with the double bedroom because I knew her well enough to share it with her, and otherwise I would have gone off-campus or stayed on the single room waiting list.

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My friend did the same thing to me last year but changed her mind because she couldn't get out of that unit's lease. I joined another lease with them this year because they promised they wouldn't do that to me again, and now they're doing it again, so I'm kind of hurt. The situation last year wasn't as bad because it was a single-bedroom type of thing. It still kind of stung, though. I only signed the lease back then because she had signed it already, and I felt like it would be mean not to and to just leave her there. I told that to her (this was during the beginning of covid and a combination of the virus + newfound bad reviews of the apartment made me want to cancel). I didn't want to be a bad friend, so it felt like kind of a slap in the face when she turned around and did it to me without hesitating. At the same time, college is really expensive, and my anxiety is my own problem, so I kind of understand, but is it too much to ask that they figure out what they're going to do before they put me in a legal situation that's really hard to exit? I was also scared of living my first few days in the apartment alone because of the bad reviews about bugs (which were true, by the way - huge cockroaches).

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Now, it's been months since we signed up for the double bedroom, and they've just now told me that they're leaving. It's the middle of June, so the other housing options around me are more limited, and there is absolutely no way I will be able to get a single bedroom in the same building. I really liked that it was a student apartment because last time I went off-campus it was a disaster (the roof started leaking and ruined my furniture and a lot of my items, and, as mentioned, there were bugs everywhere), and now I have no more student options. 

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My friend is a really nice person otherwise, but both times they've told me through text they were going to cancel their lease, they didn't sound apologetic or anything (although they did apologize the first time after I told them I was hurt, but it was kind of obvious I was going to be). The first time they said so I remember was kind of cold/assertive. This time they told it to me like it was like they said a random inconsequential thing in passing (like "hey, by the way..."). I'm kind of mad right now but will forgive them and stuff, but it kind of feels like it's easy for them to do this type of thing to me without really regretting it or feeling guilty, so I feel weird about it. She's kind of just like that (one time I found something in a store at a really good price and she took it from me and tried to buy it instead because she wanted to gift it to her sister. Not even herself. I remember when I told her that was weird she just got silent and stopped responding, but we found another of the same item, so we both got one anyway). But, other than that, she's really nice.

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Can someone with a clearer mind tell me their feelings and what their suggestions for me are? Mainly on what I should do about the housing, but any comment is welcome even if it's your own unrelated experience or something like that. I know I'm being kind of dramatic with how scared I am, but it freaks me out, and even typing this makes me cry, so unless meds work for me (I want to be put on them for anxiety because I'm tired of being worried over small stuff) and everything works out, I don't know what to do. I'll probably try to cancel, but I really loved the security of a student apartment and not having to worry about bugs/my roof and am really sad about it. The off-campus options I was considering before I signed the agreement for the double bedroom are probably all gone now, too. Do you think I should risk it and try the double bedroom? I need to decide quickly because I am running out of time to even attempt to cancel my housing agreement. If they don't accept my cancellation, I might need to skip a semester or something to leave it. I'm not really sure.