My mom said something to me a year ago that I'll never forget. She told me "everyone says life gets better, but it never does, things just get...different." I will never be that person. I've been in the depths of despair too long. I've been through hell and back. My mom is sad, hateful and abusive. We can all do better. Ask yourself, what do you really fucking want? I guarantee you have not taken the fucking steps to actually change, to get to that point, or have even tried because you are so certain you will fail.

If you try, you most likely will fail, you'll fail another time, then another. Then one day, you'll get better. You'll start improving. You'll start getting to where you want to fucking go. Stop fucking pitying yourself and take that leap of faith for god sake. I couldn't get out of bed for so long dude. I did everything I could to avoid getting better. I started doing heroin, I tried to die over and over and over. One day I decided, maybe I can make a phone call. I couldnt even pick up the phone and make a fucking phone call. I bet you can't either. Think for a second, how crazy is that. You're so afraid of life, you can't even made a phone call. Maybe you're not even afraid, you just have no belief that things will get better? What the fuck is stopping you though. You're so far gone, you're at the end of the line. Why not take the fucking chance. Get yourself a goddamn therapist and pour it all out dude. Let it go. You don't have health insurance? Get yourself some medicare mother fucker. Therapy doesn't work? Who would've thought just talking doesn't change shit. But you know what? you took the first step. You probably felt a little bit better at one point at least, even if the next day you felt like shit again. That's how this depression shit works. It's a demon, it gets you down. You have one good moment, then you forget about it. You have to keep reaching for those highs. And drugs aren't going to help you, I promise. I did every drug you can imagine. I did some bad, bad shit. It doesn't work. 

You want to know what worked? I worked my fucking ass off. I did what had to be done. I hit up my old friends. They ignored me. So I started doing better. I tried to make myself appealing to other people. I picked up a hobby and forced myself to take it seriously. Then one day, I had real interests. A mother fucker answered the phone. Now I got some friends. They're not good friends yet, but I can get there, you know? Its just going to take some more work. So I made sure I went out everytime some shit went down, even when I didn't feel like it. I joined a program so I could get a real job. I doubted the shit out of myself the whole time. I told myself I'm not good enough over and over, then guess what? I ended up being good enough because I got a mother fuckin real job, a good job out of fucking nowhere.

Get the fuck up and start doing something. Go buy a fucking punching bag and smack the shit out of that thing. Go to the bar and start talking. Go do something you wouldn't normally. Get out of your fucking comfort zone, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and be ready to fail. That's how we learn. We fail and we then we learn from that failure.

You made a 1000 mistakes the first time? Next time you're only going to make 990 mistakes, and so one. Your brain keeps telling you there's no way, you're not good enough. Guess what, right now you're not, youre being a bitch, but you can improve. There's always room for improvement, you can always try something new, and youve never tried everything. If you think you have, you're a fucking liar. Take that goddamn leap of faith and do what you really want deep the fuck down. Do something other than sleep and cry. I've been at the very bottom, and I'm coming out on fucking top. Ill have a really shitty day, and I'll piss and moan about it. The next day I'm smacking the shit out of my heavy bag and I'm ready to go again. So write down what the fuck it is that's really keeping you down. What the fuck do you really want, and what can you actually do to change it? If you think you're too ugly to get laid, guess what, that's a fucking lie. I promise you that. I look like a goddamn child and Ive done well for myself. Youre not going to lose your v card because you're a sad sack of shit that doesn't believe in himself. Take a fucking shower, getting a fucking hair cut, and go learn how to talk to the opposite sex. It's not going to change overnight, but you'll get there, and if you need any advice, say something and I'll tell you where you're fucking up. Everyone here needs a little guidance, a little love, a little slap on the ass to tell them they can do it. You'd be shocked to realize how far simple, small gestures can go when you get never get any praise. if you really are willing to try, you can make it. You can do what you want. You may never be "happy," because that's a fucking dumbass fairy tale emotion, but you can not be a slobbering blubber of tears and negativity. You can be content with moments of profound joy. So think about it. What do you think would make your life just a little bit better? What is one thing you want? Just start with that and reply to this thread with it. We'll figure it out as a community. Instead of wallowing together, this should be a community of strengthening one another, we all need it as human beings, no matter how well things are going for us in life.