i literally can’t take it i have to take care of two elderly people AND a 16 year old. she’s older than me. she refuses to take care of herself or anyone else. there’s so much pressure that keeps building up i just want to die no one cares what effect this has on me i just want to mutilate myself and spit on her. i’m trying to recover from a lot of things but i just can’t anymore. i feel like there’s really no escape. i just wanna take a bunch of pills and die. but it would be selfish because i know that she won’t take care of my grandma or grandpa if i’m gone. i don’t know what to do anymore.