SO my mental health has been the worst it’s been ever. Anyways I was talking to this guy. I realized he was getting to be my favorite person n somewhat boyfriend. but there is so much going on in my life rn I split from him. I basically told him I’m done wit him, my mental health is bad n I don’t need distractions. Then I deleted n blocked him before he could respond. An hour later I realized it was just an episode n I actually really do want something wit him. So I unblocked his number. The next morning I thought about textin him n try to explain what happened n maybe get him to understand why I did what I did. (I’m a lil mental n delulu) but I couldn’t. Any advice? Should I text him again or just leave it as it is?

I hate havin this disorder. I hate thinking in black n white. And I hate that I hurt people.