Someone said I’m so detached to them now and it made me think. I went from revolving my whole day around specific individuals until I realised a) they do not care about me and b) it’s unhealthy. It’s not easy and it sure as shit didn’t happen over night but I’m honestly over having an fp and being obsessed with one person. Usually the same person who ends up ghosting me and hurting me more than I could comprehend lol. Having an fp was all fun and games at first but it became so hard to just go about my day. I’m so detached from people that I’m no longer surprised or bothered when I get ghosted or aired. Which is kinda like all the time lol but it’s become so normal to me I’m no longer shocked by it. 

As much as I’d love to have that one person who just lights up my day blah blah. It’s never going to happen for me. Being realistic can be so depressing but at least I’m not setting myself up for inevitable heartbreak.