My dr recently prescribed clonazepam which is pretty affordable thanks to coverage by my health care system. 

The thing is, I've been prescribed antipsychotics and anti-anxiety drugs before and never actually filled any of them. I feel scared and paranoid of putting them in my body, and it makes me feel worse about myself to think that I need, or need to rely on, meds. I'm also worried about how I'll respond mentally and physically to them. What if I become more unstable? What if I feel numb and nothingness? My doctor's demeanor about them was quite casual while alarms were going off in my head.

On the other hand, my therapy has been really helpful of late and I genuinely want to work at recovery and give it a stronger shot. 

I guess I just want to know what ppl's experiences are with meds in terms of recovery and whether or not you feel you depend on them? Do they help people recover faster? 

Thanks for the insights