I annihilate every friendship I make. Either the person becomes my FP, it gets really intense and obsessive, I behave in toxic and possessive ways, and the other person inevitably cuts me off. Or I neglect my friendship because I'm hyper-fixated on my FP, and the person distances themselves from me, because I'm completely unfocused on them. Either way, I end up alone. I'm just going to stop trying to have people in my life because it's devastating when things run their inevitable course. I'm too toxic. Other people shouldn't have to deal with me. I don't even want to deal with myself.