So my fiancé of five years (24f) told me over a month ago she had feelings for my ex coworker and was upset I left my job because she wouldn’t see him much anymore. My co worker and I were such good friends but her having desire for him made me hate him with every bone in my body. I wanted to save our relationship and so did she so we started couples therapy and it’s made things so much worse. I live in our guest area now above our garage and she gets the house. Lately she’s living her best life she said and having people over all the time including my ex co worker. On top of this all she told me in therapy she hasn’t loved me sense Christmas and made a tinder to feel more confident in herself. I told her that it absolutely crushed me knowing that,I’m so depressed over having my whole life ruined due to her wanting another person. I feel isolated and the people I thought were my friends don’t even talk to me anymore. I have nobody other then the therapist to talk to and even they think I’m wrong for keeping her down in her 20s as that’s a females prime years. I’ve just had it with life and being torn apart. I know I’m nothing special but giving my heart to somebody thinking they loved you back has crushed me. I’d rather be dead and gone then to realize the last years of my life have been a joke.