I am too stupid. I cannot do anything properly. I have struggled all my life with basic things. I never picked up on social skills or learnt anything in school.

I enjoy nothing. The only thing I do in my spare time is play games and I am not even happy playing it, I just do it because I got nothing else to and there is nothing else I want to do.

I work in retail but I am scared of getting fired everyday because I am not very good at social skills and everyone at work do not like me. I cannot get any other jobs because I have zero skills, motivation and ability to learn anything. I tried learning coding, I was too dumb. I tried to learn technician stuff, I was too dumb. I tried to learn engineering, I was too dumb. I tried to learn a lot of stuff but I was too dumb. I cannot do anything.

I was not supposed to be born, I am too weak in this world and it is really hard for me to do really basic stuff that for other people would be normal.

I have zero friends, never had any friends in my life and will never have any because I don't have any motivation to have friends. I don't think friends will be good to me because I will start suffering in my brain when someone say something mean to me. Even when a person is not trying to be mean and they comment one thing that make me suffer, I suffer EXTREMELY.

I suffer too much in my brain when one thing bad is said or happens to me, I suffer EXTREMELY the whole day. Yes, I have zero emotional quotient, I have tried all my life controlling my suffering read thousands and thousands of articles on how to not suffer but never managed. I cannot read books because I don't have enough attention. 

How to be normal and not stupid? Please help...