I and my husband have just got married for a few months. He has BPD, and easily loses control of his temper when triggered by important ones. My family doesn't know about this.

Last week at a family member's gathering, he was triggered by my attitude and lost it. He drank a few glasses of red wine, got drunk, and threw a napkin on the table and walked away. Everyone saw. He then went to the toilet and shouted, I tried very hard to calm him.

My parents were devastated afterwards. They were heartbroken to see that I wasn't loved by my husband. I moved away for a few days and my husband finally came to his senses and apologized to me and my family. However none of my family responded to his calls and texts.

I feel terrible being in the middle of my husband and my family. I had issues with my family, and now this incident just made everything worse. I also can't let go of what my husband did, I knew he had his issues and emotional problems, but I also wish he could respect me and my family.

I finally felt a bit better after he admitted his mistakes and apologized for a lot of times, but it cannot make the clock turn back. I am struggling hard and can't see how things can be mended: relationship between my husband and my family, my husband and i, i and my family.

My mum has always disliked my husband. Now it's even more difficult for her to accept him. I am lost, hurt and don't know what to do. Even after he promised not to lose control when he is with my family, I still feel bad. I understand that he doesn't want to lose control and usually feels guilty and shameful afterwards. But I have my emotions and feelings too...

I married him knowing his issues. But I am tired. I tried really really hard all these years to understand him. But I also want to be understood. I don't know what to do. I love him and my family. I am so lost and hurt.