[CW: Suicide, Negativity, Venting] 

I'm always envious of everyone. I always find myself alone and imagining how good it would be to actually have someone who loved me. I'm just a pathetic virgin that thinks it knows everything. I should just stop eating because I don't even deserve to. I'm always making people feel bad unintentionally.. in fact, is it really unintentionally?

I don't deserve to live and I can never be satisfied with anything. I will never find peace, comfort and safety. I'm just a negative waste of space.

I'm sorry for hurting you, people.. I'm just projecting my own insecurities. For some reason I try to get better but I can't.. No amount of therapy can help me.

I just don't know how to help myself. I'm sorry..