Hi all!  I just recently was diagnosed with severe anxiety and OCD-tendencies - one of the big things I am fixated on is my house.  I bought it in 2019 and absolutely adore it (circa 1904, sandstone-colored rowhome with a quaint backyard, great part of town, close to work since I don't drive, my own master bathroom, 5 bedrooms, etc.) but man oh MAN, does this thing give me anxiety.  I'm talking "I haven't been able to sleep in three weeks and now I have a brand new prescription for Prozac" levels of anxiety.  

I'm afraid of the floors collapsing, the roof collapsing, the boiler exploding (never had gas before but my HVAC guy says the boiler is fine), the house just turning to rubble, fire, etc.  I recently saw cracks in the old plaster in my ceiling (one huge one that a professional is coming out to fix soon) and I straight up had the worst panic attack I've ever had even though I KNOW that old plaster cracks.  I have to constantly check my walls and ceilings for cracks, whenever my roommates use the bathroom shower I can't calm down until they're done since that bathroom used to leak into the dining room (and my one roommate just needs to take 30 minute showers EVERY DAY or, heaven forbid, a bath with heavy, heavy water).  Any creak I hear makes my heart race and hearing the washer or dryer running makes my mouth go dry.  Everything sounds expensive and terrifying and like it could kill me or my pets.  If I hear a sound (and I have great hearing) I absolutely must get up and check it if I can't figure out what it is - is that creaking the floor about to give way?  Does the crack in my plaster mean the ceiling is two seconds from caving in?  Did I hear a bump?  Was it a car at the stoplight or has a wall suddenly dislodged and now I have 5 seconds to get out of the house before I lose everything?

I think for me it's partially a fear of the building collapsing and also financial anxiety - I make enough to live comfortably by myself in this big house even without my roommates (the mortgage and utilities are only like $1,400/mo) but the numbers getting thrown out for roof replacements and stuff, plus my starting grad school this fall and having that expense, hasn't helped the panicking.

Sorry for the vent/rant - has anyone else had their anxiety skyrocket upon buying a home?  Does anyone else have an irrational fear that their house with fall down and have to check every sound?  Let me know your experiences!