Turning 18 this year and feel like I haven’t done enough, feel unprepared for the world, feel like my life will end on my birthday and that there’s a ticking bomb in my head. Life is getting so busy and everything is changing dramatically, it’s scary. All these thoughts swim through when I put my head down at night and I’m awake for hours thinking and worrying

“Haven’t done this. Wasted time on that. Everyone is ahead of me. My mental issues took my teenage experience. I’m losing time. I’ve lost time. I’ve wasted time. I’m old. My life is over.”

Sometimes I just force myself to stay up so I can the time to ease some of my worries. But I’ve only been down this path a zillion times and I know no sleep makes me worse. I don’t like being so stressed, I don’t know how to live in the moment. Every time I think I’ve handled my anxiety it manifests itself in another way. So tired