I go my job everyday (get this as a private caregiver) where I feel needed and important but at 2:30 when it's time to be off I start feeling like shit. I know I won't talk anymore now until tomorrow. 
I put on a good front at work then it hits me everyday at 2:30 I'm alone and a lover. I want to pull out in front of a 18 wheeler so I'd be hit in driver door while on hiway so it's going fast and would be over fast......