Sorry if this post is personal, I was just trying to type how I feel. I’ll probably delete this, to be honest I don’t know what I aim to achieve by posting this. Thanks 

I’m not happy. I woke up today, had a shower for the first time in a few days, went back to bed didn’t do anything. That’s it, I’m just existing. I haven’t been outside in a couple weeks. I have no motivation to do anything. I’m (18m)

I have been on several different medications with none working. My mindset on everything is weird. Like how am I supposed to motivate myself to go to the gym when I probably won’t be dedicated enough to be there 2months in the future and I will be back in bed doing nothing.

Time feels like it moves too slow I want to sleep and wake up like 4years in the future and just be “better”. Or I would like to exist without anyone just in my own world or planet or something like I just like the feeling of not worrying about anyone or anything.

My opinion of myself is low, I don’t have any pictures of myself because I don’t like how i look. I wouldn’t say I’m ugly or unattractive I just don’t like myself.

I don’t have friends, I distanced myself from everyone 2-3years ago. I don’t even know how to make friends now. I can’t hold a job for more than 2months.

I have tried to contact my doctor about seeing a therapist as I live in the uk they are free but I haven’t been able to get one ever.

I can’t really open up to anyone about how I feel because I don’t have anyone. 

I failed school, because my anxiety got so bad I stopped going.

I have been told, “you are young it will get better a lot”. How do I make it get better? This isn’t a new problem or something that will go away quick.

I kind of wish I could go fly to like a different country and restart my life. Or just walk and not stop walking until I see nobody. But no matter what I do there will always be problems or people or things to worry about.  I haven’t even done anything hurtful to anyone or anything like that I just don’t like the way I am