Recently two of my friends turned out to be back-stabbing assholes that now talk shit about me and do a lot of shit behind my back. It doesn't help I was in love with one of them for like a year and he led me on. I just am so so so so so fucking sick of getting fucked over by everyone in my life. I have no consistency and people just keep walking out of my life and it makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit because apparently it's all my fault. Sometimes I just wish I didn't exist at all then maybe I wouldn't be upset and panicking all the time. I feel like all I do is fuck everything up with everyone I don't even know why people bother talking to me. I just wish I could get far far away from everyone in my life and just restart or something. Im not worth anyones time.