When I was 10 my biological father was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia after almost killing himself. I was forced to stop seeing him by my mother because she had heard multiple stories where schizophrenics had killed their children. Hearing that at 10 scared me and I believed her. It’s been 8 years and not a day goes by where I don’t miss him and resent my mother for making me leave him at a time he needed me most. There have been countless times where he’s escaped the hospital he was placed in, just to see me. I’ve heard through my fathers side of the family that he’s only gotten worse and has developed multiple personalities as well. I asked my mom to visit and she refuses. I’m 18 now and want to see him but she won’t tell me where he is, she says she’s protecting me but I’m only starting to resent her more and more. Am I overreacting?