I believe for a year I've been suffering from severe anxiety induced psychosis.  I've been deteriorating and have been struggling. I've had bad experiences with psych meds in the past so I'm trying to get myself on these pills. I've never been told I should feel lucky to be with someone as if I'm worthless.  I already feel like I'm dying and I am scared.  When we fight now he always tells me to leave and he knows I can't even take care of myself right now so I can't.  Then when he's normal he's all sweet and loving and wants to take care of me. He does suffer with his own issues but shit... I've never felt so much like a piece of shit, helpless, hopeless and worthless. I need to probably go back into inpatient but they don't care if you're afraid of the meds they will kick me out. So I don't know how to get help.