I always get mad because I could literally end myself In a heart beat if only I had a gun. I always think every night I want to find that one person who can give me the opportunity to just please use his weapon to use on me. I hate living each and everyday I hate how it's so hard to find a fxkin gun I want one so bad where in the world can I find a fxkin gun goddammit I see other people have guns like it's toys. I wanna hire a hit man or something please take me away 👼

Please don't say seek help and stuff like that I hate it. I just hate living and when I pull all nighters I have nothing to do but sink in to my mind and be at peace in darkness.