I'm 30 years old and somehow only just now realized I probably have an anxiety problem. I was diagnosed with depression and have flirted with self harm and alcohol abuse but somehow never spoke to my therapist about how terrible a lot of seemingly innocent situations make me feel because I kinda thought everybody felt that way or at least similar. It was/is pretty normal for me to overthink everything and to be really scared (heartracing, sweating, shivering, puking, tensing up, tingling, numbness, having to pee all the time, having difficulties focussing and thinking straight...) before going to college classes, meeting people outside of my parents or siblings, doing phone calls, riding public transportations, sometimes even going to the super market or driving cars. I've been lying on my bed in fetal position paralysed because I'm terrified of reality kinda unraveling every moment too often. When I was 14 I also had to spent a few month in an intensive care unit in a hospital for a rare medical condition that was potentially lifethreatening while I physically felt totally fine. Being there feeling absolutely helpless and afraid of dieing lead to the point where I dissociated, lost control and watched myself scream and hit walls from the outside. For the next ten years I couldnt even see an eye doctor without breaking into tears. Corona did absolutely nothing to improve my situation. I know this sub has rules against asking for diagnosis and so I just want to say that forums like this can be really great ressources for people and I'm thankful for it.