Anxiety is taking anti anxiety medication but still questioning each and every small symptom and wondering it this new symptom is your anxiety acting up or if its a side effect from the medication you are taking and assuming that your body is rejecting the medicine.  


Its a series of battles. It never ends.I work hard on urself and win a fight with anxiety.I feel happy for sometime and again the cycle repeats.  I spend half the time trying to control anxiety ,i  try to divert my brain or relax my brain and the process takes up hours. And iam tired.Nope ididnt exercise ,i  didnt study or work as much as my collegue did but i feel tired and i want to sleep cuz my brain has been fighting with itself.   

Sometimes i dont even know why iam alive. I see all these instagram influencers working hard, achieving their goals and i see their lives changing in one year. I see them talking about hustling and manifesting, praying to god for things and actually getting those things and i feel so useless that none of what i want to achieve is happening to me.  


I feel like i belong to category of people who always draw the short straw from a pile.  Iam juz tired and exhausted..