
We had two really amazing dates, he asked when I was free this week and we settled on Friday (tomorrow). He texted me today and said his friends he hasn’t seen in awhile invited him on a last minute hiking trip and he needed to pack and get ready. He asked if we can reschedule for Sunday when he is back, I agreed.

I played it cool but I instantly felt like an absolutely unwanted, unlikeable, rejected piece of flaming garbage. I can’t stop crying and I know I’m going to be a wreck until Sunday, I’m just waiting for him to cancel the day of.  My mind is telling me he found someone better, no matter how much I have no evidence to support that I cannot think any differently. I feel sick and just want to be Sunday already. I wish I could sleep the next 3 days and not be awake to feel like this.