Dislike to unburden. I am stubborn at trying to fix depression alone. Haven't been diagnosed. I'm 17 and I'm pretty sure I already contemplated death at 5 years old. 
I am stuck in paradoxical thoughts and can't move on from the past or to the future.
I am a puppet watching my past while worrying about the future and always indecisive at the present. 

My problems are not related to the real world. They are just me constantly thinking depressive thoughts. Probably have OCD as well.

It is tiring to always feel like I'm not going somewhere.