I have been having a lot of symptoms for a while that my neurologist thinks may be epilepsy. I am being checked for it soon but since seeing her last some abnormal bone marrow was found in my spine. I have been having a lot of symptoms of leukemia (high white blood cells, frequent nose bleeds, pain in my spleen area, rashes, fatigue and pain) and I know not to Google stuff and scare myself but I am really anxious. I have to get a bone scan soon to see if I have cancer and I am scared.

I am not so much scared of dying because I am scared of death but I dont want to leave my partner and family behind and I am just scared of being in pain. I hate this anxiety so much and I just want answers now. I keep trying to tell myself not to worry but it is so hard.

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