M(25) Whenever I feel bad about something I’ve done it generally down about myself, like a past mistake (Mostly about an old relationship) I’ll punch myself in the eye usually getting a black eye. Until I feel better. I don’t know why I do it. I just feel like I deserve the punishment for being a pos. Maybe it’s not depression but I’ve had a black eye for the past 6 months and I can’t really keep coming up with excuses at this point. I’ve been covering it up with make up recently. Not sure what to do about it tbh