Hi,

I am 26F, I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for around I guess 9 years. During this period, I've found myself in different moods there was even a period I was suicidal. This year (especially past 3 months) was the worst for me, I'm not feeling super sad, depressed or anxious but I can't function anymore. I became so lazy, so irresponsible and I can't do anything. No matter what, I had always done bare minimum for myself. I had worked on myself and on my goals even I felt sad. But now I am completely burned out. I shouldn't be this way because I need to finish my master's this year and I haven't done anything about my thesis for the past months and I have only 1 month to submit. I have to work on it but I can't, I can't force myself to do anything about it. I was one of the top students before (during high school and my bachelor's) but now I feel frozen. Besides school, I have to force myself to take a bath, clean my house, cook, take care of my responsibilities. I look like shit, I don't want to talk anyone. I don't care about anything, I don't even do anything for enjoyment. My sleep schedule is shit, I wake up and look at my phone or my computer like most of the day then realize the time is too late to work on my responsibilities. I can't even describe my situation completely.  Normally I'd have panic attacks in this situation because I tend to overthink like everything. I don't even bother by feeling sad or depressed. Now, I feel just disappointed, careless and numb. I want my old life back I want to function again sad or happy doesn't matter. I really need advice, how can I integrate myself into life again?