i thought maybe i was ready to trying dating again i set a boundary with myself that i would not make anyone i was interested in my fp immediately because i literally cannot go through with that again so i’ve been soooo normal about this girl but i got too high the other day and thought too hard about her liking me back and got the ick and split like i don’t want to go i never want anyone to perceive me romantically ever again it’s like the only time i’ll be happy is when i’m chasing the reassurance of a flaky fp and now i don’t know what to do like do i be honest and up front about being borderline and freaking out or do i put the date off and hope to not feel like this later? i know i won’t come back around to her because when i split, it’s permanent. i feel so bad for having led her on and i feel like i’m never going to be capable of love literally what do i do…….