
Do you ever feel like no matter what you do, no matter who you’re with, you’ll never be good enough? Like anyone who hangs around you is doing it out of pity. Not actual friendship or love. Like you’re not good enough to ever be loved and if you ever express it to someone you feel close to, it’ll make them realize how pathetic you really are and make them pity you an feel bad for you, so they hang out more with you because they feel like they have to and you’re just so toxic of a friend that you manipulate them into feeling sorry for you and doing things for you and you’re just a worthless piece of shit that doesn’t deserve any sort of companionship 

Can’t talk about it to the ones you love. Don’t want them to feel bad. And then also run the risk of them trying to help and then just making it worse because you truly believe that any sort of comfort they provide is purely out of pity and you don’t want to put that on them