The first 4 months of the year was a wreck for me: I realized I had BPD tendencies (not yet diagnosed), shit hit the fan with my r4elationship, I've been questioning who I am since discovering. 

But this month, I have been forcing myself to be hyperaware - of my thoughts, my feelings, the way I choose to react. And people around me have been reacting better. I know I'm still a far ways to go but I like feeling the progress. 

I still get the intrusive thoughts, overthinking that people just hate me to my core or are out to get me, but my awareness is helping me rationalize my fears. I no longer become crippled by my thoughts. Grounding has helped me *SO* much. 

A lot of the techniques I've been applying came from the advice of my partner and of course, this sub. 

I don't where I'm going with this. I just know that, even just for now, I am genuinely happy. And to anyone struggling, keep fighting. You'll get there! :)