So the only thing that has been keeping me from going insane the past two years is reading comics (western kind) on this website . Idk why but maybe it reminds me of when I used to be a kid or something but it calms me down so much and I can get totally lost in the stories and feel warm and safe.

Well now I go to navigate to that site after a shitty day and it’s down :( servers not responding. I get why but it still really hurts. To make things worse I found out that the official alternatives where you can pay for em are missing entire publications, for instance spectacular Spider-Man is not available :(((( 
I was reading my way through like 5 diff titles.

I’m just very sad and venting. I try so hard to improve my life but then I see my face or hear my voice and I just want to give up again and read comics. But now the comics aren’t there aaaaaaaaaah it sucks.