Long story short I've been dealing with mental issues since I was 14. I'm 23 now. I've been to psychiatrists in the past but feeling that they were there just for the money and didn't care about me as a human being crushed me.
I've also been self harming since I was 11 and after six months "clean" I had a crisis last week and ended cutting myself 48 times. I was just heartbroken and decided to tell my dad.
I asked him to spend some daily time with me and listen to my problems since I feel like I'm not comfortable sharing it with a stranger. He said he doesn't believe talking about the problems will help me. I disagree since it's killing me inside. 
He said it's painful for him to listen to it but he wants to help me and he'll do that if it helps me and I seriously believe it would help me. 
But big question here, do I have the right to ask for his help and accept it if I know it might cause him to feel bad? Should I just suck it up, accept that I have issues and keep my inner demons to myself?
It hurts but no one said being mentally ill was going to be fun. Everyone has their own problems, so maybe I should just keep mine to myself and cope with it as I can? I can't promise then I won't self harm again or even attempt suicide, but really, with his help I just THINK it would prevent me from doing so. I also can't be sure because I've never tried....
Urgh, guess I spoke too much, I just wanted to show all the possible sides of this problem. Thanks and lots of love to all of you who're reading this 💜