Been on medication for several months now, with numerous changes, but it's not working at the moment. Waiting for my appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday before I can do anything else because my doctor is awful.

Anyway. I had a panic attack last night. 

To start, I was getting more and more anxious as the night went on. I was internally freaking out about a lot of things, until the video game in the stream I was watching glitched out and started flashing really bad. My head immediately started spinning and I felt a rush of heat and ice go up my back. Heart started pounding and I felt like I wasn't getting enough air in my lungs.

I tried to stay calm, but I get diarrhea when I have anxiety, so I had to go upstairs and use the bathroom. I was so lightheaded, even though I was controlling my breathing, I was afraid I was going to pass out right there on the toilet.

I made it back downstairs before it fully hit. I started shaking, full body, forceful trembling. I tried to distract myself with calming games on my phone that usually work, but I felt like I was going in and out of consciousness. I had weird dreamlike images flash in my mind, or I'd feel really heavy like my whole body was falling asleep. I'd have to snap myself out of it, which would just make me panic more. This continued on and off for about 30-45 minutes.

Finally I just succumbed to it because I figured, my boyfriend was right there. If I pass out or something goes wrong, he'd make sure I'd get help. I put my phone down with some calming music on and just let it ride. Eventually I fell asleep, woke up a half hour later, and had about fifteen minutes to get to bed before it started again. I once again let it ride, this time much shorter, until I fell asleep and woke up this morning feeling hung over.

Is that normal? I read online that it's uncommon to pass out during a panic attack, and I don't know what it feels like to pass out, but I legit felt like my body was trying to lose consciousness. Also, did my anxious thoughts trigger the panic attack, or did my impending panic attack trigger the anxious thoughts?

My doctor is terrible so I can't really talk to him. I'm kind of on my own for a few more days and I'm really struggling.