Just wanted to do a post hear saying that life is so hard I think about killing my self pretty much every day there is the odd day I don't but with that I just realise that I am lo lonely and the cycle begins again. I have no friends, I hate my family and just want to move out but I can't as I am poor and I have recently lost my job so it looks like I might be in debt soon. I already take anti-depressant drugs moved up to 100mg from 50mg every day but it just dose not seem to be working. It just seems like I am always unlucky and nothing ever works out for me and I always draw the short straw. I just don't see the point of anything my life is just shit and does not seem like it is ever going to get better. Bee saving up my medication and might just take 3 months worth in one day see how that goes hopefully I will be lucky.

Also I do already go to a therapist I started twice a week in the start of November but it good but something had happens after and it just ruins it all what the point of trying when I am unlucky and fall and just end up at the begin again and again.