My moms side of my family loves weed. And in all honesty, I have no problem with that. But I love being sober. I'm in my mid 20's and I've never been drunk, or even buzzed. And I've only smoked weed a couple times back when I was in highschool.
I enjoy having my full, unaltered conscience. But when I'm around my mom and her family I feel judged for being the odd sober one. I mean they seem to celebrate weed. And I feel like they look at me judgingly because I do not celebrate it with them. They've never tried to get me to do it, but I still feel a sense of judgement from them. I'm sure It's just my crazy anxiety but I always feel judged around them for my sobriety.
Am a crazy? Do I deserve this likely imaginary judgement? I don't know...
I love them all, and I know they love me. But I don't know how to comfortably be around them