I told myself time will heal the wounds. It's been a year and I still cry over it. I gave my everything knowing very well everything will fall apart. I was cursed to get the taste of all the happy moments with her. Lot's of good songs ruined because of it. It's so stupid. I'm in my late 20's and thinking like this. I'm not normal and I hate it. I want to be okay.

It's the biggest factor in my current state. I continue to push forward as I need a functioning brain for my job. The crying has cleansed me for now. I try to get to gym now.