ive tried talking to my friends, posting here, posting on my private instagram, talking to my therapist, talking to a hotline. i still dont know wtf to do. the person i loved the most has turned into a complete asshole to me,, just ghosted me 2 days ago and my birthday is literally tomorrow. i miss when he was kind, would listen and understand and tell me how he felt. but now its like hes gone and my world is over. what the fuck man i dont get it. i wouldve never dated him if i knew how horrible id feel now. and i had so many chances. but i was petty n now i feel like theres no one to turn to. my therapist likes to be hopeful, she says “he loves u still hes just not able to express it now or deal with what comes next” i dont know what to believe. id really like to think that if i say the right things, stay strong and show him that i really am an impressive person and a blessing to have around. but realistically, i know he wouldn’t apologize for this, say that hes sorry too for what our beautiful relationship has come to n that im still someone he wants around. hope has continually killed me, i dont know why im still holding on. i just have nothing else i feel like continuing for