All my life I’ve wanted to gain more confidence in myself. When I got to dating age I was rejected left and right for years because people thought I was weird and unattractive because I liked video games and anime. That’s fine I guess.. now I’m in my 20s and I still feel like a fucking loser. It’s funny, as a kid I watched so many tv shows, movies and anime where the dorky weird guy finds he is really good at something like music or art and that brings him happiness, gets the girl and has a huge glow up. Obviously that’s tv and I didn’t expect my life to go like that.. I just feel ugly and like I’m terrible at everything I try to do. I feel like my fiancée doesn’t find me attractive anymore and I keep trying to find hobbies that make me happy but they always end with me feeling depressed..  that plus financial issues are just really dragging me down and i feel like I’m a fucking annoyance to everyone around me because I can’t do anything right. I know it’s fucking stupid but I’m tired of feeling ugly and like I’m bad at everything.. it just sucks because I see so many people I went to high school with doing great things and I just wish for once people could see me as cool or handsome or something.. my fiancée never compliments me or pursues me and I just feel depressed..