It's like when I dissociate I suddenly lose my fear of socializing and start being so talkative, also sometimes when dissociative I find myself in risky situations like smoking and doing things that I wouldn't  normally do, and that's because I stop caring, but not because I say "fuck it lets do it" more because I just don't think about it I just do stuff like I'm in autopilot, so if someone gives me a cigarette I will accept it, and it's starting to worry me because I'm finding myself in risky situations