Lately, my anxiety has been unmanageable and it’s all because I have this dreadful sense of impending doom that is taking over my life. I’m struggling to do anything because in the back of my head I think “Why do it at all? Everything is going to end soon anyways.” I’m barely getting by, taking care of myself is an absolute struggle and making any future plans is nonexistent. It’s so bad that I’ve given up on some things, such as finding love or starting a career because I truly feel like none of it really matters. I’m desperately searching for a therapist but no therapists within 200 miles of me (I live in an EXTREMELY rural area) are accepting clients. The fear I have of everything ending is so acute that I feel myself slipping into extreme nihilism. I tried to talk to my family about it but my mother got made at me and said, “Don’t say that because now something will happen!” So now if the world does end, I’ll think it was because I said it out loud.