They finally got sick of me. I became too much. The constant mood swings and being a drain on every one’s mood became too much for them to handle. Can’t blame them, I wouldn’t want to be friends with me either. I accept all responsibility for it. For 2 years they were my group of friends we would hang out all the time. However they have gotten sick of me before, usually lasted around a month and it would be back to hanging out. It’s the same cycle. Friends&gt;getting annoyed or I say or do something dumb&gt;no longer friends&gt;friends again. I know they cared. Back in March of last year I tried to overdose on sleeping tablets. They were the ones who rang for the ambulance and talk to me while I was drifting in and out of consciousness over the phone.  However I’m a leech and a manipulator and I really wish I wasn’t. I want to be better. This time I realized that they don’t deserve this. They’re brilliant people who deserve so much better, so this time I’ve blocked them from everything and don’t want to be able to contact them. I don’t trust myself. They deserve better and I can’t be the friend they deserve. 

Don’t want a pity party just needed to get this off my chest