These last few months I haven't been able to leave bed, I've gained 20 pounds from binge eating and hiding in a dark room all day without moving and then now everything is so intense I can't cope. My anxiety/paranoia is making me almost psychotic, being so bad I think people are in the house or watching me or that the government will hunt me down for watching so many conspiracy videos, I'm more suicidal than I have been in months, I can't socialize without drinking. There seems to be no point in life. I'm just wondering through life sad and overwhelmed and anxious what is the point, really? How do I pull myself back out of this? I'm constantly on the verge of crying, ripping my hair out or passing out from exhaustion even though I do nothing. 