I think my bf has finally given up on me. I mean even i can't stand myself. But it hurts when he kept telling me he'd never leave and that he can handle me. He barely texts anymore.  Just short texts asking what I'm doing or something almost like a chore. He says he's depressed and that's why . But i dunno, he's been like this for a while now. It hurts to see all the hopes and dreams we had just shatter before me. He is busy with work and meeting his family and friends.  He never has time for me. He never initiates going on dates with me. He almost always finds excuses and pushes back our dates. I know i have been hard to him. But  I've been trying my best to not let my emotions get the best of me. It feels like he doesn't see that I'm changing .  I guess he is tired and knows there is no future.  I've been suicidal for as long as i can remember and he gave me hope. I feel like I'm losing him everyday. And I'm starting to lose hope. I know there's no point in being alive if he leaves me. I just wanted to vent.