might get a bit rambly later in the post so my apologies in advance. 

does anyone else struggle to try new things? like new music, new hobbies, new skills, new foods, getting into a new movie/tv show series, just. anything new? even if it looks great or is a part of something you already know you like? (ex: an album from your favorite band)

i can't for the life of me bring myself to try new things. the anxiety i get is so overwhelmingly powerful i get sick, it's as if something's physically holding me back. when i try to overcome the anxiety, something else goes off in my brain telling me things like 'you're too stupid to understand it, you're wasting your time, it probably sucks, don't bother, you're so fake you don't know anything, you obviously won't like it', even though the few times i've managed to come out on top, i've enjoyed whatever it was.

i'm just too scared to leave my comfort zone and it drives me *crazy,* because i can tell i'm bored with my comfort zone. everything has become stagnant, from what little selection of music i listen to, to the like. 3 games that i can bring myself to even play lol

sorry if i'm not making much sense. one way i can explain it, i love the doom franchise a lot but i havent been able to bring myself to even *touch* doom eternal despite owning it since its release date. it's been on my shelf for a year. i hear nothing but praise. but the second i boot it up i'm completely turned off of it. i'm scared to delve deeper into the game's lore because i already feel like a fake fan anyway, even though i have like 500hrs in doom 2016 alone. it's so irrational, and i tell myself it's irrational, but it doesn't help.

i'm really at a loss on what to do. anyone else struggle with something like this?