Sometimes it feels like I’m a completely different person. My thoughts start spiraling and I self sabotage hard. Last night I kept getting pissy at my fiancé bc I felt like I wasn’t getting enough love from him, he was very obviously trying to make an effort to make me feel better and I just ignored it and kept drilling into him til he finally snapped and got upset with me. He’s understandably upset and I know it’s 100% my fault but I don’t know what to do or how to make it better. I just feel so lost I love him so much and I just fucking ruin everything. Everything was perfectly fine til I decided I would ruin it.