24m and everyone sees this:

- 6 figure tech job 
- in shape - at the gym every other day and run 3 times a week
- Have a lot of friends that I enjoy hanging out with
- Active dating life 
- Live in a large US city in a great location

What they don’t see:
- Force myself to cry every few nights just so I can feel something
- Go to sleep extremely lonely hoping I don’t wake up 
- Spend hours at night trying to find something online to make me feel better
- Panic attacks and not being able to move for half an hour before forcing myself to keep going
- Going to my friends to work because I’m concerned about what I’d do if I’m alone
- Feeling sad for no reason during the day and listening to the saddest music I can find