No I’m not sick… no I don’t have a throat…. I just constantly have that feeling I have where I need to cry—- it’s this dull ache in my throat…. Why is life so painful? 

I’m trying to be grateful but it’s so hard when there’s more downs than ups. I know people  can’t be happy all the time…. But I honestly can’t remember the last time I was actually happy. I just want the pain to end.