Uuughhh ..... I am so exhausted !!!

Every time I meet someone new I tend to fall so fast for the person. Just recently I shared about my illness with a new person I met and they seemed to have taken a step back. To be honest I don't know if they really have taken a step back or is it me overthinking just because I'm feeling abandoned. I don't know. So hard to constantly keep myself distracted and try to think I am worthy of love when the reality is so different. Wish I could turn this emotional switch off. 

What do you do when you feel like you are overthinking or starting to feel abandoned ? I could really use some tips. 

A joyous and emotionally balanced new year to everyone. C= 💙