I’m barley focusing on college or actually being at peace. I’m always distracted about him I feel like I’m never able to relax or rest without the idea of me and him being on good terms in a relationship. My whole life seems just about him and he’s not even my boyfriend anymore. I keep trying to manifest but he’s told me he doesn’t want me anymore and said lots of really nasty shit which hurts so fucking bad to hear from him. I’m worthless nobody compares nobody will ever compare or replace the way he made me feel. I don’t even want to have sex or go near anyone apart from him. I’m surprised I usually cheat or am over them by now but I just can’t get over him he’s the idea of perfect even tho he’s abandoned me. I just don’t see it getting better he doesn’t even text or call or follow me or see me anymore after being together 24/7 he’s a stranger. The idea of him even kissing another girl let alone sex hurts me. I just want him back sorry❤️