First things first this is my first relationship ever so I don’t know what is normal and what isn’t. I already have really bad anxiety over anything. Anything good that happens to me or that is going to happen to me I find a way to ruin it with my thoughts. 

I love my boyfriend. We’ve been together for about 6 months. And he is everything I want in a man. He never judges me and I can be pretty damn weird. We are always ourself around each-other. And I honestly  can see us having kids one day. But every so often I find my self questioning everything. I dig so deep to the point I question if I even really love him. It’s so exhausting. One day I’ll be totally in love him then next I’ll be having these negative thoughts. And it’s so scary because I don’t want to think them or feel them! Everyone tells me to follow my gut but as someone with anxiety I can’t always trust it.