I've been on all sorts of medications since I was a kid, but after years of going unmedicated, my GP suggested I try Lexapro (more so for my anxiety, she said) because it's not something that needs to have it's dosing changed over and over again, I guess (I have a history of being noncommittal which means no one is currently willing to take me seriously). 

Here's the thing. I don't know if it's helping. My partner is also on it... a lower dose than me... and seems to believe it's the cure for cancer. I've been on it for about a year now, so it's not like I haven't given it time. I still rip my hands and mouth apart. I still have panic attacks. I still have depression... though maybe that has lessened. I've never been too concerned with my depression though (comparatively). 

And worse... it seems like if I miss a dose or am late taking it (like the next morning... which happens often because it makes me tired af. seriously. can never stop yawning) then I end up spending 1-2 weeks with headaches and very bad muscle pain/spasms. It does not seem worth it. Like I started unwillingly crying and gasping from the spasms in my chest about a week ago. It was that bad. 

Can anyone tell me what their experiences are? 
I'm being treated like I'm being stubborn and uneducated by insisting that I don't see the point and that I don't want to have to be worried about the withdrawal symptoms that apparently come about VERY EASILY... if it's not helping much to begin with. 

For the record, my mom is on the same thing and gets headaches if she misses a dose. My partner goes of the emotional deep end if they miss a dose... just seems like it causes more harm than good.