Hi! This isn’t the most positive thing to make as my first post here but i feel genuinely lost. I’m a fan of multiple musicians and i had their posters/merch displayed in my room. My father constantly uses the artists i like as a way to break me down. He mocks the artists for the way they look/sound and me for liking them. I couldn’t sleep at all last night just thinking about it and decided to take all of the merch down to make it seem like i don’t like them at all. I’m hoping this will make him stop being rude to me but in reality in probably won’t. Ever since i got diagnosed with bpd it seems like he’s trying his hardest to make me flare up with rage or guilt. It probably sounds like such a minor thing to be stressed about but it’s making me feel numb. I feel like i’ve lost who i am as a person just to make myself seem like the perfect daughter. I feel like these impulsive decisions i’m making are ruining my life. If anyone has any tips on how to feel better i’d love to hear them