Hi, I'm 20yrs old, I've been married for 3 years. Recently I found out my husband has been cutting with people sexually online. I don't want to stay with him but I also don't want to leave. I do love him but he has proven that he doesn't care about my well being. Because of his actions I've started to develop more issues with my identity and feeling like life isn't real but more of a simulation... I can't accept compliment as my self worth has been completely destroyed and idk if anything will even get better. I ont feel like it will... so tonight I was feel extra withdrawn from reality and I needed to know I was alive, that I was human, and I could still feel... and thats when I relapsed for the first time in 2 yrs...