Maybe this is the wrong place to ask this, but Im here anyway. I was diagnosed with BPD last fall, even though I dont agree with that diagnosis- but thats a different story. So anyway, I feel like I dissociate sometimes(?) but I dont know a ton about it, so I has hoping someone  could give me some insight.

Sometimes I almost like im dizzy, but I dont wanna fall over. Like my eyes wont really focus on the things around me. I feel like nothing is quite the same as it was before, that Im in a parallel universe where everything is just a little off. I kinda feel like that what ever I do wont really make a difference because Im not actually in the same world as before. I dont feel out of body and like im watching my life as. 3rd person like many say they feel. I feel like I mentioned before, im in a parallel universe and Ive taken over the body of my other self. I know its me, but It also feel wrong and as though its not actually me. Hopefully this makes sense to someone