The past two weeks have felt like the end of the world but today I feel ridiculous. I feel like it wasn't that bad  and I  understand now that my brain played a trick on me and I fell for it just like i do every single time. So now I'm lying in a room that smells like old urine and vomit (3rd world county, government hospital) I want to leave and they won't discharge me. The mind that was thinking the past two weeks isnot the mind i have now. It's like the shock of being in a psych ward with different mentally ill people just pulled me out. The staff is nice which is rare but I  literally can't leave the room that i share with five other girls. Security is scarily tight. I'm panicking cz I feel like they'll keep me here forever.