So I work in the wedding industry which is definitely not a great idea for someone anxious. And I keep just having breakdowns over everything because I feel like it's all on my shoulders. A customer who frequently calls with questions called earlier. I'll be honest I don't like her, I can't deal with her type. But I suddenly can't remember which one of two similarly named colors she wanted. And I'm so worried we ordered the wrong one and her wedding is in three months and now I'm on the verge of tears and I want to quick cause I can't have this kind of shit on my shoulders. And I can't quick cause I'm fucking sick and can't hold a full time job and don't qualify for anything that pays enough to cover medical bills and I just wish I never fucking started working here. Idk what I'm supposed to do because what if it's my fault. I could've stopped this. It's gonna cost the store so much money if we screwed this up and idk if we will have the dresses by the wedding but idk how to double check the color without alerting the customer and causeing panic. 
Sorry for the rant but I just wanna escape this job I don't have this in me. I don't have the ability to deal with this.