I just feel bad for a lot of things in my life. Just feels like I am making bad choices and at the time it feels like the right choice but after some time it seems to be the wrong one. I also feel that no matter what I do the choices of my family (Brother and Sister) always tend to be my consequences even though I am 28 and they don't live with me. They somehow find ways to pawn everything off on me and in a severe case one of them is trying to make me  the legal guardian of their kids because they think that me and my wife will be better parents for them. I have to be a care taker for my father after my mother passed away (we did not have a good relationship) and I feel like I cant catch a breath between working and taking care of him.  And worst of all I feel like I cant just have a normal life. I feel bad because I feel manipulated into moving in to take care of my father by everyone in my family and I can not do anything that I would like to do without having to get someone to watch him that can help him use the bathroom. I feel bad because some days I just feel like selling the house putting my dad in a nursing home / assisted living and moving with my wife away from everything and starting anew. I am drowning and I don't see a way out. My wife helps me and tries to help plan some trips with my dad but when we plan trips  I end up breaking down and locking up and not able to do anything because the pressure is just too much. it is not any pressure from my wife it is just the thought of trying to do everything like help my wheel chair bound father by lifting him and putting him in the car and the thought of flying just make me break down as well because there is no way for him to fly.  I don't know what to do about anything and end up happy one moment after something like boxing and then depressed the next moment because the hour that I just took to get out of my world and just punch a heavy bag is gone and I will not get time to do it again for a month or 4.