I'm in a job that I hate, I have chronic insomnia and lifelong depression. I m having legal issues (I didn't commit a crime. Complicated situation). I hate all the pointless administrative bullshit.  It's convoluted and miserable to have to navigate. This is also why Ihate taking care of my finances or enrolling in school. There is just way to much damn paperwork than there needs to be. I can't believe all the work it takes to apply for a job that you qualify for but might not get.This world has way too many administrative  sinkholes. There are about 1 in 10 administrators who are actually helpful. Shout out to those heros who refunded my plane ticket. I feel massive amounts of psychotic hatred whenever I have to call customer service.  I try to not be a jerk to the customer service rep, but it's hard . I get so tired of life being mostly dealing with pointless things and not productive or meaningful things.

My family said,'Told you so' as though I knew what I was getting myself into. I made the best decision I could with what people told me. No one could have suspected the actual outcome..   Besides,  no one seemed interested in hearing my ideas and helping me rework them. As a kid, no one really took interest in my life, and I feel like a lot of people have this problem.

It seems like so few people in our culture have real mentors. Someone to teach you the things you want to learn. I spent my childhood doing various crafts on a low budget, but I wish I had someone to teach me more.
I also wanted friends who do things. Like fix  a truck, or write a song, or go hunting. I hate eating out as a go-to social interaction. I do not like excessive amounts of small talk. Half the time it's boring,  repetitive,  and repetitive. 

I also have a hell of a time trying to find female friends with the same interests. I get along with males in a superficial, Platonic way, but sometimes they ghost me after they find out that I'm not interested in dating and have never been in a romantic relationship in my 25 years, and I would rather it stayed that way.