I’ve got nothing. I don’t enjoy anything everything just brings nothingness. Can’t even imagine a future. My aromanitic ass can’t even feel love yet it being the one thing I want to feel at least once. I just sleep all day as there’s nothing to do and nothing I want to do. Hell I tried pain medicine 3 times with nothing happening. I can’t even end it when I try. I’m try and keep my promise to go to my mates wedding then that’s the last thing I do there’s nothing I want to do after that. Why do I have to live like a robot. Hell I should be used to it I’ve done it for 18 years but once I realised I was nothing but a fucking robot there’s nothing more I want to do then “unplug” myself. I’ve basically slept all this yea all I need to do is try and hold on till 2024 then I can go hell I might wait till my 21st to go so no one knows they just think I partied too hard. I don’t want word of courage or things will get better. I’ve tried I’ve waited but things only get better for humans with how iam and how I feel how can I fucking clam to be one. The ultimate nothingness is going to be the best thing. For anyone reading this me sighing off for tonight someone who will hopefully not be here soon