I’m so tired of running in circles… coming off as productive or actually being productive… just to come home to a dirty home d/t depression and laziness and self pity. I drive Uber and it literally only helps to pay bills and buy weed..i haven’t traveled since last year and that’s killing me on the inside. I just can’t get stable and manage money and save towards anything. Living day by day sucks but in the same breath feel like I’m so used to it… i really don’t want to be used to this shit UGH