I’m not sure what to do...

Hi.


After speaking to my new psychiatrist 2 weeks ago; answering questions and giving explanations, she determined that I have BPD. This was a shock. I didn’t know what the hell she was on about. I’m still not sure. She advises against telling anyone before we know for sure and prescribed me Lexapro to “take the edge off”. All this time I thought I was clinical depressed and was taking meds for that for about 2.5 years since it was diagnosed by my last psychiatrist before this one.

I don’t mean to be dramatic about it but I fee like I’m not catching a break, man. Something is always wrong with me and nothing ever seems to go right. Now I have this new potential diagnosis that has all these umbrella effects. If this is for real, that means depression wasn’t the only major beast to worry about. I honestly don’t have tome for this shit.  I’m trying to salvage what’s left of this lousy, meaningless life of mine and then this happens. 


I’m sorry, I’m. Just venting.