Hi I've had schizophrenia pretty much my whole life but I started getting the negative symptoms like no emotions at around 9 years old. I'm struggling atm because I've been dealing with this for 12 years and I'm researching on the internet and educating myself on how I can get better, which medications help specifically with what's wrong with me, other people's stories and medication reviews. I saw my nurse today because the doctor was away and I said I wanted to try a new med after trialing amisulpride 100g for the last month, it was vraylar or cariprazine. She says that Google is not the doctor and was being condescending and that I shouldn't be doing this research or anything. I think it doesnt hurt for me to try and find out how I can get better myself but they think differently. Should I just listen to the nurses and doctors instead of doing this research and stuff about this? Maybe I haven't gotten better is because I've been listening to me and doing it the wrong way but I just don't know I just want to get better but it's been so long. I'm tired of waiting what should I do?