about 5 days ago my friend and i got in a semi-fight because i told her abruptly that i couldn't come to a friend gathering she planned. she was very upset because she said she spent the whole morning preparing but she said it with an attitude and i was exhausted from uni and had also been up since morning.

i didn't yell but i did tell her that she needs to be more understanding of my situation especially since she used to be a student herself not long ago and how i was under so much pressure already bc i'm under a scholarship program and on top of that had to take a year off bc of my mental health.

it was my first time missing a gathering and even though i understand she spent a lot of time preparing she had no right to talk to me that way.

at first i felt proud of myself for putting my foot down and standing my ground bc throughout our friendship she had a habit of causing problems then guilting me into apologizing i would feel guilty bc back then i knew her home life was toxic.


its been 5 days since what happened and she has yet to reach out to me i'm starting to feel guilty but i refuse to reach out first like i always do bc what should i say? sorry for being a student and being busy and refusing to let you yell at me?

the whole situation is confusing. having bpd makes everything confusing