Does anyone else just make terrible decisions to intentionally fuck up their life? I know what path I'm going down and it's not good but I continue to make bad choices. I know where this is going to end and maybe that's what I want. Maybe I just want people not to care so I won't have to worry if I end up doing something. At this point I'm not sure if I'll make it to the end of the month and the scary part is that doesn't scare me anymore.