Hello everybody, its my first post here and im actually coping with my BPD and HPD quite well.

But there is this feeling of abandomnent if she doesnt write for days, even if i know the reasons. 

So i tend to look on my smartphone always hoping, that i get a message of her, and what happens? It often occurs, that she exactly sends a message, when i watch on my phone, so im asap thinking that we must be soulmates. (you know the shift from black to white). I had this phenomena with all FPs before, but i think its the same phenomena like always watching the clock and see something like 04:20 i suppose?

I just would be interested, if you sometimes have the same recurring feeling on this occasion. 

Sry for my bad grammar, im not a native speaker.