I havent gotten a official diagnosis yet but two doctors and my school curator agree that i have OCD and social anxiety. My problem is that whenever i get anxious my mom is really the only one i can vent to but she doesnt even try to understand, she often starts shouting expecially when i need reassurance many times about something. If i get angry back at her she starts acting like the victim and asks why im always so rude at her. If im really in panic she acts like im crazy and tells me that i need to get help. I often start doubting my memory about is it she or me who starts the fight, if im right thats also a symptom of OCD but it makes me feel like im actually crazy. Talking with the curator has helped me a bit but im afraid to tell her about this because my mom is kinda the only one i have and i dont want to make her look bad.


Im not sure if curator is the right term but here where i live every school has one and they are kind of like psychologists that students can go talk to about their problems.