I don’t know why I feel this way exactly, but I feel like there absolutely NOTHING to do. Like there is nothing for me to go and do.. Like go to a coffee shop, visit a museum, or anything like that just seems impossible for me to just go and do. I’ve never gotten to do stuff like that growing up and still don’t get to (16 years old currently) I’ve grown up in poverty my entire life and I want to be able to live a normal middle class life one day and stress about getting to live in a comfortable normal future. I’ve tried planning what I want to do for my career and it seems like there’s nothing for me to do. I’ve tried looking into places to move if I ever managed to find a career and it just seems like there is nowhere for me to go on this entire planet. Like I want to move to places like Pensacola, FL or maybe Portland, ME but it just seems like it’s a fairytale daydream. I at one point wanted to move Germany but that seemed like and even more unrealistic daydream.. It’s kinda hard to explain what I’m feeling and I’m trying me best but the closest thing I can compare it to is like in a free roam video game. Your free to walk around and go where ever you want, but there is only a small handful of buildings and places you can actually go into. For me that small group of places is my house and that’s it. I am essentially trap at home, not physically, not because of other people, but because of my own mentally. And I hate feeling like there is nothing in this world and that it has nothing to offer me and that it is essentially boring. I know that this is not true but can’t help but feel this way, like there’s nothing out there in the world beyond the places I know. Like this entire world is nothing but flat planes of empty land with nothing to do or go beyond the borders of my house. I just want to stop feeling this way.