I feel like I have an extremely hard time telling when someone is manipulating me or gaslighting me mostly because with bpd I know sometimes I can perceive things incorrectly. I had a situation recently where someone who knows about my disorder said something offensive that hurt me then we got in a argument. I spoke to them today and they said "your bpd was so bad last night" I didn't think it was I felt like I had been gaslit and reacted appropriately to being hurt. That comment made me second guess myself and I thought maybe my bpd was bad last night, what if I was lacking in self awareness and hurt them, what if my reaction was inappropriate and hurtful. I have a big fear of ruining relationships because of my bpd and past situations. I told a friend about this situation and their immediate reaction was you're being gaslit and that isn't okay. I sorta have this belief I'm always the problem because of my intense emotions/ other symptoms of this disorder. I'm always scared and believe I'm the problem. With this disorder how do you tell when someone is treating you badly? Especially if it's your favorite person I feel like it's the most difficult thing in the world.