Hi, I’m a 30 year old male and I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression about 7 years ago but I’ve been struggling with it probably even longer.
I’ve had good years and bad years since my diagnose and I’m pretty familiar with the feelings I’m feeling and I believe that my experiences have made me attain the tools necessary to cope with this condition and get through the worse periods in my life. Having said that lately I’ve been having an emptiness inside me, a feeling of hopelessness I’ve hadn’t felt this strong for a long long time and is a lingering feeling 24 hours a day 7 days a week. Deep down I know I’m okay, I left a great job about a year ago to start my own business which has been hard and for the last 12 months I’ve been working to achieve my dreams, sometimes I’ve struggled financially but at the end of the day everything sorts itself out and the last couple of months things have become to look brighter on te financial side, my business is finally picking up and I have a great working relationship with my business partner and my employees. 
On the personal side I have strong bonds with my friends and I have been working to have meaningful and deep relationships with those closer to my heart, even so I have been struggling to really engage with new people and sometimes even with my friends which is weird for me because I’ve always been a people’s person, open, empathetic, kind and extroverted but lately those traits seem to be missing. I also feel a disconnect whit my family, being a gay man is sometimes difficult for some people but I have the great fortune to have a very supportive family, but even if I have a good support system I don’t really feel safe in the world, I don’t know if someone will read this but I thought just writing down my feelings might make me feel bettter. Somehow knowing that I have a “good life”, taking into account that I’ve been pretty fortunate in life considering I have good friends, a job that I love and a great family, that only makes me feel worse about my feelings of loneliness and hopelessness making it a vicious cycle. I just want to get out of this feelings and set out to enjoy my life before it’s too late. If anyone here identifies with this feelings I would love to hear from you.