So I’ve started therapy recently, just on betterhelp and I’ve been finding the sessions quite intense. I’ve only had 3 so far and in my second session I had actual snot dribbling from my face, I was in absolute bits. In just 3 weeks everything’s been brought to the forefront and I’ve been forced to face my childhood which is not going great.

Ive fallen out with my grandparents, not talking to my dad, and have literally destroyed my relationship with my mother who refuses to accept she even did anything wrong. My relationship which is always extremely intense as we both suffer from BPD hasn’t been going well for a while and with how angry I’ve been getting it’s only making it worse.

I was incorrectly diagnosed as bipolar, however since the medication worked to an extent I didn’t think much past the diagnosis until recently when that changed. I can’t tell if this is part of therapy. I’ve been told i can be rough until it gets better but holy shit. My emotions have been getting the better of me like they did before the medication. My BPD is quiet so even when I usually feel angry I just let it boil inside me, but I’ve been going from insanely happy to anxious and miserable to so fucking angry in a flash. I’ve been splitting on my partner more and my head has been an even worse place to be. Is this normal? Please can anyone shed some light?