i'm trying to look forward to the little things in life, food, games, watching new movies. By the end of the day, I just feel this void in me that nothing can really fill. I guess in a way I feel really alone. People tell me they are here for me but I am still just alone. I don't tell people exactly how I feel because I don't want to bring them down. 

I'm empty. I'm not happy. I'm anxious. I'm tired. I feel like I don't really have anything to look forward to. I miss being in love. I miss having someone who I feel cares for me. 

Just wish it was better somehow. I hope my life eventually gets somewhere like others. I think I am putting the effort but nothing is showing. Maybe I don't put enough effort? Idk I really just wish everything is gonna be alright.