I'm on 400mg slow release seroquel, and 75mg instant release at night. Plus 0.25mg clonazepam and 150mg of Wellbutrin in the mornings. This is all for BPII, generalized anxiety disorder, and CPTSD from stalking. For almost a year I was sleeping on a regular, healthy schedule and my anxiety was mostly in check... Now? 

My anxiety gets worse and worse as the day progresses until it's full blown the sky is falling by the time I should be in bed... and then I spend hours rolling around like a rotisserie chicken until I actually just pass out of exhaustion. Then I spend my sleeping hours having nightmare after nightmare, waking up mentally exhausted and already dreading that day's night.

I don't talk to my psychiatrist again until the end of May and I'm really starting to lose my mind. I'm irritable and easily overwhelmed. My poor partner is so confused and hurt when I get irritated and push him away. I'm so over my illness ruining my life.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading! Nobody else in my life really understands what I go through, why I can't just "calm down".