University starts for me soon and I am taking a bunch of english/social science/art courses, which relate to what I am "good" at and passionate about. Now I am being struck with the realisation that I will be judged and compared with to thousands of students in my course. I start second guessing my abilities as usual, and have fully convinced myself now that i am not creative at all and I cant do anything original or write anything of high quality. My parents wanted me to do science/commerce courses, but I went against them. So it feels even worse now that I feel like I cant even succeed in what I wanted for myself. 

Side note, my depression has gotten really bad recently. Most of it stems from the control from my overbearing parents, but partly it is my fault too for not being productive enough. These days I just sit around waiting for uni to start. I already feel super burnt out. I dont even want to go to class or make any friends. I feel so sick. I thought my depression will get better as I go to uni but it has gotten way worse.