I feel like I’ve gotten to the age where I’ve given up on friendships. My low self-esteem makes me pick less than favorable people to befriend. I chose people that aren’t good for my mental health and don’t inspire me to better my life because they’re content at performing at low capacity in life. I can’t expect to fly like an eagle when I’m hanging out with a bunch of dodos. 
It’s also incredibly draining to always be the one making an effort to stay in touch after a friend moves away. And, then
they expect me to drop everything for them at a moment’s notice after many years of no contact just because they’re in town. 
When I was younger, having a lot of friends was so important to me. But, as I’ve gotten older, I realize that I’m “too intense” for most people. And, that most people would rather listen to the sound of their own voice, or sit on their phones when we get together. Or, they constantly invalidate my feelings when I do share my thoughts. Can anyone else relate?
I get almost all of my socialization from my husband and pets. And, am the most happiest when I’m among their company.