Hello!! 
It’s been a month since i posted here, i still lurk when i can. I started my new job when i stopped posting here because i didn’t have time to even lurk here as much as i did. Last month, i was still struggling pretty badly with my delusions but i was determined to continue seeking treatment for real and for good and i stuck with it. I currently have a routine daily which some people here gave an advice about and i think it works. I’m still struggling here and there of course but I’m seeing improvement now vs when i was untreated and refused to get help. Kinda crying sometimes because i see hope now that i can get better and “normal”. ngl i usually relapse after a while so this has been the longest i was okay with getting treatment and help so I’m proud of myself, i hope i continue to do so. If i ever relapse and i know it’s gonna be bad when i do, i hope I’ll still find this kind of hope i see right now. Just sharing because this is the longest (1 month) I’ve been okay and I’m crying because it feels so unreal. 

Thanks for reading 🥹❤️