For a few months I’ve got on really well. I have Gad &amp; depression to where I am on disability. I basically have been more or less almost anxiety free though until yesterday. Because of my depression and lack or motivation ( I’m not using those as excuses I know now I could have forced myself too ) I maybe just didn’t care enough to. 

Yesterday I finally went to the doctor because my left leg and foot are swollen. Have been for months. I can almost guarantee that it’s from poor blood circulation because of my inactivity. I was sent to the hospital to get an immediate ultrasound on my legs to check for blood clots. None. 

Also on Monday I have an ultrasound or echocardiogram on my heart. This is my question though : Considering I have accepted the fact I’ve brought this on myself by bad living choices, decisions &amp; not taking care of myself I’m ready for ANYTHING the doctor tells me. I’m 41 with high blood pressure I’ve left untreated in my 20s and have abused drugs for 15 plus years. 

I’m on the path to recovery though. I have a dual diagnosis. I’m sure you know what that means, but it’s when you have mental health disorder(s) as well and a substance abuse problem. 
I’ve had a big hunch that there was an underlying condition with me. Tingling of feel, pins and needles, the swelling for couple months.

I really thought that if you had bad blood circulation that you can easily fix it by becoming more active. I had no idea that whatever this is almost positively serious. I don’t know how to post a picture &amp; write text, but I was able to almost self diagnose the poor circulation when looking at a picture of someone’s foot on a website with the causes. 

Of course the last thing you should do is look it up because you’ll die a thousand deaths, but it’s almost text book like how I diagnosed myself with gad and was correct. DOes anyone have any feedback how to not obsess over what the diagnosis can be or help with this anticipation. 

If I find out it’s life threateningly it is what it is. I can deal with that not anticipating anything. 

Was doing so good until now. That you for reading any feedback back or advice?