I live in a strictly religious country in Africa, I am not living I am barely surviving.

I am trying so stressfully frustratingly hard to get a work visa but I am autistic I am a retard I don't know how to find things I don't know how others do it, I tried looking it up I tried asking people but nothing is helpful.

All countries basically require you to have enough money to support your self while seeking a job which it's approximately 5000 USD, that amount isn't very easy to pull of in a first country so obviously it's IMPOSSIBLE to pull of in a third world country in a single life time.

I am tired, I am done trying, life here is miserable and I am NEVER EVER gonna accept it and live it as it is. NEVER.