* I cannot get attached to someone in a relationship way.

This is the hardest thing I am dealing with right now. I was in a 3 year relationship that ended 5 months ago. I was totally in love with her and I still am to this day even though she has no feelings besides hate for me. After that ended, I can no longer feel "love" or anything close to it. I will chase a girl but as soon as I catch them or as soon as they deny me, I am over it. It's like it never mattered.

* I am incredibly paranoid about people.

When I am having a "paranoid episode"(That's when it gets the worst) I feel like everyone is angry at me and/or out to get me. I feel like people poison/drug my food. I feel like people are angry with me and I make up this tension between us even when they assure me everything is okay. I feel like people are talking behind my back or laughing at me. I feel like people don't take me seriously. These episodes happen often and can sometimes go days. Especially after an argument or some sort of conflict between a person.

* I have a shitty work ethic.

I think this plays off of the paranoid episode but I'm not sure. I'll start a job, it goes well for 3-5 months, and then I just stop showing up and go AWOL. Then I am onto the next job to start the cycle again. I've done this for the past 4 years of working.

* I suck at school.

I've tried college 3 times and each time, I drop out. I don't know why but I've tried and tried with school. At first, it goes really well and I am totally interested and invested but in the middle of the semester something switches and I start falling way behind and I give up.

* I am always bored.

I always have this "empty" feeling that I can't get passed. It doesn't matter what I'm doing, I feel like I could be doing something funner and more interesting.

* I get angry at the drop of a hat.

One minute I will be very "up" and happy but then the next, I just sit there stone faced and I just am annoyed and pissed off at nothing. I don't know why I change so rapidly but it happens quite a bit.
