The past three weeks have been absolutely abhorrent for me. Huge abandonments, awful life situations, very triggering events. After the initial week of being constantly on high alert, overly emotional, anxious, etc, I found myself getting... almost tired of it. It wasn’t just the ‘oh I am pretending not to care’ attitude, I genuinely did not care about anything anymore. I didn’t care what happened to me one bit. It was kind of like ‘bring it on’. Obviously, life took me up on that, and when more shit happened, it did hurt, but I just... couldn’t care anymore. I don’t think it was just depression because I could still get out of bed, could still care for myself, hell, I was still pretty okay overall, I was just way more empty than I usually am. 0/10 do not recommend. 

Am I alone in this. 



(As far as why things have been bad, the only bit I’ve posted about regards my bird’s injury, so keep that in mind if you go through my post history!)