Please read. Any feedback will be greatly appreciated. 

So I’ve struggled with anxiety for the longest time. It’s become pretty debilitating esp as I’ve gotten older so I decided to reach out for help. I’ve tried clonidine... didn’t help. Then I tried hydroxyzine and again... didn’t help. A few weeks ago my (24 F) father (50) tragically passed away and I’ve been a mess. Constant panic attacks. Can barely function. I’m supposed to be starting a new job but I can’t work like this. Honestly, I can’t continue to live like this.   My doctor is clearly not one of those who hand out benzos (which is understandable) and was hesitant about giving me .5 Lorazepam for 2 weeks but he did. Didn’t even ask, he just did it. Although he said he wouldn’t refill it. I tried it and it didn’t help AT ALL. Hell, I took 1 mg and it didn’t help. Anyway we had a follow up appt a few days ago and I told him I’m still struggling with the loss of my father on top of my recent anxiety attacks and that the .5 Lorazepam didn’t help me. Although he said he wasn’t going to make a refill on those he actually UPPED the dose to 1 mg, but only for a week. I’ve been taking 2 mg and it’s helped my tremendously. I feel like this and cognitive behavioral therapy is what’s going to change my life. Not only does the Lorazepam help my anxiety, it helps minimize my sweating! I’ve suffered from SEVERE primary hyperhydrosis (overactive nerve glands in the hands, armpits, feet, etc). I’m thinking the reason why it helps with my hyperhydrosis is because it calms my sympathetic nervous system. However, what do I say to my doctor to get him to prescribe it to me permanently as needed? We have a follow up appointment in a few days. It’s sad that so many people have abused benzos... because now people who wouldn’t abuse it are too afraid to talk to their doctor about them because they’re afraid of coming off “drug seeking”.