The way that you talk to yourself changes everything. As soon as I began to think of myself as a loser, and stupid, I became a loser and stupid. Now I wish I was who I at first had called a loser and stupid. Im working hard now to get out of this mess and make the stupid loser a thing of the past. I want to get out of this body and be beautiful. I want to become something worthwhile. I want to get out of bed in the morning and do things. I want to have friends to go to when things are good and bad and in between. I want my family to care about me genuinely. I want to be something. I want to live.