This is sort of an apology to the whole community here. 

I thought I had BPD for quite some time, and my psychiatrist still hasn't ruled it out. I was also diagnosed with brain damage recently, though, and I've realised that is the cause of my problems, and most probably not BPD.

I know this is a safe spot for most of you, and I feel like I've been encroaching on it. I feel bad about that, like I feel bad about a lot of things I've done recently and a lot of thoughts I've had recently. As I said, my psychiatrist hasn't ruled it out, he wrote "possible emotional affective disorder" on one of the reports he wrote about me, but I don't believe it to be true. I think it's more the brain damage I suffered.

Once again, apologies. Stay strong, I kind of know what it's like, or I knew for a little while.