My own mother about a week ago came knocking on my bedroom door asking to talk, I could hear the anger in her voice so I said I would talk to her when she could calm down. She then proceeded to yell and scream that she wanted to kill herself and that she would drive her car off of a cliff and that it was my fault and that I didn’t care. She was angry about my dogs barking which is understandable. I told her I would get a bark collar which I did and he is barely even barking now. I tried talking to my sister about the situation and all I asked was for her to let me vent as I was quite anxious, she got mad at me so I hung up the phone. She’s since ignored because of all this. (I assume she blames me too) Now a week or two later, today. I honestly forgot as the situation was quite stressful, I talk to my mother asking if my sister had said anything to her and she then gets mad at me and starts saying she wanted to kill herself, that I didn’t care and it was my fault. I got anxious and told her she didn’t mean it and to stop saying that and she said I always make a situation about me and that she ALMOST killed herself because of me and I didn’t care. I am just anxious and stressed and don’t know what to do. I have a past of an attempted suicide and it seemed so wrong for her to say those things to make me feel upset or guilty. I tried to tell her those words make me anxious and she got mad at me every time. I guess I’m not allowed to feel something when my own mother tells me I’m the reason she’s going to kill herself. I know she doesn’t mean it and I’m probably just overreacting. But what do I do? I have this graduation present trip to go to Korea in October for 3 weeks and I don’t want this situation to ruin the whole trip but my mother kind of said I’m uninvited.  I don’t think she means it but I’m just an emotional wreck. I’m thinking of not going just so they can have a good time. How would you navigate this situation and how can I talk to my mom and explain my feelings without her yelling at me?