I also despise humans and wish everyone death. The problem is that this is a constant and not a state.

I'm also somewhat worried of becoming crazy crazy, you know, proper crazy, not just pseudo crazy like us borderliners, I mean genuinely ready for the asylum crazy after having commited genocide.

The fuck, dude, what kind of crap am I even talking about. I'm just so lost. I've been stuck for years now, no progess, none...okay I quit smoking, yay me, still a fucking NEET with only 1 number in my phone which is my fucking mom. Don't ever wanna work or do things. Just hook me up with something, common society, bring out the next great something like you did with sugar, games and pornography to get some of my dopamine receptors reactived again. fjdfldkjflasdjfnklasndfoklasndfkoasndöfkonawspidofnwieonfoewknfökladsnfökladsnfoisadnoikadsnkfln