I wanted to write this on here to get it off my chest. I have a severely damaging narcissistic toxic family. I have been psychologically &amp; emotionally abused. My brain is suffering from the traumatic abuse. I have mild hearing loss with tinnitus which makes things worse, and makes me really isolated. I’m unable to leave my house and connect with humanity / connect with strangers etc. I have been damaged so severely I have suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I have the urge to act on them. I lose hope sometimes, I have not one single soul in this world to help me. Billions of people in the world &amp; I don’t have one person. No friends, family is toxic and damaging. Any thoughts on what I should I do please give me sincere advice I’m struggling