I'm sure a lot of us with BPD feel this way and it might even be a forever thing. I just can't cope with it anymore. I'm at a time in my life where I need to get a job and move out. I can't hold down a job because it always goes like this; 
I get hired for a new job. I feel so happy and I LOVE my new job. Something goes wrong and I start hating my job. I get so depressed to the point I'm having suicidal tendencies and I have to quit. 

It's the same thing with school. I have no degree whatsoever. I get into these programs thinking it's what I want to do and 2 months later I drop out.

I just don't know who I am or what I want to do with my life and it makes me think that maybe there isn't anything out there for me. No one understands me. My friend tells me things will get better and that there are solutions but how am I supposed to believe that when everything in my life goes against those words? 

I just want to give up. I don't want to keep fighting when there's nothing to fight for.