i’m sure this could be experienced so many different ways, and probably has a lot to do with ‘sense of self,’ but I do feel it most when I’m alone. Even when I am being productive, I still have to find ways to undercut the loneliness to actually feel motivated, like working at coffee shops or with friends, or having a TV on in the background, but i still have hope that there’s a better way.

I do still consider myself a very ambitious person, but it’s really hard to know who you are when no one is around.