Hi I'm pretty new to this sub. I'll try to keep this as short as I can. I'm in my early 20s (f) , diagnosed in my late teens with ADHD. I'm already on Tofisopam 50mg in the morning &amp; Lexapro 20 mg and Zyprexa 2.5 mg at night. I'm not currently on any medication for ADHD because Adderall is banned in my country and I was on Strattera for a while but stopped due to really terrible side effects.
Side note: I was in a physically and mentally abusive relationship with a narcissist for two years, which caused me to develop severe c-PTSD and panic attacks and almost committed suicide. It's been two years since then and I'm healing through therapy and medication and I'm thankfully doing a lot better.
I am taking mood stabilizers (mentioned above) because of rapidly fluctuating mood swings. I'll be happy for a few hours and feel good about myself and invincible and with really good self esteem. I'll start planning to meet friends, be social and make plans and after a few hours I'll exhaust myself mentally and feel down in the dumps. I'll question how I ever even felt good about my body and how I , a despicable human being could have hope. The worst part is I'm a very empathetic person and I usually avoid conflict at all costs (except to people very close to me) and I'm also a very sensitive smol bean internally (hello RSD!). And I told my psychiatrist about my mood swings and she wondered if I was getting hypomanic because of my antidepressant and put me on a mood stabilizer. And all these days I've been wondering if I've been bipolar or I have BPD or both and I've been very confused.  I don't think my mood swings are long enough to qualify as a bipolar episode ( but I could be cyclothymic so idk :/ ). And other symptoms are :
1. I like a person sometimes but can't stand them other times even if they did nothing different or wrong. 
2. I feel like I create different versions of myself to fit in with different people and God knows wtf I'd do if they were all in a room together. (Did this with my 13 yo niece recently and I'm so embarrassed and I also feel like a manipulator even though it's not really intentional??! Not to mention feeling mentally drained after.
3. Never really knowing who I am. ( Dressing either in black ripped jeans and oversized sweats all the time or floral dresses to changing my entire room from black and white soft goth to purple kawaii aesthetic sigh)
4. Varied music tastes depending on the fucking personality that takes over.
5. Fear of abandonement so I either sabotage the friendship/ relationship or I just reject them straightaway so they never get a chance to reject me. 
6. Feeling overly sexual sometimes and then regretting it so bad. Feeling guilty shameful after. And then detesting physical touch (ugh) and wondering how people even can feel so sexual. 
7.My feelings about my SO keep changing. One day I feel omg I love this person SO much I can't live witho- to omg I manipulated this person into loving me and now I'm stuck with this person wtf to I love this perso- SIGH
8. NEVER REALLY KNOWING WHAT DISORDER I HAVE CAUSE ALL SYMPTOMS OVERLAP ( ADHD, BPD, BIPOLAR) 
9. The golden one: seeing 9 symptoms that correspond to BPD that I can relate to. Sees 1 that doesn't. "OMG I'm faking"
10. Not really a symptom: but I don't have any sort of psychosis or I don't hear voices nothing like that. Worst case I have weird lucid dreams to the point when I explain to them people ask me if I'm on drugs (I'm not FYI , I don't do drugs at all, not even nicotine. Grandma died of lung cancer so can't touch a cigarette.)

Sorry for the long ass paragraph but if anyone's been diagnosed with BPD or is a licensed therapist who can tell me if my symptoms are a part of this, please do let me know thanks in advance. 🥺