I'm in college. 2nd semester. I'm on academic probation. I'm 8000$in the hole. I had a cool idea for a game to make. I'm a video game dev major. If I made the game it would be crap. Everything I touch turns to crap. My life is a living hell. It takes everything I have not to swallow a bottle of bleach. My mom makes me feel like a piece of crap whenever I talk to her. All those passive aggressive bullshit she spews at me makes me want to drown myself. I feel myself getting closer to the edge. I lay awake at night in mental torment weeping over all the things I know I will never expieriance. Love, happiness, success. I'm a dumpster of a person.