I feel the way i have been brought up is a lot responsible for me being vulnerable, instable and having hyperness and anger range. 
I belong to an Indian family surrounded by people having excessive anger issues (and they were somewhere proud of it) 
Seeing neglect later in my life (being the middle child and seeing abandonment with the late arrival of my younger sibling ) i felt neglect, abandonment, division of love from my parents. 
Multiple abandonment issues by friends, being victimised and slowly being sensitve towards made me thick from outside but a cocoan. All of this expedited and smoothened emotionally by my anger vents, taking out anger on petty things etc. 
I could not handle all of this. 
Now at the age of 30, i am the worst partner to be with. I keep on taking out unnecessarily flaws of my partner, expect him to be perfect in every way possible, having emotional instability, keep on venting anger and be 'a typical BPD girlfriend'
It is literally tough space to survive. 
When my ex broke up with me, i had sucidal thoughts all the way, felt abandoned by the whole world, did not have a sense of myself. I just didn't know what was right.
I feel that vibe and energy again and again even now. 
I just want to escape from myself sometimes. It gets bit overwhelming. 
I feel there is no escape. I feel trapped.
I am the epitome and master in ruining relations - i feel nothing but helpless

Whenever i have sucidal or instable thoughts, i listen calm music to relax my nerves and living in a conservative house and society it gets tougher. 
People in India are not educated , acknowledging or sympathetic about it. Infact my own parents are not. 

I feel i live in a world where i can never fit in. 

It's stupid but it's true 

I wish BPD had a 100% cure. Life would be so much lighter