ok so here’s the deal. I absolutely despise my father. he says he wants to fix our relationship but has left me to do all the work for years, never actually putting in any effort of his own to change. I’m sick of it and I’m sick of him.

but anyways, you know how it is. not liking someone, at least for me, makes it feel more okay to take advantage of them.

there have been multiple occasions recently where he has taken me to a store to buy things I need (don’t have a driver’s license and mom didn’t want to go out) and I always brought my own money to pay but each time he has paid for me??? also, the other week I went to an event with my fp and he gave me straight up $40 even after we told him it was completely free. and he didn’t ask for it back so I kept it.

is it wrong that I sort of want to make use of this? I don’t have a job so spending money doesn’t really find me often, and ofc one of my impulses is spending so whenever I get my hands on any amount of cash it’s gone in an instant. so, I mean, if he wants to pay for me, is that so wrong for me to play into?