Let me make this short. I'm an anxious paranoid mess.

This was yesterday. I was in the ER because of a spontaneous pneumothorax (3rd one now). I was pacing and panicking because I was afraid of needing another chest tube, so my (very nice) nurse asked me if I wanted anything for anxiety. I'm terrified of everything but I agreed. Once she came back with the Ativan, she told me she spoke with the doctor and that the pnuemo was small enough to not need a chest tube. I was also offered and accepted Valium after I had been taken upstairs since I had been so anxious that I scratched my arms so badly they were dripping blood.

Now, today, I was pacing and panicking again for god knows what reason. The charge nurse offered to see if I had any PRN anxiety medications on my chart. I accepted this without much hesitation.

Retrospectively I sound like a drug seeker to myself. I've never smoked weed or cigarettes before, and I've never even TAKE A SIP of alcohol before (I'm 19M) so hunting for benzos isn't my thing. On the other hand, I'm extremely thin for my height (6'0ft, 105lbs) so I already look like a junkie.

Do you think they think/thought that I'm a drug seeker? I know it's stupid and pathetic to search for validation from an online forum but I appreciate input. I was having pnuemo-like symptoms for about two weeks but didn't take myself in for this reason specifically. 

Nurses, you all have my utmost respect and appreciation for what you do.