Hey y’all, in need of some advice. I (21f if it matters) have suffered from anxiety for years now. I thought I could manage it on my own but my mental health in school last semester was not the greatest and after talking with some close friends I realized it might be time to reach out. I have a regular wellness checkup on Friday with my doctor and I am hoping to bring up the fact that I have suffered from anxiety for a while and it’s starting to affect me daily. There’s just a few problems 
-I have anxiety, and it’s hard to talk about it with my friends let alone someone of importance 
-I have an irrational fear of crying in front of people I don’t know well, and I am afraid that I am going to break down in front of her 
-I have trouble describing my anxiety to people, and I am afraid that my doctor will write it off as “stress from school” or something. It’s irrational. I know.
-I am also afraid she will be upset with me when I tell her I have been feeling like this for a while, because she usually asks me if I ever have any thoughts of depression/anxiety/su*cide etc and I say no. Also kinda irrational, I know. 

I have been putting this off for years and I am so nervous to tell her. Any advice whatsoever is much appreciated.