I’ll get so angry and hostile and say such mean, nasty things without even thinking about it whenever I argue with people. And I even find myself trying to get dirt on people just so I’ll have stuff to say to people if I ever get into an argument with them, like who the fuck does that? I take things so personally for no reason. I feel so bad and guilty afterwards too, but by then the damage is done. Thankfully I have a decent enough family and good friends that won’t abandon me, even if I do socially isolate myself. It honestly just fuckin sucks.