I'm not suicidal or want to die. I just don't see that a point in keeping moving forward or trying. Money doesn't motivate me, I have nobody, I'm unemployed, have depression and anxiety and all I want is to be happy. It that too much to ask for? And I know beggers can't be choosers but please don't tell me to focus on myself first. I've focused on myself for an entire year and it did nothing. "It'll take time" but I can't wait anymore, something needs to happen before I take action and do something stupid.

I'm not asking for much, I just want some honest raw advice of what to do. How can I motivate myself?