I am deeply ashamed of myself. I have no confidence in who I am as a person. I get nervous and flustered easily. 
I turn incredibly and embarrassingly red, I can feel myself getting redder
People do not tend to like me. I am kind of weird for a female and often say or do the wrong things.
I cannot regulate my emotions. I am often in a panic over simple things. Panic leads to me self harming to soothe myself. This has affected my relationship with my partner greatly. 
Situations which lead me to obvious self harm then lead me to feel ashamed and I withdraw, to hide myself and cry in shame. 
Right now I am fighting the urge to hit myself in the nose with my phone because I feel ignored by my partner, who does not believe in mental illness and told me today that positive thinking and drinking water will likely cure me. I want to not exist.