I’ve been experiencing a lot of depersonalization and I always obsess over a specific fear for months. One month it was germs, I washed my hands several times in a row all the time until they were raw. Then I had a fear of choking, so I was scared to eat without having water next to me. Then it was the fear of having a heart attack. Later it was  passing out while driving. I have an anxiety attack almost every time I drive. Under a lot of stress, I occasionally have outbursts where I do not feel like I am in my own body or have control over. For a few seconds I realize what’s happening and I want to stop myself, but the toxicity still comes out. I can function, and I have kept these issues to myself but my quality of life is reduced and I want to know what is going on so I know how to fix it. I suspect BPD or OCD. Has anyone experienced something similar?