I know its a terrible thing to say… i have bipolar II, major depression since childhood, im 42 now, social anxiety disorder, and adhd. I have been hospitalized 8 times. Been in many programs and electroconvulsive therapy.  Its just that i feel im incurable and that i rather have a physical ailment even if it were deadly. Im too weak or a chicken to end my own life. The only thing that keeps me going are my kids. Im a nurse on medical leave because of psychological issues.  Damn thats a terrible but honest thing to say…