This is not a pitty party I just want to explain myself, my struggles and to show why I act the way I do. I want you to understand how I’ve struggled. Why I’ve let you down. My life revolves around you, whoever you are. I’ll analyze you, act how u want me to act. Every step I take feels watched by you, judged by you, and it’s nothing you even did, it’s me,I want to be perfect for you. I feel so worthless so I try to be perfect for you, it never works though I still feel worthless. Everyday just trying to make I through.