I’ve never been someone with a great memory but over the years I feel as though my memory has gotten worse and worse. I’m 21 (F) and I feel like an old person with dementia. My boyfriend (21) has been telling me for about the past year about things that I do or say that sound nothing like me or anything I’d do. This morning I woke up to him telling me to move over because I took his spot in bed while he went to shower. I wanted to be playful so I was just like, “mhmm,” and didn’t move but then he started saying that I pushed him away last night when he tried cuddling me and that’s when I turned to look at him. He said he told me he just wanted to cuddle and that I said I didn’t care and pushed him away. I have absolutely no recollection of this and it hurt for him to tell me that because I don’t feel that way towards him at all. I told him the last thing I remember last night was us spooning and then me rolling away to lay flat on my back for a bit because my back hurt, to which he said he understood. After that, I passed out. I don’t ever remember waking up again or anything but he’s telling me that I said those horrible things to him and is now telling me that he doesn’t even know why I’m in his bed, telling him things like that when it’s his bed and that he doesn’t need me. I feel like shit entirely because he won’t hear me out, but I understand because those words were actually said to him. I mean I don’t remember it but there’s a possibility he was talking to me while I was asleep, and me having a bad dream, thought it was someone else. I have bad dreams almost every night so I thought maybe that’s what happened but when I tried explaining that that could’ve been the reason he just told me to leave him alone. I freaked out a bit at first but I walked away and left him alone. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m going crazy because this isn’t the first time he’s told me I’ve done or said something that I cannot remember in the slightest. Its almost like there’s someone else inside of me who just takes over during those times because I can’t recall anything! I know I should probably go to the doctor before this ruins our relationship but I just wanted to ask for any advice that might help me be able to talk to him and help him understand where I’m coming from. I’m just tired of feeling like I don’t ever know what’s going on and hearing about me being an asshole when I can’t remember it.

Sorry for being such a mess. Thank you all.