For years I’ve done terribly in academic settings and only started trying harder in college. I had over 100% in a class, missed ONE assignment because I was in urgent care and my grade dropped by over 20%. I know a B is still better than most of what I’ve done before but it feels like effort is worthless if one mistake sets me back so easily. I just wish I could drop out.

I hate having to try so hard for stuff that’s so simple for others. I don’t understand how people have the motivation to do anything.