ive had pretty much unlimited access to my fp the past few days, spent all day friday together, watched shit together this weekend, but now that they need to work and are planning on being distant the next two weeks for school, i cannot function. this feels so embarrassing to admit but ive literally had no motivation to do anything today. i just constantly wait around for them, i dont feel like im living my own life right now and its so overwhelming. i was getting better (independent) so quickly and they were really proud of me and this feels like a pretty big step backwards :( 

(context: moving out of state in less than a month so thats why ive allowed myself to be so obsessed but its turned into unbearable pain where i feel empty and useless unless im interacting with them hahaha =D)