I live with an abusive dad and my family just sides with him. I hate myself. I hate my life. I turn 18 in 4 months' time when I can get out. But it feels so far away seeing his face every day.

Every day I just get closer to wanting to kill myself. I barely get enough sleep so i can escape because I know tomorrow is the exact same day.

They went on holiday for 3 days and it was the best few days of 2022 so far. I didn't do anything special but work, wash up, eat food, and relax. It was just so damn peaceful, when the days got closer to them coming back I began to hate it all even more.

I don't know how long I can keep going.