1. Something you have very little of no control affects you and makes you feel depressed.

2. You feel depressed so things you have control over start to get worse. 

3. Things you have control over make you feel depressed because of how you ruined them or are ruining them. 

Just wait for things you have no control over to carry you? Dont feel depressed about something?

Im in this loop and I cant break out, everytime I actually try, something has to happen that just takes any of my remaining motivation away.