My FP and I habe been together in a LDR for over 2 years. We like to play mobas together (aov, etc.) and it is something that I still look forward to when I'm near the next breakdown. 

Ptoblem is: The moment he plays more games than me or is in a higher rank (what he is) I get really depressed and emotional. It's like he's leaving me behind and joining a pro team pro something (what I know is ridiculous). But I keep spiraling and the self depricating/ self-harm get way more serious.

He can tell by my reaction that I feel affected by it and avoids ranking but this is making me feel worse for limiting him so I can't escape the negative thoughts, etc. 

Does anyone else have this?