Dealing with anxiety or whatever I got, makes life hard. Obviously, everyone knows that. 

I hate how certain things can set me off. I can be chilling and then I watch a video or I hear someone say something and suddenly I can’t sit down in a room by myself without my thoughts attacking me. It’s hard man. 

For example, recently (more like 2 and half months ago) i just turned 19 and on a day that’s suppose to be a happy day and I was consumed with so much guilt. About past actions that was done to me and I haven’t even thought about in years. 

Such a random thought and I can’t get it out of my head. So I’ve been questioning everything. About myself. About my past. Everything and it’s so frustrating, always being in my own head. I just wish I can turn off. Its so tiring always feeling anxious and questioning my self. 

Haha. I’m tired. Literally. 

I haven’t slept properly in days.