The reason I hate myself is because I don't have the will to do anything, I can't even clean my fuckin' room. Much less keep the promises I make to people. I've made a whole lot of promises to my friends I ended up not keeping. I learned that they just thought I stopped trying, but I don't want to stop trying even if I did. I let people down and I can tell make all my coworkers wanna go home the moment they realise I'm working. People don't like me, so recently I tried to stop being with my friends, and they telling me to come over because they were bored, I ended up doing it. I feel like they only hang out with me because I am entertaining to them, or they feel pity that I might not have any friends otherwise.