Sooooo......\*sigh\* 

Here I go again goddamn it.

I texted my FP on November 1st telling him I was going to talk to my therapist about seeing a psychiatrist about medication, and I also proposed an idea. This idea relates to some cPTSD type issues and difficulties I've been having and would hopefully serve to help me get through these issues. The exact details of these issues (and what caused them in the first place- that's along story, one that my FP is sort of familiar with) are not relevant for this post. I briefly laid out the actual idea that I need my FP's involvement for in this [post](https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/qej702/i_went_through_some_things_related_to_driving/). There's a hell of a lot of history behind all of that, stuff I'm not going to share on here at this time. Basically, this idea to hopefully help myself get past these PTSD type issues is something I wanted my FP's help with and the exercise itself does require some time/energy on his part, but has validity. 

Anyway, I proposed my idea to my FP via text on November 1st stating that I just wanted him to consider it and let me know if he was or was not able or willing to help me with it. He didn't say anything back to me. I saw him in person on November 3rd, and I asked him if he got my text, to which he replied he didn't get a chance to read it (it was a long text, so fine). He said he'd get back to me. He was out of town this past weekend, so I was hoping he'd say something to me about at least reading the text yesterday (Monday November 8th). He again didn't say anything, so I texted him yesterday asking if he had gotten around to reading my text with the request/idea from last Monday (November 1st). 

All of that brings me to today. My FP still hasn't said anything. I really want him to just say something or acknowledge that he read my damn text. I will most likely be seeing him tomorrow in person, but I just really wanted him to respond. I kind of feel like he doesn't want to listen to me anymore. I don't know what to do. Text him again? Wait until tomorrow?