Whether it be oversharing, or just disassociating in the middle of a conversation I always end up ruining something. 

I’ve had several people suggest I might suffer from autism that’s how bad my social interactions can be (for the record I’ve been screened for autism and it can be ruled out) 

Part of the problem is I’ll become attached to someone way to quickly and then just say something with out thinking that will put them off. Or I’ll become caught up in trying to say the right thing, either way I just come off as awkward and stiff or wild and with out boundaries.

I don’t know how to maintain anything beyond casual acquaintances. And at this point it feels like I’m always going to be alone.