
I don’t wanna talk about it but last night something scary happened to my dad (he’s okay now it was minor he came home back in an hour) anyways what happened to him I started to panic and it’s like I felt possessed…i couldn't even look at my dad...I started to scream and hit the pillow and hit the walls,my voice changed into something I wasn’t…  I did dial 911,but a normal person wouldn’t have done that at all. The ambulance came and took him away but my whole body was shaking and I kept saying “do something!!!help yourself!! ” And “what do you want me to do!!!” to my dad like a idiot… I am so ashamed of myself and now my mom and my dad are judging me for acting that way. I calmed myself down when the EMT came but he even asked me did I take any medicine to calm me down 🥴 what is wrong with me?? I can’t tell anyone else this not even a doctor I think they would think I am crazy. This is sooo not me like at all , I feel embarrassed. Also want to mention I deal with intrusive thoughts sometimes when I am stressed and what happened to my dad was actually one of those intrusive thoughts so maybe that's why Idk. I'm scared to even type this and talk about it it cuz I don't wanna but maybe someone can help me