I met my gf’s sister last night at a restaurant we both like, the sister brought a bunch of her friends along. I don’t do well in situations like this, but it was important to my gf so I went. Sister and all her friends are in medical school school, getting phds, etc. It was alright until the sister brought up my place of work, which is sometime I hate so much because my life has been such a struggle and I hate where I am and I know I could be so much more successful and further along in life if maybe I sought out help sooner? Like I literally just got diagnosed with bpd and bipolar but I’ve been struggling with symptoms for almost my whole life. I’m still fucking struggling so hard every day, just doing the bare minimum to survive, and most days I don’t even want to survive. Anyway, I usually prefer not to tell people what I do for work right now because it’s just something easy that I can manage right now and I guess I’m a little ashamed of it? I was surprised that sister even knew and it threw me off guard and I just started spiraling and told my gf I had to leave and just left. I told her I needed space and honestly I feel like I should just break up with her. I’m in a spiral of self hate and also anger with my gf for telling her sister, anger with with the sister for bringing it up.