I struggle a lot to be open and fully transparent about my emotions, because it makes me vulnerable. I generally instead will let those emotions turn into games I play with other people. I am trying to be more open and direct now, but my SO just completely ignores me.

When I send a long text opening up my heart to them, they completely ignore it like it never happened. Then they will get upset if I forget to watch a tik tok they sent me. It feels like a double standard and it makes me feel like I don’t matter. 

I hate trying to bring it up because I know they are going to either just not respond at all or get annoyed with me. What do I do?