i think it also has to do with my being trans and never being able to develop a sense of style, but also with the lack of a consistent sense of self.   i'll be reading comics/manga and think, wow, i love that character('s style), i want to be like that.   and then another cool character appears with totally different style, or a person on tv, or in real life, and then i want to copy that.    


but moreso, i feel wrong about it.  like im not a "true goth" if i only like dressing goth sometimes, and if i only "feel" x/y/z scene sometimes.