When my mom comes into my room I get really scared that she will find out that I'm nonbinary. That I'm depressed. That I have severe anxiety. She supports me being bi and she flew me out to see my boyfriend but I'm still scared. It's irrational and I hate it but I'm just so scared. I don't want to live like this. I wish I could come out and be androgynous. I want to wear skirts. I want to just be done. I want to be out but I can't. Everytime I try to come out I get a stomach ache and I want to throw up. Fuck me I hate myself.