Well to start out with I’m 17, in my senior year of high school, got out of a two year relationship about 4 or 5 months ago. Now I don’t really care to get into our relationship but a previous post of mine could help you understand some things. As of now I’m still absolutely in love with this girl. She’s still with the other guy and like to send me pictures of them together. She is a very on and off type of girl. She’s all nice one day and hates me the next. I’m doing absolutely everything In my power to move on. But at my state of mind I can’t stop loving her. I’m not doing well physically nor mentally. I weighed 175lbs when me and her were together, I’m now 140 lbs that’s not a lot of weight lost. But in general I just stopped eating and that was the outcome. Not even by choice though, it’s just that this woman was the only person to make me food and have the time to go get food from the store. As my dad is on house arrest and my mom is pretty much not in the picture. As for my mental health I started Prozac around a week ago, so far hasn’t done jack shit for me. My panic attacks when I deal with my ex are through the fucking roof. I self harmed as a result from them a few minutes ago. Why I really started writing this was to calm me down and it mildly worked. But I just don’t think at this rate without some medicine to comatose me when i have these moments that I’ll be here much longer. I do really really dumb things when I have my moments and it scares me. I don’t even want to die really. It’s just It’s almost like I can’t help myself in these moments. Thank you to whoever reads this I wish you all the best. Goodnight.