i feel like i am so fucking done with my brain torturing me with bpd that i have just accepted its won and i no longer “fight back” in my head i feel like ive just accepted the narrative that everyone hates me i will never be loved and theres nothing i can do about it. i no longer feel any emotion. i dont feel sad or angry or anxious that i may be rejected because i just accept that i already am rejected and thats it, theres nothing to care about or fight for any longer. i feel complete lack of emotion and ive felt like this for 2 years now. the only thing i ever think about is ending it. and the only time i can come close to feeling anything is during near death experiences (mainly overdoses). i am so fucking lost and have no clue how to get any “fight” back into my head. any advice? anything at all would be much appreciated! thank you for reading this 💜