I feel bad, but I am just so tired and done for today. I might regret it tomorrow. But I just want to lay in bed and not have to get up for some time. I know it's a bit of a depressive set back after my birthday. I have it almost every year, but I just want to be alone. But now I feel awful for cancelling... and stupid. Because technically I could go and my dad will probably try and make a big deal about it that I didn't want to go. I will feel dumb for not having enough energy to go and it just sucks. Because all I want is some peace because I am also anxious for my first workday back tomorrow and my appointment with the plastic surgeon after. 

I feel so stupid that I can't just be normal and not feel like crying for no reason sometimes.