It’s not a drinking problem in the normal sense. I don’t even drink that often, but when I do I tend to over do it and say dumb shit. Then I over the next week I’ll ruminate over the dumb stuff I said. 

The alleviation of anxiety from the alcohol causes me to speak freely, and even say stuff that I don’t even believe just thoughts as they appear in my mind.

Post drinking I think about it so much I become sick to my stomach, for multiple days unable to function.