I'm crying right now because my aunt decided to get mad at me and when I defended myself (because nobody else ever does) and suddenly I was the one that decided to get mad and she never did anything.

It's always like this. My dad left after years of ab\*sing me and my mom and now we 2 live together with my aunt. My aunt studied especial education but never managed to find a job and so now she lives with my mom and me. While my mom works and I study, she takes care of most of the housework, which is ok because neither my mom nor I have to worry about spending that extra time doing it ourselves. My aunt doesn't pay rent or anything, she's unemployed and has refused to look for a job for the last 5 years, and even if she had money we probably wouldn't ask for any of it. In spite of this, she constantly complains about me being unemployed too, when she knows full well that I'm doing my absolute best to finish school asap to find one that pays well enough. 

She likes picking on me. She likes reminding me she washes my clothes and cleans the house because 'I'm lazy', even though I used to do everything she currently does (plus college work) and even though she was the one who offered to do those things for us in the first place. My mom likes being on her side too, and almost never stops to properly assess the situation. She often says I remind her of my "father", and I feel like she often mistreats me because of it, but whenever I bring that up she says she's never done anything like that. They love gaslighting me too.

I'm already under a lot of pressure right now too. My mom often talks about me as if I were a burden, talking about how college is expensive and whatnot, as if I already didn't feel bad enough. She's pressuring me to finish school asap so that she can focus on 'important things', like paying her debts (I know they're important too, but she says it in a way that makes me feel like I don't matter at all). For a whole year I have done nothing but study, most nights I can't even afford to sleep properly or at all, and have had to endure them saying I'm lazy because I never seem to have energy to do anything. Whenever I explain why I'm tired, they completely ignore me and start talking about why they're more tired than I am. 

I have been diagnosed with ADHD and depression that have gone unchecked and untreated for at least 5-6 years because "therapy is too expensive", and yet they have enough money to spend on lottery, essential oils and relaxing massages (that do not include me, of course), which to me implies that my needs are not even considered important. I'm always being used as a scapegoat, everything is always my fault, and even If they decide it wasn't, they remain mad at me.

I can't leave, I have pets I can't leave behind because I'm afraid of what they'd do to them if I left. I once saw my aunt kick my sweet 12 year old dog simply because she walked by. I can't imagine what could happen If I left. 

My aunt asked me for help on setting up her new phone yesterday and I obliged, didn't complain or anything, even though I currently have the worst fever and have been feeling awful for the past week.

Today she told me to help her again because the phone wasn't reading the SIM card and I explained I would help her tomorrow (I'm having terrible tremors, didn't exactly want to handle a phone in a state in which I could either drop it or the SIM card). She decided to take the "later" as a "never" and threw a tantrum. "You don't even wash your clothes, You don't even work, why can't you never help me with anything?" I explained in vain I was having tremors and now she's gone to my mom telling her to pray for me because I'm such a bad kid. 

I love my family, but I feel like they only love me when they can use me to feel better about themselves.

I don't even know what to do anymore.