 I  used to work in the past, even outside Italy ( my country) and I was  self medicating with alcohol, everything was fine just apparently.

Now  that I don't drink anymore just the ideaof going outside and look for a  job makes me terrified (my diagnosis is generalized anxiety and social  anxiety), my main  symptoms are dizziness and tachycardia, they just  physically paralyze me, the feel of an imminent danger stops me and I am  not living my life anymore.

I do  work part time online as a freelancer but the money I am making is not  enough to move out and pay a rent, I want to live again. I go to  counseling which has helped me a lot through this period of alcohol  detox  and I take medications (which don't work anymore and I don't want  to increase dosages).