Is there a way for me to just feel better? Im severely depressed and i will be until probably march. I feel personalityless, and i have bouts of paranoia. Every day is more unbearable than the last dispite it feeling like it cant get any worse. I have lost every single friendship i ever had in the past 6 months whether i actively sought out to cut them off during mania or just not contacting them whatsoever. Im basically at my wits end with being so horrible and worthless, i cant stand another second on this earth. I just want it to be over so badly that i can almost overcome my crippling avolition.