Hello,

Ive been dating my bf for over four years now and have loved every minute of it. Over the past two years though, I have developed a constant feeling of panic that he is mad at me. It can be over things like not answering his calls, leaving my house, or doing something at night when we usually Facetime (we are long distance but see each other around once a month and live together over the summer). At first the anxiety popped up every once in a while but it never really affected me. Its gradually progressed, despite the fact that he has never expressed being upset about any of these things. My anxiety has gotten much worse since being in college, mainly because we are long distance during the school year. During my freshman year of college, I was drunk one night and told him that I found someone else attractive. Nothing happened, but I feel he has never fully trusted me since. There have been no other instances where I have betrayed his trust since. I genuinely feel our relationship is very strong and I would love to spend the rest of my life with him. I recently started taking prescribed Adderall along with an anti-anxiety medication, and I feel my anxiety with our relationship has exploded. My anxiety is really just about him though, not any of my friends or family despite having pretty bad social anxiety. My heart races when I think about him, I am relieved when I know he is going to hockey practice so I wont have to worry about missing a call or text, and I am anxious about facetiming or calling him. I love him to death and I have expressed the issue to him before and he offered to give me all the space I needed to cope with the anxiety. He is very understanding of it and I feel I can talk to him about this issue, but how can I cope with this?  

Hopefully I am not alone in feeling like this.