
After I graduated high school, I decided to go to law school in Germany, where I live.
In case there’s any Germans reading this, they’ll know that the German bar exam is one of the hardest exams in the world. 
It consists of 6 exams, 5 hrs each and then an oral exam. After 10 (!) semesters, students take 1-2 years off to study for it, most of them study long hours 7 days a week. The worst part is, that there’s a 50% failure rate and you can only repeat it once. Once you fail a second time you’re left with nothing. 
So I’m currently preparing for this exam and it’s not going very well. It’s too much pressure and the worst part is that all my family members and especially my boyfriend’s parents are constantly telling me to “hurry up” because I’m already 26 years old and my biological clock is ticking and I also need to earn money. All this talk is giving me additional anxiety. 
The other day, my boyfriend’s parents gave me an ultimatum. They said that I’ll have to graduate before Christmas this year or otherwise they’ll do everything in their power for my boyfriend to break up with me. But I know that I won’t be ready to take the exam until Christmas, I still have 31 books left to read and study, I need at least another 6 months. 
They didn’t go to college themselves, hell, my MIL is a housewife who didn’t even graduate high school. Yet they’re bullying me and telling me I’m a loser because other ppl my age have families and own houses Meanwhile I still haven’t graduated college. 
They constantly put me down and make me feel really bad for being in law school. They don’t believe in me.
I really don’t know what to do I cry myself to sleep every night.
The pressure of it all is just too high. I’m constantly thinking about suicide because I’m a loser to everyone even though I worked so hard my entire life. While others were ihr partying I was pulling all nighters studying. And now I’m being attacked for my choices. Life just sucks I might as well just end it all.