I am chronically depressed and it is awful itself- as if you're colourblind, seeing the world only in dark colours. But my biggest problem is my total empathy for the others. If there is someone needing help I'll be the first one to intervene and afterwards I'll feel so horrible like I transferred some of their pain to myself. Now even news reading can bring me tons of tears- I see some tragedy in the headlines, think about how cruel life is and cry all night long for people I never knew. The more I live the more I can't accept all the pain and suffering and loss that exists in this world. I tell myself I'm just a simple human and do everything I can but nothing works.
Well, except one thing- to shut myself completely from real life which is obviously not a solution.
P.S. If you see any mistakes, English is not my native language.