I am 28 years. And for many years i have isolated myself rarely leaving my house. But not by choice. I live outside a small town and dont have a car. There are no places close enough to walk to. I have asked family members to take me to work but they dont want to help. I have never had a job. 

I had bad things happen in my past that still affects me to this day. I was raised by my grandparents. My grandpa worked alot so i spend most of my time with grandma. She was overprotective and didnt want me to leave the house. So i watched tv and played video games all the time. Most of my classmates would not talk to me. I was the weird kid.
Since i was a kid i have been very shy and introverted. After school i started isolating myself.

My life is hopeless. I have noone that wants to help. I applied for jobs hoping my aunt would take me but she didnt. The thought of wasting my life makes me really depressed. I want to change but feel trapped. I feel lefted behind. My classmates have been successful. I just repeat the same routine everyday for years. The depression i feel is overwhelming. The loveliness us overwhelming. I want another life.