So most of my life I have had some anxiety here and there. Never anything too bad tho, occasionally once every few months during presentations or sleep. A month ago, trying to go to sleep I had really bad sleep anxiety for some reason. Because of it I suffered massive anxiety out of no where until it was 1pm and I finally fell asleep. When I woke up I still had massive anxiety and that's when I wondered if this would go on for ever. For two months I've had crazy bad anxiety and overthinking and I don't know what is going on in my head. My mind feels like its daring things to get worse and it's essentially thinking worse case scenario and I don't know how to stop my brain from leading me towards this never ending trail of horrifying thoughts. Last week I came across literally the words "disturbed in the head" and for some reason I related that to me and then wondered what if this got so out of hand I lost my mind and became a psychopath, I thought what if I can't control my mind what if I end up killing my self, what if I kill somebody what if I do something terrible. I do not want to do any of these things at all and because of these thoughts I've felt like I've lost complete control of my mind and they have been flooding me so much and they are getting worse. I feel like I can't control my mind, my body, this anxiety has ruined me and I don't know how to fix it. This is week 3 on laxapro, maybe that's what's making it worse and making me think these fucked up things but I want nothing to do with them and want to leave these awful feelings in the past.