It was awful and terrible but I’ve been alone for 4 years since.

I wish I had the will to kill myself. I won’t. Coward like that. But if I did, I wonder how long it’d take for anyone to notice

Maybe a week. Just my body dead in my apartment and nobody knowing. I’m worthless. My life is worthless. I have no life and no friends.

I wish I had balls. But here I am. Fuck me