I don’t enjoy anything life has to offer I am constantly pushing myself to do the things a normal person might do. I really don’t get why anyone would want to live or why they care so much that I don’t. Like I don’t feel anything happy or good and I know that life comes with a lot of negatives. At this point I really am only living so that I don’t hurt other people but I don’t get why freeing myself from this would hurt them so bad. There is literally nothing left that I enjoy and I basically only feel pain all the time I really wish people would understand that and let me go.