I'm tired of having to force myself to feel some sort of postive emotion when I'm in the presence of others. It is completely physically and mentally draining to keep up appearances, so much so that after most sociel encounters I go home to sleep. Not only is it tiring, I hate the fact I have to do it. But, I know the necessity since I can't have the people who surround me know that I'm not doing so well. From 2011 my life has been pretty turbulent, but since last year things started to finally get gradually better. I came off my meds, finished therapy (I no longer needed it, as my therapist agreed) and I am enrolled into uni which begins this fall. Not everyday is going to be perfect, but I feel like if I even slightly show I am having one bad day then people will be disappointed in me. It feels as if they expect me to be perfect and to never feel even slightly depressed, which of course is normal for any human being as we all can feel slightly depressed regardless of one's own mental health. Yet the overdramatize my emotions and it's excruciatingly infuriating to feel trapped inside a box where I am expected to show no emotion whatsoever.

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I don't actually know where I was going with this post, it's mainly just a rant that I needed to get off my chest. Since I started to feel better there's certain expectations I need to keep up so I can't talk about how I'm feeling with anyone anymore. Is there anyone else who feels like this ?