Not gonna lie, I'm extremely terrified of becoming an adult. My peers seem so far ahead of me and I feel like taking on adult responsibilities is always a challenge. I don't think it's because I'm lazy or anything, but I legit feel a tightness in my throat and my whole being just falls apart when talking about being an adult. It's just one of those topics that I know I need to pay attention to, but I can't wait to change the subject to something else. It's like I can't take the necessary steps on the path to adulthood, and just want to stay in my fantasy bubble for as long a possible. Just the the thought of it overwhelms me and I sometimes convince myself that I will be worthless to society. However, the world can't just stop time for me just because I'm not ready yet. But, I know that I can't be afraid forever, because otherwise, I'll just be left behind in the dust having to pick up the broken pieces by myself.

I just really needed to get this off my chest. I remember the times when I was little and I sometimes got excited to be an adult. Now that it's finally here, I wish that time could stop or I could go back in time just for a moment.