I know I am by no means alone when I say the pandemic is continuously vigilant in ruining so many aspects of my life. I literally can’t go anywhere without fear and the fact I don’t know when I can even get a vaccine is really causing me to break at this point. I was a long-time volunteer at a hospital and the program got suspended in April, and as of now they have vaccinated all of their paid staff who wanted it but there’s absolutely no mentions of vaccinating volunteers so that we can return. People are getting vaccines earlier than they should because of power and privilege

I had to decline a wedding in January, and I just found out that the drive thru graduation ceremony that was supposed to happen in May 2021 only allows a single vehicle which means I can’t have someone who I really wanted there. I can’t see anyone outside of my household. No mass vaccinations until summer means all big plans I had cancelled for at least the first half of 2021 if I’m lucky

Articles circulating that are really freaking me out saying the vaccine will basically do nothing for our impending doom, explaining how it’s not logical to assume that the human race WOULDN’T become extinct by a pathogen such as this one, saying 60-70% of the population needs to get infected/vaccinated for even a shred of herd immunity, it’s just all so hopeless. All of my sense of optimism is leaving me, I am becoming a truly unhappy person because of this pandemic