Sorry I didn’t post yesterday I forgot and when I did remember I thought I would just put it with todays post. 

The last 2 days have been actually pretty great for once. My friend stayed over for those 2 days just to hang out and wow did it help to have someone there. Idk how they came at the perfect time as I really needed someone. 

This friend is an old friend that I hadn’t seen in a while. We used to be very close pretty much best friends and having them here made the best 2 days I’ve had in a really long time. They literally gave me everything I needed. I was able to talk to them about anything, they were there to hug, to just be there as another person there that does actually care. Even to the point of cuddling and sleeping in the same bed. Just enjoying each other’s company.

Though it helped so much I had some problems while they were here. I did have some bipolar episodes where there would be a little change of tone or attitude that made me internally freak out like crazy. I had to try my hardest to keep calm and act like everything was fine so I wouldn’t freak them out or annoy them by asking them if I did anything wrong or if they were tired of me. But by the very last second they made sure I knew i was loved and cared for. And I’m genuinely happy for once in a really long time and it feels amazing. 

I know that this will not fix me right away probably later today or maybe tomorrow I’ll go back to being lonely but I think this helped at least a little.