so... i have wanted kids my whole life and me and my husband have been talking about trying for a baby for a while now. The problem is, i am so horrified my bpd is going to make me a horrible parent. Growing up my mother had bpd as well and she made my life an absolute living hell until i was ultimately removed from her home because the abuse was so bad. 

because i also unfortunately suffer with the mental illness my worst fear is ending up like her even though my case isn't as severe and i go to dbt therapy 3 times a week. I am more aware of my emotions and more so in control of my outbursts but i still have slip ups and my mind often gets the best of me. I don't want to let my mental illness ruin my dreams of becoming a mother, but i also don't want to bring another human into the world that has to deal with what i went through growing up.