I'm on a couple different medicine. For mood stabilizing. I recently looked into getting dbt training. Waa told that the therapist specialized in it. Then was given a list of YouTube videos. And told to meditate. Is that normal. Every time I have an outburst my S/O doesn't understand that little things she does or doesn't is a trigger. She just refuses to look at things from any other perspective then her own.. I really feel like it's over. But for some reason I'm waiting on her to end it so I can wallow in self pity most likely. I hate everyone and everything. I wish some one would euthanize me. Because I'm to big of a chicken shit. To do anything about it my self.