I've been with my FP for a very long time. I have felt for some years it is toxic and time to move on. I just know I will destroy myself and beg to come back within 24 hours. I've had dreams about them leaving me for someone else. It haunts me for days. I feel like it actually happened. 

I feel neglected and not appreciated. It seems like I don't matter. We've talked about it many times. They say I am looking and seeing things that aren't there or said. 
I'll be fine and then get really angry over something from ten years ago and expect them to know why. Maybe I'm blowing things out of proportion. 

I just know I will not survive without them, but they aren't meeting my emotional needs. I've tried to get them to couples therapy as well.