I’m just really panicking right now and I don’t know what to do

The power has turned off twice and I just feel really unsettling I’ve just convinced myself it’s someone. Someone’s here and there walking around and taunting me I went upstairs and I swear I heard them breathing and I saw them duck behind the couch but my anxiety isn’t letting me wake anyone up. I want to sleep on the couch but I don’t want to be yelled at. There downstairs with me and I know nobody’s here but I’m just scared. I’m crying and I’ve closed my door but it doesn’t help my room is too dark. It’s 1 am and I sat upstairs unable to move for 10 minutes. I’m back downstairs in my bed. I don’t feel safe. I don’t know why. I want to curl up under my bed but that’s not safe. Nothing is. Expect waking someone up but I can’t. No matter how scared I am for whatever stupid reason. It feels like someone’s staring at me through my window. I’m panicking. I want to grab a knife to protect myself but I’ll get.m yelled at. And what would I even protect my self from. I hate anxiety if I didn’t have it I wouldn’t be this pathetic. I just need to let it all out I’m sorry

I know I’ll read this tomorrow and regret it. If I’m when here tomrowwo I have stuff to do. I’m safe but this imaginary danger has it feeling like I’m not. And there’s nothing I can do to fix it. I wish my door had a lock every stupid little noise is taunting me. I’m sorry I don’t know why I’m writing like this. Insurance heard it it’s scraping against my bed. I want it to be day. Please. I might end up staying up all night. I can’t even have he light on because I’ll be easier to see. I’m sorry