it's been terrifying but so far i've 1) sent an application 2) called them up after being too nervous to answer when they called to schedule an interview 3) done the interview 4) answered the call where they told me i got the position

i'm so proud of myself. i knew i couldn't be unemployed for the rest of my life but i also never thought i could get the courage to be able to actually get a job. now it's the really hard part left. tomorrow i have a 5 hour course at their office and it's the small details that worry me. like, where's the front door to the building? what room is the course in? will the room be packed with people? will i find an empty chair? which chair should i pick? what should i do during the break? but.. i'm gonna be fine. i have to.