Sidenote: I don't know if the appropriate flair for this is "seeking support" or "venting" this post is a bit of both. Sorry if it upsets anyone.

I feel like i'll never amount to anything in life. 

I have many talents, ideas, i'm creative and skilled in many different things and yet i still don't feel like my life has gone anywhere in the direction i've wanted it to and i keep self-sabotaging my own potential by self-doubting myself to the point i can't do anything but run in circles. 

I just hate myself so much right now, i feel like a loser and i feel bad for the people who have to put up with me in life as well. 

Sometimes i truly wish i was dead... i feel like an empty, unlovable, waste of space who isn't capable of doing any one thing for too long... I'm so disappointed in myself.

Just the energy it takes to exists and function each day drains me emotionally to the point i'm feeling almost always fatigued... i don't know what to do anymore :(

I don't want to preach any negativity, it's just not me. I'm usually always a ray of sunshine but..i'm just lost.. and exhausted with myself.

I know what i want to do in life, i know what my passion is and yet i simply can't get the ball rolling all because of self-doubt and i procrastinate, i'm afraid of failing as well.. idk my mind really isn't working right , right now. I'm sorry. 

Hope everyone has a nice friday and weekend &lt;3 hugs x