basically, i feel like my mood swings and anxiety are too much for my girlfriend and drag her down. i dont split on her anymore, i havent done it in ages because ive been working really hard. sometimes i still get sad for silly reasons though, but im working on it... she even told me to "try not to do the mental breakdown thing at night because it makes it hard for her to sleep", so ill try to control that but i cant really control when it happens...

im just so scared of losing her because of my mental illness