This shit is tough. I finally got out of a relationship that was extremely toxic. It was so bad that even with bpd i’ve been moving on extremely well. But I want to be single like i want to not be tied anymore but at the same time i can’t handle it. It’s like the real me wants to be single but my mental illness NEEDS someone. Even the people i’ve only talked to for comfort have ghosted me . I’m feeling like i’m completely taken over by my mental illness. i just want to be happy that i’m free but my mind tells me i need someone who loves me. And not platonically. The platonic love i receive isn’t enough for my brain and it makes me mad because i have amazing friends