I have quite the reputation of cutting people off. I've completely cut off some of my closest friends and family members. Some were sad because of, others were just pissed off to the point of not wanting to talk to me again, including my father when I was a teen. 

As bad as it may seem though, I feel completely indifferent to any of those reactions. I'm not sure if I'm subconsciously splitting and hating them as a result or if I genuinely don't care about them. I'm unsure to the point of even questioning whether I may have a personality disorder other than BPD. 

(I am not diagnosed, however, I've been reading a lot about BPD and found myself relating to a lot of the symptoms. I *have* started seeing a therapist quite recently, though I am pretty hesitant when it comes to opening up to her due to all the stigma surrounding the cluster B, so I usually mask my symptoms as "regular" depression.)

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**TL;DR: How to tell if you are splitting or actually indifferent about a person close to you?**