I've read so many articles that talk about how it gets better with age, but honestly, ever since I found out, it feels like I've gotten even more out of control. When I first found out, I was so happy because I finally knew what was going on with me. There was an answer, albeit a scary one, but something more than just being depressed (not that having depression on its own doesn't suck the big one). But I've been wondering if learning about my BPD it hasn't unleashed this way more fragile, emotionally overloaded, selfish person. I know I'm not explaining it well, but I feel like I've gotten way worse. Like something in me finally broke, and now the person I thought I was is slowly becoming smaller and smaller. I hope someone out there understands what I’m trying to say