Context: I’m a girl who just finished the first year of highschool- 9th grade. I struggle with some mental problems that make me need more help than most. I had gotten this help in the other 5 schools I’ve been to- including the middle school of the same district As this one.   
this year, though, they disregarded any type of help I needed- it made me struggle a lot since the classes were to advanced for me. They didn’t help me at all and sort of let me struggle, and when I asked for help, I more got put down since I was put in the simplest classes for \*normal\* students and yet it was still a struggle. I was also hospitalized 4 times this year and once I was put in a mental hospital. I was also forced to stay home due to covid, so it’s safe to say I missed well over a few months of school (not by choice). my parents put a high value on my grades and the importance of school, and they ‘joke’ about how without good grades- I’m not useful. Or smart. Or talented. Not only do their words put me down, but now I’m believing it. Due to all my struggles this year and the lack of help the school gave me, I failed 9th grade. They asked if I wanted to do summer school to try and make up.. but, we aren’t made of money, and our family sometimes struggles to even feed everyone, so we had to opt out of that option due to the fact we can’t afford it. So, my only option is.. redo the year. In this school or another, it doesn’t  matter, I’m redoing the school year regardless. I feel like a total failure, like I let myself and my family down. I feel like any opportunities to get far in life are gone since collages wouldn’t accept a repeater with low grades overall, and without collage, I’m basically trapped. If I go back to my old school, they wont help next year either. They’ll do the same thing, despite my mothers complains about how I need extra help. I don’t know what to do. I am a failure over all, I couldn’t even pass the easiest grade in high-school, and my depression is skyrocketing since my grandma and dog both died the same month this year just last month in may. (It’s June 20th when I wrote this).. I’m very depressed and i cant go anywhere or do anything with my life anymore.   
TL;DR: I failed 9th grade due to a lot of mental health issues and this made it worse.

im mainly posting this to see if anyone else can relate, and just to share my story in present day.