Hello. I am 23 years and have suffered from anxiety basically all my life (from what I can remember).
Well I don’t know why but I got my first panic attack like a month ago. I was sitting on my mom’s bed just watching true crime videos on my phone when my arm started tingling. My heart started beating so fast and I felt so dizzy. It was getting hard to breath and that dread kicked in...I honestly thought I was dying which made me panic even more. Well after that was over (it lasted like 10 minutes) I sobbed in my mom’s arms and she took me to the emergency room. They did the usual tests and everything came back good. The doctor there said it was a panic attack.

The very next day at night I had another one because I was worrying about the first one. Ever since then I’ve been getting panic attacks at work, in the morning, but most of all at night. I dread the nights because that means I am alone and I start over thinking and worrying about my panic attacks that I end up having them. I can no longer sleep. I take melatonin to help knock me out quickly so I don’t have to DEAL with thinking. Tomorrow is my day off but I’d rather go to work because at least then I’m thinking about something else. I am actually excited about all the extra hours I have been given for next week. 

I scheduled an appointment but thats not until the 13th. Then again what can they really do...prescribe me pills? I just want to go back to normal...i want to sleep again. I am just so tired. I want to actually be happy about clocking out of work and enjoying my days off but now i cant... :((