I can’t stop crying reading about BPD. It’s like I finally have some clarity for what I’ve been going through. It also describes my situation so perfectly that I feel transparent and understood for once. All the fears of abandonment, failed relationships due to my own fears and insecurities. How I always tend to fuck things up and turn into my own demon. I just wish I could create meaningful relationships without fear of being myself and getting rejected. I hide so many things about myself even if they’re insignificant because I was made fun of them in the past. I expect to please people all the time or otherwise remain neutral but long-term it makes me exhausted and irritable because I can only hide things for so long. I feel like a fake person because I feel that deep down I’m actually terrible and I don’t want to be. I’m looking to get DBT since I’ve been hearing that it helps.