Title sums it up. I’m a depressed little bitch 24/7 and put on a fake smile and just crack jokes and make others around me happy, when in reality I am not happy whatsoever. I have no motivation to do anything in life. Wake up, work, sleep. On days off, just drag my feet through the day, take naps to forget about the world on days off, have literally no hobbies I enjoy. 

I’m just merely existing because I can’t quit on my family, I love them too much.

I seriously have no direction and I’m a full blown adult. 

I’m venting, I don’t want someone to reply saying “here are resources” or whatever, cause none of it has helped and it will never help. 

I’m no danger to myself or anyone else, I just fucking hate it here. That’s all.

Thanks for listening/reading or whatever I guess. 

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