i thought that i was getting over my ex-fp but im not. i hung out with some of my work friends last night and ended up breaking down in tears in front of a few of them bc of how upset losing him (as if i even had him to begin with) has made me. ive tried to get back on dating apps but nobody is catching my eye or making my heart flutter in the way he made (and still makes) my heart flutter. ive hurt myself so much in the last week bc i dont know how else to process this, nor do i know of who to blame so im just taking it all out on myself. ppl at work have become skeptical of the bandages on my arms but the urge is so strong and keeps getting stronger fhe longer this goes on. i dont knwo how to get over him because everytime i smell his cologne as he walks past at work or get a glimpse at his side profile or look into his big pretty eyes it destroys me more than id like to admit. i just wish he wanted me in the same way i want him.