I can finally put an end to this fucking nightmare relatively painlessly with just a few paychecks, just need to get a permit and get a gun and the struggling and loneliness can finally end. Fuck my ideologies or beliefs or anything, I’m tired of being alone and dating and love will just become harder and harder for the rest of the 21st Century, it’s fucked, it’s over, I know it may sound misogynistic but it really does seem that to have a chance at dating a girl now you have to be perfect and I’m just not and if I’m going to be subject to suicidal thoughts whenever I’m not distracting myself I wanna just kill myself and get it over with

Fuck living, it’s a curse, life’s on Earth is suffering and human life is awareness of that suffering, therefore the best thing to do is just die.