Or maybe I expect too much of him, but I was involuntary admitted last week after an OD, the fourth OD in a year, and he says that I've hurt him (which I can understand) and that he feels like I'm doing it on purpose, that I should be able to not do things like OD'ing or SH'ing.

I try to explain that it's really hard for me to not do those things because I can't cope with my emotions, but he expects me to 'behave normally'.