today i have officially lost all my friends. my supposed “best friend” of seven, going on eight years has ditched me for a girl she’s known for maybe 6 months and moved in with recently. 
my other “friend” pretty much used me as an emotional support crutch till he got a girlfriend. he traumatized me last week, calling me, screaming into the phone saying he was alone and had a g*n to his head saying he was gonna do it and i was all he had. this put a lot of weight on me as i felt personally responsible for his well-being. 
he did this a day after my little sister and brother accidentally od’d, and my little sister was in the hospital for 3 days for serious issues following what happened, then got sent to a mental health institution for a week. i blamed myself for everything, as i should’ve seen the signs, etc. 
my boyfriend has been supportive to the best of his ability, but he has his moments. we live with his family, and they don’t bother to even talk to me or even ask about my siblings, or me for that matter. i really don’t care as i have no respect for them to begin with, but no one’s even asked me if i was ok this entire time, other than my boyfriend. 
i have mental health issues myself, and all of this has thrown me into a major depressive state which is dangerous as i’m bipolar 1. 
just needed to get this all out, because i feel broken and used. 
thank you.