I'd give anything to go back to the late 2000s and early 2010s. You may be wondering why that particular time. Well, it was the last time in my life where I truly felt like myself. I miss the kind of person I used to be, the people I used to hang out with, and how life seemed so much brighter back then. It was fantastic. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. I honestly feel like a shell of my old self, full of depressive thoughts all of the time. People around me seem to think I'm doing well because of how I present myself on the outside, but I'm fighting something horrible on the inside. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way, but I know it has something to do with change. I hate change. I really do. Around five years ago, when things started to change, life went to shit. I became increasingly alienated and grew apart from many people. Everything changed, and not in a good way. I just feel unprepared for life; I feel so alone and unsure of who I am and what I should be doing right now. To be honest, I'm at a loss on what to do. 

I just wish someone would come and save me from this.