Ok I’m scared to type this out because it might sound insane but i get extremely anxious when i don’t receive a text back from a friend, or loved one for a long period of time. I began to think of the worst possible scenario. These thoughts are usually, “What if they got in a car accident and died?” “What if they got kidnapped??” “What if they want nothing to do with me?” “What if they are ghosting me or hate me??” For example, me and this guy have been talking for 5 months and I really like him and he really likes me too. However, I always fear the worst when I don’t receive a text from him after long periods of time after sending him one. I instantly assume he lost interest and, or I’m not good enough for him and he no longer wants anything to do with me.

Unfortunately, this results in me doing some foolish things like sending multiple messages hours apart (like sending 4 messages in the span pf 3-4 hours.) I think “Ok maybe he didn’t see this message let me send another one” When he doesn’t respond to that one, I panic and send another one, and another one, and so on :/. This was the first time I sent him multiple messages him a short period of time. I just broke down and apologized to him as I realized i sent him a lot of messages in a short period of time which he has yet to respond to as of now. (I did send these at 2 in the morning but he usually stays up late. I am currently typing this at 10AM awaiting a response.) It’s gotten so bad to where I look at the time he usually first text at the start of a new day. If I don’t get a response near that time, I instantly assume the worst. 

I don’t want to sound crazy. Im just scared of being separated or messing things up, and being ghosted. Luckily he is so understanding and still shows that he likes me despite these flaws and he will always be understanding. But I’m scared that eventually it will be to much for him and I end up pushing him away which has happened before. I’ve lost a some friends by being a nervous wreck and spamming phones with messages. Some friends are understanding and stick with me, others are not which is understandable. I have been told I was crazy, and been cussed out before for being being scared. Does anyone relate or do i just sound crazy right now 🙁