Recently I met a wonderful woman, super sweet, kind, and understanding. She's all around fantastic and we've been seeing each other for a few weeks now. I felt like I had struck the jackpot and found EXACTLY what I've been looking for. I was all in and looking forward to what the future held, until a few days ago like a light switch everything changed and now I'm looking for everyway and anyway out of this that I can. I hate when this happens because I self sabotage and get them to leave. I hate hurting peoples feelings and being the bearer of bad news so I just let myself crumble and let that push them away, which without a doubt still hurts their feelings. I would try and ride it out but whenever I do that this whole split lasts even longer and gets even worse.  I know in a few months I'll probably look back and wish I never weaseled out of this but right now I want nothing more than to end this relationship. Going 0-100 all to just turn around and go 100-0. I feel like if this keeps up I'm destined to be alone forever. This is like the millionth time this is happening and I'm just sick and tired of it.