im the definition of what people mean when they say borderline abuse, im the definition of the hypocritical, angry, impulsive, blaming, constantly hurt, not understanding, and so on that people think of when they think of borderline. and im hurting my favorite person all the time and they keep snapping on me and its been months and i don't know how to get better and i need to do something, please don't recommend therapy im trying to get it i need something until then at least. please please help i cant take it anymore i don't want to be like this please help me