Idk. I feel so awful about it. Like, I really do love him. I’m so sick of people telling me I’m incapable of love because of my disorder. I know the difference between obsession and love because I’ve felt them separately. But with my boyfriend, I love him AND I’m obsessed with him. 

Does this make me a bad person? I’m at a point where I’m recognizing a lot of my behaviors and regulating my emotions, not taking things out on him or splitting on him over small/insignificant situations. I guess it’s just the fact that I know I have him on this pedestal and the fear that he might think I don’t love him, that I’m just infatuated. 

He’s so understanding. So reassuring and kind, and he makes me feel “normal.” I don’t want to mess this relationship up because I’m idealizing him too much. I’m not even really sure what I’m asking for here… Maybe some advice/reassurance? Thanks.