I just called in sick for my work starting in an hour’s time. I feel so paralysed and my stomach was pulsating and I just can’t convince myself to go. I feel like such a useless loser. I’ve been at this job for close to three months now (I really thought this would be the one, I’ve not been able to hold down jobs for longer than a few weeks) and I’ve taken so many sick days already… To be fair, I really am having wisdom teeth problems and my job requires a lot of calling; it hurts and I can’t clench my mouth fully without feeling the pain but if I really wanted to, I could probably still continue on for work but I’m too anxious.

I hate this so much. It’s not even a difficult job why am I struggling with it? It’s most likely because it’s a Monday today and it’s after a long weekend…ugh, I really hate this, it sucks so much. And now for the rest of the day, I’ll feel guilty and disgusted by myself till I spiral out of control and it’s just a vicious cycle over and over.