Used to dread waking up. For the past couple of months I've been a morning person, the early sunshine and that feeling I got waking up was one of the only things that kept me going. While most mornings are still rough, there was a tiny sense of looking forward to the day. This morning I feel terrible, the worst I've felt in a long time... the sense is gone. It was honestly so important that it feels like losing one of your 5 basic senses. It's impossible to see the progress I've made when I'm plummeting so hard right now. I feel like an empty cup. I want to look forward to mornings, I want to pour. I'm afraid that I can never wake up with that feeling ever again.