i just wanted to share some achievements recently. i managed to block my ex who is my fp. havent talked to him for 2 weeks now!!! only issue is i cant stop thinking about him like i still think about him the same amount as i used to. like i constantly think about him and it just angers me like i want to unblock him and send another 50 long paragraphs on why hes a shit guy and why he should feel sorry for me but also about why im a bad person and how he deserves better…stg i can never make my mind up but yeah i haven’t talked to him for 2 weeks and i want to rip my skin off and die because i miss him so much but im trying to convince myself i hate him so currently my thoughts are just all bad and i cant see him as good at all. another maybe bad thing is just like pushing all my friends away idk i cant help it i just do it every week randomly and will ignore dms for 2 weeks… but yeah atleast i havent messaged my fp in 2 weeks even though i really want to i just dont know how else to get over him other than cutting off contact.