Sorry for making this post a mess, I just feel lost. I don't know what to do - a few years ago my hobbies brought me joy, but now I only think about them as time killers, because I don't feel like I am any good at them. I know, practice makes perfect, but I don't seem to have much energy to reach a point where I would be satisfied with myself or motivation for that matter. I feel like I am wasting my time yet I do not know, how should I spend it. I've been thinking that a person, maybe a partner, that would be cheering me on would help, but noone will invest that much time and patience to help me grow. Of course, I have my parents. But they don't help at all. My father always demands something of me that I am incapable of doing, mother just talks. My sister has a lobing husband and many other things to attend to. I need to meet a person. But knowing, what a letdown I am, I don't think that's possible. But I would be really appreciative if someone of you would help me get out of this hellhole. Thank you in advance. Sorry for venting so much