I've had some rough times lately. Almost 5 year relation with someone ended unexpectedly. Real rough as it happened after I had been ring shopping for a month. 

I moved out of our house and back in with my parents due to the awful rental market in my area now. 

Work stress has been unreal. I'm not saving money like I should be. The works. 

As a result I've been having these "episodes" for the past few weeks. I just start to feel off, like I'm interacting with the world through molasses. Problem is, I'm a very high medical anxiety type person. So this cloudy experience I'm having always turns into a huge degree of alarm, slamming heart rate, all of it. 

Well yesterday? About 2 hours before the end of my work day one of these started. But it just kept getting worse. I told myself I would get home, get a nap in, and I would feel better. But then I woke up and was right back into it. I ended up laying in bed for over 3 hours, could barely keep my head to the pillow. Every single thought I had was bad. I was absolutely convinced my heart would give out in my sleep and I'd be done for. 

Every position was uncomfortable, my chest was heavy, my heart was pounding, and I was having a million thoughts a minute. 

3 hours of the worst thoughts I've ever had, and the worst feelings ever, just trying to deep breathe to get through it. 

I'm a bit better thismorning. I'm still not right, but I'm doing better than I was.