Ever since I was an adolescent, if I'm not trying to pursue someone, then I have little to look forward to.

It just feels like nothing compares to how it feels to be crushing on someone, dating, the whole works.

This dependency has fucked me over a solid amount, so I'm trying to focus on other aspects of my life more (in addition to romantic endeavours).

What I would give for a reciprocal relationship where someone likes me as much as I like them, holy shit that would feel like fucking crack to me.