I realized today that I am not okay, but no one understands this because I perfected my mask. People see me as motivated, bright, witty, and passionate person. I am a student with a high GPA, involved in community organizations and a prestigious university, and an advocate for others (except myself), but I feel so isolated and awful. 

No one knows that I have struggling with a severe depressive episode for nearly two years and experienced terrible trauma. I am so emotionally tired and I don’t know why I am here. I am in a bad place and whenever I try to let someone know that I struggling, they don’t understand. Then I realized that this is why people hurt themselves because they feel terrible and no one believes their pain is serious. 

I am not suicidal, but I cannot sustain this any longer.