Hi! Life kinda sucks rn. I have a diagnosis on the schizofrenia spectrum but all my doctors say it's all gonna pass because it's just a teenager thing. But I just know that it's a chronic ilness as it lasts 2 years now (I'm 17). None of my therapists have ever treated me seriously and the worst part is that my symptoms are something that no dsm term decribes (basically it's like a mixture of everything plus some wierd symptoms like not being able to feel nostalgia and basically having a mental breakdown when I don't go out with a friend at least once a day). It's just really hard when you type in what you feel and nothing pops up on Google and even specialists don't know how to help you. 

I have lots of trauma trriggers, like even my own home, I can't go to the nearest big city because that's where my psych ward was, I have mental breakdowns every day and it's so hard. I can't even tell anyone that I'm ill because my parents forbid me.

I've never self-harmed or been suicidal but recently I almost escaped from home. I just feel no support even though my parents are trying and they blame me when I say it's hard for me.