I hate myself for having adhd. I hate myself for being so anxious. I hate myself for not being able to really make new good friends or keep them. I hate myself for caring about that and letting my mistakes drag me down for weeks. I hate myself for causing issues to other people all the time. I hate myself for forgetting shit. Misplacing shit. I hate myself for being so god damn unaware. I just hate myself so much. But I am stuck. I cannot go anywhere. Because I care to much about the pain I would inflict on others. Which I hate myself for as well. 

Anyways. I’m high as hell and depressed as fuck. Not a good combo right now. Wasn’t intentional. Anyone else just want a different life?