I've been through some really messed up shit that I was never allowed to talk about since age 5. Even as an adult when I do mention it I'm slut shamed. I didn't realize it was my fault that I was molested for years by family.  Guess my child brain should have "been the bigger person".

Then I was forced to interact with my abusers even after everything came to light since for years. The fact that I was told to forget about it even though my abuser made attempts during the pandemic, while I'm an adult.

So yeah, those memories are loud af at the moment.. And I'm recovering from injuries which grant me access to strong medication. Honestly, I'm running out of reasons to not just have a prescription buffet. 

P.S. teary eyed so excuse my typos.