Here I am, sitting at my desk, staring at the lunch I packed for myself. I pack my lunch every single day. Do I eat those lunches? Sometimes... Sometimes I just keep them in my lunch bag til I get home and then I throw them out. Most of the time I think about food, I get nauseous. Unless I'm stoned, then I can eat and not gag with every bite. I used to have a pretty bad case of EDNOS, was living off of 500 calories/day. But that was wayyyy back in high school, like 6 years ago. I thought I was past this. I'm now an adult with an awesome job as a teacher and I get to help so many people, yet I can't even manage to help myself... I'm sitting at my desk crying because I can't force myself to eat this lunch even though I haven't eaten breakfast either.... Just wish I could get past this.