It's always the same cycle. I get a little crush on someone, and it turns into a huge thing where I think about them all the time and try to do a bunch of desperate shit to get their attention. I hate it, because it prevents my relationships from blooming naturally and it takes focus away from myself. It's also usually too stifling for them too early. I've been trying to figure out why I form attachments so strongly to begin with so I can cope with it, but I can't find of a concrete reason why. Even looking at my childhood, I don't understand why I crave love so much. Before my diagnosis I just labeled myself as a hopeless romantic, but I just don't get it. I know I don't need it, so why do I want it so bad?