I've been depressed since I was 7 or 8. It's been almost 18 years now and I'm so tired of it coming back over and over again. It's become so common for me it feels like nobody cares until I'm borderline suicidal and it hurts because I see my sister get depressed and immediately everyone is at her side(me included. I don't mistreat her over a little resentment). I'm at the point I just keep it to myself because it's just kind of become "Okay. You'll be fine". But I feel so rude at the same time because I know she can't help her depression either and it isn't her fault how people react to us. I literally just want a hug sometimes but I can't even seem to get that