I’ve made a post about it before to r/advice. But didn’t get much help. 

Two days ago whenever I woke up I felt horny so I masturbated to an old friends nudes, I wasn’t thinking rationally because I had just woken up . They were saved into my phone, but I went into our old messages on fb. 

I’m an anxious and sad mess. I feel like if I tell my s/o she’s going to leave. A part of me also says she’ll be mad for a little bit and probably forgive me. Idk, I’m trying to forgive myself and get over it, but I’ve been obsessing over it since it happened. I feel stuck and low. 

I also feel like I need to tell her, honesty and everything. Yesterday she noticed I was a little spacey and dodgy. And I just told her I felt guilty because I masturbate too much. 

Im desperate, this is eating me alive and I don’t know how to approach it. I’m terrified.