I’m 24 years old &amp; want to die. I’m not good at anything, I’m a disappointment to my family, I have no money, no friends, nothing of worth. I have been diagnosed with severe depression &amp; anxiety after attempted suicide at the age of 15 &amp; I was also recently diagnosed with ADHD, autism &amp; mild agoraphobia. I grew up in an emotionally abusive household, with my father threatening my life almost everyday. My sister is the star child &amp; I constantly live in her shadow because she has her life together; friends, family, a house, two jobs. I’ve been looking for work since 2018 but every place I’ve attempted to get work from just turn me away, have been thrown around to several different disability job agencies that refuse to acknowledge any of my mental illnesses &amp; want to throw me head-first into customer service, something I physically cannot do. I’m struggling financially so much that I can’t afford to eat some days &amp; when I do have some leftover money, it goes toward feeding my pets. I’m too afraid to ask for help, for fear of being judged &amp; belittled. I know I’m worthless but it hurts so much more to hear it from others as opposed to myself. The only thing keeping me going is my dog &amp; my long-distance partner but even those things seem so fleeting. What happens when my dog dies? Or when my partner inevitably dumps me because I can’t provide any financial support in our relationship? I feel so alone. I just want to be able to feel happy &amp; secure. Please help me.