I always self isolate, so I feel lonely most of the time. I want someone to listen to me. I want someone to care about my problems. But it seems like I’m pushing people away. 

My therapist recently told me to try to bond with my new classmates from college. But  every time I chatted, I felt exhausted. I hate it when I have to fake a laugh. I hate it when people say, “Let’s meet soon”. I hate it when everyone seems to enjoy social interaction while I am extremely anxious about the way I talk.

Everyone’s telling me the same thing: if I don’t socialize in college, I will have no friends. Then I’ll be all alone in the coming school years. But I am just so stressed out.