so uh my fps been kind of .. ignoring me bc of pur argument(s) and recently he came back into front but hes been rlly . distant cold n barely acknowledging me but its only rlly towards me nd hes started school again so hell be less available so i like idk wht to do i asked him straight up if he hates me and he said i dont know , before getting rlly mean and cold again and disappearing for a good while. im giving him as much space as i can but not having him arnd makes me rlly rlly suicidal nd ive been having a lot of rlly bad bpd episodes   + constant breakdowns bc of tht nd both my partners r worried for me but i cant force him to talk to me or even rlly confront him rn bc he’ll just shut himself away again or get angry n he didnt even spare my apology the time of day . and it hurts ! a lot to know he might hate me nd might throw me away like all my other friends ,idk what to do . (sorry if this is messy im just upset rn)