Disregarding all the other stuff, like stigma and money and everything, lol.... I mean like specifically education wise. 

I 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 that I need more help. And I probably need to go inpatient because I have a plan and intent to kms. But I don't want to get behind in classes. And I need to plan for stuff after graduating. Which doesn't even fucking make sense because either don't even want to be alive. 

Ugh.