I applied to a few jobs recently. Two of which got back to me next to nearly right away. Everything was going fine, they were both very responsive. I mean emailing me back every few minutes. One of them actually offered me the position, but it’s $10 less an hour than the other job.

I sent in the “interview questionnaire” to the higher paying job, the night before yesterday. I haven’t heard from them all day yesterday, or today…. Which I thought was odd, since they’d been so responsive before. 

I’ve been having the absolute worst anxiety about it. I’m restless, keep obsessively checking my emails, and I’m really, really sad. 

I just lost my grandpa a week ago, and this was the only bit of hope or happiness I had in a while. Now that it seems to be falling through, I feel so depressed. 

Between all this and feeling anxiety due to other things in my personal life, I feel so overwhelmed. 

Not sure how to handle the waiting process. I need this job really bad, desperately. and I hope I didn’t mess it up. 

I am in therapy, but that isn’t always enough.