I don’t even know what to do right now. Normally I can work through my anxieties but tonight I am really struggling. 

Basically I have been worried about my health for all my life, but in the last 2 years especially. I’m convinced I have a lifelong disease or at least something else terrible wrong with me. Because of how bad my health anxiety is, I tend to avoid doctors but I feel like I need to just make an appointment and get tests done. The worst part is realizing if something is wrong I’ll be hit with the reality of it, and I’m afraid not only of dying but how my loved ones will react.

I have a good family but I avoid talking to them about this. I have a long term boyfriend who just gets angry with me when I try to discuss things. I’m crying right now and he’s just in the other room not worried about it. 

I feel very confident something is wrong with me but I’m so so scared and I feel like I don’t have anyone. Has anyone ever felt this way and can offer any advice or comfort?