The last month, I've been becoming more and more increasingly unstable. I've lived with my boyfriend for a year and we're extremely close, but things have been awful with me because my abandonment issues have gone wild and I look for problems and self sabotaging myself and the relationship. We'll have a disagreement and talk it through and it'll be magical between us, we'll be having an absolute blast and plan for the future- and like an hour later, I start overprocessing stuff and he finds me crying and then I give him a hard time about something we already talked about and worked through, and then its a disaster all over again.. the peace we worked hard to create is then over at the drop of a hat. My biggest fear is abandonment, but I've been encouraging it and feel like I can't control my emotions and temper. I have zero support from family besides my father, my friends have dropped out of my life and my psychiatrist who's also my therapist is totally useless- I'm dropping her and finding new people I'm talking to on Tuesday. I have absolutely nowhere to go and no place to fall and I just want to be like a functioning somewhat normal girlfriend again, and somewhat normal functioning person again. There's always been some drama with my boyfriend, but its never been this bad, and I'm simply just not myself. I desperately need a higher level of care, but all the hospitals are full and won't take me. Is there anything I can do to combat this? Any specific DBT skills or just advice in general?

TL;DR the coronavirus pandemic is putting my BPD on full blast and it's been incredibly hard to live with me and be in a relationship with me because my emotions are so hot and cold back and forth in just minutes and I keep self sabotaging and causing unnecessary incessant fights. Inpatient hospital care isn't available to me right now. Is there any specific DBT skills I could use, or some advice, or even simply just support?? Thank you &lt;3