I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, abnormal amount of stress since I was 10. Medical support regarding mental health here (my country) is none existing, so I delayed getting into meds and therapy as much as I could, because I thought I could handle it, and experiences of my peers with our doctors weren’t great…
But I hit a wall, and realized I can’t go further without help, and got diagnosed and started therapy. 
Still had ups and downs, reached full anhedonic state, tried to kill my self few times…
Stopped taking meds, January this year, and actually felt stable. Got engaged to my best friend, and she fully accepted me, which gave me all the space and strength to breath, fully, for the first time in my life.

But overthinking is part who I am. I can control it, but, little by little, it took over again…
My brain isn’t working, I can’t move, can’t feel anything and yet I’m crying for no reason, and I have deadlines, which, if I don’t meet, I’ll lose my job, and yea, spiraling down.
Contacted new doctor, they are asking for some papers from few years back, that I don’t have anymore. Few days of that, then two weeks for therapy to take affect…

Who ever read this whole thing: thank you. You are in that 0.1% of people in my life who at least tried.
Wish me luck…