I've done so many horrible things over the years. Uneducated and unmedicated  without help. I just wanted to let you guys know there is hope for us. I've been in an on and off relationship with my husband since 15. I'm 21 I have a 2yr old. And not once through my mental illness has he given up on me. He's always there for me. I love him so much my chest feels like it's going to explode and it's only after having propper diagnosis and care for three months that I can truly understand everything. It's easier for everything I do and I am so much closer to my family. We can get there you can do it. There are bad things still but they don't swallow me whole. We can get there and there are people out there who care and are good.