TLDR; I’ve been in the worse place mentally my whole life, but haven’t informed my uni out of fear of it leaking, haven’t been attending university. I’m scared that if I open a conversation after one term of doing nothing, that they’ll kick me out, what’s ur experience with universities dealing with this?  

I was diagnosed with severe depression and high anxiety in November and was but on a cycle of 50mg Zoloft, it was a nightmare to adjust to and completely numbed me out, I lost all drive and ambition, couldn’t process any emotion. Stopped doing all uni work, sat in my dorm and would drink a bottle of vodka just so I could feel something, then I’d end up having such an immense self hatred of turn to self harm. I was upped to 100mg in February and it only made things worse. I’ve since come off the meds and trying to get my shit together without them, but I’m scared my university work has been so heavily jeopardised last term that consulting the university about it in hopes to see if I can get an exemption of some sort would just be futile since the horse as left the barn and would result in being expelled from the course regardless. It’s been 3 months.   

Does anyone have any similar experience with reaching out after a rough time completing uni work? Did they just scoff at you for not coming earlier and kick you out or did they give you a second chance?