I've ranted this before but i keep telling it myself that maybe it was them but now I feel like it really is me that's wrong and I'm just being selfish. Maybe they're right that I'm being selfish on my birthdays to want a cheap comfort food you can definitely order easily anywhere here but hey at least my sister got a new electric guitar and nice that my bro gets to celebrate it with a drinking party yearly. Yeah maybe I need to be a little pushier about my needs in school  while guess who got a new phone for gaming? My sister. Yeah also maybe this pressure I get is all in my head and not because i didn't get to get to a course I've been thinking off since sophomore year in high school and my mom specifically said that it wasn't good money and decided to enroll me on impulse. I have to pass everything because they told me that after I'm done my brother and sister is my responsibility now so yeah sorry bi but the term "my sister might come first then you" seems to be a red flag to you. Sorry that I get tired sometimes as well ma and pa but don't tell me to at least help around the house even tho Yui guys know I do chores even tho I sometimes I don't even eat. I'm sorry if I got mentally exhausted and stressed out even tho my mom said I can't because I'm only studying so i can't be having this ideas in my head. I'm sorry that even tho I got a few hours of sleep I don't have that strength to even take a shower more so do some exercise. I'm also sorry lola for killing my dog even tho my uncle took the shelter my dad bought for they had for a dog they can't afford to cater and you guys are against that I keep them in my room , as well as the fact that you guys blamed it on me even tho my dad clearly stated that he got an unprescribed vaccination for a cheaper pay. I wish I'm tough as you lola that you can sad you're depressed because even tho early years your doctor asked me and my family that you needed to lessen what you eat or you'll complicate your later years but had the excuses to say "I'll die tho if I don't eat them" or "I'm dying anyways at let me be" so now I'm getting the end of the stick catering you always even tho I spotted you doing it yourself with no problem but hey I get it Lola I wish someone pampers mg as well and I hope you're ok with my company. 

Also sorry for you guys who read all through out my passive aggressive comment but I just don't know what to do with my pent up emotions. I'm been dealing with it myself considering I did tried yet the fact the they shrug it off saying it's all in my head and even blaming me I know for myself that I don't had that kind of power to tell them anymore. I'm just turned and lonely so sorry if you got caught up with it. Hope you guys a good day and thank you for hearing me out