My ex, who I had been dating online for about 2 and a half months, made a discord group back in July. This was a group meant for recovery. Myself, him, and the members all met from a previous website which was becoming toxic. This discord group was a way for us to focus on getting better as people. And for the first month, it was honestly amazing. I felt myself coming out of a bad place and it helped with my recovery. Of course I still had my bad days, but who doesn't? 

Over time, my feelings towards my ex changed. I will note that I did some shitty things in our relationship so I am in no way perfect. However, his behaviors towards me were becoming increasingly abusive/toxic. There were some really red flags, but they became more visible as time went on. Or rather, I became more aware of them as time went on. I could tell he genuinely cared for me as I did him, but the relationship was hurting me more than helping. I eventually broke up with him and he left the group. I remained in the group with the others and it continued to thrive. But I was still in heart break. This weekend everything came out in tears and I shut down. I took a break from the group and everyone connected to my ex. Everything is too much of a reminder. This could be an opportunity for me to focus on other areas in my life and create friends outside situations tied to my ex .