My husband is a really great guy and he puts up with a lot as far as my BPD is concerned. Over the weekend, I guess he couldn't take anymore and he blew up. He told me if I don't get therapy or try CBT, then hes done. This is the first time he's ever said this to me. It's really made me reassess what an asshole I am. I really don't want to lose my husband. I think I should go to therapy, if not for him then for myself atleast. I feel so bad. I've woken up today and I just feel full of shame. This is a really big week for my husband, he graduated and also started a new job. I feel like I've just been so selfish and have made everything about me. I feel level headed and grounded right now, I just don't know how to control it when that other side of my creeps out. He says he loves this side of me, but he can't love the other side of me. I get it. I hate that ugly aggressive side too. I don't want to lose him.