My last two years of college were incredibly stressful. A lot of very dramatic family stuff. People suggested I take a semester off, but so close to graduating I said hell no to that. A couple weeks after graduating I was living 2.5 hours from my family with a new job supporting myself, and thought everything was going to be fine moving forward, no anxiety.

At work I started getting sweaty. Like, really motherfucking sweaty. I kept clinical strength antiperspirant on me at all times, constantly drying off in the bathroom, I did everything I possibly could but still got called into HR for hygiene issues. That was quite the confidence boost. And I was already doing everything I could possibly think of to keep it under control.

I got shakey. Super shakey. Couldn’t type, which was basically my job. Or cook food without making a huge mess. People asked if I was diabetic. 

I started having auditory hallucinations at night. Very vivid and *scary*. Water rushing into my apartment, men breaking in, loud music, etc. It made sleep difficult.

It’s been almost a year since then. I managed to get on medications which got my symptoms under control, saw a therapist for months, got a less stressful job, did shrooms which helped a fuck ton, everything is going really really well. I don’t have anxiety. But I do have... sweatiness, shakiness, auditory hallucinations. None of my symptoms went away. My doctor said *maybe* my brain will rewire itself, otherwise I’ll just have to stay on my medication. It costs money. I have to take it in public. If I go anywhere overnight I need to bring 4 medicine bottles. 

Tldr of my PSA - ignoring anxiety long enough will give you possibly permanent physical symptoms that fucking suck.