I wish i could go back 10 years when i was just a child even tho i was bullied atleast i wasnt suicidal. If my younger self saw me right now she would be super disappointed. I dropped out of school. I have no real life friends. Im still single and im still not attractive.

One day i will find the right method to CBT. The sooner the better. I have people that care about me for sure. But nothing and no one can change my plans to CBT at this point.