I'm afraid all the time and all I can do is try not to think about it.
Being afraid all the time is exhausting. I feel so alone, in a prison of my own design. I want friends but I'm constantly avoiding people cause afraid and I just want to stay alone in my room, in the dark, under my covers. I'm always fantasize and wish I was somewhere else. Anywhere but here. Even when I'm in my comfort zone. I see people living life and u want that too, but I'm terrified and I can't explain why, I just am. I've tried to explain to my family but it's like explaining color to the blind- they never get it, they never will. Really depressing colors. And no one likes depressing stuff cause then they'll get depressed. And I don't want to make people depressed.
BUT I'M SO DEPRESSED! CAUSE I'M AFRAID ALL THE TIME. 
And all I can do is not think about it.