About 6 months ago I finished DBT and have reduced my harmful behaviors and chaotic episodes and now lead a "normal" life and have a "normal" full time job. Due to my episodes from last year I am having to retake an alevel to get the right uni grades.   

I now feel like I have no emotions, I dont cry anymore or have breakdowns, I just exsist. Everyone thinks its good becausd DBT "saved me" and yeah im thankful that I dont feel in pain 24/7, but now I feel literally nothing. 

I am insanely stressed from it and struggling to go to work everyday and focus. I literally cannot focus on revison at all and constantly feel tired. I cant find a place to retake and therefore my uni application cant be sent off yet. I literally cannot do anything. Gettinf out of bed is so much energy, and Im not even "sad".  

I've been having heart palpitations and stuff and I dont know if itd because of the stress. I havent been able to get a doctors appointment bevause its "too serious" and im not going to waste 5hrs in A&amp;E. Its literally making me so paranoid. I've been gettong out of breath too and having a racing heart.  

I literally banged my knee earlier and started to cry because it was like the straw that brokw the camels back but no tears came out.

I literally dont know what to do with myself the stress is consuming me and I dont know why my emotions have disappeared after DBT as if my life didnt used to be a rollercoaster of them.