I feel so suffocated at the moment. 

I have been living in another country for about 5 years and recently one of my close friends has moved over... I should be happy right? Well, I dont. 

I dont even want to meet up with her. I dont want my life from back home following me over here. She knows my ex, she knows people over here who I hate and avoid and now I have split from her so badly, I dont ever want to see her ever again. 

She keeps contacting me and I keep saying that I'm going through some stuff and I'm not really doing anything these days.. But she keeps pushing and it makes me resent her. I know its unreasonable but the anxiety it gives me is insane. 

I dont know what to do... I just want to run away and start again. I want her to go away. I dont want her in my life over here