i need to know what's wrong with me. it's so angering and frustrating and it's unhelpful saying 'don't focus on a diagnosis!' BUT THATS MY SOURCE OF VALIDATION AND PEOPLE ACKNOWLEDGING THAT IM ACTUALLY MENTALLY ILL AND NOT OKAY. i just want to know.. i know it's stupid but i just need answers. is it BPD, autism??? what is wrong. i can't . i can't deal with this and i can't deal with never being enough to fit into one thing that explains me most. why do i always present so differently.