I cry myself to sleep every night wondering why I’m not enough. I can’t afford therapy. I don’t have insurance. I don’t have any friends. I had a partner that left when I split on them. I don’t have any family because they were abusive to me. I don’t understand how I’m supposed to get better. There is nobody to even be better for, I know all people say is to get better for yourself but what is the point when this is my life? I’m drowning in debt, nobody at work likes me, I try to make friends on apps and get ghosted. I don’t understand why I’m here. I just day after day get disappointed in my life. I go home from work and cry. I wake up and cry. I literally don’t know how I have any tears left. I just want this mental illness to go away.