I've never posted on any platform before asking for others' experience/advice/opinions... But I'm reaching the end of my rope here and I really don't want to let go.

I've been with my partner for 7 years now and her struggles with BPD has always come into play in our relationship, however, BPD isn't the main issue here.

Over the last year, we bought a house and everything was good for a few months, until she became overwhelmed with intrusive thoughts (suicidal ideation has always been a problem for her and she's attempted in the past). 

In past years she's been pretty good about coping with it, well probably suppressing it, but this year it sent her to the hospital for a 4 month long stay (which caused her to lose her job and 2/3rds of our income) and then it became this in-and-out cycle for about 3 more months up until 2 months ago. 

I ended up having to quit my job to take a higher paying job and am working as many hours as I can possibly get while holding some boundaries for self care, but finances are not good.

She finally got a job a week ago and her first shift was supposed to be today, but I just got a call to inform me that she's going back to the hospital.

All I want is to see her happy and enjoying life so we can get back to creating our home together, but this cycle of hospital stays and is tearing down my own mental health. 
I'm not happy and honestly starting to get scared of what a future with this person will look like.

I'm not sure if anyone here has experience with this in either perspective, but if you were in a similar position what ended up happening? What's your advice? 

I want to be with this person... But I want to enjoy my life too 😖