Hi guys. Lately I’ve been really anxious in general about a few centered things; my relationship and my work life. I’m really anxious about meeting my own personal goals and making sure I’m prioritizing myself and lately I’m feeling like I spend a lot of time that could be useful to me being worried about my relationship. Today I was thinking deeper into why I felt like it was holding me back and I realized I tend to feel like if I don’t hold the relationship together in terms of being attentive and making plans - then I worry it will all fall apart. I’ve vocalized the need for my partner to take more initiative and that was acknowledged but I’ve seen little change. Lately he’s been super busy and because of my fear of abandonment I tend to be eager to make plans and but I’ve specifically taken time to fall back in hopes that he’d pick up where I leave off and well nothing comes of it. He’s very introverted and doesn’t have a lot of time to hisself so I can see why he may just get stuck in his own world but at the same time I don’t want to create excuses. I could vocalize my worry to him and im sure he’d be understanding but I tend to analyze things and have these kinds of conversations often so I don’t wanna overwhelm and push him away. I also feel like there’s no progress if I don’t bring it back up and he’s so caring and patient that I know he’d receive it well I guess I’m just afraid that even though he denies any feeling of frustration with me or feeling annoyed by me- that maybe one day he’ll be sick of the requests and needs - that stems from past relationship trauma - idk is it worth vocalizing??