I was on Abilify for a couple of months, it worked great for mood stabilization but then I suddenly developed akathisia/anxiety. I kind of think it's my fault because I was fucking around with the dose at the time (prescribed 7.5, would take anywhere from 2.5 to 7.5 depending on the day), and my brain just decided enough was enough. I should have stuck with 5mg as a good middle ground.

So my psych switched me to Risperdal, and man oh man it is a completely different drug. Zombie doesn't really describe it. I've never been this wiped out from a med before. I had to leave work early twice in one week because I was literally afraid for my safety I was so tired. Obviously I can't keep doing that or I'm gonna lose my job.

I'm starting to lose hope here, I know I've only tried two things but everything I read about APs is that they are very hard to tolerate and full of side effects. If you google Abilify or Risperdal reviews you will find hundreds of accounts from people who are frantically advising not to take these drugs (I'm NOT saying not to take your meds, I'm just saying that a lot of people really don't like them).

I'm scared because on the one hand, I need meds to maintain my shit. On the other hand, my options appear to be akathisia, which is hell on earth, or Super Deluxe Mega Zombie Mode, which is a different kind of hell (if I can even stay awake long enough to experience it).

For the record I've only been on Risperdal for three days so maybe it's just an adjustment period but this med has got me *fucked up* for real though