I'm sorry for the ramble; I'm here to rant. 

I don't ever want to be in a relationship. I don't ever want to date. I don't want to be close to anyone. If I could live in solitary confinement for the rest of my life, I would do it in a heartbeat. I'm tired of people. The idea of a relationship of any form is revolting to me. But, my new therapist is telling me that if I do not have any goals surrounding romantic/intimate relationships, that he may not work with me...he wants to make it a part of our treatment contract. 

I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. If I say no, he stops treatment. If I say yes, I'm basically forced to move towards relationships. I'm incredibly upset. I think he should go fuck himself. But I really need treatment, and I need to stop being stuck... This isn't fair. I feel like I'm being pushed up against a wall. He thinks that, within the year, I should begin to consider dating...the thought makes me sick. 