A lot of times I think I should just kill myself because I’ve been depressed for years and nothing has helped. Medication, therapy. Nothing. I hate talking about my feelings to my family or doctors. I hate school and work. My biggest fear is dying. Dying of natural causes, natural disasters, car accidents. Anything. I would rather control my own death than have something kill me in the future. I don’t really have anything going for me. I’m not going to graduate high school and get a good paying job, I’m not going to college, I’m never gonna be able to move out of the house and have enough money for food or bills, I’ve never had a boyfriend and probably won’t/won’t get married and start a family. So I just don’t see the point. I’m tired of keeping everyone around me happy while I’m drowning in these thoughts. I don’t want to continue my life if I can already see how shitty my future is going to be. I’m just a burden to my family who constantly has to assist me with all my issues. I’m just done.