I’m having a really hard time right now. 

I feel convinced that I’m on the verge of a cancer diagnosis after a few months explore a symptom (surgery and biopsy in next few weeks at this point). It’s a lot to process with no one around.

My siblings have recently cut off communication with me with no warning, and I’m extremely hurt and blindsided. My mom seems to be in the middle of it and I can’t talk to her anymore out of fear of more pain.  My dad avoids emotion at all costs. 

My couple close friends are in the midst of their own drama, and haven’t had the bandwidth or space for my stuff lately. I also feel that I shouldn’t overburden them with this.

I’m in therapy but the therapist has been unavailable due to surgery, and I also have conflicts. We’re unable to connect for at least a month.

I’m a solo parent of a elementary aged child. So I must keep up with parenting and the house, all while putting on a happy face. 

I also have a very demanding job that has grown more demanding in recent weeks.

I need to find someone to bring me to surgery (and maybe care afterwards) but I don’t have that person. I don’t know how to find someone to hire and that just feels like an unimaginable task right now. 

If it weren’t for my child, I’d quit everything. I don’t know how much more I can sustain.