

Hi im 22 and i've had anxiety and sensory issues my entire life, i dropped out of high school in year 11 due to daily panic attacks and since then ive just kinda been at home i have gotten alot better mentally since then but i haven't really been doing anything with my life.

I used to have severe panic attacks just trying to write a resume but last year i managed to push through it and finish is but because of how empty it was i felt like shit and only gave it to 3 places over the course of a year and had panic attacks every time. Earlier this year my mum got me a job as a dish washer at her job its wasnt much money $100-$150AUD for a 6 hour day once a week i didnt mind the job but it wasnt a great place to work, very poorly managed not always getting paid weekly or full amounts and there are alot of sensory issues working there but i could push through it.
 
About 2 months ago my friend said she could get me a job at her work 5 days a week 5pm-8pm as a bartender/waitress at a motel restaurant and move into her new place, its not a very busy restaurant between 1-7 people in on a good day and if it gets busier than 10+ someone will come in and help, i thought it sounded like the perfect opportunity, moving out with a friend who works at the same place as me! but its been a lot for me ive been having minor panic attacks at work for like 2 weeks and ive been having a pretty sever one since last night its been about 24hours now. im worried i cant do this what if it dosent stop and it gets worse. 

theres been a pretty big stresser since friday, i need to have a certificate by the end of the week and if i dont i could lose my job but i have to make a phone call to complete it and i have bad phone anxiety and especcialy since its an evaluation i know they'll be judging everything I say. i dont even know if thats what the problem is what if i get through it and i keep having panic attacks i dont wanna fail at doing the main thing that everyone seems to be able to do(having a job), this has been such a big step for me and everyone so proud and i dont want to let them down especcially my friend who I live with. i feel like this is the only thing ive ever done i dont drive, i dont go out, ive had the same 2 friends since i was a kid, this is the first big step ive taken and i feel like im drowning. 

does anyone else have problems with working/getting a job?

what should i do? I'm not on medication or in therapy but im gonna make a doctors appointment and get a mental plan