So much happening in a matter of days and my emotions just can't keep up with it all. I feel so weak. So helpless. Feel like everyone hates me and waiting for me to say something stupid or make a mistake. If only they knew how clueless I was on the inside. I'm in so much pain and fear. I'm so afraid of the future. I'm so bitter about the past. I just want the pain to end. I just wanna feel like I'm taken care of.. or even better not need anyone to take care of me in the first place. I am so sick of acting weak just so that they're satisfied with me. Just to give me the bare fucking minimum.