I have been anxious for a very long time and it shows up in everything. I get extremely anxious if i gain weight, if something i am doing and face difficulties in it. And after i recover, most of the time i realise that all of the anxiety is mostly unnecessary. I stress out myself and the people around me.

I took anti-anxiety medicine and been taking it on and off for about a year now. But it doesn't solve the problem for a long time. It's a temporary relief. I am sometimes so exhausted because of it, i tire myself out and go to bed.

I recently also met someone and developed feelings for them. But we don't have a future because of reasons unrelated. But, i really want to develop a good friendship with this man and have him in my life. But my anxiety is ruining it. He has been very patient and understanding but for how long? My anxiety is fucking me up and him as well. I want this to stop.