I’ve just plum had enough I literally hate waking up cause it feels like hell right from the off just want it all to be over now need it to be over want to be myself again or that’s it I’m done for good. Can’t take it I’ve had an absolute gutful 9 months of feeling like this some small improvements but general mental health still the same if not worse. Get so so muddled now can’t focus all my day is for is trying to distract enough to make it to the end of the day without having lost it completely or trying to end it all. Sick and tired of it.