If someone came up to you and asked if you were going to win the Super Bowl, you’d say you wouldn’t be able to right? Because most people understand that being a professional star athlete is unattainable for them. That’s how I feel when I think about doing anything with my life. I’m a failure. A disappointment. I know I will never achieve what I want to in life, so what’s the point of even trying? At the same time I don’t want to just live in my parents house the rest of my life. The only future I see for me is one where I starve in some back alley somewhere, homeless and alone, if I even last that long. I don’t deserve a good life. I’m not a good person. I should just die already.