I know things need to be done. I know I have to do things by a certain time. Even as that time comes and goes, I have myself for not doing anything. I hate sleeping all the time. I hate eating so much I'm miserable. I hate that my house and car is mess with all my trash. I know I need to clean up but I never do. I hate the feeling of my wife being mad at me all the time. Why am I so self destructive?!