Does anyone else have a person, who you feel is your person no matter what? Is this some sort of bipolar attachment issue? When I’m depressed, when I’m manic, when I’m stable.. he is all I want. The issue here is this : often he can be cruel to me. When we met in 2018 we dated for about 8 months before it ended because I was extremely unwell. I’d been diagnosed with depression and anxiety in highschool and been on fluoxetine for years, with my complaints just causing them to up and up my dose. I became extremely suicidal and had ideations every second of the day, I ended up pushing him away and really hurt him (and myself). Since then there’s been on and off times. Usually the ‘off’ times are a lot longer. We’ve been talking for a few weeks now and hung out almost every day this week. In which he made me cry 4 times. No matter what I do or say he finds a way to get annoyed with me, and even if he starts something I’m always the one apologizing and begging him not to leave me. I know it’s awful for my mental health, especially while trying to balance university and a job. I don’t know what to do.. I can’t get away.. I can’t stop loving him. I’ve even joked that he could run my whole family over and the next day i would forgive him. Does anyone else have their person, the one they feel they’ll always love? Are they kind to you? How do I put my myself first? Any time I try to get in a relationship with someone else it’s extremely short lived before I sabotage it because it just reminds me of him.. help :(