I cant focus or think or function lately AT ALL. Like i am beyonddddd out of it and constistently have been for months but it feels like its getting worse. I feel like I’m not even really here if that makes sense? It’s like nothing even feels real or like its happening or anything. Im constantly paranoid and on edge and lately I haven’t slept good at all. I have repeated dreams about trauma or at least about the people who caused it and wake up super sweaty and occasionally gasping for hair then I can’t go back to sleep because now my hearts racing and im wide awake but i crash later and sleep for hours. Sleep deprivation is causing me to hallucinate more than i normally would and its driving me crazy, between all of that im now on the brink of failing classes i used to have all B’s in but then i got so depressed I physically could not get out of bed and didn’t have the mental strength to do anything i needed to do. I don’t know what to do man, and i also have alot of bad intrusive thoughts that arent how i really am and i hate it. I feel like im constantly snappy and its hard to control my emotions which is so abnormal for me because i truly am not an angry or snappy person at all but i feel like with everything going on i am losing more control of myself everyday and losing touch.