hello everyone, i would like to first say that i have not been diagnosed by a doctor, but i know 100% that i have had schizophrenia for a while now. it first started with me getting very scared about thinking in public because i thought there were an elite race of mind readers among normal people that were reading my mind. then it morphed into me being a star of my own tv show, talking to the audience and being able to hear the “directors”. this persisted for a while, but i thought it was normal. my concern only peaked when i started getting intense auditory hallucinations like a microwave in the floor or my mom calling my name. that is all far from the worst. it’s very scary and has interfered with my sleep and social life. i have told only 4 friends, but have not told my mother. i want to tell her, but i am scared of what she might think or react. she is VERY against pills (she doesn’t even let me take tylenol sometimes) and i’ve never been to a therapist. all types of doctors give me the creeps and i don’t want to talk to one one on one. im scared they may put me in a mental hospital. as you can see, im in a very conflicting situation, but i need help and i’m not sure how to get it.