I'm honestly really scared.

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I've had anxiety attacks before, and melt downs before, but never this severe.

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I woke up  yesterday and was triggered by a few work emails that I saw a notification for on my phone. I think there was some general anxiety as well, and emotional drainage from my bridal shower, but it was work that triggered me. 

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And then it didn't stop. It has felt like one continuous panic attack but after doing some research it seems like that isn't possible. I guess it must be many panic attacks, one after the other.

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My heart beats heavy, I can feel it in my veins leading up to my fingertips. It's often hard to breathe. I feel extremely light headed. Sometimes I feel what seems like electric 'tingles' in the back of my head, and also pressure in my ears. I break down over the smallest inconvenience. I feel achy, heavy, and sore; it's hard to move. I'm having bad lower abdominal pain, but I can't tell if it's a separate issue. Now I feel nauseous. 

I keep having nightmares every time I lay down.

And then when I wake up, it feels like I'm living a nightmare.

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I'm scared. I'm scared of how I'm feeling, and I'm scared of myself. I'm so on edge, I'm scared of losing it. I threw some of my things in a fit of rage and hurt my hand side punching a wall (but I'm weak so, no damage)

I'm scared I may become more violent. I'm scared I may really hurt myself. I may have no intention in this moment but when I spiral into distress it feels like anything is possible.

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I've had bad episodes before where I had meltdowns over small things (but in reality it was a lot pent up and I just lost it over that small thing), I'll scream like I'm dying, throw and break things... But then it goes away.

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This is different. It feels like a prolonged panic attack which I've never experienced before. It won't stop. I keep trying to convince myself I'm okay now, that I've snapped out of it, but the lightheadedness prevails as if to say, "Nope, you are not okay."

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Has anyone gone through anything like this before?

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I always thought I had GAD but last night when I was researching panic attacks I remember an old psychologist diagnosed me with panic disorder, which I didn't realize was different until watching a video on it last night. I've had anxiety attacks before but never with such intense physical symptoms (except maybe bad upset stomach) and never ever continuous like this...

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I felt like my life was starting to pull together better because this year I've finally begun to feel less depressed.... But now anxiety has taken over and it's an equally terrifying beast... 

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I really don't feel okay. I just want it to stop.

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How do I make it stop?