Been going through a depressive episode lately. It always happens around this time of year due to unfortunate timing due to my mothers death, happens to be the same month as my birthday.

22yo M with no family really, or what’s left of it is just hanging on by threads. The exhaustion prevents me from reaching out most of the time, but yet I crave the affection from what’s called a family. 

Friends send half ass messages, and most don’t say anything at all. 

Birthday passed, was about what I was expecting. Late texts this morning and my gift was a cake. Idk if i’m being to sensitive on this situation or not.  for the past 5 years it always seems like i’m kind of just shoved off, idk. Tired of not really feeling happy.

Thanks for reading.