I’ve been having a really hard time. I’m not sure when it started but it’s getting quite severe now. If I didn’t have obligations I would have hospitalized myself by this point. I’m so perpetually sad. I’ve been doing a lot of dbt and trauma/ptsd therapy. I’ve worked on myself a lot. I’m now so aware of who I was in the past. And I resent myself for it. Every single day. But that’s not me anymore. I don’t self destruct or sabotage. I don’t selfishly do things regardless of how they’re affect others. I care… I have emotion and consideration towards those who aren’t whoever my favourite person is. My friends however. Still treat me like I am that person. My girlfriend have even realized this. They still think it’s acceptable to give me a “reality check” every couple of months or “humble” me when they come to see me. Which is essentially ripping on me or taking digs at me for things I don’t do anymore. For someone I’m not anymore. I never feel satisfied in this friendship as every single time after we hang or talk… I just feel bad about myself or cry or wonder why they even still talk to me… I’m not sure what to do. I’ve communicated my feelings and explain this to them myself… maybe I am too sensitive now but that’s cause the walls aren’t there anymore….