I’m 18 and I’ve had anxiety since basically forever. Recently I have been talking to a guy and I think I like him, but I noticed I’ve been holding back from getting into a relationship because I’m really anxious when it comes to dating. The thing is, I can’t rationalize it at all.

I’ve only had one other relationship and it was over 3 years ago. It wasn’t bad or anything, and I’ve ruled out that I’m not afraid of being abused/manipulated or something like that. That relationship ended because of my anxiety. I think now I’m afraid I’ll get bored or feel weird in a romantic relationship. My internal narrative reiterates that I’m independent and that being romantically involved with someone is out of character for me. Maybe it’s because I don’t have much experience. I’m also worried that as a result of my mixed feelings, I’ll end up leading a person on by accident or end up hurting them. With this person, it is too late to go back on my feelings anyways, so I feel very trapped right now. I want to move forward, but I’m scared. 

I want to make this jump for myself. I just need some reassurance. Any advice is really appreciated.