It's mentally exhausting. I just can't take it anymore. All these lies. Studying, working. I simply cannot handle all these crazy thoughts inside my mind. 

They just expect progress from me, and I cannot deliver anything but a fake smile. I want to scream as loud as possible, then disappear. Living is tough. Studying is even tougher. Social pressure is a real thing and I am not prepared for it. 

Damn I am really sad.