hi, i’m an ex cutter, 19f now. i haven’t cut since i was 17 and all these feelings are flooding back. i want to do it again but my husband said he’d leave me (he doesn’t know about it currently but he’s said this in the past) i don’t know why they’re all the sudden back or when they’ll leave. i don’t have a job, my husband brings in almost all the money (i babysit on the side) but it’s killing me. i’ve applied to every place i can. he’s military so he’s never home, im constantly by my self as he’s in the field every other week, his car is broke down and we don’t have enough money to fix it so he drives mine, so im stuck at the house all the time. im not sure why i feel such a strong urge to do it. even if it’s just one cut. it makes me feel like i have stuff under control and i guess to feel better