Everytime I go out I always do stupid and embarassing things and keep overthinking about them later that day until I get panic attacks. There was never a day when I don't do anything stupid when I'm in public places and I'm sick of it. It's like my mind is always wandering and not paying attention to what's happening around me. Even my mom tells me that I am an absent-minded person. I also get shaky when I'm talking to someone (a professional, for example).

So today I've decided not to go out anymore unless it's an emergency or something very important. F**ck it, I'm done with this shit!