Hi everyone,

I (male,31) do not want to bore you with my lifestory but In the last years I kind of got into a depression. 

The only times I am really truely happy is when I drink alcohol. It feels like it takes away so much weight of me, I start to feel happy, I feel connected to the people around me and stop to judge others. My anxiety is gone and I can enjoy life a bit. Unfortunately this feeling only stays for maybe two hours and then the euphoria is gone again. I again feel numb, anxious and I hate everyone.

I think I might develop a problem with alcohol consumption since I drink almost every day but to be honest, thats my only happy moments so I do not want to stop. 

Anyone who can relate?