I have been trying hard to stay busy and active, to spend time with people, to go to therapy, to take the medication, to do all the "right" things

At the end of the day it's silent and I'm still alone, people retreat to the people who love them and I don't have anyone, my FP left me over two months ago and is never coming back. I told my parents I want to kill myself and they still ignore me. My friends just keep saying "generic phrases!!!" but they don't know what this is like. My heart has been broken for so long. I miss the man who used to be my boyfriend. I miss feeling like anyone cared. I miss what a hug from someone who loves you feels like. I want it to be okay to give up.

I don't have any way to reach the one person I need and they don't want to hear from me anyway. I don't know what to do