He's betrayed and abused me in SO many ways, I can't even get a genuine apology or remorse out of him and I'm pathetically PINING for his validation. He avoids all conflict and yells at me whenever I bring anything that has hurt me up.. We still talk regularly, and I feel so volatile, I'm terrified of him abandoning me, I'm having melt downs every day. I'm terrified that he will stop loving me. I feel fucking pathetic for continuing this relationship even as friends, I don't know what to do I think I'm going to hurt myself.