I have been having unexplained heart issues (literally just got diagnosed with hyperthyroidism) and I accidentally shared that over Teams and got an email saying I don’t need to disclose that and to just say I’m going to the doctor. Logically I know this email is not attacking me but I have literally not been able to stop crying since I got it. Thank god for being work from home lol. I just feel like a fucking idiot like I can’t read the room ever and just always always overshare. My anxiety has also been so bad I literally tense up so hard every time I think of a past mistake and this is making me cringe so hard because I just started this job. It’s also so hard because I work for a Japanese company and the communications styles are so different where what I shared wouldn’t even be a big deal back home in the US. Idk. I have just been a big crying mess all weekend and can’t stop. 
I don’t know how to calm down. I’m getting suicidal thoughts for the first time in a long time and I am so sad. I just feel like the biggest fucking idiot in the world.