My whole life has been an uphill battle, solely due to IQ: I had a great home, supportive parents, but everything's just so hard to understand. I can't learn skills, games etc. so there's not much fun in my life besides eating. Books are just words on a paper ultimately, pretty meaningless if there's no activity somewhere else. Don't get me started on movies. Also the complexities of social life and dating are much too difficult for me. I have recently tested my IQ as 83, so don't tell me I sound smart or whatever: I know I have verbal ability, but I literally can't understand anything else even to elementary level. 

I try to open up about this on the internet I receive a lot of hate. It is partially because my tone is frustrated, surely, but it's still tiring. Nobody really gets low iq people, its ok to dehumanize them, everywhere theres reminders that we 80iqs are really hated. It's just mentally tiring to go through the day when you realize that most people regard your problems as nothing but trash, and hate you for being low IQ, despite never telling it, just like my mum and dad refuse to admit. 

No matter how much I work, I will just reach tiny fraction of what normal people get by doing nothing. I start from an uneven table with everything stacked against me in my brain. I'm just so tired of struggling, I wish I didn't exist. Everybody bullies me and wants me dead, or as a laughing stock, everybody also lies to me. It just feels like I wasn't meant to be, yet I stupidly continue living. Usually there's at least something to romanticize, well, not with low IQ: it's the final shittiness, the ultimate explanation, the final nail in the coffin.