My last therapist believed I had SPD or BPD, and said she’d diagnose me with schizoid out of anything (been previously diagnosed with depression prior). This was several months ago, and I’m now 17. My new therapist doesn’t want to diagnose me with personality disorders at all since I’m not 18 and up. She also said that she doesn’t think I’m borderline, but she said, “maybe, you could be,” to schizoid. 

Some signs about SPD I have are: “asexuality” (I say I am because I generally don’t give a damn about relationships, even though I do get sexually attracted at times; I just don’t care enough to do anything about it), hating social situations (even those with friends—I very much prefer being in my home all the time), shutting people out, not spending time with family, not caring to make friendships anymore, drinking alone, and being emotionally detached. 

Some signs of BPD I have are: self-harm, drinking, very self-critical, black-and-white thinking, suicide attempts, mood swings, irritability, and an unstable identity.

Everything is incredibly difficult right now—I just feel like giving up—I want to know what’s wrong with me so I can understand myself better. 

(I do NOT self-diagnose myself. I’d just appreciate input)