So long story short, I was having intrusive thoughts about hurting my 2 year old son. I recognized this and started taking bupropion XL 150 and therapy. 

Recently my thoughts have gotten much better to where I don’t have those anymore. 

Now I’m scared to watch my son alone because in my eyes because I had those thoughts in the first place I am a monster and I think I will snap for no reason and hurt him. Like become a different person. 

I brought him to my house for 20 min and got so nervous because I have a gun in the house for protection and kept thinking if I snap I would shoot him or myself. Again… I was not thinking of doing this I just think I’m broken because I had those thoughts in the past. 

Thank you!