I was talking with a friend recently and I mentioned How to stop Walking on Eggshells. I was taken aback when she told me about it. I hadn’t realized she was friends with other BPDs, or have them in the family. 

I mentioned that I have split on her before and she was shocked to learn that. Apparently she had only ever experienced people splitting through explosive conversations/acts. I explained that I avoid, abandon, and turn the hate inwards. 

It also makes sense why it took me until 26 to get a diagnosis. Because my episodes mostly still are internal. 

Great, now I have to worry about people judging me because my BPD doesn’t present in a way they understand.