I live with 4 other people (siblings, mom) and I cant move out for at least 6 years. I have my own room, which I'm grateful for, as literally the only thing I want in life is to be left alone. But with 3 siblings, constant guests, and school, that's literally impossible. My room is tiny. It fits my desk, dresser, and bed, but my bed is broken because of my brother, my dresser doesnt fit all of my stuff so some of it has to go in closet, but my mom is using my closet. Problem. I also have 7 instruments, some small some big. Problem. I have to have them in my room, because everyone gets mad when I leave them out, I literally dont have space. I wanna be left alone. 3 siblings, doesnt happen. Problem. If I'm in public and have to talk to someone, I get so pissed, because I just wanna sit in my room in the dark, with my music. I have no diagnosed problems, but every symptom of ADHD, ADD, Dyslexia, Autism, depression, and anxiety. I tried to ask to get diagnosed. "You dont have anything. You're just weird" or "stop being sensitive, everyone has to make sacrifices". I also hate it when someone touches my stuff. We had company, someone had to stay in my room. I literally wanted to scream and cry at the thought of someone in my bed. But I didn't say anything. I'm so close to breaking down, screaming and crying because I hate this family.  My mom also doesn't believe in asexuality and aromatics, I am both. I use he/they, she calls me a girl, because "well i just dont understand so deal with it". I'm sorry I have gender dysphoria, but please stop calling me a "pretty, young woman". Stop. I'm so close to ending my life. I just want help. But I cant get any. I'm so tired. I hurt myself because of them. I literally feel like screaming whenever they talk to me. And I understand some people have it so much worse. And that makes me feel so guilty. I have a family, i have my own room, i have a roof over my head, and clothes to wear. But I cant help feeling so fucking mad. So upset at them every day. I'm sorry for the rant. But I had to vent for a minute.