I guess that is like the definition of BPD but I'm really struggling with this right now. I'm pissed off at everyone but mostly myself because I'm the crazy one and all my feelings are paranoid and delusional. I feel like any time I get mad at someone, especially my partner, it's not valid because I'm borderline. People can be fucking infuriating sometimes. I'm so disgusted with myself and I feel like nothing I feel is actually real so what's the point? I can't even be legitimately angry about something without it seeming like a "symptom." Sorry for the immature rant. I'm pissy and I didn't sleep all night because I was up crying like a loser. Just needed to get it out there because I don't have anyone else that will actually listen.