I posted this in the weekly DAE thread but I feel like I want to put this in its own post too.

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DAE have periods of VERY intense sexual interest?



It seems to come and go, but usually I will go through periods of extremely high energy where I want to do risky things (heavy drinking, smoking a fuckton of weed, cocaine, chainsmoking 2 packs of cigs in a day) and I feel like I have so much energy I have caught fire, and all I can do is look for more mentally and physically stimulating things. 




Then I start to feel extremely confident and all I want to do is have sex. 




And then the sexual energy takes over to the point where anything aside from that in my life is a distraction. I'm having a hard time functioning rn because the arousal is NOT going away.




The other day I woke up aroused, had sex w boyfriend 3 times, masturbated 4 times, still felt aroused. This has been going for 3 days. Sometimes it'll last like a week, then I'll sink into depression afterwards and I feel like you might after a good night of some molly. Like all my serotonin is depleted









Idk what's wrong with me anymore, or if it even fits in my BPD diagnosis. My boyfriend is exhausted and just told me I need to respect his needs for more peace and quiet, but that I shouldn't feel ashamed for my desire.





But this is not my "normal", I'm just in a state of super heightened stimulation and idk how to stop it. Ordinarily I am fine with sex 1x daily, not feeling like I need it 7 or 8 times. It's not even fun it just feels like a compulsive desire rn. I have pretty much nobody to talk to about this atm.