I (21, F) don’t know whats up with me but I know I’m not a normal, decently functioning person. 
I don’t really get mania. I guess weed-induced hypomania and extreme euphoria a few years back. Ever since I could remember I’ve gotten these random spurts of euphoria followed by goosebumps and often laugh attacks that last for like 2 hrs at most.. (does that sound familiar..?) Other than that I’m a pretty irritable person and always have been. Anyway now I struggle with depersonalization/dissociation/derealization/panic attacks/depression/paranoia and weed no longer takes the edge off in fact it makes it much more unbearable. Looking for the right medication for these kind of symptoms? Anyone relate?