Long post ahead...sorry, just need to get it off of my chest. Also, on mobile so apologies for any and all typos.

Just got into a huge fight with my mother. (Little background: I'm 30, but have had to move into my parents basement after I burned through my savings living on my own and hiding the fact that I've been unemployed for over 4 years. (Mostly just sat it bed hating myself, being obsessed with fictional tv characters of the shows i watched, you all know the drill.) I've been seeing a psychotherapist for about 1.5 months and after being diagnosed as BPD I felt a little better. It was a huge relief to have a name for what I was feeling. I've been lurking this sub reading all of your stories and I didnt feel as alone. Finally! There was a group of people that got what it feels like to be me!

I started EMDR therapy (I've had 2 successful sessions with it) and it leaves me drained and feeling very vulnerable. I had one session yesterday, so today has been kind of meh. One thing that calms me down is cooking/baking, so I decided to make some cookies to share with the family. As I am nearing the end of the last batch my mother comes in and gets all excited (because yay! fresh cookies) but she then decided to start freaking out about healthcare and my future. I made the point of yes, I need to work; and yes, I would like to try to find something sooner rather than later, but all of the things that I feel comfortable doing are jobs that most likely wouldn't provide healthcare. She kept bringing up my college degree and how I'm "better" than that line of work.

I just feel so worthless right now, because every time I get excited about the idea of my future she points out how I'm probably going to fail at the things I want to do. 

There's a lot more to this, but I feel myself rambling and I think you can get the point of where I'm going with this. 

Thanks for letting me vent.