In the night I had a dream that I did suicide. I jumped from a cliff which is near my town in the mountains. Dream was too real. I felt how blood is leaving my body and the feeling was sensationaly good. I remember how my vision was leaving me and everything became black. I woke up after that. And the feelings were positive I didn’t felt any bad feelings. Because I couldn’t sleep I went to this spot and sit there on the edge of cliff where I jumped in my dream. I was all alone there. I was looking around because the view is amazing you can see the whole valley and the city. I was thinking about the dreams I had. I was not scared. But I remembered what I had to do in my life to be on a spot I am currently. I started to smile and looking on The Valley. I stood up and said to myself how can I be so stupid and think about it. I took a couple of photos of The Valley and left. I post this because I didn’t had a suicide thoughts now for more than a year. And they come in my dreams. Also now I’m good i don’t feel sad. It’s alright but it’s haunting me a little bit because of the dream I had. 