I feel like a poser. I've gone to my doctor and my mother and told them I need to be evaluated and diagnosed with the mental illnesses I know I have. but no where will take my fucking insurance! 


I dont want to feel like a poser anymore. I want to know whats wrong with me. this infuriates me so much to the point of crying. no where- absolutely no where within like a 2 hour radius from where I live takes my insurance or they arnt looking for new patients. 


im gonna stop before I have another panic attack about who I actually am.