I’m a 21 year old female and I feel like such a waste of space. I’ve been struggling with depression for almost ten years now but I don’t think I’ve ever felt worse than I do now. 

I’m a college dropout, I have no friends at all (I had two online friends that I connected with really well, but we don’t ever seem to talk anymore) all I have is my boyfriend who I spend literally all of time with.

I’m just feeling so useless since all I do is work a shitty retail job and go back home to my empty apartment with only an air mattress.

I hate the way I look and how awful my “personality” (or lack of one) is. I have no hobbies or interests or talents. All I have is my mental illness that seems to take control of me. I’ve become extremely attached to my bf to the point where if I don’t see him at least once a day I become physically ill. 

I just hate myself, I hate myself for being sick in the head, I hate myself for driving everyone away, I hate myself for existing.

I don’t know why I even posted here, I guess I needed to get out some of my feelings.