Ack. Just when things were going well, I think I've started splitting again. My girlfriend has been talking to someone I told her I don't feel comfortable with her talking to. I have my reasons which I think are 100% valid (not bpd related).. But my GF is still talking to him. 

And it has me spiraling, thinking things like, "Why can't she just be a good girlfriend and make me happy?".. "Wow, I'm such a good partner".. "This is so easy, she would just do it if she's a good girlfriend". These are things I would think constantly, to an extreme extent with my ex. I think I've been good in this relationship, but certainly not with my ex. 

I haven't talked to her all day (we talk everyday) and I left her on read last night. And I've been dreading her texting me. I don't want her to text me and I wanna isolate myself. Does this sound like I'm splitting on her? What can I do about this situation.. I get into states where I feel so wronged and try to gain control somehow, like by detaching myself. I even stole today for the first time in a while.