why won't they understand how hard it is now. why won't they understand school isn't as easy as it was for them. they didn't even finish high school, and they have a perfect life now. why do they expect such insane things from me.

I'm so tired of everyone expecting things from this barely functioning human. I can't go anywhere without having shaky anxiety attacks and heavybreathing, how can you even expect me to get out of bed. all I do all day is fantasize about killing myself and hoping something really bad happens, so I can finally get the courage to do it.

I am so tired