I’ve been pretending to be happy for so long just so my friends don’t hate me. Since I was 16 years old, I’ve just dealt with this crippling pain. It hurts so much I need it to stop. 

Well I turn 21 in may, so after all these years of faking it, I’ll finally be making it. I’m gonna buy a firearm and just shoot myself in a peaceful location. Fuck all these fake people and this shitty world.