DAE feel like they're unworthy of their partner or  don't deserve their partner because they've stuck around through all your mental breakdowns, mood swings, splitting and 100s of other things that come from your disorder or is it just me. I feel like I don't deserve this kind of support and love from someone because they've seen the most ugly sides of me. It actually gets so bad that after I've had a really bad breakdown and said some awful things to him while I was splitting in that state (my breakdowns after often triggered by our relationships so I tend to split a lottt) I feel insane amounts of guilt and even though it's a disorder and part of my condition that I don't have a lot of control of atm because I'm in still in the process of getting help, I still feel horrible and unworthy of him. Anyone else?