Okay, probably gonna make most of y'all angry, that's okay, but i am undiagnosed. Maybe I just have a shit personality but honestly I'm unsure of everything.

Although, I've fucked up, a lot, most people say I am not a bad person but honestly I am.

I fucked up my potential. I almost died and I didn't give a fuck, driving my family and friends nuts. I did shitty things, drove my mom so crazy she had a miscarriage. I constantly yell at everyone. I  am so impulsive that I do life threatening things with a smile on my face. Drugs, alcohol, nicotine addiction, at the age of fucking 13.

But at the end of the day, I am still that sweet innocent girl, aren't I? Maybe I ruined myself and will end up dead before I know it, but I still am somewhat... Myself? I feel like a demon, a Satan, should be locked up and never talked to again. I never wanted to hurt anyone, especially I didn't want to hurt my family, but they are the person who got damaged the most. 

I'm sorry.