I’ve been shit on my whole life and I’ve finally reached a place at 23 years old of feeling like I’m exactly the failure they all expected me to be. I’ve never hated myself more than I do right now. Thought being depressed was a set way of feeling like I knew when I was getting close. Didn’t even see it coming, feel like a failure in absolutely every aspect of my life. No career, college drop out, failed relationship with the father of my kids, back at my moms and no friends. I’ve never hated anyone in my life. I hate myself so much I don’t even like talking to people. I know they’ll see me exactly how I see myself. I don’t even want anyone to tell me it’ll be okay anymore, I don’t want the tiny pick me ups. I just want peace and I’ve given up on finding it.