I mean honestly, if I took a bunch of patients with various diseases, put them in a room and told them to figure out their own problems, my medical license would be revoked that same day.  Your the doctor, fucking act like it!


God forbid you have a regular job, because then you get to explain to your boss why you cant show up till 11am; which they'll forget and assign you more work which needs to be done in the morning anyway, so have fun arguing about that.  I imagine going to group therapy would be fine if you were unemployed.


Also don't tell them you have a drinking problem...Because that's ALL their going to want to talk to you about.  Of course it's my fault as well though because I absolutely do not want to confide in a bunch of other mentally ill people (like me) about the darkest things that keep me up at night.


Listen kids, I'm almost 30 and I've been in and out of therapists, psychiatrists, and psychologists offices since I was 9.  I know how terminally fucked up the whole north american mental health system is.  Like is it really all worth this?  It seems that you can either approach things civilly and inevitably be turned away (not suicidal? we don't want you), or start pointing guns in peoples faces and either get the help or wind up shot by the cops.


It's kind of funny, i never willfully left a doctors office.  It was because all the doctors figured I'd be better somewhere else, though I'm realizing now that they really just wanted to get rid of me, maybe that's projection, but the point still stands.  I was only non-compliant once, and that was because I was an active addict.  This time around I'm semi-non-compliant at group therapy because 1) I can't stand it. 2) I'm trying to learn how to live sober which is not easy. 3) Since I've become sober i'm dependable, which means I get more shit dumped on me at work. 


And I know this is going to come back to bite me because when I ask for a one-on-one, they're going to look at my group attendance and say "why should we trust you to show up now"...Maybe because I want to be in a one-on-one session, maybe because my problems aren't social (by the very fact that I have an actual career job), maybe because I'm not self medicating and would actually like a fucking doctor to help me out with these problems rather than other mentally ill people.  For all the nearly Star-Trek levels of technology we have, we're living in the fucking dark ages in terms of mental health.


man, fuck this illness and fuck doctors.