I've been terrible lately and I'm having breakdowns almost everyday and idk what to do. And like, I feel like I need people to constantly show that they give a fuck about me and they actually consider me a friend but obviously they're not gonna show that all the time so I end up thinking they don't like me and just tolerate me. And like, rn there's this one friend of mine (who's probably my fp at the moment but I'm not sure tbh) that I feel like is the only person that actually likes me and considers me a friend and cares about me and stuff and he's amazing but I feel like I need to constantly vent to him about this shit but I know I can't cause if I do he'll end up being annoyed by me. Idk what to do. I feel like I need constant validation and reassurance and tbh probably just attention too. And I'm really hating myself and I feel like I'm so annoying and mean and stupid and shit and I have nothing interesting about me so I'm boring af and people just tolerate me cauee they're nice or something. I know that's stupid but idk what to do right now other than just text my friend pretty much every day whenever I'm having an episode or a breakdown or whatever like this.