Hey 20 F. 

Take what I say with a grain of salt, I promise I'm not conceited. I just now started to realize how much potential I have as far as image goes. I've always been 'pretty' or 'cute', but now that I am getting older, I want to be more of how I feel on the inside... All I can say now is that I look so 'sexy' and unreal, and I know from the few times I have gone out that other people notice it too. Now, I'm not very used to heavy male gaze. especially by all ages so it works my nerves a little. It makes me want to crawl back into my shell of being that lounge-cute girl, but eventually I have to mature right?

This is more of a vent post. I'm happy from what I see with myself .. from being a depressed pre-teen/teenager who cut themselves to a beautiful young woman. It's like surreal to accept that I've blossomed so well despite all my lackings, and I want to embrace it, but all that attention makes me wanna throw myself.

Thanks xx.