Over 3 years ago I had work abroad, awesome friends and a okay life. But eventually I went into the wall and ended up in a deep depression because of trauma that I hadn't processed before.

Fast forward today 3 years later I haven't been abroad at all. Obviously corona came in-between as well, but also my depression. But I've felt like I've gotten my depression under good control so I thought I would go on a holiday as it was a long time since last. Just to clear my mind and see something different.

It's only a short trip of 4 days but more then enough. But for some reason I'm doubting about going or not. And I can't really say why, there's something scary with it, I'm not sure if it's how it all ended 3 years ago. Or if it's that I'm going to a city where I left things unsolved in a way.

I want to go to UK. I used to live there, but this wasn't the last placed I lived abroad. UK has always been a place where I've felt welcomed at. And I left things very abruptly and it felt like going there to close doors for myself but also have a holiday and go to York etc would be good.

Is it wrong of me? Or is it just normal travel anxiety and once I'm going it will feel better?