28M ive been pretty lonely whole my life,from childhood hood i wanted a life, when i was a kid i watched people my age playing outside, when im a teen i saw people my age going trips and hikes, when im in 25-26 age i saw peole my age in relationships, and now im 28 all i see is people marry and migrating. All these phases i have been alone in my room sleeping cause i don't understand how people do and manage those things in life, i wonder how they create these beautiful things in life, im unemployed now, i have a degree in construction but i hate that job, it the quite opposite of everything i wanted as a job and no life there, working in rural areas alone no social life no no night outs and staff i want to end my life, i always wanted a life where i go out in sunday nights big city and hotels goind to meet a gf and once a year a trip to abroad etc, i wanted my life to busy with beautiful experiences and upgrading every moment, but its not happening, it stays in the same rut and havent updating anything, I literally dont know to book a hotel and stay or go to a high tea or dinner, i mean i dont even want this life, whats the point? I had and ex she had a quite opposite of my life, a good social life dinners business trips and every experience of her and job updated her life, she married a guy from another country and migrated while im stuck in this life as an average loser, idk how to change my life? I mean day by day im giving it up,