I have gone through four therapists over the course of three years. Two of them moved away because it is insanely expensive to live there. One moved jobs and my most recent one referred me out. She asked that I see a therapist for eating disorders. I was on board with that, kind of, but I listened to her and research some therapist. I have not engaged in any disordered eating behaviors, but I ate food that was apparently triggering. I take 16 units in college, 20 hours of internships, 10-15 hours of work at my job, and I have a child. All of a sudden in our last meeting she said "I think an outpatient intensive program is better than seeing a therapist." I did not know what that was but maybe go in once a week. I did not know what that entailed. So I agreed because what else was I going to do, she is not qualified ethically to treat me so I said "sure, I need to find what works for me." I looked at what it is and I was shocked, 5 days a week for 4-6 hours. Also, the locations were very far from me, and I am low income. I could never afford the commute. I was shocked she actually thought it was best for me. I am a social work major and would never have done this to a client. Treatment needs to be accessible, the patient needs to see that it is a problem, and given a menu of options for alternative treatments. I am at the point where I have a lot of suicidal ideation and began crying in my classes. I was hurt but mostly pissed off at her. I have never felt that way about any of my therapist. I called her agency to see if I could see a therapist twice a week and specialized in eating disorders. The office said her treatment is recommended and until I get it cleared with an okay that it is not a problem they will not allow me to see one. This goes against my right to self-determination which is unethical. I should be allowed to access therapy unless I am seen as a danger to myself. I do not know what to do. Her therapy office is literally one of the few therapy office that accepts medi-cal insurance. Do I go over her, or lie? i am lost on what to do. Sorry for the long rante.