I am 14 at the time right now I love sports but i can't get over the habit of me eating disorder. (is what i call it) My mother died at age 6 i couldn't remember not one thing about her all i know is her looks and her age.The only thing i remember is me at her funeral saying "When is it this gonna be Over" the only thing i  remember saying at the funeral.When i was 7 i also remember me saying "where is my mom".To this day it got me mad.Mad at myself for not being conscious.I am now 14 and really don't know what to do.I do sports to keep me from eating but i got this school suspension a week ago so i really can't do anything crazy how im comfortable putting this out on the internet instead of my own fam.