F17

This is hard for me to post but I see myself as probably the ugliest person I know. I’m too tall and too skinny and I look so incredibly awkward doing absolutely anything. My legs look deformed and crippled. I could write 10 paragraphs about all my flaws and I have. Whenever I see photos and especially videos of myself it makes me start to cry. I can’t stand when people look at me when we’re talking or something it makes me want to crawl into a hole and die. I act confident because I don’t want people to know I’m insecure but it’s all a lie. People tell me I’m pretty a lot and I get compliments pretty often which makes me really really confused and it just makes me angry because they’re all lying to me or they see something I don’t. I can’t talk to anyone about this because I start crying when I try to tell my therapist. I don’t know what to do.