Hi. I have schizotypal personality disorder. Lately I've spent some time thinking about the nature of reality and how it all seems like such a random and unbelievable thing. The question "why \*this\*?" pops up in my mind a lot, and makes me doubt the very essence of experience. I get to feeling like everything is very incoherent, and feel that I become more convinced not just that reality is a projection of my mind, but that my own mind also does not exist, that it is simply an illusion sprung from the void. Yesterday, accompanying this was minor hallucinations - first I heard a strange noise which I cannot recall, then I started feeling something like hands holding down my neck. I began to feel like things I imagine would materialize around me and an ominous presence was sitting across the room watching me. While I do have similar experiences from time to time, this time it felt more convincing and harder to break out of.

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Okay, so - I'm not looking for a diagnosis, or even advice I think. I think I'm mostly here to ask if any of you relate to doubting the actual validity of experience? Because it seems like such an off concept to me. It's like I take a snapshot of the universe, distance myself from it and think to myself "there's no way my experience of this is anything but an illusion".