Recently I’ve had a weird obsession with things over social media, especially with my friends even though with my friends I should not care at all about these things. For example if I send four texts to someone and they respond with two I’ll immediately analyze if I’ve over shared or said too much and wonder if it was off putting to them. If someone left me on delivered for one hour and they respond to me, I will want to also respond to in an hour or more to not seem desperate or like I don’t have anything else to do (even though they’re my freaking friends they don’t care!!!!) At the same time I’ll even get thoughts that they don’t care about me as much if they don’t respond quicker or don’t respond with the same amount of texts, I’ll think ‘They’re too busy to care about me or prioritize me’. 

There’s more but these are just a few examples. I’m so conscious about these things all of a sudden and I don’t understand why. I feel crazy and stupid about it all.