I was depressed from puberty until early 2021. Ever since then, Ive been in "remission" i suppose. I was on 18 medications during my span with depression and was able to quit every single one. I will never consider medication again but every now and then I get these short recurrences of depression for a day or so. I just feel like crap and nothing lifts my mood. I go to the gym 5 days a week, I eat healthy, I work 40 hours a week, I am a part time student studying something i love, I was able to move away from my parents and in with my boyfriend. I completely changed my life. But every now and then I just feel so sad for no apparent reason, then it suddenly goes away. Not like mania, I have not experienced that since I quit antidepressants, but Ill be sad and then snap back to normal. Wondering if it's the testosterone boosters I am taking messing with my hormones (trying to bulk up). Whatever it is, it sucks. Ill take it over constant depression 100%, but it still sucks. Im terrified it will come back for good.