We're all familiar with the famed black-and-white thinking associated with our beloved disorder. As a teenager, I was catfished and the character the catfish created was the first person to show me any form of basic human kindness and decency because my family was abusive and I was bullied in school. Because of my bpd, I've built this character up in my head as the ultimate good and have never been able to fully accept that they were catfishing me. Some part of me always wants to believe that they were too good to do that to me. Now, whenever I start dating someone new I ALWAYS compare them to my catfish, often without even meaning to, and no one ever measures up to the catfish. I've even been accused of using people as a distraction in order to get over this person. 

What should I do?