Ironically, I’m too anxious to go through with appointments. 

I was on path to diagnosis at like 13/14, but pulled away from it and refused to go to the drs, out of… anxiety. lol. 

Nowadays (20), I have a big panic attack, say “no, that’s enough, I’m booking an appointment” and then get far too anxious to go ahead.

It’s a horrible cycle🤣

I think I’m scared of not being anxious “enough”. But that in itself, is a problem. 

Anyone else ran through this loop and advice for getting out of it?