I’m not sure if I’m explaining this very well but I’ll try my best so I’m sorry if this is a big mess of words, also I’m on my mobile so sorry for formatting. 

So today, I woke up and I randomly hate one of my friends, it’s like a game my brain plays “who will I hate today?”! 

The best way I can describe it is I go through phases where I love people really really strongly and I wanna be around them all the time and do things with them and then randomly it changes and I hate the so much and everything they do annoys the heck out of me so bad!! Like they can make me physically sick!

I really struggle with the guilt this causes and I feel suicidal and hate myself for hurting other people, even if I haven’t hurt anyone because they don’t know I’m hating them right now. 

Does anyone else do this? How do you cope with it??