We had such a blast! She was everything I want to see in a woman. Truly a wifey-material. For the first time in my life I felt someone could love me for me.

Okay, back to the earth...

I now crave for her attention. Every minute we are not speaking/texting I think about doing so. I cant focus on anything right now. 

There is no guarantee of second date. And what if there is? Its like going down the rabbit hole. The further we go, the more painful it is for me if this falls apart, and looking at my past, it almost certainly will.

I have preoccupied anxious attachment style. I'm already so afraid.