OVER THE PHONE

I just 

Did he ever really care about me at all??? Ugh it’s so frustrating because we literally never fought, we got along perfectly, we had a blast together, we always worked through our arguments in such a healthy way. But. He said he doesn’t love me and doesn’t feel like how he thinks he should feel at this point in our relationship. Which is fair, okay, thank you for not stringing me along more than you already did. Honestly, he did me a favor because I do love him and I would have waited forever. 

When i told him I love him, he said he wasn’t quite there and I said that’s okay, I wasn’t expecting him to be. We had a whole discussion about where this was going and whether or not this was a serious relationship and if he was truly committed to me and to a future and HE SAID Y E S so I guess he was lying? When I asked about that he said “I just really love hanging out with you and being with you and I really wanted it to work.” 

Eventually I called him back and I said “Look, I realize that this is partially my responsibility because I knowingly date emotionally unavailable men and then wait to get hurt; but you’re not ready for a serious relationship at all. You need to keep working on yourself and you need to be back in therapy. I’m not saying that to be mean, I’m saying that because I care about you and I’m worried about you.” So ya there you go, another relationship down the drain 

Tl;dr: everyone abandons you so what is the point