Everything has been going ok, no emotional outbursts for months or fucking breakdowns  and you know what these last 2 weeks have been literally hell and maybe it's the bpd but I'm pretty sure I'm just surrounded by narcissistic family members and I just want to sleep my life away or literally die. I try explaining it but I can't. ALSO that saying when it rains, it pours is my literal entire life!!! I broke down crying bc my bf isn't DROWNING me in affection, broke down when my grandma was talking about death, today I woke up ready to fight. I just think sometimes it's totally justified that I be angry bc for example I can be talking to people and it pisses me off to no end when they are on their phone and pretending to listen but aren't!! It's so disrespectful. I'm sick of being surrounded by self obsessed people. I just wanna be happy and not feel like I'm being dragged down by life..