I got to college recently and when my parents left, it hit me hard. I feel so abandoned, so alone, and I’m having panic attacks about every couple hours. I can’t stop throwing up because of my panic attacks, and eating makes me throw up too. I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this and everyone keeps telling me I’m gonna be fine and that this is normal. But I actually feel like I’m going to drop dead because I feel so terrible. I can’t keep fighting this fight with bpd. I hate mourning everything like it’s a death, I hate feeling abandoned all the time. It’s getting so exhausting and I don’t know what to do anymore