While I don't have a problem with performing tasks at work and keeping level-headed about my responsibilities in the office/corporate environment, when it comes to interpersonal communication, I feel like I always bring in too many personal qualities.

If I'm making small talk, I'll get really psychological or "meta" about my feelings. I can't seem to hide my uncertainty about life in general, or our duties in society, or the whole struggle to present a proper facade that many of us (and by us I mean human beings, not just borderlines) face. For example, I'll tell a senior management person who inquires about my life that I'm almost done uni, but I'm not really sure if I want to stay in this field or what I want to do with my life. I am 90% insecurity and uncertainty, and I'm just far too honest about it. 

The internet/social media makes this attitude seem like the norm, because all these regular folks and even famous people are always putting their struggles and insecurities out there, but I'm realizing that's not really how communication and bonding works in the real world. And I need to look like I actually know what I'm doing if I want to move forwards professionally. 

I don't think I go over the top because people generally seem to like me when they actually talk to me one on one, but I don't think it earns their respect for me as an ambitious employee worth investing in. Like I know they don't think I am a crazy/emotionally unstable mess, but I need to stop bringing this personal/depressingly philosophical aspect to conversations. I know it is absolutely NOT something I can bring to a real, serious corporate workplace (the company I work for is extremely informal and awkwardly unstructured).

I came into this job over 3 years ago as a shy/inexperienced girlchild, and the company I work for didn't require me to change my ways much. But now I want to be able to blend in properly and successfully for when I move onto my next job.

I hope this post makes sense and if there's anyone else who knows what I'm talking about....