Does this make a horrible person? When I read a post or a comment about someone discussing their SO and it ends with a happily ever after I get so jealous but also feel like I’m going to be sick and immediately close out of the post. 
The thought pattern is this: “Why can’t I have a relationship like that? Am I not worthy enough? Oh yea I’m not. Okay well feel like I want to throw up because love doesn’t exist and it’s just a ploy society made up to make you feel like you’re not good enough on your own.”
That’s basically it. Any one else relate to this? Or am I just an extremely morbid and cynical person, which I probably am.