My relationship just ended. All my fellow bpd sufferers, you will probably understand this. My pain and loneliness is intense as fuck right now. The worst part…we’ve been broken up for about 30 minutes. 30 minutes into being alone and I already can’t handle it. I’m terrified. How am I supposed to cope? The only coping mechanism I had I can’t use anymore…I was a drug user. I just want to scream and throw things and drown in a puddle of my own tears. But I’m sitting on my bed expressionless and I can’t move. It’s like a wave of depression has hit me or something. My head is literally sore right now. I’m in therapy, but have yet to learn DBT skills, so I’m basically unaware of how to cope with this. 

I am a quiet, high functioning borderline. Everything I feel is completely internalised and every thought I have right now is completely negative, and my feelings and emotions are so intense right now. 

If anyone has anything they can suggest, please, I’m begging. I don’t know what else to do.