Whenever an older man or woman shows some level of interest in how I’m doing, I freak out internally and put them on a pedestal and try to do anything I can to get them to like me and approve of me. 
This is a problem for me right now in college, and it has been throughout high school. I don’t know what my passions actually are and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m only choosing my major based on what the adults I’ve unfairly placed in these parental roles do for a living and therefore approve of me for choosing to study that.
Is this a common BPD experience or is that just my own personal trauma issues?