its like the smallest, stupidest shit sends me into a spiral that always ends up in the land of "i want to die". no matter how mundane the trigger may be, as long as i've entered an inch into sadness or depression my mind instantly goes *oh my god i wish i was dead.*

no wonder so many people in my past have called me overdramatic, my god. but its not something i can stop or change, its my immediate emotional response. it just spikes when i'm upset, i hate it. 

ironically, this situation in itself makes me want to die. lol