21 y/o f here. I’m tired of feeling like a failure. Currently I’m taking four classes (one of them is an 8 wk so its super fast paced!) and I’m stupid stressed out about it. I work almost full time although since starting a new job I’ve been getting less hours which is nice but I cant stop feeling bad about that because now I need to rely on my mom for part of my rent. 

I keep feeling guilty over things I shouldn’t relating to school and it’s really embarrassing at this point. All of my classes are online so I think that it might not be helping since it’s hard for me to reach out when I’m just sitting behind a computer. 

There’s this one paper I haven’t submitted for one of my classes and it’s been due for almost two weeks now and I’m embarrassed that I can’t just sit down and finish the last few paragraphs. I feel guilty because I had enough time to do it but with my last job they would guilt me into doing long shifts and close-opens and make me feel bad that I was calling out at least once every other week and prioritizing school even though I previously asked for less hours and they knew all about it. I’ve been really good about getting everything else in on time and even though I’ve missed a few things the lowest grade I have right now out of all of my classes is a B+ but I feel the way I did when I was in elementary school all over again like I’m not a good student, and I could be doing better. I think I feel the most awful because I haven’t reached out to my professor about it and now I feel like it seems like I don’t care even though I really do. 

I just wish I didn’t feel so guilty over this especially since I know I will feel a whole lot better after I finish it I just can’t wrap my head around it for some reason.