32F, receiving treatment for 10 years or so? Therapy, currently taking 300mg Wellbutrin (down from 450 hoping it would reduce acne, brain fog, and hair loss), just added 5mg Trintellix. Looking at potential mood stabilizers but pissed at the trade-off of side effects.

I do not fit in or feel comfortable in this world. There's just so much anger, it's everywhere, every day. It's like that's the only thing anyone can connect over lately. I don't have the emotional resilience to face it and ride that out every single day. I have a limited skillset with a master's degree, drowning in my field, in over my head, barely making ends meet. I don't have any other options for a financially sustainable existence, and I'm going to keep drowning in my work 60 hours per week because I can't mentally keep up in a decent amount of time.

Then there's the years-long battle with acne and hair loss, so much money, so much time, trying so many different things and it's just getting worse. Losing more hair, battling painful cystic acne despite a year with a dermatologist. No one has any answers.  Exhausted. Oh yeah, then there's the dental problems. I consistently take care of my teeth, that and skincare/overall hygiene is my only reliable routine that I've never broken. Yet I've had infections, root canals, crowns, need more crowns, thousands of dollars of work just to avoid more pain. 

I have no idea why my body is failing me. Why I am exhausted and depressed and breaking out and losing my hair and losing my teeth. Why haven't I found the right antidepressant (+zoloft, trazadone, remron, effexor, lamictal, idk what else). I feel like there should be an explanation, but apparently my labs are good and there's no physical abnormalities. No one I've seen could ever help and I don't have the energy or time or resources to keep looking for someone who can. I don't know how to keep doing this.