
Around December of last year I got into an argument with a customer over who was next to be served. I work at a deli and employees nor customers use the number system we have in place. I was in the back wrapping things up with a few minutes left on my shift when a coworker told me to help this lady out while he did what he had to do when I came out there were two ladies. I called for help and was helping out the lady my coworker told me to help. Then the other lady said she was there first I told her I believe the person I’m helping was here first and she told me no that she was there first. The backup I called came however the lady was still going on and on about how she was first and didn’t help her while she was being helped. I didn’t say anything because she was being so hostile. She said about 3 sentences without me saying a response. When the coworker I called was done helping her she said to me “shame on you”. For some reason this triggered me because I I was staying quiet as she went on a rant then, I was the one to call someone from the back to help her I told her “It would be best if you keep on walking” she said “No, I’m not going to keep on walking I’m going to tell the manager on you”. I told her to go on ahead and she said “I will”. She got my name from my name tag and then walked away. The two coworkers I was with laughed at the situation. A few days later my manger pulled me and two other guys aside who had the same name as me because my name is common and there’s three of us with the same name who work in the deli. The manger told us about the review she left behind and in it she fabricated false events such as me shrugging my shoulders at her and not acknowledging her when she first said something. The problem is there’s three of us with the same name so the manger doesn’t know who to blame. The manger said he doesn’t know who it is and doesn’t want to know. Afterwards I told the people with the same name as me that the lady wrote the review about me. I told them should I tell the manger it was me because I have no problem confessing the truth. One of the coworkers with the same name as me told me I should have told the truth then and there but I told him, I’m not going to tell him when there’s other people there, that’s something you tell the manger one on one. He said the manger wasn’t stressing it because he said he doesn’t want to know who it was so you don’t really have to confess. A month later and the review the lady left keep bothering me everyday that it was still up there I felt embarrassment and stupidity. Mangers and coworkers kept bringing it up. Around February I was able to find her Facebook and contacted her about the review. I set everything straight, I apologized to her and I told her my perspective. She was pretty understanding and basically said let bygones be bygones. I felt better and continued about my life. Until one of my coworkers found the review still on the website. I was put back into this horrible mood and tried everything to get the review down I tried creating multiple fake accounts to flag the review I tried talking to hackers but never going through with. I couldn’t focus I felt lifeless with no energy. Every time I hear the word “shame” which she told be my stomach turns I felt like hiding in a shell like a turtle, wince in embarrassment. However, things got worse around July a former employee at the deli found the review and sent it the other coworker who had the same name as me laughing at him. He was the same one who told me I don’t have tell the manger. He went told the manger any way and started acting like I was hiding and wanted him to take the blame when I told him I was going to tell the manger but he told me I didn’t have to. To this day the review is still up. I thought I left it in the past but it seems that my past still haunts me. I find it hard to sleep at night given that I can never leave my past behind I tell myself it’s behind me however every other month I seem to be reminded of it and feel like a fool. I feel embarrassment for a  maltatiude of reason, one it’s on the internet for everyone to see, two when customers come in the store they see that review and say to themselves “that’s the guy from the review right their”. Three I thought the lady who wrote the review let the past go however the memory looms. I’m writing this because I’m in a bad place right now. It’s hard for me to eat it’s hard for me to do my homework assignments, it’s hard to sleep, it’s hard for me to go to the gym, it’s hard to do the simplest of task knowing my past still haunts me and that I’m still going to hear the review over and over and stay in this deep dark place I’m in. 

If you made it this far thanks for reading