I don't want to be a part of this earth anymore. I am 30 years old. I wanted nothing more but to fall in love / and have a family. Due to my mental health, my previous relationships have failed. Six months ago I was going to engage to the love of my life. Now I find myself isolated with two friends who are always working/have kids. I failed at life. I am destined to live my next 30 years alone on this earth. What is the point in living when you have no one to experience and share life with? I feel so alone. I work and then come home to my empty apartment day after day. I feel trapped. I downloaded dating apps for the hell of it, and they are filled with people trying to scam me. I feel like I am cursed to repeat cycles of pain. I am not sure how much more I can take. Please help me. I pray every night.