I feel trapped and stuck. Therapy hasn’t helped in the year plus. I feel like I need to go to a shitty punk show and get far away from here or it’ll be time for the sewerslide. 

My brain is so loud and I’m so stuck and haven’t had a working car since December and I’m fuckin losing it no matter how hard I try to do better and be better. I’m so lonely and so fucking empty. I feel like I’m going to relapse.