I've been sleeping on the floor every now and then since I was like 12. I never thought of it as something that was linked to any feelings or symptoms til I started digging into my BPD reactions after my diagnosis (1 1/2 years ago). Whenever I feel stressed and like nothing is right, I sleep on the ground. Today I got the urge to in the first time in a while and I realized that I want to sleep on the floor when I'm overwhelmed by emotions and want to ground myself in the most literal way. 

In middle school I slept on the ground all the time, like more than my actual bed. In high school I got out of the habit, but I now give in to doing it every now and then (I'm 24). It's not like I'm making it so I have no comfort- I take all my pillows and blankets with me and get as comfy and curled up as possible. One of my roommates says that he does the same thing. 

Does anyone else do this for comfort? 

I've thought that maybe it's cause I used to camp a lot or maybe cause some of my trauma has happened in beds, but it happens more when I have just overwhelming emotion than when I'm having panic about trauma. 



Sidenote: It was something I was scared about telling my ex, but my partner just walked into my room to see me on the ground and I was like "hey, I may sleep on the floor tonight" and he just looked at me weird and shrugged and said "okay." I tried to explain why and he just said "hey you don't need to justify yourself to me" and I'm glad I can actually say embarrassing things to the person I'm dating without freaking out (granted my ex was an asshole that judged me on everything and I was never enough for him). 


Sorry if this is written weirdly or anything, my mind is jumbled cause I've been overwhelmed all day.