I didn't know I had bpd until recently, and even though it made a lot of things make a lot of sense, it has been a devastating revelation. I keep seeing things about how someone with bpd does not have the capability to see love the way people without it do, we're delusional, our brains lie and show us only obsession and possession. Therefore their (my) perception of love is damned to be a toxic perversion of the real thing. I don't want to live a life where I will destroy myself and others every time I feel what I perceive as love. If my perception of love will always be wrong, why can't I seem to stay away from relationships. Why don't people stay the fuck away from me. I don't want to destroy everything forever