I 22 (F) was basically dumped over and over again by 22 (M) when it was long overdue. It’s one of those situations where love just wasn’t enough; things weren’t fixing and it started making us both depressed. I never wanted to face it, although it was right in front of my face, because I genuinely don’t love myself. I projected that a lot in our relationship. But now I’m sitting here stuck on where to start? I went to the gym with a girlfriend yesterday and cooked a healthy &amp; fresh meal, and shared laughter and good times. But when I’m alone I just don’t know what to do and then I get the urge to reach out. I blocked him and went NC because it was hard to take space and respect his boundaries and I felt hurt when realizing I was still the only one prioritizing the relationship while feeling like sht that he’s just taking his space living his life. I always felt like he just didn’t like me  anymore. So now I don’t know what to do with myself. I tried to cook breakfast and drink a juice I made yesterday which was nice. But I’m still just stuck. All I can think about is him. It seems like my old hobbies like painting, playing guitar, doing other forms of art—sht i didn’t do anymore bc I got too comfy in the relationship—just don’t sound as appealing anymore. I don’t have many friends bc my only friend works like 3 jobs. I am trying to get a remote job so I can travel more which is something I’ve been wanting to do and I just quit my other job. I really feel so paralyzed by my thoughts that all I can do is lay in bed