I was trying to convince myself to believe in them. Even if they were hurting me. They never acknowledged our relationship. I still wonder if it was because I'm trans or because they were afraid to come out as bisexual. 

Maybe i was emotionally hurting myself, that 
was what it felt like, relationships that lasted from one week to month and a half. 

They rarely answered back quickly, it felt like I was a burden, i still tried to give them space, but they didn't answered back, and I'd get paranoid, but I still tried to believe in their empty words. 

When I asked them what were we, they started behaving even more indifferent. I wonder, did they tried to use my body by seducing me? Turns out they dumped me just to date their ex. 

I felt like I was dying, i scratched and cut off my skin, i cried for two hours. They wrote an "apology" but all they did, was victimize themselves. That was like months ago.