Lately I have been feeling really off. I have been like this for years, being the worry wart and constantly worrying about stupid things. I constantly stress and worry about a lot of things. At times I lose interest of the things that I used to love doing. I get really bad anxiety attacks, its worse when I am in a class during Zoom meetings and I have to speak to the whole class. I don’t know what to do and I am so lost with what I feel. I feel really tired for no apparent reason and after small emotional breakdowns and anxiety encounters later, I feel like I am so drained. Like I don’t even want to move, but my mind is still going and running like an endless cycle of thoughts and worries. I really don’t know what to do. And yes, since the pandemic started (2020) haven’t been sleeping well. I haven’t fixed my routine, I don’t do exercise because I literally hate doing exercise. I hate the feeling of it and I don’t like tiring myself too much or else I’d get tired even more the whole day or tomorrow. I am on a diet, I am fasting but I still eat what I want during the hours I can eat. I still incorporate healthy foods in my diet but I know its not enough. Really, you can smell my train of thought from this post and how bad my thoughts can go. Hope someone helps. Thank you. 😢

P.S. I am on the verge of having a breakdown and I am trying so hard not to cry and stare at the wall while stressing about other things in my life. 😭