My anxiety is so out of control that I’m unable to do things that cause me anxiety on time regardless of the consequences. The two main examples I can think of are submitting work assignments by their due date and paying bills on time. Today I lost my contract with one of the companies I write freelance for. They said it was a shame because I receive very high scores in terms of the writing quality but I literally always turn in things a day late. For no good reason. It’s literally just because I have so much anxiety that I just can’t get things done in a timely manner. I’ll also pay bills late even though I have the money. It makes no sense and ultimately, these things obviously increase my anxiety tenfold. I feel somewhat relieved about losing this specific contract because it means I don’t have to deal with the anxiety of managing those assignments but it also means less money overall. 

Does anyone else have a similar issue? I’m switching medication at the end of the month and I’ll speak with my therapist about it but I just feel like my anxiety is totally messing up my life.