I guess it might be a more apparent problem if you like me are attracted to the same sex: If I see someone who's very attractive outside or on an app I can't approach them and I am not talking about anxiety. Sometimes I do it and it quickly sends me spiraling down into "you will never be like him", "you're ugly", bonus points if he has a happy life instagram then I will go to like "you're the worst that could happen to him look how much fun he has without you, you will never have the energy to do even half of that even if you have your good days" etc etc.

Versus if I try to approach someone who is less attractive I'm far more chill. I guess I'd give it my all if I found someone to make it work even if he's not a 10/10 to me and it might not be a problem in reality after all because once I'm attached I blur out everyone else lol. But still a part of me wants to be with someone super hot/cute and I guess it might prevent getting disinterested which has happened already a few times. But I guess it's a bad idea if I can't even speak and want to die when I feel even slightly rejected?