I wish I had someone to talk to, I wish I was healthy, I wish I was Happy. I wish people would accept the love I have to give. 
I hate not enjoying life &amp; after 2 years straight of being in pain physically I just wish I had someone to hangout with &amp; talk to. I have been sad mentally for longer than 2 years &amp; the pain only adds on to the way I feel. 
I wish lot of things but really I just want the pain to go away. Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional but it feels like my only option is the way of suffering. Recently Im at a point where I don’t know which way to go. Im 19 &amp; All I really know is sadness &amp; pain. I don’t have anyone that is really there for me. Friends, Family, a partner, none of that. I wonder if anything good for me will ever happen. I feel unwelcome &amp; a burden most places I go, I feel like I don’t deserve good things anymore because of how long its been since Ive felt happiness. I know how happiness impacts your life &amp; it makes me sad to know that I haven’t been happy for longer then I can remember.
Thats all, I just needed to vent. 💜