it sucks because my main priority in life is succeeding for not only myself but for my family. my asian parents expect me to succeed and to have an amazing future, but the pressure is getting worse as my depression makes it so hard to do anything. i seriously can’t do anything without my brain constantly spewing out negative things. i feel like i’m on the road to failure. i don’t want to let myself or my family down by being mediocre or failing, but i think i already am. i’m struggling in some classes and i really have been trying, but as the days go on, my motivation has been plummeting. i’ve wasted so much time just sleeping avoiding life when i could be doing some extra studying. it’s eating me alive. everything i do other than academic work makes me feel guilty. everything i do that is academic related makes me feel like a failure. nothing has been getting better no matter the effort i’ve put in. i want to disappear so bad but my family is always in my mind. i couldn’t do that to them. i’m stuck miserable.