Over time, I’ve forgotten most of my life. Some days I wake up and panic because I don’t recognize where I’m at. Sometimes I’m quick to come to the realization, other times not really. My mental storage is empty. It makes me feel like shit that I don’t remember anything. No important moments. No small moments. Nothing. I can’t look back on my life to say “I did those things” because I don’t recall if I ever did. I can’t reminisce on moments I may have had and share joy with others about it. I can just nod, agree, and move on. I can’t retain anything and it scares me.