my anxiety began to develop around 2020 and the longer it lasts, the more it gets worse (as expected). so this s.y. i already struggled with our first semester, and now that the second one is almost coming to and end, my anxiety is extreme.

i've been feeling very unmotivated (most of the time). and sometimes when i do my tasks, my anxiety symptoms suddenly kick in. **that's why i end up on my bed sometimes, trying my best to calm myself done with still no tasks completed.**

it is really, really tough. **anxiety make me refuse or hesitate to approach people in our online class. it also makes me hesitate to participate or recite. and when i could finally speak during our discussions, i sometimes stutter.**

idk but i think the only things that i've done in our online class this year are mostly embarrassing. **i've embarrassed myself so many times and teachers make me feel intimidated because of their comments about me while THE WHOLE CLASS is listening.** who wouldn't feel super anxious when you're in that situation, right?

i'm not satisfied with the things i've done for this school year. i feel like i'm gonna end up restarting in the same grade level. (thinking about this one made me more anxious. i feel like a disappoinment in our family this year.)