Here's the thing; We have dichotomic thinking, everything is one or the other, black or white, good or bad. So if you aren't showing happy emotions, we immediatley assume something's wrong, and usually that imaginary something is our fault. The smallest sigh, hunched shoulders, silence, even the slightest frown is a big red flag of panic. So interacting with my FP when they’re angry or just simply not mentally there is really hard for me. I used to be a lot better at it, talking them down from those places but recently its just caused me a lot of anxiety because i cant help but feel like its all directed at me and that everything’s crumbling because of it. i feel like distancing myself during these times also only makes things worse but i don’t know how to handle it when none of the options seem like good ones. I don’t want to bring up my BPD once again and make it seem like im using it as an excuse but recently things have been worsening for my mental health and i genuinely have no idea how to handle misdirected emotions. Im scared that im driving them away because of this and i cant afford to lose them. They’re all i have. 