So recently I’ve been reading about BPD and i really connect and relate with the symptoms of it on a high level. So I spoke to my therapist about it and I gave him some examples of my behavior that are symptoms. he said what separates me from people who are borderline is that I’m self aware that the behaviors I do are negative. For me I can be self aware of what I’m doing in the moment but just keep going cause I just don’t care in the moment, or I want to prove to the person that I’m upset so they will realize I’m upset and so I can get their attention, or I’m just so angry in the moment I don’t care and just keep going.