Just going to breeze over my whole sob story (for once), people were mean to me all of my life and my parents were manipulative and on rare occassion violent.

I met a woman who actually cared about me for no other reason than me, which completely threw off my whole world view that no one actually cared. We also started dating when I wasn't actively seeking out a partner, throwing off several other world views.

It was great. It was amazing. But, slowly, I started recognizing that she just wasn't willing to put in the effort to make it a meaningful relationship. And that we have compatibility issues.

Her disinterest in working on the relationship lead me to see that the one person who cared about me without ulterior motive wasn't moved enough to put in more than the bare minimum to that feeling. So, I can be cared about, just the bare minimum.

I guess what I'm wondering is, how can I move forward without going back to shuttering myself in my apartment and not wanting to interact with other human beings (where I was before her)?

Franky, people have almost entirely treated me pretty poorly in the past, and now the one person who hasn't is pretty apathetic about treating me well.

How do I move forward without assuming every person I cross paths with will, at best, treat me with indifference? How do I form relationships off that basis?