Hey. After two years off of probation, I got into an altercation last night and almost went to jail. I punched my grandma's boyfriend four times in the face. Shameful, perhaps, but I've tried being kind to him for quite a few months. He's always cold and rude to me it seems, but everyone else says it's just my perception. It's been this way my whole life; everything is always my fault. Can it really be true that I just imagine things? That I see anger and resentment that isn't actually there? How do I stop my warped thinking? I can't lose control again and go back to jail (already spent a year and a half of my life on the inside, and I'm only 22). Do you guys have any tips for fixing this?

I used to be so much better at being nonjudgmental...