I screwed up everything, my education, job, interests, friends, love... I've disappointed everyone, I can only dissapoint people even when I try my best not to. I haven't achieved anything, nothing I'm proud of. I'm unrecoverable. I'm crazy. There's just no way out, I don't know why I bother. I wish my life could be more, I really wish it was different, if I didn't I wouldn't feel so much pain. I don't want to live. I'm past trying and I'm past letting go. I just need to find the guts. Truly, absolutely nothing holds me here. No person, no idea, nothing is worth going through this.