I’m in high school and I’m just coming to terms that I’m transgender, I haven’t come out to anyone because if I did I’d definitely be bullied, and I already struggle with social status as I tend to distance myself due to anxiety and BPD. I’m thinking of switching to online school so 1) I can transition and not worry about judgement from my peers and 2) so I can focus on myself and not just try to appeal to everyone else all day, every day. At school I literally just do things to make other people like me because I have zero sense of identity and I don’t know what else to do to get approval, and I believe transitioning would help me finally give myself the approval I’ve been craving but I don’t know where to start and I’d be stigmatized for being trans and also for switching out, since it’s a nicer school in my area and I’d be seen as stupid for missing out on the educational opportunities offered there. I’m already flunking though, I’m too unmotivated to do anything because I spend all my energy trying to make myself what other people want instead of what I want. I can’t make myself interested in anything anymore. I really need to do something but I don’t know what, I’m so scared for my future and I have no clear plan of what to do.