I have acne scars on my face and I get anxiety pangs when someone refers to them. Sometimes when friends mention those in jokes, it hurts real bad inside. I am left in despair, no amount of money can fix them, once these scars are in my mind its hard to even look people in the eye. I keep thinking I am some low life who can never be an equal. I wish I could be tough and have a no caring attitude but I just cant. At times I wish for a silent death, why cant I fix it? How do I become tough when I have such a visible flaw? I am sorry for this rant, I guess I just let it flow today.