Sorry if this is inappropriate.
Since the elementary shooting (and all the mass shootings recently), I've been apprehensive to go places. When I have to I'm always planning what to do if someone has a weapon. Lately my paranoia is going too far. I've been having hallucinations of my children bloodied outside the school while I'm waiting to pick them up. I've almost missed pickup because I get tearful in the car thinking of the kids in school. My daughter wanted to go to the mall and I said no because I'm afraid of what could happen. I know this is not normal and I need to talk to my doc, but right now it's Sunday night and I feel alone and scared. Just reaching out. Anyone else feel this way? Looking to connect so I don't feel so alone.
I'm currently on Vraylar, lamictal, and Ativan and take my meds religiously.