Hello!
I have dealt with anxiety/depression/ocd as long as I can remember. Tried quite a few different ssris and other anxiety type medications all resulting in some pretty bad reactions. Panic attacks to be the biggest one that stuck out to my psychiatrist. She explained that I have the very mild form that is usually hard to even notice, with less extreme manic episodes. 
I have never even considered bipolar to be something I could have so getting diagnosed kind of freaked me out immediately upon hearing her say it. Then we began to talk about medications and hearing “antipsychotic” just broke me to pieces. This diagnosis has me heartbroken and thinking about all my relationships in the past and who I might’ve hurt without trying and people thinking I’m just crazy because of the diagnoses. I keep seeing so many things about how hard relationships are with people with bipolar disorder and I feel so sad and worried about my relationship with my husband and daughter😞 
I guess just wanted to see if anyone had some insight or positive feedback about relationships with bipolar disorder and helpful positivity going forward about the diagnosis in general.