I feel like I’m on a constant decline. I hate my life so much and am so tense. I’m desperate to do yoga, meditation, drugs or anything to calm me down and nothing works. I feel such tension in my body, I just want to crawl out of my skin.

I look at my parents and grandparents and see them being the same way, and have no idea how I can possibly expect to overcome my genetic programming.

My lack of sleep is compounding every issue exponentially… none of my sleep medications are working anymore due to years of abuse.

I feel an inevitability of being homeless soon. I can’t hold a job, I can’t function.