Often when I try to sleep there are very short thoughts (most of the time it’s only a single word) that don’t make any sense and keep repeating. For example “help, help, stop, help, stop, help”. It’s very irritating and I can’t sleep because of it. I tried meditation (which works fine when I’m normal) but I can’t focus on anything other than those words in my head. Sometimes there are also multiple words at once (like I would receive many radio channels at the same time). I don’t think it’s hallucination, because I know they are thoughts and not really outside me and I don’t think it’s depressive rumination (although I’m diagnosed with recurrent depressive disorder and bpd), because those thoughts aren’t specific or bad. They’re just annoying and stealing my sleep. Any idea what it could be or what to do about it?
Thanks in advance.