obviously people with mental illnesses can be loved and be in relationships wether they are family, friends or romantic, but when your mental illnesses consume you to the point they are the only thing you have, when do you draw the line on forming  new relationships? how is it fair for me to drag someone into my life when they would inevitably be involved with my issues? before these past few months they were able to be hid, i could form bonds without the other person even knowing i had any meaningful issues, but now my life has absolutely went to hell and you can tell just by looking at me i’ve been felt a shitty hormonal hand. i push people away despite how much they like me, i reject people and refuse to let them into my life because i feel so miserably guilty for involving them in my issues. is it self sabotage doing this to me? forcing myself to rot away alone for as long as this downhill slope continues? or is it just basic human decency to not want to fuck over other people just because you’re fucked over?