Tomorrow I’m moving out of the (toxic) apartment I’ve been living in with my now ex-boyfriend. We’ve been together for 3 years and have been living together for 4 months. I should mention both of us are opiate addicts, fentanyl to be exact.

I decided it’s best for us to break up if I’m going to recover from this hell of a drug. We tried to quit together but to be honest we really made no attempt, we just kept picking up drugs almost every day to numb the fact that we are both in our mid twenties and are going no where in life, especially me. The relationship has also not been the healthiest. We have been constantly fighting and almost every day he blames me for his accountabilities and mistakes, he physically attacked me once a few weeks ago when I did nothing wrong. We’re just at the end of our rope.

I’m moving about an hour away with a close friend who is very understanding and not judgemental, he also knows that it can take me a few weeks to get back to normal if I plan on staying clean, which I do. It’s just so difficult knowing I won’t have access to drugs anymore and I’m really going to miss my ex boyfriend, even with everything we have been through, he’s been my longest relationship.

I’ve been using opiates for about 2 years and I really want to get off of them because they’re ruining my body, my mind and my relationships with my friends and family. 

If anyone sees this and took the time to read it, thank you and any advice on hoe to cope or if anyone has a similar story, please send me a message or drop a comment. 

Stay safe, everyone.