To be honest, all of my life, I have never really been someone who outright struggled with any anxiety. If I got anxious about something it was usually do to something super specific, that had a very practical solution and it was temporary.

More recently I had a LOT happen. And kind of a HUGE self realization and it came out in a catastrophic way. Long story short, I spent my life curating an image, and it finally broke.

So for the past few months. LITERALLY every day, I can’t get myself to focus on anything. Lost 20lbs cause I have 0 appetite. I feel shaky and like there’s a knife in my chest constantly. Ill ask the same questions 100 times and pick apart every single word in the answer. Be worried about how someone is thinking or feeling. I spiral and make poor decisions thinking I’m helping, and…yeah. Just not pretty. I’ve started therapy and plan to talk to my doctor about meds.

But I just wanna know. I’ve got a lot going on, and I feel so strangely isolated, even though I have support and community. I just genuinely feel psychotic. Is this what this feels like? What do you do to cope if you can relate?