I was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type, but have been on the psychosis journey since October. 

My first manic/psychotic episode completely ruined my life - I became aggressive and went on a Twitter tirade (which included some deluded threats), I got fired from my job because I thought everyone were narcissists trying to profit off of me, and I lost the majority of my friends due to my behavior. I am completely suicidal everyday, and started a new job but am struggling making it through. 

Does anyone have advice in getting over the guilt and embarrassment that comes with this illness? Even with the friends I still have, I feel like I’m losing them because of my symptoms.