I’ve been depressed for one year now and I’ve been taking medications, but i’ve become an addict three months ago so my psychiatrist told me I should consider spending a full month at the hospital. 

I’m afraid of how people treat you there. I don’t want to undergo the cruelty of the “caretakers”. I think it must be good for me because I’m totally falling down and nobody has noticed or they’ve been ignoring my mental state. 

I feel betrayed by those I though were my friends. I’ve always been there to listen to them when they were feeling bad, I’ve always had the courage to talk to them about the painful stuffs of their lives. But when I mess up with my life in front of them, no one reacts. I told 3 of them I needed help, they all said everyone around me had noticed that I was on coke and totally drunk every night and that I’ve started to have a “borderline behavior” with people. The worst is that they think it makes me funnier than ever. They love my party mischiefs while I’m just an addict. 

I’m thus seriously thinking about going to the hospital in order to break my life routine. I don’t know how to tell it to my mother and to the “friends” whit whom I’m supposed to rent a house in January. 
Please share your experiences at the hospital ! I need clear advices