I'm 35 years old and been dealing with depression for the better part of 20 years. I didn't actually get diagnosed until I was 23.  I've gone to therapy for 10+ years and tried a myriad of medication. I'm at my whits end. I have a son who is not 2 years old and is the only reason I'm still alive. I just can't bring myself to leave him with no father. I grew up with both my parents but they were both emotionally unavailable. I can't do the same to my son. I don't know how to go on but I know I need to be here for him. I'm struggling so hard right now but I know I need to keep trying for him. Any advice is welcome.