So I’m currently extremely depressed, I can’t go to school and I don’t know if I will graduate. My depression has been getting worse and worse progressively, I have been on 5 different medications but I can’t manage to feel better. 

In different occasions my mother has blamed me for this, because she says I’m “walking away from God”. She says that all of those who are suffering it’s because they have turned their back to God. She isn’t even a practicing catholic, she doesn’t go to church, she only prays when she needs it. 

I’m agnostic, even though I was baptized and was forced to make my first communion. I feel like it’s absurd to relate mental illness, scientifically proved and researched etc. etc. with religion, but I wanted to ask you all, what are your thoughts on spirituality and religion in relation to depression? 
Does believing in God has helped you in any way? Or if you don’t believe in God, does spirituality makes part of your life? 

Oh and my mother forced me to join a catholic support group to make me socialize. My parents believe that even though I’m not a devout Catholic it could be useful to surround myself with people with different perspectives of the world or something. 

Help I don’t want to pray the rosary ;_;