I have an awards ceremony I'm attending in person tomorrow and I'm so unbelievably anxious I can't sleep. I'm worried about meeting people I haven't met, worry that I'll have a panic attack and make a fool of myself, worried that I'll choke or have an allergic reaction to the food, worried about getting COVID, worried that everyone will see the weight I've gained and think I'm gross, worried that I'll look a ugly stupid mess in my dress tomorrow.

I thought writing it down would help but it hasn't. I have a tendency to avoid anxious situations so I know I have to do this to get over it, and I know I will be fine, I know the feeling will pass, it still doesn't stop the anxiety!