the person i’m with when i’m with my FP feels like a completely different one than who i am when i’m alone or with other people. i feel like i just mirror other people and try to come off as cool and funny to get them to respect me. with my FP i feel like i’m my best version of myself. i am never as happy as i am when i am with them. but at the same time, it feels like an act i almost have to keep up the energy to keep going? i don’t know how to explain it. i am a blank canvas of a person. it is tiring. i want to be around my FP all the time but i am worried that they will see i’m different eventually. is this normal for you guys?