Last Friday, September 23rd, my mom texted me not making sense. I was working so I stepped out and called her. She was saying she had a headache and her face was tingling, she was very confused, she was asking me where I was like 5 times. My heart sunk. I know my mom and I knew something was wrong. I left work and called 911 immediately. I am so glad I trusted my gut. Because we learned once she got to the hospital through CT scan and MRI that she had a brain tumor in her left frontal lobe, about the size of a tennis ball. 

This happened 8 days ago. Her surgery was on Tuesday. And she came home yesterday. The Neurosurgeon is a hero and was able to get the entire tumor out. There is no evidence that shows any neurological deficits. And the biopsy came back as the tumor being benign 👏🏻. This is honestly best case scenario from a really horrible situation, that could have been much worse. I am so grateful that my mom is okay. 

I just need to vent because I am so overwhelmed, and I’m tired. I’m not mad at anyone. But I’m staying with my mom for a little while because she just got home and can’t be alone. However, she’s on many different medications and it is affecting her mood. She is very antsy and keeps trying to do a bunch of things when she should be resting. A nurse is coming this evening to check on her, phew! But I am so emotional. I am exhausted. I feel like my mom won’t listen to me and is being very stubborn. She keeps apologizing saying that she’s a burden, but she’s not. I really want to help her. I also can’t help but be frustrated that my brother is only a 90 minute drive away at college and isn’t coming home this weekend. Last night he went out to a party. I’m in college too. It may be online, but I am a week behind in my classes because I have been doing everything. I’m supposed to graduate in May and I’m afraid I won’t. My teachers know what’s going on and are understanding, but I don’t want to feel like I’m behind in everything for the whole semester. 

If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I am trying really hard to hold it together for my mom.