DAE feel like working full time is killing them?

I’ve been full time for years now and it’s getting increasingly harder for me to be a productive worker. It’s gotten to the point where I do 10 minutes of work then play on my phone for 30 minutes as a treat. Hardly productive. Then at the end of the day I finally get a surge of “I better get some work done before it’s time to leave” and cram a good chunk of work into the last 1 hour where I’m super productive to keep my job.

I know I need to work to pay for the roof over my head. I’d honestly be ok with working part time. That would give me ample “recovery” time for myself. But I can’t afford to only be part time. 

I honestly wish part time work was just enough to get you the basics in life (food, shelter, clothing) and then full time work would be for the more ambitious. 

I can’t stand this rat race. I spend so much time at a job just to pay for the basics for myself. I struggle so badly to pay attention and my brain feels like it’s in a fog the 8 hours I’m at work. I come home and only have 3 hours to myself before it’s time for bed to do it all over again the next day. 

Feeling chained to that desk. 3 hours of “free time” at home where chores need to get done like taking out the garbage, laundry why is there always so much laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning. I’m chained to that desk when I have so many other things I need to be doing for my survival and mental well being. 

I need to be able to go for walks in the sunshine on the rare moments notice where I have the energy, lay on the couch and sleep when I’m really low, read some books. Do my gentle self care to soothe this dark cloud always following me. I need to be able to tell myself ‘it’s ok only a few hours today’ instead of 8 hours at a clip which seems unbearable sometimes.

Can anyone else relate?