I discovered a new trigger today. I took a break at work and went outside for a walk since it's absolutely beautiful outside, and fresh air and a brief walk always helps keep my mind focused.  I work in a primarily industrial/warehouse area but there's a lot of trees and even a little creek to enjoy.  While I was taking my walk, like I've done a thousand times, there was a loud bang very close by and it sounded to me like a gunshot.  Normally loud noises don't bother me one bit and I'm quick to distinguish what it was, but this one triggered something deep inside me.  I completely froze, absolutely terrified, and then had a total emotional breakdown.  I started crying almost immediately and started checking myself for blood (sounds silly, right).  I ran inside and I've been hiding in my office with the door shut since.  Luckily, I have my medication with me and that has helped bring me down a little, but it makes me feel so stupid sometimes.  I know I have issues, but most of the people I work with don't have a clue.  I tend to manage it (or hide it) very well.  In my logical mind, I'm certain it was something silly like some machinery backfiring or something like that, it is an industrial complex and loud noises aren't uncommon at all.  I just don't know what happened to me, this one was a first.

I'm not looking for any advice or anything, but it feels a little better to just get it off my chest.  Stay strong my friends.  At 41 years old, I'm still learning about these diseases and how they can affect me.

Context:  Diagnosed and being treated for MDD, GAD, and Panic Disorder.