It comes to the point I try to avoid social media at all. Everyone's achievements and happiness is always forced upon us. Everyone's perfect body and life are forced on us, in all fucking platform, either through advertising or suggestion. 

I literally don't talk to my friends because they all have relationships and a job. I have zero interest in knowing how their lives are going... I feel like I'm losing all my connections and tbh I'm kinda okay with that. I felt like I always tried to reach people but when I'm the one in the darkness, nobody reaches for me. 

Now I'm here, literally having no money and probably gonna work in a part time job that I hate winning the minimum wage. Plus, gonna have to deal with people... 

Depression made me not care for my degree at all anymore, if I felt like I had a life in Science 5 years ago, now I'm sure I will never get to that level. It's just too stressful...