I'm in a mixed state right now.  I started taking latuda the other day and it definitely helps me sleep.  I don't know if it's doing much else.  I've been doing a 4th step inventory for AA, and it's basically about everyone that I felt had done me dirty in my life.  Anyway after doing this list of people, and what I did wrong in the situations my mind has been fleeting between depressed af, don't give af, skip work and party, fuck everything.  I don't even know if I'm sad.  I can't explain my mood.  It's like I'm tired of feeling bad, so I won't, but I can't feel good either.