What do I do when everyone’s advice is just to move on and I literally CANNOT DO THAT? I spent 6 years with this woman. My longest relationship and my first true love. All of my biggest moves and accomplishments in life have either been with her or for her. Everything that made my life worth living was moments I shared with her. My happiness was her. My joy was her. My life was her. It still is. I was so lonely and depressed and she rescued me from the darkness for 6 years before she simply dropped me back in. I hold up barriers and shut people out but when I let someone in they never leave. She’s woven roots of herself so deeply and so far across the fabric of my life, my memories, my experiences, my universe, my heart, my very soul that with her gone it’s like a piece of myself has been ripped out leaving a gaping hole that nothing in this universe could ever fill. I want to kill myself and the only thing stopping me is the little breadcrumbs of hope she drops me. I don’t want this hurt anymore. I don’t want this life anymore and I don’t know how much longer I can take it before clinging to tiny glimmers of hope just isn’t enough.