What did I (16M) do to deserve depression? People my age are having the time of their lives. I can't enjoy anything. Every friend I make, I end up burdening them by venting my frustrations too much. I don't remember the last time I slept peacefully, I either can't sleep or get scary nightmares.

Please God, please let me be normal again. Please. Please. Please. I can't take this anymore. I can't afford therapy. I can't afford wasting time. I can't self-harm. I can't even kill myself. Please help me.