DAE fall into the category of not doing very well but not absolutely awful either? I'm literally on the border constantly, i do have to say it's a different story when I'm seeing someone romantically, i have no relationship or friends because those things caused me a lot of damage up until two years ago &amp; i just couldn't handle having either. 

I've never been into self harming apart from hitting myself and hair pulling.. I've never been one for drugs but have smoked marijuana every day for the last 7 years, it makes things softer. 
All my relationships have failed miserably. 
My family life is beyond fucked.

So many of you have a harder time than me, why do i feel guilty all the time for thinking about dying? Sorry I'm just in the mood to rant, i rarely talk about how i feel and I'm certainly not going to tell someone i know about this.