I had a final exam today online and after the first question, it kicked me out. I was already anxious about the final because I agreed to not have my accommodations time in exchange for an increase in grade so that my professor didn't have to create two exams. Turns out, I NEEDED my extra time. Because once it kicked me out, my anxiety spiralled, my memory wiped, my brain scattered... and I had no time to settle. The professor said to continue with the rest of the sections for the exam. So I tried to push through and it was awful. I was so anxious, I could barely read the questions right. I didn't have enough time to go through my notes and I didn't have the brain power to perform because of how anxious I got when it first kicked me out. The panic I felt. My professor expected all students to skip that part of the exam and continue like nothing happened. How the fuck am I supposed to do that when by borderline makes me feel my anxiety and emotions so intense I am literally in so much distress I felt like I was going to throw up and die. This is so fucking unfair. I HATE MYSELF AND THIS  FUCKING DISORDER UGHHHHHHH |