I don’t know if this makes me sound selfish, or narcissistic or what have you have I am literally so fucking done wasting my life feeling bad about confrontations with people. I learn, I apologize and I fucking move on with my life. 

I am done wasting my whole night feeling sorry for myself because I made my boyfriend upset or someone else etc. NO ONE, and I mean NO ONE, goes home and ruminates about possibly having hurt my feelings. My bpd ass loves to literally think I’m the spawn of Satan and punish myself over everything. No. I am done. I deserve to be happy. Learn and let live. Boyfriend was mad at me today because I said something in a weird tone of voice and I’m literally done ruminating about it and just bought my favorite beer and chips and am going to watch a movie. Fuck people pleasing. I can be nice but also no when to say this literally doesn’t deserve all my thought and energy and move on.