Getting back to in person work, I'm terrified of having to drive to work more often. Before the pandemic I used to know how to handle heavy traffic. I learned my route well and was able to handle high stress situations ok. (ex: if I had to get into a highway lane that was completely backed up, I always managed to work it) 

Now... I haven't driven in traffic in a year. I live in a new area and don't know my route. Traffic here is much more dense and scary than my old place. It's like learning how to drive again. 

I'm terrified of 2 things

1. Getting into a car accident, it's one of my worst fears
2. Missing my exits or turns because I couldn't be assertive and just force myself into a lane

Plus I'm super upset that now I'm driving around 3 to 3.5 hours a day. 

My initial plan was to just go early and leave late to avoid traffic. Unfortunately where I live morning traffic begins around 7 am. And evening traffic begins around 2:30 and ends after 7:30. So I'd have to be out of my house before 7am and leave work after 7pm... And then I have to figure out what to do with the the extra hours before and after work...

Regardless of how I get around it, my anxiety is really hitting me hard for this. Today I was crying in bed. Just because I have to go back to in person work... I fucking hate feeling like this