This isn't the life that I wanted, and I have made every choice up to now I thought would make our life better. Growing up I always imagined what kind of life I would have. Travel, education, happy marriage, kids.

Now, at 29, I'm a single mom, I live with my disabled dad, I have had two failed long term relationships with men I don't truly think ever valued me (though the second one had me convinced for a while). I went to school a few years ago, only to learn I could have made more money as manager at McDonalds (as I was at the time in was in school). I can't afford to travel, the dating scene is a dumpster fire, my childs father won't let me get their ADD treated, insults me every chance he gets, and doesn't think he should be financially responsible for our child (not that it matters because he can't keep a job). My dads home needs tens of thousands of dollars in repairs in a neighborhood it isn't worth it in, and homes cost $10,000 more every time I look them up. My car just broke down. And I can't save any money. I cry all of the time, and don't find joy in things, or feel hope anymore. I feel like a horrible mother because I'm failing my child, and I can't keep up with things anymore. This isn't the life that I wanted, and I am so far behind, and overwhelmed idk how to fix it anymore.