Let me start with an apology if I am not formal or I might be a bit careless with my words. 

Over the years I went deep into mental health and how people are responding to it. My first real encounter was when I was diagnosed with BPD. Being at my lowest point studying got extremely stressful and my anxiety made me fail exams, that I prepared months before. Another persisting problem is interacting with groups, I have the tendency to feel like it is always my duty to keep everyone in check and if something goes wrong the blame falls on my shoulders, and become suicidal from all the self hatred that I have built up. These are just really 1% of how life goes for someone that went through life and death and still wants to so something with this miserable life (sorry for word life occurring so often). 

As mentioned, I am at university, do not ask me how I am surprised as well, but I am 4 years into my bachelor and I start to consider that I might never finish. In order to get some help from university I have made an appointment with the study counselor, because they provide certain accommodations, and behold what I have been told after I have explicitly described my situation and that I am undergoing treatment: "I think you should stop your study until you get better.". You know if mental health disorders could be cured like a cold I would jump  right in, but no that's not how it works. What would that mean? that I have to wait maybe 20 years in order to get a normal education as other children with stable families get? That I am not allowed to continue after all the effort I put to not end everything? Sounds like complaining, right, but I am sincerely astonished by their ignorance. I have waited 4 years to accept that I need help not only from my psychologist but from university as well just to hear this sentence. 

If we get rejected like this how are we able to get better?  Treated like someone that is not actually interested to have a good education, like we have no place. 

I am not sure where I am going with this. I just had to write and let my views of the world be noticed. 