I’m aware BPD itself can’t be helped with medication, but my depression is severe, and I’m considering anti depressants. 

I was on SSRI (Zoloft) for 8 months in the past. It was an awful match for my body and killed my motivation to do well in school. They kept upping my dosage until I turned into a zombie. I also suffered from severe after effects coming off of them. My BPD has been ten times worse since then. But the meds did help me enjoy life a bit more and decreased my rage episodes. 

I want to try something else, but I’m scared. I’m scared of having to take multiple to balance myself too. Has meds helped anyone here? Is there anyone that’s only taking one or two?