I swear to God if my boyfriends ex new how obsessed I am with her, she’d be fucking flattered. Jesus Christ. 

Today reached a peak though, as I’ve sent her a follow request on Instagram just to torture myself and see if she kept up their cute photos together and if he was still liking her posts after he had met me. 

For the sake of my sanity I hope she reject the request yet I can’t bring myself to cancel it??? 

Does anyone struggle with not being obsessed with their partner’s ex and how much better you assume the relationship was with them?? 

This is genuinely the thing I hate most about BPD. I HAAAAATE it.