If you were lucky enough to find good medication for yourself, on those good days, do you ever think, "Is this how "normal" people feel every day?". On the days when I don't worry and obsess about things and generally calmly enjoy my own existence, this is what always crosses my mind...its so pretty and peaceful, is it even achievable without the pills? Is the pill adjusting my "normal" into general "normal"? Anyway, just a little philosophy, while adjusting to 4th round of antidepressants in the last 14 years.