I struggle with my diagnosed BPD and uNPD on a daily but one thing that is completely out of my control is the ‘borderline rage’ where usually a situation could be FP made me feel abandoned or rejected and I snap..

In my eyes there’s pure hatred according to him and I get physically quite abusive by digging nails in and dragging his face toward me to listen, grabbing him, physically pulling him and shoving him on the bed if he tries to leave, accidentally broke his possession, I’m very toxic sometimes but only if I get into that state. 

It’s been bad this whole month and I’m not sure how to stop it. I’ll be mentioning it to my useless therapist today but I wanted to see if anyone else has this dark abusive side and how you’ve fixed it?