I'm tired of the extreme mood swings, the roller coaster ride from fine to sobbing on my floor with so much pain that I don't know where to put it. 

I'm tired of the numbness, the emptiness filled with sharp edges and blood  to get my mind away from itself.

I'm tired of the irrational fears of being tossed away, into the rubbish bin of loneliness, even if I just heard the words I crave, the words I need to feel ok. 

I'm tired of the irrational anger that springs forth like a tiger; so full of rage and hurt, to slice any relationship I have to shreds. 

I'm tired of not knowing who I am, trapped inside a skin that isn't mine, with a personality that isn't mine.

I'm tired of feeling so much dread and despair, a dark pit that I can not look away from because if I do I will fall into it and there is no coming back.

I'm just so tired.