I am codependent because I’m running from the pain of other people to escape into someone else even when I’ve gone to Thearapy and been living alone trying to deal with the inner child nothing changes I simply don’t feel I am
A person I feel shamed and humiliated that I can’t change I basically hate everyone in my life and that’s pushing me more to kill my self . Yeah people say good ppl will come but I’m 29 and I can’t say I ever had any type of healthy friendship or relationship romantic wise , work wise , or friend or family  . It seems everyone is unconsciously playing out childhood wounds and no one is truly seen we talk about healthy relationships but who the fuck has one really ? If I’m surrounded by bullies and invalidating people that scapegoat me I can’t follow my dreams because I have no identity to have them then what’s the point of living ? I don’t want to be spiritually punished for wasting this life please help but I’m at the braking point of having the same characters in my life .