Idk what to do anymore. I feel like I’ve ruined my life. I have picked up some bad and some gross habits. I feel like I am a bad person but I just have an addictive personality and can’t stop the things that I do.I just feel like I don’t deserve to b here.I do drugs, make terrible decisions, jerk off all the time. I feel like my friends are very distant from me now. They know that my addictive tendencies have ruined the fun and unique perosn i used to be. Now I’m riddled with anxiety, trying to quit drugs and my other bad habits daily. I’m constantly feeling like shit. I don’t like going out anymore even though I still feel left out, it’s actually an awful feeling just not being able to go somewhere because you physically can’t. You can’t because you are worried people will judge you and you will not be talking to people.  Feel like I can’t be in a relationship. My life is just over it feels like but I don’t want it to be. Want to be like all of those people I’m jealous of, need more motivation but I have zero.