I am 21 years old, and I am tired.

I never planned my future, I didn’t think I would actually last this long.

I feel like I am going to get no where in life. I just graduated from CC with a Liberal Arts degree in May, can’t afford to go to get my bachelors.

I was a daycare teacher for a couple years, got into law firm work as a legal assistant 5/6 months ago thinking that is what I wanted to do as a career, but I hate it.

I suck at it. The senior paralegal abuses me verbally, writes notes about me to the attorney I work for stating I made everything a disaster. That really boosted my confidence.

I just got diagnosed with OCD. I have really bad anxiety, scared I am messing up on everything whether it’s at work or just in general.

I don’t have any passions, never did. Never had motivation. I have a very “woe is me” attitude because I been through trauma and I am sad.

People are constantly always being mean to me. I am so nice. No matter how much I want to be a mean person because of how damaged I am, I can’t, it’s not in my nature.

I feel weak. I feel like a loser. I called off of work because of the senior paralegal who bullies me. I feel like I will never get anywhere in life. I have been applying to jobs but either they reject me or they don’t even look at my resume.

I look at other people in life and see how successful and happy they are and I strive to be them, but I can’t. I feel like we are in two different worlds.

I just want to lay in bed and never get up.