
Hi I’m looking to see if you can help me I don’t know what I have but it’s very bad and getting worse.I’m 19 For about a year and a half I took anti depresants such as welbutrin,pro zac and adderall for attention deficit.At first I thought it was a personal problem I thought that I was just sad and at the time I was but not until now I realize it’s because of my brain that I am sad when I am.The main problem with me I’d say is my memory one thing goes in my ear and goes out the other when talking to me it’s like talking to a brick wall and when I try to think of something to say nothing comes up it’s a blank it’s hopeless trying to have a conversation with me. I do have social anxiety but even when alone I can’t think clearly I’m extremely lazy and have little to no motivation I have a job I have some friends but all my life I’ve hated myself because I never can think clearly or remember anything this might sound weird but every time I take a video of myself talking or doing whatever it blows my mind to actually see it I think I might have some type of reality issue I’m just really needing help any type of feedback would help below are the main symptoms I’ve experienced my whole life again I haven’t been depressed in years



-short term memory 
-social anxiety 
-thinking/confusion 
-since of reality 
-focus 
-forgetting to eat/trouble gaining weight
-being organized 
-no motivation/lazy 
-don’t know the words that I’m saying 
Like if I’m videoing my self and watching myself talk and how I look I’ll understand it more then doing it not recording