**TL;DR: My PCP is retiring and I don't know what to do about my anxiety medicine without looking like I'm drug seeking or doctor shopping.**

I've been going to my PCP for about 4-5 years now, and just got word that he is retiring in a couple months. 

I have GAD with panic attacks, and after multiple rounds of trial and error with buspirone, SSRIs, and Wellbutrin, my previous PCP prescribed a low dose of clonazepam to use as needed. This is the first medicine that actually worked and didn't cause side effects worse than what I was seeking treatment for. When that doctor left, my new PCP took over and has continued this treatment plan since then. 

For me, "as needed" sometimes means two days in a row, and other times it's a week or two in between. Sometimes it's for a panic attack, sometimes it's for racing thoughts preventing me from sleeping. Sometimes I take 0.5mg, other times I only take 0.25mg.

I'm very deliberate about when and how I this medicine because I know about the risk of dependence and withdrawals.

I've already transferred the rest of my medical records to my new doctor/clinic, but they outsource the behavioral/mental health part of the practice. I'm worried that I'm going to have to start this entire process of SSRI trial and error over again because doctors don't like to prescribe this medicine.

I'm not really sure how to proceed. I was able to get in with my current PCP who's retiring and get a refill for now, but when that runs out I feel like I'm going to have to start this entire process over again. 

I can walk the psychiatrist through all of this, but ultimately it feels like any attempt to find a new provider is met with subtle accusations of being drug seeking or doctor shopping, which sucks and makes me feel guilty for having this issue. Any advice?