You could say im f**cked, there's literally everything wrong with me, I've been diagnosed with autism, bpd, and now schizoafective disorder, so you can imagine how hard it is to be in any social situations or to maintain friendships.
And so, i really want to have friends, relationships, even a partner, people to play apex with, etc.
The problem here is that i hate social situations, new interactions, and everytime i meet someone new the first thing i think is "oh god i hate them so much" or "i want to go home" i want to know if this is just me because all of the things that are wrong with me or someone else here knows what im going through and experience the same thing.
Maybe its the autism, or the bpd or just me and its going to be impossible to have any kind of relationship