I don't know if anybody else gets this but I'm extremely self aware at the minute to my situation, I've split on my FP and completely ruined our friendship, I hate her, I hate everything she's done, said and the way she has acted towards me but at the same time I know I don't hate her, I know that in time I'm going to miss her and want her back, but alas, it's to late I've ruined it, she said she's done with me, all I've done lately is push her away and pull her back and she's finally had enough, I pushed her to the breaking point, she was my only real friend, the only person I could talk to about anything and I've ruined it, I deleted her number out of an angry impulse and now I can't even get in contact with her if I wanted to, it's over, and I honestly don't know how I feel, I just hope I don't fall to far when i finally switch.