 It’s summer now, at least summer vacation. I spent so much time during school wishing for it to come faster and now that’s its here, I’m realizing it’s a new kind of hell. I have nothing to do expect sit and listen to my thoughts, set with my self 24/7 doing the exact thing I was running from during school. I don’t have friends to go to see, I don’t live in an area where fun is around every corner. There is nothing to numb me anymore, so I’m forced to lay with all my pity, all of it that is now catching up. At school I at least had stuff to keep my mind busy, now there’s nothing. And I keep realizing that there will continue to be nothing. Because this is the routine, this is how my life will be until I’m dead, same routine until everything catches up. I don’t know if I can take another summer.