My mom has BPD and she really has let herself go. She’s had multiple suicide attempts over the years and now uses my sibling and I as her reason for living. What happens if one or both of us dies? She’s just going to commit suicide? It’s a horrible burden to carry. 

Her apartment is an absolute pigs stye. I’m living with her temporarily until my own apartment is ready for me to move into. I knew what o was getting into and I have been cleaning a room every day since I’ve been here. It’s not enough it needs to be professionally cleaned. She left moldy hair clumps in the SHOWER. 

She also has not showered once since I have lived here. It’s only been a week. 

When she eats she doesn’t close her mouth. You can hear and see everything when she’s eating. She also doesn’t floss. Like EVER. I believe she’s about to go through another manic episode and I just don’t have the energy to go through this again. I just want a normal mother who wants to spend time with her family and cleans herself and environment.