I've struggled with anxiety for years now, but I've always thought of it as due to being traumatized by my parents deaths and not so much me having a disorder all on its own if that makes sense. They had both died from illness when I was 17 and I'm 24 now. About 3-4 years ago I moved away from my hometown and my anxiety has improved quite a bit since I've been here, but it's never fully gone away.  Anyways, this year with covid has been a struggle, since I broke up with my boyfriend during lockdown and had to move out of his place. I finally found an apartment with a roommate (I don't know her very well) but I'm still very isolated because my friends all moved away during the lockdown (well except for 1). I hardly ever see my one friend and only speak to my other friends on occasion. And my family isn't close so I don't speak to them either. And my anxiety is SO BAD right now. Because this year I also happened to start school, and working part time, and doing horse back riding on the side. I have become so tired and my grades are suffering so much, not even sure I can get through the semester. The high anxiety attacks during the day from the stress and not having anyone to call when I'm stressed just makes me so exhausted. I have a therapist through the school but I barely have time to make appointments with him because of my schedule. 

Anyways, after explaining my situation to my doctor he suggested I go on medication for severe anxiety. I get where he's coming from with this but I'm very apprehensive. I've always just wanted to balance myself out naturally instead. The biggest thing I have with anxiety is worrying that things won't be okay (from my parents I guess). And I have really bad fatigue lately that's really impacting the goals I have. I ended up dropping a class next semester and telling my work to schedule me less hours so that will likely help to make time for relaxation. But I'm not sure if I should try the medication too or not. I'm just really lost and I don't have anyone of reference in my life for this. Any advice would be appreciated.