I think i have bpd, but im worried that im saying that to blame my flaws or that im over-exaggerating all my problems.

Sometimes even the thought if having bpd makes me feel like a complete moron and i feel like im subconsciously copying everything i read about, even if i showed those signs before reading about it.

The same thing happened when i thought i might have adhd. I just completely refused the possibility of having adhd anymore because i feel like its just impossible for me to have it.

Im saving money to go to a psychiatrist and get answers but im worried that ill walk out embarrassed and looking like a dumbass for thinking i have bpd when in reality its just normal feelings or something.

I just want to know if this is normal or not