for context (kind of): my bpd gets 10x worse when i have a crush on someone/when i’m in love with someone/when i’m in a relationship &amp; i can’t deal with this.. it’s so hard to control it &amp; not have a breakdown every 10seconds and/or “blow up” constantly... if anyone can help in any way it would be appreciated.. thanks 

sorry if this is incoherent i can’t see well atm..