Tldr:My life has gone to sht back in 2020 and im so anxious how my college and adult life will turn out because of this current recession and other issues in this world and in my countey and because of that, Im worried that I might miss out on my 20's because of my personal issues as well as other problems in this world like the recession rn that can potentially fuck me up


Hi, I am a 16 y/o filipino boy whose life has gone to shit ever since 2 years ago

First of all, i'm very fucking hopeless with my own future because if all the bad shit happening right now. Inflation, wars, pandemic, climate change, you name it. Its also because of the bad sht thats happening in my country, mainly a corrupt official has won presidency and I can see my life getting harder, bleaker and more hopeless each day and its going to be more difficult to live/leave this shithole because of the failing economy, the prices are getting higher, and the exchange rates are getting higher which is gonna make the flighta more expensive and most importantly, more difficultntonleave this shithole of a 4th world country run by clowns and convicts.


Second, Im also worried about this recession happening because I thought my life will get better once I go to college and after the disaster of my teen years are over, but NOPE, the recession wants me to be fucked mentally and financially so now I dread the future now. Now I fear that my life will not get better in my 20's because 20's  are supposed to be the one best years of your life from what i've heard from lots of people, But now im super fucking anxious because i've been also hearing ppl in college suffering right now and idk if I will ever make up for the shitty teens years. And because 20's are supposed to be the prime of your life, I sense in the near future that i'll miss majority of my 20's and my entire college experience because I was trying to fucking survive and trying not to die despite suffering in college and because of that I literally have no time to have fun in college and thus a depressing college experience that can haunt me forever because I was depressed while I was physicallt at my peak. It also sucks when the best time of your life is past your early/mid 20's because all the fun stuff in college like sex, making friends and partying is less fun bc yk? You're old and sex is less fun if you're older bc your hormones are basically little to no more so it means you missed out on something that could have been 100x more enjoyable in college ffs. And it also gets more downhill when you reach your 30s yk? Its because the fact that your early/mids 20's were a dumpster fire will haunt you the rest of your life and its going to be harder to make friends bc everyone is busy with their own sht like their job and family. And also dont forget the detoriating joints that can not only physically hurt you but also make it difficult to exercise and do most activities that involve moving. And what I said before, This inflation caused by all the corruption around the world is is making me feel hopeless and my future much more bleak because its very difficult to survive something like this as a young person. 


However, Its possible for me to make my college life the way I want it. Its by apply for scholarships abroad (specifically in canada). But I feel its kinda  close to impossble because I feel im not worthy enough to get acholarships even of my grades last years were excellent actually. Its also because im starting to underperform in two subjects again and I havemt done any extracurriculars yet. 


And yes I feel hopeless now because if I go to college in my home country, i'm going to experience the sht I said earliler in this rant like missing out on the fun stuff, depression, poverty and no way to escape this shithole of a country because I wasnt able to get a scholarship and going to be much harder for me to leave this country bc I have to suffer another 2-4 years here  right after college to gain money and work experience. And thus the moment I move out of my country, I finally realized that I missed 3/4 of my 20's to fucking problems I experienced and it fucking sucks to be "late for the party" (in other words, it sucks to have the best time past your early/mid 20's because of many reasons) and 

AND DONT FUCKING MENTION THE FACT THAN ME AND OTHER FILIPINOS HERE ARE 4 YEARS BEHIND THAN OUR WESTERN PEERS IN ANY WAY LIKE HOW WE ARE STILL WEARING UNIFORMS IN COLLEGE, STILL BEING TREATED LIKE HIGH SCHOOLERS IN COLLEGE, AND BEING GIVEN 100 SCHOOLWORKS EVERY 10 SECONDS. While americans/canadians/europeans have it easier than us in everyway.

Ik im just young and i'm already starting to worry and overthink about these kinds of sht while im supposed to enjoy my last years of youth and yes i've been worrying so much about this sht since last year.  I just want to end my life at this point because it seems so fucking hopeless now especially with a life threatening recession that can take a toll in my life and potentially kill me

Now my question is:
What should I do right now? And how can I make the good stuff happen despite this world crumbling? How can I make up for my shtty teen years despite evrything going downhill? And how can I survive in times like this?