i don't understand. my ex abused me physically and mentally and then cheated on me and discarded me like i was nothing. he didn't care if i was hurt or didn't care if i was crying, he just didn't care about me at all. he never cared. he never took me on a date. all he ever wanted to do was have sex and when i denied that from him he cheated on me and dumped me. 

so why does he get to be happy when i don't? why is he taking a girl on a date, living the college life hanging out with friends and being happy when i don't. what did i do to deserve getting my heart broken again and again? i hardly have any friends. everyone always leaves me. I've never been on a date, no-one ever asked me on a date. all i do is try to make people happy and they just leave me. they always leave. but he gets to be happy. he gets to go on a date. and he has the audacity to tell me. he has the audacity to ask me to be friends even though he never apologized for hurting me and assaulting me 

life is horrible and fucking rigged