My father had BPD his whole life and I suffered at the hands of it. Three months ago I was diagnosed with BPD ever since the diagnosis things feel like they're crumbling and being built up at the same time. Good and bad things. I think I'm more terrified I'll end up like him abusing everyone around me God forbid I ever have a child. To remember the intense emotional pain he caused me still haunts me to this day. I want to stay away from him I'm 22 but he has such bad abandonment issues I can't leave him. I feel doomed trapped to my childhood traumas some that caused my ptsd. Scared that I will end up like him ruining every good relationship that ever came my way succumbed to my impluses. Just wondering if anyone else was raised with a borderline parent and knows how hard it was to survive. Am I going to be like that ?