I'm on my third year of college truthfully with how bad my mental health is especially my anxiety I didn't think I'd get this far but I realized how getting this far is making my anxiety worst then ever my panic attacks have been getting triggered easier I was 15 minutes late to class because my anxiety went off and I was having a panic attack on the stairs.

Yesterday night I got a email saying I was accepted into a program only a small percentage of college students get nominated for and that should have made me happy because all the late nights would make it worth it but my anxiety it just can't handle this and I fucking hate it my anxiety is making me hate things and not want to do the things I've worked hard for.

 God I wish I could function like a normal human being I'm 20 years old this is suppose to be my 'golden years of youth' and my anxiety is destroying every part of it. I just feel lost and lonely.