Hi I fucked up and hurt my friends feelings by gossiping about something i really shouldnt have then when they got reasonably upset at my I felt guilty and freaked out and cut them off then apologized days later and theyre still upset so im giving them space. But this always happens to me with a lot of my close friends and I lose them forever. thought I was getting better but i still cant accept ppl’s emotions when they get upset at me when i make mistakes. Im so scared of this happening for the rest of my life its really painful and i wish i could just live with like 20 animals instead.

Im sorry for the rant hoping some ppl have had similar experiences