I keep getting these urges to just go away like disappear without a word. The project I was supposed to be on keeps getting pushed back so money has been you kno. I did get approved for a task project with another company and I’m waiting to hear back from this remote scribe job. It would help me a lot experience wise. I’ve also been trying to learn for my comptia it is hard I’m not a tech person but I already have my google cert so why not. I try to distract myself from the ache within me. It’s like I’m losing my mind trying to know myself. Could I ever let go completely without losing control. Will this one day destroy me until I am unrecognizable.