which makes me want to feel nothing. So I try numbing myself or doing mental exercises to get tougher.. 

But this only leads to apathy and deep dissatisfaction. 

For example, I care about my job. So I’m always afraid that I’ll get fired. I love my family, so I’m terrified that they’ll die. I like this girl, so I am awkward around her and criticize everything I say. 

So Is there a way to care about something but not stress? I need a middle ground. My personality operates in extremes.