After long years of depression issued emotion loss, well more of a loss of everything, taste, mild pain and etc. I were just numb to everything. Now I can finally start enjoying some and I feel really happy about that.

Wish to die were suppressed because I clearly knew that I had to survive. I had to live not only for myself, but for someone else. I am happy that I had that strong will to keep me ahead.

But now I also feel sad. I feel angry and no matter how I try to fight that anger, I can't suppress it. I feel angry for little things and also my own stupidity. I don't want to snap to the point where innocent around might get yelled at by me. How does others manage to fight that? Once again I got lost and sad. I want to enjoy every single moment of life.