What do you do when you just don't want to live anymore? I'm not suicidal, but 90% of the time I just can't enjoy my life or enjoy myself, I am wracked with insecurity, anxiety and depression and on top that BPD. It's ruining my life I've had to delete all of my social media because I couldn't stop comparing myself to the girls on there why are beauty standards so god damn high? It's ruining my relationship, anytime I see a girls photo or name pops up on my partner's social media I can't help but to obsess over it how am I meant to be desirable to him when the girls look the way they do on his social media ( all so skinny naturally pretty huge boobs tiny waists perfect hair perfect teeth) I just can't compare and instead of comforting he scolds me for it so I keep allot to myself, often times I think I shouldn't be in any relationship because of how insecure and jealous I am. No amount of therapy/group therapy/online therapy/text therapy, yoga, meditation, self help books, antidepressants/mood stabilizers/beta blockers can help me I have litterally tried everything you name it I've tried it, am I just doomed to live in this misery forever?