its like my goal in life is to make myself as miserable as possible before i die. like everything i do is with the intent to make myself unhappy. every thought, every fucking decision i make is just destroying any possible future for myself. im failing all my classes, i never leave my bed, i have 23 fucking cavities because i don't brush my teeth. im an idiot-- an idiot that knows he's an idiot and wont do a damn thing about it. fuck me dude fuck mee. i tried killing myself so many times this week but i always pussy out at the end-- there's burst capillaries in my face and on my eyes and im still here. fucking miserable and still here