So I’ve always been this way and I wondered if it was a part of my anxiety or a sexual trauma response, but even if I’m actually turned on, if I’m being touched in a sexual way my body reacts negatively even if I want it. I start feeling like I’m going to puke and my head gets heavy like my normal panic attacks I have when I’m overwhelmed. It’s like just any sexual contact makes my body wig out and it’s very frustrating. I’ll get so overwhelmed that I cry sometimes too.