Once I got to the point of panic attacks I gave up on trying to handle it on my own without medication. 

I always thought it will be a temporary crutch to relieve some tiredness. To gain energy to fight it again. To take a break from the struggle. 

Now I can’t seem to handle anxiety while taking medication. I feel like no matter what I do, I’ll always have to increase the dosage. It’s been years of struggling and trying to stop anxiety and cope with it.