When i "fall in love", i lose interest in things like College and studying. That person became everything i want to do and think about. So i turn into self destructive mode pretty often. 

It's really hard because i do want relationship but I can't seem to switch and balance, morning focus and get work done, evening spending time with bf like a normal person. 

It's frustrating n i give up dating again so i can do college. I read some of us choose to be single, although I don't want to, it is when im most stable emotionally to be functional.