Sometimes I feel like an immediate danger to myself but I always calm myself down, that fact talks me out of seeking help. I have a fear of no freedom, it reminds me of my childhood, so I don't know if that's why I don't seek out help. I don't have the money for any sort of therapist but I need some kind of help I think. I have researched so much into physiology and I think I have something that tends to push people off the deep end at some point but isn't knowing about it enough and shouldn't it help.