Hi guys, as I mentioned in the title I am having a major issue with this...I love the industry I'm in but I am in a high stress job and it's taking its toll on me. 

The combination of job and social stress is really hard, and I end up not being able to communicate with people, having attacks of shame and feeling ugly and worthless, and that causes people to react badly which makes things worse. I overheard two girls impersonating the way I was stressing out one day, then I went to the bathroom to breath and practice coping skills (because I could feel tingling/breathing problems and was spacing out, my warning signs of panic attacks and dissociation) and another girl accidentally opened the door and laughed - I was so flustered and just immediately shut the door, and felt so panicked and targeted. 

I start the day/week off fine and tell myself I will be strong and positive but it wears off within like half an hour with these little things. I wish there was a supplement like caffeine that I could take to just make myself emotionally resilient and confident. It doesn't help that I have no social circle atm and have no outlet to express myself outside of work.

I don't know if anyone relates to what I'm saying or has tips but anyway I'm worried about this bc I'm in a junior position and want to rise up but don't see that happening if the senior people don't like me and I can't handle stress! (Managing stress and being likable are necessary in this job.)

I know I could be fine if I could just shake off the panic reaction and the catastrophizing/shame attacks...but obviously that can't just magically happen and it is so frustrating.

Thanks for reading &lt;3