My therapist is not responding tonight and I feel so overwhelmed with shame and self loathing. I had an argument with my SO that got completely out of hand. Most of the time lately I have felt so sucessful and close to recovery and now I have no idea. Sometimes its impossible for me to determine whem Im acting like a reasonable upset person would and when Im just being my diagnosis. 

i just dont know how to deal with the shame about having BPD and all the things Ive done wrong in my past and the little things that happen in the moment. 

I have no idea why Im posting this except to feel a tiny bit less lonely. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you get relief?

Edit: Thank you to everyone who responded.  After posting this, I texted a friend and then decided to chill out, watched a bunch of Party Down and went to sleep.  It helped me just to vent and cool down and I genuinely appreciate all the insight and advice people provided.  