Been thinking I’ve had something off about me since I got broken up with late last year. I brought up to my therapist today that I thought I was narcissistic or something of the sorts, so she asked me several questions relating to different disorders and this one one fit seamlessly. I felt hopeful after my diagnosis and continued on my day. Now I’m laying in bed wondering, what’s next? How do I work on my negativity and transform it to something better? Is this possible to change for the better? 

After being a drug addict for the past 2 years constantly tormenting my family and serious of girlfriends I want to be better. This strive for being better started at the beginning of this year. I became quite self aware as my therapist put it. There was one girl  in particular I dating and ended up being a terrible boyfriend in all the wrong ways, she lasted a year and God bless her soul. She endured so much hate and anger from me I can’t thank her enough for being the great person she is. We’re still friends but I miss her. I want to get better because I want to be able to be with someone and love them and let them love me back. I want a wife and  kids in the future so badly... thats my life dream. This is my sole motivation to be better. 

What’s the next step?