I started hiding my feelings a long time ago, I think we all do this to a specific amount but I literally numbed my feelings for the last months and I realized it today.

I always felt overwhelmed, but I somehow lived trough it until now. The last days all the feelings came back up and now I‘m worse then ever. 

And the worst thing is, I opened up to my partner hours ago. And maybe I didn’t do it in a softly way but now he is some sort of scared or anxious but especially overwhelmed BECAUSE OF ME. That was the reason I didn’t spoke up about my real issues for a long time now. Because people always let me feel so so shitty when I do. 

All the therapists say I have to open up but no one really wants to listen or seems to care to help me or even listen to me without making me feel bad. 

I‘m so tired of it, I don’t know where to start, I‘m crying for hours now, it just doesn’t stop and I can’t sleep.
 
Advice is needed.