I have finally gone back to the doctors and put myself back on medication. 

I was suggested prozac, which I have agreed too, but I'm a little bit afraid of the side effects as there have been other instances whereby I have gone a bit .... "eccentric" when I've gone on similar meds. 

However, I'm so desperately empty I need to find a solution before I do something stupid. 

Last year i begged my psychiatrist to go on antidepressants and he said that it wouldn't help and that only mood stabilisers will provide the stability I need/want, but I've circumvented his opinion and gone to my GP instead who doesn't really know my history.

Have to wait and see. 

I'm interested in hearing other people opinions