there are certain triggers (such as drugs, crowded places, fear of missing out/betrayal) that spark a certain kind of panic and heavy negative emotion. i dont know what that means and its ruining my mood for weeks at a time. when i feel that way i cant be myself and i am tempted to do something thats wrong (become toxic, start projecting, seeking too much undconditional attention and reasurrance) and thats certainly not what i wanna be. i know all this information is quite vague but i dont know another way to describe it.