I’ve recently come out of a depressive episode and i honestly miss it. It made it so easy to stay completely in my own world, even though i was just wallowing. 
Now that i’m more present it’s made me more aware of how miserable everyone is. Im in high school and everyone around me seems to be struggling with some type of mental illness. 

It makes things feel so utterly hopeless,  like no one will be happy no matter what. It’s like I feel guilty for not being depressed.