I started my new medication about 4 months ago the first two months we’re hell.
But slowly I began to rid my life of people who bring negativity into my life. I haven’t cut those people out 100% and blocked them and told them to F off which I super proud of.
When someone bad happens I remind myself it’s not a reflection of me i.e restaurant makes a mistake with my food, the chef may have just been off that day and it doesn’t mean I deserve bad things. Someone says something harsh to me I remind myself it’s a reflection of how they feel inside and it’s quite funny that they choose to act like this.
This has made a huge impact on me!
I haven’t self harmed in over a month which included starving, burning, cutting.

I have stopped restarting to suicide as an option and let myself know that I don’t deserve to die over something as small as dropping my phone. I continuously tell my self the things I want to experience in my life and when I get to a dark place I remind my self of how happy I will be when I reach my goals instead!

I have eaten 3 meals every day for the past month! I have gained weight and I no longer weigh myself but my frame is filled out and I no longer look underweight.

I’ve stopped smoking weed and ended all drug use alone while my friends still practice the use of them around me. I did use alcohol as a crutch and weened of alcohol unless it’s an occasion.

I have been able to stay single and away from any sexual partners for the longest period of time in my adult life!

I haven’t made and destructive impulsive decisions in a few months!

I have went on a walk for 5-10 km a day for the last month!

I have cleaned my depression mess in my home where I live alone! I never thought I’d do it but all my laundry is done, place hoovered everything is clean for the first time I months!

I have studied every day for the last month also!

I’m so happy with my progress I can’t wait to tell my psychiatrist about it! 
I never thought I could do it!
But I’m so scared that I’m an just in a manic episode now!