I moved to Germany last year during autumn for study, and life has been so miserable, I have no friends here in Germany and back home. I went to a bad break up shortly after moving here and the whole experience plus the fact that I am in a place where it is so foreign to me does not help at all.

I went to a therapy 4 months ago and it doesn’t work at all, the loneliness is there at the end of the day, having no one to call friends or lover. I am drifting in a river with no end in sights, Wied if you hear this, you have a good soul and heart, if something happened to me, it’s not because of your credibility as a therapist that fails me, it’s me, I was never meant to be here, never meant to be received this gift of life.
 

I have done so many things, I’ve hurt people I loved, I’m counting my days, may God forgive my soul.

Amen