when i’m down deep in depression or suffering from extreme dread, i just crave substance. i have never drank to the point of getting drunk nor done weed to the point of getting high but sometimes i just crave that release. not feeling this way anymore. it just seems like an easy way to feel happy again. but i’m worried because i have an addictive personality and i’m scared about the effects weed might have on my brain. as for alcohol i’m scared to destroy my body and doing something i regret. i tried antidepressants but my emotions dulled and i became super suicidal and it wasnt a good time. so yeah. even though i have never experienced being drunk or high i crave that substance.