I can’t get my mind clear, after I beat a thought more thoughts come into my mind. Even if they aren’t in my current situation 

I have a stutter and I’m working on letting it be instead of trying to hide it as I thought “how do I know if people are making fun of me behind my back? How do I know who I can trust?” This made me feel crazy and at first it wasn’t even an OCD thought

But someone on my post said they became paranoid thinking like this and that brought me on the verge of a panic attack that lasted 30-60 minutes. Ever since then I’ve been extremely anxious and it feels like my mind is about to just snap

After a lot of realizing I realized most people won’t talk behind my back. And if they do, they’ll be egotistical people no one likes anyway, or people who don’t even realize what their actually doing. This led me to my brother and his friend at their work. They often are stupid at work and make jokes (not seriously but just they don’t realize what they’re really doing). They wouldn’t make fun of me since I’m my brothers...brother. But I feel like if I wasn’t related to him, and I started working with them they would make fun of my stutter. Again, not in a hateful way, but kind of how people make fun of people like mike Tyson’s lisp, they just wouldn’t think of it as someone who stutters would

So now my OCD is thinking of all these situations that don’t even matter because I’m not in that predicament at all. But is this normal or am I going crazy?