So as the title suggests, I've developed a FP, it's frustrating me to no end because it's not one I particularly want or need, (not like anyone wants or needs an FP) It's not romantic and although I am sexually attracted to this person, I always have been and it's not really part of the problem. The problem lies in that I basically feel the need to protect him all the time. Not from anything physical but from his current emotional issues he's going through. It's like I'm a baby duckling and I've imprinted on him and if I can't be with him, I'm miserable, I think about him when I wake up, before  I go to sleep, if he's okay, what he's doing. It's driving me insane. We've been friends for over two years and I'm engaged. My partner is very understanding and that's really not an issue, the issue for me is that I feel like I'm going to lose an important friendship here, and I can't talk to any of my friends about it because they don't really understand. I did try, and although she was really lovely, she said '"yeah I want him to be okay too."  


I have basically been in recovery for a year and a bit, which has been lovely and I'm fairly high functioning anyway but I've had some new medication for my migraines which have effected my moods, so I'm assuming I'm a bit fragile because of those. Which is great because I'm back to feeling impulsive and self harmy and just generally struggling to do normal things again. Thanks for reading guys, I just needed to get some stuff out to people who get it. I'm just feeling a bit alone right now. 