I’m having such awful intrusive thoughts and I have so many overwhelming emotions and I can’t handle this. I’m extremely vulnerable all the time. I hate myself. I’m so easily manipulated and I’m a disgusting person. I haven’t done anything illegal, I just hate myself so much. I don’t have any confidence. I just really wanna explode. I can’t stop having meltdowns and I don’t know why, I have reached out for help so many times. The anxiety and emotions are so overwhelming.