Basically I can’t live without my partner who is also my daddy and it’s been over 2 years and we still have this cycle of shit that will never end. When we are together things are mostly perfect but I can’t see him very much, and past issues w him, trauma and my illness means I can’t fucking trust him with anything like he had a big work party yesterday and I was doing really well where I’d normally spam call him and lash out and accuse him of stuff, I left him to it but my body went into shock and the whole ordeal was really fuckinf hard and painful to deal with. At this point I know we are on different paths and he has broken himself a lot trying to look after me but is also kind ot resentful for it. The same way I expect and depend too much on him and need to feel like my own person again til I can mentally seperate myself from him. I think long term just leaving him alone is for the best for us both but obviously it is so hard and painful so how do I do that and make a start at letting go of it