So I just lost my group of friends because of my manipulative behavior and overreactions to perceived abandonment. Now I don't know how to convince this group that I'm not evil, or how to ever interact with them without seeming manipulative. 

I started a casual sexual relationship with a guy around February of last year, W. Fast forward a few months to summertime, I meet another guy, C, and start a casual relationship with him too. Having multiple sexual partners made me feel wanted and valuable. 
I wasn't trying to keep them a secret from each other. They both knew I liked to sleep around. After a few dates with C, it came out that W and C were friends, and had been for the last three years or so. We all agreed that because we were keeping it casual and open, that their friendship wouldn't make the sex I was having with them weird or vice versa. 

Fast forward again to New Years Eve. W had to work, so he wasn't an option. W and C introduced me to two of their other close friends, L and B, a couple. C, L, B and I go to a club for NYE. L and I took Molly. I confess to C whilst rolling that I was attracted to the couple. C goes and tells them, they say they're also attracted to me. The couple give me the green light, and I ended up having a threesome with them. C, L, B and I then spent the first few days of the new year holed up all together, with me hooking up with all of them and hanging out. Again, all the sex I was having made me happy because I felt wanted and valuable. 

The last day of this extended NYE celebration fuck fest, I get a text from an extremely attractive girl I had recently been talking to, F. I knew that C and F had a lot in common, and I decided to introduce them to each other in hopes that they would hook up and C would be grateful to me for providing him with even more sex, even if it wasn't with me. I tell C about her, and the three of us make plans to hang out. 

F and C became friends. I kept pushing C to make a move on her, eager for him to so I could take credit for it and gain his gratitude. When he does, she admits she's in a long distance relationship with someone she's madly in love with, and she was monogamous and didn't want to sleep around. C took it really well, and continued to hang out with her as a friend. 

One day when I was hanging out with W, I tell him I wanted to start referring to him as my boyfriend. I tried to play it off as anything but me wanting to have a label; I said it was nice to use him as an excuse if someone I wasn't into made a move on me, that it would be easier for him to say he was dating me instead of just fucking me in front of his more straight laced friends, that I hated relationships and I just wanted to try to use positive reinforcement by calling something I enjoyed a romantic relationship. He seemed to buy it, so I went around telling everyone he was my boyfriend. To L, B and C, I repeated the reasons I gave to W, but to everyone outside our circle I got to have this feeling of validation. I had a boyfriend AND multiple other sexual partners. L admitted that B was struggling with the idea of fucking someone else/having an open relationship, so I wasn't having any more sex with the couple, but I would make out with them at parties. I was in high demand. I was wanted. 

Fast forward to the beginning of this month, and I start to worry and C and F's friendship. They were hanging out together a lot more than I had anticipated, and I was jealous of how emotionally close F was able to get to C in such a short amount of time compared to me, and all without having sex with him. I started to feel like C was drifting away from me, and I blamed his friendship with her. I knew that even if he wasn't going to cross her boundaries that he still had a crush on her. I started imagining that he was losing interest in me because he was becoming more infatuated with her. One night, I was feeling particularly lonely and asked C to come over, and he said he was in a weird mood and didn't feel like it. That stung, but I tried to let it go. Then later that night, I'm scrolling through my Snapchat, watch F's story, and see that C was at her place with a few other people. 
I started to panic. I was hurt that neither one of them invited me over too. I was hurt that it felt like C lied to me and just didn't want to see me. 

I texted him the next day and asked outright if he just didn't want to see me. He admitted that he wasn't in the mood for sex, and didn't want to tell me that bluntly. I felt relieved, because I was thinking he just preferred her company over mine. But if he just wasn't in the mood that particular time, it wasn't as bad. A few days later, I ask him to come over again, and he said yes and that he would text me when he got done working. 
I didn't get a text that night. I considered sending him a message to remind him, but I didn't want to seem needy. I waited up all night for a "Sorry, work ran late", "Sorry, I'm really tired and wanna go straight home" or "Sorry I forgot, lets reschedule" message, but didn't get anything. 

I wait a day, and send him "I guess you forgot.". No response. 

I wait another day, then send him another text asking if I had done something to upset him. He replies this time, saying that he was going through other things and apologizes. For some reason it made me upset that he didn't specifically apologize for forgetting about our plans. I don't respond. 

A few days after that, F says in our group chat that she had ended it with her long distance boyfriend. While everyone else started to extend their sympathies, I freaked out. I convinced myself that if C was drifting from me to gravitate to her while she wasn't available, that F being single would open a door for them to be in a real, romantic relationship with each other. Then C would forget about me completely. 

I preemptively delete C's number, and block him on all social media. I felt like it would be easier to deal with losing him if I was the one who pushed him away first, and I was kind of hoping he would be upset that I blocked him and would make an extra effort to talk to me, proving that he did still like me. 

I go to L and explain to her how I felt like C was losing interest in me, but I told her I blocked him so I could have a break and collect my thoughts so if/when C and F became a real couple, I could handle it. I asked her to only bring up what I told her if C asked about me, because I didn't want him to pity me and feel like he *had* to talk to me. She told me that F had just had a bad night with her boyfriend, and that they had already made up, so C and F were not about to become a couple. That C told her that he was developing feelings for me and he didn't want to because I was his other friend's girlfriend, even if we didn't take the label seriously. That part of the reason he was backing off was because he didn't want to have romantic feelings for me when I preached polyamory and no serious emotions. 
She also told me that B felt like he couldn't say no to me when I would come on to him at parties, and the way I kept wanting to make out with them was making him uncomfortable. I promised her I would stop any form of sexual contact with the both of them, and that I would unblock C and reach out to him. 
She then told me that she didn't want me to feel like I needed to fuck everyone in the group to be around, and that she didn't start hanging out with me just because I was sleeping with W and C.
 I left her place that day feeling happy, and I unblocked C, ready to resume my friendship with him. 

I didn't think he had noticed the block. I sent him a text asking if he wanted a ride to an event we had all planned to go to this weekend. No response. 
I started to worry again. I waited a day, then called him. The phone rang a few times then went to voicemail, signaling that he just hit the decline call button. That made me even more worried. 

I text F and ask if I can come over and talk. I carefully rehearsed what I wanted to say to her; I planned to go in and ask if she had any advice for me about C, to try to get her to tell me anything he might have said about me to her without having to ask outright. I expected for her to give me some insight, reassure me that she was happily with her boyfriend again and therefore not a romantic option for C, and also reassure me that I was a nice, lovable person. 

When I got to her place, thought, she regarded me coldly. I asked if anyone in our group was avoiding me, trying to get her to talk about C, and she said that the whole group was actually avoiding me. That they had hung out together multiple times without me, and discussed how I seemed shady. That they all felt that I was trying to use sex to control everyone, and that I just wanted to be the center of attention. That C did notice when I blocked him, and knew that I wanted him to make an extra effort with me, and now he didn't want to be around me at all. That the couple felt like I was coming on way too strong with them, and that I wasn't respecting their boundaries because I didn't really care. That W had the worst of it, because I forced the title of boyfriend on him and he felt like he had to choose between his friends or me. That they all stopped inviting me to group hangouts because someone would end up saying "if she's going to be there, I don't want to come". 
F said she felt like I didn't really care about C at all, and that I only got upset because I wasn't the center of attention for the first time in my life. And that none of them really cared to say any of this to my face, because I wasn't really close to any of them and they didn't consider me important enough to try to talk things out with. 

I walked out of her house when I realized nothing I could say could change how she saw me. I spent a long while sobbing and walking around, then I sent them all individual admissions of guilt and apologies, and said I would give them all space while I tried to work on being better. 

W said he was happy I had realized how I was acting, that he appreciated my awareness and said he still wanted me to come out this weekend. I said I shouldn't come knowing there were people in our group who didn't want me there, and that I felt like I needed to stay away. He said I should ask them all myself, because he didn't think they really cared that much. 
F thanked me for my honesty, but made no other indication that she wanted to talk any more about it. 
L, B, and C didn't respond at all. 

Now the whole point of this post is that I don't know what to do next. I don't know what is the appropriate time frame to leave them alone. I don't know if me giving them space is a good thing, or if I'm doing a diet version of what I did to C. I don't know if trying to contact them again will seem manipulative. I don't know if leaving them alone will seem manipulative. I don't know how to show I do genuinely care about them all. I don't really know the normal way of showing your friends you care. 

What should I do?
TL;DR I fucked almost everyone in my friend group, got jealous when two friends got close to each other, and through a string of fucked up reactions made them all upset with me. What should I do?
