I feel abandoned by my friends, can't get myself to talk to them in fear of being a burden. I'm completely loosing my sense of self, my ego is shattered, i don't know who i am anymore, i can't get my psychiatrist until the end of November. Please help me, just reading something in the comments, no matter what, will make me feel less alone, i am begging you to give me a little attention, i know i am being a bad person for asking this, i am sorry, but it will keep me from self medicating at least for another hour. I already self medicated today, i feel like i'm loosing my friends and my FP. I am absolutely out of control in a quiet, scary way.