so, i started dating this guy not long ago, he has BP2. everything was very healthy and good at the start. but then i started to open up more, i tend to love feeling wanted by people, and i know it makes me kind of a bitch but i’m trying to work on it, i sometimes also enjoy hurting the people who are the closest to me (?) so he suffers a lot because of me. But today, he told me many things, he told me he would toss me and i’m worthless if i don’t do what he wants me to do (which triggered my abandonment issues a bit) 
i know that he is just having an episode, i dont know much of bipolar disorder apart from the things i read to have some knowledge
he is a really sweet guy, in fact the only guy that ever treated me this good, today was an exception, i ended up cutting myself because he asked me to.
i dont know where i’m going with this honestly, i just don’t know who to ask for advice 
i am finding comfort in this but i know its not healthy
are the feelings of enjoying being wanted this bad by people and enjoying seeing people hurt a part of bpd or should i talk more about it to my psychiatrist