I keep having this stupid crisis. I'm not normal, I know I'm not. I have ADHD, Autism, and I suspect Borderline Personality Disorder. I absolutely hate Platonic Affection. 

I'm a highly touch starved person and I ache for the feeling of someone holding me. I want someone to protect me and kiss me and hold me and tell me I'm worth it, but I don't want it from a friend. That's pretty normal, I guess. I got uncomfortable when ex-friends tried to hug me or pat me or give me encouraging words. It feels wrong. But when an ex gave me that while dating, I felt so happy. Everything felt right when someone I was dating gave it to me. 

I hate it when a friend gives me love, but if a partner gave it to me? I'd  be absolutely the happiest person alive.