Have wanted a double nose ring forever, but today, the day I planned to do it, I just feel sick.

I wish I could just be spontaneous and not want to curl into a ball and die. I know exactly what to expect, I know it's not going to kill me, I know I've had worse (I've got about 20 piercings). I will be fine.

And I really, really, really want this. Part of me is excited.

But most of me is terrified.