This is my suicide note.

Before i take my own life,

i would like to explain why i can not go on. Although my life has had its pleasures it has been overshadowed by the hardships that has changed my life. My mental illnesses have been the hardest battle. 

I cannot manage the anxiety and panic anymore. When the panic attacks overtake me i cannot control myself, i cannot breathe, i cannot stay inside my own skin. 

The shadow people torment me. My own mind is against me. I hear voices like they are talking to me and say nobody wants you,  
You are the reason that your ties with your family is broken, you are alone and kill yourself. 

Taking care of myself has become impossible when facing my mental illness. 

I want to rest the pain, i cannot live with myself.  

To all my friends and family, i love you all.