It’s driving me crazy and I can’t seem to move past it. I just keep getting rejected. I have moments of clarity that it doesn’t matter but then I get like this.

His ex he experimented with in the bedroom and they did very kinky things but he said he didn’t like it and doesn’t want to do it with me.

It just breaks my heart. Is this important or how can I move past it?

I know I should respect his decision but I just can’t help but feel like she was more special and it drives me sick