I’ve been questioning it for a few days now, and I had something happen to me today that made me certain of it. I don’t really want to go into details, but I ended up accusing a friend of making plans without me and they got hurt, and I feel awful about it. I’ve always felt like my friends secretly dislike me and are on the verge of cutting me off, and as a result I’ve kinda grown distant from them. I’m in my first year of college and I haven’t made a single friend yet, and I just feel so lonely and scared. I already have OCD and panic disorder, and suspected autism. I’m scared to talk to people who are close to me, especially my mom who’s sister has BPD, because I’m scared she either won’t believe me or will resent me for it. I don’t know what the next step should be, and I’m just so scared.