I feel really self obsessed. I realize that whenever someone goes out of their way to talk to me or is nice to me, my brain often decides they might be in love with me. I have very few friends but recently someone showed signs they wanted to be friends with me and have been talking to me regularly, and now I cant stop thinking they might have feelings for me, but I realize that this happens every time, and I guess this kind of attention is probably just normal and not indicative of anything like that I'm assuming, but my brain just automatically jumps to that conclusions. I don't know why because I'm really unlikeable and unattractive and undeniably useless, so it feels strange that I think this. I don't really know if I would even want to be loved; I think I just want to be owned and treated like a toy or a doll. I'm horrible at being a human; I might as well be useful somehow. So, I don't know why I'm so obsessed with myself when I don't want to be loved. Why do I think anyone whose nice to me and gives me attention is in love with me?