I hate having an fp. They broke my heart and made me feel like everything was a lie and that they really never gave a shit about me and now I feel so hopeless and alone. They were my only source of happiness and now I just feel numb. I have nothing I’m happy or excited for in the future, all I know is I’m about to be 18 and I’m not ready to be an adult. Maybe it’s because when you’re a kid, everyone shows care for you, and that’s what’s always made me feel loved, but when I’m an adult no one will care as much anymore. My school situation is messy as well. Yet the thing that is affecting me the most is the ruined relationship with my fp. My hope is so lost that I just cannot continue living anymore.