-Every time I go to the therapist I forget what it is that I wanted to talk about because its just nice to be around someone and I'm not miserable anymore. 

-I want a relationship but I have a fuck ton of insecurities that always fuck it up for me. 
I constantly fear that the person will abandon me. I become jealous. I become possessive and manipulative. 
I think that they will easily find someone more attractive, someone more intelligent, someone more funny etc etc. 
Because I'm boring and ugly.
And inevitably that's what always happens.
My relationships never last long because the person realizes what they are getting themselves into. 

-Really all I want is for someone to want to be around me as much as I want to be around them. But it always seems like I'm the one who wants to be around the other person more. And eventually I always end up doing all of the reaching out as the other person slowly fades away. 

-All I can think about is all of the failed opportunities I have had because of being such an idiot. 

-I think about how she moved on so easily and is having fun with her life. This thought causes immense distress and I cut my arm