I've had enough, my life isn't going anywhere, I don't have any friends, no job, no lover, it's better to die now than see how shit my life will be in the future, which it will be. I've planned it and know where I'm going to do it; all I need now is the courage to carry it out. I've been a recluse for years, never leaving my house for 3 years, and suffering from agoraphobia is just painful on top of that anhedonia where I can't even enjoy the Neet life because Of boredom, plus it just embarrasses me on what I've become when I look around and see people my own age enjoying life, finding their meaning, and achieving their goals. where I've only wasted my time and wasted my adolescent years, now that I'm an adult, I'm going to waste my twenties as well.