I feel like I'm not a real person I don't really exist. I'm just a numb body trying to make people love me. I try to act the way I think people are going to love me because I don't know how to act. Nobody could really like the real (non existent) me. I don't have values and I don't care about anything, the only thing that can make me happy is validation. I tried to have hobbies but at the end of the day these things will never make me happy they just feel empty. What makes me happy is if someone show me affection. Idk I just fucking wish I was normal like a real person