I know that sounds horrible and in no way am I trying to invalidate anyone! Sometimes I just feel like my bpd is worse then everyone else’s in the sense that I feel like I’m beyond repair and or a lost cause. I’ve been diagnosed since fourteen (by three separate professionals) and have been experiencing symptoms since I was 13, and I feel like I’m wasting my youth to a mental illness. I’m living on my own with my FP/boyfriend and DBT is EXPENSIVE but even so I sometimes feel like even with DBT it wouldn’t help because I feel so....helpless. I can’t imagine these things that have been engrained in my mind the last several years being changed I cannot imagine not being in constant distress and agony. I can’t imagine ever being able to control it. So I guess two questions... does DBT work for you and do you ever feel like the worst case scenario when it comes to bpd? Another reason I may feel like I’m worst case is due to all the recent self diagnosers on tik tok and such who do it as a form of clout chasing. I’m not the type of bpd with super high empathy it’s like my love has almost run dry and it makes me so sad because that’s like the only good thing about this illness it seems like and now I just don’t have it anymore... the empathy I mean. Like I’m just 98 percent sad rage and anxiety and two percent empathy and life. But I still have abandonment issues to the point where I’ll send myself into a panic attack if I even think about my boyfriend leaving me like the kind that leaves you paralyzed in fear. I see people talking about their bpd and their high empathy and i feel jealous because i have such high empathy for children but then it comes to everyone else and now i rarely feel it which also in a way makes me feel like a fake bpd when i know thats not the case