(tw/ mention of suicide attempt)
i'm currently in a psych ward to get better with my collection of mental illnesses but my fp influences my mood so much, i feel so anxious all the time waiting for his texts. He is just a friend I have been having sex with but I feel like I want more but also would be way too much and unstable for him but without that my head is a mess but if i told him how i felt he would stop talking to me and it would go downhill again. I tried to kill myself last week and was in a coma, now I dont wanna end up to that point again bc how bad it was for my family but god why are all of my relationships so unstable and affecting me that much im so lost with what to do do i tell him do i not tell him