I have extreme fear of abandonment. I always think that the people I care about will leave me if not now eventually especially when they find out all my ’true self’ (I don’t think I’m a good person)As a result it’s literally impossible for me to fully trust someone. If I do tell them something private I automatically begin preparing myself for when I’d get exposed or something. I don’t know how to stop thinking this because people are prone to gossiping or violating trust when upset with someone and I can’t really prevent it. 

I get that I don’t have to share everything with people but I share secrets and insecurities to see if they’d still like me regardless and to bond. Which leads to me over sharing. I just really want someone that will never leave me and always love me but it’s not realistic and it distresses me deeply. I struggle to live in the present due to that and end up thinking about something negative even when I’m happy.

I also tend to get obsessed with people mainly romantic. I hate it when they are busy or take long to reply to messages I begin to wonder if I am doing something wrong. I try my best to give people space but it’s tricky. Especially with my boyfriend I feel like his is going to leave me and it gives me panic attack thinking about it. Any advice would be great 🙏