I’m a quiet BPD. Born and raised in a middle class family, just got my master’s degree and people always say I’m cute and pretty.

I tried to commit suicide once in Dec. 2018. Living with BPD is like living hell.

None of the antidepressants works for me. I have tried ashwagandha, kava kava, valerian. But my symptom is just too severe to treat. I don’t live in USA and can’t get cannabis and ketamine infusion. Sigh...

Thinking about trying Kratom. Has anyone tried it and found it useful?

Any other legal or illegal drug recommendation? (I live in China and Hong Kong)

I really need your help. I’m thinking about suicide in a month.