I feel as I’ve always been the third wheel in all of my friendships. Every single one I’d slowly drift into the background until I’d basically just leave and no one would realise. It’s not even ghosting when the other people don’t notice your presence in the first place. I’m always the tag along. So I stopped trying. Now I have 0 meaningful friendships but it’s better than constantly feeling like an outsider with people you care about. Even my closest friends who I’d known for over 15 years slowly ditched me and then outright cut me off. Which is fine. Things change. People change but it does suck.