I can deal with never having enough money for all the nessecities. I can deal with my mother losing her job again. I can deal with needing to move and trying to get into college. I can deal with working full time while doing all of that. I cannot deal with my mother's depression and anxiety on top of my own. I can deal with the rest of it. I can cry and worry and not know what's going to happen but as soon as she calls or I she her crying or she sits in her bed all day and does nothing. My heart goes so fast I can barely breathe and my mind runs in all directions and I can't handle it. Unfortunately it's not likely to change anytime soon so I guess I will be not handling it for a while.