There's this guy who I want to befriend. I don't think I want to sleep with him, I don't think I want to date him, but I care a lot about getting him to like me as a friend and to be my friend. I have other people in my life who are more open to friendship with me and I'm a bit closed off with them, really because I know we don't have much in common and they actually kind of bother me in some ways (too normal, too chirpy, too friendly..) but with this guy, I care too much. I care too much when I'm around him, I care too much if he doesn't reply, I care too much if he thinks I'm cool or not. I like some parts of his character but not all parts, he's not a totally amazing stand up guy, but I want him to like me... 

I asked him if he was free tonight to hang out, he didn't see my message, I'm totally down about it and can't even muster a smile, I just want to sleep it off. I don't even care if he dates another girl, but I just want to be around him and accepted by him. Ugh. Lame. 