I used to be suicidal and have incredibly low self esteem. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar type 2, Anxiety, possibly ADHD (I'm prescribed adderall) and have experienced severe depression. My grades were shit and I was always getting sad and suicidal over the smallest things. That doesn't happen anymore, and instead I just seem to not care. Which could be considered good, but now I don't seem to care about anything. I barely laugh and I barely get sad. I only get mad. On the positive side I no longer want to kill myself and I can get over and accept things better after going through an outpatient program. I just feel like I'm not truly "better", because although I've resolved all the problems that caused me to be suicidal, there is still one left that has been and continues to be the worst, my relationship with my parents. My grades continue to suck and I fight with them more than ever, even though I'm taking adderall to help with homework and lithium to stabilize myself, I'm still very volatile around my parents, and I feel like I'm not as responsive and open to the world anymore, as I tend to ignore a lot of things. 
What do y'all think. Have I truly gotten better? Is it better to want to live but barely have any emotions, rather than having so many emotions you don't want to live? If my meds haven't fixed the problem with academics and family, what am I doing wrong? 
I know I can continue to get better but I don't want to go back to the hospital or change my meds again. so I think it's up to me to change myself further, I just don't know how.

