I've been having a severe depressive episode this last few months and my boyfriend has been having a difficult time dealing with it. I think I've driven him away because I'm always low energy and different from the person he fell in love with. I don't know how to go back to how I was. I've lost my hobbies, my friends, my academic performance because of depression and now I'm about to lose my boyfriend as well. I can't take it anymore. I just want to give up and kill myself already.