last year while i was in the army, i was diagnosed with bipolar 2 but i never felt it really represented what i was going through because my mood swings were way too frequent and i constantly told my psychiatrist that i dealt with feelings (that i would come to learn now are feelings of rejection and abandonment) and he didn’t pay attention to them. he was more inclined to get me out as soon as possible. but as time has progressed and i’ve looked back at my relationships (past and current) i have realized that he chose an easy cop out but i relate to the symptoms of bpd more than anything in my life and i just don’t know how to deal with it. listening to my ex gfs relationships about me, it seems that i fit the profile so perfectly especially since i’ve gone untreated for about a year now. i didn’t even use to take my bipolar medication either but i’m just having so much trouble trying to figure out who i am and how to deal with all this on a daily basis. it has caused all of my relationships in the past year to end and now my father and i are estranged. i just don’t know how to do this when you don’t have people that are supportive or understanding of your mental illness. and i don’t know how to do it alone because i constantly feel like i need someone and i need to feel validated and appreciated always. i don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me