Basically to sum it up, I've been struggling with lack of energy for years now. I'm always so tired and don't have the motivation to do anything. I don't talk to any of my friends anymore unless I'm forced to be around them (like work) and I spend a lot of my time after work in my bed not really doing much. I physically cannot bring myself to do anything at all, even the things I enjoy. 

I realized I was depressed almost two years ago due to working an extremely stressful and demanding job. I was crying nearly every single day. My husband was understanding during this time. 

I got out of this job three months ago and I currently work from home. I don't "feel" depressed but I'm still experiencing the exhaustion and the no desire to do anything. My husband came to me recently and pretty much said that he feels disconnected from me, misses us doing stuff together and just misses the person I was before. I'm not affectionate and my libido is very low and I do spend a lot of my time alone so i understand how he feels. He told me it's been making him depressed. I honestly feel so shitty that my behavior has been affecting him so much. 

I just can't bring myself to get out of this rutt. I am so tired all the time and I feel glued to the bed. I don't want this to ruin my marriage but idk what to do. I just feel stuck. It's funny bc I don't feel depressed anymore but I'm still exhibiting the same patterns and behaviors as I did before. 

I'm too scared to see a therapist bc I've heard so many bad things and I have pretty bad social anxiety so idk if I'll feel comfortable taking to someone about my issues. But I desperately want to be normal again. I don't like being like this and also knowing I'm bringing my husband down as well..