I can’t tell if I’m in a manic state or what’s going on .

I am super stressed out with weekends being alone and having no one around .
I am not saying I need anyone to raise my kids but it would be so helpful if I could find someone willing to help me out so I can complete school work or go shopping by myself.

My husband is at work so I have a hard time with doing the same things every day over and over. I feel like all I do is trying to entertain my kids, clean, cook, and that’s it. 

This is when I tend to overspend, want to get a boob job, go on a trip etc. 

I just started crying and having a panic attack because my kids won’t go to bed.  My 3 year old didn’t nap today and I’ve been nonstop since this morning at 7 am.

I just need some kind words. I feel like I’m gonna lose my mind.