I’ve been having trouble falling asleep because I’ll forget to breathe before drifting off. I’ll have to gasp for breath and then I get a surge of heightened heartbeats and I feel extremely scared. 

I’ll continually wake up through the night and get anxious about how tired I’ll be the next day.

Then during the day I feel as if I’m in a haze and I can’t function, am really clumsy and uncoordinated, and get anxiety that I’ll hurt myself.

During the day I also feel I can’t get a fulfilling yawn out, I just gasp and gasp and hope I get the satisfaction of a yawn but nothing. I wait for a deep breath because my breaths feel short. I don’t know why this is happening so bad, I’ve always known I’ve had anxiety but it hasn’t ever been like this.

I’ve been smoking marijuana more often and sometimes get paranoia but it helps me sleep so it’s a duel ended sword. I also have been under severe work stress and am in a higher position due to a promotion and am afraid of discussing my mental health with my boss in fear they’ll question why they picked me.

I’m sorry, I just don’t know what to do. :(