I feel like I cannot give up self-harm, at most I stopped was about 6 weeks and then badly relapsed and would end up cutting for 4 days in a row after the relapse. If I don't self-harm, I just walk around like a complete nervous wreck. I just need this to regulate my emotions. All these other methods- drawing on your arm, using an ice cube etc. don't work for me, they don't make me feel good- I don't get that rush. What scares me the most is that I now only get the high out of self harm if I cut deeper and small cuts don't seem to do it.