Guilt: i have a constant feeling of guilt. It feels like I have butterflies in my stomach, but sometimes the feeling gets stronger, and it feels like its seeping out of me. Nothing necessarily triggers it; at least nothing i can recognize. Even when i cant recognize the trigger, i start to think about things i should feel guilty for and i just make myself feel bad for it. On really bad days, it can move me to tears. For example, today is mothers day. I have no money from being on maternity leave, and i didnt get my mom a gift. I cant stop thinking about it, and i cant stop thinking about the idea that she is actually super mad at me for it. Just wondering if anybody else feels this every day?

Distress: im not even sure if this is the right term for what im describing. Basically, whenever i find out that someone is doing something that i dont like, i take it so personal and i feel this overwhelming sense of distress. It hurts me physically. I can literally feel my stomach turn, my body gets warm, i can feel my entire body basically just "shut off", and i just start crying and screaming. Sometimes i get destructive. When the episode is over, i just stare into space for a good 10 minutes or longer, and then i am fine. For example, i had found out a friend had lied to me about watching a TV show without me. I got so upset because we had watched everything together, and the show was on our list to watch *together*. I never told her how upset i was because i played it off like it was nothing. In reality, i was crying, shaking, screaming, throwing stuff, etc., thinking about how much i hated her and thinking that she was doing it to spite me. I got so upset that i told her "i hope you enjoy the show without me, cause im never going to watch it." AFTER i told her i was fine. I continued to be mad at her when she asked me what my problem was. Then when i calmed, i texted her asking her if she was mad at me, if she could forgive me, and blah blah blah. After my episodes, i get so exhausted that i can hardly even think. I just stare off into space for god knows how long, and go to bed. Just wondering if anyone ever feels this way, too.