I am dealing with tremendous amount of stress right now in my life and I constantly have episodes of mood swinging, extreme anxiety and panic attack. Every time this happens, my boyfriend wouldn't know what to do and I feel extremely bad about it.  I become more dependent on him and while I realize that although it is not healthy at all, but I can't help but seeing him as the only person to rely on in my life right now. 

It is a vicious cycle for me. I would make him do things for me, then feel extreme;y guilty about it, then isolate myself and then I would need him to bring me out of that isolation.

I really need help on what can I do to maintain this relationship healthily because so many times, I wanted to break up so I wouldn't bother him anymore but he always protest it. And I love him a lot as well.