Pretty self explanatory, every time I think I have myself figured out or at least a vague idea of what I want to do, I just reset and return to having zero clue of what I want to do.

All this is really fucking with me too sending me into periods of depression followed by motivation, quickly followed by depression again because I hit a snag in my dumbass initial idealizations of the career Im looking into and just end up sending myself spiraling all the time lately.

I just dont know what to dooooo. I know I like to go by feel with whatever Im doing (literally. think racecar driver for example), but I cant find anything that seems within reach or something that...aligns with me (?) I guess.

Dont know where this post is going, just any input or even recommendations would be nice. Cheers