i hate existing and being perceived. i hate having long hair and i hate having short hair. i hate my natural hair and my dyed hair. i hate that i feel like i’m an impostor no matter how many tattoos or piercings i get. i hate that everything about me feels like a pathetic caricature. i feel like a try hard loser and a poser who no one takes seriously. i hate getting catcalled when i’m wearing 3 sweaters and a leather jacket. i hate that i’ll always be a she and never a they because people don’t respect that shit. i hate that men look at me and women don’t. i hate my voice, my demeanor, and how i express myself. and i HATE THAT I HATE MYSELF!!! why can’t i just know what i am and be that forever! FUUUUUCKKK god I HATE FEELING THIS WAY WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING BE!!!