Ive tried weed. Every strand makes a bad trip, it even happened with my brother. I saw death and he walked all the way home with a panic attack.

I tried drinking but it doesnt make me happy. Im a depressed drunk. And i couldnt get hooked anyways.

I tried religion. Im too much of an overthinker for it to work out.

Having every coping mechanism not work makes me feel even more alienated. I cant even do the addict lifestyle right.