Okay so first off, I(18F) was a bad kid. I was a spoiled brat and nobody really liked me, which is understandable. I wasn’t good in school and I would always cry and throw tantrums and I was just a nuisance to everyone. So I played soccer and softball as a kid. I played flag football when I was 5/6 but I don’t remember any of it. My dad was one of the coaches for both soccer and softball. I wasn’t good at either sport. I do remember trying my hardest but I was never as good as any of the other kids and my dad would get frustrated cause he didn’t understand why I wasn’t good at the sport. He would get mad at me quite a bit but it was understandable, I mean I would get a little frustrated too. I remember during one soccer game he got really bad at me, I think he may have pulled at the collar of my shirt but I don’t fully remember I’m probably just making it up. But anyways, after him getting mad at me I got upset and started to cry and made myself feel sick. I was the goalie and I kneeled now to signal that I wasn’t feeling good but my dad kept telling me to get back up but I didn’t really want to, and thankfully another mom came to me and asked if I was okay. I would try to get out of practices and games but once I talked my mom into not taking me my dad would find out and told me that I needed to go and that the team needed me, which wasn’t true. I played soccer until I was 7/8. I played softball until I went to middle school. My dad would get mad at me during softball too, and I don’t think the kids really liked me there either. I think everyone would kinda get frustrated cause I wasn’t good and probably kept my team from winning. I was scared of the ball and my dad told me to not me afraid but I still was and I didn’t listen to him. I should’ve just listened to him honestly this is my fault. God I was such a horrible kid. Idk if it’s trauma or if it’s me overreacting, I just want someone else’s opinion or just share a similar experience or support, Idk, I just needed to get it off my chest.