(F18) for context: my abusive ex got hired at my job, and him and his friend were making fun of me in the break room. i told the managers then i told my sister because i was that embarrassed/anxious. my sister came up to my job looking for them and i didn’t stop her. she found his friend and called him out on it. he got upset, and told the manager who tried to call his cousins. of course i had gotten the scolding, and as a result i felt guilty and apologized to him for the incident. we worked it out and it’s fine, but i cannot help but feel guilty/not guilty at the same time.

how do i control these retaliation urges?