I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years now and we are planning on getting engaged soon, we are on a long distance relationship and we've had terrible times as well as the most amazing ones. When it's good it's great, but when it's bad it's awful. We are always on those sites extremes and I wish it wasn't like that because most of the fights I pick them to sabotage myself, like I know I don't wanna fight but something inside is trying to find the minimum detail to start a fight to the point of breaking up. I disgust me. My mood swings are so creepy that my boyfriend sometimes looks at me with fear. And while all is great right now, I just found something to create a massive fight which is her ex still being in town and she even working at the mall we just went earlier, God, she even had a picture of a town I just took a picture earlier as well! He doesn't know all this, he obviously doesn't follow her and has her blocked too. Am I crazy for wishing he never runs into her? He doesn't like malls, they both have different lives, he's about to buy a ring for me for the love of God. I need some serious grip. 