Tw: eating disorder, self harm



So I’ve been having a very bad time recently. I’ve relapsed with my eating disorder and I’m wanting to cut again so badly. My girlfriend knows about the eating disorder part and I feel so bad because she worries and I know it upsets her. She doesn’t know about the cutting part (or at least the degree of it).

I’ve always been a very private person and I don’t know how to talk to people about stuff like this. I don’t know how to tell people I am struggling. I feel like if I were to cut again (not saying I’m going to) I would want to keep it from her. But on the other hand it feels disrespectful to her. I’m also worried that if I do tell her she will see how crazy I am and push me away. She struggles a lot with mental health too and she’s usually very understanding, but everyone has their limits and I don’t know if this would be it for her.

Does anyone have any advice or an objective opinion? Thank you❤️