but honestly i don’t know why i’m here. i’ve failed three semesters in a row and go here for free. im only on track, barely at that, to graduate because of some ap credits from high school. i was sold some stupid american dream idea, and now i live in a prison that makes up this horrible institution. i don’t even know about grad school that’s coming up, i have no professors to ask for letters of recommendations. i have no goals. im here because i was told going to college was the goal. i made it to the goal and now im left with texting my therapist everyday because i feel like my constant depression bullshit is annoying to all my friends. i accomplished this thing that’s been sold as such a big deal, going to college, and now im here and about to finish and can barely get out of bed. there’s some classes where i haven’t even gone since the first week of school. im stuck and live in an unending cycle of getting unstuck to getting stuck to getting unstuck again. i hate my life and every privilege that comes with it just as equally as all the bullshit