My ex and I split 2 years ago (12+ year relationship). I've made friends, dated, hooked up, isolated, been in the gym 5x/week, found a hobby, and I still feel empty. I know my problems pale in comparison to most but I can't shake this. Some days are good, most days are terrible, and there is always a cloud there. I keep pushing on for my family but I dont want to live like this forever. I'm exhausted. 'Happiness' seems like an emotion only attainable in my past life now. Im in my late 20's and looking to the future is scary. Therapy hardly worked as I know my problems and have given all the suggestions presented to me a try. A large part of me died the day we split and I see no personal growth on the horizon.  And truly I don't even know why I am posting this. It isn't for pity. Im just sad. Thanks for anyone reading. I wish everyone here the best. Love always