it was a rollercoaster of emotions, I hated him then I felt like crying then I was angry then sad again then I decided I needed absolutely no one and was going to cut everyone off I felt like he found me annoying secretly hated me and was avoiding me because of it. Today he called me he told me he had a tournament and then he was feeling pretty down cause his depression so he wasn’t checking his phone at all this weekend, me of all people should understand that I feel silly but whats even worse is that I still feel like he hates me and is uninterested in me because of his tone of voice on the phone he told me it was cause he was yelling all day due to work so he was tired but I still feel like he was annoyed we barely talked he said he was in the middle of playing a game with his friends and had to get back to it I feel like everyday my brain finds a reason for me to think him or someone else hates me even when they give me logical explanations and obviously i can’t ask for reassurance 10 times a day I hate it why does everything have to feel so bad why do I have to take everything to heart I wish I could just see things for what they are instead of overthinking