Hi! I’ve never posted on reddit so i’m sorry if i’m doing this all wrong. I also struggle to articulate my feelings so please bear with me! I really want to know if anyone else feels like when their BPD is actively effecting them, that it’s another person taking over and the real you is in there quietly whispering but the other person has taken full control and is shouting over you? I literally see my bpd almost as a, hurt sister? I see it completely separate from myself and I feel like when it’s triggered I have absolutely no control and I have no idea who “that person” is. It’s like the steering wheel of my life has been ripped away from me and I’m just watching the car speed off into the wrong direction. Most of the time, I don’t even remember what happened, what I said, or how I even got triggered in the first place. I know that’s dissociation, but I’m wondering why to me it feels like my BPD is another person entirely?