Why was I even born? I have no natural talent, I’m ugly, I’m annoying, I’m anti-social, I’m literally the singular most useless human being to step foot on this earth. Why was I put into this world if I serve no purpose? I’ve been thinking maybe if I got a girlfriend maybe I’d be happier but I’m too ugly to even have a chance with any girl, I can barely even talk to a guy let alone a random woman I see that I find attractive. I envy people who just can breeze through life because of their genetics and looks. I’m so stupid, I’m terrible at everything school related, all of this has made me feel like I’m better off blasting my fucking brains out in the woods where nobody will hear me. I have a long history with self-harm and I’ve been self-harm free for like 90 days or so until yesterday when I just gave up, I don’t know how much further I can go.