I just finished highschool and i have been working my ass off to get in the university i want and at this point i don't think i have any chances. Also, i have been depressed for years without anyone knowing and everyday for the past months i've been feeling like a dissapointment to my parents and i know i am gonna dissapoint them. The thing is that everytime someone asks me where i see myself in 5 years i don't really see myself here and i jockingly say that i hope that i'll be alive but the truth is that i am not jocking and i think about killing myself every night