Got ghosted by my FP and literally dont know how to cope. I have so many questions. Not to mention that I just fucking miss him. Feels like I've been stabbed in the chest but no one gets it and I'm expected to still go to work and function as an adult? 

Not sure how much pain like this I can take. Just want it to stop. Considering self harm and/or worse. Been drinking a lot more. Finished DBT a month ago but pretty much have thrown that out the window.

Meant for this post to be a lot clearer but I cant seem to articulate what I'm going through. Hopefully someone here gets it. Really dont know how to get through another day.