So I know some women with autism get misdiagnosed with BPD, but I definitely have BPD.

I also suspect autism traits. I have a sibling and parent on the spectrum. I can’t read people, especially facial expressions. They often seem blank to me. When I can tell there’s a difference, I often have trouble identifying the emotion. I also often have trouble telling how I caused offense (although it may be painfully obvious later). I have trouble detecting sarcasm. And while most people can pick up on social cues and body language, etc, naturally, it has to get spelled out to me. I don’t understand social norms, etc.

I would really like help for this as it’s contributing to social isolation, but I’m afraid to seek help due to the stigma of BPD. With the help of DBT, I eliminated behaviors to the point where it got taken off my chart, and I don’t want it going back on because it could affect treatment down the line (including if I have physical symptoms).

It drives me crazy. I really wish there wasn’t a stigma. And I wish mental health professionals acknowledged that people with personality disorders who want to get better can get better.  But they assume our desire to get better is only for ourselves and not for others. 

I fucking hate the stigma. Hopefully we will one day view personality disorders in a different light.