So I’ve been in quarantine and after debating if I should leave the church I go to (which I’m probably gonna leave) I’ve felt lonely. I tell myself being lonely and wanting a better life is normal for quarantine. But now my mind keeps coming up with typical depression thoughts. My OCD did the same with the fear of schizophrenia (which I never developed). I see any old person and I think “I never wanna be that old because life will feel pointless”. And I had the thought “what is the point of life?” I already know my answer but my mind came up with this since it’s going along with what I fear. My reasons were living for God, pursuing my career, starting a family, etc. since I’m Christian I know that when I die it’s more of changing locations and “starting over” like you’d do if you’re trying to restart your life like some people do. My mind won’t calm down tho. I only feel lonely now if I keep thinking and obsessing about it. I don’t stay in bed, or have a hard time doing anything. Heck I’ve been more motivated. I’ve made 2 songs in 2 days which are really good. That’s never happened before. If I made a song in a day before it was really bad but this time I think they’re good. So I clearly know it’s my mind messing with me. So how do I deal with this? And has anyone else experienced this?