Recently I hung out with a group of friends, none of whom are my FP. I talk to them somewhat regularly, usually every other day give or take. I don't mind when they don't get back to me nor do I mind if we don't hang out for a few days. It's healthy, and yet it feels wrong. I also have an FP who I talk to pretty much every day. I get angry when he doesn't text back ASAP. I learned recently that he chooses to talk to someone else after he gets home from his currently-busy weekdays. It was like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. And somehow, that relationship feels right. That's the relationship that I want. I want to obsess over someone. Why can't I just be happy with normal relationships? My life would be so much easier if I just had normal friends, and not friendships that were built on a foundation of talking to each other everyday for hours and hours at a time. Now that my FP is getting busier and, apparently, has a romantic interest, it feels like I'm being left behind.