Today was Mother’s Day but my mom cooked the dinner for us and I feel terrible about it. Ideally I’d like to keep up with therapy, which I started last week. But as for the other commitments I’m considering like volunteering, day treatment, and support group, they are things I’d prefer not to get involved in right now. It feels like I have a hard time with social interaction and every time I start something new, my mind starts trying to get me to do even more and the obsessive thoughts are never ending. I want to try my best to be a good daughter. My family are happier when I work on my weight and do more around the house, but I don’t know if they care whether or not I spend one day a week volunteering with no intention of getting back into the workforce. I’m reading a good slice of life manga which makes me want to work on myself, dress neat, and soul search. I’m reading 2017/18 journal entries and it feels like the sunset before life got dark again. I’d like to look nice, help out with chores, do some reading, and maybe get my life back on track. My parents are starting to move stuff to the new house.