I'm in my mid thirties, so I'm old enough to know that this is it for me. I failed at life, and I'm not talking about a materialistic failure, or even in terms of status or goals. I didn't failed because of a career, or societal expectations.

I failed morally. I did not became the type of man I thought I was going to be when I was younger and this is one of the things that makes me suicidal, falling short of my own ideals and ethics.

I did not lived up to my potential, I strayed from the path and self destroyed. I could have been a better human being, keyword HUMAN, I was chasing the wrong things in life and this is where that got me.