I'm lucky enough to present at this big conference in June.
First time doing something like this.
I rehearsed just now.
I am on hypervigilant alert for negative thoughts.
They started coming right before I started the rehearsal.
I used seroquel to sleep last night.
It made me foggy as hell.
So I think that influenced my first rehearsal, I was a little short on time. 
I'm able, right now, to not follow any of these thoughts and just write them down.
It didn;t help that I was looking at my stopwatch a few times so I knew I was going too fast.
That probably influenced this.
But the thoughts were just insidious. Just having them come up in my mind and not reacting threw me off the presentation.
Is anyone else amazed at how nasty it is when you start tracking them??
I feel capable. I will add more slides, or I will simply do the same thesis presentation.

I realize that I should have simply presented my thesis entirely instead of focusing on one section. The bully in my head had a lot to do with that (no you cant do the same thing twice! Whats wrong with you). I'm going to email the conference right now to ensure that they would be okay with it.
So I did and the voice is now telling me I should have given them more time!
Mental Filtering right?
My mind takes the bad and tells me about it and forgets about the good.

It amazes me that we can't even do anything at all sometimes.
No matter what it's there.  I'm glad I'm getting better. I'm glad I recognize.