I have BPD, been diagnosed 3 or 4 years ago, stopped taking any meds about 2 years ago.
I was functioning decently, until last november, when my 9 year-old sister died. Now I am completely destroyed, almost losing my job and house, my whole body is scarred and with fresh wounds, and I pushed everyone away. I tried to kill myself twice in the last few days, I dunno what to do anymore.