I’ve struggled with this my whole life. It sucks. Im slowly learning to become better at managing this… lately I’ve been struggling.

I’ve been friends with 2 of these girls forever.. they honestly have been very good friends to me.. another girl had started to hang out with us ( we were friends growing up before I just brought her in to hangout with all of us) and I feel like ever since she’s been in the picture ive been pushed to the side. It’s drained me. I moved away to better my future but only an hour… 

I had the other girl (that recently appeared) apart of my bachelorette party we were previously friends before they brought her in.. and she made it 1000 % about herself while being there. Complained and got clicky… 

My dad passed away a few months ago… so I’ve had such bad anxiety and depression… I’m 26 going on 27. This age group is just so hard and I hate my 20s 🥺 anyway, the girl that I brought into the friend group her mom came to my dads viewing… and she told me that her daughter had texted me (the girl I brought into the group) and mind you I’d been talking to people all day I didn’t know… I hadn’t had time to check my phone.. and when I did this is the exact words of the text: 

“Evening, I’m sorry I cannot be there to pay my respects. I’m sick. If you or your mom need anything let me know”

Sound obligated to you? Me too.

Now this girl is getting married and my other two friends are just up her a$$ and make me feel like I’m non existent. I feel like I have to constantly check in or give a phone call to even talk to them.. mind you my other two “friends” talk crap about this girl non stop to me when I’m around. I don’t get it? Is it me? 

Someone give me advice… and if you stuck with me and read through this… thank you 💗

I feel so alone.