Hey, this will probably sound terrible but here goes\~

I just learned of my BPD yesterday, as a guy who matches with a 9/9.  And this comes off as both of a relief as I now know what the problem actually is, as this has been the primary driving force behind much of my heavy drug use.  Personally, the substances I've done up until now have (embarrassingly) been: nicotine, booze, pot, MDMA, Barbs, Ice, ketamine, cocaine, acid, shrooms, speed, and opioids.  I'm not proud but just appalled that I've done all of this... as I would do so to help me survive without having FP in my life.  But I wonder how common this is for those with BPD.

Is this something any of you can relate to?  Be it actual drugs/alcohol or something else that is similarly addictive?  

I imagine that success with a FP would help alleviate engagement with drugs, or similarly addictive habits moreso than anything else.  It could sound like a far-fetched fantasy, but I do sincerely believe that the love of a cherished human being will virtually kill the need for drugs, or any other similar coping mechanism altogether.

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Thanks .