I’ve never been more insecure, and discomforted from my everyday life. From family to friends, anxiety is been something that has majorly affected my life and makes me question about my future and how it will be.  First of all, long ago I wasn’t like this but the opposite. I didn’t care at all about everything I did and whatever anybody said about me. I had a good time as a kid. Back in my country. I had a lot to enjoy for and live normally. At 11 years old, I got the  announcement that my family and I were moving to the US. For work purposes. I moved all the way from Venezuela to here. I was amazed by the differences in here economically, and overall how the place was. It felt different. I don’t know how I can tell. I was excited when I got to my new home, an apartment. I was the only son my parents had, Back then. First day here went about looking around and meeting the place. I had to go school later on. 6th grade, first day on school, I went in with very little practice of English, barely could talk, but greetings and questions. I ain’t gonna say much about the year, but I had nobody, and I mean nobody to talk to, only a Hispanic group of students that asked me for homework only, cuz they never had it. I didn’t have much to do after the day, always went home and watch TV for the day. Always. It went like that for the year. I didn’t mind a lot back then, but it paved the foundation for who I am today, After the year ended, I reflected on it. And realized the kind of shit I went through and did every single day. I realized then, that the way I was outgoing and social was no more. It drastically affected me. After that I moved, for 7th grade to a new school. By then, the way I was changed. I’m lucky for the people I’ve met, that are still my friends to this day. And also I had refined my English and I could spoke it with no problem. But life goes on, I’m now on high school, with very few people, I can call my friends, and really quiet throughout the day, and I can’t barely talk to anybody, every time I know I have to talk and say something to anybody, my heart starts beating insanely fast, and stutter pretty often. Even though I know I can talk to anybody, I don’t, talk about what? I say, my mind goes completely blank,  and I just awkwardly sit around. And say to myself I’ll do better. And tired and I don’t know what to do, I really am, I’ve stopped living and I don’t enjoy who I am. Life don’t hit the same anymore. I’m athletic and very good at basketball and baseball. I’m pretty much good looking. My bad if I sound corny, but I’m being honest. I wanna change for the good, but I don’t know how. Thanks for reading and for understanding.