i’ve just accepted the fact i will always feel like this. its just me vs. the world. nothing is going for me; im failing school, my father disowned me, my sister (who i live with) hasn’t said a word to me in weeks. my mom just feels sorry for me… she’s just waiting for me to move out. and i already hear the comments.. get therapy, dont kys, etc. for one ive been in therapy on and off for years. its bullshit and anyone who has actively been to therapy for a little while knows that. and for the second part, that idea doesn’t cross my mind because i know it would kill my mother. i just feel so alone i hope someone gets it. i would give everything for a happy life. but i am just so sad. all the time. its sadness i wake up to every more and rest my eyes at night with. im just so sad and disgusted with myself.