Over a month ago I saw a guy. I was talking to him and then decided I was going to drive 41/2 hours to see him. I was kinda in Lala land. I figured I knew everything about him because we dated like 8 years ago. I put him on a petal stool. Anyway he invited me to stay with him for like 3 days. I was a little crazy and telling him I wanted to marry him, move in etc. i wasn’t at my best and wasn’t thinking logically. I slept with him a lot. He told me he did like me. On the third day I drove home and once I made it home he decided to tell me that he actually didn’t have feeling for me at all. Well that got me spiralling. I tried to kill myself. Ended up in the mental hospital. Of course told him and he told me I had to respect his wishes. Blah blah blah. I did. I told him once my crush is gone ill contact him. A month later I try to contact him. Ignored. I’ve probably sent like 30 messages of how he might not want me but I want him in my life even if it’s friendship. Ugh. Why can’t I just let him go? Why won’t I just move forward…. Maybe it’s karma for all the things I did to other people in my past. I don’t know. All I can say is why can’t my brain leave him alone?