Well i guess this doesn't belong here anymore since i haven't been diagnosed with bpd (or anything else for that matter) but this has been my safe space so far but..

I went there with a list made of symptoms or whatever things that bother me. Today was one of the ok days. I spoke coherently. I thought coherently. Or at least that's what i showed.

How can i appear to be so normal and ok to people and yet usually when im alone it's emotional rollercoaster and crying and switching perspectives per minute and self harm? How can i fake it that much, or not fake it but simply switch behaviors and still that's normal and not even fitting into depression? Why can't anyone see my bad days the way i see them?

Anyway, i ve been prescribed Prozac and I'll see i guess, but i feel so hopeless. I don't belong anywhere and I'm just faking my entire behavior i guess