*Hey,* 
 
*First of all, hai! I've been lurking here for a whole bunch of months now, but I never really did much outside of giving thumbs ups on threads.*  
 
*I've been running into some questions recently though and wanted to see if somebody might know a trick or two for a specific issue of mine (and maybe also for some others too?).* 
 
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I have a really nice fiancé who is currently trying to teach me some things on a videogame called 'SMITE'. There's not much to know about it for this post, other than that it has various lanes and positions. If you're familiar with games like 'League Of Legends' or alike, you'll get it. Either way, I had finally agreed to let him help me, because he knows a ton about the game. 
 
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It is kind of a bit overwhelming for me, because I literally have no idea of what I am doing. I have rough knowledge about what I am supposed to do, but I am not familiar with the small details yet, which is where I need help from him. 
 
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I don't really ask a LOT, because I am too focused on trying to do whatever it is I am supposed to and since I am such a scrub at the game mode, I screw up things quite a bit (= reacting too late, not doing things I am supposed to etc.). 
 
A lot of times he gets frustrated (I get it, it requires patience and other people get it way quicker and easier), which obviously really discourages me. A few times I also feel like my feelings / opinions are being invalidated, e.g. when I say that something is really hard for me and he tells me that "I am overthinking it" (Of course I am. It's part of BPD and it's hard to just 'turn off'. I'm really trying my best).
 
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I really want to learn this mode, but more often than not I get really discouraged based on his reactions AND obviously knowing and seeing that I am a scrub. It just puts a lot of pressure on me and it gets even worse for me, because he is a professional coach for the game. I sometimes told him that "his coach is showing", in the sense that he is talking to me like I am a pro player, which obviously overwhelms me. At some point I also always feel like I am being "yelled" at. 
 
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So I guess my question is, **how can I just make this all way less frustrating for both of us?** 
 
**Have any of you ever had somebody else teach you something and how did it go / what's the best way? Is it required to ask someone else for help or...?** 
 
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My idea yesterday was to maybe go to a private game with 2 friends, where I don't have to deal with random, unforseen stuff, so I might have an easier time learning. But what after? And even outside of the game, what if I'd like to learn other things, where the solution may not always be that simple? 
 
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*I've talked about my BPD with him a lot already and I am trying to explain things as much and understandable as I can, but during instances like these I feel like I must have done a horrible job?* 
 
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*I'm so sad. I want to learn...*