Is it just me or is there an inversely proportional relationship between how close a FP is, physically, and how strong the feelings for them? I've noticed that in person, I feel like we're just friends. When he walks away/interacts with others, I feel like a fan rooting for my favorite team. When we don't speak for a long time, my feelings start to get confusing. A couple of times I thought maybe I'm starting to crush on him, but they went away as soon as we met up. 

I get the feeling my brain is pumping whatever chemicals it thinks will get me to take action and be close to him, because them not being around feels like abandonment. I sometimes find myself looking through our texts to feel him closer. Like, brain, can you not?!