This question has been ringing in my mind for a while now. Probably for a few years now.  I've come to a point in my life where I don't take any enjoyment in majority of the things. Especially things that I considered my hobbies. I don't remember the last time I was happy or laughed genuinely without feeling crushed. It's been 10 years now. 

In all honesty, I'm not sure if this normal. I have acquaintances. I do have two friends, but I'm not close enough with them to be real. It seems I'm putting on an act and on most days I'm so exhausted that I appear to be a quiet, timid and sad person I guess. Somehow I fail to form meaningful connections. My significant other is my only company on most days and my conversation partner. I'm always using technology not because I love spending time on my phone but because i want to keep myself distracted from having unpleasant feelings. I did have aspirations career wise, but I feel like I can't pretend to function anymore and due to this I might struggle in my professional life regardless of the job I take.

Just looking for some input. I'm really confused. I don't know if people go through this generally.