I love my wife and daughter but lately I just don't see the point anymore.

Every day is the same. Wake up, put on the same fake smile that doesn't fool your wife. Sit at the computer for hours a day trying to find clients (I'm an artist. Cliche, right?) Fail at finding clients. Eat. Sleep. Repeat.

I've never really been great at anything. I'm an ok husband, decent artist, I like to think I'm an ok dad. never great though. Everything is always a struggle. Financially, mentally, physically. 

I feel like every day is another wasted life that someone else could be utilizing. I feel like such a waste of a human being. Most of the time I'm struggling to keep my eyes open. I'm just so tired nowadays.

I've always been the guy that everyone gets along with until they don't. A disagreement separates us, or even more insulting is when you realize you were only their friend during work hours. Never a call or text. Of course, it goes both ways, but you can always tell when someone isn't as engaged in the conversation as you are.

It seems like such bullshit knowing someone will say they miss you once you're really gone yet never saw much of you when you were here. 

So of course, I'll probably delete this once I snap out of it and tell myself to cut the shit.