**Long read**
18m My parents had a significantly worse upbringing than me. My dad lived in a semi-poor rural farm in Italy, and my mom lived on top of my grandmothers shop in a beach town barely getting by. When I was a toddler my dad bought a bar and worked 60-70 hours a week to pay the bills, and my mom owned a art shop also putting in a lot of work. They worked insanely hard and it paid off because when I was 5 we moved to America, a year before my little brother was born. Grew up comfortable but early experienced hardship and responsibility, and man am I regretting it now. Now, I’m a freshman in community college with a 2.5 gpa since I made the shitty mistake of falling into the party lifestyle 11-12th grade and now finally realizing I need to grow tf up. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, I’m a undecided major and I just don’t see a future in some 9-5 job. I feel like a failure because I don’t have the insane work ethic my parents had at my age. I didn’t give a fuck about anything the last two years of high school, I would go to class high and hung out with druggies who didn’t do anything but smoke weed and do drugs. I wish I could talk to my 16 year old self and tell him to stop being a lazy dumbass, because I am really regretting it now. I want to transfer to a better college and get a well paying job but my gpa is a 2.5, nothing special at all, and even though I still have another year to raise it, Im scared I’ll fuck it up. I just don’t want to disappoint my parents, all this work for their son to be a failure.