I've been in a relationship for almost 6 years and we already have a child but I always think he's disgusted with me. I always feel I'm not pretty and sexy enough, or that I look like a maid when we're together as a family. When I look in the mirror, I keep being disappointed with what I'm seeing. 

I don't know how to love myself. Or to even trust anyone or him. I've been wanting marriage but he doesn't want to because I'm like this. I always feel like just dying because I tend to get frustrated with myself with how I look or thini. I don't know what I should even do. I need help and advice. Thank you.