I am a college senior set to graduate in May and my anxiety is at an all time high. I don’t know what I want to do in the future. I have some idea of what I want to do but I’m still so blank. I get so envious and down on myself when I see someone get into graduate school or get a full time job offer. Any type of career talk leads me to spiral. I suck at networking. I suck at maintaining relationships and much of getting a job is who you know. I’m just so sick and I have to get myself together. I need to start applying to jobs. My entire tiktok is all career related and like omg it causes me so much anxiety. I’m so scared. I’m so scared that I’m not going to be successful. But then I’m like pull yourself together this is important get over it. 

On top of that, I feel like 22 is when people start to treat you like an official adult and I feel so far from an adult. Legally I’m adult but I still feel like I’m 19. Then I feel like people judge me for not having a lot of internships and then I feel like such a failure