I was misdiagnosed with bipolar 1 until fairly recently when I was diagnosed with BPD, which makes a lot more sense. However, I’ve still had trouble with distinguishing romantic feelings from platonic ones. 
My current roommate (and fp) and I hit it off EXTREMELY well when we met. We just clicked, and have seen each other all day every day for the past year. 
He’s gay, I’m a lesbian, but there’s always been a sort of tension. He doesn’t really like physical contact, but we’ve started to cuddle a lot, hold hands, etc. My confusion towards my feelings towards him started last week, when he asked if he could kiss me, and said we probably would at some point. 
I don’t know what to do. I have a lot of feelings towards him, but I don’t know what kind of love it is. I dont know if it’s the BPD or if I have genuine feelings. I don’t know what his feelings are towards me. I’m so confused.