I went through a lot of abuse and neglect as a child and now I get worked up easily by my boyfriend of 4 years. He is a very sweet, smiley and goofy guy who is a hard worker and I love him very much but when his vibe changes in the slightest I go into survival mode and I don’t want it to ruin our relationship. For example He works 5-6 days a week and is tired when he gets home and I’ll be excited to see him when he gets off but if he had a rough day at work my brain will completely shut off and everything I was wanting to say to him goes out the window and I can’t remember anything. Or I’ll start asking him if everything is ok or if he’s mad over and over again. Sometimes I have to try to stop myself from having a panic attack. I know it’s not fair for him to come home from a frustrating day at work and then have to deal with me being paranoid and asking a million questions but I just can’t stop myself. Does anyone relate or have any advice? I’m sorry if it’s hard to read I’m a little disregulated rn and I might not be making any sense. But any advice will be great appreciated.