does anyone else feel physically sick when they’re reminded they have a past?
I really hate the fact I existed before this moment. I was just looking through my instragram followers and there are still people from my secondary school and my first job following me, and seeing their names made me want to literally die. It feels like the person they knew was not me, and I hate that they're walking around thinking that's who I am? I don’t know how to express my feelings into words. I just know it really makes me want to kill myself because I can’t deal with the fact I have a past!  
I guess its similar to how I also hate the fact people speak about me or think about me when I’m not in their presence. I want to exist only in this moment and in this space.

I've spoken about this to friends and haven't found anyone who can relate?