I just started college and I’ve only been doing class for two days and I’ve been crying all day the past two days. I’ve been having panic attacks and I’ve been contemplating killing myself because I’m so overwhelmed. I think my medicine is making me want to kill myself but I don’t see anybody to adjust my medicine for another week. I’m just doing an introductory class to the college but they’re making me do assignments on taking care of my mental health and it just triggered something in me and all I want to do is cry and sleep. I knew I wasn’t ready for this but I wanted to go to college so bad so I could get a good job and get out of my toxic situation. And it makes me so disappointed I can’t even do that. I don’t think I can motivate myself to do school anymore I just want to sleep and never wake up again. I’m not used to having any responsibilities. I’ve quit my last three jobs due to my anxiety because I couldn’t handle it. I just feel like such a piece of shit and I hate myself so much.