I’m usually only aggressive when people get police involved or doctors when I’m manic. I lose my temper when people are trying to be sneaky and not be open about getting me help. They’re frightened of me when I’m manic because I’m pretty nasty and I get annoyed when I feel like people are doing things to deter me. I imagine that everyone’s talking about me and I am always suspicious people are up to something to put an end to it. I can lose my temper usually but when I’m manic it’s 10x worse and I am slightly worried what I could be capable of if someone did something that annoyed me when manic. How can I better not lose my cool when manic? I get a bit depressed thinking about my mania and how people probably view me now as a result. I’m just weird when manic rather than  turning into this “cool” person I hear so many others describe themselves when manic. Any suggestions?