My social life outside of school is nonexistent. It all started bc of covid, I had a roommate that I was friends with freshman year. After the first year, he wasn’t very  happy I guess, so he decided not to come back and went to a different college with some other friends. As roommates we were totally fine and we still hangout during breaks. In our freshman dorm, we were in a dorm hallway where it was all athletes so they were a click and we were the odd ones out. He knew some people that we would hang out with but we never really got close to them. After he decided to leave, I have not hung out with that group at all. I don’t care that much cause I didn’t really like them but it was something to do. But for freshman year,  it was all online and it was kind of hard and awkward  to join a new organization/club. So then first semester of sophomore year rolls around and I spent it alone in its entirety. This leads me onto my next point, I have been battling with hairloss for the past year and I have always had social anxiety and this amplified it. This is why I didn’t really try and join something this past semester. So for the start of this semester I decided put myself out there and to rush a fraternity and that ended with no bid(joining a frat). So here I am writing this not knowing what to do socially and just feeling depressed and sorry for myself. Which makes me hate myself even more. I’m just tired of talking to my friends about college and it always seems like I’m the loser of group.