I am trying my best to get better. I am going to see a Doctor next week. But I have such awful separation anxiety with my girlfriend at work. She just has an office job and tries to update me as often as she can to tell me she is doing okay. But sometimes it can take longer and it just hurts so much.  


The pain is unbearable. I hate it so much. I feel I have nobody to contact to find out anything or to help me even. I am just crying. Nobody understands at all. I want to not feel like this at all and live a happy life with my girlfriend. I know it has a mental toll on her too and that's why I do my best.   


Can someone please help me if you have the time? I don't know what anyone can do but I really hate being alone. It makes me more afraid. I am just so scared. I fucking hate this. I am trying to not overthink too much but it is just so hard. Please help me.