I realised I'm love with my FP. In the "get upset whenever I see them because they're not entirely focused and engrossed with me" kidn of way, and romantic. 
I know I need to tell him that, and that it's not okay and that it needs to end our connection, probably no contact. 
But there's still a part of me that think when I tell them, they'll turn of their heels with and "omg I'm in love with you too, please don't go". 
How do I cope with the fact it won't be that? How do I deal with what will essentially be another rejection that will turn me to catasphrocu misery. Like actually please help. Because this has been going on for too long and it hurts so much