I had to train myself to stick up for myself. I’m so fucking sick and I’m depressed as fuck. My natural inclination is not to fight but to submit. I’m so tired to realizing that the majority of the population is not like me. Its lonely. It takes a lot of my energy to stick up for myself as well as others. Everything is really hitting me hard right now. I trust no one. Everyone is a pawn. I feel like the only real one. Its like I’m moving on but I’m just numbing myself the whole time to move forward. I have to hide how sad I really am, because I am so so sad. Anyone that is close sees it. I just cannot get too close.