Lately I've been out having a wonderful vacation with my boyfriend. Things have been really rocky between us, but this trip really helped us start repairing things. Until today. This morning, I made the mistake of logging on to Facebook to check the details of a New Year's party that I thought I was going to. Lo and behold, I can't find the link, so I ask my boyfriend if it's been cancelled. He gets that "We need to have a serious talk" look and tells me "It wasn't cancelled, you just got uninvited."

I was floored. I didn't know that anyone at this party had any problems with me or anything. Probing my boyfriend further, I came to learn that his roommate had told the party hosts that my relationship had ended and that it wasn't a good idea to have my boyfriend and I at the same party together. The host later sent a message to my boyfriend asking if he wanted me there, but the damage was already done. I was so hurt by all my friends throwing me out on a false rumor before even bothering to check with anyone who could confirm its status.

It triggered a pretty big meltdown and when I tried to talk to my boyfriend about it, he pulled the "Of course you're upset, you're borderline!" and that absolutely killed me. I feel like most people would be pretty upset to learn that their friends valued a rumor over them and learning that no one wanted them around for a party. But now I don't know anymore. I don't know if it's ok to be hurt, if it's ok to cry over this, or if it's all just something wrong with me. I don't know who or what to trust anymore. 

It's all gotten me pretty destroyed and no one sees why I'm upset because "He said you could come, Boyfriend just had to approve it first." No one else thinks that his roommate was completely out of line in starting that rumor. No one understands how much this affected me and that in and of itself is ripping me apart also.