I (a gay man) have been in love with my straight best friend for about 5 years now, so logically, he’s been my FP the whole time. 

We’ve had our ups and downs through the years but I’ve always been too scared to tell him the truth. I’m pretty sure he has an idea of it though, as he’s joked about it, and I’ve told him several times that I think he’s attractive. He’s always been really nice about it and just laughs it off. 

But I am feeling extremely triggered today for some reason, as if this time is the final nail in the coffin, and he will distance himself for good (as I said, we’ve had ups and downs and sometimes have gone without talking for weeks)… I feel like if I don’t tell him about my feelings for him now, I won’t ever get another chance. Somebody please tell me it’s a bad idea lol.