Potinshal triger wiring. Also I am dislexic so ignore the speling. Dos anyone else have this time of year peek thare anxiety? When I was lital I loved Christmas and Thanksgiving and all the famaly reunions and shit but naw it stress me the fuck out. I can't take it. All the expectation and stress of the holiday shopping and the constant what do you want questions. I don't want anything. I feal like a dick asking for shit, I hate asking for help Evan when I really need it. But when I say I don't want anything thay all get pissed and say that thay want to get me something so I have to tell them what to get me. If I say no I feal like a dick if I ask for something I feal like a dick. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. This time of year streses me out so bad that the fucking Christmas music that my family just loves gives me a panic attack so ya I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and have no fucking idea what to do.


Thank you for reedeng my nonsense rant and I'm sorry for the profanity.