It was never really gone in the first place, but I was so focused on my school work that it was pushed to the back of my head but it was still there. Now that that's done, there's nothing to distract me anymore and I feel like shit. Especially coming home for Christmas, where I was stuck for a year and a half inside because of online school. Last year, I probably left the house once a month if I was lucky and my depression got terrible. Now being back here I'm entering the same routine and getting stuck again.