i haven't posted here in months. i'm what could be considered a high functioning borderline, i went through DBT and it curbed my self harm significantly and got be back to a point where i could work again (whereas prior, i honestly was too fucked up from it all too work). nine years have passed now and i'm very very quickly sliding back to square one, more self harm than usual and i can't handle ANYTHING, functioning in any capacity is impossible and everything feels insurmountable, basically high-functioning is no longer a term than can be applied to me. i've been missing work lately because of this, i can't get out of bed can't do anything. the whole reason i stopped DBT was to get to the point of being able to work, once i was able to work though I didn't have time to attend therapy as it was twice a week during work hours. but now i'm suffering from it, I have a psychologist and a family doctor but my psychiatrist retired, so i'm unsure if either of them can give me the referral needed to get back into DBT therapy. much to my dismay I finally phone health services in my region and there's only one place offering DBT, it's only during week days and it's an incredibly long wait list. So i'm attempting to seek out some sort of self help if at all possible, does anyone here know of any good websites or maybe youtube videos that are good for self-applied DBT therapy? I've found two websites but am sort of unsure even at that where to start on them. any feedback would be appreciated please and thank you.