For some reason it feels like sadness at times it "too easy to handle" for me and at the same time it is always the follow up of an outburst in rage along with regret and shame.
But for some reason if I feel sadness first it almost always goes straight to numbness like when I watch a movie and there's a sad part, there's only a short moment where I feel that sadness from the emotion and all the sudden it just disappears. Or with situations when ppl talk about their issues, I seem unable to feel sad, but I know I'm supposed to feel sad.
Why does my brain block off this emotion like some sort of defense mechanism? I want to cry but the emotion dissapears so fast sometimes I forget why I even started to feel sad. Like my brain is subconsciously protecting me from it.