I always wondered how people could go through with committing suicide, I never understood the feeling of not wanting to feel something anymore so much to the point where you would take your own life. I have been dealing with anxiety for the past 2 and a half years and it just keeps getting worse. Im 18 and i have no health insurance i just applied for medicaid hopefully i get approved so I can get help. I do not want to go out like that it, urks me on the inside thinking that it is the only way out when I my real self knows it isnt. ive been strong my whole life through whatever i always told myself gods got you youll make it through the storm and i always have but anxiety puts up such a fight. my mental health is deteriorating im losing hope but i know deep down that this can change but i dont know if its enough to keep me going. this shit is horrible.