I hate this face... I hate this body... It's disgusting... I'm disgusting... I cut it to punish myself for existing... I hate it so much... I wished I had a robotic body. That way, I couldn't feel my ugly skin and see all my flaws.... I hate being a girl but I wouldn't want to be a boy either. I don't exist in any gender... I don't even like being a human being.

I hate every part of me that tells me I'm a girl. I want to cut it off and throw it out. It repulses me.

For a long time, I thought I had disphoria but I was recently diagnosed with depersonalization disorder.

I wished I was prettier to my girlfriend... I wished I was better. I hate my body... I'm shaking for being alive in this hell.