I think I’m just too anxious for a relationship. I’ve gone through a plethora of triggering events that have contributed to my anxiety. Amongst that is commitment issues mixed with general anxiety. I am just getting by managing my few inner circle friendships, and it’s a challenge for me / exhausting trying to maintain more friendships, which leads me to always being friends with people at a distance. Not that I need more close friends, just me taking a notice at how I’ve been avoiding intimacy and connection more the older I get. Which leads me to this assumption that I may be out of luck finding love. I know there is more to life than that, but I’m a human with the same desires yet my anxiety makes it seem as if I can’t obtain it. It makes intimacy and vulnerability so much harder and the discomfort and fear that comes with anxiety always seems to outweigh the desire of wanting love. It’s as if I’d rather never risk being uncomfortable if it means I can be safe and calm and not overwhelmed. I’m only 24 and I’m not sure how much of life is left for me so I’m trying not to sweat the small stuff, but I would also like to put in the work to improve myself rather than living in an anxiety shell or some safety shelter. If anyone has similar feelings please share!