So I’ve been going through a rough time as of late, i tried to overdose in February but failed and after 5 months of me trying to put my life back together I lost my job which was a coping mechanism for me but now I feel like I’m back at rock bottom, I can’t tell anyone around me because I’m the one that cheers them up, but now I’m so low I feel like the only way to make anything better is to finish the job I failed to do in February. 

Every time I’m alone I fight the constant urge to take all of my prescription with a bottle of vodka but as of yesterday I don’t know how to keep fighting anymore.