My idealization has finally come to end. 

The fact that there wasn't another dude involved wasn't even the worst part, it's the fact that she would rather call the cops on me rather than honestly tell me what is going on. 

I'm a pacifist. I have never hurt a single soul. She told me so many times that she would never be afraid of me, but when it came down to it, fear was all she had. She wasn't even afraid of me, she was afraid of facing the situation she created. 

I'm so hurt but I will not let this stop me. 

Sadly though, I no longer believe that humans can be truly honest. Self-preservation takes precedence above all else. 