I'm so alone, I have nobody to listen to me except Reddit. I'm having a really hard time coping right now. I sent my ex some links to read that I identified with and asked him if there was any way he could give me just one more chance and work with me so I can prove that I'm working on things and willing to improve... And he told me he doesn't even want to entertain the idea of being back together, and I feel like my entire world is falling apart. I have no friends to talk to or go out with and he suddenly has all these new friends and I can't leave because we are roommates and my dad has kicked me out and I'm NC with him, so I have no choice but to stay living with my ex. We thankfully have separate rooms, but I'm still living with him and he said that I can't ask him not to bring girls home if that's what he wants to do. Am I wrong for asking him to just not fuck in the apartment if I'm here? Is that really such a selfish thing to ask? I don't think I'll be able to hold myself back from self harming if I know he's in his room fucking someone else that isn't me and all I am is his crazy roommate... My emotions are out of control right now and I can't seem to get a handle on them. Self harming helps me push the feelings down and stop feeling so bad, but I know that's a poor coping mechanism. I just want to stop hurting. 