So I've had back pain for months. Been to physical therapy, acupuncture, chiropractor, got an epidural. Then other things happened in my life, friend died from covid, brother in prison, ex wife has breast cancer... Basically the people I care about getting shit on. Currently laying on the couch with really bad left shoulder pain... I'm just so tired. I have heart anxiety on top of all that. I used to smoke pot a lot but now I can't even do that. I just need a hug right now but I'm single, 41 and feel like I'm going to die alone. It's depressing.