I lost my brother to suicide June 2017. I lost my dad to COVID June 2020, and I lost my grandma March 2021 to dementia. Ever since my brother passed away in 2017, the holidays aren’t the same for me. And with more family members passing away, my holiday depression gets worse. I hate feeling this way, but I don’t know how to not let this affect me. My boyfriend always wants to spend the holidays with me but then gets mad when I’m not interacting with his family the way he wants me to. Truthfully I don’t have an interest in seeing anyone. I have a hard time sharing the holiday spirit that people feel this time of year. 

How do I cope with depression during the holidays? How do I not let my grief get out of control?