I wish I was a normal human being.

I wish I was delusional like everyone else. Then I wouldn't be thinking the way I do.

I wish I felt real. Why is it only temporary only when talking to someone. I use them as a distraction..

I wish I wasn't garbage. 

I wish I died before my mum.

I wish I shall perish now so God can magically make sense why I am the way I am.

I wish I was a child because I didn't always have such a warped way of thinking. That only began at 15.

I wish I didn't have BPD. Psychiatrists,Psychologists only look at you as a lab rat and money.