so  im turning 15, and im going to a competetive high school and i dont know how will i survive it. i've been struggling with severe anxiety, depression and i have constant panic attacks and im dealing with suicidal thoughts every fucking day. my counselor suggested me xanax and i have to take those regularly. i dont have much friends, but the friends i have are just dont care about me. they dont write to me, only if i contact them. they dont ask me how i feel, how im doing. they are just completely ignoring me. i cant seek for help from my parents, they are kind of "memeing" my illnesses. i dont know what should i do, im totally lost. if u have any suggestion, please share it with me. 

thank you