Hello, 

Me again haha. So I've been on the recovery path for a while and I have a few changes. Now that everyday isn't a constant battle for survival (knock on wood) and I'm not necessarily spending every moment worrying, I seem to kinda have a blank brain. I'm familiar with the depression that can follow an anxiety disorder and I'm definitely feeling (or not feeling) the emotionless aspect of that. The other problem that I'm not curious if anyone else felt or feels is that my "inner dialogue" isn't very strong. It's there underneath this blank void but it's not very loud and I have to try to listen to it and sometimes when I'm busy or overwhelmed it can seem gone. It's a bit worrying ironically because I feel like it's the lack of constant worry that is the reasoning behind this. Like instead of not being afraid of the next thing or a symptom I've just got nothing to think about? Whereas before I'd think about all sorts of things. 

Anyways, happy holidays!