I'm suffering from autism, depression and anxiety disorder and can't do anything. Everytime I see people be able to talk normally I feel jealous since I can barely even make a sentence wihout than becoming quiet. I want to be able to get a girlfriend and eventually end up staring a family and have tons of friends and socialize but it seems impossible. I also have to do shitty jobs since I didn't do well at school while my brother is gonna be a succesful doctor it just depresses me even more. Been thinking of just ending my life since I don't think my life is gonna go anywhere in a positive way.