I just don’t want to deal with it anymore, I’m at my limit. My goal is to be more of a happy and chatty person who spreads good vibes. Atm I’m very quiet and don’t show any emotions, plus I feel really sad. I don’t want to be the person I am but I can’t help it 

Im a bit hesitant about starting because of my moms bad experience with them in the past.

Thanks!