Since this is Holidays, I won't see my therapist for 2 weeks. I live with my family but I can't stand them. They're really toxic. My parents have significant emotional dysregulation problems too. Even worse, my sister lives here too and she's the person I hate the most. She thinks she is superior because she does not have a diagnosis, she totally ignores me (she never talks to me at all!), but when there are friends or extended family with us, then she becomes really nice with me. And talking with anyone in my family doesn't lead anywhere. 
I used to confide to guys I was dating, but I haven't been dating anyone for months. And I can't always bother my friends with my problems, especially my best friend who already struggles with his own problems (anxiety mostly, but minor depression as well) and his other friends' problems (usually some very intense stuff).
Of course, I could write here but it's not the same as having full emotional support. I feel so emotionally alone. 
I feel like this is going to be hell for 2 weeks.