Tbf I am not really sure if I have depression or not. I do intend to kill myself in a few years though. Before I do that I would like to do something that makes my parents feel proud. I haven’t been able to get a job till now and will be giving a few competitive exams in a few months. I want to do well on those but have been having some trouble studying. I think cognitive decline brought on by depression has a role in that. As it is, I have to mentally kick myself almost constantly to see a point in all this. If you have any strategies to deal with all this, please share