What to do now? I'm like a sinking ship, it only gets worse and I can understand he left me but it still kinda hurts. At the same time, it's all mushy. I don't feel too shocked, just something added to the pile of stuff I have to accept. I feel so... vegetative at the moment. Barely there but enough to be functioning. Most people don't notice how bad I am and I guess I hoped my best friend did. Maybe they did and this was the response. I don't know. I'm devastated.