I need to get on medication. ASAP. He said if I keep fighting/putting him down when I split he wont stick around. But it’s not even like I want to treat him like that, it’s like I’m being possessed by an insane urge I cant control and I black out and say messed up things bc I feel he is abandoning me anyway. I need to implement DBT techniques immediately. It’s really scary cause he WAS going to give me a promise ring for our anniversary but idk if he is now. Also, he thinks I want too much attention and he’s right… he has an active social life and I have nothing… seeing him was my happiness and now we’re at a distance so much I have to build a life for myself aside from him. I guess I have to accept this is how our relationship is now. It’s healthy and what is needed but I have never in my life experienced distance in a relationship. But this is what he wants and needs even if he’s still spending as much time with people… just not me.