I just need to vent. I’ve suffered from anxiety my whole life but ever since becoming a mom it’s been crippling. I constantly worry about not only things in my life but now my son. Is he eating enough? Is he doing okay at daycare? Is he sleeping enough? Etc. I have bad health anxiety and I can’t help but have extreme health anxiety about my son now (which worries me long run because I don’t want him to grow up with health anxiety because of me). And the hard thing about it all is that being a mom now you don’t have the luxury of being able to just lay in bed when you’re anxiety has taken a toll on you, you know? Like in the middle of a panic attack? Well better snap out of it quick cause your kid needs a diaper change. Or feeling nauseous and have a tension headache? Well can’t lay in bed because you need to make your sons dinner and give him a bath and what not. And don’t get me wrong I love my son more than anything and I can’t imagine my life without him but anxiety makes every little everyday tasks seem overwhelming and impossible. And medication is an option but in my personal experience the side effects have been terrible for me.I’m still considering maybe going back to the doctor and asking to try something else but the potential side effects of anxiety meds give me anxiety, which sounds silly but if I had to pick between being anxious and feeling nauseous and dizzy all the time I’d pick anxiety. Maybe I’ll eventually hit the jackpot with a good medication that doesn’t make me feel sick, I don’t know. Anyways, just felt the need to vent.