I feel like I’m stuck in a hole. It’s been stressful. No motivation to clean or cook. I’ve tried to get on a better path by counting my calories to make sure I’m eating enough (I’m 5’3 92 lbs). I have tried to get a job, nothing. I have no friends or family around. Can’t afford therapy. If I speak with my husband about the bad thoughts he’s going to need therapy, again can’t afford that. I don’t care if I don’t wake up. I’m not going to do anything. I just don’t care. Everyday just seems like it’s getting more dim. I don’t know what to do anymore.