I had my last consult last week and my mood journal showed how for the week prior to the consult I have been in the feeling quite elated. (its a -10 to a +10 scale, ykwim). So my doctor decide to up my dosage. This trend continued this week. I impulsively agreed to a first date that starts reeaaaallly late in the night, which is so out of character for me. I also kept MAKING gifts for people I haven't met before because I had time. Last night, we had a company party and I was soooo hype that I forgot I wasnt allowed to drink soda, so I did. I also forgot to take my medication last night. I woke up really early today. But heres the thing, I cant remember shit from yesterday, last night or early morning today. 

I know we had a party. I know we went to church this morning. But the finer details are a mystery to me, I cant remember whether I had a nap earlier today  or whether I took my medicine. Im scared to take them again cause I might take them twice. This afternoon I felt quite down, and have been feeling like I might cry anytime. I saw razor blades, and had really bad thoughts for a minute before catching myself. My roommate confirmed that I missed medication last night. I already told my doctor. I'm waiting for a family member to pick me up either today or tomorrow.

Im BP2 I dont know whats happening to me. I've never had a turnaround quite this drastic. Im scared. Also, my period came, maybe thats just it right? Has anyone experienced this?