These are my thoughts constantly ~

“you don’t deserve to go to college you’re not half as skinny as pretty your acne is ugly AF you’re chubby and unattractive you’re talentless and worthless you’re not gonna be worth anything unless you wear pretty clothes and look desirable you can’t even draw proper you’re so stupid and ugly and unlovable you don’t deserve anything.”

it’s so overwhelming at times i can barely function. especially when i see a pretty drawing or pretty clothes my mind starts attacking myself and my stomach and my lower abdomen and my chest starts to tingle and in a bad way and it’s horrible i can’t seem to stay anywhere on social media. i can’t afford therapy and I don’t know what to do about this it is becoming crippling. 

~i cannot afford therapy on my own yet, do not want to involve my parents there’s an abusive dynamic there~

has anyone dealt with something like this?? i don’t know what to do