I really do think I may have Autism and spend a lot of time being frustrated that I can't stick to a schedule. Not sure if this is related to Autism or if it's just a me thing. But ever since I moved back in with my parents I haven't really been able to do things my way and it upsets me. I'd love to be able to create a daily schedule and actually stick to it without interruptions but I can't. My ideal schedule, eat short breakfast, spend many hours applying to jobs, and only come out of room when done/hungry, and then rest but I can't really do that. Instead most of my day is just filled with cleaning, helping to cook, accompanying my mom with errands, and then coming back home, cleaning again or just constantly having to help with something and just not having the energy to apply to jobs at the end of the day. This then leads to a cycle of revenge bedtime procrastination in which I just waste time going online at bed time in order to feel something. 

I'm not blaming my parents because I know it's not their fault that they need a lot of help around the house with them being in their late 60s, but I just feel at this rate I'm never going to have a job and it depresses me. I've applied to jobs here and there whenever I get a chance but I've had no luck. I'm starting to think I may have to apply for Jobs 24/7 in order to at least get one interview. I'm done crying about feeling useless. I just feel so empty and like a waste of space.