 

When I have to study something important (like maths) I feel that I must take notes in a fresh notebook. But if I feel my handwriting isn't "perfect" or I haven't explained something "perfectly"/"properly" or if my graphs aren't perfect or if I make a mistake and I have to cut something out or if I notice the space between a letter and the ruled line on which it has been written or if I feel I left too much blank space in a certain page then it really bothers me. I can't get it out of my head. Also I feel very demotivated to continue writing because "What's the point if it's not perfect? I won't learn anything or have the motivation to revise hence all my effort would have gone in vain." So I feel like tearing out the page. Usually I do and then rewrite. But then when I do tear out a page there's a bit of paper stuck in the middle and it becomes difficult to tear it away and even if I do I keep checking if there's anything left. If the notebook has a spiral binding then it's easier but then I feel the notebook is "incomplete" because it has a page missing and that I'll always be reminded of the OCD when I look bac. Hence I throw away the complete notebook even if I've barely written on it. Last year I must have disposed of more than 10 notebooks like that.

Does anyone else experience the same thing or something similar? And if so, how did they surmount it? Please let me know.