As title says.
I don’t feel human, and for so long I thought my discomfort with my body was due to my weight + genitals/breasts, but it was never any of those things to begin with.
For ages now I’ve felt as though I’m another species just possessing this body. I don’t regard myself as even a “being” at all, just a shadow.
No matter what I identify as, or no matter what fantasy scenario where i imagine me being born into a different culture... none of it is right. I’m not human. I don’t have a race. I don’t have culture. I don’t have a sex, no gender or anything else of the sorts. I really want to kill this body that I inhabit so that I can be free and quietly observe humans from the shadows. I love humans... I love human cultures and history. But none if it is mine.