I dunno if it's just me but reality ALWAYS seems to be less than our expectation. Like for someone without extensive gratitude training like a fricking monk who fuccing meditates 5 hours a day, not being depressed most of the times is hard. I just dunno whats the point of forcing yourself to be ok with something when it clearly disappoints or stresses you out a lot. It's like going to a theme park realizing its not fun at all but forcing yourself to stay there for no reason... pls share thoughts. It seem like the solution would just be "don't expect things to go your way" but its just not natural... Yes there are many things that I'm super grateful for but I always have to make the conscious action to realize those, whereas negative thoughts come naturally. Maybe if I'm consistent with being indifferent about things out of my control it will become a natural thing?