You are an invasive disorder that pops up whenever you feel like it, mostly at inconvenient times of the day. It’s honestly one of the most frustrating experiences, not knowing what triggers you most of the time and just the fact that you don’t leave. You need to stop attacking my thoughts and let my own thoughts be mine.

I just want you to leave. 

The feeling of always worrying or being restless about something that I don’t even know the outcome of can cause many different scenarios. For instance, the lack of sleep, trouble concentrating/thinking, or even hyperventilating. From just being at a person’s house that I don’t know to being around a whole bunch of strangers. You just come out and suddenly, breathing isn’t normal and the walls feel like they are closing in.

You’re such a burden in life. 

Closing off everything and everyone near me when you come out and I begin to overthink the whole aspect of the situation. Not being able to have to worry all the time would be a life-changer for me. In the back of my mind, all I can hear are all these voices in my head telling me that “someone is going to come at you” or “that this person isn’t safe to be around.” 

They are never positive voices telling me that everything will be good….

you’re always so negative telling me the worst outcome that will come out of a small inconvenience. 

The voices never end. Making me overthink the aspect of the situations, thinking I’ll always be the bad person or even just someone no one wants to be around.

My thoughts are no longer just mine…

you take control of them. 

No matter what I do, you are there telling me nothing is going to end well. You’re constantly making me feel like I’m fighting a demon in my mind. You have been such an inconvenient disorder that won’t leave me alone. 

There is always a constant battle in my head that I’m unable to win no matter how hard I try. There are always multiple feelings that you make me feel:

Loneliness

Abandonment

Anxious.

I get confused about how to feel during your presence.

I’ve begged for you to leave more times than I can count but you don’t seem to care. You just keep coming back. Never giving up on trying to ruin my days with your negativity. 

At this point, you’ve been around for so long that I’m starting to understand how to control you at certain points. 

The constant negativity you bring to my mind has been one of the toughest things I’ve had to overcome. Unfortunately, I’ve been waiting for the day where I can finally tell you that…. 

you’re no longer a part of me anymore.

You’ve never had a good impact on my life. Whatever I do it's never good enough, you just think that I need you in my life. 

You will forever and always be an inconvenience in my head. I’ll admit you have been a major nuisance. Honestly the day you don’t come around is the day I will **finally** feel like I have my life back.

Sincerely,

Your dominated partner