So I hung out with this girl I’ve known for years last night. She goes to college in Hawaii (I live in Georgia). Anyways she’s one of the few people who knows about my diagnosis and she has always been so supportive of me even though she lives that far away. I’ve always kind of had a thing for her just because were so close but I never thought anything would ever come of it. I always thought she was just a very close friend, I never knew why she was so good to me but she was. Fast forward to her being home for Christmas break and last night she invited me over for nye because I’ve been having a rough time. Well the clock hit 12:00, she kinda just gives me this look and next thing I know we’re making out in her living room. After that we stayed up until like 2:30 am just talking and I ended up staying the night. All this and she goes back to Hawaii in 4 days. I believe everything happens for a reason but I just don’t see what this could be other than just some cruel joke. Like why? Why give me the perfect girl, have her confess feelings for me but have the twist that she spends 90% of her year somewhere that is a 1,000$ plane flight away. I guess I’m just kind of confused on what to even do about this.