I didn't realise (or just didn't care) how codependant I am on my gf who isnt actually my gf, lets just say its complicated, until she didnt call me in the last 2 days. im a complete alcoholic ill just get that out there, and i drink daily. i promised i wouldnt go over my limit anymore but this just sent me sprawling over it the past couple days like no ones business. i just completely lose control of myself and feel like a psycho and subhuman for being so beyond dependant on one person and unable to breathe without them. i know its beyond unhealthy and unfair to place all this towards one person but it feels like theres nothing i can do to stop it, the most i can do is keep it under wraps from her and others to the best of my ability in this state. i should be able to function without her, but i really dont have anyone else and i dont know what to do