So I have quiet bpd, and I'm realizing a big issue is that I don't express myself. I watched a documentary where the drummer from slipknot said he had a lot of rage inside and it helped him to get it out by being in the band. So it clicked, I'm supposed to express all this rage. So yesterday I start to just express violence in my drawing, stabbing the paper, putting holes in it. I think expressing that violence is a huge relief and the pressure in my head went down, which always feels nice. 

Anyway yeah if anyone has quiet bpd maybe look into doing something like this it's very therapeutic.