i find it hard to live with myself. i am so stupid. i have no common sense, no job, no one who gives a crap about me. i hate myself. i don't want to live anymore. no one listens to me. i just want to sleep all the time to escape my reality. i can't function normally and am so sick of all this nonsense. no one wants to help me. they always judge me. i am a pathetic excuse for a person.