My BPD symptoms are the worst when I am in a romantic relationship. I know I would be so much happier and productive if I was single, yet I can’t let go of my boyfriend. We’ve been dating for almost a year now and there hasn’t been a single week where I haven’t thought of breaking up with him. I’m scared my life would be so... boring... without a boyfriend. I get triggered very frequently by my boyfriend’s actions and usually he tries to help me, but a lot of the time he loses patience. I just know I’d be happier if I let go of him, yet I’m addicted to the extreme pain and the extreme happiness. I push aside my other responsibilities for him and that makes me resent him and myself. I think I’m codependent. Does anyone else have a hard time living without “drama”?