Everything has been going pretty well for me lately, but inevitably something is going to happen to fuck it all up. So I got in first.

I used to steal when I was a teenager, and definitely have since I’ve been well and truly old enough to know better, but today I did it anyway. It was stupid, I know it was. It felt wrong, not just because it is, but because it didn’t feel as ‘safe’ as it used to, but again, I did it anyway; and I got caught. There was no punishment (looking younger than you are had it’s perks I guess) but I almost wish there was. I feel stupid for even taking the risk, but I don’t feel stupid for getting caught. I know I deserved it and they were just doing their job. One part of my brain is happy, but wishes the consequences were worse. The other part cannot believe the stupidity, and the fact that it could’ve gone on my permanent record. What the fuck am I doing? Why does something HAVE to go wrong? Why can’t I just be happy that things are going well and leave it at that?