me and my better half had an argument and she often threatens suicide/self harm and such things and as a result. my other half has put herself in hospital quite drastically and her mates keep texting me saying she left a note saying it's my fault. i keep texting her mates for updates but they keep telling me to f off and 'if you cared, you would've been there for her'. 

this is killing me man. i wish i could swap with her. 

and because of this i've been crying at work and my boss yelled at me when i said i needed to be left alone a bit and she said you are in wrong job and you shouldn't be here at all. so that was pretty cool.