Honestly this is just a ranting post because I don't feel safe enough talking to anybody I know so here goes.

Everything is perfectly fine, I hate it. I've already gone through deep depression and got through it and have gone about a year and a half with no suicidal thoughts and self harm tendencies, until yesterday. The worst part about it is that my life is great right now. Aside from a few issues, I have an amazing girlfriend, I'm finally pursuing the career of my dreams with an incredibly lucky head start, I'm doing good in my studies, my friends and family love me, I have a really cool band, so why the hell do I feel this way. I know I'm on a slow but steady decline to where my mental state was before, and I have no idea why or how to stop it. I feel incredibly powerless and don't know what to do except take up therapy again (starting Wednesday). I don't feel safe enough to talk about this with anyone and I've just been crying myself to sleep the las few days for no apparent reason. I'm just so tired and scared, any advice would be greatly appreciated, and to anyone who read up to here thank you so much.