Sometimes I amaze myself at how capable I know I am to cross it. I get closer and closer the older I get. I never lose control, make responsible decisions. But I keep spending more money, about half a year ago I quit a job on the spot sobbing with several “fuck you”s, I just keep thinking about how close I am to succumbing to these feelings and completely losing my shit. I can just picture myself going postal, flipping and punching things, especially at work. I hate that I’m so close to making such a fatal mistake. Who knows and still likes that person that pops the hell off at work? Idk man, I just feel so close all of the time. I feel like the entire image I’ve created is slowly disappearing. I’m desperately trying to hold onto it. I don’t want to be that crazy girl. I don’t wanna cross that line, once you’re too far there’s no going back.

TL;DR annoying.