Up until recently, I'd never understood what mania was - because I'd thought it was literally just being debilitatingly happy and I never really feel happy - so never identified with it. I envied people who did experience it because I was so ignorant and thought it had to be a good thing.

Following my diagnosis, I've been watching my moods carefully and have noticed that I keep getting very agitated and productive, but it just feels like I'm spinning and everything is overwhelming and fast and like I'm about to have a panic attack/explode. This is mania, right? 

I get it a lot when I drink, like last night I got plastered and I was so energetic and falsely charismatic and kept flirting with guys for drinks feeling like I was on top of the world/untouchable. Then I crashed when I got home and cut myself. 

How do you deal with the more 'manic' moods and make sure the crash landing isn't too bad when you fall back to earth?