I’ve been crying for over an hour and holding my mouth so my neighbors don’t hear I don’t know what to do anymore I so badly my relationship to work I really fuckinh do . But I don’t he think he cares anymore or maybe he cheated.
He was ignoring me all night not returning my calls or texts and I finally said it seems like you don’t care. And he said to me “ It’s not you it’s me. I really do care you’re my best friend but honestly I’m not in the mood “ 
I am someone who believes whether or not you’re in the mood or not you should always show the people you love that they are cared about. So I don’t understand I don’t know if he cheated I don’t know if he just doesn’t care because he’s always say actions speak louder than words but his actions are showing me that he does not care about me and his words are saying otherwise.
I feel paralyzed I cannot move I’m supposed to be packing he’s not answering the phone and I just wanna talk about this I just wanna know if this is worth it because I’m putting so much energy and I just don’t even feel loved