So I have this problem where I get depressed and anxious out of the blue whenever I have to get ready and get going. It's like I suddenly cannot ignore all the bad things and my mood drops instantly. I spend some time composing myself and then I'm late again.

I just don't seem to escape this pattern. No matter where I'm going, just going out is enough stress for me that I put it off and need extra time to stomach it. Sometimes I just don't want to go anywhere at all. Or do anything. Or be alive. What can I do?

Everyone is always discontent with me because of it, and I don't know what to do. I'm very really tired of people taking it as a personal offence. Any advice is welcome.