Hey Everyone. I’m on the tail end of my covid infection. Probably in the 12-14 day range if I’m guessing right. I’m fortunate enough that it’s been manageable with medicine at home and no visits to the ER. I’m still watching my O2 saturation and resting as I can. Trying to get up often and keep from getting blood clots. It still bugs me to breathe deep, but I’m crossing my fingers the worst of it is past me.

I take lexapro and lapsed prior to getting covid. It was maybe for a week. Then one of the meds I was prescribed was contraindicated and I opted to focus on the covid meds and skip the lexapro longer. By that time, I was in full on panic mode. Every day was a mess at that point. I could barely function. I was completely out of my comfort zone. I hated feeling alone.

After about 1 week of fully being back on my lexapro, I’m feeling much more capable and I get at least a few hours a day of feeling mentally normal. The mornings are the hardest though. I’ll wake up “fine” and then realize it’s day and get flooded with anxiety. I find myself missing my wife when she goes to work. I work from home. I dread her going back to work tomorrow for the week. I’ve been getting up and trying to get at it to just get my day going, but that anxiety just lingers like a bad shadow all day until she gets home. Even then, if my covid symptoms have reared their ugly heads I don’t feel fully well until I sleep. 

This covid virus has been awful for me mentally and I know I’m not alone. The farther I get from the threat of it the better. I’m afraid this has scarred me long term.