How do I not make BPD a personality trait? It feels like I am sometimes unknowingly manipulating others or being abusive and I don't recognise it? Or sometimes I do recognise that my actions are toxic but I use my BPD as an excuse. When is it BPD and when am I just being a horrible, abusive person? It's so confusing and traumatising to myself because I am constantly looking over my shoulder wondering if I am a terrible person that deserves nothing or it's just my illness acting up....