i feel like i'm going to ruin every close friendship/relationship i have. every time i get close to someone i end up getting too attached. i start feeling the need to check their social media, make sure they aren't ignoring me. i don't act on it, but i still get the urge. i somehow always end up venting too much or being overwhelming. i ask before i vent, and i say it's okay if they don't feel comfortable listening to me, and even then somehow i always end up being the problem. no matter how hard i try. how much effort i put into communicating in a healthy way. no insults, no yelling, giving them space if needed, etc. i always end up being left.