I don’t know man like I’m happy one second and on the verge of killing myself the next I met this girl and I was happy and now she doesn’t like me and my life is shit I still live at home all my friends stopped talking to me and I have no idea why. I get obsessed with something and just spend all my time on it even if it in no way benefits me and I know that but I can’t stop. My job sucks the whole time I’m there every one is talking shit about me they know I hate it they know I hate my life why do they wanna make things harder. I feel like I’m just wasting my life and not gonna go anywhere. And if my life’s not going anywhere why should I keep going. Why can’t I be stable why can’t I do anything to benefit myself why can’t I stop being a bitch and just do something one way or the other