Hi, all. Today (or, well, for the past few days) I’ve been grappling with feelings I’ve never felt before. 

So, I found this guy on reddit. I really liked his profile picture, so I went ahead and messaged him. He hasn’t replied, and that’s that. 

Except it’s not. For some reason I can’t shake him out of my brain. I never feel this way about anyone, not least a boy, and it’s really confusing. He has a lot of similar interests, and we’re even on some of the same subs. 

I have no idea why, but I can’t stop thinking about him. For the past however long, I’ve been worried sick that I’ve been a creep and that he’ll hate me. Even though it’s not possible to really hate someone you’ve never interacted with... why would I even care? Why does it matter?

I’ve needed someone to just tell me to leave him the fuck alone. He doesn’t deserve that, and I need to move the fuck on from someone *I’ve literally never met*. 

I’m fucking crazy.