I had such intense pressure from my parents but myself as well that I could not live up to my own expectations. It was never enough to be a paralegal, I had to be a lawyer. It wasn’t enough to be a nurse, I had to be a doctor, etc. Because of this unbelievable pressure I pretty much couldn’t commit to anything. 

I never had the opportunity to just live and experience shit and coast it while it was good. I was always too busy trying to do it bigger and better and when it didn’t go my way right away, I’d just try something else. 

BPD with ADHD is the fucking worst I swear. 