I’m on day 5 of reducing my medication dose by half at the recommendation of my doctor in order to switch to a different antidepressant that may also help with my chronic pain. I missed my dose last night including my sleeping pills due to exhaustion. 

I had a stupid little fight with my partner and they refuse to apologize (they are autistic, narcissistic and very immature) and here I am, forcibly starving myself and crying in my bed in the next room. 

I was experiencing some withdrawal symptoms and called out to them, but they ignored me. It was my attempt to call for help but they didn’t hear or didn’t want to help me. 

I don’t know what else to do with myself. I can’t find a place to live elsewhere, and I am completely isolated from what little support I did have because the fear of leaving my house where I lived before was overwhelming, and moving here has eased that anxiety, but of course new issues have developed.