Since March 2020 till September 2021 I was homeschooled, since returning to my old high school again I hate it like I did last time (I can’t explain why I hate it. I find the whole thing “overwhelming” and stressful, this would lead to have massive meltdowns when I’m at home). I’ve refused to go into school for about 4 weeks now and my school say they have no options to help me. 

But I’m not sure if I want to be homeschooled because I think deep down I enjoy socialising occasionally + I find it embarrassing having to tell people I’m going to be homeschooled again. Also I “left” homeschool because I felt bored some of the time and my Parents wanted me to be a “real teenager”. 

But I desperately don’t want to return to school again. I have an asd diagnosis which hasn’t helped me in any way but maybe is comforting to understand why I feel like this. 

I just wish I was able to be normal and enjoy school, but I’ve always hated it and caused me so much stress in my life that it makes me physically ill. 

I have no idea what to do :(