I'm in such a bad mood today.  Everything is upsetting me and I'm trying to calm down and think with my rational mind, but it just feels impossible.  I feel bad that I skipped doing some things that would have made other people happy today.  I feel like I'm less than useless because being useless would at least not make things worse.  I'm making everything worse.  I know I need to take time to myself and recenter, but I feel like that's selfish because I should have done that before missing these other things today.  I hate myself and I don't know how to feel better other than time.  I feel like the people around me don't understand and that I don't deserve for them to be understanding.