And right on cue I have a horrible situation that gives me a ton of anxiety immediately after that decision was made. Worst my anxiety has been in a while. Worried myself to the point of intense nausea yesterday. Today I'm shaking involuntarily. On edge and can't focus in school whatsoever. I feel so fucking awful. And I'm doing everything I'm supposed to. I'm taking deep breaths, doing the square breathing, I'm reminding myself everything will be fine. I *know* everything will be fine. Like it's not my thoughts that are the issue it's that I'm unable to control my body. My thoughts know everything is fine but my heart doesn't care and keeps pumping adrenaline and won't fucking stop.