I’m not actually sure if these posts are allowed here; I promise I’ll read the rules again once I’ve posted this and amend it if needed.

I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for years, but over Christmas I was at my happiest and most stable, moreso than I have been for a long long time.

Tonight; for whatever reason, my anxiety has attacked me from all sides. I have experienced panic attacks before but luckily it hasn’t happened tonight. Instead I just have a head full of negative and scary thoughts. I’m struggling to keep a natural breathing rhythm or focus on anything at all. I’ve spent the last 30 minutes shaking and in tears, and unfortunately everyone I know is currently asleep as it is late here.

I just wanted to reach out to this subreddit. I’ve only been here a little while but I’ve been snooping and everyone seems so nice and supportive. I’m not sure what I’m expecting but just to know I’m not completely alone tonight might help me.