A long time ago, I watched the BBC Sherlock Holmes. Sherlock's sister is a super mega genius. 2 years ago I was confused about my values and imagined talking to his sister and saying: "what is the point of being rational? All you get is everything is nothing and nothing is everything". Nothing is everything can be interpreted as life is meaningless, but it's all we have. Everything is nothing is how I feel people are to me. Their admiration support love and care become nothing when faced with my depression. My rapist father taught me that