I’d love to hear your thoughts on this, or if any of you have gone through something similar. 

Basically, when I’m hanging out with my boyfriend everything is fine. We go on dates, laugh, connect with one another, and just have a great time. It’s very peaceful. 

But the second we part ways, I immediately start getting these thoughts of “break up with him” or “you’re not meant to be in a relationship” or “you’ll never live up to your potential with him in your life.” These thoughts often become so powerful that I actually convince myself to break up with him. I create a plan on what I’m going to say, how I’m going to say it, where the location of our breakup will be, etc.

But the next time I see him, all those thoughts melt away, and that plan diffuses. We always end up hanging out like normal. 

I’m not sure what’s going on here. At the end of the day, it’s very debilitating, because so much of my mental energy is spent on questioning my relationship. 

Again, if anyone has any insight, I’d love to hear it.