I've been stuck in the same life for months and have literally felt nothing in months. I feel like an empty human with no soul and just a flesh body that is programmed to do the same things every fucking day. I'm so fucking tired. I'm doing the same things every day and I can feel a void inside of me. I feel empty and it hurts me inside. The last time i felt something was in my prom night 3 months ago when i was talking to this new girl. Don't get me wrong, I've done everything a teenager can do, house parties, clubbing, birthday parties, drinking, smoking (not weed), hanging out at 2 am in the beach, have meaningful conversations with friends and new people, etc, etc. But that's in the past, and now I've left myself in this present time that fucking sucks. I'm tired and i need to experience new things in life. I NEED TO HAVE NEW EXPERIENCES WITH NEW PEOPLE, NEW PLACES, AND JUST EXPERIENCE SHIT I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE, GOOD OR BAD I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! I'm mentally exhausted and in the end of the day I'll wake up at 6:30 again tomorrow morning to do the same fucking thing I've been doing for the past 2 months. I'm 18 years old, never had a girlfriend and I need to fucking feel what that's like. I start university in 1 month and i want to meet new people and do new things. Please, please God change my life and get me out of this trap. I, feel, empty! I'm so fucking tired. I've felt like this before but fuck this! I'm tired... and I'm sorry for this rant!