I’m visiting her for the first time in 2 years, he was the family dog before everyone in the house moved out. She locks him in a cage because she doesn’t want him to “make a mess” in her new house. Mentally she’s taken a decline and I’m so disappointed and embarrassed that she’s my mother. I can’t sleep thinking about how me moving out a few years ago caused her to neglect her dog. I wish I took him in years ago, had I known it would get like this. He’s matted all over, shaking when he stands, and can barely get a bark out. I can’t even describe the smell of him and his crate but it’s horrible. I told her I was going to take him out and give him love and attention and she said “I don’t want him walking around the house he smells, he gets enough love and attention”. I don’t know what happened to her and when she became so neglectful and I feel like this is all my fault. I’m running a million scenarios in my head with how I’m going to confront her tomorrow, I don’t think she’s in a place to support him mentally and financially nor do I know anyone willing to take him in. I’m also so sad that the family dog will need to be surrendered to a shelter. I can’t stop feeling guilty, and I can’t sleep. I live across the country and can’t take him in, I have a puppy and a small apartment and no way of quarantining him + I’m not sure it’s even allowed to travel with a dog who doesn’t have their updated vaccines/is sick. I feel sick, and anxious, and I’ve only gotten 3 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours. I’m a mess.