Was helping a friend out cause she needed it after a bad day. Then, she got on a call with someone and completely forgot I existed. Not even a message saying she couldn't reply or was busy. 

Every damn time. No matter who I'm talking with, I always forget I'm their Second, Third, Fourth choice etc. I'll never be the one they go to first and even if I'm helping them they will always go with the next available person the moment they can.

I always have hope that maybe this time is the tike ill be the first choice for help and they'll keep talking with me about it. And every time that hope gets crushed and shattered. Why can't I just give up on this feeling already?