Just some context, please don’t think I’m flexing or anything. So I live on the east coast and went to college on the west coast, and am now a proud alumni of UC Berkeley at 21 (just turned 21). Life is lining up quite well for me, I have a very high paying job at Google as an engineer, a nice apartment, a nice new electric car, etc, but I am still extremely anxious about leaving home for my job later this week. I have a very close relationship with my mom. She’s been with me, supported me, all throughout my life, but me moving back to the west coast means it’ll be hard to see her. I plan on flying home once a month or so, and my company now gives us a lot of work from anywhere credits a year ON TOP of the Monday and Friday WFH days, so I can visit home for a week or so each time. So I’m a very logic-based person, but I always let my emotions take control over me. I’ll miss her so much while I’m gone, but I know it’ll only be a few more weeks till I see her again, but I still can’t help but have severe separation anxiety? I almost feel ashamed about this because from the outside looking in, I really should be extremely happy and content with everything, but I am everything BUT that. If anything, I am actually unhappier now than before. My homesickness worse when I went to college for sure, but my happiness now vs then is noticeably lower, and I’m not sure if that’s due to COVID or something, but I’m at my wits end here. How can I lessen my anxiety?

Thanks for your help!