Hello! This is my first time posting in this group and I want to start by saying I don’t want to offend anyone so I am sorry if I do. I have never been on any medications or went to any doctors for my mental health but I feel like something is not right. 

My dad is bipolar and that is something through researching I feel like I have a lot of the symptoms , on a less severe side of how most people experience it. I go through periods of obsessions. I will want to build things, and stay up super late researching how to build it and then after a few days of obsessing over it, i’ll move on to another thing like wanting to buy a sewing machine and sew things. I frequently go through different obsessions and research them all night long. I will then be very irritated over EVERYTHING. I’ll be in a constant bad mood and just sit around doing nothing and feel worthless and disgusting. I get super bothered by things normal people wouldn’t care about and are not a big deal at all. I then feel bad for my aggressive behavior and cry about it and it just goes around in a cycle. Some more information that may be important to note is that I am OBSESSED with weighing myself and I have a lot of issues regarding eating. I won’t eat if I think I weigh too much and I think about it all day. My behavior is not normal and I just feel like something is not right, and hasn’t been for a while now. 

I wanted to come on here and see if people with similar behavior can understand where i’m coming from. I feel like my behavior is out of my control at times and I just want some answers.