Boyfriend ended things last night and intervened when I tried to secretly take a blade and pills from his cabinet because I felt like I wanted to die- he hugged me to sleep then reiterated the fact that he couldn’t do this (our relationship) anymore in the morning. I feel really lost and bleak and I really don’t see past this fog - when I think about suicide I usually think about family and my future to talk myself out of it but this time I don’t see these things ps. I already know that my boyfriend is right to leave me this post is more about what I should do now 