I've (42M) never suffered from anxiety until last year where I had a bit of a breakdown with almost permanent anxious thoughts. This went on for months but eased eventually.

Recently I've been going through a very difficult personal issue. My anxiety isn't triggered like it was before but I find myself deliberately forcing thoughts into my head, so I get the pang of anxiety/adrenaline in my chest/stomach.

Why the hell am I doing this to myself? Does my body think I need this to cope with my current troubles? Am I addicted to these? Forcing these negative thoughts is really not helping things :(