
Hi guys,

So recently I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about almost anything and everything. My fear is psychosis so it causes me to latch onto the fear of it and relating all my thoughts to them.

This evening I was sitting with my girlfriend and her mum and we were talking about random things and I did not once think of my thoughts or wonder and question everything that happens in front of me. My thoughts have been surrounded by horrible anxiety and knots in my stomach.

What if my food is poisoned 

What if I start to believe my thoughts

What if the government are after me/anyone for that matter

What if I think the tv/radio is talking to me

What if everything is real or what if there is things in the world that I control.

Absolutely none of these thoughts I believe. I seemed to have conditioned my thoughts into relating them to all be “what if” thoughts then I question everything and anything. Even things i see or do I question it. I’m starting to get a tad angry at it tbh. My psychologist said it’s certainly not schizophrenia or anything like that it’s more of obsessive thinking. I honestly obsess over all my thoughts and feelings which makes me think I’m going insane and crazy. It’s a horrible feeling and I just feel like I can’t enjoy anything I do just now. Always wondering what people think of me and if they like me. What if people are looking at me or talking about me. I know that they aren’t but my thoughts latch onto the fact of “what if”.

Has anyone else ever had these type of thoughts like constant throughout the day no matter what you think about or anything like that.

Thanks,
Brandon