How many times do we wonder that.... 😧

I’ve gotten really interested in a job market lately (Cybersecurity) that is probably objectively my best shot of scraping out of struggling paycheck to paycheck? I’ve been increasingly more interested in online privacy, have always been good with computers, have always casually wanted to code. 

But.... I’ve been also playing a game that is basically a hacking simulator about: cyber security. 

And now I’m wondering “is this like that time I watched Scrubs and Gray’s Anatomy and House and wanted to be a doctor all over again?” I’m picking what’s probably the most “glamorous” /exciting part of IT (to me at least) like when I was interested in infectious disease. 

I’m not going to not pursue it but I just wish I didn’t have to debate whether my interest in something is being overly influenced. And if I’ll fizzle out on it or if it’s the idea of something not the reality of it I actually want to do. 

I’m starting with some online free coding resources, I think, because I really don’t want to try school for like a 4th time and fail. 