I seem to write people off fairly easy. In which it gets to the point where I “hate everyone”. At this point, although I personally feel everyone else is the problem.. it would have to be me.

For example. Today, I hade vaguely talked to another classmate/friend about meeting up to study today. I messaged him this morning that I was working on problems. But he didn’t respond, so I figured he was busy and we would meetup later.

I was posting my worked out problems in Discord for this group I have in the class. On of the kids mentions him and “my friend” are studying. In which he posts a picture of my friend I was suppose to study with.

Then, “friend” messages me and says we should study tomorrow. Kind of like a “oh hey I got caught” message. I mean shit, he’s his own person. He’s not obligated to only study with me.

But something about this really makes me hate both of them. Especially since the other kid specifically stated he didn’t tell me because I didn’t “join his Xbox Live party last night.” 

At this point they half ass invite to come study. I live a half hour out. I also don’t like last minute plans, as well as being an afterthought.

How the fuck do I deal with this in a constructive way. Something like this stores these people in the “don’t give a shit about you” part of my brain. In which most people are stored there.

Why do I feel cheated?