I won't go into too much detail, but yeah ): Trying to be assertive with my true feelings and stand up for what I think I need in a relationship is so hard. Like am I thinking too much into things? Am I being a little too sensitive or clingy? I don't want to drive my partner away with how my bpd makes me feel, want and think... but I also feel like keeping everything inside is just going to blow up in both our faces one day and that's so scary. 

Blehhh I hate being like this.