im 16. today i seemed happy, i was making jokes and stuff. then before i went to bed i was getting annoyed at my mom, i dont remember why. she said "whats wrong?" And i said "im just unhappy" she then slamed her hands down on my bed like she was angry and said "you were just happy earlier!” She said something after that and I don’t remember what but it was along the lines of “what is wrong with you”. I think that alot. I isolate myself from everybody and I don’t know why, sometimes I just want people to dislike me, other times I want everyone to love me. I can’t even date anyone because either they realize how messed up I am, or I feel like they shouldn’t be with someone who freaks out over the stupidest shit. i thought this girl liked me and i was starting to like her and now she likes my sister. i have no right to be angry. her not liking me isnt her fault, yet, i for some reason want to avoid her and hate her. even with my ex girlfriend, she just stoped liking me and all the love i felt for her turned to hate, i shouldnt hate her but i do, it has also made me dislike myself even more. i dont know what i did wrong, maybe i made her uncomfortable or maybe im just too stupid for her. i wish she had told me. and today I realized, that I will never be happy. Even when I am “happy" theres always thats same feeling of being alone and that im a bother. i know im not a bad person, or atleast my intentions are good, but i still feel like i am a bad person. i dont know if that makes sense. im just tired, i havent even told anyone how i feel besides now, i dont think it would even help. i just wish i could be alone, forever, in my own world where i didnt bother anyone, and no one knew of my existence.