Until tonight. 

I started a new job a few weeks ago, but only have 1-2 shifts a week. It’s very fast paced and information heavy and I just feel like I’m failing every time I go in for a shift. I picked one up for tomorrow and am regretting it so hard.

Last weekend, I worked two night shifts for the first time and was partnered with someone who had been there for 20 years. I made mistakes, got anxious and then made more dumb mistakes because of being so on edge. My partner was getting more and more fed up with me, but kind of passive aggressively and I just,,,felt so humiliated and lost all my confidence after that. I don’t know if I can keep doing this. 

I’m terrified to go in tomorrow and humiliate myself more. Currently in fetal position just dreading it and trying not to cry lol. 

Wish me luck )-: