My boyfriend and I got COVID last week and it messed up his heart and put him in afib so I took him to the ER and they admitted him which is good. He needed care and I’m relieved he’s getting it because I’m was more anxious with him being at home. But now I’m in quarantine alone and can’t visit him because I have COVID. It’s breaking my heart to know I won’t see him for days potentially until I get out of quarantine which is after Christmas. I’m so sad that I’ll be completely alone for the holiday. I don’t know what to do with myself. I just keep crying because I miss him and I’m worried about him and scared because I can’t be there to see what’s happening in the hospital. I hate being so helpless and alone. I don’t know what I’m hoping to get out of posting this, maybe advice on how to take my mind off things or just wanting to vent. I just feel worse doing nothing and keeping all this in my head.