I have some level of self awareness. I have mood swings and I’m pretty OKAY at keeping them in check. I can recognize that my anger has been a problem in the past and I’ve spent a lot of time working on it, but I can’t seem to stop reacting to sadness. I make all kinds of idiotic choices just so I don’t have to be sad. I get into relationships with people who mean me no good whatsoever, just so I don’t have to face these feelings when I’m alone. I have that voice in my head telling me that a lot of the things I do are not a good idea. The same voice tells me that my relationships won’t last or will end very poorly… or that I probably shouldn’t drink all night because I work in the morning. I can’t seem to overcome my intense need to not feel the way that I feel. being that I have bpd, my sense of self tends to be really wobbly. Has anyone mastered their emotions? Can someone give me some advice on being stronger than the way I feel? I want better for myself and I need to take responsibility for the role I play in my own suffering.  How can I effectively do this?