I (24/F) am reaching breaking point. I am quite depressed and suicidal. 
I am married to a man who I don’t fulfil and he wants to build an emotional relationship with another girl.
I hate my job but have too many responsibilities to resign without going through the processes of job hunting which I don’t have the mental capacity for. 
I have been struggling with my finances due to my depression and needing to buy things to fix my confidence and be happy with how I look.
I can’t keep going like this. I need some guidance (also consulting pyschs but that’s not the help I need).
I feel as though I either need a big change or to kill myself. Dramatic, but that’s where I am at.