Like the title says, I don’t know what’s wrong but I know something is wrong. I feel like I’ve been borderline depressed for the past year or year and a half. When I’m around my family and when I see my friends (which isn’t  very often) I feel and act happy and normal but when I’m alone I remember all that I’m sad about and all the reasons I hate myself and my actions. I don’t know if I am depressed or not. I feel like I’m living multiple lives, maybe it’s all an act, and then what? Is my sadness and self loathing also an act? Who is the real me? I can’t find the motivation for anything anymore, my grades are the worst they have ever been, I’ve regained the weight I worked so hard to lose, I struggle keeping up basic hygiene like showering and brushing my teeth. I don’t know what to do.