First of all, I don't seek a diagnosis. I'm just wondering if you guys ever act the same. Every time I watch a new movie, play an epic video game or find a very charismatic individual, I'll always copy what they do/how they are. I cannot explain it, but these are like mini "phases". One example would be: Me on a boring day, decide to watch a documentary about Shaolin monks. Tell everyone I'm gonna practice discipline, meditate and train in martial arts. Next week, I'm back to "me". Another example: movie Fight Club (Yes, David Fincher is osum), I always mimick what Tyler Durden does and even try to copy his style in the movie. This is fucking wrong, because the entire point of the movie was toxic masculinity and basically Durden was a manipulative psychopath. This explains why I'm very lonely, there is no "real" me. I come off as a fake, unless for some fucked up reason they find my mimicking entertaining to the very least. Anyways, that's all. Sorry for bad english and the messy text. Just wanted to get this off my chest. 



TL;DR Your average 18yo has no identity, is aware of that and it pisses him off, because he comes off as being insincere.