I’ve realised something about myself

I wanna be picked. I want a guy to swoop in and choose me so I don’t have to bother going through the motions of insecurity and wondering whether he likes me. 

I want easy. I want men to like me from the bat and decide that I’m for them. I don’t want to search. I don’t want to fight. I just want someone to pick me . Of course this means that I’m vulnerable to narcissistic men of other disordered fuckers but still. 

The only people who have picked me have been my female friends *sigh*. I find men so hard to gage, constantly wondering if they really like me or just want me for one night. And that amount of insecurity just tires me out. 

Basically I hate the chase of dating if you can’t tell