I want to go back to my old job. It is plaguing all of my dreams (that I remember), every night. I loathe my current job. I am seriously considering just walking out or not showing up anymore.

Applying at my old job is far from a guarantee. I’m honestly scared to, just in fear they won’t even consider me. I know they are hard up on people, job in general is high turnover rate (most people don’t last a week).  I know I wouldn’t have to be trained, it’s pretty straightforward work. But I did get fired for breaking a rule. They told me i could reapply in 6 months (it’s been almost a year). 

I think I’m obsessing. That’s probably why it’s plaguing my dreams.

But I. Hate. My. Current. Job. I. HATE. It. And I need to not make an impulsive dumb decision. And I also had a relapse, was sober and then had a weak day on thanksgiving, so I would not be able to pass a drug test. Which... is... the reason I lost my job.

So. I’m just insane, yeah? 

I don’t think I need y’all to answer. Thanks for reading.