I'm sick of feeling like this. My GP WON'T let me see a psychiatrist since he feels I'm not sick enough. The mental health team won't let me see one either. I was in the psychiatric hospital last year for a month and I got prescribed mood stabilisers. I tried them for 3 weeks and they gave me a weeks supply when I left hospital. I was homeless and when I finally had a place to live I signed up at a new docs that was closer to me as my old one wouldn't have me. 

They fucked up my medical records when my old docs sent them over to my new docs. So they had no proof of my mood stabilisers. I have 2 documents in my possession given to me when I was discharged from psychiatric hospital, both of them say I was given Quetiapine. But no, that's not good enough.

I'm going out of my fucking mind. I can't afford to go private. My GP keeps giving me antidepressants and I've tried so many and I've given them so much time to kick in but nothing works. My self harming has gotten worse. I'm never going to get help. I feel so angry. I just want mood stabilisers. I want to get better.