Glad this subreddit exists because I’ve been wanting to vent for a while but don’t know if feel comfortable talking to anyone about it in person. I feel like a complete failure of a human being, I get no real joy out of things in life and when I do feel excited about something I end up feeling guilty for being excited later on and I don’t know why. The smallest inconveniences can make me super angry really quickly and I end up shutting down emotionally because of it or end up using really shitty coping mechanisms that I know I shouldn’t use. I ended up quitting my job the other day because I just couldn’t deal with the annoying people there anymore and just wanted to go home and sleep and now I feel guilty about quitting because I really need the money but at the same time I feel like I’m just going through the motions and nothing in my life is real. I wish I could make myself try harder to get help for it but it’s so hard to find the motivation