These voices aren't disconnected so I know it isn't an hallucination. But they are inside my head and out of control. It is are triggered by all types of stress, and aren't dictated by mood. At my mentally healthiest I still had the voice. I have had this voice ever since I started feeling depressed.

The voice would tell me things like "kill yourself, cut yourself" or "murder" over and over and over for hours. Sometimes it goes on for days and I relapse into self harming to silence the voice for a little while. Its the reason I started cutting in the first place, and the reason I tried killing myself last June. 

I just got diagnosed with MDD last June and im scared to inquire about this because its embarrassing and I don't think anyone will believe me (I am young, well-mannered, and biologically female). 

Not asking for a diagnosis, just wondering if I'm not alone i guess.