I’ve been having a bad flair up of anxiety, that’s causing a significant amount of depression. This has been leading to multiple bouts of unstoppable crying throughout the day, being physically and mentally exhausted and causing physical pain (migraines and stomach pains). I’m failing to be a human being, barely showering or eating, my apartment is a disaster, work has been impossible, I don’t have enough energy to do daily tasks (making coffee, reading, focusing on a game or puzzle, music is triggering). It feels like it’s getting worse and I don’t know how get out of this place. And worse I feel like I don’t have anyone to reach out to (I see a therapist weekly but outside of them I feel like I don’t have anyone). We are trying CBT but she said that will take time and she gave me a referral to a psychiatrist for prescription treatment but we know how the healthcare system in the US works. So in the meantime I’m here feeling like I’m drowning in loneliness.