male diagnosed with PDNOS here (i believe i mostly exhibit quiet BPD symptoms so i just say i have BPD long story short lol), i find it so frustrating how much i split on my partner a day. all they need to do is raise their voice to me or say something i don’t want to hear at the moment and i go spiraling out of control. it’s like my blood boils and i fucking hate them for a few minutes or hours. everytime they ask me if i’m okay, i always lie and say that i’m fine because i don’t want them to think i’m a terrible person or anything for easily resenting them. mostly what i do is try to take a nap to calm my mind down, my boyfriend says “after we have even a small argument you always go to sleep,” like yeah?? i don’t want to feel like this anymore and sleeping is the closest thing to an easy death. i don’t want to hate them sometimes but i can’t help it, my hatred happens multiple times a day somehow and it’s so hard to control because listening to my angry side feels so much more natural than forgiving him :/ anyone else relate or am i alone on this one?