I don’t really know what I feel like I’m just going along numbly doing nothing going nowhere I feel like I’m in a big white room where I can’t see anything in any direction and it’s impossible to get out of I don’t know what this feeling is its like I have no direction in my life although if I just stand in the white room forever everything will still be the same just like my outlook on my life no matter what I do everything’s gonna be the same I don’t want to kill myself but I’d be content to die I don’t really want to live it’s just a lot of effort to actually be living at this stage I think I’m pretty much living for my family I have no friends I have no social life and nothing actually makes me happy at all I don’t want to kill myself however but I’d be pretty satisfied if something were to happen to me I’m just sad a lot of the time but my life should be great I have amazing family but I don’t know what’s wrong with me