I think I have complex PTSD, but I'm unsure what causes my anxiety. I was in the middle of eating dinner, watching a video, and I suddenly began to feel anxious, like a light panic attack is coming. I still feel it now, but on top of that, I don't see positively into the future? I don't know how to describe it. I keep getting these moments where I feel the future isn't all that bright, or something is going to go terribly wrong. I can't identify what it is. 

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There's no specific reason why I began feeling anxious. I began to feel depressed before that if that was any indication. I recently posted some artwork that took me a while to make, and it's not really gotten much attention, let alone support, which is making me wonder if I did something wrong? Maybe that triggered it? I've been full of doubts and self-esteem issues since I was a child, I was physically abused by my father and mentally abused by my step mother. They always found some way to make me feel like shit, probably because I wasn't Christian like them and played violent video games.