I can only talk to one friend at the moment. I feel bad because I shut down my WhatsApp on my computer and have had my phone on airplane mode for the last couple of days as I just do not have the mental energy to even tell people I need a break from life and to be on my own. 

Its got to a point where I am scared to open it all back up!! I don't know what to expect. What if no one has messaged me at all? I keep thinking someone might try and find a way to contact me but no one has so far but I know logically that no one can, bar actually coming over to my place. 

I am working at the moment and can interact with clients and co-workers because I have to put the corporate mask on, but just...ugh. 

I very much feel like I have retreated into myself which is a safe space whilst I try to figure out what is going on internally. I keep bingeing on either food, exercise, spending, etc. and it's become a bit of a cycle. I eat a lot, and then exercise until I feel I have burned the extra calories off. I haven't been sleeping much either, I turned the lights off at 11:30pm last night and was still awake and mind was racing at 2:30am. 

Not sure what to do. Advice would be appreciated.