I can't get this fucking depression out of my fucking skull I'm tired of it. I can't work I can't sleep all I do to cope is eat and play video games which only gets me more depressed like "wow good job Hazel you fat fuck all you did today was eat and sit on your fat ass all day".

It's affecting my work, it's affecting my love life, I feel like I should break up with my girlfriend so she can find a better person to be with. All I do is reject any kind of love and snap at her when she does the tiniest thing my dumbass finds annoying.

Nothing is fun anymore, there's no hope for me anymore, I'm a college dropout and my greatest accomplishment is a youtube channel with 100 subscribers. I just want to cry everyday.

God I wish I can just die in some freak accident and it'll be over. Maybe a meteor can crush me if I'm lucky, I'm too much of a coward to do it myself.