Today I really just cant fucking feel anything. I can’t stand this. I can’t make stupid small talk with people at work. My emptiness and despair is so consuming that I can’t even act like im okay. I hate that im expected to put on a smile and go about my day as if a literal black hole in my heart isnt sucking the life out of me. I want this all to end. Why even be alive if its to feel like this, stupid pointless waste of time.