I'm really tired now, not being loved by the family, my debts that I couldn't pay because I didn't get family support (which will probably be a funny amount for those of you who don't live in Turkey) All the things I've failed in my life have ended my motivation for life 14 years of my 19-year life, my family's fights, their bad behavior against me, psychological violence, environmental pressures I'm really tired of crying every night and sobbing until I'm out of breath. It's not possible for me to get a professional about my problems. I was born with dyslexia, I had a disgraceful primary school, because my stupid teachers didn't show me the attention I needed, I was able to succeed in academic success as much as I could, apart from that, I was excluded from the country I live in. My physique, which is terrible due to the unbalanced diet that brings in, seeing how the people around me achieve success started to make me feel worse day by day.  on top of that i'm in a toxic relationship with a girlfriend who she loves about her ex and keeps talking about how her physical features I don't have fascinated her i just can't stand it anymore please help give me some advice i'm tired of waking up with nightmares and not being able to stop thinking about killing myself all i want is a normal life like everyone else i really want too much I don't know if my aim is not luxury cars or villas, only a few people around me that I can call my family to support me in my progress, maybe it will be useless for me to write here, but I wanted to try (please don't say things like go on a trip, get a hobby, I will tell you as an example, these are simple for you but not for me unit I will explain as the price, a guitar I would like to play starts from 1200 TL, that is, 1200 dollars or a bike minimum 2000 TL, you can think of it as 2000 dollars as a unit, so please do not come to offer these solutions, it is only 2000 TL, that is, 170 dollars.  I can't engage in such things when I can't pay my debt)