Hi I (f 19) work in a hospital and where I am placed to do my job changes every day. So sometimes I can be working in the ER or on one of the units. Sometimes I get put in a part that I absolutely hate, everyone knows I hate it and I feel I’m really bad at it. Usually I can switch with someone so I can go work somewhere else. But for the past two days my boss is telling me I can’t switch and I have to stay here. So now I’m sitting at work choking back tears and getting really upset. I feel so shitty that I’m crying at my job and spiraling down feeling so much self doubt. I know the way to help is remove myself from the situation but I can’t. It’s not like I can go to my boss and say “hey I have bpd so if you put me here it makes me rethink my whole existence and purpose”.