I have massive anger issues, and im pretty sure everyone here shares that with me. It has gotten me into a few problems, but i least expect them with people i trust to.

So, today, this girl, lets name her Karen, she shits on me. She has been doing this for a few days now and im at my boiling point. She actually insults my bf by joking about sexual abuse he had suffered, causing him to leave the group chat we shared. Then she started insulting me and my appearance and i was very very angry.

By this point in relationship i felt like i could open up, like i could express my real emotions with him. Thus far i was cold and quite unfeeling, because i've repressed myself over multiple years. But anger is one of my main emotions when i actually show any.

So i go to him, tell him how angry i am and say some fantasies about what will i do to this Karen. I feel a bit better. I feel like he understands my anger. 

Nah, he snitched on me and shared the rant to Karen who then posted it on her twitter. This fucking dickweed, he betrayed my trust AND THEN HE SAYS HE DOESNT WANT TO BE WITH ME ANYMORE after i confront him.

I trusted you. I showed you my emotions. And you betrayed me.

I blocked him on anywhere. Im pretty sure the spineless prick and Karen will end up dating now. I just feel fucking betrayed... i told him im BPD. I told him that i have anger issues. And he was fine with it. But the momment i actually showed it he fucking bailed on me.

This isnt fair. His smell is still in the bedsheets. I cant wash them because its midnight and i live in dorms. This fucking sucks.