Living with my mom, aka the person who caused me to develop BPD. My abandonment wounds have gotten deeper and deeper, and every day they are revisited due to the nature of living with this woman. I am living in agony, in hell. She makes me feel like a blade of grass, and treats me as such. I's either criticism or total neglect. If she's excitatory and in a good mood, it's projecting positive stuff that happened to *her* onto me. How do I cope with my original trauma being relived every single day? I am doing trauma work and everything is saying "you need to feel and embody your trauma to heal." I feel and embody them every day. And I am slowly decaying.