Hello, the past 2 or so weeks have been really strange.. I have been having issues with self harm and depressed symptoms for something like 6 or so months now.
Lately I have been noticing I have been a bit more almost violent towards people. At first I was just very randomly energetic, and now I have become much more violent.. I try to "really" scare people and just.. It is hard to explain.. I haven't actually tried to hurt anyone, but I am far more aggressive sometimes now either because of actual aggression or in pursuit of scaring people. 
Idk.. As for my thoughts of self harm.. I have been obsessed with urges and thoughts.. Haven't done it, but part of me really really wants to.. 
I am starting to almost scare myself a bit and I find myself questioning myself sometimes. 


Boy this post has gone off the rails..
Sorry it is so long.. 
I am just.. I want to know why this has been happening on one day out of the past 4-5 I have been becoming more violent minded I didn't feel like I was me.
I don't know.. This all sounds so crazy and I am scared and I don't want people to think I am dangerous.. I don't wanna be seen as a monster or something..

Can someone please tell me, what should I do, what could be happening.