i always feel like i have to please everyone and most of the way i act with people is based on what they like or think of me already. i actively look for the type of person they are and try to match that. i feel like i can’t be myself because there really isn’t a me. i’ve been like this all my life and i feel like a chameleon. it’s silly but god, i’m so fucking boring to be around with. i hate myself so fucking much, i don’t want to be like this but i take other people’s thoughts and opinions of me so personally.