I am 26 years old so I feel like at this point I am not getting any younger, I feel like I should have my life together but instead it's a mess and I guess I should come to accept I am going to die alone with no one to love me. All my relationships have been very unstable and abusive but the ending was always the same "I can't handle you anymore". I am crying but I think I should just give up on trying to find someone that will care for me and love me because that might just be impossible.