As the title above reads. Life is difficult. Life has been good and bad and wonderful and downright awful at times. Right now I shouldn’t have much to complain about due to where I was 5 years ago. A decent job with decent pay. A home. Beautiful family. For most of my life I have been haunted by my mild adhd and manic depression. One triggering another and causing some of the most toxic situations in my entire life thus far. At this point in life I have finally found a Dr that was able to help treat my adhd and thus mellow out any manic depressive episodes to the point that I haven’t had reoccurring panic attacks and the sad s attempts. Only when my insurance dropped and my medication ran out did I have a spell and caused a hospital visit. Creating more distrust in the mental health portion of healthcare (America).

       Recently, my youngest was pointed out in his class by one of the “supervisors” as difficult to keep in control and much more “wild” than the other children. Obviously I foreseen this being that he may have the same problems that I do mentally I want to wait until he is old enough cognitively before any really therapy can be used. At a young age I wasn’t medicated like other children but because of my difficulty staying focused I was placed into special education throughout my school life. I am afraid this is what will happen with my child. Isolated and presumed different with limitations. I feel many peoples lives were damaged due to these types of situations that only emboldened these limitations due to mental issues. 

    I came here to vent/ask for ideas that anyone might had similar experiences. My so is freaking out about it and it’s causing unwanted stress within the household. They don’t quite understand how to handle these situations and will say they do but it’s blatantly obvious they are just repeating what’s been told to them or what they’ve read online. Personally, I don’t trust psychologists or psychiatrists. 90% of them I have every personally dealt with has been pill pushing and misdiagnosing. This is a somewhat scary situation. I just want what’s best for my child and not just some idea of an easy way out. It took me 28 years to figure out the release for mine. As long as I stay creative my mind stays happy. When I’m not, my mind  will wander and speculate and create anxiety leading to my manic depression. I can already see these traits in my child. I really hope I’m over thinking it and this is just a toddler phase. Thanks for reading and for anyone responding.