For obvious reasons... I cant even type what it is but im sure people will guess... Ive wanted to post for a while but the idea of anyone posting pictures terrifies me.
Its quite a common and irrational fear for many people especially the uk where they arent too dangerous.
Among many other traumas... This one has ruined my life since childhood and it has got me to the point i scratch until i bleed and bruise... Why cant i be scared of heights at least i can avoid them 😭
I dont know what to do anymore... I stuggle to even go into my bathroom let alone shower... Cant close my toilet door im literally in and out of there.... I also have panic disorder on top of everything else ( yay) which makes it worse.
I cant sleep which in turn affects my eating and cant function.
I sit perched on the arm of my settee on high alert day in day out.
Lucky for me my dog is truly tuned into my feelings and will absolutely not hesistate to eat them... He knows it causes me distress... I cant seem to see this shit getting better.... Sad that people also cnt see difference between fear and phobia.... Absolutely no way can i do my garden and its a mess 😭 i fucking hate it... Its deliberating.... Can it get better? Anyone else like this? Im recently diagnosed bpd and my heads all over but this phobia is severely impacting even day to day functions... On top of my ptsd bipolar bpd... If i cant sleep from thinking of them... I start hallucinating about them 😪 im so fukin tired of being on guard 24/7... Not been offered any support or therapy as they "want to see how i go" anyone else have severe phobia? How can i not let this imoact me so much 😭