I'm having a harder time than usual. I started a new job a few weeks ago, I'm a line cook. There is this girl who I think is very beautiful. We have so much in common. She's my age and exactly my type but she has a boyfriend I think she has been seeing for about a year. I'm not that guy I wouldn't expect her to start something with me that would be a total red flag for me anyway. But she keeps bringing up her boyfriend. Today she asked if I was ok she said my body language changed then started calling my honey. I'm so confused if she likes me or not. She added me to Facebook and we've been talking for a couple days but. I feel like I don't measure up compared to other men. I'm 5'11 and 160lb I'm a pretty normal person. Idk what I'm missing but I'm so tired of being alone it's been like 8-9 years since I've had a girlfriend or been intimate. I've never so many suicidal thoughts I'm so unhappy with myself. But this rejection and the last has me feeling like I'm not worth anything. The last girl I asked out like a year ago said she doesn't date co-workers. I don't get it everyone likes me at work. I'm respectful ,hardworking and chivalrous.  I have a nice car a WRX and a motorcycle I know that doesn't matter but I have passion for my hobbies. I want a partner and a best friend someone I can be there for and will be there for me. I'm so tired of being alone. I feel like she is perfect.