I do everything wrong in a plainly obvious way. I've never made correct decision in my life on every scale. From making completely life altering mistakes to just doing incredibly stupid things more regularly than most people. I know people will say I'm just being hard on myself but I really have terrible short term memory to the point that I can't reliably think about where I need to go without forgetting before I get there. I just don't have the things most people have that make them basically functional. I'm neurotic and anti social and uncoordinated and all of that leaves me as a person who just won't stop making mistakes and doing things wrong. It's terrible to live like this because I can't even take my own side when something goes wrong. I got called a dumbass today for making so many ridiculous mistakes and I couldn't reasonably say anything other than "I know". My entire life feel like that both as a whole and day to day and I really can't take it. I hate honestly living like this but it's just who I am