Okay hear me out, to start I don’t have a diagnosis for anxiety so maybe I don’t know what I’m talking about. But I do feel very stressed out all the time, I have had different experiences that I can’t really explain from a full on can’t-breath-crying-feeling-like-I’m-dying-panic to a complete-numbness-and-empty-feeling-after-a-sudden-urge-to-cry-in-public-place. But as a college student i have found myself in the endless cycle of doing everything last minute, because it seems like I’d rather drown in the stress and guilt of not going to class and studying then actually do it until I have used up every last second of the time I have and it’s too late to actually do it. Sure you’re thinking then why do I do this instead of focusing of anything thing stupid insignificant thing or hobby I have discovered this week ? Believe me when I say I don’t know and if I could I would. I’ve tried everything from rewards to fake deadlines but nothing has helped me out of this habit. Do I just enjoy anxiety ? And need a higher level of stress to make me do stuff ? Has anyone else experienced this? Is this normal ? I’m a just lazy ?