I'm a 20 year old male that dropped out of High School in my second year of 11th grade...  I was always considered extremely intelligent by almost all others, got within the top 10 highest scores on almost every test in High School, however I was always considered lazy because I didn't participate in classes, &amp; I never did menial assignments so I actually had a terribly low GPA. 


I wasn't lazy, nor have I ever been, but the day to day Anxiety that comes with being Borderline just ate me up on the inside, causing me to Dissociate almost every day at school. When I turned 18 I just couldn't take that kind of Hell anymore, so I had the ultimatum of either offing myself or dropping out. I dropped out.


My parents always understood that I had problems that couldn't just be medicated away, but fortunately they choose to support me for however long it takes me to get help. I was officially diagnosed with BPD several months ago &amp; with that I began DBT with a Psychiatrist that I really like (for once I found a good one). 


DBT seems to be helping, but I'm just so damned stuck in life, leeching of my parents, which I feel terrible about. How the fuck do I become independent?! I mean hell, my parents live in a rural area, so I can't get a job (driving causes me to Dissociate within minutes, so I can't drive), because I can't drive as well as neither of them being available to drive me to a job. Seriously I'm so fucking stuck in this stagnation that I'm truly going numb inside, &amp; I'm stuck because of my past failures... If I could get a job for like even 2-3 months than I could move into an apartment with my best friend (whom is wanting to get an apartment with me), &amp; I could easily obtain an adequate job within walking distance.


I'm sorry for the rant, I really don't know what I was looking for by typing this out, but this seemingly insurmountable bump in my life is leaving my in a stagnant position, &amp; if something doesn't change soon than I fear that it will be the death of me...


I'm sorry for wasting your time by posting this, but I have it typed out for a reason that I can't quite grasp, so I think that I will go ahead &amp; post it...