Hi! I recently graduated from grad school after two of the hardest years of my life. I need to be actively and intensely applying for jobs because I don't have a ton of savings and don't want to start relying on my credit card but I am having the hardest time.

I'm fine researching positions, and vetting what I want and what I don't. But when it comes to actually applying and writing resumes and cover letters, I'm frozen by thoughts of how much I am worthless and how much I hate myself and no one would ever want me. The reason side of me knows this isn't true, but I can't move past the emotional part that believes it. This dichotomy makes me super angry with myself and continues to stall me. I get on a sick cycle and I end up staring at my computer until I'm so frustrated with myself, that I abandon it all. 

Any advice on how to get through these thoughts so I can function would be greatly appreciated. I'm super desperate.  There are three jobs that just opened up this week at my former company. I know people in those departments and can probably get my application moved flagged for a real person to review but I have to move fast. When I start to work on my applications, I literally start shaking and my anxiety rises and I can't function.