So I have extreme depression and anxiety and have to take medication for it. Anyways... I smoke weed a few times a day and do my thing. Well, I ran out 4 days ago and wanted to get more BUT....my anxiety was making my heart race so much and I wanted to scream. Well, today I finally forced myself to drive the 30 mins (closest shop near me) and BACK without having a panic attack or pulling over to cry/scream.

It was difficult and I've been dealing with this since I was born. Yay me. Haha. But I'm pushing myself. I want to get better but when that hand of anixety grabs a hold of my heart and soul and says, "no," I always listen. Well now I'm putting my foot down and say, "screw you......sometimes." haha.