I don't know what happens. I just feel sometimes that I am not made to live. I mean I did all the work. I challenged myself. Overcame social anxiety, tried connecting with people, tried making the best of my life. I still try every day. But almost every new day, waking up. It's a struggle. Sometimes it feels like nothing makes me happy or feel things. I think most people would look at my life and think I am doing fine with friends and family. I guess on a relationship level people might not think I am doing good. But you know that's only one thing. I feel like I am doing all the right things and I am meeting people and getting out there doing things. But I am just so unhappy. I just feel like a zombie going through the motions. And if this would be a new thing I guess it would be fine. But it just always comes back... i work hard with my therapist. I take my medication. I force myself to get up and go out even if I don't feel like it. I try to eat healthy and exercise. But I am so tired of trying. I constantly feel not good enough and like I just want to lay in bed and watch tv shows or eat. Food is a big problem for me. And I overcame that too. I lost all the weight. Eat healthier. I overcame so much and yet I am still here struggling with life. I don't get how other people just seem to this easy time. Not all of them, but I know there are people like that.

I am just really tired and I am having a hard time seeing a reason why I should keep going.