So i am M23🇨🇦. I have struggled with depression for many years. Mainly aince i was 17. Its gotten worse over the years but slowly. When i was 19 thats when it got bad. And really havent recovered. Now i feel like its going back down again. Im single, always have been, never had my first kiss, never had my first gf/bf. (Im bi.... thats a whole other issue) it took a while for me to accept myself due to an issue with friends.i havent really had any friends since i had a falling out with them when i was 19. Now whenever i see a group of guys just hanging out on bikes, at a park, at a fast food or other restaraunt. I get so jelous and depressed becauze i have never had a group of guys to really hang out with like that. 

I feel like im going to be alone forever both rmantically and friends. I try hard to work on myself but the depression gets to me and then my motivation just dies. All i want is to be oart of a close friends group, have a best friend, and possibly get in a relationship. 

I know nobody can really help with that. But i just needed to vent a bit i guess