I’m afraid that at any moment I could split on my new FP/boyfriend.

It’s this repeating pattern with me. Date someone for a while, mostly happy at first then I become chaotic, get tired of it or them, then leave. There’s more to it then that, but you get the jist. 

I really like the man I am with now, he is so sweet and down to earth, he makes me feel beautiful, he validates my feelings like no one has ever, and the sex is the best ever. Therefore, I am very scared of the thought of splitting on him eventually which seems like it’s inevitable with me. 

I’m trying to identify my thought patterns before I start to project it, especially when it comes to my obsessiveness, paranoia, and jealousy. 

Does it ever get easier?