Hi everyone!

I am new here, so I am not sure how to ask for advice. Lately I noticed that my anxiety got worse.

In 2019 I worked with therapist and I was diagnosed with anxiety, but I never took any medication, just did CBT in general, because I had another reasons for it. My therapist just told me that I have anxiety, but I don’t think that I ever felt any symptoms.

However in 2020 it hit me. Especially, in the second part on the year. I work from home and I feel that I am trapped. But what is worse, things from the past started to haunt me. I constantly think about things from the past, for example: “In 20XX I did something, what if it was wrong, what if it will affect my future”. I feel sick of my computer and digital world (which is a bit weird, cuz I love it usually).

I also take birth control during these 2 years, and I think maybe they influence on me like that (increase anxiety).

I started to use CBT tips again (without therapist) and I try to improve my state, and re-shape my negative thoughts in positive way, but sometimes I just feel that this thing sucks me into darkness and constant thinking, and I just can’t enjoy my life how it was before.

I just want to know that I am not only one for whom 2020 was “trigger” and that worries about “past experience” are normal for person with anxiety.

Thank you all