long story short I was living on my own from about the age of 19…im 22 now and have been struggling with mental illness related stuff for most of my life, being in and out of hospital, trying different meds, etc. so my dad offered me to live with him..trouble is he lives in a different country so now I’m here and struggling to fit in, make friends, stay active daily. Like I was alone in my last place but at least I could somewhat socialise when I wanted to..now I rely on guys I’ve met on tinder to keep me occupied but this one guy i really liked has disappointed me and now won’t even respond to my messages and ik it’s my fault for building it up to be something it wasn’t in my head but I thought me and him could be friends at least but now I don’t even want that with him if he’s going to just basically ghost me like this..idk what to do anymore I’m tired and have been staying inside all the time, I’ve run out of money and hate asking for allowance or whatever. Im supposed to b starting two jobs this week but idk if Im even mentally ready to be doing work like that. Worst thing of all is this guy that ghosted me works literally up the road from me and it’s a pretty small town so I’m afraid of running into him (again) and he literally just ignores me this time. Idk im just feeling directionless and worthless and I should b happier but I’m really not I feel like I have less freedoms and on top of that now my dad can judge me for stuff I do or don’t do. At least when I was by myself my dysfunction was private