Serious question folks. I always seem to sabotage every relationship and friendship I have had. Everyone claims I over react to much or am to needy. 

Would it be better to find friends with BPD and date people with BPD? Would it make us understand each others actions more or would it amplify both our symptoms and cause a violent end?

I am at a lost here because no matter how hard I have tried to hide and control my BPD from the ones I love it always rears its ugly head and sabotages everything I love. 

Also if anyone on here ever needs a friend or someone to vent to I am here :)!