Hey there, first of all thanks for reading this and possible help/advice. So my problem is that I recently got a BP2 diagnosis but I also suffer from borderline personality disorder if that‘s important.

I think my depressed and hypomanic episodes are different than these of someone else? Not sure though. I’ve definitely been more active for 2 weeks now. I always feel like I want to go out and do something with friends or else I become bored. Before the 2 weeks I‘ve been what I think was a depressive episode for 6 months!! The only energy I could bring to the table was going to work, that’s it (except for a few days of it being better than other days) Had no interest or joy when doing something (even with my partner), highly irritated all the time and so on. I felt really really empty and apathetic the whole time. I‘m also VERY anxious as well which resulted in me being more observant, shy and unsure when talking to people for example.

So now I‘m feeling better and it‘s pretty great. I can have these episodes every 1-2 years for a couple of months. Hypomanic episodes feel like being quite stable for me. I feel mostly rested after waking up, increased activity and need to socialise, not being anxious all the time. So yeah hypomanic brain is telling me to constantly do something. I‘m not hypersexual though (I‘m also in a relationship) This only happens when I‘m single. No big ideas mostly. Just wanting to be active. 

But what I‘ve found out that is interesting is that when being depressed I lose my focus at work most days. But I‘m more reflected and focused with what I say or tell people. When hypomanic I‘m more focused at work (I‘ve heard most people are not focused when hypomanic) BUT I get distracted easily while driving or something which doesn‘t usually happen. I forgot when to go left or right and so on. Even said words wrong.

Sorry if it‘s too long. I‘m just really confused if it’s valid or not and if maybe someone considers their hypomania as too stable? I‘ll definitely talk to my therapist about it as well.