Do you get to this point when you’re having an “episode” where you just can’t calm yourself down and you don’t want to ask anyone else to help calm you down because you don’t want to burden them or they should *just know* that you need them but they don’t and that just makes everything worse. Then you feel like your whole world is collapsing, every little minor inconvenience is just another reason to not be here anymore. Then you just feel crazy because you’re considering self murder over what most people wouldn’t think much so the thought of even telling anyone how you’re feeling makes you feel sick because then they will see how crazy you are and suddenly you feel awful for ever existing and you wish you would just disappear so no one would have to feel bad for you and you can stop this endless suffering. Wait...what am I even upset about again? Ha. Repeat.