A few weeks ago I lost a 1.5 year relationship. I was happy in this relationship, but now I’m absolutely destroyed and have been really depressed. I’m realizing now that I was happy for the first time in my life while I was dating her. I went to the doctor and have been officially diagnosed, and I’ve realized that this is basically how I’ve been most my life although maybe it’s just a bit worst now. I’m really struggling to just grapple all of this. I’m in so much pain. Why did I have to have something so good just to fuck it up.