Every time I look at myself, and everything I see someone who has transitioned, I feel pain, mental torment, and bad anxiety. I feel more and more hopeless everyday because of my accursed body. I can't change because my family won't allow it, so I am forced to recede into greater depression. I have seen many others die because of this unholy disorder, and I fear I may be next. I don't know what to do anymore; I guess advice would help me to survive this curse, maybe not.