My boyfriend of 1 year literally just broke up with me an hour ago. We have a 3 week old baby together. He’s threatened to break up with me 4 times since our baby has been born because he feels like I don’t care about him. 

He said tonight was the final straw and he needs to break it off with me before he quits his sobriety. I’m holding our son trying to stop crying and I can’t, he’s sleeping on the couch right now and I’ve been sobbing for the past hour. He won’t respond to my texts, and i know if I go out and confront him he will blow up with anger.

I’m so lost, I don’t know how I’m going to do this alone. Our relationship is so fucking toxic but I still love him so much. I literally put all of my feelings aside for him, yet he feels like I don’t. He says I ignore him, and I only care about myself. I don’t feel this way, but he might be right. 

I’m scared I might be a narcissist. He’s told me so many times that I hurt his feelings  and I promise to change, and I really do try. I’m forgetful, and it’s hard for me to take in information when someone is mad at me. But I don’t know if I’m just making excuses for myself. 

I don’t know what to do, I need to stop crying because it’s upsetting my baby.