ive been feeling like absolute shit recently, and I figured today, being my birthday, would be better but I already want to cry and it’s 10:21am. I’m so lonely. I have nothing to do today. I’m supposed to see a friend tonight for dinner but who knows if she’s going to ditch me or not. I have Nothing to open. I just feel empty and sad. I want to talk to my boyfriend but last night he was a dick and I just don’t even want to deal with it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ oh well. I want to talk to someone, anyone and feel better but I’m just crumbling. I have nothing and no one. I guess one good thing is I made it to 20 without killing myself which is pretty surprising.