I'm only a 23 year old girl and I think I'm an alcoholic because I want to drink almost every day to stop thinking so much. It's not even alcohol, really, I self medicate too much. I hate being sober, but alcohol is the easiest to get and use. But it does the opposite of help, it usually results in an episode. I know I need to quit drinking but at the same time I want to be allowed to drink occasionally with friends or socially. Does it have to be all or nothing?

I also eat until it hurts as a way to cope. I'm so disappointed in myself, I just want to be normal and be allowed to drink or eat like a normal person, but I feel like I have to give it up completely.