A few days ago i was on top of the world.

I have now had the worst migraine I have ever had. My abuser is getting worse. I'm getting more anxious and I'm really triggered/scared for my mum. She's on drugs again, and either homeless, or trying to scam us into thinking she's homeless, to get money. My grandma isn't well and she's like my mum. and my grandpa refuses to go to the doctor and his foot is literally rotting. Being alone scares the frick out of me. I always think "if I have someone, I will be OK." but I wont have any parental figures.

and I feel like my life is falling around me despite how much effort I have put in recently to make myself stable. Until this week this was the longest I have ever been stable. and poof, it's gone.