Soooo...last night i (27f) sent a text to a friend being like hey if you dont want to be friends just tell me. Leading up this we hadnt talked in days though id tried texting her/calling off and on over the last week. We havent hung out since before xmas. 
This morning she sent me a text saying her phone was off for a few days and was busy with work and didnt appreciate my text because i should know that we are friends. I havent responded. Mostly im sick of apologising all the time, even for things i didnt do (literally a woman rammed repeatedly me in the heels with her grocery cart yesterday. Instinctivley i apoligised...she didnt. Insert im a canadian joke here). 


Ive been having a tough time recently. I quit my job at the advice of my therapist because it was toxic and i started self harming again. Im struggling with having the energy to apply ei/social services/other jobs. Last night i got a barrage of texts from my mom telling me i wanted to be depressed/miserable and i should find someone who makes me happy like some guy is going to solve all my problems. Spoiler alert: it wont. 



Anyway. I mostly just want to disapear.