DAE spiral when you hear your friends that you befriended individually start hanging out without you?
Maybe cause of my abandonment issues, I know by default that one of them is gonna leave me sooner than the other but I could probably live through that since I at least have one of them. But if they’re friends, I won’t have either of them because now they’re friends and I don’t wanna be the one to make it complicated and obligate the one I’m technically “left with” to divide their time to hang out with me separately or pick between me or the other so I leave on my own before they can slowly leave me. 
But the thing is, I’ve been told the way I act and spiral when they befriend each other and start hanging out without me and I realise if I lose one of them, I lose both and that would be too much for me, ACTUALLY makes them wanna stop talking to me. Fucking hell this is exhausting