HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION? 
I am a GROWN ass woman with a child and I have fucking mental breakdowns everytime something doesn't go my way.

I feel like a gigantic child that will never be able to have or thrive in a normal relationship because I will constantly be up and down. Constantly taking my anger out on whoever is around me. Constantly OBSESSING over people and freaking out over minor actions that I put meaning into for no reason.

Im so fucking mean to everyone around me because I'm angry and I feel like everyone is out to get me. My mind is constantly on 100.

I have NO ability to read others emotions or understand their intentions. I try to help everyone around me and then after I do I freak out because I think they're taking advantage of me and I can never ever ever figure out whats happening so its a fucked up cycle of helping someone then cussing them out.

I thought I had come to terms with the fact I would never be normal and would have to feel like this the rest of my life but I guess not. 

Fuck my life.