Cyber security and cyber warfare is something that's in the news a lot these days.  I've always been interested in the idea of being in the software development field, programming, cyber security, or other fields like that.  But I'm dumb as a brick when it comes to code.  

I just don't get it.  I cannot learn how to code.  I've tried numerous times in my life and it just does not make sense to me.  It's literally learning a new language, memorizing specific phrases and formats and I cannot do that.  It makes me feel so stupid seeing articles about how "anyone can code".  About 14 year old kids that just enjoy coding as a hobby and crank out some app or program and make good money.  Or stoner "hackers" that find exploits in programs and sell them for a reward.  

I just don't get it.  I read articles about how russian cyber attacks are expected and the article goes into detail on some portions of it and things just make 0 sense.  And I hate that feeling.  I've tried, I really have but I just do not fucking understand coding and programming.  

Why am I so stupid.