ok going to start with i had originally posted this on a different account but i don’t really want this to be traced back to me from anyone i may potentially know who may stumble upon that other account.

there’s way too much that i could say so i will just say a few things.

i think i’ve been suffering from anxiety for a long time and it’s pretty crippling to my social interactions and the choices i make. i miss out on a lot of stuff because of it and tend to have self destructive behaviors.

when i make friends i have this problem where i feel like oversharing because someone is actually listening to me but due to some things lately i’ve started putting up more walls. i joke around a lot and tease to distract from people actually knowing me because i think that people knowing me is really scary.

i’ve been closing my circles and any time i speak to people i’m just overwhelmingly anxious. i fear that i’ll say something that will make people start disliking me or finding me annoying.

i work at a customer service place and i get really anxious when customers start asking questions i don’t know the answers to or get even remotely frustrated with me. i also get really anxious when a bigger group of customers come in and it just feels really embarrassing.

i have a really hard time with phone calls too. it really stresses me out when i have to call someone or talk to like authority figures on the phone.

i wish i could be able to fix it and make it easier to leave my house or message people etc. i just want to be able to exist without being afraid, you know?