I'm sorry if not appropriate to post on here but i wasn't sure where else to vent. the love of my life is moving to australia in 3 weeks and i'll never see him again, he knows how I feel and I think he feels the same with me. we've cried together about this, but know it wouldn't work long distance (20hr plane journey apart). we've been dating for the last year but it was always done knowing that we will one day part. I'm 24 and he is early 30s (we work together at a doctor's surgery which is how we met). we're still talking now and then but i know whats around the corner.  i keep reading through our old chats and compare them to now and just seeing how it's fizzled out. it's knowing that he will be so happy. he'll be making so much money and ive seen what his house is going to look like in the mountains. i know he'll meet someone so easily because he's so kind and loving, i can't fault him.   
i;ve never been like this before. nothing that used to make me happy is making me happy. my eyes are still swollen throughout the last week because i've been crying so much at night, and getting no sleep. i haven't told many people about this because it was at work of course. i have no energy to do anything anymore. its 10am here but i feel like i should just start getting drunk just to numb everything