we just found out today after a visit with his urologist, he booked blood tests and a CT scan in the upcoming days and surgery will take place not later than next week.
I don't have much to say, I have only told my mom and she tried to reassure me saying it might not be that and even if it is that it's most likely completely curable yet me being me, with my GAD and all that it implies, I already feel hopeless.

I keep googling, trying to get all the informations about every possibile scenario, I've eaten today just because my boyfriend was here and I tried to seem as strong and resilient as I could with him, he's much more calm and positive than I am. 
It warms my heart to see him so chill about it, I instead have to find a way to shut my anxiety up for the next few weeks. 

All the virtual hugs, stories about your personal experiences and advice on how to survive the next month are very much welcome