A few things I should mention: 

1. I’ve been on an intensive search for a therapist for about a month now, I’ve scoured all throughout Psychology Today, my county’s psychological association page, Betterhelp, Open Path, Zencare, you name it. I’ve contacted around 50 therapists so far and while I found some really wonderful therapists, the sessions would have been too costly, even with the lowest range of their sliding scale considered. 

The problem is, finding a psychodynamic therapist that treats/specializes in BPD and NPD is quite difficult, there are only so many of them. Finding one at an affordable rate is even harder. 

2. I’ve contacted my local, hometown university’s community psychology clinic (run by wonderful graduate students) but they aren’t available until September and by that time, I’ll be moving to a different city. 

3. So, I tried contacting the university community clinic in the city I plan to move to, but their services are very bare bones and likely won’t have the kind of specialized therapists/counseling services I am looking for. 

4. My strategy now is to keep searching on Psychology Today and I’ve also been asking therapists/clinics that I previously contacted for possible referrals/recommendations. 

*I want to note that I am open to other modalities like Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, Schema Therapy, Narrative, etc but psychodynamic must be in the mix, I really would like to dig deep into my conscious and unconscious thought/behavioral patterns and explore the past profusely and its relationship to my present. 

*Also, I understand that what is considered affordable varies from individual to individual in accordance with one’s financial means.  In my case, I can realistically afford a maximum of $80 per session with my current budget (although admittedly, that would push it to just about the breaking point) However, I do plan to apply for MediCal (California’s state Medicaid program), so that may change things for the better.   

*In addition to quiet BPD and covert NPD traits, I also have Pure Obsessional OCD, anxiety and possibly developmental trauma. 

Anyway, I’m sorry for the long post, I don’t want to take up too much of your time. Any advice or tips on where to go from here would be immensely appreciated. If you’ve read this far, thank you from the bottom of my heart, that in and of itself means a lot. Thank you.  ❤️