I just saw my therapist and we discussed how to move forward.  Get a job to be productive and get out of head.  Start small, set myself up for success.  Exercise regularly - I have started cycling again.  Having a difficult time staying out of my head.  Eating well, learning coping mechanisms, regulating emotions, blah, blah, blah.

A just texted me saying that dying just sounds easier.  I have to admit feel like I have a steep uphill climb ahead of me, but I think there has to be more to it than that.

Thoughts?