I lost half my house to a flood earlier in the year, and the Before was worse than the After.  Watching the flood waters rise for 3 days, couldn't eat (only had juice), couldn't swallow, no sleep (lucky I have insomnia so I could stay vigilant), was shaking the entire time, the only thing that stopped it was moving around.

I am about to be flooded again in a week and I've already stopped eating and can't be still.  I keep crying. This flood is going to be worse and will wipe out the whole house so I will probably have to go live with my mum - this also causes me insane amounts of anxiety, I don't think I will cope, she is a hoarder, and fusses and talks non-stop.  I love her, but when I spend too much time with her it pushes me over the edge.  I supported her and lived with her for years.  I have only had this house for a few years and it has been my sanctuary.

I am about to lose my safe space for probably over a year.  I am not young, it has taken my entire life to reach this point of separation from looking after family and now it will be gone.

I know I am just rambling but I don't think I will cope, I will probably end up back in the mental hospital. Friend is telling me to calm down and find ways to de-stress, but how?