Hello I’m posting in hopes that someone will have been in a similar situation to me and would be able to point me in the direction of a solution.

So, ever since I was at an age where I could get a job I have absolutely hated it. I’m 21 and have had 8 jobs and the only jobs I can semi function in are cleaning jobs because I don’t have to speak to anyone and the shifts are never longer than 2.5 hours.

Up until recently it’s not been too much of an issue because my student loan covers my rent and I only really need enough to pay for bills, car insurance and food. Now the issue is I’m coming into my third and final year of uni and have started looking towards the future. I can’t go back to my home as the room I was staying in is now occupied and I have a strained relationship with my family anyway. So I’m looking to try and get a flat or a room in shared accommodation but I won’t be earning enough with my current job (cleaning) to do that. 

So I need a therapist to help me get over this hatred I have for work. It’s not even that I don’t want to work because I do, I want to be an illustrator! But whenever I have shifts longer than a few hours I get frustrated, angry, depressed and I’ve left way too many jobs mid shift to call 111 because I’m suicidal. 

So does anyone know what sort of therapy would be best for me to seek out for this sort of thing and does anybody else have this reaction to working?

TLDR: my bpd prevents me from working and I need a solution so I can afford to live and survive. Which therapist would be best to help with this?

Thank you for reading!! (Sorry if it was too long)