i accidentally did something to hurt the guy i’m talking to, it was something that i said. it’s crazy how i feel so much guilt but mostly cause i think he’s gonna leave me but he hurts me everyday and knows he does and enjoys it so why do i feel so bad i feel like this is the end i always say this every other day when something goes wrong but this time i really feel like he’s gonna leave me and i’m not ready for that and now i’m sobbing again because i feel like absolute shit and today is the first day i haven’t seen him in like 3 weeks since i see him everyday and he just was being snappy and not really engaging which i’d be upset and get over but he won’t address what happened. yesterday night hours after the situation happened we were talking kinda normal he snapped at me for something but everytime we talk he snaps at me for something so not tooooo upset over that. i just feel so depressed rn i don’t want it to end i can’t have it end i’ve apologized and he just responded with👍🏼 then i said more and was like that’s it nothing else to say and he just said oh i was half asleep and then switched topics god i want to scream i’m not trying to put them blame on him but he messes with me so much that my reaction to what he asked me makes sense but it fucked everything up. i wish i had someone i could talk to but now i have to post again on reddit and no one will r respond and i’ll feel more alone and i hate this so much brb gonna go scream and cry for a long time