I got really lucky in landing this job because it's mostly paperwork/data entry so no phone calls or customers, so I really want to keep it so I don't have to get a worse job somewhere else. 

The only problem is that I missed the orientation days because I was out of town, and now I'm terrified to go in because I'm afraid I'll be behind since I missed orientation or that the people there will judge me for skipping days. I've barely slept the last 2 days because I'm afraid of having to wake up early to get there on time, and then because of that I missed what was supposed to be my first day because I overslept and had a breakdown about being late on my first day and couldn't make myself walk into the office. 

I'm afraid that because I missed so many days already, they're going to have me on tjin ice which means I'm one more breakdown from getting fired.