So I recently started going to a new therapist, and compared to my previous one, she's actually focussed more on how to fix my emotional dependency and need for external validation. And it's so exhausting, to break from your old patterns.
I try what she calls refocussing techniques, meditation, gratitude journaling and just trusting my own feelings and not needing validation. And I'm just confused.. it's so jarring and scary, not knowing if what I'm feeling is right, trusting my feelings is so scary. I'm scared to act upon my feelings, whatever they may be, just because I trust myself. So I have to keep this balance between allowing myself to feel whatever it is I'm feeling, validate, and then not act on it irrationally. Idk, it's all very confusing and I don't know if I'm headed on the right track. My therapist thinks I am, but all this change is so.. draining. I don't know, I guess I should just trust the process? 
Breaking patterns of overthinking and constantly needing validation from friends is really difficult. And sometimes it's so tempting to go back and just have my friends validate me, and tell me that yes I should be feeling this, yes this was wrong, yes I didn't overreact.. I still don't trust myself, and I don't if I will be able to.