I was in conversation with my girlfriend and she mention that having kids with me makes her nervous. I asked her to expand on that and she said that it scares her because of how much I struggle with depression and how it runs in my family that she couldn’t bare to see her own child feel the way that I do. 

This completely broke my heart. The only thing that I’ve ever wanted is to be a dad. And she is the love of my life. But I feel so empty. It’s been days and I just can’t get past it. I feel like I’m paralyzed and have no emotion. I don’t know what to do or what to think. I wish I could just be happy.