
I have had many bad trips before. I have only ever had around 3 good trips and 1 meh trip out of the 8 times I’ve done it. But anyways, in the 10th grade I worked with my half cousin and he was a handyman, I would help him work and was basically his apprentice. However, he was 38 years old and has been openly attracted to me since the 9th grade and had been sexually harassing me throughout a year. He would constantly ask me if I was bisexual and would always tell me I’m cute and shit even though I kept telling him I’m straight. I ended up letting him do a few things to me because I was super tired of him asking. And I basically only worked with him cause he’d sell me/give me high grade dispensary weed. One night I stupidly decided to take acid while sleeping over at his house, to make a long story short, he convinced himself that I was attracted to him, brought me to his room, turned off the lights and his creepy and ugly ass 5’4 fat little body got on the bed and began sucking me off, I was tripping balls so sex was so scary to me, the disgusting sloppy and melty feeling on my parts, and the knowledge that this man is raping me and I can’t do anything about it all while in the dark. After he finished we got in his car and I was so fucked up from what had just happened, I lost touch with reality and kept getting out of the car and running away from it all but it felt I couldn’t get away. Eventually he found me and weeny back to his house and I fell asleep on the couch. I haven’t told anyone, nor do I feel comfortable doing so, sex was also ruined for me after that. I’ll be a virgin for the rest of my life. At least I can blackmail him and I’m thinking about maybe lacing him and tying him up and giving him the worst trip possible