My mantra is usually that I’m only who I am in this moment, but every so often the butterfly effect of a shitty decision I made 6 years ago will catch up to me and I’ll be reminded of just what a shitty person I was and will always be in the minds of others. I know dwelling on it isn’t constructive and I know that reaching out to those I hurt is not what they want whatsoever, but I have a hard time going through treatment and finally knowing what’s wrong with me, only to have to live with that knowledge for the rest of my life.