My depression and anxiety is getting worse. I slacked off in school and I got dropped from a few classes, I don’t know what to say to my mom when she find out. Cause tbh, I don’t do very much of anything, ever. I just sit around and mope pretty much. It’s so hard too get up and do anything. Even as simple and brushing my teeth. 

I don’t know what to do, and I’m so alone in the sense that I can’t really tell anyone about it, because no one would understand. I want to open up to my mom, but I feel like she won’t understand. Or she will say some stupid shit that won’t help me. 

I’ve tried therapy for two years and once I was feeling much better I stopped and now I feel ten times worse. Pretty much didn’t help for shit. 

I’m pretty much watching myself throw away my life right in front of me and I’m paralyzed to do anything too prevent it. 

I just want too kill myself. The anxiety, of having too explain myself, and my depression is so unbearable. Then I get even more depressed the more I just sit alone with these feelings. And it’s just a loop of hell that I just want to end.

I want too kill myself soo bad, but I have like two things that I just can’t leave behind like that. Now I don’t know what to do. 

I just want to scream and cry, I want people too notice, I’ve been hiding so long I don’t think I can come out anymore.