I have an interview next week and every day for the past 3 nights I’ve gone to sleep hoping I don’t wake up. I have anxiety about PREPARING for the interview as well as actually going through the interview. It’s paralyzing me, consuming all my thoughts and I can’t interact with my friends or family.  

And the worst part is that interviews will never stop. Which makes me wanna die even more. I feel like I have no life to look forward to because there will always be interviews. This sounds so ridiculous as I type it but it’s how I feel. 

Because of the anxiety I haven’t even started preparing. The last time I applied to internships (I’m a college student) I cancelled all the interviews I was offered. I cancelled 10 interviews total and now I have more anxiety that I’ll cancel my upcoming ones as well. 

I don’t want to prepare for the interview or go through with it at all. I never want to interview ever again 😭😭 and the only solution to that is not waking up. I don’t know how to get out of this mindset.