I'm turning 25 in roughly a month. Life was pretty good to me until my late teens, by that time I had developed epilepsy and started spiralling into depression. Social anxiety hit me hard when I attempted university, and after my second unsuccessful attempt at studying there my ambitions just crashed to the damn floor. Been to multiple doctors and tried several medications, had limited success but really just feels like I'm numbing the mental pain and passing the time. Sleeping is impossible/torture, all I can think about are my fuck ups and the people I've let down, namely my parents who have always tried their best to support me. The past few years I've just felt trapped in my own mind, too scared to attempt anything new or ambitious because of a fear of failure. My passion and drive is at an all time low and I just have no fucking clue what to do with myself. I haven't given up on life but I feel like I'm fading away more and more with each passing sleepless night. Thank you to anyone who reads this, I wish you all the very best &lt;3