I’ve been close friends with my ex girlfriend for 12 years now, im 27, we have been broken up for 8 years or more, we talk on and off, i’m become highly addicted to drugs, gotten multiple felonies and destroyed my life. when i told her that i planned on leaving soon her response was “I think deep down I’ve always known that but it still is a kick in the gut when I hear you say it. Life doesn’t make sense when the happiest and goofiest people are made to be the most sad. Nobody knows your pain better than you and I won’t pretend like I know what ur feeling. Just know that I love you and will for the rest of my life “ It breaks my heart. I think my brother and sister know something is up but i don’t have the heart to tell my mother. she thinks i’m so great and i truly believe i’m horrible and have no chance for happiness, I abuse drugs and really just stopped caring about everything. I lost basically everything and just tired of “just making it”