Me and my partner just broke up. It was mutual and we are trying to remain friends, like we were before. Day 0, kinda petty, but need to get it out. I deal with out of issues, mentally, that up until this point, was afraid to confront. But those issues/traits were part of the reason we broke up. We both had things that hurt one another. But I can only control how I fix myself. I just wish I was able to fix myself and stay together. But that would be toxic for each other. Rn, I feel the weight of that sadness in my heart and gut. It's so distorted, like I can't wrap my head round it, even tho I was there...I agreed with it. Yet I feel like a hole was drilled into me. Day 0 sucks ass.. working on it tho. Tried calling a help line at 2 in the morning.. that was stupid. I not writing this for attention, cause that's another form of toxic, this is just until I see someone professional (no offense) and fix whatever is wrong with me.