
I keep thinking about everything that I said today and analyzing each thing and telling myself why I should have kept my mouth shut. I’m convinced everyone is always conspiring against me and judging me for every word I say but then I beat myself up for thinking I’m the center of what everyone else thinks about. I’m filled with so much self hate and anxiety my body keeps uncontrollably curling up and tensing and I just really don’t wanna have a freak out.