!!before i start this i want to say that i DONT have an eating disorder, i’m almost 100% i don’t have an eating disorder i just have bad anxiety!!

i get anxiety when eating. it’s not severe and it’s mostly when i eat out (at a restaurant), at someone else’s house, and when it’s the holidays and we’re having big meals with family. i’m worried about how i look when i eat, do you they think i don’t like the food. even if i don’t like it i don’t want them to know of course. when i get something and i end up being full/not wanted/being able to finish all/most of the food on my plate. 
the foods that give the the worst anxiety are meats. mostly steak, pork, and sometimes chicken. it’s because i need to eat in smaller bits because i don’t like the texture otherwise and it makes me not want/be able to swallow it and i hate that feeling and panic. also because i’m not the biggest into meats. along with seafood (i don’t like seafood for all that i have tried, spicy foods (i’m not good with them), and with foods that i really don’t like. i know i’m a picky eater. i don’t want to be and i want to try foods because i want to try more seafood etc. but i hate doing so in front of others (i’m only 14) so i kind of have to be with someone else when going out to eat. 

i’m anxious about posting this because i worried people will make fun of me for me being a picky eater. sorry! i want to try more/new things. 

along with, i’m sorry if this sounds ridicules.