I’m in a very strange state right now….I really don’t get what is going on. I feel like I have hypomanic energy (along with excessive confidence, talking, spending…the usual when I’m in an elevated state), but my mood is depressed. I can’t sleep (it’s 4am right now and I am wide awake, I’ve only been able to sleep the past few nights with a high dose of temazepam) but my muscles are also fatigued like I have done strenuous activity. My mind is racing, but I can’t focus on anything (especially uni activities- I’ve spent days just trying to get through one chapter of a textbook, but I can’t sit still or absorb anything). I am fidgety and so so restless, sitting and driving is a nightmare. I’m very short and snappy and irritable about everything too, and I feel a lot like hurting myself. It’s getting too much to deal with…especially the sleep dep. 
I was on abilify, but I stopped taking it about 3 weeks ago because the side effects were unbearable. Pdoc switched me to Topomax, which has helped with migraines but nothing else. Pdoc is away for a month and won’t reply to my emails. Will this state go away?