Hey /r/BPD 

I have been wanting to post this for awhile, as when I was first diagnosed with BPD, I found this sub a great tool for understanding BPD better. 

Essentially, one year ago, I was in the worst place of my life. A long-term relationship I was in just ended and the gal ended up dating a pledge of my fraternity, which made my betrayal/abandonment issues go through the roof. My fraternity was my biggest support system, and feeling like they were pick him over me(we put a lot of effort into pouring into and supporting our pledges) made me feel more alone than ever. I was drinking a minimum 1/5th of bourbon a day, throwing up blood, spending days in benzo-blackouts, drinking drunk everywhere all times of the day, all to escape the terrible feelings of loneliness and despair. I was diagnosed with BPD after initially going through diagnoses of MDD, BP2, PD, GAD, PTSD, and ADHD. 

I bounced around a few different therapists before I found the right one. in the spring. Today, things are totally different. I love who I am, I have been working through the early issues that have caused my BPD and made tons of progress. This weekend, I was at a fraternity banquet with both my ex and the pledge she is with, and felt no negative feelings whatsoever. I have cultivated great new supportive relationship in my life, where I do not try to control and manipulate people. I have been sober for over 6 months and am stable on medications. Currently, I am not in a LTR, but am at a point where I honestly believe I can engage in one in a healthy manner, and can't wait to find her.

A lot of this is because of things outside of my control, there have been some incredibly supportive people in my life. The national president of my fraternity and his wife have 'adopted' me, and loved me like I have always wanted my biological parents to. What I want to pass on, is to just hang in there when things suck. My life today is 1000x better than it was a year ago, and I feel so grateful. I would have never guessed that I could be where I am at now, being where I was at a year ago. I will continue to check this sub often and pass on what little advice I can. There is hope, and there is recovery from BPD. BPD is not a death sentence, despite our suicide rates, and it is not something that can not be over come with time, hard work, and great people. 

Feel free to ask me any questions regarding my BPD, recovery, and current challenges. 