I’ve been spiraling for a long time now. 2022 has been quite a year for me. I have grown more and more unstable in the past few months and finally they’ve diagnosed me with BPD in addition to the other things mentioned. 

How do I find stability?
How do I escape this huge bumpy rollercoaster of emotions day in and day out?
How to I feel anything other than numb?

I’m already on two mood stabilizers and a number of other psych meds. I’m on a lot. Nothing is helping.