After my ex of 2 years broke up with me like almost a year ago, it's been extremely hard for me, I've tried to make relationships work but I just can't feel anything anymore.. I don't see any point in relationships and "love" or whatever.. But I hate being alone, I have to be with someone and depend on them.. The person I'm with at the moment was a very close friend and I can feel that he loves me a lot.. We were friends with benefits for a while and 3 weeks ago we made it official because I thought I felt the same.. But I just sabotage my relationship every single day, I want to argue and be very mean to him.. With my last ex we used to argue every single day..and I thought that it was normal and it meant that someone loves you.. so all the peace and quiet in this relationship makes me bored and he annoys me so so much.. I depend on him a lot and he supports me a lot as well but I just don't feel the same amount of affection that he does for me.. I don't want to break up with him, I appreciate him and I'm also scared of being alone.. I know that I'm probably making too much of an issue but I can't help how frustrated I am..