who knew that so much could happen in six months, I went from being together with someone that I loved so much and that I was ready to spend my life with to four months later finding out that they hadn't realised that they didn't actually love me. I went from being ready to pour everything I had into my grades for 2021 to feeling violently sick and panicky at the thought of going back in less than two weeks for my final year. I've been through too many traumatic events in my not even 18 years of life with several major ones happening recently that make me wonder if I need to still be here living and breathing. I've known for years that my parents don't love me i'm at terms with that but now I'm scared that no one that means anything to me loves me either.