so there's this girl and we call eachother best friends. we used to hangout every day, we have matching tattoos, and trust eachother with everything.

when we were hanging out everyday our energy was really a strong cause we were so comfortable. she is pretty serious with her bf now so they are always together.

she still finds ways to mix me into her schedule once or twice a week so it doesn't bother me.

what bothers me is my anxiety and depression have been kinda bad lately so when she does invite me over, not only is it not just me and her cause her bf is always there, i have been more awkward, quiet, and all around less energetic.

she invited me over 2 nights ago and that wasn't a bad night. it ended with her hugging me saying she loved me, so i suppose things were good then.

she then facetimed me last morning, and invited me over again later that night.

yesterday i was particularly awkward and quiet. her bf and other friend were there too. me and her hung out one on one at the end of the night for say half an hour and i talked a little then, but i was still pretty boring.

i woke up this morning at her house and she seemed tired but also seemed like she was kinda over me. she didn't really seem to want to talk much and when i hugged her and said ily she didn't respond like how she usually does and it just felt off.

i always overthink this stuff so maybe it's all in my head, and i've thought she was over me in the past only to be wrong and she always is reassuring of me. so who knows. i just feel like i'm ruining my only good friendship.