Not sure if this is a bpd thing or not, but I get so jealous over pretty/hot characters. Especially if my fp really likes them. It’s pathetic, really. When I catch myself getting jealous of a character I hate myself a billion times more because of how stupid it is. It sounds kind of made up but it affects my emotions so hard sometimes. I know they’re fictional and they could never replace me but it still gives me such immense feelings. Which is why I feel so stupid feeling that way. Because I am very aware that they are just a character on a screen and yet it still makes me unbearably insecure... that’s what is hurting me.