People keep saying that, but does it really?

Nothing in my life ever seems to change, it just gets so tiring after a while. I just want it to stop. For everything to.

A few months ago, i was actually happy for a while. After all the loneliness and bitterness and hate, finally I was out, and things were looking up. My life is such a joke, i should've realised it wouldn't last. Life just had to fuck me up again. Throughout I kept telling myself it'd get better. Now I'm at my worst yet, what hope really is there in the future? For any of us, we struggle more and more and more, it just always seems to get worse.

I'm just so tired, I really am thinking of going through with it, I can't find any reason not to. Every waking second is painful.

I know no one really cares, but i just need a place to vent for a while. No one is there to really listen to me anyway, it's always been just me.