I'm tired of feeling anxious. I'm tired of not knowing anything because I'm not sure of anything. I'm tired of needing approval and not having confidence in myself. I just want to be normal and be able to make friends. I want to love people but I'm just afraid of them. No meds have worked and I've taken a ton. I want to give up because I'm growing impatient. What do I do. 

I want to tell my docs I've been thinking of suicide so they can start taking me more seriously but idk. What should I do?