i’ve had a BPD diagnosis for a little over a year, and for as long as i can remember, i have had the most disturbing intrusive thoughts, i really hate talking about it because some of the things that i think of make me so upset. is this a common thing with BPD or is it relative to something else? OCD runs in my family &amp; i also have ADHD. 

i really hate having these thoughts, i’m so disgusted by myself and i feel like an awful person.