Lately, I've been more active on reddit especially in the self-help subreddits like this one, r/relationships, r/selfimprovement etc.

Admittedly, I've had a lot of time to be in my own mind with the whole self isolation, covid19 thing so I've felt messy. I haven't been in touch with most friends (or at least on the venting level, just passive interaction or just for fun). I've only really been talking to my boyfriend all day and he's great but in these times where we can't see each other, I've acted out more and splitted for different reasons.

I've asked for advice and perspectives in other subreddits about how I feel and if what I'm feeling is okay and I've had people tell me to stop whinging, stop this, stop that, you're not the only one, etc. It was kinda hurtful but it was a wake up call at times.

r/BPD is the only subreddit where I have people who assure me and relate to me and I feel less lonely in my painful feelings. So thank you guys. :)