It's past 3 in the morning. My appointment is at 10.

I haven't been out of the apartment since early 2020. Yes, 2020. It's been over a year and I'm really scared to go out tomorrow... err, later. I have asthma. I've been so paranoid about getting the virus I've just shut myself in. 

I live in India; I guess everyone knows by now the situation we're in. The apartment next to ours have covid +ve members quarantining at home. We have to pass by their door to get to anywhere outside. 

I always said I'll go out to get vaccinated, just never thought it would be in the middle of a wave. I'm really really scared. What if I get infected? What if it hits hard? I don't want to die...

I don't even know what the point of my post is or if it even has one. I just needed to get all that out.