It's been really exhausting. Going through so many years of neglect. Not having any friends. Not having any support. Settling for crumbs. No one to trust. Just not being able to have a functional life. Just layers and layers of pain and abuse. It's neverending. I just want it all to go away. I just want peace. I wish I could stick q syringe into my body and pull out all of the pain completely. To fully be rid off the past and all of its pain. I wish I had a stable life. A stable home and stable friends and family. I am tired of all of the pain. I just want more breathing room. I just want a long overdue exhale.