I am so lost. And a bit scared. I just got out of a relationship that was moving into its fourth year. I met a guy who is almost 20 years older than me a couple weeks ago, and although I was extremely intimidated at first, but I've come to peace with it. We are so emotionally, intellectually, and sexually compatible. I slept over at his house on Friday and things were amazing. In the morning he made me breakfast and held my hand as we watched TV. 

I don't know if I'm ready for a relationship right now and I'm not sure where he stands on that issue, either. With BPD, as you guys know, things tend to be very intense from the beginning. What do I do? I've been thinking about him for most of the day. I don't want to ruin anything by potentially telling him that things have developed faster than I intended them to, especially since I don't know what he really wants. I haven't told many people about this, only one of my IRL friends, mainly because of the age difference. She thinks that I should tell him so I don't end up coming off as aloof and uncaring to him if I do try to attempt to hide my feelings. 

I am also moving back home with my mom for the summer semester, and he will remain in my university's town, which is about 1.5 hours away. I don't even know if I should mention anything solely for this reason.

Am I overthinking things? It's hard to remove the BPD part of my feelings and get an untained view of how I would feel about things without this disorder. What do you guys think the best plan of action would be? I don't want to screw this up, things are going well, but it's also driving me crazy keeping this in.