Hey guys, 

I have to go on a 14 day field trip withy classmates for my degree in a few months. And I don't really know how I will survive it. 
I am doing okay at the moment because I try to keep a lot of distance to other people and because I am able to use my unhealthy coping mechanisms. 
But I won't be able to do both of these things for the whole trip and there are a lot of additional challenges that will come up during the trip. Like covering scars in hot climates, trying to get along with the others, little privacy and being the only gay amongst my hetero classmates. I can't really imagine how I will make the field trip happen, but I have to since it is part of the study program. 

Just thinking about it makes me sick and it is still a few months. 
Anyway thanks for letting me vent.