I feel so stupid now. Weeks ago i thought that i really need a tattoo (IT's my First one). Now i've got a really Bad Tattoo and have the Feeling that i want to myself. I regret it like shit. I wanted a tinier tattoo, but i coudn't said it. It is really Bad. The lines are crooked and IT's ugly af. Not what i expected. I am sad that i played for that. I can't say no never. Or if i don't like anything, i can't say anything. I am so unhappy now... IT's always like this. Same thing with the Hairdresser. First i love it, later i hate It so much that i get a mental breakdown. And i now that i can't chlange it. (Sorry for my English, not my mothers tounge). I hate my life...Now i messed up everything and have a breakdown for 8h straight. :( Fuck BPD