In the last week I have experienced some traumatic things and the mania was the highest I’ve ever experienced. But now I’m back to being at the lowest point again. I prefer feeling like I’m on top of the world. The meds don’t work. The therapy isn’t working. I am exhausted. I want to live so bad I really do. 1 in 6 people in my profession commit. I don’t want to be part of that statistic. I’ve been doing everything I know how to get better, to help myself. I want to live. But nothing is working. What can I do.