idk if this is the right reddit to post this, i just feel like talking about this. 

im off my bipolar meds and im having some fun thoughts, im feeding the mentality that nothing is real, only the things I imagine is real, and when I finally go I will just wake up in my perfect life

it's been great, I have my dream boyfriend, dream job, no parents to nag me and life couldn't get any better, I have a hunch that my bf will propose soon

anyway, just took a loan to buy some preparations for my suicide next week, that's it folks