Im not against work but I feel that working 5 days a week every week until I die sounds like the worst kind of torture, never being able to experience anything, not being able to see the world, always being too tired to do anything after work, all for what? So someone can use me to get wealthy while I struggle to get by everyday.

I keep trying to convice myself its worth it, i have a dog, a wonderful girlfriend, an ok place to live and a relatively loving family but even with all this I just cant wake up and see any reason to continue.
Why not just kill myself now and end my life with the best memories I have as fresh in my mind as they can be, whats the point of living a life of mundane bullshit just so I can fill my head with joyless memories? 

I really don't know what to do, I dont wanna hurt those who love me. Ontop of that im scared to end it because itll hurt but the only thought that brings me any form of comfort is that i can put a gun to my head and end this anyday now, if i had the balls too. 
Im sure someday it'll click in my head and ill just do it but I want it to be today. 
I just want it all to end.