Hi folks,

I just received a call from the place I applied to a couple of weeks ago and they said they would love to hire me.

Pay is much better than my current salary, it is +15%.

However, I would need to hand in my resignation by the end of the next week because my notice time is six weeks to the end of the quarter.

Problem is, my company sends me on a very expensive and cool training/business trip the week after abroad for 8 days, all expenses covered.

So basically, I am handing my resignation and then supposed to go on this super nice perk.

However, I know that if I don't take the job I will not forgive myself. The extra money is definitely necessary for my kid's tuition fund and the mortgage. 

So right now I feel super guilty and anxious. I had just recently a talk with my management where they told me how they value me and they increased my salary by 5% in addition to a big bonus. Now I am leaving all of a sudden.

It is a really shitty feeling. I am feeling as if I am betraying my two direct superiors and don't want them to think ill of me. They know that I know that it is extremely difficult to find someone for this specific field (we have been looking for another team member for over half a year) and I cannot even imagine how I am supposed to continue working with them until the end of June, when I will be finally free from my current contract.

I am having a full-blown panic attack right now. Damn.