Sorry if I’m not allowed to be here since the description says for diagnosed individuals, but yesterday I discovered it’s highly likely that I’m bipolar. So I’m gonna make an appointment, but I wasn’t sure if it was worth it because I don’t want to just be put back on antidepressants because I’ve tried so many and none have worked for me.

For context:

I watched a video of Mayim Bialik talking about how there’s different types of bipolar disorder, and one of them is more likely to experience sexual promiscuity and have high credit card debt. 

This somewhat applies to me but I wasn’t immediately like “oh that must mean I’m bipolar”

Then I was talking with my dad who’s a nurse and I mentioned the video to him (I didn’t say anything about how I had similar symptoms, we were just discussing the video) and he said “yeah that’s the kind your mom had”

I knew my mom was bipolar but I never considered I might be. So then I discovered that it’s genetic and realized that that’s probably why I am the way I am. I just never thought I was because I have friends who are bipolar and they experience more mania and I assumed that’s what it was like, but I’m more often on the depressed side. 

I’ve tried many antidepressants over the years, and I actually gave them the old college try, but they all just made me feel worse than I already do. They either made me more depressed or just feel literally insane. Are there other kinds of medications that might help me? I really don’t want to waste more time in another psychiatrists office but I also want to get help