I quit smoking weed for a long time for a few reasons. That's not really relevant (it's mostly because it triggered flashbacks but I'm over that now). I have HORRIBLE insomnia and used alcohol for sleep for quite a while until I got acid reflux. Then I got addicted to xanax instead. I was taking sleeping meds for both as well and have tried a ton of different sleeping pills. I was so crazy anxious for so long and then finally when I was shaking from xanax withdrawal I decided to try smoking a very small amount of indica dominant weed (my boyfriend smokes and I live with him and he offered). I only smoke before bed because it stops my racing thoughts and just makes me feel content. I've smoked socially during the day a couple times, but only the equivalent of drinking one bud light so barely even buzzed. Recreational marijuana use is illegal where I live unfortunately. I definitely need my mood stabilizer and my extremely low dose of an antipsychotic (which is pretty much just for dissociation) and my adderall (at least for now) and xanax ONLY once in a blue moon for panic attacks but I think I could quit taking my ineffective sleeping medication if I just smoke every night instead. Not only has it been helping me sleep but I feel at least 5x more relaxed the entire day afterwards too. I also feel way healthier now since it feels so much more natural and less like poison. The only downside is that I can't smoke around my very conservative family so Easter will be interesting.

Sorry, that ended up being longer than I anticipated. I'm just looking for advice on what I should say to my psychiatrist. I think she would be okay to talk to since she is super nice and actually values my opinion but I'm not sure.