I got my neighbor a Christmas gift. We're not super close just pretty well acquainted compared to others in our apartment complex. Well my boyfriend was actually the one to deliver it on my behalf, and I finally ran into here tonight. After working on Christmas eve in retail, and feeling alittle embarrassed about seeing her i knew things were gonna be alittle awkward.

Well, her demeanor was uplifting and energetic and on the other half I was drained. I tried to seem laid back and endearingly blunt but eventually I could see that her smile switched from genuine to more forced.... or interaction was very cut off and I could just feel as though it definitely wasn't what she was expecting..

But what can i say? I just finished working a grueling shift while suffering an anxious burnout, personal life issues have been on my mind and making my anxiety worse, im depressed, and im frustrated with my life in every level manageable? I hate how conversations are basically mapped out for us, you know if someone is bubbly and energetic its like your supposed to kind of match them lest you seem like a Debbie downer and so on...

Can't it be enough that I got her a gift? Sorry im awkward...ugh.