I am in crisis on and off all day. I have a constant tightness in my belly it is often difficult to catch my breath for no reason. I am consumed by self-hatred and shame one moment, and then anger another moment, and then extreme sadness, and then anxiety; I have mostly stopped eating. I have a lot of difficulty sleeping. I'm spending all day every day sitting around psychoanalyzing myself, waiting for a therapy appointment that I have scheduled, but it's weeks away. I need help now. I feel like I won't make it that long. I need to go to an inpatient facility but they are terrifying to me. The staff at these places are underpaid and overworked, the resources are underfunded, the people are all as miserable as I am, and we are left to fend for ourselves throughout the day (this has been my experience with inpatient facilities.). I have some kind of lasting, undiagnosed PTSD from my previous inpatient visits. I feel that I cannot do it. What do I do, does anyone have any insight into this?