lam 30 and I am taking medication for my diabetic
(my pancreases is smaller then the average person so
I don't produce the insulin I actually needed) and been
thinking of not taking my meds anymore. I almost
went into a diabetic coma in 2018 and I was medically
induced for a whole month. During that time, it felt like
I was asleep. No pain, no responsible…just
NOTHING!!! I think about that all the time now.
But I have a wife and a step daughter and I think about how they would feel…I want to make them happy but I am not happy anymore, not with the marriage but with my own life.  It funny that we joke about commuting suicide but some days I am SOOOO serious about it. Hell I have a few plans already on how I want to do it.  It cause of her that I have a anchor, I told her that if anything happen, I would do it.