Me (M14) have always had murderous thoughts, if it's either killing an animal or to a human I've had it forever. I would never act on such things but they are reoccurring thoughts. And about the suicide, I want to suicide whenever I feel angry or annoyed, I'm guess because the emotion is so strong or well annoying that I want to stop feeling that feeling. But when I'm sad or upset or really anything else suicide is not the first thing that comes to mind. Instead I feel as if I need to feel these feels for whatever reasons. Help?