do you guys ever feel like you’re faking your bpd because you haven’t really done any of the stereotypical “destructive” things in a while? maybe having quiet bpd doesn’t really help my case, but i always find that the moment i start to momentarily improve without the help of a therapist, i convince myself i’ve been faking it all along ?? 
like i know for a fact i’ve had awful episodes in the past, but it just doesn’t rlly register in my brain if that makes sense