I am constantly being blamed for having bad intentions eg: “wanting my partner to feel stupid because I feel stupid”, “wanting my partner to feel crazy because I feel crazy.” and it feels awful. 

I don’t think other people realize that having BPD doesn’t mean you wish anything bad on anyone else, you just don’t always react i proportion to the situation. There isn’t a hidden agenda, just instinctual reactions that are based out of fear. 

I’m tired of others assuming my triggers are calculated attempts at manipulating or gaslighting them. If anything, that’s THEM assuming the worst in us, not the other way around.