I've been here before and been a nasty bastard. I just want to say I finally got given medication that actually works (mood stabilisers), I don't feel manic or aggressive anymore, or irritable. I have only been on it a day, but it is immediately obvious to me how much destruction I've caused in my heightened state.

It's like this is how my brain used to feel before my downward spiral started about 4 years ago. I'm just so annoyed with myself I didn't get put on this sooner, I have made so many mistakes, financially, romantically, and worst of all I've pushed everyone away including some very old friends. 

Luckily I have my job and now a new sense of security in myself so I really hope it's only onwards and upwards from here.