TW: BPD, Panic, Suicidal ideation.



I don't think I can do it anymore. I've been like this for too long. I'm 32 next week and my entire adult life has been ruined by anxiety. I have BPD which feels like a cruel twist on top. The love of my life has just disappeared on me. I also have M.E. which is the icing on the cake really. I'm just rotting away in my mum's house. I don't see friends and have lost many. I will never find a partner again if I DID want to, nor be able to move out again. I'm just a burden on everyone. If I'm not in chronic pain or too fatigued to move, I'm disabled with panic and BPD. What is the point in all this?