i have never felt so alone in my life. i’m experiencing grief from left right and centre. lost my mum to the big c in september, also grieving a relationship. this is the first time i’ve truly been alone in a year, and i’m realising how not okay with my own company i am, and how much pain i’ve been suppressing along the way. I feel such intense emptiness and it’s gotten so bad to the point where thoughts of just, giving up have crossed my mind and it’s been years since I’ve had these thoughts. happiness feels so far away man, hope is so hard to hold onto right now….