I hate being so lonely. I hate literally having no friends or family. I hate wanting to have friends and family so badly that it hurts all of the time. I hate false hope. I hate getting my hopes up that I might have found my person only to end up feeling lied to and messed with - like I'm nothing but a joke. I hate feeling like everyone hates me all of the time because I'm nothing but a worthless and hideous piece of shit. I hate that I adopted my cat because I really want to just be done with all of this shitty life but I can't because I got to take care of her. I need to find her a new home.