I feel very lost right know. My life is going nowhere, I have no friends, no one cares about me and it's been months since I left a  therapy session feeling okay with myself. I just don't know what else there is, I don't know what I should look up to anymore. I just want to die, I'm getting there again. 



I low key want to tell psychiatrist that my anxiety is off the roof so I can get diazepam or xanax again and just chug a box and jump into the train rails.