Pretty much what the title says. I've applied as a board member to our national Amnesty International Board, as I've been encouraged to do so by the office members (who cannot vote). They were super endorsing, encouraging me, and kind of made me sure that I will get in.
Well, not that I didn't make it, I got the least votes. One person who got in have been only volunteering for 2 fucking months, while I've carried on with a shitton of tasks for 2 years. The only difference that she was from the capital (essentially closer to the other voting members) and I am not. I made it very clear in my presentation speech that I want to represent activism outside the elite, capital borders.

When I saw the votes I started tearing up, and I ended up pretending to pick up a call, to be able to turn off the camera (tricky i know), but even after I joined back, I had to turn off the camera again.  I think it was damn obvious for everyone what was going on. I feel so ashamed that I reacted in such a childish manner, but I was just so disappointed, but still. I really was thinking about quitting or at least taking back of my efforts.
Reacting to not getting something with crying really doesn't make me want to pursue this kind of politician career. 

The only thing that kind of comforts me that this didn't happen IRL, it would have been soooo much more embarassing.