It is my fault that I ended up like this. It was all my fault. What can I change? Suffering is a part of life and this is just too much. It has been  too much. My life was fragile to begin with, because my bad days could eventually end up harming myself. Yeah it sucks. Don’t tell me. This is the dark side that nobody wants to acknowledge. Me myself wants to think and only see the light, but I am broken. There is no place for broken people. Whatever I want to fix it feels like it can’t be fixed.