 I just want to happy  it won't happen...

it's been 4 years since my parents divorced and ever since that day I've been a mess I really just want to cry but I can't I just hold back my tears.  my family is worried about but what's the point I'm useless and just a failure

 everyday I always put up a fake smile i don't want to do it anymore.and it's been four damn years it happened when I was 10 why I'm still feeling hopeless I should've gotten over it

I'm sorry you to read this I know its stupid