HELP!!! So I had a wonderful experience with a pwBPD earlier this year. She was a flat mate for a couple months then moved a 4 hour drive away. It wasn't until she moved away that we actually developed any kinda relationship. At first I was reluctant due to her BPD but she was persistent. I decided to learn as much about BPD as I could. As I did I naturally came to the conclusion that she deserved a relationship just like anyone else. 

We exchanged novels worth of texts and emails everyday for almost 2 months. Developed and expressed ever intensifying feelings for each other. Discussed everything from our deepest darkest experiences to the things we wanted to acheive in life. Emotionally, spiritually, sexually, philosophically we were on. 

As I came to understand BPD more and just before we were due to meet I started to ask her about how it effected her specifically. Her triggers etc so I could avoid them and help her deal with them. She almost melted that I cared so much. Then 2 days before we were due to meet. She vanished! Split! (I think). Although it wasn't what I expected. I'd prepared myself for a barage of hate or complete ghosting. 

After a week she got in touch to say that she was really struggling to manage her BPD and that she just needed some space. I told her that I understood and to contact me when she felt comfortable. 10 days later I received mail from Doctos at my address for her so I got in touch with her. She thanked me but told me that her heart belonged to another, that she was sorry but that she didn't feel right being with anyone right now. She never stated it but she eluded to remaining friends. I said that it'd be best that we go no contact. Told her that I thought she was a little piece of magic, the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen and that I genuinely wanted to see her do well in life. She told me that this message would he her final message, that she was crying, that I was a saint, and that she would catch me somewhere in the universe. That what was meant to be would be ...

A couple weeks later I bumped into her brother. He said that said she had moved back to the area. After 6 weeks I got in touch to tell her that a letter had arrived from the Doctors. She asked who it was, and if it was me and if she would drop by to collect it. I confirmed that it was 
and that she could and I've never heard from her again. That was 6 weeks ago! I took the letter to the Doctors and asked them to contact her directly. She's obviously not looking after herself.

I'd love to see her again. What are the chances I'll ever hear from her? She split (if that was a split) in early July. Or was I just a filler while she split on her ex boyfriend? I feel like she's not looking after herself so ai feel somewhat responaible for her. I asked her to update her details so that mail stops arriving here but it continues to come. I'm trying my best to make sure it gets back to the places that are sending it. I care about her.

Cheers!