One little thing will set me off and the rest of the day will be me screaming my head off, crying, and pounding the floor because there’s too much built up energy in my body for me to control. I literally cannot control my own actions because of how angry I get. Every day it gets worse because of how fucking sick I am of covid and being isolated. Just waking up is the reason I spiral into a rage at this point. It’s killing me inside. When my family tries to talk to me during one of my episodes I feel completely numb and I scream terrible things to them without caring at all. It’s like I’m so filled with rage that I can tell them I wish they were dead without even feeling anything. After that is the crash, where the waves of guilt come rushing back and I spend the rest of the day hating myself and wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. Then I irrationally worry that my family will die and I won’t have a chance to make it right. Am I the only one?