I was having a really hard day today, but I realized that I was using positive coping strategies that I wrote down in my distraction plan. 

At first I was a bit upset with myself because when I got home, I laid in bed and did nothing for a couple of hours because of how down I felt. But I ended up turning around. 

I usually isolate myself from my best friend whenever I’m down and don’t talk to her for a few days at a time. Which is different for us because we usually talk a lot throughout the day. And as understanding as she is, I know it affects her to some degree even though she’s not verbal about it. It’s just (kinda) been us for the past ~ 10 years and she doesn’t have much of a support system. But I had a really nice talk with her today, and I was open about how I isolate myself and the reasons. I’m just really happy because I felt the desire to isolate myself but I texted her (not even about what I was upset about, just to talk) and my mood improved soooo tremendously much.

And then I played my piano and wrote a song. It was very cathartic. Then I started working on this story I’m writing which I abandoned after my grandmother passed away a year ago. Then later on I did some skin care and did a face mask and hair care…

…Without realizing that I was attempting to distract myself. It didn’t hit me until the face mask that I was taking take care of myself. My mood improved so much! I’m just really proud of myself. I realized that I’m capable of doing good things to myself and taking care of myself even when I don’t feel like it. 

Baby steps are still steps ❤️