Hi guys not sure what I’m looking for yet maybe personal experiences and/or support. Maybe some good feel stories of your relationship with your partner? 

I have BP1 and BPD. Overall my BP is pretty well managed with meds. My BPD is the one that causes me trouble still. 

Long story short I broke things off with one of my bestest friend, she was my favorite person. She also has bipolar but BP2 and she doesn’t have BPD. So she’s not really supportive/understanding when my BPD shows up. Anyways we had a long talk after we gave each other space for over a week. At the end of it, I realize that it’s best if I don’t hurt her more and that I have someone who’s willing to handle all of me despite being really difficult. Both of us have decided to break things off. I’m really torn right now. 

Usually people leave me first but I mainly decided to leave this time. I’m so torn and hurt. I’m so lost. I keep wondering if I’m ever gonna find someone who’s willing to handle all of me when it gets hard. If I can’t keep friendships I can’t see myself ever having a long withstanding relationship. Please share me some stories of your partner(s) and how long y’all been with each other even while living with these disorders. I need hope. Thanks for listening. (Also yes I’m doing extensive therapy and am currently working on myself to be a better person but obviously I still have flaws)