My mother left me to watch over my brothers lunch today and i didn't hear her say to not add anymore water and I did it and when she came back everything has gone wrong and now she's insulting me, saying that I'm stupid and mentally ill and that she has had enough of my hypochondria and that I'm lazy and I'll never get a job since I'm incapable of doing anything right. She said some other stuff and it all seems like she wishes I'm not alive. Me too I wish I wasn't alive, maybe I should jump off the bridge but my anxiety is too bad to even get there.