Currently all alone in a new province came here in just left my family out west to work with my best freind I through just being arrogant an I guess a all around terrible person I got blacklisted pretty much from his buddys company he works for ... an the worst part is there was so much potential like 2 apartments worth of work anyways. 

So now my best freind barely speaks to me I had a girlfriend an things were great she actrully had me move in with her an I fucking ruined everything in a fit of rage ended up trying to fight her brother and her freinds aunt after the aunt punched me in the face it was a horror show on the side of the road 

I hit the aunt back can't belive I did that I was drunk and than her brother bottled me like 8 times than I GOT ARRESTED an went to jail for a month I have 0 contact with anyof them anymore and now she's dragging my name thru the dirt acting like I abused her it's a pretty small place around here....

So that being said I feel like public enemy number one I'm ashamed of my self at how I ruined everything my self literally entirely my fault it feels like so now I have nothing no freinds , no family, living in a hotel , and I'm just so sick an guilt ridden like my life is over here I think I should just fly back home when I can because the awesome life I did have here is over forever and I just don't think I can survive here everyon3 thinks im a monster