I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I have had terrible depressive episodes where I could barely speak or get out of bed. Now since March I have had suicidal thoughts and kind of withdrawing from friends. But not completely just not wanting to hang out or go places as much as I did when I felt great. I also have been kind of sad because of the suicidal thoughts that constantly plague me. I wrote a suicide note last week. I relapsed on self harm but havent done it again in weeks. I still am interested in watching anime. I go to work. I still laugh genuinely and have good moments. Based on this am I in a depressive episode or am I just suicidal? I know what severe depression feels like and its not that bad. I also take Latuda which helps to keep away the depression and hypomania. Any advice is appreciated!