Alright so we had some thing called a school assembly meeting today. (Basically the whole.school goes  in one room and the band plays clubs do things and the principle talks about stuff or something like that I didn't stay long) I had planned to skip out before it started but some teachers told me I had to go, and I figured I would get around the same time wether I walked the 3 miles in the cold snow or sat through the thing and rode the bus. So I went... I got in and my hart was already racing. I say down not notice where I was sitting and ended up sitting next to someone who told me to fuck off and move because he was saving that seat. Anyways I got up and walked right out the door as I was already starting to hyperventilate. So I stood in the hall for awhile trying to calm down when I decided I couldn't do this and started for the exit. That's when a teacher saw me and yelled at me to go back (note I was wearing a mask so she probably couldn't see that I was distressed or hyperventilating) and for some dumb reason I listened and started back. By the time I got to the entrance to the gym the drums were play and that's when I started hyperventilating really bad. I hate drums, I guess you could call them my "nails on a chalkboard" the noise pierces through my ears and bounces around in my head and my hart just mistakes the sound of the drums for the rythem it's supposed to follow and stats beating heavy and fast. I once again tried calming myself down but the drums made it impossible and next thing I knew I was outside covers in snow about 1 mile away from my house. Idk just wanted to write this down I feel pretty pathetic afterwards I mean I'm 15 I feel like things like this shouldn't bother me.