I couldn’t sleep alone in my bed last night so I woke up and sat on the couch at 2am and slept off and on until 7am, now I’ve just been mindlessly wasting time all day. I tried going out twice to get my head straight but it hasn’t helped. Its 6:30 pm and I can’t wait to go lay down when it gets dark. I am so sad and in my head missing someone who does not care about me. I am letting myself fall apart over this. I need to stop thinking so much and reminiscing and FUCK, I am trying EVERY DAY. But it’s so hard. I just want to go SCREAM but I’m shutting down and letting the sadness overcome me. I wish I could be a happier person and not crumble over my emotions. I wish people didn’t give up on me. I wish I wasn’t so easy to just forget about.