My worst enemy is me myself. I can stay calm for no more than a week, then something that brings me out of control must happen. I often have suicidal thoughts, but I've never tried to kill myself. I'm very nervous person, things that ordinary people would ignore piss me off to that stage, that I can't control myself, for example, today I destroyed lamp, trash can and even broke the door after I punched it. That's not the first time this sort od things happen. Parents usually tell me that I can't be so nervous because I won't make it out in the future. Talking about the future, the only way I see myself in couple of years is sitting under the bridge or rotting while dead. I'm already 17 years old, no plans, no talents, nothing that I wan't to do in my life. To this moment, It's pretty nad, but i assume that most people have problems like that, so I continue. I have some unpleasant traumatic experiences with girl, so I'll never trust any woman no more. I was interested in sports few years ago, did pretty well but now I can't bring myself to train anymore. I used to have ambitions, now I don't have any. I've changed a lot and seen a lot. I may write like a paranoic, but maybe I am because in my dreams I see really weird things for casual human being (like dead bodies etc.), but I wouldn't define them as nightmares. I could write a lot more, but I think It's long enough, so trust me - if I say that something is f*cked up or lost in my life, it really is.