I hate that my chronic PTSD/BPD symptoms makes me seem even more suspicious and like a threat. My high anxiety and other intense emotions will make me look agitated and so socially awkward. I avoid eye contact due to my high anxiety which also makes me seem like a threat (ex: shop lifters don’t make eye contact).. I wish I could be given the benefit of the doubt but instead I think people think I am crazy. The fact that I am a woman of color probably makes me seem even more like a threat because I am not assimilating.I think a lot of time people give me weird looks because do socially awkward things due to my PTSD. My family has told me I can seem intimidating to others because I seem confident, have a powerful walk, and walk quickly while slamming my feet on the ground ( usually a PTSD/BPD reaction because I don’t feel safe and am rushing away).

My ptsd is so strong, I realize my interpretations aren’t always accurate and I’m not always even being judged..


Anyone else relate?