I began being diagnosed with Depression, then Bipolar Disorder and now Schizophrenia, according to two last psychiatrists in my country.

I'm 27, I meet all negative symptoms as lack of motivation and **hopelessness**.

I've never had hallucinations or delusions, never heard voices or thought bizarre beliefs about people in last two years I'm diagnosed.

I excelled at math, with my SAT equivalent, I could enroll to the best university in my country. I've taken two cognitive tests, in all domains I mark **conserved**, except lazy memory in which I marked slightly under average.

According to my psychiatrist I present disorganized speech, and the way I see this symptom is crucial for him. I agree, the little I talk I show latencies and forget words even things that happened yesterday. But I should say that I've been two years isolated without social contact, without doing anything; can't be this monotonous lifestyle what make me think this slow? I've never been fast-thinking, but at age 20-24 I learned things, words and concepts besides math. Last years I've experienced (perceived) cognitive impairement, which is a symptom of schizophrenia, but isn't my style of life what is producing it?

Psychiatrist insists I take the antipsychotic, but the way I am, his 20 minutes interview isn't enough to convince me. I'm not convinced. If I was I'd take the prescription, but I can't stop thinking, what about if I change my daily habits, the comfort zone I live in, maybe my brain will start functioning and with that my motivation, cognition and social/sexual drive will improve? IDK.

I spend my time 10 hours in bed, 13 seated and 1 standing. Always was amateur athlete and negative feelings brought me here. What if I begin sleeping at night instead of from 03:00 to 12:00? what if I go out and walk? take sunlight? shower in the morning? Can just the right habits make me start functioning? If someone tell me yes, I can start making these changes.

Greetings to all people in this community, especially those who are suffering mental difficulties.