I am 37 year old male who has titrated up to 125mg of lamotrigine for about the last two months for bipolar, I also take 900mg lithium a night and 100mg of quietapine and oxazepam whenever I require it. I was in a highly suicidal state before I started taking lamotrigine, was hospitalized a few times etc. Things seemed to be getting better for me I had no incidents and was hopeful I might actually be able to salvage some sort of a life for myself. Yesterday that all came crashing down, possibly one of the worst crashes I have ever had, maybe not in the severity of it but because I had given myself a sliver of hope that this shit might be behind me. I guess I'm here asking if this has happened to anyone else? If so, how did you fare getting through it. I have a loving and supportive partner but it's impossible for her to understand when she doesn't live in my head. I also have 3 kids that mean the world to me and I want to be there for them but I just don't see how when I cannot even get something as basic as stability in my life.