I want to preface by saying i mean no harm to anyone. i am not judging anyone's decisions and i would never want to invalidate anyone's personal struggles. But I have grappled a long time with wondering whether i believe that these disorders truly exist or whether it's a way to explain why people act differently. I don't know how to explain it, and it is personal to me. I know when i look back at the wrong things i do when I don't recognize myself that it isn't right, and i do know someone can say that i did it because i have whatever disorder or illness, but in a way doesn't that take responsibility away from me?