Generally i'm a quite shy person who suffers from anxiety in many of my daily routines. Also i'm not the type of guy who is opening up himself too easy because i don't want to get hurt and i have to trust someone really well to be in a state to tell them my secrets. That's also a reason i have few friends. Finished with the background, now in the main reason for writing this text.
When i'm in a process of meeting new people , i tell myself that i have to open up and feel more comfortable with the the people surrounding me. Some of them at first seem to like talking with me but as time goes i feel like that i can't keep a conversation going, and people who firstly seemed to be cool with, now are a bit snobby.
The thing is that doesn't happen with all people i meet but everytime someone doesn't react to my sayings as i was a expecting, i feel like a did something wrong or they believe that i am not the person to go on with. That has created to me anxiety disorders and im close to myself because i feel that when i try to say something more private, rest of the people may find it strange and stop talking to me with the same passion. 
I want to have more self confidence and be determined to what i say, but everytime i conclude to believe that the rest of the people think I'm an unsociable, shy man with strange interests who doesn't take initiatives. Even my family tells me that i have to change because that keeps away from society. I want to change but I don't know how. I really don't know who i am. Am i a shy , quite person or man who hasnt given the chance yet to open up. 
I really dont if could you prosome some help, i just wanted to write my feelings somewhere. I feel pain because i really know inside that im living a life with a fake personality but i dont if i can change or if i have to change it.