I remember being young and getting that feeling of excitement before you went on vacation or to a concert and other shit like that.. now when I do anything or go out and see everyone having a good time, dancing, just living in the moment and I get jealous because  I’m just on the outside looking and wishing I could be apart of it. I just feel anhedonic all the time. I will say, I’ve been on suboxone for a couple years for a heroin addiction and while it practically eliminates my anxiety, I’m left feeling empty all of the time. Fuck why does life have to be so hard.