I'm constantly helping others but I'm not helping myself. I just texted an online friend who talked about how they attempted years ago and I just broke down and started crying. I wish I could say more, I wish I could do more. I sent stuff but i dont think it was enough. 

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I'm just tired. I want to make myself better, make my life better but I keep spiraling down a hole. I also want to make others feel better but I just don't know if it works. I wish mental illness all these problems never existed. That us humans can just live happy lives.