unfortunately my current vice right now is taking too much of a certain drug just because I can feel my mood go up. I'm excited and motivated. ready to have a wonderful day. then I just end up crying on my couch all night when I get home and its worn off, and it time for bed. 

I can go days without taking any. Aside from having the typical 0 motivation, nothing is different. I still get through my day. 

It just feels so fucking good to have my motivation back, even if it's only temporary.