and I feel a lot better. I know they may not forgive me, but at least they know where my heart is at. I pray to god they do though because they will be a part of my life as long as my boyfriend and I stay together, and he is so patient with me. I really want to rebuild what Ive been destroying. Hopefully it all gets better soon. Since I cant quickly change the way bpd affects me, Ive been trying really hard to own up to my shit at least.