My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 2 years. He studies languages at university and it’s part of his degree that in his third year he has to study in a different country. We have known this was coming and it’s been so scary and it just happened. I’ve tried to prepare myself as much as possible but it’s hard to know how my bpd is going to react till it happens. I still don’t know how I’m going to feel in a day or a week or a month. He just left and I know I’m not going to see him for weeks and there is going to be an empty space in life. He is my everything and I don’t know how to fill that up with something else. I’m just so scared and I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel like I’m being punished cause life is taking away the best thing I have and I’m so hurt.