The problems normies have with me don't even compare to what I have to go through to live my life. They can ditch me any time. I don't force anyone to suffer my company. And I have to live with myself. Last time I went ballistic on someone I thought I'd feel very sorry and guilty but nope. My feelings are real, I am real, I exist in this world too. I make a shitton of effort not to inconvenience others as it is, I'm aware that I'm difficult to be close with and if someone tires of my bs I won't stop them from leaving. It's more than enough already. I refuse to feel sorry on top of that.