Theres nothing I want to achieve, nothing that motivates me and nothing I even like doing. Everyone around me asking me what I’m going to do with my life just makes me even more miserable. I know I will have to kill myself eventually. I’ll never find a job. I feel so pathetic, seeing my sister succeed in everything. Theres no other way out of this for me, I am just a failure. I used to tell myself I had to live because it would inconvenience my family but at this point it would be more inconvenient if stayed here like this.