So, in January I stopped going to therapy, since I got significantly better and my therapist suggested that I should now try to function without us meeting every 7 or 14 days, so I can get independent from him, I suppose. But although (after 4 years) I’ve won against my depression, the anxiety has never left. 
I’ve tried to get used to it (how tf can you do that?), but to no avail. 

I would say I have been experiencing anxiety since I was around eleven, so it has officially gained the status of the oldest friend of mine. But it hasn’t gone much better and to be honest, I feel like I’ve been thrown onto a landslide these days.

After a couple of some all right months, there has came a turning point. I’ve failed my maths and I had to take and pass some tests in August to get a promotion to the next class. That’s where I started to experience severe anxiety again. Then, after I passed and went back to school, suddenly there was this enormous amount of new material we had to swot. After that, my now ex boyfriend (I wish him sand in his bedsheets) broke up with me and a group people I called “friends” decided to ghost me.
So yeah, some stuff has happened.

And amidst all of that stands I, questioning whether our worsening mental health and much more frequent anxiety attacks ( I usually have only two in a month, somewhere around my period, thanks, Mother Nature), is enough to go back into therapy. I know I can take more, but it is getting more and more exhausting lately. 

Sorry If this ^ is quite messy and chaotic, my English is not so great after hours.