I'm not one to ask for help but I'm at the lowest point. I'm cold towards other people who aren't family and I tried to seek some therapy after coming to terms that I probably need it. However, this was 2 months ago and nobody has got in touch at all. So we're just expected to continue suffering in silence? I'm sick of it, I'm sick of life. Everything went downhill after my dad died, including my grades in school. All my teachers don't know what it's like, they have both parents, they're successful, so I have no fucker to turn to in school. I messaged their mental health support for an appointment and they didn't reply. Maybe I'm just better off gone. My family thinks I'm doing them proud with all the "studying" yet all I'm doing instead is being a fat bastard eating and suffering emotionally. I've tried losing weight too but it's just so hard. I don't even eat much, it's just unhealthy stuff I eat and drink. Then the posh, snobby, privileged bastards looking down their noses at me with their gorgeous bodies and nice clothes, whilst I just dress in whatever old stuff I have because I can't wear anything nice, and I can't afford anything nice. I'm sick of it, man.