I guess I have depression and I think I had it most of my 20s and I think as years go by it just gets harder problems get harder energy goes down even more and then you get close to 30 and start dealing with all the feelings that go along with that milestone. And then I had a pet loss like 6 months ago and that was the worst and I realized that when she was alive how the fuck could I be sad at least I had her. Depression ruins everything you always focus on what's missing and feel miserable

I'm so freaking tired My parents are hopeful for me to find a job and career but feeling motivated is so freaking hard and I think being alone for years with no friends and never having had a boyfriend also saps motivation. I wish I was married by now with a man who takes care of me and loves me. I feel like that would be energizing and solve my problems. But I never felt good enough or pretty enough