i figured i would try to ask for help on reddit as my final option. i am extremely depressed. i have no motivation. i have no aspirations and nothing that will get me out of bed. i feel exhausted all the time and it’s a chore even to shower. i desperately need to get my schoolwork done in order to pass. i know in my heart i want to do well and succeed but i have no motivation to even get out of my bed. my room is a mess and it’s hard to even talk to my boyfriend. my parents are out of the question and my only safe place besides my s/o is my grandmother who believes mental illness isn’t real. i’m on 20mg of lexapro and it just isn’t helping like it used to. while i know i’m not alone and you can’t possibly know my entire situation, a little advice would be helpful. i want so badly to just do something but my body refuses. i don’t know what to do. i’ve contemplated offing myself but i know i would never do that no matter how bad it got. all i really do all day is just sleep or go on my phone to do nothing. i want to help myself but i don’t know where to start. i can’t progress slowly or else my grades will fail. i need to fix myself right now but it feels impossible. 

thanks for listening, at least. 

btw i made a burner account for this and i have no idea what subreddit to post this to