After years of it, I went over 6 months without hitting myself. And now it's happening at least once a week.

I do my best to not discount the amount of progress that I've made. Because I've come a long way creating a successful small business and beginning to form healthier relationships.

But when I hit myself, it feels like I'm right at the edge of the sinkhole I used to be in. And it really, really scares me.

The setbacks are part of the journey and I'm able to accept that logically, but logic doesn't always prevail when suffering with BPD.

I just don't want to be like this anymore. And at this moment, I'm so tired of the work it takes to get better...

I'm so grateful for r/BPD. Because of this community, I see the struggle and the strength we all need to go on living. I love you all. 

We've got this, right?