i reached out to someone i briefly dated. he never responded. it sent me into a spiral. stalking him on social. overthinking every interaction we had. doubting my self-worth. thinking about suicide. talking to my friends about him (who are probably are tired of hearing me go on and on). 

we worked together for some time and eventually started hanging out. he was sweet and interested at first, i thought it might develop into a relationship. it didn’t. instead it fizzled and i don’t know why. 

it’s been almost a year since we started seeing each other, and about 5 months since we last spoke. 

his silence hurt. i’m tired of caring. i just want to move on. “eternal sunshine of the spotless mind” this thing, you know?