Keep posting and deleting because ultimately no one really cares.

I literally spent the last hour or in full out tears with my kids in the room.  Throwing up in the kitchen sink because my stomach is in knots.

Wife has decided she’s fallen out of love with me.  Things keep getting worse. Starts off with little things like she would practically be sleeping half off the bed to be away from me, not even changing a pair of pants in the same room as me, to now telling me I should move down to the basement.

At this point I don’t really care about the marriage. I’m depressed because the writing is on the wall that there will be a time in the future (probably sooner than I’d like) where I’m not going to see my kids every day and these two ARE my life.  I am nothing without them.

We’re poor-ish, I’m the breadwinner (and not a very good one at that), and I just don’t know what to do.  I went to be there for my kids but I just don’t see how that’s going to be possible.

I’ve honestly looked into life insurance to see if I could at least have my kids be a beneficiary so at least they’d have a better chance.  It feels like the only thing I can do.

I don’t know how I can continue to live in this house but I also don’t know how I can leave.  I also don’t have anywhere else to go other then my mother’s, but I feel like by leaving it could be seen as abandonment.

Edit:  we just had a lengthy talk and I’ve gotten her to agree to marriage counseling, so I guess that’s a start..  I still can’t help but to feel like if a police officer sees someone commit a crime and the suspect tries to talk his way out of it. The cop knows 100% he isn’t walking away.

Sorry as this is a toss up between /r/Marriage, /r/Depression, and /r/SuicideWatch