I'm beating myself. I'm hitting my head against a wall. I don't want to do it anymore. How can I explain it to a therapist?? More, how I actually get an appointment to a therapist?? I feel like I have no value and I know if this continues I'm gonna end jumping to a river to kms. I don't wanna do it. I wanna recover and, maybe not enjoy life, but accepting my reality and do the best I can. Not for me but for my family. My mom, my grandmother. They see the only people who truly love me and I don't wanna make them suffer. If someone can help, thanks