Please do not read this post if the occult or new age or any spirituality might trigger you. 

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For some time now I have been heavily invested in occult and had profound results with it even when I was clear in my mind.

I feel I need a new psychosis to grow, I know I need more knowledge to get things going because my mental state in psychosis amplifies the occult experience. For example I wrote myself into euthanasia but immediately regretted, next morning a message came to me a person I did not know personally got it that night. And I managed to create a mean, laughing devil for a fellow schizo who was constantly acting antisocial and calling names when asked. Within ten minutes he literally said: ‘all you do is laugh.’

I know almost anything is possible, we live in a multiverse and there are ways to use that for thw better. With the right belief we can do anything, it’s just when clear my mindset isn’t well enough and while in a psychosis I can perform powerful magick.

It’s a bit scary though, my previous psychosis wasn’t all fun either. But now I can trust in myself; I do all those things and I can erase them easily by magick.

I hope all goes well… only 3 steps away from full quit the medication.