i guess i just need to vent a little about this. 
i’m hypomanic, bordering on actual mania because i woke up hallucinating for a while and it rarely happens (mostly only when i’m slipping into severe mania). 

i’m fucking terrified. my stomach is in knots. but the thing that bothers me the most is how talkative i am. i can’t stop it and people are pointing it out. whenever someone does, i feel an intense wave of embarrassment and shame but also anger. you’d think i’d stop after that, but it takes me five minutes of silence before i start again. 

Many probably experience this. i just wanted to say this here because i know you guys understand.