Like it is nearly impossible for me honour myself and accept my boundaries and set them, respect them and at the same do it for others too. 
I crave for someone to come and just be soft with me, even when they’re highlighting a toxic behaviour I need to work on and change, but not saying that I’m not honouring myself or not loving myself, it is hard but I consider every day that I wake up it is my form of self love, living this shit life and waking up every day wishing I was dead but yet, here I am going through another day, another year, today I’m turning 25 and I didn’t believe I would have made it this far, staying alive is the only form of self love I can give to myself now, I want to learn and to get better and do better, it will take time but don’t say I’m lacking self love. 

Living in constant self hate and making it alive by the end of the day is my self love and I’m not sorry for that, it is a huge thing for me.