Since April if 2021 I have lost all of my friends over time. My childhood best friend turned her back on me last year in favor of my sister and I’m so confused and hurt about it still. Not even a month later my other friend just stopped responding and won’t give me an answer as to why and I’ve given up. This year I lost my last two one by saying that she didn’t believe that I have any mental illnesses because I’ve been misdiagnosed 2x and so she thinks it was a lie when I was finally able to be rightfully diagnosed as having BPD and so I just stopped responding because I felt so hurt that she thought I’d fake being in so much emotional and mental pain. My last one didn’t even care when I would tell her I was upset and just talk about herself the whole time while I couldn’t get a word in. The only person I have left is my boyfriend and I’m starting to feel like he might leave me too soon. I’m tired of being an after thought and being used for emotional support only to have no one to help me. Yes, I go to therapy but it would be nice to be able to talk to a friend and not feel like they’re going to roll their eyes and tell me I’m being over dramatic. I can’t help what I feel. I try to communicate my sadness and frustration but all I am told is that I need to suck it up because other people have problems worse than I do. I should also note that I have also been diagnosed with ADHD, CPTSD, GAD, and Dysthymia. I hate feeling like such a burden to everyone around me. I feel like I destroy everything and everyone around me. No one tolerates me or even likes me. I just want to self isolate again because then I’d be out of the way.