This is a recurring problem for me in conversations with my partner. We will be talking about the same event but describing two completely different situations. I always get concerned I am being gaslighted - I will feel like he is erasing things that have happened or forming his own narrative. Sometimes, I come to realize that I am the one inventing narratives and twisting the facts to fit it because I'm splitting or hyperfixating or whatever.  

This makes it extremely difficult to trust myself. On one hand, I always feel the need to stand up for myself and what I believe. On the other, BPD makes me unable to trust what I believe took place. 

Does anyone else have a similar experience? I feel like I don't know what is real, I am the unreliable narrator of my own life, and I'm terrified.