And I think all of us do at many points in our lives. But I just want someone to listen to me as I hate that I have been waiting for so long to get professional help. Ever since I left my previous counselor at the end of March, I have been trying to find a new therapist. I eventually ended up getting scheduled for one on June 16th. But then misfortune happened.

My hospital provider contacted me this morning saying my therapist can’t see me due to a change in their schedule and I have been added to a waitlist. I feel like life just slapped me in the face AGAIN. All this time for the past 3 months I was excited and wanting to go to therapy to get the help I need. And now, I feel like I’m unlucky and misfortunate. I just want help. How much more time do I have to waste to get it? How much more suffering do I have to go through to get the help I need? I think god hates my guts and so does life.