 I am tired... I don't want to live anymore.  

I lost my beautiful rental house after my boyfriend left me suddenly to go across the country to skateboard... I couldn't afford the rent on my own no matter what I did...  

I lost my psychologist who helped me through so much. Because I had to move back in with my parents, three hours away. 

I lost my family when my mom assaulted me after going through my phone and seeing private messages between my psychologist and I about my abusive childhood. My family will always take my manipulative mom's side.

I lost all my money... trying to stay afloat. I only have about $300 left to my name after I pay my car insurance. I have never spent a dime on myself, yet all my money is gone from my abusive parent's.

I am losing myself now...  

I barely eat anymore. I barely sleep. I work from dawn to dusk every day trying to make even $20 from my handmade business. My panic attacks caused me to lose so many jobs.  I feel hopeless. Winter is here and it brings with it isolation and misery. If I didn't have my dogs I would probably end myself now.  I want to leave this state. 

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But there is no hope.