Well I had a positive social interaction today and for once I felt happy/content. This was followed by a short period of hyperactivity. I was basically running around my house and rapidly speaking while telling my sibling about the people I had met. I felt so incredibly grateful for them, they were inspiring and made me happy and grateful to be alive. So much so, to the point where I wanted to cry because I felt so happy. But at the same time, a part of me felt unworthy of their love. I tried to suppress the tears and now 5 hrs later I am sobbing because I'm scared that they're going to leave me and I'm not going to be happy/supported anymore. My brain has even made up scenarios where they are getting hurt/dying and I'm being abandoned. I know this sounds crazy :(.