Hello, honestly I dont know how to start this other than just saying stuff so I apologize. I honestly just feel like I'm a failure to everyone around me even my own dog, almost like I just can't live up to the expectations of everyone around me and I'm know I'm depressed and shit but I just feel like if i even say it to anyone even my own parents that I'm just going to be judged for it in some type of way. And i do want to become a better version of myself but what even is a better version of myself? i don't know what to do and it just feels like I'm spiraling down into a pit of darkness that I can't escape out of. All i do is just Game, Eat , Sleep and occasionally beat off to porn. I don't even know if this will be seen by others just glad to finally release restraints off of myself.