I feel like I’m constantly betraying myself. My delusional emotions always get in the way of my real emotions. My actions never match my intentions, I self destruct to the point where I go against my own principles and morals. Why do I do this ? Why do I constantly go against myself ? I constantly do things that I regret, I do things that aren’t like me. I enter these states where I can’t even think straight. I don’t even know who I really am.