I used to have awful social anxiety and I've changed so much since then. I love meeting new people and getting to know them. One thing that hasn't changed however, is my unability to attract women IRL. I have no issues at all getting girls online to flirt with me and get close To me, but I feel as if its not the same in real life. I've tried so much to get to know the women around me, but if I ask for a date they give me the cold shoulder. 

I went to a show last night, I was super happy To breathe the fresh evening air and feel the music vibrating through me. Then I saw an acquaintance for the first time in a month. He started to talk about bus new girlfriend and I was happy for him so I smiled, but on the inside I was crying because he reminded me how I've never been loved and every night feels as cold as it was right there...