First I can’t believe it took me so long to find this sub. I think it could make a huge difference to me or at least I hope it might. 

I have crippling social anxiety  I always have when I was younger I masked it by socialising with my older brothers friends, met my first gf that way. Now that I’m older I can see that but it has left me with no real friends and basically work colleagues. I struggle with basic things like sending a message to someone, until I get a reply I read it over and over, if I can I edit it thinking that my first attempt was right. If someone doesn’t respond I just can’t handle it. 

I met my wife who i love more than anything in the world and is really my best and only friend. She knows I have huge anxiety issues but I still can’t fully open up to her out of fear I wouldn’t be able to stop. 

For the past month or so I feel like i have a huge knot in my stomach I don’t know why or how to make it go away. I just want it to stop. 

Sorry for the ramble I’m sure there will be plenty of edits to come.