He broke up with me today. Because of my chronic lying, my promiscuity all my past years, my lack my empathy, love and so much resistance towards his love for me that he left me. We were together for a month plus.
He couldn’t take it anymore, I broke his heart so badly he said he needed time to fix himself again.
Yet all I want is assurance.  All I want is love even tho I didn’t know how to give nor show.
He said to love someone else, I have to love myself first.  And I didn’t know how, or where to even start.  
I’ve never seek proper help from psychiatrist before.  So I figured it’s gonna take a looooong time for me to fix myself.
I’m terrified.