I wanted to post something positive as I’ve been on the moon for the last two weeks with no episodes.

After having to separate from my ex who was also pwBPD. Very long relationship of 7 yrs. I never thought it would end. But it’s what is best for the both of us.

2 months after the break up I had to finally accept it. It took a really long time. But I figure I can’t just sit in pitty for to long. I’m not getting any younger. I ended up meeting a new girl who we’ve been around each other. Like same place same friends but never met directly. 

We talked about our past like most people do and abuse came up from her that her last two relationships ended that way. Well my ex was the victim in our relationship. So I had this massive thing over my head it made me so uneasy. Do I share, is it to soon to share, do I not share and hope I don’t split like that again? I thought long and hard about it. I figured we are in the same friend circle as well as my ex. So I said fuck it I’m going to tell her. I’d rather her hear it from me first than a friend of a friend. I was so nervous. Also explained that I was BPD and that I was not in a very good spot and was not seeking help at the time. She took it really fucking well I was surprised. She went on to tell me that she as well had been on the other side of abuse. Opened up about her bipolar disorder. We have just been open and honest about everything since then. 

I feel like starting our relationship with that kind of communication is going to help a lot. We have gotten pretty close since then. We are both waiting and expecting for the illnesses to flair up but we are ready. We both understand the struggles and can communicate when we just aren’t feeling right. Part of me is like wtf did I get myself into. The other part is like this could work as long as we continue the open communication. It sure is scary but no risk no reward right. Wish us luck!