I NEED to be high, I need it now. I need to stop thinking about her, I don’t want to suffer anymore, please. I just want to know what have I done to deserve this, WHAT HAVE I DONE?! Why me, why the fuck me?! I’m not saying I don’t deserve it, but don’t I at least deserve to know the reason? For now I think I’ll wait until Christmas to die, because it makes me happy, I love Christmas, it’s the best period of the year, the only period I really like of the year, I don’t want to skip it.