I spend every day by myself. At most I’ll have coffee with my mum once a week but, occasionally, I’m invited to hang out with people my age. I don’t usually drink at this gatherings, but I always smoke a couple of joints. Also, I’m just kinda there, inside my head, not interacting with my surroundings.

I’ve noticed it’s a pattern that the day after I go out I’m extremely sensitive, usually cry and can be easily irritable. At this point I don’t know if it’s weed that causes this or if it’s being around others. 
I smoke every day and I’m overall depressed, but I can get things done, go on walks by myself and not be an emotional mess (I have BPD, but I’ve been learning to manage my mood swings).

I want to ask others with social anxiety, depression and/or BPD if they experience similar issues after hanging out with people. If you are a fellow stoner I’d also like to hear if you’ve been able to identify a direct link between smoking at parties as opposed to alone and some change in your mood for the worse.
I’m planning on quitting but until I see the results myself I’d appreciate some input or personal experiences.