So one of my major things is paranoia surrounding my fiance. Paranoia that he's cheating, that he's lying about something, that he's having more fun without me. All your basic abandonment issue bullshit. 

This paranoia has led to a pretty severe problem of lack of trust and going through his phone and just overall invading his privacy. Fiance or not, I don't need to know 100% of everything in his life. 

With the help of a therapist and just overall moving on in my life, the habit of snooping has died down quite a bit. However there are still times when I get the urges to look. Sometimes I'll just unlock it and look at the home screen. Other times I'll be 2 days deep in his browser history (never a good time). 

Tonight I was able to recognize the urge, think about why I wanted to do it, and calmly reach over and turn his phone off. I have done this before but each time feels like a win. The ultimate goal would be to have this respond every time to the point where and I can recognize the urge and not have to turn the phone off, but until then, I'm pretty proud of my progress.  