on Thursday my fp that i also kind of had a romantic relationship for 7 months, with told me he doesn't think he's able to pursue a relationship with me anymore. the worst thing about this is that he did this almost every 3 months because he has troubling commitment issues and a fear of the future but this time was different. 

prior to Thursday i had noticed a rift forming between us and i constantly asked him if something was wrong and if i'm the problem or something, and he told me not to worry each and every time :(. obviously it turns out he was doubting if we can work anymore and when he told me that he can't keep doing "this" relationship, i blew up on him and i got pretty angry and even made some low-blows about going to therapy. i felt AWFUL about this and i sent an apology but he never responded... He's since removed me on everything we have talked and played games on EXCEPT discord, which was our main source of communication (so that might be a good sign..?).

I don't want a romantic relationship with him anymore, i just want my friend back. I've grown so close to him and he always told me about how important i was to him but i really really ruined everything this time...

i can barely function, i want to message him but i know he needs his space and needs to figure his stuff out but i miss him so much 💔