recently my fp and i were having a conversation about emotional regulation and growth. during this they told me they didn’t feel sympathy for pwBPD because we can be “cured” and no longer qualify for a diagnosis but they’re bipolar so they will always be sick. i just feel like they think i’m a baby for not dealing with my emotions properly or they think i’m lazy by putting in no effort to heal myself when it’s so hard just to get through the day. i feel like i don’t have support from them but they’re the only attachment i have in my life. for the most part they always take care of me when i can’t control myself, but sometimes if they’re stressed they’ll ask me to experience my emotions in the other room. i usually just sit in the dark bathroom and dissociate. i wish i could ask for more but knowing they don’t truly have sympathy for my disorder and knowing i’m already too much for them i feel like i’m just stuck in life.