I agreed with the diagnosis when I experienced every mood swing and emotion way more intensely than now, when I would act on everything to such an extent I'd be hospitalized in either inpatient or general hospital.

Now... I'm leveled out, I'm constantly paranoid &amp; experience derealization often, I'm severely anxious and feel numb or dissociated a lot of the time. Even though I feel the same as I did when everything was bad, I don't behave the same and I feel so fake. Like my diagnosis doesn't fit and everything that led to the it was all a lie. I don't even show all of the symptoms anymore so obviously I don't have BPD.