I recently got diagnosed with bipolar 1 after a 2 month manic episode. I’m so frustrated because during the episode, I met someone that I thought I really connected with on an intimate level but because of yanno, being manic, I ruined things before they even began. It’s bothering me a lot but I know ruminating isn’t going to help me in the slightest. It also really sucks because this person was the only sexual experience I’ve ever had that made me feel satiated if that makes sense? So I’m not even sure if it’s because I was manic and perceived this way or because it was actually real. Does anyone else know what I mean by this?