I’ve been thinking a lot how my bpd has interacted with my whiteness and internalized white supremacy. 
How a white person with borderline (I am that) is so easily excused from accountability and owning their abusive behaviors and thought processes while a black person with borderline has to jump through twelve more hoops and will still be harshly judged and not let off the hook for anything. It’s like the whole whiteness being fragile and blackness being hard. 

I am in a relationship with a black nonbinary person and I am a white amab nonbinary girl. I unknowingly was controlling, emotionally abusive and manipulative because of my borderline and my partner called me out on it and we’ve had like many many many conversations about it. I never was thinking wait, the way me and my borderline mixed with my whiteness is interacting with my black partner is mimicking the ways black people are seen by society and treated by society. The past couple days I’ve literally been like no no no oh my god no. This is disgusting. I never thought about how my sense of white fragility always allowed me to be like “this is just my borderline and triggers” rather than taking full accountability for my actions. I don’t know if this makes sense but I know being white and having borderline is not a cute mix and I don’t think there’s enough talk about this in the bpd world. Comment any thoughts or feelings