didnt pass for work. i feel like there is something off with me. And I am relieved at the same time. i wont have to get anxious every day and cry in the toilet. alright. school interview is coming soon. dont know if I will pass, the interview is in the language i barely speak. maybe its for the better. i wont have to get anxious every day and cry in the toilet. sobbing right now. how will I meet new people like this? what will I say? i have no education, I live on insurance and all I have or know about myself are my multriple diagnoses? but mayb3 I dont have to meet anyone. I am dying out of loneliness but i feel bad anyway. maybe numb is for the better. but I know that from time to time my poker face will crack and I will be screaming in the shower not being able to breathe because I spent all my money on my addictions, I have no more, dont know how to pay if not prostitution and humiliation, i have no one to talk to, lost time, and further. maybe prostitution isnt a bad idea. imagine working there to afford euthonasia