Been going to some form of therapy and psychiatrist for 8 years now. Nothing has changed. I've taken all kinds of medications. Gotten all sorts of testing done. And I'm still depressed. It feels like it's my personality at this point. My life circumstances themselves are great and I've had access to so many opportunities most of the world wishes they had and yet I've squandered them all away with my negative and irresponsible attitude. I don't even have the balls to kill myself either, even though it would be the simplest solution. And the world doesn't have the courtesy of doing it for me either, but that's the extent of its "benevolence" . Society just wants to feel good inside by disbarring assisted suicide, but it doesn't want to give any sort of aid and expects me to be as functional as anybody else. Once my parents are dead, it's going to be my sorry ass that can't even qualify for free health insurance against the elements.

Anyways, I just want to give up on everything right now and return to the NEET life. You can't give me any advice because I've probably heard it already. My mopy ass is just writing this post as a tantrum of sorts. Much smarter people have tried to help me and failed. I've been terminated multiple times by exasperated psychiatrists. I'm hopeless. The most you the reader can do is either do the courtesy of helping me end things, help me qualify for NEETbux, or provide some other form of financial aid.