I get up and go along my day just fine, i talk to friends, get good grades, and from eveyone else's perspective anyone would say im ok. But then i go back to my house. First thing i do after i walk in is overthink every single moment of my day. I continue by crying and being hopeless. All the hobbies i enjoyed doing seem just exhausting and boring. I recently went through a tough break up as well. I cant go to sleep until 6:00 because im just sitting in my bed crying and thinking how bad my life has been the last 17 years. I think that talking to anyone, friends or family about this wouldnt make me feel better.