I broke up with my ex who was constantly checking girls out and calling girls hot in front of me and said Taylor swift can join our relationship and was trying to trap me with a baby and the last straw was when he told me to get on a highway when I’m a bad driver and scared of highways. I miss him like crazy and all I want is to lie in bed cuddling with him all night but I know he’s not gonna treat me well but I crave him physically and it’s hard. 

On top of that I started my new job a few weeks ago and the work is so much harder conceptually than the work at my old job and even just shadowing people has made me so weak and exhausted that I do nothing but sleep from the moment I get home to the next day at work and Im still exhausted and I don’t even understand half of the shit they’re teaching me and I feel stupid and like im never gonna get it. 

I just want to go to a mental hospital to de stress and be taken care of but there’s no real emergency.