I feel like my life has been a waste of potential. I am 24 years old, about to turn 25 next month, and I feel like I have done nothing of value my entire life.

Whenever I see other people, I just can't help but feel inferior. I feel like they have done so much more than me. They are more skilled than me. They are better looking than me. They have better LIVES than me.

I did not go to college, even though I could have. I regret not going, because then I would have maybe learned something or at least have that as an accomplishment. I have no accomplishments. I served in the military for 3 years, but I was not very good at my job and barely scraped by. I'm getting out of the military in a couple of months, and I have no plans or idea what my future will be.

I used to be somewhat skinny, but now I am overweight. I weigh 222 pounds and I am 5' 11" tall. I have gained a lot of fat, and this has made me feel like shit. I can't stop stress eating because it is one of the few things that brings me some fleeting sense of happiness.

I look at other people and I just wish I would be them. I've struggled with suicidal ideations in the past and present. I feel as though my entire life until this point has been squandered.

I understand that as you age it becomes harder to do things as well. I feel like I wasted my life and I don't want that to be the case.

I want to be in better shape. I want to be more intelligent. I want to have a fulfilling job that pushed me to be a better person. I want to help people in need. I want to be happy.

I just don't know what to do about it. I really don't. It makes me cry often because I feel so alone and lost. I wish that I could just unplug from this simulation and go to a different, more ideal simulation instead.

Sorry for the long post. I just need to type this out. I hope someone can help me. I really need help. I don't like the person I have become. I am not the same as I once was.