I don't know if I can find the right words, but I'm going to try and explain it. I have a lot of identity issues revolving around who I am as an individual, where I stand in society, who my crowd is etc. This makes it really hard to interact with anybody. I have a lot of fear and anxiety when it comes to interacting with people, and even on a decent day I still can't interact like normal people do. I often beat myself up over it and wish I could be somebody else, but I don't even know who I am.

I just wanted advice on trying to connect with whoever I actually am, like, how do I know what parts of me are genuine and how do I accept myself so I can just live normally and not worry about who I am all the time? 

I want to not be scared of making friends, I want to be myself around people but it's hard when I don't know who that is.