I feel unlovable because of my bpd. It’s so lonely. I’m afraid I’ll never be able to have and keep healthy relationships. I have such a difficult time expressing how I feel to the people around me, not just because it’s hard but because I’m ashamed &amp; don’t always know how I feel myself. I lost the man I love to another woman because I didn’t know how to express my feelings for him. And now things are different. I’ve never felt so empty.