I was supposed to go to work today. I'm on the schedule today from 10am to 6pm. I couldnt do it. Couldnt force myself to do anything. I couldnt even call out. My anxiety was too much to handle. Theyve called me twice and left a voicemail. Theyre wondering where im at. Too scared to call back and too scared to go in. Too scared to leave the house. Too scared to face anyone. Deleted all my socials for the millionth time. 

I cant do this anymore. Im too scared to tell my parents that too. I dont even know how to explain to them that I blew it again. 

17 jobs in 7 years. For fucks sake.