22F. I quit college. Quit being a vegetarian after 5 years. I have 0 friends in real life (only 1 online friend currently who is now leaving me on read), no partner and live with abusive family that hates me. I work 2 days a week (can barely handle it due to my anxiety and major depression) and my co-worker is nasty to me a lot then acts nice sometimes but it feels fake so I cannot trust her at all. Her and my boss keep asking me about college and when I'll be done. I've been lying saying I'm still in college when I'm not. It's like they keep asking because they want me gone (I work an office job). 

I am absolutely miserable.  I wish I had just one person in real life I can trust you just escape this hellhouse.  I'm thinking about doing some hardcore street drugs to knock me out and give me euphoria, hopefully OD on too. Alcohol doesn't work anymore and weed gives me too much paranoia anymore. 

I am nobody in life and no one will miss me. It's funny how people say to not off yourself because your "loved ones will miss you." I have no one so that won't be a problem haha.