How did everyone take the leap for help? It’s such a huge draining step. I don’t want to be hospitalised which was an option that was laid on the table for me last time I asked for help from a professional. 
Another major thing that’s making it hard, is last time I went to therapy, it ‘unlocked’ things from past that my mind had blocked out, and it’s like I’ve relived them. It made everything a 100x worse and that scares me. I deal with PTSD, BPD, anxiety and depression on a daily basis. I know I need to get better, but I feel like dealing with it all will make things worse as they have in the past. 
I just need to hear from people that are, or have been in the same boat as me and how they dealt with it all. 
Thanks guys