Okay, so I have some friends who where there for me when it really fucking mattered and suffice to say I put them to their breaking point...Our last contact was them saying they were willing to meet me if I was in a clinic for my substance abuse(the observable thing). Thing is, I have been clean enough so that no hospital will accept me. I miss them. Do I escalate or do I communicate the situation? It's been 4 months and you can probably guess where my instincts leads to...At least concern is attention