hello people of reddit,
I am m16 with a reality disorder, permanent panic attacks and depression.
Almost every person I've confided in so far is no longer in my life or just a person who doesn't understand me, my friends have turned their backs on me and my family doesn't want to understand or really don't want to help. Every day when I get up I sink back down if I even manage to get up. and i meant that symbolically and for real just yesterday i almost ran away and jumped and when i caught myself i went home and was standing in the bathroom with a razor blade in my hand the moment i caught myself again was when I started to cry. the next day i woke up after only two hours of sleep because we had graduation and I saw an opportunity to get myself drunk and have a chance to get out of my head now i just feel like I can't do this anymore and I should end it and get out of this piece of shit called life.