*I’ve also posted this in a few other subs I’m just looking for more input :’)

Hello ! I (17f) am sexually active and I’m literally terrified about getting pregnant despite using condoms. I always end up working myself up about it almost every other month and it has always really bothered me. I know it’s irrational, and everyone I talk to about it always tells me that. 

So, in late May or early June of last year I went to planned parenthood and got the pill. It was okay at first, until about two weeks in.... My anxiety completely flipped. I always took it at night, but it would be the same every day. I took the pill, and within the next two hours I would become *extremely* anxious. It wasn’t about anything in particular, just a wild anxious feeling. I wouldn’t be able to sleep,  or do anything, my heart would be racing and my breathing would start picking up. I would need it to be completely silent and lay in my bed until I eventually did fall asleep. I was miserable, and my boyfriend and I decided that it was a good idea for me to stop taking the birth control. And of course, when I stopped taking the pill, the wild anxiety stopped. 

I tried it again in October, just to test it again. Sure enough, the same thing happened within just a few days of taking it. 

I’m just wondering if anybody else had the same problem?? And if they found something that worked? I understand that everyone has different experiences, but I’m just looking for general guidance. I was thinking of getting the implant, but I like getting my period at the end of the month to reassure me ( only getting one period every few months just sounds like it will build up my fear ). 

Is there any other method that would help me? Should I try the implant and see how I like it?