I'm an emotional wreck now, I swear I've never been this sad before. I really thought therapy helped me a lot and that I would be a great partner. But I failed. My retroactive jealousy killed us even though I worked a lot on it. It really didnt bother me at all but I still brought up something and it was too much.
I really felt a strong connection with him and really felt like it would last and we'd be strong. I guess I was wrong, and it hurts. Real bad.

I know I will feel better and time will fix it, but all I want is really just him hugging me.
I wish hed believe me when i said i wouldnt bring anything up ever. But he said its too late. 
Really wish I could fix things.

Now I look fucking crazy cause I messaged him long ass txts even tho he told me to leave him alone.

I just needed to vent I guess.