I was screaming inside. My heart was pounding out of my chest and I felt like I was about to pass out. 
I would slit open my arms, break down and bang my head against the wall until I couldn't bear the pain anymore. These thoughts...they never left my any peace. They kept coming back and tortured me until the sun arose. 

What is this nightmare? 

But now, my mind is numb. 
I don't hear a word. I don't feel a single emotion. Everything left me and the void has consumed me whole. I feel like I was robbed of the last thing that gave me the feeling of being alive. I don't hurt myself. I don't break down anymore. But...

What is left of me? 

Even now that I am empty, my symptoms are still the same. The problem is, now nobody can see them. 
Not even I know what is happening and how I really feel. 

What even is real?