I’m back on meds now and I know I’m gonna miss the clarity and energy that mania gave me. I’m gonna miss that side of me who knows how to take risks and live freely. She still exists within me but she has to take the back seat for now.

I’m excited to get my grind back. And my sleep schedule. I’m relieved that I didn’t permanently destroy any relationships like last time. I’m still me on meds but I can’t help but feel watered down. It’s sad that I can’t be ME mania depression and all, but its for the best.

Goodbye mania, hello life. I hate you.