I feel like if I’m not sexually desirable to my boyfriend then I am worthless and unloved. I will get so upset and angry when he doesn’t want me and I often feel like I want to be forced to have sex because then at least it will prove to me that I am wanted. 

Even when I do not want to have sex I want my boyfriend to want it and it’s so unfair and fucked up but I just feel like I’m nothing if I’m not desired.