I’m applying to residency as someone with anxiety and it’s easily the hardest thing I’ve done in my professional life. I’ve based my whole sense of self on my professional goals and it’s all going south and just dealing with all the thoughts playing on my mind makes it so much harder. I just feel so tired. I try to stay calm but then there are days when I feel like nothing will ever be okay. I’ll never reach anywhere in life. I’ve worked so hard all my life and yet it’ll never be good enough. I have really supportive family and friends and yet nothing feels okay. Nothing seems to help. Feels like I’m constantly at war with myself. 
Just want to be happy! Not feel like this for once. Hope that day comes soon.