Hi, I'm 20 years and studying full time but I never got a job before. I have GAD and SA. This makes it harder for me to accept criticism even though it's needed to move forward. I get upset easily when someone says something negative about my work and I break down and it ruins my mood for the whole day plus I sweat alot when I'm anxious. 

I do want to get a part time job to support my mum. I was diagnosed with a learning disability and I have a condition called CSF which is a spinal leak which prevents from doing a lot of things and I got diagnosed with scoliosis. I'm planning to get surgery for this but covid has slowed things down. This is cause for my anxiety  as I am scared of going to the doctors. My social anxiety is due to my shit childhood and teen years

My mum also has worse learning disability and sometimes can't do stuff by herself and I can't always be there for her ( she has trouble reading and would get lost and confused, often has trouble speaking up for herself) My mum is my best supporter as she is able to cook for me and care for me but doesn't understand my anxiety but she is trying her best. I was planning to get a job after my surgery is done because each day gets harder for me. I always dread the next day.

Should I just wait until my condition gets better and wait for surgery and after find a job? Its going to be my last year at college.

I just wanted to vent about the problems I'm currently going through. I know it's not bad as others, I just wanted to get it out there