I truly can’t imagine finding happiness or love in this life. I feel so broken and pathetic. Finding love just sounds so ridiculous when I can’t even imagine going on a date and it not just being awkward or end up with me being ghosted. 

All I’ve been able to do is wallow in the pain of knowing so many other people can find connection if they want. It might not equate to happiness of course, but being alone is just miserable. I’m beyond ready for all of this to be over