I have bipolar 2 so my depression is much worse than my mania and I'm going into my 5th month into this depressive episode. I've also gotten pulled over by police, wrecked my car, my grandmother died (and missed her funeral cause my parents decided not to tell me until the day before the funeral), had 2 friends die (one flipped his truck, and one OD'd), started an extremely stressful project at work, and had a 2 year relationship end cause my SO didn't care at all about my feelings and just saw my depression as a burden to her and something I needed to just deal with. It doesn't help that my mother doesn't believe depression is real so she just tells me I need to get over it and stop being lazy

Idk what to do, I just want to lay in bed and stop existing. Everything is getting harder and it doesn't look like it's gonna get better anytime soon