Yo o7, 23, aspiring full stack developer. 

(Nothing srs, just a lot of stress has been eating at my years of life.)

After quitting my wage-slave job a little over a year ago it’s been one hell of a ride. I’ve switched from freelance language services, to teaching, freelance dev work, to doordash (only way I’m BARELY surviving ), to finally settling on wanting to become a web dev. 

Though not even focusing on dev jobs, the job market is absolutely insane when it comes to rejecting, leading on, or fucking with applicants. 

I’ve had many interviews- at least around 50 of which employers ghost, bring you through weeks of interviews just to reject you, verbally make it seem as if you’ve landed the job just to ghost you, giving no feedback on how why you weren’t accepted, etc etc. 

This happens with jobs ranging from service work, high paying dev jobs, freelance work, local jobs, jobs where I’m DEFINITELY overqualified, or places that are in deep shit and *need* willing employees to knock off work loads

l’m absolutely getting my ass eaten financially, struggling mentally, and it kills my drive inside every time an employer repeats this tired process.

I never know if it’s because of my qualifications, other candidates, hair or skin color, something I said, poor timing, large amt of applicants, tell me wtf is wrong? 

C o m m u n i c a t e.

Like fuck man how many more months will I be dancing for clueless HR reps to land *ANY* job less degrading than a line cook/cashier/retail/laborer/etc (no offense- I’ve worked em all)


To make matters worse, I live with an abusive father who sabotages any and all facets of life he can get his alcoholic hands on, which is the MAIN REASON why I’m so stressed and tired of not being able to afford to live elsewhere. 


Today I’m back at the drawing board again. Won’t give up, can’t give up really. 

Searching for a decent paying job (as a black dude) in 2021-2022 that doesn’t rob me of “me” has by far been the most depressing thing I’ve done in my life next to living with my drunk bully of a father-

AND I HAVE NO OTHER CLEAR CHOICE :/



tldr: Finding a good job these days seems impossible and I REALLY need one. been at this for a year and some bchange yet I feel like I’m at sq 1. I remain stuck living with a terrible father till an employer finally gives me an opportunity :/