To provide context, I am in a happy and stable relationship. We started dating in high school and plan on getting married next year. But, as time goes on, every time we are apart I fall into a depression that worsens at night. I have an identity separate from our relationship, but I can get suicidal when we are apart. This is especially difficult this week as I am on break and he is not. To clarify, I have diagnosed OCD, anxiety and depression. So this is not just me “missing him”, but I sympathize with those who experience that. I am wondering if anyone else experiences this and if they have any ways of coping? I know it is not rational and I am finding ways to manage my irrational thoughts through therapy, but it is so strenuous trying to deal with this relationship depression/anxiety. Any tips and conversation would be greatly appreciated &lt;3