Ever since I was a child I've had very vivid hallucinations. Both visual and auditory. But no one ever believed me. My parents always dismissed it or took it as a joke. So I stopped sharing it. My hallucinations got worse after I went into depression. I started therapy but I could never bring myself to talk about it because I thought I'll just be laughed at. I had no clue what schizophrenia was honestly. I had seen some movie which showed something which was so badly portrayed that I thought it had something to do with aliens. So when I finally got diagnosed with it I wasn't ready to believe I have it. I have gotten used to my hallucinations. I try to pretend it does not exist. But I'm scared if people find out I have schizophrenia they'll not want to talk to me. I don't have many friends. I have no social life. No love life either. And now I'm scared this will make it worse. Honestly very scared what my future will look like. And I don't know how to deal with all these emotions. I have also been suicidal for a while now. And now it just feels like hell. I would love some advice as to how I can accept my diagnosis.