the amount of money I’ve spent on psychiatrists and on the pharmaceutical industry over the years is OUTRAGEOUS and for  very little reward. Any time I start to feel good about my life and myself it shortly comes crashing down and I’m depressed again. I am that same sob story: tried every drug, every combo, every type of therapy and I’ve realized I just have to live with the ups and downs and keep them from being extreme and dangerous … but they’re not going anywhere. That being said, I would love to do away with putting chemical crap into my body and paying a psychiatrist - I feel like I’m slowly rotting away