I know no one will see this but I’m pretty sure I just lost the very last friend I had. In the span of one year I’ve lost every single one of my friends due to my bpd’s overly attached/emotionally detached cycle. I’m sure I’m just being dramatic but currently the loneliness that is looking me in the face brought upon by my own actions feels absolutely impossible. I’ve got no social outlets to keep me around other people ,, it’s difficult, even though it was sort of inevitable for me.