Psychosis is one of my biggest fears. I have never seen or heard anything that wasn't there (except some voices when I take Zopiclone) and do not consider myself to be psychotic. But now I'm confused. Here's the backstory: My little sister had a baby 3 weeks ago. From about her 6th month of pregnancy, she became very hostile towards me. Wouldn't talk to me, made a few hurtful comments, etc. I was extremely hurt because I have always tried my hardest to be the big sister to her that our older sister wasn't to me. So about two weeks ago we were all fussing over my newborn nephew and I told her that I was proud of her, even if she was a total bitch to me during her pregnancy. She replied that she wouldn't have been if I hadn't given her the letter. Confused, I asked what letter. Eventually she tells me that I wrote her a letter telling her she should pack her bags and move out and that nobody would miss her. I swear to God, I have NO recollection of a letter. My mother confirmed that I did. I can't remember, at all. I really can't. I haven't changed my meds recently or anything like that. I just don't understand why this incident has been completely erased from my memory. My psych won't see me or refer me for therapy until I address a separate issue. I don't know what to do or what is happening with me. I'm truly scared.