I made a list of things i should do since i have this illness.

1. Abandon all hope for a normal life
Hope will only bring disappointment. Chasing my dreams will only bring me more disappointment.

2. Stop trying to live a normal life.
It's impossible.

3. Give up on trying to change.
Change it's impossible for me. I have to accept i am what i am, a broken mind.

4. Start doing therapy
Maybe if i accept my problems they will not bother me anymore.