I'm a quiet borderline that is very stable on the outside. Everything is internalized and then put through my "acceptable personality" filter. My personality is a carefully constructed facade of all the things that I want people to see. I feel like a fraud and a fake most times. There isn't one single person that knows me on the inside because I'm terrified that when I show them, they will leave. I hate myself on the inside, so will they. 

All that being said, I've been dating the same man for nearly a month now. He's all the things that I've been looking for in a partner and yet I'm already splitting. Why? Because he took 5.5 hours to respond to a text. So obviously that means he wanted space from me which means I'm probably not what he actually wants. Or maybe my facade has slipped a little and he no longer thinks I'm that great? When he finally did respond to me, I responded in a normal manner, but inside I'm frustrated, anxious, and hurt. The rational part of my brain knows this is insignificant, but I can't help but still *feel* this way. 

Do I tell him what I'm feeling, and why? Or do I suppress it until it just goes away? I don't know how to process through an emotion until it's gone. Suppression has been how I deal with most of them and it works because eventually I'll forget about it.