Hey redditors,

I am newly diagnosed with BPD. The most important queation I have because it kills me is: Should I try to behave like normal people would in situations or should I let my feelings out loud?Because all my life I tried to behave normal (its not working really good because I really often cant figure out what normal people would feel in some situations), but  I have great fear of letting my real thoughts come out. I have the fear of losing my friends..I really dont know how to think and behave and I am 22 male. I feel like I didnt learn anything during my life. Fuck my life.