Today is a frequent type of day I experience with my depression. The previous night I didn't go to sleep till the early morning because I was disappointed with my day/ anxious that I would wake up to the next day would be just as bad.

I woke up today tired and I couldn't bring myself to do anything and I couldn't tell how much it  was my depression not motivating me or me trying to push myself beyond my sleep deprived capabilities. The result is I try and mentally beat myself up to do things. At first it's ambitious stuff - goals I had for the day, then it's trying to go out and get food and finally I just try and motivate myself to make any food I have in the refrigerator. About 3/4 of the way into the day I make and eat food and I finally run out of energy to beat myself up and just accept this is the best I can achieve. I am at peace but really sad that this mental struggle has been my whole day.

I thought I would post this as I feel like I can't be the only one. I know with depression people can talk a lot about circumstances and the more dramatic impacts of depression but I think it's worth talking about the mental struggle of living with it day to day.  I do have a few more dramatic low points in my life that collided with my depression but the cycle described above is my daily struggle with depression. Anyone else struggle with identifying what's fatigue, depression or just 'normal' lack of interest/motivation?