TW: hospitalization &amp; intrusive thoughts 

About a month ago, my pdoc increased my Luvox. The starting dose was helping me so much, so we expected an increase to help. Instead, I’ve been thrown into a mixed episode. Intrusive thoughts about death &amp; dying, uncomfortable random bursts of energy, anger. I feel like I’m falling apart. My husband is pushing me to go and admit myself to the hospital, he thinks I need to do that to find stability. I don’t want to go. I don’t want to leave my kids. I don’t want to lose my freedom for an indeterminate amount of time. I just don’t know what to do. 

Don’t even know what I’m looking for here. Tips on improving things while I wait for my med change to work? Words of encouragement? I feel so empty and lost.