I grew up in a house of abuse and major neglect. I’ve had social and time anxiety for as long as I can remember. I couldn’t take naps as a child.. or as an adult without fearing I’d lose time and miss something on an extreme level and I couldn’t stand in the lunch line in high school without feeling like everyone was staring at me. 
I joined the military and I found the structure and uniforms actually helped me function really well. 
It wasn’t until I was leaving the military that I’d been prescribed anxiety medication. (Hydroxyzine) 

Does anyone else feel like they functioned with anxiety better before medication? 

Like I was so used to the anxiousness and feeling tightly wound.. and the constant jumpiness. 

I feel like once I had been medicated, it became almost crippling to not be medicated after. 

Medicated or not does the jumpiness ever go away?