Today an old friend told me to enjoy the freedom as it isn’t something his choices in life have afforded him. This message is something that is slowly sinking in to me that every single closed door, missed opportunity, loss and grief all continue to lead me toward the path of just that - freedom. 

Freedom from the norm. Freedom from financial grips. Freedom from societal constructs. More and more free each and every day as I become more aware and more in tune with my purest desires rather than desires manufactured in the world around me. It’s really enlightening to begin to feel more and more peace within my daily thoughts. 

The peace comes and goes with life’s natural ebbs and flows but my hope is the more and more in control of my mind I become - the more refined my awareness will be in my every action. Simmering my impulsive nature, though now I am wondering if it is truly my nature or just trauma response after all that I’ve endured. Does it really matter? The current season is owning my actions while moving in just and honorable ways. 

No matter where I end up, I’ve got to keep me at the center and that doesn’t manifest into selfish ways but rather growth mindset. I must never settle with my mental power. I truly feel as though mental, social, emotional strengths are amongst the most valuable of strengths.