The other day I did something really bad that affected other people I care about as a result of my mental illness. I'm not going to go into detail over precisely what. The issue I'm having is that I felt like I couldn't stop myself from doing it. Like, I knew in the moment that it was the wrong choice, but I was so anxious and upset that my body just did it anyways without my mind telling it to. I feel really guilty about what happened, and everyone's blaming me for it, but I also can't help but feel like to a certain extent it wasn't my fault. I'm trying to take steps to improve my mental health, I'm already booked in for therapy, and I've made people in my life aware that I'm struggling to cope with things, but I'm still being blamed for my inability to process my feelings in a healthy way and not having the emotional tools to deal with a difficult situation. Am I being too harsh on myself, or am I just trying to find excuses to make myself feel better?