Some time ago I wrote all my feelings into a nothebook. A drunken experience, pured my hearth out. A drunken night to feel something, to feel better. But now the same feelings keep bursting out. It hurts like hell. 

But I dont want to feel better. I just want it to end. Only when I'm druink and left alone these feelings come up.   
I guess it feels nice to type this out for some poor random soul to read this garbage. 

Have a nice day. A better than I'm having.