I refuse to let this beat me down. I refuse to give up. The same way I choose to sleep all day. The same way I choose to feel upset over things I cannot control. I choose to believe in things I can control. I wont let my own mind dictate to me how I fucking feel. I am going to change things slowly and what is within my power to do so. There is always a way out and I wont wallow in self pity.