My manager said he has big plans for me this year, and that involves me being proactive as opposed to just being someone in the background in the last few months (i got the job few months ago, so it was natural for me to keep low in the beginning). I find it hard to image myself doing anything that involves effort, and while I am feeling very pleased to hear that he trusts in me, I don’t think I can do that, even without deression I was never ‘the manager’ type, but with this state it all looks impossible