I’m undiagnosed and from 15 till now (19) I could say that one constant thing about me was is wanting to be gone, but not doing anything because I know how much my mom would blame herself if I ended it myself. I choose to live every day despite all the draining situations I’m constantly in, I feel so tired for fighting the urge everyday and I just want a break. I wish I could just live normally and handle problems with a good mindset, but it’d be a lie if I also didn’t wish I could just disappear and finally not feel anything.