So, I came upon OCD a few years back and I thought Oh, these symptoms sound eerily familiar, and for a while I pursued this subject because I beleived it was what was causing my obsessive behaviour, then I saw a few documentaries about it and found out that the symptoms are way more severe, (this was before fb exploded with OCD memes). Then I was likee okay, I went further into myself and asked a couple of teachers and they said you have trouble concentrating. Your mind keeps wandering off and you daydream alott. Then I started realizing my weird behaviours , I would either love a person or hate them. I would either love texting them or either I would want them to text or to never talk at all. I ruined many friendships this way. I developed anxiety and had frequent anxiety attacks(v.mild). Heart sinking, depressive thoughts,mind racing. Pit in my stomach. Another thing is that I keep jumping from one thought to another.  I dont think I have a solid view on anything. It really just depends on the state of my mind. I have had a habit of cutting people out and living in isolation for quite some time. I will usually just go MIA for months on end and then back to normal. Also, I talk to myself alot and think about things in the future. Ill fixate over things and shit goes south if I let my mind wander . Also I have mild dermatophagia and keep forgetting what I think so I need to journal my thoughts.So Im still wondering is all this normal. Is there a name to what I feel. What are other symptoms that I brush off. I need some help rn.  ( Using a newer account). Im sorry that this is so messed up as an article. I just wrote everything that came into my mind. )