So, tonight (well, last night), I had my very first “dream cheat”. In my dream, I was heavily pregnant (don’t know why) and I walked in on my boyfriend fucking a women who was totally bipolar to me. Blonde hair, skinny, pretty, just everything that I’m not.

I know he wouldn’t actually cheat, thats just not him. He was on a night shift on placement for Uni and he’s come home and it has made me feel worse. Every time I close my eyes, even to blink, I just see that imagine of him being with someone else.

I can’t stop crying, can’t stop over thinking. I don’t know if its my EUPD making it worse, but I just can’t get it out of my head.

What do I do?...