so my fp has gotten bad sleep lately and we usually hang out every 1-3 days, but now it’s been 5 and we were supposed to hang out but he said he can’t risk another bad night of sleep so he can’t come over. i got sad and told him to make up for something else that happened a few weeks ago bc he promised he would but then he told me to fuck off ;/ it hit me like a bus and now i feel HORRIBLE. i feel like everything i’ve ever said has made my life shit. and that if i just wasn’t so fucking needy.. he would still love me. he’s texting me saying he didn’t mean it and that he’s sorry and that he loves me.. blah blah blah. he still said it. he definitely meant it. i am a horrible person i can’t believe i asked him to sleep at my house when he’s having trouble sleeping and last night was the first day in weeks that he’s slept... GOD i feel so awful. like the worst person in the world.. i see why he broke up w me and won’t get back together..