i am so tired of constantly feeling like nothing is real. like sometimes it’s okay when i just need to escape but when it’s just constant and you can’t tell what’s real and what’s fake and when you look at things they just seem so far and so odd like if i touch that? what will happen? am i even supposed to be seeing that? like the emotional and physical numbness that comes with this feeling... but also having anxiety about it because my brain is just so confused, then i forget what i’m confused about ??? or when i wake up and go to work and everything i see is a fog like i’m in a dream and i have to try so hard to do my job the right way even though things just seem out of place. i’m too young for this, it’s just so hard to keep going and pretending i’m okay viewing things like this. i know for a fact that when i’m out of high school i am moving FAR from here, and i love to be alone.. but how will i manage? i can’t even tell what’s real and what’s fake, too out of touch to do anything or remember what i’m doing. and then i try to talk to people about and it’s like no one really gets it. like i have friends who are like “yeah nothings real, we’re all in a simulation” or are like “you ever look at yourself in the mirror and question your existence?” like yeah pretty much every person has felt like that at least ONCE in their life.. but they don’t know how it feels when you actually live it.. if that makes sense, sorry it’s hard to explain.