Today I was at work, enraged for 5 hours out of my 7.5 hour shift. Rationally I knew that the things I was mad about were little things that I have been able to deal with before I.e. “Rachel is on her phone again of fucking course she is now I have to do her job for her but I’m too scared to tell her to get off her phone so I’m just going to piss and moan until my smoke break” and “if I have to even *look* at a customer right now I swear to god I’m going to deck them in the face” etc. 

I feel suffocated, I’m in a job that is stressful but not toxic so there’s no good real reason to leave but I. Just. Need. To. Not. Work. For. A. While. But how do I pay rent/bills? Disability lawyers would laugh in my face because, ya know, I take a shower once a week and smile once a month so that means I can’t really be disabled right?! Today I felt like I was crawling out of my skin. Have any of you ever quit your jobs with no prospects of finding a new one? I know it’s irresponsible but I just can’t anymore.