I have two kids. age four and two. The only light in my life. 
My best friend overdosed and died in August. My business failed because I let it. It was my passion. So many clients mad at me. So much more. 
I am unwell. I don’t have anywhere else to turn. No one to talk to. I feel like I sound so fucking stupid. I feel like I sound like I want people to feel sorry for me. First world problems, huh?

I don’t want to leave my kids alone on this earth, I can’t be selfish. But I want to be done with this. 
Are there any other suicidal mothers out there? 
I need someone. Maybe just one person to tell me it will be okay