I'm spiraling right now. I just got off work and I had my whole night planned out to go to the grocery store and spend time with my bf. He tells me he's with his friends at the bar and asks if I can give him a ride to his car and I'm like sure I'll just get groceries tomorrow so I'm on the way there and he tells me nah I'm just gonna hang out here. So I didn't get groceries cause I was supposed to get him and I'm just hurt cause I recently blocked this girl that's in our friend group and when she found out she gas lit me and talked about my BPD and how I was probably in "one of my moods"....she constantly uses me and victim blames me and makes me feel terrible so I cut her off. NOW I can't even hang out with them and ever since I did that she's been trying to get my boyfriend to go out with them all the time and I feel like it's her being passive aggressive. Before my boyfriend I didn't go out I didn't do anything I didn't have anyone to do it with and I was happy to finally start going to bars and hanging out with all of them and actually doing things and I'm realizing now I can't join them. I don't regret cutting her off but I just feel so bad and angry.