i feel drained yet restless and full of energy, it feels as if there’s a war going on inside me. i keep dissociating and switching minds and personalities, all to a point where i want everything to just stop, i’m tired and alone. how would i ever expect there to be a future for someone like me, a living evil scum that was brought on this world by a something who keeps feeding me fake promises about who i am but i’ve already realised, i’m a heartless evil monster  that deserves nothing. i’ve ruined every single relationship and friendship i’ve ever had because of my fucking emotions that i can’t control. i’ll never find love so what’s the fucking point of me trying to prove myself that i’ll ever lead have a normal life. something that i’m simply incapable of. i’m the definition of a sick evil person, i can’t experience any sort of joy, i never have unless it’s by destroying everything i have and touch, the adrenaline is the only thing i feel.