It's been a year since my diagnosis and I still feel like I was wrongly diagnosed. Like, I usually see things only when I'm alone and at night. I only sometimes see things during the day/when others are around. But the delusions are a constant. I'm always scared someone will kill me or kidnap me or a monster is real and other ridiculous delusions - usually paranoid.


When I see things during the day, they're almost always good things. Like the ghost of my dead friend or dead animal visiting. Or angels. At night, it's always shadows and they're almost always terrifying and seem to feed off my fear. Sometimes, I get the feel that they're demons that want my soul. 


And I can't ask my mom about the shadows because she has schizophrenia, too, and I don't want her to think there's demons in our house again.


Is this normal for schizophrenia?