i no longer have motivation for simple tasks. even getting up. I don’t have the motivation to shower, eat, and do simple hygienic stuff. although i force myself to a lot. whenever i eat, i can’t keep food down. i start to gag and feel nauseous, i smoke alot to escape reality and not worry about my problems. i procrastinate when it comes to everything. I’m very self aware of these things but it’s so hard to stop. currently writing this i realized i haven’t ate in a day and been feeding off ensure (energy drinks). there are times where my mental health is good and other times where it isn’t. i can stay in this phase for months until I fin all my decided to snap out of it