I just was looking for some comfort and love. We were together today and as i got to his house tonight I started panicking because I’ve been planning to kill myself on august 8th, 2022. I was overwhelmed about being alone with these thoughts but when I told that to him, he got angry. He said that he can’t be my babysitter and that i just have to keep going. He went inside and i’ve been feeling unsafe to drive home. I texted him expressing that I don’t feel safe to be alone and he called me really angry. He said he won’t come back outside to comfort me and that i just need to deal with this alone. I’m 20 feet away and he doesn’t want to hold me and make me feel safe. Instead, he yelled at me and told me I’m being pathetic. He’s mad that i was with him all day but then am panicking as he left but thats just because im scared to be alone right now. He said I was mean to him because I couldn’t get out of bed today and was late, which was mean, but idk if thats the best time to be pointing out my flaws. He watched me cry hysterical &amp; panic &amp; told me i have to deal with this alone and then he hung up. I’m still sitting outside of his house just trying to stop myself but honestly him telling me how awful i am at helping myself has made this feel more like its the right thing to do. I’m just a burden to everyone and cause everyone pain. Thats why he’s mad because my depression and anxiety is too much to handle. It just makes me want to die more. I just can’t figure out a way to do it that im brave enough to go through with. I’m all alone right now and i just want to die painlessly. I just want this all to be over. I wish at least my boyfriend loved me enough to want to help me feel safe, but now I feel even more scared of opening up to him about this… all he had to do was make me feel loved. He missed his last chance.