I'm going to be seeing a new psychologist next week. My old one cut me off as their patient because he prescribed me cipralex and I wasn't liking it at all, it literally made me feel like I was on coke, I had so much energy that I didn't know what to do with that it gave me intense anxiety and made me feel like I was in a dream. He didn't believe anything I said, and he told me if I'm not willing to take it anymore that he can't help me. It's in my records that I am very sensitive to medications, they make me manic, crying one minute then laughing the next. I already know that when I go to see this new psychologist he's going to put me on something else, and I'm scared that the meds won't work out for me again and I'll get cut off as his patient. It may seem like to them that I'm not willing to try and get better, but I really really do want to get better. But the meds make me feel so much worse and I live alone and don't have much of a support system, so if I'm given new meds and I end up having a freak out, nobody will be there to help me. I just don't know what to do at this point. All the doctors in my area are so cold and insensitive and make me feel like shit. This is just a rant because I'm dreading my appointment.