Basically the title, i always love so much more than others love me but when it came to my ex we both loved each other so much and it feels like he was the only one who ever was as obsessed with me as i was him, but our relationship just couldn’t work, he was an addict and it made me into one too, slowly. He tried to kill himself with me once by running into traffic, it got so bad that me and his mother had to take him to hospital and i had to call security on him, it was so hard and it took such a toll on me and i knew i had to leave because it was affecting me terribly, after that relationship i stayed single for a year and a half which was so difficult for me, i had flings which would end as soon as they found out how crazy i was till  december when i finally met up with this guy who’d i’d been speaking to on and off for the last 2 years, when we first met it was crazy like fireworks going off i thought i’d met my soulmate (and i still kind of do) the first month of our relationship was so amazing we were both so obsessed with each other and he wouldn’t let us do the “no i love you more” type of thing because we both loved each other equally, or so we thought. He is really into cars and the car he had at the time was his baby he loved that car so much (maybe even more than me) but about a month into our relationship he got into a car crash which changed everything, after that he barely responded to me and he seemed negative all the time, i offered (and sent) him money to fix the car which helped for a while until another month later he crashed again this time worse than the other again i sent him money to help fix it because i just wanted the old him back no matter what it took, he seemed very grateful for it but he still wasn’t the same, soon later he completely totalled his car and i again sent him money to help fix it (at this point ive sent him about 10k just to help and hope it be like it was when we met) but nothing has changed, we were in a long distance relationship for the first 4 months of our relationship and i ended up moving to the same city as him hoping we’d get to spend more time together but it’s been almost 3 months and i’ve only seen him once. Last month we got in a bit of an argument when i thought he might’ve been cheating on me now he hasn’t replied to me since then (almost a month now ) i don’t want to give up hope and it’s so hard to when he won’t tell me it’s over, he just isn’t giving me anything, i message him almost daily telling him i’m sorry and i want to fix this to no response, i’m just starting to feel like the only person that can love me has to be as sick as i am, as bad as it sounds.