I’ve always been the kind of person who does not handle large changes well. Or any changes, really. I just chalked it up to general anxiety and tried my best to anticipate anything so as to lessen the fallout. Lots of lists… 

Now that I’m diagnosed and treated, and stable, I find that this has not changed. I’d hoped it would but it’s still the same. I told my mom yesterday that everything that’s happened to me this week has been relatively small, but it’s all building up and that low buzz of anxiety running through my veins is growing louder and louder. 

I feel very restless and irritable but also just frozen in a way. I want to do different things but I usually get overwhelmed and end up binging on my phone. I’m also exhausted this week, abnormally so. I don’t want to think this is an episode but it’s clearly not normal. 

None of the things that are bothering me can be resolved any time soon. So, what can I do to try to convince myself things are okay? I have Klonopin but I reserve those for worse anxiety.