title. basically, I've been struggling really badly this past week, and today I have an appointment with my social worker, so my plan was to get up early and then do a couple of the things I was needing to have done already. one of those is bringing a copy of my lease to the food stamps office, it's the last document I needed. however, last night when I was setting everything out for myself to grab before I leave, I realized I couldn't find the most recent copy of my lease. that would mean... I have to stop by the landlord's office and ask them if they can give me a new one.

that's distressing me SO much. just the idea alone of having to talk to one more person, to have to be seen by more people, to have to go one more place... I'm absolutely overwhelmed. I want to cry. I want to give up entirely on today's plans and just stay in bed. it's so upsetting I feel like I'm shutting down, and I don't even know where to start. I feel like such a lazy and stupid idiot.