So standup has been an aspiration of mine for a while. People say I have great people skills and am very funny but I'm still filled with anxiety about that. There's a bar nearby that does open mics every monday.

And I went. To a bar. By myself. 

Which is a huge deal because I'm scared of going to bars, I'm scared of trying to do the things I want to do, and I was terrified of doing this. I have weird inconsistent social anxiety. I have no problem with confrontation, and a lot of my favorite jobs were ones where I got to be social. But bars, and similar "meet people" places terrify me.

So I went, and I listened. I was too nervous to actually talk to anyone, or buy anything (which got me a mildly hostile look but idc), but I went. At some point down the line, I'll probably perform.

Go me.