I found out a few weeks ago that my bestest girl friend is moving out of state and I was stunned but emotionally not at the crying or panicking stage yet.

She came over to my place today and we hung out one last time and it was beautiful. We laughed, we cried.

Her flight is tomorrow morning.

This tremendous loss hit me about an hour ago or so. I am sobbing and writing this post through my tears that have been non stop for the past half hour, maybe more.

I’ve cried so hard that I felt like I was going to vomit.

I’ve ridden that wave of misery where it gets sickeningly miserable and death seems like the better option.

It just hurts so much.