A layer surrounds me - irritable - energy of negative like I'm not enough/I'm wrong- every  thought then aids that - when I see past self, oh I probably went through so much hence I'm not like that, work - am I taking too much stress?, finances am I spending too much - second guessing everything. 

Irritable - sudden hunger - I think it's less about what's the thought that's causing this and more about the state of mind (the energetics) that leads to these thoughts 

Hyperarousal? But not feeling stressed for any reason - just have the energetics and irritation and agitation. Mind also same with thoughts. 

Lot of doubtful thoughts come - oh these ppl in meeting - untoward silence - maybe I should have not invited - maybe there was another better way of handling the meeting participants - etc. - feel if I'm clumsy - lens with which I view things itself changes as opposed to another calm day when I don't think like this. 

Sudden thoughts like - have I resolved that? Maybe that's why these issues - etc.

And during these days, I can't be mindful at all - very restless. 

My hypothesis is - my REM sleep is dysregulated. Because I sleep a lot in the morning, sometimes in weird quasi awake states in the morning. The days I have lesser REM sleep, I feel very much at peace and contented and connected and grounded. But when said REM dysregulation happens - I tend to oversleep, like forced. Just have to sleep more. And that leads to weird states - irritated, impulsive angry, disgruntled, tuned out, distracted, etc.

Culprit - acetylcholine build up?