*TW Suicide *

My life is a mess. My family is aware that I am depressed and severely stressed out but what they don't know is that I am suicidal.

Each day is a struggle to keep myself alive. Everyone has some severe medical issues that I am always hearing the bad news to. I feel guilty that I want to end it before their conditions get to bad because I don't think I can survive watching them deteriorate but I am going to be forced to take of them. I have my own medical issues that I have to ignore because theirs is worse then my own... I'm just so tired and exhausted. I want everything to end. 

I'm not looking for help or anything. Just wanted to get it off my chest as I have no one I can actually talk to about this in my life.