When I got pregnant the company in which I worked was declaring bankruptcy and only kept the preggos and the managers to handle the rest of the work. A month after giving birth I was informed by the insolvency agency that it was all over and my contract was done. It took them 5 months to pay me, reiterating that I’ve just given birth and was in the verge of a mental breakdown every day. So, in my country you have 2 years of maternal leave and I’ve kept in contact with one of the managers who later on opened another company in the same industry, thus me starting there when I’m done with my leave. 
Comes may and apart from all the problems I’ve encountered being a new and almost single mom, with little help, I contact this manager who informs me that actually they’ll be choosing someone with more experience than I. Although I wanted to say something I just lost my voice and my mind. I’ve been trying to find a job since then and went to 20+ interviews that led nowhere until today. I just landed The best job I’ve ever imagined with benefits that exceed any expectation but I was happy for 10 minutes and then started to cry again. I’m thinking of me not being able to interact as well as I’ve done before, maybe now I’m stupid bc I’m a bit slower indeed, I kinda feel that my partner isn’t as happy for me as I am and also I worry about my kid bc he will be starting daycare tomorrow for the first time and I don’t know how he will do. How can I make this happiness last a bit longer? I’m trying to get back on that mindset but..