For as long as I can remember Ive had really low self esteem. Ive tried so much to try to improve it  like therapy, journlaing, saying fuck it and just doing everything solo but every now and then it dips so low again I dont see the point in carrying on.

I like to think im a nice person and always go above and beyond for my "friends" but then they always plan to do stuff without me and im always left out. I dont know what im doing wrong. Anytime I aksed to be included before they always brush it off and just say it was a last minute thing... But its all the time.

Im so confused and honestly im at a point now where im too emotionally exhausted to keep going.