I hesitate even posting here. I am problem not having the problems that warrant help but I know something is wrong. Today I got in trouble at work and I immediately thought to myself, just end it. End it here, be done with all of it. I am failing at something I really do love and I’m doing it in a way that is making me hate me more than I already do. 
I come home and I’m miserable, don’t even want to talk to my family. I go to workout more because I have to than I want to. As soon as I have a moment to think, I want to cry each day. I want to break down and just end all of it. I always feel like a failure. I’m not good enough  and I’m not successfully doing anything. I’m a pile of junk. 
I don’t know, guess it’s a rant. I am just not sure I’m supposed to be around or even be working. I’m just going to have anxiety about me being fired or let go for the next however many weeks. And I know it will make me feel worse and worse. It just starts feeling like it’s all sinking in on me.