I’m super depressed and I didn’t want to post any details on my personal social media bc I don’t feel like people care. 
I blocked someone cause I got tired of feeling like they were tired of my existence. I don’t feel like I’ll be missed.
I am currently going through a legal situation that has caused people to threaten my life and family so I feel like I could be kidnapped and killed. 
While I do the right thing, I feel like no one notices me in a good way. I don’t feel like I make anyone proud. I literally don’t matter. I want to be loved unconditionally. I want to be the world in someone’s eyes. I want to stop thinking like whoever is with me, that they’re settling, instead I want them to feel/think like I make their life easier better and more beautiful. 
I want to be held all night like they won’t ever let me go. I want to be someone’s most priced and cherished person. 

I wanted MY PERSON to see me like that. But I’m nothing. I’m no one. No matter what I do for them, for my country, friends or family…. I’m not enough… I’m not worth being forgiven or trusted apparently… I don’t like feeling this way… it’s such a struggle everyday to convince myself that he does love me, that is all in my head. But then I can’t help myself from comparing, not with other couples, but with ourselves, what we used to be and no matter how much I’d change or talk or open up, I’d have less and less of what was offered to me… I’m tired and out of ideas… I’m sick of trying to be a good human and it always fails… 
I restarted my medication so idk if this is a symptom of it… but I’m so depressed and tired and feel so undervalued and unloved…. My heart can’t take it