Hey all, really looking for support or somebody with a similar story or experience to help guide me. 

My [28M] BPD partner [21F] spiraled into a massive crisis at the end of November. She had been slowly spiraling due to work stress and the general purpose of life. Her depressive episodes become more and more frequent and she then became anxious that these frequent episodes were destroying the lives of me and her family and that she was a burden to everyone. 

These thoughts spiraled in a continuous cycle until end of November when she ghosted me completely for a week. I'm used to her sleeping for days on end or having intense depressive episodes when shes unable to look at screens or communicate however this was way longer than usual. I live an hour away and work two jobs so I wasn't able to check up on her right away. The next weekend I drove to her house where she lives with her dad and she was a complete mess. Hadn't slept for days and she was acting very off and told me very briefly that she was spiraling and her existence is a burden to everyone and she's destroying all of our lives (which of course isn't true). I was able to convince her to put on a coat and come for a car ride with me which she did and seemed to enjoy but she was completely disassociative and non verbal the rest of the night.

I visited every 2 days after and her behavior switched drastically every time. Some visits she would be completely non verbal and would pace around. Sometimes she would be in complete paranoid ideation and would think her dad and I were plotting behind her back. She would rarely sleep and never ate. 

2 weeks ago I was able to break through to her one night and had a regular conversation with her for a few minutes. After that night her dad thanked me and told me she slept for days and occasionally woke up to eat. 

Last week her mom came from hours away and rushed her back to her house to take care of her. My partners phone has been dead the entire time and I haven't talked to her in over a week. I have spoke to her mom who has been updating me regularly, telling me my partner has been taking her meds finally but is still paranoid with some glimpses of her normal self. 

I guess my question after all this is will I ever have her back like I did before? Has anybody been through this and rebounded with a partner? Will she even remember me? Does she think about me now? Being alone 4 hours away from her this past week has been devastating but the positive updates from her Mom do help. I miss calls and messages from her, waking up next to her, talking to her all night. I have a BPD specialist ready to speak with her the moment she's ready but will she ever be?

Sorry for the essay but I have no one else to talk to about this. Thank you all