For context - Our friendship had it's highs and lows but we grew apart because he felt he couldn't open up to me because I would get angry when he'd cancel or hang out with someone else instead. He recently went through a break up with a long term girlfriend and didn't feel he could tell me that. I lashed out because I didn't know why he was being so secretive and I lost control of my emotions. The conversation ended with him not wanting to see me again. 
Yesterday morning, I reached out to ask if things were truly over and he told me yes, he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. I had the strongest urge to keep asking but I knew it would only end worst so I asked if we could at least say goodbye and not end our friendship bitter towards each other. He told me he wouldn't forget me and would always remember all the good times we shared. We wished each other the best and we blocked each other from everything. 
Apart of me still has the strongest urge to reach out to his number, which I deleted but I know and sometimes the thought will come into my head that if I go to his house we can talk it out and fix things and be friends and I get the strongest urge to actually do it. 
I don't want to. I want to move on. I want to respect what he wants for once. If he feels he needed to let me go to find happiness then I just want to give him that. How do I make the pain and the urge to contact him go away? How do I move on? 

tldr : Best friend and I ended friendship, I feel I'm struggling to move on and want to reach but I want to respect his wishes and move on.