Tw: infant loss 


My bf of 4 years has decided that I am too much to deal with now, and he has made the decision to leave. I understand completely why he wants to do this as my BPD and the symptoms of it have been horrible. I don’t know where to go from here. 
I don’t have a job and I don’t know how to drive, I had a full term pregnancy last year and my child passed away at birth, I have another child who is special needs, I am completely dependent on my bf. I don’t even feel like any of this is real, like I’m not real. 
I don’t know what to do. I feel like I am going to have a breakdown but I really don’t want to. I could really just use advice/kind words. Thank you for reading.