Well, please don’t make fun of me, because what you’re gonna read is will be like “wtf”. 

Basically, the one word I never liked is the c word, I think it’s terrible. And my girlfriend feels the same way. So we had a normal conversation about that how much we dislike that. Well, I’ve been suffering from tons of anxiety lately and one time I was laying with her and the first thing I thought of was that word. 

And I felt like shit thinking I called her that, or I at least thought of calling her that, and it’s been bothering me. Now many times the word keeps coming up in my mind, and I keep having guilt thinking I think of her like that. 

I don’t know if it’s OCD, a side effect of my anxiety or something else, it’s not normal. 

Can anyone give me advice on how to stop thinking these bad things and having this guilt for something that I really can’t control thinking of ? Thanks.