I have felt before like death was the only way out I’ve felt horrible. Where everyday felt like the hardest thing to get through. Now I feel depressed but not even close to before. Yet now it’s the first time where I’ve ever thought of suicide like a thing I might actually do. Always thought about it but it been like something holding me from it. I feel better now in general but I also feel like I don’t have as much stopping me in my mind. Like I feel the most unsure if I’ll keep going ever.