How bad would it be? Have you tried doing that?

F24, diagnosed with Cyclothymia, CPTSD, Binge Eating Disorder and panic disorder. Yes you read that right. Taking Zyprexa when you have a Binge Eating Disorder is indeed a recipe for disaster.

 I have been on and off Zyprexa (due to quick onset of weight gain), I tried to substitute it with Abilify for a couple weeks and went NUTS. Abilify gave me the worst time of my life and almost finished me, so I went back on Olanzapine and can notice the extra pounds creeping their way back onto my body.

It's only been like two weeks since back on it and I'm already a size above my normal size. I used to have body dysmorphia that's gotten better over time, but not enough so I can welcome 50 extra pounds with open arms lol. 

I've fought so hard to get where I am today, I have made huge progress, but I don't think if I can take another minute of being in a body that is not mine.

I take Prozac along with Lamictal at the moment. I thought why not continute both of them but discontinute taking Zyprexa. Would that be bad for manic symptoms? Or is stopping them altogether even worse?