I don't know how to handle this anymore (not that I ever actually knew). So basically my only date baked out of it yesterday with a lame excuse. My only true friend (which happens to be a female) has being going through some rough time herself and doesn't have the time to write me anymore. 
In my desperation for intimacy I"d started frequenting prostitutes and now I find myself with an empty pocket and  just a lonely, if not more. 
I booked a meeting with a therapist but it's so far ahead in time and she's on a leave right now.
I don't have anyone to talk to and I feel I might do something stupid with myself. It is hard to relate without the proper background and context but I do know that many are going through a similar crisis. 
I feel like if I don't get the proper help soon I might commit suicide. My life, an mind, is that messed up. Any advice?