I'm in love, deathly in love with someone with an avoidant attachment style. Not to be confused with avoidant personality disorder. I just. A crush but. My heart now. I. I just. I want to move out already. I dont know why im so crazy for this guy, but i actually want to get a job right fucking now, yes now, my socially anxious ass and go see him. But hes AVOIDANT. Issue is he probably would decline seeing me or worse, fuck me and discard me. Im so crazy about him. Please help. I cant think straight. He aggravates my ocd. He reignites my sexual urges which once were dormant. Oh Christ. Does anyone get this? Right NOW I want to, the IRRESISTIBLE URGE to tell him i want to be his girlfriend already. God I need him and want him so bad I'm hurt in love. Every time. Every time I say it'll never feel stronger it just happens. My God. Do i LOVE this person im in physical pain in my stomach, im so energetic and frantic. He told me he DID want my badly, god damn it!! I NEED HIM and i think we're both driving each other fucking mad!!!! And yes he KNOWS he's my FP. But he's doing strange impulsive decisions, im getting into random arguments (I never do this), changing my appearance, doing more things I'm a complete mess and I just. Why. WHY do avoidants need soooo much space?! Oh fucking hell i want to be close to him already. Fuck!!!!