So in 2016 I was diagnosed in the hospital with having bpd. Every therapist and pysch dr since then has continued the diganosis no questions. 


Two months ago I was assaulted and I got a specialty therapist for assault. 
My pysch dr and therapist then tell me they don't diganose bpd for months. Even though I have history of it. 

Part of me freaks out not having that diganosis because I spent all of my teens  being told I was overreacting and I wasn't severely depressed because I had happy moments. I had pysch drs tell me I was faking and everything. But then I get hospitalized and diganosed when I read on it I find it describes me perfectly. I have 7 of 9 traits. And see myself as petulant borderline. I've discussed it with old therapists and they agree as well. 

So having this diganosis ripped away scares me. 
About a week ago I asked my therapist about cptsd and if it could be a codiganosis and what the differences were. She then tells me she thinks I'm more cptsd than borderline. The comment pissed me off. I already didn't like her. I feel like she talks to much and doesn't give me quality therapy but I dont have much of a choice because finding pysch drs is hard nowadays. 

Anyway. Do any of you guys get attached to the diganosis. 

To me its the only stable thing I have to my self image. I may not know who I am. But I know im borderline and I have a goal to push past it. But being argued about the diganosis makes me question everything