I'm 16 years old, I have a Loving girlfriend a large friend group, hell I'm even a bit popular. But I don't feel anything besides Guilt and Anger. I put on a smile or laugh when I'm supposed to but I don't feel anything. I constantly search for excitement in things but lose interest in a few minutes. I don't feel alive I feel like I'm somewhere else and I'm so tired of it. I hate how I switch from personality's from each person I'm with I don't know who I am and the intrusive thoughts get worse and worse and these aren't some simple oh jump from a high place thing its really messed up mainly sexual but horrible thoughts. Its getting so bad again. I'm not on meds and have not been diagnosed but There. Is. Something. Wrong. I need help and I'm not sure ill ever get it and I don't want my own personal issues to affect my girlfriend who has a lot of what I seem to have. I want to be happy again I don't want to hate myself anymore..