I know this is a dark and awful time for everyone and many want this all to end and go back to normal life. While I of course want this all to end as well, I really don't think my life is going to change. I've already been living in isolation and I rarely left the house unless it was to go to the store or go to work. I had and still have practically no social life. I'm still having my usually panic attacks and mental breakdowns just like I normally do. The only thing that's changed is that I've been working more overtime to get away from my alcoholic mother since she's barely left the house.

Even once it's over, my life will still be the same:

- My depression and anxiety will still be here

- I'll still rarely, if ever socialize

- I'm not going to the gym because I can't get the energy to go

- I still won't be seeing any slimy health professionals

- My home life will still be trash

- I still won't find a good career, especially now since we're in a recession

Honestly if anything now might be a good time to make an attempt on my life. With the hospitals overwhelmed, they won't be able to take care of me and I'll be successful.