A year ago I was living what might have been the best year of my life. 11 months ago a small change happened that finally set me over the edge, and ever since I've just felt awful. But throughout the past year things have gotten better and that problem is completely gone now. Life is pretty much exactly the same as how it was a year ago.

But it feels completely different now. My entire outlook on the world feels shifted. What used to feel like moments of peace and relaxation now feel like extreme loneliness. I have no interests anymore and I don't care about any of my goals. I can never sleep anymore, making feel even more tired making me feel more lethargic and lazy. My emotions don't even feel intact.

A video from my phone memories popped up from a year ago on this day. I was doing almost the exact same thing as I was doing today. But I vividly remember that day, and I remember being really happy. I was happy with my life. I am not anymore. I don't know what to do about it. There are so many things I want and need to do, but I just can't. 

I don't entirely even know why my outlook changed either. The thing that happened last year honestly wasn't that bad, it was just kinda the final breaking point. But a lot of it has resolved now.

I just wish I could just live in a time loop of last year forever.