A few years into adulthood and I’m realizing how hard it is to make friends while not in school anymore. 

And since then, I have had relationship after relationship, and an SO always seems to end up my favourite person. However, even when I try to have balance in my life and have time for others, I cycle through people. 

When I have had close friendships in the past I am fiercely loyal and caring. The only thing in my way of meeting new people is anxiety/isolating myself if I feel like they don’t like me after awhile.

Even I end up hanging out with people , after a few times they stop wanting to see me and I’m left alone again.  I’m not sure what I do wrong. I listen as well as contribute equally in a conversation. I try to be sociable, understanding and kind. But the only person who really enjoys being with me is the person I’m sleeping with.

I am so tired of being lonely and feeling unwanted in friendships. Does anyone else feel this way? Or have suggestions for what I can do?

Tl;Dr: No one enjoys my presence except for who I am sleeping with at the time/SO. Why am I so lonely and does anyone else feel this way? Open to questions about me and suggestions, or even just someone who gets it who could talk to me about this.

Thanks for reading, I really appreciate you listening to me ramble. 



