Case and point
I think I’m falling to depression again, I lied to my sister, I committed impulsive behaviors, I’m thinking about death.
My family for much as they support me I think they don’t understand that I have a disease.
My mother tells me to not put so much thought about it, my dad doesn’t talk to me and my sister told me there’s enough problems at home so I shouldn’t be sad just because I want to. She is not being mean I think just misunderstood just like the rest of my family. My sister had problems with her masters so she felt sad but I wanted to tell her “at least you will smile tomorrow” I told her that but I was crying so she didn’t give to much care. I’m trying to stay strong and wait for my next appointment that is in two months, I’m trying to stay strong for the family because I’m the last glimpse of happiness to them (they think) but I’m starting to loose hope and nobody seems to talk to me besides my family. I’m sorry if I sound selfish but I had to say this and now (and I know I shouldn’t do this but I can’t do anything else) I have to put a smile on my face just so my family doesn’t know about it.