So sorry for the long, detailed post! Kinda needed to explain the backstory and I also kinda needed to vent.


I’ve been having a rough time recently so I decided to go out for the day and try to really enjoy myself. I don’t go out very often, especially since Covid hit, so this was like kind’ve a big day for me lol. I went to the zoo up in a big city that’s an hour from my rural town and driving in cities can really stress me out. I went to get ramen and bubble tea after and then I ended my day with an amazing therapy appointment. I was anxious for pretty much allll of the excursion. I was still having a good time though, getting to look at all the animals was super enjoyable. The bubble tea and ramen were amazing too. Anyway, I dress in an alternative metal-goth type of style and I’ve been really stepping up my game with it recently. Today I wore these y2k emo style flare jeans, fishnets under my black shirt, a beanie, and my platform docs. I loved my outfit and these jeans are like my favorite but I was still anxious over it, which is probably because I got stared at so much today. I have literally never had this many people stare at me before!! In the bubble tea place, this girl was actually whispering to her friend about me. Despite all this, I felt like I had a really good day but I still couldn’t calm my anxiety down. I was visibly shaking while waiting for my food and during my therapy appointment it was even worse. I didn’t feel as nervous in my mind like I normally do though. Idk, I like wasn’t freaking out all that much in my head but my body would just not stop… 
and it still hasn’t stopped 5 hours later. Just an hour ago my mother said I was visibly shaking and I didn’t even notice until she pointed it out. Right now I’m in my room listening to the rain and feeling mostly okay, maybe a tiny bit anxious, but I am still fidgeting and shaking. 

Anybody else experienced this before? I’ve had bad anxiety for 8 years and I’ve never experienced something like this. I’d love some advice on how to make it stop!!