I used to have bad undiagnosed anxiety while on the pill. I changed contraceptive methods, and about 90% went away. However, whenever stressed or worried, it still tends to come back and I fixate a lot worse than I use to before the pill. Right now I've been experiencing long-term back pain/nerve issues that appeared all of a sudden 6 months ago. I've been brushing it off since hey, I'm 24, I can beat this. But I had to go to the ER for all of the muscles in my pelvis seizing painfully 2 weeks ago.

I finally bit the bullet and left a voicemail for a pain clinic/neurologist for further investigation today, but I have to wait for Monday for any next steps. Pain has died down considerably, but there's a noticeable weakness in my right leg. Which is new. I'm home alone this weekend and kind of just freaking out since there's nothing to do and no one to socialize/be around right now. So the anxiety is rearing it's ugly head, and I'm having a hard time distracting myself.

My boyfriend knows about all of this, but I don't want to worry him considering he's organizing and attending a bachelor party this weekend out of state. My family and friends don't know to the extend this is worrying me, because their concern would be overwhelming and just feed into mine. So I'm venting to strangers here because I have to get this out.