I had a friend I was really close to but then we moved apart and eventually I noticed she would take days to respond to me and it hurt when I would see her texting others yet not replying to me. She would forget to text back in the middle of a conversation then reply days later with an entirely new conversation. I wanted to play a game with her and I gave my ID like 3 times so she could add me and we could play together but she never added me, meanwhile playing with others (people that she would often vent to me about because they treated her basically how she started treating me). I brought up my feelings a couple of times but I never got an explanation and nothing changed.

Recently she was slow with replying again and told me she wasn’t doing well. I told her that’s okay, I was there for her and asked her a couple of times if she wanted to talk but she avoided these messages so I dropped it too. It ended up being that actually didn’t reply to my texts for 2 months but in this time she was making plans with others (I’m in a group chat with her) and posting her and friends going out on social media etc so it looked like it was just me she wasn’t responding to. When she did text back, she didn’t reply to my messages from before, didn’t even acknowledge them, but would just start a new random conversation. I basically got tired of the way she was treating our friendship and stopped replying to her messages. Since I’ve already tried more than once to tell her how I feel I didn’t want to again. so it’s now been two months (bit longer) since we last spoke and I’ve been feeling so much better. 

Fast forward to now and we’re both going to an event next week, her with a mutual friend of ours (who doesn’t know what happened between us) and me with a group of my friends. The mutual friend asked if we wanted to meet up and I had to awkwardly tell him I don’t feel comfortable seeing  this girl. He said she thinks I’m upset with her but doesn’t know why but he agreed that I could see him for a bit at the event without having to meet the girl. I guess she knows I’m coming to the event and possibly knows I don’t want to meet her but doesn’t know why I’m upset. 

It’s making me feel extremely anxious. I feel guilty like I left her in her time of need after she told me she wasn’t doing well, like I was forgetting her needs and only thinking of myself and how her lack of replies hurt me. I’ve just received a text from her for the first time in like 2 months but again it’s just random conversation as though we’re still close, without even acknowledging anything that’s happened and that just…bothers me. I feel petty and mean but I just don’t want her in my life because she makes me anxious and sad  and it’s tough because our mutual friends don’t know since I don’t talk to them that much anyway and I don’t live near them and I’m not someone who likes to tell other people stuff like this if it doesn’t involve them. It only becomes awkward when it comes to things like this i.e. meet-ups 

Idk what to do I feel like a b***h