I know that this isn’t a medical forum, but I do feel that I overreact to very small things. I can stop liking a person I’ve known for months or years just because of a small harmless comment they make. I have had thoughts about suicide just because someone told me that they’re busy and dont have time to speak,  or cut myself because of an online opinion. Although I’m aware that these triggers are insignificant, I can’t help feeling miserable for days and trying to relax only made it worse. Im extremely paranoid when someone tells me I am not invited to an event or if something happened without me being informed. These doesnt happen too often because my interactions are often short and impersonal, but when they do it’s extremely exhausting. I’m mostly incapable of forming long term friendships because they always reach a low point where I feel unwanted. I took a few anxiety medication for a few months last year, but stopped because they made me feel sedated in a zombielike state. i felt that I have wasted time with the doctor and my interactions with him made me feel extremely uncomfortable, he also won’t budge on referring a psychiatrist who I have had an awful experience with. I have also done therapy but I felt that he was extremely dismissive of my problem and i wasn’t the only one who had problem with this particular one. So I have had an awful experience with mental health professional. Im a relatively passive person in real life, I never talk back when someone says things that make me uncomfortable because im afraid of what they would say back or how I would be perceived. I often fantasize about throwing my phone at them, jumping and screaming at their faces until I run out of breath, but the fact that I’m not allowed to do this just makes it really frustrating. I’m also a student in Canada, so the wait time could last for month. I don’t like being angry and sensitive, but I can’t help it, I feel like there is no way out