I’ve been feeling as though the person I used to love, I used to be happy as, I’ve almost completely detached from. I don’t feel deserving of the happiness and joy I once had, the energy and humor. I don’t know how to allow myself to exist outside of self-loathing, dullness, etc. I want to feel alive again but I feel afraid of having it. So instead, I just feel more and more that I’m losing sight of who I once was, from when I used to like myself, and now I’m adrift in whatever abyss I find myself in now.