I went into a coffee shop with a friend to get a drink. They only offer takeaway at the moment, so we stood in line waiting to order. The line was a bit of a mess, with people waiting in a clump for their drinks to be finished (maybe exaggerating, but it looked like a clump to me). Havibg rehearsed my own order in my head, when we got to the til, I realised it was pretty loud. Between me stumbling over my words and volume in the shop, the cashier struggled to hear me. I had to repeat myself two or three times. And I realised, standing in that line, that there way no way out. Not that I'd planned on leaving yet, but I tend to panic when the exit isn't immediately clear.

When we were waiting for out drinks, my friend saw I was pacing and gave me a side hug. I did calm down after a few minutes of that, and we were able to leave pretty soon after.

I feel like I won't be able to deal with life if I can't even handle ordering a drink without panicking. I feel so useless right now. A hug would be much appreciated.