I ruined the best thing that's ever happened to me. Because of my own personal issues my partner of 3 years has slowly begun resenting me and finally ended up leaving me. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, she was my world, all I wanted to do was make her happy but I did the opposite. All I do is work now, I hate being at home it feel so lonely and reminds me of what I did. I have no friends, no one to talk to, barely any family near me. I've only been able to eat a few mouthfuls of food a day, ive been cutting again which i havent done for just over 3 years. I just don't know what my purpose is anymore, I know that this is it for me. I don't know how to make friends, or how to date. I haven't had a hug in almost a week and I never knew how much I would miss it