im having an anxiety attack, but writing this is making me feel better. 

i acknowledge i fed gasoline to the flame instead of trying to diffuse the situation. i didnt understand what was happening at the moment and i let my jealousy control me, even though i have nothing to be jealous over in the first place. their jealousy rubbed off on me, but its still my fault for entertaining the fight. 

i need to control my emotions and not let their words affect me so much. i usually am more composed than this, i need more practice though. 

im trying to control my breathing and listen to my favorite songs, and im breathing easier. 

phew

sorry for the lack of context id rather not relive the moment this is just a reminder to myself for the future if this person does it again.