I read in r/askreddit that someone had developed it because as a child their sadness and anger resulted in being yelled at and that resulted in BPD. When I was younger I remember being constantly being yelled at and one of my most prominent memories of my mom is when I was crying and she pushed me into the ground and covered my mouth to the point of me not being able to breathe. Now when I’m home I feel like a stranger to myself. When I’m around my mom I get so uncontrollably angry and I lash out and I just let it be because I hate her for how our relationship turned out. But this makes more sense. I also have crazy abandonment issues that I think came from my dad dying at an early age. Another thing a few people commented on was rage when plans get canceled. It makes me so uneasy and angry when that happens, I just panic and feel almost wronged? There’s just so many things here that seem to line up. What do you guys think?