The only time my mind is at rest is when I'm asleep, my mind is constantally racing, there's moments where I have clarity and I enjoy those moments so much, but then its so easy to get distracted and go into this whole anxiety loop, where I feel so helpless,  I'm on SSRI's but still suffer so bad, I can't help but feel like there's something wrong with me, even tho I've been to the hospial so many times, just for them to tell me everything is fine.  Is this anxiety? Am I going crazy? I feel so alone.