I used to be an energetic guy, then slowly day by day, it disappeared. from 2018-2022, I feel like it got darker for me. Obviously everyone had Covid so how can i compare to what everyone was feeling. I'm a short guy, but i gained 20kilos. 

Then suddenly, 6 months ago, i found the solution. its the Triangle. Stopping drinking,  Going to sleep for a whole 8 hours, counteracts my passion for food. The triangle. Food, alcohol sleep.

 It's funny when you look after your body you feel better. (I wish i had the depression that made me thinner when I have it rather than heavier).

Recently, I've stopped gym, I eat more, I'm getting less sleep. It's all coming back. I'm spiraling again. I don't know why  but I feel worse, because I fixed myself the first time, why is it happening again? my home is a shit state. my mind is a cloud. The only thing that takes my mind off things is television, but after each episode it all comes back. 

 I keep thinking I don't have depression, that's for people who have it worse than me. But I'm not an idiot, and I can see the symptoms. I just don't know how to fix it.

It's come back, i didn't realise I had it until it has come back.

Thank you for paying attention to me.