I have been having horrible uti because of my depression in the past. Not doing proper hygiene and drinking water. Well because of that i kept getting uti.  Now I have a kiddney infection and it keeps coming back. I worry now I have Kiddney disease. The doctor said my kiddneys were fine but they found lots mycrocoptic blood. And there worried about my health. I might have to get a ultrasound to see my kidneys to see if there damage. I don’t usually cuss but wtf man? I can’t take this pain. I don’t want to deal with kiddney disease, that would mess up my chance with hrt. I would have to go off forever for health if it comes to that. Im so happy being the man I have become. Going of testosterone would be bad. Im already dealing with so much with waiting for transportation. I can’t go to the doctors because I have no ride. I don’t even have a doctor anymore. I have to sign up for a new one. Something to do with my insurance. I can’t stop scratching all over my back and kiddneys. And my spine hurts. Random cuts appear on me and I was told that was a sign of KKD? I don’t know what to do? Being trans is hard enough but now this? I have a hard time getting out of bed because of my pain. Can’t go to the doctors or er, no ride and it keeps getting worse. My family don’t believe because they said I cried wolf to many times? Well have they thought that it really is pain it just has become chronic.