Today everything happening around me became too much and i exploded in anger, i ranted and complained, i told my ex why i felt unloved in our relationship (we still talk) i got angry that i fucked up things with friends, and my ex, and after everything im riddled with guilt for making them feel bad because i talked about things in our old relationship. We talk atill because i work at there house (dog rescue) 


All i ever wanted was for them to just hold me and tell me to breathe during these moments, i even would tell them, but they wouldn't, they would just get upset and think i was making them out to be the bad guy and would apologise to make me stop, but that bothered me further because it was never a real apology, it was an attempt to make the situation end