 I had spent years away from this emptiness and had almost let it slip from memory but it’s come back and now my range of emotions have narrowed into only two emotions angry or sad it has been months but this absence remains I do not know if this is what I am now or if the phrase fake it till you make it has some actual meaning behind it I feel so lost before at least I had small sparks of hope but now I just feel myself sinking deeper. I’m sorry for the rambling I just needed to get this off my chest