I spent four years now waiting for a guy who broke up with me. One thing is, I don’t know what would make him want to come back. I once had a guy who got mad at me because I stopped working, for example, and that’s not my business. Seems like people who ignored me started talking to me again after I moved to a new house and shared family photos. I’ve really had a lot of bad things happen to me growing up. Most peers didn’t like me but I was a good student. They didn’t think I deserved to be cool or pretty or smart and it was worse in college after I left Hawaii. For some reason I notice low level sabotages declined after I moved to a new house and got fewer but more potent sabotages. I don’t think the guy I like cares about where I live. His family is very wealthy. I wouldn’t be happy if he liked me for my family photos, or who I am if none of the bad stuff ever happened. Im in my 30s now and really just want to be paid back by the time I lost waiting for him. I still look young enough that people might wonder why I’m not in school but I’m afraid of getting older and never had a chance to wear the new dresses I bought. Looking forward to my order from forever 21 to arrive. Got a corset top and duster kimono… but I’m trying to save money. I don’t think I can really hold a conversation anymore but I somehow still look like I belong in gen z. That said, I feel like people in gen z tend to really like me and I like them as well. Here is one of the new dresses I got. 

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