I miss being happy, I miss being younger when I was happy. I feel like I have too many responsibilities now and I just wish I was younger so I didn’t have to carry that burden. I constantly feel like I’m not good enough due to my severe anxiety. I’ve been so stressed I keep getting sensory overloads and I’m finding it really difficult to cope with the feeling that I’m not good enough and that I’m missing out on life. 

I keep wanting to just end my life because I know I’ll never be happy again, everyone my age has jobs or goes to college whilst sometimes I find it difficult to even shower because of anxiety/sensory issues. I’m trying my best but I always feel like I’m not good enough. I feel like I’m not meant to function in a society like this one, my body and my mind just can’t catch up with everything. 

I’m just not good enough and I never will be. I can’t even go for walks due to how bad my anxiety has been I’ve been constantly stressed that I’m having panic attacks as well.