I lost my job a little over a month ago and around that time my boyfriend broke up with me. It takes everything to even get out of bed, let alone try to find a new job. I’m drowning in debt and I’ll lose my apartment and everything else if I don’t find a job as soon as possible. I’ve never felt so helpless. I’ve been in this position before but I was strong enough to get up and solve my problems. I’m just too emotionally exhausted to dig myself out of this one. And the really sick part is that I care most about losing the person I loved. In my twisted mind I would be able to do this if I had him beside me telling me I can do it and everything will be okay. I don’t blame him for leaving me, because I became terrible and wouldn’t even want to be with me if I was him. He’s a good person who treated me well and would’ve done anything for me. I’ve done this to myself and I’m terrified.