I dont know what i did? Im just angry and confused. I downed a bunch of pills 12 hours ago that im pretty sure is very close to a lethal dose. I don't wanna tell my narcissistic mother that I've overdosed, I rather wait and do more damage. I don't know what is wrong with me but I am satisfied that i may have damaged myself internally. I might need to go to the hospital but I dont think i can handle the guilt of going back there because I overdosed about a month ago.