I finally feel like I'm well enough to go out, do shit other than sit on my ass, have fun by myself (I prefer to do things by myself, and I don't exactly have friends to hang out w anyways). but I'm stuck. I don't have my drivers license, so I can't leave and go somewhere new, or somewhere cool yk. I can't walk bc there's nowhere to go that I'm able to walk to safely (no sidewalks). I can't read bc I can't stand sitting in this goddamn house any longer. same w shows, movies, even being on my phone. outside is boiling and bug filled, it drives me mad. there's not a single hobby im able to get into. I want to experience something, anything. i want to live. I wish I didn't. sorry for the paragraph, I just rly wanted to get this off my chest.