My therapist believes I have PTSD but lately I've been reading about the traits of BPD. I don't know what I have. I made an intake appt at a behavioral health center that does individual and group DBT. I am horribly ashamed at all of the things I've done, and they all repeat in my head every day. I'm in full isolation now for 3rd week. I just have two people that do daily safety checks on me over text. I had hope that DBT and EMDR would help but reading about them sounds so hard. I am so sorry everyone that has to go through this. I didn't realize I was an abuser. I never wanted this.