i started journaling and i guess writing down all my messages i wouldve normally sent to them but its not the same and im just scared cuz its only been like 10 hours into this change and i already know im gunna end up a mess somehow from this. i dont know what to do. our situation is very complicated but we are so hella close we talk almost 24/7 and trust eachother more than almost anybody and i love them and its just all a mess. theyre scared of actual feelings so they just pretend like its totally platonic to talk 24/7 and let someone in 100% and have hella chemistry n feel like yall have lived multiple past lifes together lmao. km a fucking a mess