2nd day in a row I've had an awful day. Crying, lashing out at people. Throwing things. I want to die every day but I cant tell people that because I dont want to go to the hospital. Its only a temporary feeling anyways, until something else happens of course. 

I definitely need new coping skills.

I dont have anyone close to me that understands like you all do. So I guess thats why im posting rn cuz I feel alone.