I no longer am taking care of myself.
I really need 24 hour care.
But I hate how controlling and inhumane and stresfful hospitals can be.
I don’t like their unwarranted pre judgements against me based on diagnosis.
I don’t like patients who start shit/act gross etc
I don’t like being BORED.

What I need is a vacation with a nanny for myself hahahahahaha.

No honestly that would be great. 
I went through a lot in the last few yrs and I’m exhausted but poor and haven’t ever taken a real vacation in my life.

All I want is someone to feed me 3 X a day, wash my clothes and make my appts for the week and help clean my apt.
 I wonder if it’s possible people do that for adults haha.

In the hospital sure there is structure but it also is fucking boring and I hate being caged and having authority figures act like assholes
and patients be annoying 

I have horrible issues with anger and exhaustion lately however because I’m too irritated and tired to do jack for myself

Any ideas?


