i’m literally going fucking insane i just need someone to understand how bad everything hurts. i feel so over dramatic but god everything fucki my hurts so bad my brain goes numb. i feel crazy and broken beyond any kind line that i can come back from. this is a literal disease of the mind. no one fucking understands how badly this shit fucks you up. i’m not just fucking sad i feel like i am actually dying in the most literal sense.  episodes are a fight for my life every time i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy man