My dude, we literally just met like six hours ago, talked for a bit, and fucked. You don't even know me. I have literally zero emotional availability at the moment. I literally just wanted to be used and discarded man, I told you I'm not looking for a relationship. I'm only going to hurt you. And like, what the fuck am I supposed to do with this?? I said so many times my life is absolutely chaotic, I really don't know how to be more clear than "I'm literally crazy"!

If course he's also the nicest, most considerate guy. He's cute and fascinating and funny and so sweet and thoughtful and the sex was actually amazing. But it hasn't even been an entire day since we first met and he's already texted me about a second date? Under different circumstances I'd absolutely love to date him but that's not possible and I don't know how to get him to understand. I guess this is what I get from hooking up with a guy who isn't a literal human shit pile. Even those guys I feel bad about disappointing but this is just impossible!! I'm so lost how do I let him down nicely??? FUCK

So this was originally just a rant but if anyone has any advice please please please feel free to share cause i have absolutely no idea what to do 🥴