Everyone that I studied with in college is better than me. Some have nice jobs, others immigrated, all of them had/has relationships.

I did almost everything like them, and it seems that I can get 10% of what they have.

I just wanted a job, I already have college, but I don't know where to find it. 

I just want to put a bullet through my head, it's the only thing that makes sense to me today.