Hi!

I went to an event today that got me thinking.

I’m kind of a recluse, but really like meeting people. I went to a big event today where everyone was really friendly, but felt very nervous and barely talked to anyone.

If this was a one off I’d count it as a bad day, but when I think about it, I think I stay home a lot to just not be in that situation. When I lived in a huge city I remember having to step into a quite place at a mall a few times just because I felt so stressed with all the people there.

So. The last 10 years or so, I just don’t try to talk with anyone, and actively don’t go out.

I’m not sure, but I’m starting to think like I have an anxiety issue, and I’m not sure how to begin to deal with it.