it really feels like i can’t love anyone. any person i’ve dated/been in a talking stage with, i will randomly become repulsed by their presence. i become disgusted by them and by myself for leading them on, one day im captivated by them and the next i can’t stand to interact with them?? i feel like i can’t ever love anyone as my “love” is usually just being excited by “the chase” (period before you start dating someone) and i get addicted to the anxiousness/validation you get pre-honeymoon period. i absolutely hate it and it feels like i can never love anyone romantically. 
does anyone feel the same and/or does anyone have any advice?