First time posting ever so sorry if I'm doing it wrong. 
I've struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. It's bad, people can't always tell or believe it's bad because for the most part on the outside I carry it well I guess. Besides at home when I'm in a bad mood a lot which I feel terrible about. Most of the time it's not even that I'm in a bad mood, I just feel so suffocated with my thoughts and worries I guess I just don't show much emotion on the outside. 
Lately I feel like my world has been imploding. I feel doom constantly, I'm dealing with medical stuff and money stuff that I don't see ending well, even worry it will turn into law stuff. My husband doesn't seem to like me very much lately and I worry I'm not being a good mom. I have friends but no one I can really confide in and my family's in another state. My anxiety literally makes me sick to my stomach, I'm in constant pain and have zero energy, like eyes rolling while standing sometimes that I try so hard to hide and power thru the day and I know I'm still failing at everything I do. I guess I needed to get it out and felt this was a good place to say it. Thanks for listening. 
P.s if anyone has coping mechanism that work for them I'd love to hear them.