Never posted here before, but here i go. I've been struggling a lot in my relationship recently. A couple weeks ago I was diagnosed with BPD, though a couple months ago is really when the problem started. Me and my boyfriend are currently in a long distance relationship, however me going to college is going to make the distance even further. Once I committed to the school I'm heading to, we considered breaking up right there. We didnt, but the idea never left our minds (or at least not mine). I don't know what i want in my life right now. Whether that's because the bpd or just big changes in my life in general idk, but H E L P. I've tossed the idea of breaking up with him around in my head for a month or two now. Yet, everytime I think about doing it, i can't. I go through periods where I talk about spending the rest of my life with him, and ones where I dread talking to him (which is a cycle i commonly go through with other people in my life, ex: friends). The thing is, he's pretty much the perfect boyfriend. He tries his best to support me however he can, and absolutely loves me to death. And I don't know what I'd do without him, so what do I do now?