I live alone, have no friends in the city. The friends whom I hangout with make fun of my job, salary, and how did I get a girlfriend and try to belittle me everytime. 
I have a girlfriend who has a better job than me and we are in LDR and often I'm teased of not being compatible with her.
Me and my so are happy when together but for most of the times we aren't. I'm often told I must always stay busy but I couldn't substitute emptiness with work. Emptiness is always there deep within. 

I don't think I'll get to her level anytime. Only thing I get from my friends is hate. I dont see people for days at a stretch. Sometimes I feel like anything will be better than this void. Road must end here. Even she'll get a better looking, earning guy. Nobody else anyways gets affected. Life will continue.

I don't think I'd be here again to reply anyone. Bye.