I put myself and my dog is danger today. Chose to walk along some rocks on the beach thinking the waves wouldn’t get harder and higher. One hit us and thankfully I was able to keep us safe and then get us to a safe place. I don’t know why I took this risk and am paralyzed with beating myself up for it. I’m trying to tell myself I’m human, that we got through it, that o won’t let anything else like this happen… I’m still baffled as to how / why I made this stupid mistake. Now in a state of shock, confusion and self-loathing.