I have lots of health problems including depression and suicidal thoughts, I try so hard to control it. I just saw a post and it triggered me so much that I can't stop the pain and getting it to leave my head. A few years ago I had a dog who was the sweetest and best, she was a yellow labrador. I have lots of health problems and she was always so comforting. One of my health issues I have makes me very weak and exhausted very easily, I also get brain fog also. I can't believe I'm writing this I hate it so much but I need to get it out. One day I let my dog out it was a nice sunny day of 45 degrees, chilly but where I'm from that is not super cold to us. She was outside playing and happy. I decided to go back in, leaving him out for a bit. I decided to sit down because I only got a few hours of sleep and I was getting dizzy. That's when stupid me just passed out, forgetting my baby was outside. I woke up and thought I just fell asleep for maybe a minute. Looked out the window and realized the temp dropped and it was pouring rain for about I'd guess an hour and a half. I ran out there and my dog was laying down completely out of it and wouldn't get up, drove to the vet and she passed away when she was brought in. I broke down in tears and the vet said she's not certain that the cold caused this but thought there was an underline illness because he was there weeks before and looked great on the outside. So many keep saying it's not my fault I was sick and things like this happen, to this day I'm still broken and miss her so much and can't help but worry that it was all my fault that she died and it wasn't an underline issue. I'm finally healthier and getting so much better and I miss having a dog around, I feel like I don't deserve another and I'm a terrabble person.