What do y‘all do in your lifes? Are you able to follow your dreams?

I don‘t know what to do with my life. On one day, I want to be a journalist, the next an artist. I really can‘t decide and switch from hobby to hobby and from interest to interest. The only thing I know is that I won’t ever be happy with my full time 40 hour job, because I feel like a slave when working for others and like I‘m wasting my time. The only difficult thing for me is just finding to an interest and go for it on a continuum without switching my mind. I suppose I am not the only one who feels like this (Haha typical
BPD symptom so fun :))) and maybe someone can give advise or share experience on how‘d they find their way or just got happy with what they are doing with their lifes? I‘d love to know.