Hi. I'm 30 and male. I live with my older sister who married and has 3 kids. I make enough to help out but haven't really decided if I wanna move out. I've lived on my own before and it was fun but I wasn't taking care of myself and I made alot of bad decisions that ultimately led me to my current living situation.  I have hobbies and friends but I still wake up every day wanting to kill myself. Am I a loser?