I don't know if this is true or not. I don't even know if this is happening right now. I can't tell if I am real or not or all of this is a dream. But nobody is believing me.

Dunno if anyone else has this but every time I have tranexamic acid to stop my bleeding, I dissociate. I had to take it today because it's been a month and my periods won't stop. I dunno wtf is happening. I am exhausted. I hate feeling like this.

Last time I had it, I dissociated for 3 hours, got paranoid that I was having a stroke and ended up in emergency. They said it is not a stroke and that I am just anxious. But the symptoms were so fucking real. Now, I am dissociating again. The drug is supposed to be safe but why the fuck am I dissociating then? Am I just imagining everything? Is it not actually because of the drug? I mean, I do have BPD but it only happens when I take the drug.

Am I crazy? Wtf is wrong with me?