I can't handle my gf hanging around orher people wirhour me. 
I dont wanr ro control her or manipulate her, irs nor that at all.
But if she goes out wirh friends i will cry and scream.for HOURS.
The emotional pain is unbearable.
I have horrid abondonment issues due to ptsd and bpd. 
I flip my shir.
I get really mad at her and me tjen i jisy cry.
I donr do any of it to be manipulative or fake it i genuily cant help it. 
Makes me nauseas and even causes self harm urges. 
My gf understands this luckily, shes very compassionate. We just hangout with people together.
Idk.