Like being a pwBPD who has also been in a lot of toxic and abusive relationships, I feel like I always have my guard up or I'm quick to think someone has ulterior motives.

Like I made a friend in the past couple months and I can confidently say it's one of the healthiest interpersonal relationships I've had. But he's been showing some red flags recently and I can't tell if they're actually red flags or if it's just me being paranoid.

I want to trust my instincts, but it's so hard to do when this disorder and my past experiences still have such a heavy influence on my thinking.