Sounds like a vibe right? It was, but as usual I was in an anxious state most of the time.

However, this time I told myself - fuck it, I’m going to try and ignore my mental pain and just brush all that aside. I finally tried to do what my therapist keeps saying, which is to not think so much about the anxiety at all. Accepting whatever I was facing already truly worked better than I’d imagined even though there were, of course, moments when I was inevitably frustrated.

I came home feeling satisfied and less empty overall. Yes, I’m still anxious often, I’m still always more uncomfortable than the average person would be, but tonight I learnt that I can work my way through anxiety, even if recovery obviously doesn’t come so soon. I know I still have a long way to go but tonight I feel a bit more hopeful :)