I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar, ADD, C-PTSD, Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and, in the past, an unspecified dissociation disorder. 

The doctors in the mental hospital, my current therapist, the therapist I saw once, my mom, and apparently a therapist I saw last year all agree I am a “little bit of everything”. I’m scared they won’t find what’s wrong with me bc of this or think that I’m making it up. I know they are right bc I AM a little bit of everything, but I feel like they don’t know where to go from there.

I occasionally have voices in my head, auditory and visual hallucinations, crippling anxiety (it immediately skips to me almost blacking out and getting hot flashes), outbursts of anger/sadness/emptiness, lack of emotion including empathy, sadness, guilt, happiness, and everything besides anger, irritation, and boredom. 

Ever since I was young, my mom always told me I change too much for other people. I have always been able to easily completely change my personality, interests, even my speech patterns, more often than not for other people. When I dated a sociopath, I started developing my emotionless traits. They heavily came out when we broke up. I was emotionally abused, heavily bullied by everyone (including authority figures), brushed off. I was s*exually abused in my early teens by someone with bipolar disorder. All of this (and a list of stuff I don’t feel like typing rn) has led me to believe I have BPD but when I bring it up with my therapist, she says she doesn’t think so. I’m so lost I just want to know what’s wrong with me. Does anyone have any advice or theory’s?