I have polycystic ovaries. 
And I wasn’t stressed about it but tonight I just… fell down a rabbit hole. They can cause irregular periods. Not having a period for a while can cause endometrial cancer. 
PCOS also causes weight gain or the inability to loose weight. It can potentially cause infertility. I’m already trying to lose weight but now this is just stressing me out more because what if my efforts are pointless? 
What if I stay a fat ass forever, eventually get vagina cancer and can’t have biological children? 

Then there’s the fact that being fat has it’s own list of things it can effect. Heart disease. Diabetes. All sorts of cancers. High blood pressure. 
Some of these, I’m already genetically at risk to. 
 
I have the insane urge to hit the gym even though it’s midnight. And I know anorexia is a awful, killer disease but I looked up “can you be anorexic until you reach your goal weight?”. I know that’s fucking stupid and I wouldn’t. But I’m paranoid about just everything above and dying of SOMETHING.