I'm in a bit of financial trouble after my cat had a medical emergency. A couple people have offered a little assistance, but the idea of accepting the offer makes me wanna rip my hair out. The help is appreciated, and at this point I'm in a place where it's almost necessary.

I was thinking on that after staying up all night and it dawned on me its probably because my parents hammered into my brain that I was expensive, and financially draining them. 

My dad withheld money from me and my mom growing up. I'm still not sure if this was a punishment or he overspent on beer and lottery tickets. It caused my mom a lot of anxiety either way.

He denied paying for several necessary medical procedures over the years, while I was still a minor and had approval from doctors and insurance. 

Money is power I guess.