But today, I took my $100 dollars, bought myself a couple of items that have been sitting on my wishlist for a while, took a long bath and applied for jobs. I get so blinded by the need to cope immediately that I forget to slow down enough to let myself cope in a way that isn’t self damaging. I know this won’t get replies or anything, I just wanted to document the moment for myself. I’m not okay but I’m doing better than I would have face deep in Coke.