I’ve (26f) had severe depression for the last 2 years and can’t seem to get out. I’ve gained a massive amount of weight, appx 100 pounds in that time frame and have completely gotten to a point of not recognizing myself. I have been very self depreciating and lacking any self esteem , always feeling like I am a burden to others and someone that could be easily thrown away. I can’t take any more of this pain but can’t seem to get out of my spiral. I do try to keep my magic for life and love going, but can’t tell if the depression is too severe to handle on my own or if I’m just making excuses so that it seems unmanageable. Either way, I feel stuck and unsure how to move forward another step due to the amount of pain I carry everyday.