I was diagnosed with BPD a few days ago after getting very close to killing my self.. close enough that my only option to keep myself safe was to go to the ER. I have never met with a psychiatrist but after he talked to me and asked various questions for over an hour he told me I have BPD. Here is the thing.. I have these intrusive thoughts where I feel like I’m making up this illness in my head.. I think I’m fine and somehow faked it and I don’t have it.. I don’t know if this is denial and I am hoping someone can share their thoughts or similar experiences. For more context, I do believe I have a lot of symptoms that align with BPD such as drug abuse, self harm, suicidal thoughts, unstable relationships etc. My friends dad has BPD, it is very extreme and when I told her she had a hard time accepting it and told me I should get a second opinion. I know something is wrong in my head but I don’t know if thoughts like this are common for people recently diagnosed with this illness.