My family are the only people in my life that I still have contact with, I don't have friends at least not anymore.
 I ghosted every best friend I had for no reason at all just out of no where I don't even know why, which is stupid because I consider myself an introvert who can't create relationships or open up easily so to have more than true friend in my life and then just cutting them off is something I hate myself for. And I wish I could do the same with my family, everytime I meet one of my parents I feel like they are waiting for me to get better or to achieve something and make them proud and I just can't. They don't pressure me or anything which is something I'm grateful for, but they look at me like they expect so much from me and I'm too tired to do anything to even save my life and therapy is sadly something I can't afford ( I went once for diagnosis and that was it) and I'm not sure how much difference it'll make anyway.

If anyone here managed to handle depression without going to therapy, how did you do it? I just don't know what to do anymore.