I've met someone a week and a half ago and we really hit it off, but it scares me to death.  
My abandonment issues are flaring up and I want to hide under covers. Yesterday, he told me he was feeling down when I asked him about his day (he reached out to me at the end of the day) and instead of doing the healthy thing of "He reached out cause he wanted to talk to me and feel better", I went directly to "He feels down because of us".

On Sunday evening, he told me he really likes me in a moment of vulnerability. And I'm supposed to be happy about it, but I'm scared. It can't be real. We keep on texting, we have plans to see each other on Friday (or during the week-end), but I'm about to cancel everything and hide. I'm afraid of getting hurt again and again.  


I just want support at this point. My mental state even on meds isn't working right now. With everything happening, it's hard. I know I want to make this work but I feel smothering, I feel heavy, I feel so dumb. The feelings are burning. I don't think I deserve his love. I'm sure he's lying without any reason to believe so. I just want to hide.