Well, if this is a place that can offer help, I'm more than happy to be here. 

So, I've dealt with depression for the past year and a half facilitated by many things in life that have been thrown my way and have stacked over my 26 years of life. My cat passed away about a year ago which finally pushed me to discover what really makes my soul happy, which I found is acting. So, I started taking classes but found my ability to work started to stagnate, so I did what anyone with mental health does, and I picked up a therapist. She's been a very huge help, but my brain is the bigger problem here, so I recently started Neurotherapy. 

In the meantime, I've very much enjoyed how much my soul, body, mind, and heart get joy and happiness from acting (even the darker side of it). As I've experienced depression and other mental health issues, I want to be able to use this platform for acting to make a difference, that's what I truly want to do and I believe I can. But I find my biggest hurdle to cross, is being able to actually do my scene study. 

I sit in a relatively quiet room with my scripts next to me, ready to work...........but I can't do anything. I can't pick it up to read lines, I can't write anything down, I can't build character, I just CAN'T. I begin to fall down a self-destructive pit where I best myself up on wasting time and the people I'm disappointing. I don't have parents to talk to about depression or acting, I don't have friends that are willing to lend a hand with acting, and I only have one friend actively suffering with depression to help give me perspective. 


I'm wondering if there's anyone out in the subreddit that can share what has helped them when they have a strong dream but find it hard to take the first steps to progress as everything seems daunting. Or when you want to do something so bad, but mentally can't....how to actually do it. Or even long term positive mental attitude ways of looking at things. I have no perspective, and I have no idea how to do this on my own, and it's torture. 

Any help, advice, love, or anything really, would be so appreciated I wouldn't be able to stop saying thank you....but in advance, I really appreciate it.