The main reason I am is because I live in a good situation and neighborhood, Why can’t it be someone else who’s smarter, kinder, and an overall better person? 

The only thing I’ve done in my life is bring others down and complain, whine, and be a stupid spoiled brat who’s just asking for more stuff.

The biggest reason right now is what my mom is going through. She is the sweetest and kindest person ever, But recently my mom and dad got divorced. Then my mom got together with another man and he recently broke up with her. 

Now I find the kindest person ever crying on the floor while all I can do is give my awful attempts and comforting her.

I just wish that my mom had given birth to a better human being unlike me, I don’t know what to do and just wish someone else would be in my shoes so they could have a better life.

There are so many other people who have gone through, Death, hardships, and struggles who deserve to be where I am.

The funny thing is that I’ve been thinking about offing myself lmao, maybe if I did that the people in my life could finally be at peace knowing that I’m dead.