i started a new job a few weeks ago. Something on the career path I have wanted for a few years now, and more pay/benefits than I have ever had. But the job is one of the most stressful things I have ever been through.

Through the constant lack of confidence in myself, I am always stressed out that I am not qualified for the job as I am finding it really difficult and falling behind. It has been 2 weeks and I already feel like I am burning out.

I had my dream job once before several years ago, and I let my personal problems ruin that for me along with a friendship. It completely broke my confidence for years, and I want to do everything I can to not go through that again.

One of the main things I was excited for with this job was the ability to finally afford a therapist and maybe drugs to treat my anxiety and depression. I was thinking I might start this process soon, but I keep hearing about how drugs have a lot of bad side effects. I am worried that this might push me over the edge when it comes to my work. My fear is that I will make my job experience worse to the point that I lose the job.

I guess I should talk to a therapist first to get their opinion.