I’m literally at the end of my rope. I’ve been looking for a better job for about two months now. 

Some background info:

My dad called me and my older sister down to talk to us about how frustrated he is with our job search. I tried to express to him that I’m also frustrated with the entire situation but I’m trying my absolute hardest (applying to TWENTY+ jobs a DAY!). He said he didn’t want to hear excuses, he just wants results. I said well, you should extend some grace because I’m literally doing the best I can. I’ve been having a lot of health issues lately (recently got diagnosed with endometriosis…PAINFUL!) I had to go see other specialists because of that diagnosis. So I’m doing my absolute best but that’s apparently not good enough. I basically had to scream and beg them (both of my parents) to take my pain seriously. They still don’t. 

But anyways, back to the situation. Apparently I said the “wrong” thing because next thing I know, my dad is screaming, cussing, slamming his fists against the wall telling me to get the fuck out. He bulldozes his way towards me with his fists raised. My heart is racing but at this point I don’t care. If he hits me, I’m swinging back. So I tell him, you wanted to have this conversation but this is how you react? You should work on that. And proceed to remove myself from the situation. He literally chases me upstairs still screaming at the top of his lungs, threatening me and all this other bullshit. He proceeds to say that I need an exorcism and he’s going to get rid of all the demons in me. My mom got in between us and forcefully pushed me towards my room. So I just went in there and stayed. 

He later came to me with an “apology” saying that Satan is attacking our family. That’s BULLSHIT. You just like using religion as an excuse for your shitty behavior. 

I’m so over this whole situation. Still applying to more jobs, reaching out to connections I have. But I need to get out…and SOON! 

This is taking a MASSIVE toll on my mental health. I can’t do this anymore. Encouraged them to do family therapy with me…didn’t work because THEY believe they don’t have anything they need to work on. This shit is so fucking toxic and disgusting. 

It’s taking such a toll on my mental health. Does anybody have any advice? Been through something similar? I need all the help I can get.