(21 F) So this was a few years ago, but I'm wondering if cutting off an FP can be traumatic. We were best friends for 6+ years, for the first 2 or 3 I was in love with her and we were very codependent. I still have love for her, for the good times we had and everything, yknow?

She treated me horribly the entire time. Verbal abuse, manipulation, saying I deserved worse than death when I told her family she was planning suicide. That happened a couple times actually. The whole 9 yards though.

I cut her off after going back and forth on it for a few weeks. For the past almost... 5 years I have periodically intensely missed her, considered reaching out, I've had dreams where we're friends again, I've cried about it a few times. All my friends and family tell me to get over it. How do I forget her? Am I still overly attached? She had good in her, I wish her well, I hope she's improved as a person. But I hate that I can't just move on.