When I reflect on my life decisions thus far, I realise many have been made out of a fear of failure/embarrassment/discomfort, and in many ways it’s really mutilated my quality of life, however I don’t necessarily feel the physical effects of anxiety stronger than the average person seems to, and I have an easy enough time talking to strangers and doing every day things - the problem
Is more that I back down from more significant challenges or things that might damage my fragile self esteem; applying for certain jobs, committing to a relationship, releasing the music I write, moving cities or countries.

Does that still seem like a form of anxiety?