So, first, I want to apologize in advance if I flaired incorrectly or have broken a rule.  I hope not, but please let me know if I'm off-base here.  I'm new around here!  I read the rules, so I think I'm okay...

I'm 35 years old.  I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 15, but no one ever brought BPD up until I saw a therapist a couple of years ago.  I'm still learning about it.  It's so strange as you start on the journey of discovery and you look at your past behaviors with new eyes, understanding why you may have made the choices you've made.  

To be honest, lately I've been having a really rough time in general.  I'm not the greatest at making friends anyway, but it's been a really upsetting thing to deal with in light of what's going on around us and how tense and upset everything else is.  My husband told me earlier that I've been extremely distant and disconnected the last few days and that he was feeling himself getting impatient with me, so he wanted to talk about what was going on.  After our discussion, he told me it might be smart to reach out and join some subreddits related specifically to things like my BPD that might help me meet others who understand what I'm going through better and find a sense of belonging and community.  

So.. here I am!  And now I feel awkward and don't know what to do with my hands, so there's that.  Looking forward to exploring the sub and getting some insight on this disorder and how people cope with it every day!