I've no trust in my family to talk to them about anything, I have one friend who basically only talks to me because we work together, and basically all other friends are and have been online.

I can't trust them, everyone I talk to just ghosts me 74 people in the last two years, like 9 in the last few months.

No matter how genuine I am, no matter how hard I try to be different, or change, they just stop responding randomly, slowly taking longer and longer, short responses...eventually people just leave, no matter how long we talk 

It doesn't matter what they say anymore, I've heard every promise, every "I wouldn't do that" variation, every "I like talking to you", 

Nothing but lies baiting me to make me feel good or something.

I'm tired, I'm so afraid of going back to the absolute silence of having literally zero people to go to, for anything...but at this point I literally just don't believe people or trust anyone about anything they say about me or our relationship.

I know nobody cares, nobody read this, and I'm just talking to myself...but it's not like I have anyone else.

I'm done, from now on I will just isolate myself again, no more believing people.