Spilled lemonade done the back of my fucking Mac, 10 mins later it makes noises and lets off a fucking burning smell and turns off. 8pm, right before I need to start getting ready for New Year's Eve. Hysterical crying because again I am wasting my parents' money. End up going out still. Stay for 2.5 drinks and barely an hour before having to go home because I made myself pukey and headachey from crying so much. Get home, puke. Go to bed alone. Wake up alone. Boyfriend has had a great night taking fucking Coke with everybody else. Everybody else on my fucking facebook and their brother went out. I fucking want to die. Happy fucking new year. Fuck everybody. 