To my FP,

You don't understand how much you mean to me. I wish you understood how much I cared but at the same time, I know I would just scare you off.  Anything you do even in the slightest can set me off because I fear you will hate me or leave me. I wish I didn't have to put you through this, but I can't help but feel this way. I wish I didn't, but it fills the void inside of me. I feel empty without you. You are like that father figure that I have never experience from my own father. My own father chooses my shitty mother over me. He hardly takes time to spend time with me and when he does, he displays narcissist traits. I know it's awkward that I see you that way, but you must see where I am coming from. I know you have a family of your own and I do not want to get in the way. I am sorry for being so clingy and expect too much from you. If I could get rid of my FP syndrome and BPD traits I would. But I just cannot help but seek to you for validation and support. And plus, you don't even know that you're my FP. Let alone my BPD. It's all too stigmatized. If I told you this, you would be so confused and hell even scared of me.