Can’t help it. Whenever I’m about to go to sleep all I can think are bad thoughts, but when I wake up in the morning I’m okay. My face gets hot, I get this awful pit in my stomach, I just want to curl up in a ball….. Anyways, Staying at their house this weekend and just walked down on my parents, both 60+, asleep watching TV together. Even worse, I can’t imagine one of them dying before the other. They do everything together and it makes me want to break down and cry thinking about it. Every day.

I can’t imagine my life without them and I can’t even begin imagine what their lives would be like without each other. I can’t bear the image of one of them watching TV, eating dinner, or going to bed without the other. My parents haven’t been alone in 35 years :(