After witnessing how my family ignored my call for help for being suicidal or getting mocked and being called disgusting cuss words for being suicidal i simply became numb, i feel like my soul is crushed , i feel traumatized, i can't cry, I don't feel anything at all, one of my worst fear is cockroach, if i see a cockroach in my bed i would literally touch it without feeling any fears, that's how numb I've become, i think I'm a lost cause


I wish i had a good family, i envy you people who had good family