can't help but feel like i should've told my counselor earlier, although i'm not sure how much difference it'd make. i'm going to see a psychiatrist but only after the quarter ends. i really don't want a failing grade, because a program i'm in requires that i don't have any fails. if i didn't have these symptoms, i could certainly pull through because i have many times in the past.

to be honest, i don't even think i feel too anxious about the deadline itself, or the work itself. at least i'm not aware of any anxiety regarding that stuff if it's there. it's just that i feel so out of control and i just want to do something about this.

it's also really cold so i just want double the hugs man