Gut wrenching never ending silence.. 
Its haunting and cold.. 
Its so loud.. 
It wont stop.. 
An empty void that cant be filled.. 
I don’t know where to go.. 
Theres nowhere to hide.. 
Its always there..
Screaming in the back of my head.. 
I feel lonely in a crowded room..
None can hear me..
None can help me..
Im too far away..
Its been so long..
I dont want to fight anymore.
Im not gunna win.
Im tired of running.
I hear it calling me. 
Its getting louder.
Maybe ill be safe in there.
Maybe it will all stop.
It will hurt but I won’t feel it.
I AM NOT OKAY.