Hello. I am neurotic with symptoms of anxiety disorder and has mild¿ suicide ideation. 

I am generally better the last 6 months. I have taken the past year off college to focus on taking care of myself. I went to therapy but had recently stopped so I could afford to go to school again this year. 

I think I have been doing well in implementing lifestyle changes that improve my mental well-being such as setting clear boundaries, reaching out, and eating, which is one of my biggest challenges. 

I still struggle to be consistent in aspects of taking care of myself but I wonder what changes do you suggest or have tried that helped you a lot in continuing to live?

I struggle in finding joy or even interest in living and in times of difficulty, still ideate my death. I know I'm sick and that is something I should fix. I hope you could help me with your answers. They don't have to be big since small changes are more sustainable and less overwhelming. Thank you :-)