Growing up I’ve been used, lied to, and manipulated by people. I’ve been cheated on many times, had so many failed relationships, and am so fucking lonely. Recently I’ve found a person that I’ve gotten attached to. I’m literally obsessed in an unhealthy way. I don’t know why I’m like this but I get so fucking clingy and attached to that person that it makes me cry and hurt myself when I fuck things up.

My extreme fear of abandonment is killing me. It hurts so bad every day. But I guess I’m about to lose her to. This loneliness has made me a bitter person, and I can’t trust people anymore. I wish I was a different person.