Do any of you argue with your pych about your diagnosis? A few years ago I stayed in the psych ward for a week and the psych there said I had GAD, MDD, and BPD traits. Well I easily dismissed it when I found out he had diagnosed 2 other women there with BPD and he told me he went to a convention about BPD before I got admitted . So I thought what is BPD traits anyway? Everyone has traits of disorders without having it and he’s just diagnosing the women with BPD because he went to a convention and is weirdly into BPD. 

Fast forward to now, been with this psych for a year and a half. I know they do a thorough job with diagnosis because I had a 2 hour appointment at the start and never had a mental health team provide such good care and attention to me but I still can’t accept it and I ask him all the time if I really have it. He also added some diagnosis which makes me think this is just ridiculous. So now I have BPD, GAD, MDD, PSTD, and social anxiety disorder. How can it be possible that I have ALL that? 

It makes me hate myself. I called them and went through every diagnosis and their symptoms to tell them I don’t have all that to only to realize I do have them based on the criteria. Now I’m on 5 psych meds and they have helped me a lot with self harm and stuff. 

I just can’t cope with this. I can’t tell anyone I have it. I really just wanna die. I can’t unalive myself because my mom and kids would blame themselves but I just want it to happen naturally and I pray all day long for god to just take me. I’m just hurting so bad and life is so hard, I’m not good at living.