I guess how I got here is unimportant but I am well and truly stuck. I'm in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way back (though she certainly seemed that way while I was getting myself in this trap). And now I'm in a horrible situation where being friends with her hurts so much, like I can't describe it. I keep falling more and more in love and it's tearing me apart that she's not. I know it's only a matter of time before she starts seeing someone and I spend all my free time thinking about dying. I try to cut her off sometimes but I can't bare that either, and I can't shake the feeling that this situation is going to kill me, I don't see any other way out. 

I'm in therapy but while I'm in that room it's like I'm a different person, I can't even remember how I've been feeling really, but as soon as I step out it's back. I've talked to my friend and tried to get her to talk to me about it but she says she's not the right person for it. I just want to not die but she's not willing to help me find a way through it.

I really really need some help before it's too late idk what to do