Hey guys I have bipolar 1 and due to mania I decided to just stop taking all of my meds for almost two months. This obviously went absolutely terrible and I started hallucinating and doing crazy stuff. Anyways my question is where can I start at getting better? I've never been healthy or happy since being diagnosed but Ive at least been less terrible. My list of things to fix include cleaning my house, actually eating a meal, showering and getting a job since I quit during a mania induced rage. Where do I even start? I'm doing so bad nothing feels worth it and I'm thinking about just laying in bed until I rot away.