Since I was around 11 I’ve dealt with really bad depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I struggled also with a really bad self harm problem. I’m about to turn 18 next month and I’m terrified and really depressed about it. I’ve been clean from sh for a year now and Im no where near as depressed as I was when I was younger but I’ve been getting depressed about the fact I’m almost an adult, with responsibilities like figuring out college and jobs. But as a young teen I grew up so depressed I lost my motivation for life and hobbies. I feel like most kids grow up learning a sport, instrument, or some type of hobby but I spent those years depressed and thinking I wasn’t going to make it to my next birthday. Now I’m here and I have no talents or hobbies. I have no idea what I want to do as a future job Bc I never really learned anything.. I don’t want to end up working a job I hate.. idk