It’s been years since I had friends. I don’t even have an acquaintance. My own family doesn’t care for me and instead put me down every chance they get. I have no support system. My dad is an abusive asshole who doesn’t give a fuck about me and never has. He hates me and I don’t even think he would be sad if I died. I try to talk to my mom about how I feel and she just doesn’t seem to want to listen and understand me. I told her I’m depressed and she said that she is too and everyone is depressed. When I told her I wanted to kill myself she told me to do it soon. No one cares about me. I don’t know why I bother staying alive. I’ve been depressed for years. I don’t have anything to offer, I’m just a failure. I should be doing so much more but I have no drive and I have social anxiety that has destroyed my life. I really don’t see myself making it to 25. I didn’t even see myself making it this far.