It’s happened for the fourth time now, 

I’ll get a new job, injure myself and need surgery, and have some sort of strange breakthrough but this time is the first time I’m conscious enough to be aware that the pattern seems to keep repeating. I don’t know how to get out of the loop though and I’m worried I’ll slip away again.
 
I already felt like I was hanging on by a thread and this new job was the new exciting thing to focus my energy on, and then I crashed my car on the way home from my first shift and am now recovering with a fracture in my spine. The injuries always seem to happen right after I start a new job, is this just a sign that I need to slow down and shouldn’t be working these jobs in the first place? Idk. I need to know if anyone else seems to experience these strange patterns.