The last month or so I been struggling to be motivated in be alive, everyone around me has a significant other that shows them any kind of emotion, not only love, but close friendship and so on. The only time a girl showed me what I thought was love it was actually her trying to get over her ex and falling for him again, cheating on me in the process. And I'm still thinking about her. I feel miserable, alone, it's like everyone don't give a shit about me, sometimes not even my family cares about my mental health, they just asume that's how I've always been. I don't know how to keep finding excuses to wake up next day anymore.