i took a ton of pills and woke up in my puke the next day and i just continued my life as normal. i went to work the next day, told no one, and acted like nothing happened. i don’t see this as a second chance or anything, i just don’t know what to do from here. i’m not going to go to the mental hospital and i’m not going to tell anyone but it feels weird just continuing life like nothing happened. i’m going to wait awhile before i try to kill myself again but now it feels weird existing. nothing has changed and i don’t know how i’m supposed to feel or how i’m supposed to exist now