I’ve always had depression and anxiety. In 2018, I thought I’d hit my lowest. I was extremely depressed and didn’t have any hope. I started therapy and I started studying for my Masters in Computer Science. I started working out for 2 hours a day 4 days a week. I slowly recuperated by the time it was 2020 and I graduated with a good GPA and a job in pandemic times. I really thought I recovered. I moved to a bigger home with my spouse and within 6 months, my anxiety crept up from somewhere. I had given up working out because of the pandemic and gyms closing and stopped going to my favorite cycle class as it got shut down. I worked out at home for the next few months and thought that I’m getting better. But the anxiety is always lurking. I usually get major anxiety attacks on Sunday nights or after a vacation. I feel I’m alone in my head though I have a loving family. I just want to stop feeling this anxiety and live freely. I just don’t have the strength to finish my tasks at work and finish chores at home. My therapist is really good and I get a lot of respite but I just want to stop feeling this weight in my chest