Hello folks, I talked about my conflicts some days ago here and I have sorta an update to everything:

i've decided to slowly phase out contacts who provoked me or i may end up provoking with my behaviour so I won't go out n lash on them, even though I have to use discord server muting and unfriending some peeps.

Today I was talking about it towards a "mutual friend" of mine who was criticzing my behaviour towards one of my former friends, as they were digging up stuff from the past and me getting annoyed of it, and asked him why theyd do it in public. While I didnt got a honest answer, they didnt wanted to go into an argument appearantly, so i let it be and left the call for now they were in.

But i still think its bugging me that its a week in of self restrainment and people still seem to think im out for conflict because people around me saw me while my borderline self was triggered. I just wonder how i can untangle the situation as I don't want to leave a friendscircle cause of one conflict like this.

is it maybe because its too obvious that i am restraining my true emotions? im not sure.