I'm getting back in treatment for the millionth time, but my doctor is booked until my appt in January for medication. 

I've been having approximately 2 or more melt downs a day and I'm just trying to make it easier before I am able to get help.

One little instruction or criticism and I'm crying hysterically, ready to kill myself and it's damaging my parter's (and of course my own) well-being. 

I don't want to get admitted again this year. I should've stayed in treatment, but I thought I was better. 