I disgust porn in general. I don't know why, but I just find it so weird that people watch it and masturbate to it and think it's nice. I think it's gross and horrible and pathetic if I'm really honest, but I know everyone watches porn so I guess I'm the stranger.   


Anyway, my so (M25) and I (F22) live in the same house. We live in a big student house, so we have our own rooms. The thing is his room is next to mine, so whenever he locks his door I can hear it and I know he will watch porn and masturbate.  And I just can't deal with it.   


Everytime I realise he does that  he becomes very unattractive to me and I just get overwhelmed by all the disgust I feel. One time I caught him watching it, because he didn't lock his door so i though I could just come in, and I couldn't believe my eyes and felt like breaking up.   


Also I accidentaly opened one of his porn maps on his PC when I tried to find a game. The map is basically in the bookmarks bar and I clicked wrong (it didn't say porn, so I had no clue). I didn't click any links, but saw some titles and I felt like threwing up. Now everytime I see that map on his browser, which happens a lot, I feel gross about him. 

Now, ofcourse, I don't want to forbid him anything or whatsoever. And he can jerk off as many times as he wants, I masturbate aswell - it's totally fine and I want to be cool with it. I just can't seem to get rid off this disgust feelings. How the hell do I deal with this?

I try to not think about it, because that seems the easiest option but I can't ignore it when I know he's watching.  I told him I could hear whenever he would watch it and told him I find it hard, but that didn't bring any solution. Besides this is totally my problem, but I'm kinda lost. 

Whenever my friends or roommates talk about porn I just zone out and stop listening or leave the room. It makes me feel like such a weirdo because it's obviously totally normal for everyone, but I find it really fucking gross and it makes me kinda hate all humans haha. I also notice I get grossed out a lot by men who objectify women. Like how they stare at boobs and everything, goddddddd it makes me sick.   


For the record: i like sex and all, i have a high libido (much higher than my bf), but it's not the same to me.   


I wonder if other people can relate or know some coping strategies. It's not a dealbreaker at all, but I'd really like to stop to feel like this about him because he is amazing.