I had a really crappy day. To make this short, I went through   various mood swings that caused  me to isolate myself from the world, again. I went from crying my eyes out because I was miserable, to feeling extremely angry, punching the  walls of my room with my fists to feel better. 
My mom came to my room and asked  me something, but I didn't answer her. I was not there mentally talking. Idk if you have ever felt the same way when having a crisis. Hopefully I'm not the only one. 
Anyways, moving on... She doesn't really understand me.  She tries her best to help me, but sometimes I wish she stopped trying, you know? Everything she does feels kinda... Wrong.  I feel bad for her, but sometimes I can't control myself and I end up hurting her (Emotionally, NOT physically)
When I didn't answer to her question, she said "People say you act like my best friend or my  worst enemy. You either hate me or love me. I don't get you"
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Tbh, I feel like my condition is getting worse. Everyday I feel more angry and frustrated towards myself. 
I'm the problem.
I hate you, BPD 🖕