Hi everyone! Straight to the point. For the last two years I have been dealing with health anxiety (similar to hypochondria, but unlike hypochondriacs, people dealing with health anxiety avoid going to the doctors at all costs, in order not to confirm their suspicions, and they have anxiety attacks when thinking about going to the doctors - at least that is my case and that is how it was explained to me). 

A year ago, at my lowest point, I searched for therapy and after two failed sessions, I was able to find a therapist who helped me delve into the root of problem (the wish to control all aspects to my lufe due to previous not trauma, but rather unpleasant situations) and introduced me to mindfulness, meditation and additional literature. After that I was able to somehow bring my attack under control. 

However, she went on maternity leave, and will not be reopening soon due to Covid situation and taking care of her newborn. I have been doing ok, surprisingly, with attacks occurring occasionally, like once a 3 months or so. 

However, this sense of impending doom, is ever present, like every day. Surprisingly, it's not about Covid, as the symptoms for Covid have been recognised and known, but rather about cancer, as it can go undetected for months, until it's too late. Every physical sensation I have, my brain somehow connects it to a type of cancer and sends me into alert mode (painful breasts, as I'm about to get my period =breast cancer, a headache = brain tumor). Sometimes I'm able to rationalise it to myself, more often not. 

So my question is, those who are dealing with it, or know somebody who's been dealing with this type pf anxiety, how do you cope? Any advice is welcomed. Thank you for your time.