Scared my partner is purposefully trying to trigger me and make me unwell because I’m slowly making progress. But I might be paranoid.

He is consistently suggesting we watch tv shows he knows will upset me - like old sexist shit etc - and listening to misogynistic music he knows upsets me. 

This is stuff that’s subtle so I can’t actually say anything and I manage my reactions better now so I can control myself and ride it out and then I go cry for a while after. 

I asked calmly if he could watch a particular tv show without me as it’s not really for me (didn’t say it was triggering me cause of sexist jokes but he def knew) and he got so mad, was like “ugh you always do this” and wouldn’t speak to me for the evening????

It’s weird. I understand that he’s used to our old dynamic of big fights then a big make up and a weird of being super clingy. It wasn’t healthy but it was addictive and now that it’s changing its swapped from me starting arguments to him starting them