So I went inpatient for suicidal thoughts &amp; they also detoxed me. I was unaware of how severe my addictions were and hated the staff for the first 3 days while I was detoxing for not “taking my mental health seriously”. When in fact they were. So getting diagnosed through a psychward visit was extremely validating as I’ve suspected I’ve had BPD for a while now. However, my really bad reactions tend to happen when I have a love interest. Very easy for someone to become my FP if I’m involved with them romantically. Then my Bpd episodes go from kinda few and far in between to almost daily but mostly only directed at my FP. It’s ruined countless relationships and I feel like no one understands this disorder unless they suffer with it. Are relationships a lost cause for me? At least in the meantime until I find a good therapist