I went through an awful breakup a few months ago, long term relationship. 

I’m a musician, and with lockdown lifted I was able to jam with my band and record a scratch track. 

One of the songs I wrote that we recorded, was about them sleeping with me and not loving me during that act. It was insanely painful to realise that in the aftermath of the breakup. 

I wasn’t even singing the lyrics, I was yelling into the microphone all this rage came over me. My stomach has felt like venom ever since that session.

It’s painful, to re-examine my relationship and to realise that I loved them so much that I did everything for them and it wasn’t enough, in fact it was too much. I feel so used. 

I don’t know how to love someone else anymore, I feel like I love them more than they’d ever love me.