I have zero self worth. I mean a big fat ZERO 0. I feel depressed and not worthy of anything. Not love, not even worth a glance. I've been dropping acids twice since july. I got beautiful visuals and everything is great and all... but then, i feel like i don't deserve to share it. As depressing and sad as it is. 


And i know you can't hide your true feelings from lsd. And yes it got me both times. But abusing myself feel more human in a way.


I need help. I've been more depressed and suicidal than ever.  I feel like at the tip of cliff just waiting to fall drop down dead. 