I was only diagnosed about a few months ago but I've probably had bpd since I was like 13. I'm 19 now and I read through the posts here and im not sure if I've ever allowed myself to become open and vulnerable enough to a person I trust to have the relationships I see people describing. It kind of seems like something that is both healthy and unhealthy. I'd just like to hear some fp stories because I'm trying to find a way to get myself to open up to someone before I become even more of a jaded emotionless shell.