Growing up I was seen as "mature for my age". I remember at my parent conference in 2nd grade, my teacher told my parents how I'm "more serious" than the other kids. I never played with the other kids, I would go to the library at recess and at lunch, and I would read books. I never had that carefree childhood that most kids had. Everyday I would come home from school, go to my bedroom, do my homework, and that was it. I never had friends to hang out with or play with. I remember the neighbors kids asking me if I wanted to play with them and I would completely ignore them, my parents would encourage me to go play but I would tell them no, I don't want to. When I was a kid I had the "I'm better than other kids" attitude. I actually wanted to be seen as mature when I was a kid, I tried so hard to act like an adult, and now that I'm actually an adult I regret it because you only grow up once, you only have a childhood once and I completely missed out.

I always hear people talking about memories from their childhood and their teens years (when I was a teenager I also had no friends, I was still trying to act old and I started to get an interest in the 1920s, so I would try to act like I was from the 1920s when I was a teenager). I'm 25 now and I'm so depressed, knowing I will never get to change that, I had all that time to be a kid and be a teenager, but I wasted it and now I have the rest of my life to be an adult, I'm a very sad, depressed, and bitter adult now because I envy people who had an actual childhood.