I feel so alone. I ruined the only good thing in my life. I fucking blew it. A few weeks ago I sent some stupid vid to a girl I liked and it didn’t exactly go well. I had a huge fucking mental breakdown cause I thought she was abandoning me for good. Turns out she didn’t open it and the next day she said I love you too. Well we hung out a bit after and shit was different. We didn’t hold hands like we used to or do anything and if she was ever uncomfortable with anything we did then I would stop immediately. But it hurts she didn’t talk to me about it and idk if you’re even supposed to talk about that. I just feel like I fucked everything up and even tho I rlly like the friendship I don’t think I can keep the front up for much longer. She was and is the only person I’m okay with with physical contact and that’s gone. Once again tho if it made her uncomfortable I’d stop which I did. I thought she was uncomfortable when I tried holding her hand and shit. But I also feel like I did something to ruin things. I’m so lost and honestly idk wtf to do. I thought I’d get over it but I guess not.