I just feel embarrassed. I know I was really drunk, but I also know it was things my brain had pushed down since I couldn’t cope with them. This person is my coworker and we’ve had our problems in the past, but she gave me a ride home last night and I drank too much and a sad song started playing and that got me thinking of something that happened back in late September and I just broke. I knew this was going to happen, with everything that has happened in the past 2 weeks, but I just assumed it was going to come out in anger towards my boss or something, not me breaking down in sadness. Growing up with that toxic “men don’t cry” stigma really messed me up to the point it’s deeply rooted and where I can’t just go home and cry, so it comes out in not so ideal situations. Anyway, I just had to get this out, I’m just not doing so well and haven’t been coping.