It’s 5:32am and I just got the BIGGEST anxiety attack, I can’t even go back to sleep even though I really need the sleep.

I was literally in bed and heard rumbling, for some reason my first instinct was to hold my head and neck in cause some thing happens I won’t be paralyzed.

And just the THOUGHT of being paralyzed drove me to a panic attack.. the thought that won’t be able to talk or do anything for my self. I am literally crying while writing this..

I rather die a PAINFUL death than have to live paralyzed without being able to express my self. I just realized how fragile life is.. anything could happen, idk what to do but nothing is calming me down. I thought I’ll post on here.