I really don’t know what to do guys. I hope myself in my apartment when I’m not at work or when I absolutely need to go out to do something. I get anxiety even having to cross a street or go into a grocery store. I try my best to be positive but I end up crying more days than not. I want to get medical help but also don’t know where to start or if that’s even the best choice for me. Sometimes I wish I could just disappear you know? I don’t want to be here anymore. This is more of just a vent post than anything.