I’m thinking probably because of the abandonment issue? But I’m not so sure. I notice every time I hang out with only one other person I get super anxious and then tired. I feel even worse when the other person gets tired and the entire interaction just feels like you’re barely able to muster up as much conversation as possible. I’m self aware of this and I know it’s because of my BPD but I’m still figuring out a way to get over this hurdle 

Idk if any of this makes sense... but I’m just wondering if anyone can relate 