The last therapist I had never really helped me with anything? We just talked about whatever for 40 minutes and scheduled the next appointment. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's hard in the area I moved to. The affordable places are all in communities where it's extremely difficult to get in due to the volume of patients. One place "assessed me" for 10 mins and said I had  psychosis from drugs and said she can't help that. Even though I've never had a serious drug problem. I go long periods of time without touching anything, and nothing hard. It was a virtual thing not in person. Another local one just ghosted me and hasn't contacted me to set anything up for in person after assessment and sending a pamphlet.
&gt; TW: !!! Not trying to be dramatic, but I almost stabbed myself the other night so I could get in somewhere and get help. I stopped considering it, because I have dogs and can't enter inpatient as I don't have anyone to care for them. &lt;

When I do find a therapist again, how do I bring up wanting to be assessed for BPD? Also how did you find a low cost therapist? Has therapy helped you? 
I'm also terrified of medication, but I don't want to be like this anymore. I constantly push people away, or I get too much for them