I am alone at the moment and thought it would be good to date on Tinder. Next thing you know I meet an amazing guy in a open relationship. Those two weeks were great. He says that he will never ghost me and I believe him. I text him last night to say that I had an amazing time with him and I hope it was the same for him. Silence on his part. I text him at night saying that I hope he does not ghost me. He litteraly took 1 min to respond saying that he was busy and goodnight. Silence all day. I would have preferes that he ghost me  if it was to answer like this. Why do people do this to me ? What did I do to deserve this. I can’t anymore. I just want to disapear rn. Why can’t no one love me the way I am ? What went wrong with me ? I hate myself for believing I deserve something good. 

I’m sorry.