I get sometimes we can be horrible to people, randomly start hating them, sometimes get into the mindset we can get what we want, do stupid things just so people won't leave us; but it's not all that bad.

I've only recently been diagnosed but it explains a lot of things I've experienced since I was probably around 14, maybe even earlier at 13 or even 11. Along with this, not everyone goes through a lot of abuse or serious abuse. My psychiatrist thinks I've probably been like this since I was a child but it only really became very noticeable due to the bullying I experienced in late primary school, early high school (Australian education btw).

Back on topic; I'm normally pretty kind to my friends, I often buy snacks for school and share with them, if someone has a problem I listen. I can be selfish sometimes but a lot of the time I'm pretty selfless. 

I'm lucky my doctor recommended a good psychiatrist and that psychiatrist wasn't prejudice at all about diagnosing me. I'm sad though that BPD has this bad stigma and most people by the sounds of it aren't as lucky. I'm also terrified of being judged if I'm put in a spot where I have to state that I have it. Along with this, I'm scared I won't be able to get extra credit points through EAS and won't be able to get into uni as the mood swings have greatly interfered with my school life and by the time treatment kicks it will be too late to catch up and get back to my true potential for HSC.

Why is it we carry a bad stigma....I guess I sorta understand but why can't people look past the bad and see the good? Why is it as soon as there's a label on us, we're looked at differently, like we're monsters...