hi  everyone. two months ago, i decided to start tapering off my  mirtazapine. i've been on 15 mg for 4.5 years. the tapering went poorly  and i was getting super depressed so i decided to go back to my full  dose and try again some other time. i've been back on my full dose for  two weeks.

for the past week and a  half, i've been retaining water like CRAZY. i feel so puffy and fat. i  have body dysmorphia so it's making me so fucking unhappy. all i can  think about is how ugly i feel.

i've  read that mirtazapine can cause water retention. i don't remember this  happening the first time i was put on the medication, but i also wasn't  as sensitive about my body image then. i'm just wondering if anyone else  has experienced this. does it go away? how long until i'm back to  normal? i don't want to start tapering again yet but im considering it  just to lose this weight. i'm going crazy about it.

thanks for the help!