So apparently he NEEDS to have a divorce right now, literally it's midnight and he just stormed into the bedroom after two days of not speaking to me, ranting about how that and that thing is his. Why he didn't talk to me earlier? Because I dared to drink coffee at my mom's place yesterday so he felt he couldn't make some for just himself. Why the divorce? Because I made an FB post this morning saying "I'm thinking of dying or going back to the ward". He now firmly believes that somehow that post (up for an hour with no reactions) has turned the whole fucking world against him as I'm making it seem he's making me miserable. Truth be told, he kinda is.

He states it's me who wants the divorce when all I wanted was for the sulking to stop. Now all I want is to be fucking left alone, I have no capacity to deal with this BS. I just rekindled my psych contacts, I'm starting DBT and really working hard to keep my head in a place where I don't break. And all the while he's doing all the shit he accused me of and was ready to leave me for, putting words in my mouth, victimizing himself, b&amp;w thinking, uncontrolled aggression, bombarding me with messages, turning anything and anyone's opinions against him, picking a fight over nothing and escalating it to the point I'm starting to lose it.

But somehow it's totally different and okay when he does that because he's feeling bad. So I just have to suck it up, stay calm and work my willing hands while being constantly yelled at and dumped three times a week and never getting an apology,. At least I fucking acknowledge when I do wrong or go overboard but to him it's all reasonable and justified? How the fuck do I even?