Disclaimer, THIS CONTAINS IMPULSIVE ACTIONS IF IT MIGHT TRIGGER DONT READ. 

I am seeing mental health professionals with what I can afford this is simple curiosity. This is also not me asking if I have bipolar, I was diagnosed with it. I want to see the range of actions people can take during manic episodes. I’ve done stuff like sneak out of my house and walk through dangerous paths, sneak out repeatedly through paths that physically hurt me to have sex with someone or spray paint myself with profanities, buy hundreds of dollars worth of trash I’ll never use etc… yet I never felt hyperactive or great confidence (god complex) when doing all this things. 

I want to know other people’s experiences during times like this, and if others always experience this feelings of self confidence, if you feel comfortable to share please do so.