I know im still young, but seeing people my age having good grades, nice hobbies makes me question why im like this
Just getting up in the morning takes so much toll on me, i haven't been attending classes the past months because i couldn't...i just couldn't, i have no excuse, i just can't bring myself to look decent and talk.
Its so hard to get up, take showers, eat... I can't do my schoolworks properly, i cant think... Idk. I feel like im left out at something. I feel like im wasting my life for nothing.

I feel bad but its so worthless to even rant about this to anyone because i know im at fault, there's no use in ranting to them if i cant do anything about it. Sometimes i just look at myself in the mirror and ask how long will i do this, how long will i breathe... When should i stop, im just yknow.. Exhausting myself