I’m reaching my 30s and growing up I had many friends, but none that I was close to. I realized my best friend that I did everything with in high school never had a heart to heart with me (and vis versa) it was a friendship based on joking and having a good time but I never learned about her or her life. I feel so weird and insecure about it, I try to get to know people but know one really wants to get to know me. It’s probably my lack of self esteem, but I don’t know where to start on that besides therapy that I can’t afford rn. It’s a hopeless feeling of being alone and not having close friends that get me…