I (22f) was diagnosed and have been battling with depression for several years. I’ve been cycling on different meds, and now are on a mood stabilizer, low dose antidepressant, and a sleeping aid. Those meds stopped the depressing thoughts and constant anxiety I used to have. I’ve been in therapy for the past year, and doing well enough to be discharged and only see my therapist twice a month max. 
(For more context, I do have hypothyroidism and have been going to hormone treatment for the past year. )


I used to have a lot of motivation, big dreams and desires to succeed and do well in college. Now, three years in, I’m in indifferent to everything. Failing grade? Don’t care. Passing grade? Don’t care. Getting yelled at? Don’t care. shown affection? Don’t care. 

It’s like nothing matters anymore, it’s almost like I  lost my entire passion side of me. I don’t have enough self discipline to make myself do things either. If I work out, I only do things that I find mentally stimulating like rock climbing or racket ball, but even with those I get bored. Everything I read, all of the shows I watch, and anything I do lost it’s touch completely. I’m just so bored. 

The only thing I find fun is cooking, but half of the time I can’t even get myself to cook something to survive. 

I feel awful, my parents are sending me to college so I can graduate debt free but I can’t even bring myself to care. I used to work hard, and study hard, and get good grades but now if I pass I’m happy. Yes my major is hard but if I just cared enough to apply myself I would pass very easily. But all of my life goals don’t exist anymore, like they disappeared overnight. 



Any advice? Or thoughts? Or anything?