I have recently begun to strongly suspect that I have BPD. A lot of the symptoms line up with things I've experienced. Whenever I suspect I may have a particular mental disorder, I browse social media platforms with tags or communities relayed to it where I can see real live people who have the disorder instead of just a list of symptoms. The tag on tumblr and the teo communities I've found here on reddit have all been full of experiences that I find relatable and validate my suspicions. On tiktok, however, there are a lot of people who post about all of their relationship behaviors that NTs would flag as toxic without knowing the very real emotions behind them. While I experience these emotions, I tend not to exhibit these behaviors. Maybe I've learned to mask them like I do with my autism, but there's a part of me that worries that since I don't exhibit those behaviors I can't possibly have BPD. I know tjat you guys can't diagnose me and I'm not asking for you to. I just want to know if being good at hiding mood changes means yiu don't have BPD. If I am wrong about having BPD, I ask that you be gentle. Even if yiu don't think I have BPD, I'm still fragile, so please handle with care.