I constantly feel so utterly alone and majority of the time I just feel… empty… 

I mean there’s obviously plenty of moments during the day where I feel very strong emotions and paranoia and all that, but in between I’m just like… there’s a numb hole in me where I just don’t really feel much… I just feel like I’m… existing. I guess that’s the best way to describe it. I just feel like I’m existing. And I don’t like it. Along with the emptiness of knowing I’m alone, it really just leaves me so depressed. And I really don’t like how my depression and loneliness have just been so consistent throughout my whole life. I want the feelings to go away. Or at least make them slightly more bearable in some way!