Hi everyone, I don’t really know where to start here but I really wanted to say something, anything at all. 

I’m at a point where I feel like I have no more options left anymore. I wake up angry every single day, and go to sleep sad and in tears. Every day is a constant mental battle with myself and it’s starting to make everything around me crumble to pieces. I see the state of my mental health fucking up my relationships, my job, my education. I don’t feel like i’m able to maintain any relationships with both myself and other people around me and I don’t know what to do at this point. I’ve dropped out college, i’ve stopped working, i’ve destroyed all relationships with my friends, and I don’t see anything getting better from here. 

I can’t afford therapy, I don’t have a family who even remotely believes that mental illness exists, and I feel like I have to face everything on my own and I don’t know how to do that anymore. I have been very grateful to have a significant other who’s willing to love and reassure me through all of this, but they have their own mental battles to take care of, and I see that sometimes it’s hard for them to have to deal with me alongside themselves and I feel so guilty for it everyday. 

I just don’t know what to do anymore. Does anything actually ever get better or is that just something we tell ourselves to make it to the next day. 

I’m not looking for advice, I don’t really know what I am looking for. Just somewhere to talk