I only want to do the best, I want so much in life I’m so terrified of failure.. but yet I find it so hard to live while dealing with my trauma and depression and extreme anxiety and adhd… I barely can answer in class Although I know and want to say something.. I’m so afraid of people think I’m not motivated , cause I am.. it’s just that I’m dealing with so much and the world will never stop for me, I want to die everyday , while I’m trying to go to classes and do my homework I can’t stop thinking about how I want to end it all.. I know I won’t die, so I force myself to do my best.. but I never think my best is enough.. it’s never enough.. all of my classmates had parents that didn’t neglect them and they all have connections and I feel so left behind, it’s not just my mental health, it’s everything.. I never think my best is the best cause it’ll never be… my anxiety is just getting worse as I get older, and I never feel safe.. I’m always anxious and depressed and suicidal , I’ll never stop trying cause if I stopped for one minute, it’s all gone for me