I just texted a soon to be ex-friend of mine that I no longer want to be friends. He is autistic, like my partner, but he's made little progress in the last year I've known him. He says things to my partner that makes him uncomfortable, he talks over people, he does so many rude things that pisses me off. I can't take it anymore. I cant take everyone defending him and I can't take being the bad guy.

I think I'm going to lose my FP over this decision but my therapist says I need to start putting myself first. I feel like even my relationship with my partner has started to crumble. Maybe I should've kept my fucking mouth shut. I don't know what to do. I feel like killing myself but I can't. I don't want to cause more harm than I already have. It hurts so much..