hi there, so i just want to vent/maybe get advice. ive been in and out of college on different majors for a while now. i am back in school as a bio major even though i actually have no idea what i should do with my life and im taking chem 300 and basically know im going to fail it. i learn one thing and i dont remember or know the other. i havent taken a science class since middle school, in high school i was in agriculture. i dont even know proper conversions, i just failed my second quiz. im anxious about the test timers, im stressed that i have to work, stressed that i feel suicidal most days. im so unhappy and if i dont get some type of higher education im going to be working minimum wage jobs for my whole life. i cant handle the stress of being a failure, after every quiz i take that i fail or assignment i do bad on i freak out and am thrown into a spiral. i just feel so alone and worthless and i dont know what im doing. i have been diagnosed with double depression and its been ongoing since i was 12. ive been on countless meds but they dont help the fact that im failing at my life dont have any passions besides music which i cant succeed at and i have no self worth at all. what do i do here. i just feel like i cant even do anything so why try.