Before I continue, two things: 1) not officially/clinically diagnosed with BPD (tried to discuss it with a psychiatrist but was ignored), although I suspect I have it, hence my post in this sub; and 2) English isn't my first language, so please bear with me.

Looking back to what I suspect were BPD episodes coupled with dissociation, I have a hard time recognizing and connecting with 'her'. While I remember some parts, I cannot remember most of what I felt and did. I'm just wondering if anyone else is the same.