I’m sorry that this is going to be a long post. I just need solutions and a plan for this problem :(.

For the past few weeks, ever since I moved to the country I’ve been getting bugs in my room. First it was ladybugs, then it was a huge spider, and then it was this giant wasp thing with wings and I flipped out.

I live with my mother in the country, and she feels like this should have been common sense, like when I move to the country there’s gonna be a lot of bugs in the house. I didn’t think of that, because I don’t like to think that I’d have to take care of bugs daily in my room.

I began to pound on the walls with a hammer at like 10:30pm to put up a blanket on the wall to cover this huge space that leads to the hallway that’s above my door, and connects somewhat to the wall over. The whole time I was shaking, crying and my mind was racing with the possibility of the bug coming from underneath the glass while trying not to fall off my ladder.

My mom came in, took the bug, and accused me of acting like a child. As she got the bug, I wanted to be so careful and not let the bug out.  I was in tears, still shaking. It’s been the most I’ve cried in weeks. I said some things to her in anger that I really regret. 

So my question is how do I keep the bugs out of my room, and was what I felt a panic attack? I can go into more detail if possible. I’ve been diagnosed with GAD since I was like 10. It just felt like so much more than panic.

TLDR; panicking about having to deal with bugs constantly in my room. I need solutions and just someone to talk to about this.