So, for context, I’ve been searching for a new therapist for a long time. I’ve gone through probably 5 or 6, and my last one before the lady I have now was extremely invalidating. She told me she didn’t believe my diagnosis and said “we’re at an impasse and you decide if you still want to see me, but I point blank do not believe you.” When I was in the middle of a story from high school and trying to explain how it effected me. 

I stopped seeing her because fuck that. I don’t need someone to invalidate me. She also used to tell me I was around too many people with BPD. Like she told me everyone in my life somehow had BPD. Including me. 

The one I have now is better. She believes me and stuff and works with a lot of kids who’ve had the disorder, but recently she hasn’t been checking in with me or messaging me. I messaged her on Monday and didn’t get a response until Thursday which wasn’t even a reply to my message but just her saying she wanted to reschedule due to life stuff going on. She told me she’d reply to my messages the next day later in the day, and she never did. 

It messes with my abandonment issues and I don’t know what to do about it? Like am I crazy? Should I just suck it up? I sent her a long message because I was really struggling and going through it and like I wanted to open up and actually get work going and somewhere with it all you know? I just want to give up, is there even any hope that a therapist will ever be good???  Or should I just try again. I just feel like I’m always pulling teeth with these people all I want to do is be ok