I was on my way to work at Subway when
I heard Doctor on KLRU speaking on BPD.
He stated several things I had not considered but the one that gave me pause were that people with BPD. He stated among many things that the illness is just as serious of not worse , as Bi-Polar disorder ". But what gave me a reality check is what he said matter of factly about people with BPD being "unclear about reality." That has been a recurring theme in my life, I could just never put my finger on it.
When I look back at my behavior in school versus everyone else, and then examine the thought processes in my head, going far back as 8. And I didn't start using drugs until age 13 or so, I realize now that this disorder took my chances of a normal life years ago. It is what it is and it could be worse. Like many others I  have tons of broken relationships for evidence. But stating it like that ripped through the veil. While the statement does it say "the why's "  the "how's"  he didn't need to. 
After months of  tutoring at work from a memtor, who actually used  dialectical teaching on some level to show and prove how most of what I believed a out politics, relationship, and even some things about God
were deception and based on emotion. Can anyone else remember past symptoms you had while you were still a child.?