And I am totally alone this time. Everyone's enjoying in my neighborhood and the music is being depressing for me. This suddenly reminded me that the last time I partied at new year was a decade ago when I was a child. I don't even have any friends and don't even know how to make some. I do a remote job and I don't even know if it's possible to make friends at workplace if my job goes offline some day. How do I even hope to make friends? I suck at social interactions but yearn for company. I am just a totally depressed piece of shit whose so called friends don't even message him anymore and just used him in college for getting his notes. It feels completely impossible for me to make friends as my anxiety and depression make me behave weird when I meet people coz I just freeze and don't know what to talk in front of people.