Today was going fine. I found this recipe online for shredded chicken tacos and I was all excited to make it and it was actually going alright, but then when I was throwing out the chicken bones my mom pointed out my garbage bag had a hole in it and they were falling on the floor and now everything sucks and I want to die. I slammed the door and sulked in my room until like 30 minutes after I was supposed to leave for work and then I rushed out the door without even taking any water (it's a 45 minute walk and it's hot as heck today) or my phone, and right now I'm honestly thinking I'm not going to go back home tonight. I just want to start walking towards my house (or away from idk) and then stop when I don't feel like walking anymore and go to sleep in a ditch somewhere for the night. I've tried this before but I usually have my phone and my mom ends up texting me asking where I am and it's easier to just say I'm running late than to try and explain I'm trying to just sit here until my muscles atrophy and I die, and also ignoring texts makes me anxious so I usually end up going home but I don't have a phone today so I can just go wherever I want and no one can say anything to me and I don't fucking want to go home I want to go die in a ditch