I'll never find love. Women need a man who will take care of them. I know for a fact even other depressed and anxious women wouldn't want a depressed and anxious man. Im going to die alone if I don't spend money on escorts, because that's the best I can possibly hope for and I'm way too fundamentally flawed to be datable or tolerated by women. Its just all this does is compound on the anxiety. I'm an extremely isolated person, technically there's nothing special about relationships anyway. Literally the only difference between a couple and two friends is one fucks and the other doesn't. Yet I want a companion. I know it will never happen, I am just not good enough for women and I likely never will be. I can't seem to get over it though. It gets easier to crush my emotions down but whenever there isn't stimulation I'm stuck feeling dead and bleak.

Its frustrating because only absolute loser bitches of disposable waste of space of men are needy and want girlfriends. We're nothing but sick fucks who would fuck a goat, so why isn't that good enough for me?