So um
I overthink alot, every little detail everyone probably missed out'll probably me on my mind.
Somedays, I waste the whole day just thinking about them.
I even think too much into how movies and books end. 
This sounds very troublesome and it was.
But as of now, I don't know if I just got used it to but I don't mind it.
I might even be as bold as to say I like it.
I tried alot, ALOT to get rid of it because it made me feel depressed over things that had nothing to do with me.
I overthink about alot of things that have nothing to do with me.
And since it seemed like it wouldn't leave me. 
What do I say? 
Did I "embrace" it? 
I started embarcing it and used it to my advantage.
Something along those lines, I suppose
That's what I'd like to think anyway.
I don't know when or how, but I started finding the passion I lost for writing again (unrelated? Yes. But it's essential for the "question") 
And the more and more I got involved with my stories, the less I worried about my overthinking.
Yes, sounds like I'm just trying to forget about it, like I never have actually get rid of it nor accept it.
But, sooner or later I realised what troubled me the most.
I unconsciously started to include the "conclusions" of my overthinking to my stories.
Well how do I put it? 
Um
Maybe.. 
Take this as an example, A trope. A "sad" trope that is labled as nothing but "tragic". Everyone views it as a tragedy something that was unfair to the core. And yes, ofcourse it is. But I hate the fact that people don't see the "sweet" in bittersweet. It's a tragedy yes, but while to fawn over it is a choice, to accept it, to move on and to maybe even turn it into something for the better is also a choice. 
I was frustrated about the fact many people didn't even have this "idea" in their heads, the idea of there being another choice, I guess I wanted to plant it in there (?) 
Well and still want to and do so through my stories. 
Writing makes me happy to the point I'd be smiling like a fool in the middle of the street simply because I came up with a good dialogue.
Does it sound like I'm just obsessed with writing and I'm not actually accepting reality instead just making my own. 
Yes 
But, I honestly love it so much.
I just use the overthinking as a way to make up better plot points, and working on my story just makes me really happy.
It's a part of my life, including the sorrowful and happy moments in my life to my book. 
It makes me feel like I'm complete. 
I embarce everything that makes me feel frustrated through it.
And hence I actually quite like my overthinking, if it wasn't for it my life would've been so much more boring so would've been my stories. 
Is this.. not okay?