I’ve had to take 4 weeks off work with stress, I’ve got to see my therapist pretty much every week since but I feel like giving up. I don’t care anymore about anything. 
I’m currently cat sitting for my friend till the end of the month and after that I don’t feel like I’ve got anything that keeps me going. 
I really don’t see a future for myself, I’m sick of having to do all this work to try help me feel better but nothing is helping budging this. 
I’m sick of feeling this low, I have an appointment next week for my therapy but I just want to phone and cancel and just keep going till I’m low enough to die. 
I’m worried it comes across as attention seeking if I phone up to cancel cause my therapist would likely phone me and ask why but I just don’t want to have to justify myself. 

Honestly I really just want to be dead, I can’t keep feeling like this