**I now know how truly horrible of a person I really am. My negativity proves exactly that, as well as my autism and mental illness. I'm hurting emotionally, because I'm an absolute poor excuse of a man and a human being.** 

**I was a horrible kid growing up. I constantly misbehaved and was always hyper, even though I didn't have ADHD. I was constantly bullied my entire life. Even online by others and in the workforce by management.** 

**I was immature and an idiot with only a High School diploma. I had to drop out of college, because I could not keep up with the General Ed. In High School band and College TV classes, nobody liked me because of who I was. I'm just a horrible, awful, poor excuse of a human being.**