I wanted to post this in r/BPD because being the "black sheep" in my family definitely causes my BPD symptoms to worsen when around them and it sucks because I want to have a good relationship with them and I feel like I can't. 

Because I feel like I can't relate to either of my parents or even my sister, I feel less loved and even more isolated than I do around strangers. They attempt to engage me in conversation and it just falls on deaf ears. I don't know how to form a relationship with anybody so different from myself. 

Does anybody else have a similar problem? And how do you handle this? 

It honestly scares me most because I worry about if I have future children. If they aren't like me, I still want to be able to form a connection and a relationship with them and I'm so worried it's just not possible for me. 