Hi reddit! I never really post anything, but i’m running out of options. I’m almost 20 and I’ve had severe anxiety since I was 11, even before that but it wasn’t diagnosed until then. A little over a year ago, it started to take on super physical symptoms. 

I’ll usually completely lose my appetite for a couple of weeks, and wake up every morning extremely nauseous to the point i throw up. This happens once or twice a month and lasts a week or two each time. 

When i try to eat anything, i feel super full, similar to how you feel right after eating a thanksgiving dinner. Then i’ll throw up (or just dry heave) from just trying to eat anything because of that feeling. 

I’m getting really tired of feeling this way. My therapist ghosted me in February, i haven’t been able to get ahold of him since. My doctor didn’t really know what to tell me, but he did give me zofran. I’m currently waiting for walgreens to open so i can pick it up. 

This issue is really starting to take a toll on me physically. i’ve lost a lot of weight and i’m always dizzy and it’s really hard to sleep well. I usually wake up around 4 am from the nausea and i’m not even able to fall asleep before midnight. My heart rate is also always extremely fast (usually sits around 120). 

I don’t know where to begin looking for a new therapist, it’s really overwhelming, especially when i think about how i’ll have to completely start over. I really just need advice. I don’t know what to do. I live on my own (i don’t talk to my family, that would be an entirely separate issue) and my boyfriend is really my only support person right now. I’m very tired of feeling this way lol. It’s exhausting. 

I feel like I should also add that its suspected that i have HEDS (hypermobile ehlers danlos syndrome) which is known to cause anxiety, stomach issues, and a ton of other things. I’m seeing a doctor for this in december. I also smoke weed because it helps a lot with the nausea and anxiety and helps me sleep, i just worry i rely on it a little too much. 

I’m sorry this is so long, but like i said, i don’t really have anyone else to go to right now. I really appreciate any advice. Having a doctor not know what to do makes things a lot harder, and it’s getting really difficult feeling this way while trying to get through my first year of college and working. 

tldr: my anxiety makes me completely lose my appetite and really sick every morning. i don’t have a therapist and don’t really know what to do