I’m having such a hard time right now. Maintaining close friendships and relationships is so difficult for me, as I am extremely clingy. I assume that when I don’t see people physically or talk to them often, they aren’t thinking about me, they wouldn’t care if I died, etc. This only really bothers me when it’s with my FP, and it does happen with other people but I assume they hate me or don’t remember me, it stings but the problem is my thought process. I currently have an FP and he’s genuinely busy plus wants free/alone time, but all I do all day is sit around like a lost puppy waiting for him to text me. I absolutely hate it, and I try so hard to break out of it but it’s incredibly difficult. It’s causing me to dissociate because of how stressed and sad I am. I can’t even text people first without insane amounts of regret, guilt, embarrassment etc. I hate being this way.