I'm currently admitted to a psych hospital, with a whole list of diagnoses, including (but not limited to), BPD, C-PTSD, OCD, depression &amp; severe anxiety. Because of the combination of my trauma &amp; bpd, there's the lovely issue of easily having "crushes" &amp; obsessing over people giving me attention until I split on them. It happens at random &amp; it's an absolute nightmare. While I've been in hospital for two weeks, my BPD basically said, 'Hey, you know that girl who's talked to you once, she's gonna be your new crush. Good luck my dude". To cut a long story short; had a meltdown, told her how I felt. She said she wasn't ready for a relationship, which is understandable &amp; exactly what I expected. We continued talking &amp; getting to know each other &amp; after the meltdown my obsessive phase kinda dwindled down up until she basically began leaving me alone &amp; not talking to me, to which my anxiety &amp; mood swings went all over the shop, &amp; now I'm on my bed in a disassociative state because she conveniently decided to introduce me to her boyfriend who she was video calling, who she'd never mentioned before. Kinda wanna cry, kinda wanna die. Also, did not cut that story short, but life is confusing like that. Anyways, peace 🤙💕