I've put this down as a vent but I guess ultimately I'm just sad and disappointed. 

I was rewatching one of my favourite crime drama shows today (I haven't watched any crime dramas since my diagnosis, jsyk). I really enjoyed it!! The good guys were bonding as a team and solving crime and kicking ass! The writing was good and the plot twists were better! Yeahhhhh!!!! 

But then. 

One of the bad guys was described as Borderline. And I just felt my entire chest sink. "They think all relationships revolve entirely around them and when they set their mind to something, it's absolute. No grey areas." 

Oh. Cool. Yeah.

In this same series there was a character with PTSD who also did bad things, but while disassociating so it was played as a sympathetic tragedy. Same, even, for the character with DID; abused and neglected, this person ended up developing alternative personalities as a defensive mechanism. Even someone with (probable) ASPD is played sympathetically. That's sort of why I liked this show, they try to be good at showing that the ways these people are affected by things they can't control and do bad things because of it. 

But Borderline gets used to describe a totally toxic, manipulative, almost pure evil person every time they use it. And I'm just so tired of it. 

Show me a character with BPD in something who's not played as Pure Evil or as The Quirky One (looking at you Crazy Ex-Girlfriend). I just want to see someone struggling to be better than the cards they've been dealt. 

Idk maybe I'm just tired and sad, but it just fucking sucks.