 There is that one song from that one movie that can just bring me to myself when mom passed away. And there's this scene where the kid just fulsh her mom's ashes down. And she says so happily 'bye mom".
first time I saw this mom was dying but alive. Yet i broke down crying.
They sing a song to their mom to say goodbye to her. And the you gest finished it.


Anyway. I rewatched the movie with my lover. Mom passed away 3 years ago.

 I didn't cry 
Yet i found the song of the movie on Spotify. And I'm just  so relived that the " bye mom" isn't in it.

I think i just miss her and somewhat this movie brought me closer to her. There's no one i can express that.

I can't tell to my lover that i still miss my mom. I can't tell my dad especially. Because he does too.

I have no idea how he felt watching this movie. Maybe I'm trying to show him any movie that talks about a mother dying just to make him react.

I dont know. Maybe I'm not as ok as i seem.