So, I’ve been talking to this guy for about a month… I’m absolutely terrified of relationships because I don’t want to get hurt, so I alluded to us being casual. Well, I got attached, like I was slowly falling in love, and just before thanksgiving break I asked if we could go on a real date when I got back. Well last night he asked if I would be upset if he got a gf, and I said yes. I was contemplating all last night if I should tell him how I feel or if it would be too much. This morning I asked if he had someone in mind, and he does… and it’s not me… I’m so hurt… I guess I did it to myself but idk I wanna hurt myself so bad. I just wish I was good enough for once. I wish I didn’t make the dumb mistakes I always do. I want him.