I'm so tired of feeling like its the end of the world everyday. I keep feeling like something bad is about to happen for no reason. I've had bad experiences like everyone else but I can't seem to have the proper maturity to process it. After that I feel like everyone is out to get me, hates me and plots against me.

No matter how much therapy and medication I take nothing helps except exhausting myself physically or drinking strong alcohol. I do both or else I feel like I'm gonna go crazy. What a horrible way to live.