
Depression. Depression comes and goes for me but lately it’s been gaining some traction again. I tend to rely on my friends too heavily sometimes and push them away - and I feel like I’m failing myself and my friends. Little do they know I go to sleep upset knowing I messed up. Some nights wide awake wondering why I continue to overtext, badger my friends with pointless texts. I love my circle dearly and I never want to compromise their respect. Do I tell them how I truly feel? Or suffer in silence. 

I don’t want to burden anyone and have been contemplating some well… darker thoughts. Would people be better off without me - I often think yes. My suffering would end and they wouldn’t have an emotional leech. 

I am seeing a therapist as well but there’s only so much they can do. I’m still stuck in my mind. 

It’s like I want to run away - away from the stress. Would anyone even notice if they suddently stop receiving messages? Would they care? 

I’m feeling all sorts of things and this community has always helped me.!