I'm so tired of being misunderstood and having people take what I say as if I'm intentionally going out of my way to ruin their lives or inconvenience them. I had an issue with my girlfriend earlier because I took something she said as an attack which led to her taking me expressing my feelings regarding the conversation as an attack which led to a (minor compared to normal) issue. This single issue has taken over my entire day and has made me feel like utter shit in general because I'm tired of feeling belittled and ignored and that my feelings don't matter in the world. That's fine, I'll just waste my entire day scrolling through the internet until I magically get over it (because ya girl lacks actual coping skills) and then I'll be fine, right? Nope.

People I live with have always been horrible to me in general, but I don't have the option to get out of this situation yet. Oh well. Anyway, the two of them have been cooking some beef type of meal in excess because beef was super cheap and can last the entire house a pretty long time. They call me out of my cave to wash dishes with the sweet, sweet promise of being able to eat some after I clean the dishes for them. I'm not hungry, so I made a joke along the lines of, "What if I don't want food though haha." Immediately they're at my throat about being so inconsiderate that they cooked all this food and I won't even do dishes. WHO SAID I WOULDN'T? Hell, I even tried to explain myself and I said what I meant to say because clearly they didn't get the joke and needed the help, but they continued to bash me for "being bad at communication" in the first place. My way to deal with that was to simply get quiet and not respond verbally to anything which just led to me being treated like a toddler even more.

A (Somewhat actually decent. Sadly has to act like a moderator between M and myself which makes me feel horrible.): "We're going to eat in like half an hour, you can still have some. You do actually want some, right?"  
I shook my head and continued washing dishes.  
M (to A): "She's mad, why would she give verbal responses like an adult? Stop trying."

They literally go out of their way to make me seem like the worst, most awful human being in the world about everything imaginable. I tape something wrong? Oops, must be a monster, sorry about that. Don't remember to keep the door slightly open while the shower's running? It has been my entire life motive to ruin the walls in the bathroom, I guess. I'm just so tired of feeling like everything is always my fault and that I don't even have a place to say how I feel about things that directly involve certain people, with those people if that makes sense?

Sorry. I don't know who else to vent to and I'll probably be deleting this within 12 hours anyway. I just wanted to say that I'm tired of everything and whatever else.