Feels terrible to know when you could’ve been so productive from 18-23 but instead didn’t do anything impactful. Everyday I have the thought of kms because of it. I’m so depressed of what I should’ve done in my past. Also, I’m so worried about my future because of my past. 

Yesterday I was hanging out with my family for Father’s Day and everyone was having such an amazing time. I couldn’t even enjoy it because every waking moment I have is dreading and worrying of what the future will come and being super depressed of my past and wanting to cry everyday. 

Hopefully, this can help people who are younger than me so they don’t make the same mistakes as I did. Hopefully, you do the opposite so you don’t wake up everyday wanting to be dead lol