I fucked up. I really, really fucked up. I’m homeschooled. I’ve been depressed for years but it hit me really hard these last few months. I told myself I would get shit done, then I didn’t and I put it off. I went in spurts, but I’m nowhere near done. I go back to in person learning in January, and I’m four and a half months behind on school work. The online course is a full year’s worth of work. I’ve lied to my parents, they think I’m almost done. I fucked up so bad. I have maybe two weeks to try and get the entire course done and take the final exams if they’ll even let me. If they don’t, I’m screwed. I’ve been a 4.0 student for four years, I wanted to try and keep that all through school so I could maybe get a scholarship but no I fucked up because all I am is a fuck up. The only thing I’ve ever done right is get good grades, and I can’t even do that now. I feel so useless and stupid and I’m so angry at myself and all I want to do is cry. I have even less time to do it now because I have work. Im so stupid.