I'm a smart person, been self employed a long time, sober over 400 days from every drug, but caffeine. I'm not addicted to it, in just addicted to the productivity and better state of mind when I'm on it. I didn't do it today and I'm just a depressed mess that's easily triggered. Things aren't going well for me now and I can't get a real job until my girlfriend sees me Ina few weeks, and my side hustles aren't really cutting it, I'm going to either have to dip into my investments that are down 50% that I started on last year or drink caffeine every waking moment and take serotonin every night to sleep so I can be on a regular sleep schedule. I'm not sure what else to do when everything is just falling apart or hitting a road block constantly with everything.