me and my long distance boyfriend got into another fight today because he was hanging out with his friends instead of calling me after he got off of work like he usually does and didn’t tell me before that he was going to do that. i just completely split on him, thinking that i was being replaced and abandoned and turned it into a huge fight. 

we tried to work things out but i just ended up getting mad and he just couldn’t understand where i was coming from when i tried to explain my bpd to him and now we’re still not talking. 

this happens often and im beginning to think that i just am not healthy enough to be in a relationship like this, or with anyone ever again. i am so tired of dealing with this disorder it’s so exhausting and it’s ruining my fucking relationship.. i feel so lost and frustrated with everything