I was diagnosed with BPD and went through lots of terrible moments throughout my life (mostrly caused by my own decisions and behaviours).

However, even though my parents were always INCONSISTENT, i have a lovely family and they really support me. I also have friends, I go out, go to uni and am able to work. However, it is always a bit more difficult, I'm always depressed, fighting, crying, having bad relationships because my partner is abusive or I am abusive. I am the one that lead myself to HELL. I end up feeling very depressed, binge eating, hating myself, having paranoid thoughts.

And then I think I have no excuses for that. I have never been sexually or physically abused by my parents and yet I am like this. I see myself as a spoiled person that does not have the right to feel like this and this causes even more guilt to the point that I hate myself and I want to disappear (however, I do not actually self-harm - only threatened it or small things - or would have the courage to end my life). 

Does anyone feel like this? I don't even want to go into group therapy because I feel people will judge as I don't have as much of a sad story as others might have.