I went to my therapist because I was having so many mood swings that I felt unstable. I told her I didn’t think I was depressed but that I just had chronic sadness. She called me on my BS and said (very nicely) that years of sadness and emptiness is depression. Months after that I had a manic episode and was diagnosed with Bipolar and started Lamictal. That helped but then she realized that some of my emotional instability was situational and relational and was told to look into BPD. Begrudgingly, I did and it was like a spear to the heart. I hit all the criteria and it explained so much. I started DBT and it’s helped but now my therapist is saying I have obsessive thinking. Again, I was pissed. Bc why does there have to be something else going on? I looked into OCD and it’s like wtf? Why does this fit me and why is this line of thinking wrong? I’ve yet to see my psychiatrist about this, and I’m not trying to say that I have every diagnosis under the sun, but all of these illnesses describe what I’m going through and not in a mild sense. And ironically, all of these diagnosis I realized I had a shallow view of before reading about it. This is frustrating. I’m not mad at my therapist but that my way of thinking is not healthy. I realize that it isn’t because I can see the harm it does to myself and others, but I wish the world would think the way I do so that I would feel more normal.