So, some context. I'm a 34 y/o female. I'm married to the most supportive man I've ever met, which is probably the only reason I'm as sane as I am. I can tell you I've had GAD since at least elementary school, I remember an incident in which my mom wanted to go on a roller coaster when I was about 10, and I had my first panic attack because I was SURE 100% that she was going to die in a fiery crash and blow up on that roller coaster (even though i love roller coasters myself). Since then I've experienced more trauma that really compounded my anxiety. @34 I have a degree, but can't seem to keep a full time job for more than 2 years without crashing and burning. So I work part time now, and can barely do that. So about a year ago I started to do therapy with a local clinician. It took me a long time to warm up to her and be honest about what was going on in my life. My life consuming worry, my racing thoughts, my intrusive thoughts, being frozen with indecision, irritability, panic attacks, etc.  I had been living with all of them for so long, I had always worried I was normal and just over thinking it. (How typically GAD is it to worry your being a hypochondriac!) But now, she finally diagnosed me: GAD and Panic d/o. I told her I wanted a full time job because my husband and I are struggling financially. She told me that wasn't a good idea right now, and I should focus on maintaining part time work. I thought having the words written down would make me feel better. That I, in some way, would feel validated through diagnosis. But it wasn't a relief, only another thing to add to the list of worries. I dont know what to do now. I can't work full time, I'm drowning in debt, I'm constantly terrified... I do CBT and it helps, but I look to the future and wonder "Will I ever get better? Is this all there is"  The REALLY SAD part about all of this...is I used to be a counselor. Now I just do psychiatric skills training. I love my job, and I adore my clients. I can empathize with their stuff so much, AND I get to do meditation and yoga and CBT all day when I'm at work. I just hoped the diagnosis would bring some closure, but all it did was make me sad. I was hoping I was a hypochondriac, even though I knew I wasn't. I was hoping she'd say "yup, nothing but normal plain jane anxiety, get your ass back to work", but instead she suggests I stay part time. I just dont know what to do now. I guess, if anything, it made me feel a little hopeless, like i couldnt be in denial about it anymore, and had to name it, which in a way gives it power. IDK, does any of this make sense? Did any of you guys feel weird after your diagnosis or is this just my GAD brain over thinking things again?

TLDR: Recently diagnosed with GAD and Panic d/o, but it didnt bring the sense of resolution I was hoping for.