To preface this, I referred a friend to my psychiatrist, who I am no longer friends with. 

So present day: I got a new phone number and missed an appointment. Currently planning wedding with my fp (I have no clue how I managed to find someone so understanding and patient), and the only opportunity I found to reschedule and my doctor sounded awkward on the phone and told me to text the number as he was busy. Well I ran out of a medicine that requires a build up after abstaining (lamictal) and needed a refill to go to a bridal shower for me out of town over the weekend. I call my psychiatrist to ask for a refill and this how the conversation went:

Me: “Hi Dr. _____! This is [first name] [last name]. I got a new number.”

Psych: “Oh well hello [first name] [last name]. How are you?”

M: “I’m great! I just—“

P: “that’s not what I heard.”

M: “pardon?”

P: “Yep, I heard you weren’t doing well.”

Me: “what? We’re you gossiping about me other patients?”

P: “let’s just say I have my ear to the ground in the community.”

M: “so you broke my anonymity as a patient?”

P: “oh uh—“

M: “listen I just need my meds filled for my bridal shower 3 hours away over the weekend. Just let me know if I need to go elsewhere somehow because I need to leave now.”

P: “I’ll refill it now but I need to see you ASAP.” 

Firstly, I feel like this isn’t legal but I know very little. Secondly, I feel really betrayed and almost abandoned. I’m honestly not sure what this old friend must have said to our doctor that prompted this kind of response as we haven’t spoken. This makes me feel like I shouldn’t trust others, and this is something I’ve been working on. 

I’m open to advice but mostly just venting. Feeling sort of blue.

TL;DR I think my psych has been talking about me with other patients