i’ve  been living with my SO since pretty much the start of the relationship over three years ago. i’ve always harbored deep insecurities and jealousy that i never told about bc i didn’t want to be “That Girlfriend.” i wanted it to be different this time, but this past week has felt like the last few months of my last relationship before we ended on not so great terms (also was living with them, so added to it is the feeling of displacement and heightened abandonment). 

anyways! i’ve been trying to keep a level head bc social media is more important than ever with this quarantine. 

i absolutely hate seeing my SO on their phone, checking out while i’m right next to them (i’ve always hated this, but even more so now). i’ve become the most paranoid yet bc i don’t know who they’re talking to. and i don’t know if i want to know. i do not snoop through their phone, i think i’m scared of what i might find. 

it makes me split much more frequently—multiple times throughout the day even. i hate feeling like i’m throwing a tantrum, so i outright ignore them until something else happens to snap me out of it. 

i don’t want to complain about it bc it only makes sense that they keep in touch with others through the quarantine. but it makes me feel so so so so so shitty. all i want to do is pack a bag and leave in the middle of the night, hoping that they feel guilty and terrible for losing me. but that’s not realistic or possible right now. 


TLDR: symptoms worsening bc of quarantine, living with my SO. how are you guys coping/managing?