TLDR; I'm a leech off my parents and aa failure of a son and I cannot function and I won't ever be the success my parents hoped for 




I've been leeching off my parents since December of 2021 into January of 2022 to prenset day I feel like such a shitty son my parents lend me money to the best of there abilities even if it's just to somehow show me they care by money but no emotional support it's fine i guess. But I feel like such SHIT of a son 
They pour there money out to me and all I can do is either (in the past) buy drugs,  spending sprees or spend it on food

Nowadays I just use it for therapy and other shit. I spend there hard earned money on therapy that doesn't work and I just end up with no therapist again for months anyways when it ends due to my treatment resistance and I use it for meds that barely hold me together most days 

Im there son they thought I would have a successful futures according to my mom and dad when I asked Them and I gave them a failure of a son 

A drug addicted, mentally ill, bum, who's too unstable to  even find employment and lives off them and money from the government 

I just wish I could've given my parents the success they hope for in me my sister has it all and there so proud and loving towards her I'm more like a liability and if I kill myself I'll be even more a burden to carry around knowing your son who could've been successful killed himslef despite having all the resources he ever needed

But the problems isn't money it's others I have no one

My parents shovel money at me hoping to fix the problem, my other relatives are too ashamed to speak to me, my friends I have left are distant, and my partner I'm unsure if they love me  anymore due to my inability to care for myself or them

I wanted a happy life with a nice house and a lover and friends something nice and simple of course I didn't get it in a spoiled brat who can't survive and fend for himself