it’s been really hard for me recently because I already have pretty severe depression. I’ve been doing my best to stay on top of my medicine and stuff. I really thought I was doing good and stopped seeing my therapist because I thought I was okay. then my dad recently passed away and now I’m just stuck. I try to not get into a negative headspace and focus on all the good times but it’s hard. I feel guilty because I never saw him in the hospital until he was at his final moments. I said to my mom that I didn’t want to see him in the hospital because he never reached out or tried seeing me when I was in the hospital. I still love him and miss him more than anything but it’s just hard. I haven’t told any of my friends because I don’t want the sympathy from them. I don’t want people to feel bad for me when I don’t feel bad for myself.