Im in a relationship with a man who is trying to learn about my diagnosis.  He is so good to me but I'm afraid that I will mess it up.  He doesn't understand the emptiness j feel and what I have done ti feel whole.  He doesn't judge my past and is trying to  to understand me now but I doubt he ever will. I envy him for going through life with what seems like such ease and goals in mind, when I don't even know who I am or what I want.  I don't know what he could see in me.  I don't feel worthy of his love.  I've been in multiple abusive relationships and have felt like my sex appeal is all I have control over.  He loves me for me and it scares me.  How could a relationship with someone like me possibly work?