I make posts and delete them as a way to vent. I don't think I will ever tell anyone in real life how depressed I am, or how easily negativity affects me. I was orphaned as a kid and never really came back from that, but everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm successful in my job, married, have a perfect daughter, but I just fucking hate myself.  There's so much more to it than that but that's how it generally feels.