i might have bpd? i dont know. ive thought i might but i really dont know. theres one symptom im really stuck on that i know is prominent in bpd is self esteem problems. and now that i think ab it, my self esteem problems are causing my relationship to be kind of rough sometimes. i dont have any issues with like impulse control or anything so thats always made me think i dont have it but all illnesses are a spectrum so then not everyone would have it. i dont think i have like anger problems, i mean maybe i do i dont know. i dont have any manic episodes or anything, ill have random small boosts of confidence and just like feeling better but then usually shortly after i go back to feeling like crap. 

maybe someone could offer some input, i dont know if maybe its all just extreme anxiety and i just struggle w extremely low self esteem. just feeling so frustrated with my feelings and if i cant figure it out then it feels like my relationship might soon be crashing down. idk man