I've been a mess for about five days, today is better. I've had these episodes of agression and agitation sense I was adopted, out of wanting to know why, I googled it, I think I have what's called an externalizing disorder. This causes episodes of extreme aggitation in my case its  mostly verbal although when I was younger it used to be a lot more physical. This would also explain why it's harder to speak to my dad. I've read and have been told that certain people can cause anxiety. This can also explain why It's so hard to be around all eight of my siblings. Having this many people can very over stimulating which is a common trigger for people with ASD. ASD anxiety and exterlizing disorders from what I've read can all exist together. And Heck people with CP can have other co-existing nurological conditions.