Made some bad decisions today and really making solid progress on ruining my life in this several month long manic episode.

Alcohol and stimulants at a party seemed like a great idea because weekend, why not logic. Now I don't know how long to wait before safely taking seroquel and valium to attempt to come down enough to sleep. Just trying to entertain myself without letting my thoughts go too weird until I sober up enough not to cause complete liver failure, am I being too paranoid about taking the meds?

I really need to come down abit to comprehend wtf actually happened over the past day, it is all too much.

Including my partners friend stroking my boob, kissing my hands and saying he loves me and I'm special. But then not making any sense with his other comments and behaviour. Literally more crazy than me. I did not invite this behaviour. I'm so fucking confused.

But my partner is cool and thinks his friend is a crazy person, especially today. The friend is married by the way. I spent the day with him and his wife. And my partner is not aware of all events and I don't think I can tell him because they already have tension, I don't know what to do other than somehow sleep until I can process everything. But how to sleep?

Someone gave me advice to avoid people the other day in post on here, and I was also told not to drink. I promise i will take this advice from now on.