I'm 20 years old, male, currently in college while working as a ranchhand. After graduating high school and leaving all my buddies I've found it difficult to make new friends. I'm so tired of having nothing to do on weekends, but I get to see on social media all my past buddies going out and having fun. My best friend I grew up with has a GF and is in a frat. I find myself jealous, asking myself "he can get a girl how come you can't" "How come you don't have any plans". I've deleted all social media, I hate seeing people having a good time when I'm just sitting alone in my room, I just think I've become bitter.  Feel like my youth is kinda just passing by and day after day is the same shit. I can't take listening to my own voice anymore, I find myself trying dating apps but it's all the same. I match with a girl we text for a little, but nothing materializes, we never actually hang out.  Idk what I came here to say, I'm just sad, but I feel as though I have no right to be sad. There are people in so much worse situations than me, I tell myself I have no right to cry. I just don't know what to do.