Im crying like a bitch writing this but i need advice. I've been having episodes of really intense anger, and depression. I hit my head frequently at the smallest things. During these episodes, i feel extremely hopeless. I don't have a support system, and if i breakdown and my mom hears, she just gets really mad. Even though she knows about my mental health. 

Everyday is the exact same and it's driving me crazy. 

I feel like i'm breaking.