Recently out of homelessness as I went back with my family. Cant find work that can pay the bills. Cant find housing I can afford. Living in an abusive household. Cant enjoy anything as I'm stuck in my room. Cant do anything. Cant live. 

Even if I can manage to figure something out, it's just stress and misery. Everything worthwhile has people flocking to it &amp; I can never beat those people. There's billions of us and only so many reserved spots for a good life. Sports? Not good enough, time has passed. Content creation/streaming? Everyone and their dog is ruthlessly trying this Business? Most fail and are almost impossible to get off the ground. Write a book? Yea, good luck with that. There's always someone more talented, better looking, wealthier, luckier...and I dont care for jealousy or whatever, but these things do matter. If you're not good enough, better enjoy homelessness or a miserable existence. 

What the fuck am I supposed to do?!?!?!?!?! Why bother??? No matter how much I pray to the universe for an answer...