I've been seeing more pet owners talk about this so it's my turn I guess. My cat is the light of my life and often all that keeps me going. She's my sweet angel and I can't imagine anything worse than something happening to her. I know she's not gonna live forever but I'm not here to talk about that...I'm here to talk about my never-ending, irrational fear and intrusive thoughts about it. I can't stand it. She had some health issues last fall and thankfully, recovered well. She's been back to normal for a while but I'm hyper vigilant about anything she does. There's this trend on TikTok of people posting their passed/sick pets to that "did you get enough love, my little dove" song and it's making me want to cry &amp; puke &amp; shit &amp; scream because I can't get it out of my head.

This also effects me pretty heavily because I have a love/hate relationship with going on vacations. It's obviously something great, I love it, I love traveling and doing new things and spending time with loved ones. But I'm also constantly overwhelmed with terror that something could happen to her while I'm not there, and the knowledge that if I go on vacation for a week, that's 7 less days with her.

I'm literally on the verge of tears writing this lol