I dont like telling doctors what's going on because I've always been told I'm manipulative and attention seeking. I feel like I'm acting like I've got bpd and really if I wanted to be normal I'd just be normal right? For example, I'm in pain I go to the doctor and tell him that, I'm freaking out in my head going I want the hard drugs give me the hard stuff but also dont catch onto my manipulating you into giving me something but I actually am in pain?? Does this make sense to anyone?? 