My ex broke up with me because they believed I had sex with someone else. I will admit that I emotionally sought people to listen to me, and set boundaries that were wrong, but I would never have crossed that physical line. I was mentally and emotionally deteriorating, and looking for someone to talk to, but I NEVER was looking for someone to actually love, the way that I did with my ex. 


I was in the beginning stages of my BPD’s symptoms kicking in, and didn’t know it until a few months ago. Does that excuse my emotional cheating? No. I was terrible for doing that, I should of been able to talk to him. It’s all I  TRULY wanted but now after arguing, and terrible miscommunication, I don’t know what to do. 

I know I need to focus on getting healthy again, but the thought that I lost someone because of a real lacking of communication destroys me inside.

What should I do?