I had anxiety attack while at work and it’s so hard. I’m crying and I feel like there a cold tube in my chest and I can’t breathe. I’ve zoned out and cried so much at work I had to extend 4 hours without pay at work because I couldn’t focus and I didn’t get to finish my work on time. And now I can’t sleep due to insomnia. And I need to go to work in 5 hours. 

I feel like a failure everyday and all I can think about earlier is to finally kms. It somehow made me feel better, how I can just kill myself just so I can rest. That all my problems and thoughts would be gone, once I’ve done my plan. 

I’m exhausted and anxious everyday.