I've recently realized that I have a problem with lying. I don't think they are pathological, but they are lies to cover up my vulnerabilities. I'm so scared of people triggering me, via ridicule, being angry with me, etc. (whether it's justified or not), so any time I feel vulnerable about something I just lie. Especially if it's to relate to somebody else, because I feel so alienated all of the time because of bpd. I'm afraid of people finding out who I "really am," and me not being good enough, although I don't have much of a sense of self. I don't want to live like this, I want to be whoever I truly am, without feeling crippled by my bpd responses. I hope this all makes sense. If you have any advice or dbt skills I would greatly appreciate you dropping them in the comments!