I overlooked a ton of red flags in and now I found out my FP was cheating. I kept idealizing the aspects of our relationship when all this time he was treating me poorly. My gut had been confirmed after ignoring it so many times. I've made so many excuses for his mistakes convincing myself that he was the one for me and everything's started crashing down. It seems I needed to get hurt really bad to get out of my own head. Did I deserve it? *Did I?* I've cried and cried but nothing seems to take the pain out of my chest. I feel so betrayed. This is an actual nightmare. I don't know how I can handle this on my own...