For a long long time now I've felt like a fraud and that I must have Münchausen syndrome instead of schizophrenia and that I've just been making things up for years and "I can stop hallucinating whenever I deside to". So that I've only made up this "schizophrenia" just to avoid normal life and responsibilities. Well it is not true, I can't just "stop my symptoms whenever I want". My treatment team who has known me for 8 years now tries to reassure me that I am not making this up and I really am sick with schizophrenia, not Münchausens. 
Could this be a delusion somehow? I really don't know what's real and what's not in this case... or is this just me not accepting the fact that I am sick and would rather "have a condition where I can stop having symptoms whenever I want"?

I'm sorry if my writing is a mess it's hard to put my thoughts in words in a different language I hope this makes somehow sense