I have lots of issues. First off, after being bullied, I ended up developing an urge to murder all of them. I even got the plans all laid out. I often stare at people, to the point where they think I'm gay when I'm not. I even ended up considering murder and almost brought a knife to school. I'm too shy and too much of a coward to get help. I also have anxiety towards pain, so much so, that I can't do things most people can do. When something bad happens, I end up laughing. Like when I saw a kid being hit by a car, I laughed, and tried to stop laughing. And when I heard a dog died, I even smirked a little. After being bullied, I even became a hypochondriac, and asked LOADS of questions about me having a mental disorder. After being bullied, I then became smarter, like way more Intelligent than I was before. I also can get confused easily. Do I have a mental disorder?