Hi, I am a 33 year old mom of two, &amp; I just recently found out I have bpd. All these years and after so much pain I only found out now. Although I am relieved that what I have been feeling for so long actually has a name, I am having a hard time accepting that I have it. Even writing this now is hard for me. I find it very difficult to express myself and am embarassed. Maybe in time I can speak up more here. Baby steps..