I know people get excited thinking about their futures. Like getting a job, being with family. There is something that most people get excited for. But recently, I have lost all hope and excitement for the future. I am back for spring break, and I have peak anxiety right now, because I missed a therapy appointment. I feel so dependent on therapy. That is literally the only thing I look forward to so I can get all my anxieties off my mind. I've got no real friends, I am not happy, and I only study because I don't want the next few years of college be a waste. I wish I never had anxiety. I wish I never had OCD. I worked up the courage to go to a doctor, and she basically ignored EVERYTHING I said. Now, I am trying to find purpose behind life, but I am becoming very worried, because with my OCD, I am merely a prisoner in my body.