5 years ago when I was first diagnosed with this BPD, I was so unstable. I couldn't work more than 10 hours a week, and I was constantly calling out or going home early even on days I could get myself there. I dropped out of college, and I had a SA around this time 5 years ago as well. Every day I thought about suicide. Now, 5 years later, I work 5 days a week in an office job that I've had for the last two years. On weekends I'm also working my own business as a bridal makeup artist, my dream since I was a little girl- I'm fully booked this summer with a wedding every weekend!! I just bought a house with my partner. And  I'm back in school working on my bachelor's in psych and taking a summer class on top of all the work I'm doing 😊 I rarely have suicidal ideation anymore if ever. I am just so proud of myself and how far I've come in the last 5 years. Things do get better. That's not to say I don't still struggle and sometimes I still even get into crisis mode. But all therapy I have done has truly paid off and I am becoming someone I like and can be proud of!!