Hi. I wanted to share another point of view from [M24] who was diagnosted with BPD 4 years ago.
I red many articles about BPD and other personality disorders. When I was tested for the first time, my doctor announced me that I have almost every personality disorder. She later came to conclusion it's BPD. I hope. I hope it's only BPD :D
Anyways I never was at hospital 'cause of my mental issues, everytime I somehow managed it.
I was on Abilify 10mg, Olanzain 5mg and Venlafaxin Mylan 150mg and last halfyear on 15mg Ab and 150mg VenM. 3 weeks ago I stopped taking Abilify and I feel better.
In the country I live are drugs common. Last two years I was using meth, MDMA, weed, poppers and I tested some shrooms, LSD, and some unknown drugs. LSD and shrooms didn't worked because of Abilify or/and Olanzapin.
I've never had hallucinations, only hearing things.
I was manipulative, liar and promiscuite.
I had some therapy for 9 months.

In this moment I have great relationship (4 months yet, but for last 4 years it's some advance!)
This girl [F19] is perfect. She care, she doesn't lie and we talk about everything. She's really helping me out.
I had long-term relationships before and I almost destroyed that girl but somehow lately she became one of my closest friends.
I'm always trying to see things from better perspective. And I fight. Every day.

I'm off drugs over month (except weed) and in 4 months me and my gf are moving to England/Finland.


Ugh, I have so much more to say, so I'll edit this post everytime I can. Meanwhile, ask me anything :)