My boyfriend broke up with me. Because I'm a burden. Which I totally understand. When like- does everything I shared with him stop being ruined? He is still my friend and doesnt know I feel this way because he's going through too much for me to tell him but like, but I am deeply deeply heartbroken. My chest actually hurts all day, everyday. I feel like crying all the time. And today theres a Pride parade but I dont feel proud, I feel like a monster. I actually want to stop existing.

I am really ashamed that I overshared and he felt like he had to babysit me. Thats actually one of my worst fears. I am used to taking care of myself, but I fucked up really badly, because my eating disorder flared up again. And I like- hate myself actually. Completely. 

I am in therapy, but holy shit I am also in a crisis mode level of pain and I feel too embarassed to talk about it with someone else and be a burden on them too.