I've finally made friends. I'm experienced more happiness in the last month than I have my entire life.

At the same time though, I wish it didn't happen.

I used to just feel nothing. Now I get an hour or two of happiness, and 20 hours of sadness and doubting myself.

I have a million worries; what if im not good enough? what if im bothering them? why am i the only one that starts conversations? they said they dont mind me being quiet, but i feel dry. 

I used to have no expectations, and now i just feel broken.

I dont know what to do