I feel like either I am uninterested in many activities or I learn and contemplate about different subjects. I cannot seem to find a balance. I'll try to make an example although it will still be pretty abstract. I'm not great at this. For example if I listen to a discuss about ethics, I start with an opinion of my own, but then as a conversation goes on, I see different perspectives and reasons to form a different, better and more accurate opinion. Then I am eventually at a point where I do not know what belief to form and I sink deeper into depression. The problem is, when I engage in more physical activities, the more I do, the more depressed I get also. And back to beliefs, let's sat I can't come to a conclusion and leave everything that's been discussed in mind, I find myself later falling into the same thinking as before and it is as if I had learned nothing and the longer it goes on, the more stable the invalid opinion becomes. Am I alone? It is like I make my mission to get better but nothing changes. Pfff...