I’m kinda feeling like i’m not real? like not like dissociative not real feel, like i’m starting to believe the world isn’t real... idk what’s going on? i’m scared because it might not be real... i know it is but i’m really scared it isn’t or like this is a big dream... what’s going on? i don’t know... i have problems with derealization and maybe depersonalization and bad malaptive daydreaming (or however you say it) problems and i’m scared that my friends, my family, my memories, the world and everything i know in it isn’t real and i’m gonna wake up in some different world not knowing anyone and loosing all my friends and loved ones. i’m scared i’m gonna loose everything. the dissociation gets worse if i go outside. idk if this is the begging of some psychotic episode or something but i’ve never had something like this before but idk idk idk