(18M) I need to kill myself as soon as possible. I've had depression and anxiety for four years and they're both getting worse each year. Medication is starting to not work anymore and therapy is too far few between and I don't think it helps at all. I'm too stupid to study and too anxious to find work. I can't do anything. I am nothing. Even before I was depressed I was never a happy child. I know for a fact that I will never be happy, and that I'll only feel worse and worse over time. I will never achieve anything and I will never mean anything to anyone in a way that isn't burdensome. I have to die. Keeping me alive would be cruel.

Does anyone know any quick and easy methods? Knives and falling are too messy, hanging takes too long, I don't know how to make an exit bag, and I can't afford to buy a firearm. My best options I think are inciting a cop into shooting me and finding medication you can painlessly OD on. Can you guys help me at all?