I’m bipolar 1 and I’ve been on 200mg of lamotrigine for 5 years now and it’s been a lifesaver. I haven’t had any major episodes, but I do get minor mood swings (more prone to depressive) when my work life is higher stress. I do a lot to control my life now: good sleep schedule, eating well, exercise (yoga, totally recommend), regular psychiatrist check ins and I NEVER miss taking meds. Everything has been pretty stable with this controlled healthy lifestyle but I’ve been a mess for almost a week. Very minor things upset me til I’m sobbing and panicking, my self harm tendencies are back, I feel SO frustrated and can’t even express why, it’s even hard to write this post. Everything is just bad and wrong and overwhelming and frustrating and even when I’ve started feel better I can literally get another meltdown in seconds if something little happens. I have a supportive partner who’s helped calm me down a lot but I feel so guilty they have to baby me and waste so much time on me when I just have a repeat meltdown for another dumb little thing a few hours later. I just wanna feel stable like before. I don’t know what’s causing all this negativity and frustration and inability to live my life, I haven’t even been able to work much even from home cause I can’t focus and I’m so upset all the time. Please if anyone has experienced this or knows what’s up anything is appreciated. 

tldr: doing everything right but things are not going right, help