For as long as I can remember, I've always had a fear of one of my parents dying. It always comes and goes though.


At first I was afraid of my father dying, I was 8 back then. Then after a while it would be my mother, and sometimes I would have periods where I wouldn't worry at all.

Fast forward to today, I have a fear of my mother getting a bad illness. Whenever the thought occurs in my mind, it almost gives me a butterflies-like feeling which scares me because I usually get that when I think of something good. And this is not a happy feeling. 
But it also scares me even more because this could be my gut feeling kicking in.

I think the solution would be to just ask my mother to get checked for this illness. But I don't want to scare her by bringing it up, because she doesn't show any symptoms that I know of

Does anyone have any tips for this? It's been on my mind for a while now. And I don't knoe if I'm being irrational by thinking this