Does that happen to anyone else? I’m able to think about the concept of it, almost picture it even, but I can’t bring my mind to say it “out loud” internally. I always thought it was normal, but I’m starting to think that it’s a bit weird and I’m wondering if it’s happening to anyone else. And yes, it’s a specific word, but one I don’t want to trigger anyone and two it’s hard to type as well. I’d have to take long pauses in between the letters. Speaking it out loud doesn’t work at all. Also it’s several words that are like that for me and they are all similar in a way.

This sounds so silly ... but that’s how I am, suddenly something pops up in my mind and I need to resolve it IMMEDIATELY or I won’t be calm until it’s done. I’m posting this here because I suffer from mental illness and I guess it might be related to it in some kind because it’s a thing of the brain.