I'm done.  I just don't even care anymore.  I have no reason for being anymore.  

I'm just a complete fuck up.  I can't do anything right.  Everything I do someone else has to come behind and fix because I'm just such a major fuck up.

I don't have any friends.   My family, whatever I have left anyway, hates me.  I'm a complete after thought when it comes to any holidays.  They make plans to do anything but be with me on my birthday.  They wish everyone else happy fathers day but me.  Christmas  I may as well be alone.  

There is nothing left for me.  I already knew I was a worthless piece of shit.  But now it's being confirmed.    I'm a waste of air and space. 

But I'm sure I'll fuck up suicide too.  I've always have fucked it up before.  I can't even kill myself right.