Hello everyone. I suffer from paranoid schizophrenia but the condition is under control with meds...
I just feel the need to share a recurring phenomenon i experience whit the condition of which im not sure if real or just a symptom...

So tonight my husband and i (35 f) went out. There was some sorta small open air dj show at a bar nearby. It was pretty crowded and i didnt feel comfy right away. My husband was paying for our drink while i waited at one of the only free tables. So i stood there and instantly got a bad feeling as a group of 3 guys and a girl started whispering to eachother, sneaking glances at me and laughing. I tried my best to ignore them and lighted a cigarette but they wouldnt stop. I didnt even know who they are but somehow they mustve known me or something or i dont know. As soon as my husband came to the table this behaviour instatly stopped. They didnt even look at me no more. 

Now this isnt the first time something like this happened and i admit sometimes i may have immagined this but its just so disappointing and degrading everytime it happens no matter if immagined or real. I feel hurt.

Just wanna close myself in my safe space and forget about society alltogether.
Im sorry for the rant and please delete if not allowed.