idk how to describe what i am going through but i need to know if it’s something serious or am i just making it up,,,, so here it goes,,,, i’ve always known i was different like from a very young age i just wasn’t like the other kids around me,,, i was too in my head,,,constantly thinking but not thinking at the same time,,,and making up ridiculous stories but i believed them at the same time and i often pretended to be someone else and i would feel connected to whoever i was pretending to be i also talked to myself from a young age like 4 or 5 but it wasn’t myself i believed that the person i was talking to was there answering me back. i also have memories of doing fun things with a kid when i was really little but i never had any friends and when i asked my sister about it bc she was to be the only other kid around me at home growing up and she doesn’t know what i’m talking about and i feel like my memories are not real and i make them up but why would i make up something so stupid and i’ve had imaginary friends that comforted me and played with me when i was lonely but the thing is they’re in my head? like it’s not as if there’s a different voice i hear as if someone was standing right next to me they are more like thoughts but not my thoughts i know it’s someone else’s but i still get confused about it but they make jokes and comfort me and nag me all the time but in my head as thoughts as if they’re talking through me through thoughts it happens a lpt more when i’m dissociating and i’ve been doing that more and more lately like i can’t go a second without dissociating and my memory is getting worse and i can’t focus on anything anymore i can’t concentrate i feel like i’m becoming dumb bc i just can’t do anything anymore idk if i’m explaining this well enough but i k ow something is wrong with me but i just don’t know what