Hi everyone. I’m dealing with an odd form of anxiety and I’m wondering if anyone else has this because I feel alone. 

A month ago, I took an edible + tons of alcohol. This caused a severe adrenaline rush and a panic attack three days later. From my research, this seems to be a common situation. I don’t remember anything from the trip or high because I was blackout drunk. 

That initial week was absolutely brutal. Panic attacks that lasted for hours, adrenaline rushes, I was incapacitated. 

A month later, I’m better. BUT there’s this constant anxiety in my entire body, I feel sick almost. It’s worst in the morning. 

Here’s the odd part: when I’m out in public, especially when I’m talking to a stranger, this anxiety feeling seems to vanish. 

However, as soon as I get back home, the panic and the awful cortisol adrenaline rush anxiety feeling comes back and never seems to leave. My home has always been a place where I’d relax so I don’t know why I’m getting this severe anxiety at home. 

I’m not particularly stressed nor do I have any stressful events in my life. I legitimately think I have anxiety of anxiety. 

It’s hell because I can never truly relax at home. I’m constantly in a state of anxiety when I’m alone. 

Going to bed is the WORST. The moment I try to relax adrenaline rushes just completely dominate my legs and restlessness every keeps me awake. 

I’m not exaggerating—for the past week, I’ve averaged about 4 hours of sleep a night with melatonin.  

I just want to return back to normal :( It feels like I can’t truly be alone with anymore. 

Does anyone have anything similar? Anxiety that goes away when you’re out in public but comes back when you’re at home?