I (F19) have had depression probably since i was about 12 years old and it was always to some degree relatively tolerable. Negative thoughts would take control here and there. There were days and weeks where i could hardly eat or get out of bed, but generally speaking it was manageable.

About a year ago all of that changed. I didnt know a depression like this was even possible. My heart just feels like a black hole. An empty bottomless void. Theres no joy in life anymore. I’m nobodies favorite... i just want to feel loved