23 f I have no friends that make me happy. My only friend lives in a diff city. The guy that I liked was the only person I socialised with and made me happy but he threatened to block me just so he could get what he wants and I deleted him because of that reason. Now I feel alone and nothing left to love. And tired to love anyone else. 

My dad left when I was 10, my mum never was affectionate. my older sister turned my bro against me and my sis always treated me badly. I feel emptiness and pain and nothingness in my heart. Please what can I do? I want genuine happiness and connection. It feels so difficult to connect with people because I feel like I have given up or have trust issues, thinking they will go against me and hurt me all over again. i feel like I’m ready to snap.