I keep impulsively doing expensive things that i shouldnt be so im broke but the idea of going to my work makes me wanna die and when im at work its even worse. I wanna quit but like i said im broke and ive been looking for another job but i keep overthinking and stop looking without ever applying.          
                          
I live with my parents and 2 brothers and my brothers think im rolling in cash cause i used to have a lot saved up with proof until i spent it all really quickly and my parents know i spent the money like 2 months ago but since then they think ive gone back to saving. Outside of the people I live with everyone also thinks im rolling in cash cause i told them how much i have saved. I dont have anyone i can actually tell about this cause i never made any connections like that and if i ask my parents for therapy im afraid ill be treated differently or get lectured or something. I care alot about how people see me but i barely even have enough to make it to work and back now and i feel like im pretty much cornered. Any suggestions on what i should do?