So the title sounds weird but I'll explain why I'm sure I'm a scarecrow (for humans) . My name is Lucia and this is my fck story. Since I was little 4-11 and 11-21 years.....I was always alone ALWAYS! I've never had a best friend, only very few normal friends who already had another best friend themselves. I was a completely normal girl (no disability or anything) so I didn't have any external quirks at all, well, except I was always a bit fat but it There were other girls who were fat too and had a lot of friends.

I, on the other hand, NEVER. I was always very nice and helpful to people (I think that was a mistake) I was always more open than the other girls, but somehow I was always extremely excluded and also very often bullied by the boys. Even later at work. The psychologists I had could not give me an explanation for this. I sometimes wonder if I could be cursed?! Every time I sat somewhere in a public place bus, cinema, theater, school and also in the bus stop...

No matter and I'll tell you NO MATTER how crowded it got there (don't worry everything was before 2020) Nobody wanted to sit next to me only when people had to because the owners of the respective place said so due to lack of space....look I was always well-groomed , I always showered and styled. I also have a Latino look with fair skin (can't it all be because of discrimination??).

I always smiled very politely. I've been in Italy since 2020 and it's stayed the same, even the people, especially the women, finally overdid me even though I didn't do anything to them. I'm so broken... I just don't feel welcome in this world. I can't go on living like this

Sorry for my bad English I'm a german.