And my hypochondria/heath anxiety started coming back as well. I'm convinced that my body is developing a serious condition and who knows, maybe I am indeed having it. I'm freaking out, I wanted to go to the hospital but also scared that they would tell me I only had some time left. Then I would spend nights convincing myself that it's okay, I'll die anyway and dying isn't that painful. 

I'm so tired of it, and stressed out. This happened again as I'm waiting on some big news and it could be bad news. 

Right now I have back pain, chest pain, muscles spasm. I can't sleep,  can't focus at work. Don't eat much but haven't dropped weight yet. 

I don't know what to do to get out.