i am a 27(f) and I have been dating my bf for 4 years now. He is amazing, treats me very well, and we are honest/open about everything. We both don’t have many friends but we mostly only talk to people that are the same sex as us, etc I only have female friends. This is not out of distrust or anything but we don’t have many friends lol. I don’t tell him he can’t talk to females but he does game and interacts with them. This doesn’t really bother me, but I always have these horrible ideas in my head like these girls are going to try to get with him even tho we know we’re together. I’m sure a lot of you may know how egirls can be. I always picture bad things happening like a girl trying to hookup with him or get with him but in my dreams/thoughts he doesn’t engage. We have talked about this but I ask so much and he is kinda getting annoyed with me to which I understand. I just can’t help this horrible thoughts and idk what is causing it. It’s eating me alive and I don’t want to think this way anymore. I have these thoughts so often. He also went to HS with a lot of gorgeous girls from what I have seen on Instagram and that def doesn’t help me. I know if he wanted to be with one of them he probably would’ve by now. I guess this is happening bc I love him so much and I’m afraid of losing or him or having girls from hs or like try to get with him. I love him and I know he would never cheat on me. 

He is very attractive and has a good job. These girls online for example don’t know what he looks like, which I guess is a plus. Growing up I was told by many that all the girls were over him but he only had minor little relationships prior to high school. Growing up I was the ugly friend and never got much attention, so maybe this is where these thoughts are stemming from ? I have definitely “glowed up” (lol) but I still am not confident with my appearance. I trust him and know nothing would happen but I don’t have anyone to talk about this as I like to keep my private life, private. He also doesn’t compliment me much and isn’t very affectionate, sex life is good tho. He does have ADHD so it is hard for him to cuddle and etc so I understand that but I would still like some physical affection. We are both the jealous type but I feel like I am def more jealous. Idk maybe I’m over thinking things but I would like to hear some opinions/advice.