I can be doing well feeling pretty balanced and whatnot. I'll get an idea of something I really wanna do/try. It's something I know I'd enjoy and get a lot out of. Not to mention it's something I genuinely think will benefit my working towards a job in my field. It sounds great, I can picture myself doing it. I love my professors and know they'd support me in every way. I wanna discuss this idea with them.

But I'm scared of talking to them about it and letting them help me get things started because I honestly never have any clue if I'm gonna end up finishing it. I never really know if I'm acting on something because I'm genuinely excited and in a good place and can handle it. Or if it's the beginning of an episode. And even if it starts off genuine, it's always so terrifying knowing any minute I can lose that motivation.

I know I can't be the only one who struggles with that :(