Okay so last year my 2 year long relationship ended and it was an awful breakup.He gave me panic attacks and i even puked because he made me so anxious. i was so scared i would mess it up and make it officially end so i just bit my tongue and was scared even tho i used to love him. we broke up last February and i finally stopped crying over him when i met my current boyfriend. Rn i am in a sort of stage where just being around him makes me mad and i get really anxious around him. My current way to cope is talking crap about him or being really loud when he’s around where he can hear or just being rude about him which i know is really unhealthy and wrong. I really don’t know another way to help. It feels like it’s me trying to prove to myself that i’m better than it and i don’t need to be anxious around him or mad, or that i’m trying to show that i’m fine without him and my friends are starting to get mad and say i should be over it by now and stop. i don’t know what i can do to help myself not get anxious or scared around him but also not talk crap 24/7 or be loud and annoying around him.