I just woke up. It’s 8:52 am. I feel so dizzy in my bed. And I feel so weak. And my heart is beating fast and I feel so anxious.  I just am really sad.  I hate dealing with this. My parents don’t want me to go to therapy because they think it’s weird. My parents don’t really believe in mental illnesses. And also they think that if I tell things about my childhood they will take my little brother away (my mom is an alcoholic) (parents always yell at each other) I’m struggling everyday. It’s getting worst and worst. I imagined it would get better but it isn’t. I don’t feel like a real human being. I have such bad self esteem. I’m just so exhausted and sad. I wish anxiety never existed because it really ruined my life. I’m scared to stand up because I feel dizzy and I don’t want to pass out. What on earth can I do.