To get this part out of the way, I feel very comfortable being talking in online spaces (especially when they're anonymous), and I feel very comfortable being open with my boyfriend   


I struggle so much to open up to my therapist, I struggle to be open with my family, I struggle to write emails to professors or feeling comfortable visiting them in office hours, I struggled during the semester to make new friendships   


I tell half truths or lies when I feel too anxious about saying the truth, or I will plan my responses if certain topics get brought up around certain people to skirt around sharing some things, even if the truth is literally not that big of a deal and I can recognize that if I actually think through what would happen if I were open and honest   


I will procrastinate certain conversations or emails, and then I'll feel super guilty about not reaching out sooner and procrastinate more   


I also don't have close friends in my daily life right now, and I'm kind of comfortable but it's also a bit lonely if I think about it