Reddit has been the only place where I can freely talk about what I’m struggling with which has actually helped me a little. But anyways yesterday i commented on a post that asked something like ‘what illness/problem did you not know was serious till it got worse?’

I spoke about my depression and very briefly mentioned how I wished I realised I was depressed when I was young and got help. Because now it’s become really bad to a point I do other things to try make myself happy. 

I didn’t expect a reply but I did get one and it was someone saying ‘what I gathered from the comment is that you like to complain about being depressed but have taken no steps to try and make yourself better’.

What the actual hell is wrong with people? Like of all the damn things they could have said, they said that. Anyone with any understanding of depression would know you can’t just simply help yourself and get better. And I know I’m not faking it, it’s unfair the one place I go to for help is giving me a reason not to seek help at all. They don’t understand how hard I’m trying to be here and live like a normal person. How cruel do you have to be to just assume that and even go as far as telling me?

I honestly hate ppl so much, no one actually cares about anyone and wonder why so many people are struggling mentally. I’m sorry I have no idea wht I’m saying anymore but the point is, why do I have to prove myself to a stranger? Do normal ppl cut themselves and cry themselves to sleep until they feel nothing but numbness? Do normal people have to laugh and smile to make everyone else happy and pretend they’re happy every damn day? Do they struggle with bad memories and all tht annoying stuff were you wish you just forgot everything? Cause last time I checked, that’s not normal. I hate how that comment alone made me feel so invalid, it’s not fair.