My ex and I were dating most of last year. At first, everything went great. I thought we would get married someday. I fell for him so fast and hard, but things really changed after a while. I was always attending to his anxiety and taking care of him. My brother passed away, and I felt like he wasn't there for me at all. I went through a mental health crisis of sorts in December when my grief and anxiety about moving to a new city came to a head. My anxiety triggered his, and he ended up breaking up with me at the worst moment in my life.

He broke my heart in every sense of the word. We stayed in touch, but mostly as friends. Then, recently he has been saying he wants me back and wants to prove himself. The problem is that I just don't trust him anymore. Us talking all the time triggers my anxiety because I don't know if I'm making the right decision by not giving him another chance. It kills me to think of him moving on from me with someone else. I hate thinking about all our past memories because I was so happy once. I have such a hard time making permanent decisions like this.