I’m literally about to snap. I just can’t live like this anymore. My brain is... so full of thoughts... i don’t even hear what i think. I feel like everything in my brain is going at a 200x speed and i literally can’t stop worrying. I always have this heavy feeling in my heart, and it’s like, telling me that everything in my life is going to go wrong. My heartbeat is SO FAST. I shake ALL THE TIME, my hands, my legs, even my head. I literally feel like i’m going to pass out all day long. And it’s been like this forever, and i dont want to live like this. It’s so humiliating. Everyday is a fight to stay alive and i don’t even fight anything, i just smoke weed and distract myself from the real world. I’m failing college. My love life is a complete mess, even my last date told me that he was worried bc i kept shaking. So i need HELP, is anybody familiar with what i’m going through? Any tips? And yeah maybe all of that isn’t caused only by anxiety but.. i can’t go to a doctor cause he WILL give me drugs (already went during high school and it didn’t help at all.) and i’m addicted to things really really fast. Please give me some advice, what should i do..? Thanks (also, sorry if my english isn’t correct i’m actually french so.. yeah)