It’s so draining. Does anyone else experience this. My boyfriend (I hesitate to even call him that because he doesn’t act like one) is so distant and it’s so fucking triggering. He does things that shows me he cares but he does not speak my love language, basically. He shows me in music and through material things but I need someone to ask me how I’m feeling and actually care about it. I need someone to randomly hug me and kiss me. I need someone to show me physically and verbally that they care about me deeply and want to be with me. Otherwise I immediately start assuming they don’t like me. He used to talk to me way more and recently it’s like he’s forcing himself to. I spent my entire childhood being dismissed and I don’t want to spend my whole life dealing with the same kinda emotionally unavailable energy. I just don’t feel it anymore. But to be fair I get this way with anyone so is it me or him.