Hi all, 
Recently I’ve been doing really well! My substance abuse has been getting better, I’m more active, I’m sleeping more, and my new cocktail of meds is working really well. Every time I feel like I’m doing well, I think it’ll last forever, when the reality is that it won’t, just like every emotion. I think my upbringing has normalized this feeling that chaos is comforting and that stability is unnerving and actually boring. I compare myself to other people with BPD (not judging just observing, if that makes sense) and J have an overwhelming feeling of balance because I feel good! Has anyone else felt like this? I feel like I’m invalidating my experiences with BPD and my diagnosis, which subsequently triggers me into another episode. Thoughts?