My ex is still my FP and the dynamic has become super fucked. He hasn't spoken to me properly in about 4 months but it's his birthday today and I'm going to call him and hopefully talk.

I am wigging the fuck out

We had a brief, like total 2 minute conversation about the storage unit we shared on Friday and I was crying for a good half hour after. He sent me a text later that night and I had to spend 20 minutes on a date freaking the fuck out and crying again.

I just.

Idk. Had anyone else been here. I love him so much but it's coexisting with so much anger and hurt at the way I've been treated and it's so
Hard.