I'm not here to generalize, I'm here to talk about my personal experiences with toxic partners.

I got to thinking about my previous relationships and how at first it seemed like I was pushing them away and splitting at their smallest slights, blowing things out of proportion etc. 

But now I realize that I wasn't splitting. If anything, my intuition would tell me to gtfo bcuz their behaviour was too toxic, condescending, and hurtful to me.. so I would leave them. But I'd always come back bcuz I wouldn't give up on this fairytale bullshit idea that we could make it work. Plus I couldn't bring myself to believe that I could possibly end a relationship without fighting tooth and nail for it. So I would go back, only to be treated like shit again and this time even worse, because I dared to leave them before and the cycle repeats itself.

I've been made to feel crazy bcuz I didn't know how to let go of these people who were hurting me so deeply. Bcuz I loved them enough to forgive how awful they were to me. Anyway, I now know better.