23/F in my first marriage..things have always been difficult, I thought I could make it work regardless but now I’m realizing he’s definitely not my person. I trusted in his vision that things would be better for us in ky but that’s not the case , now I just want to go back home to az and get back into therapy and make some money but I’m so scared of actually making that choice, I don’t feel like I can actually trust myself to do what’s better for me, I need to be selfish bc otherwise this marriage is just breaking me down, I know I need to let go but why is it sooooo fucking painful? I wanted this to work out so bad, I left everything that was familiar to me. I just feel so lost and lonely