I don’t actively want to kill myself right now, I just know I feel apathetic towards living and participating in life.

We’re all going to die and I honestly don’t care for the time in between now and when it happens for me. 

The good things in life are only good because they provide a break and time away from things that are otherwise mundane and boring, like school or work. Lying on the couch and watching TV is fun and all until you have to go to bed for school/work the next day. So even then it’s not really fun, it’s just a fleeting distraction much like having a more productive hobby.

It just feels like a drag. I don’t care for working until my legs give out for some company only squeezing my labor for as much monetary value as I can produce. Office politics, professionalism, social status, reputation, it all makes me want to barf.

I just don’t give a shit. It’s all so boring and pointless to me. I’d much rather be in a state of perma-sleep, whatever that may be.