So my office decided they wanted to take a trip to a national park. Initially I was hesitant because I’m scared of being left out but I convinced myself that it would be okay and I should challenge myself to be more extroverted. However they decided to change the location of the trip to a lake where they would like to kayaking. Unfortunately I cannot swim and I am a bit terrified of the water. I am afraid that if I go I will just be sitting by myself watching every body else do something until we go out to eat. However I am also scared that maybe I could have fun and maybe I should try and go with them in the lake anyways. What if I am not allowing myself to have fun? I do not know why it is so hard for me to make a decision about this and I just wish someone would tell me what to do. I know that I am definitely just making a bigger deal about it than it is but I am just so anxious about the “what ifs” that now I feel I can’t make a decision about it without feeling bad about what I choose to do.