i always want to believe that people aren’t scared of us, that they don’t hate us but at every twist and turn i take, i always come back to the conclusion that most people dislike us, and a lot. it sucks that rarely anyone cares enough to search up or look into how we feel living with the illness as well, i feel like if they just did a different kind of simple google search, they’d learn that we aren’t monsters and that we truly are NOT trying to hurt others. it’s the illness, not US, we have feelings as well, we aren’t just something to be thrown in the trash. i feel like so many people with bpd work incredibly hard to NOT let their bad thoughts go out into the world and it’s terrible that people can’t see that hard work and congratulate it because all they see are the few or many slip ups. this illness is incredibly hard to even come close to “managing” and i just wish people knew that.

(also when i said “a different kind of google search” that was referring to a picture i had that was a screenshot of google’s “people also ask” section and these were the results: 1. what are the 9 criteria for bpd? 2. can a person with bpd really love? 3. is bpd a serious mental illness 4. are people with bpd dangerous) i don’t know, maybe i’m overreacting to these results but i’m sorry, just because i happen to have bpd does not mean i am incapable of love and it does not mean i’m dangerous. and yes, it is a serious mental illness, why would someone even ask that?