So I've explained to my group of friends what I go through on multiple occasions and explained how I deal with it so that I don't lash out at someone who doesn't deserve it because of a random trigger or split. I told them the best thing for me when I'm out and get overwhelmed or frustrated is to get some air and some space that's quiet where I can be alone, it helps me alot to go out onto the step or take a walk and have a smoke just to breathe and try to relax when I feel that feeling building up inside. But more often than not they follow me out sometimes even half a block while I'm telling them "please go back I need to be alone right now I need some space" and they don't listen antil they get their words in about how they're there for me which usually starts a fight because at that point I can't hold in my irrational emotions. This has been causing distancing with my friends and I'm not sure what to do as I've tried to explain when I'm like that I need to be alone and somewhere quiet that I know they're there for me but in that situation it's not something that will help me, I just don't know what to do I don't want to drive people away anymore but when they follow me when I leave to have space and breathe or when I come back once I'm back to socializing they say "wow it's nice to finally have you here joining us and not being quiet and looking depressed"