I’m on the end of getting over a pretty shitty breakup. It was only shitty because I made it shitty. She asked for space and promised she would come back but I couldn’t believe. My overthinking officially pushed her away and even after I constantly would ask her what went wrong. All while promising her that I was going to back off. I didn’t. We finally got into a huge argument the other day and she has basically blocked me on everything. At first it was really upsetting but for once I don’t see her every time I go on twitter, instagram, etc. and it’s so nice. I have no choice but to not think about and talk to her. I’m not sure if she’s blocked my number but I honestly don’t really care to find out.


But, this post is to say I’m so incredibly proud of myself. It took A LOT for me to get here but I am finally moving on. Not to date someone else but just moving on with my life. I am acknowledging what I did wrong and what I need to work on. I am now realizing that my BPD is to blame for some of my actions but is no excuse and that I need to grow and try to figure out how I can be better for myself, my loved ones, and any future significant other that I have. 


I know that every day won’t be perfect and I won’t be able to necessarily control how I am feeling but I think it will help to know that I at least know where my feelings/actions stem from. 

The thing about reaching an incredibly low point is that there is no where to go but up. I am feeling very optimistic about my future and will not let my BPD win. 

