Hi everyone, I'm a 24 y/o male diagnosed with BPD. I was diagnosed some time ago, I went into therapy after losing everyone again and I started feeling kinda okay after a couple weeks. Now after 2 months of feeling okay I'm starting to spiral and kinda relapse into sadness, shame, depression, anxiety and anger outlashes. I stopped therapy, I have this terrible feeling that it's not like I want to commit suicide, it's that I have to. Even though I'm with people and around them I still feel really alone. Since I lost my FP there's not much I can say to anyone. I don't know what to do anymore and I am really really tired