Some background information: I went to university for a degree in neuro. To be completely honest, I hated it. I finished it because that's the mentality. At least finish the degree so you can have something when you apply for jobs. A few years out of university, I went back to school, this time I went to a community college for a 2 year diploma. I loved the program I was in. I felt motivated to study and learn (something I struggled with in university). Because of the recent job market and the whole worldwide situation right now, I've struggled to find a job. Most job postings want more experience. It's been about 2+ years of struggling to find a job. 

Now to the more relevant information: I had a family member say they knew of someone looking for a position in a field slightly adjacent to mine. I agreed to meet with this person for an interview. This interview completely wrecked me. First of all, they pretty much laughed in my face and was fixated on the fact that I don't have access to a car. I told this person that I would take the bus to this workplace (it's a pretty well populated city so the bus system is pretty good, furthermore it only takes 2 buses to get there.... 30 minutes tops if the weather is bad). I told this person, I've never had an issue taking the bus, I took it school. They still kind of laughed. Mind you, THIS PERSON SHOWED UP 10 MINUTES LATE TO THE INTERVIEW! THEN they seemed VERY fixated on the fact that I've worked customer service jobs in the past. The tone in which this person spoke made it very clear they look down on customer service jobs and don't view them as actual work (or at least skilled work). Some examples being : (1)"If you don't get this position what are you going to do....work at (customer service store)?". (2)"Give an example of a time you experienced stress" To which I replied with an example from one of my customer service jobs. To which they replied "That's not stress. That's work stress. I was talking about MENTAL STRESS". (3)"Oh.. what did you have to do to apply for those customer service jobs... just fill out an application" (all while laughing). Other things said during the interview include... "You went to university and then it looks like it kind of went downhill from there ... working customer service jobs and going to community college. The real kicker here is that they just has a community college diploma and the position they are working in requires only that college diploma. Another thing asked was about my language skills with English to which I replied that they were really good. To test this, this person said "write a letter about anything, any topic". I feel like this one is a bit on me, in retrospect I should have written some kind of persuasive letter on why I should be hired or something. On the spot I couldn't really think of anything though (if the person had give me a topic or given a page of random information and said to form a letter on that I could have easily done that). So after maybe 5 minutes, they see the empty sheet and said... "Ohh I guess it's not that good since you didn't write anything". In the end, they pretty much said, I would just get a volunteer position (which I'm perfectly fine with) in spite of my lack skills. I felt like I had to take this position because of the family member that suggested it, I knew in my gut I should have turned it down but I know everyone in the family will say... well why didn't you take it... it's a good position. So I said yes. 

Ever since the interview, I've been severely depressed. I don't want to get out of bed, I can't sleep, I don't feel the need to eat. I just cry randomly. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I just have no motivation. Because it's a volunteer position and I haven't signed anything, I'm just considering going on the first day and just saying this position isn't right for me. 

If you've made it this far, thank you! Leave some words of encouragement or a friendly/funny thought. Could really really use a laugh or something to smile about.