I have this constant need to prove myself in all aspects of my life. For example when I got my degree at university I thought it would all of a sudden prove to myself and others that I was intelligent, but getting the results only alleviated the feeling that I am somewhat stupid momentarily. But rather than accepting this idea of chasing qualifications wasn’t going to improve my self esteem I starting my masters (which I completed a month ago and am still waiting on my results).

Another, more vein, example would be that when I’m getting ready for a night out I’ll feel “pretty” right up until I see any other girl and feel ugly in comparison. 

There’s plenty more examples of me doing this but I’m scared I’m going to continue on this path of chasing goals for the wrong reasons. I just want to feel worthwhile and I don’t know how to do that. 