I hate Christmas. Since my granny died Christmas is not the same anymore. But this year is special. A sad kind of special. I looked forward to celebrate Christmas with my family and especially the first Christmas with my girlfriend. She had plans to introduce me to her family and we just wanted to enjoy some time together. But due to this motherfucking Covid fuck and my job I spend Christmas away from all my loved ones. The only ones around are my colleagues and well it's strange. I'm not alone but I feel so lonely and left behind. I hate my life and all this shit going on. 
Sorry for taking your time if you read this. I just had to share my thoughts because I have no one to talk to or even understand.
Thanks