For some reason I have always been very all or nothing with my FPS. Generally, I don’t care much about my relationships with other people, sure I see them as my friends but if they left it wouldn’t matter much to me. However if my FP just started talking to other people it would literally break me. Because of this I have had to remove myself from my FP, I’ve started ignoring her and being dry so that she will stay away from me and I’ll feel like I pulled away instead of feeling like she left me.

While this is helping a lot and keeping me from falling apart due to her not wanting to hangout with me as much as before. I realize that this could be damaging to her and it’s unfair, but I don’t know what to do. It’s making me feel better but at what cost..?