Im in secondary 3, I don't go to school bc I'm way too depressed and it just seems like such a difficult thing to do. And it just seems so pointless and tiring and when I see poeple at school I get reminded of how l lonely I am and I have no friends and I can't make any friends either bc I'm too much of a wimp and even if I do talk to someone I either get ignored or I start talking about depression. I literally cannot talk about anything else other than dying and how much life sucks. And no one in school is in the position to understand me. I've even told the teachers that I want to die bc I don't know my communication skills are trash. I'm seeing the psychiatrist and he says I have depression and anxiety. I'm not as sad anymore but I still want to die and I feel like a fucking failure and I don't know why I exist I just want something or someone to give me meaning in life and make me feel loved but nothing of the sort will happen. I'm all alone and I have no oke for me and I want to die. I'm a good for nothing piece of shit.