So firts time post here and what not. Formatting sucks cause mobile. 


So i have been helping set up for my nephews birthday party for today. My friend knows that balloons can trigger me back to my abuse and alot of shit come up so i avoid them when i have to. Well the party was ment to be at the park so no balloons and i was breathing easy about it. Until we had to change the plan from the park to my friends house. Well her sister decided to get a fuck ton of my biggest trigger. Balloons.... so now im hiding in my friends bedroom until the end of the party and feeling like absolute shit about not being there.... yay.... 😦