i feel like i’m going in circles, and i genuinely can’t tell if i’m making mountains out of molehills, whether i’ve been oblivious for the last four months, or if everything’s fine and i’m completely losing it. 

i’m half convinced my flatmates at uni only tolerate me and i’ve been forcing my friendship on them and because they’re all lovely people they’re just putting up with me and won’t just tell me to fuck off. my closest friend here suddenly seems standoffish (previously we’ve been pretty affectionate) and now i’m just confused, anxious and depressed and don’t want to leave my room. and i don’t feel like i can tell anyone because they’re just gonna lie and say it’s fine and i’m not doing anything wrong but nothing will change. i don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable but i hate being alone like this.