Im waiting to get my pulmonary function test done and they require to take your weight , when I seen what I was I felt like I could vomit . I know for a fact this is gonna push me to a dark space . All I felt was nothing but hate and disgust towards myself . Sometimes I just wish I’d end up in hospital or something for someone to care about me . My Ed was ok but I don’t know why I’m so overwhelmed and thinking this way right now . I just wanna lay under my bed and sob my eyes out .