(sorta became a rant 🤭there’s a ? within tho😹)
😐 for the longest, if you asked me what i thought was wrong me, i would have told you PMDD (premenstrual dyspeptic syndrome) bc literally, when i very first started my period, i guess i would black out and say i wanted to kill myself and act a lil… psycho. I remember my mom telling me that and i asked my brother and he confirmed it… literally don’t remember acting like that around that time. Anyways, fast toward to me being 24, over the past year i would say, is when i began writing notes in my phone to try and keep track of my moodiness. 

In 2016-2017 can’t remember, was diagnosed bipolar ll. As the years went on and especially in 2021, i started to feel like everything just seems worse. I felt like even i was beginning to notice how extremely moody i was on a day to day basis. So, eventually i decided to start keeping track of my thoughts, high and low thoughts. Bc i thought maybe it is just around my period that i get extra moody.

Out of the past year or so, I’ve recorded only about 3 back to back months where around/on my period, i was very depressed and suicidal ideation and just was not doing good at all. 

I say all this to ask, ladies, i understand we are already wired to be emotional and having a period does NOT freaking help😐 but like, do your emotions get sorta, ‘crisis’ bad at times around your monthly? Ik that it doesn’t even have to b our time of the month to be in a crisis or just extra sensitive but man🥴

There were other months where i was feeling good and i would be crying happy tears instead or just in a good mood that my period came, so it can goooo! Lol 

Ladies, i luv y’all 🫶🏽 &amp; this is world is so messed up. Always has been. It seems like everybody is against us but obsessed with us and want to control us??? . (I’m not trying to imply any hatred or anything like that towards men, but this moment rn is for my beautiful women!)✨🫶🏽💖 ima always stick up and stand by my baby’s !