This might be a stupid and silly story but here goes 

I basically met this guy on a pro choice suicide site when I was in a low place. He messaged me and I felt a connection. Of course, no one can be really connected emotionally after a few messages. I should have been aware of the red flags. 

He told me he was a sociopath, and other horrible things he’s done. Yet I was so desperate in that moment I ate it up. Not realizing he cared 

He called me racial slurs and referred to me as if I was his only. 

In regards to him using the n word I was shocked. I kinda joined in used racial slurs in return to make it seem like I was ok with it. Not realizing I was hurt. Maybe that was my fault 

What once made me happy and high made me miserable and sad. He broke up with me (2 weeks btw). From there I blocked him and moved on. But he messaged me back on the site in which we met and mentioned that he wouldn’t let me go “so easily”. I got so scared I reported him and posted about it publicly. 

I have made a conscious effort to not ass fuel to the fire other than what I posted and now he’s firing back. Other people are commenting and seem to agree that I fucked up Now I wonder if a part of this is my fault