I wish I could select more than one CW, there’s also mentions of substance abuse.
I’ve progressed so much, I don’t drink as much anymore, I still drink a bit on really bad days but not every single time I’m sad, before I’d grab a bottle of wine or whatever else I could get my hands on from the cellar and drink all of it alone in my room and the self harm too,I haven’t cut myself in 5 years, before Monday that is and now here I am, 21 years old trying to hide my cuts at work. I drink pretty much every night when I get home from work. I’m moodier than I have been in years, my mood swings are more common than they usually are which is saying something. I’m pushing people away. I decided to get my piercings redone (which is awesome)
I sucks watching myself regress after so much progress, so much growing up. Maybe I should start smoking again. Idk if it will help now, but it did the last time I went through this shit. 
Second puberty is going great you guys.