Hi, I have some nights where I have this high where I have all the confidence and motivation to change my life and a rush of euphoria also a lot of energy but when it’s day I’m mostly in bed doing nothing just listening to music all day. and feeling nothing. I have had depression for over 3 years and always rejected medication but it might be my only option. I feel a lot better when summer arrives and I feel totally different where I can do what I want without feeling like it’s the hardest job ever like getting out of bed and going outside, it’s those nights but the whole summer. My therapist always said I had depression but I brought up those nights and summer and she suspects I might have bipolar and I’m just scared it might be true. I know you guys can’t know because you don’t know me but it’s just scary.  I don’t really have anyone in my family with bipolar (I think?). My aunt from my father’s side has schizophrenia.