I'm a uni student currently in my second year. I attempted a year of uni a few years ago where I studied pre-med in a different city. I did fine in the first semester but got overwhelmed by the end of the year. My anxiety got so bad that I wouldn't leave my bed or be able to start assignments. The only thing I could do was take my mind off it by procrastinating. Eventually I started having panic attacks where I would feel like I was observing my body from a third person perspective. Afterwards I dropped out, moved back home, and worked in hospitality for the next few years.

Eventually I found a girlfriend and worked up the courage to go back to uni in my home city. The first semester was great, I did well in my assignments and didn't feel anxious at all. I began having problems again in my second semester. I didn't leave my room for days and only studied or did assignments the day before the due dates. Somehow I managed to push through with decent grades and convinced myself that I would be better next year.

Its three weeks from the end of my first semester of 2022 and all my problems have come back. I wont reply to texts or phone calls from anyone for whatever reason. I am behind on all my assignments and lectures. I am currently taking medication but I don't think I can do it anymore. I am considering dropping out today which means I will have wasted even more time and money. I am convinced I will never achieve anything with my life and depression is starting to creep in. How do I get out of this cycle. It is my dream to work in the field I am studying and get married to my gf and start a family. But I cant ever get there and I'm thinking some not so good thoughts rn.