Heya
I'm not sure whether it's my huge lack of identity and years of depression/bpd, but I dont have any passions. I dont have hobbies.

 I had to stop my flexible part time work (uber driver) because of anxiety, and I sit around all day and have no hobbies or interests. My major depressive episode isnt helping, but I was reflecting and realised I haven't really had any for a long, long time. I literally dont have dreams or a dream job. I dont think I have since I was a kiddo.

I mainly watch YouTube and mess around on my phone, I do a lot of cleaning and if I can focus, I read. My friends live quite far from me. I'm really pretty broke.

I'm not sure if this is a 'does anyone else'post or a, please advise post. I'm just so lost.