Just curious how effective they actually are. I live in Germany so costs will probably be not much of a problem but I've always wondered what they actually are. Are they just happy pills that make body produce happy hormones? Are they short term (like Ritalin) or long term? Do they trick you're brain so you can appreciate yourself more or do they just kill negative thoughts. 
Sry for the ignorant questions that I could just Google you probably have better stuff to do but I prefer reading responses from people on forums over steril articles
I've been thinking of seeking therapy since I do have happy moments still and I still have friends. I'm afraid of losing that if my depression keeps getting worse which it is I've been in a downward trend for a few years now. I feel like Im ruining my life by not doing anything. I'm failing in school and socially and it's agonizing. Man do I love my incoherent writing style lmao.
 Anyone with experience or knowledge on Anti-depressants: useless? Helpful? Life changing?