My 25 year old paranoid schizophrenic son is currently in a psychiatric hospital. He is in rough shape and in full psychosis. My heart breaks for him. How hard it must be to live in his own head. The voices he hears drive him crazy. I'm so afraid he'll attempt suicide. I feel utterly helpless. He is technically an adult, so the information they'll give me is limited. He doesn't trust me (his illness) and won't sign anything so that I'll have access to his medical records. 

Schizophrenia SUCKS. It stole my bright, beautiful boy and turned him into mush. It's horrific to love someone so much and not be able to do thing 1 about their problems. 

I cried for 2 hours after hearing from him. Why? Why??? Why is this illness attacking my son and turning him into something I don't recognize??