I've been through depression myself and I'm just really curious, what is/are the reason(s) for your depression? Personally for me, it is because I had no friends, and I feel awfully lonely and I wanted to kill myself everyday because life felt as meaningless as ever. I've been to more than 10 counseling sessions up to date. It was truly the bottom of my life. I get depressed even from just thinking about it, like why did I have to go through all that, why am I so pathetic why is my life so miserable.  
I've heard of cases where people are depressed for 12 years, I wonder what was it that caused that they had to battle it for so long, they have it much worse off than me.  
Hence I written this post today because I wanted to know what were the reasons for other people's depression, if you don't mind opening up I would give a listening ear :). I want to be able to understand you better because I know how it is like to feel that miserable and still push through life as I had high functioning depression and anxiety.