I don’t know how to live anymore. I feel unmotivated to do anything. I hate waking up. Everytime I try to do better, by working out and eating clean and journaling, I end up in the same depressed state after a couple of days. I’m a person of faith but haven’t even prayed in almost an year because I think subconsciously I am upset at God (which I know is stupid) but I cant help it. I am having a hard time maintaining friends. I just want to fucking die.