I'm going to be 23 in a couple of months, and I've only had 2 jobs. I lasted a month in one of them (I quit because of my social anxiety) and I lasted a year in the other, mainly because my boyfriend was also working there most shifts. I keep getting calls back from places because I'm applying for some part-time work to help pay the rent on my university house, but every time I book an interview in, I feel this overwhelming sense of dread and I just want to cancel because it all feels like it's going to be too much for me, especially because I'm living in an unfamiliar city now. I keep thinking "with everything that I'm worrying about right now, is it really worth getting a job? It'll just make me worry even more." Problem is, even if I were to cancel the interviews, I'd then have to tell my mum (who I'm very close to) that I cancelled, and that would make me feel miserable.

I feel like I'm somewhat of a failure because my anxiety makes me turn down good opportunities and I never feel like I can stick to anything. Can anyone relate to this, and does anyone have any advice or words of encouragement? I'd be so grateful. I made quite a bit of progress over the years, but the lockdown has definitely set me back a long way - it's shit.