My iq is in the genius range. (Cringe, I know) School has fucked my all these years. I get a good score, they put my in a lower level because they don't think I can handle the work load. I prove myself, get a really good average grade; They fuck me again by not allowing me to go to a higher level of schooling, but they allow another dude with the same grade as mine. Sick dude. 

I lose motivation. I fail, fail and fail. I end up doing a foundation year for physics at uni. 

Morale: low
Probability of me getting in: low
94 spots only in the first year. 

Education has always been so important to me. I hate it.

I lost hope. I've got several friends and an amazing girlfriend. Yet, I feel so alone. No one gets me. Or rather, I get no one. Life is an endless pile of disappointments with the occasional pat on the back. Fuck this man. 

I'll try one last time and if I don't succeed, I will consider killing myself. And that thought saddens me. But it seems like the only logical option in terms of balance.