Things with my SO are constantly triggering massive anxiety/worries/feeling unloved or uncared for, or like everything is about to collapse.  Whether it's a time where I'm just having "distorted thinking" or I actually have been hurt, it really sucks.

I know I'm not alone because I see many posts here where people feel hurt about text messages or things loved ones say (or don't say, when we feel need them to!).  So I thought it might be interesting if we could all share the last thing that happened in some sort of relationship (romantic or otherwise) that upset us.  


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I'll start.
For me, the last thing that really upset me was trying to talk with my SO about my fears that a medication I'm taking could cause serious lung damage.  While I was explaining the situation as calmly as possible, he interrupted with an irritated tone of voice and said that it's just my anxiety.  It hurt so badly because I'm actually really scared I could get lung damage from the medication, but I'm scared to go off of it because I need it for chronic infections.  I'm scared if I go off of it without a plan of what to do next, I could get very very sick and be in too much pain to take care of myself and even learn DBT (I'm currently in group and trying to learn it as fast as possible, but it's hard to do when my medical condition gets out of control).

It hurt so badly because I fear all he will ever see in my words is just anxiety, even if my concerns are very valid... and then I'll just get sicker and sicker because no one takes me seriously.  I'm scared I'll wither away, until I'm so sick and in so much pain, and so sick of not being taken seriously, that I'll just give up on life all together.  The whole reason I want to get better is because I want to live, and I want us to have a happy healthy future together!  :'(  I'm scared this will de-rail all of my momentum and hard work that I've been doing for my medical condition as well as my BPD, CPTSD, and anxiety!




I'm sick of just being "Anxiety" or "Neurotic" to people instead of a real person that deserves respect and care.  I'll wither away if he doesn't take me seriously and help me figure out what to do next.





Edit: We did talk today and he said we could talk about it later and that he will hear me out.  So, *fingers crossed* hope it goes well and hope we can communicate as a team to figure this out.  He tries to help and I know he's worn out.

