I feel as though everyone that leaves me lives a more fulfilling and happier life. 

My boyfriend has broken up with me for good and I just know that itll be better for him because he will find actual happiness now.
It's like people will be in your life when theirs isnt great, then once they leave you theyve never been happier.

Does anyone else see this in their life?? 

I've lost all hope at making friendships or any positive social interactions because I know it brings down everyones day. That trying to act normal everyone thinks youre weird and then when you act yourself you're still weird and off putting, making people uncomfortable. I dont know what else to do or how to act anymore. 

Everyone I've ever known has gotten a different version of me and every version is bad. I lost all my friends literally every single one, with my boyfriend I was completely myself. I didnt overthink anything and yet this completely unedited version of me is bad aswell. 

I just want to know if this is solely on me - brutally honest. Am I just a bad person?