I decided to go cold turkey because I just don’t want to depend on this medication anymore. I know it’s stupid, but I just don’t want to anymore. I’ve been such in a good mood and been in a positive mindset for 2 months now.

Until my fourth day hit without my medication. I feel a dark energy in my body taking over again. Angry, Anxiety, and fear. The withdrawals are crazy strong and idk what to do. I meditate to clear my head but all of the sudden these thoughts end up winning. Fuck man I was doing great for months and I feel like I’m falling all of the sudden. I’m freaking out because what the fuck? I was on a roll and when I fell I easily picked myself up but right now I’m falling so fast. 

I cannot let this happen to me again