I haven't experienced that many symptoms at all lately, but recently my boyfriend didn't go to bed with me and stayed up like an hour or so instead. My thoughts immediately began to wander to him being unfaithful and that he was probably staying up chatting with other girls.

The thing is... I kind of *liked* feeling miserable like that? It was like I got such an intense surge of jealousy and emotions that it made me feel kind of high, and like I'm completely sure I love him because if I didn't care I "wouldn't mind him doing things without me". It was reassuring in a way. It's like I don't enjoy being calm and having no struggles emotionally, and like I *want* to feel jealousy etc? Does anybody relate?