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I have been suffering from depression for many years.

Now, I am undecided about a decision that would change my life.

It's about moving to another city, another place (I know that city, I've been there several times as a child), I personally don't like that city. It's too far from this city of mine where I'm located, so about 250 km away, the small town does not have a lot of content to offer, public transport is worse than in this city where I am now because I live near the metropolis.

And I really like it here, even though I pay expensive rent for an apartment, but I don't want to go anywhere from here. And if you want to create something in your life, then you should go to that rural place and work because there is a cheaper way of life, an apartment, food, etc.

What should I do?

I feel that I wouldn't be able to do it, even though I said at the beginning that I wouldn't like it here (where I am) but I came again and I liked it and now I don't want to go anywhere from here, so maybe I would like it there too, I don't know. But I'm afraid that if I go there, the loneliness of that rural place without the content that big cities offer, this rural place will make me even more anxious and I'm afraid that my depression will be even deeper.

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My opinion is, to hell with all the money in the world, if you earn it and you mentally crack.....in a figurative sense, I'm to hell with the money I'll earn there, what's that worth to me if I mentally hit rock bottom, because the very thought of leaving I feel bitterness in my stomach.

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I'm looking for some reasonable advice? Maybe someone has found themselves in this situation.

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It's better to stay here, pay more for an apartment, but be as mentally healthy as possible, because I'm already taking anti-depressants.

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Thanks !