im slightly insane. i really hope no one in my family sees this because they dont know. im only 18. ive always known im a nut job. ive always heard whispers. i will not repeat what they tell me if my life depends on it. i see faces and people that aren't there. this is 24/7. i also lose time occasionally. i only lose a day or 2 every couple of weeks. it started getting bad a while ago and my family noticed i was acting strange. i let them believe im a drug addict rather then tell them the truth. i have never even tried rec drugs out of fear of what i could do while intoxicated or if it would send me trully over the edge. i have tried meds to fix myself. basically everything a doctor could prescribe to fix someones craziness and none work even in extreme doses. i cannot make it stop no matter what. im dying to do what the whispers and the people that arent there tell me but i know i cant. its getting so hard that i may have to make the decision soon. give in to the whispers or kill myself before i do. i really dont know what this post is for as i really dont think anything can fix me. just a confession i guess as ive never told anyone this before. i really dont know what to do.