I’ve questioned my diagnosis on and off for about a month. Like i’ve had times of being paranoid and scared after not sleeping well and have times of acting out. For example the past month ish i’ve walked out of tests, swung at one of the assistant principles at my school, after prom decided to go stay with friends for the weekend and dodged my parents calls and texts out of fear of who they were and what they’d do, i’ve been on and off with my meds because i just don’t feel like they’re that big of a necessity. but the biggest thing is during my “manic episodes” i’ll get excited and yeah i’ll start yelling and screaming out of excitement and joy and happiness and feeling good and goodness and happiness but that eventually dies down and i’ll have times of calm until something aggravated me where i have tendencies to start fights (verbal) and occasionally i’ve gotten violent but never too bad or hurt anyone generally more at myself (i’ve broken my hand too many times for only being 18) i’m just nervous about what this could mean albeit i will admit i’ve gotten worse over time but i don’t think this means i’m going to spiral again like before i don’t feel so stressed but i did walk out of a state test this friday and wrote f*** off on the test because you know how you’ll mark no it when things ask if you want them to contact you but they’ll still proceed to contact me over and ov r and it makes me want to scream at them but now my phone is lagging so bad and i don’t know what to do hmmm this is a pickle anyway what’s y’all’s opinions peeps