I made an effort. It took a lot for me to seek help, but I did. I got set up with a doctor, a therapist, got put on medication almost immediately. I got diagnosed, too. I was lucky to get a doctor who is easy to talk to, but I feel like he patronizes me. I told him last time that the mixture of meds is not good for me, so I got switched to a mood stabilizer, a ptsd medication, one for migraines, and another for anxiety. Needless to say, these meds have amplified my anxiety and sleeping problems. I'm having repetitive nightmares, almost "glitchy" thoughts, and really bad mood swings.

It's been almost 3 months and I feel terrible. I want to get off the meds but I'm scared. It's hard for me to be in the moment and often times when I get too stuck in my head, I can't tell what's real and isn't. I feel like I'm self aware but i'm not sure who I am exactly. I often don't recognize myself in the mirror. 

I feel really alone and my family doesn't really get it. I don't know what to do. 