I’m a toxic piece of shit that hurts everyone around me. I’ve been fucking bad. I’ve been pushing people away and I’ve been fucking up my relationship with my girl because of my paranoia and past trauma. I hurt my mom as well, made her have an anxiety attack and I thought about killing myself and abandoning the few people that care for me. Thing is, I never asked to be born, I never asked for all these responsibilities to be placed on me and I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I just want it to stop. I’m tired. I want out.