I initially put it as input, but I guess it's a bit of a vent (no worries, I'm good now, I mention a bit about suicide, but I'm not angry or something, no concern for triggers)

I went to this clinic on medical insurance, so 'free', with getting diagnosed with bpd and getting treatment for it, in my mind. The issue is the psychiatrist reviewed me as bipolar(which I think is accurate, but not really). I'm confident in the bipolar diagnosis, only because the pills - seroquel and depakote, actually make me able to have a sleep schedule, not being tired all day, being able to gain weight, no more persecutory delusions, psychosis etc. Though I go to this psychologist from this same clinic, but she has this psychotherapy approach (I also didn't get any diagnosis - only 'advices' from her), and  I come at her with some suicide desires, jealousy, self harm, massive emptiness, psychosis in times of stress and get a response like \`the pills will work it out\`, \`your life is actually great, you are good looking, have an internship so soon at such a good company\`. I basically try to approach my issues with my father, which is npd, my random mood swings which happen so fast, very not bipolar and so many stuff related to bpd or cluster b in general, but she just rationalizes it with some simplistic idea, like \`just take some time for yourself and have fun\`, yeah, I have to struggle not killing myself during college exams and she just ignores it. Basically approaching it like \`bipolar is a real illness, so just wait for the pills to work (already passed like 4 months)\`, which I trust, but then she ignores any possibility for a personality disorder, which I would take a wild guess, she thinks they don't exist. I would gladly go to some other psychologist which actually read the DSM and would do DBT with me, but this is kind of the only free therapy available, so my question would be if I could go to some paid psychologist, get a fast diagnosis, like 3-4 meetings max (I say this because they diagnosed me with bipolar with acute psychosis in 2 meetings, though it was really obvious - I was manic) and after I actually get a real diagnosis, I do the work myself (I can't start to work on DBT if I don't know I actually am bpd, though I really think this is going on with me).