I want to start by stating that I am 14 years old and entering high school. I know I have a lot of years ahead of me, but before you say something about how young I am, read this (or don't). Because I discuss about how I'm considering colleges, my age will correlate. I am sorry if I sound like a fool, but I just need to speak about this. I’m so sorry if this is the wrong subreddit for this and I will take the post down immediately if necessary. 

I used to have a lot of talent when I was young. I practiced piano, soccer, and art. I had so many interests and hobbies that set me apart from the others. However, I gradually stopped doing whatever I was good at because I "didn't enjoy it." I have now realized it's biting me in the ass. I now understand that it has been biting me in the ass for my entire life. These extracurricular activities are necessary for me to get into a decent college. What I like and what I don't like is irrelevant. They don’t care, why would they care? I know I sound like a freak who only wants to be better than everyone else, but growing up, everyone expected you to be unique and special, and if you weren't, you were nothing. I simply feel so useless. Because I'm a fucking lazy loser who stays at home all day playing video games, I let everything I was good at slip through my fingers, and now everyone my age is significantly better than me at everything.
My mother frequently makes comparisons between myself and the talented and active in the arts daughter of a friend of mine. It aches. It hurts so bad. The pain of hearing that nothing I do is good enough for her is so great that I simply cannot describe it to you. I simply want to resume being excellent. I wish I had continued with it all, but I have no idea how to explain it without coming out as a fucking arrogant jerk. I try to be the best in all I do, yet I will never measure up to that level. I no longer exist.