I haven’t seen the doc in about two months bc I’ve been broke. I enough Lamictal to make it through that period, until today. I haven’t had my Adderall in two months, and my mood stability has taken a nosedive. No productivity, got light-fired from my job, the whole nine.

I think I need to add more meds to my cocktail, but I don’t trust psychs enough to let them lead conversations about meds. 

I don’t know what to do. Totally at a loss. Feeling really bad about my job predicament and the number of job rejections. I feel like my life has been going downhill since graduating law school. 

Just super exhausted and tired of this disease and being plagued by mixed moods. 😭