I’ve always struggled with depression. I grew up in a very toxic environment and it set me back a lot. Now I’ve found that I can have a good month here and there, just for any setback to occur and send me back into a depressive state.

The recent one was big. I don’t drink but I was trying to make my gf happy by going to one of her friends party with her. Even though I wasn’t drinking alcohol I still had my drink spiked along with my girlfriends. We were so out of it we were oblivious to this and I still drove us home. However I don’t have any recollection of this but I ended up in a horrible crash and destroying my car. I don’t remember a thing, besides the look my girlfriend gave me after the crash. It still gives me the chills. The crash was bad(car is a total loss) but no one got hurt. I still can’t come to terms with the fact I almost hurt my girlfriend. Now my mind is always racing thinking about the accident. Feeling guilty for almost hurting my girlfriend. Feeling lost cause I need to buy a new car and don’t have any money. It feels like I’ll never recover from this.