I just started a new course in my engineering degree and this new course has a fail rate of over 60-70%. I asked older peers if they managed to pass and I only encountered one who actually passed. I am freaking out! This course is the continuation of a course I had last semester but I didn’t really study for that course and I failed it. I basically have zero knowledge and preparation for this new course. 

It’s 13 á 3h lectures and the exam is in 2 months. Now the logical me is saying that I can manage it, 2 months is a long time. But the scared, sissy, anxious, depressive, overthinking and non existent self esteem and confidence me is freaking out. 

I didn’t study the last course because I was scared and I overthought everything. I don’t want this course to be the same. I don’t want to fail this too. I know I can if I just put my mind into it. I am not bragging but I would consider myself to be fairly intelligent and I know it sounds pretentious and I am sorry for that but i really think I can manage to even get a good grade. I just have to stop being scared and anxious about it, but that is so much easier said than done and it’s difficult to be sensible and logical in this state of mind I am in…

Good night/day/morning.