I've been having a rough year. I'm getting a divorce after 9yrs (13 together). We've been separated for a year and a half now and I haven't been in the house for a year. I'm a commercial truck driver so I'm gone a lot. A few days ago my wife told me she was in a relationship and it broke me. I ended up checking into a hospital for fear of self harm. I'm out now and despite the medication working I'm still down. She has asked for the divorce but won't give me the papers to sign. It been a year and ther has been plenty of time to give me the papers. We have had dinner and gone to the movies and hung out several times. I've even taken time of work specifically to sign them but she never brings them. I'm just confused since she's in a relationship why keep putting off giving me the divorce papers. I love this woman with my whole heart and soul and I will do anything to fix our marriage but it's over and I just want her to be happy. I know it's wrong but I built my life around her and she was my motivation to exist. I'm sorry for being long winded