My current diagnosis is Bipolar 1 with Psychosis, OCD, and panic disorder. I've trialed over 60+ medications over the years and nothing has really worked. I asked my doctor about Clozaril as a last ditch effort and he said he didn't want to prescribe it because he didn't think I was Schizophrenic. He prescribed it anyway as a last ditch effort. My "episodes" have always been extremely long. My last mania lasted roughly 2 years and definitely had delusions, hallucinations, rapid speech, over confidence etc. Then I crashed and for the last 3 years I've been an absolute wreck. Can't be around people and have been definitely experiencing some psychosis symptoms. Also, any positive stories on Clozaril would be appreciated. I just want my life back, or at least some form of contentment.