I've had too much happen in my life. I'm a 28f with a job that I hate, my parents are both dead, I had breast cancer last year, I have had so many traumatic fucking experiences in my life that I can't even count... my relationship is most likely at its end. I'm an alcoholic and have made pretty shitty decisions while drunk. I hate myself. People say life gets easier but that's all fucking bullshit. It gets harder. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I just see more pain and anguish. I think about suicide often. My life is a failure. I am a failure. I'm only living because of my siblings. I don't have anything else to live for anymore.