I’ve been to therapy for about a year now, and while mentally I’ve gotten a lot better, I still create scenarios in my head and my life is still a complete mess. I don’t imagine that I will ever be able to function correctly, and it hurts. It’s hard to keep a job, relationships are insanely difficult, and handling life in general is difficult when your brain actively works against you. 

Everyday I think about ending it all, because it’s just unfair how much my mind is wired to work against me and create problems. I think being happy with BPD is pretty much impossible, I have yet to hear or find anything that convinces me otherwise