I never seek for help but talking to someone else about this might make me feel better.
Recently feel more and more that I'm living just because I can't do anything else.
I feel aimeless and I'm struggling to  succed in anything.
I've always been scared of the time but now I'm starting to be scared of my own future.
I don't have any friends and I barely feel important to my own family.
I guess I'm not enough to be in in relationships that last for decades, just like I see everyone else doing.
I've tried therapy, pills and everything that comes with it but it feels like a waste of time, I will never see "good" results.
I feel like my presence contributes nothing in this world and I struggle to see myself in a different position.
Also lately I've been doubting of everything that's around me or I'm just acknowledging my anxiety.
I rarely feel any emotion outside of sadness and discomfort.
if i could erase myself from my everyone’s memories i would finally feel free to kill myself but I can't even do that.
Maybe i just have to live miserably for the rest of my life or I should just keep living for the few people that are in my life.
Sorry for this long text but I needed to write something down instead of crying for no reason.