With my health care provider I can't pick my own doctor and the people who assign you to a doc have no idea how competent the doctors are. It's maddening. I want a specialist, not someone who, basically, has only _heard of_ bipolar. I want a doctor who understands bipolar better than I do (which, granted, is extensive and perhaps a high bar, but I don't care). I also want a doctor who is more intelligent than I am (shouldn't be a high bar for someone who graduated medical school, but apparently it is).

It took three emails to make her understand something super simple. Everything she needed to know was in my very short and succinct initial email.

Much worse, she put in her appointment notes that I had denied a bunch of things she didn't ask me about. Two were pretty important, for different reasons. One she said I denied using weed. This just makes me look like a liar, which I hate. The second was she said I denied having any psychosis. What?? I experience it literally constantly. I told her if she wants to know something she should ask, and if she has to assume anything, go ahead and assume I have it because I do. Every hour of every day.

Thanks for reading. &lt;3