(I only mention "boy crazy" because in my case, I am a straight woman) I (25/f) have always had BPD (symptoms). I also have always been a serial dater. As I get older it has become easier to calm down a little about how empty I feel without someone to be affectionate towards. I cannot deny that there is a burning hole within my heart when I am single long enough, usually about 5 months. I try my best to "find myself" during these times in order to become comfortable being alone, and I have even sworn off dating after devastating breakups (which they always are, giving me extremely impulsive pangs of suicidality). Recently, I have gone through just that. My SO was a kind man who was romantic and caring. Then, he stole my medication while I was being hospitalized. After surviving months of constantly wanting to kill myself, I decided that I should move on. I turn in to a huge flirt and obsess over boys that I barely know. I get high off of the thought of a new man to love me. I love being in love, even though it always burns me. How can I calm down? How can I stop being so willing to "settle" for anyone I even remotely find attractive? I feel so crazy and pathetic. I wish I could stop caring and maybe even enjoy being single. I am uncomfortable being alone with myself.

TLDR;
I'm boy/relationship crazy. How can I stop obsessing? Does anyone relate to this?
Thanks for reading.