I want to live good life but it feels like I will never achieve decent income level and have secure life. I wasted most of my life on doing nothing and drugs. Recently got a job that pays not enough but I’m trying to save money for a pc to expand my skill set. I live with my parents cause moving out will cost me all my salary. I am thinking whether I should move out in the future (after I buy pc if I buy it at all) or continue living with my parents and save money to try to move out of the country (or just to have some security funds). They also not making my mental state better with nagging and pointing out my insecurities all the time. If I move out I won’t be saving that much money as I live with them. I do not know what to do. I am going to see psychiatrist for antidepressants because I have a lot of suicidal thoughts especially when I start thinking about how world is ducked up and people are vicious animals.