He (29 M, Aspie/BPD) calls me (24 F) on a Friday night and asks "do you want to see me one more time before I go back to NY tomorrow?"... I had no idea he was leaving.. he never told me. But I couldn't.

 I was flying to Vegas that night for my best friends birthday weekend. When I told him this, his voice dropped down to a dejected tone... this upset me... if he had told me even hours earlier, I could have made it work... now it seemed as if he was rigging me to fail.... 

That next day, he asked "are you really with your friends? I don't believe you". I tried reassuring him. I asked why he thought that, to which he said "I just think you see other guys". I said "before you, yes" and he said "No, I think still". Nothing could convince him otherwise.... I could hear his tone through the text.. it was flat, blunt, like he was on autopilot... "I'm just gone. Even if I came back, we wouldn't be together".

 Soon I was blocked on everything.

It's been just over a month now... I sent him a birthday e-card the other day... the following morning, I get a text from him saying "I'm seeing someone else. Please move on and stop contacting me".

 I burst into tears. This is it. All I can do now is sit here, with 2000 miles separating us, watching helplessly while he completely erases/obliterates me in his mind. 

Erases that night when we reached across the table and grabbed each other's hands, smiling at each other like a couple of fucking idiots after a long convo about philosophy.. erases that moment when he asked me "is this what it feels like to have sex with someone you're in love with?" or that time when he wrote me a poem and smiled at me and said "look what you have me doing, writing poems for you and shit". A couple lines from the poem that stuck out to me included "I hide my gaze before she see's me" and " I only want to say her name". 

There were times when I was frustrated with him, there were times that I fussed at him... never once did I want to abandon him, never once did I want anyone but him, even when I was pissed at him.

Part of me hopes he'll come back, but I can't bet on that... God this is agonizing. Sorry for the rant, I just needed an outlet. I'm so confused, lost, and bewildered...