Used to be an asshole to girls

I’m 20M and I was a wannabe fuckboy trying to make-up for my lack of play in highschool. I had tinder and said really arrogant and douchey things that I deeply regret. I feel that if I ever make a name for myself, the past will haunt me.  In person, I was “kind” with girls but had devilish thoughts. I didn’t really have much sex but made out with a few girls. I had a very hateful mindset towards women that wasn’t productive in any way. While I didn’t really use girls sexually, I was still a piece of shit. This is why I’m calling myself a wannabe fuckboy. I had the mindset and appearance of one, but wasn’t bold enough to have lots of sex. Hence the rudeness on tinder and reluctance in person. I want to change without acting like the classic POS that says “I’m So SoRRy for HuRTing YoU iN thE PaST hOw can I mAkE iT Up?😫😫”. Thankfully I never acted like this, but there’s a part of my mind that wants to victimize myself and take no fault. How do I grow from this and move forward?

TLDR: Was a piece of shit fuckboy, nice on the outside but arrogant/douchey on the inside.