I feel like i’ve dug myself into a hole that i cant get out of and there is a boulder of emotions crushing me to death. I’ve drifted away from most of my friends, i only really have one that i talk to almost every day, she’s nice and pretty, i had a big crush on her but i was scared to ask her out but that window has closed because she has a girlfriend now, it sucks for me but at least i still have her as a friend. 

I have a few friends im less close with, they’re fun to hang with in school but i dont hang with anyone out of school anymore because i kinda isolated myself away from my good friends, hopefully they’ll forgive me soon so we can be close again.

Im not doing the best in school rn, the classes arent hard im just too depressed to do homework. i only have counseling/therapy a few times a month so its hard to manage my emotional state.

See ya.