I’m a 20M. I got bullied late in life due to a stunted social development. My parents divorced when I was 7 and my father instantly turned to alcoholism. He never stopped and we would always see him on the weekends. It put the idea of shame in my head early on due to him putting his alcoholism on public display. This made me an outcast in school and I was never included or excluded. I was just there. 

After I graduated, I went to college hoping to make friends. I got bullied for it very badly. I won’t go into detail but it was bad. I had been babied through life by my mom and never learned anything useful in being a productive member of society. It was deserved due to the fact that I was naive enough to apply to a college for friends. I eventually grew a backbone and bullied them back, but I had already lost. I joined a fraternity and tried to be cool which worked, but at the cost of my individuality. I had to get bullied in order to be normal. Being aggressive allowed people to forget the fact that I was once bullied, but I’m still broken. 

I cannot get over the initial abuse and move forward. I’m a good looking guy with some natural baseball talent, but this shit is killing me. I want to rise and become great. But every time I think about doing it, these people come into my head. Who gets bullied at 18? It’s really depressing for me and I cannot come to terms with it.