I don’t know what to do anymore I felt like life was getting better and when you look at it from the outside it looks great. I moved out of my moms house as fast as I could to get away from her mentally abusive husband, I met the love of my life, I live in a pretty nice house, and I have a job and a few good friends around me. But its like my depression and anxiety hit worse. Like I can’t go anywhere by myself unless it’s work and back home. I tried to go the store by myself a couple of days ago and I almost blacked out and had a panic attack in the store. I can’t even clean my room for when my boyfriend finally gets to come back for the first time in like 3 months. I cant even fucking take a shower like this fucking take a shower. I’m so fucking mentally exhausted. Like I fucking just wanna just die already but I don’t wanna hurt my boyfriend or my sisters or my mom or the couple of close friends I have.