22F just had a baby 10 weeks ago and I have a boyfriend 37M. 
Ever since baby came he has been distant and doesn’t really help with the baby. I feel that I need help with baby and I don’t receive it.
I recently found out that he was texting other women when I was 3 weeks postpartum and that just broke me. I really want to self harm but I am scared that if I do someone will call child services. I was told by a psychiatrist that I have bpd but my family doctor thinks bpd doesn’t exists so he doesn’t prescribe me anything. I feel so alone and suicidal, I have literally no one in my life that is willing to understand what I am going through. I love my baby so much but I’m having a hard time seeing the end of the tunnel. Sometimes I believe she would be better with someone else