So I’m a Quiet Borderline so all my anger is directed to myself. However, I seem to never feel at ease or confident in any of my friendships. I always have this feeling like they secretly hate me and in order to try to soothe my mind I’ll apologize for everything and ask them if their mad at me constantly. Its like I’m not treating people badly but the overly nice shit gets on peoples nerves too. But frankly, I fucking hate doing this shit. I’m tired of feeling like I did something wrong when I’m vulnerable. I hate having to maintain a persona where I can feel safe with people. I wish I could be 100 % myself but I honestly haven’t ever had a friend who I could truly be that way who didn’t have bpd. What’s the fucking point of having friends if this is simply torture.