Hi guys. I'm 33 male.  Aside from the last 6 months. I've been undiagnosed my whole life and misdiagnosed for the last 3 and not given the proper medication. I am BP1  . 6 months ago I found the correct cocktail of medication and I can say that I am getting everything I have every wanted, or I should say I am capable of putting in consistent effort to achieve what I want. I'm not isolating anymore, I'm consistent with work, my health, and I have kicked substance abuse. 

I was heavily relying on drugs and alcohol for the last 10 years to self medicate so I was really a POS to everybody in my life. I wasn't there to see my neice grow up,  i hardly showed up to any family functions , and I have treated every girlfriend I have ever had horribly. 

I am at the point where enough time has passed where I'm not switching every 2 weeks/ every month and I'm consistent. I am able to be a son, a brother, an uncle, a better friend, a great boyfriend. And I want all of this. 

I feel a need to talk to some members of my family individually and tell them how everything is going. I took myself out of my family because I did not want to go in and out of their lives and now I don't really have a relationship with anybody. 

I do feel a need to basically make amends. I want to apologize for my actions, explain bipolar 1 to them, and tell them what I have tried over the years to fix myself and let them know I found a fix and I'm stable and I want to be in their lives . 

I'm not exactly nervous about this, but it is a big deal. Has anybody been in a similar situation? Or felt a need to want to do this. I want to fix my relationships and have a more meaningful and whole life. Thanks for listening.