Hi everyone. I guess this is more of a venting/advice post and my first one in this community. To make a long story short, I am in my first ever **TW* non-abusive relationship. Things have been going well for the past two months, but lately in the last two weeks I’ve been showing symptoms of a BPD breakdown and a complete downward spiral. I’m irritable, overwhelmed, experiencing very high highs and very low lows. I tried to take off walking from my boyfriend’s house at 2 a.m. with no working phone, money, and personal belongings. I’ve been splitting. I’m argumentative. I’m emotional. Entirely complicated right now. I truly believe that my BPD is ruining my relationship. Does anyone have any advice for how I can do better and ways to help my partner understand BPD and how it effects me? I work in a BPD workbook and read (currently “The body keeps the score”) along with the therapy and psychiatrist appointment I made that are coming up. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated!