Hello 

It's my fist time here posting anything really, but in a recent year i have been trough a lot.
I was in an abusive relationship that ended very badly and i never had luck with relationships in general because i feel too guilty and end them when ever i start feeling like a burden to someone.
I'm diagnosed also with depression and anxiety which i feel are always diagnosed along with BPD, i started reading about BPD last week on Reddit and all over the internet really, it actually made me feel worse.
I feel it has a very bad stigma around it because apparently most people who suffer from it are manipulative and clingy and that's exactly how my ex described me, apparently i'm sad all the time scared and i don't live at all.
I have a feeling that it's not worth it, having really close friends or relationships anymore because it's too much of a burden i feel like i should get accustomed to being alone and start dealing with that because i see it in everyone's eyes around me that it's just too hard to dealing with me and seeing that makes me even worse, but maybe it's just my depression outburst talking here.
How do other people deal with this?