I find it extremely difficult to maintain meaningful friendships with anyone for a sustained period of time.
There's an impulsion to cut and run in an uncontrollable gleeful manner when I get close to people. 
In retrospect it seems quite destructive but in the moment there is an uncontrollable attraction to the concept of starting afresh and cutting all ties.

It becomes like a hopeless cycle of reinvention where you have no ties to anyone or your previous self.
 The feeling of becoming solitary and detached from people feels fickle and lacking compassion, but also it feels absolutely necessary and in a sense quite desirable, almost in a romanticised sense.

Is being self destructive socially a strong aspect of the bipolar condition for anyone?