I haven’t done it since March of last year. But the urge was so strong right now, after my therapist ended our call early and seemed to be really disappointed in me. After months of being numb I lied down on my floor and cried, really really close to picking up my knife. Then my cat came over and did something she never does, she curled up on me, started purring and went to sleep. It was so cute that I didn’t want to move