i dont like 2 refer 2 anybody as my favourite person because i think it's unhealthy for me and them but i have this one person who usually makes me feel very validated/not stupid/always listens and i'm really struggling with it bc i'm feeling completely empty like a gut wrenching emptiness when i'm not around them or i'm not talking to them and it's going to cause an episode i can feel it and i'm so scared they are going to leave me i can't take the empty feeling it's so painful