I’ve seemed to ruin the communication in another relationship because of my paranoia. I get it. It’s no fun having someone worrying about you all the time and mostly I’m quiet about it but I have my episodes. I can’t stop worrying. Nothing but affirmation helps and it’s a vicious cycle. I ruin every relationship I’ve ever had because of this. I open up but by bit but they all knew from the beginning I’m going to worry and it has nothing to do with them. I’ve noticed they want to assure me at first then get tired of it and prob get tired of me too. My abandonment issues doesn’t define me. I’m just sick and it’s a complicated diagnosis for me AND them. I just need to vent. It’s going to be shit again and it’s my fault.