I'm training for a job at my fathers business for the next 5 days and starting officially next week. I've really come along way but I still feel pretty lonely but not what would normally be considered lonely unless my perception of the human condition is completely warped. I feel tired and weathered a bit too much, like meat that's been in the sun too long. I would take a guess that it's probably a result of long term isolation and low self esteem with whatever mental condition I actually have. I'm diagnosed with Schizophrenia and depression but I don't put much legitimacy in those specific diagnosis. I'm excited to actually be apart of the working world and the benefits of experience, income and independance but I feel worn out and completely alone. I guess I've been angry for too long. Wish me luck.