I’m currently at 116 which is my heaviest I have ever been in my entire life. I’m currently on Rexulti but thinking of asking to switch back to Abilify or maybe just drop the antipsychotic altogether. I’m not that paranoid but I’m fixating on my weight, starving myself, hating myself. I don’t remember gaining weight on Abilify but it was so long ago. What should I do? I think I’d rather have the paranoia than hating my body as much as I am. I was struggling before but now I am destroying myself.