On February I decided to finally go see a psychologist, after not admitting for almost 12 years that I needed some help. The issues I've been dealing with have varied throughout the years and I told my psychologist a little bit of everything so that we could focus on specific issues, one at a time.

The thing is, I don't feel any progress and help ever since I've been there (I now had 7 sessions). In one of the issues, we talked about my weight and how I struggle with emotional eating and also finding the courage to go the gym (which I would postpone all the time, I feared going there). She asked me to write a calendar with the foods I've been eating and the portions, but she couldn't help me with \*what\* to eat and \*how much\* to eat (what is the calendar for then?). She also told me to check the days where I would go to the gym (yeah thanks, but what about the motivation to do it?)

And I did write that calendar, I took issues into my own hands and googled everything I could so that I could solve that problem on my own - which I did, I now eat better and healthier and in better portions, but I still struggled to do exercise, so I didn't check anything.

She scolded me for not going to the gym, telling me that even though I have no motivation I have to do it for my own good and asked me to re-write the food calendar and check the days, again. I didn't do it and I said to her that I wasn't feeling it, I didn't have any will or motivation to do that again (to which she said "Why not? Do you find that hard or don't have time to do something so simple?"). She scolded me again and told me that we would not progress if I didn't put any will into helping myself... but what help am I even getting from her besides telling me the obvious stuff that you would find on the 1st page of google?

After the "Why are you not?" I told her "I don't know, I just don't, for anything in my life. It's general.". So what she said was "Ok, then your homework is to reflect on what's been making you feel like this and come back next session with an answer". I told her then that I've been thinking about it for all these years, almost everyday, struggling with that in my mind and having no answer for it, but she still decided that I should do it.

I'm feeling really let down by those sessions and I can't pay for a more expensive psychologist because I don't have the money for that, so I'm stuck between not having one or continuing with this one.

If I'm in this subreddit, I know that I'm dealing with depression based on what I've been googling all those years. Deep down I know the issues that make me feel that way, but they are all very specific little things from every day that have no connection and pop in my head all at the same time when something minor happens. 

How do I explain to my psychologist that she has been no help, makes me feel worse and that my issues are hard to explain because they would need a whole back-story to get there (which means I don't know how many more sessions and I don't know if I can handle feeling getting stuck forever)?