I’m learning to “be comfortable with uncomfortable”. By that, I mean really becoming aware of my emotions when they explode in my body. You know, the uncomfortable. 



I would react to these emotions instantaneously before I have to deal with that horrible, gut-wrenching feeling. I’d lash out and let my hurtful words do all of the projecting unto my innocent loved one.



Within the last week, I found myself on a rollercoaster with the steepest and tallest drops. I went from loving and doting all over my FP while in their presence, to feelings of despise and animosity when they went away. It’s awful, as you may know.



I have been silent during those moments. It took a lot of practice and observance. It was exhausting, too. If that feeling begins to rise to the surface of my body, I shut my mouth, take a deep breath and ALLOW IT TO PASS. What?! And what do you know; the feelings when you push them down pass within minutes.


I’m pretty proud of myself for being open to finding comfort in those situations. It gives me hope for my future relationships. Let’s hope it stays imprinted into my mind.