I know that this can happen and it takes a while to get better but it just sucks so much. Like I just sit there cry all the time. Stuff is actually looking a bit better recently. I've met someone who is really cool but my anxiety makes it impossible to take a step forward, because I'm scared that it will be the like last time where I liked someone and they just stop talking to me and found someone better. 
I just want stuff to work out once in my life