Altho I can write about things just fine, (hence why I sometimes write things on paper to people when I am unable to speak). I have this issue where if I attempt to talk to someone about how I feel, especially someone I'm not comfortable talking with, I freeze completely and just can't say a word. Idk what I'm so afraid of tbh, it just happens. It's also a problem when attempting to ask someone to talk. Like, I walk up to them but then I get so nervous that I end up withdrawing. Idk, it always sounds so darn easy in my head, but then, when the person I want to talk with approaches me, or I approach them, anxiety is like "f\*ck this!" and I freeze completely making me completely unable to say a word. This is really annoying bc people tend to either get frustrated over me not talking, or mistake it for meaning that I don't want to talk/want to be left alone.

Fortunately, as long as I have people around me that I am comfortable with (I do) and something to write on (I also do) it is fine. Oddly enough, once pple has read what I wrote and we begin talking about it, I am somehow able to say almost everything I wanted to say. It's as if this "wall" get's removed once they read the note. 

I have autism btw, so this is somewhat related to my autism as well. 

If anybody else has the same issue, or similar, just know that you're not alone! Just stay strong and know that there is no shame in writing rather than talking. Alot of people does that, belive me! From my own experience most people are equally happy that you talked to them about whatever is bothering you regardless of whether you spoke or wrote. 

I just wrote this bc I'm hoping this can motivate someone who might have the same issue as me to try and speak to someone, maybe write a note, or atleast make them feel better about themselves. I think it is important to share our imperfections as it helps others feel more valid and open up about their own imperfections. Remember, no one is perfect! And that's the beautiful thing about us &lt;3