This last few months have been rough for various reasons and I had a sort of a breakdown in september.
I didn't do anything out of the ordinary.I was just annoying to be around dude to clingyness and out of place jokes.
I said that to who I thought was my best friend,and he ignored me.
So I said:Maybe I was too much;I'll just try too chill.
I did that but now I beraly get norticed and I keep having the feeling of not beeing a worthy person.It sucks.
I am pretty alone but tonight I  hung out with some classmates playing video games or watching movies.They are nice.They accept me even if I'm not perfect or if I say something out of place.
It is a nice sensation.Knowing that you don't have to follow standards and be yourself and others would still love you or at least accept you.And I don't get this feeling anymore with those I considered friends.They all are trying to push me away.