Hey guys!

I am on again off again with an extremely severe anxiety disorder (I am also diagnosed ocd, bipolar 2 and a panic disorder for some background info also ocular migraines with aura)

When im on meds. Wow I can do everything, restaurants, stores, concerts, work peacefully

When I decided to get off (I convince myself im fine and relapse again) 

Recently my fear of passing out has been extremely severe. 
I've passed out once my entire life. I was talking to my boss about something really serious while standing, got super overheated told her I was passing out and blacked out, she said I was passed out maybe 5 seconds, I never fully went unconscious, I remember her yelling, I remember her putting my head down and catching me. And I was awake a second after falling. I went to the ER and they told me everything was fine with no real info on what happened.

Something similar happened today, I was just talking pretty calmly at my grams house and I felt it coming on (now I have been shopping all day and since im having an on period with my anxiety im afraid of stores and restaurants again which I've been in and out of all day.) I told her I was leaving and drove home. I feel shaky now but okay. Realistically if this was a medical emergency I would have passed out regardless correct?

Im so sick of it. Even with i dream at night its me not being able to go to stores, go to anywhere.
You know how sometimes you have an indepth dream at night time? When I woke up i realized I had a dream about myself as a celebrity but when being interviewed my stupid a** was passing out. Lmfaooooo. 

Does anyone else have anxiety symptoms like this, could it just be happening even without being actively anxious. I am usually extremely symptomatic with physical symptoms with my anxiety 

My legs go like jelly and I get extremely hot, my brain also feels like its sliding sometimes and fuzzy. Like I said I've only passed out once. 

I have a doctors appointment for January cause I'm gunna guess my crazy a** needs meds again lol and to not get off them. But until then im hoping someone can relate to me in someway.