I've seen BPD called emotional hemophilia. And like a hemophiliac, we have a condition that makes us more vulnerable to certain wounds than most people. And that's not something everyone has to live with. If I continue living, I have to accept that reality. I have to accept the reality that I have a condition that can make daily very challenging. And that reality means intense fear, the possibility of intense pain, and emotional turmoil. It means that this emotional chaos inside of me may not go away anytime soon. The risk of hurting ourselves. The risk of hurting others. And accepting all of that is literally terrifying. I feel like it would take more strength and courage than I even know where to look for. And I really don't know if I am capable of it.

Does anyone else feel like this? How does one find the mental resolve to actively try to move forward while knowing what we will face on a daily basis?