I'm at a point in my life where I'm waking up all the time w/ flashbacks and generally thinking about my childhood sexual trauma ALL day every day in a way that makes me feel like im crawling out of my skin, its honestly exhausting. I'm starting to get worried because I am having really bad thoughts and feelings now and really am stuck in my life because of this thing

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Has anyone ever done trauma therapy with a genuine trauma specialist

I have my own bad experiences w/ therapists so even trusting someone is going to be tough and I want to make sure I find the right person 

Does anyone have tips or can say just a bit about their experience with trauma therapy 

What kind of therapy helped you if it wasnt this? I'm considering hypnotism as well, it seems kind of fake but also does seem to work for some people &amp; the obsessive/cyclical nature of my trauma thought loop makes me think I need someone to hypnotize me. I have done talk therapy for MANY years &amp; its just not working, i need this memory to be transformed into something that wont hurt me anymore, I need to leave this memory in the PAST &amp; stop having physical reactions to it all the time 20 years later, I feel I just dont have a choice anymore, its hurting my life too much to not get help now from a trained trauma specialist. I am really worried about not being taken seriously as I told multiple therapists this story while I was still a minor and they straight up did not believe me/said I needed to move on  (therapists like this should fucking die) so of course I am very wary of discussing this with a therapist but i do need someone to help me at this point in my life