Next week I'll graduate for my bachelor's degree. Took me more than it was supposed to, I don't feel bad about *that* (anymore). It's just that I'm not as happy as I thought I was going to be. It's not even exhaustion, I'm not thinking "please let it be over already, I'm so done with it". I just look at the calendar and go like "Next week I'm graduating". I bought the outfit, printed the thesis - a job that I really worked hard on and that I decided to do, my professor confirmed that it was a valid study.

But it just feels like "meh". I'm kinda sad and disappointed in me, since I should *want* to celebrate this moment I waited for so long.

Also today I was practicing for the discussion I ended up in tears of stress, my boyfriend hugged me and helped me calm down, I'm scared I will do *bad*.

I feel ashamed, like whenever I speak out loud it sounds stupid.