My whole life I've felt like a stranger to myself. Everyone who knows me has their own idea of who I am, but who REALLY am I? I am just fragments of a million different people and personalities. Even as a kid I felt this way. On the outside it seems like I could fit in almost anywhere, but I'm just a chameleon adapting to their surroundings. Inside, I feel so painfully out of place no matter where I am. I constantly feel like I'm trapped in a fish bowl, just watching everyone else go through life without me. Even if I'm involved in something I TRULY enjoy, I somehow feel like it's not "meant" for me. It's starting to become unbearable. I just want to feel connected with others. I want STABILITY. I want love and friends and a sense of community. I want a purpose in life. But all of that seems unobtainable.