I was told today that I have EUPD. 

I wasn’t surprised, but it’s still a lot to take in. 

Like, is this a life sentence? 

When I’m imploding, as I am now, I feel so much despair. I know things will get better in the short-term, but feeling like I hit an emotional bottom over and over again in the long run is what drives me to have suicidal episodes. The big picture is that I’ll never get better. And now today it feels like that has been confirmed. 

Am I alone in feeling this? How do you handle it? Those of you who have received the diagnosis, what was your initial reaction?