This is my first post here, and my first post looking for advice regarding BPD. I'm new here, and I was formally diagnosed a while ago, late 2019. Lately, things have been hard and I never feel like I'm in control of anything I feel. A lot of the time I feel as though I know what I'm feeling is wrong, and then I feel toxic afterwards. How do I deal with those feelings of being toxic, when I know I'm not really being toxic, but I feel as though any show of letting negative emotions take over me that I somehow am?