Recently I feel like I’m a different person. I don’t recognise myself at all or know who I am. I think about the younger version of me who would ignore a 100 people who would’ve treat me right only to chase emotionless and abusive people because I thought they were like me and needed love. I broke myself in an attempt to just feel love and I miss that younger me so much. I still had a light in me and deserved so much better. I feel like I’ve been dropped into somebody else’s life, like I’m in an alternative universe or if the old me is literally dead. Everything around me just feels so foreign, even myself. It’s hard to explain in words. I just want to feel any familairality,  but I can’t. I just see everything and everyone  in such a different light now and I can never go back to the way I was. Nowhere feels like a home, not even my own head. I miss myself more than anyone or anything. I know that nobody’s ever loved me, but I did.