I don't want any gross answers please (as in, I don't want anyone to be like "lol just accept it" or "you might like it if you try it, too!") so just stop reading if you're gonna say anything like that.

I (22) cannot deal with my friend (22) viewing sexually explicit material. I'd say boyfriend but we're not technically together because of my BPD and I don't want to be disrespectful so I'll refer to him as my friend. 

I can't deal with him looking at that stuff. It triggers my body dysmorphia and then I always spiral and view it to self harm and end up dissociating, almost every week. I can't cope with it and I argue about it with him almost every week but he shows no signs of relenting or seeing my side of things.

He's addicted to it I'm pretty sure but he doesn't think he is and refuses to seek help for it. He told me he was seeing a therapist but apparently he doesn't talk about it. I hate it and I wish I didn't have to deal with it but he's the only one I have, unless I want to die alone.

It also bothers me what he looks at... Pokémon, short stacks, LoZ, Isabelle (Animal Crossing)... I can't enjoy these games anymore because of it. Anyone even mentioning these games just gives me a giant sense of dread. I've argued and argued and argued and I hate it. I think he does it to spite me.

He never compliments me. He never calls me cute. Every time I complain about my body he tells me to do something about it or quit complaining– more specifically tells me to work out or tone my body so I become more attractive. I only eat 700~ calories a day now.

I can't cope. I don't know how to. He's the only one I have, I can't meet anyone else because of my paranoia and inability to drive or function IRL. I'm at my wits end.