As the title says. I was bullied in high school and got beaten up a few times. No justice just all happened to me and I walked away with my self esteem left back in grade 11. Whenever I try to masturbate, I get an immediate anger/not in the mood switch that goes off and I leave it. This happens so often I hardly masturbate anymore. I went from 3 times a day to once a week and that one time isn’t even a full orgasm. I just can’t enjoy things anymore whatever it be, I still feel resentful and idk I think it’s my mind punishing myself I honestly don’t have the exact words. I need advice