I genuinely wish I was never born. Currently I’m 19(f), living at home, and working a part time job (that I can’t stand). I’ve been trying to find another job but I have no skills, no degree, no nothing. I tried college. It made me want to kill myself. I had been free of self harm for a year and a half when I started college. Two days in, I hurt myself again. It broke me. My grades were fine, but I was not fine. My head was in a bad place. Convinced my parents to let me leave after the semester finished so I could work at my part time job more. I thought I had a future there. Now, 5 months later, I see no future there. Every shift I have to stop myself from quitting. But I can’t quit because my parents want me to pay them to live at home since I’m not in school anymore. I have been trying so damn hard, doing my very best, and it’s not enough for my parents. They think I’m just lazy. Maybe I am. I don’t know, I don’t care. I wish I wasn’t here. And I wish my parents had a better daughter.