I've felt this way a lot in life &amp; unfortunately there's more than enough evidence to support that it's true. The people I regard in life as my close friends consistently don't see me the same way. I'm always the one to initiate contact, organise catch ups, send msgs etc. The worst part is everyone tells me I'm such a great friend, such a good listener blah blah blah. But nobody seems to want to prioritise me.

I've suffered from social isolation &amp; emotional invalidation all my life, the people who should have protected me &amp; supported me (aka immediate family) were always more concerned about others people's feelings &amp; how they appeared to the world. I was homeschooled in my teens &amp; desperately wanted back to school but my needs &amp; desires were never a priority &amp; I never really got the social practice &amp; experience to protect me against the dysfunction of my immediate and extended family.

So here I am, pouring my brokenheart out to the void of the internet. This will probably die in new but if you did click on it &amp; read it thanks for seeing me, even if only for a moment.