Hey, I genuinely hope this is the right place to send this. If not, I’m extremely sorry for sending this here and all now.

Like the title says though, I worry too much. I just don’t know where to start so I’ll just try listing stuff first and giving a few details that I think of. I can explain whatever may be requested though if need be as well.

- I worry too much
 * I worry if I’m hated
 * I worry if It’s even alright that I’m feeling this way
 * I worry about being left alone
 * I worry if people just stay with me because they know this
 * I worry if even my decision to say all of this here is right as well

- I stress about my actions I take even if I know it was important to do
 * I recently had to take action with some stuff online with friends. Yes, these are online friends, I care about them though. I’ll try to run down the situation and all first though. 

Friend1 : The Inviter
Friend2 : The Invited 
Friend3 : The Ally 
Friend4 : The Friendly
Friend5 : The Wildcard

1. Friend1 wanted to invite Friend2 (Who I and many others don’t know too well) into my server. A few people said sure, being 2 others out of around 10. Friend1 proceeded to invite them without getting approval from me or anyone else. Makes a whole place for them, gives them perms and even allows them to see a vent chat that has personal info of multiple people (which goes all the way into 2019). Friend2 proceeds to respond to something in it, from someone who didn’t really vote yes and didn’t know they could see it all.  I proceed to talk to Friend3 (Who also isn’t comfy about this happening) about what to do and we make a message to put in chat so everyone votes about it to be fair. It comes up with around 5 people against them being there to 2 people wanting them. Friend1 proceeds to reply to it and ends up stating they are going to be sad and stop talking. They end up leaving the server themselves after I talk to the next person who we waited before taking action. Friend5 comes up now and addresses it a little bit but then proceeds to talk about Friend4 who is a whole different case. Stuff happens, they cause Friend3 and Friend4 to leave now. Friend1 actually leaves around this time now too. Friend3 is kicked while asleep and gets photos later of what I said. I talk to Friend3 later too and my anxiety kicks in, I now feel like they all hate me though I just shut down. That was days ago now though, I’m still just thinking stuff like “I’m a horrible person, I’m hated, why are people friends with me” and multiple other things now too.

I may rewrite this later on to give more context but I’m low on time right now. I hope I can give justification to everyone so it’s a fair case and all.

- I say sorry too much even if something may not be my fault 
 * I’m scared with above, I’m scared if they are going to hate me for making the possible mistake. It just causes me to break. I don’t know how else to explain it right now.

- There’s honestly more but I just tend to recall them and stress at the moment it happens. I don’t know why.

Thank you so much for reading this and I really hope it’s alright for this to be here again.