i just cant seem to be able to enjoy anything anymore. example, i used to love practicing piano and being so determined to improve, but now instead of being determined to October. i just feel like i’ll never be good and i may as well give up. 
another really annoying thing is i used to watch tv shows and anime a lot and it was a really good coping mechanism but my anxiety has made me really hyper aware of the fact that they’re acting and reading off a script, and with anime i’ve become rlly hyperaware of the fact that it’s actually a voice actor (idk if this makes sense).

without being able to enjoy things, i just feel even emptier. it just feels like my life is going to be miserable forever