My life isn't that bad - I'm a student so I'm broke, and I had some pretty significant trauma last year, but I don't want to dwell on it. I just want to get up and go and move on but it all starts with getting up in the morning and I can't.  I don't necessarily think I'm that depressed, but the act of getting out of bed is the worst mental struggle and it happens every day. My alarm makes me cry sometimes out of sheer frustration - I feel like a spoilt toddler having a tantrum but the thought of having to be awake makes me angry. I just don't want to get up, to the extent where I physically can't. I know how pathetic that sounds. 

There is simply nothing available to me that I consider a better option than staying in my safe, warm bed. When I'm home from uni I have my dog to get up for, to feed and walk him, but I have nothing here. My attendance at uni is about 30% which sucks because I love my course, but most days I simply cannot get out of bed to go. I'm tired constantly. I can't fathom how anyone can hold down a 9-5 job; on a Monday I'm in class from 9-12 and then 2-6 and if I do go it writes me off for the whole next day. As a result of my poor attendance I have no friends. (I do the work though - last term I got all firsts, even in a module I only attended one class for. It's not like I'm not motivated or anything)

I have friends, a social life, hobbies. But none of them are worth getting out of bed before self-hatred drags me out at about 1pm, at which point half my day is wasted. Sometimes I even lie in bed for hours ignoring how much I need to pee until my bladder hurts for days afterwards. I just want to be in bed. It's safe and nice and warm and comforting. 

How do I get out of bed? What can I do to train myself? How can I see good things in my life as being at least on par with being in bed? I know I'm wasting my life and not living to my fullest potential and even that doesn't seem enough to spur me out of bed.