So this is a long ride.
I finished my 10th grade in 2020. When I received the results I was very happy and satisfied. I even got a picture of me on a billboard. Since then everything has came down. With pandemic I got addicted to games and adult content. I am very easily distracted. Everyday a cycle repeats, I think about working hard, gets distracted and fail. In 2021 I started preparing for entrance exam of college got some good friends but then I failed at the last moment. I am trying again this year. But I don't have the energy left. I just remember that day I was so happy when I got my 10th grade result. Many people said it didn't matter but still I was happy. I finished school this year with okish result but I am neither happy nor satisfied. I have wasted my father's income on my education. In 2020 when pandemic started I thought I got a passion in writing codes for computer. I liked it but I failed at that as well. Sometimes I think life would have been easier for my parents without me.I also feel lonely. I want someone to hug me. I cry like a baby everyday.

I want to go back to that day and feel happy and satisfied.

Thankyou to whoever is reading. You had a lot of patience. May God bless you.