before i begin i cant stress this enough. I am not english so please excuse any misspels. So i have been struggling with depression for maybe about 1 and a half years. I only just got treated for it. The sad part is that since im a teenager IN HIGHSCHOOl. And people say its "puberty shit". But they cant say shit when im getting medication for it. I cant concentrate if my life depended on it. It has made my grades in math are so bad i probably have to repeat a year. The stress i have in school has gotten so bad i started Cutting my arms, My hands. Btw this started in the summer before highschool and just left middle school. I even wanted to end my life. There would be so many times i would lay in bed but just couldnt close my eyes. I would be laying there sobbing. And just sobbing would make me feel worse. I felt weak. I kept telling myself to stop being a baby but i just couldnt stop sobbing. So the only way i knew back then was to harm myself. The worst part is that in school i have to pretend that im happy so that nobody knew how i actually felt about myself. And everytime i look in the mirrior i felt ugly and hopeless. It got so bad one day my dad noticed my scars from cutting myself. So i went to a doctor. After talking with a psychiatrist She diagnosed me with depression. But i am slowly getting better