i’m so disappointed in myself i thought this would never happen again, it was after a HUGE fight with my boyfriend where we nearly broke up and thats never happened before. i felt like i was losing everything and even though i havent cut in well over a year the urges have never left and last night i couldn’t control it. i feel so guilty and disappointed; i let myself down and our argument was because of me, i was splitting during as well so i feel bad for that now too. really intense things were said last night, my boyfriend has apologized (even though he did nothing wrong) and he says everything is fine now and i didnt ruin our relationship (i kept saying i did). i just feel weird because im at square one with self harming again and even though my boyfriend is saying “the relationship is fine” i know this argument has definitely damaged it a bit and that really hurts. idk i just needed somewhere to vent and maybe get some words of encouragement or to hear similar stories about relapsing because its comforting to know im not alone in this. 