What the hell is wrong with me? I messed everything up all over again. I said some stupid stuff and it's been over 2.5 hours (close to 3) since he replied to my last text. He is usually a really fast replier and always tells me when he's busy. The worst part is that he even posted an IG story during that time. This means he must have seen my apoligies. 
I can't even be mad at him. I totally get it. He's just tired of my bullshit. He knows about my mental health condition and he tries his best but everyone's got a limit I guess. I'm just spiraling really bad right now and I feel so fucking stupid. I wish I could show him my pain to make him see how sorry I actually am. Just needed to write that down without getting judged. Hope y'all are doing a little bit better than me :)