I always wondered why my therapists never suggested DBT, since I've heard it is very helpful for people with BPD. Yesterday's therapy was great, she said I am very good at rationalizing whenever I am in big emotions, I know and self aware of mine and others point of view when I'm in BPD conflicts with others (thinking they're against me, they made me angry from not understanding me, overspending, depressive episode, etc.).

What she said was, I am good at understanding my needs and opposite views came from others, and I am good in decision making, but when I did things rationally, I put my emotions to the side and never address how my decision affected me because to me, I did the right things and that's what matters most. I dismissed my feelings totally and refuse to process it because for me, I did the right thing and I've found the middle ground when I have BPD conflicts.

So we will try DBT from next session onwards. Wish me luck. I already got some exercises to do, and I'm willing to help myself feel better.

&gt;Side drama happened last week:
I opened up to one of my colleagues about my mental health conditions and she forced me to be okay and forget about my r*pists. I wanted to punch her face, really. I regret talking to a person who is so lack of empathy such as her, but I have to be kind to her because I need her help in my studies. I have to be strong and deal with this piece of shit for another year. Ugh.