So I met this girl a year ago we got along super well and we had really deep convos. I fell in love with her really hard. Suddenly she broke contact. I was already diagnosed with minor depression and social anxiety at this point so it hit me really hard. 

After a while we started talking again and  when I thought things were normal again she broke contact again.

This process repeated itself 2 times and my mental health drastically declined. I needed to stop school because I developed an dissociative disorder. So whenever I see her I just pass out.

I been trying to find out why she was doing all this but she won‘t give me an answer.

I have attempted suicide 3 times in that time period but always failed somehow.

My life feels do pointless and I feel so worthless how do I overcome those feelings.