I’m a 22f. I’ve been diagnosed with adhd in my adult life but realized it has affected me all my life. not only that but as a child I was also SA. by family as well. Basically I’ve just been hurt so much as a child. I try so hard to function as an adult but I constantly just grieve how much I lost as a child. why did I have to think about wanting to disappear at 10 years of age. Why did I have to dream and imagine I lived in a magical world where I was loved by my parents. Where I felt respected and important. now, I have a shitty relationship I can’t get out of, a home life where I still get no respect and no money to just take my stuff and leave. The only things I care about are my two little dogs. I try so many days to be positive and hold on and think for the better. But the weight I care is sometimes too much.