Each day I am feeling it is getting worse. The only thing I am still able to write this is because the gun malfunctioned and I can't get it to work properly. I have a feeling that I completely gave up. For some reason I am feeling so alone even though I don't have to feel that way. Nevertheless, I think I will end it soon. And this time I will not fail

I am probably writing this because I just want to be heard, but I don't want to feel like a stupid fuck and bother my friends. I need a hug. I think.