So I'm 17, have very little actual friends, no social life at all. No romantic relationships ever.

I was invited to my cousins q8th yesterday and I asked my friends and no one could go with me. My life's so embarrassing. My younger sister is always out, has so many friends. Her snaochat is always blowing up. If u went on mine, I'd have opened snaps from days ago. I have basically no friends.

I'm very akward. Very anxious. Iverthink conversation. I'm very boring and annoying. I have no proper problems but my sadness from my lack of social life gets me depressed. I've tried joining clubs, vole teering and I work. I'd like to think I'm not a bitch. I'm quiet and really struggle saying hi so I normally just ignore people which is very bad ik. I'll never have boyfriend ik. I'm fat, akward, not attractive. I'm a decent person I think. Idk tho sometimes I think I have no personality.

Anywyas yeah I'm just kinda depressed and sick of my sad life. I think I need to stop guving a fuck because worrying or being down about my lack of youthful life doesn't do anything.

Anywyas how can I improve my life?

Like r there any like online things for friends or conversation starters. I thi k I'm introverted. I get sick of people easily. I don't get lonely either. I just feel guilty and embarrassed for having no social life. Also is there anyone else who can relate?

Everyone says being a teenager is the best years if tour life. I just cry and pity myflsef for my sad life. Some of my friends have friends and they hang out and travel togethwr.or party and go drink. I don't. I don't reallyparty, have sex, go and be crazy. I'm just a boring awkard anxious fucked person:(

But yeah any advice to help w me being less awkard like convo starters or ways to make more friends will be greatly appreciated