Hey all 
So today I got officially diagnosed with cptsd and bpd,
Don’t know how to take it in.
Trying to see the positive side in all of this but also frightened from the future and how will I manage a normal life with all of my extreme moods and abandonment anxiety.
Feels like I actually needed to receive my diagnosis so I’ll have an explanation for people in my life to why I behave the way I behave, always needed to keep the show going, so when I can’t I feel like I need to have an excuse. 
Any thoughts would help making me feel not alone in this
Thank you ❤️❤️