I've been through some pretty shit mornings lately which's leftovers made my whole days worse in general. I'm waking up at least 3 times during the night nowadays with a feeling of "not this shit again". Been also having a kinda dull but remaining headache.

I just can't seem to shake my on-and-off worries, I'm annoyed that I "have to" think about my mental health every single day for hours and hours - and the worst is that I can't come up with any solution. I'm basically just trying to keep my mind busy whenever I can.

I've tried meditating, doing yoga, talking and writing some of the things out of my system - nothing seems to work. I want a therapist but the promising-looking ones are all full, and I don't see the point of seeing one who's not suitable for me. I'm thinking of joining an art therapy group because at this point I wanna try anything I can pay a reasonable amount of money for (even though I'm bad at arts).

I'm trying to cope with all these overwhelming emotions and feelings as well as I can but it discourages me a lot that I can't seem to get out of certain mindsets...