I have depression but it’s an episodic issue for me. If we take 6 weeks (random sampling, in no particular order) I am very happy and energetic for 3 weeks, have so much energy and euphoria that it’s a problem (impulse for constant partying instead of doing important work, and rage if I don’t get my way) for one week and get either depressed or depressed and hyper-energetic at the same time for 2 weeks.

I noticed that in a good mood I tend to get impulsive and try to be the center of attention by interrupting people, monopolizing conversations and sometimes stirring up drama and acting concieted and never taking responsibility for my actions. I’m also prone to oversharing and being sexually suggestive. I have had social issues because I was being bossy and arrogant and because I was being rude to other girls who I thought secretly hated me were out to get me.

I sometimes think that I have superpowers and that I am the greatest person to ever have lived. The superpowers thing usually applies only if I’m so hyper it becomes a problem. When in that state I sometimes avoid looking in people’s eyes because I will kill them with superpowers or because they can read my mind.

I’ve recently become self aware of this and it’s causing me serious issues. I sometimes wish I had never realized that it was a problem. I’m going to therapy this coming Saturday. What do I do now?