 

I'm 18 male and have been suffer from anxiety and panic attacks for one year and months first I took SSRI for 6month during using and after stopping i didn't experience any side effects and were able to feel joy like before after stopping the ssri and my panic attacks vanish completely after using them so on that case i recover but still had anxiety and adrenaline rush winch with a combination of moderate depression in future that i experienced recently caused me to after passing a while from this period become emotionally numb like I can't feel any pleasure or sadness or anything (even sex is numb ) and now i have find cbt and from getting aware from the results that it has been on cases get hopeful i get some good books to read like feeling good dare response and other things (any other suggestion on books? ) but i scare what if somehow my brain haven gotten messed up cause of my disorder and SSRI use in the past but I notice people say they feel much better even better than before mental illness what is your experience and advice? did you have these doubts? how are you feeling now ? can I feel good again?