Meh, I had been doing so good with my health anxiety. I've been talking to a therapist over the phone for about three months now, and on medication for about four.

I think I've always suffered from anxiety, though when I was younger it was more of a social anxiety than anything. As I got older, I think it manifested into health anxiety, but I didn't realize that's what it was until about 6 months ago. 

My anxiety had been bad since June of last year (after an actual medical diagnosis that is now, hopefully, under control), but again, I didn't know it was health anxiety until I had a GI doctor tell me I should talk to a therapist and go on medication for my health anxiety (this was November of last year).

After a rough time with the start of my medication, and then therapy, I finally got to a spot where I wasn't scared of every sensation my body did. My GI symptoms mostly didn't bother me anymore (though I still had them), and I was able to recognize my thoughts as anxiety, and was a lot more able to acknowledge them and move on.

But now, I'm not sure what happened exactly? I don't really *feel* anxious, but, I'm pretty sure I'm going through a set back, considering I've messaged my GI doctor and pretty much told her I want these tests run that she didn't run before because she felt I was too young (I'm 38 now, female). And now, out of nowhere, I'm researching something that is incredibly rare, almost convinced I might have it and trying to talk myself out of calling my doctor to run these *other* tests. Sigh. 

But I don't feel anxious? It's such a weird feeling... But I obviously am, because my hot face/cold hands and feet are back, and I can't sit still. Or stay off Google (I know, I know, Google is the enemy. Again. I was doing so good at staying off Google), and constantly checking subs like AskDocs.

I was on the Health Anxiety sub for a while, but it seems to have changed recently? There are very few posts a day now, it seems, I think rules have changed or something. But, I don't really go there anymore now.

Anyway, just wanted to chime in here and also say anxiety sucks, and I wish none of us had to suffer through it!