(I originally posted this in the advice subreddit, but it was removed, sorry. Hope this'll be okay here.)

This is going to be a rambling mess, I'm sorry. I hate coding, I cannot stand it. And yet I just keep repeatedly ending up in computer science classes, somehow. I went to a computer camp a few years ago and got completely lost and, honestly, it's so much more than feeling like I can't do it: every second I'm working on code, whether I'm succeeding or failing, I just want to die. And then I stop working on it, proceed to forget how bad it is, and once again consider computer science as an option.

It's because I want to do something related to art. I love the liberal arts as a whole - writing, storytelling, philosophy, music - but I've found absolutely nothing which combines those interests with art. And then, last semester, I took an animation class and loved it. I love animation more than any other medium I've ever worked with.

The problem is that this university doesn't offer animation as a degree: instead, they have "animation for gaming" - which is, looking at the classes offered, significantly more of a computer science/software development major than anything related to art (and that's fair, I realize it's more useful that way.) But I wouldn't want to do that... Until I talked to the person in charge of the digital media department, and she said this program is currently undergoing a transition in which they're dividing it into two majors (2D and 3D animation). She sent me an email detailing the three required introductory courses: the animation class I took last semester, a scripting class, and a modeling/rendering class.

In a wild moment of spontaneity somewhat propelled by a random reddit comment someone made about how they felt like the most creative code-writers were often the people who had the hardest time learning it, I decided to sign up for the scripting class. I think, though I'm not sure, that this course will be required even after the major is changed. It was called "scripting for animation" and, I don't know, part of me hoped it wouldn't hugely incorporate that part of coding which I cannot stand. Anyway, I've gone to the first day and the teacher's great and the class looks great and right now is probably the best possible time for me to be taking this course if I plan on taking it... But it's definitely a coding class. I ended up enrolling in the modeling class because it was taught by the same teacher at the same time of day and really goes together with the former: it's probably worth it to take both at the same time, if I'm doing one.

And then I also got on the waitlist for a "film editing" class, because film is another potential major in digital media which could maybe, hopefully, involve more of what I want to do. But I'm currently enrolled in nineteen credits and I am going to need to drop something. If I go into film, there is no point in taking the scripting or modeling classes. If I go into animation, I don't know that there'll be any point in taking the film classes. There's a small chance these classes won't even matter either way after the animation major changes... And I know, in taking them, I'm going to have a really hard time. But I'll probably get through it.

I realize I'm insanely lucky to be where I am and to be having this problem in the first place. I'm sorry if I sound entitled, or stupid, or like a horrible person, and I'm sorry if I'm having trouble being coherent or getting my point across. There's another element in that my parents would rather I went into computers (for obvious reasons); I know they'd ultimately understand either way, but my mom would be disappointed if I were to drop out of the scripting or modeling class.

Any ideas for what I should do here? I also have the option to drop my creative writing class, which is completely unnecessary for anything (I don't need another humanities credit in my generals) and I'm just taking it because I really want to. Part of my hesitancy in signing up for this film class - which the deadline for is expiring in an hour and a half, now - has to do with my having missed the first two days of class (live-streaming). I don't know how easy it would be to catch up. I might take one look at the curriculum and hate it. I'm taking a risk if I sign up, but I'm taking a risk if I don't because right now I feel like I'm unintentionally committing to a major I really, really don't want to be in. Aaagh.