So my parents are both financially secure and I've never had any personal experience dealing with financial instability/ insecurity until now. Yet, I have such crippling anxiety about spending money that I'd rather put my body through hell than spend money on even the most basic needs like food.

To be fair my parents (or rather just mom) have always been extremely critical about everything I do and that often involved financial choices. For instance, if I bought sth cheap I would get told off for buying something of such low quality (even if they hadn't even seen the item) that I'd just throw it away after one use. If I bought a slightly more expensive version of the same item, I'd get told off again but this time for wasting money on such a thing. The only solution to this was to take my mom shopping with me so she would agree with me buying it or to get the exact information about the product she wanted before I left for the store.

So now I've moved out for college but I'm still living off my parents money (a thing a lot of asian families do but I plan to completely pay them back once I have a job). I have a scholarship that covers most of my tuition and so their spending is certainly less than what they were prepared for. They don't give me monthly allowances, sticking to transferring larger sums of money every semester for my use and telling me to ask for more whenever I have mostly spent the sent amount. This system should work pretty well, but is a huge strain on me because of my anxiety. 

I am constantly worried about asking for money and would rather live as frugally as possible to avoid asking for money until they, on their own, realize it's been a while and transfer money to my account. This means I take over 20 credits each semester to avoid asking for money for summer classes, I barely eat and have lost over 10 pounds over the last semester, I dont go out with friends or on trips (even if I always dream of travelling) because I'd have to spend money. I've tried to sign up for part time jobs but because of my insane class schedule (for eg I have classes from 9:30 am to 8 pm on mondays with only 2 hours break inbetween) it has been really hard for me to get a shift type job.

I know the stress I'm putting on my body to try and live as frugally as possible is making my mental health take a hit but I'd rather suffer a little and deal with the anxiety that comes along with spending and eventually asking for money. This I know sounds ridiculous especially when you take into account how much my parents spend on the most random, extravagant things. I know I can afford to eat 3 meals a day and my parents would be appalled if they found out I was worried about money for food but I'm still extremely anxious about and so cant get myself to buy 3 meals. I guess I fear they would ask and criticize my financial choices if I ever asked them for money and that's where my anxiety stems from but it's gotten to a point where I feel like its genuinely making me feel horrible physically and mentally but i cant do anything about it.

Tl/Dr: just read the first paragraph, the rest is just a more in depth explanation of my situation to give you a better picture.

Does anyone have a similar experience? How do you deal with this kinda of anxiety? Or do any of yall have any tips to help me cope?