I'm a 21yo 5'3" male and I desperately want to feel loved. I had a girlfriend for two years who cheated on me and I feel so abandoned and alone. I have no friends to vent to which is why I'm here. I can't see any other way out of this hell than killing myself and letting the world eat me alive. I won't find anyone to love me, because I'm short and girls don't like short guys. I've been on Tinder, Bumble, Hinge etc to try and connect with someone because I have no other option. Girls my age don't go out to bars or shit anymore they're all on Tinder, where they can freely control it all, and tbf I don't blame them now that I think about it. If they go out they could get preyed upon by creepy guys but they can be safe online. So at least that's good.

There are two things that keep me going. One is my dogs, we have 5 and I think they'd be sad if I killed myself. Two is my ex, I don't want her to have won. If I kill myself I essentially give her what she wanted. But these things are becoming blurry, I'm caring less and less, I just want to be free of my burdens, of my unattractiveness and my awful miserable life, but I'll never be, I'll always be this damaged, short, pathetic man. All I ever wanted to be was a husband and father. I cry all the time because it's never gonna happen.