Precautionary TW for anyone with weight related anxiety or anxious rants

I'm gonna be honest. I'm not skinny. I'm not heavily overweight or anything, but I am a little on the bigger side. (I'm working on it. I have a medical disorder that makes it EXTREMELY hard to lose weight. Anyways, I am always super anxious about how I dress because of that. I'm literally to the point where I constantly wear an abdomen compressor that I was supposed to wear just for prom. I've always been insecure about the way I look, but it's to the point that I'm terrified to not wear the compressor. I've managed to unknowingly program my anxiety to believe that people will look at me with disgust or find me too "large" to wear what I'm wearing. Here's the kicker: I literally wear hoodies, baggy shirts, high-waisted pants, and MAYBE the occasional athletic shorts. I don't have the guts to wear anything that is.. idk "more modern" because I'm horrified of the outcome. The compressor does not make me look skinny either. It just makes me feel like I look at least a little presentable and not like a cow. I hate everything about the way I feel, but I cannot bring myself to not wear it. Even if I am home alone and barely leave my house.