I wonder if anyone can relate to this.

I started dating a guy from Tinder exactly 2 weeks ago. I pretty much fell in love with him 1.5 hours into the date, so it’s just your usual BPD+NPD love story (both are me; he is completely normal).

It was going so great, really, up until Saturday when he told me that he was gonna be transferred to another country in a couple of weeks. It was a surprise for him too.

Cue me - pretty shocked, mainly sad. We continued with our night which was a bit volatile given that both of us were rather bummed. Then basically out of nowhere, I started crying. To put it in context, I was crying like when I got the news of my father’s death. Even I was shocked by this right there. I was just miserable, not only because he was going to go away but also because I felt so sorry for myself for losing what we have. And for having to go out again and have lots of terrible dates before I might find someone remotely great like him.

He was super patient and understanding but my craziness definitely surprised him. We talked about it how my behavior was completely uncalled for and what was realistic, I told him about my BD. All in all, he is great, we communicated through the difficult emotions, etc.

And I see it all, what is realistic in our relationship at this point, really, I get it with my brain, but boy... did I go through half the 5 stages of grieving and then back in just 3 days. I just feel so tired from this fucking roller coaster ride.