I mean, I'm not really sure what to say about it all. I relapsed and it's been a long time since I've done any drugs. I could feel it coming for a while now, though, so after it was all said and done I wasn't surprised at myself. I also wasn't angry at myself. I feel bad, but I don't at the same time. I've been spending so much time doing what everyone else thinks I should be doing that I guess I just wanted to be in control of something again. Take this medication, go to therapy, do this, do that, I just reached this breaking point, I guess. 

I don't know what the point of this post is. I just wanted to tell someone, I guess. I don't talk to anyone anymore so I don't really know. 