first of all, i'm sure this is something a lot of people with bipolar disorder think.  
but hear me out  


there's not a single feeling in the world that tops manic episodes, the euphoria and the ego you get every now and then is absolutely incredible - it is detrimental for your relationships and for yourself in the long run. But it's absolutely incredible. Personally, I've never been medicated, I am sure it eventually will ruin my life but I don't care - the manic episodes are worth it. It feels like I can paint the world with my fingers, feels like I can do anything, it compensates for all the days where I can't even get out of bed. It's a beautiful chaos that everyone who is not bipolar will not comprehend. I will most likely end up dead because of it.  


It's truly, amazing.