I'm not doing this to sound quirky and shit. I'm fucking desperate and I have no one left.
I've been depressed since I was 7, I'm now 18 and my mind is poisoned. I've always, in one way or another, destroyed what I loved, and feel like nothing is even worth it anymore. 
I am constantly thinking about death, whether it involves me alone or something/one else, I feel sick. I don't find people attractive anymore, I don't feel pulled towards any activity if not occasionally playing bass and spend most of my days and nights on the internet to distract myself from my own thoughts. I've never felt so rejected, so distant from humanity, so disgustingly angry and sad. My soul feels like nothing but a big black hole, sucking everything just to then spit out thoughts of nihilistic anger and misanthropy. 
My apologies for any grammatical errors but English isn't my first language and I'm just typing whatever I can make of my own thoughts.