tw: mentions of grooming 

i've always been so careful to avoid texting him when i'm in an episode or splitting (we're long distance so it works). today, i got triggered and split on him; my brain, as a defense, told me he was grooming me and i got mad at him for no reason bc he's never done anything like that before (context: i have trauma lol). he said he still wants to live with me next year, start a family and matry me, and he's willing to help me and "put up" with my bpd. imma marry this guy rn istg