Don't know what to do about this but the idea of not being perfect and having good grades and skills is holding me back so bad.  It's to the point where I am aware of it all the time and it's making my social anxiety worse.  I worry that if I tried to go for a better job that I will get anxious and stuck in my head about failure instead of just getting things done.  I think that if I had just succeeded in the beginning I wouldn't be in the situation I am in now.  How do I stop my failures from defining me and being in the back of my mind at all times.  This feeling has been with me for years and it's destroying me.