i’ve never been so low before. I feel like i’m falling apart. The small positives in my life get grayer and grayer by the day. It’s so difficult to muster enough energy just to try and do the things i enjoy or want to do. By the time I sit to do what I want, Im too exhausted. Im past the point of feeling sad, it’s just numb at this point. Numb towards so many outlets I used to turn to. Even music is starting to lose its touch. I think about ceasing to exist sometimes. It would make people’s lives easier. If I just left, where? I don’t know, just not here.