I am. Im my own worst friend. I put everything off. I scraped by. I got married. Now they’re gone. I’m sick it’s not entirely my fault. But people, friends, relationships, family. They all keep leaving me. I’m like a ghost walking. I’ve no voice.the thing is I don’t blame any of them. I want to leave me too… but I can’t do that no matter what I do. I’m still me. My greatest disappointment. 

Why don’t I just change? Everything I try just blows up in my face. I’ve literally nothing to offer. People unload their issues on me, then leave after I’ve helped them. What kind of life is this. It’s a joke.