i really want to die, but i know my sister would be really upset so Im trying not to do anything that would hurt her. but holy fuck, i need something to keep me going through this down swing. im not into the whole “your life is worth it” thing because honestly its not. but does anyone have any recommendations for making it through a depressive episode? 
ive tried the therapy and the meds (often make it worse) i just need ideas on how to literally make it through day by day without feeling like im suffocating by this thought