So maybe some of you have the same experience, and have some suggestions. 

I have a particular disassociation where it is like experiencing events in 3rd person. It makes it really difficult to really engage in life, even activities that I love. It just seems so difficult to be present and immersed in what is happening rather than in my head seeing everything from a distance. 

Anyone have any ways of dealing with this? Do you have successful tactics that help you to engage better, more fully? I hope so.

Life can be bleak when you can't engage and truly experience life and the joys you try so hard to find.