I get scared when I distract myself and lose myself in whatever I’m doing (like homework or painting). I feel like distracting myself should be a good thing cause I don’t focus on thoughts so much, but I can’t help but feel uncomfortable when I stop being distracted.

The idea of time constantly passing and feeling useless and nothing feel real is what really gets me. I always feel scared and like I wanna cry.

It’s so frustrating because I’ve been dealing with this for about a month now without a therapist due to things outside of my control. I just wanna get the help i need and feel normal again.