I don’t know what’s wrong with me... years are flying by and I’m doing nothing, I’m scared out of my mind and I just hide inside, I’m reading all the posts and thinking about all the people I’ve hurt from this anxiety and just how shit my life is and I need to do better..... it’s like I’m not in control of my life and I’m just accepting it.

It’s been probably 3 years of this since I dropped out of college because of this anxiety and it’s torn everything and everyone away from me that I loved... I haven’t seen my own mother in years, my father I can’t make eye contact with, I have not a single friend or person I feel I can truly talk to. I’m scared all the time and I just want it all to stop :(