Lately I've felt like I'm backtracking. I am on meds and in DBT (week 4), but it's almost like starting DBT has dug up all this stuff I had been ignoring. Suddenly I'm disassociating, getting easily overwhelmed, yelling, and feeling totally miserable and alone again. I'm having bad dreams about my FP, and my fear of abandonment feels like it's really ramped up.


Even though this is happening, part of me is doubting it all. Am I just doing this to myself because I've become fixated on "being" borderline since I'm in treatment for it? I've been on meds almost ten months, are they becoming ineffective? Am I just driving myself crazy for no reason?


I'm at work and just want to crawl under my desk. How can I do this the rest of my life