 

TW: Sexual Assault. I'm sorry if this is weird, I just needed to let it out. I've never thought about that much because I was thinking maybe that not much a big deal and I'm overthinking.

When I was in middle school, I had buddies who hung out with me only because I had PlayStation 2 and PC. I wasn't rich or anything. Quite the opposite, actually. My parents worked low-skilled jobs all the time and I was left alone. I felt lonely. Sometimes I was just sitting in my room while my buddies played games. I don't know, this shit just hurts. When I got a bit older one of my buddy's friends tried to sexually assault me when we were exploring some abandoned place. I just run away from there crying. Actually, he tried to do that twice. I hang out with a few of my buddies in my room, one of them played PC and wasn't bothered with anything. The second one tried to force himself on me and imitated a sexual act meanwhile friend who played PC just laughed. The same day some of them stole a board game that was given to me as a gift from my parents. This makes me think about how much of a weak, useless, worthless, doormat I am and how people have always seen me like this.