like no fucking shit my life is an entire mess and ppl are trying to convince me to hold on because my birthday is approaching but it’s honestly means absolutely nothing to me , and i can’t even spend it with the one person who makes me feel like life is worth living, i’m the person everyone leans on but no one really wants around because they can’t handle me. they think it’s selfish that i don’t want to be here but it’s p selfish to only use me when you need me.