I've been suffering for a long long time with depression. I've never had any help with it I just try and deal with it as best I can on my own. Up until the beginning of this year I had a partner who I thought would be there for me until the day we died. I thought we where gunna get married and have children together. But he didn't feel the same way I did, he left me and moved back to Ireland where he was from (I'm English). I blame myself for it all I can't blame him because who would want to be with someone like me. He's totally cut me off now so I can't contact him at all anymore and I've never been so lonely in my entire life. I don't have any friends at all, I go to work Monday to Friday and as soon as it gets to the weekend everyone I work with is excited they can go live there lives for 2 days before going back to work. I finish on a Friday and get into my lonely house and cry all night because I have nowhere to go nothing to do and noone to see. I'm 28 years old and I have nothing to be happy about in my life. I sleep as much as I can just because if I'm asleep then I don't need to remind myself how terrible my life is when I'm asleep I can dream and I can escape ghis feeling. So far This weekend I went to sleep at 10pm last night slept until 1pm this afternoon and now im awake I can't stop crying. The sun is out shining, once over id of had so many plans but now I have nothing I don't have 1 single person in the whole world that will want to do anything with me or go anywhere. So it's yet another day of lying in bed wishing to God I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Shall I just kill myself and stop all this pain? Can anyone tell me the best way to do it I'm scared but I don't want to live like this anymore