I just want to help my family, I don't want to cause them anymore worry or concern, I don't want to upset their lives, but I feel so tired. I'm so unhappy. Everything I try seems to end up going wrong. Every time I've tried to do things, to have friends, to talk to people, to take up interests, things seem to go wrong. All I can do now is cry and think about the past. It's all too much, I've tried the best I could to help people but I'm just a burden and a nuisance and an unloveable object. I have nothing left in me, no hopes, no beliefs, no energy. I've tried, and tried. I've done my best. All my ideals have crumbled. I don't have anymore to give. I'm sorry to all the people I've upset. I never meant to be unkind, I never wanted to cause pain, I've only ever wanted to fit in. People have bullied me and abused me in my life and I've had accidents, I've broken my arms. I've had chest infections every year, and I think it's just all got the better of me. I want to believe I can still be of some help to people in my life but I'm exhausted. I don't want to cause any more trouble.