  Hey guys, I don’t know I’m a brand new user over here…I’ve been feeling a lot lately… it’s something I’ve been feeling for a while. I’m 27 years old and I’m the first born/first generation. I never had any guidance, or mentor, or adult figure. I was just told to stay out of trouble, graduate high school, and work. Just recently around May, I went to Vegas for the very first time…  and I feel like it’s pathetic..fast forward. I see everyone around me moving up, buying houses in a somewhat expensive state, going out to see the world… while I’m slaving away working 6 days a week to pay my bills and rent… it’s crazy because at work, I trained my mind to be super happy and really make my customers super happy…and I eventually learned to enjoy it…the moment I clock out…I just sit in my car… with a very long pause…rethinking about my life…why am I not where everyone is at? I’m always told to be grateful and be humble because not everyone has the same opportunity as I have….and they’re right…but it genuinely pisses me off… I cut Instagram/Snapchat/Facebook/ and for a moment I was happy… but I saw everyone around me stuck…or some negative or toxic at work…and I’m afraid to leave my job because I have so many bills to take care of. I’m never gonna ask for a handout or ask anyone for food. It doesn’t help that the company I work for now are cutting my hours and the hero pay was removed…now my debt will be stuck with me way longer than usual..and I’m crying typing this bullshit thinking this will solve my issues.. I don’t care anymore.