18 year Dutchmen here 
I have been feeling like this for a while now. 
But I feel like it’s not fair to feel this way, of course not everything is rainbows and sunshine but I would call my self privileged for sure. Growing up in a loving amazing household, got/ are getting great education, decently sportive/ social, having a lot of friends.
But that doesn’t change the fact that I often feel undeserving of love and alone. 

And unfortunately even tho my family is awesome as a men from a Dutch farming family this isn’t something I can talk about.

I don’t think I would act on this feeling but I for example do caught myself crossing the street without prober looking sometimes.

Needed to get this of my chest.

Hope everyone who reads this stays healthy and save.

Much ❤️ from the 🇳🇱