I’m a mom of 2 and a wife. My husband and I are both disabled due to our mental health disorders and we live in a rural town with no friends or family within 6 hrs of us. I am at my wits end. 
I want to hurt myself constantly. I know I can’t keep me safe from myself much more. I am not suicidal, but I’m not okay, and I’m on the verge of a very major mental health breakdown. 
I’ve never spent even one night away from my kids and husband, and I don’t want to, but I don’t think I will be okay if I don’t get help. 
How long will they keep me? Will it be worth it? Will I get the help I need? Is it a mistake? Why do I feel selfish for even considering it?
If anyone has insight I could really use some. I’m both terrified of myself and also just in a “who cares?” mood and could use advice ASAP. 
Thanks.