I've never felt this empty. I've been trying to listen to music for a while now, to feel something. I usually play music real loud so it reverberates through my ears and pumps me up but it's just been so...useless. 

I tried to masturbate earlier and couldn't orgasm for the life of me, my vagina even became numb. I'd say that the thing that's been getting me off seemed unappealing today but that'd imply I felt _something_ towards it except I didn't, at all. 

I was trying to think of things that normally inspire some kind of feeling, that usually always do, but my thoughts almost feel hazy. 

Just empty, it's like everything that normally makes me feel something has no meaning attached to it at all. 

I'm just slightly pissed off though, my boyfriend's been making dumb remarks about other women's appearances and whenever I get the resolve to say something I end up feeling like I just...couldn't be bothered (even though it does bother me). I just feel so meh.