Ever since my work has cut my hours, I’ve been very sad and can’t seem to do anything about it, I’m working 40 less hours a week then I usually am which is awful because I love money and working. I used to be able to do things I want to do, like if I wanted to go and get food I would be able to hop in my car, and go get it no problem, but now it’s such an overwhelming thought that I literally think doing that is impossible, but that’s just an example. There’s really not much that makes me happy anymore,  I’m always reminiscing about the old things I used to do and how much happier I was back in years like 2015,16,17,18,19 but after that I haven’t felt much happiness and I want to feel that again. Today I wanted to go to the park and just walk and get some vitamin d because the sun is out but I can’t, the thought of doing everything leading up to it is just so overwhelming that it clouds me from doing anything at all and it’s sad, I want better for myself but I can’t seem to get the motivation, it feels like every day is the same and i have no future or success ahead of me, I wake up and do the same things every single day, why is life like this, and even if I wanted different things I can’t find the inner strength to do it. I’ve always been more of a loner and I liked it like that for a long time but I don’t think I can do it anymore, deep down I’m so sad and all the people around me don’t know at all, my own mom doesn’t know, and I don’t want to tell her, I feel like life is just going to keep progressively getting worst and I don’t want it to be this way but I don’t know how