To give a bit of background my boyfriend and I have been together just short of a year and have been living together for 9 months. This man has seen the absolute worst of me and has continued to stick by my side through me being an absolute PoS, so I’m incredibly grateful to have him in my life. I lost my job at the beginning of the month and was doing overall okay considering all the crap going on with this pandemic.  These past few days I been in a slump(not sleeping,not eating, not showering, etc.) today I was feeling particularly bad from finding out how stressed my bf is about our financial situation. I of course felt like a even bigger burden and basically just shut down and cried most of the day. We were suppose to go to his parents for his birthday dinner this evening, I had previously agreed to go but knew deep down I wasn’t going to go. I could barely make myself shower let alone convince myself to get ready. I told him while apologizing profusely that I don’t think it’d be a good idea if I went. At first he said it was okay and then as time passed he started being incredibly passive aggressive. I know I hurt him but it’s not like I was trying to force him to stay home with me... His family are very kind but judgmental people but I feel incredibly out of place there, I don’t think I could handle that in my current mindset. Should I have just pretended I was fine and went? Because I feel like I would’ve made things a million times worse..