I’ve noticed that many times I am reaction less to situations that commonly a reaction is expected from and I am conscious of this. I feel horrible about it because I can always see my partner in my peripheral turning his towards me constantly to see any reaction I have and I just am emotionless. I don’t wanna fake my reactions/emotions either but it feels like I can’t control this. I’m not sure if this is a result of being raised by a narcissist parent or something that stems from BPD, which I am diagnosed with. Would love to hear any thoughts.