so im gonna start this from the beginning my dad moved out and my mom doesnt have much money and shes trying to sell stuff and i have a best friend a group of friends consiting of 1 female 3 boys and a decent school life and basically we skip foward to a month before valentines my friend aiden ill name him tells me "you should try and date her man you got this" and i said ill think about it and i never really thought to much beyond that fast foward 4 days before valentines and my friend caleb ill name him says "yo wanna try out vrchat now that you have a decent pc" and i say sure and we have a fun time for a night and i feel weird around him in a good way and basically on 3 days my friend caleb tells me that i should ask her out and he has no doubt in my mind that i will be able to date her i try on call she says no followed up by "were you acutally being genuine?" in a harsh way i just say yeah and then hangup and my friend is just there feeling worse than me because i tried but i feel like i might like my friend more so a day later i just say fuck it to myself and i try he declines to and then a day later on valentines day he tells me that he was dating someone (not the girl in the friend group) but someone i thought i knew he was dating but he said he wasnt and i just at this point i didnt really know what to think and then some drama happens with someone in the friend group which i cant get into but it takes a bigger toll on me and before that day ends i was going to put some money in my moms bank account because she needed to pay off car insurance and i swear on my life i accidently clicked show balance (i put 300 in) and it shows as 304 and i start to get more stressed at this point i go home and sleep now we go to today where i genuienly just dont know as i said my life is going generally good with school and friends but my mom wakes up and i overhear her talking to my older sister and she says this which just is tearing me apart like a knife going further in what she says is "i think i might have to sell the house" which would make me lose all of my friends mind you i still love my friend caleb in a friend way i love all my friends my school life just my life here and my mom promised we would stay and i would graduate here and im also just so in love with where i am so i swear after all of this i feel like i dont know the thing is right before i hear her saying that i tell myself im gonna follow a schedule for self help (i.e exersicing and doing what i love) but now ive lost all of my inspiration.