First time posting to this sub I think, please remove if against the rules. 

BPD feels like a death sentence. One in ten of us is going to die from suicide. People with BPD are vulnerable to developing eating disorders, which we could die from. We’re vulnerable to developing drug addictions which we could die from. We’re vulnerable to getting into abusive relationships which we could die from. We’re prone to impulsivity, we could rack up insurmountable debt and die from it or have impulsive sex and get an STD and die from it. Our tendency to self harm could kill us, as could our vulnerability to psychosis and unstable moods and emptiness. 

BPD feels like a death sentence. Even if it’s not a black and white clear cut suicide there are so many more slow or subtle suicides we could potentially fall prey to. 

I’m not in a good place right now. They’re lowering my antipsychotic dose even though I’m not stable, I tried to go to the hospital to get help but got told ‘well you’ve come here for help so you clearly don’t want to die otherwise you would’ve done it’ and got turned away. I’m going to try going to the hospital one last time as soon as I find the courage to do so. 