I’m feeling really vulnerable right now because I just found out that someone I spent months being friends with apparently “never felt that close with me” despite me being there for her through break ups, friend conflicts, her talking about her daddy issues, etc. I was a huge part of this girls life for months and to have a mutual friend tell me that she doesn’t wanna be my friend and never liked me is pretty rough. I feel blindsided and like this all could’ve been avoided if they hadn’t pretended to like me for months. It’s making me think about everyone in my life because how would I know if they were just pretending to care about me? This is a stupid cry baby ass rant that I’m probably going to delete, but I just feel so hopeless and like my entire life is crumbling because who the fuck does something like that? I don’t know how to trust people when I have to go through shit like this.... it makes me wonder why I even try to make friends when I have no way of knowing that they care about me too. I just need some words of encouragement as to why I should keep giving a fuck about anyone lol