I've been telling myself I'm fine for a while now, but the last week has been rough and I can tell my mental health has been a little bit rockier recently. It's been gradually getting worse since September.

I did a treatment program in the spring, and as an alumni there are free support groups available to me. I was thinking, "Well I could try one group and see how it goes," but apparently you have to register for it and the dates listed says it happens every Wednesday evening from September (so I missed the start of it) to January 1st. And now it feels like a commitment. Like what if I don't feel like going one week? I assume I can drop out at any time. So that's part of it.

Most of their groups are related to eating disorders since that is the main thing they treated, so mood groups are limited. There's one for anxiety and depression support so if I do a group that's what I would end up doing. But this is largely a BPD CPTSD thing even though anxiety is also definitely a part of it. So that's the other part of why I'm not sure I'd want to commit to it.

It probably would be nice to have a formal support group once a week, but I don't know if I should go for it or not. It's the fact that registration is required since there's a limit to the number of people that makes me hesitant to at least try it.

Any input is appreciated.