I’ve had an issue where I feel like I’m not being totally honest with my therapist all the time. And it’s not that I’m lying or hiding anything. It’s just that I can’t really convey my emotions effectively when I’m not actually in the moment of feeling them. So for an example, if I have an episode where I’m having really irrational thoughts, crying, enraged, wanting to do impulsive things, etc. Once it’s over and I’m at therapy, I can explain that I had an episode but I don’t think my therapist and psychiatrist understand how bad my episodes are. Especially the splitting, going from feeling good to feeling like I want to die in a matter of minutes, psychosis like episodes. 

So my idea is basically to make short videos, I’m thinking like 3 to 5 minutes just enough so that I can properly explain the episode in the middle of it the best I can. I’m pretty self-aware of my feelings while I’m feeling them. After being in therapy for four years I know myself and my BPD pretty well. I wanna make these videos to show my therapist so that she has a better understanding of the episode. Is this good, weird, bad? Someone give me their opinion please.