I told my FP that I feel sad and suicidal and after some texting I apologized for my venting and said that I'm no good for him and he actually agreed with me and told me that he'd be in a relationship with me if I wouldn't do this all the time. We were together up until two months ago. His last message was that he still really likes me a lot and I don't have the strength to text him back because I would turn this discussion into a wall of suicidal ideation and self-pity.