(I would never harm myself or anything of the sort. This is just a space for venting.) I feel it hard tonight. It has really hit me hard that I’m very much alone, possibly for a long time. I won’t ever have a man who wants to live their life with me. I feel that there has never been a time where a man has ever held me and felt something about me, never looked at me and felt any kind of love for me. I fear I will always be alone... I have happiness in my life, but deep down I feel depressed. I feel like an absolute loser and unlovable being so alone in this huge area of life.