Life is fucking shit... There's no fucking point, honestly wtf. Sometimes I'm actually shocked at how shit it can be like wow and right now its one of those moments. I have a mental illness and many other problems but Why the fuck do I deserve this? I never hurt anybody infact i go out of my way to help others where I can. Its all unbelievable.  I don't know why i still believe in god when he treats me and so many others like this and even worse. I swear sometimes i enter a state where I'm looking in the mirror and asking myself why why why over and over again. I don't wanna die. I just want a good life. Is it too much to ask?