I hate myself. I can't force myself to apologize because on the surface I don't think I'm wrong, but deep down I know I am but I'm too prideful due to anger to apologize. And then I regret it because I hurt people and I can't fix things and I keep damaging all my relationships because of it. I'm considering packing up my things in the middle of the night and leaving my home town, then taking the train to go somewhere else. I just want to stop existing.