I feel like I’m always faking it. Like when I have an anxiety attack I’m secretly faking it and can stop whenever I want. I mostly have anxiety attacks in front of others. I feel like most of it is when I want attention. Sometimes it happens when I’m by myself. Once I took a walk in the middle of the night and for  more than an hour straight i walked around my town, pulling my hair, hyperventilating, but the entire time I’m just thinking to myself “why don’t i just stop, i can stop whenever i want”. I feel like whenever I’m anxious I’m pretending. I don’t feel like I’m really anxious. I don’t even know if I’m even stressed out or if im pretending. I don’t know if I actually feel stressed out or if it is me imagining.