I've been struggling for a long time to answer my friends' texts or calls while I'm in a particularly depressed mood(which is almost always nowadays) and I hate myself for it.

It makes my friends worry that I might have done something or that I'm mad at them and it ultimately pushes them away from me.

I have moments where I decide I'm gonna answer no matter what but they last about 5 days and then I'm back to ghosting them.

I don't know what causes me to do this as I love my friends and I don't know how to fix it.

Any tips?