Coming here to vent a little. So, I was experiencing pretty difficult occasional anxiety and depression since my husband has been deployed (were about 2 months in). Doctor decided to put me on Lexapro 10mg and I had the WORST panic attack of my life. Actually I’ve never had a panic attack until I took that one pill of Lexapro... it landed me in the ER but I eventually left after waiting to be seen for 3 hours. So I immediately threw the Lexapro in the trash when I got home. It took me about 2 days to feel normal again... Fast forward about a week and I’m laying in bed and all the sudden have another panic attack that takes about an hour from start to finish. Since then I have had the worst anxiety of my life. I would pay any amount of money just to feel the way I felt a week ago. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t properly take care of my two young children, my legs constantly feel numb, I can hardly breathe, and the anxiety is CONSTANT. It gets 100x worse at night when I go to my room and lay down... I almost feel like I’m going to vomit from feeling anxious for no apparent reason. My doctor had tried putting me on hydroxozine and buspar but those haven’t worked. I’m in the process of getting a therapist but it’s moving very slowly due to wait lists. I’ve tried journaling, breathing exercises, mindfulness, sleep hypnosis, I workout almost every day and eat healthy, taking complex B supplement, talking to my family. Does anyone have any tips or tricks? I am desperate at this point to feel something besides my anxiety. I miss my old self so much.