Lately I have not been emotionally and physically well. 
Right now I am going through a very rough time. 

But last night I had a dream about my therapist, nothing inappropriate but rather made me feel a bit hopeful. 

It was one of those rare dreams that I can remember so vividly with all of the details intact.

I decided to share the dream as I think that it might help others that are also going through a rough time.

It is a bit long, but I encourage everybody that has made it to this point in the post to read it.  (Please ignore the grammar mistakes).  
**It is written from the perspective of me to my therapist Mellisa.** 

*Here it goes;*

I found you and I standing next to a small stream the same stream that used to be where I lived a year ago, but this time it was different it had a few stepping stones leading to the other side. 

Standing on the other side, you told me if I wanted to have our appointment that I needed to follow you, that you would guide me to a specific destination and only if I make it will we have our appointment. 

I crossed the stepping stones with ease and made it to the other side. You were nowhere in sight but then I heard you you call out to me from the top of a very steep hill, You said to me "come along" and so I began to climb the hill It was a bit more difficult than I had expected but I made it to the top. 

Panting and gasping for air I was greeted by you. Ahead stood an open doorway, like a portal of some sort. I could not see beyond the swirling bright colors that distorted the view of the other side. 

You told me to step in despite the uncertainty of what lies ahead, and so I nervously obliged. 

On the other side of the portal I found myself standing on a very tall pillar and above me the sky was dark, but it radiated and swirled with what resembled the Aurora Borealis 
I looked down and it was pitch black revealing a never-ending void and it terrified me. 
I felt a wave of vertigo and almost lost my balance but I held my composure and looked on ahead to see you standing on the last of all the pillars. 

You said to let go of all my fears and I will be able to cross each pillar with ease.
Heart pounding I took a deep breath and blocking my fears from entering the forefront of my mind I impulsively jumped. 

As I made my way across to the second pillar, I felt light on my feet and I glided through the air easily making it to the next pillar, I repeated this six more times and I found with each crossing I became less fearful. 

Making it to the last pillar, I looked ahead and found you floating about 50 ft in front of me in midair, You appeared to be standing on nothing. you shouted at me to jump and I responded "No, I will fall into the endless void!" and you said to trust you, "that  it won't happen" . 

Once again, without letting a single thought cross my mind I leaped high in the air towards you. 

I made it about 10 ft forward, and all of a sudden what looked like a very large clear square glass floor appeared below me And I descended slowly downward landing on the floor. 

I suffered another wave of extreme vertigo but when I observed the area around me I was surrounded by cosmic bliss, thousands of stars engulfed us in every direction they appeared to be millions of miles away but glimmered brightly. A blue and red aura complimented each star and filled the spaces in between. 

Standing in front of you in absolute awe I was speechless and marveled at the illustrious view that surrounded us. 

You said now that we are here you can start by telling me "what's going on". 

I opened up to you of all my worries, how I  hate almost all of my body.
And of my fears of venturing out into the world with my current mental and especially my physical ailments. 
I mentioned the pain I was in and how I had trouble sleeping every night because of rumination. 
I brought up how I felt that I was making very little progress and that perhaps I was frustrating you because of that. 

You stopped me and said: "I noticed you said you almost hate all of your body", putting emphasis on the word almost. 

You followed up with "what do you like about yourself and your body?" 

I told you how I was proud of my intelligence and my eagerness to learn everything I can about the universe. 

how I found joy in helping others, and that I was a very empathetic person and found it easy to relate to my peers. 

I mentioned how I was eager to fulfill my goals despite how now I am finding it increasingly difficult. 

I spoke about how I felt that because of I am an HSP and the emotional extremes I experience due to all of my disorders they give me a much wider range of emotional intelligence compared to most people in the world. 

Finishing up, I shared that I am very proud of my strong morals even when sometimes others disagree with them.

You then said to me that while I feel very negative towards many aspects of myself, that I should rejoice and always recognize the positive aspects as well. 

After that I woke up and sat there in bed processing and introspecting on the most vivid and symbolic dream I have ever experienced. 

I believe that the physical obstacles you put me through represented the challenges in my life, and that I must learn to trust in myself to be able  accomplish my goals and overcome the obstacles in my life, instead of completely relying on others to do it for me. 
That I can only improve my life if I put in the effort as well. 

In the beginning you had said to me to step into the portal despite my uncertainty of what's on the other side, I think this represents my fear of uncertainty, And that sometimes we must take risk despite the unknown as you know I am not usually a risk taker.

When you told me to trust you as I stood on the last pillar in the cosmic realm that I think it resembled that while I must  trust myself, I must also trust in other people which is something you know I struggle greatly with and I will find that by trusting in other people it can present me with many great possibilities. 

I believe that the words that you had spoken to me once we arrived at our final destination regarding what do I like about myself where said with the intent of improving my self-esteem and to find more ways to have a more positive outlook towards myself by looking at the whole picture instead of focusing on the negatives. 

I will never forget this dream and I hope that I have many more like it.