My life is a self inflected lonely shit show. I have on and off friends, and school has ruined my ability to let myself relax or even enjoy things I used to. I’m really struggling to keep myself happy rn and I’m trying by finding a hobby. I used to do all sorts of arts stuff but it took a dark turn and my work became very dark, and I scared myself :/ 

I’ve accepted that this is all a product of my own doing, but I want to know if anyone else feels like this. I’m on meds so much so that I don’t remember anything anymore and feel empty most of the time. I can only numb myself out by watching YouTube so much :(

Anyone else ?