How can I ask in a way that doesn’t upset them I’m trying to be their friend again ?  I don’t think I want to wait around for them to be  broke, desperate and alone enough  to ‘forgive’ me  and that’s the only way its going to happen.  Last time I suffered 7 months of no contact hell .  Don’t get me wrong I’m glad things are going so well and they are good  people and  money wise but For me it means no contact is probably going to go on at least that long if not longer and I can’t ... . I’d really like to just try for closure but there’s not even anything in it for them to talk to me. There is nothing they need or want (sadly that’s about it) do I need to just continue to hurt quietly that, once again, I failed to be “enough”? What is so wrong with me that I don’t deserve anyone  that genuinely loves me back?