 Long  story short: I have had severe anxiety for awhile now. I have never  spent time at home alone for days on end. I have only been in this home  with my girlfriend for a few months. It still feels fresh after being  with family for the first 25 years of my life. That's right. I am a 25  year old male and I am afraid.

I  don't know what that makes me. I feel frightened and isolated. I haven't  made many physical contacts. Nobody that I can rely on much for  support. Because I do get scared a little too often. I am seeing a  therapist weekly and seeing a psychologist this month. I really want to  get better.

I have posted here a  few times. Most of the time it is buried and gets zero notice. I  understand with so many people. I just wish for someone to reach out. My  girlfriend is going on a six hour flight from tomorrow until the end of  the week for work and this all came up very suddenly. Just found out  today.

Never have I slept in a  house or even spent much time at home alone before on a daily basis.  That makes me nervous. But just the well being of my girlfriend always  worries me. I do always hope she will be okay and take very good care of  herself and I know she does. It's just... yeah, you know.

My  family is a couple states away. I don't really have anyone here. But I  am trying to make a life here. I hope I sound understandable. I am only  afraid of how my girlfriend will do and her getting there, being okay  and getting back safe and well. I will do my best. But sometimes. It is  really so painful.