I can’t get out of bed at all, I haven’t changed my clothes or showered in 4 days, I haven’t eaten real food in 2 days now, and last night I got really drunk and started acting like a dumbass, I stopped showing up to work as well. 

I’m just being a burden on everyone around me. 
I’m living with my ex and her family, we have a kid together but she recently found somebody else, so I’m just staying here until after Christmas so I can spend it with my daughter. 

I’m gonna have to move across the country now and won’t get to see my daughter daily anymore. I’ve never been more depressed in my life, and I’ve been down pretty bad a few times. I just don’t know that to do, I want to stop feeling like this but I have no energy at all to do anything. I’m just gonna keep self medicating.