After almost 4 years of being a shut-in due to some bad shit that happened, I am leaving for a month long dream vacation tomorrow. 

I have been in a lot of therapy for the past 3 years, am on a medication that is working okay, and decided a few months ago to book my first trip anywhere in several years, to places I’ve wanted to go my whole life. 

I am crying with anxiety. I know this trip will be important for me… challenging and necessary. I am just so scared.