I'm not sure of the best way of dealing with it, it's gotten to a point where some days I'm scared to leave the flat. I'm a small woman and so although everyone deals with rude strangers regularly it really affects me. Not sure of how to deal with it, especially as seeing a doctor is almost a no-go right now (I live in England).  


For example, today, a shop assistant was incredibly rude to me to the point I had to ask to speak to a manager although I've never done so before (he made fun of and insulted me for the fact he couldn't initially understand me behind my thick mask). I did ask to speak to a manager, who was more than understanding and said she would take it up with him, but I can't get the way he spoke down to me out of my head. As I was walking home, a man running on the pavement alongside his cycling son snapped at me to "watch out!", even though it's illegal to cycle on the pavement on this country and he was completely in the wrong by coming up behind me quickly. I replied "yes, I can see you fine!" sarcastically but wish I'd said more tbh.

I've also recently ended things with a narcissistic emotional abuser who used to play hot and cold, say horrible things like that he'd "bench" girls he was dating (the implication being me), joke about me having "mental disorders" (though he didn't know I had anxiety) and generally neglect me. Not sure if this is triggering me more.

How do I deal with feeling more confident outside/standing up to rude strangers? Unfortunately as a petite (and Asian in a not so diverse) woman who looks like a teenager, bullies seem to zoom in on me even though I usually walk and look quite confident.