These past few weeks have been tough on me as I swing from mania to melancholia. I just realized when my family and friends pointed out that I was acting "crazier" than usual. I'm suspecting I have some sort of mental disorder, mainly BPD. I am scared because it has impeded me from doing the things I usually get done before. I don't know where to begin to have my old "not so crazy" life back. Help.