I just lost my mother 2 months ago and now moving across ocean and live with my husband's family. Growing I already have anxiety over people touching / showing affection or attention to me. But since my mom's passing I find it escalate to a point that I feel heavily nervous, scared and completely feel shitty and guilty because of it. My husband's younger sister in the autism spectrum and she is continously  staring at me with so much love, wanting to hold my hand all the time, needing hugs and demanding for me for affection back, it's been only 2 days but I feel that world is upside down, I want to scream, I want to hide and never be seen again, I want to disappear so she doesn't see me so I can relax and not be touched or stared at.

Can anyone please help me, or even just tell me that I'm not alone in feeling this way, I feel soo bad I feel like a monster that I want to be left alone. I'm starting to think that I will always be like this and maybe the best way to get away from this is to sperate from my husband 😔