I was at my psychiatrist a few days ago so that she could check up with me on my meds. She was going through my file from when I was hospitalized for depression a year ago and she told me it basically says that I have an unspecified personality disorder with BPD traits. I didn't think that I had BPD but it explains a lot, so I've been trying to practice some DBT stuff. 
I wish I would've known about it sooner, it all makes a lot more sense now. My inability to keep friends, my intense mood swings, etc.
The BPD symptoms have been worse lately.
But I know that I just have to keep going