i had this explained to me while ranting last night, i told my friend that i don't like the way my fp talks to me when there's conflict between us and something about his tone triggers my mood to just escalate incredibly. she told me she experiences the same thing with her other friend: that their responses seems rehearsed, they're afraid to say the wrong thing, and very specific buzzwords appear that just Make Me Spiral. 

anyways my head hurts from crying i am so mentally and physically exhausted i am filled with nothing but pure rage and sadness towards this guy and i thought i was doing ok for the last 2 weeks but noooppppeeeee here comes thefucking shame spirals and suicidal ideation again and the splitting ohhhh my god. i wantto rrip my skin off its either that or rip this guy to shreds icannot stand to be in my own skin.