Even my family seems to not care about me. I feel people don't want to have me around since no friends wants to meet me if I don't ask them first. Also normal men don't like to date me. When I go out with my female friends , they get so much attention and it makes me feel ugly. A friend of mine asked me several times if I'm suicidal and it makes me feel so embarrassed because he asked this in front of others and also he has no intentions to help me. I don't know why I deserve nothing good.