I’ve been a server for this company for 6 years on and off. They’ve known me since I was 18-24 which is a difficult time for anyone but as a woman with BPD I’ve had a lot to over come. They have seen me go off my meds and back on. I’ve been promoted and then demoted and then promoted and demoted AGAIN.I can’t help but feel like “too much”. I am always not enough or too much. I understand I can be intense but that’s only because I love my job and I am damn good at it. It just really sucks that the universe keeps having me learn the same lessons over and over again. I don’t let anyone in but I am willing to tell them too much? I have a hard time with boundaries but when the fuck and I going to learn. They knew too much about me and unfortunately my history had a huge impact on loosing my job. I don’t know how to act anymore. I wish I could just go into a job and put my head down but I can’t. I feel too damn much. Just looking for support and if anyone has had a similar experience. ❤️