Im feeling really stupid, used, pushed to the side, taken for granted,, forgotten and a load of other negative adjectives. I really miss my bestfriend. I moved away from her a month ago. I cant honestly say we're dating because she's married. She asked me to give her five years to leave her wife. Its been four today. I gave her every opportunity to remember it was our "anniversary" today when we talked. It was the last thing I said before her wife picked her up from work. Im so tired of being the first one to reach out yet I can't stand not too. I was living in a shed I now own, on their property until a hurricane 2 1/2 years ago. We moved to her parents then after 2 years I was asked to move. Now I can no longer live in my shed. I put over 5 grand into it. This is kinda a rant but also looking for support. I feel like a piece of garbage for feeling the way I do in all aspects of this situation.