I have anxiety regarding my future. I deleted my previous post out of shame but have decided to post another one while drunk. I have a pretty serious drinking problem because of my anxieties and probably also because of depression even though I'm only 19 years old. I have to serve in mandatory military service because i live in finland. I feel like I'm always alone. I have nobody who I could open up to. I feel alone always when on vacation from the military and I have destructive thoughts. I don't know what's wrong with me but I've always had serious anxiety about everything that I'm about to do. Fuck. Don't know what to do honestly. Maybe I can get some suggestions from people who have similar issues on here.