I've never been good at being alone...I don't even think I have many hobbies that someone else didn't get me into 

These past few months have been constant fights mostly about not seeing each other. An basically no option works for both parties and everyone's miserable. 

So he finally told me we should try taking a break....he says he still wants to be with me after we can take time to work on ourselves....but I've been trying to get a handle on myself for years....

I don't wanna lose him but I don't know how to break all my clingy and/or bad habits.

Any advice from other ppl in a relationship? 

I feel like my only options are to sleep all the time, ask my doc to up my meds until I'm numb, or just start drinking again and smoke even more. 

I don't wanna do any of that. I'm in therapy. I'm medicated. I'm trying that eye movement therapy next. 

Id like any advice but also a "that's rough buddy" would be fine too...