25M Been living with social anxiety and depression since i was 16. Tried to end it all a few times .. got rescued one time and other times failed ... I gave up on it and tried to live a decent life ... I succeeded to a certain extent, i completed college ... however im finding it difficult to hold down a job .. ive quit two jobs in 6months and im so close to leaving my current one ... the anxiety is making things impossible .... I know leaving the job wont solve anything ... Ill probably leave the next one too ... I missed the childhood experiences most people get ... now my future seems bleak as well ... my mother also depends on my income now .... I feel trapped, miserable, lonely and exhausted ... things never seem to get better no matter how much effort i put ... therapy has no effect on me ... i just started to want out ... but knowing that my mother depends on me has been holding me back ... im starting to feel soon ill reach breaking point and that wont matter either ...