I don't think I've ever experienced this before and I'm unsure about what is going on with me right now. 

I feel sort of hallow and also sad, not crying with dispair just a little bit sad. 

All day I've ignored everyone that had messaged me. I would normally reply to people straight away. I didn't even think oh I should text them back it was literally I don't want to text you back and I never thought about it again. 

I normally go on social media out of boredom but today I just didn't want to. 


All I can do is just sit here not having the motivation to move, but I'm looking at the trees outside my bedroom window, they look to beautiful tonight. The sun is shining on the leaves and I can see the moon slowly rising as time passes. Whilst I'm enjoying the sight i feel sadness that my ex can't see the beauty with me. 

What is going on with me?