16y/o about to enter the last two years of high school. Been depressed for 5 months now and lost all motivation to keep trying. Everything I do as a daily routine I do for my parents so they didn't waste 16 years of their lives putting up with an autistic piece of shit like me. Haven't told them, or anyone about it yet cause I don't want them to worry. If the next school year doesn't start off well i'm thinking of suicide. I might just wait out until I break because of depression. At this point I just want an excuse to kill myself. I'll only tell the people who'd care (if anyone) in a post mortem message. I don't have a specific date, it depends on my school. I just want to get out of this loneliness.