For 3,5 years my girlfriend and I are a couple. It was always kinda difficult with us. But over time it seems to be gotten worse. Yesterday we hat a drama almost the whole day because of nothing. She came back from her family and I picked her up. 

From then it was a downward spiral, one thing happens after the other and again we talk about moving out and stuff. We even went to a local crisis center, but they couldn't help. I tried to find a good psychologist but the there I had just made things worse.

I see her suffering but I lack empathy to be there for her. I can see myself comforting her and wanting to do thatz but then i do the oppt and drive her away. Moving out feels like dying and I just want things to be good. It's always like a nightmare I just want to wake up from to be next to her and just have a good time. I don't understand why this sickness is destroying everything.

She is kinda the only person I can really talk to and I don't want to lose her. I also see, that I am such a burden and I don't want that either. What's your experience with relationships?