im a girl and i’ve liked another girl for about 8 months now. we’ve been friends and found out she liked me back, we even went on date and i really felt like we could talk. 

but because im so indecisive, part of me is extremely off and on about my feelings with her. i go from not liking her to liking her regularly. she’s not used to relationships and has made it clear that is her first relationship. in my past relationships with men i’ve been able to act how i wanted and even show bipolar symptoms but with her it’s different, i really really care about her and she fragile. 

i’m messed up, i know that but i don’t want to hurt her by saying i can’t do this. one of the biggest issues i have with our situationship is that there’s no affection, she’s affectionate with other friends so i’m not sure. i don’t want to say anything about it though because i don’t want to come on too strong or pressure her. 

i just feel like i’d ruin her. i feel like such a freak for not being “normal” and i wish there was something i could do without hurting her. please please help, i’m practically begging.