I've held more than 4 jobs in 2020. I got fired from 3, quit from 1. I just got fired and instantly accepted another job.

I've been bedridden depressed like I haven't been in months. I actually stopped abusing substances and I've just been forcing myself to sleep.

Today I feel a little bit better than yesterday. I feel like I should just stay jobless until I sort out my shit. I am only spreading my name in a very specific job industry, in a very small country. So everyone knows who I am and how I've fucked up.

What are your thoughts? I need help standing up and currently I can't do it by myself, and it's hard to admit that. I only eat because my anti-depressant causes hunger (Mirtazapine), otherwise food just make me sick. I feel like having no stressors would help me a lot. Otherwise I'm risking going back to a psychotic state. Either way, parents have noticed a steady decline in my health and they're concerned to the point of agression ("If you don't seek help we'll call the police again to kick you out and get yourself jailed on a lie, like last time").