I live in a condo that was formerly my grandma's. She died in 2019. My neighbours told me how friendly and sweet she was, how she'd say hi to them everyday pretty much. I'm the complete opposite, severe social anxiety and agoraphobia. The neighbours are very nice and it hurts me that I'll never be able to fill the hole my grandma left. My grandma was a really awesome person. She was a very accomplished, independent woman who overcame a lot of hardships. And she dealt with her share of mental illness, was hospitalized in her middle age way before I was born due to stress. I know I shouldn't compare myself, we are basically nothing alike accept for our interests. We liked a lot of the same things. Our personalities couldn't have been more different though as I've said before. She was a very sociable person, and I'm completely socially impaired and broken. I have two friends and it's extremely hard to talk to anyone IRL I don't already know. That's my vent for the day.