Hey, so about a 6 weeks ago I got diagnosed with BPD, I'm new to the club, and I just don't know what to do.

I was seeing a psycharicist who initially diagnosed me, but he wasn't very clear about what's actually going on with me? From reading online it just tells me I'm emotionally unstable and that I don't know who I really am.

I just feel really lost, my parter and I broke up a few days back and the dosage of anti-depressants I've been taking for 6 weeks now hasn't done anything.

I guess this is a half rant half question, from people who have gone through this, what do I do?
I can't afford to keep seeing my psycharicist and the specialised psychologist he recommended me with because of Covid I haven't worked in 8 months.

I don't know what to do? Am I not a real person? how do I figure out who I am? Sorry if this doesn't make sense, just no one who I have told so far either believes me or knows what go do.