Sorry if this doesn’t make a lot of sense. I’m at the tail end of a panic attack and I’m alone and I just need some help. 

My boyfriend gets angry when my “behavior” is bad, but I just think I’m upset and I don’t understand what he thinks the difference is? Or if I’m wrong? He gets angry when I “freak out” which only makes it worse and he doesn’t understand it. And when I try to explain that to him he says “yeah it’s always me that has to change right?” But he berates me for how I act when I’m manic/in the middle of a panic attack. And then he doesn’t understand why I’m upset????

Maybe I’m just venting I really don’t know if any of this makes sense. When that starts to happen I feel like I’m in a hole that I can’t crawl out of and I don’t know how to fucking explain it to him. I’ve tried every way.