I’ve recently surrendered myself to the lord completely. Like every single aspect, every fear, anxiety, insecurity, etc. This is the first time in my life I’ve decided to be obedient to what gods will is for my life and I can definitely say I am bearing fruit (spiritually) to know that he is creating a new heart within me. Its the things in the physical world that make me want to resist the shift that is occurring. Like the fact that I have no income at the moment to cover all the bills. My rent just got increased and have not been able to keep a job for a while now due to my mental health struggles. My daughters disability income is what keeps us afloat and I feel like terrible mother using what I should be putting into savings for her. I am weak and don’t know how to ask anyone for help. I pray for the kind of faith to tell this mountain to move. I pray to keep my eyes fixed on the things unseen not seen that I may keep producing fruit in my repentance.