a few weeks ago, i attempted suicide because i felt like my fp did not love me anymore and i feel like i was just nothing and there was no point to being alive. i know thats fucked, i know it’s unhealthy and awful. i havent told anyone close to me about this, i only told my therapist and psychiatrist after the fact, and i told one semi-close friend with bpd because i knew she would understand and she very openly talks about her attempts related to her bpd so i knew i wouldn’t trigger her and she wouldn’t think i was insane, and i just wanted to get it off my chest and tell someone. the thing is, i’m fine with hiding this from all my friends and family. and i’m absolutely not telling my fp right now. but, my fp is my boyfriend of 4 years and we tell each other almost everything. i have kept some stuff with him, like self harm in bpd episodes that related to our relationship, because i dont want to make him feel guilty and put that on him. 

i feel the same about this, but a suicide attempt is such a huge thing to hide from someone , especially the closest person to me, who is someone i want to spend the rest of my life with. i dont want to make him feel guilty, but i also feel like this is something i should share with him at some point. but maybe i shouldn’t i dont know. does anyone have similar experiences or advice on how to navigate this?