why do i care so much about him. and why did the universe just throw him at me for a day and then make him block me again. wnd why do i care so much over a dude who never cared. why can’t i stop crying right now. why do i have this stupid disorder that just ruins my life. i can’t ever be happy in fact i havent been happy in so long. i don’t know whwt it feels like to live without constant fear. i just want OUT. i want to feel safe and loved im tired of being scared and afraid of everything i want OUT I WANT OUT i want to live without being afraid and reading everything so deeply so much i want to live without being tortured by the universe god i just want to BE HAPPY AND LOVED FOR ONCE BUT I CANT. i want to stop worrying so much and be living in the present moment but all i do is cry and cry. why are my emotions so UGH FUCKKKKJSHROSHRJSGEHRKYJ