Gonna start this off by saying I have no idea if I have BPD or not. I just realized recently how much I relate to everything I hear from people with BPD and have only just started seeing a therapist, but anyways. To make a long story short. My ex left me, went completely no contact which destroyed me for 2 months, then I met this girl on hinge who seemed really into me and that was it, I felt great, I wasn't thinking about my ex and started thinking about how great this new relationship would be. We talked a lot for 3 or 4 days and then out of the blue she just didn't text me yesterday. I immediately thought I had done something wrong and spent the day freaking out, getting stoned and drunk wondering what to do. I texted her once today and even now I feel like I must look clingy. She didn't respond again. And now I'm just feeling like a worthless piece of shit again. Why do I so badly need people to want me? That's what caused my breakup, trying to find validation from other women online. I feel like such a piece of shit. Why does my self worth completely rely on whether or not I have someone who wants me?