For the past three months I have been through hell. Panic attacks are constant, with no time for rest in between. I panic until my body gives out then wake up and start again. I’ve been dealing with weird health symptoms that triggered all of this. I finally made it to the doctor who would not prescribe me anything besides hydroxine which is an allergy medication that works for anxiety. I have an extreme phobia of taking medication because I think it’s going to kill me. With help and a bit of force from my fiance I have been able to take a extremely low dose of this medication a few times a day. My panic attacks are slowly becoming less and less over the past two days of taking it. Tonight, I caved and googled the medication which came up with sudden cardiac arrest in people with abnormal heart rhythm. I have an abnormal heart rhythm that skips beats a lot. Now I am devastated because I know my anxiety will no longer allow me to take the only medication I was prescribed for this. I am in a dark dark place. A hole I can’t crawl out of.