Almost a year ago my boyfriend of 2/3 years kinda cheated on me… let me explain… he didn’t necessarily cheat on me but he talked abt choosing between someone and me. It was heartbreaking, I know that bipolar makes relationships extra complicated but holy shit this hurt like nothing I’ve experienced before. We are still together(? We are exclusive) but are now long distance, i find myself being tortured by thoughts.

In a sense I know that being aware is better than romanticize someone, but I find myself not being hopeful abt this bond, I love him so much but I’m so scared he would to that again. 

I know this is a weird situation but how do you cope with feelings of uncertainty while having Bipolar?