Hi,

I'm suffering from dissociation, chronic depression and OCD since a lot of time and of course I don't feel great (euphemism?).

But I've noticed that my antidepressant sometimes work randomly. Most of the time, they don't work AT ALL. That's why I've stopped all the SSRI because they don't work on me.

I'm actually stopping Paroxetine but I'm not doing the withdrawal seriously, so I was having brain zaps all day and I know it's because of the withdrawal. So I took a little bit of what was left and a few hours later  I feel SOOOOOOOO great.

It's 4am here and I don't even want to go to bed because I feel so relaxed, without any intrusive thoughts, omg I love that.

But as I was saying it looks random. Maybe it works only when I "surprise" my brain with that, I don't know. Before taking it a few hours ago I wanted to kill myself again...