
I’m currently sat on the floor of my bedroom, crying over the fact that a friend of mine told me that my “presence is noticeable” tonight. I’m not sure how genuine he was being because he only said it in response to me jokingly asking him to say something nice about me, but either way, I took it to heart and it really made my night. 

I know it seems like such a small and silly thing to get emotional over but him saying that really means more to me than anyone will ever know. 

One of my biggest fears/insecurities is that people find me bland/boring. I constantly feel like a background character in both my own and everyone else’s life. There’s this constant voice in my head that tells me that I’m not important to anyone, that I’m forgettable and easily replaceable. Sometimes I truly believe that if I were to die, no one would be truly affected by it because I don’t matter that much to anyone due to the fact that I’m such a boring and forgettable person. So to be told by someone that my presence is noticeable... I don’t know, it’s just really reassuring and boosts my self esteem so much. I feel a little less invisible now. A little more important. A little more worthy. It probably won’t last long but, it’s a really good feeling and I’m going to enjoy it for as long as I can.