Hey all. I am 25 yo. And I have been feeling suicidal for a long time. It comes in and out in waves sometimes more intense and other periods of my life almost no suicidal thoughts at all. I’ve been trying to re-purpose myself if you will. I’ve had some traumas in my life and I’m in the process of recovery, trying to heal myself, trying to be a better person everyday. But sometimes I feel so dysfunctional and fucked up, I’m like what is the point of trying this hard? Why shouldn’t I just give up? No one will miss me, I have no college degree, no friends, no achievements to live off, all of my relationships end up being toxic. So obviously I’m the problem here. What the fuck is the point? I try so hard every day to do good. And I’m burnt out. My suicidal thoughts are becoming intense now, and I’m contemplating taking a bunch of kpins and peacing out.