Hi. 
I am 21(f) and my partner is 20(nb). We’re both in our last year of our undergrads. I’m a social work major and they’re poli sci. They’re brilliant. 4.0, looking to be a lawyer, so much volunteer work, etc. I’m the same, but a social work major doesn’t require Harvard. My partner on the other hand got an internship in Washington DC. They’re taking the internship and we’ll be long distance after living together for 2 years. I am having to go live with my mom and our lives are being turned upside down. I’m devastated. I understand they’re doing this for themselves and I’m so proud of them. But my bpd is screaming. It’s harming our relationship a lot. My partner told me today that constantly reassuring me is exhausting. They are tired. I’m devastated. I am so scared. I feel so depressed. I feel I can’t feel the situation. I feel alone. My bpd is unfair and cruel to me. I wish I could love normally. Instead this very real fear of abandonment is crushing my throat whenever I speak. I’m grieving. Any advice?