Anyone else ever feel like this? I’ve been stable on lithium and Wellbutrin for a couple years. These past couple weeks I worked a shit ton of twelve hour shifts and they put a trainee with me, which I’m always fine with. Well, after four 12 hour nights (which were honestly not bad shifts at ALL.) I came home and my mental state was so apathetic and tired that I slept for 36 hours and lived on like 4 body armor drinks and 3 PB&amp;J because my stomach wanted nothing else. Finally woke up and spent two days feeling physically like shit and mentally drained (No SI or thoughts of self harm). Went back to work, had my trainee again, the shifts were totally FINE, and suddenly I’m having racing thoughts, talking really fast, and using ridiculous humor. I don’t think anyone has noticed anything wrong with me yet but on the drive home I started having anxiety because I can’t tell if I’m having a mixed episode or not and then the self-hatred kicked in. I feel like I’m on the brink of a mixed episode or mania, or something is trying to creep up on me. Whatever I’m experiencing is not nearly as severe as the episodes I used to have, and I may be overthinking this and overreacting. 

Today I stayed up for almost 24 hours, still had loads of energy, and had to take trazadone to finally fall asleep. I  then slept 13 hours. WTF. That has not happened in a very, VERY long time. 

I guess my main question is - can anyone relate?