I constantly worry about being judged. I see myself as unintelligent and a bother, and so in an attempt to keep other people from noticing that, I don’t share much about myself. Well, to people I know in person, of course.

Now, I’ve never really told any past friends that I play video games. I’ve never really had a reason to anyway.  I guess I’m embarrassed by it. What a silly thing to be embarrassed about, especially since so many people enjoy video games. Maybe it has to do partly with the fact that I’m female, even though plenty of females play games. Now it’s to the point where I don’t share with my sibling (who is also very into games, way more so than me) that I play games. If I do, it’s because we play together on some. I don’t share that I play them on my own though, out of fear that they’ll judge my choice in games. It’s stupid that I’m so afraid to tell people. Most people that know me don’t know what I do with my free time. Now, I don’t spend all of my time gaming. I have other interests, but most of them I still am afraid to share. It’s weird, I know.