Before you think this is normal, I am a woman in her 20s and this phase should be over long time ago.

Do you guys ever argued with someone because of your toxic behaviour, which you couldn't recognise? So instead of understanding the person you tend to blame him or her although it's your mistake.

I feel like I am slowly understanding my toxic behaviours and this leads me to crying A LOT. I cry because I am bad. Please don't tell me I am not. Don't feed my narcissistic part. By telling me I am good and all I won't even change. I just realised this too. It's why I never changed. I just kicked those people out of my life thinking it's their mistakes. I was always right in my opinion. Ouch, I started to understand slowly. And it is nerve wracking to realise how bad you are. I started to feel like being no-one, being bad. Like someone who needs to work actively to achieve the respect I want, the happiness I deserve. No free happiness without doing nothing.


I don't know if I just mixed topics but I am also really puzzled rn. Crying.