hi, I'm a student in university halls and im in one of the worst depressive episodes I've had for a long time. Im so scared to leave my room so I can't talk to anyone about it. I just want to smoke weed to make it go away like normal but I can't make myself get out of bed.how do people get out of this?? I don't know what to do, all I want is to overdose. I have enough meds to do it, I just feel so fucked in life. All my friends and family would be better off without me anyway