I was physically abused at a young age and I’ve had to live in this house and relive it everyday which has caused so much pain and heartbreak for me. 
I’m moving tomorrow, far from where I live now and I should be happy, but I’m not? I’m terrified, as much as I hate it here I feel safe. I feel like something in my head must be wrong for feeling this way because I should want to leave???? 
I feel disgusted with myself that I’m not happy about moving, this house has so many bad memories but I’m so scared:( I’m angry that I feel like this because I can finally have a fresh start but I feel like I’m gonna feel so uncomfortable in my new house and it’s making me feel sick.