I miss my family cuz of lockdown haven't seen them. I'm scared of covid. I'm fat and have respiratory  conditions so I'm high risk. 
 
My family wants to see me I want to see them. What if they die next week? What if I die next week? I should go see them. But what if I give them covid and that's why they die? So I shud not go see them. 
 
This hurts. I'm sad.