I feel like my lungs feel weird and warm and like there's some pressure on them and my heart is racing but I can't tell if it's just in my head or not. I got my COVID-19 test done today and this whole sitting alone at home thing isn't helping. It would be so great if I could just see someone in person and have a hug. I don't like this.

And I literally just started wanting to be alive in February. I don't want to be in a situation where death is a possibility.

The lungs thing is freaking me out. What if I don't die but I do get permanent lung damage?

Or maybe I'm fine and just hyperaware and this is just a weird cold. Idk.