I have a few close friends and a boyfriend that I can vent and talk to, but it just doesn't seem fair to continually ask them for help. I left a job earlier this year that I loved, but because the work environment became so toxic I had to leave for my mental health. Because of this, I lost my health insurance and cannot get on a new plan until 2023. When this happened, I could no longer afford to see my therapist. 

For some time, this also meant my medication went bye-bye. I have finally figured that part out, but holy cow are my pills expensive without insurance?! At this point, I have been so broke trying to live and save but things keep piling up. All while feeling pretty crummy for myself, because I am really not getting the help I need.

I found another part-time job that I will be starting next week, but I just got paid from my first job today, and within an hour of paying off  bills, rent, medical expenses (I just had oral surgery, woo!) i'm now left with $53.06 in my account. 

fifty-three-dollars and six cents. 

Sorry for all the rambling, I guess I just don't know what to do at this point. I don't know how I am going to afford my rent or anything for the rest of the month. I live with my boyfriend and he has obviously been helping, but I feel so bad that I am relying on him for money things I  don't feel like he  has  the bandwidth to also try to help me out of this rut. 

I don't even know why i'm  posting this, i  guess i'm just hoping to  hear that someday, somewhere, it gets better. I know it does, because it has happened to me before, but it doesn't feel like it and i'm just unsure of how  i'm going to be able to keep myself going  this month.