had a close fp, asked her out, shes not into it for very reasonable reasons. i cant help but think if i was more stable itd be better. i also cant help but to think she plain just doesnt like me anymore after this week. decided it was healthier for both of us to not talk. fp down. then i complained about the same old shit to my only other female friend and got upset when she blithely recommended "just get out there!". it just highlighted how different i am from other people. texted her explaining how i felt, nicely, havent heard from her in days. i had two female friends. oh well i should be used to this by now, im 34 and have been alone and without intimacy for over 10 years. im tired of this though so im taking steps to quit drinking, weed, cigs, and most of all fp's. its unhealthy for me to rely on someone else to feel good. sorry for the post, i have to vent somewhere and im not doing it to my friends anymore. it doesnt work out