I've been suffering from depression and generalized anxiety disorder and have been suicidal for nearly two years now. I've recently realized my own ego ignites a lot of my anxiety. For example if someone doesn't like me back or rejects me, my ego flares, making me hate myself and my internal voice goes "that's what you are, you're worthless, you're scum" and that leads to a VERY terrible mental place. I truly don't know what to do about it. Some help?