I was just diagnosed with BPD today. i’m a 21 y/o female. i was honestly quite surprised at this diagnoses. i have a history of (panic disorder, anxiety, depression, intrusive thoughts). I was very very happy from about april to four days ago. i got out of a relationship and was quite happy. I started talking to this amazing guy recently and all of the sudden started getting thoughts like “what if i don’t like him, what if i’m faking my feelings, what if i still have feelings for my ex” i felt the need to confess all of these things and more and it just sent me into a depression spiral. i’ve began to push him away despite him being such a healthy person. i just feel numb, and like all of my positive and good feelings are being suppressed by these negative thoughts and feelings. I saw my doctor today and she diagnosed me with BPD and lamictal. I never would have self diagnosed myself with this or guessed i had BPD. I’m definitely intimidated by this diagnosed and nervous to start a mood stabilizer. I just need advice, love, support, anything.