I'm so bored with life I know it's not worth living. I don't have anyone to hang out with or do things with so all I do is go to work and stay home. I'm an adventurous, outdoorsy and outgoing person and love getting out there and doing things but I have no transportation and don't know how to ride a bike. I can barely afford to take Lyft and Uber to work and back home. My life has no excitement to it and there is nothing interesting about it. Everything is pointless. Like I work in a grocery store as an order picker, for example and what's the point of helping people shop for groceries they are going to need again the next week?? It's the same thing day after day and week after week. It's all pointless. What we do today won't matter in a month or year. I'm just done with this whole life thing. Sometimes I get legitimately pissed off for the simple fact that I was even born and not aborted. I wish every day my birth mom aborted me. Now I'm just a worthless sack of shit taking up space and sucking up air. I have tried making my life worth living by moving to a warmer climate, getting a better job and starting my own business but the excitement of it all wears off. Everything turned out to be a flop. I can't do anything right since I don't belong here. I firmly believe my existence is an accident, not they type of accident of an unplanned pregnancy but like I was never meant to exist type of accident.  I realized a long time ago I don't belong in this world and I honestly don't want to be a part of it anymore.