I been fighting the urge to not go through with it but there is not a single day where I don’t think about doing it. I’m so tired of this feeling. My boyfriend and family don’t know how unhappy I am with my life. They don’t know how I always cry myself to sleep thinking I’m going to end it and the next morning my family and him won’t ever see me again. One night I think I am going to have the guts to do it and it really scares me because I care so much about them.