Hello,

I met my girlfriend almost a year ago and at first we were friends, but she fell for me fairly quickly and all the love and affection she kept giving me made me fall for her too.

We had a really good time and with her I felt so much in love like never before in my entire life. It was the best time of my life so far honesty.

But then the downs started to show themselves and we had some issues, but those issues were much much bigger for her and we also argued and she got hurt easily and quickly even if I never shouted or anything.

A couple weeks ago she felt very bad and broke up with me. I am devastated as hell and started therapy around the same time and I have been taking to my therapist a lot too about it and she told me that my girlfriend might have BPD - though, that she cannot of course diagnose her from afar, it sounded like it.

I tried to win her back at the start honestly since she never denied loving me and said she still loved me a lot and she also came back every now and then and showed me warmth and gave me hope.

But in the end she said there is no chance of her ever coming back and I accepted it and said, “Okay then, let’s cut ties, because I cannot stay, if I cannot be with you.”

Which resulted in her trying to kill herself that night.

Then she came back a couple days ago, because she got ill and needed me. During this time we grew closer and I thought things could work out, but she said, “No we’ll never be together again. You just hurt me too much.”

Then I gave up again and she texted me that night in a drunken state, apparently wanting to be with me again. She asked me how she wronged me during the relationship and I told her, but she kind of misunderstood me and did stuff to her, that I don’t wanna elaborate any further.

In the end she was hospitalized and she is going to see a therapist soon.


She cut ties with me thereafter, saying it was forever.

The thing is, I know I hurt her, according to my therapist a lot less than I think, but I also tried to support her mentally, but I couldn’t, since I am no professional after all. 

I still love her though - a lot. And from how I got to know her I feel like she will return but then again it seems like she will not? I am just very confused and couldn’t keep up with the instant changes of her mood and such. 

Usually I would have asked me therapist but since I see her once a month these days, I really can’t.

So can anyone here maybe tell me what the hell just happened within the last few weeks?



Btw sorry for any possible mistakes, English is not my first language.