Went to the gym, because I couldn't sleep. Probably not the smartest idea since I didn't really eat anything. I'm just trying to let the days pass by, but they feel like forever. Nothing really sparks joy, the only times I manage to get something done, is when the numbness is stronger than the pain. But most of the time I'm just laying in bed, not being able to move. My body feels hot and cold at the same time. My eyes are swollen and burn. I keep imagining all those hurtful scenarios. I don't know how to handle this.