I (20) just told my bf (19) how I felt about everything and having depression for over 8 years and he wants me to get back into therapy immediately as well as get tested for autism as I'm apparently showing lots of signs of it (which I've been told before by many many other people) but I don't want to because I'm used to feeling depressed almost all the time at this point. I don't feel like it's worth it to get therapy anymore and I don't want to disrupt the day to day routine I took years to carefully craft so I'll be able to live a little bit easier whilst having my issues.
He however seems very worried about my mental state and I can't dissuade him of getting me in touch with a therapist again. What am I to do in such 1 situation?