I feel an opportunity coming on, I’m at a breaking point in my life. I am ready to quit, and even though I’ve always been ready, this time I don’t really have anything to lose. I’ve pushed everyone away sufficiently, I just need to find the right method to end my life…easier said than done for most. I think a gun would probably be my best bet, getting over the anxiety of buying one for the first time would be my only obstacle. A worthy obstacle though, probably why it’s taken me this long. I still live with my immediate family, so I can’t do it at home. I have to do it in my car, sucks for my grandma because it’s my Grandpas car and he passed away (leaving it to me) about 3 years ago. But it’s honestly where I feel most safe in the world, and I would like for it to be the scene of my suicide.