For almost all of 2020 and 2021 I was unemployed except for one job for a couple months in between. My depression got really bad during that time, to the point I barely could get dressed and get out of bed. Nowadays I have a full time job and I *feel* like I'm better but I'm really not. It's draining as hell.

I get up and go to work but I barely have enough energy to do anything else. I love reading and watching movies but it's so hard to do it. I have plenty of time before and after work but I just can barely find the energy to do it. I can barely feed myself, I eat like shit cause I can't get any motivation to cook anything. 

Like yes, I am better than I used to be because I'm not wallowing in my misery but I just wish I was well enough I could turn on a show or movie every night like a normal person