I moved home a year ago due to covid. Recently ive had a major depression episode while startijg a new job so things have been hard but ive kept it to myself.

This week i told my dad in conversation i was going on antidepressants and his reaction was to call me attention seeking, told me i was weak just likke my mum (they’re divorced), a benefits seeking invalid and that i would loose my job and needed to snap out of it. He stopped shouting at me when i burst into tears and he left the room.

We didnt speak for a few days, i hoped he would apologise. 

But then last night he found me alone in the house and started this torrent of abuse.

He told me i wasnt allowed to live here anymore because i hadnt acted “happier” since he spoke to me. I kept calm and said you shoukdnt talk to your children like this and id never forgive him for doing this, He said he didnt care and told me to f**k off and not come back until he can hear my voice on the phone that im “not pretending to be sad anymore” 

and when i do come back i have to be very nice to him,my stepmum ,walk the dog and clean the kicthen more (these are all things that i do anyway). He said since i moved in i ruined the atmosphere and my stepmum doesnt like me, said i was just a guest and im no longer welcome. 

Turns out My stepmum had no idea what was going on because he’d kept it from her. Also My dad has a drinking problem and often has outbursts which he then pretends he cant remember the next day. My beother thinks hes loosing it a bit.

I can move to my mums but Im just sad because im seriously considering cutting him out of my life. Why would a oarent treat their child like this?