is into another hole just like before. 

when things get close to an end i shut off. i try to study for my final exam but everything just vanishes after i write it. we've already gotten our reports, so why cant i be happy about mine? my grades dont matter if i cant pass the exam. but

can i even be happy? why am i just crying for no reason all the time. i dont know who im doing this for. im all alone. i dont know how to escape. im so pathetic. is there a reason to keep going? cant i just lay in bed, stare at the wall and let the devil that is time pass?