I just want to get out of my own head for one second, I feel so guilty about shit that I can't control. I haven't been sleeping well for a while and it's my own fault, I keep myself up even though I could go to sleep if I wanted to. I don't understand why I do it but it's gotten to the point where I'm tired all the time and I'm missing things that I usually wouldn't miss. Sometimes I think it would just be easier to go than to deal with it but I can't do that to the people around me. I wish I was totally alone in this world so that I could just do what I want.