Dressed up, makeup, and had a great time with bf. Felt wanted. Now laying in bed by myself listening to Zappa, bf went out and feels bad man. Felt used and empty. Negative thoughts flow through head. Wished he's here but same time, don't. Wait for him come home an hour later. Act mad. He is concerned and confused. Cold shoulder. He persists. Feel bad. Talk to him about it. Self realization: "I overreacted." Feel fine. Cwuddles. Sleeps and forget everything I've learned.