TW: depression, anxiety, suicide 

So I’ve been battling pretty moderate and sometimes severe anxiety and depression for 5 years now. It was the result of birth control, I was on it for 3 years and almost committed suicide bc of how unstable it made me. Quitting birth control was the best decision I ever made for my mental health, I don’t suffer nearly as much. However, I can’t say that I ever fully returned back to normal. I am finally going to try and see if low dose of antidepressants are the answer. I have an appt with my doc coming up but I’m not sure just how honest I can be with him to avoid being sent to the psych ward. 

Honestly, I currently struggle with suicide ideation. To me, it’s a harmless thought that sometimes just feels like an intrusive thought. But it still occurs. In order to be prescribed a low does of antidepressants, should I avoid telling him this? And also, what should I say?