I started splitting in this situation I got into due to poor boundaries... My boss (until I am done training) who I networked with to get my first good job doing what I loved and then I moved to another city dor that job... He started hitting on me and tried to take advantage of me. It mostly didnt end up happening, besides kissing me and breaking my heart and seeing a few sexy photos (not nude)... But i still feel bad that my BPD came out.

I kept cutting things off because I knew the situation was harmful and I was scared, but I also had a lot of feelings for him... So I would try to go back to him after because of my abandonment and rejection fears... After the last time, he is tired of my behavior and doesn't wany anything anymore... (A good thing, right?) Well, I finally lashed out a little.

So I feel bad for the behavior coming out. I think I overwhelmed him emotionally by being intense and I am glad I didn't say most of what I wanted to... But I feel bad even though he made my life hell for a couple months...