In crying I can't fucking take this anymore. I have no job as of the 3rd of August. My great aunt died suddenly on the weekend. The person who I mentioned in a previous post I discovered has been pretending to love me because they were afraid to say no. We were friends for so long. Partners before

Here's one of the messages he saidx
pretending for the sake of trying to keep you happy drove me to the point of screaming"

We've known each other online for a long time. I loved him I really did. Over the past few months I've shown so mamuch of my body through photos and videos. I've open myself up completely emotionally and made myself so vulnerable. I feel so stupid. I asked him so many time if he was pretending and asked why he was so cold and feeling like there must be something wrong with me 

I hate myself so much. I can never trust anyone again. I want to throw myself off a building. I feel so fucking hurt. My closest friends of over eight years is fucking 

I can't do this anymore 
I've lost everything 
Everything.i have nothing

I don't even want to go home I just want to bus to the nearest high building and jump off the roof 