I posted my feelings on r/Depression but reading all those posts just made me feel bad.

I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression for a couple years now and I was doing some improvement on the last year but now I can’t help but feel like shit everyday.

I have a great, supportive boyfriend who’s the reason why I want to get better but I’m afraid I’m becoming a burden for him. Of course he would never say it or think it, but I every time I tell him I’m not okay I feel like I’m just wasting his time and I’m overreacting and damaging our relationship. What worries me the most now is getting a job. Although I live w my parents I pay rent and I’m graduating from college soon so I have to get a job ASAP, I’ve been applying to at least 20 job offers every day for like 2 weeks but nothing. My anxiety is worse, my depression is worse and the suicidal thoughts are in my head all the time. I just want to cry but between school and the two jobs I have (both are in the college which means I’ll lose them after I graduate) I don’t have the time or energy to move, I just wanna hurt myself