SHE TREATS ME LIKE ABSOLUTE FUCKING SHIT CONSTANTLY THERE ARE CONSTANT FUCKING DOUBLE STANDARDS YET EVERY TIME WE ARGUE AND SHE SAYS SHE WANTS TO BREAK UP I BEG FOR HER BACK. I KNOW FOR A FACT I WILL KILL MYSELF IF SHE LEAVES. I JUST FUCKING WANT TO HAVE THE STRENGTH TO FUCKING LEAVE AND GO ON LIKE A NORMAL FUCKING PERSON BUT I CANT. SHE IS ALL I FUCKING HAVE AND I ENJOY HER COMPANY FOR THE MOST PART BUT I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT. BEFORE I WAS WITH HER I WOULD NEVER SELF HARM LIKE THIS. NEVER. I DO IT EVERY WEEK NOW BECAUSE OF HER.