Man I'm really sad,  26m never had a GF virgin. Don't even know to attract a girl. Anyway most for most of the my I was able to calm down the depression in my head about being alone, but now it's loader then ever. It's too the point I've Google about 50x how to kill myself. And honestly I'm to the point I'm researching weird to get some rope and nails to do it. The holidays aren't helping either, being this alone. And don't fucking tell me to "meet people" it just reinforce how lonely I am. Honestly I really to pray God can just kill me if he doesn't have a need for me, I'm tired of living my life like this.