I do this nearly every week. I'm going to lose my job and then what? I'll be a huge disappointment to my fiance once again. Fucking everything up because I refuse to go to fucking work. I'm just so tired. Every day is draining and I feel purposeless. I hate this existence, I'm so tired. I don't want to lose my job. Guess it's too late now though. Sometimes I wish I would just pass in my sleep, never to wake up.