So, I'll be the first to admit I'm a pretty needful person, I think we all here share that trait with one another. Last year was really awful for me, because I was suicidal and my meds for Bipolar (I know, BPD+Bipolar, what a nightmare) were not well adjusted and I was just. In a really bad headspace. I have been doing markedly better, even my family members have said they've noticed how much I've been improving over the last seven months. According to them, I seem to be more, willing to listen, easier to get along with, kinder to myself and them in general etc etc. I've been on a road to recovery. 

Anyways, a few day ago something happened that spiked my stress levels through the roof. I had a relapse the last couple of days. The first day I talked to my husband about it and he reassured me that it was okay to be anxious and have feelings. Tonight I got really lost in my fear of abandonment and got so upset I almost threw up. Cried a lot. Had a panic attack. 

I feel like I'm letting everyone down by having this relapse. Worse, I'm terrified I'll give up and won't get back on track. I see my therapist tomorrow, and I'm going to talk to her about it but. Is this a normal part of learning coping skills? I was doing so well and I feel like I broke everything just because I got stressed out. How do I get back on track? I feel so ashamed of myself.