I dont know what to say , i always feel like i wanna cry but i never cry . Im always angry . Never feeling joy from anything  . . . I hate everyone but not much as myself. My head hurts when im full of sadness ( i cant cry ) .i wanna end this feeling . I want to end this feeling . Just hurts everything hurts i dont have a free will i have no reason to live life has not a meaning i wanna end this is painful pain everywhere life is pain