I am a 22 year old guy who has no friends at all. I have a remote job, so I don't socialize at all. Even though I have a good job and I'm doing well financially, I do not feel happy at all.

I have seen all my childhood friends get girlfriends and get married and have fun and be happy. I am 22 years old and I feel like I wasted my teenage years, and I feel like I am wasting my twenties. I have never really felt happy with my life. I have never gone out and had fun with friends or done any of the normal things that teenagers and people my age do. I've never been in a relationship either.

I find it really hard to make new friends. I am very insecure, and I find it very difficult to speak with women. I know that I am not and ugly guy, but I cant help feeling anxious and insecure when I see a woman I find attractive.

I have been feeling extremely lonely since 2016 when I moved out of the country I grew up in, but I have reached a new low.

A few weeks ago, I decided to meet with a prostitute and lose my virginity. The experience was nothing like I thought it would be. I was not able to mantain an erection due to anxiety. I have been seeing the prostitute every couple of days, and I always find it very hard to mantain an erection and to feel any pleasure. The sex has been terrible, but the worst part is that I have caught feelings for her. I can't stop thinking about her and it makes me really sad to know that she has sex with other men and that she doesn't really care about me.

I know that falling in love with a prostitute is an extremely stupid thing to do, but I cannot control it. I have decided to block her number and not contact her again for my own sanity, but I have been feeling extremely down and extra lonely.

I feel like I have reached the lowest point in my life. I feel like such a loser for paying for sex and losing my virginity to a prostitute. And I feel so stupid for falling in love with her. I just wish I had a normal life. I wish I had friends I could hang out with and talk about stuff. And I really wish I had a girlfriend.