It’s making me so unhappy, one paranoid thought can creep in from NOTHING and suddenly I’m sent down a spiral of anxiety and depression, literally obsessing over something that hasn’t happened.

2 examples recently;

Early period. My period was early, usually I wouldn’t worry but just minutes after it happened an ad on tv showed up about cervical cancer at random and because of the timing I convinced myself that this a sign and I have cancer. I spent days laying in bed unable to function, getting upset thinking about dying young and having to spend time in hospitals having chemo, how my boyfriend will cope etc

Ex (abusive) boyfriend was brought up in conversation randomly (not related to me) and somehow I convinced myself he is out there waiting to ruin my life. I have a new job and I got it in my head that he is trying to ruin me or find dirt on me online to blackmail me. There is nothing but “WHAT IF I FORGOT SOMETHING?”.

I spent hours deleting accounts, social media’s, changing names, passwords, going through old texts looking for clues. It consumed my thought, I couldn’t go a day without it.




Anyone else do this? I fear what I’ll be paranoid about next month. A new mole?