hi, sorry if this post is a little bit all over the place, a bitch is spiraling lmao. just looked at the notes my doctor wrote of me from my last visit (online, not sure if the system works like this in america/other english speaking countries etc) and basically the gist of this whole post is they just wrote i ”give the impression of someone younger [than my age] in contact” (upon other vaguely insulting things) and now im over here spiraling cos i feel like she might’ve as well just called me dumb. like how stupid do i have to present myself as for a doctor to feel the need to make a note of that. i know this is immature (...) and im overreacting but its just started this chain of thought that everything i do is wrong, i react to everything wrong, the very way i AM is wrong. this isnt the only thing to have triggered this but i feel pathetic crying about it anyway, i usually pride myself on not taking things too personally and remaining objective but apparently this, coupled with some other things, hit too close to home.
ANYWAY, has anyone else ever been through something like this? really just looking for any tiny crumb of support here lmao. just feeling completely useless