Every time I talk to someone new I always end u flipping out on them and blocking them because it gets too overwhelming. Like giving cold replies or not giving me a definite answer to meet up despite getting along well for a while. I definitely don’t think it’s anything to do with my looks but I’m constantly flipping out on people because I’ve got this huge storm of emotions and I’m telling myself just be calm and normal like everyone else. Just leave them to it. If they’re interested they’ll get back to you and make an effort etc. And this isn’t like me seeking out random people and insulting them if I don’t get a response, I’m not that crazy. It’s people I’m speaking to. And music doesn’t help it just really brings out my emotions even more intensely. I convince myself that I’m better than how they’re treating me and that leads to me just completely removing them from my life. Sometimes this even happens with friends too and I’ve nearly did it to really close friends but really had to stop myself.