i just always blow through everything if i have a little bit of emotional instability. if i’m manic and i have any money i will spend it all + more. 

how do i stop? 

i feel so guilty because i should be able to make my salary work and i’m lucky i even have a job. 

i don’t know if this is the appropriate forum for a question like this but also it’s super embarassing to talk to my friends about because i should be able to make it work