I'm the fat funny kid in school on school I'm Happy like any other kid laughing with my friends but really I'm so sad I cry every night wondering what to do with my life I fill work in McDonald's or becomome a lawyer or somewhere in the middle I'm so done Idk what to do my grades are so bad I might have two repeat 2 grades 6 and 7 and I'm going to summer school and I can't open up about my feeling to my family cause they say say I'm being dramatic and my friends will laugh no one takes me seriously no one care about me 
I'm getting fatter by the day I think by the way I'm goingim gonna be a fat tall por guy with no friends and no girl friend that his dreams faded awayu grades are and so is my life I've genuely lost the will to do anything productive I'm slowly getting it but it's hard to start something I'm just ranting ide know what want my brain hurts from all the felling what really bother me is that no one cares about me it's been 2 weeks since summer started not one text from anyone and I have the whole middle schools contact say ing hi dude or wana go to the park how u been this reely bothers me and I know one day I'm just gonna lose it and do some stupid shit like kill someone I have a very bad temper I got suspended 4 time this year the max is 3 and you get expelled but the school staff like me that much all of the problem were fighting related and I can't count how many are outside of school and problems I've had with other bull shit so bad even the cops know my name and idk what to do in either gano end up in prison or be broke if I keep going this way I just need to change if anyone has any advice on how to fix my lmk but I'm just ranting wasting my life