I'm a 26(M) who works a lot. Single.  With a job that barely pays me enough. I work out and have just been cruising through life. I don't have a car so I get rides from others. I spent my life afraid of other peoples opinions because of how much I used to be bullied.(It stopped when I was 22  because my surroundings had changed.).My siblings either call me a bum or lazy and my mom guilt trips me at times although I know they still love me. My personal dream is to be a voice actor. Yet I keep being pushed into going to college without a proper income by a friend I met online and eventually rl who constantly pressures me to make a choice. My mom tried guilt tripping me into going into the military. My siblings pressure me to move out. I've been pressured to do both of these things for years and now that my birthday just recently past. I just don't know what to do or where to even start. I've been helping with rent and bills. Which is why I've been working a lot.  All of this is. Scary but not new to me. I asked people for advice before and they just tell me to be an adult.  I've been crying in  the shower a lot more and just been trying not to break down because all this has been piling on. I've even been talking less and less to people being afraid of comfrontation still. I figured playing games like VRchat would help but it didn't.  I don't even know  it posting this was a good idea. I just wanted to tell someone all of this because I need help. All this pressure is getting to me.