I experienced a trigger last night. My mom, who has cancer, was admitted to the hospital with sepsis. She was really sick, and it stirred up some PTSD stuff for me. My typical response to this would be to have an anxiety meltdown and start trying to self-medicate with alcohol. But last night - **I didn't**!! 

This may seem like a minor victory, but it's huge for me. Breaking old patterns is *very* hard for me. I'm so proud of myself, so I thought I'd share it here. 

I want everyone to remember that our BPD makes it harder to make healthy choices, but it doesn't make it *impossible*. WE are the ones in control, not our illness! I feel so strong and empowered by my choice. I want all of you reading this to feel the same way, even if just for a moment, at some point today :) Keep using your wise mind, folks! 