It just makes my life so much worse. Ever since middle school I had a hard time talking to people  especially when I’m not sure if those people liked me or not.
During covid it got just so much worse I spend my time inside my room by myself sometimes not talking to anyone for days except my sister and mum. I started getting better till the end of high school which I graduated last year. In senior year I had a lot of fun with people and got better at talking.
Because I couldn’t spend New Year’s Eve with my friends I got drunk with my sister and enjoyed some time together. Later that night I decided to join a public discord to talk to some people because I was feeling very lonely. This was my second time talking in a public discord. The first time some friends of mine and I joined to play among us. I was the only girl in the vc and I believe my heart nearly jumped out my chest because I was so anxious, I also didn’t talk a lot.
At new year’s I actually had a lot of fun talking to people. I would like to do it again but I’m just way to fucking scared.