My brain is not listening to me. It’s purposely wanting to destroy me. I think it might have always been that way but it’s getting out of control.
I can’t live like this.
I just want to be able to live do my work without having past affect me, is that too hard to ask from myself. Listen; why is she not listening to me? I am sick of fighting this person inside me who wants me to die all the time. How do I make her go away?