I was diagnosed with quiet BPD a year ago, but realized it's been affecting me pretty much my entire life. I am 30 years old.

When I was younger, I was an addict and struggled with alcoholism and other drugs. Now that I am sober I have insane, volatile emotions that make my life insufferable. Yes, I have been to psych wards, suicide attempts... I don't really want to get into it.

My last therapist said he couldn't really figure out if I had Quiet BPD or C-PTSD. Does anyone have an insight as to why?

I rapid cycle. Mania, depressive, splitting, get obsessed with a person and then push them away. It's all making sense to me now that I probably have at least one of these disorders but I don't really understand how they are related?