I’ve been learning DBT and doing mindfulness for 2 years (not so seriously) but now I want to try medication for my first time to treat BPD but 
I prefer not to take meditation because I don’t want to get addicted to it and my bf prefers that I don’t take medication. However, recently my condition is getting worse caused by stress: feeling depressed, having impulsivity, self criticism, blaming everyone around me, not being able to concentrate, getting affected by small things easily and getting upset at my bf.

I want to hear your experiences on Abilify and other medication. Please share any experiences or advice.
Thank you so much in advance.