Been having a rough day. Near panic attack at IKEA of all places. The first time in a bit that's happened to me. Usually I just have low key anxiety, but today was different. Tachycardia like I haven't had in a while. It fires up my old cardiophobia. Fear of blacking out, looking for a place to sit just in case, etc.

I have a health journal that I write in when stuff like this happens. I wrote about today, and then went back to look at previous entries. It's both reassuring and depressing to see entries from three years ago (when I started keeping it) that I could've written today.

Somehow I keep chugging along, and I'm pretty sure a better day is ahead. It's actually been a while since it's been this bad! But right now, I'm still a little shook from the episode this morning.

I've been resisting Lexapro, but after today I'm rethinking it. Naturally, my biggest concern is side effects, and possibly triggering some other health issue.