I’m laying here feeling sick because I just hate my body, face, everything about myself. It has made me actually throw up before. 

I don’t know what to do at this point. I used to hit myself in the face so hard I would bruise because I hated the way I looked. I was 8 years old when I started doing that. I’ve never liked myself and I don’t know if I ever will. 

I struggle going to work or even going outside because I’m so disgusting. It just keeps getting worse. Ive called in to all my recent shifts because I can’t even get myself to look in the mirror or get dressed. Every morning I have an insane meltdown because I can’t stand to look at myself or dress myself. Nothing fits right. I can’t have clothes touching me. 

I’m at a breaking point and idk what to do.