I’m only 15 but my life is basically horrible, My family is poor and i don’t enjoy living. I’m not particularly good at school and the only thing i’m decent at are sports and video games. I’m pretty smart but i just don’t enjoy putting in effort into things i’m not interested in. I’m fat, and about average height (5’10). I can’t even afford a gym membership and i live in apartments with a lot of family members. I babysit my brothers when my mom is off to work and i think about ending my life every single second of the day. I just don’t because i’m a christian and i do believe, God just might save me one day. I want to work in computer science or finance but i’m not sure i got what it takes. But basically i would open more about my life but it is pretty fucking horrible and you’d probably not want to read it all. But anyways, is life really worth living? All i want to be in life is a great father and husband to a women one day, I’m crushing heavily on this girl currently and she’s exactly my type. She doesn’t wear makeup, She’s a latina, She’s short, She has plans in the future, She’s beautiful but i’m just a loser in every aspect of my life. And when i try to lose weight it doesn’t work, l workout everyday and eat somewhat good but don’t lose anything.