Hey guys so I’m having a really big problem atm where I’m about to start a new job.. I’m 22M and I’ve struggled with mental issues and severe anxiety.. I’ve never really known what’s wrong and I’ve been told before that it looks like BPD but obviously would need a lot more to know for sure as far as being evaluated goes.. so my problem is that I feel like I can barely leave my house without feeling sweaty anxious and sick to my stomach, i have body aches and tremors is like torture because I know it’s just my body trying to force me back into hiding where I feel safest and most calm and least anxious. This is ruining my quality of life.. I haven’t had a job that I could hold down since I was 19 and I had to use drugs to cope with it even then.. I’m sober now and have been for almost 2 years but haven’t been able to work or have friends or even have a nice trip with my fiancé because my anxiety controls my life. I just wanna cry even typing this out I feel defeated And I need to help make money.. my girl is very mentally stable and very understanding of my problems and try’s to tell me not to work until I’m ready but I don’t feel like I’ll ever be ready!! I feel like a failure as an adult, as a man, and as a boyfriend. If anyone has advice I’d greatly appreciate it!! Thank you!!