I don't "hate" my job...per se. But I feel so empty and alone at work. I can't tell anyone how I really feel because no one wants to be around someone as sad as me. So I fake being happy and that makes it even worse.

Long story short....I don't want to kill myself, I just wish I was dead :(

My psychiatrist wants me to go into inpatient or try ECT again.

I just wish I could die without hurting anyone else.