Summer is the one time during the year where I’m actually happy. I enjoy living and I don’t have anxiety and depression during those 2-3 months 

However this summer has been terrible. I barely feel any better and it’s so frustrating. All year I look forward to summer and it sucks this year

For the first time ever I have a legit summer job. Usually I just help out my dad on our family farm during summers, which isn’t too much but I also don’t get paid. Now I have to do both, I work 5-6 days a week, and any days off are spent helping my dad or getting ready for university. I’ve maybe spent 7 days all summer doing things I actually want to do

It’s terrible. I love going to our cabin at our lake. I have actual friends there and I’m popular and fun and can go to parties. I’ve only been there once for a few days. Normally I’m there like 10 times a year. And now that harvest is starting I definitely won’t be able to. I’ll miss the fair, and the biggest weekend all year at the lake

I hate this so much, but everyone always tells me how I have the perfect life and I get spoon-fed everything when I literally hate my life. 

The only thing that still brings me joy has been taken from me and I don’t know what to do. If I ask my dad not to work everyday he says how he provides me with a house and food and lets me use his car, so I have to work for him, which is a somewhat fair argument.