Like it says, I feel like dying but I'd never actually do anything. 

I'm almost 19, and the world feels hopeless at this point? I want to believe things will get better mentally like they normally have, but then I just end up right back in the same pit and reality. 

I feel hopeless going to college since I don't even really know what I want to do. I'm stuck in this loop in my head of what to do with my life. I don't want to be stuck with a 9-5 and barely make ends meet. Even with the small town I live in you can't afford a decent place on your own. 


I feel pressured by my parents to move out asap like my sister did. But I don't think they understand that she had security when she moved out. She moved in with her boyfriend at the time (now husband), but she didn't have to worry about rent. She was always better with money than me. 

I barely have any savings, and there's so much I have to pay for this fall. I'm already basically working myself to death with only maybe 1 day off a week for the past month. 

America in general is a shit show unless you're rich. I don't know how I'll get Healthcare once I'm 19. What I have now runs out as soon as I turn 19 in a month. 

All of my friends' parents are supportive until they can live on their own, I just wish mine were the same. 

I feel so hopeless. I wish just ONE thing would go right in my life and I'd have a little more hope.