I have BPD but I have to hide it cuz social stigma. I can't talk with my friends. I once tried to talk with my ex-ex boyfriend about this but he was into those hippy stuff where psychology is a stupid thing with stupid labels. With the last boyfriend I had I tried to hide my BPD. For the first period was good but after 5-6 months I started to do BPD things. after an year when everything was getting worse I had a kind of crisis and I told everything to him. he cried with me and he ask me why I had been hiding that thing, that he can understand everything. Then after a week he left me cuz he said that he wasn't enough strong for that and after a week he started to date another girl.
For my father I'm a ghost, my mother is a teenager and when I feel bad she runs away. for my brother I'm like a garbage cuz he said that if I feel bad it's only my fault cuz I'm lazy. I have a BPD diagnosis but they never had the interest to try to understand me. When I read here friends, SO and parents who try to learn how to help I feel so bad and lonely cuz I have no one who cares about me or who is trying to understand me. I need to talk with someone without fear to be judged or being misunderstood. I feel so lonely.