hi.  um so my partner is having us move somewhere i don't want to go, he knows i didn't want to go there and has bought a house there.  it's in a red state, and it upsets me that he would move us someplace i am against.  he asked me basically all the time for years so i finally gave in but then forgot about it.  and now the house is bought and we are moving in a month.  i feel extremely depressed, and probably borderline suicidal.  it just feels like such a cross into something i am not comfortable with.  i don't honestly know if i can handle this and if i will live.  i am really good usually at managing my depression.  I have two kids they are 11, and 15, and have had many bouts before due to my social anxiety issues.  But usually am good at managing to keep things together.  But yeah this feels different and so much harder.  I just feel plain despair.  I'm gonna hopefully get better.  But yeah this has been really hard.  (He wanted to move cause we live in a blue state, and that made him uncomfortable.. I suggested a purple state as a compromise, but no.)