Hello. Im 19 years old male. How to be motivated and not fall into depressive episodes? I am motivated and i want to study, go to the gym and just do something, but then after couple of days im thinking "why do i even care? Nothing really matters" etc and im very sad, i want to killmyself, i dont even have energy to get out of bed. Then after couple of days it ends and im again motivated to do things. How to end this cycle? Also im constantly thinking that im bad person and cursing on myself. I like driving alone. Im then talking to myself loud and talking about the things that i did bad and that should be done better and talking about how bad, ungratefull, shit, lazy person i am and about how im gonna end my life. So how to stop the cycle and stay motivated all the time? Have a nice day everyone!