i have a very important exam tomorrow, that i have not studied for in the slightest. i went out with my family today and don't know how i repressed the urge to cry throughout it. 
im so tired and so drained and i dont want to go on like this anymore. but im scared that it's never going to get better for me.
i keep wishing that someone will come and tell me that it's okay to fail and it's okay to be the way i am, but it's really not. and i cant expect people to tell me lies. 
i wish they did though