My official diagnosis is bipolar disorder, ocd, ednos and social anxiety as well as borderline *traits*.  I will be seeking the advice of my doctor and not looking for a diagnosis here as I already have one but I am wondering if anyone out there experiences a feeling of intense fear or almost jelly like limbs at the stress of acknowledging/thinking about your internal organs that makes you want to scream?  My ocd mostly revolves around fear of death and illness so I thought maybe it was that but I tried to do a self assessment online of delusional thinking to gauge if I am overreacting it's something I've experienced before but was surprised to also find that the belief that a body part isnt working properly is part of delusional thinking I just feel like I "know" things.  I have also caught myself thinking about people who dont agree with me as turning on me or "them" but it doesnt stick, I do believe I am constantly being gas lighted.  I am suddenly concerned delusional thinking is a lot more integrated in me than I previously realized.  Is anyone able to tell me their experiences with delusional thinking so that I may understand what it normally looks like?