I'm 25 and they them

Im a fuckup
I feel like I've been given so many chances for the thing I want, and I screwed them all up

A few years ago, I had a serious boyfriend I loved, tons of freinds, and a potentially lucrative career as a biologist

I drove the boyfriend away, and betrayed him in the prosses of my own self destruction. He hates me now. 
The large circle of friends mostly got distant after college, and the ones that stayed eventually decided I wasnt worth their time anymore.

I tried working in a lab, but I got burnt out when covid started and I had to quit

I feel like I've been circling the drain since the pandemic started, and I've ruined any chance I had at making something good out of myself

Last time I went home I was asked why wasn't I doing all the same things as my younger sibling who is more successful than me

Anyone else a fuckup like me?