I’m diagnosed with multiple things , including one type of attacks called « hysterical attacks » which are a big mystery to me and my doctors till this day 

I suffer from : a major depressive disorder, borderline personality disorder , generalized anxiety , and some of my doctors believe I have bipolar too 

I have theses attacks , it all started by them looking like convulsions+ making weird sounds like « moaning » in pain (sorry my English is bad) 

It then progressed to hitting myself while doing theses things 

They can be triggered , by something stressful since I live in an extremely abusive household , or someone doing something bad to me 

And sometimes it can be triggered by sensory issues, and sometimes weirder , just the placement of something (an object) which wouldn’t bother me 90% of the time

And sometimes , not a single reasons need to be there for it to start , I just start to feel crappy all of a sudden , agitated, wanting to hit , wanting to do extreme things to myself , wanting to break everything down exactly like right now 

It feels like going insane , I hate this , I want this to stop 

Please if you have any idea what this could be , let me know