been struggling really badly with it being so dark all the time and i haven't left the house to just go for a walk in a long time, barely have energy to even cook food .. 
boyfriend really wants to go out and do things like go for walks and go on dates and stuff like that but i have no energy. all i do is sleep and cry lately and it's not getting better. 
i got into a therapy group this week but it's an introduction for 3 weeks then imma be actually doing therapy so i have to wait till then :))
i just can't pull myself out of bed. even going downstairs to play video games is exhausting and i just want to sleep. 
boyfriends been getting pretty sick and tired of my shit lately and today he even walked out on me having a break down and told me to deal with it myself.
i know he's going to leave me. i just know it. three weeks is too much time. he's going to leave because i don't do fucking anything ever, i just lay down. nothing else. id be sick of this shit too if i were him. 

TLDR; therapy doesn't start for 3 more weeks. boyfriends getting antsy in the house but won't go anywhere without me. 