I just got back. I haven't been out with anyone in a very long time. This person was my roomate a few years ago in college freshman year. We went to a bar and I was panicking so bad. We had beer and I haven't had a drink in over a year.. Instantly had panic attacks that kept coming in waves.

The guy next to us was leaving and have us his pitcher of beer. I kept thinking it is probably spiked and after each sip I had a minor panic attack. It was nice to get out of the house... But why am I like this? Is there anything that can help? I've been so stressed lately with a new job coming up that is a first responder job.. I'm worried I'll have anxiety issues there. I just need to manage it somehow... Or maybe have someone to talk to. Thank you for reading