I hate dating, i have had problems with trying to get dates since i can remember, i mean because of being bullied i developed a low self steem plus i cared less about my looks what is a disaster, since i was 12-13 i knew about what i liked in bed and i might be too submissive to get a boner to penetrate a girl and because of that also i never had the energy to try to improve about my looks, plus two old female classmates used me to give them money to take the bus or buy them drinks, i was so pathetic that it was amazing to me that they asked me to do something for them so i always gave them the money, and the girl i bought the drinks even made fun of me but i was so dumb that i didn't realized that.
Some years ago i improved in my looks but since i think feminism is inequality my new classmates seemed to start not liking me and some of them i think that really hates me plus add that i am a geek type of guy so that doesn't help, is so hard to get up from bed i am tired tired of seeing no sense in life and feeling unworthy of love, i just want a girl to make her smile, i also use to find funny when i am chatting with some girl of tinder and she tells me awwww you are so kind, you are a really great person etc (usually after telling them that i don't care waiting all the time she needs to have sex even if it is years) so she feels special because to me is worth it (not gonna lie i love also to be seen as a cute guy because of how i act) and then when we talk less or just happens nothing that i notice, they reject me, they tell me they started dating another person etc... i feel like i am trash am i overreacting? it has been years since i feel this way