just venting but earlier today my bf teased me about something and instead of just playing a long and moving on i got really triggered and got into a bad mood. after talking about it i can see how dumb it was for me to ruin the good day we were having over something so irrelevant. i started to spiral out of control and just couldn’t keep myself together. it felt like nothing was making sense anymore and all i could do was cry. i was just crying so hard, and my bf was just trying to help. i felt so humiliated and embarrassed that he saw me like that over this. i was just so upset at myself for everything, idk why i think this way or how to stop myself sometimes. im usually good at handling things but today it felt like it was just all out the window. it felt like all my progress is gone and my bf would be better off without me. i just have so much hate towards myself right now i want to take it out on myself but i know i shouldn’t. i haven’t SH in a couple of months and im trying really hard to not do it right now because i will regret it in the morning. i know im just all in my head right now but i feel trapped.