I joined this summer camp and today we’re doing water sports. I’m so scared no one understands my fear. When I was younger I came out of a slide and at the bottom it was deep and I couldn’t get back up out of the water the life guard had to help me out and I swallowed a lot of water. From that day my fear of water was horrible. Everytime I see someone jumping into water I feel anxiety how can people be comfortable jumping into deep water. People keep saying to me but you’ll have a life jacket on it’s fine. That doesn’t matter all my brain sees is I’m going to fall into deep water again and go under (even tho it’s for a few seconds before the life jacket brings me up). Idk what to do I can’t back out now. I want to just say fuck it and go for it but I watched videos of what we were doing and I couldn’t sleep and I feel so panicked. It’s an obstacle course in water so I’m guaranteed to fall into the water it has slides and things to jump off. Idk what to do i tried talking to my friend about my fear and they didn’t believe me that I may have nearly drowned. Idk if I nearly drowned but it scared me enough to give me an extreme fear of water.