
Pray that I never wake up in this unforgiving world. I have no relations, no friends my parents live halfway across the world. I am sick both physically and mentally, food doesn’t taste good anymore, I used be a bibliophile now I have all these books still not a page turned. I wish I could just end myself but I couldn’t because that will break my parent’s…..all I could do now is cry to sleep and hopefully never wakeup.
It is like I am immune to happiness.
I am too coward to kill myself so sometimes I just think about hiring someone to do the deed. 
I am immune to happiness.