Out of every aspect of BPD this one always gets me a bit too much. Like my FP just doesn't want to do smth with me for one fucking day and i explore every fucking option in which she could possibly betray me or hate me etc. you get the idea. I start to sink in my feelings of gettig left, nothing feels real anymore, i feel lost, i self harm, i am completely out of my mind, i then either get very angry or dismissive etc. you name it. Then i get a message "man today i really slept the entire day lol wanna come over?" and i instantly snap back to feeling good. Like nothing ever happened. This is so fucking exhausting cause it's pretty much the same every day