I've been really down lately. The past two weeks have been really confusing in that all I can seem to do i lay around and cry. I have reason to suspect it's about my relationship but the only problem with my relationship is that I'm depressed all the time.

I tried driving to the park today but immediately left. I tried seeing a movie but walked out before it even started. Everything is effort and worthless as an activity. All I do is lay in bed and wait until I go back to work. I have a four day weekend and even though it should be relaxing I've just been crying my eyes out because I want to be with my boyfriend.

I don't know how to be by myself. Nothing is fun and I live for the moments where not I'm not actively hurting in my chest.

I know I've been through this before but I'm having such trouble finding my way out this time. What can someone do when nothing seems worth it? How do I get out of these real deep lows?