I need to vent. I've actually been straight up honest with him (as of last night, ACST time) about it.  

I told him that I was unsure if we needed a longer break or if I should end it. That it wasn't fair on him that he was the main focus FP, and how it was a catch 22. If I'm focused on him, I'm not likely to get hurt by someone else. I know where I stand with him.     

But then these "romantic" feelings have popped up, and I don't know what to do. He doesn't want a relationship with me, just the intimacy side of things. It's doing my head in, I keep second guessing myself. My skills are about the only thing stopping me from losing it altogether.  

I put romantic in quotes because I'm not sure if it's because I suddenly have someone paying attention to me, because we have a level of affection above cuddling, or if they're genuine.  

I have a traumatic history with relationships, hence my second guessing the origin of the feelings.