I have a dbt workbook, but can't afford actual dbt. It's very expensive and rare in my country. 


I'm currently on chapter 3: radical acceptance. The main problem for me right now is my crazy dad. I think he has NPD, can't say for sure. But he's thinking is ver distorted, he thinks he's the best of the best, and also has very weird paranoia about things. His business and his life are failing bcs of his 'NPD'. Now, i'm his scape goat. Most of the time, he gets mad at me without me doing anything.


Anyway, i'm now filling out this workbook. It wants me to think of a distressing situation. It asks what i have control of over this situation, i write "my emotions". But at the time (this was last night), i remember clearly it literally hurts to calm myself down cs i was so angry. What if i don't want to control it? Cs being angry is less hurtful. Any advice?