My boyfriend in a different college town than I am, and whenever he doesn't text me back for a few hours I instantly become paranoid and think that he's cheating on me with one of his friends. His group of friends are all roommates and I always imagine that the frequency that he visits will sway his feelings from me to his friend, especially when I know he's there or when he sleeps over. I visit them often when I come up to see him and they're all incredibly kind and friendly towards me but in the back of my head I always suspect they're doing it to cover for my boyfriend and the housemate. I feel so badly about how I feel because I can't tell if my feelings are irrational and toxic or if I'm being rational and am valid to feel that way. I feel as though it's the latter and I never bring up my jealousy issues because I feel as if it'll just plague my relationship with him if it turns out I'm wrong. Why is it I can't ever believe people aren't out to do me wrong? 