I‘m so scared that the people I love will leave me so I try to push them away. I always think now they have enough of me. Now they wanna leave. Now they stopped loving me. Even with my sister who loves me so much and never betrayed me. My best friend of 10 years ago who always shows me and tells me how special I am to her. But still I can’t trust. I talk to my best friend everyday for example. And yesterday she only responded when I asked something. I think she’s busy because of work but I can’t fully trust that. I think that she’s ‘done’ with me. And that she’ll ghost me. I broke up with my ex 6 weeks ago and yesterday we had a talk. He said he loved me so much and still loves me but I’ve never allowed him to love me. And he’s right. I always thought he will leave me. He will ghost me. And I know him for 2 years. He never ignored my texts. He never hurt me purposely. Another ex of mine told me also I didn’t let him love me. I realize I’m emotionally unavailable. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I want to accept love but I’m so scared. I appreciate your advice.