For 2 years now I have been aware I'm depressed,I don't know what to do bc it went from being "in still ok" to "I can't do this anymore" I'm kind of bipolar,I have a shit ton of a.d.d and everything sucks,I want to cry,I NEED to cry but I can't ,I have sometimes found myself with a 357. Under my chin begging God to make me cry,or feel happy ,or sad,I don't feel anything anymore and I can't do this ,nobody really cares about me,I'm a burden,I have tried to come out more about it,but coming out about it ig makes it less believable which is bullshit I just want help