Hi, just wondering if anyone can identify with this. I (f 21) go through periods of feeling spacey, sometimes passively suicidal, and emotionally dull, usually for hours but sometimes days. I notice when it's happening, because visually everything around me seems slightly out of focus. I often forget where I put things or put things in the wrong spot only to find it later and not know how it happened. I've "woken up" somewhere before and didn't really remember how I got there. Sometimes I notice that my body feels a little funny, and my sensation in my hands feels muted. When I get really stuck in this state, I can't even bring myself to get out of bed. Everything feels scary and unfamiliar. Sometimes the space around me feels foreign even thought I "know" that it's my house. When I get stuck here, I feel the urge to go back to self harm (I have not in years and don't intend to). 

Have you felt this way before? If not disassociating what might this be? Not looking for a diagnosis ofc but looking for someone to relate to. Do you have any tricks for getting out of this mental space? I hate feeling it starting but not being able to stop it happening.