I (21F) have always been anxious, but it's gotten increasingly worse over the past decade after a \~life event\~. It's now to the point that I've been a nervous wreck for the past year, and though I'm generally good at hiding it, it's interfering with my life in very obvious ways to outsiders as well.

But I had a good couple of weeks. They weren't anxiety-free, but I haven't had a panic attack since the end of April. Yesterday, I found a bit of myself being proud of exercising, learning, and trying to cope with my anxiety, and my hands weren't even shaking for most of the day.

And...... last night hit. My hands were shaking, and my heart rate has been up all day since. I can hear my pulse in my ear, and my hands, usually feeling like they're buzzing, feel like a cellphone vibrating on full strength. I can't get a deep breath in no matter what I try. I even went for my usual run, which often helps, but it didn't at all today. I'm waitlisted for therapy, and I have no idea when I'll be able to get off that waitlist, so it just feels like I have to deal with this and hold on until I can get off that waitlist.

It feels like this cycle of panic attacks and feeling marginally better keeps repeating. For those of you who've been through it, or have been managing in for a while--does it ever get better? (and to be completely honest, yes, I'm looking for a bit of hope.) Thank you in advance.