

I'm on lithium, rispiridone, and buspirone. It works for me, I haven't had a manic or depressive episode in over a month, but it feels so bland. It's like I've been banished to the medium place. (For those who don't know, the medium place is from the show "The Good Place", it's where a completely morally grey person goes after they die. Their favorite drinks are available, but they're never cold. They have nice sheets, but the mattress isn't right, etc.) I miss the feeling of mania, but not the hallucinations or delusions. The world is grey now, but it's not hopeless like it is when im depressed. I'm not nearly as creative as I was before. Is this really how neurotypical people feel? I need to know that I'm not alone in this.