Anyone else doing this to sort of "relax"? It's like every time I pull a hair out I feel a super short high feeling. As if it's all okay. 

Well, I looked in the mirror this morning and it's not okay. I'm basically bald from my chin up to halfway my cheeks, both sides. I look cracked out and completely out of my mind. So I'll just shave the rest I guess.

This has been my first major episode. Normally I will just pull out a few hairs, become aware of what I'm doing and then stop. Last night I was angry and went on picking all night. Which I regret now. 

To anyone going through these episodes on a regular basis: it fucking sucks. I'm sorry you have to deal with this shit and I hope it will pass. I can definitely understand how it can make someone feel ashamed, since I'm having that feeling now.