My pcp has put me on medical leave from work for the past month because my anxiety, depression, and bpd basically consumed all of me. Plus feeling physical symptoms that I could not identify from mental health problems or diabetic problems (type 1, yay me). 

I walk into his office this time and the waiting room was packed. I typically go in the morning so I already felt off and nervous. 

Also weighing heavily on my mind what he might do when I tell him I cut myself the other day when me and my boyfriend broke up for those few hours. 

Disclaimer: I called him 2 weeks after I had my office visit and I was in agony. I couldnt breathe but I didn't wanna go to the hospital again. The medicine isnt working.... and he blew me off saying he couldnt do anything unless I went to the hospital again or do Intensive Outpatient Program again, same one I did in January. No way to expensive. Almost $50,000 in medical debt. No thanks. 

So I get called back by the nurse and she gets my weight.  Gained 5 lbs this week, probably lose it next.  

Then he calls me into his office. I explain my month and after the crying phone call. I told him about the cuts, didnt seem to interested or surprised. Actually seemed like he didnt care at all. "Well we will increase Viibyrd to 40 so that should help."

....... time for a new psych.