Hello, I’m not sure if this is the right place to post - so pls do let me know if there is a different sub as I do not want to trigger/offend anyone. 

The back of 2021 (and still now) I went through a pretty hard time which caused me to be continually anxious 24/7 - basically in fight or flight mode constantly and due to this I completely lost my appetite. I could go pretty much a whole day not eating anything and not feeling hungry at all. If I would force myself to eat, the whole time I would be having some what intrusive thoughts about the things that were making me anxious and suddenly it turned the motions of eating into a horrible experience and within an hour I’m normally sick (not intentionally I think maybe this could be cos my stomach has shrunk or maybe anxiety?)

I was just shy of 12.5 stones in December 2021 I am now shy of 9.3 stone, I still struggle to eat anything until around 2pm everyday. I came back from a family vacation and often had to leave the table to pretend to go to the toilet because it felt very overwhelming. I felt very bad for doing this but my family picked up on my eating habits and they’re concern and comments sort of made things worse and sitting down as a whole became an anxious experience for me.

I am in therapy atm for a separate diagnosis and child hood trauma /abuse but I’m scared to mention this to them because I already feel like a burden and feel like I would just be adding another problem to the list, but after seeing a friend I hadn’t seen since December as of recent and him being incredibly shocked at my weight loss and concerned I’ve realise there may be a bigger issue here at hand.

Could anyone shed some light on what could be going on, how to increase your appetite when food feels daunting and how to stop anxious intrusive thoughts before/whilst eating? Has anyone else had an experience like this?

I also am a hypochondriac and to scared to tell doctors Incase there is something wrong with me and it’s not my anxiety / stress at all.

I am in the UK, 25 female 5’6. 

Thank you so much to anyone that reads this.