Hey guys, just wanted to share my experiences of the last few days. My anxiety controls my life. Even to the point that when I woke up I wish I didn't and went right back to sleep. I was wasting my days in bed. I knew this was going to have a bad outcome if I didn't change some things so I immediately contacted my therapist. 

We discussed a lot of the concerns and how quickly my anxiety had worsened. I have to accept that I'm not OK at this moment and I need to get my basics on point before I can move on. So I temporarily deactivated my social media like Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat etc so I'm less tempted to compare my life with other people. 

I set a few basic rules for myself which include wake up at the same time every day in the morning eat 3 meals during the day and go to bed at the same time every day day. Then I made a list with things I like to do and what I find to be stressful. 

The first list contains things like watching Netflix, cook, read, etc and on the other list are things like go on a walk in a public place, go to a bookstore, ride a bus... 
Every day I have to choose at least 1 out of the both lists and write down my experiences.
I feel I'm going to beat it this time. One step at a time