Right my self esteem has never been lower because my FP left. This has me wondering whether I have NPD as I can’t seem to function without human contact and as I have no friends I’ve started to become suicidal. What are my options? I feel obsessed by how bad I feel and like I’m only feeling this bad to get a reaction out of someone and that’s making me feel even worse. I really want to kill myself but I know I’m too pussy. Does that make me a narcissist? Will I ever have friends? I mean... I am JUST an INSUFFERABLE DISGUSTING ANNOYING UGLY FAT WORTHLESS NASTY SELFISH CUNT. Why can’t I just pull myself together and kill myself?!? UGH.