Sometimes I just want to fall asleep and never wake up, don’t get me wrong I have an amazing life. I have parents to support me in college and I just got accepted into a program that I’ve been waiting for. I have a boyfriend who I fight here and there, sometimes it gets so out of hand where it turns into screaming matches. I used to be suicidal and cut myself bc my mom would tell me that I’m better off dying. So I would cut myself until my cousin talked to me and told me to stop. So I laid off for a bit until I met my boyfriend and we were doing good, but sometimes the slightest thing that he did would make me to upset that I relapsed into thinking “I knew I should’ve killed myself.” Because if I did and then I wouldn’t have to cry every night, dealing with feeling unworthy. Feeling like I’m someone that’s just a bothersome, someone who takes care of everyone, but nobody to take care of me and it gets depressing. I started searching up about medication that puts me to sleep longer and I don’t know if I should purchase it or not.