19yo bi guy here. i haven't been tested for bpd yet but there's a very strong chance that i'm a quiet borderline.

i thought i was asexual for most of my high school years. turns out i wasn't but it took me a little while to get out of denial. i won't elaborate on that now because it was for a number of reasons and i don't wanna make this post too long.

and now i'm quite the opposite, i've become hypersexual. it's gotten to the point where my partner (19, possibly an fp) not wanting me sexually 24/7 makes me feel unloved, unwanted, neglected. i have to constantly fight back negative thoughts because they constantly reassure me that they love me and care for me deeply. and we're practically living together so them spending 95% of their time and energy with me should be more than enough. i know that sex should be the cherry on top in a relationship, not the foundation, plus nobody is obligated to sleep with someone if they don't feel like it. but they haven't been in the mood for sex as much for the past few weeks and that combined with my hypersexuality has taken a toll on me so i'm struggling to convince myself of this. i haven't told them because i don't want to pressure them into doing things they don't want to do but last night, this manifested into me breaking down in front of them and telling them that i feel like they're hardly giving me any attention at all, which made them really upset. i know i was being unfair because it's impossible for them to not be giving me any since they drive over to my house every single day and we always go places together. but hypersexual brain won't allow me to be happy. it's pure torture. my past self would be horrified at what i've become.

has anyone else experienced this?