I’ve been recently diagnosed with BPD and I’m not sad about it. I’m actually relieved because i never knew wtf was wrong with me and i feel good now that i know I’m not a psychopath and it explains by behaviors which I’m glad about.  My FP happens to be my husband who is fully supportive of me. He knows exactly what to do when I’m having my anger episodes and it works, he’s there for me and he doesn’t give up on me, he gives me everything I need and more. But MAN, some weeks I just want to be crazy. I want to go out clubbing, I want to take drugs, get drunk and have random hookups with strangers. I stop myself from doing that but I’m going through this right now. It’s not like a day or a couple days, this lasts for WEEKS. And all I can think about during these times are how much I want to just go off and be alone and wild.  It’s like a deep desire in me to just sneak out of the house and be wild. I wish I could stop these thoughts because I’ve never done something like this to him, but I’m afraid the day will come one day where I’ll do something I regret. 

DAE ever feel this way?