Life is very difficult and I am sick and tired when people tell me to "just be patient for a bit", i am always in a situation where i have to "be patient", i am tired of life not being enjoyable. I had to be patient to get my first degree, everyone said "just stick with it for a bit longer, you'll get your degree and it will be over", then the pandemic happened, then my dad got diagnosed with cancer, then my dad died and now i have to work full time while doing my masters to survive (and no there are no other options if i want a decent job, my country is in financial crisis it is either this or awful exploitation). I am trying to catch a breath, i dont remember the last time i breathed in and it wasn't difficult, the last time i woke up and had a smile on my face. How do you find hope in a life like this? When you get over a difficulty just to fall on an even more difficult situation? Especially if you have an anxiety disorder like i do.