I'm sick of this now. Right now I'm trying my best to walk over to my desk, open my notes and study. IT's just a few feet away.  But my mind and body is stuck in bed, in an infinite loop of INTENSE exhaustion both mentally and physically even though I did nothing at all today.  I got university tomorrow and I don't want to go there, I don't want to talk and smile with people, pretend all day BECAUSE I got no energy left in me. BUT I CAN'T SKIP my classes too. I want all this to end. I'm studying and working in the fields I love. I have hobbies and past times that I adore. BUT NONE OF THOSE ARE WORKING anymore. It's so difficult to find life inside me. Sometimes, a sudden strike of inspiration would come to me but I can't hold on to it, something ruins it. And it makes me even more miserable. I can't even cry, I feel damn clogged inside.