I have been struggling to keep control of my thoughts lately I’ve been on this roller coaster of feelings and emotions I can’t live or feel safe in my own home I have thoughts of hurting myself be am to much of a coward to follow through I used to have friends when I partook in substances such a weed alcohol ketimine and lsd but now those friends have left me and I am alone I really cared about them and now they don’t give me the time of dayI’ve have this state of emotional distress since I was 8 and my mother died and just when I think I’m getting stable again my mental state is thrown on another destructive loop I’m only 17 I want to live a normal peaceful life but I’m stuck can you please help me or if you have your own challenges such as mine can you share. I really want to be ok