Lately my depression feels like a hamster wheel. Always striving for something out of reach, but life keeps me on it. 

I want to stop my body image issues, but I get too tired after working out. It makes me hate myself. So around I go. 

I want to get better grades, but I hit a mental wall and feel empty. Past trauma resurfaces. It makes me hate myself. So around I go. 

I want to have more friends, but when I reach out nobody responds anymore. So I start to give up. So around I go. 

I don’t want to be broke anymore, but I don’t have a degree, so all the available jobs are physically demanding. So I get burnt out after 3-6 months. So I get fired or quit. So around I go. 

I want someone to love me, but my mental health makes me not worthy to be in a relationship. It’s been 5 years alone. It makes me feel unloveable. So around I go. 

I fall off the wheel! I want to kill myself. I just want to be hugged and told that I’m good enough. I just want to not have to worry about my next paycheck, to have someone who wants me. 

But I remember the good times when they occur, so maybe this time is different? So around I go.