My fp didn’t talk to me for like a month and then on Saturday she did but I couldn’t handle it and I freaked out on her and told her she was just bored of me already if she couldn’t talk about what I wanted and be completely attentive. Then she went to bed and I was still angry texting her, then I gave myself a little time to cool off and ended up sending her a text telling her that I’m just going to ruin her life if she keeps me around lol… but like that’s completely true. And she has a kid and she deserves to be happy and I’m just going to wreck that for her.

Saturday sucked. Long story short, I directed her to a throwaway I was using but I had posted a nude on there months ago and I thought I had deleted the post a long time ago and she saw it. So on Saturday she comes at me all hot accusing me of tricking her into seeing it, telling me she felt violated. So I explained the whole thing to her because it really was an accident and she told me that it’s not a big deal since she’s soon me nude before… but like wtf it’s a big deal to me. I feel violated. I feel weird. She was not supposed to see that and she came in accusing me of being a creep like that. She didn’t apologize, she just said yup np. I hate this. I’m so fucking stupid. I literally checked my account before directing her to it and the post was deleted so idk how she ever saw it but I’m an idiot. I’m so embarrassed and it hurts. 

And now she hates me. And she should.