So 3/4 weeks ago I was in a pit of despair (first proper one Ive had since hospitalisation May 2019). I've been doing so well for the past 6 months. Anyway 3 weeks ago I called the crisis team (UK) and then my mental health team in an absolute mess, the earliest emergency appointment they could give me was for 3 weeks time, and by video call which is rubbish but it's covid so I get it. I was feeling so helpless and suicidal I was the closest I've ever been to doing it. So today's the day finally for my appointment and it was my own fault I forgot, my cat brought in a little robin and I was nursing it and keeping it warm while the wildlife team were on their way. I just remembered I missed the appointment and checked my phone expecting messages or a missed call, but there was NOTHING. I know it's my fault but I'm honestly annoyed they never even tried to get in touch. I have never missed one appointment ever for anything I have always been online in the video room waiting for my therapist to join. This was my first meeting with my new consultant as the old one moved on and nothing. I could be lying dead somewhere and they haven't even tried to contact me or my next of kin. I'm just disappointed. Sorry for the rant. Feeling pretty worthless at the moment.