I'm so sick of having this anxiety. I've had it for as long as I can remember and it's only gotten worse. I am scared to do anything new. I'm scared of being around people. I have wanted to go back to school for a long time, but I'm terrified of doing it. I can't sleep. I hate my job but I'm too scared to look elsewhere. I'm terrified of confrontation and avoid it at all costs. I can't even make a simple god damn phone call. 

I have been seeing a psychiatrist for over ten years. No meds have helped. Therapy hasn't helped. Just being out in the world, trying to expose myself to different situations has only made it worse. 

My 15 year old daughter has done one thousand times better than me in handling her anxiety and is thriving, which I'm super happy about,  but it makes me feel worthless. This fuels my depression and makes me feel even worse. 

I'm just so damn drained from trying so hard and failing so badly.