I’m 20. Other people may think I’m nice or a sweetheart but a lot of times I see myself in a negative way because of my mistakes or things I did throughout my childhood and adolescence. Or it could be my OCD telling me that I’m a “bad person”. One minute I think I’m an angel, then the next minute I think I might be a “demon”, because of all my past mistakes and things I said or did when I was a kid, and I sometimes I feel like I’m not good enough to be a good person. I have anger issues, but it’s not as bad as it was when I was in high school. Every time I think about the anger outbursts I had in class and cursing at people, even if they weren’t really making fun of me, I feel guilty about it or that I’ll get punished for it one day. 

I try my best to be seen as a good/nice person or to be liked by “everyone” by being as kind, nice, and helpful as possible. Even though it’s not possible for everyone to like me or see me in a positive way, I still fear being hated or rejected.