My FP and I broke up. He basically confirmed everything that I had been feeling for the past few months, that he was distancing himself from me and wasn't feeling involved in the relationship. I could sense this so I tried everything I could to prevent this from getting worse, I needed his validation and reassurance so I asked him for it desperately, pushing him away further in the process, he gave it to me but neither of us felt any better about it. I suppose it feels good to know that it wasn't all in my head, it wasn't just the BPD talking as I'd convinced myself that it was. He said he didn't bring up this thing because he knew I was in a bad place. Little did he know, he was just hurting me much, much more by making me think he still loved me and keeping me involved in what was essentially a dead relationship.

I need help in getting over him. I've already blocked him everywhere I could think of. I don't know how I'll survive without his validation, without talking to him everyday. My whole body feels so heavy and I can't sleep. People who went through a breakup with their FPs, what helped you get over it? Please, please give me advice, I don't know how I'll survive if I'm constantly thinking about what happened and what went wrong.