so you can look thru my history... my BF and I have been rocky for awhile.

to not be so OCD and looking thru allllll his pics and updates and etc etc, i blocked him on social media.

he texted me saying i am fishy, sketchy, and it's weird.

we have (had?) a date tomorrow and i blocked him so i wouldn't fuck up before seeing him.


now, nothing. he said i was sketchy and fishy for doing so, and won't respond to my honest texts and emails back: i did it to not further push things and send stuff.

i'm so scared.
i'm really sad.
 

i did it to help myself, then got those texts, then went to try and fix it all with him.....and now i'm worse off.


wtf. if i try to help myself and better myself and protect myself, i'm still wrong.


fuck.

i wanna hurt myself