I’m with a chick for 11 years now. But I need advice about what to do for possibly ending the relationship. This women has put me through hell for the last year.. When I went through a depression down swing and tried to kill myself she didn’t lift a finger to help me and actually said I was pathetic.When I went through psychosis and wanted to a hospital she told me I was fine and gaslit me.. Ect ect. Not to mention how lazy she is. She sleeps all day and doesn’t help out. She’s a slob. But I don’t know how to end this without her stalking and making my life more chaotic which makes me dissociate for which she plays with like a sadist. She makes me want to die and has almost made me. Yet idk how leave (she’s a roommate) I litterally tried to leave once after a argument and she slammed the door and locked it and said ( you aren’t going anywhere) the look in her eyes.. 

I’m also scared of the embarrassment of walking out. And I have no one.. my family are toxic and narcissistic (that’s probably why I got with a chick like my mom) and they would feed of this shit. I have no friends and no one to talk to. :( I just can’t take stress anymore it’s killing me.