I've been clinically diagnosed with autism.

I really thought I had BPD for several months, but looking back, this honestly makes a lot more sense.

It made me feel better for a few days to finally know what's wrong, but I'm right back to the same intense breakdowns and self-harming and suicidal ideation. I'm still the same person with the same problems and I genuinely believe that it's going to keep getting worse until I die. Being neurodivergent in a society that wasn't made for you and will not tolerate you is fucking horrible. Nobody wants to deal with me and I don't want to deal with myself. I just want to stop.