I was a victim of sexual abuse. It was a really traumatic event. I always blame myself about it 'cause I didn't stopped him(my ex-step father) from doing it. But they said it wasn't my fault because I was only 6-10 years old when it happened. The inner voice in my head says I should kill myself or "what if I kill my mom?" and other negative things. Is this normal? My mom doesn't seem to care when I told her that I need a professional help and I need someone to talk to. I'm not used to telling my problems to my parents. I don't know if she's just busy or she doesn't care.