I turned 18 in April and just yesterday I was diagnosed with BPD. Lovely present if you ask me. I just started an Intro to DBT group today. It's all very... overwhelming. But, also, bittersweet. I am thankful to finally know what is wrong with me. However, it sucks. It just sucks. I mean, my problems didn't appear out of no where; they've been accumulating. Though, I was always being treated as though depression and anxiety were my only issues. I guess that is why the medications never worked, hah. I'm not sure how I am even supposed to be feeling right now. I don't even know why I am typing this. Maybe in the hopes that someone will tell me I'll be fine. And maybe in the hopes I'll believe it.

I guess the hardest part is that... this was supposed to be such a pivotal part of my life but now I feel as though I'm stuck in time while everyone around me moves on. I know it isn't the end of *the* world, but it feels like the end of *my* world.