So I'm 22 years old, I've been diagnosed with multiple disorders since I was 14, including BPD. I used to do drugs, drink alcohol, had an eating disorder, was really toxic in general, but lately I've been changing more than ever and it's scary. I don't recognise myself. I suddenly don't feel the need to bring back people from my past, being toxic, or do drugs and other sh things I used to do to easy my pain and feelings. I don't know what to think about it. I haven't been visiting any doctors nor a therapist for about a year, because I met so many but none of them really helped me. I'm becoming a better version of myself, I never felt like this before. It's not forced at all. I just stopped caring about stupid and toxic things. However I'm confused and really afraid of fucking it up even tho for the first time in my life I feel like I'm really getting better. Has anyone experienced something like this before? Did it stay or did you come back to your old habits?