New here. Not formally diagnosed, but I know the criteria and am borderline depressed.

I hate my life. Im worthless. I come from a good, supportive, well-off family. I have every blessing in the world. I’m in a prestigious medical school because I have decent book-learning intelligence and test taking skills. And what do I do with this? Nothing. I’m lazy. Im fat. Im stupid. My marriage is good at times and emotionally draining so much of the time as well. Im a bad person. I have no friends who live near me anymore. Im awkward. Im so done. I have nothing to complain about, but I’m still somehow making myself miserable. Im so done with it all

And I have to be up early tomorrow but have no desire to sleep even though its late. And in the morning, as it’s been for the last few weeks, I’ll have no desire to get up