I'm so tired. I try so hard and things don't work out. People say I am doing well in Uni, but I don't feel like it. So much of my life and money wasted on video games because its the only thing that something that gets rid of the pain. And now they too are losing their charm.

So much money invested into me, so much time and effort, only for me to be this. I hate it. I';ve fallen back into doomerism. I know it's not good, but it feels good.