I have major depressive disorder. Sometimes I go through depressive episodes. However, this one is really bad. It reminds me of the time of an episode so bad I got admitted (now how I got there is long story, but the feeling is there.) but worse. I feel really exhausted, numb, and I feel physically ill. I have to make myself eat, but I hate it because I feel extremely nauseous looking at food. Normally in an episode, I’d take my medication and I’d be fine after a little while. But it’s been months in this and now it’s gotten from my experience its worst. I can’t seem to shake it off no matter how hard I try. I’m also in school. I feel like there’s nothing I can do.