So I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember and in the last month or two, my social anxiety has been getting really bad. I've been stumbling on my words more, I pause more during conversations because I honestly can't think of the words to use mid sentence, lose my train of thought, and now I can't leave my car to go into a store half the time.

I'm paying €50 a month gym membership and most times I can't force myself to leave my car because I think I look hideous, can't imagine doing any exercise in front of others. I'm starting to binge eat again and gaining weight, so between that and lack of gym, I'm spiraling health wise.

Why is this happening recently? How do I overcome it, because legitimately I cannot leave my car because my chest tightens so bad and feels like I'm about to have a panic attack. I'll keep saying in my head how stupid and ugly I look, and worried everyone is staring at me over it. I'm fully aware no one cares but I just can't stop this.