I always have so so much anxiety and so many irrational thoughts about my boyfriend... He has depression and I know my constant worrying about him bothers him, but I just can’t help it. If he doesn’t say goodnight to me before he falls asleep, I get so anxious that I wanna throw up because I get so worried that he’s suddenly spiralling in the late hours and is going to hurt himself, or something. Even though he’s okay most of the time, I’m constantly worried that his depression is suddenly going to swallow him up and he’ll do something bad. I know my worrying only makes him feel worse, but I don’t know what to do. I just don’t know what I’d do if I lost him, and I have intrusive thoughts about losing him every day, even when he’s doing really well. I try my best to give him the space he needs while also being there for him and letting him know that I’m there for whatever he needs, but... I still worry about saying the wrong things to him or not doing enough. 

Has anyone else dealt with this? I just feel so lost right now...