 I started self-harming when I was 13 and stopped with therapy a couple of years ago when I was 24.

 I've been two years clean but things have really reached a new rock bottom recently and don't seem to stop. I'm currently using all my energy to look for a house and to not indulge in suicidal thoughts. It was difficult but bearable because at least the only person who seems to care for me was there. And even when he wasn't I'd think of him and it would help or distract me from how bad everything is. Well, now he's gone. And now I really wanna hurt myself for the first time in a while 

 I just know if I go back to self-harming it will make me more likely to re-attempt suicide, I won't be missed nor a loss (not victimizing nor mean to, it's just my reality) so I don't even have anything stopping me hence why I really don't want to fall into this cycle again as I know I'll succeed with my attempt.

 Does anyone have any realistic tips for not going back to self-harm that don't involve talking to the family and friends that I don't have or distracting myself?  
 Thank you