For the past three years that has felt alone I felt like everyone's against me and when I try to tell people how I feel I'm told I'm being over emotional or hormonal, which makes me feel angry, depressed and alone when I'm just trying to ask for a little bit of help and comfort I have been abandoned my whole life always told by my parents I was never wanted my own family I was never supposed to happen and now, here I don't to wake up not wanting to talk. My husband and I do nothing but fight and I'm always being blamed for all the fights or if the kids don't listen, I just want to give up I don't want to wake up anymore.  I'm tired emotionally and physically. I get angry when I'm hurt, then when I finally snap because I've had enough of being disrespected, being told I'm acting stupid or naive, or what I'm thinking is stupid, but then I get called a cunt for defending myself and have to be my own support system, I don't think highly of myself as is, so trying to make myself feel better never happens. I just want to end it all everyone would be happier without me around.