I can't do this anymore. I'm hurting my family. I'm hurting myself. I can barely function as a human. Everything is a threat to my health anxiety and OCD. I think like doing something terrible to myself just to get a break. I feel like I probably need to get admitted. Meds didn't work for me but that could also be because of my health anxiety. The only time I felt relief was when I was smoking weed excessively but now my anxiety ruined that for me and I get panic attacks when I'm high. Every single day something goes wrong. I'm finding it hard to hold on. Nothing makes me happy anymore. Even my kids are noticing. I just feel like I'm one bad day away...