Last summer when I was 19 (now 20) I found out I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 12. I didn’t believe it when my mom told me, as I was uneducated on personality disorders as a whole. The past few months however I have researched the disorder and it fits me perfectly. I was previously diagnosed with bipolar 1 when I was 14 and always just went with that. The past few months I’ve been experiencing a lot of the BPD symptoms (I won’t go into all of them.) For example “splitting”. I’ve always done this but never realized it as a thing because most of the time the feelings of extreme guilt either weren’t there or I would still feel the same way I did before the split (angry at said person.) I’ve also experienced this feeling where I zone out, almost like I’m high (sorry I don’t know the term), which is something i’ve never felt before up until a few months ago. In some way the feelings of extreme guilt were present from a young age but not nearly as prevalent as they are now. it now causes panic attacks. so I guess my question is, do symptoms get worse over time or is it because I wasn’t consciously aware and if it’s because I was unaware, why wasn’t I ?