I hate life, i was undoubtedly dealt a super shitty hand, i just want a friend, im so lonely and hurt. The reason why my life is shitty is of my mental disabilities and illness’s. I have autsim, adhd, 3 other learning disabilities, ocd, and anxiety. The one that takes the cake is my schizoaffective bipolar disorder. Shizoaffective has made me life a nightmare. The reason why im so sad is my schizoaffective disorder, it has ruined my life. I hallucinate awful things. I thought there was a skinwalker after me, and i would hear growls. I also think my house is haunted. Other minor things too that arent too bad. The other part about this is im bipolar also. I have extreme mood change. When im manic i do illegal shit, and become a total dick. When im depressed i wanna kill myself, and ill just cry all day. My parents have told everyone about my disorders and i get treated like dogshit. Ive made my family severally depressed with all my psychotic behavior. My ex left me andI made her serverally depressed with my psychotic behavior. Ive lost all my friends. i also get no empathy. My parents say “its not that bad, the kid down the street failed highschool” un fucking believable. Dont tell me to therapy either ive tried for 3 years and it didnt help. Medication also just makes me into a zombie that cant enjoy life. The worst part about this is, im stuck this way….