Currently: 

My bf and I have been together for 5 yrs and have a 2 yr old daughter.. Lately, I can tell he is tired of my behavior but continues to stay, making things somewhat worse..

Most of the times that we argue now, he doesn’t beg for my attention or worry about me being upset as much as he use to? It makes me assume irrational things which cause my anger to escalate. It is so weird I don’t even know how to word it.

Things have been so tough for us. In every. single. aspect. I worry I have too became just another “problem” to him. 

In any other situation this would’ve caused me to get very angry causing me to make things worse than they already are, but tonight.., I stepped outside.. it’s raining so that’s helped calm myself a lot… I’m just sad. I’m sad because I know I have ruined the love we once genuinely shared..