I feel really terrible about this, but I almost wish my family didn't care about me? I just want to stop hurting and living, yet I feel like I can't do anything because anytime I think about actually going through with it, I just feel so guilty. But I am just so tired. 

I don't know. I really love them and appreciate them, but I just feel like it would be "easier" for them and me if they didn't love me. I feel like all I do is cause them pain and I am a burden on them, even if they don't think that way. 

Does anyone else feel like this at all?