i feel so worthless, i was playing this video game with my friends and even in the fucking game i felt left out like irl how pathetic.. i have this thing where i have to appear “perfect” around others because i feel like that’s the only way i’ll be accepted or liked and if i do a mistake or embarassed myself in anyway i literally want to kill myself because of it i think this is a symptom of my social anxiety disorder but god it fucking sucks i feel so shitty i wish i could just stop caring