I’m stuck in what seems like an endless loop of feeling overwhelmed but also underwhelmed, my emotions are going full speed while I feel nothing, I’m excited but also don’t care I feel stuck while also feeling limitless I feel like I can never enjoy the present cause I’ve already mourned it’s end. I want to enjoy my parents company but all I can think of is when they won’t be there anymore and it’s only sapping what time I have left with them. I feel the need to be alone while wanting to be surrounded. Everything seems mundane and I want it to end