I’ve had a horrendous time recently with a best friend becoming sexually abusive. I’m completely spiralling and I’ve basically lost all of my friends because my situation is too much for them to deal with. I’ve got a driving test this week and I just know that if I fail then I’m going to attempt again. I just don’t get to be the one in control of it. It’s like someone else takes over and does it for me. I really don’t want to do it but I’ve been in that situation before and I know there’s nothing I can do to stop myself. I don’t know what to do. Failing my driving test will be the complete last straw. I’m already drinking/SH/ED to cope. I. Just. Can’t. Cope. Anymore.