A brief recap: I transitioned off my meds in late February because, frankly, I was foolish. I listened to advice I should not have taken but it's on me that I did it. It was a spiral of anxiety, anger, broken relationships and sliding into darkness until October. The death of a beloved cat really triggered me to do something so I went to the doctor and got put back on a regimen of Citalopram (generic Celexa).

I'm now at the two month mark and things are noticeably improved enough for me to see it in myself. People around me have also noticed the difference (much to their relief). I feel more confident in doing things, more able to deal with stress and less prone to angry or dark thoughts. The world doesn't seem as sinister anymore. I even reached out to someone who I hurt and have begun repairing a friendship. My workplace is being handled by me better especially a difficult coworker who causes trouble for everyone; I can even deal with them better.

It isn't perfect. I still get triggered when my "rules for life" get broken by others. Weird things like sticking to the order of a queue or which side of the sidewalk/escalator they stand on. My triggers are always about the way I think people should behave to be more efficient. That said, I'm working on keeping my mouth shut because I still get very verbal about my displeasure. Progress.