Does anyone feel like they are always living in a dream sort of thing. You experience feelings at lesser depths  and feel like you are thickskinned no matter how much people advice i resort to your old habits. Dont misunderstand me: You have no issues sympathising with others but just cant feel emotions like you used to. You know where this is going but you want to stop but cant. Its like a dream you would like to wake up from. You know whats right deep within but cant seem to actually do it. Sometimes, you are a coward and you can do little about it. 

Once you leave your home, you enter a completely new world but it gets worse. You cant study like you used to and have absolutely terrible memory. You cant even fold a pice of paper right and cant do simple tasks without getting sneers from your friends for things you cant comprehend. You think slow, really slow. 

Once you enter the house the panicky feeling goes away while its monotonous downs for the rest of the day doing nothing productive.