Never for a day in my life have u truly been happy,ever since childhood my family was abusive,they never loved me,my mom had abandoned me since 4.Nobody in my family liked me because i developed slowly.I was bullied through childhood ruthlessly, physically beaten for being a little different.Nobody ever took pity on me or tried to help me,never had a real relationship.People on the internet tell me theres gonna be happy days but i doubt it.There wont be happy days,every day i spend here on this earth is misery and unbearable.It feels like im cursed,like my life is a tragic movie directed by some sick bastard who wants to see me suffer.Thats the best way i could describe it.My heart is beating so fast right now from the anxiety,all that are in my head are sad thoughts,im just sobbing,i try so hard for people to like me but fail,nobody likes me or wants to be friends.I haven't gotten a hug in years.The unbearable crushing weight of this loneliness and regret is too heavy to bear sometimes.