with borderline and i searched it up on the net but I don't really have a fear of abandonment?? 
I did until a year ago but i worked on myself really hard and don't really have it anymore, at least I don't think so. When someone doesn't show interest in me i immediately lose all the interest i have in them. I do have quick mood changes but it's mainly other people (my old parents and my "bf" who aren't really stable themselves) who notice it and tell me, but i feel stable when I'm with ppl, i have "anger attacks" and panic attacks mostly when I'm alone with my thoughts. I don't think it's strange feeling bad and wanting to feel better and pushing away negative thoughts for the rest of the day after getting it all out.
honestly i think i was misdiagnosed and have psychotic depression or sum, I'm just really depressed and have "psychosis cycles" i dunno how to call it I'm not trying to diagnose myself, just trying to explain what i feel.
also my psychiatrist is a narcissistic asshole who thinks her method is always the right one, i had others who were great and understood me, this one just thinks she's always right and always tries to make me feel bad and small. Like she just stares at me im the eyes in silence nodding when I'm nervous and don't know what to say and she knows it makes me feel bad. She also makes very long and confusing speeches and I really can't believe she's so stupid she can't understand that it pushes me off track and makes me feel bad for having a short attention span and bad memory, so she must do it on purpose. I can't change psychiatrist righ now, she's a state provided one and I can't have another free one but my therapist (she's an angel, bless her) said that she will get me an appointment with a private one that she's heard good things about.
Love my therapist, she's the best person I've ever known and the cutest.