I keep having feelings of dread wash over me tonight. That little voice telling me that I am a burden on everyone, and even when I keep it together for a while, I always fuck it up in the end some how. I think of how no one ever messages me first because they actually miss me, I am the one trying always to keep myself from messaging people too much. It just becomes so obviously one sided. 
I know my weird feelings are mostly all in my head. But I just can't shake it. I just feel so lonely and so unhappy and I wish I felt like there was anyone in my life that genuinely enjoys my company.

Thanks for listening.