For about 6 years now I have avoided going to the doctor for any type of medical treatment because I have this persistent delusion that I will be cloned and locked up forever, long story short. But I hit a manic phase recently and made my first gynecologist appointment, but that phase is over and now I’m freaking out and my appointment is Monday. I’m sending myself into panic attacks thinking this will be the end of my life. Does anyone else do this or have any advice on how to control this?