My fp was my boyfriend of two years. We’ve been off and on and between dating I’ve dated other people, but even then we’ve never not talked or been friends despite how painful it was for both of us. Two months ago, he cut all contact and I tried so hard to get him back and spammed him with messages. I begged for him back, even if we’re just friends. He texted me the other day for the first time in weeks and I tried to bargain with him again. He told me he felt like he was isolating himself from the world for me, not living to his full potential. That broke my heart that he felt that way. I never asked him to give up his freedom for me. He refuses to be friends or be with me again and has cut all contact again. My heart hurts, everything reminds me of him. I can’t stop thinking about him and all the time we spent together. The inside jokes. Everything. Last time we were broken up, he told me that we were meant to be and that we “always come back to each other” and that he never feels like himself when he’s without me. I’m just wondering, should I really move on for good? And how should I do that? I already blocked his number and all my social media is blocked on his accounts. But part of me is still hoping that this is temporary because we’ve been through this before, but he’s always been the one “chasing” me, not that it took much chasing. He’s never shown disinterest in me and this is different than how things usually are. I feel for him, I know being with me is difficult but we were supposed to be there for each other through the good and bad. I feel like I’ll never love another person and if I do, it won’t be the same way I love him. Part of me also doesn’t want to start over from scratch with someone else, so there’s also that lol.