The constant mania and shift in my moods 

One hour I feel like i am so hot and handsome then an hour later I feel ugly as shit 

Especially when I look on tik tok and see tons of better looking guys and girls
And i see all the attention they are getting and all the girls that want them

And i am reminded that I’ll never have that sort of attention and I’ll never have a girlfriend bro

I am planning on ending my life

I’ve never had close friends

I fucked it up with a girl too

I have attachment issues so I developed feelings for her despite only talking to her for three days and made the mistake of telling my friends and asking if she liked me and she said she doesn’t know
But now she doesn’t even like me anymore I think because she doesn’t text me anymore at all bro ever since she found out i told people we were talking 

She was perfect bro

I hate myself 

I am giving her space though

But i digress, I’m just tired of the constant shift in my personality

Im tired of looking at my face in the mirror constantly

I hate myself even when I’m happy i still know deep down that i hate myself

Hence why i rely on others for love

Im a loser compared to other people I haven’t accomplished something big in my life ever

I take pictures of myself thinking I’m so hot and then i look at them in my camera roll and delete them as fast as possible before I can see how hideous I am

Also please don’t give me sympathy and tell me white lies I know you don’t think I’m attractive for you’ve never seen me