I am starting to become scared of myself. I have suffered from depression for years and years but it was mostly a functional depression that I could hide, at least in public. I am going through some horrible grief though now which had me not getting out of bed and barely eating for weeks, but I am back to college and being fake polite, fake smiling, fake everything…

Now though I am becoming much worse at faking it. And I’ve started snapping at everything. I left a hysterical, furious voicemail at the doctor’s office because they sent my order in wrong 3 times. I’ve broken doors around the house…A family member went back to binge drinking and hiding alcohol so I kicked their door in trying to get to the booze so I could pour it out. I’ve never acted this erratically before. 

Has anyone else’s depression morphed into red hot anger? I go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds. I don’t understand why this is happening to me. :(