I have long suspected that BPD may attribute to some of the struggles I face in day to day life. 
I finally saw a psychiatrist and they affirmed this. 

I had spent so long wanting a diagnosis to help me make sense of myself, and now that I got it, I feel like maybe I am a phoney who is just dramatic, and attention seeking so I tricked him into giving this diagnosis. 

What I thought would help me, has actually just left me feeling shitty about myself and convinced I am a bad person because I led him to believe I have it and he is going to find out I don’t which would affirm I am a horrendous person who is manipulative and attention seeking.

Did anyone have a similar experience to this following diagnosis? I liked the idea of a diagnosis much more before I got one. Now I just feel weird and fake. 