When I (24F) was first put on medications for depression, they made everything much worse. I'm talking suicide attempts, hospitalizations, etc. Because of this I am terrified to change my meds in any way. 

I am not suicidal or depressed anymore and I rarely have any anxiety. I do have intense episodes of paranoia and rage. I also am confused a significant amount of the time. I forget really common things. This happens frequently with things I know I should remember. When I forget, I can picture what I am talking about in my mind, but the word refuses to come to me. I have to use hand gestures and attempt to describe what I mean. 

I can't make logical conclusions that were really easy for me previously. This doesn't really affect my everyday life, it's just really frustrating. I used to be able to understand new ideas or what people were saying really easily. I try to pretend like I follow what people are saying, but I think they can tell, because they've started really spelling things out for me.

I can't figure out if a lot of my memories, especially recent ones, are real or just made up in my mind. I feel like there is a constant fog in my mind, like that feeling you get after a really hard and long test. 

For others on medication, are these normal side effects? Should I tell my psychiatrist? I feel like they don't affect my ability to function that much, I'm just worried I'll get worse or have permanent mental damage. But again, I'm terrified to have any change to my medication, and maybe I'm just making a big deal out of really common symptoms.