For a while I felt good and was productive. But past week or so I have just felt awful. I can't do anything. I am jobless and I need to get employed soon. I wish I had motivation to do things. I think about doing it and for some reason I feel dread. Why? I feel like I can't do it. Everyone else is working hard. But I feel alone. Maybe I'm afraid I won't get a good result. But I also just can't find the motivation to do things. Someone asked me to send them something 3 weeks ago to help with job stuff and I haven't even managed to do that. I will do one thing in the day, and I feel like I just need to curl up into a ball. Haven't even showered or brushed my teeth everyday.