My fp has triggered me repeatedly throughout our relationship despite knowing my triggers. I have explained BPD, my triggers and why i react the way i do to certain triggers. I also gave them extra resources (videos, articles, blogposts that resonate with how i feel things). They have told me they understand and that they would try to help me but they’ve never actually done anything to help, and when i remind them that they aren’t really changing (in terms of triggering me, i have never asked them for anything apart from respecting my triggers as i strongly believe that they don’t owe me anything) they seem to repeat the same thing every time, stating how they don’t know what to do (i’ve told them multiple times how they can help and if they can’t then all they would need to do it tell me they need space, which they never did even after reassuring me that they would if they needed time apart). They also made me feel like i had to apologise for being mentally ill. Whenever i would breakdown or get upset they would leave for several hours and only would respond when i begged them to, even then they would be very dismissive and change the subject. They were very confusing they would reassure me that they were there to support me however they can and that they wanted me to get better but never actually did anything they said and would get defensive and say they’ve done everything they can when i call them out. They have never apologised for triggering me repeatedly, the only way they would apologise was by saying “i’m sorry i made it seem that way / you feel that way”. Was it my fault for breaking down often when they triggered me? When they left they made it seem like i was at fault and i’m starting to believe it as well. They would always say something supportive and do the complete opposite while knowing it made me upset.