
I (15) have massive insecurities about how my face looks even tho I’ve had lots of people who have had crushes on me and I’ve never been called unattractive but I CAnt  stop constantly filming myself to see what I look like and my camera fills up so fast so I use Snapchat instead bht it still takes up slightly less storage and my phone fills up so fast because I take like 100 videos a day and in every video deprnding on the lighting or angle I seem to look complexity different to me and in the mirror I look better most of the time but I look like different people in likr every photo to me. So I don’t even know what I actually look like I wish I could see myself through other peoples eyes so I know what I ljooked like. And it’s even worse with masks because for the past two years I havnt been worrying about how I look but soon they will be gone in schools and that terrifies me. I never take it off at lunch outside when my friends do and today we got food from a restaurant and we all went to eat it outside and it was a populated area and Obviouslt we had to take off our masks and I jsut couldn’t do it, I waited until we were at a clothing store wnd I asked to try something on and jsut te jt there. It’s getting to be a serious problem and it’s causing me so much stress and especially since restriction will probably be lifted soon and it also makes me think im fat even tho others say im too skinny so I starve myself and my adhd meds make me have no appetite so it makes it easier and I only eat a small dinner for the whole day because it makes me think I’ll look better but I don’t think I’ll ever get over this and it’s stressing me out so much all the ti