For the most part I am very self aware. I wouldn’t say I have a severe condition but it is getting rather annoying. I’m a 30male and have had anxiety for as long as I can remember, insomnia the whole 9 yards. Now as an adult it has become sporadically irrational and I’m certain I am causing pain to myself.  

Currently I have a lingering chest pain on my left side, going off and on for over 6months. My first thought is “oh no smoking weed has put a hole in my lung (Irrational I wouldn’t be able to breathe). I’m 90% sure it’s nothing because this pain like the other before will completely subside if my mind is occupied.  

I have had many irrational fears over the years and have noticed just by having bad thoughts I can create pain in my body (ears,stomach, chest, testicular anything I can imagine) that literally didn’t exist moments prior to the thought. This pain can last months and quite honestly feels real and might even end real  be due to muscle contractions . I’m well aware ppl have it way worse and I am also thankful that I am self aware of it. But that’s the part I dont understand. I am fully aware it’s all in my head, knowing that why can’t I get it out of my head?

Not 100% sure what I expect from writing this….but anyone else lol, tips?