My anxiety is so much more manageable during the day. At night it’s like my thoughts race 100 mph and my body is overcome with fear and adrenaline. My boyfriend sleeps peacefully next to me while i feel like my heart is beating out of my chest and i can’t breath. I always go into manual breathing mode and feel like i’m choking on the air that’s keeping me alive. And when I finally start to drift asleep my body jolts me awake over and over again until my exhaustion takes over. I can’t even cry about it anymore.