everytime i cry, lash out, or express intense emotions in any way the reasons for it are literally incomprehensible for other people. it's abstract for them. i'm always "overreacting". they think i'm delusional. my loved ones would never tell me that because they try to be supportive but i can feel it. i've spent hours explaining my thought processes, (unhealthy) coping mechanisms, why i never "learn from my mistakes" with no success and honestly i'm giving up now. i'm not blaming them of course, i am fucking crazy after all. but it feels so incredibly alienating. no matter how much they tell me we're in this together, i'll always be alone with this.