I think I am going/have been going through my longest episode. Everytime i think I am feeling better, my mood ends up changing and I start thinking I’m better off alone and that I just want to run away from everybody and start over. I was feeling alright then I just picked up my kids and I think they sort of triggered me or something because now I don’t want to be around anyone and I think I’m going to stay in a hotel tonight. I don’t even think my husband if 8 years wants to deal with me and my brain problems anymore. I hate it here and I don’t know what to do or how to stop thinking this way. I started Lamictal on Monday and I just need this to kick in before I go insane. Sorry just needed to vent…