I've got no outlet for venting or advice, I'm so fucking alone. Just finished high school and everyone I knew moved so far out of state. I have no friends stating at home, my parents don't even slightly understand my condition, and my therapist doesn't want to see me anymore. I'm fucking breaking down I'm cutting again and punching holes through the drywall. Covid making me go to stupid fucking online school so I sit in my room for hours everyday staring at this screen and I can barely make myself leave or eat or socialize or fucking anything. I'm so off putting, got no social skills, and I'm withdrawaling so bad now that I'm trying to stop smoking. I need reasons to not just off myself. I wanna feel normal. I want friends. I want the bad feelings to stop. I'm wasting away. I have nothing left and I want to die