I always wanted to be lovers with my friends. It's because I feel safe when we know each other. It's because I don't know what's love. I just fucking get bored quickly with my partners. I didn't even have a relationship that lasted for 7 days. I don't want to be alone. Is it that impossible to come over when we want, love each other, know our everything, cuddling, sexual things etc? I hate being just "a friend". I want to be more than that. I want to be mean more than "a friend".