So with my diagnosis I have begun to think about my life. I know that just because I feel a certain way, that doesn't make it true. I have always been worried that people don't like me and are talking behind my back but I know that at least some of it is my paranoia. I have accepted this. My issue comes when I think of my mother. I had always felt that she was harder on me than my sisters and she was mean to me. How do I know if she really was or if she only is now due to my mental health issues and my life being slightly disappointing? How do I trust myself? I keep going in circles but get nowhere. Advice much appreciated!