Hi disclaimer I'm not diagnosed with BPD but until I went through something very traumatic last year I started showing a lot the diagnosis criteria,  I hope to get diagnosed once I'm 18. (I personally think I have Quiet BPD but I don't like to self dignose)

 Now, I had this fwb who is my fp, however I had to end things because it was hurting me emotionally, I realized how clingy I was being and never getting any energy back, and I had to end things, even though it hurt like hell. Even though he never used to text me back in the first place, not texting him hurts like hell and now it's dawned on me he's probably my current fp. And I can't get him out of my mind or heart because I know the situation is bad. All I can do is kay in bed and think of how it ended and how I can bo linger talk to him for at least a good few months. I don't eat, I dont sleep, I stopped doing my chores, ans texting all my other friends baxk. All I can do is wait until he goes active on Instagram and hope he text me even though he would leave me on seen. I miss him a lot, and how it was in the beginning. It's affecting my daily life. I thought ending things would make it better so my entire day wouldn't be ruined by his emotions towards me but it made it so much worse.