I tried to take my life for the 7th time this year last month. It resulted in a hospital stay, two trips in an ambulance and another stay in the psych ward. I’ve been out for a while now, my memory of my attempt is hazy and I’ve gone from absolutely destroying my body through self harm to now destroying my body through self harm AND smoking. My bulimia is worse and I stopped taking my medication. My other mental disorders are through the roof and I feel like I am going to explode.