Depression free for 4 months, longest time I’ve ever been in”remission”. Two big fights with my boyfriend in three weeks though and suddenly I just want to end it all. He just left after a horrible talk that got nowhere and i have intrusive thoughts about putting a bullet in my head. I don’t want to but I do. I would not wish a broken heart on anyone. I feel like my life was a genetic mistake and I should undo everything that happened with me