Could have been a breakup in 2018.
Could have been my dad almost dying, twice 2019.
Could have been COVID.
Could be that my best friend is about to move away in a month.

Maybe it's all of this. Maybe it's some. I don't know what I'm doing with myself anymore. I work but I have lost my drive. I have friends but they all live so far away. I feel sad a lot. I cry a lot. I don't know what to do with my time. I don't know how to stop crying. I don't know what to do. I have a life coach that I see every other week but it's not helping like it used to. 

My best friend of 20 years is about to move a few hours away to be closer with her family. I want to support her and I do support her but thinking about her moving his created more hopelessness and sadness in me than ever before.

I might just be rambling but I didn't know where else to go.