When i was suicidal and depressed through my teen years for like 8 years(im 19 soon) i always thought the saying "it gets better" was a huge cliche. Many depressed people can relate to this. I spent my time crying myself to sleep, thinking id never be loved, i had no purpose and no friends meanwhile i watched my old friends on social media hanging out in clubs, going out together and that made me feel worse. I put up with name calling from my family and struggled a lot with body image and loving myself. I had such bad suicidal thoughts, id think about how i was gonna end my life and i self harmed a few times. Until a few months ago. 

I started to accept the fact that a lot of people my age were way ahead of me; having friends, boyfriends, things to do, jobs, purposes, driving already and i wasnt, but then i realised - i am not any less worthy of self love and being happy than they are just because i havent accomplished as much as they have yet and i have social anxiety. Instead of beating myself up for not having done as much as those around me, i started celebrating small accomplishments, like making my bed, brushing my teeth and hair, looking after myself, even going out to get groceries with my sister. I was happiest when i was doing simple things like gaming or going out to buy food or look at clothes because i felt more normal.

I havent been suicidal or depressed really since like last summer - all because i changed my perspective. People think youre only worthy of celebrating yourself if you achieve something big like getting a house or a car or a relationship but i celebrate my little steps like going outside, going gym and cleaning my room which wouldve been overwhelming a year ago. I never thought id make it to 19 but here i am. One of the main things that helped was not letting peoples nasty comments get to me and instead being secure in knowing all of my great qualities and who i really was - their opinions started to bounce off of me instead of getting in my head which surprised me cause normally id think about it for weeks until it became a permanent thing that i thought about myself

As for now, i dont have friends and im still living with a shitty parent, but i know that in the future things will be different. Theyre already starting to change. I will have a apartment and my own things and be financially stable and have friends. I just have to go through this shitty part first. So dont give up because i almost did and if i did, i wouldve missed out on the chance to be happy and take care of my mind and body. Everyone take care of yourself. One day youll look back and wonder why you were ever worried. You will be fine :)