Hey guys. So I’ve been severely depressed for the past months - I am pretty sure I still am… but like, I just felt a super weird switch come on, not mania, but like I just woke up? My head is super clear all of the sudden. I’m not tired even though I took my benzo (prescribed for sleep). And I don’t know if I just dissociated the whole month or what but it’s like I’m looking at everything with fresh eyes right now. And a lot of memories are coming back from before my depressive episode. And like even from before that. And I’m just crying because I feel like I just came out of a coma and I barely remember anything from these past months. I do experience dissociation so perhaps this is what that is? But I didn’t feel dissociated 24/7, more like a zombie with anhedonia. And like I’m looking at everything in my room, the mess and the pills and everything and just thinking, what the fuck?? I just feel so confused. Not like I’ve lost touch with reality but… like I was dreaming and now I’m awake? I don’t know :( Is this like the switch before mania or just a weird fluke? I’ve never experienced this before, I’m sorry if this makes no sense. Maybe it will be gone in the morning and I’ll be back to depressed