I've always felt like in my core I'm incapable of feeling anything for 99.99% of people, except always that one single chosen one who I start obsessing over. I'm able to pass perfectly as just any other person when it comes to surface level socializing - I know small talk, I know how to be funny and pretty charismatic - but I always end up "betraying" people who just think I'm cool and are interested in me, because I genuinely feel like there's some missing part of me, the part that would make me able to connect to others. Surprisingly enough I never feel lonely, at least not when I have my FP. 

I've gone through years of therapy and "learning to make friends" but it has only made me worse, like I'm being forced to become something that I'm genuinely not able to be. It just makes me volatile and violent like some cornered animal, and I end up manipulating and using all the "extra" people in my life, and when those people leave or tell me I hurt them I very rarely feel remorse over it. I've always just felt like this is who I am, like I was always meant to be this way for some reason and it's completely okay.

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Do any of you experience this as well? What are your thoughts on this?