Hi. This is my first post here, and honestly the first time I’ve ever opened up with how I’ve been feeling essentially my entire life. I’ve always been the quiet one in my classes, socially anxious, low self-esteem, lack confidence. I just chucked it up to being a little shy but it’s whatever, it’s just my personality. That was able to get to through my life up until this point. I am 22, just graduated from a huge university and made maybe just 1 friend my entire time there. I am now working full time and that is when I had a realization that I have been suppressing my emotions my entire life. I never know what to say to people and every conversation I have, no matter who it is. It just seems I can never get the words out. My mind is just empty. I am so sick of feeling this way. I feel i have lost many friends as I’d rather just sit at home alone rather than go out and be social. Only because i am afraid of looking awkward or weird because I don’t know what to say. I am so over it, it is so debilitating and stressful to deal with. I plan on working with a psychiatrist ASAP. I strive to become bold and confident. To anyone who had been in a similar situation , i am curious to know your  story as well. And also, has going to therapy/ anxiety medication help with confidence? Thank you for whoever took the time this read this it means more than you know.