I have been struggling for a couple of years because I have been very different from different people.   
I have what I guess you call different lives because of how I act with different people. I talk to many people at school differently than others. Acting differently around different people has had negative impacts on me and the people I know. I'm sick of the fact that I act differently around different people and I don't know how to help this. I can't do anything at this point because I harmed (mentally) people around me and I hate myself for it.