The last few weeks have been terrible. It’s like a dull knife being twisted inside my side. My friends keep pissing me off, I get reminded that I’m nobody to anybody when I’m at work, I feel ugly, my relatives keep giving me headaches and I am 🤏this close to failing one of my uni classes because the teacher is in her own la la land. The craziest part is that I haven’t had a full on mental breakdown in a while. Disappointment after disappointment after disappointment and I’m just numb to my failures. I think the fact that I expect absolutely nothing from myself has finally manifested after years of thinking it. 
I’m either going to mentally snap or die on the inside.