hi i have BPD and im really codependent and i'm trying so hard not to be. i become self aware and then do it subconsciously. i'm getting so frustrated with myself. i'm currently getting verbally abused by mom when i moved back in with her and partner shows very little interest in me. i feel like i am going crazy. how to i regulate? how do i not reach out? how do i not text her asking her to help? how do i gain self control? i feel like i've tried everything. i'm on seroquel and wellbutrin xl. medication feels like nothing is working. idk if my mental state is just really bad. the place i'm at makes me feel so sad and lost and i'm in bed 24/7. WHAT DO I DO I WANNA CRY SO BAD.