So following a referral from my GP I saw a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with BPD after meeting him.

Going Into the session I was already worried that's what I would come out with as my mum most probably has it and my counsellor had mentioned it but said it's more likely complex PTSD. 


After telling some family and friends they questioned it because I don't tend to lash out but instead internalise.

Anyway his plans for me are to attend a DBT day program at the hospital and find a therapist to do ACT with as well as continue seeing him.

SOO MUCH THERAPY HAHA. 

He gave me a brochure to read too and all the mention of suicide and self harm was scary. I dissociate more than erupt like that I guess. 

Anyway thanks y'all.