I was diagnosed with BPD and have recently gotten a new therapist. We've gone over things and now it's essentially that BPD is the closest diagnoses. I don't fit exactly into the box but I do have many of the traits.

Anyway, I'm finding new depths of pain surrounding my desires to have certain kinds of relationships. First with my former partner who dropped me then ghosted me even after saying she'd contact me. I so want to have her in my life again, not even as a partner even, just in my life at this point. But nope, not happening. Then another girl who was there as support briefly after who I quickly became attached to. Had a conversation with her and essentially I can not be what I want to be with her.

In both cases my feelings are still there, strong, and active. Keep having pretty much intrusive thoughts about trying to figure out some way to make things work out even though everyday it's clearer and clearer that it's impossible. But my desire has barely faded.

What is your take on this?