How do you deal with a lot of stress? BPD is a rollercoaster in of itself, but other issues on top adds another level. Within the span of like 6 months: I broke 3 phones, my Mac, my desktop, my dog died, my car broke down 3 times, I lost my job, I got in a car wreck and almost died, broke a bone, have a shit ton of debt and possibly charges because of the wreck (wasn’t a DUI before anyone assumes, I don’t get intoxicated and drive), and more. 

I disassociate out of some of it, but then intrusive thoughts makes the stuff come back. Every second of car wreck replays in my head over and over randomly. BPD makes and trauma makes me want to self mutilate, but I know once I start I won’t stop. 

How can I better manage when life constantly fucks me? All of these were accidental and were pretty much unavoidable. 

I feel like I have nothing, I have no job, no place to start, no diploma, nothing. I still need to get my GED because mental health made me leave high school. 

I take very good care of myself; I keep my body in good shape, eat plant based, stay away from any toxic chemicals, practice meditation and yoga, I don’t drink or smoke, and other stuff, in case anyone asks about other factors. I try to give myself the best chance I can. I feel like I can’t give up if I don’t give my body a fair chance at working optimally. 

How do I even begin to pick my life back up. I have to file bankruptcy now. I went from having a near perfect credit score to being bankrupt. That alone bothers the fuck out of me. I have $40, debt from the wreck, and BPD fucking with me. I haven’t given up and I still want to fight, but most of the time it feels like it’s not worth it.