I’m brand new to all this but saw how supportive this sub was so thought I’d try this out!!!

I’ve been diagnosed with BPD in the last year or so. I’ve always know something was up and that I would often get overly attached to people, terrified that they’d leave me, lash out, hate myself, cry a bunch AND SO ON!

I haven’t been on any prescribed medication to really help me with BPD specifically (not sure if one exists or anything) only a couple of anti-depressants that have done little to nothing to affect my mood. 

Over the last few months I started using THC edibles (usually relatively low doses of 5mg-10mg). And I found it completely flips my life over. Suddenly I feel happy! I have the energy to create things, talk to people, I understand people’s points of view, I recognize my mistakes and bad habits. And my perspective on life is fresh and new feeling. But I’m high...

I guess what I’m wondering is if I should perceive that perspective when I’m high as what life should be interpreted as? Just happy and full of energy to try things. Should I consider these edibles as some sort of stabilizers? Or is that not the right way to deal with things?