I'm going through depression. Now I'm just 14 and some people say I might be "faking" it but I've had trauma, I cry too frequently and have no self love. I have even tried hurting myself so no, I can't take this anymore. My friends, they were nice but this thing called "true friend" doesn't exist in my life. I've lost trust in everyone. I hate going to school because everyone is just so discouraging and at the beginning, I was so bright and scored so well but they discouraged me. I'll probably change schools next year, my parents are already talking about it after seeing me cry so much. Now I won't party with my friends anymore, won't go out to play and just be at home all day. I have a very introverted personality while others around me are extroverted. I'm very quite, wnd I don't think I can be like them. I am a person of silent nature, I can't change myself to fit in.  In 2020 and 2021, I kept myself entertained by videogame and the internet. I think I'll again drown myself in this digital world. It just feels more safe :/

I've gone through bullying, and I can't bare this anymore. My parents told me to block my so called "friends" and I did. Hopefully cutting off negative people really helps me.