I don’t even know what’s wrong with me tonight I just feel so overwhelmed and sad and just depressed tonight. I’m crying for the fed one time in like 1 year

So many things are happening today and right now and I just feel like I can’t handle it. I’ve been doing so much better lately but today has been terrible and it feels like I’m lost, and all my progress is gone


I’m just gonna list some things:


I’m in my second month of college, that alone is stressful 

I’ve been trying to battle my anxiety, and it’s been getting much better recently 

I felt super sick today, and I’m scared to get sick before my hockey starts. Plus I got the feeling of “jello legs” again today, I haven’t had that in almost a year and last time I had it the doctor told me it could be from anxiety and that’s when I learned I had it. The weka legs affected my hockey so much and I’m scared it will happen again this year

9 hours of class today

Part of my anxiety is being very secure about how I look, especially my hair. Today I woke up late so I had to wear a hat all day and I hate having to do that

My friend calling me awkward today, I’ve known that for a while but have kind of been denying it, it hurt to hear that. I want to work on it

I have a midterm tomorrow that is huge and long and very important but I just can’t study and focus cuz I’m too anxious 

My balls have been hurting recently, I’m worried it’s affecting my sex drive but I’m scared to go to a doctor

One of the main points of my anxiety is worrying ABOUT my anxiety. I can never stop worrying about if my anxiety is good or bad in that very moment 

I told my friend I was too busy to call him tonight, he got mad and since I was in a bad mood I was mean to him. When we call all we ever do is talk about him and his problems and his stuff. I never get to talk about me even when something huge happens in my life

My girlfriend helps me a lot with worrying too much tho, but today I was so worried about answering her all the time that I was on my phone all class and didn’t focus

I didn’t work out today

So insecure and stressed about being awkward, boring, or “not cool”. I know that sounds so dumb but my girlfriend always says in such a nice guy and so sweet, which to me sounds boring. and friends call me awkward, I overthink that cuz I wanna be cool and carefree. When I worry about not being awkward I get more awkward

I know I should go to a therapist for this. But any more tips on how to deal with this? I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now just so scared and trapped and I feel like I’ll never get over this and back to being happy 

Please help