Because of my mental illness, I am typically pretty debilitated, when it comes to making any social plans. But this year was different, I wanted to try to go somewhere and get excited about the new year. But it turned out to be awful, the party, the people, my mood. I really tried and it was awful, it took everything in me not to have a public panic attack and leave the function immediately. I feel like this is a sign that my year will be full of more uncomfortable situations like this. I’m worried that because this turned out so bad, that it’s going to cause me to be super negative about this year from the start.