Hey, I'm pretty much at a rock-bottom low point and trying to figure out what to do with myself. I've had recurring depression for a long time and this is probably my most severe episode. In 2018, I had an agoraphobic depressive period very similar to this current one, and what I wanted desperately was a depression "rehab", somewhere I could go that would feed me, structure my day, give me therapy, get me around some other people, and just generally break me out of the loops I'm in that are exacerbating my illness. Of course, the only places I could find were prohibitively expensive.

A few years later and back in the same spot, I have better insurance and am very privileged to be in a better financial situation. There are a few programs I have found that I could swing financially, though I would likely have to take on some debt, and I already have a fair bit. The programs I am most interested in are farm/nature based nonprofit programs ([Spirit of Gheel](http://spiritofgheel.org/), [Hopewell Farm](https://www.hopewellcommunity.org)) and a few similar ones. 

If I don't attend a program like this, I plan to sign up for a remote mental health IOP that meets 3-4 days a week. I am already in therapy with an awesome person and have a new psychiatrist appointment set up next week, so I have some support. My partner is trying to take care of me but I'm very low-functioning right now and feeling more and more like a burden. 

I would love to hear any of your experiences or thoughts about residential psychiatric treatment, positive or negative. I am worried about spending a ton of money and exerting the huge amount of energy getting there only for it to not be effective, or to make things worse. And I'm curious about whether at-home alternatives could be just as effective.