I’ve gone as far as to seek out a dealer for a substance to end my life. I don’t intend to let my therapist know (she’s under the impression I’m doing well)

I’m increasingly annoyed with my friends as of late. People care, but when you suffer from severe trauma issues, people can just offer pity and that’s it 

I lash out and fight people online, have a bad reputation and have gotten banned in some places 

I refuse to get better only to crash over and over. I’d rather do myself and the world a favor and just…die