Lately I've been feeling empty, I was so full of energy and happiness but lately I've been feeling so low. I slept for almost 30hrs because I didn't feel like participating in life anymore. My mom had to drag me out side of my room to sit with her for a while and eat something...

I wasn't like this before, I was a very happy person and always trying to be a play maker for everyone, I would never let someone next to me be sad or quite, I'd always look for way to cheer them up. But last year I started feeling sad and losing interest in everything little by little, I only liked 1 person (my best friend) he was someone who always knew how to cheer me up and we would both go to our favourite places and sometimes do silly stuff that gets us in trouble.

Last year he sold me out (snitched) and started acting like an enemy to me, it got me into crazy problem and I got arrested. I did suffer for it and survived then got back home and we both don't roll again. He tired to apologize a couple of times and said he didn't mean to sell me out but it is what it is, I said its all in the past so he could go on and live with his self. (I forgave him)

Then I tried to move on, this year I started losing interest in everything so much that I don't even find playing games fun, parties, women, and even my very personal stuffs feel so boring. I loved sex, I loved food, I loved masturbating and smoking/drinking to getting high.

I suddenly lost interest on everything so much a girl was with me for 2 days, naked moving around my room and I could not even find any interest in touching her or talking to her, all I do is create fake scenarios in my head and live in it. This has been going on for months 

As the day goes by it tends to get worst than the previous day... 

I always come on Reddit when I can and act like everything is fine but deep down I'm not okay. I feel like leaving Reddit like I left the other sites.