The problem with having a mental health crisis is that you seemingly have to go as far as trying to kill your self for anyone to take notice or care. ‬ I just want some help from a professional and nobody seems to be able to do anything. ‪

I can’t access any DBT through my local NHS services and I’ve exhausted all of the CBT / medication / expensive private therapists which have absolutely not helped in the slightest. I need someone to talk to me about my many BPD symptoms and triggers instead of trying to treat me for depression. 

“The NICE guidance says your doctor might offer you therapy if your borderline personality disorder (BPD) causes you significant problems. This therapy should not be less than three months.The guidance says that the NHS should offer dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT) to women with BPD if they self-harm regularly.”

Great, so I actually have to self harm consistently (as much as I actually think about it perhaps) to legally be able to get therapy? I’m fucking sick of feeling this way and having constant shit relationships with everyone including myself. 

I’m sorry I’m just really not coping after yet another relationship breaking down and feeling like I’m mainly to blame, perhaps I always have been.