I'm kind of new to reddit so forgive me if I posted this is in the wrong community or reddit thingy. I just needed some help.

I gets so fidgety just thinking about applying for a job. And even when I was working, I could not sleep if my shift was the next day or during the week. I need a job so badly right now because I am seventeen and I dropped out. As dumb as it sounds, I dropped out because of anxiety and depression. I thought leaving the place I called 'hell' would give me a new start. But now I literally lock myself in my room, and avoid social interactions with anyone outside my house. 

I really thought that if I left school I could be a new person at my new job. But I was still nervous, introverted and quiet asf. What made it worse was that I wrote on my resume that I was clearly 'confident' and 'fast paced.' But I kept making my co workers angry. I want to work so bad, but I always get fidgety like I said before because I feel that I am going to go through the whole cycle again. I honestly don't know what to do. I currently have around 10 tabs open with job opportunities, but I just can't apply to any of them. I lost my first job because I never communicated with the managers which caused them to not roster me anymore. And I lost my last job because I stayed up the night before my shift, worrying and feeling sick to my stomach about the customers I had to deal with, and my co-workers who were going to possibly be annoyed of me because I am so slow. Because of this I slept in and woke up on the hour that my shift started. 

With both jobs I could tell my co-workers didn't like me. I was too quiet and I never talked to them casually. I would literally just smile and agree with what they'd say, but I don't think they liked that either because they would sometimes glare at me. I talked to my mum about how I'm shy and all she said was 'Well don't be shy.' I mean she said some other things but it was around that topic. 

I honestly don't know what else to do