I have been suffering from severe depression for over 5 years. I'm tired of taking pills and I'm so scared of what's coming…
I'm really tired of all this 

I suffer from hallucinations and I hallucinated that my father sexually abused me, which caused him to almost get arrested. I feel bad, guilty even though 2 years have passed. I am afraid of life of people and that they will hurt me, I'm afraid of being touched.. I was in an abusive relationship that lasted 3 years, he still harasses me to this day. I'm tired and I'm scared. My ex boyfriend when we were a couple used to make unfunny jokes about doxing me but now I'm scared he'll do it.. I don't want to go back to the psychiatric hospital, it scares me, It is very violent. I'm 16 years old but I really don't want to stay here, I want to escape. Now is when I wonder if life is worth living. 