(I know I shouldn't have to apologize for being "dramatic" in this subreddit - but I'm going to anyways because my anxiety always makes me feel like I'm so over the top even though my feelings are 100% genuine and real)

I have a severe problem with obsessive thoughts and behaviours. It makes me feel like a pathetic piece of shit - I wish I could stop and be able to process and analyze situations normally in a non-anxious state of mind.

So because of these obsessive tendencies, when I make posts, I do check whether or not it's been downvoted. The ones that hurt the most are the pictures I post in the selfharmpics thread. How could someone think it's okay to downvote something that is:

1) Totally acceptable and the reason for this thread being in existence

2) Posted by someone who is in so much internal pain that they resort to brutally hurting themselves to deal with that

I don't understand... I know I shouldn't take it so hard and it has probably happened to the majority of people who post on Reddit, but it honestly just makes me feel even more fucking worthless than I already know I am.

So thank you to anyone who downvotes my stuff. You're added to the long list of reasons I hate myself and this world.

I wish I could get a brain transplant.