I'm so tired of being alive. I've been dealing with depression since I was 16. I'll be 20 in two days. At first it was just me being burnt out on trying to be so good in school and live up to expectations. When my grades started to slip cause I couldn't remeber why I was even doing any of it life just went downhill. I went from being on top of everything, accounting for every second of the day to spending all day laying in bed trying not to think about how fucked my life is now. I dropped out of college my second semester of freshman year from a great school. I had the scholarships and what not not to be in debt to my eyeballs and I messed it all up I'm tired of people telling me it will get better because all that has changed from then till now is the fact I care about things a lot less. And I see no reason why people wanna be alive in the first place.