Posting this on r/bpd because it's the subreddit that I truly feel belonged.

This may be an avoidant behaviour, but everytime I receive notifications from another person, I immediately just shut myself down. I can't bring myself to be responsive.

I have friends accomponying me via Discord voice chat all day long, but I feel so.. empty. I know this is just my own internal issue, but I can't seem to bring myself forward.

When I try to be responsive, I keep imagining myself as alone. Bearing my own weights of my words alone. Receiving the responses &amp; the consequences alone. Being left with my own thoughts alone.

I wish I know what to do. Please give your best reassurance about this. Thank you.