It's a question that scares me a lot. What if all my effort IS working and this is just how life is supposed to feel? And everyone around me is just dealing much better with it? It is probably a consequence of waiting SO long for something in my head to click. And it's probably a consequence of not being able to articulate what exactly is wrong. My experiences are so similar to everyone elses and yet I feel like I'm seeing either too much or too little of the great picture. I don't know which one would be worse though.