Three years ago I got into my car and could NOT move much less back up and drive. I FELT terrified. Paralyzed. 

My commute was 25-35 minutes and my usual speed is btw 65 - 75. 

On this day, and for the next two months, I became extremely fearful of driving. My hands would sweat so much I’d have to use hand towels under them to keep me from losing grip. Same with my feet.  It was as if my hands were soaking. 

 I could not, for the life of me drive faster than 30 mph and I would be on the verge of crying all the way home.  Shallow breathing. Clearing imagining losing control. 

I saw a physiatrist.  We changed my meds. It slowly
But surely went away. 

Flash forward to this month…  I can’t even bring myself to open my laptop to work. I’ve taken two weeks off bc I cannot move. I cannot work. I stayed awake 2 full days intending get it done- to get to work.  I thought maybe If did the work while the world was asleep I could get it done. Nothing. I sat there wide awake, not able yo even look at the laptop. I’d start twitching, and daze off. 

I simply didn’t bc I couldn’t. I’m deathly afraid of something. I’m not sure what. But this is not procrastinating. It’s more.  It’s like the sudden inability drive.  Only with work. I know what to do and how to do it. I love my job. 

Also, I can’t function without Gabapentin (300 mg) and Adderall. I also take Prozac each morning. 

What is Going on?