i've been in a relationship for about 5 months now however we've known each other for 3 years. He's an amazing friend and an amazing boyfriend. I feel like no matter how hard I try to be better, my bpd is like a plague on my relationships. I always feel like something is wrong and Im constantly sabotaging our relationship. Hes well aware of my diagnosis and has even tried to do his own research in order to support me better. However, I think he's finally at his breaking point. Today he said he loves me a lot but doesn't know if this is working. He then said that after everything we've been through he should at least think about it for longer before deciding that we should break up for good. It's been a few hours and I've thought a lot about it too and I think i've come to the conclusion that if I really love him I'll let him go so he can find someone he can be in a healthy relationship with. On the other hand hes the sweetest man i've ever known and losing him would feel like the biggest mistake of my life . I'm not sure if anyone else has been in this situation but if you have i would be interested in your input. the craziest part of my bpd is that i don't even know what's real and what's just an emotional outburst. Am i letting someone I love go because it's mature or because it's an impulse move i'll regret later on?? Who knows....