Hi.  I have BPD, and diabetes.  I don't take my insulin, and haven't checked my blood sugar since I don't know when.  

I think I've always known this, but it really hit home last night when I was basically eating exclusively candy and crap, that I've been killing myself every day.  It's taking a long time, and I'll likely lose my vision or a limb before it actually works, but that's what I'm doing.  The thing is that I can't seem to want to feel any better.  I have no desire to live, and can't seem to give a shit about trying to make my life worth living.  

Any other BPD/Diabetics deal with this?  How have you been able to break the cycle?  It occurs to me that all I really have to do it just take a massive dose of insulin to make it all stop, and I'm getting to that point, if for no other reason than to stop the misery that I'm causing myself.