I haven’t ever posted to a sub that involves my personal life but I’m not sure where to turn to as I don’t want to burden my friends or family with this problem and advice so why not a bunch of strangers!

So like the title says, when someone brings up the past whether it was a happy or sad memory that they’ve had with me I always just feel like crying. Im almost positive this is an effect from my GAD that I was diagnosed with a few months ago but I’ve had this issue my entire life since I was a toddler. I have no clue why, I guess I feel insecure and upset that the memory has flown by and I never actually let the memories seep into me until I realize they’re just memories. 

I guess what triggered me writing this was that I was looking through old photos yesterday of my family with my mother and we came across a lot of photos with me and my dad, who passed away two years ago. At that time my mom and dad were not on good terms and she was both sad yet happy when he passed while I struggled immensely with it. She began to prioritize photos of my half sister (different father) way more than photos of me and honestly it hurt a lot and she skimmed over so many photos of me. Normally, I wouldn’t care because less spotlight for me is PERFECT but I broke down the minute she left the room as I just felt like she wishes she could change the past and I also wish that as well. 

Although this was a sad memory I understand it’s perfectly normal to feel upset however its not just with sad things. When my older siblings and my cousins talk about how it was growing up with me and how I was always a laughing baby I even get so sad too where I have to excuse myself to “use the bathroom” and just bawl my eyes out.

Its just so hard with this struggle and I hate always having to take a small break and leave any room or needing alone time even from any mentions of the past. Does anyone else have this problem? And if so what advice could you give me to overcome this?

TLDR; I struggle with memories that are both happy and sad, I find them sad no matter what, do any of you struggle with this and how do you find overcoming this?