i cant believe i'm looking for help here but i've pushed everyone away and.. well anyone with bpd know how FUCKING USELESS doctors, psychs, social workers are to bpd patients. im in a loop of suicidal thoughts and dreams of death. my psych often tells me my above avg iq (140. pls dont see as bragging. i wish i could be normal and think like normal people) is what stops me from being functional. the future seems bleak and society and people never cease to amaze me with how retarded they are. i need my faith restored in humanity. im looking to you...