TW suicidal ideation 

I’m packing/preparing to go to college overseas and every time there is a minor inconvenience i am on the floor sobbing within seconds. today the laundry machine wasn’t working and i damn near cancelled my flight and dropped out of college entirely. then my new sim card wasn’t working and i ended up just chewing it and breaking it. i had my roommate hide the knives because i genuinely thought i was going to try to stab myself on four different occasions today. these meltdowns last about 15-30 minutes and then i’m more or less fine and able to pick up where i left off. is this even a bpd symptom or is this moreso the crossroads of being emotionally unstable and having adhd? btw my plane takes off in ten hours, i’ve been attempting to pack for 36 hours, and i am roughly 30% done LMFAO