it’s not fun when people call you a “weirdo” in a harsh way. it’s not fun when you put in way more effort for others and do not get anything close to the same from them. i’m tired, i’m sad, and i want to be left alone, but i also don’t. i want to be comforted by someone, be told that i’m not weird by someone, and have someone who puts in the same effort as me. but that person does not exist in my life. 

i’m really tired of this.