Have had a long and nasty battle with out of control mental health issues, which have ramped up and gotten worse over the last 3.5 years (or possibly much longer)

Finally it clicked, this is mixed symptom bipolar disorder. This is what it’s been for ages now but I never clicked into it. It’s always been treated as basic depression and anxiety, which it was not. 

I went from someone who was mostly happy, to someone unrecognizable in a short matter of time. I didn’t see someone I knew in the mirror. I saw a dark soul who was tired of living. 

Finally have pinned down an amazing therapist and getting on lithium. 

Finally the voices, the psychotic, the mania, the depressive… will all calm down and I can stop feeling like I’m constantly spiralling out of control. 

My bipolar is not going to make my life hell now.