For the past two weeks, every morning, I’ve had this anxiety about some very terrible past mistakes I repeatedly committed for a few years, which I now FULLY want to leave in the past and be a completely new and improved version of myself. I ruminated too much one day and now it’s just my thoughts trying to haunt me every morning. It’s always made me have gag reflexes after eating some breakfast. I named my anxiety (and/or intrusive thoughts), Kevin. He pesters me with thoughts and memories about my past self, and he just makes me imagine my future being me relapsing back into committing those same mistakes. Even if I’ve realized how wrong they were, how naive and impulsive I was, and how much I DO NOT want to repeat them. Yet he makes me believe that it’s likely to happen regardless through him throwing images and feelings of my past. I feel if I try and ignore and just shut down his thoughts, it will only make things worse. Yet, some people tell me to just keep yourself busy and distracted and it’ll go away. I just don’t know what to think and if it really will go away if I just ignore it. I just can’t help to try and dissect it and delve into those thoughts to solve them when all it ends up doing is making me steps away from what I think could be a panic attack.