and fuck it's terrible i wanna go home 
feeling like everyone is looking at you
feeling like you are not normal, even ridiculous

sometimes it really does make me feel better tho haha no worries.. 

the last time i did it was when i passed my exam. didn't go well. 
the time before i had to go buy earbuds
and the time before i was going to a party.. didn't go well either lol

it's hard. many people outside, noises are loud and everywhere. i feel observed. 

.. maybe i just need to get used to it again.