so in july i got my birth control implant removed, nexplanon, and I've pretty much had normal periods since but every month it feels like it takes forever (although now i think my cycle is 34 days so we'll keep that in mind for next month) and i always feel like hm maybe this month ends up being the month where my pms isn't actually pms and is me pregnant instead lol and then as i wait an entire week for my period to come i just build up this thought that oh my god what if my period never comes..so then this morning at 5am, as i lay in bed waiting for my alarm to go off , I'm thinking about this whole potential timeline of things like I'm gonna have to buy a test and then I'd have to tell my bf and I'd have to do it in person and how it would probably have to be on Valentine's day because that's the next time he's coming to town for. then i think about how that would ruin Valentine's day bc I'd also have to tell him that I'm gonna probably have an abortion bc he's in school and i live paycheck to paycheck and i don't even knoe how to pay my $300 monthly loan payment and it's just not possible lol and then he resents me for it and I'm a disgrace to half the people i know but then that puts me into a whole other scenario where it's like i tell him I'm pregnant on Valentine's day and surprise i keep it and then I'm pregnant for the next 9 months while he's in undergrad for almost another year and theeen he makes me move to that town after i give birth so he can graduate and his mom smothers me because she's excited for a grandchild and i'll probably have postpartum depression pretty much as soon as the baby leaves my womb bc like obviously i definitely would (even though like I'm pretty sure being a mom is the perfect ideal full time job for me but like being poor makes it impossible to be ok with) and then we never progress in our lives or move out of our state and we end up poor as shit with a whole ass baby to raise..... and then it's 6:30am and my alarm goes off and i get my period within minutes..... and i think to myself how hard it'd be to get a copper iud inserted like yesterday. anyway don't judge me for this venting post I'm not here for your opinion on my anxiety-fueled pregnancy scenarios that aren't even real. and yes i use condoms. and I've tried the pill. hormonal birth control or anything that makes me have More hormones in general is a big No from me. but lol if anyone can relate or lmk how Not To Get Pregnant that'd be great thank s