it’s night where i’m at . and all i feel is this aching pain again . i feel nothing else . what do i do with myself . how do i carry on . how do i survive one more night . why is it always worse at night . it’s so suffocating . i cant breathe . it hurts so much . fuck i could feel it taking over my body . i physically feel so numb . but my chest man . that shit hurts my chest .