Hi everyone, I'm pretty much new to this. I was diagnosed at 16 with bpd and now at 36 I'm finally back on my meds very slowly. My therapist and my pdoc say I'm highly functional, I guess it helps that I'm an accountant 😄. Anyways I have a twin sister whom I suspect has an spectrum of bpd. She refuses to acknowledge my diagnosis, doesn't support my meds and when she gets drunk and not drunk often tells me I should be dead and has threatened to buy a gun and kill me. This has happened for a while and my family think that she's just venting or being dominant on me. She interferes with my life, my friends and even my meals. So many times I have contemplated and I even attempted to commit suicide because her abuse has become pervasive. My siblings try to help out but there's no day she doesn't find a way to call me a failure and remind who's in control of the finances in the house. Unfortunately I have to swallow it for a month till I get a training for a new job. Some days are tougher than others and I'm trying to get by. I'm the popular one my family loves me but I can't seem to reason with her. I guess I'm tired I have never hurt her but she has hurt me physically and emotionally for so many years. I can't stop crying and thinking why??? I'm doing everything right, being good, nice, hard working, supportive but she doesn't see it. I love her but in my heart I feel she's killing that love each day. Please don't call her bitch, even though that's what everyone who loves me call her. I'll try my best but I feel that I'm done. I can't love someone who abuses me and doesn't apologize or appreciate my loyalty.