I really hate this lockdown because I feel like I have no freedom anymore and it makes me angry sometimes. I am not saying that we should break rules , go outside and  do crazy shit. No, virus is real. But it doesn't make me less angry and disappointed. My bpd became so much worse.  Now it's a bit better, but a couple of weeks ago I had mental breakdown literally every day. It's hard to cope with bpd and lockdown simultaneously. I feel like there is something wrong with me, because I am angry.