I was in a 2 year long distance relationship with someone in the military, we rushed to get married due to covid to be together but once we were I found out things that I really didn’t like about him (lying, being really immature, alcohol issues, money issues etc) We we’re already married so I figured I’d stay and try to make it work. We are in the middle of planning a big celebration for our one year anniversary since we didn’t get to have our wedding but we have been fighting nonstop and he has continued to lie. I don’t know if I’m able to move on and forgive him but every time one thing happens everything else that has gone down comes flooding back into my mind and it makes me really angry and I’m having outbursts all the time. I did so much work on myself before him and now I feel like I’ve become the bad guy again because I’m borderline verbally abusive at this point. I don’t like who I’m becoming and I feel like all my work has been doing undone. I’m so confused with myself because I feel as though my feelings are rational but I really don’t know so I flip flop constantly. We had a huge fight last night and he left and went to a friends house, at first I felt like I needed to save my marriage but then started having feelings of abandonment because he just immediately left. Today I’ve canceled our wedding because I don’t want to lose any more money and right now just isn’t the time. I feel so much resentment because I was so open throughout the long distance but now I feel betrayed and not valued. Has anyone gone through something similar and were you able to move past it or is it time to call it quits?