I had an exceptionally great day. Lots of validation regarding some legal work I’ve been doing on my own and my attorney mentioning that I’ve “done a great job” on my own. He was so proud of me and the work I’ve done and how meticulous I’ve been about my case. Also said that because of the job well done, my case is stronger and there’s a good chance a settlement may be offered soon! So that call left me feeling euphoric, proud, empowered, validated. (Note: my attorney consults with me for free, so he’s not doing the work, I am, it’s kind of an odd situation!) 

Then, I was meeting a friend for lunch that I haven’t seen in over 3 months. We just started reconnecting a few days ago. So I was beyond excited to see him and hug him and to feel and be felt by another. 

My emotions were euphoric, prideful, ecstatic, excited, validated and I **really** had to practice calming down. 

This when I learned it not just the “negative” emotion I have to manage but the feel (way too) good emotions too. 

It was also maybe the first time I realized how feeling soooo good can actually feel “bad” for me BECAUSE of the *intensity of the emotions* themself. 

It was an odd thing to feel - so happy, but to also feel angst about it. 

I did a ton of deep breathing on my way to the restaurant to meet my friend. And thankfully, after about 5 mins of his arrival, it was all gone. And I found myself calmed, a more mellow tolerable happy- My more *natural* state. 

I just wanted to share what I noticed about myself today as I feel it was a positive, valuable experience that I was able to identify and manage accordingly. 

It feels good to have been aware of being “overly” excited and then did my best to manage it and then to also be able to notice when it mellowed out...

...*a flood of a lot of *REALLY GOOD* emotions, only comparable to flood gates opening into a river, and all that water (emotion) overflowing the river itself, until it was able to run downstream a bit and eventually level out.*