I’m just generally an envious, bitter, mean, nasty person. I’ve gone so cold on the inside. I wasn’t like this before. But it really does break you inside when you have no one close to you. No real or substantial relationships of substance. I just constantly internally judge and dismiss others and it’s so gross. I want to feel like a person again. I want to feel that light inside. Be able to have more empathy and compassion. But I’ve just become more monstrous and robotic as time goes on. Just so fucking selfish and only thinking of myself.