Ive been dating this girl for almost three months. Shes great and i think that even if we break up eventually i can see us growing together and making each other better people. She was in an abusive relationship for 2 years before i knew her and it was pretty much her only relationship that shes ever had. she never had sex with him and never really told me why because it makes her uncomfortable and mad when she talks about it and she thinks that she is burdening my by talking about it :( she tells me that she thinks that she is lesbian and that thats probably why she didnt want to do anything with him. She makes sexual comments online directed at me and i do that same because honestly though i am a top i am really paranoid and i dont want to make her uncomfortable. I tell myself and others that im just worried about her last relationship but that doesnt sound right when i really think about it. I do worry that she isnt okay but i know that me and him are separate people. I vented to my older sister and everytime i say something about my gf she tells me that our relationship doesnt make sense to her because we arent very affectionate or sexual together because i have emotional/ mental issues that kind of block those things in my head.  Shes making me question my relationship which i wasnt doing before. having bpd its common and i never stay in relationships more than a month but im happy and shes happy and its lit. The fact that i already think my life is a lie and struggle with relationships makes me constantly question myself and others. I was sure and now im not. im not looking for answers because its just in my head and my sister is just an asshole and is v judgemental.