I often read on here about how many just want to sleep forever because it provides them with some sort of relief or rejuvenation or a taste of what death might feel. 

It's never been nice for me. I hate sleeping. I only do it to replenish my exhaustion.  Every night I dread going to bed and sleeping, because it means I have to wake up to another day of coursework and socializing and worrying constantly about money and grades and thinking of new reasons to not off myself then and there. 

I stay up for hours because I'm afraid of it all. I'm doing it right now, it's funny. Please tell me I'm not alone in this.