I have no will to leave my bed, even to pee or eat. The only thing I can do is discipline myself not to move at all. This happens to me at least a few times a week.

Is this my MDD, or do you all with BPD get this way at all? I don't know what I'm feeling to cause this. Fear? Despair? Apathy? Self-loathing? Could it be that I only get energy to live when I feel something?