Friends, family, partner. All have come and gone, promised to stay but always leave when shit aka I get too much, messy etc. Im tired. emotionally drained by hoping someone will stay by my side. Im either not giving enough or giving too much. I can never seem to get the balance right with people. Im tired of constantly being left to wonder 'What if I didn't have bpd'. Futile, I know. Sick of being forgotten and thrown to the side