I know there are people here who will relate. I struggle and I am far from perfect, but I am a compassionate person, and even though I make mistakes, my intentions are good 99-100% of the time, and I have a big heart. I have so much love to give and I try to give it, because it makes me feel alive. It makes me feel less empty inside. 
And I think this is one of the *many * reasons I struggle finding romantic relationships: it’s always so one-sided. And I don’t think it’s anyone’s fault; it’s just the way it is. I love with an intensity that a lot of people can’t match, simply because their emotions aren’t as intense as ours. 
I don’t think I’m a saint by any means, and I know this is not healthy, so if anyone has any pearls of wisdom for me I would be forever grateful ❤️