I’m never going to feel happy again, I’ve been depressed since I was 11 8 years ago and it’s only got worse. I hate every single second of my life when I’m sober and now I don’t even feel good when Im high. I have an amazing job and I spend my whole shift thinking of ways to kill myself because it just hurts so bad. I self harm every day at work. I don’t want to do anything, literally there’s nothing that makes me happy.

I went to a therapist for the whole school year last year and it didn’t help at all, she just blamed me for my problems. I tried antidepressants but they didn’t do anything. I’m failing classes and I know i won’t be able to turn things around because of my depression. There’s just no future where I’m happy at all. 

Doesn’t it make sense just to kill myself? And for anyone who says no, what do I need to do to be happy?