My first love broke up with me 11 weeks ago. She was the most important person in my life and she left me out of nowhere with no warning and no reason. I've actually gotten over her but the emotional damage it caused is indescribable. I've never felt so lonely. I have plenty of friends and plenty of support but I still feel alone. None of them understand me like she did. Everyone is so selfish and toxic at their core. Whenever I tell them what I'm going through, they tell me to get over it. I feel like I'll never reach the level of happiness I did a few months ago and I've tried so hard to achieve that level to no avail. Nothing replaces the emptiness I feel within me. I try to hangout with more people and talk to other girls but really all I want to do is be at home with a bag full of xanax and just waste my life away. Well, I've run out of xanax so for better or for worse that's not an option. I guess I just have to continue to live in this broken society for now in a continuous cycle of false hope and depression.