Full disclosure I don't claim I know anything by any means. Nor do I believe I am better than anyone, certainly do I think we are lesser than the "stable" ones. After a while you'll start the realize that even though you are the one diagnosed, medicated and in therapy those around you considered to be "stable" are the ones that should be in the padded room. However this post isn't about them nor the on again off again relationship you and I have with our meds. Its more about the loneliness that lingers throughout. The loneliness that doesn't seem to go away regardless of how few or how many people are around us. The truth is it never really goes away, you just manage it. I think it intesifies when we are cycles and we feel that no one truely understands us. As humans we want to be understood even those that say that they don't care, they do. No one will save you from this feeling, only you can. Ultimately the acceptace of this feeling and being comfortable with it and make positive change to try to shift feeling  is what makes life palatable.

Cycles come, cycle go but that loneliness that might linger there isn't a pill for that. Its a matter of perspective. Its a challege deal with but its doable. Good luck out there.