Did you think about something nasty, awful, and not so great at all?  Did you have intrusive thoughts about wanting to do it, but not actually want to because you have a moral compass?  Did you write about a fictional character doing it, or a bad, satirical song about it? 

You are not your thoughts, or even your words when they are fictional or humorous.  At worst, maybe you did say something wrong, but you didn't do the actual thing.  Please forgive yourself.  You're still a good person.  Have a good day!