Im losing what little control I thought I had. Im starting to feel like utter crap, i feel like i dont fit in. Its my BPD, i think its making me really paranoid, like i feel like everyone around me hates me. It feels like when im my fitness class tutor talks to everyone but me, I know this might all sound silly, i feel silly for feeling it. Its getting so bad, its started intrusive thoughts. 
Id really like to try manage these emotions as Im not sure i can completely erase the feelings but I want to do better. 
Any advice is appreciated