Hi guys I was hoping from some help from the other side, I've been tru alot of drama with bpd ex, and feel like there is no way she will ever take me back, i miss her beyond explanation, even tho we both hurt each other, i kinda said my final goodbye out of anger after our last talk, i can't live without her, I've become extremely depressed myself and my head is filled with suicidal thoughts, I don't even know why I want to go back so bad all logic tells me it's the worse idea, but my heart tells me the opposite