My boyfriend promised me an email to discuss the future of our relationship. I’ve been waiting on it for almost 2 days now.

I’ve done pretty good keeping my calm.... I’ve only messaged him once during that time just to say that I missed him and That I was using the tips that my therapist had given me. I wanted to show him that I’m doing better at controlling my moods.

But I am about to lose it. All day today I’ve been going back-and-forth between loving him and hating him, and the emotions switch within minutes. I just feel like I’m an emotional wreck right now that’s barely hanging on and I’m about to burst into tears.

I don’t know how to feel. One minute I’m petrified of losing him because I do love him and he’s the most sweetest guy I’ve been with. But then I get so mad because I feel like two days is too long to wait for an email, and the fact that he’s not even checking in to say “hey I’m still working on it”. So my mind is starting to go nuts thinking that maybe he’s testing me to see if I’m gonna flip out again or what.