It’s honestly so awful, I was going through an experience at my college where I felt a teacher wasn’t treating me equally and would only ever criticise me, making me feel terrible and bullied. I put in a report about the teacher, from there things just dragged out for weeks which I don’t blame the college for as they did let me know why things were taking a long time but just the unknown of it all was playing on my mind, attending classes with that teacher felt so awkward until one day I made a huge mistake in putting a note in the teachers bag which said that the education system doesn’t care about students which I understand was a bad decision and something I wish I could take back. From there I was suspended and have to attend a hearing this week with the threat of being expelled. I feel so awful about what’s going on and it’s hard to have any hope right now like no matter what I say at the hearing will have no effect, I desperately want to clear things up on how I’ve been feeling and return to my studies but just can’t shake the doubts that I have any chance. I just felt so alone for all those weeks feeling depressed and since I got suspended my mental health has only gotten worse, I’m so afraid right now and feel like breaking down every hour, losing sleep every night and never feel like doing anything at all