I genuinely feel like i’m a heartless and terrible person. I’m not capable of having any sort of long term bond with anything or anybody. This just leads to a life that will always be fucking empty because nothing is truly fulfilling. I can’t kill myself because for some dumb ass reason I wanna be here and experience the good times I have, but fuck man. so much of the day is just bad and i always feel bad about myself for everything. i wish i didn’t hate myself so much.