(sorry for poor grammar it’s 4am my brain is running on no sleep)

No matter what it is my brain says people will hate me for it.  
even though I know people wont, I will try and do it and my brain will just go into full panic mode.

there are some things that I’m really interested in or that I want to try and do (art, worldbuilding, alternate history, etc) but I can’t do those things cause people will judge me

fuck, even having proper hygiene is something people will judge me for

and I can’t go to therapy or talk to anyone I know irl about my issues because, once again they will hate me for it