          Ive suffered from depression all my life. I eat healthy, exercise,  and practice stoicism but the depression still gets the best of me causing most of my days to flutter between suicidal thoughts and constant anger.
     Ive tried multiple medications over the years and its always the same process: they work until they dont and then my dosage slowly creeps up until my doctor recommends a new drug. Rinse and repeat. Oh, withdrawal between meds is also part of the equation.
    A few years back i got a medical marijuana card. I had smoked occasionally with friends in the past and it was one of the few things that made me happy so i got off the nonstop prescription pill train and switched soley to weed.
    It has worked wonders but i smoke for a month and then take a 2 weeks tolerance break which causes the depression to return. Overall, its been a big improvement in my life and is partly responsible for me not ending my life.
    Only problem is i dont like having to rely on a substance and I dread my T breaks. I feel kind of ashamed i need weed to be happy but having spent most of my life not using weed, i cant deny it works. Is anyone else in the same boat?