For months I had been doing better until I missed one therapist appointment and never got the nerve to make another one. I’ve since stopped taking my medicine since I felt the same way about filling my next prescription. Now I feel like my anger is taking hold again, and I don’t know what to do. I just feel miserable all the fucking time, and drink at least a 6 pack every day. I feel like I’m going crazier, because I don’t know if my fiancé is intentionally pissing me off, or if it’s just my anger grabbing ahold of me. The alcohol doesn’t help, just makes me feel worse, and then I become more and more insecure as I start to get a gut from the drinking.  I tried to jump off a parking deck last night after I just got tired of everything. My fiancé stopped me, but I’ve felt horrible for putting her through that. I don’t really know what the point of this post is, just needed to vent I guess. I hope you’re all taking the baby steps to getting better. 