I really need someone to help me celebrate a small tiny step towards progress. It wasn't perfect. I'm in a habit of melting down and seeking comfort from my partner, but he's beyond frustrated with that. Today when he yelled at me, and I couldn't figure out how to dissipate my hurt, I sat for a while. I made a few futile attempts to talk about it but I still was caught up in judgments about how I shouldn't be feeling hurt, so they were pretty weak. I didn't want things to escalate so I managed to say "I'm getting too emotional right now and I think I should go, I'm sorry". I also managed to say before I left "I don't like it when you yell at me" and managed to hug him and say I love you before I left. These things are not the best strategies, but for me even this little bit of progress feels like a huge success and I know no one in my life would be able to see this. I want to get better at like figuring out other was to engage with acknowledging the feeling, without escalating it, but I don't know how yet. But I was able to remove myself from a situation before I broke down, and not feel the urge to compulsively seek him when I'm breaking down, and that feels huge. I'm still really worked up, so any little bit of encouragement would really help!