Does anybody have any experience with constant disappointment after working so f*cking hard for something?
I always feel that I'm in a loop where I want something really hard, and say to myself maybe that thing could make my miserable life better.
I start working sooo hard and I get so damn close but then everything gets f*cked up at the last minute.
I feel that no matter how hard we try, we'll always end up where the wind blows; the environment we live in and our conditions will always be a thousand times stronger than all the strenght and wit we could muster