So I have my last therapy session on the 23rd and my therapist is going on winter break until January. I'm extremely anxious about that break in therapy. I recently had  an anxiety/panic breakdown that lasted about a week (and still recovering from it 3 weeks later). And I had restarted therapy in the middle of it, 2x a week, and it has been really really helpful.  I'm kinda using it as a crutch now because  I have bad days with a lot of fear, anxiety, and intrusive thoughts and the therapy helps reset my mind and puts me in a much better mindset afterwards. 

I look forward to going to therapy every week but now with this break coming up, I am so anxious to be on my own. I'm scared the intrusive thoughts, fear, and anxiety will come back and I won't be able to control them. I have exercises that help me with the thoughts and mindfulness techniques I use but it's easier said than done and my mind keeps saying it won't be enough to get me through the break.