If all I'm gonna do is end up hating and leaving the ones I care about most I don't see a point in having friends, I'm just a ticking time bomb and no matter how well people treat me I hate them in the end no matter what. Honestly it's been a while since I've seen anyone and my life is a little better cause there's nothing to freak out over, I'm kind of in the middle of getting over someone and sometimes I'll just think too hard and want to end it all but other than that I just live my life, I'm worried that if I get attached to someone again my life is gonna go back to hell, it's probably gonna happen let's be honest but how do I get over that fear of everything going to shit, will it inevitably happen because it's something that I need to work on? How do I work on an issue when it's laying dormant until something happens.