I tried some legal weed here in Texas which is basically real weed they just jumped some loopholes to be able to sell it legally. So I tried that and a delta 8 vape and they both made me paranoid. My sister smokes weed and she's fine but if she gets psychosis it will be too bad but at least she'll be able to see what it's like for me, not in a bad way but my family members don't really understand what I'm going through. Having my sister smoke weed makes me feel bad because it makes me feel not so lucky I got this illness. Before this illness I was a functional stoner, I was about to buy my first house before my first psychosis. I had a good car which I was gonna upgrade and I had plenty of money etc. But now I'm not doing so good etc. My family often treat me like a disabled good for nothing. Like before this illness everyone was cool with me and would ask me for money and my older brother was kinda jealous of me for being successful but now my older brother has disappeared from my life and I tried reaching out to him but he won't reply back. I understand everyone wants to move on with their life. My family wants me to get my own place and I get it. But I told my close friend that if I don't feel better or get better over time that I might just end it. He gave me advice but he said that if I was to do that he would understand that I just couldn't take it anymore and I wanted to find peace.