Last year I most probably suffered from depression(i couldnt get diagnosed as there are no means for me to access a therapist) but I felt like shit and self-harmed every other day for 4 months). So I tried my best to be happy this year but its all starting to fall apart. I never thought I would have to worry about body image issues but now I feel like tearing my skin apart(severe acne scars). I am so insecure about my bare face and I also might be having a skin-picking disorder. I feel like I cannot win at anything. I hate how all my hopes and happiness are slowly shattering but I am in this midway phase where I am happy sometimes but I also get extremely sad. I dont want to jump down a building. I dont want to die. But I just cant see any other option in the long run.