I've been in CBT therapy for chronic PTSD for about ten weeks. In the last few sessions we have been going over my responses to the worksheets to challenge negative thoughts, and it seems to have turned my therapist into a lawyer for the prosecution.

What I mean is, if I have a negative thought, she tries to help me challenge it as one of the forms of dysfunctional thinking, and I appreciate what she is trying to do, but at the same time I don't think she has a clear picture of the situation. She doesn't even seem to look at the "evidence my thought is true" section of the worksheet, and while I could try to go into detail about why I think my thought is valid (and thus, my reality legitimately provocational), I would just come across as argumentative, and there isn't enough time in the session for that anyway.

So at the end of our last session, she says she is going to send me for diagnostic evaluation to determine if I have a personality disorder because she said "there might be something else there" because I am too committed to my negative beliefs.

Then she wished me well and hopes I have a good month (I'm going to be traveling for a few weeks so our next appointment is a month away), but all I can think about is, "Holy shit! I have a personality disorder? What is that? What does it mean? How did I get it? Can I still pursue my life plans or is this a game changer?" (I took an online evaluation and scored "very high risk" for seven of ten disorders, and "high risk" for one more.)

It seems like the kind of thing we should have spent some time on in our last session, but she brought it up at the end and then it was just, I was just on my own after that.

Anyone got any thoughts? What the hell is wrong with me? PTSD made sense as an explanation for what I've been going through. But this, what the hell is this?