My breathing is labored. My chest is tight. My hands are shaking. My mind and heart is racing.  My body is tense. I try to be aware of it and try to relax my shoulders &amp; jaw but almost immediately, they are tense again. I feel lightheaded. My stomach is in knots. I cant imagine eating something although I haven't eaten all day. In fact, I could probably throw up if I tried to eat. 

My doctors have changed my medication &amp; it doesn't seem to be helping much which really sucks right now. The best thing that helps is taking sleeping medication and going back to sleep. But I know sleeping all day isnt going to help me either. 

My therapist has suggested I try tapping my leg or something when I get like this. I'm trying it now but my hand feels so weird. Like tingling or numb or not connected to my body. I dont know how to explain it. It doesn't feel normal. 

I am having trouble concentrating on something, anything, like the TV to distract me. That's what I normally do. Turn on the TV &amp; try to forget whatever is in my mind. Writing this seems to be helping a little. Still shaky and out of breath but acknowledging it helps me remember to take deep breaths, relax my mouth, roll my shoulders and tap my leg.

I woke up with this anxiety and it has gone away but then comes right back... all day. When I think about going in to work tonight. Just the thought of it, just writing it, makes is harder to breathe. I cant imagine how I will feel around 8pm when I have to start getting ready. Or when I get in my car and have to drive there. How will I make it? 

Why does my chest hurt so much? The tightness in my chest, the pain in my heart just breaks me down.