On the start of my treatment "journey", I got diagnosed with Major Depression and prescribed Brintellix- vortioxetine (also known as Trintellix in the US) 10 mg. I had no side effects aside from ichy thighs. I then eventually changed my psychiatrist as I felt like I needed more than just medication and started behavioural therapy. After a few sessions, my psychiatrist diagnosed me with BPD. That didn't change my meds, and we continued to try to tackle BPD through CBT. Eventually, I needed to increase my dosage. I was trying to push it in hopes of being able to get by without increasing it but I was clearly getting worse. I am not sure why but my psychiatrist decided to suggest I try taking Remeron. So, I started taking 40 mg of Remeron daily and continued with CBT. I ended up having to move countries abruptly, and quit cold turkey as I had no access to psychiatrist. I feel like my situation is getting out of hand. I decided I needed to at least get back on medication and am gonna try going to the free psychological ward in my university as I cannot afford weekly sessions in this country. I filled out the survey and explained my situation and the fact that I need long term help. My first session will be this coming Wednesday, hopefully the psychologist I was assigned was someone I can feel comfortable around. But I really feel the need to get back on medication. The issue is though that I didn't take Remeron long enough to see it's positive effects on me yet.   


My questions are:  
Did anyone try Remeron? Is it worth it? Or should I just ditch medication? What do you think is the best path? I know BPD isn't curable through meds but does it help in anyway?  


TL;DR - I got diagnosed with MD and BPD. Had to suddenly stop my medication due to moving countries. Not sure where to go from here. 