I’ve dealt with anxiety before but it was never as debilitating as it is now. 
I’ve had breakdowns and attacks but it was manageable for the most part. Sucky but manageable. 

But this time when I began hyperventilating my face and hands went entirely numb and tingly, and my hand cramped and curled up horribly. I couldn’t make it stop and couldn’t breath or move. I started punching and hitting things to try to regain feeling. It felt like it lasted for an eternity. 

I can’t seem to make it through a night without feeling afraid. There is often this intense feeling of panic or dread that creates a pressure in my chest, a pit in my stomach. I wish it would stop.