like a fucking solar flare up. shit is ridiculous. im fairly stable , but flip the angry switch quicker than ever and then plummet into guilt leading to depression until i know things will be ok and i buoy back up. ive never noticed it so much. and I'm terrified of losing the few friends that I have and afraid to reach out and make new friends because I know they're going to end… At least that's what my mind tells me
 this shit is rocking me and I just don't know what to do, and DBT skills aren't coming in fast enough
fml