So I got anxious earlier (rain and driving in Atlanta is TERRIBLE) when my SO and I went for lunch. Like having trouble breathing anxious. It seemed to subside after I ate. We left. SO was driving and I got scared (as I normally do in the rain. Seriously Atlanta. Come. On.) of how suddenly everyone forgets how roads work when it rains. I hate highway driving anyway. 

Then we ate. I was fine. 

Someone stopped very quickly in front of us on the road and I yelped out “babe!” or something to that extent. I apologized immediately and suddenly fell down into a mental hole. I asked if he was mad and learned that asking usually makes him mad or frustrated. Anyway. After learning that I completely retreated into my brain and tried to be as small as possible. I couldn’t feel my body. I ended up leaving his house because all I wanted was my dog. 

Is that splitting? Can I split to silence? I completely zoned out and started singing songs to myself in my head. 

Idk. It felt weird as fuck and I don’t really know what it was. 