I hate myself and I just want to fucking die. I can’t form any kind of meaningful relationship with anyone on this earth so what is the fucking point in living? All I want is to love someone and be loved but I’m too much of a fucking burden to anyone the minute I meet them. I isolate myself because of this but that just makes me want to die more. So I go out and try to make friends and what happens? I fuck it up and set up unrealistic expectations on this person then fucking go off on them about it and boom, they fucking leave me and I’m back to no friends. It hurts so much. The worst is how good it can feel whilst in a relationship (almost euphoric) but then just as quick it all gets ripped away because I’m such a stupid fucking human being worthy of nothing. Sorry for any incoherencies in this text, I’m not in the best state right now