So I know this was a dumb decision but I’m 16, been smoking since around 12 but got heavy into smoking around 3 years ago. So anyways, before I started smoking, I would get panic attacks everyday. I would be terrified to sleep and have panic attacks to the point of almost passing out. I would have panic attacks about 4-5 times a day. It got to the point my room scared me because sleeping would trigger my panic attacks. It got to the point I almost committed suicide at 13 because I couldn’t sleep for days on end because I would have panic attacks every single minute of the day. So I started smoking, since I started smoking heavy around 3 years ago I’ve maybe have 2-3 panic attacks in the past 3 years. Nicotine has honestly helped me a lot and I want to quit. The problem is I’m scared to. Nicotine is the only thing that’s really kept my panic attacks at bay and when I feel panicky I smoke a cig, or if I’m lucky I buy a vape with money I make from my job. Recently my vape broke and I get occasionally cigarettes, but I still can’t get as much as I need to help me, I go about 12 hours on end without having anything and it triggers horrible panic attacks sometimes. 

Tldr: before I smoked, horrible panic attacks almost killed myself, now I smoke, panic attacks rarely. 

So in conclusion, I’m just looking for advice, information, why this happens, idrk. Just need to find out why this happens because I have been struggling with this addiction for years and everytime I quit, I’ve reached 50 days before and still, I get horrible panic attacks, Ik the withdrawal is supposed to go away after like a month, but I’ve made it insane amounts of time and still have those panic attacks, but they are gone with nicotine.