I know. I'm an asshole.

Don't get me wrong, I want people that are suffering to get help. I even want to help them, because I don't want anyone to live in despair. 

I just can't help envying them. I always encourage others to seek professional help or any trusted individual. But I can't do what I'm preaching. I'm such a coward.

As for you that's reading this. Please don't be like me. 💖