So I haven't been officially diagnosed with anything but suspected bipolar 2, pmdd, and/or borderline. They all have overlap.

But the reason I'm posting is because I'm tapering off the med that made me feel basically numb. But it did help a lot with my anxiety and insecurity and self hatred spirals. I just want to feel emotions again. But now that I am I'm feeling reckless and impulsive and also very anxious.

I've also started lamictal at the same time. I'm suspicious that the lamictal is making the recklessness worse but I also don't know if it's because I'm just feeling again and don't know what to do with this energy. It's really stressing me out.