 Hello just like in the title, how can i be sure if I really love this guy or im just scary about breaking up and need to be loved. Im quite long with my partner bc about 3 years but we had some splits up meanwhile. We met in high school and then he was so in love with me but I dont think I was ready then so i wasnt interested. He dated other girls but i think part of him still loved me so after high school we started dating. Im thinking i might wanned be with him because he loved me so much and so long and I wanned to be loved then. So now a lot of time we spending together we are smoking weed and playing games together and its fun but i dont know if thats real love. Now we are living in different cities but this week im gratuating and im going to move in his apartment( maybe im just nervous about this and thats why im so conserned now). I think he is a great guy and he is trying to help me with dbt and depression( i think, but not sure bc often i feel worse after talking with him). Moreover im so panicking when we are mention breaking up, I dont know if i could not suicide after this. I really dont know what to do and how check if thats real love ps. i read this and i think i mentioned only bad things in our relation, but I really like spending time with him, he is so carring, interesting and nice person and sometimes i feel like its love of my life. In addition its my closest person right now after i lost some of my friends( im not sure if im his as well, he’s got some friends) . Also he is my first and only serious bf ( but ve got couple hooks up).