I feel hopeless. I’ve been suffering from anxiety disorder since college. Last year, I’ve started suffering from a bad health anxiety. I started having panic attacks. Then just recently, I started having this fear of going insane. I started dissociating which makes my anxiety/panic worse. I feel like I’m losing control and that the reality is slipping. 

Now, health anxiety and dissociation when combined are the worst. I go from thinking I’m going insane to thinking I’m going insane + probably because I have a tumor which I know I don’t because I had a normal brain MRI a year ago. Still, I’m eager to get another brain MRI just to be sure. 

Also, I’m always light-headed. My head feels empty and also heavy almost all the time. I feel like, I’m only half focused/aware. When I walk I feel like I walk weird and that everything is fuzzy. It scares me so much that the panic/anxiety is almost constant. Any slight movement can trigger my anxiety. So far, I never had hallucinations. But this combination of extreme fears is making me feel like I’m gonna go insane. It’s so exhausting and depressing. I want to give up on life so bad, I can’t take this anymore. :(