I’m someone who never realized they suffered wth anxiety, until this year when it got severe. I’m 22 years old, and this year it all hit me. “All” being, what am I doing with my life and what am I going to do with my life. Since these thoughts began in January, I’ve lived everyday this year with thoughts endlessly running through my head and I’d say about 90% of them are negative. I have no direction because I don’t know what I want to do, I feel that the one job I wanted to do since I was a child is no longer something I can pursue because of a mistake in my past. I’m not sure what I want to study, when I was in university what I was studying never interested me and seems I was just there to be there. Not sure why I’m posting here but I guess it’s just a release for myself. Feelings of being a failure and fuck up are ones that haunt me day in and day out. I’m trying my best to break this cycle, but feel I am running/wasting time not knowing what to do. Just a rant I guess, hopefully one day I’ll be able to reflect on these thoughts in the future and realize if I hadn’t felt this way it wouldn’t have made me who I am or got me to where I’m supposed to be.