I can’t believe I bought you flowers that cost over $100 for our two month anniversary…when we’re not even together! I tried to deliver them to you and you declined. I’m a pathetic embarrassment.  
  
Like the flowers, you don’t want me anymore. Just admit you’ve lost all interest and that everything has fizzled.  
  
Abandon me for good as opposed to holding onto the once strong tether that held us together. Let go of the tether. It’s nothing but a mere string now anyway.  
  
…  
  
I really need to learn how to be okay with myself even though I hate myself.  
  
This is agonizing.