I have a roommate who isn't around too much due to work and other commitments, so our time that we can talk is very limited. He's an intelligent guy that I respect and value. We're both autistic, but I have social anxiety disorder and he does not. He is great to chat with, but I feel an immense pressure to be seen in a good light and want to stay on his good side. He's confronted me regarding some chores I've fallen behind on and those conversations are polite, and I'd literally do anything he asked of me. It's just that I take this too much to heart and it still sticks with me long after it's resolved.

I know I'm not being rational, but I'm also afraid to text him because he's quite blunt and it usually makes me feel like I'm adding stress to his day. (there's no evidence to directly support this, it's just 'vibes') he seems better at communicating verbally than I do, but I think I'm better at expressing myself through typing or writing. As a result, I convince myself that he is more impatient with me than he actually is, and sometimes I avoid him because I worry I'll say the wrong thing. (Another irrational thing that hasn't really happened)

We've even talked about it and I'm sure he's more than aware how sensitive I am, based on past miscommunications. More recently, he got just a bit snippy with me over a mistake I indirectly made, and over 48 hours I had concluded in my head that I needed to move out and that there was nothing I could do to fix our relationship. We talked about it, he fully apologized for his frustration in the moment, but was quite shocked at how much I blew it out of proportion. Understandably so, in hindsight.

He's not a crisis counsellor or my therapist so he isn't responsible for de-escalating me when my thoughts and reactions go off the rails, as he said he has a hard enough time taking care of himself. I agree with that, so I'm trying to think of ways to chill out and not feel the pressure. 

I have tried to incorporate mindfulness techniques and I take prescription medication for my anxiety, it helps significantly but my paranoia and anxiety runs deep. I'm also in the process of quitting weed as I found it makes all of this worse. He's literally not a scary guy, and quite reasonable. I know this, but l can't fight this notion I have that he has problems with me he isn't sharing. 

I don't know what I'm even asking but I just want to be a good roommate and not fuck up. What do?.