I lost $20,000-30,000 because I kept dropping college class after college class for a year and a half and now my brother has lost all of his funds and my sister has lost her funds for the first year. My parents have a mortgage to pay. I feel so shitty that I did this to my family, I really want to kill myself. That way I will stop costing them so much money, and finally stop being a burden on the family. I'm going to graduate late and with a liberal arts degree, there is no career or money in my future realistically.  I just wasted time and money to become a barista, and I will never pay off my debit. I feel so, so ashamed for what I've done and I'm really really sorry that I put my family in this situation.