hi. so i don’t really know what I’m supposed to do, I think about suicide almost everyday and I don’t know why. i don’t have too bad of a life, besides my parents are alcoholics and pick my brother over me for everything, I moved out into a trailer park with toxic people, got kicked out and was homeless for a month at 16, went back home, and now am moved out again into a good situation. I have a full time job and am saving for a car and everything’s going okay right now but I don’t know what’s going on in my head. and sometimes man it seems like nobody really cares, I get insecure so easy and upset and push people away when they make me upset, so many girls have fucked with my head and just totally fucked me over and I don’t know who to talk to and what to do somebody please help me…i don’t wanna go to a doctor because a doctor did really shitty things to me when I was younger thankfully she got found out and went to jail for it but I will never go to a doctor again. please help me