I find that my BPD only comes out and is triggered by my loved ones (the people closest to me). I have about 3 people closest to me that see my symptoms first hand. It’s like I can have amazing and healthy relationships with friends, but with the people who know and love me the most I experience episodes. Makes me feel like I’m crazy and can choose when to control my symptoms, but I know that’s not true. Does anyone else experience this?