I’ve struggled with depression &amp; anxiety, (as a result of coping with that turned to self harm for a while) for a long time, and an eating disorder. 
All of them have at one point required taking a step back to focus on getting healthier again for lack of a better term. Most recently my eating disorder. 
I got a new job. I love it. But it’s very physical with long hours and I’m alone. My eating disorder has been thriving on it (I was struggling before but I thought a physically demanding job would force my hand to do better) but it hasn’t. I’m loosing again, and starting to feel many of the tale tale signs of not getting enough nutrients. I feel that if I keep working this job I will run myself into the ground, or I could cause a dangerous situation (I drive a tow truck so what would happen if I passed out while working on a high way etc)
So I made the decision with my team that it would be a good idea for my health to quit and find something else.
I feel like such a freaken failure. I let my eating disorder stop me from doing a job I like, I will probably have to go back to my old job (just for money) and it just... sucks. 
Wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar and offer any advise