i've recently found out my fp has a close, intimate (?) relationship with someone else, though he expressed his interest in me and even flirted with me a bunch of times, i was convinced he liked me because i told him about my bpd and he said he wouldn't play around with my feelings, so i was convinced he only liked me. when i found out about this i had a break down and i've been throwing up ever since because i feel so physically sick and everything hurts. does anyone have any advice on how to bounce back from this or at least numb the pain a little?