To me the idea of ghosting is so unimaginably disrespectful I don't think I could do it.

Yes, I've just stopped talking to someone I met online without plans.

But, I could never make plans with a person and then when the day comes just disappear and ignore any level of contact the person tries to have with me.

I know it's a reflection of them but as someone with BPD I always keep asking "what's wrong with me" especially If have a few repeated experiences with others. Sometimes I also find myself slipping into some twisted dark thoughts where I'm not exactly feeling worthless but I think - the world is fucked and I don't wish to not be here to witness it anymore.

So, is not being able to do nor in any way understand ghosting a ME thing? Or is it common among us?

Any suggestions on keeping oneself together in these moments?