I apologize if I break any rules, I just need some help. For a long time I have suspected that I have a mental illness but never really sought help. This past year I have been talking to a counselor but recently my family has helped me to consider seeing a psychiatrist. I am terrified to do this. I am terrified of finding out that there is nothing wrong with me and that it's all just been me role playing, or me lazy, or me finding an excuse to cry. Sometimes I feel pretty normal but then I do also have times where it just hurts so much and I know I need help. Right now I feel kind of ok, but just thinking about going to a psychiatrist is freaking me out because what if I find out that I've just been making it all up or that I'm just dramatic. IDK I'm a bit confused and I just and praying that someone will see this and maybe give me their perspective because I just don't know anymore.