I literally hate my life

I was supposed to go to collage this year but I couldn’t because I have bad panic attacks when there is too much people around I start to not feel my legs and I get dizzy and breath really fast and can’t control it

I can’t be around too much people or that will happen and nothing has helped (not tried medication yet) 

I just can’t live life like this anymore, I really want to go to collage but now I’ll have to wait until next year and hopefully I’ll be able to 

I’m only 16 and I’m like no one my age