i got diagnosed very recently, so bpd is still very new to me, but i think i have the quiet kind. im in love with my girlfriend. this is the best relationship i've ever been in and she's absolutely perfect for me. we've been dating for a little over a year now. but recently ive been getting impulsive thoughts to break up with her and cut her off for absolutely no reason and it scares me so much. i dont want to break up with her, but sometimes it feels inevitable - even when i know there's no way i know that yet or not. in the past i wasnt good at handling splitting, and i was quick to cut people off in my relationships, romantic or not. im trying to improve myself, and i cant hurt her like that. i just dont know how to stop feeling like this.