Basically I broke up a few days ago with my 7 year boyfriend. Both were each other's first love and relationship. We live together because we are roommates so it's hard to avoid eachother. We have reverted to being just friends and it's kinda weird. I miss him a lot and everything and am worried that I won't accept our breakup? I don't know. But I don't want to separate from him cause he means so much to me. I know he won't enter a new relationship immediately either but I also know that if I do witness that, I'll probably be broken.

We move out April 1st so I won't see him much after that unless I trek from our smaller hometown to the bigger city we lived in, at least till school next semester.

Idk what to do. Like, I want to be friends but idk if that's a good idea though. I'm trying to message and talk to him less too. What would you say? Do you guys have any experience with this? The relationship ended on a mutual note because with our mental health issues we aren't ready to pursue further and he fell out of love but the hopeless romantic in me wonders if once we mature, we might come together again later in the future... It sounds so pathetic ugh. I dunno if my bpd self can handle this but I don't want to just drop being close with him.