Hello /r/anxiety !

I've been coping with anxiety and depression for at least 4 or 5 years now. I have a fiance, and a daughter who has just turned 2. I'm a farm worker, live rural, introverted, lack hobbies and don't really interact socially much (albeit I am a bit of a gamer). I can be hot headed and become overwhelmed and stressed pretty easily. 

Up until about 6 months ago, I spent about 2 years trying to find proper help for my anxiety. I regularly saw a psychologist, tried a multitude of different drugs and came up with some coping mechanisms with my doctor but really didn't find anything that stuck and helped much. 

The major problem I'm having as of late is my partner will tell me she totally understands, but when I get overwhelmed or things don't go the way she wants, I'm talked down to or she just refuses to see things in how my mind is perceiving them, no matter how I explain things. I regularly struggle with making plans and then backing out due to anxiety, and I know it's hard on her. It's a vicious cycle for me of getting anxious, my tummy starts getting upset, I get anxious about finding a toilet, anxiety rises....so on and so forth. It gets to a point where I don't like getting into new situations because I know this will happen, and I hate feeling this way. I've also found that some days my memory is impeccable and the following day I can't remember half the names of the people I've talked with, even though I KNOW I know their names. 

How do I get my partner on my same team?
What have you found that has helped you?

Part of this post is just to vent about my problems as I normally don't really like talking about it to people. (mind you, I'm always 100% open and honest, especially with doctors and those willing to listen and help). 

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.