It’s like waking up doing the same thing again and again. Constantly trying to outrun my mind. Getting high. I wish I could do something productive, but I can’t seem to leave my bed. My brain is so foggy, I feel stupid. But I’ve felt like this for as long as I can remember. Nearly everyone’s left, I wish they could understand where I’m coming from. I’ve always loved being alone, but I hate being lonely. Even when I’m around people I feel alone. I don’t even like using drugs anymore, but it’s an easier way to cope. But I don’t know how long I can keep this up for.