Ive been having a really rough morning today ive been depressed over my break up if 7 years im a male and it really fucked me up emotionally i was okay for a couple weeks but today im on the verge of killing myself. I dont know whats wrong with me i just crave attention im always alone only my close friends talk to me and yea they make me feel better but it doesnt help when theyre not here and im all alone in my head she blocked me on everything but her phone and im stupid and keep calling her. I really need some help im getting tired of this im never sober i havent been for 5 fucking years i know i ruinied my own relationship it was all my fault i never seen a future with her till it was all gone . I really need help this is my cry for attention i really need to get sober ive been poly addicted to everything.