I don't know if this is the right place to ask 
Trigger warning ⚠️ dark thoughts and self harm

Has anyone else felt totally invisible even when with your fp. He tries to understand my bpd but mainly just tells me to get over it which doesn't help. I am really struggling with my dark thoughts... I just want to vanish and I feel.like noone would even notice if I were to vanish. I really don't know what to do as these thought are getting really intrusive and causing me to cut myself as that is the only way I feel like I am still on this mortal coil of a shit storm I call my life. I guess I am just looking to see if anyone else has felt like this as right now I just feel empty and have no one to talk to about it