I was recently diagnosed with BPD and have made several connections between my behavior and this disorder. I’m struggling to follow techniques and skills I’m learning and it has caused me and my boyfriend to need to take some space. We agreed (and I struggled to) that I’ll be staying at my moms house to sleep for most of the next two weeks, but we’ve lived together in his family’s home for a few months now. We also agreed to take the time for us to both grow again and become whole again, to work on our personal issues and find solutions, as we lost sight of a lot of our passions and friendships and positive, healthy traits and techniques to use in times of tension, throughout the relationship. We lost ourselves due to issues on both ends, but I can definitely admit it all started because of my undiagnosed BPD. 

I understand this is a healthy step and that after two weeks we will return to normal, but in a healthier way that allows us to be our own people again. With new techniques and ideas for a healthier way to manage issues. But my anxiety is through the roof and my head is constantly trying to find a way to control the situation. I’m getting intrusive thoughts and anxieties about my boyfriend and the relationship and this condition is making want to just cry and run back to him. I refuse to do this and I want to stay strong and keep the end result in mind, but I just wanted to know if anyone can relate and if anyone has any advice out there?