I broke up with bf about two weeks ago for reasons I do not even understand myself. As some of you probably understand, I do not trust my own brain and seek advice from others. My only friend suggested that I need to work on being independent and a whole lot of other bs. My (ex) bf and I struggled a lot in the sex department as I felt as though his sex drive was lower than mine and This was the main sources of our issues. I could go on but I don’t even have the energy to talk about it. Regardless, he was the best most beautiful thing that ever happened to me. And I broke up with him… and obviously I want him back more than anything but ofc it’s too late. 

I legit have only one friend who Dosent understand the pain I’m going through. I don’t want to be with anyone else… I’m fucking lost, I keeping thinking about how my only out Rn is to kill myself. It’s all I’ve thought about for the past few days. Please help me see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel… any coping mechanisms would be much appreciated