Just wondering if anyone here has OCD along with their BPD.

I'm struggling between trying to find a balance between the two types of therapies.

For BPD for example its being aware and analysing how you are feeling and what you can do with that feeling, accepting the reality of the moment etc.

Whereas with OCD a thought can trigger an anxiety based response which isn't true or relevant to the situation, it feels like I'm being told to reject the feeling as its just packaged with a thought, it isn't a truth. 

However, with having BPD it takes longer for emotional based responses to settle because of our brain chemistry. So I'm stuck with an intrusive thought I know isn't true but left with the lingering anxiety from it. The anxiety can last days. 

DBT has been very helpful in, so far, resisting unhealthy coping strategies but I'm getting tired of feeling anxious all the time. I was very tempted to buy cannabis the other day to just help mellow me out but I know that won't fix the problem in the long term.

My psychiatrist won't put me on Fluoxetine because its still only a short while into DBT and I'm only just getting help for OCD. But this is unbearable.

In reality I am happy with where I am in life at the moment, i can see everything working out slowly. I finally feel like my life is getting direction for the first time. Its just my head. 

I've tried mindfulness, I've done self soothing. But the clash of OCD makes it very difficult to be grounded. I am living in the moment until a worrying thought pops up.