Everything makes me mad and I hate being that way. I’ve learned to hate myself because of this god awful personality disorder. Sometimes I feel
Like I’ll never NOT be angry. I used to be sooo nice and never said anything out of line. Now I’m like this monster that’ll stop at nothing. If I have something to say I say it and if I’m mad I express it. I never used to be like this. I just wish I could feel emotions the way everyone else does. No one knows how tired I am of myself, how much I’ve tried to change and how the change is never enough. This is a curse. I hate BPD and I hate myself bc I have it.