Anyone else experience these two emotions at once yet so strong that you may actually hurt yourself or someone else? i was having a sad/grieving day (btw i’m in recovery-5mons clean) was stressed at work but in no way felt elevated.

Suddenly a guy cuts me off, instead of allowing it to happen i keep driving and get up on the curb. he stops finally and i just stare at him flicking him off (mind you a bad area of chicago).

got to a 12 meeting feeling so sad again, crying, rage was gone. then the rage kicked in when people spoke out of turn (small pet pev)and i tell them three times to quiet down pls, and they just wouldn’t stop. and without thought i yelled “shut the fuck up or i’ll make you!” i’m not a big guy.

TLDR bad day of extreme sadness/grief/feeling unloved/ and acted like a crazy ass rage machine. pls help me 