Everything's been going so, so well. I started on a mood stabilizer a couple weeks ago &amp; it was already making things so much better. I felt okay for the first time in months. But tonight I couldn't take it. I'm a crying mess cuddling my dog right now. All of the body positivity I had gained recently is gone, I feel ashamed of myself. Most of all I'm really fucking sad, I thought I had finally learned how to be okay but I'm feeling the same paranoia &amp; self-loathing that I felt for months. I'm so sick of this fucking disorder, I hate only having a taste of normalcy &amp; sanity only to have it taken away. I'm destroying myself &amp; everyone around me. Just not a really good night. 