(i’m still new to reddit so i’m not sure if this is the appropriate sub for this post)

i’ve had depression since i was 12/13 and before i turned 20, i always had a hopeful outlook on things. after moving out of my moms place and realizing that being an independent adult actually fucking sucks, my depression got so bad to the point where i was constantly self harming and i completely isolated myself from everyone.

it’s been two years since everything has gotten bad and i’ve been through hell trying to get help. i even admitted myself into a psych ward after my fourth time attempting suicide in a single month.

i’m so tired of my depression and anxiety taking over my life. i’m still young and i want to be able to still enjoy things without my stupid brain ruining everything.

i’m on medication now and i know it takes a while to work but i’m just so tired of trying to get better and never actually making process 

if anyone has any advice on how to get through the rough transition of wanting to get better but being discouraged about it, i would love to hear it.

TL;DR: i’m sick of my depression ruining my life. i’ve been trying to get help for months and it feels like things are never going to change. looking for advice on how to get through these feelings