Every day that passes I lose more hope. I think I fried my brain, I've taken antidepressants since I was 13 but I never took them as prescribed, sometimes  missed a dose or I'd cut them cold turkey, I also mixed them with street drugs and alcohol.

Now I feel like if we're stupid... I can't concentrate on anything. I find difficult talking to other people, like if the words didn't come through naturally. I even had a hard time writing this simple text

I just got a new job at a call center, we're still on training, but I suck I don't know what to do on the calls, I'm just lost .

I don't have any friends or no one to talk to... I know I need to expose myself to social interactions, but I get super anxious and awkward when I'm around people..

I'm just tired... 

I think  im going to finally kmsf