Hi,
I have bipolar 1 and borderline personality disorder. I do see a psych and therapist and have meds. This is making impulse control very hard. I quit cutting for 6 months last year then slipped. Then I quit for 3 weeks and slipped last week and having a hard time stopping. I had 9 stitches on one cut last year, and I now have six large words cut into my thighs.

I'm also struggling with my shopping addiction. I'm fine until an ad or something triggers me to shop. Then I impulsively start shopping. I don't put a single thought into it. I just spent more money, and my boyfriend is so upset with me. He suggested I come here. There are no support groups in my area. My boyfriend doesn't know how to handle it. Yes, we have a house together so he knows everything.

I'll impulsively buy something then get so upset I want to cut as punishment. It's a vicious cycle. I don't know how to stop the shopping. I just want to fight this and change my behaviors.