I had an FP and they were my everything but with my recent diagnosis they left me because it was too much for them to handle. Which would be valid if they didn't convince me to leave my significant other when I was emotionally vulnerable and then be with them, love bomb me and then leave me. Now my closest friend stayed friends with him and I've never felt so much rage. Why are they okay with what he did to me? I don't think... I can forgive them. I told her I was exposed to covid and she retorted with a mom joke thats classic of my ex FP. And my other friend who's friends with both of us still wants to see the dog we co own and doesnt want to stop being friends with her. I went ahead and blocked them all out of anger- I don't think I know how to handle loosing the only two people in my life who I trusted. I turned to a dating app for validation- and it's working. I feel loved and cared for, and I even went back to talking to ex. I know neither of those are healthy things but I have such a void... I don't know how to handle it.