how? how do we deal with this? i have been newly diagnosed with bpd and don't know how to deal with this feeling, especially now that i know where it comes from and what's causing it. 

loneliness. rejection. always loving more, needing more, wanting more. more more more. i'm exhausted. why is it never enough? and are they actually giving their fair share or am i asking too much? i don't know. i'm so confused and it's driving me nuts. 

i don't want to always love more. i don't want to always be like this. i want to feel loved just as much as i feel love for those around me. is that even possible for people like us?

i'm so, so lonely. i'm so sad. not even depressed, just sad. this sadness runs through my veins and strikes so deeply in my heart that it aches. i feel like i could cry for years on end and it still wouldn't be enough to empty out neverending sadness that i carry with me.