To keep it short, I was on treatment with paroxetine for like 6-7 months and in march I got off it entirely. Been having withdrawal symptoms such as panic attacks and having constant shortness of breath ( I’m completely healthy, been to GP, cardiologist, pulmonologist, did a CAT scan, everything turned out fine so they told my the shortness of breath is psychogenic) but one symptom is so annoying that it makes me wonder how in the fuck I keep up with it and not go completeley nuts. It’s the lightheadedness, constantly feeling lightheaded, except after I wake up for a few mins and after I meditate. I did some bloodowork and they also turned out fine (at this point I think of myself as a hypochondriac). Now it’s like i’m constantly in tension and feel like I’m going to snap or go mad and end up hospitalized but somehow telling myself that I’m strong and I can keep going makes it worth it. For example, my shortness of breath and lightheadedness disappear when I’m working and focusing on it, but when I finish a thing and I’m done with it and take a break or whatever, they come back. 

I just wanted to lay this here and listen to some of your answers since my therapist told me I should be more open with my feelings and talk about them with strangers instead of my fiancee and family.