I just need to rant, I just feel misunderstood. Just recently been medicated, getting my dosage upped from 60mg to 80mg Geodon a day. Feeling somewhat stable, but it’s so hard not to want to rage against the boundaries that hold me. 

Im currently working full time and a student in college. It’s hard but doable and leaves me basically no free time. I almost feel like this is how it has to be, completely and utterly occupied so I can’t destroy my own life. But a large part of me just wants to throw it all away anyway. And god I hate the meds and how sleepy they make me. Even if I feel more like a human most of the time and know they’re good for me, it sucks. 

Anybody else feel like they have huge things they want to accomplish but are handicapped by their own mind?