I'm transgender and I already feel like a freak. Last year two of my friends died and the day after the last death, two of my living friends pulled me into the middle of their argument. My most recent and best relationship has been with someone online because I'm agoraphobic. 

Basically I live my best life on the internet and I feel trapped. I'm sad. I just want this feeling to go away but it's been here for years. People keep telling me I'm only 19 but I already feel so bad