Anyone else think their is a direct correlation between these to. I feel alcohol specifically hard liqour imho kills all the negative feelings of BPD, for the meantime. Shit comes back with a vengeance. I am finally about to get on medication for my BPD and hope to God I can  fight my impulsivity, emptiness, and anxiety without feeling like I have to get blackout drunk. I'm sick of this, I feel like I want to die sometimes and living like this well it's doing just that. I dont want that, but I dont know how to live a life that has worth, not a ball and chain. Other people have had it worse and made it back to square one, I've seen it, sometimes the most unlikely of people. Good luck to you all