So, I lost another job in part to schizoaffective. It was reception, I couldn’t pick it up fast enough because of my slightly stunted cognition due to my meds, and crashing and burning when I got too anxious— it was very high stress and stakes. This is the second job I’ve lost to schizophrenia, the first I went into rebound psychosis at work when I couldn’t get my meds on time and my psychiatrist switched me abruptly to one that didn’t work at all. I have a different psychiatrist now, who is fricken awesome. 

I’m discouraged because I know I’m smart and capable, but schizophrenia gets in the way. I worked there for a month, didn’t know it was a probationary period and that I was training against the other new hire who had previous experience. But that doesn’t really matter.

I’m thinking of starting a small business, I have a few ideas, but also getting on disability. Does anyone have a similar experience that can give me advice from the heart on my current plans? I don’t want to go back in the general workforce, but like most of us, I need money desperately. My living situation is better than ever, my boyfriend’s family took me in. I’ve also moved away from home into the suburbs 2 hours away from the big city I grew up in when I got that job, so it’s still a hard transition anyway sometimes. I need to save up for a car for the first time! The stress of real life is a lot, trying to function with schizophrenia, and general life.

Any kind words, encouragement, and especially advice about disability and the forms it can take from my fellow schizophrenics would be greatly appreciated right now.