my ex and i broke up in august and i still, can’t get over it. we lived together, he had bpd and npd, which i think is why i’m so stuck to him as he understood me the most of all the people i’ve ever loved. he abandoned me and treated me so horribly at the end of it, why do i still think about him? no matter what i do, what friends i see and what new hobbies i try out, at the end of the day he still haunts me in my dreams and before i sleep. i love him so much and usually after a breakup, i’ll happily hop on tinder and find people to fill the void with sex. but i can’t this time, thinking about being with anyone else makes me sick. i’ll go out for a cigarette and i’ll randomly think about this one time i visited him in denmark and ate 7/11 food, or when he came to my house and we made pancakes. why am i clinging onto someone who doesn’t love or care for me anymore? everyone talks about when you go through a rough breakup you have to preoccupy yourself and that’s all i’ve been doing. i cant heal when the one thing that’s hurting me is constantly at the back of my mind. i’m even avoiding sleep at this point as all my dreams are revolved around him. what do i do? i’m so tired of not moving forward, i couldn’t get over an ex for two years before and that was a 4 month relationship. i cant imagine how ill ever move past this.