I've never been formally diagnosed but am currently seeing a therapist (cant see her right now due to it being summer). I've only had one session so far, but i wanna know if what I'm going through is anxiety or I'm just over exaggerating things.

I've always felt like I'm being watched when I do anything and that people are judging every single aspect of me as a person- how i walk, what i look like, the way my face is, how im standing, how i talk. you get the picture. i always act as if someone is judging and watching me because it always feel like they are.

My self esteem has never been good and I cant stand my face. looking into the mirror or any sort of reflective surface makes me is fine sometimes, but for long it makes me feel awful. it feels like something doesnt fit or belong and I can never pin point what it is. My therapist asked me  what I would change about my face, and tbh i dont know. I dont know whats causing this discomfort. I just dont like it but wearing a mask certainly helps. Taking it off just makes me feel like people are judging my face.

I also always feel like I did something wrong or forgot to do something. For example I wake up early to take the trash out before going back to bed and I'll forget if I locked the door or not. Then I'll worry that I didn't and as a result, would allow a break in to happen or even a murser, so I'll go down to check. I wont be able to fall asleep until i do. I'll also feel the same with the freezer door at work, that ive accidentally left it open and cause everything inside to go bad, get fired, etc.

I also share a bathroom with my family and everytime someone showers after I do, I always have a feeling that i left something thag I shouldnt have inside. Like underwear on the floor or whatever.  I dont know why but i alaays feel weird and sometimes need to check if the bathroom isnt in use yet.

Im always kept awake the night before i have work (like rn) and always feel worried or bad or whatever. It's not even about work most the time i just get so many "what ifs" or worries about my health, etc that i cant seem to shut out and go to bed

I'm not sure if i can get a formal diagnosis anytime soon but i just want to confirm/validate everythinf im feeling. i feel like it would be comforting to say "i have anxiety this is just my anxiety causing me to feel all this" just so i can put a name to it but 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️  it is what it is ig.

thanks in advanced :,) this was long my apologies