I know stress related paranoia is a symptom of bpd but for some reason I think it's the one symptom I almost never discuss. So I wanted to come on here and see if anyone can relate or has any tips for dealing with it. 
I go through these "episodes" they used to be more occasional but they've gotten more common for me recently. I'm gonna try to break the symptoms up and organize them to make it easier to read. 


Dissociation- In these episodes my Dissociation is usually at it's peak. I feel 0 connection with my body, life, or the world around me. I feel like there's no definitive reality and like nothing including myself is actually real. My emotions are extremely numb and even physical sensations I notice but barely feel if that makes sense. My brain is super cloudly and my thoughts make sense to me but I have a lot that wouldn't seem coherent or make sense to others.
I almost completely retreat into my mind in a way that feels involuntary. 

Paranoia- Everyone around me almost feels like a stranger I "know" them but not really and I feel like no one in my life actually knows me at all. I loose any trust for the people around me but I don't show it. I isolate more. I start to feel like my life is one sick joke everyone's playing on me. I feel like people are more aware than they let on. Like no one is genuine. I believe people are talking badly about me or hiding stuff from me(it's not a conscious belief like it's more something my brain automatically determines as fact) I feel like no one actually cares it's simply a role they are playing. I feel like my phones hacked and someone is definitely watching me. I get paranoid there's hidden cameras everywhere or even sometimes that someone's stalking me. I've occasionally heard bangs on my window or my window rattling but I'm pretty sure they were auditory hallucinations. Very much "The Truman Show" thinking


Etc.(symptoms i'm not positive are related)- My thinking, perception, and beliefs are not grounded in reality whatsoever. In the sense that I feel like i have everything "figured out". I know why everything happened in my life the good and the bad. There's just this obvious pattern that supports whatever I'm thinking at the time. I believe I know how the world works and why it works that way. I believe I've figured out my mental and physical illness. Like there's pattern in everything and anything like the world's been speaking to me through signs and events. Sometimes even that I can just know people's thoughts and I've just been gaslighting myself to believe I'm crazy. Like there's this code of existence I cracked. When I feel like this I don't tell other people because I believe they wouldn't understand.(which is probably true but not for the reason I think at the time lmao) 


I really appreciate anyone who took the time to read this!! I'm not quite sure if all of these are related to bpd or not. I'm often not even aware I'm in these "paranoia episodes" until after the fact or I'm aware somethings wrong and I feel extremely disconnected but thats about it. Can anyone else relate at all? If so is there anything that helps you when this is going on?