I messed up. Asked my FP (friend with occasional benefits who I’m in love with) how he knows somebody he’s been talking to (because I did some stalking and found out they’re only 17) and… basically accused him of being a creep but turns out there’s a perfectly valid reason for him knowing this person. He’s understandably extremely mad at me right now and said he’s done with me and doesn’t want to be friends. I’m so so so mad at myself right now. I sent it late last night when he was asleep and had so many chances to unsend it before he woke up. Now I might have lost the important person in my life… I don’t know how to deal with this. It’s just self-sabotage and I hate myself