Imagine that you are standing on an extremely high cliff, looking down. It’s absolutely petrifying, but for some reason you can’t move. 

But all of a sudden somebody nudges you, like they are pretending to push you off to spook you, so then you get this jolt where all your nerves are tingling and your heart is pounding.

Hopefully you know what I mean, because that is exactly how I’m feeling all the time. 

I am constantly having anxiety (I am standing on the cliff) - from the moment I wake up, to when I’m work, crying in my car home, and then before bed where I stay up until 3am in my own thoughts, finally I fall asleep but I only end up having nightmares. Rinse and repeat. 

It’s so mentally and emotionally exhausting. On top of it - something triggers my anxiety even worse (like that’s nudge on the cliff). It is so much easier said than done to just step away from that cliff, but for the life of me I can’t. I can’t make it stop. I can’t get out of my head.