It’s been 4 days since he’s been mad and ignoring me. This is an LDR. What I did was say his ex probably cheated on him and that’s why she left without an explanation. I know I messed up really badly. I wasn’t thinking when I said it. I probably hurt him extra because he has diagnosed paranoid personality disorder. 

Last night he reached out to me and told me “I really like you, I miss talking to you, but if you mess up like this again it’s over.” We talked a bit, he even said I was “still cute”, but he was still clearly mad and blaming his bad mood on me and saying he would feel better without me right now. He started talking more about how hurt he was by the argument and I started talking about it and I mentioned “she” in my sentence and he said who? And I said “your ex” and he said “ok fuck you.” It’s like when I say anything about the argument he shuts down and gets really angry. 

The next day he started replying to everything with one word and later ignoring me again, and I started apologizing and asking why he was ignoring me and he claimed he wasn’t mad but later he said he was mad. I told him to talk to me when he wants to, and he said “ok” and sent streaks on Snapchat to me but that was it. He didn’t try to talk to me tonight. 

I don’t know how much longer I can last with this. I was looking forward to hearing about his move in to his apartment because we are both starting uni and it’s really exciting, and he’s moving tomorrow and I’m going to miss hearing about it. That crushes me. I miss video calling him and talking to him and I miss his support. I feel so lost without him. I can’t believe I hurt someone I care about so much and I lost his trust probably. He’s never talked about breaking up and yesterday he gave me an ultimatum and that shocked me. 

I’m so worried he’s going to leave me and never talk to me again or the last time he will talk will be to break up. Can someone please reassure me he won’t leave? I can’t fall asleep my eyes hurt from the lack of sleep and I feel sick to my stomach. I was suicidal as well during parts of the day. I can’t deal with this and thankfully I have therapy tomorrow to talk about this. 

I’d love some reassurance right now.