Hi all, so I kind of just need to vent and have no friends other than family or my boyfriend so I came here.

I (26F) have had anxiety since I was little, I had an abusive bio-dad who has been out of my life since I was 8 but he left me pretty messed up.

Last year I met my boyfriend and we clicked instantly and everything has just been so easy with him, I could genuinely see myself spending forever with him. But I am scared that my brain which overthinks everything and anything will ruin it, if not now then down the road.

He is quite good, if I am having an anxious thought I can tell him and he will talk it through with me till I am okay again.

Now I normally spend Friday-Monday at his house and then see him mid week… except he has Monday off works and asked if I could go home on the Sunday night so he can have a lie in (he would have to get up to let me out as I don’t have a key).

Now whilst I understand his request to be reasonable it made me so sad and I kept it together but started crying as soon as I was alone and thinking ‘maybe he doesn’t like sleeping with me anymore’ ‘maybe he’s bored of me’  ‘what if he doesn’t feel the same’ - I just feel so sad and panicked because I am scared something is wrong even though there probably isn’t 

Anyhow thanks for the space to vent