Things I should be doing
• College
• Go with friends 
• Have a girlfriend 
• No fap
• Working 
• Driving a car
• Looking what to do in my life
• Be happy or content
What I'm doing 
• No high-school diploma 
• Never been kissed
• Forced to work 
• Never drove
• Use distractions to create an illusion of comfort 
• Masturbating
• Procrastination 
• No friends offline or online
• Sad but not sad just pure lazy
I'm miserable I'm lonely I feel like I let people down. Today is probably going to be bad. I know what's wrong with me I think? But i do nothing to fix it and I know I have to just suck it and just do it. But each time I do suck it up I just do it for that one day. When I walk in a room I feel like im a monster or something because the room seems to turn quiet and awkward  everytime. What can I do ?