I don't care if I'm depressed anymore, I don't care if my life is lost, I don't care if everyone has abandoned me, I don't care about having a job, I don't care about having a girlfriend, I don't care about my future , I don't care anymore, I don't care if I've stopped taking care of myself, I don't care if I'm losing weight day after day.  I am completely numb.  It doesn't actually suck and it's not cool either.