I feel like I’ve hit my rock bottom and my body is having an actual reaction to it. I’ve suffered from GAD and depression for years and I’m 27, in a job I despise, living with my mother, single, and lonely (my friends all moved to other states). My dream is to be young and selfish, quit my job spur of the moment and buy a one way ticket to somewhere exciting for travel. I have a conflicting internal compass, one arrow points to responsibility saying don’t quit your well paying job in this economy. Also you can’t travel freely because of Covid. The other arrow says be free, quit, do the selfish thing you want to do because you’re in your 20s only once and stop over thinking. Truth is, I’ve been depressed and anxious for a long time and I’m comfortable being in this cowardly rut because it feels safe. I wish I had the courage to do EXACTLY what I want in the moment. I’m currently sitting in my childhood bedroom having an anxiety attack anticipating work tomorrow and just being disappointed in myself. Either choice is easier said than done. I just needed to vent thank you for reading.