We got married a few months ago and he is literally perfect. The sweetest and most loving dude in the whole world and he's been that way since day one. 


AND YET I am constantly freaking the fuck out and trying to 'catch him' somehow. I feel so crazy because there is absolutely no reason for me to be so suspicious. It's like, I tell my brain "Husband is awesome and loves me so much--he would never do that to me." And then my brain is like, "You dumb, gullible bitch. He is absolutely fucking someone else and even if he isn't, he will eventually." MAKE IT STOP ffs. I just want him to know that I love and trust him but I feel like my brain is actively trying to ruin every single one of my efforts to be a good wife.