Hi! I’m a 16yr old girl and I’ve been suffering from mdd (major depressive disorder) and other mental illnesses. It has gotten to a point where my anxiety and paranoia made me loose all my friends that I had and now I have been completely alone for the past 6 months. I took this time to work on myself and I must say I see some progress. But I still suffer from major anxiety when interacting with people daily. Just small talk or anything. I am always so uncomfortable and scared. Scared of saying something weird, wrong or not getting it right. It’s exhausting. I’m scared of making others angry or disappointed in me. I wish I could do better and be confident and self aware. How do I get more energetic and enthusiastic while talking to people? I feel like I lack so much and that there is nothing good about me. I can’t stand it. I want to live and use my youth. I don’t want to be lonely forever. I realise, I have to be mature now. There is so much going on right now and me growing up. And it’s overwhelming. I know I’ll make it but I am so frustrated with myself and so, so lonely.