I go from feeling incredible and having a great time to feeling like I don't even want to get out of bed. I know having highs and lows is normal and I don't think I have bipolar disorder but I'm worried that stuff is getting out of control. What's crazy is that nobody knows how I feel. People think I'm anxious like everyone else, but nobody knows I'm drowning inside. I'm a star student and I'm getting into university on scholarship. How do I build myself up to have a conversation about it? When I try to talk about things like this I usually get minimized because I have a sibling who self harms so everything seems trivial in comparison I guess.