I’ve been taking my meds. I go to the gym Monday- Thursday. Like what more do I have to do before I’ll be okay?

Sorry for the mini rant I just know my friends are tired of hanging out with Eeyore all the fucking time. Shit I’m tired of being Eeyore. I just want to not want to die.

And I just had my meds upped so let’s see where it goes. I’m so tired of being in this seemingly endless rut of depression.

Also how do you make yourself get up and brush your teeth, hair, and shower? It’s so difficult for me lately I just don’t know how to feel like I deserve those things.

Like my depressed brain tells me I don’t deserve a shower or clean teeth and I’m tired of like being gross. I just don’t know how to tell myself I’m worth basic luxuries like that.

Okay now I’m for real sorry for the rant I just need help. I have therapy the 16th. I’m trying so fucking hard and it’s just not working. I eat 3 meals a day like I’m really trying here guys.

I just want to get out of the void without using drugs except the ones I’m prescribed.