Even now in college I still am the weird kid...I was treated like a freak growing up, and I'm treated like a freak now. Girls are scared of me, guys avoid me, and this thing in my head, I'm guessing you guys understand, it wants to make them hurt, it wants everyone to suffer, to understand my misery. I don't know what I'd do without this thing, even if it ruins my life, it makes me feel like something other than a freak, keeps me safe.