I can’t even hold a casual conversation.


Me and someone I was talking to had a misunderstanding about what I’ve said. I don’t usually give a lot of details in what I say unless I know specifically what they’re asking for. So with questions like “what are your hobbies?” I give very straightforward answers like “Video games”. I don’t elaborate on what games I play or what I’ve played. I feel like I’ve disappointed them based on how I talk. 

I also don’t talk like other women do, I don’t use exciting punctuation like exclamation marks or give details like I’ve said before. I also talk very directly so a lot of things I say without harmful intent come off as really rude and uncaring. Because I’m so direct, people criticize me for not being feminine. 

What’s the point of even trying? Being myself is not a good thing and I can’t act like someone I’m not. Why am I even allowed to live when someone with potential dies?