This may seem to be related to an ED but it’s not because my BPD is heavily focused on my appearance. 

My sister asked how much I weighed and I said I haven’t weighed myself in years and then I told her last time I weighed myself was in grade 9 and I weighed 123 pounds ( I’m 5’7). Then she hit me with “ so you’re probably like 140 pounds now. This sent me into a spiral because in my own mind I never thought I gained any weight from highschool. I still fit into my size 2 uniform, and I also still wear size 2 jeans. In highschool I wore a 4 or even 6 sometimes. So technically I’m smaller now. Also 20 pounds is a lot right like a lot a lot, it’s not like she guessed 5 or even 10 which could easily be true, or a guess based on the fact that people gain weight in general at this time. But 20 makes me feel really shitty about myself I’m already not wanting to leave my covers or look in the mirror after she said that. This really tipped my bucket and it was something so simple. I just don’t ever want to eat again and I just got comfortable havin more than 1 meal a day.  

I’m exhausted and this is the most minor thing to other people