If you're sure you don't want a baby, it's so frustrating if someone keeps saying "in a few years you will change your mind" or "you're saying that because you don't have a baby yet". And it's the same as when you're suicidal and sure that is a burden having to make it by the end of every day, then someone says "good things will happen" or "you'll change your mind later, it takes time" when? how long? I've waited for 10 years and nothing changed. And i'm tired, living is nothing but a pain now. 

I wish someone would just tell me that they'd be happy when i was gone, as they knew i'd be at a better place and i didnt have to suffer anymore.