i (f19) have been with my girlfriend for around a year now. in the beginning, i had a lot of anxiety about how i really felt and got medicated. since january, we have been going really strong. we celebrate anniversaries together and go on plenty of dates, and we’re even getting our first apartment together next year. i would have doubts about how i really feel, but after talking with her about it several times i know that she does, too. i want to stress that during these good times, i feel love for her so strong it makes me cry and i really enjoy our time together. 
i got really crossed on saturday and have been feeling that anxiety from a year ago creep back up on me. it has me wondering if i really love her. i can’t stand to look at pictures of us together, to be romantic with her, and sometimes looking at her makes me feel guilty. but on the flip side, i feel so much better after talking to her about what i’m feeling and she’s been very understanding of how i feel. 
but i’m still so paranoid- did i ever really love her? what if i can’t be with her? do we need to break up? the last thing i want to do is hurt her. i don’t know if i need advice or anything, but i really needed to get this off my chest.