I don’t know what it is. I feel like i am always failing in life in every aspect, i want so badly just for a group of friends who i don’t want to think are weird, i just want a normal life where all my friends aren’t alcoholics and where they don’t so drugs all of the time, i just struggle so hard to try and move on and find new people but every time i just fail. because of this i can’t find myself doing any schoolwork, even the really important stuff that will make me move on in life, especially university but still i can’t, i’m just being prevented by myself and i can’t get around it and it’s killing me all the time it’s painful, i don’t know how to put it into words and it’s so hard to make sense of but because of this i can’t find the motivation in me, the stuff i used to do i can’t do anymore, my friend i really like i never see, every day just sucks and i’m just waiting for something good to happen, and i don’t even know what that is. i hate how my life is falling away from me and my future and i can’t do anything about it because i’m too depressed to realise that work is top priority but it feels impossible, anyone got any advice for me