I keep thinking about past events where I've been terrible to people in my life. In fact, I've felt so guilty about these things so much recently that it's affected my daily functioning and I almost did something really stupid. The thing is, I've apologized already, and in most cases, I've apologized multiple times. I keep forgetting that I've apologized and I end up feeling extremely guilty. This has been affecting my relationships and I nearly lost my 5-year relationship with my boyfriend because of it. I don't think this is paranoia since there is basis in reality for me to feel this way, but it keeps affecting me I don't know what to do. I've finally got into counseling so I'm going to bring this up to her the next time we talk, but is this anxiety? Is this paranoia? I know that I used to think that people were always out to get me, that random people on the street would say mean things about me when they didn't, that my boss wanted to fire me when she didn't, and other thoughts. I don't think random people say mean things about me anymore, and I know people aren't out to get me and that I'm not going to get fired for no reason. I think because I've stopped having these feelings, that I've transferred them onto a real problem I've had, but no one is thinking about what I've done and how its affecting them. I just don't know what to do.