Hi everyone, I hope as much people possible will step into this post.
Long story short: I suffered from major depressive disorder, twice in my life, and now I’m experiencing a third event. So, every time that I fell like this, I do the most stupid thing I could do, going in this Reddit section. So, I suffered from a serious depression twice, but I recovered from it twice as well. It was a long, extremely difficult path, but let me tell you this right away: I lived the happiest days of my life after depression. When you’re depressed you think that it’s the most impossibile thing in the world to recover from it, that you’re not going to be the same ever, but that is a lie. You’ll be the same person you were before, and it might sound crazy, but when I recovered I was thinking all the time ‘why I was thinking those thing?’ It sounded impossible that I was thinking about death and pain all the time. You will enjoy life again, fully. Actually happiness will be even more intense, for how much you suffered. Again, it’s an incredibly difficult journey, and you need to take action. There are many roads, family, therapy, drug and so on. You need to find your way. But please, don’t waste your time here, because I will tell you something: most of the people sharing their stories are maybe experiencing a particularly difficult day, and they write here to exorcise their pain; in Italy we say ‘mal comune mezzo gaudio’ which means that if someone shares your same pain, it’s a little relief. But these people will eventually get better, but that post will stay there forever. Posts from months or even years ago might be wrote by people who recovered fully, and now they’re enjoying life again, and they will never ever step into this section again. Please, share and find stories of HOPE AND RECOVERY BECAUSE YOU NEED THOSE. Depression is the most tremendous thing in life; today, after months and months of calm, I’m feeling depressed again. I’m thinking about death, and I cannot even get up from the floor, but I know I will feel better. I need to understand why I’m feeling like this, because recovery requires tons and tons of work, but it will eventually get better. If I would have told myself during my first depression that I would have been happy again I would have believed that I was completely crazy. 
You can recover. Please, don’t share your misery or look for other’s, try to be happy again. I promise you can.