On Friday, I was really drunk and I stabbed my self in the leg over and over. I haven’t been myself lately; I’ve been more withdrawn. My depression, my PMDD, and my BPD has been kicking my ass. Since I’ve been with my boyfriend, I’ve rarely gotten to spend time with my friends. On Monday, I went to go help my friend move, he got really mad because I ended up staying later then I intended and I alluded to just staying there. I went home and told him he cannot treat me that way. We made up. The next day was my friend’s birthday and he wanted us all to go the bars to celebrate. Now, I wasn’t originally planning on going, and I told my ex that. He got really mad because I ended up changing my mind because my friend convinced me I should go. He blew up on me. Then while I was at the bar, he tried having a conversation with me over text. I let him know I wouldn’t really be able to text since we’re celebrating my friend’s birthday. I had my phone in my backpack instead of in my hand, so I wasn’t really checking it. I didn’t text back for like 2 hours and then when I checked my phone he had texted me a few times (memes) and then recently he asked who’s house I will be staying at. I didn’t respond within 4 MINUTES and he said fuck you and broke up with me. Then he went on twitter and posted “I think borderline personality disorder is just a medical diagnosis for “this is a horrible person and stay away from them”,  more than it is an actual mental illness. He said a lot of other mean things saying I don’t care about him, and that I’m selfish. But I disagree with that. Like I said, I’ve been really depressed so I know I haven’t been my usual self. So I told him today “I cared a lot about you. I guess I was just doing a bad job at showing it, and that I’ve been really depressed so that may be a factor”. He said “we’re all depressed hoe. Grow up.” I feel sick about all this, I just ran into the bathroom and threw up on my floor because I couldn’t make it. There are horrible people who have BPD, but not because they have BPD. I just wanted to vent to other people who understand this label people like to put on us. 
TLDR; bf broke up with me. Made some really mean comments about my mental illnesses