I was diagnosed years ago with BPD and Bipolar. I remember looking up the information on BPD and feeling so completely broken, it was sort of like a death sentence in a way.. This was how I was made, this is how I will always be. I've avoided the diagnosis, and have just been treating Bipolar, but.. I notice I have a lot of BPD traits in relationships.

I notice the hell I put people who are close to me through, and a lot of information about BPD and friendships.. Basically, I get "don't have friends, at least not close ones", and it just lists off so many ways I am fucked up, and how many ways I negatively affect my friends.  I feel at this point, I need to just push the few friends I have away in order to protect them from me. 

BPD people.. Should have friends?