Last session, my therapist induced a panic response in me about 10 minutes before the end of the session. She did so by invalidating my stated feelings of being concerned that my progress seems to have stalled and I don't seem to be learning any practical skills.

Two weeks passed and today she spent our entire session having the "is this therapeutic relationship salvageable" discussion, and she also said to me basically "when I triggered you, your responses were aggressive and inappropriate".

I'm pretty fucking mad that I've basically spent $300 over two weeks to get dismissed on several different fronts, and now I feel like the asshole for not wanting to go back.

I'm just so exhausted by it all. I can't get a psychiatrist to review my medications (which are no longer working properly), because I have a cluster B disorder. The public mental health system is happy enough just to let me carry on in abject distress without intervening, whilst also going "depression? Anxiety? Poor baby, let's get you some pills and therapy! And if you're having a hard time, reach out for help!" Whilst simultaneously telling me to fuck off when I ask for help for my very real and serious mental health problems.

It's really wearing me down and I'm just kind of done with everything.