Hi all my birthday is in two days and it seems that every year I tend to feel more  lonelier … and I get more upset and small stuff I expect out of people so each year I sabotage it by not doing anything and crying alone sorta making it come true what I don’t want to happen

Anyhow I will be at work for my birthday and I want to figure out how I can try to be upbeat and happy since I will be around people 

Mind you this is my first time having a birthday at work for this is my first job 

advice thoughts ?

I also need to come up with an answer on how I will be spending it since I don’t intend on doing anything