I should preface this by saying I believe my problem is interdisciplinary. It began as a hormone thing (from using steroids - testosterone), which evolved into a psychological anxiety/depressive disorder, and now almost seems spiritual. My anxiety is not "normal" and I hope someone here can relate- I could drink 10 drinks and still feel my anxiety some days because it seems to supersede my own mind or any substance I put in it to 'numb' it. 

I have entered this cycle that has been going on for months now. During the week, when I'm working at home alone I feel isolated, depressed, and anxious. Even a phone call with a friend gives me anxiety to the point where I just want to hang up and be alone. However, come Friday, I'll go out with friends and feel anxious until we have enough drinks together and the energy is at a high point of the night. I'll still have anxiety, but it's manageable. The following day, my anxiety is farrrr lower and I actually enjoy being around people. Then every Saturday and Saturday night for the past few months my anxiety is almost vanished. I'll go out again with friends and have a blast because I feel normal. Sunday comes around and my anxiety is still much lower. It only begins to creep in when I stop hanging out with my friends and go back home. By Tuesday my anxiety is back in full force. It seems to me I have these walls up that don't allow me to 'connect' with people until I'm in this rhythm of being with them / drinking with them for at least a day. How the hell do I break this cycle?

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TLDR: My anxiety disappears on the weekends and surrounds me during the week, I'm lost