i’ve been stuck in this mentally hurting relationship for awhile and they made me choose between them and my FP. and i was just so scared of getting abandoned by my partner, so i chose them. i talked this over with said FP and they said they were fine with it. but this event kept re-occurring. and just i was being such a horrible and distant person to them and they just said they don’t want to be apart of my life anymore. i can’t blame them for leaving because of my horrible behaviour. it just hurts so much to see them to leave, they were my everything. we did everything together and now i’m just alone and hurting so much. and i’m scared i’m going to go back into a self-harm relapse.