Got a summons today. Fortunately for me the city I live in doesn't do anything to skippers at the moment, because so many people skip here it's just unfeasible for them. So I can take advantage of that. But it's still stressful, I'll overthink it, doubt the information I have despite it coming from trustworthy sources. And knowing I got 5 or so weeks of this stress doesn't make it any better. 

I have personal reasons I'm against being on a jury, which I won't go into because this isn't a political sub, and there is a good chance I'd get booted out for said reasons. But simply going sends my anxiety soaring, the idea of being picked and being anxious the whole time I'm on the jury, not being able to get a good amount of sleep and possibly oversleeping, and most importantly the idea that my decision in someone's fate was wrong. I don't want to think I sent someone to prison who was innocent, I couldn't live with myself, and I'd spend the rest of my life second guessing myself. I don't want that weight on my shoulders. The last time I went I nearly had a full blown anxiety attack twice.

This isn't my first time doing this and I'm able to use my experience to help me through it, but at the same time that experience makes me dread the next few weeks.