So back around last summer-October I was on an antidepressant called Trintellix. It wasn’t perfect, but I was doing allot better! Had wayyy more good and awesome days (I use a mood app). 

I decided to ween off of it though because I was getting some weird heart palpitations. Other than that, I loved being on that med. 

The issue I am facing now is that I’ve been off any antidepressants for almost 6 months, and I have been gradually doing worse. My parents and my boyfriend are really against me getting back on anything without trying other things first. And I HAVE been, but it’s a long grueling process. I found out I’m gluten and lactose intolerant, I’m about to take a urine test to check my hormones (possible pmdd), started a supplement + pre and probiotic regimen, and I’ve been very slowly working on finding a therapist. All the while juggling staying afloat, having energy to work (barley can. Only work 2 days a week), managing daily anxiety, which turns to depressed feelings sometimes. 

I agree that I should try these things still. Especially the urine test before anything, but I am struggling. I keep thinking about when I was on Trintellix and had much more energy, I use to dance like every morning, started working out more often, entered grocery stores with like no anxiety. I miss that so much. It’s hard when the biggest support people in my life don’t want me on anything though. I know it’s coming from a good place, but trying to do all these things is so hard and I am so tired. It feels endless. 

But then I think, well maybe I can fix it without meds. I’d prefer that! Maybe I should wait a little longer? See what comes of these other things I’m trying? I just feel I’m gonna be suffering for no reason in the end though. 

Have any of you struggled with this dilemma? Did any of you fix your anxiety without meds? How do you deal with the people who usually support you, not wanting you on antidepressants? 

FYI: I have GAD, panic disorder, ADHD, and trauma