What do I even do. I want to live, but I don’t see myself realistically fitting in with society. I’m fine socially, a little awkward is all. But the whole working 8 hour days 5 days a week for the next 35-45 years, if I’m lucky, just doesn’t sound fun. I have a lot of other problems too, it’s not just the work. But when I sit and think on it, the work part really pushes me to the edge. 


And I’m not lazy, I graduated HS in 21, chose not to go to college, and have been working since. I started working part-time pretty young, but now that I’ve gotten the full-time experience, it just doesn’t seem worth it. I would rather not exist than be miserable at a job all my life. Not sure if my brains messed up, well obviously it is, but that’s just how I think.