I am currently in my room typing this. I am in college and I want to get to know people and even meet someone special. I have been looking for things to do but there hasn’t been anything really interesting. I went to a job fair but I don’t seem really qualified for anything there. 

I feel utterly lost. I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel completely empty, as if the whole world around me isn’t really even there. It’s as if all I ever really do is float on a current, constantly moving forward but at the same time I have no direction. 

I don’t even know what is true anymore, everything has become so blurred, so abstract. There is no clarity in my life anymore. It is like I am living in a dream, but not a happy dream but a depressing and melancholic one. 

I want to wake up, but I can’t seem to be able to.