I have no idea how to fill my days up. It’s really disheartening spending my days not doing much. I don’t work or have friends (I sabotage so much) so it’s difficult finding something fulfilling to spend my time doing. I feel lazy and stupid for how my days end up like this. I’m not sure if I have any priorities or passions anymore. Sometimes it’s hard to motivate myself and it’s been hard to find things that keep me interested and focused. And even more so, it’s irritating as fuck and I get angry at myself and everything for not functioning how I want. I spend a lot of time talking to my boyfriend while he’s at work as well. Waiting for his texts to hear about his day and what he’s been up to. Sometimes I miss him so much because we used to spend all of our time together. I moved away from him so I feel slightly more empty than usual. I’m finding it hard to be myself again...and also be by myself again. I’m not sure what interests me anymore. I don’t know how everyone else is able to make the days go by. I feel so stupid. 