I’m twenty years old, I have never been in a relationship, I have no social network, I have no career going for me or even a clue as to what I want to do. Everyday is an unstructured mess living from dopamine hit to dopamine hit. I struggle with social anxiety and awkwardness. All I want is to not feel so empty for once in my life, but I don’t believe that I deserve to feel whole. I haven’t taken any action. I’m making a change to that by starting therapy in a few days, but I don’t know how to forgive myself for being so late to start my journey of self improvement.