I don't know how to explain it, I just can't put a finger on anything. I just feel empty and alone all the time. I don't have the energy to do anything but listen to the intrusive thoughts in my head tell me I'm worthless and she's better off without me -which in all honesty at the moment is true. I'm so touch starved I sit in the shower and cry some days. I'm just waiting for it to pass by because I know with this disorder I can't have a healthy relationship or even intimacy because I misconstrue even the slightest bit of attention as something monumental. I just wish I knew how to feel the happiness I see everyone have.  