I’m having a hard time feeling happy. I am trying to do the things that I know make me feel good, even though it’s hard. I make the bed, clean up, cook dinner, get to bed early/read.  I try to treat myself with coffees, and I plan little outings to my favorite places. I still don’t feel happy. It feels like I’m just going through the motions. That, or I’m incredibly stressed and anxious. I stopped taking my anti depressants because I felt so blah. So neutral. So whatever. I felt like I had no personality. I wasn’t sad but I wasn’t happy. I felt nothing?? I was so tired of feeling that Way, I decided I’d rather just feel something again. I am happy with my decision. I don’t want to be dependent on taking them (also I am bad at taking them every day which adds to my anxiety). However, I really can’t live like this either. It’s getting worse. With the season changing too, its easy to slip under. It’s either a panic attack or a slump. No in between. This is the longest rant ever. 

Bottom line: what things make you happy when your are in a funk or state like this?