Everyday is the same and has been for years. 

I can’t think of a time where I’ve been genuinely happy or enjoyed myself. 

I wake up in the morning, be late to school, spend my lunch in the bathrooms alone and go home. 

I have no hobbies, no talents and no friends. 

Some days I go without talking to anyone at all. I’m 16 but feel like I’m 80. Like I’m completely alienated from everyone around me. 

My parents don’t seem to care much either they just say that they’ve tried their best for me and that I should stop complaining because I’m making them depressed too. My parents only care about what grades I get in exams. 
My parents want me to study medicine which is hard to get into- so I’m kind of stressed about that also. (I don’t even want to go to uni or do anything as I don’t even really want to live anymore). 

I don’t know what to do anymore, I just spend my free time in my room on my phone alone or revising or schoolwork. 

My only hope is getting into college or university far away from where I live but I need good grades to do so, and to be honest I just don’t feel motivated to live anymore. 

I went to counselling a few years ago and they just told me to join a youth club where I can socialise-
When I told them I had social anxiety they didn’t seem to care and kept suggesting the youth club. Every time I try to talk to someone new I feel awkward like there’s nothing to talk about. 
People in my year in school have so many friends and enjoy their life but I’m the opposite- I just feel like an outsider no matter where I go. 

I asked the doctor to give me meds but they said that they didn’t medicate young people that readily (I’m 16) so I gave up on counselling/therapy. My parents are against me taking meds also (idk why)

I told my school I have depression and anxiety but they provided no support and told me to sit in an empty classroom if I’m having a panic attack or “feel low”. 

It just feels so lonely like nobody cares or relates to how I feel. No one ever asks how I’m doing at all it’s just like I’m invisible and don’t even exist to anyone. 

I feel like I’m trapped in life with nowhere to go. 

Does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone know what to do? Will it ever get better?