If I get pssd I plan on killing myself. My life will be ruined because I planned on having a family. I'm still basically a virgin, slept with one girl that I didn't love and I'm scared I won't be able to share the experience with a woman I love. I've never experienced love in my life and I doubt I will if I get pssd. I'd rather die than live life without sex. People keep saying I'll recover but I see other stories of people that didn't and got pssd. I've been on invega, haldol and abilfy. I'm on forced treatment that ends in 4 months.