So I had been ok for a while but I've been battered by lots of external stuff lately and I'm falling. I feel like I'm under a wave that just keeps crashing down on me. I can bloody breathe. I opened up to my therapist an I feel scared about that. Like confronting how crap I feel and that I'm falling. She's lovely and wants to see me again next week to check in. I just feel so alone. I can't let anyone kkow how I'm feeling I've got to stay positive for everyone while holding it together. My internal monologue is so black and I just want to hide. I want to cry and hide but I can't.