It can be at anytime of the day, no matter what I'm doing but it mostly happens at night when I'm laying in bed getting ready to fall asleep, my mind begins to race at like 100 mph of just awful things. Things that are awful, that hurt and seriously get me to freak out, it's anywhere from something terrible happening to someone I love and care for or someone kidnapping one of my kids or even both of them. It never just goes away either, it'll keep me up until morning, sometimes I'll have an anxiety attack because of it, sometimes I'll lay there and cry, or I'll go sit in the room with my kid and cry ther or bring em into the room with me and hold them. It's got me that fucked up and that scared..

I've been doing my DBT exercise, my workbook that I've restarted, I have an appointment scheduled to see my psychiatrist in a couple of weeks and a mental health counselor next month but I'm trying to reschedule that for something sooner.
I'm just so tired of the constantly feeling like something bad is going to happen to someone around me, to myself, to my kids and I don't know how to make it stop. 

TLDR; I can't control my thoughts at times about bad things happening to my loved ones and I don't know what to do to make it stop and it's actually scaring me.