So, I’ve broken up with my boyfriend. It was over me thinking he ignored a text from me when I was pretty low. I know this is classic BPD behaviour. My BPD is at its worst in probably a year, so incidents like these are becoming regular again. My rational voice doesn’t have a lot of power rn. He’s explained he didn’t do it intentionally, my head won’t allow me to believe that. To me, he doesn’t care, never did and he definitely ignored me intentionally. A day goes by and now I’m beginning to regret my decision of dumping him, but I’m not sure if that’s because I’m scared of being alone or because I want to be in a relationship with him. I’m not able to differentiate between the two. I feel like believing him and giving in is betraying myself and allowing myself to accept mistreatment. My rational head says he may not have been ignoring me but if I forgive this, even though it’s small, it chips away at my self worth. Even though for a healthy person without bpd this wouldn’t be a relationship ender, it would be a healthy conversation. Advice would be appreciated