Maybe. 

I need to let him go? 

I didn’t split last night when we talked. I communicated. And it was fine. 

But. I feel like I’m constantly chasing him???? It bothered me like hell that he didn’t reply to me on snap. And when I saw him active on Instagram I lost it. I msged him asking if him to reply. “Did I do somrthing” 

The convo was fine. He replied straight away. He told me how sometimes he dsnt even kno I messaged him. 

And for some reason that rlly hurts me Becuz. I would hope he would be thinking to himself like.... damn I hvnt heard from her. Maybe I should check?? 

But. I forget that regular ppl probably dnt feel that immediacy that I feel. Plus he is my FP. So. I alrdy know the balance between our feelings are probs very outta whack. 

I feel like I HAVE to talk to ppl. 

Idk. Maybe I need to let him go??? 

How do u guys know when someone is bringing you more pain than happiness???? 

He’s not bad to me. He’s great. But it’s like. I’ve gotten much bttr at controlling myself. 

It’s jst it was bothering me. Idk. I wish I had waited. 

Sometimes I wanna see how Long it’ll take him. But he even told me he was busy. And it’s like. What can I do?????? 

Maybe I need to let him go........ for my sanity. 

Cuz yes. I know I’ll probs b sad for awhile. But I’ll get over it. How many ppl have I left alrdy? I won’t jst block him either. I’ll tell him straight up if it comes to that. 

But. Maybe it’s for the best?