
Tl:dr - the therapist was weird about my bpd diagnosis, it's making me very uncomfortable

I'm a 17M and recently got diagnosed with bpd

Im sorry i had to bring out this alt account for this one. I don't want my friends knowing.

(You can skip a few paragraphs to see my actual question if the background is uninteresting)

So this started with a year of me being unmotivated and unable to focus on my studies, being lethargic and irritable and basically depressed all the time. i have been a bright student all my life and this was so concerning, i decided to ask my parents to take me to a medical professional. They took this relatively well.

The psychiatrist(?) Prescribed me medicine after talking and the ink blot test, said a few sessions of counseling would decide if i need further counseling or not.

My parents immediately rejected the medication and tried a different person (a therapist this time, i think.) Who told them the same thing after a few sessions, that i will need medication.

So They found another therapist for me, who seems to be fixated on convincing me i don't need the medication, (which is unnecessary, i don't WANT to take medicine)

THE IMPORTANT PART:

Our last session i asked her to tell me what is wrong with me. The first one only said i had "mood disorder" which had me googling medicine names to find out wtf is going on with me.

The second one didn't diagnose me with anything either, and this time i was determined to find out if there was anything wrong with me or i was just lazy. She said i had borderline personality disorder, but also followed it up with "but everyone has it, me, your mom-" at which point i interrupted her asking how it could be a "disorder" if everyone has it? I regret doing now, because the diagnosis still doesn't feel....certain? I googled bpd, realised it is very probably an accurate diagnosis, but I'm still unclear about this. Our sessions are 90 percent of the time focused on ways to push myself to study.

How does bpd *really* work? I don't mean the symptoms found on google. How can "everyone" have it? 

What is this wise mind stuff she tried to show me with a venn diagram. Did everyone else get shown a diagram like that? 

(Rant)
My friends are no fucking help. I confided in the two friends closest to me and they sounded so fucking uninterested. And they keep trying to push me to study, and i fucking hate them for thinking i need them to mom me around. It feels like i have noone who really understands. My parents certainly don't. I regret telling my friends about this. 

It would be nice if someone here could help me out.


Tl:dr - the therapist was weird about my bpd diagnosis, it's making me very uncomfortable