Day 4 in my bed 
I think the world is closing in on me and I feel ok with it. 

I have a therapist I take meds I’ve been at this a long time. I’m going through a high conflict divorce and my ptsd is being used against me prob along with my bpd and I went from being a sahm my son is 15 to being kicked out of my life on a restraining order in 15 min and made homeless. Restraining order went nowhere but you can imagine just what this did to my mental state. I was married for 16.5 years. I have an apartment now and started over but it’s been a year and some days I just feel this level of defeat where I just want to quit. 

I guess I don’t know what I’m looking for. I don’t seem to care much about living and can’t anchor to anything anymore. 

So, what do you do when you don’t care about living?