I (23F) moved back in with my parents last year after finishing university. Being at home is... tough. It's literally where all my triggers are, including my parents (one is bipolar and the other is comorbid bipolar and bpd), and I've been acting out in all the classic ways and didn't even realize it until my partner pointed out what I was doing. During university, I have never acted as emotional and paranoid and controlling as I do now, and I realized during high school it was the exact same way and all my relationships during then had the exact same cycle. I started DBT and plan to move out in the fall for school again (I don't plan to move back in w my family because it has been literal hell for me).     

I guess I wanted to ask, even with trying to minimize any potential harm in my environment, is this the best I can do? I was looking into books to read on my own time but they all seem to have tones of stigma surrounding them, and I don't want to read that. I tend to internalize most of the lashing out rather than inflicting it on my loved ones but I am scared I will lose my relationship. He doesn't know about my diagnosis but I plan to tell him. I feel like it has come in periodical 'waves'  aka whenever I am living at home and is very environmental-based, is this normal? :(