My mother verbally abuses my brother and I, and I don't know how much longer I can take it. I hate having to hear my mother yell at my baby brother, and hearing him cry. She got upset at me for defending him, and told the both of us she's not buying groceries for us, and that she is going to shut off the water. I don't think she's going to go as far as shut off the water, for I don't think she can do that, but her english is bad so she may have meant something else. 

I don't wanna be home anymore, and I've tried to get social services involved. That was after I came out of inpatient. They see the canned food, and the clean house, but most of the food we have is expired. My mother lied to me multiple times saying she's going to go shopping, or get us food, but she goes to the casino. Recently she said she's going to get a new dryer and washer because ours died, but when I called her she said she's at a friend house, and she was back from looking, but I can hear the casino music in the background. 

I want to end it, I hate being hungry, I hate my mother, I hate how my brother suffers, I can't do anything, I am powerless. I don't care about grammer in this post. I have no friends, and I have nobody to go to. I want to end it soon. I'm incredibly lonely, and I don't know what to do. Ive tried to go to the nearest group home, but they were full. We don't qualify for SNAP either. I know my only way out is to be gone. 

I've tried to make friend posts but all the friendships never last... I'm not interesting, and my useless knowledge doesn't appeal to anyone... I myself is useless.