I’m just at a loss. I really screwed up at the end of my last relationship. I did a lot of shit out of spite and anger that I felt justified doing at the time. I typically feel power in vindication. It took me a while to move past this, however. I tried to rectify the situation and tell the truth to the people I spewed off to but it has just made it worse. I just want to make things right but I don’t know how. In my spiteful hatefulness I messed up a lot of shit for my ex and I feel awful about it now. Do I just leave it alone or is there a way to make things right? I’m trying to work on peace before anything because I’m currently 8 weeks pregnant and severely high risk. I am trying to the limit the stress because I don’t want to have another miscarriage. I am trying to work on being the better person but I’ve only made baby steps so far. I just feel so lost. I didn’t mean to fuck things up. For anyone. The amount of hurt I felt was just unmatched. I wanted to hurt him because he hurt me but I don’t want to be like that anymore.