I have no clue where this post belongs but I figured this would be a better fit than other options. Please suggest a change if you have suggestions on a better place to post this.

I've been fighting my issues with sleep among my other disabilities such as bipolar, ADHD, OCD, Tourrettes, SAD, Depression, etc... Something that I remembered recently scared me in a way. I remembered it mainly because I was being criticized for not being able to wake up to alarms or when needed. I have to get at LEAST 9 hours of sleep before I can even wake up. Everyone that knows me well says I'm "just lazy" and/or "don't want to wake up".

I had a train horn alarm that would literally be right next to me on my nightstand and it was the loudest thing my parents could find back then. It would wake up the whole house and could be heard outside. I still didn't even open an eye. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time...

A year or so ago I was living with some roommates. One of my roommates had to yell at me and shake me to wake me up. They told me that the house was on fire and filled with smoke. (I called BS because they were a very sarcastic person...). Sure enough, I opened my eyes and smelled the thick smoke. Thankfully the fire department put the flames out in time so that the house could be patched up.

Looking back on that moment made me think... Is there something else going on here? I literally can't wake up. I've done three separate sleep studies throughout my life and after the second one, I had my tonsils and adenoids taken out to try and help my sleep apnea. The third sleep study was pretty recent (within the last 12 months). They said that everything looked good in regards to sleep apnea.

I'm curious if my depression would have anything to do with this. I feel so sad and depressed every day with no motivation... 

Any and all positive comments are welcome! I need to figure this out.