i have MDD, ADD, OCD and SAD and few last days i’ve heard a male voice whisper ”hey” twice. it sounded like it came behind my door, but there was nobody. the voice also said my name and ”open”, but those weren’t very clear so i’m not sure about it. important to note that my father had psychosis and schizophrenia, but my psych nurse wasn't concerned.

in the past i’ve had these weird dissociation attacks where my vision goes weird i forget who i am and where i am and i get stuck in this kind of loop where i try to tell myself what is happening but then lose track of everything again and it keeps repeating like this for a while.

i think i also had a panic attack yesterday at school after 5 hours of sleep. my psych nurse told me to check my heart rate sometimes, because the last time it was a little high. i was at school and i checked my HR. i became worried because it was 100 and it started raising over 120... so my heart was pounding and i could see my heartbeat through my shirt. i was so jittery, my muscles were tense and legs were so stiff when i tried to walk. i was dizzy and i almost passed out. i was searching for ways to calm down your heartrate, but they didn’t work. this shit went away once i went outside and when i got home my heartrate lowered to 80. i was so tired and tense the rest of the day and had to take this day off to recover.