ever since i was a young child ive always had intense paranoia over house fires and fire in general.

for quite a few years my paranoia hasnt been that bad and ive been able to live a fairly normal life and sleep normally without issue.

now its gotten worse again, i worry myself so much i cant fall asleep, terrified there will be a fire in the house while im asleep and my pets and my mom will die in pain alone. i end up passing out in the early hours of the morning.

i dont want to tell anyone because i dont want to be a bother.. ive been putting up with this and many other mental problems for a long time now without being medicated or having therapy. sadly mental health services in england are beyond abysmal and im on a waiting list im more likely to die on.

is there any way to cease this paranoia? ive tried to debunk it with common sense and logic but i cannot.