Over the last six months, since my birthday, I’ve had these overwhelming thoughts of no one wanting me or caring about me. I thought it was just me being angsty about not having a girlfriend or something stupid like that, but now it’s growing into thinking my close friends don’t want to hear from me or be around me or talk to me, then into my family not caring about me or not wanting anything to do with me. 

I’ll go to text them, and my mind is instantly overwhelmed with “Nobody wants you, just leave them alone” “You’re just bothering them” etc. And then I go days or weeks on end without talking to anyone besides my co-workers. They hit me sometimes randomly too, like this morning when I was taking a shower, it was the worst it’s ever been.

Sorry for the word vomit, but I didn’t have anywhere else to go and I don’t want to waste a professional’s time if it’s just nothing.