So full disclosure...I've never talked about this on Reddit before, let alone to really anyone other than my wife and grandma. I used to think posting to reddit was either not necessary or a waste of time, but I've come to realize that I am just looking for unbiased support and responses, and was hoping to get that here...

I am a 26 year old male married with 3 kids.  We just moved to Florida, and when the idea and opportunity moving out of our previous state came to light, I got really excited. I've always wanted to live in a warm climate, and I just knew deep in my heart that it would benefit our family. And so far, I think overall it has. And I also truly thought that my depression would be at an all time low. And here I am feeling extremely wrong about that. 

I am basically at a point to where I am doubting myself and I am at a really low level of self-esteem.  The moving process was in itself the worst experience of my life, and at the time I took it as a learning moment/life lesson because I knew in the end we were getting what we wanted.  And the last 3 months have had a lot of exciting moments, but also a lot of depressing or frustrating moments.  

Since moving, we've had a tough time with our kids.  We initially thought the transition would be smooth for them as they are young enough to not fully understand the world around them.  But since moving, they've had a really tough time adjusting to a new environment, which in turn has made every day a stressful day for my wife and I. On top of that, my grandma who raised me since I was a young toddler is likely about to go into a nursing home for dementia in another state as I can't care for her and neither can my uncle or aunt.  That alone has made my anxiety and depression really hard to control.  The icing on the cake is now I am in a good amount of debt from the move which I knew was going to happen.  I allowed it to happen knowing that I can make up for my losses with my income at work.  But I just feel like no matter how much I tell myself it's going to work out in the end and I will recover, the universe is out to get me and keeps throwing curveballs at me.  I likely will be having to find another job within a year as my company is moving, and on top of that I'm about to be late on my bills which I never have been before.

I feel guilty for posting on here mainly because I know there's a lot of people out there in the world that would tell me I've done this to myself and it's my responsibility to get me and my family moving forward. And I will never deny that I have a responsibility to keep my family going financially, physically, mentally. I guess in the end I'm posting on here for any advice on what I can do to try and control my depression and keep motivating myself to push forward and try and grab each situation by the balls.

I appreciate all of you for taking the time to read my little life story here.