I’ve always known I’ve had anxiety but lately I’ve been experiencing episodes of some sort where I feel completely outside of my body and don’t know what I’m saying or doing and have extreme paranoia. I’ve also been having really bad suicidal thoughts that I just cannot get rid of. I am very broke and don’t even have health insurance and I have no idea where to even begin. Should I find a therapist first? Or a psychiatrist? I have no idea how I would even pay for it though. Any advice would help