Ive been looking for a job for ages and I finally got offered one which was at my local chip shop, it was my first ever job so I was nervous to start.
I did my first shift out of nerves and felt like crying throughout the hours and I felt so embarrassed I did such a shit job. Working at a chippy there is constantly shouting and I’m really shy so I just felt like I couldn’t physically speak like I wanted to but I really just couldnt. 
I was meant to go back the week after but I really couldn’t I felt like crying when I thought about it. When ever I tell people why I’ve quit the job they just laugh saying ‘well I feel like crying when I think about my job’ which makes me feel so stupid. I know everyone gets anxiety but when people don’t understand how bad it can actually affect people I feel like I’ll never be able to get a job I really hate myself I just feel like dying