In the last year I’ve become dependent on weed. It’s legal in my state, it doesn’t feel like a big deal with how casually people use it. However, I have been wanting to quit for a few months now and struggled. It’s my go to ‘out’ when I’m having a bad day or feel I can no longer cope. I’m also dependent on it to sleep. This in itself isn’t a problem but I feel for myself it is. I’m not improving in my life and may in fact be declining. Last week I was very sick and diagnosed with pneumonia. Obviously I had to give up smoking while sick and I’ve made the choice not to start again. Tonight I’m feeling lonely &amp; sad. My FP has plans and after not being able to really spend much time with him after being sick I’m upset. I really want to get high. I’m thinking about taking some sleeping medicine and going to bed early. But that high is so fucking tempting.