I'm too anxious to post or comment or interact with other people on the internet, even if I realise that I'm anonymous. I get this feeling that it's not worth my time or that I should be doing something more productive. As if someone is going to judge me being an idiot and wasting my time on the internet. Or that my concerns over my wellbeing are just me making up my mental illness or imagining things. Or that I don't really have anything to contribute to a discussion. I get this feeling that I don't really exist in this moment. 

I'm hoping there's people who can relate to this feeling of being detached from everything. I feel like I need to get better to start living my "real" life.

This is my first post, I just wanted to vent and prove to myself that I'm not just wasting my time and I'm not a worthless bag of turd. I'm actually living my life and trying to work on my issues and heal.

Not sure if this is more suited for r/dissociation, but anxiety and dissociation are kind or intertwined. And I definitely am suffering from anxiety. Sorry if this post is a bit all over the place.