So I’ve been smoking daily for almost 3 years. I’ve noticed that when I’m sober, my symptoms are much, much worse. I have a lot more outbursts and I’m just in general usually not in the mood to talk to anyone because I fear whatever I say will turn into an outburst. After I’ve smoked tho I’m okay. I can talk and laugh with people without blowing up, I can act like a normal, functional human being. Now in the past 3 years I’ve only ever had to quit once, I went cold turkey for a month and it was terrible. That’s when I realized I was dependent on weed. I worked drive thru in a fast food restaurant and would have an episode almost daily. I pushed almost everyone I cared about away. Like I said I’m very aware that I’m dependent on marijuana, but I don’t see why that has to be a bad thing. It’s no different from someone with a physical sickness taking their meds everyday. Like if someone with ADHD skipped their meds one day and was acting extra hyper, and someone close to them noticed they would just say “oh, he just needs to take his meds he’ll b okay” but yet if I blow up because I didn’t smoke that day, I’m a monster and I need to control myself and get my dependency in check. Anyone else feel this way? (Not looking for someone to come in and tell me that what I’m doing is wrong, just needed to vent and maybe see if anyone else can relate)