My issue is that I reject healthy love. I look for partners that are emotionally unavailable because they are projections of my own issues. They don’t believe they are worthy of love or are “broken”. I’m convinced that if I can make them believe that they deserve love or if I earn their love, that it will make me believe that I too deserve it. I find comfort in the absence of love. In the few cases where either they start to love me back, or I find a partner willing to give me proper love.. I protest that I am unworthy or demonize them, light everything on fire and run away. This pattern has sometimes remained prevalent in friendships too. 

How do you start to believe you are worthy of love? How do you learn to accept and give it properly?