I feel like this is kind of hard to explain but I'll try my best.

I don't mean feeling nothing. I mean still having emotions, positive and negative, that can be extremely overwhelming, but also feeling like it's not entirely you feeling it. And it's like you aren't getting to experience the full emotion.

The stronger the emotion, the more I feel disconnected from it. Personally I've felt like this for a few years now, and I know what originally caused me to feel like this (I don't want to go into detail but a lot of stuff was happening, got to the point where I started dissociating for the first time I actually remember, and I've felt like this ever since), but whenever I try to explain it to people they don't quite understand what I mean.

It's frustrating because I feel these intense emotions while also not feeling like they're mine and it's both exhausting and confusing. And this feeling never goes away, it only gets stronger sometimes.