I'm a 30 year old male , and I'm just so fucking down I feel so hollow and seldomley feel any emotion from anything anymore , I wake up I work I go to sleep.

My social circles all but evaporated and I don't speak with my family much , well I try but they never listen or seem to acknowledge how I feel.

My friends all hang out without me and quite often I feel I'm deliberately not invited to social events , it feels I'm easy to forget , today my friend "forgot" we had plans and a hopefull date fell through for the same reasons.

I don't know what to do I feel so alone and depressed , I workout and god do I try to meet new people but its so hard at 30.

I have a problem with drinking if I have one I can't stop so it's making socialising even harder I just feel an outcast and I'm losing hope fast.

I feel I'm just a figure in the background , if I don't call or text no one does me and I've purposely not reached out for the last 2 weeks to see not one "friend" has even checked in.

Please any help would be great , sorry for the terrible paragraphing