This one is a little long, but I'm in terribly need for advice. 

I knew exactly what I was getting into, we met about 2.5 weeks ago, and we instantly clicked. Just a little bit after that we were calling each other cute little names, opening up about all the disorders i had myself and by that point, we were truly in love, at the time at the very least. We mostly talked on social media, until we got to meet 5 days after we first started talking. It was even better, we were in sync, we loved each other even more. We went walking for 5 hours cause she lives in a city close to mine and was just passing by. Our vibe matched perfectly. We had many kisses, were hugging all the time. It truly felt like we were in a movie. She has to catch a bus and go home. She told me she had stopped taking the meds because of me, she felt like she didn't need them when we were together. We were completely obsessed with each other, which was fine since we were both pretty fucked up in our own ways. Fast forward another week after we met, and it was still just as lovely. If i showed you all our conversations from these 2.5 weeks we've known each other, you'd hardly guess what happened next.

So i went to visit her in her city. Got there at night cause she wanted to cut her hair before meeting me. It was perfect, we walked for about 2 hours around her city, and then went to her home. We slept together, had sex, talked a lot, and then went to sleep. We were still in love. The whole day that followed was just as lovely, we were in sync. Had like sex like three times that day. Until it was night and we had plans to go to a party with her female friend. I really messed up and I'm not perfect, but i think she felt i was distant. I had a mask and a hat on, that i felt looked cool, she cutely wanted me to take it off. I didn't want to, and she told me not to touch her and stuff. After that, she was weird the whole night. I also had asked her friend to buy me some stuff, and i think she might've felt i was giving more attention to her friend than to her. We walked around the city a bit, until we decided to enter the party, the whole walk she felt distant, we barely touched each other. Maybe kissed a couple times. In the party i was sleepy af cause i had taken two painkillers, i think it might've seen i didn't want to be there.

After a couple of hours she told me stuff like "didn't i tell you it wasn't worth it?" alluding to the fact that i didn't want to take the hat off and stuff. Then some time later i tried to kiss her and stuff, and she said that we were "singles" at the party, and that she wanted to hang with other guys. I think she was simply trying to hurt me as she felt hurt by my lack of attention towards her that night and stuff. Cause she ended up not wanting to be with other guys. Next Day, i still had like to be at her house for like 15 hours before I would catch a bus. It was awkward af. But we still watched some stuff together, and cuddled, until she decided she didn't want me to cuddle anymore, as if she were trying resist and distance herself idk. That day she ended up telling me, she didn't feel anything for me and that it was all a big illusion on my part pretty much. Now, that's crazy. Cause we've talked about this before. The stuff she's done for me, that's not an illusion. I could show you the texts and the way she acted, how much she was obsessed with me... That wasn't an illusion.

That 5 hours we spent together, that wasn't a illusion. Not to mention her friend told me she talked about me ALL THE TIMEE, about how great i was and shit. I still want her back. Not sure what to do tho. Should I give her space, or try to talk to her, who is a pretty hard headed person. i have no fucking idea, but i just simply can't forget everything we've been through together, it wasn't a lot of time, but it was intense and some of the best moments of my life.

She might've acted opposite to emotion? idk, i wanna believe that, but at the same time she might've felt hurt for the way I acted that night, cause she was clearly trying to hurt me the way she told me those things at the party.