I was the one who brought my own research in and told them that these feelings, these mood swings, this instability is MORE than GAD, Major Depressive Disorder, and Panic Disorder (previously diagnosed).

This is hell. Idk how to feel. One second I feel happy and relieved that I have answers. I have a diagnosis. Simply speaking we can start treating the core of the problem instead of the “symptoms.” But then the next second I feel alone and terrified that people are going to run when they find out I have a personality disorder.  I’m scared that I’m losing my husband. I’m not what he thought I was when we married. I’ve gained weight and lost confidence and now he has to deal with a wife who has a personality disorder and honestly he hasn’t even expressed any interest in learning about it. Ugh. I’m just having a hard time wrapping my head around it and haven’t completely accepted it and could really use some comforting words.