I’m jealous that my boyfriend is so confident and loves the way he looks and is as a person , Because I don’t have that confidence to know that I’m “that girl” I’ve been bullied and made fun of since I was a kid and every now and then people tell me that I’m unattractive to this day , Now my self esteem has always been shattered I’ve never felt good about myself because nowadays the beauty standards are ridiculous and it stresses me out and makes me sooooo depressed! I constantly compare myself to these beautiful black women because I myself am I black women , I’m just not as beautiful as the ones I see Everytime I go out in public.. I love that myself finds himself handsome and good looking that’s good but sometimes I think to myself “When Will I ever get there? When will I ever be able to look at myself and accept ME!” it sucks because when we go out for date night I dread it but I go along with it , My boyfriend looks better then I do and gets hit on by males and females and I’ve always been told that if you get hit on by other opposites of the sex that means you’re good looking.. On a scale of 1-10 I’m a 5 , If not a 6 🙃 I’ve been depressed and crying all week long, This sucks 😢