I have no real friends, and I saw that this week. I have felt lonely a longer time now, and it is not fun. I do almost everything on my own and it hurts me alot that I have no real friends left. The only one I thought was a good friend to me, wasnt. 
Everyone stop hang with me, stop going out with me and shit like that. Whenever I ask if we are going out today, they say they already out and if I want I can come to them (and it always said in a way  of “please dont come”)
We are all mutual frienda and they hang together now, I just go out on my own like a fucking clown and dont know what iam going to do and then just go home again.

It is hitting me hard, I just want to go offline now and remove every social media for months