I’ve been diagnosed with generalized anxiety and depression, but recently I have been having anticipatory anxiety about crying at future events. 

For example, I feel a lot of anxiety around Christmas because I’m an adult now(25) and I’m very nostalgic about my childhood, so when I think about Christmas I just think about how it will never be like it was when I was a kid and then it makes me cry (I cry very easily). So last year I cried a lot on Christmas because I was feeling really nostalgic, and everything turned out fine…my parents and boyfriend were there to comfort me and they understood why I was upset. Nothing bad came from me crying except being a little embarrassed. And now that it is almost Christmas time I can’t stop thinking about what will happen if I cry again. I know logically that if I cry again it will be fine, but I cannot stop worrying about it and it’s getting to a point where I am constantly thinking about it and crying because I’m so worried about crying. And since I’m so worried about crying on Christmas that it’s making me cry, I’m worried that I will cry at other things because I’m worried about what will happen if I cry on Christmas. Like who thinks like this?? I’m literally ruining my own present happiness by thinking about what would happen if I cried in the future. If anyone else is dealing with something similar please let me know because I feel like nobody understands what I’m going through