 I just lost everyone I used to hook up with (I liked all of them but they treated my like shit) and I honestly feel like I have no purpose in life. I know it’s stupid af because they didn’t even make me happy but I can’t stand just being alone or even with friends and not have an FP who gives me some thrills and distracts me from my bpd reality for at least an hour. It’s self-destructive but I feel so empty without it lol. Can anyone relate?