Recently, instead of SI, I’ve been having thoughts of selling everything I own and just flying to anywhere. I know that this would certainly end in disaster, and I think that’s why I want to do it. I can’t bring myself to kill myself so I may as well do the next best thing and disappear. Idk. I can’t sleep but I so badly want to play hooky from work tomorrow and just drive for hours. I know I’ll probably have another miserable day at work, but the alternative sounds so much better. I guess I’m feeling really trapped and just want an escape from it all. I want to pull some Into the Wild-type shit.