I’m basically having a panic attack this morning thinking about the fact that the people who I love the most always leave me. Whether that’s friendships or romantically, the people I trusted with my life, the people who I swore were different, all leave. I just want to die right now. This has happened to me three fucking times. I can’t handle this. How I could love them so much and have them turn around and hate/feel nothing for me is so incredible in the worst possible way. I just want to be loved. That’s all I ever wanted and I can’t stop fucking it up.