i panic whenever i get embarrassed or thrown off guard and i lash out. 

this happens most often when i get embarrassed or thrown off guard WHILE i’m being emotionally vulnerable (talking about emotions, talking about things i’m emotionally invested in), since it’s usually challenging for me to be open about my emotions.

when it comes down to it i panic because i instinctually feel like people are always trying to humiliate me or antagonise me, even though it’s likely to not be true.

what can i do to convince myself that the persons involved probably don’t have bad intentions? i find myself going back and forth between logic and emotion before giving in to emotion and exploding.

recently i’ve learnt to withdraw from the situation before i react but i want to change the way i fundamentally perceive people. 

how do i remain firm in my trust in someone else? and how can i trust that people in general largely do not care for embarrassing me?