I feel like I’m stuck. The best way I can explain it is ever since I got to high school, everyone seems to be changing and I’m just static. I’ve looked the same since 8th grade (minus the weight gain), I still listen to Music I listened to as a kid, I haven’t had a first kiss, I’ve never even been in the talking stage with anyone. Idk if everyone around me is fast or I’m just super late but I’m 16 and I’ve never stayed out past 9 unless it was a church event, I be never skipped a class or done anything  in f bad in general. The few friends I do have probably only hang out with me because we grew up together. Realistically if we all hadn’t known each other so long, none of them would be fiends with me, definitely each other but not me. I don’t know how they even deal with me, they’ve probably only stuck around cause I’m more like a mom than a friend, always there when they need a shoulder to cry on, or need advice or just need to rant but never anything in return. Maybe they would be there for me if so needed it but I can’t bring myself to get help of any kind. Ima  perfectionist AND an actor so i do a damn well job of seeming like I have my shit together when I don’t.