It was more one sided romantic relationship, I crushed on him quite for some time. Wasn't talking to him a month after realising he doesn't see me as his potential girlfriend. Back then he was influencing me quite a bit and I loved the freedom of not talking to him. But now we're back to talking, and only after two days, I find myself thinking about if he messaged me when I woke up. 
Kind of feels like I still need more time to detach myself from him emotionally but also am wondering if it's even possible to keep the healthy distance while chatting with him, I would really to stay friends with him, he's wholesome. Just...god I don't want anyone as a fp, except myself.