in my late 20s. got a 4 year college degree. been struggling with severe anxiety problems and social anxiety my entire life.  have had depression on and off since 2008 when i was in middle school. largely neglected in high school, had no friends and sat alone in the library all lunch breaks.  was a loner in college.  since i had an undiagnosed learning disability i had to major in a  liberal arts degree just to get something.  now ive been out of college for over a year, and my only job is working at lowes.  have a girlfriend but our relationship is tumultuous.  tired of living, tired of getting up everyday knowing what a failure i am at life.  applied over 100 places just this year and all i've got back is 4 reject emails.  feel like going to bed and not waking up.  i can't imagine living the rest of my life like this.  i feel completely alone in my life, my girlfriend doesnt even talk with me any more and i have very little contact with my family.  dead end job,  no savings,  no hopes, nothing to look forward to.  tired of being told my whole life to work hard and good things will happen, just to end up doing the same old garbage the past 10 years.  everytime i try to talk about it with someone they say "Oh, just go learn a trade and go back to school". man i work 35 hours a week just to survive how am i suppost to drop everything just to get another certification that may or may not amount to anything? not even to mention that i likely couldn't pass the cert course.