hey everyone. this is my first post ever. i have bpd (duh.) i have just begun my journey into DBT and therapy. what i am realizing is that recovery is very different than recovery for other mental illnesses. you start to gain this ability for self awareness. i start to freak out or have an episode when my FP doesn’t reply to me or when something bad happens. and instead, my brain thinks, “hey. this is an irrational reaction.” except then it gets worse. i know it’s irrational, but i have the reaction anyway. i cant help it. and then i start to feel guilty for reacting so irrationally. does anyone else feel this way? it’s like you’re self aware, but there’s nothing you can do about it. 