so this past year i’ve been doing a lot of research into personality disorders because my mental health has been absolutely shit for a very long time and the closest thing that has come to what i’m feeling is bpd. however, i’m very scared that when i do go to the doctors that they will dismiss me or i’ll be on a waitlist and i don’t think i can go for very much longer undiagnosed.

i really want to/need to go to therapy and i’ve gotten a lot better at identifying what makes me feel certain ways and with the research i’ve done i’m sure it is bpd. 

i just wanted to see what anyone else did whilst they were waiting for diagnosis or how else i can prepare for if they do tell me i have bpd, because at the end of the day i’m scared of what this will mean for me.