I am so tired of wanting to die everyday of my life. 

I am so tired of my entire thought pattern changing every two fucking seconds. I want to be normal. I want to be happy. How can you therapy away something that changes every two seconds. Ugh! Ugh! Ugh!

This is just a rant. I’m fine. But I also deeply hate myself. But I also don’t want to die. But I also fucking hate BPD!