Hi I’ve been dealing with this over the last 2 yrs. It all started from taking a large dose of an edible and I suffered a horrible panic that brought a complete change to my mind. Ever since then, I’ve had this combination of depersonalization and fear of unable to control my thoughts. I’m a senior in HS and during this year, those fears have reintensfied to the point where it has been difficult for me to concentrate in my baseball games. Those fears include thinking about thinking (hard to explain - I have awareness of when my brain switches consciousness as that what caused me to have the panic attack off the edible. When I drink alcohol, it becomes worse the days after), my blinking , eye floaters, breathing, etc during my games and during school. It is hell for me as it has gotten worse over the past month. I feel like I have no answer to these fears as I used to be able to combat them with stuff I’ve learned since the edible that has worked. I feel like it went away during my junior year because the amount of stress quarantine brought was minimalized. My question is that should I try taking antidepressants and stuff like that ? Over theee last two years, most of the time I’ve felt comfortable with these thoughts but never fully happy ever but able to live and do things. Now its difficult for me and it makes life hard. Some days are better than others though. I’ve always been very against taking antidepressants as it scaries me a little bit and I don’t want to be label as a pussy as my Dad would put it. In addition, I have a feeling that the pills won’t help for some reason i don’t know. My entire goal all along since the edible, was to ride this out until I got older and to see what I should do. But this year and more so recently, it has become difficult for me.