I worked on myself for so long and got better. I took a chance, tried to see if life would improve. And it did. never felt so happy for so long. I was nothing short of perfect in being a healthy, supportive friend/partner. But 10 months later, the people I treasured the most ended up leaving. I’ve been suicidal ever since. Relapsed and been self harming for a month or so. Disordered eating habits since 3 months. I don’t know how to make it better. I’m broken. I feel guilty talking about my feelings. I feel unloveable. I want to give up.