A few months ago out of the blue at 3am in the morning I heard yelling coming from next door. I was watching Tv in my bedroom playing animal crossing when the yelling started. It sounded like my neighbor and they were yelling about throwing soup on someone and leaving them to burn alive. I was confused at what was going on and why my boyfriend wasn’t waking up to the noise. Then I started to hear my name a bunch and how Ill go to prison. At the time I worked at a hospital and I was like ‘they aren’t saying I did it are they?’
After that night I’ve heard other people whispering in my neighborhood about how I’ll go to jail/prison. I could be on the other side of the city and people would be whispering ‘thats that person at (hospital name) who threw soup on some guy and killed him’ and various versions of it.  I would never hurt someone and all I can remember is one instance where I delivered a food tray while the person was sleeping and when I walked away I heard something hit the ground and a guy start yelling, but the nurses station was just a few doors away and we’ve had so many patients become aggressive when they realize they’re in a hospital that I decided not to go back in and figured if I heard it the nurses did too? I don’t know. In hindsight  I feel like I could have made a better decision, but I also don’t work there anymore because of the amount of stress the place gave me. I feel like if something wrong happened someone would have asked me what happened by now? At least I hope so. It scares the shit out of me hearing people call me a murderer when I would never try to harm another person.  I started therapy and I briefly told them about this scenario and the voices. They said they don’t think I have schizophrenia but that it could be my body reacting to a high amount of anxiety.  I don’t understand why it would start at 3 am out of nowhere. I’m stressed constantly thinking I’m going to be plucked away to prison for something as awful as that or that people would think I’m even capable of that.  I am not on any medications and so far therapy has just been me telling them about my life and working through other things. Im tired of feeling like this and I don’t know what to do when I start to hear the voices (that sound very real btw.). Any and all perspective or advice would be very appreciated.