i dont know what to do. everyday i wake up and think about dying constantly throughout the day. it's the first thing i think of when i wake up. it's just gotten so bad recently. i just am *barely* existing for no reason except to not upset my family. this world is so fucked up and social media too and how people operate everything is fucked. i want to rip my skin off. i could fucking complain for 5 more paragraphs but i won't thanks for listening bye