I’ve suspected for years that I have BPD. I read my years old psychiatric diagnosis and I think the main element that put me in a category of having a depression instead of BPD was that my psychiatrist (or I, for that matter) didn’t recognize this ”black or white thinking” in me, or how it is usually described.

I don’t have so much intense romances or appraisal for people (great person vs. person I hate), but instead it is more like a neutral, non-threatening person vs. a person I hate. I get all that is described in BPD when I’m rubbed the wrong way, easily and intensely, with long or forever-lasting consequences. But I am rather sceptical and distant with new people, I don’t fall in love like a crazy, etc., nothing like that. But even a neutral person can disappoint me in a furious way.

Help? I am in a process of getting a second evaluation for some treatment and I’m kind of afraid I’ll be turned away.