Let me start out by saying that I sometimes have awareness of my delusions, and now is one of those times, but most of the time I just accept them as reality.

I have schizoaffective disorder and have been suffering from grandiose delusions for months. I really want to recover, but I realized that my grandiosity is the only thing keeping me stable. It's the only thing that gives me a sense of self-worth and self-esteem. Whenever I have moments of insight and see that they're delusions, I feel completely worthless and depressed. I get so much worse than I already am, and I'm usually already unstable because of the near constant hallucinations. How do I recover from grandiose delusions but not lose my sense of self and will to keep on?