For the background, I went to see the doctor because of depression but latter on being diagnosed as BPD. I read post about the doctor that refuse to treat that person but offered the prescription instead and I thought of my experience. 

The first doctor was super nice and understanding which actually relieved some of my anxiety to go and meet the doctor. But after that, it just going downhill from there. The second doctor was totally the popular girl at school that can’t never related to fat teenager that tried really hard at not crumble on daily’s bullies. And she not even try to keep her opinions on herself at all. And in the middle of discussion suddenly there’s two more doctors came into the room and what did they do. They came and play with their phones, what is this? A break room or something. Totally uncomfortable and on high alert because that is the first time I shared those problems and feeling with someone expect them to understand since its their field of expertise and all. And the last time I shared it with my family not going well and they told me to suck it up or I might become crazy and no one have the time and means to take care of me. Back to the story, she then referred me to the therapist but I still need to came in for appointment with the doctor because I refuse a prescription. 
Then came the therapist, once again I feel really uncomfortable and all that I need to talk about all those stuff again and lo and behold. She asleep, and keep on looking at her watch when she wakes. Like if you don’t want to do this, why did you ask me to came at that time. And when I ask about BPD and what actually that is, she said shes not sure and let me google it first and I was like wtf??  I left more angry, disappointed and hurt that before, like I’m just not valid at all to get the treatment. 
For the next appointment with the doctor, I told him(different doctor) that I would like to change therapist or not meeting one at all. He didn’t read about my diagnoses at all and just read a few lines when I’m in the room already and what he came up with was that I can’t seems to stay at one work for a long time. And keep making that point. It’s so humiliating because theres a nurse that keep making silent laughing sound, other doctor and a patient that keep making fun of me in the room too. Also he keep on saying he can’t help me because he have so many other patients to see and he can’t give me more time that the others. I know that a**hole, thats why I want different therapist. And he keep on insisting me to watch and read motivational stuff instead and the way he speaks was like I just making all this a big deals and I’m just to lazy to work and making excuses. 
I stop going to any appointment after that and mostly watch utube from psychologist to help with my symptoms. 
I went to the government facilities because Im broke and I refuse to go there again honestly. Thank you for reading my rant.