I had a bad episode this weekend. I was distant from my partner and then I lied to her about going to meet a friend, but really ended up drinking alone at the bar. When she found out she was upset and had every right to be, but now when I want to hangout with friends she gets hesitant. Which causes me to overreact and feel suffocated. Then I want to leave her but I know as soon as I leave I'll want her back. I dont know what to do because she says she accepts me and the disorder but it's hurting her, it's hurting us and I dont know what to do