i dont know if i worded this correctly but tonight was horrible. after struggling this past semester, i have no idea what i want to do with my life. i want to drop out of college and do nothing. i tried to distract myself with my job and working out this summer. my mom mentioned school today and i spiralled out of control. i cried soooo hard in my bed for hours, basically wailing. everytime my mom came into the room she wouldnt agree that i would amount to nothing. she kept saying i was capable of achieving anything. she also wouldnt let me say that nothing will ever make me happy. she kept telling me that i have so many things in my life that should make me happy. im so angry but i feel numb at the same time. my head is pounding and i cant stop crying. i literally screamed at her to leave my room everytime she wouldnt give into me. but now i just feel alone and i want to hurt myself so bad.