Dealing with a lot of recent losses lately. First it was my grandma which took some while for me to deal with and today I just lost my kitten. He was attacked by stray dogs and the image of him dying in front of me keeps replaying and I can't take it anymore. 
I adored him he had grown so much from when I first adopted him. Jesus if I hadn't adopted him,he would've still been alive somewhere. 
How do I deal with this how do I just idk I'm not in a good place