Hello everyone!

Currently, I am feeling not so good. Terrible really. And I don't like it!

**Dilemma: See my doctor for $600/45 minutes with the chance a new prescription will work or spend forever in a dark hole (for free!)?**

My insurance does not cover personality disorders (amongst many other things). My last bill was $600 and I can not afford that again (that is about 3 months of groceries for me).

Does anyone have any advice about what I should do?

I am diagnosed with BPD, Bipolar, ADHD, Depression, and Beta Thalassemia (genetic blood disorder).

I was doing well for a stretch of about a year. Then these past few weeks have gone downhill. I cry all the time, in class, at the gym, on the phone. I feel no energy to do anything. As a full-time student at university, I can feel homework piling on me as I have a full credit load of senior level math, physics, and computer science courses (as well as undergraduate research). I also work as a tutor and find it hard to concentrate on the students and help them.

The decline happened right around when school started. It did not help that my new doctor took me off of Vyvanse (20 mg) and Abilify (7.5 mg) at the same time. I currently take Lamictal (250 mg), Sertraline (100 mg), and Vienva (1.5 mg, birth control). Unfortunately, there are no breaks on the school bus so I can't drop out and I must keep going to finish the semester. (I graduate Fall 2019!)

What I have going for me: A rockin' partner who is helping me through this! Unfortunately, I am pulling him down with the weight of my tears. I would like to stop doing that as soon as possible.

Thanks for reading! Also, if anyone ever needs to vent or something, PM me.