I’ve had anxiety my entire life since I can remember. One of my earliest memories is being curled up in the fetal position on the family living room couch feeling lost and anxious for no reason. 

Therapy my whole life etc. my life is good.  Currently I’m trying to find a new, fulfilling job. 

I had a job interview last week that I crushed. I’m not a super confident person, but I feel confident about that interview. 

Today was interview two with the company. It was over zoom and there were two interviewers vs one person over the phone. 

I feel as if I was “good” in the interview. I did not feel confident. 

I think what gets me nervous is people looking at me. I HATE the spotlight. 

I have another zoom interview with a company I REALLY want the job for, round one, on Monday. Two people are interviewing me. 

Any tips on calming the f down? Thinking clearly and not letting my tornado of a mind take me up in a whirlwind? I am qualified for both these jobs and fit in very well with their values and am passionate about their causes. I just get so dang anxious! 

I scheduled this meeting in the morning so I don’t have all day to freak out like I did today (resulting in not able to accomplish other tasks, upset stomach, shakes) , but I’m not a morning person at all so I’m sure I’ll be anxious about that and not sleep 😖 

I just don’t want to kick myself here bc I should really have a good shot at these jobs.