I am a 36 year old woman and I have been with this person for 18 years.

I am going through an abortion and separation. My husband said it was over, he would never have me back. I feel I am beyond repairable now. 

The worst part is we have to live together for at least another year because of his job situation. I don’t mind supporting him financially, but living in the same house and knowing the fact that there is no marriage left is killing me. 

I can’t stand with the idea of him hating me. I am a kind, sensitive person. I fucking walk across the street if I see a bird walking on the sidewalk, in order to not disturb him. I don’t know why is this happening to me. I don’t have any tears left in my eyes.

Please share your experiences and coping methods if you had to go through something similar. Thank you.