The last few months, I feel like every conversation with my family is something I am doing wrong, or should be doing, or why I am not acting right. 
They are very loving, and admittedly I'm not completely awesome right now and am deeply flawed....but I am so frustrated. Like, it feels like they are hating on me and it just digs the hole I'm buried in deeper. 
For example, today my mom was trying to express how she wished we would help out more around the house. I genuinely was trying to explore this with her, and it seems like maybe her children (us) are not as considerate as she is, which is definitely something worth working on. 

No biggie, right? Well, somehow that morphed into singling me out for being  just do whatever I want..... Which is definitely true but coupled with stuff like me being selfish, lazy, inconsiderate which hurts because its not who I am. Generally I try to help out but I can barely manage myself, how am I supposed to go around loving all of them? I genuinely do try but I'm pretty hopeless, lonely and kinda sad at this point in my life and it feel impossible to be that happy, peppy and helpful girl they know me as at this point in time. Idk what to do. How can I be a good family member when I barely want to get out of bed? I just want to cry