I've had depression for more than half of my life. I feel very weak because of it. 

My friend circle is small but none of them have it. My in laws just don't get depression. 

I've been trying so hard to just function and pretend that I'm not depressed. When someone asks me how I am, I just lie and say 
"I'm good thanks" because I can't be bothered explaining what's going on in my head. 

I feel like I shouldn't be depressed. Why can't I just not be depressed...nighttime is tough again.