When I'm awake there's this dull ache in my chest that sometimes leaves me gasping for breath. I just woke up from a dream where I meet this great guy and I've been crying, desperate to fall back asleep. 

It hurts so much. For a while, I was able to ignore it by telling myself I'm better off without anyone--romantic or platonic. But now, especially since Valentine's Day just passed, it feels like I'm going to die. Either from sheer loneliness or by my hand.

I haven't felt this type of loneliness in about a year. I thought I tricked myself out of it. 

I don't know what to do.