I'm an 18-year-old guy in community college, I'm an addict, and I struggle w a lot of mental health issues. I met a girl who I really like, but as soon as it became a "thing", and we were holding hands are stuff, I got uncomfortable and I feel supper depressed, bc I like her, like, a lot. She's really smart, creative, funny, and got into ivy league schools and is just overall great, and I feel so incredibly...weak and stuff. She's less than a year younger than me, but still in high school, and this would be her first relationship also so I'm scared it will be an awful experience for her. idrk what to do.

feel free to ask questions cuz this was rlly vauge. thank u in advance