I started therapy last Wednesday, it went well… I talked about a lot of stuff and even the uncomfortable bits. Told my therapist the last time I hurt myself, yet here I am wanting to do it again. I feel bad because I told him I haven’t done it in weeks now, but I’ve been wanting to a lot lately and today is just a bit too much for me. Can’t really distract myself from it today and I’m sleeping alone for the first time in forever after I had a fight with my boyfriend. Don’t know how to keep myself from it when it’s all I really wanna do right now.