I just had a meltdown and completely fucking drowned my FP in paragraphs begging them not to leave me (there’s 0 evidence he was going to) and that I feel like garbage/idk why you don’t hate me/why didn’t we call yesterday. 

And he responded with “geez I need a sec” and holy fuckkkk it’s been half an hour and I’m giving him the space he needs because I completely overwhelmed him but I’m like for sure this is the end. 

I’m pretty good at keeping my splitting to myself because he’s the nicest partner I’ve ever had and I love him but then it just explodes like this sometimes and I don’t know how to handle it. I’m glad it’s more sadness than anger cuz I don’t ever want to hurt him but I’m so scared I just pushed him away. 

What do?