My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 3 years now. It hasn’t been an easy relationship and definitely not the healthiest.

I love him. I know he’s a sweet sensitive guy but he’s also a raging narcissist that struggles with addiction.

Recently he’s lost thousands of dollars due to a series of unfortunate events that lead to bad decisions and mistakes he ultimately can never take back.. I’m thankful no one was hurt in the process of it all.

He blames me for much of it. Some of it I sympathize with and some we just don’t agree.. although a lot of these events caused tremendous pain on us and the relationship… I still want to try my best to help the situation.

He self medicates a lot and I believe that’s where half the problem lies. I know he’s depressed and these drugs are how he copes. It doesn’t create a safe environment for either of us. If he could do something for himself to change his situation I believe he wouldn’t be depressed.

But his latest episode may have an effect on the rest of life. I try to be understanding towards his feelings but he blames me for pushing him towards a break down…

I don’t know what to do when he’s crying all over the apartment. Drinking alcohol and taking pills to feel better. And talking to him just causes hurtful attacks towards each other.

I know most comments will say breaking up will probably be what’s best. It’ll probably lead that way in the coming months. I don’t know how to comfort or mend the situation. I don’t know how to handle his depression or mine.

How do people who love each other hurt so bad? I know he loves me - he knows I love him. But this is misery.