I feel chronically empty unless I have a favorite person. Like life isn’t even worth living without one. I’ve always been this way. And I’m going through a breakup even though I broke up with them for being controlling and mean. And now I’m empty again. There’s nothing in life more painful to me. I have spent my entire life trying to run away from it. I’m trying to focus on myself and be alone. But this shit sucks bro. What am I supposed to do now. It hasn’t even been a week. I don’t talk to anyone else openly like I do to my favorite person, so now I’m literally alone.