So in the last 2 months I've started posting nudes on Reddit under a throwaway, seeking validation by sexting with multiple men online, I made an OnlyFans, I can't stop impulsively spending money on clothes and things that I definitely do not need. I'm not sleeping well. I'm extremely hyper sexual. The list goes on and on...


Overall I feel okay but I still question whether I'm hypomanic. None of these things I'm doing are like me. I'm self conscious, shy and anxious 95% of the time and I have no idea where this confidence or care free nature has come from. 


I'm currently taking Abilify (15mg). Not able to access therapy but have a care coordinator and a psychiatrist. Maybe a side effect of medication? I don't know.