Therapy hasn’t been doing much. Visualization doesn’t help me. The only medicine I’ve tried only made me worse. I don’t want to keep having nightmares each night. I hate that person made me this way. My brain is broken. I spend my time wasting away. Have no energy or focus to do anything I enjoy. And I feel disgusting in my own body. At least alcohol keeps the bad dreams away. But then I feel worse when I’m awake. Smoking weed only makes me more anxious. There is no winning here.