the person i love with my entire heart.
who i work towards and who  iwant to be with forever said he's over me and that there's nothing i can do. because i dissapointed him alot of times. and i am doing everything i can to work towards not being self destructive. we called and i cried for so long and his voice is so mesmerizing. i'm so in love with him i could hear him talk for hours

i'm so lost. i don't want to kill myself don't worry but i still put a warning because i just don't wanna live. i love him. i don't want to thinl about him with someone else it makes me cry. i love him so much i havw so much love for him. he told me he gave love to an idea of me not the real me. because i hurt him alot before. i am givinf him the real me now and he feels nothing  for me. i feeel worthless

i'm reading up on coping mechanisms and dbt in general but i'm so hopeless. i hate being here. i love him so much i'm so in love oh my god oh my
god what is the point