I'm in a situation where I have to decide between Valium or Xanax.  I just got a script filled for Valium, but when I told my psych how much I've been struggling with getting triggered/paralyzed in my room for hours, she said Xanax might be better for my situation.  But she said if I get Xanax, I have to hand in my bottle of Valium.  :'(


I have CPTSD as well, so I get stuck with flashbacks and freakouts that can last on/off for literally days at a time.  But I also freaked out and called 911 the other day because I just *knew* I was dying of a heart attack at the moment.  I was gasping for air and my heart was racing.  The emergency guys came in and tested me, and said my heart seemed okay and breathing seemed stable.  