Honestly I’m so fucking done. I feel like every single guy I talk to is super into me, really like me, slowly breaks down my walls, lets me trust them, let’s me see a future and then just fucking drops me. I was speaking to this guy for just over a month. Getting on really well, tell him everything, he was the one who made things intense, messaging all the time, calling me baby, saying he wanted a relationship. I open up to him about bpd, my fears, how difficult it is for me to fathom having a relationship, and he says he’ll never hurt me, that everyone who’s hurt me is awful and that he’ll love and protect me. GUESS WHAT I WOKE UP TO THIS MLRMING. HES BLOCKED ME ON ALL
AOCIAL Media. He dropped me. Out of the blue. The last combo he was calling me petal and his baby and telling me he wanted me and I was perfect and now it’s just lol nah blocked. I opened up to him, I told him I was petrified of not being good enough, I told him I was petrified he’d randomly leave. I told him exactly why I couldn’t trust him and THEM HE DOES EXACY WHAT HE PROMISED NLT TO DO. I’m a mess. I broke down in the middle of my city. I feel so duh king stupid for trusting someone again