
I can’t help but feel that my issues push everyone away from me, as if I am somewhat cursed and if it wasn’t for them people would stay. Like my mom used to tell me: “You make it very difficult for people to love you.”

At the same time I am so used to blaming myself for everything bad that happens that I sometimes fail to realize that other people also make mistakes and my behavior can also be a reaction to a someone or situation that was hurting me.

This disorder doesn’t let me trust and validate my own feelings and experiences. As soon as I feel anything there’s this voice blaming me and telling me how skewed my perception is and therefore should be disregarded.