All I wanna do is stay in my room. I can’t be bothered to do anything productive. I have school on Monday and I’m dreading it because of my social anxiety. I constantly think about this girl and if I have a chance with her. She’s one of the only reasons schools not a complete hell hole. I don’t get bullied I just don’t wanna go out. I just sit in my room and think about my life. My dad died last year and it’s my fault for not realising how sick he is. The only two things I think about is him and if I have a chance with this girl. She’s one of my best friends as well which is even harder. I have so much resentment for people who can actually make something of their day. I can barely be bothered to write this.