Hi all, I'm new to reddit and new to accepting my BPD, however I keep trying to think of how I got this diagnosis. I wasn't sexually abused as a child (to my knowledge) and I didn't grow up in an abusive household or an invalidating environment. My parents separated when I was young and for the most part my father was just absent though I know he loved/loves me. I can't seem to root this diagnosis though and it's bothering me. Recently I spent an arm and a leg purchasing E-books from AJ Mahari in an effort to understand myself better and it's all me to a T except for the childhood trauma. Is it possible to have BPD without the childhood trauma that seems to be at the centre of it for most ppl with BPD? Could my parents separation have caused it? Or my father being absent? I'm starting to wonder if I was sexually abused and just repressed it? I dunno I'm just trying to understand how I got this way. 

Any help would greatly be appreciated. I hope I didn't upset anyone. Please be nice. Thank you. 