called it - my "cured" status was just hope that I shouldn't have had, welp

I just don't want anyone to see me. I don't want anyone to talk to me or pay attention to me. I want to curl up and dwindle away. I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal, I'm just very confused and I don't know who or what I am, and people peopleing at me is making it worse. I feel like I'm letting them down, and I wish I could just know who the fuck is looking @ me when I look into mirrors. 