I'm so sick myself 
I'm trying to be positive and trying to asure myself that I'm going to be fine, and that this is just for Now, that I'll slowly change in the future, but I don't think so 

It's ok. I'm sure I'll do fine without any human interaction. Im sure it's fine. I just need to work on finding myself and loving myself. 

But it's soo hard. 
No Matter how  much I deny it, I still want someone to help me just one person. 

I wish I wasn't like this. 

I can't express how much I fucking hate this. 

I can't express how much I want to scream and cry out loud, I wanna shout, it's so hard and that I can't even cry freely. 

And I hate how this has become a routine, of me crying everyday in the bathroom or after shower.