TW - SI: please do not read if you’re sensitive to suicide. I’m sorry. 


I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ve failed my family, my boyfriend, everyone. I don’t want to exist anymore. No more feelings of depression or having to deal with my bipolar disorder. I feel so exhausted all the time and I’ve lost the will to go on anymore, I’m so much in debt, no matter how much I work I can’t seem to make it out, my mother makes me feel terrible and always uses my card and I can’t move out because she takes a lot of money so I can’t afford to move out. I’ve tried meds and therapy but I don’t feel like anything is working. I just want my misery to end for me to just be another statistic. All I can think of is death. I always have these nightmares or weird dreams and nothing makes me happy. I feel like I make my boyfriend suffer because of me and I hate it. He deserves the whole world and more, he’s the reason I haven’t offed myself entirely and can’t bring myself to OD or hang myself. I don’t want him to feel bad. I’m just tired... I want to leave. Thank you for listening to my inner thoughts.