How I know I'm currently in a real bad place I've stopped caring about everything and anyone I don't wanna be here I don't want to live I just wanna feel nothing and I have everything I could ever need a loving family a best friend you'd never think we would be beasties a car a house but I'm not happy because
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 I don't know why all I know is that I'm alive in the wrong place and definitely the wrong time where I just have nothing to live for rn for clarification I'm not gonna unalive my self but I don't see a good enough reason to stay alive rn 
Sorry for the mini rant but had to get it 9ff my chest.