After 2.5 years my girlfriend finally broke up with me. For a while it felt like it was coming, but then everything would get better, we’d both be so happy.

Our relationship was amazing but plagued by my constant attempts to sabotage it. I cheated on her twice for no reason I can explain. To me, it seemed I only felt love towards her, which is true. 

She finally just decided that she wouldn’t be able to forgive me and move on enough to trust me to be in a relationship. Maybe one day she said.

She was all I had, the only thing keeping me together from slipping back into the very depressed state I was before her. 

I don’t know what to do anymore.