I haven’t been formally diagnosed with depression but have experienced depressive symptoms since around March but they’ve gotten unbearable around June and now I’m working my way up again. I’ve been spending more time with family and doing things I used to want to have time for while I was at school. But my feelings and motivation have been like hot flashes, only the serotonin lasts less than five minutes and I want to cry out of nowhere when I’m doing something that’s supposed to be happy and fun. I physically can’t be happy without wanting to cry out of sadness for no reason. My appetite is almost nonexistent, I don’t feel hungry even when my stomach is growling. I can’t get myself to eat most days and I’ll eat less than half of my usual portions. This isn’t Ed related it’s me just unable to feel hungry. I am so forgetful and it’s been hard being present. I have found running a lot has helped me feel better but lasts around an hour. Journaling is good too. I’ve been ruling out physical health problems and talking to my doctor but the process of getting anywhere (getting therapy, medication, etc) is so long almost feels useless and embarrassing how many appointments I’ve been making. If anyone has any other ways to cope Bc I feel like I can’t get better sometimes.