Since college, I've been super in love with a particular field. I worked in the field 2 years after graduation, and then decided I wanted to go to graduate school in this field. I'm currently in a PhD program. I was elated when I got in, and now, all of a sudden, I hate it more than anything. I view it as completely the wrong choice, a dead end, something that isn't giving me any purpose or meaning anymore. I am recently diagnosed and my diagnosis is causing me to look at my relatively recent loss of passion for my field as possibly some kind of splitting. I wonder if I used this field to supply myself with some kind of identity and when it didn't fix me I split on it. Has anyone experienced anything like this?