This post is NOT a joke. Don’t bully me in the comments, please, this is quite embarrassing.

I’m not a degenerate generally speaking. I go to the gym and run 7 miles every day, I’m in great shape, smart, good grades, no porn nor do I masturbate. For some reason, I am addicted to initiating sexual roleplays with other men on the internet and I pretend to be a girl in these said roleplays. I don’t enjoy this, I don’t get a boner, don’t get horny nor excited, there is nothing interesting or good about these said roleplays. I don’t know what’s wrong me, I have to have some sort of awful mental illness. I do this every single day, sometimes multiple times a day. I get nothing out of doing it, I don’t even enjoy it, but I keep doing it and it’s such a disgusting thing to do that I only feel shame. Imagine talking to some cute chic over the internet  but they’re actually a jacked dude in their boxers sitting in their bed. I feel awful for myself and especially the other person, but I can’t help myself from doing it.

Again, I’m not joking. This is something I cry about sometimes. I’m otherwise a dignified and great person, but every day I roleplay as a cute girl online and do it while having no emotion. I don’t think I’m transgender, either, I don’t want to be a woman nor have I ever wanted to.