i (20f) am coming to the realization that i’m depressed and i’m not sure what to do. i am not super overweight, but i’m overweight and began keto recently to help me as well as working out 2x a day. i used to be really great at the whole workout thing until my FIL died 3 months ago and it just made things hard. anyway, i don’t go out with people bc i’m terrified that they will dislike me or talk shit about me (i recently found out my friend group was telling people bad things about me in a group chat with 1200 people that i left) and it leaves me being deathly bored every. single. day. which leads to more depression and i have horrible self image, which effects my intimate relationship w my boyfriend. i have not wanted to be intimate in months. i hate myself and i don’t know what to do. i used to be super content with myself but now i feel like i’m just here in my life waiting to die or something.

info: i’m not suicidal at all and i apologize if that comes across at all