I need to tell you something.

I'm 15. I have been suffering from depression, suicidal thoughts and hurting myself for some time. I'm taking medication for that, which has helped me. I wasn't suffering at first, when the pandemic started, and I liked online classes. But my worst depressive episodes were on March and June 2021. And in the 9th of March I was planning to take my own life. I also lost a lot of weight during that time, for not eating. I can say that I'm a bit better now, but I still have very bad days.

Today I has having very strong thoughts of suicide, because my parents were going to leave the house and I would be alone for some time. But in the end they didn't take very long, and I was sleeping when they left, so I couldn't do anything. 

I like expressing myself, and talking to people with similar experiences online (in real life I'm very introverted with no friends). So if you want to share your experience in the comments I'd really like to listen to you. Another thing I like is listening to music. Russian songs are sad and beautiful. 

If you don't want to talk about yourself you can tell me anything, it doesn't matter if it's sad or not, I just need to talk about something to feel less alone.