Called my ex last night and though everything seemed good he told me he loves me and the wants me to visit when he’s ready to see me but the day after I literally cannot stop obsessing and worrying like if it doesn’t go through I’m in a world of shit again I was finally letting him go with peace and love I thought I was hitting a turning point god please take me bc the pain in my heart and the mess of mind about this one person is going to take my life if I don’t do something ASAP he said he’ll call me in Halloween 20 days I’m gonna be absolute hell