Hey, 21 year old potato here. I've always had mental health issues, saw a bunch of different professionals that would either be incompetent or consider I was just a late teenager. Turns out I found a good therapist back in August and she diagnosed me with BPD like two weeks ago.
I kinda suspected it? It didn't really surprise me and that may have actually delayed the ”shock” of getting that diagnosis...?
But ever since I started following that subreddit I realized how much I actually. have this. for real. Not an excuse I'm making up. There's actually a clinical explanation for almost every unhealthy pattern in my life and  H O L Y  SHIT???
So I talked to my boyfriend about this and went half jokingly [slur] "so how do cope with your gf being ‘crazy’, lol" to which he just answered "I've known" and... that felt weird
But tonight he was actually complementing me on all the progress I've made and how I'm much more skilled at handling breakdowns and emotions and general, AND HE GOES "you're borderline and you're starting to accept it"
and it was like a crashing airplane in my heart??? I felt so insulted???? But I know it's the truth???
I fear I am ~not~ actually starting to accept it my dudes 