I (20) f. have been feeling numb and dead inside for the past 2 years . There is nothing to be looking forward to for me, so what’s the point in living? 
I tried to persuade my dream and totally failed, I dropped out of school to make it happen, I lost a lot of friends because all I did was focus on my dream that backfired… 
My parents stopped caring about me and cut me off completely, I found out that my boyfriend (the only person I had left) is cheating on me and texting multiple girls at the same time, I have no education except for a dancing degree which I can’t use and I work a miserable job with people that treat me like absolute shit . 
I tried to become a model since people tell me that I’m pretty but I gave up after being declined for 60 times … 
Honestly what’s the point in trying so hard if in the end we will all be dead anyways?