Sorry I just need to vent, I'm just so tired and so done. I feel like such a pathetic waste of space and I can't handle it anymore. I'm pretty high functioning, I'm going to work and school and everyone seems to think I've got my shit together. I don't and I'm so tired of pretending I'm OK. I can't believe no one in my family doesn't see me struggling? I feel like garbage most days, I'm so snappy and irate all of the time, I'm honestly so disappointed in behavior when I have my brief moments of clarity it's unreal. I just want to feel OK is that too much to ask? And maybe stop having my mini car melt downs where I sit in my car and cry and wish I got hit by a fucking train.