i study linguistics and love learning languages. i'm pretty good at it when it comes to reading and writing, but when it comes to speaking, it's like i know nothing. my mind goes blank, i forget grammar, and stumble over words, often sounding super choppy. 

speaking has always given me terrible anxiety. when i was younger i was basically silent with people i didn't know well. even now, in my first language, i rehearse most of what i say, and get panicked every time i'm put on the spot. but when it's a language i'm not comfortable with, it's 1000x worse.

this is becoming a real problem, because i study multiple languages and speaking is a big part of that. idk what to do, i'm just so overwhelmed.