It's really stressful having problems I can't talk about. Don't feel safe doing it. My life is private and the context is too personal. There's people I can talk to, but I don't think they have my best interest at heart. They might be using me. If I were to try and discuss it with anyone, I might come off as paranoid, but after many years of repeated abuse from certain entities, my concerns are legitimate. But I can't fight back against them for a number of reasons. My reputation is at stake and my family. It's really a disheartening situation for me. I'm trying to be happy with my life, but it would be too easy to expose my failure and discredit me based on the way I'm living my life. So people are taking advantage of me. Terrible situation. I can love my life if I try, but when people see that they are jealous and try to hurt you in any way that they can. So as I work the just rise above the years of depression, there will always be someone ready to knock me back down.