Instinct and emotions, feels like everyone around him is a robot and life is a predetermined movie they've had already dreamt off as childs with the same future persons and jobs(they predicted their future as well), can be really successful in society except for relationships(beacuse of lack of control only in relationship but they can actually get shit done if they are able to do something or else they get anxious) and they're not really good at writing(plus they never want to be successful so they always suck at everything including school, jobs ecc), feels like his head is under alcohol effect 24/24 that keep him from being agitated, sometimes has anxiety in embarrassing situations but at the same time doesn't feel remorse and when he hurts someone he laughs at their pain, has irritability issues but when he hurts someone he feels extremely bad and enters in constants states of crying and regret promising himself to change but without success(constantly irresponsible) which lead the person to an imploding rage and despair, has hallucinations and goes back and forth when listening to music and feels like his conscience is an insect that's possessing him, mission failed songs from videogames cause him to say to himself "you can't" and his brain starts running much faster as it gets automatically scared and starts crying, is afraid of it's own shadow, hates glances eye stare beacuse they scare him, every time he turns on the playstation he is afraid of the startup(not the classical RSOD everyone is scared of, I'm talking about PS3) beacuse he feels like it's moving too fast almost as if he's having an epilepsy attack, is scared of certain pissed off eyebrows and looks and is scared of people with huge chin, everyday thinks about the past and starts crying or going mad and smashing everything beacuse his past is also his present and he keeps doing the same mistakes hurting other people's feelings and feels like he has emotions in his mind that he would like to feel but there's something that's blocking the person from feeling them, the person overthinks to the point of sleeping or thinking that they can't think and are stupid, can learn different languages and imitate voice of the singers perfectly and with full emotional expression, has no feeling for anyone except for their beloved crush they're so afraid of beacuse he considers her to be lunatic like him and every time she tries to catch him he feels numb just as he does with anyone else but with her he feels remorse(and also likes dominant women and the smell of genitals and pee, even though he never ends up having sex cause of always being unable to either express those feelings as if they are blocked like they come and go immediately for unknown reasons which probably may be to overthinking or other things), being always angry or anxious or feeling numb or excited at the despair of others), is bisexual, when someone he loves ends up with the wrong people he can feel that person's energy being left in dark places such as harbours with bright lamps at night while a nostalgic song of that person plays in memory of her, if they can feel that persons energy entering into them as if the person who is now damaged is basically a walking ghost or a child, can learn different languages like they are his naive language and has a lot of sexual fetishes, is afraid of huge figures raising up in front of him or mountains and clouds who take a strange shape or form, is afraid of songs stuck in his head especially music boxes, has constant negative dreams and every time he dreams it's either a satanic dream, a monk temple, a natural catastrophe or even hell, everytime they hear a scary part of a song the phrase "yeah, keep telling yourself that, do you even understand what you're doing?" or "hehhe, I told you" repeats in their head, would you call that clinical depression, schizophrenia, sociopathy, asperger or autism? Cause these final three are pretty similar.