I destroyed my knee/leg skiing early this year. I had surgery to repair it. Apparently today’s appointment with my orthopedic surgeon was my last. He told me today that I had a lot of crepitus behind my knee - basically this painful grinding - and swelling. Despite the fact that I’ve had that all along and he’s told me it would go away with time as my knee heals, apparently now it’s permanent. In addition to all the other constant pain in my leg, the inflammation and grinding in my knee are now permanent. So I can eat Advil all day every day to try to help combat the swelling. Bye bye kidneys. Nice knowing you. I still can’t jog, let alone run or do any type of sport. I can’t sit on my knees or bend my knee all the way. I’m going to be broken forever. And all this pain is permanent. Do you know how hard it is to be a happy person when you’re in constant pain?! FUCK THIS!!! I’m 35!! I cannot live like this forever!!! I am fucking DONE!!!