It's been almost a year since i was discharged from a psychiatric hospital after a 2 month stay. (Serious suicide attempts using knife and rope) They had me on all sorts of medicine at the same time like Haldol, abilify, effexor and another one i forgot the name of. When i was released, i weighed myself at 178 lbs, which was 10-15 lbs lower than my usual weight. 

 I stopped all the meds cold turkey about 2.5 months ago.

Fast forward to this week, i weigh myself and I'm the heaviest I've ever been, 226.8 lbs. (5'8 formerly semi athletic male) 

I somehow let myself gain 50 lbs in less than a year. I'm pretty ashamed of myself. And i didn't even realize it! I figured at max i was 205 lbs, but nope, my estimate was 20 lbs off!

I guess I'm just looking for support. My goal is to get back to at least 185 lbs. 

Anyone else in a similar situation?