Sometimes I think about the way things have played out in my life. The childhood I had or the relationships I lost. The abandonment of friendships and the judgment of the religion I grew up knowing based on my mental illness and I just feel like mourning. I want to mourn the pain of all of these things without feeling guilt or holding onto them in an unhealthy way. I have nightmares every time I sleep of the abandonment or traumatic events replaying over and over and I just want to mourn what could be or what wasn’t. Is it okay to feel this way? Does anyone else feel this way? It’s not constant. It comes in waves where I feel almost entitled to mourn these things simply becuz idk how else to deal w them.