It's terrifying.  I didn't do anything silly and the few people around me said they couldn't tell apart from a look on my face when they first started.  I was fortunate enough to be at home when it started because it led to *a lot* of vomitting the first day (or so my journal that I don't remember writing says).

This morning was difficult again.  Memory loss and extreme fatigue.  One of my nurses came by and agreed that I ought to stay home today (I usually go to AA meetings on Mondays and Wednesdays).  I only know she was actually here because she brought some stuff for me.

Yesterday and today, I've been fighting a strong urge to self harm.  I'm not sure why I'm feeling like that, because other than these last few days, things have really been going great for me!  But wrestling with that in my mind probably makes me more susceptible to feelings like this.  The urge is so strong now and that's what prompted me to finally post this.

I'd love to connect with people who have felt like this.  ESPECIALLY if your anxiety causes you to forget things and/or influences your mood.