Sorry, I'm new to posting so if this is not how to post by using text I am sorry.

Hello, I (20) am currently very afraid of starting up college again in January. I switched majors twice because I didn't know what to do, and am at the moment taking a break until January. I secretly don't want to go to college, but my parents keep urging me. I understand education is important in today's economy, it's just that I am too scared. Back in high school, I failed my final math exam twice and my final history exam. It wasn't just me though, it was nearly my entire senior class, and due to so many fails, we were granted a graduation regardless. Why am I mentioning this? Well, during that time, I was really tearing myself down for not being good enough. I developed severe testing anxiety to the point where on the second attempt for my math final, if I didn't know how to solve a problem, tears would blur my vision. It was way too much for me to handle.

I cannot handle dealing with multiple projects or assignments at once. I noticed that when I was majoring in graphic design. The more work piled up, the more I would cry at night. I switched to animation, and not to anyone's surprise, was too overwhelmed by how much I had to do. I've tried planners. I've tried going by a small list, yet nothing was helping me. My college DOES have an option for exploratory, which is where you take all sorts of different classes to figure out your major without falling behind. I would take that, if only I wasn't so scared of failing to the point I can't graduate. In summary, I have a severe fear of college and really don't wanna attend, but also don't want to disappoint my family.

Again, I know education is important to today's society, however I don't think I'll be able to fit in any longer. I don't want a repeat of my high school senior year.