I hate that depression is an illness where the cure not only takes weeks to take effect, but you also have to find it first. There's TONS of anti-depressants. And odds are most are going to fuck with your system and not be the right one. It's just constantly spending money trying different ones for large amounts of time, feeling like shit the entire time, until you maybe finally find one that makes you feel less shitty. 

But even if you find one that might work, you first have to spend 2 weeks (sometimes more) dealing with terrible side effects that often times make the symptoms you're trying to get relief from WORSE. Like, right now I still have depressive thoughts and full on depression... But on top of that I now also have this feeling of physical discomfort/malaise as well as increased anxiety. What the hell? Why can't there just be an anti-depressant that WORKS quickly and doesn't have bad side-effects? Why do they all seem to take ages to work and give you bad-side effects almost instantly? Fuck that.

Almost every other disease has a quick treatment or cure available. It's just so frustrating that medication for mental health illnesses is basically like gambling for the one that might work. And when you find it, it takes ages to work and gives you terrible side-effects. I'm just frustrated. I want relief, but here I am still feeling terrible. Hopefully it will be worth it soon.