I will never get over the fact that what is trendy now is what caused me to be bullied in middle school. My BPD is due to genetics, unstable home life, and mainly trauma from 6th grade to 9th grade. I was emo back then and was vehemently bullied for 4 years until the rise of alt culture and the e-girl/e-boy phase that’s going on right now. A lot of kids who bullied me then are now wearing the Metallica and Iron Maiden shirts and listening to music that I literally was shoved down a flight of stairs for listening to. I think it really gets to me because these kids will compliment things I wear now that I’ve had for years, but I can still remember them making fun of me for all of it. I don’t want to sound like a gatekeeper or any of that but it makes me want to yell and scream at these kids whenever I see it. It also sucks because it’s more of a trend now and the art and film/photos I make are still seen as really weird. That makes it harder for me to identify with people too and confuses me a lot because I don’t know if someone is really like me or not.