I'm starting to feel like totally giving up on doctors. I'm seeing a psychiatrist who is really trying to get me to take Olanzapine, but I've refused to take it. I'm terrified of the possibility of gaining weight. I have a history of Bulimia, and am currently sitting at my most hefty weight ever. I'm not working on my eating issues at all, because it's been easier to just allow myself to overeat without restraint and focus on solving other problems... FTR I have not purged in four months, so there is that! 

I've been on the medication merry-go-round for many, many years, so I guess I can see why she'd want me to give this a try. It's one of the few that I have not been on yet. I just don't know what to do. At our last appointment, she asked me what was more important to me: getting better or not gaining weight. It was so hard to not walk out after hearing that. :/ 

Anyone else dealt with this kind of situation? How did you work through it?