For context I’m 19 so I’ve been raised with the internet. As long as I’ve had access to the internet I’ve had an addiction to my friends (sometimes interesting strangers) accounts and watching them closely. it’s creepy and awful but it completely sustains me. I scour for hints about them I couldn’t ever discover just by knowing them. sometimes I find really private stuff and I feel bad but satisfied at the same time. the worst part is almost always after I found something, they would end up telling me anyways and I’d have to pretend not to know.  I know they’d never forgive me if they found out so I’m afraid of them all the time. 

My most recent obsession has been my ex best friend and her boyfriend. (If she sees this im so fucking sorry). we ended our friendship because I believe she, to some extent, but mostly her boyfriend has some views that I can’t stand to be around. since we’ve stopped talking I check both of their accounts non stop , to the point where ppl I live with have noticed and are concerned. the more crazy shit I see the crazier I get and I think I’m addicted. it hurts in every way and it feels just like self harm but more fun. anyone else 🤪