i met this girl on a dating app and i usually never have luck with dating apps but she asked to hang out get coffee whatever. i talked to my therapist about it and she told me that i definitely don’t seem ready of comfortable going on the date. and i wasn’t. she didn’t really want to text or anything so i told her i would be more comfortable getting to know her better. she offered me o facetime that day instead of coffee. i was really excited and she said she’d call me after work. she then said she would call me after she walked her dog. hour goes by and she never calls and i had fallen asleep. then we planned to call the next day and asks to hang out again instead and i told her maybe some other time and she never responded. i really just wanted to talk to her and get to know her so i just made her a little playlist to maybe get a conversation going and she just sends a heart and that’s it. 

so now i unfollow he ron instagram remove her contact i am so anxious, i feel like im never going to find someone who will like me again and i started planning to take a train out of the state and change my entire identity and start over. i genuinely feel like a terrible person and i never want to see her again. this always happens with people i meet i end up doing or saying something embarrassing and they ghost me or block me. i want to hide forever and get out of this state for good. the last time this happened a girl didn’t tell me she had another partner and she was having me try to get him to like me. she had me sending nudes and shit. then she told me he’s not attracted to me and she wasn’t into me if he wasn’t. she was terrible at communicating. i stupidly said that i though she was really nice and was a little frustrated that she didn’t want to try and said sorry a million times. i just don’t know what to do anymore and i have no friends and im so lonely and embarrassed.