i’m so sick of myself why do i have to be me , why why why it’s like i’m trapped in this body. venting is useless because it just makes me feel even worse like i tell myself i don’t deserve to feel this way but i do it anyway. i’m so fucking lonely because idk how to do basic human interaction and bc of my lack of self esteem and confidence. having friends feels like a burden, constantly having to please them make sure ur not doing anything stupid or doing anything to embarrass urself.. all i care about is being perfect, why u ask i wish i fucking knew why. i hate the way my brain thinks i hate it.. it’s like torture. i’m 16 and to think that i’ve been this way my entire teen/ preteen years is so fucking depressing?? i always see 14 year olds talking about how they’re in relationships and stuff and it just makes me so confused...