The week before my period I’m usually hit hard with suicidal thoughts. I know this about myself so I’m decent at keeping it in check. But they’ve returned to me &amp; it’s not the week before my period. I just needed to unload some feelings. I passively play Minecraft &amp; stated crying thinking about how at least I had a little garden there in that digital place. It felt pathetic &amp; lonely. And I started drafting a note in my head. I’m drifting these days—feeling disconnected from family &amp; my interests. Everything sounds &amp; looks very muffled. I know this is my depression really returning after being on a hiatus for a couple of years. Thank goodness for my cat. I still have to fed him in the morning.