I’m currently deemed unfit to work, but suitable for work related activities. I’d been doing voluntary work at my local museum, which closed a few months ago for renovations. Today it opened a small welcome/intro for volunteers. I really wanted to go, just to prove I could. I couldn’t even walk in the door before panicking and freaking out. I struggle a lot socially with social anxiety and autism doesn’t really help that. I’m such an embarrassment and ashamed about how useless I am. 

I really wanted to prove I could do this and I feel like a huge failure.