[27F] My mom and dad divorced when I was around 6 years old (common for Americans I know)
But..

After they divorced my mother re-married to a very abusive dude. He beat her and he beat me and my siblings.. he touched me inappropriately and would try to touch my friends. He would gate keep my mom from us not letting us talk to her.. he raped her so bad for so long that her uterus literally fell out of her body and she had to get surgery to keep it inside her.. well doctors put her on pain management and she soon became addicted to pills and I lost my mom mentally .. she became a zombie. 

Now I didn't have contact with my dad for some time bc my step father would manipulate us into thinking he didn't love us or care about us.. and I believed him.

Step dad finally went to jail but the damage was already done.

Me and mom became extremely addicted to pills.

We lost everything.

I tried to get my life back together.. I moved to a different state and became a roofer to rebuild our life again.. I was taking care of my mom (who recently stopped doing pills and was getting better I am so proud of her) and brother (brother was mentally disabled) 

3 years go by, im 25 .. I start to reach out to my dad. Family is very important to me and I wanted so badly to have a relationship with him.

I start working with him bc I knew that was the only way I could get to know him.. but there's one problem.. His new wife hates me. She tries desperately to make me look bad or get me fired. I work my ass off and she tries to tell my dad that I only want to use him ? Now she is spreading rumors that I made a sex tape.. 

I am just so sick of step parents .. I just want to have my parents in my life.. why did they have to divorce? Why do I have to fight so hard to get their love and affection? She also thinks I'm going to hell bc I'm bisexual.. I don't know what to do.. it makes me so depressed I feel like I'm going through the same thing I had to go through with my mom and step dad (except for the touching part) 

I really just feel like giving up sometimes.. I feel unwanted .. I feel like people just look down on me even when I do everything right.. I just want to feel loved.. I just want my family back..