Needing to find a painless way to die! 3 decades of suffering from depression and anhedonia. Please don't tell me it gets better I used to think that, but I haven't found a way out  of the darkness. Anhedonia is absolutely soul destroying. No one will miss me I'm here alone. I can't find anything online because my country is against suicide just keep coming up with hotline numbers. This isn't a cry for help I'm OK I'm not in any distress I'm ready to die.