So I completed DBT 2 years ago now and I will admit it did help me understand my feelings and actions more. Although if your stubborn like me it will take time and patience. But at the moment I am struggling again and I’m wondering what the heck I can do to help myself. To be fair I have forgotten the skills I learnt during DBT and not having a therapist to talk to is difficult considering I had a therapist from the ages of 14 to 20 (been 2 years of me living solo life). I miss having a person to bounce my thoughts off of and to help me consider if my feelings are over the top or if there’s another way of viewing a situation because at the moment I’m falling into outbursts again. These outbursts are worse then I’ve ever had before. I taught myself to never hurt another person when I’m angry so my first line of defence is to hit myself repeatedly and scream and lie on the floor (yes I sound like a child). I swear to god the feelings I feel hurt so deep it’s the only way I can express the pain. I feel bad atm coz I have a boyfriend and I don’t wanna behave like that around him coz it’s fucking insane. He’s so patient with me and I gave him permission to restrain me coz I get so over the top I reach for stuff to hurt myself with (yes it’s super bad I know). I did try and apply for a counsellor last year but I was met with basically ‘you’ve done DBT do your skills’ and that was it. To which I kicked off left a manipulative review on there site to which someone phoned me back to check I was okay and then that was that. So yey I feel kinda stuck like there’s no way out of this and basically because I’ve completed DBT I should be cured and thats all they can do for me.