At what point do we decide when we should step back from social media because it only causes us stress and worry? I’ve been wanting so badly to turn off my phone entirely. However I wouldn’t be able to respond to any potential job interviews/offers, and I wouldn’t stay as updated on current events. I could delete some apps, but honestly I’m stuck at home grieving over a recent breakup. The silver lining is that my relationship with my folks has miraculously gotten better. 

My therapist and support systems always say to stay active and keep doing all the hobbies you love. My life isn’t perfect, but I’ve always been doing those things. The sadness extends beyond that, although now it’s more like extreme apathy. 

Last year, I finally found a shrink that really understood me. After trying a couple of failed SSRIs, he prescribed Wellbutrin and of course I still had some things to work on but it seemed like most of my emotional baggage has faded away. All I felt was extremely hopeful. 

Now, it seems like I’m going back to my pre-Wellbutrin self. Maybe it could be a rough patch due to the breakup, but I can’t even wonder how this world is going to turn out and it bothers the hell out of me to know that things will never be the same for any of us.