I don't know who I am. I feel like I'm constantly changing never really Tums, always someone I'm not. Of the recent past 6 months I've been disassociating pretty hard for longer periods of time. I've lost touch with reality few times I just don't even feel like this is my body. Like I never have control, and I'm usually okay with that but, feel like I'm in a haze not really here. Not really me? Who is Tums? I dont know Tums. 

That's what I think every day it feels very weird typing it I must say. I really want to find a identity and be someone someday but I don't know when it will happen.   Fuck I try not to think about this stuff but I'm angry I don't have or feel like I have an identity. When I was younger I can't wait to be an adult because I wanted to change my name and I still want to but I don't know yet what to. Who am I? Where am I?