If I had a laugh, or maybe had a little bit of fun, I feel like something is catching me and saying to me that I should be depressed.  


For the past 4 days, I felt like am overseeing myself, am always in the background seeing myself going through life, and I just, idk, is this what depression feels like?  


sometimes I feel like that feeling has been there for a while,  whenever I remember anything from my past, I always find hints about depression (Like overeating/ poor appetite, staying in bed after waking up for hours, tearing up in bed for no reason at all),  


I took multiple depression tests and most of them resulted in "Moderate depression".