i met with a psychiatrist today, and it was probably one of the worst doctors i’ve ever had (i’ve had alot) 
i took myself off of effexor in january and realized pretty quick that i cannot function without medication. so i spoke to my partner and they agreed to help me get help. 
i’m on abilify, meeting with therapists, and on the waiting list for DBT
i’m terrified of getting help
i’m terrified of getting better
but i don’t want to feel like this anymore. 