i am at a point where i don't care anymore i can't feel anything anymore every day is just a blur i dont even go outside anymore got no friends and i come off as a real dick so making friends aint easy its hard to want to do anything besides sleep even when i sleep i just wake up feeling worse i just don't feel like doing anything at this point im just waiting for death of course i wont be able to do it myself i feel like im in a hole with a ladder right there but i just dont feel the need to leave is this just seasonal blues or what because i dont even know whats real anymore