My parents pressure me to not abuse benzos and speed. I realized that I don’t care. They would never understand the horrific chronic pain I go through every day.

I was born with a 90 degree forward curve in my back. Everything special about youth was robbed from me because I’m a hunchback with severe pain. 

Fuck self improvement. I was dealt a losing hand in life. I’ll never fall in love. When I take drugs I can feel happy for a brief period of time. It’s the only relief I have in this cruel shithole of a world.