I’ve had severe anxiety my whole life and in recent years bad depression. Has anybody else experienced becoming really apathetic and just feeling kind of “numb” if that makes sense? I find I have so many intrusive thoughts, I’m constantly disassociating and I just can’t feel passionate about anything. (For example I love reading but as I’m reading I’m struggling to feel entirely invested like I normally would. I’ll like the book, but I can’t love it) 

If so is there anything you did to help change this? 

(I’ve tried many medications but have bad reactions, so I am waiting to see a psychiatrist which could take years)