My test is in 12 hours. The amount of information I don't know is staggeringly huge. I'm overwhelmed completely. I can't cram even 1% of it. This is pissing me off. I feel like punching a wall. It's frustrating because there were so many days I knew I should study but just didn't get off my fucking ass. Instead, I spent 3-5 days at a time sleeping nonstop and I'm so fucking useless I don't even leave the bed to use the bathroom or eat, so now I'm malnourished and shaking all the time. But thanks to my meds, that don't even work, I'm still fat as hell.

God damn this fucking disorder and my own executive dysfunction. The only two determinants to success in life are good executive functioning and luck. That's it. And I happen to have neither.