I don't know how to deal with this now. It's never been this bad. I just got out of the shower, started drying off, I dried off my feet with a towel then I forgot and I touched my hair with that towel. Something so small like this, makes me so anxious that I can't focus on anything. I sprayed some hand sanitizer on my hands and I massaged my hair with that. Now I'm afraid it's gonna "seep" into my brain.....

Lately these thoughts have became so absurd. I'm so tired. I didn't want to use meds but I don't have any choice. Some days I can't eat anything because I see something on the food, or some possibility comes to my mind, then I just can't eat it. So many times I've thrown out food.