Health anxiety at its worst or some deadly disease :(


These two months have been the hardest for me and still going it’s hard to think that I’m healthy and this is all anxiety it’s always something is wrong with me I’ve got too many symptoms and they scare me some nights are too bad I can’t sleep thinking I won’t wake up I’ll be dead tired scares me every night can’t sleep I get this hot rush in my throat like burning for a second I’ve got this feeling in my body outside like pins and needles every little thing scares me to death it feels like I’m gonna drop dead anywhere I’m just scared but this is what I’ve been going through 
I need to vent this needs to be out of my head I can’t deal with it no more every night morning 24/7 even when I’m asleep I’m thinking about it all cause I’m having nightmares regarding my health anxiety and it’s affecting my life for past 2 and half months so I had panic attacks in November and they started with a bit of mouldy cake and this all started this that something is physically wrong with my head cause I googled it all it said that a tumor on your brain can cause anxiety attacks so that was it and then brain asserymes and then another panic attack then I called the ambulance twice cause of my panic attacks and then 3 urgent care visits with ct scan and blood tests my symptoms were and are: 

Clogged ears 
Dry mouth 
Heart beats faster 
Pressure in my head 
Hot and cold feeling in my head 
Dizziness 
Jelly legs 
Sweating 
Numbness 
Hot rush in my throat for like a second 
 I’ve had anxiety attacks before but this time it’s been the worst ones and I can’t let it go cause of these symptoms I did notice if i forget one it does disappear but I don’t want to believe this I’m sick and tired of feeling like this I’ve got an outer ear infection in my left ear and I’m using drops and they say if it spreads it can cause meningitis and now I’m sick and worried of this but somehow my right ear is feeling cold and windy and it’s noisy my jaw isn’t hurting but I’ve been clicking and popping my jaw for two months and my face sometimes feels tight and it’s like getting squeezed and idek what to do no more I can’t sleep a bit of pain in my head just ruins my day I feel dizzy and just don’t wanna live no more can anyone help me out here I’m worried sick I’ve had many imaginary disease in the past but this time I’ve gone too far but maybe I’ve got a disease maybe I’m dying I refuse to believe that this is all related to anxiety and it’s nothing srs this windy feeling in my right ear and head just sets it off again throat feels like it’s burning sometimes 
Can anyone relate and help me out here I’m so worried and scared Just Askin for advice and opinions 
Yesterday I had pain in my leg side of the chest set it all off again thought I was having a heart attack this isn’t letting me live my life no more dizziness
I’m just giving up on life I rather be dead than go through these things I have no energy I’m slowly getting tired and don’t wanna live no more 
Yesterday my ear felt a bit odd whooshing type of feeling in my ear with mild jaw abs cheek pain and somehow I’ve convinced myself that it’s chairi disease cause I’ve been using google to diagnose myself and I’m feeling pressure in my head near my temple and feel dizzy tightness around my head and buzz type of feeling in my head I’m in this rabbit hole again and this time I’m convinced that I’m gonna drop dead anytime soon or I’m dying of some srs illness and ppl will feel sorry for me I can’t live like this what is this pls can anyone help me here I just wanna die :( 
If it’s anxiety why are these symptoms there
My cheeks are hurting and my bone under the ears is it tmj