it’s a little worrying for me, ever since someone i love left me because of my anxiety disorder i’ve been feeling very emotional everyday, my anti depressants only help so much, sadness and anxiety always seem to creep up on me. when i look into the future i don’t think there’s anything to be excited about. my future seems so grey and gloomy, it makes me feel like life is just not worth living. i don’t do anything but school work and sitting around, i’ve become weak because i don’t do anything and i don’t have anyone who’s close to me anymore. even though i’m really accomplished and i do have potential to find a great job i just think it’ll get boring like it is now. i don’t think i’ll ever love anyone else just to avoid this pain. it makes me wonder why i’m still here and maybe if i just stopped existing i wouldn’t have to deal with this feeling. i don’t know what to do anymore i’m so lost.