Tomorrow my psychiatrist will meet with me to discuss the next steps to getting on clozapine. I feel surprisingly calm about all this but I‘m worried it might not work or lose effectiveness and I will be stranded in psychosis. My mom is getting severe back pain, I’m getting psychosis, and my friend is in a bad manic episode. It feels like everything bad is happening at once. I really don’t want to leave the safety of my daily life and I feel directionless. I don’t know what I can do to make the best of this but I do go jogging and out on errands with my mom and talk to my friend.