Hello everyone!

So I finally sneaked by my parents and went to see a psychiatrist. (I'm 21F but you know how parents are) I was diagnosed with anxiety and depressive disorder (Sorry, IDK what it's called in English). She prescribed me some medication and assured me that this is the lowest possible dose and I'd only have to take it for 2-6 months at most. She also praised me for coming because we could avoid me being hospitalised if my condition worsened. 

Now I know that medication is not a bad thing, but I have this "mental barrier" in my mind and  I don't know...I guess I'm scared? What if it makes things worse? So far I have been managing my mental health pretty decently. Am I depressed? Yes. Do I have suicidal thoughts? Also, yes, but I'm still alive so? I'm just so unsure. Am I really so sick that I have to take medicine? The side effects are also super scary sounding...Since my main problem is health anxiety I am worried that if I notice any of the side effects it's going to make me spiral...