Last night, I was having a normal conversation with my best friend, and then she asked how I was doing. I, of course, said I was doing shitty because of being ghosted 4 times prior to now and I just got diagnosed with bpd two days ago, making me dissociate a lot recently. She then says that we need to talk about something serious. She wanted to do it in person, but I told her to just tell me. I asked if it was something bad and she said “no it’s not bad,” and then proceeds to tell me that she doesn’t want to be my friend anymore and that she didn’t feel heard, even though she never talked to me about how she felt. I feel empty. We’ve been so close for 5 years and I just lost that. I’d been ghosted 4 times before this, and I’ve been grieving the death of my aunt. The diagnosis of bpd is hard on me. And adding this is just really crushing my heart and my hope that things will ever get better. I just needed to rant