Hi guys :) I’ve struggled on and off for the past 10 or so years with disordered eating. I wouldn’t necessarily say my behaviours as a group really fit in with any one particular ED (as far as I’m aware), and I never brought it up to my psychiatrist either because I was scared to be honest about it (big surprise lol). But I do know that the behaviors are restrictive and unhealthy. Something I always did/do when I’m having a period of disordered eating triggered by BPD outburst is try to go as long as I can without eating a full meal/something calorie dense, but end up caving because I’m too hungry to function. But about 3 days ago I had a major BPD freakout involving my FP that was/is using up a ton of my energy. Mood is lower than it’s been in months. And for some reason (this has never happened before) I almost don’t feel very hungry at all? And I can’t tell if it’s because my mood is so low that I have barely any appetite, or if it’s because I’m subconsciously suppressing/ignoring any hunger I might actually have since intentionally starving has historically been a (obviously shitty) coping mechanism of mine. Rn, I just don’t feel like I want or need to eat, ( have been choking down one meal replacement shake each day for going on 4 days now, just to have something in my system). Wondering if anyone else has similar things happen, or maybe confused similarly? I’m only used to ignoring my appetite, not it being gone completely?