i used to want to be doctor than it became engineer but i want neither. i dont want to do anything with my life. i am studying for exam but for what? to be depressed rest of my life? i couldnt live life and i feel like i wont be able ever. i dont want money. i dont want a big house. i wish my parents disowned me so i can live miserably but i feel forced to be something. most people work because they will marry and have children bla bla. i never in my life found anyone attractive. i will never have children. i wish i borned in usa and my parents kicked me out of house at the age of 18z it is freeing. fuck fuckfuck fuck everything fuckme