i want to feel at peace, i want to enjoy things, i want to be happy. but it really feels like i just wake up, have anxiety and just count down the hours till it’s acceptable to go to bed. yesterday it was 7:30 pm. i can recognize the good things and the beauty in life but im not at peace or fulfilled. the beauty is outweighed by my anxiety of how to constantly deal with the things life throws at you. I don’t like living this way im so uncomfortable with existing cause it feels like there no end in sight. i have things to look forward to and i don’t hate myself but everything is so dull. ok yeah good things happen but they don’t make me happy the way bad things make me sad. it’s like i can only feel bad emotions and not good ones. i don’t like living like this. i’m on meds and i go to therapy but when will i accept life rather than just be depressed over it.