I give up, I will never amount to anything, develope a skill, and I will never make anyone happy. I don’t see a point in continuing when  I know I am going to fail. I don’t see my life going in any other direction other than suicide in a few years. Why not just get it over with now. Why try when I know for a fact I am a lost cause who should die, it’s not like I am going to magically become useful or something. I have a partner who I met online and lives across the country but with how awful I am I doubt I’ll ever be able to save enough to move in with them. I think what causes the most self hate is how I am a failure at everything, I have no skills, no talents, nothing that I am even slightly above average at. I look at people around me who have skills and talents that make them valuable and give their life meaning and I just wish for a fraction of what they have. I despise how useless and worthless I am, I will never succeed in life or make it to a place I want to be as I have no skills and will probably not make it through college and I have no talent in anything to give my life meaning. Doubt anyone will see this but whatever, just kinda wanted to rant.