My therapist told me that my FP she acted as my secure base, gave me understanding, protection. And I asked if the secure base had been missing since I was a kid. She said yes, I started asking at what age and after saying a couple of ages I said my birth date ironically. She said it is probable that I have not had a secure base for my whole existence, until my FP. After explaining the situation, saying that my parents are not to blame since they had no intention of doing this, she told me a simple thing: "I'm sorry". I told her it didn't matter, I suspected it and then it would be stupid to worry now even though I have had these problems for years, at least knowing it gives me comfort, it calms me. I would love to run to my FP and tell her everything and stay with her for a while, maybe I'll do it.
My therapist talking about my FP told me that "she was my salvation", I would like to go to her and tell her and hug her and thank her for everything.
I think I am close to the diagnosis, although I still don't know how it works, today I did the 4th session, I did 4 more two years ago, and another 4 months from another therapist, but this time I will get involved. My FP gave me great help.