I need some help with object permanence or emotional permanence, whichever it is. Whenever I am not with someone or talking to them my brain just completely forgets they still love me. Especially with my FP. I have panic attacks and breakdowns a lot we say goodbye etc because I know as soon as she's gone my brain is going to forget she's still my friend, then the spiral starts. This is everyday. Does anyone know how I can make this better even just a little bit? It's so draining

(Currently don't have access to dbt, any therapy or professional support. Just relying solely on meds that don't work)

Thanks