Used to have friends. Not many but they were there and they told me how much they loved me and stuff and they were so good and so petite they even when I told them they could go and I wouldn’t blame them. 

One friend in particular told me that we were sisters, I was everything to her and that no matter what, she would be there etc. Then she got a new friend, who she claimed was like another me but I hated her. She was a horrible person and it rlly got to me that she thought we were the same person. But that’s not the point. She started getting distant, ignoring me, and I wanted to die because I had decided she hated me, but I tried my hardest to talk to her and get her attention and start conversations and it felt like she wanted none of it. So I blocked her, because then in my head it was as if I had decided to leave and not the other way around. - It felt like she’d died, but before she did, we had a massive argument and now I had no way to fix it. -

Then I got a screenshot from a distant friend. It was a text conversation where she was bitching about me - earlier I had told him how “I felt like I did something wrong” and how “I just wanted to know what happened”. In the screenshot she had said “I guess her Reddit posts were right, in the end people just get sick of her shit.”

Which both shows me that she actively looked for a part of my life that I tried to keep private, and that she then used this private part of my life against me. 

But even so..she’s right.