I have so many conflicting feelings towards my ex. I don't know what to think or say. I want to go back to her and apologize for breaking up, but I also hate her for all of the shit she put me through. Things she never had control over. She never loved me. How could she? I don't feel like I have anything inside of me. She's talking to new friends now, and I always knew she was getting better support from her other friends. Why would she even want me? She's full of shit. She fed me lies for so long. I don't fucking know how to feel. I'm so confused. I'm sorry if this is jumbled or confusing.