 

I self harmed for the first time one month ago. Nothing serious, and it healed mostly within 2 weeks. But I have been getting strong urges to do it again. I have been enjoying pain. I'm not suicidal, but I wish I was never born. I wish I could just play with my cat and play videogames. School has been incredibly stressful. My parents have been trying their best to help but it's not doing much.

I want to get into a mental hospital. I've had frequent anxiety attacks. But my siblings birthday is this week and I don't want to miss it. I'm afraid I'll do worse without my cat. Would they let me bring my cat? He's stopped me from another self harm attempt twice. I love him so much. Would they take away my computer? I love digital art and talk to my friends often. How would I tell my parents I want in a mental hospital?

If it helps, I have been diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety disorder.