Since I was young I’ve always hated the way i looked and with that it made me insecure and have low self esteem. Since I hated myself so much I always wanted other people to like me , I would act and do things that was just not in my true nature , I would really go to extreme lengths just for validation like I was so close to ending up in JAIL just to impress my “friends” and other people ,It’s ridiculous…. And after all that my friends and other people  didn’t really like me they just saw me as a clown and they were right lmao … because that is what clowns do they constantly try and impress people and look stupid while doing it . After realizing that I just gave up on wanting to be liked and just became sad and numb for a couple of months now.. I try and learn how to like and love myself but I just can’t so I give up , whatever happens ,happens 🤷🏿‍♂️. Thank you for taking time to read my vent story , u didn’t have to but u did anyways. Peace out ✌️