I can't stand those people who bear the anti-social title as if it was some kind of trophy. The only thing I want in my fucking life is to be social and keep healthy relationships but GUESS WHAT!? I FUCKING CAN'T because I'm way too crazy to keep them, I alienate myself on purpose because I'm afraid of people secretely hating me, I'm afraid I'm bothering everyone else. I feel like I'm trapped in a glass cell seeing everyone coming, trying to connect with me, not succeeding and then leaving while I'm screaming and bawling my eyes out begging them to stay with no avail cause these glass walls are keeping my voice from being heard. I'm tired of this I'm so fucking tired of this. I just want to be normal but I cannot choose it and it makes me so sad to see healthy people that could maintain nice friendships pretending to be anti-social so it looks cool on Instagram.