I have come to realization is that I can't fight the system or even control it - Even half way of controlling it is something I can't do either because I am fighting the system here and I don't have free will because my own morals block me from crossing that barrier because people have experimented on(on purpose) with the intention of making me vulnerable so that they can kill me whenever they want. The only thing free thing I have is the internet and cyberpsace and that's it the rest of it is owned by the real owners. I'll never get to turn my fantasies into reality and stay there forever and ever because that's a privilege rather than a right and even if I did the meaning would be lost through translation. Men really are all bad men no matter where we go - we got the shitty end of the stick.