i start to feel happy again, and a couple months later the same feelings of hopelessness and loneliness come back. i’m so tired of it. i don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t know how to fix it. and the worst part is, i have absolutely no reason to feel this way. i probably even allow myself to feel this way. i don’t do anything to try to cure my depression other than meds and therapy. i have everything i could ever ask for. a good family, nice friends, a home, food, water. but still inside there’s a piece missing. a piece that i can never fill. 

when does it end.
when do i get to be happy,
happy forever.