It's been a while since I felt this way, as if I don't have a safe space. I no longer feel like I belong with my friends. I felt happy but also intimidated by their glow-ups and achievements. I tend to compare myself to them, which is wrong :&lt; I feel like the people around me are getting better at life, except for me... Even if I've been trying my best to succeed. 

These days I just felt uncomfortable to go out with them, because I felt shy, ashamed, and out of place :&lt; I end up not going because I can't afford this or that, I don't have nice clothes to wear, and my schedule is usually occupied with school, work, and house chores. I am not as privileged as them, and sometimes trying to fit in is kind of draining. As much as I love them, sometimes I can't keep up with them:&lt; I know my friends don't think of me this way, and it's just all in my head. However, I'm still scared that we might drift apart and I'll end up having no friends at all.