So I have Never talked to a professional psychotherapist about my problems. I been feeling extremely sad for a year, have nearly constant nausea an bowel pain. I had/have an problem with substance abuse(mostly Weed and Amphetamines) but been clean since about 3 weeks now. I thought that my downs would get better if I stoped using these substances, but until now this wasn’t the case. My personal life is actually pretty ok. I’m in the last year of my apprenticeship to become a nurse and honestly I love my job. When I’m finishing it I will work at a detox facility which really fulfills me, but after work the down begins again. I have a quite stable social life to (loving family and friends) but whenever I seem to speak about me having a bad time it seems as if nobody cares or the theme of the conversation gets changed nearly instantly. My love life is a separat story. I met my old school crush a few weeks ago an we talked for about an hour and that fucked me up so extremely bad. Just the fact that I know I can’t get her drives me insane but it gets better. I met a girl I really like on a dating app but I got the feeling she doesn’t likes me the same way I like her although there are no signs to that according to people I talked about it with. It’s a point that frustrates me a lot, I just feel like nobody in this world loves me on a romantic base even if I think they’re perfect for me. I know my text doesn’t really has a straight line but it was more or less a brainstorm but it felt good talking about it. I hope the text doesn’t have to much grammar errors. Does anybody got any tips for me?