I’ve recently this year been diagnosed with bpd and in the past 2 years have tried diff ssris because the depressive episodes I experience are so intense. Everytime I go on them I have to come off because they make me “crazier” and i engage in more risky behaviour than normal. I recently convinced my dr to let me try them again bevause the depression was too much and I thought my antipsychotics would balance it out, ended up attempting and was in hospital twice in a week. I’ve been taken off them again and told I must not suffer from any clinical depression because I wouldn’t have reacted that way if I did and was told to never use them again but now I’m back in a depressive episode. Does anyone else have this issue? How do u overcome the depression without meds?