What are your coping skills that helped for when you reach the point of starting to thinking it would be easier if you died ? 

Going through a long term painful physical recovery (and potential future surgery) as well as trying to get on top of mental health issues (diagnosed with depression and anxiety currently under care of PCP and therapist).  A month ago my husband asked for a divorce out of the blue after 16 years.   I WAS making progress with the depression/anxiety and optimistic about the future but then that happened and set me way way back and can’t seem to gain even half a step forward.

I’m seeing a therapist but nothing is helping with the depression side of it to pull me out of going down the “well there is one way to have to stop thinking about this” thought process 🥴. I haven’t thought about the “how” and my therapist and PCP (who I’ve been open with about these thoughts) says it’s “idolization” not that I actually want to follow though and act on it (I think so to).  But Urgh I’m sick of it’s consuming every-waking-hour.  The anxiety side hasn’t been as bad.   Their suggestions of distractions don’t work since the divorce bombshell and I have the attention span of a fly right now.    I can’t really get outside to do things (beyond sit on the deck) since I have mobility restrictions from my injury and inside sucks since I’m still living (now alone) in the marital home. On top of all this he wants to hurry up and sell the house ASAP to get the equity out of it but I don’t because I’ll have to move back overseas once we split (haven’t been working and wouldn’t be able to afford to stay here on just my salary even if I was) and physically unable to do that for a few more months minimum soooo lots of stressors and looking for non textbook ideas likes “get outside” “exercise” that have helped others ?