A while ago,  I was eating dinner with 2 of my cousins and we had a conversation about our little cousin (7 years) who is doing what other kids his age normally does. Although,  our little cousin is being kinda mean,  she said that if ever he is one of her brothers, she would have had hit him already.  When I heard that,  it's like something inside of me is going to burst but I kept silent. Later on, she said that when she was young,  her mother would hit her with a clothes hanger and it would leave marks on her skin.  That's when I said, "just because your mother did that to you,  doesn't mean you should also do that to other children". She said,  "no,  kids like that deserves to be hit". I felt really hot like I'm going to explode. I said,  "You already experienced the emotional and physical pain of being hit, do you like others to feel the same pain that you had experienced? Hitting a kid is never the right thing to do no matter what awful thing they did. You'll never know,  it might cause trauma to the child." She said,  " No,  it depends to the person." Like what the hell?? Instead of saying mean things to her and exploding infront of my grandpa, I went outside to breathe cause I felt like I was suffocating inside.  

My parents never hit or physically abused us when we were young even if what we did was unforgivable. If they ever raise a voice to us,  maybe due to anger,  they immediately say sorry and educate us calmy through words. See the difference, she grew up in an abusive family therefore she also sees that it is fit for someone to physically abuse a kid for a little thing. When we were young,  we used to hang out in our grandparents house and ever since,  there is something in her that I don't like. Now I know why. 

Sorry for the rant, I just felt like I need to vent this out of my chest.