someone please help me, im a minor (17) and not diagnosed with BPD but i can bet a million dollars that i’ll be diagnosed with it once i’m able to see a psychiatrist. anyway, it has been SO bad lately, i’ve been splitting in front of my mom which is something she hasn’t seen. she is constantly gas lighting me and making me feel crazy for the way i’ve been acting. i cant tell her the reason i’m acting like this because first of all, theres no way she’d understand what BPD is, also, she’d yell in my face and slap me if i ever admitted to thinking i have a mental illness. having to stay quiet about how i feel is making dealing with this 100x worse and its genuinely making me want to kms. i cannot escape this. being a minor there is absolutely nothing i can do. the way she’s been treating me lately has triggered the hell out of my BPD and it is ridiculous. i don’t think i’ve ever felt this shitty before. i cannot wait another 5 months to get the help i need or to live the life i want to live without feeling smothered. someone please tell me i’m going to be ok.