I(35f) was recently diagnosed with BPD and now I am already traumatised by the stigma. My own family now thinks I am the problem. I have been with the Crisis team, I am now hesitant to tell them if I have an episode, even I am convinced there is no hope. I have to live with it and fight it alone and keep pretending to have a normal pretentious life. 

Life has not been easy living with it as most of the pwbpd would know. I feel so confused. This triggers me to self destruct. I have been asked to go to Crisis house, and I am afraid of being judged.

Please guide me how to process this. I don't see any hope for my future. I feel what's the point of being alive like this