so I was (finally) diagnosed earlier this year and something I’ve noticed for as long I can remember is my going complete numb.

after I get triggered or something makes me sad/feel some type of way it’s like my body completely shuts down like it’s something weighing on my soul?? this usually happens after I cry and I physically can’t bring myself to speak I just sit there staring at whatever.

today this happened while my boyfriend was yelling at me and all of a sudden I got the urge to laugh and I could feel that weight sort of lift, I wiped my tears and was able to speak again after crying in silence for the past 10 minutes. 

idk if this is just me or what but after that happened I felt like I looked like a complete crazy person 

does this have a name? does it have anything to do with bpd?