Hi guys, currently my mental health hasn’t been at it’s best and it seems like I try to ignore it by going out with friends. I have issues that has been going on in my personal life and have never been the type to let people know what i’m going through. Going out every week has been detrimental. I have a hard time saying no because I hate giving the excuse that I am not feeling well or I just don’t want to go out so I force myself to go out. It puts a lot of stress on me to act happy when I know I have to be working on myself in order to project good energy to other people. 

Is there any way to say no without feeling guilty? My mind tells me that I am obligated to say yes otherwise everyone will hate me but at this point I feel like it cannot keep going cause I am just ruining myself while my friends are very comfortable and happy going out every week. As much as I love the people around me, I keep telling myself I cannot keep going like this and I need my energy back because it gets very draining to be sad, anxious, depressed.