Every day I feel more helpless. I feel tired and anguished if I try to pump myself up, no matter what I do studying will give me self-hatred and impending boredom, my family's filled with contempt for each other and all my friends left me...

It feels like the pain and misery is trapping me inside this titanium bubble and I'm pleading to escape, but it won't let me free. I can seek help for the 50th time I suppose, and either none of this will send or I'll get a few generic and affluent responses that'll make me insecure

I've never felt so alone... so lost