BPD, ASD, ADHD, C-PTSD, depression, social anxiety, generalised anxiety. What the fuck.

I feel like I've tried every route. Socialising, meditation, working out, therapist, psychologist, specialized psychologist, SSRIs, SNRI, a cocktail of narcotics, sleeping, eating healthy, positive attitude, finding occupation to fill free time with.

What I've come out with in the end: Gambling addiction, &gt;!suicidal ideations!&lt;, drug addiction (although 4 weeks sober as of now, mostly due to being broke), broken relationships with family or I mean they were broken before but now they're extremely broken. Hurt friends by ghosting or telling them to fuck off during bipolar episodes, so no friends as of now,&gt;!self harm tendencies,!&lt; and quite a bit of debt to family (1000eur) after failed attempts at studying. I've never borrowed money for drugs.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't get proper help or treatment either as the queues to meet these professionals are insanely long in my country. We've got socialized healthcare so literally anyone can be put in the queue for free and of course people just go ahead.

I've yet to be diagnosed with BPD, C-PTSD, or ADHD but my psychologist, and a specialized psychologist, and a psychiatrist, have all went through the DSM-5 for all of those with me and is sure that I should be diagnosed ASAP as I'm struggling so much I can't even work or study (I've failed studies since middleschool due to ADHD, ASD, and BPD). BUT THE FUCKING QUEUES STOP ME FROM GETTING DIAGNOSED AND THEN THE PROPER TREATMENT. All of the disorders above are prominent in the male side of my family too. I should be able to even get specialized housing because of my ADHD and ASD and allowance from the government (about 80eur a week, I wouldn't have to pay rent) BUT I CANT BECAUSE OF THE QUEUES.

I just don't know what to do anymore... I'm falling more and more ill and am left to rot by the hospitals. I'm being pushed these bullshit medications like Fluoxetine or Sertraline which doesn't work and is even dangerous for me because of my BPD which drains my wallet even more.