I have always suffered with anxiety, depression and BDD. I’ve always had a bad home life but it’s getting worse everyday (this is the biggest cause of my depression and anxiety). The cherry on top; I’m immensely stressed out with university and working. I have barely eaten more than one meal a day in the last 2 weeks and I love weights(my only happy place) so my performance is also decreasing which makes me feel horrible. I lost 8lbs in one week… I was already lean as it is so it must be mostly muscle loss which makes me even more upset because I’ve been training so hard to build muscle and I have regressed. I can’t bring myself to eat anything. I can’t stop myself from crying. On top of all this I have a very very bad acne breakout on my face, as someone that already struggles with BDD this made it 10x worse. I struggle leaving my home and struggle to face ppl which is really affecting my work. Everything is just going wrong when I’m already dealing with a lot with my family and I really can’t take it anymore. My only dream is to die in my sleep