I had a depressive, manic and impulsive episodes all in the span of a couple hours and now my arms are bleeding and I fucking hate myself. Why couldn't I have just been made normal and not so fucking mentally ill like? I'm so done with me crying over literally nothing and then hurting myself. I keep hurting myself and the people around me unintentionally. I can't maintain any healthy relationship because I keep ghosting all the people I care about and when I do try to open up to people close to me, I get told that I'm faking it for attention. I've thought of that a million fucking times already, I don't need anyone else reminding me  that. I just want the pain to go away.