I haven't ever really had any issues at work. I've always done my job as good as I could, and forced all my mental health shit aside when it comes to it. But today I fucked up 3 times, enough for my manager to basically yell at me in front of the other assistant store manager. I almost cried, and even now hours later it's still bothers me with intrusive thoughts, with how bad of a fuck up I am. I haven't felt the urge to self harm this bad in years, but I'm almost to my breaking point. 

I haven't been able to keep anything down all day aside from cigarettes because of it. I just wish I didn't feel these crippling emotions when things go wrong.