My anxiety has become even much worse since the start of the pandemic. I've managed to attend online classes at the start of the pandemic but my anxiety worsens as the pandemic goes on. We are still having online classes up until now. I've managed to enroll for the sem but don't have the courage to attend any class. I've tried for the first two months to even sit down and open my laptop to check my messages but I wasn't able to. I can't even bring myself to read something because I feel guilty that I should be doing my missing academic work. I always feel like I'm going to vomit or felt dizzy and going to faint. So I just lay down and do nothing at all. My parents are suspecting and questioned me if I still attend my classes so I just make up excuses about what I am doing at my uni at that time. I'm still feeling guilty because I think they are not fully convinced by my excuses and they just don't want to pressure me more.

Right now, we are still doing just online classes. I am able to sit in front of my laptop and read something but I still wasn't able to message my professors and attend classes. I always overthink what will my professors tell me or think of me, or what will my classmates think of me when I come back. My professors have become so much lenient since the start of the pandemic and I think I'm abusing it. I think I know what to do and think can do it now, but how do I do it? What should I tell them? How do I come back?