I’ve had two unexpected big amounts of money come in in the last 2 weeks that I’ve had to spend and plan out what it needs to be spent on and it honestly drives me haywire doing this because money is a massive trigger for me and I down right hate it. 

I love spending it but I HATE all the decisions and the obsessive research I do on each item I’m getting, then the waiting for it to arrive in the mail sends me overboard where I can’t sleep.m and I’m really snappy and I can’t think straight.

It’s like this really intense drug I hate it. 

I can’t settle down until it’s all spent then I start to level out a bit.

Does anyone else get like this?