I am very aware that my mind races to think about the worst possible outcome in everything and that is what push me to try have everything under control, but lately every possible escenario in my head around things that worry me have became true.


Rant follows, in case you wanna skip it:

 I am very vulnerable right now and yesterday my older sister told me that she was going on vacation with a friend I don't know. She took my niece and off she went. I only asked her to keep in touch because she usually banishes and I am mad worried of something happening to her and my niece, since the last couple of months I had to run to her house for emergencies that I wouldn't have known if someone that was with her at the time would have called me, one that revolves around her ex-partner trying to take away my niece. 

Well, yesterday was fine, she kept in touch but today she messaged me early and told me she had no phone data so she would turn off her internet. I have tried calling her all day long and it immediately redirects me to voice message. I am very anxious because there is no other way I can't reach out to, I am not sure where she is or who she is with and she is supposed to be back Monday night. It's a nightmare right now, I can't stop thinking the worst. 

I cannot cope.