I hate feeling like I’m not good enough for anyone, even myself. Like I don’t belong anywhere. Where no one appreciates what I have to offer. I just want to feel loved by someone, to be told that I am enough. This really fucking sucks. Im in my second term of college and nothing has gotten better. No friends. I’m just the typical loner that everyone turns a blind eye to. Sure I’ve had a few good days, but in the big picture, I’m just falling apart and I can’t stop myself. I’ve been getting high everyday because I can’t stand my sober thoughts. The colors of life have dulled so dark, it’s hard to see any kind of light anymore. This pit of sorrow and self pity that I dug myself so deep feels impossible to escape. But there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to escape because it’s comforting in a way.