ok so i am so upset i wanted to see the boy i like today because im away for a week tomorrow but i was so scared of him rejecting me and saying no that i didnt ask to see him and now i want to die because i genuinely miss him so much i want to be near him because he makes me happy and i am going to suffer through this week until i can see him again i feel like my heart is going to come up through my mouth im scared he's going to find another person that makes him happier and leave me on my own which is selfish but anything can happen in a week am i overthinking this entire thing Probably lol i love my bpd brain truly xxxxxxx