I recently recognized that when I’m done with a therapy session - almost immediately after I walk out the door - I feel this intense emptiness and loneliness. I find myself spiraling into self-destructive thoughts/behaviors, with a conscious intention of returning for my next therapy session visibly “unwell”. I guess I want my therapist to notice and be concerned? Then I think…”She won’t notice, she’s seen it all, you’re nothing special” …which makes me feel even worse. I don’t even know what outcome I want from it…?

DAE experience this? Any advice for how to bring this up with my therapist? I worry that it will negatively impact our relationship and she won’t want to see me as a patient anymore.