Hello friends. 

Im here because today's episode was rather...strange to say at least?

Well,im quite familiar with BPD,and i struggle with its symptoms every single day,and to be honest,im quite used to it.

But today i decided to do something. I was tired to spend the whole day unable to get out from my room,i need to do something with my life,heck,im almost 21!

So i got up,drank some coffee,and did some excercises,my plan was to at least exercise a bit thanks to the energy from the coffee,but then,the power ran out,and my cellphone batteries did so aswell.

And then,it started. I just,sat up on the sofa,and started talking to myself out loud,even laughing. My mood swings were at maximum,but i was lucid,i was myself,but i just...i dont know... Talked? About random things,even my pets found it strange.

And then,i started crying for no reason,then i stopped. I snapped back when my sister showed up.

I dont know if this is just bdp anymore. Im not sad,i dont know what is happening.