I’m trying so much to get that happy middle. 
I’ve been to support groups, my psychologist etc. I just can’t get a hold of these emotions. 

Just tonight two good friends went out and didn’t invite me with them. 
I felt myself getting so upset and angry because I’m there for them whenever they need me, I’ll drop anything to prioritise them if I can because I can’t bare for others to be hurt. Yet I get a text saying ‘miss you’ and then I’m like, well why no invite then if you miss me so much?? 

It just hurts. 