Long story short I almost ruined the best friendship I've ever had (not an exaggeration). I met my current fp about 6 months ago, and recently we became very very close, I unsurprisingly developed feelings for her, overshared a bunch of my problems and my feelings for her and came so close to ruining the friendship completely. I need to find ways to cope with everything so I don't do that as bad or as much. She literally brought me out of my spiraling suicidal ideation and unknowingly stopped 2 suicide attempts, she has always treated me fairly and kindly and I can't let my crazy, overwhelming personality drive her away, even if it'll only ever be a friendship.