I spend my days off alone in my bedroom because I don’t have anyone to do anything with. I’m the only employee for a small business and my partner/boss drives me insane. We barely make enough money to cover our expenses so I barely see any spending money if I get paid. I see all the acquaintances I went to high school with all happy with relationships, but I haven’t talked to a woman since April 2021 and she said she wasn’t ready, but neglected to tell me she had found a boyfriend and proceeded to catfish me. I don’t know where my life is headed, but it’s not looking good whether I’m here or not. All of that on top of losing my grandpa a week before Christmas has sent me off the edge. I want so badly to live a happy life but everytime I get close something major happens that send me back into this worse than before.