I have trouble drinking fluids through the day. My mom (I live at home) brings me cups every 2 hours or so but a few days ago they just kept backing up because I wasn’t thirsty.

Anyway mania went into self criticism and I was like I can’t do anything right, I can’t even do this thing my mom wants me to do, I’m worthless.

Then I was like I’m so fucking tired of being bad at everything and I kind of want pain so let’s just chug all this, I can do whatever I want

So. I drank all of the tumblers of fluid I had plus extra water, which I later calculated to be 1.8 mL, in one hour

I definitely got the pain and not dehydrated but damn i would not recommend