Since January first I have not cried my eyes got watery a bit today but I haven’t cried and the only reason behind that is that I know that the moment I let one tear fall I’m going into a whole state of depression I’m gonna stop eating stop getting out of bed all my motivation will leave simply because of that one tear then again When I stop myself like that all I end up feeling is empty or disgusted with myself because I don’t react the way I want to this really fucks with me because my brain tells me I should either cry or not care and it shouldn’t be those two options I don’t wanna be a sad sloppy mess have the time and a poker face emotionless bitch the other half does anyone have any advice for this?