I keep snapping on people when I’m triggered emotionally and I try to apologize after. I feel so guilty and ashamed I can’t control my words. Earlier I vented to my friend group in a discord channel and one of the friends offered advice that I felt invalidated my feelings. So instead of stating that I made a rude comment that I didn’t need his lecture and I was just tryna vent.

He was basically saying it was my fault since that’s my way of thinking. Basically I slept with my ex and felt bad after because he didn’t want anything else out of it. So this guy said that I created the situation with my thoughts and stuff I must’ve jumped to conclusions because I felt like he was saying I couldn’t feel bad for what happened with my ex. That it’s my fault since I made it with my thoughts. ;/ 

He was trying to be helpful but I read male voices over text as hostile too. It’s weird I tried apologizing but he ignored my apology. Then I told the rest of the group what happened and they ignored me too. So now I’m like maybe I’ll never be able to have friends since I go off. 

Anyway, it also feels like if it was anyone else then it would be a problem. Like because it’s just me I’m the problem. Then they would try to make up with that person and have things be ok. I try to apologize and get ignored. This is why I don’t do group chats….