I was diagnosed with depression about a year ago and I can't get a job or anything right now because I'm too young , and I want to get a guitar or learn the guitar so bad, but it feels like that's just not gonna happen because my upper family (parents/grandparents) don't really support me on my endeavors

I feel like playing the guitar to me is like taking the life out your body and putting it in the guitar. I have a guitar but it's left handed and I'm right handed which my dad used to bug me about how it was a left handed guitar like he would almost fuss me. Things get better with my family(they are really conservative) and once something gets brought up they still get tense on the issue. So anyways I got this guitar which my brother bought me for a small amount of money, I went to get it setup and I couldn't get a ride for months to pick it up because they don't listen to me, and then I was struggling playing it and I was trying to tune it over a year ago and the strings came off, and I never had strings on my guitar since. It was an electric guitar and they never bothered getting me an amp. And the setup for a guitar where I went was 80+ $ which is a lot so I feel like I'll never get an electric guitar if I was in this situation forever. If I ask my brother (the only person that can help me get a guitar) I would get a real big heaping of being fussed right off the bat. So this situation is making me really depressed.