Every time we're not talking I start feeling very very anxious. We're long distance so I rarely get to see her, it's not like I can just drive to her house or something. So all I have is FaceTiming and texting with her until one of us moves. But when she is asleep, or out somewhere, or with friends and we aren't talking. It starts to eat at me and the anxiety is overwhelming, I end up spamming her most times, I try not to but I can't help it. This didn't start happening until about 2 months ago, but its becoming very overwhelming. I can't sleep unless I'm on the phone with her, or I've completely exhausted myself to the point I pass out. I can't even shower anymore unless I have her on the phone and I can hear her doing something in her room like listening to music, cleaning, cooking, or something. For the most part she is understanding, but I think I'm starting to annoy her. I don't want her to cut me off or quit talking to me because she thinks she messed me up or something, I just don't know how to deal with this. The only things that will calm me down are talking to her, or if I start coming up with plans in my head to move. I don't know why but it helps a lot if I start making plans for us to move. But I still have a year of college left, and I don't have any savings so I would need a job and save. But times like right now it starts messing with me, she's been asleep for a few hours and I was okay at first but now I've already texted her a couple times and I'm starting to feel panicked.   


How do I deal with this? It could be another year, or year an a half before we get our own place. And she is getting a new job soon, and I start the spring semester of college in about 3 weeks, I'm also going to be looking for work. I don't know how I will deal with all this time away from her. We dated for a year and 2 months. she is 4 years older than me and a lot more grown up. I really love her and I'm trying to pull myself together and be an adult for her. I really don't wanna ruin the relationship with things like this.