I’m currently in a relationship with someone I’ve known and loved for over two years. However, whenever i make him the slightest bit angry or upset it turns harmful. I have severe separation anxiety, regular anxiety and depression. I used to S/H and I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts for years. There are some nights where he is yelling or making me feel so bad that i literally scratch my face until it bleeds or scratch my arm until there are marks. I love him but he hurts me so much and i don’t know how to get away cause every time I’ve tried i end up missing him cause of my separation anxiety.... I’m seriously breaking rn. Idk how to get away or what to do... I’m literally posting this after i made him angry and then he started yelling at me and making me say that I’m not smart and I’m not pretty.. there are days when i feel worthless, like right now. He told me cause i made him so upset and angry today he’s going to go hang out with a girl who’s his friend. Who i am already very insecure about. But I’m expected to be alone.... i dont want to lose him so i listen...