So, I've been raped a few times now. And I don't seem to have a ton of obvious issues because of it (so blessed to not have ptsd) but I do have a weird obsession with my rapists. I always want to check in on them, look at their Instagram or Facebook, or I want to text them and see how they are doing. I knew them all before, but I never really liked any of them. It's been over 3 years since the first one, and I still get urges to text him at least once a week. Does anyone else have this trauma bonding with their rapists? I feel like most people never want to see them again, but I feel like I want to?? Idk
Also my best friend just says, block them. Which they are, but it still doesn't get rid of my urges to reach out