I've been feeling the emptiness for so long and I don't know what to do. So I came here for help. I just can't stand being around anyone but I can't stand being alone I wanna be able to hold a conversation and look them in the eye everyone thinks I'm so rude but I'm just so afraid of what they think of me. I wish I could just be someone else sometimes made it would be easier. Always telling myself there's a way out is just more lies, and finding motivation gets harder and harder. I don't know what's keeping me going and I'm not even sure if I want to anymore.