So I made a post last night while having some kind of breakdown and good guy /u/BPDthrowawayq123 called me out on all of my faults. He called himself an asshole, but I felt (and still do feel) a lot better and more empathetic after getting absolutely roasted. My theory is that your perception of yourself is always SOOOO much worse than the perception of others, to the point that negative honesty from others will only ever make you feel better. In my paranoid psychotic episode, I saw all apologies and sympathies as "fake" and refused to accept them, full of anger and mistrust. Someone pointing out your faults is just so much easier to accept and believe. Maybe I was even unconsciously BEGGING to get my faults pointed out when I was acting like a complete asshole. 