So I’m watching Silver Lining’s Playbook for the first time since I started experiencing symptoms and was diagnosed.

How Bradley Cooper acts is how I FEEL so often. Thoughts so fast. Wanting to act out of control. Thoughts so out of control and in retrospect a little wonky.

BUT! I never look like that. I feel like I just spend all my manic energy containing my manic energy. 

My therapist says that the chaos I feel on the inside doesn’t match what people see which is why some doctors have not always believed me when I relay a manic episode.

Does anyone else have a similar manifestation of their mania?