I don't think I have depression but I didn't know where else to post this.

In my life there aren't any reasons why I should feel this way. If I compare it to previous year or the year before or any year, I'm doing better. My results in school/work are pretty good, I lost weight which makes me feel proud, I was never overweight but not skinny either and now I don't feel ashamed when I look in the mirror. My relationships have improved, my sleep schedule has improved, last year it would fluctuate between 2-4 hours a night and I'd wake up all sweaty and with headache which stuck with me all day long. Everything is just better.

But I feel so empty inside, like there's something very off, maybe it's the realization that there's nothing out there waiting for me. I got a new hobby and am working on multiple things but it doesn't help me to feel any more fulfilled, I don't get excited about things, I don't feel like starting anything unless I have to. The time's both too slow and fast and I can barely focus on the present.

I'm cold all the time, I wake up with a void inside of me. When I have some leisure time and there are actual things which are probably fun to do, I'm not motivated to do them.

Last year I was exhausted and stressed out and also felt empty a lot but it was different kind of emptiness than it is now. I'm wasting my time being unhappy and I don't know what to do. Give me advice, I don't need support, and I'll do it.