So I found out today that I got diagnosed with BPD almost a year ago (I guess my old therapist from a year ago diagnosed me but didn’t tell me, I started seeing a new therapist through the same agency and she saw it in my case notes and mentioned it). 

It’s not necessarily a surprise, as I’ve suspected it for a long time, but the way that it came about caught me really off guard. I feel like the past 3 months or so I’ve been doing really well and managing myself better than I was in the 3 years before, but hearing the news today started to put me back into my old state of mind. 

I’ve only seen this therapist twice and she terminated services today because I wasn’t willing to commit to going on medication. (I’m not opposed to it, I just got overwhelmed with all the info dumped on me in the first 5 minutes of our session and didn’t want to immediately call a psychiatrist during our session) 

So I’m gonna search for a new therapist and see if I can get a psych assessment just to confirm the diagnosis. It’s not that I don’t believe it, it just came about so weirdly that I want a confirmation. 

Anyway idk what I’m doing here except to vent and maybe just ask for some support or reassurance 🤷🏻‍♀️