You can look through my history to find the why, but I cannot stop sobbing for her. I still love her and it is clearly over. I’m functioning. Still going to work, working out, doing things I enjoy but it’s like all the color is gone from the world and I see her everywhere I go. 

I’ve always had a low opinion of cheaters but I really had no idea how absolutely destroyed it would make me as a person. I’m in therapy and on meds, it’s not helping. 

What else should I do?