So for a few years now i’ve been stuck in this abyss of thinking i’m absolutely useless.  I’m a 22 year old guy, just got a degree, and other than that I have absolutely nothing else.  

I mean I have a great group of friends but slowly, everyone has started to dissipate and this last 2 or 3 years it has felt like everyone wants to be around me less.  I rarely go out to drink anymore, because I moved further away, so often if I do go out i’m stuck driving everyone, then going home at 3 am by myself, just me and my depression on the trip back reset my day after day nightmare of a life. 

I have no love life, like whatsoever, anyone I get close with just uses me for something else.  Like I honestly can’t find anyone who genuinely cares about me, but that’s just one in the array of problems.

To make it worse i’m piled in debt, don’t have a job yet.  I’m just 1 in a million looking for a dead end job to keep this shitty life going.

I just don’t have anything going for me.  All i do all day is smoke weed and get in my own head, but i don’t know how to get out of that habit.

I feel like now I have no purpose, like i’m just a spectator watching everyone else enjoy their lives, while i’ve accomplished nothing, other than a shitty piece of paper.  

Idk, I guess I just feel like I don’t know where I am headed anymore, or what value I have. 

Regardless of how hard I try to tell myself i’m “good” at something or i’m “useful”, I can’t seem to get away from the thought that i’m not, and it’s starting to tear me apart.