I knew I probably don’t have it as bad as other people have it  but I really just want to tell someone my story. Iv been extremely lonely sense middle school, my social skills are so bad I can’t talk with people I can’t ask to bore a pencil or something and I can barely raise my voice to speak to people. Ever sense middle school the only people Iv talk to have been to my family members and a few people from school who asked me questions. I haven’t had a real friend for a while and no one to talk to about how I feel. Iv only been talking to my self which has made me start overthinking like crazy. It’s to the point that I have to blast music just so I don’t hear my own thoughts telling me to off my self. I hate everything about me and I feel like everyone hates me. I hate how I look, my body, my personality, and my stupid over thinking. I can’t do anything with out thing about the worst thing ever. If I ever wanted to talk to someone to be there friend I would freak out and start breathing really heavy. I feel like I’m going to be lonely for ever. I hate it. And I hate it when people say stuff like “just go up and talk to them” or “just stop overthinking it it’s not that big of a deal”. No one understands how hard it is for me. No one cares. No one ever checks up or ask how I’m feeling. My mental health is so bad that Iv started sleeping more just to not ever think or tell me self to off my self. My family can’t see that I want help but don’t know how to talk about it. They see me as a lazy bitch who just eats and sleeps. The only think from keeping me from offing myself is my brother. He’s 4 rn and I would hate to leave him so early. Iv already planned my suicide for the future tho.I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want to have a normal life with friends that make me smile. I’m sorry if you find this story stupid but I just really wanted to tell someone. Thank you for reading.