i think its just my anxiety but  


i feel like when i interact i never know /how much to feel/.  i have to make a phone call for an appointment and i come off either too emotional or too cold-hearted with the people i interact with whenever i do.   like i'm both trying to befriend them and hurt their feelings at the same time.  and then i feel like an awful person afterwards.   and for them its just work, scheduling appointments.  

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idk what i mean, i just always panic because cordial normal people interaction is also often like, fake?  i've worked in customer service and i always struggled to find a line between making people happy and being too real