Hi. I have been on so many antidepressants and nothing seems to work and it is so sad going through everyday feeling like dying. 

I do have some days that i laugh but as soon as the day ends or a single moment of sadness then i become this full on sad human being and it’s exhausting. I’m on so many medications right now and it doesn’t seem to be making me numb.
 
It feels as if I’m just trying to survive in this world. I blame god for making me like this but was it really god’s doing? I’m on Cymbalta 60mg, Wellbutrin 300mg, Lamictal 100mg.

Just wanted to get it off my chest.