My 20s have been pretty terrible suffering with PTSD and severe bipolar disorder. I’m medicated so the mania has been at bay and the depression still manages to close in on me. I’m getting older and I’m more than halfway done with my 20s with nothing to show but only suffering from this illness. It’s not fair sometimes. The trauma I went through at 19 has taken away from my 20s and it’s so hard to cope with the sadness and heartbreak of lost time. I wonder what I could be and what I could have accomplished had I not been in and out of hospitals or debilitated but this disease. I don’t know where to go from here and as hard as I try, I don’t have much hope for myself and my future. I know I can’t end it all so I have to deal with existing, which is painful. Thanks for anyone listening. This is just a vent.