First time posting, so I hope this is ok. I went in for my appointment today, and my therapist never showed up or called so I ended up leaving. I worried for hours that he had dropped me as a patient or something had happened to him, then about two hours ago his supervisor called and told me he was taking an indefinite leave of absence. Now I have no therapist and I'm freaking out. Even though I know he's not being mean or anything I'm feeling very abandoned and scared. I'm newly sober, just moved into sober house two weeks ago, started a new job yesterday and am dealing with intense depression and anxiety stemming from the BPD plus a diagnosis of bipolar. I'm just freaking out. I've had minor-ish suicidal thoughts for quite some time and this has spiked them and also really made me want to drink. Everything in my life is just so chaotic right now (15 days in psych hospital followed by 13 days in rehab, and then all of the other stuff I mentioned). I really needed to talk today and didn't get to so I have to wait until Monday for IOP, but it's a DBT substance use IOP so it's mainly skills training with a short check in not really therapy per say. My therapist is the only sliding scale DBT therapist in my city that I know of so finding a new DBT therapist, that I can talk to and afford seems impossible right now. I've been in a solid freak out since I found out he's gone and I just don't know what to do or how to cope with this...