Its ruining my relationship. I crave romantic things and sex so bad but when my partner tries i shut him down and then i get really upset, because i want the opposite of what my actions are doing but i keep pushing him away. I want him so bad but i dont understand why i wont let him touch me at all then. I dont know how to let myself be vulnerable, and love myself and feel like i deserve to be touched. and it started off okay but only got worse in the years we’ve been together. Now we don’t even have sex because of me, despite us both desperately wanting eachother. Also, do sex therapists exist? Genuinely thought a few times about seeing one with him if they are, to work on my stuff. Either that or a relationship counselor if they talk about sex life too and not just other problems in the relationship, since that’s where my main issue seems to be. Thank you to anyone who gives any suggestions or advice, I really appreciate it. Hope you’re all doing well.