I currently work for a company where I deal with customers via email. To be honest the lockdown has been beneficial to me as i don't have to go to work. However I've wanted to change my job because I don't think working in retail is good for my mental health as I'm always anxious about getting fired and anxious when customers are angry or difficult. I've had customers complain and tell me that my company might go backrupt and have all these thoughts and I'm just not happy. 
I wanted to do something in graphic design as i think I can do well in that field. I've been working on things slowly and learning softwares. But my family keeps pressuring me to do it ASAP and change my job asap. I'm not ready. I learn things slowly so I'm just anxious coz I hate dealing with my family. They already consider me to be a failure because I dropped out from my master's. I have a bachelor's degree. I've always been confused as a kid. I never knew what I wanted to be. I'm close to figuring it out. But I'm not there yet. So I'm scared that I might fail again or might not even get the job and let my family down again.
They think I've been cured of my anxiety and if i tell them I'm having these issues they might forcibly put me in the hospital again. That place was terrible for me.