So this isn’t to anyone in general and it helped me to write it out. I saw a few posts here asking how to handle the cringe of episodes and how to move on. 
I’m gonna shoutout the people who aren’t consistent with their meds too.

You are not special. 

You’re not the only one. Whatever you’ve done, whatever you’ve said, whatever you regret doing. Someone understands some level of your actions. There’s always someone out there who understands you. The problem is finding them through everything we go through.

So, You’re not special stop trying to find a way around it. The hard truth is time. 

That’s what helps the most. You can do a lot in the meantime to lesson the pain but after a certain amount of time, you will heal. 

That depends on you more then anything. Some of us bounce back quickly. Some take their time. Some never do. Time heals all wounds is a bit of a lie but time gives you the opportunity to move on and moving past the past is hard but necessary to grow. 

TDLR: life’s a marathon and some of us run and some of us walk. 
Some try to balance both and Some of us stop and some never do. 
Our race is different to everyone’s but in the end we all end up at the same place. Don’t ever forget, you can run alone but you’re not running alone. Someone has been where you are and someone will be there some day. 

Tldr2: you have time, so be kind to yourself and don’t be so hard on yourself. Time doesn’t heal all wounds but it heals more then you think

Love all of you idiots, no matter what.💛

Rant over.