Well I'm 26., Dad died when I was 14 parents had a lot of money but kind of just gambled it away and I never really gained skills because I was busy playing video games. Best friend and kind of mentor got bad into drugs and od'd and I had to go homeless and live with a buddy for awhile got my apartment but I worked at a carwash full time with some of the worst managers on earth. I walked out of that bitch one day. I'm a good ass worker but kind of started to doubt myself after getting fired from a factory but I already kind of struggled with anxiety and depression. And alcoholism. Alcohol makes me feel completely normal I'm not working a whole lot now at my new job but man it's not good enough pay or circumstances to really Wana work there still don't know obviously I'm intelligent and know so. But can't say people find that in me because of lack of confidence or how to hold myself as a "man" and I just fall into a cesspool of criticism wherever I am .