I know it sounds dramatic but the hardest thing in my life is replying to texts or emails. I dread it and it’s destroying me. I ruined friendships, family relationships, important life changing school and job opportunities because of this.

I literally refuse to look at my phone or e-mail. I don’t reply to texts soon, then this becomes a bigger thing than it needs to become and everyone becomes even more worried and they try harder to reach me -&gt; my anxiety goes through the roof, sometimes I engage in compulsive behaviors just to “escape” from this, I play videogames, browse endlessly or find any new “obsession/hobby” like this -&gt; I take more time to reply -&gt; feel guilty for taking more time and becoming extra anxious -&gt; now it’s too late, I’m an ungrateful weirdo waste of space, wish ppl left me alone because I’m bound to disappoint them by not keeping in touch, I’m friendly but I’m not an extravert, need to recharge after being with ppl -&gt; the cycle continues and I live in a state of anxiety and guilt.

What is this? I plan on consulting a psychologist (therapists are not really common in my country) but they haven’t been helpful before because they don’t really go to the root? Can anyone relate? How did you fix this? I have hit my rock bottom.