 Literally, not a thing can give me joy beside games but you can't do it full time, so i need find a job i at least kinda like, yes? NOTHING at all, my mind generate some unreal amount of barriers inside, can't talk to people, can't being helpful, being ugly and with bad voice, so on. Doing something i don't like? Welp also no, because then = agression and sadness. I tried many things i can do without interactions like montage, music, programming, still nothing, i just lost joy to everything i like before. I see people on furry conventions, having fun, or making others happy, and i just can't understand why and how? How they not scary of society and themself? Hope i can stole money, come to netherlands and find assasin to stop it.