Tonight just wasn't my night. Been kinda irritable all day and felt like everyone was against me. 

I finally texted my friend back after she texted me nearly 3 week ago- i didn't get a response. I guess I shouldn't be surprised since i pushed her away. Again. 

I was binge watching shows all night. And felt the need to conversate with someone about the films i just finished. I joined the reddit forum for it and it went downhill fast.... 

I didn't get the conversation i was hoping for so i couldn't help but verbally attack them instead. Then it got worse of course like it always does. I dont feel very well today and feel so alone.  

Now I dont feel welcome in their community and i ruined it in a matter of moments. Sometimes i feel like this is the only subreddit that understands me. That and the cat forum of course. 

I hope today gets better. Im so emotionally drained already.