i’ve had my fair share of issues related to mental illness and bad self worth. but lately i’ve been feeling so isolated and like a burden. i have the urge to do self destructive things and i feel like i’ll burden my mom or “friends”. my birthday passed recently on the 24th of June and nobody except for a few people in my family remembered, not a single of my so called friends either, i’ve been feeling so distant from my friends lately and none of them make an effort anymore. i feel like i can’t open up to anybody i know and it hurts. at the same time i struggle opening up with people, even to my family, i want someone to press me to talk about the things i feel like i can’t. i know i sound so contradicting lmao