I don’t know what’s happening to me a week ago I was completely fine happy with my medication and everything but these past couple days have been hell.  All the illusions I’ve put up for myself to keep myself going have shattered, I’m nothing. I’ve been alive for 14 years and the only thing I’ve brought to the world is pain and suffering to those closest to me. I used to think I was creative, intelligent, even funny but all of that’s bullshit. I didn’t “lose it because of my medication” like I’ve been saying that’s just a bullshit excuse to try to make myself feel better. I never was anything except for a self centered child with no real value. I’m done with medications the only thing I get from them is the illusion that I’m worth something and not just a pathetic miserable excuse of a human being.

Please someone help me I don’t know what I want I just don’t want to be like this