     So two of my co workers are sick with chest pains, sore throat, and a cough. I live in a small town and this is the worst covid has been so far. My step brothers recently came home from another province. I tried warning them to not go out as much as we are having a surge in cases and my mom is immunocompromised and they’re staying with her and my stepdad, but they didn’t listen because I was being “paranoid”.

     I live with my boyfriend in the same town. I was at work yesterday, my co worker told me she was sick but she didn’t take the day off bc no one else could work and we would have to close (I think this is a fucking stupid reason, we should close if our workers are sick!!).

     Anyway, she informed me that our other co worker was also sick and took the day off, and I had been in contact w her the day prior. I was supposed to visit my dad for a few days today in another city before Christmas, but didn’t. Idk why the fuck neither of my co workers got tested for covid. I’m not TOO worried about me getting it because I was masked while working with the both of them. However, my step brothers have been at my place of work every day since they’ve been back, and unmasked the entire time. (Pretty sure they hung out w my co workers after work too, so they would have been unmasked as well). 

     So today I texted the first one who got sick and said I’m giving her a rapid test. When I got there she wasn’t home (???) so now I have to wait until she decides to take it to know whether my mom is in danger. 

     I’m just so anxious right now. I can’t sleep or eat or do anything but sit here feeling, on the verge of tears, nauseous with my heart racing. Idk what to do. There’s nothing I can do now. If anyone has advice on how not to feel like a helpless sitting duck. 

     I’m catastrophizing so hard right now. I’m thinking about family members funerals and what’s gonna happen w my moms cats and house if the worst were to come of this. I don’t know how to calm down. No amount of positive self talk and reassurance can help me