hey all,

been through a lot of bad stuff lately. got fired from both my part-time jobs recently (one on my bday) a lot of sucky stuff. have trouble going out in public w my friends who all have full-time gigs, so i've been avoiding things. lately i can't concentrate. can't really write. just got a neat video camera and i cant bring myself to use it. on my fourth renewal of the same book from the library. i'm starting DBT and Prozac both this week, which is a plus but regardless i feel like human garbage. i feel anything that is not a full time position is ludicrous and i should only spend my time looking for jobs but then i get so overwhelmed by the thought of it that i just shut down. i want to start small, just read and workout and eat right but i can't seem to do that without the bombardment of negativity hurled my way by just life and my state of being. i know i'm an okay guy (at least i think i am), try to do stand-up comedy when i can and hang out with people but i get way too lost in all my own flaws. what are your self-help techniques just to start your day or to look at something and not shut down and give up completely? i feel like i'm doing everything wrong could really appreciate any help