The scene in Saving Private Ryan in which the guy has been shot in the stomach, and he keeps bleeding and they keep wiping it all away, that's what it's like. I know it's somewhat of a morbid analogy, but I feel that it's true. I have a lot of wounds, and being mindful doesn't take away the wounds but it clears things a bit. Again, morbid, probably nonsensical analogy but I've been thinking about it today.

I'd like to say that this is a positive thing and a breakthrough with being mindful for me.

&amp;#x200B;

[https://youtu.be/uFFlHFgYmpU?t=79](https://youtu.be/uFFlHFgYmpU?t=79)

nsfw warning for scene in question, it's very graphic, not for faint of heart