I was really close friends with this girl and she told me she has a crush on me but does not want to date me because she is not ready. That was the first time someone liked me. I couldn't sleep the day she told me that I was so happy. She actually liked me and I became and still am completely obsessed with her. She was really extroverted and I'm really introverted so she started making alot of friends and spending time with them and she became really distant. Seeing her everyday in college is so painful she's triggered alot of dysphoria and self harm episodes for me. I want her to reciprocate my feelings so bad and knowing it will never happen is so painful.