I am doing a lot better than I was half a year ago. I barely went out the door, and now I complete everyday tasks. Still I beat myself up for not being the extroverted and bubbly person I once was. We’re currently at my boyfriend’s family’s cabin for the Easter holidays. Everyone is downstairs drinking and having fun while I’m laying in bed, exhausted, sad and tired. I would love to go down and join the fun, but instead I lie here and cry. I feel hopeless, useless and I miss the old me.