I feel like a failure in my own life.  I have avoided my friends because I want me time when I'm not working.  I have been terrible to my parents (kicking them out of the house because they baby me/treat me like a child), my sister doesn't really want much to do with me (never did), my uncles only want to talk to me if I am out drinking or gambling with them, I have sought out prostitutes thinking it would make me feel better (it didn't), I don't really have any hobbies other than I would like to travel.  I feel like the only person I have left that genuinely cares about me is my mom and my niece.  They would be sad if I wasn't around.  Seeing my niece grow up is really the only reason I feel like I am still here, like I still have a purpose here.  I really feel like an imposter in my career because I don't feel like I know what I'm doing half the time.  All the other people say that's how it was for them too, but I feel like I should be better than that.

How do you cope with all of life's pressures?  I never thought about harming myself or others, drugs aren't my thing, I don't really enjoy drinking.