I was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder, major depressive disorder, anxiety, and agoraphobia eight years ago. Since then I have been in and out of treatment. Been on all kinds of meds. And have also self medicated with opiates. 

My main issues are cutting (severely), dramatic mood changes, inability to control thoughts and impulse, and an overwhelming depression with daily panic attacks.

I am seeking information on what meds would be beneficial. I do not want to tale meds but I am starting research on them to see if I might find some that would work for me. Any advice or input would help.

Thank you.