TW: mentions of suicide

I was playing Minecraft with my boyfriend yesterday and I'd collected a ton of iron and other stuff while mining. I was just heading back to base when I looked at Discord for a split second and a creeper came out of nowhere and blew up killing me and I lost all my shit.

I started having a severe breakdown calling myself a complete failure and saying I should just simply kill myself. My boyfriend was obviously trying to calm me down and told me I shouldn't kms and I said "WHY NOT?!? IT'S THE ONLY LOGICAL SOLUTION IN THIS SITUATION!!!"

When I realized I actually seriously said that, I started laughing so hard that it snapped me out of the episode. My boyfriend was pretty confused at first and thought I was laughing at him, but in reality, realizing what I said there was so absolutely hilarious to me :D