I could be doing a random thing like watching a movie and then suddenly feel like my life has shrunk to a size of a room, and the thought of going outside of that room scares me and neither do I have the energy for it. I’ve lost all happiness and i things that used to excite me doesn’t anymore. I’m afraid of feeling momentarily happy because I feel like it’ll be over soon so I even wallow when I’m happy. Having a good time scares me. Everything scares me. I feel like I don’t exist. I feel like going invisible