I was diagnosed with depression, but didn't do much about it cos I believe that was caused by months long lockdown. Now that everything is pretty much back to normal, I was feeling better for some days but recently it's been worse again. I can be sad for absolutely no reason, or just some tiny little things can trigger the sadness, and then I'll just be lying in bed for hours before sleep. I don't know if therapies would help, I've been to some in the past, the therapists just all seem fake and professionally sympathetic to me and I don't want that. And whenever they ask what's wrong I can't really tell, I don't know what's wrong. Maybe meds would help, but I genuinely don't want the common side effects, getting fat (apologies if I'm wrong about it), my biggest fear. Idk, it's probably not solvable, I'm just trapped here.