So im a person that uses things as an escape, Whether it’s Caffeine, Nicotine, alcohol, or drugs, it’s mostly drugs to be honest and I’ve increased in use much more recently with really anything I can get my hands on, this has been going on since I was about 13 years old with smoking pot and I’m 19 now doing much worse things I don’t even really feel comfortable admitting to, I feel like I’ve been in a haze so long like all the use from whatever it may be has made my mind very foggy so much so I can’t even remember why I began using drugs in the first place, whether it was depression or just fun. I don’t remember much of my childhood so I can’t remember if I was ever really sad back then but even now I don’t even really cry or get sad about things I just feel really empty and always like I have to fill the void. I feel like if I was sad I’d have motivation to get help but the lack of motivation has almost made me content in my current situation. I’m sorry if the grammar sucks, tiny bit tipsy at the moment