Hi! I used to have the intrusive thoughts where I for example thought about hitting myself, and in the end ended up having to do it. I used to hit myself a lot for some time, but that went away. Recently it's come back due to stress I suppose. 

The thoughts have gotten more violent and remind me of the images I had in my head when I was in High-school. I used to have these recurring mental images of severe self-mutilation (sawing off my arm, chopping it in bits, seasoning it, frying it in a pan, then feeding it to my dog Molly), which would pop up multiple times a day at random times. 

Now recently I've had images of me with a knife, which isn't new per se, but it's more sinister. More often than not, the thought is directed at me, but sometimes I think of other people as well. But this morning I had a bit of a scare. I was lying in bed with my boyfriend and had this thought of putting a knife in my chest over and over and over again, and then after a while I violently but my hand that I had on my boyfriends stomach and put it to my chest, as to cut myself. I was thinking then what would have happened if a knife had been laying around. (Why would a knife be in the bedroom, but you know what I mean).

Do any of you also have these intrusive thoughts, and how do you handle them? It scares me that they have become darker and also sometimes be directed at other people. Is that something I should be worried about, or is that normal?