I was assured at my psych's office a couple of days ago that I am not BPD, more likely bipolar. ( I see the actual psychiatrist tomorrow). 

I don't think this is correct. I've read extensively about BPD and it speaks to me, bipolar does not. A couple of years ago, I even took latuda for 3 months and that sh*t stole my soul. It made me depressed, rather than "evened out" as bipolar meds are designed to do. I'm terrified of trying another antidepressant if they misdiagnosed me. 

Anyone can proffer advice who May be in similar shoes? I know the conditions have some overlap. 