I recently lost almost all of my friends. Partially, it’s my fault because I pushed them away, but they also weren’t good friends to begin with and they’ve treated me like shit. I still have to be around all these people at school and I’ve seen how much happier they are without me in their lives. I’ve made a point to act invisible and I just watch how happy everyone else is; yet the second I decide to say something the mood is ruined and I just make everything worse.

I’ve come to accept the fact that people’s lives are better without me. I just don’t know what to do next.

I feel so so lonely and so depressed. I go to school every day but no one cares if I’m there or not. They don’t care how I’m doing or what’s going on in my life. How am I supposed to live my life knowing no one cares? And knowing if someone did, they’d surely be worse off for it? 

I hate how much this loneliness hurts. It feels like such a weight on my chest all the time, especially when I cry. How do I keep on going like this?