So, I've been having a panic attack for the past hour or so, the really bad kind with shaking and having thought loops about going insane and breaking my brain. I have a bottle sitting right by my desk and I know it will help. I don't have anything else like meds to help because I have no insurance and I need this feeling stop. I'm probably going to end up taking a few shots, but I know I'll feel guilty afterwards. It's something I've only done once or twice and I really need to feel okay right now. But I know I'll hate myself for using that method of coping after this passes.