I was looking at him and he turned me away. My ex always complained i never keep eye contact during sex which forced him ti thing of his previous tighter and I guess sexier and more “reactive” partners. but I worked on it and I’ve been trying ti improve even after the breakup. There is a new guy I like him but it’s like he prefers ducking me when I’m not looking at him. It makes me feel insecure. I don’t know why but it made me wanna cry. I instantly thought like my ex he was thinking of someone else. 
I also can’t tell if he is enjoying it or just saying that cause he is being polite. He isn’t even really even making sounds. I know not all guys dirty talk but most make some sounds. I’m insecure about vaginal tightness as well. 

It’s like ever since my ex made those comments it’s like with the partners I want to please I’m incapable of making them cum. I feel like my vagina is broken. 

I used to think I had so many insecurities in sex. Until last year when my ex said those things and now it’s like they’ve gotten to my head so much even my pussy feels different. I just wanna be desired and have a perfect size vagina