hi! first time calling, long time listener. 
i feel ridiculous and self conscious posting, but im drunk so what the hell
Almost everything I read on BPD and peoples experience with BPD involves romantic relationships
I'm 21 and have never been in a relationship. I'm sure this is due to my distrust of men (due to being abused by my dad and brother). I feel broken. Instead of real relationships I cycle through 'imagined' relationships in my head. I become obsessive. I can't get too close to anyone (romantically) irl because I'm scared they'll leave me. I'm not sure what I'm asking here.. I feel broken. I'm always trying to justify my BPD to myself, second guess my diagnosis.
I am i the only eternally single BPD?