If you guys have been reading my posts, you'd know that I am not really having the best days of my life. I've talked about this 26 year old and how he'd been hot and cold with me for a week. He's been *ignoring* me since Friday. I've been craving to hear his voice lately. He'd text me a little here and there but he didn't text me at all on Tuesday and so nor did I (text him). He'd been texting me since 7 am on Wednesday (yesterday). He asked if I'd blocked him already or not, I didn't reply but he knew that I read the message. He kept texting me all day and evening yesterday and I kept reading his texts but didn't reply to any. He promised me on Monday that he'll call me on Tuesday but he didn't. Yesterday he asked me if he could call me and I said no. He asked me why am I so upset and before I could lash out on him, I controlled my damn BPD and just replied "tomorrow". Anyway, he texted me once this morning and once again this afternoon. And when I didn't reply, he deleted our chat. On Monday he'd asked me why am I so into him and today I asked him the same question (after ignoring him for 2 days, unwillingly of course). He said "umm rude baby" and I said, "Yes, it was even 3 days ago". He didn't understand (or didn't mention it). He was trying to make me laugh, I said "excuse me?", he was sending me kissing emojis and I said "no thanks". Initially he was so happy and was sending me those happy smiling emojis when I came online but in the end I said "A taste of your medicine is always more bitter, isn't it?". (Yes, I am a *Scorpion* too). He went offline after that and I've been thinking about what did I just do. I am not even this kind of a malicious person but I never let any guy treat me the way he did for the last 5 days. All my feelings for him vanished when he ignored me for those days and the reason why I am feeling bad rn is not only because I might have hurt him but also because of the kind of malicious person I am turning and I feel HORRIBLE.