I had picked days to speak but being mute all together is a better situation. What is the likelihood of being shot if I call the police while brandishing a butter knife? I’m sure I’ll still get the end result. Suggestions? I’m done with this joint. It’s either this or I work the streets and give up any will I have left. I can’t say I care about my body, my health or doing what’s in my best interest anymore. Just want to feel wanted, loved or in the least bit useful.