I was at a wedding earlier and I was watching everyone dancing, no care just happy and I really wish back when I was younger I was able to be like that.  I regret not letting myself be happy and care free.  I would always worry about what my friends thought, what woman thought and I believe if I was just brave enough to be who I wanted to be, I would have been a much more liked person, I wouldn't have felt so self conscious, that I would have had a better life back then.  

Almost like a total feeling of jealousy and shame combined that I wasn't able to do that.  I love dancing and being silly but I was always so scared to be that person because my friends were idiots and I chose the wrong ones.  One of them I didn't, he never cared, I'm silly and mental with him, but the rest of them, honestly what a waste of my youth.  

Does anyone feel this way?