Something that plagues my mind and has done for years is this feeling that I’m not good enough and I won’t be able to achieve anything. 

I constantly feel like I’m not good enough for my friends, my career, my family and any relationships. 

I have dreams and aspirations, but I always think to myself, “what’s the point?” - I’m not going to achieve what I want so why should I even try? 

Then from that I just accept that I’m going to be unhappy and wait for that one thing that pushes me over the edge to kill myself... or I just live off benefits and live in a council flat until I eventually do die. That honestly sounds really appealing to me. The fact I can do nothing and have somewhere to live while doing so. 

I don’t wanna be like this but I’ve felt it for so long that it just seems like the norm. I’m in therapy and I’m medicated, but as good as my sessions go or my medication helps me it just seems to creep back. 

I wanna be happy more than anything else and have some confidence in my abilities and my life.

I know it’s a complex question - but does anyone have any advice on how to start thinking that I’m good enough and that I can work hard towards my goals? 

I don’t want to give up... but it just seems hard not to when this is all I think about.