Does anyone else feel like you can't "cry it out"? I hear people talk about crying it out all the time, like they have to get it out of their system. My therapist told me that people with BPD typically can't regulate between their rational brain and their emotional brain. We use one or the other and can rapidly be switching back and forth but they dont communicate with each other like they should. 

When something extremely traumatic happens to me (usually someone or a pet dying tragically) I can let myself cry but at some point I have to just stop, force myself to be numb, and just never let myself cry about it again. Otherwise I will spiral into a deep depression and wont be able to function as the head of my household. 

I wish I could feel sadness, understand that it is okay to let the feelings out, understand that life will go on and it will pass, and appreciate good memories. I can say everything my therapist has taught me out loud, but dealing with extreme trauma instead of minor things is something I have never improved on.