I definitely have stuff I wanna do but it’s not work…. And it’s expensive…. (Stuff like travelling). I just have no idea what I should do with my human life bruh. Does anyone feel like life is so empty?? After I tick a box, I’m off to tick another box. And sometimes I have nothing left to tick and I’m just seated in my room like a hollowed husk. I don’t really know how to make life meaningful as a student with no money and work ambition. I don’t strive to climb the corporate ladder or to lead people or whatever ppl want , I just don’t wanna feel so empty but I feel like I don’t really have any choice. The life that was set up for us is so…. Empty. I’m literally left with no choice but to spend my existence earning money just so I can exist. 


I’m an art student but I’m not that confident in my art abilities. I just wanna get high until I drop dead tbh. Feel like running away but eh, I need money. Every fucking thing needs money. I need to MIGRATE in order to live in the woods or some shit. That means I need to work hard, get a job overseas, spend years contributing to that country, then maybe, PERHAPS be able to live in the country. But even that sounds empty to me. 


I’m not out there to kill myself but if the opportunity comes🤷‍♀️ I’ve been over living long ago. Same shit everyday. Study to work. Work to exist. EXIST.


Nothing excites me. I think that’s the problem. I’m just so bored and over everything.