Does anyone else ever start talking with a new person who you're interested in and excited to potentially get closer to and then shortly thereafter begin pre-occupying your mind with imaginary scenarios that could play out the entire length or portions of the relationship with them?

It's incredibly bizarre to me, and honestly it is very frustrating when I'm just getting to know someone and then I start to dissect the details they share and occasionally dig for more information on social media or whatever platform I can find them on...

Literally, I laid in bed for like an hour last night trying to sleep but playing over situations in my head that are very likely never going to occur. Theoretical and imaginary constructs that are the product of my own historical experiences coupled with my inadvertently sparked subconscious desire for certain people.

I feel like I begin to self-actualize some of these situations for better or worse and then when the delusion of reality ends up being foiled or disrupted in any way, I am thrown off my game and some how self-destruct the relationship in the early stages.

I'm probably going to delete this because it actually sounds weird as hell after I've typed it all up...