I'm gonna start off right away my saying I'm not gonna do any of this. 



Lately it's been about burning my house down, or my parents' house I should say. It's *extremely* dirty. I mean seriously, there's mold and cat and dog shit and piss everywhere constantly. Trash piles up all over the place, the bathroom is disgusting. It's also literally falling apart and overall I don't even think it's safe to be living here but I don't have any other option right now besides living out of my car (which I'm seriously considering). But yeah the thought is always popping into my head about getting the animals out and just setting it on fire some way that would seem like an accident so the place is just gone from the earth and all the horrible energy of it is gone. 



I also have thoughts pop into my head about hitting/hurting people at work or this "friend" that is always just hurting me or starting fights now. I wouldn't anyway but I avoid him so I don't do anything. Or anyone who I think is bad enough I have thoughts pop up about how much they should be hurt. Or people who have a lot of money I think how many of my problems could be solved by stealing from them. 



Like I said I'm not gonna do any of these things. The thoughts just always pop into my head, especially about my house. I try to push them away but they still come back sooner or later. I feel terrible for thinking all of these things and know it's not ok, it just makes me really upset that I can't stop them from coming into my head