Ok so Im hoping someone on here can help me understand something. Yall have helped so much before and im always so thankful. My pwbpd blocked me 4 months ago, i have reached out every few days/weeks since that time. Yesterday i got a random email from him in response to a email that i sent a month ago. I mentioned thats its been x amount of months since i had sex and he responded to it. It was weird that was the only message he responded to out of all the ones i sent. He just randomly told me i didnt tell him i slept with anyone which i did tell him but i dont have the convo anymore bc im blocked still on IG. Im usually good about saving those kinds of messages bc he forgets alot and i have to show him. He said he went through our convo and didnt find it. So even though im blocked he saved our convo. I know its there. Second he told me back then he never wanted to be with me or even see me and he was going to start dating again. He now says how could i truly of wanted him and loved him if i had sex with someone else? Im having a hard time understanding this. I never wanted anyone else but he didnt want me!! He hasnt spoken to me in 4 months but now all Of a sudden its an ongoing convo about it out of nowhere. So just now keeps saying im contradicting myself bc i slept with someone when i wanted him. He didnt want me and told me he was going to be dating again!! Im just so confused right now. So its ok for him to date around but yet im just not suppose to not be with anyone bc i truly want him? I do want him but i cant just sit here while he dates around. Thats not fair to me and its very painful for me. Please someone help me understand what is going on and how to maybe handle this. Ive learned so much and read so much about bpd but then Stuff like this happens and i get so confused. I just need some advice on what to do. Thanks