I’ve been burnt out since like 2017 and things have gotten drastically worst. I dont have any purpose in life and was just getting by solely through the power of drugs but a lot of them give me stomach issues (amongst other side effects) that is just not fun anymore. Theres also the problem of tolerance and having to increase the dosage every so often to get through the day. Im tired of taking of them and im tired of living. I feel like i’m in hell and i need an escape. I don’t want to do anything anymore but i also dont want to be a wasteful human being living off government resources but work also sucks giant monkey balls. I went to college but never got to do what I wanted and i’ve long since given up on that dream. I work retail and its the most shittiest existence. No gf i just work and go home (True detective reference, i might go watch that again). Don’t mind me. Just venting.