i don’t know how much more i can take of these ups and downs. it feels like constant work to try and get better. 
i started working out consistently, im on sertraline, ive been to therapy. 
yet there are days where none of that matters and i still dont want to be here. 
one day i might be too tired to fight myself anymore. 

theres a feeling of not being happy with the life i live, but when i think of a better life to strive for- nothing comes to mind. 

thank u.