Needed to get that out there. Was on anti depressants for years before and even after diag. Been on lamictal 2 months and working up to 200mg, and for the first time ever I'm happy to take my meds. It doesnt feel like a chore, I'm just happy to know that tommorow will be manageable bc I take these silly little pills twice a day.
Still not the most stable, probably been hypomanic for a few weeks but I'm active, keeping up, started working a bit again. Even when I get depressed I pick myself above the floor in a matter of days instead of weeks a year ago. I'm dealing with difficult situations but still managing. First time feeling genuinely happy and fulfilled in a long time