So I’m a 24 year old Female. And before anyone says anything, I am getting a referral to get screened for ADHD in a couple of weeks. This has been nagging at me for several years at this point but I never paid attention to it until much more recently. 

I’ve been back on my depression medication for a good couple of months now after years of struggling to remember to take it consistently (even then there are days I get forgetful). While it works most of the time, there’s points where it doesn’t work at all. I take Zoloft for those curious, I don’t drink alcohol anymore (cause the medication has a negative effect with the two mixed) and I generally don’t have any reason at points to get extremely depressed. But I’ve been struggling to keep my emotions in check for awhile now. 

What’s making me suspect ADHD is a lot of factors. I might have a more chilled out case of it then I do anything else.

1. I am extremely scatter brained and forgetful. I tend to immediately forget what I was gonna do and then seconds later just remember. Only to forget again. If I’m told to do a task, I’ll forget the instructions seconds later and sit around wondering what to do. It’s not that I don’t care about what’s being told to me. It’s just I don’t remember after I was told. As I said before I forgot for years to consistently take my medication. Many thought I was just using it as an excuse or I didn’t want to take it. That’s not the case at all. I just get forgetful.

2. I’m extremely fidgety. I often can’t sit still for a long period of time. I’ll often keep adjusting myself in the seat or shake my leg without realizing it, or just get up randomly to walk around. I don’t know why I do this. I’ve always done this and maybe outwardly people think I’m impatient. I could see that. However I was taught patience. Ironically I can’t sit still on one thing for a long period of time at points, but then cut to me telling someone who’s trying to get my attention that they are irritating me. I think that reaction has a lot to do with when I am focused in on something? I don’t like being told to cut to something or look at something if it means I’m not able to easily get back to working on it or focusing. 

3. I can be extremely impulsive in a rather reckless way. Which has gotten me in trouble a lot. Some moments I can recall is walking home on my own and sort of taking a run when traffic is involved. Sometimes I pay attention, other times I don’t. I didn’t get in trouble cause of that aspect though (at least mostly). It’s that I walked myself home that became the issue. I do things without thinking until after the fact when I’m scolded. I can recklessly say things without thinking, I can do things without thinking (one time I took 5 shots of whisky and all my friends told me to not do that again. It was dreadful). I don’t think about things until after the fact and then I regret it or feel awful. 

I can get emotional in extreme ways and it’s bad on my friendships with others. I’ve tried many things to stop these impulsive reactions and emotions but my brain keeps pestering me until I do. I’ve been looking into ADHD and its become more clear that it’s a good possibility I have it.