I'm barely hanging on. The only reason I'm partly okay is because my ex girlfriend/fp hasn't changed her usernames from our inside joke and anniversary/break up date. It'll be a year on the 23. How much longer will I be in agony before she doesn't consume 90 percent of my thoughts or day?

I fall into memories, good or bad, and find it really hard for me to snap out of them.  Everything in my torso feels like it falls out when it happens, and I can't handle it. People notice when it happens because my face shows the emotional pain I'm in. I literally just stop what I'm doing and have to sit in it. It's the worst