So, many years ago I had a bit of an online relationship with this chick. Her and I share a lot of the same fetishes. In terms of BDSM and kink, we are completely compatible. 

Eventually that ended and I pursued a full time long term relationship with my wife. Which of course has been rough due to her OCD and Anxiety, as well as my Bipolar II-Schizoaffective rule out and BPD. 

Recently it's been rough and I started talking to said ex. Of course we started daydreaming about our old IMs and phone calls. No idea where it came from but eventually we started flirting. Playing little scenarios and talking about what's it'd be like if we met after something causing my marriage to fail. 

Well, my wife has trust issues and likes to invade what little privacy I have. So naturally she found the messages that I periodically delete. So, now we're there. 

Not sure how it spiraled so fast but of course, she's raving to her friends about it. Meaning now I have to deal with them. One of which is coming over. And there is a fair possibility she'll try to take a swing at me. So I'm trying to figure if I break her rips or arm when/if she tries. But I'll deal with that tomorrow. 

Either way, right now I'm in a bad place and really want a bottle of Glenlevet 12 to wash the night down. But that's one more thing to botch about since I rarely touch liquor since a stint in rehab a few years back. 

So I don't know what to do. Both of us are mentally defective and our preception of any conversation is fucked. So we are getting nowhere, and I think this may be it. 

Just wanted to get it off my chest. I'll delete it later. 