Whenever I'm single, I feel mostly normal. I graduated college, have a great job, have hobbies that I've stuck with for a long time now, and am generally not involved in "risky" behaviors. I don't really have many symptoms in everyday life. 

Whenever I get into relationships, that's when the real symptoms come out. Anger, controlling, insecurities, walking on eggshells, manipulation,...it's a nightmare for both parties involved. It's almost like I can't stop and THINK like I have the ability to in my everyday life. I just lose control of who I am.

For this reason, I've just stayed single for a long time now. Of course I have casual sex and go on dates but I don't let it go further anymore. 