I think I have acute anxiety. My wife and I have a 7 yr old child and we run a small businesss and have 5 staff. We are doing really well with the business/ financially but its a very intense life that I find myself in. My wifes mother is staying all the time now as well. Basically everyday Im surrounded by women and a needy child and I feel overwhelmed. My wife let me go away yesterday to the beach to be alone for a few days and I feel a weight off my shoulders. Im sure they are happy Im gone as well....

I feel so happy and normal now to be away from home life. But last night (after we closed our business) and most nights I feel so stressed at home and get angry very easily. Even this morning I felt wound up so much. This has been going on for yrs now and I dont know what to do. We live in the building where our business is and have to listen to the busy traffic. 

I feel like I should be on meds or something everyday. Ive never done this but Im really worried about my mind now (health). Im waking up at 3am all the time and dont sleep well. Im sleeping in a separate room. 

Ive tried seeing a psychologist but he made excuses at the end of our initial consultation about how he's going away or whatever. Maybe I was in the too hard basket for him. 

If this goes on and on I know that stress can kill. 

I sometimes take ativan at nightime when I remember and sleep really well with that. I dont know if I should take that everyday for a trial period. But concerned about addition. I dont normally like taking pills to be honest. 

Sometimes I take Melatonin at night times as its non addictive.

I wonder if I should be taking a 'mood stabilizer' if there is such a thing?