like, I know we all say that talking to people will always be good and things like that, but why would I tell my family and friends about my problems, they're mine, I created them do that's on my to solve them.

yes, I know help would probably be more effective but... I don't want people to help me solve my problems, no matter how much I hate myself for not solving them.

Obviously, I'm stuck in a loop where I only create myself more problems while not solving any and I have no will of going out of it.

What should I do and how?

I got a somewhat depressive friend that asked me how I did to always seem happy and smile and all, what made me see the world not as a freaked up thing...

that*s the only person I ever told that I though the world what just shit, and I still have no freakin idea how I can smile so much...