I was first diagnosed that I had BPD at 18. I found out after I was hospitalized in mental hospital twice within the same month for suicide attempts. Once I was released they prescribed medication and recommended that I go to group discussion. I went to discussion twice and never went back. I didn’t like it. I didn’t want to be on medication so I never took. Looking back I just think I wasn’t ready to handle the news and situation so I ignored it. I ignored so well I forgot. Fast forward 5 years and child later. I am wondering why I have so much issues with her dad trying to parent her. I hate how feel and make big stuff out of small stuff. My living situation and other situations were other normal people could cope, I seem to crumble. It hits me. I forgot I have BPD. I am learning more about. It makes me realize. How I act and how I feel it follows the BPD to a T. I have been researching and watching YouTube videos on it. I have been watching Dr. Fox and Ted talks. I feel a lot better, now that I am understanding more about it. I am learning coping mechanisms. I still would like to do more. I would like to do therapy. It’s hard though. I am a single mom. It would be hard to schedule them and have someone watch her. I am still against medication as it doesn’t work for everyone. I do not want to go through trail runs to see if it work. What has and hasn’t worked for you? 