This past week has been absolute hell for me. Not only have I’ve been feeling really crappy about myself, but I had dealt with some struggles within my relationship with my SO. Things have been resolved between us for the most part, but things just seem so weird and off now and I hate it. I was it to desperately go away and I’m worried that it won’t. Especially because our 2 year anniversary is tomorrow (technically now that I’m writing this) and I want to spend the day with them but I don’t think they want to do the same because it’s only been 2 years (not a big milestone to them). We already don’t see each other as often because of our work schedules but since everything happened and we made up it would just be nice and reassuring to spend the day with them doing literally whatever. But the thought of them not caring or the thought that I feel like I’m forcing them to spend it with me is killing me inside and I absolutely hate it :) My anxiety just keeps telling me that I’m awful, horrible, I don’t deserve happiness, this is all my fault etc etc :)