Sometimes I feel like I'm no one. Everything I do is a way to cope with mental incapacities. I cycle through interests and values constantly, which makes choosing what to do with life a constant battle. Currently diagnosed with bipolar but have each of the 7 diagnostic symptoms of BPD. 

The unending change. never knowing what's real, being paranoid about everyone's intentions..I don't know what to do. Therapy doesn't seem to help. I don't claim to know everything by any means, and I definitely don't apply the things I do know at certain times when I'm at my worst, but I feel as if therapy is a repeat of coping mechanisms. 

Just very confused and reaching out. I've been through this subreddit and reading the stories has been helpful as far as not feeling alone. I feel as if I'm on the road to recovery for a short period of time, and I always relapse. The only support I have right now is my immediate family and my on/off boyfriend (which I am VERY thankful to have, just making the point I've lost all friends due to isolation, paranoia, or manipulation).