i went to bed early because i was exhausted but fell asleep with him on the phone. i woke up and made sure he texted goodnight but he didn't say anything. so he's probably mad. he's going to break up with me. no, it'll just be a fight but i needed to sleep, i was exhausted! 
i fell asleep again and had a dream i was being taken to the hospital for wanting to hurt myself. my childhood teachers and classmates were there and it was embarassing. i woke up sweating and wanted to tell my boyfriend but he'll be mad i exist and am a terrible girlfriend? why did i go to sleep early, i ruined our christmas eve.