I have come to the realization that I keep myself busy on purpose. I'm a wife and stay at home mom. I cook and clean and fill my day with tasks. I can't seem to sit still. Whenever I try I get this overwhelming feeling of loneliness. 

I just started yoga (at home since I have really bad social anxiety) I follow along with some YouTube videos. When they instructed the "class" to breath and really connect with your body and feel I burst out into tears. I couldn't understand why but I've realized Im just sad. Im overwhelmed. My home life is great. I "have no reason" to be sad as some put it. But I can't shake this feeling of loneliness. Despair. Anxiety about every little detail of life. 

Thanks for letting me share. I will now resume my day full of tasks.