I'm such a tragic coward I don't know where to begin to put my life together. I failed out of college twice and destroyed everything else good in the process. I hate myself so much yet I can't start giving a crap about changing as it feels like its too late and it won't be worth the effort. I've screwed myself deeply and all I wonder about is how much my ex gf would laugh at me if she saw me now. "Fucking fool! how did i ever date someone as pathetic as you?! Thank god I'm on to such better things and will never have to acknowledge your existence again." I don't know what to do anymore