I use so much of my time focusing on things that make me really angry. E.g political problems, ppl who ableism all ppl with cluster B disorders and such. Stuff everyone tells me to stay away from. 
Thos stuff makes me really upset and usually id love to talk to thos ppl to understand the bullshit happening in their brain.
But i wonder why i enjoy it that much? I thought maybe its coping to have a direction for my anger so it doesnt just targets ppl i like. But im not sure. I may just like to be upset?

I really dont know. Do you guys have noticed anything like that? Its a litte addicting to read through thos toxic things.