I've been feeling like absolute trash for a while now and I hate it. I'm 15, and I got dumped, failed one of my online classes I've been taking for a while, and no matter what I do I feel like I'm disappointing my parents or the people who care about me. I'm always afraid of letting people down, and that stress on top of everything I'm dealing with at the moment is making me feel pretty depressed. it think thats what it is, I can't sleep but I'm always tired, I'm never hungry, and I'm just not enjoying life as much as I used to. if I'm doing something, its to make someone else happy. I don't even know how to enjoy living anymore. suicide is the easy way out, and I don't want to take it. I can't even imagine what that would do to the people I love. but even then, Living just to please them more would just be doing the same thing thats made me sad. I could take this into my own hands and finally do something for myself, for once. I don't know, I'm just looking for any help I can get. 

I really want to be happy. I do. I don't feel like I deserve it, though.