For context, I have a healthy Labrador collie mix. Well trained, well mannered, easily one of the best things in my life. That being said, my dog has a mane. Underneath the mane? It’s flabby. Now, during my last vet visit in December, we were told he has to lose weight. Although he has, he hasn’t gone down to his ideal weight. 

That being said, in my mind, the flabby ness is a tumor that’s going to take my dog away from me. I lose it every time I think it. The logical side of me says, he has an appointment coming up, he gets monthly showers and it’s never been brought up, during none of his check ups it’s been brought up, and when he lays on his back for scratches, it’s gone. 

I can’t help but think I’m going to lose him. I’ve been spiraling. Annoyingly, I keep getting asked, if I’ve taken my meds. He does have vet appointment coming up, and I even texted our vet today to discuss it, and even he said, I would be unusual if he had a growth of any kind at his age, but that he couldn’t know for sure without seeing him. 

I’m scared to lose my boy. I know he isn’t eternal, I know one day he’s going to have to leave, I’m just afraid it’ll be now. I need my boy. He came to help me and he has, and I need him to be around.