I’ve tried coming back to working out but it doesn’t make me feel good any more. 
This used to be my main tool a year ago and I loved it because it made me feel good about my self, and because I set goals for myself it motivated me to see another day. Then at the same time my membership expired I was going through hard times so I didn’t renew it. A few months went by and a week ago I went to try a gym but it didn’t make me feel the same way it did. Today I tried working out at home because I was feeling depressed but guess what, it didn’t do anything.
The fact that I’m loosing weight and physical progress makes me feel worse. I couldn’t achieve any of my goals and I feel like every day that goes by I’m in a lower point in my life. I wanted to be buffed so I could look at the mirror and be proud of myself, to look good to me and other people cause being ugly fucking sucks, this really helped me with my self confidence but now I have nothing.