DAE have obsessions with people they like? I always thought I was pretty normal until I realized how horrible my anxiety was and that most people do not think like me. My issue is when I am attracted to a guy I get very obsessive. My whole personality revolves around them. Even if we break up I will constantly stalk their social media to try to understand what’s going on - analyze EVERYTHING. It’s soooo unhealthy and makes me miserable. I am currently in therapy and took Lexapro to help, neither of these stop not my obsessions. I understand my thought pattern needs fixing and I have tried to fix it through positive coping mechanisms such as working out, meditating, distracting myself but i physically and emotionally go through panic attacks, deep depression if I do not stalk their social media. It is almost as if I am losing myself/mind. I know this sounds wild but I have been going through this with many different people since I was 13 years old (I’m currently 21). I have gone years of obsessing over guys I’ve been with even after we had broken up years before. I feel like I don’t know who I am bc I’m over analyzing someone’s else’s life. In order to stop the obsession With one guy I need to find the next. If they aren’t happy I’m 10x more unhappy. My thoughts and feelings revolve around them. I’m never happy anymore and can’t live with myself. It sucks so bad. Can anyone relate? Does anyone know why I’m like this? Is this just anxiety? Does everyone have this problem? I just really need help.

I should mention there’s been twice in my life where I wasn’t obsessed with another person and during those times I was obsessed with my health and got really bad health anxiety that led me to four different ER visits. Also, I experienced depersonalization/derealization (scariest shit I’ve ever been through in my life).My parents think I’m nuts.