(If you don’t want to read this long story, basically I’m saying I have no bad thoughts, no fear of anyone judging me, and pretty good confidence, but I have  bunch of the bodily symptoms while I’m in social situations)

I knew I had anxiety when it started to reveal itself to me back in my freshman year of high school. I graduated high school in 2020 and throughout this time I’ve been learning to cope with it. Recently I’ve noticed that I don’t have the “negative thoughts” part of anxiety. In every social situation I get into, I’m never worried about anything. I’ve almost never been “worried” about anything. But somehow I’ve always felt the upset stomach feeling, sweating, foot tapping, stuttering, and sometimes shivering. Nervous on the outside but never on the inside. Anyone else like this? 

I’d better add that every time I’m with friends or in an unfamiliar place I’m so present in the moment that I’m hardly thinking at all. A little song in my head at most.