So my Lamictal dose is not quite cutting it. I posted here and was very hypomanic or manic. Not sure where I was at but I knew I was up. I had my appointment, which was also really surreal for me. I’m gonna be on a combo of Abilify and Lamictal.  

I am devastated. I should be really happy about trying a med that helps get rid of the highs of the disorder, but it’s really hard for me to accept that I actually need it. It’s just feeding my fear of being crazy. It’s scary. I know that there are other people that also take it, and I don’t think they’re crazy. In fact, I think they are really inspirational for me, because it gives me hope that I could be functional. It really is just a awful feeling that’s directed towards me only.

Has anyone else experienced this feeling? If so, how did you cope?