Hi there Reddit, I did something incredibly stupid a couple of months ago and frankly I really don’t feel good about myself and haven’t been able to think positively in the past few months. Let me explain what I did before I get any further though. So I’m 16(male) and I’m in high school. I’ll be honest, this entire thing happened purely because I was horny embarrassing as it is to admit. I should also add that i take the bus home from school most days of the year and the ride is long and boring, so one day out of both horniness and boredom I decide to do something ludicrously stupid. I decided to try a little game to try and take pictures of the girl who sat in the seat next to me. The reason why I said horniness was a motivation was because I did in fact use those pictures to fantasize(don’t worry I’m hell grossed out reading this. I then deleted the picture I took and repeated that frankly gross behavior from September 2021 to November 2021, not everyday but a number of them, consistently using the pictures for the same gross purpose. The main reason I stopped the behavior was our worry that I committed some kind of crime as those pictures were pictures of minors(in the same grade as me) which were taken for sexual purposes. That fear was so terrifying that after some self reflection I decided to completely stop the whole thing and delete any of the remaining photos. I then became so paranoid that I went onto multiple forums(like r/legal advice)to ask the same question of wheather or not my actions were criminal or not and thankfully they weren’t. I feel at this point it is important to mention the content of these photos as there wasn’t anything sexual really in the photos themselves, no sexual posing as they were completely unaware they were having pictures taken of them and there was no nudity because duh, this was high school and all of them were pictures on the bus. Even now knowing that these actions aren’t criminal, I still have felt absolutely awful about the fact that I ever did this and I’ve almost always been thinking about how creepy and weird my actions were those days. I think about them almost all the time and I can’t find a single thing to sympathize with my own actions because I only have myself to blame . I may not have sent those pictures to anybody and those pictures may not be sexual but I still feel like an absolute scumbag and sleaze for taking those pictures. It’s been one of the main things occupying my mind and anytime someone says something nice to me, wheather it be my parents,teachers or classmates, I always feel bad because I feel like I’d have disappointed them in my actions and that someone, literally anyone else is more deserving of that praise than I am. I don’t feel Lil Im simply overfixating on a minor issue like my older sister said I am.