I haven't talked to my friends in months. I don't talk to anyone besides my mother. I don't know how to socialize anymore. I'm the type of person that tries to please everyone and ends up being forgotten or left out, which makes me feel like shit. I hate myself and think no one will ever love me for what I am. I hate looking at myself in the mirror because I'm only able to see my flaws and everything I hate about myself. Apparently, I'm a good health condition but still see myself as the fattest person alive. I feel like if I don't get into a good college I'm worthless, I feel like everything that's worth about me is my brain and no one will ever like me for that. The only thing that's keeping me from ending things is the hope of getting into a good college.