I met a guy online. We chatted a few months. Exchanged numbers. Spoke over the phone. First call and I was already swooned over by him. His voice, personality and everything. But our relationship is very bad in the sense that we keep fighting over the silliest mistakes. I keep getting triggered and then I say hurtful things to him. And then the next day i pretend like nothing ever happened and I get so affectionate the next day. But he did told me he wasnt looking for commitment. Our relationship was just like platonic level. But once I did told him how I feel towards him like i love him and all and he said he didn’t want to hurt me further and he stayed away. Ever since then it has been a month. I hate the fact that my last text was left on read. Usually he is a fast texter and always giving me attention. Now sucks to say I probably wont find someone like him. We both have the same personality interests taste but only defect in our relationship was that my BPD symptoms were acting all over me. I really cannot stop obsessing over him. Weird feeling is that ever since we parted our ways i love him deeper even more and more lol........ has anyone occurred the same feelings/thoughts in my situation? and how did you handled it or handling it so far? Would love to hear your comments.