Been feeling awful these days bc I can't seem to bring back the old me who was very energetic, someone who could interact with others without thinking too much, someone who had a lot to bring up in conversations. I feel like my confidence died down and my life just gets worse. I no longer have the urge to help at home, catch up with friends, and do my homeworks. Life's been really stagnant for me because what I do all day is lie in my bed. People's lives I see online gets better and better while my life just continues to spiral down. For months, I've been trying to develop healthy coping mechanisms just so I could find tiny bits of motivation in me but ended up being addictions. Man, I'm tired of painfully trying to fix myself. If this continues, I'll just be a failure in my first year in college which will begin next year. Wish I could have friends my age who I could rely on and talk to constantly. I wanna get through this. 

Sorry for my bad english, not a native. Hope you guys are okay.