It’s 8am, my appointment is at 4pm and I’m already freaking out. It’s a completely new place and new doctor for me so I really have no idea what to expect. I’m also not sure how they’re going to let me pick new frames with COVID? Considering germs, they probably won’t let people try on frames but I have no idea.

I might take a benzodiazepine, but I took two yesterday and I don’t really want to take another. I will if I have to, and I probably should. That just means I’ll feel like utter garbage tomorrow.

Fuck, what if they find some sort of disease? What if I dissociate while they’re checking my eyes and then they think something is super wrong? I dissociate all of the time, should I warn them beforehand? I filled out their piece of paper and told them I have a mental disability so hopefully that’ll help.

I’m really nervous. I haven’t been to the eye doctor in over 6 years..