Now is a bit of a difficult time for me because I'm reminded of Autumn 2020, where everything was good – that's the problem.

I seem to be wishing more than anything that I could have by autumn 2020 life again and live and feel exactly like that. I was so happy (or at least in my memories, and I've come to terms with the fact that I did have some pretty bad moments, although for the most part, it was all pretty positive), and I just keep wishing it was then.

I started online therapy with an app back in May and I haven't been using it so much recently, though I realise I really should be using it, as it has helped me before. It's just that I can't stop thinking about a year ago. I keep catastrophising about now and worrying about the future, thinking of the worst case scenarios, and over these past 6 months, I've managed to convince myself that my greatest fears will come true, which really hurts.

I just really want to come to terms with the fact that the past is the past and though I can't ever go back in time, I should be grateful for it. I want to be able to think of it as a good time and not obsess over really wanting it back, and then being able to look forward to the future without fearing the worst.

If anyone has any tips, i'd be so thankful if you could reply with them :)