This year just has not been the year for me but these last to 2 days has shown how much the world is out for me and I’m at my last straw and honestly I’ve been clean from cutting for a year now but now idk I feel like I’m barely fucking hanging on and idk what to dk I’m tired of acting like I’m stable and ok and when I do want to reach out for hell NO ONE IS FUCKING THERE I’m just over it sorry for the rant I’ve had depression since I was 12 and I’ve just haven’t been happy since I’m never happy I only have happy moments but even then most the time I’m just acting.