(M23) I know suicide is not the way, but i just don’t know how else to get this constant pain inside me to go away. This uncomfertable, sad and anxious feeling inside of me. 

I don’t want to die, but i don’t see a way out besides suicide either. 

I regret the way i’ve lived my life, things i’ve done and things i’ve said. Slowly but surely my life has come to a standstill with no where to go. No one close to me anymore besided family and i don’t work because of my depression. 

I drink alcohol to cope and to feel something besides sadness and depression. But even that is not doing anything for me anymore, it only make me do more things i regret and feel anxious about. 

I can’t handle life anymore and i can’t see a way to deal with these feelings.