It's been a while since I've last posted or even visited this subreddit. When I'm at my worst, I don't know why but something about coming here makes me feel less worse. That I'm not alone and at least other people feel this way too. I've had some bad days but some good ones too. There was a while when getting out of bed didn't make me feel so miserable and I forgot about this feeling but I can feel it coming back. It's moving slowly but I can feel it weighing on me. I can feel myself getting irritated by little things people do and I feel terrible for feeling this way. I can't help but think I'm a bad person so I spend more time alone. Maybe if I do that I won't feel so bad. If I do that I won't think bad thoughts.