I am so tired,  I don't  even have anything good to say, I am just repeating myself, I have said this all a million times, I can't  focus, I just want to scream, but I can't and I hate myself, I am and always have been miserable, I am just so tired, I just want it to end. But I don't  have the courage  to kill myself, and I will always hate myself for being so weak. I am tired, so tired and no amount  of rest will make me feel better.