I’m literally at my rope’s end. I’m completely an outcast and an ostracized person, the true definition of a misfit. I’m a queer person in Iran with a very strict family. They rather me be dead than me being gay. What can I do? I’m trying hard to find ways to escape my dad’s house. I’m 23 and I feel like I’m like Britney and Jamie is my dad. He controls my whole life. I’ve never gone outside without my parents. No one wants to become my friend in real life except online pals. I have mental issues I haven’t been given a straight diagnosis though. But I’m heavily gaslighted by my cruel family. Everyone tells me you’re paranoid. But I honestly differentiate between reality and delusion. The way I’ve been treated and treated every day. As if I’m a retard. I’m literally in a bad situation does anyone know why it is this way except that I’m paranoid and schizophrenic? I’m in therapy for 6 years. It’s been tough. It seems like I’m under conversion therapy. I was completely ruined upon coming out as gay. Everyone deserted me. I’ve sought so many people for help. It has helped but it’s a fucked up situation due to my manipulative and abusive father. Please what is wrong with me?????????????????? ( don’t want a diagnosis since it’s against the rules ) but probably some guidance? People label me as a recluse even a psycho. I've just had it. I just need some candid and honest comment about hardship I'm going through. Is there something I'm unaware of about myself? ( except mental illness)
Help me pleaseeeeee