Before, I used to have greta social skills, I can make people laugh, can make good impressions, and way more kind. But the emotions i experienced took a toll on my social skills. Im getting boring to talk to, i cant make jokes, very bad at casual talks, and sometimes lashes out for no reason. So, its hard to see the point in being social again if i just rotted into some boring person. I tried to be better but it all went flat and im losing hope in being better again, and be the fun person i used to be