I used to be so infatuated with him but now… I fucking hate him. He takes advantage of me. He uses my softness and makes me feel less than what I am. He doesn’t ever create any type of safety for me. Why should I for him? This relationship isn’t giving me anything and I feel like I’m constantly comparing myself to his exes. Maybe it’s not my BPD this time? Maybe it’s the truth? He’s a narcissist.