Excuse the garbage formating I'm on my mobile and a throwaway because I'm not out and proud yet when it comes to my bpd. 

Also trigger warnings, maybe, suicidal thoughts 

Does anyone else just get so overwhelmed with feelings and emotions you just replace it with a feeling of emptiness? Plus I'm not actively suicidal just having casual thoughts about how much easier life would be. Also having a meltdown because I had this whole plan of how things would be and its nothing like what I wanted and thought so thats just a bit trash. 

In general I feel shit and I want to cry because meds aren't helping and I can't even express how I feel. Send love pls x