So I’ve been having a lot of thoughts of unaliving myself and yesterday I had to get something done. When I read the text message I thought I needed to send the work to this person but turns out I actually needed to do it myself. I’d been feeling so exhausted from the pain, so tired of get through the day and this has happened before. A month or two ago, I was having a convo with my friend over text, she asked me something about abuse she gets from her parents and asked me. I responded and somehow, because I was spiralling already, I thought her text read that it wasn’t that bad, I got mad at her. Then when my mind was clearer (I’m gonna guess like maybe a week or two later, I read the message again and didn’t even put that). She said she got the same thing but it was nowhere near insinuating she was comparing or downplaying my experiences.


So I want to know, has anyone experienced this? I’ve had memory loss and still do but I’m not sure about this one. Does anyone know? 

I’m worried once I get a job this will happen again and lead to worse outcomes like getting fired. Personally, I find this to be worse than carrying the pain because it leads to me spirally downwards to even more darker place. I feel like my mind is warping reality.