Between mid May and mid June is the anniversary of my dad’s death, his birthday, then Father’s Day. Then the 27th of May is the anniversary of my previous dogs death. And now my German shepherd died today. He hasn’t even been living with me but my mom the past few years. I can’t even hold him or could have comforted him. He’s gone. Just like my dad and my previous dog. It feels like this time of year is very cruelly jinxed for me and the people I love. It feels all consuming this time of year and I tend to get hospitalized for suicidal behavior around this time because of all of this. 

I kind of just needed this off my chest but I’m really wanting to hear from anyone that seems to have a particularly hard time of year for them and what they do to push through. I really cannot be hospitalized again. I had a horrid experience last time and I wouldn’t go freely anymore if it came to it. When you KNOW you’re more likely to go manic or have an extremely depressed episode, what do you do differently to try to ease symptoms? I’d love any advice anyone has. I already had an appt scheduled with my psych today so I will speak to them and ask them as well. Thanks to anyone reading.