i stopped taking my meds abt a month or so ago and instead of going directly into a manic episode and then a severe and very long depressive episode directly after, like always, i now just feel nothing. i’m not happy i just am there. nothing to complain about ig life is fine. ik i should just shut up and stop complaining and be happy abt it but it feels so unnatural and strange and honestly i rlly miss being depressed