I really don’t believe in any shape or form I suffer from mental health issues, it just feels normal? Do people tend to hear voices in their head? It’s bothersome at times, like if I’m sitting at a corner of the couch these voices will tell me to go and sit elsewhere because the ceiling is going to collapse on me. And if I don’t do it, it gets very persistent. There are times when I’m doing stuff and they will tell me I am going to mess up and these voices will call me stupid for messing up and berate me on why I don’t listen to them. Or if I mess up they say “i told you so.” Or even if I am writing something, if it’s not “right” they tell me to erase it and rewrite it in a different way. Like right now, if I’m making a sentence and it’s not “correct” they will keep on telling me to fix the sentence even though it’s correct. Tonight I woke up and the voices started to tell me “they’re watching you through the windows, they’re coming to get you” and they kept on persisting that I close the curtains. It’s just annoying, sometimes they tell me to kill myself but I have not heard that for a while. At times it’s over extremely simple things, if I am making toast and want to take it out they tell me to leave it in because it’s not finished yet even though it very clearly is. and if I don’t listen I feel extremely stupid for not listening, and I feel “stupid” all over my body? It’s very hard to describe, ineffable almost. When I am talking to a person sometimes they compliment what I said telling me I did a good job or something along those lines. 

I don’t know why or care, I am not really affected when they tell me these things, but it’s very annoying. It doesn’t happen all the time, and at periods it doesn’t happen at all, I’m just curious if it’s normal. And it’s not like I hear them talking in my ear, I hear them in my head. If I am being honest I noticed it happens when I am depressed. 

For writing this they’re telling me I’m stupid, but they said it once. I heard while writing this “you’re stupid, don’t do it, erase it, you’re stupid for writing this.” I feel like I am telling myself these things, and that i am doing this subconsciously every time it happens. I feel I am doing this to myself because when I tell it to stop it sometimes does. I just fear I am doing this to myself, and I am actually the one telling myself these things in my mind. I’m sorry