I don't even wanna get into the details but I started seeing a coworker. He was always pretty shy and I dropped heavy hints for awhile at him. Finally he made a move and we had a great month or so, I was really into him, then he sent the "I'm not looking for anything serious" shit from him. And of course I couldn't just drop it. He'd confessed to me that he has really bad social anxiety, so of course I started pushing a bit more, convincing myself that his anxiety was why he cut me off so suddenly (he really did go from 100% into this and clingier than I am, to not interested). I tried to be nice about it but I know it was overwhelming and pushed him away further until he finally told me flat out that he'd been trying to spare my feelings but he's just not fucking into me. 

I actually feel better having heard it. But I still can't stop obsessing. I now know better than to push myself on him (tho we're still friendly, perhaps me a bit more than him). But I've read basically every single thing on Reddit and google trying to convince myself that it's just his anxiety and that if I'm patient and kind he'll come around. I know it's a stupid dream. I know I've done this before. I know I'll move on. I even went on a date last night, and it was okay. But I'm still obsessing and I hate it. I'm not gonna say anything out of the norm to this guy (in fact, I'm gonna try to just stop messaging him all together and let him initiate any conversation for fucks sake) but I can't stop trying to convince myself that we'll end up together. There will be some long heartfelt conversation between us and then a night of hot steamy sex and well run off into the fucking sunset together. I know it's stupid. I know I should respect myself more. I know it's done and over and I need to just fucking STOP but I fucking CANT and it's driving me fucking INSANE. Fuck!! 