We haven't even been in a relationship for a month yet which is part of my hesitation...

But Not telling him feels like I am cheating the relationship or cheating him. he is letting me into his life and I feel like I'm not letting him into mine...

But as a person with BPD telling someone you have this.. is a huge risk isn't it? he could just walk away.. it's not too late for him to rid himself of me... ok that sounds really negative.. but I feel like leaving me would be the best thing for him.. but it would suck for me... Can I even be a good thing in a guys life while suffering from BPD?

Am I being selfish by even being in a relationship?

I've been trying really hard to shelter him from my mental illness. He knows I have emotional problems because I have bad cutting scars all over one arm. They are old, from high school, but they are ugly and obviously self-inflicted.. So he knows there is something wrong with me.. But a lot of guys I have dated think they are old issues, as in not relevant anymore.. and then they find out that they aren't old issues.. I still struggle with mental health.. 


TL;DR: I don't want to be rejected or hurt because I have BPD but I feel like I am lying to him or cheating him by not telling him about these problems I struggle with...