Hey guys I just joined this group because over the last year I have become increasingly aware of my anxiety.

I've known for a while that I do sabotage things particularly relationships when there's any good aspect about them. I believe I have abandonment issues and have been through some abuse in my younger years at home. 

However it seems like anxiety has been a growing monster inside of me ever since things started to take a turn for the better. I do go to therapy and sometimes that helps and I feel like I'm making real progression. Other days I feel like I never made any real progress and it was only a matter of time before I was overcome by this ugly monster. 

I've always been against pharmaceutical medication as I watched my little brother change from a bright young energetic boy to an emotionless sleep-walker in the early morning hours after taking his medication. 

But these days it feels as if my emotions are too big for my body and like I could explode from all the thoughts constantly swirling around my mind. I've always been a fan of psychedelics and have even microdosed. I plan on doing that eventually but honestly it's hard to find the time and get it all together.

I guess I'm making this post because I'd like to hear anyone's experiences with medication for anxiety. -- thanks for reading