Hey hey, 

When I'm with friends we usually smoke some weed and drink a couple of drinks, but I've been starting to question for a long while now whether it's more negatively impacting me than positively...

Because the day after I feel almost always deeply shit, depressed, my whole curiosity for life is gone, even suicidal. Life, myself, and the people around me I do not care about... what causes this? 

I do know that I'm very senstive as a human being, so I know things impact me more heavily than average, tho still not used to it. 

I tried quitting alcohol for a period of 3 months, and that showed me I can also have fun with ppl when not using alcohol. The same for weed... I tried that for 25 days, and bit of the same effect. 
Now I started using stuff again, and I'm just not sure...

Whether it's just the combination or just the weed or just the alcohol... 

I do generally have way more of a problem with it if I drink and then smoke as well. 
While just drinking, makes me survive usually... 

And Not sure about sleep, because If I go to bed early and not late asfk after having drunk or smoked I'm generally feeling better as well... 

Now also it could be caused by a sense of guilt, a sense of guilt that i know deep down in me that i kind a fuck up my brain and body while using drugs.

Also I've way less of a problem if I'm the next day with the same friends, but usually I'm waking up alone in my family's house, thus I don't see my friends.... 


What's your experience with the combination of weed and alcohol?