Im really exhausted, really exhausted. 
I am so despised its beyond belief for my acts of impulsivity, fear insecurity and depressed by the callousness in which those people made me think they felt 'anything' for me.

I now feel numb, dumb, stupid lost dejected, abandoned, rejected. 

Its not really about tommorrow as that will never cone, its always going to be this.

Im now on a path where my option is real peace. I want to sleep forever I want any action to complete my demise to work.

TBH, I would not even be missed and please dont say how do i know. Been told enough times by one to many sources. 

Im not afraid of dying, im scared ot may not work and i become another burden. This burden is real enough.