And the results are crazy. The panic attacks are practically gone. I do feel anxious from time to time but I don't get paralyzed by the fear. The pain is now located only in my chest instead of my whole body. I can still stay present when I'm anxious because the pain is bearable. And because the anxiety is under control the dissociation automatically got so much better that it blows my mind. I do dissociate but it's so mild that I can basically decide not to dissociate anymore so I just stop. I don't have headaches anymore. I'm not depressed! I do get sad of course but then instead of going to bed and sleeping for hours I do something productive to just stop being sad. I've gotten so much shit done it's insane. And I'm actually enjoying myself in the process of getting my shit done. I haven't had suicidal thoughts in a month. I just noticed at some point like wow, I haven't thought about killing myself in a very long time and I couldn't believe it. Normally it's like five times a day after every mild inconvenience or every unpleasant situation. My mood is not all over the place. My PMS lasted one day instead of ten. I feel... good! I feel content. I feel like a normal human being and I haven't had that in years. And boy do I hope it will last. I'm ready to give up everything to feel good. I quit drinking alcohol almost two years ago. And I don't take any meds. I basically try to listen to what my body says to me and be kind to it. And I don't miss coffee at all if that's how my body thanks me for quitting it.


Of course, everyone is different and maybe it's just my experience but I just wanted to share it with you. Maybe someone would like to try it too.