Since my diagnosis I've done a lot of soul searching and looking into my past. I've realized that most of my serious relationships were not actually me loving that person, but being infatuated with the idea of them and the "perfect life" they might could provide(marriage, kids,etc) no matter how dysfunctional or unrealistic that goal would've been. Once I got tired of my partner and fell out of the honeymoon stage, it was like a flip of the switch and I didn't want anything to do with them anymore. Now that I'm in a new relationship (albeit much healthier than ones in the past), I can't help but constantly question myself on whether this is me falling back into my old ways or if I genuinely love this person. Any advice? Relationship is going on 6 months, so still relatively new.