Have been on Lamictal for 3+ years now, which has made a world of difference with managing hypomania and the hopeless deep end of depression. "Regular" depression is still quite persistent, so I still have long periods of time where I struggle immensely with taking care of my health and my home. (Currently working on fixing that w/ my prescriber.)

My home seems to be the biggest problem as of late. I used to be able to ride out the depression mess until a hypomanic cycle arrived, and then I would spend 3 glorious days cleaning and organizing my home back into a state I was comfortable with others seeing. But I don't get hypomanic like that anymore, so I can't ever seem to get out from under the mess.

It's probably not as bad as it feels, but that doesn't really mean shit bc it's still too overwhelming and unmanageable. I just want my home to feel like a comfortable place for me to unwind. But instead it's more like a cave of shame where I hide from the world, and I hate it.

I would be so grateful for any advice for 1) getting past the shame enough to get started; and 2) parceling up everything that needs to be done, so I can get back to square one and do a better job of maintaining it in the long run.

TIA.