My story began Jan 2020 when I had my first panic attack after smoking weed when we were in vacation in Amsterdam. I was so tense I thought I was having a heart attack. I am usually a calm guy the next day had some chest pain and after that I totally forgot about it. The next two months was ok. But it happened two times where I wake up in the middle of night with slight panic attack. But was not a problem it was controllable. After that everything was good until I started experience huge neck pain. I lived with it for like a month then started feeling dizziness, fatigue. Here I started having weird symptoms which is going blank. Whenever I am talking or even sending audio messages, I would go blank and restart the whole audio. It was scary. I started having some short memory losses also. I got a psychiatrists and healed the neck pain in 2 month but started experiencing stomach issues. Fast forward got diagnosed with Sliding Hernia \~3cm and Chronic Gastritis. I did all kind of blood tests everything was fine. I am on total diet now and health wise I feel good.  


However, my only issue now is kind of social anxiety. Since many times I went blank while talking is giving me anxiety more. My fear is more of forgetting a word, or forgetting even my native language itself. Some of the doctors told me the stomach issues were from stress and prescribed me antidepressants with PPI. I don't feel depressed, its just this Gastritis gave me more anxiety.  


Has anyone here had this going blank anxiety or fear of forgetting words or talk. How do you usually deal with this and train your mind to gain more confidence. I was a very social guy before this and this is ruining my life. I am ready to do anything. Trainings/books/diet just anything.