I'm supposed to handle my life without medication right now but I will never get used to the awful crushing feeling that every important task is too much to bear. Maybe I'm just lazy but I really struggle a lot with physical fatigue, anhedonia, demotivation and sadness. I have no nerves, get very impatient and have racing thoughts. I'm supposed to do psychotherapy but I'm so restless each day and just suffer too much I can't stand the process. There is just no joy and I feel so damn overwhelmed. I don't see how I can rebuild my life with my own strengh even if a psychotherapist assists me. I feel so hopeless it takes so much strengh that I don't have.