 I feel so depressed at one point I thought. fuck it. I now take it day by day. Every day I make it the best possible day I can make. Ensure peace, cleanliness and regularity. It's hard because my depression tells me to do nothing and stare apathetically in front of me. My addiction tells me to take drugs, cigarettes and alcohol. For the rest, I have a lot of trouble with the antipsychotics that I take. The side effects are quite serious, especially the flattening of the emotional life.  

Anyway I make it a nice day, and watch it day by day.