I really hate how I was born in the wrong body and how I have this horrible condition. I hate all the trauma I went thru when I was a younger kid. I can’t keep to feel better like it feels like there’s very small times where I feel “happy” but it ends up ending bad and then a long period of sadness and pain. I hate how people say “well people have it worse just look at the better things” what better things???! Everything is shit holy fuck I really want to die right now. I went through things no kid should ever go through and I just want to not exist. I’m sorry for sounding so negative but this is how I feel and venting does help me a little. The fact that I’m still alive is so surprising but I try my best to keep pushing but I think I really want to stop I’m so devastated and just want to be so happy and make others happy but I can’t do it. I can’t really have friends because they all end up fake it’s like I can’t even have a social life either and then I’m trans it makes it even harder but I fear for my fucking life as a teen. I’m sorry if I triggered someone if it did I’ll delete but venting my feelings 100% helps me not bottle it up