Im kinda scared to open up cause my thoughts are too depressing and i dont want fp to grow distant from me cause that always happens and im fucking scared of it. Fp said we can share my pain but i dont like the idea of it. I donf wanna lose fp cause i feel like i really like someone after my last breakup and im scared to lose this. Fp is so nice but what if my pain is unbearable for him? Besides that fp is kinda nice at helping me but i havent told him too much about my problems its just what i have and not in depth about my stuff. I feel guilty for ruining so many friendships because i told one person about all of my problems and they got drained and they cut me off:(