today ive managed to

* sleep for 11 hours
* block my FP (several times, for like 2 hours at a time) because we (both) decided to spend one day on our own so we don't get sick of each other and that Stressed me Out even though it was a mutual decision
* see a friend, get high and feel like she hates me cuz she had to leave even though i kinda wanted to be alone
* cry while listening to crazy ex-girlfriend songs
* self-harm because i felt kinda empty and bored and it just felt like i deserved it
* decide to break up with my bf
* decide not to do that
* get a lil bit drunk
* masturbate 2 times
* get some validation from sexting strangers online
* help??

fun times. i'm not sure the zoloft is working lol.