Hi. Been diagnosed several years ago and untreated. My relatives children are coming over un announced. They are the most loud disgusting children I've known. Screaming and irritating! The mother does not discipline them at ALL obviously.

I am feeling extremely suicidal now and feel I should take something to make a point that this is what happens. I have no control ! I've done it several times in the past. It seems it's the only way they 'temporarily' get the point and give a damn. My mother told me they are not disgusting !! Why is she saying this. Why does she care about them so much!! Do you think they will remember you once they leave the damn house!? Hate my mother she's disgusting. So is the whole family! Unfortunately, not independent! As much as I hate them I got no choice.

There are a few rare ones.. quiet children. I was quiet and always alone as a child. If you are like that..I don't mind! Not the ones that cause trouble!

I am jealous of them..they have all of this joy and care in their lives while noone ever cared for me when I was child. Why do they get everything and I have nothing. Why care more for these grand kids than YOUR OWN CHILD.

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THEY GET ALL THE ATTENTION NOW ..JUST FOR EXISTING.