TW SUICIDE my mom is an extremely toxic and abusive person especially when it comes to her taking her negative emotions out on me. as a person who’s compassionate, for the most part i take it. but over the past few months i’ve noticed that after she gets angry with me and says or does things, i start to have intrusive negative and suicidal thoughts. it could be for the smallest thing, but after i talk to her, my emotions become extremely intense. i struggle with clinical depression and a few other things but i’ve worked on that to a point where i don’t feel suicidal anymore. why is it that these random urges come on so strongly? and there’s no need to worry i know i won’t do it because i value my life now and will continue to, im just very confused why my brain switches only after i interact with her.