I can tell whether or not someone is attracted to me, but even that sense is greatly dulled when I'm in a relationship that I don't plan on leaving. Any greater nuance than whether or not they want me is totally lost. 

I think my gut feeling is to believe the worst about myself, but then logically remind myself that people probably don't see just that, but beyond that it's a mystery. 

I even feel apprehension at the thought of really trying to view myself from other peoples' perspective because I see it as a probable blow to my ego. 

Does this make sense to anyone else? 