Like things have been rough lately but generally getting better slowly, less stressful except the holidays coming up.  I haven't been drinking but am a little tonight and for whatever reason I feel like hurting myself and I don't get it.  I've never cut before I always did the head banging/hitting thing but I feel like that doesn't count so I keep thinking I should try cutting becuase it seems like it'd feel good.  I won't though I don't think seems scary.  I had this weird urge to start crying earlier for no reason.  No idea what's going on or causing this.  Sorry just rambling DAE get like this?