I don’t know what to do I’m so scared. I don’t want to be this way but I can’t get rid of this feeling of wanting to end it all. Honestly I don’t even think I could even go through with it because I don’t want to cause pain to my family and friends. But I feel so alone, I don’t feel like I can talk to them about my issues anymore because I feel like I’m always on the back burner or being told to just move on and get over it. All I’ve ever wanted in life was to start a family and have a wife and kids but I just keep getting my heart broken and I’m just so tired of feeling this pain. I’m at the point where I don’t even think that I will ever find someone who wants to be with me. And that terrifies me because if I can’t find that then I don’t see a point to being alive. Starting a family has always been my one goal in life, and without that I don’t see the point in continuing all this suffering