(21F) i’m constantly feeling like i’m not good enough for anyone no matter what i do. rarely get past the taking stage, guys tend to normally just lead me on, fuck me then ghost me. ive had 1 serious relationship and even that was a flop. he turned out to be all kinds of abusive and is still causing me problems 2 years later. a lot of what happened with him has given me a lot of anxiety when it comes to men, i like to think i pick and choose them a lot more carefully since my ex but clearly not. everyone tells me not to worry that my “time will come” but ive been waiting forever for my “time to come” and it’s now just starting to feel like it’s never going to come . everyone around me are in serious relationships, some with children and some expecting and it’s just really starting to get to me, i’m constantly wishing for the same. 
doesn’t help that i hate everything about myself but i always try to put in a front all the time so people don’t realise how i’m truly feeling but i’m tired of having to fake it.
i supposed faking it until you make it is the key to life