I live in a place where there's no distinction between mentally ill people and criminals, all go to the same jail. I am nearing 30, I've known my diagnosis for more than 5, more than half a decade of treatment.

I've only recently realized the high correlation of BPD with criminal behavior. Apparently BPD is common among inmates. It makes sense, impulsivity, being suicidal and the mood swings, you're a danger to other people. The impulsivity and self-harm go in hand with fucking with everyone surrounding me. Innocent bystanders.

I'm not a hood rat, I am lower middle class, I went to college, got a degree, I've had decent jobs, have somewhat built a reputation. But I've landed in jail and police quarters so many times. Over things I was scared or paranoid, not anything done with malicious intent. At this point in time people threaten to call police on me at least once a month. And I'm not proud to said I've had to develop skills to escape these situations (while fucking psychotic half the time).

BPD is serious, it kills people. I've never followed proper treatment and It's too late for me. Don't make the same mistakes. Go talk to your doctor and please take your meds, they do work.