When I was very young I was diagnosed with OCD, and later in 6th grade diagnosed with depression and anxiety and put on medication. After nearly 7 years no combination of antidepressants ever worked and neither did therapy. Told my psychiatrist I felt like something else might be wrong and he told me to try krill oil, vitamin d, vitamin k, cbd oil, etc etc and none of it worked.

I changed therapists and psychiatrists. Psychiatrist said that given family history I would likely develop bipolar disorder in the near future as I am in the age range for that and have many risk factors such as history of suicide in the family, previous family hospitalizations, a hospitalization of my own, an uncle with bipolar disorder, and just general fucked genetics with some mild trauma. In the past 3 or 4 months we have tried about 3 different bipolar medications and an anti anxiety medication coupled with CBT. Therapist had me bring my mom in for a session to try resolving things that happened I. The past. None of it has helped at all. I have not been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I feel like I don't know who I am and I don't know what's wrong with me and I feel so angry all the time and most days I can't even function and it's like I want everyone to leave me alone but I also can't stand being completely alone and I'm just tired of everyone not taking me seriously.