I am a CS student who recently started an 8 month internship (mar 2021 to oct 2021)....I'll be graduating soon in August and the last semester will be graded on the basis of our internship. I was a web development student but got an internship in data analytics just on the basis of a few riddles, mental ability questions and a good HR round...Let's just say I got lucky...
There's a rule in our college that doesn't let you sit for further campus placements once you've been selected for 1 particular company...So I had to take it up...the salary was pretty good so I thought how bad could it really be....I just felt lucky to find a job in these trying times of covid
Since it started and they began training us in excel I knew it was not for me...it's been almost 3 months and I still haven't been able to feel better better about it. I am the only intern who is not familiar with any data analytics technologies. I don't see myself doing this job even in the next 2 years and feel like it's not for me.Sometimes when you know, you just know... After 2 months, I was put into a team that requires quick logical reasoning and good math and I suck at both of them. I am a visual and a creative person and find data analytics boring and hard. I am not excited to learn. Maybe something like Ui/Ux would have been ideal for me and I'm thinking about transitioning into it as soon as this internship is over through a course or a postgraduate program because I am not very bright at coding...but this internship is making me doubt myself every step of the way whether I'll be good for any field...

I have MAJOR anxiety and broke up recently(1 month into my internship).It was a 2.5 year relationship which ended up in him cheating on me and it just added to the problem. I am severly depressed and I feel like this internship is consuming my life. I am not able to cope and put in proper work to even make it till october.I feel this weight on my chest 24/7 and I drown myself in negativity everyday no matter how hard I try to stay optimistic. I am always low on energy and positivity. I have tried to workout in the morning and tried meditating but it only seems to work momentarily. I don't know if I'll be able to get counselling. I think even this huge paragraph can't fully explain the wreck I am right now...My mom does understand my anxiety but she also thinks I am afraid and don't have the ability to cope with it. Which is true but I feel helpless. I am not even able to plan my escape. I clearly suck at taking decisions(took CS even when I should have gone into fine arts or animation, and now took a job that is clearly not for me). I know I am directly responsible for my own choices but I don't know what to do...I dont know how I'm going to transition into ui/ux effectively, I am not able to decide for the course I should be taking and how to go about it...I feel like I am stuck between the past and the future and unable to work for my present...I am the only new intern in this team among my peers, and having a hard time since I am a slow learner and I panic when all the other senior members try to test my knowledge...it is annoying my manager. I am not smart enough for this job. I am not able to communicate to my peers about my mental health and lagging in progress. 
 
My anxiety has worsened with time....I think it also has to do with the fact that I'm not doing what I'm passionate about since highschool (and its common in india) and it has just killed me from inside. I find myself making excuses to my team regularly and I wish sickness upon myself just so I can get a break from it and its only been a week in the team after the initial training..Everyday I decide to do better, I feel mentally exhausted in the end. I try to be hopeful and enduring but fail...sleep is the only peace I know but that also often includes nightmares.. I dont feel like making art or even watch a show that might make me feel better..

I would really appreciate someone sharing any similar experience or just your thoughts on the situation...please, I feel alone and hopeless..I just want to be understood. I took me 3 hours and alot of tears to write this post..