how am i supposed to cope knowing that i am literally the problem in my relationship? it literally hurts so bad, more than my ex, more than ever. i know i’m pushing my fp away. he is neurodivergent and has enough to deal with for his own mental health and yet i still manage to demand stuff from him. i know i’m wearing him out, i feel like it’s only a matter of time before he gives up on me, and at this point i genuinely think he should. i love him so much, but i want to break up with him for the sole reason of not wanting to hurt him anymore. the only issue? i’m not strong enough to actually do it. i’ve been going through the vicious cycle of panic and guilt and attempting to push him away for so long, but it genuinely feels like it’s happening this time and i do not know how to deal with it.