do you guys take a ridiculously long time to get over big breakups? my ex and i dated for a year and a half and he was my first love, but i haven’t even spoken to him in over 2 years. i just saw a few pics in our old high school yearbook and i can’t stop crying... i know rationally i should be over it but he did a lot of damage and i haven’t been the same since. i’m so scared to let those walls down again bc i don’t think i can handle another let down of that size? there’s also a lot of closure i didn’t get bc i (obviously) did not react very well to him leaving me. i was a total bitch at the end and he was very sweet and gentle with me but he reached a breaking point. after the breakup i went on a string of random hookups and excessive alcohol use. i have since stopped that bc it just left me feeling empty, but i am SO lonely and i feel like if i had someone else i could really truly move on.