When I feel very secure and loved myself, I'm able to extend love to basically everyone. In this state, my empathy and patience know no bounds, my social skills improve a thousandfold, it's like a superpower. On the other hand, when I feel very insecure and unloved, I suddenly despise everyone, to the extent that I have to isolate ASAP so as to avoid acting out/burning bridges. And then there's the weird in-between state, where I might feel secure or insecure, loved or unloved, but the intensity of these emotions is low, as if I know the emotion is there but it doesn't register entirely and I'm disconnected from it. When I'm like this (which is most of the time), I'm indifferent towards everyone, including myself. And during the in-between periods, I desperately want to tip over to one of the extremes (although the desperation is an intellectual thing and not a *feeling*). Does anyone experience something similar or know how to explain this phenomenon?