I see a psychiatrist and therapist and they put me on antipsychotic meds about 2 months ago. I have been having symptoms for around 1 1/2 or a little longer. My first thing I noticed was I became very worried about the power outlets and that I felt like there was bad energy coming from them. I wouldn’t describe myself as religious but I tend to get very into religion when I start to feel this way. I think I’m trying to find an answer to these thoughts. Lately I have been having difficulty with feeling like people are going to capture me or hurt me in some way. I also feel like some sort of energy or spirit wants to mess with me and trick me. I hear noises and talking I don’t like to call it voices because that just makes me uncomfortable. Usually it is a lady who likes to laugh at me and trick me make me feel bad. I get random thoughts in my head to do things to “save me” like making a hole in my closet wall so I can escape. Or climbing an electrical tower to release the energy. I also feel as though somehow if I passed away it would be a sacrifice and that I would be helping other people wake up. That I wouldn’t actually die but I would be woken up again. It is difficult because being awake feels just like when I am dreaming. The psychiatrist won’t tell me my diagnosis he says we have to manage the symptoms first. But that makes me feel like nothing is wrong with me at all. I am aware this thinking is “off” but at the same time I believe all of it in my heart. I piece together different clues like numbers or billboards I feel like they are meant for me to interpret. I’m not sure what to do since it is hard to talk about. Has anyone else had similar feelings? I’ve thought about possibly an impatient stay but I don’t feel suicidal at all I just feel confused. I’m not sure if I would benefit from that. I have to make sure my thoughts are clear and clean because I do know that people can hear them and they gather info on me that way. I do feel nervous posting this but I just need some help.