For the past week I haven't gotten tired anymore. I do my daily tasks like usual, nothing bad happened, I eat like usual, nothing has changed. That's what worries me. My dad was bipolar, or so his doctor said, and I'm worried I might be too? I've had all kinds of diagnosis over the years with depression being the one constant. I worry this is a manic phase? But I've never witnessed a manic phase in my dad. He was always depressed and angry at the world. He was a workaholic though. My whole family struggles with mental health problems (caused by my dad and his abusive ways) and I'm still struggling every day too. I've never been manic though, at least not that I know of. I either have okay/numb days or hellish depressing ones. I know nobody can tell me of I do or don't have bipolar disorder but I'm just worried..

IF I'm in a manic phase without realizing, how do you safely get out of it? Can you even stop it? 


Sorry, I don't know shit about bipolar disorder and do not mean to hate, discriminate or hurt anyone with my ignorance. I used to self harm quite severly and I read that people in a manic phase sometimes harm themselves or do other dangerous stuff, that's why I'm so concerned about this sudden change. I might be overreacting, probably am, but still..


Anyway, thanks for reading if you have.