My boyfriend works late. I mean, he gets in five hours after I've come home.

I like to eat better meals than just frozen oven food so I wait for him because I'm not gonna make pasta or a stew just for myself. So I eat late.

We don't really have sex any more and it's at the point now where I'm kinda too nervous and self conscious to fee comfortable with it because of the sheer length of time between having it.

I've raised these points with him amongst others. I don't really want to hear I should leave him or anything because I'm not going to, but I could just do with some advice/insight/you're-not-alone style stuff.

I have problems with object permanence so the lack of contact is kind of making me numb. We live together but it feels like a part time relationship, which makes me subconsciously distance myself from him (and I've noticed I'm doing it).

He's not happy in the job and does want another one but in the interim I don't really know what to do. I have no motivation or drive or hobbies - it's not like I can fill my time. I just can't seem to. So I wait for him to come home, and I feel stupid and pathetic but that's all I do.