I'm going to copy paste my list of symptoms from my notes app. These are all things I am constantly feeling or thinking, and I would really appreciate if anyone could skim through and tell me you also feel this way :(

When trying to sleep 

* Feels like throat is closing, drink water every few seconds because it makes me feel better, then need to pee 10 minutes later
* Tongue feels uncomfortable in mouth, makes me think I'm going to swallow it, so I clench it in my teeth to "hold it"
* randomly get that falling sensation like when you go over G bumps in the road, but not the same falling feeling people get when falling asleep sometimes. It's almost a dizziness. Hard to explain. 
* heart palpation followed by the above feeling
* feels like heart is racing, probably is
* dry ass lips only when I'm trying to sleep
* browse tiktok for hours because I don't want to try to fall asleep for the above reasons
* body just feels tense
* try to fall asleep with TV on because sometimes, rarely, helps me forget about how I am feeling
* gets anxious about health because of all listed symptoms
* take huge breaths in to make sure throat is indeed not closed 

Throughout day 

* when doing some random thing throughout the day I just become hyper aware and feel like I might fall over?? Happens in shower a lot so I try to take as fast showers as possible to avoid falling in shower. Only take cold to lukewarm showers to avoid light headedness 

* terrified to drive because the hyper aware feeling plus the dizzy/falling feeling happen while driving
* when driving, will get waves of warm sensation?? Palms get sweaty, fuzzy feeling in body like when an alcohol buzz hits kind of
* vision just feels off. Idk how to explain it. When driving (in daytime, or riding in a car), it's hard to focus on one thing. I'm seeing everything at once??? Idk. Feels bright. Like I can't make my eyes focus on what it needs to drive safely.
* at night when driving or riding in car, can't see far ahead and get petrified we will run off road. Lights can be very disorienting especially oncoming headlights.
* I feel "light" like a feather?????
* sometimes when going from standing to sitting or bending over etc, get heart palpitation
* I just don't feel normal. Ever since the episode in February, I have not felt the same. I can remember when my vision wasn't weird.
* tons of eye floaters
* not much desire to do anything in my life, used to be some what motivated
* want friends but socializing is also really draining. I wish I didn't have to work or be an adult so I could stay inside forever. 
* get extremely overwhelmed and cry over small things. Like calling the doctors to change pharmacy or when something just doesn't go right
* get panic attacks at work easily, used to be able to handle stress no problem
* I just can't stop eating bad no matter how much I want to be skinny. I want to be thin so I can dress how I want and be me and I just don't do it. 
* want to walk and exercise but I just don't
* I avoid anything and everything that causes slight anxiety. 
* petrified of driving again
* always scared I will die somehow either by health conditions or accident
* had full blood work done a few months ago and nothing was wrong with me. Insulin was slightly higher than normal but doc said nothing to worry about if I cut back on sugar and alcohol. Still constantly scared about health issues. 
* worried meds will make me crazier
* worried I have bipolar or some awful serious mental condition like schizophrenia 
* worried I have MS because of the weird vision and dizzy feelings
* always worried something will happen. House fire, gas leak, intruders, something breaking while home alone, etc
* the environment, climate change, and political discourse in our country the last 2 years cause constant anxiety. Actually become overwhelmed with sadness and cry when I see pictures of ocean filled with plastic or something like that
* extremely empathetic towards tv. Crying at things I'd never cry about before. Hunger games when rue dies, when pretty much anybody is grieving and crying