I've been going through an insanly bad time lately because of a breakup and while I was lying all miserable in bed I spontaneously just leaped the fuck out and grabbed something to cut myself with. I was scrapping at my arm with a shitty bent bottle cap. 

The cuts bad, but not too bad (because what the fuck can I do with a bottle cap), I'm just more so pissed off that I would do this. I did it to myself about 10 years ago. I managed to go a full decade before I fucking did it again I hate myself so fucking much.

I'm worried I might do it again to, my arm has this sort of itch where I just want to scratch it with something sharp.. I actually liked the sting it caused. Fuck I'm such a disappointment.