I feel so alone and want to 💀. 
There’s a lot going on in my life but I seem to have no one to talk to. Nothing seems to be getting better. I don’t think I’ll ever do anything to myself but I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. I work all the time and yet don’t even have enough to pay my bills, I can’t get products I need like shampoo so I don’t wash my hair as much as I should because I can’t afford it.  I can barely afford gas. I have random work drama out of nowhere. Someone thinks I said something to someone else but I never have. I’m not the kind of person to blab other peoples personal stuff to anyone but apparently they think I did. I got assaulted earlier,  my boss yelled at me for it because I had to deal with police and not go into work.  I don’t eat unless I’m at work, I’m just so depressed and I don’t see anything getting better. There’s been so many break ins and assaults on me and nothing ever changes. It seems like any and every bad thing happens to me and I have the worst luck. Maybe I was a horrible person in another life, but in this life I do anything I can for another person especially one I care about. Maybe that’s why the work thing bothers me so much because I know I’d never do that but everyone thinks I’m a horrible person and deserve all the break ins and assaults so maybe I am a bad person and I just don’t see it? But my way of thinking is if I’m such a horrible person like everyone thinks maybe I deserve to 💀. Like I said I’m not going to do anything to myself but maybe it would be better if whoever is breaking in would just take me out. Maybe I don’t need to be scared anymore, maybe I deserve it. Everyone just hates me so there has to be a reason as to why. I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone in my corner that cared about everything going on, but I don’t. I have no one other than my own thoughts. And even my own thoughts are against me at this point.