So I asked my dad to get me back to a psychiatrist so I can get back on some medication before college. But the whole 10 minute conversation made me feel so bad. It felt as if I am faking the when Bpd thing. 
And my parents have said it before "you're fine, nothings wrong with you. The doctors are wrong" which means they don't believe in it. 

But asking for help made me question myself. I don't know what to do or how to be certain about what is true.