It's been about 5 months now since I lost my smell and taste.. I feel like I've kinda gotten used to not tasting or smelling anything. But still I get depressed sometimes when I realise that I'm not able to taste anything.. and when I'm in that phase I just don't feel like anything except lay on my bed . I can't concentrate on anything, my chest feels heavy as a Mountain and feel like crying sometimes and I don't know what to to do.. (at that point I just loose all hope) Most of the time I get better by listening to some music and sleeping it off and the next day I'm fine. 

I just feel empty Inside tbh

I don't feel like eating a lot (  I do. Have a lot of cravings for some reason . But after I eat that food I realise 8 can't taste it and just regret having that craving) . I force myself to eat all the meals but occassionally I find myself skipping meals. At this point I don't think I remember the taste and smell of most foods now.

BEFORE me getting covid I used to catastrophe alot . Whenever I didn't hear from parents or sister when they were out I used to always think about the worst . Occassionally with my friends also.. And it was extremely exhausting .. it probably started in 2020 after covid and my grandfather's death . 
It actually became better and I don't catastrophe as much anymore (rarely) BUT ITS EXTREMELY EXHAUSTING

After covid I used to get tired and breathless easily like even after walking for a few min. My heart rate used to spike to 130s very easily.. thankfully now I'm fine physically at least.. i just have to build my stamina back ig

And the thing is no one around me understands what I feel like.. I've only told this to one my best friend till now.

I don't know if my smell will ever comeback and I don't know what I should do..

A tiny part of me also thinks I'm overreacting to this and making a big deal out of it .. idk