Through the right combo of meds, years of therapy &amp; a healthy relationship with plenty of communication, I have finally got my symptoms under control. I have a ‘normal’ life. A really good one, actually. But there are still times when I’m itching to fight and operating a hair trigger. I want to lash out. I want to throw things. I want to say mean shit &amp; storm away. But I’m not. And self control is just so unsatisfying 