Every once in a while something shifts in me and i become withdrawn and unaffectionate towards everyone. “Cutesy” stuff is difficult and exhausting for me, being romantic is impossible. I don’t choose to act like this, but i get punished for the behavior. 

It sucks that people take me struggling mentally as a personal attack when i tell them i still care i just don’t know what’s wrong and why i feel nothing. I shouldn’t be punished, you shouldn’t in return, pull back your affection and kindness. When someone punishes me for this episode and gives me the cold shoulder, it pushes me further into this pit.