I’m going to be real honest here. I’ve burnt out and given up on myself. My sleeping pattern is so irregular and it causes me to forget my days because I can’t keep track, so I have no clue sometimes what I did just two days ago. It feels like I’m beginning to lose my perception of time too. I barely go to school anymore, maybe once a week. I don’t do my work either and the thought of doing it makes me anxious because I know I’ll want to perfect it and it’ll just stress me out. I’ve struggled with OCD my whole life, which has been very tiring and the main reason I give up. I mainly just lay in bed feeling guilty about it all and scroll on my phone trying to distract myself. How do I develop a routine at this point? It’s been so long and I feel so alone, I can’t find the motivation to do anything, I’m so tired. I don’t want to be on meds, I stopped taking my zoloft by accident because I ran out and never called to see if I have a refill ready but I’m enjoying it because while the numbing felt nice, it got annoying after awhile. What do I do at this point? I want to ask for help from a family member but I’m ashamed.