I get Extreme emotions all the time, it feels like i have an antenna that is working 24/7, if something is even slightly hurtful i get heartbroken and want to kill myself i also fall into depression rather often. My emotional state is very unstable, I was always this way like too impulsive and too emotional and unstable, my mood swings are killing my life and any chances of being content. This constant fear and anxiety and paranoia combined with impulsivity and anger I can’t help myself, i suffer too much, literally i get heartaches and my pulse is higher than normal ALL THE TIME. After researching for months I suspect that i have bpd, I’m like 99% sure i have it, i score 100% in an online tests, i can relate to EVERYTHING that is said about bpd, but anyway I contacted a therapist but she hasn’t replied yet. I hope i and people who can relate will find peace.