Hey everyone, 

So I don't post on here a lot, but I'm getting really frustrated with my BPD flare ups lately. I'm really moody towards my few friends and get frustrated with life very quickly because of my insecurities. I feel like I can't process anything with a clear mind. I can't trust myself or others. And I hate it. 

I really want to get involved with DBT. Unfortunately, the only place in my town that does it, gloats on their website about being the only location within 230 miles that has a DBT program. This location also doesn't accept any insurance plans because they say that "they're the best of the best and they deserve the best payment plans." It's mildly sickening. 

Does anyone have any advice on how to train your mind yourself as much as possible? I know I'm not a professional, but I really need to get better at moderating myself around my friends. I'm getting really scared that I'm pushing people away because of how unstable I am lately. 

Thanks for reading my worries. 