My husband doesn't understand that certain things trigger my BPD. Pain and lack of sleep are two of my biggest ones.

I just started a new job and am on my feet all day. I'm not used to it. I'm in pain constantly and not sleeping as a result. 

Im managing to get through the day without a complete meltdowns. But i go home and he just can't understand i am not feeling good.

I've burst into tears. I've lost my temper and he just can't understand why. Ive tried to explain it. But no matter what i say, it doesn't matter.

I know it's my responsibility to control my emotions but things are just too much right now.