I've had anxiety issues for years, and this year I was diagnosed depression. It fits in a way, because I feel paralyzed and sometimes even doing the things I used to enjoy feels like a chore. In my lowest moments I had to keep myself disciplined just to do things like eating and showering. For the most part I just feel like isolating and staying in bed.

The reason I ask if this sounds like depression (in your opinion -I'm obviously not asking for a clinincal diagnosis for I already got one) is that the most prevalent account seems to be a feeling of numbness, but to me, it doesn't feel like numbness at all, but rather, in my low moments, like everything is ugly and displeasing. It's almost a physically painful and extremely draining sensation that everything seems unwelcoming and off, like a general and deep form of anguish and rejection of all things, and I'm not even sure what that sensation is. Plus, it seems to come and go, and vary in intensity when it comes.