I’m struggling a lot. I went from having such a great day, being ecstatic at work, then I got home and had a major switch up of all anxious, major sadness, and absolutely rage within a 40 minute span. I constantly go from “oh my god I love -insert person-, they’re so good to me and treat me so well” to “I hate them, I wish I ever met them, they treat me like garbage”. It’s so emotionally draining. I split so much, I wish I could control the triggers. And what makes me feel better almost constantly? Sex. It’s not healthy. If I wasn’t in a devoted relationship I am 100% faithful in, I’d be using it to my advantage. I feel like I’m such a toxic person and I constantly apologize. But when I’m angry, I play victim all the time and blame others. It’s so hard. I just feel like this is the one community I can go to &amp; feel understood.