I have been anxious for years, but as time goes on I feel that it gets worse. I am starting graduate school next week and moving back into the city that I went to undergrad in. My boyfriend and I moved our stuff into the apartment yesterday. When I first entered the apartment I had this uncontrollable sense of dread and had a panic attack. I did not feel comfortable at all in the new apartment. I have had similar issues in the past, taking a long time to feel comfortable when moving out of my parents house, however this has been one of the worst episodes. I had multiple panic attacks throughout the day, and we eventually went to my parents house to try to reset. I woke up this morning again with a panic attack. In the midst of these episodes I have these thoughts that we should cancel the lease, even though doing so would cost tons of money and live at our old apartment which does not logistically make sense, but it makes sense to me because I feel comfortable and at ease there. I realize that I am not at all thinking about what my boyfriend wants, but the feeling I have is so overwhelming that I don't seem to care.

I recently started seeing a psychiatrist and I have an appointment to start therapy next week. Should I push to stop the lease? If we don't cancel the lease now it is unlikely we would be able to find someone to rent until the year is up