Every time I try to relax, I can't help but think I'm being utterly useless, but every time I try to work on something I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel like I'm in this constant state of uselessness. There's so much less enjoyment in everything I do, and ever since my gf left me I've been thinking about ending my own life, but even then I'd be causing other people trouble, so even in death I feel bad. I just can't seem to find any resemblance of happiness or pride in my life any more. I just wish I had someone to struggle through it with