This is something I’ve been trying to tell myself all morning. Especially when it comes to my FP (who I’m trying to detach from- going from former lover to friend is incredibly difficult and I’m having such a hard time). 

And yet what did I do? Deactivate my Twitter and Instagram because they’re distractions and tbh i wanted her to notice i was gone. I still texted her first. I’m still hyperfixating on each message, every word she said. Of course, this isn’t helping. I am obviously a masochist. Why am I hurting myself by seeking out something I know will just hurt me?

No one owes me anything. She doesn’t owe me anything. She’s her own person. I’m my own person. 

I will do better. I need to do better. No one owes me anything.