My instinct when I'm having a really bad night (like tonight) is to pick at my hands and fingers. I have scratches on the backs of both hands, even though I wasn't itchy, and a few of my fingers have blood forming under the skin because I couldn't stop pulling the nails off. 
  
  
I lost a friend tonight, but I've been anxious and uneasy tonight long before that happened.
  
  
I noticed that applying really thick layers of lotion keeps me from scratching my hands up so badly, or at least reduces the risk of the scratches leaving marks. I guess I'll have to start buying lotion in bulk or something. 
  
  
The nail-picking is a different issue, sadly. As long as I have nails, I can't help picking at them when my anxiety intensifies. My family thinks that I bite my nails because I can't tell them that I basically rip off my nails when I'm struggling with my anxiety. If I even mention mental health around them, they laugh, insult me, or just refuse to listen. I'd somehow rather keep my problems to myself than continue being called names. Maybe that's why I made an account here. I can at least tell someone this way.