Hello All!

Quick back story when I was younger like 13~14 I was diagnosed with an Anxiety Disorder and never felt “depressed” I mean of course everyone has off days. Anyway for a long time I just got on with it life was ok and I could manage with it while taking my medication etc.

For some reason about 6 months ago (I’m 21 now BTW) literally overnight anxiety literally disappeared, I was like ok cool. Then around a week after that one day just like a brick wall just pure hopelessness. I now get episodes of pure dread like a sinking ship tingles in my body and everything and I think is this what life is getting up every day at 6am and getting back from work at 7pm am I going to do this forever. Weekends are the worst just the feeling of stagnation even after I try fill my weekend with “fun” activities.

I know my work may be something to do with it but unfortunately it is what it is so I have to live with it. I also have only had one real sexual partner been with them since I was 14 and still with them now, don’t get me wrong I love her dearly and I don’t want to leave her but I have this primal instinct in the back of my mind that maybe one of you could answer (I know this is pathetic but the mind is a strange thing). Is sex physically different with other people? am I missing out on anything or is it more about the emotional side?

So sorry for boring all of you just wondering if anyone has experienced similar and how you cope with it.

Thank you!!