So I have a big problem with procrastination 
I was always a bad student but I did study but when covid stared I had horrible anxiety becouse of some personal stuff it eased but through me in to a state of absolute lazyness I barely went to classes or studied even tho my finals were coming I studied on a last second even tho I would be well prepared if I just went to classes . I had horrible panic attacks becouse of these exams well I passed few but failed most of them than I had summer break and next try will be in 10 days or so and even tho I promised my self and people around me that’s I had time and I will study this time. I procrastinated and lost touch with time and it’s so close and I’m not ready at all . I doubt I will be able to learn it and the next try is in a year and it’s a last try . I feel ashamed and disappointed in my self I feel like I failed every one and my self becouse I’m a lazy dumbass now I will get anxious like a baby and it’s all my fault. I don’t think I should be alive just becouse how lazy and dumb I am.And no one will really say anything expect telling me my wrongs and that it’s my fault wich is true and I accept this but I just feel isolated so I wanted to vent a bit . Any advise to how to deel with this would be appreciated but I don’t know what’s wrong with me I feel so dumb.