Figured if rant a little, im 15 and i really just cant go on, every day i waje uo to the same school with the same people i dont want to talk to, im tired and i wait for the hours to tick by, i go home and i boot up my computer, id play a video game imagining the exciting and full of action life id rather live, id watch a TV show and watch someone going through school as an exciting expirience and having a difficult yet fulfilling love life



i dont enjoy the video games or shiws anymore, just the immersion of it, nothing excites me anymore and im afraid of whats to come when the school days turn into collage and turn into work, all of which ill continue to see as a worse alternative to what could have been a lovely story


but its not, im not gonna fall madly in love with a girl and develoo a deep relationship with her, im not gonna develop super powers and stop a great evil, im doomed to wake up and dream of lives i want and will never get over and over again, watch other people completley unphased by this and i ask myself, how? Is there something im missing? Is life really something youre ment to wake up to with a smile? Why is the only thing im diffrent at is being misreable?


 I shouldnt be, people have it so much worse then me i feel like id waste peoples time talking about it, all i do is look for excuses to continue consuming media to immerse me in a life id rather live, ans go to bed day dreaming(?) For hours before i fall asleep


Sorry for any type-os i type on my phone and i do so rather fast