Attempted almost a year ago. Didn't work obviously, went to work and school the next day as if nothing had happened. When I eventually did try to tell people about it they were just really dismissive, unsupportive — it was like what I'd said was in one ear and out the other, another piece of information like how's my morning going or what's the weather like today. Fuck dude, I don't need people to worship me or whatever but it would be nice if just one person cared if I were alive or dead, even that feels self-absorbed to ask because that's the bare minimum I've never even had most of my life