I honestly cannot tell whether people genuinely believe in me or if they’re only saying it to make me feel better about myself. Sometimes I wonder if everyone is lying to me about my potential the way Sulley lied to Mike in Monsters University because they know to do otherwise would crush my will to live cause my ambitions are the only thing fuelling it. Best to keep the idiot with delusions of grandeur in the dark about their own incompetence so they don’t off themselves after realising they have no means of making their goals a reality, amirite? I know I should be grateful I have these people in my life at all but even admission to my dream school feels like a whole lifetime away and I’m just so depressed thinking about my goals when I can’t even make the first step a reality despite trying so hard….