I’ve lived many scenarios, worn many hats. I feel like I’ve lived a thousand lives in this lifetime and I’m only 32. I’ve never lived one scenario long enough to see it turn out successful or even positive. Everything I’ve ever done has been a failure. Being a daughter failed, wife, mother, friend, sister, dedicated worker, hard working student…. The list goes on and on yet I have NOTHING to show for how hard I’ve tried and I’m tired. I’m just waiting for it to be over. Like I can’t even kill myself right lol. I just go to bed hoping I won’t wake up then when I do I just lay here until I can fall asleep again. Soon I won’t have a bed because the money has run out and I can’t find my way back to the part where I can pretend well enough to at least buy food or something. So I just wait…