 Everyone around me thinks im a popular guy with lots of friends but the truth is the last time I even talked to someone outside of school was months ago I even lie about having a girlfriend to make myself feel better the only reason I truly am alive still is my dream and passion for phyics being able to help answer some of humans question about the universe I tell myself I dont need friends but it fucking hurts I just sit in my room do my school work then go to bed literally no social stuff ever happening. I want it all to end and I have had put my parents through enough after being diagnosed with ocd and severe anxiety the time and money they have spent on me is so much I can never make it up and here I am talking online about my feeling