Like how do you keep going when you know your not going to get what you want to get out of life, I think this sums up how I’m feeling, 

when I was like 17/18 I used to not really get invited out,I was social and could hold conversation with like people in my class and stuff but when ever we texted it was about school I had some friends I would play play station with but we didn’t go out much.

The worst part about this is seeing my class mates with like boyfriends on there snap story and going out like all the time on like holidays and stuff. This made me want to die so many times because it made me feel really ugly ☹️ 

Lemonade out of lemons 🍋 
So I though ok right might as welll focus on school so I did I tried really hard so it made me feel I was doing sometime then results day I did ok but had to resit some , my friends who did like nothing got better grades 

At this point I was done like rly done I was ugly, broke tried really hard to get goood grades and got like meh turned to alcohol and for a gap year all I did was drink until  I went to university  a year later

All my class mates are nice like I talk to them in class and sometimes out of class but seeing their snap stories makes me sad 

How can you live life being ugly with no money few friends while you try harder than most people to achieve a decent or a normal life 🥺

“Fear left unchecked turns to anger”
            
Any advice?