Both me and my best friend have bpd and she’s been ignoring me for days. She’s my only friend and really one of the only supports I have. She’s been going through a lot recently and I’ve been trying my hardest to support her. I took care of her and stayed with her for days, brought her food, held her when she cried, I even was going to watch her pets for a few weeks while she left the state to visit family. Despite this the other day she called me and I didn’t answer, because I didn’t hear my phone ring nor did I notice any notification for a missed call and she texted me saying I suck and I don’t care enough to call back. I told her that’s not true and I just didn’t hear the call. But she’s been ghosting me ever since and I keep breaking down about it. I’ve gotten really angry about it too and now I resent her deeply. I’ve been bottling up my emotions so I can tend to hers but I’m on the verge of tears every day. I try to open up a little bit to her about what’s going on but she doesn’t care. She just seems annoyed or dismissive and makes it into a joke or says hurtful things. She’s abandoned me before and it looked exactly like this, where out of the blue she stopped talking to me. I was devastated and I ended up in the mental hospital. I don’t know what to do without her and I want to drop her I love her and need her but I resent her. Am I being toxic somehow? Is there something I’m missing? I can’t do this.