A bit of background: when I first got into high school(UK so year 7) I stupidly tried to join these group of boys who have grown into complete assholes. It’s been 5 years and I’m still with them and I’ve never had a good moment with them. They never invite me out and every time I ask they say sure we will call you when then never call me back and been doing that for 5 years. I have nothing in common with them so they see me as different and make me the punch bag of the group and I can’t add anything to a conversation without them laughing at me or something like that. They say they like me but realistically I know I’m so fat from them. Because of all this I felt like shit for years and been lonely af and when I do get the opportunity to go out with them I force myself to even though I know why I won’t enjoy myself but I go anyway because I’m so lonely all the time. It makes me anxious af because now I can’t have a conversation with anyone without thinking I’ll get the same treatment that my “friends” give me even though I know I won’t. I’ve been saying ever since I remember I just gotta wait until university and I’ll be fine but I can’t deal with it anymore. As much as I want to move friend group I have a few problems. The main problem is I don’t have anywhere near the confidence to leave because I know they will just give me more abuse and I don’t know if I’ll fit in with anyone else and if it fails I’ll just be more lonely than I am now.I have no idea what the fuck to do because I’m to scared to tell my parents I’m unhappy and I don’t have the confidence to leave. Should I just wait for university?I appreciate you if you have read all this :)