I was diagnosed with Bipolar type 2 in March. This has been the worst year of my life, and things have taken a serious turn for the worst. I am severely depressed, but these past few months in particular the following things are getting worse:

I get so little sleep at night, but I sleep the whole morning away.

I can barely focus, my brain feels foggy and I just feel this fatigue holding me down.

When I'm more depressed, I feel far more anxious in public, I feel judged by strangers.

I just don't feel enjoyment from anything. I only do things like play games or watch videos to pass the day away.

I'm so impatient with others and I feel this resentment for the people around me. I can open up and talk but there are times where I just don't want to be around anyone at all.

I have struggled with similar things in the past but these past few months they've only gotten worse. I can feel it worsening every day. My uncle has schizophrenia, and he vanished years ago. So there could very well be a genetic factor to all this. I've read the prodromal symptoms of psychosis and I match up with a lot of them and this is really putting me on edge. This just adds up to there being a high likelihood that this is only the tip of the iceberg. I am scared.