Hello&lt;3
I am diagnosee since 6 years and in on off therapy. My problem is, that its difficult for me to find a therapist. Once I find one, that does accept me as a patient, I either dont find it effective or when I like the therapist they stop working in the place I go to therapy or they get pregnant. (I had two therapists that "left" me. Its so hard, I feel so rejected.)

I had about 5 other therapists, that I did not go to for longer then 6 months, because I thought they could not help or understand me.

I am suicidal now and since covid, I cant even find a therapist that accepts new patients.

What can I do? I knownI needntherapy, butbnoone else seems to think I am worthy. ( I am in switzerland.)