I don't know if this is an example of splitting. But, it seems as if every time I get happy or laugh about something, I get lost in the moment and then realize "wow, your actually happy." It then reminds me of all the sad days I've had and I always start tearing up and crying about how horrible my life actually is. I don't know how to stop this from happening and I'm on antidepressants which have uplifted my mood a lot. But, it seems as if I can't feel normal or be happy without thinking about how depressing everything in my life is. 

I really hate this feeling and I'm trying to avoid it as much as possible. For example, I was going to order food today because who doesn't love food? But, I stopped myself from ordering it because the satisfaction I would have gotten from eating it, would have turned me depressed. It's so hard living this life.