if I think someone is cute I will flirt with them whether I actually wanna date them or not, regardless of gender even though I’m a lesbian. It’s kind of my goal to feel like everyone is attracted to me, which is ridiculous I know. There’s this guy who works at the restaurant next to where I work who I’ve been flirting with because he’s cute and nice, and clearly thinks I’m cute. Yesterday he asked for my instagram, and I gave it to him but felt a little bad about it because I don’t wanna date him. Today he brought me free food and I feel like there’s no longer that feeling of mystery as to whether he likes me or not that I thrive on. Now that I know he likes me I don’t want to flirt with him and kinda want him to leave me alone. I feel so bad about it because I was totally flirting with him too, and now that he’s making moves I’m backing off. What’s worst is I know that if I go cold on him, he’ll start to go cold on me too and then I’m gonna start flirting with him until he likes me again. It’s messed up!! Why do I do that??