I'm honestly exhausted, people don’t seem to comprehend that having suicidal thinking is one of the most common symptoms of people with this illness. They say "ask for help" "reach out" "you are not alone", but when you dare to talk about your deepest, darkest thoughts you’re ostracized and told to "not talk about THAT (death)". I'm tired of feeling guilty for having depression, I’m tired of feeling guilty for the ways I cope with this disease, please let me be at peace. Rant over.