I know this seems a bit hokey pokey, but hear me out. I’ve always wanted an epic love story, ever since I was little. I love the Disney princess movies, and I was bullied and abused as a child, so I clung onto fantasies that a handsome prince would save me and we could live happily ever after. I know it’s unrealistic, but that’s what I thought for the longest time. If the man that I loved felt the same way for me and wanted to be with me, then I would be happy. 

Two years ago now, I went on vacation and met “Tommy”. Tommy was from another country. But instantly, we had a connection. Our relationship was purely platonic. There was no flirting or anything, but the chemistry was off the charts, and just from the way he acted, it was obvious that he was at least a little bit attracted to me. We could talk for hours on end, and not get bored of each other. 

One night, Tommy and I met some other people our age at the hotel. There was a guy that was hitting on me while I was drunk. This guy was completely sober. When I wasn’t around, the guy spoke about hooking up with me. Tommy, for reasons unknown to this day, got jealous and told everyone that he liked me. 

The next day, everyone told me what he said. I was super excited. I already kind of knew, but that was just confirmation. So I eagerly went up to him and asked him if he liked me. He denied it, and told me that he had a girlfriend. He later got mad at the other people for telling me. I was never supposed to know what he said. 

I tried requesting him on social media, hoping we could be friends at least. Also, I thought that if he really didn’t like me, there’d be no issue accepting it. He rejected the request after two weeks. I found out later that he waited because he wanted to let me down as gently as possible. That basically confirmed to me that he said it, and that he really did have a girlfriend. I was upset, so I blocked him for a couple of days. 

He and his girlfriend broke up two months later. I don’t know all the details, but I know from mutual friends that since he and his girlfriend’s families are both part of the upper class society in their city, the parents wanted them to date. It wasn’t arranged. Not at all. There was some genuine attraction and affection on both sides. However, the fact that she came from a prominent family was a plus. That’s why they were together. 

What my friends told me, he genuinely did like me. However, because we live in different countries, and we had only known each other for a couple of days, he didn’t want to break things off with his girlfriend. Like I said before, he genuinely liked his girlfriend as well. Not only did he not want to hurt her, but his parents would not like the fact that I’m not from the wealthy elite like them. 

For the past nineteen months, he’s been stalking all of my social medias. All of my Twitter, TikTok, etc. We don’t follow each other on anything, but he still is always the first to watch my social medias. I wondered to myself why he doesn’t reach out if he’s single and doesn’t have a girlfriend anymore? My friends tell me that he still likes me a lot, but he feels like he’s ruined his chances. 

Honestly, I think so. Maybe it’s a bit harsh considering the circumstances, but I still haven’t entirely forgiven him. At least not yet. I fantasized about meeting someone that had genuine feelings for me, and all the world could fade away. With him, even though he was justified in trying to preserve the relationship, he hurt me. It’s unfortunate, but he happened to get me in my weak spot. I miss him everyday, but I don’t see how I could be with someone who was essentially okay with never seeing or talking to me again. 

Also, I’ve met someone else. Coincidentally, I met him exactly a year after Tommy cut me off. We get along so well. We’re not dating, but we like each other a lot. “Peter” is amazing. He’s kind, caring. He accepted my Instagram request. We have so much in common. Peter’s a nerdy guy, and I like that. I want to pursue things with Peter. I know that Tommy’s not going to be happy if Peter and I become official, but I’m going to be happy with Peter.