I was hospitalized on the end of March for being in full blown mania, I was type 2 but Ive aggravated to type 1. I even brought my daughter where I smoked weed. My god thinking back I was so fuckin* stupid. Now, how do you manage being bipolar with having kids? I have the cpr controlling me and I can't stay alone with my daughter, that's just sooo frustrating for me you can't even imagine. And the psychiatrist of the state I'm going to seems to not wanting this to end soon. 
on Saturday I will start with a new psychiatrist beside the one from the state. Hope this hell will end soon