I can’t control my bpd. I’ve been diagnosed for two years but I think I’ve had bpd since the moment I was born. I tried to kill my puppy right now but i couldn’t... I’m too pathetic for killing someone else I should just kill myself right now. I can’t control myself I just want this stupid brain to not exist anymore!!!!!!! I don’t want to be alone forever... I don’t have any friends and i hate my family. I’m not close with anyone i want to fucking die !!! 