So I'm going to be away with my boyfriend for almost a week.

There's no issues with him holiday wise as we have been to plenty of places in the past few years together. We tend to have alot of fun which is the best way.

I have ptsd, depression and anxiety but i have felt this tension building since about Tuesday.

I imagine it will turn out to be excitement once I'm there but until then i feel like a scrambled mess of inner stress. 

Got the ongoing butterfly feelings where it all feels a bit overwhelming.