Just wanting to get it off my chest.  I don't know the right number but I think it's around 1 in 9 people with BPD follow through with suicide, 80% attempt self harm (please correct me if wrong).  

I don't want to be a part of those stats but I've made choices I can't change.  My meds help to keep me grounded with reality and away from those thoughts but I'm always afraid of losing my balance.  It took a lot to get here and I feel like with BPD all of the progress I make can slip out from underneath one day.  I'm doing well but with the stress at home I'm giving those stats too much thought.  