I’m 18M. Ever since I was about 9 years old, I have had a really weird problem. I get extremely sad to the point of feeling worthless and/or get angry and may end up hitting or throwing something (not people with the exception of myself sometimes). The only things I can trace it back to was when my mom was trying to basically “cure” my aspergers with pseudoscience pills, hyperbaric chambers, and tying to suppress my stims. This was all going on with me at the time this behavior started and it still hasn’t completely gone away even years after stopping all this. I don’t know why I get these feelings, but they are really strong and extremely hard to control. My self esteem has been going downhill ever since. Can anyone possibly give me an idea of why I get these behaviors or something to possibly help me to not get them as easily?