hi there, 

my partner and I will be together for 5 years in april. over the last couple months his moods started to change and a couple weeks ago, it escalated and he was admitted to the hospital. they released him to soon, just a few days after he was out hes back inside again.  this is the first episode he has had since we have been together and I believe he has been stable for a couple years before that.  Ive just got alot of anxiety. he is pushing me away with texts from inside the hospital. i cant imagine what hes going through. i always told him i was in it for the long haul and id rather not just leave my home while hes in the hospital. i should mention though he has moments of clarity where he tells me to stay and sends loving memes.  its confusing. him and i haven't spent alot of time talking about his diagnosis though we do talk openly about his traumas and mine which play roles in our mental health. It seems like he doesn't want to take the help he needs and he is still so angry at the family for locking him up. if they hadn't, he would have surely got into some trouble.    i want him to know that our home is a safe place and that I can give him the space he needs and the support.   His last text read, it might take years before i feel better, my family is getting the same treatment. im going through alot and i cant express them.  i feel for him! I just want to listen, i'll go if he really wants me too but i cant tell just yet what it is he wants.  any advice?