Yup. That’s it. I never got over him. I saw him 2 months ago after being apart for a year and a half, and i felt totally detached. I told him about my BPD and i think i scared him away. I’ve never been able to get over him. I keep searching for someone just like him. I think about him all the time. He’s just perfect. I’m obsessed. ☹️ 

The most unhealthy part is i am so obsessed with his features that i search for men who look like him.... i go after men from the same city as him and have the same ethnicity.... that’s how obsessed i am