In the past I used to feel like there is something wrong with me whenever someone leaves / doesn’t like me.

Now it’s the opposite -
I recently downloaded tinder and went on SO many dates - but most of them I never want to see again.

And this makes me feel like there is something wrong with me - because some of them, on paper, are great.

How is it possible that I met so many people and am still alone? There must be something g wrong with me right?

The worst part is when they think we are having a good time (cos I can laugh smile and enjoy the date) - and I still know that after today I am not gonna see them again.

I feel like such a horrible person it almost makes me want them to ghost or reject me instead.

Crazy right? Either way I can never win, and there is always something wrong with me.

I really want to believe that I just haven’t met the right person - that if I do I will want to see them again.