I guess this is the first time I have posted here, so here it goes.   


So maybe I have had BPD during my life without noticing, but I guess a little background about me. Grew up in an mixed race family (arab/white). Early on I was diagnosed with ADD and dysgraphia. I never really grew up with many friends, a bit of a loner lol, after some point in my teenage years I definitely started having issues with depression, anxiety and anorexia, btw I am a guy, and not a lot of guys have that issue but just thought to note it for that reason. Also attempted suicide during that time, and I self harmed quite a bit vi bashing my head against the walls in my bathroom, or punching those same walls. At some point one of my exes brought it to my attention that my intense interests of things like anime mixed with the inability to hold eye contact for longer than maybe a second or two, and having a bunch of tics probably meant I had autism, and after about 5 meetings with a psychologist I got diagnosed which is apparently pretty common to be undiagnosed with autism. Anyway fastforward to modern day, and it seems I  check out 5 of the 9 symptoms for bpd in DSMIV and I seem to check out with DSMV, but I guess   


didn't know how to fit this all in but like I've had troubles with bullying outside of home, and abuse and neglect in home. probably why I played too much video games. esacpism.

  
idk everything seems to just get stranger the further I get into adulthood. When did any of you dude learn about that you had bpd? and what was your approach to attempting to cope with it?   


Also I guess I should note that I am going to try to go to a psychologist before I full on think it is a part of me, but it seems pretty possible in my case, so like maybe until I get to that point see what works to help my current problems. 