Also, define thoughts of suicide. (Please)

I'm not in any danger of hurting myself. I absolutely will not. I have too many people that care about me, and I could never, ever put them through that. 

But I'd be lying if I said I've never simply imagined what it would be like. Mainly from the perspective of silencing my over active brain. I have very bad anxiety, and am an over thinker. I literally cannot tell reality from my paranoid thoughts of judgement. Sometimes, it gets to be way too much. Way, way too much. And it is constant.

But I'm not depressed. I enjoy meals, I have an amazing husband, I have the best pets, I like my career choice, I have a supportive family, I'm financially stable. My head is just incredibly loud, and I often feel like I'm not in control of my own thoughts. Really, sometimes, when I'm extremely frustrated, I'll say out loud "bullet in my brain. Wish I could just shut this shit up." And then I think..."oh goodness, I didn't mean that. But...man would that silence be kind of nice."

Do thoughts of suicide only involve those who are considering going through with it? Do you have to be depressed to have these thoughts? I feel stupid. This is stupid. Please be kind. I'm going to be brave and post this anyways.