I feel numb and never excited or interested. I don't sleep, don't each much, don't talk. I feel nothing, mentally or physically. I have no therapist, no caring friends, no partner, nobody. I don't open up to anyone because they always leave or stab me in the back. I don't even know if I have feelings for people. I'm not sure if im interested in this person or not. Not only do I lack romantic feelings, but I lack feelings for people. I hate everyone, everything. It's gotten to the point where I hate my existence. Suicide has been on my mind a lot lately, I might do it. I have nothing and nobody to live for. I have no purpose. I am literally the worst person ever. I am going to die alone. I want to die.