I want to keep this short because I don’t have the energy to put everything into this. I’m 20 weeks pregnant. I’ve lost interest in myself. Thoughts pop into my head about what it would be like to just disappear. To die passively. I have a 2.5year old who I love so much that it hurts but I am struggling to feel happy. I struggle to get myself dressed in the morning. I hate going to work. I’m tired all the time. I’m fighting with my husband. I don’t like him anymore. I feel like I’ve nothing specific to talk about, just that I hate myself and feel like I’m going a bit crazy. Mental health supports in my country are poor and I don’t know where to start.