I’ve always struggled with my mental health. After the death of my partner last year, I’ve spiralled. And everyone around me just doesn’t seem bothered. All my friends ditched me and I’m alone 99% of the time just wanting to be with him. 
I thought to myself maybe it’s got so bad I should seek help. Scored 26/27 on the nhs depression score tried to call the doctor/ do an enconsult and was told they are too busy. Anyone else feel like the world and everyone says just reach and talk seek help. But when you try friends/ family/doctors just aren’t interested. It’s like they just say it but no one is actually there even when you take every effort to reach it 
Back to lying in bed all day it is guess