(I posted this in the CPTSD sub originally.)   I very easily become obsessed with authority figures and want nothing  more than for them to love and care about me.  It happens especially  intensely with teachers and people in caretaking roles like medical  professionals.  It makes me feel like I'm a child again and I recently  realized that I unintentionally start acting super immature around them  so they can "save" me. If I feel like I've upset them somehow, it's  incredibly painful and panic-inducing, honestly I can't imagine a worse  feeling.  I feel so horrible and embarrassed, almost like I'm  manipulating people into loving me even though I definitely don't do it  on purpose.  Am I a bad person or can anyone else relate???