hi everyone,

so i have been really well for about 2 years now. sometimes I just struggle to understand how I used to act, i just find it hard to process that I didn't realise how I treated people and that I wasn't able to stop myself. i feel like a completely different person to who i was a few years ago, i always describe my experience as out of body with BPD, only because i feel more myself now than i ever have.

it took me a long time to realise what I was doing to the people around me and i have this guilt now for my actions that keeps me striving for the best. i want to live a long, healthy and worthwhile life.

i believe that everything has happened to me to guide me to where I am now, but i cant help but feel sorry for the people I hurt...

does anyone else feel like this?