I realized it's easier to lie about everything.

Today I decided I'm trough with being perceived as crazy or hysterical. If people don't get it, I'll make it up into something they can digest.

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From now on I'll say I take lamictal because i have epilepsy, not because i have a mental disorder. (Does not apply to friends or anyone actually close to me)

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I'll tell doctors/health professionals who know about my condition I'm majoring in communication, because if I tell them it's psychology they'll look me at that weird way and think I'm so self absorbed everything has to be about my problems.

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I'll tell everyone I was in a car crash and it gave me sequels, that's why my memory is so terrible, not because antidepressants fucked up my brain.

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If I want to get an exam because i suspect something I wrong, i won't say why, because doctors think THEY know best, I'll fake symptoms in order to get what I want.

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Eventually, when someone asks me why I don't want to have children I'll say it's because I'm infertile, not because i don't wanna pass on all my genetic chronic burden.

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That's how I wanna live my life from now on.