My therapist and a friend told me I need to do self care but I honestly don't even know what that means. When I'm not at work I'm at home recovering from interacting with people and in general working. I tried to take their advice today so my husband and I decided to take the three hour drive to the coast and go to the aquarium, it was fun but for most of the day I was just thinking about all the things I could be doing at home(mainly dishes and laundry) and also felt guilty because most of my friends don't have cars and probably would have loved to go but I didn't have the time to invite them(we decided last minute) or capacity to socialize with friends for an entire day trip. I don't know if self care just doesn't work for me, if I didn't choose the right activity or if my brain just hates me. I just feel lost and like I can't do anything right even in trying to get my mental health under control.