I'm such worthless trash at this game. I drop down, land, die, get danced on and humiliated, rage, punch myself and contemplate suicide, and then rinse and repeat over and over again. This game has been driving me insane and I just hate myself for being such trash. No other game has made me feel so worthless like this. Every single time I die I just rage so hard... I can't help but impulsively and violently start punching myself. I just hate the thought of some streamer killing me with tons of ppl watching and he's all like "man this kid is trash!!" and everyone in the chat is all "LOL you shit on that guy he sucks!!!" and every single time I die I think about how they recorded that kill and I hate myself and think about what I could have done differently to not die..... It's as the saying goes: it sucks to suck.... and that's me right there. Not only do I suck at the game... but then I get shit on and danced on and humiliated and I hate myself so fucking much and I feel like such a worthless piece of fucking garbage that's worthless to society I'm just a loser getting his ass kicked all day in Fortnite I just suck and I hate myself so much for it...

And I know I'm gonna get comments of someone saying "dude it's just a game -\_-" .......oh yeah? Well if it's just a game... then why does everyone feel the need to dance on me and humiliate me literally every single time they kill me to make me feel bad about myself? Why do I get labeled as "trash" for not being good it seems people take it pretty seriously for a "game". Why do streamers like Tfue and stuff call everyone they kill trash and make fun of them for getting killed? If it's just a game why is it so humiliating for someone to die and you get to dance and shit on them and call them trash?

Does anyone know a way I can just get bot lobbies from now on? I bought this battle pass (first one I bought for this game) and I can hardly bring myself to finish these quests... trying to go for quests while ppl are just trying to kill you is also such annoying trash... I just want bot lobbies so I can do these quests and then not have to play the br mode anymore.

It's like I'm addicted to this game... I can't stop playing cause when I get my ass kicked and get danced on if I turn the game off and try to go do something else I'll just be all alone thinking to myself what a worthless piece of trash loser I am for getting my ass kicked like that I'm just a weak little loser who gets his ass kicked... so I keep playing in hopes of actually getting a kill and trying to redeem myself so I don't hate myself and wanna puke every single time I look in the mirror. I can never manage to get more than 5 kills in a match... every time I land near people I die immediately within 2 seconds, and then every time I land far from everyone I spend 10 minutes getting all the best loot I can just to die in 2 seconds again when I run into someone.... I'm just worthless fucking trash and there's literally no reason for me to play this game... but I bought this battle pass and wanna at least get all the stuff in it so I at least get my money's worth or whatever... I have bruises all over my leg from freaking out over this game... I get so angry my head hurts so bad whenever I play this and I just want to end myself so badly for being such worthless trash at this game