What’s wrong with me? It’s me isn’t it ?Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! What if? What if?! What if they hate me, what if they’re just pretending to like me. Did I do something wrong? Am I annoying, of course i am. No one care about me I’m a trash. Why am I so paranoid. Are they talking to someone else, are they talking about me? They’re going to ignore me, I should ignore them first. Why are they still online, they told me that they’re going to sleep but I can still see that they’re online. They’re definitely talking about me behind my back. It’s probably some kind of plan to embarrass me. Ahhhhh, I can’t sleep I can’t focus. Everyone secretly hate me, maybe I should just stop talking to everyone. That way I won’t get hurt, if I don’t care I won’t get hurt again. But it’s so hard, I knew I shouldn’t have trusted someone, why am I so stupid. I need to stop caring about them. Real peoples are unpredictable and I always get hurt somehow. I should have never open up in the first place, that why fictional character are way better. 
They can’t hurt and won’t hurt you. Did I say something weird, did I talk too much. Was it something I said that one time, am I too ugly for them. I need to sleep but I can’t. This is all my fault, I’m pathetic, I’m annoying, I’m weird, I hate myself. My parents was right I’m nothing other than a burden. They don’t care about me. They only tolerate me because they have too. Why can’t I just be normal for once. Why did I try to be special, no one care that you know everything about Supernatural or MCU. Why can’t I fit it. Something bad is going to happen, it always happens. They’re going to leave you again, everyone is going to leave you. They would probably pick someone else if they could. Why do u always waste my time on the stupidest thing, why can’t I just focus like everyone else. Maybe I should have done something, why did I do that! Im useless. I can’t even deal with emotions. I’m 14 I shouldn’t cry anymore, I shouldn’t break down randomly, I need to learn to control my emotions better or no one will except me. I need to stop I’m being weak. Why did I decide to care again, I knew what would happen but I did it anyway.  Now they’re going to tell everyone my secret. I just want to disappear.




Thank you if you made it this far, idk why but l can’t stop thinking that everyone will eventually hate me. It’s stupid I know. Good day to you then. Sorry for wasting your time on something this dumb.