... and like everyone dislikes me. 

I constantly worry that I'm this close to losing my job. I have a great, well paying, permanent job with the Government. I'm one of the top performers in my department. Yet, I'm constantly over analyzing cues from colleagues and management. I imagine everyone hates me, that I'm on the chopping block. If there were layoffs, I'd be cut, etc. I'm a single parent and have no idea where I'd work if I lost my job. Therefore I can only imagine I'd lose my house, my car, have to file bankruptcy after a while. Ultimately I picture myself losing custody to my ex and living in my car. It's completely ridiculous, but the possible snowball effect if I lost my job absolutely haunts me every day. 

On top of that, my delusions of people hating me have become worse lately. I feel like 7 people actively dislike me and talk behind my back at the moment. I haven't done anything to these people, I'm just so sensitive that if I don't get positive reactions out of the people in my life, I automatically think they dislike me. I feel like a lot of people aren't especially kind to me and I'm sensitive to that. I can rationalize that they don't hate me, but then it doesn't feel that way.