BPD filter when taking on anything new. Light form, but has an undesirable affect others and me. 
I went to class for the first time last night. It’s an aesthetics program. The women are all really friendly and everyone seems to want to participate. I on the other hand was observing the whole time and giving people the weird vibes. 
I had this happen when I went to a cosmetology program. I didn’t get along with the whole class. I operate better with small groups. 
People are way more hesitant of someone with my personality type. Especially gen z or young millennials. 
I’m thirty and the age ranges are from 19 to 27.  My teacher is younger than me and already dismissive. I’m really worried about my future in this class, but I’ll make the best of it. I would describe her attitude as flippant. Dirty looks and all. It sucks. I wish I could change my personality but I can’t. 
I’m typed as INFJ. But it doesn’t feel like it socially with the BPD filter. 
Anyway, I hope this venting helps someone not feel as alone in their anxiety/disorder.