I haven't gotten out of bed except to use the bathroom. My bedroom looks like a fucking landfill and all I've been doing is staying in bed and sleeping. The more ugly I see in this world, the more I give up. I've given up on life already. Haven't even showered in over a month.

I'm so tired of this. It's exhausting to stay in bed like this but it's exhausting just to get up and use the bathroom alone. Really wish I could make changes but my brain won't seem to let me. Within about the last 3 days I've already eaten about 3 or 4 bags of candy. How I'm not diabetic yet I'll never know.

I'm trying my best but my body keeps telling me to sleep more. Stay in bed. Idk how to overcome this. I've given up on life to the point where I see no reason to even move. I'm nothing but a shell of a human, waiting to disintegrate in to dust. I was never meant to be born.