basically my best friend started dating our mutual friend and i ended up ghosting her completely. it’s been like 6 months and i feel so fucking bad every day. 

i have put off apologizing because it fears me so much but i really fucked up and let way too much time pass 

in the months we haven’t been in contact i’ve been to the psych ward and have gotten my diagnosis and figuring out myself as much as possible 

i know my bpd is the reason i ghosted her but i don’t even know if it’s worth bothering to explain at this point. i seem so fucked up to them but inside i am afraid to reach out and long for them so much