I'm only 17 and my whole life I've been picked on, bullied, used, anything you can think of I've been through it.

It seems that as long as everyone else is happy I just don't matter. I feel like no one cares about me, I have absolutely no one to talk to. I can't walk outside by myself with the anxiety that I'll see someone I know because everyone hates me. I have no friends, I have no one. 

It's just abuse and what feels like torture day in and day out and I'm done with it. I can't just sit like this anymore. I've tried to get help but no one listens or the people that do listen they just think I'm full of it. I can't take this anymore.