I'm unmedicated and have no access to help or insurance. I make him so miserable. I can't help it and I'm struggling so bad with my mental illness and haven't been able to work in a year. I feel like I'm losing him and there isn't anything i can do to fix it and I feel like that's making me worse. I feel abandoned. We live in same apartment but he would rather do anything but talk to me. I feel so lost and alone. I have no family and I just want to vent. I wish this got easier but it doesn't seem like it will