I've been feeling really bad about myself for a long while now and the only person who ever knew was my best friend. She always told me I should tell my parents so I can get professional help. I never did though, and always just kept everything to myself. 
Tonight I couldnt manage to keep myself together cos I was just having such a bad panic attack and my mum saw me and asked what was wrong. She didn't seem to buy my "I feel sick" so I told her I think I'm depressed. But even while I was saying it, I just felt so guilty. Like I wanted to instantly take everything back and I didn't want her to know anything about it. Sometimes it feels even close to pride, like I want to be able to solve this on my own without anyone else's help. And it's like deep down, I know this was the right move in order to get better, so why do I feel so bad? Like I've just made a terrible mistake?