Hey everyone. I'm at wits end. Near panic attacks and for the stupidest reasons.

I have what I believe to be perfectionism anxiety. I have had the following issues: 

- Bought and returned 5 oculus quests 1.0's due to scratches or burnt pixels on the screens.

- Bought and returned oculus quest 2.0 due to hyper focusing on the pixels each time I used the thing. 

- Bought and returned 2x nintendo switches due to hair line scratches. 

- Bought and returned a galaxy s20 due to there being a issue with their screen protector pre-installed. 

- Bought and returned 3 e readers due to dust in the screen

- Bought and returned 2 tvs and 1 monitor due to pixels or dust.

I can't come to grips with this. It devalues everything and makes my hyper focus on every little detail.  I can't even see the scratches on the switch unless at a perfect light but its the only thing I will focus on to try to see if I can see them everytime I play, multiple times each play through. 

It actually throws me into a panic attack when bad enough to the point of self harm via scratching or choaking myself or even further depending on severity and other things.  What the hell can I do?

I thank everyone for reading and hope to have some descent conversations.