(Warning: This will have terrible grammar forgive me.)  
((Warning: This post contains some adult language.))  


I feel like I'm losing my mind lately,  
I need to reach out and get some help,  
I'm tired of allowing myself to hide in this state,  
I'm going to be okay,  
I just need a break,  
I am going to be somebody someday,  
Until then I am going to be a statistic,  
That shit is sadistic,  
It just makes me so sick,  
Why does it have to be the good kids,  
The ones who did not do shit,  
To be used and abused by the ones that you choose to trust,  


A lot of times I wish I could hate you,  
I want to erase you,  
But God knows I can't,  
You're the person who made me,  
The person who changed me,  
The person who ruined my life,  
I'm sorry to blame you,  
For the things that you do,  
But we both know the same,  
It was in your control,  
To fix your problems bro,  
And we both know you could've done better,  
You know i still love you,  
Dad I hope I can make you glad before it's just too late,  


With weed I'll be okay,  
I will go out and seize the day,  
You know I can do that,  
Forgiveness is coming soon,  
You know I love you to the moon,  
Please never forget that,  
You had a problem and now it's gone away,  
You know I love you dad,  
I hope this doesn't make you mad,  
Please understand I am very sad.  


My apologies if you do not find this entertaining it is simply the first step for me in a long road of recovery, I wish all who read through this a wonderful day and a happy life. Never forget that you are not alone, and that if hope is the only thing you can hold on to then never let go. Life is very difficult as I've had to learn at a very young age.  


Sincerely, Richard