I have depression and anxiety, both of which have gotten a lot worse lately, and I keep getting the feeling that I’m fading away. At first the feeling was peaceful. As I was falling asleep a few months ago, I started to think about my childhood, and I felt a sense of closure, but then I had the thought “if you fall asleep now, you’re going to die” and the feeling quickly turned into a panic attack. Whenever I get sentimental or nostalgic, I get that same feeling and I have a panic attack. I’ve been feeling this way more and more, and now it almost feels like I’m dreaming. The thought that all of this means that my time is over is absolutely terrifying, and it’s gotten so bad that it keeps me awake for multiple hours more every night because I’m too scared to fall asleep. I’m going to therapy, and before every session I tell myself that ill mention it, but I’m never been able to muster up the courage to do so. I haven’t told any friends or family either, and although i know that i should, I haven’t been able to get myself to do that either. I feel lost and afraid, and although telling strangers on the internet probably won’t do anything, i don’t know what else to do.