It's time, I can't take this anymore. It's been four years I can't have a single drop of pleasure in my life. It's like I have a lack of oxytocin or something.

Watching the mountains when I'm on a hike doesn't move me anymore, watching pretty girls, looking at beautiful night sky, a beautiful landscape, a piece of art, a movie, a painting, a music. I AM COMPLETELY OUT OF THIS WORLD. The brain part for pleasure is no longer stimulated, I AM DYING.

I can't even reach CLIMAX anymore SINCE THREE YEARS. I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT IS SEX PLEASURE ANYMORE. I'm dying inside, I'm dying, rotting. 

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I've heard alcohol can have the same effect as oxytocin so I would like to know what is the consumption not to exceed to not become addicted to it ? The first time I've drink alcohol was in january 2020 at my first concert (I didn't try it since), I felt good but the effects don't last long. I accepted because I was too socially anxious and it helped.