I'm turning 25 this year and I previously had a great work opportunity and I absolutely gave it my all. Today I got the results back and they are going to consider me for the August opportunity but I didn't make it for July. I can't lie, I'm shocked and it utterly destroyed me. I highly doubt I'll actually even be considered for August and they'll let me know in 2 weeks.

I don't know what I want to do in life and now I'm back to square one and I just want to give up. I understand life works in mysterious ways and I could have a blessing coming my way but it doesn't it feel that way. Especially since I don't know what I could do. I gave everything for the last month and ended up with nothing.

I've been diagnosed with minor depression and I had it in check for about a year now but after today. It all came flooding back and now I feel like I can't function. I have a girlfriend but honestly she hasn't been helping my situation. I feel like I don't have anything anymore. No purpose and I just want to disappear at this point.

I just really want to cry my eyes out, but it's like it was never an option for me. I just don't know what to do anymore and I hate how life is going.