I'm just going to list off a lot of weird traits I have that I don't know why I have. The closest thing I can think of is being OCD but if it seems like I could have something else please tell me. I'm not asking for a diagnosis I just want your thoughts on what this is.

• I refuse to wear my glasses because by doing that I'm basically admitting to myself I've seen the world with bad eyes for my entire life, and I'd rather live in denial and pretend my eyes are perfect

• If my video game controller has a very minor imperfection I freak out and immediately think about buying a new one despite mine still being perfectly usable 

• If I start to feel that any of my social media accounts are "messy" I start getting anxious and I either immediately make a new account or I avoid looking at my profile (I've been avoiding how my Instagram profile looks for months...)

• When I was a kid all my toys HAD to be in perfect condition and I remember I would get very very emotional if they got slightly scratched or something

• If I notice my writing has like, a single grammatical error and I didn't catch it before I posted it publically I feel dread, anxiety, and like I'm a failure. Similarly if I'm talking to someone on Discord and I make a spelling mistake I get anxiety and I try to fix it as soon as possible

• Instead of being able to watch a movie I really want to see whenever I want, I have to wait for the "perfect" moment to watch it. What's my idea of a perfect moment? I have no idea and It's extremely rare when I do feel like it's the right moment. This mindset of mine makes me never end up watching some of those movies I really wanted to see.

I definitely have more, but these are the only ones I can think of right now.

I want to note that most of my perfectionist obsession involves myself or my hygiene, it's more like...the things I own or the things around me. I don't know why I'm like this and I need help cause it's causing me a lot of distress.