I hate being alone when I’m not purposely isolating myself. I’ve always struggled with it, it got bad when I got out of the psych ward the first time, then better, and now it’s getting worse again (Two months post second psych ward visit).

I recently started a new medication and maybe that’s making my anxiety worse? Unsure. 

Anyways, lately when my husband goes to work I’m starting to lose my mind.. (I am on disability and don’t work.) I’m okay for the first few hours and then I get bored of whatever I was doing or angry at it. Today, the silence is killing me. However, when I try to watch TV I get anxious and I can’t make up my mind what music to listen too.

I ended up getting overwhelmed and put myself to bed (usually what happens) after I took an Ativan. I turned my fan on for white noise and now I’m just laying here in my bed.. idk what to do with myself.

How the heck do you guys deal with being alone?! Of course when I really need her my therapist on on vacation for two weeks. 

When my husband goes to work I can’t deal with myself anymore.. I just lay here waiting for him to get back. My case worker keeps telling me I need to do something for me, but every time I try I get anxious. I feel like I constantly need people around or everything goes to shit. It’s not usually this bad but I’m really stressed because we’re moving and like 3/4 of my stuff is packed away. :( 

Help.. what helps you guys? Please tell me I’m not the only one who struggles with this..