When I’m with her I feel very disturbed. I try to be kind and forgiving for everything she did to me. Actually she was just emotionally absent and she’s still being. She doesn’t know how to be a friend of her kid since the beginning. I try to rationalize and accept that she also had hard times and it’s just her but it doesn’t change anything. I feel guilty and angry at the same time and don’t know how to handle with it.