The last 12 months have been the worst things that I have lived through. And I try stay hopeful but every time I do im teased by the opportunity of something good and then it doesn’t happen. Theres this girl and we spoke and we had so much in common but i decided I cant chase anymore because it makes me wanna die. Tonight she looked gorgeous and it made me feel bad. The World dangling my wants right in front of me but I know better. I ignore it and go home. I try to get my license and fail. I feel like im dumb and everyone can see it clearly but me. Maybe I have Down syndrome and Im the only one that hasn’t figured it out yet. I was told by someone that they were only nice to me because they thought I was disabled. I tried smoking but stopped because not even that could make me feel good. Therapy does not help me. No words will make me feel better when I live a life thats so miserable.