I spent most of 20's depressed and questioning life. I had a child at 18 and legally yeah I was an adult, mentally... Not so much... I found out I was pregnant at 17 years old.... I was in my first semester in college... It changed a lot for me, I was so devisated. I had already lived a life of unhappiness... I rarely felt happy at home as a child. Not because of what we didn't have but because I had a mom who barely showed me love and an absent father that I had no information about. Along with that I lost my oldest sibling randomly to an air born virus. Life was off to a bad start... I was 7 when he died. I remember it vividly. I was so hurt that the only person who treated me well was gone. Back to my adulthood.... I started a relationship with my sons dad and it was horrible. The little self esteem that I was starting to build was diminshed. I never had anyone to go to about these types of things... especially not my mom. I was trying so hard to still accomplish things in life that I planned prior to pregnancy. I didn't want a child that young, I wanted to go off to college out of state my second semester and find myself for once. Anywho after me and my son father split, I spent most of my life single. Aside from that I was mostly depressed and had lack of self confidence. I never pursued acting like I thought I would do when I left for college and fell into living a basic life trying to satisfy people who never treated me well! Now as I approach 32 next month, I feel sadness that I let my 20's slide by... esp since I am in acting and I look at all the wonderful things actors do. I look at their pictures when they were young until old age and realize that I am at the mid point of my beauty because I wasted my teens and 20's not to mention the depression in the 20's which didn't help my face. Ok I am done venting.