I don't know how to keep going. It's just too much pain and it's never getting better. I can't see myself ever not feeling like this and I am never going to add any value to the world. - I'm not going to kill myself because I'm a coward but I'm still feeling like it's the only option

I am a pointless waste of space piece of shit. Every day I want to do something else with my life. I'm never happy, I'm never satisfied, I could have all the money in the world and still feel like it's not enough. I am a useless, selfish, bitch and I will never be happy.

I have a house, a husband, cats, a job, a comfortable amount of money. But it's still not enough! No matter how much I have I will never be enough. I will never be successful enough or rich enough or pretty enough, or in the right fucking career or doing the right thing with my life. I WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH and I'm so tired of it.... I'm just. So. tired.