Since my ed has been back, i have been starving myself bc i see myself as fat n gross bc a year ago i lost 75lbs n have gained it all back. i dont recconise myself in the mirror, ive been trying everything and nothings worked, i cant successfully starve myself, i end up eating sometimes, but i dont ever loose weight, n hate myself. idk what to do, i feel like im scaring my bf, idk im just discusting