I love my boyfriend, or at least the idea of him. But these last few days, not even close to a month's anniversary, i can't stand the relationship. I'm finding myself torn between being with him and being alone. I have started pushing him away in the hopes he'll break up with me and i don't even know why!! I find myself mad at his existence for no reason and i don't know what to do. Why am i like this? Do i always feel the need to break things? Do i push through? Continue treating him like shit so he breaks up with me? When we first broke up (i ended it) the thought of him with someone else was breaking me.... so why am i doing it again?