I get it now...
I understand...
I spent so much time using so much energy, pushing myself so hard, working so hard, for so long, for goals that I didn't care about, &amp; everything felt like a chore
I got burnt out on life
I got burnt out on doing... literally anything
My mind &amp; body are forcing me to take a break from... literally everything
My mind &amp; body will do what it takes to not die, and 1 thing that makes life worth living
For the rest of the day, I have to dissociate or sleep
I just have to wait... do nothing... rethink my life... and I'll heal

AND I HATE THIS
DAMN YOU, BRAIN
DAMN YOU, BODY
WE COULDN'T HAVE FOUND A WAY TO LEARN THIS LESSON WITHOUT ALMOST DYING?
WE COULDN'T HAVE LEARNED THIS LESSON WITHOUT SHUTTING DOWN AND BEING A USELESS SLUG FOR MONTHS?