It's fucking the worst when your loved ones have more power over you than you do over them. And that sounds awful, but I hate it when my mood goes from "meh" to "I WANT TO FUCKING OFF MYSELF" when they say things that normal people would take perfectly well (ever hear "I need some space right now" and feel like hanging yourself? That's a good one). And unfortunately for me it's always been this power imbalance where they're perfectly fine without me but if I lose them I spiral for fucking months. I'm sick of this.