It doesn’t matter what I say I always just get brushed off. When I talk about being suicidal again I get something along the lines of „it will pass“. And that’s it. When I talk about my eating disorder „it’s just Yo-Yo dieting“. And that’s it. When I talk about how my social anxiety is getting worse again it’s like „just try to push yourself“. And that’s it. Started cutting again „that’s perfectly fine if you need that right now“. Or something like that. The voices are getting more vicious again „that doesn’t have to be a bad thing, they could be helpful in some situations“

It will fucking pass alright once I get the courage to kill myself. Maybe not this year or the next one. But definitely in the 10 years, I can’t imagine I could keep this up any longer than that.