We’ve been dating for almost 2 years and our relationship has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I’m 25 and it’s my first time really being in love with someone and everything I feel with him I feel so strongly it can be so overwhelming sometimes. When the highs are high they’re great but when the lows are low I wanna die. 
Some months ago I got in my head that he’s a narcissist and that I didn’t have bpd that it was him making me feel this way. But recently I’ve been diagnosed and I’ve realized a lot about myself. I’ve been very intense in our relationship and very reactive. My boyfriend is a good guy he doesn’t party or do drugs and he’s always honest with me. I’ve gotten very anger and ugly with him over things that aren’t even relevant so it’s created a lot damage in our relationship and how he views me. Now he’s trying to push me to get help and learn more about bpd so I can over come it and I appreciate his support so much. It’s just I feel so misunderstood and unheard by him I feel like he doesn’t get me like he doesn’t see me for who I really am I’ve felt this way most our relationship but I don’t know if it’s the bpd making me doubt him or if it’s my intuition. I am so confused.