Small progress. I’ve been isolating myself for the past few months (way before corona happened) because I’ve become so sure all my friends and acquaintances hate me or don’t care about me and wouldn’t notice if I disappeared. Ive been having a hard time discerning whether my perceptions are real or distorted because I’ve actually had people objectively cut me off and say they didn’t like me, been bullied by friends etc. Cororantine has made it difficult for me to make progress because now I HAVE to isolate myself from everyone. So I’ve been playing the new Animal Crossing game to pass the time and realized that I probably have a big problem when I started to get paranoid that the virtual villagers in my town didn’t like me or thought I was weird. The next day I revisited that thought and recognized it was kinda insane and was able to laugh it off. I feel kinda nuts writing this but I thought y’all might understand and find this amusing too. 

But now I’m confused about what healthy expectations for friendship are? Like how do I know someone actually wants to be my friend if they never reach out to me and it’s always me reaching out to them, even when I’m feeling like shit?? Like people say they didn’t talk to me for 3 months cuz they’re busy?? Anyway just realizing the distortion and that I need to reframe is progress I think and so I wanted to share