This isn't the first time I got stood up and it probably won't be the last. But after a year of bad dates and not even one of them leading to the bedroom, this time something just broke inside of me. For the past two weeks I have been oscillating between extreme anger and sadness.

I'm having a hard time cutting myself some slack.
I'm having a hard time trying to pull myself out of this.
I'm having a hard time not putting too much weight on this.
I'm having a hard time not comparing myself to others.
I'm having a hard time with this depressive episode...

I'm tired of the depressive cycles. I dont want it anymore. I wish it would stop so I could be like everyone else. It hurts and its exhausting and I feel like theres nothing I can do about it.

Thanks for reading, internet