Is it possible? I often look back on childhood photos and I don’t look happy then either. Also not to mention there aren’t many and I was born just 33 years ago. Idk I just felt like my life would be so much better if I had any type of love encouragement or support as a growing child. I often feel this empty feeling in my stomach. I feel like I have wasted my potential because of this nagging feeling that I’m not quite good enough. I just recall just wanting to be unnoticed as a child because my parents had a lot to worry about and I felt like a major inconvenience. The lack of attention and physical love like hugs makes me crave it to this day. I’m still unable to be attracted to those to give me that love and support I have always desired. They tend to be emotionally unavailable. Thus I am repeating the feeling of being ignored. Idk what I’m saying but I feel I will never get that sad feeling out of my chest.