Found out 4 days before my wedding that my now husband cheated on me. We have a family and I need time (more than 4 days) to think through it all. I have been so proud of myself for being so calm, composed, and rational with my behaviours in the month since our wedding. But I am terrified I am not truly allowing myself to feel the pain of this situation to protect myself. My now husband is Army and I have a small child to look after alone away from family. I am terrified I will start to feel this betrayal and break down and become more manic. He leves in a week for a few months and I am torn between opening up a discussion or letting myself think alone for a few more months. I guess that's why I made an account and put this post up so I am not alone with my thoughts.