I've been in an apathetic state of anxiety and agitation for months now. I don't do much or express much on the outside, but i feel like im slowly being torn apart on the inside. I've been thinking about cutting again and then killing myself everyday for at least a month, and i think im finally starting to pluck up the courage. 

I just can't take the pain or the guilt of burdening others anymore. I need it to stop, and therapy and medication aren't doing it. There's not much hope left for me to get better.