Every job I've had:

Finally get a new  job after being depressed for 3-6 month, all my savings from the last job finally expended.

Act 1
Start out very nervous but desperate to prove my worth as an employee.  First few months are shaky but I eventually feel more comfortable with my duties.

Act 2
Next few months I'm feeling good.  I know the people I work with.  They think it's weird I'll have random times where I completely avoid everyone else but it hasn't damaged me too much yet.  I show initiative, I try to prove I'm trustworthy and responsible.  I bust ass all the time and break records. I am getting to know my coworkers better and we hang out outside of work on occasion.

Act 3 
I have worked harder than everyone for months, surely I will be rewarded...surely.  no.  My effort has yielded nothing.  My boss doesn't care.  And even if she did the only show of appreciation is "good job today.". But I couldve done better and also this changes nothing.  Been giving my coworkers a ride to work, but they never text me, never ask me to hang out.  I have to initiate everything and they do nothing to show they care. I look around, all my expectations are shattered. I'm going nowhere, no one cares about me, the more I try to make them care the more I freak them out. I tell my boss I need to leave in the middle of work bc I think I might hurt myself.  I think this is okay.  

I then have to get a Dr note to return bc that moment of impulse in saying the cursed words of "hurt myself" I have unleashed the wrath of hr.  Time for hr meeting to deem me fit to return.  "Are you going to therapy?  On medication?  I'm worried for the safety of the rest of the employees. How often do you think these episodes will happen?  Leaving in the way you did was CHILDISH". Maybe my boss likes me, maybe my coworkers tolerate me.  But maybe my mental illness isn't compatible with life or working.  Maybe being expected to act normal all the time is too much pressure.  Maybe I'm going to call in one time too many bc the thought of standing at a machine for ten hours with constant racing self hating thoughts is too terrible.  

Maybe I get fired and maybe the cycle starts again