i wanna start this off by saying i hate this about myself; i don’t think its good or anything to be proud of, and i find myself disgusted by it on a daily basis. that being said, i wanted to know if i am alone in feeling this way, so here i am.

when i read about something someone else has gone through, i get these severe twinges of jealousy or envy, and i don’t understand it. i think it connects to my feelings of invalidation, like seeing people go through worse than i have makes me feel invalid? idk, whatever, i hate it.

does anyone else understand this feeling or why it happens? i want it to stop. it makes me feel like such a horrible, terrible person. heeelp