Today I went out to a graduation party and came home to my room cleaned. I live with my mom and I hate when she cleans my room. Can’t find my stuff then I immediately spiral and freak out.  When I would get angry as a teen I would throw stuff and hit  my doors/walls, now I just cry and punch my  floor and self/pull my hair. I’m so embarrassed by the way I handle my emotions after l’ll just shit on myself and say it wasn’t that serious why did you blow up? That’s my biggest question is always why? Why I do react like this? Why can’t I just deal with small inconveniences normally? I feel so alone with this and I hate being told to “calm down” because once I start I can’t go back. Needed to speak this into the Reddit void as I feel so hopeless.