I blown quite an amount of money for this surgery but to no avail. I was in hardest hit industry therefore I don't have much savings from the last 2 years because of salary deduction. But I spent it away and I am not happy at all. Part of it because NOTHING HAS CHANGED. I still couldn't take picture. My mid and lower third are still very unattractive. I need at least a rhino, genio, lip lift &amp; massetter botox to feel better.   


I had incisional surgery and the downtime is slow. I look so ugly now. The incision scars may be visible even. I am a perfectionist and what I am not satisfied is I still have tear through deformity even with fat repositioning. I don't want to spend money on fillers or another revision surgery because  I am too broke for another surgery. I don't know what I should do...   


I tried  personal loans several times but got rejected last month. I tried again and was approved but the amount isn't sufficient enough for me to get rhino or genio. I dont know if I should stop because I sacrificed a lot to get a surgery. I just want to look okay for a selfie. This is my only wish...   


I dont know if I should go on because I am still very unattractive..   
Also even eventually I look better down the road, I could stop someone (a friend that I value so much) for not contacting me ever again . I have so much in my mind now.... my anxiety, my depression, the person and the money I blown away for nothing (minor change)