16m. Recently school went out and there’s nothing for me to do, nothing or no one to hang out with just me in my room all day everyday maybe occasionally going across the street to play basketball alone. My internship doesn’t start for another Month and I’ve just been feeling depressed and lonely. My anger is getting worse. When my mom gets mad at me for seemingly stupid shit that can be solved within minutes and it’s leaving me to be consumed by my anger, feeling as if I want to hurt her. I may never act in it but at this point I can’t tell. I feel as if I have nothing to live for anymore right now, I’m 16 and constantly worrying about money. Someone told me it was an insecurity that I was projecting onto them and I now see they were right. My life feels like this movie where every time the girl was doing worse the movie filter shade would get bluer and bluer. My now previous school social worker said my mom made me a therapist appointment but it’s been days since and clearly I’m not going to any therapy. I do not like talking to my mom at all i truly despise her. Am I a treat to myself and others? What the hell do I do? Not to mention I’m switching schools. What can I do? What should I do? Is there anything that I can do? Sure doesn’t feel that way. I am not speaking to my mom I do not want to be questioned about anything it’ll piss me off. Maybe I should wait until next year for the new school social worker.