Starting late last year I’ve felt my mood and energy deplete to a point I’ve never thought I’d reach before. I was in a relationship and it got cut off abruptly out of nowhere by my ex because we were long distance and they met someone closer. Not gonna pretend that didn’t hurt but it wasn’t the worst of all many months from then. At the same time my country went through the biggest port explosion of all time and economic crisis. All bank accounts in foreign currency got seized by the goverment so i had no access to my savings after 4 years of working and saving for another univerity degree. The  local currency devaluated so fast and everything went up in price 10 times. My friends with dual passports fled and i fell out of touch with them and some that stayed here with all things considered we fell apart too. My parents also expressed recently that they would also change their attitude towards me if i think of pursuing a career abroad with nothing and try my luck and leave the country for a long time. Life here at the moment is living without electricity for many hours a day ( daily ) and my salary pre crisis from 2019 dropped by 80%. I make roughly 250$ a month now. I’m still young and i feel like i’m roaming a free prison daily. I feel lonely and broken… and sad all the time. I feel like so many things got stripped away from me when non of it was my fault…I don’t know how much patience and strength is left in me… everyday i wake up and realize how i’m nothing anymore. 

I’m sorry this is quite long. It’s just a lot.