For about a year now I've been this way. I do not take any medicine. 
Since I was 17 I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety although I didn't feel anything as how I feel now. My grandparents noticed some signs in my behavior and insisted I be evaluated by a doctor. Their concerns were that I didn't have any interest or hobbies out of school, and after any type of relationship friendship betrayal I would be a emotion they felt shouldn't exist, meaning when I hurt I hurt.. Although those symptoms went away, they seem to have came back 20x harder on me now at age 26. The only difference now is that back then I was still getting out of the house and had friends I would normally only have my depression episodes when I was having a bad day.. I don't have friends now I don't leave my house one bit. I never needed a job due to being on SSI.. I feel very incapable and I tend to think of the endings of things before even starting them. I also worry to much about what my grandparents think and I make myself some sort of prisoner. I literally go to bed at 2am, wake up by 1pm and lay in bed all day. I just lay here and I browse randomly on my phone. I think about how I can do this or I should do this, it's overwhelming to know what's the right move for me, and for some reason I can't do anything I know I should do. I'm so upset with myself.