Hi, I’m an 18 year old guy from Sweden who literally just wants everything to end.
My life is very tough and I literally don’t know what to do. I have diabetes type 1, hearing loss, heavy tinnitus and is extremely depressed. I have tried to kill myself once. My diabetes keeps me away from my dream job and everyday when I wake up I just wanna quit since I know I will need medicine all day long. My tinnitus is so loud and gives me headaches daily, I see other people in my age is out living their life. I see them in social media being in the club, at parties and doing other fun things. I can’t be there since my ears will hurt so bad, my headache will just increase and I’m just home holding my hands on my ears. I’ve tried going out sometimes, I just can’t be there and need to leave right away with tears coming down from my eyes. I’ve been to multiple doctors and I get the same answers from everyone. We can’t do something about it.
Today I asked the girl I’ve had a crush as long as I remember and I am literally extremely in love with her to go out with me. I got rejected and she blocked me on social media.
It just feels like I wanna go to sleep and never wake up again. I don’t know what to do.