I am a LCSW with lifelong hx of depression. Since COVID I have actually done well superficially - two promotions, good feedback from supervisors, financially secure, ADLs done more or less regularly. I am also going through perimenopause which is NOT helping my mood stability. I have been having some low level SI and general malaise. More dysthymia than MD I would say. Things at work are stressful for the staff I supervise but I am getting so resentful about their excuses of being burnt out for why their work is not up to standards. No one has any idea where I am at with my own MH since I'm holding it all together. Its really hard being a LCSW with depression since therapy doesn't seem to offer me much I don't already know and meds have been pretty hit &amp; miss for the past 30 years. My spouse has his own MH issues but is mostly stable on meds, med management &amp; therapy. I feel like I'm not allowed to be the "sick" or "weak" one. Life is just rough right now, I feel like I'm just existing day to day. Just needed a forum to vent a bit. SIGH!