I just wish I was someone else. I hate being alone but I am an awkward, annoying, social anxious weirdo. I'm going to die alone, and it's what I deserve. I hate everything I see in the mirror. I wish I didn't have to deal with this anymore. My thoughts and emotions are piling up on me, and I can't take it anymore. It feels like I'm drowning, and every time i come up for air I start sinking again. Right now I'm treading water, but I'm getting really tired of this shit.