School is starting tommorrow, It was and still is one of the main causes for my depression. I've never wanted to kill myself more. I promised my mom that I would tell her when I felt this down, but I am too scared to tell her. I know she cares for me and I dont want her to be sad, but everyday is a living hell. They've tried optimizing my school experience by being able to sit in a more isolated area from my classmates, and letting me have 1 on 1 presentations with only the teacher due to my social anxiety issues. It just has not been better. My therapist have ordered my mom and dad to make sure I go outside everyday, sleep at a specific time everyday, wake up at specific times like it would help me. I have only felt worse since these experiences.
I don't know why i wrote + posted this, but it just feels nice to vent...