I’m in a new relationship (about 3 month) and had the opportunity To invite my bf on a weekend trip w some family that would have been all expenses paid, and a good chance for them to meet in a low pressure environment (and a super nice beach vacation).

But I was feeling anxious and scared about it and decided not to bring him, bc the relationship was so new. Really I could have pushed for it, but decided I’d rather err on the side of not doing it again rather than doing it and having it be uncomfortable or something.

(He didn’t know it was my decision to not bring him)

Anyway now I’m super bummed bc honestly it would have been lovely if he came, and I was just being super scared of abandonment and like anxious irrationally. And now I can’t stop these feelings of regret and feeling like a total idiot for not sorting through  these feelings earlier and coming to this conclusion like a sane person beforehand. 


Anyway it’s not even that consequential or a problem, I just feel so bad about it and can’t stop beating myself up. Ugh.