For the past 6 months my depression has gotten progressively worse. 

I’m 15 years old. Every morning starts with me crying trying to get out of bed. Then I need to hide my crying when going down for breakfast, because of my parents. I don’t want my parents to know that I’m so close to giving up. 

My friends are noticing that something is wrong. They tell me to speak up and talk to them, and I’m really grateful for them but I just can’t even explain the pain I’m in and why I feel this way.

I can’t get a therapist without my parents knowing, and if I would tell the school or a teacher they would call my parents too.

I have many suicidal thought everyday, but yet I’m too scared to try.

How do I get the courage to tell someone about this? Any advice would be greatly appreciated