My ego wants me to be great. But my bpd doesn't want to let me. My ego won't be satisfied unless I am doing something slightly better than someone else. And when I do something good but not better or great it's like a reassurance to all the self doubt my bpd brings and I end up feel worthless and unfulfilled. I know my life is good and I have things to be proud of and thankful for. But I'm in a constant war with pleasing my ego and not being crushed by my bpd. Any advice or anyone who can relate?