I've been prescribed a 0.5 mg ativan dose. I've always been very sensitive to drugs and so I am kind of terrified to try it, which sounds silly because it is supposed to take that feeling of terror away. I've been having on and off panic attacks for the past week and they're quite terrifying, involving a bit of derealization. I fear I'm going crazy or have some sort of brain tumor affecting my ability to think clearly. My body starts feeling numb and I get tunnel vision. In the moment I can't rationalize myself out of it, the only thing that helps is talking to somebody but when I have no one to talk to it feels very scary and unbearable. I know I have this medication right here but I'm so scared of it making me feel worse. But I also can't get out of my thought loops on my own.