I just hate everything abt myself, I'm a drunk who drinks every single week, I used to do it once everything week. Now I can't even wait a week before getting drunk again. I do it to forget abt my shitty "life" I'm always broke, feeling useless, I wish I could mobe to the US. Thank goodness I dropped my pipe yesterday otherwise I would've smoke marijuana again while drinking. It was a sign. I scratched my legs to bleed a Lil bit yesterday, I like doing while drunk bc I don't feel pain. I often overthink, I will nevee have a gf. I hate my appearance. I wish I had the guts to hang my self, but I couldn't even take the pain.