Whenever someone doesn't respond to me immediately or responds to me in a certain way (i.e. a way that doesn't fit into my Best Friends Ever fantasy) I get incredibly paranoid that they're upset with me, that I've done something wrong or worse (and most frequent) that they're talking negatively about me to others. 

The thoughts just... spiral. I start to think that everyone is laughing at me and that all of my so-called friends are out to me. Part of it is because I had relationships in the past where older people would take advantage of my youth and naivety and *would* talk about me/what I'd said to others.

But nine times out of ten, chances are someone isn't talking about me. Rationally I know this. I try to practice my DBT skills. I try to practice my CBT skills. I'm on meds for anxiety and a mood disorder. 

But sometimes, like today, I just feel utterly hopeless and like I'm crawling out of my skin with insecurity.