Hi there I’ve been dealing a lot of intense heavy shame recently due to an event I caused with friends. I read the situation wrong and made a massive mistake but everything is okay between us I just feel so much shame and disgust with myself. I ended up self harming after after 2.5 years of being clean because I told them. I just don’t know how to deal with it. It’s a very complicated situation not sure how to deal with it in a healthy way. I’ve also found out I’m incapable of keeping secrets from said friends and I’m not sure how to fix that I’m physically not able to lie to them about certain things.  Any advice how to not tell them everything and coping mechanisms would be good please.  I’m not in therapy anymore as I recently moved away.