My boyfriend is so out of my league. He’s much smarter than I am and knows how to do so much that I don’t. He says me helping him with the little things means so much as he has trouble getting things started, but as much as I do for him, I feel like I’m not doing enough. But when I try to help with bigger things, all I do is mess up and fail and then I don’t feel like I can be trusted anymore.

I feel useless, but it’s not his fault, he helps me to try and feel like I’m doing meaningful things and that I contribute and that he couldn’t function much without my help, but I still feel so unimportant.

And he says that I’m smart and strong, that I’m the brains and also the brawn. But I’m not. I’m not smart like he is. I’m not even a strong person. I’m below average, while he is so much better than anything I could ever be. Even after us just talking about how I was feeling, I don’t feel any better. I know his words of encouragement are honest and sincere, but I still feel like I don’t really amount to anything.

I don’t think I can ever be as good as he is. I’m probably just a useless burden.