Lately, my confidence has been rising and I've learned a lot about how distorted my thoughts were. These small changes I've made have given more hope than I could imagine, so to others I think it's possible to get better. 

As I've started my road to recovery (mostly alone) I've made some leaps however I think I discovered that my arrogance gets the best of me. When I speak to others I seem to feel like I'm from another planet and when I try to rephrase or get my point across it's typically "meh". People tend to speak over me in most settings. Is there some sort of tone you have to use? There's also this pattern where people start treating me like a child, this typically happens when I disassociate and feel zoned out. I might answer one worded answers, for reasons I don't really know. Am I overwhelmed? Am I hiding the pain? On top of that when I speak to others I get way too "into them" and lose track of my thoughts or what I even wanted to do at that moment. 

Is this normal for any you? I do want to point out, the emotions I feel are the typical bpd ones like shame, guilt and irritability. I go back to the situations, analyze them and feel better (it has become a habit now) but I can't seem to find out what makes these patterns keep appearing nor how to modify them. Has anyone had any luck? 