I feel like my anxiety is slowly killing me. I feel like im losing my mind. I am having panic attacks every day and can’t sleep at all. 
Alcohol is not helping me anymore , I can’t drink anymore because of fear that I’ll die. 

I tried breathing , sometimes it helps , but sometimes it doesn’t and I struggle really hard. 
I am also scared that I might end up psychotic. 
My grandma and her niece (my aunt) were psychotic. Grandma died never even visiting a proffesional , because in my family mental illnesses have a big stigma. My aunt on the other hand doesn’t want to visit a proffesional or take meds because “there are evil forces surrouding her”. My therapists dont really care that I have psychotic people in my family tree. 

What should I do? Is this everything in my head? Should I excercise breathing more? Will pills help me?