I don't know. I've been very intentional of how I spend my day and how I take care of myself. it's taking me lengths in recovery. I give my body the sleep and rest it needs and screw any commitment. Nothing feels better.
My diary, my podcasts, my book, my BPD workbook... I'm born again. 

It's helping me so much to be intentional, caring, and compassionate towards my body and mind. I hope it works for you too.