I'm so used to masking emotions and feelings. Bottled up. Numb. Nothing.

Which is problematic because even the tiniest bit that can annoy me can trigger some very distressful emotions in me and it bubbles up and bubbles up until I want to erupt and

Earlier I was asked to do errands. It was a bit uncommon errand + required social interaction with new people. Hate.

I waited til I can leave the room and I-- black and white. Anger. Hot. Almost threw my phone (already damaged). Threw pillows. Wanted to scream. But most of all and it always happens: Heart/chest feeling like so heavy and weighing and it's so uncomfortable i wanna rip it off.

Am i the only one?