Possible tw? I’m not sure.

Since middle school, about seven years ago, I’ve had no top eyelashes. I pulled them all out from anxiety.

Before you ask, yes it hurt, but it doesn’t hurt anymore when I do it.

I catch myself doing it when I get super scared or upset, and I have absolutely 0 idea on how to stop this. Any suggestions? Any possible way for me to feel like I look normal again? :(