So my BF and I have been together for about 1.5 years. He loves to debate topics, and I totally hate it. Even if he doesn't have an opinion on the topic, he'll play devil's advocate and question question question. I understand that it's just general curiosity about a new subject but I can't stop feeling attacked during debates with him. Its got to the point where I don't even feel like telling him things, or sharing things I find interesting, because I don't want to 'defend' myself. 

I'm a professor, so I know its not the debating aspect that bothers me because I'm able to hold my own in discussions with colleagues or students (I really do try my best to admit when I'm wrong because I know I don't know everything, and I disliked teachers who couldn't admit the same).  But when it comes to my partner, I feel kinda paralyzed.. like I actually start sweating, feel unable to form a coherent sentence, and get light-headed. I have this fear that my inability to defend my opinions to him will mean that I lose? or am not intelligent enough? I don't know.. 

I know I need to get back into therapy, but with this panini, most of the therapists in my area are fully booked, so I'm on the waitlist. But I feel like I'm going nuts so any advice on how to regulate myself is truly appreciated &lt;3