Like i used to try to make any guy like me, no matter if i liked them or not, and it always works and then i ghost them. over time it got really boring when it's someone who easily starts falling in love with me. it's like i want to find someone who doesn't fall for me that fast just to prove myself that i can make them like me. it's so much more "interesting" (hate phrasing it that way but it's true) when it's someone hard to get especially if they are emotionally unavailable




takes lots of time to find someone who doesn't get boring once they like me, and even then i get in this cycle of getting way too attached to them and my entire existence revolves around them and on top of that i even expect them to do the same.... it sucks