I'm so tired of everything today. I feel so completely alone and yet I don't want to talk to anyone and I've isolated myself. This loneliness is actually a physical pain. It's like I will never know someone who fully knows me and accepts me and loves me for who I am. I shy away from everyone I know because I can't cope with telling them I'm feeling down (again), I've failed again, I'm doing nothing and going nowhere. I am nothing.