Idk it just feels weird to me that people can easily wake up, get out of bed, do chores, go to work/school, study at home etc etc. Lately I’ve been getting into a really bad habit of avoidance coping, it was pretty bad a few years ago as well but recently it has been SUPER BAD that every day is the exact same and passing by with no progress at all in anything and I constantly compare myself to others. Last year was decent because I was actually motivated to do schoolwork and stuff, sure I was a huge perfectionist which also stressed me out but I would give anything to get that back because at least I was being productive while stressed. Now I’m just procrastinating while stressed

It’s just amazing to me that there are people out there without any mental illness who can actually get things done with barely any effort, it just seems unfair to me that I have to work so hard just to get to the same place as others (both mentally and academically). Like even if when it comes to treating anxiety, it’s a bunch of work that people without it don’t have to go through even though I did nothing to ask for this disorder in the first place. I’m really ambitious and have a lot of interests which I feel like I’m unable to do because of how my anxiety affects my mood and time management, since I just spend all day at school and home sitting and thinking about how stressed I am and how much I need to do lol