Im sorry I can't write everything that happened as it can't be written in one post I will try to summarize my life as best I can, I really have no one to go for advice,

I'm a 21M who moved to Canada a few years ago due to my mother's job, , My parents were always overprotective with me and my siblings, and even more so for me because I'm the only male child in the family. I have been suffering from depression for as long as I can remember because of the verbal, emotional and physical abusive I received from my parents, mainly my dad, as a child. I have even attempted taking taking my own life a few years back, but my parents are completely ignorant to this fact. Today I had the biggest fight with my dad for defending my sister, and words were exchanged that should never be exchanged between a parent and their child. I really feel like I have nothing left to live for, I don't have any status in this country so I can't go live by myself I'm forced to live with them,  I'm sorry English is not my first language I can't put into words what I've gone through. I really need some advice I would've gone to my friends but I don't want to project my problems onto them.