My father passed away a couple of weeks ago.

Over the last few years with my depression I wasn’t reaching out much and talking with / spending time with friends and family.  Between the pandemic and him being high risk our contact was maybe a phone call every month and a visit about the same

I hit me hard.  Much harder than expected.  I’ve lost grandparents, cousins and friends before, but nothing like this.

I had been trying to explain my struggles to him several times over the last while.  I’m not sure if he really understood.

At the visitation last week, I spoke to him one last time.  I struggled to get the words out that I was so sorry that my depression kept me away.

It’s been amazing the support that I’ve had from my aunts, and cousins during this time.

Not really sure what the point of this post is for, other than to hopefully convince someone out there to reach out to their loved ones before it’s too late.