Diagnosed two years ago BP2, take 150mg Lamictal. 

I have reduced sleep (slept about 4 hours last night). I'm exhausted but I can't stop, I'm too excited, I just wanna go go go. 

I hadn't eat for 24 hours. My libido is way up there, I got on an app to find other couples to swap and stuff, we find a few of them. We're meeting one of them tonight. I'm feeling panicky - but also confident ? 

I realized it might be hypomania when I went to an appointment I scheduled for lasik surgery. The woman looked into my eyes and went "wow... Your pupils are so dilated... Your pupils are huge" 

I remember seeing on here that it could be a sign, also online. 

Look, I'm feeling a bit confused. It's because I'm tired but also because I'm jumpy. I feel like my heart wants to stop, it's so tired, but my body can't. 

I just wanna get drunk and gave that stupid foursome with those nice strangers after the strip club. 

As of now I've been riding the wave, and tbh I'm not sure how to proceed. I'm worried about the crash. That being said, Lamictal should prevent an absolute crash, no? 

Thank you for your support. I just don't know what I would do without this group