I was in a relationship , it was pretty good until it wasnt ? So somehow he moves on quick and cheats and i dont know how to process all that . I was myself struggling with so many things then and didn’t think about it much but now whenever i am talking with people i start having panic attack. Plus i do get sexually involved over phone and have ruined friendships but anything physical terrifies me . The other month this person and i meet and he is nicest man , we cuddle and shit but as it is about to get physical i shiver and have internal breakdown . This happens when i get close to people , i feel sick of it and i feel as if they will be similar so i distance myself if someone has feelings or when i do 


I hate it because i want to be validated and love relationship . When i push ppl away i feel terrible .I feel so lost someone tell me what do i do