I feel crushed. I was "diagnosed" with PTSD in my early 20s and a therapist last year thought I might have bipolar. I was under the impression that this stuff was new and now I'm finding out I was diagnosed when I was a teenager and my trauma stimmed from my childhood. My mom recently found records from doctors and ones she had made herself logging my therapy. The last message was "2006- still suffering" and that alone has me in tears.

She's taking the records to her personal doctor who she's discussed my mental illness with and is hoping I can finally get the help I need. I've been convinced all this started when I was taken off Adderall for my ADHD and sure enough looking at the records within a year of being off of it they were diagnosing me with depression and anxiety. He knows I consume THC edibles and MDMA a few times a year for my PTSD and surprisingly is supportive. I've read so many horror stories of people being drug tested and their Adderall being taken away but I might actually not have to worry about that.