I just have to vent quick. So I have been struggling with anxiety for as long as I can remember. Most recently, I have been super anxious about asking a family friend if I can buy some of his land. He owns A LOT of farm land around here, and on some of this land is an old abandoned house on a small lot surrounded by pasture land. He doesn’t use this property for anything, and it’s got sentimental value to me. My grandpa, who passed when I was about 8-9 years old, grew up in that house. That house is super unlivable now, it’s falling apart and just rotting away. I really want to ask him about buying that property so I could salvage parts of that house to build my own forever home. I am super scared, super worried that he is going to think I am using him or something. I think since he does own a lot of land, he would probably save it for his family. He’s a regular at the bar I work at and I know he is coming in today after work. I was thinking about asking him then, but I am scared that I am going to choke and just not say anything. I can’t stop thinking about it, it’s literally been the only thing on my mind.