I talked with a coworker today cause he was having anxiety. It led to two realizations on my part, which of course I didn't voice cause it wasn't the time/place/situation. 

1. I'm just used to always feeling tense. Like a generalized tension and inability to relax, even if i'm not actively anxious about something. 
2. I have very few tools to cope with that everyday anxiety. Most of them are meant for actual panic attacks: breathing (the 1-2-3-4 count thing in hold and out), music in earbuds, and trigger warning &gt;!self harm tho that's quite rare now, it was at one point the only way I knew how to stop them. !&lt;

Fueled in part by CPTSD, but despite going through therapy to help with that so it's loads better than it was...I never realized how normal it is for me, to always feel somewhat anxious.

May or may not buy a cheap smartwatch just for fun. I want a new one anyways. I know during recovery from covid I noticed my resting heart rate was high but the doctor said it was normal for covid-pneumonia. Well I think he just said when you're sick in general...it's been a while idk.