For some uncomfortable reason, ive had times where i get this feeling, or my mind suddenly flips and sounds like someone else telling me to harm myself or someone else. but for some reason, its like a wave of feeling from some strange language that i for some reason forget afterwords, i feel things standing over me and threatening me to do or watch things that make me upset/scared as punishment for thinking im allowed to be happy. i dont know why its like this  
but the only thing i can assume is that the person that these things take the form of even when invisible is of someone who hurt me really bad, i wont say who . but basicly i never heard his voice.. so it could be why whenever i do.. heaaar somethinng? its just weird feelings , like how i\`d feel if someone spoke to me but with no noise.. almost like a delusion. im not sure. im probably just being too paranoid..