I have been thinking about it for over a year now, and every single day for the past 5 months. I was worried that it will hurt my mom and my brother and my fiance, but after today I realized they don't really care about me. Yeah they will be sad, but it will not change their life any how. They don't care about me. So now I litterly have no reason to live. And I'm glad, as it's not as hard to leave this world. So tomorrow I am booking a hotel and hanging myself on a shower rod....