Whenever I care about what I'm doing I get ao anxious that I end up messing everything up. This job is amazing, but I feel like I don't deserve it. As a shy person communicate with my coworkers is an non ending anxiety. I wish I didn't think so much about work. Whenever I send a text or someone gets too long to answer I keep thinking what did I do wrong. I can't stop freaking out and I can't do anything else. Then I feel guilt and get even more anxious in this infinite cycle... I just want to be ok.