I’m (28f) and have been diagnosed type II bipolar since I was 16. I went off meds two years ago due to a change in insurance and because I am who I am, I never got back on them. It’s been rough. The decline has been slow and fast at the same time, I’ve been rapid cycling pretty much constantly for about a year now and if I didn’t have this appointment on Saturday to look forward to, I genuinely don’t know what I would do. I want to be my own kind of normal. I want to stop yearning and grieving for a mind I will never have. I want to be happy and healthy and prosperous. It’s nice to want something again. It’s nice to actively walk towards that something.