So I wrote out my moods from the last 2 weeks (from daylio to email) for my care coordinator.  Looking at it,  it looks a lot like mixed episodes from the past.  Im also realising im being a bit paranoid that certain people don't like me.  That my care team is stalking me.  Etc etc

And im posting here, very here and there with a whole rollercoaster of stuff. Sorry about that.  I think I keep putting my foot in things by reacting wrong.  But it's like I'm seeing the world through a filter,  a filter that lets me see the wrong intentions behind what people are saying and doing. 

I've emailed my care coordinator a long email about my moods and lack of stability (didn't mention mixed episode as it hadn't sunk in). I've questioned why my med review is being pushed back from Monday to 3 weeks time.  

I'm not 100% the bipolar is causing this or im actually seeing things for what they really are,  and it's clearer to me who's pushing me away,  who's playing games etc.  How do I tell? Or can I not be sure until time passes,  but if people are out to get me it'll never pass.  Im so confused.  

Tl;dr might be in a mixed episode or I can't trust anyone.  How can I tell?