Whenever I encounter somebody new and we actually hit it off really well, I get attached almost instantly. I idolize them and revolve my entire life around them. I struggle to discern between my feelings of friendship and attraction. But before long, I get obsessed with they ways in which they’re better than me and feel inferior to them. I’ll be ashamed to interact with them because I’m so far below them. And it’s not like they’re constantly paying me attention to reassure me that I matter to them; they have lives that don’t revolve around me. To them, I’m just another face in the crowd. A friendly face, but just another face that isn’t as important to them as they are to me. I can’t shake the feeling that I mean absolutely nothing to them and they hate it when I try to interact with them. Consequently, I stop contacting them out of fear and get upset when they don’t reach out even though it’s not their fault - I am a low priority to them, so they forget all about me.