Im mega worried I made my friends scared Im gonna kms or od on drugs cause I explained to them my romantic situation and how bad I feel rn and they seem worried. For context Im in love with a guy with a gf and he hasn’t messaged me in a day. Theres a lot more to the situation but thats the trigger rn. I feel like Im dying. You guys get it. Either way I know I should ig “break up” with him but the prospect hurts so bad I think I’d actually die of cardiac arrest lol. I know he’ll never chose me equally though and if his gf finds out we’re still talking he wont stick around but I hope hed at least tell me.. I just miss him so fucking much and now Im constantly scared he’s never gonna come back and Im scaring my friends but I have nobody else to talk to that cares or will listen or offer rational human advice. I want to cry but I cant… along with eating sleeping and just generally functioning. I just need to know the odds he isnt coming back. That’s all. He said the last time we spoke that I have him so theres nothing to be scared of now. Idk how true that is and I’m terrified and I can’t help being terrified