Okay so I’m 20, just started a packaging job at like a warehouse with my best friend and I’m doing horrible like reallllly not okay, panic attacks and crying before work and on my way there and the night before all that shit. The thing is I’m horrible at keeping jobs this is my second job this year (worked with autistic children for a week) and quit due to my severe anxiety attacks and nausea. That’s another thing, i throw up like everyday all the damn time. I’ve been to countless doctors who said I either have acid reflux or just chronic nausea from anxiety, either way it sucks and I’m borderline suicidal now from throwing up as much as I’ve been. Also working with my best friend, I’ve known her for years and close with her and each other’s families and shit so i thought it would be perfect and it does help having someone i know there butttttt I’m the one that drives. She doesn’t drive or have a car so one of the main reasons she wants to work there is because i drive to and from. So now if i quit she’s basically going to have to as well and i feel like everyone is going to blame me because it’s on me. Telling people how much this affects me is really embarrassing for me, i found that everytime I’ve quit a job due to anxiety nobody really understands which i get but it’s embarrassing and I’m just generally really struggling with what to do. Like yeah i should keep the job because i need the money but at what cost basically? Just suffering in silence and being even more depressed than i already am seems like hell and i don’t know if that job is worth it idk i just want more opinions