New here, and sorry for the long post! 

I started dating my boyfriend 4 months before COVID and when the pandemic started, his old job went 100% remote. Because of quarantine, I basically lived the last two years with him working from home and got extremely used to him being there all the time. However, my bf just recently got a new job that now requires him to go back to work in person and it’s causing me a lot of distress. I have struggled with separation anxiety and fear of loved ones dying in accidents my entire life, but my boyfriend has never been the object of it until now. Now that he’s back at work in person, I constantly worry about him dying in a car wreck on his commute to and from work every day. I obsessively check google maps along his routes to look for any reported accidents, and I make him text me once he’s gotten there and before he leaves so that I can time his drive home. Sadly, this is anxiety that I’ve gotten used to and can deal with for the most part. The real kicker is that this job not only requires him to work regular hours, but also attend events outside of work such as during evenings/nights, weekends, and even some overnight trips once in a while. My bf has some late evening events and an overnight trip scheduled for next month and I am worried sick about it. I can’t eat, sleep, or function normally because I’m overcome with anxiety about him being away and something happening to him while he’s gone. I hate this anxiety so much and it’s gotten to the point where I’m constantly angry and resentful towards him for taking this job and agreeing to go to these events. I know my anxiety is entirely my fault, but because he’s the object of it, I feel like he’s to blame. He’s now resentful towards me for being resentful towards him, and it’s a viscous cycle. This job is one that he is most likely going to keep for the next 10+ years, and I can’t see the future of our relationship going well at all if this is going to be the norm. 

I am currently in therapy, and am seeing my PCP on Monday to try and see about medication, but I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m going insane. Has anyone dealt with anything similar? What helped you? Any advice appreciated