I direct symptoms like aggression inward, like towards myself. I struggle with fluctuating moods and difficulty regulating emotions, I can go from feeling absolutely euphoric like I'm floating to feeling like everybody is going to abandon me, thus making me feel really depressed. I feel a sense of instability in self-image. I have a constant feeling of vulnerability. I struggle deeply with a fear of abandonment and I used to frequently self harm in middle school because my emotions were too much for me to handle. I struggle with insecurity with self image and I frequently get paranoia that people will inevitably leave me.