I experienced this in the past A LOT but since some weeks it's going on almost 24/7 

I mean there's no real problem, i'm living my life in the usual way but sometimes i feel a little panic and a little shock (like when you suddenly wake up from a deep dream) like "what the fuck is happening? where the fuck am i? how the fuck i get here? who controls me?" i always know the answers immediately but it's fucking strange and when i try to focus like "okay, from now i will be here, i'm going to concentrate for real" it makes me even more panicked and i always have to give up because i just can't focus on reality. 

it's fucking hard to explain and i know a lot of bpd people know what i'm talking about but ahhhh, wtf should i do?

it's like i'm living my life but actually that's not me who's doing the things. and sometimes i feel that comfortable and relaxed shit like when you are sleeping but you know that it's just a dream so there's nothing to worry about.

it's like i'm hiding from the reality and let my instinct to do the things.

now what? this will be the thing from now till forever or it's just an episode or what?