in the wintertime my BPD gets rly bad and so does my dysphoria idk i’m so done. I’ve been fighting off self harm urges for days. I actually was clean for 4 MONTHS before I relapsed 2 weeks ago. i’m literally in school with SH urges and it’s not good. Idk I just feel so broken. i’m missing sm school work, I lost my job 3 weeks ago, I am splitting constantly, I go from suicidal to depressed to manic sometimes in the span of ONE DAY. it’s getting unbearable. idk