Im 4kg away from being overweight. Ive gained 3kg in a few months. I look fucking disgusting. I want to rip all of my stomach fat off forcibly and bleed to death. Im so fucking unattractive. Im ugly, Im fat and cant stick to any diets. Ive tried so many times and I fail on day 3 or 4 every time. It's fucking pathetic. I'm fucking pathetic. No one finds me desirable, no one will even hug me. Im so close to ending it all. I just want to be loved. I just want to be loved and I just want someone to think Im attractivw and no one does. No one flirts with me. Zero likes on tinder. No friends. No lovers. Im all alone. I only have my best friend, hes the only reason Im still here. I dont want him to find my corpse. But I dont know if I can keep doing this. Im so scared of gaining more weight. I hate myself so much. The anxiety I get when I think about my body is so overwhelming I just want to die. Killing myself is a better option than existing in this state. I cant take it. I cant, its too much. I cant do it