was in a 5 year relationship with what i thought was the loml, bought a ring for her, the week i was planning on proposing she broke up with me. a month later she moved in and was having an intimate relationship with a girl she told me not to worry about (who she met through me). my ex is my property manager for the complex i live at, we work for the same parent small business company, i can’t go a day without seeing her and hearing about her and its slowly killing me. Tonight I drove to an overpass and stood on top debating on whether I should jump. I didn’t but I can’t stop thinking about suicide. Its so bad that its starting to feel like external voices. I am self harming as well. I’m about ready to give up. I quite literally can’t take this any longer.