u ever get so depressed and then u feel that light at the end of the tunnel that maybe, just maybe you're not alone and u decide to finally use up all of ur mental and emotional capacity to open up to someone and then like an idiot u get hit by the fact you've always known.. that nobody fuckin understands and no one ever will, everyone goes "oh hey dw it's gonna be okay sometime" and "hey it's all part of a bigger plan". u realize that youre completely on your own during the quest to fix yourself, you have to figure out how to do it just because no one can help, and the thing is, you will keep failing and failing and failing which will only add up to your depression.....

I've been in this shit hole since august, and I swear I'm trying so hard, I'm doing all I can, and I don't know why nothing is working out for me.

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From a string of rejections to a wound that's been leaking for 8 years, to my defense mechanism that just isolates me.. I feel like a failed experiment