mostly my psychiatrist. for the last 2 months when we’ve had an appointment she forgets what meds i’m on, she forgets when appointments are, she forgets when i’ve started new meds (she keeps asking each week how my “new” medication is, when i’ve been on this for months, and it was my original prescription so before that, literally years). i don’t trust her for jack shit, new medication especially. my therapist tells me i gotta talk it out with her but how am i supposed to expect to be heard when she literally forgets everything. she’ll take notes on notes on notes during our session but never actually remembers anything, doesn’t even check her notes before a session apparently because she can’t grasp even basic memories of our conversations. but i’m the irrational one for finding this hopeless. 
i’m quitting my meds. they don’t help. my psych doesn’t help. my therapist doesn’t help. either i’ll get better on my own and be ok or get worse and die and that’s okay too because let’s face it things probably won’t get better.