 I feel like shit all the time and I'm losing motivation to do everything. All I do is sleep on my free time just so I can avoid everything and not feel like crying. But even when I sleep all the time I still feel so exhausted. At school its a pain, I have to put up this façade and act like I'm okay, because whenever I actually open up to my friends they don't take me seriously with my emotions or they just give me some half assed pity statement when they tell me to vent to them. I do appreciate their effort, I really do. I feel like my friends are getting tired of me, and that im always the second choice. I just want someone to hug me, and I dont mean a "oh it will get better" pity hug, I mean a really deep meaningful hug. Whenever I'm in public all I feel is insecure and anxious and that everybody's judging me, and my appearance. how can i get rid of this? it feels like no matter what i try or do nothing gets better and im always stuck like this.