I’m starting to slowly lose myself again I can barely get a few hours of sleep in after staring at the ceiling most of the night. I can barely function during the day but still force myself to eat and hangout with my family. I’m also gonna drop out of school this year I don’t want to see other people anymore. I can feel myself getting more irritated and aggressive. I’ve been thinking a lot of suicide but don’t have the balls to do it myself so I’m hoping something or someone might kill me soon. I also don’t want my family to be hurt tho so I’m trying to keep going day by day and see if anything good happens. I’m hoping I don’t have to go on a grippy sock vacation soon but have a good day or night to however reads this.