do you ever feel like you are a bad person. Like the whole world is judging you from your hair colour to what size you are. You say something and you beat yourself up for it. You say you have anxiety and yet you hate yourself for not being anxious. Like its an obligation to be anxious all the time. Then, you wonder if you are really anxious or if your brain is just faking it.
You try so hard to have everyone like you till you become someone you hate. You create a persona of yourself that you want to destroy but can’t. You hear others say that what you are feeling is not as bad as others. But you can’t help but think , ‘ why is it a competition?’ ‘ why must what i’m feeling be on pr of others’ 
Can you even say you have anxiety when people around say that its just for attention?
You overthink till it makes you crazy till you are numb and just feel shitty.