I graduated college in April, and luckily had a job lined up after. I work in sales for a large software company.

I’ve never sold a thing in my life, but that’s beside the point. I’ve been in the job for nearly 2 months now and I’ve done close to nothing. Every once in a while I’ll get busy work to do, but I havnt been given an “account” to work on and sell to. We have our official sales training next month, but I can’t wait that long. I’ve had weeks where I sit at my desk and do nothing all day. I feel like my managers don’t even know I exist. I’m the first kid they’ve hired out of college, as everyone else are tenured professionals that were brought in from another company. I just feel redundant. I shadow the older people on calls, but not enough for my liking. I wish I had more to do.

All of this time I have gives me anxiety. I feel like one day they’re gonna throw me to the wolves and have me do something I’m not prepare for, and that I will get fired. I’m supposed to eventually get a quota, and I’m already planning on my anxiety to ramp up once I have a number (that I don’t have full control over) I have to hit in order to keep my job. Idk if sales is really for me if that’s the case, but I don’t know where I can turn to. I don’t even fully understand what I’m selling. I feel like there’s a lot of I don’t know what I don’t know with this position. 


I feel so uneducated and underprepared. Some kids my age who got hired with me out of college have been kept very busy in their separate departments, and I feel like they’re miles ahead of where I should be. I’ve asked for more to do, and I’ve reached out for help. I just get moved to the side. 


I’m scared. Idk how long this feeling is gonna stick with me, but until I can start proving myself I’m gonna continue to feel this way. There’s probably things I could do to start learning more, but I just can’t figure out how.