Every job I've ever worked makes me feel anxious, inferior, and oftentimes depressed. I view my coworkers as smarter people who look down on me.

My last job was the worst of all, because it truly would be a very stressful job for anyone - so for me it was x100 and was giving me weekly panic attacks. After a year and a half I quit and got an offer from my current company. I was so happy - I thought to myself, after a job as stressful as my last, there's no way I'll feel so anxious over work again. Other positions will be a walk in the park compared to that one.

For the first month at my new job, that actually was my mentality. I was so calm, because everything was so much more organized and less chaotic, and it truly is a less stressful job. So all I felt was the pure relief of no longer being with my old company.

But now I'm almost in my third month at my new job, and some of that relief is wearing off. I'm feeling myself fall back into old habits. I feel extremely stressed about my work assignments now that I'm able to take on more. Now that I'm not as much of a newbie, I'm terrified that the cracks will start to show. All of my coworkers are so smart and confident - and I feel like I've just been putting on a fucking facade. I feel like they're gonna see me for the fraud that I am - an anxious ball of stress with low self-esteem. 

I guess this is a rant more than a question since I'm not sure why I'm posting this, but just needed to get this off my chest. I would appreciate any words from anyone who's felt similar.