It’s heartbreaking to know that there’s no real cure for depression and that it’s just something you either get better at dealing with or die trying. I don’t want to feel like this for another week let alone the rest of my life. How will I ever get a proper job or do anything with myself? I’m a month away from turning 20 and it feels like my life’s already over. I didn’t even think I’d make it this far. I work one day a week and it’s enough to exhaust me. I’ll never be fixed, I’ll always be wired wrong. I just wish I could be normal. It will never get better, I don’t know how some people believe that because it simply isn’t true for me at least. How can things get better if nothing works and I can never escape. I don’t want to have to go to doctors all my life to switch out medications when they inevitably don’t work and I don’t want to talk to any therapists because it never helps. What can I do?