This is my first post here, joined this group a few days ago and have loved seeing the support on show.

I wonder if there's anyone else is feeling as lonely as me.
I've successfully chased away everyone who cared for me as I didn't believe they ever did care.

I'm sat here every single day, alone and by myself with nothing to do. If family members do talk to me, I'm just awkward AF.
I'm doing way better than I was a few years ago and I'm able hang around with certain family members but I still feel so alone and unloved.
After my ex had enough of my crap and left after 5 hard years, it's been really bad. She was the support I needed and longed for my whole life but I was still a dick to her and pushed her away. Now I'm all alone and feel like shit. 


It's awful feeling this way and I'm sorry if I've upset anyone reading this.