I want to run away and just take as much drugs as possible until I eventually OD. I’m tired, I don’t see myself living past 18. I just feel like I won’t ever be a good daughter, friend, girlfriend or just a good person overall. I have no one. I feel alone and lost. There’s so many things going on in my head. I dont know how you know get better and I don’t think I ever will. I constantly feel sick, unmotivated and exhausted. It’s so draining waking up and recreating the same day over and over. I shouldn’t even feel like this because I have everything I could ever need and maybe want. But I just feel like shit. And im constantly thinking about suicide. I just wish I wasn’t so scared. I really am considered on OD. I just don’t know what to do anymore.