my depression was getting better over these past few month, i have a loving s/o, my grades went up, i’ve been talking to friends more and my social life was great. but the snow started melting and it started getting nicer out and my happiness just had a sudden drop. now i feel like all i want to do is to be left alone, just to sit there in silence. im not the type of person to fall asleep in class, since i dont feel comfortable falling asleep around big groups of people, like a classroom. but these few weeks ive been falling asleep everyday and ive just been so tired. everything feels so draining. my friends and teacher have been asking about my mental health, i’ve been getting  a lot of “are you okay” these past few days.. i want to be honest, but i just dont want people knowing that im a sad sack of shit. i usually sleep around 2-4 am school starts at 8:25. i have no problem running off low hours of sleep but everything changed over the course of a week. i rarely get happy and when i do its 99% when im talking or around my s/o. but when im not everythings so dull.. honestly, it feels like all my happiness is depending off that one person. it sucks, i dont want them to feel like my happiness is their responsibility. ive been thinking more about suicide lately, last night i was going to overdose. but i couldnt find my tylenol, but i just dont know if i really want to die. i do but i dont, everything is just so exhausting and draining. i dont know if i found the tylenol, wouldve i actually done it? what would’ve happened?? thats all my mine can think about atm…