I have crushing anxiety. The type that you can feel in your stomach. I feel sick, I'm sweating, I'm having intrusive thoughts 

"You're a failure"
"You're a disgusting mess"

I am absolutely wracked with guilt. For everything. Everytime I lost my shit and snapped at someone. 
Everytime I look at my bank and see the mess I've made. 

I have been going to therapy for 3 years and mentally I feel like the strongest I've ever been. I'm managing my emotions really well, I have been through a lot of grief and loss recently and I feel like managing it well. I'm being patient with myself. And dealing with relationships and putting boundaries in place. But the nightime anxiety .. it's killing me. Absolutely killing me. 

I'm trying all the tricks I've got... Listening to a radio talk show..and trying to engage my brain. I've been for a smoke, I've tried reading AITA but I can't focus. 

So I'm trying to write and see if it helps. So far it might be. 

Guys for those of you who suffer with this during the day too, how do you do if? I have so much empathy for you guys. I don't know how you cope. 

It's like mostly mental but my stomachs like a washing machine. And I keep getting a lurch in my stomach and then everything just crashes down on me and if comes in waves, it's awful. 

I haven't felt like this in so long.... Any words of comfort would be gratefully received