I love my new job so much but I feel like a lot of my coworkers undermine my work. I'm the youngest (20) and I'm not the smartest. I was in special ed but they don't know this. I suffer from really bad panic attacks and they know that because they've seen it. I've tried to not let it bother me but I had a super bad panic attack 2 days ago and I feel like word got around. 

I have one coworker though that never gives me a break. She's always horribly rude to me and bosses me around as if she's a manager. I've became a bitch to her before but I later apologized because It's a new job and I didn't want to risk it. She uses me being new to her advantage. I'm not always a nice person. I'm very blunt and I don't catch onto social cues well. I normally tell it how I see it.

Well today my sister came into my workplace. I work retail. She shopped around a bit since I was off I got in line with her. I have a discount and I thought it was for all family members but it turns out it was just for spouses and kids. This rude coworker was the cashier. She was so rude to my sister so I think my bitchy-ness came forward. I didn't realize my other coworker was watching. 

At the end of the situation I was made to look like a liar. I won't go in depth with that but that's how it turned out. As of right now the other coworkers just think I'm an anxiety filled little girl but I'm scared that my true colors will come out in front of everyone. I can be brutal.

I definitely put on a sweet girl act. I love my job so much and all my other coworkers even if they think negatively about me but if she keeps pushing me I don't know how I'll react. I don't want to lose my job but I can't control it in the moment.