I'm under a lot of stress these days which makes all my symptoms (bpd, ptsd, mdd, ednos) flair up. Life is getting unbearable and I'm at the point where I'm so overwhelmed that I want to give up. 

My mind is constantly racing with all the "bad stuff" and I can't manage it anymore. I know that pushing the thoughts away isn't helpful and journaling normally (dear diary, I was sad again today) just makes me wallow in my own despair. 

I was thinking about making some kind of flowchart or list that outlines some of my more common thought patterns. In theory it'll help me organize my thoughts and see what things are related but I'm worried that seeing everything on paper will trigger some kind of anxiety where I realize that I'm more fucked up than I thought.