[Rant/Vent] - Back in October, I left a physically abusive relationship. He received 5 charges and was only given probation due to having a lot of money in his family and being a military veteran. I’m still paying for this decision today. My kids and I have been homeless since. I ended up having to leave my job because he was showing up there to make me assist him during my time of trying to escape.I’ve tried to go back to college for nursing but had to drop due to my child’s medical conditions. We have been in two shelters, and have received an exit date for the current one we are in. I have no where to go. I’m on my second interview as a breastfeeding counselor in a local community action organization and they are in the process of calling my references. I even reapplied for college to consider social work, I just can’t find the motivation to pick classes. I was very very prepared and excited for the previous nursing program. I should be happy, but I’m giving up hope. My life is lonely and no matter what steps I take to get ahead, something happens. Since I’ve been in this shelter I’ve had to hide my children from users who are nodding out in the childrens area, my tire slashed for refusing someone a free ride, my phone stolen, and further emotional turmoil from watching various women fight and scream at each other. I’m starting to believe I have either PTSD or sensory issues due to my reactions to loud environments. I’m at my breaking point and I do not have friends or family who I am able to confine in. Everyone says it gets better but soon I’ll be in the car with my children. What is even the point anymore? Sometimes I find myself thinking maybe I should have just stayed and handled what I was handling before so my kids had a place to sleep at night.