I have a job offer for a medical desk job (no patient care) in a field I had worked before (in what seems like a lifetime ago). Starting back up after four years unemployed/SAHM is DAUNTiNG to say the least. My kid calls it “nervouscited”- nervous and excited at the same time. 

Three 12s/week. Late morning start, early evening return- I work best between 10a-midnight, so perfect hours. I feel like I can get out of bed for three days… offers full benefits from day one. Full tuition for me, almost full coverage for the hubs and the kids. I don’t HAvE to work… but it feels like something I could be really successful at and enjoy. The amount of pressure this could take off the family is huuuge.

And then the amount of pressure it puts on me is equally so. 

The good news- I keep telling myself the last time I had a job I was in a miserable marriage (now divorced) with an toddler/child (now 14), and had just been diagnosed (13 years ago)… so I struggled for literally a decade. It’s different now- and I can do this…! 

Right…? I can…? Right…? *insert cringe face here*