Hi Everyone.

This is my first time to reach out in a forum. Because I'm really afraid no one will respond to it or I'll just be ignored. But anyways here it goes... this is one question I'd like to discuss to those with BPD as well.

Did being diagnosed helped you? Or made things a lot harder?

For me - I'll say at first, it was a lot to take in. I felt damaged like I was an "item" with a factory defect. In our country, unfortunately, mental health is still an uncomfortable subject. And the people around me most probably would not believe me if I disclose this to them, even my family! So as of now only my SO and a really close friend knows. There was some sort of denial and confusion at the beginning, but it made a lot of sense, all the emotional instability, the breakdowns, my behavior, etc. It was just difficult to process and it was complicated to be who I am after that discovery. I did not exactly know how to respond to things, I am constantly evaluating every reaction I produce. But I think as of now, I am at a much more better state. I have learned how to lessen/regulate disruptive actions, my SO is not yet 100% able to understand the whole thing but I know he is trying and I am doing my best to keep him informed. I think in the long run it really helped to be diagnosed because I have a better understanding of myself and its so good to know that I am not alone in this. Reading around forums are very encouraging - I have BPD, and Adult ADHD but we are more than our diagnosis. We can be high-functioning individuals and we can accomplish so many great things too, just as long as we put our minds to it. It is very challenging living like this because we sort of like are in the "hard mode" but we are always striving, we may crumble and fall every now and then but as long as we're here, we should just keep trying. 

xoxo,
Kimmy