My FP and me are kinda close together but it’s been couple of months I’ve started to notice a lot of weird things in his behavior. Like, he knows I hate when he ignores my messages, or doesn’t give me any attention, makes me jealous on purpose. Everytime it happens, I am mad, which brings us to the point when I can’t properly control myself and in the end of the day I’m the one who says sorry. 

He knows I’m a borderline, in fact one of the few people who knows it. I told him so he could decide whether he wants to be my friend or not. He wanted back then. 

Now this friendship/weird kind of romance brings me only negativity. I feel he’s become aloof and distant; he ignores my direct questions and I feel like I’m left behind. 

Yesterday I realized I have just enough. Now I ignore him, though it brings me pain, I don’t want to continue it. I don’t want to spend time on a person who doesn’t respect me, even though a thought of leaving him forever makes my stomach to be on knots. 


Now, he texts me how much I am important to him so I need to stop “these bullshit tantrums”. (Just on case,  “bullshit tantrum” is my reaction to being ignored when I asked what’s going on between us which manifested as silent treatment ). 

I love this person, but I realize this love is twisted. His presence in my life gives me only pain. What should I do? Should I give him one last chance and explain the way I feel (done that at least 2-3 times), ask him to back off me or just dissapear from his life without explanation? 

Thanks in advance for any advice 