I got diagnosed with BPD traits recently. I'm fine most of the times but when I'm triggered it's living hell. The triggered state can last from hours to months. It's like full blown BPD in that state.

 I can go a month or maybe more without getting triggered. Does anyone else feel compeletly "normal" or perfectly fine for long periods of time?? Also sometimes I'd be fully triggered and having a major breakdown and then all of a sudden all of the pain disappears and I feel almost euphoric. Extreme changes within seconds. Like my brain just changed into another state and all of a sudden everything is okay and nothing ever happened and I feel good. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense. :(

Like I show no symptoms of BPD when I'm "fine" and have a high level of awareness+ rationality as well as a solid sense of self because of which I feel like my therapist doesn't acknowledge how extreme my phases can get. I feel invalidated. She didn't even tell me I had BPD traits until I asked her about it. I'm high functioning quiet type BPD and it sucks because no one can see my pain. I'm suffering all alone inside. No one understands what I go through. I don't have control over what I do in those states but because I'm rational and aware most of the time, no one understands that. I'm not trying to justify bad behavior by saying it's not in my control but it genuinely isn't sometimes. :((

Thoughts?