My loved ones will die one day, the USA (where I live) is falling apart, the climate is changing, and the prospect of all the grief that's to come in my life makes me want to end it right now. If I stop and think about it for too long, all of my life goals feel so anxiety-filled and painful that they might not be worth it in the end. IDK, ever since my mom's cancer returned, I've been thinking about how unfair and painful life is. Too many bad things happen to good people for life to be worth living. I keep wanting to die to avoid the pain I'll need to go through, and it scares me.