been going through this shit (depression, anxiety, never ending existential crises, purposelessness &amp; being an introvert) for like the space of just under 4 years (i’m 21 in a couple of months), and whilst it gets bad (and is still seemingly getting worse) the thing that has always pushed me away from attempting to end it all was a) the fear of failing and b) the fact that the thought of nothing coming after life terrified me. but the feelings i’m going through at this moment will just throw all those things out of the window. i don’t want to improve or live a ‘happy’ life, i just want to die.