The thoughts I have right now about no hope for my future, no way for my life to get better and the feeling of settling for this miserable life has got me to sit in front of a bottle of seroquel (3350 mg total) and after a quick google search I found out that I need double that . I can’t catch a break, even ending my life is not possible, I have literally zero control over what happens to me, suddenly the freeway seems like a nice place to walk through.