We've had a rocky on and off realtionship. We both have issues but a lot of it has to do with my (lack of) emotional control.

I am very paranoid in realtionships and have pushed him too far with my fears. At the same time, he's battling his own untreated mental health issues and hasn't always been the most supportive partner.

I maaged to find some xannies to calm me down, but I'm so so hurt that he was so cold and uncaring for me while I was in the middle of the episode, and once he found out I had taken a xannie, he decided that was a good time to tell me it wasn't working and he wanted it to be over.

I feel sick to my stomach and shaky. I don't know what to do.

I have 3 assignments due next week and I'm already freaking out about them.

I know it was my fault. I know I can't change it. Am i right to be angry at him even though I led him to this point?