I am depressed since august past year. I allready had a daughter then and my wife was pregnant with my second daughter. Because of the children and my wife i put on a mask and pretend everything is fine. My kids are young and must be happy and my wife shouldn't have to worry about me. For now they haven't noticed anything about me. But all the short nights, a frustrating job, and panic attacks make the situation worse every dagly.

 The only thing i would like is to stop working at my depressing job at the national post and start a own business in ecology(I am a biologist) but i don't have any money to do so. Also: money is allready tight and a huge tax bill is coming next month(6000 euros). 

I honestly see no positive outcome since i have no money, i don't know how to tell my wife we are going to be in financial problems. I don't know how to tell my wife about my depression. 

I know there is no solution, but i thank everybody that reads my story!