The only way I know how to do it is to shut off my emotions completely, which is really just me playing myself, I also can't do this forever.

I also basically completely skip the fun clingy step and jumping straight to devaluing and convincing myself that they don’t care so I shouldn’t either, which keeps me from having a crazy moment.

But I still end up constantly thinking about them and ignoring my hobbies. It also makes it easier for their personality to leech into mine. The only way I notice helps remedy this is to spend a lot of time alone, like days, in-between interactions, however it’s not necessarily realistic to be like sorry I can’t stay at your house like I normally do I need to completely forget you exist for days in order to remain myself.

I also fantasize about impressing them, and it takes up valuable brain power and space when I go to do my hobbies, it’s also not fun and affects my interactions with others. Do y’all heavily fantasize? I need to stop it doesn’t feel healthy.

I’m close to giving up on dating completely. However it’s not healthy to fix a situation by completely avoiding it. Living with bpd is hard and I just want to be happy.


How do y'all manage/cope/convince people that you really are normal?