I'm 21 years old and had dropped out of college when I was 18 due to not knowing what I wanted to do. I regret it a lot. I isolated myself from society and was mostly occupying myself in my room for 2 whole years. My communication skills and knowledge had decreased dramatically. I also noticed that since I do most things in English my native language skills got worse too. There are more things and it's all very embarrassing. I keep having regrets about the past and keep comparing myself to others around my age.

I'm back in school again and it's almost been a full school year but because of COVID not a lot changed and I was still stuck in my room. However after this summer break my internship will start and now that I'm busy with applying my anxiety is going through the roof. I'm very scared. I haven't had job interviews yet but I feel like I will mess everything up. Even if I get accepted somewhere I feel like I will only become a bother. I'm not sure if I should maybe explain my situation a bit so that they will be more understanding about why I am like this at 21.