I have had issues with rapid cycling depressive episodes my whole life (F16) but did not see a psychiatrist until around a year ago. the first one I saw put me on zoloft without screening me at all for bipolar disorder and zoloft made me have rapid awful moodswings and made me very impulsive (did a lot of hard drugs that ended up landing me in the psych ward). while i was in the psych ward i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder but my psychiatrist put me on 3 different mood stabilizers as well as wellbutrin as it was not an ssri antidepressant which my psych said may make me manic. after i was released from the ward i eventually stopped taking all my meds because i was smoking a lot of weed and my meds did nothing for me other then give me crippling anxiety. i continued to occasionally have very short ( &gt; 1 week) extreme depressive episodes in which i would feel intensive sadness and often planned suicide attempts which i never went through with as my episodes would end and i would feel fine again. i never had any obvious manic episodes. i began seeing a new psych that said bipolar 2 was a strong possibility but never gave me a diagnosis however put me on a mood stabilizer. new psych recently put me on a high dosage of wellbutrin and ever since i have had awful insomnia and racing thoughts, stupid plans that i never went through with. I have not seen my psych for 3 months due to poor scheduling and am currently extremely confused and dysfunctional. am looking 4 answers 😕 sorry for long paragraph it is 4 am and have I many thoughts rn.