
This is horrible and I hate that I do this, but I realize that sometimes when my friends/family express “weakness” or tell me one of their insecurities my brain will file them away, as if they were/could be useful to me in the future. 

I would never, -seriously never-, use their secrets and insecurities as a weapon but it doesn’t stop me from acting like they they are weapons against them. 

I think it’s because I never feel as though I’m in control in any of my relationships, I always feel as though the rug could be taken from under my feet at any minute and the other person will actively attack me. Knowing that I could genuinely hurt them back makes me feel as if the imbalance of power is a little bit more balanced. 

Does anyone else do this?