I mean, I'm unsure what I feel. I've felt so unproductive, uninterested, damaged, etc... for so long that I just naturally think I am depressed. It seems like the logical conclusion.

But then there's this part of me where I feel its just a feeling of anxiety that controls me. When I first got anxiety the feeling was strong. I had panic attacks, I needed medication, etc...I noticed the difference.

Now it feels like a blur. I no longer feel like anxiety is something that happens to me, I feel like its something I am. Its no longer there in the same way, its just there in everything I do.

It feels as though I have gotten so used to it or repressed it so much its manifested in everything I do to the point it feels like I am depressed but I don't feel depressed. I just act depressed.

Does that make sense?