I think I'm getting better. Yesterday my partner said something to me that made me very upset and I shut down. When he asked me if I was okay later on, I closed my eyes and took a quick breather and said, "I'm very upset right now and I don't want to say anything I will regret saying that might hurt you. I don't want to talk about this right now." Later on when I had calmed down a bit I reached back out, and we didn't really talk much about what had happened but I was a little bit satisfied. I hadn't said it as politely as I would have liked to but I'm trying to be grateful in knowing that last year I would have had a tantrum on the spot.

In five days I have a consultation to figure out changing my medication, hopefully for something better or just adding an anti-anxiety on top of what I'm already taking. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow as well, I started therapy and have been going regularly.

I've been trying to make some positive financial decisions with regard to my schooling. I'm making a lot of lists, I have a pad with two columns that says "to do now," and "to do later," and even if I don't accomplish a lot of the stuff on the list, having a set of tasks materialized in front of me makes it easier for me to think and focus and prioritize. I applied for a job and the interview went very well. I hope I hear back from them soon.

Things are really hard now so I thought I'd make a record of the positive things that have been going for me, even if I know it won't last forever. Anyone else have some good stuff they want to share too?