I've tried to  find psychiatrist or therapist keep getting bounced around and my episodes of anger and mania getting worse how do you control it. Im running out of walls and things to break in my house without being a problem. I don't want to scream because ill catch a case and I can't act on the hyper aggressiveness I feel from the people around me hurting me. 21m and I don't know how ill get another year of this. The people in my life shun mental health problems and don't want to deal with them to the point of treating me less than if I am not acting normal but what even is normal when you imagine violence on any and everybody you meet out of pure anger and feeling justified. I think im just losing the plot 😑