My partner and I are going on 7 years together. We have two small children, almost 3 and 1.5 years old. Ever since our second child came i have turned into a literal monster. My partner was so supportive and caring and all i did was tell him i hated him, hated the kids, couldn’t stand being here, that i wish theyd die, anything terrible and awful i could say i said it. I guess because i felt like i was drowning taking care of them by myself during the day. It got to the point that i pushed him so far away that he looked for an emotional connection with a long time friend of his. I saw the conversation and that was when he chose to let everything out about how he felt about our past year together and it hurt. I let this resentment from it build inside me and became so paranoid. I ended up reaching out to a friend of mine and hooking up with them, and also making a tinder and (not willingly) but still had sex with another person. he found out. He’s beyond mad and i cant blame him. im so upset with myself. i thought i was moving forward since i started dbt back in march but this all is so stupid and out of control. Im going to lose my best friend because i let myself self destruct this relationship