Today has been such a roller coaster; I've been so anxious I threw up, I've contemplated suicide, was elated and euphoric, sobbing uncontrollably, and had a period were I literally felt nothing, so much so I questioned if I have been making everything up. 

Right now I'm exhausted. 

I just feel at the whim of what ever mood washes over me. I'm not working at the moment, so I'm forced to observe myself and boy am I mess.