I (24F) have been dating my partner (26F) just shy of a year. We live together. Since we began dating she’s always told me about women she finds attractive and women who come on to her either being coworkers or ex partners. She’s flaunted of sexual experiences time and time again and towards the beginning her and I had an okay sexual relationship. I told her initially I’m not an envious person and her reasoning for over sharing these things is to make me jealous, which is definitely not healthy and I’ve asked for it to stop since and it has slightly.

A few months after we moved in together the sex faded and if I’d ask about why she would explain she feels comfortable that we are now living together and doesn’t feel the need to do it as often and her sex drive has never been that high. This is something I respected despite the contradicting statements and stories she’s made a point to tell me.

Last week however she disclosed to me she isn’t physically attracted to me due to my body type. Her preference is girls who have a flat stomach. This was incredibly hard to hear for several reasons- I have struggled with body dysmorphia since I was a kid but immersed myself in cardio&amp; hit workouts along with a very clean diet. I also struggle with two autoimmune disorders and a neurological disorder in which caused me to slow down on some days resulting in gaining an extra ten pounds before her and I even met(which I have since lost and about five pounds overweight for my height) I’m frustrated and can’t comprehend dating and telling someone you’re in love if you’ve never even found them physically attractive. I’ve had healthy and very rough part relationships and have never been told anything but complements about my body. I’m struggling how to potentially salvage and maybe how to moreso move on from this, as it has me feeling triggered constantly:(

Also to add to this the same evening I shattered my elbow- I have continued to do cardio to feel like I’m bettering myself but yikes this is rough to cope with