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20M I can't feel like I used to when I'm having sex or masturbating. I just feel so withdrawn from everything and just generally unhappy. I can't even fuck my girlfriend because I don't have a sex drive or even a desire to have sex. I hate it so much because I constantly worry that I didn't please her enough and now she's gonna leave because I'm pathetic. 
I just feel like a fucking loser, man. I moved from my hometown and I'm currently staying at my dad's house, which makes me feel worse because I get verbally berated constantly by everyone I live with and work for. I go to work and make absolutely nothing even if I work a full week. It feels like Im losing my fucking mind. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I honestly wish I had the strength to jump off the edge and end everything because I never felt like I was wanted. Osrs I just wanna fucking disappear