First: I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit.
Second: I'm sorry if this sounds sorta egotistical.

For context, I'm a 14 year old boy, I'm in my last year of middle school.

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt this need to be liked or admired by people, especially girls.
I always have romantic or sexual fantasies of me and female classmates, where they'd confess their crush on me and stuff like that.
I've gotten to the point where I have a crush on almost all of my girl classmates.

And these fantasies I keep having have gotten to the point where I want them to actually happen. (Including the sexual ones which idk how that would go since the age of concent in my country is 18)

At school I'm typically known as the "quiet kid", I'm pretty shy and quiet, I have a RB face, but I'm usually nice to pretty much everyone.

Most girls in my class are usually extroverted and nice.
I don't talk to them much but when I do I treat them normally, like I don't make it obvious I like them or anything, which is good.

However, in a way I don't wanna be a relationship.

I just wish I could feel loved by someone that isnt just a relative,  idk what I like so much about the simple thought that someone might have a crush on me.

Idk what to do and how to handle these feelings.
I just  feel lonely and sad that, as far as I know, no girls like me (or they could and i just dont know about it or smth)

So yeah I just wanted to vent.