 Now that I think about it, I have struggled with anxiety almost all my life. I am in my 18th year and anxiety and paranoia have taken different forms in all these years of my life. Each different form has been way worse than the previous one. At least, this is what I feel, I don’t know if that’s the truth. Although, if there’s anything that has stayed the same in all these stages is how impaired my brain becomes and how much damage these constant thoughts do. Sometimes all I want to do is get out of my brain, like escape it in a way. It’s like I just want to switch off for a moment and not think about anything or anyone. I feel this constant need to let go of thoughts and things I can’t do anything about because as they say, it’s the best way to get it out. But what pains me the most is that I can’t escape these thoughts, no matter how hard I try. They have so much power over my consciousness that they don’t let me relax even for a second; following me everywhere I go. They are all I can think about. I can’t talk to anybody about them because no one seems to understand. And the ones who do understand, do nothing but worsen that emptiness and paranoia. These are the moments that make me realize how truly alone I am in the world, how alone each and every one of us is in this world and how all we have is our consciousness and our minds; both of them are in constant battle with each other.  

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