So as a child and teen I suffered from depression and anxiety due to trauma that occurred and for the most part I have battled and overcome this myself. It’s only now that I look back in retrospect that I realise just how crippling this anxiety and depression really was. This has always had an impact on my relationships including with friends and potential lovers etc but as I have attended university in another country my whole sense of self grew so well but also I feel myself slipping. I feel like everyone around me affects me so much and I try my hardest to not care or to just rethink why I’m feeling that way but sometimes I cannot get out of my head. My mind repeats every single thing about  different scenarios and then I just am on a constant rollercoaster of feeling embarrassed and cringing at myself even though from other persons present perspective it probably wasn’t perceived the way I do ? It makes me sleepless sometimes and when my friends tell me it’s not worth my time and I’m doing the job twice by over thinking it, but I just cannot turn off. I have to beg and fight myself to please stop thinking about it. I’ll get to a point where I forget and then soemthing reminds me and I’m triggered back to those feelings. Has anyone else experienced this and if so what do you find helps ?