I’m 18 now, but when I was younger around 12-15 I was a terrible kid. Now that I’m older my past actions are eating away. I feel so guilty and resent who I was. But I can’t help the urges. I don’t want to keep living with this guilt of what i was. I have constant panic attacks, can’t sleep without thinking about who I was and how shit I was to those around me. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, I don’t want to constantly fall alseep to my body heating up and feeling my whole body pulsing with nerves and anxiety for who I was. Please someone give me advice. I don’t know how much longer I can go on