How do you do it?  How do you let go of the fear and let someone in?  How do you meet someone?  Is it possible for someone who isn’t fucked up and terrible to want to be with someone with BPD and actually stay with them instead of bailing when it gets real?  How do you not push people away?  I am scared to death of being alone for the rest of my life. I hate it so much. But I am also terrified of letting someone else in just to have them rip my heart out and ruin my life like my ex did...I feel like it might be better to just shut myself off from the world and just be alone forever, but I am so lonely. I guess the first baby step might be trying to make friends but I have always been shitty at that. I feel so lost. 