she's so extremely upset about it and I've been comforting her because her boyfriend doesn't care about her at all and now I'm in the same boat, boyfriend is checked out of the relationship. he also said he hopes i have a shitty fucking night (right before i work overnight).

i cried on the way to work and some guy called out to me and i almost got into an accident. i never wanted to die so much.

i'm too afraid of failing an attempt so i'll just hope and wait something or someone hits me. next time someone swerves, cuts me off, or runs a red, i'm not going to protect myself. 

i hate me. she's right. i also don't know why i care so much too. i used to never care.