I love meeting people, I love making new friends or at the start of a relationship I am my own dream girl. I am over the top happy, excited to constantly do things, I don’t have a care in the world! *Then* same thing every time! I start getting annoyed at all the little things they do, I can’t stand having to explain myself if I’m not doing well, I stop liking the things they like because let’s be honest I probably wasn’t all that into it anyway, and I start snapping at them. I just want them to leave me alone, or do I want new people? Or do I just want them to understand exactly what I’m going through but they never do? 

Or is it that I was so happy, so excited and felt so loved for a continuous period of time, that I’m desperately trying holding onto what I had hoping it will last, but it never does. Then I’m just, nothing.