This is a vent, there's really not much that can be done about it. Two days ago I met with my PhD supervisor and despite my best efforts I could not keep it together, I cried uncontrollably most of the meeting about how overwhelmed I was feeling etc etc. I have never done that before, I really hit a whole new low to no longer be able to suppress it in front of my supervisor. 

I have my confirmation next week (one year milestone). She talked me down a bit and I did feel better, we had a plan how to move forwards. She suggested I was burnt out and needed to submit my confirmation document next week and then take a week off to regroup. 

My schools monthly research meeting had some space open up and advertised people to present. She emails me and says I should do it. It's in less than a week and a half. I am just baffled. I didn't even know how to reply. I'm already completely overwhelmed to the point where I'm not sleeping, I'm staying up until 4/5am stressed out of my mind. I told her all of this and she seemed understanding, but now two days later she has given me something else (extra) to do?? I'm so frustrated and all of the anxiety I felt like I started working through in having a conversation with her has just come rushing back all at once. It felt like she was supportive and understood how overwhelmed I was, but now this just feels tone deaf that she would immediately suggest I do something extra. I don't see how I can take a week off now after submitting my document, even if I 'technically' take a week off I know I'll spend the whole week working on the presentation and stressed out of mind. 

:(