So I’ve been experiencing pain in my kidney area  for quite some time now, and looking up the symptoms online (yes, I know), it looks like - if untreated - I could go into renal failure. Then I would be able to deny dialysis and all that stuff and then I could just pass away peacefully, without the pain that comes with most sui methods. Doing it passively makes it a lot easier. 

I don’t have anyone, no real friends or connections, and I don’t like anything I’m doing right now or have any prospects whatsoever. I don’t see a future that I could be happy or satisfied in. This is the logical decision.