Hi, I will try to keep this as short as I can. I understand this isn’t probably the best place to ask for help so any subreddits recommended for this post will be appreciated :)

I went to Amsterdam 2 weeks ago, and obviously smoked and ate whilst I was there. I noticed saliva weed made me quite paranoid so I smoked Indica for the rest of the holiday and felt nice. Though me and my long term GF knew we needed to try edibles. So we did an edible making class and used 1.5 of %30 THC hash. (1.5 what? I can’t remember, Mg or G, all I know is, it was recommended for a stronger experience) 

Cutting short. We took the edible at night in our apartment. We took way too much but I have never had a worse experience in my life. I felt like my heart was exploding. I had no recollection of where I was. What Amsterdam was or even my Girlfriend.  Completely disassociated. Finally I sunk into the feeling and fell asleep. But I felt like I went around the world and back. Calling it a panic attack would be an understatement- though I have never had a panic attack before.

Since then I have had 3 experience just like it. Randomly. It honestly feels like someone is slipping edibles in my food. I don’t feel real, and neither does my surroundings, I get horrendously scared and horrible thoughts rush around my head uncontrollably.

Why does this keep happening? It feels really traumatising, I cant control it, and when I am not having an attack or whatever, I don’t feel right all day, I feel separate from myself and my chest is so tight. I feel like it now. I want to go back to feeling normal.    

What am I experiencing and how do I go back to feeling normal again?