I’m 18 and I’m college. I enjoy being alone and I’m naturally an introvert, but I can’t be an introvert for too long, if that makes sense. 
Life lately has been lonely and tiresome. Everyone here has established friends while I’m stuck here with basically none. I don’t know how they do it. It feels like I don’t even exist, or like I emit some anti-friend repellent that keeps people away. I would love to have a girlfriend as well. Someone out of my bloodline who actually cares about me and comfort me whenever I’m sad/anxious. I swear I’m trying hard as I can to talk to people, I joined clubs and actively participate in class. I don’t know how much more I can do. I’m sick and tired of being by myself. I’m not suicidal but I feel like if I died suddenly, everything would still be the same. This just proves to me no one here values me. I feel miserable seeing people walk by with friends when I’m sitting here by myself.
Can anyone on here read this? Or am I invisible on the internet as well? If no one else sees this, it’s just another normal, lifeless day. Nothing different