I have a long history of anxiety &amp; depression. I moved countries a few years ago and have good friends but no family around me. I have been handling the pandemic alone and I am very scared. 

More than scared, I am anxious because, I guess like many others, I'm incredibly lonely because of social distancing measures which keep me inside a tiny studio if I am not working face-to-face (which also makes me feel very anxious but there is no option to change things at work). 

I often can't sleep, have nightmares and wake up with my heart racing. I am in regular contact with my family but the fact that I am in almost silence for 80% of the day is not helping my moods or my body.

Also, recently, I started to talk to a guy after years and years of being single. I really like him but some of his behaviour triggers my anxiety and its driving me insane. Things like leaving messages on unread from time to time, taking a long time (several hrs) to reply and stuff like that which makes me feel like I'm going to lose another person because I am not good enough. He knows I don't like waiting (and is a self-proclaimed poor texter) but he doesn't know why. 

 In my sane moments, I am totally aware the problem is me not him - it's obviously fine to be busy and not glued to your phone at all hrs of the day. I just wish I didn't feel my heart racing as I'm waiting even when I am actually working or have my own things to do. 

Lots of stupid things like what I have described above are making me feel irrational, and physically sick because my heart won't stop racing and my stomach hurts all the time. 

I try to breathe it out, listen to songs that  help me to feel calm on repeat, or a bit of yoga but nothing is helping. If you have suggestions or just some kind words to offer, I'll gladly take them.

Thank you