Hi guys! 

Been awhile since I've posted here, but I really need advice and support today. 

I live in Texas. If you aren't familiar, there is a new law that bans abortion after 6 weeks. It's super disgusting and doesn't carry any criminal penalties, rather it allows an citizen to sue anyone who even helped someone get an abortion. 

I literally cannot stop crying. I was *this* close to carrying my abusive boyfriend/ rapist's baby and that relationship nearly destroyed my life. I really thought I was over it. Today, I can't stop thinking about his hands on my body, about how smug he must feel right now knowing that I and the other women in his life have been controlled. I seriously want to vomit. I want to punch a hole through the wall. I want to crawl up in a ball and stare at the wall all day. 

What do I do? I can't calm down and I have work today. Even if you don't have any advice, some nice words would be super helpful. 

Thanks guys 😭