Lately I've been feeling really overwhelmed with emotions. And it's lead to me doing meaningless things to make me feel better, only to make me drained and empty afterwards. I've been hyper sensitive to a lot of stuff that never bothered me in the passed. I've been crying a lot, and I just want to be held while I cry. I've been interacting with people I have no business dealing with, just to not feel those overwhelming feelings. This isn't the lowest point in my life, but I feel pretty low. I just feel so lonely honestly.  

Is it odd that i just want to be held or hug in a silent dark room, not saying anything to said person? I just want human contact with no exchanged words or sexual intent. I even though about paying for this. 

I just feel like everyone I interact with isn't really worth it, and I'm better off alone, and I get the urge to ghost and go off the grid. I've been feeling really annoyed with myself and everyone. I just feel so confused, I don't know... It all sounds conflicting.