I just feel like I have zero social energy, ever. I used to be such a talker. Whether it was a surface-level conversation or a deep, psychoanalytical one with someone I was really close with…I loved conversation. Honestly, it was the thing that made me feel most alive.

Now, I just…don’t care. It started off with the surface-level stuff. If there was a basic conversation going on, I just had nothing to add anymore. It was frustrating, but I could still count on the fact that if needed, I could have a deep, fulfilling conversation with someone if I wanted to.

Then slowly, I lost that too. My best friend and I used to just ramble for hours about the most obscure, interesting, deep stuff. Now, I just have nothing to add. Nothing. It’s like I’ve run out of thoughts, and I just don’t care about any conversation I encounter.

Which, first and foremost, makes me feel horrible. It makes me look like a bitch who doesn’t know how to be serious or empathetic.

I just feel like any time anyone talks to me about literally anything, all I want to do is lie down and cry. But I can’t do that either, even if I try.

I don’t know when this is going to end.