So basically my entire life my parents wanted me to be a musician. They took me to classes and etc and wanted me to do them and stuff forcefully. I didn't enjoy it 100% of the time and it wasn't for me. But as time goes on, I liked music a lot and wanted to produce it. I did found enjoyment in that but it made me depressed and I wasn't really good at it because of previous experiences and bullying at the time. I enjoyed computers and things like that when I was younger. All the time trying to learn Windows 2000's by myself and I was the only one in the household using the PC at a young age. I feel like I took a turn in life where I didn't want to go but now I feel it's apart of me but I really choose not to be apart of that life due to the circumstances. How can I accept my fate that this isn't good for me? That I don't want to be a music producer and it's just cope.