I can’t for the life of me tell if my girlfriend actually sucks or if my own brain is making her seems like she does. Every day her words rub me more and more wrong, and it seems like every day she strays further from being nice to me and caring for me…

Or maybe she isn’t? Am I blocking out the good things she says to me to fit my own sick narrative? I can’t tell!! I don’t fucking know and it’s driving me crazy.

And I also don’t want to talk about it with her because i’m scared to be the type of BPD everybody is ‘scared’ of??? and i don’t want to throw around accusations that, who knows, IM making up, so i’m literally at a loss and it’s making me sick.