I don't want to live anymore everything is so hard everyone around me is so much better at everything than me. I hate feeling like this. I don't have any impressive talents or personality or anything that sets me apart everyone has friends except me why can't I make friends I hate that I'm a woman and going bald day by day, my face is getting fatter I feel so unattractive it's awful and I am incapable of sharing my problems with others I feel like such a burden and I hate everything specially because things might look really nice from the outside and people would never guess I'm suffering so much 

I hate how my brain works I just want to be good at something and feel proud about myself

I want this to end I want to end my life so bad I don't want to live with so much struggle every fucking day