Title. Looking to see if anyone relayed 

I do think I could be a good mom, even with this disorder, I do. I have experienced stability, and I have no doubt great bipolar parents exist. 

But my grandma was bipolar, my dad is bipolar, I am bipolar. I think of the pain and rejection that I go and that they have gone through through and I am so fearful of whether it’s ethical to intentionally have a child just to risk having another human being go through this. It sounds awful but I wish my father had thought the same way prior to having children, and I don’t want to have a child left wondering why they were put here with a highly genetic disease the same way I do