So I came with a friend on vacation to another country and I’ve been struggling with wanting to push him away as soon as our vacation ends and we go back home. I mean like end the friendship and never speak to him again.

He’s done nothing bad to me. On the contrary, he’s a good friend and a good person. That doesn’t stop me from wanting to push him away. I feel like I don’t deserve his friendship and that he would be better off without my friendship and me in his life. Also I want to end the friendship first before he ends it to avoid being hurt like I have in the past.


I know it’s not right. My mind keeps thinking “Fuck him. He’d be better off without me. I don’t need him in my life anyways.” I want to tell him that I don’t want to be friends anymore once we return home.