About 13 years ago i was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder. I haven’t had an episode in 3 years until recently. My ex boyfriend of 4 years dumped me over a phone a on Monday. Now here’s where the shitty part comes in. 4 months ago i noticed that he was acting different. Like his texts were not the same, he wasn’t affectionate, he didn’t get me a birthday or Valentine’s Day gift..he was just different. I overthink BIG TIME so me being me would ask him if everything was okay. He would get mad like SUPER mad saying everything is okay, if he wanted to break up he would just come out and say it and for me to stop asking. My overthinking got so bad i had an episode. I didn’t tell him i went to the hospital because of it. Fast forward to Monday. He like “I’m going to work ❤️❤️ i love you❤️❤️” 5 mins later he calls me and is like “I’ve been thinking about us. You were right. I was just trying make it work” HE LIED TO ME FOR 4MONTHS. HE GASLIT ME INTO THINKING I WAS CRAZY. So here we are on the phone I’m bawling my eyes out while he’s trying to apologize and then he had the audacity to say “we can talk about this tomorrow” like EXCUSE ME?! i told him no because i didn’t want to hear him breaking up with me and it would hurt more. You know what he said?! “Well that’s what I’m doing right now” FFS! What’s the point in talking in person then?! Anyways im at another breaking point where i just want disappear. I haven’t eaten even though my body is telling me too. I deal with the sickness i feel due to not eating. I finally took a shower today but hated it. Im going to school to be a teacher and I’ve already missed assignments because im so depressed..