Of fucking course they do. It just hurts so badly and nothing makes it better. I’d rather have anything other than this disorder. Even when I’m doing okay I know that I’ll have an episode again and feel worse than anyone’s ever felt in their life. I just want to hurt someone so they stay with me tonight but I know I shouldn’t. It hurts so fucking much. I just don’t want to exist anymore. I never want to feel like this again. Everything FUCKING HURTS.