My FP and I were romantically involved with each other but I cut things off because I felt like it would be better for me in the long run. It’s been one of the hardest things I’ve had to do I’ve never been romantically involved with my FP and I didn’t want it to stop. But it needed to happen. 
One of the reasons I decided to end things was because he’s very weird about me meeting his friends he wouldn’t ever let me hang out with them when we went to a show or anything like that. It rubbed me the wrong way. 
I made the mistake of introducing to him to one of my friends (who also has borderline) and I watched as he got the stupid sunglasses emoji on Snapchat (meaning she was on his best friends list) I told my friend that I was having a freak out about it and she told me that I came first, he had taken some interest in her but she knew my relation to him and decided to not continue it because she knew it hurt me. She took him off snap chat for me. 
My crazy BPD ass knows that me and the boy had seven mutual friends on Facebook (I just checked a few days ago) and tonight when I went to look we suddenly had eight, they’d become Facebook friends. I freaked out on her again and I’m sure she’s tired of my shit I told her I was gonna take some space but I feel awful. She promised me she’s not talking to him but because of my last relationship I just don’t believe her. 
I feel anxious and I wanna die. I shouldn’t feel like this over something so small right?