I'm a senior in high school and I'm doing the fun task of deciding what to do for the rest of my life. I'm so unbelievably stressed when looking at the time and cost of my career path's required education when I'm not even sure if that's what I want to do. I feel so pressured to rush into such a huge commitment and investment and in my moments like this I feel like I have no one to turn to. I'm a few years clean of SH and I don't struggle as much with suicidal ideation, I'm able to remain "not sane but not insane" in stress. I used to have lots of friends I could see frequently and a few I could open up to, but now isolating is just my normal. I have friends either far away that I see rarely, new friends I'm not open with or old friends who I can't seem to talk to anymore. I want nothing more than to lay on a couch with someone to hug and comfort me, but I can't find that without starting a romantic relationship- that's a whole other problem for another day.

This is mostly a rant or tangent but I still have the question; do people really just have friends they can go up to and say, "I feel like shit, can we hang out and cuddle?" and if so how do i get that type of relationship with someone?