She first mentioned this a few sessions ago, and then brought it up again today. I didn’t even realize I did this until she mentioned it a few weeks ago. And then today I was explaining current issues and how they relate to past childhood trauma and she said, “I am noticing you are emotionally distant from what you’re explaining to me.” and of course we delved into that but now I’m totally in my head about how I’ve been emotionally distant my entire life. 

My mom has severe bipolar mania so I’ve grown up with a mom who adores me some days and hates me on others. And that’s just the quickest I can sum it up, there is so much more. 

She said it is a coping mechanism to be monotone and distant when speaking about serious events. 

Does anyone else experience this? Aside from delving into more in future sessions, where the fuck do I go from here?