I have my first boyfriend (F28) and we have sex pretty regularly - 2-4x/week. Sometimes I'm super into it, but only when it's from behind; if we're in missionary or I'm on top then I'm already "out," and sometimes even if we ARE in doggy I'm just - not there.

Not everyone wants to fuck all the time, but when he's more into it than me I hate him. I'm repulsed by him, the whole act seems grotesque, and all I can do is float my mind somewhere else until he finishes.

What makes me angriest is that he doesn't notice when I'm not feeling it - he doesn't have to read my mind, but I'm me and I expect him to.

Is anyone else disgusted by their partner's desire for them?