I'm living with people that are best friends, and they're trying to include me a lot which is very sweet. The problem is that they are very emotionally open, actively working through their trauma, seeking reassurance for mental health issues and all that. Which is great. But I do not trust those people to reciprocate that kind of openness personally, and they are best friends, and are always going to fundamentally care more about supporting each other, and I am cool with that! What I don't like is trying to give more emotional support than I have the capacity to give rn, and not really getting any in return. Hearing all this stuff triggers negative memories for me and then I have no outlet to express them, and then I am big sad. Obviously I can't stop telling them to be open, and it's not that I don't want to feel included in the mix. So I really don't know what to do, to make this into something that hurts less.