Just had another panic attack. I was laying in bed, eating cereal and out of nowhere it hit me. I’ve been struggling with anxiety since the beginning of 2020 and I’m just so sick of it. I jumped in the ice cold pool and tried to control my breathing and took a video of my own panic attack. I want it to be the last fucking one I ever have and be able to look back and see how much I’ve progressed in my mental health journey. 

I’ve bought my first house with my beautiful girlfriend of 7 years. We opened a successful coffee shop. Overcame some huge obstacles. I’m doing everything I dreamed about before my anxiety but I feel like I can’t take a step back and enjoy it. I get stressed out over the smallest things.

Sometimes I just want to walk into the woods and just fucking yell at the top of my lungs until I can’t speak anymore. 

I’m taking action to end this fucking horseshit and get back to my old self. Going to run or lift before I open the shop tomorrow, meditate after, get some nutritious food, and fucking win the day.

To all my fellas out there going through the same thing, we’ve got this shit.