This girl I've known for a week (from Canada) hardly talks to me, I msg her too much tho, but she posted a story yesterday and today of her in physical contact and smiling with another guy, she isn't mine, so I have no right to be pissed or sad about that, but it does sadden and anger me a bit, the only thing she sent me today (I didn't message her today, a first) was a snap photo written "streaks," it had sweet dreams in it so I don't even think she meant it for me and sent it to multiple people, cause I'm in Australia, and it wasn't near sleep, unless she was sleeping, oh fuck who cares, but she just read it and didn't say anything, as usual, I have literally no other social contact aside from my fucking grandparents who I live with, I avoid other social contact for some reason, just in my room all the time, and the thought which promoted me to post this was, at 7pm, I thought, in my lonely/sadness, "just 4 or so hours without her until I can sleep," I don't even know if she will try to interact with me again, I hope she tries to start a convo, she said she didn't have a bf. I'm just gonna accept this deep, deadening lonely feeling, and try to follow the rules I made yesterday to live
- self-confidence
- my 999 (JuiceWRLD said 999 flips the beasts number over so it's turn your hell upside down), and my life, I'm worried about me, not others now, I'm important too. 
- true to self, true to them