I’ve been feeling very lonely lately, nobody cares about me. All of my “best friends” only last about a year or so then they ignore me. I haven’t had a girlfriend in 8 or 9 years. I am convinced that “I only want to be friends” or in the case of a woman I was friends with and was told she liked me ”I value our friendship” just means I only care enough to let you down easy but not enough to friends anymore. It might be tmi but I haven’t been horny in months I’m just too depressed (keep in mind I’m a 22 year old male). I’ve been told I’d be a great husband and dad but nobody seems to want to be in a relationship. I’m extremely awkward especially around women. I have some nerve and brain damage from when I was little(Long story short I had a sinus infection when I was about 1 1/2 years old and my immune system attacked my brain) I was on A LOT of steroids during that so I have a pretty small penis (again sorry for the tmi) which is one of my many insecurities. Lastly I have decided I’m not going to kill myself but if by chance I end up in life or death situation I’m ready to go 

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense I’m a little drunk right now… I’m pretty sure I’m an alcoholic