I'm at the point of a breakdown again. I feel valued only when others show interest in me. Why am I incapable of loving myself man. 

I feel like people hate me once they get to see me lashing out losing my shit. I'm not that person. I feel like wanting to explain that and be included. Most of the stuff is in my head but it hurts like it's real. I feel so lonely. Why can't life be easy 😭