Im not sure if this is the right thread to put this under, idk if this is considered anxiety or irrational fear, ocd or the warning signs of psychosis evolving
The other day i saw a spider in my room. Keep in mind, i saw a jumping spider in my room a while ago. And i didnt sleep in my room for a whole month. Maybe even longer?
A couple days ago i saw another…
But this time im 90% sure it was a northern black widow. I saw the back of it and it was black with white spots on it, and a HUGE ASS. It was all crumpled up so i poked it with a pencil. It was in fact alive. It stood up abruptly . I screamed and ran to my brother to kill it, he picked it up with a napkin and flushed it,i was too frantic to tell him not to flush it so we could figure out what it was
Well i was curious as to what kind of spider it could be so i searched black spider with white spots. It didnt look like the writing spider, or anything else.
I came across a match. But my excitement of finding a match quickly faded as i read the name of the spider.
I lost it. I went to my moms room crying and she refused to listen to me so i called my dad. They all told me it was nothing and it probably just came in on my dog. I calmed down but it didnt help much.
When i sleep on the couch i vigorously shake off my blankets from my room so i can make sure theres no spiders on it

Its become a part of my routine to also shake off my pillows and take them out of the case, but tonight while i was shaking them off something occurred to me.. what if there was spiders in my pillow. Now i cant use my pillows because all i can think about is spiders being in it. I also heard a story about a guy that woke up covered in them because there was a nest in his pillow and a bunch of spiders hatched.
Im terrified.
I cant sleep without a pillow and my first day back to school is tomorrow and its super late. I dont know what to do. I cant sleep and this is greatly exhausting me. I couldnt even use my favorite blanket since its grey and if one of the spiders is on there I wouldn’t be able to see it.
What should i do to make my life normal again??? How do i overcome this?
Please help