In my mind everything has a connection. I am always “traveling” in between the past, present and future. So example my mom complimented me on something than a week later said a comment that was negative about the same subject. 

So I’m like you just negated what you said last week. She said she isn’t. I’m like so which comment did you really mean. Every interaction with someone I must scan my brain for the past interactions and their body language, facial expressions and tone and compare it to what they are doing that moment. 

I’m always doing calculations of if they really like me and whether they will say yes or no to my request. Or if they are going to compliment or scold me.

I don’t forgive easily in other’s people opinion. In mind I’m guarding myself and not being a fool. You know the shame on me logic?


How do you bridge the gap?