Hi so um I’m having a fp issue.

My FP just so happens to be the safeguarding lead. Anyway I’ve recently gotten close to a girl who had mh struggles although very different to mine. I just found out that today she saw my fp and I’m low-key freaking out bc I’m scared that my fp now hates me and prefers her or has forgotten about me altogether. It’s literally her job to talk to other people but I still sort of feel this intense anger burning inside me. And I want to do some ‘risky’ things to get back at her now and idk why bc she’s done nothing wrong. The things to get back at her only affect me though so I can’t find the logic but to by borderline brain it makes perfect sense.

So what I’m asking is am I a terrible person for being so affected and angry by this? If someone else was in my situation I’d say absolutely not but bc it’s me it feels different bc I’m a terrible person anyway lol