I'm having a tough time recently and just want to talk about it even if no one will ever read it.
I just "married" to a person I think is the one, but my nationality is making it really difficult to let me actually stay at his country and register our marriage here too, I hate my country and my parents to the point that if nothing works out I would rather die than going back, but then the younger me was so stupid and naive that I don't have my birth certificate with me when I when abroad, which makes me really worry that if I actually have a chance to stay with him and have a life or everything is just gonna break down, and that thought keeps me up at night...I really regret a lot of what I've done and what I could've done, but now all I want is just have enough luck to at least have a life of my own istead of trying to live the life my parents want to me hvae, I'm really unstable recently. 
I'm sorry for anyone who stumbled upon this post, and I'm also sorry if this post made you angry, I'm just some random guy posting my problem online, and I hope you can have a better time than I'm having right now