This has been a terrible, terrible secret I've had to deal with for too long. Ive been in and out drug and alcohol rehabs, spent 8 out of the last 14 months in treatment. Still here. Residential, counselors work here. 

For all this time, ive been debating - do I tell them I'm bulimic? Because: I live here and they could watch me and that's uncomfortable, embarrassing, no confidentiality so all staff will know, probably extend to residents. And I binge too.

But mostly -- I don't want to get kicked out or sent away to a facility specifically for Eating Disorders. There's one back nearby, but I don't want to do that, I can't let my family know. I'm at a crossroad. Because this is the shit that eats me up, controls my life. I need help. 

Eating disorders and drug addicting go hand in hand, I've told them I binge.. I think they may know, I've said some things... But I will only talk to my one counselor about it. I have a history with her. I don't let people in. I've got my armor on and a wall up. It's bad.

It's gotten out of control again. I dont know where else to ask, I need someone that's been through it.

Will I get kicked out?!