This is extremely difficult to get off my chest. This is my problem that has been bothering me for years. I am too scared to tell my therapist because I don't want to be laughed at. I am going to finally say it out loud and to attempt to end this once for all. I keep thinking about things in the past that happened. When I was in high school, I was being mistreated by my peers and teachers in high school as someone who is "mentally retarded" and "slow". I kept asking my peers questions like "what is the meaning of life". Please don't tell me that these are not dumb questions, I really don't want to hear that. I ask even dumber questions like "Am I weird?". 








I keep doing the same things and asking stupid questions all the time. I do the dumbest shit. When I was younger, I used to be talking to random strangers on the street about my problems because I had nobody else and I was gullible. People keep laughing at me and I want to stop it. This has gotten so bad that people have said that they would rather kill themselves than have a life like mine and the same experiences. I don't mean to ask it on purpose but I keep saying and doing dumb things too much. I think that I have a neurological issue with my brain that causes me to do this.This is why I can't talk to people. 











This is why I can't socialize normally. Imagine being in a place where the whole group of people think that you are mentally challenged and bully you mercilessly because of it. I mean the students, teachers and staff. This happens because they keep gossiping and spreading rumors to everyone new around you that you are an idiot and are special needs. They also will make fun of you. My therapist is going to lie and say it's not stupid. This has been killing my self esteem for years and I need help badly.


This is a serious post so can you please provide answers and take this seriously because it's been bothering me for years.