I hate being sober because that means I have to come face to face with my problems. I hate the feeling of wanting to rip off my skin or wanting to jump in front of traffic. Being tipsy or drunk makes me feel relatively comfortable and normal. I’m not in constant pain. I can sleep easily. I have no worries on my mind. I wish that I could constantly have that feeling without destroying my body. But unfortunately, that’s not how my life work. I’m coming to my wits end here. I’m tired if having constant mental breakdowns.