I don't even want them to love me. I just want to be with them so I can be happy (at least that's what my sick brain thinks.) I search for every picture they have or are in and print them. I also carved their name on my stomach really deep. 




But still, we never talked. I just know everything about them. I just want them in my life really bad... and I already have a partner but we're in a polygamous relationship and it gets weird because they can't touch me there or I can't even lift my shirt without hiding