I (late 20s F) have always been terrified of childbirth. I have tried therapy on several occasions, but this has only made my fear worse. That being said, there's no need to overcome it when so many kids already exist and need a loving home by way of adoption.

I have spent my early 20s building my education/career so I can afford to provide a child with a happy, comfortable home as a single mother one day. I have dated a bit, but 3 of my 4 serious relationships have ended over the fact that I detest the idea of being pregnant, and never want to give birth.

This week I broke off the best, healthiest relationship I have ever had because my now-ex (mid 20s M) wants his own biological kids, and I am not willing to go through pregnancy. I am not even able to cope with someone poking me with needles to get my eggs for a surrogate pregnancy.

While I am sad to lose another opportunity at a life with a loving partner, I am also at peace with the fact that I will likely go through life single. I am even happy knowing that I can move forward with my plans to adopt in the next few years and provide a family to a child who might not otherwise have one.

If anyone has advice on selfcare while I am going through this breakup, or how I can be a better single mom to an adopted child in the near future, I would appreciate your input. Thank you!

P.S.: I don't online date, so no point in suggesting I put my preferences for adoption on my profile.