My ex partner has been pulling away a long time before we split, and he said that he started to give up when I asked for a break a few weeks ago. However, I've felt like he has been cold and distant for a lot longer. 
He was only affectionate when we saw each other in person, and that occured less and less frequently since the start of the year. He said that I was pressing him to love me but whenever I tried to give him space, he said he wished I wasn't pushing him away.
He dropped all of my things off yesterday and it makes me very sad because it feels like I'm mourning this relationship a lot more than he is. It hurts that I don't hate him. It hurts that all I want is for him to hold me and tell me that it will be okay. But it sucks a lot more that I know he will respond immediately and eagerly if my message involves sex. 
I feel like I had true love and pushed it away so hard that the person I love so much now only resents me. I check for messages almost instinctively and my heart breaks a little more when there's none or just a cold reply from him. To make things worse, I can't distract myself because I'm isolating which has magnified my emotions.