I'd say over the past year, I stopped having an fp. To be clear, I didn't just decide to be in the initial situation, but I suppose it's worth where I am today. I don't feel any type of way when I'm spending time alone, when plans change, etc.. I just enjoy my relationships for what they are and be. I had to spend a lot of time alone unvoluntarily... but I still enjoy many small things it took me months to bother trying after being in a especially awful episode. Hopefully this can remind someone there is something beyond feeling despair