i just want to fucking die. i just want to FUCKING DIE. i can’t do this shit anymore, i’m so tired of it. i’ve explored every possible treatment, all kinds of medication, all kinds of therapy, changing my lifestyle, i’ve done all of it. i’m still not happy. i still hate myself. i hate everyone and everyone hates me. i don’t want to get all of those fucking pity comment “please call lifeline, i’ve been in your position it gets better i promise” fuck off. you don’t know me. fuck everybody. the only thing is that i don’t have the guts to do it, i still have that caveman instinct and drive to stay alive. i’ve tried so many time, knowing in the back of my head that it probably wouldn’t work. i hate it. i hate everything. i want to fucking die. i want to fucking DIE. people say they’re your friends but put you down and ensure their superiority at any chance they can get. fuck everybody. i fucking hate everyone. i hate myself for not being happy, i wish i could just be normal and not be so affected by the flaws of the world and society but i can’t. i’m not normal. i’m fucked. i see myself in the mirror and all i see is a body. a vessel. it’s not me. i do not recognise this person, i hate her though. i hate her so much. if anyone in melbourne has a gun and has homicidal urges and just wants to pop a cap in somebody, message me.