I am studying abroad and I’m studying in my 4th language, I don’t know the language perfectly that’s why I don’t feel confident speaking in it. I avoid breakout sessions as much as I can, because I hate them, I don’t want to talk so they won’t think I’m stupid or something.

I have an upcoming presentation in a week. I’m so anxious about it that I can’t sleep at night and I get paralyzed and can’t do much throughout the day. I don’t want to do it, it’s not graded, it’s a voluntary thing. But everyone keeps telling me that I should do it and it’ll be seen as nothing afterwards. Well they’re wrong, the same thing happened last year, I gave a presentation and no it didn’t feel good, I still think that I shouldn’t have done it. 
 
So why should I do it? Why should I make myself go through the misery?