My responsibilities..
- work full time
- cleaning/taking care of 2000sqft house
- going to appointments on free days

I just, I’m usually negative about my job so I tried to be positive this last week and not complain or vent over dumb things that are a big deal. Last night I could not sleep at all. I thought about the bills I had to pay, paperwork to file, cleaning I need to do, laundry I had to do. 


I just.. my brain wouldn’t shut off. I took a bath and I felt like I was starting to fall asleep so I got up to go to bed and could not for the life of me fall asleep.

I keep thinking of myself as “lazy” in a way, so I pushed it more into overdrive this last week with not complaining, doing the dishes and cleaning right away. It sounds silly but I think this was a lot for me. I pushed myself to take morning showers instead of night showers so I had to be up 1.5 hours earlier this week too. A free day I had off I spent grocery shopping and going to a doctors appointment.

Is it weird that I need 1 day per week to literally do nothing and see nobody or I get overwhelmed?