I'm facing a possible diagnosis of bipolar and in some ways it makes sense but in others it seems off 
  
It came about because I just have tried so many anti depressants and it doesn't work I just get really dreadful if that makes sense feeling like the edge of a cliff and I just happened to mention it'll be like weekends go by I just sleep then I'm up again and having a great time but I just start getting anxious maybe about the strangest things, that people can hear my thoughts or that I ran someone over and forgot or I swear Ill hear people talking about me which is impossible they're not even there it's very frustrating because how can I trust myself like this 
  
My previous therapist said I go to work every day and I have a great job so whatever my problem is not really affecting my life which is true 
   
It's like really, I'm fine, until I'm not I know I'm quite moody in the brooding way but maybe it's normal 
   
I told my friend and she said bipolar that just doesn't seem like you I've never seen you get angry or flip and it's true I've probably never said a harsh word to anyone I think I come across as very charismatic when I'm frustrated I just scream in my head and not out loud and when I'm having a mood I just really don't interact so
   
I'm just sort of scared I'm making it up and there's actually nothing wrong with me because I know most people are moody, maybe this is just normal and I know normal doesn't really exist 
   
I have another appointment with a behavioral health specialist so perhaps they'll figure it out but then again I'm quite scared of going because what if they mark me as something that can't be undone 
  
Sorry for the confusing post and thanks for sharing your experiences