Shit, this hurts as fuck. Im having mental breakdowns. I did so much for his birthday, he cried out of happiness. Worked so much to be able to afford that. That was a month ago

He told me to fuck off. That Im cheap for asking him how can he leave me a week before my birthday. He told me to have some dignity and accept it.

I fucked up by asking for more attention and affirmation (its common for us but he would react brutally) and he just left me. I never told him a bad word for these 2 years.

I dont want to wake up to my birthday. I want to die before it. I see no way out...