I’m in therapy right now and trying to work on myself and work on being myself but it’s so hard. I grew up having a hard time making an effort to keep friends, especially as over time I felt that people thought i was annoying, i was told i was annoying by my dad, brother, and a lot of times in middle and high school when i was just trying to be myself. It makes it hard to want to make friends because I’m scared that I’m going to annoy people and that’s the last thing that i want. it’s usually in my overthinking i think that annoys people. but i can’t help it, it’s just. a part of who i am—i think a lot. and then if someone treats me like i am annoying now or says it, all i want to do is isolate myself forever and stop trying. it makes me feel worthless. like i can’t be myself because me as a person, is annoying.