i suffer from 4 mental illnesses, none that cause me manic/psychotic episodes, just ones that make me extreeemely depressed and anxious. however, my therapist thinks i probably suffer from many more, which I agree with. im also studying psychology so i know a lot about what these disorders entail.

i have heard that some people benefit from mental hospital stays because they get official diagnoses, as well as get to try different meds, and also meet others who are "as mentally ill" as them, you could say.

i was wondering, is it okay for me to go just for a few days? i absolutely do not want to take places away from people who need urgent help. however, I have felt like ive needed to escape for a long time, and I have had many therapists, tried many meds, none of which ever did anything for me. i only get worse every single day and death is the only thing i think about. i was thinking maybe it would help me to talk with other people or try getting a different kind of help. 

i don't want this to sound like i wanna go for fun, I have heard many stories of how traumatizing and horrible they can be. although i am very suicidal and do self harm sometimes, I dont think im actually in danger of doing anything really bad.