
I'm 14 my birthday is in July and my life feels like it's stopped each day is worse then the last my loneliness just keeps getting worse every time I see someone who has friends or a partner and I'm just alone I've tried making friends but I'm just not good enough at socializing and it hurts so much I've spent the last three years shut in while everyone else is having experiences and these 14 years of life of mine has been wasted these were the years I was supposed to live and grow make mistakes and grow but I haven't hade any of that I I lost all my friends because I was scared the fear of being responsible turned me into a recluse I shunned every responsibility everyone in my life has grown and and changed but I stayed the same and all I can do now is start and try to do better all my friends grew up without me and now my only wish is that I could've grown up with them.