so what exactly is the meaning of life. I'm sat here with my child infront of me playing on the floor wondering what my purpose is. I've been told for years that my purpose is being a mother but what is my life outside of this. from the age of 16 I have been a parent and that was my identity. now they are older that want to live with their dad and after my breakdown it was the best decision for everyone. but now I am in recovery from a crisis I've never felt so more without a purpose. my partner left and is moving on with some new like I never existed and my children are happy and secure with their dad and then there is me. just trying to get through day by day but lacking any sense of purpose. I've listened to advice about who and what I want to be but I really don't know. I can't see a future with me in it and I really don't feel like I fit in with the world. maybe this is just another down day but I don't remember what true happiness feels like. 