Im 17 male right now and am set to turn 18 in May of next year and i have no idea what to expect, even right now im very confused about practically everything, confused about my career confused about the future and most importantly confused about my self, my mental state is a colossal brain fuck right now racked by self doubt, brain fog, depression among other things.

I dont have a lot of hope for myself but seeing things the way they are is extremely depressing right now, the world is descending into chaos, wars, killings and the threat of nuclear armageddon, this is the world im expected to like in for the next 50 or so years, im not sure im gonna hold out that long, what really doesnt help is reading posts of people from subreddits including this one who say that they're going to take their own life, when i read about the state these people are in and compare it to myself it really scares me that mabye i'll meet the same fate one day.

Im alone, confused and have no idea where im going or what im going to do, from next year i'll be expected to start enrolling into colleges or start working but how the hell am i supposed to do that even. i cant even think straight or form proper thoughts that may help me or find a way out but instead i look at adulthood waiting for me in hardly a year and it seems soo impossible right now, what am i gonna do? the amount of expectations i have will probably double from next year and fuck knows whether i'll be able to hold out or not, it feels like im running in circles with no way out, i just dont know