Does anyone else feel like they just can't function on that high level like they used to?  


 Mania and depression aside I used to be an honors student and be great at maths and write essays and remember things. I feel like since my psychosis episodes my memory  has been shot to hell. I can't sleep like I used to. I wake up to pee and my brain wont let me go back to sleep. I'm taking OTC sleep aids and they do nothing. The meds i've taken also feel like they take a chunk out of my cognitive abilities also. I got him to put me down to 5mg Saphris. As time passes since my psychosis my thoughs have cycled less and I've recovered some functionality, but my s/o just doesn't understand and blames me for a lot of things. I honestly don't think I can take care of myself if we get divorced and that puts me in a bad spot. I also have sciatica and work a construction job which puts my mental health in a bad place. I daydream about living in a Buddhist monastary or insane asylum lately so I am not a burden on anyone. Lately it's the only thing that keeps me sane.