My ex decided a couple weeks that she wanted a break. This after coming back from a beautiful week holiday that I thought we had the best time. 

When she asked for the break I didn’t know what to think. She decided she wanted 2 weeks and we started it immediately. 

My emotions went into meltdown completely overwhelming me. Started thinking dark thoughts and self harming. As a coping mechanism, I shut down completely. Trying to take each day by day. 

She messaged 2 weeks later to see how we could reconnect but I was gone. I couldn’t deal with anything. A week later we met up and she accused me of being cold and not caring for her. 

I broke up with her because I don’t think she’s good for me but I am completely heartbroken.