Last night I struggled to fight a panic attack off, and today, I'm still fighting with it. I'm not scared of dying or stuff like that. It's the panic attack itself, more so, the feeling after it ends.

When I have panic attacks, especially exceptionally bad ones, I get trapped in this head space. Everything seems foggy and wrong, I'm constantly scared, I lost my appetite and sleep, and I have to work s o hard to feel normal again. But especially worst of all, this can last for months. My first panic attack took me half a year to recover from. My most recent one, just over a month.

I so desperately want to know what this is so I can fix it, but I've been searching for like years and have turned up nothing. 

My doctor keeps switching between putting me on buspirone and hydroxyzine, when neither work, and refuses to give me anything else.

Is there anything anyone can tell me, please