So I am trying to find info around BPD and logic or cognitive distortions. I find it hard to tell if my thoughts are logical or not. It leaves me in a constant state of not knowing how to make decisions and how to feel, so impulsivity and lack of reason rule everything from identity (lack of) to daily choices, jobs, activities/hobbies, etc. My life is a shell bcs of this (among other things). Even if I figure something out logically my emotions and responses to situations dont really change either.

I dont know much about BPD and I'm not officially diagnosed, but after reading through some BPD descriptions and how it can be misdiagnosed CPTSD, I'm pretty sure my long term personality pattern is more in line with BPD and CPTSD. So yeah today this thing about lacking logic and interoception makes me wonder if that is part of it - as this doesnt seem to be part of CPTSD. 

It tends to be why I end up in stupid or harmful behaviours and situations too. I usually have no idea something is wrong or unsafe until it has happened and I'm in front of my therapist.

Thanks for your insights 💩