I don't know why I'm posting here because everyone has their problems but I just can't take the heaviness of everything anymore. I called in Friday because I needed a mental health day. So much shit has been piling on me at work and adding to my already full plate of stressful shit. I just needed to get away and turn my mind off to the constant weight and pressure expected from me at work. The last time I called in was June of this year, I really don't do it that much (anymore). I hate returning to work after calling in (the weekend in between helped a bit with that) because I just assume everyone hates me for calling in and think I'm a lazy piece of shit or that I feel my problems are way more important than theirs. But it really wasn't that bad. My day was stressful because it's just part of the job. And we have a pretty high turnover rate (I've been there 4yrs and I'm one of the "veterans") and training in new people is pretty much CONSTANT. But I try my best, always smile. Answer all their (constant) questions as nicely as I can so I don't come across as annoyed or unapproachable, because I was new once too and I certainly asked a lot of questions then. So, like I said, I called in. It was towards the end of the day, no one was really around and my boss came by (whom I told it was due to diarrhea for my absence) asked how I was feeling and then dropped a bombshell on me. 
She states, "I think Deb (our new person) is feeling pretty overwhelmed, especially with Friday (day I called in). I really want her to do well here so let's try our best to give that to her."

And I just felt this unexplainable weight crush my shoulders and chest and all I could think to myself is, *they couldn't care less about the older employees, how much stress it adds to constantly train someone in, they don't care. If this new person decides to leave, it's because I CALLED IN. Because by trying to focus on myself, it caused someone else distress, so NEVER, do this to us again.*

And I just felt defeated. Just absolutely defeated and still do. I feel worthless. I feel like I can't tell anyone my problems because it'll be considered whining. my life is a fucking routine. I don't do anything. 