I am 20. I am graduating uni this spring and I am going to grad school right after that. My bf is the same age and he also plans on going to grad school after graduation. It’s illogical for us to have a baby right now, but I have a impulsive need to have a baby right now. 
I feel like I want a baby so that he is always with me. Not chain him down, but have his baby so I can always feel like he is with me. 
I am scared that he might leave me or suddenly just die and I want a part of him with me. 
I am definitely not getting a child rn but sometimes I just have an overwhelming feeling. 
Does anyone ever feel this way?