i had a stupid fight with my fp who happens to be my crush (?) bc i asked her “why did you leave me on read? you could’ve just not read my text at all” and she said something (it wasnt that deep tbh) but i took it in the wrong way. i feel like i depend on her too much so i decided to stop talking to her. she knew i have bpd and that she’s my fp but a small part of me feel like she’s not even trying to filter her words and that made me feel even more worse bc expecting her to not trigger me is pretty shitty of me. it’s been a week since we last talked i’m 110% sure she’s not going to talk to me anymore. i want to be okay with that but man i mean almost everyone has told me getting over someone is hard but i thought they were exaggerating tf. (i might not make any sense but man there’s a lot on my mind rn, i’ve been keeping these thoughts to myself for a week)