like logically i know that’s wrong and incredibly selfish. i’m sure millions of people who are way more afflicted than me would do anything to have my headspace right now. 

but i can’t conceptualize how it could get any worse than this. i am so deep in that my brain isn’t working right. how do people who are more afflicted even function properly???

i’m not sure what the goal of this is. whether it’s a question or a request for assurance but whatever input you can give would be greatly appreciated.