Okay, so what you are about to read my sound childish but it has been driving me nuts and I could really use a word, from someone who can actually help. 

I'm a scholarship student in a university. Basically, I get most of my scholarship points because I need to manage a bunch of students, and whenever the need arises, take their concerns/queries to the teachers who are above us. During this time, we need to manage the classes, and if there are any problems with the students, we take it up to the teachers. More like a monitor or something, which sounds completely stupid because this is something that the teachers should be doing, not me. 

As you probably have guessed already, it isn't as easy as it sounds. There are political agendas along the way, there are my classmates who are just waiting for the opportunity to get where I am. Earlier it was fine, but since the pandemic kicked in, it is very overwhelming for me to deal with all this. There is alot of peer pressure, and the office management is shit and I feel like I am stuck in between the classmates and the university. It is a toxic environment, to put it lightly. 

The scholarship isn't much but it is something. I know that it is certainly the cause of my anxiety and I'd be alot more comfortable if I wasn't in this situation in the first place. Basically if I quit now, I will probably drop out of the scholarship window but gain my sanity back. And if I keep at it, I will probably stay anxious for I don't know how long but I'll keep getting the scholarship. The pay isn't much, but it still something. Will it affect my education if I don't get the money ? I don't think so. 

I've given it a good amount of thought over the past few months but I never could come to a conclusion. I never could discuss it with anyone because I don't really trust anyone to begin with. What should I do ? I'd love to have some educated advice/opinion on this topic. 

Thank you