alright so im 15, and well in the past I had pure OCD, (or still do) and ADHD really bad and probably anxiety. Which couples with OCD so whatever. Never completely diagnosed, only went to 3 therapist appointments and quit. This would happen when I was 10 up to like 14 years old. Basically just intrusive thoughts about bullshit like If I'm a serial killer, am i a rapist, am i a sinner, all that stuff. Now, for 2 years the only emotion for the most part (with some little bleeps of emotion randomly very rarely) is apathy. Straight apathy. Psychopath type apathy. Just genuinely not caring or being enthused about much. It sucks. I would rather be an emotional mess because at least I would feel something. By looking at my profile pic you can probably guess what caused this: yeah p0rn. P0rn is very desentitizing and i want to quit but i just don't care. I want to, but i like my old habits to much. I like taking warm showers, and eating junk food, being excited about new products, shows, or games, playing video games, watching p0rn, and yeah being lazy. This is what I want to change and I have tried contacting the lord who i used to feel very connected to and still no answer. Not even suicidal (which would guarantee me a trip to hell so that's off the list) at this it's just contemptment. I think my brain is damaged, probably my right brain. Something that controls emotion is not working and it's ruining my life i need help from god, from people, and most importantly from myself. SO yeah, that's it.