Ive just been feeling down, it feels like everything has came crashing down, im just being constantly overwhelemed. And now i no longer even confront my problems, just find ways to run away from it. I feel like an absolute failure, im just done. I live in a country where your exam results MATTER, it plays a big part for what im feeling, i feel so guilty due to the nature of it. The feeling of not wanting to disappoint your parents, i feel so guilty, ive been an absolute piece of shit. My sister has been the angel in my life, helping me through these tough times. But sometimes, 1 angel isn't enough, as the fire in my life is slowly fizzling out. 
Sorry if this feels more like a rant,
I just have so much on my plate and had to find somewhere to vent, away from the eyes of the people close to me