A few weeks ago I (f20) began talking to a guy (m24) online, and we’ve now met twice and cooked dinner at my place when I had the house to myself. I really like him, and I know he really likes me too.

We live about half an hour away from one another, and so I agreed to come to his town and apartment on Wednesday instead of him coming to me. 
The problem is, I have extremely severe anxiety. I’ve not been able to do just about anything alone for seven years. By alone I mean all by myself OR with people I don’t know that well.
That includes getting groceries, traveling, and even walking the dog. I have a difficult time doing things outside of my house, such as eating out or going shopping. Sometimes it’s impossible.

On Wednesday I have to take the train 35min alone, walk through his town that I’ve never been to, eat at a restaurant, take the bus to his place, stay there for some hours, walk all the way back with him to the train station and take the train alone back.
I know that to a “normal” person this is no problem, but to me this is just about impossible.
He also has had severe anxiety issues in the past and therefore understands, but I don’t think he realizes just how bad it is for me.

I want this SO bad. I have no other option than to just do it, but I know that there’s a fairly large risk that it will end with me in total panic and tears and will ruin everything. I have no chance of being picked up by car either, so if I get a panic attack I will have to get myself home- which I don’t know if I can manage.

Honestly I don’t even know what the point of my post is. I’m just so fucking sad that my life is so limited. Any tip on how to deal with this is very welcomed.