Does anyone else go over the top when someone is being rude to them?  Every time someone is rude to me I one-up them and cause a scene and end up turning myself into the bad guy when I feel I'm being mistreated. I know after i act like this people are probably thinking I'm some crazy "karen" because that's literally what I look like. Obviously, no one is ever going to take my side if I'm acting like a lunatic, but I always do it to prove a point anyway. For example,  I was asked to close my bank account yesterday because I said "f you. Have a nice day" and flipped off the bank teller. In my opinion, she was being very rude to me and at the time I felt like it was the best revenge.  I know I should have just let it go and move on with my day but an overwhelming feeling came over me and I couldn't stop myself. I was so hurt by the fact that I was being super nice to her and she was being catty. I wish I wasn't like this. Now I'm just a verbally-abusive-off-the-handle psycho. I just feel like I'm to the point I need medication, but I keep feeling like I won't be myself if I get on something. I'm literally my worst enemy though and I fear the entire town is going to hate me if I don't get help. I've had a handful of these outbursts in the past 2 years that I can think of off the tip of my head. I think alot of my issues stem from being verbally and emotionally abused as a child. As a child I would shut down and refuse to talk or respond and imagined myself blowing up at my abusers but I never did.. I always felt so strong and powerful when I was able to sit there like a statue while my dad and step mom called me a liar and berated me for hours. Now it feels like the exact opposite.  I have this strong belief that I will not tolerate anyone mistreating me now that I'm an adult. Thanks for reading.