Thanks for reading. I am 18F and I have had sexual intrusive thoughts for 3 months. They had been about my own beloved family which I find impossible to deal with as I interact with them everyday. I am trying my best to ignore them and give no power to them. But the sexual themes have gone far from my family members. I had the feeling that I am in love or having a crush on every single person I meet, even strangers, especially on people who I respect abd have huge admiration towards.

This person right now is my male math teacher, who is one of my favorite ones in school. He is kind and gentle, I like him but never have I thought that I would love him the way my mind is telling me right now. The thought bothered me when it first appeared and it has come to the stage of physical compulsions/reactions. I have this one extra class with him and 2 other friends. Whenever I come near to him or him talking and asking me questions my heart beats faster and I feel so nervous I cannot look in his eyes. I am scared of coming to class to see him and my reactions convinced me that  I have a crush on him. Not that it is terrible or something, but I do not like it and I cannot concentrate on my study whenever be with him although I really want to. I want to be sure that my reactions were due to my detest of the thoughts, but the thoughts itself says that I am in denial, ugggh how annoying.

Is it some kind of crush or intrusive thoughts manifestion, OCD even? Because I cannot be sure and it disturbs me a lot, it made me so so so anxious. And should I let time pass or should I avoid him for good? Thank you if you have some words.