TW SH/ED

I competed in a debate tournament this weekend. Most judges scored me the highest possible, left laudatory comments, and one even told me to call her for a job after I get out of law school. Overall, I should have been thrilled with my performance. The only issue is an award gets given out to the competitors with the ~8 highest scores. I missed the cutoff by one point. I can't stop thinking about it. I keep re-reading the score sheets and comments of myself, as well as everyone who beat me. Comparing comments. I'm getting intrusive thoughts about it too. Telling me I shouldn't eat for a week since I lost, if I'm not smart I can at least be pretty. I just really wanted to know if anyone else ever went through stuff like this.