I forgot I left my backpack in my third period am I on early onset of dementia why can I barely remember what I did yesterday anyways I have to go to my fourth period stop thinking stop ur just making it worst I can't focus because I keep thinking wait why does my chest hurt am I going to get a heart attack or am I just anxious I can't focus on class I can't stop thinking about anything but worry I can't make friends when I think about what to say something back my mind goes blank and I look stupid its lunchtime but I'm not hungry I'm too anxious trying to find out stuff I can't find out I'm battling my own thoughts why am I worrying about this I'm only 13 I feel so disconnected from my memories and people when I look back at how happy I was just 1-2 years ago it feels like that happened 4 years ago life feels like a dream it feels as if it wasn't real I feel so disconnected from everything I look at the mirror and wonder is that really me I hadn't gone to school or talked to a person either than my family for 1 year yet I talk to my family normally like if I didn't feel I was going to die 2 hours ago and they suspect nothing I feel so hopeless this has been going on for about 1-2 years when I tell my mom about this she just tells me to leave my phone or computer or to go outside but she doesn't understand I get 10x more anxious when I leave my room or when I don't have my phone to distract myself from my own thoughts I've been dealing with this for 1-2 years alone and everyone thinks I'm still the same old me I need help