It just gives me some relief? Idk. Never been one to cut myself but I've messed up my forehead a few times banging my head against things. I've never really told anyone this before. I am feeling the urge to do it again today. I don't want to be here anymore. I want to knock myself out and never wake up again. Door frames or a nice thick hard cover book can be pretty effective. I think I'm going to go bang my head against a book until I pass out on my bed. If I have a book anywhere..