I think the range of how awful things can get expands reference and then, not only do really wonderful things seem even more spectacular, but some awful things seem less so in comparison.  


I will still become overly devastated by mundane things.. but as far as actual traumatic events, they slip out of my mind like smoke in the wind. I'm broken in this way. I never learn from my mistakes because they don't hurt me the way they should. I have emotional calluses on really awful things. It makes me susceptible to abuse. I find myself gauging other for how I should react, like, was this really awful?   


if someone I love says something mean to me though, I'm a blithering puddle of pathetic human misery.   


anyone else feel like this? I don't know normal. maybe i'm in denial. the words hurt more than actions.