I am depressed for 5 years. It's due to several of disputes between my mom and my father of law. They shout but sometimes it became more violent. Because of toxic jealousy of my mom usually.
Furthermore, girls didn't want to go out with me, so i haven't experience with them.
I am asocial too, so it doesn't help. So there is the problem due to all of these. I became mysogin and i do horrible things to catch attention of girls. I take medicine for this but sometimes i reoffend and i feel so pathethic. I want not to exist not to suffer people who don't want to suffer. And i don't want to go to jail.
Moreover, my grads are more and more low, i am failing at university. I haven't evolved for 3 years at university.
My parents and grand-parents want that i work but i don't want to work in something that i don't like. They think i am lazy, i don't make efforts, they don't understand that i can't work if i don't like it. 
But i don't like anything. My life is so insipid and sometimes, with my "crisis", i don't want to have a good life. 
I am a bad person, a bad human being, a failure. Nothing works for me...
Honestly, i don't want advice, i will disappoint people who want to help me.
Life is injustice. I don't want to live like this but i can't do anything to fight against.
I give up and i will stay in my room while managing my "crisis" and waiting to die.