So I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety (not everything at once though) and have been diagnosed with schizotypal disorder and BPD.

But then I made a meme that hit 89k upvotes and suddenly I was glad to be alive, and realized that if such a thing is allowed to make me happy, maybe I don't need to live by everyone else's standards. (Plus a dear (we were close but not anymore) friend told me that January will come 10 years from now as well, when I told her I wanted to kill myself in January, (and I also have had the thought that I want to live so I can keep seeing her), so that helped).

Since then I've started cooking like once a week and put myself on a diet and lost 3kg in a week. But I've only been able to do that because I feel better. You usually hear that you should make healthier choices, but if you feel bad you're really unable to make them, so the focus should be on feeling better first, making healthier choices second, I think. Anyway that's what I realized so I wanted to share. I don't know how long this good spell will last but I'm certainly enjoying being mostly symptom free atm.