I always feel like that, these demons inside my fucking head just become stronger and consume me more the more times I try to fight back, it’s a never ending cycle. Fuck this dude, I am not strong enough to keep up and hopefully earn more money, I just can’t. Everything is hard, getting a job is hard. It’s been a year and I still didn’t get a fucking job, I think it’s time to end my life, there is no hope anymore.