I don’t really know where to start. I just need some advice or even talking about it.. I’ve been very depressed for years (I’m 21 now), and recently my thoughts have been getting darker and more intrusive. I’ve recently moved in with my partner and I thought this would be the happiest time of my life, but it’s the complete opposite. Whenever I find myself alone, I find myself looking at different suicide methods, attempting to tie a noose or searching the house for whatever tablets I can find. I don’t even know what I’m asking advice for, I just need to talk to someone who understands and won’t tell me to, ‘stop being stupid’. I don’t even know what to say to my therapist.. I was doing so well, I’m such a good liar and so good at putting in a front, they think I’m fine. So how do I tell them that I’m not doing so well, and all I think about is ending it all? I’m scared of dying and what my family would think of me, but I don’t want to go on anymore.. I can’t speak to my partner as I don’t want to worry him or for him to think I’m looking for attention. I just need help so bad, I’m sorry. Please can someone help me.