I’m not gonna leave a mass of text but essentially when it comes to fighting (physically) with other people I get so much anxiety, like even the prospect of fighting someone makes me anxious and it’s because i’m scared i’ll lose and look like an idiot, it’s always worse in a relationship because i get scared i’ll look like some sort of pussy and then get left or some shit,
would really appreciate some advice.

(i have a therapist btw)