Can someone just take my phone away from me so I can’t text or talk to anyone ever again. That might be preferable to starting fights for no reason or specifically starting fights because I don’t get what I want. I feel manic and super depressed and a lot of self hatred. Any friend I make just wants nothing to do with me after a very short period of time. 

I look at these texts that for some reason I can’t stop myself from sending and I wouldn’t want to talk to me either. 