
I'm not crazy in a fun, sexy, quirky way, alas. I have high functioning anxiety, and possible depression. Instead of using, idk, casual sex/drugs/shopping, I've been using Reddit as some sort of crutch? For years? I don't trust my own judgement and I hate bothering people with my problems so I take to Reddit for anonymous advice. I've been doing so for years. Thing is, I'm always coming up with new, non-existent problems in my relationships/friendships/career/health or my anxiety inflates minor problems....so I've posted to Reddit for advice hundreds of times. I feel like a nut. I'm ashamed. I come off like as happy go lucky chick because I'm a naturally smiley, extraverted person and have a great degree, but it's a facade. I'm sad in both meanings of the word. I hold men at arms length and I think part of it is I'm scared of getting close to someone and then bolting when they see the real me. I don't think it's worth the risk! But at the same time I'm 23, i can't imagine being single for the next 50 years.