So, for the last month I had a ringing in my right ear that seemed to slowly get louder, and over the last couple of days my left ear has started to ring slightly as well.

The ear nose and throat doctor I went to said he thinks it could be anxiety, and I’m really hoping it is. But he also said to get an MRI to be safe.

My mom says it will take about an hour, and thankfully she was able to find one of the open ones where it isn’t as claustrophobia-inducing.

For starters, I’m just terrified that it isn’t anxiety, and it’s some sort of infection that spread to the other ear. Then I made the mistake of googling symptoms and it started talking about spreading to the brain and I started panicking. The possibilities are honestly what have had me worrying most.

Then I’m obviously really scared of the MRI. I know it’s harmless, but I just hate the thought of laying still with my head constrained for an hour. I don’t know if they have music or spotify or anything. I get really anxious just thinking of hearing nothing but a loud machine whirring and my own thoughts for an hour.


I know there’s not much anyone can do, but I just needed to say this somewhere. I need to start going to therapy though, because if this is anxiety (I’m really really hoping it is) then I need to get on top of this. 

Thank you for reading this if you did, but if you didn’t I don’t blame you