Ive quit drinking for 55 days now. Gave up cigarettes, started working out. Ive started taking my medication on time. Im staying hydrated.. you name it, ive atleast tried it. It just wont fucking let up. If it wasnt for lorazepam, i dont think id ever have a moment of clarity. Im dealing with some greif and talking about it too a professional. I guess im just looking for others like me, because the light at the end of the tunnel is pretty fucking bleak