Honestly i dont have a bad life iv gota a good place to live, i have people that love me, an amazing job but im still miserable most of the time and dont get enough sleep what does it matter when the result is the same i am going to die my mother is going to die my friends are going to die.  Every single one of my descendants are going to die humanity will die and all of existence is going to disappear do to heat death, im tired of going through cycle after cycle of unhealthy behaviors i dont want to do this my hole life mabye i would stick around if i was enjoying life but im not and nothing i can do will ever make a difference peace ;