I developed a long distance crush on a good friend of mine. Over the summer/month, it's been messing with me. First, I got worried they didn't respond to me on social media or send messages and when I saw them having fun on social media in their new place, it got me worried/insecure of being forgotten. I have muted them on social media and all to try and get them out of my head and I tried doing new things like learning to draw or gyming 3 times a week. However, I suffer from anxiety/rumination/OCD and the place I am in for summer does not have much to do and I find myself thinking about them a lot despite trying to stop and telling myself its all in my head/anxiety. It also makes me feel like a loser/pathetic as I like someone far away who is living their life and it must make me look like I have nothing going on, which makes me feel worse. I don't want to waste time on this for my youth, so how can I be more productive to end this?