Hello. So, I just want to ask, if somebody got, maybe close, experience or heard about it. All my life, since I was child, something wrong happening in my head. Usually it lasts around 5-10 minutes, I'm not sure, and it hits, I think, when I'm ill (cold, flu, even when my temperature stays normal), but not always, even when I'm heathy.
So, as I understood, it's very rare (it can hit me like 1 time in few years, or in 5-6 months, absolutely randomly), but really hard to rehabilitate after this.
Usually I'm waking up between night-time, and feel this horrible anxiety, it's fxcking killing me, and I can't run away from it, till it won't go after that short time. Now more, I also feels like so many people around me (even if I'm alone) and they talking and talking so loudly, so I can't understand them. They also feels like really tall and small at the same time.
I can't see it or hear it, it's like right in my fxcking head, so I've never got hallucinations. That's kinda strange, but right in that time, when I'm trying to escape, that anxiety, that sounds, destroying me. As I said, I can't hear it or see it, but when it happens I know, it's in my head, but my mind feels so real.
Maybe I can describe you that anxiety as example. After you saw jumpscare in movie or game, what you feel? Right in that time. And now imagine that this fear and horrible feeling that you felt only few seconds - lasts more, more and more. Tremor inside you and you feels like you loosing your mind, because it will never ends. Feelings like you won't be able to escape from this, and this is so fast, that after this "hit" you can't even remember what happens, but you still feels it inside.
I can't even say what scares me more, anxiety or that strange feelings of different noises and claustrophobic shxt. Last time it hit me (twice, it happened 2 times in one night, first time in my life) when I worked on my first job, and it's was physically nightmare, so I got so much stress for myself and body. I can pretend that stresses can also be the reason, but I'm not sure.
I'm sorry if it looks terrible here, cuz it's really hard to understand even for me, and my English skills really sucks cuz I'm from Europe. Just help me.