My grandfather past away in the beginning of the year and I still haven’t really felt anything. he was like a father to me growing up but around the end I noticed he had gotten closer to my sister (who is unfortunately a big trigger for me bc of how she was treated by my parents) and he did snap at me maybe twice and after that I felt uncomfortable around him and didn’t really enjoy talking to him and he would just annoy me. I think I maybe teared up at the federal but I made myself bc everyone else was crying and I felt like I had too. Does this have something to do with my bpd?