Yesterday, i had everything planned so perfectly. I imagine i would make my bed, clean my room, turn on all the lights in my room, cook something nice, play some of my favorite game, catch up with my friend, and end the day with some movie marathon.

And this is about me, feeling so empty for about 2 months doing something just because i have to. So i'm really excited about today, because i finally manage to encourage myself to do something i like, to atleast move my body at my own will.

But today, i found myself waking up, staring at the ceiling, bawling my eyes out, clenching my chest because it just feels so hollow. I want to feel something that isn't sadness, but nothing excite me anymore. I always tell my self that everything is going to be better tomorrow, but i starting to lose hope. I don't know what to do anymore, i feel like i'm losing myself.