I am 19(m), and I almost killed myself the other day.I still don't have a reason to keep fighting, but a partof me is glad I'm still here.

I can't really pinpoint why I'm actually depressed inthe first place. My life is pretty good, plenty of money, good job and a lot of good people around
me. And yet, all I feel is, why do people even care about me? I haven't done anything to make anyone
like me so why is my entire department at work scared that I'm not going to show up tomorrow?

I had a mental breakdown because I realized that people actually care, but I can't bring myself to actually help myself. I want to, but getting out of
bed and taking the first step is so out of reach that who knows if I'll ever be able to get out of this hole I've been digging myself without realizing