I feel so tired. I've fought this thing for so long and can't see myself getting better. I'm 25 and I'm in so much pain all the fucking time. What is the point in living if my life is 98 percent suffering? Why would I live for the two percent of the time? I can't get dbt treatment because you have to pay privately in my country and I'm currently spiralling downwards. I've been in bed for 10 days and can't move. Fuck my life.