wheres the first place to build confidence? because i know my brain is going to be like this forever so i need to know how to live with this? ive got to do something now guys im 21 and i want to get on with shit studies and everything fucked because i turned into this pussy in my head. im my own worst enemy and its so fucking true 

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i have no self confidence at all, infact i dont really like myself. and i think this is a big hurdle that affects my personality. because i feel like a looser and like to be alone a lot. but my friends love to be with me and it makes me uncomftable i dont know why. its like i dont want to exists. i cant take compliments well, if im out in public people are laughing some strange fucking reason my daft brain is convinced they laughing at me, my mind in a tub just fucked. and i want to be able to live get a girlfriend, go finally finish some studies and get a job. at the minute im just a mentally ill 21yearold male on uk sick welfare