My BPD is in remission

Just wanted to say that it’s very possible for things to get easy again.

Just last year I was struggling so much with addictions, self harm, anger issues, in and out of acute wards and mental health clinics. Lots of attempts on my life. Lots of relationships ruined. I was emaciated from my eating disorder since I used not eating as a way to cope.

One year of therapy later, one year of working on myself every single day. Forgiving my slip ups, acknowledging the negative thoughts and being at peace with them, learning so many skills to help me function, getting into a romantic relationship where I feel safe and loved for the first time in my life.

With work and perseverance, things WILL get better. I actually wake up happy and I am excited for the day and I see it as a new opportunity. I no longer want to end myself, though I think of it occasionally when things get tough. I’m self-harm free for 6 months and all my addictions are either gone or almost gone!

My biggest advice is to not give up hope. Hope is the most singular thing you need. As an example, and I’m sorry if it might be triggering, why are you alive right now? Why haven’t you ended yourself yet? Because there’s a very small part of you that still hopes things will get better. Don’t ever lose that. It’s so worth it.

It’s not like I’m famous or have a mansion. I’m unemployed and still can’t work because of my ptsd. I’m financially struggling. But I’m doing good. I like myself- I tolerate myself, at the least. I’m excited for new challenges and new opportunities. I’m excited for my future because I can very clearly see that I have one now. Things are good.

I think what I’m most happy about is that I’m well enough to be there for my unwell friends. I can give them tips, offer advice, be there for them and not let their mental health affect mine. I’ve been able to actively be there for everyone I love, and that’s what I’m most proud of.