I’ve had depression since puberty. It is clearly worse when hormone levels are low. I’ve had 16 failed medication trials. I take Wellbutrin and now Buspar. 

Today my doctor recommended Lupron Depot for endometriosis and I said I couldn’t take it because it can make people suicidal. The only time I have felt suicidal is when I tried Lexipro, so I know medication can do that to you. I don’t want to risk it. Lupron Depot makes hormones super low, which in turn affects mood. 

She made me feel like there were no other good options and that I had to choose between treatment and my depression. The other option is a surgery, which I have already agreed to do, but she made it seem like the surgery may not be effective, even though the surgeon said it could be. I feel caught. The depression isn’t going anywhere.