Every single day I have chest pain. A dull ache/pressure in the left side of my chest. And every single day I have so much anxiety about a heart attack.

It’s not my heart. I’ve had many many EKG’s, a CT w/contrast, and just recently a perfect echocardiogram. (Also a healthy 29 year old so statistically the cardiologist told me it would be so rare but he was amazing and ordered an echo for me anyways so I could have peace of mind). 

My therapist (and psychiatrist) have told me they fully believe that’s where my anxiety “lives” in my body. That whenever I’m anxious that’s where I feel it. But how do I stop feeling like I’m having a heart attack? How do I train my brain it’s not medical at all. :/ it feels so impossible. I’ve been on meds (Wellbutrin, then Wellbutrin, Zoloft, ativan as needed, just changed to Wellbutrin, Effexor, ativan as needed, weaning off of Zoloft) and I’m in therapy but it feels like an uphill battle. 

Ugh. Just venting I guess. But it sucks. Whenever I feel like this I freeze up, unable to do anything or move other than lay in my bed. It’s so hard. There’s a little part of my brain that knows it’s nothing serious but I can’t seem to get the larger part of my brain to believe that. :(