Feeling lost and empty without my FP. I feel like she was the centre of my life, my best friend, my sister but now she's gone without a proper explanation or closure. She simply believes we've grown apart which I honestly think is utter crap. How do you go from everything being okay to growing apart in a matter of weeks? Anyway I feel empty without her presence and even with me reminding myself of some of the not so great things she did and the fact that she kind of did abandon our friendship, I still can't move on. It's been months.. I feel like this isn't normal anymore, like a normal human who can process emotions properly would have moved on by now but why I can't.

I feel like I pushed her away because she kept saying I was mirroring her too much and becoming too much like her because I didn't have a strong sense of identity (she did have a point, I definitely mirrored her at times) but I explained everything to her and I kind of thought we got past it. Now she has all these new friends and doesn't even bother responding to my messages anymore, just leaves me on read. Just feeling lost and sad..