I swore we were soulmates and I didn’t even think that was a thing. I pined after him but it was like loving the void. 


I started seeing someone new. Sweet but volatile at times, he tells me he wants me. He tells me I’m beautiful. He wants to be close to me. He wants to be exclusive. We see each other every day and I’m not alone anymore. I feel happy. 

So I guess soulmates aren’t real, or maybe I was just confused. I’m so sad. I’m scared. I’m really happy. I’m hopeful. I don’t know how someone can feel all this at once. I think I’m moving in the right direction then. I deserve to be loved.