I am currently 13 months clean and sober off of all drugs and alcohol. I self medicated since I was 13 years old, which led to all sorts of drugs addictions, most recently heroin. I don't know how to deal with my thoughts and feelings sober. It's so hard but I know I can't take benzos or drink alcohol to cope. It just messes me up more mentally in the long run. But I'm afraid that my BPD is going to overcome me ability to stay sober and I'll relapse. That's my worst fear for a number of reasons. I work a really strong AA and HA program, have a therapist, etc. But I'm just scared and need advice.