I have been suffering with Bipolar II since I have been 13 (26 years now). I lost my job in March (not due to my illness), but I cannot find another job because I am honest and check that I have a disability box. 600 applications later and no job. I never imagined not being able to find a job. As we know, "*crazy*" people are often times creative. So, I went ahead and got my journals from 2002-2003 and turned it into a book looking back at my illness then and looking at it now. I hope it helps people see that just because you're "*pretty*" and "*don't look like there is anything wrong with you*", it is really a jumbled mess in a mind. It is an invisible illness and I want the ignorance surrounding it to stop. I have kept it a secret my entire life by putting on an act that I am perfect and have no problems. I couldn't live with lying anymore. I released the book and am terrified for my family to read it because of the things I have done. 