Why was I born this way? Was it how family expect their children to pursuit the ideology of what is the best college majors to get? Children sometimes follow the path that their parents make, but others don’t want to. In my opinion, sure get a stable job and be stable on yourself, however, will it bring happiness to yourself in what? 15? 20? Years or until the end? The current event thats happening right now, I see people who have their job for a long time see in themselves quitting. They have their fun in their carrer job, but want to either move on or do something. In my own opinion, I want to be an illustrator or graphic designer, but cannot do since its not a worthy job and doesn’t pay well. I want to pursuit in what I want to dream. It kills me that I don’t get what I enjoy, but to fulfill other people happiness. Sure, fulfills theirs, but what about myself? I will never be happy about it. Each and every month and year, there is always something like this. It always repeat itself every single time. It always depresses me on what parents want and don’t want their children to be even if they are already adults in life. 

Why was I born in this world just to expect to do just not be myself? What is my role of my existance? What is my existance in this tiny world that was created? It pisses me off about being born and not being who we want to be. 

Life can be unfair that is an understanding, but cannot we break the cycle of the world? 

*Sorry about this long rant about my life and also near Christmas.