Hi everyone!

I've had anxiety my whole life, but had it a lot more under control during my teenage years. After I finished my undergrad I moved from the USA to the UK to do my MA. It was really hard the first few weeks and I think I had some pretty severe home sickness. 

At the end of my MA I had a pretty severe breakdown and started taking sertraline (Zoloft) for the first time. Eventually I started feeling a little better and I started a PhD program. I've had anxiety the whole time, but eventually felt like things were more under control. In May 2020 I stopped taking my sertraline and felt pretty good for a while. Around november 2020 I started feeling really anxious again. Crying all the time, upset stomach, feeling like my bones were vibrating, and not being able to get back in control. i started taking meds again and the uptake was really rough. I didn't sleep for 3 days, frequent disassociation, nausea, etc. 

Eventually everything settled down, and I was able to make it through. I saw a counselor, but did not find that experience to be productive. Crying and shaking seemed to be under control though. Then about a month ago my husband and I went to a friends wedding (which required 2 overnight stays) and I cried almost the whole time we were away. The last two days I've been crying and unable to settle as well. 

I'm actively looking for new psychotherapists, but I was wondering if anyone else had any other ideas. I've tried cbt, meditation, mindfulness, etc and haven't found success there. 

Any suggestions are welcome!