So, the last 5 or so years I’ve been having some depression/anxiety issues because of the relationships I have with co workers/and everyone I ever interact with since I had worked at Amazon (the wonderful online shopping service). A few things arose when I was working at Amazon where I had maybe seemed like I was mad a few times because I was basically homeless trying to make the job work riding the bus. I tried making a couple friends but it’s hard for me to have any type of relationship as awkward as I am with people. At one point a work came to help me with the yellow tub stuck and he acted like he was mad mocking maybe the way I had been mad a couple times. When he walked away I said THANK YOU maybe kinda sarcastically because he seemed like he was mad trying to help me. Anyways it started as a cascade of people mocking everything I said and however my mannerisms are. It’s phenomenal and quite hilarious how it’s came to this. .. People. All over my town. Pretty much state (probably because I drive 3 hours away and it happens there) have mocked me saying “thank you so much, sir(I’m not a sir I’m a slave), boss, I appreciate it, buddy, awesome, wonderful, enjoy, have a good one, alright(y). ….. I work fast and other people act like they work fast. I scribble my name everyone else writes theirs like a little kid or just scribbles a couple lines. It happens everyday at work still and I don’t even work at Amazon anymore because they ruined my life. Or bpd did. I guess it’s my parents fault for doing meth and not picking me up as kid. But goddamn everyone shouldn’t be treating me the way they do all the time we should be evolved enough to help people out of these issues as humans and not be shitting on them for anything they ever do. But that’s just wishful thinking maybe. I just don’t know what to do to ease myself through it everyday. It gets overwhelming sometimes. … I just need to surround myself with good people and I think even the good people mock me because I can’t make a decision with my splitting. Black and white on the edge thinking. Just had to get that off my chest because it HURTS, too much cholesterol. Thank you