Does anyone else feel like the literal equivalent of a damn stem cell? My behaviour is different depending on who I'm talking to,and I'm there to feel wherever role is needed at that point in time. You need a smart friend? I'm here. You need an aloof friend? I can do that. You need someone to listen to you ramble for hours on end? I can do that too,as long as it gets you to be my friend.

I feel like I'm putting all this effort in order to get people to like me,to not reject me,to feel less likely to be abandoned because I'm being useful,and I've completely lost myself in the process. I don't know who I am if there's nobody around me to build myself upon. You could ask my family,my real life friends,and my online friends,and they'd describe three different people. My morals, social stances, opinions, etc. are all tailored to either complement or match the person/people I'm around at any given point. I feel like I've dug a hole for myself,and I can't get out of it unless I'm willing go loose everything I've built in the process. Perspective and advice needed.