I spend a lot of time watching movies, series, reading, youtube or sleeping. This is the time where I am at peace, away from reality, also I am bug movie geek I love to focus on cinematography or try to understand hidden meanings, dig deeper in classic works. Its difficult for me to work on my tasks or to do important things. I mean once I start it flows by and its eady but it is difficult for me to start. It is so stressful whenever I am not escaping I start worrying about my future and how much time I waste, I start worrying that I am not good enough. I have been trying to become more present. Oddly enough I am the most present while I am watching or enjoying sth in my escapism time. I also spend a lot of time in bed in my room. I know this is all unhealthy but what do I do?