Well this is before lockdown, my boyfriend is busier than me and would get off work at 4 or so so in the mornings I would be looking forward to seeing him and have energy but then by the time 4 rolled around I felt depressed for the day and have no energy and don't want to see him but also want to see him at the same time. It's a weird ass feeling. He lives with his parents while saving for a house and always wanted me to come over but I don't like socializing with his parents because they always ask me questions about my job and make me feel stupid. So I find it easier to just say I don't feel goo for the day so I can avoid ALL social interaction. Also getting ready and making myself pretty for him is exhausting so I would rather just skip it and go to bed.  Anyone else like this? I feel like an awful person but since my boyfriend asked me to get hobbies to stay busy so I'm not dependent on him I almost just like doing the hobbies more than seeing him and he says I'm distant. I'm really not trying to be and I love him but I kind of enjoy having more space away from him now and he wants to see me all the time and it used to be flip flopped.