Don’t really know how to word this but I feel like I’m in a constant state of worrying about the next event in my calendar.

I can’t fully relax and live in the moment because underneath it I’ll be worried about the next event and whether I’ll be able to deal with it without getting too anxious.

It’s tiring and such a huge waste of time. Worrying about something now won’t make it any easier when the time comes so I don’t know why I do it.