I feel the urge and want to die. But I can’t do it myself. I think about it a lot, dying. It’s like anything else when you feel nothing, you want to but you can’t. You want to work more efficiently at work but can’t, you want to not just sit at home and do nothing but can’t, you want to cum during sex but can’t, you want to take care of yourself but can’t. You want to die but can’t.  I’m exhausted. I just idk why can’t I be happy or just die.