I ruined the best thing to ever happen to me. I don't know what to do anymore. Life feels so dull and meaningless without her. I wish that I could turn back the clock and fix everything that I've ruined. She's the only person that I've ever been able to talk with so easily, everything would just fall into place like puzzle pieces whenever we'd talk and I felt a connection like I had never felt before in my life. I didn't know what I had until she was gone and out of my life. I'm miserable and have suicidal thoughts every day because of this. It has been over a year now and it hasn't gotten any easier