Forgive me if this makes no sense. I’ve always been gifted at writing (not in my opinion, but others) and whenever I feel stuck in life my family say ‘oh you could always write a book about your experience in mental health.’ Like because I have the illness I’m an expert when I barely understand myself or who I am or if I’m faking the whole goddamn thing. 
I’m just wondering if my fellow BPD sufferers ever felt like a let down, not using their potential or something, like is there something wrong with me that I don’t feel I have the answers to unlock whatever is dormant in myself, this trauma, this beast of a mind invader. I know this sounds like self pity,  but it really isn’t. I’m curious as to how others feel.