i really don’t. nothing brings me happiness or joy anymore. i honestly haven’t thought about suicide this much in my life ever. i think about it nonstop everyday because i feel like that’s the only answer to what i’m feeling now. j feel like i’m unfixable and like nothing will ever truly help me. i’m at the point where i can’t even fucking function anymore. i can’t do anything but lay in bed and wish i was happy. i try to do things i enjoyed before or things that supposedly help depression symptoms but nothing works and because of that it makes me feel worse about everything. i just really don’t know what the point of everything is at all, at least in my case. i feel like a dark and heavy cloud. i don’t know what to do anymore at all.