&lt;3  The thing is for a good percentage of my life I have had these behaviours people thought were bad of me. EG doing drastic things to not feel like someone would abandon me or constant up and down emotions that resulted in outbursts. Id get angry at the most minor of things or jealous over nothing. I thought I was a terrible person because of this. I pushed many people away and thought there was something wrong with me.  When i got diagnosed it gave me the starting point of how to cope and understand my emotions more. BPD isnt all bad. Because my emotions are so intense most of the time it means i can be extremely passionate about things i love and really enjoy things more. No matter what you have been through or have to come having BPD is something that isnt all bad. I am new to this group but wanted to share a shortened version of my experience. If anyone needs help then i'm here. &lt;3