Idk why I’m posting on here, my last few were ignored and I ended up deleting them. I just can’t take this anymore. My day starts normally and as it progresses I sink further and further into depression until I give up and stay in bed until the next day or I start trying to look into or plan a way to kill myself. 

I recently bought a bottle of sleeping pills ive been hiding in my purse from my SO so he doesn’t find out. I’m slowly eating less and less every day. I’m constantly crying and never knowing quite why I’m crying. 

I’m just so done. I’m so done with how tired I feel. With how alone I am. That I don’t have any real friends, hell, I don’t even have internet friends. I just don’t want to do this anymore. 

This post will probably be ignored like the other ones and in a couple of days I’ll probably delete it. I just want to vent I guess. I just want to voice to someone other than my SO how miserable I feel and how I don’t want to live anymore. 

Does anyone else feel like this? I’m sure I can’t be the only one. How do you cope? How do you push and power through it? 

Is anyone even out there and if so does anyone even care?

Idk. If you wasted time reading this, thanks I guess.