im experiencing all the symptoms, thoughts, everything, aligned with BPD , but i have yet to receive an actual diagnosis. im constantly finding myself over explaining my emotions to someone when i can barely understand them myself. sometimes the person im talking to says im "going in circles". i can understand that what i feel can be just for the next couple hours, days or even weeks &amp; then i can "go back to normal", but the other person never seems to understand that. they always accuse me of lying to them or manipulating them or even leading them on. it gets overwhelming for me personally to explain all of this all the time and so i just leave, tell myself theyre better off not talking to me, &amp; block them on everything.