It's more pronounced with my FP but it's not just him, I get like this with everyone I'm even remotely close to. I want to be everybody's most trusted confidant/favourite drinking buddy/top employee/hottest crush all the time and if I get even the slightest suspicion that I'm not it sends me into a spiral of rage/depression/jealousy. Ik it's not remotely rational and normal people don't go around ranking everyone, but I can't help it and I hate feeling this way.