she is absolutely beautiful. Based on her profile she is highly educated, driven, and adventurous. I immediately feel like I am no match for her and almost want to save her the trouble of getting to know me. She does live in another city in my state. 

A little about me...i have dealt with anxiety ever since I can remember. Once I turned 18 I was started on meds and as many of you know, it can be quite the roller coaster finding one that helps. All the meds have helped me only marginally but it did not stop me from getting good grades, getting college degrees, and pretending to live a normal life. I worked as a professional for a good number of years but had absolutely no social or dating life. I worked in a highly stressful profession and I burned myself out to the core. I was so miserable but I just didn’t know how to be any other way. I finally got to the point, after years of agonizing, to leave my profession and move back in with parents. I felt like a complete failure but I realized that my existence up until that point was so very meaningless.

While being back at home I found an incredible doctor that helped me so much with getting over my debilitating depression. Unfortunately, my anxiety is ever present and it’s never shy to show itself in these types of situations. I am still unemployed but have found a way to earn a little money here and there as well as live within my means. I am so much more content now then I ever was working, but I am utterly embarrassed to tell people my situation. On one hand I have been starving for a partner, but on the other hand, when a potential one comes along, my instinct is to run and hide as fast as I can. I have found meaning in my life in my interests but I know something amazingly big is missing from my life. 

Meeting someone new is supposed to be exciting, but for me it is one of the scariest things in the world. Not sure what I’m hoping for but just wanted to share.