I've a really bad past couple of days with some really bad triggers so maybe I'm not thinking straight but I've been thinking, if not for my triggers, I'd actually be a pretty decent person to be with... I don't remember arguing about really *anything* other than my insecurity issues. 

I've heard of perfectly "normal", everyday couples having huge arguments over house chores, arguments over which interior decor to buy, arguments over who "should" have done something extremely inconsequential and minor, who didn't take the rubbish out, which curtains to buy... All apparently "normal" people, but with rages that to my mind, are every bit as "silly" as mine. 

This is not to invalidate people without BPD or excuse my own behavior by any means. This feels more like some kind of realization how sometimes I get really caught up and upset over this idea that I'm much, much crazier than everyone else on account of my slew of mental illnesses, but honestly.. when I actually *stop* thinking about myself and look around me for a moment, the fact is I see grown adults acting every bit as "immature" as me, or in some cases, much worse to the point I can't even understand why they'd be upset! 

Of course they will likely have their reasons, as I have mine for my own outbursts, but I think it can be healthy to acknowledge that just because we have issues doesn't suddenly mean that everyone else is leading perfect, argument-free, tantrum-free, insecurity-free lives. 