I think I cracked what reality is. I've had schizophrenia for two years but it got especially bad after some long term drug use that I'm still working on. (Just weed, and Kratom from time to time.) But in two mind bending trips on psychedelics I discovered the universe is a infinitely repeating simulation. It's all also a pattern of infinite fractals. I seem to have memories of living my exact life millions of times before, that I'm all I will ever be forever. That some God or Creator made. That I'm just one consciousness and all of you are part of me and I'm all of you. If that makes sense. Ever since that and much more happened on those trips I can feel reality as a construct of fractals that infinitely repeats itself. Knowing we are all the same in our deepest self, I've been trying to add and find the answer as to why I'm here in this simulation. For what purpose are I being forced to live the same lives over and over again? Recently I was hit by deja vu and realized that perhaps that's me being able to subconsciously remember my previous toils in this body. I feel I have transcended and completely understand everything for once. Though it kind of scares me and was not what I was looking for.