Hi
Since recently if been noticing that alot of stuff I do other people frown upon or look at me weird for I'm greek so a little tanned and live in a reallllllllly white neighbourhood so that could also be it with white I mean farmer white I flinch my eyes alot mostly on after the other really fast or both really fast after eachother I also talk to myself alot like aloooot I try to to by using comedy otherwise I find it difficult en I alot of times as you can probably see by my text drift off to a different topic i used to have anger issues and had therapy for that after that i had therapy for stress and because therapy is bullshit i eventually had to get rid of those problems myself i still get stressed easily and have anger issues but i used to just hit somebody after a few wrongs words and know I just get mad in my head and curse at them in my head I cant really focus on one thing and I drift of and look at 30 things a minute might it be a wrapper from a candy bar to a fly or a person walking by I dont like looking people in the eyes I sometimes not often out of nowhere stand up and sit back down I tik my fingers on the table 1 of each hand bt not to loud as to not draw attention to me I scrach myself alot I dont know if I wrote that correct using my hand to move up and down a itchy spot on my body which I have alot just as i wrote that I scratched my lower right back I have thought of suicide but never ever tried it or really though of it though ally but I mean more like ohh this comes to my mind and the subject was suicide not that I wanted to because I know that would make my family really sad if I make any typos I'm sorry I dont mean to I also dont like it when theres screaming or alot of noice or atleast loud noice my sister recently bought me bose headphones which are soundproof and I travel alot through busy cities to visit family so I might also mind soft noices but just not know I think alot about how other people portray me and I move my feet alot even in bed and I cant sleep alot sometimes I'll be up for a week everyday till 3 or 4 am just trying to sleep and scared that I'll get a heart attack or something in my sleep I know this is a lot of reading but I hope somebody can help me 


King regards me