I've been diagnosed with chronic depression ever since I wqs a preteen but I remember times before where I was never happy. I've gotten "help" before but the pills never worked so I stopped taking them. I want to have a family of my own but I feel as if I can't because I'm afraid further down the line I feel when I finally do have one, I'll hit a really rough patch and not make it through. It's hard, life, happiness. It all feels so impossible. I'm sorry.