so especially lately for like two months or so i’ve been dealing with a lot of bpd-related symptoms and since like two years or so suspect that i might have bpd. i did a lot of research on it but i never wanted to label it as bpd since i know it’s a complex and severe disorder that one shouldn’t just claim to have or self-diagnose. i’ve been in therapy since 2018 now but never really talked about stuff like relationships that much since i’m mostly in therapy because of my transition. but i always noticed that with every person i meet and am interested in, i get severly obsessed and my whole mood and self-value or the way i present and view myself depends on that specific person and that person only. and that’s where it gets tricky now. last month i met a guy and i don’t wanna get into detail rn but all i can say is that everytime i’m with him i’m the happiest person alive. there’s someone who finally sees me and makes me feel alive and cares about me. but when i’m not around him it honestly feels like dying. it hurts so much. i feel empty and bored waiting for him to text me. i even ignore all of my friends until he finally texts me back. and if it’s a good message i’m feeling euphoric again. when the message seems slightly off tho or doesn’t give off the same feelings i have towards him, i feel like (TW) harming or even unaliving myself. and yesterday i texted him about how much it hurts to miss him (i feel so stupid for that) and he just texted me that he feels like i’m hooked up on him and that it scares him because ge doesn’t wantbto hurt me. what if he’s going to leave me now? what if he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore? i feel like i can’t breathe. idk how to survive this right now,, i really need some advice…should i talk to my therapist about my suspect of having bpd???? idk what to do..i’m so sorry if that’s too much venting on here