My family ignores me, even if I messaged them to say I was going to the hospital they wouldn’t respond. They act like they care around others but in private they could care less. I have no friends either, people like me but they just want to talk about their life and if I open up about mine they seem to shy away or change the conversation. It’s always too much for people to handle so I rarely open up about myself. I can’t see a therapist because of money issues and I’m on a long waitlist for affordable therapy. 

How am I supposed to deal with this?