Hey I've been lurking here a little while and figured I'd post now because I'm feeling pretty down and embarrassed about a text I sent earlier today.

So a few months ago I made a new friend (my first new friend in years) and I've hung out with him a handful of times since then. Last night I was at his place watching football and doing some gaming and he started ragging on me for one of the shows I like and I took it all very personally like as if he was calling me an idiot for liking the show. I just kinda laughed and pretended to brush it off at the time and eventually he even got around to admitting that he finds some of the episodes to be pretty funny actually, but that didn't change the fact that what he said was eating away at me inside the entire rest of the night and into this morning. It was like all of a sudden I knew for sure that he didn't actually like me, he just wanted me around to make fun of me (obviously that doesn't make sense, but it's the only thought that was going through my head).

So this morning it was really bothering me and I just was dying to understand what happened for him to change like that all of a sudden so I texted him basically asking him what his problem is with me. Needless to say he was super confused. He texted back right away like "Dude wrong number maybe??? It's me, (name)!" And that was when I sort of snapped out of it and realized how ridiculous I was being. I never ended up responding to him but now I just feel stupid and very embarrassed =/ I feel like I've been improving a lot lately and I was so happy to finally have made a new friend and now it feels like I just blew it like I always do :(