From the beginning, it’s been an uphill battle 

I was conceived by two dead beats
I didn’t ask for this 

It sucks to be an accident and grow up an after thought 

It fucks you up, it really does. Neglect is weird, like, a child is supposed to be special to you and a child is supposed to be something you cherish and take care of. 

Why did they think that was okay?

I’m 23 now. I’ve done everything on my own, I take pride in that, I guess. What choice did I have? 

It’s always a gut punch to wake up and remember who I am and what’s on my plate 

Yeah I make it harder on myself, but it’s never been easy 

I feel emotionless. I was sad I’ve been angry, over years it’s become depression. Sometimes though, like right now, I just feel pain. I don’t know what emotion this is, I’m not sad. I’m not angry. I just hurt.