Parents are in their 50s and I couldn’t help them carry some drawers they bought for the new house. I think I have to lie about my symptoms if I hope to be allowed in the high functioning day treatment group... I’m not high functioning enough that I can express complex feelings or hold a job. My friend really wants me to attend, though. She cryptically hinted that it’s for our other friend that we are doing this and reminded me that this friend was shaking, blanking out and mumbling to herself while we were out for lunch. Maybe some Hellish situation set up for her and others with mental illness. I don’t really know… my friend is moving away at the end of the month but I feel that she thinks our work is not finished which is why she wants me to do some suffering to help our other friend. Also, I feel my friend also advised me not to be too casual with money because my parents now own a second house. I somehow doubt that I can work, though, so I don’t really have any plans for what to do after treatment ends. I hope this friend and I will still be bffs after she moves. My birthday is next month and I’m wondering whether to have a party with other friends. I was hoping life will get better, but it still hasn’t.