my fp, who i have been in a relationship with for almost 3 years, is making me feel like utter shit.

about a year ago i started experiencing a major decline in sex drive. before this i was hypersexual and so is my bf (he still is). i obviously became less and less sexual as my sex drive got worse. after a few months of barely any sex he started to put me down, call me a cheater, a hoe, a slut, a bitch, everything you could think of. he to this day constantly tells me i’m probably getting sex from someone else. even a few minutes ago after a fight about how i dont have sex with him enough, he asked me “what? are you texting your boyfriend?” when i got on my phone.

when we broke up for a month a few months back i went on tinder and was looking for hookups. i was trying to find myself again and i felt that could help. when my bf and i got back together, he found out i was on tinder looking for hookups. he now uses this against me and says it was cheating.

another thing i’d like to add is that i have had to tell him i have cheated when i haven’t just because if i don’t lie and say i have he will leave me. and i don’t know how to live without him.

so now he is under the impression that i’m a cheater and a liar when really the lies i’ve told have been that i’ve cheated. i have not cheated on him.

basically i’m asking what i can do to move on from him. you guys know how hard it is to move on from your fp. it’s crippling, but i know it would be the best for my mental health if i were able to.

please help.