So growing up I was never close with family nor my siblings and have always been super shy and quiet around them anyway but I feel like as I’ve gotten older I’m still the same way and this time it’s just super bad. Especially because I am the black sheep and feel different from everyone else and feel like I can’t come out of my shell and be myself which is why I am the way that I am around them and we don’t have much in common so there’s that. I’m 24 years old and I feel like I can’t even cuss around anyone not even my siblings like the type of bond that most siblings have where they can joke around with each other and dance you know just doing stupid stuff with each other is the type of bond I wish we had. There’s no bad blood we’re all cool and get along it’s just the fact that we aren’t close and I can’t be myself around them let alone anyone tbh… Like even when my sister visits I get anxious every time and being in the car with her makes everything even more awkward because I never have anything to say or talk about it’s always just silence so anytime I go somewhere with her I expect for other people to come like my mom or nephews or my older sister so the car ride won’t be so quiet… But I’m just very quiet and anxious around everyone that I go on car rides with or around even my mom…