There’s no way I can go keep going on without her.

It’s been 4 years as of this month since we broke up and it’s only getting worse.

I ***need*** her to come back or I can’t continue to live.

They’ve been triggered by a lot of things today. Driving around places in the city where we live, in places we went on dates or spent time together has really been kicking my ass over the last 24 hours.

Also this is going to sound really, I don’t know shallow or stupid, but certain things have been reminding me of like.....our sexual relationship, or just like how attracted I was to her, or just like her body, and how much it fucking hurts to be without the person I feel that way about, and how I can’t feel that way about anyone else.

I don’t know what to do.

I feel like I need to get in touch with her and at least ***try*** to convince her to come back, but I don’t have a lot of confidence that would work out. On the flip side, I know if I do nothing I can’t continue to live.

Help me here.