So, it all started last night, when my SO didn't reply to my messages. 

I felt the BPD emotions of anger, abandonment and also the need to say that I had had enough of his indifference. 

It had such an impact on my normally positive emotions, so intense that I split on him after work 2 hours ago. 

I may have to tell my therapist at some point that I am experiencing splitting symptoms despite taking my Sertraline, but it really has pushed me to breaking point and right now I'm doing everything I can to ride this out. 

I was so tired that I nearly oversaw the fact that I had a shift this morning, yet thankfully I managed to get to work on time. 

He's hurt that I am reneging my romantic feelings - I'm hurt that he didn't communicate that he was busy, and as a result this split in emotions has occurred in the last 24 hours. 

Urrrgh 🙄