Anyway, if I where to count I have more miserable days then good and I'm talking from well my whole life to now. Out of a whole week I might actually feel good for a few hours...

Im 31 stupid me took a preapprenticeship program and now am owner of a useless degree... All I want GOD IS A FKN TRADE!

I saved up 8k over the span of 2.5years,met a girl and somehow let it slip away... Women make you weak.

I want to fix sht and have someone teach me, for God sake.....well in my endeavour to finish school I now have 6k.in credit card debt, 7k on my car and am 4 months behind in rent....so 2400.

Manageable yes... But all I had to do was call a union, instead I wasted all my savings and 4yrs trying to make this fkn work and I'm further being then I was before.

I hate myself I hate MYSELF, I hate myself, I HATE MYSELF!

I go to sleep confused and anxious, I wake up depressed and self loathing.... Maybe I just wear it as a shield?

Idk anymore....