Dealing with all the shitty stuff in life dark souls is the only thing which gives me comfort. Whenever I feel down I listen to some dark souls music, watch some lore videos and write my book which is hugely influenced by dark souls misery. 

It sounds kinda contradictory that something so depressing like Dark Souls where literally most of humanity went hollow because of there being no purpose comforts me. I think the reason I relate to this so much is because in this hopelessness the only person you need is yourself. You are the reason for your happiness and misery at the same time. And in this misery I try to do the best out of my depressed mindset.