Please help. I loved a girl for 2 yrs, I left her but I wanted her back but she wasn't coming. I fell into drugs and self harm/isolation/anxiety/depression. I am very unstable, make alot of plans but never really act on them, cant hold down a job and find them really exhausting. I met another girl 1 year later, kept messaging her, kept talking about relationships and telling her she was a goddess. She blocked me and I kept creating new accounts going nuts and spamming her really weird things, mostly pleading. I just met another online (both online) and she said yes to dinner after 5 messages, I got obsessed with her and told her I wanted her and to protect and care for her (after like 10 messages) and then spammed her untill she told me 'your fucking weird' and blocked me. I don't know what to do. I am obsessed with Psychology and know that truth is curative so please write the truth. Thank you, I love you. I am scared I'm loosing it.