i used to be so friendly and social. i used  to be good at art. i used to be smart. i used to be full of ambitions. i used to make the people around me feel happy. i used to make my parents proud. what the hell happened to me ??

now i just keep dragging everyone down. i continue to disappoint them. i keep missing classes because of my stupid thoughts and insomnia, my grades are getting worse. my art became mediocre and boring. i continuously cut myself whenever dumb minor inconveniences happen. my family is burdened by my anger issues, i can see how lively their mood is when i'm not around. 

i've gotten worse. i'm so disappointed at myself.