Objectively my life is good. I dont really have problems at school, I have a loving gf and although we live away from eachother we meet almost every week. I have a group of friends that are always willing to spend time with me.

Despite that I just can't be happy. I'm always depressed, have mood swings and feel worthless.

You might think that I'm not grateful for all that or just attention seeking. Honestly I'm not surprised as I often think that myslef. I just dont know what to so anymore. My life has been a nightmare for the past 6 months. I'm trying but i keep failing to be grateful for what I have. Maybe I dont deserve all that? Maybe I should just kill myself if I cant be happy no matter what?