I don’t want to commit suicide but I wish I would die for weird reasons. I’m so tired of people. I try very hard to be the best friend/coworker/wife/person I can be. Im the kind of person to check on people randomly if we haven’t talked or I see you’re having a bad day, to be considerate and lend a hand or an ear where it’s needed. But no one does this for me. I’m very alone with all my thoughts and feelings and when I try to reach out to my “friends” they’re always short with me or make it very plain they have no interest in listening to what’s going on. I wish I would die so that they could see the pain I’m suffering and feel the regret of always pushing me to the side. I want them to realize what they lost but it never seems to affect people until you’re permanently gone. Anyway, I hope y’all are having a better day than me, thanks for reading all the way through if you got this far