I dont even know if what I have is depression, but I just cant be happy with myself. Im not even that old but I just hate myself all the time im not good at anything im ugly, unfunny and I dont have many friends. To prove my point one of my past partners told me they didnt like me for my looks. I like going out with my friends but everytime I do I get sad that they can just do stuff and im so unproductive like them they work out and play sports while im not good at playing sports and I dont know where to start for working out. The only thing im good at is stuff online which is nothing to be proud of compared to everyone else. I get decent marks 80%s but I never feel good enough everyone around be gets 90s and 100s. Sometimes when I hang out with my friends I notice everyone has something thats their "quirk" ex: Funny, Athletic, etc and im just none of them. My dad tries to help me but he doesnt understand and I dont mean to sound emo but he isnt introverted like me. Honestly dont know what to do, id rather post this than get therapy cause its expensive and I have to go out honestly just typing this out makes me feel better already