it hurts to talk to my friends. I get it they mean well, but it got to the point all they say is "well all men are pigs, what did you expect?" and "you know what you should do? hook up and take revenge" "just find another guy"

I don't want another person, I want him. And do you realize what happened? I trusted my worst fear wouldn't happen. He reassured me. He made me believe someone could stay or try to work it out, and he didn't even try. He got bored or tired or who knows and... left. No warning. Just found someone better and left. It's like someone saying "jump, I'll catch you" after you've gotten injured so many times - and then they don't catch you. And it hurts, worse than before. But later someone says "jump! What's the worst that can happen? Falling?! Big deal, I've fallen before and it was just a scratch"

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I remember telling myself the same day he broke up that "okay there's no signs he's leaving, this is perceived abandonment. Okay? You're going to be fine" and then boom. My worst fear happens. Again. Only this time wasn't a friend who said "fuck you" or family member who died. Was a boyfriend. Someone I loved romantically... the only feeling I didn't allow myself to feel for EVER

And you telling me to "let it go" and to "accept all men do this" is only making it worse. You're only telling my head no one stays. Everyone leaves. And why would I want to be alive if it means eventually I'll be alone?

I'm exhausted. But when I tell them these comments hurt, they all say "well we all go through break ups, it's normal, don't overthink it. It hurts now but in a few days it'll get better. You just need to find someone else". Ha, thanks

So I am left feeling horrible because I must be a burden to them. All I have done this week is mention him or say I haven't been sleeping/eating properly. I try to avoid it, change topic but it's harder when I meet them in person. 

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So, in conclusion: I've been abandoned and I'm a shitty friend because their advice hurts.. Not gonna lie, I've thought about doing something drastic so I'll go to the psych hospital and avoid life. But that'd only mean I'll stay another year behind and I worked so hard these past 3 years to graduate and move on. 

Not to mention, I can't deal again with my parents/family seeing me as the failed mentally ill person