Update from earlier post.

Got another rejection from a job so I'm still stuck at the inevitable mathematical outcome of me having to die so that my family can survive.

What I'm still doing: antidepressants, talk therapy, gym, low sugar diet focused on vegetables and lean meat.

I'm doing everything I can, but I'm starting to see the limits of medical science. Only a job offer can save me now. I can't even get a fast food job because the managers get suspicious of my high level resume.

My friends think I have my shit together, but I can't wait to get some rest from existence.