I’m back to my normal ways and disappointing everyone around me again. I failed my spring semester of my freshman year of college; really don’t know why, I just didn’t want to go and didn’t think of the consequences. So now I can’t go back to school until spring of next year. My parents are upset, obviously. They say I never tell them anything and they would’ve helped if I had been honest with them. They’re so nice, and I hate when I burden them with my problems. 

My parents are making me go back to therapy because of my anxiety and depression. Last time I went I lied to my therapist and said I rarely felt sad, and that I felt like I was making progress. I think I was a little bit but I definitely exaggerated it to please her. I don’t mean to lie to everyone, but it’s just what feels easiest. I don’t like disappointing people. I also stopped taking my antidepressant medication. Again, I do not know why. I’m in denial and just want to sleep. Does anyone have advice on how I can be open with my therapist?