I was diagnosed with bipolar roughly 3 weeks ago when anxiety meds I started induced a manic episode. I have been on three different meds in 3 weeks. The first one made me manic, the second one made me drowsy constantly and turned me into a zombie. And the third one I’m on now is lithium. My sex drive is gone I think I have erectile dysfunction and I don’t know if all of this is worth it. Since taking meds all of my symptoms got worse. I didn’t even know I had it and no one would have guessed I had it until I started meds. My manic episode was the happiest I have ever been. I’d rather cycle from highs and lows and be able to be myself versus having to get blood done every month, having to worry about water intake or else I might get lithium poisoning, having to worry about other side effects I might face and what not. My fear is that if I stop taking it I’ll probably just be depressed and go through withdrawals. But the thing is I am currently depressed. All my meds have done has stabled my mood to a consistently low depressed level. For the most part at least. But yesterday I had the craziest range in moods it’s insane. Ik it’s bad but I just wish to have that feeling of euphoria again. It seems the better alternative. Im 19 and I want a normal life but if I can’t have that idk. I’d rather just be myself whatever that is.