Hey everyone, im in a depressive episode right now and normally im a pretty fun person to be around. While in a sad mood i tend to spend my time alone, which doesn’t help me at all most of the time. Today i tried to go meet with friends but they of course all realised that something was wrong and asked for an explanation which i unfortunately do not have. It’s just my mood swings but people always want to hear reasons, which is understandable, but also hard for me. I ended up feeling worse honestly and went back home. Another thing I do is zoning out completely, not being much talkative and stuff. I really don’t know now if it was a mistake to go meet with friends. Staying at home right now can mean endless crying sessions, overthinking and feeling absolute shit but I’m not suicidal at the moment, my mood keeps going up and down it’s just that. I also don’t want that my friends feel fed up with me thinking oh she is a downer, she sucks our energy and so on.