Every single day I feel anxious, drained, depressed. I just want a break, i can never get one because of the amount of stress i have to face every single day. No matter what I do, painting, drawing, playing music, it doesn't help. I just want my pain to end and it feels like it won't. I cannot have antidepressants because I do not have access to that, and I'm glad I don't. I don't want to start relying on pills and become addicted, I worry about that a lot if i ever get some kind of medicine. I go to therapy, it works for a day or two, but then it comes back and gets worse until the next appointment.

I don't know what I can do, and I feel like I'm on the edge and the slightest thing that happens will make me snap and I'll lose it.