we had a big fight a couple of weeks ago. i scared her and made her feel backed into a corner. she cant see me as the same loving guy i am the way she did before. and even before that fight i just asked too much of her. made her feel guilty for not being able to 'give enough'.

i wish i could show her what i really feel. i wish i could convey to her just how much im willing to learn about real love with her, for me and us. not that filling the void love, the real one, the one ive never felt until i met her.

BPD is fucking hell but the worst part isnt the sickness itself, its how easily i forget how beautiful the people i love truly are.