I wish it would’ve worked when I was in 5th grade. People always tell me it’s going to get better but really it doesn’t. I only like a few things, I always put on a fake smile. I know I’m annoying and very stupid. I always say stupid things not on purpose. I can tell my family hates me and my friends dislike me. I hate the school I go to and I’m only in 9th grade. I feel like I’m just a waste of space and that nobody truly cares about me. My dad told I can’t have problems/I don’t know what problems are. It’s like I have to kill myself to make people realize. I hate myself and my life; I wish I was never born. I got touched in middle school and nobody cared and I’m afraid something more will happen. I don’t wanna live like this anymore. My parents just yell/get mad at me for cutting myself and just makes everything worse. I’m sure that if I wasn’t around anymore they’d all get over it in an hour or less. My siblings used to hit me all the time and I probably deserved it. I don’t even know why I decided to stay alive for this long, I should’ve done it a long time ago. I can’t even sleep all I do is stare at the wall like a dumbass. I can’t do it anymore.