I'm just thinking back to my life, all the choices I made, and like idek where to start. I'm watching a show about prison rn, and there are all these women who did some fucked up shit but at the end of the day they're all still redeemable because when you get to know them they are just people who did what they did because life fucked them up in some way. i literally cant even fucking exist, like i literally feel like im dying and i cant talk i cant think im having a constant, silent panic attack/existential crisis. im such a shitty person, i cant be around people or do anything. ive stressed myself out so much with overthinking that i started to like math cuz at least it means there is one right answer and im not being lied to or being manipulative somehow. idek how to describe my feeling i just feel like im going fucking crazy.