The other day , I talked to someone whom I thought I could trust &amp; it completely backfired.  I have never been utterly open about my past traumatizing events as she replied " that's unfortunate , your probably saying that to attention" .  

Oh , how I wish anxiety &amp; depression were just a myth .   Walking around with a void in your chest &amp; mind is similar to walking around with heavy darbies chained to your ankles .     Anxiety feels like the walls are closing in on you &amp; you can't breathe... 
  It's hard to fit in &amp; make friends , friends &amp; family are no help when you wanna talk they just scorn &amp; manipulate you . Often I feel like it's me against the world ,  My therapist has given me a note quoting I need a companion I went &amp; adopted a corgi which I have had for about 6 yrs now .  I would be so lost without my for legged companion.    She makes me feel less of a ghost in this dark cruel world , I wish more humans were like my dog , she loves &amp; reassures you that she cares , not a hateful bone in her body .     It's lonely not having anyone that understands you instead they're quick to underestimate cause you're different.