(27/F) I used to be so hyper sexual as a teenager. I had a 5 year break because of my trauma and recently broke it to a one night stand.

I’m finally talking to someone again (and it’s a coworker…so embarassing). But I really really like this dude. I was never physically attracted to him, but now that we are “talking” —texting, calling on off hours….I really just want him to dominate me.

At this point I feel like it’s my BPD that’s making me feel like this…I’m literally throbbing I feel like it was so stupid of me to even start speaking to a co worker regularly, the way we’ve been speaking.

(No pics or inappropriate texts, I’m just having aggressive, disturbing, and recurring fantasies)

Anyone else get like this?