So i met this Person online. And he was SO nice to me. We never even met and I felt so much in love with him. I always asked him if he wants to meet and he wanted me and i guess I started idealizing him. It felt so good talking to him. I must have overshared or something, i dont know. Anyways, i confronted him, about never being able to meet up and i was really angry with him and he told me that he thinks he's scared of commitment. So i flipped out on him. Accusing him of things and stuff. Whatever. It ended before it even started. 

And it felt as if my whole world fell apart. I never even met him and yet I felt like i couldn't go on without him. I cried for 10 hours straight the first day and a lot more hours the next day. Still cry sometimes. 

Anyways. I'm trying to get over it. But I'm really scared what's going to happen if I'm together with someone for much longer and they leave me. I wouldn't know how to handle it at all. I don't think it would end well.