Dear anybody who cares to read this,

I just can’t take it anymore. I can’t take constantly being alone in everything and for everything being my fault. Everything has to be my fault somehow. And I can’t handle it. I can’t handle always being blamed or people always trying to change me and my opinions. I’m tired of people just leaving me in the ditch. I’m tired of being constantly tortured by my brain. I’m tired of living this nightmare. 

I’m tired of always making the wrong moves and making things worse for everyone constantly. I’m tired of feeling so unloved that I feel like I can never be loved. I’m tired of the pain that life brings on me. It’s too much to bare and I have no one to help with the weight. So, I’m letting go. Letting it crush me. Consume me. Until I no longer exist. It feels like that’s going to be the only way I’ll ever be at peace. 

So, goodbye. It was nice knowing you. But it’s my time to leave this place. Please know that I’m at peace finally.