Fuck my fake friends who ever pretended to care. Fuck my family who pretended to care. They all left and started ignoring me, when I began changing from depression and anxiety. I’m no longer the fun and energetic person I used to be, so I am not worth it anymore to them. 

I realized I am only wanted around when I am in the right headspace to help people. 

I told them I feel so bad lately and am suicidal, ever since I realized my older brother m*lested me, from a flashback, it’s been hard to come to terms with. 

Since I am not able to do what they want, I no longer matter. Fuck. Why was I there for them during their hard times (even when I was struggling) when they gave up because I am in a bad place?