I just want to put this out there, I have multiple health problems. I had brain surgery last year in October, I haven't completely healed I also was diagnosed with scoliosis (my spine is curved) and will get worse with age and I don't know when I am going to have surgery for it. I also have mild learning disability. My anxiety is just an added bonus. However I am still capable to do minimal tasks

I am terrified to get a job, I have people who help me search for jobs and I feel like I am wasting their time because I am not actively searching for jobs and applying for them for myself that I can do in my spare time. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and generalised anxiety when I was 17 (currently 21) and now this year I got depression.

My anxiety stops me from doing anything, I'm scared what happens if my job place don't like me? What happens if I can't do the job they ask of me? What happens if I'm doing it wrong? I know this might seen bad but I feel like I use my health as excuse, I know it's not true and I genuinely do have health problems and I hate being vulnerable to people so I don't tell people how I am feeling and stick with the pain. I don't have a job at the moment and I'm not studying at the moment so I'm mostly stuck at home.

Thank you to however reads this or don't, I just wanted to write out my thoughts