I suvk. Ruin everything. Can't have nice people. Too broken. Bad me. Gahh. But... nope not good enough. My chest hurts, wanna cry. Can't cry tho.. too broken to cry. Fuvk what tf is wrong with me.?? Lose every1 and can't make new friends bc I attach too hard while manic happy bc new people show tiniest amount of common human decency to me and boom! Have full bpd range of emotions thrown at them in 5 mins or less. I suck. But I keep trying bc lonely but I fail bc I don't deserve anything good. Like duhhh if we were cavemen and I was broken like this, a sabre-toothed tiger would have eaten me bc I'd be wandering around by myself  eing upset and stupid. No more bpd me. Stupid fuck. Gah. Why doesn't this ever end??? Now I just write sooky shit on  pd reddit bc they can't stop me and at least my feeling will exist, somewhere, at least for a moment.....