My school starts in two days and ive been fearing the moment since summer started, but more since last school year started. Covid made everyone wear masks and school and always wearing made me develop body dysmorphia and a dependance on one where i feel like fainting at the thought of being in public without one not for Covid reasons. Ive tried to ease into it by doing it in a store but everytime i see someone my age i shut down and panic and want to melt into the floor. The thought of being around hundreds of kids my age. And none of them have seen anyone without a mask rly so what if i look worse without one and they hate me i cant do this rn.I want to end my life idk what to do.