Hello all, this is my first post ever and I hope I'm doing everything right, but I was just wondering if you guys found it difficult to really find a therapist who understood bpd and didn't just see people with bpd as monsters. When I'd try to bring up my bpd symptoms, it usually gets brushed over because I don't "act like a person with bpd". They pretty much dismiss the idea because I don't act chaotic and out of control while I'm in there and don't show extreme anger. This has bugged me because yes, I may seem calm and quiet while I'm in there (most likely due to my social anxiety and me not liking to open up about my negative traits to people I don't yet trust), but I don't feel like it's fair to assume that everyone with bpd acts in the same extreme manner. I'm definitely not that quiet and calm person outside of the therapists office, and I've just found it difficult to trust and open up to therapists due to this happening everytime I do. Also, when they explain bpd like that, I always feel like I'm faking my bpd because I don't act that way,  and it just makes me feel invalid overall. I was just wondering if any of you had any similar experiences. 