I'm a lesbian, and I didn't get into his car or accidently let slip that I was less than a block from home- but I did give him my number and first name and said we could link up later. He said he'd pay me $100 for my time??  1st of all, I've slept with men I was extremely disgusted by *for free* many times in my life because of my bpd self-punishment behavior, and this guy wasn't gross. He was a dude, but not dirty or creepy. Second of all, I am hard up for cash. (like, really hard up) and it's $100. 

But also- the only reason he considers me "beautiful" is because he doesn't know what I look like naked. I am overweight and lumpy, am having a really bad eczema flare-up with lots of active scabs/redness, and have many \*many\* scars from you can guess where. 

I kind of need the money, and I don't have anything against sex work, but I'm kind of like extremely afraid he'll be disgusted by me if I actually take him up on his offer. Also that he might be mean to me/ leave me somewhere miles from home with no way to get back. He seemed okay? But my BPD could be downplaying red flags..

Is this a horrible idea I'm only considering because of impulsive/self-destructive tendencies or should I like, set up safe-guards and prep for worst case scenarios to protect me if/when I do it? I'm really tired of forcing myself to sleep with dudes but $100 is $100.