it's great when you just sit here and talk to someone and start to act like an idiot.  they say they don't hate me, but I know they do.  I know they ALL hate me.  they are just waiting for me to be gone.  that's all they fucking want.  and boy they know how close they are.  but they won't go through with it.  they know they want to kill me. they know they have the means.  but yet they haven't yet.  why wait? take me out now. they know they want to.