I am on this new medication for my anxiety called Prozac. it seems to have been working out well for me. 

Today, I took my Prozac as usual, but I decided to also take Ritalin because it helps with my ADD. My psychiatrist told me that both drugs were safe to take together. But I believe this combination of drugs is what triggered my horrible day. 

Within 30 minutes of taking both medications, I had detailed intrusive thoughts of all the bad things that could happen to me or my family. Basically, I thought about every one of my worst fears coming true. I suddenly felt unsafe and insecure, and that feeling only got more intense throughout the day. 

By the time I got off the bus and on campus, I was a mess. I had all this pent-up anxiety inside of me, and I needed to let it out. I couldn’t even make it to the bathroom; as soon as I stepped off the bus, I burst into tears and just broke down. I was so embarrassed and felt like a freak. 

Apart from the initial anxiety, I also felt gloomy and depressed. Something inside of me was telling me that I was fat and ugly and stupid and worthless. I started to hate myself with a passion. I was angry that I had all these flaws, and I was angry that I had to suffer with this horrible anxiety disorder. I literally starved myself, because I felt that I didn’t even deserve to eat. 

Because I ate nothing all day, I began to develop a really bad headache, muscle weakness, and shakiness. But my mind was still relentless. I told myself that I deserved to feel this way as a punishment for just existing. It was a battle between my hunger and my depression. my depression won. 

I was also just really confused. I felt moody and teary, but literally nothing had happened to me. It’s not like I had a bad experience or any real explanation for why I was so sad and scared. it all came from my head, and that was so terrifying. 

Ironically, my focusing was worse (even though Ritalin is supposed to help with focusing). I felt like a zombie all day, floating through my classes. All I could focus on was how I felt inside, and I didn’t pay attention to anything that was being taught. It was torture.

To top it all off, all the buses that I needed to take to get home were late. I did a lot of walking, including some running to try and chase a bus that I had just missed. This made me feel worse physically and mentally. I just wanted to go home and hide in my bed.

Right now, it’s around 9 PM, and I think that most of the medication is out of my system. I started to come down from my delusional state of mind a few hours ago, but I am still scarred. Even though I made sure to eat a balanced and healthy dinner, I am still left with a severe headache. I also threw up because I guess my brain couldn’t handle everything that it has been through today. I am just in shock because although I have anxiety disorder, I have never felt anything as intense as this. I will never be taking Ritalin with Prozac ever again. 

Has anyone else had a bad interaction with these drugs?