I've been through almost ten therapist throughout the last three years. I've only learned I have some censory issue, I have bpd, bipolar, GAD, severe depression and shit that hasn't been diagnosed. 

I've gone to the hospital but because I'm only 16 and poor everything's limited. I'll be 17 in November, that might make it easier. 

I don't know what to do. No ones helping me, I split every day and every time I go to kill myself. I don't want to die but the other girl that's malicious, emotionally abusive and manipulative wants to kill me. 

Sometimes I see shit. 

I just need direction, if there's books, places that don't cost a lot bc once again my family isn't rich whatsoever. 