I’m still scared of you.  Sometimes in the middle of talking I think that you think I’m stupid.  I think that you’ve lost your patience and I just annoy you.  I have that sinking feeling and I know I have to shut up and go away.  But I can’t get rid of it.  It doesn’t go away until you talk to me again.  And if your words sound nice then I am relieved.  I am so fucked.  You don’t deserve this.