Have absolutely zero willpower to do anything. Keep quitting therapy because even sitting in a chair takes all my will. I just lay around all day even pomodoro is too difficult. Keep getting drunk.

Been taking sertralin, feel somewhat better inside, but keep daydreaming about death. Would hang myself in a heartbeat if mom didn't care. I don't have any desires to accomplish anything either.

Do I still need help or am I just lazy?