My life has become as dry and cold as they come. I’m lonely, but also terrified to have someone else around again. This has been a cycle for two years now and I only find myself getting deeper into this same circular hell. 

I am empty inside, I have little drive todo anything. When I do encounter people, the person that I portray on the outside is no way the person that I am on it inside. I have nobody to tell how I truly feel. 

It’s like I used to be one person, but now i have been replaced by this hollow shell of myself. 

I don’t know how to fight it or make it better