I’m going to be straight forward I’ve been in 3 accidents again after I totaled my moms car. It’s been a year. I want to say I drive better on my meds but I’m a really bad driver and all my accidents have been my fault. I try to be more aware but it feels like I fix one problem and another one comes up. I’m ready to throw in the towel and quit driving altogether. I asked my boss to transfer me to a different hospital already. I’m going to start taking the bus. I just want the accidents to stop. This last one that happened he hit me completely on my side but I wasn’t supposed to be where I was. I want to be asleep so bad. I think I only scared my parents this time cause I didn’t want to come home. I got out of my sister’s car and walked. The guy I’ve been hanging out with chased after me so we walked together. Things were supposed to get better. I was getting more independence, paying for my own stuff, I have a better job, then this happened. I want to get so drunk and not think anymore. I wish I can say I take this pill and it will make me better