I 22f feel nothing but everything at the same time. I wanna die so badly. I made a promise to my boyfriend i wouldn’t kill myself. If he worries he contacts my mom. Idk what to do. I wanna do it and just not say anything. I’ll write him a letter in my journal for him or something. I’m adopted. My birth mom and birth dad sexually abused me. My birth mom contacted me recently. She denies everything. My home life is a wreck bc of my older sister. I’m scared I’m going nowhere. I just wanna die bro like I rly can’t handle any of what’s going on in my life right now. My irritability is at an all time high. I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense. I feel like nobody cares. J just want it to be over already.