I'm new here.  At 33 years old I just received a diagnosis of the Emotionally Instable BPD (I live in Germany).  I already have the diagnosis for Bipolar 2 (with frequent clinical depression) which I think made seeing the Borderline symptoms more difficult for my doctors and therapists.  However, after five weeks away from home at a rehabilitation center, being stable enough on the Bipolar front, my Borderline symptoms became visible.  

I guess I came here because I have not told anyone in my life about this second diagnosis.  I am not doubting it, it is absolutely clear to me that I have a Borderline disorder and I am happy to know finally what the fuck is up!  I have kept this a secret for many reasons, but mostly for privacy to work on my issues on my own schedule and in my own way without having to explain myself or worry about worrying more people.  I am also scared that some people will judge me harshly because of the lame information they will find on the internet about this disorder and don't understand it's a spectrum and that everyone experiences it differently.  

I'm also having struggles with guilt because I think that secrecy promotes the web of public scrutiny people with mental disorders suffer with.  I have been an advocate of speaking out against stigma with my bipolar, so why do I feel differently about this?  

Ok.  Sorry.  Going out to party now.  Big hugs to all of you on this forum, you're brave to be getting help and awesome to have a community here on Reddit.