He gave me 3 months of meds and told me either I’ll have to find a new place to go or wait for them to replace him. He worries because I require stability and my lows get REALLY low. 

3 months is too much when I’m supposed to be working up on lamotrigine and lithium. (At 100mg and 600mg respectfully). 

Not only is this gonna delay my progress it’s possibly going to halt it and reverse it as well if I can’t find a suitable replacement. 

I DO NOT want to rehash everything I did with him to someone new. He said he has concise notes for his replacement but who’s to say they’ll be good?? That way I wouldn’t have to spill my heart out all over again but I don’t trust easily and I hate being abandoned. 

I just feel the world crashing around me. The rug pulled from under me. I have no where to run and no future in sight without my progress.