Months ago in my senior year of high school I was playing on the varsity basketball team. The year before was fun and I loved the sport. However that year I stopped practicing and was unfit and got worse. That year the new juniors joined the team. I knew I was better than most of them however I had never played 5v5 basketball which made it harder for me. I got practically 0 play time while everyone else did. Therefore, everyone would laugh at me and belittle me. It came to a point where I stopped caring and “forgot” to bring my jersey to games. I felt like trash. I even caught a kid making fun of me behind my back cus he didn’t know I was listening. They would always say how I was the worst and trash. Even though on a 1 on 1 I’d beat the other bench players talking trash. Now I think back and I feel a lot of anger at them and for myself for not speaking up. Even the assistant coach was one of the biggest jerks to me. This was a traumatic time.