It just hurts. 

My family doesn’t care about me. They don’t care enough to set boundaries that are helpful to my mental health. They’d rather appease their “favorite” child than actually help the one who’s barely getting by. 

Every time I try to make friends irl, they ghost me or aren’t interested in talking. When I had jobs and did social things irl, no one was ever interested in being friends with me. Not a soul. 

This shit makes me so depressed. I’m not even sure how I can cope. I want to SH again but I know that’s a bad idea. Just, ugh…I hate this. I hate that I’m not important to anyone and that no one cares about my feelings. I’m just seen as bad. No one will ever see me for who I try to be. I hate myself. 

I wish there was an easier way out. I don’t necessarily wanna kms, but I’d like to disappear.