I start a new job today and I’m so nervous. At my last job I felt like I was the dummy of the group of employees, so I’m worried about being too stupid to do this job properly too. And I’m also so scared of losing my patience or my composure while on the job. And I’m also nervous because I only applied because I was told it could be a part-time job, but somehow I’ve signed up for a full-time job, and now I’m going to struggle more to do well in college. I’m also worried because this is going to be one of my last semesters, so I don’t know how long I’ll actually be able to stay at this full-time job until I go to university. 

I’m so scared. I know I sound so stupid right now but my job involves talking on the phone and I still have a cough from when I was sick a few weeks ago. I’m so scared. 

I want to send a hug to anyone who struggles with BPD and has a job, any job; part-time, full-time, working from home. Your efforts aren’t unnoticed even if you feel like they are. You all have my support. 

I’m so thankful for this sub. Lately I’ve been slipping and falling, so to speak, with self-harm and depression and anger outbursts. At least I’m not alone in my attempts to improve who I am as a  person. It isn’t easy, but we have each other. At least I hope so. 

Have a good day, everyone. 