My fp dumped me a few months ago and I never got over it. She blocked me for a while and I was a complete and utter mess. I tried not to kill myself during that time because had hopes of her eventually taking me back. Eventually I got her to unblock me but now she doesnt talk to me as much and is gone alot. We talked and she said she still loved me but wasnt good enough for me (which I find ironic because I'm the crazy clingy ex with bpd lol). Anyways, hearing that made everything hurt even more, knowing that she still has feelings but still won't be with me. I think I'm finally gonna kill myself and end it. I know it sounds stupid, but a life without her is genuinely one I dont want to live in. Sorry for the rant, I just needed to type this out somewhere before I do it and I absolutely love this community, so I thought this was a good place for it.