It’s too addicting and helps me fall asleep at night. I’m thankfully getting better but it’s still making me miserable because if I do it, my body feels like shit, especially since I wake up with a bloated face and feel insecure all day. If I don’t do it, I still feel like shit because I’m always craving the high I get after binging and purging. The only way I can stop is by trading it with something else and nothing else seems to give me the same pleasure so yah this sucks but I’m not giving up. There’s more to life than destroying myself… I think, or at least I hope.