whenever im anxious or irritated, my parents always just gaslight and tell me i shouldnt be upset.

they always know exactly what to say to escalate my anxiety and they say it every time.

i tried explaining this for the 100th time today and was told im "acting like dad" who has anger problems.  literally dismissing my emotions.

i am honestly in so much pain over being dismissed so often.  i stopped drinking caffeine and i try to sleep better, and every other think i can think of to limit my anxiety but they just cant leave me be.

moving out is not an option unless i stop paying my loans, and if i do that theyll come for my parents since i own nothing and they cosigned.  i feel like this is my last "weapon" and id be very cruel to do that.  i cant even be in the same room as them or they just start lobbing the digs at me, basically telling me that my anxiety is hurting the family.  it goes on and on until i explode and then they say im mad over nothing.

theres a lot more going on than that, imho im treated much worse than anyone in the house, just cant list examples without losing my calm right now.

advice, sympathy, empathy, anything please just dont tell me im "being crazy"

sorry if typos im shaking.