I’m writing this and I feel like a joke. I’m over my limit and im just speechless, ranting and ranting and ranting, I really don’t want to go on anymore I really really don’t. I just can’t. Let me just sleep eternally, living and knowing that I’m this way that I still have to continue is too much for me. I’m not happy, I’m literally surviving school and my normal life and I want it all to stop. Yeah that’s right. If I say I want it to stop I really want it yeah. How you all doing this? Because I really see no way out… the circumstances don’t feel like they are going to change and time is going so slow, with my thoughts and emotions just overwhelming. Maybe I’m responsible for my happiness and it’s my fault that it turned out this way.  JUST STOP.