I swear to God I can't distinguish reality from dreams or even "false memories". I'll start by explaining my false memories. I attempted suicide by cutting my arms and tried hanging for the first time but the bar I put the rope on broke cause my house is old, I have vivid memory of being in the hospital and talking to a therapist and I had lost my memories but the next day I was in my bed and I went to go eat out with my mom and grandma but I was so confused cause they were acting normal like nothing happend and on thebdrive back nothing made sense, the date had only changed to the next day after the attempt. Ever since then I've been spending day after day just to look at the date/time for only maybe a few hours or a day to pass while I experienced like at least 3 days of time.