I’ve always suffered with insane anxiety but the last two years depression hit. I didn’t know anything like this existed. I went from being an extroverted events manager to never leaving the couch or talking to anyone anymore. I look around and see people living life &amp; I’m like wow how do they do that?? I’ve been having suicide ideation to. I’ve been in therapy for 3 years until he said he couldn’t help me. I’ve tried a number of anti depressants that my body literally rejects I’m so sensitive I can’t even take painkillers. All I do is lay on the couch. I haven’t felt excited or happiness for a long time. I try do things I used to enjoy &amp; I just don’t like anything. I could be told I won a million dollars &amp; id feel nothing. No doctors have helped, no hospitals. I feel so alone. I’m a mum &amp; want to live for me &amp; my daughter but it’s getting to the point where I feel she’d be better off without me as I’m always depressed &amp; lethargic