…and I’m panicking. I really want to go but the venue is really closed in and “intimate”. My family think I’m overreacting but I can’t help it. 

I’m also struggling on what to wear because people my age wear dresses and skirts and look really good, but I’m fat and I can’t wear dresses or skirts because I feel embarrassed of myself when I do (I’m trying to work on it). So now, I’m wearing something that to me looks alright but my mind is screaming at me telling me that people will judge me. 

I really want to enjoy myself tonight but I just know I’m going to bump into loads of people because it’s so small and I’ll constantly say sorry. I wish I had more confidence.