I’m relatively new to my bpd so I didn’t know how much of a toll this bpd has on you. It’s so difficult to feel strong waves of guilt as if you’re using them, he’s really nice and I don’t want my bpd to push him away. 

I also get this feeling like he’s just annoying me as if he finds it funny even though he hasn’t.

Does anybody have advice on how to get rid of these feelings?