Not really sure where to go in life now. Ive had depression/anxiety for basically my whole life (im 29). Im now starting to feel like im becoming stupid, whereas i used to be reasonably intelligent. I can't organise my thoughts so i struggle to function on a daily basis. Ive always had a little hope in the past, but now that is well and truly gone. I cant see life getting any better, to be honest i see it getting a lot worse. Ill keep trying, but it appears futile. Don't think ill ever end it, but i wish i could without affecting my family.

I know structure helps and trying to achieve something. But i struggle to stick with anything for any length of time. Plus the external pressures just drag me down even further. I really wish i had no family or friends, so there would be nobody to let down. Now ive been diagnosed with MS which makes my future look incredibly bleak.  

Anyway, rant over.