I have no idea why I dicided to say this here, but I don't feel comfortable sharing my problems in my life to the people around. My girlfriend of 11 years, has been verbally abusing me, using suicide to get what she wants/ if I try to leave, and cheated on me multiple times. I have feel powerless and disgraced. I lost all motivation in my life and everything we have is under her name so I have nothing. I feel that the only way out is to take my own life. I can't even find a therapist in my area that can help me and I can't bare to speak out to my friends and family. I'm a fucking coward but every time we tried to resolve this it always leads to a fight. I'm tired, I can't keep doing this. I just want to die at this point. I'm better of dead.