My boyfriend loves me. He tells me he sees a future with us. He is with me because he wants to be with me. He wouldn't be here if he didn't feel those things. Yet I can't fucking believe a word of it. I don't understand him. I don't know why he's still here. I see hot girls every day that he would probably rather be with. I don't fucking know if I can do this anymore. Never knowing if it's really truly me he wants or if he's just settling.