I've been dealing with serious mental health issues and it's taken a toll on me and I wish I never did but I split on my friend group and left the group chat. My friend tried to ask me if I was okay after and wanted to chat a bit, so I continued to notify her about my mental health.. I felt like she got really confused and started to act like a doctor by asking me psychologist-esque questions and I acknowledge that but I started to lash out on her because she told me that I had anger issues.. i honestly wish I never did that but telling an openly mentally unstable person that their problems consist of just anger issues is really weird to me. I apologized to her many times and she accepted it but i still feel so guilty and I havent got the guts to go to school again in case I see her or have an episode or like split on her again and im just really scared and confused

I also apologized to her early in the morning but she hasn't replied and im really scared that she doesnt want to be friends with me any more but i guess I kind of deserve it