I hate myself. We are 'on a break' because I stress him out. I don't know what to do. 

Our new place that we bought overlapped with the end of our apartment lease. So he's going to the new place and decorating it with friends when we were supposed to make it our home together. I'm scared. I have to stay here with empty spaces. He says two months. I've barely survived the past two days. I want to die so badly. I've tried reaching out to people but it isn't working, they are ignoring me. 

Im sick and can't really leave the house. I'm just watching him pack and laugh with a mutual friend while they ignore me. 

Edit: Update from the next day

Things are shitty. I feel shitty. I'm sorry I didn't reply to anyone last night. I was reading the replies yesterday though and I really appreciate everything that was said. My brain was just too overwhelmed to write coherent responses. 

I think I'll be hanging around here more the next couple weeks or longer. I certainly need to work on myself and get support 

Thank you again guys. 

