i'm stressed to the point of probably being at a stroke risk (i'm addicted to nicotine and take birth control and have an anxiety disorder on top of all of it) i always think about how much easier it would be to disappear. like from this world. my sister is insanely irresponsible. the definition of trashy. i have to clean up after her. and i'm always told it's my responsibility because if i don't watch out for her she will end up dead. why can't i have a life? i'm never allowed to have a life. she gets to do whatever and leaves everything to everyone else to take care of. basically if you're not a man she has a crush on she doesn't give a fuck how you feel or how she treats you. she only cleans up after herself when she's bringing a boy over. i'm 18 now so legally i could move out but i'm broke and my job gives me like 7 hours a week and i will likely be terminated because for some reason they can't verify my identity. no matter how hard i try to get my life together it just all goes to shit. i wish i had help.