I knew this would happen, I just wasn't prepared for all the differences. All our plans and ideas are dead now and they aren't even happy about it. I'm so proud of them for moving forward, but like most people my age it doesn't really seem like a step forward... My friend the other day said tomorrow is the first day of the rest of his life, and I tried to cheer him up saying it'll help him get money and enjoy life and it's stable and nothing consoles him... Everyone is just moving forward because they are afraid of what it would mean to sit still. Even if they chose something other than a 9-5, family member would act like it's a dangerous move, even though those family members said that a 9-5 is a depressing way to live. I don't know, this is some stream of consciousness shit here so I'm sorry. It's just depressing and my anxiety makes me think I'm sitting still.

Edit: I should preface I'm working minimum wage. I'm a little behind in school but my degree depresses me. And the fact that anyone I know with a 9-5 is tired over worked and depressed, just destroys my expectations for life. Like how is any of this even remotely worth it...