Im 22 F and im married and have a 2 year old son. From the outside looking in someone might say we have a perfect life. Beautiful townhome, 2 cars bought with cash, a beautiful son, all kinds of neat electronics, decor, clothes and shoes. But none of that means anything when u have so much bullshit dragging you down mentally. Most of my issues stem from insecurities, past trauma, anxiety and anger issues. No matter what i do or how hard i try to keep myself occupied i always fall back into the abyss of this black hole in my mind. I feel so angry and irritated all the time. I hate everyone and everything so much. I always end up downing some liquor/alcohol followed with a joint and all it is a temporary fixation. Sometimes i just look in the mirror and hate myself. Its always the same shit everyday. No excitement, no fun. Why tf do i have to feel like this??