I kind of hope I die. I’ve been struggling with my physical health for the past two months. It’s getting worse each day. My friends are concerned but I’m not. I don’t care if I’m dying. I have a lot to live for but I’m tired and I literally do not feel anything towards dying. I don’t feel sad, rather just nothingness. The reason why I hope I die is because I’m done with feeling sick. Each headache, each vomit, each absence, each painkiller. They all make me more and more tired as well as weak. I’m struggling. I know I’m struggling and I let the people around me know my body is shutting down, they deserve to know the truth, I don’t want pity, I just want to be straightforward with it. To basically sum all up, I hope I die. I’m not suicidal, I don’t feel like killing myself, I just hope I die. Today, tomorrow, whatever. I just wanna go soon.