I don’t know where to begin because it’s so much to lay out .. but basically I’m 24 years old I haven’t had a job in 4 years. I am clinically diagnosed with extreme depression, panic disorder(3-4 panic attacks daily), PTSD, OCD, and BPD. I have a very supportive fiancé and her mother gave me love immediately that I never felt before growing up. My problem now is, I can’t help financially at all and my fiancé is holding mine and her life together by herself and it absolutely makes me hate myself. I do nothing but lay around all day, I know she’s going to leave me, she says never but hoe much can a person take of dating a mentally fucked up person with absolutely zero motivation in life. Now, I’m wondering why be here? What am I doing to even deserve to walk this earth? I have literally no worth to my life. I just don’t see the point in it anymore. Sorry if you take this is as “whining” or “pity me” honestly go head but the truth is I’m in a very, very dark place and I want to express myself because it’s 1:42AM and I’m staring at the ceiling thinking about how much I absolutely hate myself. Love.