I find it intriguing that things that would, in the past, leave me a wreck are now completely disregardable to me. News that would have me me bawl my eyes out now has no effect on my emotions. People tell me about how sorry they are that they couldn't do X and all I can reply is "ok", because telling the truth of how I really don't care one way or the other isn't polite.

I am becoming numb to most things, and I fucking hate it.

At least when my BPD resulted in outrageous mood swings, I felt something. It was better than just this static that has occupied me. Still though, I can't deny that this also has its positives. Being more rational instead of letting my emotions guide me is good. I also feel as if my BPD is somehow developing into normal, old fashioned depression, which is good. Less stigma, more acceptance, less ruined relationships etc etc

Does anyone have experience with this?