The last couple episodes I’ve dealt with have been so much worse then any before. I don’t know why it is so much worse, or if it will ever reach a point where it stops getting worse. I don’t know if anyone else has felt this way, I’m sure someone has. Every time I think that it’s the worst it can get, and then it somehow gets worse. I want to talk to my friends about it, but they help me so much already, I don’t want to push them to the point of breaking. Nothing brings me any happiness, I can’t eat, I can’t look in a mirror. I really don’t know what to do, I’m hopelessly lost and struggling. I know I need therapy but I can’t bring myself to find a new therapist. I just want someone to understand me, please. I’m sorry to be so whiny, I’m just very lost.