Anyone else had a problem with promiscuity through bpd? I thought I was having “my hoe phase” and being empowered learning about my body and what I like but I realise now honestly all I’ve done is put my sexual health and general safety at risk and make myself accessible to men that didn’t actually even see me as more than just a hole. It’s my own fault I’m not asking for sympathy but I just wish I’d been better. I have so many memories now of literally lying there in pain not even enjoying the sex, faking it or sometimes not even bothering to do that just for the cuddles afterwards and to feel wanted because it felt a better option than going to sleep on my own. It just feels sad I guess