I applied for aid and scholarships to finish my last 15 credits of college after a hiatus of several years. 

Just calling about this stuff makes me feel like throwing up/crying. I got news from the Frontliner scholarship that I applied for that I most likely have to pay out of pocket and get reimbursed later which is such a curveball for me and classes start mid-January, and I wont have that kind of money then..

I feel like such a failure loser and a waste of air. I'm so anxious that I messed this all up and I am gonna go another semester or year like this.

Sorry about all this, I am gonna go scream into my pillow and cry.