I know asking someone on a date is pretty standard for some people but I have some very major and irrational fears of being rejected that stem from childhood trauma and neglect. I don’t want to go too much into what happened but the TL;DR is that my parents had a nasty divorce and emotionally weaponized me against each other. I’ve been hiding from the world ever since and I’ve been too afraid to express my emotions. 

I think I’m finally moving on from my trauma though. I probably still need therapy but this is going to be a huge step for me. I’m not a helpless little kid anymore. I feel like I’m finally normalizing.