I'm turning 29 next week, iv studied performing arts which is a true passion to me to my back bone, but after finishing college at 26 I was burnt out from a toxic class/group in the final year so I put it on the back burner for a bit. Tried other stuff out but didn't like it (science). 
Then I got COVID.... That god damn COVID has ruined everything on me. Iv had long COVID for 18 months now and I can't do jack shit. I try and push through the fatigue and anxiety and it knocks me back 2x as hard. 
Currently attending the hospital and the Dr told me to not try and fight it, but to reach the limit I can do and then stay at that until I can do more. So now at 28, 1 week off 29, my limit is taking 3k steps, anything more than that and I'm basically in bed for 3/4 days from exashustion. 
I used to love gaming, it always kept my mind occupied when I was going through a tough patch with anxiety and depression, I had a group of friends online (I dont have many friends irl and any I did make in drama school are all over in the UK), 
The friends I made on my games were my rocks for a long time, started gaming when I was 18, some friends came and went, some stayed. Currently still in touch now and then with 2 of them but it's basically just me there. 
Not to mention, I'm getting tired of the games, it could be a combination of being burnt out of the games along with the fatigue I'm expierencing, but I just have this hallow, lonely feeling around me now and idk what to do to fix it. 
I'm very blessed to have both my parents support constantly, I live at home again with them both and both they care for me on my worst days and I care for them on theirs, both of them have long COVID also. And I'm close to my sister and all her kids, so I know I'm truly so so lucky, but I just have this awful restless feeling. 
Mentally I'm ready to go to the gym and run for 1 hr (I'm fat so even thinking of running at all is so funny), but physically if I walked up the gym stairs I'd be beat.  So I just don't know what to do with myself, even with my weight, I know I shouldn't be like this at my age, I should be back into the theatre and up on stage, but I just am not fit and it kills me to say that. 
I don't even really know what I wanted to get out of writing this but it has helped me feel a bit better typing it out in the first place