Before you judge me, I know it's stupid, but it's just how shit happens I guess

I have one of those pop it things that I use constantly to keep my hands busy and feel less anxious, but I lost it and had a moment of panic where I turned the house upside down and had to be alone in my room when I realized it's probably gone forever

It was one of the few things that satisfied what I see as a sensory need and it's gone and I ordered another one but I feel so stupid for freaking out like that

I think it was just the day