I have a job, but it's barely a job. I get scheduled barely any hours and I never have any energy for it. All I ever want to do is sit around and do nothing. I don't even have goals. I have nothing. I just want to escape.

But even when I'm at my job, I feel like I never actually help. I don't ever know what's going on half the time. Some things are just way harder for me. I can't even get these stupid baga open, it's like they're glued closed or something.  Did I mention I have no energy? I just have no motivation. I'll do whatever they tell me to do but I just stare off into space after I'm done. All I want to do is be home even though I don't work any goddamn hours and do nothing.

Nevermind the part where this is a basic low end job. How am I ever supposed to succeed and ever get a good job or be promoted if I'm just a waste? I just can't be bothered with life. Sigh.