I don’t understand I think it’s just something I’ve come to accept now. As a man I feel disposable to society in all aspects. I’m easily replaceable at work, I’m that background side friend, and for no apparent reason completely unloved. My family doesn’t care much about what I do. Every woman I’ve ever loved or tried to love throws me to the wolves like I’m nothing. 

I’m frustrated, but more importantly, I’m completely broken mentally. I don’t want to leave bed if I don’t have to. For what reason? To be reminded of everything I just said? I feel like a ghost living and part of me yearns to just up and leave and go full nomad. Atleast I wouldn’t feel so invisible in plain sight