TW: Mentions of Self Harm

So, I finally decide to get mental health help after months of suffering in silence. I was diagnosed with BPD at 18 and growing up it’s been hell. I finally realized how extremely toxic I was being after self harming, hitting my head, and all around feeling a mess. I’ve been at my worst for four consecutive months and I finally realized I need help or things will get drastically worse. 

So I make the call, push past social anxiety, and try to get an appointment. Every single facility is booked months on end, and all over summer. One place I called, the lady was nice enough to squeeze me in, on MAY 25!!! 

Can anyone relate? It’s so hard. My insurance requires a therapist referral before you can see a psychiatrist and I’m scared of being Unmedicated and without therapy for a whole other month. Idk if ill make it that long. 

And Inpatient is OUT of the question. The ones near me are more like prison cells (No joke, they actually put mental health patients with prisoners awaiting a psych eval). I don’t have money for amazing insurance so I’m stuck. 

Has this happened to anyone else? How did you cope?