I feel like ill never be happy. Im pregnant and i am looking forward to being a mother. The dr made me abruptly stop my anti depressants and even though they dont treat bpd,it was treating my depression and anxiety and now mixed with hormones i am just so depressed every day. Im having panic attacks. My husband can hear me but no one really understands.
I know it sounds dramatic saying i feel like ill never be happy but its true,i get myself into situations that i think will make me happy and then once the hype is done,so is my happiness. And all i can think about is the next thing i think will make me happy but i know it wont.
Wow who would of thought bpd could be such a...i have no words for it.

I read somewhere bpd is up there with the most painful of mental disorders,i feel that.
I dont know what else to say,im just miserable.
By the way,im not self diagnosed bpd. Im real diagnosed. I kind of wish i was self diagnosed. Im 23 years young.

I dont really have any interests and i couldnt tell you who i am,because with bpd you dont know who you are.