TW, mentions of racism and the recent buffalo tragedy.

i have GAD, im on lexapro and my anxiety has always been bad but not to this extent. im horrified to leave my home let alone my room im constantly on high alert knowing that i could be shot and killed in some place as simple as a grocery store JUST for being black. every since the tragedy ive been struggling to go to places, ive been staying home 99.9% of the time. i feel doomed knowing this is the world i live in, i can be killed simply for just being black.
i was scared of the kkk but their not nearby, scared of police for obvious reasons but now im scared of everyone. im scared to leave my house im scared somebody will hurt me. it wont go away i wish it would :( im only 16 and i feel this is no way to live :(