Basically started zoloft back in 2014 and it worked a little too well for months. I was overly happy, but I didn’t care because I was happy. Then after 9 months it’s just stopped working. I was more depressed than usual, and I eventually stopped them. 

I went through the worst withdrawal of my life and I ended up feeling like a robot and depersonalized for about a year. During this time I was going through a difficult break up which triggered a lot of stressful emotions and then I eventually turned numb for a long time.

ever since stopping them i’ve been in a low mood consistently for years, emotions returned to a degree but they mostly come to the surface after drinking alcohol. Now still I deal with anhedonia that I never dealt with prior to antidepressants because there main use was for my anxiety. I’m still an anxious person but my overall symptoms revolve around lethargy and lack of motivation.

I strongly believe antidepressants changed my brain and I don’t really care who says otherwise. now I don’t know what to take and i’m scared to go back on any meds. Any suggestions would be helpful thanks.