i’ve never had trouble sleeping before but two weeks ago i started having terrible insomnia in anticipation of events that make me anxious. the idea that i wont get enough sleep makes me so nervous because i know how awful it feels and that i won’t be my best, which in turn keeps me up because i’m not relaxed. it went away recently because i was jet lagged and didn’t have anywhere to be, but i have an event tomorrow and it’s back and i cannot do this. i told myself i could not handle this again it felt so awful and i feel so out of control. i wish i could stop doing this to myself but every time i close my eyes my heart races and i have been lying here for hours trying to rest and i just cant. now i’m crying because my anxiety has taken so much from me and now i cant even be out of my own mind and escape to sleep. can someone help me calm down