I am a horse rider and the only thing i dont hate about my life is my horse and riding. Everything else about my life= i hate! People at school say that they wish that i would just go and die. My friends dont feel like my friends because we argue a lot. One of my friends always talks fucking shit about me behind my fucking back to the other friend and the other friend just goes along with it. We have started year 7 this year. The friend that just goes along with everything thinks that i am annoying sometime and that i should grow up when acctually she has to grow up ! Now i am going to say her secret because i cant keep it in anymore and plus none of you know me.... she has had sex with a boy thats one year older then her AND HE IS HER SECOND COUSIN which is totally discusting. She was 12 when she had it and turned 13 recently. But she is under age and that is so uncomftable for me to know that she has had that and she talk about him 24/7 like she doesnt have anything else to talk about. I moved from England 2020 and have been hear in Sweden for 2 years almost.But i really miss my one best friend when i didnt relised that i should stick with someone instead of fighting back whenever we argue about something bur now we haev been in consstact a lot but now we are lossing our connection because she never replies anymore so i feel like she has left me and moved on. If i should leave those two firends of mine then i will not have anyone else to be with because everyone is so boring and weird. I have no fucking clue what i should with my life. And i forgot to mension that my friend that talks behind my back has started to ride at my stable at the same time as riding at her riding school but that is sort of a bad thing because i just got into the "gang" in the stable and now i feel like she came and stole my place because now everyone is around her. And she gets to ride ll the good horse because she i s"experienced". So unfair!!I hate my life and want to die. Please comment ith ideas of what i could do