So I’m in high school and I had to get injections a couple days ago. The last time I got them, I realized that I was fine until I saw someone anxious and crying because she hates needles and all. So this time I tried so fucking hard not to feed off anyone’s emotions. I counted, avoided conversations, didn’t make eye contact, listened to music to distract myself. But when I got it, I still panicked. I had an attack. I just wanted it to go away and it did after about 5 minutes, but I had a meltdown after. It wasn’t because I was anxious, it was because I tried so hard not to and I still did. I know I can’t exactly control it and it’s just something I have to deal with and never truly avoid, but I just got so mad and frustrated that nothing worked. I just wanted a hug and for someone to tell me that I will be okay. I know it might be a lot to ask for but I just need someone. I have a psychologist and councillor cus sometimes I need a hug at the right time instead of in the 2-3 weeks that I see them just to talk about how I’ve been.

(Also side thing, I’ve been getting anxious tics a lot, does anyone know what to do or like how to handle them? Just hard to explain to people because they ask in my class and I just want them to go away so that I can be less of an outsider to everyone else.)