I noticed recently that despite having really strong emotional reactions to big life events, I sometimes have days or weeks where I feel apathetic/indifferent constantly, but afraid that ‘big feelings’ are around the corner.

I can’t seem to get out of feeling this nothingness and wonder if that’s a coping mechanism from years of pushing aside feelings?

If you feel this way (particularly after a breakup / loss / big life event), is it usually followed by a surge of unexpected emotions?