Annoying is the absolute worst word I have ever been exposed to and I can't even remember why I hate it so much.. I can't remember a crush or bully or friend or parent saying it in a memorable way-- I just feel so much pain and disgust when I hear it referred to anyone. In the past, if someone I was friends with called someone or something I said/did annoying, I'd block them for a few hours/days even if I agreed with them. 



"Cute" is an especially strong one for me too.. but tens of people have used that with either my looks or my personality. I don't know how to react to it because they insist when I ask them not to call me that and I want to scream at them so they see that I'm disgusting. All compliments kind of make me want me to make my life's mission to become the opposite just to spite them, for some strange reason.


Maybe it's because I'm just so used to just being "Mentally Ill" that I can't handle anything other than being that. I'm fine being insulted for being BPD or psychotic or ugly or anything else but annoying is too hard to handle because that means even if I was sane I'd be just as unlovable since I'm annoying(a trait that isn't specific to mental illness)


I don't know.. I guess this is kind of a vent. If you have any specific compliments/insults that infuriate you, please feel free to share- it really helps!