I’m just wondering if any one else out there that lives / suffers with BD (of any kind, I myself have severe type 1 with mixed (and psychotic features, when not medicated)), is doing or has done masters level/grad school study.

I’m getting good grades (4.0 GPA 75% way through this semester) but it’s at the expense of my entire mental and physical health. I find when I have a ton of energy, even though I’m well medicated, I’ll work 8 pm - 2 am, and then sleep the next day, and then when I’m down I’ll sleep all day and days on end. 

I get special considerations for deadlines to be handed in later, but the whole “get a routine” thing doesn’t seem to work for me. I just don’t think normal people telling me to work to a 8-8 daily schedule understand that my workflow isnt solid throughout the day at all, and I have severe issues with my energy and mood regulation to the point that I work in bursts and then dim out for days. 

Wondering if anyone else has had this experience; even in undergrad at college. I’ve been sick physically for 10 weeks due to the burnout and I’ve screamed and cried into my pillow at least 5 times now. I know I need to finish this year to graduate and get a job in my fields (grad school is necessary to licence) but I’m just so burned out, and I think the bipolar is a strong factor in that 

[If it helps, I dropped out of my first semester and started a semester late because I wasn’t medicated then and spent 2 months in the intensive psych unit because I was floridly psychotic]