Does anybody else do this? I know it's terrible. Sometimes it feels as if I deliberately start arguments over things just to get that high feeling of happiness after they're fine with me again and everything is cool. It feels so good. I feel over the moon, I'm smiley, very jokey, bubbly, and rational. I'm happy for a few hours before I'm back to my numb self. The way I talk to people and how affectionate I am with partners all depends on my mood. I'm generally pretty distant although I do try be affectionate with them, but when something like this happens, I'm VERY happy and affectionate with them. I think they're perfect and everything. Then when that high disappears, I'm not as affectionate. Can anybody else relate?