I’ve gotten to the point where angry crying just isn’t enough any more. I’m the biggest fucking failure in the world. I’ve been trying to find a place to work for months now and it’s just not happening and the debt is climbing and I can’t do the one thing that makes me feel ok which is be social because I can’t afford it. I’m letting my entire family down, and the younger version of me that actually had potential down by being unemployable. I think the only way I will ever get away from these debts is by fucking offing myself. I’ve tried everything and I’m finally out of patience. I want to fucking die.