Diagnosed as borderline. I am home from university for the summer and am feeling scared about a lot of things... I wont be able to see my psychiatrist until september for starters. I am scared about my parents. I simultaneously hate them and want to be around them all the time. But im so scared they will let me down emotionally. It always starts out nice and then gradually they lose interest in me. I feel like I have to get depressed periodically so they dont forget about me emotionally. I dont want to spend the summer in fear of being let down by everything. Any tips for when you are really scared about being let down? Also I am very nervous about possibly meeting up with friends. I get socially anxious sometimes and find it hard to have anything at all to say..