So I've been diagnosed with bpd for about a year although I've been struggling with it for most of my life. I've been on Duloxetine for about 6 months and I'm the most stable I've ever been, however I've realised that I really struggle to listen when someone is explaining something to me.

for example, I just started a new job and my colleague was explaining something important to me and I could not get myself to focus and listen to what he was saying. it was like my mind just kept wandering and I was really fidgeting and the more I tried to listen to him the harder it was, it was so overwhelming, I felt like my head was going to explode.. and this happens with my partner a lot too, I'll ask him to explain something to me and then when he does I can't focus or listen to him and I end up having to leave the room bc I feel so frustrated and overwhelmed with myself.

Is this a form of dissociation? is it even bpd related? 

thank you in advance for reading x