Hi... 
I’ve posted this on another community I just really would like someone to answer. I can’t view comments from the other post. 

I’d appreciate if someone read this. Ik it’s long I’m sorry. 

I didn’t go to school yesterday . I didn’t go today either. 

I’m very down lately. I don’t know if it’s my anemia// insomnia// or my mental health acting up. (I’m clinically diagnosed with anxiety &amp; depression.)

But lately I just have no motivation to get up and sign into my classes, physically // emotionally. I can’t seem to do it. The thought of getting through the whole day makes me cry and I just shut my computer off and don’t make it through the day. 

I can’t just stop going to school. This isn’t me I don’t like this. 

I have 13 unexcused absences. (The most I’ve had in high school.) My school doesn’t seem to excuse mental health. I’ve had panic attacks during class ... they don’t excuse it either. They don’t care. But, I get it, if I don’t have “proof” for it they won’t believe it. So I get it’s not their fault. I just wish they understood. 

I’m a straight A student,  I genuinely care about school and doing good but lately I’ve just stopped caring. Like nothing matters anymore. I’ve lost motivation for everything. I promise I’m not a bad student, I just have a bad attendance. I still complete my assignments, I just don’t log in. I know my school is going to make a big deal out of this and make me stay after on weekends to make up missing days but that doesn’t even matter. (This use to be a big deal to me... now I just don’t care.) 

I really want to get out of this cycle but I don’t know how. It’s like I can’t find the will to do so. 


Everyone asks if I’m ok, or why I’m not showing up, but I just don’t know what to say. I’m embarrassed of even admitting that I have no energy, that I’m sad all the time, that I can’t stop crying, that I’m miserable with myself, or that I’m honestly giving up on everything. 

I don’t tell my parents, they have a lot on their plate and I don’t want to be a burden. They honestly don’t seem to “believe” in mental health either so idk. 

Its getting in the way of my school work... that’s a big problem considering SAT’s are coming up and that’s already messing with me enough as it is. 

Im just wondering what I should do. I don’t know anymore. 

If you read this ... thank you.