I don't really know what to do with my life and I don't know who to talk to, I live with my mum but she doesn't understand my emotions and when I feel down she just tells me to "get a life" and "get on with it" so I can't talk to her, my sister is the person I'm closest to as we've always been close especially considering we didn't get much luck in the parents department but she has been medical diagnosed with mental health conditions like depression and she's been going through a tough time over the past few weeks so put my problems on her feels wrong and inappropriate.

 I haven't been diagnosed with any mental health conditions as I haven't got the confidence to go to the gp for help as last time I went about two weeks ago it took everything I had to just leave my flat and walk over the road to the gp only for the staff to turn me around and tell me to get an appointment even though I told them I had concerns over my mental health. I get anxious all the time, from simple things like having a conversation with people I don't know very well to leaving my flat (mostly when I don't have to go somewhere in particular like work etc) and get quite angry really easily over things that would probably pass straight over other people's heads. I woke up today and all day I've been really down and just stayed in my room just listening to music all day while trying to enjoy things I normally enjoy like video games and films but no matter what I do I can't shake this feeling of just wanting to curl up into a ball and hide from the world.

I think ultimately I feel like I have no reason to feel like this, growing up I always had food on the table and a roof over my head so I feel almost ashamed that I could potentially have a mental health issue as I keep asking myself "what do I have to complain about" and that no one will believe how I feel and that I'm just exaggerating so the thought of going to the gp terrifies me now.

I'm sorry if this causes any offence but I just don't know what else to do