when angry at others, you start feeling intensely suicidal and / or horribly self destructive even though these actions you do to yourself aren't aimed at You, you just don't have any other way to get it out so because you can't beat the shit out of the person, you beat the shit out of yourself because i do this constantly yet i feel like i'm relative okay with myself but appear horribly hateful towards myself because of what i do to myself. hope this made sense :') !