I hate the constant stress. I hate the nonstop work. I hate the isolation. I hate everything about college, but I have realized that my working life will likely be no different. Work for most of my life, dread work for the rest of it, and repeat until I die. I want to speed up the process and end my life but I can't leave my family in that much pain so I'm just stuck in this hell with no escape. I am on medication and seeing a therapist, it helps but it's not enough