 help me see some perspective so i dont explode, i myself undestand the situation, but still saddens me and makes me quite upset... long story short my depression and mood swings have gotten very bad this past few weeks, cut my thighs lastnight amd again this morning... had plans for national holidays with someone I really appreciate, they are consistently updated on how Im doing, my mood swings, my suicidal thoughts, quite detailed information, due to my condition worsening amd not really trusting that I'd be able to actually properly engage into going out and just have fun, cause it has happened that the mood swings are too much and have ruined previous hang outs, I cancelled... he got mad and told me things along the lines of 'ah~ hownto ruin things'... I know how this could be frustrating and I dont really know what he meant by saying something like that, but... gawd~ i insist, i can see why he could be mad, sad, angry, disappointed but saying things like that, like, you are entitled to your feelings but is it really right to say that kind of things. So far its been a tough year, and Ive had to cancell plans in the past, but idk,maybe Im being too sensitive?