Like, people ask how I am and if I am honest and i reply "Sad" then they get all worried and try to dig into why I am sad, and I'm like . . . . please no. I do not want to unload this onto you, and you really don't want to know about my intrusive suicidal thoughts and loneliness. 

So I reply "fine" and pretend everything is OK, but honestly I kinda hate doing that cos I don't like lying to people, it makes it worse. I tend to want to be alone when I am really down.

Mood swings really suck.