It’s not like I’m not trying. I’m a successful, 44 yo person. Stable relationship, good job, lots of friends. But depression and chronic pain are killing me, and I am running out of options. I wish there was a way to end it all that wouldn’t hurt the people who love me. They are the only things keeping me from ending it all, and I don’t know for how much longer fear or hurting them will be enough to deter me. In the end, maybe I just need to be selfish and let those chips fall where they may?