Hi , I am a 14 year old and I live in a family of 4 people. I don’t even know if I should call it a family. We hardly talk to each other, no communication at all except when it comes to some work. I have a younger brother who’s 11 years old. I’m in high school and my grades are pretty good, I am one of the toppers of our class and am good at almost any field. But my parents do not appreciate anything I do. My so called mother is biased towards my brother. I think she’s schizophrenic. She fights and argues in the house for no reason, and ruins the entire mood of our house. Apparently she just hates me and blames me for everything. Today I found out that she let my brother have an Amazon account of his own, so I asked her if I could order something for Diwali. Hoping she would allow, she actually shoed me away and said that I was nothing different from a beggar. I was broken. She also starves me. A month ago or something, she didn’t cook anything for me and starved me for 3 days and would order for herself and her son. My father doesn’t care much either. He goes out every weekend with his friends so I’m alone out here and I have to suffer. I have a cat too. He’s probably the only thing who’s helping me manage my mental health. I feel like my brain is going to explode. My throat feels like it’s being strangled , by my thoughts. I’m probably suffering severe depression and anxiety. Sometimes I just feel like killing everyone and running away , or I just feel like ending my own life. Two weeks ago I tried to strangle myself to death but then I felt like why should I suffer and waste my life for these people. A year ago I got atopic dermatitis. I used feel really bad about myself and since I got it I feel even worse. My insecurities and my fears have increased. My father said that he’s ashamed of me and my skin. I was broken. This is unfair. I just want to die. Just putting this up in case I’m gone in a few days, people will read this, and know what i was going through.