I'm 35 weeks pregnant and the father and I aren't together. He's told me his family would consider it their biggest fear if we ended up together. Just now I asked if we could see each other this week and he said no, he wants to get an early night one night and he's out with friends every other night (movies, sports, dinner, art exhibition etc). He said, just tell me what you want to say now over the phone, and I said I just wanted us to talk in person, and he said suit yourself and we ended the conversation. I have no idea when we'll talk.

Up until recently I thought my mom would come over for the birth but that's off now her malignant NPD husband who severely abused me as a child/teenager is back (she has BPD and was equally abusive but I was hoping things might have changed). Nothing has changed in that situation since that time.

I feel so sad and alone. I'm trying to stay positive because I have to for the baby. I have no friends and am totally isolated. I've seen that he (the father) has notifications from dating apps on his phone when we've been together. The more upset and hormonal I get, I feel like the more pathetic and unattractive and unmotivated I am. I have a place on a college course for after the baby's born and he tells me he doesn't think it will be doable, and I have serious concerns about being able to do it with a baby. He is scheduled to get a promotion around the time the baby's due and has given me his friends' numbers to call in case I go into labor and he's not around.

