I was waiting for a tram yesterday and cars were driving past by me and I just stood next to the road wondering what it would be like to just jump in front of a car… then I randomly listened to The Most Beautiful Thought by Forest Blakk and cried. 

I wish I could stop overeating, I wish it was lock down again (it was the healthiest I have ever been in a long time, mentally and physically), I wish I could lose weight (like that is the answer to be happy), I wish I could have regular and healthy sleep schedule, I wish I wasn’t so scared to change this shit job I’m in… 

Everything and everyone irritates me so much. 

And my dog is 14 year old and have health issues and I cry everytime I think about that.