Literally all everyone else is doing, is telling people what they want to hear, regurgitating the same vomit someone puked into their mouths the day before, following the rules blindly, never asking why or what for?  Has no substance, and is merely a reflection of everyone and everything Around  them? bleating like sheep, doesn’t have any opinions of their own, and doesn’t give a shit about anything but themselves??? I’m tired of people and school trying to break me of my willfulness, tame my wild tendencies, or telling me to have boundaries and not get so passionate about shjt, but I give so many flying fucks about every damn thing, everything I do I put a piece of me soul into. I follow things through and never give or let up. I get shit done. I want to learn, I love debate, and I don’t care about talking about social justice issues because that shit doesn’t make me uncomfortable. Being involuntarily hospitalized, that makes me squeamish. But you wanna talk politics?? You wanna talk strategy or treatment plans or how we are going to get this person disability?? come at me bro! I’m ready. I just feel like everybody all the time is telling you to stop, slow down, think before you do, take a moment, be calmer, and that I’m not proffesional . I’m a free spirit, blessed with a rebel soul, and deep desire to disobey. I don’t care what other people think of me, I literally don’t. I focused on myself for over ten years and realized how incredibly boring I was. I am endlessly curious and I don’t just take things on face value. I question, I push boundaries, and I  bend the rules. Everyone else is scared of their own shadows, and don’t have the balls to say what I say and think what I think. I want to change the world and I am so tired of people telling me I can’t!!! I feel every emotion all the time and it makes me aggressive as hell and intense as fuck. At least I’m something. You will never cure me of my wickedness!!! 
Ok I’m done.
I realize that’s all framed by all or nothing thinking, but right now I feel all and need to get it out.