I'd been drinking. Due to that it was hard to fall asleep. I had this terrible nightmare where everyone finally realised who I truly am as a person and threw me away.\n 

I really need to talk to someone but I decided to stop relying on my friends too much and it's 6am where I'm at. It just came out of nowhere. I don't want to feel the fear coursing through me. I just want to die rn. Please can anyone tell me anything that'll help.