So really long story made short, my government has slow vaccination rollouts and essentially the citizens have to register on a website in a hunger games scenario to book an appointment. So today was the day and before that, my family who mostly are above 50, all have diseases from kidney failure to heart attacks to diabetes. The list goes on and on. My brother is currently working so I'm the only one with my sister that's tech savvy. They asked for my help to do it and before the bookings were open, it's normally included with health questions so I had to ask each of my family members what they had. When I heard the list, it hit me even harder that if I or anyone ever brings an ounce of Covid into this house, no one would survive. My entire family could die. 

Vaccinations open and just my luck, the server was jammed and we didn't get in. I knew my family understood that it wasn't my fault and it was our stupid government who lacks the capability of doing anything right but it was just the overwhelming feeling of "My family is sick, I really need to get this vaccine for them or we might not be lucky in the next few weeks.". I broke down and went to my room and cried. 

I felt like talking about it to somebody, so I texted my close friends and told them what happened and it felt nice at first but after, my BPD just got the best of me. Everything I read felt annoying, it felt like my friends were comforting me because they're obliged and my brain kept telling me I'm overreacting to the situation, it's just a website to register for vaccines. It was just horrible. Please tell me I'm not the only one.