As a preface mental illness runs in my family. 
I have bpd and ptsd.


My dad is a cold person. I’m not trying to expose him or anything, he is my dad and I love him - he is just different. I don’t think I can ever remember a time of him telling me he loves me though, but I understand- at this point I have reached adulthood and realized he is mentally incapable of looking past himself.  I often worry i’ll become like him when I get old, because dementia runs so strong in the family.


The big thing is when he sighs, then you know hell is going to break loose.
He thinks everyone and everything does things purposely to affect him (the fish included) so he’ll do long dramatic sighs as like a starter threat.

His world also revolves around money and status so much that both have become meaningless to me 


I didn’t know if anyone else experienced this? 

Sometimes I feel like I swung in the opposite direction of crazy just to avoid being his kind of crazy.