my sister went to the psychiatric hospital today after feeling suicidal and I’ve been very stressed. I know it’s the best for her but I’m just worried about her. I also saw my ex from a very toxic relationship for the first time since we broke up almost 2 years ago yesterday which was triggering for me. I was supposed to help my current boyfriend watch his son today but after these events I decided to be with my family

now I’m stressed and kind of pissed at my boyfriend just bc I feel like he hasn’t been there for me today. he went to watch his son which I completely understand and am glad he got to see him but I thought he’d at least offer to come spend time with me after dropping him off at his moms. but now he’s just home and I’m sad and alone. 

so much comes from my trauma, I think I had to beg for attention and compassion so much as a child that it kind of hurts when someone isn’t there for me unless I ask. I really wanna see him I’m so sad