Hello everyone, this is my first proper reddit post,

This subreddit has helped me out alot, i thought i would give my two cents on an ongoing thing i suffer from. 

 i had my first panic attack in a car driving in the middle of nowhere, i was with my girlfriend at the time and i suddenly felt as if i were loosing consciousness, my whole body felt as if it went into shock. I sat in the passenger seat in the front of the car and my arms were tingling, like a very intense 'pins and needles' sensation all up and down my arms, difficulty breathing and the feeling like i am about to drop dead and my brain is going to turn off. i was on the phone to 999 straight away and they told me i should head to the nearest hospital asap or get an ambulance sent out, they said it was a 7 hour wait until an ambulance and i thought this was the end for me, but i eventually calmed down and felt decently normal to continue the journey after reading online it was a severe panic attack. 

Ever since this has happened i have not been the same person, i have lost my spark as a human being and i am constantly anxious and live in paranoia, i spoke to my local GP about this however he told me everything is okay and prescribed me with 40MG Of Propranolol, these help to a certain extent but never get rid of it. I genuinely constantly have the overwhelming sensation of doom or impending death, i have it constantly and it has gotten to the point where i am afraid to leave my house in case i die, but then i get moments of realisation, as if my old self it trying to push through and tell me everything is okay.

The best way to describe how it feels is as if you become very very very self aware of yourself and your body, your mind then begins to play tricks on you and convince you that something bad is happening, this is your fight or flight response. Every single slight thing that happens to you, you will feel, get a sore head? you convince yourself you have a tumour or brain cancer and you are about to die and it is all about to switch off.. Difficulty catching your breath? you begin to feel like you will never ever breathe again, it sets you into a total panic and you begin to feel like your sunset is upon you, it is not.. you are okay.

What i have found that helps me out is just riding it out, do not fight it. You are okay. i let myself pace around till i can eventually ground myself and sit down, then when i am comfortable i will lay in a fetal position and try to take my mind off of the situation by playing a game on my phone, or watching tiktok, i usually calm down within 15 mins

I am alot better now, i don't get them as often as i did which was a good few times a day, i had my first one in about a week and a half just last night. Please do not let this consume you.