I'm scared.
It's been a year or so of enduring my sister's demanding attitude. I can't take it anymore. 
I was a patient person but when she came here, my patience is slashed into half. This is not my house and yes I plan to move out next year hopefully. 

So, the things that make me angry aside from my sister is the pressure of being in my paternal grandma's house. I am not in good terms with my uncle and her wife for years now and that makes it hard for me to move freely.
-I CAN'T EAT ON TIME
-I CAN'T WASH THE DISHES ASAP BECAUSE THEY ARE IN THE KITCHEN
-I GET SCOLDED BECAUSE OF THE HARDENED FOOD DEBRIS I SOAK IN WATER 
-I feel deep sense of shame in this house becaue I am nothing worthy of praise for them. I am fat and I have no worthy accomplishments. I also overspend. I am lazy in their  eyes. 





I just wanna end it all. 

I am very angry but I don't want to be. I want to be out of this house as soon as I possibly can. So, how do I let go of anger?