I recently got out of a very rocky, almost 3 year relationship. The unhealthy aspects of the relationship were mainly on my part, because I've only just recently gotten a diagnosis. We're still sort of friends and talk every now and again. I hate the way I treated him, it's one of my biggest regrets, because he didn't deserve any of it. I was a horrible person. I'm in therapy now, working on myself but what if that's not enough? What if getting better and changing isn't enough to make it up to him? He understands but I feel like it's not enough, I feel like I have to do this great big thing to make it all up to him, but I don't know if I can.