I had a pretty good day. I woke up early! I  got out of bed and did some school work. Took a victory nap! Woke up and cleaned the house. Finished and sat on the couch with my cat and listened to music before going to my room and watching Netflix for a while. Had lunch. Got my sister from the bus. Started prepping dinner. Made dinner. Cleaned up. Had dinner. Decided to jump on the x box and saw no one was on. For some reason it just triggered a down pour of negative thoughts. I tried to dismiss them and just play a few games but I kept going back to check and see if anyone was on. Everytime it would just hurt a little more. I just feel lonely I guess.  Even though I'm not really alone. I understand people have lives and jobs and all types of things going on but I was just really hoping to be just a little social today and that not happening really fucked with me