Me and my ex boyfriend/fp have broken up for good. He did something undesirability heartbreaking to me, on purpose. He knew my triggers and my weak points and he hit me where it hurt the absolute most. 

I tried to kill myself. I self harmed really bad, worse than I ever have before. I texted the girl he was involved with. I downloaded texting apps just to try to get ahold of him. I was admitted into the psychiatric hospital for a few days, self harmed a bit in there. But I made it out.

It’s hard and I feel empty and like part of me is missing. But I don’t want someone who doesn’t want me. I deserve better than someone who follows their ex fling out of spite to me, especially when they know my past. I will find someone who loves me and understands me, and I can’t wait to love them. For now I will let him go and love myself, I know there’s nothing left between us and I can’t keep holding onto what if we could’ve been better.

I am trying to stop caring about him, any tips?