I just woke up and have been watching YouTube, stressing about job and I almost forgot that soon I have to go to the university to study major that's not interesting for me because I have no interests and there's nothing I actually want to study but my parents want me to go to uni. I almost forgot how empty my life really is and how much I don't have anything to hold onto. It's nothing but suffering. I don't even think it's BPD related, just don't have anywhere and anyone to share it with because I'm chronically lonely and my therapist thinks I'm just a coward. Sorry for the rant!