I (22m)have suffered with depression  and anxiety from a young age, I lost my stepmother at 14, bullied through all my school and college years, felt nothing but misery and anger all the time, I felt suicidal, self harmed and felt no one cared at all. I've been to the point where I was ready to just end it all.

Please don't do it, I'm proof that there is a light at the end of the tunnel u are loved and cared about, I care, you are all my brothers and sisters who have been through the same thing. Please talk to someone, could be on here, with family or a stranger, You are not alone. That pain can still re surface but once you have learned to cope with it you can rise far stronger.

What helped me was watching funny films/TV, talking to someone and doing mma and guitar. 

The first step is admitting you are not ok and its not weak or stupid to admit you are broken and need help, I admire anyone who comes forward it shows that you are strong things will always get better no matter how dark it gets, you are strong and you are not alone