As the title suggests, I have thoughts on committing suicide right now. As you can see, I'm an upcoming college freshman and I am lost right now. I don't know which course to pick. I did some research and that IT/Computer Science is in demand in the Philippines, matter of fact, a lot of engineers switched to tech field according to my research. But my fucking family, they tell me that I should get my brain fixed because I am choosing a bad course, they tell me that I won't become someone if I pick that course and fuckkk. Especially my mom, she's tolerating shit people say and believing them while I did research, and I don't know what the fuck to do anymore man.   


I want to choose tech field not just because it pays well and in demand, but I'm also passionate with it. So I had a mental breakdown just now. I don't know you know the movie "dead poets society" but fuck man, I want to commit suicide like Neil (sorry for the spoilers).