Everytime I let down my walls and open up my heart to someone new (once every few years maybe) I feel like they just quickly abandon me. I am always honest with them about my anxiety and depression up front, and I'm always told by them that they understand and are willing and able to deal with it, because they love me. Then they leave. The last one took my face in her hands, looked me in the eyes and said I love you, I have no intentions of going anywhere, and then she left a week later. I was going through a transition to a new job which is always very stressful for me and also dealing with some other things, and she said she understood, and she loved me too much to give up. And then she gave up. It happens every time and I feel hopeless and broken. Thanks for listening.