Idk what to expect as a response from this sub if I get any, I just need to get it off my chest as noone else around me seems to understand the predicament I'm in.

A few months ago I (21M) moved into a flat with my boyfriend (19M). I have just graduated, so there's a lot of pressure to get a job to help pay rent. The problem is, my anxiety is causing so much of an issue that I can't apply, as I'm afraid I'll say the wrong things. If I do get through, I'm scared to even get an email back or a phone call back to me. If I pass that, I'm anxious about interviews. I would try and get help, but I'm just too anxious to get any help at all. This is just unfair on my boyfriend, obviously who's very outgoing. I've told him all this, but he has a very outgoing and straightforward attitude of 'you're going to be anxious initially, but when you get to it you'll be fine' yes, I understand how that works but I have a phobia of even getting that anxious anyway.


Moments ago, whilst my boyfriend was at university, there was knocking on my front door and I was way too anxious to even answer it. They waited for some time, so now I feel bad thst I didn't answer but I couldn't get myself to do it.


The other week, I had my phone network contact me to upgrade my phone contract, I did answer but as soon as they asked me security questions I shut down immediately, I couldn't speak even though I knew the answer.

It just seems that whenever I get a tiny bit anxious, my whole body and mind goes into overdrive and shuts down completely.

I don't know what to do, where to go or how to express how I feel to my partner.

Thank you for listening to me 😊