Haha, I finally did it. I chased away an FP. I've been in the process of getting over her for about 3 months and she got sick of my shit (constantly needing reassurance, using her as a depository for my insecure feelings). She doesn't want to talk to me anymore or be my friend. She was incredibly sweet and helpful in the beginning, she said she wouldn't abandon me. I'm not under the delusion that words mean anything, god knows I've said plenty of things I only meant in the moment (if that). It stings but it's also somewhat satisfying. I think the masochistic part of me is actually delighted that she's sick of me because it confirms that my specific mess of issues is truly fucking unbearable.

I have no problem respecting her boundaries and not messaging her anymore, but what do I do about mutual friends? Should I delete Facebook or what? I only met a lot of these people through her so I'm not sure how to navigate these next steps.