I have so many things going on in every inch of my life. Recently a friend told me I need to stop dumping all my problems on everyone so I've majorly turned my problems inward, even tho I don't really agree with her statement. 

I really want to open up to somebody close to me but I'm scared because of the comment that friend made and also because of experiences with opening to loved ones in the past.

I keep going round and round in my mind, panicking, trying to find a way to bring it up in conversation and then feeling so stupid.

Me turning my problems inward just has me laying here obsessing over every little thing. Conversations on repeat in my mind. 

I'm so anxious just hoping and wishing somebody would ask me and I could tell them. But, I know even if that happened I would immediately have so much anxiety about what they would secretly be thinking. 

I'm just a mess.