Okay, I’ll try not to make this TOO long. But I never thought I’d have to be back on Reddit about my mental health, but here I am.

Okay so lately I’ve been having extreme fears of abandonment, &amp; this consist of constantly overthinking &amp; making up scenarios in my head, &amp; then literally having break downs from them. Random waves of paranoia, especially at night. I always need reassurance, overly attached, starting arguments with people because I constantly feel like they’re gonna leave, threatening to cut people off or I’ll just tell them to leave. And I only start the cutting people off bs when I’m having a fear of abandonment, feeling lonely, or over any argument. And it’s like when I do cut someone off, it’s like later I’ll realize that I didn’t REALLY wanna do that. &amp; when I thought abandonment issues were one thing here comes mood swings. Okay so, I could literally be listening to music &amp; it doesn’t even have to be a sad song, but then I’ll get into my thoughts (this is usually when I’m over thinking), &amp; I’ll just literally burst into tears. &amp; then I’ll get to writing paragraphs about whatever I’m feeling, or making plans to ghost people before they do it to me, &amp; then later on feel like I was being dramatic. Last week when this was going on, it’s like I had a urge to OD, but its weird because I haven’t been suicidal for a while now. But for a moment there I just wanted to end my sh*t. &amp; then the random waves of confidence when I was just feeling insecure the last few weeks before. 🤦🏾‍♀️ Like idk I can’t even explain it, it’s just so much going on. &amp; this have been going on for like 3 weeks now.