I think i have quiet bpd and my episodes are usually just me exploding not out of anger but more out if hopelessness and shame. I tend to go to my mom and just venting uncontrollably and i just did that. I feel so awful bc she is so understanding and she really tries her hardest to validate me. what happened: I had really intense flashbacks last night and didn’t sleep. I had therapy and it definitely helped to calm my mind but i didn’t get to say what triggered me/work through it. So I went to sleep and slept until 4pm. I felt so horrible bc i wasted yet another day and i went to my moms room bc i couldn’t handle it. I started by asking for her to try and wake me if i sleep too much. But then i started venting about this “friend” I have who is  using me. I was freaking out and couldn’t stop. Now I feel awful bc shes my mom, she shouldn’t have to know this stuff, she shouldn’t have to handle my intense emotions. And now i don’t know what to do. I want to apologize but i feel it will make it worse. any advice?