It’s all in your head, yes it is I know that. If you tell yourself you’re ill then you will be ill, I ALREADY AM. I’m tired of hearing things like this and it makes me even more upset and sick of this life I’m living. I have absolutely no one to turn to except my therapist who I only see once a week and haven’t seen in the past 3 weeks.  My parents get upset and say I’m rude and have an attitude when I tell them how I feel or when I disagree with them that i am actually having suicidal thoughts or that I’m depressed or anxious etc. it took me telling my mom 3 times that I was suicidal before she got me a therapist, 3 times. She being stubborn and refusing to believe my truth while my sperm donor continually gaslights me and her which leads to her gaslighting me could’ve been a reason why, but she is also free to make her own decisions and she decided on two occasions that she wouldn’t help me. now my uncle who I thought I could turn to whenever I was feeling worse than usual would be there for me, is gaslighting me and telling me that all I have to do is just change how I think and other people have problems too,etc. Then after telling him that he is denying my truth and saying the things I say to him are true and as I’m about to ask him why is it so hard to believe he says it’s “his fault” and tells me have a great day. What the hell. After repeatedly telling him I’m mentally ill and it’s not that simple etc he decides to say this or all things, someone who I’ve looked up to and looked to for help from narc family for years has just did this to me. Why do I wake up.