I had a dog named lili since I was four years old she had died at age of fourteen. When I was 16 and now I'm 17 not that long ago she died. And I can't seem to let her go and just be happy again. It feels very lonely and sad without her. I watched her die in front of me and I can't get it out of my head. The image always appears in my head. I couldn't do anything because there was no nearby opened animal hospitals. And we wouldn't make it on time. I tried to stay awake to watch her when she got very bad but I fell asleep and something made me wake up and I saw she wasn't in the room and I went to go find her and she laid on the living carpet to not bother anyone else. I had called my parents and sister over. I just wish she was here and I miss her. She was like my emotional support dog and I can't seem to be happy again no animal will ever fill her place. She would always be my best friend.