I’m 28 / F 

Current symptoms : Severe stomach cramps, bloating, gas, burps and HIGH ANXIETY, STRESS and possible depression! ? I’m going through a lot in life besides the health anxiety.

I desperately need someone to talk to. 


Context : 

LONDON TRIP  and HEALTH 

I came back from London about a month and half ago and I spent about 6 weeks in between hostels, hotels and a friends house. Used all kinds of public transport all the time to- In LONDON. I work as an influencer // travel platform so I was literally shifting a place to stay every 2 nights for 6 weeks and must have shifted between 20 places to stay. 

My sleep schedule was out of whack because I just couldn’t get proper sleep on most days for 6 weeks. 

I missed my period for the first time in my life during this time, an entire cycle. 

My stomach kept paining throughout but I didn’t even have time to focus on it since I was so much on the go. 

In my last week, I suddenly got a super painful throat and fever ( no cough ) and body pain! The fever lasted only a day and a half but the throat pain has been lingering for about 10 days! 

I also drank a lot through this month and hardly slept so I’ve kept thinking it’s the exhaustion and fatigue!  Let’s say I didn’t even keep tabs on how much water I was having. 

Drank a lot of red wine and drank a lot of coffee! One day had some cheap red wine from tesco and the next day there was so much acidity and something felt like a hemeroid flair up so i had blood in my poop. 

I have severe health anxiety and instantly panicked. came back home after 6 weeks and saw blood in my poo about 4 more times and realised I have a lump at the back of my anus . 


went to the doctor today after two weeks who told me I have ulcers in my mouth because of stomach issues and gave me medicines for the same .

Went to another doctor for stomach related pain and bloating and gave me medicine for another three weeks. 

STRESSFUL PERIOD IN LIFE 

FINANCIALLY 
Besides the travel toll and health anxiety toll, I’m dealing with a major stressful period in my life. My dad is in severe debt and throughout my trip ( which I took because I needed an escape from my home ) I was constantly thinking about money and feeling guilty about spending ( I’ve earned every penny for myself ) because I knew my parents back home are suffering. The trip took a financial toll on me besides physical and emotional. 

I started my own business at 21 when I was still in college and I’ve worked hard to be totally independent since day 1 but I currently have no savings because I contribute to home finances + on daily life . I earn enough to support myself. 

RELATIONSHIPS. 
I’ve also had 3 toxic relationships in the past 2 years where my boyfriends one after the other broke up with me because they didn’t want to get married or deal with a family in debt. My mental health has only been spiralling and I’ve constantly pushed my self to be stronger, work harder and be the girl that dosent give a shit about such assholes who run after money and couldn’t stand up for me. They love bombed me, they were the ones who went after me and instantly when they realised over time that my family is dealing with a lot of shit, they not only distanced themselves, broke up but got married straight after. ALL 3 of them. I constantly start doubting myself that something is wrong with me for all of them to do this and my self esteem goes for a six. 

I almost got engaged to one of them who broke it two days before the engagement in 2020. It took me a while to get out of it . 

I went through such major health anxiety in 2020 that I was constantly dizzy and I thought had a brain tumour . Went to 7 doctors who all told me nothings wrong till I got an MRI and it was all clear. 

BEST FRIEND DEATH


Two years ago my best friend also like my soul sister passed away in front of my eyes. It was a life changing experience. 

CURRENT STATE 

This year I decided to go to LONDON to get a break and just feel stress free but as I’ve mentioned above it only had the opposite reaction. I was constantly working side by side to support my trip, not sleeping because I couldn’t sleep in hostels and constantly drinking + shifting places. 

At the end of the trip, there was blood in my poo and I missed my period for an entire month. When I got back home I went to do the doctor who told me it could be hemmoroid or fissure and nothing more due to the stress. I was so worried it’s colon cancer and I’ve actively convinced my head I have it. Ever since the medicines, there is no blood in the stool but my stomach constantly cramps and I have a lot of gas.

I’m getting deep vivid dreams every night which makes me feel like I’m constantly exhausted and fatigued. 

I’m actively checking my poo for blood everyday , even though it hasn’t been there for 3-4 weeks not ever since I’ve had extra water. 
Now when I check the stool, it has BLACK streaks which makes me feel like it’s blood even though it could be undigested food. 
The poop isn’t black but it has black particles for the past 2 - days and really foul smell. 

I’m in a constant state of worry, in pain with the gas and bloating and cramps and worried sick I have colon cancer now. I’m lonely, depressed since I’ve always felt the need for a stable relationship and almost financially scared for my future . 

Can someone tell me if these are symptoms of cancer, IBS or just a lot going on in life ? 

I really need someone to be there for me. 

I have severe health anxiety - I hope this is nothing serious ?