Hi guys how are you! Some of you may have seen my last post were I was talking about my recovery. To be honest, this is more difficult that I thought it would be.
These last week I have been feeling so bad, to the point that my symptoms have increased a lot, I feel my head heavy cause of too much thinking, I'm feeling, sometimes I have like mini panic attacks cause of thinking that I will never get rid of this, or cause of thinking that this is not normal and my dpdr is hella high and I'm being like aware of my thoughts, it's weird, I'm just feeling weird is like when u just feel that u are not good
. Tbh this is the first time I experimented the pure anxiety, all my last experiences were like a superficial part of anxiety. But I'm not here to cry...
To beat this I have to be optimist, and if there is nothing good, I will lie to myself until something good really happen. Being a victim will just make anxiety get stronger, I'M NOT YOUR VICTIM ANXIETY!, YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD RUIN MY LIFE? HELL NAAH that's what I say guys.
Yes this is beeing so difficult, yes sometimes my head feels like is going to explode cause of the amount of racing thoughts irrational fears and useless information thats  passing through it, yes I'm feeling weird and not feeling good, yes I'm kinda emotionally numb and yes rn I may be on the deepest hole of the anxiety recovery, but I have to remember that when u get to the deepest part the only thing you can do is go up again.
Sorry for the long text, tbh this help me to express how I'm feeling and it kinda motivates me, ngl I see my future do dark rn, but I know that pain is temporal. Please guys if you have any advice that can help reduce anxiety just tell me. Is it normal to feel like I'm going to go insane? I love you all!