I found that overtime I didn't want to get better. I did but I didn't at the same time. The depression is comforting. It's all I've known for the past few years. When I feel better it feels uncomfortable. Like it's not right, and I'm not supposed to feel okay. I convince myself that I need to be in a constant state of discomfort but that discomfort is the depression which to me is comforting. 

Does anyone else feel the same?