And everytime there's new excuses, new delays, new deaths, it all just remembers me how useless i am and increases thr toll on my alrrady crippçing anxiety.
i'm starting to get violent when discussing it because i just can't fucking understand how a person with two bits of dignity can see all the horrors and stand aside or worse, be in favor of them. My chest just gets heavier everyday and my mind is blurred, the nerves wreck me when i have spasm attacks.