I’ve been seeing this guy casually for the last month and he’s great and we mesh very well. But lately I’ve been trying to distance myself from him but also keep finding myself sharing life stuff in normal conversation. I keep wanting to tell myself to back away from especially after he told me of his plan to move to a different state (that I’m not interested in living in) within the next couple of years.

The relationship shot off like fireworks in the beginning with me being manic and excited and talkative and energetic and now I’m in a low period and I feel myself shutting people out and wanting to push him away. I feel like I’m an all or nothing person at heart and I’m tired of being hurt and hurting myself. Maybe I’m not thinking clearly because I’m not in a good mood but I almost feel like ghosting him. 

I hate feeling like I’m too much or say too much in conversation. Even though I’ve discussed my illness and the way I am with him and he was very supportive I still can’t push away the idea that I’m overbearing and difficult. 

Simply not getting a timely response can throw me off. I just feel like talking to people isnt worth it and I should just shut up and leave everyone alone.