
so my fp and i had a fling during summer which we both knew wasn’t going to result in a relationship. we also spent a lot of time together, and because we had agreed that we wouldn’t enter a relationship, i believed it was our friendship. now he feels uncomfortable hanging out with me when it’s just the two of us because he still finds me attractive. i understood this and tried to respect his boundaries (which i did, i only reached out to him once when i had a a bad family argument) despite the fact that i was hurt because i felt like i had lost a close friendship.

yet it’s reached a new point today where he refused to hang out with me and another person, because it still makes him uncomfortable. this really hurt me because we’re still supposed to be friends but i’m not sure how i can be friends with a person who won’t even hang out me when there’s other people there, or doesn’t like it if i message him too much. so i deleted him off snapchat. i haven’t deleted him off anything else  yet but i figured snapchat is a start because it’s my most used social media, and seeing his contact there just wasn’t doing me any good. 

i’m proud of myself even though i’m still hurting. it didn’t really help that i saw him out with other people after this interaction happened, but what can you do🤷‍♀️ it’s getting the point where our friendship is causing me too much distress to try and salvage it