i have no friends, no job, chronic illness/disability, no income and no support from family.  i’ve been isolated for a long time and introversion has kept me going but it’s finally starting to eat at me.  my mood is always low, even on my best days, and crippling anxiety makes it hard to date or connect with anyone romantically.  i’m not unattractive, but i’ve never been in love or had a serious relationship (i’m in my 30s).  my only goal in life was to start a family.  it’s becoming obvious that it’ll never happen for me and i’m having a hard time coping.    my life has no purpose and no joy.. i’m just passing time and wasting resources.  my therapist is the only person i can talk to - when i’m in a deep depression it’s too much for anyone else to handle.  i stopped posting on socials a year ago and no one noticed i was missing, so i don’t feel bad about an early death anymore.  i don’t know why i’m here, i guess i just needed to vent.  nothing i do changes anything.