As the title says, I have every reason to be happy with life. I have a beautiful wife, three beautiful kids, we're all healthy. I make a lot of money, we have little debt and enough money in our savings account to do anything we want or buy any meaningless gadget we want. 

I'm not bragging or anything, I'm just saying that I have no reason to not be happy. I'd give up every dollar I have and go work flipping burgers if it meant that I'd actually feel happiness. 

So there is obviously something wrong with my brain. I've never talked to a counselor or therapist. I don't really need counselling. Someone listening to me isn't going to make me feel happy, I can already talk to my wife about everything. I need some kind of drug, but I don't know what. 

I'm not suicidal, but I'm at the point that I'd just prefer to die so that I can stop feeling this way. But I can't give up because my kids depend on me. My father wasn't and isn't around and I'll never do that to my kids.