My friend is getting tired of putting up with my self-image problems and irrational abandonment fears. The worst part is that she hasn't said any of that, but Iv'e assumed it already. 

Recently she's been telling me about a friend that she has, and who she has been talking to frequently. She's been friends with them for about five years, and we've been friends for about three but I've just barely heard of this other person. We've had our issues in the past, but nothing as big as this one. I can see and feel her slipping away from me, and when we talk about it and I tell her that's what it feels like, she's quick to reassure me that that's no the case. Things don't change.

I know it's my brain that's screwing me over. I can tell that the things I'm arguing for are rational/irrational, but I still cling onto my ideas as much as I do. I feel like I'm the backburner friend now, or that I have always been and just didn't know it and that's humiliating for me. I feel like I have to struggle to hold onto her when she's got these other people she could be happy with instead. I know THAT'S irrational. I still feel bad. 

I don't know what to do anymore. We argue practically every day, and she's been nice but I feel like things don't change. Well. There goes another one.