honestly idk why i’m putting myself through this mental torture? but i am so fucking paranoid my partner is cheating on me.
my paranoia fuelled by his past. he told me in his previous relationship (his only other official girlfriend) which he was in from like 13-18 i think that he would talk to other girls online &amp; basically emotionally cheat (i don’t think he did anything physical based on how conservative he was &amp; also what he told me but idk). there are joked about him being a “loyal boy” from his friends on old facebook posts and those make me really uncomfortable.

the reason i feel like i should trust him is that his morals have really done a complete 180 since that relationship, actually while he was in it (it was an ldr &amp; he didn’t end it for so long bc he felt bad for leaving her after so long which ik is stupid). he went from conservative af muslim to an atheist &amp; feminist who was actually a political activist, not just a feminist to get into liberal girls’ pants

i have no real reason to think he is cheating on me now. i just have this paranoia when he’s using his phone?? i always assume he’s talking to a girl, or if i see he got a notification from one it scares me so much. i know i am being paranoid but it’s so hard to get rid of given the seed of doubt in my mind. idk what to do

another reason i am scared is bc since september i lost my sex drive which i feel suuuuper guilty abt because i used to be equally as horny as him. so in my mind it makes sense that he’d look for that elsewhere