Hi guys

So i've had severe OCD for quite some time. My medication seems to be lessening it (zoloft 200mg). I've noticed this week that I'm just really not freaking out as much over my OCD thoughts. I am a little weirded out though. I've been taking 9mg of melatonin at night a few nights this week. I've also been feeling spaced out, like i'm not in my head, mainly in the mid morning when i wake up or often early afternoon.

For example, I get up and go to the bathroom. I will notice how blue the tiles look. Are they usually this blue? The lines seem crisper and the bathroom seems brighter. I didn't turn the light on. Why didn't I turn the light on? Then I go to the mirror/sink to wash my hands, and i'm just kinda perplexed I guess at my reflection. I immediately know it's me, it's just kinda like 'huh. okay.'. Like i'm really noticing things but also feeling completely not myself and out of my head.

The other morning I woke up and i was just looking at my hand and when i stopped being half asleep i was like okay....what on earth. The next morning I also was staring at my drawers and wondering if they'd always had those lines on them. Again, when I properly woke up, i was like what on earth is going on here.

Can anyone shed some light on this? Could it be the melatonin, or is this something like dissociation?