I’ve been to therapy and taken Zoloft in the past but I hated feeling so numb all the time so went off them. I know I should try therapy again but finding an office that takes my insurance and availability that isn’t 3 months out is just too daunting. I can barely get out of bed most days so the mental energy to call a bunch of offices isn’t feasible right now. 

I always hoped once I became an adult things would get easier but turns out it sucks just as much if not more. 

Right now I can’t even get a job because I keep needing to cry constantly. I need to be strong for my family but sometimes I just want to lay down to sleep and I hope I don’t wake up. 

I don’t know just wanted to share I guess