I must be ugly or something. I fucking hate myself because I don't understand what I do wrong. Every single time I ask a girl out they cancel plans. I try to be nice, flirty, etc but it's not enough. It never is and I give up. I fucking hate who I am. I am so sick of being myself that I want to vomit.  

I cant even see a psychiatrist since they all have a waitlist. I'm always at the bottom, I've been waiting for months and I just want to overdose at this point.