I was up all night feeling terrible like usual. Usually suicidal thoughts and depressive thinking. It was some of the worst in a while. I was laying in my bed at around 5 AM when I decided to go on a walk. It was very nice weather (A little chilly). I kinda appreciated the area I live in for its beauty. Listened to my favorite music. I went home and slept and when I woke up I felt shitty again. It kinda felt like a dream but it was nice. I might decide to fix my sleeping schedule.