Hello there. Let me start of this post by saying I'm "technically" diagnosed with BPD features. I was hospitalized for around two months at a place in Utah called UNI, and that's what they spit out. 

Now too the post, I was prescribed 50 mg Seroquel nightly. I've been on it for around a year now, and yes, it's saved me. But I can't help but feel CONSTANTLY tired. 

I know that's a side affect, but I hate how much control it has on me. 

It scares me. And now that I'm actually going to uni in the fall, I want too go off of it cause of the energy factor, but my docs and parents tell me that it's working, but now that I'm 18 it's my choice. 

Not really sure what I'm asking. My therapist tells me not too identify with this thing, (BPD? features), but if I am truly stable with this hell of a drug, I know I should stay on it.

Edit: I forgot what inspired me too write this. It was looking up others experiences with the med, and hearing how they are scared of stopping it. I relate, and that scares me. How dependent I am on it. Just like the drugs that I'm trying to be sober from. 