In the back of my mind I know that I can’t really change and that when I do something wrong I’m probably going to do it again and again because I don’t have help atm. I try and tell my boyfriend this that I think we should break up sometimes I even break up with him but we end up staying together or he just doesn’t see how fucked up i am I know I hurt him so badly why can’t he just leave me. Why is he so attached if all I am is an empty shell of a human. I... don’t... get... it...! Like when we fight he basically tells me I’m the worst human on earth but still won’t fucking get tf out. I think he likes it tbh.