To preface, I've been dealing with OCD with the theme of having a cuckold fetish. Basically, I'm scared that I have a cuckold fetish. And please, don't say "there's nothing wrong with cuckoldry", that's not what I'm here for. And no, this isn't for reassurance.

1. Is it normal to have a voice in your head that's taunting to partake in your OCD fear or something like that? For example, "do it", "c'mon, just do it.", "you should try it" or anything like that?
2. Do you ever have a misattribution of arousal? What I mean is, do you ever think you're aroused by an OCD thought, but like your penis hasn't grown?
3. Do you get lots of thoughts, images, and imaginations of your OCD theme in your head?
4. Do ever feel reassured that you don't have what your OCD theme is but still feel fearful?
5. Do you ever borderline fantasize about your OCD theme, but without pleasure? What I mean is, do you ever makeup situations about your OCD theme in your head and play them out, but you're not finding it pleasurable like sexual fantasies or anything like that and you get scared that you have what you fear. Like for example, I keep imagining myself watching myself being cucked, I'm not enjoying imagining this, but it happens. I also keep imaging and fearing situations in my head where I am telling my significant other that I want cuckoldry, I don't want it, but I keep imagining this and feeling scared.
6. Has your OCD gotten worse over time, what I mean by this is, at first it was intrusive images and thoughts, but now it's you questioning everything more, and imagining situations in your head?
7. Do you ever think that what you are worried about in terms of OCD is something you've always had? Like for example, people with HOCD, do you ever or have ever thought, "What if I've always been gay and now it's coming out?'' or anything like that.
8. Do ever wonder that your OCD isn't bad or like it's ok and normal? For example, (nothing against the LGBTQ) do people with HOCD ever think "Being gay isn't that bad, and I wouldn't mind being it" even though you don't like the prospect.
9. Last question, do you ever feel like your becoming what you fear and are scared that you're becoming okay with or internalizing your OCD fear?

Thank you, best wishes on your recovery if you're going through this, love you all