Long story short I just recently separated with my wife. I've let my depression over the years get the better of me. All she has asked of me is easy things. Clean the house, pick up after myself, laundry all the normal marriage life thibgs. I just never took it seriously and now...she has lost her love for me, no spark.

I also found out she is extremely manic and impulsive. She's doing things that are 100% NOT her. She knows it's not her but doesn't care. Keeps putting herself in dangerous situations on purpose. Part of these manic impulse has been meeting random men in shady cities and areas for sex. We have talked about it and she just says she likes the danger and feels like she is sexy and wanted.

Obviously this is fucking destroying me. I'm not as bad as her, but I've been mentally unstable half my life. So on one hand I understand her brain and stupid actions. On the other hand, im her fucking husband and am disgusted by her actions.

She is still the mother of my kids and I still very much lover her. The fact that she is in the planning stages of suicide have forced me to put my broken heart aside for now and help her get out of that dark place. 

This is the hardest thing I have ever done