After a month and a half of NC he texted me. Nothing good. Just a short but sweet text calling me a “whore” and an “awful human being.” (Backstory: I broke up with him and then really regretted it but it was too late. I had hurt him too much over the time we were together and he was done with it.) 
We had a really messy breakup, I tried desperately to get him back but nothing I tried to say or do fixed it. So anyways I get this text from him because one of his friends told him that I cheated on him before we broke up (not true.) I responded very maturely and did not lash out. We had a short conversation of him throwing blame and me accepting it. Because honestly I am to blame. I ruined our relationship. All he gave me was love and all I did was push him away and hurt him over and over again. Sometimes I miss him so much and sometimes I feel completely over it. I don’t know anymore. Him texting me has left me confused if he still cares or if he was just so mad and upset. The thought of him hating me and never wanting anything to do with me ever again makes me so so sad.