I spend literally every single day with him and on the rare days we aren't together we at least share a few texts. Especially if hes in vacation, ill send him updates on how his animals are, how work is ext... this time theres been nothing for the past 2 days. Not a single thing. 

I did make him upset a couple days before he left but we seemed to get over that bump but now im not so sure, what if the vacation is what he needed to realize all I do is piss him off and he doesnt want me around anymore, what if he just doesnt want to come back period hes always talking about leaving the state but I didn't think so soon, Im supposed to leave too. What if he just decided its weird to have an opposite sex best friend or his wife who I absolutely adore doesn't want us to spwak anymore. What if theres something else I did and didn't know it was a bad thing. I'd hate to think about the even worse options but what if they both got hurt and now theres no way ill ever find out about it and hes just gone forever. 

I can't function with him gone I feel so fucking lost Its only been 2 days and theres still 2 more to go my head is going to explode I just really really really fucking want him back and happy.