Im at a loss for words. Im just sitting here typing trying to understand &amp; comprehend how i’m feeling. Recently i’ve been very jealous of others success, so much that i’m not focusing on MYSELF. It’s left me with a sour taste in my mouth. I feel like I have been there for everyone as a friend, as a shoulder to cry on, Even for music/business advice…And what do I get? Nothing. Ive had depression for well over 10 years now &amp; I haven’t even reached 30 years old. I feel like i’m all alone in my journey but I’m playing a bigger role in my friends &amp; families journeys. I know I have people who love me but no one actually ever supports me and my decisions. I’ve tried ending my life multiple times and through the years have gotten better at coping and understanding my depression. But recently I can’t get the thoughts of just giving up out my head. I want to just feel like i’m doing the right things to be a better person. But it seems like I’ve  just been delaying the inevitable..