It's been a whole year since I last saw your face. 


I'm always wondering how you are, if things have improved since we last spoke, if you're even still alive more than anything. 


It's like a never ending empty void and today it's been so painful. 


You once brought so much joy into my life, you were my absolute best friend.


Eventually you emotionally abused and traumatised me beyond repair, I'm half of who I used to be because of you.


But I miss you today.