I've made many posts about my mental health over the last few months. I've gathered an overwhelming number of strategies to better myself and dig myself out of the whole I'm in. but I just keep swimming in circles. I was so burnt out and tired of everything, I thought summer would help. it did for a little bit, but the feelings keep coming back. now I feel a chronic, crippling loneliness. it's overwhelmingly painful, but paired with the burnout I don't even feel anything. I'm left numb. apathetic. im struggling with depersonalization. nothing even feels real, all my reality is is my loneliness. I get jealous easy, I can't stop looking at everyone else's lives in envy. I wish I felt important to someone. I can't even let my feelings out anymore, I'm so burnt out I can't remember the last time I cried. I feel these things, but they feel dull, and not real. nothing helps either. I've started talking to more people, but it's so exhausting, and looking at their lives just leaves me more jealous, feeding into my *constant* loneliness. if I wanted to, I could meet up with my friends tomorrow. but I'm never truly satisfied. I don't know what to do anymore. every time I get happy or optimistic, I get pulled back down. this has been going on for almost half a year now. I'm sick of it. I don't know if I can keep going