Hey so my ex-girlfriend has suggested to me that I may have borderline personality disorder. I fit every single symptom on the list. I'm pretty sure it broke us up, also the drinking I did damaged us good too. I always needed attention from her, no matter what. If she had gone out for 15 minutes or an hour I would call, honestly just to in my mind have the satisfaction of hearing from her. She hated that because it invaded her personal space. I always needed her to tell me she loved me and maybe too much. I havent had a relationship last long, in my adult life, a few months tops. She was the only thing to last longer, 9 months. My inward view of myself is very rickety. Somedays I feel good sometimes I feel useless and I feel weird how compared to other people they can solidly approach things the same every day and me it's like a battle to keep up. I feel depressed and empty, and have since I was 17. I'm very self destructive with alcohol. My emotions are whacky too. I've never put a label to my ways of being, or thought it was.anything serious. But in reality the last years I've been suffering with a  unstable life and I want it to end. I want to have relationships that last, I deeply cared about my ex and I feel that all of these things ruined it all. I just want to know how to get help and to be able to know I can live a stable normal life.