We were talking about mental health, and I’ve been seriously struggling for the past 2 years (not that she cares), and all I said was that it’d be nice if I could get medicated or get therapy, and she went on a rant. Saying things like "our family doesn't have money, and therapy is really expensive, so you should just forget about it" and "what's the point in paying someone to sit there and judge you? They don't care about you, all they care about is their paycheck." She even told me that medication was useless and would only make me an emotionless zombie. She kept repeating, "you should forget about it" over and over again. It’s like she was intentionally trying to crush my hope of thinking I could get help.
 
She’s expressed a lot of times that she’s "anti-medication" and anytime I say anything about being on medication, it turns into a one-sided argument where she judges me for even wanting to be medicated. She knows how badly I’m struggling, but all she can do is tear into me for wanting to get fucking help. She even told me once that she didn’t believe in mental illness and that it wasn’t "that bad" which is basically everyone in my family. My brother even laughed at me for saying that I might be depressed. God I hate my family. All they do is laugh in my face when I open up.