Im trying to conceptualize the difference between bipolar and bpd and how it is that I can have both. bpd seems to evidently be the complete lack of neural pathways between left and right brain. Hence the black or white thinking, being numb to everything and intellectualizing all thoughts  and feelings (numbness) until you get triggered and all of a sudden it's every feeling all at once, these same symptoms are comorbid with the symptoms of ptsd and adhd, because in these disorders we also experience the lack of neural pathways connecting the brain. That's why we see so many overlapping symptoms like memory loss, executive dysfunction, inability to regulate emotions, and all of these disorders are developmental based on trauma that has occurred. 

Whereas bipolar disorder seems to be a brain chemistry thing, which is why it is one of few disorders that cannot be treated solely through therapy, but with help from medications, if you so choose. Being manic is so distressing in some ways while being depressed is so distressing in others. When I'm manic I can't stop doing things. When I'm depressed I can't do anything. While I may feel invincible and on top of the world while experiencing mania, I still feel extremely suicidal. And of course while im depressed I feel suicidal as well. Of course,  while all this is happening im experiencing the consistent fluctuation of mood that occur throughout the day because of BPD. UGH. I'm so exhausted. 

Ive chosen to be medication free after feeling stable enough to tackle that feet. However Ive been finding it harder and harder to manage my bpd while having bipolar 2 on top of everything. Im wondering if I can do it anymore. Does anyone here have both bpd and bipolar 2? How do you manage it?