I have ocd and I never thought that this could get this terrible everything I do gets distracted by ocd I hate my life and my mom hates me too she yells at me and throw things for being retard my ocd gets fine sometimes but when it is going fucking insane I don’t know I do as my imaginary ocd demon says yes I made it up I don’t know why it got created one day i know it is imagination so don’t misunderstand please man I am being paranoid too so someone do certain action when I am looking at them I think it is threat to hurt me I am trying but I keep thinking it is true I yelled at my neighbor today I met school therapist but she’s so dry what does she even do how to stop being person with mental problems I don’t even make friends at school I didn’t make friends in years I don’t know how to when I am making friends my paranoia and ocd kicks in I mean what the fuck I get scared of them I don’t talk with them my thoughts go like this I make friends they do something I think it is threat for no reason I run how to escape from this fucking life style I want to know a free therapy my mom is not even interested she says overcome it by yourself so uh should I overcome it by myself or should I find a therapist I think I could ask it to dad give me any ideas