There is nothing quite like someone wanting your body. I go back and forth from sex obsessed to sex repulsed. It's exhausting, but i've been like this for so long, I can't remember *not* being like this. the only time I feel real--really seen as a person--is when I get validation that there's people out there who want to fuck me. This is the only valid proof for my brain that I am something. 

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At the same time, it is eating me alive. It makes me feel unlovable, disgusting, worthless. My self image is both nonexistent and something I can never achieve. I really do feel like I'm not a person. I can't win.