I'm not sure if this is bpd or just anxiety but I can't hang out in groups of 3 or more and never could. I'm fine one on one, bit as soon as there's another person I always end up third wheeling. I remember once my best friend and I were hanging out with this guy and even then I was the third wheel and they were having their own convo and I was just listening to music in my Bluetooth. I just get so exhausted and I don't know what to say and I start to hate myself and then it's almost like I can't even focus on what's going on so I just withdrawal