(16F) I spend my nights struggling to fall asleep and my days struggling to wake up. I lost so much motivation that I don't usually eat more than 500 calories a day and I spend a lot of the day asleep. I want to go to school and I want to go to work and go to school and make friends but my depression is so debilitating that I can't find it in myself do these things. I feel like a waste and a burden to my family and I feel like maybe it's my fault that this is happening. I'm so unhappy that I ask family members to not look at me while I'm walking to the bathroom and things like that, I don't even want anyone to set eyes on me. no amount of treatment is helping and I have no idea what to do at all. I find myself wanting to go to sleep early and promising myself and all of the sudden, it's 5 AM. I'm basically nocturnal. It's not okay and it's not effecting me but also family. This is the longest I've gone without showering, ONE WEEK. I need to do something, and quick. I'll be 18 in less than two years and I have nothing to show for it. Freshman level education, no job, no drivers license... I truly dont know what to do. I just wanna escape myself.