Since I started Highschool, anything leads me to a burn out. If I study for one day, even if it's not a lot, I will wake up the next day, feel unable to get out of bed, log on my online classes but be unable to pay attention. Now I'm in college ( in europe, so it's not like in the US) and it just won't stop. I have finals for the first semester next week and I forgot everything. I tried to study on monday while still enjoying my day, I went out to get coffee, walked around. Yet on Tuesday I broke down, was mean to my dad again, couldn't pay any attention, and what we're studying this week in class will be in the final exam ... 

I see a therapist but I'm shy and I feel like I'm just an idiot pretending to be depressed just because I'm too lazy so I never got to tell her how bad I really feel and how impacted my life is by all of this. Also, I only see her every 2-3 weeks and usually on weekends, so I don't feel as bad as I do during the week and I struggle to recall how I feel in the worst times. It's like the part of me who's happy and the part that's very sad don't connect, and I can't relate to the other one when I'm not living it. 

If something similar happened to you and you managed to get out of it, how did you ? Also, how can I get help from my school ? There are no counsellors or anything, we just have a teacher who's in charge of our year, but last time I talked to her, she told me that I just lacked motivation. So I don't know what to do or where to go.