I had a breakthrough with my anxiety. I realized that I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore at the age of 25. I used to have so many plans and things I wanted to do. But then, I had a relapse in OCD and now the only thing I think about is, "when will my sleep get better" or "when will my anxiety get better." It feels so weird and jarring. Now that the anxiety is dying down, I feel anxious about not know what I want to do with my future. As soon as I start doing stuff I enjoy though I feel pretty good in the moment. But I can't just rely on video games to help relax me.

I used to think when I was younger I wanted to have a huge impact on this world and do something wonderful with my life. It's like when the anxiety goes away and my OCD is better, I start making plans and have goals I want to achieve. But then suddenly I'll relapse into anxiety/OCD and it feels like I can't think about anything else for a few weeks and all my plans fall to shit. It's so frustrating, I feel like this illness is robbing me of my dreams.