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I had suspected I was bipolar due to my family history with it and what was going through my mind. I had to be on suicide watch at the hospital a couple days ago, how they made me felt was like I was crazy, I know it is protocol to take everything out of my room, give me different colored scrubs than everyone else, and just leave me in a room all night. I feel guilt, anger, and hopeless all the time and it’s hard grasping onto life. I have a girlfriend and a 9 month old baby, I feel guilty 24/7 cause I just feel like a shit father and boyfriend. I’m always picking fights and I feel unreliable at times. It’s just hard. I just started meds yesterday and I’m just hoping they will help me feel somewhat stable and want to be alive. This Reddit page really helps me not feel alone in this so thank you, sorta..