Was at the gym. Started to finally feel slightly decent then BOOM. Lights go out.

Then I started to dissociate hard. Then my brain kept zapping over and over from the stupid fking meds I been on (I'd like to think it's the meds or I'm prob dying)

Then I feel like a ghost and just go into the corner.. and look at myself from across the room. Someone else was there and I feel like I scared him. He probably thought I was a ghost because I look so odd and unfamiliar. He left asap

I don't feel like I belong in this world. I went outside eventually and the lights were out everywhere. Things felt very off and eerie. Reminded me of when I had a very dark Magic Mushroom trip. I still feel off. Normally at the end of a workout I feel peace and calmness. Not tonight. I feel so fkn weird. Something just fell upstairs and my parents are all asleep. What the fk life.