i don’t really know how i feel about posting on my private accounts 

cause when i make really concerning posts, i know that i want people to check on me and usually they do, but i also get very upset about those who haven’t checked up on me. even though i know that people have things going on in their lives and most likely just haven’t seen my story, it still really hurts. 

also even when my friends check in i genuinely don’t know what to ask from them because when they ask what’s wrong most of the time there’s not a clear issue. it’s just the chronic feelings of emptiness and loneliness that no one else can help me with. 

i’m literally just going off the hope that i’ll feel better in a few days but when that doesn’t happen it feels even worse. 

like posting is useful for venting but i feel guilty for doing it cause i know i’m upsetting my friends and there’s nothing they can do to help but i still want to feel like people care or are concerned. 

then sometimes i’ll do the opposite and vanish for a few weeks :/ 

anyone else go through this?