Hi, I am a 25 year old male with no job and recently got broken up with. 

For some background context— I got my BS degree in Comp Sci almost two years ago (Fall 2020). I only applied for jobs the following summer for maybe 2 months and had 2 interviews, but nothing came from them. Since then, I have found a profitable source of income through a technique called match betting, but that is besides the point. I still feel pathetic though for not having a real job, and apart of me thinks I’m not good enough for one in my major.

I feel like a failure for many reasons. I was probably the most dumb kid in my graduating class. If it wasn’t for covid and my classes switching to online, I think I would of failed my senior year. I have social anxiety— I avoid some social situations and always overthink everything. I’m constantly judging myself and wondering how I am looked and perceived by others. 

My family isn’t that close. I feel like they don’t know understand me and honestly annoy me a lot. I recently moved out so I am hoping this new freedom will allow me to blossom. I have a few close friends but they all have jobs and seem to have their life together.

I am also a heavy drinker. I hate being sober, I am so awkward and get nervous around people. The drinking is starting to backfire though as I think it’s starting to make my anxiety worst and my hate for other people &amp; myself stronger. 

I honestly think I am a decent looking guy and have some good attributes, but this stress, anxiety, and depression is really crippling me. I feel like I know what to do to make things better but life just sucks sometimes. 

I don’t know why I’m making this post but I just need some advice