I'm lucky if a friendships exceeds a year if I'm honest, most friends seem to hang around for 3 to 6 months, but always find a way to abandon me. I'm 21F, yet I do not have one close friend at all. I spent most of my school/college and now even uni years just getting abandoned by other girls. 

I've always felt things deeply, emotions are a big part of who I am, however I try my best not to burden others with it and instead use my understanding of my own emotions to help others. Therefore, in friendships I'm always that therapist friend, yet I never get invited out and slowly get abandoned, even when I express that I like doing those things. I matured very quickly when I was young because of trauma, if anything I've probably had BPD for ages but only found out 2 years ago. I love to help people because as I feel everything so deeply I know what it can be like. I'm always abandoning my own needs for others, yet they still leave.

I'm not sure if I try too hard, but I never get the same in return. Girls always seem to be bitchy towards me for no reason - it's actually caused me to have more friends that are guys, but they always turn into relationships and then they leave too. 

I'm not sure if this is something people with BPD in general just struggle with or if it's just something wrong with me? Thing is, I always question what I do wrong before I realise it's actually the people around me.