So I suspect I may have depression but I have never been diagnosed medically it was only suggest by a therapist I used to see that I may have depression and ocd. I started not eating and maintaining myself when covid hit I thought and kinda still think my life is over from covid and other diseases hitting. So now fast forward I got into arguments and it has caused rifts because my parents started calling out the state of my room and how I started staying more inside my room. They wondered if I ate or ever got out to use the bathroom at all. I just feel no energy even if I layed around all day even now. I tried to hide the state of my room from them but it was impossible because my room is small. So now im in this cycle where I still lay around then after like days I clean my room but it still takes my energy. Also my hygiene is ok but it could be better I don't always shower or shave or brush my teeth even I go weeks not doing it. I can't go through all the details but I do feel some shame being 21 years old now. I just feel I always struggle and im so tired. If I cant manage the most basic things anymore how tf do I keep living when don't want to even live for myself?