I just don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I’m just in what feels like a constant state of uncertainty now with him. Like I’m obsessing over it and I know it’s not healthy but I also don’t know how to make myself stop. I’ll distract myself and then even though I’m distracted I’ll still think about it. Like why the fuck am I like this? Why can’t I just be fucking normal? 

I’m making myself stress and nearly sick over him. 

I just need someone to distract me. I need someone to talk to.