Like I’m not suicidal as such but I’ve never wanted to kms as much as I do rn. It’s weird cause it scares me like I genuinely do not wanna be alive it’s so tiring and I hate myself so so much and I just want a break, but I want a break where I don’t have to be me anymore. It’s so exhausting thinking these things and having to turn around and pretend like I’m completely fine.