I’m talking to a counselor tomorrow. We’ve talked once but I didn’t tell her everything so it just seemed like I was a normal teenager going through the boringness of summer.

But it’s gotten worse ever since then. Idk if I have depression but I’ve felt more depressed for abt almost 3 weeks. More than what’s happened in the past.

It’s so hard to get up some mornings not from tiredness but feeling like a weight is on me. It was even hard resisting to hurt myself bc I felt guilty and shameful. But one day was so bad that I gave in. It wasn’t that bad but I’m scared of the future. 

My anxiousness is happening more and I hate it. Stomach aches, scared of being alone and scared of everything situation that can happen. Idk if I have anxiety either bc my family has never checked me or my siblings for any mental disorders.

But I’m scared to say all of this bc idk what’s going to happen if I do. I want to get help bc rn nothing seems to be working for me. Idk anymore, I want to get diagnosed bc ig I just want my family to maybe understand what I’m feeling a bit better.