I fell in love with a boy a few months ago and became insanely obsessed with him and would go to gross lengths just to receive any sort of attention. later on i found out there was another girl he was on and off with and although i’m unsure if he cheated on me with her or anything it was still just a really sucky situation being back and forth with them and him only coming to me when he had no one else i think. ive moved on from him and i honestly think i’ve became more obsessed with that girl than i was with him. id go to extreme lengths to stalk her social medias so far i even created fake identities to get accepted into her private accounts. whenever she posts about something i find myself catching that interest as well and it fascinates me and in my head i just started liking this stuff because i liked it and i always had interest in it but never the motivation to actually dig deeper into that interest and i thought that lately maybe why i actually started digging deeper was because i was getting my life together and had time for stuff like that. but after multiple things i am starting to think i am literally copying her and i don’t know why. i don’t think i am jealous of her i don’t feel jealous i’m sort of scared of her i don’t know. she dislikes me a lot. i just feel like anytime she does something i want to do it and i don’t know if this is apart of my bpd or if i’m just being cringe or something i don’t know. has anyone else experienced something like this?  i hate it a lot and i don’t want to be accused of copying her but i feel like i literally am lol