I don’t know if I want to die or just disappear. I lost the best job I could ever ask for, I’ve applied for almost 30 jobs, I had 4 interviews, 1 trial and I walked out of one job because I was on the verge of a panic attack. I have nothing, I have £10 in my bank and I don’t have it in me anymore to be a burden in my house. I can’t sleep, I can’t afford to eat and I’m too much of a coward to tell someone I have feelings for them! I don’t want to suffer, I just want things to go back to how they were! Where I was happier, when my mental health was improving and I actually had enough money to feed myself and pay my rent. But that ain’t gonna happen.