i dont know if im splitting or being irrational or if im valid but telling someone how i feel/ that they upset meis so horrible. i dont know if i’ll say the right thing. i dont know if she’ll get it. i dont know if im just making somethingnout of nothing and im delusional. i havent been eating well so maybe my ed coming back is making me crazy and straining my relationships and im mad i even got to this point again. why does talking about how i feel make me want to self harm. why does considering how i feel throw me into an endless spiral of if im doing the right thing by saying something. i hate thsi