I've never posted in this forum before but today is one of those days. I have known triggers that enhance my anxiety, such as getting little sleep or having a lot of work/projects coming up. 

I'm in a masters program as well as in an internship and only work 3 days a week. I work from home 1 day the other 2 in person. I was supposed to work in person today but my anxiety was just up there. I got 4 hours of sleep last night working on my masters assignment which I can't figure out how to do and didn't finish it and have to talk to my counselor on our routine call today, which obviously contributed to my anxiety. Then I have a meeting today (same day every week) and I try to make sure I present my self in very specific ways and when I can't get my self to look that way I end up taking forever to get ready-- which 5 minutes before I was supposed to work I had to text my manager and ask if I could work from home. She was entirely fine with this but I just feel bad my anxiety gets the best of me on days like this when 1 day out of the week I have the most people expecting things of me (my manager &amp; meeting + my school counselors call to check my progress). I put my self in these situations by writing too late to do my school work and then getting no sleep for days like today when I need to go in, but I usually jsut suffer through rhe day and make it work.

I feel bad because it's the expectation of being at work and having a meeting, but I did offer to do the meeting virtual and also my entire job is done remote by many other people in my field of work. I Don't talk to anyone for the 8 hours I'm at work unless I have my once a week meeting that is usually an hour with my manager, which I definitely enjoy. But that's more for r/antiwork lol. But that's the only reason I don't feel as bad about asking to work from home. I just hate how my anxiety gets to decide when to make me look bad. I alresdy have requested to work from home an entire week during Christmas week to continue my sleeve tattoo, which again my manager was totally fine with, but I also did that last month and I will likely need to do if again another month. So working even more days at home makes me feel horrible since I know I'm alresdy being treated extremely accommodating-ly. Being an intern I'm just trying not to make an ass out of my self (like today because of my anxiety) who needs constant spur of the moment accommodations. I want to turn this internship into a job and I swear days like today screw that up not in my favor.

 Who knows just needed to vent and wanted to know what other people felt

Fun story my mom got me a job at dairy queen once I turned 16 and I called In my very first day like 10 minutes before because of my soaring anxiety. They told me how bad of a look that is (as if I didn't know). They didn't fire me and I came in my next shift a day later or something. Wish they did fire me though because working there was hell lmaaaooo