I am so tired of bad things happening to me all the time. It's been going on from 15 years. I have realised my life was completely different 15 years ago than what it is now and never for even a moment i would have felt like this 15 years ago or in my childhood. I can not concentrate anymore due to some of the horrible and unjust things that have happened to me that now if I force myself to focus on studies or anything I get flashbacks and PTSD then my heart rate would increase and I would get panic attacks. Earlier if something bad would happen I would just completely forget about it within few hours and few days and would go back to normal but after unfavorable incidents started happening very often and from last few years i am starting to notice this trend. I feel mentally exhausted all the time. I feel so much pain mentally seeing myself fail at everything and if not fail then have things happening naturally that make sure i feel hopeless and unable to change anything. I don't understand why this is happening with me. I am unemployed and seeing my friends succeed in life breaks my heart. Why can't I have normal life like everyone. Even my friends have noticed these incidents that occur right before some events that are extremely important for me and when I be really excited right then these bad incidents happen and it destroys every effort I put in and I would start to feel hopeless again. I really feel so unlucky. Now I don't want to try anymore and sometimes when I do find courage to try again something bad happens again and same story continues again. i feel very embarrassed telling all of this to my friends who are so successful now so I have stopped talking with all of them  thinking I would talk to them when I will become something but I think that day will never come. I can not tell even my parents because they too have mental health problems because of some of the horrible things that have happened to us in the past that I don't want to make them feel worried about me at this point. Somebody please suggest something that can keep me sane during these times when they happen again. How do I forget it quickly. If anything like this happened with anyone and you have overcome it then please share how you overcome it every strategy it can be really helpful for me.