I contacted a couple therapists, but while I'm waiting for their answer emails, some doubts came over me.

I feel like that because people have it so much worse than me, I don't deserve help. That I'm just whining when I don't have a reason to...

And on the other hand I love my euphoric states. I'm scared if I start to take meds, sure, it will help getting rid of the depressive times but as it regulates my emotions I will lose that so so so happy, euphoric state mind I sometimes experience. I don't want to let that go.

I think I'm asking for some encouragement and to share your experience with me about this.