i just can’t do this anymore. my health anxiety is terrible i always think i have cancer. i live in constant fear, can’t get on meds yet due to abusive parents. my therapist is a shitty one from the state(given to me after the 3rd cps call on my mother). 
i just want to scream, it’s to stressful. i want to go back to the time before anxiety.  anxiety is just to much for me, it’s all just to much for me. i can’t be comfortable no matter where i am because god wanted to fuck me so i also have autism. i 
have health anxiety,social anxiety(not as much as the others but enough it effects my life and sucks the joy out) and just anxiety in general. god this is all just so fucked so much fear.