Making a joke, playing around, being spontaneous, etc. These are things that are sometimes hard for me, maybe because of social anxiety. For example, my ldr girlfriend randomly acts wild out of nowhere and I wish I was like that. She doesn't care that I'm not like that but I want to connect with her and be in the moment with her, but sometimes I just can't. It feel anxiety whenever I push myself to do so and sometimes feel fake because of it, what do I do?