I can’t sleep since 5am thinking that a female friend I met on my University is better than me in various aspects.
First one, she is pretty as fuck. Slim, dances and it’s blonde with green eyes.
Second, she exposed her thesis at same time as me but she was selected to be a teacher. (Maybe because she usually uses “difficult words” so looks more intellectual).
Third one… she recently dated a guy who I used to like when I was 14 yo (I am around 30 now). I never forgot his name since I listened it on a exam but we never talked. Few years ago 2019 around we met again on a DATEAPP but he never invited me to anything… like literally never saw it face to face, he never cared.
It kinda breaks my heart to think the only fact here: she is better than me and men do things when they really want.
Even tho I have a bf now, I love him. I won’t change him. The concern of thinking that I am comparing my value with this girl in many aspects makes me feel very very insecure and anxious.
My tummy hurts much at point I had to go to hospital; doctor said I may having lot of stress… This stress it’s maybe a combo of lot of situations tho not only this one.