I could literally hang out with my friends everyday (not that I am, more like once a month if that) and I would still feel so jealous of them hanging out with others that I scream cry into my pillow. It being spring break really really does not help. If I don’t get invited to hang out with someone everyday I feel like absolutely everyone hates me and I get so upset I throw up. 

I still need to wait like seven weeks before I can start therapy. This is genuinely awful. I have no clue what to do.