My doctor has said my boyfriend seems like a very “stabilising factor in my life” and he is, he’s amazing. He’s struggled with his own mental health and therefore is extremely helpful and understanding. But I’m so worried that I’m going to end up being too much for him, I worry about him so much and my own issues taking a toll on him. I recently got really upset and smashed a glass vase over my head and had to get stitches, he phoned the ambulance and kept pressure on my head and talked to me to calm me down. He is an absolute angel and genuinely the best thing to ever happen to me, I want to be better for him. I don’t want to lose him, I really really really don’t. But if it comes to it I think I may have to leave him, for his own sake☹️ I live in the UK and the mental health service here is absolutely terrible and I’m struggling to get the help I need, but I NEED to be better. I want it so much but I feel so so so weak. At this point I’m wondering if the best thing for me would be to go into hospital for a while☹️ can anyone offer any advice? I’d really appreciate it