Just want to make it clear I’m not threatening to do anything, but the feelings are incredibly strong right now. I don’t know whether it’s because I’m due on my period or just BPD in general, but I just want out. My mood swings are back, as is the boredom and emptiness. I think with things opening back up again, my symptoms are also starting to return too for some reason. I keep crying, and then laughing, and then being irritated and crying again and I’ve just had enough. I’m a coward so I’m not going to actually do anything, and I don’t want anyone to do anything either despite what I’m saying. This is personal to me, and I believe every other life is meaningful; I just don’t give a damn about mine. I’m starting to feel how I felt before my diagnosis and I’m taking my pills so it’s not that. Sorry, this is more just a rant because I just don’t know what to do, and unfortunately no one can help me unless they have a magic wand. Oh well, just part and parcel with being borderline I guess🙂