
For context I have Autism, ADHD, ADD, Anxiety, and Depression. I got a new job and I already hate it and I haven’t even gone in yet. I can’t sleep and the job is driving. I get anxiety thinking about money and making sure I can pay my rent and things. Life on general seems to just overwhlem me and I feel the overwhelming urge to die. I hate this feeling. I hate being so anxious I am basically useless. I can’t ever hold down a job. Last one I had I lasted for a day and I got so overwhlemed I broke down and cried. I want to be a therapist and that interests me, but all these 9-5 jobs make me freak out constantly. I just don’t know what to do anymore… I can’t function as an adult even though I am trying so f*cking hard. I just break down and cry and get depressed. :/ my longest job was a month and I only worked like 20 hours. 5 hour shifts. :/ I just dunno if I should push myself or just give up and try getting benefits like Im at a loss right now.