I just don’t have the energy to fight about things anymore and the thought of fighting gives me so much anxiety that even if I did I just can’t. I don’t ever feel heard anyway. I know a lot of this feeling is situational but when I’m not so low I feel like I just have a better handle on things. Right now it’s like I’m feeling so much that I can’t feel anything at all. I know I’m shutting people out but I just can’t make myself be better about it. I can’t wait for this episode to be over. Just needed to put something somewhere other than my notes app so I would feel less alone in this.