The last thing I wanted to experience in life was sex and a gf, seems like thats impossible as all women hate don't see me that way. And depression is too bad for me to focus on other shit. so dont tell me try new things, u think i didnt try that my whole life? Im done trying with women, its all so fucking pointless. Im gonna tell my therapist i want her to shoot me because god damn nothing helps. If she were to shoot me in the head RN I wouldn't give a fuck . if there is a god i'll flip it off. yea, i get it, people have worse lives, but 12 yrs of bad depression is pretty bad too even though it doesn't sound awful on paper. I honestly wanna just shoot myself in the face.