im sitting in my bed thinking about how i feel like i would only want to live past a certain age if i would be happy with someone else. say my 30’s. i’ll live till then but if i just don’t find my person im not sure what else to do. shit sucks not being able to be emotionally independent. i’ve been trying so hard for the last 3 years to really work on my own mental health and regain my independence after a rough patch in my life, but it’s hard looking at the far future. i genuinely have trouble looking into the future and truly picturing myself happy and having a will to live. sounds awful but it’s the truth lol