Family resents me. All of them. I have 0 friends. 0 safe places. Everyone thinks I’m weird/ emotional/ manipulative (?). everyone thinks I overreact when I show my emotions. Nobody knows the impact all of this has had on me throughout my life. Feeling resentment from family is one of the worst things to feel. When I crave both acceptance and affection from family so bad. And anyone really. I can’t think of another way out other than ending my life. I feel like too much of a failure to really move forward with anything at all. My perspective on life has morphed into something meaningless. My mind keeps telling me, “nobody is going to love you. Save yourself the pain and hope”.