Please... I need a way to deal with this strong impulse to quit my jobs. I want to give up. I'm so tired of living...

I feel so "enraged"(?) I think... and lost...

The only thing I want to do is hide in the darkest corner of my house and cry until I fall asleep.

But if I lose my jobs I'll also lose home in like a couple of months.

I'm having a hard time not screwing up my jobs. I currently have 2 part-time jobs and I'm feeling terribly overwhelmed by... I don't even know what's so overwhelming!!

I just want to scream and bash my head against a wall.

I can't even find anything better right now so I need to stick with both of these jobs...

Also my seasonal depression isn't helping at all... and I need to stop dissociating as a coping mechanism since this too could get me fired, but my emotions are so damn overwhelming...!