Yeah. Either I take the medicine and have tardive dyskinesia so bad that I can't go about my daily tasks (it makes my arms nearly impossible to use) or I don't take anything (I've tried ten different kinds with varying levels of side effect and effectiveness) and risk psychosis and certainly apathy so bad that I can't get out of bed. I'm fucked you guys. Bonus points for extreme hunger with this one. 

The doctor said they have at least one more for me to try but I am getting so tired of this...