So I was dating this guy a while back, we weren’t official but things moved very fast and I was really attached to him. The relationship wasn’t great, he has his own mental health issues and it triggered a lot of fear of abandonment in me. Basically he’s bipolar and came off really strong in the beginning, lovebomb-y if you will. I fell for it right away. Then he flipped and turned cold and distant, he explained that he often turned manic when he fell in love and got scared n wanted to take things slow. This triggered me n things kinda fell apart. 

Weirdly we just aren’t able to stop talking to each other and have texted for almost half a year now, off and on. 

I’m really depressed right now and not really in the place to date or be in a relationship. He’s also kind of in the same place. But we keep talking over the phone, haven’t seen each other cause we live far away. Part of me thinks he’s a distraction, stop talking to him. Another part feels really connected to him and don’t want to lose him in my life. I do kind of feel like I would feel really lost and alone if I stopped talking to him. He’s like a safety blanket at this point. What should I do…is he holding me back from healing and growth?