Title says most of it, but finally found a good combination of meds and am coming out of a years long depressive state. The trouble is, I’m really struggling to figure out what habits are actually me or what was caused by the depression. That probably doesn’t make a lot of sense. For instance, am I lazy because I hate showering in the mornings and would prefer to do it at night because I get more sleep or is it a habit I developed out of necessity during my depression because it was all I could manage?

I’m trying to give myself grace and time here, but weirdly enough (heavy sarcasm here), not having your emotions muted by depression is quite overwhelming. I’m remembering for the first time in a long time what a lot of emotions actually feel like - that there’s more to life than just depressed or not depressed. 

So because I’m overwhelmed, I’m also overthinking everything (thank you anxiety) and second guessing everything. Mainly it’s about whether I’m lazy or just falling on habits I developed to survive. Anyone else understand what I mean? If so, how’d are you or how did you deal with it?

This is my first time posting, but you all have been a great help and encouragement to me for years, so thank you.