Lately I've been feeling overly paranoid. I feel as though everyone is pulling string around me controlling my life. I feel like whenever I enter a chat online that of people don't answer me when I say hello or anything that they're upset with me or have me muted (which is actually pretty common. I am admittedly get out of control sometimes). I feel like I'm intentionally being kept down so I can't move on with my life. There's always a reason why my needs can't be met. At this rate I feel like suicide is increasingly becoming an option and it worries me. At the very least an attempted suicide so I can land myself in a psych ward long enough to get some fucking mental help.

I digress. Paranoia. Is there a way to quell it? Everything I read seems to be some strange comparison between schizophrenia and other paranoia disorders. Nothing pertaining directly to bpd.