Hi Everyone,

I just need help on understanding what in the world is happening with me. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for virtually my entire adult life (29 now). Always struggled most with obsessive thinking and intruding thoughts, mostly around things that will never happen but are based off losing control. Think things like hurting people, crashing car, etc.

Recently this has gotten to the point where every waking minute is obsessing over things, I go from one thing to the next and cant focus on any task at hand or think of anything outside of the obsession at the time. I am so on edge and so upset with where I am mentally and feel like I really have no way out, this is the first time in my life I have truly felt like I have no way out and I am just scared. I have always had hope and good time but right now I have nothing. I am feeling extremely distant from almost anything and everything in my life. I feel out of body experiences, I am struggling to recognize myself and others, constant existential thoughts. I feel like I am an animation and just cant seem to understand absolutely anything. 

My question is what in the world is happening to me? How can I fix this? I genuinely feel like I am losing my mind and I have been in panic mode for the better part of a month straight. Firstly, does anyone have advice for obsessive thinking and how to deal with it? Secondly, am I just experiencing dissociative feelings from the anxiety or is this something more deeply routed? Any advice or even just people who can help me understand what's happening would be so appreciated.