It’s so frustrating when I have to flake on my friends because I’m either not feeling okay because of my anxiety or because I know the only thing that’s going to make me feel even a little better is staying in my house and that’s it. So when they say things like im rude or inconsiderate bcuz I keep canceling or flaking, DONT YOU THINK IM FRUSTRATED TOO?! Don’t you think I want to go?! I want to tell you I can’t go bcuz of my crippling anxiety! I want to tell you that I can’t go bcuz im depressed! (I lost my puppy to a dog attack a couple months ago, right in front of me so it was really traumatic) And they wonder why I don’t go into detail about what’s wrong with me every time I flake but its bcuz I don’t really want everyone in my life to no I’m suffering as bad as I actually am. I do a good job at pretending sometimes, and that fools ppl but honestly I’m exhausted. I genuinely don’t know why I wrote this, I’m just sad I guess. Thanks for reading of you did