I mean that literally and figuratively. I feel like life used to be so much bigger. Areas felt more filled with life, even if they weren't. Mornings used to feel sort of magical when I had nothing to do, whereas now it just feels like I'm waiting to go to sleep and wake up again. Good things are happening to me, but it almost doesn't feel real. It feels like I'm just moving along, trying to accept whatever life throws at me. The one time lately that the world did feel bigger was when I went on a 3 hour drive and stayed at a hotel. Life felt grand again, but that stopped when I got back home. How do I make the world feel big again? Do I just need a change of scenery? I know that life is never going to be like childhood again, but it has to feel more lively than this.