I’m losing my miiiind. I’ve been seeing my boyfriend for two months now, things are good. We’d see each other basically every day, I’d spend every night at his place, he told me how special I was, I waited for him to make the relationship official just so I knew he was genuine. Nothing’s even wrong and I already feel dumb typing this out. 

Basically, he told me this week he’s working double shifts, so like 5am-1am so we won’t be able to see each other. This just sent me spiralling. Last week he didn’t ask to see me and I was so scared he was abandoning me, i was so ready to walk away. Turns out he was just giving me space so I could finish my finals... 

I just feel like every time he doesn’t message me enough or I don’t see him enough he’s lost interest in me, and if he’s working doubles all week I’ll barely talk to him, and my mind is absolutely melting over this prospect. I know he cares, I know he loves me, logically. BUT I can’t shake this awful dread like this week is gonna be the end of it all, even though we’re going camping next week.

How do you guys deal with this kind of stuff? What kind of reassurance do you give yourself to calm your mind? I never really thought I had separation anxiety but I guess that’s part of the BPD package... any words of advice would be really appreciated right now :(