Summer 2020 through Summer 2021 were great for me. I started struggling again in Fall 2021 before my happiness and future were taken from me in early January. I lost everything in one fell swoop. All the things I used to love now just bring back memories of when I was happy. Memories of when I was happy hurt because it reminds me of what I lost. Now I'm just here. I'm no longer happy, I no longer have anything I look forward to in life, I'm no longer existing for myself.