. I’m 17F still in highschool and I don’t have much friends I can talk to but it didn’t matter because my mum was my bestfriend. She was kind, so deeply loving and caring of me and my sister and did so much for us because she genuinely wanted to. 

Except now it’s changed to arguments every day and I think she hates me. No matter what I do she finds a way to be angry at me or my sister, dad or anything. My sister and I are still in high school, in our final years so we are studying when we get home from school. Except now I have to make sure the house is in general order, cook dinner for her etc. My mum is basically a stay at home mum as she only works one day. But she still does nothing all day. 

I know it’s selfish and ungrateful but now I just hate her. I hate my own mother. She doesn’t try help herself regardless of how supportive we try be. In any bad situation she blames me or my sister, for example this morning, she locked us out of the house by accident and she instantly says we should of told her we didn’t have the keys. The situation blew over in 2 mins as we had spare keys but it’s just feels like she finds any excuse to call us useless, dumb or just put us down. I know this anger is a symptom of being depressed because I was an emotional 14 year old and I know what it feels like to some extent. But I just can’t take it anymore. I can’t hug her, I don’t even want to be in the same room as her. Some days she tries to be less angry and she tells me openly that’s her goal of the day but it always it ruined by any minor inconvenience. 

I know it’s not her fault but to some extent it is. Why can’t she just try to be more productive, to help around. She does the laundry but only because it helps my dad and he notices when his clothes aren’t washed. That’s another thing, she won’t do anything productive unless my dads home or he will notice. 

It’s just sad I guess growing up looking up to her and then that being ruined within a couple years. I just want her to be happy and I feel like I’m to blame because she gets so mad at me. Then she will try convince me she will change and it never does, it’s always back to small arguments, insults and being irritated.