I watched my friends girlfriend have a complete meltdown over a very simple misunderstanding. I am fully 100% convinced she has BPD as well. She hasn't been diagnosed but after that night and countless other nights I am just certain she has it. I have been struggling with BPD for years but after being involved on the other end of someones freak out, my symptoms have almost completely vanished. I finally gained control over myself because I don't want to put anyone through what she wad doing.



Anyways, the night started with me and one of my guy friends. We had plans to just hang out and watch funny videos because that's all we ever do. He texted me saying his girlfriend got mad about us hanging out so he didn't think he could come. She said she didn't like that he made plans with "some other girl." Keep in mind, I'm friends with this girl. I've hung out with her and her boyfriend. I've helped her countless times through their fights. I'm not just "some other girl" I'm a fucking friend. 


They talked it out and she said she didn't care if we hung out, problem solved! Or so we thought. 



He gets to my house and she starts calling him repeatedly. She was sobbing all she would say is that she hated him and then she would hang up She was texting him non stop. She was blowing me up on facebook asking me to assault him. It was just insane. 



He spent a lot of time on his phone. Either talking to her or texting her. She was freaking the fuck out. She told him he didn't care about her or her feelings. That he must be a psychopath because he doesn't understand her feelings. They broke up twice in the span of two hours. Now here is where it gets good....



He was saying all the right things. He was trying to diffuse the situation and just hang out with a friend. She was being soooo unreasonable and just insane. One of the last phone calls she convinced him to give her my address (we both invited her to hang out with us, she just wanted to hang out with him alone) I thought she was coming to hang out but they just sat in her car for hours in silence. Every time he brought up going home and talking about it in the morning she would start sobbing.


Now let me tell you, I've done all these things. But being on the other side of it I finally realize how ass backwards and irrational it is. It doesn't solve anything and you don't even get your way at the end of it. Everyone is pissed off and upset with you, while after your major episode you're completely fine. 



Since then a lot of things have happened that would normally trigger me. I was hardly even phased. I have made it over a week now without freaking out on my on again off again FP. I cannot tell you the last time that happened. I cannot tell you the last time I've been this mature and level headed about a relationship. 


My fear of abandonment is pretty much gone. I know if my guy goes home I'll see him again soon. 


I haven't had thoughts of suicide in weeks, maybe months now (that's unrelated to the incident but yay me)


I haven't drank to excess in a few weeks to a month now


I can rationally talk about things that upset me instead of splitting and thinking "i would never do x to so and so, they must not care about me" 


My anxiety and depression have been way down, to the point where I feel pretty normal


The feelings of emptiness and complete boredom don't eat at me like they used to. 


When I got high I used to disassociate really badly. Now I can be in the moment and just enjoy being high. 



I'm really glad that night happened. I don't want to be that person or girlfriend. I've felt more normal and better than I have in a while. I CAN control this.