. I had been diagnosed when I was sixteen but believed this was who I was and stopped taking my meds, I disliked how they made me feel. Finally after a nasty break up with the girl I thought I would marry pushed me to getting the help I needed. It's been about three months now and the meds are starting to work, I feel more stable than I have in a long time, I can think clearly but I'm having an identity crisis of who I am on the meds, for so long the highs and lows were just apart of my life. I would be lying to say I miss going into a hyper mania, it's this high I can't explain to anyone else who isn't bipolar. My question is do depression episodes and mania still happen on meds or do they just fade away?