I’ve only been talking to her for a few weeks. Shes so hot. 

Shes a nursing major. She is so smart and so hot. She blushes. The other day she was wearing these tight high waisted jeans that made her ass look really good. 

I’d say she’s an 8 and I’m a 6 in looks, however I like to think my personality makes up for it. If I tried harder I think I could look hotter, like if I wore make up and dress all cute like her. I wonder if she’d like that or if she wouldn’t? Its almost like I can’t possibly fathom her wanting to be my friend. She keeps talking to me. I think she is using me though to get hours. A GIRL CAN DREAM.

I think I am idealizing this lesbian scenario because I don’t want her to just like me for hours. She used to be a bitch to me. She said she has ‘no friends’ but I know she does, I think she is trying to mirror me because I have no friends. I saw how she treated my other coworker. She uses her to slack off and get the good positions. I almost said something about it today. I’ll call her ass out if I have to, I will literally stick up to anyone whether they are my crush or not if necessary. This has given me a target on my back in the past. However I could honestly use a few people on my side right now and if she is one of them so be it, I’ll play it. I don’t think she is gay, I guess that would just add to the fun for me. 

Anyway I’m not done. She came up to me  and asked if I ‘noticed’ her hair because she like died it. I know its not real but I do enjoy our platonic dynamic in which she vents her frustration to me in search of validation and I tell her everything is going to be okay. I’ve seen her do this with older men too but she seem to submit to me to which I like. Shes also not from here and it makes her kinda innocent to our culture sometimes. She kinda has to submit though, I have to teach her. As much as I say I hate it I kinda like it now. She probably just wants to be friends but I kinda wouldn’t mind fooling around. It sucks to cause its easy to point out the dominant lesbians if you know what I mean but sometimes the really girly pretty ones are hard to tell. Shes so hot! Like cheerleader hot. Like she probably would have bullied my ass in high school but I probably would have kinda liked the attention from her anyway... damn thats sad. 

All in all though part of is also sick of her ass tryin to do my fucking work. I want her out of my kitchen because she walks up with nothing to do and it pisses me off. I will be working with a guy that works close to her soon and I will probably asks him about her a little bit, just to make sure things add up. I also have a crush on him too, and my other coworker... I have a new crush like every week. Its like all my hot friends I wanna sleep with wtf is wrong with me.