The feeling itself is that i want them to leave entirely. 
To avoid disaster, I shut down and lose the ability to communicate, ending up giving a silent "treatment" I don't mean to give. I can't talk to anyone - I retreat to my room in silence). 

At some point (in this case after two days) that feeling dissipates, and I want to reenter. Not the conversation which left me feeling like this, but into normality. 


**What I feel at the height of my emotion:**

I want them to go away for ever. Burn all bridges, cut myself off. 

**What that turns into if I'm given space:**

I want them to leave me alone for a period of time which I can't determine

**What I do:**

Silent treatment

**What I feel afterwards:**

Like I want to go back to normal

How do I effectively communicate the opposite of what I'm feeling when I'm feeling pure rage? 

Going silent seems to be the middle ground between me feeling that rage and fully acting on it, and saying something constructive which is likely the opposite of what I feel (and therefore impossible to express)

Sorry if this is unclear, it's so jumbled in my head.