I started watching the office for the first time. Sitcoms are not really my thing but I loved the interaction between the characters &gt;!except I hate narcissistic people and steve carell does a good job playing one!&lt; and it just got me thinking and I realize that if I was more normal and not this mess I have lot in common with jim and idk makes me sad seeing that once I was goofy making funny jokes/pranks to my close people and being witty but all of that is now lost and burried by years and years of crap and depression and I haven't felt alive since those days

now Im just an empty shell, self isolated from people, a sarcastic asshole that keeps on ruining their own life

I spend hours debating wether trying to talk to someone or not but I just cant.
I made the decision of keeping everyone away and became a horrible person and i cant do it now 
i cant