So, I️ am having a hard time finding the will to live. My wife left me which for me is pretty bad because my career was tied to her dad. So now my career is all messed up and I️ can’t find work doing anything else, I’m in a ton of debt from mania episodes and I️ have to pay child support. I️ feel like I’ve ruined myself and the only way to escape is suicide. I️ don’t want to kill myself but I️ really don’t have anything to live for.