It's currently late and I'm a mess cause I feel stupid. I was on this "fuck my mental health clinic, fuck doctors, fuck everyone!" campaign for a long time cause I felt like I was misdiagnosed. 

"How dare my psychiatrist tells me my anger is due to bpd!? Who the fuck does he think he is!?"

Now I'm crying cause I have to crawl back to my clinic and explain myself. I ran out of medication like a week ago which I know is dangerous. But I'm going back after reading about bpd and why I'm the way I am. So, now I have to go cry and explain how my previous medication just made me sleep but I still had complications with my emotions and my anxiety and my inability to make friends cause I rather run away from people then talk to them. Ugh, you guys, I'm an idiot. I'm sorry.