I have a history of health anxiety so it’s even harder to separate out true symptoms from anxiety, I’m constantly doubting myself and I feel like I’m losing my mind. Every day I swing between thoughts of “I’m sure it’s my anxiety causing symptoms” and “something is really wrong with me.” The combination of the symptoms I have and not knowing the cause is making me so miserable.

I haven’t felt this alone in a long time. In the very beginning the few people that I could talk to were supportive, they were understandably worried about me, but the longer it drags on I can tell they are losing patience. I don’t blame them at all because I know there’s only so much they can do but I’m really struggling to handle this all on my own.

I’ve been in contact with my doctor but communication and testing are moving slowly. It has been nearly 6 weeks now with only a couple tests and no answers. That makes me feel even worse like my only option is to wait for it to get even worse.