When I get upset sometimes I get confused if it's a normal reaction or an exaggerated one due to my bpd. My boyfriend proposed today which of course I'm super happy about! He did this despite my diagnosis, my horrible depressive episode recently, and after seeing all my ridiculous mood swings. I'm so lucky but I can't help but be disappointed in the proposal. I thought he was going to do it yesterday on our date night. I had gotten all dressed up because I was so sure of it even though it took all my energy to do so because of the depression. He ended up very casually suggesting we get married while watching sports today and put the ring on my finger. I don't want to seem ungrateful because this man is amazing and I love him with all my heart. I feel disappointed because he knows I love cheesy romantic stuff. Is this a normal thing to be disappointed and sad about or is it the bpd causing me to feel so heartbroken?