My anxiety started climbing about ten days ago.  I've been having nightmares constantly.  I figured it was the holiday last week (I'm in Canada) I always get super anxious/depressed on holidays.

It didn't go away after the holiday.  Wednesday it started getting worse.

Yesterday it reached the point I couldn't handle it anymore (my Fitbit registered 15 minutes of exercise from my anxiety) and took a clonazepam.  I was also having flashbacks.  First pill in 18 days.  I'm trying to restrict them as my doctor told me he won't prescribe anymore as I should be doing a therapy program instead - which I agree, but I've been on the waitlist now for *6 months* for my CBT program *evaluation* interview.  Everytime I call for an update "Oh, you should be hearing back in a week or two, you're at the top of the list!".

I had an unexpected trigger an hour ago that, with my already increased anxiety level, sent me off a cliff.  Heart pounding, body shaking, thought I would throw up.

I tried progressive relaxation, counting back from 100, touching myself with ice packs - nothing worked.  I just sat here freaking out for an hour trying not to vomit.

Mindfulness meditation is not for me, my (private, and I'm already well past my benefits limit) therapist has recommended against it believing in my case it will just make things worse.  I have an appointment with him tomorrow because obviously I need one.  

Gyms are all closed but I've been doing a lot of hiking for exercise.  Hasn't been helping.

Does anyone have any suggestions for tools to get over the attacks?