tldr : i just got diagnosed and i want to tell everyone. i want them to know that i havent been faking my hardships and that there is a real reason why i act the way i do. however, i feel annoying when i talk about my diagnosis. sigh

i was very recently diagnosed with BPD. i’ve been misdiagnosed with depression for 6 years (or i have both? i don’t know), and now that i realize it’s BPD, i feel like i need to tell everyone. i want people to know that i haven’t been crying wolf this whole time. i’ve had a suspicion that i had BPD for a while, but i figured that it was all in my head and i was faking it (i have a lot of problems with imposter syndrome). however, now that a professional sees it as well (i didn’t even suggest it to her, she came to an independent conclusion with my psychiatrist), i feel the need to be like, “hey! look! i wasn’t making this all up! i really do have a hard time existing!”. it’s not that i want pity for having BPD (or do i? who knows), but i want people to recognize the incredible burden i’ve been living with for years. frankly, i’m impressed i’ve made it through 6 years of untreated BPD, and i want people to see that. i also want them to understand why i act the way i do. that being said, i feel like it’s inappropriate to keep bringing up my new diagnosis to my friends and family. i almost tweeted something about being borderline but i stopped myself. 

so... yeah. just curious if anyone else experiences this. i’m trying not to talk about it too much, even though that’s all i want to do. i believe this diagnosis really changed my life, but i also believe that the people around me dont give a fuck