
I don't know if this is the right place to ask and I'm sorry if it isn't jsut tell me and I'll remove this. 

Before I begin I should say I havnt been diagnosed but I can't really find what else it could be so Im only saying depersonalization/ derealization cause everything just matches up and it's easier than trying to explain everything. 

So like the title says I can control it to a point. It randomly started out about 2 years ago after work. I was jsut walking and then boom panic attack and everything else, after 3 days it settled down. But never left. At first it just had certain triggers. Like certain lighting or if I think about it or space out. But unless It was the cause of an anxiety attack, which rarely happened, it never bothered me. It became something I could experiment with. ( I've always been interested it the human mind and all). I remember id be working and stressing so I'd make myself not "be in control", when I did it I felt relaxed. Everything felt detached from me, my body nor my emotions were mine to deal with. As of now I can still control it but not to the same extent as before. I'm just wondering though, is this normal?