sorry if this word vomit makes no sense in advance. 

i’m currently going through the begging stages of an anxiety attack. and i hate it. i hate that adulting is getting extremely harder. it seems like everything costs more, and i’m paid the same. i’m tired of stressing to make ends meet. i’m tired of struggling. i’m tired of waking up just to immediately cry because sitting up means that i have to deal with everything around me. sick of bills, and rent, and not even having a job i like. tired of just going through the motions man. when do i get a chance to feel some relief?