Like literally everything else in my life, money is tied to so much shame and anxiety. I wanted to hear other people's experiences/struggles with their finances. I've realized I have no sense of budgeting and financial planning. 

I grew up pretty well off and spoiled which I guess is why I ended up this way. But I was always hardworking... Ive had a job since I was 15, always wanting to earn my own money. I just never had any inclination to plan or save. I guess this part also comes from my impulsive BPD side. I'm prone to spending sprees, I remember blowing 10k in a month after a bad breakup, fueled by drugs and rage. I'm entering my mid-20s and right now I have no income because quit my job due to mental illness, and suddenly realized I've never budgeted or planned my future financially. 

For the first time in my life, I want to change and not be this impulsive person anymore.