I feel like-I mean I literally am…- destroying my life because of apathy. I’m so tired, empty, devoid, meaningless. It’s so sad I don’t even care about my own boyfriend anymore because I would rather end my own life than continue living it. I’m always unmotivated to do things that literally matter he most to me or based on time because I tell myself “oh well then I can just kill myself” I don’t want medication. I hate being addicted-it never ends well! I eat healthy and I try to exercise but I’m so depressed and overwhelmed with life in general, I feel like I can never get the stuff done that is necessary to improve my life. What the hell do I do? 😭 I literally do not know how to help myself when I’m so unmotivated to do anything