Well well it’s been about a year or two since the little depression suicide goblin decided to come creeping in my life, I’ve been very stressed lately moving about 12 hours away from my previous location I am financially incompetent ATM and had a terrible realization that no one checks in on me other then my boyfriend and his family but I know for sure at this point the man I am with currently won’t be choosing me as a life time partner I can tell when he looks lately he doesn’t touch me the same either he’s drifting, so that’s the context …. I found myself sitting on my deck crying listening to music and all of the sudden I just felt the urge to jump like right off I seen it replay over and over I am thankfully mentally stable enough to never kill my self currently I know better but the thoughts keep flooding in lately to just hurt myself. Anyone else deal with that ? Constant gross imaging but never do it because you know better it’s fricking annoying.