I haven’t been diagnosed but I feel like complete shit all of the time and I feel more mad and numb than sad anymore. I’m done with everything, but I don’t what everything is, and I have so many dark dark thoughts that my family can’t know. I’ve tried to bring up my feelings of my not feeling much anymore (haven’t said anything about my bad thoughts) up to my mom, and she told me that I should start exercising, getting out more often, trying to arrange things wit my friends more often. And yet, I can’t even bring myself to do my schoolwork and I’m starting to just drift away from my friends and everyone and I can’t do anything about it. I always feel tired and can barely bring about the energy to talk to new people and some of my friends and it really doesn’t help that I have terrible self worth issues and I think that nobody really cares about me. I’m just so done and everything I wanna just fly away to a place when I felt real solid positive emotions with people I know care about me. I’m stuck and I can’t leave this world without hurting the people closest to me. And I just made this post as a last ditch effort to get some advice that I haven’t heard a million times over that I have access to on my own. Thank y’all’s kind ass spirits for listening to my meaningless ass rant, I hope y’all are all successful and stay on the grind, peace.