And I don’t mean in the cute romantic tumblr “tehe I’m so shy ☺️” way

I mean the way where if anyone says something that upsets me I get awful rage outbursts. 

Like shaky, smash things see red no control rage. 

I shared a meme in the bipolar subreddit and some one fucking commented on it being a repost and I’m like wow I’m SO SORRY that I don’t spend my entire day on that specific subreddit making sure I don’t repost something!!! I’m not digging for karma, I don’t give a shit about your fake internet points or who likes what I post, I thought it was a fucking funny meme and that subreddit a great place to share it since it was something I’m sure a lot of bipolar people (including me) relate to

But wow they rly just had to take time out of their day to point out what a fucking fuck up I am reposting shit! 

I know this is something like so dumb to be mad about too but I cannot fucking shake it my BPD &amp; PTSD have been so bad now that the 2 year Annie of me being date raped is around the corner. 

And even just thinking about people, talking to people or being around people can trigger this rage. 

I hate being alone but FUCK every one lmao BPD my dudes how fucking wonderful 

I should just kill myself huh??!!! (I’m not gonna but wow do I wish) 