I’m feeling pretty damn good right now. I had a huge anxiety attack on Friday which left me feeling surreal, scared, disconnected. 

My already very paranoid personality was causing my anxiety to be literally 24/7. I felt I was going to feel that weird forever, I felt void of all my emotions, I was scared I had developed an anxiety disorder because it was so constant.

Yesterday I said to myself you will NOT win, I will win this battle or go down fucking fighting. For the first time since the ordeal on Friday (since last night) my anxiety is under my control, it’s gone. I’m not going to dwell on how weird I feel emotionally, who cares? Let time take its toll, I already feel better; for the first time in days I felt happiness, I’ve just been dancing in the shower to my favourite songs, yes those feelings of the future are coming back, yes I will get married to that girl, yes I will go to those festivals, yes I will go on holiday. I’m not going to feed these horrible feelings with my anxiety, I’m just going to go with the flow until I feel normal and I feel better already.

This is a mental battle guys, we’ve ALL got this, your anxiety is lying to you and it IS so possible to take back control.