There’s nothing. I’m so deeply desire death. I don’t feel like I’m anything or anybody of any significance. The people in my life despise me and every decision I make. I have no motivation for anything, not even therapy. I’ve tried for help for years now but I just don’t see myself getting anywhere in life. I’m only 17 and have been in therapy for 5 years now. I should be fine by now, I shouldn’t have the same issues I have mentally. If I actually had the motivation maybe I’d actually be on my way to do literally anything in life. I think I’m going to end it all tonight.