As the title states I think I've lost my mind. I'm just going to list off bullets and briefly describe them. I apologize if things are repeated or are the same things reworded differently

*I "hear voices" they all sound the same and I don't actually hear them they're like my mental voice and there's only two others that I know of. They both seem to genuinely care about my well being and offer advice and try to help

*Im not sympathetic at all. I'll act like I care if someone needs me but it's just because I know I should help and less of because I feel like I need to

*I genuinely believe I'm far above average intelligence. My mind is at constant work and I'm constantly thinking of multiple things at the same time. Breaking down, analyzing, and understanding how everything around me works. From wildlife to inanimate objects(I don't think it's anxiety or anything because it doesn't affect me negatively ever)

*I can read people's emotions almost like a book (not literally) when talking to someone I can tell if they're hinting around something, I can tell if there's any hidden intent, and I can tell what kind of mood they're in from their nonverbal ques

*I hate talking to people who obviously have no idea what theyre talking about. It annoys me trying to have a conversation with someone who doesn't have the capacity to even understand what we are talking about

*Sometimes I say or do subtle things to my roommate just to guage his reaction and see how it affects him almost like an expirement (never anything malicious I just don't really feel emotions the way I should so this is my way to understanding how emotions work)

*I've been highly medicated before with zero changes to any of this

*My life feels like an unfocused camera lense if that makes any sense to you

*Im constantly trying to figure out what life really is and what's after death. To the point I think about killing myself just to finally get the satisfaction of knowing. (I wouldn't consider myself suicidal at all I don't have depression or anything like that)

*I'm constantly thirsty for knowledge. Mostly things like Astrology, Astral Projection , Philosophy shit like that

I function as a normal adult and I go to school and have a job so I don't really see any of this as a danger but I would like to know if anyone's experiencing the same things or any tips on what I should do. I've gone to therapy and psychwards and told them all of this but nothing they've ever done changed anything