I dont even really have the energy to write a long text, just needed to share. 
Im part of this thing called glow (a team of one social worker and one psychologist) visit me twice a week. It lasts for half a year, and today they talked about how theyre going to make less visits in the future, and the whole thing is going to stop in March or April.

On top of this, my dad basically confirmed that he doesnt want anything to do with me. I kinda already knew it, i have seen him once in the last three years (i was on psych ward and the nurses arranged an appointment with him). It still feels bad. 

Also, a stupid thing. I live with my mom, and feel like she is abandoning me every time she goes to sleep or work. It is propably really stupid, i just cant help it. 

Really no point for this, just needed to open up.