Good morning all,

I feel lost, irrelevant and the husk of the former man I once was. (24M) recently got into a relationship with a close friend of mine who was expecting a baby which we had and life was good till the baby was born then our relationship took a nose dive. I made mistakes and got grilled for them not supported for my mistakes we are all human and parenting isn’t always easy and plain sailing but then it got to the point where all of the stresses was taken out on me which further put me down the mole hill of deeper darker depression I feel unworthy as a person as a father figure and she now doesn’t want to support me because it is too difficult to look after a baby and myself I understand she is under a lot of pressure being a new mum but i shouldn’t be spoken to like dirt when I have tried my best what doesn’t help is her mum is very toxic and just brings negativity to my partner about her parenting which drives me insane but I can’t say anything because she is always going to follow her mum and I just feel so low and I just don’t want to exist anymore because everything I loved has now been taken away and I just am better off dead because no one needs me in this world anymore I feel like a ghost and all alone to everyone and anything and I can’t keep feeling like this anymore