I literally just got into an argument with someone because they claim that being suicidal ‘makes it all about YOU and no one else’. Like, uh, that’s kinda the fucking point. This is the one thing that is actually about ME for once. I’m not doing this to punish the people around me, i’m doing it for ME. I’M the one that can’t take it anymore, not them. Why does it always have to be about everyone else? Why is my life supposed to be for other people all the time? I just don’t get it. 

I’m not even actively suicidal rn, but if i had this same argument with someone last yr... dude. Like, ur trying to tell me that this world fucked me up and in return i’m supposed to NOT kill myself for the sake of that same world that made me like this in the first place? Wtf? 

Finding the will to live should be about YOU. It should be YOUR journey to finding a purpose and whatever, not for the sake of pleasing others. I’m so sick of constantly arguing with a brick wall about every fucking part of my life.