I was on paternity leave for 1 month and I was in SUCH a great mood. I had energy. I wasn’t in bad moods and even so, I could deal with it. Even my wife was like oh the old you is back.

I came back for 2 days and my weekend already feels ruined. I just take my job so seriously. It’s any job. Not just this one. I try to go above and beyond. I can’t just be. It’s even getting me in trouble now bc I’m doing things and acting like I can do them but idk wtf I’m doing. I was trying to fake it til I make it but it’s like reaaaally faking it. I even got a potential promo with more responsibility once I got back. It just makes me anxious tho. Not happy. Anxious. I fucking hate working. It puts me in an AWFUL place and thought loops. Why?? What trauma do I have hahaah sheesh