I feel like the biggest failure in the world.

I don’t know what to do because I am all alone, still have these negative emotions, and now I have these marks all over me that remind me of how ashamed I am. 

I’m genuinely falling apart. I feel like I might lose everything. 

I’m scared of myself at this moment in time because I’m also considering going on some dates tonight and just letting men use me, I guess. 

I just feel like I spent months trying to use healthy coping mechanisms to deal with pain in my life, and I’m still back at square one. 

I am not sure that I will ever be okay.