I feel like I shouldn’t be trusted to make my own decisions. I just make really bad ones and regret it and have no one to blame but myself. I always feel like people are controlling me but if someone asks me what I want to do or something really open ended, it’s like I don’t have an opinion. I also feel like I don’t have my own personality, and I have no idea how to get one. Besides, I don’t really have many emotions. People always ask how I’m feeling and I just say “okay”. My family gets frustrated and wants to know more, but I just feel empty inside. Not sad or angry. Just absolutely nothing. I don’t know what its like to have emotions. Whenever I have to do any questionnaire, I always put my mood as “average”.  I also have Bipolar, but even in depressive states I just feel more empty and hopeless but not sad. I really wish there were medicines for BPD and I could make this go away.

How do you deal with lack of personality/ identity?