I can't stop being concerned with the way others think of me. Not my appearance but who I am. I hate the feeling of just being a disappointment. Even when I ask anyone they say I'm fine but I feel like everyone secretly hates me. It sucks knowing it's not true but being forced to obsess over it all day. I can't even enjoy the things I like without feeling like I'm not allowed to be happy. It feels like I have to live for everyone but myself because if I ever do something for myself everyone is unhappy. I made a similar post a while ago but it's just been growing and getting worse, venting here makes me feel better.