I HATE myself. It's just so counterproductive. Why am I like this??? I had *weeks* to work on it, and no matter how much I tried to start it, I couldn't write a thing. I had to turn it in by 8am today and I didn't and I stayed up until 4am writing half of it but I passed out and I just. ***WHY*** am I such an idiot. It's completely my fault, nobody elses, and I don't know why I just keep doing this to myself. I even told my teacher "hey I've been really burnt out and depressed lately, plus I had no time to do it this weekend cause I was literally at work, can you please not discount a whole ass entire grade if I turn it in by tonight" and he just fucking "no &lt;3" I'm gonna kill myself I am such a disappointment I can't fucking wait to get home and hear her complain about what a terrible awful human being I am after this I just wish I could throw myself off a fucking cliff