I'm already in therapy, exploring the likelihood that I have a avoidance personality disorder. I'm fairly certain that we've narrowed it down to that accurately. It kind of sounds exactly like what it is but as an understatement. For my whole life, I've lived with extreme symptoms of this disorder, and it had actually helped ruin my life, in conjunction with poor choices. The only reason I mention it is because of potential co-morbidity (sp?).  I'm asking this question out of desperation, so please be kind.

I am an extremely virtuous person, although I keep most of my intentions and beliefs secret. My avoidance personality disorder involves being constantly terrified of humiliation and rejection. So I don't virtue signal. This is the first time I've tried to put this perspective into words to convey to anyone else. People close to me see that I'm chronically frustrated with thoughtlessness and lack of consideration/respect for others, among other things. I don't feel that I'm better than anyone else or carry more value. Actually, I feel the complete opposite because I've had a very rough past. I have really low self esteem, but I take care of myself and half-heartedly seek out happiness for myself. I do it because I feel like I'm an asset to others. I think that part is somewhat normal for parents to feel that way though.

I am FAR from perfect. I curse way too much. Sometimes I attempt to manipulate people, but from my perspective, it's to lead to better,more positive outcomes. I feel like people are just chronic pathological liars and excuse-making machines. I mess up and fail just as much as the next guy. I just relentlessly hold myself accountable and never give myself any moral wiggle room.

My questions are:

Is there a mental or personality disorder, making a person extremely virtuous or just uncompromising on their morals and beliefs?.. Like a form of OCD or something?
Am I definitely delusional?
Where do I find good people with unquestoomable intention and motives?

Please pretend for a moment that I'm not delusional or lying. If someone else told me what I just wrote, I would cringe and think they were full of shit. But I know that this is how I really am. I was incarcerated, and the trauma of that experience and my rock bottom just taught me that I can't give myself or anyone an inch consistently because everyone, including myself will certainly take a mile. I gotta get to work otherwise I'd try to give more useful details.
Thank you for anyone who gives viable input. I also have considered high functioning autism. I'm pretty socially awkward now and didn't used to be. I think I had a mental breakdown at some point.