I am not ready for the gruesome winter months here in the midwest.

This is my second winter here and it's the most horrible feeling ever and I've lived in NY for over 10 years.

I don't know how I'll go through this. I come from a dysfunctional family, so I don't know how i'll deal with the lack of sunlight and the upcoming windy cold days..

Only thing going for me is the fact that  I work from home.

But I am watching live videos from california and how happy they are in all that sun. 

I just want to be there.