I’m going through a really tough time in my life where literally, NOTHING MAKES SENSE. I’m 25 and I will graduate next year in something I don’t like and have no desire to do. I work at a big company that I really don’t like what I do (and it has nothing with my degree). I try to meet new people, try to open myself up to someone, but nothing special happens. Lately I’ve been using alcohol as a scape from my reality, the moment I’m drunk, I might feel happy, “yay life is great”, but in the next day, depression comes even worse. Suicidal thoughts comes to my mind, but I ain’t “brave” enough to do it, or even try it, I just ask God or whatever is up there to take me from here. Idk of some medication would help it, I’m kinda worried to try it and it becomes something that I’m addicted to, like “I cannot live without my pills”. I really don’t what to do