I just tried to kill myself. I finished crying because I couldn't do it. I can't do anything anymore and it's been like this for a while. I can't study, I can't watch my favourite shows anymore because I'd feel guilty because I'm not doing what I should be doing(studying). I just want to start over. I want to be better. I want to be myself again. 

I have 4 months left of school and I need to do a lot of tests and I have some really bad grades in 2 or 3 subjects. I'll have more because I'm not studying but the problem is I can't study. I used to be able to do that but now I can't concentrate, I have no motivation at all. I don't want to fail the year but I'm feeling really unmotivated and tired all the time.