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I'm feeling weird sexually speaking, like if I look at porn with other women or just see other women out n about I think about how normal they are sexually, or how they actually enjoy it, actually orgasm, or have opportunity to be sexual w other women bc unlike me they can make friends or whatev, or can be so free sexually....all of the above is unlike me lately...im so fixated on sex and orgasms...fixated on the sex my bf has had, the threesome he had...im feeling sexually insecure

I'm not romantically interested in women but am prob bi, I def fantasize about other women, have kissed them and liked it, but also like dick. I don't think I'm a lesbian.

Like my bf touches me and like it feels good but it's like I don't want to let myself go w him....so I stop enjoying it. Sex feels like a chore, on top of that, I've had recurrent yi and bv inf. So sex is out of the question, although bjs are recurrent...hes getting frustrated w me...frustrated bc I don't ever initiate, I used to love sex years ago with other partners...not entirely sure if it's him or me...

I'm not certain I can commit to any man. I'm not sure I believe in monogamy bc it's clear men will always be attracted to other women...ive seen my bf check out other women in front of me leading to me acting cold and distant toward him w/ out him knowing why...

Im considering breaking up w him bc I don't want to deal with these feelings that are being triggered by me being w him, not sure if this is my avoidant attachment coming out, but prob is