Half joking half not joking. I’m in shambles rn because I was head over heels for this girl I started seeing a month ago. We only had 5 or 6 dates. I know I’m not really in love with her but we grew very close in that short period of time. Eventually she ended it because i was moving too fast and she said I have a lot of “personal discovery and healing” to do and that she can’t be with someone like me lol. Inevitable yes, painful also yes. 

Now every cute girl or couple I see I get depressed because I’m all alone. 

This happens every time and usually I will continue to obsess over them and depress myself and make stupid embarrassing decisions. I’m trying not to do that this time!! But I’m already finding myself on dating apps trying to fill this void. 

I don’t have any meaningful friendships or people that I can text without anything to say. Why oh why do I feel like I constantly need to be around/talking to people?!! I’m over this!!!!