Everyday I struggle with my identity. It feels like everyone else around me knows me better than myself. It's so bad that it's gotten to the point I can't remember most of my life. I find myself journeying to askreddit to answer some questions and kill time, only to leave very upset, because I can not come up with an answer about myself or remember anything of important from my life. 

So, I may not know who I am ... but I know who I am not. 

I am not crazy.

I am not worthless.

I am not a mean person.

I am not selfish. 

I am not greedy. 

I am not uncaring.

I am not a narcissist.

I am not boring, or uninteresting.

I am not unloving. 

I am not ignorant. 

I am not dishonest. 

I am not not lazy.

I am not vain.

I am not weak.

And, last but not least, I am not evil.

I may not know who I am or who I want to be. But I know I'm not the evil monster of my nightmares, and that helps me cope. Maybe someday, I will have a firm grasp and understanding on my identity. Until then... I can just keep on keeping on.