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I honestly have one of the most emptiest lives ever. I have no social life and no hopes or ambitions. I don't even care about getting ambitions. To quote office space "Its not that I'm lazy, its just that I don't care". All I do is stay at home with my parents at nearly 28 years of age. Never moved out and never had a job. Can't get a job because employers are picky dickheads. I don't even really want one anyway. I enjoy nothing anymore, especially at the moment. 

All I do is sit home most days and obsessively reminisce on the years I was happy. Those times being the pre-smartphone world when I used to look forward to things and hang out with friends. Never had anyone really romantically interested in me. Went out with a woman 10 years ago for about a month and that didn't work out. Never even got any nooky from that experience either. Never tried again since. Never have had any women attracted to me really. I'm not even that ugly, I think I'm pretty acceptable looking. Can't remember the last time I got any female attention besides one brief time where someone tried to ask me out when I was in grade 9. I was too shy and declined back then.

I can't socially relate to anyone so I just stay at home and play games from the past and watch tv from the past. I barely go outside either. Hate social media. I also get no calls or texts besides ones from family. Me not liking new things makes it even more difficult to connect with people. I used to like buying videogames and toys from the past off ebay and now that doesn't help anymore. I used to like doing creative stuff but I have no drive anymore. 

Everything is honestly so bleak for me and has been for ages. It's been this way especially since 2016. However 2012 was kind of the start of all this shit. All I think of when I think of the  smartphone world we live in now is pure darkness. I barely even want to live anymore I just feel so flat and lifeless. When I go outside and am forced to do things it's the equivalent of strapping up a corpse to a pole and wheeling it around the town. That's why i stay home because I don't have to pretend at all. 

Thanks for reading if you made it this far. I don't think I'll be able to carry on much longer. I just have to get over my fear of death and take myself out in a somewhat acceptable and painless manner. 

Peace