There's no other option but to die. I am so lonely even among people. Work is a mess. There's nothing to look forward to in life. I feel guilty for troubling my family because of the way I am. Therapy is so expensive here and no good doctors. All my peers are ahead of me and so 'normal'. I have no friends. I almost attempted suicide yesterday but I was too afraid. I backed off. My parents are looking for help but it seems like no one can help me. I live in a third world country. I never thought situation would get so worse. My depression and bpd are at peak and I can't afford to take more leaves from work. There are tons of other issues. I don't think I will make it.