I feel like I have to convince everyone that I am worth loving. I feel like such an empty shell of a person. I don't know when exactly I lost my identity. 

I am so much work for the people who love me. I wish I felt more in control of these emotions. If it was just as easy as not acting the way I do, I would just do it. I split so easily. I am a different person. 

I hate myself. I feel so good one moment and so hopeless the next. I don't even know how to get more help. I'm already in therapy. I wish I could be fixed.