that's it. I have already deleted all the platforms, deactivated my insta, and now will delete Reddit too. If I get bored, I will listen to songs, play guitar 24/7, draw, write, read, study, or even sleep throughout the day. But I refuse to contact or talk to anyone.  I have had enough of attaching my self-worth to people, trying to be a perfect perspective for them while degrading who I originally am. I am done with scrolling through my screen hoping my anxiety to calm down, hoping my life is fixed itself, but it won't. It's just a week you might think. But to me, who survives by keeping herself distracted through her phone is a big step. 

I think I'll stop trying to float and wait to drown and now try to swim. Here's to me. I'll try again. Harder this time.