Rather than to have fun or to socialize.

It’s not like they’re exactly wrong, but I’m just worried what I do that makes them think that, because I barely know this person and we have never even talked about alcohol or anything like that before. I like to think I can appear pretty functional on the outside, am I really doing that bad at it? I never try to bring up my issues to anyone, and I don’t do self-depreciative jokes and shit like that. I feel awful that someone I barely know has noticed how sad I am when I am trying my best to act normally. I’m worried how many other people know, if I’m that transparent, apparently. 

Sucks. A new thing to be self conscious about, I guess.