i’m struggling, I’ve had my fair share of relationships but all fairly short term but this last one broke me. we broke up 2 weeks ago and i have never felt like this before. to give a lil backstory, he admitted to watching beastiality and suggestive child content(like bad bad stuff, he showed it to me) i broke up with him and reported him to the police- i am fundamentally against this but there’s fucking children involved- after the adrenaline rush i sunk into darkness. i can’t shake the feeling that i did something wrong, and to make things worse a sick part of me still loves him. i lost all of my friends (it’s my senior year of highschool, i had moved in the summer to a new school and i met him first and all his friends became my friends) Even though i reported him, i refuse to tell his friends what he did so they’ve been pushed the narrative that i’m a heartless bitch. i don’t mind that, maybe i am.  i dumped him so fast, disregarding every happy moment, every moment where we laughed and danced. i know deep deep down i did the right thing but it’s hard when i go to school and sit alone the entire day , i go home and lock myself in my room and embroider, i eat only occasionally. i feel like i don’t have the right to complain, because i did this to myself but it just hurts so bad.