man their school finally started like  long time ago and they deleted their stuff. they have been messaging me on weekends but only one text, its so annoying, i answer them in under a sec but they still leave me on delivered.  ive been trying my best, its getting worse every day. i swear they dont care, they're active on other places. i just want any kind of affection,  i messaged my toxic ex to help me because they give me the besf advice, they ghosted me. i just need help, even they said that ny fp doesnt seem to care , "if hes not giving you the love amd affection he used to why would he do it again" what if he just ends up forgetting me and fucks a chick from another period. he doesnt even leave me alone in mg sleep every dream is abt the things i want to hear from himi wish he would just say it out that hes tired of my shir and wants to be alone. i tried going to sleep and i cant even do that, im so paranoid abt him not caring, im tired of being ignored by him, im doing my best, ive done everything i have been able, i even stopped smoking, i only want to get some kind of affection,  i even tried asking him if he loves me, i pussied out but i tried, asked if hes just not sure or avoiding  the subject. even my toxic ex said hes purposely ignoring me, gave me ": )" when i said ily twice. i dont care anymore about other stuff, im just tired of feeling worthless over one man. ive been reading old dms to try and fool myself to think that he cares, ive at least read the screenshot where he calls me a pet name this month about 30 times today, im highly upset abt my previous account getting disabled,  after that everything went to shit, i just want to read the messages again,  the calls, ive tried getting him more interested in me by oversexualizing myself, the only way i know how to get someone interested me
i love him so much I don't know what to do, nudes dont even help anymore, I'm getting  worse and worse mentally everyday,  try to sleep it off. i dont understand what i did wrong,  ive done everything i could, from texting less to not be annoying yet he still ignores me, i feel like im getting lied to