Life has just been so hard, I want to be sober but I just can’t get through life without alcohol, weed, and opiates, I can’t seem to make it longer than a month or two before going back, it’s made it a struggle to lose weight, I really want to get rid of all of it but every time I get going something or someone comes along to fuck it up, I have a 1.5 year old niece I want to live for, but I’m starting to lose the vision of living for her, I’ve tried counseling but it seems like none of them care, I just want to find a reason to be sober and healthy, my family just gets upset that I don’t want to be around and they just shoot me down the second I do, I really just want a friend who understands me that I can work together with, and go along this journey with to build each other.