I recently was unofficially diagnosed with BPD and it makes so much sense. I am 25/f  lesbian (if that matters) and I just wanted to meet some people who are like me. I'm trying to help myself and learn coping skills. I'm tired of suffering all the time. I obsess over ppl and its embarressing. My ex I am working things out with has been in the hospital and her phone is off. I haven't talked to her in 2 weeks and am catastrophizing everything. Last time I texted her she seemed irritated which doesn't help. Last night I cried for hours and wanted to self harm but held out. :) I just hate the unknown.