So I'm pretty good at social masking and it's how I manage to hold a job etc etc but the one thing I can mask is facial expressions.


Even when I'm not masking if I laugh I'll stop and think like oh am I laughing right? Am I smiling right? I used to get bullied heavily for having yellow teeth / annoying laugh so when I smile I find it literally impossible to grin I can only smile with my mouth.


We had to do work photos recently and my admin lady kept saying " no X come on just smile properly you don't need to do a gimp smile "
And I had to explain to her I don't actually know how to do that.


It's not that I'm to sad to smile even when I'm super happy I still find it really stressful / hard to have to smile / laugh etc 


I find it very hard to know what emotion is currently displayed on my face and it's ruining my ability to mask.


Can someone give some tips? Nothing that involves looking in a mirror, mirrors freak me out.