I want some advice on how to make this fear go away. I’m 27, and recently lost a close friend to her battle with schizophrenia. Since her death, I have become depressed and anxious and struggling with derealization. Upon wanting to know more about her mental illness, I have wanted to research things. So for 2 months, I’ve been obsessed with the illness and have felt that I can develop it. The DPDR and anxiety doesn’t help, but constantly I am thinking I am in the onset. 

Yes, I’ve already been evaluated and the doctors said no im not in prodromal phase &amp; chances are if I was going to be schizophrenic it would have popped up earlier. I still feel convinced. 

😭