I left school a year ago due to some health issuess, both physicall and mental and since then i was at an employment office but i was unable to find a job or at least a part time job. I applied to one place that was hiring but i was so anxious about it afterwards that when they called me i didn't answer and wrote them an email afterwards and apologized and told them i couldn't work there due to something i made up. It was stupid of me i know.After that i started to work on myself and have been doing much better.

I lost a lot of weight and gained a lot of confidence and even applied for a part time job to a local mall without any major anxiety attacks, they are currently full but should call me next month or even next even, they aren't sure yet. The problem is that the employment counselor has given me an application for a full time job to a restaurant where i should call for an interview. I don't to work in a restaurant, i worked in one before and it completely ruined my mental health but i was too anxious to tell her that. If i refuse it and don't go there the office could write me off and stop paying for my insurance until i find a job, mom says she can pay for it just fine since she makes a lot off money but i don't want to be a burden to her anymore. I want to stop feeling like a failure. I will be moving out at the end of this year or at the start of the new year and will have to pay for stuff while living there and i want to do it with my own money but the anxiety is killing me. Tommorow i have an appointment with the employment lady and i don't know what to tell her without feeling like a failure. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? It's making me depressed just thinking about it and i don't want to throw all the progress i made over the year just for this.