Trigger warning suicide



Things are getting worse my counselor suggests to go get on pills I don’t feel like it’s the answer but it’s getting worse I’m so exhausted all the time mainly cuz I panic all the time but lately I have been depressed I broke up with my BF on Christmas Eve it was the best for both of us but I had to pull the trigger cuz he wouldn’t I spent it alone I’m always alone have been for 5 years know. His family hAtes me I’m so done and over everything I’m heart broke for the first time in a long long time I thought things where looking up? But I wasn’t good for him and he wasn’t good for me it was toxic and would have gotten worse over time! Idk what to do if I go to get pills their going to give me anti depression pills but it’s just a symptom of the main cause. Last time I was on pills they made me wanna kill myself.