I’ve never posted on here so hello I hope everyone is doing well :)! 

Basically I just got broken up with. My ex partner has bipolar 2 &amp; BPD traits &amp; around a few weeks ago he broke up with me during a mixed episode yet we got back together after 2 days of him realising that he made a mistake. To say that my BPD wasn’t triggered after that would be a lie. I worried when he’d leave me and at times truly believe that he was cheating on me. My devaluation absolutely increased and I was having urges to break up with him. These all kinda sorted itself out as time went on. I absolutely adored this man and tried my best to understand him, obviously I couldn’t to my full potential as I don’t have bipolar but I truly did all I can. I had noticed that he was getting worse and then got better and then felt worse, it was really confusing but I concluded that he must still be in his episode which is completely understandable. Fast forward to yesterday where he decided to go on a break due to his psychologist recommending it. My mind was in absolute scrambles as I felt like I was losing him again. He went to come see me to talk as well as to give my wallet back. We cried, argued and cried some more. First it was a break then a break up and then finally a break. I left feeling sad for him, myself and our relationship but went to bed feeling sort of hopeful (this was definitely a mistake). Today I woke up to him breaking up with me due to it being what he NEEDS for his mental health. I totally get that as I’ve been there before but it just hurts so much. We were overall in a healthy and happy relationship and you could literally feel the happiness together. It just worked and we just fit. I was a mess and cried to him on FaceTime, I begged him to stay and absolutely embarrassed myself. I know I’ll be okay and I’ll get over it as I have always done but right now it just feels so painful.