I've had therapy and it's useless in my daily life. I still can't study, go out and basically live my life. I'm stuck in my room playing video games. This is gonna to be my whole life. 

I've tried meds, but so far they don't work. SSRIs are useless and SNRIs are so far causing my heart rate to increase rapidly. 

I'm so sick of this. Everybody is living their lives whilst I'm stuck here with my life falling apart. I hate this hell hole. Why can't I just be normal? Why does my brain work like this? If there was some kind of benefit to having anxiety then maybe I'll accept the trade of, but there isn't. It's just a hindrance.