My ex and I have been texting on and off since we broke up three months ago. I never expressed the desire for anything more than friendship in those conversations, and made sure he knew it. We were getting to the point where he invited me out for drinks the other night. I've been really lonely, and was almost tempted to say yes, but I told him no, I had to study. I know how easy it is for one hangover to offset my studies and negatively affect my way of thinking. So I wasn't about to take the risk because my ex wanted to go party and told him nicely, no. 

My ex has been emotionally abusive in the past, one of the main reasons I gave up on our relationship. Since we starting talking more regularly again, he has been incredibly kind and caring, worrying about my wellbeing, and making sure to tell me he is proud of me for my dedication to my studies. For the most part, I didn't pay much attention to it, but he was successfully creeping under my skin, I just hadn't realized it yet. 

He made sure to tell me he was proud of me before going out on his own, drinking. Not even an hour after he said he got there, he immediately did a 180 (something not uncommon for him to do) and started telling me how fake I was for studying, and berating me personally for rejecting him.

That was it, I was done, I didn't respond once to his 25+ text messages of a hate tirade, and immediately blocked him. I am so done with guys manipulating me because I am sensitive, prone to freaking out and BPD responses. He didn't fail to mention my disorder in his tirade, trying to justify his behavior because I am the one who is unstable. 

I know now I never should have stayed in contact after we broke up, and have learned my lesson. I still think about what else he could have written me after I blocked him, I wonder if he realized how much of an ass he was being and eventually apologize, but fortunately for me, I can never know that. I blocked him on all social media and his number from my phone is gone. He is gone from my life and his toxic attitude towards me and my disorder are GONE. 