I (22f) have spent the last few months back to living with my parents due to the pandemic doing much better because of everything being online and not having any triggers. I had almost dropped out of college due to anxiety (GAD/SA) and BPD but since everything was online I decided to continue. I did well this one semester and my medication started working and I started feeling like a normal human being again. 

This semester, I have to find an internship and barely 10 days are left with a few leads that I am pursuing. About two hours ago I suddenly got the opportunity to email two professors at a very prestigious university through a reference. It all happened so fast and now I have to write them emails asap. My head started spinning as soon as I got the news and it has caused an anxiety attack that's still going on. I am so glad I am getting this opportunity so I don't understand this anxiety? I just have to write emails which I have been doing for the last few weeks anyway so it's not something new. I took my anxiety medication too. 

I was starting to increase my expectations for my life and not considering my mental illnesses while making major decisions. But I guess I just realized again why I had to lower my expectations.