I was at a college party last night with my class. I've been really shy and I had no friends when I moved in this city for school. We were giving prizes for people being good at something. Like, "the hardest working student", "the tech wizard" and then there was "the one who outdid themselves (doesn't translate well)". Well, I won that one. 

I was basically praised most of the night and people were like "I remember how shy you were at first and now you you light up the room with your positivity and kindness" and "I don't know how you're able to get along with everyone so well" and the list goes on. Bullshit. 

This positive person has severe depression, I'm a self-harming drug addict who wishes to die every other day and thinks about suicide once a week. That's posivity for you alright haha

I also know a few others that are like me. They always smile and are friendly but have all tried to kill themselves many times. 

I guess I just find it interesting how good people are at faking it. It really goes to show that no one knows jack shit. 

So, don't be a cunt to anyone, I suppose. You don't know anything either. I don't mean that in a mean way, but more like a "be careful" way lmao