I don't know if I can do this.. I just did something last night I didn't want to do and it still feels so wrong even tho on the longer run it might be the correct thing.. I made the choice to break up with my boyfriend and I feel so bad about it. we are both depressed but sadly he is more severely. I just wish I could have helped and still help him without it being dangerous to both of us. but knowing I hurt him and him not hating me for it and him still loving me and me still loving him, this all just hurts too much and I don't know if I can go on with my life. I don't want to continue my life without him. people say that time will heal but knowing what I lost and that I can't have him anymore at all, knowing that, I just can't do it. everything reminds me of him and I know I can't enjoy things the same way as I did with him.. I just want him back and believe that everything would turn out fine but at the same time I don't know if it's the right choice, I just hate this and my life. I'm nothing without him