I can’t do this anymore.I can’t go on living.But also I don’t want to hurt the people around me as committing suicide which is obviously suicide.It is not their fault to think about it and blame themselves.The problem is me!I have low energy I can’t do normal things because of that.I don’t have motivation or anything.I don’t have any interest in anything in this world anymore.I hate being here.Everyday is a torture.I am dead inside already only my body is alive.So I was thinking about dying but somehow to disguise it as an accidental death.I was thinking throwing myself on the stairs but still it is not sure that I will die.The next option is throwing myself in front of a car but I don’t want an innocent person to be blamed for that and to ruin someone else’s life.So the most acceptable option is to go hiking somewhere in the mountain and to pretend I slipped away.I will find a high place and it will look accidental.What do you think can you tell me other option?And please don’t tell me to go to therapy and things I have tried everything.Just some people are deeply broken and sad and unlucky and there is not cure for them.