I'm a 15 year old, in freshman highschool, and everything has been shit. Every. Damn. Day. The stress,  the loneliness, the anger, not feeling loved, not feeling cared. I can't take it anymore. I put on an act everyday and say I'm fine to my friends when I'm really not. I have to rely on alcohol to make myself feel happy, and let everything out.

Most of these reasons are from school, and some people.

School has been giving me stress because of the amount of work they give me, the grades I always have to worry about, and the teachers and some students. 

The anger is from me doing absolute dog shit in school. My grades in math and other subjects has really gone down the drain. The teachers always yell at me and question why I'm doing crap in class. I just don't understand the subjects. 

The loneliness and not feeling cared comes from people and teachers at school. A teacher in unique skills (a class to make up work) is trying to fail me and tries pissing me off everyday. When I was confronted by my parents about that class having a bad grade they yelled at me asking "how the hell do you fail a unique skills class". My parents tell me that they love me but their actions certainly doesn't say that, they constantly yell and argue with me and sometimes that's to smack, punch and hit me, and at the end of the day they say they love me, those words don't mean anything to me if they aren't showing it to me.

I want to be treated like a human being and feel loved. not drinking and getting drunk trying to clear my problems away