I guess as a 26yo I was hoping for so much more for myself. Now I’m just begging for some crazy accident or illness to take me out. I’m too scared to do it myself but damn if I don’t wish for the mercy of death every single day. I have no family, no friends. I haven’t accomplished anything substantial in my life, can’t hold down a relationship or a job. Everything is just shit to me. I can’t fucking breathe in this place anymore. I’m done with this life and all of the hell it has caused. I don’t know what I did in my last life to deserve this but it must have been awful.