For as long as I can remember, I loved watching things fall apart, get destroyed, or just watch what was once built or put so much time into just to fall and that’s both physically and mentally.

I’ve lost many relationships because of it but honestly I’m so fucking numb to the world that I really don’t care to change. I’m not depressed, im rather happier than I used to be in the past but I don’t know what to do.

Does anyone else feel like this or can anyone please give me suggestions? It’s not a healthy lifestyle and as much as I’d like to say I don’t want to change, something is tugging at my heart saying “stop that” so any assistance would be tremendous!

Thank you, have a blessed day!