Because of my BPD I’ve lost a lot of friends. I’m terrified of losing people but I constantly snap at them when I think they don’t actually care about me. I have one friend and my boyfriend. My relationship is extremely rocky. I end up constantly yelling at my boyfriend especially because I often genuinely believe he hates me or doesn’t actually want the best for me. My trust in him has gone down because I constantly think he’s lying when he says he loves me, but then after all of this I typically apologize the minute my anger subsided. I end up feeling guilty and anxious or happy and just ignore what happened. It’s taken a huge toll in our relationship and i don’t know how to help. Does anyone know of any coping mechanisms to either help me calm down from my anger, or force my brain to think more rationally and realize he does actually care about me? 