I know Reddit isn't a psychiatrist, I go to one and I see a therapist too and I've been seeing the same ones for a few years and been going in general for even longer. I'm on three meds (Ritalin, risperidone, and mirtazapine now as of a.few days ago). I don't know where else to go. I don't know who I am anymore and ive been spiraling into worse depressive states every day for weeks. I try to reach out to friends, make new friends, anything to occupy my mind from myself but I can't, nobody wants to hang out, nobody wants to talk to somebody so fucked up. I try to cheer others on but now I'm sinking into a pit of despair and the depression gets worse and I don't think this med is working.