long story short - I'm from argentina, 19f and being struggling with poverty and toxic relationships since I left my parents house, (not to mention my parents were ULTRA TOXIC and made my life a living hell till to this day) and all of this distroyed me mentally, I can't build trust with anyone these days, I have constant panick attacks , I'm struggling on daily basic tasks, and taking clonazepam to go trough the day...thankfully a girl whose an angel saved me from ending in the street, since I was about to get evicted from the place i was staying...she's all good in this world and managed to acquire me a new place. But Im unemployed, and since argentina economy and society is ultra twisted. I feel like my past is haunting me difficulting getting a job even more, im still somehow in the same place i ve been these last years, insecure, vulnerable, with fear of getting abandoned or ending in street in total poverty or getting ab\*sed...Im also scared of this girl that helps me now, she somehow wont like me anymore (whose I can say shes a bestie, not everyone would ve done what she done) soooo please tell me what can i do to let go this heavy backpack it's killing me 

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sorry for my bad english, not my main language and im also on meds so not very sharp &lt;/3