does anyone feel like getting a grip on finances, housing, employment, diet, sleep schedule, etc, feel completely impossible?

i have a job that ends at the end of october and i hardly have any money saved. i have so many unpaid bills (a lot of which i’m not even sure of since i’ve never really tracked my finances) and i feel extremely hopeless.

when i start thinking about how it hasn’t happened in the past, i start realizing it probably never will. that’s when the serious depressive episode hits and i’m unable to effectively do anything to change my current circumstances.