i’ve lost everything in the past year. relationships, my self esteem, my physical mobility , literally all my progress in terms of mental illness upkeep. i’ve turned into this bitter angry and unbelievably fragile person. i haven’t been able to get out of bed for months. i can’t stay awake without literally every possible thing around me triggering me and i can’t sleep bc of night terrors. i’m trying my hardest to believe that i can survive this low as i have the ones before. but i can’t shake the feeling that this is going to be my last year. and as upsetting as it is to admit it that’s the only thing that calms me down. i’m not even sure why i’m posting this sympathy is the last thing that i want right now. i just hope you guys understand