I really need advice about whether to stay on clozapine or go back to Olanzapine. Both meds cause symptoms but I’m out of meds to try and at least with Olanzapine I don’t have to get blood draws. I’m out of meds to try. Clozapine I took for 2 days and it is making me feel really impulsive and scared. People keep talking over me and seem angry with me in public. But on Olanzapine I ended up hurting myself two weeks ago. My Dr. said I could go back on Olanzapine but to go to the hospital if things get worse or maybe try some treatment for anxiety or do therapy. I have this belief that I’m in a lose/lose situation where things won’t go well for me no matter what because now is supposed to be a period of suffering/bad luck for me. I don’t do therapy right now since I feel like they aren’t out for your best interests. I want to do what’s best but I don’t know which path to take. An artwork I bought is probably arriving in the next week or two. I feel like people want to hurt me when I take clozapine. Maybe therapy would help.