Hey guys, I've been struggling with an idea as of late. I'm 19, female, cluster b with PTSD and NPD and am getting to a point where I'm thinking about children in the next 5 years. I have EXTREMELY mixed feelings. I want children, but I hesitate because I feel as if, despite treatment, I may not be a good parent. How can I willingly put a child into this world, knowing my own disposition and problems? What if I were to detrimentally fuck my kid up in the same way my parents did to me? Are there any parents with BPD on here that can provide any info? I know I'm 19, but my boyfriend is in the navy, and of course we have a jumpstart on marriages and children as do most military couples (there's a reason for that btw, despite all the memes lol, we can't visit them on base unless we have the same last name so if you want to see your s/o at all, you need to be married) But this is a serious, five-year-plan consideration from me and I would appreciate any mom and dad suffering from BPD's input. 