Hey, so Im gonna be dumping some notes about my experience with a psychiatrist i had to see yesterday(im in the public system and have to see her for health evaluations, shes the only psychiatrist there and she’s technically still learning to be a psychiatrist) 
Sry for formatting im on phone.

⚠️TW for some heavy stuff, SH and sushislide.

- She came off as very unempathetic, seemed to rush me when i was trying to think about what to say and said things like “most people can remember this” “you can tell me, just tell me.”
- Felt like she didnt really listen to me and sort of dismissed it to get me to talk about what she wanted me to tell her.
- Continued to push me to tell her things i was clearly uncomfortable telling her, asked me *how* i tried to k!ll myself years ago and i started tearing up because i wasn’t comfortable saying, but she kept pushing me to tell her. She also asked if I self harmed and I said yes but not anymore and she made cvtting motions up her arm while asking if I cvt which i found extremely triggering.
- Seems like a very “get over it” person,  in the end she told me I dont have depression even though she literally said i have depression that stems from my anxiety and theres nothing really wrong with me, i have generalised anxiety and i should just do a tafe course to get over it basically (that really hurt me because I absolutely believe im not okay and need this help and shes just not even taking me seriously, i didnt tell her about how im looking into ASD as i figured she’d brush that off too.)
- She said something like “is it just laziness?” When i was explaining how its hard for me to get out of the house and couldnt think of what goes through my head when im anxious on the spot and then i couldnt quite hear it but she said “dont use your mums sickness as an excuse” or along those lines after i explained how I basically have to look after her when shes sick and how it affects me, really upset me as i never said anything that could warrant my mums sickness as an excuse for anything.
- In the end i just started agreeing with whatever assumption she made about me and wanted to just get out of there as i was extremely upset and i felt forced to talk about stuff i was uncomfortable talking about but told me to “tell her” and i felt rushed.
- i had a migrane after the appointment because i was genuinely so upset and bringing up certain things in my past does really affect me especially when im telling someone who doesnt even seem interested and just wants me out the door. 
She might be good for someone else but definitely not for me, the other psychiatrist i saw went overtime and listened to every concern i had and seemed genuinely interested but all this lady did was stare at the computer screen and mumble “mhm” while i explained heavy stuff to her.
After it all i started second guessing myself. I thought maybe there is nothing wrong and im just anxious and being an idiot, i just felt so bad afterwards cause this lady might just say “you’re fine and you dont need this service anymore” and kick me from the public system. I really need this help and im just super unsure now, I dont want another appointment with her but i dont have a choice.