So I’m seeing a therapist about this but basically a job I left over a year ago I had a crush on my manager and I was a little flirty and too nice!! Even tho this was over a year ago the guilt brought me down to my knees and I told my bf everything that happened during that time. (Didn’t cheat cheat no kissing or hugging or hanging outside of work but was flirty) well I keep replying thoughts and conversations we had! This one memory I have when I left this job our other coworker at the time texting me “hey where are you I’m worried”? I never replied cause I just quit that job and never went back. I played with this memory inside my head. In my head I said “hey sorry just needed to leave” and he said here is “nicks number” (the guy I liked) to stay in contact with us! Why did I make up that thought in my head and play with the memory? It’s been over a year since I saw him and I told my bf out of guilt but did I make that up in my head wishing I was still in contact with him? Or is it something else