When I develop a FP they are literally all I can think about. I want to give them all my love and do anything possible to make them happy, whenever they're sad it crushes my heart to see them like that. My mood and my entire day depends on my FP, which is a bad thing but if they give me affection it'll make my entire day. What I'm trying to say is that I am actually an extremely loving person and as I'm sure we all feel, I love my FP more than myself. They are everything to be and my world revolves around them. 

I've recently come to the realization that nobody will love me as much as I love them. Most people without BPD just don't feel this utter obsessive love for someone and it's been a hard pill for me to swallow. Sometimes I would really like to be given that same level of love that I give to other people, you know?