I’m pretty sure I have quiet BPD, I moved away from everyone that I know, I don’t talk to anyone including my family my mom has BPD and every conversation with her is like a mind game.
Most days I wake up, use The bathroom, and sleep. I leave my trailer once a week to get things from the store and aside from that I just stay in bed, it’s been like this for a few months. 

I decided to limit my Social interactions because I feel worse when I’m around people and I don’t like pretending to be a normal empathy-feeling, sane person. 

I have MS so I’m on disability and I don’t have to do anything, I can just exist like this forever. 

I never feel happy, I don’t feel like there’s any way out.