Look, at this point I'm sure that half of my problems could be solved if I had just made an effort to my utter and complete lack of self-care which is hard and I mean very hard but still somewhat doable.

Since schools closed for me, I had no reason to give a crap about taking care of myself anymore and it shows as clear as day that my lack of hygiene, lack of physical activity, ridiculous screen time, my godawful eating habits and lack of sleep have caught up to me and brought me down to my knees.

Even as I'm writing this, I just feel like I've had enough to the point where I just woke up at 4AM to write this, just so I can have something to remind me to keep going.

I'm just hoping I'll be able to force myself out of this hole and get on the right path for once.