I know things aren't OK and luckily my partner supports and believes me.
In my past I've had experience with things like self harm, near death, depression and anxiety (I'm on meds currently for the last 2).
But I've never felt like anyone (mostly doctors) through my life has believed me when I've spoke up about seeing, hearing and feeling things that to my knowledge isn't there. Recently it's begun to really effect my sleep and day to day life where I feel paranoid that people around me are talking about me and that simply going outside is basically now a death sentence given the current climate but I know I need help.

I got so much stuff going on in my head that I don't know where or who to turn to anymore.

Any advice about what may help even if not strictly professional, I will happily accept messages for this or even just to go into more detail about stuff