I (22m) am dead on the inside. I’m currently studying for a private diploma course which i have 0 interest in whatsoever and not doing good by any means lol. Also, i’m extremely introverted and have pretty bad social anxiety so no one knows about how i feel. I have never talked to anyone about any of this before. 

Yesterday, i had thought about dropping out of my course. But without at least a diploma, it’s pretty hard to find a stable job where i live.   I’m basically fucked. I’ll most likely be failing my upcoming exams for the semester despite trying and have 0 clue on what to do then.

I’ve always wanted to move out of my country since i was young. There’s nothing good here besides the safety it offers. I’m not close to my family and have only about 5 close friends who are mostly busy working or with their SO. I don’t want to drag them into my mess as well. Sorry for the slightly long(and messy) post but i just felt like getting it off my chest. Would appreciate any advice anyone has to offer, thanks!