Quick Heads up; 
I'm a 20F and I'm in treatment for CPTSD and Depression, I'm consider a Highly Sensitive Person  and live in a (now) stable family enviorment, and am attending college to be an Assistant in Media and Design.

I've been regularly attending 1-on-1 Therapy sessions with pretty good success and generally consider myself on a great road to recovery.

But for the past two weeks I've had the strangest expirience that has thrown me completely over again.

I feel like I am slipping further from reality each day - why am I feeling this way?

Everything feels so strange all of a sudden and I don't understand why, I haven't done anything wrong as far as I can tell, I was doing alright.
I've been taking my meds, getting sleep, doing chores and talking to people.

Yet I feel so disconnected from the people around me, like I can't click with them on more than a basic level.
It feels shallow and I feel awful for it.
But I want to connect so badly.

All at once my life feels performative, I keep asking myself what I'm doing and why I'm doing it even though I know those questions don't lead to anything.

I suddenly feel afraid that I might never be able to express everything I want to, nothing, no medium feels sufficient.

I have this feeling of a deep dread and anxious hyperactivity in my chest, almost like a supressed panic.

The imagery I come up with to describe what im feeling to friends seems stranger each day and I feel like it keeps growing more cryptic.

Today for example I described my Migraine as making my brain feel like four disks spinning rapidly while swinging in and out of each other like pendulums,
And though I can't explain to you how that made perfect sense to me I know it didn't to anyone else because it's so far removed from actual sensation that it's a pointless image at that point.

 What the hell am I even trying to get across?

I feel like I'm loosing my self in my thoughts.