Removed from society: isolated.

I know this is a very weird question but recently I've found out about BPD and I'm trying to navigate it all. I don't wish to do anything bad to myself, but I still feel like I'm a risk to society. Not in the sense of physically hurting people, but in the sense of abusing them.

I feel like I am a person who will start being an abuser at any moment. I can't control anything. Not my feelings, not my reactions either. I feel like every second people spend with me is a bad one. I wish to be completely secluded until I can heal and progress on my recovery.

Am I alone on this or not?