These past two weeks have been a roller coaster from hell. I had really bad times similar to this when I was in high school but this feels like a totally different level of anxiety and stress. I found myself driving across state lines just to "ease my mind" instead of going to school and dealing with class..

My therapist told me Friday if I don't change something soon, I will have a nervous breakdown, and soon with how high my anxiety and stress levels have gotten over just the course of two weeks. I'm dropping out of the graduate program I'm in, probably going to something less strenuous until I can get my shit together.

The thing is, no one knows any of this is happening. My parents have no clue I'm struggling this bad and I don't plan on telling them. I don't even plan to tell them about dropping out of the program. I'm just so scared I'm fucking up my life with this psychotic shithole I feel like I got myself into.

Just had to rant to someone that might understand..