So I'm on my last year of high school , and from 3rd grade I've been dreaming of studying abroad,  the whole process of studying abroad with all the applications , counselling offices etc. is going great.But I'm maybe in the most renowned school of my city.And there is this guy , this student , I know him too , we talked a lot of times , and have been into the same competitions together.He is known as the best student in the whole school , he gets straight A's.And I thought the he didn't want to study abroad,  that he wanted to lay in the national uni's for a while and then go abroad.But I found that he is actually going to study abroad , and it will be really easy for him , because he is just the best student in the whole school.And when people come to me and tell me they want to study abroad , there is this feeling inside of me , that I'm being attacked , that they will come and steal my place on one of the universities , even if we're going to study in different countries and different programs , I get anxious and say to myself that I just wont get in , and everyone else will , and also get quite angry because , it was not their dream to do that , it was my dream , why are they doing it , I know this sound a bit childish I tend not to think like that.

So when I found out earlier today that he is actually in fact going to study abroad , I was furious , anxious , attacked , and like every minute of the day , thinking inside my head , making plans.And from out of nowhere , I thought to myself that I have to become competitive,  I have to the best if not in school , at least in my classroom.And be present at all times , more then I am right now.For the first time , I just got really competitive , and can't wait to go to school ,and prove myself.

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P.S  This is big for me , I just wanted to let some steam out.