We all think the next step in the life will be  better. That is one fucking lie you are being told. As far you go in your life , the more disturbing and drastic your life becomes. Thought i had some friends and now i am a person with a good job and a place to live on my own from the outside but a person with suicidal thoughts all the time from inside. Its too depressing when you give priority to someone and they dont give it back. Forced to see every one you know having their best time outside while you destined to live in a fucking loop. Everyone will say this will pass.. Well i have been waiting for this to pass for a long time and i dont see a difference.. I am tired of waiting..

Really tired..


Reality is a disappointment

What a fucking joke my life is...