I was diagnosed with BPII in October. All the signs were there, I just wasn’t looking at the big picture. I can remember all the times that I was hypomanic-they all just looked like I was being super productive. Maybe it wasn’t on anything important but I was productive with it. 
My husband calls them my “big ideas” which got me thinking about what happens during my hypomanic episodes. Does hypomania cause the “big ideas” or do my “big ideas” trigger a hypomanic episode? It’s kind of like the chicken and the egg question. Now I’m afraid to start any project with the fear it will cause some type of hypomanic episode. I just re-did my bathroom and I was actively trying not to become obsessive over it. Then I became obsessive over that but that just may be a me problem. 
Anyway-anyone know or have the same thought process as me? It can’t just be me.