Two months ago, my ex girlfriend broke up with me. I was incredibly bad during that time, following my emotions and not thinking about how she felt. There were some issues this year that she was worried about, too, even though she... hadn’t really told me she’d forgiven them, more like she’d just ignored them and moved on.

I’ve been completely stuck these two months on what to do. I’ve tried hard not to follow my feelings, even though they’re so big and just feel... so important, to me. I saw a therapist and she taught me how it’s better to focus on logic and wiseness (the balance between emotion and logic). I’ve tried to do that. I realised that all I wanted was to be with my ex again, so that I could use the things I’ve learned into our relationship. 

I’m constantly torn between whether I completely love her or absolutely hate her. This week, I’ve been writing about how I feel about this situation once every day. It’s changed a bit, but mostly it’s the same contradiction of love and hate. I miss her a lot, and I miss what we had. She just wants to be friends, and she says she’s busy, but I’ve got to say... she doesn’t put a lot of effort in.

I just want to know if any of you have any advice, or if you’ve been through something like this before. I know it’s going to be difficult but anything anyone else has to make things easier would be excellent. And feel free to message me if you want to know about this all in more detail. Thank you for reading ❤️