Almost 28, probably my 6-7th major depressive episode. Live with mom and brother, unemployed again but at least managed to save some money from previous work. Constant desire to sleep, absolute 0 interest in anything.

On my best days I will force myself to play video games and watch Netflix, I struggle a lot with self-care, bath 2 times a week, overeat, and feeling constantly terrible and hopeless. I am also isolating myself from the few friends that I have, I don't text them I do not wish to hangout with them - I'll go out maybe once a week purely out of obligation and understanding the fact that 0 socializing will destroy all progress I've made towards social anxiety, which of course has also gotten worse, but it's to be expected. I see social events as something terrifying and something that obstructs my nonexistent routine.

I wanted to ask members of these sub who are also suffer with chronic depression/dysthymia...What do you do when you get a major depressive episode? Is there a way I could start doing some basic things throughout the day? The biggest difficulty I face has to be the fact that I feel everything is meaningless and the self hatred... 

It's incredible frustrating living the same day every day and feeling so helpless to do anything to change it, even the smallest things... I guess more of a vent than anything...not my first rodeo...super exhausted and slowly reaching my last resort