Hi
I am 25 yo, I have been struggling with anxiety and depression since I was in high school. I was a high achieving student before that. But for the past eight years, due to my mental illness, It became a huge struggle to only pass the exams with the lowest grades. I lost the interest in my hobbies of design and dance and so I stopped doing them. I totally lost my curiosity and any sense of joy and so I have so little knowledge about dentistry which is the degree I'm getting from college, I literally was barely studying to pass the exams and forget everything afterwards. Now that I'm progressing in my healing journey, I still feel so discouraged when I look at the years I wasted and what I could've became today if I didn't quit studying and my hobbies. I would be now a working competent dentist with many skills. I am crying writing this as it is so sad and heartbreaking, why me and how did this happen to me, how I couldn't, no matter what I did, overcome this. Depression and anxiety ruined my life, and I am in a huge struggle to overcome it. How my life changed overnight to its worst, is the biggest darkest mystery of my life.
I can't help it but feel heartbroken looking at the past 8 years. How things would have been if I was healthy.