I feel either angry, violent, numb, or depressed, nothing in between. I pretend I'm happy and I'm silly and funny when I'm around my friends and they're good people with fucking goals and dreams unlike me. I feel like everyone analyzes every action, every thing i do and probably laughs at me for it. Everyone probably hates me and thinks I'm weird because i keep quiet. I'm not even doing bad in school either, I just can't take it anymore. I sleep every night knowing its going to lead closer to my death. I have no will to go on.