So I've felt even shittier the past few weeks (possibly from medication but psychiatrist is in 2 or 3 weeks). Now the medicationn part of it I'm fine with telling mum. It's how do I get her to understand what goes through my head?

Constant intrusive thoughts, borderline psychotic delusions, extreme paranoia which has only gotten worse, I see someone on the street and get scared they're all part of some plot against me or just want to attack me, I can't handle being around so many people at school (had to pull a sickie today halfway through), like I can't trust anyone or anything, pretty sure my friends want to leave me, feel so empty and soulless, don't want to die but don't want to live either, just everything is too much.

Mum is willing to help me get help but that's about it. Not much empathy from either of my parents, although mum is a bit more accepting and understanding that something is wrong, just not the extent of it and she gets pissed whenever I get out of school or isolate myself inside my room, my only safe space.

How do I talk to her about this all? It's becoming too much...