It's been a year and three months since someone broke up with me for the first time. I started dating someone three months after; that lasted a month. Still hurt like hell when he broke it off. I met someone else... Well, actually, also about three months later. I was still in pain over my ex and essentially only entered the relationship because he wanted it, and I thought I'd eventually have to break up with him. But as per usual, it took me maybe two weeks to get attached. He didn't mind at first. In fact, he kind of liked it. He told me that in the past, he'd been the one getting attached early on, and I guess it felt good to have someone attach back. I don't think he understood the meaning of "attached", though. We're almost 9 months in, and I just found out that he wants things to be less serious between us. He doesn't want to see me every day. He's saying he feels emotionless and thinks I should break up with him because of all the pain he causes me. He doesn't realize that everything before this was dismissable; the only real pain he's caused me has been in the last few days. I was really happy before all of this... I was literally starting to think BPD was a misdiagnosis. But I was ignorant of the fact that I was calling him constantly, texting him constantly, and demanding too much quality time. And now I'm freaking out day and night in the face of abandonment. I'm not really looking for advice; I've been down this road twice. I've created a list of the things I have to do for myself if we break up, I'm trying to give him space, I'm having small (like... 2 minute) periods of radical acceptance. I'm far from sinking (at this point... I'm hoping it stays that way). I just want some empathy, I guess. I don't really have friends, so there's no one for me to talk to. Feel free to respond however you'd like, though. Just want some feedback :~( hope all of you are doing alright... Been forever since I posted here.