I feel like I always end up falling in love with people with such complicated mental health issues. I keep hearing everyone from my past has gone off the deep end way too many times. I feel helpless and now as I sit here feeling sick to my stomach thinking of everyone I watched fall into the darkness. Now I’m being faced with another situation, my fiancé’s mental health is quickly falling apart.

I’m tired of arguing with her about things that aren’t even real. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t catch a break. No matter how much I love her or try to support her I end up being treated like the bad guy and feeling shame and guilt for things that I shouldn’t feel guilt about.

I don’t have anyone to talk to about this that knows us because she doesn’t want my friends to know her demons. I feel alone so much of the time now.

Where are all of you? You know the ones that deal with this daily. Who love those who struggle?