i don’t know if anyone can relate but i am aware that i have a very unhealthy coping mechanism yet i can’t change it. I often have mood swings and when i’m down i feel numb and really anxious so i just pretend nothing around me exist. I shut down completely, i hide under my bedsheets for the entire day and i exit my bedroom just for lunch or dinner when i try to look put together for my parents. I have so much schoolwork to do and i can’t do it, all i do is dissociate completely from reality to feel less pain. I think I will fail in school if i continue like that, no one know anything at school so they might just think i’m lazy.