IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED
IM SO TIRED OF MY BRAIN NOT BEING ABLE TO PROCESS AND HANDLE CONFLICT
IM SO TIRED OF TRYING SO HARD AND STILL FEELING LIKE THIS
IM SO TIRED OF ALWAYS FEELING SLIGHTLY SAD IF NOT FULL BLOWN CRIPPLING SADNESS
ive been fighting so long and so hard. I just keep getting up and trying again. But i don’t feel better. And what the fuck is the point to all of this if i don’t feel better? i don’t want to live my life in this mental state. i don’t want to live if this is how it’s going to be. But i decided years ago suicide was selfish so don’t worry, i’ll probably just do nothing. 

