The past 8 years has been a slow decline. Before I could feel upset or sad or if I was angry towards someone else it wasn’t that bad. Didn’t even know anger could be a symptom of depression until recently. 

I am constantly angry and annoyed. I yell at situations that have happened, or what I think is happening, or being paranoid that someone hates me and they’re lying about their excuses of why they can’t hang out. 
I never say this to them or are angry in front of people. 
But It’s like I don’t trust anyone anymore and can only think negatively. I get mad and cry and talk so much shit to myself about how shitty I am or about how other people don’t care. 🙄
I would take being sad right now. It’s so much easier to deal with. 

If it gets worst. What’s next.