Starting week 3 of 150mg Wellbutrin XR and 30mg paroxetine. I was put on antidepressants in 2017, started with 20mg paroxetine. Up until this year it kept my anxiety and depression at bay, but I did have trouble traveling or staying places that weren’t home. This year I had enough of my mental health holding me back and in the end of September I upped to 30Mg paroxetine. First week I felt hopeful then about every other week seemed to get better then worst. Better than worst…. 3 weeks ago I started feeling really tired and depressed. I was getting crippled with anxiety and depression which led me to cry all day and drive aimlessly. I reached out to my psychiatrist and he started me on 150mg wellbrutrin along with my 30mg paroxetine. I have finished two weeks with the new medication and last week seemed to be better than the week before by a lot. These last few days have been uneasy but nothing like before. 

My problem is I start to get anxious or depressed and I instantly start worrying that the medication is not going to work. If it doesn’t then I have to wait another 8 weeks trying something else. I started CBT 2 weeks ago as well, which definitely helps with my cognitive thinking. I have learned a few meditation practices and also a few personal crutches that help. 

I’m wondering if anyone has insight on going through this process. I keep thinking back to when I wasn’t having issues but still on anti depressants. I would be living in the present, truly enjoying life and not worried all the time about feeling anxious or depressed. Ever since this year with these feelings and thoughts have caused so much displeasure in my life.