I relapsed self harming tonight. It had been 2-3 months which was really good for me. My medication is breaking bad and I’ll call my doctor like a responsible adult tomorrow but right now all I can think is fuck I missed this. I missed the blood and the pain and the empty calm that follows. I’ve been trying so hard to get better and it feels like a weight lifting to admit I still want and need this. Can you be addicted to self harm?