I've been thinking about this topic and discussing it with my therapist. Do you ever feel like the mental processes that shape our daily life are completely unrecognizable compared to someone 'normal'? 


I often feel like the contents of my thoughts contain so much unfiltered bullshit such as questioning things, re-questioning and analyzing everything, along with an 'abstract' emotionally-laden way of thinking. It's almost as if my thoughts aren't made up of sentences but surges of emotions and impulses.


I feel like people with BPD use a whole lot more energy on basic processes and thoughts than usual, even though on the outside they seem to be doing nothing special. People without BPD seem to have a sort of smoother course through things - maybe they do overthink as well, but they have some sort of coherence that I myself often feel that I lack. I sometimes feel that I will never go back to this 'simpler' and more pleasant and normal way of existing. Also, I often feel like I am missing out on life due to the chaos in my head.


What are your thoughts on this? How do you feel your mental processes would compare to an average non-BPD person?