It’s not been a long day, it’s been a hard life and tbh I am on the verge of cracking. I pushed myself so hard and nobody was there to congratulate me when I was doing better and now I’m miserable, alone and on the verge of panic everyday. I’ve lost 2 jobs in less than a year, my doctors don’t take me seriously and I’ve started To SH after 5 years of stopping. It’s an endless list but something that hurts the most is knowing the only place I can even “talk” about is on Reddit of all places, all because I threw everyone away. Life is feeling like a really really bad bad dream rn and I’m scared and nobody is here and I don’t think I have time to get the help I need. Why won’t anyone in my life respond. Did I really manage to isolate myself this much? I need my job and I need to be good why can’t I do these things why