No one will probably see this but right now i feel like shit i feel like such an idiot, awhile back i was lonely and asked my best friend if he knew any girls he could introduce me to, and he did, we started as friends and slowly became more at least i thought, i confessed that i liked her after my Friend pushed her to me, i fell in love soon after, but overtime she kept sending pictures to my best friend and he showed them to me and it really fucking bothered me, and i just kept quiet because in my head i told myself "Dont be stupid a girl finally noticed you just let it go" but then she kissed my best friend and i just forced myself to ignore it and move on, then my phone broke and Couldn't afford another for quite sometime, eventually months later i couldnt go on insta so i emailed her, i was so happy to see her, but slowly she forgot about me to hang out with the "New Guy" and my heart sank, so out of rage i told her that i left and to go fuck whoever she wants then, and left that was 9 months ago, now my best friend told me she gave him a vape a couple days ago and it got me so depressed and angry that she forgot about me and he still interacts with her, she just used me to get off and i hate that I HATE HER, i just feel like killing myself, whats the point?! i never hurt anyone yet everyone hates me everyone has used and abused me, bullied, i'm just tired i cant even live a normal life anymore after what they did to me, i'm just tired i cant even get up in the mornings or seep in the night rolling on my bed in pain suffocating on the horrible memories of getting cheated on and seeing her send him pictures and being used again and again i'm just tired.