I really can't live like this anymore.

I'm 25, my life is hell. I do a shitty low wage job, I live with my parents because I cant afford to move out, I have never had a friend or relationship.

I desperately wish I could improve my life and have a career. I wish I could get a better paying job and move out of my country. I wish I could get a degree maybe.

At my age , 25, anything I'd do would be too late. I'd finish a degree at 30 and  I'd be competing with 20yos for the same job. Employment agencies here are extremely ageist. 

I dont wanna do these shit jobs anymore. I dont wanna work in construction, or do deliveries for a few euros, or work long hours at a horrible factory.


I wanted my life to have meaning. Even if other people may be okay with this, I just cant. I cannot do this. I cannot live a life this way.