If it were true I would be doing better things now, I would be finishing college this year, so many attempts on lots of things, always fail or get outdone, everyone seems to be better than me on everything, why bother trying, at some point I had many plans, many ideas for new things of many places, now I don't even want to remember I had them, I'm just a dead weight for my family, making them waste money on me, I'm not worth it.