I'm 24M. I'm Quite Borderline. My friends and my student life kind of protected me from my loneliness till last year. I moved out of my abusive house this June. I had my friends after that. Now my 2 best friends are gonna get married and I feel all alone. They are still my friends and my cousins are supportive as well. I also have an FP who is an online friend. But I am unable to feel the closeness with anyone. 

The problem is all these people are my top priority. But in their lives, I am just an extended part. They have their own family, then their parents and then in-laws, and then me. I realize with time I'm gonna get farther and farther. Especially after they become parents themselves. I'm gonna become less and less relevant. It makes me sad. 

My urge to cut everyone off and never talk to anyone ever again is at an all-time high. I wish I was important to someone.  Someone's top priority. Someone's fav person. I just want someone to hug me and tell me that they love me. It makes me feel so stupid and pathetic. And I'm tired of feeling that way all the damn time. 

Does it get better? If so, when? Would the 30s be better? Does this loneliness ever stop hurting?