hi stranger. i am in my bed is 9 PM and i’m here alone watching a tv show with my mind at her. we broke up in september because it wasn’t working anymore, but i knew she left me for my friend, for the guy “i shouldn’t be afraid of”. i was completely devastated, i got very depressed for months. my only source of happiness was the gym. i started working out because i wanted to show her what she lost. i completely cut off conections with her and that guy and also with everyone who was related to that guy (we were in the same friends group) and lately i started to feel really good, i started to enjoy life again and things were just fine, until some days ago when i, like a loser, after some old friend begged me to unblock him to my others friends, i unblocked him. and he started to tell me about them, about how happy they are, etc. also that guy made me crazy for thiking he wants my girlfriend. (as a backstory long story short these 2 guys my ex and my old friend were talking NONSTOP all day long everyday, she was hiding from me, she was lying, she said he’s just a friend and called me psycho) both of them called me insane and and psycho and crazy because i was thinking they are actually flirting. well this guy told me about how happy they are and told me that i was right about them. it just broke me. i just can’t understand and i can’t see them 2 togheter. like everything that is happening now was happening in my nightmares and now it became reality and i just can’t live with this. 
i feel so goddamn lonely and betrayed..