Ever since I was a teenager (15-16) till now I’ve had a long battle with my hair. The truth is I just have bad hair. Bad genes. Bad hairline or  whatever. I know, I know, it’s just your hair! Get over it! My hair has always been bad the truth is there were just certain points in life where it was tolerable and I could ‘embrace’ it - now it’s just too bad I can’t seem to get over it. None of my friends have had this issue so I’m just the ‘guy with bad hair in the group’ a group I’m slowly disappearing from may I add. 
I tried the natural method beforehand - didn’t work. I also flew out to Turkey and got a procedure done - didn’t work. 

I can’t say I’m not exactly to blame. No real lifestyle changes. Commitment. Even when I got the procedure done it was during corona lockdown period (which seems non-existent) I took heavy drugs - weed etc  - didn’t get enough sunlight (due to being scared about going outside)

This issue is slowly destroying my life. I haven’t / can’t go outside (in my brain) without covering my hair - my family and friends say it’s ‘barely noticeable’ maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t but I know this cruel world we live in so I understand them lying to me to help me feel better. 

It’s affecting me badly now. I’m scared to work. Scared to go outside for a simple walk - When my friends visit me even if were inside -I’ll have my hoodie up indoors - durag on - under a constant paranoia my hair isn’t exposed. I’m sick of it man. Even at Christmas I was the only guy with a hoodie on. Durag on - I felt like a complete fool. 

I’ve missed important friends of mine - birthdays/parties/gatherings and so on because of this issue I’m already drowning in regret.

I don’t go on dates. I avoid any instance or possibility that my hair can be exposed. Summer I completely lock myself in. Even in university - when i would go out I would always wear a hat - IN THE SCORCHING HOT SUN or would always wait till it’s night outside before doing anything - I’m a virgin (kind of) haven’t had really any real relationship with anyone - I’m not comfortable in my own skin so I can’t even expect too but the point is. Girls always say what’s under the hat? Take off the hat? And I completely panic I would even completely stop talking too the person if I can’t avoid showing my hair.

I’m 21, a ‘man’ now. I need to get my sh*t together - I do not want a repeat of last year the depression and loneliness was too much. I want to achieve something this year no matter how minimal. 

My previous surgeon offered me a free procedure to be done again but I’m still considering. I just need to go there to have it done. I have the money and can do so but don’t know if I want to spend another year - ‘recovering’ or ‘locked’ down like that.  I was under a delusion my hair would be coming back and everything would be fine. I can’t go through that again. 

Has anyone experienced anything similar wish I could explain more as it’s extremely deep to me at least 
What should I do?
Options are pretty simple:

1. go bald
2. Work with whatever I have now - get haircuts - just accept and move on knowing I may not have my desired / wanted result. 
3. Go again for another procedure but ensure I take a different approach following it - eat healthy - get sunlight - workout etc.


Risk are simple. Working with what I have is fine but I’ll have to put up with too many gimmicks e.g hair dye, constant haircuts etc to make sure I look normal / presentable this is due to the fact my transplanted hair area will never be the same as the rest of my hair as thick or defined.
I got the procedure done to avoid doing all that so won’t really be too comfortable with this

Going again could work or the same thing could happen - it’s still a gamble. 


Bald - I’ll just have to get over the embarrassment and be confident bald. 
I have a baby face as I am 21 now people think I’m 16-18 don’t have any facial hair etc so I’ll literally be a bald 17 year old - either I get in shape to cancel it out or I work on other qualities.
PLEASE ANYONE LET ME KNOW ANY THOUGHTS OR OPINIONS you have.