My uncontrollable BPD is ruining my fucking life.
I've done DBT and it was great! I've made so much improvement, but it's not enough.

I've always been incredibly against fucking with the chemistry of my brain but I'm feeling extremely desperate. I feel terrified anticipating my next split. I don't want to keep hurting people I love. I think maybe, if antidepressants can help me, I'd like to go on medication.

If it helps, I don't really have any depressive symptoms. I'm generally a happy person with a positive outlook. But my impulsiveness and the splits are crazy intense. 