I am new to reddit and just really needed/wanted to find a support group who would maybe understand what I am feeling. 

I (21F) had recently gotten out of a long term relationship a couple months ago. i was fine at first bc i knew we would find way but it just hasnt happened idk. i had already made the mistake of reaching out too soon so i stopped trying bc i know if things are gonna work or meant to be it needs to be on its own. i just feel so depressed more and more everyday and im constantly trying to fill this missing piece. rn i am back home w my parents bc im back for the summer from college, i dont have many friends, honestly none at all and spend most of my days either at work or by myself drinking. i just dont have anyone to talk to. it sucks. and i honestly dont think im  a bad girl to talk to. im just afraid i might spiral, and idk what to do to fill this pain i have of the guy i lost due to honestly wrong timing. i have tried trying to do things i love like going the pool or working a ton of hours to distract myself but it only works for so long until im alone in my bed at night wondering where i went wrong. i have recently went to the bar scene to maybe to fill that w something that hasnt really done me well either. im kinda stuck and need of some support and ideas of how i can not let my mind get the best of me. i hope im doing this reddit thing right.