I've felt like this a lot, recently. And feeling so down, and so out of it, on top of that.

There's a tipping point, I guess, with my (ir)rational reasoning. Do I deserve it? Am I worth the effort it will take to complete the action? Will it change anything in the long run? And recently, it's no... and no... and no. 

Normally, me &gt; effort/trouble by a small margin, but lately it's me &lt; effort/trouble on a huge scale. Everything I have to do feels so huge and I feel so tiny. I bathe... sparingly. I eat, sparingly. Just enough to keep myself alive. I'm frustrated by the tiniest little setbacks and I give up frequently. 

I'm cutting a lot and I can't even bring myself to ask for help because I feel like people will say no because I'm more trouble than I'm worth.