I feel like I'm losing my mind. I've been under so much constant stress for the past month and a half it really started triggering my depression and bpd in the last week. As a result, I yesterday blew some things about my bf's recent behavior way out of proportions (ofc in the moment it seemed completely justified bc of that sweet sweet borderline rage...) and today I'm drowning in guilt and fear that when he replies to me he will tell me he's sick of my shit and wants to break up. 

I fucking hate this, because I know that I'd done pretty well managing stress up to this week. And now I let it get the best of me, fuel my irrational thoughts and all this. I feel weak and disgusting. And like I don't deserve to be loved anymore.