Just curious about other peoples experiences with impulsive thoughts during episodes.

I’ve only recently been told that I have Bipolar disorder. Ever since being put on an antidepressant I’m having more frequent episodes but less depression in between, so I’m hesitant to take it away. 

I’m finding that it’s getting harder to resist certain impulses. I see them in two groups: good and bad impulses. The good stuff would be like spending more than usual but not putting myself into stupid amounts of debt, being way more intimate with my partner, being more productive etc. So with those things I’m happy to let that play out. The bad stuff though would be dangerous impulsive thoughts. For me this mainly centres around dangerous/adrenaline based ideas and activities. Driving fast, thinking I could dodge traffic, and just stuff that people would think is odd like leaving a lunch to go pace/run around the car park. At the moment I feel like I have about 10% control left to resist these things and I have to try exceptionally hard not to give in or to try and turn it down a notch.