CW: Venting, Self harm, Suicide 

I (20) am so tired.I don’t have anyone at all
I can talk to about what’s going on in my head or anything because nobody can handle how bad I am. Not even my partner (also my fp) is able to listen to me anymore. 

I’m unable to get the professional help I need due to not having the funds as well as some other things. 

Two nights ago I think I had one of my worst breakdowns yet and I think I tried to kill myself. My breakdown was so bad that I was screaming and crying and it hurt so much. I haven’t been the same since. 

I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to get better nor will anyone ever be able to handle me. 

If anyone has any advice at all on how to deal with the emotions I’m feeling it would be greatly appreciated.