Well i'm not really sure how I got here... But I'm going to be hooking up with my ex boyfriend tonight. I know this is such a bad idea. I'm still in love with him but I don't think he feels the same anymore. Honestly I'm almost certain this is going to end in heartache for me. But I'm having trouble stopping myself. I just want to be close to him again, even if just for a moment. And he probably only wants me for my body now but... I can't bring myself to care. I'm being stupid. Why can't I stop?