Why is it extremely hard for me to express anything at all, when I even just THINK about a situation where I’m gonna have to say something about how I really feel I start to choke up like I can’t breath at all, like I’m being slowly suffocated. Lately I’ve been feeling like everything in the world is meaningless and that there isn’t a point to anything, nothing sounds fun or is fun and it feels almost like I’m not actually living and that this is all fake and that I’m just a spectator To it all. What does all this mean?