I’m sorry but I’ve lasted 16 years in this hell hole and I don’t think I could take any longer. The one fucking person who is supposed to care and love me never has she just provides the bare minimum and acts like I’m a piece of shit. She’s crushed all the passions I’ve had in life I used to love singing she crushed that. I start doing origami she starts saying it’s a crappy craft and a useless way to spend my time. She’s never once acknowledged my good behaviour only picks up when I do a little thing out of place. She used to take my electronics as punishment knowing they were the only thing helping keep me together. She’d blame me for things I’d never done or my sister had done right in front her , she’s never yelled at my sister only me. Before my sister was born she’d slap me if I talked when she didn’t want me to it was just ever so slightly noisy. I’m terrified of her and last night while I was asleep, which is a rarity for me as it is so damn hard to fall asleep, she charged into my room to my electronics again yelling that I shouldn’t be on them at night even though i wasn’t. I couldn’t get back to sleep so I was awake from 1:30 am. She continued to yell at me today and wouldn’t listen to me she doesn’t believe a fucking thing I say. I just can’t take it anymore I’m so exhausted from faking myself to please her and having to fake a smile anytime im out with her I just can’t take it anymore 
I’m sorry if this is long ...