I have been offered a job out of state to the exact city my SO just moved to. He was going to work at convincing me to move out to him and then I got the job I interviewed for. I thought I wouldn’t get it, I applied for the hell of it. I accepted it and my life is changing so fast and I’m so scared of it being the wrong decision. It’s my dream job I’ve applied to this job so many times in different places but the same company and interviewed a few times and I can’t believe it’s finally happening. I am so grateful but I can’t shake the worry and stress that comes with this. I feel I will struggle affording living there. I always have anxiety with rent and living costs. So much uncertainty, I feel anxiety at spending more than I have before on rent, and because he just moved out here and signed a lease we can’t live together yet. That bums me out. He plans to propose and then move in with me after his lease ends but even trusting him I’m having this fear that everything will all end like it always has in the past relationships. He says I’m the one and wants to marry me and I feel over the moon, he’s an amazing man. And I love him so much that I’m afraid of going there and somehow it all falling to pieces. 😣 I’m afraid he will change his mind and then I’ll be alone in a strange town away from family and friends. 😣