I don't know what to do anymore. I feel sad and cry all the time, and it makes me feel guilty. I only have one friend, and I pretend to be alright in front of him, because I fear my depression will drive him away. I know nobody likes to hang out with someone who is sad all the time. 

I shouldn't be feeling this way. I have a loving family, I'm taking my medication, I'm seeing a therapist, I have one good friend, I'm in university, etc. I should be happy, but no matter what I do, I do not feel any pleasure or excitement. 

I feel like I'm a failure. I have no talents, no interesting hobbies, no intelligence, nothing. I'm completely average and boring, and I hate it with all my being. I wish I wasn't so scared of death, because then I could finally end my life.