I am in college right now... approximately 400 km away from home.
I don't know if I am depressed. I just feel empty everytime. Like I have friends, I talk to them..I laugh with them...I spend time with them but whenever I am alone I just go expression less or just empty. I just feel sad everytime and have a constant urge to cry.
Whenever someone is telling me something...i just nod without even concentrating on what he or she is saying. I can't make myself to concentrate on a particular topic. 
I am just feeling lost. Like I am just acting like a programmed robot. Just wake up..go to college..come back to your room...sleep and this cycle continues.  
I can't find a single moment where I am genuinely happy. 
I just try to act happy and jolly in front of everyone.

Also, i can't make myself to tell someone all this because I just feel like they will judge me or I'll be just wasting their time because all of this sounds like a rant to me.

Anyways I am just feeling empty.