Social anxiety has ruined my life. It has stolen so much from me. I rarely had a lot of friends and I was always an outcast. Always had trouble making friends. Too shy to ask for help causing me to make mistakes or not understand at school. Too shy and scared to stand up for myself so people would bully and walk all over me. At 22 I have barely gone to order food by myself and have never been in a store by myself. I still have my parents drive me to appointments and answer calls for me from doctors. I have only had 2 jobs in my life and I am currently unemployed because I’m too anxious of looking stupid at an interview even if it’s for minimum wage. I have done online school the past 2 years because I am too afraid to be back in a classroom and feel invisible. I dread having to go back on public transportation and having to see people. I had a few acquaintances from work but since I quit a few months ago the only people I talk to are family. I have no friends and I haven’t in over 2 years. Never been in a relationship and no one has ever shown interest in me. I doubt I’d ever be in a relationship my social anxiety makes me boring. I don’t want to travel, go to restaurants, clubs, bars, go concerts or go to music festivals because I know I will be anxious and not fun. I feel like such a loser. I am extremely lonely but I fear meeting new people and being rejected. My confidence is shot because of my social anxiety. I can barely function in social settings and always make a fool of myself. I dread going to simple appointments like the dentist, haircut etc. I don’t leave my house except if it’s to visit family. Have a phone for no reason since I have no one to call or text. I think suicide is my only option. I feel so sad all the time thinking about what I could be or what life could be if I didn’t have social anxiety.