I was diagnosed with autism two years ago, but I think I've been misdiagnosed and think it's BPD that's causing my social issues. I'm always very nervous IRL, being extremely careful with what I say to people in case I say something hurtful or stupid, find it very difficult to keep conversations going and my mind goes blank. I really struggle with speaking in general and people often call me "boring" and that I have "no personality." I'm only comfortable and my true self in my own safe space at home. I'm not even my true self around my parent, although I am mostly. I've been getting out more often in the last 4 years as I used to be a hermit before then and never went out. I've improved very gradually and other people have noticed it, but I'm still very socially awkward. I always feel inferior to people and I get too nervous on dates where I don't say very much. Other people say they're socially awkward and it confuses me because they're very talkative and "normal" when I see them. People can clearly see my issues when I meet them and it sucks. I just want to be able to enjoy socialising, but I always dread socialising no matter what. I absolutely hate seeing friends of friends or friends of partners because I just don't know what to say and become almost mute due to nerves and not knowing the person well. This always turns partners off. I always prefer one-to-one interactions. Is anybody else similar? Also, does BPD cause social difficulties?