for reference I am diagnosed with bp2, ocd, and gad. I am going to be screened for ptsd soon. I’ve always felt like I was special (gets worse while manic) but that I have some divine purpose and i can’t shake this feeling. My birth was strange, i get lots of angel numbers of my birthday all the time and when my mom was pregnant she got a psychic reading that said I would be an indigo child which i relate to, i was very creative, impressively so. This just feeds into this thought. at the same time i hate myself and am gonna commit suicide sometime in early april. I feel like my divinity was wasted on me. That whoever did this to me picked the wrong person because i just can’t handle it. even though i am in a depressed episode right now i can’t shake the feeling that i’m here to do something more, and that people will remeber my name. I’ve suffered from delusions and psychosis before, is this just apart of that? or are the signs i see and hear true? While manic i feel like i am apart of god