i’ve been struggling with mental health for the last 10 years (22 now) and recently got rediagnosed and the diagnosis was bipolar which i always thought but that’s besides the point. i have been on a new medicine in addition to lamictal that i was taking before and i don’t know if it has anything to do with what’s going on but in the last week i feel out of my mind. nothing feels real and i don’t feel like any version of myself, i’m hearing things, i’m paranoid, i don’t see the point in continuing seeking help. i’m aware of these feelings though and i’m scared because i have an overwhelming feeling that i’m going to do something bad but i don’t know what that is. i don’t think reaching out to my psychiatrist will help soon enough. all the mental institutions near me seem awful from reviews and personal accounts i’ve heard. i don’t know what my options are here. i’m considering just taking myself to the regular hospital but i haven’t been there for mental health stuff since i was much younger. what would happen if i did that? is it even something that would help me immediately or be beneficial or should i just message my psychiatrist and try to wait it out?