I (30f) am on medication and doing therapy with an amazing therapist. I eat super healthy and I exercise. I feel like I'm making progress. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do. Still, I feel my anxiety skyrocketing at night. It's always some stupid shit. Rationally I know everything is OK but I still can't help being consumed by fear. It's been like this for the last 15 years and I wonder if it will be like this forever? Will I become wiser and more experienced and generally better at ignoring these fears? I'm so done with living with these catastrophic scenarios in my mind. I just need to know that the time, effort and money I'm investing in getting better will pay off eventually. I'm so tired.