Hello. I'm diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type. 
Currently unmedicated and coming out of psychotic period. Have had bad reactions to the last 2 antipsychotics I took, one seems to have spurred this episode. 
I am still seeing a psychiatrist and getting DNA tested to see what medication I will have a good reaction to. 

As I am coming out of psychosis I am aware some of my spirituality may be hallucinations or delusions. Like my visions of Greek and Hindu deities, and feelings of having interacted or been blessed by them. 

Upon researching schizophrenia and religion, I found that we are equally likely as the average person to be spiritual in some way. So in that regard, we actually think similar to the majority of the population. So, does that make spiritualism beneficial to schizophrenics, or could it worsen symptoms?

I'm worried that denying my spirituality may be as bad as accepting it. Wondering if anyone is pagan or spiritual and has tips on balancing psychosis and their souls journey? Has anyone felt benefited by being atheist over spiritual? Or do you feel spirituality is helpful to curb symptoms? Other thoughts? 

I want to get better and get treatment. I also want to make sure I don't have break through symptoms. But I will miss seeing the Gods 😭