so I made a post earlier( you can go to my page if you’d like to read). 

I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t know how to tell my mom how i’m feeling. In the past we’ve been to so many doctors and the ER and overall just spent a lot of money. We’ve never gotten an answer about anything. I don’t know how to tell her how I feel because she always just says it’s anxiety you’ll be fine. I feel like such a burden and i know people are annoyed with my complaining. 

It’s just lately it’s so different how I feel. I kinda feel numb emotionally. I don’t know who I am anymore. The feeling of impending doom is getting worse. I’m just overall lost. I have a really hard time explaining it to people because I feel like it makes no sense. 

I also cant stop thinking about dying which is causing my anxiety to go crazy. The fact that you can be enjoying your day having fun and just suddenly die in crazy. I don’t want to die. These thoughts are taking over my life. I just want my old self back but I’m not sure I know who that is anymore.