I 19M have never been diagnosed with an ED and I don’t necessarily believe I have one either, however, my eating is very disordered and definitely not healthy. I have always struggled with my self-image, especially my body and weight. Almost a year ago, I started restricting what I ate, skipping meals, and just lost my appetite in general. I started losing weight, I lost so much that everyone around me noticed and often pointed it out. My parents became concerned and consistently asked if I was taking something to lose weight, which I wasn’t. Some of my friends even asked if I was losing weight healthily, alluding to an ED. I even noticed some physical symptoms such as losing body hair, a huge decline in my gum health, easily bruising, etc. One thing that did help me through this time and stopped me from losing more weight than I did is marijuana. It gave me an appetite even when I didn’t want to eat. The past month or two, I have been doing much better and was keeping a consistent weight. However, last week I stopped smoking and I think I would have been fine if I didn’t stop right when I was having a depressive episode but I did and I have not had an appetite in days. I’ve not eaten a full meal in days, all I have been able to eat is a little bit here and there. I’m sure that I’m going to start losing weight again and even though I want to, I know it’s not healthy at all. I also know I’m not going to have an appetite without marijuana but I can’t smoke it right now and don’t know what to do.