I haven’t ever been diagnosed specifically with BPD but I’m fairly sure I have it. I know I have abandonment issues from my childhood and past relationships which I know often brings BPD along with that.

How will I go about discussing it with my therapist? 
I’m nervous I might freeze up and not explain the full truths of things because I don’t know her yet/ trust her and being vulnerable is hard. I sometimes fake it til I make it with people. Or make it hard for them to read me by putting on a bubbly personality. It’s like my real thoughts are completely out the window and only show up when I’m alone or with people I am close my FP’s.

Can anyone give me some helpful tips and advice?