
M(20) here, I recently broke up with my then fiancé (F 21.) She was very emotionally abusive to me, threatening to commit suicide and blame it on me, as well as hurting me and destroying my possessions/car. This is the night I drew the line in the sand. She is moving out this weekend. 

I feel a sense of relief and happiness to be alone and safe and finally be myself. 

However, I have had so many feelings of depression since. I am glad to be out of it, I’m not going back. It’s just upsetting that I’m now all alone. She took all my friends from me when we started dating about 1 year 10 months ago. Now that she’s gone, I have nobody. Everyone is gone. All my old friends are in new relationships or so far into their lives and I feel awkward reaching out. 

I keep feeling like I’ll never find anyone again. I don’t miss her at all, not when she has done the things she did. I just feel like I will never be back in a situation where there is love as it has been so long. For the back half our relationship I was nothing but miserable and depressed. 

I want to try to reach out and make new friends and meet new people. I just worry I’ll be accused of not actually loving her(not true, I literally pampered her) or that I move on way too quick(not looking to date, but I want to put myself far from this trauma). 

I just want advice on what I should do, I’m tore in so many different rejections yet I don’t wanna look like an asshole or something like that because I want to meet new people to feel the gaping voids in my life. 

TLDR: Suffering from a variety of emotions after leaving an emotionally abusive relationship