I spent all day today crying on and off. I feel like I don't have any purpose in life except to take care of an animal and now I don't have one. I'm already seriously considering getting a guinea pig and I don't know if that's crazy or not. I skipped DBT group tonight because I was so depressed.

Yesterday my parents got mad at me for wearing a tank top because you could see a little bit of my bra. They told me I couldn't go out like that and I told them they are fucking retarded if they are trying to tell a 23 year old what to wear. I was definitely not using at my skills and I said "it doesn't fucking matter what I wear" with emphasis on "fucking" and as soon as I said that my dad slammed his fist down on the counter and started charging towards me and it freaked me the fuck out because I thought he was going to hit me. I haven't blown up like that in a really long time. What my parents need to understand is they don't have to respond the same way to me as I act towards them. I try really hard not to go off on people but sometimes I just get so angry.