I don’t have any close friends so I met someone on bumble-bff nearby. She was amazing, never met someone I had so much in common with personality+interests and enjoyed talking to besides my partner. We played games and went and got coffee together, and I was so insanely happy for the first time in forever. But because I was trying so hard to keep talking to her and be a part of her life, so lonely and seeking validation and self-worth from her, I overreached. She felt I was progressing our relationship unnaturally quickly and not respecting her boundaries as she was going through a tough time, causing her too much additional stress. And she was 100% right. 

But I didn’t get another chance, even though I know I could have dialed it back to keep what we had. She cut me off and in just a few days our weeks-long friendship was gone. Feel like if my attachment issues just shut up for a few days I could have made an amazing friendship, but now it’s too late. I’ve cried and felt destroyed every day since. Not many people are like me and although I keep searching I still have yet to find anyone else that I truly connect with. Really wishing I could turn back time right now. Maybe in a few months I’ll try and talk to her again, and hopefully have grown a lot with therapy, self-reflection and this experience, but I think the chance she’d want to be my friend again is like &lt;1%.

so uhh.. any place I can meet other mentally ill nerds that are nice… google isn’t showing me a good friend-finding app with that niche~