I hate myself, my boyfriend has been missing a lot in his job because of me. Either I'm depressed, hallucinating, paranoid, afraid of abandonment, there's always something and that's just not right. He works from home, has a nice salary, he can not loose this job, it's just too good.
Is there a medication to help me with fear of abandonment? Idk, I'm going to the ER tomorrow because I have a letter from when I was suicidal and cut myself  a week or two ago, so I'll see how it goes.