Was in a four-year romantic relationship with best friend who ended said relationship a few weeks ago.

Now every night I just close my eyes and can't stop picturing them getting boned by other people even though (1) they probably aren't yet, as it was a rough time for them too, (2) who cares if they are, we're not in a relationship anymore, (3) i know it's irrational and unhealthy.

i've been just trying to drown my brain in computer games but i can't stop picturing this shit. what do, y'all?