I really started to notice this when I began dating my GF coming up on a year now, I really like her a lot and I know she feels the same. Right before we made it official I found a comment of hers basically saying she wants to go back to Miami as a “joke” because of this guy she finds cute. I told her I didn’t like that and ever since then it’s never happened again, but now I can’t help but go through her following and compare myself to the guys she finds attractive. I often ask myself what do these guys have that I don’t? And it kills my confidence. I notice I become very distant to her and I feel as if I want revenge, but honestly I just want to love myself.

Ever since I’ve dedicated myself to trying to love myself and being better by going to the gym and I’ve been feeling better but I get little triggers and flashbacks of that and I feel like shit. My GF does compliment me but most of them I don’t even believe or accept.