Hi everyone. I need some serious feedback as I’m at a total loss. I haven’t felt this anxious in my entire life, thinking of suicide, can’t come up with things to talk to my loved ones about, decision making, just feels like my brain is dead.

So I started with Abilify and after about a month I tapered off and stopped using it due to a lot of negative side effects I was experiencing. Always fatigued, weight gain, anxiety. I went 12 days without it  and the symptoms just got worse. So I had an appointment with my doctor and let her know and she prescribed 20mg of Latuda. 

Today is my second day of being on it, and while it’s the lowest dose possible, I feel like my anxiety has reached almost paralysis like levels. I’m still thinking of suicide, depressed, very tired and it’s even difficult writing this because I know I’m missing out so many things but I just don’t have the cognition. Nothing brings me joy. My dopamine levels and receptors seemed fried from the Abilify, I don’t even know what to say. I’m incapable of planning my day past the next task and I don’t know how I’m able to work more than 3 hours at a time. I really don’t want to take another dose tonight because I feel like it’s just getting worse.

Any feedback is appreciated. Thank you in advance.