I have been on a consistent downward spiral as of late, I am paranoid, angry, depressed, hearing voices, and isolating myself from the rest of the world. At night I experience the worst of my symptoms and also experience extreme sleep Anxiety. I will specifically try to go to bed super early to try and counteract the horror of laying in bed from 9PM to like 8AM with my brain screaming horrible things at me and then feeling too weak to move for the rest of the day. It is basically like I lose a full day of my life which just leads to more misery and pain. It feels like I forgot how to sleep as strange as that may sound. I just want to have a normal happy life but my mental state is destroying every single aspect of it. I take medication for my issues and am currently in the process of changing medication to see what will work so it could potentially be a factor in all this but I started the whole process because I was feeling this way. I want to go to in-patient care but they won't take anyone unless they are considered a danger to themselves or others. I just want to be at peace