When I was young, I would often get beatings. Not following what I was told to? *BAM* spilling my drink? *BAM* Not understanding my homework? *BAM* Stuttering? *BAM*

I had to go through crap since 4. He wasn't a human. He's a monster. I have this habit that I do everytime I got hit. I would go sit at a corner of a hidden room and cup my ears. I would say " Please go away" until I fall asleep on the floor.

I'm 18 now and I still have this habit. My sister thought I was going nuts and told my mom about me looking like a resident of a mental asylum. I'm not crazy, it's the ptsd I obtained.