My ears are sensitive to noises. Even muffled vacuums, phone rings, etc. for more than a few seconds can cause me great stress. The majority of my childhood memories consists of being beaten, being yelled at, arguments, disturbing fantasies, and eerie videos on YouTube where I find escapism. My mother was cursing to herself today about how her husband is always hassling, always getting impatient, being hypocritical, etc. Suddenly then I get the desire to sew her mouth or cut off her tongue. 

Those two keep telling me how I have to tell them my troubles &amp; concerns so that they can "help" me. That's some fine BS there. Do you remember back when you used to beat me and threaten to abandon me (and actually tried going through with it)? Do you remember that when you did that sh\*t knowing full where that I have extreme fears of betrayal and abandonment? Do you remember that time when I threaten to report you and you call me "sick"? Do you? I won't bother to spell it out anymore. Go f\*ck yourself.