I’m so fucking anxious all the time, it’s killing me. I felt great last august, no panic attacks for over a year and my social anxiety disappeared so I came off my meds. Within 4 weeks I was back on them and haven’t been right since.

The trazodone stopped working, so I went on mirtazapine and gained 2 stone in as many months so I came off that and went on agomelatine, my anxiety was increasing severely so my gp put me back on Trazodone on the 3rd March (but only after keeping me on agomelatine for 6 weeks which is basically a placebo pill).

I’ve been in a&amp;e 4 times in 2 weeks having a panic attack, they give me like 1 2mg tablet of diazepam and send me on my way. My gp refuses to give me any even though it’s so severe I can’t get out of bed, never mind leave the house.

I don’t know what to do, these levels of terror aren’t sustainable and nobody seems to want to help or prescribe me the one thing that helps. I’m also in the UK, which is awful for mental health services. No techniques help because I’m so anxious I can’t think about anything else other than heart attacks and dying with it.

I’m so tired.