This afternoon and evening, I have actually felt "normal" for the first time in at least two months. I feel happy, hopeful, alert, alive. The past couple months have been ridiculously difficult. A giant blurry haze of mess and pain. I know that it may last a few days, a few hours, a few minutes, but I am most definitely enjoying this moment! I wish I could feel like this every day, and I suspect some people do. I might envy them a little. Maybe a lot. Although, I also have to think that maybe they don't truly appreciate feeling this way because to them it's the everyday thing, and they don't know how lucky they are. For me it's something special. Maybe someday it won't be. Wishful thinking, probably, but... ahhhh! 

I hope any of you are having the kind of day I had. Nothing spectacular other than feeling really decent. Good enough! 

Hugs to you all! You are all wonderful people, in case you have forgotten. :)