I'm sorry for ranting so much this week but I need to get it out. BPD can suck my dick. How do neurotypicals work a full time job and not go insane? I worked one full time week. I'm now sick, exhausted, impatient, and emotionally unstable (not like that wasn't a thing before though lol you get me). I'm mad. Why can't I get my life together by working and saving money like everyone else? If I work a full time job, I can't have a social life because I need to sleep legit 12 hours or more every night just to combat the exhaustion. It's either that or drink coffee and do everything I should be able to do and get this amount of tired at the end of every week. And I still didn't do everything I needed to do. My dishes are piled up, I need to clean the kitty litter, and laundry and kleenex is all over my house. I wanna be a neurotypical so bad. I don't think they realize how lucky they have it that they can work, have a pet, invest in family and relationships, have a hobby, and other things going on and not feel overly stimulated. I'm tired of feeling so overwhelmed so easily. Fuck my life. I hate living like this. I wanna be free.