I’m 17 and Iv been depressed since I was 13. There’s been minor ups but pretty much for no reason at all I just don’t want to exist. Iv had drug problems in the past. Mainly because they made me feel like I actually wanted to be alive usually. Even the comedowns were better than sober because at least I was distracted from my own self pity. I have no friends really. I only have one who is my best friend and honestly I don’t even know why he likes me but he does and at least I have that. I know people always say it’s your fault for not having friends but for me I get no pleasure out of being social and so I don’t talk to people but then I still end up being extremely lonely. My only escape from it all is drugs. I plan on killing myself from overdose. I’m going to buy lots and lots of drugs. Heroin, molly, meth, perks. Any thing that makes me feel good. And then I’m just going to purposely overdose. Iv overdosed before and I survived but if I didn’t I know it would be an easy death. I don’t need you to try to convince me not to do it I’m just curious if anyone else on here feels like this somtimes