I’m super lonely and I feel like I have so many emotions bottled up inside me. 

Last night I wished I had my childhood teddy bear with me. I always slept with him in my arms for years (like until I was 12) and he always made me feel safe and secure. I want to just hug him and cry for the first time in years. 

I know he’s in a box somewhere at my mom’s place. But I’m worried that if I found him I just wouldn’t feel the same again, and I’d just be a grown man hugging a stuffed animal wishing life could be easy again. 

Pretty pathetic, huh?