I’m diagnosed with BPD and have often jumped from hobby to hobby but have kept an interest in art all of my life. I’m good at it and even got a degree in it? Except I don’t know if I actually like it? I don’t even like the process of creating art just for the sake of creating art. Sure it’s pretty enjoyable but at the end of the day I just care about the end product. I don’t even draw for fun I just get a once-a-year wave of motivation where I draw 9-12 hours straight everyday and I post them and I get attention and I feel happy. My therapist always encourages me to draw because I said I wanted to pursue a career in it but I just don’t want to and I feel like a fake.