A couple weeks ago I (21 F) had a bad trip to some laced weed. It was horrible. I was anxious, the world was distorted, and as I laid down to relax, I kept having paranoid thoughts that someone was going to rape me, and images of my dad raping me. It was terrifying. I’ve had issues with my father my entire life. He was emotionally abusive and would sexually abuse me in the sense that he would watch me shower and sleep in my bed with me. He was always drawn to me, I was his “favorite”, and it definitely has effected my mental health. I have depression and have suffer with anorexia for about 10 years now. 

Those images I had, scared me because now I think maybe they were repressed memories? I’m scared to bring it up with my therapist because I’m so in denial. I have trouble with my sex life. I have trust issues, body issues, and sometimes the mere thought of having sex with a man scared me. And I’m thinking maybe this is why? 

Any advice?