I'm 15 with major depression because of events of the past 6 months, during those 6 months I lost friends, sports I did, and myself. My Mom signed me up for golf and is buying me clubs, glove, balls, etc... for it and i'm just not sure if I should go through with golf or not I'm trying to look forward to it but every time I do I wanna cry because I don't deserve all this stuff because I don't need it. I've also expressed I don't want spending the money they were saving for a camera for me. (I only wanted a camera so I can have a hobby and do something for myself and overall for my mental health and I normally don't ask fro things) and My parents have bought me all this stuff but i'm still not sure if I wanna go through because I feel like i should take time to myself for a while also i'm not even sure if i'm going to be able to do golf because i'm under a suspicion i'm getting another surgery again meaning I won't be able to follow through with golf.  If you were in my shoes how would handle this?