Long story short…

I’ve battled depression most of my life, as well as severe GAD.

This month has been a real test of adversity.

My grandpa died, my dad almost died and now has to be put into a home. Me and my girlfriend got COVID-19 and it completely  ruined our anniversary vacation plans. And then today I find out after 3 months of being strung along that I didn’t get a job I was really hoping for, that would have saved me hours of commuting, gas, and has a higher pay. I’m just not happy with life rn and wish I could wake up tomorrow and be born as someone else.

I’m genetically challenged- mental disorders up the wazoo, short, bald, history of heart problems and blood pressure issues in the family along with cancer, etc.

I just want out and would give anything to do so.

I feel like a waste of a human being and that I’m better off gone.
Seriously considering medically assisted euthanasia to be done with it once and for all.