I’m 23F, recently treated for adhd, I believe I have c-ptsd. I’ve struggled on and off with restrictive and binge eating disorders since I was a kid. In 2019 I started drinking alcohol and it ended up becoming a binge drinking problem.

I quit binge drinking in November, started taking adhd medication in February. I’ve been saving money, did taxes, ate somewhat normally, was able to start working on my hobbies again.
I’ve been keeping up with work and not getting suicidal anymore. I’m nearly saved up to move out of an apartment I don’t like and/or get a vehicle as well. I usually have bad skin but I was starting to clear it up before compulsive skin picking messed it up a little.
I’m already thinking about how I want to decorate if I manage to get a house in 2021 and dedicate a space in it to my artistic hobbies. 

But recently I’ve been feeling a bit off. Feeling guilty or sick/bloated when I eat. Getting anxious, needing to lose weight to feel comfortable and just generally feeling empty. I’m doing good and just need to keep going in a positive direction for a few more months to see the work I’ve been doing pay off. Another thing I noticed is that I want to start drinking again.
Things are going well so I don’t understand why this is happening. I have a bug phobia so expect that to contribute some stress but still I should be in a more positive mood than this. I quit taking wellbutrin because I felt it wasn’t making a big difference so I hope it’s not related to that, I don’t like wellbutrin. I hope they’re just minor mood swings and why do I want to be drunk when I haven’t even considered it in months.