An outburst. It was because my dog has a lump growing near her groin and no matter how hard I try, no matter what, she still eats the shit outside. The nasty, dirty thrown food outside- the stuff that could literally kill her at any given moment.

It drives me crazy. She ate something, I yelled at her, then SHE TRIED EATING SOMETHING ELSE- and I flipped out. 

I hope the block doesn't think I'm a fucking lunatic. You have no idea how S T R E S S F U L this fucking is. She has a vet appointment on Saturday. I love in Baltimore. People here are careless and litter. I love my baby. I don't want her to fucking DIE. 

My throat hurts and I feel so bad toward her. I apologized to her and gave her hugs and kisses when I got home. It's just... Jesus Christ. I flipped. I couldn't even see my outburst coming.