I can't take it anymore, I'm tired of people walking over me and treating me like shit. I've had a really painful past, but even though I experienced that, I always treated people with kindness. But I'm fucking tired of being the nice guy, everyone always insults me at everything I do, they always brag to me about things I don't have(whether it's items or skills) and they always act like they're better than me and that I'm below them.

 I just want to fucking yell and let everything out that I have bottled up inside. Throughout my life I've been bullied both physically and mentally, and because of my medical condition I'm not able to fight back. I feel useless and that I have no purpose in life, I don't want to be here anymore. 

All my cousin ever does is tell me how much better he is than me, academically, physically, etc. He's able to play sports(because of my condition I'm not able to play sports at all), and today when we hopped on the game it was not stop insults and I got fucking tired of it. I was playing the game to get away from it, not to experience it.

 I can’t take it anymore, no one cares about me, I'm depressed, and have no purpose in life at all.