its been a couple of days since he told me that. and for some reason im not totally losing it. I cried for about 30 minutes afterward but after that.. I kinda just forgot about it? I didn't forget about it of course and im still thinking of it but it hasn't absolutely destroyed me and driven me to contemplate suicide yet like rejection usually does. last time I got abandoned by someone (the same guy) I made plans to commit suicide and I wrote my suicide note and everything. (how I stopped myself from actually going through with it is a rly long story that would take too long to share). Like im upset but im not absolutely destroyed which is my normal reaction to this type of stuff. im afraid that im just suppressing the pain right now and one day something will trigger it and all the repressed emotions come out in a fit of rage or something. im just really suspicious