Basically I heard from my SO that my FP plans on contacting me again. SO and FP and my therapist are my main support network while recovering from my eating disorder. 

I went through hell for weeks trying to figure out why FP suddenly stopped talking to me, or only responding curtly to surface level conversations. I felt betrayed because FP promised never to abandon me and that's exactly how that felt like. 

SO said that apparently FP stopped contact so that I could open up more to my therapist. So FP was trying to help. But from my perspective, by not letting me know why, it was abandonment and kind of rude and disrespectful. It could have been an adult conversation so that I wouldn't have tortured myself and got depressed but instead I felt betrayed.

Anyway by FP leaving it actually helped. T was able to discover codependency and enmeshment, attachment issues, symptoms of deeper problems that we are now slowly solving. One way is to not use FP as a "container" for my emotions, not to use them as a crutch or to have them validate and comfort me. Because those are things I have to do for myself.

SO says FP may well contact me soon. I think I would like to have an honest conversation about what happened but without getting dramatic. We're all very close, FPs family and mine, we have a ton of mutual close contacts so "splitting" from FP and ghosting is not an option.

 But at the same time Im worried that by talking, I will regress when I've already made progress by not constantly dumping emotional voicemails her way for the last month and actually working on my self. 

How do I take this phone call without relapsing?