An incident of someone else in my life having an anxiety related meltdown and the support they received made me feel really bad about myself and after thinking about it for a bit, I realize it’s because I’ve never felt that I’ve received the same level of support during any episodes I’ve had in the past. 

My feelings are kind of hurt seeing someone important to me devote a lot of time and effort to talking and helping someone come down from an anxiety episode but know that they have never done the same to me before. 

I have gotten kind words but more often than not am told to not think about it. I also want someone to sit down and do activities with me or talk at length with me while I’m struggling. I want to be taken seriously and not be told I’m silly. I want company and someone to help me distract away from the anxiety.

More than anything I feel hurt that this important person is willing to do this for others and not for me.