I was interviewed for a job today and yet again, I came across as an eager puppy because I could instantly see myself working there and was 100% confident I could do it, even though I have no experience whatsoever.

They were forensic and there were many issues. I can see the rejection coming. I hate this feeling, wondering when they'll call, fearing my reaction. Wondering how I could have been stupid enough to fuck up my one chance.

I was having a really good week too. As usual I kept adding more and more to my plate until I am at the point of collapse. I don't know who I am anymore. Right now I am out in public and surrounded by strangers and it's so hard to suppress the galaxy of emotions resonating through me.