I don't know what else to say. I just want to get it off my chest to people who might actually understand. I knew this friend for two years. She never really did anything wrong, but I just never truly felt like I could rely on her to stick around. But now I've lost her because I was so afraid that I would... I know we were never a great match up in personalities, she never was going to be good at handling my fears, but... I knew her for so long, I cared about her, and now she hates me and there's nothing I can ever do to change that. I just feel terrible... There's nothing I can do, and I'm just really upset to have lost a friend who I once felt so close to... I'm sorry if this post is a mess, I just feel so guilty and heartbroken right now.