sorry if this is triggering for anyone but i recently started using again after a strong period of great progress with my therapist. i feel absolutely terrible, more so bc i know how disappointed she'll be in me. She's one of the few people in my life i feel are *genuinely* concerned for my well being so I cherish our relationship greatly - probably the most stable relationship i have in my life rn. I've gone through a looot of therapists before finding her and i have a HUGE fear of her dropping me as a patient, and dont know how i'd recover from that.  I know it's an irrational fear (she's assured me she wouldn't drop me bar me slashing her tires or something like that lol) but i just can't stop this guilt from consuming my life... Anyone else feel guilty seemingly for no reason all the time ?