I have shitty friends who leave me out of everything especially when my depression gets bad. My mom works all the time and isn’t there for me as much as I know she wishes she could. I relapsed and started self harming again and I cut too deep but oh well. I’m all alone and I have no one there for me and the only reason I’m still alive is because my birthday is next week and I didn’t think I’d make it to 17 and idek if I will. I’m a coward and none of my attempts have ever worked before. I refuse to call for help but I just wanted to feel heard for once. This is just a rant.