Hey! Im 19 and have had bpd for years now.

So basically one of the first things that pops up when you type in bpd in google is impulsive behaviours eg promiscuity. 

I am known to be the one who sleeps around. I often have unprotected sex and generally my one night stands / casual sex ends up being very self-destructive. 

I cry over the boys who give no fucks about me after literally fucking me and all my bpd rejection, abandonment yada yada fear is triggered. I can’t stop it though, I feel like sex is one of the few things keeping me alive (no I’m not a sex addict at all). I just need the thrills to distract me from my bpd reality. 

Anyone can relate? Anyone has anything to say about casual sex for us borderlines?