Lately, within the past two weeks or so, I've developed the urge to retract from people and the world. And today it's gotten worse to the point where I don't want to matter. I don't want people to love me or care about me. I just want to be nothing. I've developed a extreme case of rage that doesn't want to go away. 

Never thought this would be my life. I hate it. I hate myself. Would rather fade away into oblivion than live life as a continuous contradiction. 