I'm not sure if its even related to BPD but I have these constant things that I can't stop myself from saying out loud. And some thoughts I can't stop thinking. 

They come anytime I think of anything negative/regretful and are about suicide, wanting death, wanting someone else to die. I definitely don't want anyone to be hurt or die including myself. I'm not suicidal or anything. But its just these involuntary thoughts and speech patterns I physically cant stop.

 Has anyone else experienced something like this.