Tonight made me realize how much I really miss laughing with other people and how I want that back on a regular basis with somebody. Another boyfriend I can find any day but I really miss having an FP, just somebody I can laugh and cry  with that actually wants me around. God I forget what that’s like, It’s been so long but then when it be nice again to not feel like a burden. Person to share a girl stuff with that will tell you about their day and care about the little details.
 I do have one person seems to want to be a better friend , But she seems completely normal and that makes me apprehensive . I mean hello bpd. It’s so weird though having a friendship where there are no ups and downs everything is stable the person doesn’t change ...Like I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop but it never dies if anything it’s almost like boring. My therapist claims this is what a “normal“ is supposed to look like And I guess but I sure miss having a Border Buddy 

Anyone want to talk about their FP?  If  they are BPD or not , or share something about them? I like hearing the stories . Currently mine are a wiener dog and a cat lol