I don't have BPD and I never did...

...It must be true because my husband told me that.  My doctor just went along with what I "wanted" him to diagnose me with according to my husband...

I honestly don't even know what to do right now.  I want to leave my husband but I also know I will hate myself if I do because I've tried 3 other times and I always beg him to take me back...