Hi all! I am seeing my psychiatrist today (for the first time since November) to discuss BPD. In January 2018 I got diagnosed with severe depression. However, over the years this “depression” has evolved into something much more sinister. I have done a ton of research, from accredited sources, about borderline personality disorder. I wholeheartedly resonate with a lot of the symptoms, behaviors, thoughts, and actions that are attributed to BPD. Reading a ton of posts in this thread, I feel the same as a lot of you have expressed. I do a lot of the things you guys have experienced and done. The question I am having trouble answering is, is this a different form of depression, BPD, another mental illness that I have not explored, or did my ex-boyfriend literally drive me to the point of insanity? Is that even possible? TIA and wish me luck today! I hate seeing my psychiatrist because I always leave feeling like there’s something wrong with me and that my mental illness diminishes my self worth and self value.