I used to get stressed sometimes. I thought anxiety was when people were like that all the time. This spring I got more and more stressed and then had a panic attack. Ever since then the slightest thing almost drives me to tears. My heart pounds and I sweat.    


I went to a birthday party on the weekend. My friends showed up with their new baby and I almost burst into tears and ran out of there. I don't even know why. I'm happy for them and I like babies but something just kind of went off and it was all I could do to sit there and not cry.   


My doctor gave me medication which helps me not feel constantly panicked. The thing is that I love people and being around people. I need it. The thought of it now is overwhelming. Also the fear of crying for no good reason.   


I'm sorry I didn't understand what anxiety was and what you were going through. I thought this would be temporary until things were "back to normal". Now I have no idea how long that will take. I tried to willpower my way out of it but that's just not possible.