It’s honestly depressing, makes you feel lonely and makes you question the point of existence. Like why do I have to have this heart beating out chest and dripping with sweat just from going out with a friend or  somebody just to have one come out of nowhere just to put me in a bad mood and wear you out to where you want to go to sleep or in my case makes me tired and yawn a lot because of how exhausting it is. I hate waking up everyday it’s the same thing everyday. I don’t enjoy living. I’ve tried multiple medications and just had an anxiety attack awhile ago. I’m trying meditation and I just don’t know. I used to run but I mean I can still have the most up beat heart racing and tingling in my chest and dripping with sweat out of nowhere. Nothing is fair and I want to scream cry hurt myself and think about it all the time. Why me? Nothing is fair. I hate living. I hate existing. Why? Just why? I have multiple problems and it’s so so so unfair. I just tried to breathe while having the attack and it just kept coming back.