I'm 20 years old, male. I've been struggling with depression since middle school, but was only "properly" diagnosed last year. Things have only gotten worse the older I've gotten. I went through a breakup almost a year ago now which has left me with abandonment/commitment issues. I was on medication for awhile and it just made me emotionally numb and caused me to get really bad bouts of depersonalization/derealization.

It kinda just hit me that this is something I will always struggle with. I've never really seen my depression as a disability, even though it technically/legally is one, but I understand better now. Even if I manage to "overcome" my mental illness, it will never truly be gone. It's the same way an alcoholic may say "I'm not not an alcoholic, I'm just an alcoholic that doesn't drink".