Made an appointment at a GP next week so I can ask to see a phycologist. 

reading up info online is not much help. I'm not shour if I have schizophrenia, psychosis, PTSD, brain damage, mania, bipolar, or somthing else but I'm definatlly going insain. Gussing by the symptoms and what I could find onlline I'm leaning towards schizophrenia but agen I'm not shour.

The main thing I whant to ask is dose anyone get that feeling of insanity shortly followed by completely insane beliefs that are so so crazy you know you're having a meltdown but you still believe it no matter how much you try make yourself see reason. last time it lasted between 30s and 2min the time bethor (over a month ago) I got high (last time ever!) and it lasted hours, eventually I realise it wasn't the hash but thort that if I stopped smoking and reduced my drinking (by a lot) it wouldn't happen again but this time I onlly had one bier and although It didint last verry long losing tuch with reallaty really spikes your anxiety and that anxiety lasted for hours so I didint sleep much last night.

Are there any good coping mechanisms to help when you lose touch with reality? are there any techniques to lower your anxiety? Is it ok to be super ridiculously happy at a party if you're having fun or is that just a manic episode. I thought I was having siminglly random spikes in angry because I hate my job but now I'm starting to think it might be something else what do you think? how oftenr is tow often when it comes to sleep hallucinations?

 Also not shour but mite be loosing my grap time: did something take 40 seconds or a few minutes, was it 3 or 4 days ago or last week? how menny moths has it been since I started my job. I can just look up that last one but you get the point.

And I mite be getting worse at multitasking but not sure could just be my ADHD. 

maybe I'm imagining extra simptoms I meen I'm shour something is rong so paranioa could be making it worse I don't konw but I've nether been a paranoid personne, then agen I've nether had a mental brakedown ever so yeah maybe.