My boyfriends family really likes poker/game/card night. They’re a rowdy bunch and joke and tease and it can be too much sometimes.  There is about 25 people that go and last time I went, keep in mind i’ve never played any of these games. I’m more of a Gofish person lmao. So I play and my anxiety was through the roof and It was my turn to shuffle and deal and I wasn’t shuffling as “good” as everyone else, I was just doing basic shuffle when they were all advanced. So they joked and were making comments about how I basically sucked which made the entire table stare at me and then I started crying and couldn’t stop. So I sat there and cried. My bf was trying to be supportive but it was awk. It’s a big topic, his mom got me a pack of cards for xmas that said practice shuffling. It wasn’t to be mean or anything. This was a year ago. 
Next weekend is another game night/ his family member birthday celebration. With cards. (COVID safe). Which I still don’t know how to play. It’s the night before MY birthday and I truly am so scared to go. Our families are good friends and this time my family got invited which helps my anxiety a little bit. not much. Boyfriend said I don’t have to play but doesn’t that just draw more attention to me? 
What would y’all do?