DAE feel guilty... for feeling guilty? Idk why, but theres that awful saying about how if you feel guilty it must be for a reason. What if you are just guilty because mostly everything which went wrong in life got pointed at you therefore you feel guilty all the time? For example, there was a time in primary school when my old bestfriend would pinch me etc (she was very psychical, i was friends with her because she intimidated me and I was too scared not to be her friend) so i pinched back one time and of course she made a big deal about it, i got sent to another classroom to sit in the middle of a circle and be stared at by another class because I was a "bully". I got the word "bully" labeled on me so many times in school, especially by people I was intimidated by. I had another friend like that, and she told the school I started a rumour she was a lesbian?!! I got put on report card and everything, for nothing. Why on earth would i have started a rumour she was a lesbian if I am bi myself... this confuses me. Basically if you have a scary enough mum who yells at the school enough, you can get anyone to be labelled as a bully. Although this was a while back, I just don't bother with friends anymore because there has been times where I have just been attacked for no reason, whether its because I didn't open a message fast enough, or because I was talking care of my own mental health and not baby sitting them... I am just soooo tired of feeling like the bad person all my life.