I never thought I would end it this way.  
I have been struggling psychological problems since I was a kid, went through hunger, parental abuse, bullying and all that shit which all of us are tired of hearing it about it.  I tried to make my way out, tried to climb the ladder of peace, to make my own path, find my place... But my worst mistake was just a single one, enter in a relationship with someone.  
Now, I don't have enough to eat and pay the most basic bills, have PTSD, depression, anxiety and a personality disorder. My head can't stand it anymore, a person like me can't handle all of the weight of world alone, but I don't have anyone to care out for me and just relieve the burden of existence. I am tired of only doing the necessary for survival and never be enough, I just can't.  
This is the last time I write something about my pain, and I am saying goodbye today, if I am brave enough.