I started taking 50mg of Quetiapin three days ago. The doctor told me it would increase my appetite. I binge a lot so i didn't like hearing this. The doctor and my therapist told me that i could call them if i got bad, because this pill increases suicidal thoughts and stuff. I told them i wouldn't call them and that i could deal with it myself. I think it's stupid, how tf would they calm me over a fckn phone conversation? I think it would just make me angry.

First day of taking it, i purged. The second and third day i cut myself. The third day i was so anxious, does this pill even work on me? I was also very very angry, i punched everything i could see (ofc not people, but objects and myself). I also took a sleeping pill this day, but still couldn't sleep!
BUT!!!! 
I FEEL BETTER! ALTHOUGH I SELF HARMED, I FELT BETTER!
THIS IS WHY I'M SO CONFUSED! I self harm and get sooo angry, but i also feel a little happy. Does anyone have any idea about why i'm like this? Is it because the antidepressant doesn't work until after 2 weeks?