I just want him to be nice to me, I just want him to stop running away, I just want him to love me and choose me, I smashed my head up and my legs are bruised, I try to call him and talk but he counts the time and tells me that I won't let him go and it triggers me into a meltdown panic because it feels like he hates me and he's running away and I just want him to be nice to me, I can't ever get ahold of him, he won't stop having the affair, we were supposed to be married, the wedding was going to be beautiful, he won't stop having an affair with his coworker, she's 12 years younger than us, he keeps promising he will and saying he loves me, it's been three years, my whole life is ruined, he keeps promising to end the affair but he doesn't love me enough, I'm so loyal to him but he goes to bed with her every night and promises he loves me and he'll do something soon but life is a nightmare and this is all there is left for me, why do i love him so much and why can't he just love me like he used to before the affair, I was broken before the affair and now i'm shattered, he's my favorite person and I have nothing, my legs hurt and my head hurts, nobody cares, why can't i stop loving him, why can't he love me like he's supposed to why can't we have a good love story why don't i get to have a happily ever after why am i dying alone every single day of my life, everything is ruined forever I don't care life is over love is a lie love is dead everyone lets you down there's no happiness there's nothing