Going to try to make this short while still keeping the important information in. I have never been diagnosed with anxiety but I have also not gone to be diagnosed. This happened a couple nights ago and similar things have happened to me twice before but not to the extent of this one. Both of the previous times I was sober this time there was alcohol and marijuana involved. I had smoked and drank a bit and I was feeling fine however I had been having a bad week in general and I wasn't feeling very comfortable with how everything had gone the previous days. While under the influence my boyfriend starts to be standoffish and seemingly upset with me, I try to communicate with him (cause I had no idea what I had done) but he wouldn't talk to me because of how upset he was. We were outside in a forest and we went walking. I remember feeling upset and scared and alone and frustrated and my breathing started to speed up, soon enough I was breathing very loudly and quickly and mumbling things to myself and my boyfriend. At one point he had left me and I remember feeling panicked about being alone in the forest, i went to the edge, near a lake and started putting my hands in the water uncontrollably. I then went to look for him and i remember seeing him and getting extremely scared (he has never physically hurt me before) I then walked away quickly and started going back to where I was. He ended up following me and trying to comfort me. I vaguely remember yelling and mumbling and crying and curling into a ball and shaking and breathing really quickly, also splashing lake water on my face. It felt as if i was watching myself from outside my body and i couldn't control what I was doing. I felt very out of it and no one seemed to be able to help me or even get me to a normal breathing pace. I was taken back to the hotel we were staying at and helped by a few other close friends but I was in this state of disconnect for 1-2 hours. Afterwards I didn't feel like myself. As I said this has happened twice before both times before having been the result of verbal abuse from my mother, however neither of the previous times had it lasted so long or felt so intense. I was initially thinking anxiety or panic attack but neither seems to fit perfectly to what happened. Any insight would be appreciated.