I work in a bar, My manager finished he's shift and asked me to pour him a drink as I did he was staring at me and I started to sweat and shake uncontrollably he then noticed and said why are you shaking I then started to shake more he then said to my co worker look how much she is sweating and laughed. He laughed at me I started to have a panick attack and I told my co worker he said he has never had one before and told me I can go home but I'm so embaressed and feel shame and guilt because I went red as well I looked disgusting all I can think of is he must of thought I am a straight up weirdo and that I looked disgusting as the sweat was dripping from my face  . I started to cry and felt very suicidal. Someone please talk to me everytime he is around I get anxious and nervous that it sets off a panick attack I do fancy him but would never act on it but it's just causing me so much embaressment now and people at work are starting to dislike me because they think im a negative person for always being stressed and anxious about everything and it makes me depressed because my anxiety Is that bad it makes me looks odd to those who don't understand what it is like