I have recently acknowledged that my depression is back. about 4 years ago I got officially diagnosed and they said I have hereditary and situational depression. got prescribed wellbutrin. took it for over 2 years then decided I was fine and weaned off of it. life was much better after I stopped taking it. I was also just in a better place by then. had a great 2 years mentally but the past two months or so has been extremely hard mentally.

I graduated from college and moved back home because my original plans got foiled. been working a full time job and living with mom and sis. I am just really not in a good place right now. I always feel tired and never want to do anything fun. the biggest kicker is that I always wake up so angry and frustrated. didn't really have that problem the first time I got diagnosed. but everyday when I wake up its just *god, this again.*

I just feel so stuck, defeated and burnt out. I feel like I'm just in a waiting period but I don't have a clear vision of what I'm waiting on. literally feels like purgatory.

a therapist would probably help but I've tried it before with 3 different ones and each time it just felt tedious to catch them up with everything so they fully understood why I felt like this. it would also be a lot more expensive now I think.

the last thing I want to do is get medicated again. I feel better on days that I exercise so I need to get in more of a routine.

I just wanted to vent. thanks for coming to my tedtalk.