I've barely been talking to someone for a week and we've been talking literally everyday this week for hours. Today I decided not to text them, let them come to me. I realised i messages them first Thursday and Friday. Silence the whole day. And we're in a gc together so I could see when they were reading group chat messages and could have said hi to me. Now I'm overthinking everything. 

I really like them. They are cute, and funny and nice and genuine. And I'm really into them. 

Maybe they didn't want to talk to me Thursday and Friday and only did it bc I messaged them? I also messed up their pronouns once and now I'm like thats it isn't it. Thats why they hate me now. Logically I know thats probably not the case. 

I really want to message them and be like "Hey do you hate me now just checking? Or hey I know that pronoun shit was stupid of me I'm sorry please forgive me!" Of course I won't bc that shit sounds crazy and I feel like if they realise I need that much reassurance they'll be turned off.

I just feel such fear that I've fucked up somehow. And with my memory issues I can never remember the length of anything. Its probably been a week but feels like longer. And i want to randomly call them at time or message stuff and I have to hold myself back like: "No you're not on that level w them yet"

Its worse bc I won't be able to see them for 2 months so in my head I have 2 months to fuck it up. Logically I know I cant act on any of this and it makes it so much worse.