Fuck man idk what the fuck I’m doing

I can’t go to school, even though I like it there
I go to a media class thing where I do photoshop and Adobe indesign and illustrator it’s very fun

But I can’t get out of bed in the morning

I’m watching Euphoria rn, and the show is great, but I can’t focus

I’m restless

I have this weird feeling in my heart, that I can’t describe 

I just wish I was never born
Or that I was a normal fucking person 
I’ve never been normal, my childhood is just as fuxked as I am now

I don’t have friends well I do, but I don’t really feel like we’re friends
When I’m with them, I feel like I’m just observing 

I wish I was a rich bitchy blonde, who didn’t give a fuck
A true mean girl 
Someone wi ty a bunch of friends and where life is all about drama and who you’ve fucked

But that’s not me

For me, life is about nothing
Nothing at all
Everything is so depressing and I just can’t live

I want to have friends but idk how that works
I’ve never had a friend a real one 

Idk anymore I’m just going insane

All I do is play video games all day

I think about death all the time
I’m scared of other ppl but I long for friends

I want to have someone I can share everything with


Idk life is hard and I can’t live

I mean I don’t want to work
I wish I could just lay in bed all day my whole life

A truly useless person

Idk why I’m writing this I’m just dying inside

I don’t wanna feel this way, but I can’t escape it

I don’t have a personality bc I’m so depressed 
I am my depression 

“What did u do this weekend?”
Oh nothing, just lied in the sofa all day hbu?

“U have any hobbies?”

Idk there’s nothing I like

I used to love anime but I can’t watch it anymore I don’t have the patience 

And if I watch slice of life, I just end up crying bc I wish I was living the life they are

Friendship is power right?
Well I’m alone so I’m nothing ig

Ugh idk man