I have no friends and even my own family hates me. I don’t know what to do anymore and I’m just exhausted. I feel like at this point there is no reason to live. Everything is meaningless  and I hate the person I’ve become. Nothing gets better and at the end of the day it’s all fucking torture. I try not to complain because I know people have it worst but I’m giving up. I’d kill my self but I know there’s people who are hoping I do it so they can laugh + I have two cats that I love very much. But other then that idk