Well since I've known my self I always was insecure worried or just stressed about everything I do. My parents don't even realize what's wrong with me and nobody doesn't even care about me. 
If I walk on the street I'm so stressed how I look, insecure about my clothes, and worried that I get judged. I'm a ghost to my classmates. My only true friend who also has problems and I wanna help him but I can't fully help someone who won't even listen to my problems maybe I'm petty but I wanna be loved for the real me not the one who is always happy. I don't know what to do. Thanks for reading my hopeless idea to reach for someone's help