I just dont know what to do, even though my college is going.great. ive got a fantastic internship for my last year. Etc etc i just idk cant seem to be happy once.
My self potrait is hot garbage at best, i feel like my psychiatist isnt helping at all, i hate my home due to my brother ruining eveything (mu mother has to go to trauma therapy bc of him).  Constant irritated abkut everything, i argue with everyone instead of letting stuff slide like i used to do, i simple give less and less about others (i know this is not how i am normally), i dont like doing fucking anything, not gaming, not fitness, not doing stuff with friends.
Even if i game with friends if there is 1 songle argument my best friend gets upset or smrh idk. Starts throwing the game and its my fkcing fault??? Just because i didnt agree on something????

Idk how to feel or what to do

Im just lost rn, i care deeply about others and i have a huge sense of responsibility wich always works angainst me.

Idfk if this shit belongs here.