I have an immense issue with empathy unless the person is immediately close to me. To be clear i know this is like...not a good way to be for society and that i should learn how to have those feelings, but not act on the feelings, but if someone like hurts my feelings or someone i love's feelings i literally..and i mean literally would not care if they stepped out in front of a semi. it makes me feel like a monster. bc people have hurt my wife and while they arent in her life anymore she still hopes they have a good life and whatnot. but i have a seething hatred for them and hope they die and have a horrible life.