Oooooh my god I'm completely obsessing over someone I've only shortly spoken to 3 times.

Fucking hell this is going to ruin my life again, I can't think about anything else, which is super problematic cause I have a lot of papers to write. 

I don't know what to do...

I either fantasize about our beautifull futur relationship together, or I totally panic about the probability that that will never happen, cause who the fuck want to be with me? I know that this will be a fucking nightmare again. 

I want to stop this, but I don't want to stop this, cause I feel like I'd be the happiest person if I'd be with him and only thinking of that makes me feel so good. 

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I try to counter this by making things up I don't like about him, but I LITTERALY can't think of anything.