I wonder if anyone has had this feeling. If you met me that type of person was nice, friendly good guy. But I don’t I know no where close to that guy.  I don’t believe when people say they care or love me. No one in my life. The only thing I get is treated. Like I know absolutely nothing. And every single problem I face is solved in blink of an eye. But expected do that when it a problem with me. 

With that said. There is something I feel external like some has hand my solder keep on pushing me forward. Doesn’t feel like people I know or spiritual thing. Someone or something has me standing.