I used to be terrified of being alone, alone with my dark thoughts and inability to slow them down or make them less full of hatred. But now, I love being alone because i’ve realised that it’s relationships that’s trigger me the most. Like, yeah I still get those dark thoughts sometimes but I’m finding it way easier to manage now that i’ve been forced to spend all this time alone. And I feel I only have to worry about 20% of the things i did before- just what is in front of me, not what other people are thinking and feeling.

I feel like this is a switch that occurs after an amount of time with BPD? has anyone else experienced this? 
By a switch that occurs i mean the switch from being terrified of being alone, to isolating to prevent triggers in relationships.