As I mentioned in an earlier post, I don't have the formal diagnosis of BPD (yet) but I am almost 100% sure that is what I have going on.  (My therapist also sees it and has referred me for a psychiatry appointment for meds and probably diagnosis).  Since coming to this realization, that is ALL I have been able to think about.  I was worried and anxious about relationships before - now, with this likely looming, I feel even more out of control.  

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I also worry - I am MUCH older than most people when they get this diagnosis.  I just turned 40.  I have always had some form of anxiety and depression...mood swings...easily attached in relationships.  But things have gotten so far out of control recently that these things I have listed do not even BEGIN to describe what I am going through.  (Now, I am extremely labile in my moods, intense INTENSE emotional reactions, paranoia and CONSTANT snooping in my relationship, cannot trust people, need constant reassurance, crying jags, explosive anger, constant feelings of emptiness, cannot handle criticism or any "perceived" rejection...the list goes on and on and on.)

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So - is there any hope?  I am already older than when most people start "mellowing" out (I apologize - I don't know the right term!)  Is it possible to have BPD this "late" in life and still have the symptoms decrease??