I’m not ready to have a fiancé, I’m not ready to take on huge responsibilities, I’m not ready for another pet, I’m not ready for life changing events. 

And yet, I’m still with my fiancé, I’m working a job while attending medical assisting school, I’m taking care of his bunny since his family doesn’t want it in the house, I wasn’t ready to get in a car crash. Im not ready to handle all these things. I can barely take care of myself and my birds. Im too tired to make real food, I’m too emotionally attached to leave him, I’m lost in my sea of emotions. I usually climb past the pressure, but I’m slipping back into my depression. It’s too much for me to handle. I can’t catch up. I just can’t. 

Please. Help me. I need a sign for the better days and right decisions.