I really can't do this anymore. This disorder is eating me, ruining my relationship, and turning me into a complete stranger. I'm tired of hurting my girlfriend everyday (another borderline) but she won't stop hurting me either. And what's worse is I don't even think she sees it. I don't want to deal with life anymore. I'm tired of being alive with no purpose. I'm tired of me not mattering. I'm so damn tired. And I have no one to even help or talk to.