Heyyyy

I am currently on a 6-month break in DBT. I decided to take a break because the last meetings there were far from pleasant

I had panic attacks during individual sessions because of questions that were bringing me to the most painful thoughts and states of mind. And nothing was done about it. Group trainings were super-depressing when everyone was talking about progress and living among others and about their partners. Just focusing to not go blank with thoughts, dissociate, was highly demanding. And I brought nothing from those sessions. Only paralysis for an hour or three after

It's also not the case that the therapist didn't know about it. She was just telling me to endure and train skills. What I did and they brought me nothing. Therapy meetings were hurting me every time

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Sooooo. I read that DBT completely ignores underlying trauma, that it's methodology does not touch this topic, speaks over it with skills, skills, skills. Doing them over and over. I feel like I have too much dark, enrooted stuff inside me to ignore that

I was thinking about long-term psychoanalysis or short therapies like EMDR. But I don't really know the options (neither do professionals that I encounter - only CBT/DBT/psychodynamic). Aaaand I feel like there isn't really a solution and I just bounce around treatments and that's another moment of futile hope