I hate how I look, I hate myself, I can't do anything right, I lost my job, I feel trapped in my own body, and I just don't want to live anymore, but I'm scared of the pain, I wish there was a painless way to do it... I know I should just do it but at the same time I don't know why I keep posting about it instead of just doing it, I guess I need help, and I seek profesional one, but my psychologist just gives me solutions that are impossible like starting to find the things I like myself and trying to focus on those, and how could I? When I hate myself that much