I've reached a point where I'm just tired of everything and see nothing for myself. I've been trying to get help for awhile, I've tried talking to friends but I really only talk to like 2 or 3 ppl online occasionally and don't get much out of it. I've recently been trying to go to therapy and getting meds from my university's services, but sucks as I have to keep it a secret from my family, making it very difficult to get professional help. I've been trying to get back into my hobbies during my break but feel like I'm getting nothing out of it. I don't know what my future is looking like and what I want to do anymore. I hate that I have to do this alone as all my closest friends left and moved far and can only communicate through text now and then and I'm stuck where I am at home with a family falling apart, pretending that I'm ok and working on my previous goals. I'm tired of the pressures and the isolation. I'm tired of trying to get better when all I feel is nothing but negative. I'm just tired of everything