I'm 33. I've been dealing with a slew of bullshit my whole life. My job is a fucking joke, but it gets me insurance!


Oh, wait, except, I can no longer see a psychiatrist, because my job's health insurance is also a joke, and nobody will take it. I'm rationing meds, starting to feel withdrawals. Rationing sucks, but it beats the pants off going cold turkey from 4 meds at the same time.


I want to cry all the time. I don't have the energy to do anything, even when I'm happy, it's tiny bursts at a go. 

I don't know what to do. I'm not looking for help, I just want to vent with like minded people, because I'm so fucking sick of being told "it could be worse!"


Yeah, it could, and it has, so it's weird that "it could be worse" doesn't actually make anything better.


I don't even know what I'm trying to accomplish with this post, I just. I dunno. Want a 5 minute pity party, I guess.


Thanks