So I have ocd about scrupulosity. I have been thinking a lot “black color is a nice color” I ended up repeating and starting over 666 times. Now my ocd tells me because I have done it 666 times I’m a racist. O and while working I saw a customer with a devil shirt and I read something about devil in the shirt. Now ocd is worst.

If I follow what the doctor says, he would tell me “say that there is something going to happen to black color people” probably he will tell me that. he wants me for me to say that to look for ocd and trigger and build up a huge amount of anxiety. he told me thats the way to do this. 

How on earth can I accept this and say this? I would feel extremely guilty and bad. saying “I’m against black color” or “I dont like black color” will be wrecking to me. 

what can I do? I have a headache and feel bad. I can’t function well. 

if I keep repeating then it can get worst.