So I dissociate a lot, like a lot, but from what I know about it there’s normally a trigger. Half the time I’m not triggered by anything, or just something really small, but it’s like a switch has been flicked.

Maybe Its not dissociation? Maybe I’m using the wrong phrase? But I feel super fatigued, and spaced out, my reactions and senses are on a delay and I can’t take care of myself like eat and drink because I physically don’t feel those urges. I don’t feel anything. It goes past emptiness, I feel nonexistent.

Now I don’t particularly mind these because it means I’m not being impulsive and it’s a nice break from my typical rollercoaster of emotions, but I’ve been told it worries the people around me. Especially since it can last days without me eating or drinking without someone prompting me and watching me to remind me to keep going with it. 

I just wish I could find what causes me to fall into these episodes and do something about it? I wish I knew if dissociation is the right term for it. I wish I knew what the fuck is going on in all honesty. If anyone has any input or advice I would very much appreciate it. Thank you