TL;DR - need help with intrusive thoughts. 

I’ve struggled with GAD/panic disorder for 6+ years. This will be my 6th year on Citalopram (40mg). My anxiety/derealization started getting pretty bad the last few months so we assumed I’ve become tolerant. I started Escitalopram (lexapro) last week. I was told there shouldn’t be too much of an adjustment period, but i’m struggling so hard with intrusive thoughts. Especially in the morning. My therapist believes this to be a form of OCD.

I struggle that I have an undiagnosed disease and i’m dying, that my partner is cheating on me, that something bad is going to happen. 

I’m not eating, sleeping, i’m always crying to my SO. I just really need help on how to be secure in my life.