I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder when I was 12 and I’ve never really gotten better. I’ve been on different kinds of meds and am finally on something that helps me not feel like trash all the time, but I struggle immensely with motivation. I spend most of my time in my bed. I sleep a lot and don’t do much. I have a part time job but barely push my self to do 10 hours a week. I’m sick of not doing anything, but at the same time it feels like I’m not able to change. I truly just have no desire to get out of bed. Is there anybody out there that feels the same way as me? It feels as if I’m alone in this. It’s been over a decade now that I have had this problem. I’ve never had a full time job and am not sure if I ever will be able to at this rate. Very discouraged.