I can't mix my meds with what I use, deadly combination (opioids, liquor and THC edibles with anti-convulsant, mood stabilizers and anti-psychotics). So I don't take my meds when using.

Meds were actually helping. I haven't felt bad since leaving the psych ward though. I feel grateful for what I have now. It was an extremely horrible experience, I was involuntarily restrained twice, involuntarily sedated via injection once.

Doctors actually told my parents "it's impossible for your son to stop using on his own, he's a heavy drug user and severely ill. He needs at least a 90 day program, our state sponsored 30 day program isn't enough). So they have this idea in their heads I am going away for many months when I'm not going anywhere. Other programs here are luxurious, can't afford it and more than likely isn't worth the money.