Am I worthy on moving on in life. As an adult I have struggled in every way of life. I've been heart broken beyond repair I fear, I cant feel loved anymore. The only time I had a full time job I ended up having a mental breakdown during work and locked myself in a room and cried for few minutes and no one noticed shortly after I was let go for some reason and I still haven't understood why its been 4 years now and I over it. I haven't had a place of my own in 4 years also iv been staying with people mostly sleeping on couches. I'm trying to improve myself by going back to school for something I always wanted to go for but I'm afraid it will get to hard for me and I just breakdown. I had a mini episode in my computer class the book was making no sense and it was frustrating me to the point I was crying in class alittle. I haven't been to that class much lately. For my main classes I'm doing alright for someone with no experience in the field. My only issue is I cant use one of the power tools in class yet because I'm still healing from surgery. The tool is a power buffer for car detailing but the vibration from it cause my hand to stop working. I get an hour of buffing but then I lose my grip and most control to my hand for a day. I have finals coming up and I'm super worried about the buffing final I might try and talk to my instructor at not doing it.
I miss having my own space and liking myself like I did when I was younger.