I have no clue what truly interests me because they change so often. One month I’m vegan and the next I’m eating meat and another month I’m Christian, then Buddhist. I want to study English but then no I want to study biology and then again, no, I want to study Horticulture = have no results or actual accomplishment for 6 years of schooling because I haven’t accumulated enough classes in one specific thing. I like things then get bored and drop them. I get full on so hyped and want to “do it all” with any interest that I buy books and whatever else that just sit there after a month.

I’m fucking tired of this. I’m married. I want to just have something constant - belief system, hobby, anything. This is bothering me more and more as I get older. When I was young it just felt like I was trying different things, now that I’m older I just want to know what I like and what I believe in and what I want to do.

Sad today :(