Exactly what the title asks.
I need to leave the relationship permanently but I can’t, I’ve tried and tried and I can’t do it. I just wanna cuddle him and be with him all the time even though most times it feels like he despises me, he’s abusive and narcissistic as fuck. I think it’s a trauma bond and the fact I have bpd and that he’s my fp definitely doesn’t help the situation. Any advice ?