I just had a rage/anger episode and it was really bad but now I can’t remember the emotions anymore. I was throwing things around [im safe and things are fine] and for a moment I felt like I completely lost my mind. Then, I just decided to stop raging and I felt relaxed/content. Dissociative amnesia really feels like emotions and memories are being removed from my brain, sometimes I just have to stop for a second for the bad emotions to go away and be forgotten.

It is such a weird and awkward experience to feel so much and then suddenly forget about it just seconds later. But as bad as these episodes are, I’m kind of thankful for having BPD, because I’d rather have these insane mood swings/switches than to feel like this for a long period of time but at a lesser intensity like many other people do.