I don’t even know what I want anymore. I feel like I’ve been listening to other people my entire life. My boyfriend tells me to do all sorts of things I don’t want to, but I do it anyway. My mom doesn’t even bother being pleasant with me anymore, I still do her bidding. My dad Won’t stop drinking,he will die of this, still I would give Him comfort even though he would not comfort me. 

I hate my life I live to serve others I’m a lost cause.