I grew up not really having a social life and was often outcasted by a lot of people but since starting college/University nearly 5 years ago its the complete opposite and I've gotten a life i could only have dreamed of back then. However I just never felt at peace because i cant stop feeling so scared of losing everything or moving away from everything and being back to square one. its a thought ive put up that constantly brings me to isolating myself out of shame and not wanting my state ruin my relationships quicker. I hope i can just get rid of these thoughts and feel normal again soon