My brain is not able to think of the obvious anymore. Spouse = terrible. Dr = Idiot. That's about the extent of it. No, I'm not saying any of this out loud to anyone. I'm just about to spend the next 3 days under the covers not eating or drinking. What is wrong with me this week. I normally don't do this so often. It's been on and off all week and I'm exhausted. I can't do this again. 

Help me think through a solution. #1 - Meds - can't force myself to take them. # 2 - Haven't bought a blanket or vest or whatever yet. #3 - My cat is asleep and I don't want to bug him. 

I fee like a child right now. It's so ridiculous, but I can't think normally. No, I'm not on drugs or drinking. Just entering a BPD moment and screaming inside.