I've been severely mentally ill since my early teens and as life has gone on people have basically given up on me .. labeled me .. or just generally disliked me . My doctor wanted to give me several medications but I insisted on only taking seroquel and it worked . Now my insurance has been discontinued I'm out of meds . Past 5 or 6 Job interviews went no where. I feel empty and worthless and more or less suicidal. I fantasize about leaving changing my name or killing myself regularly. And worst of all I can't feel anything anymore except dispair. And the more I feel it the more I realize it's the reality of the situation. I'm just tired of being in pain.