I’ve been struggling with depression since I was a child. I’m 28 now and it hasn’t gotten better. I feel overwhelmed. I feel like a terrible person. A terrible wife. A shitty mom. A bad friend. It’s gotten so bad lately and I’ve had no energy at all. The house is a mess. I don’t remember the last time I was intimate with my husband. I try my best to cook but we’ve been eating take out more lately because I’m just so tired. I work from home full time but my work has been falling behind because I can’t focus. My older son is doing an online academy and thankfully he’s done for the school year because I don’t think I would be any help to him. My husband has been understanding and gentle. He’s reassuring and he’s been picking up the slack. He works 60-80 hours a week and he chooses to come home to a person like me. I want to change so bad. I’ve tried making schedules for myself. I’ve tried different meds. More coffee for energy. I’ve tried different routines. Nothing lasts. I can’t even function like a normal adult. It’s embarrassing. It almost feels like it’s easier to just end it. I feel like my husband would find someone who he deserves and who could be a better wife/mother. I’m not suicidal but it’s just so hard that it seems more attainable than getting better.