I was feeling pretty good/hopeful for a couple months but I hit a dark patch recently..been feeling like I'm so worthless and all I can do is self pity and not get any better because I want people to worry about me. And then I just feel even shittier and isolate even more bc I know how self destructive and toxic that is. DAE that's suicidal feel like their tendencies stem both from feeling like a burden AND wanting people to worry about them? I know how shitty that is and then it just makes it even worse. I hate having no one to talk to but I know it's just my own fault bc I push everyone away, and the people I want to talk to are never as close to me as I think I am to them because I'm a fucking crazy person that obsesses over people. I think I just needed to vent...anyone wanna vent too pls do it in the comments I need validation