I’m in pain all the time. I live with so much that is hurting. Usually when I interact with others at school, I can “turn it on” and be a regular person. Today I couldn’t. I checked out. I couldn’t look anybody in the eye. I couldn’t make regular conversation. I just wanted to go home and hang myself. It took everything I had to not do drugs when I got home. I also realized I do so many drugs cuz I want to forget. I am living to forget life. Idk what I’m doing.