Has anyone ever felt like everything is pointless in a way? After realizing how easily people come and go I’ve really lost all meaning in meeting new people or even attempting too. I hate this person I’m becoming I often find myself uncomfortable when I’m in a good mood and it’s like my whole person changes at random. My intrusive thoughts are just getting worse and worse and my sadness fluctuates between anger constantly. It scares me, I’m afraid if I’ll actually do half the things I think of, all of this and no one has ever answered my cries for help. There have been plenty of times where I’ve tried to reach out to others as a cry for help and realized that no one cares. The people who say their your friends aren’t really your friends and can care less about you or your well being, it made me realize that no matter what you’ll just only have yourself. If people just answered your cries for help maybe some people would be around today but this world is selfish, and the only way your surviving is by becoming one of them and fending for yourself because the minute you reach out you’ll just get bit.