I am in college and have no motivation to live anymore. Life was going okay- grades not too bad, and I finally worked up the courage to talk to a girl that I sit next to in class. We were talking about the lecture and taking notes when all of a sudden she points at mole on my forearm and said cute mole. Ever since I was little I always hated this mole- and I managed to forget about it for a while until she brought it up. Now, I can’t stop think about it and how ugly it is. I haven’t left my dorm in 4 days. I haven’t showered eaten or brushed my teeth. I skipped class yesterday and skipped today as well- I keep picking up and setting down my kitchen knife and am seriously contemplating cutting this thing off. I don’t know what else to do at this point, I’m just fucking lost