I’m proud of myself for being able to handle the pain. I will admit, I am just about able to and my god its tough but I am proud of it. 

Its been 5 months. For about 2-3 months it didn’t really sink in. Then it hit. 

And it hasn’t stopped. 

It feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest every day. It’s getting easier but very slowly. It doesn’t help I see her every day. 

I love her and miss her very much. I’ve accepted its over and she will no longer be apart of my life. 

It just hurts so much. 

Seeing her with her new partner hurts so much. 

I forced myself not to contact her aside from the odd “hey how are you” which we exchanged every so often. But for about a month it’s been 0 communication. I promised myself I wouldn’t be that ex. I loved her too much to do that to her. 

I’m working on me and I will get better. Its just hard to get over breakups when every single day feels like it’s the day you just broke up.