DAE get super jealous when someone close to them self harms? I always get such an immediate intense urge to copycat and I really can't handle how it's impacting my life.

I've had messy encounters where people confront me because they see the pattern of my self harm getting way worse the second someone else relapses or has an episode... I feel like I'm just faking these needs and I'm just looking for attention and leech of other peoples negative emotions.