I've never had friends growing up and still don't to this day. But I have had five girlfriends thus far. The first two left me for someone else when I was in high school, the second two cheated on me, and the last one that I just broke things off with after being with her for three years and loving her more than anything else on this planet cheated on me with my own brother...who was already married. I told his wife and began the process of unraveling their marriage last week and haven't heard from either of them since.

All the women in my life that I have known, except for my mother, have done nothing but bring me lower and lower. So, for the sake of my own mental health and well-being, I've decided I'm done. Not just for a little while until I "meet the right one". No, I mean I'm done for good. No joke, no sarcasm, I mean it. I am not taking that chance ever again. I can't. If I did and things turned out as badly as they did this time, I would more than likely kill myself. And I don't want my mother to have to bury her own son.

I will live my life as a loner. I will treat everyone with due respect and courteousness and all of that as they deserve. And let me make this clear: I am NOT making some statement about ALL WOMEN. I'm not one of those people. This is only a result of my own relationships. The vast majority of men are probably in great relationships with great women, and I genuinely wish them lifelong happiness and all that.

But for me, it's over. Not my life, just my love life. Gone. Extinguished. I will have to force myself to adjust to this new lifestyle and find some measure of happiness within it. I'm sure I'll be fine. I have a decent job and my own place. Maybe I'll get a dog to have as a companion. But for genuine human connection and all of that, no. No more.

That's all I wanted to say.