Sometimes I feel like I have moments of clarity where it seems like I am 100% borderline and every relationship in my life is tainted by it and all of my choices leading up to now were based on distorted thinking.  Is it like this for people with BPD?  Or am I just a human being with some problems sometimes?

Edit to add: I am not seeking a diagnosis from people on the internet, I was actually diagnosed in April by a professional. I was asking a philosophical question like HOW much does BPD color our perceptions -- is it a small part that comes out sometimes or is it everything every minute of the day?  Has anyone here found that the nature of having Borderline Personality Disorder is a constant minute by minute perception or does it come out when triggered? Has anyone here felt like it is constant low level problem or has anyone felt like it's just a small scale thing that pops up and causes problems?  The title of this is misleading but when I said "AM I BPD" I meant am I that only or is it just a piece of me. Whoops!