I have a very erratic sleep schedule to where I am not awake at all during any of the mental health clinics business hours, so I am forced to wake myself up earlier so they'd call. Most of the time I would wake up I'd just end up falling back asleep and missing the calls.

I don't even really care much I don't think because nothing they was doing was working. All they'd do is talk through things with me and try to teach me grounding techniques that'd only work for a few minutes of my meltdowns; if they even did anything to help at all. I don't understand why mental health clinics don't have longer business hours, or offer flexible plans for individuals who literally have slept the way they have for years, and theres almost no sign of it changing. I asked multiple times to get medication and tested for other disorders (I think I have ADHD for instance), and they wouldn't ever refer me to anything. 

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Fucking hate how literally all productive therapy costs money in America. This was the only free therapy in my location for a long margin and it did nothing for me. Honestly feel like I will never get better.