maybe im just being dramatic, but i've had a pretty bad birthday today. first i didn't sleep well at all because my sinuses got clogged to hell. then my original plan to go to an amusement park with a college friend went kaput after he was late (which made me feel like he just didn't want to see me). my other good friends and fiance are traveling/working/helping out today. i hate the part of me that's angry at them, trying to say they did it on purpose. i know they didn't, i know they'd never, but sometimes your feelings overwhelm your head. it's so quiet and dull here. i just feel dejected and alone and i keep having a lot of bad thoughts. playing minecraft by myself isn't doing much to distract me either.