please help!! i can't  call an ambulance again. i already did this last week and they didn't do shit to help me. have been super suicidal (ans strangely energetic) ever sknce and i already have all the pills and booze here but I'm afraid to go through with it, then again thant means i'm not serious right? can't call anybody cause I'm all alone. how do i calm down? how do i care again?