This might be triggering to some so please read at your own risk.
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Okay so like I got diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Panic Disorder a little bit ago and it sucks. My dad is physically disabled and he can barely bend down and pick up things so I'm the only one that cleans around the house, and with depression, cleaning rarely gets done. So my house is a mess, I share a room with my little brother and his room is trashed, trash hasn't been taken out in almost 2 weeks, it's truly terrible over here. The only thing keeping me alive is my little brother (and my 2 older siblings), my friends, Zack and Lux, and my cats (I have 8). I just want to be able to be normal and clean daily or weekly like normal people do. I feel like I'm going fucking crazy. My dad doesn't believe I have depression and anxiety (I also have PTSD, but that's for another post) and he gaslights me and yells at me all the time for being "lazy" and he honestly makes me wanna commit... well ya know. I don't have a plan to do it or anything I just think about it whenever my dad does this shit. Any advice? I appreciate any advice :)