Does anybody else feel like they don't deserve other people love or being nice to you? My new therapist is so nice and I just feel bad because I think I don't deserve it. My bsf was so nice too she waited after the appointment was done to see if I was okay and all I can think about is shes so caring and I don't deserve that and if she knew the real me she'll probably be disgusted and leave me. 

Theses are all things that should make me happy but I just want to hurt myself. Bpd is pain