
I was with my ex boyfriend for 2 years he NEVER told me he loved me during our relationship and was always breaking up with me for dumb shit and then taking me back , he would call me “mental bitch“ and other mean names , one time he even had sex with me when I was passed out drunk (basically rape) anyways we finally broke up in 2018 and he didn’t talk to me for a whole year so the summer of 2019 he hits me up wanting me to be his fuck buddy I cursed him out cause I couldn’t believe he caused me so much pain in our relationship just to come back to me just to fuck!! Anyways long story short when I finally gave in to the idea of being his FWB he and told me “I ruined it for him and I don’t turn him on anymore and I should have fucked him when he first asked” now 2 years later I’m still depressed over it and beat myself up for not being his FWB after our breakup I can’t even make myself have sex with anyone I feel ugly &amp; useless and now I’m stuck with this diagnosis of BPD while he’s off living in Florida now happy and I’m stuck here depressed/ miserable..