I am class president of my class with the rest of the council made up of 3 other girls. I hate being class president. I can’t handle the pressure, I feel useless, and I’ve heard people complain that I’m not doing enough when I’m literally trying my best. I didn’t want to do it in the first place, I was pressured into it. The rest of the council will not help me with anything, I’ve had to go to the president of the other class to get her help when it’s not even her job. Yesterday I vented my frustrations to them and instead of supporting me or offering help, they told me it’s my responsibility and I signed up for it when they’ve literally done nothing all year. I’m aware it’s my responsibility, but that doesn’t mean I can do it alone.

The worst part of it all is that all 4 of us have one form of anxiety or another, one of whom’s anxiety can make her very hard to be around. She turns into quite the jerk. Because if this, we all end up fighting instead of supporting each other. I feel like 2 of them have ganged up on me, but I know that’s not true and it’s just me overthinking it. I know they don’t want to help because they are just as stressed as I am, but I’m upset that they’re leaving the burden on me. What was the school thinking, allowing 4 unstable teen girls run the class? It’s been a disaster. We have leadership skills, but we all hate doing it and we were all pressured into it because no one else in the class was even willing.
I’m so frustrated and I will not run again next year, but I’m stuck with the commitment to the end of the year. I’m too busy worrying about my grades and life to have to worry about organizing a dumb class event that I don’t even care about. I don’t know if I can make it through next semester, but I have to it the whole class will be mad at me. It’s too late to back out.