im 15, and once quarantine started,i didnt leave my house even once for seven months. in the time since then ive found it hard to see anyone at all. im trying to move past it and ive even engaged in pretty close social situations with new people and i feel confident in them, and before quarantine i had really good people skills! but my old friends have come together again and are asking to hang out in real life. 
i havent seen anyone from my school since a year and a half ago, and my anxiety is driving me to sweat and vomit when i start to think about it. 

my gender dysphoria and body confidence is raising a lot of problems in relation, because im constantly seeing videos and posts about coming back and shocking everyone because of weight loss or a glow up, and i just cant help but think my appearance is all im worth, and its not enough, let alone playing up my whole personality to mask it.

my friends all insist theyre so excited to see me, and i want to see them, but the pit in my stomach makes it so hard to think or even move... i cant even put it into words how physically sick i feel when i think about it, let alone emotionally. i know its the next step in trying to get back to irl schooling, and i cant stand being alone any longer at home, but its so hard not to cry over even just a simple ass hangout. what do i do at this point??