so last night i was up for 33 hours trying to reset my sleep schedule since i had been going to sleep around 4 am and waking up around 2 pm. i still wasn’t that tired last night around 10 pm so i smoked some weed as i usually do every night. i started hallucinating while making my bed, seeing hands grab for me when i tucked the blanket it. i tried to convince myself it wasn’t real but i was really freaking out. so i went up stairs and tried to just chill and find something to eat. at this point my mind is racing and i can’t think straight and i’m wondering what is wrong with me and that’s when i realized my heart was racing, like beating out of my chest. I quickly pulled out my stopwatch to take my pulse because lately when i get anxious my heart rate gets to about 160. My whole body is shaking and i’m trying to count every beat for 15 seconds but i got to 13 seconds and my count was already at 50. The stopwatch on my phone looked like it glitched and my knees went weak. i thought i was going to pass out so i freaked out and ran to my dad for him to take my pulse just in case i was just buggin and just thought my heart rate was crazy. Nope. It was resting at 188 as i laid in my dads bed for about 10 minutes, shaking and crying. i couldn’t even get my breathing under control because i was shaking so bad i couldn’t voluntarily move. Needless to say, i’m going back on anxiety meds, sleeping more, and never smoking weed again. and i’m gonna start seeing a cardiologist…