Sometimes me and my boyfriend take separate vacations. I normally would consider this a very good idea, to take some time apart. Strangely (being sarcastic) I feel like it only works when I am the one going away. Every single time he takes his space and plans a vacation I can't help but feel abandoned and I am so enraged with myself. I love him so much and I want him to be happy. I'm happy he doesn't need to worry because I'm not going with him and he can be with his friends but I feel awful at the idea of spending ten days alone in my house. 
Plus it's near my birthday (which is very triggering).

Anyone can relate?