as much as I want to vent ( not just on this sub, but other vent subs ) all I can think about is my old friend who ghosted me because sometimes I scroll through their profile, and they post a bunch in those places, but even with as much pain they brought me, I can't bring myself to hate them, and I can't bring myself to trust anyone else fully.

I know, it sounds dumb. Ghosted? Why would I even care? That's not that bad. But I thought they were dead and I was so worried and then they come back, vent, and leave. Rinse and repeat. I just want to be real friends again. I just want friends again. It's so stupid, and I hate myself for it, but it's true. Wherever I go on Reddit, I just have memories of them. And it sucks. I just want to talk like real friends again, not a- robot, something you don't think will care if you leave.

But I do care, and he doesn't. 

I think I'm going insane, by the way. Can't tell if it's related to him, but I see things, hear things, feel things that I 'shouldn't' and can't bring myself to talk to anyone about them. Figures, creatures, feelings. I just want it to stop. I don't want to die, I just want a do-over.

I just want a restart. - Jinx ( He/They )