I've lost pets before but this was the first time that I've rushed my kitty to thr hospital, holding her in my arms and trying to keep her breathing, just to have to make the decision to not resuscitate her.


Shattered is probably the best word to describe this feeling. I've been sobbing off and on all day, but I've also had people around to distract me.


But now I'm alone. In my house. I'm alone and my babygirl isn't here. She's outside under the lilac tree. What do I do?  I feel like I'm falling apart.