This is more a vent post than anything, but maybe brings comfort to some who see therapists too.

So I’m a new grad who’s been a therapist and is now waiting to start another therapy job. 
I have horrible anxiety and am diagnosed rn with panic disorder and MDD. 
I see a therapist bu weekly  my self but it’s not enough. The crazy part is..I help others with their anxiety. I know all these techniques, am extremely self aware of my issues and yet my own anxiety is debilitating.

I have severe avoidance issues to where I quit jobs if people get mad at me and I can’t people please my way out of it.
I can’t move out of my hometown because I’m too scared.
It’s hard for me to travel/go places/be spontaneous which affects my friendships and relationship. My boyfriend doesn’t suffer from any of this and is spontaneous, assertive and independent. 
And sadly I’m the most successful out of my siblings who also suffer from severe anxiety depression and both have alcoholism as well. My brother hasn’t worked in years and doesn’t leave his house. My sister who’s almost 40 also lives at home with me and hasn’t worked since being fired two years ago. None of us have money or are stable enough to truly be independent. 
I’m terrified of being able to sustain my life after my mom dies (who also suffers from anxiety). 
Most therapists I know suffer from anxiety too (just not to my degree). 
Any advice is welcome, or any comment :)