Today was a good day. The best I've had this week, actually. But im still suicidal. It never goes away. I always want to die I can't make it stop.

I failed a suicide attempt just a month ago. I tried to OD, ended up in the hospital and a mental health facility instead.

I am so angry that I survived. Even the good days aren't worth this. I hate everything about living. I don't want to be a part of this life. 

I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I want to hand the controller to someone else and watch them play. I want to be done with this.

This was mostly just a vent i guess I needed to get it of my chest.