Exaggerated rant but just a feeling I notice in the moment. I’m a 24M with a General Anxiety Disorder and take Zoloft to help. Most days I can manage the anxiety and live life fine and content but other days, randomly, I’ll wake up anxious and kinda be on high alert / on edge all day which also is exhausting. One feeling I picked up on is this consistent feeling of just not wanting to feel it, and if that meant disappearing then so be it. I don’t have any active thoughts about harming myself, but when I get intensely anxious, I always seem to be comforted by this idea of “Well at least I’ll die someday and won’t have to feel like this.” Just something that oddly is able to ground me in moments of panic. And once it subsides, most times I pick up where I left off happy and content. 

If any others have similar feelings or experiences I’d love to hear!