There's just no place for someone so unstable, useless and hopeless. I'm not just saying this spur of the moment it's been like this since the day I was born. No one wanted anything to do with me because of my behavior, my parents didn't want me, my teachers just punished or ignored me, and yeah no even casual friends or relationships. I'm a literal outcast. 

Now I just feel uncomfortable around people because of all that abuse I assume, but I can't live with all this isolation. And this sexual frustration may actually kill me.

Now I don't even know what to do or where to go. There is no where, I don't think. I never wanted a future anyway. I just want this pain to stop.

I have no connections and I can't afford healthcare, not like any therapist would help me anyway.

I'm just so frustrated. Why am I even here? 
