hi, i’m James, turning 21 on the 10th. i will spare all the sappy details but my childhood was pretty shit. not “got beat by alcoholics” on a regular basis, but shitty enough for it to effect my psyche and haunt me to my adult life. i’ve been abusing drugs since the age of 14. currently going through cocaine withdrawals, on top of:

1. losing my job because my managers lied to me. pretty sure they planned it out to get rid of me but whatever.
2. flatass broke.
3. got into an accident the day after i lost my job.
4. had a tire blowout the very same day that almost resulted in me totaling my car.
5. i’m financially indebted to my parents for more than i can remember.
6. due to my anger issues &amp; severe lack of self-control, i lost all of my friends about a year ago. i still think about them every day and i miss them dearly.
7. i feel like i’m cursed when it comes to relationships. i’ve never had a positive experience with girls, no matter what i do. last girl i tried to date used me as a distraction until her and her ex got back together.


i don’t know where i’m going with this. i just don’t have anyone to talk to anymore. my dad doesn’t really care and my mom just wants me to go to church. doesn’t care about helping me or getting me professional help, she actively avoids it &amp; the one time i actually got a prescription antidepressant i was shamed for it until i decided to stop taking it. i know it could be worse but i hope it doesn’t because i can barely handle what i have now without relapsing constantly. thanks for reading if you made it this far.


also fuck you, V.