Long story short, I’m going through a breakup and left my flat in the middle of the night with a belt to hang myself on a tree somewhere. Sometimes I feel like I don’t have control of my own mind 😞. I went to a park and ended up falling asleep on a bench. I woke up an hour later and decided to go home. When I arrived back I was met my two policemen and my flatmate. I had left my phone at home and people had been trying to contact me. I was made to speak to a psychiatrist as an emergency at 3am. I just feel so embarrassed and I feel like I’m such a burden on those around me… I’m on new medications. Duloxetine and lamotrigine. I’m so envious of my friends who seem to manage deal with things so easily. At least from my perspective. I’m sure they have their own difficulties that aren’t immediately apparent on the surface. 

I don’t know really what the point of this post is but I suppose it’s nice to have an outlet somewhere with strangers who may understand…