i’ll start off by saying i do not, to my knowledge, have an eating disorder. i eat when i feel hungry and it’s generally pretty high calorie foods like McDonald’s. i have actively been trying to gain weight for years but it’s starting to feel useless. i feel disgusting, i almost feel bad for people who have to see me without baggy clothes on. the people im close to worry for me, but I can’t convince them i’m trying to get better. i have a low appetite and i know i’m not eating quite enough, probably due to stress and medication, but i don’t understand how it could get this bad without me doing it purposefully. i feel horrible about myself. i’m extremely weak. it only seems to be my arms that really suffer from atrophying as the rest of me, while still pretty thin, isn’t comparable. i will make a separate post with images attached if anyone is interested or wants to tell me if im just delusional, because I don’t know at this point. i was hesitant as i don’t want this to be mistaken as a body check. i struggle with a lot of mental issues and im afraid i’m subconsciously hurting myself.