So, I think that my FP/crush kind of bullies me, but at the same time idk if it’s just my over sensitive BPD personality, or if he’s really being an asshole to me. It seems like he’s always picking on me about something. He’s told me that he doesn’t like my friends and thinks they use me (they truly don’t, and he also discussed this subject with my cousin who is his roommate behind my back, before talking to me), he’s bitched at me repeatedly about my driving (which I do drive fast so maybe this one is okay), I mentioned I used to have my tongue pierced and he said “eww, that’s the most unattractive piercing ever”, I once made a joke that I was having a lot of headaches and I thought I had a brain tumor and he’s like “you really shouldn’t joke about that”. There are other things, but those are the ones that stand out in my mind. Again, with the driving, I was driving fast with him in the car and maybe I was scaring him so I get it. That one I can see. But the rest and all the others that I’m not thinking of, just make me feel like shit about myself. It causes me to constantly overanalyze everything I do and say around him, and I constantly feel like I’m letting him down and not good enough for him. I admitted to him that I still liked him about a week ago. We previously had a fling that he cut off because he thought I was “moving too fast” which maybe I was, but we spent some time apart while he dated someone else, then when they broke up we started hanging out again. But anyway, I admitted I liked him and he’s like “I’m not saying I don’t feel the same way, but I just don’t know where I’m at right now”. But we’ve continued to hang out as friends, nothing really non-friends has happened as I’m being careful not to be the one to make any moves. However, now I’m not so sure if I want to like him anymore. All my friends and family think he’s no good for me. My mom, who is my best friend, has been around him, and she’s nice to him, but she really doesn’t like him and what he does to me. At first I thought it was just me being BPD and idolizing him, and that is part of it, but I really think he also does tear me down. I just don’t know what to do or how to cut him off if I needed to. It really hurts me because there are wonderful things about him, and part of me still has feelings. Thoughts?