Okay so I'm having this weird thing going on in my head right now.

I want to change how I look, I want to rearrange my room, I want to delete EVERYTHING I've ever posted anywhere. I'm feeling overwhelmed but not in a bad way more just there's a lot going on right now and where do I start?

I'm okay with feeling like this because it always happens after a bad episode and jump starts me back into my life again, but does anyone else experience this and if so, what are your tips to calm this down a bit?

I want to kind of stick to one idea, but it's like my brain tells me to do everything all at once. I want to do my makeup and I want to dye my hair. I want to sort my entire room out and chuck everything away. I want to watch 5 different movies at once. I want to go on a hike. Everything I could do I want to do.

I struggle with sense of self during episodes like this. I don't really get a chance to think about it because of the chaos in my brain, but right now I don't feel like I know who I am. Should I change my name? Should I change the way I dress? Maybe I should act like this person in this show. (not actually doing any of those, it's just my current thought process)

I feel like a kid having a sugar rush and everything is very bright and moving very very fast right now