I went through so damn much in middle school and high school. Especially high school. So much heartbreak and stress and dealing with fake people left and right. And i was so damn insecure. And looking back i really shouldnt have been. I used to get so much attention that i would just put to the side. Probably because of how insecure i was and how much i was stuck on someone. Idek how to put into words the stuff ive been through but it was hell. Then after high school. I start to have scalp issues and hair loss. And oh man there isnt much awareness to this but it isnt talked about how damn near impossible is to cure scalp issues for a lot of people. Even when going to multiple dermatologists. I graduated in 2020 and the scalp issues and hair loss havent gone away to this day. Back to how i was so insecure back in high school, one of my most favorite things about me was my curly hair. Now imagine how much more insecure i feel now.. and my scalp is always so damn itchy. I also fell in love with someone so strong in the past year and she left me. I miss her so much. So so damn much. I havent been wanting to look for a job again because of my stupid scalp. My life is so hell. I wish i coulc experience my life so much better cause i have a home and food and clothes all that but i cant fully embrace life when i feel so miserable. Im grateful to my mom for always taking care of me. But i wish i could get out there and get shit done. But this scalp issue is so much for me. Ive been suicidal cause of it but i dont want to be:/ i want to not want to die. Theres so much things that make happy but i cant be fully happy. I hate my life so much