A few months back I had a bit of a mental breakdown. I didn’t want to be alive anymore and I left work suddenly, leaving my co-workers to call the police. I had been talking to friend about my struggles and she suggested I have an inpatient hospital admission. I agreed and spoke to a psychiatrist and then all of a sudden she stopped replying to my messages. She would read them and then just not reply. I felt extremely triggered, abandoned and rejected. I cried every day for two weeks. About six weeks later she messaged me saying she didn’t “hate” me she just needed “space”. Since then she’s barely spoken to me. She had a birthday party and didn’t invite me. I sent her a message to apologise for my behaviour and she read it again and didn’t reply. How do I cope with this? I just feel so crap about it all.