I’m so done, I do everything I can to try and do right by people but I’ve realized it’s all because I can’t give up control. I am stuck in an endless loop of feeling comfortable with people then Fucking it up. Whether it’s getting feelings for a friend or saying something at the wrong time. I try to be there for the people I care about but I keep fucking it up. When even the smallest thing like telling a friend I have feelings for them I get trapped in my anxiety. I ruminate and think about it for hours on end. I can’t leave my room I can’t eat I can’t sleep I just think about it and stay thinking about all possible outcomes that could come from it. It’s not even always because of a specific thing could be anything. I have unbelievably bad panic attacks. And take medication but for the life of me I can’t stop focussing on when I screw up. I feel trapped in a cycle of anxiety because I can’t control the things around me. I need to stop focussing on the past mistakes but I just can’t get my mind to stop. How do I give up control? It seems like every time I let go of control shit hits the fan and every time I take control I fuck it up. What do I do?