I don't necessarily feel sad. I'm not sure what I feel.

I feel so bored 24/7. I really want to make my own game but I don't know any coding languages and I can't find anything to teach me so I can't do that.

I really want to just play a game with one of my friends but she's better friends with more people than me which means she might invite them to her house as well (her dad would probably make me come over there, fair enough) and I hate them because they bully me so I won't do that. 

I really want to just play a game online with some of my other friends but they're only on at night which means if I'm on at 4am I might wake up my mom and she'll get mad so I get stressed the whole time so I'm not sure if I should do that. 

I really want a job because I love doing things with computers but I just don't have the money to but I'm only 14 so I can't get a real job, I live to far away from town/neighbors to get a side hustle, and I can't do anything at home because the only stuff that needs done is stuff my mom won't let me do (like taking down trees). And I'm not sure how to make any money online because if I look it up it's always stuff that I either can't do (like teaching english to people) or isn't realistic (pays $0.20/hour).

It's becoming hard to just turn on my laptop and watch shows at this point. I use to watch some romance anime which was comforting but I just can't bring myself to do that for some reason so I starting just reading the books but even that feels like a chore at this point.

There's more but those are the things that have me stuck. 

I've accepted that my crush more likely doesn't feel that same and I'm okay with that. I've accepted that my siblings don't like me and my parents just won't listen when I try to talk to them about things I want to talk about, I'm comfortable with that. I understand that it's just hard to hang out with that friend 1 on 1 because shes better friends with others, I'm okay with that. But for some reason it's like every reason I've had to be sad, whether small/stupid reason or big, I've also become comfortable with. And yet I'm still so emotionless almost. I'm stuck. Is this depression?