i don’t even know who i am anymore. i don’t know why i’m more anxious and i can’t even organise my thoughts. i don’t know why this is happening or what’s going on. it’s scary and i don’t know what to do. it’s hard to talk to people now and i feel like it’s hard to trust people. hell, i even asked my mum to organise an getting me help and she hasn’t. i did the hard thing so why isn’t the good thing happening now???? it fucking hurts and i’m losing myself. i just want to be happy. i just wanna be comfortable and happy and safe. but i can’t be. i don’t wanna have thoughts about hurting myself. i just wanna be better. i don’t wanna hurt everyone around me.