first post here, I hope i haven't made any mistakes please let me know if i need to tag or edit anything!

i made the mistake after my diagnosis a few years ago to look for online resources and information on living with BPD and was just met with books about how evil and abusive BPD sufferers are and how to escape them, walls of forums of people who hate everyone with BPD (i completely understand many people have been harmed by someone in their life with BPD and therefore they're gonna project, i know they really are hurting and need therapy but its a bit scary), generally nothing helpful and nothing but bile and how evil and stupid and pathetic people with this diagnosis are. even trying to see if there was any support on here i just came across threads full of hate (one quite popular one saying how all cluster B's are basically evil psychopaths, bruh??). 

i know many people have been hurt or abused by people with the diagnosis and they absolutely deserve their spaces to vent but i really wish it wasn't such an overwhelming amount of demonisation. I've never hurt anyone while suffering (except myself of course) as i'm someone who turns everything inwards, mostly BPD has made me vulnerable to abusive or manipulative people or torturing myself rather than being a monster. (not to say that if you have hurt others that you can't heal and change this is just me) idk how do you guys cope with this? i find it hard to know people i've never met hate me that much and it makes it hard to get close to people bc if i have to tell them whats going on with me they might hate me. especially thinking about a post i saw while looking for bpd stuff where basically a guy was saying a girl he really liked and was interested in had just been diagnosed with BPD and he needed to cut her off. that's totally that person's right to do so, but again stuff like this really gives me the horrors about trusting anyone. sorry for rambling lol