I had to get money from my grandma for a car repair and I feel like an awful person for it. I try to do everything I can not to be a burden on anyone and it feels like I always am. Suicide crosses my mind a lot. Even small problems put me on the edge because it's hard for me to cope with anything. 

I'm trying to do everything right by taking medicine, going to therapy and attending school but I'm scared that no matter what I do suicide is always gonna be the end of the road for me.