

Who else has noticed more creeps/predators preying on your vulnerabilities due to trauma?

Before I processed my trauma and realized I had PTSD, I would always put on a fake face and be really confident, positive and social around others in college (I was in my higher self a lot). I remember feeling like a lot of men respected me and it scared away many creeps and predators looking for an easier target. I mean yes, I still experienced creepiness but I also felt many were scared away because I was popular.


But after college, then i started facing the reality of my trauma and now 8 years later, I am allowing myself to "go crazy." Like I am not being fake with anyone. I allow myself to feel my different emotions in public, like being sad or angry at work. I've told people I have PTSD. I avoid people, eye contact, self isolating, 
am not as confident and secure. One thing I have especially been noticing is I have been being creeped on more and I think it is because these predators can sense my vulnerabilities now more. They choose me because I am an easy target where they can get away with abusing me because no one will believe me since they think I am crazy.

I was harassed at a support group several months ago and I can't stop thinking about what happened. I was stuck in a room with men  who sexualized me by getting boners, stared, leered at my legs and butt, then one stared at my legs, ran out of the room then creepily waiting for me while I was alone to walk me to my car and ask where I lived. At parties, men would touch my body at parties because they couldn't "help it." The last two times I was in the ER, the health care providers unnecessarily flicked my breasts while they put a strap on my arms for an EKG. The doctor sexually looked my body and legs. A male nurse leered at my body as I walked to and from the bathroom. While I was in school internships, I was sexually harassed by two leaders. One stalked me, leered at me, controlled me, intimidated me, wouldn't take no for an answer, and was angry whenever I spoke to men. The other one followed me around, became aroused around me, and told me I remind him of his wife and if he had another son, he would have him marry me. This creepiness from men has been happening all my life starting with my dad and I am tired of it. I don't even do my hair anymore, lost weight, wear baggy clothes and avoid men so I can avoid potential sexualization and creeps.

 I spend most of my days dissociating and replaying traumatic memories. It has taken over my life.  I feel so stuck and I am struggling to get out. I also think because I am so stuck in my trauma, my vibration is low and my victim mentality is attracting these predators.

Who else relates and has noticed more creeps have been coming out due to your vulnerabilities related to trauma?