After the last year is think I might have BPD due to many symptoms that I have shown. After reading researching BPD and taking a few tests online I scored very high for those who might have the disorder.  My question is what are the consequences of seeing a doctor and he/she determining that I do have BPD? I'm going to graduate college very soon and my grades have slipped from above average to below a 3.0 gpa. I'm afraid (almost terrified) the a diagnosis will hurt my ability to secure a job despite thinking that I need help even though I think I can handle holding a full time job. I've been close to committing suicide since I've been 17 and am afraid I might end it any day when it just seems right.  How does talking to a doctor affect your professional life? Does it appear on your personal record and will the people interviewing me see that I have talked to a doctor about BPD?  Thanks a lot this threat makes me feel like I'm not on my own.  Just writing this makes me more unstable and afraid I'm losing my mind. I hope this helps