I have a really pathetic urge to see every single bad situation as an opportunity to blow it out of proportion and act like a victim so that others give me attention and “prove” that they care about me. 
A lot of the time I don’t even really care about the thing that happened, I just want someone to validate me and my feelings and make me feel “seen.”
If I feel like I don’t get enough attention I feel like absolute garbage. I feel angry, betrayed, hopeless, useless, lonely, you name it.
I spiral out of control and all of a sudden it’s not about what happened, it’s about their response.

It’s so fucking embarrassing and immature. I wish I could see it while it’s happening but I feel totally justified in the moment.