For background, I'm on 4 psych meds but they don't seem to be doing their job. I'm diagnosed bipolar and general anxiety. Some life events in the last 4 years have left me feeling very alone and lost. I feel like I have no purpose, get very little enjoyment out of life, and often fantasize about death. Often feel like I'm just treading water to get to the next day. I would sleep forever if I didn't have to go to work. I want to feel better and I even know what would help me get there. I need friends, a job or hobby where I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something worthwhile, and a little more structure and routine while at the same time feeling more independent (I'm 21 and still living at home, really want to get out). I can probably do the last one right now if I had the will. The first two are easier said than done. Anyways, I don't feel like I'm done fighting yet but I often feel very close to giving up. Maybe someone else feels the same. Just thought I'd rant here. Any advice is appreciated. Have a good day