Your with her every day laughing so happy together ive seen the way you are together we both know she has a history of liking you but you continue to fool around with her. i just feel so shitty when i see it because i know im not the same i know i dont bring the same joy i know im just difficult for you and you probably hate me and if you do just do it break up with me get it over and done with because i cant deal with the confusion. im not good enough i know that im a safety net im so scared that's all i am a safety net. im so scared please i never wanted this to happen i realise now im just a backup and im accepting it.