i made the very abrupt decision to stop taking my anti-depressants/sleeping meds. I'm not entirely sure why, other than i would shove the meds into a box because i felt like i didn't deserve to sleep. And then i decided i want to feel things, not feel a contrived feeling a bundle of pills give me, if you know what I'm saying? A week off my medication and my anxiety is at the same severity it used to be, i haven't slept in four days, and I'm thinking about ways to kill myself. Something i hadn't really been thinking about for a while. All i know is i do not want to be on medications, and that i need to figure out how to sleep and deal with these extreme thoughts. I'm not sure how though... Anyone else have experiences like this? How do you cope?