hi, i hope this is ok to post. i was diagnosed with bpd a few months ago and i am glad to put a name to what i’ve been struggling with. although now, i am recognizing my behavioral patterns overtime as my bpd when i am having an episode or heightened emotions. 

i have began taking an anti depressants and did a few therapy sessions but can’t afford to continue the therapy. my main issue is handling my emotions. i lash out a lot and have been splitting, mostly with my bf. i’ve been getting obsessively jealous and wanting his attention on me 24/7 or i feel extremely anxious. i impulsively quit three jobs this past year when i felt attacked. i have no idea how to cope and calm myself down in the moment. 

does anyone have any coping mechanisms or anything they can offer me? i feel a tad hopeless