Im  trying TO KEOEP GOING FOR my friends and mom but ever y week just keeps getting harder

started drinking tog et myself to fall asleep against and i catn figure out is being drunk alone  mroe dangerous than being sober by myself.. I have most things a peson can ask for but cant ge myself to just be content. Ive been tellings myself that once something happens ill finally be fine then it happens and i feel the same fucking wya Its been years and i cant keep lying to myself anymroe

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