I'm 18, soon to be a senior in high school

I was living my best life

I was the starting running back for the school football team, I had countless friends who cared about me, I had a beautiful girlfriend who I was going to spend the rest of my life with, I was studying to be a physical therapist at one of the best schools in my state. 

Then I lost everything 

A Knee injury costed most of my junior season and a botched surgery has costed me my whole senior season. The love of my life left me, I have no friends in sight. My grades are slowly falling and now my future is in jeopardy. 

When I wake up all I feel is pain

Any emotion that I can muster is crying 

I've cut myself to the point where I have scars covering my whole body

I've lost my hobbies, my friends, my love, my career, everything that I live for

I try to look for the positive and I can't find anything 

I cant even find one reason why I shouldn't kill myself