Climate change was something I was always aware of but the reality of it only crashed down recently. And it’s just ruined me. 

I can’t do anything without my intrusive thoughts killing me over it. I can’t go outside because I’ll start overthinking every thing I do. If I go outside, my mind will start telling me stuff about how this will all be gone soon. If I hug my cat, I’ll think about the environmental effects of feeding him, and keeping him. Everything I see I wonder about how much co2 it produces. I can barely eat a meal without wondering about its effect on the environment, wondering if ingredients were imported. I can barely drink water anymore. Can‘t exist in my room because I‘ll still be thinking about it. Feeling bad.

I’m forced to go on a flight tomorrow and I’m swamped with anxiety. I feel so bad. Not only is anxiety about flying there, but also the guilt of producing so much co2. 

I’ll get help, yes, once the chance arises, but for now I’m just stuck here. It‘s killing me.