ive been doing volunteer work at a equine rescue centre since i was 12 so like 10 years and every year they have a charity event that i do always help out at and this year it was today and i had every intention of going but my anxiety has me in a chokehold so i lied and said i couldn’t go last minute and let them down and now i feel like this huge disappointment and that they’re all talking shit about me bc they defo are and it’s all i can think about. my brother also donated a free session of his work as a prize for someone to win and i accidently gave the owner of the centre my old phone number instead of his and i didn’t realise until she called it so i fucked up there and i’m just fucking melting rn and ik this is literally nothing in the grand scheme of things but i’m literally dreading going in this coming week bc i feel so fucked ugh someone stab me in the chest , bury my body and grind my bones into cocaine as a thank you from me