Hey everyone. I would like to preface this by saying I have not been formally diagnosed with BPD as I cannot afford counseling at this point in time. That being said, I really do think I have BPD. When looking at the signs, symptoms, etc. it just feels like I'm looking in the mirror. 

What should I do to control this until I can get help? Please delete if not allowed. I'm just really sick and tired of what I'm going through. I can't let it ruin another relationship.