I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression and I feel like crap. I’m doing college online for Computer Science, and it’s sometimes difficult to even get up in the morning to do my course work. 

Everyday I keep thinking to myself that I’m wasting my time going to college because I feel like my future is going to be nothing. I haven’t finished a course in 2 months and I’m starting to feel like an idiot for that. No matter how hard I try; I just can’t seem to do good enough. When I wanted to learn how to code on my own, I kept giving up even when I tell myself not to. 

I know it might be better to go to college physically, but I just can’t see myself being around other students without panicking. I want to keep pushing forward with my studies, however I keep losing motivation to keep going. All I see myself doing is just playing video games for the rest of my life. I want to find motivation, I want to have a good future, all I want is to find my passion and keep moving forward. That’s all I want at this point.