So for the past few years I've been quite social, while I was in school just was known as "the popular kid" or whatever u wanna call it,but these days I've lost my will to live,it started off as me simply not seeing the point in life,studying nihilism and all of those,afterwards nothing I did was giving me serotonin anymore,I tried not to self diagnose but ended up doing so countless times and now here I am developing more bad habits each day,desensitized to fucked up things,withdrawal from family and friends,being told daily how much of a boring individual I am because I don't see the point in forming relationships with people anymore. My dad recently had a brush with death and while everyone is concerned here I am cringing because he suddenly believes in God because he almost died and annoyed at the fact that he didn't.Friends have definitely lost hope in me everytime they message it feels like they wanna make fun of me but they still have respect for me since I used to be a really outgoing person,they kinda just avoid me unless I get drunk and communicate with them which usually ends with me saying something unironically dark. The point I'm trying to make is people aren't gonna feel sorry for you,it's not the movies where everyone cares,they only care when u die,they'll claim that they wish they saw the signs.Ive had a rough 4 years,went from a really confident extrovert with no problems to an introvert with anger issues and social anxiety.Life is a bitch and I know that I haven't gone through half of what some of yall went through and that makes u stronger than me I hope yall are doing well