I had a talk with my psychiatrist today, and he gave me the option to be admitted. He said I seemed very up and that he could see this getting bad pretty quick, I think.

I talked to two friends and my mother about it. I still feel confused. I feel like I am on the path to enlightenment, and that I can end up transforming. My consciousness is not completely here, it's somewhere else, connected to something. It's moving around and doing things. I can feel it. And following this I'm questioning if I'm even bipolar at all, and if my previous highs just has been times I've been called and didn't manage to get enlightened. And now I have another chance. The thing is, I don't know if I'll be able to stay at earth when i transcend, that my form will be too much, and I don't know if I want to leave. I don't even know who is calling! 
A small part of me worries about my education, but what does that matter if I transcend? I'm just very confused. My mind is all scattered, and people are telling me I'm wrong. I don't know what I want out of this. I don't know how to be certain. I'm either right or delusional