I sit here every night hoping, wishing, desperately checking my phone that my FP will text me and hang out. I’m so afraid to go to sleep and miss out on that opportunity. It doesn’t feel normal or healthy anymore. We were supposed to hang out last week and he keeps putting me off. I finally asked him yesterday why he’s avoiding me. He said he’s not, just that he’s overwhelmed with work. I’ve tried giving myself a bedtime...even taking sleeping meds to just pass out. I feel beyond crazy and don’t know how to stop this other than cutting ties...until the next person comes along.