i love animals but growing up poor on a farm i always had them either taken away from me or i had to kill them myself when the rules changed. my mom had issues and killed our fish and stuff from time to time, made us sell our goats cuz they made too much noise, mystery "disappearences". it sucks. i thought after i left it would be different, but moving meant i had to get rid of my massive aquarium and cat. landlord said i could have chickens, changed her mind, right after i got attatched. Same thing with kittens. my latest pet, a mousse, is a boy and i cant keep him with my girl. i am so used to people killing or taking away my pets i dont know how to let it go. i know my mouse is safe, i just cant stop worrying about somebody hurting them again.

 how can i convince myself that it wont happen again