Someone stopped being friends with me in seventh grade, someone I only knew for seven months, and I have been debilitatingly obsessed with them for four years since. I literally think of them ~3 hours a day. I am in constant pain, I cannot function at school. 

I lost sixty pounds and stopped being obese, started working out, and generally got my life together. I managed to stop thinking about them for ten months straight during quarantine. You know what? I feel WORSE now. I'm described as being insanely sweet and fun to talk to, but somehow I am still not attractive to anyone. I still have literally no friends that stay for more than a month :(

No amount of therapy or life choices have been able to fix me. I'm on a four month wait list for DBT, that's my only hope right now. 

I can't be the only one, right?