I've taken so many personas from different people and had to be a certain person at my old job for so long I don't even know what parts of me are real.  What of me has just been created in response to being what others want?  I feel like I am slowly going insane and the only "me" I feel comfortable with is who I am when alone with my husband.  So now I feel crazy when he's not with me bc I don't know anything about how to be or feel bc I feel all the things and have multiple reactions to those feelings when alone.  I don't know how I can figure out who I really am and not sure if anyone has any idea on figuring it out?  Or a start at least if you've had similar problem? My therapist is leaving (that's a WHOLE other issue) and I'll be starting with a new one not sure when, but I need to stay out of the hospital in the meantime.  Any ideas?????