Im such a fool. I spent so much time and effort on trying to enjoy the company of others and smoking weed that Ive made no life progress since high school. Im 25 now and was just dumped by my 4.5yr gf that I thought was "the one". Problems is that I supported her to really help her get to where she is now (money, emotional, research, school work, advice, move to new city) and I absent mindedly progressed her life without following...just letting myself fall behind into complacency...Ive sat around for 5+ years living at home still with nothing to show but some world travel and a lot of regret. Ive also spent countless hours trying to make connections online only to be ignored after a few messages most of the time. And to add on to heartbreak I've got major life changes on the horizon. My family is being kicked out of the home we rented for the past 12 years with nowhere to go atm, Im starting a new job I fear I may have no energy for from not sleeping well for basically a year+, and the health of all of my family members including me is dwindling. Im sure no one gives a shit based on all the post rejections and non responses ive gotten on reddit, but if anyone is actually reading this and has a bit of time and empathy I could really use it. Ive never been this close to pulling the trigger and I just want to know someone cares. Sorry if this is all so manic but im so mentally fucked up from all of this.