I’ve been in a relationship for 3 heads. He is GREAT. He handles my breakdowns, and the “go away” oases really well. But I just... don’t think he understands BPD. He says he’s read about the condition, but I need to read about personal experience, like this thread. I don’t know how to explain to him that when I do something wrong, he gets frustrated, I say oh my god I’m so sorry I will never do that ever again, break down crying and want to die. He handles me so well without understanding my condition fully, I just wish he’d do more research on personal experience in relationships for instance the other day he say I need to stop spending so much money on online shopping. I broke down and said “I don’t do it ever again” he said why are you so manipulative sometimes? I was like you don’t understand...... that is the solution my brain comes up with. And I want to die when too her upset with me. One week I’m fine, the next I am a nightmare cut off from the world, feeling like I’m not good enough for friends, my family or boyfriend. I push people away because I don’t want them to see me I guess. I just want BPD to be recognized. How can I get others to validate my BPD? I just want to feel better.