I am tired of being so impulsive. I am tired of wanting to be with other people while I am with someone who loves me more than anything else. How more messed up can one be? I hate the person I am. I wish I was normal. Why can’t I be normal? How much I crave a normal ordinary happy relationship. I look at people and wonder how do they stay together. On the other hand, I talk to every new person and look at them as a potential partner. I hate me. I hate the person I am. I just want to be normal. Is it too much to ask for? 

“Sorrow found me when I was young, sorrow waited, sorrow won.”