i’ve had anxiety almost my whole life, and i never really got treated for it because it started to feel like my shitty normal. early last year, i got diagnosed w/ a panic disorder and i really can’t live like this. there’s so many little things now that are causing panic attacks like caffeine, deadlines, driving on freeways, etc. if i’m not having a panic attack, then i feel like i’m on the brink of it. i’ve never manually breathed this much in my life. i want to be open to the idea of taking meds but i have a huge fear that i would be hyper conscious of it being in my system and i’d have panic attacks as a result of that. i’d just like some words of wisdom please.