Started going to counseling for this and to address past trauma from a long term abusive relationship. Since it's the end of the school year, my long distance boyfriend has had a last minute bar outing with his professors and fellow TAs and last minute gone to the bars with his friend and GF since he's in town. He barely goes out so this sudden increase caused me to distance myself. However we had a long emotional convo about how things like this trigger me and make me feel abandoned because of my past relationship. Then immediately after this conversation he asks if it's cool if he meets his friend and his friends brother again at the bars before he goes out of town. I said it's cool cause I never want I control his decisions; however, all I can think about is how fucking insensitive it is to even want to do that. Why would anyone think after talking about deep emotional trauma that then going out would make someone not feel like shit after. How am I supposed to trust telling him these things if this is what he chose to do after rather than spending time with me and watching movies with him or something. All I want to do now is just distance myself further and ignore him or tell him I need space or break up with him over text. Especially since he's gonna be going out with his advisor and lab mates on Tuesday so thinking about that pisses me off further. Am I being insane and it's just splitting or am I right I just don't even know anymore...