My dad is bipolar and my mom has BPD. I have BPD along with other disorders. I (26F) moved back to my childhood home two years ago for personal reasons. My parents divorced last year, leaving me and my mom living in my childhood home. My mom recently got a boyfriend and is planning on moving in with him and his adult kids. They refinanced on the house years ago which makes getting rid of it difficult. So she is planning on making payments while I live here long enough to get my shit back together. 
I’m making this post because I’m struggling with the relief that the abuse I experienced during my childhood is over, but yearning for the abuse to continue. The family dynamic I’ve always seen as dysfunctional continue to be dysfunctional. I feel so many emotions I can’t begin to process.