Like literally batshit fucking crazy. I do a damn good job at hiding it too. I'm probably one of the coolest people you will EVER meet but BPD just makes all my redeeming qualities go down the drain. I am very aware of how crazy I am and I continue to be in a relationship with someone that further exacerbates my BPD. I'm some sort of sadist or emotional masochist (also a sexual masochist, ha.)

I string guys along because it's fun and entertaining and empowering. Though there is one guy I actually like but don't know what to do with. Ughhhhh

Is there any research effort trying to find a cure for us? I'm about to start that shit cause I don't know how any of us are alive right now. 