After the third time asking. My mom finally decided to get me a counselor. She got me someone who specializes in anxiety and depression. I feel like I can finally begin living. I've wanted this for so long. I also want a diagnosis really badly. Is it weird that I'm oddly excited? I feel like I've been waiting for this my entire life. 

The only thing I'm worried about is that my problems reach far past just anxiety and depression. I have extremely bad issues with my gender and identity. It's also super hard for me to trust others, and I always end up avoiding people. 

I really dont want to tell my mom about this. We have a terrible relationship. So I dont know how I'm gonna tell the doctor about this, or fill out the forum for the appointment.