For reference I’m 16 years old and a sophomore in high school. When my depression started to get really bad I stopped caring at school even though previously I was a “gifted kid” and quite frankly a perfect student, but around the end of 8th grade fell into a depression. I stopped caring about my sports, my grades, etc. but because of covid last year, this is my first finals week and I feel like I’m starting to care. But not the healthy kind of care. Like the kind where if I fail, the Christmas lights won’t be the only thing hanging. But I also don’t care enough to actually study. So I feel as if I am hurdling towards an impending doom. It’s not like I want to die. But at this point it just feels like something that is going to happen.