I'm 26. I discovered the internet when I was about 11 years old or something. And it was so fucking awesome! I was doing so much creative shit. I built actual friendships! I was authentic and honest. I was free on the internet. Free to fuck up and restart. Free to explore. Free to express myself. Free to try stuff out. In my case it was better than real life

These days I'm starting to feel actual hate towards the internet. What is this shit? I'm just mindlessly scrolling through reddit, Facebook, Instagram and Youtube. I'm lucky if I can get myself to mindlessly play some boring game. There are still moments where I have fun, but they are rare. Maybe an hour from 11 hours doing mindless shit was actually enjoyable.

Everything seems fake. Polished. Copied. Everyone wants clicks. Everyone wants to get famous for the most basic crap. Everyone wants to be positive. Anonymity? Oh please. Instagram pretty much automatically connects you with all your "friends". How? No idea! Clickbait everywhere. The same memes Everywhere. Everything is predictable. It's like some shallow simulation. At least there are some trainwreck influencers!

I'm so sick and tired of it. I wish I could say that I'm the exception, but I'm just the same. I'm part of the system. I'm a mindless scroll &amp; click &amp; copy zombie. When I put my phone away I literally stare into space. Nothing comes up. Nothing is left. Not anymore.

They got us addicted and it works so well. My thumb constantly hurts these days? Does it make me stop? No.

Before Christmas I thought "After New Years I need a break from people and media.". I dropped that idea. But maybe I should just do it. I'm so bored and depressed. I once was so creative.

The people topic would be a completely different one, but it's also just the same. Just mindless, boring conversations in my life. Nothing authentic. Nothing genuine. Am I stuck in the Sims?