I was doing really well a couple weeks ago but my anxiety has come back full force recently.

When I go through these spells I tend to ruminate about things from the past that I feel shameful and embarrassed about. I think rumination from the past has held me back in life.

I’m also 40 years old and I feel like I’ve cut corners. In my mind it’s like I wasted my 20s up to my mid 30s partying. I guess what im trying to say that I think I should be further ahead in life but get stuck with anxiety holding me back and ruminating about the past and people from my past think about me.

I’ve had a lot of outside life things that happend that  were out of my control. I didn’t have the tools at the time to deal with them.

Anyway, does anyone out there have similar issues?