Hi all, sorry for my post. I am really lost, I moved 8 months now to a new country 3000km from my homeland, I am currently studying a masters degree (even tho I have already a masters from my country) with a new language which makes it on top of the subjects more difficult for me.

Now I am just thinking about returning to my country and finding a little job and being close to family and friends, because I feel depressed and alone here and I am scared of failure, and lately some suicidal thought are taking over again (I tried to do it in 2015 and my mom stopped me and after I got therapy and it went well) 

My parents are soo supportive, they aren't forcing me to stay here if I don't want to, but I wanna make them proud and don't fail.

The other thing is that all my classmate that graduated with me, have now a good job in my homeland and are close to there families and enjoying a chill life, while I am here stressing 24/7.

I am lost, and sorry for the long post.