I cant seem to get this scenario out of my head. I keep thinking about it and obsessing. I know my bf loves me a lot and i want to trust him but i dont. Idk his poor communication is what makes me worried and his 1 friend.

i think i devalue myself and cant fathom why he would find me more attractive than her when a good portion of his friends slept with her.

i have brought up my insecurities to both of them lol and they both reassured me.

but its cycling thru my head again so i keep having nightmares about it and i feel like my brain wants to say ha!!! i was right all along, this was too good to be true!!?

why cant i just enjoy my relationship.