I feel that I am always drifting through life, without purpose or a destination. It doesn't feel like I am going anywhere. I am surrounded by people, who I was convinced were my real friends, but continue to prove that they really dont like me. I am mostly friends with girls, im not romantically interested in any of them, and everyone always gives me the hardest time, always saying "are you dating them" or "do you like them". Its the worst feeling ever. I have been friends with these people for about two months, and I cant help but notice that things with them used to be better, I used to have more fun around them, they used to talk to me more, but now I think that they are starting to be bored of me. I have devoted all of my time with these people. I am always there for them, and I feel that I can never turn on them for help. This one girl in particular, I was especially close with, but now she is avoiding me, and just giving me signs that she dosnt like me. I asked her to the dance, and she said yes, that was a week ago, and that was one of the highest points in my life, but now, she is saying "I dont really want to go with you anymore" and it makes me feel so bad because she is my closest friend and it is like a knife in the chest that she is starting to slowly, gradually, back away from me. I just feel like nobody understands, I went into the bathroom during lunch today, and I just cried, I cried and cried because im holding too many emotions and I have nobody. When I went back to lunch they could obviously tell I was crying, and one of my "friends" said, stop being a baby, I could tell it was in a playful tone but it still made me want to cry more. I just need to air my thoughts, I've been holding on to this for too long.