hello everyone, I just want to start by saying that im not officially diagnosed, but Im almost certain that I have bpd. Me and my girlfriend got together around 6 months ago, and we live together. 
Lately I’ve been in a really bad place emotionally/mentally. I keep having outbursts and my impulsive thoughts are out of control. I keep doing things that are probably pushing her away, I love her so much but I can’t control it. Whenever something small happens I get really upset, and I get the impulse to break up with her; but when I start to feel better I don’t want that anymore. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to cope. I don’t want to hurt her feelings by snapping at her or getting upset about small things, and I don’t want to hurt her by hurting myself. I don’t know what to do.