I lost my job and haven't been able to find one that will sustain me, have no financial support anymore, was sick all the time, am now sicker all the time after moving into a cheap apartment will all kinds of problems detrimental to my health, am rapidly losing connection with my family, and am worried I'm about to start rapidly losing touch with my gf.

At a certain point you just need to recognize that you're no good at the game and just stop playing. But, I'm too cowardly to do that, so I'm sitting here slowly fading away instead.