Is this how it's going to be until I die? I just watch people/pets I care about grow old and die, until it's me that bites the dust? This fucking sucks. I was already feeling like absolute shit and then this happens? I'm never getting another pet for myself. Every day for the past 4 years I've wished I wouldn't wake up. Life has been either monotonous bullshit or fucking terrible. FUCK. Someone please just take me out with their car tomorrow, I don't want to go to work.