I don’t where to even post this. But I’m not doing well lately. Im sick of pretending. It feels like everything has gone wrong lately. Life going nowhere. Still stuck in the same situation. I mean, look at the state of the world. We are about to enter a repeat year of this nonsense and most people seem to following the same orders. Is this shit going to end? No it’s not. I feel I have no one to relate to. If people knew the way I saw the world, they would be shocked. What feels like clouds of darkness surrounding me recently, it’s so hard to break through these negative thoughts. The end result being is plagued by anxiety, depression, loneliness, anger. I feel alienated and excluded from society, constantly made out to be someone I’m not. I don’t know what to do with my life. Nowhere to go. I can’t sleep and I don’t want to. Mid year was okay.. but I’m not okay now, I’m just sick of the same things happening.