I got diagnosed with bipolar at (25M) throw away account 

And yea it sucks but I’m glad I know now I always felt weird and off I thought I was a Sociopath during my teens I could feel strong emotion when watching tv but when going through something that needed my emotion I would shut off or end it without thinking about it. I always explained to my friends and family I could feel strong emotion when I know I shouldn’t be or strong anger or excitement when there’s nothing to make me feel that way to have normal conversation but it feels like you’re on the biggest high and you cant form your thoughts correctly the strong amount of serotonin going to my head sometimes and it made me feel high like I’m on drugs and I loved it I chased that feeling almost like I had to have it every day at 15 I started to steal my parents medication to get that same high that I got randomly it would work for short amount of times I always did the most dangerous stuff and thought I was so cool lucky now when I get those thoughts to do something crazy or illegal I can change my mind to not do it much easier than when I was a teen but I still struggle with my anger when I’m annoyed I don’t like being that person and I no longer want to be that person I’m hoping I get better with relationships l never took medications for bipolar until now so I hope to see change. I don’t want to feel like a monster anymore