I hate being emotionally dysregulated and easily triggered.

I hate that I’m such a sensitive person.

I hate the intense jealousy and the intense insecurity.

I hate groveling to abusive lovers because I’m more afraid of them leaving me than the pain they cause me.

I hate being desensitized to abusive behavior.

I hate being abusive and explosively angry myself.

I hate the extreme emotional pain I feel and how it makes me suicidal because I don’t know how to handle it.

I hate not being able to trust my own feelings and thoughts.

I’m so lost and confused. It hurts so bad and that’s the only thing I’m sure of right now.