I had a long depressive episode that lasted for months, and have neglected almost all my duties in clubs/group works. I'm not not in any club. There are some group works which I did pass and contributed to, but I passed them near the deadline. There are also some that I didn't contribute anything to, but I made sure that I contacted my professors and passed an individual work instead of claiming their work as my own.

I also have lost contact with some of my friends. The reached out to me at one point, but I feel like I'm not yet ready to reconnect with them.

I'm now starting to redeem myself slowly. I'm taking a bath everyday, eating everyday, when back then I barely ate and bathe. I'm also contributing to group projects now. I feel guilty for everything I've neglected, when I could've just maybe messaged others that I'm going through a tough time instead of just disappearing off the internet completely. I feel like every group mate &amp; club mate I have hates me now. 

I don't know what to do, and whenever there are group assessments, I feel so ashamed of myself that it gives me anxiety.