I’m scared of an afterlife which is my main reason I don’t plan to commit suicide. I don’t find anything interesting anymore. I frequently think about death. For like several hours a day. My grandparents don’t take my depression and anxiety seriously. Neither does my mom. I’m 15 and I don’t know what to do. I’m not in public school and I don’t have therapy until June 17th. I don’t have distractions or coping mechanisms. I don’t know what it will take for people to realize I’m not okay.