Usually, I could always write something about what makes me depressed and I can always write how depression is killing me. But lately, it’s been different. I don’t even know what’s wrong anymore. I couldn’t even write how I feel or why I’m feeling that way. It just feels like I’m choking on my own words and feelings. I feel so dead inside. And when I finally feel something, it’s the feeling of being useless. I wish I was dead.