So my cycle has always been irregular. And technically I always skip around this time of year. However because April/May was supposed to be one period (was supposed to start the end of April and finish the beginning of May) and now June is late I'm 50 days late and on cycle day 96. But technically I only skipped 1 and now a 2nd is late. 

I guess I should mention I have no pregnancy symptoms, my boyfriend has never cum inside me, and if we've had sex 4 times in the last two months it's a lot. So I'm not a virgin but the odds of me being pregnant aren't exactly high. Logically speaking. Anxiety, unfortunately, isn't logical. 

Anyways!! I took a test. Actually I took 3. I had my best friend and boyfriend look at them. I swear I see a line. They (nicely) said I'm crazy. (I also am almost legally blind and have a lot of fuzzy vision and floaters and stufff. My boyfriend has almost perfect vision and my best friend does have perfect vision.) One of the tests was even the digital one that clearly says "not pregnant". 

But my brain keeps making shit up.

"Maybe your pee wasn't concentrated enough." 

"Maybe the tests were broken."

"Maybe you're not far enough along." 

Blah blah blah, my anxiety comes up with a maybe for everything. 

Taking the test is supposed to be the thing that stops the anxiety but it's not helping. 

I know the simple answer is probably to go to the doctor. But I have PTSD from sexual abuse that happened as a kid and I'm absolutely terrified. Being of restrictions here my boyfriend wouldn't even be allowed to come with me. 

I just want to stop being anxious for no reason. I feel stupid.