This is my first post here. It’s more of a vent I suppose, but I really am seeking support. I don’t feel comfortable sharing the details of this story with my local friends. Apologies if this is too long. 

BUCKLE UP
Here’s the situation: 
I’ve (21 F) been seeing this guy (32) for only about a week, but have slept over at his place every night. They’ve been non penetrative sleepovers though! Just cuddles/talking about life/coexisting. On Saturday night I went out, had a few drinks, and went over to his place afterwards. Of course we had sex, and despite me previously telling him that I’m not on any BC, he didn’t use a condom and instead just pulled out. I knew I was partially responsible for not speaking up, so I joked about his pull out game and asked if I should be concerned/should take Plan B in the morning. He said he wasn’t worried. Then of course later in the day, he texts me and says that I should probably take it to be safe. So I do, while also informing him of all the potential side effects/how the huge amount of hormones can be really difficult emotionally. I knew we had plans to be together that night, so I wasn’t too worried and I felt relatively stable and sane. 

Then, you guessed it. He disappears. So I called him. It went to voicemail. Then a few minutes later he sends a text saying,
“rain check? Calling it a night.” To which I responded, 
“totally fair, but such bad timing. I’m having hot flashes, spotting, and my stomach hurts. I’m trying to not be a crazy bitch, but I need help.” He said,
“Holy fuck. That sounds awful. What do you need?” Very validating text. I said, 
“I don’t know, I’m just sad and in pain.” He said that he feels bad and apologized, and I said that I logically see that he may need alone time/to set boundaries, but that I’m having a hard time understanding that right now. 

Then he stopped responding. I’m assuming he went to sleep, but I can’t help but feel like he would have called me or stayed up if he actually cared. Now I feel like I need to show him that I care less by not talking to him. Why am I like this? 

Feeling abandoned and lonely. It’s not even that I need him, I just need someone to take care of me.