* My relationship with my husband of 6 years hasn't gone well and I'm just hanging on with the fantasised  thing of "He'll get better, this will get better" it does for a short period and then turns shit again

* I'm distant from my family, because of the way they have treated me and continue to  (Not one person of my family have bothered to strike up a chat with me since 2016) we talked faced to face but I always feel like they are being fake

* I'm coming off my Fibromyalgia medication and having a hard time. The pain is driving me down to dark thoughts of why am I even here

* on my 2nd day of my new job, I realised I hated it to the point where I want to leave already but husband says it looks bad if u quit this early on but says "It won't get better" 

* hardly any friends

* I hate the way I look... I have bad inflamed acne, my hair needs cutting after 2 years, I'm not as tattooed as I want and can't get any tattoos for a long time nor piercings

* husband hates fa.iky family hates husband 

* I haven't accomplished anything since 2014 

* Don't feel like my life is getting anywhere 

* feel like I'm a waste all the time 

* i feel so alone 

* I am frequently saying in my head "please just let me die i don't care how"

*I'm 27 and always thought I'd kill myself before this age and I just can't help thinking about wanting to die. I've not made plans or said goodbyes but thoughts are becoming too real 

*  tired of being nice i always get hurt