I really do feel very bad about myself. There's this really important exam that I've to attend, I couldn't succeed in that exam last year too and took a drop with thoughts of being serious next year but even after 2 years I'm still stuck at the first step, I cannot bring myself to study! I know the consequences very well if I don't study well but yet again I cannot exert any effort. I really despise myself for this and really feel lost. I don't know what to do anymore. There are no other options except giving that exam and getting through it. Neither can I move on from it nor can I bring myself to study!!! I just need to study for it that's all there are no other obstacles to that but even after knowing that why can't I do it?? just why?? It's not like I never tried but it didn't work out!!! I'm so dang frustrated with myself!!