I am just today starting to think that I have had anxiety or something in that vein for most of my life. I never realized it before because I don't really feel the normal symptoms of anxiety (or what I perceive as the normal symptoms) like worrying, fear, or feelings of impending doom. Instead, I become intensely frustrated, irritable, and restless, which eventually exhausts me.

I am in my first full week of my senior year of college, the first on campus in 1.5 years, and I am once again feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I try to get to a class in the intense heat (Phoenix, AZ area) and through throngs of people which is a bit stressful and frustrating. I then walk into my class, and sit in a large lecture hall of people, I've found that crowds make me very uncomfortable. The professor often talks slow and is difficult to understand (usually from a foreign country and English is their 2nd language), at at this point I'm usually completely overwhelmed with the urge to do *anything*, but I'm in a lecture hall so I'm just supposed to sit still and listen. This is incredibly difficult for me to do, my mind is usually jumping around too quickly at this point for me to be able to pay attention, and I end up either doing something else entirely and ignoring the class, or I just leave and don't attend lecture anymore. Today I left class after 30 minutes and I don't want to go back to that class anymore.

I don't know what to do about these feelings. It makes a lot of things emotionally difficult for me, and I just wish I could just stop doing school right now and just relax forever. All of my coping mechanisms involve avoidance. Like I mentioned before, I will do something else, sometimes I will leave, and I will also listen to music (which involves me blocking things out). This has never impaired my ability to pass the classes. I have a high GPA because I just sit at my computer and do all of my coursework, but this has other negative affects such as a nearly non-existent social life, and I work so much I forget to eat, which has caused me to become pretty underweight. I'm gunna go make myself eat right now but I'm gunna put in earbuds so I can ignore my roommate. I need some kind of advice; thanks :(