 It started when i smoked weed for the first time and i smoked way too much my heart was going way too fast and i had the worst trip of my life. After 2weeks i overdosed on nicotine and got sick in 1week with terror my heart was going fast and my stomic was flying too the moon but i did not puke. When all that Fear i put myself into my anxity have been there ever since. Im on meds now and fighting everyday. It hurts to talk about it with friends because they just say you have nothing to have anxitey for and rude stuff. I do not get emotional easy but that really hurt me. I am blessed that i have a girlfriend she have helped me and is the best girl i have ever had. Im still fighting and i Will never stop fighting even if my anxiety is with me till the end. Im lookinh for a job and hope it helps to clear the head and earn some money and not go Ask my parants all the time for money. I want to buy a new car and work hard. I Will set other goals in my life when im Done with the first one. I want a job so bad i even asked staff in stores and workshops. Sorry for misspelss English is not my first language.