I have a really hard time being able to tell what is an accurate judgement of a social situation and what is just me being socially anxious. Like, i can’t tell if i actually made an embarrassing social misstep or if i’m just being anxious about it and it was fine. I worry about this so much that I’ve wondered if i am autistic and can’t accurately assess social situations. I can’t tell if I have made someone feel uncomfortable or bad during an interaction or if i’m just perceiving it that way because i’m so anxious about myself. I really have no idea if i’m able to really understand how to read people and situations because i always find ways to tell myself i messed up during one. Although, there is definitely a difference between when i 100% know a person felt awkward/negatively, and when i’m assuming things. which somehow confuses me even more. 

And i feel like part of it is because nobody will actually tell you the truth if you did something awkward or annoying, at least my friends would not because they’re too nice. So there’s no way to find out directly from other people i guess? I just get so in my head about it and over analyze things to the point where i just can no longer objectively judge myself without anxiety playing a part in it.