I feel like no one talks about this, but having mental illness in college really fucks you over. I'm about to graduate, and I don't feel good at all. I've always been behind on assignments, angered by the financial burden I find it to be, saddened and lost in terms of what I'm even doing, always feeling criticized or otherwise compared to my peers. Why was I told that this is what I should have done out of high school? I was a kid, I didn't know any better. Now I'm in a ton of debt for some garbage degree I'm not even particularly proud of, I just think of it and feel completely empty. My suicidal ideation has skyrocketed over the years enrolled in school, as I'm always worried about the trouble it takes to find a good job, or even a job at all, or the massive amount of debt I have already accumulated, only to find out I owe an additional 6 credits that won't be covered by my scholarship because they're going to be summer credits. It just feels like 4 years completely wasted. I wish I could feel proud of myself, but I can't.