My boyfriend watches porn to spite me because Im ugly and I don't know how to tell him to stop because every time I do he gets angry with me and I can't stand it, he loves his porn more than me and tells me it's too hard to be intimate with me because I'm BPD but also because I'm ugly (I don't look like the characters he looks at) and I can't cope with it but I can't meet anyone else because I'm a failure (can't drive, can't go to college because of bad ACT scores and can't drive, can't meet anyone on dating apps for the same reason) :(((((( I've been upset and crying all day and I wish it would all go away

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