I'm trying to get the children up for school and their being difficult. I'm trying to be reasonable, polite and kind asking them to get up. But they are being stroppy teenagers.

My depression makes me fragile at the best of times and I don't want to face big problems and issues and I really sit and stare at a wall.

But I have to do these things, get them off to school, walk and feed dogs, hunt for a job do lots of everyday stuff that under different circumstance would be a breeze.

But the weight of depression and the things I'm not doing because I don't feel like moving press down on me and make me feel worse

It's not help by my partners parents being unnecessarily nasty and saying I'm worthless, they have done little to nothing for my partner. I supported their career, through illness both physical and psychological and they stand at a distance stiring things up.

I'm tired of being depressed, I've had enough of being this down and I struggle with the simplest of tasks like asking my kids to get up and get themselves ready for school.

I'd like to live in a lighthouse out at sea, by myself, my only responsibility to turn on the lamp at sunset and turn it off at sunrise or when it's foggy . That's all I feel capable of.