Im pretty useless tbh. I have no license, no job, i have like no special skills at all. I can't afford to go to a college(not even a community college) or get a therapist. I sit around my house all day cause i feel like i physically cant leave without having panic attacks. I have no friends hardly(i actually just got ghosted by a good friend a few days ago). There are barely any times now when i actually feel happy. 

I have hella bad depression/chronic anxiety. It sucks a lot. I can barely even keep up with my hygiene. I see family and people i know my age doing sooo much better then me and it makes me feel absolutely terrible. Ik im still young but i feel like i need to be doing something with my life. I live in a small ass town and its difficult finding jobs. I don't even got anything going for me look wise either. Ive been told plenty of times im ugly af or some other dumb insult. So i dont even like showing my face to anyone. 

Ive been trying to find hobbies i could try but i have no patience or the desire to sit there and learn how to do something. I mean ive tried lots of things tho and spent weeks practicing and see like no difference. I just know my life probably isnt going to go anywhere and its just gonna get way worse. And once again, ik im still pretty young but that doesnt change how i feel. Ik people can take years to figure out what they wanna do but i dont wanna do that. I like knowing what to do, and how to do it.