I’m sure this is one of those things not limited to the BPD spectrum, but I find the concept of time extremely depressing. Event though I am getting better at “being in the moment”, thinking about ageing (not just myself, but the things around me such as movies, memories, events, products etc) makes me feel very heavy. 

I’d like to get better about thinking about these things in a more positive, nostalgic way rather than something that feels more like intense grief.