the past few years have been not very good. as a queer (very young) teenager that almost automatically makes it a little worse. im concerned for my safety, feeling unsafe when im alone with myself, and my hallucinations and anxiety dont help. i don't know im just not doing well and i don't know what to do. i take a shit ton of sleep meds sometimes so that i will sleep through the day instead of having to be miserable. idk im just not sure what to do with my life at the moment, i feel rather useless. does anyone have any advice on how to be more motivated? i sleep 16-18 hours a day, 10-14 on days without sleep meds. i feel like id feel better about myself if i actually started doing things, but im overwhelmed about where to start. id prefer to do something small at first