Hi everyone, living with GAD since ever, I'm having terrible times and need help. I'm a 46 yo transwoman, this will be longread, so sorry for that :(  I must say, my family discarded me completely in the pandemic, my own sister left me without a job and only could survive with some friend's help. 

Just had a vaginoplasty 7 and a half months ago. At 4 months, all the numbness, weakness in pelvic floor, legs, and general fatigue improved almost 100%, REGAINED all senses, was happy and enjoying the results a lot. Nerve reconnecting was succesful. 

Besides that, needed gynecologists to check the site, but no one of the 5 I went to, wanted to do it. This impacted me badly.  But, in mid-end February while starting psychotherapy, received notification on huge debt from water services, and other huge debts. 

Started to organize music lessons as recovering from surgery, but unuable to work due to medical rejection. This put me on a hellish cloudy &amp; dizzy mind state...incredible stress all the time with constant belly and chest pressure, couldn't sleep for days because my spine can't accomodate like before, breathing difficulties (not covid!).   
Only started to sleep in straight position, not on the sides as usual (my preferred sleeping posture). Due to my surgery I'm taking muscle relaxers, alongside with benzos, for the post surgery rehabilitation exercises (dilating therapy), but the stress peak was higher than the pills.  

Suddenly, in April 13, lost all sensory feeling in my 'parts', while had continuous diarrhea, and legs &amp; hips weak again (as I've felt in the 2 months post surgery, just coincidence?).  

Could anxiety trigger the traumatic event again, in a somatization form? Or mimmick a neuropathy?   
A neurosurgeon told MRI dorsolumbar scans showed no spine damage (not cauda equina syndrome, nor epiconus). He said otherwise, surgery ''could'' have to do, but unsure, as it could be an infection, tumour, or vascular disease related.   
Recommended neurologist and an EMG of lower limbs. Still have diarrhea, and cycles of constipation/diarrhea as in IBS. 

Now I can sleep more freely, but not laying by my sides completely. Breathing is difficult if I try a side posture...can't sleep that way still, 2+ months.  Still getting insomniac at 4-5 pm all nights, but little better sleep &amp; breath.

I've made a post in a subreddit about transgender surgeries in detail, for those who could be interested knowing updates, but many people said this isn't surgery related, but high stress due to my living circumstances... 

Starting with a psychiatrist next Thursday to address anxiety and stress, and continuing with psychologist (I don't feel well, as she's not interested in the trans topic). 

Today feeling at the edge, exhausted, isolated, my friend isn't a contention (never was, but now she's getting hurtful and agressive...).

Thank you for reading all this, sorry if it seems unrelated to anxiety but many people in my circle are mostly sure that this is all due to high stress, but they have no real proof of it...so I'm in need of guidance. Feeling numbness anesthesia there is horrible, it affected my life negatively, suicidal again, hopeless and no relative to have a contention.   
Friends aren't much interested in helping medical tests being done to discard physical pathologies, and I feel being left aside, not knowing if an underlying physical disease developing and left untreated.