i posted here 2 weeks ago about my then gf who told me we weren’t going to work out because of my bpd. we have since then ended things. The weekend before we did, I had to go to the ED because i was so suicidal, but now that we’ve broken up, i suddenly feel fine? I have no idea how this happened because i loved her so so much and I wanted to die at the thought of losing her. Now that she’s not my partner anymore I suddenly stopped caring. It’s been 7 days and I find myself caring very little about her feelings etc etc. 

I’m completely over the break up in fact I started thinking about other people the very next day after we broke up. We agreed to stay friends but I suddenly have no interest in keeping up with her life whatsoever, and i have very little patience for her trying to still work through our relationship. I know there’s nothing wrong with her wanting to do this at all, but Im just so over it and i literally don’t care ? 

The other day she was hurt by something I said (i don’t think i was wrong for saying at all and not a single person who i’ve asked thinks i was either) but my ex was very angry with me and has been trying to talk about it and this is so horrible but i literally don’t care . I cant be bothered to work through anything. I suddenly feel like she doesn’t really mean anything to me so why should i put in  this effort and suffer from the anxiety i get from talking about problems ? I feel literally evil. 

IDK what my point is. Can someone reassure me i’m not alone, or it’s not my fault, or share similar experiences?