After having health insurance for a year (through my job) and going without counseling for nearly 3 years (because of a move to a location without affordable/accessible services), I finally worked up the nerve to look for a provider and call them. 

My health insurance emailed me a list of potential providers and it was, in a word, disastrous. Bad reviews. Upon bad reviews. Upon...providers who only work at in-patient institutions with nightmare reviews. Upon...providers at low-cost centers where appointments are first-come first serve and you could be standing in line for weeks! Upon, one provider whose first several google results were from BEING ARRESTED FOR ANIMAL ABUSE!!

After so much, too much, research, I found someone I liked (a woman! because I develop crushes on male providers and it's unhealthy for me!). A psychiatrist, which I have never been to before. Her waiting list doesn't open up again until August. I got a new-patient appointment with a counselor at the same practice...for late June. So I won't even begin real treatment until July.

I have not been diagnosed with BPD (obviously) but I recently discovered that it is where my symptoms are pointing and I really relate to everyone here. I was wondering what you do to get by in the meantime when you are waiting for professional help?? 

This just sucks so bad. Although yes I have a good job and good insurance and that makes me so 'blessed', the one year mark is generally how long I can sustain a job before I lose my sh*t...so...really need some help getting through.