It all started in June 2015. I was 26, married for 3 years. I had just been at a new job for a little longer than a year, when I fainted at the workplace and had a burnout. 

From then on we have:
2015-16
- psychologist sessions
- MBA degree
- unemployment
- new job
2017
- broken knee
- knee surgery
- change career
2018
- started a company with best friend
- birth of my daughter
- betrayal by best friend
- no longer part of the company
2019
- started my own company (hospitality)
- temporary financial security
2020
- Covid
- mother got cancer
- mother’s 3 surgeries and 35 sessions of radiation therapy
- company decline
- mother cancer free 
2021
- company closes
- new job
2022
- I CAN BREATHE 

All these years, I lived them with my stress levels at the maximum. Just because I had to make sure to be showing as the strong one. Among my wife, among my parents (father battling depression), among my friends. I SHOULD NIT BREAK DOWN OR LOSE MY COOL. 

All these years, I am the person that says "I am fine", no matter the situation. And when asked “what will we do?", I say "We’ll figure it out". Afraid to talk to anyone cause they may get worried. 

All these years, I left myself to be the last one to take care of. My body as well. What made me write this post is silly. 

After all these years, it is the first time I have the time, the money, the mental strength and the willingness to reinvent myself. So I signed up at the local gym and today was my first private session. I have been sick for the last 3 days with fever. Today it was the first day without fever. So I went. After a 1-hour training, I almost fainted after an Exercise Induced Hypoglycemia (EIF). 

I feel so humiliated and such a loser, especially there were others seeing me in that state. God bless them, none of them made fun of me and to my surprise they all jumped in to comfort me. 

The trip to healing is never easy. Your mental health once hurt, will leave scars. Maybe not in your psychology, but in your body, in your relationships, in your professional life, etc. 

You must get stubborn and say I WILL BEAT YOU! I WILL WIN!