Hi everyone,

So I've been trying to work through this lasting pain from a previous relationship where I realize now that I was manic pretty much the entire time (I was actually diagnosed due to this relationship ending so you can imagine that shit show). 

I 100% believe that this person was my soulmate but I was manic. I had every single risky behavior in this relationship and he encouraged a lot of them in me but I also felt closer to him than I'd ever felt to any other person. Could all of those feelings come from mania? Am I looking for something that isn't real in normal medicated sane life?