That is my only “risky behaviour” because I’m too anxious to do most things classified as risky. I have a serious problem with food and all I want to do is eat and eat and eat. I can’t stop myself and I keep gaining weight. Just this year alone I’ve put on 15lbs. When I was diagnosed with BPD I was 190lbs and now I’m up to 235lbs. I was diagnosed with sleep apnea this year and I’m terrified that I might become diabetic. I have absolutely no control when it comes to food. I’m thinking I might check out local ED resources for binge eating disorder. I feel so unhealthy. Like it’s not even about how I look. I don’t mind being a bigger girl. It’s just that I am not getting any nutrients and my hair and nails and skin show that. I’m also in so much pain all the time. I also feel bloated most of the time.