I'm 19 years old. I live in the US and am waiting to go to college this fall. I'm currently out of school as I'm taking a gap year, and I am loneliest I've ever been. I was in a relationship up until a couple months ago. I got broken up with and my ex doesn't really talk to me despite us being on good terms (understandable since they need space). During the time of our relationship I neglected other friendships as I truly didn't care for them at the time. I was happy and content with just my partner. Despite us being teens, I was living with them due to a situation with my parents both being out of state. Then after we broke up my mom came back into state to live at my grandmas so I figured I'd move into my grandmas too. I've been here for a couple months and I hate it. I'm slowly losing my will to live. I am devastated from my break up, and it doesn't help that I have no one else in my life right now. I don't have a great relationship with my mom (she doesn't really like me) and I enjoy being around my grandma but considering I'm 19 we don't really have much to talk about and don't really interact. I have absolutely no other friends. I'm trapped at home with no car and nobody to take me out of the house with them. I uber to my weekly therapist appointments and that's the only human interaction I really get. I sit in my room and cry most days until I can't breathe and have to throw up. I'm so damn lonely. I'm not in a position to go out and see people because I simply can't. I can't go out and get a job because I'm currently injured as well as I have no transportation and I live in the suburbs. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm supposed to go to college in 4 months, but I don't know if I can handle waiting that long. I'm already losing my grip. 

TLDR: I'm currently waiting to go to college and I have no friends/close family around me and I'm beyond lonely to the point where I can't find my will to live.