Thanks to my BPD, once again, I can't control my intrusive thoughts and lashing out at people. I'm craving reassurance because I don't feel worthy! At all! I'm really fucking empty and lost.

To top it off I'm pretty sure I've lost one of the most important people to me because of this shit, I don't think he's going to talk to me anymore. I'm trying so hard not to rage or self-destruct. Fuck it all. 