I tried to be proactive with my mental health, i took the steps. Timing has been all bad. So much stress. Meltdowns and panic attacks and so much anger. And then last night, I blew up…and *she* came back. She made me say such horrid things and I hurt someone I love so much. I thought she was gone, i thought i knew better. But here i am, back again in this state of mind. I just want to die, sometimes