My depression has improved a lot over the months but now its as though I’m back to square one again. I was on SSRIs about 2 years ago and I decided to decrease my doses (eventually stopping them for good) under my doctor’s advise. During that period of time, I started working as an intern. The stress was too much to handle and it wasn’t an ideal working environment. My mental health gradually worsened and eventually had to stop working as an intern. Ever since then, I’ve been worried about not being able to deal with work related stress. I find myself incompetent compared to my peers that excelled under stress. People around me constantly reminded me how its a battle to decrease my doses and its an achievement in itself. 

I recently started an internship and I’m having a really horrible time. It sucks that it is a norm that interns are overworked and unpaid. On top of that, my co-workers do not give me constructive criticisms and instead prefers to talk behind my bad. I have thought about leaving many times, but I kept telling myself that its only for a month. I can’t help but to feel like its my problem instead of the work environment. I’m also finding it really hard to tell myself that its okay to feel that way because I feel like I’m using mental health as an excuse to not deal with things the way I should.