I'm at my wits' end and I'm finally going to get professional help. When I was 19 (3 years ago), a therapist once said that I sound like I have BPD and referred me to a psychiatrist to get diagnosed, but I never went. I'm so sure I have BPD, I've been reading books and articles about it ever since and I cry at how relatable everything is. Now, I really want to get diagnosed because I'm in so much pain and I don't know if I'll make it if I don't finally get the help I need and have people take me seriously.

The cheapest and easiest way for me to get referred over to a therapist and a skills group is going through counselling services at my university. Unfortunately, wait times are ridiculously long. 

Last year, I went for an eating disorder and the lady told me they can schedule me to see a counselor in one month. Then I told her how little I was actually eating and I took off my huge coat so she saw my weight, and she said "Actually, let's get you to see the counsellor tomorrow". The only reason they took me seriously was because I actually looked sick.

I have no idea what to say in order for them to take me seriously again. I'm debating going and making a scene and threatening suicide, but I don't want to get hospitalized again because my parents won't pay for tuition if they find out I'm not the "perfect healthy child" they need me to be. Or self-harming right before, and exposing my wrists. If I say something like "I need help, my emotions are out of control", they'll just set an appointment for a month because dealing with emotions isn't serious enough. I can't wait a month. I'm so lost, what should I say?