Hey I just I think I’ve destroyed all my relationships. Like my social anxiety can get so bad that I can’t talk to anyone for weeks and it just seems like all my friends just moved on. I think my own family hates me or just stopped caring as it just seems that whenever I like to make a plan or do something to be with them they just have a million reasons not too. Like I’m just tried of this and like I don’t know what to do. I can’t live another decade like this and the idea of living to 80 seems terrifying. I want to be safe and alone but and I don’t know what to do or where to go.