I’m not sure if this is the right subreddit for this, so sorry if it isn’t.  Anyways, I was just wondering if anyone knew what this problem was, or if anyone had experienced the same thing.  

So my concern is that whenever I see female nudity on tv shows or movies that I get “triggered” by it.  But it’s not just crying or small stuff like that.  Sometimes I actually have the urge to harm myself or I want to kill myself if I see it.  It’s gotten to the point to where I just look up the parents guide for everything I watch, and if I see that there’s any female nudity at all (even if it’s brief, non sexual, or in a photograph) I don’t watch it, period.  And even hearing about shows like game of thrones, which I’ve heard has a ton of female nudity gets me triggered.  This sometimes makes “life” difficult because it’s such a popular show.  Just last night I was trying to relax (I watch YouTube and hockey to help with that) because I had seen a picture of the blonde girl from game of thrones on my friends snapchat story.  Yet the blonde girl was in an ad for a Christmas movie before my YouTube video, and then later that night when I was watching the kings game I heard them playing the theme song.  It was like I couldn’t get away from it last night, it even showed up in my distractions.  

I know this behavior is far from normal, and I hate myself for feeling this way.  However, there are a few things I think might be causing this problem.  

For one, I’ve struggled with body image issues for a while now, and still do.  I was thinking that maybe seeing this really skinny, “hot” girl (because usually they choose such “perfect” actresses) caused me to hate my own body even more, because I feel that I look nothing like her. 

Another reason I thought of could be because Ive thought for a while that I might be transgender.  So seeing a nude female might trigger me, because when I see myself nude I feel disgusted.  I just don’t want to see any nude females at all.  However, I love looking at nude men, and not always for sexual reasons.  I’m just so envious of their bodies. 

The last reason I think could be because of my mom.  She used to get into fights with my stepdad because she didn’t like him watching game of thrones because of the nudity.  She also doesn’t like female nudity in tv shows and movies.  She thinks it’s unnecessary, and that every time they show bare breasts, that they show a penis as well, and I’ve sort of adopted her thoughts on that.  


Sorry if there are a lot of grammatical errors, I’m not the best at writing.