I've been having ferocious mood swings lately and they've been getting a bit more intense - I feel like my lows are gonna start getting violent soon and I'm considering checking myself in for the first time if (lets be real, when) they do...  I've been very fucked up for a while and even attempted and failed multiple times, but thankfully no one ever found out.  Idk it's always been a weird irrational fear of mine going in and then not being let out or something like that and now there's covid too so I won't be able to have someone visit and bring me better food at least