I despise the person I've become. I'm angry, jealous and bitter. I hate seeing other people happy. I've pushed a lot of people away. I have given people plenty of reasons to not like me and they will now not talk to me. I spend my days hiding in my room as a way to protect others and punish myself. I desperately want to turn my life around but I don't know how. I've shown people my true colours. How am I supposed to change people's perception of myself once they've seen the real me? I feel like there is no way out and the only option is to just give up.