Sometimes I’ll have a hurtful thought regarding my SO during sex and instead of letting it out, I temporarily disassociate from the act sometimes almost cry but then move on rather quick and continue like it didn’t happened.

It’s like for a moment something he did made me feel betrayed and I know it’s my BPD talking so I wouldn’t just interrupt/stop and make it a thing but just deal with it, but I don’t think it’s healthy.