I am moving right now and waiting on a court case.  Just a lot of stressful things in my generally intentionally placid life. I need to do a thousand things but my brain is numb. When I think of anxiety, I think of chaos and panic. And I totally rage panic my fair share of the time,  but I feel like I sometimes reach a point where I no longer identify with feelings. Now I know they will come pouring out on some innocent victim at some point. Its there. Somewhere. But right now I am a blob. I dont feel anxiety but I know I am incredibly anxious because that giant pill in my throat feeling has returned and i am unable to get up and do anything. My mind feels like a pile of floating dough. I cannot think of what I should do next even though I spent much of the morning writing lists. I am worried I might have a small breakdown. But I feel so calm and cant identify what is bothering me. I have no feelings. 

Sorry, I just wondered if anyone else feels anxiety this way. I'm certain they do. Its nice to just be heard, I guess. Thanks for listening.