I've told her about my condition and a bit about what an FP is, the part that is killing me is that although I love her more than it's possible to love someome she doesn't feel the same way about me and has told me that a few times, the fact that we had sex once and almost 3 other times made everything so much worse. When we first started hanging out I didn't think I would ever see her in that way but after getting to know her I found out how much we suit each other, we want the same kind of love and give the same kind of love. I haven't been honest about how I truly feel for her out of fear that I will lose her. The other day she was on a bad mood and told me that things would be so much better if she could like me. That pretty much destroyed me, the blue and purple hearts in the texts just make things a lot worse. 
I don't even know why I'm writing this, I'll probably delete it sooner or later.....