I have severe panic disorder and believe I'm hypersensitive to everything.  I can't tolerate smells,  meds, ect. When my attacks are so severe I get feelings of detachment. The thought of me taking an antidepressant makes me feel like I'll die. My physical symptoms, paranoia and fear is more than I can handle.  I believe Its more than panic disorder and anxiety.  

For the people with the worst kind of mental illness, was there hope and did you ever get better with medication? 

If you ever saw the show better call saul I feel like I'm become chuck more and more everyday.