I have extreme anxiety and one thing it results in is difficulty to say no to people. I let people walk all over me because I have anxiety over saying no.

I let someone take me for granted and act entitled to my time off. I’ve been letting this person do this for months because I get guilted into staying with this job and I have no other way of safely making money due to covid (it’s babysitting). 

For background, this kid I babysit is 12 and doesn’t need any special help. All I really have to do is watch him and make sure he does schoolwork and heat up food for him. I’m not going into specifics but the family, environment, and situation drive me nuts and cause me a great deal of mental pain. Bottom line is, this job has made me seriously depresssd.

This week is my week off, however they had something come up and Another instance of them taking advantage of me arose this week and I finally stood my ground and said No! I have things this week i must take care of and final exams. It’s not like the guy has absolutely nothing to do with the kid, he can absolutely make accommodations. Yet I still feel guilty. This person asked for my help and I declined. On one hand, it’s about time I stand up for my own self and do it for myself only. But on the other hand, I keep feeling guilty, also partially because these people and my parent are making me feel this way. Does anyone else feel like this? Guilty even after you stand up for yourself?

Thanks for reading my lengthy post lol.