They can't forgive me no matter how hard i try. I've been trying to change in the past year and i think i got a bit better. I was an asshole because of my previous relationships, my mental health and other things(which is NOT  an excuse i know). I tried everything i could. A simple sorry is not enough and they will allways see me as the same asshole i was 2 years ago. This year i tried to overcome my anxiety and other problems and talk with other people too. But i miss them so much it hurts. And i can't turn back time to change everyrhing. And i admit that i did was an asshole. And now i feel really really depressed. I lost all of my friends. Somebody please help! (Btw sorry if my english is bad, i'm not a native speaker)