Im just really confused

idk who to talk to

idk what i would even say if i spoke with someone

somethings not right and hasn’t been for a long time probably. but idk what it is. 

i feel like if i went to talk to a professional and they asked me why i came to see them i would literally say “i don’t know”. 

i don’t have the bandwidth to even get myself to see a professional. searching for a therapist, setting up a consult, etc. ive tried before and its like something just gives out and i can’t follow through. 

idk wtf is wrong with me but its really confusing. 

I’m wary of making self-diagnosis. But even simple probes into how im feeling are unproductive. 

Am i sad? Do i have trouble focusing? do i lack motivation? Do i have mood swings? Do i get angry or upset? 

Maybe. I guess. I don’t know. 

Sucks. 

Sorry for the low effort post.