i’m a 20 year old trans man with BPD. i got diagnosed about a year ago during a trip to the hospital. up until early August, i had a job at a health food supermarket that i worked at for quite some time. it was probably my easiest job. the store was small, so after i checked expiration dates and did a little rotation, i basically had a ton of down time. it was perfect, since i struggle with motivation. the management was also pretty lazy and didn’t care how well i was doing my job, or how often i called out. i’m very impulsive, so i called out pretty often, and never got in trouble for it. all in all, it was a very laid back job, and i got bored of it and handed in my two weeks notice. i’ve had two jobs since then, and they’ve both been really really difficult for me. i feel like i just look for problems, and in my head even if there aren’t any problems, i will end up finding problems. i quit the job i had after the health food store after about a week, very impulsively. now i have a job at a different supermarket and i’ve only worked 3 days and i’ve already faked illness so i didn’t have to come in. i’ve also cried in my car during every single break i’ve had. i don’t know what to do. i feel like i’m too impulsive and have too little motivation for any job and it’s extremely emotionally taxing for me to be working for 8 hours when i can barely even handle socialization for more than like 3 or 4 hours. i dont know what to do. i need to make money but i feel like i’m too mentally ill to handle a job, and i know that getting on disability for BPD would be way too much work for how little money i’d get from it. does anyone else have a similar problem??