I’m feeling intense emotional pain right now, it all started about 7 hours ago when I found out my psychiatrist discharged me without warning. I was messaging my friend saying I was suicidal and talked about my plans and we discussed it a little bit before I said I’m feeling better and was messaging her for 20 minutes and then she said she was turning on a game to voice chat with a new friend she made. It’s been four hours and she hasn’t checked any of my messages and I feel incredibly betrayed because if it was for her, I would feel so worried and be always checking my phone. I feel abandoned over this new friend she has made, I’ve been friends with her for three years now and finding out I was discharged has just messed everything up. 
I feel ill at the moment because I went to a park near my house with the intention of ending my life, but I felt sick and threw up, I felt like fainting the whole time. I’m typing this on my bed feeling the same way, with burning sensation in my chest and really bad anxiety. I don’t know what to do, I just want to die, I’m just so scared and ill right now