I don’t really talk to people much, the past few months has been a real struggle for me. My SO and myself have been suffering from depression for a while since way before we got together.

She is very external with it can tell when she’s upset and I need to give her 100% of my attention to try lift her spirits and Atleast speak to her try to get down to what’s upsetting her.

But personally I don’t talk about it much, my depression has cost me a lot, my dream career, past relationships, friendships, family relationships, jobs, etc and it’s all getting a lot to me.

I feel like no matter what I do I’m always in the same spot. I don’t do anything I enjoy the one thing that’s pulled me through over the last three years I had to give up at the end of last year because I lost my job and couldn’t afford it. I’m trying so hard to just be okay, earn money, survive, try enjoy that I don’t really know where I am anymore.

I know that sometimes people just dig a hole and keep digging till they can’t see  above it and they just focus on the bad stuff but right now I really can’t se anything positive.

Idk what the point of this was I just want to vent and have no real means of venting right now.