I'm so sick of BPD. I'm so sick of feeling like I constantly ruin everything in my life, and ruin others lives. I'm so annoyed of ruining every romantic relationship cause I put so much pressure on my partners to constantly reassure me they want to be with me. I'm so tired of constantly checking my all my social media apps to figure out if their ignore me cause their active on one and not the other. 


I'm so sick of being on two different medications, for this constant fear of abandonment to completely take over my brain. I'm just so tired of feeling/being alone in this.