Nothing makes me happy except her. She loves me so much. I feel so alone but she makes things a bit better. She probably has 10 to 15 years left if she stays healthy. If I still hate my life by the time she passes away, I’m going to follow her. I never had a pet before and depression &amp; anxiety compounded with the grief of losing her will for sure send me over the edge. I’ve already lost both of my parents so at least I won’t be hurting them.