Recently I met a new friend and we hit off really well. Unfortunately, when he advised me to live life and "let go" so that I won't have paranoia and anxiety, my stress sensors kicked off and my mind told me "he's not going to be someone who understands me". I felt such intense stress because my mind is telling me that he's judging me for the way I am, and I feel ashamed to talk to him and such. I then stopped talking to him and deleted him from my contact list. We parted ways. Fuck I hate myself. I don't know why I'm like that. It was easy to let go because I just met him only, but I feel like I can never make new friends the moment they point out my flaws because it makes me feel ashamed to have exposed the shit person I am, and I just feel mentally wrecked. I know all my issues. I'm trying! Stop reminding me. I just want to talk and have a good time and distract myself from all the crap in the world. I don't need advice. But I know deep down, it's no one's fault but the fucked up me inside. I wonder if any of you can relate.