I had a break down in January. Opened an only fans account, and self harmed. 

He worked away. 

I broke his trust, lost his love. 

The only relationship where it was fired back, love on both sides. I’ve never felt an emotion so strong in my life. 

He told me to get better. So I aimed for diagnosis. Now I’m diagnosed, he “can’t commit” to that. 

Now, he left. Saying “I hope with all my heart that you get better and we cross paths again in the future”. 

My hearts broken. 

How do I accidentally on purpose cross paths with him when I know I’m well again?!