All my life, I (20F) have only had small minimum wage jobs like working at my local ice cream shop or a clothing store. I’m at the point where I want to start building my experience in my field, which is psychology. I’m still unsure what exactly my career goal is, but I know psychology is definitely what I’m passionate about. There are a few job opportunities I’ve found that are both mental health technician positions. One is working with children diagnosed with autism and the other is working with adults facing addiction. The problem I’m facing is that I’m too scared to take this next step and apply. I meet the experience qualifications for both, but I constantly worry that I won’t be able to meet the requirements of the job. My anxiety is mostly based on the following:

1. I have bipolar II disorder, and sometimes I go through major depressive episodes that leave me unable to care for myself and make myself look presentable enough for a job. High stress will only make this worse, and I admittedly have been unreliable in the past (calling off days without much warning, asking for fewer hours) and I know that for a higher level job like this, those things are unacceptable. These episodes happen way less now that I’ve gotten the treatment I need and they are much more manageable, but it can still happen and I’m scared it will cause me to be fired. 

2. I sometimes accidentally space out when trying to pay attention to someone explaining things to me because I get so anxious about making it appear that I’m super engaged, and I focus too much on eye contact and nodding that I realize I didn’t hear a thing they just said. This probably sounds pretty stupid but it’s just part of my social anxiety.

3. I also get nervous that I will start the job, realize quickly that it isn’t for me, and then be unable to quit. 

4. I will be moving to a new state in November, and I’m scared of being turned down for the fact that I’ll only be able to work for the next 6 months.

5. I’m worried that these jobs will be too complicated for me to start out or that I won’t be good at them. I have a huge fear of failure, but I’m tired of having minimum wage jobs that don’t help me at all experience-wise. I fear that I won’t be able to handle a job that is more advanced than the small serving jobs I’ve had.

Sorry this is all over the place, I’m still having a hard time wording how I feel about moving to the next step but for now this is the best I can do. Any advice on how I can get over these fears, or how to inform my employer about my mental health situation without it hindering my chances of getting the job? I really am a good worker and once I am comfortable and understand my position I really open up and can do just fine. I feel like either of the jobs I mentioned would be an amazing start for me, but I am just terrified of moving on to them. Also, if there are any more specific subreddits for me to reach out for advice on this, please let me know! 

TL;DR: My mental health and fear of failure are preventing me from taking the next step towards my future career. Advice on overcoming these issues?