Recently had my jaw come out of place while yawning, which has happened all my life, but this time it left me with severe jaw pain and couldn't open my mouth for almost 2 weeks. I still get jaw pain and tiredness, can't open it very wide but it's better than before. (Just diagnosed with tmj, awaiting ent appointment.) But when this initially started, I started feeling like my throat was closing up when I eat or drink. Thought I was having an allergic reaction because it was so sudden, but doctor told me it was probably anxiety caused by the tmj. I worked myself up so much my vision kept going black and falling over the first night it happened.

The throat tightening doesn't happen every single time I eat or drink (jaw tiredness always does though) but it's happening a LOT. Almost every time. To the point that I'm terrified to eat or drink. The feeling happens instantly and if I keep eating or drinking whatever I'm having it just gets worse and worse and I obsess over it. No matter what I try to distract myself with I can't. I've had severe anxiety my whole life but I've never felt this specific type of sensation so even though I know it's anxiety it's not making me feel any better because I'm not really experiencing my typical panic symptoms with it so this all feels new to me. Normally anxiety and panic to me are shaking, being cold, feeling like I can't breath but in my chest, chest pains, overstimulated, etc

I went to my psych who gave me new anxiety meds and clonazepam and while they're helping me sleep better (didn't sleep for a week straight because every time I started to relax I'd jump up gasping for air, still happens occasionally though), they're not helping preventing the throat tightening. The clonazepam helps calm me down a bit when I start feeling like I'm going to faint but it doesn't fully make the tightness go away so I stay freaked out all day. 

After today I'm on the verge of tears because I'm so frustrated. Almost everything I try to eat or drink triggers it. I'm trying not to cry because if I cry or talk too much or laugh I start feeling like I can't breathe either. I'm hungry, hardly eating and I'm to the point I'm considering just stopping trying and only drinking water for the time being (the seemingly only thing I can fully rely on to not trigger it) My next appointment with my psych isn't for another 2 weeks I don't know what to do. I've been listening to every anxiety affirmation meditation video I can find, trying to relax, trying to distract myself and I just don't know what else. I'm even more upset by this because the past few months I've gotten into exercising and I really enjoy it but I'm having to slow down because I'm hardly eating and I just get lightheaded too easily. Anxiety sucks. I feel fucking crazy.