Lately I've been feeling really down. I only recently accepted the fact that I've had depression since I was a kid. I tried to pretend that I didn't, however even before I knew what depression was I shown symptoms (random bodyaches, excessive stress, lack of interest, acting out bad behaviors, tantrums, etc). I've been very short with my family and I rarely talk to anyone.I'm now apart of a dual enrollment program where I spend the rest of my highschool years doing community college. I'm burnt out. I procrastinate. I run away from my responsibility. My only shining light is that I get to say "oh look, I'm studying advanced subjects in school" and it makes me feel important and special. Its becoming increasingly common nowadays and now I don't feel special anymore. I want to work hard so my parents can see I've changed. I don't want to sound like a depressed girl anymore... I want to be a good student. I don't even know where this rant is going... I've been jumping from topic to topic. I just wanted to air my thoughts out