I recently started working a secondary job at weekends as a basketball coach for kids in a very wealthy neighborhood and seeing how people live there compare to me made me feel horrible. Huge mansions with trimmed gardens, expensive cars and even their fucking dogs cost more than my car... I never cared about my car's appearance ( fiat punto ) cause it gets the job done but when I went there for the first time I felt so  embarrassed, I literally tried to hide it somewhere out of sight so no one would notice it. When I'm coaching the kids I can't help but think how lucky these little bastards are for being born into wealth, I was born into a lower class family that never managed to own any assets, the phrase " Go out and make your luck " describes my life. Today I went there just to walk the streets, admire the view and daydream what my life could have been... I felt a weird joy, I was walking for 2 hours straight without feeling tired but when it was time to leave I felt so sad that I went to the woods to cry knowing that I will have to go back to my tiny depressing apartment with 20 more people living in the same building. I don't wanna live my life knowing that I will never be able to have this kind of life. I will work my self to the bone every day of my life, marry a woman of equal economical status and have kids that will live a similar life. Watching rich bricks with mansions and expensive cars on the internet is nothing like experiencing it in real lfie... I wish I had never went there in the first place.