I'm 28 and am currently having a bit of trouble starting my career.   I got my degree in business marketing in 2012 and have since worked at a few places interning and temp positions without a full time position.  I know I'm behind and even a loser by society's standards.. i get how people could judge me, but I'm having a lot of trouble landing a full time job at the moment and it's hard staying positive especially with what's in my life at the moment.  My gf who has many traits of Bpd is insulting me to the point where I'm in complete tears and have emotionally distanced myself from friends and family cuz of her.  She makes me feel like I'm her everything one day and seems like she has faith in me, and the next day she makes me feel like a piece of human waste.  And I'm an idiot because I get pulled in.  I really care for her and it's to the point where I'd be there for her no matter what the circumstances were.  However she judges and criticizes me constantly.  I feel unstable now and helpless as if life is some nightmare for me. I am judged as a low quality human being and I feel like ending my life.  How can I move past this? Please help....