im turning 27 on 2022 i have problems since i was 15, my family is a mess, i have brother who had autism at the age of 2 and he was on really hard core treatment so my mom took care of him in that period and my dad was always working so i always was at home alone till dinner time, i develop anorexia that almost kill me, well it did cause my friends back then start tweeting about my condition and they stop talking to me on school (senior year) so everything went to hell, i decided i'll quit school that year to get better on my anorexia but everything was traumatic, till this day i cant handle it and i still have anorexic thoughs even im fat which is another reason why im feeling deeply worthless

this long story short is the moment that my life got fucked up and since then i never was able to recover, i develop a major depression that develop into bipolar disorder 2 and anxiety, had a failed suicide attemp on 2017 or 2018 (im confuse about that) and today i have no point no passion to live or even take care of myself and my dog or something

oh and since 2012 when i drop senior year i didnt make any friends and my mom is a bitch and my dad is working and he is at home he's resting and my relationship with my brother doesnt exist because i hate him (he recovered and he'll start college at 20) and i still wanna die but i dont have the ovaries to do it, and im patetic right now

I APOLOGIZE TO THE COMMUNITY FOR BEING JUST A BROKE PERSON. I really am but i dont have anywhere to go