I am a 26yo, male. By profession I should be an ML engineer, or an automation engineer. 

But i cant even find a job. I have applied for thousands of jobs, and believe me the niche for my profile is very narrow, and always it ends up: "You are shortlisted", followed by, "Sorry to inform you, but you are rejected/not selected". 
My resume is as good as it can get, my tech skills are as good as it can be. Yet I never find a single interview, let alone a job. 

I tried to run a few different projects, selling on Amazon, running adsense blogs, running fiver gigs. And there's literally no cash in flow.

Upon that, my gf of 3 years broken up with me. Our relationship was good in all aspects. But i have not earned a single dime in 2 years now. And finally it got to her, she said, she can't live like this where there's only false hopes of things turning around, and nothing happening. Before you judge her, she has always been my strong supporter, and kept me motivated to even try and run different projects since I couldn't secure a job. But things on her side are going bad as well, and i think under the pressure of an unsecure future from her side and mine, she cracked.

I don't know what it is, is it my destiny to just stay on this steady financial decline or i am just a big moron who knows nothing; in both scenarios i am at a loss. A loser at life, who has nothing left, or maybe lose every single thing in a few years time. 

Even at this point I have a roof on my head, food on my table, and a phone in my hand. But i can see that the decline is steady and steep.

My parents hoped that I would earn quite handsomely because I was a prodigy at computers since I was 5.
It's even more sad to see that disappointment in my parents' eyes.

Just a lost cause... Disappointment for all who had ever hoped for anything from me... A failure at navigating life...

Thanks for reading, just wanted to say a few things out. See you on the other side someday.