I’m just so vile and disgusting. I can’t do anything right. I make the most dumb mistakes constantly and I know people can’t stand me and are judging me for it. I’m always super paranoid that people are talking about me behind my back or that they’re all conspiring against me. I fall in love and obsessed with people I barely know and it’s almost always unrequited and not reciprocated so I end up looking like a crazy obsessed freak. I cannot handle the slightest bit of rejection or abandonment as it will throw me into a whole whirl wind of triggers and emotions. There are so many ppl on the internet who say borderlines are usually very charming and magnetic but I don’t feel I align with any of those kinds of positive traits or attributes. I’m like a complete monster and should probably just go live under a bridge somewhere or better yet jump off one.