I hate feeling like this, I hate feeling fucking crazy. I hate seeing that the people who ruined me and basically took my childhood away get to live happy and I have to deal with the consequences of their actions. I hate feeling like I'm slowly driving everyone away from me, I know they're getting tired of me and I just want to abandon them first before they can even do it to me because I just never want to feel that feeling of being abandoned ever again. I hate everything and I hate the fact I'm stuck like this and I don't see any light, I keep digging myself into a deeper tunnel and all I want is to get out.