Anyone else?

I am absolutely not trying to offend anyone by asking this question.

I just wanna know if anyone else has experienced this unfortunate side effect. I’m sure this is because of my depression/anxiety. 

Have you ever lost a loved one or experienced a traumatic lose suddenly and felt absolutely nothing??

I don’t like this. Eight years ago one of my best friends was murdered and I didn’t cry and I just didn’t really do anything. Another one of my best friends killed himself and same thing. Today I found out my parents ran over my pet whom I love and I’m sitting here not feeling anything but weirded out by being emotionless. 

What’s wrong with me? 

Depression and anxiety are awful when it ruins your ability to feel.

I did cry for my losses years later…. I just don’t understand why in the moment I didn’t.