I'm just having a hard time. It's been brewing for a while- my job is just not where I want to be or what I want to do. My coworkers are toxic and I'm constantly feeling physically uncomfortable from the constant tension. But every time I consider starting over I am overwhelmed because every job listing includes "must be able to perform under pressure" or some form of the phrase "fast-paced work environment" and I really struggle to handle stress or multitask in any way. The reason I stay at my job is that we are not very busy and I have a lot of downtime between clients. I'm afraid that now that I'm used to this I will not be able to handle anything where I am constantly being pulled in several directions at once. I'm also trying to stick it out until we move next year...

Our goal is to move across the country. We have several different reasons for this but I feel like the clock is ticking (climate change is our #1 motivator- we are trying to migrate before everyone else in our area has to) and I'm running out of time to figure out a plan. When we move, I have no idea what I am going to do for work. Since I'm unhappy I am trying to find something else to do that's in my scope of abilities (I have 2 business degrees) but I'm cycling back to the original issue. By the time we move I will be over 30 years old and I'm afraid to start my whole life and career over at that age, but I also know I have to for my own sanity. I also want to get established before we have children (which I want desperately) but this is putting me at 35+ and that's not where I want to be either.

I mostly just needed to get this off my chest, but if anyone has been through something similar I'd love to hear from you. I need to know I'll be okay if I take a chance.