Lmao - I have had the same therapist for 2 years. We have actually never even met in person, it’s all been telehealth. But she has experienced a lifetime of things with me firsthand - breaking off an engagement, an abusive and controlling relationship, an extended bender of sex &amp; alcohol, a trip to the mental hospital, a sexual assault, a boss who sexually harassed me, being stalked, etc. Not to mention, she also knows almost everything about me and the way I work, my childhood trauma, my family dynamics, the names of my friends, and has helped me work through all of that too (or at least continues to do so, as I am certainly not worked through all of it). She is also the one who diagnosed me with BPD about 1.5 years ago. I feel like, even though all therapists are paid and trained to try to understand you, she is the only one who has been successful or even marginally helpful thus far. 

Is it weird that I am terrified of my therapist leaving me and/or being forced to get a new therapist? I just feel like I don’t have the mental energy to start over with a new therapist if it comes to it. Is being scared of abandonment by your therapist the peak BPD experience?