I hate my FP/my boyfriend’s friends. They haven’t done much to me, but I just don’t like their mannerisms. Or maybe it’s because my boyfriend spends a lot of time with them. Who knows! I can’t stand them.

Because of this I’m getting urges to control him. If I could cut him off from those friends, I would. Obviously, that’s a very unhealthy thing to do- I don’t want to be an abuser, so I won’t do that. But it’s something I think about a lot. I’d be a lot happier if he didn’t hang out with them because every time he even remotely talks about them I just feel myself fill up with a toxic mix of jealousy, rage, and sadness.

We haven’t seen each other in almost 2 months due to the virus, and 2 days ago he saw his friends. He told me about it but told me that he didn’t plan on meeting them and that he left about 10-15 minutes after he saw them. I believed that until he posted a couple of pictures on his Instagram, which suggests he was there for longer than he told me. Because of this, I am so angry and can’t stop crying. I think I’m going crazy because I haven’t seen him in a while. He said that he’d ask his parents if it was ok for us to see each other as long as we socially distance (we’re both teenagers) but that still has not made me any less upset. I don’t know if he lied to me or not. I’m overreacting over everything. FML, I guess.