It's almost 6am and I haven't fallen asleep yet and boy am I unhappy about it! My mind keeps racing and I'm just in a bottomless pit of negative thoughts and it's keeping me awake and I can't get out. Every time I try to relax all I can think about is how stupid and pitiful my life is and how I'm doing absolutely fucking nothing to make it better. I just want the pain to end and to be unconscious but it isn't happening and I hate it I hate it I just want to be asleep and for the pain to end I just want to sleep.