i was depressed for 4 years 2018 to 2022 around January i was like yes i feel happy i thought i was done with it and then bang late days of feb it came back and i have a feeling its going to be another long 4 years i just want some one to fucking talk too please keep pushing me to my death its the only thing that makes me happy im not like other people where they feel like they have to die but they dont want too but i know i want to die i see what this world is and i blame my self for it as one of my favourite artists sang i don't want to be heard i want to be listened to look what name calling death and bulling does i was fucking bullied for 10 still am yeah i feel selfish making this all about me but i live for other people not for me.