TW - suicide attempt and thoughts 


So it’s coming up to the first time in 10 years where I’ll have gone a year without attempting to take my life. I’m 23 and I only just realised how I attempted like every year in school so it’ll be 10 years where I’ve gone a full year without.

I reckon it’s probably an achievement although with how my brain works it’s like the opposite 😅. But I’ve figured maybe I should try and celebrate that I’ve gone a year without attempting.
Tbh it is kind of triggering just because my brain doesn’t really wanna survive, but that makes me think I should celebrate it even more to make my brain see it as a positive and also as a good distraction around this time if I’m feeling triggered.
Going a year wasn’t even on purpose, I never had any drive or intention to really stop. I feel like if you make a decision to stop doing something like alcohol, s/h etc and really work on it then it makes a lot of sense to celebrate which is why I’m unsure whether I should or not. 

What should I do to celebrate? Or should I just leave it? I’d love some ideas and if anyone else has celebrated milestones (even if it’s something small, anything counts!), what have you done to reward yourself? 

Might just be a nice thread to see people talking about what’s important to them and why/how you celebrate. Milestones or things worth celebrating will be different for each of us so it doesn’t matter at all what it is, just something that matters to you 😊 Doesn’t have to be related to time either, just anything you’ve managed to do where you’re like “woah, that was really difficult for me but I did it”. Even though like me, you might not view it as an achievement yet or feel like it’s valid or deserve a reward. I’m definitely someone who’s really hard on myself so maybe some ideas would help me out and to feel like I deserve it and hopefully it could help other people too 😊