I would prefer to address the lurkers, I don't find much consolation in empty talk, nor is there much to talk about, hence I'll keep it brief.
I can't think of a person that ever liked me, I have had to deal with constant violence and occasional homelessness as a minor and now work a dead-end unreported job that barely covers my rent, I suspect not many places will hire someone with a speech impediment, no formal education and health issues.
At least I can find some solace in the fact that I'll presumably just pass away once I'm no longer capable of physical labour to pay for basic necessities. One can only hope.
If someone feels the need to offer their condolences, I ask that you keep it to yourself.