I'm a 30 y/o cis female partnered with a 32 y/o cis male for 13 years now. I am diagnosed with anxiety as well as PMDD. I'm currently in therapy as I started to connect the dots that I may have inherited Borderline Personality Disorder from my mother. My husband is diagnosed with ADHD and anxiety. I've been reading on how BPD and ADHD both have ties to sexual repression. I've even read that some people are diagnosed BPD when in actuality it's ADHD (maybe even both!)

Background: Through my teen years I was promiscuous as most are. I met my husband at 17. Even THEN he was much more active and interested in sexual acts/pornography than myself. Yet I kept pushing myself to be "more". I was on the pill up until 23 and then the copper IUD (biggest regret of my life!)

Now: I do not take any forms of birth control anymore as they caused me issues. I take Zoloft 50 mg and have been liking it more than the Lexapro that I was on. My sex life with my husband is great - don't get me wrong. But I often go through these phases of being completely repulsed by sex. Do not even touch my vagina sir! I currently am going through it. He noticed of course so I had to speak up and tell him, hey it isn't you...it's literally the connection between my brain and body. SOS.

Anyone else here go through this? Sought any sort of treatment or help? I'm going to have to remember to bring this up with my therapist. I carry so much shame and guilt with this.