I have had an increase in my sexual desire and the desire to do more dirty 
(Not involving no1 or no2!!!) graphic things like extreme porn type things, which I have to say I find rather disturbing. Yes sure, I’ve had fantasies about graphic things before and I’ve watched a bit of hardcore porn to help get myself off but this is at weird points when I’m feeling uneasy, anxious, on edge, restless, uncertain and even when i have  suicidal urges. I’ve also had the desire to sleep with other random people like not even my type at all and I’m in a long term happy relationship. Plus the urge to do it with the curtains open or flash out the window although (TMI) today I made a conscious effort to cover up incase anyone could see. It doesn’t even have to be with a partner I want to do graphic things on my own. Like erm I don’t know whether to say this or not shit, oh fuck it like using large implements or my fist!! I’m so so sorry I just had to say it. I’m so sorry if I’ve offended or triggered anyone genuinely sorry I know I don’t know anyone but I still don’t want to upset anyone.