Got off my birth control about a month ago so not sure if the hormone fluctuations would be the cause too, but recently something stressful happened and I had the worse panic attack I’ve had in a long time. I got off the pill bc I was having mood swings and getting super depressive. 

I got put in a stressful situation about 3 days ago right as my bf had to leave for work, so I was alone at home which made it harder to distract myself while I processed everything. I felt sick to my stomach, groggy, had to pace, felt like I couldn’t breath etc…. And had to wait 24 hours for an outcome/news so that night I couldn’t sleep either. 

I feel fine about the situation now, but I’m still super anxious. Thinking about anything serious now makes me feel nauseous and panicked. Even watching tv when character are in certain situations makes me apply it to myself and get freaked out. Not sure what to do. Doing breathing exercises helps temporarily but not for every long.

I’m nervous bc im spending time with my mom tonight and she has anxiety so being around her usually makes me feel worse. I promised I’d help her with a wedding party, doing their hair, so I can’t back out. Plus I’ll make a little extra money too. I just have this numbing sense of dread about the day and the future.

Im seeing a therapist next week but that also is making me nervous too. Im just trying to get through this week without losing it. I don’t know if I should be trying to keep it together or to try and cry and let myself experience the feelings so that they’ll go away.