I am known for having lots of problems with lots of former friends, I don't know why but everytime I have a new close friend it always escalate to a situation were we are both mad at each other. Sometimes I feel like they are taking advantage of me, sometimes I am not OK with their thinking (nor are them with mine).  
I am trying to be more passive on my relationships however it doesn't feel like me anymore. I am also worried about drug comsuption such as marihuana everyday and tobacco but it just seems that I cannot stop even tho I want to.

I do feel very very lonely, but I also think that everyone feels lonely. My image for the world is very different depends on which person you'd ask, some will say I am a crazy person lost on drugs and others will say I am brilliant sensitive person.  


Have you felt this way? How do you deal with this? I also feel that I am very sensitive toward other people's inconscious, that's why I take for granted many interpretations of them.