I hope someone relates to this.

It doesn’t matter if I don’t actually have a connection or if he doesn’t actually give a fuck about me, having someone compliment me and adore me is a high in itself. Yeah sex is great but feeling like someone adores you is way better. It fills the emptiness. I’m always lonely because I never feel like I belong anywhere but this sorta stuff helps. I live a very lonely life.

The thing is, I wish I could have genuine friendships or relationships. I do every once in a while and I love it but it never lasts. 

I want to fill this emptiness but I don’t know how to in a healthy way.