Title and also I don’t want to go into detail about what I did. The past few days I’ve been feeling this come on and get progressively worse and today it just fucking hit me as hard as it could. I fucked up and I feel so much hate for myself. I called my schools crisis line that has counselors on the line 24/7 and I said what I did and was crying and he just told me I should watch a show and try to do something I enjoy to calm down and then got off the phone with me. I can’t help but feel like once I said what I did he thought I was awful and hated me. I want to puke and I hate myself so much right now. I don’t know what to do. I keep ruining my life the last couple days I can’t make it stop I don’t know how to stop doing these reckless impulsive things I’m ruining everything and I want to call my boyfriend and tell him I fucking hate him and want nothing to do with him but he did NOTHING wrong in fact IM THE ONE THAT DID EVERYTHING WRONG. I HAVE NO REASON TO HATE HIM IM THE ONE THAT KEEPS FUCKING UP. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?