**tl;dr:** what do you do when you're in a *mood* and you just want to let you emotions **be** crappy for a bit, but there are people around?

Sometimes I get so tired of masking the fact that I'm *not OK* so much of the time. And I just want to *stop* pretending to be OK.

But then people want to try to fix it because they care. Which. I mean. Better than not caring by a lot.

But...sometimes I'm *tired* of fixing it and want a break from fixing myself. Fixing myself all the time is f\*cking exhausting. Because no one can fix my without my participation. There isn't some magic button they press. And sometimes they really suck at it or there's nothing useful to be done but they feel upset because they haven't fixed me so I feel like I have to pretend to be better until I can escape. 

I just want to be a bitchy porcupine in peace away from people so I don't have to worry about anyone else's feelings, including feelings about *my* feelings.

Do you go hide in a room? 

I feel like  "yes I'm in a bad mood but no I don't want to talk and I don't want a hug I just want to *be in this mood* without trying to fix it for a bit I'll fix it later OK??"