I was doing so well I was feeling stable and healthy for several months and this time I genuinely felt like I was in full remission and would be able to live a normal life. I was eating unhealthy and going out drinking (things that would usually crash my mood hard) and yet I was still feeling balanced and healthy and stable so I genuinely thought I had made it through this illness. I had done so much self therapy on myself and I have matured so much and can stop myself from having outbursts or getting too emotionally reactive to situations and it was all paying off u til recently when I crashed. My mood dipped and it seemed to of been triggered by my really bad sleeping pattern. It’s been low now for a couple of weeks and I’m really worried that I am back where I started.