I haven’t done a thing for the last 3 months my anxiety and depression got the better of me again I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t want to help myself anymore I know I’m wasting my life by doing nothing but I don’t feel any different if I do something no joy no excitement just the feeling of emptiness and every time I go outside I get this overwhelming feeling of anxiety like something is going to happen to me I’m always on guard like someone is out to get me I know it’s irrational but knowing that doesn’t make any difference I’m just lost I don’t know where to go from here nobody wants to help me or understands my situation I don’t know what to do next I’m like a coin with two sides one that wants to help and get better and one that wants to continue to do nothing