Every single time I have to talk on the phone with my doctor I start shaking because of my anxiety. I'm literally talking to my doctor about the best treatment for my anxiety, depression, adhd while Im anxious as fuck because I have to talk about my issues. In my mind Im like "this is not her job, shes not a psychiatrist, I shouldnt be loading all this on her". "She just got back from maternity leave, why am I talking about my childhood trauma"? This all goes through my head before, during and after said call/appointment. 

I know to get help I have to tell her things but my brain just tells me its not her problem. Psychiatrist are hard to find and goverment funded psychiatrist are even harder to find. So I know I have to go through my family doctor. My brain just doesnt see it that way. Cue anxiety.  

I hate bothering people with my issues even ones paid to try and fix them. 

When I had my daughter I had a mini anxiety attack every time I had to call a nurse because I felt like I was being a bother. I only ever called for them to take my breastmilk to the NICU, I felt the need to apologize every time because I didnt have alot of Breastmilk and felt like I was wasting there time.