I'm not good socially but I know how to have manners around people. I wish I had one person, one friend in person that I could hang out with and hug and talk to when I need it. I cannot do this anymore, I really am considering suicide because it hurts so much to be alone. I became the person that I thought people wanted to be around and in that process I have forgotten who I really am. I have no family, no friends and no drive to improve anymore. I am burned out, my job, class, the pain in my heart is too much to bear. any advice on what I can do to feel better would be cool. 

If you are going to recommend that I eat well and exercise this is what I have been doing nonstop. please do not suggest this