Heya,

I've never posted in this thread before. My ex is diagnosed and I'm possibly on the spectrum, but not diagnosed. 

Anyway, this is a vent really. I don't have anyone to talk to and I'm feeling pretty sad tonight. 

My ex and I split up about 10 months ago. I won't get into that part, but it wasn't very good

Today we exchanged a couple things after not talking in almost 4 months. It was good and we talked for a couple hours and caught up. 

She's been in therapy for quite a while and it sounds like it's going well. She said she's a bit more self aware and is having less panic attacks because of it. She's able to recognize how she's feeling before losing it. 

She's got a new boyfriend. They had moved in together almost immediately after we broke up, but were never official until recently.

I'm happy for her and I'm glad she's doing well. 

And at the same time I'm really sad. I was really in love with her and I never thought we'd break up. I still think about her quite a bit. I've tried not to, but my mind just wanders to her. 

Even though I know it's over and it has been for a while, I still held a torch for her, for us. 

I really miss her and knowing that she's officially with someone else and we can never be together again is breaking my heart all over.

I am happy for her though because we all deserve good things