Hey, I’m a senior in high school and I’ve been feeling sort of numb lately for like 2 1/2 weeks. Something really disappointing happened at the start of school (abt 2 weeks ago) but I really don’t know why I was so upset but I was crying a lot. That event dropped my mental health a lot and what’s even weirder, I ultimately got what I wanted in the end but I wasn’t overly happy or excited by it, and I’m still not, which confuses me.

In school I feel empty and just feel like a body sitting there with no feeling if that makes sense. I have cool people and friends in the classes and I laugh with them. But once the laughter is over, I go to not feeling anything with a blank face.

This morning my friend, he said “why do you look like mad or sad. What do you have to be sad for on a Friday?” And I really didn’t know how to answer that lol. That’s the first time someone said that to me. And that whole class I couldn’t feel genuinely happy even though I laughed and smiled sometimes but lately those moments haven’t felt *real*

I used to be so much more goofy and free but I’m not that anymore. My family tries to motivate me or give me “advice” but it really doesn’t help. I feel like they don’t and won’t understand.

If you read all of this that’s cool and I just want to share my experience cuz I don’t even know if I have depression but it sure feels like it ig.