This is my first post on Reddit so please bear with me.

Well, I was feeling bad about myself and I just wanted to hear some words of reassurance from my bf, I was straightforward about how I was feeling then he compared to me to his exes to prove a point and even though I know he meant well for some reason that didn’t sit right with me… but I didn’t lash out at him or anything because I knew it was irrational, I remained calm even though lots of bad thoughts crossed my mind and I tried to talk through it to try to understand his perspective, but then he started getting mad and cussing at me and by this point I was already crying. but I still remained calm through text and told him how hard I was trying not to lose it and how I wish he would just cooperate, if I could handle my emotions surely he could too? but he wouldn’t stop and that pushed me to my limits and I kind of spazzed out on him, I didn’t say anything bad like I usually would, I just kind of started spamming him, and then he started criticizing me for not being able to handle my emotions after all and that it was all my fault for constantly needing reassurance and now I just feel like complete shit