Hi friends. So I've been in therapy for about three years now and am actually pretty happy with how much better I have gotten in comparison to the person I was about 6 years ago. My therapist and I are finally really digging into why I have borderline and my subconscious is fighting, and hard. I keep having random flashbacks to things that weren't upsetting or traumatizing (like sitting in 5th grade art class), but I feel like I'm that age again and that I will be stuck in this feeling. 

It's hard to explain without being long winded, but this is new to me, and really scary. I can tell how difficult going through these memories that bring me so much shame is going to be. I'm terrified that it will only cause me pain to talk about them and not give me relief or closure. :( 