we were back together a day when he told me he did stuff while we were broken up and he defends it by “well it’s not like you were being innocent” but the thing is, i was upfront about what i did before we were back together. he purposely hid what he did until after because he was afraid i wouldn’t accept him back and he was right to be, if he told me before i would have told him to fuck off and never speak to me again. a few days before we got back together he emailed me. accusing me of basically fooling around with my guy friend. and i mean he was kinda right, but he broke my heart, he’s not allowed to know or comment on what i’m doing. and then when we started talking again i told him “yes, you were right, that is what was happening.” which resulted in him calling me pathetic, telling me i can’t survive without a man in my life. and after he begged for awhile one of his calls woke me up, i read his many messages while on call and i agreed to try to work on things.

which now brings me to yesterday. i felt bad about what i did and i guess in an attempt to make me feel better and less guilty he told me pretty much he was up to no good as well. three girls. he approached them. which again brings me back to “fuck off and never speak to me again.” but now the situation is a lot more complicated than if he had admitted it before when i did and he told me “i was scared you wouldn’t want me.” i think this behaviour is sketchy, i feel like i can’t trust him. it really hurt me because by that point i trusted him and i had no reason to believe he had been doing that. he says i’m a hypocrite for being angry. 

i just feel like i should leave but i’m scared.