Recently I lost my eldest brother, 30 years old. I’ve found that grief hits me some awfully strange and I’ve chalked it up to my bipolar (I think). 

You’d think a low would be triggered but that’s not the case. I deal with normal moments of grief and sadness but when it came to his visitation and funeral I was running off pure mania. 

His visitation took place a week after we lost him and his funeral two months, I’ve noticed that as soon as I’m surrounded by the grief and mourning of family members and closed love ones I’m running off mania, when I’m alone is when I crash and I’m able to mourn and feel to the best of my abilities. 

Has anyone else experienced this? How does death and grief effect you? Do you find you go through these things differently than someone who doesn’t suffer bipolar?