I don't know if this is BPD exclusive, but does anyone feel this weird anxiety when trying to "be an adult" and speak up when something bothers you? It's not an issue with my partner, but other people get me in this weird state. I feel my inner core shaking and things almost go blurry. My voice doesn't shake but I feel like I'm forcing it to stay stable, and in that I actually speak way more aggressively than I intended. So then, it comes off very emotional and over-reactive. And worse, bitchy. I've chosen not to speak at all until I develop a less emotional way to say what I need to say :c

I mostly feel like this because I KNOW that people lie or try to gas light you when you confront them on their shit. I also haven't figured out how to react when that happens either. Mostly because I'm not even sure if it's just my BPD or if they really were being offensive. I tend to read into things very deeply. Sigh. 