During my manic episode, I did things that my non-manic self would deem as truly evil. Lashing out at the ones I loved most, saying horrible things to friends and family, coldly breaking off my engagement. The pain that i caused to so many people, without even a second thought. 

Where did this come from.. I am tortured by random memories from that time. And all I could wonder is.. deep down, am I this evil? 

Anyone question the same?