we recently got out of school for the summer and im just fucking suffering. my mental health has gone down hill and only more so the longer i go without seeing them.

their mom dislikes me. she hasn't said it straight to my face but i know she does. she has a prejudice against transgender individuals and i just so happen to be one.

this is the longest we've gone without seeing each other. everytime i ask my partners mom if they could come over, she completely ignores my text. she reads it, but she doesnt respond.

i couldn't even celebrate my partner's birthday with them because she personally fucking excluded me. only four friends were allowed over, only one showed up but i was absolutely *not* allowed over because my partner "needs time to be themselves" (was her excuse)

i dont know what to fucking do. i dont know how to drive, my partner lost their permit, everything fucking sucks. i wanna see them. it physically hurts. theyre the only thing keeping me alive and its dicking with me. i feel left out of everything, its like everyone but me sees them and its all bc of their mom. im so scared that if i dont see them, theyre gonna fall out of love with me. i dont wanna lose them. i cant lose them. 

i hate this so much.