I've been searching for a purpose of my life for so long, but even when I seem to find it it turns out it's not there. It's just an illusion. I don't belong here. I'm different. I feel detatched from the world, like I'm dying, or I'm on another planet. I no longer hear well and it makes it even worse. I spend my days looking for animals, feeding them and talking to them. And when I come home I daydream to music. From the moment I wake up until I go to sleep. When I fall asleep I dream, a lot. And I remember everything. I meet new people in my dreams and we have a good time there. That's the only time when I feel happy. I have no idea what's going on and where I'm heading. Everything is purposeless and meaningless. I want to be someone else and be somewhere else. I'm tired of trying. I'm lost.