Okay so I obviously have bpd and a couple other mental disorders.

I'm not sure where to put this because I feel like an asshole no matter what.

So my ex which I had been living with for half a year just tried to commit suicide again.

They tried before and I voluntarily submitted them to a psych ward. This time they od'd and I had to call 911.

They're going to a psych ward now that like 2 hours away.

I feel like an asshole but I just dont care anymore. Like they lost the status of favorite person and now I get angrier the longer I'm around them.

They even admitted to me they have a crush on someone else and it pissed me off even more. I cant stay with them I know we will have to move out of this place and not talk to each other ever again.

I moved here to be with them now I just think itd be easier if I moved back home.

Also we both cant afford the money that itll cost to get them help or pay for the ambulance rides.

I dont know what to do I just feel like shit for caring more about money and myself than about their mental health. Is this ok? Is there any way to stop thinking like this????