Maybe it’s because I watched Everything Everywhere All at Once last month, but I can’t help but think about the missed opportunities and possibilities that I had in the past. And it depresses me.

I had an opportunity to move to New York and could’ve done big things with my art. I was given the chance to join a band that later ended up with some success. I could’ve studied harder in high school and attended my dream school. I could’ve gotten proper treatment for ADHD and autism as a child and avoided loads of childhood trauma. There’s so many more.

In this reality, I went to university and ended up dropping out because my mental health issues were so bad I went to the mental hospital. I’m now living with my parents at 20. I’m doing nothing with my life.

All of this depresses me. I’m not sure what to do with my life and I really don’t have anything going for me. 

Does anybody else feel this way?