I'll have these super intense mood swings which really negatively affect my self esteem, but as soon as I start talking to someone who likes me, my self esteem shoots up immediately and I feel like the best person around. Really opposite extremes. This happens mostly with flirting and as soon as we haven't been talking for a bit (a few hours), it wears off and I really hate myself again. Anyone relate? It's exhausting and stressful because I don't want to use people for my own self esteem. 