So my work is the whole family type everything is great there etc etc best job I’ve ever had. I’ve been there three months which is the longest I’ve held down a job in 5 years or so. Actually I hadn’t made it more than 2 weeks at a job in 5 years. So I’m there the other day &amp; I first of all have an egotism problem. They send us off in pairs of 2 &amp; we work mostly unsupervised. I got paired up with this girl that I have been super nice to, well actually everyone, bringing in food and such. Well I guess she has a huge crush on this kid, she is 18 him 17 &amp; last year they were working part time there and she sent him photos of her nude &amp; was trying to sleep with him after one shift &amp; is obsessive with him. He rarely works our shift &amp; that day there happened to just be 3 of us. She wanted to work with him, yet they paired us off me and her. He was working alone. We go to leave &amp; they tell me to turn around &amp; I didn’t know at the time but apparently she said she doesn’t like me &amp; doesn’t want to work with me.. so they had her go work with him and I thought nothing of it. Next day I come into work and am paired off with the kid &amp; I said it seemed like she was having a bad day yesterday so I was trying to do extra work so they would have to do less. He said it was because she did not like me &amp; did not want to work with me so that’s why when we got paired off she was irritated though she didn’t say anything to me or anything rude or snappy. Then her best friend is my shift manager. The guy who told me this then went on to say that she (my shift manager) really enjoys working with me but he said that she really did not like me at all first herself. I kinda am a kissass at work is the only reason I could think of. I go out of my way everyday to treat my coworkers as best as possible &amp; never talk shit &amp; I try to never say anything pessimistic. Anyway I feel out of touch as I turn 28 actually this week and they are all teenagers to age 22 basically/mostly. I also try to make sure women around me never feel uncomfortable in any way shape or form. I am a 28 year old dude &amp; I think it is due to the guy thing who she got in trouble at work for stalking him &amp; they even had police there &amp; I don’t think she honestly does not like me. I can’t handle people not liking me it severely affects my self worth &amp; mental health. I actually wasn’t feeling the best so I took the opportunity feeling sick to go home halfway through the shift. I talked to another coworker and told them I was so upset, but did not say who had told me so. Dumb work drama shit. Now I feel I want to just go out of my way to be a total dick to her. Also all the late teen/early 20s employees hangout outside of work. I have just been in and out of therapy for years and inpatient psychiatric hospitals so. I haven’t taken the opportunity to work and was in the disability process but tried again to get a job. Just really needing to get my life going &amp; this and then my manager who seems to like me so much did not like me at one point. Not a reason to quit but part of me says to. I don’t hangout with any of them outside of work but considered most of them my friends. Actually the one girl who doesn’t like me, she often works an area answering phones which can be really boring so they let her color while she’s there &amp; I really got into coloring as an adult when I first started going inpatient places as there was nothing else to do &amp; I rediscovered it. Everytime I would get out I’d say that I was going to make a habit of coloring &amp; then buy a bunch of stuff then never use it. So I showed up at work and gave them to that girl &amp; this was a couple days before this &amp; she’s been using them &amp; shit. 

Honestly I feel I’m pretty stuck in my process now. I plan on not being a dick but not talking at all anymore to whatever point to show no emotion &amp; become completely disinterested. I talk to 2 of them outside of work but not regularly. Part of me just thinks narcissistically &amp; says “fukn bitch blah blah blah” “Think she can insult me like that” “that’s she can do that because I’m so nice to everyone, don’t swear at work &amp; bend over backwards” I have basically been a hermit for years &amp; the few friends I did have were from either substance abuse support groups or mental health support groups. I feel bad no one has ever told me I talk to much but I think others feel that way. I have no friends so I had been invested in all the coworkers and them as my friends. Pretty set in the way now of just not caring but doing my job 100%. I only work a few days a week so won’t be back for 4 more days. I have that mindset personally my whole life to just burn every bridge &amp; anyone close to it &amp; not care about any of them at all, as in whomever I hurt “not physically” just collateral damage and I don’t care.