i feel so regretful and so worthless lately. i have big dreams and aspirations for my future but i feel so much anxiety about college, tuition, scholarships, prestige, grades, all of it. i’m so tired of hearing about my classmates 4.0s and above or my friends writing their college essays to Duke. i’m tired of regretting. if i had taken the past two years of AP math, my GPA would be higher. if i hadn’t dealt with depression freshman year, my grades wouldn’t have plummeted. there’s no way to go back and fix it. on top of it all, i feel so silly for having all of this anxiety, crying after just Talking about college with friends, but i set such high expectations for myself that i only make it worse. i just wish i had secured a better chance to achieve my goals earlier on.