Background: I'm on medication for diagnosed depression, anxiety, and an ed.

I turn to escapism pretty much whenever I can; living in my head  in a fantasy world feels better. I cannot sleep without being in this world first. I get that it's normal to want to live a fantasy life and wish things were different. But I'm a full grown adult still imagining (and at home pretending) that I am a magical fairy. I do things that in my adult brain I knows won't do anything but part of me wants to do these things because it is my "duty" as this magical fairy. I don't know what words to look up or anything. I don't have health insurance and can't see a professional yet.

I'm not asking for a diagnosis, but if you guys could suggest some names to bring up to a professional when I get there so I can actually address this issue, that would be great. Thanks.