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I tend to obsess over something I want to the point it may be considered unhealthy. For example I was really hooked on getting my new phone but the moment it arrived I lost all interest in it. .I will desperately try to get something be it a normal thing like a new shirt I want. I order them, wait desperately for the delivery thinking about how I’ll look in it, how good is the material quality, how it will fit me, what pants or other clothes will suit It the best, how will my friends react to it, should I wear it on a regular day or save it for a special day, etc. but the day the shirt is delivered I wear it once and then it ends up in a corner in my wardrobe. It happens not only with material things but also in relationships. I obsess about a person, I go above and beyond to earn their attention and be my friend but the minute they try getting close to me or open up to me I lose all interest in them and run away from them avoiding them like they never existed. It’s like I’m always chasing the next high. I obsess about getting something and that’s more euphoric than actually having the thing. I desperately want someone to like me and be with me but when someone tries to come close I shut them down. I think I like the idea of having something rather than actually having it \[If that even makes any sense\]. I want to be happy but every accomplishment I make I end up feeling empty. it’s a cycle I can’t seem to break. Obsess-achieve-abandon-obsess-achieve-abandon.