ok so last night when I was trying to go to sleep I was like thinking about my job because yesterday was very stressful and chaotic and not the best tbh (at work) and Like my brain was being weird and I was thinking about throwing wine and shit cus I was frustrated (we sell wine where I work) and then I was like... what if I’m at work.. still and actually throwing wine and I just think I’m in bed and I seriously almost had a breakdown because I thought I was at work for a minute still and it was horrifying 
I dissociate a lot and depersonalize but like this was something new, and very horrifying and I don’t even know what it was or if I’m even explaining this well. Maybe i was sleeping? I have no idea honestly. I have dreams that feel like memories, they feel SO real, but I’m pretty sure they’re dreams? It’s so hard to explain but I’m scared tbh