[20f] Okay, so I haven't actually self harmed for a good 3 weeks (yay me.) because I almost destroyed the function in my right middle finger with my last episode. That's all fine and dandy, but the antsiness of the first week has shifted into ridiculous outbursts of impulsivity. I'll make spur of the moment decisions that lead to a lot of self hate and guilt and all of the other shit - afterwards. And even though I hate feeling like this, 12h later I will be neck deep in impulsive self-destructive bullshit again. 
If any of you have *any* tips whatsoever, please, God, fucking please let me know. Message me or whatever. But I'd honestly rather start cutting again than continue with this bullshit. 