every time theres something and drama filled bs in my life , i get these symptoms , hives and then this weird feeling of needing to hyperventilate. theres this huge back story and i know one day if anyone i know sees this … im making myself look bad but this aint the first time i dealt with these symptoms cause of this .

so this “ kid “ 5 years ago im holding a grudge against , i basically held in my anger for like 3 in a half years before i felt i had to say something and get justice . i got justice . i felt it wasnt enough . cause covid hit . all the “ whaf if this happened if i didnt do this “ stuff kept popping up , so i went even further . one of my old friends made a few mistakes , so i figured he’d be great to help put the icing on the cake and finish things . i didnt get too far with that . instead , i got lectured , had a pep talk with another friend and explained how this person was the reason for my down falls in life and blah blah blah . 

few months later my buddies work made an announcement about a project and it sounded quite similar to what i was going through i was like no way … and it was going to be “ published “ in February.   so  now im freaking the hell out .  

Reason im freaking out is cause im not totally innocent here , for the last 2 years i been rubbing in this persons face how they are a screw up and they deserved their short comings , its at the point where i look like the bad guy . it’s literally said “ enough is enough “ and if the project is what i think its about .. theres a problem cause they now have proof we know each other