Note: I am NOT asking for a medical diagnosis. I am simply wondering if anyone on this subreddit identifies with the following.

For about nine months now, I have noticed the following bizarre thought patterns and behaviors in myself. Some have always been present to the same degree, some have always been present but have recently worsened, and some are new.

\- Highly vocal and intense inner monologue.

\- Intolerance for general disorder. (Every time I visit my dad's apartment I essentially rearrange objects like clothes and books in various rooms to make sure they look neat.) (I often can't focus on a task I am completing while seated unless my pants and hoodies "have no wrinkles.") (Certain words appear ugly or disorderly to me such as words ending in "ing" and the word "sometimes." I will often go out of my way to avoid using them while typing.)

\- Irrational social perception. (I think my friend is mad because he chose a specific set of words despite the normal context.)

\- General social anxiety.

\- Hyperawareness of bodily position. (In the presence of non-family.)

\- Intense introspection. (Thinking about the way I think, explaining why I act a certain way to myself.)

\- Sweating.

\- Zoning out.

\- Unprovoked heaviness or feeling of heat in the chest.

\- Feeling that life is "not the same as it used to be" or that it has dulled in comparison to childhood or pre-pandemic life.

\- Extremely odd and persistent layered abstract thoughts. (I find these hard to describe as they vary, but it's almost like I create a "system" in my head and try to determine a general pattern for the way it functions.)

I initially dismissed many of these symptoms due to a perceived lack of individual severity, however, as I took stock of them I began to concern. I should note that some of these symptoms loosely coincide with a period of moderate marijuana use.