For context, I’ve spent years working on my BPD and all things considered, I’m doing relatively well. Never dreamed I could get to this point.

I’ve always been in leadership roles. Before I started working on my issues, I really struggled. BPD made it difficult to lead, and leading made my BPD worse.

Even now with it improved, I still find it very painful at times. Managing my emotions is a constant battle, and even though I know that I’m well-liked (but I do worry about this all the time), I still feel like an outsider simply because, well, I’m the boss.

Most days, I refuse to be limited by having BPD. Sometimes I wonder if I should just back out of doing this. Today I feel especially defeated.

Any advice?