I've started using social media at 26, currently 27. Been using instagram a lot. I just share stories, pictures of myself of videos of me playing music (I'm a musician by hobby, I record and produce my own music).

When I'm feeling depressed I share words in my stories, sometimes I share short articles about BPD in my stories. Got like 50 people constantly checking my stories, a little more than 100 constantly liking my videos. 

I do this as therapy. To ground myself on reality. But I can't shake the feeling of being cringy. Like, some days ago I recorded myself playing music and I named the video "drunk improv, depressed" and I don't even remember playing anything. Actually got lots of likes.

I feel like I'm not like your typical mentally ill patient. I got a degree, I speak multiple languages, I've had high paying jobs, I can lead, people call me handsome, I look fit because I lift. I feel like it's my responsibility to educate regular people on mental ilness, there are people with more severe diagnosis than me that can't even speak for themselves. I suffer for psychosis too, but at least I can speak for myself most of the time. Or is this just pride and narcissism getting in the way?