nothing in my life is working in my favor. i am 21 and i feel like a failure, I cannot seem to gain what I want even if I am working so hard on it. everything feels numb and nothing makes me happy anymore, I have been trying to achieve what I want but things are just getting worse and worse and I am actually concerned about when things I want will happen. I smile and laugh when I am with my family but in reality I just want to go in a corner and cry my eyes out. Once I was a really jolly person but now I never feel like leaving my room and I feel this emptiness in my heart that I cannot explain. I do not want to keep feeling this way, I want to talk to people but I have no one and I do not have the guts to talk to my parents about it, I don't want them to stress. I just want my pain to end. I need help.