I took 3 weeks off work due to my depression and went back yesterday. It's been a hard return and today the need to die was too much to bear. I tried getting through my day but this afternoon, I called a crisis line thinking that they could help me calm down and handle myself for the rest of my shift. Needless to say, the conversation just deteriorated. I had a barber's razor in my hand and was just trying to resist. Eventually I hung up with the lady and tried to get back to work. 30 minutes later, I hear someone calling my name. Lo and behold, the police are outside my home office. I open the door and one officer has a taser pointed to my head while the other has her hand on a gun. I'm confused as fuck and ask what's happening but he keeps shouting for me to keep my hands up and approach slowly. They handcuff me, search my person, and then sit me down for a chat. Eventually, they leave because my therapist gets involved but it was a hell of a way to round off an already shitty day.