Nothing seems appealing to me right now. I was supposed to go on a hike to a waterfall today, but I’m too tired. I was up for almost 24 hours and only slept 3. But I’ve been stuck for days. The lack of sleep is just making it worse. 

I was looking for something to do: maybe read a book, maybe take the donations to goodwill, maybe nap, maybe run, maybe watch TV, but instead I just laid on the floor for 30 mins. 

I laid in my thoughts. The stress of life that’s about to start. I’m starting  school again in two weeks, I work 2:30-6 as a nanny, and I have to find another job at night in order to support myself financially. All while trying to not screw things up again and mess up in school or life In general. 

I want to give up, but I can’t right now . But I feel like I could very soon. 