It started after my sisters wedding about two years ago. I'm estranged from my maternal Grandparents and being in their house for the first time in almost a year (the wedding was at their house) I felt really panicked the entire day. My JNA (just no Aunt is a thing, right?) kept following me around, my Grandma hugged me which was just not great, I specifically looked for this cardboard box of books my Grandma used to read me when I was little and it brought up a lot of hurt that I was squashing down at the time. 

After the wedding I had this awful pain in my chest and it persisted for an hour, my mom honestly thought i was having a heart attack. After an hour and a half my mom was going to call 911 but I burst into tears about how my Grandparents didnt want me, the pain stopped and I felt so much better. I think that was a panic attack cause I've read that sometimes they can feel like heart attacks. 

I've also experienced extreme nausea when I've spent more then a couple hours with moderate anxiety levels. Not completely at its max but where I've spent a long time panicked and quietly anxious. After my brothers baby shower and being around like 60 strangers in my home as well as a past friend from high school that caused me trauma, i went outside on my deck to take a breather. About five seconds after lighting a smoke I just projectile threw up on my deck. It came out of honestly nowhere. 

I was diagnosed with anxiety when I was a teen but I admit that I didnt and still havent really fully educated myself on the symptoms of it. I know the basics and what my therapists have told me but no one said that high anxiety could cause reactions like this. 

Maybe this is a stupid question but is this normal? I know I need therapy and I'm trying to work on that but I'm concerned about these intense physical reactions. 

Thank you for reading my post, and to those out there struggling with anxiety I just want you to know that I hope you're all able to get the help you need and bless you everytime you sneeze. 💜