Dear community, I was wondering if you sometimes feel the same way. 
I've been in a relationship for over a year without drama or arguments. At first I was so high that I thought I had outgrown the disorder. But in the meantime I feel many symthome of the disorder again daily. I also realize that I want to end the relationship out of self-protection because I feel dependent. And I am terrified that if he were to leave me, I would not survive. This is insane or ??!