My partner just moved out. We’ve been living together for almost a year, and been with one another over a year and a few months. When we parted ways, they just went into the car and waved back at me. We hardly kissed or hugged or said a proper goodbye. I know we’re not breaking up, but we’re not seeing or contacting one another for a week, and then we’re meeting up end of next week to talk about whether we want to stay in the relationship or not. 

I don’t know what I’m feeling. I feel messy, I also feel like I can get through it, but I feel so messy and I love them so deeply and fiercely. I want to stay in the relationship, but I have also considered breaking up because of how unhealthy the relationship is and that we’re not compatible. 

This is just a rant. I feel so messy, and I guess it makes sense. It hurt a lot how we parted though.