I'm in this spot where I'm thinking about killing myself every day and I'm constantly depressed and anxious. I have a psychologist I see every 3 weeks and a psychiatrist I've just started seeing every fortnight so that I can get referred into a DBT group (which he said probably won't happen until next year). 

I've been told that when I feel suicidal, I need to call Triage (a local helpline which is connected with the mental health team here). But calling always seems to be them asking how they can help and me not knowing and then they get frustrated with me and are like, "Well, I don't know what we can do for you." 

Going to the emergency room is the same thing. I end up in the waiting room for hours before seeing anyone and then they get frustrated with me because I don't have it all planned out how to stop feeling suicidal. 

I'm really scared of myself at the moment and I don't know what I can actually do that actually does anything.