Every night has been really difficult these few recent months. I’ve been very suicidal for many years, but lately the thought is becoming very close to my mind. There’s a very high bridge *not to name any* within 45 minutes of my home I used to visit and view for the peacefulness… But lately I just day dream of jumping. Finally being set free of my daily demons. I’ve written goodbye messages multiple time recently &amp; even found myself nearly grabbing my car keys for that last drive. Nights are the worst. Sitting alone feeling empty &amp; without care. I’ve made it clear to my family when I recently asked for help on rent, saying my mental health was at its lowest I could picture it to be. They brushed it off, seen my lack of communication &amp; have been texting me kind words. But many of my demons stem from them. I’m very sad &amp; have 0 care to continue life. Bills over due &amp; no food left in my apartment. I’ve stopped working. I’ve never felt so low… Starting to think it only ends by me ending it.