it’s just a mess. i (19F) went to a party tonight and only had 2 drinks because i didn’t want to stay the night, but my social skills are awful. it’s to the point where my mouth forces me to talk more so there isn’t any awkward silences in convos so i just start talking about the most random thing. 

people constantly point out how awkward i am and i feel like people don’t want to hang out with me because of my social skills. I just want to stay home but i know getting out to parties and hanging around others will help me socially. 

if i know the person, like my co workers for example, i’m fine and can talk easily (i still talk about random things they probably don’t care about). but when it comes to seeing people from high school, i just don’t know how to socialise and it’s killing me.