I can't continue for long. It's very exhausting moving around with your heart weighing 1000 lbs. It's tough to recall 10 years back everything was fine. I was given hundreds of chances. I blew all of them. No god is not at fault. He didn't do anything. Neither did family or friends. It's only and only my fault. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I just want to sit in a closed room with my blanket wrapped around me.my fucking phone - that mf made me a porn addict. Now I can't focus on anything - only scroll titties on reddit. 

It's all over.