My boyfriend asked me to go with him to his friends wedding but I kept thinking about how ppl would think about me , about how his friend would feel grossed out looking at my body 

And it’s tomorrow and idk why but I feel so sad telling him I’m not going. But I know if I go that I will feel so anxious because every time before I get out of the house I have this feeling as if something bad is bound to happen. And my mind tends to overinflate the tiniest things that I may feel people think about me 

I guess where im going is, anxiety makes me miss out so many things or even when im present I don’t truly get to enjoy the moment. I can’t help but feel so sad and like im missing out. A part of me wants to go but I feel like it’s too late