I overthink and dread that something bad will happen to me and it actually happens, and that just reinforces my anxiety and self doubt and sinks me deeper into my depression.

It used to be like "don't overthink too much, it's just all ij my head and it likely will never happen" but now, not anymore.

Maybe this is because of people breaking my trust far too many times that at this point i can predict what they will do to me. I can't trust anyone anymore.