(20F) I have had emetophobia since I was in grade school. It’s fine if i throw up (I kind of just black out mentally) but seeing it hearing someone throwing up sends me into a panic attack and it just keeps replaying in my mind. I am getting a teeny bit better with it as I am on lexapro now and I bring my vistaril wherever so go and I work in a nursery in a preschool. Being better about it has given me some time of reflection about it and it’s making me feel glum. I feel like I have missed out on so much because of it. I can’t go on roller coasters. Theme parks are very unenjoyable as puke is everywhere there. I never went to parties in high school or college. I’m terrified of hospitals. There are so many things that my emetophobia inhibits me from doing/enjoying. It really sucks :/