I have BPD and put my girlfriend through absolute hell recently, one could call it verbal abuse. I’ve never been so mean to anyone in my adult life. Three days of binge drinking was involved, along with a nice hole in the wall and a broken phone

She knows about the BPD, has researched it a lot, but is really struggling to get over what I said

This is the first time I’ve ever split on her and it really scared her (well me too)

I guess I would just like to hear any advice or help from those of you living with us? What can I do at this point? I’ve apologized to the extreme and will continue. I just didn’t actually know I was capable of this and she sees me differently