Lately, I feel like a walking contradiction. One day I am utterly depressed; feeling hopeless, lonely, anxious, numb, and overwhelmed. Another I feel a bit better? For example, today I was actually able to get things done, had an appetite, etc. I also noticed that evenings are times of the day when a) I either spiral down the black hole b) feel unusually hyperactive (talk a lot, study) and at the same time I feel overwhelmed - like my mind is all jumbled. At this point I am starting to wonder if all of this is maybe just in my head. I don't know who I am anymore. Feels like my emotions define me, not the other way around. I feel detached from myself. I was actually diagnosed with depression seven years ago, kinda got over it, I guess but then temporary episodes resumed in winter. I'm so confused. Has anyone else here had similar experiences? I am going to see a psychiatrist this week but some additional comments rn could put my mind at ease..