asking for any kind of helps makes me panic. I'm someone who will freely help anyone who asks, I try my best to be open and vulnerable about my experiences and encourage people to reach out to me and others in their life to ask for the help they need. however I tend to crumble if anyone helps me. I feel so uncomfortable and makes me super emotional. 

perhaps it's that I feel undeserving of help. I try to remind myself that I am worthy. perhaps it's that I feel like I failed, but then I try to remind myself that no one can go through life alone and no one is born knowing how to do everything. I am constantly learning and growing and that's ok, that's healthy. but still, asking for help makes me feel so crummy and then receiving help almost makes me feel like im breaking.