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hi guys.I am 17 years old and i have borderline disorder[.My](https://bad.my/) moms paranoid schizophrenia started at june 2020, we had to move in grandparents village.Which is so desolated that caused me losing my friends, and i can't even go to market because she never let me.I've been so bad since this things started.I don't have father he left me so nobody could help the situation.(my grandma started to act like her and grandpma isn't helping) I am always at home i feel im getting sick,my legs in pain.And i am planning to leave home in 2022 when my high school finishes and i got my exam grade for uni,but for that i need to get some money from bank account which my father send it as alimony.And i am so worried about if she doesn't give me the money.I said her i'll buy a phone with that but shes not normal so i can't make sure she'll give it.I am just stuck in that situations.And i get worse day by day. I am so lonely,so sad and nobody to talk this things.Please share your advices.I care them so much.