I’m just sick of global society. I’m sick of the direction we’re heading. It really feels like neo/techno feudalism. IMHO, the purpose of society should be to eliminate/reduce human suffering and I just don’t see that happening. I don’t see that happening based on the amount of homelessness I see. I don’t see that happening in terms of climate issues and reducing GHG emissions &amp; other pollution. I don’t see young people being supported- high costs of living, debt, low wages.

For the US exclusively 
Where is free/cheap healthcare for all
Where is free PUBLIC higher education
Where is cheap/healthy/convenient food
Where is affordable childcare

And the counters I’ve heard to these things have been like: oh there’s progress being made, rent control, more scholarship opportunities, young people, well you should get involved.

I’ve been involved. It’s so bureaucratic and soul-crushing you lose vision of the bigger picture, the reason you got involved. “Well just keep at it.” Why TF would I keep at it when I know I’m operating in a system that is built against me, against my values? And then like, let’s say you get an important piece of legislation passed great! It has no teeth, it’s not enforceable, it has no funding attached to it, it’s easily circumvented. 

We have people sleeping on the sidewalk, scared out of their minds, while Jeff Bezos &amp; Elon Musk are rocketing themselves to space because, why not?! Yay rich people fun! We have billionaires getting richer in a pandemic! Why would I be involved when politicians I’ve admired and supported have been able to accomplish so little? Or do (what I consider to be) reprehensible actions I can only hope were done so out of political necessity.

I work a bullshit job that shouldn’t exist but I’m sure as fuck glad does because *survival.* But, it doesn’t align with my values. In this environment, I don’t know if it would even be possible to have any job that aligned with my values which is so frigging depressing! What do I want to do? I want to help people. Great! Government, healthcare, nonprofits… bureaucratic, underfunded, nightmares. 

I just don’t get it. I’m so sad. I’m so sad for the needless human suffering- physical &amp; mental. Like I don’t get how any sane, mildly informed person would not have depression/anxiety… which sucks!

I bet you can tell how much fun I am at parties ;-)