I'm honestly so sick of this, everytime I find someone kind and apparently sweet turns out to not be communicative and ends up dumping me. Everytime I think I find a friend this happens. I make them uncomfortable by some god knows what way and they just straight up stop talking to me/block me or hurt me in the ultimate possible way. I just don't want to get hurt again. I want to talk things out but they never do. I try to be a good friend and yet I mess up everytime. I really must be a horrible person if I can't get a single friend even online anymore. I have two people in my life who keep me going but nobody else. All I want is some new friends who can understand me and understand that I can't by any chance think twice before saying something... but my love is genuine. I'm trying to be a good person I swear. I never even take anything to heart when something comes off as rude to me, but being left like this right off the bat.. it's not fair to suffer this much from just a broken friendship.. I'm scared of being left again and now I'm questioning whether my friend and lover will leave me too..