My mother grew alone without a husband and I remember that since she was in her 30s. I feel like I’m headed down the same road. I’m 26 M and I never had any friendships in high school. After high school I got into construction and I can’t be around men. I have settled in 4 year relationships till I decided to find someone I found more attractive. I cheated because I couldn’t cope with being alone. Current relationship failed and honestly feel like my body is about to split. I’m scared to grow alone and I can’t cope with my failed relationships. Yes I’m employed and consider myself a high performer but truly plagued with loneliness