I am 18 diagnosed with bpd. Had a lot of trauma. As a child I would exaggerate and lie. As I’ve grown older my trauma has effected me. I have a voice in my head that called me a faker and a peadophile , sexual abuser and all thoughts of negative things. I suffer with instructive thoughts everyday. Yesterday my Nan told me that I’m making up my mental health , because I told the doctor I feel suicidal. Due to the fact what she said was the same as my thoughts. I have been on a downward spiral since. Tonight was it. I attempted injure my self as a way to confirm this is real. Just to feel like it is real and the voice is wrong. I have none/minor recollection of my traumatic events because my brain has gone over them that many times trying to see if I’m lying. I also feel like because I have previously looked up bpd symptoms I may have convinced myself I have it although I have been this way long before I knew it existed. I got worse last year. Please somebody tell me you understand. I just want to be seen. I need to know the truth