I've been really struggling lately with coming to terms that i actually have it, i feel like my entire world crashed down when i got diagnosed a month ago. Life has been really hard recently and ive been diagnosed with depression before, but it has never been this ''real'' to me.  Telling my friends and family was really hard and now i feel like they all pity me in a certain way (?).  But yeah, i just want to get better and be the person that i was before and i feel like the first step is to accept that i have depression, but i can't for some reason.