I used to just have mild depression and anxiety, now my anxiety is so bad that my chest physically hurts everyday from it, I’m always contemplating suicide, and I know it’s gotten worse recently because my mindset used to be “I’ll do it in a few months” and now it’s “should I just do it tonight”. I hate every aspect of my self. Socializing is very hard for me. But Lately I’ve been feeling trapped in my own body, like I’m internally screaming all the time. I’m not sure why some days I feel like I lose small amounts of time. And my memory used to be very very good perfect actually, now I struggle to remember some things. Does any one have any advice at all?