Am I breaking up with my boyfriend because I'm addicted to a drama cycle and things were finally good with us? Or am I making a rational decision about what's best for me and my happiness? I honestly can't tell!

Background info: my bf and I have had a tumultuous relationship but things have been steadily improving and then we had almost 3 solid weeks of actual just good steady awesomeness. Then what do I do? Fuck it all up!

I got depressed. Shook up my whole centered thing I was doing. Had a solid 2 days where I wanted to die. My boyfriend at the same time decided to stop taking his meds. Nothing actually happened. He has remained centered and steady. But I freaked out over him making the decision without consulting me first.

Am I being a psycho and fucking up my whole life over nothing?