My therapist has asked a couple times and I’ve always turned them down. I was on some sort of ADD medication as a teen and it gave me anger issues. I fear a few things with getting on meds of any sort.

* Not being who I am. Whether it’s anger or something else, I worry about becoming someone other than who I am.
* Side effects. Weight gain is the biggest concern for me. I’m already rather heavy and I’ve recently hired a personal trainer and am trying really hard to improve myself and I’d hate to have to fight something like that. Especially considering my weight and lack of success in dating is a big part of my depression.
* Not being able to get off them. I worry that I’d feel even worse if I can’t be on them in the future for any reason (say I do gain weight or can’t afford them or whatever).

I don’t have much knowledge on the topic. I usually try to manage these things with the help of friends and my therapist but something happened recently that really shook me and I worry that if something else big happens, my depression could reach a place I can’t come back from.