Since June 2020, I've seen the same therapist, I've done ketamine therapy, I've taken my meds like im supposed to, I've failed 30 different meds throughout my life (I have a lot of diagnosises). I dont want to keep doing this. I have nothing left to give. I dont want to do anything, nothing brings me joy. I thought I was fine, then I was told I am actually severely depressed and this isn't normal. I cry every day. I cant sleep. I dont know any other way to live. Im scared of anyone ever getting close to me again, it just hurts too much. I want to be ok, but im so tired of trying. Why is this happening to me? I can't do this