I've ruined other peoples days because of my issues. I either go and end up breaking down in front of them, or I just stay home and cry all day. Years and years of medications and hospital visits have solved nothing. Im getting worse by the year. I cant kill myself because I'd ruin my parents and brothers lives. Im angry I have to be alive. Im angry at the people that need me here. I dont want to continue forward. Ive had enough