I know that this isn't exactly what you want to hear right now, I know that because I was so tired of hearing it too for a very long time, but coming from someone who has been extremely depressed and anxious for years, It really is going to be ok. Just give it time and keep fighting. I felt pretty down right now and I realised how far I have gotten over the past 2 years. I exercise, started to socialize more, worked on my anxiety and faced my biggest fear and Im with the love of my life. And all I had to do was fight. I know thats easier said than done, but it's so damn worth it! I am forever greatful that I kept going, and thats something I never thought I would ever say. I still have my downs, but I don't regret not committing suicide anymore. I also wanna thank this community for all the support when I really needed it. Last time I made a post here I was destroyed. As you can probably tell by my username, I literally made this account so I could make posts in this sub. So again, thanks :)