TLDR : Accepted meeting with a therapist in my school cause I feel like I'll be pushing myself to the point of no return.

The past 2-3 weeks have taken a heavy toll on my mental health and today a professor of mine asked if anything was wrong with me, since my grades habe dropped like never before. I finally managed to say that my mental state was deteriorating. She took the time to call a therapist that's supposed to come next week's Saturday. All the while I'm saying to myself that "I'm faking it. You are faking it. There is nothing wrong with you."  It's gonna be hard to talk about what goes through my head when I start thinking like that as soon as I immediately try to open up.