Just having a rough time
So I have been doing at home dialysis for awhile now. My wife helps with that and does awesome with it. We also foster a 9 year old who can be a challenge. This is all while working a full time job each. 

Well, three weeks ago I decided to fall and tear a tendon in my knee. Had surgery on it last Thursday but am pretty useless around the house until it heals. Start PT on next Wednesday. 

My wife has been so helpful through everything and I know it’s a lot on her. She’s an angel. 

I just feel I’m hitting a pretty rough depression right now. Being stuck in a room cause I can’t go up and down stairs right now. Our house has dining room, kitchen, and bedrooms upstairs, living room is downstairs. We hang out in dining room a lot but it’s not a ton. 

My wife seems so distant right now. I feel she’s just so busy that putting effort into just the relationship seems to be too much. I also feel I could be imagining things. I haven’t seen my friends in a bit, don’t see wife as much as I used to, and our foster child just seems like he doesn’t like me. Now as a foster parent I’m used to that, but the relationship between us has just plummeted since I got hurt. 

I feel like I’m general that I’m such a burden that I’m pushing everyone away and the thought of them going away puts me in a worse mental state. 

I don’t want to talk to my wife about it because she’s carrying so much right now as it is, and I don’t feel like my friends understand when I do talk to them. 

Just… I’ll be so glad when I can damn walk again.