Life getting sadder and sadder everyday at 22, losing hope in life

I feel I already failed at life being at 22 years old. First of all, I graduated college degree I didn't liked at all since of societal pressure that you need to know what to do at 18 years old graduating basic school. Now I want study Law, I study really hard everyday 4 TO 6 hours, dealing with negative thoughts from the past that I wasn't good motivated student in past so I won't be now then I get enrolled, I will waste 5 years of my life and can not get any job. Getting those negative thoughts that you are failure, you won't achieve just kills any hope. The thing is its first time in life I'm able motivate myself for studying for a long time, however at the same time fighting with very negative intrusive thoughts. I want to succeed in life, I want to have a craft there I could be best. I don't want to be this pathetic loser crier, having all the opportunities being something greater but letting his fears kill his life and live poor, average life. I have good looks, I'm tall pretty fit, texted 1000 girls on messenger, tinder and got 0 dates. It feels I'm always failing at everything and most likely if I fail one more time I will end this life. I just want to have a pretty good personality girl, high salary, travel around the world, save money create my business and live passionate and happy life. Yesterday I run 17km, I felt amazing, reached my personal record. Something forces me to do this crazy stuff, somehow I felt I need to run push myself out of my comfort zone. I don't really know what it is. Maybe it is intuition. Maybe some divine guidance which starting pushing my back. I know If I settle now I will settle forever. I'm afraid of settling, I'm afraid of living mediocre life while having conditions to live way better life. I lost my 5 friends after basic school without any particular reason. I never was bad person to anyone. All these past failures really began dragging me down in this year after college graduation. I just realized I wasted 3 years of my life, not getting college friends or girlfriend even I approached few. Somebody already have an amazing girlfriend, good salary and knowledge while I'm forever ,,perspective''. I want start investing, but I don't believe in myself I can be good investor. I really want to learn new things constantly improve but to begin something new become even harder. I know that in all those important things, worthiest things are very big hardships. I want those things really bad, I'm obssesed about being way better version but something I don't know holds me back, I don't know if it's fair of failure or just delusion that I want those things. Nobody in my family forced me being successful, somehow I have this big desire to become my best possible version. This life is to short to live just exist. Gabby Pettito really inspired me to live every single day like a last, because tomorrow isn't promised. I don't think I respect this given life If I'm settle for things I don't want. In school I was bellow average student since I was so passionate about football and thought I would be football player rich famous, however things due to injuries turned other way around. I realized I lied myself for whole my short life and it is so hard to admit. I know other guys who lie themselves being couple years older. Nothing is worst then lying for yourself. I found pornography from basic school last 2 years and it killed life in me. I become very introverted, unhappy, lacked of action, couldn't approached any girls. I feel I need to go to my wildest fears, I won't be wiped out but something in myself then gets so comfortable telling me that you don't have to do this, it will hurt you, this voice is killing me, pushing myself to my comfort zone in every area of life. I understand failure, but I don't understand not trying for me. I hope there is light in the tunnel and things will get bright for me. I don't want to fuck my future because I know things will get only worst.

What's your thoughts about this pathetic loser? Is he still have a time to turn around his world? Or he will get so comfortable in situation (victim mentality) that it will eat him alive for the rest of his life...…..

I don't know what's my issue here that's why I'm asking others, others might see my situation better and solution to it. I really need help, I can't live with those strong negative emotions which makes me cry super hard.