My boyfriend and I live together and this morning he told me he was going to lunch with our close mutual friend who we haven’t seen awhile due to quarantine. When i asked if i could go he told me that he wanted it to just be them because the friend and I tend to dominate the conversation when the three of us hang out. 

My boyfriend is naturally a pretty quiet person in groups so while I understood this, I couldn’t help starting to spiral down into feeling like complete shit when he told me I couldn’t go with him. I tried really hard to avoid splitting and having a meltdown but it’s been four hours now and I just can’t stop feeling terrible. It’s so agonizing feeling rejected by him like that and now that he’s left I can’t stop thinking about it. 

I know i can’t expect him to want to be with me 100% of the time but it just felt really bad being told no for him to go to lunch and leave me home alone by myself. It’s completely unreasonable to assume people will always react how I want them to, but sometimes I just feel like he really doesn’t understand me and thinks I am just irrational. 

Am I being ridiculous?