Ok guys, im in a bit o a pickle. I have bipolar 2, been diagnosed over 5 years ago. Ive only been manic 2 times, and both { in my opinion } were trigguered by antidepressants before my diagnosis was fully closed. 

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Thing is, i feel like ive been depressed all my life. Some times it gets a lil better, right now i cant barely function and daydream about suicide. I dont do anything that once gave me pleasure anymore, i cant stand to see my friends and i live alone, so most days im struggling to eat while moving the least i can. Every antidepressants i try either gets me full blown manic or i get terrible nightmares, feels like theres screaming in my head, re living all my shame and past trauma... i recently tried wellbutrim 150 mg for 3 months and it was a disaster, cause i was just as depressed and my head was so accelerated, awful.

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Anyway, ive been doing some research and i would totally do ECT since it seems to help with drug resistent depression except i aint got the money for. I would not even mind the memory lost, since my life has been a shit show. So i come by so many articles that say that psylocibim { magic mushrooms } have the potention to get you out of a major depression for months with a single dose. What yall think...

this is one of the things i read

  How much psilocybin do you take for depression?

The study found that patients who took **a single psychedelic dose of psilocybin, 25mg**, in conjunction with therapy reported almost immediate and significant reduction in depressive symptoms that lasted weeks compared with patients who were given a 1mg dose, which is so low it's essentially a placebo.