I got what I wished for.. im alone. it's like I'm always pushing others away or wanting to be by myself and then once the loneliness hits I fall into depression. oh yeah and I got broken up with almost 2 months ago lol and my siblings moved away, so its just me and my parents now.. I have no friends close by.. I feel abandoned. I feel so fucking alone and depressed.

on a good note though, I finally got a job after not working for 2 years.. im kinda happy about that. hoping it works out for me and keeps me busy while im feeling this way..

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god this feeling really sucks I feel like shit