I always wonder this when I’m in a relationship. I always disclose the fact that I have BPD when I begin dating someone I could see myself becoming serious with but I don’t ever really fully explain it to them. I often catch myself thinking “If he had looked it up he wouldn’t still be here.” Especially in my current relationship which is actually approaching its 6 month mark so I feel ridiculous still thinking this way because even if he did look it up at this point I know that wouldn’t be the definitive reason he’d leave me if he ever did. Does anyone else have this type of re-occurring thought when dating someone?