I don't know if this happen with yall too, but I feel overwhelmed by everything I could do at the moment. Firstly I got excited cuz I could do anything from learning something new to doing my chores. But then I got sad and anxious bc there are so many things and it would take so much time and effort that I was afraid the future me wouldnt like the thing I'm doing now and applying myself to, so this would all be wasted time. It's much easier to cling to the present and only think about what I wanna do in the moment when I'm with him, bc when I'm alone it's like there's more space in my head to think about other things. I'm motivating myself now to start a python or electronics course online (can't decide which one lol), wish me luck!