Even my friend would say how I was finally starting to see a situation w a guy in a healthy way, than I’d flip my view and see the guy as dangerous and dislike him, than I’d go back to the healthy mature view. I’m able to have a lot of compassion, empathy, and see the other persons wrong doings and my own wrong doings in a healthy way. But this doesn’t last. My mood is on like a cycle. Why is it like this? How can I stop? The only way I can explain it is Trisha paytas YouTube videos. She posts mature videos of her showing her healthy emotional state and her being rational and calm.. than starts verbally attacking a 16 year old for a week.  Does this mean my healthy side is fake ??