It feels so fcking good at first, like you're on a euphoric drug like heroin and that is scary. The moment they do something wrong or to trigger you its like heroin withdrawal and you're in so much fcking agony. It's torture.  I just keep going from feeling so good and having hope to feeling not good enough/shitty and feeling insanely hopeless. I just wish I could just be delusional and stay in love but the switch just goes off. My paranoia and splitting is so bad. Not sure how everyone handles romantic elationships here. I can't get past 3 months with anyone.