I still feel dead inside, even tho my life is getting better. I found finally someone who loves me, i got a nice apartment and i feel safe after some years of being really anxious. But I still find my self wondering if its worth to live... when I practically can't do shit and bcs i have problems with legs i can't work anywhere else then in office or somewhere with people. I feel like I completely useless, like I don't have any place in this world... Therapists didn't help me and the last resort I had was psychiatrist, that told me I either had to take strong pills or start taking medical weed, which i know can help, but I feel bad about taking. I did smoke in my past, but then I stopped after 2 months of addiction bcs I started to feel like breathing is getting harder. Should i just go for the pills and/or weed or try to still get help or in last resort hope that moving in with my gf will help me?