I get so frustrated and angry because my fp is incredibly inconsistent with communication. One day we’re talking a ton and the next he doesn’t talk at all and it makes me feel so scared that he’s pushing me out, that he hates me, or is only around out of pity. He doesn’t know about my bpd and I don’t want him to know, and I also want to call him out but would feel bad for calling him out for not talking to me every single day. I just don’t want him to leave me or forget about me. It’s so detrimental for me and causes me to get suicidal when he starts being inconsistent. I’m just so stuck. Today is the second day he hasn’t spoken more than a few words to me and I’m just freaking out. I can’t lose him because he’s all I have. I don’t want to be alone. 