I have suffered from depression and anxiety since I was a young teenager (I'm 21) and have been medicated for the past three years, on and off. I find that antidepressants help me a lot to manage my mood and allow me to live something close to a functioning life. 

My boyfriend of 1 1/2 years has never really had experience with depression, nor does he know anyone personally to have suffered from it (or that has at least opened up to him about it). He is very against me taking medication as he sees it as unnatural and maybe unnecessary. He has known me without the medicine as I had to stop it abruptly (due to reasons outside of my control) for a couple of months and I became highly psychotic and unpredictable. I even had a couple of episodes which included violence toward him, which I deeply regret. Even still, he condemns me for taking medication. 

His attitude makes me feel weak. He has this kind of "just grin and bear it" kind of attitude which I know is unrealistic when it comes to mental illness but I still can't help feeling pathetic. I don't know how to get him to understand how much it helps me to keep on top of my emotions and manage my mood, and makes me feel so much better. Does anyone else have experience with this and is willing to lend some much-needed advice? 

TL;DR: I don't know how to get my boyfriend to understand and accept that I need antidepressants at this time in my life.