I feel so infuriated rn and upset. First day at college, he said we were open to ask for any help and if we need anything all teachers are present there. 

So when I finally needed some help, I gathered up the courage to ask, he was just so fucking mean. The face he made when he yelled at me to go back to class made me so angry. There goes my attempt to even trust any of these teachers. But if I don't ask, I'll suffer, if I ask I'll still suffer like I'm rn.. I can't stop replaying same scene in my head again and again. I'm getting angry and sad over it again and again. I hate being anxious over this when I'm talking to certain people. I am much better than before but teachers man.. they STILL make me anxious. I hate them. Don't promise that you'll be nice if you can't be nice.