The first week on bupropion was amazing, to the point I now think I was in a manic episode. After that week it’s just given me increasingly bad rage issues. 

Last night I had a 6 hour long panic attack, anger attack, and just generally a total meltdown. The worst I have had in many many years. I ended up punching a hole in my wall, drinking which I never do anymore, and chainsmoking which I also never do anymore. I don’t even smoke or drink but I felt so amped up and crazy I didn’t know what else to do. I felt like I was losing total control of my mind and body. I was very very close to a suicide attempt. 

I have never felt anger like that in my life. It was well above and beyond BPD rage. It was so overwhelming I truly wanted to end my life for a few hours but thankfully I resisted. 

I just read up on bupropion and people call it the “poor mans cocaine”, they say the effects are similar to crack and having done cocaine quite a few times I totally agree with that assessment. As it turns out, this shit is basically BATH SALTS and very chemically similar to meth. This shit has caused so many problems in my personal life in a short span of time. I am so fucking upset. I feel like I’ll never trust a doctor again and now I’ve caused irreparable damage to my relationships because my doctor basically gave me meth-crack-bathsalts. 

Has anyone taken this shit and had similar problems? Here’s the source for the above paragraph if anyone wants to read up 

https://www.acoep-rso.org/the-fast-track/bupropion-the-poor-mans-cocaine-a-case-report/