
It’s like a recurring nightmare that won’t stop. Anxiety and depression is back and eating me alive. I promised my friend I wouldn’t overtext but here I am and now he’s not responding back. Rational mind is telling me he is overwhelmed and doesnt have time to respond back. Or having issues at home or just overwhelmed by endless texting. I get it, I’m a bad friend, a friend that doesn’t deserve to have anyone. I remember he told me once that everyone has things they need to fix, things to work on. And hes right. 

It’s been a week now and I feel awful. I stopped trying to reach out and hope that true friends will come back around. Everyone around me is telling me I didn’t loose a friend and to just give it time… I hope so