I have a job and I go to work and I have a therapist etc, but honestly when I’m not working all I do is try to avoid thinking or I think about thinking. I’m not even sure if that makes sense. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t get tasks done throughout the day. Even very simple ones. I have almost no motivation to do anything even though I know I need to change. It’s almost like I can’t do tasks because it will cut into my “thinking time”. I’m not sure if anyone can relate, but I feel lazy because of it and have been this way for years. As a result my house is always messy, I’ve gained weight, lost friends, the list goes on.