And I almost got into a lawsuit because I threatened my colleague with serious injury on our office whatsapp group because she scolded me for my work. (I posted here a few days ago) I've only been in the company for a year so I don't know how to do things yet. And said colleague was my age and have been in the company for 3 years. And with my bipolar and bad memories ruminating in my head, it's difficult. 

How does Kristen Stewart do it? She doesn't care that people hate her work. She just keeps on acting. How do I do that? Possible future ruin because now, no company wants to hire a 30 year old with just one year experience and several job hoppings.