I realize more time goes on That I really don't tailor my love to a specific gender, sexual orientation, religious belief or any of the likes. I love everyone equally. 

Now all my relationships have been straight to this date. I court a woman and the relationship plays out the way it plays out. Usually in very repetitive scenarios and decisions. That leave me feeling abandoned, ashamed, rarely angry.

I've always had hetero relationships but I question if I would engage in a relationship that wasn't hetero just for the comfort and validation I so desperately seek. I love people, not the specifics...dae feel like this?