I'm sitting in my bed thinking about my first ever favorite person, well one of the firsts after I found out I most likely had bpd ( I've since been diagnosed by a handful of licensed professionals) I haven't talked to them in at least a year I think but it feels like it's been forever.. all I can hear is their old name in my head playing on repeat. I'm unable to think of anything but them now and it's started to tear me down. I just wanna hear from them tell them how I've been and how my transition is going.. tell them about my dog and how his birthday was a few days ago. Tell them I miss them more than anything and wish they were back in my life.. I wish I knew how I could reach them and tell them I miss them. What do I do ? I can't stop thinking about everything I loved about them. The time we met and how magic it felt. The time they held me in public when I was too shy to talk. I just miss them so much.