Im already past my mid 20s and for about 8 years my parents had to deal with me. An adult with low functioning depression. They love me enough to keep me by their side and make sure they don't irritate me, but I havnt gotten better since. My self image is so horrible that dying seems like it would just bring peace to my unworthy life. But I feel so bad for my parents. I couldn't imagine having to watch their own daughter struggling to find joy in life. And Im not resilient enough to hide it from them. They have seen the raw part of my suffering and I feel so so terrible. They don't deserve me. My depression ruined my family and their mental health.. Why couldn't I be a normal person. A normal daughter who could show gratitude and respect for what they have done for my life. But I can't care about my life anymore.. I don't know how to drag on a life thats not meant to exist in the first place.