Not that any of you remember me but I’ve been posting about my struggles after a near-10 year dry spell of no sex where I really wanted to find human connection again but got slow faded by someone I fell really hard for.

In an attempt to get over the slow fade, I attempted a fun rebound fling in another state. Spent lots of time setting it up and video calling the guy. So…I fly 3 hours to see this guy, I land, we meet and have sex, he says his friend has an emergency 2 hours after coming and says he has to go but that he’ll see me again before I leave. The friend emergency thing was kinda sus but I always try to be a kind person so I didn’t question him on it. Then he proceeded to completely drop me for the remainder of my trip and even hid his Instagram stories from me so that I couldn’t see he wasn’t actually busy with his homework. 😅 

In summary, my rebound did the exact same shit that I was trying to get over and I now have even more serious trust issues.

I don’t get it. I am conventionally attractive, I don’t go for guys out of my league (this guy literally thanked God for me when he saw me). But something makes men not want to stay past the first night. Or maybe it’s my choice of men.

Both the original slow fader and the rebound guy said they were 5’6 but I have my suspicions that they were shorter…like 5’4 aha. Both of them had insecurities about being small that I reassured them of. Both of them were insecure with their English skills but I made them feel comfortable and safe. I was always kind to them, always caring. Never said no to anything at all. But neither the original nor the rebound found it in their hearts to be honest with me…and it hurts.

Rant over, please be gentle with me, I feel pretty worthless right now