I am so done with this year! I lost my dream job  because of a shit reference from an abusive employer (who thought I was a-ok to work with small children even when I had tonsillitis and was on codeine and penicillin), I then spent June-November waiting to get onto the fucking supply teaching list despite being a fully qualified teacher and successfully interviewing in fucking August, three weeks to get into a school, and now my brain is too frightened to make that work for even a week before pulling the plug! I AM FUCKING DONE!

I am sick of this year! I am sick of fighting against bullies and bureaucracy and my own broken brain, I am sick of feeling like I'm not good enough! FUCK! 

I just want to be happy, and settled, and working, and not scared of the world.