I know how petty this sounds. I was friends with another woman who was sweet, supportive, upbeat but most of all in my opinion, stunningly pretty. 
That wasn’t her only wonderful feature- she was loyal, articulate, athletic, musical... but to me her beauty stood out the most because she really was that gorgeous in my eyes.

It made me feel like absolute shit and I started to get jealous and feel extremely insecure and worthless. I know I put far too much emphasis on looks (how I was raised) but.... damn. 

It was even more of a no brainer to ghost her when my mental heath really took a turn for the worst this year (went off all meds) leaving me feeling super vulnerable and unable to do basic self care, let alone look presentable.


I just wanted somewhere to share this. Because it’s such a petty fucking reason to let go of a friendship that it’s embarrassing and has been weighing me down for so so so long feeling like I’m a bad person.