ok so the thing is
i tried to kms 2 times, in one of them i was saved by a lady and in the other one it just didn’t work out, so i started self harming and kept having suicidal thoughts
my therapist had known me for many years but she has always seen me as a super smart, shy, anxious girl but never violent
my mommy works at a mental institution but has a lot of prejudice against some mental illnesses like EDs (even tho i also have one) and heavy stuff

how do i tell my therapist i have tried to yeet myself out of existence and have been checking if i’m really not made of cake? because when i try to talk about it she never gets the point but I’m also scared to tell my psychiatrist because she would probably admit me into the hospital and i can’t because my mommy would be sad, but at the same time i recognize that i really need help