I’ve been up and down for these last couple of months, I had a rlly bad depressive episode and couldn’t bring myself to work for a couple months ofc now I’m rlly low on money. I have a lot of things on my plate that I’m stressed about such as some payments I need to take care of and getting a new job. But today my dad called me a hoe after he found out I was sexually active with my boyfriend at 16 we dated for a year and I know it wasn’t smart of me to do so but my dad also never really ever showed affection to me. He would ignore me and try his best not to talk to me throughout the day so ofc at that age I desperately looked for affection from other ppl. I’m 18 now a and regret since they fucked me over but it sent me over the edge and the stress and him calling me names has me spiraling, my dad used to call me fat or pimple face when I was younger and i just ignored it but for some reason this one hurt and I know he doesn’t value me at all. Which sucks because all I wanted was him to one day treat me like he liked me but now I feel so unwanted in my home and just useless I’m planning to move out soon but tbh I rlly just want to die, I’m tired of living in pain and tired of just being a burden on other ppl. I think it hurts the most when it’s your own parents who make u feel unwanted but I genuinely don’t know what to do.