I'm not trying to self diagnose or anything but I find it that I'm not feeling normal. I feel under accomplished, not enough, behind in life, my grades are shit, I've been improving but its fucking hard, there's tons of pressure to do good, I have no social life, nothing's working out, I've been exercising but haven't really made progress in the past year, I've been researching and I'm not going anywhere. I feel as if I'm not good enough, there's no reason to keep trying because I'm still the same lazy useless shit I was years ago. I'm not thinking of self harm, but also know if I die not much is going to change, so might as well die. I still have the same issues and weaknesses I had 4 years ago, so why the fuck am I still trying