So I've been with my boyfriend for 10 months now, and during the past few months my mental health has gotten so much worse. My trust issues have gotten more severe, I lash out, yell at him, throw things etc. even if he does something unimportant. The thing is, for me even the least significant thing is important. Yesterday, we got in this huge fight, for the third day in a row, and he said that if this happens again he will break up with me. He said he's tired of feeling shitty because of my insecurities and that he demands respect and trust from me. I love him so much and I really don't want to lose him but on the other side I feel like he doesn't get me and he only loves me when I'm happy. He doesn't really understand what it's like to feel like your brain is fighting you all the time and to not be able to control your messy feelings and reactions. On the other side, I understand that he has feelings too and doesn't want to constantly has his mood ruined and feel disrespected. I don't really know what to do...