i m 17M i m in class 12, i wanted to take a career which i would like and have a atleast some intrest in, my parents although wont let me since i was born not even once they have asked me what i wanted to be, they just told me that i have to become a doctor no matter what, since i didnt have intrest in becoming a doctor and i ve never been a good student, i want to be something else.

 since i was 13 my father keeps telling me one thing that i must become a doctor, he isnt very friendly with me he is very strict and only talks happily to me if i study ,i talked to my mom about my future, about how i didnt want to become a doctor, even she remained on the same path as my father and said that if i didnt want to study for it then they will take me to their village and make me work in the fields,i already didnt have any motivation towards studying and that killed more of it, i had 1 freind he was a year older than me but had better future plans he told me that i also could be anything i wanted, few years later when i got in 8th grade my best friend died my father didnt say anything at that moment meanwhile my mother tried to help me, in school i was bullied a lot and didnt have anyother friends than my late friend, a year later i made some friends from which only 2 matter the most to me till date, we used to live in a complex and used to do all the dumb shit together, i studied hard at that time thinking that me and the boys could be older and be rich together, a year later in my 10th grade covid struck and my final exams was cancelled.

 in 11th grade my parents got my school changed and changed our house, they told me that we would be going back to the old house as my father owned it but not very frequently, i was a little sad but i thought that if i studied hard i could maybe get some form of intrest in this career, i studied for atleast 12 hours a day till my half yearly exams in class 11 i scored average marks i got even more sad, i lost a lot of my motivation to study at that point because i didnt want the career and i am a very poor student, in 7th and 8th grade i heard my parents talk about how they raised a failure, at the end of 11th grade my father was impresses of how many hours i put in so he got me a laptop, it may seem like a sign of affection but to me it doesnt he got me a laptop when i studied but when he heard about how i didnt want to become a doctor he threatened me that he'd make me work in the fields, and now it is my current time my father got a transfer so my mother and i stay alone we dont go back to the house owned by my father, he took the laptop and went to his current place of work, i dont have any motivation to study for anything, i lost my friends whom i wanted to study for, i cant choose a career of my choice and HAVE to become a doctor no matter what, my mother whom i love the most was diagnosed with heart related diseases and has had 1 angina attack, my father did'nt let her take her meds before his transfer. 

i thus just ask for any advice, thank you.