
I have to leave the house at 8 am and come back at 8 pm because of my class. It’s too far away from my house so eating out is my only option but I just can’t do it. I am too nervous to order my food. Whenever the waiter comes close to my table I start stuttering and I can’t decide which makes me more embarrassed and nervous. I don’t have any friends to go out to eat so I always eat alone and that makes me even more nervous when I am sitting down by myself. I normally wear a mask but I have to take it off there and I just want to disappear while I do it, I don’t want my face to be seen. I also feel like people are looking at me and judging me so I don’t raise my head and look somewhere else to not see other people looking at me. I only focus on my plate but it doesn’t get any better. Why do basic things have to be so hard? I wish I wouldn’t get hungry or need to take off my mask for 12 hours.