I was finding myself wanting to sleep more and more recently even when I'm not tired. At first I thought I was just being lazy and too depressed to want to do anything else, but then I started to actually think about what I was doing. Every night I look forward to bed because that's when I let my mind wander and I start to imagine myself in a different life in a different reality than this one. A life and reality where I'm happy, successful and doing all of things I've always dreamed of doing, being the person I've always dreamt of being. And I have been finding myself staying longer and longer in these dreaming states by sleeping in and staying bed longer and longer.

At first I was thinking I was just being lazy from depression, and it still is a cause I think, but I think I caught myself becoming lost in the dreams compared to living my actual life. I became addicted to viewing my fake happy world opposed to dealing with the shit I have to deal with now and my depression from work. I started to think back to my days and how they are a blur in my memory but my day dreams are clear as possible. My dreams were taking over my reality and it kind of scared me thinking about that.

It sucks but I'm making the conscious decision now to not let my memories from my fantasy world take over matter how shitty the real one can seem at times. I'm determined to start making my real life better rather than continue to retreat to my perfect dreams. Admittedly it feels good knowing I caught what was happening and now trying to correct it.

Has anyone else ever found yourself doing this? And if so how successful were you in keeping your head in the real world?

Thanks for listening.