It’s said that the life on earth doesn’t necessarily matter as long as we do good deeds to reach the end goal of heaven. Now, I don’t exactly consider myself to be horribly religious but the only thing that’s stopping me so far from ending myself is how I’d end up in hell. 
However, I don’t know how much longer that’ll last me cause my faith is depleting. 

It’s a bit funny though, how my life here is so miserable and that heaven is supposedly going to be better but if I kill myself, I’ll end up in hell even though I’ve suffered a lot now. LOL !