Sometimes, I (20 F) think about sending thank you letters or just nice or sweet messages/emails to people I like or care about, but I get the feeling that they’ll never respond to me because I’m not “good enough” or “attractive enough” for them. Even if I send them a thank you letter/email, I still get the feeling that they won’t say anything back to me. I know some people don’t really check their emails or don’t use social media often, and are out doing other things with their lives. I often wonder if they really like or care about me like how I care about them. Maybe or maybe not. If they don’t respond, then I see them as “bad people”, “arrogant people”, or “people with no heart”. I think to myself that maybe they don’t respect me or appreciate my letter/email, or maybe they’re just arrogant assh*les who think they’re “better than me” and I hope they rot. At the same time, I don’t mean that and they’re probably not how I think they are. Idk. 

Idk why, but I always felt the need to be liked or loved by other people, and to seek their approval. I wish I didn’t care so much, but I do. It’s like I wasted my love and energy writing and sending these kind letters and emails to people.