Dear Dad,
	Honestly when hearing that name, I don’t even think of you. Your lack of empathy and amplitude of narcissism has turned each one of your kids into a fucking wreck. This is the first year I have ever been able to freely think for myself and become my own person after surviving hell full of abuse and neglect in your household. Does it ever pass your mind how embarrassing and miserable 7th grade me was when I had lice for months or you were too busy playing Mahjong for hours on end, or in most cases meeting with prostitutes only 6 years older than me, to care? Or how about the time when you put everything you owned fiscally under my mothers name so when clients starting noticing money missing it would connect directly to her and cause her to go bankrupt. After forcing her to give you custody through a completely unfair and corrupt court trial, you told me at 11 years old that she had cheated on you with the guy she is living with now and had left us. At 11 years old, the oldest of all my siblings, I was now the sole brunt of your authority and abuse, still believing that my mom abandoned us for her new boyfriend. You let me believe this was true until I was 16 when I finally confronted mom about it. She was and is still, an amazing mother who literally deleted your carbon footprint so that you didnt go to jail so we wouldnt grow up without a father, and you took complete advantage of her for your own selfish greed. She stayed with you for 13 years, whilst you spent my whole college savings on prostitutes, so her kids would have a dad and a ‘good’ life. 
	Your lack of empathy has personally severed my social connections with the world around me. I cannot do confrontations with people without apologizing profusely and cowardly because of all the times I have been berated or yelled at for standing up for me or my siblings. I’m not able to think for myself or honestly enjoy things anymore because I can’t feel happy. Part of me thinks that my brain is under developed in certain areas due to the lack of emotion and affection you showed me as a kid. I can barely hug my friends, even more talk to them. You have completely skewed my perception of life and made me feel silly by telling me, “everyone grows up like this”. I cannot even begin to proccess my trauma now because in my opinion, “Im Fine”.  Your narcissicism has led me to believe that I will never succeed in anything in life and I shouldn’t try. You made me feel so stupid and belittled me every chance I got because you had to be right, even when I was in elementary school and you were a lawyer. You never let me have a voice. You never let me be myself. Sometimes I think I am going to be a fucking carbon copy of you because I don’t process my emotions the same way other people can. Your selfishness for the control  how you want people to percieve you has led me being committed to a fucking psych ward for wanting to kill myself and your 2nd oldest having anxiety so bad she throws up constantly, not to mention her skewed vision of a perfect relationship. Your physical abuse to your son has led him to have severe bipolar disorder and oppositional defiant disorder, and your neglect and emotional abuse towards his twin sister has led her to having severe attachment issues to mom, since she was 4 when you took her mother away, as well as being terrified of what you are capable of. 
	When I meet my friends’ dads, I can immediately tell that they are affectionate and caring of their kids and family. They would jump in front of a bullet to save their family. When I put you in that situation, you would save yourself because as you have told us, “we are replacable”. You are a cold and cruel man who had kids simply for how it would make you look in terms of society. People don’t understand how I could hold so much hatred for one person, especially a parent, but no real guardian would ever put their kid through this. Although your sociopathic tendecies will make this nearly impossible, I hope you realize your faults and mistakes when emmy gets into an abusive relationship, or walker ends up in prison. Your legacy and kin is over because none of us are ever going to think of you or the memories you molded into our minds after youre dead, 7 feet in the ground. That day is the day I will physically and emotionally be free from your pain.