

I remember having sensory overload on Thursday at night. I played loud music to fight it off, I was okay. Next day I was tired but okay, I think I was very depressed, though I’m not sure why. I was okay afterwards. 

Yesterday I don’t remember half of the day, just that for a period of six hours I felt wired and with too much energy. I think that I was in and out of actual consciousness, like I was there but nor really there. I felt jittery and very energized and remember doing some impulsive stuff, even gave myself a two tattoos. I remember getting dressed to go out (?) despite the fact that I didn’t have a car and no plans, I was just gonna walk around the neighborhood waiting for something to happen. I genuinely thought I’d find something like a party or people in my very quiet neighborhood. I couldn’t go out in the end because my sister was downstairs thankfully and I didn’t wanna confuse her with my appearance since she knew I wasn’t going/waiting for anyone yesterday. 

Today I woke up fine again and now I’m having really bad brain fog, I have to make really conscious effort to remember stuff and feel very detached. I’m worried because I have stuff to turn in on tuesday and I don’t think I’ll be able to at this rate. Also for basic reasons to my safety lol. I feel like for the past days I’ve not been in control of myself. Thankfully I’m gonna be seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time (ive gone to tother therapists before tho) 

Has anyone had episodes like this? I’m genuinely freaked out a bit. I have had other symptoms for a while but never this intense. Even while I’m writing this I don’t feel fully present.