Sorry for the long-ass title but I don't know how else to describe it. My Dad passed away a little bit after my fifteenth birthday, and today is officially his birthday 5 years down the road. I feel so... empty? But I'm propelled with this strong emotion that I can't describe. I can't help but to dissociate and just blank out. How do you guys cope when you're feeling like this? I feel so physically tired too when I know I slept enough. Here comes more Redbull to power through the day...