When I get ready in the morning I have to see how ugly I am. Socializing with people is painful and feels like walking on eggshells. My friend just canceled plans on me that she made. I feel like I have to put on a show in public to seem normal. I’ve never had a relationship. No one ever checks up on me. Been locked in my room for weeks and had to withdraw from all my classes. everything just hurts I can’t wait to die