I dont really now how to start this, I am a 16 year old male who has quite a few problems I feel like I have many faces not one of them to be true there is no real me im just a deluded mind living with obsession and insanity.

First my obsession problem and I dont know if this is normal but I get latched on to the idea or being something quick ill watch a movie and will do anything to satisfy my need to live like that movie or ill hear about a serial killer and get latched on to the idea of being one, I also get attached to women easy.

Second, I dont feel like im in the real word I feel like im living in a movie I talk in my head like I am I feel as though im being led by the world to do a specific thing like there are signs that show me that theres special meanings I have no attachment to the people in my life and want none I dont feel a lot of emotions for people but I cant keep control of my own they switch fast and hard.

I feel constant disgust with myself and my thoughts I worry that I am stuff like a pedophile or Im going to kill people or people are going to kill me. I feel like everything I say is a lie and that im a fake person, probably because I am.

I just need some advice what could be wrong or if this is a normal thing sorry for the babbling.

Thank you.