Has anyone experienced their loved ones turning their back on you when you say you need professional help? How did you handle it? I am bipolar 1 and got diagnosed 15 years ago. I have been married to my husband for 12 years and he has been supportive for most of it. I quit adderall 6 months ago after taking it for 11 years. My brain is already chemically imbalanced and now it isn’t producing any dopamine or serotonin. I have been maintaining a job, hanging out with friends and being a good pretending to be happy wife while I have been mentally suffering. I hit 6 months off of it and thought I would feel better, but I feel worse. I told him of the dark thoughts I was having. I told him I want to pursue professional help so I don’t hurt myself. He’s said he’s been dealing with this for so long, and my mindset is the only problem. I always want what other people have (happiness, having fun, normal drinking etc) and that professional help isn’t going to help me. He can’t understand me. The ‘dealing with this for so long part’ really hurt, as I have been pretty stable for 6 years and so everything I can to keep him happy and I complete support him financially as he takes care of me mentally. this is the first time I have asked for help where I am fully medicated with mood stabilizers and have been sober for 6 months. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I can stay in this relationship anymore or even be on this earth anymore. My whole identity is wrapped up in him. I don’t know who I am without him and I don’t have many family or friends on my own. I am so scared I don’t know what to do.