Since I got diagnosed, I’ve committed myself to stay away from relationships in fear of being hurt or them becoming my FP. I deny myself new friendships as well because I’m scared of getting a new FP. Not having an FP makes the feelings of emptiness and depression so much worse. It’s so hard depending on myself to regulate my own emotions and to give myself self esteem (fat chance) but I know it’s needed for the sake of my and the potential FP’s mental health. I try to avoid any situation that could cause me to develop an FP, which has me isolating myself hard. One pattern I’ve noticed is that the obsessive feeling happens when I’m in a vulnerable state and someone shows me basic respect and kindness, so I turn away and deal with my issues on my own. Is anyone else in the same boat? How can I allow myself to have friends and connections without them becoming my FP? Is there a skill to help form connections with others without developing an obsession or dependence?