I was recently talking to my aunt... It's no secret that my grandad was an awful, abusive father and my mom and aunt talk all the time he might as well be psychopathic (he definitely has a personality disorder himself, I'm not sure which). She told me with utter horror that he used to threaten them saying he would abandon them, leave them in childcare, give them away to the first person who says they want daughters.

Flashbacks of my mom saying the same things to me came to my mind. Telling me she would give me back to my father (also a terrible man who abandoned me), or to childcare, leave me in the streets. Why would she do that to me? While she talks about how hateful her father was while doing the things he did to her to me? I love my mom but I can't help but thing that it's her fault I turned out like this. I wish I had a healthy upbringing.