Hi. I'm okay. I'd like to state that before you read any more. Looking for advice for this piece of writing I wrote on my phone. Adjusting to bupropion. Idk pls help me.
I left 9th grade in 2009, after missing a bunch of school from being sick, resulted into falling behind, getting lost and then just losing my place in every class I had. I didnt really bother asking for help, and no one really offered it either. I got super depressed and started spiraling, annoyed that i was so lost, and started staying up until 4-7am, and then sleep until 8:40 basically, then leave at 8:45 for school. I'd go to school, come home, do stuff with friends, play video games and whatever till between 4-7am, nap until 8whatever and them go to school. Panic attacks are a thing. That happens a lot. (Sometimes I laugh when I'm uncomfortable or in a situation I just want to leave, or whatever reason. Other times I just walk away from a conversation if the person is distracted)

I have adhd. I have borderline personality disorder. Severe anxiety. Severe depression. Unhealthy coping mechanisms. 

Most days I'm content. Lately it's been manic. I started 8 projects and i am writing this at 2:27am.
I didn't really intend on this getting personal, I just wanted to really explain my situation. 13-16, leaving school. No one paying attention to the mental illness signs early on. ADHD, other disorders. I get that, 2009. Maybe that wasn't common then. I dont remember much. I'd like to update more if I do.
Okay, I'll try a timeline here. I'll see if I can better this in the future. 

•Super depressed manic week
•Left school
•Saw hospital counceller(idk she asked me many questions and I remember none of them, is there a way to get this?)
Saw pediatrician?(idk who that one was, I dont remember where either)
•I think I had blood tests done.
•Applied for homeschooling
•Depression
•Anxiety
•Not wanting to exist
•.more serious depression
•stuff I probably cant post here
•borderline personality disorder and severe anxiety diagnoses 
•ADHD?
•Quitting WoW and throwing most of guild in the trash. (I beat Faaip on krosus once)
Speaking of WoW, you'll figure out who I am by this username. 
Pls dont @ me at the comments, dm me. 
(:


I'd like to write a book. Or something.
I'd like to help people who were that age and struggling. Because like everyone kept pressing me about was that it gets better. And it does. It really does get better.

I'm sorry to everyone these past few months. My meds were off since about september by a lot. (And maybe a bunch of stuff I can't talk about if someone could help me out that would be cool)
And then last week, I was told i could have adhd and now I'm taking another medication. I dont know how in detail I can talk about all that so I'll update later.

I dont really know what I'm doing but like, I'm trying? I'm trying to be a small little voice. I don't know. Thanks for reading.