28M
I witnessed my abusive father brutally murder my mother not long after my 8th birthday, over 20 years later and I still hate celebrating my birthday because I miss her. I have been battling with depression, anxiety and PTSD ever since.

Just before I turned 18 I developed cancerl. Even though I hated school for years before, my family forced me to repeat year 12. Everyday I look in a mirror I see the scar on my chest from a biopsy, I dont like taking my shirt off in public due to it.

A few years ago I discovered my uncle had footage of me when he shouldn't have filmed me, I am not a violent man but I wanted to kill him. I took the matter to court but I didn't get any justice, like at all. Aside from a restraining order. The statute of limitations had run out, so he is still a free man. During the court appearances my family were all on his side of the room death staring me. When I went to get my stuff out of the house my aunt said that she wanted me to "keep it in house".

Ever since I knew what girls were I have been scared to get into a relationship because I was worried I would turn out be like my father. Through years of therapy I have only recently been able to put those thoughts aside and try to get a girlfriend. The one thing that is stopping me is that women don't seem to be interested me. I'm a decent looking and fit guy, my mates say I'm funny, good hearted and honest. I'm the only one in my group of friends who has been/is single. I have tried dating apps, which I find terrible. I went speed dating not long ago and no woman wanted to go out with me.

I lost my job over a month ago, I have survived by doing odd jobs for mates. People say the job market is booming, I ak proof that it isn't. I apply for 10 jobs a day and all I get are replies either saying my application is rejected or applications are closed. These are gardening and retail jobs. I habe had multiple people look at my resume and give me tips when applying for jobs and I am still unemployed.