So here’s something I learned literally tonight. I’ve been trying to ‘manifest’ people in my life, specific people like crushes, old friends etc. But one of the rules to doing so, is really believing it could happen and truly wanting this person in your life. The more I sit down with that thought the less I want it. I don’t really want them back in my life like that, I think I just miss having someone to talk to, to hangout with.. I love our memories but it isn’t even enough for me to manifest them. I had to stop because I realized I was being manic in a sense.. when I thought about it.. I don’t really want that guy I met last year on bumble to text me.. I don’t really need my old best friend to care about me anymore I truly don’t it’s just I miss the feeling of having friends that’s the thing. I also tend to obsess over specific people which I learned means that I see something in them that I want to see in myself. And once I learned that, I’ve restrained myself from obsessing.. also if a friendship or relationship didn’t work out, who knows what negativity I could potentially bring in my life if I indeed do manifest them.. it’s unwanted energy. Being anxious and trying to do something like this, is super dangerous because it’ll lead you to do something impulsive and I can’t afford to that right now…It’s crazy like once you really think to yourself ‘am I really obsessed with this person, or am I just extremely lonely’? Things become super clear. I can relate this feeling as someone who is frantically looking for something, and then they snap out of it and think ‘eh I don’t really want it anyway’ that’s sort of what I’m feeling right now.. amazing honestly