so i’ve been dealing with insomnia since OCT 2020. i’ve been on sleeping pills ever since. as if the sheer pain of not being able to sleep wasn’t enough, god gives me more conditions to make sure i die the death of a dog. i developed some derealisation in 2021. idk. i have sinus issues. and now recently from july 2022 onwards i developed this acid reflux. to go to the zenith- why should i deal with heartburn you pimp? 

i literally cannot swallow anything with ease or enjoy good food anymore. it’s like first my ability to sleep was taken away and now MY FUCKING ABILITY TO EAT? EXCUSE ME? (gerd) it’s like food doesn’t go to the stomach. only a part of it goes. some remains in my throat. and then comes back to the mouth with acid and a bitter taste. i fucked up my grade 12. didn’t get a good college. i thought i’ll work hard but my circadian rhythm is so off it’s impossible to wake up at 7 am. i feel nauseated and zombified. 

i literally cannot live like this. i might have to quit college because it’s unbearable. parents don’t take me to a good doctor. fucking india. is there a way to go back? idk. please help me. i’m F18.