I feel nothing and bad at the same time. Its been about 4ish years since ive had an FP/SO so i feel fairly isolated. There’s this constant fear that i will never go through another positive experience ever again. I’ve experienced what kissing someone feels like, what holding someone feels like, what caring for someone and being cared for feel like so now due to the lack of these feelings it makes me feel even more isolated. It makes me feel like i cannot experience these feelings even tho theres like this burning desire to have these experience them again. My life seems so unstable that the idea of socialising and getting an fp/so just seems unreasonable to me because what if i move? What if i do not have the capabilities to be friends with them? What if something major happens to me or my family? Just sinking in these feelings alone makes me feel so isolated that on the rare occasions when i dont feel isolated i hate it because i know it will just be snatched away.