The only medication im currently on is klonopin to take as needed and im in the process of switching psychiatrist. Been to several different therapist for years, have a good one rn. Been on several meds but only xanax, lexapro, or klonopin have helped ease the physical anxiety.

Walking in nature and listening to music are really the only effective coping skills I have at the moment, and when I cant do those or they still dont ease the anxiety Im feeling Ill take 0.5 mg klonopin and sometimes 1 to 2 mg if needed. 

Ive found with meds once the anxiety is lowered it feels like i can breathe and have so much free headspace, and other coping skills work how theyre supposed to. But once the medication starts wearing off or I get anxious to a level that the meds dont work, I just get incredibly angry. Ill spend days just fuming and feeling like im physically in fight mode, ill get intrusive angry thoughts about fake arguments or past events and have to catch myself to not further think about them. Any small annoyance or bad news feels overwhelming and I lash out. I burn out and lose energy, I feel guilt and shut down and it usually leads to depression for a couple weeks. Then I find ways to cope and manage, get into a good headspace, slowly start to reach out again, and then after a few days of slowly communicating with people again I get suddenly incredibly panicked and anxious and the cycle restarts. Coping doesnt help, anxiety feels inescapable, burn out thats sometimes delayed with meds, depression, repeat. 

On lexapro I had longterm uncontrollable rage that was not safe or functional, but I feel ssri's are my only option currently to keep the anxiety away long term to break the cycle.

I was going to make this post to ask if anyone else feels anger after medication but its turned into being more about that cycle of anger as a whole. Does anyone else feel this way? or found a way to effectively break the cycle? Im interested in others experiences with anxiety "cycles" too