Okay, so recently, a few days ago I discovered who my 'mother' really was and was using my dad for money and also cheating on him online. And that my parents are divorcing. She is a manipulative, narcasstistic alcoholic (and possibly abuses opioids), last time i saw her on the floor with 3.5 promile. She is online pretenting to be someone else. Since I discovered her true face and I told her who I think she is, she started gaslighting me 24/7 and guilt tripping me 24/7. She apparently has depression and she is taking xanax for years. She seemed very kind, was talking with me about helping the poor, etc (but last time she didn't care ab out the Ukrainians! only herself) but she is really egoistic manipulator that cares only about herself. But I feel like she loves me, but she wants to manipulate me because she is afraid of losing me. My parents are divorcing, i am moving to my dad, and she seemed surpised and tried to guilt trip me. She has a major alcoholic problem, and she was extremely drunk about 20 times but denies it, at first she told me only 2 times, then I reminded her about one more time because I heard their convesration, so she changed to 3, then I said no it was 5, she denied, she my whole life semed reckless and spontanious, and forgetful. she is blaming everything on her poor memory.

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yesterday my mom showed me her true face. i had a conversation about her alcohol problem and THROUGHOUT THE EHTIRE CONVERSATION,  ALL SHE WAS GASLIGHTING ME, GUILT TRIPPING ME, AND LYING, AND WHEN I CATCH HER LYING, SHE SAID THAT I 'MISHEARD HER' THAT SHE 'DIDN'T MEAN THAT' etc. she says that my dad is lying about her to me and he is making her evil, but all he does is proving me actual facts that happened. she is making herself a victim all the time and focuses on herself.all she wants to make people go 'awww, i'm so sorry for you'. she is seeking attention everywhere, but she wears mask also. when i tell her about her problems, she then reminds me of what i did when i was literally a FEW years old child with neurological disorder! "you aren't so perfect too! everyone is human! juice wrld was addicted to drugs but still was a good person!" "you smoked cigarettes" "you are so spiritual but you smoked cigarettes" "you are so spiritual but you should forgive me and not say those things about me" I NEVER OFFENDED HER. she is often twisting facts and then blaming it on her poor memory. she is constantly saying, when i focus on facts and point out her lies that i am overly analytical just like my dad , that not everything is black and white, that all programmers are the same. i recorded her whole conversation when she manipulates me. she says that my dad is brainwasing me against her, but literally she is brainwashing everyone, and today when i said how he is lying about her and brainwashing me against her, she said that "i meant that he shouldn't brainwashing me against her /lie against her IN THE FUTURE"

she said that i am in "some conspiracy" but all we are doing we are trying to make her see that she has a problem. she is also brainwashing her sister

i just discovered that my dad has been guilt tripped for years by her, and he said  i helped him realize that even more. my mom is always charismatic and friendly to everyone , her friends but when someone is trying to point out her mistakes she is saying we are offending her ior she gets extremely sensitive.

she never had a job, never goes outside , like literally, all she ever did is laying in her bed and browsing facebook, she recently opened a beauty business but she doesn't go there and wait ,but it's closed until someone calls her. my dad always was buying her WHATEVER she ever wanted, giving her everything, going in the middle of the night to MCDonalds because she wanted a big mac and a shake. expensive clothes, jewerly.. and she always been guilt tripping him. 6 months ago, she said so someone guy on facebook while drunk that she loves him too. also been flirting with perfect english with some guy while she always said that she can't speak english.

she always been nice to me and we had long converations, but she always was extremely sensitive about taking photos of her, (nobody can take photos of her even if she is completely blurred, her whole body) pretty close about herself and confirming most of the things that i say, and extremely unresponsible, reckless, and forgetful just like my grandpa that died a few years ago from liver failure from  alcohol and drug abuse. she was talking about being kind, when i talked with her about my inspiration Juice WRLD (an extremely talented rapper) she always was saying "aww, how cute, how innocent he is like a child, poor Juicy, why his kindness was always abused, he is such an innocent person" (and that's true) and always smiling when i showed a photo of him to her and saying "awww what a cutie" donating to charity, but NOW, i can't compherend how she can be such a bad person. also, she is EXTREMELY lazy. she can't even make herself food.

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i discovered they are divorcing because when she passed out (and ambulance came and whole town saw her drunk and she could't form a sentence only mumbling, and 3.5 promilles alcohol was in her blood (deadly dose for a regular woman!) and opioids, she says that's meds for her headache) i guessed her PIN (7777) and I saw she has 4 accounts, one of them has a picture of a young, brunette girl, looking like a random google image) and her conversations about divorce, at first she lied about what happened but then my dad told me she is an alcoholic.

examples of her manipulation and lies

\- dad told me that like a month ago when they were in hotel i was home alone, she showed him a rare photo (found it on facebook just to show that) where he is hugging (or not even hugging at all) a woman on   a photo, to prove him he "isn't perfect too, isn't a saint too" and then she told me that after that he started offending her, and i asked her" how did he offend you? what he said about you" then she said, "he was like, \*imitating angry sounds) and then she stopped and said "okay , he didn't offend me, he was just yelling at me." my dad said he didn't even yell at her.

\- she said  something about not speaking about something near a child, i said to her, that i am not a child anymore at all, then she said that she meant "a biological child" and i said that doesn't make sense, and she said i am being overanalytical just like my dad, and THEN she said that she was really giving me complement, that she said that, she meant that that's good that i am being analytycal and i pay attention to details..

\- when i point out facts, she said i am lying and offending her, and constantly guilt trips me and my dad and al she does is she makes a victim, that everyone hates her etc.btw honestly, she always seemed kinda sometimes fake, and always my dad was doing everything for me, she always was lazy but when i was saying that (now i think i'ts disrespectufl but now i think it's true) he was yelling at me that she is not.

\- i said to her, that my dad said that when the Ukrainian refugees prayed for her together when she was drunk at the hospital, she said that they are "fanatics/zealots, and my dad doesn't like fanatics" like she didn't even care what happened to her and how they are so kind, she just said that they are 'fanatics" she said my dad said that too, and i said to her that he didn't, and she said that he calls every religious/person that believes in God a fanatic, and i said that no, he didn't,  and then she said that he said that they are overly religious and culty, and i said to her that it was literally a few months ago and about COMPLETELY different people, she said that he calls all religious people fanatics

\- when i focus on facts and point out her lies, she blames everything on her poor memory, when i pount out actual facts, and i think logically she says i am overly logical, and not everything is black and white,  but when i said that i feel from her energy that she is manipulating and gaslighting me because she is afraid of losing me, she said it's "energy bullshit " now and i should focus on facts and think more logically,

\- when i point out her stressed body language and that she is constantly blinking, and that she is gaslighting me and guilt tripping me and my dad, she says that "oh, you are reading too much these stupid psychological books"

\- when i focus on facts i am being 'overly analytycal' or "offending her" when we say she has a problem and we want to help her, she  is denying it and that we are offending and disrespecting her, and that is she doesn't drink every day that doesn't mean she is an alcoholic, and that everyone is against her, that she is so poor , that's because she lost her parents blah blah blah

and more, and constant guilt tripping and gaslighting, I LITERALLY NEVER SAW HER FROM THE SIDE, but i want to distance myself as far away  i possibly can

\- i feel like she cares about me but she wants to keep me on her side and there were many situations where she lacked empathy or morality, she didn't try to correct her behavior, when my dad said to her he doesn't feel it anymore, she just said "okay, so divorce?" 

and i told her there is fakeness in her eyes, then she said that's because she is just tired, and that i am overanalyzing ...

I LITERALLY buy NONE of her bullshit.. NONE. i can instantly somehow recognize when i am being lied to and manipulated.

also when i said about her that she may have a romance, she said that you can't have romance online, that it's impossible because there is no physical connection(it's possible and she knows that!) and she said "but you may have a romance too, and then she reminded me when she caught me watching pornographic photo." literally EVERYONE my age watches porn!