After waiting 4 years to be seen by nhs mental health services in the UK, my mental health had gotten to the point where I had to be admitted to hospital, I spent 4 weeks in one facility where I got on with the staff really well and really thought I had a chance at getting better... then I was transferred to another facility, the transfer was awful and I’m physically disabled aswell and there were neglect issues so I chose to discharge myself after only being there a few days, I was told that I’d be out under an intensive treatment program where I’d be seen by a psych nurse every day and I’d be allocated someone within 3 working days but I’ve been given the run around with them and eventually we discovered I’d been referred to the wrong place. I’m not in the right place at the moment to deal with putting in a complaint. I’ve had 3 suicide attempts in the last 4 weeks, 2 of them put me in intensive cars, my self harm has gotten so much worse and my mental health as a whole has absolutely plummeted. I’ve been left with so support and just been push round various on-call doctors, assessments services, and police welfare checks. I can’t deal with going to the hospital or meeting with mental health professionals without having a full on meltdown or panic attack, at night when I’m trying to get to sleep I have flashbacks from everything that’s happened and I don’t even try and get to sleep anymore, I just wish the ground would swallow me up