
I want love that is unconditional. I’ve been in therapy for so long but it’s not working anymore.

I get waves of paranoia and act on them. It affects my bf. He is walking on eggshells not to make me question his loyalty. He is the sweetest most caring loyal bf ever. But me acting out on my paranoia is pushing him away. 

I keep apologizing after paranoia fades and then a few days later it hits me (and him) again. I wish I could show him just how much I love him and appreciate him. I don’t know how. Actions speak louder than words can. 

Sometimes I think of breaking up because I feel sorry for him for being with a girlfriend like me. Always sad, barely speaking, anxiety, paranoia about him, no real happiness, always asking for attention. 

Any advice?