This is long..scroll to bottom for my main inquiry. 

So this is my weak point. 
In terms of BPD being a spectrum, I am far from the extreme end with regards to hygiene, employment, excessive spending, etc. but my coping mechanisms are my true issue and where the BPD rears its ugly head the most. I used to just get black out drunk when upset and now I might unwind with a glass of wine or beer but rarely get black out anymore. which is progress. 

Well last night, lying in bed, I felt awful because my current FP was "too exhausted and didnt want to hang out with anyone" honestly, I was exhausted too from a hectic work week but left lonely and didnt understand why we couldnt just be lazy and exhausted together. 

So, I go off. I get dramatic and the rest is history. 

And now I feel back to square one like 5 weeks of therapy havent done shit. But I didnt get black out drunk. For me that is a tiny win. Instead I wallowed in misery in bed which I read was another poor coping mechanism. 

So damn like.. for me lying in bed is better than spending $ I need on alcohol that will make me feel worse but even that is a bad coping mechanism.

So my point is: people on here with "neurotypical" friends or partners, how do they cope from stress? What have you observed? Has it helped you learn how to cope better? 

Thanks for reading and any insight..