Due to much more than I could ever describe lucidly I am falling into myself. My diabetes goes unmanaged, my out bursts are longer, more frequent &amp; more violent, my words are without mercy or consideration for the recipient, I no longer feel the love others try to give me, I don't do the things that used to bring me joy, &amp; when I try to they bring me sadness. I hate myself, I love my family but my actions would say otherwise. I don't know what part of me to start working on first, it's all so far gone the thought of fixing anything deflates me. 
I'm not entirely sure weather or not I could bring myself to call a cease fire to my existence, but something calls me from the otherside.