Im sure im not the only one but im so sick of the day in and day out mood swings. Im sick of the feeling that i should be more than what i am and the fact that i cant stand myself. One day im ontop of the world , the next im drowning in what should be a regular day for alot of people. I dont understand it , i try and better myself by staying active , by working or being in education , by trying to follow my passions but its just like i fall flat on my face everytime man and i dont feel in control. I take medication and i try my best but it honestly dosent feel enough. Why does living not feel like enough? My ex and i broke up at the start of the year and i recently figured id try dating again or atleast try making some new friends and like i want that social interation but its like half of my brain is saying "Yeah go for it!" and the other half if is screaming that im "just going to end up alone again so whats the point?" , i dont know if this even makes alot of sence and tbh i have a hard time deacribing exactly what i feel but i suppose im just venting.