I started having major anxiety about 4 years ago (just graduated, moved, new job, left toxic family, etc). I worked for like 2 years to get it "under control" where I wasn't constantly thinking about it, having panic attacks, and felt like I could live a normal life.  That lasted all of 1 year and it has all come back full force.

I just feel so sad, empty, and tired.  I don't want to go through all of this again.  It feels like there is no end to this.  

How do you all find the motivation to keep facing the anxiety, to keep working at it? What makes it all worth it?  

Doing all the typical things - meds, counseling, meditation, workbooks. etc.  

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On a side note: Do you guys always know where/what is causing the anxiety? One of the worst things is I rarely even what is even causing it and that makes it even worse.  It will just randomly pop up with no thoughts or causes, just the physical symptoms.  Then my mind picks up on them and runs.  Ive been working through this book to challenge my thoughts, but the only though really is "I dont want to have a panic attack".....