I’ve gotten myself into a rut where “at both ends of the stick” per se , I struggle with getting thoughts about the theme of drowning out of my head . They can get so bad that I can end up audibly exclaiming ‘no’ , or telling the imaginary anxiety demon to release me , but it often won’t .  I a) have gotten into a bit of a cycle where the theme of going to sleep and waking up instantly reminds me of drowning ruminations , so this reminder makes it more likely that I will think about it , and when I do , and I try to stop , I then feel compelled to keep worrying, because the paranoia in me thinks that not worrying about something is gonna cause it to eventually happen in real life . Does anyone know how to avoid these ruminations?