Hello everyone.  


A short background summary. I am a 22 year old male suffering from BPD, and I am currently in a relationship with a wonderful woman. However, I have a complete tendency to self-sabotage my own relationships. It's a pattern.  


Today I think I've pushed her to her breaking point. We had an argument and she literally walked away, pissed at me for accusing her of texting with others behind my back. Of course, I do not really have any substantial evidence, but the paranoia and constant jealousy makes it easy to think so.  


What do you do/say when you've completely hurt your partner from your reoccuring behavior? How can you mend the relationship?