Do forgive any spelling or Grammer errors, tho I'm graduated I am an idiot. I just wanted to talk about something a little strange. Thinking I was hungry I came downstairs to heat up some left overs (at midnight) and as I started eating I had some strange wave of sadness hit, questioning everything I've done, choices I've made, hell fearing tomorrow for no reason, just for some sense of clarification im a guy 17 to be 18 on the 21, that day I plan to move out, start working, make sure I can drive, and frankly have everything set up and together before the day ends, just do to the fact I've been nothing but lazy all my life up and till this point. As I type this I really don't know my reasoning behind deciding to put this out to the world, maybe just as a last life line for salvation maybe just to "talk" with others. I know I'm not right in the head, some thing has to be wrong, I just don't know what, I tried therapy but it was to no avail, maybe it's unfixable, maybe I'm just waiting others time hoping for something that just isn't a reality, sorry