I feel so alone ... I don´t have any friends, and last night my boyfriend broke up with me and left home ... I just don´t know what to do anymore, he blocked me on every social media. I think this time he´s not gpint to forgive me ... I yelled, I cried, I punched a wall ... I was acting fucking crazy I he got tired ... I´ve trying for months to have my shit together, but this time it was to much between the house chores, the studying and the situation between us ...   
I understand that I acted crazy and I want to apologise, but I don´t want to smother him ... I alrady sent and email this morning trying to explain him that my head had been full with things and that I want an oportunity to apologise and do things better, ... I hope he replies ...   


I need a friend so much ... a hug ... I feel so sad ... I can´t stop crying since last night .... I feel awful ... and the fact that he is working two blocks from home is killing me ,... because I want to go when he finishes and talk to him .... but I need to give him space and it´s very difficult for me to do it right now ...   


I feel so ashamed ....