I've been in a pretty low valley for the past few weeks and I feel like I need to vent about my living situation. I am in highschool (last year until I'm done) and I live primarily with my mother. My parents never married, they broke up when I was three. I don't feel strong emotional connection with almost all of my family. My dad and his wife are the only people I really care about in family. 
I've been drifting away from my friends more and more, I feel like I'm pushing them away from me and I don't know why. There's definitely stuff I need to work out with my mental health, but sometimes I feel like it doesn't matter and other times feel like if I don't get help now I'm going to become someone who hurts people. I'm scared of the future. Of what I could become. I feel like I'm going to end up a basement troll failure or something. I have no motivation anymore (haven't been doing much in school, had to take summer school twice now)
I'm so tired of seeing how unfair and cruel the world is. I don't want to exist here.