I hate my job. I'm doing everything in my power to find another one. I've put out at least 10 applications this week. It's just a bad environment and it's been 5 years, they're not going to change. I hit a deer in November and my car payment almost doubled now. So I HAVE to stay here rn. I can't talk to anyone about it. Management is the problem and I can't talk to anyone higher. I just want to be happy again. I don't want my fiance to think it has anything to do with him. We're not having sex. I'm not eating. I'm constantly nauseous. Yeah I have insurance but I can't make any money to cover the copay to go see a Dr and get put on something. Idk I guess I just wanted to get my feelings out. I'm just sad. I use cbd but that's not helping anymore. I can't smoke weed cuz it messes with my head. I just want to crawl into my bed with my dog and not have to do anything. It's all I can physically muster to get up every morning and come into this place.