I stayed the night at my girlfriend’s house after a party. Drinking usually puts me in a bad mood the day after but I’m easy going while I’m drunk for the most part. My girlfriend wanted to have sex last night when we went to bed and I was just revolted by it and went through the motions to get it over with. I woke up this morning and had the urge to check through her phone which is easy to do because she always leaves it somewhere weird and far away. I just felt so paranoid and I needed to check and see something and it turns out she removed my fingerprint from her passcodes. She had me put it in for music-changing purposes a month ago, and I KNOW she has no idea I’ve looked through it before, so why would she take my fingerprint out? Is she talking about me?? Who is she talking to?? She’s cheated on me before and has historically done really fucked up things, I thought we were past that but I can’t shake that paranoia and it makes me so ANGRY! I woke her up making coffee and she wanted to cuddle and I just laid there and told her she should shower before we go out. I don’t want to be here anymore, I want to leave. I hate feeling like I want to break up with her because I promised I wouldn’t do that again (we’re off an on 3-4 years running) because I am always the one to leave. I’m a quiet borderline, I don’t lash out but I abandon and shut everyone out as punishment. She hasn’t actually done anything to deserve this but I can’t help but HATE HER right now I can’t stand to be near here.