I dont know if what I am feeling because of bpd or it is just me. I am from Asia, over here we really have this supposedly close relationship with our parents, my best friends and I have migrated to the capital city and leave our hometown for work, pre-covid my friends would go back to our hometown almost every week while I will only go back during festive season or any important occasion. Now since covid there is restriction on interstate travel for months and my friends have been telling me how they miss our hometown and seems extremely sad over not be able to travel home. I feel bad not be able to relate and feeling indifferent over it since the reason I develop bpd is due to how my parents treat me growing up. I am still going to travel back hometown to see my parents when the travel restriction is lifted up though. It is just i dont feel the same longing as my friends and it feels weird to not have that longing feeling like am i a horrible person for feeling like this?