I suffer from PTSD and horrible anxiety. My anxiety has gotten so bad I just don't know what to do. I can't eat and when I do eat I fight so hard not to throw it right back up. I was forced to move back home not to long ago and my family wants nothing to do with me because I'm a "fucked up person". I stay in bed most days and rarely sleep. The only way I find peace to sleep is when I rock back and forth telling myself it'll be okay. I went through trauma after trauma by myself. I can not turn my brain off. Ever. I haven't had a calm mind in over four months. I panic about everything and I cry every single day because I can't calm down. I lost the one thing that ever gave me piece of mind and I don't think I will ever get it back. I'm a mess and I feel like... at this point it would just be better if I disappeared. I just needed to rant. Thanks for taking the time to read.