I just found out that my FP of 5 years has another new relationship. I spent years of my life being his best friend, I was hooking up with him for years, begging him for a relationship and he never gave me the title. He gives these girls these titles so quickly. And they end up looking like me.

But I know they don’t act like me because I’m a borderline. I’ve completed over a years worth of DBT but I guess that’s not enough. I’m currently talking to this other guy for over 5 weeks now and he’s not even that interested in me, he just wants me for sex too. And only text me 1 time a day

Then find me pretty attractive but I realized what they love the most is a good personality, how do I have a good personality when I have this personality disorder? To all the borderlines in happy and loving relationships, please tell me how? What is the witchcraft and secret?

So many borderlines on the sub have boyfriends and girlfriends, I literally don’t know how you do it? I literally could not get a relationship or job to save my life. How much more DBT do I have to do? Living like this is so painful and lonely, I’m even on so much medication and I do so much therapy, why am I not worthy of love?

I bet I would have a good personality if I didn’t have a personality disorder. I just want to be loved so badly. No one has ever loved me