 As many others have gone through I lost my original job due to the ongoing COVID-19 pandemic. It wasn't until recently that I managed to finally land myself a new job.

For my old job the day was basically split into two halves. The first half I would take individuals with special needs out into the community to do volunteer work or simply to do fun and meaningful activities and try to complete their goals whenever possible. For the second half of the day I would provide respite care to one or two individuals in our centre. It was all good and fine before the pandemic.

Fast forward to now where I got a new job. I'll be driving out to a house that's like 20-30 minutes to me every day. With this individual I'll be helping him build community supports and skills with the end goal being employment. Now what's really stressing me out is the fact that I now have to actually be planning activities as well as managing a work email and phone, nevermind that the policy manual is most likely making the job appear more scary than it actually is.

So right now I'm about to start my third day and I find myself just bawling my eyes out due to stress. At the end of the day I'm going to meet with the client I'm working with over zoom too which adds extra stress. At the same time though I know I can do this, my references from my last job have nothing but good things to say about me too to these guys, and I'm the first worker for a new program too so there's bound to be bumps in the road. Plus I spend all of this week training so they're not just throwing me to the wolves or anything, but here I am a 27 year old man crying due to the fear and pressure of change and I hate myself for it.

tldr; got new job and new practices and policies are already scaring me when I even haven't done the actual job yet.