For almost two months I was going to therapy twice a week but my therapist said I will do just fine visiting him once a week or once every two weeks. It's **such** a bittersweet feeling. 

What has changed? 

1. **I've learned to embrace my solitude.** I deactivated my Facebook three weeks ago and haven't activated it since. Unfortunately, Facebook is where I would go get my ego fed by random men when I would get bored and it caused a lot of problems in my relationship (inevitably) so at the moment it's a trigger for me, it gives me **literal** anxiety. My exes family is still on my Facebook and I don't quite feel like I'm ready to let go of them. When I'm ready I do plan on deleting them and purging my Facebook of all random men. 
2. **I started doing the things I used to love doing**. Like sketching,  (you can see a picture on my page:) painting, candle making,  cooking, reading, and knitting. 
3. **I've accepted my mental illnesses.** I have BPD, Cyclothymia, CPTSD, Depression, and Anxiety. I used to work myself up thinking my illnesses DEFINED ME, but they don't! I am in control, not them! 
4. **I started practicing mindfulness.** There have been moments recently where I know in the past I would have reacted negatively towards the situation at hand. DBT has helped tremendously with my emotional response. 
5. **I started focusing on the relationships that matter most in my life instead of 'temporary' ones.** I sat down with my family and explained in detail what it is that I go through on a day-to-day basis and they've been extremely understanding and supportive.
   1. I'm getting to know my best friend on a more personal level with the potential of seeing where things go after 15 years. If it goes anywhere, I believe it will be the healthiest relationship I've ever been in. 

Overall, I feel very content with the progress I've made and I am eager to see what the next few months are going to look like. 

There's a quote that really resonated with me that said *"It is normal  to grieve the life you had before your illness. Let yourself go through the process and start finding another road to travel. It's not the end, it's just a new road. "* \-Unknown.

For my fellow borderlines that are struggling. Please hang-on and keep going. There ***IS*** hope. 

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Much Love &lt;3