I’m on a camping trip with my family, an experience which I should (in theory) be exhilarated about. however, I find myself hiding behind fake smiles and “yeah, my head just hurts.”

There’s an ocean nearby; I love swimming. Now? I just sat on the beach for half an hour while my family went into the sea. I went back to the tent in favor of lying in a tent sideways, endlessly scrolling. 

On top of it, my father is a borderline narcissist and keeps picking away at my patience. I have many food intolerances, and the place he picked for dinner has all the foods I can’t eat in the name of the restaurant. He just doesn’t care &lt;3

I’ve tried therapy. I exercise, I eat plenty of fruits and veggies, and I take antidepressants. When will it be enough .