So I thought I was out of the woods. Between starting antidepressants and practicing mindfulness I though I had the anxiety and insomnia under wraps enough to book a 3 week roadtrip to Europe with a couple of friends. But this last week I've been spiraling, intrusive thoughts, no sleep for the last three days, I've basically relapsed... So on the day of the departure I had to back out of the trip, I had a feeling that I wouldn't survive 3 weeks on the road in foreign countries in my current state.    
   
I feel ashamed of being this broken. I feel guilty for disappointing my friends, their trip isn't ruined but I put a wrench in their plans. Even though I did this for my health I'm afraid of being judged for my actions.   

I just wanted to ask you guys if you've went through similar things ? Will things eventually be ok ?