for a while i was thinkin “oh. i have t had a breakdown and i havent done anything destructive, yeehaw” but i fucked up and ive been spiraling since like january and i’ve fallen to a point where i really cant crawl back up

i impulsively cut myself off from one friend earlier in the year and then convinced myself that everyone who knew them too hates me now and cut myself of from everyone else sometime last month. and after that ive been just incredibly lonely and depressed

i just kinda. wish i could act like a normal human being but i know that im just always going to be like this. its getting harder to deal with and i really dont know how much longer i can take it