when I can’t control my emotions, and my behavior is the most out of control... I always feel paranoid. “Someone’s following me” “someone’s listening in on my conversations” “the waiter poisoned my food”. These all have good reasoning behind them, or so I believe. 

For a while, I managed it well. But I really took a step back when my daughter said “no mom. The waiter didn’t poison your green tea”. She gave me this look like I had lost my mind. But, the waiter did these weird motions with my cup and then refilled an almost full tea. (We were the only Latinas in a very known racist sushi joint)

I will often keep my ideas and paranoia to myself. Does anyone suffer from similar thoughts? If you do, how do you control them?

