Does anyone else find that their symptoms sort of cycle? 


Like I'll go through a few days/weeks/months where I can cope ok, and it seems like I don't have bpd at all. Then suddenly I start to feel like I'm falling apart. I go from self-confident, being able to tolerate being alone, loving being busy, rarely even thinking about anything destructive, to insecure, terrified of being alone, feeling overwhelmed, wanting to self harm. And then a few days/weeks/months later I'm back to being ok. Sometimes there's a trigger, but often it seems that there's not.


It's just really frustrating, because every time I think things are under control, my mind goes "Ha, fooled you!" I don't know if it's a "typical" bpd thing or just me, so I wondered if anyone else experiences this? (I do have a diagnosis of bpd, but it was given to me about 9 years ago, and even with the bad times I am a lot better than I used to be)