I feel so trapped there's no one I can turn to. I've only been dealing with this in extremity for about a month and a half but I feel so hopeless. I'm graduating highshool this year and I just have no motivations, no aspirations. I'm losing connections with all of my friends I just don't like being around them anymore. The one person I have in my life I feel like I've worn thin, I avoid my parents, my dad's a fuckup. He just came out of the psych ward and i feel guilty for even wanting to be put in there. I don't want to be like him. Everything just feels so empty I want to run away but I can't. Life is just one mundane repeating chore and I don't know if I want to stay in this cycle. Everywhere I am, I want to be somewhere else and I feel as if I am in constant limbo. I'm so guilty for feeling this way and angry at myself. Just get over it. I don't want to die but I don't really want to live either.