TW?  Maybe?

I think about self-harm, but it never happens.  However, I do pick at scabs, pull and mess with my hair, and I'm literally at the point where I'm studying my body for shaving cuts so I can pick at them.  I feel too embarrassed to ask my therapist or family this because they'd make a big deal about it.  So why not some internet strangers?  The closest thing I've come to actual self-harm is like actively hoping for shaving cuts or random bug bites so I can pick at them until they bleed