I have had over 10 relationships, and I am in one now and the stress, anger, resentment I get from them seems to outweigh the benefits.

Does anyone else feel this way?
I’m very outgoing but I always feel like someone is screwing me over when it comes to dating.
I get annoyed and let them have it.... we could be having a great night and then something they did weeks ago annoys me and I bring it up and it starts a fight.
I am 32, and honestly, having BPD has its good and bad, but I over analyze everything in dating and it just annoys me.

It sounds strange but the things I find happiness in are my family, friends, pets, fitness and motorcycles.
I think this mental disorder will never allow me to find the right person because I will pick a issue with everything and I can’t help it. 
It seems the only time I am at peace is being alone. 

This isn’t a self pity post, I just wonder if anyone else is like this on here, I can’t handle the crap from relationships