So Saturday I was detained by the police for attempted suicide. I'd finally had enough of wearing the "happy face" for people and just wanted it to be over, the pain and unending loneliness are just to much to handle anymore.

I'd always planned on doing it since I can remember but back in November I found some I fell truly and deeply in love with. She made everything better and for the first time in so very long I was actually happy, even though I was constantly afraid she'd break my heart. I genuinely wanted to spend the rest of my life with her

Well obviously she broke up with me on the 26th of February. She did it via text and she had no real reason, just that "the attraction was gone" and all the nice things I said about her and how amazing I found her made her feel a pit of dread in her stomach. 

Since then I haven't seen her because she'd been really busy between work, looking after her nan with alzheimer's and having her mother visit from france (we live in the UK). 

Since she dumped me I've obviously fallen into a deep pit of despair that I genuinely can't see a light from and I attempted to kill myself (I'm not gonna say how) but my friends and family called the police and they tracked me down and stopped me before I could go to far.

Well yesterday she finally messaged me that she can finally meet and talk tomorrow but our plans to do that have fallen through with this whole quarantine lockdown, she said we can wait till it's over to see each other and that "it takes time and you'll stop feeling this way eventually" &amp; "you'll find someone more suited to you." 

How or even should I tell her that just a day before I attempted to kill myself partly because of her?