 I hate everything, IDK what is the point anymore, what am I really living for, cause all I can say is that there isn’t much, everything in my life has been pointless and it’s not exactly worth it. All I am living for atm is my music and maybe, just maybe my dog. and that is it. I just want to be happy once again. But nuuu, I have to be miserable, Why do I have to be depressed, if I wasn’t depressed, most of my problems would disappear. I can’t imagine what it is like to not have sI thoughts every single day. I hate life. I hate being human. I cannot find much joy. I hate the world. I would also very much appreciate no more thoughts about questioning my existence, Like shoo thoughts.  I totally am feeling better.. (was sarcasm).  I think I am just going to have a breakdown at this point. But, I cannot have a breakdown either because I don’t have the energy or tears for it at all.