I can’t sleep before I have to go in all night I lie awake racing thoughts when it’s time to go I freak out and cry and don’t know what to do and then just stay in bed. I’m not sure what I can do at this point. I think at the very back of my mind there is a lot of very uncomfortable and difficult situations that have happened in my life and I feel like subconsciously I take the easy way out rather than to face the embarrassment and uncomfortableness that my mind seems to expect based on previous experience. One thing that freaks me out is that I don’t fit in. I study art and every art class I’ve ever done before uni I have stood out majorly. People always say that I look old for 19 or that I look scary or should be a bouncer. I hate that I stand out and I know that I will not fit in with my uni art class and that scares me. It will draw attention to me and people are more likely to notice me being uncomfortable or awkward because I’m so tall and I overthink so much that when asked a question I’m afraid to I’ll sound like an idiot. Please help if you can because I really want to go into uni