i have THE WORST jealousy issues that i am trying to work on, but my worst is retroactive jealousy. i pretend my boyfriend has never been with anyone before me and never had feelings for anyone else before me. i can’t handle accepting that it isn’t true. he goes along with what i say because i have told him how bad i’ll react if i have to face that type of conversation. how can i learn this acceptance without it ruining me?