I feel bad for my bf, we’re both 2 insecure people dating each other and the topic of either of us cheating isn’t uncommon. Whenever i get worried he always cheers me up and reassures me and whenever its the opposite i always end up getting more upset because i tend to blame everything on myself and beat myself up, which sucks for him bc hes supposed to be focused on himself and IM the one whos supposed to console him but its always the other way arnd. It must feel so tiring for him because i always tend to cry and unknowingly make everything abt myself, i dont know why hes still here i feel like everytime this happens im slowly losing him. I just really really dont understand how he can put himself through loving someone whos suicidal and hates herself… he doesnt deserve this. Sometimes, i feel like im a doomed person no one can save, and that ill just end up being by myself because i ruin every single fucking good thing that comes to me. Why is loving someone so hard?