My family is abusive and they have been my entire childhood. I have no friends because I don’t even know how to maintain a fucking friendship anymore due to the amount of trauma I’ve experienced. My problems have been so bottled up for years on end now and they just keep on getting bigger and bigger. Everyone tells me to get a therapist, but no one is willing to pay for it and it would take me 3 years to save up money for therapy and the only way to do that is by working 80+ hour weeks on minimum wage. I feel so fucking isolated, locked up inside my room all day for years now. The isolation is getting too much, even if I kill myself, not a single person would notice nor would they care. I just want it all to end and in a sense it would be a sense of justice to all the people I’ve hurt in this lifetime.