it’s my second year in architecture school and what really kept me going the first year is *not* taking my meds at the right time (i would delay them to stay up late to study) and smoking/drinking from time to time which never ended well. i benefited from the hypomania a lot : working for long hours, confidence while presenting my work etc. 

recently during summer break i managed to be relatively stable for 1 month by taking my meds on time, sleeping well, working out and avoiding drugs at all costs. but i feel like that is not possible anymore because my studies require me to pull several all nighters at times and work for really long hours. and my antipsychotic doesn’t really allow that. i’m supposed to take it at 8pm. but last year i used to take it really late at night or early in the morning just to keep my head clear and always be ready to study. 

i guess being stable isn’t an option for a (possibly) bipolar future architect.