I was diagnosed with BPD a few months ago; when I change psychiatrists my new one at that time agreed with the diagnosis. None of them explained the implications of it and I was trying so hard to keep my focus out of things that made me feel sad or frustrated that it is not until now, that I feel that I've open a pandora box in many aspects of my MH and life events, that I want to understand how BPD could have been playing a big role on some things that I think I'm bad at or that I've done that I find that were bad or just not rational. I think that understanding and getting to acknowledge the role of BPD on how I am as a person today and how I was in the past, is the key that will help me to take better decisions in the future and be more kind with myself in the process.

For all of this me and my therapist thought that it would be a great idea to star analyzing some patterns, events, emotions, etc, and that's why I want to start a diary for this, not necessarily talking about my day to day life, but for questioning and analyzing actions and past events, feelings in situations of the present that tend to emotionally deregulate me, rationalize some internalized destructive thoughts, etc.

I write this here because I would like to know which things do you think is better for starting to do this, since I feel that I'm really unaware of most of the aspects of BPD.

What questions would you make to yourself?
What type of past events would you find useful to analyze?
How would you get yourself to find ways to improve your response to things that trigger the worst aspects of your BPD?

Thanks in advance to anyone that comment on this♡