My (24f) boyfriend (25m) are in a LDR, and for the past two months.. I felt zero worry about the relationship. But lockdown there is over and he’s back to hanging out with friends. While in Illinois, it’s probably only ending in the end of May. I promised him I was working on myself, I don’t want to fall back into my old habits. I realize I have probably damaged him in so many ways, psychologically. He gave me an ultimatum that if I don’t try to change, things are over. He couldn’t deal with me anymore, all the ups and downs. 

Things are really hard right now tho, he’s sleeping over at a friends house and hasn’t texted me all night. I’m trying my best not to be controlling... I do know he needs time with friends..... but deep inside I’m burning.... I wanna explode. I’m going to try soooooo fucking hard keep my distance until I cool off.