Hi guys,

So I’ve recently been suffering from bad anxiety and depression. My depression comes and goes every few months, but I’ve never dealt with anxiety prior to being moved to a new location with nearly 3 times the staff, workload, and volume as before. This also happened during one of the busiest months and 20 people left for school with no replacements hired in time by my precedent. My boss is fighting for me to stay because he sees something in me, and he’s a good, genuine guy. I know I can trust him on a personal level. But since being moved [involuntarily] I’ve gotten constant attacks on my character and performance, which has resulted in racing thoughts, frequent shaking, insomnia, crying spells, no appetite…the list goes on. 

I told the higher ups the new location was overwhelming because I didn’t train or work anywhere similar, and they pretty much talked in circles about how they might move me. Never trusted them as these were the same people who sent me to this location “temporarily” just to make it permanent after a week. 

My boss has done about everything in his power to support me, and it’s helped, but I’m not sure if I can live up to the expectations he has for me. Even if he gets someone to complete a task for me one day, it’s still my job at the end of the day. Even after literally my whole team blaming me for the situation we’re in, threatening to quit, going to him and HR, he’s still supporting me. I even told him I’d just leave to make it easier on everyone, and he still hasn’t stopped. (Random note: just the other day I mentioned how one team member did great helping my area, and he made a call and added that person to my team on the spot.) I don’t get it, and it’s the only reason I haven’t turned in the resignation letter I typed. Well, that and things have gotten slightly better at work. I should mention that my boss was only supporting this location when I arrived, but now he’s officially in charge and has big plans. 

Thoughts? Can’t sleep or stop thinking about this so i figured I’d type away.