I can never tell if i have depression or just an extreme instability of emotions. But recently, like the past couple weeks or so, I have just been so numb inside and my mind is just muted in a sense. I don't know if I'm necessarily sad or I just lazy. 

I do feel down and just no energy anymore. My friends tell me repeatedly that they can tell I fake my happiness and I seem a bit broken inside. I am also told I downplay my sufferings and laugh about it but that's just always been my coping mechanism.