I think I might be a sociopath when it comes to relationships...

I realise the title might not make much sense at first glance, but to put it simply I think there’s something wrong with me. Firstly I attract the wrong guys, guys who don’t put in any effort with me and who don’t show me respect, but who claim to feel something for me.

Whenever I get into a relationship with a guy and I catch feelings for him (usually after we have had sex) I go crazy, like seriously crazy. I try and emotionally abuse him, pretend i’ve been seriously injured, fake car crashes etc. just to make him upset. I’ve even pretended all my relatives are dead. I also have extreme sexual jealousy. Most of the guys I have dated have slept with over 100 women, some between 40-50 at best and i’ve been their first REAL girlfriend... it almost gives me a kick lying like this and I have no idea why. I abuse them to the point where they realise i’m a liar, then threaten suicide and fake my death when they leave me.

I realise this is super subnormal so what is wrong with me? Firstly why do I attract guys like this and secondly why do I display such toxic and abusive traits? Advice would be appreciated