Anyone else meet someone that on the surface seems nice, but you begin to analyze everything they do? For example they say you are pretty, you think they are lying. They say I’ll see you and you think y’all never talk to me again after you this. Or you look to see if they’ve blocked you millions of times? Or will he ignoring you this text? Do you ever want to cut them off before they do? Or text them way too many times in a row? Do you see them in their phone and think I’m sure they are talking to someone much better or about me? 

My therapist says this is what BPD people do. They fluctuate between a grander sense of someone and a extremely pessimistic outlook on someone. I always think this but I never say it aloud. I think someone is using me for sex, or finds me annoying. I tell myself to shut up during conversations, and never be too confident during compliments. And with my ex cheating on me I feel this way even more with guys. I just don’t see how anyone could want me or desire me. Only use me