I grew up with a step dad that always said I was annoying. As an adult, being an annoyance to someone is a huge fear and anxiety of mine. 

So today was my last day at a job I (23F) hated. I didn’t hate my coworkers or my job, but I hated how my manager (55M) spoke to me. He would say extremely inappropriate comments that I should have told HR, but didn’t want to deal with the headache. But I always felt like my manager thought I was an annoyance, when I was just trying to make sure I did my job satisfactory. 

I was at the company for 7 months, and never let on I hated my job except to one person. Let’s call him Edward. Edward has similar issues with my manager that I did. 

My manager wasn’t surprised and seemed relieved when I gave my resignation notice. The rest of my team seemed surprised, disappointed and even said “we hate to see you go, what if they can’t find someone as good at the job as you?”

I received similar responses from people in other teams. Saying “you were always so nice to everyone, enthusiastic and had a willingness to always help when other teams were behind” and the typical “we should do something on your last day.”

So what did I do? I planned a social outing after work on my last day. Told people about 1.5 weeks in advance. To a super low key brewery since usually we go to a super busy adult barcade. I figured the scenery would be nice. 

I invited everyone. Even those I wasn’t close with, since I don’t believe in excluding people. A lot of people said they’d be there. Edward came, and along with 3 others. 2 of them I was surprised, the 3rd I wasn’t since I talked with him quite frequently. 

It stung a bit that some of the people I considered to be closest with, who said would some, didn’t. Which makes me nervous I annoyed them too and they’re glad to be rid of me. 

I know it shouldn’t bother me. Especially when at jobs people are always like “keep in touch,” but they never do. But it makes me feel like my efforts with this company and to help out others was pointless and wasn’t appreciated. I know it’s dumb and I should forget and move on but it really bugs me. 

The guy I’m seeing said “fuck them. It shows their true colors” my mom says “it just further confirms you made the right choice leaving.”

Ugh. Just needed to vent. 

Thanks if you made it this far.