I'm a 30-year-old female, been diagnosed with anxiety for 8 years, recently re-started medication. One of my biggest triggers is my appearance, and I feel bad about that because rationally I know it's not important but I can't control the fixations. 

The most recent issue has been the spider veins on my legs. I've had minor ones for a while, but they recently have been getting worse at an alarming rate, and it's causing non-stop obsessive thoughts and panic attacks. I've been avoiding looking at my legs because every time I do, there's yet another little purple squiggle someplace. 

A couple days ago, I tried compression socks but yesterday they were feeling slightly painful and I couldn't stop thinking about how it felt like they were popping more veins. When I took them off, all my veins were more visible. I couldn't sleep because I was crying all night. Today I can't even get up the courage to check if they look better or not. Posted about this on a women's health subreddit, got no comments and some downvotes (probably fair, much more important things going on over there) which is making me feel even more desperate and anxious and alone. The only thing that will help the veins is an expensive cosmetic procedure that I can't afford, and meanwhile I can't bear the thought of going through life with my legs looking like this.

Again- I realize it shouldn't matter and that my emotions are out of proportion. But right now this is running my whole entire life and I am feeling completely non-functional. Can anyone offer any reassurance or advice on how to deal with this?