My BPD symptoms only appear when I'm feeling down, having an anxiety/anger/depression crisis, which is usually (always?) triggered by partner or family members.

When I'm not in conflict with my family or partner, I feel that I'm almost a fully functional person, and I doubt that I have any personality disorder.

However, when things go A LITTLE BIT badly, I easily have aggressive bouts of anxiety, depression, anger, and frustration. Besides that, sometimes, suicidal ideation when I foresee abandonment (real or not). I get discouraged for everything, I feel extremely lonely, I start to have negative and pessimistic thoughts and a bunch of other shitty behaviors.

Is anyone else like this or should I see a doctor so I can make sure I really have BPD or not?