15F here, and I’m looking for some advice/support. I’m fully convinced that there is something wrong with me: I struggled with an ED as a child, I have been suicidal on and off for years (severely, not just slightly) and my most prevalent coping mechanism is self harm. I don’t have normal reactions to situations, and small things fully drive me over the edge: whether it makes me feel entirely depressed, furious, causes me to burst into tears, trigger me into self harming/attempting suicide etc, my emotions are constantly extreme. My feelings also vary, for example one day I could feel really elated and happy and then the next morning I will literally not be able to get out of bed because mentally I feel so horrific. I’ve read into bipolar disorder, BPD, and ADHD and have realised that I fully resonate with their symptoms and effects. However, I don’t want to self diagnose and I really need medical analysis/psychological help, but I don’t know how to tell my dad (abusive mum, I am not I contact with her anymore) and I just wondered if any of you have some suggestions of what I could do?