I’m not diagnosed with depression, but in the majority of time I just want not to talk with anyone, and at the same time, I start to feel they think I’m being such an idiot for not talking to them. I feel like every time i say a lot of stupid and dumb things, and i wonder to never be able to talk or just block everything i say, cause nobody wants to listen my bullshits. Many times I’m not capable of looking at the bright side of things. I see myself staying behind at the shadows of my friends who are seeking their brightest futures and I’m doing nothing. I said this might not be related, because many times i thought i had depression signals, it was always nothing related to
I don’t know even if what i feel everyday is real anymore or is just a type of escapism my brain is using