This may be triggering. Please be aware of that. Thank you :)

Last thing that's stayed on mind
Before the day ends 
And I'm alone on my grind

I've been spending most nights 
Sabotaging the blade
Or looking into the eye of a barrel
Screaming out all the pain

Put a bullet,
Inside my brain
I'm a D average kid 
Got nothing in there anyway 

I know if I Died
No one would miss me
Give it a week, and they will forget me

Im worried about my future
And stuck in the past
So my body takes physical pain 
To help my present relax

Yeah I'm an addict
To drinking and sex
Being horny watching markiplier
And obsessions with men 
I got
Impulses to reach out
Or impulses on death
Fear of abandonment
Wich made everyone left