I‘m 1.62m high and about 52kg heavy. In theory I know that I‘m not fat at all, but everytime I see myself in the mirror I feel uncomfortable and hate my body and myself for eating „too much“. My thought are always about food, what meal I skip and how I‘m gonna lose weight. Doing groceries is exhausting because it takes so much time. I always wanna try to find the food with the least amount of kcal. To my friends and family I make excuses so I don‘t have to go for dinner with them. Some foods, like really greasy stuff scare me, and I won‘t even touch them. There are weeks on which i don‘t eat more than 700kcal a day and then there are days on which i end up completely binge eating and hate myself after that even more. I just want it to stop that it feels like topic number one in my life is food and how I‘m gonna lose weight...