I finally worked the nerve to do some interviews last week after being unemployed for a year, plus rejecting/ignoring any other previous interview invites. I’m proud to say that I got an offer for the job I wanted the most from the interview batch! I start Tuesday. 

Currently in bed worrying about it, of course. Have been all weekend; I haven’t been able to sleep since Friday when I was offered because I’ve been staying up all night thinking about what could go wrong. Where I could fail. Wondering what things others may think of me (“wow, she’s incompetent!” comes to mind).

To be honest, I’ve enjoyed being unemployed because I could avoid things that made me anxious. My last job was extremely stressful and I’m scared to go through that again. Sadly, I’m out of money and benefits for EI, so I have no choice but to work. 

I wish I could feel excited about this. It’s a position with an esteemed University but is a short-term contract. If I do well, I can complete other contracts. I guess that adds to my anxiety also. I don’t want to fail. 

Anyways, keep me in your thoughts, please! Words of encouragement or stories about your first day at a new job are welcome.