I had a dream that my friends were playing a game where you had to write down your answer to a personal question, then someone would read them all out loud and we'd guess who wrote what. So, the question came up: "What is your most irrational fear?"

My response to this was that I'm afraid of everyone I love only pretending to like me, and possibly even being hired to do so. I woke up soon after my answer was read to the group and everyone kind of laughed off my fear.

The thing is, I think that it is my biggest fear. It took a dream to get me to realize it, but I don't feel lovable. At all. I don't know why anyone chooses to be in my life or let me be a part of theirs. I'm so insecure, and I hate that about myself. I'd never tell this to anyone in my life, because I feel like I'd only get pity or they'd think I'm crazy. But it's something I've worried about, usually without even realizing it, for my entire life.