I'm trying to figure out if this is a CPTSD thing or BPD thing or if I'm just a sociopath.

I know it means at one point in time, the ability to just walk away from people and low loyalty served me. Pushing people away when you have trauma makes sense, extreme anger makes sense with CPTSD. I just didn't expect to be 30 and friendless. I avoid certain places and companies to avoid the people I've hurt emotionally. I'm hoping to turn my life around because I don't want to wake up at 40 and be this alone still.

I'm in a big city and feel like I need to move cities and start over. But who wants to be friends with someone who has no friends from their youth and no current friends? Who doesn't talk to family? Who has a hard time forming emotional attachments and isn't really sure what to talk about?