For the past year I have had the worst luck. I feel like I broke a mirror or some shit. I constantly feel like shit, about myself, my life, my choices. I’ve got terrible ADHD and anxiety and it’s gotten so bad for whatever reason. I developed a voice disorder, struggled with that for eight months. Messed up quite a bit of work relationships and such as I struggled with it. I’m literally on the end of the rope. I don’t think I’m gonna survive. I keep trying to make things better. But it only makes it worse. I’m officially giving up trying to make new friends as it only ends badly and I end up feeling shitty. It’s the end. I can’t do this. I feel so so bad. So hopeless. Every fucking part of my body is tingling with despair. Lmao. How did this happen to me? My parents were wonderful, they put up with so much shit from me. I had an eating disorder that almost killed me and they supported me the entire way through. Yet here I am, a failure, wishing I never was born. I’m a terrible person guys. Fuck. So. Many. Emotions. I feel like shitttttt