Today is Christmas as we all know, but that means New Years is coming soon and so starting today my holiday existencial dread kicks in. 

The fact that it’s a new year (even though we have been living the same day over and over since pandemic started lol) sets me into a panic and I go thinking into what do we even exist for, do we even exist? what is the point of all this? I’m also EXTREMELY afraid of death to the point where I could sit in bed for days at just the thought of it so that’s just a plus to add into the mix. 

I hate the holidays for bringing out such anxiety and thoughts...