Sorry for my bad grammar, I’m rushing this and getting emotional. I have no idea how to start this or whatever. 
I’m an asshole, I’m a jerk, I’m a dick, I’m rude, I’m selfish, greedy. Just not a good person whatsoever, I try to deny I am, I try to be a better person, but I can’t be. No matter how hard I try to believe I’m a better person or try to be. I fall back on it. I stole money from my to the point we lose a house when I was 16/17. I stole shoes from my sister and sold them when I was 16/17 still. I use to beat my brother badly or hit him hard when I was mad or use to say things to him to hurt his feelings when I was mad. I pushed my other sister when I was mad. I’m 21 now, my GF is pregnant and I never hit her nor I ever will but when I was driving and I got mad I swerve the card left and right while she try to move to the back when I got her mad. She told me if we were to ever break up how would she be able to trust me with our baby. I was mad at first and sad that she would tell me that. I was hurt when she said that she doesn’t know if she loves me still. I was mad and upset wondering how she can say those things to me until I realize she had every right to. I still piss my mom off all the time and we get in nasty fights. I can’t stop being me and I hate it. I try to better but I fail every time. Should I run away and start a new life and be by myself but send money to help with the baby? Should I kill myself? I don’t know what to do. Not that long about a few months ago I stole money from my sister and she hasn’t said anything and a year or two ago I stole money from my brother. I avoid my family as much as I can because I feel like ima ruining the day or doing something bad. I try to avoid being home. I don’t know what to do. I feel so alone, I get mad so easily, I have no clue what to do.