I posted on here yesterday that I broke so many so so many tv’s and I have horrible rage and shame over my inability to stop being violent.

My boyfriend doesn’t help the situation but I took full responsibility 

So anyhow,
Instead of either people sharing &amp; relating, offering advice, or simply just expressing empathy because they too struggle, I instead 
get shamed and told all I want is coddling and excusing of my behavior when that is 
*FAR from what I said in my post*

I was legit fucking crying last night trying to feel less alone in my shame and struggled and I get *bashed on HERE of all places* ????

Then I defend myself and I end up with downvotes??!

If some of you don’t suffer rage to the degree I do than good for you but you aren’t better than me simply because you never have taken things as far as I have. 

I don’t know but it’s wrong and unhelpful because I already hate myself enough as do most with BPD. 

If anyone suffers awful destructive violent abusive rages, know I feel for you and I hope we all can heal and find a way to stop being this way. 





