I wonder if this is unusual for people with BPD. Wanting both. Being unhappy if I can't have both. Is it really unrealistic as an adult to want a best friend? I do have friendships, but they are more superficial  in nature. On the plus side I am able to hide the crazy. But interactions like this also leave me feeling quite drained and sad. To a point I don't really socialize or make the effort that I should. Because what's the point? Sometimes when you go out with a group of people you end up feeling even more lonely at the end. Or disconnected from everyone. Does that make any sense, or does anyone else ever feel like this? It's not enough just having that romantic connection with someone. I feel like I've spent my whole life looking for the Thelma to my Louise. How do you learn to settle for less? I mean I do settle but I'm unhappy about it. I go through the motions with people and just feel hollow inside.