Hey everyone. It’s very comforting reading everyone’s posts here. I really connect with a lot of what you are saying. I’ve never been depressed before. During Covid I started a new career and excelled beyond my wildest dreams. I entered into a relationship which has been one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I got a dog who is the light of my life and have friends who deserve a fucking medal for putting up with me. Over the last few months I have spiraled so deep into depression I don’t know what to do. Why is this happening now? It’s something I can’t wrap my head around. I’ve been in therapy for two years for some traumatic shit I went through and I feel like the only explanation for what I’m going through is that I am finally facing my demons without any crutches. I’m in so much pain. I cry so much my nose is constantly stuffy and no eye cream in the world can help my eye bags. I don’t know how to function anymore. I feel like a fucking zombie. I stay up all night to avoid the morning. I hate life. I don’t like doing anything yet I’m always doing stuff that conveniences others. I don’t understand my brain :( I have a psych app scheduled in October… hoping to bring some sort of solution.