So recently I’ve been in a bad funk and I’m not sure how to get out. The depression is mostly contributed by my work place because I work with a guy and that ghosted me for another girl and ex friends. I’m worried they are talking about me behind my back. 

I know I should leave but it’d be hard finding another job right now that’ll accommodate me since I recently had surgery on my face. Also since I had surgery on my face I’ve been feeling really ugly and depressed. 

I know everything will be okay but all I’ve been doing is coming home to sleep and barely eating so I haven’t been putting on any weight like I want to. It’s so frustrating. Pre surgery I was 145, then I dropped to 135. However before I went back to work I was 140 and since I’ve been working there I’m currently at 136. :(