I don’t know what to do. I’m so afraid. I don’t want them to see my dark side. I want to end things. However, I’ve planned to stay at their place for a week next week because I’m travelling at the moment. Buttttt it terrifies me. I want to listen to this emotion just once. I always force myself into relationships because I should. I’m not interested. But it’s going to be awkward if I’m not interested. Or am I interested? Or maybe I could try to take things slow… to build some trust (on my side) because maybe I am interested and I’ve never tried to take things slow before and perhaps that could be nice. I’m scared and I need an escape button.