i know no one will care on here but i need somewhere to put my feelings into the world. i feel so unlovable and so lonely. my best friend told me she can't see or speak to me for a while because of how my mental illness affected her last year. my other friends have moved to different cities and i don't have enough contact with any of them to feel comfortable reaching out for help. i have therapy and meds but i just can't get better no matter how hard i try. i want to disappear and i want to give up nothing works literally everyone leaves