This is my first post and I have been reading others posts hoping to find one like my situation, but haven’t so far. I am scared to talk to anyone about what is going on but today I have decided to seek help, but would appreciate hearing your thoughts on what I can do to for help.

My mom recently stopped talking to me and my family. She lives at home with us, but she just stopped talking to us. If we ask her how her day was, what to have for dinner, or anything as simple as that she won’t respond. 

What she does now is talk to her self, as if she has imaginary friends. But the things she says out loud is very disturbing. She says things like “don’t have sex with her, have sex with me”. Or “Your a stupid fool Jesus to have sex with her and not with me” (she said this while we were on a walk in public with people around us. She yelled that out loud). I am working from home right now and I told her please go upstairs to your room, because my colleagues may here you, but she didn’t respond to me and she just continued saying that same thing over again out loud. I had to move to another room.

Before this experience, she would sit in her room mostly during the day, and spread books around her bed and wrap a scarf around her head and sit in the dark. She would take food to her bedroom and eat alone.

At night when we are sleeping, she screams in her room, alone. I don’t know what she is saying. My dad occasionally goes upstairs to tell her to be quiet, and she stops. but this happens the next day. It continues for many nights.

When we sit down in the living room, watching tv (me, my dad), she will come into the room and sit on couch with us. But she will sit slightly facing away from us and she will have a snack with her (last time she had grapes and did the following) . But what she choose to do instead disturbs me. She licks and sucks on the food she is eating, in a very provocative way. It sickens me. And she looks at the roof while she is doing this, and  starts rubbing the couch with her hands. It looks like she is pretending to have sex with someone imaginary. My dad says to ignore her and I just leave the room when she does this. I have filmed her doing this however because I think I need to show it to someone like a doctor. She needs help.

She has done things like this in the past but today I need some help because it is disrupting my work (as I mentioned I am working from home). I am scared that she will say something embarrassing while I am on a phone call. but more importantly I think she has a mental illness. But I don’t know how to help her or where to start.

I rambled a lot because I am worried about posting this online. I feel ashamed to post this but I need to help her. 

I can answer some questions. thank you in advance.