All I had was $90 to my name to last me through till Thursday. I spent it all gambling cause I have a issue with it. I’m so angry at myself and depressed to the point I wanna lay in bed and starve myself to death. I was doing so good recently and I’ve had a better outlook on life but I just fucked myself. I don’t know what to do. I wanna get drunk and pass out and not wake up. I don’t know why I do this to myself. Fuck everything