Im gonna vent and then hopefully feel better, Im going to have a lost of things that give me anxiety right now and see where it goes. Some kind of mental crisis or something
1. Uni - I keep failing everything 
2. My relationships (romantic, family, friends)
I’m shutting down from everyone 
I think I’m falling out of love for the first time ever, I don’t even know what that feels like 
3. Health - more stress than anything, I feel like I’m sick or in pain all the time and everyone around me just seems annoyed by it, that I get, but it sucks. 
4. My relationship with my body and being alone (have never been alone) 
I hate that I am in my early 20s and I will probably look back at my body and miss it later and I feel like I’m missing out on loving it now. And everyone who knows how I feel dismisses it because I look like the most girls say they want to look like so I never feel like I have a reason, almost like I owe them. 
5. The fact that I have my WHOLE life planned, no wholes, no stress over where I’m going to end up. I think this one is the most annoying since it totally irrational. 
6. I talk wayyyy to much and I hate it, I often find myself speaking before I have time to think what I’m saying, it’s always been like this. 
7.I don’t call my parents enough
8. I don’t know my self anymore, I don’t know how to fix that 
9. I spend way to much money and I hate myself for it 


That’s just some, I do feel like if I just post this it will make me feel okay. I know these are really stupid but that’s exactly why I’m on here. F22