I need nothing. I want there to be a place where nothing can be experienced. Where nothing can be discussed. I'm staring into my sheets wishing I was nothing. "Nothing" is subjective. You never have nothing in this life. Anyone can experience nothingness at any time, but there is never just nothingness. It's any oxymoron, you need something to have nothing. So what is nothing and why do I feel like need it. Have I already obtained nothing? Everything is in my grasp yet I feel nothing. Am I dwelling on nothingness to long? Is there something I am after that I can't yet put into words? I feel I am nothing. I feel I need nothing. So what is it?

I think I'm schizophrenic