     My most recent meds, Buspar, has done nothing to help. I get in situations where I feel I'm being blamed for everything, or I'm triggered when I'm in situations that I am being teamed up against socially or even online. 

     I sort of know how other people can take a step back from whatever situation that causes me anxiety and really it doesn't matter and thus they're unaffected, but I just can't ever seem to do that mentally. I hope that makes sense.

     Ironically, I don't really have an issue with public speaking or anything of the sort. I got rid of that in college, thankfully. However, my habit is to question and beat myself up over things I said previously. I hate my existence. This is my first post here and I guess I just like to know I'm not the only one.