Now I'm laying in bed feeling like shit. The last 2 or so weeks have been so shit. I can't even pinpoint why I feel like this. I'm getting the urge to relapse my (TW) &gt;!self harm!&lt; and &gt;!ED!&lt; I keep seeing stuff that triggers me.

I just wish I had someone to bond with closely. I have no close friends. Even my girlfriend has been distant recently. I feel so alone. Every time i try to reconnect with people I just end up causing arguments or hurting people. Maybe it would be best if i wasn't here anymore. If only I wasn't terrified of death