I’ve always struggled with self worth, mental thoughts and just trying to keep afloat being thrown out young by parents then having 2 kids. My husband was abusive, I had to leave with nothing to our names. Life has moved on over the past few years and I’ve adapted, but recently lost my job and struggling. I went to the staffing agency today but while driving back a very large dog ran out and warped my strut. Life is killing me. I can’t keep going on to fail. I love my kids more then anything but I can’t give them the life they need. They deserve to have stuff they need. They deserved to have a normal father. They deserve the world. Christmas is coming up. Their won’t be one for us. I don’t know how to tell them. I can’t afford to live. I recently had an eye opening situation happen and I can’t get over it. I’m so depressed. Stressed. I’ve cried for 2 hours. I beg god. I don’t know why I’m like this. I’m so weak. I’m not strong. I’ve accomplished so many things from what I’ve been delt but this.. I can’t get through this. My mental state is so far gone how do I overcome this