I started group therapy today for social anxiety. I feel like I have to be secretive about how messed up I am, so many of the people there seem new to their issues. Anyway, the type of therapy is ACT. So a part of it is living a values-based life... I always thought I knew what I wanted because it was stuff that seemed so unachievable, but when it comes down to it I just don't. I change my mind like every 3 days about what I want to be doing. I never get off the ground because I can't stick to an idea for longer than enough to be discouraged by the fact that I just don't think I can do it, and partly, I just don't even know if I care. On paper I can say I value things like honesty (even though I lie), loyalty (even though I don't know who I care about), and doing good (even though I rarely do). Oh, and music and art of course (even though, again, I try and I get bored or I try and I get discouraged or I try and I wonder if I even want to). Maybe what I want is just an average joe life that is flexible enough to change all the time. I don't know. I can't even stand the idea of buying a home because the thought of sticking to that kind of commitment freaks me out too much.