No, I'm not suicidal. 

Now that that's out of the way, I'm starting to consider giving up on my mental health getting better. I've been diagnosed with personality disorders, chronic childhood trauma, depression and anxiety. It's so bad that I can hardly do anything, except for some minor household tasks. 

For the past 9 years I've received several forms of therapy, each one as ineffective as the next. I feel like I might be better of learning how to repress everything again, like when I was a teenager, and just die of stress when I'm fifty. 

Thougts?