I don't feel anything but emptiness. I feel as though nothing in my life has any purpose whatsoever, I feel like everyone hates me. I don't go outside anymore, it feels like everything is done on autopilot, I wake up, watch tv, go to sleep, every single fucking day. I'm completely fucking dead inside.

I know this feeling stems mostly from my so called "friends". They just constantly do shit without me without asking me if I want to go, they have group chats without me and stuff like that...

I've thought about suicide multiple times, I know I'm not gonna do it but I still think about it and how it would just rid me of all of my problems... idk if I'm depressed or whatever but I just wanted to get this off my chest and I don't know where to post this