That’s it, really. 

To add, I’m in therapy and I try so so hard to keep all my toxic traits in check. I’m on medications that I think help and every single day I try try try. 

But I know I’m still...a lot. Difficult. And my husband is such a good person. I feel like he shouldn’t have to deal with me. I feel like he deserves someone better. This of course starts an internal cycle of feeling like he’s going to leave. 

Just venting. I needed to release it. 💛