massive tw: post from a bpd hate sub encouraging people to leave their SO with bpd

i hate that i feel the need to preface this by saying that i’m in therapy. i take accountability for my actions. my
boyfriend and i communicate open and honestly and our relationship is great, because we understand each other and our unique struggles and support each other. i am not an abuser.

i’ve been struggling lately with my own issues that i largely internalize, because i fear being too much for my boyfriend. i am terrified of being what people on That Subreddit think i am. so after a night of not being able to sleep, laying here trying to soothe myself so i can sleep, i get a push notification about a popular post on reddit 

https://imgur.com/a/NliB6aO

it’s that. 

i should have stopped reading just from the title but i guess i love being miserable, and now i’m laying here spiraling 

what if i’m so manipulative and abusive that my boyfriend and i both don’t even see it?  and he wakes up one day and realizes?
 what if i’m hurting him bc under everything i’m just this rotten person?

i’m filled with so much rage at that subreddit for existing, at this stupid fucking app for showing this to me, at people so cruel to encourage the abandonment of people who are traumatized from abandonment to begin with

just wish i could stop having this fucked up disorder.  i’m sorry for being so negative and complaining but i just need to be honest and upset right now. and if anyone knows how to block an entire subreddit please PLEASE let me know