Ive been severely depressed for more than a decade now. I’ve tried dozens of therapists and medications with zero improvement. Every day I battle suicidal thoughts and frankly there’s a dwindling number of reasons not to do it. So basically I’ve decided fuck it. I’m gonna work until the end of this quarter. Planning to cash out my 401k/IRA and take my life savings and do whatever the fuck I want. Probably will be able to travel and live pretty well for at least a year. When the money runs out so does my time. Figure I should at least try and enjoy what I’ve earned before I check out.

Still figuring out how to discuss with the few remaining friends and family in my life. Will probably just tell them I’m going away and don’t know when I’ll be back. 

Even from a young age I always knew I’d never make it out of my 20s. Like people would always ask me what I wanted to do or where I saw my life headed and I never had an answer. 

Anyway I know I’m probably not the first person to do this but I’ll try to keep y’all updated on my journey.