Im so tired of living sometimes, of feeling like no matter what i do, i’ll always be the problem. Why cant i be more normal? More happy? More outgoing? I know thats what my husband wants, he doesnt even care as i sit here crying. I feel broken, like no matter how much i scream in a crowded room no one will hear me, they cant feel my pain. But to me if feels unbearable. Like i cant breath, all i want is to feel loved. But all i hear is annoyance and hate coming from him. Maybe hes right, everything could be my fault, and i just dont act right in certain situations. He acuses me of never being heppy. But he never listens to me when i try to speak to him, he needs to give me a reason to be happy. Like being nice for a change or looking at me when i speak, simply saying you look nice today.Its the little things, thats all i need, the little things matter.