Long story short I've been on a downward spiral from bpd and addiction for a while now, I can't help but be devo and negative about it, last night I lost my licence, not sure if I'll keep my job yet, cars impounded, more fines, my partner was nothing but supportive but not before I caused a big blow up for no reason, she got home from work today and I've been pretending to be asleep since she got here, and I can hear her and her two year old playing and having fun, she sounds so genuinely happy, she even sounds happier with her ex (her daughters dad) and it tears me apart to hear them getting along but she just seems miserable around me