its been this way since the past few years, i always seek for unattainability in people to gain interest in them. a warm and caring person giving me attention? no. a cold emotionally unavailable person treating me like trash? yes!! i am tired. i always feel unworthy. always. because whoever i aim for they always make me feel like they are outta my league. or maybe i aim for people outta my league?   is it some self esteem issues? is it my brain trying to prove that i can accomplish something,, someone even if they are unavailable? idk