I lost my full-time, salaried job last week, but am still on contract with the company I was working for to continue writing for them and contributing on an hour-to-hour/piece-by-piece basis. Basically, I'm going from making like $700 a week, salaried, to probably $200 a week (for 3 articles and 2-3 hours of their attention) at best, with them.

Which means I need to be looking for other work opportunities. 

Right now, I'm sitting on my couch. My daughter is playing alone in her room (which makes me feel so fucking sad and guilty.)

In 1.5 hours her little friend is coming over for a playdate. So I'll have company in my house.

I have 1.5 hours to do something.

I can:

1. Write a blog post for the company I work for (or at least get started on it)
2. Write the CEO of that company and make sure we're on the same page contractually, because I'm getting the feeling they want me to be as accessible to them as I was on salary, and I refuse to show up for video calls and not get paid for each and every minute I'm sitting on one of those.
3. Look on job boards and apply for freelance work
4. Look on job boards and apply for full-time/part-time work
5. Apply for welfare (because I'm going to have to, now, at least while I get back on my feet after this huge job blow) 
6. Go play with my daughter (she asked if I would play with her and I told her I had to work...I know I'll go play with her eventually...but I feel so guilty, I feel like just tossing all my work to the side, and job hunt, and everything, just to play with her.)
7. Fuck it all and keep doing self-soothing activities like dicking around on Reddit and Facebook

I don't know what to do with the time I have, so I'm just gonna sit here and be sad about it and shame myself, I guess.

God, I'm so fucking sad. 