what’s the point in trying anymore. i was discharged from group therapy because they fucked me over. then when i tried to call my gp for more support he went into a whole convo about how i’m too mentally ill for help, i shouldn’t have children because i will abuse them, and that i should basically suck it up. i tried to self refer to places but they told me my problems are too complex, or the waiting lists are too long because i’m moving to a different city soon. i’m an alcoholic. i fucked up really bad on monday with drinking and one of my closest friends in my life, i never though i would do that but i did. i’m moving soon and terrified of running into someone who hurt me afew years ago, i’m scared of them trying to bully me and fuck up my life again. i hate myself and i am so depressed. i have had amazing opportunities over these past 2 months and i can’t even enjoy them because i just hate myself so much. i want all these feelings to stop.