My name is CJ (Christopher John).
Day in and day out I battle with my self esteem, what existing means to me and how my existence affects others. I feel like a simulation many times. A puppet. This is my first reddit post so do not judge my writing skills I am simply venting. I feel like a puppet. There is so many things thay I enjoy and want to do however there is this thing called anxiety and depression that has had this control over me and I am tired of it. I am coming to terms with this anxiety depression illusion which means that if I can feel anxiety and feel depression and it becomes apart of me and ages me and makes me sick, then I can animate and create a happy and peaceful and productive illusion for myself and others. Helping people is apart of me as well as making others smile laugh and feel good about themselves. I want to be that person again. I no longer want to suffer because of this illusion. For those of us who suffer with anxiety and depression I want you to add to this comment and share and reword this if you'd like. Nobody should be a slave to this complex because it is life damaging and it breaks up families. Love CJ 💜