Its over the most pettiest reason too.. like basically I have a hard time knowing who I am and she’s styling herself the exact way i am and it makes me feel so weird, it makes me feel like I’m not my own person. She does everything that I do and I know hanging around me can influence her but I cant feel like my own person when she talks likes me, changes herself to do what I do. 

At least that’s how I see it, I’m just annoyed because it’s so hard to be myself when she’s around me. And I told her that and all and I’m still annoyed but I feel bad that I’m putting weight on her by feeling like this. I feel bad that I’m like this 

And during the holidays I’ve changed how I look to feel more like myself and shes also changing herself the same way and it caused me to split and send her paragraphs I feel so bad