my (20f) boyfriend (24m) and I have been together for 6 months and he’s very supportive and loving, there are no problems in our relationship that have to do with him. Myself on the other hand, I feel like i’m dragging him down because of my bpd. He constantly tells me that i’m an amazing girlfriend and I have a good heart but I just can’t see that. I start arguments all the time and make him mad/upset although i try so hard not to. it’s so hard. i feel like our whole relationship has consisted of me being angry. It makes me so upset because I want to be better for him. I haven’t been able to go to therapy because I haven’t had a job but have booked in my first appointment as i’ve finally got a job. But I worry it won’t help me. I’m so tired of arguing and then i go and do it again. I’m not even mad at him half the time and i take out my anger on him, and i cant communicate and i don’t know why, it’s like the words won’t come out of my mouth?