I made new friends this year and some of them are still sorta talking to me, but the two girls I really wanted to connect with aren’t interested. I tried twice in the last month to make plans with them and they both just stopped replying each time. I just found out they all hung out last week too and didn’t invite me…So… yeah. I’m done trying now. If they wanted to hang with me they would. 

I’m really sad because I was really hoping it would work out with them. I don’t know if I did something or not because I can’t pick out anything specific in my mind… well, maybe a couple little things, I guess… I’m ashamed of myself. Sometimes I say things that make people uncomfortable (on accident) because I don’t think. 

I guess I just have to try even harder to watch what I say because I’m still offending people in little ways or making them feel weird or I don’t know... I didn’t think it was that bad… I don’t know. I guess it was since they don’t want to hangout with me anymore. 

Relationships and friendships are the only thing that makes me happy. I’m so fucking sad. And we just had a death in the family I would do anything to just be able to hangout with my friends and not even talk about it, I would just love to not be alone in this time…