and I know it's supposed to get worse before it gets better, but I've had one trauma work session (just for putting together a timeline) and I'm feeling so overwhelmed by all the feelings and memories coming up that I've never dealt with and dont know how to deal with. 

I can't do anything. I can't work, I can barely eat, I keep having nightmares and flashbacks, and I'm feeling so, so bad lately. my next therapy session is tuesday and I feel like its gonna be entirely hijacked by all of this when I just want to be better already.