I (F22) have had a “FP” aka “favorite person” since I was in 5th grade. My life and emotions revolve around them. I’ve had a chance with all of my fp’s (except my celebrity FP, obviously). I’ve been without a fp only once that I can remember and it was filled with emptiness and psychosis (thought something was wrong with me, etc). 
Having a fp makes me unstable, crazy, delusional. I have to get rid of my current one. I continue to transfer this limerence to another romantic interest but become so obsessed they leave or I ghost them.

I am on a journey to find myself and make myself my fp. Can anyone give me any advice on how to get rid of this “fp” stuff or at least make myself my “fp”. Any comments would be excellent!