I'm starting to realize that when i'm not in a situation with drama/attention, I get especially bored and confused. I'm also living from home this semester.

Like, i've built a habit of calling people and complaining about my life but then doing the bare minimum to fix things and then blaming it on my mental health/trauma.

Once someone feels drained or done with talking about my emotions, I find someone else to dump my feelings onto. It feels productive but i's a terrible habit. I'm not actually getting anything done and it's taking away from things that I need to do.

I have a lot of things that I can complain about. No parents, lack of guidance from parents, confusing life path. And in my head, I'm always like, yes talking about it is necessary ah my life is so bad.