Does it get better or am I just going to stay like this forever? If so, I really don't want to live like this. I really try to stay a shore but they still come and get me and try to drown me. They make me doubt myself, my life and the world so much that it makes me want to leave it. I don't want to feel so afraid, so sad, so worried, so helpless, so hateful to me and to others. I don't want to be a burden to others. I want to accept myself and love myself.