I grew up without a father figure and ended up going through life on my own, making mistakes and dealing with problems in my own ways without much guidance. I ended up becoming isolated and had poor social skills so I never really had any friends. Throughout school, I was praised for being smart and getting good grades which made me feel good and valued. I spent all of my adolescent years being a straight-A student, all I cared about is getting the highest numbers in class instead of focusing on personal skills and socializing. I thought I was exceptional because everyone was saying how they are so proud of me and how i was doing the right thing, and because I was living in a bubble didn't know anything about the real world.

I live in a country with mandatory military service. Those who can't get out need to serve for 2 years, I will need to stay for 4 for reasons I wont say. If you play your cards right, you can end up doing a meaningful service that will open many connections in the real world, but I ended up stuck doing maintenance in a crappy unit. Turns out that nobody cares about your grades outside of school, and if you don't have any skills to show you are as good as worthless. This was a painful realization for me. Out of desperation I enlisted into community college and dropped out in the first year because it was absolutely terrible, but it made me learn a lot of things about the real world and higher education. I started asking myself questions about life and became even more depressed thinking that i did everything right and ended up worse than my school bully. I also began finding articles and interviews about people who did things differently and followed their own path and now they are ahead of the game while most people online hate their jobs and talk how the real world sucks.

I know that I'm still young and have my entire life to figure everything out, but is it really worth it? For years I beloved that if i will do what's needed success will just come to me but that's just not how real life works. I wasn't gifted enough to get a full ride in the top university or go to a spatial unit, like i thought, nor am i talented enough to do my own thing and succeed without college. There is nothing exceptional about me that would make me stand out in front of a thousand individuals, spatially in todays economy where unless your on top of your game your not going to get sh\*t. I feel like i have missed all of the speed boosts and amazing opportunities in life at such a young age its panful, i know i could have done better than this. 

Maybe its my ego from years of worthless praise but i don't want to end up going to college to do a pointless job for all my life and hating it like everyone else. Is there something that i can do to change my fate or should i accept living the rest of my life feeling like a wasted potential knowing that i could have done better. 

Thank you teachers, very nice!

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TLDR: Got good grades in school thinking i would be successful. Ended up ignoring my personal development all of the amazing opportunities school and adolescence had to offer. Now im heading into a sh\*thole for 4 years instead of living an exceptional life like i thought i would. Is there anything i can do to change my fate?