**Long post**

Some days/weeks are better/worse than others as far as my depression goes. This week I feel like I’m struggling more. Yesterday morning my boss got mad at me about something and it made me anxious pretty much my whole shift.

Today I just feel bleh. I haven’t been getting enough sleep lately. I don’t go to bed too late and usually fall asleep pretty quick but sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and just toss and turn until I have to get up for work. 

I work two jobs(63 hours a week) too and I’m just burnt out. I have some credit card debt that I need to get paid off so quitting one isn’t really an option right now if I wanna get my card paid off quicker and still be able to actually save a little money. 

I’m just mentally and physically exhausted. Normally today I work both jobs but at my part time job people apparently have been milking the clock and they had to cute some hours this week so they took off my shift for tonight.

Part of me was like bleh less money but now part of me is like okay cool an extra day to rest I guess. They’ve done this before though and then called me at the last second and said they actually needed me so I have that possibility in the back of my mind. 

Anyways, I’m just over it. I got myself in this hole last year from my alcohol addiction and not working part of the year. I’m just so mad at myself sometimes. 

I could just use some encouragement today or maybe someone to talk to. 

Also wondering -

How you guys power through when you’re feeling bad?

When you’re at work how do you get out of your head when there’s not much you can do to distract yourself?

How do you deal with lack of sleep? Is there anything you do that helps you stay asleep? I think I might have sleep maintenance insomnia and I think a lot of my sleep issues are related to anxiety.