I’ve had an anxiety for a a verrryyyy long time now. Literally as long as I can remember. That impending doom feeling, the I just can’t put my finger on it feeling, the everything but nothing and now I can’t breathe feeling…. 

But tonight….. tonight I figured out the root cause of it all. 

For me I have an innate fear of death I always have. I think about it often I worry about it even more. 

But that’s the thing. They go hand in hand for me. 

Tonight I realized my anxiety is so prevalent because i feel I haven’t accomplished enough and if I died in this moment I wouldn’t be happy about the life I lived. 

Tonight I also realized I need to rekindle the flame of inner self, confidence and esteem  a bit.