I’m aware this is long but please take the time out of your day any advice will help. 
*I don’t think this has anything to do with being a hypochondriac because I don’t think I have cancer when I get sick* I have anxiety and depression and I’ve always struggled with sickness coming with it. I think once when I was a small child I got sick and got really anxious it was going to come again. I thought about it so much it did come back and ever since that, whenever I’m anxious or think about getting sick I’ll have to throw up, I can’t eat, I feel nauseous and have terrible panick attacks that last days where I can’t even breathe without my mom helping me take deep breaths. THIS IS HOW I EXPLAIN THE CYCLE. 
1. Something triggers my anxiety
2. I thjnk about the past times I’ve gotten sick from anxiety
3. I start to panic
4. I get sick and then have to deal with being sick (stomach issues/nausea/weakness) AND the anxiety. 
The reason it so hard for me to get out of it because it’s not real sickness. I can’t take medicine for my stomach ache because I gave it to myself. I literally manifest it into existence lmao. If anyone wants me to expalin the situation I’m in right now I can but I just don’t know how to fix this because I can’t just tell myself “you aren’t actually sick” because my anxiety makes me sick. I know what my anxiety is capable of and I know that it’s so hard to get out of. I struggle in the morning because I wonder if it’s gone then I get anxious it’s not then I tell myself I need to throw up when really I probably woke up fine and was scared it wasn’t gone. The scariest thing is my thoughts are battling and it’s effecting my body in a repeating cycle that is seemingly impossible to escape.  *Please I need help on this. If my responses sound like  excuses they are not it’s just I have probably tried it before and I have nowhere else to go* I am going to my physiologist soon to change my anxiety medicine so hopefully that will help.