where do i even start..   


i recently got out of a 5 year relationship and we had a kid and she took full custody and moved on from us within the same month to be with another dude and he moved into our place. I was forced to move places in order to not be on the streets and to get a full time job just to breathe half the time. Everytime i blink..everytime i dream..everytime i breathe i just think of my 2 year old and the longer each second, each minute and each hour goes on the darker and larger the void in the pit of my soul gets and no matter what i do nothing helps. I can't even get up to go outside anymore outside of a few instances and its starting to affect my job now too as i find myself just too depressed and outright crying sometimes but I don't wanna die i just want to get relief. everything i use to do that brought joy is just dull to me. every day passes and i spend half my free time just going through my gallery looking at the one and only thing that ever brought me pride and joy and now ill never see my kid again, i try talking to people online just to suppress the feeling but theres always a point and time where nobody's there and im left alone with my thought's again. i..just dont know what to do anymore