So, anxiety is badly kicking in today and it's just getting worse. My flatmate got covid and has to isolate herself, I'm free of symptoms so far but wanna get tested within the next day. So I mostly stayed at home and did ... yeah not much, because I don't have university at the moment. It's too long to explain when I talked to my flatmate before she got tested positive, but there is still a chance I might get tested positive the next time. It's too stressing me out to wait and don't know what's going an. Staying at home for another week when getting tested positive stresses me out even more. We additionally just have cold water from the tap and in the shower and it seems all to be funny for my flatmate because she is joking so much (of course we just talk through closed doors). I mostly organize stuff for the apartment with the landlord so of course I have to talk to them tomorrow because of the water. I'm also reading a great book but it triggers my fear of emotional cold relationships and now I miss my boyfriend so much and im just stressed out. I know - objectively - that these are just minor inconveniences, because it could be worse, but I feel so lost and I just wanna lay in bed and not organize everything what's going on right know. Feels like everything is up on my shoulders waiting to get fixed but I'm just a lost human.