i have been extremely down even more these days and my mood is at an all time low this year. my thoughts are constantly keeping me up and i get some of the worse intrusive ones. i am left to cry and pity myself in this sad world that i’m living in. i hate that it’s like this bc my mental health just gets worse and i’m always fighting off these demons. i am truly fucked up and it’s scary how far gone the mind can be. some days i’m so insane and i want to rip my skin off and scream/punch things until i can’t anymore. i want it all to stop. can i have peace just for once? it doesn’t help that i am a piece of shit and i can’t take it back all of the horrible things i’ve done. i know it’s best for me to be alone so i don’t hurt anyone like i have to my bf. i deserve this