I’m at a complete loss right now so here I am. Maybe talking into the void will help me in some way, shape, or form. 

There’s so much going on in both my head and heart. My thoughts race, making it hard for me to focus. My days pass by in a blur. My emotions are so unbearable that my body feels impossibly heavy. There are few ways for me to cope. 

My life has not been easy up until this point. As a result, I trust no one and I am terrified of everyone. I have poor social skills as well. It’s very hard for me to talk to anyone about anything. Furthermore, it’s difficult for me to make/keep friends. 

I am utterly incapable of loving myself in any capacity. When I look in the mirror, all I see is a weak, unlovable, failure of a human being. 

I’m so fucking tired. Tired of pretending I’m okay all the time. Tired of fighting myself every day. Tired of contemplating suicide every day. 

I want to believe that things will get better eventually, but I just don’t know anymore.