I feel so much relief having found this subreddit and reading through so many posts. Knowing I'm not the only one and I'm not the craziest person in the world for the things I think and say and do. I have struggled with BPD since I was a teenager. I'm now 23 but self-diagnosed less than a year ago. I first heard about BPD when my father told me my mother was diagnosed when she was in her 20s. I decided to look it up and realized how similar the characteristics were to myself.

No psychiatrist was ever able to diagnose me with anything besides depression because I wouldn't fully open up to them at first. I didn't even know what was going on with me. They'd just throw me on meds that didn't do anything for me. I'm ready to find a good counselor to really open up to now that I'm able put a name to my thoughts and behavior and understand it better.

I know this was a bit of a ramble, my bad. But just knowing there are others out there that I can relate to makes me feel more positive about the future and not so alone. It's great to have this kind of a community on here that I can turn to if I need a support group.