I’ve lately got the “hole” feeling back in my stomach and how my chest feels a little more heavy than usual. It’s so familiar and it’s taking me back when I didn’t feel great about my life. It truly sucks when you do the things you’ve been told that should help, and it’s still there. I’m staring to feel the feeling where I just want to block all my friends because my mind is telling me to, that they’re the reason I feel this way and I need to protect myself. How isolation seems so tempting even though I know it will make me worse I want it more than ever. Even though I am avoiding being by myself and isolated it still isn’t going away. Sometimes I have to accept the fact that there are times like this.