Not sure if this post is suited for this subreddit but here we go.

Mental health summary: I'd been depressed/anxious starting in high school, and had attention/focus issues and other ADHD/autism spectrum type symptoms from childhood. Parents are against seeking professional help. Had an intense suicidal phase during quarantine last year and it got better as I learnt Stoicism/Buddhism/used CBT self help books but the attention span issues, executive dysfunction, etc. persisted.

I was prescribed Bupropion by my college psychiatrist (who I don't have to pay) and I started taking it in April, and everything got way better. We had to leave campus again at the start of May, and since I'm at home, there's no way I can get the pills as my parents don't approve and I didn't tell them that I've been taking them. 

I thought maybe I could cope but that hasn't really been happening. I don't feel depressed and I can manage my anxiety but my work ethic has become terrible and I don't have the discipline/motivation to do things. I think the bigger issue is I lack intention and I don't know how to change that. When I was talking to my psychiatrist and taking the pills, it was like a veil had been lifted and I could see if something needed to be done. 

I've kind of realized now that I don't feel that way anymore. Tasks and obligations kind of hover around in the background but I'm unable to recognize that I _need_ to do them and I'm worried for my career/academic future. 

Does anyone have any suggestions for what I can do to get back on track?