i spend so much of my time worrying about everything i say and do at work now. i feel like its consuming my whole life because im either at work or at home thinking about work most of the time. im so worried ill accidentally offend someone (i ramble a lot and get anxious about the fact im rambling and say stupid things without thinking) or do something bad and get fired and its making me so anxious and tense all the time. im already always a nervous wreck and constantly feel like a rubber band about to snap but having something to actively stress about on top of the worsening pandemic is killing me

the only advice ive gotten is to leave work at work but thats hard to do when my mind constantly drifts back to it. being so stressed and working these long shifts is giving me a flareup so im too sore to do much besides sit around most days, and then the fact that im not doing anything makes me even more anxious. then i worry about work since i get an uneasy feeling i actually work and forgot so i have to double check. lol.

i recently started a low dose of gabapentin so im hoping thatll help me finally relax even the tiniest bit. ive heard great things about it and i have really high hopes, i just wish it worked sooner. i dont know what to do between now and it taking effect though ugh