It’s my birthday on Friday and after a few shitty months I was looking forward to celebrating. Now it looks unlikely I will be doing anything :( I understand this is a pandemic and wish everyone to be safe but man, I’m gutted. I also finish uni this year and my graduation will most likely be cancelled. I can’t go home to see my parents for my birthday and it’s making me so upset. 

In other news, I feel like with my bf I love him so much but I always have to be right .. like even if it’s a conversation about general topic, I need to prove a point. Anyone else get this? Drives me mad. We will probably be spending lots of time together if we have to go into isolation and this is something that worries me. On the other hand, my BPD brain is kinda happy I won’t have to worry about him going to parties etc and getting that crazy anxiety.. I can’t be the only one haha. Hope everyone is well and stays safe in this frightening time. We can pull through ❤️