I need to vent because im feeling really irrational and i cant trust what my head is telling me right now. my boyfriend(20) and i (18) follow each other on twitter and sometimes we’ll use the dms there as our main source of communication cuz its easier since were both on there alot and can send each other memes and stuff. 

but its gotten to the point where he’ll literally either open my dm and not respond for hours but ill see him tweeting or he wont open my dm and ill see him tweeting. 

and its honestly really annoying to me because i feel like im getting ignored like am i not important enough for him to want to text me?? he’ll just tweet or ill see him log onto the ps4. I havent brought this up to him because i know he has adhd and his texting style has always been so fucking terrible but i wouldve thought that atleast now that were dating he would text me regularly. and its hard because we dont facetime or anything like that i mean i see him alot during the week but i genuinely just cant stand the feeling of being ignored at all this has been making me cut myself so much more and i just deactivated my account because i cant handle seeing him tweet while actively ignore me. 

i brought it up once and he said he doesnt notice he didnt reply or thought he did and i sympathize with him because i have adhd too but i dont do stuff like that but then again mental illness is different in everyone and now i feel fucking insane cuz i deleted all my social media besides reddit and i dont want to tell him hes the reason why i deleted everything because i cant handle knowing hes on his phone and not talking to me because i know that sounds fucking insane.  he doesnt know i have bpd and since im a quiet borderline internalizing all this is making me go so fucking mad at this point im just typing plz any advice would help