Well long story short, I'm a mess. I've spent the last 4 years in a depression, with constant angry flare ups and cortisol boosts at random times. I was put on strong mood stabilizers about 3 years ago, thankfully because I'd just taken a new job that I wanted to stay at and needed the stability. It worked, I was much less manic, but I was still angry and hated myself and wanted to die. For 3 years. I was afraid of going on antidepressants because I heard it makes mania worse, so I never talked about it with my doctor. And didn't want to increase my stabilizers because when I did before it turned me into a zombie with brain fog. I didn't want to lose my creativity. I need that to live. So today I broke down and told my doctor everything, and asked if maybe I can actually just try an SSRI, just to see what would happen. She listened, and agreed that more stabilizer would be bad, and started me on wellbutrin. I used to take it back when I was in high school and can't remember anything about it. She told me it has the least amount of side effects and can work with mood stabilizers. I hope that's true. I honestly hope maybe I can get some creativity back even....but for the most part I just don't want to have no motivation or hate myself anymore.

Has anyone tried wellbutrin and can share some insight?