Unless I *have* to do something, I can't seem to find the motivation to do anything.

This  started after staying home with COVID and getting some in inheritance  money so I don't have to worry about the bills. When I plan on doing  either fun things or stuff that'll move my life forward, i when up  canceling them.

I think it has to  do with staying with my narc parents for decades without any resolution  on what they did to me. Well, that and gangstalking (which I guess I'm  not allowed to talk about here). Anyway...

I feel like these are my two options:

1. Move out (at least I'll leave to get groceries and stuff like that)
2. Travel (I was forced to joy ride and I felt my brain waking up)

Any other ideas to break me out of this apathy?