Lately I feel like I'm losing control of my emotions and thoughts 

I'm not mania neither depressed, I don't know where am I 🙃 and this scares me

When I'm mania I know what I want  and what to do
In my depression episode I know what I don't wanna do
But know I have no idea about what I wanna do or not to do

I need to gain control again to be able to work and just live this life 

I'm exhausted of this life those swings 💔💔💔
I wanna end it