Hey, I'm 26F, and I've always felt out of place in every group that I've ever been a part of, ever since childhood, like I never belonged. 
I don't think I have even a single person who gives a rat's ass about me or my well being.
I suffer from panic attacks from time to time, especially during night time, and I don't know how to make them stop. I don't think I have anyone to talk to, regarding this. And, it scares the hell out of me everytime I face it. 
How do you guys deal with it? I have tried everything, from breathing exercises to grounding techniques. Nothing works! I feel like I've lost all hope and it's just heartbreaking at times. I haven't felt a feeling of warmth in a really really long time and I have no words on how to explain the feeling.
All I know is I'd never wish this feeling on anyone.