i’m 20 and live alone for uni. honestly it’s not ideal with covid because i am lonely but i really have space boundary issues and having a roommate is just anxiety inducing 

i have so much guilt for being alone, even tho sometimes i want to be alone. i want to use this time living alone to find myself, learn, keep up with my hobbies. but i just feel so much shame and guilt. like do i really deserve to be doing these things? i am a nobody 
i just can’t change that thought pattern, maybe it’s the depression. but i truly WANT to like use this to be productive but i just end up making myself feel bad for taking care of myself lol. 

i can’t have pets. i know that would save me lol