So I've been in a DBT-based intensive outpatient program for the past five weeks due to some BPD buffoonery that occurred near the end of last year. Up until now I've been making great strides impulse control and combating my self harm issues, but my discharge date is today and I can't differentiate between being abandoned by the group and completing the group and I feel like they're all going to leave me behind and none of them really ever cared about me in the first place and my brain is just yelling at me to cut or try to kill myself or do ANYTHING to get readmitted so that they can never leave me behind and it's making me feel like I never really learned anything from this group or else I wouldn't feel this way