This is kind of bother a Dae and a vent so apologies. 

I just happened to go to a party for a work buddy last night. Drank a bunch, had a great time with everyone there. My partner came to pick me up and I guess my mood just turned. It's something they've mentioned before about when I drink, and it's a big reason I've considered to stop drinking. I either become super depressed or just really grouchy.

I feel like my partner just had no interest in being around me after. I fell asleep and woke up just before 1 am and they were asleep on the couch. Seems pretty normal they fell asleep watching a movie. I turned it off and touched their shoulder gently to wake them and tell them to come to bed. I startled them pretty bad and they seemed pretty angry about it. So now I'm alone in bed and I feel like shit.