I am a college student in their early 20s and the presence or mention of alcohol makes me severely anxious. I have no traumatic family history with it outside of my immediate family being very religious and heavily against it. (I am not religious anymore) I have good friends who drink responsibly for the most part but one has almost died in various car accidents and poor drunken decisions. I have some friends who are drinking in a controlled and safe environment right now, which I have no problem personally with at all, but my anxiety has me so worried that something bad is going to happen. Personally when in the past when I have drank I found myself extremely depressed and the fact that I was unable to properly manage my own consciousness just had a terrible effect on my mental state. Even still, I can’t help but get sent into fight or flight when it’s around. My brain just imagines the worst.