So, im (26) not suicidal and don't have any suicidal ideation. I havent since I was like 18. I also don't self harm (cut, burn, etc) or abuse drugs or alcohol. My poisons generally are binge eating, not eating, and impulsive/reckless sex or sexual behaviors. As a result, sometimes i feel like i dont actually have BPD.  However, i have the retroactive jealousy, constant intrusive thoughts, reactivity, mood swings, extreme emotions, angry outbursts, intense Insecurity, abandonment issues, intense feels of boredom and emptiness, and identity issues but once again, not to the point where I'm altering my hair, getting body modification, etc that ive seen are common things.

I don't know.