I'm 20, studying architecture even though I wasn't passionate about it. I lost my interest in everything. Education, Books, Movies, nothing interests me anymore.. I don't even feel horny anymore.
Everyday I wish that this be my worst day of my life. But the next day gets even worse. 

I really don't know how to deal with this. 

I have frinds, But I look happy from outside and my friends don't know about my depression. 

Sometimes I just can't hold it anymore, I cry... 
It's been 1 year like this and I think it's getting worse day by day... 
But I don't know how I'm gonna survive like this...