I’m a college dropout( my parents aren’t aware yet) and entirely financially dependent on my dad who is also very domineering and toxic and very petty. I have little to no friends and I always feel like I’m unwanted and unwelcome anywhere I go, the only respite I find is sleeping when I ban escape into nothingness and Dee nothing. I don’t even know how to describe my feelings clearly. 
Just wanted to get this off my chest