17f (she/her)

I freaked out at my parents, my dad and I haven’t been talking lately. And my mom wanted us to make up because it was creating tension around the house and I freaked out. And started yelling and judging them and just being horrible and cruel and I don’t know what I just did. I made my mom feel so horrible, I didn’t do it on purpose I just reacted I wasn’t trying to react that way. And now it feels like I’m all alone again. My dad just wanted to talk it out and I just broke down. I ended up relapsing with Oxycodone and leaving home. I don’t want to go back, I don’t deserve to be there I hurt everybody I get close too. I just want to give up.