I feel that even after reading about my disorder, no one in my life truly understands the constant emotional turmoil I am in. 

I recently lost a lot of my friends. I recently was disowned by my dad. I lost my job, and my apartment, and I had to move to a small town with my boyfriend. I don't know anyone here. 

My boyfriend has basically turned into an emotional punching bag for me. I don't know how to control it, and after I am emotionally or verbally abusive, the guilt is so heavy. I don't recognize myself when I split, and I don't know how to stop. 

I just need support. I feel like he is going to leave me, and part of me thinks that is what's best because he doesn't deserve to be subjected to this. I just started therapy, but one hour per week isn't going to fix anything quick enough. 

If anyone on here would like to support me in exchange for my support as well, please reach out. I just want to be understood, or have someone to talk to/call when I'm in these low spots.