It's crazy because i don't know what or how i feel. I just don't yet i definitely know it isn't happiness, i feel like i have some disease in me. I can't function normally like I'm more forgetful, i will read a book and understand nothing, i can't pay attention as good anymore... I don't know whats happening in me. My thoughts and emotions are absolutely disgusting and I'm always so anxious, paranoid and scared, i have no idea what's happening within me.