Bought a new car, now freaked out about paying it even though I went through the budget literally 100s of times the last month. I just can't shake this feeling. I've suffered anxiety all my life, two years ago had some health issues and finally was starting to get back to somewhat normal and now I'm freaking out about this and cannot stop thinking about it. It's so fucking stupid. Which causes me to get more anxious because I'm still on my meds and yet I can still feel like this. It's scary, I had 3 decent months but now it's gone because i bought a stupid car that pushed my anxiety over the edge again.

I feel like I'm always on that edge and just one bad moment from losing it completely.