So, there was an ad I got a while ago from the VA which was pretty well made about suicide prevention, and while I'm not a veteran I still related to a lot of the things said albeit not directly. I click on the link and it sends me to an article from them about the topic. The thing that gets me about it is the ad was very "you" oriented. It was talking directly to me about things I can do for myself, but when you read the article it's like "here's how you can help the veteran in your life" and it just feels like it views me as incapable of helping myself

Then another thing that comes to mind about this,  I was able to leave the hospital on the condition that I go to their counseling thing in the morning. So I go and I talk with the lady and the only thing they have available is an online group therapy thing. I know for a fact that would be counterproductive for me and I tell her I don't want to do it, instead of asking me why or just accepting it she says in the most fakecaring voice possible "well I really think you should try it... It'd be very helpful" like lady you met me 15 minutes ago you don't know anything about me

I just feel like I'm viewed like a little puppy who needs a caregiver to keep me alive 24/7 instead of an actual human being with my own thoughts and wants and reasons. I don't want to keep getting dragged through a system by people who only see me as a liability and it's just frustrating because no one listens or cares