I'll wake up and the instant second I wake up the thing that is bothering me is what I think about. It's really annoying lol. As much as I try to keep the thoughts at bay it never stops. I have daydreams to help me cope with a particular thing I worry about even though it also just keeps my anxiety and makes me think about it more. One of those things are fears  I have about childbirth lol. Although that's not the full point of why I made this post. Sometimes I wish I could time travel so I could do it and get it over with so I won't have anxiety about it anymore. I don't live in the moment for so many things because I want the future to come or I want to avoid the future. I ruminate non-stop about things too. I could and do sit on my phone and look up every symptom, every problem, or my brain will just bother me untill I look it up. I constantly want to look for reassurance too. Literally the moment I wake I will start doing or thinking of these things. No rest just pain. I have way more struggles than this though but I'll keep it short and keep it to myself. 

Does anyone else relate?