I hate myself so much I see no point in qanting to get vetter as unofrtunately I will still be me after that. I hate myself so much.
I am destrying my life day after day I am more isolated and my mental state is more deteriorated than ever. I just stay in bed and rumiate.

The obly thing that drived me out of bed is my job that produxes so much anxiety its impossible for me not to do it. Howevee I am planning to quit as well

I am i theraphy however I do bot feel motivation in the tasks she gives me to do: going out, exercising, writing down things that are positive everyday. It just makes 0 sense to me. There is no way out this terrible sickness