My SO knows that I have BPD and he always reassures me he mentioned once that when I am in my depressive mood he kind of feel tired after he tries to cheer me up. I told him it's not his responsibility to. Knowing him that he would go the extra mile to cheer me up, I stopped telling him every down moments and even splitting and I never show him, cause now I think I'm manipulating him whenever I tell him I feel down or I am splitting. Do you think it'll take a toll on me or on our relationship? Has anyone ever successfully go on for long period of time not telling your SO but been really successful with it? or should I tell him the truth again whenever he checks up on me. I just broke down earlier and splitting so hard I am considering of breaking up cause I feel like he's going to abandon me sometime soon. I just want to have a normal mindset. I don't want to go back to my toxic ways again.