I honestly give 180% to people in my life as often as possible. I make mistakes, but I try so hard to be a good person and worthy of affection. Yet I can truly say that in all my relationships I've been abused or used in some capacity and I'm 99% sure no one has ever actually loved me. My own family and friends abandon me when I need them most. I don't even know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. I just feel so tired of everyone hating me, including myself.

After everything I've been through, I feel like damaged goods. My body, heart, and mind have been mutilated by myself or others. I'm quickly losing hope anything will change or anyone will give a shit about me. Fml