Lately I seem to be headed towards an episode of psychosis and my negative symptoms have gotten so bad. I have been struggling to find motivation for anything from hobbies to even going to work. I've been struggling to take care of myself whether it's hygiene or feeding myself, I'm thankful to have family to rely on to help push me to take care of myself but it's embarrassing to have to lean on others for basic things like that. My mind has been incredibly blank and it feels like I'm running on autopilot. Socializing is difficult because at times I can't find the motivation to speak, and at times when I try to speak it's like I can't find the words I want to say and I stumble on them. I take vyvanse for ADHD, and it seems to help a bit, but when it wears off it all comes back worse. I've been essentially crawling through work and lying in bed struggling with insomnia until I go back to work. I've given up the idea of a hobby right now, everything just feels blank and like a chore. I've had moments where it all seems to go away, but then it all comes flooding back and I feel like a shell again. Does anyone know of anything that helps, or have any suggestions to push through? I have a psych appointment on the 20th, but I'm deathly afraid this will become my new life.