I don’t know how to control them. It’s never okay to hit someone else. When I feel really neglected and hurt I will boil up in anger and sometimes kick my boyfriend or push him which is not okay. He’s 6’4 I’m 5’3.

Especially when I’m alone and I’m agonising over the phone to my boyfriend and I’m crying non stop and I feel like he’s not helping me or being loving I can’t deal with it and I start hitting myself or cutting. I haven’t cut in months by last night I had a really bad episode... I cut and head my head so hard it’s bruised my face. Don’t know how to control myself especially in those times when I don’t want to 