I'm struggling to learn how to value my needs like how I value those around me. When I'm alone I feel completely useless and I think things that I know I don't really feel. I have plenty of things that I need to be doing for myself, but I don't. It's like my brain is always working against me and I have to constantly distract myself to avoid this haze-like feeling. I've been working insane hours lately, which only leaves time in the day for work and proper sleep. Except I'm only sleeping 2 hours a day and I've barely eaten in a week. I know it's not sustainable, and I have no reason to be doing any of it. If you asked anybody in my life if I was depressed they would say no, I'm a pretty happy guy.   I kind of wonder when everything will fall apart