Something traumatic happened to me as a child of only 12. it’s ruined the concept of Christmas every since. Spending time with family is not at all a sense of happiness others feel. I have a bf but lately he’s gotten on my nerves and spending Christmas with his family would be just as bad. I wish I didn’t have to celebrate this dumb holiday. Never get what I want anyways(no one except my friends seem to know what I like) my brain is probably gonna turn off for a few days. Everything sucks.