I just graduated High school and will be going to Canada for uni (international student). I’ve applied for my permit but because of the pandemic I haven’t been able to give my biometrics, the VAC here is closed and I had to schedule it by phone. I couldn’t bring myself to do so and asked my dad for help, he refused as I had to do things myself. I ended up having a complete breakdown to the point where I thought I was dying and screaming on my bathroom floor (I think I successfully hid this from my fam). It’s the first time I’ve experienced something like this... and I’m scared. Ever since I’ve been in a horrible mood, I won’t let myself sleep (nightmares) and headaches and emotional state are getting worse bc of it.

I am currently seeing a therapist but can’t bring myself to mention this to her bc it’s pathetic having a complete mental breakdown over a phone call.

I just wanted to write this down somewhere. There really isn’t a point to this post and I’m sorry for waisting your time.