finally diagnosed but hell, after almost harming someone physically for life (in my defense they triggered me on purpose multiple times,) and taken to therapy , i came to realize, public therapy SUCKS.

the psychiatrist and psychologist who worked with me were working at the welfare services of the country and lord were they horrible .not only did they ask very weird questions given my age (16 then), after 3 months they literally said

We dont wanna see you again ,not needed but you have bpd and ocd. But we cant name it bpd because you are too young so, lets just call it emotional immaturity and go on


Bruh