 I'm a 16 year old female working a full time minimum wage job, I really enjoy it although it's hard labour. I was officially diagnosed with BPD just after my 16th birthday although it had been speculated long before. This is my first job, and it's been going great and I have no plans on leaving, but I have this void or emptiness, or a fear, I'm not really sure what to call it, that I can't do this forever, I know in my heart I'm able to do it, but my past experiences just tell me I'll get tired of it and quit like I did with different extracurricular activities over the years. I feel perhaps it could be shock, more of an 'oh my god this is my life now' moment. Has anybody else experienced this? This is really a place I'd like to stay, has anybody got any advice to give that I may keep in mind in order not to fuck this great opportunity up? 
 If this helps, I work in a warehouse, physical labour.