So, spouse is facing a cancer diagnosis and I'm kinda losing it tonight. The cancer is fast growing and getting worse this week. He refuses to discuss it (denial). We still have several days before the biopsy is back. I'm feeling really BPD extreme. I want to just randomly destroy stuff to somehow make the chaos stop. Does that make sense to anyone? I love my spouse. I may bitch and moan at times, but he's my FP and I'm really worried. I haven't touched a thing, but I really wish I could just go crazy for a few minutes. Guys, I love my husband and don't know what to do to fix this.

Editing: I managed to keep it together somehow (for now) and went to sleep. Still feeling stressed, but no longer in  a tornado type of mood.