I feel like I shit when I do this because

1. I'm ONLY doing because I NEED to feel that somebody wants me is really shallow but sometimes I need that someone sees me and like me even though superficial to know that I really exist that I can attract others
2. I ghost everybody in the end even though I usually put in the bio that I'm bad at talking and blah blah blah in the end I ghost and that's really fuck up i know that is horrible because I know and I still do I'm not ready for a relationship but I still download wait for a match try to creates a better version of myself and sometimes I genuinely like the person but in the end I'm not ready and I delete the app and the circle continues 

I hate that I always end up doing this because I feel terrible I know the reason that I download is for validation AND I make other person feel bad I really need to stop being an asshole (I just download tinder again)