Just awake at 1a, dark room, piano music from phone. And I just miss so many people. So many people I wish I could freeze time with. So many people I fucked up with just cause I was scared or stupid. So many people I can't call anymore if shit was really bad, when the thoughts get really bad. Even if they blocked my number or told me to never call them again, even if they hate me now. I miss them so much.

And I wish I didn't have to remember them.