does anyone else experience this? 

my sister gave me a book called the 52 lists project and she wants us to do it together. the first list asks for "your goals and dreams for this year." i don't know why questions like this are so difficult for me. it gives me so much anxiety and i beat myself up for getting so upset over something so inoccuous. i genuinely don't know what i want to be doing in a year. i don't know what i want. i don't know what my goals are. i am so scared of change and so scared of making decisions. 

any time i'm asked what i want to do, or even my opinion on something, i panic. is this what they refer to as an unstable sense of self? 