I went from high to deeply depressed in a matter of days. I started lithium 11 days ago and i thought it was working. But my cycle got even more eratic and now i’m on the bottom of a depression state. 2 weeks ago I got evaluated by crisis. But because they had a covid case they couldn’t admit me. 10 days go by I check into Western Psych in Pittsburgh. We’d keep you, but there are no beds, anywhere. So they released me with an IOP appointment next week. I went home and have festered and stewed. Idk wtf i’m supposed to do to get help. My anger is explosive and even i’m scared of what will happen when i finally come unglued. I quit my job today too. It started this. Safer to be not there than to be there. I worked in a meat department with bone saws, knifes and cleavers. You don’t want me there. I’m pretty much hopeless now. Matter of time before i attempt again. I just want to be pain free. Is that too much to ask for???? fml.