So a little back story, I've battled Anxiety and intrusive thoughts along with mania and depression and PTSD for well over 25 years. After a horrible relationship I found the man I have been looking for my whole life. A kind, genuine, caring, loving strong man. We have been through so much in our 6 years together with his health (alot for our age) and just recently got more bad news. He is having a battery of tests for scarring on his lungs. He not being into the medical field and more of a contractor type dont see how this is significant to his health. They are also checking for pulmonary hypertension which also doesn't have a good outcome.  I havent talked to him about what either of this things mean if the testing comes back as pulmonary fibrosis or the latter. I have cried so many tears in private, so many anxiety attacks that even my meds don't help. Ill be so lost and hurt to watch the man I love slip away, at 40. When we have so many plans together. 

I guess I just needed this off my chest and maybe some advice on how to keep my anxiety more controlled so its easier on me and I dont stress him out. Thats the last thing he needs with his heart condition.