I don’t really know why but I feel the need to sicken myself. I want to end up in a such bad situation that I have to go to the hospital. I started loosing weight, not because I want to be “attractive” but because I want to be so thin that I can’t function. I don’t drink water so I am dehydrated and often have headaches. I often think about taking pills but not enough to die of it, just enough to be in danger. I don’t know if it’s a “normal” thing when you have depression and I don’t want to talk about it to my therapist, so if someone feel the same please tell me!