I have really bad anxiety that likes to turn into depression and I don’t handle it well. I promised myself a long time ago that I wouldn’t start drinking because I was scared of getting myself addicted.

Had a really had panic attack today and I ran to my parent’s alcohol. A couple shots later and I feel so much better but I’m so disappointed in myself. Like how can I get better if I can’t even keep a promise? I already have a history of binge drinking so I’m terrified I’m gonna start doing that again.