I feel like I shouldn't be on this state and that I may just want some attention, I don't know what to do, I have anxiety and panic attacks, but I feel like it's all on my head, I feel fiscal pain but maybe it's on my head too? Maybe it's just an excuse to miss school days, I tried killing my self sometimes, but now I don't know it was just for attention too, I would do that if no one had stopped me...I don't know...