i never liked school. it was always one of the main factors that messed with my mental health. i started uni in 2018 but i dropped out last year because it just wasn’t fun/doable anymore. i actually felt like i learned stuff in the first two semesters but it was also so stressful like during the third semester especially i remember staying up forever and barely sleeping so i could get my finals done and when the fourth semester started and i saw all the work i’d have to do i just quit. now i don’t know what to do.. 
i never wanted to study or do anything because work is exhausting. i’ve had two jobs and i’m still on my second one for two years now and it’s retail but i do usually between 12-20 hours so it’s fine and like manageable but i’ve also called in sick when i just needed a mental health day off a lot of times. i genuinely can’t find anything like a career that i’d wanna do. the thought of starting over in uni is terrifying. i don’t want to spend three or four years doing that again and there isn’t even anything i wanna do.

to get to my question: people here who have a degree or a full time (ish) job, what is it? and how did you come to find it? 

work always seems exhausting and i get like moments where i think i can do it but those never last long and my parents are really wanting me to study or get an education to have a proper job that i can live off of. but i just have no motivation or idea. i love art and that’s what i did in my first uni but even that didn’t work out so now i’m just lost. 

i turn 22 this year and i know i still have time but i have friends who have their bachelors and starting their master programs and work proper jobs and i’m just here Lost. 

my parents worked a lot and have built a very good life for themselves and they are very supportive but i’ve kept all my mental struggles hidden from them (i don’t know why) and like i don’t expect to get some high paying job or anything but just Something i can do because even though retail right now is okay i cannot see myself doing that for 40+ years. but i can’t see myself doing anything for that long . :( idk this is a messy post i just wanna hear some success stories and input i guess.

thanks for reading