It doesnt matter what i do, what i say, what about myself i change, its never enough. 
Im sick of always being wrong, of not doing enough. Im trying every single day but im still wrong.
I know my fiancè will see this and will think its aimed at her,.so ill probably be back to make another post, but i just wanna be right, i wanna be enough.

She thought something i said yesterday was aimed at her even though it wasnt, and just now she was asking why i dont bother with her or spend time with her, because i look at reddit posts or play xbox with my dad and one or two mates to distract myself from the shit hole that is my life.
And shes annoyed im posting on reddit because she says i dont even ask her or do anything with her. Everyday is so hard and it just gets harder.
Im so close to giving up on life