I’m 28y/o and am having a pretty hard time coming to terms that I just got diagnosed with BPD and it sucks but explains so much. Legit am such a kind person with wicked mood swings who isn’t bipolar just adhd af, infj, and emotions that drive me to be constantly overwhelmed. I just experienced a BPD psychosis due to an extremely stressful event where I could not sleep for like 4 days cause of abandonment feels worse than I’ve ever felt…I was sober, panic meds didn’t help…even though taking adderall is what you should do during extreme panic my doc said, i just could not take my ADHD meds cause I just wanted to sleep so bad and worried I wouldn’t be able to sleep even more. After the psychosis that lasted like 5 hours and was triggered by a weird lucid sleep deprived half hour nap dream feeling and severe panic attack once I half woke up…realized I spent five hours thinking a skewed reality but wide awake and couldn’t believe what just happened. I finally like came to extremely confused like wtf just happened I know I’m tired but why did it happen legit like holy shit that was so scary. Then that night, still sleep deprived (cause I slept like 30 min) I started hearing voices. You know how scary it was to hear, “look in the window” like a week after you have a creepy dream of a creeper looking at you through a window while wide awake and questioning did I just hear voices and then it got louder ?! Then that voice turned into like 15. Then I saw people sitting in the chairs in my room and I was like yeah nopeeeee. Then they started whispering dude. The more I tried to ignore it the worse it got. It was like how I would describe what your conscience would sound like. It started to freak me out so bad cause that legit has never happened before :( I was sleep deprived af and my bf rushed me to the ER, found out I was like extremely low in blood sugar, and got told to take a Benadryl and legit go eat (lack of sleep made me lack an appetite) and I passed out for 10 hours. For something actually very serious I felt so stupid. That was two months ago and as soon as I got sleep I never heard the voices again. Is this normal? Has anyone had something similar? Whenever my normal insomnia kicks in now it’s like ptsd