I’m just learning about BPD and I read that unlike Bipolar Disorder, bpd is a personality disorder. I hate that term. I feel like everything I’m struggling with is my fault or there’s just something wrong with who I am. I lash out at my friends sometimes because I feel like they don’t care about me and I don’t know how to express it. And even if I do express it I don’t want to annoy them with all my insecurities. I just feel so guilty. I’ve probably hurt them so many times and they’d just be better off without me.