i don’t care about my school work right now. i don’t care about anything, everything feels too difficult and too tedious. every single thing. yet, there are some things i force myself to do (like participate in group assignments) and it is always the lowest possible effort. like my brain just kinda refuses to work on these tasks. I start my part time job in a week and I’m scared because I’ve been unemployed for two years now (while school went online). i’m scared my depression is going to get even worse. i already don’t see the point in doing anything. i’m just trying to stay afloat and let my future self not absolutely hate me. i hate that i have to do these tedious things just to have a life that i don’t even like.