I had a severe bipolar episode last year from around September into the end of January. I own my own business so this episode resulted in purchasing things I didn't need multiple things I didn't need, and just ab unch of things I don't need. I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't eating and I was very reckless... It's not that I "Don't understand Finances" I just wasn't thinking about it. I was riding that high feeling giving money to my friends, buying too many gifts for people, and not even noticing I purchased multiple things when I didn't mean to. 

So, now, I feel like I am starting over with my business. That being said, I don't have enough money to pay taxes. It's not like I don't want to pay, but I also don't want to be in debt AGAIN because of something like this. I literally just got out of credit card debt... and I only got lucky because my great uncle passed away around that time and I got some money from him. I just paid off the rest of the debt with that.. 

It's just really frustrating.. because it's not like I am trying to avoid paying taxes. I paid last year just fine... 

Idk can anyone help me? Does anyone have advice? My taxes are estimated at $10k.

I'm anxious all the time about it... and I just need this "my own business" to work... I know what I need to do.. and I am taking CBT and DBT as well as medicine... (they obviously upped my dosage and now I am doing okay)

I just feel like I'm always drowning... I have the money and then I don't, I feel great and then I don't.. and I know it's never-ending... I already feel guilty enough about all the things I did when I was in an  episode and I just need help..