i often feel very misunderstood and not in control of my emotions and thoughts and i wish my boyfriend understood what that’s like. i obviously don’t want to use bpd as an excuse for my actions but i literally wasn’t born with the ability to do things that come naturally to a lot of people so i have to work really hard at it. i just want a little compassion and patience. i don’t feel like he knows how exhausting it is to try to constantly be self aware and self correcting. or that most of the time i have trouble differentiating between reality and things i’ve made up in my head. or the extreme guilt i feel. i feel like such a burden is his life right now because he says he has to walk on eggshells so i don’t get upset. 

has anyone had any luck with a partner and getting them to understand what it’s like so they don’t think you’re being a shitty person for no reason? i really am trying to get better and i’ve been doing my dbt daily.