I’m so tired of pretending everything is okay trying to keep up with life, separating work and how I feel but I can barely take it anymore. It’s so draining. I can hardly breathe I don’t know why I keep feeling like it’ll get better if I work harder or as I get older it’ll phase out and I’ll learn to deal with it but honestly its utterly hopeless I’m hopeless. I think I’m done this time I said I wasn’t gonna actually do it but I can’t justify not doing it anymore it’s only a matter of time. I don’t need help I just need it all to end.