I have a dentist appointment on Thursday but I’ve been thinking about it non stop for the past few weeks and all it does it make me sick and set my heart racing. 

I’m on the way to fixing my anxiety, I’ve started with a counsellor but my anxiety is so horrendous at the moment that I can barely go anywhere populated. Taking the dog out is fine, going by myself to the shops for food is fine if I’m quick. But the waiting in the queue (which will be a literal standing queue because of covid I’d have to line up outside unlike a normal waiting room) really stresses me out and makes me feel like I’m going to pass out. The sitting with my mouth open basically I’m not allowed to move and I’m completely out of control - just the thought of this is setting my skin on fire. 

All of my symptoms seem uncontrollable:

Feeling like I’m going to pass out
Feeling like I’m going to shit myself
Feeling sick
Dissociating 

I can’t calm myself down once it goes past a certain point and I just don’t think I can do this appointment.

Is it going to sort of delay my recovery if I cancel or is that self care because it’s not urgent and I can wait until covid has calmed down more for the UK.