When i fuck up (still happens sometimes even though im doing quite well in general), everyone is against me, hates me and im the one forced to leave. And i get it, it's fair and it has made me thing about my actions and take control over them. But i was out with friends yesterday and one of them (not a close one, more like friend of a friend) was being really rude to me, insulting my looks out of nowhere twice. And surprise surprise, noone came to my defense, everyone was defending him becouse "he's just like that, he didn't mean it". Just great. In the end, iwas the one forced to leave even though i did absolutely nothing wrong. I work hard on myself to be as good company as possible, to fit the norms... But it's all for nothing. When im wrong, im wrong. When im right, im basically wrong again. I cant help feeling like this whole world is against me. Somehow it was still my fault for ruining the night. Im not going anywhere anymore, this is a rigged game and im just destined to be the bad guy.