I had a whole list planned today-- and instead of doing the work I was supposed to, I'm stuck here. My list has not worked, as I still have several things to cross off and can't do.

For example, I was supposed to mow the lawn but now its near raining, and I can't focus on studying. I dont understand anything I'm learning. I just feel so tired doing this routine-- I'll have REASONABLE goals to accomplish, and still can't even do those. 

Does anyone have any way to fix this? I feel like im so reliant on my family, and sooner or later they are going to start yelling at me to get off my ass and do something about my failures, when ive been trying to do that for a year now. 

The thing that irks me the most is that these are reasonable goals! these are things I should be able to accomplish. But for some reason something always gets in the way, or I'm too dumb to do it. my body is unhappy, considering my bones crack every time I move, which does not help with my feeling of being in pain and gross. I'm just so sick of this, I feel like i haven't done anything today.

Any advice? I need more motivation to do the things I hate; its just so hard.