Not sure what im looking for here, maybe just a sanity check. Pretty sure I run people off by being overly open and honest about myself. Like overexplaining all the time and I think being to quick to talk about myself. I struggle with small talk and Its easier to bring up things in my life to talk about so I fall into that more readily. Like I want the other person to talk more but when I get short responses that don't carry much detail I feel like I have to put more effort in to keeping a conversation going. Like asking someone I'm interested in how their day is going and getting a basic answer like, "its good" leaves me in a place where I feel like in order for there not to be awkward silence I need to keep talking, so unprompted I'll start talking a bit about things in my day with more detail.

 I'm introverted in crowds but more one on one when there is a someone I'm wanting to get to know I open up. I get not everyone has the same need for connection, but it always makes me so worried that I'm talking the other person's ear off or bombarding them with texts to often.  

Background ~ am 32 divorced. and am craving intimatey and I show it strongly. I share easilly about myself, Kinda a self preservation reaction i think. Sorta like, hey lets share history/trauma and connect over that. I'm well aware that sounds like moving to fast. But part of me is like I want a connection with someone who understands my spot in life. I am tired of bad communication about these things. To me shareing those things makes me feel more connected to a person and I want to hear about their struggles as well. 

Anyway, I feel like I dont get the same kind of interest back and I can never tell if I've essentially started to scare them off by shareing to quickly and wanting to talk to them to frequently. (&lt;- one cause of my depression, hard for me to pick up social cues so without clear communication I'm just stuck in my head coming up with scenarios where ive become annoying to the other person.)