So I don't have bpd diagnosed yet but I'm like working on it. I had to switch therapists and it's going good so far but it's only been a month or two. I feel like if I don't have it, I won't know what to do. I like kind of self diagnosed (I know it's bad I'm sorry) I've just never identified with anything more in my life.  There's no way that I don't have it but I find myself scared that I won't end up having it. My therapist basically told me that they don't really diagnose teenagers (I'm 16) with bpd because of like hormones and stuff but like what am I going to do if I don't have it? I won't have any explanations for anything anymore. I'll be lost and confused as to what is wrong with me again. I can't not have it. It explains so much about myself. I feel like I've gotten attached to the idea of having BPD because it's comforting to me. It's an explanation as to why and how I am the way that I am. I've taken so many tests, talked to so many people that have it diagnosed, etc. I can't not have it. And if I don't, I dont even know what I'm going to do with myself.