I’m pretty new to this, at 24 years old I just barely found out this is what I’ve struggled with all my life. I just thought I was weird and kind of an asshole. Now that there’s a name and behavior pattern to be aware of I’m working on it with my therapist. I’m struggling though because I feel like I don’t have an FP, I used to and he was like my brother for 5 years never judged anything I had to say, then the day before I married my wife he never answered my text and never spoke to me again, not even a goodbye. That was 2 years ago and I haven’t had an FP since, it’s been so hard, how do I find one? I love my wife but I just prefer not to tell all of my horrible thoughts to her in case she leaves me when she finds out how shitty my head is.