I could probably easily make a wall of text over my frustration regarding this, but I'll keep it kinda concise I guess. I just find myself filled with anxiety daily because everywhere I look I see my friends and FB acquaintances out to eat, at bars, at parties, going on road trips, doing shit for Halloween (many of them not wearing masks)... and honestly ot just boggles me completely. Like how are they all able to just go on as of 230,000 citizens aren't dead from this already? How are they able to do all these things without a worry as if we aren't at the start of a new wave of transmission?

At first I felt like they were all being irresponsible and weren't strong enough to just make the necessarily sacrifices like the rest of us (and fucking stay isolated and distanced until we get a handle on this), but now I wonder if I'm just the one in the wrong. Like I'm just lame and overly cautious and letting this pandemic destroy my mental health even further.

Sorry I'm just really anxious and pissed and frustrated and confused.