I was really feeling good, happy, productive.  I'd finally found a medication combo that helped.  And then my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me and I have to move out of his house.  

I was so excited to experience a winter with happiness! And now I'm scared this'll be the worst one, yet.  I can't stop crying unless I've smoked some weed, but I don't want to be high all the time.

I'm so angry that he did this! I fell like he ripped this experience away from me!