There are a number of things. The one currently triggering the hell out of me is that I believe my most recent roommates who kicked me out stole a part out of my coffee grinder. We both work at specialty coffee shops and his job, in fact, was machine maintenance so I know he knows the inner workings of parts and knows what can fuck someone up. I pulled apart my grinder just now, which we all used at the house before I left, and I see that the gasket is missing.
Am I literally going insane or would someone do something like this? I feel like everybody who doesn’t like me does things like this just to give me a bad experience in life.
Now I just gave up and my morning is ruined and I don’t have the patience to try to troubleshoot because I’m hurt and offending, because in my mind this is intentional.
I try to rationalize it in my mind that I think people are like this because deep down, I think about ways of fucking over people who hurt me. But I haven’t, they’re just thoughts.

Idk, is everyone out to hurt me even more? Even after abandoning me and destroying my self worth??