friend and i were having few beers yesterday and after a while an aquaintance of ours showed up and he invited her over. soon her friend we dont know joined. it was cool. i was already tipsy. my friend had to go soon, but i stayed to finish my beer, and girl said shell make me company. it was cllosing time, so i soon drank it and we all got up to go. on the way out i said bye, but the girl i know was talking to someone else and didnt  pay attention, but other girl i just met hugged me.  
on my way home i was so disturbed and embarrased bc i felt like they didnt want to keep me company and i was burden and went offt he rails with destructive thoughts.   


i always trusted my instincts. when i felt a bit unwanted i would just go away forever, but lately i think my instincts are not correct hahah  
(im not in any kind of therapy atm, tho i put myself on waiting lists)