TW: Sexual Assault 

My moods have always been erratic and unpredictable, ranging from incredible highs to devastating lows multiple times a day. I am not on any medication that helps with mood regulation/stabilisation, nor am I undergoing therapy at this point in time (I was discharged from all services late September). On November 1st, I was r*ped. For 2 months afterwards, I could not function normally. I am now back at school and studying and seeing my friends, and I even have a boyfriend who is being very gentle and patient with me, especially during any flashbacks or panic attacks. 

However, my moods have gone completely out the window. Any hope of mood regulation has been abandoned, and I am going from despair to ‘mania’ to rage to dissociation and then back to despair from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep. I went to a SA crisis clinic, and spoke to my GP a few days after the SA clinic referred me to get support from the community. These appointments (apart from at the clinic which honestly saved my life) left me feeling considerably worse, as I was met with judgement and no empathy at all. 

I am dealing with this all alone, and it is currently my exam period, and I am completely overwhelmed. I just want advice, or a friendly ‘it’s okay’ :(