     I try to stay away from heavy drug use, because I know it could become addictive to me.  

     I've tried weed, coke, shrooms, molly, e, prescription drugs like klonopin, xans, percs..

    A guy even tried to get me hooked on meth with a lace blunt.  But I'm not addicted to meth (when I was a kid...doctors in search of more money gave me a diagnosis of Adhd....which now that I'm older... could be from the bpd. They gave me adderall.  And I hated the way my creative side would die...the robotic feelings. So I feel like even as an adult....stimulants, coke, meth, don't really call to me). 

   But percs, klonopin, oxy... I tried a few times and stayed away because I know I would chase that feeling.     

   Weed has become a regular routine for me.  To the point, I can't have sex without getting blazed.  

    It's what leads me to believe and scares me, with my all consuming emotions, what would I do to feel happy.  

    I already dealt with bouts of pure hypersexuality in the past....I know drugs could be the same.

  Do any of you get scared around drugs?