Something finally clicked in my head that my partner loves me unconditionally and I don’t need to attach myself to him, I can let him go because he will literally always be there by my side. 

And I cried for a bit. It’s such a secure but also freeing feeling. I try really hard to be self aware so that I can create healthy coping methods and I just wanna say how nice it’s been allowing myself to be vulnerable with someone; I’ve been holding everything in for so long. I don’t need someone to love me but idk I just feel very happy, lucky, and proud of myself!!! I never thought it was possible to feel this way honestly. Thx for reading! Have a nice day