TW: trauma and abuse, hospital stay

This week was my 7th wedding anniversary. The best memories, with the best person I've ever met. But also this week is 3 trauma anniversaries: 1 year ago was my last encounter with serious narcissistic abuse from a family member. 3 years ago I was in the mental ward. And 13.5 years ago my ex choked me so hard my eyes bugged out. As well as, I am no longer close to anyone who I had in our wedding, and it hurts a lot. But one just sorta drifted away, and the other turned out to have been toxic the whole friendship. 


I wasn't dealing well with any of it basically Saturday-Tuesday. My anxiety was so high, I was ranting a lot, experiencing flashbacks and crying jags. My sensory overload and fight/flight have been in full swing.

My husband is so amazing and understanding. He has helped me every step of the way this week, no matter how I have been feeling. He made me go out a couple times for rides in the car, out to shop a little. We got ice cream and pizza. He drove me all over, just talking and riding around. I feel a lot less shitty than I did over the weekend. I feel like we got over the hump together. I feel like I can go on with the covid restrictions, for now.


I want you to know that if you are going through trauma or dealing with the aftermath still, life can get better. 


Thanks for reading.