I have to get my wisdom teeth pulled in 2 weeks and I'm terrified to be put under anesthesia. (I was supposed to get them out last year but I had a panic attack at the surgeon's office. That’s how much I don’t want to do this) I wish they could just numb my mouth and take them out. My wisdom teeth aren't even impacted or anything, my parents just want me to get them out early. Unfortunately, my oral surgeon says I don't have a choice and have to go under.

I am scared of not waking up or having a reaction to it, but I know that's so unlikely. I just hate the idea of drugs messing with my mental state and clouding my judgement. I'm really scared about waking up and saying some really stupid shit to the doctor, nurses, or my parents. I'm so scared that all my intrusive thoughts will take over and I'll act on them.  I hate the idea of not being in control of my mind and body. Trying to research online to feel better leads to a lot of worst-case scenario stories of permanent damage from the surgery or anesthesia that are making me so anxious.