(F/18) Ok so, I met this girl earlier this year and I don't really know her that well but I can tell she has some personal things going on too. Anyways it seems like I MIGHT be her FP but im too nervous to ask her about her family issues and stuff because I don't want it to turn into a situation where I have to talk about my stuff too because I've talked about it so much and I don't feel like I have the energy to go into detail of my issues anymore. Also, I don't want her to get the wrong idea of me because I've really started getting better and she doesn't *know* about how I used to be and I put on this front of having it all together. Being confined to my home has been hard and causing me to get worse and my depression is heightened right now. I've just started pushing everyone away. Then I actively push away people who I (deep down) know care about me because I don't actually know how to act when people give their 100%. I'm so used to getting 30%. She gives 100% (texts and checks up on me, follows up on plans and finds ideas for us to do as soon as we can hang out again) and this time its me giving 30%. How do I explain  this to her especially since she doesn't know about what all I'm diagnosed with and IDK if my borderline is really an excuse for being a bad friend? What if she doesnt think I'm a bad friend and by telling her all this she gets weirded out? Help :(