I woke up positive this morning said I would get ready and take my boyfriend to work then go a walk and do the shopping. I came home to get ready after dropping him off and unexpectedly the door bell went a few times and I wasn’t expecting anyone so I hid for a few moments to try and get my breathing and shaking under control. I couldn’t answer the door so I started crawling around and uncontrollably started cleaning my entire house after an hour of this I went out to my car and drove to my local grocery shop and just sat up the back of the car park hidden for a few hours trying to talk myself into getting dinner for me and my boyfriend for tonight I ended up driving home cleaning again and now just sitting on the kitchen floor typing this disappointed and wondering how I’m going to return to work if a door bell sets me into panic mode