I’m either binge eating or starving myself, and currently I am in the starving myself phase. Every time I eat I feel guilt, I feel ugly and giant and disgusting... even if I’m only eating like 400 calories a day (which I’ve been doing). I’m weighing everything I put into my mouth, and for the first time ever I actually seriously considered purging to neutralize the guilt I felt from eating. I also don’t want to tell my therapist about it, either. I hate myself. 