I’ve struggled with anxiety my whole life, however a couple months ago it started to become intolerable. 

It began when I got put on antibiotics. I took them one day and it felt like the pill was stuck in my throat. Turns out it was because about 30 mins later I coughed and it shot out of my mouth. After that day, I began to have the sensation every time I ate or swallowed a pill, that it was stuck in my throat. It’s turned into a fear of eating, and whenever I do get myself to eat I obsessively chew and have to force myself to swallow it.

Now it has turned into becoming hyper aware of swallowing, breathing, heart rate, etc. 

I feel insane. No one seems to understand these irrational fears I’ve developed. Eating, which I’ve always loved to do, has become scary. And I can’t seem to get over it after three months.

I also have become so focused on my breathing, that it’s hard to breathe. I feel like I’m not getting enough oxygen and I start to panic, on top of constantly feeling like someone has their hand around my throat. I feel like I have to control my breathing or else I will stop breathing completely. And obviously the more I think about it, the worst it gets. But I can’t stop thinking about it. 

I’ve been in a constant state of panic pretty much for the last few months and I don’t know how to get over these fears and get back to feeling normal. I cry almost every day because this is consuming my life. 

I guess I just want to know if anyone else has experienced any of this so I know I’m not alone. And if you have, how did you get over it? I’m desperate for some answers. I google everything and can never find anyone that feels the way I do, which makes me freak out more and makes me feel alone. 

Any advice is very greatly appreciated!