All because of comparing myself to someone more successful and productive than I am. I have BPD/MDD/PTSD and it’s so hard for me to keep on top of things. I don’t know how I got through college. It feels like it took all of my energy, and even that took years longer than it should have because I changed my major so much and struggled. I haven’t updated my art page in over a year now and I feel so bad about myself for it. When my ex left me, it took me almost a year to be able to do the dishes (I know that’s disgusting), so I just threw out every dish I would get dirty. Even though I was able to drink, spend, and do other “firefighter” coping mechanisms (what my therapist calls them), I couldn’t do something simple like that and I still struggle with self care. Then I think of how just basic things are so hard, yet I’m going to have need to start working, and balance that with making art, and keeping up with myself and chores. How am I supposed to do all this?? I’m drowning lmao.