I've newly become active on Reddit, to learn more about people's experiences of BPD and hence learn more about myself and feel less alone.

I looked into other subreddits outside of the BPD community out of curiosity, and somehow managed to get myself tangled up in an extremely toxic argument.

Right from the get go he/she attacked me. I ended up continuously responding out of a need to defend myself because each of his/her allegations were so outrageous and complete misinterpretions of my message. The crazy thing is that no matter how much I clarified and placated, he/she would just come at me with another outrageous angle.

It made me feel so utterly horrible and I don't know why but I kept checking if he/she had responded. I think I just really needed us to end up on good terms, but it just kept causing pain. Or maybe it was masochistic? I couldn't walk away.

I've now closed the discussion and wished him/her well, and even to that he/she had a venemous response! 

But I'm not going to respond. I'm breaking the cycle.

I feel relatively okay about it now because I'm happy with the way I handled the whole thing, but in the midst of it I felt horrendous and I wondered if even Reddit would be too much for me to handle. 

Do you usually stick to the r/bpd subreddit? Or have you ventured beyond? 