How do you find any meaning or worth to you life? I went through a really bad breakup and amongst the reasons she left me and told me I wasn't woeth trying for, was my lack of ambition and passions. The only thing I've ever been passionate about is sleeping and hoping I'm going to die. I have no reason to exist. I'm not close to my family and a I only have a few friends. Honestly, I just want to die and get it over with already. I don't want to live to be struggling and poor everyday. Why bother? I just turned 30, I'm broke, depressed and going nowhere, I'm never going to be financially stable to ever have a family or even another human how cares about my existence. I just feel broken and don't understand what meaning in life is.