I’ve had therapy, meds, mindful thinking but I still don’t trust people to tell them the truth on how I really feel. Am I a pawn in a huge chess game where I will be lost first or just fit into the rest of the boring crowd. How do I know my therapist won’t talk, how do I speak to friends without them judging me, why don’t I have any nerve anymore. I’m losing all passion for everything. Ive been alive for too long. Yes I want to feel good again but cannot make that change alone. Another breakup with a sweet girl, my parents divorce, my friends around me dying out of no where. Why do I feel like this. All I want to do is help. Help the people around me giving them my batteries when deep down I’m out of charge. We shall see what happens…