Hi all,

It (all?) Started in the 5th grade as I chose a different direction to study (maths-sciences) which in fact did not interest or trigger me. It was mainly because my dad told me 'it could be interesting and it's not that difficult'. I didn't really question it to myself, I don't know why. I felt rather quickly the study content was too difficult and I wasn't able to organize myself or take action. Started sleeping bad, not eating anymore etc... 

I feel that I'm not really feeling. I feel I'm in a state of nihilism which scares me. I had an accident in 2012 and afterwards I did not feel 'happy' that I survived and got my degree, I think I did not process it (no memories about it). 

How to break the vicious circle of:
- not knowing what interest me
- not feeling the energy to do something that COULD improve the situation

Looking forward to your replies 🙂