I think i'm a failure because i can't reach my goals and i feel terrible when i see others close to me accomplishing things and it only makes me feel worse. I see myself often wanting others to fail because their success would remind me of how a piece of shit i am. The conclusion i reach is that i'm a bad person, a fucking envious loser. And i hate the fact that i feel that way, but i can't stop it. Anybody feels the same?