I managed to snap myself out of a really bad spell, I was planning on ending my life but something "fell through" and I couldn't in the manner I wanted to. 

The last month I've been eating healthier (I've always eaten healthy but I've stepped it up) 
trying to look pretty again (as opposed to looking homeless when I was depressed) and I've generally been more "up". 


But I've lost every bit of patience I had for my mother, I'm so irritable, I can't just sit back and shut up, even though I was depressed I had gotten so good at letting things go. 
This is what ruined my relationships, I'm depressed, irritable, depressed, irritable. 

I'm just tired of being a pathetic person in more ways than one, I  haven't even had alcohol or sugar in a month. Why does this happen when I'm finally happy after a year if grieving and hell. 

Anyone else feel this way? 


OK rant over 


**please can anyone advise me on how to be more patient and less irritatable**
