Do I have to isolate myself as I work on myself. I keep hurting people and driving them away (albeit a lot of them were also bad to me). Ive legitimately traumatized people and dont even remember it but found out it was 100% true what I said or did.

I know Im a piece of shit but I just want to get better.

I cant find enjoyment or purpose on my own. Everything other than building and maintaining relationships and friendships feels useless. Im unable to work, or go to school so I cant find purpose in those.

I dont want to be alone but I feel like I have to in order to avoid hurting people and driving them away.

Im gonna be single regardless because I need to work on my relationship addiction but idk if I can go without friends.

everyone already views me as mentally unstable, people even clock me as that as soon as we meet. I just dont know what to do.