In theory I should have no reason to be depressed. I have a loving family, friends and I am tall, attractive and have built a muscular body. However, for years I have been dragging depressive thoughts because I am not sure where I am going in my life or for imagining the black future that is coming (I live in a country that is increasingly moving towards the thirdworldism)

And then I met this girl two months ago and not only did I love her physically but we were pure soulmates. You can't imagine the bond we create. Thanks to her I had reasons to live and fight again because previously I was increasingly tired and depressed. Only two weeks ago she became my girlfriend but suddenly one day she stopped talking to me and when I asked for an explanation she just said that she was tired but she also refused to meet me every time I asked her. 

Guys, the pain I feel is too much to keep going in life. I need serious help. If in the next days I can't fix things with her or something I think I just want to sleep forever. No reason at all to continue. I know I can get another hundred girls if I want but I will not be able to forget her, and that will curse me for the rest of my life