Hi.  I am (19) F and I am suffering from BPD.  I have been in 2 relationships.  1 where i was with him for 3 years and he left bc he couldnt handle my bpd.  This one where I was with him for 5 months and he became abusive and cold bc he couldnt handle my bpd and didnt want anything to do with me anymore.  All online/long distance.

I've accepted my fate that I will never be in a relationship again cause no one will ever deal with my bpd.  I've struggled with the idea of being alone forever but I have to accept it.  I don't even have friends.  I am a very beautiful girl but I completely isolate myself and just stay inside playing games and watching anime.  I'll never be able to have kids nor I will ever be able to make love to my special someone.

How do I cope with this?