Hi guys! I just got my first entry level job and beyond excited. I started earlier this week. I still feel like I don't feel qualified even though I got the job. It is a dream though. People are nice. There's a robust training program. I'm also happy to finally have health insurance so that in the future I can finally see a doctor to see if I officially have ADHD (or even in conjunction, anxiety or depression.) 

Either way, I feel like I'm set to fail or mess up.

We have a training program. Some live on Zoom, but most on videos we watch on our own time. We have a time set for once a week where we have a discussion and summarize what we learn. Thing is, it's hard for me to focus. I feel like I'm behind. Many times a 20 minute video feels like an hour and 30 because I'm constantly taking notes or rewinding/replaying. Material feels hard. I get distracted. It's frustrating that it feels like I'm learning at a pace where my brain is on dial-up internet speed. It's frustrating. I'm grateful that I'm with a good company. But I feel like I'm not good enough and that I'll mess up.

I don't know what to do. I honestly want to quit, scream, or cry. But I know I gotta be strong.