Sooo last year I got out of a really horrible relationship but it was the first relationship in which I actually felt like I loved the person. Afterwards I decided to "rebound" with this guy who's just the sweetest person. I wanted to get to know him because I wanted to know what it was like to be treated right for once and that's all he did. He was so sweet and kind and amazing. But I couldn't get myself to feel the level of love I felt for the other guy for this one. And why? But anyway I thought that those feelings would grow with times so after a couple of months we started dating and now is been 4 months and we've said I love you and all of that and I'm starting to think I never really loved him in the first place. Here's the thing though he's so so so suicidal and every time I've even mentioned breaking up with him he says something that hints he's going to kill him self if I do. I'm scared to break up with him because one, he's my best friend and I don't want to lose him and two because I don't know what I'd do if I did lose him. My life would be so fucking lonely. I'd have no one. But god, I can't go on pretending. Help...please. I know this is a mess...