hello… 

my therapist gave me some homework, a behaviour skill diary and a chain analysis worksheet. 
I am completely underwater with trying to figure out how to complete these. I’ve already missed a week of tracking so she’s not going to be happy and i’m breaking down every time i open the document and attempt to make sense of what’s going on. 

I understand the chain analysis, i guess… but she wants me to have at least 3 filled out by next week… and i haven’t experienced anything that i could analyze. I feel so lost and i feel like i’m failing. 

the bigger issue is with the behaviour skill diary. 

first off: the list of target behaviours on the sheet are completely unqualified (like isolation, how can I track an amount of isolation?), inapplicable (like reckless driving), or not actively part of my life at this point (like impulsive sex, drug use or abuse, and self harm). I brought up these concerns when she gave this homework and she told me to email her if i had questions… it feels pointless to email her, i already asked my questions and her responce was to email her regarding the concerns. Why couldn’t she have taken the time im alloted to explain what she expects? 

i feel like i either can’t mesure the target behaviour i experience at this time (isolation), while I can mesure something i don’t experience (as a 0), it feels totally pointless. 

the second part is all about skills, of which i know and have been given information on none of them, so in addition to theoretical tracking of 0s on non experienced target behaviours, i would also be tracking 0s of unknown coping skills: seems valuable… 

i’ve been trying to research anything i could call as a target behaviour so i at least can track something and have a document to prove i’m trying.