Being sick has never bothered me my entire life. I've never taken antibiotics for a cold or even seen a doctor except to get my kindergarten shots. It was just a fact of life that once or twice a year I'd have a stuffed up nose and feel shitty for a week, and then I wouldn't.

Then in August I got covid. It was mild but it's been so hyped up in the media that I was sure I might die of it. 
Ever since then the idea of being sick strikes fear into my bones. I caught some bug going around last week and had a fever for 3 days and was left absolutely catatonic with anxiety. I haven't touched a door knob in months, and I'm stand-offish with my family for fear I might get something from them.

The mental torture I'm putting myself through is too much.