recently it’s felt as if there’s a veil that’s been lifted from my sight. or like i’ve woken up after being gone for years. i’ve remembered all these parts of me that were gone. i can feel the way i used to over 6 years ago. it’s like i’m aware. i don’t know how to explain it. things i like are coming back. it’s like i’m seeing myself for the first time in years. i don’t know what’s happening. it’s a rollercoaster, and i still get sad but i can feel again. i don’t know how else to describe this. i don’t know what’s happening.