I'm 26, and I've failed in nearly all aspects of my life. I've been trying to change things that I could. I quit alcohol and drugs, lost weight, built muscle, etc. I read for as long as I remember. I've tried everything in the self-improvement domain. But I guess they are all bullshit for people who have crippling depression, anxiety, and ADHD. People say work on yourself, focus on yourself bla bla bla. Or say did you read Marcus Aurelius, Sun Tzu etc. I read all of them when you are playing Minecraft dumbass. Or they say have you tried Therapy? Yes, I did they didn't work, and I can't afford it anymore because I am broke. Or even worse some assholes come and say get back to Islam, find peace. Really dude? Fuck off illiterate, morally corrupt, camel piss drinker. Try to read a different thing than Quran and learn something, will you? And there is another issue, I am alone for years. I can't find anyone, not in real life not in apps. I have always ghosted. How can I live if I am not able to meet my basic needs? Work on your confidence, try to socialize, and work on your look... I did everything. I almost cured my social anxiety to some extent. I work out regularly and try to dress well. I'm a 5'11 decent looking guy. I am not picky either. I don't know what people want from me. Also, I failed in college. I dropped out two times( Computer science, Mechanical Eng.) Currently studying literature, and I am failing again. I was a smart guy, but my brain is not working anymore. Also, I worked in different jobs but constantly got fired. I am currently unemployed in a fucked up country. Even though my family has a stable income, I feel like I am a burden. That is another failure... 

  I am done with this world. I hate being alive. All the forces of the universe are working against me. Clearly, I have to die. I have been disqualified by mother nature. I hate this world we live in. I need to get out of it.