There are some people, actually "my friends" ( they are only people i opened up to, talked about my disorders) who mischievously are making me feel bad, want me depressed, intentionally making me anxious even if they know my curret state of mind which is at this point really fucked up mostly because of them. I know they are toxic and I need to get away from them, but whenever someone of them makes something good once in a while, makes me feel better and other similar things in a good way I constantly like forget all bad things they ever did to me. At the end i start to believe, trust and love them agin...
I know im an idiot and I know how to solve this problem, but at same time i don't want to lose them, really dont know why. Just wanted to get this off chast, sorry for taking your time to read about stranger problems, love you all!