I feel like my emotions and thoughts are stuck in a cycle. I'll be in bed for days on end, isolate myself, not turn up to school, therapy or work and live in mess.

 But then become motivated and tell myself I'm not going back to that and will tidy/do work/apply for jobs/book a new appointment/talk to people, only to have the feeling of depression come back again and just tell myself to end it because I always end up back at this point. I'll turn up to no job interviews, cancel appointments ect. 

It's so frustrating and annoying, I don't know how to cope with it!