What would you recommend someone in my situation?

Just wanted to talk to someone about what’s going on for me so I can work out what to do. I have been diagnosed as Bipolar II disorder and have been depressed for months now and it feels like it’s going to end. I packed up all my medications- antidepressant, antipsychotic, mood stabiliser- yesterday in my backpack and was working up the courage to walk out the door and take them somewhere where I couldn’t be found, when my flatmate turned up with her boyfriend and interrupted me. I broke down and she opened my bag and found the meds, called my dad and I was forced to come back to their place, which is my childhood home, and I don’t like being here because of all the painful memories. I woke up this morning and told my manager I couldn’t work today. Have spent the whole day in tears, totally inconsolable. Almost walked out the house with all my meds again until my parents stopped me. I just want the pain to end. I know my family are talking about getting me hospitalised, but that is traumatic in itself. I want to go back to my flat and try and push on but I just feel like I’m white knuckling it through life and I don’t want to do it anymore. Please help with any advice and thoughts.