I'm a 22 year old woman. I've been anxious for a while now and I did my weight using these bio impedance scales but found out they could measure fat too and one of the readings was 3 wavy lines to represent blood in the veins. They said 57% of my mass was blood so I got angry and smashed them now they don't work and say ''error'' everytime they try and give out a BI reading. In a fit of anger and panic I smashed them for making me have a panic attack that I have blood cancer (only 10% of the body mass should be blood not 57%) This was last night and I feel satisfied that the ''threat'' is now gone and I can't access it anymore so it can't make me feel afraid and upset.

My mental health has not been good this month. Already been in hospital due to mental health concerns (I ran out of Valium yesterday) and the bio scale was the tipping point and it was now I decided to just smash them as ''revenge'' for pushing me over the edge by making me assume I have cancer.

I am booking a cancer marker bloodwork Monday, but the results probably won't be for another week so I can't determine if those readings were real or the scales were broken to begin with. The body fat reading fluctuated a bit but seemed OK, it was the blood reading that was ridiculously higher than it should be.

My mother has blood cancer my grandma died of cancer in 2013 my friend died of diabetes just months before that so cancer is a MAJOR fear in my life and my mental health has been downhill ever since.

I posted thison Reddit TO GET SUPPORT so I wouldn't be of much of an anxious wreck, but got name-called and insulted which caused me to break more stuff (I just smashed my laptop mouse against a cupboard because I felt like smashing my screen. It's currently in pieces near the side of my bed). I am NOT well right now and I need support, not insults. I have access to a mental health crisis line, but it is not available on weekends.

I just shot a pic of the broken mouse -

https://imgur.com/a/aj9njXp#5DHvsUu

(currently having to use my dodgy laptop touchpad)

Now I'm scared I'll break more stuff because I feel like harming myself again as well. I'm on Mirtazapine 30 mg (dose recently adjusted) but I am out of the sedating medications like diazapine and zopiclone, and without those my mental breakdowns can get extreme. I do NOT want to be in the ER again. I want support. you can PM me or reply here I don't care which. I just need a caring person to talk to right now.