About two months ago after I initially blew up online, I had quite a bit of spending money so I decided I wanted to buy a 'pc' so I could finally play games (The Sims 4 specifically) so I wound up spending $1k on a desktop and monitor together. Everything was working fine, but now nothing fucking loads and it fucking crashes everything because it's too much to run. Even with the money I had, i didn't have enough for a big colorful like every other gamer does so I settled for the bare minimum which is now not enough and it's basically fucking useless. I can't even plug in a mic and talk to my friends on discord or anything.it doesn't read anything and it's fucking stupid. I hate everything. I hate my life. Nothing is ever fucking fair. I never get anything for my fucking self. I tried to make the best of it and for fucking what? Nothing ever ends up going right for me and it's not fair. As I'm typing this, my boyfriend brought to my attention that I missed my doctor's appointment. THIS IS MY FIRST DOCTOR APPOINTMENT SINCE IVE MOVED AWAY, I was supposed to get my medication and everything refilled. I called and the next availability it's until October 6 and I can't fucking wait. I hate it I HATE IT I HATE EVERYTHING. HOW COULD I BE SO FUCKING STUPID TO MISS THE ONE APPOINTMENT I NEEDED AND THE ONLY APPOINTMENT I BEEN LOOKIGN FORWARD TOO. QUETIAPINE HAS BEEN THE ONLY ONE TO HELP AND MY DUMBASS MISSED MY OPPORTUNITY.