Last week was pretty bad for me. I got in a fight with my family which ended up in me going on a pretty bad drug binge. Worse than normal. Ive been off my meds for years. I'm just trying to hold it together until I see my new doctor on the 26th. 

In order to keep my job and extension my home, I've been staying home and watching TV. I also keep up with my chores. Most of my friends understand this. But my newer friends can't seem to grasp it no matter how I explain it. Recovering this time around has been way more difficult than any episode I've had previously. Does anyone have advice on explaining this? I try my best but I guess I appear high enough functioning to where me explaining just doesn't land for them. It's a sad ugly existence. I can't help that solitude is the only thing that keeps it together for me. My biggest fear is ending up jobless and homeless.