I deactivated my fb and ig. I feel like I want to disappear.  I don't want to be seen. I feel dysphoric and I just don't want to be around anyone anymore. 

I want to be isolated but then I am lonely when I am isolated. My depression and anxiety makes me a hypocrite. It makes me hate everyone and also makes me miss everyone and also makes me nervous around everyone so much so that I avoid people more and more. 

I just wanna disappear but I guess disappearing off fb and ig is close enough.