So I have had a few discussions with people recently since all this kicked off, about how it’s affecting me mentally.
When it all kicked off, I was weirdly calm. It’s as if there is only so much anxiety etc in the world and I use so much of it everyday it’s finally everyone else’s turn to feel it. As if by “normal” people feeling so anxious, it makes me feel like I finally have a “proper” reason to be anxious about something because a “normal” person is feeling it so it must be real. As opposed to my usual ridiculous daily anxiety where I’m on my own. Suddenly I am validated in my anxiety and stress levels.
And so it sort of cancelled it out and I went calm.

Then I started a panic about money as I’m self employed etc and that lasted for like a week while I was on Facebook constantly.

The last week and a half I’ve realised I’ve started to relax just the tiniest bit for the first time in years. I don’t know if it’s the sudden lack of pressure to be anywhere or do anything in particular (work or social) or that people are “needing” me less for work or events etc.
I’ve started gradually being able to put my phone down and watch a movie with my partner without working at the same time or making lists etc to distract myself. (I am a terrible single Tasker, I don’t do it anymore so I’m trying to work on it while I can)
I over all feel less lonely, less pressured, less anxious, less stressed, and I feel like the pressure to do something amazing with the one life I have has been lifted because I literally have had my choices cut down to menial ones (to watch a movie or not, to go for a walk or not, to bake a cake or not etc). 
It’s as if I maybe just need less choice in my life so I stop putting pressure on myself!

I don’t know. I’m waffling.
But I feel weird as fuck!!!