Whenever my fp has plans with her friends and doesnt reply to my texts and stuff I always feel like I’ve been punched in the stomach and I’m gonna explode. But guess what? It didnt happen this time! Actually it did happen but on a much smaller scale. The feelings of betrayal and abandonment are still there but I’m able to continue with my life which wasnt always possible for me. Earlier I used to break down completely and stay in bed all day. 
I dont know what happened because I’m not in therapy rn and havent made any real efforts but I’m gonna take this as a small win for me :)