I have been dealing with depression for a long time now. I have good days which can last weeks and then I would feel like the whole world is crashing in. I had a great up bring and honestly I'm not sure why I'm like this and I hate it.

I have a great job and I worked my ass off to get where I am and I should be happy but I'm not. I just feel lonely. I never really had friends growing up and to this day I don't. My only friend was my dad and since he passed away last year I have nobody. I do have my mom and sister but they have their own life with their own friends. My dad was my main support thru my depression always making sure I go to therapy and taking my medication and was there when I needed someone to talk to. I want to talk to my sister but I also don't want to be a burden on her. I know she struggles sometimes too with our dad and I just don't want to be the one that brings her down.  

Honestly, I'm not really sure what I am looking for maybe somebody to talk to or maybe for a point in life or maybe a place to rant when I am having a bad day.