So basically I always feel sick, like I have a mild head cold 24/7 but some days it straight up makes me feel sick. Like pressure in my eyes, dizziness, etc. I have terrible anxiety so I’m always incredibly stressed. I’m guessing that’s what causes it. Anyways my sister was going to hire me to babysit regularity for her and I got through yesterday fine until the last few hours, I started to get that feeling kinda like if you are legitimately sick with the flu, that terrible feeling in your head. I woke up and it was ten times worse. So I told her I couldn’t come this morning and now my entire family is making me feel guilty about being sick. This happens with any form of employment I get. I can’t even move out because of it. (I’m 21.) I’ve tried countless medications, countless therapy. Nothing. I like producing music and selling it to artists but that’s all I can really do steadily but my family hates that too cause it doesn’t make much money. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so terrified of death.