I don't have anyone that I could tell this to, so I'll write it here. Over a year I have depression. It might sound weird when I'm 16, cuz lot of people think that it's just a "part of puberty" or something like that, but ik it's not like that. I thought that it was a small thing that will go away after some time. A few last weeks were the worst of my life. I don't have energy for anything. I used to play games but now I don't enjoy them, I don't enjoy anything. I don't even have energy to go off my bed. I started skipping school and stopped learning on exams, bcs I didn't have any motivation or reason to do it. Now I dropped from high school. Idk what to do now. I don't have anything or anyone. I don't have friends, interests and I feel like I don't even have parents. They care only about my younger brother. Last week I told them what's going on. they said that they get it and thay will try to help me. a week later it's the same thing. tommorow my class have some vacation to some cool universe museum kinda thing. i love universe so i really wanted to go here. my dad just said "no, yk why". I don't know, like what did i do wrong? I don't have any reason to be still alive. I'm just 16 and I feel like that is kinda young age to kms, but I'm not able to take it anymore. today i set the last day to 17.8.22. I'm still scared to do it, and idk how I'll do it, but it's the only option how to get away from all this fucking shit in my life. i just dont know what to do. I love my family my grandparents, mom, dad my brother everyone, but they hate me and it's just really hard to take it. Hope everyone will be happy after I'll be gone.