Sometimes whenever I have calm day, it makes me feel like I’m faking everything. What if I’m doing this for sympathy? What I’m just making myself feel sad for whatever reason? I mean, I’m the only one generating these thoughts. I’m not the only one who continues to cycle and recycle these thoughts in my head. I just feel like I have to feel bad everyday. Sometimes, I even make myself feel bad because I’m feeling so good (which I guess explains this whole thing). I just hope I’m not doing this for fun.