There is no winning. 

Men. 

Whether they're good or bad, they always end in pain. 

You either find a narc, or a socio, to torment you forever. 

Or you find a normal guy, and push him away until he hurts you as well. 

Relationships. What a stupid idea. Have any of you ever been single? 

Single can't hurt you. Single can't cheat on you or hate you. You can't push single away, single can always come back. 

Single doesn't worry you, or stay out all night. Single doesn't break your will to live. 

Single doesn't remind you that your fat. Or ugly. Or useless. No matter how many times you leave it, ignorantly, for blinders and false hope, single will always love you. 

Being alone is only scary when you're waiting for someone to come home. When you're worried they'll never come home. 

Being alone, and single. That's peace. 

I'm not crazy. I'm broken. I'm not heartless. I'm hurt. And yet the moment I step into a relationship, I'm a monster. 

I never want to be that monster again. I never want to let my fears control my life. 
Or let them Control someone else's life. 

Sometimes I think, if I were pretty, I might be worth it to someone. Good enough. Finally. And maybe I am. But ill never know. And I'm okay with that. 

