my husband is away on an unplanned luxury holiday having the time of his life and I'm not coping. The fact that he doesn't miss me for a second and barely stays in touch dpesn't help. 
he's also been mildly lying. Like saying he's going to bed and then actually going out until morning. maybe its bad. but i don't know now I'm just in agony.

Any advice for dealing with this kind of situation? I'm open to not being self destructive, I truly don't want to be in this 24/7 hell. Deep inside I want him to have funm but the fear that he doesn't give a shit about me drowns it. It's not a logical issue, I get it, but I just don't *get* it emotionally. I feel abandoned. I have access to dbt stuff. im running out of weed. I don't know how to care less about him. I'm not sure if I could ever feel whole on my own. How do you start doing that?

