I do the same shit everyday and I feel the same shit everyday with no change and I can’t remember a time when it was different. There was a time when I was “better” but that was just because my problems weren’t as prevalent. I tried to kill myself a week ago and the worlds felt fake since I did that. I don’t have anything to my name any accomplishments nothing to take pride in I’d be surprised if I make it past high school. I have someone who cares about and loves me but ive never felt more alone in my entire life. I don’t know what to do anymore this worlds filled with so much hatred and apathy and nobody gives a fuck about anyone else what the point in trying to live in it?  Just so I can have my own slice of shit and pretend everything’s ok like everyone else while the planet dies? The only thing that helps is cutting myself it brings peace and calm 

I think I’ll be dead soon