my life has gone to hell it all started in 2019 my dad passed away then in 2020 my grandfather passed away then in 2021 my grandma passed away and now this year my step sister who was 16 committed suicide at this point in my life I feel nothing anymore I haven't been able to cry for 4 years I used to have four really good friends but I haven't talked to them in quite some time I don't feel like doing nothing anymore I haven't left my house in 2 years I stopped believing in God I used to enjoy life now that I have lost so much I could care less about  life I started going to a therapist at the first of the year  but stop going cuz it didn't help so now I just been every day in my room blaring music