I don't know ..at this point I keep telling myself that I just don't care.. But my eyes and heart can't cover the way I feel.. I do care..and my heart hurts..I'm hurt that they treat me like this. I'm hurt that I'm no one's important friend. I'm hurt that I make no difference to them if I'm there or not.. I keep telling myself that I'll try to be a better person and they'll love me.. That someday I'll also have a group of friends who appreciate me for just being there with them.. I wonder if that's ever gonna happen. I wonder if there are people out there suffering like me!