I wish I could take someone who wants to live and is genuinely happy's cancer away from them. I'm not saying I want to die that way, but I think I deserve to suffer because I've failed at life and nobody would even care if I died. Why cant we choose whether we live or die? What's the point of forcing people with severe mental illnesses to commit suicide rather than just letting them die peacefully, on their own terms. Sometimes things dont get better. I dont want to live like this for the rest of my life, wishing every day that I'm in an accident or have an aneurysm or get diagnosed with a terminal illness because I want to die but i cant bring myself to put my mum through my suicide.