I'm stuck trying to create the internal separation from my family. And to set firm boundaries. I can see how controlled my life for so many years and how I desperately sought their love and approval. It's never going to come from them. And now I'm learning how to receive that both from others and myself. There's just so much of pain, loneliness, depression and hurt and I'm stuck in it. I am steadily improving yet it's really tough to manage.