Cw: suicide 

I was meeting a friend and I told her I have BPD (so that ignorant people can leave immediately) she then began to tell me how her last friend had BPD and she was "so toxic". Then tried to tell me she can't handle another person like that. 

I know ppl with BPD can be a lot so I wanted to hear why she thought this way. She told me more about this ex friend and I realized that the BPD friend really wasn't even in the wrong. She just wanted someone's help. She was crying out for help, she was depressed and couldn't take being alive. She was alone, had nobody and reached out to this girl sitting in front of me. This Pw/oBPD said she just couldn't handle talks about unalive so she told the girl to stop talking to her but she continued to beg her for someone to talk to. I completely broke down in front of this girl. 

THIS WAS THE REASON SHE WAS SO TOXIC?!?!
How is that toxic? how is she an evil person? She was desperate and yeah you asked her not to talk about unalive but I mean she didn't have anyone?!?  She was on the edge. I mean I've been there and I couldn't fathom what would have happened to me if my best friends did that to me. I would definitely not be here. 

I've attempted and have always had unalive thoughts but I would listen to that girl and be there for her. I would support that girl with my last breath. I would tell her to stay alive bc I care about her. 

You actually look me square in the face and tell me you quite literally abandoned someone on the edge and then call them toxic bc of their BPD?? After people are gone everyone says "why didn't she tell anyone" or "she lost to her mental illness", but nobody talks about situations like this. Where everything we do and say is written off as too dramatic, no one wants to listen to us when we are on the edge. We are always seen as toxic with every single concern. 

I'm so glad for the friends I have, that would never abandon me and would never turn someone away gasping for their last breath. Fuck that girl