I'm talking to this person online. We have a lot in common. I'm doing good when there's lot of drama but once the dust settles down I feel like a fish out of the pond. I want some drama to prove myself or that I care for her. 

I think I withdraw once things go smoothly. I don't want to hurt people on top. I'm scared about not being enough. I find myself jumping from one person to another when we are too close I jump or that's when I begin to see the issues until then it's like rose colored glasses. I know I'm not ready for a relationship but this online thing can be a good place to learn skills for me. But even that bogs me down.