I was already in depression before i got this job but let me go on with my situation. My dad offered me a job for Airport taxi in Toronto. I was hesitant but my dad said it was good money. ( never drove for long periods before this)

We got my documents ready and my cousin wanted to do it as well. So we're basically partners. He bought the car , we did our tests. We started working over a month ago. 

So my schedule is , one day im at work for 24 hours, driving around picking up people from the airport and dropping them off somewhere or picking them up and dropping them to the airport.  Than the next day im off. So one day on, one day off. 15 working days a  month and 15 for my partner. We costs for the taxi fees and insurance.  Thats $300 a day. So anything i make after 300 i can keep. Which is super hard to deal with which ill show in my further point.



Problem is after 12 hours of me driving i only make like 400. I get super tired. Legs hurt. And top of that i feel immense pressure from my family and i feel dreadful driving . I thought i would love it. But its not the case. 

Im trying to adjust but i don't think driving is my thing. I cant drive for too long my body starts to hurt . My mind gets overwhelmed.  And i just feel so sad over the whole thing. It hurts my stomach to drive . Other day i drove 77 km to drop someone off and my leg cramped up and i was worried the whole drice there.

Even thought to my self that if i quit my parents would be disappointed.  I thought i would just kill my self( not going to) to just let go of this pressure i have on me.

I dont like this job thats proven. But im so scared of my parents if i tell them. Im 27 an adult.  

I find the job way to difficult.  And i want out. But I'm afriad. So afraid that i feel like just running away or doing something to my self



I want to be happy and do what I want to do.