I sound crazy, but i miss genuinely crying. I’ve been on SSRIs on forever, starting lexapro at 13. I used to cry everyday of the week before i seeked help for depression. 

now, 6 years later, i can only cry when i put sad music on. i genuinely HATE this. i miss being able to just sob when bad things happen to me. i just keep it pent up and it results in terrible anger and exhaustion. loss of motivation, all of this. i feel better when i cry sometimes but i wish i could feel again even if it was sad. but when i’m off them i’m an absolute mess. i just miss crying