I keep seeing people my age hangout with their friends while I stay home crying and wondering why? Why me? Why did I have to be born with a fucked up toxic family? Why am I always left out? Why do I always push people away? Why am I never invited to hangout with anyone? Why is it always the same thing? Why don’t people take me seriously? No matter how much I cry and scream into my pillows, this dark, hopeless and heavy feeling in my heart never goes away. It follows me everywhere I go.