I am terrified of everything going on in my life. I have a great group of friends, a supportive family, and such good opportunities coming to me yet I’m in constant fear of them at the same time. I have no reason to feel like this and I don’t know why I do. I’ve lost my drive for essentially everything. I’ll be joining one of the best college soccer teams in the nation next year, yet the only thing I can think of is not being good enough. I was one of the top students in my class for the past 2-3 years, now I am struggling to even pass due to constant procrastination and lack of drive to complete work. I was talking to a girl for a couple months, and thought I finally might be able to find some relief and happiness there, we ended up deciding to stay as friends the other day, as I will be moving almost 10 hours away and she still has another year left in high school, and the same day she’s with another guy. It killed me to see that, despite what we agreed would be the best for both of us. That happened a couple of days ago and was the straw that broke the camels back for me. I’ve been able to repress the constant fear and self consciousness I’ve had over the past year or two, but I’ve not been able to hold myself together since that moment. I feel a constant dread of fear hanging over me. I’m terrified of leaving my home to another state. I’m terrified of having to meet new people and make new friends. I’m terrified of studying a subject which I might end up not using. I’m terrified of what my potential future job might be. I’m terrified of having to raise my confidence back up from rock bottom and securing a spot on my new team. I’m terrified of having to start over with a new girl, when the one I was just talking to was literally exactly what I was looking for. I’m just terrified of everything at this point and I have no clue how to proceed in my life or get my drive to be great again. I don’t even know if this is anxiety or not, I haven’t been to the doctor or a therapist about it or anything, I just needed to get these thoughts and fears off my chest. I don’t know how to proceed on.