I started getting really jealous again and whenever she’s with someone else my heart feels like it’s sinking and boiling and my head goes crazy thinking just tons of possibilities and questions just jumping from one to the other without me hardly even comprehending what I’m thinking, just countless things like “why is she her first option, doesn’t she like me anymore, is she bored of me, she will leave me soon, i should be there, she’s going to leave me “ etc etc and it’s tiring and takes over my whole mood. I can’t stop thinking and I hate myself so much and I feel pathetic