I’m in a new and good relationship- I’ve only ever had one good one before years ago. This guy is lovely, works hard and is just a good person and I kind of can’t believe he’s with me. But I’m used to being in (unhealthy) relationships with arguments where I was often made to feel like I had something to prove. This doesn’t happen in this relationship which is great but I’ve found myself looking for reasons to be pissed off because it just doesn’t feel natural to me, such low levels of conflict. But I don’t want to be toxic because I don’t want to ruin a potentially great thing. But it’s like I feel like he has the upper hand for some reason and he hasn’t seen me angry yet- I feel like when he does it will end everything but also because I’ve been trying to contain my emotions (quite successfully so far) part of me feels like I’m not showing my true (destructive) self so I feel like I’m being manipulative just by trying to regulate my feelings like a normal person. Please tell me someone can relate? It’s a bit messed up I know..