My mind is so fucked up I can barely type. I was in a mental hospital for three weeks and ran away three times. The third was the worst one by far. A nurse had yelled at me and it set me off. I put on a jacket and hat and just walked out. I walked to a bridge but obviously didn’t jump since I’m just an attention seeker (according to the nurses). Eventually it got too cold so I went to a bus shelter. The police called and I picked up. She was kind of dismissive and just told me to walk to the ER, which I did. I had to take my clothes off as they were soaking and wore a gown. I was escorted back to the hospital and a nurse just kept expecting me to be able to talk but I wasn’t in the right mental state. I walked to my bed and just lay there. Minutes later I’m forced out and told the police have come to take me home, so I have to pack everything. I try to express that I don’t feel safe but nobody listens. This was last night and I feel worse than I’ve ever felt. I hate this disorder. I never used to be this impulsive.