I've been in love with my best friend (for 2 years) who's been in a relationship for the past year and i'm very depressed and alone.

Pls tell me I'm not alone

She's the most amazing person I know (she saved my life during a suicide attempt) and yet still with a good friend since over a year ago....

I'm very drunk rn (over 16 units) so I may be fucked plus I can't comperehend complex ideas).