As a man I’m expected to be confident, sociable, ambitious, attractive, strong, have a good job that makes a lot of money, be an attentive and caring partner, and always, always be maintaining or improving or else people stop giving a shit. You fuck up on one or god forbid, multiple of those criteria then good luck. You’re going to spend the rest of your life alone and worth less to others than the gum on the bottom of their shoe.

I can’t be that person. I’m none of those things. I’m an unmasculine, unprepared, timid, anxious and wholly unattractive embarrassment of a man. I don’t want to live the rest of my with the consequences of not being that person either, but I’m weak. Even just posting this proves how fucked I am, men don’t cry on the Internet about how their life is so hard, they just stop being a pussy and do what they need to do.

I don’t know who I am, or what I am, or what I want, or what’s wrong with me. Why is all of this so natural and so easy for everyone else? What do I do when I just feel inadequate on every level?