So I know that there are so many posts on here concerning people's anxiety and trying to work a job. I guess I'll be another one. I have had anxiety pretty badly since I was young but nothing has ever felt like this. I've worked multiple office jobs until I had realized that it really was not for me. What I meant by that was I absolutely hated sitting in an office environment. I decided to try something new now that I'm 21, and that is a Dispensary Associate. The last time I worked retail, I was a pretty horrible mess. (My anxiety was through the roof and I was broke as shit.) I think working retail again has triggered something, I don't know. Minutes, hours and even days before my shift, I am so tense. I cannot eat right because of that constant naseaus feeling, and that's if I eat much at all. I get shaky, throw up before or dry heave sometimes if the anxiety hits hard enough. I'm bawling my eyes out constantly and wearing my partner of 5 years out. He doesn't know how to help me at this point and doesn't understand why I'm so scared to work, which I don't blame him at all considering it makes no sense to me. I just called out of work this morning because as soon as I woke up, like most days since I started the job, I'm freaking out. At this point, I don't know what else to do besides possibly find something remote until I can get this under control. Has anyone maybe tried this? I understand it won't fix all of my problems, however I refuse to live like this. I'm really not sure of what else to do but for the love of whatever, I'm going to go crazy if I have to keep doing this. I don't care how weak I sound to be honest, I know that I'm not the only one out there with these issues. If you are going to just tell me to get over it, don't bother to comment.