Does anyone feel like a kicked dog whenever their dad yells at you?

Well, I do.

My dad is always yelling at me. I don’t what he wants, he yells. I do, he moves the goal post and yells again. I’m exhausted. I’m checking up on him, he yells. Yells and screams at me like I’m nothing to him. And has the nerve to ask me to tell him about things when I need help. No. And when I explain why I’d rather not, he dodges all accountability and berates me again. I have an older sister but he thinks she’s an angel. He never yells at her. And she does whatever she wants. He blames all of my life problems on me. Says “well if you had just done what I told you this would have never happened!” About things completely irrelevant to him. I love him but I think he just doesn’t like me. I think he has been taking care of me this whole time out of his own personal morals but like- not bc he wants to. I was a mistake baby(mom had gotten tubes tied but it didn’t work) which tells me they didn’t want anymore kids. I noticed that they were tired of me by 13 Now I’m 20 with a disability that makes being independent really hard. But I’m trying to figure it out. He even said to me that he was not obligated to be there for me emotionally. He has no concern for my mental health and it shows. This eats away at me and I feel like I have all these invisible wounds all over. Because I have to tolerate it or I’m homeless. I love my mom but she is an enabler. To be honest I just feel abandoned emotionally.