My FP is always some celebrity because my brain and my “reading of people” makes me end up hating everyone in my real life. Normally I hyperfixate on them for a few years until I find a different one I like more. And since it’s one sided I can depend on them as much as I need to. But now since I’m really not in a good place mentally, it’s become much more of an obsession. I checked my screen time on my phone yesterday and it was literally 15 hours because I went down a stalker rabbit hole on the internet. I feel guilty about it because it’s gross and disrespectful but I can’t stop. I really need better hobbies but I don’t have the strength or motivation. And I guess i’m just wallowing in self-destruct mode too