i was recently diagnosed with a laundry list of things (ocd, alcohol use disorder, sad, gad, depression, unspecified eating disorder). 

part of me really wanted to ask about bpd but i am afraid they won’t believe me. i can basically check off all the symptoms but i feel like because bpd has been so stigmatized, my outward disposition or attitude towards people doesn’t match people’s ideas of it. i’m just a very quiet and soft spoken person (which i know means nothing in terms of bpd but i’m just worried). 

i just want to ask about it and i want to get diagnosed just so i can know im not insane and i know it affects me everyday. does anyone feel similar and if you have been officially diagnosed, how did that happen? i know it will take more than a few sessions to get diagnosed but i just feel like i wish i was more straightforward about it.

i truly feel afraid of exposing my bpd symptoms because i’m afraid they will tell me i’m a bad person so i keep quiet about it most of the time but i wish i could just outright ask about it.