Like I've been obsessed with this guy for years. We've been flirting for years. We've had phone sex. Last time we saw each other like a week ago there was some serious juicy/spicy tension and then the typical no contact apart from a few texts from my part. 

Now I finally texted him to ask if we can talk on the phone tomorrow and he said "Of course &lt;3" 

And now I'm all like... But what the fuck do I even want? What the fuck do I even do now? Why? 

Maybe I'm scared that our friendship will end after that phone call and I'm preparering myself? Or maybe I need the spice to feel alive? What is wrong with me?