Hi
So I'm 23 years old and I have depression for more than 7 years. I reached the point where I totally forgot what happiness is and what feeling good and enjoying something are. I even now think that everybody feels like that and I am  not depressed, I'm just normal, because joy doesn't exist anyway , we just force ourselves to live and do something. I hate these thoughts because they are preventing me from seeking professional help and start medication eventually. I can't talk to anyone, because I tried telling some close people before that I'm not well, and what they said to me is the same thing as these thaughts running in my head: maybe you're not depressed you're just thinking you are. Even one time, a friend told me this: "but I can see you laugh and you don't seem depressed at all, just get over it, you're totally okay".
But the pain is real guys, I really can't feel anything anymore. I'm scared if I go on like this, my life is screwed up totally.