How do I end this cycle? I’ve been crushing HARD on this guy since we were eight, and now that we’re both in our 20s, things are happening slowly between us. I find him charming, smart, and kind, but every time he shows interest in me I feel petrified and like I want to run and cut things off. I repeatedly sabotage my relationships like this. How do I stop it? Please tell me I’m not alone in this.