Heya. I have been struggling with mental health things since forever but when I turned 19 stuff got a lot worse and my meds stopped doing anything except at a dose that was causing issues so I switched to a mood stabilizer and have been struggling more.

I was curious if maybe I had hephrenic schizophrenia or schizoaffective, and while i know you can't tell me here,  I'm wondering if it would be ok to talk to my provider because I'm afraid I'm being a hypochondriac.

Here the why I'm thinking about it, pretty lengthy I know I ramble sorry: 

 I check off pretty much all negative symptoms at certain  times and consistently with a few specific ones.

Some examples include , lack of motivation though not ambition, , what I call blanking (which is me not being able to organize thoughts in a way to speak how I want, and I will have to change the word I'm using or topic), and struggling with basic day to day stuff. 

The negative symptoms (?) except for blanking have been around for a long time. 

I have movement stuff which has been getting worse and worse, as well as trouble concentrating which has been said is adhd but also is getting worse. 

My head is messy which is reflected in speech and other communication sometimes, but I dont know if it qualifies as disorganized speech. Blanking is again a thing, writing is always inconsistent, and speaking is occasionally hard for others to understand.

 If I'm  really trying I can correct it, but the type of writing you see here is default and default with my speech. Unless I'm really focused I do tend to repeat my point in ways that doesn't facilitate geniune/good communication. Word salad is less of a thing but can occur with bad blanking because I can't get close enough synonyms.

I am fairly  self aware which is what causes me to worry about being a hypochondriac like I can sometimes be with mental health. I will try to correct communication a bit more  now that I'm thinking about it.

I don't hallucinate and am fairly certain I don't have delusions. I have some paranoia type things but not in a pattern connected way (nothing and no one is out to get me, but I dont trust anyone) but I do have thought patterns that I know aren't true but feel real and I have to use logic based on external things to fight/pretend/acknowledge/ignore those thought patterns 

 My memory doesn't always reflect events either but it could plausibly be real or be a way to make narratives I tell about myself be consistent.

Things feel unreal frequently which I know is dissociation but coupled with memory issues and false  thoughts makes me not trust my own perspectives and rely on external factors to verify that the events or upcoming things are done accurately.

I am sorry that this is hard to read, I'm fairly tired right now and I'm too lazy to edit  errors.

I do not expirence catatonia pretty sure though I do get lost in thought and need external stimulation that requires a response to snap out and get moving.

Anyways, would I be unjustified to talk to my psychologist about this?