I'm 18, I have a lot of hyperfixations, I have been diagnosed with ADHD, Depression and Anxiety. I love talking about the things I'm interested in and I could definitely talk and talk and talk about anything but no one wants to listen.

I have two friends, I stayed friends with them when we finished high school but god, they are really boring. I hate to feel this way but they are truly terrible at being friends, I'm usually expected to sit there and listen to what they have to say and they never listen back.

One of them, our conversations revolve entirely around her dating life, Id love to be a friend you can vent to about your struggles in dating but there's only so many times you can have someone ask you "What do you think he means?", "should I keep talking to him?", " do you think he likes me?"(about the same guy btw) before I realize, oh my god! I really do not care about your dating life!!!!!

They don't respect any of my interests, but I have what they would consider "childish" interests. They often make fun of me for my hyperfixation towards toys. I collect toys like crazy. I also wear lolita fashion and non traditional clothing and they make fun of me for it. It sends my self esteem crashing down.

I've tried making new friends but its so hard, I also tried making friends online but its even worse! No one is interested in anything I have to say and in general men are the most interested in speaking to me, not because they find me interesting but because they're looking for something else, I have a boyfriend.

This isolation has led me to form an unhealthy emotional attachment to my boyfriend, he loves the way I dress and he himself does not collect toys like I do but he is very supportive of it but he has a life of his own, he has his own hobbies and I can't have his attention 100% but I am really attached to him and I constantly need to talk to him. I've never felt kindness and respect this way before. Sometimes though, I feel doubt, I feel like he isn't listening, I feel like when I am talking, no one is listening.

I feel alone, I have no one to bond over uncommon interests with, I do with him but I fear this attachment and my boredom, my constant need for stimulation and constant need to talk might not only ruin our relationship but my social life in general too.

Have you felt this way before? what do you do when it feels like no one is around to listen? Am I just bound to live an empty unfulfilling boring life?