Here I am again on the brink of suicide, unable to function and completely broken. I’m not going to kill myself but I feel like it everyday. I worry one of these days I will. I’m so tired of being alone (romantically) I want a partner in life and it just isn’t happening. On top of that my “brothers” in Christ have abandoned me and I am lost. I need to talk to someone, but when I was a kid I opened up to a male therapist and he told me I was going to become a monster. I physically can’t open up to males but I really need someone to talk to.