I’m starting to get really worried that my BPD is interfering with my job. I was called “high maintenance” by my manager because I ask too many questions and ping them a lot when things go wrong (mainly because I don’t have any other points of contact, the company is a mess and there’s no system as to who I’m supposed to contact) so I thought I could rely on her to help me.

My boss keeps telling me to chill out and that I am making mountains out of molehills. I’m starting to get really upset over the smallest issues and extremely paranoid that my coworkers all think I’m annoying and hate me. Hearing my manager called me high maintenance behind my back and that I need to “trust he more” REALLY didn’t help either. 

(Just as some background people are quitting in droves because the company is so mismanaged and everything goes wrong - I didn’t used to have such a short fuse 6 months ago)

Maybe I do meet to chill the hell out. That much is true...maybe as someone with BPD I need more structure? Idk what to do.