I'm due to 29 next month and I feel so inadequate around everyone that's involved in my life. I've had three jobs in the past four years; the longest I've stopped at a company is two and a half years. I've recently left a job due to workplace bullying and have had three weeks off. I start my new job tomorrow but feel in such a low anxious place and don't know how to overcome this feeling. My partner has just received a fantastic pay rise and has been with his company 7 or more years and one of my close friends has just been made team leader within her company and has also received a fantastic rise. It just makes me think, what is wrong with me? I'm not jealous at either of them, I just feel so low and lazy sometimes. 

 I've often wondered if I'm on the spectrum as both my Sister and Father both have Asperger's, but I want to shake this feeling of depression and anxiety, but it doesn't seem to be going away. 

Any relatable comments would be appreciated as it would be good to feel like I'm not the only one going through this :(