I’m 29M with depression. Whenever I feel really low I express this to only very close set of people. I’m an extrovert and often end up hanging out with a lot of people. Sometimes when I’m really low I still pretend to be happy with the not so close folks around me. Later when I goto my girlfriend and express my true feelings and this bothers her. I don’t know how to deal with this. I have talked to her about this but somehow it’s hurts her. Recently she left out of town for a two months course in a remote village. She has a simple life there where she works 6 days a week and I today I came to know she is not able to enjoy that because she knows that I miss her and I’m sad. While this was happening my 7 year old roommate, who was my biggest emotional support, left the country. I am not able to process any of these emotions. Whenever she is calling or texting me all I tell her is I’m on couch all sad. That’s just the truth and that’s all I have been doing. I feel like I’m ruining my girlfriend’s life by just existing.