Work has been pretty slow today. I usually read a book, but for some reason I had the urge to scroll through who my bf is following on insta today. Unsurprisingly, I did not like what I saw. I’m confident I found numerous people he’s slept with, and it feels like I just got punched in the gut by a heavyweight champ. My self-esteem has always been nonexistent. I have never liked a single thing about myself and constantly feel like I’ll never be good enough for anyone. So naturally when I saw these beautiful women and my bf liking all of their photos, I fell apart. Why did I do that in the first place? What was the goal? I knew I would most likely find something that would upset me, so why did I persist? How do you deal with your insecurities and not let them get in the way of having a stable relationship? I’m not sure I’ll ever have a successful relationship if I continue to feel this way about myself. It’s not fair to my partner to have to deal with this either.