I don't know what's happening to me but I don't feel anything emotionally, empathetically or anything really. It started a couple months ago I think when I started worrying about my mental health and started having a small Identity crisis, this was Just after having a long long period of health related panic attacks which started with me worrying I had a brain tumor and for months after I started going through every disease I could find and every symptom I felt. I got diagnosed with Health Anxiety disorder which helped a lot for awhile but It seems like this anxiety Is progressing from physical health into mental health. My current I guess kind of "fixation" right now Is me worrying I'm a Sociopath. It started when I noticed I force a lot of laughs and smiles and even sometimes I fake feeling sympathetic or empathetic towards people, I never really noticed having any sort of motive when I did this at least not one that I was aware of. I felt anxious at first but as I've continued questioning myself and have tried to stop doing those fake laugh or smile moments, I've stopped feeling anything emotionally, not even anxious or sad. I don't feel like I'm manipulating people or talking to people without any goals or motives but I honestly just feel blank and empty and honestly don't know If I'd care if I was. I'm 16, and I've definitely felt real emotion or empathy In the past at least I think so.. I don't know what this is, I feel numb and bored all the time and I'm worried this might or might have destroyed me and made me into a sociopath.

I've stopped feeling anything when I talked to my friends and family, I've talked to my dad about it and he's told me that I wouldn't care if I was one or even bring it up and that I would be aware if I had any motives and wouldn't be like something where I am sociopathic and wouldn't know. I just don't know what to do, I don't know if I'm just driving myself crazy with this constant searching and doing any random quiz I can find online to see if my symptoms match up with one, I just wanna go back to how it was before. even if It wasn't real at least I thought I felt things and thought I cared.. my whole life I felt social anxiety and when I started analyzing myself I haven't felt any anxiety, now I'm wondering if that social anxiety was just me not caring enough to connect to people.. I don't know, I Just don't know. I don't feel stressed or anything or sad or anything but I can't stop think fixating on it or thinking that I'm not thinking about it, not to mention I remember doing some things which seem like red flags now but I never told anyone until last night.. I don't feel shame or regret, I just don't know.. I don't wanna be unsympathetic or emotionless, I want to feel things and I don't THINK I want to don't manipulate people.. if I was a sociopath I would be aware I was attempting to manipulate people or that I was lying right? It wouldn't be like something that would just happen and I wasn't aware. and I've even talked to my dad about this and sent him videos and posts and asked him to watch me and tell me if he notices anything In the videos in my behavior, and when I sometimes crack a joke or something I feel like I need to explain that I wasn't trying to downplay or anything 

I don't know what this is, I don't think I would ever hurt someone and sometimes I have weird thoughts about doing something bad to someone or something to see how I would react or feel and though I don't actually act on them they're still weird. I don't think I would actually hurt someone, but at the same time It feels like I don't care.. I'm convinced there's something wrong with me but at the same time, during that health anxiety thing I was also convinced I had brain cancer or that I was having a heart attack.. I really don't know what this is.