Lately i have struggling to find the motivation for school, my friends and possibly this new job i will have and i have no idea what im doing. I am just feel so overwhelmed with everything and i cant stop thinking about my FPs and the people who ive loss over the years when i was with them i felt like maybe i have something to look forward to and maybe i have some purpose in someones life, i cant control what happened but i am just scared my friends now would leave me god forbid, i just cant take any more losses, like idk what i am to people in my life anymore