Crashing this last week after months of hypo mania, a week of actual mania with irritability and mild hallucinations. 

Struggling not to feel like the very people I have supported and listened to for months are not here for me now that I need help. I get people are busy with work and their own lives, I am not looking for someone to join in any kind of pity party, yet I just need one person to talk to and validate that this sucks for me right now. Even my amazing partner left me on read when I said I am not feeling well. 

I don’t know what to do now, just got off the phone with my psych who is upping my seroquel so I guess it’s a waiting game like any passage of episodes I’ve learned in the 4 years since my diagnosis. Thanks for letting me vent and appreciate it any response that is positive.