hey guys, 19 year old college freshman with bpd here. my childhood and high school was an incredibly rocky hard time, and and I spent many years without solid friendships, which wasn't helped when covid came obviously, but senior year I made some, and got closer to a friend I've had for seven years and have a romantic past with. I moved straight into an apartment skipping the dorm thing, because it was cheaper, worked better for many aspects of my life, and let me stay their in the summers, etc but briefly came home to visit for the month of June. ive been having the most amazing time. I unironically think this is the happiest my life has been, everything is going well and ive been having so much fun, things with my parents are good, etc etc . I only have one friend in my college town, and I have to go back in two days to work and am struggling a lot with this. I feel so conflicted that finally ive found happiness back home, but won't be here again for a while. I feel like I'm on the cusp of a breakdown with going back to my apartment and im worried about the days to come, especially with adjusting back to feeling lonely, and fomo from stuff here. has any one else had issues with their life transition like this, and how have you coped? im down for any advice or shared experience, thank you!!