Howdy y'all. Throwaway acct  


I met my friend last year, we both worked together at the same company. We play videogames with each other and chit chat online after work. Overtime though, I think I've grown a bit clingy, like messaging a lot, and I would get jealous and feel like they either hated me or didn't like me if I saw them doing things w/ other people, and this would feed into a negative loop of me trying to reach out *more* to assure myself they *didnt* hate me, and so on and so on.   


My friend is very introverted and they are a very private individual, and I can see in retrospect that I'm acting very clingy, selfish, and not respecting boundaries with them.   


I haven't been formally diagnosed, but I am 99% certain because I can see that my actions seem to fall under the umbrella of BPD. I have started to give them more space, but I feel like I will fall back into the trap of fearing that I will be abandoned or ghosted if I don't reach out or seek validation. I need to change my actions and continue the positive changes so far, but the nagging in my head is still there. Would saying something concrete and acknowledging my past actions and explaining what I'm doing help with that?