Holy fuck has this been a Rollercoaster. I have bipolar and BPD, and recently I've been in a depressive slump. I've never been so down and depressed before, and my last 4 months sucked. My fiance and I didn't have sex for months, and she lost all feelings for me. I wanted to spend my life with her but she left me

Idk anything worse than losing a long time fp. I cut and cut several days in a row, I'm surprised I didn't kill myself if I'm being honest 

But within a week I found a new Fp, and I'm actually really happy my fiance left me. My boyfriend is so kind and just as loving as me, which is a rare find because I LOVE my FP to death. Also we have sex non-stop, which is my favourite thing in life and one of the few things I care about

But through this I am not depressed anymore! I'm actually manic lol. Im so glad, my doctor didn't have anything else for me so I was going to do electroshock therapy, but now I'm actually happy for once. We are moving in together soon!! he also is totally accepting of my schizoaffective disorder and BPD, and for once I'm not afraid of someone leaving me. He constantly showers me with love

I just want to say I love you guys and thank you for being such an awesome community. Idk what I would do without this sub. I'm so proud of myself that I made it through this, and good things can come to you even if your fp leaves, it's hard but it can be worth it 

I love you guys!!!