I just need to vent about this. 

I’ve been seeing this therapist for eight months on a twice monthly basis. When I first started seeing her, I made it clear I eventually wanted to start seeing her every week, when she had the space in her schedule. She said it would probably take a few weeks to a couple months. I figured this was a doable timeline, as I actually felt I connected with this therapist and didn’t want to risk trying to find someone new I might not connect with. 

Eight months later, I’m still seeing her twice monthly, which is barely enough for me to keep my head above water. I sent her an email a couple days ago to express my frustration about the situation, and she responded by giving me referrals to other therapists and by saying she didn’t think it was ethical for her to see me anymore, due to the fact that I didn’t seem to trust her. 

I’m just completely at a loss. I know I haven’t been an easy client, but this is the only therapist I’ve felt like I can connect with. I went through 3 therapists before this one, and I’m completely dreading the process of finding another. 

Has anyone had similar experiences? Being unable to find a therapist you can connect with? Getting dumped? How did you cope?