So i got caught with a small vape at school today and all they gave me was a few days in ISS (in school suspention) no biggie right but of course they called my mom and i knew shed be pissed so i get in the car and i told her my side of the story but shes beleiving the school over me. The school told my mother that they "caught me red handed" when in actuality i willingly gave them the vape because they had a metal detector. And now shes trying to ruin my work and is treating me like i have a criminal record and acting like im shooting up heroine or something

i understand why shes mad if i was a mom id be mad at me too, but everytime i do something that involves my friends she wants to know who they are  and makes it seem like shes going to go get their parents involved too or not let me see any of my friends which isnt fair and makes me not want to tell her anything, she beleives the school over her own daughter and thinks im this manipulative liar. she also constantly says that i need better friends and to get away from them. But its like, the only issue with my friends is that theyre all nicotine addicts like me, like should people stay away from me and say im a bad person just because im addicted to nicotine? 

A friend was going to come over after school and my mom was still going to let her come over but threatned to "show her ass" if i tried to cause anything while my friend was over :/ and i told my friend the situation and that it would be fine she wouldnt try to start anything if they were over yknow and id really like her to be over here so im not toally alone bc theyre kindove my comfort friend. But they told me they couldnt come over because the enviornment of my house made them uncomfortable and they didnt want to get anxious and cause problems for me :( 

So now im spiralling because i feel alone and my family thinks im this huge fuck up and i dont know whats wrong with me i just care about consequences less and less i dont care when they yell at me anymore and i wish i wanted to make better decisions. I also wish my mom would stop treating me like im a criminal for getting caught once with a vape. I could be doing worse let alone shes already very aware of my addiction. Like yrah it was stupid to have at school when theyre looking for anybody who seems like theyd have one, but a few days of iss is not a huge deal its not like im being convicted.

anyway like i said im just freaking out and i called my ex boyfriend to let me just talk to him about it and maybe hed keep me company but he answered and was at work and said hed call when he was off and i wish i wasnt so alone and that my friend was still coming over to keep me company, i wish the energy in my house wasnt so uncomfortable for everybody who comes over i dont know whats wrong with my house and my family it just feels so suffocating and the energy is horrible yknow? i hate my situation i cant wait to move out of this enviornment and maybe get better motivation to get better