I’m having thoughts. Bad ones. I hate admitting this but honestly if I could end everything I would right now. The only reason I haven’t isn’t because I’m scared of leaving, but I’m scared of what it would do to my family. The grief, I never want them to go through that. But I’m so tired. I’m on Zoloft to help with my depression but honestly idk if it’s ever really going to work. I’ve upped my dosage twice. I just wanna be numb if I have to stay here. I don’t want to feel anything anymore. Ik ik life is worth living, it’ll get better eventually you just have to get help, I’ve heard that all my life and nothing seems to get better. It’s hard hearing that when everything is so messed up all the time. Idk I guess I’m trying to see if anyone can relate to my feelings right now, I’m willing to listen to any advice.