So I made the mistake of going on a sub where people talk about being in close relationships with someone with BPD, and they made out that we’re all horrible and there’s no hope for the relationship, and now I’m terrified that my boyfriend will someday read that stuff and it will cause him to break up with me. Someone say something to calm me down?

Also, the stuff people were saying there got me so angry. It’s all just “these people are evil and all they do is try to control you and ruin your life.” They talk about us like we intentionally ruin people’s live and then also just happen to cry a lot. Like, I know I’m not the easiest person to be in a relationship with, it’s probably not awesome for my boyfriend when I start crying hysterically over the tiniest things and can’t even explain to him why I’m upset. Or freak out that he’s abandoning me when he gets out of bed in the morning. I can be passive aggressive, I can be difficult, I can be hysterical, but I am not mean and I am not controlling. And the way people on there call us “BPDs” like we’re not even people, we’re just a diagnosis. Makes me want to punch them.

Also, when stuff upsets me, I typically talk to my bf about it, but I’m scared of talking to him about this, I don’t want him to discover that sub. But also I want to check if he knows about it and has read the stuff there.