It seems when I need to wait to get something, especially if it’s very important to me, and there is no why of knowing when or if I’ll get it, I fall into massive depression. 

I’ve been single (and without a FP) for over a year and the loneliness is becoming harder and harder to deal with. Knowing I have no idea when or if I’ll ever find someone again is breaking me. It’s making me fall into my usual self-destructive cycles.