I can't really share details just that I'm frustrated and mad and upset and everyday it just hurts. I thought I was over her but I'm constantly thinking about all the good times. It's so confusing because she's seen me at my absolute worst and has forgiven some truly awful things that I've since grown from. I don't know what I did (I was black out drunk) that could have warranted being suddenly cut off like that since she really has seen it all. I've thought about asking her what happened and if I could make up for it but I already deleted all her contact info &amp; even then I feel like it's better for both of us if we never talk again...as much as that sucks.

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I've been a terrible friend and made a lot of bad decisions so rationally I know it's for the best that she cut me off as suddenly as she did, and after talking with someone this closest friend also fell out with I became aware that she was really bad for me too. Not trying to shift the blame but rather just...I think it was for the greater good for both of us. She enabled my alcohol addiction for like a year and I felt stuck even if hanging out was fun.

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Just had to get this off my chest since I've completely isolated the past couple months from everyone lol...it's hard to reach out again right now I guess.