Um idk were to start rly. I’m clinically depressed since September 2021 and i thought it’ll get better but obviously it didn’t. I thought telling my friends would help me in any way but they didn’t understand me. They just said “its a choice and u can just snap out of it” and never really understood me. That’s fine. After a while i felt really alone cuz no one would understand me. In January 2022 i cut myself for the first time and it weirdly felt good. Don’t judge me. It then became addictive and i kept doing it. Ive been getting so many problems within myself. For example my body.. it feels as if its given up and my body hurts everywhere. What’s going on inside my head has now started to affect me physically. Ive been having new problems such as tinnitus where your ears constantly keeps ringing. Ive had panic attack and body shivering ; i cant sleep well at night and when i do actually sleep or take a nap.. i end up having sleep paralysis. Yday i nearly k-ed myself by cutting.. and I’m scared abt myself. I cant fix my problems in my life nor the problems with myself. It’s as though I’m dead yet breathing. Im scared abt myself and i cant keep doing this shit. I need help.