So I have this friend (my fp) who I posted about before. We reconnected this year and got really close really fast. The last two times we met up we were kind of having sex? The first time I gave him a handjob and the last time he ate me out and fingered me. I'm still really new to sex (thought I was asexual for years and never did anything before him. Also I'm nonbinary and can't really accept my body but with him it's alright?) but I enjoy it with him.
The problem is he was in a relationship with a girl who has borderline and it really fucked him up. We talked about us and how we really shouldn't do it but we keep getting drawn to each other. I really like him and would like to have something more and stable but he sayed something along of 'he has to think about it' and 'doesnt know if he's ready and emotional stable enough' 
I feel so stupid and disappointed. Like I'm not good enough for a relationship and just for sex. He even sayed I had like 'a perfect body' 
I don't know what to do. Because I really really like him but I'm also scared of getting hurt if he drops me or only wants to have sex and never anything more.