I feel terrible because deep down I know they're just being friends as friends do, but I'm incredibly jealous. we are all friends and very close but I can't shake this feeling that they're getting closer and starting to push me away. the rational side of me can understand that they are hanging out more and of course, that's going to bring them closer and I'm just not going to relate to the experiences they've been through together. the other side is so set on the idea of them talking behind my back and that they're going to run off from out friend group or maybe, with everyone else and leave me behind. I've been really annoying lately and I try to fix it by not spilling and talking unnecessarily, then that kind of backfires because I'm growing distant by doing so. it's probably all in my head and the fear of abandonment is starting to develop and show more, but at the same time maybe I'm right?
(input/advice is welcome)