I’ve been struggling alot with worsening depression since I broke up with my ex fp (in feb). The breakup was very messy. We lived together so I had to move home again to live with my parents, I quit my studies at the university and my life just fell apart. The only thing that helped me cope was (stupid enough) to find a new fp I could focus on. I talked to this guy during a few months and managed to get a summer job. It worked out fine but my obsession with this guy, while at the same time coping with the breakup of my ex, was taking its toll on me. I started missing my ex more and more, and it later turned out this other guy lied about having a girlfriend. I then turned to my ex again, but    he didnt care about me the same way anymore and we ultimatly decided to not be in contact - because I couldnt handle and accept the way things have changed between us. I guess im more accepting now, and try to manage the impulses I get to contact him again. But that doesnt change the fact that I feel no reason to live without him/ or an fp in my life. 

I’ve started taking 150mg wellbutrin in combination with 150mg venlafaxine that I lowered the dose from 300mg because it no longer worked for me. The wellbutrin was added to hopefully ”heigthen” the effect of venlafaxine. I’ve been taking wellbutrin for 1+ weeks yet feel no difference. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I do things to distract myself (like playing video games) from everything im feeling but at the end of the day nothings changed. I guess the plan for me is to get back to my studies once I feel better but right now it feels like it never will. Im yet to start therapy or any of the sort