I'm talking throwing pillows, kicking, crying, screaming, and just, yknow, basically how a toddler reacts when they don't get what they want. Toddler tantrum. But adult. Adult version of a toddler tantrum.

And it's fueled with agitated rage and depression, both at the same time, mixing like this bitter mud and it's so hard to get it out. If I could rip my heart off, I would have done so earlier. It's so fucking annoying.

Quiet BPD here, tho. So this is the only way my energy is let out lol. Fuck this shit.