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So everyday since then has been like autopilot and i have failed to react on multiple times. having blacked in and out. Honestly i have no idea what is going on. I feel like i have been waking up in the middle of the most strangest things. Things like doing schoolwork and stuff like going to the busstop it feels like i didn't actually did all that but i got it done. I have been told off for being too rude as i on multiple occasions did not respond to instructions and requests. It is the same everywhere, with my group of bois, school and worse at home. I currently have to say OUT LOUD btw the things i am about to do and people look at me like some weird crazy ass shit. I find myself waking up in the most mundane and random things and saying things out loud helps me sometimes. I ended up walking straight into walls and doors at some point. IDK what is going on but i really wish i knew how to resolve it and get rid of it. At the same time the stupid "ww1 and ww2" thing is still going on. And i really cannot spend anymore energy dealing with that shit. I realized that i also lack spatial awareness nowadays and i nearly cut myself with sharp objects at multiple occations. I thought i was just tired and tried sleeping it out for about almost 15 hours (i got released from school at 12 + since subject combos allow us to go home earlier if we don;t have to stay.) and the same shit is still happening. I wish to stop this "autopilot" crap and just get on with things already. Please comment if you have any idea what is going on. THank you.