I'm cought in a loop and thought that venting here might help. 

It began a couple of days ago when my application to a local arts/craft market was rejected(it's a hobby for now but I'm trying to make it my profession). It's organized by a small local organisation I'm a member of and most participants have art as a hobby. 

I participated two years ago when it was held for the first time and it was a great success, I sold a lot of my sculptures and people were very interested in my work. I make small sculptures from recycled material  while the other participants had more traditional objects like ceramics, paintings and jewelry. 

It wasn't the rejection that triggered my anxiety but their reasoning for it. They said that my work was for exhibitions, not markets like this since my things must be too expensive(a lot of my work is very detailed and "looks" professional). If I were to sell my items they thought it must be because I'm selling them "at a discount" and that's not ok.

I gave me an anxiety attack because I don't understand what's changed! It went so well the last time and I don't think my sculptures were too under valued. I replied and told them that and considered to give me a second chance If I showed them more pictures of my smaller pieces so I did. Yesterday evening I got a mail that said that they can't judge my work properly with them but it's the same as things I sold last year and I don't get it! I asked them what more they needed and I'm waiting to hear from them.

I don't think I even want to participate any longer but I can't stop obsessing over their reasoning and I feel so stupid and sad and questioning everything I've said. I couldn't sleep and my medicine didn't work and I just want to be able to think rationally and let it go but I can't.