Hello i am 29F, i have always been a person who is very jolly, happy and enjoying life. But since last 7 months i am miserable, crying all the time(wtf is wrong with me), hate myself, nothing excites me or makes me feel happy, cringe feeling toward myself, my bf is helping me he is trying so hard to make me happy but idk what is happening.

I have a great relationship but parents doesn’t agree and I can’t hurt either of them like my bf and parents, i feel like dying sometimes, but i will not do it it’s just that i feel so sad abt it and its like only sadness is left in me now. 

I feel like my life is ruined now and i cannot do anything abt it, i feel so broken like broken omg i dnt know what i am doing anymore