

So ye basically i have a bunch of questions 
Likkle bit bout myself and this situation 
Im from the middle east ye and there is so such thing as mental illness thats what i knew in my 1st 19 years of living
And all my 19 years i never had this kind of experience i would say i was a normal person 
And then suddenly for no fucking reason i start feeling blank
First couple of months i dont know what’s happening i am feeling wierd i fell gray no feelings no thoughts incomplete thoughts so then i look up depression symptoms in youtube and i check every box and more it was such a shock i didn’t believe it u know what i mean  basically fuck all that i just wanna ask if anybody is feeling how am feeling*%+#
1.i feel im scared to talk to anyone even my mom and when i do talk i feel like what i said is all wrong
2.i feel tired bored uninspired like walla i cant even think properly even when i smoke i dont feel a buzz
3.everything is tense and offensive for me 
4. And there some instances of time i feel good back to normal but it only lasts for 4 days max
5.i used to take floxetine prescription by doctor but i stopped using it so do u feel meds help and if so what type and how
6.last question can i know when does this torment end