I was with someone with BPD for a year. They gave me some of the best experiences of my life. They meant the world to me. I loved them with all my heart and still do.

But their distrust of me, their disbelief of my love, their fear that I would abandon them, constant interrogation of what they meant to me, your self-harm... It all became too much. I was suffering. Still I would have stayed with you. Due to factors out of my control I had to end things. It ended with a fight over text and I am ashamed that I lost my temper. I didn't want it to end that way. I didn't want it to end ever.

Jellicle G, I don't know if you read this sub. If you do, I'm sorry. I really did love you. I really did see a wonderful future with you. I wish you had trusted me. But your prophecy is fulfilled. To you I'm another person in your list of people who supposedly loved you but ultimately abandoned you.