 

So, I'm a male, currently in my late 20s, somewhat recently finished my master's degree, and now work in a job which isn't what I want to do with my life and doesn't pay great, I live in a country which I hate more and more with each passing day, even though it's my home, and generally feel trapped inside my own life.

Now that the little bit of backstory for context is out of the way: my current issue is that I sometimes get into these "episodes" where I just get extremely sad (I don't want to say depressed) and cry my eyes out, basically feeling like nothing matters and my life is over for about 30-60 minutes. This most often happens on Monday morning for obvious reasons. Then, suddenly, something just... snaps and I go back to normal. I suck it up, adopt an "it is what it is" attitude and move on with my day.

So basically, I can be lying on the floor, curled up into a ball and hating myself and the world at one moment, and then the next I'm perfectly fine, even laughing and generally feeling way better.

Now, just to be clear, the thoughts of dissatisfaction with my life don't go away completely, but just don't seem to affect me as much when my "episode" ends. I've often thought that maybe I have bipolar or something, but from what I've read bipolar usually manifests itself in longer periods of highs AND ups. Whereas with me it's only ever an hour or so at most and I never get real Ups, just lows and mehs.

Please, if anyone can offer some advice, some help, or heck, even a diagnosis over the internet (I know, I know, but still) I'd be very very appreciative.

Thank you!