I know some members aren't happy with seeing negative posts, and I get it. It's hard to be happy when everyone else is down in the dumps. But I just gotta get it out and no one else really gets it like y'all. I just get so tired of wondering if I'm really doing good for myself or if I'm just manic and inches away from burning my life down. How hard is it to know what's right when I feel better and happier when things are really going wrong? I just feel like that dog in the fedora. I just wish it was easier to see when the room was on fire. Or maybe it's just my own faults that keep me ignorant. I just wish I knew if I'm gonna end up okay.