Lately I've been feeling like I'm about to reach my lowest again, I tried to kill myself on December 2016, I've been depressive a lot of time since then but I feel this time im 1 inch away from getting to that state again, but what I want to know is this: Have you ever have this thoughts "Maybe everyone is gonna be better if I just stop being alive" "Nothing is gonna chance if I'm not here" "What's the point of still being alive?" And suddenly have a lot but A LOT of guilt for thinking this? Thats one of the things that get me in tears, the guilt of thinking this way when I'm supposed to be okay after this years.