So, my FP left for 10 days, we met in the meantime and he had his vacation booked before meeting me. 

We’ve been together ever since we met, we have been the cutest and happiest couple ever and he reminds me everyday how amazing I am. 

That being said, it’s been my third day without him. I went back to my place after a month living with him, I feel so lonely, I’ve been avoiding buying myself drinks, but it’s the third day in a row that I’m drunk. I try to sleep as much as I can, I don’t take my meds but when it comes to sleep I always have Quetiapine as a backup and it has been working 

But I’ve been feeling proud because I haven’t cheated on him, I think about him all the fucking time, I talk about him all the fucking time I just don’t know wether I’m actually dealing with this in the most healthy way I could or if I’m just dealing with it the most healthy way I know... I need advice, I need to know how to handle this relationship because he’s a fucking keeper 