The last few days have been pretty mild in terms of how bad I felt. I guess by a normal person's standards it's still bad, but idk.

Now I feel the need to prove to myself, once again, that I'm actually ill. So I'm begging to have a breakdown tomorrow, and it's just about as horrible as it sounds.

I kinda have this feeling of... performance anxiety? I have therapy in just over a week, so I'm afraid that I'll feel... fine? When the time comes. Idk how to properly describe it.