so,
started buspirone 5mg 2x a month ago. tried to to off it because I felt strange/more dissociated. only lasted a day or two because then I convinced myself that the wearing off was giving me dissociation as well, so I started it again. dissociated WORSE and couldn’t stay awake. I don’t even remember yesterday for the most part lmfao. feeling better this morning but SHAKY and like I can’t move off my couch. doctor won’t prescribe me anything besides hydroxyzine- I don’t want to SLEEP, I just want my thoughts to chill w/o me dissociating. 

what are your experiences? 
I really need help before I end up in the hospital.