I’m so confused by every single relationship in my life; I know that I wouldn’t feel the same way that other people feel about most things.

Sometimes I feel like I could just stand in a room without any purpose or intent and just exist. No happiness, no anger, no thoughts, just standing.

Other times, I feel as though there is so much that MUST be done that I’m almost frustrated. But nothing really ever does.

I think I want to be high for the rest of my life; Cocaine, weed, benzos, whatever’s around at the time, I just don’t understand existence without happiness or excitement.

And some people think I’m so sweet and love and trust me and adore me. Some people really think I’m selfish and mental? I don’t understand that either. And honestly I am nice and loveable and I am selfish and mental so, I guess they’re all right.

Have a good day guys. No replies needed. I just wanted to type this out 💕