what do you guys tend to do when you split? i kinda internalise it all and can't function. The worst I've done is tell my best friend how badly she used to treat me and that she doesn't care. Also... she used to be dismissive of my issues even though I helped her through a lot, but obviously through my lack of self worth and fear of abandonment, i stayed. Now she helps me a lot in the sense that whenever I text her about my suicidal crap she reassures me.. she makes a lot of hurtful mistakes along the way but she does care now, I believe.I go from idealising her to devaluing  her so much and i don't know if it's healthy for me to stay.. I guess my question is if someone didn't care in the past but does now.. do they deserve to have me in their lives?