Yesterday I got discharged from the hospital after a suicide attempt. I feel so much shame from failing. 
I hate how I have people worrying about me, having to promise not to try again when I want to. But mostly how much I’m a disappointment for not even being able to kill myself. I just wanted the turmoil and thought in my head to disappear so I took the pills and not even an hour later I pussied out and called the ER. I feel so weak and worthless for not having the guts to follow through when I fear that was my one and only shot to get away