I can’t believe how….normal I feel already. I was diagnosed with BP last month and after suffering the hellfire that was low dose abilify, I could cry with relief from my current med combo (latuda and .5mg klonopin twice a day as needed)

I’m only on 10mg of latuda due to an extreme fear of meds after the abilify caused earth shattering anxiety and agitation. This med seems to have kicked me out of mild psychosis. 

Day 1 I felt…weird, probably bc for the first time in ten years I wasn’t accidentally disassociating. I couldn’t smile yet, only grimace but I was able to enjoy doing cartwheels in the yard with my kids and didn’t think about dying

Day 2- I had the most productive and happy day I’ve had in 2 years. I noticed wasn’t avoiding tasks and I was able to laugh deep from my soul without faking it. 

As an ex drug addict, the stabilization and lack of craving I feel already made me realize I had been trying to self medicate my bipolar with opiates and more recently weed edibles. Zero cravings for either. 

I don’t have any friends to tell who would get it so I’m telling you all. My soul feels whole for the first time in a decade. Thanks to all of you who’ve posted about latuda it’s bc of you guys I accepted the prescription. I’m eternally grateful for this subreddit 

TLDR: day 2 on Latuda and klonopin (as needed) and I feel calmly joyful. Stopped low grade psychosis, opiate and weed cravings. Thank you redditors