I dont know why but I cant feel happiness, The only things making me happy are hurting others, Whenever online or in real life, being racist, homophobic, transphobic, I try not to do it. I dont like doing it, but I feel as i have to. to feel happy... ive already been to a psychiatric hospital 2 times and both times it didnt help me at all, the 2nd time it made me develop a negative view on the world as a whole, i feel like i want to cry but then i dont want to suddenly, can someone help me how to feel happy without hurting others?