I have bad anxiety attacks that destroyed several opportunities for me, top it off with my trichotillomania. So, looking for a great coping strategy is kinda hard while trying to break my old destructive coping habits. Today, I just got myself a logitech hyperscroller mouse since my ol reliable is kinda dying. The hyperscroller wheel is actually... calming. There's something about how it spins and how the mouse sorta vibrates hits my serotonin jackpot. It kinda gave me some nostalgia, remembering how I love spinning the wheel of toy cars.

I've never considered buying a fidget spinner since it irritates me more when I spin it and my fingers are in an awkward position just to hold and spin it. It's not ergonomic at all. I was hoping to look for a fidget toy where there's a bearing with rubber in between, stuck on top of a handle (a little bit like a lighter but the spinny boi is larger). I don't know, but I sort of hope you all would have an idea if that exists. If not, I guess I'd try my hand in making one myself. Or imagining it.