I've been drinking a lot recently. I don't feel particularly bad, I think I'm just having those chronic feelings of boredom and emptiness I get usually, and using alcohol to fill them and feel something. So my apologies in advance if I don't make sense.

To cut it short, I have 7/9 of the symptoms in the DSM 4; I have a genetic predisposition to mental ill health; I had a tumultuous childhood; I was sexually abused as a child and as a teenager. I know I hit all the bases, if you will. 

I understand and identify with Borderline so much, I've seen so much of myself in people with Borderline, BPD in general is so familiar that it's bitterly homely to me. But I don't have that diagnosis because I've been ignored by GPs. I just don't know if it would be appropriate to refer to myself as having BPD without that professional diagnosis. 

I'm not asking for a diagnosis of course, I know that can't be done here, but does anybody else have this issue? Do you know 90%+ that you're probably Borderline but haven't had the opportunity for the official diagnosis? Do you refer to yourself as having BPD; is it appropriate for me to refer to myself as having BPD? I'm confused.