i have dealt with social anxiety my whole life , and agoraphobia has been an oncoming issue for quite some time .

i thought they were the same before realizing they were different and then i realized that i suffer from both so it ultimately does not matter . they certainly look similar on paper . anyhoo , today was proof for my case .

i went out to mcdonalds with a friend bc i had not seen them in a while . it was not crowded so i was ok i thought ,  even tho i kept sanitizing my hands . then i went home . then my best friend in the world called me asking me if i wanted to hang out (i hardly ever see him since he moved an hour away) and we went to a shopping center and sat down on tables as isolated from everything as possible . 

the only reason i could handle it was because i was with him and i
had my hand sanitizer . i am so exhausted i could cry ... so beat up mentally and emotionally .

do not overdo it , ya mallards &lt;3