Is this anxiety?? 

I am in Navy ROTC and I plan on going to the Naval Academy one day and if I fail that then I’ll just go into the navy. I want to be a Seabee, but I am having some problems that is making me think about my mental health and I keep trying to fix it but I can not. I am the Color Guard Captain for a team and I teach a group of four students, then I take them to perform. This is my problem, I make a lot of mistakes and I am a bad leader ! 

Basically, when I am doing drill and when I make multiple mistakes, I start to lose control and make more mistakes and I struggle to keep myself up even though I do sometimes. Sometimes after these mistakes are made ill have time to think to myself and my face becomes dry and my eyes feel crusted, I then feel like nothing and it feels like I enter third person and it’s like I am slowly feeling control of myself. Sometimes during this I will get very sad but after the seconds go away I go back to normal to do what I do. When I am home, I think about my mistakes and I become weak and I make plans to succeed next time, just to fail again. Is this anxiety???


I of course know what it’s like to have anxiety, I have a stutter and i tend to stutter if someone talks to me due to anxiety, but that anxiety is quite tame and I live with it quite well. This anxiety also turns into confidence a lot and I tend to be very confident talking to people I have never met or I mutually know. This feeling I get is weird because it destroys me and I need to find a way to eliminate it or to accept it so I can turn it into confidence. 
Sorry for the ramble