So Im new to all this but just found these comments from this sub which resonate with me.

- " I will literally have cycles in the same day. I will have one day being manic, the next day severe depression. Sometimes it’ll switch on like a light and I’ll have a great day *then suddenly everything just sucks and I don’t want to do anything or talk to anyone*."

- "when I cycle I switch very fast. Like within hours."

- "Its fucking ridiculous starting the day on top of the world and *ending it without a reason to live*."

One day / hour Im on top of the world, anything is possible and Im an amazing person.  Euphoric.  Then 2 hrs later literally all hope is lost, life is pointless.  All the color is gone and only black and gray remain.  Deep pit of despair.  Depression isnt even the word.  Then the cycle starts again.  

Luckily for me, I do have more highs than lows.  And the lows dont last that long.  And I have a level of self loathing that will drive me to lift weights and listen to brutal metal during lows.  That seems to help some.

For any else out there suffering with "ultra-rapid cycling", I feel for you.  Exercise and listening to heavy metal / hardcore helps me some.  Also new-age stuff if I'm too manic.