I'm currently having a bad period, where i can hardly speak to anyone. I can see I am hurting my husband, and that makes me go even lower, and I know if I try to explain, it will be brushed off with him telling me i just need to get going or think positive. 

Not his fault, he was raised in a family who believe mental illness can be solved with a walk.

I truly hate this thing, but i cant help it, and everything hurts, when he hurts i hurt even more, and feel like a huge burden for him.

Just needed to vent somewhere, cause I'm not ready to get proper help for this