My fp hardly cares about me, she knows I self harm and feel low, she still isn't bothered to check up on me and once straight up told me she can't help me because I don't wanna help myself, but I do everything I can to make her feel better and help her with anything and even put her before myself.

She doesn't even reply to my messages properly and I feel she replies to my messages just for the sake of it, I consider her to be my best friend but I don't think I'm that for her.

Sometimes she leaves me on read and I feel I'll never message her again, but if I don't do that, I don't think she'll bother to message and the friendship won't last, and I can't imagine this happening so I end up messaging her, somehow I can't let go of her and just the thought of it makes me cry.

Sorry just wanted to share this. Thank you