not sleeping between the flashbacks and nightmares. I got so worked up on Saturday that I called 111 _x000D_
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I called my CPNs office Monday and left a message for her to call me (the receptionist told me she would be available after 4pm) _x000D_
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She didn't call. (massive feelings of rejection) told myself she must have got held up and she would call in the morning. She didn't_x000D_
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called again today but just got the answering machine. I left a message with my name and number and who I wanted to speak to. Ive had no response._x000D_
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Now not only am I struggling with the flashbacks and self destructive thoughts I'm also full of feelings of rejection and like nobody gives a fuck. _x000D_
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Looks like its another sleepless night relying on warm baths and milky drinks and relaxation cd's.  Does any of that shit actually work for anyone?