and basically I am suppose to be the carrier for my parents and when I die I'll get reunited with my parents because that's what this game wants but they don't want you to reproduce but choose your partner for you because you went to a public school and it is intended to divide humanity so it's easier to rule me because it doesn't go according to their script and who you have sex with because of where you came from. 

I am a slave to the  who have been experimenting on me so that my parents can be reborn or otherwise I'll get tortured to death by other men or other women so it's easier to rule me and control my feelings. If there is a god she doesn't want you to have sex with anyone you want but they got to have cake and eat it too and some more and have been for billions of years or perhaps trillions of years. 

When something is too good to be true, it always is - I am my own worst enemy and this will come back to bite me at one stage form or another so my moto fuck hope - I'll never get to live in the fantasy land forever because those privileges have been stolen and they ran off by other women.