I tried to describe the sensation that put me to the edge many times, because it is so hard to explain, I want to know if someone had it too and if it has an explanation, i'm desperate to make it stop for good.
Maybe this is just depression, but I want to be sure. 

I felt like time was going so so so slowly, and i couldn't feel distracted by anything, or have any pleasure. It came in waves. 

This leaded me to have anxiety, and felt deconnected from the world. I thought 5 minutes had passed when it was just one. 
I believe it is similar to depersonalization and anhedonia, but I'm not sure... 

The anxiety felt like a different one, that i couldn't really feel, like my body was not anxious, but it was still there somehow, because I could not feel anything, any emotions but this. 

It is comparable to your mind being trapped in a blank space, eternal void, and you could never die, you were damned to think for eternity, and your thoughts will not shut up, even for one second. 
I had multiple thoughts at the same time, could not finish one before one other came, and it was mostly the same ones in cycle.

I felt like I had to do anything, anything, to feel again, or shut up my mind. 
Not in touch with reality, traped in my own mind or some kind of simulation. 

And the worst is, alcohol could not even fix it nor food, but I binged on them just to crash to sleep to espace it, otherwise I would feel no rest from this.

I don't know if it can be caused by xanax PAWS/od :/ 

Now I take Wellbutrin and I notice a significant help most days, my emotions are back and I feel more easily distracted, meaning days don't feel like weeks anymore, I feel more like my old self. 
But I might have to stop because of a side effect :/

I don't think anyone took time to read this, but in case thank you and sorry for my mistakes in english ^^