It’s about this woman I’ve been talking to.

We’ve been talking since around the summer on and off. I posted this on /r/nostupidquestions and some guy told me I was spazzing. Then another said;

&gt; Ugh you posted this question in 3 places! You’re definitely spazzing! 

I tried explaining I wasn’t spazzing and I was a bit anxious. They obviously didn’t listen. I realized I was obviously wasting my time with them, deleted the post, and blocked them all. The guy also said ‘people usually can’t tell if people are into you’ or whatever. Before I deleted the post, I asked what he was talking about, then realized it wasn’t worth it.

So here we get to the details. Yesterday we talked about mindfulness. She said it’s a great tool and she tries to be mindful often. I thought that was a polite statement and I felt she was being genuine. I told her I understood, mindfulness is great, she’s a beautiful soul trying to be genuine, and we should continue our conversation sometime. 

I was anxious after that. I was at work and I *definitely* didn’t feel like talking to anyone, so I did some outside tasks while breathing. I felt like I couldn’t calm down, but after awhile of being present and mindful, breathing through the nose, I felt better. 

I will say I was/am *terrified* of saying something weird, dumb, or creepy to her. Anxiety 101 right? Then I slowly remembered we’ve been chatting since the summer I think. There was a time when she didn’t reply to my messages but replied she was busy, but later on gave me signals I feel that she was interested.

* She invited me over and gave me her number.
* She winked at me.
* She raised her eyebrows and acted excited to see me.
* When I finally got the courage to call her, she said to hit her up anytime.
Sigh. I think this is some decent evidence she’s interested. A few days ago my housemate invited her with my phone, we’re both drunk, and she seemed pretty excited. So a few days later was when I messaged her saying she’s a beautiful soul.

What do you think? I realize if she isn’t interested that’s the harsh reality, but I felt like she was. Then I was contemplating who goes from telling someone to hit them up anytime to being turned off or uninterested? It’s also not like I was messaging her everyday. I also realized because she doesn’t reply it doesn’t necessarily mean she’s ignoring me right? She could be nervous.