Sorry if this post is against the rules, I don't now if we are allowed to rant here. I hate that I know what things I do make me hate myself and then I tell myself I won't do it again and make a whole detailed plan just to end up doing it again. I hate that I'm unable to take responsibility and change and just watch myself do the same mistake over and over again. I hate that those without BPD can just easily stop and for me its not that easy.