I'm convinced no one can answer this question truthfully with me in mind unless I tell them everything thats happened in my life lol. I constantly feel like im not doing enough, or that I'm not focusing on the right things. I should get a job, but I dont want the stress that comes with it, though I could use the money. I should try to make more friends, but I'm not sure where to start. I always have excuses, but even if I stop making them, I don't know where to begin. I feel... stagnant. Maybe its the senioritis hitting me but I feel so complacent, like im doing nothing of use and not moving anywhere. 

I wish someone could look at my life and TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I want them to sEe my failures and my problems and what I'm SUPPOSED to do and tell me how to start. I need guidance, or something. I have no one pushing me, not even myself. I don;t know how to get off my ass and start. I'm just... at a stand still. everything feels exhausting, even the things I want to do. Everyday I go to school then come home. I hardly do anything else, so why do I feel so tired and stressed everyday? I do nothing but indulge in pleasures I dont deserve. I just wish I had some motivation!!! Or drive, or something. Something to get me moving, to get me going SOMEWHERE.