All,

Long post from a long time anxiety suffer. I have been at my current job for 9 years and I gave them the heads up that I was a finalist for a job on Tuesday and signed my offer letter for the job this morning. This is a dream type job to get me an industry that I want to get into, able to work from home, and something new for me. It also pays more, gives me room for growth, and will help with my marriage.

Problem is..... I feel super guilty for leaving. To put it in perspective this would be like an accountant leaving in the middle of tax season. I know this is the right move for me and my family, but I know I am going to burn some bridges and be looked down upon once I start telling others I have two weeks left either tomorrow or Friday. I start the new job 10/11. My wife and others say I shouldn't feel guilty for leaving since I have not been promoted in the 9 years I have been with the company, others in different department don't treat me well, I do most of the work, and my salary has gone up only about 7k since I started. The job is causing me enough anxiety and boring for me at this point, so I know deep down it is the right move, but yet I feel bad. I know I am going to leave a huge hole and it is going to be struggle for my boss to do what I did.

The anxiety is crippling. I can't sleep, I feel like my blood pressure is sky high, my stomach in knots. Why do I have issues with how people are going to perceive me? These next few weeks are going to be so tough from an anxiety perspective. I am not on meds, as I have never had a good reaction to them, and I ghosted my therapist pre-covid so not sure he would see me. Any advice?