I can’t stop thinking about the bullshit my ex wife said to me the other day. To have the  audacity to say you have nightmares almost every night because I treated you so poorly after I treated you like a queen while you treated me like shit? Tell me I tried to rape you on our vacation in Tennessee for wanting to be intimate and give some oral after you guilted me into letting you play with my ass in the beginning of the relationship? You never told me no or let me know you were uncomfortable but I told you how I felt about anal. Yet I’m somehow the shitty husband and rapist. I’m beyond hurt and pissed off and it makes me not want to trust anyone ever again….Like I just feel like giving up on love. Give up on people. As soon as things end between me and my current and only friend, and I know they will, I’ll officially be done. I’ll die before I let anyone else in my life.  Tired of being the good guy. It’s getting me nothing but heartache and loneliness.