I have the biggest problem with social anxiety. It takes control of my life. I can't go anywhere out of the house, without thinking about how people perceive me or how I present myself to them. I'm quite young and I have no friends in school because I’m way too shy to talk to anybody and when somebody stands up to talk to me, I always end up panicking about what to say and saying something always awkward. I simply can’t be myself in school. 

I didn't always use to have social anxiety. Back in elementary, I used to have tons of friends and actually was very popular, but then (IDK how it happened), I developed social anxiety over the years. I can't even be myself in front of anyone anymore, not even my family, without thinking about how I am perceived. Honestly, I can't take living like this anymore. I'm now just the awkward loser kid at school. I talked with my parents once or twice about how I want therapy. However, my parents always say I don't need it and won't pay, so therapy is out of the question. I even developed maladaptive daydreaming and I confine myself in my room when I get home and daydream to music. It's like I'm trapped in my head, disconnect from reality. Whenever I snap back to reality, I just want to escape from my anxiety through daydreaming. 

I know there's something cognitively wrong with me. I know none of you are professionals, but any advice you have, please share. 

Help me. I don't know what to do. I just want to go back to the way I was.