When I was a kid I remember not being scared of anything, with talking to girls I didn’t contemplate as much, real basketball games I didn’t tunnel vision, no problem checking someone for their bs or fighting. I could do anything no weird shakes feeling going through my head. Around 14 I started to realize things about the world spiritually, patterns and all around what people would call “woke”. I started to view school in a different way, more of a box they trap our minds into. Observing how people act and tendencies. This has led me to wanting to attend school less and having zero ambition to leave my house. If I smoke weed at a certain time of day I will refuse to go anywhere if I think something bad will happen (this varies) more bad highs than good recently, i had good more highs often along time ago. I get a weird feeling in my stomach. Also my thoughts and perspective alters and is amplifies. I feel slightly less me when I smoke. But anyway, I don’t have any anxiety when it comes to talking to others never really have. Only thing that bothers me is why do I not enjoy doing things in fear that something bad will happen. Some form of depersonalization hmm?