The whole rollercoaster of up and down is so so exhausting. One minute your sad and suicidal the next you feel energised and happy but then it all comes crashing down again because of one tiny trigger. Its a vicious cycle and man I don't want to live like this anymore... I can't imagine living another 60-70 years like this with these emotions. For me personally the therapy I've had genuinely hasn't worked no matter how hard I tried, the coping skills don't work for me and I just made no progress over the 4 years I was there. I'm going to try Emdt therapy next week to work on trauma and I am praying im going to make some amount of progress. Also its even worse living with this when people without the disorder hardly understand anything about it and once they trigger you, accidentally or not, they turn against you and expect you to act like a "normal" person but how am I supposed to act like one if my brain doesn't really work that way?
Does anyone relate or have advice?