It seems like now at the age of 40, anxiety and depression are just constants. I used to be able to say "This is a bout of depression." Or "This is a panic attack." Over the years it has only gotten worse and I've been on all of the drugs that have existed up until now about it. Now I just live 100% of my life in the place where younger people are probably feeling they exist now. I don't know what was the point to this post I just felt I had to get something off my chest in this moment I suppose.