I've been going through the worst episode of my life. It started almost 5 months ago, and since it started, I haven't known peace. I'm 35 and have never experienced anything like this. I have horrible anger and mixed feelings towards my husband, which is by far the worst part. Thesw feelings just get worse and worse over time. I'm in RO-DBT, but everything seems so hopeless. I just wish I could be allowed to end my life, and that people would accept it and understand. It seems like the most empathetic thing people could do, honestly.