I just turned 19 a couple weeks ago, I work 50 hours a week from 6:45pm-5:15am. As soon as i get home I have to deal with my girlfriend who has OCD and is extremely paranoid about every little thing. She makes me go outside to check if the porch light is off, or if she turned off her car light, or if the tap is off in the bathroom sink, and no matter how much I reassure her it’s like an everyday thing. I haven’t focused on myself in i dont know how long, i have no social life, i have nobody reassuring me that everything is going to be okay other than myself. I put my dreams aside for my girlfriends mental health and now my mental health is deteriorated. I just feel stuck, and helpless. I just sleep and go to work, whereas I want to go out and experience the joy that life can bring. I want to go make friends, I want to follow my dreams, but that just seems so hard rn