I just feel so helpless in life. Early in my adult like I isolated from my “friends.” I have a boyfriend but intimacy isn’t enough to heal me nor should it. I’m 20 and living with my mother who holds these little things over me to keep a grip on my life. It’s lead me to feel that my life is slipping out of my fingers. Sad that even a life becoming not my own has brought about emotions that I cannot bear. My heart hurts like heartbreak and I don’t know what to do aside from crying and journaling.