First post here. I don’t know if I’m the only one who has ever experienced this before. But ever since I was younger, I have remembered every phase of anxiety I went through (ages 8/9ish, 13, 17, 22, and currently going through it now at 25). I was always afraid of the “what ifs” and things that sound so ridiculous: 
(scary movie scared me to death to the point I thought ghosts were in my closet, I was hit on by a gay guy in high school and it terrified me and made me think “what if I was gay” even though there is nothing wrong with that, the term suicide terrified me, I would never do it but when I found out one of my closest friends had tried several times, it freaked me out so bad, and then the “what ifs” rolled in: again I would never do it, but the term and thought is what terrified me. 

SO - After a few weeks to a couple months of worry and constant headaches, anxiety, worrying so much I have anxiety attacks, the anxiety would dissipate and go away every time. Life would go on as normal as if nothing happened. I would reflect back months and months later, and think “wow, I can’t believe I was feeling that way/ in that head space”. And I wouldn’t be phased, life just went on as normal like nothing happened. 

Now, being 25, just graduated college, I can say that now it’s at its peak compared to every other time this has happened to me when I was younger. I’m afraid of having anxiety attacks and constantly and working myself up into having them occasionally. It feels like it’s a never ending struggle. 

Moral of this thread: I was curious if anyone has ever experienced anything similar? The waves of anxiety last for a couple months, than once I get into a routine it seems to disappear completely and my mind goes into the “damn man, can’t believe I was in a slump” mode. There’s always been one common factor- school. Being in school has always been what kept me grounded it seems. Most of these incidents I mentioned that have happened previously happened over summer breaks. 

I recently started going to a physiologist to talk about it in order to help myself and my future fiancé as this is very important to me to get a better understanding on in order to have a great life with her. 

Any input helps. Thank you!