I've been struggling very badly lately. I'll go from adoring my friends and doing anything I can to get their attention or talking to them as often as I can to hating all of them very quickly for very minuscule reasons. These episodes usually end with me cutting them off without warning and doing something impulsive, like spending all my money. It's awful.

Whenever I think I've found friends that I hope to keep, something sets me off, and just like that they're gone again in the blink of an eye.

As soon as I start feeling comfortable I feel uneasy. I feel like every relationship I have is temporary so once I feel safe in them something will ruin it. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just frustrated.