
I started taking medication to help with my bpd symptoms. My friends were laughing as they told me they’re so happy and relieved I didn’t “lose my sparkle” I was kinda confused and they basically said they were worried I’d become too boring to hang out with. What does that mean? What am I to them? So what if I became boring, I’m healing. I want to get better damn it. 

I always felt like a third wheel. I always felt like the friend just used to make them laugh or make them feel better when down. I’m struggling so fucking bad and are they here? No, they’re busy talking about being “so feral” and leading on like 5 guys and making excuses for their problematic behavior. I don’t scare what they do, it’s just all they care about. It’s all they talk about. I’m just so hurt.