I swear I can fall in love with anyone who gives me even a little time of day. 

This dude treats me like shit (and has even said so himself) but I can’t walk away. I’ve tried. Now I’m just sitting here depressed because I really thought he felt the same as me. Of course he says he’s into me but
I might be dumb enough to fall in love with anyone, I’m not dumb enough to be oblivious of his true intentions (or lack thereof). 

Another factor is because I know exactly how he feels. He doesn’t have anyone to tell him he’s not worthless. So of course I’d feel guilty leaving. 

My self esteem is so damn low. I’m just happy to have someone text me back sometimes and tell me I’m good at sex. How pathetic is that? 

I’m also scared because honestly not stressing myself over him means that there’s free space in my mind to think about what a POS I am.

I hate this. 