I've had depression and anxiety for at least a decade, got on medication when it got really bad about 5 years ago. Things seemed ok for awhile, at times even swell. Within a month a wave has crashed on me of SEVERE anxiety almost all day for reasons I don't even know. Trouble breathing, feeling like I'm going to die, deep deep fear of something, but what?...The depression has come back 2 fold with this recent bout and meds seem to be not working anymore.  I drag myself through each day in literal pain. I don't wanna feel this way, I don't want to live the rest of my life lie this. Any moment of joy is almost immediately wiped from mind. I need something to look forward to, I need to know one day I will be content. Thank you for listening.