Even a sip of alcohol makes me sick but I drink because it makes me forget about being so depressed. I hate smoking, so I cant turn to that either. 
I honestly don't know what to do. I've been on the therapy waiting list for 5 months as well, so I am trying I guess. Ive started new hobbies, etc. 
Anyway, How can I get drunk without feeling repulsed at the thought of drinking? Every sip of anything makes me want to gag. Alternatives or solutions?