Aside from many problems in my life, my gf cheated and broke up with me two weeks ago but i had not had the opportunity to grief. My family left for the weekend but I stayed home. All I have done all weekend is lay in bed and cry myself to sleep. Just wanted to share this with u. She always told me that I was the love of her life and yet she betrayed me. I feel so replaceable. I feel like I don’t mean anything for anyone. Like I just can get thrown away so easily. How can I really love me? I people show me how unimportant I am? 

I had never thought of ending myself but that’s all I can think of today. I don’t want to die, but I want to not feel this way