This might sound crazy, but I wanna know if anyone else has felt this. I'm almost scared to get better, I'm scared to think about "life after". I've had emotional problems since I was around 10. I dont like having depression or BPD or anxiety, but I don't know who I am without those things. And that terrifies me. I think about my life in 5 - 10 years, after treatment, after leaning to emotionally regulate, after learning all the coping skills and I'm terrified because I have no idea what that future looks like. I think about a version if myself that is in control of her mind and body and emotions, and she seem like a stranger. I don't like being sick, but at least I know how to float through the storm you know?