So I guess I'm just looking for advice, I don't know. I'm 28F, autistic and ADHD and I've struggled with depression and anxiety for... Basically ever. I think it stems most of the time from the autism and feeling like I don't belong and am not accepted in this world. I spend literally all of my energy trying to fit into the world and completely burnt myself out in my early twenties and spent three years in such severe depression that I was suicidal and didn't leave the house for days and days at a time.

I signed up for medical coding classes over a year ago and I've totally lost steam on it. I don't think I'm smart enough for it and I was doing so badly at the quizzes despite trying to hard that my brain felt like it was going to explode. I work a super part time job (like 3-8 hours a week) and regularly don't have enough money to pay my bills. My husband has helped me a lot but we want to have a family and he can't financially do it alone. Everyone keeps asking me how my classes are going and I just want to run away and hide. All I want to do when I think about them is just go to sleep and not think about it.

What I've wanted more than anything in my adult life is to work for myself from home. I want something that gives me the ability to step away from my work for a day or maybe two when I'm feeling bad and not have to explain myself to a boss. I wish so badly that I had artistic talent and could start an Etsy business. My only real marketable crafty skill is floral arrangements but it would be too pricey to start up. I don't mind repetitive work, it actually makes me happy. I don't like unpredictability in my work. I'm so lost. I've spent the last eleven years of my life since graduating high school looking for something like this but I also don't have a college degree. I feel like giving up. I'm so burnt out.