I am heavily conflicted here. I don't feel stigmatized, but judging by the coming out of the schizo closet and people ghosting me because of it I guess I am stigmatized. Total pieces of shit.

But like.. I also have a high opinion of myself despite not being the most attractive girl and I know I could find someone, but I don't want just anybody. So finding someone who is right for me and doesn't judge me is pretty hard. And people without mental illness fail at this miserably many times. So the probability of me having a long-term husband is just... not good.

Then come children. Should I have children? Is it genetic? Is it fair to all of us? I don't know. Or all this could fall into the water cause I might have premature menopause... but that's something else.

What about you?