Like, it doesn't enter you, but gets lost in that isolation void. Like, you know people care, people love you. They say it, and you can see it their actions sometimes. But...it doesn't resonate or enter or whatever. It's there intellectually, not there physically? I don't know if this even makes sense. 

I don't feel it, and I'm only left accepting it. Which is fine, I guess. I've accepted enough to argue with the thoughts that tell me otherwise. But...acceptance is not enough. It's not enough. 

The ache left behind in that absence is suffocating. Why can't I feel it? Why don't I know how? Why doesn't it stay if I think something is there?