Today I let go of life, a life that has trapped me, I let go of the trauma that has hunt me every since I have memory. It isn’t a life when I feel irremediably afraid of everything and everyone. I’m a ridiculous modern anachronism. I’m tremendously tired, disappointed and sad, and I’m sure that everyday that will go by all of this emotions will kill me from within. I’m ending it, right away.

All my life I have been inscrutable. Up and down, dark and bring, does it even matter anymore if my time is running out? I’m going out, my life, the light in it, is going out. 
Now, is it fair to stay where I’m in pain? Surely it isn’t fair; I have always been unfair with myself, and everyone else in my life, just like I have been with you. Today I’m breaking that chain. Today I let go, today I feel the calm I felt when I let go of that window frame two years ago. Today I’m setting myself free. And I have everything to win because I’m the ruler of my life and I always knew this was going to be the way I would go. 

I don’t keep anything but love and sweetness from you, my dear. You have been the best boyfriend in the world and I’m the one who is losing you. But this act doesn’t mean defeat, it means strength, I had the strength and will to let go, which is what we came to this world for. I love you. 

Remember me for myself, not for this. I die because for being 21, I feel like a failure in absolutely every aspect of my life, and I haven’t understood this world and life, ever since I was a child. I’m unable to cope with relations, and life is built off them. I’m incapable of living. And I can’t resist love, but it has taken all of my strength away. Love is much more stronger than my will to live, and it has stripped me away from everything.

Goodbye.