I withdrew from Zoloft in march 2020 after having taken it for 2 years. The best thing it did for me was stop me from dissociating and give me more confidence. I've reverted back to those behaviours at full tilt. I can't engage in conversations anymore, be present in the moment, and the constant negative self-talk is back, which is crippling and stops me from doing anything. Thinking I'm disgusting, useless, stupid, annoying, ugly all the time. Zoloft has made me realise how chronic all these behaviours are in me. I literally dissociate 24/7 and have done for the decade and a half that I've been living with depression. It impedes cognitive functioning so much- can't hold onto a thought and follow it through, can't react to or engage with what people are saying to me.

The dose I was on stopped being effective towards the end so I withdrew rather than upping my dose. It was so fucking hard coming off the first time, but I don't know what else to do but go back on Zoloft.

Or has anyone tried any other useful meds? (I can't afford therapy)