I have been seeing a counselor for about 6 months now. I started because I was unhappy with how my marriage is going. I feel like my wife has major depression issues and it is causing us problems. At my last session my counselor brought up BPD.  He was asking if my wife had certain symptoms. He suggested she might have some traits of BPD. Me being the person I am I immediately went home and started reading about it. I wanted to learn so I could help her. 

Here's what has me freaking out. When I read about the symptoms. When I read your posts and stories, I don't see my wife. I see me. I started counseling because my wife was having problems and wouldn't admit it. I wanted to fix her and us. Suddenly I'm wondering if I am the cause. If I am the broken one. I have called my counselor multiple times and left him 2 messages but he has not gotten back to me. 

I'm sitting here wondering if he brought up BPD because he thinks I might have it and not because of my wife. Getting pissed that he has not gotten back to me. Even briefly considered that he is ignoring me to give me time to think/process. I guess no real point here except to try to let out some fear/frustration. 

Edit: sorry but I don't know how to do flair on my phone. 