 I finally get established with a new therapist, who works with all of my mental health issues, and im trying to better myself, we had 3 sessions together, the first was intake with her supervisor, and it went well, and then we had 2 more  sessions , she was very accommodating with my concerns and my needs, to only do voice sessions instead of video for the time being, and she was seeming so great, I misunderstood her on the first session and thought she was against me being trans and i sent her an email asking if she could clarify, and she gave me a call, outside of work to re-assure me she accepts me.

On the second session she asked about my heightened anxiety, during the actual session, and told me we can just get to know each other this first month, so i feel more comfortable with her, and she gave me a task to write down all of my emotions for the day, and why i was feeling them and that would help her get to know me a bit better on our next session, our next session comes and she cancels, then the next, and she cancels, and today im finally getting to speak with her, i have a lot i want to discuss, and im really stressing about an upcoming doctors appointment and really needed to talk with her about it, but instead we have a 30 second phone call of her telling me that she is leaving, and dropping me as a patient, and goodluck. I just broke down after that, the last therapist i tried to get did the same thing to me after the second session. 

I've been putting so much energy and trying my hardest to push through so many negative emotions to try and get help, but all my efforts feel futile.  Why are you taking on new patients if you know you're going to leave, and lead me on about all the future things we're going to be focusing on. and make me do these writing prompts just to go unread and undiscussed.  Is that normal?

 I'm sorry, i feel upset and really needed to vent