Me and my mum have never gotten along, neither did her and my sister hence why they dont talk anymore, but last night i got home from my boyfriends and we fell out instantly except this time i couldnt handle it, when we fight i yell some horrible things, it wasnt always like this but after the numerous comments on my life in general and shit she finds funny that just isnt  i lash out at her. But i feel horrible, she uses me as her therapist, i hold so much guilt about her, i get horrible days where i just think im the worst person in the world because of how guilty i feel. My dad pays my mum child support and she gets a fortnightly payment from centrelink *an Australian government system for unemployed people and people in rough situations ect ect* and refuses to get a job, shes so set on winning the lottery and just having everything handed to her that she doesnt think she has to work for any one, but she only ever buys food that she eats and if i dont like it well “too bad”. I dont know how to tell her what i want, because i dont know what i want but its not this. she blame shifts and victimises herself and makes me question everything. So late last night my boyfriend who lives 2 hours away and his parents cane to pick me up, it was so so nice of them and they completely insisted on it, so im now situated with them. They want me to move in with them and i want to as well. But what if my mum isnt as bad as i think she is? Am i allowed to be so upset over such little conflict? 


Shes been texting me all day reminding me i have a home with her and a dog there and that *because ive always hated school my whole life* she has offered to let me drop out and work full time at coles? Tho I actually enjoy school now??