Here lately Ive steeped into a deep paranoia. I feel like everyone around me is lying to me about everything. Its a deep feeling in my stomach that I cant trust anyone. Its caused me to not be able to sleep, I randomly snap at everyone randomly, I'm having suicidal ideations, and get so upset I feel like turning to violence or punching/breaking something. This isnt normal for me at all. I currently use drugs but really only smoke weed. I'm diagnosed bipolar major depression and PTSD but never experienced symptoms like this. I have reached out for help but I have to wait almost a month for my first appointment.

Someone, please at least try to give me some insight on what is happening or at least some helpful coping mechanisms. I am genuinely scared for my mental health and even tried admitting myself to my local hospital. They are currently at capacity. 

Thank you.