This isn't about making decisions, even though that also is so hard for me. I mean it in a way as if I should not be here, as if I shouldn't exist. Every move I make feels like a mistake, not even speaking of my social "skills". I wake up, have the usual struggle to stand up and look in the mirror. In there I don't see myself, I see a mistake, a person that failed in simply being someone, a person that doesn't belong in the world.
And then sitting in school, not even listening properly anymore, feeling the same, well knowing I'll probably fail class if I continue like this.