So for quite a while now, getting up to maybe just under a year now ive been having really hard times going outside to places, im not sure where or when this problem originated exactly but it has ruined my life. i dropped out of college (UK) because my depression was getting worse to the point where i couldnt do any work and then once i got better and was ready to start working this came along and i did find a job but i had a breakdown the first day and couldnt continue, i want to be able to work and go out to places but it feels so terrifying. i have gotten some meds for this (propranolol mainly and diazepam for if i need it) and they do help but im supposed to be going on holiday at the end of this month and im worried that i might not be able to go because of things like the airport, plane ride and things like getting meals in the hotel. I really want to be able to live my life fully and not the way i am right now because this isnt living, any and all advice is welcome and greatly appreciated. Thanks :)