Hi guys, it's my 1st time on reddit n i have about 0 clue how to use this but here it goes- im a 20 year old female and i know for a fact that i'm not severely depressed. I have friends who go through so much worse than I do and have worse symptoms and whatnot and i've seen it all firsthand and yes, i know depression looks differnet on everyone but i dont struggle too hard compared to others if that makes sense. I go through these 'episodes' i guess where i feel like im actually drowning. Like, when you have a bad headache or something and you tell yourself that the ibuprofen will kick in soon and you just need to get through the next half hour but like in a mental way. I have no clue if that makes sense but like i always feel like i need to take an advil and get over it. i'm going through some stress in regards to school, making lifelong career choices, self-conscious issues, and a lack of a love life (lol). i feel super ungrateful because i feel like im so so so blessed, my parents are super supportive of me and do everything in their power to ensure my success and happiness and here i am not knowing shit about my future and talking about how depressed i am. im not even SAD i jsut dont feel well. and i know its a symptom to not feel emotions but like if someone asks me if im okay- i will burst into tears. idk how to go about feeling better or going to the doctor cause i would have to telll my parents bc of insurance but i feel super ungrateful and stupid doing so and i feel like i will get over it and its jus a phasE??? i also have a very tough time concentrating and getting school work done (A+ procastinator here). sorry about the rant but any help would be great. or any insight, etc. thanks guys. idk if this will even reach anyone lol