Honestly the worst depression I have ever experienced in my entire life. It was triggered by a breakup back in August. I know it's been about 4 months but my depression just keeps getting worse. Just when I think it can't get any worse it does. This downward spiral has no end. I have experienced multiple breakups but this one is something else. It triggered tons of things in my life that I am unhappy about. The relationship just kind of masked my issues.

I really see no end to this. I don't think I can get through this. Even therapy has not been helping and it feels like ages between sessions. Fuck I did not even want to post this. But I don't have a session until tomorrow and needed to get it out. This time I think depression may win. I don't even know what the fuck I am holding onto at this point. Every single fucking piece of me is fighting to survive every day. Intrusive thoughts are the worst of it. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this mental torment.