I have had a difficult run with my FP for about a year and some months. She’s actually the reason I ended up back in therapy, and through that experience is how I learned of my probable BPD status.

We’re teachers at the same school (though, not to be the case next year) and I wanted to give myself some closure by laying everything out on the table. 

It was an extremely difficult thing to do. I had her read this lovely article: https://themighty.com/2018/06/im-a-favorite-person-bpd-borderline-personality-disorder/ to help shed some clarity on what has been going on. 

Her response was compassionate and loving and it’s almost as if that’s harder than if she had just freaked out and vowed to never speak to me again. 

My heart is still broken wide open and my emotions are so raw and all over the place. I got extra stoned last night to forget everything and ended up texting her that I was sorry, but I needed to tell her one more time how much I loved her. She said not to be sorry and that she loved me too.

I want to crawl in to bed and hide. It feels like every fiber of my being is aching. I’m still in shock, I think. Anyway...mostly a vent but...what should I do, friends? She suggested we meet for dinner tonight (we truly haven’t connected as friends in some time and she used to be the closest friend I had) but I don’t know if I should allow myself more time (I’m scared if I cancel I won’t know when I will see her again). Is it acceptable to ask her to help me set boundaries in our relationship or that’s ultimately not her job? Thanks for the listen.