This isn't something i always struggled with. But to me it's a big one. Music, I love music. I used to dance, sing along. I used to listen to my music whilst out amd about with earphones in, I used to play it on high volume amd prance around in my home, I used to go out clubbing with friends at the weekends amd damce the night away lol..I loved it.
I still like listening to music at times but when around people, even my close ones i can't express my appreciation. I can't move to the beat anymore, sing along to the lyrics. I don't know why, I just go numb.

Stayed at my sisters this past wkend and she was blasting some tunes, she was singing, dancing and jus feeling it..
I just felt awkward, i sat playing on my phone the whole time, the whole 2hrs..Even when a few of my all time faves came on..I just couldn't relax and enjoy the music. I feel self conscious, i feel like a robot pretending to enjoy something i deeply love.

I am aware i'm stressed, depressed and need to find suitable therapy but the one thing i couldn't resist, the one thing i relied on to lift my spirits now makes me feel numb. Why?