I’m just having a hard time with this, first off, I don’t want to get shipped off on a grippy sock vacation. Mostly because I don’t want my family to know. There’s a strong stigma surrounding going to a hospital and I’m worried my family would judge. It’s also just a very uncomfortable conversation to have, I love my therapist but I still have a hard time opening up to anyone. I’ve even lied to him before to avoid some certain feelings and conversations. Thirdly, a part of me desperately wants help but I don’t feel like I deserve to have help or that my situation is bad enough where I need help, if that makes sense. There’s more pros than cons about bringing this thing up, I’m just scared and anxious. 
TLDR; Read the title please.