I’m at some sort of tipping point, idk whether to go extreme or try to do some self help with mdma or some shit. More suicidal tonight but ig it’s not too different from normal. But I finally kinda told a friend abt what I’ve been feeling but they didn’t rlly understand what I meant so I left it at that. Now there’s rlly no one who I can talk to and it’s up to me to decide what to do next which is in a way good knowing it’s fully in control even if it’s at the cost of keeping everything to myself.