i am probably at my lowest point rn. my anxiety has been spiking and i have feeling very depressed, and then my best friend lefts me in all of this. she said that she doesn’t want to be friends anymore and that she thinks that we aren’t meant for eachother. she was the only one i could talk to and vent to. i always told her my secrets and even when something small would happen i would always text her first. we had been best friends for about 5 years and no one has ever known me so well she did. we always helped eachother and where there for eachother, and yes we had some arguments but all friends has that sometimes. i have never even thought of that she would left me and we has said to eachother like 1000 times that we will never leave eachother but now.. she left me. 

it started with that she wanted to take a pause in our friendship because she felt like we were arguing to much and i said that it was fine and now 5 days after she said that she realized how much better she felt without me and that she didn’t want to be friends anymore. when she texted me that i broke into tears. i never thought that it would end up this way. 

i have no clue how to cope and everything feels hopeless rn. she was like the other half of me. fine i have like 3 other friends but they don’t know me like she did. does anyone have some advice on how to cope?:/