I haven’t left the house much in 2 months. I’m stuck here in the suburbs, where I was abused and bullied as a kid. I have no real friends or healthy relationships. I’m emotionally, physically, spiritually bankrupt. I’m too tired. I’m drifting away, disassociating in this bath tub, hoping that I’ll drown or find relief from the scolding hot water. It never works. I can’t do this anymore.