i wish i had friends in person that i liked and felt known and understood by, ive never had that in my life except a few rare occasions and it was always like a fleeting situation — really loved and became best friends with a roommate I had for 2 weeks before we got evicted, love my online friends I’ve never met and in the past at times felt more connected to them. I decided not to interact with anyone anymore because I don’t know how to function interpersonally. I’m not lashing out or starting fights but I’m extremely sensitive and defensive and always feel people don’t like me or are secretly against me