On top of my bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder and PTSD I also suffer from drinking alcohol to the point I will force myself to be sick so I will be able to function the next day. I am medication compliant but I take them in the morning. I am finally realizing what I am doing to myself to escape at night. I actually repeated multiple times I surrender. I don’t what this to be who I am it wasn’t like this before quarantine so I think that is a factor but not an excuse. The moment I surrendered I knew I was doing this to myself and it was not okay. Anyone else experiencing this?