Hi so I got diagnosed with bipolar a couple months ago but I kinda knew I’ve had it for a while anyways I’m on meds but I still feel manic, idk how to explain its like a cross between hypo and manic because normally when I’m manic I have psychosis but right now I think my meds are preventing that but boy do I feel manic in every other aspect, I can’t sleep, I’m getting drawn into these big complicated projects that in my mind are genius and I’m aware of all of what I’m doing in the back of my head but I can’t seem to make it stop. I’m so understimulated it like hurts it feels like it physically hurts and I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions. I used to smoke weed allllll the time so I never have really felt this when manic before but now that I haven’t smoked in a couple months I am now unprepared for how to deal with this. I also just bought a 65$ present for a friend and 120$ concert tickets the whole time like knowing it was impulsive but doing it anyways . How do I get stimulation in ways that are not long almost endless complicated projects, buying things, drugs, and unmeaningful sex? I think if I could just get stimulation I wouldn’t engage in these other things as much when manic especially now that I am miraculously aware of what I’m doing. Sorry it’s so long my brain is going off rn.