I’ve had an anxiety disorder since about midway through elementary school, it has never been severe however. Recently in November, I (F17) began to experience intrusive thoughts after an ex friend of mine reached out to me and “apologized” for their actions, only for them to go about their behavior again. For a good two weeks now, I’ve had thoughts about them hurting me/harassing me, which often get triggered when I am left alone/I am home alone and not at home with another person. My sleep cycles are messed up, I’ve been waking up at 4:30AM/6:00AM several times in a row for about a week and a half now, even if I go to bed at a normal time. I took Melatonin when I was in second grade and it helped with my sleep issues. I was also on anxiety meds at some point but went off them as at the time my anxiety wasn’t severe. Time makes me anxious. I always plan ahead what I’m going to do on the days I’m home alone due to my mom and stepdad working. I’m scared that days ahead I’ll have these intrusive thoughts about my friend. These thoughts extended to me messing around with settings on my social media accounts. I’m scared that the accounts will get hacked after reading a post where somebody had theirs hacked, despite having max security settings on for my Instagram account. What do I do? I haven’t had suicidal thoughts yet. Do I talk to my mom and stepdad about it? Start therapy? Go on anxiety meds? When I’m about to have an anxiety attack my stomach gets a sinking feeling and I start to pace.