i've lost all my energy and will. even the bare minimum things like eating, brushing or bathing seem energy consuming. i am bored, demotivated and feeling low and negative. my attention span has lessened a fcking lot. i am from india, getting therapy is difficult for me. mental health is a lot stigmatized, can't talk to my parents regarding this. Plus my financial condition is not good, so getting help personally seems difficult too.  i know asking help on reddit is not the best thing to do. but i don't wanna be among those who just say depressed for attention. that's why i am requesting of you to tell me is there really something wrong with me or i am just thinking that way. i am NOT suicidal. i know i won't kill myself but i would neither want to live in the current state. my days would just pass away doing nothing and my condition would just be deteriorating. i am afraid one point would come where i would breakdown to the point of no return.