So I've finally officially been diagnosed with bipolar 2 (even though I've operating as though I had it for years) and anxiety and I decided to give medication a try just for some stabilization help and maybe to bring up my lows a little.
I was really excited about trying Lamictal but ended getting  a rash, which was super disappointing cause it looked like one of the least invasion ones. So then I caved and tried caplyta, well it went horribly I got sicker then I ever have and spent a good few hours thinking I was gonna die. The side effects hit me so bad, (I got every single one of the "common side effects" at once. )
So basically I'm at a point where I'm really terrified to try anything, but also my symptoms are beging to really interfere with my life and at the same time I waited a really long time just to have access to a psychiatrist and I'm afraid if I don't do meds he might not feel the need to see me anymore. 
He convinced me to try a low dose of Latuda and I picked up the prescription about a month ago, except I never took it. I'm really worried I'm going to have another bad experience and earlier this month I was hyper manic so I didn't feel like I needed it. Now I can't concentrate and haven't been getting anything done and I'm starting to massively spiral, but I'm terrified to try Latuda.
Does anyone have experience with Latuda or maybe also tried caplyta and how did it/ them effect you. I'm so stressed out and sick of feeling like this but I'm afraid I'm going to give myself placebo symptoms if I take it just cause I'm so worried. 

Short version 
Had bad reactions with Lamictal and caplyta and am now terrified to try latuda even though it might help me.