I've been trying to figure out if people with BPD have intrusive thoughts and a lot of Google searches simply come up with the "black and white" thinking, whilst I understand that occurs and that happens I'm more wondering on the intrusive thoughts that are a constant for me, there's not one part of the day where I don't think about intrusive thoughts whether that may be directed to "you're the worst human ever" to "you're attracted to them, you're practically cheating" which leads to self hatred once more and also thoughts about self mutilating behaviour, when in fact I'm not attracted or find anyone else attractive other than my partner. I'm just trying to figure out if anyone else has these constant, ruminating thoughts. 

The only time I don't listen or disregard these thoughts is when I feel on top of the earth and honestly, bigoted and so self centred (God complex develops).