This is an alternate account.

It is currently 1:03 am eastern time

I do not smoke or drink.

I walk at my local park every other day.

I talk to my therapist every 3 weeks.

I am 14, 15 in march, autistic, and suffering from major depressive disorder.

This year will be better for me.

I told my Mother about my suicidal ideations and my self harm, she said "You will be okay, I am here.".

I am scared for myself, I do not believe her words.

I can feel the bugs in my brain itching at me.

My Brother is 16, 17 in january.

My Brother is my best friend.

They know about my problems.

Me, My Brother and, my Mother are going to have a talk about Me today.

I am scared.

It feels like there is someone screaming at me.

I will post again with updates soon.

2:12