I've always wanted a dog as a kid and can remember asking for one. My parents got my older brother a dog first and said we were only getting one, so I got a budgie. (I loved him, but I had no idea how to handle him as a kid and im sure he lived a very sad/stressed life before he passed) Fast forward 5 or so years and they get my youngest brother one because he was struggling in school. Even though they were my siblings dogs, I grew a close bond with both and they were always able to tell when I was doing bad emotionally and comfort me. 

I'm now trying to distance myself from my fp, narcissistic ex and it's been hard. I want to get a small dog as a companion, and hopefully ease some of my codependent tendencies and loneliness. I'm just so nervous I'll be a bad owner. I don't even know how I would mess it up, I'm just scared I will. I'm also scared to have kids, and I think it's for the same reason. 

Has anyone else felt this before getting a dog but got one anyways and did great? I just suck at making big decisions and any positive vibes would help.