i have some trouble with proper social etiquette and “how to be” around people. i do better with one on one interactions and people i already know but thats only the case a small percentage of time.  

i oftentimes feel like i possess the awkwardness and discomfort you’d see in a teenager and this causes me to avoid interaction; i end up coming across as rude. i behave this way because i do not trust.  

a majority of the time, i would rather be perceived as standoffish than give someone the chance to deceive me. when i try to speak about this with the people in my life i am often told, “you are an adult” and it makes me feel like a failure because i already know the way i’m behaving is inappropriate.  

i am constantly working to change my behaviors, it just really sucks when all these well adjusted folk misunderstand me and expect me to have all this figured out already.  

anyone else?