When you're at your lowest during a depressive episode, do you ever get this feeling? It's also paired with a feeling of impending doom, and feeling almost scared of your own mind? I've been feeling this way a lot lately and it's scary, it's like instead of feeling like a cloud is above me at all times, it feels like I'm being slowly swallowed by a dark puddle almost. It makes me anxious, but I also feel at peace somehow since, I'm accepting that a lot of things are outside of my control, and at least I tried.