I am new to this sub a while ago I had a virtual appointment with a provider, this was for medication and diagnosis. She said I scored high on a test for bipolar then said she doesn’t entirely go by it’s results. I am 26 and onset of bipolar is at age 25 I’ve read. I notice lately I have been feeling something more than depression or even anxiety. It’s like whatever I’ve been keeping under control is coming out. I have an aunt who is bipolar. I remember she would give money out to random people and she doesn’t work yet is able to stay at her apartment through assistance. One time I saw her medicated and it was like seeing a different person. I kind of suspect my father is too he has high energy and is always moving around and he drives to random places and doesn’t come back for hours. He told my brother he raced some guy through a narrow tunnel which could have injured him or something and he mostly spends money on knives, beer and watches. He always talks about fixing things and doesn’t. Recently I bleached and dyed my entire hair, got a new piercing, saw a movie, created an ok Cupid account then deleted not even a day later, bought groceries then delivery, repierced my ears, cried about my childhood, stopped myself from buying a tesla,applied to hundreds of jobs in less than a week..the good thing is that I am not in debt, or in jail..in a way perhaps it is the thrill like that feeling of being on the edge until you crash and wonder why did I do that? I thought taking supplements would help and physically I am healthy when I’m not laying in bed I walk and bus to places. In a given year I’ve walked close to 400,000 steps..