It’s like my real mind is having an argument with someone completely different. 

‘This will happen.’ .... ‘no it wont, that’s stupid and the possibility is so slim.’ .... ‘but it happened in the news once’ .... ‘but it won’t happen to me.’ .... ‘how do you know?!’ .... ‘I guess if I worry about it happening it won’t happen to me, because the thing that people worry about never ACTUALLY happens...does it?’ .... ‘see, I told you there’s a reason to worry.’ ..... ‘oh fuck youre right, there is. It’s going to happen.’ 

That’s why, when I appear nervous or anxious, it’s hard for somebody to help me rationalise my thoughts.  Because I’ve already done it with myself for a solid 10 minutes.... and lost.