I’m sorry but this is a vent. I watch professionally Call of Duty and the World Championship is in LA. I was planning on going over when it was decided the travel ban was going to remain. I was banking everything on this. It sounds weird but I sort of thought I could go over, have the time of my life, come back and end it all on a high. I know it’s stupid but it’s what got me up in the morning. Now that’s gone I don’t know where I go from here.