I am bipolar 1. Lately I just feel so flat and blah. I can’t cry anymore. Something can be really really sad and I feel like crying but it just doesn’t happen.

I miss feeling euphoric and happy and like life was amazing. During my last manic episode, every day was an adventure and I met so many new people. It was honestly such an amazing feeling (compared to other manic episodes I’ve had that were awful and included psychosis).

I just wish I could find some sort of in between that had just a *hint* of mania so I could feel alive again. Being stable just feels so boring and mundane.

Anyone else feel this way?

Has anyone successfully stopped taking their meds?