I can't be the only one who feels this. When my mood takes a turn, it takes a dive. Just today after a fight with my parents I was on the floor screaming. I even walked into the shower clothed just to to shock myself back. I thought I was gonna do damage or hurt myself. But now I feel fine. I'm doing some writing as usual and have a date planned for later. That I was in such a state feels so unreal, both because of how fleeting it was and was over such a small thing. I feel embarrassed and guilty over it because it's not as if this is myself all the time. I know mood swings are a symptom to bpd, but the fact that I can exit this state so quickly makes the swings feel so fake.