So I don't really know where to begin, so a little back story might be helpfull.

I remember being a happy person some years ago when I was still in school. I never really had any idea what kind of job I wanted to do when I grew up so I kind of joined most of my friends when I did college in IT direction. Now fast forward \~10 years. I've finished the college degree and Im working as a system administator for a company with 400-500 employees for the past 5 years.

Im 25 yo rn, I earn too little to rent my own house(Its common here for people renting out houses to set a rentee must earn 3x the rent each month requirement.) let alone buy it, I don't have a partner to share those costs with. So I still live with my parents.

Now here are my "problems"/"issues":

1. I absolutly hate my job, I've come to despise computers in general and I wish I could do something else(metalwork, carwork whatever, I like making or restoring things).
2. I'm getting sick of filling in those requirements forms and calling those firms for a rent house/flat, I've been denied so much I don't even feel like trying anymore.
3. 4 years ago I broke contact with most of my then close friends after my then gf cheated on me with my then best friend. Basicly a handfull of close friends remained after that.

Now this leaves me here in current times, I dread waking up in the morning, I want to quit my job and learn and do something else that is fun but then I'll probably still live with my parents when Im 30. For a while I just wanted to be left alone and be alone, or just buy a ticket to Colombia, Croatia or another sunny country and live there a while in exile or something, but yeah I don't even have the money for that. I've no clue what to do and I feel like the biggest loser that ever walked this earth.