Today I hurt my mother, she needs stitches in her hand because of me. I don't why it had to happen like this.
We have a fans like this in our home https://images.app.goo.gl/TCoiEMxLTGYSJ7jq6

I was cleaning it and after that connected the outer covering the wrong way. When my mom tried to move it, her finger slipped in through the gap (which should be bottom but i connected it so it came at top) and she cut her finger too deep.

I began to realise I have always hurt/troubled people around me. When I was little I got asthma, my poor dad had to bear all medical costs for years whenever I had an attack. When I was in college in a different city, he went through a big accident and I was the last person to know about this. Mom told me that he kept worrying about me a lot and he didn't want to bother me with the news so I could study. He was in bed for several months before he could walk with a stick.

When I left college, i didn't have a good paying job so my education loan was partially paid off by my dad(in initial years) who didn't earn much either. He also paid deposit for my apartment I was renting. I always regret I needed his support even when I was earning. 

COVID came and I came back to my family home. Few months in and I broke my dog's both arms. My parents had to take her to hospital every now and then for dressing. I still don't know why she still loves me like nothing happened. It hurts deep inside.

Now 1 year later, i hurt my mother. Why does it happen to people around me. Why wasn't it my hand instead of hers. I regret not getting COVID during second wave, i have asthma, it could've been a perfect combination to get them rid of myself.