A few weeks ago my gf broke up with me and for the first time ever I have been having these anxiety and fear build ups in my chest and it feels like it physically hurts. I am off from work because I am going on vacation tomorrow but the stress of crossing multiple borders is so overwhelming. I feel like there is constant negativity in my family. Some of my family members believe that we won't be able to go at all. I really need to get out of my home, but I am so scared. I still feel like shit because of how my gf dumped me. To help me cope with it all I just go to my room and binge watch Friends. It keeps me distracted but every now and then I get this feeling that I am a useless piece of shit and that I am going to die alone and unloved. I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I feel so left out and alone.