I was doing really well for a few months until yesterday when my anxiety started going through the roof, way way above where it normally is even at my most stressed. It was triggered by some fairly gritty family goings-on. None of my usual coping techniques were working. This is my first relapse indicator; often it gets much crazier from here, and so far it's looking that way again. I have good insight and can put things into action to a point - if I get so far along though, I lose my insight and any control, and that's where my life becomes at risk. This has happened a number of times.

I've been given 2mg of diazepam to take 3x a day, up to 4mg at once, but so far this is isn't doing anything to take the edge off. When I last relapsed, I went up to 20mg a day which still didn't really do a lot to help, and I ended up in hospital having tried to take my life shortly after. My "relapse management plan" stops at the point where I'm given this drug, and there's no contingency for if that fails. My last social worker said off the record that if that's the case then to do what I need to do to prevent a life-threatening situation (referring to my smoking weed in previous crises with good results). I think this is ridiculous; I shouldn't have to rely on self-medicating with street drugs to get things under control. 

Is there anything specific I can ask about when I see the doctor tomorrow that might give me enough of a rest so that I can fight this? Right now I've nudged one of my meds (pregabalin) up a notch to try and chill me the fuck out, but the weekend is approaching and there's no access to mental health services during that time; if things become dicey in this time then I'm on my own.