I first felt depressed at 15. Dad told me it was hormones and that it would pass, it would all get better. That was 12 years ago. 12 years passed and if anything I feel worse. I did everything they said would work. I did the exercise and the diet, I moved out of a toxic environment, I got the job they said would be fulfilling. I did and do everything thats supposed to work, but each day gets worse. How long do I have to keep trying? I'm tired. So very tired. I don't want to die, frankly I'm terrified of it  I just want to be better.