It’s happened again… this cycle… everyone I get close with tells me they can deal with me, that I’m worth the effort, that there’s no issues and they’re happy with me…

Only for them to get burnt out. I’m too intense for everyone… only one person has ever stuck with me for years. All I’ve had from everyone (friends, boyfriends AND family) is that I’m too much, too intense, I’m too negative and it weighs them down etc etc…

And it sucks because I’m so hyper aware of this but idk how to stop oversharing and unloading. And it’s not their fault for feeling that way... hell I’m too intense for myself let alone for others…

I hate myself and don’t see a way out honestly I’m tired of fighting all my BPD stuff when idk what to do with it all…

I have all this therapy coming up and I just have 0 faith in any of it, I truly feel like I’m too far gone… 😞