I think my gf is cheating on me but I have zero proof just the voices in my head. I can’t tell if it’s intuition or my anxious mind anymore. I can’t trust my “gut feeling”. 

Hi my name is Athena and I’m fucked up rn and idc usually id never post but rn idc this might be my last chance. I just need a different perspective honestly guys. 

My gf is cool she’s super pretty. She has her own mental battles just like me. But sometimes I feel like she’s only being nice to me bc she did something wrong. Sometimes I believe she only loves on me bc she’s cheating on me and doesn’t want to feel guilty. 

Oh you bought me food? Oh you’re definitely feeling guilty. You want to love on me? You’re definitely cheating and want a clear conscience. This is torture. Not just for me but for her too it’s unfair. BUT I CANT CONTROL THE LITTLE WHISPER IN MY EAR THAT TELLS ME “she’s lying to you. She doesn’t actually love you she’s laughing behind your back along side everyone else. Don’t trust her.” She was holding my earlier telling me she loved me and the lttle whisper in my ear was saying “she’s lying she doesn’t love you don’t listen. Don’t trust her.” Should I listen? Is it true? Is it a spirit guide trying to warn me? I’m so idk anymore. I just want to drink and drink until I don’t care anymore 

Whenever my mother hugs me I hear in my ear “she doesn’t love you she’s so disappointed and wishes she aborted you”. Is it true? Are my spirit guides trying to hell me something ? 

It’s with everyone. I even my little 8 year old sister. She loves me but why? She deserves a better big sister not me I suck 

I’m poisoned 
I’m toxic 
And shouldn’t be anyone s life even tho they say they love me I don’t think so 

I don’t even love me in tooh   Much for myself 

I’m stranger 

Baluch sheep 

I wish I wasn’t me 

I think I’m sick 

I think I belong locked up but I’d rather run away and change my identity and life 

I think the girl in the mirror is so pretty guy. She’s so pretty. But idk her 




Anxiety anxiety anxiety 

I just want it to end 

Not even talking helps anymore