For context, when I cut myself, my parents said, "We don't know what to think, we didn't expect it from you, we were proud at work that we have no problems with you."

 Yesterday I had an argument with my mom. At first she reminded me that I have no friends, no will to live, no interests. Then she said that when they get old I should help them - and will I have friends, what will I do, will I have someone in my old age, etc. is irrelevant. When I tried to say something, she replied that I would not be happy if I didn't help them (it's true, anyway). Finally, she said that now the most important (my goal) is school.

 They accuse me that I don't tell them anything [at the beginning of depression I talked about stress at school, about the lack of humor, that my friends laughed at me (that i should kill myself - great joke), but they told me off "don't worry, it's their oil, you're stupid if you think that way, why you don't have humor - should we take you to a psychologist? ". So I stopped telling them]. Now they also say that I am hurting them.

I feels so broken. What should do? tell them that im depressed, wait or what. What are your thoughts on this?