I used to always believe that after my first long (toxic) relationship when I was 20 was when BPD really started to worm its destructive way into my life but when I really think about it I was quite odd from the age of 8. Always believed something was wrong with me. I over thought everything, everything was pulled apart in my head and over analysed. I got jealous of friends being closer with each other than me, I got so easily hurt by childish playground insults, I was very hard on myself and I used to tell white lies just to be liked. I'm just slowly starting to realize I think I've had this for a long while but age and life experience made it much more advanced. At the age of 27 I can confidently say I am getting so much better and so much more aware of myself which makes dealing with it so much easier but curious at when it began to affect others?