I’m struggling with depression, it’s been a month, and I’m feeling horrible.
It’s bad in my love life, it’s bad at work, there’s conflict everywhere and people are generally inefficient of ill-willed. 

I have huge loads of unchecked emails and huge tasks at hand, and lots of people relying on me. I just got an email as I was typing this message and the SOUND. Omg the SOUND…. Disruption. Stress. Dispair.

I was having lunch with my date today. Every text he sends is « I hope you’re doing better now » «  what have you done today » « do you want more potatoes? » « have some of my food as well » « don’t you have to do this ? » « do you have to do sth today? » TELLING ME WHAT TO DO or how to feel in every utterance. Asking me what it is that I’m not doing. 

It’s exhausting. Like the emails. I feel like I would feel better alone.