Holy fuck this disorder. Like me now is like… what was the big deal. Sometimes I wonder if I have bipolar disorder. I don’t even care about labels anymore just genuinely fuck my stupid brain. I just went on such a bad spiral, isolating, ignoring phone calls, barely able to leave bed without crying. I wrote goodbye letters and did so much research on methods and deleted all my social media and Christ I’m never going to be a normal human am I? Yay mental illness.