Every day I wake up and stay in bed hoping that I do something productive. Heck, I made a plan for myself in [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest/comments/od70ag/things_are_looking_up_again_i_must_keep_pushing/) post not too long ago. However, anxiety always pushes me back from doing the things I want to do. All I end up doing it laying in bed and watching something on my phone or my chromecast, or I go on Reddit and suck up the remainder of my day.

I have so many things I WANT to do (and have the motivation to do) like streaming, making art, working out, and play my favorite games. But in the end, I never even get close to doing anything I want to do.

My mother always says I've been a nervous kid. For a good chunk of my life, I havnt been the person I want to be. I've just been a failure in my eyes.