I’ve been taking my medication, I’ve been going to dbt, I’ve been seeing a therapist but I’m not getting better and I’m feeling like, how much longer can I do this for? I would have ended it last night if I had the right blades to cut deep enough, but blades from a razor don’t and so I just ended up tearing my skin wide open but not reaching the vein, probably should have stitches but oh well. I think as soon as I find something that will cut deep enough Im going to do it. Everyone else would be so much better off and I would finally be able to stop suffering. 