Anyone else feel like you’re not anyones best friend but you’re the backup to the backup to the backup? It’s like if they have none of their top options available they reach out to you, but only then

That’s been my entire life story since I was a kid at least, the last time I had a real best friend, excluding the couple GF’s I had 

But as far as friends go I’m honestly done. I’m not going yo keep stressing myself out wondering what I did wrong, why they don’t like me enough to reach out more often or even initiate plans (it’s ALWAYS me)

I’m done, I don’t even care if the “friendships” die out at this point because they don’t feel like real friendships, they feel like I’m their last resort or “comfort” in case their best friends are busy, or even some of their therapists

Focusing on myself and my goals now, and maybe if I get lucky I’ll make a real best friend some day