as title said,

personally i've gone through many painful venting sessions where i didnt even know if i was being truthful? like im crying about things that hurt me but instead of feeling like im venting or getting it all out, it feels like im lying through my teeth to get validation?

even when alone and crying in bed, theres a nudge in my mind that feels like im lying to myself, similar to when i actually lie to get out of hard positions? does anyone else have this feeling?

sorry if im not clear, this is my first post here