I’m on 50mg lamotrigine and titrating to 100 next week. After weeks of telling my practitioner that treating mixed episodes/agitated hypomania is far more important to me right now than treating depression, she prescribed 2mg Abilify. She also for the first time today said it’s bipolar 2, but she’s keeping my official diagnosis as treatment resistant depression for as long as possible.  
  
I don’t really know why this is causing me anxiety. I guess the word antipsychotic is scary even though I know APs are not solely for psychosis (and I’m pretty sure I have psychotic features during mixed episodes anyways!). I can’t find much on people’s experiences with lamotrigine and aripiprazole together. I also am a pretty heavy weed smoker and it seems like Abilify and cannabis do not play well together. I’m just stressed and I feel like I’m stepping into the unknown. I thought I would feel validated by finally getting treatment, but instead I just feel kind of shitty. At what cost does that validation come? Like yeah, I was right. I’m bipolar. But now I have to get hella blood tests and run through meds and go to therapy twice a week and figure out everything in my head while being completely unable to trust anything in my head. Fuck.  
  
Anyways, anybody on only lamotrigine and aripiprazole for their bipolar? What was it like? (I also take 20mg Adderall XR for ADHD but not every day).