So I have been dealing with anxiety for a long time now. I definitely had it as a very early team but it definitely manifested after my father's death at 15 after that I started smoking weed to cope and my mother passed away at 18 from cancer. I never really knew her as she lived on the streets of San Francisco, I will only see her every so often but it was still very hard on me. I haven't been having many issues for several years now I am at the moment 25 m and my grandfather who I have been taking care of for 7 years now just passed away and I have been devastated ever since.
         I have been having panic attacks or just general anxiety every single day since he has been in the hospital even before he passed and have been having a hard time at work due to it. This loss is also caused me to have to quickly move home and I have quite a lot of stuff to move which is increasing my anxiety when I have my anxiety attack I often use my memory of what happened soon after and this has been affecting my work a lot as I have been very far too I attempt to do strategies to help with nothing seems to be helping my doctors honestly have been trying to help but I think I'm going to need to make a change I'm so sorry about this huge wall of text but I am just in so much pain right now and need somebody to talk to.