Sleeping feels like waking up, waking up feels like sleeping. Not talk to family at breakfast enjoying eating up my cognitive dissonance. and when alone think they dont have time. curse them whole day but when face real people, think they r much better. Laughing at a cemetery, crying in a comedy movie, highlighting faults in positive things and justifying negative things. In a bar, club with friends to enjoy- think about war somewhere in the world. sitting in a posh environment or near a filthy dustbin, doesnt even mean much. Talking about how cigarettes are better than alcholol to a alchoholic and how alchohol is better to a smoker. Probably wana die but when death comes there is a urge to live.Finding answers which are already there, probably finding the right questions now since the answers have exhausted, hence the agitation,one day at a time. :)