Honestly, I’m scared. I’m going back to school in less than a week. It’s the second year of high school. First year was a bust because of COVID. Everyone knows each other from middle school or some other place. The few people I met in my freshman year of high school have definitely forgotten about me. Why? Because I’m a nobody. My only interests are reading and becoming somebody that Im not. My middle school friends have long moved on and barely talk to me anymore. Everyday, the thought of going back to school frightens me even more. What if I don’t make any friends? What if I fail in my classes? What if nobody likes me? 

I hate that this is happening. I was such a happy person before COVID. I loved school. I had the best friends. Now, the things that I love are gone and school frightens me to the point where thinking about it makes me shut down. 

I need someone to tell me it’ll be alright. I need to know that it’ll be okay. That I’ll make friends. I know that nobody can do such thing but I need to ask anyway. 

Please, I need advice. Who do I sit with on the first day. Who do I talk to? COVID has absolutely ruined my social skills and I my anxiety is through the roof. I’m terrified. I’m probably depressed. I just need help. 

Sorry for ranting. But I needed to just say this…