i absolutely hate my birthday because i pay attention to who does and doesn’t wish me a hbd and think that anyone who doesn’t hates me and wants me to die. i have a spam account on instagram with like 70 followers and posted that it was my bday and some people didn’t say happy birthday. i know they don’t have to and if they don’t, it doesn’t mean they hate me but i can’t help but feel like they all do. why follow me and call me a friend if ur just going to lurk on my spam and not say anything? does that make any sense? my close friends have said it but why haven’t some of my other friends. it makes me feel super upset. i keep checking my phone to see if someone texted me like every minute. i just hate my birthday so much.