For me, I constantly hate myself for what I'm feeling. The shame and guilt after impulses or explosive episodes leave me feeling like I'm a child screaming for a toy they know they can't get. 

And when I'm reading other posts I will literally dissociate half way through and exit the post if things hit too close to home. Maybe this is why most posts have very little feedback?

I want understanding and compassion so incredibly bad but when I try to experience others' I can't because I'm blinded by my own. 