I’m at such a loss right now and I don’t even know where to go or what to do.
I’m making decisions about future plans and I’m second guessing them now. 
I feel so alone. 
My person left me and I don’t have contact with them for outside reasons. I don’t even know which way is up. I told them everything and it’s hard.
I’m trying to be ok for everyone and be there and present, but it feels like I’m on a different planet. 
I want to cry and scream but there’s nothing. No tears no sounds just emptiness.
I’ve been ok when I’m busy with other things but when I’m alone it’s just empty. I don’t do anything for myself and when I try to do what I think is best I begin to feel guilty. 
I’m back to where I was. Just existing wanting to go to sleep and hoping I don’t wake up for weeks. I just want the pain to go away. I want to be the person I usually am. 
I just want to feel something. I feel like I’m suffocating and I honestly hope that someone else understands. I don’t want to be alone anymore, I’ve dealt with everything by myself for years and I’m so mentally done existing. 
I want to live not just survive. I want to be ok again.