I posted on here not too long ago about trying antidepressants or something or my depression/anxiety. I got a perscription for atarax and it was awful, it amplified my anxiety x10 and I didn't think I was going to make it. I never took it again. 

I lost like 6 pounds over that week and a half to 2 weeks and I am still struggling to find an appetite that helps me feel healthy again. I have an appointment with a therapist this week and hope I can start on the road of real and sustainable recovery. 

I have never experienced anxiety and depression like that before, it was the worst 2 weeks of my entire life and I can not believe that people feel like that all the time. My heart truly goes out to you. It was so hard for me and I still have anxiety a little especially at night. 

I am not depressed anymore, I don't think, I just have 0 motivation to do anything and I am sick of it. I want to feel normal again and I want to enjoy my life again... I also want to be able to eat again. I am so tired of feeling this way (even though I have gotten a lot better). I don't even have the motivation to cook meals or clean. 

I am desperate for the motivation to go to the gym, cook, clean, play video games, study, and just relax. Please... does anyone have any advice for me?