For me, borderline feels like a curse and a blessing. The constant breakdowns, mental instability and other symptoms are tearing me apart but in the end, I think it's all worth it. 

I love when the euphoria takes over. It turns me into a bright sunshine that sparks of joy, energy and love, as if I could take on the world. 

I love when my heart breaks and the sadness consumes my soul since I know, it all happens for a reason. I don't see the bad in negative emotions. They are a part of all of us and why make it hard when I can learn to love that part of me as well. 

They make me feel alive. 

I embrace all emotions and live them to the fullest, they take me to the clouds or let me fall into the darkest pit of hell. 

No matter if positive or negative, I love the emotions, highs and lows and I am so afraid that I would feel "average" or more "balanced" when I get my bpd treated. 
Feeling like a 'normal ans healthy' person would be the worst nightmare I could ever imagine. 

Has anyone experience with this topic or knows if it is possible to get more mentally stable without losing the capability to feel so much/intense?