When I'm drunk, I'm confident and I love myself. I become appreciative for what I have, and be thankful for the person I am. When I am sober, I can't think of anything positive about myself. I have a stable/normal life, and I know I should be thankful and consider myself lucky.  But I can't help but think that someone else deserve this life more than I do, and I'm just wasting it through alcoholism. I really really hate myself..