I go back and forth between isolating myself, I always fall back into the same kind of friendship group. I seem to make friends with other people with mental health issues and it hardly ever works out to be a functional friendship. If they are who I’m focused on, I’ll do anything for them. Without them even having to ask. I understand that’s on me, but then I find myself being sucked dry by people. Also lacking the ability to pay attention to everyone else, this one person becomes all I have. Then they ask me to hang out, or for a favour more likely and I’m like “well at least I’ll have someone to drink with I guess” I understand how unhealthy this sounds, my mental health is a shambles lately, it’s worse when I’m alone, basically a lose lose.