recently found out that I have bpd, and I’m trying to become aware of my bpd related behaviors. the thing is, i can’t tell when i’m splitting or when my thinking about a situation is distorted until after the fact, and sometimes even afterward I still can’t tell. this puts me in a place where i can’t ever tell if my reactions are justified or if they’re overreactions, and that makes it to where I’m constantly either making things worse or letting myself get walked all over out of fear of overreacting and making things worse. I just want to be aware of when my thinking and behavior are skewed in the heat of the moment.