My happiness is dependent on others. I feed off their emotions to feel them myself. Happiness, love, pride, even contentment, I need someone to give these to me, or allow me to drain some from them.

I can not picture myself being happy or living life. There was a time when I could, but I was pinning it all on someone I love. I couldn't picture or feel things before and now I still can't, even after.

I'm not enough for myself, how the hell am I supposed to be enough for anyone else? Maybe I should just accept I'm someone incapable of happiness from within; accept I'll always be alone because of it.