

This is really tough to express even on the internet so I will only explain a fraction of it.

Hi. I'm a 20 yr old Male and probably have alot of shit goin on mentally I have undiagnosed.

So I live in my head alot. I'll imagine I'm touring and shit like a rapper doing typical rapper shit. I write and I'll get half way through a song. and be like, "man this bar could really go here in this song"  or whatever. I don't have plans to make my writing into actual music. I don't have anything going on in my life. I go to the store and do other errands when I feel like Im up to it. Me personally. I think I have bad anxiety but I don't like to self diagnose. 
I have a job 2 hr a day.  I got into this program with disabilities and they got me it. Given my short comings I have a big ego I think. I struggle with knowing someone practically handed me a job. all I did is show up and have credentials. I didn't even speak. I'm pretty sure atleast some of my ego issues have to do with being a male. With all the shit in society of what man are supposed to be. There is so much to say but I want someone to actually be able to give me feedback and not be overwhelmed by everything I said.  


Thank you. Have a good day. Any feedback is appreciated.