so me and this girl who i had known since the beginning lf the year started dating around late may after we started getting feelings for each other but we only dated for like 3 weeks before she said that she was anxious about the whole thing and asked if we could half date and in that moment the life was just sucked out of me because i could tell she didnt want to date anymore but im still deathly in love with her and we stayed friends for about another month after that u until we started hanging out with some guy we had both known a little about and she started staring at him and putting her legs in his lap while im around and playing with his hair and she knows that i have bpd and knows that its killing me inside when ever she does those things but she acts like she doesn't no what shes doing and recently they started hanging out alone as i could see on her story that they have been together for like the whole night so last night i decided to ask her and just see if my assumptions were correct or if i was just overthinking things but she just said it so bluntly "yeah i do" and when she said those words my heart has never been in so much pain ever even more than when my mom left me for meth and it makes me so angry because ive stuck with her and have done nothing but be the best boyfriend i could by taking her on dates and making sure that she was comfortable. i just feel like i was led on because she asked me out and broke up with me within like 3 weeks but she just says it was because she was getting anxious because i guess our mutual friends were yelling at her for dating me because they dont trust her to be good for me and she said it was just getting to her but like while we dated life was so great and seemed like it would get better but then she left me and now i cant keep going especially if her and him end up dating i just cant see her with another person who she loves like how i want her to love me the same way that i love her