I can't not be moody lately.  I'm so sick of the mood swings.  I get angry and then get into a bad mood then I get angry that I'm angry which makes me go into even more of a bad mood.  

I can't seem to break the cycle lately.  I've been snapping at everyone and I can't stop.  I feel like I'm always at a breaking point.  

Recently I was in and out of hospital for crippling hallucinations and delusional thinking but I was aware I was delusional the entire time. It was scary and I don't want to go back to that. 

I feel like I keep doing self destructive things, I can't stop the suicidal thoughts even when I feel fine.  I don't want to push my friends away but I'm so unstable and part of me wants to push them away but the 'normal' part of my brain knows I shouldn't do that.

  I've been waiting for so long to get into dbt therapy but nobody is telling me anything.  I'm so frustrated and upset and I just feel awful all the time. I want it all to stop.  I just want to be normal.  