Hello, so I initially joined this sub to learn about BPD because I started dating someone last month with BPD. In my research I realized I r elated a lot to the symptoms of BPD but kind of brushed it off and thought "I probably relate because I'm late diagnosed Autistic." Welp I was wrong. Last week I finally got my Psychiatrist assessment results and was told that I also have BPD. I was in denial of the possibility because I wanted to prove to my family that I'm not crazy I'm just Autistic. Now all I've done is hurt myself in the process and now I'm hyper aware of my BPD symptoms.

This is the first "relationship" I've tried having since my last once ended last year (which lasted almost ten years). The person I've been dating has barely spoken to me and haven't seen them in exactly one week. They're going through a lot and are trying to adjust to new things in their life and I totally understand but at the same time it still fucking hurts! It hurts not seeing them or having them text me all day like they were. we went from having deep conversations and seeing each other every day for two weeks to like almost nothing. I haven't been able to function much and have barely worked and am mostly just getting baked then trying to go to sleep so that the days go by faster until I see them again. 

I start therapy this Friday but every day is a struggle right now. I don't know what to do. I haven't been able to discuss the BPD with the person I'm dating yet because I haven't seen them but also I feel like I may never see them again and it hurts so badly. I don't know what else to do to ease my mind. I have so much to think about right now with all these diagnoses I received as well as trying to work and come up with cash for my new place in a few weeks.

I guess I'm just looking for advice that maybe a fellow Autistic with BPD may have or just any advice to start coping would be amazing. Thanks. 

Also for reference I'm 28 years old and non-binary as well.