first post. For the record I have been in therapy with a specialist for the past six weeks. She’s been trying to streamline the process for me to get into DBT but my financial situation right now isn’t really allowing for that commitment. While my therapist is an empathetic angel, seeking help has made me feel ridiculously isolated and like I’m unable to be properly treated. 
The amount of misery I have to deal with on a regular basis is crippling. It can dawn at really any point and turn a great day into a nightmare. It’s exactly how I imagine getting your soul sucked out by a dementor feels and I have absolutely no tools in my arsenal to combat the dread, I’m fully at the mercy of the dread. Sometimes it lasts a couple hours, other times a couple days, and even though I’ve expressed this to my therapist, she only ever really emphasizes the importance of getting me into DBT. it makes me feel like she can’t help me. I’m diagnosed ADHD on top of dealing with BPD treatment so I know that makes things a bit more complex, but I feel so hopeless. She keeps telling me that there’s hope but it doesn’t feel like it. When the misery kicks in it feels like it won’t ever end, and even though I know it will, that’s not comforting when I know it’ll just come back at another time. I feel trapped and isolated, disconnected from everything and everyone around me, and fighting for my life on a daily basis. I know this isn’t the place to be seeking therapy but does ANYONE have ANY tips for keeping the dread at bay? I’m drowning in it and it’s ruining my life. Genuinely at my wits end