My ex did damage on me. Cheated and abandoned me in a really nasty way 5 months ago. I hardly think of him anymore and I no longer feel anger towards him. I started seeing a guy around three weeks ago. We’re spending a lot of time together and I really like him and for some reason I got scared and panicked and reached out to my ex and went over his house last night. I ended up getting some closure so I feel kind of okay about it. Me and the new guy aren’t exclusive so it’s not the worst thing in the world, but I’m feeling really bad trying to understand why I did this. I’ve never done this before and tend to leave exes in the past. I think I just wanted to feel like for a second that my ex chose me because I’m unsure where things are going with this new guy and my ex was the last “safe” person I had.