
I’ve dealt with depression from at least the age of 12 (I’m in my late 20’s now.) My depression makes me feel so incredibly lonely, and it makes it so much worse that I haven’t had a relationship with someone new in the last 11 years, and I’ve tried to meet someone. I have all the friends in the world and I know I am very loved by all of them, my community, and chosen family, but depression makes it so hard to feel that. 

I’ve told my therapist(s) how I’m able to give myself anything I want in life and I do, I work hard to give myself the life I’ve always wanted for myself, but the one thing I can’t do is make someone be with me. I know a relationship or a really close best friend won’t fix my mental health but it’s hard doing everything alone all of the time. 

I also deal with chronic pain which also will worsen depression having to live this way, it’d be nice to have someone to lean on or help me out in the times it’s so hard to take care of myself. 

I really am so happy with the little life I’ve made for myself as unconventional as it is, but I never could have seen depression being this rough for this long. I didn’t think I’d have feel this alone all the time.