The last time I remember myself happy was when I was a happy 19 year old acing every exam, doing well in life then I found a good paying job. Until I started doing drugs and drinking a lot and being 100% honest drugs aren’t even the reason of my main depression they are only a small factor. Me and my girlfriend went on a break and I fucked every girl raw and finished in all of them. I got 3 girls pregnant and then my girlfriend was pregnant. Few weeks later I broke up with my girlfriend, got another girl pregnant months later and got sacked from my job from hooking up with my co workers. Now I’m the father to 5 different womens' kids. Life sucks