Any time I feel even slightly threatened by someone I turn against them, start hating them, and go nuts trying to be better than them. I’ll swing between feeling like they’re a loser and feeling like they’re so much better than me I could never compete with them. Any time at work I have a coworker on my team who has the same or less experience than me it drives me crazy. I even did it to one of my best friends who got placed on my team. I couldn’t stop hating him the whole time and felt like he was trying to be better than me. I’d get super paranoid that my boss would realize how crappy I am and fire me. Or that my coworkers would see me as a sham and stop respecting me.

Another example is when one of my ex-boyfriends met my cat and she liked him. I hated him and wanted to get rid of my cat. I felt like I needed to be more lovable than him. It was a big reason I ended breaking up with him because I was afraid my future kids would like him more than me.

So anybody else do really bad with competition?