For around 3.5 years now I'm fairly certain I've had depression, I mean technically I've never been diagnosed but I'm extremely sure of it. In this time I haven't ever really felt excited about anything, been interested in anything, ever been happy, motivated, ever looked forward to anything.

I don't really have an interest in anything either, and this is where I believe my social skills ties into it. The thing is, I used to have social anxiety, but within the past 4 years I've really broken through and opened myself up, but I can't develop any deep relationships or have any serious conversations with anyone. I try, but nothing comes to mind. If I talk to someone, nothing really interests me. There's nothing exciting that I want to talk about, I haven't genuinely laughed at anything in years. Is the reason I can't think of anything to say in conversations, which is completely hindering any aspect of a social life, because I have no interest in anything due to my depression? 

I've never had an interest in seeing any of my friends either, is this normal? I have people I consider friends from my past, but I'm never excited to talk to them, they never really interest me, I just consider them friends because I can have a conversation with them, but I don't actually have fun. The only person I've looked forward to interacting with in the last 3 years is someone I was in a relationship with for a short period of time, but that's obviously different because romantic emotions are much stronger. Aside from this romantic relationship, I haven't been interested in interacting with any of my friends even though I can judge them based on their personality.

If so well, how the hell do I fix it? I'm heading in for my first therapy session on July 8, I called in saying I had anxiety issues (Which is true), can I still head into it and decide I want to focus on the depression that I never mentioned instead?