Half a degree in a field I hate (aka no experience), terrible job experience otherwise. Cards are maxed out. Just woke up to a flat tire &amp; have to replace the whole set now. I’ve applied to jobs but at this point I am hopeless and all I can do is zone out. The days keep passing and I am not making any significant changes. 

Meanwhile I have watched every person around me succeed. Flourish even. People who have done terrible things with no regret. I’m just so fucking done with it and trying. Hard to see any other choices but to kms sometimes. I don’t care if I’m lazy. I don’t have any sort of tolerance for the bullshit jobs I qualify for, I just don’t. I would rather just slip away than face 8-10 hours of torture just so I can find 3 roommates to live with. I fucking hate it here.