I am so filled with shame and disgust with myself I almost can’t write this. I don’t see the point of living when I don’t even know who I am. I’m confused all the time, I feel like people have been given a cheat code on life that I was never given. I just am so tired. 

It is so exhausting to deal with this fucking disorder. And the stigma around it. I hate how much I care what others think, too. And getting treated differently. And being looped into the same group as narcissists (cluster B)???
what the fuck? are we as bad as narcissists? jesus. i just think it’s just my time to go. i am so done with this world. the guilt and shame are too much for me to bear, and it seems like it’s just a lifetime of decent to shitty days punctuated by absolutely horrific bursts of dehabilitating sadness, anger,  shame and abuse, and i am so. goddamn. tired.