My FP left me on read last Thursday and I had a massive panic attack and since then...nothing has felt real. I’ve been really lightheaded, having a hard time balancing and running into things. I can’t feel anything. I pinch myself and it doesn’t hurt. I can’t focus on anything. I’ve just been like staring at facebook cooking videos for three days straight. I think? I’m dissociating but it never happens for days at a time.

I talked to my FP over the weekend but he didn’t apologize for what we were arguing about but normally I don’t stay upset with him this long.