How do you make friends, /real/ friends I mean.

I can't say I've ever had a true friend before in my entire life, they usually end up manipulating me or just don't care about me in the slightest.

I really wish I had a friend, or more than one if that's not too much to ask. I never thought I'd be wishing to have a friend, I thought I was fine by myself. But this is lonely.

I find myself fantasising about being friends with people that are way out of my league, YouTubers and streamers I watch on Twitch. I know it's a dumb thing to day-dream about, as if any of them would want to be in the same room as me, but my imagination is all I have to make me happy right now.

I just wish I could be normal and likeable like everyone else.