Well, I did it to a guy I really liked and  the whole time I was afraid of him ghosting me. I would do the whole idealize/despise thing with him, too. In a super upset phase combined with some other external fears, I ghosted him after I friendzoned him and when he didnt talk to me for two weeks thereafter. 

We regained our connection three months later, but to this day it bothers me and I feel immense guilt being a hypocrite. It hasn't been the same and I don't blame him. I want to make it work, but realized I became my worst fear and I hate myself for it. 

I wish I could change the past/make it work with us, but yeah. No use crying over what happened in the past.


Just wondered if anyone else did this or has