Ok I have this thought pattern in which I call myself a creep.  Look at a girl for only a second? Creep. Walk down the block? Creep. Have a normal conversation with a person? Creep.  Wake up? I'm creepy.. It's fucking weird.  It feels like my mind is teasing me.  I'll have conscious thoughts like "ok time to lift this weight creep wait I mean Lavitze"

Also, I think about stuff that are made up but I believe them to be true.  For example, I was so sure that my counselor said something about me having a thought disorder.  He claims that he never said anything like that because he's not licensed to even say it.  There were other times like I convinced myself that I scared my cousin. I freaked out about it and apologized if I scared her.. She gave me a weird look and said that I never scared her. I was like "huh".  I also freaked out when I thought i had Wernicke Korsakoff syndrome. I stayed up an entire night researching it and convinced myself that I had it. I even cried to my sister that I might have it.  I went to the hospital ER and the doctor said that I don't have it. He did mention my fast heart rate which I said that I drank a monster before.  Also, he asked me if I'm depressed which I kinda laughed it off. 

Also, when I have a convo with someone.. That person could be talking about they tried a new restaraunt and it was fucking weird.  In my mind, I'm thinking that they're calling me weird.

I'm somewhat confused about my eyes sometimes. Like is my eye actually looking at where I want it to look at? Or.. Is it looking at somewhere else like to the side of me?

Sometimes I'll make stuff up in my head like I'll think that a girl called me ugly or something when I don't even know the person and that it never really happened. The thing is that it could've happened but I'm not sure but it's the "could've" that seems to bother me. For example, I had a thought that a girl told her friend that I had a small penis. Lol the girl did give me head last year(this I know for sure) but I don't know if she said that I had a small penis. I was in the bathroom and she was in the hallway.