My FP and I have been dating for three months now and it has been the healthiest, happiest relationship I’ve been in! She knows about the BPD and she accepts me for who I am and is always patient with me. She even wants to talk everything through with me. I’ve never met such an understanding person when it comes to my mental health. But I find myself splitting over the tiniest things and I’m getting worse at hiding it— she commented on how I haven’t been as “happy” as I usually am. 

I’ve become so attached that it physically hurts me how scared I am of losing her. I’m so scared that I’m going to drive her away because of my concoction of mental illnesses. I want to be her happy-go-lucky girlfriend but I’ve come to the point where I can’t hide any of it anymore. 

She tells me that she accepts me whether I’m happy or not, but I just keep thinking she’s going to get tired of all of this. 

Any kind words or advice would be appreciated!