Dear whoever needs this,

Do you feel like you will never right your wrongs, like you’ll never make it up to the world and the timeline of history, like it’s too late, and you could have done so much with your passions for doing the right thing only to screw up not out of malice, but out of weak will and emotional loss of control? Like you’re a good person living the life of a bad person, losing control of your emotions all the time?

Your sadness is proof that you care, that you will find a way to right your wrongs, as long as you keep going. It might have to be a creative way to make it up to the world, and maybe you only know the extent of what you’ve done because your family and close friends, for the most part, think you’re sweet and caring and haven’t seen you mess up. It may be too late to change some things, but you can fix a different problem. 

It may be hard to live with what you’ve done—but just the fact that it’s hard to live with means you care, and it was probably a matter of emotional distress, not malice. You deserve to make up your mistakes and forgive yourself, whether those mistakes are direct or indirect. 

There have been theories in the field of study of psychology, that bad people can’t get depressed—so be glad you have a moral compass. You just lost control, and it’s less likely that you’ll lose control if you forgive yourself and take care of yourself ❤️.

Take care,
Flat_Acanthaceae0