He left a few days ago and while some things are getting easier, I’ve been anxious throughout the day, from about his safety to what the future holds. I keep telling myself that he’ll be back sooner than I think and he wants to see me as much as I see him, but I just feel like I need to get these thoughts out of me, in any shape possible and not dump them all on him while he’s in a new place. He’s my best friend and favorite person and I just wish I could be with him right now. 

What makes it harder is my body shaking and my heart pounding, without any reason or solution. I just wish my anxious thoughts weren’t so physically taxing and didn’t leave me feeling like this.