 So, I am in a 6-year relationship with my gf I am 32 and she is 35 but she recently decided to say she wants a break and for us to be together but not be together which is a total mind melt in itself for me to deal with. My other issue is I am living in a place I cannot afford, and I work from home, so I am overwhelmingly lonely I have friends or at least acquaintances but they just feel like nothing to me. I feel empty and lonely and don't know how to get out of my situation. I live in the UK which at the moment is becoming worse and worse to live in. I want to move and get a socially active job but have no idea what. I am currently and here is the icing on the already destroyed cake a counsellor and deal with other people's emotions daily all week which is destroying my life. I feel angry, sad frustrated and sexually frustrated at not being able to be with my GF. I admit a lot of my moods cycle and fluctuate daily rapidly and often I take my anger out on my GF for stuff she has not done, I got extremely angry this morning when she failed to ring me when she made me wait an hour for her to call me after saying she would ring me in 10 minutes, I just got so triggered. I often hate on her and hate myself even more in the process. Just feel like a messed-up person and lonely as hell in this life. I look at others and think their lives are so together and wish mine was the same. I feel so much guilt and self-hate over the way I am, I struggled when I was a kid growing up and know I have codependent behaviours, but I just cannot let go of anything and need to have either full control and love of that person or nothing at all from them.