It like I get bored in every calm relationship. I need intensity, whether it be an emotional roller coster or intense happiness. I’m always so bored I want to go somewhere, I want to do something, I want to sleep all day. I just don’t know. Its like instability has become home. Is it possible to reprogram myself into not being this way? I find hobbies but nothing ever really sticks. I’m honestly thinking about taking up fishing as a past time. I work over time and that gives me something to do. I hate it when work is not busy and there is nothing to do. 