So I've been showing symptoms of these pretty much for as long as I can remember but it just gets worse and worse. I'm terrified of people and i think about suicide constantly. I'm homeschooled because of my depression and anxiety (my school basically doesn't know what to do with me) and I barely leave the house because I don't even like leaving my room when I do leave the house it's in a car and I usually stay in the car. I've been to mental hospital but only for seven days. (I left because my doctor hated me it was a big misunderstanding) I really want to go back tho it wasn't that bad I met people like me who I was friends with and went through stuff that I did . They made us talk about our feelings and introduce ourselves to the others daily which really helped, they got us out of bed they made us wake up at five so we didn't sulk in our beds all day like I do now. I often feel unsafe at home because I constantly think about killing myself and cutting my legs. I don't really want to die but right now I feel like it's inevitable. Should I go back to the hospital?