I posted a week or so back about being depressed after adding lamotrigine last year, and afterward I finally remembered that about three weeks before I had forgotten to take it (and my usual abilify) for like 5, 6 days (and then tried to taper up a little from 100mg lamotrigine since I didn't want The Rash). It was stupid, I was in a different environment, I've NEVER forgotten before for more than a day.

But I'm pretty sure that's what triggered my 3-week depressive episode, and now I'm up. Like more and more up, and IRRITATED. No euphoria. I yelled at a car alarm yesterday from inside my apartment, I got mad at my shirt for touching me in an annoying way, I'm up all night with frantic directionless energy, I've got some grandiosity going on for sure. I'm pacing and ranting about anything and everything. I hallucinated flying ants and hit my head trying to get away from them. I'm at least still aware of it I guess...

But my question is, is this STILL because I skipped my meds? I would've thought it would only unstabilize me for like a few days, maybe a week after, but it's been a full MONTH now of down and now up. How long does it usually take to even out after that?! 

I have a psych appointment on Tuesday but I just wanted to ask for general experiences with med stoppage timelines and see if this is actually because of that, or if this is just a breakthrough episode, or what.