So kinda new to BPD. After learning about it and looking at this sub a lil bit, I realized ever since a little kid I would idolize celebrities and even teachers or high value people in my life.

I always go through phases where I’ll idolize and try to be like one celebrity I think is cool I guess? Then after a while switch to a different celebrity and a lot of times repeat people.

Why does this happen? Is it because I don’t want to be myself?