I've been feeling really well the past few days. 
Besides a few times of me splitting (everyday occurrence ATM) I've been able to keep a routine and take care of myself and the littles really well. 
Have been able to make lunch and supper all week and eat them too. Have been eating better and honestly feel really good. 
Tonight I realized though it's probably just me being manic and it totally ruined my mood. 
I don't think I'll ever feel neuro-typical  and it's upsetting. Can I actually just have good days for once? Without feeling manic when I do. 
Anyway. Got stoned and drunk bc fuck it. Tired of feeling like a waste of space.