Hey everyone, i just joined this subreddit to get some serious things off my chest. I have been struggling in life with several things and it's becoming all to complicated for me to carry on at this pace. I know ending it all is not a solution but it feels like I am nothing other than issues and problems anymore. I am fortunate enough to have a wife that cares but sometimes it's hard to distinguish whether she actually cares about me or not or just wants me to get over it. I try to focus on college and meeting new people and making friends but there is conflict in every situation I am in. I don't like who I am as a person. I don't admire myself. I want to disappear.