I’m exhausted today. Sick of how I constantly feel. Sick of not being able to genuinely enjoy anything. Sick of not being happy or able to laugh. Sick of feeling like I’m watching through a glass window anytime I do anything with friends. Sick of being too depressed to focus on my passion for producing music. Sick of the feeling that I’ve missed out on so much in my youth. So much regret. I suck at explaining all the problems in my head to people.
At times I really just want to overdose. The only thing holding me back is my friends and family, I dont think I could do that to them atm.
It’s probably why I spend so much time sleeping, its somewhat close to being dead. It’s just so calm not being awake.