When I got this bipolar disorder, I broke up with a man, because of this illness. And now 2 years later I feel really lonely, and feel like nobody else (except myself) can deal with this illness. I mean I am afraid nobody on my side could candle this. I am scared I could be like a patient all the time. It scares me, and makes me very sad. As I am in an age where my friends are married, and have kids now. I used to travel before and enjoy life...now I can't do that neather anymore...