hi. i (21f) have a fp for nearly 10 months and i want to be with him, we like each other, we talk everyday, we are going on dates but he does not want a relationship and he still is in contact with his ex. i tried to leave him for a few times but i spiraled and went back to him but it just hurts so much, he doesnt want to be with me and i keep hanging onto him thinking he may change his mind. i also care about him a lot and i can’t spend a day without talking to him. we didn’t talk for a week last month and i thought about committing not alive even. i’m so desperate i dont know what to do