First time posting here! 

I was told I might have anxiety and mild depression by an online therapist last year during lockdown. It really made me think about my behaviour even when I was younger. I hated public speaking &amp; would live in fear of being put in an embarrassing situation. I felt like people were always upset with me for small or no reason. 

I still feel like my friends secretly hate me. I feel like every time my phone goes off it’s something alarming, but if I turn my notifications off I feel like I’ll miss something and a disaster with ensure.

I also still feel like I’m making this all up despite the pit in my stomach &amp; the constant stomach aches. I’m going to go to therapy but I’m still trying to accept things. 
Thanks for reading.