I've dealt with anxiety for a long time and I'm actually probably in the best place I've been in a very long time.

I have a job that I like, I make a little bit above average salary and it has great hours. Though it isn't a job I'm super proud of or something that I would brag or talk about often.

I consume a lot of entertainment media as most people do. Movies, TV, Video Games, Streaming, Youtube, Music, etc...

I feel like everything is about money, fame, clout, status, etc... 

I see people these people on Youtube and Twitch making ridiculous amounts of money for very little effort most of the time and I do get very envious of them. 

When playing video games I just think about how there are people making money playing them and I'm just sitting here wasting my time. It's really affect my enjoyment of hobbies that I used to just enjoyed relaxing and doing. I've even had family members/friends who know that I'm pretty good at video games ask me if I've made money off of playing them.

I realize that this is pretty irrational. These people are an extremely tiny percentage of the population and most are absurdly lucky. I'm an introvert and I would probably hate any kind of attention put on my personal life. But I feel like it is in my face all the time and it's always in the back of my mind.

Anyway I just kind of wanted to get that off my chest.

Thanks