Can't get out of bed. I'm failing school, and more than that I'm failing my life. My mom thinks I'm just a lazy shit. Even eating is hard, I feel like the end is near..

I'm 17 by the way.

I feel like I'm falling in an bottomless hole, lost and alone, until I finally hit the end of this pit.
Why can't I be a normal kid ? Just going to school like others, having friends, doing stuff.
Why can't I have a Safe place in this damn world..?