... crying alone. 

Instead of spewing vitriol, fighting, accusing, turning on him, taking over his social media accounts, threatening to leave him, hitting his self esteem, throwing things, throwing my phone, slamming doors, hurting myself, breaking his favorite cup, knocking over his clothes, talking poorly about him to others, making a new plan for my life without him, etc. 

I’m just sitting with the overwhelming negative emotion. Crying alone. I hate it, but it’s just as effective and I don’t have to do the damage control afterwards. 

Is this progress?