Feel nervous posting this but it is a hip hop song in progress I'm working on while working through my brain. 

I'll show you how this heart is built, thoracic
The rhyme I drop is old school classics,  Jurassic

But I ain't got the 5, the Luniz got that shit covered,
But I keep my defenses up 6 back in my coverage,

Cause I can't help but let it through, going phantom what I do, 

Nothing I'm able to do will ever come close,
Even though I'm running empty, tryna do the most,
Folks losing focus, chasing after potent concentrates, 
Unable to concentrate, so they can't help but spread hate,
(Personally?)
I can't keep on waiting, when will I blow up, or will this nausea keep on getting worse till I just throw up,

Nothing seems to kill me, trust me, Ive tried, unfortunately I just can't seem to die

So now I got these toxins, flowing through my blood,
Have I gone too far, or is this for the greater good,

World up on my shoulders, standing in that atlas frame, 
Traveling the world got that mental atlas framed,
Journeys, destinations, ain't even got a passport,
Can't wait to travel international through airports,

That ain't no distort-shunned is what I've been,
Top ramen for snacks, breakfast, lunch and din- 
Dim the light is getting, fading feeling lonely,
What you know bout working at 13 just to get some spending money,

Every good emotion constantly getting switched,
Happiness or hopeless, I'm chained here in betwixt,
Most of my psyche pulling me towards the edge, 
But the chains of me loved ones keeps me from that ledge,
There is no escape, life is here in permanence,
Time to look on forward, ticking away don't reminisce,
Everyday I woke up the sun is rising higher,
The weights that were stuck to me starting to feel lighter,
Burning off all of my dreams, build on past hatred and greed, 
I'm burning bright to keep others warm,
I know it isn't right to be reborn,
This last time I think I've finally had it,
The Phoenix was born from the ashes