ive been best friends with this girl - lets call her lauren for - five years. We’ve been through so much together and she has been there while I went through horrible stuff and vice versa. she also is the one i party with and she has always been a really fun time. 

for the first few years of our friendship i envied her a lot and really loved her. i thought she was so beautiful and cool. 

now everything she does annoys me and has been for a while. she gets into very bad relationships , uses a lot , and no matter how much i and everyone else in her life tries to help she isnt changing. its really hard to watch and causes me great stress. 

we only got into one big fight where we didnt talk. it was about a week of no talking and I was in actual agony 

but when we are friends all i do is ruminate about how much i hate this friendship !! i dont know how to cut it off or how id even manage . i know she would be extremely confused if i just left or told her i dont think this relationship is healthy.

lauren and i also have mutual friends - all thanks to lauren. but i dont like the friend group - at all and that causes me stress too because I dont know how to break it off with them either