Let me start by saying I had trauma as a kid that has cause many issues. With distancing and trust issues. My father cheated on my mom and me and my sister would experienced verbal abuse from our stepmom. We were physically abused in the form of not allowing us to get food and them putting a cup out for us like we were dogs. We also slept in the same probably 40 square foot room. I have this very weird sensation of not feeling like I'm looking at myself in the mirror. I also go into deep thought on struggling to understand there are other people. Like I'm living in a video game and everyone else is just ai and not a self thinking person like myself. I can't see the world through their eyes I guess. I also feel like I live in a dream and the days meld together. I struggle to remember things and many of my memories and trauma feel like I didn't experience them. Almost like I'm recalling a movie and I was just a character. I also have very vivid bouts of deja Vu where I feel like I zone out and feel like I've dreamed about that point and time. Like I live my life in my dreams but waking life is a month behind and I only remember the dreams when I recognize things. Say someone saying something while I'm looking at something. I just want to know if this is normal or not.