I don’t really even like the world anymore today I deleted every social media I had and decided not to leave my room today at all.I contemplated suicide multiple times I tried 3 times before today none of them obviously weren’t successful I just want to feel love again.Why doesn’t she love me anymore why am I said but can’t cry yet all I can think of is her with another person who isn’t me it hurts me deeply but why can’t I shed a tear if I’m happy she’s gone why am I depressed why do I struggle with wanting to live or die all because of one person.I hate so many people I’m so furious and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die.