Recently I have been noticing a trend that began two or three months ago. I don’t know what paranoia feels like but I have been breaking from this. It seems like my brain is really afraid of something happening but I dont know? For some reason I feel like Im going crazy and I will die, like Im manifesting an illness of certain death soon. It feels as if I’m GIVING myself physical pains and ailments through my thoughts rather then actually having them? I can barely sleep because everything goes on alert and it feels like if I sleep Ill die, either from a heart attack, stroke, aneurysm, anything really. My anxiety has ramped up to the point where it feels like im hurting my body from how much stress im putting myself under. My intrusive thoughts have become harder to shake off too, I almost ruined my relationship with my friend because I wanted to drop her because I believed she has been deliberately trying to make me depressed when she has done nothing of the sort (i realized after I “snapped” out of this train if thought). I just feel like im going crazy but cant tell if this is just how bpd it is for wceryone