I've recently had a therapist appointment scheduled after a breakdown of me crying in front of my mom and told her that I've had thoughts of self harm. I'm scared about opening up to my therapist especially since I'm autistic. I'm scared my therapist is going going to be a bad fit or might make my situation and current mental health worse as I've heard about bad therapists. I'm scared my therapist will judge me about my addiction to porn and trauma. Any advice for a first timer about therapy will be greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read this post.