I literally feel like I’ve been split into two different personalities, one who is angry hostile irritable bitchy lacks emotion and rude and another who is very emotional and caring and it switches on and off everyday along with being depressed and having manic episodes 

at this point I don’t even know if I like my boyfriend the feeling of annoyance and hate is there just as much as the feeling of admiration and love, the same goes with my family I flip out on them all the time I either hate them or stay up all night worrying about them and praying for them we planned a family trip and right now I feel so much hate I’m dreading going and feel like I might fake being sick and cancel, but I know the nice me will come back and regret it.
 
It’s like I’m constantly fighting with myself I don’t know what’s real and what’s fake I don’t know if I hate someone or love them if I like something or hate it it’s really wearing my down and affecting me its making very depressed