After being molested by my uncle at 6 yrs old I started showing symptoms, I’m now 33, but my mom didn’t have a clue. At school it was obvious that something was off about me because at 6 yrs old I was sent to see the school psychiatrist then again at 8 yrs old &amp; again at 10 yrs old. My uncle told me not to say anything of what was going on &amp; I obliged. I knew what he was doing was wrong so I definitely was not going tell anyone because A) I was going to get in trouble B) It’s my fault C) I was embarrassed. He moved away &amp; I didn’t see him for years. When I was 17yrs old he moved in with us. I was scared &amp; uncomfortable in my own home &amp; one day I could no longer hold all of this inside so I told my HS counselor. Since I was a minor CPS was called in &amp; a police report was made. The rest of the family hid him &amp; everything was swept under the rug. After that I seek help, got put on meds &amp; saw a therapist. From 17 to 25 yrs old I was on &amp; off meds. I was always given the same diagnosis, depression then it became depression with anxiety. I naively thought... “if I do everything I’m suppose to be doing I’ll be cured.” I am now 33 &amp; finally in August 2018 I got the correct diagnosis: Bipolar 2 &amp; Borderline Personality Disorder. I’m doing everything i’m “suppose” to be doing i.e. exercising, taking my meds, TMS, DBT, seeing my psychiatrist but still that’s not enough. I have a job, $$ in my bank account, food in my belly, a car that’s payed off, my own place, I’m semi healthy-ish (i have diabetes) &amp; still that’s not enough! I still have mental breakdowns every couple of months. I’ve done all the dating sites you can think of, I even posted on R4R, &amp; still no one wants me. I’m still not good enough. I’m still awkward &amp; weird. I don’t understand. I just want someone to love me. Someone who is gonna make an effort..... but then I got my wish granted at the beginning of 2018 &amp; I ruin it all by having an episode of “cut you off before you leave me” &amp; he never forgave me for that &amp; asked me to leave him alone. It’s been more than a year &amp; it still hurts a lot. I think of him everyday. Anyways, I just felt like venting. Sorry for being all over the place LOL Thanks.