1. Know you have something you need to do

2. Excessively stress about it initially

3. Let your guard down and believe you will be ready when the time comes

4. When the time finally comes, you feel like you had no time to prepare and anxiously make up excuses to not

5. Flake out of the situation

6. Get angry at yourself for your anxiety keeping you back from what you need to do

7. Tell yourself you will not miss your next chance, and make plans for next time

8. Repeat


It is a vicious cycle and I’m on step 6 as I’m writing this post. I hope next time I won’t fail but I always seem to do less than I imagine I can.