For some background, I'm 20F, diagnosed with BPD, MDD, anxiety, severe social phobia, and an eating disorder (First diagnosis was anorexia, developed BED in recovery, diagnosis now is EDNOS (edit: OSFED is the correct name). I am currently overweight according to BMI.)


I barely finished high school due to constant panic attacks and depressive episodes, in my last year alone I had three suicide attempts (documented by hospital). Let's just say college didn't end up well at all and I had to drop out. Currently having incredible difficulty to even complete a job interview without having a breakdown. So my psychiatrist suggested I try to apply for disability. I was extremely sceptical, since people who apply for disability due to mental health reasons are mostly dismissed as lazy freeloaders in my country, but eventually figured I had nothing to lose. 
Due to COVID, I didn't even talk to the assessing doctor, my GP just sent an application and today I got the letter back from the doctor. I didn't really expect to get approved for a disability status, so that's not what surprised me, but the assessment is a doozy.


According to him, BPD is NOT a mental illness but (and I quote) just a collection of bad habits that I learned or copied from someone else. Moreover, I clearly don't have any eating disorders as I'm in the overweight BMI range (whut?), and should clearly exercise more instead of lying in bed and crying. Yes, these are the exact words of an official document, by the way, just translated to English. Is it just me or is that really unprofessional? He didn't even mention the social phobia and anxiety, and just wrote that I don't suffer from any illnesses and am capable of working, just "clearly unstable and hysterical". 


So there you have it! An official doctor's statement. BPD is just a ✨bad habit✨ And in a bizarre twist of events, it turns out that I am completely healthy. Phew!


Seriously, what the actual fuck