i feel the need to give a sort of disclaimer about myself and my bpd to people that im becoming friends with and when i do it makes me feel like shit and horrible about myself but at the same time i think its necessary in my case because my bpd is so prominent in my friendships and i want the other person to know how my brain works and why i act a certain way (obsessive and clingy) and im just so tired of being called the toxic and manipulative and controlling friend i hate my bpd