I’ve been depressed for years, I’ve tried every antidepressant in the book, been to therapy for several years and I’ve been hospitalized for suicidal ideation 5 times and I’m only 20 years old. I know I’m young but life is a shithole and I don’t think anything will make me happy… I know I’ll hurt people if I kill myself but fuckkk I’m so miserable I can’t take it anymore. Nothing is enjoyable, I have no appetite, food doesn’t even taste good anymore, all music sounds bland to me and I have no motivation to do anything. I wish someone would just fucking kill me already I can’t do this shit anymore