I've sporadically been  throwing up for almost a week now. I'm a super nervous and stressed out wreck, I have hardly slept since i heard the news. I just don't think i'm mentally mature enough to be a dad. I don't think i'm not ready to be a parent. I never wanted to be a parent. But regardless, the contraceptives failed and it's going to happen because the girl (f25) is dead set on keeping it. There's nothing i can do about the situation. I have already gone over the financial preparations after i got advice from someone who were more knowledgable than i am in r/advice. That's all set. Even if i have to pay child support, i'll be good. I got that part all sorted out. But mentally i'm not. It didn't really feel appropriate to post about this on there, and some of it was met with ridicule and slander. The subreddit has different rules after all. I know it's my own fault, but damn it i'm so stressed i want to die. It's going to be so much responsibility, and  time consuming. I just don't know how to give it all a place in my head. I'm going to be responsible for this precious, very fragile, small, defenseless human being and i'm terrified.