I’ve had experiences in the past with feeling super unstable in romantic relationships, but since dating my most recent partner that has changed. I used to get really paranoid about my partners secretly disliking me or not actually caring about me enough, but now I feel like that more with my friends. My current partner is a good match for me in that they constantly reassure and show me they love me, so I actually feel quite stable in this relationship, which I feel like is unusual for BPD. My friendships however, have seemed to grow more unstable in comparison. I get really stressed and upset if my friends don’t include me or do things to constantly show they care. I’m suspicious often that they’re talking about me or plotting to get rid of me behind my back. These feelings often lead me to suicidal ideation and self harm urges even. I get really jealous and envious of my friends when they hang out with their other friends instead of me. I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced anything like this.