Hi

I think I may have some symptoms of BPD and I want to get help because I just feel like an idiot with the way I act and I don’t have a REASON that I can explain to people for how I act rather they think the way I act is just who I am as a person which makes me kinda mad because I know it’s not normal and I kinda want a diagnosis of any sort to be able to EXPLAIN it. Does that make sense?

I’m scared of going to the doctor because I don’t know how to bring it up? I feel kinda weird saying ‘I think I have BPD’ because I don’t want hem to think I’m self diagnosing. Do I mention BPD in particular or just explain how I feel? I’m so scared that they’re just going to dismiss me and tell me it’s nothing and then I’ll feel so stupid and embarrassed. I want to talk to someone but I’m just scared of what will happen. How do I bring it up? How do I know what I have is BPD and not just my personality? 

If anyone has any advice I really appreciate it