I don’t know how it happened. It honestly just came out of nowhere. I was doing so well for about 4 Months straight. Few moments of high manic episodes but nothing that I couldn’t handle. Suddenly, after I hung out with my crush I felt so sad and alone. I ignored it all day but right now it’s kicking my ass. I’m thinking of doing a lot of bizarre things and I don’t know what to do. 

I have therapy tomorrow but I really don’t know if I’ll make it without killing myself mentally. I just want someone to talk to, to tell me I’m not going crazy