My Mother was severely physically and sexually abuse by her mother growing up. My Mother’s father murdered someone and was sent to prison; we do not know his name. She struggled with this, obviously, and became mentally ill. When I was growing up, my mother frequently walked out of the house, telling me that I was the reason she was going to kill herself. I’m 17 now, and I was diagnosed with OCD, depression and anxiety at the age of 6. 

What I’m trying to say is that, as bad as it sounds, I’m terrified of becoming my mother. I don’t want to have children because I don’t want to burden them with my mental illnesses. Please tell me I’m not alone in this.