I'm so done with all this self-improvement shit. I saw so many therapists in my life. I feel like a broken record at this point.They have no idea what they are talking about. And how could they? Most of the time even I could not verbalize how I feel. So - I don't blame them. I just quit that shit (after roughly 20 years). My longest relationship got destroyed by therapy. Now I'm all alone with this fucking curse. God, I hate the reality I live in.

And fuck medication! I'm done with trying new drugs. I lost count of how many different pills I threw down my throat.

So my conclusion: Everyone just gets ME in my current state. Fuck! FUCK! FUCK!

Cheers!