Hey everybody, 

This is my first Reddit post, and I'm not sure if I'm following the rules correctly but I'll do my best. 

I'm a 28 year old male who's been dealing with undiagnosed anxiety that seems to be spurred by feeling alone (especially in social places), as well as depression issues and what I believe to be a form of ADHD (or possibly OCD), for about 7 years now. It seems to have gotten to a tipping point recently for me and after a couple of ER visits that proved to ultimately be intense panic attacks. 

The panic attacks alone were not the reason I decided to seek help, as I have been stumbling through prior scenarios as well as I can, and I'm pretty forgetful when it comes to putting myself first. What really made up my mind is that I apparently have dangerously high blood pressure during these episodes, and I've been told it's very unusual for my age (last visit they recorded the higher number at 210, I don't remember the low) 

This is my first PCP that I've ever gone to as an adult, and never really have had experiences with doctors when I was young, so all of this is extremely new to me. The PCP I saw today was very kind, but really didn't try to give a diagnosis or pry into what may be going on with me. It made me uncomfortable that he was willing to just throw a couple of prescriptions at me without really trying to understand what's going on with me. All of my physical symptoms up to this point have been non existent other than the blood pressure and the panic attacks themselves (the sensations I experience during them), so I understand that he may not have much to go off of and maybe that's why he was so loose with the visit. 

Essentially my experience was boiled down to wether or not I want a drug for a condition I am pretty sure I have. I told him about my ADHD symptoms and about my ER visits, and he didn't seem too much more interested than that, before just tossing a couple meds at me. Like I said before, he was a kind person and seemed to be concerned with my issues, it's just the lack of any sort of real investigation that threw me off. 

I've been extremely afraid of medications because I really don't want to put myself in a situation that makes me more unstable, as I'm not sure if I can handle it. I've gone on living in this condition up until now with quite a bit of struggle, and I just don't want get it wrong with my already volatile chemistry. Every day is difficult, but I've still managed to seem believably happy-go-lucky and connected with everyone around me in a positive way. It's just when I'm alone away from work or close friends that I start to lose myself, but I always tend to land back on a decent enough footing to make it through the next day. I know help is needed but I can't get over how afraid I am to plunge further down unintentionally. 

I will say that I am not exactly doing myself any favors in regards to health, but I'm pretty convinced this issue is beyond diet and habits. I do drink, and I don't maintain a super healthy diet, but I do try. My work is pretty physical and I have great relationships with most people, as well as close friends to confide in. 

I'm supposed to start taking welbutrin tomorrow and am just really apprehensive because I am pretty aware of the negative affects if it's not a good fit. Any advice is appreciated and I'm not looking for diagnosis. I'm just throwing this out there hoping that maybe someone who has felt similar could give input and maybe help me make a decision. 

Thanks a ton.