I take some medication that's not related to BPD, but to a medical condition I was diagnosed a few months back. Nevertheless, I've told my doctor that I've felt better and that it somewhat regulated me from being an emotional wreck, so I don't actually take a medication specific for BPD. Anyway, the thing is, at night it's like all my insecurities appear in my sleep. Getting rejected by random people, forgotten and isolated bt loved ones, getting hit or bullied by people I have hurt in the past or losing family and friends. And it all repeats in a loop. And plus not just this kind of emotional insecurities but other insecurities I have too, because I am also a very stressed person when it comes to hygiene or schedule and stuff (everyone thinks I have OCD) and it's like all these things happen in my head when I sleep and usually those thoughts spread throughout the day and in my sleep but now it's like a damn overload all together. And then I will wake up, get my meds, forget about it and then when the night comes get an overload of that crap again, wake up take my meds and basically all this repeats in a loop which leaves me at a point where I don't want to go to sleep. That leaves me with: staying up until 4AM&gt; because I fear myself and my thoughts are so scary and then I put on alarms early and will be sleep deprived and exhausted but still don't want to sleep. I was thinking about maybe getting pills with half the dosage I usually take so I can take one in the morning and another one before going to bed so I can finally get a good night's sleep, or otherwise talk to my doctor again and get actual medication on it.