It’s hard to believe your partner won’t do the same as the one before them. I know we  all probably think this but I’ve always struggled with this. I’ve been dealing other him for two years and we’ve been living together, he’s put up a lot of time and effort into us, but I feel like I’ve watched the last guy do the same and that didn’t stop him to come forward and say I never meant anything to him.
That it was all pretend, that I didn’t fit up to his standards in the end and I was crazy for thinking we were ever going to be together. I watched someone come over daily, be vulnerable as I was with them too and be intimate with me then tell me I was crazy. 
It’s a long story but how can I believe this? 

Which is a total insult because of how much this guy has really done for me, he’s honestly my best friend and he even helped me through the last situation, but it’s so hard to trust him completely because of the past. It’s harder because I have these recurring dreams about it and they always end with him becoming like the guy before. It’s really dramatic but it bothers the fuck out of me. I have reliving the scenario over and over just when I feel comfortable in my relationship. 

I just needed to vent somewhere because I just had that stupid dream AGAIN