I'll see a psychiatrist tomorrow , I'll get prescribed antidepressants but I'm sure doctor will give me benzos since i have extreme anxiety and i won't be able to handle the side effects i will get from antidepressants while being in this state so I'll use them until the antidepressants kick in which is great because this means tomorrow i will able to feel normal again, I will able to eat again, i will able to sleep again, i will able to to outside and socialize again.

I remember when i used diazepam i was smiling for the first time after suffering with severe anxiety 24/7 for the past 2-3 years, i was able to sleep within 20-30 minutes after taking 15 mg diazepam, this is great, i will finally feel normal, and when the antidepressants kick in i no longer will need benzos, i think my suffering will end tomorrow and it will only get better by time until the SSRIs kicks in, i can't wait to get out of this hell