I haven't told them yet about the specifics and what it means for me and how I might affect things. I have some anxiety around telling people things that they may not need to know. I'm just really scared that they're going to leave me. I feel so awful for not telling them, but I can't help but think it would be worse if I did. I don't know what to do. We are in a totally healthy relationship, but I'm still worried. I don't know why. I just need help making the right decisions. I feel like I've gotten so much colder and this might be the straw that breaks the camel's back. I really don't want to lose them.