When in reality, they're only there when it's convenient for them. Spouses included. I tried opening up to someone about being in a suical episode and wanting to kill my self and they just acted like I was supposed to tell them what to do. I'm reaching out for help here! I'm trying everyone! I'm trying so hard 😭😭😭 I feel so alone. I just self harmed for the first time in a couple years. I just don't want this anymore. Someone please make it stop! 😭😭😭😭