I was reading some pages written almost 2 years ago from my journal and i realized it's been so fucking long feeling this way and it's tiring. I feel alone. My family irritates me. I don't have friends. The only thing that makes me happy is this man who doesn't really treat me right. I feel unmotivated. Work has been awful lately. Dropped out cause i couldn't do collage and didn't know really what to study. I feel like time keeps passing by and i'm stuck in this loop of feeling lost and depressed.  I don't feel like doing anything, just disappear.