In November I lost my job as I fell into a deep depression from having an abortion. I feel like I’m going crazy :( I realised I’m using weed to cope through the day and I haven’t had any this week and now i can’t just dumb myself down and not think about things. I’ve been staying up all night cleaning and watching tv. I feel like my boyfriend hates me and I can’t control the way I’m acting towards him and the insecurities I have. I stopped talking to my friends, I feel like they don’t care and that I’ve fucked up too much for them to even like being around me anymore. I don’t talk to or see my family at all. Bc I haven’t found a job yet I stay home all day in my room. I’m crying everyday. I want to see my gp but I honestly think what’s the point, I have suicidal thoughts daily and idek why I’m writing this here, my hearts thumping so quick just doing this :( 