I had my bachelorette party this weekend and a lot of my friends were doing drugs and bringing random guys in our rental behind my back and telling each other not to tell me. Do you ever feel used? I feel like they used me to come party. I confronted one of them for having sex with a married man in our rental (obviously I didn’t approve) and she accused me of shaming her and judging her and she texted me today and told me she will no longer be my friend or be in my wedding. Even when people do me wrong like this and I try to find out what BPD did to make me do something wrong in each situation, I can’t figure it out here. I really just need someone to tell me I’m not alone and I’m okay. I’m full of shock, confusion, hurt, betrayal, and everything in between. It wasn’t fair that things were going on that I didn’t approve of and it’s even worse that they were gossiping to each other informing each other not to tell me. Why does everyone treat me like this? I’m really not okay and I have been vomiting all day. I feel like I just lost a family member. And just because I confronted her, I’m a horrible person. I guess I won’t ever open my mouth again. Please, someone tell me it’s going to be okay and I will find better friends in my lifetime. I’m so lost and distraught right now. I can’t function and even my xanax (prescribed) is not calming me down. Should I go to the ER if it gets worse? My chest pains are bad from the anxiety.