So I became friends with someone at my company (I don’t work directly with him) and we would message back and forth during work almost all day. This went on for several months months until we decided to go get drinks. Of course my BPD went off and I got extremely drunk and we ended up hooking up and doing drugs. I stayed the night at his place, and he never ended up messaging me again. I’m so embarrassed because I was a messy drunk or whatnot. I saw him at a work event recently and it triggered so many emotions. I’ve felt like I should email him to just see why he stopped talking to me because it was kinda odd since we were talking so much. The other part of me thinks “whatever”, but I was honestly really hurt. I have no idea what to do