Hi all.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I've gone to therapy, done DBT, and am on  5 different medications, a cocktail if  you would like to call it that. Some days I feel so good. So stable, ready and able to take on the day. But recently. My moods have been so low. dangerously low, and I'm angry, irritated at everything, and upset at the same time. I simply do not want to exist any more, and  I find myself binge eating given the opportunity.  My helpless partner watches on while there's nothing he can do, and I just feel so guilty. Guilty for being me, being the way I am, and not being better. I have no clue who I am any more. I look into the mirror and see a person, but I don't feel like it's me. I just feel like I'm drowning and looking up - *I can see everyone reaching down to  help me, but cannot find the strength or desire to grab their hands.* I feel incredibly helpless and want to give up. Is there any ways to pull yourself out of these low moods?