Brief context: I have a bachelor degree in accounting, and I picked a master's degree in business administration. Things work differently where I live compared to the US, but the gist is that you pick a three year degree followed by another two year degree that builds on the first. 

The choice for master degrees I had access to were Auditing and Control, and Business administration. I went with the second one, because it had the added benefit of being taught entirely in english (we're in Italy, so having a degree taught in english is a plus).

Issue is... business administration is significantly easier than auditing and control, and also less specific. Where I study subjects like risk management, corporate strategy, statistical modeling and managerial accounting, auditing students go deep into accounting and I feel like they get a more specific and complete education.

That being said - the choice does not matter in the slightest, because they are both the same degree in terms of 'degree class'. They are just two different curricula of the same master's, as we both graduate with the same legal nomenclature.

This means that, in terms of employability, it makes no difference.  know graduates from my curriculum who went on to work as auditors, and graduates from the auditing curriculum who now work as management consultants. I know it makes no difference - I should not care if it's easier.

And yet I care, so much. It's probably a mixture of ego and imposter syndrome. I'm just dominated by this feeling of regret, sadness and resentment for my choice that never leaves me. It's physical, I can feel it in my stomach and it doesn't let me sleep. I'm not even sure what I am afraid of: I know I will find a job, because literally everyone who graduated from my curriculum had no issue going into consulting, accounting or finance. I am also top of the class currently and have done a lot of extracurricular activities in management positions. I know I will be okay and move on to developing a good career.

And yet I feel terrified. It's a horrible feeling that never leaves me, it has been going on for three months. I have developed some seriously weird compulsing behaviors, such as:

* Constantly checking the brochures of the auditing curriculum and imagining myself being able to write its coursework on my resume instead of the subjects I am studying.
* Constantly checking the employability and salary reports for degrees - which are the exact same, yet I do it multiple times a day in search of some kind of relief. 
* Looking at the notes from other majors trying to figure out if my course is really that simple compared to them in an effort to not feeling like an imposter anymore.

At this point, I don't know what to do. I don't want to bother my friends about this, I can't afford a therapist, and I doubt dropping out of school to then enroll in the auditing curriculum is a good idea. I would be wasting one year doing nothing for a petty reason.

Maybe if you tell me I'm numb I'll snap out of it.