My severe anxiety ruins my passions to the point where I can't handle participating in them. My main passions are listening to and creating music, video games, and basketball/football. My anxiety will never let me share my music with the world, not even family or friends. My anxiety ruins my gaming experiences as well. I like competitive games by nature and am very interested in social games but I can't handle doing them. I try every single night to overcome it but I just can never do it. It ruins sports as well. I could never join the actual sport team in school because of it, so I resorted to playing strictly with my few friends. Now we're all grown up and don't hangout often so I can only handle playing basketball alone in my driveway. All of my passions. All of them, I can't handle. What's life without passion? Just pain. I hate myself. Why can't I just be normal?