Lately, ive been feeling empty and very hostile towards the people i know. To the point where i get angry and hostile towards my closest friend, quoting: “You’re so stupid to not realise the bad things i do to you.” I feel like i have an attitude that’s slowly rotting, to the point that i cant even recognise who i am anymore. The friendly, helpful, proud of others’ achievements guy, turned into the complete opposite. And i think i deserve to distance and isolate myself from others. Idek if i care about others. I have this feeling i dont deserve anyone, i only deserve loneliness and isolation. I was never diagnosed formally, but ik this is what u deserve. If i am a narcissist, i wish my loved ones a better life.