For some reason I am absolutely obsessed with thinking about "the future" and if my life is going to be exciting/good.

The thought of having a "boring" life makes me extremely anxious and depressed.

I spend all day fantasising about the future so much that I rarely take a step back and appreciate my life right now. I'm terrified of not doing anything exceptional or memorable even though I wouldn't say I have any talents or motivation to really excel at anything. I just assume that one day my life will be perfect. 

I don't know if this is a BPD thing or not. Im 24 years old now, and i'm also terrified of ageing in case I dont fulfil this arbitrary need to have an "amazing life".

First time posting here so sorry if this has been brought up before!