sometimes my brain flips 180 at the wrong place and wrong time... it’s so hard to ignore the smallest triggers. i think of one negative thing and BAM. whole different person. i become numb but also become so full of emotion. it’s honestly a confusing feeling. i’m scared that the people i’m around are aware of my splitting and are thinking “damn shes psycho”. it’s humiliating. i would love to “flip the switch” but there’s a little more to it than just that. doing so consists of a day or two of just being alone and recollecting. i don’t have a day or two for that when i’m out with friends. i cant snap out of it. i CANNOT!. i disgust myself sometimes. truly. i’m an embarrassment 80% of the time