My coworkers (kitchen staff, I’m one of the front staff, but I’m one of the only Latinos in the front) are very close to each other. I understand I’m much newer, but I still feel kinda envious when I see them all laughing and chatting in our language, and feel left out. I can’t talk to many people where I live about things from my country, and my coworkers are the only people I’d have to talk to. A lot of them are also related, which really isn’t much of a surprise. They all live in the same (neighboring) town, close together, and on their stories I see them hanging out a lot and having a good time. 

Oh, also I sleep with a few of them. So maybe that’s what makes me want to feel closer to them all. 
I know I’ll never be close to them but I still get jealous when I see them hanging out without me, even though I know I am not one of them. 

Sorry if this didn’t make sense, just needed to vent a bit. Thanks. 