i feel so hopeless at the moment. my boyfriend expressed to me very nicely that he needs more time for himself and his friends. he reassured me that it‘s not because he likes me any less, he just misses his friends and would like to spend more time with them. objectively i know this is normal and healthy, he communicated it very well and i should be able to just give him his space. but i can‘t.
i want him to be happy and i want his friends to be happy too, but whenever he says „oh [friend] asked me if i wanted to hang out today“ and he chooses to spend time with them instead of me i start thinking „he‘s beginning to hate me“ and i end up hyperventilating. this is so unhealthy and i want it to get better.

how can i manage this? i miss him the second he walks out the door and saying goodbye is the hardest thing, even though until now we saw each other every second day and spent every weekend together. how can i relax a bit when there‘s going to be more days without him?

i don‘t want him to know how hard this actually is for me, because i don‘t want him to spend more time with me than he wants because of pity or guilt.