  Growing up I used to live by that line, thinking all I needed was the next thing. Everything would be fine. Multiple circumstances have proven otherwise. I’m trying to tackle this condition and work to improve, but there are so many things that have gone wrong. I keep hurting the person who has stood by me, though they have issues as well. Mine are always the ones that take over and cause more problems, and every time I do one think right, something else goes wrong.

  I know getting in control of these things will make things better, but the guilt of all the mistakes are still so heavy. The things I’m fighting for might not be there when I recover. 

  I am just feeling so defeated today. I would love to hear how any of you might have taken some control and made things better for yourselves and your loved ones. I’m running out of ideas, options, and time.