I’ve had BPD since I was around 13 or 14, coupled with manic depression and DID. My boyfriend has been by far the most understanding about it.. even my best friend, who also has BPD has cut me off due to certain symptoms. Bf went so far as to do TONS of research, read every single article I sent when I couldn’t explain things myself, and asked many questions when something didn’t make sense to him (he is autistic so reading emotions physically is very difficult for him). 

We’ve been friends since we were kids, but it’s nearly a year into our relationship. We don’t fight nearly as much as we used to, I’ll admit; but sometimes I feel like instead of recognizing that “it’s my BPD talking” when I get moody or isolate myself, or do something incredibly random and reckless, that he’s forgotten I even have it. I’m afraid that instead of trying to understand and snap me back to reality when I’m having an episode, he just thinks I’m this awful, confusing and frustrating person or that I do things on purpose to piss him off. 

Does anyone else feel like this.. that people forget that we have a disorder and that the symptoms are just toxic traits, and that we’re just.. awful people?