Hi, I'm new here. I have Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type and I recently was caught up in a difficult break up. I ended up having a long manic/paranoid episode where I broke a bunch of glass in front of police at 5 in the morning because I was terrified from an interaction I had earlier that day. I am pretty embarrassed of this episode but I kind of take it in stride as I have been dealing with humiliating, symptom-based circumstances like this since high school. My main difficulty is finding a support network that is not shame-based (I had substance use issues) or condescending attitudes. My instagram account was likely reported (and is subsequently unaccessible to me) because I posted some of the rather unsettling points of my mania. I do not plan on using instagram further. The shame and guilt is really difficult, but I will get over it. I feel I have lost a number of friends in the process. I am reaching out in search of positive reinforcement and to hopefully be brought in a community of like-minded, sympathetic people. I thank you for your time, and hope this subreddit is appropriate for this post. Many thanks. I also like baking banana bread and taking walks. : )