I have GAD and realized very recently that following your gut is vital to happiness and success. The universe works in weird ways to lead you in a certain direction. If your gut ever warns you that you’re headed down the wrong path, you will know. But the question is, are you listening?

When I first decided to move out of San Diego, my heart raced with excitement at the idea of starting over in a new city, meeting new people and being able to experience change. I had recently endured a career change and decided now was the time, if ever. 

I was dead set on the idea and made all the arrangements to get up and out of San Diego and start my new life with my fiancé and our two dogs. And fast.

I ignored every gut feeling and sign that I was making a mistake. I had moments where I questioned whether I was making the right choice, but simply wrote it off as my terrible habit of being extremely indecisive. (Thank you, anxiety)

Since I am so notoriously indecisive, I decided that this time I was sticking to it. 

Once we arrived in Columbus, I fell into a deep and almost immediate depression. Crying was an all day affair and I could barely bring myself to eat anything let alone smile. 

I realized that I had ignored all these gut instincts and signs from the universe telling me that I was making the wrong choice. 

I somehow was able to convince myself that it was simply nerves about moving and fear of the unknown. 

After a very brief moment in Columbus (and a nasty legal debacle with our landlord), I realize I should have listened to my gut.  The universe was trying to warn me that the grass is not greener on the other side. We will be moving back to San Diego at the end of the month.

Pay close attention to your emotions. Even if they don’t quite make sense, learn from my mistakes and trust that when something happens or you feel a certain way… it really is for a reason. 