Fairly self explanatory.  I'm used to my dissociating now that I know what it is and how to recognise it. It's always happened, for as long as I can remember, but of course I never recognised it as what it is before.

I think I'm always doing it to a certain degree. Most of the time I have trouble feeling grounded or like I'm really present in reality and I've always been called out on my daydreaming and lack of focus.

I've had a couple of really bad episodes where I've been scared for myself but other than that it's not really noteworthy.

Except that I've started noticing that when I get into an argument with my SO, I zone out and find it difficult to focus and form a coherent response. I've  never liked having to think about stuff, especially emotionally difficult stuff, and I've always ended up making everything more complicated when I over think things. In that state, nothing makes sense to me and I find it hard to understand my SO's points (valid though they may be), which results in more arguing on my part. 

Someone tell me I'm not alone in this? How can i work on my dissociating when it's so ingrained in me that there's no way I'd have recognised it without extensive reading up in BPD??