I've been depressed before many times. I know the scheme, the progress, the symptoms I show when it starts, and when I come near the rock-bottom. I feel like it's starting again, but I want to fight it with all my strength this time. I spend a lot of time online, including social media, gaming, etc., but I lost many friends recently, and I have few people to talk to, and even they have limited free time, so I'm mostly alone. I want to break off this life, and start socializing to make new friends, because I know I can easily go mad when I feel lonely. So what are some hobbies that you tried to get you through tough times? Considering the weather's getting colder day by day, I can't just go outside any time I want, and I don't have a lot of money to go everywhere. I don't want anything addictive to be involved in this, I kinda want to start a new life where I feel secure and loved, but not by random people on the internet, more like by friends that I know I can trust. Problem is, I don't have a circle to start with, I need completely new people, but I'm also socially awkward, and anxiety kicks in a lot when I'm among new, unknown faces. How would someone like me get a group of friends if it's difficult for me to approach people, and therefore I come off as hardly approachable as well? What am I supposed to do that would allow me to open up a bit and meet lovely new people? I'm scared of what I will do to myself in the near future once I go downhill and get to the point where I let myself go again and let all the negative thoughts consume me with nobody to reach out to. I don't want to believe that this is the way my life goes, experiencing the dark side of my own mind twice was enough (both during winter season by the way).