i find it funny how i will never matter to someone and how im a huge fucking burden to everyone. i feel like all im good at is stressing others out, being selfish, and a bad friend. i want to get rid of myself, i want to get rid of everything that surrounds this pathetic fucking existence of mine. i want to fucking kill myself, i want to die sooo bad, the thought and idea of death is the only thing that makes me feel comforted in some way, it’s the only thing i look forwards to. i hope i can die someday, i hope a fuckinf car hits me and kills me on the spot, i hope someone fucking shoots me or pushes me off the fucking rails in the subway, i just want to die