I had another really awful episode earlier yesterday that continued through all of today. So out of control on every emotion. I was just a ticking bomb. This happened so close to the last. I feel like such a heavy loud on my loved ones. I say things I don't mean. When I face it or choose to walk away from the issue to possibly simmer down. I find things go continue to pick at and more I'm things pop up after fighting back and forth on thoughts. When I'm hurt I wanna say something spiteful. Then I just don't feel like my actual self. I'm really hating myself lately and just need to hear how some people make it out of the haze. My minds killing me.