
don’t feel like anyone will reply but it’s worth a try coz i don’t have anyone to talk too. so okay bare with me. i’ve had anxiety since i can remember. at the age of 10 my parents got a intense divorce and i started developing a phobia called emetophobia, the fear of throwing up. i was going home at least everyday other day from school from a intense fear i was gonna throw up. it slowly subsided but when i turned 12 i started dealing with family issues yet again. i became a hypocondriac (anxiety about health) and my emetophobia came back. at that age my anxiety was so bad i carried a bowl everywhere around me. don’t ask. 
when i turned 14 everything became a lot better for me. it was almost if my all my anxiety had subsided of course i still had it. but it wasn’t bad at all. infact age 14-15 was the healthiest i ever felt mentally. now im age 16. my emetophobia is coming back on full hall. i haven’t been going to school from fear of throwing and as of writing this im still shaking from my panic attack i had because i thought i was gonna throw up. my anxiety has gotten to a point where my friends don’t wanna be around me anymore because im constantly feeling sick. i get it im a freak. i thought about going on anxiety medication but i have terrible anxiety about going medication. im scared it will make me worse, or nauseous. im at this point where i feel like im trapped in a hole. i don’t enjoy life how i used to and i understand my anxiety is starting ruin my life all over again, but im wondering if i should wait til my anxiety subsides (which is what im currently doing) or if what im going through is serious enough for medication. i’ve lived with anxiety since i can remember this is nothing new. the question now remains of if i should be put on medication and possibly therapy since i feel like i have no one to talk too.

TLDR: i feel like my anxiety is ruining my life but i’ve lived with anxiety all my life and it might go away so medication might not be worth it.