hi there! i (22F) have recently been diagnosed with BPD and am looking for ways to cope and get better. i’ve been through the ringer with meds after being apparently misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder since i was 14. none of them have worked very well long term, except Lexapro for my anxiety, but not the bpd symptoms. my husband (28M) thinks i should give medical marijuana a try. 

i was recently involuntarily admitted to the hospital after a suicide attempt. since then, things have been disastrous, i’ve been severely unstable, and idk what to do anymore. i was in a 30 day treatment center for mental health a few years ago which really helped and i’m considering going back there, but even my mom agrees with my husband in saying i should try medical marijuana before going back to that place. idk why everyone is stuck on the medical marijuana thing and honestly it terrifies me a little bit after a traumatic experience of being laced with something else while thinking i was smoking weed (not sure what, but it wasn’t weed, i’m thinking Spice but not 100% sure, it’s a long story) that really messed me up for a long time. but i have self medicated with actual weed in the past which did seem to help but idk. 

i was looking into DBT which is what my psychiatrist recommended but i don’t have a car and i have a full time work from home job so it’s hard to make that kind of thing work with my schedule and my limited means of transportation. plus i couldn’t find any places that do dbt that have any availability/are accepting new clients currently. 

i’m just looking for some insight on what other people with bpd have tried. has medical marijuana worked for you? something else? something else in addition to weed? also please be nice, like i said i’m pretty unstable lately and i don’t post on reddit often, usually just a lurker, so if i said something inappropriate or something your patience would be greatly appreciated. thanks in advance!