I have insomnia but I love sleep. Sleep is as close as I can get to death without actually dying. Its the waking up thats hard always such a disappointment to wake up to the sun shining through the window. Sometimes I dont feel like being disappointed so I just won't sleep ya know. I'll stay up all night so I don't have to struggle the next morning. It actually helps with my anxiety because typically I'm so tired my brain can only focus on keeping me awake and not with battering me stupid stuff. So it helps but its also very unhealthy. Idk man