For many years I have just gone along with the route that I have had depression. I never really told anybody about it and managed it on my own. The other week I looked at the BPD symptoms and found out that what I had been feeling besides the "typical depression" was not normal to everyone else. The constant need of verifying that I'm important to others, the constant fear of abandonment, or the fluctuation in how I perceive myself and others, is something that the average person has no real worries about. I went to a psychologist at my university who specializes in various mental diseases and she verified that I have BPD. When I believed I had depression, I often handled my emotions by keeping them to myself and just letting them go away. Yet as these feelings are becoming stronger along with all the others I have been feeling. It's coming to the point where I do need help. It's just that I'm so scared. I'm scared to tell my parents because I feel like they have enough to worry about. I don't want to tell my SO in fear that they might not understand or leave (even though I know logically she would be supportive). I'm scared of people judging me. I'm just scared and I don't know what to do.