I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 when I was 16, and now I'm 26. Since my lowest depressive point at 17 I've only socialized online and it’s the same today. I would tell little lies like having visited a place I haven’t, gotten an A when I’d got a B. I hadn’t been with anyone since I was 15, but dated someone over a year ago. I thought they were perfect, but I was still depressed and essentially too empty to sustain a relationship much less date, and was wrecked when they ghosted me. I’m not sure if it was a messed up coping mechanism, but the little lies turned into huge ones, like pretending I’m from a different city, different profession, fake life stories. I’ve never used this to solicit anything like money from anyone, but wasting their time is bad enough. I’ve started living in my fantasy world and forgetting my physical one which has led me to lose my job and health insurance and therapist (didn’t tell them any of this), my apartment’s a mess, I barely do the minimum of hygiene and a healthy diet. But I can’t and don’t want to do this anymore. I wish someone could tell me if I should slowly stop talking to people I’ve lied to (which hurts because they’re nice people), delete all my socials cold turkey, or come clean to everyone. But I need to start living my actual life even if it’s not the most fun yet, but don’t know how.