Been feeling very down and ill. I'm dealing with drug withdrawals. I decided to quit a week ago. Ritalin is helping me hold my new job but it's extremely painful, my belly stings, my chest hurts, the fever, I barely eat, I can't openly cry because last time I cried I ended up in the ward basically by force. In the ward they treated me like a savage animal, .Got told "don't even come back here, take your fucking meds, you're a threat here". Keep in mind these are the people (nurses) that kept tying me over and over fucking again. Got mad at me I broke the TV and trashed all toys when I sought revenge while being angry.

Being a man and mentally ill sucks shit, I'm treated as a criminal. My education or background doesn't matter. I'm a savage, reckless animals in the eyes of professionals.