I went to a new therapist today and i LOVED her. I feel like she was very competent and validating and made some really good points about my behaviours and what I was telling her.

Because I'm newly diagnosed, I wanted to ask her what she thinks about my diagnosis and if she finds it correct. She said that of course it's too soon to tell but she finds it strange that I don't feel the emptiness. I had told her that I generally feel "dead inside" and that's how I would describe it rather than emptiness. I always chase things even if they're bad just because I need something to happen in ny life. If something is good for too long I WILL find a way to ruin it just because I got bored. I'm generally apathetic and very few things make me feel anything at this point. I thought this would qualify as emptiness as it's quite a pervasive feeling in my life, but she said that she hasn't meet anyone with BPD that didn't have the clear emptiness that feels like a void, very easy to describe as emptiness and very unequivocal.

I was wondering how people feel emptiness and if anyone can relate to this? I still have 5 clear symptoms apart from this one so I feel quite confident in the accuracy of the diagnosis, but this made me question it a little bit since she seemed like she really knew her stuff.