F21 here. I constantly feel like I’m faking my bpd because over the years (I was diagnosed at 19), not only have I been able to make some improvements, but I’ve always been the quiet kind. I only really realized the ‘quiet’ part, and I think that’s one of the reasons why I’ve felt so invalidated for years. I’m used to dealing with things on my own, and I internalize pretty much everything. And the fact that I internalize things and don’t act out like most people with BPD do makes me feel like maybe I made this all up and like there’s nothing really wrong with me. It angers me that I manage to keep it all inside and I look so ‘collected’ to everyone else, because as soon as I say I’m struggling/not feeling well, people tell me it doesn’t seem like it on the outside. I honestly feel like I’m going crazy sometimes.