I was feeling so much better with my depression, And then just like 15 hours ago my favorite YouTube uploaded “So long nerds” that was his dad talking about what happened, (Technoblade had cancer) I know I never met him in person and I’m kinda stupid but it feels awful, my fake reality has fallen apart. I was never ok in the first place I never got better and this was just the final straw. I was coping by watching YouTube videos and making up stories in my head. My reality is not real. I was faking it, and now I know it. I’m considering jumping off a bridge, What else can you do when you realize your only joy in life is fake. Should I do a flip?