I’ve had a long history of sexual abuse and assault and I even put someone in prison. Now it happened again and I don’t know how to process it. I am physically disabled because of how much sexual abuse I’ve faced. It’s already been so severe that it permanently damaged my body. And now this....I feel like it’s all my fault...it’s happened so many times by so many people it must be my fault...it feels like I deserve it. Like I’m asking for it. My BPD is telling me it’s because I’m worthless so people use me and abuse me...but maybe that’s true otherwise why would it keep happening