I mean I've destroyed a lot about me but most of it I can leave alone for a while or hide. I started painting my nails to keep from biting them and that led to peeling the polish off which tore off chunks of the tops of my nails and now the part under the tips of the nails (like where normal people might clean out from under) is pretty constantly broken. I keep trying to apply antibiotic ointment or keeping bandaids on them but it doesn't seem to do any good. I don't know how to get out of this loop.