i'm 23, graduated bachelor of BA (in marketing) for a year but unemployed because i don't like my major (i made mistake choosing major back then in 2016) and i've been living with serious anxiety/depression/regrets ever since.

i don't think i have any skills or experience to find a job in the industry (been working for 6 months and intern for 3 months while in college, not enough), but i'm too weak to be an unskilled labor.

i think it's my dead-end that i've been waiting for my father to find me a job in his work place as a unskilled labor, but it seems hard to apply because he is just a normal worker, and in this place if you don't have "acquantances" to help you save a spot in the company then you can barely get in. Beside he's been nonchalant, and don't think i'm capable of a hard job like that because i'm weak.

Now i just don't know what could i do, i don't have the courage to reach out, i'm too scared and i think the only way is to kill myself. I feel so lost, like i've been on a highway, i know i took the wrong path but i'm too scared to stop and turn around (cost too much time and money), now i've hit the end and there's just a big endless wall, no way for me to go, so i just stand there day by day waiting for my death. As time flies by and my parents getting older, i just, i dont know what to do. I dont want to die, i just dont want to live anymore. 
Sorry for my bad English, but i just, i think i'm so close to killing myself. I just feel exploded and want to express myself. Thank you for reading this.