My aspergers makes me feel like I’m not fit for society. I’ve always wanted to be normal and feel like its ok to be slightly autistic. I found a woman and fell in love. Placed all my faith and trust in her. I worked hard and made the goal of everyday to make her smile. 6 years of bliss and 2 weeks before my planned proposal…She was cheating on me… told me It was all a trick. I’m left with this anxiety now. That everything I thought was ok was actually a deception. That it isnt ok to be the quiet, hold in your arms, hopeless romantic. This makes me so anxious in company I get lost in thoughts such as “this is why you’ll never have that again” or “people with asd can’t date”. I just want to love, and know that I can do it again. Even having a friend to enjoy company with would be enough.