actually this morning right before work i broke down and just kept crying and had to talk to my mum for emotional support (my mum is usually the last person i turn to for emotional support because i don’t want her to think i am not strong enough) surprisingly my mum managed to help me think differently and calmed me down a little

however i was still really anxious on the way to my workplace and i continued crying about what was gonna happen later. i work at an enrichment centre and teach young kids and today i had to teach half a lesson. it is my first time teaching a class. i was really afraid of screwing up so i kept panicking.

when i reached my workplace i was told that i would be teaching 2 full lessons instead. i was scared but the first lesson went smoothly, and i felt more confident for the second lesson. i was given some feedback and i still have things i need to work on, but i feel much better.

i have two more lessons to teach tomorrow, then four lessons back to back on saturday. i am a little worried for saturday, but i will try to stay strong.

if you read till here, thank you so much! this is an outlet for my anxious thoughts. for anyone going through something similar, i think whatever new things that you’re going through will get better as you get more familiar, and remember that you’re not alone. hang in there!