I'm 23 and I've been diagnosed with BPD like a year back, went through a few session of DBT but felt discouraged as I felt like DBT is a way to control my emotions and actions rather than not feeling them at all. Recently I've noticed just how much BPD has been affecting my life, and I've never felt more alone knowing that no one around me can understand how I truly feel no matter how much support they offer. On the outside I'm stable, I have a job and an amazing and understanding girlfriend and friends but I'm in a constant struggle all the time, mostly in my expectations from people, from overly dramatizing relationships, and from the constant feeling of emptiness and anxiety that never seem to go away. 

It's just weird how I suddenly realized that BPD symptoms are NOT what everyone around me feels all the damn time and I feel so left out, and being in a country that's falling apart and where more than half the people I know left since the past 2 years is not helping at all and is making me feel like I'm about to lose control.

I decided to keep an open mind and hit my therapist up again to give it another shot, and I might be just going through another episode but I just need some reassurance from people who have been diagnosed with the same thing I have. I just want to know if it ACTUALLY gets better, or if you just learn to live with it better, because we are all living with it and living with it better doesn't sound that appealing to me.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.