i really wonder if anti depressant was designed to kill us. i have two major side effects from being on this med.

 1st is major suicidal thoughts, it's different from my depressive suicidal thoughts. it's from the medication and it's so much more powerful than my regular suicidal thoughts. 

2nd is major f'ing headache like someone bash my head with a hammer. it can last few hours to an entire day.

i honestly don't know if i should keep taking it or not cus im still suffering from depression and zero motivation.