I messed up.  So I'm working from home due to covid (not really of my own choice) and I was supposed to provide the back end networking for a new copier on campus.  Anyway I gave the copier guy wrong info, but also he was trying to call me and I was trying to call him, and that was extremely frustrating because of phone problems which aren't my fault.  Anyway my supervisor had to get in the chain of communication, and then her supervisor and his backup because they were on site.  We worked out the mistake I made quickly, but then they ran into other issues.  It is working now.  I asked my supervisor's supervisor's backup how the mood was over there because I am imagining there are people over there who are mad at me.

I have only been in the particular location in which the copier was set up a few times over the past several years and I don't know any particulars.  One of the problems was that the people who work over there "helpfully" unplugged the old copier's network connection from the wall, rather than unplugging it from the copier and using it for the new one.

I tend to get really upset and freak out when stuff goes wrong like this.  My therapist asks me, what am I telling myself when that happens?  Well I am berating myself for not doing it perfectly, and I'm imagining all the people involved being outraged.  I thought about it and really, I think I am just subconsciously trying to steel myself for when I get ripped a new one for messing up.  The thing is, that has never really happened at my current job, but it was a constant thing at my old job.  And usually, the reason things went badly at the old job is because my boss/the company owner had ridiculously unreasonable expectations.  I say that, but I still blame myself.  Even though I saw about 10 people come and go in about 10 years there.  Most didn't last a year, and most just walked out the door as the boss was yelling at them, and never came back.

So, I only got one dressing down at my current job, in the 7 years I have been here, and it wasn't very severe, but I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to get in trouble, or worrying about it.  It doesn't help that since I am working from home, it's mostly on the honor system that I'm even doing anything.  I do, but after a year plus, I do tend to relax a bit and I was actually making breakfast when the problem occurred.

Any help or advice?