I'm having one of the worst anxiety peaks I have had in a while. Literally can barely breathe. Sleeping is impossible. Working makes me cry. Messages from friends are like a giant weight I have to lift. The thought of existing just makes me sad and I wish I would disappear. 

I have asked for a doctors appointment and I am now very worried because in the past they haven't taken me seriously and I assume they won't now. They just day I gotta exercise and they tell me to go get a psychologist in the private marketing, which I can't really afford. And I don't know what I'm gonna do if they don't give me help.

 What can I do to be taken seriously by my doctor? Is this normal? I need help.