I had some tattoos and dyed my hair, both helped me through major depression eps and overall mental health. 

I video called my mom for the first time in a long while and she saw everything and blew off. I hung up. She’s called me so many times the past few days, yelled at my sister and my brother-in-law, banned us all from ever return to our hometown and threatened if I don’t erase these and dye my hair back she’ll come here and “mess me up”.

I still rely on her for tuition and living expenses. The place we stay is bought under her name. I don’t know what to do. I have had so multiple panic attacks I can’t breathe and dissociate tf out when I’m not. My friends were calling out to me in class and I just dissociated so bad i just ignore and run off. 

But I can’t comply to her demands bc it’ll just throw me back into depression and I don’t know if I’ll be able to crawl out without the help. Guys please if you have any idea at all Please help I don’t know what to do nothing is staying down my midterms is next week and I can’t get one word in I don’t even know if she’ll come before the midterms or not. Pls help. I don’t want to go back.