I now understand the full extent of the trauma/abuse I endured during childhood and as a teenager and I finally realized that I will never completely recover. Which is no wonder after years of bullying at school and no safe place at home with parents that didn't care. Not one person in all these years of (obvious) suffering tried to help me. Teachers didn't care that I was bullied. I was a kid goddamn. I didn't know how to stand up for myself. When I look back at my younger self, I feel pity. I was desperate for love and help but no one cared. Even my own mother told me once that I should just go die so that they didn't have to deal with me anymore (when I was a teenager and was struggling with my mental health)

The amount of rejection and abuse I endured as a child completely broke me and now as an adult I can't build any friednships or relationships. I'm an emotional wreck,  either too emotional or completely emotionless with no empathy towards others. I feel unloveable and don't trust anyone. I also can't live without medication. All thanks to the aholes that broke me as a child. Fck you all including my family and all the teachers that could've helped me but chose not to