TW!  


  


After 15 years, I self harmed. \\

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I am SO grateful that I can post this, but I also feel incredibly disappointed in myself. 

I feel horrible. and lonely. it didn't help. 

I feel destroyed. My relationship is so... one sided. he is aspy and has 0 emotional reaction to anything. I have made some HUGE strides in my career and I am held back by the disappointment and lack of support from the person who should be the  best. 

And I made an appt with my dr on the 22nd. but I just feel so.alone... and that I couldn't express myself any other way.