I’m so tired of life. I can’t get my head above water financially. My relationship with my girlfriend of 3 years is going the wrong direction. My anxiety and overthinking is the cause of that. Just started a new job so I can’t afford to see a physician for any kind of mental health. I know I need it. I know my relationship with my girlfriend is toxic but I don’t want to leave her and I definitely don’t want to be alone. I’m just ready to throw in the towel.