So this all began when i smoked weed which led me into a depersonalised/dissassociative state for weeks. It has been a scary experience but now everyday it gets easier and fades away but with this I no longer feel anxiety.
prior to smoking I would feel constant anxiety 24/7 that was hung over me like a nasty smell and was quite debilitating at times. Now i feel it no longer really. It’s strange because with this i no longer feel worried about the things that used to plague me and it’s so odd because i feel like a part of me has vanished because my anxiety used to mould so much of my existence, my decisions, perspectives etc and now I don’t feel it at all. I’m not really complaining but more curious to know what is going on? along this journey to recovering from depersonalisation i began to take care of myself more and put myself first.. I no longer get anxious about missing out on things or being judged because I put myself first always!  Anybody have an idea what’s going on here? Am i just numb from feeling anxiety due to disassociating? Have the chemicals in my brain changed or something?