it's hard to explain and yes i'm aware that obviously if someone has baggage it can get REALLY fucked up, but it's so equally fucked to just view people that way automatically. we have baggage too. but lately i just feel like finding someone with it, or someone that has a similar illness, is about the only way i'd ever even get into a good relationship.

if for no other reason than that i don't think that person could ever love me the same way i'd love them otherwise. i'm not promoting going hunting for those with illnesses or weight on their shoulders or romanticizing it but i feel like people like that have a more compatible love language. they'd be so much more understanding of shit that society should already have a grasp on by now. 

i remember talking to this one chick last year and she was great before i had to cut her off but she too had a lot of shit happen to her growing up and our love language was very compatible, and we didn't really even get to sink our teeth deep into what the relationship could've been.

idk man i just want somebody who isn't a fucking disappointment and isn't ignorant as shit about mental issues and i feel like finding someone neurotypical like that is as likely as finding a diamond on the sidewalk

reiterating again though i don't support romanticizing any type of mental struggle cause very few things disgust me and that is one of them. like as bizarre as this sounds i genuinely find it almost as disgusting as pedophilia, both being highly sensitive subjects to me. but from my perspective, it's more like, the type of relationship i feel would be self sustaining &amp; extremely healthy has a much higher chance of coming from someone who's actually experienced the shittier side of life than someone who's worst struggle was a bad report card.