For the past 3 days I’ve been worried about a followup appointment that was supposed to come today… turns out my mom messed up the date and it’s actually in 3 days. She just came on my room and told me, she also asked if the melatonin (3mg) prescribed is working. I told her no, and she said she’ll ask to adjust it, and for some reason her saying that made me want to break down. I hate the idea of having to take melatonin to begin with, and the fact that it isn’t even working yet the first thing we try is upping the amount? I just don’t know how to tell her or my doctor, I don’t want to be on any meds, especially melatonin that doesn’t keep me asleep. I just feel like I’m in an endless loop of not being able to help myself, and it makes me angry, which just makes me even more scared/depressed. I don’t know what to do, and even if I did I don’t really WANT to do anything. Which just makes me feel like I’m doing all this for attention, and I’m not actually struggling with anything