My GF has Bpd, diagnosed since the age of 14 iirc. She is 21
I tend to depression. I turn 21 this month.

We started dating 10 months ago, my first ever relationship.
Great start, hearts were flying out of our eyes. A couople of existential crisis, fights, and another guy with which she fell in love later, i'm still here with her.
I know she cheated on me with this guy during a bad mood swing that lasted about 2 months.
She doesn't know i do. 
During that period of time she kept getting mad at me, because of the way i act, i speak, because of my lack of genius, and complete distance from arts etc ( that guy painted )

I'm at my first year studying psychology.

I've read in a message to a friend of her that she thought she would have found a love similar to her first.
Now i think she doesn't madly love me like she did before.
I keep telling her that i love her, and that whatever happens i'll be there for her.

I on the other hand have had troubles in bed since the start ( i have hard times...getting it up ).
All the things i listed, plus many other threats because of my inability to have an erection have made it even harder...to achieve.

My friends keep telling me to leave her, that she is just using me, manipulating me. But i care too much for her. I just wish i could also be with her physically. But it's getting harder and harder. 

Now i'm going to her in the city nearby to help her stay focused on her textbooks.

I love her so much, i don't want to lose her, i don't want her to suffer in any way, i always made it clear to her. 

I don't know what i'm searching for, maybe i just wanted to vent out a bit.
