Cannot sleep. Feel that all my life I never belonged. What is the point. Some people Just have it easier. Yeah... This does not help to feel sorry for one self. But life seems to continue and making a change is too difficult if you are with the wrong people. I Just think of taking a whisky bottle and drink it all in one sitting and Just take myself out. Life is not fair. Probably will not do nothing stupid, and thinking like this is not good, but I was unable to sleep. Wish i could Just feel like I was human. I have been alone most of my time.