tw: suicide
this is really stupid, because i dont even belong here and it feels weird to put this here, but i think i may be bipolar? ive taken all those stupid tests and i have a lot of symptoms. my mood is always really off or im really energetic for a days at a time. i know my mom would never get me diagnosed by a doctor. my mom and dad are bipolar. im always worried if im upsetting everyone around me and i think i am. i think im annoying my friends, and sometimes i just get really angry for no reason. lately ive been pushing away people and i dont know why. i dont have any energy and my mood varies from really upset/upset/angry. its been like this for over a week but i dont even know what this means. im scared im gonna take this out at people. something happened but it was so miniscule but i think it maybe caused me to go into a depressive episode?? i have depression so its hard tp tell but it feels worse lately. i also dont know because its always been like this. i always have suicidal thoughts but are  they just prevalent right now ? theyre getting worse i think