I'm (19M) not gonna lie i wasn't the most social kid in high school. I was basically the "popular loner" who everybody was chill with, but didn't really get invited to anywhere nor really no one really **cared** about me and how i feel. I basically had 2 real **friends** (both 20F atm) through H.S. to whom i talked every day. I got to see them every day, hung out every once in a while outside of school, i felt like these two actually **wanted** to be there for me. I was struck sometimes with mild to moderate depression (Didn't do as good in school as my 100% potential would've let me, i never had a girlfriend before, etc.) but they made it better by just being there and i felt like i always had someone to turn to in these times.

It's so much different now. I'm in my third semester at college. Friends are still the same two girls, except i'm friends with one guy (20) from said college. But now i feel like im just "one friend from a bunch" for all 3 of them. One of my female best friends just tends to forget about me and just ignores my texts, and my other one got a BF and we talk a little bit less than before, and my guy friend has like a couple dozen friends and i just feel unnecessary in his life. I fell unnecessary in all 3 of their lives in fact.

So now when i get struck with severe depression, i just feel like i can't vent to any one of them. It just doesn't feel right. I just keep it to myself and it just keeps getting worse by the day. I just want to feel it  again in my everyday life when these people tell me that i'm their "best friend".

P.S.: Sorry if my english is weird.