i’ve felt incredibly depressed for a very long time. i think about suicide almost every single day. no matter how bad i’ve gotten, rough appearance, bad hygiene, constant talk about suicidal ideation and low self esteem, no one seems to take me seriously. last year, my mom found cuts all over my body. she got over it quickly. i was clean from self harm, about 3 months after that. a couple of weeks ago, my mom took a job where she works with mentally ill kids my age and it makes me feel so terrible. she talks about how she empathizes with their struggle and stuff like that. she never acknowledged how sick i really am like how she does with them. ik it makes me selfish i hate that i think that way. it’s just that when i was killing myself she told me to think happy and it’ll eventually go away. she brushed me off. my mom talking about the kids she works with is making me hurt myself again bc i feel like im not hurting enough. i almost feel like i’m faking what i feel for attention. i feel so bad. honestly, am i wrong?