The disturbing scenarios it puts in my head. The painful thoughts. I'm scared. I don't know what's real and what's my imagination taking over. I don't know what to believe. I'm overwhelmed with emotions and fears. Caught up in flashbacks. Is it a different situation or is it the same again? I'm so scared it will be the same. It's chaos. My mind is already sabotaging my body, depriving it of sleep, not being able to eat. Numb the mental pain with physical. Migraine, feeling sick to my stomach, chills and then sudden heat waves. Eyes are burning. But keep functioning at daytime. Last week at this flat, gotta pack the rest of my things. Go to work, go to uni, keep up with the social circle. Don't let anyone know how you really are. Let me rest, just for a bit...