I just want to sleep, sleep is what keeps the anxiety at back but the fact that my brain is powerful enough to elicit physical waves of anxiety strong enough to wake me up is the worst possible thing anyone could ever experience. I can’t go back to sleep now and have work very soon in the morning. 

I meditated for anxiety relief for 10 mins, called a crisis support line for 23 minutes and my body is still feeling on edge and I’m still feeling overwhelmed. I wish my doctors could prescribe me things to knock me out instead of beta blockers that just cause me chest pain. 

I’m tired of the panic and anxiety attacks. I wish I had someone to hold me through them. Pat my head, remind me to breathe and make me feel safe. Instead I’m hugging my pillow and feeling scared and alone and panicked. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve anxiety and not being liked by anyone for more than just sex. I’m so sad