i have friends, a girlfriend, a nice job, hobbies, people tell me in conventionally attractive… i feel like i have everything i need to be happy and feel fulfilled, but i just don’t. 

i’ve even been seeking mental health help (anti depressants, therapy, ect) and it doesn’t help. no matter what i do there’s this gnawing emptiness and sadness inside of me. it’s the first thing i feel in the morning, and the last thing i feel at night. i’m putting in the work, doing the things my therapist is telling me to, i’ve switched medications like five times now, it just feels like i’m never going to get better and be happy 

no matter what i do it doesn’t get better. i’m so tired of feeling like this 24/7 when there are so many people who would kill to be in the position i am. i really don’t think i can do this for much longer, it’s becoming too much. the only thing stopping me from going through with it is that i need to find someone to take care of my cats. 

idk i’m just tired. sorry for any typos or weird sentences, i’m writing this on my work break