Is my sons father. 

That man has made my anxiety 100 times worse than it used to be, I was fine in the beginning but then he triggered me over and over again so he became a walking talking trigger. My emetophobia plays a big part when it comes to my anxiety but that man, seriously I dont understand it. His voice,his face, just being in the same room triggers my fight or flight, the second I see him I want to run away and not stop until im miles away.
I try to avoid him but I have a child with him.

I have no clue how im even supposed to fix it, im keeping my distance and trying to act fine, but he is taking me to court and that, that is scary, im supposed to stand there in a room talking all serious about my son. I am stressing so badly because I know ill be triggered so badly, im picturing in my head how Ill just stand there like a deer in headlights mumbling random stuff and that will make him win the case and take my son away from me.

Im overthinking this whole thing, but im so tired that he makes me feel sick and anxious. I used to live with my anxiety not my anxiety living with me,Ive worked SO hard to get where I am now,social anxiety? Whats that, panic attacks? Few times a year, but now its a hamster wheel of doom. My social anxiety is back, my panic attacks are back and all the nasty anxiety syptoms, just going into the grocery store now gives me major anxiety. Its shitty how far ive gotten and now im pushed back so hard.

I just want to throw the whole man away so I can be at peace again.