I am so so tired of being completely emotionally dependant on this one person. They're my friend and they are a very nice and kind person and I don't want to lose our friendship but I hate overanalyzing everything they do and say and ultimately come to the conclusion that they hate me every time even when the rational part of me knows that that isn't true. I'm sick of being jealous of everyone else they give attention to and I'm sick of this illness oh god. I've had multiple FPs before in my life and I've only been able to get over them when they ended up doing or saying something that goes against my morals. But this person in question is actually a decent human being who is really hard to hate so I really have no idea how I'll ever get over them without ending up harming our relationship.