For the past half a year or so, I've often felt like I've gone down the wrong path in life. And I don't know why.

My external life is has been going really well - I got into a relationship with a man who's everything I wanted in a man and treats me well (the relationship is going well besides some normal hiccups), I recently moved into a new apartment, got a job which will give me more financial stability, and I started graduate classes.

But it just feels wrong. I don't feel excited. I have moments when I really feel grateful and have fun, but overall I lack motivation and interest in almost anything. Even though my partner is nearly perfect, it just sometimes feels wrong. Being in this relationship sometimes doesn't make me feel good about myself. And even though I have a 'good' job and am pursing this field further, I often wonder if this is what I want to be doing and seek out other options. I barely feel motivated to do school work. I lost interest in many things I used to be interested in.

Part of this change is because I'm entering a new stage in my life as I just turned 25 this year - I'm an adult now who's fully financially independent and I don't have the freedoms like I used to have, instead I have more responsibilities. Since the pandemic, some of my interests had to be adjusted. I just feel like I'm not like I used to be and I don't know if what I have and am pursing are what I really want.

Is it just my perspective that's off or is there something I'm missing that my intuition is trying to tell me?