I feel like an utter failure compared to everyone I know. Friends and younger siblings are in stable jobs and have bought houses and settled down, while I'm stuck out of work, with no skills worth a damn, barely able to make rent. This isn't about social media - I don't follow social media and have no clue what people I grew up with are doing now. These are my siblings and the few friends I still have. I hear them talking about their careers and their successes and I feel utterly worthless. And the worst part is that I know they've overcome worse challenges than anything I am facing and still achieved this, and that just makes me feel even worse about myself.

Sorry, this is a rant. I have been dealing with depression for decades. It is never going to get any better, I am deep in a depressive mood and just need to vent this before it gets so bad that I end up harming. I've spent the past few hours looking at page after page of trite and meaningless advice about gratitude and affirmations and all the other woo that does nothing to help anyone with actual depression.