Hi! I am a trans guy and I started experiencing hallucinations not that long ago. I was previously medicated for other mental illnesses and I got prescribed Abilify that I took for a month or so. I stopped taking it months ago without telling my doctor, it was a mistake, I know. 
I have been more stressed lately and my symptoms are starting to come back. I can deal with them, expect for one. I have been out as trans for four years now, I fully transitioned socially and I feel comfortable that way, but for days now the voices are screaming my deadname. All my sexual thoughts turn into violence and into my partner misgendering and hurting me, I constantly hear screaming and comments inside my head that I should live as a woman and accept I am one. It hurts me deeply and I'm uncomfortable, but have no idea what to do. I also have PTSD so that might be closer to that, I don't know. I just don't know how to cope. They never shut the f*ck up. I cannot tell anyone because I don't want people to think I'm faking or doubting myself, I genuenly enjoy my life, expect for this sh*t. Did anyone experience something similar or have any tips?