Does anyone feel the need to be so extravagant to get a reaction that they want to commit. Like I don’t actually want too but I just want them to show me they care so bad and regret how they treat me I just want to show them how bad they hurt me and make me feel. It’s torture just wanting someone to meet your extremes, I feel so guilty and sick just for even thinking these ways and acting so crazy. I also get so mean and horrible I say horrible things and my mine starts racing with shitty things. I just want to be a good person I don’t want to have these thoughts or feelings I just want to be normal.