As annoying as it can be at times, I wish people pushed me to express how I feel or what’s wrong more than they do. I have a hard time believing people actually care and aren’t just asking as a common courtesy. Of course I usually just say a quick “I’m fine,” or if it’s obvious I’m not “I’ll be ok,” usually suffices. 

But I’m not ok. I can’t get my head on track. I feel out of control. I wanna quit my job. I want to hurt myself so bad. I want to relapse on drugs. I already hurt myself. I can’t help but dissociate or cry. I feel numb and I’m craving any sense of feeling, even if it costs me everything.