When I was around 9/10 my friends dad used to sexually abuse me I don’t know if he raped me. He lives across the road from us still. Him and my dad are friends. I’ve told no one about it. I’m friends with his daughter so that’s how he got to me. I’m now nearly 15 and I want to do something about it.

I’m still friends with his daughter. Not even a year ago I got back in touch with her. We didn’t talk for like  2 years but now we’re close again. 

A couple of days ago she told me her dad was took away in a van by the police because a drug addict told the police he raped her and that she tried to take him to court. I’m actually not sure what happened or if she is or if she didn’t.  No one believes her. I believe her. I know he did it. He’s evil. He’s done so much bad things. 

I’m not going straight to the police yet. I’m going to trust someone, and then get them to help me with my plan. I plan to stay at the persons house who will help me get proof. I’m going to get her to knock on his door late at night and she’ll carry me and then that person will say I’m really drunk and she took her sleeping meds. They’ll say I’ll come back for her in the morning after 6 when my mum goes to work. I’m going to buy a camera that you can monitor through your phone before this plan and put it somewhere. 

I’m also having really bad thoughts to kill him by burning his house down. I just don’t know what to do