Hey everyone, I was hopefully looking for some support from people going through similar things: 

I feel like I have a crippling depression when I’m not smoking weed or drinking coffee. I don’t hear from my friends very much anymore and most of the time it gets chalked up to “Well we are older now and don’t have time for much anymore”. (I’m 26) I moved to a new city and got broken up with. I joined a band and due to nasty rumors and false accusations I am no longer with the band. My father is going through a divorce is is completely emotional inept right now relating everything I try to vent to him back to being divorced. Most nights I sit in front of the hospital just spacing out trying to not feel so anxious and depressed. I’ve tried to put myself out there on dating apps but I’ve hurt my feelings and others feelings by being so reclusive. I don’t feel like I can trust anyone with who I am internally because I’ve been hurt so many times. People say to work out, work on yourself, create and try and be social but it all just feels like a moot point when I just end up feeling the same way every day. 

My therapist said this is the first step to becoming homeless and it frightens me every day. I try to work hard to prevent this but the thoughts are louder than my ever turning gears. 

If anyone has any advice or a similar situation or just the fact that the read and understand please say something. I’m losing hope.