I'm typing this as I'm forcing myself to like not say anything dumb to my partner. I took my anxiety meds but they still take like half an hour. I'm not sure if I'm the crazy one or not in this situation.

 He has been nocturnal since our semester ended but I've been supportive best I can. But tonight after waking up I said I'm struggling a lot rn emotionally as I'm PMSing. He says okay and we talk a little, and then he disappears. I'm really sad and give up and sleep, assuming he'll be back whenever I wake up in the middle of the night. Instead I wake up to him, at midnight, saying he went to the gym with his cousin and he's spending the night. He doesn't have data and said nothing. And now here I am at 3 am having a panic attack with no one to talk to because its 3 am!! I really want to send a bunch of angry texts back but I know that will just trigger him to when I was a very uncontrollable borderline and make the situation worse. So instead I just said that and I'm typing this. Just why 3 am I can't sleep now!!!