This is usually pretty constant for me, but here lately it’s been especially wild. I’ll start thinking about unresolved trauma and feelings of guilt from the last and for less than a second be on the verge of tears until something just shuts off that emption and it goes away. I feel the raw emotions inside and I feel them building up but I also simultaneously can’t help but feel numb to it all. I don’t know if this is something anyone else goes through but it’s really kinda sucky.. I genuinely want to just lay down and cry and scream and do nothing but let it out but I can’t. I just feel it building and building. I’m terrified of myself because I haven’t had a snap in years and I feel it coming. I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. Nothing feels real anymore. I don’t know if I’m even okay, like I feel like I feel nothing, but I know that there’s a storm brewing.. idk how to stop this before it all bursts out and I do something stupid. If this doesn’t make sense I’m sorry, I’m bad at this kinda thing sometimes