If dying was even an option, I’d consider myself lucky. 

I have two kids, 6 month old and a 2 years old. I’m an only child and my parents are in poor health that needs constant attention. My career is going well but is very demanding. And I am completely overwhelmed. 

Every morning, I pull myself together just to get through the day, making sure that everyone’s needs are met. And at night when everyone is asleep, I drown myself in either junk food and/or alcohol, and I break down for a few hours. 

Part of me wishes I could get a heart attack and just vanish from this planet. I don’t want this endless cycle to start again tomorrow. But I also have to keep on living for all the people who depend on me. None of my friends understand what I’m going through. Not even my therapist understands.