As long as I can remember, I've been living two lives,  my real life and my fantasy life. It always felt so natural to just go to a different world where I'm always a hero an adventurer. I am currently 22 years old, and it's getting worse, I live my life like an almost normal personal, I go to college, I do my assignments, I talk to people, but it is all so automatic, almost unreal, I do al this things while living in a distorted reality of my own making. It's so bad that recently I've been having trouble telling what's real and what's not. I don't even know how many year I've been depressed by now, but I don't even know if that's the cause. I just keep fading away and I just have the sinking feeling that things are coming to an end with me, I don't know how to describe it. I don't know, I just wanted to say this to anyone who may listen.