I have these moments where I get a huge burst in confidence and it seems unbreakable. I’ll look in the mirror while putting on makeup In the mornings and just feel obsessed with myself in a good “in love” with myself type of way. I’ll get dressed up and go out in public (literally even the grocery store) and send seductive energy toward strangers. I find it so fun and wonder if they see me in the same way that I see me. I don’t know why I do this- if I’m just trying to get a reaction out of them or if I just like having that impression on people and want them to think about me for the rest of the day. I’ve sent this vibe towards my psychiatrist and am just like amused. (please don’t attack me for this- I take my mental health treatment seriously and wouldn’t ever actually try anything with him). Part of me feels like it’s the attention or admiration that I’m seeking. I want them to be obsessed with me which sounds super strange because I know it won’t go anywhere and I don’t want it to. Also I’m not sexual- if any of these men gave me a seductive look back, I’d run away because it terrifies me (history of sexual abuse). Does anyone else do this? It feels like such a strange behavior.