Does anyone ever get into a relationship, and at some point, maybe your partner is saying something really deep or personal, or telling you how much they care, and you realize that you're in way too fucking deep. Like you remember that you're borderline and that you're probably only with this person because you needed a new FP, consciously or not. That yeah, your emotions were so raw and you felt so attached and attracted to this person off the bat and almost for a few weeks now but it suddenly hits you that you just honestly deep down in your heart don't care about them, even if you want to tell yourself you do? And the guilt hits you so hard that you know you're going to make this person so sad after you tried so hard and finally convinced them to open up/care/like/love you, etc. 

Or am I just fucked in the head lol.