These past two months have been absolutely terrible. I’m constantly depressed and I am just overwhelmed. I go around and I put on a smile but more and more I feel it draining. I go home to nothing but a room that I honestly just hate being in. I have no one to turn to and I just someone to talk me down when I get like this but I have no one constantly alone. I hate myself everyday. The way I look, my personality, the sound of my voice. I struggle to eat or when I do eat I overeat and immediately hate myself for it. I just think I don’t deserve to keep going. There’s no one to show me that I matter. My life is an empty void.