Hey guys for the first im 21 year old and im depressed since im 13 years old for the first i got bullied but ive found atleaft some friends and every thing Else u would need to be happy but the Problem is that im Not happy.
It May be childish if i See the Problems from others here but i just feeling emptyness when im sitting in my bed like zero will to live and sometimes i just think about to jump of the Window if it wouldnt be for my familys and friends.
I cant even find the reason why im like this im even working out which really helped for the last 3 years but atm i dont even have the Motivation for it anymore and skipping the gym like today.
Maybe anyone had the same Problem and solved it and can Tell me how.
Ive just talked With one friend Till now but i didnt really help and i dont wanna talk With anyone other i know or With my family because i would Look weak then and dont want that they care too much for me.
I would have an accident which wouldnt be my fault and i dont know why but im sad that it didnt happened because it wouldnt be my fault then.
Please help me