I just, I need to write this out. I feel like I’d scare my fiancé if I said what I’m saying. 

Mentally I have been doing okay. Today, today is a day I wish I could just shred my skin with my nails. My body feels too tight, too claustrophobic and I just need to breath. I just need to be free for like a second from this feeling. I’m trying to find a word to describe the skin grating irritation. Oddly enough, i feel like that would help. Having a word to go with this feeling. I just can’t get comfortable in my skin. It feels like I need to hang my bones out in the air for awhile. I wish I could jus hulk out to feel some relief. 

If anyone knows a good word for this or if you can just share your feelings (obviously if you’re comfortable!) I would appreciate it.