I seem to attract a lot of men. Great right? *No*. I'm not interested in most of them and I feel like a jerk. Not that they're bad people (well one was), but I know I like men who are a healthy weight, have a healthy lifestyle, college educated (like 60% of men my age are, its free here) and are sarcastic. I don't have rigid requirements like "must be over 5ft9" or like music I like or not have piercings, before anyone says "*this is what's wrong with women*" etc. 

I feel like when I'm meh or not interested at all, men like me more? I guess it's because I'm just me and I'm not worrying so much whether they like me.But as soon as I start liking someone and they fit that criteria, I lose them. Its happened twice in the last month. Things are great, they seem really into me and then....I try to hide my desperation, but I guess they can sense it? I will start doing crap like texting them first at times or prolonging a text conversation when it has clearly ended by asking questions etc.  I'm so scared of messing it up that I go against my gut and show way more interest than I normally would. Or I try way to hard to come off funny or cute.  How do I break this cycle? My ex of 2.5 yrs is the only guy I was into that I didn't scare away.