I spent all of my life daydreaming and playing video games being unhappy and I realized that I could’ve lived in the moment and been happier but I didn’t now I’m 16 almost done with my sophomore year and I’m such a fucking loser I have no friends I have no real memories their all just of me being a fucking nobody loser with no hobbies barely any friends bad hygiene just playing video games it’s like I wasted some of the best years of my life doing nothing but being a loser like it makes me sick now I have better hygiene and I’m trying to develop hobbies but I still feel like I’m always gonna be that person like it makes me worthless it hurts so bad I just want to escape it but I can’t I’m stuck as myself no matter how hard to pretend I’m not, I hate myself, I hate my life, I hate everyone I just wanna redo it all but I can’t and it hurts so bad I wanna throw up.