I saved up enough money to coast for awhile. All my bills are paid 2+ months in advance. I’ve been struggling mentally with my job and some of my toxic coworkers. Called out about 5 times in the past two months. My boss wasn’t too happy so I decided it was time to leave. My aunt helped me get this job through a family friend so I feel kind of shitty about that. I only had 6 weeks before full time school starts so i was gonna quit any way. Didn’t sleep to well last night due to guilt/shame for leaving on short notice. Had a panic attack for the first time in 6 months. I just want to be content, and passionate about something. Tired of my suicidal ideation and social anxiety and not knowing how to cope without drugs. I want to truly love myself. Hoping that this short time will help me find hope. But, I’m stressing that my family will find out and scrutinize me. Thanks to anyone that reads this. Love you all.