Hey everybody so I'm in a bit of a situation with my life, I just need some advice. 

So a little about me I graduated college last May, and I currently live by myself. I work a freelance job which I work on my own schedule. Now I kind of like the job, but at the same time, I feel like I'm doing the same thing over and over. Also for this job I have to be out for pretty much the whole day driving so it is physically and mentally draining. That being said, it pays decent and also I feel it is better than working at an office 5 days a week from 9-5. Also I don't have any money problems. I have enough to comfortably pay bills and having savings. But I am renting a room, which is really cheap. But I think I just don't feel "secure" like compared to if I bought a house or even if I just rent an apartment by myself. Obviously I do want to make more money like most other people. 

A bit about my background with relationships which I think still affect me a lot today is my parent divorced. Basically my biological mom was abusive and it never got resolved. I haven't seen my biological mom for over 20 years at this point and currently don't have any relationship with her. My dad did remarry and I lived with my dad and stepmom starting 1st grade. So a few years ago around when I was in 10th grade, my dad had to move overseas. I ended up living with my stepmom until the end of high school and let's just say our relationship isn't very good. Basically at the time she took care of me and stuff like cooking, take me to grocery store, and things like that. But she was verbally abusive to me like whenever we had small issue, she has to get angry and makes it a bigger deal than it has to be. But another thing she was really big on was I MUST move out after high school. But I feel like it's not coming from a healthy place cause the way she would say it would be like she's berating me and angry. She would say she needs her own space, I must be independent,etc.  Anyways, so I did move out after high school and I suppose I eventually got used to it and it's "fine". But the thing is our relationships didn't improve. Whenever I go back, we have the same issue where she would make small things a big deal, sometimes just berating me for no reason and there is never an apology. When I do her a favor, it's as if she is entitled to it since she doesn't really say thank you and doesn't do the favors back. And also it's always me driving back to see her as her excuse has always been she's too scared and she never tried. My dad is still oversea and even he can't improve the situation. In the past if I tell my dad about her, then he tell her, she would just get mad at me saying to stop. But now my dad is still living oversea, and it seem like he can't do anything about it. Also I was always an introvert and still is and I don't really have any friends. 

So basically now I live by myself, no friends and family nearby except 1 good friend. Obviously I have my stepmom but from my point of view she's toxic, so I try not to see her at all. No money problem which I'm very happy of. I have a place to live, have food, water and all the essentials. But no goals, no relationship, no interests in marriage or having kids and just lost.