I’m letting go of everyone in my life. I have such a shitty family that it’s taking a toll on me. I deleted my Snapchat account because I am too fucking depressed to have friends. Just talking to people makes me feel worse. Everyday my family makes me hurt myself and I can’t keep acting like I’m fine when I talk to my friends (well they haven’t been talking to me). I feel alone in this world and have no support system. I just want to disappear. I can’t leave this situation and it won’t ever get better. Nobody understands that. I cry everyday and have a lump in my throat. I dream of dying because it’s my escape from this torture. It’s not the easy way out! Sometimes in life when too much is too much and you have to let go. You can’t keep holding on forever. People think it’s unfair when people kill themselves but it’s not. It’s unfair being treated like shit and told fake lies everyday. Death isn’t a bad thing and people need to realize that. Being in constant agonizing pain that makes you physically weak and unable to function in life isn’t a blessing. It’s a curse and people should be able to leave. This is my life and I’ll do what I see as the right path and right decision.