Long story short I started going to a store and began liking the guy that worked there. I struggle with anxiety, ptsd, the list goes on. I am in therapy but I’ll start. For about 6-8 weeks I would go in usually weekly and this guy showed sooo much interest in me and gave me every green light that he was so into me and happy to see me. He was not just being nice either. I’m positive 


So, when I Finally got the courage to give my number they told me he was out sick. I panicked and left my number with the employees (which I regret) it never got to him. I went in a couple of weeks later and he still showed high interest in me and I gave it to him directly. Im mad at myself because he would always ask me what I was doing that day or night and I never took a hint. He heavily flirted, he held my hand, he would gaze at me, he complimented me. It goes on 


So, anyways I give the number and everything is fine. I leave that day and I thought I would get a text within at least a few days… 2 weeks went by and I couldn’t take the anxiety or supposed rejection so I randomly texted him even though we never texted. I just put something along the lines of how embarrassed I was and sorry I read him wrong 


I then immediately changed my number. I know it’s dramatic but at the time I couldn’t take the feeling of rejection I felt. It’s now been about exactly 2 months and I never went back until this weekend I decided I needed new clothes so I went. I did not see him but I saw the other employees and it actually wasn’t as awkward as I thought. Now that I’ve had time to reflect and talk in therapy I feel bad like I overreacted. I’m sad because I don’t have him on any social media. I’m sad I might never see him again. I’m sad because he gave me every green light and I was still too insecure to see 


I don’t know where to handle it from here. I do plan on going again next week because I do like that place. It’s not just to see him, but I want to see him. I’ve been considering texting him because I have a new number now but I do not know what to say.. I know he may have just been not interested but I don’t believe it was the case at all. I’m mad at myself I didn’t wait longer to hear from him and now I’m ruminating what if he would have 


Is it out of bounds to text him and ask for clarification? I want to move on but feel I can’t because I never knew if he reached out. It’s really been tough for me 


Thanks