I kept my disorder hidden from my partner for the majority of our relationship and while I am very happy they were understanding and 100% supportive, I feel as if I'm constantly on edge about everything I do and say. The reason I finally told them was because they said my silent anger felt suffocating and I realized how much I've been reverting back to my old habit of lashing out without thinking (and impulsivity in general) I genuinely love this person and I'm not sure what to do. My insurance won't allow me to see a professional and online resources can only go so far. I really don't want to end up pushing them away and repeating mistakes from past relationships. I've been so focused on recovery and this is only fueling my desire to get better but it seems impossible without proper support. My mind has been restless and honestly, I feel like I'm going to lose them for being this way. So, uh, any advice? lol