I’m honestly at my wits end. I’m highly considering just throwing in the towel on my life &amp; being done with it. 
I feel like I can’t take another day with BPD. The mood swings, the black &amp; white thinking, the splitting. Everything. I feel like I’m going crazy &amp; I feel like I’m fucking drowning in all of this. 
I’ve been in therapy for 5 years now &amp; I’ve had a go at a few medications aswell, none of which have worked. 
I don’t know what else I’m supposed to do, this illness is affecting every single aspect of my life more than it ever has. 
I’m so angry all the time &amp; I just want to break up with my partner out of spite, because he’s ignoring me. Goes to show how irrational I am all the time haha 
I just don’t know where to turn anymore, I truely don’t. The thought of having another intense mood swing makes me so anxious, that it ends up me having a panic attack. 
It hurts, physically &amp; emotionally all the time. 
&amp; I can’t do this, I’m so so fed up. 
