
i dont know anyone in my life to have a conversation with about this.
bg: i am a 24 yo F diagnosed at 22 with borderline personality disorder. i also have bipolar type 1. english is my second language. im not currently on medication.
after becoming aware i was borderline and reviewing my life in the third person i could see my behavior was what was causing most of the chaos and extremes. i'd always hear things like "your life sounds insane" and i'd agree and bask in the affirmation. now that i know and am learning to accept that i was part of the problem, digested that some things that have caused me so much pain and trauma could be because of me and my own choices, i cant help but think how did i not see this before? why do i feel stronger because of it?
how was it for you? and how are ways youve seen it change your behavior?
were there periods where you forgot and had to relearn?