I've been addicted to porn for years now and I don't see it getting better. When I ejaculate (I'm a man), I feel like everything has fallen apart and I should stop. But when the post nut clarity spell wears off, I just become horny again and the cycle begins once more. It's seriously having a toll on my mental health, and I'm gonna be honest here. Half of me wants to continue and get those 2 seconds of pleasure in exchange for a disastrous life, the other half just wants to stop. I've read that the benefits of masturbating generally just make you feel better. It also helps you have a clearer mind, and I think that's true. If I hadn't done this before, I don't think that I would be getting these amazing results in school. But then again, I feel conflicted about my few choices. Should I continue with caution, or do I just try to put my head against it and try to stop? I don't want anyone knowing that I do this, it's embarrassing.