I am 26 years old. Currently, I am doing my PhD. I have been studying abroad for a very long time, and at this point, I have no motivation for anything. I am progressing very slowly in my degree and I have been in isolation for so long. Even the company of friends or family don’t bring me any joy anymore. Most of the time, I would be thinking how worthless my life is. I use to enjoy being in the company of others, but now, I just want to leave as soon as possible and browse the internet in my room alone. I long for companionship but it seems impossible for me. I can’t sleep well because I keep thinking if it would be better if I don’t wake up tomorrow and repeat the same cycle. I’ve been blessed with many things but sometimes I feel like it’s a waste on a person like me.

I have never seen a therapist. I have tried but it seems difficult to reach someone.