I should do more to be a better daughter. But I can never find myself to changing and I don’t know why. I’m always having talks and yelling’s from my mother where she tells me that she’s tired of life. And I believe it all comes down to me. She always tells me that she’s proud of me and everything but don’t think she like how I am. And I don’t blame her. I am not an affectionate person towards my own mother and I don’t know why. She always had a rough life and I have seen her cry and lose herself a few times. And when that happens I normally try to comfort her but sometimes I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to change and I wish I was more affectionate and different in general. My mother deserves a daughter that is more active and willing to do stuff and be affectionate towards her but instead she birthed a lazy spoiled piece of lard that does nothing but lay around all day doing nothing. I don’t believe I deserve her. I am not a good person and want to change who I am to make her happy but I never end up changing and the cycle continues. This isn’t the first time I’ve felt like this and I’m not asking for sympathy. I just want to change