BPD is hell in itself to deal with, but the biggest issue I have is how obsessed I become with certain people. It’s usually romantic interest that I haven’t known for long, and despite not knowing them, I make what I do know my world. I’ll think and talk about them non stop, and that’s even with little to know contact. Most of the time they’re just leading me on, but the people who do want to be with me I don’t want them, I want one specific person (which changes every few years) who doesn’t want me. Often times I will s*lf h*rn or try to end my life when things go wrong with them. It’s actually very scary and concerning to me, because one day I’m scared one little thing will happen to tip me off and I’ll go to far. I’ll never be able to have or keep meaningful relationships if I keep on like this, because my friends know my issues but of course they get tired of my obsessive behavior rightfully so. Also I’ll never be able to have a real meaningful relationship because I only fall hard for people who won’t reciprocate. I’m wondering how I can stop these obsessive behaviors, and thoughts. I’m so tired of thinking of someone who doesn’t even think of me or know me well, but I can’t stop it’s like my brain is on auto pilot.