I have a few people I would call friends but I don't really feel that close to them. We only play a few games together and our schedules never line up so it's rare we get to play together. When we do play I feel uncomfortable, I don't feel like I'm part of the group and usually only play for an hour if that because I feel so drained. I don't really do much that would get me to meet new people and I usually stick to myself because I don't like talking people and feel trapped in conversations. I never know how to set my boundaries and always feel guilty when I do actually stand up for myself. I worry everything I say sounds stupid or feel like I'm always making a fool of myself and being annoying so I just stop talking usually. Everyone hates the nerd who corrects people and I'm almost always that nerd but I don't mean to be rude I just want to share the knowledge. I'm so anxious and depressed. I'm just venting at this point. I'm so scared and helpless and I just want the pain to end. Why can't the pain end?