I was diagnosed just a few months ago. I'm trying different, natural ways to help me mentally before I resort to meds. I have a boyfriend of 7 months who's been extremely supportive, loving and patient. He tells me how much he loves me all the time. I only get to see him once a week but we've discussed moving in together within the next few months. 

It's just so so so hard for me to accept that he truly does love me. I've been cheated on and used by so many guys in the past that I rarely let anyone in anymore. I come from being raised by an abusive, unloving mother. I have little friends because people are just so cruel. How do I learn to fully trust that his intentions are always good and all these rotten thoughts I have that he's out cheating on me are just tricks my mind is playing. We just spent two days together and he left and he hasn't texted me in two hours and I instantly assume that he must be out with someone else. It's awful that I'm always in panic mode. I'd do anything to just calm down and accept that he doesn't want to hurt me but my brain doesn't allow that. Help :( Any advice nor tips would be great.