to sum it up, my parents argued a lot when i was growing up. they still argue now, but it effects me less than it used to and i’m away at college or working most of the time anyway. my parents ignored my obvious signs of budding mental illness as a child, and now i feel like i’m screwed for the rest of my life. it didn’t help that my first bf when i was 15 was mean and controlling and would constantly push my limits sexually. i really haven’t gone through much and yet my BPD is debilitating to myself and my relationships. there are other people who have gone through so much more, and so much worse things than me, yet they deal with it in a healthier way and are more successful than me. i just feel stupid that my past has effected me as much as it has.