Don't mind me, I'm just writing this post to reassure myself a little...

I've never done this before and it scares me so much. I am very socially awkward and reserved. I don't know how I can make them believe that I am something that I am not...

Are they going to notice that my personality is basically trash and that my mental health is a dumpster fire? I'm so fucking scared that I am going to waste their time too, what if they'll think badly of me?

I don't even know why I applied for the job, I did it on impulse and now I am stuck in this situation... My motivation is like a roller coaster and I don't know if I'll be able to convince them that I can be fit for the job. I know I need to work too to pay for my psychologist cuz I don't want to lose him as well but I don't know if I can do this :(

I hope I don't land this job. I know I need it but I still want to somehow fail. I'll do my best anyhow.

I'll try to get some sleep before it's too late... Good night.