First of all when I was 5 I experience trauma, and since then I have had really bad separation anxiety, I feared my parents abandoning me, I’m almost 15 now and still experience this, when I was younger for a few years I had to ask to go to the toilet because I was scared I would get in trouble and they would abandon me, I now have incredible difficulty talking about emotions and having proper relegation ships with anyone, my parents have called me ‘emotionally distant’. I have trouble managing my emotions properly, and in result I bury everything down deep inside me, I absolutely hate going to my friends house, they have to come to my house other wise it’s awful, sometimes it can be fun though if I’m comfortable around the person, when I was younger I had a therapist, which I lied to so that I didn’t have to go, when I was about 6-8 I had trouble managing my motions, until I told my parents I was going to kill myself, I had a steak knife out and was going to do it on manny occasions though I got to scared. I am not able to talk to my parents about this, and therefore I cannot talk to a therapist again, which I now desire.