My morning started with a dream revolving someone very close to me abandoning me at a festival. I felt terrified. I then talked to my step mom about it; she said she knew something was wrong when I was so clingy to my dad. Like an extreme can't be away. I know with my BPD abandonment is terrifying and makes me feel like crying. My FP recently commented on my clinginess. And my illness/being sick all the time.
This is making me feel absolutely terrible. Just the thought of all of this. Realizing I'll always feel attached to someone and how it can effect me so extremely. 
If you struggle with this, do you have any tips? I've been in complete mood swings and depression spells over this the past few days and today has been the worst. Now I feel angry :( I just want it to stop.