I have had anxiety since I was a little kid. I've had extreme anxiety and panic attacks since I was in kindergarten. Nothing was ever "easy" for me and still is not. Sometimes I feel like in order to do anything I have to use all of my energy, whereas other people can do it and use almost no energy.

I have tried many things to help my anxiety, but still it persists. I have been to counseling, which helped slightly, I am on anxiety medicine too since counseling did not help enough. Even with anxiety medicine, I still struggle with anxiety and because of it, depression. My anxiety medicine seems to have bad side effects, like no sex drive, super irregular periods, tiredness, night sweats. I would say it slightly helps but I also wonder sometimes if it is just a placebo affect in my mind.

 I struggle to work, be social or anything "normal" people do. The longest I have had a job was 7 months straight before I quit and changed jobs. I am a hard worker when my anxiety doesn't get the best of me and I have excelled in any job I have done. I've even excelled in school and just got my Associates degree. Now I am incredibly anxious because I need to get a job again now that I completed school but all I can think of is how anxious it makes me. I don't like to make mistakes or get in trouble, and I do everything in my power to do things right, however I know it is IMPOSSIBLE to be perfect. Life would just be much simpler if this feeling of anxiousness wasn't there for every little thing I try to do in my life.