my partner and i both suffer bpd. we’re crazy about each other but his bpd makes him avoidant and fleeting when he experiences a swell of emotions because he wants to avoid abandonment. my bpd makes me extremely clingy and need constant reassurance.

we’re absolutely crazy in love but our mental illness has been clashing bad lately with the constant swell of emotions back and forth. it boiled over and i said goodbye. but i can’t let go. i feel this heaviness in my chest. it’s like the weight of the world. he’s my person. 

i’ve never experienced a breakup from my favorite person. even when i was in a different relationship, this man was my favorite person. but poor mental health stole it away. 

i really don’t know how to cope with this loss. i don’t know how to move on. i just want to run back. but i know he won’t have me back because i just confirmed his greatest fears by stepping away. 

how do i heal? i know if i don’t do something soon to heal, i’ll spiral and end up pink slipped again.