Just seeing parents with their kids makes all the emotions come back like it just happened when my daughter was taken from me. I didn’t do any bad besides trusting someone with the wrong information. 

And their was nothing I could do about it due to the fact that I was not legally on my daughters birth certificate. I’m already deal with another situation with my oldest daughter and not being able to see her like I want. 

But this is on a whole other level. When a ex who is not the biological mother take you 3 year old daughter out of pure jealousy of another woman. 

Idk if I’m just severely depressed or what but I know I’m not ok and don’t know wtf to do. I can’t even see her unless my daughters “adoptive mother” says it’s ok and she won’t. What hurts the most is when I do my daughter always ask if I’m coming home. 

I know I need some kind of help but idk what and don’t really have money for it. And that’s another reason why she won because her parents did and I was struggling to keep my bills caught up. Making  100 bucks a night as a bouncer was nothing near enough but i was doing it on my own. Still am but without my babies. 

Anything and I mean anything I see that reminds me of them or how I failed as a father makes me cry and i can’t control it. It’s like living it all over again as if it just happened. 

This is why men don’t open up to women for shit like this. Anything we say or do is used against us in the worst way possible. She was nothing like my ex’s total opposite so I felt I could trust her . Boy was I fucking wrong. It’s driving me insane I know it is.