I’m stopping today.

I wish I was stopping for another reason but I got caught. And I realized, it’s just as bad as hurting another person. 

I don’t know why it gives me such a rush. I have money. I’ve never not had money growing up. 

I hate it about myself. I’m terrified of the consequences. But really I’m just terrified of being a terrible person forever.

So I’m stopping today. 

Any advice and support would be appreciated.