Like the thought of using a public bathroom freaks me out.  If I have to, I wipe it down several times, or use like 6 seat covers if they have them and I still feel like I sat on something wet.  Even at home I get grossed out by anything in the drain.  Kitchen or bathroom.  I disgusted by my own bathrooms when I have to clean them and I never used to be.  If my hand even brushed against the toilet when I’m cleaning I immediately have to wash it.  Luckily picking up my dogs poop hasn’t gotten to me yet but I can’t handle changing my nephew and I used to change kids when I worked in daycare years ago.  I’ve always had ocd and anxiety.  My ocd consists of more superstitious things but it’s evolving.  My friend told me the other day the public bathrooms don’t bother her.  I get completely sick about it sometimes.  Like if I have to use it I always feel like I got someone’s pee on me.  

Why is this getting so bad now in my 40’s?  I’m also so afraid of finding a bug.  I rarely do but if I notice one spider or silverfish bug I freak out like we are going to have an infestation.  I spray bleach all over the shower everyday.  Fear of scum build up or a bug.  I’m not a neat freak and nothing is spotless but I still can’t handle it.