Classic self-fulfilling prophecy. I've been going through therapy with a psychotherapist and one of the big realizations was that one of my biggest triggers is my past anxiety episodes. I'm afraid of my fear leading me into a panic attack. 

On some level I have kept thinking that someday I will figure out the magic phrase to solve this, and will never have a panic attack again. Realizing that I need to work on my subconscious more than my conscious mind makes me so sad. There's so far to go on a path that might never end. 

Any shared experiences would be appreciated, I feel alone with my brain.