
Okay so a week ago I considered checking myself into a psych ward because I was showing signs of a pretty nasty manic episode and almost killed myself from doing stupid shit (mostly party/alcohol related). Basically tried to calm myself down and ended up going to the hospital instead to ask what I should do. Got put on some meds until I can meet with a specialist. It’s something I’ve been putting off for a while because I was scared of getting back on meds because I didn’t react well to ssris when I was diagnosed with depression. I’m really ashamed with myself. Over the last few months I’ve gone $1000 over my credit limit and drained my accounts from going on reckless spending sprees. I haven’t told anybody including my parents (who are the best and bailed me out several times when I didn’t have money for rent) but I don’t really have a relationship with them where I talk to them like I should. The only smart thing I’ve done is put money aside for rent for this month. That is all the money I have left to my name and I’m working multiple jobs but I really can’t get spending under control. All of my other accounts are a maxed credit card and -$300. I’m barely functioning enough to work but I just need the money so fucking badly. If anybody knows resources in Canada that apply to my situation that would be great. I honestly am just stumped and feeling overwhelmed.

M20 student in Canada

Tldr; Blew all my money. Need to pay bills and already had parents bail me out in the past