I’m a first year med student at my dream university. I did really well in my earlier school years and I’m genuinely interested in and passionate about the things I’m being taught but something inside me just feels empty. 

I come from a pretty disadvantaged  background so being around so many pretty well off and different people hasn’t really helped in the friends department and I’ve found myself often pretty alone going from a pretty big extrovert to a comfortable introvert.

This hasn’t helped how I’ve always felt at all though as this new loneliness coupled with my already bleak outlook on life has pretty much spiralled my mental health and strengthened my already bad MDD. My grades and what feels like everything I’ve worked so hard for falling is slipping of my hands and it feels like there’s nothing I can do.

I feel like I have no control over the situation and going therapist to therapist and zombifying anti-depressants, I don’t think I can take it anymore.