I kinda had a tough time and I just feel like I've bottled so much resentment. I'm kinda in a lot of pain and have depression. I feel like I've just tried to hold on for nothing since I lost most of what I worked so hard to build for myself. I feel like due to the mental strain some situations with people, I've lost the qualities I liked about myself. I don't see the purpose of building things up again. I don't feel like I'm strong enough to. It's meaningless since I'll just do what I do best and will lose it again. I have to do all the work while people who hurt me get to live as if nothing happened.