it’s wild how every day ordinary, mundane things will trigger me. a missed text. not hearing from someone. it’s as if my whole body tenses up. i want to hurl. or worse…

my mind swirls. thinking only in terms of black or white. never any grey. always always always in extremes. 

i don’t think this gets any better. im always gonna be this way. triggered by the stupidest things. 

i just want to sleep early. 

i hate caring about others. it’s simply too overwhelming at times. it hurts.