I’m a 23F w/ bp1 diagnosed 4 years ago. I’ve withdrawn from many classes due to my illness and time management and I have about a year to go for my undergrad degree in psych.

This is my second time taking biological psychology and the first time I withdrew due to feeling like I was going to go manic over the stress. I was taking two classes and withdrew from both. I didn’t have a job, I had free time. It was during the time of year where I usually go manic so I was taking antipsychotics on top of my high dose of lithium which I usually only take by itself. I have a hard time studying when I take the antipsychotic because my focus window is very short.

It’s been a year since and I’ve managed other classes without needing to withdraw. Now I’m taking that same science class again with another class but I have a job now. I thought I wouldn’t need to take it by itself because I’ve been successful for the last year but I’m about to lose it.

I have been having serious relationship issues and still can’t seem to get my work done for the science class in a timely fashion. One assignment requires up to 10 pages of writing and I’m assigned 4 a week. I’ve missed the last week and a half due to too much stress and taking more meds.

I can manage the other course because it doesn’t require as much from me. I want to withdraw from the science class again. I can’t focus on one assignment and I will have 9 unfinished ones by monday. They each take me about 5 hours and that’s if I’m focused.

I’m feeling incredibly guilty and weak. I want to give up this class but my mom tells me to “dig deep.” I’m worried if I attempt to try that it will drive me to go manic and it’s been two years since my last episode. Advice pls