So last night my boyfriend and I were out to dinner and I was teasing him with a French fry. I kinda poked it barely up his nose and he tried to force me to eating it. I told him multiple times to stop each time getting more and more anxious. Until he told me he would consequence me which made me start to panic. He kept trying until I had a panic attack which I’m good at hiding. He sighed and put down the French fry and I dissociated for 20 minutes. Which I didn’t realize 20 minutes had passed… he got super mad at me for ignoring him for 20 minutes. I found this out when I asked him in the car if he was mad at me, Which he was….

I told him I wasn’t trying to I had a panic attack… and he said “Jesus Christ… what will be next, freaking out when I look at you?” 


We haven’t talked since…