I’m a 23 year old female , my FP is a 27 year old male . We met in college . We’ve been friends for the past 4ish years. He also struggles with mental illness . We talk almost everyday . He’s the only opinion that really matters to me and the only one that I truly feel understood by. We say we’re best friends , but it’s complicated because we’re also very attracted to each other and hook up occasionally. I’m the only person he’s ever slept with. I have a really really hard time with this one because he knows me better than anyone in the world , and we have amazing sex and when I’m with him I feel almost whole. I’ve tried to talk to him about my feelings many times before and it always ends the same way with him saying something along the lines of  “i care about you so much, and I’ll always be there for . You’re my best friend. I feel the feelings you feel too but I just don’t think with where we’re both at mentally right now we’d be able to make each other happy.” And he’s right . We probably wouldn’t. But then I just get confused . Does he not have any feelings at all for me and he’s just saying that to be nice ? Is that actually how he feels ? Does he want more too but is just confused ? I just don’t know what to do anymore because we’re best friends but my feelings keep getting stronger and stronger . We’ve tried making things strictly platonic, but that never lasts long . I’ve tried distancing myself.. but then when I’m in a really low spot I need him too much and that doesn’t last . And I’ve tried to have an honest conversation with him a million times but we can never come to a sensible conclusion.  I just need advice ): 