If he takes too long to reply, or if he isn’t having the best attitude (normally rlly excited to talk and full of life) or making efforts to create conversation I get sooo anxious.

Logically I know that life gets in the way it’s okay for him to take a while to reply, it doesn’t mean that he’s all of a sudden not interested in me. I know that he is also human and can’t be bubbly EVERY time we’re talking. 

But I get so depressed from this, the thoughts really get to me “he regrets dating you,” “he realized your ugly since the last time you hung out” and it affects my life so much.


I also start getting mad at myself for allowing a guy to have so much control over my emotions but in the end, that’s only my fault for becoming co dependant on him.


Even if I don’t find a solution to this spiraling problem, it feels nice to get that off my chest. I realize now that this has been prevalent in my other relationships and with friends too. Then I start pushing them away because I fully believe the thoughts….