I'm crying right now and I feel like absolute shit, both physically and mentally. Antidepressant Discontinuation Syndrome is fucking terrible. 

It's not that I'm purposely not taking my antidepressants and my other meds. Most of the time when I try taking my medications, I vomit them right back up. I'm so fucking frustrated and tired of feeling like this. It's gotten to the point that I don't even know if my gagging is physiological or psychological anymore. ADS symptoms are supposed to last 1-2 weeks; but because I'm actually trying to take my meds and they sometimes stay down and get absorbed, the ADS symptoms are a constant.

 I don't have a GP anymore, as mine retired last December. My province is currently in a shortage of Family Doctors, so I'm going to have to go to the ER in the next few days.