TL,DR at the bottom.

Using my throw away here. I’m seeing someone, it’s long distance, we’re both busy, him more so. When we first for together he was working somewhere else and had loooads of free time, so we spoke constantly. Like more than i ever normally would. 

Now he’s back to his normal life and doesn’t have as much time for me and I’m finding it hard. I keep losing my shit at him via text, and trying to push him to break up with me, and basically just antagonise him. I’m trying to be chill and just wait for him to be the one who initiates contact, but I hate it, I just want attention, and I’m tempted to seek it out elsewhere. He’s making me feel worthless and a nuisance, even though he’s being nice.

TLDR: How the fuck do I keep my chill here, without feeling like shit?