Hello everyone, I (23f) recently got diagnosed with BPD and for some reason it made it worst. I have been on a spiral of thoughts that make me feel unlovable, worthless and not good enough. I have been in a relationship for a year and it’s been healthy and loving, something that I have never had before. I deeply love this man but lately I have found problems in all corners. That I wish he could do more, I wish that he could love me as I do. In reality, I know that he’s giving me what he can at the moment. We are in the process of becoming real adults and it’s been so hard. I want this person to be with me for a long time but with my mind playing with me I feel like I am pushing him away, making him feel like he’s not good enough. I am his first long term relationship and we’ve worked through our problems pretty easily and full of love. However, with the spiral of thoughts and my fear of losing him I tell myself stories that all that I’ve been doing is wrong. 

I need to know if someone here has ever been in a long lasting relationship (healthy of course)? What are your tips and tricks? 

I feel a alone with this. I need some help.