I hate anxiety - yet I have to live with it, and have to accept it and be always aware of it. 

Since I first developed anxiety I went through all states possible. From desire to just close my eyes and rest them for weeks, or to crippling anxiety where I barely could move or speak. 

My own beef with anxiety is that all the time I have to be anxious for something new - had anxiety for headaches, then for stomach aches, I thought that I might have cancer, muscle pains, exactly in this moment I have dizziness because of hot summer air, Its just not fair. 

I am going to therapist, I have routine, I work out. I am eating healthy, I have a good sleep behavior. I am doing everything right but still I have anxiety sometimes. 

I do have happy moments, I do have days without anxiety but still anxiety is like a third limb, that can't let you to forget that you suffer from something that other people do not understand and feel what you feel. 

I just want to feel normal again, and stop being so careful and watch inside myself each day. 

I do not know how to do that, I just wish someone could tell me all the steps to be healed by this invisible sucker. 

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I just wish you speed recovery and do not forget to be kind with yourself and others. Have a great week!