Better off D\*\*\*                                     9-21-2022

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I think I have had enough. 

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You know there are some people in life that haven’t done anything wrong, but they haven’t done anything right either. They are suffering, but by no means their fault. It’s just they are born in a certain situation, learn behavior and coping mechanism according to that environment. Then that’s what they express as that is all they know how to do; it becomes almost innate to them. 

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I think that’s me; I constantly fight and create argument with my family. I am constantly troubled, no peace in my mind. I know of the solution: being patient, letting go of anger and all of that, but I can’t seem to fight off what I observed and first thing I learned since birth.

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I only seem to trouble and plague the ones that love me and care about me the most, hurting them every day at every turn. Using their vulnerability against them. And so, I am starting to think their life would be better off without me in it. 

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I have decided to work for money till I am 30 and give them the financial security because they deserve better, they deserve the world. Then I plan to leave, somewhere far away from here, maybe even beyond this realm or maybe just turn into a dust on the ground. 

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But I won’t be truly gone because Energy is neither destroyed nor conserved. Life in a constant cycle.

 

\-ray