I was supposed to start work today but my anxiety and thoughts got the best of me … I feel like such a failure. I will never make anything of myself . I wish I didn’t have anxiety. I wish I was able to go out into the world and be a social butterfly. That is totally impossible for me to do. All I can do is dream … I’m young 23 and yet so broken .. with no support no family no friends . Today’s totally going to be a shit day …