I really need help, I have no idea what to do, I’m so upset, I think this is the end and my boyfriend had had enough of me, he’s the only person that has ever made me feel safe and I genuinely have no idea what I would even do without him. 
I’m struggling so much at the moment and I feel like I’ve put him through a lot. He doesn’t deserve it. I don’t know what to do. I just need him so much and I love him so much and I genuinely think that without him I would rather be dead. I need urgent help at how I can better myself to stop being such a mess all the time because I don’t want a life without him