A few weeks ago, I was screened for adhd and instead of being adhd, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, generalized social anxiety disorder. The psychologist also said that my scores indicate that I have "characteristics of borderline personality characteristic structure".   
 

Honestly, it just made things worse. I thought these tests were going to clear everything up. Instead, not only do I not have a quick fix, but I feel like a fraud. Like I don't fit in anywhere and I never will. I just want to give up and i wish Icould just go to sleep and never wake up. I don't even feel like I'm allowed to post in this group, yet here I am because I'm desperate. I don't even know why I would have developed the characteristics in the first place.  
 

I feel like my friends.just put up with me. Im useless to them, no matter what they say. They're just saying that.   
 

I was referred to go to DBT, but everywhere that has been suggested has a waitlist... I don't want to do this anymore.   
 

My best friend/boyfriend(without the lable) has ADHD and RSD, and I've spent so much time looking into all of that to support him in anyway possible yet he hasn't even tried for me. He doesn't watch shows I suggest to him, he doesn't listen to music I suggest. Yet he's all I have. I know he's more toxic than not in my life. But I can't get myself to stop talking to him.  
 

I just am a worthless piece of crap and I don't want to be on earth anymore. But I can't get myself to end it just because I can't figure out a way that will guarentee I won't survive and won't be found.