Basically I've had a lot of opportunities to get a dirt cheap license through contacts alone, problem being that I never felt that I'm being a good, trustworthy driver. 

I always spaced out during driving lessons, the smallest mistake or scare would drag me back in and made me cry so much we had to stop, or I was so irrationally angry I just made one mistake after the other. 

when I realise how BAD I'd be behind a wheel, I stopped taking lessons. I just felt like a threat to everyone on the street.

a lot of people called me dumb for not taking this opportunity to get a license done but I doubt I'd even manage the final exam? I really can't imagine driving in my current state