I’ve been unhappy for as long as I can remember. Even back in middle and high school when I had friends and some semblance of a life, I always felt empty on the inside. 

As time has passed, I’ve become more anhedonic. In the past I used to find some fulfillment from exercising, reading, and other hobbies. But now, literally nothing seems to take me out of my misery. I can’t focus at work, I cry everyday, I have to resist the urge to use substances, and I spend a lot of time fantasizing about suicide.

I’ve tried therapy for 3 years and it doesn’t really help me much. Medication seems like the only other option I have.