I have long history with major depressive disorder but turns out that I have BPD as well. 

And I feel much better. Of course it wasn't easy at first but eventually it made me feel better because I always wondered why I never get better and had vague self-image come to think of. And by knowing the reason and that now I can blame BPD for what I go through instead of blaming myself really changed my life.
Also I think I got a huge help with changing my meds.

I would've never knew what being normal feels like. 
I still have up and downs especially because of this whole COVID19 situation, but it's far better than before.

I just wanted share something positive with you and hope everyone's safe and well.