I’ve had 7 sessions now and he’s good at guiding me to the source of a problem with the right questions. I like him and trust him. He’s referring me to a psychiatrist, but I didn’t make an appointment the first week after he said I should. He asked if I made one and I said I had sent an email and was waiting for answers, and I was really determined to write said mail right after the appointment. That was a week ago and this week I didn’t manage to do it, again! It’s not that I don’t want to, oh boy I really do want to. I just couldn’t do it, it was too much with everything else on my mind. It was also not enough time, if I have three weeks or more usually I can get stuff like this done, but not in one week. And all those things are things you should tell your therapist. But maintaining the functioning picture of myself is such a fast and strong reflex, it just came out that way and now I’m too scared to tell him the truth. And it’s all fucking ridiculous!