I met this friend from online while I was with my bf. He was respectful and respected all boundaries. When my bf and I broke up, he was also comforting. I met him while I was being partially hospitalized during the summer. His home was a safe space for me because being home was hard and triggering as well. Our friendship became more sexual to the point we ended up having sex. I had no desire of wanting to be with him and I always voiced that. Shortly after I was sexually assaulted and haven’t seen him since (about a month ago). 

I feel like I haven’t been ready to really see him again due to the traumatic experience so we stuck to texting and calling. 

I’m thinking of blocking him because I feel like he no longer serves any purpose in my life. Having sex also changed the dynamic of our friendship. He fuels by sexual impulsivity and I hate that. I regret doing it with him as well. And he keeps triggering me. I explicitly tell him that ignoring my messages or not being attentive is a trigger and he apologizes just to repeat those same actions. 

All I desire is Someone who respects and understands my bpd + triggers. And I just don’t see why I should even keep him as a friend. But I think I might be splitting