I have been dealing with a debilitating autoimmune disease called Crohn's disease, in a country with no healthcare resources.

I won't go fully into detail as I am tired of typing it over and over again over various places.

It has made my anxiety so much worse that I am functionally disabled. I can't do anything other than sit and worry. I am filled with despair. 

I can feel how deep I am right now and I cannot see anyway out of this unlike other times. 

I can feel myself reaching a breaking point and that's not good. I really don't want to do something like sucide but if my suffering goes above my tolerance, the switch might flick.

I have been researching stoicism and wanted to know if any of you have experience with taoism. 

Can you guys tell me if taoism might suite my situation better than stoicism.

Today is especially bad for some reason.