Hi all I have this issue I have developed and I wanna see if anyone can relate. I was injured (nov 2020) and had surgery (Feb 2021). After my surgery because of recovery, nerve pain and horrible timing (mid pandemic) Me and my gf of 9years decided it would be better for me to stay home with the kids because of daycare being too expensive and her making enough to cover bills anyways. Since all of this I have slowly lost interest in everything and over the past few months began to wonder if there is even purpose to life. Im not suicidal and even if I was I’m too worried about hurting others to do anything to myself. I’m a father of 2 and have a dog so I never just lay in bed and do nothing but somehow I have just lost interest in life. Every time I think about it all i can think is how my kids need their dad but I feel that’s all that is keeping me sane. I feel this need to cure my boredom but every time there is a solution somehow I ruin the whole day I guess In fear  of being happy or some dumb shit idk. I legit can stare at a wall for hours in deep thought and I can’t even watch tv anymore. I no longer sleep I just toss and turn from 9 until 6 because I make myself go to bed, idk I’m lost and don’t know what to do. I don’t want meds I just want to have an interest in life again. Idk sorry about any and all typos and grammer.