I don't know why this is, but I'm hating it. I had a really good time away with my boyfriend, might of gotten a bit clingy when he had to leave to get home, but otherwise since then I haven't been that good.  
I cut myself again ,tried looking for pain killers but couldn't find them, and I've hit my arm with a hammer and the back of my head on the wall.  
I feel like I'm spriling hard today and I can't take it. I just really want to die and I feel terrible.