I have been chronically depressed for the past couple years. I think I have become comfortable saying that I don't want relationships (familial, platonic, and otherwise) because I say I'm an introvert (I am, but that's not the point) mostly because I don't know how to communicate with people that this is the worst that life has been in a long time. I graduate from college in a week with high grades and a loving family that I never confide things in because all my siblings have chronic mental illnesses to the point that my parents have told me that I'm the "stable/normal" one. I can live like this as long as I need to but I will never confide in them or any of my friends about these issues. I don't want help or advice or people telling me "just find a good friend to talk to" or "get a therapist!" because talking things out isn't something I want to do, even if it's something I should. Even this feels self-indulgent. 

I guess I want to be heard at least once without anyone knowing me or who I am. That's all.