Growing up, I was fat so I was always judged for how I look until college. I continuously get compliments from people but never believe it because I cannot see myself as pretty or attractive. TikTok really makes me self-conscious as well, with all of the plastic surgery and editing. I have acne scars on the side of my face, a chubby face with small eyes, and  a pear shaped body. people compare my looks to Megan thee stallion and I think she’s really pretty but I don’t see it myself. I even feel self conscious when guys want to see me or have sex and I barely make eye contact. I also have tons of clothing that’s cute but don’t wear them in public because I get really anxious and start shaking. Pretty girls call me pretty all the time but I think they’re saying it to be nice tbh. I just wish I could see myself as pretty instead of seeking validation and then not believing it after getting it.