My birthday is a bit of a touchy subject since my dad died.  He was always the one to make sure I got a card, a phone call, and when he could, he would take me out for supper, just the two of us.  He wasn't always there for the day itself, because of his work, but I would ALWAYS get a phone call no matter what.  This year, my mom went to Florida for the winter (we live in Canada).  Last year she went, but she made sure to leave after my birthday.  This year, she left a full two weeks before.  I was a LITTLE upset, because it sucks being alone on your birthday, but she's paying for me to fly down next week and we're spending a week together and going to Disney.  So I'm fine with it.  I get it.  But yesterday....

She just forgot.  She didn't call.  She texted me, to ask me how the store was doing (we own a store together), but completely forgot it was my 27th birthday.  Her FRIEND remembered.  Her friend called me.  Hell, one of my customers remembered.  But my own mother forgot.  And I know, LOGICALLY, it's not THAT big of a deal, but I was really upset yesterday because of it.  REALLY upset.  Just because it makes me feel like....who cares?  If my own mother can't even remember her only daughter's birthday, if it matters so little to her, what good am I?  And now of course it makes me think that she never remembered my birthday before, either, but my dad reminded her.  I feel kinda lost without him around.  And a bit unwanted.

Anyway.  I just needed to whine a little...and I knew this was the only place people wouldn't judge me or tell me I'm being unreasonable.  It just hurts is all.