DAE feel like a lost child in a big world? Being an adult is hard. I wish I could be a child forever, with my parents looking after me and not having to worry about how to live my life.

But seriously, I don't know what's the point of living. During my lows caused by huge stress and fear I feel so empty inside I can't even describe it. Like there are no tears left to cry. I feel like finally at some point of my life I will end it. Like it's inevitable.

Once when I experienced very serious period cramps, lying on the floor shivering and covered with cold sweat, I thought that it hurts so bad that death seems like the only solution. And I wasn't even scared. Actually, at that moment, thinking of it felt very peaceful.