Is there a pill that will make this easier to live through? I'm in a very bad place right now and im so fed up. I would rather be a pilled up zombie then suffer this.

I want to make a appointment with my GP but Google is saying that there aren't really any treatments that work, other than some epilepsy medicines. I don't want to psyche myself up for the Dr visit to just be disappointed, I can't handle anymore disappointment right now.

I'm in the UK.