I just tried to have a discussion with a virtual friend in my city about going back to a weekly meet and greet event I used to go to prior to Covid. 

Prior to Covid I had severe anxiety and I would drink to help ease it. I no longer drink and I’m now married. My spouse is interested in making friends and socializing also. 

However my anxiety is so freaking bad just discussing going back and why I’m afraid of going back that I was physically shaking as if it was 20 degrees F outside and I was only in a t shirt.

I hate it. It’s so frustrating, I want to go make friends again but i despise the feeling of dread involved