I am tired all the time. I feel nothing most of the time. I mastubate alot to feel something atleast. I never liked masturbating really, i actually think it’s disgusting. But finishing feel ok so i did if alot. But i’m not even intressted in that anymore. Even if i’m realy horny talking to my gf, sexting or watching any form of lewd content i would rather do nothing than masturbate. I have talked about it to my gf and she offer to help me with handjobs and blowjobs when i look really down from time to time. I love her so much, she is the love of my life and the hj and bj does help. But i can’t do this to her anymore

(This may sound really weird and lewd but i had to share this with someone)