Or mean a great deal to you. I can't stop thinking about my "former" best friend. I can't stop rewinding everything in my head every single day and thinking what could I have done differently. I want to talk to her but she has clearly said that our friendship is over and that she only has time for people that she considers friends. She said that couple days ago after a really long time of just using a lot of excuses. It's almost been three years of torture for me.