I honestly don’t where else to post this. I’m at lost because I feel like a crap person. 

I’ve been working on myself a lot… but holding a stable relationship… I don’t know what to do. My brain goes down a spiral of wanting other men. The urge to cheat (I have always been good about breaking up BEFORE I truly think i’m going to cheat) gets worse and I slowly lose all interest - I feel weird kissing my partner, sex becomes unwanted, I start to push away… ya know.

I did mention breaking up because I don’t want to be toxic… but he wants to help me in any way that he can. 

:) Maybe I just need some advice or if anyone has dealt with this before.