How do you guys maintain a consistent state of mind? I do it by reassuring myself that everyone is pretending to be okay, and tell myself that I can pretend to be doing just fine better than everyone in this entire world, since everyone MUST have some sort of problem in their life right? but I eventually break down, and my BPD tendencies start to show up. Once this fake mask breaks, I abandon all friends who saw my real self, and retreat until I have enough energy and power to deceive them again. 

I guess my question is, how do I accept the fact that it's okay to break down sometimes, because at this point, I think I really forgot how to open up for real. My life is going great on paper, but I'm dead inside. Is everyone like this ?