I’m debating on journaling my bad thoughts, but I don’t want to get indulged in them. I doubt anyone I could call would answer at this hour to distract me. I’ve been petting my puppy and holding onto her, but she needs her sleep.. I don’t have the energy to take her out again if she wakes up.
Currently, I’m just smoking.. trying to find humor with the tv. 
I feel the urge to SH (i picked at a healing scar earlier and it’s just kinda like - why not?)
I’m just trying to stay level headed and not freak out.
(sorry for format, i’m on mobile)

what the hell do i do?