I have suffered from a plethora of mental illnesses my entire life. The most prominent two are severe depression &amp; BPD (diagnosed at 18). Although my mental health issues began to get really bad around age 13, it was nothing compared to what was to come. My first major abandonment trauma, and my subsequent reaction, led me to seek out the psychiatric who diagnosed me. To make a very long story short, I am now 21 and every single day since my 18th birthday I have sunk further and further into the abyss. I cannot seem to recover from this specific abandonment &amp; horrible events keep coming one after the other. I have tried literally everything: 30+ medications, DBT (several different groups), in patient treatment, PHP, IOP, even TMS plus the maintenance treatments. All to no avail. I have fought so hard for so long and I am so tired. I used to believe in recovery and a life worth living but how can I at this point?In January of this year it became too much and I was so hopeless that I quit all my medication cold turkey, ghosted my psychiatrist, and stopped going to therapy. As you can imagine things have been spiraling since. I am trying so hard to finish my bachelor’s at the prestigious university I attend but everything has been working against me. I have never felt real happiness once in my life and it’s so hard to keep living when no treatments seem to help. I’m begging anyone who has made their way through hell to tell me how they did it. What options are there for the cases that seems hopeless and untreatable?