I feel so tired of myself slipping lately and I have been avoiding antidepressants for years now, but I’m to the point where I feel like something has to give. I want to feel better. I want to hug my kids without pushing them away. I want to be a better wife to my husband because I feel like I’ve done nothing but make him miserable.  I want a stable self image that doesn’t involve me despising myself and telling myself how ugly and worthless I am.
I wish I were thinner, smarter, kinder, more outgoing, and overall happier.
All of the sunlight/vitamins/supplements/diet changes/exercise just isn’t working anymore and I’m tired of it.