I experience this a lot. My mood swings are very heavy and I’ve been looking into schema therapy and modes and it seems like I’m really in it now… discovering what’s wrong with you is so scary honestly. It’s not like I would be doing any better without a diagnosis, perhaps I’d be even worse, but it’s still so horrifying. I often find myself having a good day and feeling good about myself but then the tiniest thing happens and it throws me into a mood swing/episode and then I switch it up again in less than a few hours or the next day and it feels like this everyday. I just keep going between loving and hating myself, sometimes even multiple times again. It’s tiring, I wish I could stop it but I don’t know how. I will probably reach out for professional help eventually (I am not very independent right now and very financially stable for that) but for as long as I’m dealing with it without the help of a medical expert it’s going to be a very dark tunnel. Does anyone else feel like this? I would love to hear you guys’ thoughts