I have PE three times a week and on Tuesday and Thursday and were going to the nearby gym for the class. I really don't want to go. I'm feeling so overwhelmed and nervous, because the couple friends I do have aren't in my PE class. I'm really afraid of new things and hate the feeling of uncertainty. I have no idea how the class is structured (what were going to do/can we decide what we do, am i supposed to wait for the teacher or just go in to the dressing rooms and meet the others after, just everything scares me).

So I don't have anyone to be there with me, I've never been to the gym/used the machines before and I'm scared my classmates will judge me for that, since the others probably know what they're doing. (Lucky me, i got the group with the athletes) They already know im not good at PE since i pretty much embarrassed myself during basketball last week. Also it's mixed gender group and a small group so im standing out even more.

I don't even know what to wear. People obviously are going to wear like skin tight and athletic clothes, but I'd be physically most comfortable in a normal t-shirt and sweatpants but mum said I'll just stand out and the teacher wouldn't like that.

Also the walk back from the gym will take like 30 minutes so I don't know if the teacher knows that or do i need to say that. 

Were only allowed to be 4 times total absent from a class per period and for PE it's 3 times.

So basically I don't want to go. I'm so overwhelmed and nervous and to plainly put it scared. I can't calm down Im in tears and just want it to go away. School and friends aren't going that great currently either im stressed and just want to crawl in a closet and not come out. 

I going to try and talk to my mum if I could skip tue and thurs PE class, but that'd mean I would be absent from other classes as well and couldn't skip or be sick more than once or twice before having to retake the class/course.