I(f20)feel like I can't deal with anything anymore. Ice been depressed since last March.. my medication seems to work ok but I tend to still cycle a bit.  I have a drs appointment soon so he'll probably change my meds but I'm tired...
I'm tired of the cycles..
The constant depression, my rare ups.. I have no time to see a therapist or afford it... I try to call help lines but it's so hard. my body doesn't feel like mine and sometimes I feel like a walking imposter. I eat healthy and I try to exercise.. anything to feel better. But no. I'm stuck. 

What to do... What to do... :( 

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