A terrible thing happened last night. I'm not okay. There is a group. We're doing some work there. Everything is fine there. I was working on something and a friend from the group I had just helped, he wanted to help me. At the end of 2 hours, I couldn't find a solution on what I was working on and he go too far and spoke to me in a disrespectfully way in the text chat, he said to me "I told you to do it from the beginning, you've been eating yourself for 2 hours because of a XXX". I said to him, "Here's the point you don't understand, I'm already doing it from the beginning, there is sound, when you add YYY there is no sound, you understand?". In that moment, I started to ask myself. Everything seemed fake again. Every words seemed like a lie again. This horrible thing triggered my depression. He finally realized that I was right. He couldn't do what I was trying to do either. But it's too late now. I deleted and blocked him. I've gone to depression right now. I can't control myself. I can't stop hate. I'm going to start isolating myself. You know what's funny? A year later, I am being abused again by the same person and I am totally a victim of my emotions. I'm so stupid. I've helped people out there and shared emojis, that sounds so stupid now!