I’m so worried about everything. My OCD thoughts, my compulsions, therapy. My loved ones are always busy so it’s hard. Right now, I haven’t heard anything about the waitlist to start longer-term therapy. I am also still undiagnosed with BPD. I feel frustrated with everything going on in my life. I also had the urge to reach out to a former friend, but I might get rejected because of the history between us so I caved in and looked them up. Didn’t reach out to her though nor do I plan on contacting her. Everything is so frustrating right now. I don’t have my college courses or my job. Instead, I spend my days writing and doing other forms of self-care. Which is great, don’t get me wrong. But I miss learning and I fear if I’m beyond fixing. If you’re reading this, thank you for listening. I just needed to put my feelings out there. I’m a mess right now.