Hey y’all! So before I get started here’s a little back story. 

I have TERRIBLE anxiety. Ever since I turned 18 years old- I have been on and off medication. Best case scenario- they help for a couple months. Then I need to dose upped. Then I max out on dosage and then have to switch pills. In 5 years I’ve tried 13 different medications. Either the side effects were unbearable from the start or my tolerance levels get in the way. 

My husband and I had a long talk last night and he shared with me he really thinks I should start medication again. My stress and worry is now being passed to him and it’s causing marital stress. He’s being patient but I understand being frustrated with me. Hell-I’m frustrated with me!!! 

When I got off my medication, I started sharing that with others and a lot of people told me big pharma doesn’t want you to get better. Because if you get better-they lose a customer. Which in my head makes sense. Why would a company want you to stop using their product that they make so much money on. 

Why do I go though this Reddit and see people still struggling terribly on meds. Why do I have to wait 8-10 weeks to see if a pill works with my body :/ that seems terribly long and then I can imagine that you’d go through with drawls getting off them at that point. 

Apart of it does feel like a scam but at the same time people swear it has helped. 

But at the same time-people swear with proper diet, exercise and therapy can help more than pills. 
Ugh I just don’t know what to do. I’ve been off pills for over 2 months now and I’m scared to go back but I also am scared my anxiety is going to consume my life and health. What do I do!?!!!?

Anyone, from either side if you could please input your own experiences / thoughts.