I’ve snapped on people multiple times. I hate it. I usually just sit alone to cool down until I fall asleep or move on with my day. I hate working around people so much for this reason. I don’t like to be too close to anybody especially people that are not patient and get frustrated easily. 

I have a roommate with a quick temper and it pisses me off because I want to snap back at him but I know it’d just cause problems. I just walk away and keep my distance when anybody is like this. I really do not want to cause problems or blow up.

My grandma is really moody as well and when she is in a bad mood I absolutely despise being around her. What makes me mad too is she goes off and on from wanting me there to wanting me gone and its so confusing so I will stay with her to visit but not too long or too often. She got pissed at me a few times for no good reason. She likes to upset me sometimes I think. 

Like I used to try to talk to her about a argument we had and she’d get mad and blow me off. Finally I stopped talking to her after arguments too and then she started to follow me to my room to talk about things when I was pissed which really was just provoking the situation. I just snapped at her. I couldn’t do it anymore. There were other times I snapped at other people as well. I cannot stand when people do this to me on purpose. Like they want my to bend to their bs and it like how many times do I have to tell you ‘no, your full of shit,’ which makes them mad. I’m not saying I have no control, but when people provoke me it doesn’t make me want to be around them. 

I cannot stand being around anybody too long for this reason. I hate it. I’d honestly live a pretty nice healthy isolated life and for the most part I am really isolated, even with roommates I barely communicate with. I’m so fucking mad right now. Especially when people treat me wrong it pisses me off. 

Everyone pisses me off so much and I hate it. Plus it makes me want to cry and it makes me look like a baby. I wish so much that I wasn’t like this. Sometimes a few drinks helps me calm down but sometimes it makes it worse.