I’m in the best relationship I have ever been. He is amazing. Very sweet, very kindhearted, understanding, intelligent, i could go on. We love each other a lot.
Lately i feel like we’re growing distant, which I know is normal sometimes, and he seems more mentally preoccupied. He’s in a difficult summer class right now and so I could imagine that is probably eating up at his mind. I keep asking him if he’s ok or if there is something wrong, sometimes even wondering if he is subconsciously dealing with deeper issues. But he keeps saying he’s fine. He’s normally very good with communicating so rationally speaking I know i have nothing to worry about but I’m still terrified that he’s going to leave me. I know that the way im acting is annoying, and I’ve come to learn this about bpd people like myself, that sometimes we try to do everything we can to ensure someone will stay in your life that it can eventually drive them away. I don’t want that to happen but in order to prevent it I have to stop myself from thinking like this. Just saying “it’s gonna be fine” doesn’t fix it because I just cant seem to bring myself to believe it.
I cant lose him, I just need help on how to deal with this