I don't ever talk about this, so I don't know if it's a bipolar thing or something else. Do you ever feel detached from reality? Like some Matrix shit where everything around you feels real but something is off? Like the world has too many details and the lighting feels weird and the colors are barely correct? 

I think this is probably what you'd call psychosis, but I've just never been open enough about it to get a good explanation. You know, because it sounds crazy. 

Sometimes I feel hyperaware of my own existence and fear that some malicious entity is trying to trick me and that my depression and insanity are my destiny. I think Deadpool called life a train wreck with brief commercial breaks of happiness. That's what it feels like. 

I think I just need some reassurance that I am not losing my mind.