I feel like I'm going insane right now. Have been so depressed the last few days and want to hurt myself like I usually do when I get this way. I'm on similar meds to everyone else (Lamictal, abilify, and buspirone). I've tried several SSRIs that never worked.  I've taken quizzes online that tell me I'm high risk for BP and and another that says I'm not. I just want to stop feeling insane and finally have a name for what I'm feeling. My psych has asked leading questions about BP I know but just won't say the words.