I’m not sure what’s wrong with me, I’ll have a few days of just being depressed, cranky about things that don’t matter, low energy and then suddenly I get a day of just being normal, not crazy happy or energetic (manic) just normal able to do day to day tasks and go to work/gym and do the work normally. This doesn’t follow an exact pattern but it seems to happen mostly on a 2-3 day depressive cycle 1 day normal. I don’t eat garbage food, my diet is on point both on a micro and macro nutrient level, I also track my calories, train regularly and play sports. The only medication I take is Adderall XR 15mg for my diagnosed ADHD which doesn’t really help all that much but it’s better than nothing. 

I am so tired of living like this not knowing if tomorrow I’ll have “access” to my normal self and be able to do the basic things I want to in life without having this whole battle with my body, let alone go after dreams and goals. This has been going on for as long as I can remember and I don’t know what type of help to seek for this.