Anyone else experience this? I feel like I don’t even know who stable me is 🥹
Kinda suspecting I might be a bit manic right now which is a real bummer since I thought I was just feeling myself again after a weird energy-sucking but not suicidal thought inducing (like usual for me) depressive episode. 
My psychiatrist wants me to start lithium, my prescription is actually ready for me to pick up. But they want to do twice weekly blood tests for a little bit to compare how ‘stable’ I feel to my blood levels. The guy standing in for my family doctor at the moment even said to me over the PHONE ‘well you seem stable right now, aren’t you?’ While going over my psychiatrists notes before sending out the prescription and life labs stuff for the blood work. 
So the real question is how am I supposed to say how stable I am when I don’t even really know what stability is to me or if I already feel fine right now and not depressed? 
I don’t even know if this makes sense sorry for the rant heh