I have tried and tried and tried over the years to better my life. And have failed miserably. I have major depressive disorder, social and generalized anxiety , CPTSD and I believe Borderline. I don’t think I will ever have a social support network. Genuine friends, people that sincerely care about me. My entire life I have struggled miserably to make friends. I have been fired from multiple jobs not for lack of hard work but from bullying and favoritism from the bosses and coworkers. I am severely depressed. I feel like I am constantly used and abused by people. I’m afraid to find a new place to get my hair cut, even though it is severely damaged, for example because I have had so many bad experiences. People walk all over me and I let them. I feel terrible about myself. My self esteem is beyond low. I feel I will never have  someone who truly loves me and cares about me. I feel like things will never get better. I don’t know how to get from point A to point B. No one can succeed in life without some help from people and I am alone.