I've always been depressed since age 11 and I'm 16 now. Ever since then I've been getting more less and less happier each year. I have suicidal thoughts pretty much every day now. It used to be periodically and now it's an everyday thing. I'm failing school more worse then ever and I don't have the motivation or courage to fix my grades. I don't really care if I end up failing high school completely anymore and I wish that I did. My family life is falling apart, I barely ever want to talk to them and I just don't see any reason to keep moving on with anything. I had friends then they all left me within the span of a month so now I have nobody. At school most of the time, I'll have my headphones in and avoid social interaction because I'm already having a bad day and it gets worse.. I've already cut myself before, I've gotten really close to suicide before. I don't know how to make myself happier in that times. So if your reading this reach out I feel like I need get things off my chest