I believe a doctor would describe my anxiety as extremely severe. I puke almost every day and I can’t enjoy **anything** anymore unless I’m intoxicated. My anxiety has completely seized all my life to the point where the only thing I wish for is to feel normal. Thoughts of not existing anymore is what makes me go to sleep every night, however, it’s quite uncommon I have suicidal thought during daytime. 

I need guidance on how to deal with my constant anxiety and also learn some self-insights which can help me change. I'll be brutally honest in explaining how I think, although I might sound like an ego-centric, narcissistic prick. 

I feel extremely lonely in this world and society. I have friends and a girlfriend who loves me unconditionally, but I have no intellectually/deeply connection with anyone who I surround myself with – neither at work or in my personal life. To be perfectly honest, I feel that everyone (with a few exceptions) are stupid, with absolutely zero self-perception/understanding and who I can’t relate to at all.  

It is very hard for me to concretize exactly what the issue is (especially without sounding like an idiot), but it’s like the patterns I see and conclusions I make in life - whether it is business-related or emotionally – no one else sees or can relate to. I just feel so  more intellectual and superior in my thought-process than the people I converse with every day. I know how it sounds, but I can’t help myself from thinking that. 

This is a very summarized/simplified version of my thoughts and feelings, but it boils down to me feeling very alone in this world and society, even though I'm surrounded  by people all day long. 

I just don’t know how to change my situation and find some connection to the society and stop feeling like this.

If someone is interesting in helping me and need to understand more about my situation, please feel free to ask and I’ll answer.