My entire life revolves around my FB and I’m aware it’s very unhealthy but I just can’t help it.

I wake up thinking of things I can do to get the attention of my FB. My social media accounts are dedicated to my FB. Whatever they do, say, or post on their social media greatly impacts me. In the presence of my FB, I’m on the edge and always thinking of ways I can impress them. I sometimes mirror my FB. I stalk my FB’s social media accounts to find out more about them and that usually helps me get their attention later.

I put restrictions on myself. I don’t talk to my FB more than twice a week and these talks are either very short casual ones or just sending memes. I don’t express love and appreciation so I wouldn’t come out as ‘crazy.’ I’m holding myself back. While I wouldn’t want anything more than to be THEIR PERSON, I know that’d be so bad. 

While I’m sure my FB doesn’t know I’m crazy about them because I’m too careful and this itself is too exhausting to manage, I know how crazy I’m over them. My FB is always on my mind and they don’t really deserve to be there, it’s not like they’re special or treat me very nicely or cares about me - as you can see, I can rationalize this entire thing but that still doesn’t change anything. I can’t think about myself or anything or anyone else. Just my FB. Everything is about my FB and if not then I manage to make it about them. 

Does anyone relate? Any tips or solutions? 

PS: My FB and I aren’t close. We are kinda friends. We work together. So this makes it suck more.