My father is a extremely nasty manipulative narcissist and growing up I was a complete extension of him as he controlled everything about me. He had no regard for my emotions or mental well-being whatsoever he only cared for my physical self and what I could achieve for him as he lived through me vicariously. Whenever I accidentally injured myself (as you do when you are a young kid) my father would go fucking insane at me with unbearable amounts of anger and rage that I accidentally injured myself. He wouldn’t actually give a fuck about me emotionally but just because I damaged his “item”. Im 19 now and still feel completely physically “owned” by my father
I am terrified of physically injuring myself in any way because I still feel like my father would kill me if I did. And If I do accidentally hurt myself I don’t actually care about myself but I get extremely worried if my father were to find out. Even something as simple as stubbing my toe. Yes its that crazy, he literally owns me like I am his own personal slave and If I damage my body in any way Im gunna get in major shit for it. 
So yeah all my life Ive lived with an extreme anxiety about potentially hurting myself. 
Anyone know how I can mentally take ownership of my body back?