Edit: if anyone is sensitive with politics, I understand. This post is not for you. Please, just no hate. 

My personality shifts whenever I try to appease my FP (almost always a crush). A few years ago, I liked this guy. He was super liberal. I've always been liberal, but I leaned into it because he was a liberal. I hate this guy now. He kind of led me on, only for him to have actually been in a relationship the entire time. It especially stings because he was the first guy to ever like me back. But my first crush's friend started comforting me. He told me that I'm really pretty, and I didn't deserve to be treated so coldly.

This guy is a Republican like you will not believe. He enjoys hunting. He's in the military, grew up in the South in a small town. He's the very definition of a country guy. I like both of them, but I definitely shifted to the country guy. I want to marry him and move to his hometown. I know I wouldn't fit in. I'm from the west coast, and I'm Mexican. Not to mention, I come from a long line of college educated scholars. My family is a legacy family at one of the most prestigious universities in the country. If I weren't Mexican, my family and I would be WASP. I'd stick out like a sore thumb in the South. The country guy and I's first interaction was him talking about me because he thought I didn't speak English. He has some biases. Yet, my heart ignores that, and I just want to be with him. I want to live like a Southerner, be a stay at home mom, and even speak with a country accent so it can seem like I was born in the South. I feel like I was born to be in the South.