So I’m starting to notice a pattern, I’m a quiet, cheerful, sarcastis and humble person when stress is out of the equation, once I get stressed I’m that awful, anxious, angry and impulsive person. I speak bad about everyone I feel slightest discomfort about. I fall into victim mentality start blaming everything at others...throwing tantrum 24/7 and throwing bullshit at others, I just can't help but act like a horrible person during time of stress and that's how I lost friends since childhood and how I lost parteners over the years.

I just how stress bring the worse out of me and I don't wanna keep losing people that way.