I take my pharmaceuticals daily as prescribed however for the past 4 years I've heavily relied on weed to balance my emotions. The problem is it doesn't fix my problems it just makes me ok with them. But I mean with how bad my views are and my overall mental state I'm completely out of touch with reality. I have severe low self esteem and I'm just lonely. I've gone on tolerance breaks before the longest being 6 months but the withdralws I get are insane (clenched jaw, cold sweats, inability to fall asleep, imbalanced mood). I think I might have derealization at this point I don't know what to do. If you were in my situation would you just keep getting high? It doesn't make things worse just nothing gets better ever