So I was at the dog park with my dog, and these last few days have been pretty stressful- but great at the same time. I’ve been stressed over exams for nursing school, but have gotten A’s on all of them. I’ve felt pretty great today as I’m on schedule with my studying schedule and such. At the park, out of complete nowhere I felt extremely high (i’ve smoked weed and it was the exact same feeling). I was not really present, and just on autopilot with my vision a bit fuzzy. I decided to go home since I got a bit worried, and as soon as I got home it took a turn for the worse. I could barely see as my vision was mainly white spots now, I could hear my heartbeat, and I felt like i was 2 seconds away from passing out. It turned into a viscous cycle of me telling myself to calm down bc it’s probably anxiety, to “what if it’s not and you have a serious medical issue”, back to square 1. A cold shower helped me come back to reality, but now I just feel exhausted.

I’ve been able to keep my anxiety under control since I was 9 (I’m 22 now) without medication, but it seems the older I get the worse it gets. Even if Im not actively stressing anything, it’s like my subconscious still is and completely takes over. Is it time to get on medication? Im tired.