I am on the verge of tearing my skin apart. 
Ripping out my hair. 
Punching myself in the face. 

There's no where to go.
There's no where to hide.
I can't escape from myself.
I just want to die.

All this fucking pain and go burn with me in hell
Since that's obviously most where I belong

Can't do anything right. 
Can't be happy. 
Making plans always falls through.
The trifecta of life: family, love, and career.
Can't even have one.
Always messing it up.

I fucking hate what I have to suffer with. 

It feels like I will never be okay. 

Do I just accept who I am? 

A toxic negative monster? 

I want to give up.