Hello everyone so me and my gf who suffers from bi polar have been togeather on and off for over a year. When we first started dating she used to have this guy bsf who she would always choose his feelings over mine and the reason for that is he would hit her and he would touch her all the time. I once hit him back and got on him and she then got mad at me for reacting to it. She then broke up with me bevsuse I tried telling her how I felt about him and she chose his feelings over mine. When then ended up back togeather but she didn’t want know one to know especially her guy bsf. My friends all told me to stay away from her but I didn’t listen because I’m in love with her and I lost my bsf friend for over 10 years. Over the summer when we where together but she didn’t want know one to know I believe she was going through a manic episode and she stopped talking to me and was always with her guy bsf. I got told that they where having sex and when I asked her she said they never did and she got mad at me for even thinking they was. You see then they stopped talking and her guy bsf showed a me a picture of them laying together in bed so I thought my gf was a cheater and a liar but she claimed she was raped by him. I believed her but they where constantly togeather and now she always brings this up and she makes me feel bad because she claims I should of known this was happening. Over the summer during the period of time when me and her where not togeather I was very sad and my friends took me out to a party. At the party I got drunk and made out with someone. The past 5 months me and my gf have been really close but the thing is I’ve lost a lot of good friends and I feel like I can’t spend time with friends much. Then a few days ago someone send my gf the video of me kissing a girl at a party and she started flipping out saying she was going to hurt her self snd everything and I tried explaining her that me and my gf now where not together when this happenf and it seemed like she was togeather with the guy bsf she told me not to worry about. Now she says she can never trust me again even though I know I’m loyal and that we where not togeather. There has just been a lot that’s happend and all my friends and even family say I should get away from her because it’s a lot of drama messing with my head when I’m only 18 and still in school. The thing is I do love her and I know she loves me and we have our good time and I feel like I’m the only one she has and I feel like if I leave she will be soo hurt and have notning. I need help.