Ever since some traumatic incidents happened to me, I find it hard to go back to my optimistic old self. I mean Im still going, I try my best, but whenever something that makes me feel pain occurs, I feel anxious, helpless, needing help... Also, I kinda cant stay alone too long in a room. I cant se myself without a partner. Whenever theres no guy I feel anxious and I need one to forget the others. Please this is not my true self. I am normally someone independent and always motivated, always able to see the bright side. What does that mean? Am I anxious? Am I not healed yet? What should I do...