So recently I've been through quite a lot. My friends and I used to live in the same building, just upstairs from each other. I saw them nearly everyday then. Recently we've moved to opposite sides of town (for no reason regarding our friendship). Since moving I've only really seen them when they needed me for something, for example helping them move their things because I have a car and they don't. It was even my birthday a couple months ago and one of them went out with her work friends instead of coming to see me.

Last weekend one of my pets passed away. I was absolutely distraught and no one really said anything or tried to comfort me at all. The same friend who didn't show up on my birthday didn't say anything at all and when I brought it up she said she was going to message me but didn't have the energy...

I feel like I can't get support from anyone anymore. Whenever I try to bring up and issue just to talk with someone about it I just get one word replies and eventually they'll change the subject. All I do is try to help them with their problems and I get nothing in return.

I really need someone to confide in and I no longer have that. I feel like I have no friends. I don't know what to do. it's honestly making me so suicidal because everything is just being bottled up inside me and I feel close to exploding. I need help but therapy scares me and I just feel like I should be able to get support from the people who call themselves my friends and come to me when they feel shitty.