I barely get intrusive thoughts now (probably 10 a day or so, and often it's just remembering thoughts I've had before) but I've tried to explain my thoughts to someone else recently and now I sometimes read over my texts or think about what I said. For the last week I thought my explanation was mostly ok; I could explain them further but I didn't need to. I thought I could just focus on just learning to relax.

 but last night I looked at some of my explanations again and thought about all the ways I could have been misunderstood, then I suddenly had no energy for 2 hours and cried because I really wanted to explain my thoughts again but I was scared. 

My logic is that if that person thinks my thoughts aren't that bad, then getting worse thoughts means I have to explain that my thoughts can be worse. Therefore it's best if I don't get worse thoughts so that I wouldn't have to explain them. Then if I get a thought I would analyse it and feel bad if it's worse.

I know that person doesn't care about my thoughts and finds my explanations unnecessary and annoying but at this point it's a hole I've dug myself into since I already talked about my thoughts with him.