 i don’t know what subreddit to put it on so i’m sorry if this isn’t related (i think it is though)
ive had a obsession with a boy before, when i was 11-13. i’m going to call him harry. i was constantly stalking harry, on his way home, in school etc. i used to get so angry when he talked to anyone else, especially girls. i moved away when i was around 12 and continued to harass him online. i know it’s wrong now ofc. but that was some background on it. i know have this obsession with someone i’m going to call liam. i dated liam for about a year and a bit and we broke up. since then ive constantly stalked his social media’s etc. ive made him freinds with me again, it took a while but i did. i still hold onto the little things he gave me. i physically want to kill anyone he talks to and one of my closest friends talks about him a lot and i get filled with so much jealousy and anger it’s disgusting. part of me hates her for it even though it’s not her fault. its so weird because part of my brain really fucking hates liam but another part loves him and i can’t control it, it’s so weird and i don’t know how to handle it. i don’t want to like liam, he’s always been a twat to me but i’ve obsessed over him for nearly 3 years now and it needs to stop. i get so upset and depressed when i’m not around him. i know i’m in the wrong but i don’t know what to do about it. this sounds so stupid and cringe but i just want to know what’s wrong with me and if i can fix it.