I’m 20(M). This year alone I have gone through two jobs, lost my grandpa, and lost my almost two year relationship with a girl that I really loved. 

I have no idea what’s going on. I’ve cried night after night for what feels like months. I haven’t felt TRULY happy in forever. It feels like it’s just one bad thing after another and it just builds and builds and builds and I don’t have the strength to fight it anymore. I can’t just be strong and tough it out anymore. I don’t know what I want to do with my life, I have like zero ambitions, hardly any passions. I’m stuck in a depressing rut and any time it feels like I climb out of the pit a little, I fall deeper into it. I’m stuck. I don’t want to do this any more