fucking great. it's our 1 month anniversary, he's at work, i'm sitting in here crying and trying to get work but can't and I feel like a piece of shit and I know no one gives a fuck. I did too much, I do too much, and I'm negative as fuck. Need to get back on my zoloft because i keep thinking I'm fine but this shit only seems to happen when i stop zoloft. I'm in really bad shape right now because i have been so happy with him and now all of a sudden i fucked it up. It always happens so fast. I don't know. He triggered me last night and i guess i overreacted and turned the lights on in his face and insisted we talk about it NOW instead of letting him go to sleep for work. He's probably told all his friends already and his roommates can probably hear me in here crying like a bitch. I feel like he's being insensitive. i feel like i'm crazy. I don't know which to believe. Almost at 3 months no self harm but have had to pull myself away from myself on more than one occasion. don't know when i'm going to stop crying or if he will even look at me when he comes back. i'm so tired of this. i don't belong here.