Just one message can fuck you up. 


One message that you wake to. 


It's not rude, or even unpleasant


But it is someone that you want to forget. 


Someone that you wish would forget you.


It's been a few days, and I still can't bring myself to delete it. 


Can't reply to it.


But every time I read it, even though it's just a "hey, I'm thinking of you," it ruins me.


 It's making me spiral. 


And I cant find my blades.