I'm in desperate need of someone to show reciprocal interest to. I know one of us will get bored or otherwise find some way to actualize our perceived potential abandonment. Yet in this moment I'm allowing myself to believe that I am capable of making a genuine friend. Someone who will provide support and be equally supported. Someone else who cares and loves as deeply as they are capable of doing. I wanna be there for someone to show them that their best is sufficient as long as they are trying/amenable. I wanna learn something new from someone and teach them something new; to diversify our puzzles by trading pieces. Add a tool to my toolbox and give them one in return. Other metaphors. I just wanna know someone and be known, but mainly with a fresh slate. I wanna test out a method that's new to me, transparency and authenticity even if it becomes evident that I'm not truly understood.. I want to let myself out there despite fear of rejection and abandonment and just enjoy it while it lasts. I wanna expose myself to the things that I avoid because I don't know how to cope with the potential disasters. Stop protecting myself long enough to maybe learn something. Transform from my current inchworm state to a moth, even if it doesn't last...