I'm tired of existing to help other people. I'm going through a period of deep depression and forced burn out. Working myself 7 days a week for as many hours as my job allows. All because it might somehow help out my mom and brother. I'm avoiding making a final decision about a career step because it would open up the option to just walk away from the responsibilities I have right now. Idk if it would give me peace but it would remove me from my current surroundings completely...but my mom and brother would suffer for it just like if I ended myself anyway. I wanna run away from it all, work myself till I die and hope what money I scrounge up will be enough to have even one of the things I want just because I can be selfish.