So some stuff happened in my life recently (long relationship fell apart...) And in the fallout I was left ruminating and reflecting on who I have been for the last 4 years.  The more reading and research I did the more I've become convinced I have BPD...the stories on this subreddit and elsewhere read like an autobiography and many of the traits common to people with BPD are things I had recognized in myself long ago and written off as "just how I am" (being a social chameleon, changing myself and my hobbies/goals/beliefs to reflect those close to me at the time, intense fear of abandonment, self-loathing and self injury, suicidal thoughts and threats particularly when I felt like I was being abandoned by my SO, splitting...etc etc...)


The thing is, I don't want to walk in and just be outright about it.  I feel like then I'd almost be asking for a diagnosis and I don't like that idea.  I don't know if this therapist has any experience with BPD or if my insurance would even cover it if that was my diagnosis.  But I'm not sure if just addressing all the component parts of the issue would be enough to fix me without some sort of overall defined picture (like I said...I have most of the problems that make up the components parts of BPD and they were why I sought out help in the first place...I thought they were disparate issues but they match the framework of BPD perfectly...)