I made excuses for my insane moments in my childhood telling myself I was a child. Then I blamed depression and anxiety for my behavior. But no I'm actually insane beyond that. I am the toxic guy in online games. I am the person that would start drama, be passive aggressive, toxic in relationships. Except they don't exist because I've withdrawn myself from as much social interaction as possible. Now I remembered why. Not long ago I used to think I was just depressed and anxious and that I wasn't really insane. A bit of medicine and I would be alright, on my way to an okay life. But I am insane. The bad kind.