I just can’t get myself to go to school. It’s such a big issue. It’s not like it’s difficult or anything - it’s just the thought of having to go so much. My first day back was today - it was fine. But now I’m having terrible anxiety about having to keep going back and doing it consistently. I don’t even know why I feel like this, it’s not like school is hard for me. I don’t get bullied, I have a few friends, my teachers are nice, I’m generally decent at the subjects - it’s something about just having to go. Waking up in the morning, going consistently. I’ve had attendance issues for so long, but now times running out bc I need to be able to graduate with my class so I can’t miss that much school anymore. Everyday when I get a ride to school I get a crippling stomach ache from anxiety. Every day without fail. And I don’t understand why - like I said school isn’t really that bad, I don’t understand what’s wrong with my brain that just dreads it everyday. I feel like when I get home a timer starts counting down in my head, of all the time I have left to do my hobbies and enjoy my day, and the later it gets the worse I start to feel because I dread the next day so much. I don’t know how to get rid of this mindset. It’s so terrible and idk what to do. I can’t miss school anymore, I missed like 8 months straight last year and technically didn’t even pass the year because I wasn’t there enough to get the credits to pass the year. I don’t think I’ve gone ti school for an entire week without missing a day in years. Makes me feel like such a failure. I don’t have a job, or any other responsibilities, and yet I still can’t do the one thing that’s expected of me. I’m so scared I’m gonna be held back another year and graduate a year late. I just don’t know what to do to get rid of this mindset, I can barely enjoy my days now bc all I think about is how much I’m gonna dread waking up tomorrow.