I’m 21F and I have been struggling with depression since I was 18 so I never got to finish high school as I dropped out on the last month of school. I had outstanding grades and was hoping to get into med school but I pushed myself too hard and ended up completely burnt out. 
Ever since then I’ve tried to get my high school degree every year but end up dropping out as my depression gets worse because of school. I have BPD too so my mentality is either getting straight A’s and studying as much as possible and beyond or not engaging with class at all. I started the school year and my mood was great but as soon as the first exam was dated I never went again. I have 8 subjects and obviously failed all of them.
Ever since I stopped going to school I’ve been feeling worse and spending all day in bed without socialising as well but I’m scared of going back because I’m basically a whole term behind.
I’m scared I’ll never finish my education and people will perceive me as lazy and unworthy of love.
I’m so disappointed in myself I don’t know what to do, please share any advice.