I have had a ROUGH half year to say the least. Had the worst panic attack in November of last year, which spiraled into deep deep shit until march-ish. Basically just never ending shitty anxiety. I was put on Lexapro and things got better. But, I've always had these worries about getting panic attacks. Had them while presenting, started having them when trying to sleep. And now worry about getting them and ruining things I enjoy. I'm on vacation right now, spent 600$ for this weekend and I've been worried for a week about getting panic attacks here because it would ruin it. Sure enough, it's 4 am I can't sleep because of my anxiety. I don't want this to become worse. I just want to see a fun event as a fun event instead of "will I be able to breath when I do that fun thing or will my anxiety make me it's bitch". It's frustrating, feel like I'm at step 1 all over again. I thought I improved a lot but this worry never ever goes away, it just lingers. I always get worried I'll get a panic attack and then I'll have to go to the hospital or something because I can't breath. It's never happened (yet) but holy shit I hate this