Whenever my anxiety is at its peak, it's like half of my brain dies. I make idiotic mistakes, I can't pay attention.
Like I see something and my anxiety brain sees "A" and I'm super sure that I did "A" and then it turns out the instructions were "B" and were never "A" even though in my mind, I could have sworn I had to do "A". It makes me feel like an absolute idiot and like such a burden to others, it gets me and others into so much trouble and I feel so embarrassed and angry at myself for having this brain fog.

The most recent thing being that I got my covid test done yesterday and I need the ticket they gave me to get results. And now of course I lost the damn ticket even though I could swear I placed it in the back pocket of the car seat.
I also fucked up the registration for my SO's test and now they won't test them because the name is wrong (under my name instead of his for some reason) even though we have different file numbers. So now we lost an hour and were at a covid risky place for nothing.
I feel like a waste of oxigen. It just makes me want to self harm so bad because I'm so angry anfld frustrated at myself.