How many times did I make posts about the exact same issue? How many times have I had sleepless nights and nightmares about it?
How many times did I fight suicidal thoughts because of it?
I’m doomed to live with a phobia that’s affecting my daily life and is leading me to suicide.
I have an intense fear of thunderstorms and it started off a stormy day as a result my fear grew stronger to the point where I can’t find peace in sleep, I can’t sleep, I can’t work, I can’t be normal again. I’ve lost hope in living and trying to overcome it, I’ve lost motivation to be normal again.
I’m so sick of this depressing life, I’m so sick of seeing others enjoy the rain while I suffer with a panic attack, it’s like i’m designed to live this miserable life.
I’m really regretting the time I was saved from committing suicide I should’ve died back then.