A couple days ago I saw a tweet saying airpods can give you hearing damage if you blast them (which I used to do) And my life has been hell since then. 

It’s always something I swear.

I’ve now noticed this static buzz in my ear that won’t go away and I’m convinced I’ve permanently damaged my ears and gave myself tinnitus. 

I’m hoping it’s just from stress and anxiety plus I’m recovering from covid. Which clogged one of my ears. I’m really hoping this will just fade.

Not to mention my anxiety has been so bad recently I was hospitalized with severe dehydration and starvation because I was too anxious about giving myself diabetes by eating and drinking.

Found out I wasn’t diabetic and now I have tinnitus and before that I had visual snow and before that it was derealization.

I know part of this is anxiety but I don’t understand my body anymore there is something wrong with me.

I genuinely want to cry I just want it to be silent again, do I not even deserve that?