How do you deal with feelings of spite? The sense of injustice when you're suffering when the people around you are 'allowed' to enjoy their lives, throw money everywhere, travel abroad, enjoy their day to day lives, are rewarded for their efforts, have good luck at every turn. (Yes, good luck, such as a stable family, no background trauma, parent's money, compassion from family, these things which do not come from 'hustling' and responsibility).  
The feeling I keep falling into is 'fuck you'. When you push as hard as you can, but just can't bridge the gap that keeps you apart for other people's quality of life. Its so hard not to feel spiteful.   
When I'm outside of this place I can feel appreciation for hard times and for other people's easy happiness. But when I'm in this place, again and again, I just feel immensely spiteful. Its time that does it. This feeling is relatively recent for me