I’ve been with my SO for 2 years and I knew coming into this relationship I had anxiety and depression. It’s been a loving and mostly positive relationship- But recently it’s gotten very bad and ever since the start of the relationship, I always somehow go to him for comfort during anxiety and panic attacks. It’s gotten to the point where he doesn’t know what to do and I feel terrible when he sees me like this. I always bring up small things I do that frustrate myself, but in the moment of stress, i would it to make it seem like it’s his fault- even though that’s not what I am trying to do. He’s been extremely supportive to this day ever since we got together, and his mental is amazing, while I feel like I’m just a nuisance to him. We both love each other and share happiness all the time. But, when i get occasional anxiety attacks it just feels so repetitive where I constantly apologize and feel bad that he has to deal with this.  To the point where I wonder if he’s happier without me ): I react to small things then apologize to him for reacting and which frustrates him. I think I am the main causes for our fights too because of my negative thoughts. I just feel like I put our relationship over my own self, but I don’t want to leave him, I love him very much ): 

I don’t know what i should do- how can i handle my anxiety in a relationship where I feel like I’m the toxic one because of my negative thoughts? I just don’t want to feel like a nuisance to him