I was diagnosed with GAD when I was 10 and have been on medication ever since. I’m 20 now. I’m tired of dealing with this. The only people that know the severity of my problems are my mom and psychiatrist. I never talk to my friends about it because I am so ashamed and know they wouldn’t understand. As I have gotten older the isolated feelings have only gotten worse. I’m exhausted with having to live my life with this invisible hurdle. My parents have spent so much money making sure I’m ok and so that I can succeed. I feel really guilty. On paper I have absolutely nothing to be anxious or depressed about. But I am. I am moving into my college apartment today and all I want to do is cry and go home. I am wasting energy on emotions that are doing nothing but making me miserable. I want someone to understand how I feel. I’m tired of feeling alone. I’m tired of pushing my friends away. I’m tired of stressing my parents out with my problems. I’m tired of texting my psychiatrist every other day with some new issue. I am tired of having physical symptoms that don’t ever seem to disappear. I just want to go to college and not have to worry about everything like everyone else. I am so frustrated that I have every resource available and still can’t get my shit together. I just want to be happy and to not have to go everyday worried I am going to have an anxiety attack or start sobbing randomly. I feel like I am out of options and I am just going to have to go the rest of my life living like this.