I don't have my own place anymore, I'm working minimum wage traveling to another town everyday to barely scrape by. I've got so much debt that I'm practically being buried and I just feel bad. I can't provide for my kids the way I could in our own place, I want to apologize for having kids too early but she wouldn't understand. This tears at me everyday and I adore my two baby girls, I give everything I can to help out and expect nothing in return just so maybe one day life would go my way.

 I feel taken advantage of, I feel as though I have to put on a mask around everyone, I just want to live my life as me. Not what everyone expects of me or believes me to be. I know it'll get better, it slowly has been but too slowly and sometime I feel that this pain will never end. Regardless, this has helped me cry and let go of some of my bottled up emotions.