I've been on a. downward spiral lately, and I had about a 3 month gap between my last therapy appointment. I don't know why, I think I was just scared to talk and actually do the work to get past the BPD, but I had my first session today and I actually took the initiative to schedule more appointments and put them on the calendar, which is huge because before I would procrastinate on even making appointments! It was extremely hard and cathartic to open up about how bad these last few weeks have been, but my therapist was so affirming and I feel at least somewhat more motivated to keep on working at it after it was over.