im 17 and im really struggling with self-identity. I have an amazing bf that has helped me  through a lot. But he has a whole community behind him, the car community in our city, and is constantly interacting with them and creating new friends and connections. every time i see him with people that like him and they all have a similar interest, it makes me feel small. i get in my head and tell myself that the reason why no one is your friend or likes you is because you're a freak who talks too much and is too loud. 

so to try and combat this feeling of worthlessness by occupying my mind. something that my therapist recommended. but now every time i try and have a new interest, or try and find new friends, it epically fails. yesterday was probably one of the worst low days ive had in a very long time. i cried on the way home from practice and was very close to not making it home last night. 

so i come here to ask you guys for help. is there anything i can do to put myself out there to feel less lonely? or is there anything that you guys recommend to keep my mind occupied?