I'm literally in tears as I write this. Even though I have everything I've ever wanted to achieve, my inferiority complex and social anxiety is on an extreme level now. I've been struggling with it secretly (not even my family knows about it) for several years. I don't feel like meeting or talking to people. I have some really close friends but I always feel out of place with them and I constantly feel I need more friendships. I'm in my room the whole day. Also, I can't help but compare my life to my other acquaintances who are living an exotic life. I know I shouldn't do that but I can't stop it. Moreover, I feel overwhelmed by the things I have to do everyday even if it's little. Nothing seems to excite me anymore. The first time I had sex, to my surprise, I didn't feel excited at all. It was as if I was doing it forcefully even though it was the first time. I really need some meaning / motivation in life. Although I've been watching motivational videos and speeches, it doesn't benefit me. What do I do? I'm seriously in need of your help. I don't really know who to reach out to. Some real life transformation stories would really help me. Really need your suggestions guys. This community is my only hope!