34yo F . BPD ADHD GAD Depression _ all diagnosed. I think ASD too, but it's self ID. 
 I've worked for the last 5 months at a small credit union (aka Bank but more personal) where I have been so happy and thought I had found my career employer... prior to that I worked for a third party lender (still in finance) where I was pretty unhappy, but my job was very secure. I was there for 2.5y and was really good at my job. 
 My job carries the health benefits for my spouse and I and we are both on a lot of meds for mental health and other stuff.... when I applied for my job at the CU it was posted for part time but after an incredible interview they decided to offer me full time and then immediately following they offered me a promotion to supervisor. It was a steep learning curve but with my background I learned so much so fast and was consistently getting glowing praise from my peers, my branch manager and HR manager. As the amount of workload was meeting my my ability to properly prioritize in a new job... I had a rough week with balancing and my manager had a talk with me about it... I immediately turned things around and have improved so much... about a month ago my boss sends me an email about my performance and it's so impersonal and harsh and only mentions negative results.. and she's copied the VP and HR manager... so I replied with some defense of myself and mentioned my improvements and stuff... I've continued to improve and for the whole month of April I was never out of balance at all. 
 Fast forward to the day before yesterday...my manager sends me another email that feels so harsh and negative and mentions none of my improvements... and she has copied the VP and HR again... i replied all in agonizing ND detail to every point in her email and tried to ensure my tone was congenial if a bit hurt... she talks to me the next day and apologizes for making me feel like my good points were ignored and says she wants me to be successful... I spend Friday working all day with my branch manager and we set calendar reminders for long term tasks that occur monthly...talking about plans for team building... she told me, "I'm not trying to push you out the door." ..... the end of day is 5pm and we clean up and close and as we are heading out the door she asks me to stay back for a minute... then I follow her into her office...HR comes in behind me and my manager has a form for me to sign over my branch key... HR tells me he hates this part of the job... but they have decided to terminate my employment... but why??! I'm immediately so upset and shocked... he mentions my balancing issues, and some audit requirements... and I replied that since the conversation about a month ago I have made huge improvements... thats when he says, "we're not firing you for any cause. I will call you next week to discuss a severance to help while you find a new job" ... I still don't understand... I'm bawling while my manager gets me boxes and helps me clean out my work space... 
 HR tells me it's not personal... I'm just not a good fit..  that sounds pretty personal to me... I thought I found my career... I thought I was accepted and part of the team... I feel so blindsided... so abandoned and betrayed... 
 
 How am I supposed to pick up and start over again? What do I do without benefits for who knows how long? I don't even have a family doctor because Ontario is in a fkn doctor crisis. I don't want to exist anymore. Please turn off the simulation.