I'm currently 17 and a sophomore in college. I stupidly signed up to take 18 hours during my second semester and I now regret it, especially since the census date has already passed by. I can't seem to get myself to study, let alone do my work until the literal last minute. I don't know how to form a healthy habit and my grades have fallen a bit. I went from being a 4.0 student to one who is in danger of going much lower than that if I can't pull myself together.

I have a wonderful and amazing girlfriend who supports me through this, but I'm still unable to find a way to fully express my academic self, and I know I'm pretty smart and can do much better.

I find my mind wandering during lectures and when I go back to take notes or do homework, I don't understand anything and go into exams with little experience in the subject. It's getting hard for me to get decent sleep, as I have a part time job at Starbucks as well. I'm thinking about cutting down my work hours (currently 25) in hopes that it'd allow me to have a longer time to complete assignments. (I have classes Monday-Thursday and I normally work Friday-Monday)

Everything is becoming too overwhelming and I need to keep my grades up in order to get into the veterinary field. But given my lack of attention and collection of information, I'm not sure I'd make it to vet school. It's been my dream since kindergarten and I'm not ready to give it up yet, but each passing day it feels as if that dream is slipping further and further away.

I'm not really sure what to do next and I don't want stress to get the better of me and send me down that deep rabbit hole of complex depression again.