I have been drinking and smoking cannabis. I tell people I have it under control, yet I know that I don't. 
I lie to my friends and family and tell them I love my life, I have it all made... yet all I am is a depressed, a lier, and a drunken loser. I feel like they would still accept me like that, but I afraid to admit it to myself. I'm ready to admit this to myself, and I'm posting this, so sober me will see it.