FYI: just got diagnosed so still navigating the world hah 

Idk what happened. My FP (best friend) was busy last week and we texted and stuff and then we had to leave college for thanksgiving break today. I even went to see him at his concert performance on Saturday night to support! I texted over conversation on Saturday and then I decided to wait and see if he’d text me first any day before break asking to hang out in person like he had briefly mentioned last week. EXCEPT NO TEXT AT ALL ANY DAY SINCE THEN TO ME. I was so upset going home yesterday and thinking of splitting and then today I just wrote him telling him how I think our relationship is fake and I’m nothing to him and how he should just tell me. 
He replies later telling me how he actually thought of me multiple times during the weekend but was “just tired” after his concerts and just needed to rest!!
I don’t even know why but I told him I still knew he hated me and for some reason I ended the text telling him I wanted to hug him!!!! HOW CRAZY is that even???!!!

Thankfully he replied back so sweetly this message telling me how much he cares for me and wouldn’t have invested all this time into us if he didn’t actually care about me. He said there can be days where we don’t feel like talking or 100% of the time when we do.  He even ended it by saying he’d hug me back!!!

I don’t even know what to reply to him!!! I don’t even get how I tell him I just need him to follow through. Idk even know how I can just start casually texting like nothing happened ever!!! I don’t wanna tell him about my BPD!!  I’m so confused y’all!!!!

Sorry this is long!