normally my depression comes in spurts where i usually start to find joy in things again but it’s been months now and im still not fully myself and it’s scaring me. i don’t wanna do anything, I put in 0 effort in my appearance, my health, my job. everything is going in a downward spiral and i just can’t find a way out. i think it has to do with my turning 25 later this month. something about 25 just sounds depressing to me. i nothing to show for it. ;(