Summary: my cimfort persin sounded mad. I thought u got grommed yet again. It trhough me back to when I got un trouble for small mistakes. It felt like i begged to not be harmed again. My anxiety in that moment was sk high. I was and still am crying. I chugged 400ml of wine out of fear to relapse with sh. And now i jave the urge to also drink my jack daniels. Please someone stop me. I dont think my 16 y/o body can handle this anymore. But the urge to somehow stop the pain is so high and i cant tell anyone in rl