Edit: would like to change the title, don’t know how. “Men - no thank you” just regarding relationships!



You know how ppl with BPD have inappropriate relationships, are being promiscuous, mistake sex for love, are sharing too much information...?


I’m 36 years old (female), haven’t had sex for almost 5yrs. Avoid men wherever I can. Don’t want a man, don’t trust men. Feeling fat and ugly (top to bottom) don’t find anything attractive about myself. Just to imagine a man would see me naked or touch me, makes me shudder because of this. If a man would say anything positive about me or my body I wouldn’t believe it. There’s no real abuse in my history. I’ve been a prostitute for a short while in my 20s (probably for 6-9 month) while in between jobs. Men will say anything to you during sex, which they think you want to hear. No matter if they paid for it or not. My therapist wants me to start having relationships with men again or at least, getting to know them, flirt, have conversations, etc. I can’t. 


Anyway, I would appreciate if someone would read this or comment. Maybe, could even relate. I feel kind of alone with those feelings/emotions.



