My FP and I are in a FWB situation but not exclusive. He sometimes says things that sets off my jealousy and I honestly just want to punch a fucking wall. Like who are these women? What are you doing with them? What are they to you? Why are you online all night not talking to me who are you talking with? — I won’t say ANY of those things to him. I’ll just smother those feelings but I will be thinking them and be boiling over with jealousy inside. Yet I am terrified of knowing the truth to these questions or asking him to become exclusive/admitting my feelings because I am afraid of rejection. I want him to admit feelings for me so badly - but if I am the one to put myself out there I am in the weaker position and vulnerable to being hurt really badly. 

Jealousy is hands down the worst emotion. I’d take sadness over jealousy. I HATE IT.