
I wrote this in 2021:

Hello. I’m not Muslim I’m Christian. But I have some serious anxiety and OCD issues. I’ve been scared of “what if the Muslims are right and we’re not the ones who the demons hate but they are?” I saw a video when I was 16 saying Christians can be jinn possessed and got scared ever since. My muscles started twitching from the anxiety and I remember thinking “oh no is that a jinn roaming around my body?!” I had no problem hearing the Quran before this. But since I found out that jinn hate the Quran I can’t stop twitching when I hear it. I found out later though, that it’s a sign of jinn possession. I listened to it for like almost a year now and it hasn’t gotten better just worse. And I’ve been even more anxious now than ever before. I just get more and more anxious when I think of the possibility of me being jinn possessed. I’ve been in the OCD state of googling the symptoms in English and Arabic. I keep googling “muscle twitching jinn” and getting websites that kinda sound like my case but don’t really. Then I think “you didn’t do it right! There’s a universal truth somewhere out there that your possessed and your not looking hard enough!” So I google “spasms jinn” or “tremor jinn” and all that stuff until I find the “confirmation” that I’m possessed. WSo far only one guy told me I’m possessed and said that anybody who says I’m not is a “teenage autist” and so many Muslims said I’m not possessed. I just wanna make one final post. If I twitch when I hear the Quran, does that mean I’m possessed? I also twitched when I heard my favorite song “bohemian rhapsody” the most famous song of all time, only after I found out what “bismillah” meant. I never did before. I also twitched when I heard Indian gibberish thinking it was the Quran but it wasn’t. Once I found that out I didn’t twitch at all from it. The guy said that any Muslim will know right away that it’s super common for jinn to make you twitch when you hear the Quran. And that the reason it twitched from the other things is because this jinn has probably never heard the Quran before so they think it’s it. 

Now in 2022 I’m gonna lay it out more clearly. In Arabic. I looked it up more specifically and found out many many people twitch when hearing the Quran. And cases sounded pretty much exactly like mine. I’m scared it’s not because of anxiety, my initial guess. Because in places like Morocco or Egypt, videos about the muscle spasms during exorcism get 500k views and the comments say “it’s anxiety” but get thumbed down and replies like “it can’t be anxiety since the patient is laying down relaxed during the exorcism” and some said “ magnesium deficiency” and got replies like “ magnesium‘s only missing when the Quran is played? You have to have the brain the size of a squirrel to believe that!” 

So now I fear that no matter what diagnosis the doctor will give, it can be dismissed as “ The people in the Middle East are right and this is a spiritual illness cause so many others have it during the exorcism!” 

How do I handle this?