So I usually have the classic anxiety that people have, which is mostly work and money related stress, and simultaneously meeting all social expectations of friends and my partner. I am quite ambitious with my work and since it’s freelance 3D Designer I miss out quite some time to hang out with friends and especially said partner who currently is living with me. He doesn’t work as much bc he makes music so he’s bored a lot of the time. And i feel awful and when I’m alone I beat myself up about failing both my work -in the sense I am not good enough or making enough progress- and my personal relationships. 
Due to over sharing a lot in the past and since I’m usually a very lighthearted person I try not to bother one of my close people to much. But to be honest I think it’s mostly because I probably don’t want to be this sad person, bc big part of my conceived identity is being the helping hand, the strong friend, the chill girlfriend. 
And here is the tricky part. 

My friends as well as my partner are all really sweet and amazing , I’m very sure that they would listen to me if I’d tell them the extremes of my anxiety. 
They know that I have to compulsively check if I switched off the stove or closed all windows etc, so much I sometimes drive back several stations to do so and we usually have a good laugh about it, but I know that they have an eye on it if I get too crazy. 
But recently I really started to expect them (especially partner) to have a certain reaction and I didn’t get that. I felt left out and unloved a lot bc I feel my partner doesn’t seem to believe or understand how severe it feels to me right now ... and he just told me to “do sport” although he knows I am unmotivated on top of having to work close or more than 10h a day. 

I feel stupid and it is another source of big anxiety for me. On the one hand feeling so mistreated but on the other hand fearing to be wrong and wronging my friends and my partner, basically being ungrateful and salty. 

What can I do? I feel stuck, and experience would be greatly appreciated