my only friend is online and 7 hours away. i miss human contact. im so scared to touch people because i dont feel as if its okay. here i am, supposed to be sleeping, actually crying about going to sleep without touching anyone today. i feel like it someone even laid a hand on my shoulder id bust out in tears. i feel so alone right now i hate it. i dont want people to touch me but damnit i need a hug so badly.