Today I was sitting outside with my friends after a night out  and some drink guy came up to us. I told him to go away and then he decided to go for my looks, and started to tell me to loose weight because I’m fat. My pandemic weight gain has been a real struggle for me and I cried a tiny bit infront of my friends. I’m not really close to them so it’s really embarrassing to show that such childish words affected my mood. But more so I was embarrassed that everyone kept quiet as he was saying all these mean words. 

It took a lot to get slightly comfortable with socialising and I feel like I just want to live in a hole.

I’m on my way home by train and because I cried on my own my makeup is streaked from tears and I really feel like a fool.