I have been anxious my whole life, and just started treatment as an adult (I’m 22). I just started my first medication yesterday. 

Up until last week, I thought I had it in the bag. I was doing okay in therapy, I was finishing up my grad school semester okay, and I was managing with work. I thought I was overreacting about my anxiety. Suddenly, when talking to my boss about the future of my job/ the place I work, I realized I have been doing the absolute bare minimum at my job. I started trying to do more, but I immediately started to crumble. I am sitting at work right now, knowing I have to call someone for a quick conversation and I haven’t been able to pick up the phone. 

It just feels so paralyzing. It’s so much worse than I thought. I just hoped one day I’d wake up and it would all be gone, but the sudden realization that fighting and treating my anxiety will be a big part of my life for a long time feels incredibly heavy and hard right now. Do you all have work success stories, or do you remember feeling this way and are doing better now? I know I won’t feel this way forever, but it really does feel so overwhelming.