Just got off the phone with my psychiatrist and I told her I’ve been thinking for a few months I have BPD but was too nervous to say anything. She told me that since she started seeing me ive been diagnosed with BPD but she never told me because their is no direct cure and she didn’t want me to get my feelings hurt or discouraged with treatment. I understand why she didn’t tell me but still.. if I would have found out I have BPD 2 years ago I think I could have been more aware of my behaviors and maybe gotten more intensive care that I need.. I’m trying to fix myself but I’m a very selfish person in the way that I don’t understand how my actions affect others or that they have consequences (and not wanting to be burdened with those consequences). Not sure if I’m venting or looking for advice, maybe just sharing experiences so I don’t feel alone in my journey to heal the toxic parts of me.