I'm 27 and always been a big guy. I'm 6ft, and I've naturally carried a lot of muscle and a fair bit of fat, but last year, after a really bad few months of feeling suicidal, I went onto mitrazapine, which made me gain a ton of fat. 

I came off mitrazapine 3 months ago and got back in the gym and was surprised that I'm still very naturally strong, which was a great feeling, but I haven't been able to lose any of the fat I gained while on mitrazapine. My size is really getting me down. I don't feel comfortable in public and have no confidence. My mom is constantly making comments about it as well, telling me I'm "massive" and have a "huge gut," which just adds to the lack of confidence I'm feeling, I'm just hoping I don't get bad again but I'm honestly not feeling too great right now.