i dont like how my meds make me feel, theh make me feel different and unable to feel sadness. i stopped taking them because i want to return to what i was before. i was impulsive and i felt free, i want to go back to whenever i felt like nothing mattered. i dont wanna go back to the life where i put on a fake smile trying to please everyone while being fake, laughing at jokes i didnt even find funny, and trying to fit in because my anxiety wanted me to be like everyone else