Hey guys.

There’s a situation from my past that has been stuck on a loop in my brain for maybe like, 11 years now? I have OCD, and I think that contributes to not being able to let go of thoughts and mental images, and the intrusiveness of the thoughts.

To most people, it’d be silly to still think about it. It was so long ago. It wasn’t even something that could be classified as “traumatizing”. But it still matters. And I don’t want it to matter. I want to move on. But every once in a while I’ll be reminded, by a dream or a memory trigger and it’s a downward spiral all over again, a new wound. And it’s so easy to lose myself in a bout of insanity over and over again.

I’m a pre-med student. I’m accomplishing so much. But I feel like there are regrets that I’ll never, ever get over. And I don’t want these weights on my shoulders for the rest of my life.

I guess I just need advice, or coping mechanisms that aren’t considered “grounding”. Or maybe I don’t really know what I need, but I’m sure open to all the suggestions you guys have for me.