I’m not going to write some long thing about how bad my situation is, but it’s bad. I don’t really want to die but I feel like it’s the only way to end my pain. I feel unloved, I’m treated like shit and I’m in a dark place. I’ve heard it gets better, but when? I’ve been patient. I’ve tried. But I’m tired. My body, mind and soul is so tired. The only thing at this point that’s keeping me here is my dog. He’s 7 and I’ve had him all his life. He’s very attached to me and I’m scared what would happen to him after I’m gone. How do I keep going? How do I stay in a situation that is horrible in every way? Even if I left this house, I would be homeless so that would probably be worse. I think I’m going to live for him and when it’s his time, it will be mine. I’ve already lost everything else so there would be nothing else to live for. I just wish I had the courage to end my life when it’s time. People say they are cowards. I think the opposite, I think they are brave.