21
so recently, the girl i've been talking to just deleted all of her social media. we've been talking for like 5-6 months and we havent met yet, because we live in different country but her country is not far from mine. we loved each other and we agreed to meet after our graduation.

it sucks because i met her at my lowest and she helped me through eveything especially when most of my friends left me.  and now i cant do anything to help her because she deleted it permanently. i asked few times about her decision to make sure she's not making impulsive decision. and it hurts me that we become stranger again. 

i feel numb again just like before i met her. i miss her so much. i miss her jokes and laugh. i miss her kindness and warmth. i feel lonelier than ever. 

im still on my holiday and none of my family know about what ive been through rn. i try my best to smile or just act normal when im with my family, but it just make the pain even worse. i lose my apetite and cant get out of bed, i just stare at ceiling until i sleep again.

if u read this, thanks for reading this.
sorry if my english is bad, its not my first language