i got into an argument with my ex-gf(was ex at the time of the argument) and i was filled with such an overwhelming anger to the point i couldn’t feel my brain because it was such an unreasonable thing she had asked of me (but i’m not gonna go into that)and i was was just going off and obvs i hurt her feelings which i regret and it’s not like she didn’t say anything back but i crossed the line which i realised pretty quick after the argument. i went to apologise to her the next day and she was rly mean and rude to me so i did what i was always told to do. say how i felt. however i wasn’t even particularly mean or anything but i still got ganged up on by everyone and dropped except for 1 person but then everyone who had already ganged up on me starting telling the one person about stuff that i had said about her in confidence to them 5 months ago(it wasn’t even bad stuff) but they completely changed my words so it sounded like i was awful and they all echo chambered themselves about how i was an awful person even though the stuff they’ve said about that one person was fucking vile and i stood up for her in almost all of those situations but i don’t want to tell her about them because what they said will just wreck her confidence and it just kept getting worse until i had pretty much no one left. bpd is tearing me to pieces never mind this!