I was diagnosed at 21, 28 now and deciding to officially acknowledge the diagnosis. What is a favorite person? It’s normal to obsess in cycles over someone? Like idealize them, obsessed? I want to understand myself and why I make the decisions I make. I’m pretty sure I’m just a piece of shit but then I know rationally that things I experienced led me towards making unstable, risky and terrible decisions. But it’s not an excuse. I just don’t know. Would anyone be able to help me understand this? Searching on Google feels isolating, I’d like to learn about this from people who live it too, if they don’t mind sharing. Thanks to anyone who reads this, even if you don’t comment.