I'm still in school, just so you know this in advance. Around eight months ago, I had no friends, was pretty lonely, you get the idea. But a friend I had previously neglected took me into her friend group, and we became very close friends. Over time, I developed a very close friendship with someone else. However, I am currently on crutches and unable to walk without them.

I need an escort everywhere, and it's really annoying. Needing to have someone to carry your stuff is really annoying since I'm a very independent person, so obviously I can't carry anything.

The three of us are also in the backstage crew for the school plays, and this involves a lot of carrying things from one place to another, which we did today. However, I was told that I couldn't do anything so was sent away, which made me very sad : (

I had to watch everyone else doing everything, while I sat and ate my lunch. What is disappointing however, is that my friend group (who I get on with well enough, but these two friends really help me with getting on with everyone) had simply ignored me. I was left to be alone, and watch my two closest (and really, only) friends do what I was supposed to be doing. They saw me being upset, but couldn't/wouldn't come over to check I was ok.

When they were done, they tried to help me, and I yelled at one of them (who I'm going to apologize to when I see him tomorrow) and I feel really bad about it : (

I basically just sat there and cried while they ate their lunch, and tried to tell me that I'm not useless, even though I can't even walk or go anywhere without an escort and I realized that my depression has come back in full force : (((

I feel useless and because my physical health is bad, my mental health has returned to the state it was in not too long ago, only this time it feels worse. I just need some support until I can get back on my feet again (both mentally and physically).

I will probably cry myself to sleep tonight now : (