I was planning to return to college for 3 months to redeem the lost 2.5 years of college life.Well guess what,the apartment I had booked with my friend got sealed because of too many covid cases.I guess I'll have to do a final semester project entirely on my laptop.Why does life have to suck so much.On top of this,after so many years(yup, I stopped getting crushes on girls  I got feelings for this close friend of mine, won't get a chance to tell her. Meanwhile if I do and she reciprocates then what is the point, won't even get a chance to see her.What is this joke of a life.I am actually considering taking a large syringe of heroin.It would be a peaceful end to a sad crappy life.I am a goody two shoes loser who will turn 21 in 3 months.In my first 2 years of college what was I thinking becoming the class representative.I literally automatically tagged myself as the class monitor teacher's pet.WHAT A LOSER