As the title states, my SO of 10 years is ending, it’s my choice. I am diagnosed BP1 rapid cycling, everyday struggle as I’m sure you all know. I have intense feeling of guilt and regret, my disorder causes me to be emotionally distant, neglect her feelings, just makes it hard in general to be there for her. I also find being in a relationship to be very difficult, I have to focus on myself so much day to day and I feel so different every day, I just don’t want this anymore. I hate what I’m doing to her and I’m just curious if anyone else has done this, and how you felt after? Should I try and see things a different way?