Sometimes I worry that my BPD makes me too intense so I try to hide my symptoms but it’s like the more I try to hide them, the more withdrawn I get. But then when I’m around friends I end up worrying that I’m still being too intense and it ends up with me feeling left out. When I don’t get invited to go get food or to go shopping or to go to parties I feel awful and enter a spiral of worrying that I’m unlovable. Is it just me?