I feel like the worst person in the world. My daughter is 3 months old and has everything in the world she will ever need and all of the love she needs, too. I never have violent thoughts towards her, I never neglect her but I also have so many days where I sit here like a POS thinking about my ‘old life’. I’m supposed to be focusing on my baby and I cry because my old clothes don’t fit yet and because I want to sleep longer and not get woken up and because I want to do whatever I want and I know that’s not how parenthood works. Some days everything is perfect and I connect with her and other days it’s like I feel nothing that I should. Nothing bad, just nothing at all. My boyfriend cares for her often and my parents take her 3 nights a week right while I work on therapy and self-care, but I hate myself for being this way. I just want to be a good parent and stop being so caught up in how her life affects mine when I created it. It’s 50/50. Some days being a parent is the best thing in the world and some days it feels like the worst. What can I do? I go to therapy but I just wish I could force myself to feel happy 24/7 and connect with her all the time. 