27F here.

I’ve moved to different cities/countries a few times in the past 8 years but always tried to keep in touch with my loved ones until I could see them again. No matter how hard I tried, they all left me, no one put enough effort in being my friend. They don’t text back, they don’t ask me how I am, how is my life, and if they do, they take like a month to reply.

I’ve been living in this new country for 1 year and a half now and don’t have any good friends, only colleagues, people who would invite me to go to parties and so on, but don’t engage in getting to know me better. Whenever I tried talking about myself - either in person or texting - they would just shut me off. So I lost interest in being with people and trying to open up myself for them. I feel no one really cares. I don’t feel supported by anyone - colleagues, family, people once I considered my “friends”. I am going through a lot, depression and anxiety, and I just don’t have anyone to REALLY talk to, go deep in the conversation, except by my therapist.

The ones I once trusted in have hurt me a LOT, so I don’t have them in my life anymore.

I just feel a void in my chest and wanna stay in my room 24/7.. and wonder whether there is a problem with me, so no one wants to stick around