today is a holiday where i live. my mother went out with friends so im home alone and my boyfriend has to work so i can't be with him either. it was supposed to be fine because i have a lot of work to do for uni. i even managed to do some of it, but halfway through the day my mind decided i was abandoned and so i got rly depressed and now i can't get myself to work and can't really have fun either because i'm very apathetic. i also got sad over being sad because it's so pathetic that i'm 20yo and can't be left alone for a few hours. 