Hello,

I am 20, I have severe health anxiety, that was caused by my hunger for informations, and like I said in the title, it is ruining my life,

my health anxiety started after my father suffered a ruptured brain aneurysm, he was a heavy drinker and lived VERY unhealthy lifestyle for 16 years, but he survived and recovered, when it happened to him, I started to research about brain aneurysms and strokes, later it spread to the point that I started to find out about other health problems that can occur,

I started studying it, I became OBSESSED with it, after a while I started to convince myself that I have brain aneurysm like my father and other problems, I even went to the MRI and MRA to check, results came completely fine, that helped me for a while, but after 2 months my health anxiety came back, I started questioning the results of MRI, what if it missed an aneurysm etc., when I have a small headache or some small tingle or pinch I start to panic,

right now it is in the point, where I can't enjoy anything in my life, I went for a weekend to my girlfriend, I was just constantly checking myself if I am ok, since the morning to the night, we went to art exhibition which was far away from town, I was extremely worried that if something happens, ambulance will not make it there in time, during the walk with my girlfriend I looked at the names of the streets we were going to because if I would collapse I would know where to send an ambulance, when I want to bend over to take something, I do a squat to take it because I know there can be an overpressure that can trigger internal bleeding to the brain etc., I am having headaches since childhood, so it is very often the trigger, every day I see on the internet that someone died, I IMMEDIATELY check the cause of death

I am going to a therapist for 5 months now, I made 0 progress, I was prescribed lexaurin, it helps for like 2 hours, I don't know what to do, I can't focus on anything other than health, I just want to go back to the point where I didn't know these things, it consumed me, it is just matter of time when it starts to affect other fields in my life, I think that there is just downfall in front of me, I am just surviving, I am constantly scared and I live in fear

please give me some advice