I have a really supportive and loving circle of friends in different places but I can't stop to feel that they are wasting they energy, time and love on me. I don't want them to help me out. A friend of mine offered to drive me to a "house" viewing next week so that I get closer to making my wish of having a place on my own come true. Yet, at the same time, I feel it's such a waste of breath when I could just end it instead. They all want me to do better but I just don't want to.