Most days when I see posts from here, r/therapy, r/mentalillness, r/depression, etc. it really sounds like people have CPTSD. I think a lot of people are suffering through trauma without the help that they need. Please it check and see if you have it. Try to find a trauma informed therapist. Maybe try EMDR therapy if you can. R/cptsd is great and has really helped me. Everyone there is super kind and welcoming. Finding out I have CPTSD has made a big difference for me. I want everyone else to have the same opportunity to try and heal.