Seems like I cant even have a relationship with a nice girl without this vacuum just taking every emotion out of me. Someone tells me they love me I dont feel loved i dont feel Jack shit. I'm not even exited for Christmas, wasn't exited for my birthday or anything. I have to fake a smile or a laugh around people and my parents dont think I need help.

People that talk about problems they think they have aren't doing it just to hear themselves. I've been doing everything to try and help with this, getting protein, exercising and all that but I still feel the same. I hope someone will at least listen