

I want to of course. I’ve struggled with anxiety my whole life, and I think I have GAD + OCD. Of course I noticed I can get anxious about anything. Might have depression but I try not to judge myself or my circumstances, or whatever.


I guess the scariest thing is the jacked up intrusive thoughts I get. While I fundamentally understand they don’t or shouldn’t mean much about me, maybe I haven’t fully internalized that or whatever.


Definitely taking a break from weed. When I was super anxious a few years ago, weed calmed me down to the point where I didn’t really have much to think about or worry about. A few months ago I got way too high and worried i might die or something. The highs have been fairly good or fairly bad since I guess. 

A tolerance break may help. I was on anxiety meds SSRIs a couple months ago but haven’t seen a doc in awhile.

I was reminded of all the ‘bad things’ that happened to me lately and that probably fucked with my high last nite or whatever.

I’ve lost friends of 10+ years because one basically claimed I was racist because I didn’t help black people enough, one girl who was a friend who knew I liked her a lot ghosted me even tho we never had any arguments, I said ‘what’s the point’ and blocked her, and one idiot, on the basis that a mutual friend who he knew for 2 year quit working for him in job he had for 2-3 months stopped talking to all of us. WTF?

Sigh.