I know it doesn't make sense at all if you put it the scope of logic, but I have been getting this though every single day for years now. I'm 32 had a "successful life", but the routine and city life was killing my soul, I sold everything and moved to Australia to become a backpacker 4 yeas ago, I have seen amazing things and experience wonderful moments, still always in the back of my mind is there this though that tells me all this life is not what is all about, don't know how to explain it but I crave dying, resting, just opt out of all of this realm, I feel tied up to this earthly ways and feeling that I shouldn't take my own life feels horribly restrictive. I don't even identify with humans anymore :/, I have tried to blend in, be part of, I just don't know how anymore. I feel utterly alone and I despise the way humanity is heading to more and more. I have travel so many places and cultures, the poison of modern society is absolutely everywhere, even the most beautiful souls seem corrupted and enslave from it without realising, is so sad...we had such a potential as living creatures, now I'm just waiting for the world to eat itself and be free of this bad ride.

I honestly hope things get better but I don't see any light on this tunnel.