I don't know what to do my life is shitty I've been held back 2times now and Im disappointing my family and I just got on probation so I can't smoke and I've been struggling to keep my head up I got a girlfriend but idk if she really cared about me I also told her I love her to soon so that kinda fucked it up none of my friends are able to hangout with me and my anger is getting out of control I tend to overthink alot and end up crying at the end I don't want to do at this point I've been having multiple suicidal thoughts over and over I feel like of I tell anyone there gonna think I'm crazy or weird and when I tell some of them there all say the same thing idk what to do anymore my life used to be so good and it's all downhill