I get upset over things. People disregard them. So now I believe everything I get upset over is irrational and of the other person disregards it then I am definitely irrational and they're point of view on it is truth.

Because of this, I can't tell what is real anymore. What I am allowed to be upset about. I'm over trying to bring up issues with people because ,we'll they don't want to be flawed so they disregard, and I get shut down. Yet I try my absolute best not to disregard others feelings. 

It's shitty and I'm not coping. I'm mad at my partner for disregarding my needs and if he hadn't, I may still have some friends. I'm annoyed at myself for disregarding my needs and not putting my foot down. I'm annoyed at them for just abandoning and not saying anything. Why do they get to treat me like shit, but I can't make a mistake or have feelings? It must be my fault I get treated like shit, or I'm being really really bad to them. I feel like I'm missing a piece of the puzzle. I'm not abusive. I'm not. I'm just in constant turmoil. I  hope.