I feel like I'm perpetually stuck in my own head, I feel exhausted all the time, too tired to be the lively interesting person I tell myself I have the potential to be. Just this zombie walking around going through the motions, trying to take steps to stop my life from falling apart but feeling more and more confused about what the point of that is. I feel like I'm not really real and like I'm not really here and I need it to stop. People talk to me and i feel like they can see through me and they can sense im not part of life, im not like them. I'm not on the level of conciousness  everyone else seems to reach without even trying. 