I have a supporting and nice group of friends and family, but I’m not good enough for them. I’m stupid, irresponsible, unfunny, socially awkward, have an annoying and monotone voice, and yet people still deal with me for some reason. I’ve convinced myself that they don’t like me and that they only tolerate me because they took pity on me or I’m not catching the hint that they don’t like me. I hate myself and don’t see what people could like in me, so when I talk to people I just feel sad inside and think about suicide for the next 10-30 mins. All my coping mechanisms don’t seem to work anymore and I just want to end my existence to save others from my stupidity.