I love to paint and write. It brings me so much joy and I am really proud of my writing and art, but often times I avoid painting and writing. When I am alone and have time to do these things, I often choose not to and choose instead to have something on in the background like a television show or music and I worry about my FP, text them, think about the next time I’ll see them, etc. I know this isn’t healthy behavior so when I try to stop and try to sit down at my desk and write or paint, it makes the whole activity stressful and not fun. Often I don’t feel inspired or I just feel like doing the bare minimum. These hobbies that I love become work or a chore in comparison to wanting to hangout with my FP and thinking about them all day. It feels like I’m wasting my entire day daydreaming and the actual amount of time I do spend with my FP is so minuscule in comparison to how much I think about them. I waste away entire days just excited to go to dinner with them for 30-45 minutes that evening. I really don’t know how to fix this though.