I can’t stand being by myself (like right now it is night and everyone is asleep). As soon as I find myself alone, I almost immediately break down. Even if someone is in the other room, or if they are sharing the same but are just asleep.
Wait.... 
This is a lie. Because no matter what if is just how I feel. And i guess i like having people around me so i can suppress whatever emotion i feel, to a greater extent than if i was alone.
All my life seems to be is distraction after distraction. I don’t remember the last time i sat down by myself and felt content, why am I like this.
At the end of the day all i think of these distractions, is that they are just meaningless. I can’t stand myself.

It makes me so sad for everyone in hear going through something similar to this, no one deserves to feel like this. And i wish we could all give each other hugs.&lt;3