It’s practically ruined my life. I can’t do anything anymore. I don’t deserve to do well. I don’t really deserve anything good. I’m just…useless. I can’t do anything. I can’t form talents,hobbies or skills because if I’m not instantly perfect at it, I give up. I have to be perfect at everything. If someone compliments me, or anything like that I have to downplay it. I downplay everything about myself. I genuinely have no self esteem. None. I don’t like anything about myself. I never give myself a break, all I do is beat myself up. I’m constantly hard on myself, but nobody else. I bully myself all the time.