None of this makes sense and I don’t know where I was going with it, just venting and hoping there are some wise words. It’s hard to not believe the things people tell you that you are. 

My boyfriend (23M) and I (22F) have been going through a lot lately, stemming from my jealousy of other couples I know on Facebook getting engaged, buying their first home, having babies, getting married.  
These are all things I want so intensely, and also something I’m not in a position to afford currently. Not only that, but we don’t even have a plan for our future together. He won’t even sit down and talk about it with me even though we’ve been together for 5 years. 
He says my expectations of him are unrealistic and I’m wanting too much too young. But I’m just asking for a plan, some stability. 
Now I’m wondering if I’m being crazy but also fighting with the concept that we all deserve the things we want in our lives.
His whole family is mad at me for expecting so much from him. I put a lot of pressure on him. I yell and disturb the household. They all want me to go to therapy but I know it’s from a place of irritation.
I know I’m young, but I just want to know where I’m going with my life and what I can expect. I put too much trust in him and his family and thought they loved me like I loved them but they can’t handle me. Unfortunately I’ll never be able to get away from myself.