This guy would actually show youtube therapy videos in session to explain aspects of DBT and psychology that he clearly didn't understand. Today he said I was a "covert narcissist". I said cool, what is that? And he said he was going to show me a video explaining it and I stopped him. No more videos. Explain it to me. He sat there in confusion for a moment. Uhh. Then he looked it up on his phone and read the symptoms off. Ok, how does that relate to me? Again, he stumbled.

Ok, so how can he use a term to describe me when he doesn't even know what it is? Am I a covert narcissist? I don't care what you call it. Help! I'm here because I need help. I just came out of the ER two months ago for extreme suicidal ideation. I am just barely holding it together even now.

So, I set that aside and continued on with the session, trying to explain the anxiety I felt about a tough situation I was in with my family when he, for some inexplicable reason, got mad and began to take it personally. I don't exactly know why, because I didn't refer to him in any way. He told me that I was beginning to piss him off. How dare I think the the way I did. Don't I know what he's gone through in his life. What?

"This is a good place to stop", I told him. "I'm sorry I upset you, but this just isn't working out. It's not a good fit." And I walked out.

For me, a therapy session should have exactly zero to do with the therapist and their personal history or feelings. They are there for me. They are there to help me. I don't mind them using personal anecdotes to bond with me. I welcome that. But jesus, why on earth would a therapist get hostile when their entire reason for being there is to listen and provide some guidance. And secondly, know what the fuck you are talking about. Do you even know what borderline is, bro?