Just a pointless rant 

There are days I go through the bpd subs, reading people's thought and thinking, the logic behind it. The impulsive things people do, the stupid cringy clingy all manner of ways pwBPD act, and I get so mad at the disorder, and everyone living with it including myself. It's almost like I wished it didn't exist to begin with, or maybe even that I wasn't a part of it all. 

I often feel like I don't belong here because some of the things I've read makes me understand why the disorder is so stigmatised and why people back away when they hear you have BPD. And I often can't blame them. 

TW: imagine cutting someone's name into your body and using it as a tool for manipulation...very unhealthy, and usually behaviours common to BPDers. I don't expect positive responses, I know a lot of us here are emotionally opinionated so logic goes out the window. I don't not like responding or making comments, because I see a lot people stuck in a bad place making judgements, and the words sting.

If my post come to offend you, I apologise in advance. It is not about you, I'm simply trying to deal with accepting that I'm not a stereotypical borderline, and I can't erase the stigma that follows me, and maybe cope with the knowledge that there would be other BPDers making all of the wrong choices, but they don't define me.