I had some 'symptoms' develop over 4 months ago. It may or may not be 'long COVID', but either way I'm dealing with some severe depressive symptoms.

Along with fatigue, back pain, loss of appetite and complete and crippling anhedonia, the worst symptom was this 'dream-like' perspective that my brain adopted. My perception felt squished.

I did tons of research on this and the closest explanation I've found is that it's derealization. I also had a bout of depersonalization. These really scared me. No matter what I ate or how much I slept, it was like I couldn't escape a nightmare. I was hypersensitive to sounds and lights on and off too. Fully triggering.

It's been that way for 4 months, a bit on and off but mostly still there. I've never had this happen before in my life, and there is no possible explanation for a sudden onset of such severe depressive symptoms.

Now, I find myself with this 'fog' that makes me feel like I'm in the back seat of my consciousness. I'm on auto-pilot all the time, though nobody can tell since my cognitive abilities and capacity for memory feel unaltered. It's so lonely because I don't know when or if it will ever end.

I've been seeing a therapist for a few months, and recently got a referral to a psychiatrist. I've been trying to last as long as I can without the need for meds, but it's so dark that I think I desperately need some help. 

The world shouldn't feel scary and dooming all the time for no reason. I have a specifically hard time in foreign/unfamiliar areas. The world feels fake and I've lost my sense of self.

Anyone go through this too?