my uni is having a mental health event where they said we can get free hugs from a mascot and i really want to go for that. it has been years since i've had a friend and gotten a hug. i feel very lonely and felt comforted that a classmate sat next to me once this week. she didn't talk to me or anything, but it felt nice to be near another person like that when i've gotten used to sitting by myself in classes. i feel like i've isolated myself to the point where i feel like my existence is both invisible and repugnant, that people don't want to be near me. 

unfortunately the event is on the only day i'm not on campus (i have classes 4 days of the week) and i really wanna take the day off for a break. but idk i think i'll end up going just to get a hug from a giant bear. i'm an introvert but that would recharge me more than being alone and stuffing my face with food.