Hi, as the title says, I’m not diagnosed with BPD. I’ve been noticing trends in my moods that lead me to suspect BPD. So right now I’m curious if anyone with BPD has experienced anything similar.

kind of had a meltdown tonight, and without explaining in detail I’ll kind of summarize what I’m thinking right now.

I’ve realized that whenever someone I’m close to drinks alcohol I get extremely jealous and angry or worry that they’re going to get out of control. I act kind of controlling or possessive. Somehow I convince myself that I have to drink alcohol too so I don’t feel left out. I know in the back of my head I shouldn’t drink for such a stupid reason, but i just get impulsive and don’t really weigh the consequences. 

Im not trying to excuse my behavior by thinking I have BPD, but it would help to know if anyone has similar issues when it comes to seeing other people drink?