I moved to London two months ago and since coming here I've just run into problems. First my car broke down and I ended up needing to get a new one, then I was having to hunt for a new flat and when I did find one, realised I couldn't afford it. Now I'm lodging at a flat just outside London.

I haven't settled over here yet and I feel more and more unhappy the longer this goes on. Yesterday I broke down and cried down the phone to my girlfriend about missing home and not knowing what to do. I want this move to work out and I want to start a career in my field (not enough work going on back home in that department), but it's been so slow and agonising that it just feels like it's not worth it.

I've also got no friends out here either. I go to the LondonSocialClub meetups every once in a while when I have the time or money, but haven't been going regularly enough to make any friends or anything. I'll just spend my days in my room on my laptop, or else drive out to places like Brighton and take some pictures, but now I'm not even sure about doing that since fuel prices are getting more and more expensive (I've literally paid £1.90 per litre of petrol). Yesterday my dad rang and when I said I drove down to Brighton he asked if I was lonely, and I lied and said no. Truthfully I did feel lonely and being in Brighton would've helped me clear my head, but I didn't want to admit that to him because it's both sad and would only make him worry.

I just feel so fed up and don't know how much longer I can stick this out. I'm simply unhappy and even as I type this out I can feel myself tearing up a bit. I wanna go home, but I don't wanna admit defeat or give up on this potential career move too soon.