So this just happened and well, it gave me the weirdest feeling. Kind of like chills mixed with gut wrenching the bottom on my stomach. 

On a social media a memory from a few years ago came up. Was a few videos with my ex. For a moment I remember the day like it was yesterday, weird. But said ex gave a new definition for mentally unstable, back then I loved it because I was so lost and unstable myself. It was generally a crappy time but damn they taught me some hard lessons. 

Within four years my life has become unrecognisable with how much has changed. Back with them I blissfully refused to realise reality trying to live thinking I’ll be in my grave by now. I did a lot of stupid teen stuff trying to catch up on what I had missed. I craved a feeling of a typical life. 

These days, I’m still fighting many demons but thankfully have something’s I was searching for. There might be a lot to work on but damn I am happy with how it has gone. Got the love and support I need. Got rid of many, many toxic people. Honestly, it is hard to  recognise myself because so much has changed so many times