I’m always reluctant because of my dog. I guess I need to have a plan in place with someone I trust to take care of him while I’m away.

The past few months I’ve been flip flopping. In the past my suicidal thoughts were always passive, but in the past few months I have had thoughts like: “I really should” or “I really want to” or “Everything would be better off” just haven’t quite reached the point where I have made a plan or an attempt. It just feels like I’m heading there every time I feel that way. And going to the hospital is such a BIG thing, it’s like what are people going to think. I also normally snap out of it in a few days to a week. But I get so worried. Idk.