New to this subreddit, but super glad I found it. I was diagnosed with BPD about 3-4 years ago, since then I had gotten better at coping with it. I was meditating more, doing alot of self discovery, dating, losing weight, etc. Therapy was helping alot and I finally felt pretty great for the most part. 

But, as of recently I’ve been lashing out, dealing with intense mood swings, have been in a state of panic due to my 2 best friends not being as talkative, I’m constantly thinking they’re going to leave me and I’m absolutely terrified to lose them. I even recently relapsed due to blacking out from everything going on in my mind. 

I was doing so good and now I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so empty, I feel like I’ve lost control. The therapy isn’t even helping as much anymore and I don’t know what to do at this point.