Desperate for some insite if you are the one in the relationship who suffers depression.

My husband of 15 years is now the shell of the man I knew which is heartbreaking. I know it's not his fault. I don't blame him nor resent him. Yes I get very very angry at times however I'm human and he says hurtful things.

Wondering if after a depressive episode, once the fog lifts if you a remorseful for what you have said and done during the period? Does the numbness go and love return? 

Lastly, anything your partner did that specifically helped you even though you pushed them as far away as you can? I'm not giving up or going anywhere. He's staying with family during this time and I am giving as much space as I can.

Sorry for all the questions, I'm just at loss. I feel like all the hurt and pain he feels he feels must also put onto me.

Thank you for reading ❤️🥰🌈💫😊