Hey, I'm kind of new here - i've been lurking for a while but never posted.

I was diagnosed last year after waiting a long time to see a therapist however I was only offered 6 sessions of structered clincial managment therapy to determine what the problem was. I have now beeen diagnosed and on the waiting list for DBT therapy. Currently been waiting over a year with probably another year to go if i'm lucky. I need some help with this, I can't wait that long just sitting here with a diagnosis but no treatment it's fucking stupid bc my head is just spinning out and not making sense of anything. 

Anyways, just wondering if any of you kind people could offer some advice to deal with the highs and lows, especially lows as I can become extremely suicidal and have thoughts of jumping off my balcony often. I don't know what to do to manage other than want to get high. I don't enjoy living like this, it feels more like surviving and everything is gruelling. I can't go outside bc my area gives me high anxiety (I live in London UK) i'm trying to get out but I am in a council flat and I need to be in London to take care of my Dad who is ill and it's really difficult to private rent here as it's unaffordable. I wish my home could provide me some sanctuary but it's very noisy I live in a tower block on an estate and there's a lot of anti social behaviour. I feel very vulnerable and I hate it. i don't want to live like this every fucking day.