In 2019 I was hit with massive depression lasting months. With random bouts of intense irritability. My husband pushed me to get help. I didn’t even know where to begin and made an appointment for a physical, was immediately directed to a psychiatrist, after the practitioner prescribed me Zoloft. After multiple visits and forms filled out with my psychiatrist, she diagnosed me with bipolar2. I got on some other medication and it worked for a while and then I decided I didn’t want to do the meds anymore because “I am fine”

My psychiatrist sent me for a second opinion because she felt I needed to hear it from someone who didn’t have experience with me.  Again, I was diagnosed with bipolar2. I was put on different meds and Years later, I feel I am doing okay but still have break through bouts of depression and irritability but it lasts a moment, to a day, depending. A lot of my feelings that’s bothering me, is I feel like I’m present physically but a lot of times struggle to focus on the moment. So here I am, thinking maybe there’s something else wrong? I love my psychiatrist but I find it hard to explain this to her, without outright telling her that maybe she is wrong? Maybe I need different medication again? Maybe I’m just being a human? 

TL;DR
Having random break through irritability and depression and feel dissociative. Questioning diagnosis or maybe need a med change? Or maybe it’s just normal to have momentary emotions like this?