Okay so I have BPD but like let’s say I have one good day. Or I’m feeling good for like two seconds ,I will then start feeling like well I don’t feel like absolute hell anymore my disorder is gone . I start to feel like I am cured or that I no longer fit the criteria for BPD. Or sometimes I will think I was making up my symptoms  or over exaggerating them .. like sometimes I’m like I’m cured I beat my disorder 🙌🏻 and then at times it gives me immesnse anxiety because I will make having this disorder my ENTIRE identity which is common in folks w bpd but I will make having BPD my entire identity so when I have one good moment and think “I no longer for the criteria for BPD” I get anxiety and it feels like I lost my sense of identity or no longer have my sense of identity . Does this make sense . Sometimes I self sabotoge my happiness so I can still feel like I’m fitting  the criteria for BPD so I can feel like I have an identity. HELP LOLLL does tbus make sense of does anyone relate anything would help