I apologise for bothering, however I have something that needs to be taken out of my mind once and for all.

I feel as though I wasn't meant for this world, I know it sounds crazy and it's probably a result of my selfishness for feeling like this. I didn't suffer any abuse as a child, I lived quite a normal life, the only thing was that I was adopted and have been granted the life I have now.

Nevertheless, ever since I was young I always felt I didn't deserve this, I don't deserve this life, I feel lost and can't find a place that makes me satisfied like most people do, I have tried so many things just to lose interest in them, I can't see myself working at something for the rest of my life, I can't find the passion most people do once they find the job that satisfies them.

I hope it makes sense, and I know it sounds selfish of me, currently I am a first-year medical student and I fear so much for my future because I can't see myself as anything, I know I'll keep trying new things, but why can't I find my place in this world, why can't I be happy for once with what I have. 

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I'm sorry this is so long, I had to write it somewhere and felt this is the right place.