I just got diagnosed bipolar 1 like a month ago during a non psych hospital stay. I actually was diagnosed bipolar 2 before but was not convinced of the diagnosis really.. it wasn’t until getting on meds in the hospital and subsequently feeling 1000x better that I realized this disorder has been in control of my life for so long. I feel like I have a new life. I feel like so much of the before time was just survival. It’s hard to not look back on my time in my three year relationship and feel like there is some foundation of bipolar, some dependence on mood swings to keep things alive. I feel horrible saying this but I feel like I don’t know the person I am just meeting and I want to get to know her. My boyfriend has been so dedicated to me while I’ve been so sick though that I feel really bad just thinking about leaving him. Has anyone else experienced similar?