I have recurring suicidal thoughts, but I can't help but think it's a sort of scapegoat for me, as in because I'm feeling this way, it's fine for me not to study, it's fine for me not to go to school.
I can still get out of bed,no sings of excessive anxiety or insomnia. i'll walk around the house, cook, even talk to friends, but i can't do what i actually need to do, academically for example.
Is it even possible that i am making up excuses?
I'm lost honestly, any input is appreciated.