I'll try to make this short.

Recently, he has been diagnosed with an illness called borderline personality disorder. He's been suicidal for more than 10 years. 

His parents have a LOT of issues. He received verbal, emotional and physical abuses from them as a child. He's their first child, and very much unplanned. They are poor, almost not being able to eat three times a day. Their youngest child has an autism and is studying in a special school, also having therapy.

We've been in a relationship for 6 years and I can confidently say that I am one of the main reasons why he is alive right now. I stopped almost all of his attempts, but hurt myself in the process. BUT I got pregnant 2 years ago and that added up to his stress. We are mentally, physically, emotionally and financially broke college drop outs.

His parents convinced my husband to go to therapy, but said mean things to him and would treat him like trash everytime. So he voluntarily opted out of the session, thinking that his parents would be less stressed if he did. His parents didn't convince him to go back. They shouted at him for giving up therapy and almost hit him while saying that "they love him." Maybe love really is supposed to feel painful and unsafe.

His illness got worse, he doesn't have the will the get out of his room. Everything he tries to do fails. He can't last in a job and also at school with such illness. He has no friends that can understand what he feels. He's stuck. There is no hope.

His family told him that their youngest child is more important that him in a way that they can not adjust to his illness. Well actually, they also didn't treat the youngest one properly, but they said that they cannot give my husband the kind of "love" that he wants.

It is only up to me to try to talk him out of suicide until his birthday. He'll be 22, then. It'll be in less than a month and I honestly don't know what to do. I can't speed read a 200-page therapy book to do it myself, I'm not that smart. I know that no one can help us now, but thanks for reading this anyway.