I’ve been battling depression my entire life and always had my ups and downs. I really feel like I could get to a point where if I did all of the things I know would help my mental health, I would have a much better grip on the situation. I know if I exercise, eat properly, get lots of sunlight and start attending things I should be attending, I will have a much easier time managing my depression. The problem is I really don’t have the motivation to do those things. When the time comes to get up and do what I need to do, it almost feels like I’m procrastinating it. I just put off doing it until later or straight up don’t do it. I really don’t understand why I keep doing that as I know it’s completely self-destructive but I can’t stop. Does anyone know why I do this or how to stop?