life's just like some stupid  fucking mistake, nothing really goes right. i dont have any reason not to hurt myself right now. or do i. who cares anymore, i want to do it and in the end it doesnt fucking matter and i bet ill barely even care then. it just becomes more and more apparent that im wasting all of my time but that theres also nothing good to do with this time. i dont want to die, i dont want it to end. i just wish it never started. why did this have to fucking happen. wasnt one kid enough for my parents. seriously what the fuck is wrong with you. just god fucking why. fuck this.