I started a new job last month, managing a bar and liquor store. It involves bar tending on occasion, something I’ve never done up til this point. I feel like I’m having a heart attack as it gets closer to my shift tonight. My heart is racing, I’m trembling and my arms are numb. I feel like I’m going to throw up. It’s kind of a rough around the edges kind of clientele, and being obviously gay makes it a little more nerve wracking because I can hear some of the customers talking about me from time to time, but never directly to me. I just hate feeling like this and being in a situation I’m still not good out, already feeling judged. I just need to vent and I apologize if this post comes off all over the place.