I have no one to turn to and feel like I am pushing people away by says how it is. My mind is turning on me all day Have friends they are so nice but always think that my friend group as a social media group without me and since I have it in my mind I think this for all people I know nice to me but leaving me out in a way. Struggle to even smile told by family member today to stop this smile more and look happier sinking inside everyone around me has a way to look down on me and the feeling of picking myself up before it gets too much is gone afraid of it feeling worse because I can’t bare it already.