My GF has made my bipolar emotions amplified. My happy moments are really happy and my sad moments are really low.

I think I need to leave her, but I don't want to because I really like her. There is also an additional component where I feel that I'm not good enough to find anyone else. And that I was lucky to end up with her.

And, when I was by myself, I was working on myself and working on improving but I wasn't happy a day in my life.