i'm 17. and diagnosed bipolar type 2. everyday is a struggle. i wake up and my mood is already decided. i get no break. other teenagers are laughing, drinking, doing reckless shit because they don't have to worry about entering an episode and losing everything because their brain is unstable. nobody understands me. i'm alone. i don't know what to do with myself. i don't know if i should just kms or run away i don't wanna ruin anyone's life anymore. but when i'm happy i'm great i'm awesome i can rule the world. the lows are so so low. it makes the highs seem not worth it. i fought SO HARD to get out of this mindset and it takes one minor inconvenience to send me right back into the deep dark hole. i'm 17 god damn it. please just let me be a teenager