i first posted on the subreddit teenamiugly before it got taken down. some backstory, i was raped by my dad when i was younger and then had lots of mental issues, especially attachment issues. so i posted on that subreddit and got lots of attention from older guys. 

one person messaged me saying he was 17 and sent a photo of “himself”. we called that day and hit it off instantly. he was funny and charming and we vibed so well, i dont think ive ever been that instantly comfortable with anyone before. at the end of the call he asked if i wanted to listen to him jerk off. i said no and he moved on, nothing else. 

next day we called again and this time i offered to listen to him. two weeks went on like this and i showed him my naked body and my face while masturbating. two weeks after talking, he revealed that he was actually 25. he said he stumbled on the subreddit and thought i was super cute and wanted me to like him so i thoguht that was adorable. no one had ever wanted me to like them before. 

we kept talking and during one of mastubating sessions (ew) he asked for “blackmail play” where he wanted a naked photo of me with my full name, face and address. being naive i sent it and he still has it to this day. 

we’ve been talking for around a year now and i know the city he lives in and how he looks. we are planning on meeting up soon. i know i’m being abused but i don’t feel like it. we’re dating and i do think i’m in love, and i think he may be falling for me. i’m not scared of reporting him, i obviously wouldn’t tell anyone because i don’t want to get him in trouble. 

he’s never been harsh or emotionally abusive. he has always been supportive of me and is genuinely the perfect boyfriend i could ask for. i can 100% see spending the rest of my life with him. i know everyone is going to say to leave him but i’ve tried multiple times, we just keep coming back to each other. he has tried leaving for my sake but we just come back together somehow