What I feel makes me want to stop talking to anyone because I just feel like an everlasting burden to everyone. So I avoid conversations or I otherwise become irritable when others talk to me. But at the same time, I feel lonely and sad at night that compared to before where i talk to others, dont talk to anyone anymore. And it just gets me pissed that I have the audacity to be sad even though its my goddamn fault why im like this.