I know the answer is yes, some people do this the same way I do. I’m curious why. I feel a personal responsibility to save other people from having relationships with me. I understand that I’m a nightmare to be close too. 

I have addiction problems, self harm, and also the self isolation. I constantly flake on things. It’s probably bc of previously mentioned addiction issues.

I’d like to reach out, and it would help with recovery (if I’m able to do that). How do you accept that people care for you? Or accept help in general? Im in therapy atm. I’m more curious about personal relationships.