Right now I'm drugged once more, tied to shit that even though it is my consumption, I feed my nose again, college student with worse grades and I have to face because I do not think to give up, single because I am not comfortable with my appearance nor do I have A life that I got to please someone who I like, and how will someone like me if I look for beauty in someone who does not think about parties or trips, if my work is socially denigrating and for what I earn I don't want to attend , I hate normality, I will quit drugs but I do not know when if I do not move away from the place where I live, I will surely find love but I hope he does not end up getting bored with me, I hope everything improves but right now although I am not lost I feel like one more failure. I want someone to help me but even the university psychologist is very simplistic, I just want stability and do good to those in the street or the environment, but sometimes I just think that my failure is Inevitable