Hey everybody,

I am having a real hard time today. I have spent my entire adult life working towards being successful in my chosen career path. I went to university for 12 years to obtain my degree. I have spent the last 15 years in my job. It is difficult to find the level of success that I have achieved. I have had to work harder than everybody else. I had to put in time off the clock to develop my career. It paid off. I won numerous awards for what I do. I have gained the respect of everybody I work with. I have been rated the highest by clients. All of my reviews have been perfect.

Problem started happening 5 years ago. When I first started treatment for bipolar I was very ashamed. I was raised to believe real men can will themselves out of mental illness. I know now that is bs, but it is hard to shake the feelings I was raised with. I kept my diagnosis a secret from everybody. Like I said, it was really embarrassing for me. But 5 years ago I thought I would open up to some friends at work. This has been a disaster. I worked for two different companies. I told one woman who I saw and spoke to daily. I thought she would be understanding. She hasn’t said a word to me since I told her. Seriously, not a single word. We went from talking daily to not speaking for the past 5 years. Another “friend” I told did the same thing. Literally after working together for years, going out for lunch, going out for drinks after work, hanging out in each other’s offices laughing, etc. The very day I told him was the last words he ever spoke to me. He immediately dropped me off Facebook and won’t even acknowledge my existence when I pass him in the hallway. That was five years ago.
I told other colleagues who promised to support me with whatever I needed. I thought that was great.
Fast forward to last year. I started struggling, I believe due to the isolation from Covid. I would become so anxious over little things. I would quit breathing and had to be taken to the hospital twice. I tried to explain to my boss what was happening. I requested a reasonable accommodation. She refused and said no accommodation would be given. She said I need to grow up and do my job or leave. My accommodation would not affect my daily duties. It would require my boss to have called me in the case of needing me to do something that was time sensitive. She would only need to do it 4 to 5 times a year. It really wouldn’t be a big deal but she said she won’t treat me differently from other employees.
I contacted HR to try and get the accommodation. They interviewed me and told me my accommodation was reasonable and I thought that was the end of it. Because I had to explain to them what happened when I requested the accommodation through my boss, they decided, unbeknownst to me, to hire an outside organization to investigate how I was treated. They interviewed numerous employees. It came out to everybody that I was bipolar. My boss became infuriated thinking I was attacking her and trying to get her in trouble.
This investigation started so much trouble. I became the subject of jokes. Rather than say an idea sounded crazy, colleagues would replace crazy with my name. In one meeting I did not attend, I was told the boss said I can’t be trusted because I am crazy.
My boss stopped sending me emails that I needed to do my job. For example, emails about the dates of upcoming deadlines. As a result, I missed a couple deadlines.  She started writing me up saying I miss deadlines and do not communicate with colleagues.
I went to upper management to explain what was happening. They have not responded to a single email I sent. I tried emailing colleagues to find out what was happening. Nobody will respond. I noticed on Facebook every single person I work with dropped me. I tried texting a friend and received no response. I am assuming the company is telling people to avoid me. I am being passed over for work. This has affected my ability to make money. I went from making $100,000 a year to $10,000 a year. I have been effectively cut out of my job.
I should never have disclosed my diagnosis. Everything sucks after doing so. I have been thinking about getting a lawyer, but if I lose I will never work in my specialty again.
WTF am I supposed to do?