So... My boyfriend has a Christmas party coming up with school friends; and I'm extremely anxious about it. 

I trust him to not cheat, I genuinely do. But last time he was out with friends and was intoxicated, I had to call his mom from 6000km away (I was on holiday) to go pick him up because he was a mess. 

I'm honestly a mess. I don't want him to go. And if he has to I want to come. Just to make sure he's safe. I don't trust anyone bar his mom to look after him. Not even himself. 

I've told him this, and he's offered to not go. But obviously I would feel horrible and selfish; but he says he doesn't want me this upset either. 

Honestly, what do I do? I'm torn. I don't want him to go, but I don't want to stop him either. I just wished these feelings would go away before it does something permanent. 