We just talked about motivation etc and I discovered that I can't put my emotions into words AT ALL. Whenever I talk about myself I feel boring as hell. 

I thought that I would find a way to fill that big dark hole by going to therapy, but I just can't be bothered. There is no way to fill the hole. 

It's supposed to be there and I am so sick of it, I don't want to live anymore at all, it's just not worth it.