i cold turkey stopped taking them pills with no taper and i just felt the most horrible adhd panic attack ontop of the bpd episode after smoking. i feel like eveyone fucking despises me but i also feel like i constantly need to be perfect and everyone should love me but i feel no love from anyone its kinda like got a narcissistic side to it too cuz i feel like they should all love me but feel like no one does its so fucking painful to me and i can only feel ok if i take opiate pain killers .