CW: Mentions of self harm (cutting)

I apparently tend to have obsessive thoughts about people that are either in my life or that I know. When I was in high school there was someone that I became obsessed with, but they didn’t know me at all. It got to a point where I carved their name into my leg. I thought I loved that person. It took me 2 years to get over them and I still never talked to them. Not once.

Now fast forward, I’m having these obsessive thoughts over my FP/SO. I’m CONSTANTLY thinking theyre going to leave me or cheat on me and it gets to the point where I get visibly upset by those thoughts. 

I come up with near impossible scenarios in my head and almost… believe it’s true? It’s like I don’t know what’s real and what’s not. 

I’m experiencing extreme anxiety and I’ll bring it up to my therapist this week. I just don’t know what the hell is wrong with me.


Cross posted