i genuinely feel like a fragmented, not whole, fake? person. i just feel so unreal as a human and i can't trust any of my judgements and i just know whatever of a personality i'll build it can easily just be overwritten by someone else i find to copy and then boom i've lost myself again but currently i can't even build up a sense of self, i have no one to mirror right now so all i feel like i am is just an empty shell floating in motion with nothing.