This week was a four day work week for me (Mon-Thurs). I ended up pretty sick on Sunday, still not quite sure why. I called out for Monday. 

Tuesday I still felt bad and could not be on my feet for long, let alone at my physical job (somewhat demanding). 

When I called out Tues, my manager was only concerned with “losing revenue” and when could I make up these days? I was taken aback and said I’d let her know. She wasn’t rude per say, just concerned about losing appointments.

Late Tuesday afternoon, I go to my dr. She runs a covid test (the 3 day one) as well as blood work and says she suggests not working this week until we have a better idea of what I do or do not have.

In my job I work one on one with clients, some are elderly and some immunocomprimised. I adore my clients and they are my first priority. I explained this to my dr and she completely supported me, saying I was doing the right thing.

So Tuesday evening, almost 24 hours ago, I message both managers via our work app telling them I went to the dr and I will be out of work the rest of the week. Also sent them a copy of the doctor’s note saying no work till Monday.crickets.

Meanwhile, I can’t stop the intense anxiety.  I won’t get fired, I am a top earner SO why am I so guilt/anxiety ridden for being off four days WITH a doctor’s note!? And most importantly, how do I make it stop?!