so i just visited my psychiatric clinic for the first time since i left. since I'm not a pacient anymore I'm only allowed to the administrative ward, but i ran into one of the nurses and she was so kind and hugged and looked really happy to see me better. i also talked to a secretary who practiced yoga with us every saturday morning, she said she was happy to see us, me and my mom, better. all of this while my mom suffered trying to figure out how to pay US$ 45.000. but i can't help but feel fine, happy and relaxed. just before i left i ran into a nurse technician who was a real goo bro, and we hugged and it was bromantic.
i've turned my life around in such a way in the last months. I'm almost like another person, a better one, a better version of myself.
So guys! Don't give up on your treatment! You CAN get better. 

background: i tried to off myself back in march and was sent to a psych ward for about 3 months and during that time i was diagnosed full cluster b meaning BPD, NPD, ASPD and HPD. psych clinics are crazy expensive.