I've avoided cutting for three months but I honestly can't keep doing it. Whenever I felt like I needed to cut, I would surround myself with people and make sure I was in a situation where I couldn't cut. 

It worked like a charm for a while, but avoiding the urge is not the same as completely getting rid of it. I'm looking down at these cuts and I honestly can't even believe I actually just relapsed.

The cuts really burn, I used an incredibly sharp knife to cut my skin because I have no razor blades. If I move my left arm to much, the cuts stretch and I can feel them all burn at once.

I have never been more disappointed in myself. Goodbye, have a nice night.