in the past four months, I’ve lost most of the friends I had, only keeping a few and talking to them very little bc when I get sad I self-isolate bc I don’t want to dump my problems onto others. my dad barely speaks to me because he considers me a lazy freeloader. yesterday, my nephew (who I hold extremely dear and who I consider a brother to me) blocked me and cut contact w/ me after explaining to me how I come off as egotistial, how I need to grow up, and how I create drama for everyone around me.

i feel so lost and empty, I feel like I’m the problem for everything and I honestly feel like I do more bad than good. I don’t want to see a therapist because I don’t want to cause a financial burden on my already financially burdened parents, I don’t know what to do.