I know how it sounds. I know that my family will miss me. 
But no one else would.
Today I found out that my ex started a relationship in like...a month after we broke up and now I can't stop thinking that they never really cared abt me. I am not enough to make them want me back or to make them sad. 
I was the best gf I could ever be. And it didn't take one/two months for them to foget me and move on.

No, I don't like my ex. No, I don't want them back.
But now I feel like I never meant anything for them.
Nothing.
Maybe someone to be there so they weren't alone? 
Maybe a distraction?
But not someone they loved and now I don't believe someone can love me?

I hate them.
I hate me.
I just want to go back in time and avoid meeting them.


(Sorry for typos, I'm crying)

(And no. I didn't started feeling like this bc of this specific event. It just made it all worse)