I miss being carefree. I used to never worry about anything. Now I almost constantly worry when my next anxiety/ panic attack will happen. I get exhausted from being so tense sometimes. I miss having beers with my friends. I miss smoking the occasional joint and sharing laughs with my friends( getting stoned triggers my anxiety). Been feeling a lot better recently and want to try to go back to my life style before I developed anxiety but I worry it will trigger my symptoms if I try drink or smoking a joint. I never drank or smoked excessively but it was nice to go out and have a real good time once in a while.