It took me a while to come here, I'm 19yo(M) studying right now and all my parents wants from me is to study and I hate the fact I have to hear so much when I ask them to go out. I feel like i've been depressed for years when I think about since how long have I been feeling this way but now its just constant I wake up and i feel shitty i try feeling good about myself or anything but the smallest thing drag me back to the void I started gyming which i dont know if I wanna continue its a lot of energy and im just very exhausted I barely eat now I wake up have a cup of tea and thats all ill have a meal maybe it takes me a lot of time to sleep and i dont sleep good too i dont know how to describe the way i sleep but its pretty awful takes me a lot of time to sleep and when i wake up im usually very exhausted. apologies for the typos just bare with me. my parents will prolly go out of town in a few days should I go for therapy because i dont know if i should or not or if im just overreacting.