I literally don’t know how to let go of shit. Even if we’ve moved on and a lot of time has past like years and years the things they’ve done creep back into my mind. Sometimes I feel like I’m thinking about it to trigger myself on purpose lmfao. It makes me feel angry and hurt all over again and I don’t want to hold anything over anyone’s head because I’ve been forgiven for shitty stuff too. It sends me into this train of thought where I regret not standing up for myself at the time and for letting myself get treated badly, and it makes me feel like I’m continuing to say it was fine that u treated me so badly by allowing things to be okay now if that makes sense. It’s hard bc I didn’t feel like I could stand up for myself at the time bc I thought it was all in my head and my bpd was driving me crazy, but since then they’ve taken accountability for how they acted, which makes me feel like even worse of a person now for continuing to hold onto it. I think it’s also just the fact that they let me believe it was my bpd and that how they were making me feel wasn’t real or wasn’t their fault until way after. Anyone know tricks on how to move on ?