I've learned that my ex, the one who beat me and raped me is happy,moving to a house, with a baby. While i'm financially not in a good place (even the 300 he owe me since 4 years would help).

My bullies are working in a field i might never be able to finish because of money issues. 

Do you sometimes feel life has something against you ? Do you feel destroy when you learn people that made you BPD are getting away with something better than you?