Don't know why I'm posting this but to be honest It's not as if I can tell anyone what I'm going to say now.

I've wasted every opportunity that I ever got. I pissed away all my money, pursued women and neglected my family, I abandoned my faith and now I'm lost. Nothing but the next 24 hours to get through.

I know I'm not a good person but I thought I had some redeeming qualities, but as the years go by I doubt it more and more.

Yeah I'm not wanting sympathy cause I don't deserve it. I just wanna say to people.... don't be an idiot like me, don't waste your life away. Do something with it, anything.