i think i may have bpd at 14. yes i know you can’t have it if your under 18 since i’m still developing but I think I have many symptoms of it.

I have a FP which if my favorite teacher. My attachment to her is so unhealthy and although it’s gotten better, I think about her 90% of the day and make sure every choice I make would be okay with her, etc. I feel like she doesn’t care about me and I had a huge huge breakdown about this a few hours ago and almost relapsed to self harm.

For days or weeks I can feel like absolute crap and won’t get any work done, will ghost mainly everyone and i’m overall depressed, then for a week or a day I’ll have this HUGE day full of energy and happiness out of nowhere and it feels so fucking amazing. Like being high without drugs.

My moods are so intense like it’s either 110% or 0%. Right now i’m at a 0%. 

I have many more symptoms but don’t feel like writing it all right now so i’ll probably just edit this post later.