Not even pain...I'm beyond tired of it all I just..need it all to end. For God if any, have mercy on me and bring an end to my meaningless existence..I'm that desperate..Suffering doesn't even move me anymore. I have nothing, I've abandoned everything to the point I'm just making things up...I can't even cry...bring myself to any emotion really...I just don't know and the things I do now don't even seem insane to me anymore. Ig I've let go of that to, perhaps my humanity as a whole...as long as I live the more I mentally deteriorate but regardless of knowing that I'll never take my life..my head hurts