I hate this disorder, it done nothing but completely destroy my relationship with my wife and daughter. After another bad night(won’t go into detail) I’m sitting here on my own alone wondering if things will ever get better but I strongly believe it never will. I’m absolutely terrified about never seeing my wife and child again and it’s eating me up inside. I don’t know what good it’ll do writing this but I just need form of support before I have a total breakdown.