Honestly, the quote "You've become the very thing you swore not to be" describes my situation perfectly. I go on saying, "I do not like these kinds of people and I'll try not to be one" and it seems like I am the person I hate. And here rises the question, do I hate those people because they are similar to me? Or do I hate myself because I have the traits of those who I hate?

For example, I hate anyone who uses their weakness as an excuse, and wow, that's exactly what I'm doing here. Or anyone overly prideful, and because I know that I'm the one who believes the most in myself despite hating myself... how the heck do I kill this person