I don't know what to do with my life. I'm in college with four years left and I don't like being there. I do bare minimum effort and struggle with anxiety over failing exams and whatnot. It affects my life outside school negatively. I just want to fast forward til I'm done which leads me to believe something is wrong. It shouldn't be like that. It's supposed to be fun along the way.

It was the same with high school. I just wanted it to be over with but to what reason? I feel like once I'm done in college I will have the same feeling again and again til I'm old and realized I wasted my life.

At the same time I don't feel like I can quit either because I've already invested one year into this which I know isn't much really in relation to how long I have left. And without studying, all suitable jobs are low income (which is a big concern to me as I'm unfortunately very materialistic) and probably too repetitive in the long run for me.

It's not that I dislike my field (IT) because I can't really think of any other field that would be better for me. I just want to go to school and have the easiest time of my life doing barely nothing and just hanging out with friends. Not have to actively think. Maybe I'm mentally burned out?

I'm not sure if this is a symtom of depression or the cause of it. Maybe a mixture of both. Should I seek help?