I have been in a constant battle with depression for the last 11 years. I thought (and hoped) that maybe the trigger was the country I lived in. I moved there when I was 11 years old and that's when everything started going to shit.

I felt alone, stupid and very scared. I thought my depression was caused by this move and the unfriendly attitude of the people who were born there. I thought if I got out, maybe I'd have a chance of finally getting over this.

Now I'm in another country and I still feel like shit. And I don't know how to face the reality that the problem is me and that as long as I stay with me, those feelings are never going to go away. I'm still seeing my therapist and trying to get better but I've been feeling so hopeless lately. I don't know what to do.