Every single time I get a job I'm really proud of myself for the first couple weeks and start really enjoying it. Then it starts becoming such a anxiety inducing task to go in everyday and calling and having to talk to a real person gives me even more anxiety. It's my second day in a row just not showing up or calling in. I tell myself I'll go back tomorrow but honestly who knows? I could get a new job but I don't want to have to go through every single place I could possibly work. If I get a new job I'm just going to be restarting the cycle. I can't keep doing this. When I start getting into actual career stuff I'm going to have so many issues. I just don't know what to do anymore. I want to have a job but I can't keep doing this to myself.