i have so many problems with the mental health industry as a whole but i don't feel like explaining all of that right now. i just want advice on how to get "better" (as in, make things more manageable, i know my issues will never go away completely) without people just yelling at me to see a therapist or psychiatrist. but my problem is that there are so many things wrong with me that it doesn't feel like i fit in anywhere. nobody understands. all people do is tell me to talk to someone, get on medication (and i've done both of those things many times, the reason i gave up on that is because it has failed me every single time), or try to (incorrectly) diagnose me based on one little thing.

i just want communities with people who experience the same things as me. and i'm able to find a few, but it still doesn't cover everything i experience and i end up feeling completely alone. it's not my fault my symptoms are all over the place. i don't care about the labels, i just want to fit in somewhere. i'm looking for alternative ways to get help and the best way i've found for that is to find others who experience the same exact thing, but because most people i find only experience one or two of the things i go through, they're not able to help with all of it. and the other things i experience, i have nowhere to go without people being absolute fucking idiots about it and trying to diagnose me with every single thing. and then some things i just haven't found anyone else who experiences it. not a single person who understands.

i don't know where to go to find what i need. literally fucking no one understands. i don't know why it's so hard to find people who do understand because i know i'm not the only person who experiences most of the things i do, but why is it so difficult to find them? it's not fair. and i know most of the people reading this post won't understand, they'll think they do but they won't.