I’m trying not to cry so i can go back to sleep. 

Yet all i can do is think about how anxious I’m gonna be at a strangers house. Literally my anxiety is not ready for this. Plus this means my cat has to be home alone all day. 

Yea it’s my uncle, but were still strangers. First of all, he literally has cheated on his wife multiple times and she’s caught him, my values are completely against playing family with men like that. 

It’s an hour away. I can’t drive there because it’s an hour away. More anxiety… going to a town i never even heard of… why are we doing this? I really wanna know why we’re doing this. 

Yes, i can def decline to go, but it wouldn’t go over easy with my mom.. because of past trauma i am still  learning how to properly deal with her being mad at me. Idk….. 

It seems like nothing maybe but I’m really anxious rn …