so today started off well, my boyf was texting me for once. We were then talking about what we should do tomorrow when we hangout. And I was like we should have sex lmao. It was all jokey and stuff but he was like no, and I was like plssssss. And yeah. I got really upset. I hope this doesn’t come out as wrong like I know if people don’t want to have sex, they don’t. You don’t coerce them or try to talk them into it and stuff. But it’s more like we’ve never actually had sex, only like some other stuff. But he straight up doesn’t wanna do it with me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I asked him if I was too ugly, or what I did wrong, or if I did something, etc etc and I told him I didn’t understand and he said “ I don’t know”. Like there has to be something with me, and I don’t understand what it is. He said he still likes me in that sense. I just don’t fucking understand guys and I want to cry. Nothing about my life is normal. I just want stability and a fucking partner that will talk to me see me more and do sauce and I feel crazy maybe I’m being over dramatic. Maybe I should breakup with him but I can’t let go of people I just can’t. I love him so much too