My dad and I haven't really spoken to each other since my suicide attempt a year ago. My mom and I are super close and she just sort of acts as a go between for my dad and I. 

Mom just started a new job and has to go on a business trip for training. I'm going to be alone with just my dad for this entire week. I feel like I'm a giant disappointment to him and that he just sort of hates me. I'm actually scared to death of the man, even though he's never beaten me or even yelled at me that much. It's that black and white thinking. I've grown up viewing my dad as the bad guy, and now I'm with the bad guy for a whole week and I'm scared to death. 

Please someone just tell me there's a silver lining to this, or at least give me a reason not to freak out. 