The irony is I just got ghosted out of a long term relationship. She sent a somewhat important text before removing me from everything besides text, and after a constantly fighting and me apologizing but rarely does relationship, I called it quits. I can't date someone who's gonna ghost me without a conversation because it breaks my trust. 
I felt like the whole relationship was on her terms and I was going insane because I couldn't bring myself to leave after my counselor, and friends and family told me to. But now I feel so alone and not worth being loved, which is why I stayed so long I guess. I don't know what to feel. I told her I had my psych evaluation today. Woke up ghosted, managed to go to the evaluation, got diagnosed with BPD. What a day. Any advice before I have my inevitable mental break down that could last week's?