i just need to say i don’t have BPD and i am super sorry that i am on here when i don’t, i have OCD and ADHD and just feel like this subreddit would have the most people that would be able to support and help me. have this intrusive and obsessive thought that on day my family/parents/friends will have enough of me and will stop caring and looking after and talking to me, i got sat down by my parents 10 minutes ago and they kept talking to me and i don’t even remember what they said but it made me so defensive and i said to them “i wonder how long it will take for you guys to stop talking to me like our uncle” my uncle has paranoid schizophrenia and definitely has narcissist traits, and everyone in our family doesn’t like him and constantly talks shit about him all of the time solely because they have tried to help him and “doesn’t want it” or they are too compassion fatigued. i just feel so upset i can’t believe i said this to them, of course i don’t mean it and i would hope they would be there for me forever, it was just so impulsive and stupid of me i am such an idiot, it had just been on my mind for ages because it’s just a trend if noticed in families with someone who has severe mental illnesses, i know it’s probably me being anxious but i have just fucked up so bad, my mum just immediately started crying and my dad told me “that is the most hurtful thing you could of ever said to us” i just feel so shit about it and they told me that it’s unforgivable and there’s nothing i could say or do to say sorry. idk why i’m coming here i don’t even have bpd i just feel like that breaking bridges and saying impulsive and in the moment things is a part of bpd and i just feel like anyone who has it would understand where i am coming from and that i would never of meant it