Quick background: M19, living with anxiety for 5 years. It really influenced my eating patterns to the point of having a bmi of 16. I am trying to get rid of the anxiety and get out of my comfort zone more for 2 years ish. But last year I got a collapsed lung and I didn't do much for like almost a whole year because they didn't want to give me surgery right away and after surgery a long recovery and such.
Well now I am in the deepest hole ever and I don't know how to get out of it. Went to the doctor because of my anxiety and I got a referral for some kind of counsellor (dont know the english translation). Also went to a dietician. Both helped a bit but nothing really changed. Now got a referral for a therapeut specialised in eating disorders. I dont think I have an eating disorder but my counsellor said that it is the best for me.

The problem is that it all takes so much time and energy. It feels like every step I take is followed by 2 back. My parents are getting fed up with everything because I rely on them too much. They dont know how I feel and keep saying I should "just do things" and otherwise they will force me. This puts a lot of pressure on me worsens my anxiety.
They also call me lazy and say that I need to "man up".

My college starts in September and I really want to just have my life together by then, but I don't think I will manage to do so with the current trajectory I am heading in...

I could really use some suggestions rn..