idk what to do. i had a horrible week with loads of unhealthy behaviour but i managed to pull myself together yesterday since i knew i would have therapy today and get the support i lacked all week. however  my therapist just looked at the diary card and got hung up on some details but we didn't talk about what my major issue was thus week. i also have a family event tomorrow that i'm totally overwhelmed with but we didn't have tjme to talk about that. that plus all the things that have been piling up. and having noone to turn to, cause i don't have any friends, i just don't know what to do. everything feels pointless. i had so much hope that today would help me get back to a least functioning but that didn't happen. i'm sitting in the restroom unable to go home. i'm really scared what i will do with these feeling but i can't tell my therapist that i'm feeling not safe cause she's with another patient. plus she would be mad cause i couldn't tell her how i felt 10 minutes ago. also my last in-patient stay was just little over a month ago and i can't go again already, especiallysince i didn'treally work on myself, so it'smy fault. i just don't know what to do.