I keep meeting people at meetups that are just plain weird or give me red flags. Most people don't make sense to me.

I miss having my ex, he lied and cheated, but at least he understood me and made sense. He also hated most people like I did, no one made sense to him either. We at least had each other. I just wish he didn't cheat or tell me that I was a waste of life.

I'd rather be dead than alone. I can't live like this.