I've known I have autism for a pretty long time now. I fucking hate it. I feel so below everyone like they have to lower themselves to be with me. I feel so unloveable I don't think someone could love me because I'm too different from them. Being surrounded by people with autism only makes me feel worse. In school I am put into classes that I don't need just because I have autism. It's so embarrasing being seen going into that class. I don't want one of my friends seeing me go there and thinking less of me. It's so hard trying to find someone who understands. My friends without autism just won't understand how I feel. My friends with it just don't feel the same way I do about it. I just want to be like everyone else. I want to be normal. I can't ever be normal. Autism isn't just something you can cure. I hate how I'm stuck with this thing that makes me worse than everyone.