i'm 26 and i live with my parents, all i can do is wasting everyday on the pc. 

i can't keep a job for more then 3 months cause it makes me feel to depressed,  but I am aware that I cannot continue like this and it makes me feel worse and worse.   suicidal thoughts and anxiety have increased latetly,  in the last month I have tried to earn money on the internet through various methods (all failed) and I have lost all the savings I had on my account (3k), sending the balance in negative. Now I have to give my parents yet another disappointment. I just want to kill myself but I don't have the courage, I can't stop thinking about the shock my parents would have if they would find me dead. I'm just a miserable parasite