I’m so fucking tired of people telling me that’s it’s my own choice to be happy.
No it’s fucking not. This nightmare is so real that i would amputate both of my legs sitting in a wheelchair the rest of my life.
I always tell people that and they are like “of course you wouldn’t”

I want to be happy more than anything else.

No one from my family understands me. They are like “why so negative” and they tell me I destroy the mood in every situation and yeah. I’m the problem of everything due to my family.

Omg i wish i wouldn’t wake up after this night. It hurts so much.

Goodnight borderline fellas.