I wish I could just attempt suicide again but I’m too scared to because of the possibility of failing. I’ve failed 5+ attempts before so I obviously can’t do it right. Life is so painful. Nothing goes right and to top it off I just make my own life and everyone else’s lives even worse. I make bad decisions that hurt me and other people. I don’t know how to respect myself. I’m stuck in an endless loop of hating myself and my life and I can’t get out of it. Someone help me please.