I just cant bring myself to do it. I have thought out every detail on multiple ways to commit suicide, but my parents are on vacation so that would be a dick move. And i don’t have the energy to even breathe. So instead i’m hitting myself repeatedly in the head with a metal clip on a rope, or pulling my hair very hard, slamming my fists in the wall until i dont have the energy to continue or slam myself in my head with my fists for hours on end. Is there anything worse than living? If hell is real then i’m already in it. And i don’t even have a reason to do these things. I just do them and cant stop