Last night my mood was in the toilet. I was irritable, hopeless, and have had urges to hurt myself. The whole thing erupted when I had a full blown temper tantrum. I’ve been spending the whole day recovering. I know my mood takes nose dives like this from time to time and I don’t have the mental resources to deal with it short of drugging myself to sleep. But when I go down, I take others down with me as they’re forced to take care of me. I feel horribly selfish for putting people in that position. Beyond that I lose a day to recovery and need extra care. I’m trying to start therapy ASAP, but I don’t think I have the inner resources to save myself. I know my mood is my own. But can I really expect my friends, family, and loved ones to understand and be there when I take a nosedive? Should I?