I wanted to share a win with likeminded people today, because I know you'll understand! 

About 9 days ago I got drunk for the last time. I was not an alcoholic, but a problem drinker. Didn't drink super often (maybe 1-2 times a week) but if I got drunk I had episodes, self harming etc etc. 9 days ago I told myself no more, and decided to stay sober, even over the holidays and christmas period! 

The way I'm staying excited about this is making sure I go and buy some really lovely non alcoholic wines for christmas so I can still enjoy a 'bottle of bubbly' with everyone else. It's Monday today, and the weekend just gone I went to the pub to watch a sports event without any alcohol and just had a lemon lime and bitters. 

Another win is that today, I started anti anxiety medication. I've needed it my whole adult life but I have a real phobia of medications. At one point in my life I couldn't even take over the counter painkillers because I was too scared. No event started this, I just developed this fear over time with my illness worsening. 

The last few years I've gotten better at taking vitamins, painkillers if need be. And today I went to the doctor, got a low dose anti anxiety medication, and started it today. For some people this is the very first thing they try, but for me this is a HUGE HUGE step and I'm so proud of myself. I've done so much work at therapy and group sessions but I need medication to be okay, even just a low dose. My panic disorder and social anxiety physically effects my health. So this is a huge positive step. I just wanted to share it with people who would understand.

I'd love to hear your successes, please share them with me! :)