I didn't take my meds this morning because I drank coffee with Bailey's in it and I'm not supposed to drink around the same time I take my meds. I've been drinking all day though, so I just haven't taken my meds at all. Also, I've been off one of my mood stabilizers for over a month because I never could find time or energy to go refill it, and once I finally did go to the pharmacy, the pharmacy was closed because of hurricane Ida.

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I am on so many meds its so hard to keep track of and I hate it. I got on all of these meds in mid 2020 and since June 2020, I have gained 70 pounds. Yes...70. I guess the weight gain is partly why im not the most responsible about taking my meds. It just makes me mad. I don't recognize my body. I don't feel like myself at all. 

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My therapist and psychiatrist both don't think I should get off my meds...but I've been skipping a lot of days of taking that, and besides that, there's that one med that I haven't even taken since July. It's just all too much. 

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I'm miserable and don't know where to go from here.