It's been a year and a half almost. In the very beginning, he cheated on me by asking other women online for attention and nudes. Hes also masturbated while I'd be in the other room doing my own thing or taking depression naps. He hasn't done any of this in a while but I cant help but feel unwanted in many ways. I've been going through a really rough patch for the past few months with severe results in life and a lot of stress on him. Now, I wouldn't blame him if he did cheat on me. No one wants to be with crazy. But I'm getting better, I've been doing good, I think.  Exercising, taking my meds, getting out of the house, all that.
 He very rarely compliments even when I prompt it or simply ask for something he likes about me. He doesn't care for foreplay on me during sex and with the types of porn he likes, I don't compare physically. Which I know, doesn't mean anything realistically, but it does to me. 
But he is very quick to point out ways I'm annoying or little things I do wrong, but can never seem to balance it out with anything nice. I feel I've maybe we're both messed up, but I'm also just like... what are we doing here? What's the goal of this relationship. And he just can't communicate a reason to me. He doesn't communicate much period, which is just taxing on me as it is. I dont know. I'm just ranting here, I suppose. Maybe not feel alone??