I'm 16 and i've been going to therapy for about 8 months. I've been officially diagnosed for depression and anxiety so far. My entire life i've been aggressive and had terrible fights with my mom and now that i'm older they've gotten even worse. Some of this aggressiveness has even gotten into my relationship with my boyfriend.
I'm aware that growing up i've had some anger issues. I was bullied, didn't have many friends, parents got divorced. Ofc i had plenty to be mad about. Even though i don't think about these things often anymore i'm just easily angered in general. When i apologize for my anger and stubbornness i feel like most of the time i'm not even sincere. I want to be but i'm just not. I even lie about a lot of things i don't need to lie about. Everything i want to change and apologize for, it just doesn't change. My mom tells me that from birth i was pretty mean. I would turn away from her when she tried to kiss me, and would scream about anything and everything (not crying, straight up screaming). Other people i interact with would think i'm sweet, smart, a little shy but easy to talk to. It's not that i'm pretending to be that way either, I can be really nice. My family probably wants to think that this is just me being some rebellious hormonal teen but the problem is i've always been this way. And i feel like it's going to ruin my life. what the hell is wrong with me?