My brain has been telling me lately that everyone hates me, and I'm not significant in people's lives. I have only one person other than my s/o that actually makes an effort to talk to me and be my friend. I've tried making chats for old friends I've attempted to reconnect with and only one there really chats with me, game invites go unanswered all around. I've tried and sending friend requests to a few people lately to branch out and don't get accepted. I suggested playing a game with another person on my Facebook when I switched to PC gaming and got no reply whatsoever.

Logically I know most of this can be chalked up to people being busy and having lives, but at what point is it just ridiculous? I mean, with the amount of rejection I've received, it has me suspicious that it's not that everyone just hates me. And it's so hard for me to reach out in the first place as I feel like my presence is just annoying and if people wanted to hang out with me they'd say so. If not I'm so insecure that I feel like they just want me to go away, so I usually completely disconnect and isolate to protect myself from the feelings of hurt and rejection.

I don't get it. But I've been longing the connections that friendship brings as I haven't felt it in many years. I'm about to give up, though.