i feel like my head is going to explode, i just need someone to talk to but i don’t want to put all my feelings onto someone as i know i’ll just lash out (bpd) and i don’t want to lash out on people i love, but i’m just tired, as i did was cry today, i have so much stress, my car is broken and i need to get it fix, it’s gonna cost alot, my dad is getting mad at all, tells me to stop crying, doesn’t understand i’m still young, i’ve never had to deal with a car breaking til now, im only 19, he just keeps telling me i’m crying for no reason, making me feel pathetic, im a very emotional person, i cry when talking about most things, and i wish i didn’t but it’s who i am and i try so hard not to but i can’t, i just cry, and he made me feel like shit, and my work is making me feel even worse, im an apprentice at my job, been doing it for 8 months, and my boss ignored for for 5 hours, i wasn’t sure what to do, i was asking him for help and i got ignored, i wany to work hard, i really do, but they just give me no work, i feel worthless like a waste of space at work, im fucking miserable at my job, they make me feel like i’m a chore to have employed, when they employed me, why did they employ me if they didn’t need me? i think it’s honestly just one of those days, but i tried talking to my friend about it and she ignored the part where i said i cried all day, and started banging on about how with a new car i need to watch engine sizes, im not buying a new car for months, she didn’t even comment on the fact i’ve been crying all day, she just kept telling me what i need to do when buying a new car, when my literal boyfriend is a car nerd and i would go to him, she was just talking to me as if i knew nothing about cars, it just made me feel shit you know i’m crying all day and all you can talk about is how i need to make sure my engine is big enough, like cheers, i just went off the conversation, i have very little friends i can talk to, my old best friend has kinda pushed me to the side for her boyfriend and then i have my boyfriend but i’m always putting my sadness on him i worry if i keep doing it, it will push him away, i just want to be heard and listened to