A big part of my BPD is not knowing if I am valid in my emotions. I am always unsure if I am over reacting. Or if my truth means something. If I am being dramatic? Or this is something I should do. I constantly seek outside validation and never know if decisions I make are right. The BPD monster is hard and she doesn’t have a sense of worth. After my diagnosis I noticed that these thoughts heighten. I’m feeling overwhelmed with my diagnosis and the more I feel like I know less about myself? 

Are some of the relationships I’ve been in self harm? Or did they love me? Did I even love them or was it just me being impulsive? 

BPD is so confusing