I really need help. I have a problem with lying. Ive been telling blatant lies since i can remember, maybe 1st grade. Over stupid things, like if I stole graham crackers, i would look my parents in the eye and say no even tho my mouth was half way caked shut in graham crackers. Its evolved into now, where Ive been tell this girl, who I believe to be my soulmate, that ive been getting help and seeing doctors and taking medication, when all I do all day is just sit on my ass playing stupid games and tell her that i had a telemedicine appointment when really it was nothing. She actually cares about my mental health and I just lie right to her face. Am i a psychopath, am I autistic?  Like I want to kill myself for the lies that i told her but then she might kill herself, and thats not what i want to happen, but i feel like the only reason i exist right now is because of her