i'm sorry to email you, but I'm concerned and earlier I couldn't find privacy to discuss details.

I'm seeing things. Colour changes, distortions. They last no more than 20 seconds. I am aware of it. I know it's not real. I hear whispering, crying, laughing. It can last hours. To tune it out I have music playing constantly. I sometimes (rarely) hear myself think odd thoughts. They are very disturbing. I don't believe its a natural thought. It doesn't tell me to do anything, I am not delusional. But it says odd "facts" like "My name drowned today and has died". I'm nowhere near water

I promise I am in no danger. This has been going on years and to this level, several month's. It's disturbing, but I am in complete control and I am aware all of this is not real.

I can't sleep because of the noises. Sometimes I experience flashbacks.

I understand I have CPTSD and borderline personality disorder. But i don't believe this is related. I believe something else is going on and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sad, exhausted. I get less than 3hrs sleep every night. If I can be prescribed zopiclone or diazepam for a a week at most I would like that. But I understand that both are addictive.

Sorry for the long email but please tell Dr (Old psychiatrist) this. I need a mood stabilizer desperately, and maybe a different antipsychotic. I can't cope with all this for another 6-12months.

Thank you. Sorry