Why is it so hard to do anything when you are having a breakdown?
My brain is exploding with thoughts and I don’t know how to make them stop.
I have to work and yet I have no energy to get out of my bed.
Sometimes you feel you are in control and can manage your depressive episodes but today I again lost my will to keep on doing.
I have a deadline tomorrow and I am having negative thoughts about myself because I hurt someone I loved and I don’t know how to undo the hurt. I just want to punish myself for not being the best version of myself or not knowing how to be good.
I wish I could erase myself from the person’s memory so they can be happy.
I just wish I could not exist so it would be easy.
Its hard to live with the fact the person you love is hurting because of you everyday.