I was casually boredom browsing Facebook as we do and I saw a photo of him and his mother on a siblings Facebook from years ago. I shouldnt have gone on her page. I should honestly block her as I don't have her as a friend.

I was sifting there processing how she could do what she's done to him. It hurts me so much. I'm trying to help him learn how to be loved and it's challenging especially with my bpd. Sometimes I'm kinda complainy when stressed. And I forget all this hurt he went through when younger and it just makes me so upset.

We were talking yesterday about something as a kid and he told me how much it hurt when he had to have a treatment done. He could see in my face that what he said happened wasn't normal. It wasn't a thing that was done. It was just her way of physically hurting him. And it was horrible. And he had no idea until then that it was something other kids didn't go through. And I'm just sobbing. I went through trauma myself but never anything like that. He's not with me atm but I literally just gave him so many hugs. He's such a kind hearted person and I just feel so bad.