I have been quite overwhelmed with university over the last couple of months, with never-ending assignments, a research proposal and mentally preparing for a placement in May. It is now the Easter holidays, and my assignments are all complete. I am finally not under direct stress, or dealing with anxiety about an impending deadline, and yet I somehow feel more anxious than before? 

I am supposed to use this time to relax and yet I feel guilty for "doing nothing," though I have nothing that I need to do. I am trying to keep myself busy by cleaning the house, watching netflix, walking the dog etc. but I just can't seem to relax. I have very little motivation to do the hobbies that I enjoy. I am so anxious about things that are weeks away, and I don't know what to do with myself. 

I live with my other half and we have been in lockdown since Christmas, and I've been in this little secure bubble that's suddenly been burst. He just started back full time on Monday and suddenly I am spending a lot of time at home alone with the dog. We have a very healthy and happy relationship and he is very understanding. I don't yearn for him to come home or anything, but it is a lovely, warm distraction when he is here. In theory I am excited to see my friends and family again, but the thought of actually making plans or going anywhere makes me feel exhausted. My anxiety manifests in chest pain and it genuinely hurts/aches almost constantly. I am teary a lot of the time. 

I am not sure what I intend to get out of posting here, but I will happily take any advice, or anything really. I just don't know what to do with myself.