I don’t know how to feel right now. I feel like giving up on everything and just crawling into a hole. 

I feel like my life is aimless and I haven’t accomplished anything. If I were to die tomorrow it wouldn’t affect anyones lives. 

I feel like my wife doesn’t love me anymore. She want to go out to dinner with her ex boyfriend no I’m just not comfortable with this. When she brought it up with her parents that she was talking to her ex they said “oh yes! The big love of your life!”

I feel like I’m not taking care of myself enough. I’m not sure exactly what this means, but I feel less than. Less than everything. Like I don’t matter. 

I guess I’m just having a rough week and and to just have it stop. I want to stop everything and just go to sleep. 

I want to cry all the time and it’s rough to be. I want to go to bed and hide from everything. I want to just cease to be. 

I talk to my therapist soon so maybe they will help, but I doubt it. I just feel beyond help right now.