Hi. I've been peaked through here many times, it's my first time to actually post something. Through tons of reserch, It hasn't been a while that I'm convinced that I'm borderline. 
I came all the way from East Asia to Canada, hoping that I would start a brand new life here. The first thing I was going to do was enrolling a school so that I can earn a degree and land a job, hopefully i won't go back to where i came from. I originally had worked in airline company as a stewardess but couldn't bear the pressure and conflicts with my co-workers. So I quit my job thinking that the job was not for me. Now I'm interested in studying computer science because I thought I could more focus on my own stuff, and my work capability would be more important than the politics at work. That said, everything was going great until my friend came to see me to Canada. Everything was on the right track and I was going to start studying at school from next year January. I met him last year and went out on a date few times when I was visiting the US. It turned out he still has a feeling for me. I was confused at the first time but ended up spending a whole week together as though we were a couple. After he left, I started to justify myself Canada isn't the right place for me because I felt so lonely alone here. I felt so empty after he left. So I'm about to cancel my acceptance to the school here and seriously considering moving to the US to get back together with him and study. I would say It's not 100% because of him because there could be more opportunities than Canada and I also have relatives there(But I have falling out with them since last year due to the huge argument). Do you guys think I'm being irrational or making a right decision? Should I just step back and have some time before making a decision or just start studying at school here.. I'm not asking you to decide on my life tho because I know I didn't provide every detail.. Thanks in advance .