I think I cope better in the winter, because at least the weather matches my mood and I feel okay with staying indoors by myself. Now the summer has come around and I have this constant feeling of loneliness and dread. 

I'm also feeling the sadness of loss, as last summer I was in a new relationship with someone I had really taken my time to get to now, enjoying a lot of relationship firsts and a summer holiday together. Now I feel the loneliness more than ever.

I have this feeling that I am supposed to fill my summer with fun activities but I don't really have anything planned. No travelling. Even if I wanted to, I feel I don't have anyone to go with.

I'm looking for advice I guess, I want to not feel like this every year.