im done. i push away everyone i love. and i fuck up every good chance i have. i squander every good opportunity that i have, im lazy as fuck and im stressed. im in college classes and im only 15- im failing. im failing normal school. im not able to even feel emotion anymore. my parents forced me to take all these classes and with all the extra stress im worried i wont even be able to graduate. everyone who i know hates me or will hate me or has hated me, and it my fault. i hate who i am. im only 15 and im already sure that ive successfully ruined my entire life already. i've cut before, and im sure ill do it again, maybe even tonight. and stuff has to get better, because there is no way it can get worse.