I hate this about myself and I'm pretty sure it's tied to my BPD but it makes me so unhappy. Basically nothing interests me unless it involves drinking, drugs, or sex. No one in my life enjoys doing things like that so I don't have any friends to go to bars and clubs with and they all judge me for having casual sex. I don't know what it is. I would genuinely prefer to spend all my weekends at nightclubs than doing wholesome or relaxing activities. I really wish I could change because it's caused me to start viewing everyone in my life as boring. 