I started part time work a month ago and its a customer service job. I'm severely introverted and I really HATE people. I hate answering phones, I hate constantly having to speak, I hate having to be personable and "on" like im in a fucking show. I dread every shift and just cry, I don't know how to not be stressed.

My family says I lack socialization and that's why I'm anxious. At 28 they dictate my choice of job because I wanted WFH. I have no car anyway. So I thought a job is a job and they'd be happy. Nope. "You need an in person job to socialize with others" the hours are long, the pay is shit, and it's thankless. My social battery is absolutely drained my first day back from a weekend.

I'm miserable. 

Im looking into therapy because my thoughts are starting to scare me. I keep questioning why I'm alive if I can't be my own person. Anxiety and my family just rule my life. 

If people just left me alone and let me be who I'd like to be, I think I would be much much happier. I'm introverted and shy. That's not a crime. I'm not some feral animal who acts a certain way with humans. I know how to socialize, I'd prefer not to. I shouldn't be crucified for that.