I drink more when I'm off work but I think I'm becoming a alcoholic. I get excited when I plan to drink but then I realise, I don't have a social life or anyone to drink with because my partner doesn't even drink. So I'm left drinking on my own and watching the TV or playing video games by myself, numbly while my brain spirals the same thoughts. To add to that it takes me a lot to get drunk so I waste a lot of money on alcohol but I always love the buzz. It numbs any feelings of pity I have left for people or even myself so I can feel whole.