I don’t really feel the need to make this into a long post, but I need to put it somewhere. I was ghosted by someone I care for greatly and it’s literally making me anxious to my core. 

I am being eaten alive by my thoughts that are essentially: “You fucked up and you’ll never know why.” “All you do and all you’ll ever do is drive people away.” “You’re too suffocating, you don’t give the people you care about space to breathe.” 

Obviously I know these things aren’t true.. Or at least I don’t think they are. But my thoughts never stop, they literally keep me awake at night. I spun myself into a full-blown mental breakdown on Sunday night regarding these thoughts. 

I just needed to tell someone. Thanks…