So my school just started and I was very anxious about what was going to happen, but it turned out to be alright. I kind of made friends there, I think. and I hope we will be friends. I'm still awkward at socializing and I'm very shy, but still, it's an improvement for me to talk to someone because I'm not really a friendly person. But the thing is, after school I get home and I'll be alone in my room and I really don't know how I'm feeling about this. I just feel so sad. I know many people have it a lot harder than me, but these are my feelings. I don't know why I'm super down these days, especially this week. Because of this, I can't get enough sleep. I couldn't eat much. And when I'm in school, I often choke or I'm literally going to puke. I want to get better and healthier, but I can't get out of this routine. I'm really sad that it's going to kill me. It just sucks.