Hey so first I'm not diagnosed yet but I probably have bpd. And I know it comes with fear of abandonment, but can it go the other way around ? I actually want to leave people who care about me, to tell them that our relationship is over, because I feel like I can only hurt them and also they don't really care about me anyway and they'll be better off without me. 
Is this a bpd thing or is it something else ?  Does anyone else feels this way ? 