These suicidal thoughts are on the rise again. All I've wanted from life was to find someone who loves me but it just appears to be fruitless. Any chance I've had with a woman was blown by me being an awkward dipshit who hasn't experienced anything in life due to agoraphobia. It just makes me wonder will there ever be a light at the end of this tunnel or will it always be night. The tingly sensation of despair I get in my stomach when I think about my life truly makes me wonder, will I keep going or just give up and accept my fate.

I've no-one to talk to about what's going on, I'm honestly just tired of it all