I can't forgive anyone anything, everything hurts me and I feel attacked when I'm not. I feel like nothing can go not-wrong and I don't even want to try anymore.

I'm slowly falling apart and I can't even stay sober anymore because I can't even keep calm.

Anyways...I guess I just wanted to ask how do you all handle all those everyday annoying stuff...my roommate tells me to "become aware of myself" but that shit is meaningless to me. I understand the chain of events that lead from the big bang to the current moment but I just hate the world as it is... Idgaf about why is it like that. If there's a creator he's a fuckin sadist.