I falsely tell my friends and family that everything about my life is fine, when it's really not. I'm a lonely sack of shit who is probably gonna stay that way. 

I'm pretty sure I have bipolar since I show a lot of the telltale signs and my dad has it, so that only makes things harder because a lot of people judge me based on whenever I get provoked. They never get how I really am since they'll take one glance at me and think I'm an asshole.

I'm probably gonna end up deleting this after 10 minutes out of shame but I don't really have anywhere else to express my feelings.