For the past ten years I’ve managed to stay in the same relationship because he understands me so well and has been so patient with me. He also helped raise my two daughters from an abusive relationship and has been an amazing father. I so stupidly found another favorite person and for some reason thought I would be happier so I left him. Now that the favorite person phase is waning I feel so heartbroken. My ex is really the only family other than my daughters I have and I’ve completely fucked everything up. I know I have to carry on for my daughters but I just feel so dead right now and have no support and only myself to blame and The pain is so unbearable and I know the BPD is just causing my brain to live in the moment and that’s why I feel like dying but it doesn’t make it any easier. How do you guys cope when you’re feeling like your world is falling apart?