i am angry at my fp. we have not had proper conversation in a month. i had dinner with them for rosh hashana and we've seen each other like twice since then. it hurts!!!

i admitted to myself that i am in love with them in september. we haven't talked about this specifically.

i know they're busy. this i can rationalize. however, that doesn't make me feel better that in the past two weeks they have only messaged me first once. this month has dragged on now that three weeks ago feels like years since their full attention was no longer mine.

we used to call each other for hours almost every single night and they would come over at least once a week. when their classes started up again in august i know they've been busy and i know they've been dealing with a lot but i feel like something's changed. i asked them specifically if something had changed and they said they haven't been feeling themselves lately (i'm paraphrasing).

i am hurt and i am angry at my fp and they probably don't even know they're my fp.