I'm in one. I slept for a whole day yesterday. I didn't want to leave the land of sleep.  I wanted to continue to pretend I wasn't in this world anymore. I hoped I wouldn't wake  up. The feeling of relentless sadness wouldn't leave. My boyfriend made me finally get up and we're drinking coffee and watching King of the Hill.... I've wanted to leave this world since I was 15 years old. I wonder if I'll ever value my own life. I'm trying today, though. I'm going grocery shopping with a friend. I'm going to the bank. I'm forcing myself to do all the adult things I need to do. With a deep breath. How do you all cope with these feelings?