I have constant reminders of moments when I've done or said something embarrassing around people, typically friends, and just want to cut them out for good at that instant. Often times it's just minor things, like feeling shitty for being stingy once or accidentally making an insensitive joke, but I can't help but feel embarrassed and insecure of what they think of me (and if they even remember the event as clearly as I do). I put a lot of pressure on myself to avoid these imperfect moments, but doing so often backfires. When I've failed socially, I feel like the only solution is to go ghost and start over with someone new. How do I let go of this urge and also stop making such an ass of myself?