This is very shameful for me to talk about, but I am prone to violent fits of rage and it's really, really getting out of hand. The last one was a couple of days ago. I was upset because my boyfriend refused to visit me in the hospital because he was drunk. It turns out nothing was seriously wrong with me, so I was discharged from the hospital shortly after we got in a fight on Facebook. I really, really did NOT want to blow up at him, so I decided to walk the couple of miles back to our house listening to music trying to calm down.

Well, when I got home, there was an acquaintance of ours there who I really don't care for and because I was already upset, it set me off. I started screaming at my boyfriend and kicked a hole through our bedroom door.  :| It's embarrassing because our roommates were there and now they probably think I'm a fucking psycho. :(

I'm very destructive when I get like that, I completely destroyed our basement door because I got in a fight with my boyfriend, so I grabbed my knife and chased him up the stairs and he tried to lock me in the basement. I need to do something, or I'm going to kill someone some day lol :( (not joking)
