I guess I don't really know where to write this, I am recently diagnosed with BPD as of January of this year. I kind of already knew I had it based on conversations i've had in therapy a couple years back (just started DBT again after 3 years). I am falling down a hole again with my depression and my BPD is telling me I am making this up and finding an excuse to be depressed. I also sometimes wonder if I am depressed because others in my life are. I find that I am empty and running out of options and I just need an escape. I am on the center line of both happy and upset so much that I don't even know who I am anymore. 

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Sorry for the vent but I am confused and I am about to give up.