I’m still working up on my meds. I had an amazing last couple of weeks where I actually felt stable and productive- but not hypo at all- just ABLE to do things. It was really foreign and wonderful to me.
Then depression and emotional overload hit me like a ton of bricks. I wanted to die and everything was hopeless and horrible and I had a sobby fight with my husband about all the shit I feel when I’m depressed or dysphoric. I was still getting some things done but still feeling like I just wanted to sleep it off at the same time.
It lasted about 2-3 days and now I’m feeling a bit better. I guess it’s too soon to see if it’ll just be a blip on my mood chart or if I’ll stay low for a bit. 

But - for anyone who’s found stability, do you still have blips of ups and downs that you can then get under control? 

I’m just wondering what stability can actually look like. I’m mildly aware that for Bipolar folk it doesn’t mean we’re just like everyone else… we still have to struggle against our illness, correct?