For a couple weeks, every day around 3 pm I feel anxious. Now after a weekend of dog sitting, I am emotionally and physically drained &amp; I'm hoping this isn't the first signs of a depressive episode.

I'm still in between psychs because I moved from Arizona to Texas, and there is no free state insurance for people who don't make much money. Is fucking ass, and im actually really angry about the fact that I (likely my parents) will have to pay over $500 monthly for whatever stupid ass insurance plan I go with.

Fuck this stupid state. I hope I can go to sleep and wake up feeling more able to take on all of this. I don't need my stupid fucking bipolar acting up before I can even get proper care!!! I'm fucking over stupid fucking USAs lack of healthcare!!! They're killing us, and I just wanna punch the faces of every politician who is sitting on their ass instead of doing what they can to fix this horrible issue! I don't want to become a statistic!!

Sheesh... felt good to vent. Maybe I'll be ok. Tomorrow I'm going to try and really be nice to myself. Maybe I can take a walk and then run a bath. I think ill be ok. I've got to. I have no fucking choice. 🙃