
I moved out at least 3 times in the past 7 years 
I just realized this the last house I saw my dad in but also the most I’ve spent time with 
it makes me sad to know that there will be no memories of him in the new house
So we’re moving out this month 
I have a lump in my throat as I just realized that this house has memories of the last time I saw my dad, and the last time I got along with my sister before she left for good

Even tho there were bad moments, everything bad happened in this house such as my dad getting sick but also there are good memories before those things happened 
There are the good memories of my dad here 
All the times he was joking while at a the kitchen table eating with us, walking around the house from the living room to the kitchen and back to his room everyday 
The times he is sitting on the couch in the living room watching tv with volume on high, it used to annoy my mom but now the house is so calm and depressing and we all miss it
When he wakes up in the middle of the  night when he can’t sleep but he’s happy to see us awake and watch tv with us like mr Bean with a big smile on his face :’)
It always made tear up in happy moments like this because I knew nothing lasts forever 
Comes to think of it, this is the house that I spent the most with my dad! Unlike other houses that we were on different floors, and I spent most of the time in my room I was a teen at the time, but in this house I saw him and spent times with him the most 
And in his last days when he was sick and was laying there in the living he couldn’t talk or joke around anymore as he had throat cancer and was on tracheotomy but he just smiled at us it was painful to watch him like that but at least he was there 
It hurts because I couldn’t hear his voice for the last time 
He suffered so much and he tried to hide it because he didn’t want us to worry about him,
I miss him so much 
6 months later I still can’t believe he’s not gonna be here anymore