i think i was in a manic episode for 2 days and during those two days i told my fwb i like him when i honestly don't know if i do or not. 

he has no idea i'm bipolar and possibly may not understand if i explain it to him. 

i feel like i messed things up as his responses are sparse but also seem very neutral. and i don't want to double back in messages. i think i'll just have to accept i messed up without saying any more.

i hate being manic. cuz that same day i spent money i don't have. sigh. rip.