I feel like my bpd symptoms are mainly controlled and over the last two months I’ve been taking quetiapine - although the first week helped me massively, the effects have definitely worn out. 
I’m now getting anxious because I have nothing to say at social interactions, I feel dumb and embarrassed for my boyfriend who drags me out of the house. I’ve lost interest for the things I used to love and made up who I am, or I’m just hopelessly out of practice. 
I work a full time job in healthcare that seems to pretty much occupy me, though I now realise how toxic and terrible that place makes me feel. I literally do nothing anymore besides that and an occasional camping trip. I haven’t seen my friends in months and I’m anxIOUS to do so. 
I just feel so lost dude. I can’t seem to enjoy life to way I used to. I don’t have any confidence in anything I say. I’m either bored, anxious or intoxicated. I’ve just hit such a new low of worthlessness because I can see what a bitter, depressing, BORING person I’m becoming. 
Do people experience this loss of personality with antipsychotics? If anyone has any advice on any of these subjects I’d massively appreciate it. Thanks x