So im a 17 y/o boy that i think has anxiety. Never seeked help, im too afraid to do so, but whats ironic is that i know that i shouldnt be. I just dont have the best relationship with my parents.

Now to the main post. I dont know why i just cant show my feelings to anybody, especially my parents, its like i cant trust them. I feel emotions i know what to say, but words just wont come out of my mouth. I dont think i have depression, only some episodes like once or twice every other month. They last like 3 days to maybe a week and a bit. Why do i mention that. Its because i feel like sad tragic emotions are much more powerfull than happy. When something good happens ill most of the time knock it off like nothing happened, or depending whose around cheer for a few seconds and get back to normal. My theory is that its because my teen period had mostly been dark, being alone, feeling sad and not understood by anyone. 

However things are changing since i met my friends in high school. I trust them more than anyone but still cant show most of my emotions. Relatively to the past me im more confident and things are looking up for me, or so it seems. At least its the best period of my life ive had. Still, dont feel the best, the fact that i havent really had any romantic relationships also knocks me down. You know, telling a girl how i feel wasnt really easy for me, i thought abt it for a month before doing so. Past experiences made me think about it real hard to make sure its the right thing to do.

\*Sigh\* whats wrong with me....