Im 27 and i never been with a girl i really liked ... the one i thought liked me just broke up with me even tho she said she loved me and distance was just temporary thing .. few days later it all switchs... ive been lied to in my face from past girls ,kissing me they say im sweet but none ever stays.. lost my best friend last year and havnt had no one to talk to or care about to take mind off stuff... i just feel lost and alone , i been in and out of hospital for illnesses past 3 years and i feel useless and like i have no purpose in life i dont get any enjoyment besides smoking weed and thats pathetic but its the honest truth... i got fired for going to hospital last week .. got a new job already but its a downgrade ... making dirt and hr its like a spit in my face... i just want to feel loved or like i matter to someone ...... its been 27 yrs and ive been making other happy and not asking for anything in return i just want to feel loved like i did from this most recent girl who left me... i thought her inperfections were prefect .. how do i get out of this depression .. im not strong enough to end myself ever but i dont eat most days and if i do its 55 cent chips .. my teeth need work done theyre straight just wisdom teeth and fillings i need , no insurance constant pain cant enjoy eating ... cant enjoy life at all i just want to know why me what did i do wrong? i thought i was being saved and now im back to square one... im close to shutting completely off even more and just sleeping all day working and thats it ... i dont have energy to pretend to be okay anymore