After an emotionally exhausting Christmas with  religious family having religious and conspiracy conversation all evening (I'm atheist) I'm sitting alone in my room with nothing to do just filled with constant anxiety, loneliness and boredom. I'm so sick of feeling this way all the time. I'm texting with people, I'm browsing and responding to reddit threads, I have the TV on. There is no where to go and nothing I need to do. My partner is coming to see me tomorrow, I slept in 'till noon because I didn't want to deal with the day. I just hate feeling like I need constant interaction and something to occupy me 24/7 or I feel like an utter mess. I couldn't even fall asleep last night I had so much anxiety that I took a Klonopin. I hate not being comfortable in my own skin in my own company. I should be enough...But I'm not. The emptiness physically hurts all over.