In all honesty it feels like things are just getting worse again. I thought they were getting better, since I got a (hopefully) long term boyfriend. He’s so nice to me, he’s the love of my life. But every time he’s slightly bothered by something I freak out. I think he’s going to leave me and I completely break down. He thinks I’m doubting his love for me but I can’t tell if he’s saying that because he wants to get rid of me and my anxiety or because he genuinely thinks I’m doubting him. I think he loves me. I really do. But I can’t handle this constant feeling of doom

I’ve never felt this way about someone and I’m so scared of losing it. I’m so scared he’s going to leave me. As a kid I used to get meltdowns about death and stomach aches because of my literal pressing anxiety and it’s happening again. My heart rate is always high, my palpitations are coming back, every moment I feel alert. And I bother him because I can’t understand what’s going on in my own mind. I’m sorry if this is just a rant but I just feel incredibly trapped in my own head.