Hello. My name is let's say "Alana"

I am in my early thirties and was recently diagnosed with BPD . When I say recently, 7 or 8 months ago. It has been a blessing because I am not on medication and see my doctor every 6 months and mostly I have good days if not great . However, being bpd has come at a cost, especially in my past relationships. I'm very lucky to have supportive family and I feel guilty at times because I have this. I also went through a break up early this year. At times I feel lost and I've cancelled many first dates because I just don't want to. Maybe it's because I have a fear of being hurt or treating someone else unfairly. When I google BPD and dating and get incredibly sad . It seems that the rest of the world see us as evil or crazy . I'm not evil or crazy . I try my best to see two side to every story and laugh as much as I can . This is all very new for me and I guess I would like to understand why the world doesn't like us . I feel more alone than ever . 

Feel free to share anything :) 

Bestest of wishes and what not 

"Alana"

