I often struggle with teeter-tottering  back and forth with the idea of fitting in. 

Sometimes when i’m with friends, we’ll be talking and maybe one will say something about their life that I had no idea about. Or they’ll talk about something that people normally do that I don’t. Sometimes, nothing triggers it at all, just being with people. 

Regardless of what triggers it, the feeling is terrible. Its this distant foggy feeling. Like there is a glass wall built between me and the world and all I can do is watch as people live their lives on the other side. The feeling is the idea that ill never be normal and ill never be able to understand the people around me, and the people around me wont ever be able to understand me.
