I’m 29….I’ve never had any real ambition or drive and I don’t know WHY. I am not good at ANYTHING. I grew up without a mom as my mom got sick with schizophrenia and left me pretty much. She now lives in Poland and she’s abandoned me and doesn’t talk to me. My dad is my only family. I’ve had long term friends but my very own best friend….she betrayed me in one of the worst ways. Now I’m single and the last relationship I had with a man he was very abusive and scary. I just keep meeting bad men. I keep meeting bad friends too who judge me and aren’t nice to me, they use me. I just don’t see why I’m here. I spend all my days alone doing nothing. I hate the idea of working and I was bullied in school and always hated it. I truly just feel like a waste of space. I have zero motivation and I am so so so lonely.