It’s been a long time coming but I’ve realised just accepting things helps. Accepting that people will never love me the way I love them or that they’ll never go to the lengths I’m willing to go to. It’s hard but just accepting that is slightly better than being in denial about it. I’ve spent years blaming and criticising myself in hopes someone will see my worth. They won’t and that’s okay I guess. It’s part of life some of us won’t ever have people who stand by us. Just gotta accept it. 

Accepting that I will fuck up and hurt and push away people who may have been genuine but I might never know. Accepting that most people will hurt us and vice versa as we’re all just humans at the end of the day. Accepting that life is a fucking rollercoaster and a half and sometimes the lows suck you dry and that’s just part of life. Accepting not having a pure experience of romantic love that may last one lifetime. Accepting that some people will always see your flaws and others will see them as something to cherish. Accepting that everything isn’t always what it seems. Just accepting that sometimes too much damage has been done and trying to revive dead connections is nothing but a waste of time.

Accepting that life isn’t always fair. People who are innocent suffer and hurt sadly. People who are cold and ruthless survive and get to the top whilst kicking others down. Life isn’t fair, it truly isn’t.