I’ve never posted in any forum or anything like this before so I guess this can be sorta a rant. 

It’s currently 10:07 PM at the time of writing and it’s rough right now. I feel like I try constantly to make friends and things better and it doesn’t seem to work. Ive got a very small amount of friends and I try so damn hard to make more or find a partner and it just never works. I just turned 18 and Covid hit right when the “fun teenage” stuff was supposed to happen so I missed out on all that. Now I’m 18 I don’t drive the company I worked at went under, all the people my age are having sex, doing late night dumb stuff, partying etc and I’ve never gotten close to any of that, the constant being called a loser and feeling of missing out is suffocating and I feel so lost and hopeless.