I want to read books. I have never been able to read books. I did get through my course textbooks in school, yes. But I never read anything outside of it other than magazines. Now I am in my late 20s and I really want to read. But whenever I try to start anything, I keep going in circles. I keep wondering:

1. Is it worth it? What if there is some other book that I should be reading which would add more value to my life?
2. What if I forget everything in here?
3. What if I don't understand this book and I have to confront my own stupidity?
4. Do I have the time to spend on this? 
5. Is my vocabulary good enough to be able to grasp what is being said? 
6. What if I am no better after reading this book?

Those are some examples. I struggle to make it past the first page. I hate this overthinking. Unfortunately even if I try to watch any videos that are educative, I feel the same stress. I get so worked up. What do I do? I don't want to stay like this. Therapy isn't helping. :(