Recently diagnosed with BPD traits. I'm the quiet type and fairly high functioning with a good sense of self and high level of self awareness. Just because I look like I'm doing fine and supress all of my emotions and suffer in silence doesn't mean I'm doing fine. My therapist treats it like it's not a big deal even though it's living hell. She didn't even tell me my diagnosis because she doesn't like to "label" people. 

Periods of clarity doesn't mean I'm fine. I feel so invalidated and angry. I feel like I'm owed at least some understanding. No one knows I show BPD traits because I don't tell anyone from the fear of judgment, the judgement being 'I'm too fine/ normal to show traits of it" "just doing it for attention".

Just because I bash my head against the wall all alone in anger instead of doing something more explosive infront of people doesn't mean I'm not suffering.