I think a lot about when I’m going to have my next panic attack. It terrifies me. They are disabling. Sometimes parts of my body tingle. I always get sweaty, my heart races and I’m dizzy. Feels like you can’t breathe but at the same time you’re taking too many breaths. You think that you’re going to die. The world around you doesn’t seem real. It exhausts and drains you. I feel tired for days after. They’re even worse when you’re in public. I feel humiliated. I get anxiety attacks a lot, but it’s nothing compared to a panic attack. I’m just so sick of living like this, I feel like I’ll never be free of anxiety. I just want to be happy.