I’m at the point I am numb. I feel nothing. My relationship is about to end (my boyfriend literally told me this so I know it’s not me just stringing things together ) . I’m in debt . I’ve not got any friends and I can’t help but entertain the idea of self harm (drugs , alcohol , eating disorders) because then I can feel something . I know my favorite person is about to leave and right now as it stands , I don’t care. I know that’ll change and my world will crash but I’m so sick of being this fucking depressed . I’ve not been happy since April . I’m done .