I haven’t eaten or slept since he told me he needed a break 3 days ago. The only thing that stops me from uncontrollably crying is calling my friends but I feel empty without him and stopped caring about them. I convinced myself that he will be back but the time it’s taking is killing me i miss him so fucking much. Life just isn’t worth living without him to me.

He told me he lost interest and decided he needs a break because he still loves me and just needs to regain those feelings by leaving for a bit which is so confusing to me. He also said to just let the break run it’s course which fills me with a lot of hope that he’ll be back. 

I don’t know how to cope with this and it’s getting harder everyday especially since none of my friends really understand my BPD. Please help me.