But what an insecure little girl lol. She clearly made him save the convo to show her. I said immature things to him basically calling out that she obviously made him block me (on Instagram, I checked) Logically I shouldn’t care that much but my emotional side is freaking out and pissed/kind of hurt because I know she had to have seen my pages and talked shit about me. 

I secretly want to know if she’s prettier than me. (Doubtful tbh, he’s like a 7 and I’m a solid 8.5) I know I sound like a huge bitch right now but I think this is just my way of mentally compensating so I don’t jump into traffic. Last week when he was fucking me he was going on and on about how he never wanted a gf again (we used to date and became really chill fwb) I’m pissed and curious about her and obviously mentally ill af rn. I don’t know why but I’m shaking. Like I want to freak out on him but there’s no reason to. 

Logical brain: he must really like her, that’s nice. I wish them well. 

Emotional brain: She’s probably uglier than me with way lower standards for a relationship, and have fun dealing with the fact that he only has one pillow and it’s filthy and all he does is smoke weed. Stupid fucking bitch. I hope they both die. 

*Can anyone tell I’m spiraling?*