there’s literally so much wrong with me. i’m only recently coming to realize it but god. i’m so obsessed with my best friend and constantly feel the need to be exactly the type of person she’d want me to be. i got into a big fight with my dad tonight because of how terrible i’ve felt and now i only feel worse. like i am so clingy and terrible and constantly need affirmation that she doesn’t hate me like what the fuck. i feel like i’m not a real person and i’ve felt more suicidal more than i’ve ever felt. i just really feel so useless and bad and idk why i keep trying and keep working i just wanna die it feels more and more like no one would even care