I’ve never had an “FP.” I’ve never been in a relationship because I avoid starting them in the first place. I have a few friends whom I rarely make the effort to hang out with. I isolate myself to avoid being around people because existing just feels like one big exhausting performance. 

I don’t want to be perceived. I don’t start drama or seek validation/reassurance from my friends. I keep everything I feel inside. I am a raging storm and a black hole internally, but externally you’d never be able to tell.