I can't get myself to eat or drink. All I want to do is move move move. I am skipping class again to walk miles upon miles on the treadmill. When my family gets home, I am working out secretly in my bedroom. When they leave the house again, I am walking on the treadmill. I don't feel hungry anymore. I only ever feel full. I never want to eat ever again. I am destroying myself and I don't want it to stop. For three months I was recovering, but I can't do this anymore. I feel so lost without my eating disorder and I just have to turn back to it. My world is falling apart. I know it's cliche and I know it's bullshit and I KNOW it's just my eating disorder talking, but I feel like my ED is all I have left.