Hello, so lately I've realized that I could be a damn sociopath after all. I've never hurt anybody purposely honestly but if I did now I don't know if I would care. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't remember my sadness, my happiness, my guilt, my remorse, I want to feel all those things. I want to be normal. I want to love so badly. Have kids, love them the way my mom loves me. My emotions just seem so dead and quiet. Everytime I feel love or happiness I cry (I don't know why) but those emotions never last more than 5/10 seconds and I just shed a couple tears. I want to love and feel good!! I've never been violent or got in troubles. I just want to be able to love and feel all emotions, like a nornal person. I'm a human. Why isn't my brain working. I want to feel empathy, guilt, remorse, sadness. All those bad emotions. Those are what makes us human. I thought of kms if I ever get diagnosed with sociopathy. When I was younger I went to a therapist (like 3years ago) and I remember I cried all the hour long. I don't remember what I felt. I just feel like a monster. And I don't even feel much about that. I just want to dissappear. I know I want to dissappear but I can't feel the feeling that comes with it. Please I need help. Someone to tell me what I should do and what could it be.