It’s been a few months since I was diagnosed. More and more it feels like I’m lying about having it. 

Til yesterday. 

My best friend hadn’t texted me in months. I figured her health or mental health was bad. Every few months I would text her or her mom. 

Turns out she just ghosted me. My bestfriend was done with me and did even bother with saying literally anything. I still don’t know what I did wrong. I only have one friend. 

Now I getting severely depressed and suicidal. I don’t know how to cope. I don’t know what to do. I think making friends with people who have BPD is my only fucking choice. I’m gonna go back to crying now.