My FP &amp; I were in a long distance relationship. However, that year we both got out of long term serious relationships before we met on a trip I was on. Furthermore, most of the time we had “together” was long distance. He lived on the west coast and I lived on the east coast. When I finally went on a trip to see him after a few months of saving up, he broke up with me mid trip. It was the combination of my anxiety and also the idea of continuing something long distance. He was also going through a lot of family stuff and was still best friends with his ex.  It was .. absolutely heart breaking. Excruciating. The pain I felt losing him wasn’t comparable to any other breakup I had .. even the engagement I broke off prior to us. I thought I was bringing my best self. I finally had my bachelors degree and a career and the dreams I had for myself that I once found impossible were coming into fruition. But he was cold and literally just a few days into us being together he decided I had too much to work on to be together. I didn’t argue with that. He even ghosted me right after I got on the plane.  after the trip I applied to grad school, got in, went to therapy (and was in therapy for two years which is how I learned I suffered from anxiety, depression + BPD) and traveled … a lot. I made amazing connections. It’s been two, almost 3 years since then and he’s moved on. He’s even traveling with her via airplane (something he was scared to even think about when he was with me) and the pain of not being good enough has resurfaced full force. I’ve even met someone who is so kind, patient and caring with me even at my worse. He’s been so patient with my healing and boundaries &amp; has been waiting till I’m ready. This makes me feel even more guilty for feeling this way. Can anyone relate? I’m thinking  of just unfollowing or blocking him and his family just to help me stay present and aid in healing but am I being too harsh?  I’m so heart broken even though we hardly speak to each other