im tired, exhausted of overthinking. i want peace, i want my brain to relax and stop thinking for a second. im not patient and i want to be in a different part of my life already. my job is not helping me at all, i have to hide my mental health issues because i feel judged at my job and i know they won’t believe me. i want to at least work from home because thinking every day about having to go back to that place and committing two hours of my life there and back and then having to deal with the greed they showcase is disgusting. trying to find a new job but I live in a place where the average applicant is more than 100 apps per job post. waiting on grad applications, received an acceptance but it’s even more heartbreaking than a denial because i can’t afford it. this world and the decisions other make for us is cruel, im tired of a lot. i want to help others more than i want to help myself, but i know i need myself to be good to make a positive impact for others. i’m really stuck, i just want to cry and cry.