I’ve had social anxiety since the age of 13. I’m 35 now. Now I’m terrified when I leave the house. Finding myself using hand sanitizer over and over and over and struggling to even order food in public. I gave up my job of 15 years working weddings because I couldn’t handle al large people anymore. All I could think about was getting covid.  Last year I strangely felt good. Like no panic attacks. No fear of getting covid even. It was like my brain said fuck this don’t be afraid of something you can’t see. My whole life has been in fear of some unknown issue causing my brain to flip out.. and now..  if I go for a walk my heart starts to race, I think I’m going to have a heart attack, I get hot and sweaty and I’m thinking oh no I’m gonna die. If I am around people I find me struggling with the same physical issues cus all I’m thinking is, they have covid. Or I’ll get covid touching a door or a biscuit at a restaurant. I can’t take it anymore.  It’s depressing the fuck out of me. I’m shutting down and can’t afford not to work.