I’ve spent the whole night trying to watch movies etc to distract myself from my thoughts but I got overwhelmed and drinking was the first thing I thought of to numb myself. 
I have class in a few hours and I’m in a professional healthcare program so obviously I can’t show up drunk
I just don’t know what to do, my friends are supportive but they’re struggling with their own stuff as well and I don’t want to be an extra burden, yk?
And a more depressing thought is that this shit is gonna happen my whole life