I am terrified of being close to people, and I don’t know if it’s even possible for me to do in a healthy way. 

I feel like I can’t be close to people because I know I could potentially ruin their life, and why would I ruin the life of someone whom I love? Why would I put them through that if I know what’s to come?

It feels like it is much easier to isolate and talk to no one. I don’t want to be a villain.