Basically, at first I thought it's depression. But Anywhere I go online, I see that most people when talking about depression, talk about something that lasts for at least two days. While what I experience, is being depressed for between one hour to three, and then I feel okay, but this happens a lot, about once in two days, usually even more. It is usually triggered by really minor things, and I can't really nail it down.

In addition, a lot of times I imagine situations of some things, and even though I know it is my imagination it can still make me feel depressed. I will sometimes imagine fighting with my best friend, or my mom, and sometimes it's imagining my friends suiciding while I try to stop them. I know that these are not real situations but it still makes me feel the same emotions that I would in those situations, and it makes it really hard to have fun with my friends sometimes because to me, last night they committed suicide.

The problem is that this "imagination" kicks in also while I talk with my friends and then I kind of "zone out" because I feel like I talk them in a different conversation inside my head. It's like a layer on top of reality in my head, that feels real.

If any of you knows about some kind of illness and can link helpful articles I would be very grateful.

BTW: I never have thoughts about ending my life, but sometimes I wonder if there is a point in my life.