For about 6 months every day after school I'm just sitting and feel so empty and sad, it's difficult to make myself cry because that does make me feel better. And sometimes that sadness gets turned into rage and I'll take out my anger on family non physically. I currently have a therapist because suicide was a thought in my head (just a thought) about a year ago. I have had those same thoughts before but now they're louder and I was looking at options if I ever wanted to do it and even though I have a therapist I feel as if I can hardly talk to him, I can't talk to either of my parents and just to clarify they are good people who are trying  their best, I can't even talk to my friends. I have no interest of going anywhere I have no interest in gaming anymore all I do when I'm not at school is just scrolling and scrolling and scrolling. I always feel sad, I'm unmotivated and there is problems with my health as well I constantly eat way too much I'm 223 lb at 13 years old and I'm sick of it the only time I get happy is when I see my two one year old siblings and as soon as I see any of my friends huge smile comes across my face and I feel genuine euphoria and serotonin gets pumped into my brain. Right now I'm building up the courage to talk to either my therapist my parents or my friends and any words of encouragement or any advice I would appreciate greatly.