It’s like I get a fucking high if my life’s suddenly goes to shit. No matter what emotion I’m in, i always want that emotion to be more and more extreme. 

If I’m sad I want everything around me to come crashing down. I often fantasize about everyone leaving me, my girlfriend cheating on me, and just awful shit. But for some reason it makes me feel almost excited to think about it. 

When I’m hypomanic, the more dumb risky impulsive shit I do the worse I get.

When I’m just angry I look to pick a fight with every single person around me for no reason.

The sad one mainly doesn’t make any sense to me. It’s so illogical but I often wish my life was more extreme in every sense. 