I'm tired of seeing happy people, I'm tired of seeing how happy religious people are...why couldn't I have just been gullible why do I have to fucking question everything, I'm tired of thinking about my mortality and the fact that I'm bound to fucking lose everything and everyone, every experience and memory, why couldn't I have been a cat or a dog...I'm only 19 and my life is fucking over, I see no point in trying, it's fucking pointless anyway...wish someone would just shoot me in the back of my head with a shotgun or something