I'm 23 year old male, ive been a disappointment to everyone close to. I ruined my relationship with my girlfriend and she brome up with me, i fought with my parents and now we are distant,  i let everyone down. Most importantly i let myself down. My girlfriend was the only thread holding me together. And i broke her in the process. I just want to die now im broken. Im in a depressive state. All i think about is why am i still here. Why cant i get myself to kill myself already when i have the urge to do it. Just why... i have nothing left why am i still fighting somehow i just want the pain to end. I want to rest