I struggle a loooottttt with one of the major BPD things, fear of abandonment. It makes me scared of ever taking an off day. I have to be there all the time for other people, I have to listen to their rants, I have to be supportive, happy, positive. I always have to be On. It feels like if I ever said no to other peoples expectations, they would leave. I can't sleep for as many hours as I need, I feel guilty, lazy. I can't do the things that I want to do. I feel like I'm always tip toeing around people.
Does anyone else feel like this? Do you always have to be On?