I have health anxiety. I've had it almost since childhood. Oftentimes I am able to keep it in check but I have been in a terrible spiral that started last fall when a loved one of mine passed away. 

I was recently referred to a neurologist because my new doctor does not want to blame all of my symptoms on anxiety without ruling everything out first (previous doctor used to just tell me everything I was feeling with anxiety without ever doing this). 

Basically I have  been suffering from debilitating brain fog, facial numbness, strong tinnitus, visual snow, pins and needles all over for quite some time. The brain fog feels like it's just increasingly getting worse. My neurologist referred me for a brain mri and also an eeg/pes test.

I had the mri yesterday and since then I have just been feeling terrified about the results. I have the eeg scheduled for in two weeks and the appointment to discuss all of my results scheduled for 3 weeks from now (this was all scheduled before my mri). I have long had a terrible fear of brain tumors and I am just extremely scared that they will find something. I am really hoping that I don't suddenly get a call from them about the results because I feel like not hearing back from them so quickly is a better sign, but I dont know. 

It's all I can think about at the moment. I wish I could stop.