Im 22 I've spent most of my life isolating because of bullying and rejection. I always somehow have a couple friends that find there way into my life but I cant connect with friends and most people when its just us unless where sharing are traumas. How do I learn to just have a normal conversation and connect with people without being in a group. All those years when others where making friends and getting in relationships in school I was isolating depressed on drugs. Now I'm clean but I'm still depressed and isolating. I do have some hope and energy right now to try because I found I'm much happier with people and it's worth the painful anxiety to connect with people. but just literally dont know how to start. Like how the fuck do you have a conversation with a new person. I want to take advantage of this period of energy to socialize before it's gone. Also I dont really know who I am or what I enjoy I've just spent most of my life doing what people expected not what I liked doing. If anyone knows how to figure that out