I’ve been drinking, smoking and going out almost everyday for a month and a half I would say. I’ve been having a lot of fun but I’ve been drinking too much and just doing stupid shit like peeing in public and the shame and guilt is just haunting me. I’ve really been thinking about me as a person and my morals and I feel like I’m a horrible person. I’ve unintentionally hurt people because I don’t understand myself and I feel so so horrible. I’ve shoplifted, lied(both impulsive and not impulsive), said stupid shit, vandalized, broken up with people because I lost interest or because I just mentally couldn’t do it, Hooked up with people, Or cutting people off, I feel very disconnected but also too connected. And I feel guilty and ashamed for not taking care of myself and respecting my dignity, and for not respecting everything and everyone.