I suffer from anxiety and general depression, but typically I am high functioning. I work full time, occasionally socialize, go to a therapist and psychiatrist.

Lately I’ve been having an issue though. I have an undergraduate degree in creative writing, and I really want to start working on a juvenile fiction book. I have the idea in my head, and I’ve been doing some research, but every time I have the opportunity to write I end up staring at my computer screen feeling anxious and then I default to doing something else saying I’ll get back to it.

I’ve had this anxiety for months. I’ve done tons of other things I enjoy but I just can’t get myself to do this writing and it’s frustrating. It’s not like I don’t have people encouraging me, and no one has told me my writing is bad. Even if I never get published I have a stable job, so I don’t understand why I feel so anxious about just starting the dang thing. 

I was wondering if anyone had any advice on starting projects that make you anxious. My partner has offered me so much support, space, whatever I need and I feel bad I just can’t do the thing I want to do. I don’t understand what’s holding me back.