Every time I become close to someone I usually feel so connected and happy with them in the beginning. It feels like an equal friendship full of support and care. 

Then as soon as they get comfortable with me they stop respecting my boundaries, start putting me down or resorting to silent treatment to get their way, using me for things they want (even if I express it makes me uncomfortable), etc. These are all things my abusive parents did to me. 

I always feel betrayed and backstabbed at the end of my close friendships. They only last for around three years and then the person leaves me after they’re done using me. It feels like a repetitive cycle at this point. 

Even when I try to make sure to not be friends with manipulative people, they are able to disguise themselves until I form an attachment.