Hi, I am a 17 year old girl and I think I have found a side of the internet that may help me understand what is wrong with me. I don't clearly remember where everything began but I can think of a turning point. Back in 2018 I passed out after looking at football stadium lights and questioning my existence. I got diagnosed with anxiety. I remember the next day being so confused. I didn't feel like I was in my body and I didn't feel life was real. I have had that ever since and my memory degresses and my physical symptoms have gotten worse. I feel confused all the time and wonder how I got places. I want to stay at home 24/7 but even home feels unfamiliar. Everything does. I have lived in this town my whole life but everything feels unfamilar.