I have recently been diagnosed with BPD, it actually helped a lot to know that there is a reason for my extreme anger, my intense emotions, and these feelings of self loathing are coming from. But does it ever get easier? I am seeing a therapist and she is helping a lot so far but I just had an episode once again. I feel so terrible for my husband.. I don't know how much more he can take. We have been doing so well but a fight happened tonight over me overhearing him calling someone on TV pretty to his friend. Automatically it kills my mood and he noticed the change. We got into a huge fight and majority of the time these fights turn into me telling him that Im going to leave him and I'm going to take our daughter with me. This sends him into panic mode because he doesn't want our family to break up. In the moment I could care less, I hurl insult after insult at him calling him a loser, telling him he is disgusting and I don't love him. WHY DO I DO THIS?! I HATE MYSELF FOR IT SO MUCH. I hate being like this, I am trying to change and it seems like its going well for a couple weeks and them boom, I have a crazy episode and Im back to what feels like square one. Can people with BPD have lasting relationships? Im going to lose my family if I keep acting like this..