As a teenager whose just about to go off to college I have a lot riding on my back to get good grades and get into a top university. Somehow I always feel as if the world is working against me, I worked hard yet I didn’t get the grades for my mocks. I’m so afraid to tell my mother, I can’t let her down. I have such bad anxiety, I can’t stop overthinking and being overwhelmed, I feel like I don’t belong anywhere and I feel like my life is just going to be a big fat mess. I feel like I’m gonna be a failure and everything is slipping away. All I want in life is to be happy but I can’t put my selfish feelings above others’ which makes me push hard for things I don’t necessarily want.