(TW - I’ve listed some movies that include potential triggers)

When I’m having a breakdown of any degree, I’ve noticed that I always resort to watching the same few movies/shows, which generally add fuel to the fire.

Things like
-Girl, Interrupted
-To The Bone
-Sala Samobójców (Suicide Room)
-The Suicide Theory
-Donnie Darko
-A Girl Like Her
-Brain On Fire
-Perks of Being a Wallflower
-According to Greta (used to be called Surviving Summer)
-Skins
-The Red Band Society

And same with songs, particularly when I’m hallucinating:
-Where is My Mind? - Pixies
-Poison Dart - The Bug ft. Warrior Queen
-A selection of songs by Motionless in White
-A selection of songs by Marilyn Manson
-Witchblades - Lil Peep
-A selection of heavy metal songs
-Tear Down the Bridges - IMAscore

These are just a few examples; I just want to see if this is a normal thing to do, particularly when in the middle of a BPD breakdown