CW: death and covid 

My uncle just passed away about 30 minutes ago from covid. My mom is a wreck, it was her twin brother and one of her last remaining siblings. I personally don’t feel much about his death but when I see my mom crying and being depressed I feel her emotional pain. I definitely care though. I just have this numbness about it and can’t get myself to feel anything. The only way I have a reaction to someone dying is if I see someone I care about who is upset because of it. I hate that I am this way and I’m trying to fix it but I don’t exactly know how.. 

Side note: please be gentle with me, the last time I posted in this sub a few people were pretty rude and confrontational. I’m not looking for a fight or passive aggressive communication I’m just looking for advice.