I wake up everyday wanting to go back to bed,, I don’t talk to a lot of people at school I’m embarrassed at how quiet I am, nobody try’s to talk to me I feel like it’s because I’ve grown stupid, i have like two actual friends,, I’m so tired and when I get home I do nothing but lay in bed I don’t eat and I feel so lifeless and I have no energy to do anything, I don’t even want to paint there’s nothing there I feel empty and numb I feel like such a disappointment because that’s all I’m good at,,I was supposed to be running this whole month for track and I haven’t even been able to do that, I don’t see a point and I’m scared of passing out due to my lack of food, I feel so disgusting in my body,, and no matter how badly I want to sleep I end up going to bed late and being so fucking tired in the morning and everyday I wait for the weekend just for it be Monday again, there’s nothing keeping me going even my music doesn’t make me feel better, it’s gotten boring,, there’s no joy in my life, I wish I felt better, I wish I could be normal, I’m so tired