Man it all started when i was 5. Fucking 5. My mom was always gone. When she would get home my dad would always beat the fuck outta her. They where always fighting. My mom tried her best to get is outta there. The thing is my moms a cheater. 7 years old, i was at the spring dance. After that was over my mom brung me home and said “im gonna go see uncle jeffery okay?” “okay mommy!” I said. We all know who she actually saw. She came home at 4. I was sleeping in her bed when all the sudden i hear screaming and i wake up. It was my mom and dad again. He pushed her and she hit her head on the toilet. Thats when i got outta bed. I ran to the bathroom screaming. I felt so bad for her. Thats when they got a divorce. Thats when everything fell apart. My dad moved into a barn. We switched every week. Things were okay. But thats when i got diagnose with depression. About 2 years after they divorced, my nephew was at my dads house (so was i). He (8) says hey wanna go play in the house (i was 10). I said “sure”. He said “lets play husband and wife” i was like “um okay” and then he took me to the bed and said “take off your pants” and thinking it was normal i said “okay” then he started yo doing his thing. (My sister was at a school so she wasnt there to see) after my sis got home i told her and she said “we have to tell dad” i begged her not to. But she did it anyway. “Why didnt you push him off?” He said. After that eveything went down hill again. My dad started hitting my sister for the stupidest reasons. I saw it all. He tried to kill her so many times. The police wouldnt do shit. Neither would cps. Thats michigan for you. The most recent thing that happened is my dad was helping my mom move out of our house bc we lost it. Then she called him the f slur and he tried to kill her. So me and my sister moved to florida with my grandma. My grandma is getting custody. Im in a new school. The kids hate me. They all fucking bully me for being new. For being a normal human being. Im literally on the edge rn. Not to mention im friends with my old friends that treated me like shit. Especially Isabel. I hope you see this you stupid bitch. Making fun of my fucking grandma. She saved me. How tf are you gonna do that!? Its crazy. I only went on a quick bike ride to Walgreens. FUCKING WALGREENS. I got cat called 2 times. Im only 41 (backwards). I hate being a woman. I hate men. I hate my friends. I hate my parents. Not to mention my mom mentally abused me for 4 years. I hate school. I hate that im so young and have attempted suicide 4 times. I hate that i was only 8 when i tried to kill myself for the first time. I hate that im cubby. Why cant i be cute?!? Im not making to fucking 18. Ill be dead by then.