I have severe depression, anxiety, ptsd, etc. I have been smoking a lot of weed these last couple of weeks. Before, it just made me paranoid. But I guess because I am doing it by myself, my social anxiety around it is not bad at all.

I feel I am creating one problem for another. But admittedly it feels great to not be in such mental pain for the first time in a long time. Through therapy, I am realizing what I think of as my "baseline" is just self-loathing. It's a good realization....but a sad one.