I am so lost I dont know what to do anymore. I am 22 and I moved in with my boyfriend 25 a few months ago. 
We both struggle with depression and the last half a year was the worst period in my life. I‘m getting therapy now since Im having issues doing anything at all throughout the day. 

He never had an easy live and I could write a list of things he had to go trough. When he was 20 his mom left with his younger sister and left him with his dad. Years he was hating his mom for what she did. Last year everything turned around and turns out his dad is a narcissist who then threw my boyfriend out of the house with a week notice and no money. The reason was he didn’t clean his room when he told him
to.
Well after living at my family’s place, then friends places, we finally managed to move in together.
He lost a couple jobs and he got really unlucky. None of them where really his fault it just didnt work out. 
Since I study I dont make a lot of money so we’re constantly struggling.
He is supposed to get money from his health insurance which we are waiting for since over 2 months. We weren’t able to pay rent and the next rent is coming in a few days. After sending every document the health insurance needed there was always something else and multiple delays. No he lost all motivation. He doesn’t care about the rent or anything anymore. He is giving up, wants to dump me and kill himself because he believes life will always be this way.
I don’t have the energy right now to cope with my own issues and I was just hoping to finally get this money issue over with so things can get easier. Now he doesn’t care about anything and it‘s all on me.. I dont know what to do anymore it is so much to deal with.
Why is life so incredibly hard. Everything seems impossible.