I’ve been dealing with social anxiety for awhile now. While it’s certainly not as bad as it was while I was in highschool, it still affects me in social settings. Everyone I know smokes weed, including myself. I love weed so much, but my connection to it has always been distorted due to my anxiety. 

Everytime I smoke, I feel super uncomfortable in my skin, as if I can’t sit still. My nerves start randomly jumping and I get internal tremors and shakes which are out of control and very discomforting. 

Mentally, I become so disconnected from conversations and clear thinking. I get lost in my mind, lost in my intrusive thoughts (which I deal with while sober), and I can’t seem to bring myself to speak. 

I’m not sure what to do with this, do I just deal with it. Do I pussy out and stop smoking weed? I feel so fucking weak because of it and everyone I know thinks it’s pathetic. I just want a good year, and I don’t want this to be bothering me.

Is there any solutions to this? Is there a way I can smoke weed and not get such extreme physically and social anxiety ?