I've become apathetic, but not numb. I'm not 'depressed' however I'm very white/black minded. It's either this or that. I tend to not understand others. I'm irritable and I'm starting to dislike noise. My view on love and affection is very blank. I don't think I've "felt" genuine love for another in a while. I'm kinda just existing, but not enjoying, life. I'm very disconnected but don't overthink. I miss my quirks. My excitability. It comes back when I use CBD/Delta. I think I'm gonna start using that alongside psychotherapy. It's time to change things if I want to life a fulfilled life because right now I feel like an animal.