I start my therapy introduction next week and because of covid it will be an online group video call for 10 weeks. 


I am absolutely terrified as I really struggle with video calls and avoid them at all costs due to my low self esteem. I had a full blown panic attack during a video assessment with a mental health professional a few months ago.


I don't even FaceTime my boyfriend, friends or family and I have no idea how to approach this, especially considering it involves a group of people that I do not know and have never interacted with before. In my mind face to face is way easier for me, probably because I don't have to look at myself.


If I could I'd honestly turn down the therapy I've been offered because of this but my mental well-being has deteriorated so much over the last 18 months that I NEED to participate, I absolutely need to work on getting better. 


Any advice would be appreciated.