Just mid, I want to feel happy. I have everything I need in life with more, but I'm still not happy. At least what I mean is that I'm just not naturally hyper and supportive anymore. I try my best to act happy in front of others to try and make them feel better. I thought about an idea for a book once and it went like "what if a therapist went gradually crazy after listening to his patients". I feel like nobody cares about men's mental health. I am a part if the "popular kids" at school. I'm not a person looking for attention in any way. Why do people say that you look depressed but then use that against you in an argument? I ramble a lot on text to my s/O and I know they listen, but I never talk to anyone in real life. I don't want a therapist. I don't want to be made fun of. But I don't know what I want anymore. I'm trying my best, I promise I am. Even at my lowest I will strive to help others, but what happens when I'm down and can't get up?