I FUCKING HATE MYSELF! 

Everyone hates me too and you know FINE! hate me all you want it's just a step further to my inevitable suicide. I've legit pushed everyone away. Time and time again they leave and end up despising me AND. For good reason 

I'm a stupid , Jobless, manipulative , mean, rude, playing the victim ASSHOLE like yeah dumbass no fucking wonder you're FP and all the others hate you. And don't like you and have no empathy for you..you fucked up too many times who wants to love an asshole like you?? My FP texted someone that they wanted me to kill myself, I can't believe im so pathetic that im in love with a mf who literally despises!! me at this point I've fucked there life up and I hate myself every time. I hurt them I want to hurt myself..I can't take my dumbass life anymore. This shit is so so so fucking cruel. I don't know what I did!? I think I was born bad because I've been bullied since literal KINDERGARTEN!! And all my FPs leave me or keep me at arms length and never talk to me since they left and my current one will probably  leave me too! they don't love me anymore..


Im done feel free to read this I don't fucking care YOU DONT LOVE ME ANYMORE