I've been in a few months of panic and depression. I'm usually a functional person and then one too many stressors hit me at a time and I'm suddenly just wanting to be in bed and do nothing. I was fine in 2020 and then 2021 hit and I've been a mess. I want to quit my job and quit life. I've been working at home and lost motivation. I'm supposed to go back in and don't think I can make it through a shift. I can't take care of my kids alone, too scared to take them back to school and just not productive. How do I get out of this funk? My husband has been patient but now losing patience and telling me to put more effort in and try. I don't know if I'm depressed or just lazy af and manipulative and a bad person. And I'm so lonely bc I have no friends and just so worried that my neglect of my kids for this past year (they play t.v. and video games all the time and my 9 year old says he's depressed and wants to kill himself at night bc he hates school so much). I don't know. I feel like I need a friend more than a therapist. I'm just rambling. Sorry. I'm sad, anxious and feel alone.