I’ve been w my partner for 6 months now and he is very open and affectionate with me - constantly tells me he loves me and misses me, v physically affectionate, pays rent on a house he sleeps at max 1/2 nights a week bc he’d rather be with me, brings me home little presents etc. Despite all of this, i just CANNOT get my brain to comprehend that he actually does have feelings for me and I’m 99% sure that our relationship will end either because he finds someone better than me or realises he was mistaken and I tricked him into thinking he liked me.

I just dislike everything about myself - I’m ugly and boring and not especially funny and not particularly clever and i just Do Not Understand why he wants to be with me when literally every other person on earth is better in multiple ways. It seems inevitable that before too long he’ll realise that and leave me and i’ll be alone again.

How do I stop feeling like this? I just want to enjoy being in a relationship with my best friend and being loved and in love but I’m just scared all the time that today will be the day he realises how many better options he has.