I had a panic attack on my way to a meditation group because I was heavily triggered today. I was so embarrassed I was driving and my husband was in the passenger seat and I almost crashed the car. I am so ashamed of myself and I feel so helpless. I feel like im getting worse even though I'm fighting so hard to get better. I started therapy and I began this mediation group and still im sinking deeper and deeper because I was triggered. I feel like I hate myself and I just want to give up.