Hey guys, I need some input, because I'm not sure what really to do.

I've been diagnosed with severe depression for a long while now, and about a year and a half ago now, I had found a medication that worked very well for me. I felt a lot better and hadn't had suicidal thoughts in a long time.

Recently though, and I'm talking like over the past two months, I've been noticing that I'm starting to have a cycle of moods. I'm extremely uplifted and productive for a week and then extremely down, slow, fatigued, and sometimes suicidal for a week. It's inline with Bipolar Disorder, but I don't have a diagnosis, so that's just a theory. On top of that, I have kind of plateau-ed in terms of "happiness." I'm not sure if I'm just going through a shit part of life or if my peaks are actually becoming less present.

At this point, I don't know what's normal. I don't have a normal life, so I have no one to compare to. I don't know if how I feel is natural or if this fight is rigged.

My summer is also coming to an end, and I'll be heading into a particularly rigorous school year, so I'm worried that a change in medications might fuck me over and cause my grades to tank.

I don't want to feel like this anymore, but I'm out of time to try something different. In addition to that, I don't even know if this is real or if I'm just being a bitch.

I don't know what to do, and I don't have anyone I'm comfortable talking to.