i hung out with my partner this morning but had some obligations around dinner time, so we parted ways with the agreement that i would pick him up to go out later in the night, around 8pm. i sort of felt like my emotional state was depending on doing this thing with him tonight like, throughout the planning process, but i assumed we would get to go because we had been talking about it. he accidentally slept through our plans and my texts to him about it. i’m really upset - i knew i would be if we wouldn’t be able to do this. i don’t know why i was putting so much value onto this... we were going to go rock climbing. there are a lot of other factors that made tonight seem so much more important that i won’t bother typing out. he apologized and said how upset he was about it, but i’m honestly crushed. like i feel like i’m gonna be in a funk for days, just because of this  i guess this is a vent post. ugh, i don’t know how to feel, or what to feel, or anything.