how am i supossed to be working on my future when no matter how hard i try i cannot do simple things nor focus for even 5minutes on school work its just so tiring meds dont help idgaf anymore fuck school it makes me sick i hate my classmates hate my teachers everyday it gets worse im stuck in a infinite loop of locking myself in the bathroom and telling myself i can survive the next class if i just stay calm but in the end i always break down i want this to fucking end i wish i could drop out but i know i probably will regrey this decision