I told her most therapists write me off. She says it's the only measurable way to know if someone is ok. But I told her it's learned behavior. It doesn't mean I don't wanna go fuck 20 random guys, or get so drunk I pass out, or stay high for 3 days. Like really lady! I need help!! She says she wants to help but at the same time she said if we focused on the everyday things and the inner turmoil we would die in her office. I'm going to give her a few more sessions. This is only session two. But I ended up telling her some crazy things I did and thought, and she was like yeah that's crazy. And then we had to end the session. She didn't even walk me all the way out. Wonder if I scared her off, or if she was rushing back to her office to write about me. 

I've seen it posted here before that because we're functioning with bpd people write us off. It's happened time and again but this time I need help. For real. I can't keep quitting and restarting. I need to do some serious work and I hope she doesn't just write me off.