As the title said, I finally did a thing to help me with my anxiety

I’ve been suffering for years, some months are better than others, but last fall was the worst and when I actually started to consider getting help with it. 

Had a doctors visit today, just a regular well visit, and told her how I’ve been feeling. Made it the whole appointment without crying. I was shaking like crazy and I’m surprised she didn’t say anything about my abnormally high heart rate (it was literally at 170) but she listened to my problems and suggested medication. Tomorrow I start Lexapro. 

Hoping it’s a step in the right direction. I’m weary to talk to a therapist (I have trouble communicating how I’m feeling and I have trust issues) but I hope medication will bring my anxiety down enough to where I feel okay to talk to someone and dive deep into why I feel the way I do. 

It’s been a long 7 years fighting with my own brain. I am hoping for some quietness