so when anyone admits to liking you you literally cling on to them even when they really kind of treat you badly, and you don't want to leave in fear of never having that kind of connection with another person ever again?

 I end up trying to justify every little action that doesn't sit right with me with 'that I'm overreacting'  and it becomes a blurred line of if I actually am, or If I genuinely am being treated horrible. I feel like it's easier to blame myself than the other person.  Whenever I try to open up and talk about how I feel I instantly feel sick and regretful for even suggesting something was wrong.