I was seeing her on and off for over three years during my undergrad. I graduated and can no longer see her since she worked through the school. I found out a few months ago through another doctor that I have BPD.

My counselor was a social worker and I know she couldn't diagnose me. The thing is, I wonder if she knew and just decided to never mention it. I now know that some doctors have refrained from telling pwBPD about their diagnosis for various reasons. I can't help wondering if she felt the same. She had suggested that I get help for depression and substance abuse. She never really pushed it though. Her approach was to ask me what I thought I wanted to do.

However, since the beginning of my work with her, she taught me about invalidation, the biosocial theory, mindfulness, and other distress skills. She even suggested that I joined a group for DBT. I didn't know what DBT even was at the time. I thought she just wanted me in the group because I was struggling with my crises and she was leading the group anyways. I know DBT can be used to treat other things... but, again, I can't help wondering, did she use DBT because it was her specialty or something or was it because I had the symptoms of BPD and she knew it could help me?

I guess I'm asking here because I don't know if there is some sort of like safety/legal/disclosure policy or something to where she can't tell me now that I'm not seeing her? Especially since my only contact with her will probably be through email. I don't want to put her in an awkward situation. I'm not even sure what finding out/not finding out will even do for me.

I guess I kind of want closure. Sometimes I don't know if my diagnosis is real or not, but I think it is. I guess I want it to be real to me if I've had it all of these years and just never knew... She saw me for three years, I can't imagine that she never even thought of it... I really appreciated her though. SHe helped me through so much. The only counselor that I felt like really cared about me. Finding help since then has been hard for me.