I've never been in love, I don't know how that feels, I'm afraid I'll never be able to love anyone even though I wanna get married and live a life with a significant other. The closest to "love" I've ever been is my current obsession with my favorite person and it's always been like this - no love, just obsession. I crave love, I wish to know how it feels but all I've ever known is unhealthy obsession that eats me up from the inside and I can't even tell my favorite person about it because he's gonna hate me.