For me, it's talking a lot. And since I'm less depressed. I talk a shit ton like I did before when I was depressed on and off for 5 years straight. My ADHD meds also allow me to be active in conversations and formulate thoughts that I'd shut away before because I'd not be able to speak cohesively at all. I wouldn't speak in the past either because I was miserable or when I'd try, I'd pause and forget what I was going to say constantly and looked like an idiot 

I'm practicing stopping and bringing the conversatin back but it won't work. I try so hard to be concise but I don't know how I can't fucking do it. I'm practicing so hard but can't get better fast enough. So now when I notice it, I force myself to think about it and make myself cry because if I forget and don't shut myself away from people, I'll still do it. I'm crying like an idiot right now over it and deleting social media and all communication because I'll fuck up otherwise.

I don't know what the fuck to do. I feel like shit dwelling and crying about it. But if I don't make myself miserable to remember, I'll keep this up, I'll lose people anyways.

What the hell do I do. I'm trying everything people are telling me to do to stop talking and it won't. Fucking. Work.