I was a daddy's girl. 5 years ago you got one of the harshest sentencing to life a person could get. It's like your dead, but your not. Like your ghost is in the room haunting me. Everyone struggles around me with addiction, financial issues, or mental illness..just like me. I finally gave into anti depressants 4 months ago and it's helped, but I lost you dad at 19. I lost you and I've seen you in prison. Your not the man I thought you were. I miss who you were. I miss being able to lean on you. I hate this. I never do anything anymore it's been months since I had a job and I can't imagine working. I'm 24 and I feel like I'm 65. I just can't right now no lover understands this.