This happens every fucking time. I feel a little bit bad so I decide to sit out on something, and then everyone else gets closer to each other while I'm sitting there being forgotten about, and then I spiral and spiral and spiral and spiral and I have so much anger toward them, toward myself, toward everything, and obviously that makes me a deeply unlikable person. All my friends are doing great without me, actually, they seem a lot more free now that they don't have to worry about whether or not what they do will "offend" me.I don't know what to do, do I just leave? Do I just fuck off without a word and once again leave behind a group of friends who I used to cherish? Do I just go make new friends and wait for the cycle to start again?

My therapist tells me she doesn't want me to spend so much time online, that I'm too absorbed in my online friendships, she would probably be happy with me if I abandoned these people. I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do.