I do have ocd so it’s definitely related to that.. but I’m starting to think it’s also related to BPD. I am bisexual.. leaning more towards heterosexual  most of the time. I get obsessed about picking the ‘right’ side.. because it’ll be the answers to all my problems. Maybe I should be a lesbian.. I wouldn’t be in pain anymore.. I would find the perfect person and everything would make sense. Maybe I’m not traumatized.. maybe I don’t have CPTSD and BPD traits.. maybe I can’t make a relationship work because I’m with the wrong gender