*disclaimer i am not diagnosed yet*

a few months ago i decided to move to another state (many hours away from anyone i know) with one of my best friends. we were both super excited and we’re moving in a month but i think i’m splitting on her now.

she said something like a week ago that i just haven’t been able to get out of my head, i didn’t react in the moment, but it legit made me feel so horrible and i feel like i legitimately hate her now. like i feel like i’m going to move in with someone i hate. i’m starting to spiral and think like, if i was honest about how i felt about that other thing she said years ago, we prob never would’ve become friends at all, she’s not the type of person i want to be associated with, wtf is wrong with her, all this stuff. she was a bridesmaid in my wedding and one of my BEST BEST friends, arguably my best friend period. i’m having so much anxiety ab this cause i’m just waiting for my brain to flip back like it always does but at the same time like i don’t want anything to do with her lol. i’m going on vacation with her and more friends this coming weekend 😅. 

any advice or similar experiences?