I am completely destroyed.. I am trying to get money for the only option - surgery - removal of her entire kidney with the tumor. I found her in the woods 5 years ago and she was here for me when no one was. I live by myself from 16yo and she's been here for me when my parents couldn't take care of me and abandonded me. With my BPD, it's a lot harder. I am lost and I don't know, what to do. Without the surgery, she only has a few months to live. Any kind words appreciated.. I already know that I'll kill myself if she dies.