I’ll always be too much. For anyone. Even people who think they’ll be okay because “oh I know people with bpd, I know how to deal with it,” then they realise how severe my bpd is and leave. No one has ever truly got to know me and stayed. And that makes life feel so pointless I hardly feel like I can breathe. I’ve tried saying to people I’d do anything. I fuck people, give them my money, take care of them, change myself, do everything I can and still no one wants me. I might as well be nothing, because all I want is to be loved and it’s not even possible