There’s this person I care so much for. I still do. We met irl a couple of days ago and quite frankly we ended up doing some stuff I’m not super comfortable with. But I wanted to please him, then I got way too attached within hours. 

I got a really bad mental breakdown when he left, partially because I started missing him the second he left. But then I started feeling guilt. I felt like I wasn’t good enough for him. I just sucked. I don’t know. I felt like shit. So I sent him a message telling him I apologize, basically. I’m sorry if I was shit last night, I’m sorry if I’m too attached, but I love him and all of that. 

I have a terrible mental breakdown due to his lack of enthusiasm in his response but then he sent me a longer message later where he basically says, “I’m sorry it’s partially my fault. I got you to do things you didn’t feel comfortable doing just so I could have some fun, and looks like that led to you getting overly attached.”

So, yeah. Guess who’s suicidal now. Suicidal, sleepless, hungry, freaking out, wanna hit my head against the wall, fuck my life.