Usually I’m depressed and lack of energy and can’t even bring myself to eat. But almost every day I have those moments when I suddenly get a wave of motivation, hope and energy, the sad and empty go away and I feel good and not like a shadow of myself anymore
I call it ‘’euphoria’’ but most of the times it’s not really euphoria but I just feel like a normal functioning person and forget about the pain and the heaviness and I feel lightness in my heart, suddenly everything seems bearable and I feel like all my struggles disappeared and I can vibe and be happy. it lasts about 30 minutes-2 hours at most till something triggers me and then boom everything hits me again and I feel my entire life crashing down in my face. I feel all the hurt and all the anger all the pain and the guilt mix together and drown me and sometimes I start splitting about other people too. 
then I feel a pain in my chest and want to cry out of nowhere. suddenly I don’t want nothing anymore and I just want to sleep and forget about everyone. 
what do you do to deal with it?