So after years of being totally out of control and spiraling up and down, I've actually been doing pretty well. I moved cities (saving and planning) and am pursuing some dreams I hadn't in a long time. 

And since then I've been trying REALLY hard to stay stop medication, mindfulness and emotions. I'm doing pretty well, but I've noticed recently that I'm becoming numb, like nearly ICE COLD. 

Good things are happening, like exciting things, and i just don't care. Conversely, bad things are happening, and I also don't care, but this is the first time I'm starting to notice a severe lack of joy. 

Anyone else feeling this? I know it's probably a sheltering mechanism to shield myself from possibly hurtful emotions, but still. Kinda odd.