I have had HPV 16 for more than 2 years now and also some non cyclical lumps in my breasts and now am freaking out that I already have breast cancer. Or cervical cancer. 

On the other hand, I was always open to death in the past so... :DDDD In case I have cancer and it requires chemotherapy I can always kill myself. But DAE feel like no matter what happens in the future there is no way you gonna end your own life? I feel like a fair amount of people would have already killed themselves if they were in my position (bpd and everything great that comes with it).