I'm splitting on basically everyone in my life right now that knew even remotely that I am not in the best headspace. I'm scared they're all abandoning me because of how suicidal I've been lately and am just being too much for them to handle - which is true. I am being too much. I know this but I can't stop - so I'm yelling at people and saying goodbyes and I just want someone to fucking care but instead it's pushing them further away. I fully see what I'm doing, but I'm powerless to stop it. I don't know what to do. I'm so alone and I'm only making things harder on myself. All I want is for someone to care, to not abandon me.