
i don’t think i deserve love. My self esteem is pretty low and always has been i think. I don’t understand why people like me or when someone compliments me. I think I will never be able to have a relationship. The idea of someone loving me and being attracted to me is hard to imagine. I always think people think the worst of me and am forever insecure. I don’t know why i’m even typing this. It makes me sad to think of younger me, i wish i had felt better about myself and knowing that i’ve cut the same body of that little girl kills me. I want to give her a hug and tell her she is beautiful even if i don’t think that of myself right now. She feels like a different person. She didn’t deserve to feel the way she did.  Three years of my life i’ve been “depressed” and i feel like i always will. I can’t imagine ever being happy with myself or truly loving me