I'm only 20 years old and I keep failing and college, no matter how much I study, how much I don't sleep to study, how much I rest after studying, who I ask for help, I just can't get good grades or even pass. , and now I can't study this period because my grades are too low, so I have to wait an ENTIRE PERIOD to make an application to be able to study next year but conditional.

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I feel like I'm useless, both of my parents are breaking their backs for me and my siblings can live decently because I live in a third world country and fucking debts take most of the money, I have to study at the "Best University ". of the country", but I can't seem to keep up. I don't know why I passed the entrance exam. I should have to go to another university because they are supposedly easier but I got in there because it's basically free at most, like $10 - $20 $ per period, but even then I can't take it anymore.

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I can't let my parents keep struggling with things and I just don't know what to do.

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everything is so difficult, I just tried all the things that have come to my mind, I don't know if I'm to blame but I'm already tired of being like this most of the time, I haven't slept at all waiting for a response from the university but I had to call today because my emails were not being answered.

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I feel like I should just disappear so I don't bother my parents anymore or go to work and exploit myself for less than minimum wage