I have quite bad OCD. I will worry about things that are so ridiculous and events that are months ahead obsessively. It will not exit my mind for a moment for months and months. It is pretty ruthless to deal with. Lately I have just been giving up and feeding into it. I don't get anything done, I drink, use drugs, watch porn, and just lay around and watch tv or youtube videos all day. I should be working towards my career as I am currently living with my parents but I'm not doing anything. My parents are getting upset at my irregular sleep pattern and my inability to get anything done. I understand their frustration completely, though they can be quite callous and don't really understand what I'm going through mentally. But I don't blame them for being mad at me.

The problem with OCD is it will make whatever I'm working on feel useless. I'll be working towards something but in the back of my mind I'll think "even if I accomplish this, it won't matter because of (OCD fear)." It basically makes moving forward in life feel pointless. I have just given up for this past 6 months pretty much. I have gotten literally nothing done and just lay in bed until 3 PM and then bullshit around for a few hours. I really need advice and don't know what to do.