I will try to write in spite of the pain that prevents me from doing so... Well, 6 months ago I tried to break out of the depression spiral I was in and decided to go to a party. I bought three bottles of cheap wine. All I remember is that I drank them within two hours. I drank even though I felt stupid. Maybe I wanted to make up for those years of agony or maybe I wanted to kill myself that day.. Anyway everyone started dancing and enjoying the party while I was struggling to breathe as if I wanted that fight, anyway, nobody wanted to take care of me, I didn't want to at all and in the end I ended up fainting..why didn't he ask An ambulance, on the contrary, someone tried to rob me, but there was a man who stopped them and tried to wake me up .. but although it was impossible until I woke up again and went homeAnyway, I don't feel well, neither before nor after that night, and I think I had brain damage from lack of oxygen that night.. I'm tired of my gloomy features and my fading presence, I'm sick of rambling thoughts of what years have left inside me, in Actually I'm tired of everything despite my young age, I suffer from severe depression, my friends blame me for being away and many are angry because my condition is deteriorating.I really hate the human race, including myself(Sorry there was an incomprehensible solution, and I know you are saying who is the madman who wrote all this because I also feel strange)