I know this is very embarrassing to say and I know that I've been obsessing over fictional characters to a ludicrous degree since they give me escape from harsh reality, but I feel the burden of having to constantly curate my space to protect myself from people who don't like my comfort characters. I'm currently mass-Blocking people on Twitter who don't care for one of the main leads in favor of the other. It really makes me so mad when people just push aside the other character because of various reasons. I've been feeling very frustrated over this for over a year now. I did try to seek counsel from people in the same fandom but I've ended up annoying most of them. And I know I can't change people's opinions over which character they like and who they prefer but it just makes me so mad thinking about it. I want to go up to them and give them a physical and verbal beatdown but at the same time I want them to just stay away from me as far as possible and don't interact with me. The latter part is what I end up doing by mass-Blocking as much people as I can. Just them saying the character's name and having their profile modelled after said character is enough to make me Block them. I find that stuff very triggering. 

I've considered dying to get rid of all the anguish in my life, but it's impossible since I can't commit suicide. I've tried multiple times in the past, but it didn't work since I was too scared to and people stopped me from doing so. I haven't attempted suicide for a long time already, but every day I wanted to never exist.