
Anyho, here I am again, feeling like a failure. Does this ever go away? This perpetual longing for my calling in life? *cue operatic music as I feel dramatic today*. 

I’ve had it hard in life but still got me that MA in arts. But here I am applying for a cat sitting job. Like what the fuck? 

Who am I and what do I want to do in life? 

I’ve tried so many times to have the career I want and it just hasn’t gone to plan, every single time. 

So what’s left to do? Become a florist? Become a pumpkin grower? Honestly feel like I change my mind all the time about what I want to do with my life. 

I think I just need some advice. Been out of work for 6 months due to a spinal injury and want to get back into my career but finding it difficult, (physically can’t work yet and I’m bored, literally can’t find any good jobs). 

I just want a job I enjoy, that pays well and I don’t feel overwhelmed. Is that too much to ask for?

P.s forgotten to eat today and cba. Defo a BPD day for me.