My life just feels like such a drag. I'm struggling with even more things now. I got told by my therapist that I might have Dissociative Identity Disorder, and my mom took me out of therapy with them and changed them without any sort of notice. I've been struggling with school, or even getting out of bed. I only do it because I have to. I've had such a terrible life. And now I have testing coming up, schoolwork that will drop my grade because it's missing so I'll get my stuff taken away, expectations to do everything perfect, and more. It just makes me become even more numb. I've been using things as a distraction, like videogames and music, but that only helps temporarily. I have a paper due tomorrow morning and I've barely started. I just wanna give up again. I know it's not good, but I want to. It stings to live every day like this. Not feeling like yourself, not knowing when you might just fade out as your body does things you can't help, constantly feeling like someone's watching you with this malicious intent, etc. Even my positives of gaining weight when I weighed a little under 120lb, or being on hormone therapy just don't make me as happy as they did. I should sleep before I do something dangerous. Goodnight, to whoever reads this. I'm sorry for you listening to my stupid ranting about matters that involve nobody.