Hello! I have a question and I guess I didn’t know where else to go besides the internet. I have had anxiety (OCD) since I was a teen after a traumatizing moment and now I am in my 20s. I got a hold of it and it became manageable until I had a mental spiral in college with alcohol and ended up back to square one. ( it’s been almost a year now) My anxiety usually revolves around my stomach. Every time my stomach hurts or feel off, I get anxious or panic. I avoid long car rides or places where there’s no restroom because I am scared if I’ll have to use the toilet. 

I have a boyfriend who I have been seeing for two months now. I get anxious around him if my stomach starts to make noises or feel off and it causes me to want to be by myself. It’s been getting easier as time goes but I feel myself going back to square one sometimes. I was in a toxic relationship for four years which involved manipulation and cheating before him. It was hard to move on because I have a hard time getting comfortable around new people. I’m trying to let him in and be comfortable but it’s so hard. 

Even if I did use the bathroom, I know he wouldn’t care because we joke around, but my mind doesn’t accept it. He’s always telling me to talk to him if i need to and offering to leave if needed but i feel so guilty. My main fear is having to go to the bathroom and not being able to access it which it’s never happened but my mind won’t let it down. 
does anyone have any advice? Does it get easier? How do I relax around him?