I was over one year self-harm free, the longest I had ever been since I started 8 years ago. Now all my hard work is gone. I was really freaking out and I felt like I was headed towards the edge and I just needed some relief. So I did it. And while it helped a little, I hate myself for throwing away over a year of hard work and I’m scared that my parents are going to find out (I’m a college student that had to move back home because of COVID-19). I don’t know what to do. I can’t even see my psychiatrist to let him know that I’m spiraling because he’s in a different state and telemedicine won’t let see him across state lines. I just feel so stupid.