As the title says, whenever I hear or learn that someone or several people have died I wish it was me. I can't stop thinking about death and dying. I don't want to exist in this world...



The people around me were so shitty. I was bullied, called a freak, was isolated, never had a real friend. I had to create my own friends, create another world to get away from reality. It worked for a time, but then it wasn't enough. I was forced to face reality and it was actually worse than before.



I no longer want to suffer! I want my death to be near and soon. I don't want to hear about other people dying because it just makes me angry and jealous! I Just Want To Fucking Die!