I've been struggling for a bit with dealing with life. Started a job at a grocery store that I absolutely despised and quit immediately after a week. 

I decided to do a Longshot thing and contact a dog daycare an hour away from me in hopes of moving down there. Surprisingly they offered me a job interview and offered me the job. I still had not found a place to stay. So past 2 weeks I've been incredibly stressed trying to find roommates.

I had one person just ghost me after seeming like a good option and then drove down and met two other people. I hate meeting new people cause it's stressful but tried to stay positive. One person dropped out on me but i just found out today the other person said I'll be able to move in. 

I genuinely can't believe it. I have been so miserable and even suicidal lately cause I just felt hopeless but I kept trying and something worked out. Its not going to be easy i know that for sure. But I'm leaving a place with strict religious people and going to have a roomate who is lgbt friendly and I'm so excited for a new chapter. 

I wanted to post here cause literally yesterday I had a meltdown and was contemplating self harm. I'm really glad I didn't do anything. I just have to keep fighting the urge to give up. It's really hard but it's possible.