I’m 26, never had a serious relationship per se.. Haven’t had a relationship in 6 years or so and my life has gone nowhere the past 5 years as well…
I’ve always kinda felt like a social giraffe, too kind hearted and placed other people’s “best interests” before my own happiness if you could say that.. Every single day is the same basically. I feel like I’m about to crack almost every second day.. I feel like a wandering non-living being most of the time and that my “distractions” get me through the never-ending cycle of purgatory..

Now my brother have been living at my place for a while as well and I feel like I can’t even harm myself with a good conscience since he needs my roof over his head until he gets settled..

I feel lost in life, I have made some bad decisions, got lot of regrets on my actions and I’ve thought to much instead of living my life to its fullest.. I don’t got many friends and feel like I’m not really that close to many of them either.. I have really been stupid in life..

I feel lonely, sad, scared for my loved ones and mostly just out-of-touch with reality..

I’ve been wandering outside in nature the past months time a lot to get away from my thoughts, possessions and myself, but I still feel hallow and empty inside.. I sometimes feel like not wanting to return any longer back home.