I’m tired of being a burden on my family. I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of not being enough. My mom passed this year and everyone expects me to just get over it when she was the only one who cared unconditionally and loved me unconditionally. I have children and I do everything I can for them. They have all of their necessities and they get what they want for the most part. All though sometimes I don’t know how I’m gonna do it I always make ends meet. But someway somehow others make me feel like I’m not enough. I can’t afford lavish things ? I’m worthless. I scrape up all of the money left over to do something big for my kids? I shouldn’t have. I allow people to walk all over me and be the bigger person? I’m wrong and should speak up. I speak up? I’m wrong and shouldn’t react. Every time I start to get up they push me back down. I’m doing it alone and I try so hard. Yet it’s never enough. But I still push through because I have my kids. I hate that even after they treaT me badly I’m still there for everyone. I hate that no one cares. That I’m all alone and have no value.