I get VERY angry when I drink too much. It's to the point where I become violence and have attacked people. It frightens me because I was not always like this. I'm a small, 19 y/o female. I have mood swings and difficulty controlling my anger when I'm sober, but for the most part I have learned to manage them. I am not a violent person and I would never consciously act the way I do when I drink too much. I have attacked people, ran in front of cars, threatened to kill myself/others, and have been told that I appear to be "possessed". I'm terrified that this will keep happening, and i'm even more afraid to think that it's the real me. Does this happen to anyone else? Is it because of my BPD or am I just a terrible drunk? 