In all of my relationships I always feel like I’m the one putting in more effort. I just want someone to love me as much as I love them. I will do anything for a person I love, support them, help them, be there for them whenever they need, give them space and truly understand them, but I feel like there’s nobody that will love as hard as I do. I do understand that there’s tons of time to meet someone and the “right” person will come but it just hurts when relationships fail continuously. I love hard and fast then I “feel or think” they are getting distinct and I cut it off completely, which is extremely unhealthy. I just want to be loved. So deeply undeniably loved, but I’m afraid this wish is out of my reach. I’ll probably get over it in a couple of hours when my feelings change but for right now it really hurts. The feeling of being unlovable I mean.