I feel like I'm going insane. My anxiety used to be triggered by very real issues but the past couple weeks (post trigger) I can't stop the feeling of constant worry and fear when I don't perceive any threat. The obsessive thoughts and rabbit hole of inner turmoil in my mind are so bad, along with the physical manifestations of anxiety.

When I really try to do something to take my mind off of it, I can't stop crying. I used to be able to meditate or turn my brain off with mindless entertainment but I haven't been able to. All of this is especially bad when I'm trying to sleep which leads me to not being able to sleep at all.

I genuinely feel like I'm going insane and even though it's only been 3 weeks, I'm struggling to remember what feeling normal is like. I worry about the strain this is putting on my relationship with my partner. I don't want him to visit because I obsess over things that don't matter like the fact that my room isn't clean and my hair is a mess. While realistically I know this is stupid and it doesnt matter and that he's very supportive, it stresses me out to no end regardless.

I've been trying to get more intensive help besides the psychiatrist I see for medication but it has been super slow. I haven't been back to work since this started as if I wasn't stressed enough to begin with. I'm not really sure what I should be doing at this point or what more I can do.

Very sorry for the long rant. I just have a lot going on in my mind and no place to vent.