this may be a bit of a controversial rant but whenever i vent here, there's always people who seem to doubt me and think im faking (if this is due to paranoia etc then ignore this post it's okay nw!!). i know there's a chance i will never understand how u specifically feel, but i might be experiencing something similar. i just don't fully know yet. im 16 and have felt like somethings always felt off, and by doing research ive discovered that bpd is currently the most similar to what im dealing with. i understand its infuriating to have some kid think they know what you're dealing and have been diagnosed with, but im at the start of everything right now. that might be me in a few years. maybe its not. i can't just wake up one day knowing what's wrong with me, being diagnosed on the spot and being able to get help. it's a long process (especially with my age and country) and i think most people with mental health issues understand that.