One of my only friends and closest one who I considered my favorite person asked me to not contact them again, our friendship wasn't working and I felt it coming, honestly.

I'm at loss right now, I'm medicated for anxiety which is helping me a lot, I didn't even cry yet, but I feel like I'm going to puke at any moment and my body feels heavy. I'm going to try to sleep since sleep meds are kicking in but I'm just... numb.

Does anyone have any tips to how to deal with it? I barely talked to anyone besides them, and the only other person I'm close to is their partner. I don't want to talk to them at the moment.

I don't want to go to work tomorrow (work with my parents, I have a cold right now and if I say I'm unwell, I'll stay at home), but I don't know if it will be any good.

I'm lost. I don't even know what to think about. My current hyperfixation is the show we talked about and wrote stories about. The character I kin and am fixated on is the one we ship with the one he kins. I can't even turn to my safe space right now. 

Please send anything that helped you with this kind of thing? I feel so empty right now, I don't know what to do