
I have an autoimmune disease that is pretty easily controlled. Celiacs so basically I have to avoid gluten. 


Today she was freaking out because my dad told her more about Celiacs and how it’s serious. I appreciated her concern  but told her that Celiacs, while serious, is not anywhere near the top of my “issues”. I said that my issues with people / my mental health issues were my biggest issues by far. 


She told me how she knows that that’s not good but that he told her how celiacs can kill me if I’m eating gluten by accident (it doesn’t really but it makes it much likely for you to get stomach cancer + ruins quality of life). 


For a second I almost laughed…. I’ve been suicidal before. As a teen I told her about my plans to kill myself and she did nothing. Last summer (she doesn’t know) I took some pills hoping it would kill me… and she’s worried about celiacs killing me. 


I almost slipped up and said if I’m dying of anything soon (I’m 21 and otherwise healthy) it would be my mental health issues, but I stopped myself halfway. 



At the end of our convo I told her that I genuinely appreciate her concern for me but that I had bigger things to worry about than seeing a doctor again for celiacs. 


Idk I found this whole thing funny- I’m unemployed, have no friends, am not in school, barely leave my house, and even self harmed last year - but she doesn’t really acknowledge these issues.