College was rough for me. I decided, to help with making friends, that I would join a club. That was my universities anime club

Starting college, I already was dealing with the after affects of abuse and trauma from my childhood. I was very meek, shy, and vulnerable. Perhaps it factors into my college experience which doesn't seem to be the norm

Initially, my time with the club felt great. I connected with other members and we would hang out almost everyday on campus. Though, things seemingly became unsettling. I noticed there was tension amongst members that was easily felt within the group. I myself, was also teased and picked on from time to time. However I was so desperate for friends I stayed as my mental health worsened. About a year later, I was sexually assaulted by a member in the club. Things went downhill from here

My friends chose to stay friends with my assaulter, and reporting it to my school did not help

Also before anyone asks, I didn't go to the police because I didn't feel comfortable at the time. Even now, it's traumatic to imagine even filing a report. I hope you understand

Eventually, the trauma was so much that I had to leave. I was officially alone. On top of that I was diagnosed with BPD and everything made sense. Yet everything also felt a lot worse

As I stand today, I have come a long way. I'm in my last year of college and made some friends that I am happy to be with. However, it seems that my bullying experience is not so common and has left me feeling alone

I wanted to know if anyone can relate