Not too long ago I was diagnosed, I'm still educating myself, soon they will increase my dose like depakene, etc.  But for years I've noticed that I have such racing thoughts where I think I can do it all, I want to do it all, I'm going to do it all, and then comes a decision of incredible energy.  I feel lost, and I don't know where to start, so soon, nothing makes sense, I find everything quite apathetic, meaningless.  It's like for a long time I was my own master, revoking help, because I thought it was something normal that would happen, and now I need mastery that doesn't come from me... is apathy predominantly in you?  do you feel (real) and genuine pleasure in doing things?  that fill the chest?  or do they go on autopilot because they feel they are “fine”?