So to give some context, I (M 20) tried to kill myself back in April and seriously almost died (24h coma after willingly taking a lot of pills and alcohol). Fortunately I got really better after that but still had a few breakdowns, but I am really better than ever. Unfortunately it looks like everyone is acting nervous and stressed around me because they're so scared I'm going to do it again. For example my girlfriend told me she was exhausted of me because she can't deal with this kind of shit, and that she's kind of just nervously waiting for me to have my next big breakdown. I can understand but it's really dragging me down because how can I move on to a stable and rather normal behavior when my closed ones are all treating me like a crazy dude who's edgy as hell and gonna go do horrible things eventually at some point. I feel like a criminal getting punished for a crime he's already done his time for. I need advice :(