Not really sure if this is the right place to be posting this but I’ve run out of options and have severe anxiety right now. 

I am 100% certain I have BPD, always struggled with my mental health and anxiety. For the last week I’ve been dissociating really bad, I’ve fallen out with all my family members because I’ve just not been myself, yesterday was awful, I spent the whole day in bed and I’ve been forgetting things I’ve said and done for the last week. My dad also has BPD. my friend who recently got diagnosed mentioned to me that I show a lot of symptoms, so I looked into it as I never really have before and now all my problems make sense. The only problem is I’m so anxious about ringing my doctors about it, is that even who I ring to get diagnosed/help?! For years my doctors have parred me off so now I’m always too anxious to even make an appointment. I’m in the uk, and help for mental health really isn’t the best in my area. I just don’t know what to do, I have children that I need to care for and right now my mental health is fucking everything up. I have so many responsibilities that I have to be ok for, I can’t keep dealing with this alone.