I don't know how to handle the splitting, the all or nothing mindset. long story short I just ended a relationship with someone who I adored. I went from thinking the world of her, to not feeling a think when I told her we will never speak again, and we can't be friends. This is the 9th relationship/friendship that it's happened in and I don't know if it's even worth it to try and make friends. It's a cycle I can't seem to get out of, and all the while in the back of my mind I'm thinking who's the next one. Sometimes I feel gross, other times I don't feel at all.