BACKGROUND

A while ago I posted about being afraid of going to the dentist but ended up going anyway and he said I had a gum infection caused by my wisdom tooth/teeth and gave me a cure. 

Well, my pain keeps coming back and then luring in the background. Tuesday was SO BAD I didn't fall asleep until 4 AM and woke up at 8AM bc the pain was back. (Didn't notice it in my sleep). 

Got up and called the dentist, explaining my symptoms... I told them that I want my wisdom teeth removed, idc how healthy and clean they may 'look', they are causing me immense pain and I've been walking around with this issue for EIGHT MONTHS. But I don't want to have to get them removed right before or during the holidays bc if I do I won't be able to eat the food I enjoy most....

So Dentist prescribed penicilline and ibuprofen and I picked that up yesterday. 

FAST FORWARD TO NOW

I managed to stumble through my day. Now with mild pain instead of intense. Had a  nap between 5PM and 7.30PM in which I felt no pain or less pain. 

But when I joined BF to go to bed at 12AM, I got a little wave of anxiety. I decided to watch Frozen 2 on my phone (bc I hadn't watched it yet, good movie overall 7/10 imo) but I felt my anxiety get worse. 

It wasn't a full on attack, just that weird feeling on the brink of being okay and feeling anxious. Idk if anyone will understand what I mean by that. Basically, I felt like the air I was breathing wasn't 'enough'. 

Soo at first I was watching youtube but I started not being able to concentrate much. So I opened Disney+ again and put on Mickey Mouse Clubhouse (I know it's meant for 4 year olds but it helps me calm down) and started cleaning our kitchen cabinets &amp; drawers. 

Our kitchen is the furthest room from our bedroom and I thought the light wouldn't wake up my BF bc I don't want to bother him with my non-rational thoughts and fears. 

Cleaning and tidying the cabinets and drawers took me 1,5 hours total. I also finished wrapping xmas presents and put the ones for family in a shopping bag to - safely - drop them off on Christmas Day. 

My question now is... is cleaning a calming experience for anyone else on here? Do you also feel like it takes your mind away from focusing on breathing and instead on getting that awful coffee stain out of the cabinet door? (For example). 


TLDR; wisdom teeth hurt, don't want them pulled before/in between the holidays, got medicine, feeling anxious, cleaned my whole kitchen and finished wrapping presents at 2AM.

Also,this might be a usefull tip, though I wouldn't recommend doing a cleanup at 2AM 😅 

Happy holidays, guys/gals/nb pals.