Physically I’m healthy, I know rationally I’m doing fine, and have loved ones who are supportive, but my anxiety is driving me nuts. I feel so insecure and keep having compulsive recurring thoughts to quit. Quit my job, quit my 7-years relationship, quit life. My boyfriend has been so supportive and reassuring but I feel like I’m such a toxic waste to him, I’m constantly in fear that he will finally get sick of me leave me. I have a decent but stressful job and I’m again living in deep fear of making a mistake that could cause fairly severe consequences. I’ve been wanting to switch jobs or go back to school but worry I will fail and want to quit before I even try. I just feel like I can’t have anything nice or move onto next stage of life/relationship cuz I’m so afraid of losing it.  I mean if I don’t have them, I can’t lose them right? I’ve brought up my anxiety with my doctor and she just brushed it off every time attributing to normal stress but I’ve woken up in panic attacks crying and feeling like vomiting. 

This all got really bad the last decade, I remember when I didn’t have these thoughts ever. I just want to reverse it all and I don’t know what went wrong. Is this something I can get over with… will I be able to live and breath without all this worrying… I feel so stuck