i just got diagnosed with bpd and major depression and anxiety not long ago. it took a lot of mess and mistakes to finally get there. it made sense at the moment and it was helpful knowing why i was doing the things i did, thought and felt. now its kinda eating me. I regret everything ive ever done, like everything. i  dont wanna get into details but being sporadic and not having self image or self esteem made me go out looking for it wrong in all places and acting not like me,I even though im not quite sure what that is. I  am in a bad place right now. Ive hurt someone that i  loved very much and did so much but god bless his soul he has been so patient with me but i dont want to put him through the trouble of being with me because i can b very hurtful and nasty. theres so much more that i  cant even get into right now. Basically this post is asking for help with coping and getting over the diagnoses. I  havent been able to get out of bed because im so hopeless at the moment. ive lived the last probably 4 years fucking around because i got expelled and got transfered to a school where they didn not give a shit about you attending school or no so that got me to not do anything all day  and having other people take care of me but im trying to cut everyone off and just be alone. I get the nastiest anxiety thinking about me going out to work and just living if that even makes sense. i am just so low and i know it will pass because it always had but i just hate being categorized and i  cant really wrap my head around it. What helped you cope? how do you live knowing you're gonna be depressed forever? please help.