That's it, everything is a lie and my suffering is meaningless...I don't get to feel bc none it's real I'm just playing pretend but the acts..just that none it's real and it never will be...all I have is music to mute my thoughts and they'll never go away bc it's the truth. As long as I live I'll be playing pretend...stupid fucking life lol...I still fall into feeling for nothing. It's the worst of all, living is a curse. Your forced to play pretend..I'm so over it now. IM TOO FUCKING OLD haha