I've only known this girl maybe 6 months and we've only been hanging out for about 2 1/2 months and we already have this best friend thing going on.

I embarrassed myself pretty badly by some things I said while drunk, so I was ready to split on her cause I'm such a terrible person, but here she is, hasn't given up on me yet. Not to mention this guy shes dating who also happens to be my neighbor, which leaves less time for us to hang out.

My previous long time friend of 3 years gave up on me shortly before I met this girl, cause I was falling into a suicidal pit when she became friends with one of my friends and they started spending all their time together.

Anyway, just wanted to vent all this. I obviously have some problems with jealousy and the fear of being abandoned. I'm just really surprised shes still fighting for me. She said she cares and I can't push my good friend(s) (her) away, that we're stronger than that, and I just need to accept it and let it go and she'll always be there for me.

It's nice to know some people won't judge and just run away... at least until next time I flip out, hah.