that my reaction when confronted with it is very impulsive and dangerous to my mental and physical health. i hyperventilate and get such intense headache that i feel like i get a heart attack. 

i blocked both of my parents but still live at home with them, just very isolated. i escape reality so hard that i dont even bother moving out since it means i will have to work full time forever and pay bills etc. 

my dream in life is just to be left alone... im 26yo and some years ago i said to a person who asked me what my goal in life is "i just want to procrastinate reality and see how far i get" 

any1 else in the same boat?