I will be making an appointment with my doctor soon, I understand strangers on the internet won't be able to diagnose my throw away account haha.  I just wanted to get other opinions!   
I have to fake emotions a lot, with my husband and with all other humans lol. If someone gives me a compliment or good news, I feel completely blank inside but I realize they're happy so I try to respond. If someone tells me their mother died I have to force the right emotion out. But I actually have too many emotions when it comes to babies and children. Anytime I hear an infant cry, it makes me insanely sad. I read an article online about a 4 year old being sexually molested and it made me sick, but I can read the transcripts of the toybox killer tapes and I don't even feel a little bad. I'm a nice person I think, sometimes overly nice because I try to compensate for my horrible attitude all the time, but I have to force myself to be nice. I have heard people talk about me and say that I am like a brick wall, but I love playing with children and I think I am a great mom. I was sexually molested by my brother growing up, and physically abused by a step mother. 

By the way, I am a woman, 23 years old. 