Obligatory warning(?) for suicide. Please mind the flair i fucking beg. Sorry for bad grammar its super very late.


I feel very suicidal at an almost constant for around 6 months? But it’s not from a “i feel like i take up space” standpoint, more of like... “damn. do i really want to live to thirty?” i also got this weird need to figure out what happens when we die and instead of goin about it logically im like “oh yeah well we could find out right this second”

It just seems more casual and its kinda scaring me. Im not super educated on this kind of thing and I’ve only just figured out my trauma and started proper seeing a therapist and shit. i live in a kinda shit household so i cant go to my parents because theyd blame it on internet and isolate me. Im not askin for pity or “it gets better!” wishes. i just wanna know if its normal? my bad if this aint the kind of subreddit for this. im just confused.