I recently went through a break up and it happened suddenly so sudden that it has caused me to doubt every single thing about myself and think of myself as a person whos annoying or unlikeable. During the relationship i really tried my best to be a good partner, i always reflected on my actions and was willing to communicate. But out of nowhere the relationship ended. Now i am afraid to be myself anywhere because i dont want to push people away from me. For example at the start of my first college year i hung out with a group on a saturday night, we had a few drinks and it was just a really fun,chill night and i thought that i was building a relationship with these people. But next monday i saw them , said hello and was ignored by the entire group. I was absolutely dumbfounded because i didnt know why it happened. There are multiple experiences like this that i had which people cut me off for no apparent reason. This might make me look like a bad person but believe me i am trying my absolute best to be a nice person but every time something like this happens and i dont know what i am doing wrong and it has led me to having mental breakdowns very often. I dont know what im doing to push people away from me. My anxiety is just getting worse and worse. The idea of commiting suicide comes by a lot recently. I am so lost. I just want to make friends and have fun. I dont know what i am doing wrong and its killing me.