I'm in a relationship with a person who suffers from bpd and it's pretty hard . When this relationship started i was confident , happy and peaceful , these days i am angry all the time , sad and with suicidal toughts . No matter what i do in this relationship , she will drive me crazy every single day of the week , and it's been going on for months . 


No matter how much affection or how close i am to her she will find something she is scared of , has a doubt on or just annoy her , and start up a massive fight between us . Even if it doesn't regard me in any way whatsoever . 

The process is always as follows : she gets angry or fearful or doubtful --&gt; start a fight between us over something absolutely useless --&gt; gets sick as in physically sick and mentally sick ( panic attacks , shakes and trembling ) --&gt; somehow makes me apologies for everything ( that's the only way she will calm down ) 

She often threatens me with suicide or harming herself if i don't do what she asks when she is in a panic , such as staying on the phone with her for the entire day as an example 

We alse have good moments , three or four days of calm and then the cycle repeats itself

This is only scrathcing the surface and i don't wanna post a wall of text , i just wanna say that this relationship is pretty much torture . I was so hopeful and full of live before this relationship, now it's destroying me . 

I just need help