A psych I’m 2017 said I’m BPD and my psych now told me I’m BPD a year  ago but I still can’t accept it. One of my friends has BPD and I really can’t stand her. Another friend who has a masters in the mental health field said psychs etc hate working with BPDs and we are the craziest personality disorder. I hate to admit I used to make fun of my BPD friend for how cray she was. I didn’t understand how she could just blame everything on her disorder. Now I’m becoming more open to learning about it and it’s just making me depressed and feel guilty for my whole life and I’m realizing that maybe I’m a POS and didn’t know this whole time.