My relationships start well and then slowly fizzle out into nothing. I don’t know why. I haven’t gotten a straight answer. The only thing I can think is there’s something people don’t like about me when they see me up close. 

I’m sad about it. But it’s an accepting kind of sad. This is just how things are and how things are going to be, and it’s better to not get my hopes up anymore. Maybe this will be good for me. Teach me not to rely on other people for my happiness. I don’t know. Every day I become more and more broken.