I finally received my autism diagnosis at 25 (went to a ASD specialized clinic). But I didn't expect a diagnosis for bipolar type 1 together with it + multiple complex developmental disorder, but it's not an official diagnosis because it's not included in the DSM. I do relate a lot to MCDD though. 

But here's the thing: I don't really relate to bipolar 1 that much. I have been depressed since age 14 or 15 now and it has been very though. Yet, I never experienced myself as someone who goes from a depressed state to a manic state. Most of the time I'm depressed, with some "good" days in between, but the good has become more or less neutral. They're good because I can function, I can laugh, I can go out and enjoy life at least for a bit. On these days I usually go out with my partner, I send a bunch of text messages to neglected friends, I try to fix everything I have been neglecting during depression (usually I will try to look for a new job or place to live) or I start art projects which I can never finish due to depression coming back. Yet, these neutral/good days are very mild - I don't spend all my money or do something harmful. Note: these days never last for a long time. I always feel as if I have to make the best out of it because I know I will get depressed again.

I have had one or two very clear manic episodes, but not in a way I did impulsive things. During these episodes I was convinced I would die very soon, so I started painting like crazy, as if I was about to make my last artworks. I was also quiet busy figuring out the universe or at least I tried to figure out when the world would end. I was seeing the Omega symbol everywhere. Another time I felt so paranoid I thought there was a hidden conspiracy against me, that the government wanted to kill me and other people like me. I believed that people around me could literally read my thoughts, and therefore they would figure out how terrible I was. I started to isolate, in real life and on social media, because I was afraid people would "expose me".

...While writing this down I can understand why I got the diagnosis. HOWEVER. I never or rarely feel exceptionally good or like a God or elevated in that sense, most of the time I'm super super depressed. I'm not asking for opinions on my diagnosis, but I just wonder if it's possible for bipolar type 1 to be depressed more often than (hypo)manic. I'm just trying to figure out what the manic part means, how it can occur, in which ways it can present itself. Maybe there are some subtle ways I'm not yet aware of. I have no clear track on my cycle, I just know that in a week I will have more depressed days than anything else.

  
It's very confusing because there is some overlap with ASD (for example not eating or sleeping because of hyperfocus on a certain task or subject). It's so confusing!!! Somebody wants to share their experiences? I'm really lost.