so my current relationship is my first and only relationship since receiving my BPD diagnosis in 2019. Tomorrow this relationship will be ending because he cannot handle my BPD and i feel as though i deserve better, although i’m confident in the decision to end the relationship i’m also extremely terrified for my future. i don’t know if i’ll ever find anyone who will be okay with my BPD. I’m so scared i’ll never find someone who loves me because god my current boyfriend is the best man in the whole world. he’s so kind, he’s so smart, he’s funny, he’s compassionate, he’s caring... to everyone but me. he loves EVERYONE except me. he has a heart of gold. If someone like that, someone so so so good doesn’t want me, i don’t see how anyone ever could... and it doesn’t just hurt, it aches. it’s a horrible feeling i don’t know if i’ll ever get over or recover from. i don’t know how to be okay.