It’s been a little over 6 months since I tried to end it. I’ve seen so many doctors for so many things. I take about 11 pills worth of supplements and medications. I’m trying so hard. So fucking hard. And it’s just so tiring.

I’m being social. I’m exercising. I’m applying to jobs. I’m going back to school. I quit smoking. I’m dating someone. 

But I’m so fucking tired. I want to end my relationship because I don’t want to burden anyone with my mental health. What if I get a job (somehow) and fuck it up? I cried when I took my meds tonight. I’m so stressed and I know it’ll pass, like it usually does, but I’m so tired of accommodating my brain. I just want to be normal. 

Is this my normal?