I feel like my whole energy goes into trying to fix myself, my moods, only doing relaxing things, getting help, watching stuff, sleeping, painting, idk. And i don't have energy nor motivation left for productive stuff, learning what i want to learn and hang out or basically anything.
And then i have an episode and i realize that everything i do is in vain because it all comes back, and on top of that i dont do anything professional or social. I started getting very jealous of my boyfriend who is involved in like 3 projects and hangs out with people and i hate that i feel that towards him. Idk what else to do.. Im starting to lose all hope. 