I don’t know how to explain it, I’m just so scared of how people perceive me, I’m scared that people may overhear me and take what I say the wrong way. 

For example, a few weeks ago, my school club was recruiting for a competition, and I had some inquiries to I messaged the lecturer. I enquired about the commitment and such and realised that I was way in over my head and decided not to try out. I cited conflicts with current commitments. 

I was worried the whole week that she would think that I am fickle, untrustworthy and afraid of hard work. 

Are my thoughts normal? They consume me sometimes.