I honestly don't feel like writing but fuk it. I am suffering from this disorder and I am going to seek help tomorrow. I just can't help but feel helpless and empty and like a victum and a villan. I attack myself, get attacked all due to my actions. I know that right now I dont as much like being myself I am trying and can only keep trying I have good days too... it just feels like the good days give me too much energy and I act out impulsivly or feel like its a "godsent". Anyways this is my ramble ill be okay hope you guys have a good week thanks for reading. 