Hi! I’ll try my best to describe the issue I’ve. I feel like most people around me have some sort of “pressure” points about me. It could be names of people I used to know (I know many people have similar names but still). Or maybe a particular sentence that I used to say a lot before. Or it could be something I said to someone, and somehow most people know. It’s like whatever I’ve done in my life in past, everyone’s aware of it. Now like any human being, I’ve done good stuff and bad stuff depending upon what people describe as good/bad. 
However I start to get bit of adrenaline in my veins every time someone says something that I used to do before. Is there a way that I can see this world as a safe place or something.