I’ve been officially diagnosed with BPD for 2 years now. It has impacted my life in every way possible and I have been in treatment since I was 12. Now as an adult, I’m struggling with finding a sense of accomplishment. I reached a few milestones recently. A year since my last attempt, a year since my last self-harm episode, a year of sobriety from my  drug of choice. It just doesn’t feel good enough. I’ve been on 10+ different medications. I’ve tried TMS, EMDR, DBT, CBT, and every therapy program available to me. I still deal with severe symptoms that impact my life on a daily basis. I struggle holding a job, my relationship suffers from it, I can only deal with things in extremes. I feel like I am chasing this impossible standard of happiness and being “cured”. Maybe I’m chasing this unattainable extreme high, or happiness. Whereas realistically, I will be content and comfortable in my life and I don’t need extreme highs and lows to feel okay. I don’t know… it’s hard to see this for what it is. Any advice or thoughts is greatly appreciated.