I was listening to podcast and it was brought up that one with bpd had interest in crime shows etc. I could indulge myself into information about vile crimes, murders, kidnappings, serial killing. In a way that would really make you question my sanity

 * quick story my boyfriend walked in on me watching some show about a family that was murder or something of the like and he looked me crazy and asked if I was really actually whacking it. I knew how weird it was especially him knowing I have a mental disorder I didn’t want to freak him out so I kind of brushed it off like it was just something that was on for sounds (sounds dumb thinking about it now bc what sounds? Sounds of people talking about their significant others being murdered lol) 

Anyways just curious on this correlation I don’t know anyone who watchers crimes shows or looks into minders the way I do. Maybe just was a coincidence or maybe somethin correlating with bpd. They skimmed over it pretty quickly and I write this as I still let it play in the back. Jut curious if anyone else can relate. 
Also aside from BPD I’m pretty normal and you wouldn’t think I’d watch such vulgar things it’s would surprise a lot of people my interest in it but that as far as it goes just curiousness about how things happen...? I’m not too sure why I find so much interest in it but maybe share yours thoughts!! 

: From criminal minds to real life serial killings   


If you’re interested in the podcast it’s linked below with rough time frame 

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/303-feeling-invisible-bpd-celia-finkelstein/id427377900?i=1000377735638  ~ around 30-35 mins