You guys know the typical feeling, right?

-Okay, its been 10 minutes, that's fine. They are busy

-30 minutes, okay, maybe they're thinking of what to say

-ITS BEEN AN HOUR AND IM GOING TO VOMIT. SUICIDE. SUICIDE IS THE ONLY ANSWER HERE. THEY BLOCKED MY NUMBER LAST WEEK I BET. ILL NEVER GET A RESPONSE NOW. THIS IS IT. YOU'VE RUINED IT ALL.

-2 hours, my life is over. They hate me. Life is a joke. Why do I even apologize anymore?

Last week's falling out happened after I exposed myself emotionally and didn't get a response for 5 hours so I got sad and said something sad that pissed them off.

so I'm clenching my asshole really hard and riding the pangs of anxiety. 

I WONT send more texts
I WONT start crying (maybe I will later)


holy christ its been  TWO FUCKING HOURS WHY CANT THEY JUST SAY SOMETHING YOU KNOW. Why are people so fucking stupid with texting. Don't you SEE that I'm giving you my goddamn heart on a silver platter??

Hi, my name is Crazy Person^tm and I'm going back to therapy this week so I thought sending an apology and explanation for my behavior would be okay but apparently, people can't be bothered to respond to me in a normal sense. 

Basically, I'm going to get stoned now and try to numb myself by looking at graphic NSFW subreddits and try to force myself to hate this person again. 