these days i’ve been adopting a more “fuck all you bitches, i have goals to achieve” attitude. it’s probably good news for my career by getting this huge drive, but as always i think im going to extremes again. 

suddenly, having this attitude also means i’m suddenly more abrasive, less tolerant and more unemotional. it’s like im adopting a new personality alongside my newfound motivation....

i think i might need to strike a balance and not get too carried away by this wave of motivation and my idealistic tendencies that come with it.

this black and white, extreme dichotomy that comes with bpd needs to go. need to find balance!!!!!!