Told my FP she was my FP and I told her I didn’t wanna put her through that and she agreed with me. It breaks me so fucking much but thats what needed to happen. I don’t even know what to do with myself because im so heart broken. I wish I was normal and didn’t have to deal with all this. I really hate existing. This is like my 3rd post today but i’m going through it. It’s the worst and lowest point i’ve ever felt.