Over the years as I’ve learned about myself I’ve been determined to learn how to manage, life with, handle, etc, all of my symptoms of all my diagnoses. I thought BPD was the last one…turns out the other diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder ties into BPD as well as a few others, and more than I knew. It finally hit me tonight as my brain spun around in the usual mood cycle. I’m on vacation with family for another week then go back home to a lonely sad lifestyle. The chill life isn’t the problem—it’s my chemical imbalance that keeps repeating that’s the problem. No matter what I do or try to do, it’s a never ending fucking cycle and it’s DEPRESSING. 

Don’t know if I’m asking for anything…there’s certainly no miracle cure anyone can share, I know that.