I’ve recently been trying to spend more time on the balcony as the weather is nice but when I sit there I start to gradually lose my mind, I’m not suicidal but I get flashes of feeling like I jumped, or I feel like I need to go back inside because I’m afraid I’ll not know what’s happening and jump unconsciously. Does anyone else experience anything similar, or have similar experiences but in another place/setting, and what could be done to try and cope or regain that feeling of self, and consciously know that I’m “in control”?