I'm a 35m closeted atheist, which is wrecking havoc on my life. No one knows except two friends. But leaving religion created a barrier between me and most people that I know. So I can't talk to my family or friends about my problems. I have no support. Almost no one to turn to when I need emotional support. Even worse, people are trying to help me with all the wrong pieces of advice. Like motivating me to turn more to faith or invite me to prayer sessions or proposing arranged marriage. And the more I feel not understood, not supported, the more I plunge into depression. I'm trying to fill this void by looking for a girlfriend but I don't think it's fair to her to handle all this emotional baggage. And my therapist thinks that I'm trying to fill the void with a relationship which is not healthy. So what am I supposed to do? My entourage is very religious and I'll face huge backlash if I come out. I feel suffocated. Any advice is welcome.