Recently my anxiety has just spiralled out of control. But especially insomnia is just so frustrating. Like today I woke up at 4:30am and I have just not been able to get back to sleep. This happens every night where I can’t fall asleep and I can’t stay asleep. I took melatonin for a while but it just knocked me awake after 3 hours. Now it doesn’t do anything when I take it. 

I have tried a number of times to meditate, and really get into it. But for some reason it either doesn’t help or it makes me feel more awake. I do meditation every morning too… so idk if I am tricking my body into thinking it’s suppose to be awake… but it’s a meditation specifically for sleep.

Today I was planning on going out to find myself a new job. (Going to work I get severe nausea) I am currently employed but I decided to just not take shifts for the moment and find someplace else. But I am so tired and frustrated this morning. My mother said to me “just go to sleep earlier” or “I go to bed and wake up at a set time every day”. I’m just so tired. I got prescribed an SNRI, but the last time I used an SSRI it went terribly and I have really bad anxiety about it. My anticipation anxiety is so bad, but because I rarely leave the house I have such a hard time believing I have anxiety.

Is there anything else I can try? Or is it only medication that can help me now?