How can I when I have no likeable features or accomplishments or anything? When I have a bare bones support system? When people are constantly rude to me? Whenever I start feeling good about myself, something, whether it be a thought or event or person, comes in and takes a wrecking ball to my self worth. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of fighting people. I'm tired of fighting this. Building my self esteem is like building a house of cards. I start building, it gets knocked over, and I have to start again. At some point you can't keep doing it anymore and just give up.