I've been in denial about how much control bipolar has over me and thus have not reached out to this community for help and guidance.

Lately I started buying alcohol on weekends and hiding it from my wife. When confronted I lie. This has been going on for a month and I feel isolated, like no one understands the impulsivity and thoughtlessness of manic episodes. I'm trying my best to increase lamictal and avoid bad decisions, but on the weekend when I'm not working I'm making bad decisions and lying to my wife.

What do I do? Help...