My SO and I have been fighting all day. 
I'm frustrated and tired of being the only one who initiates anything. Cuddling, kisses, "intimacy", texts, ect and he just....doesn't know what to say. 


I'm getting to the point where I just want to not live? Anymore?...I feel unattractive I feel unwanted and I feel extremely lonely. I unfortunately thrive off attention and he's just..content. he's happy where we are at he's just "not in the mood" and he does have depression and I KNOW it valid and he has every right to say no but it's devastating when he does. I've gotten better about brushing it off until today happened and it just....hit so hard. It hit hard how just unappealing I feel and how I've tried everything but he is so very very detached from a lot of things. He's coasted by in life and now he has to actually pay attention and it's drowning him... me and a kid are a lot it's been well over a year since we've met and a year coming up since we've started dating and I'm happy but...not happy. I'm happy with him as a person and emotionally because he IS there emotionally. When I ask for sweet things like kisses and cuddles he does comply it's just....I never feel like he wants then. He assures me he does but if he did why wouldn't he just do it? Why do I have to ask and remind him that I need affection? I just...I feel lost.