Ok so I know it's probably just me but since I've been cheated on multiple times by exes (where I actually found proof) I can't stop obsessing over my bf cheating on me. It's like an all day every day obsession. I'm constantly thinking of ways to get proof. It's as if I enjoy it and will be so happy to get the proof so I can get angry at him and kick him to the curb. Then I will enjoy being a victim or something. Maybe I'd even take him back so I could just punish him. 

But it's just constant painful thoughts of the same thing every day! What do I do? Should I try to find evidence that he's not cheating?