No advice, no questions. Just understanding. 

I take four different medications. I drink lots of water. I try not to sleep too much and I exercise every few days. My blood levels are normal and I don’t have any other mental issues. I have great relationships. I’ve been depressed since I was 15 years old and occasionally it overwhelms everything else—sorry, I really can’t help it.

I actually manage my depression very well normally but I was called back to the office earlier this year (two hour commute) and my job has become more customer service than teaching. Constantly have to try to mediate between people, calm them down—I love helping people but I’m generally terrible with people, and this job isn’t really helping anyone. My boss is an awful person who guilts me into staying at work even though it’s our off-season and there’s literally nothing to do. I had to get FMLA involved and prove that my depression is manifesting physically so that she’d get off my back.

I’m so tired. I have a full time job and other responsibilities but today I want to just lie in bed the rest of the day and read and not worry about other people’s problems. Just let me rest, please, and tell me it’s not my fault.

Thanks for reading. I’m trying to get better at being honest.