Coming up almost 30 and I still feel I don't belong anywhere. To any kind of friend group, to my work, and even my family.

Half the time, I don't know the person I'm suppose to be. My friends mean everything to me but I always have this feeling that I don't fit in.
With my family, again, I love them but I don't really know them  well as I think I do.
With my colleagues, of course we have that teamwork but I can't find anything in common with them.

Random times in the day, I have to have this mask of who they think I am on and sometimes it's too difficult to keep it on..its tiring to always find something in common with anyone, trying to find the root of what kind of person I am, and what is it I love to do. 

I desperately need to speak to someone but I'm afraid my doctors won't believe or think it's that awful that I need to speak to a therapist. I don't have  money to spend on a private on.

I just want an answer or find out some sort of way to figure out who the fuck I am.
Where do I belong. Where....