My FEP started a month ago and I just can’t get rid of this feelings that demons or ghosts are after me. Everything has a demon in it, people are not real, people want to kill me everytime I go out. I feel like there is another entity in the back of my head putting bad thoughts in my head. I hear faint noises, sometimes screamings when I go to bed. I see things move or feel like a demon is touching me with a Visual in my head or the entity in my head telling me nothing is real or demons are around the corner. The most scariest thing is, sometimes I feel like my husband isn’t real and it’s a doppelgänger and I’m terrified bc my husband is my support system and the love of my life. He does reassure me it’s him but I always have those small doubts.

I started to see my stated FEP program and the first visit I had a small breakdown talking about stuff. The next one on Friday I talked to the nurse practitioner and she made it sound like it’s anxiety and prescribed me Zoloft and Hydroxyzine (I never went to therapy so those are my first mental health medications). My husband said I left a lot out when I was talking to her but that was because I didn’t want to repeat myself again. I also showed her my notes where I written down everything but it felt like she didn’t take it serious. I’m going to get a diagnosis next week but now all my mind is thinking about is that it’s all fake and just anxiety but I still feel the same way and I can’t do it anymore. I’m scared about everything and if I’m not on my phone and around my husband it gets worse and I spiral. 

Does that sound like anxiety?