This is a vent nothing more. I haven't thought about what I'm going to say so this will probably make no sense so excuse me.

I want to make people happy. I can't, I can't, I can't.
I have to force a smile onto my face and do nothing all day. I must cut out the part of my brain that makes me want things. I can't want anything I'll just hurt people by accident again I can't. I must help I must be good. FAILURE FAILURE FAILURE!!!