I don’t know what to do anymore. I have no motivation for anything. I “dropped” out of school freshmen year due to lack of motivation. Not because I was getting bullied or stress, just I didn’t want to go. I wouldn’t consider myself popular but my School was small so everyone just knew each other. I was very social and would hang out with my friends a lot. Ever since I “dropped” out it just went down hill. Let me explain my whole school situation, I switched to online school but only did it for a week and cheated the rest of the way but something went wrong and there was a date to get my whole school year done and I didn’t know so it completely got rid of all of my work and made me redo everything, you see a person with common sense would call and see if they can fix the problem, but I didn’t. Lol. So I started doing it all over again, but again cheated my way through. But I had lack of motivation for it, I would do a few hours a day for a week then wouldn’t do it for the next couple months. And it just got worse and worse. It’s so bad. I turned 17 a couple months ago but still consider a freshmen. All my friends from public school are juniors and about to be a senior, it’s embarrassing and sad. You’re probably wondering where my parents are and how I got away with not doing school, simple, they’re divorced, I live with my mom she’s not really a good parent. That’s all. My mom is a whole different story. Anyways, I tried therapy, I liked it but I stopped going after 4 sessions. I don’t really know why, I think it’s more commitment issues. That’s how I was with school too. My therapist wanted to put me on antidepressants but I declined I wished I just tried it but I didn’t. My social life is also sad I used to ft my friends every single day for hours and just talk, play video games, etc. same with texting, would text them a lot. Now I don’t text anyone that much anymore, I only have about 1 friend that I barley even text most of the time. I’m the one that drifted away from all my friends. The thing is I’m not sad. Sure from time to time but I’m pretty happy I guess, I’m ruining my life but I’m happy. I’ll just play video game or binge watch a show on Netflix and avoid eveything in my life. There’s so much more in my life I’d like to talk about but I would be writing a whole book these are only some problems. I know I should get help and I want to but I just act like I’m fine and don’t need help. What is wrong with me