   Hello every one I hope everyone is doing ok, I want to share my experience to deter other people from making their depression worse from drug addiction or abuse.

I turned ti weed at first and then started a 4 year long, non stop smoking 24/7, this ultimately worsened my depression by 5 fold, then when the weed stoped working to numb it make me feel better at all no matter how many breaks, then I found opioids, and they made my depression 100x better at first so I took lots everyday to be the person I wanted to be without depression and anxiety and sooner than later I was hopelessly addicted, what I thought was the worse depression I have ever felt turn into something I could never imagine, the daily panic attacks, and clinical depression became debilitating, and anxiety turned into my physical tremors and chills instead of just a little nausea, and the depression pushed me to isolate from all my friends that cared for me, and I kept using more drugs to cope with the side effects of the opioids.

I am now trying to get off all my drugs one by one but it will take a year or two till I’m back to normal at least, and then my depression and anxiety will be were they were before all this.


Conclusion: 
Get professional help and therapy and don’t self medicate, because a good portion of people think that drugs use every day helps them, when all it does is dig your hole deeper and deeper and leases you farther away from getting professional help, take care of your self mentally and physically, and have a good healthy support system you can trust to talk to and or activity that is safe to comfort or distract you, all you are doing abusing and taking them
 Regularly is preventing you from really getting better ling term and not temporarily with unhealthy coping skills.

I have no support and use drugs to cope, but this is not the way, I never wanted to die u till I got addicted to opioids because I truly didn’t know at a point if I was even going to make it because of the Drugs, because believe me it will be fun and solve all your problems at first but not too long after that when the drugs stop working for anything and you have to do it just to feel kinda ok, you realize you fucked up.

If you use drugs keep it to socially and never be peer pressured or use drugs on a regular basis to “solve your problem” please.