Recently, a famous musician that probably a lot of people know has died at the age of 50.  And idk why but I was fine until it happened. You guys probably know who I’m talking about.

It has been severely affecting me although I have never met the guy. 
I have been rewatching videos of him singing and playing drums over and over again and this dude happens to be one of my other favorite musicians best friend. 

I haven’t really been sleeping or eating much and I’ve just been really sad and crying a lot. At work im fine because I’m distracted but when I get home I get super sad. It’s been freaking my girlfriend out because she thinks I don’t want to be with her because I’m so torn up about this.  I’ve tried to explain but this is the best way I can.

This guy was the drummer of my favorite band ever. He was one of my favorite drummers to ever live. He was also an amazing musician and (from all the interviews I’ve read and articles) a great person. I never met the guy but this feels just like losing a friend and it reminds me of my friendship with my best friend. I know it sounds crazy but I am really affected by this and I don’t know why. It’s  like grieving over a friend. I’ve lost friends in the past but this one just hits differently. I wish I knew why I was so sad but it just hurts to know he’s gone because I really wanted to meet him one day and tell him how much I respected him and how much of an influence he had on my drumming musicianship and life. I know I sound crazy but I had to get