Don’t know where else to really vent about this. I saw a post here recently about being BPD and bisexual though.


I’m happy with my boyfriend in a monogamous relationship. No desire to be in an open relationship or have a threesome, but thinking about women has been putting me in a difficult position.

I would die if I knew he was fantasizing about women, so why am I allowed to do it? I don’t think it’s right and I feel guilty about it.

I can get it under control most of the time but there are times I ache to be with women again. I’m sure this would happen if I were with a woman though.

I don’t feel this way about other men. Just women. But like I said it would probably be reversed if I were in a relationship with a woman.

I envy women in relationships with other women. I feel this deep sense of longing. I know feelings aren’t facts and I’m not going to throw everything away because of some desires.

Maybe my insecurities about him and other women are directly linked to my own feelings and attractions to women and so I’m projecting? I feel like such a hypocrite.

Guess it’s just the curse of being bi. There’s always something you can’t have. But I know picking one partner naturally closes off all other options. So I have to remember why I love him and why I want to stay with him long term

None of this is his fault. It’s just an unfortunate situation 

Sorry I am not really looking for answers, just wanted to vent a bit. Would love to hear your similar stories.