Anyone else have this problem? I’ve had so many “things” with different guys but it never lasts because I seem to scare them away or I push them away myself and I know what the problem is but I always end up doing it again and again.

I mention other guys, make them jealous or insecure on purpose, I party a lot and am always doing something. I’ve tried to stop playing mind-games but it’s like an addiction for me. In a way I want a serious relationship but when i’m in a relationship I constantly fantasize about being single and randomly feel suffocated. 

Idk if this is like a weird way of protecting myself from getting hurt or am I just toxic lol