I don't want to die, but i feel hopeless. I actually don't want to die because i'm scared of death and i know being dead would not be anything good, but the feeling i have inside, i mean this pain, is what makes me want to die. If there was only one reason because i would want to die, it is because being dead would stop the pain, the bad feelings that i experience all the time, but besides of that, i know that there are things in life that i can enjoy... but at the same time, i am alone, always been, and i can't enjoy things alone, i feel empty. I need some people to enjoy life with, i need real friends or a partner, but i can't find any/the people i find doesn't seem to be interested in me. What do i do? I'm tired of holding all this, all my life feeling like this and i got to a point where i don't know if i can keep going on. I need help