My friend didn't cut me off due to my bpd, it wasn't a bpd episode. I saw her boyfriend on a dating app and I told her. I had to tell her. I thought it was the right thing to do but instead, she got mad and accused me of trying to break her and her boyfriend up. I messaged her apologizing and explaining to her that those weren't my intentions at all, she ended up telling me "you fucked up my relationship so bad" and blamed me for their breakup. She accused me of talking about her relationship behind her back, which I never did and I'd never do. My other friend told me that her boyfriend had been cheating on her with a girl at work (my friend and her bf work together), but I couldn't tell her because she stopped talking to me. Her boyfriend twisted the whole story to fit his own narrative and made me look terrible. She ended her message by saying she didn't want to be friends with me anymore because she can't trust me and that she doesn't want to listen to anything I have to say. I'm trying my best to keep myself calm and okay but I just want to die. To make matters worse, it's sending me into a spiral about my ex and how much I miss him. I haven't felt these extreme feelings of doom in so long. I don't even remember how to deal with them.