hey y’all i go through extended periods (2-4 months about) of either superrr high highs or superr low lows. My highs i am incredibly healthy. Seriously like a fricken health nut. Working out everyday, running miles, eating completely vegan, having an intense skin care routine, journaling and just feeling good. Then sometimes out of no where, sometimes because something unfortunate happens, i completely crash into depression. Sleeping either 3 hours a night or 12 hours. sleep schedule completely backwards. only eating junk. not getting any exercise. an extreme amount of time on my phone. messy. don’t shower. just an intense depressive episode with very bad thoughts. anxiety very overwhelming feeling worthless like a fuck up and going back to people who do not serve me. this has been happening for really as long as i can remember. i feel on top of the world and amazing and at peace when i’m “high”. i talked to a psychiatrist and they kind of suggested bpd but i shut that down bc i don’t have aggressive mood swings (i think) like daily or weekly. it’s a every few months thing. idk just wondering if anyone else feels this is this normal with depression? am i just going through ruts then getting happy again? any advice please let me know. i’m in a rut right now and just feel very ashamed of myself like ik i could be doing better but i have no energy and i’m just sinking into a gross hole in my room lol