I don’t have anywhere else to write, I literally have no friends so I’ll vent here.

I’ve been together with my bf for 16 months, he was my fp and my EVERYTHING. I found out he cheated in July, but I couldn’t let him go so I forgave him. Dumb, but it is so hard to let him go.

I forgot to say: he only cares about being sexual, always asks nudes and when he cheated he asked my best friend for nudes. He made a new account to spam her.

So today I logged in onto his mail (he gave me his email a while back).  I found out he paid several girls for nudes and videos.  I confronted him and he started to manipulate me.

He said he did it so I would leave him, that he did it for a friend, for a bet. He changed his story times and times again.

I just want to die. 

I have never been enough and never will be.