Hello, let me start off by saying I’ve been extremely sad and crying on and off for about two weeks. This post might be long but I need to get this off my chest since I feel like a burden when I tell my friends about my trauma. May 2nd I had emergency surgery to remove my spleen. Ever since then, I have seen red flags that makes me thing my mother genuine hates me inside out. For reference I’m a 24 year old black female the result of a one night stand and they’re still living together with no plans of marriage and living through abuse all 24 years. First red flag is that it took them 2 hours to come to the emergency room. I promise you guys traffic or not the most it should’ve took was 45 minutes. While in the emergency room before they tell me my spleen ruptured my dad is annoyed we have been waiting so long. He ignored the fact I have been waiting longer and still am in pain. Y’all he literally said “We gone have to do this another day I got basketball, I’m hungry, and I have to shave”.  My spleen might have been bad but I wasn’t delusional. Does he not care about me feeling better? Does he not know how emergency rooms work? Anyways fast forward to procedure is done and I have my own room. My mom had to work so my dad was there with me during the day. He took breaks to smoke and drink …. He kept liquor in his car…. And said well you better with understanding what the doctors have to say anyways. ☹️ yeah but your my dad try to understand please and I’m not a medical expert. Anyways this is about my mom so let me get to her. She texted my dad and was like seems like everything is fine I don’t need to come up there. Mind you this is one day post op. ☹️ am I asking for too much to make them want to be present? She really hates being there (for context I have a brother that got shot and we stayed well past visiting hours ) fast forward again to me being home. I can’t stand up for long periods of time but I can walk. So I told everyone I can’t cook for myself food is what I need help with nothing else. I always buy my food separate from my parents but I am on short term disability from work. so I want to eat all the groceries that are here first. Within the past week my mom has said she is too tired to cook. My dad doesn’t know how to cook he’s old school women cook and make plates he does nothing. And no ☹️ doesn’t even try although I just had major surgery. I thought  he would put more effort in since I would be in pain from cooking but I guess not. So yesterday I was like okay let me try myself. I forgot to add this in but my dad needed food before going to work one day and my mom woke up at 5am and made him food for later because he works at 7pm. She only made enough food for him. Knowing we will both be at home all day and knowing I said I only need help with food. I made my dinner yesterday and it would last a couple days. Back was in terrible pain. I laid across my bed for 10 min before even taking a bite. I felt proud I pushed myself but sad and alone because my parents didn’t want to help. This morning because my dad is helpless like I said before he complained about what he will eat for breakfast and what he will eat for work. She is tired from work and tired of knowing she picked a helpless man so she decided to offer MY food. She said oh eat that food in there we have food after I told both of them how much pain I was in from cooking. Also I didn’t cook all the meat so my dad ate the rest of the cooked meat and I still have to cook again. They have abused me so many times before but knowing they did this when I am at my most vulnerable makes me feel so pathetic. I called her a few minutes ago before writing this post and she doesn’t know I know she let him take my food so she says oh he wasn’t supposed to eat your salmon but the other stuff yes. I even feel pathetic typing this on Reddit because it looks like my breaking point is food. I am on limited income because of disability, I let my sister  borrow my car, so I am helpless but I feel like they are purposefully not caring. 

TLDR: Mom shouldn’t have had kids if all she care about is having a man and pleasing him even when kid is in distress. Stole food from someone who can’t cook for themselves. Not eating take out for health reasons and waiting to grocery shop because ST disability is only 60% of regular pay.