for the past year, i’ve been desperately in love with my friends boyfriend. me and her boyfriend are hardly even friends, but he’s always been so nice to me and i encouraged them both to date each before i developed feelings for him. it’s genuinely making me depressed. 

now i’m about to graduate, and basically everyone and everything i know is going to change, and while there are aspects of the change i desire; im sacred. i feel like none of the people i have dumped my past couple years into actually care about me anymore, like they have outgrown me. it make me feel trapped, i want to talk to them about it but that just seems like a conversation that would go a really weird way if i’m just interpreting stuff differently. i just feel like i have no friends and the ones i do are just sticking it out due to not wanting change in these last months before their lives change.

i’m just having a hard time releasing my emotional claws on a relationship, i guess it’s just hard for me to accept it and move on. any advice?