I'm only sixteen, and I know it's "normal to not really understand how love works" and shit but I'm not stupid either. I *do* have a pretty good understanding of how life and relationships work, to say to the least

The biggest issue is my mental health. I suffer from some pretty heavy depression and anxiety and have been for over 5 or 6 years. It means that Im awkward and I don't like making friends.

It doesn't help that I can't tell the difference between friendship love and crushes, either. 

All my friends are either in relationships or really good at making friends. I feel.. alone. I've been in two relationships; one I broke off because I was young and stupid (I'm still very good friends with him and feel really bad about the way I broke it off). The other ended because she felt that our already *very* long distant relationship had grown more distant (I blame my mental health, but I don't really believe that was the real reason.)

Either way, I feel fucking useless when it comes to this whole relationship thing. I genuinely feel like I'm just gonna die alone, even though so many people have told me shit like Oh BuT yOuRe So YoUnG jUsT gIvE iT tImE.

I don't know anymore.