Hey y'all, 

I've been trudging through the journey of learning to manage my bpd symptoms, and I'm wondering if anyone has any input on how regular cannabis use affects bpd? 

I use cannabis pretty regularly. Mostly edibles on my own while I smoke more socially. I've become really into edibles as a way to cope with feelings of abandonment, boredom and intense moods that get really bad when I'm at home or am particularly stressed in life. I really enjoy using cannabis and find that it is a life savor in certain moments -- especially with edibles as I find they help prevent me from acting on destructive impulses in specific and particularly difficult moments. 

However, I am wondering about the longer-term and overall effects regular cannabis use can have on the severity of bpd symptoms. While taking an edible or smoking a j helps in temporary moments, I feel like my overall demeanor is a lot more neurotic and destructive when I use cannabis regularly. When I look back on periods where I was using rarely or not at all, I noticed that those times, while still difficult, were over all better for me, especially in terms of relationships.

 I think mostly I feel like my mood swings and irritability get worse when using regularly. So while it helps in temporary moments to hold off on impulsivity, sleep or stop ruminating when I initially take it, I feel like there are lingering effects after the trip ends or like in between trips that are making my bpd worse. Perhaps it is just a development of dependance on weed?  

I've been trying to research how cannabis interacts w bpd, but there really isn't much out there. I'm wondering if anyone here has any personal experience they can share about how weed effects their bpd and severity of symptoms?