I don't really know why. He says it's all situational, he's says he's not financially there. And then he also says it's because we were rocky a few years ago. Because he's scared to come home to me having a breakdown or something like I'm just a crazy person. Idk what he expects me to think. I'm so lost and I'm so lonely and I'm heartbroken every single time I think about us. Why won't he commit to me? I don't get it. Why stay with me why put me through this. It hurts so much to say the least. I feel so unwanted and unlovable. We've been together for 6 years. I'm not asking for much at all, in fact I'm asking for the bare minimum. It's all excuses at this point. I told him he can't let my mental health keep him back from me because that's not fair. He says he doesn't but I don't believe him. My minds creates too many scenarios and reads in to way too much. 
I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I'm so lonely