So I just need to vent. This year has been very crazy and I won't go into all the deets but will give a summary. I had to go off my meds for the first time since ever being on them (10 yrs), and ended up very very depressed. With suicidal ideation every day. I finally was able to get back on my meds thanks to insurance. However I was also diagnosed along with my bpd, ed, depression, and anxiety, as an alcoholic and bipolar. The last one hurt the most. So the other week I started naltrexone for the drinking and ended up getting sick on it and had to stop taking it. I know I shouldn't have relied on the medication but I was really hoping it would help with the drinking so I didn't have to do it alone. But now I'm just sad that it didn't work, worried about the new diagnosis and what not. I just needed to vent all of this because I didn't know where else I could. 