Guys, I don't know how to even put this, but I have extreme difficulty **sending messages,** and then **even reading** messages I get **much less replying** to them. This goes for any and everyone (with the exception of my parents and sister). Reading a message from someone feels like the equivalent of purposefully putting my hand in a stove, obviously I wouldn't do that. And so - no joke - I could take a week before replying, if I even reply at all...regardless of the "consequence". Sometimes if i'm lucky, i'll read a reply immediately, think of an appropriate response, and instead of just replying with that response instantly, i think, "nah i'll just do it a little later" and then within that time period I trick myself by ruminating about unlikely scenarios and ultimately procrastinate replying...It's literally ruining my life, I don't currently have a job, but **networking** is **literally impossible** for me. It's pathetic how I am...i'll message someone (assuming they won't even reply), and then when they do and are actually willing to help me, I **STILL** **disappear**...

Maybe the extreme isolation i've been in for the past 2 years has hampered my ability to be a functioning communicative human being.

Phone calls are another issue, but I have a simple answer to that one, I just don't answer :) :D.

*Literally the only time I can message/communicate with people freely is when i'm inebriated/intoxicated and therefore "outside of myself". This is obviously not a good solution.*

Anyone have any advice on this?