I don’t rlly have friends. I don’t rlly have fun either and it’s just the same boring life with me never being able to sleep like I’m not able to right now . Everything just seems hopeless and I don’t think I’ll ever be popular or at least have a trustworthy friend I can hang out with . It’s not like I can just hang out with family because I don’t really have a family I only have one older brother that I live with that barely acknowledges my existence unless I need to do chores or some shit. So yes... I’m lonely and I only have online friends that don’t rlly get me so I just sit listening to music while thinking about ways to kill myself and suffer more , hell I even thought about trying cannibalism cuz it looked fun . I watch gore to remind myself I’m only human although I feel like a monster that’s afraid of breaking apart and getting left behind . I’m scared of everything but at the same time I want to try everything . You probably won’t take this seriously and scroll past thinking oh this kid is only typing this cuz he wants attention . Well guess what yeah I’m losing sleep typing this because I do want attention lots of it. PUT ME ON THE FUCKING NEWS WHY DONT U ! anyway bye and sry for wasting your useless time