Idk what to say expect I need someone to set me straight. I can’t admit this to my friends because I have a big ego (yes I know, big flaw) , but I need someone to knock some sense into me.

I usually have such a hard time creating feelings for someone but he is very different. It was actually hurting me being ignored or to be seen as unimportant and it was just the begging . At one moment I split, I ended things but I was not being hysterical. Just a bit cold and explaining my reasons short and simple. This was caused by many things he did that made me realize he does not like me, at least not as much as I like him.

How do I stop feeling so pathetic, I feel so guilty for expecting the bare minimum from him bcz I feel I developed feelings for him too fast (it’s nothing deep but I’m just not used to it happening only after 4 dates). 

Someone tell me to suck it up and stop being so weird, please.