I don’t know how to explain this but I am capable of loving a person and caring about them but I don’t think I can in a relationship level.. 

it doesn’t have to do with not having a good past relationship or not meeting the right person, I just genuinely feel like I don’t have the energy or feelings to love someone like that

I always felt like I had mix feeling for people. I could love them 100% and then later on be annoyed by their presence which made me realize that I don’t think i’m able to or actually want to be in a relationship when I feel like I can’t even love someone for the rest of my life

Idk if that makes sense haha ..