Describe how you feel emptiness. Does it feel like you need something or does it feel like a dark black hole inside of your heart that makes you feel an immense amount of sadness and despair?

My experience of this: It is weird because the more I think about it the more I realize that it is not complete emptiness. If it was emptiness, then there would be nothing in there becasue it is empty. But, for me it is legit like despair at the core of my being. It does not feel like I do not have an identity or as if I am dissociating...just a very very very deep and profound sadness. It feels like all the colors of the world are are turned to black and white. Everything turns to ash. No beauty left. Just deep deep deep sadness, dread, despair, and a deep longing to remember the beauty.