not sure if this is the right subreddit but I am so anxious for my future. For lots of different aspects of it. Like how will I ever get a job since I’m so shy? I will never have the courage to go to a real job interview, or stand jnfront of lots of people and talk to them for a presentation or something. How will I ever get married? Because for that you need to have a wedding and an engagement party where everyone you know will be there and I don’t like being the center of attention let alone even going to any large gathering of any sort. I have a bf who has talked abt getting married and I don’t know what he’d think of I said I’d rather elope bc of my fear of being around that many people. And I’m scared of having children because I’ll be a bad mom if I have too much anxiety to invite people over for birthday parties. I think I just have really bad social anxiety. I also have so much anxiety when I am at any gathering with my family or with my bf’s family I get choked up and can’t talk bc I feel like anything I say will sound weird or come out wrong so I don’t say anything. I’m 21 and idk maybe part of my fear is just from having a physically abusive home and also never having parties or friends over as a kid bc I was afraid my dad would yell at them.