A week ago, I was having probably one of the best moments of my life; i started seeing someone new, i was the best i ever looked, and i was so motivated to wake up and start each beautiful day. Then, after a week of partying and poor sleeping, i had my first panic attack in a year and a half and here i am now: bed-ridden as i feel like i’m going into cardiac arrest.

I should mention my anxiety is completely somatic, i only feel intense physical symptoms followed by fatigue. I’ve been here before, but i don’t really remember how i dealt with it. i feel as though staying in bed all day actually affects me adversely although doing anything else sends me spiraling. 

i have a trip planned this weekend for three days that I (was) extremely excited for….but now i feel as though i should back out. i don’t want what would have otherwise been an awesome trip be tainted by my anxiety. can anyone offer some words of wisdom or perhaps encouragement? i can’t afford to be anxious and hopeless :( never again