Basically my anxiety has been slowly getting worse and worse over the past few months, with uni, covid 2x ravaging my body and after a very scary, very long weed-induced mega panic attack a few months ago, started developing regular panic attacks which obviously I'm terrified of having. 

I need to get a job and can't due to the social anxiety side, so I managed to get prescribed venlafaxine (Efexor XL, 75mg). Was feeling kinda excited until I saw that for every positive review, it seems like there's like 10 people who had massive panic attacks or seizures and stuff after starting. I wanna take it but I think at this point I'm too far gone, even if I switch to something else I think I'd be so afraid of the side effects or giving myself a panic attack, that I wouldn't even take it. Even just thinking about taking them I'm already stressing and my heart is speeding up so I'll probably like manifest a panic attack...

(My GP also didn't ask me many questions about my heart, heart rate, BP etc before prescribing and I'm particularly terrified about those types of side effects, so she gave me 0 comfort there) 

What am I supposed to do about this if I can't even take anxiety tablets because of the anxiety itself???