so essentially long story short, i recently got back with my ex (whom i dated back in 2019). anyways i just have such a bad feeling that hes going to leave me soon for some fuckin reason but i dont know. before me, he had a girlfriend and i guess their relationship was fine, until it kind of abruptly ended. i like to think hes mostly over her, kind of just upset about it but i really dont know. i mean honestly me just having the worst anxiety ever and just him being upset really isnt a good mix. i mean he barely has any friends or talks to anyone but i also get a feeling that his ex gf reconnected with him or something and theyre talking and idk. i dont believe that as much but sometimes i really wonder it. he doesnt give me a reason to believe that, my brain just trusts nobody. he told me he got sad the other night because he was listening to a song that reminded him of her which i guess i get but my brain ran with that and its hurting me. and then later he said he was having his “monthly breakdown” which is completely valid but ever since ive just been getting this gut feeling that things are off and thats he is already getting sick of me and is gonna soon break things off. but again maybe it is just my anxiety but it is eating me up because of how hes been acting. or honestly maybe hes just upset in general and my anxiety is probably getting the best of me. who knows. i would talk to him about it but im pretty sure i already know what he would say, and i worry he will get upset, because he said one of the reasons he got upset with her a lot was because she bugged him a lot about how anxious she was or just all of that so i just have this feeling that i need to keep my feelings in. it wont do me any good telling him. im just over analyzing everything and i can stop thinking its gonna be over soon. ugh. and i know people are like blah blah dont date anyone if you are emotionally stable or something like that but blah blah idc. maybe ill come back in a few days or weeks and update on whether my gut feelings were right. and this is simply a rant, i dont have anyone i could tell this too, and i dont want advice, really. there isnt nothing nobody could tell me that would change my mind or perspective on this. but if you do read this, thank you. i hope your day went well. or that you are currently having a good day