So, I left psychodynamic therapy after two and a half years and was in a really bad place, wasn’t getting better progressively for 6 months, was becoming angry at everyone, bitter, acting out at work, super anxious and insecure in all my relationships, struggling with work etc  

I was scared that I would regret the decision but continuing was so tortuous I was ready to leave. 

And now... I feel lighter, better, more content I guess. I think maybe I’m good as long as I don’t have anyone *too close* and therapy was becoming uncomfortably close.

Which isn’t great. But maybe things were moving too fast, maybe the rapport wasn’t there I don’t know. What I do know is I am seeing people from a more positive light rather than presuming they’re out to hurt me. I am trying to be vulnerable with a new guy I’m seeing and not pushing away at the slightest sign of tension/ abandonment. 

Isn’t it strange