Does anyone else feel guilty all the time?
I feel guilty about everything.
About all the things about me l can't fix,about all the other problems that I have that aren't bpd like having developed agoraphobia ,being disabled,just other stuff.
I feel guilty for my problems being trivial compared to other people's because really I'm just sat on my bum all day messing with expensive electronics, playing with the cats,carers looking after me and other people are really suffering. 
I feel guilty when I try to explain to a friend (in a game, l have no rl friends) why l can't talk to anyone else on the game, l feel guilty when we talk because when l try to explain about me,or even if she just asks how l am,her life is real life problems and l just sound like I'm self obsessed and I'm just trying to explain how my brain feels broken. 
I feel guilty if l talk about me,or if someone takes a genuine interest, l get overwhelmed and start crying because I'm just not used to it.
I'm not even formally diagnosed yet but l heard about bpd started reading and,the light went on.
I feel so vulnerable and raw emotionally. 
It's like pmt on steroids or the sistine chapel on acid,I'm 44 but I feel like I'm 12,or 8 and I'm that little kid that's always wanting to hug all the other like kids,and theirs mums give each other that look.

I'm sorry, it's been a rough few days and I'm feeling so overwhelmed.