Like for most the week, I was doing okay selfwise, I think idk anymore. Woke.up today was all energy and felt amazing now I fucking hate myself so much. Everything about me grosses me and I hate my face and my existence.  Like complete switch to polar opposite. I want to scream and hurt self. I'm seething and shaking and can't turn it off. Idk why im being this way. Buts it's hard to turn off. Idk if im seeking advice or what I just can't do this.