i think i’m like…pretty depressed. but for some reason i can’t express it seriously/clearly enough to the people in my life for them to take it seriously. And i’m pretty sure that’s my own fault because anytime i share my feelings i immediately downplay them, so i think it leads them to also. 

for instance, i’ve been struggling to get hired at a job in my field, and i’m stuck in a job i really don’t want. my bf is sympathetic but he doesn’t realize the enormous toll this constant rejection is taking on me because he truly doesn’t understand. he has his own business and has never been in my position. and i don’t know how to explain it better for him to actually want to have a deep conversation with me. like i’ll tell him about my feelings and he’ll just say he believes in me or something. 

i just feel like i need more support but i’m not sure how to express this. i always thought i was great at sharing and communicating until i realized i’m not taken seriously.