Like, what is a realistic expectation of functioning for someone with severe bpd? Like something reasonable. I feel like my whole life I was pressured to be an overachiever, and I did, academically, but now I’m tanking and lacking significantly in basic areas of life like tolerating minor distress, and now I cycle through the hospital like 4-5 times a year and the ED probably twice that. I’ve lately decided to pull a little back on academics and now I am doing average rather than top of the class.
But it seems so unnecessary and uneven, if I can’t like go a day without threatening (or actually) slitting my wrists, ja know? Idk, my parents used to think I’d go to an Ivy League school and be a doctor and now they’re just like well can you try not to keep overdosing and ending up in the hospital all the time?
So... what is a realistic expectation? I’m early 20’s, if that matters, since emotional maturity seems to be sorely delayed in me.