Hi so I’m not asking for pity, for sympathy, for anyone to feel bad for me. I just need you guys to be straight with me and possible help about what to do next/how to fix things. hi I F20 have bpd and autism. I have always struggled with friendships and my intense emotions and saying hurtful things when I split. Tonight I really big fucked up and I know it. for about a year now I’ve been a part of a discord server friend group that gets together every now and then irl. almost every time I feel talked over, ignored, pushed away, and not accepted. about a year ago one of the members mom had passed away sadly and has been taking it hard ever since. I on the other hand always struggled with having an abusive / non existent motherly figure so I always had a hard time empathizing but I understood. the person in question admitted tonight they never liked me / respected me for valid reasons after I had a severe severe splitting episode about not ever feeling accepted and I said the following “I’m sorry that I have. A mom and you don’t but that doesn’t mean you can treat me like shit”. I didn’t mean to say it, I was sobbing hysterically and it just came out and once I realized what I said it was too late. Actions have consequences and now my two best friends and partner are all upset with me (valid of course) and I’m afraid that I just ruined three friendships/relationships. How can I go about fixing this / what can I reflect upon to try and make things right again. I feel shitty but I know the damage is done.