We are not even “official yet”. Today I woke up, way too early, in a depressed mood;  from having too much free time on my hands and a general lack of direction. I told FP I’m depressed today; he gives me some tips. I tried reading, getting off SM, going for a walk without my phone, still feel like shit. He’s been talking about wanting to move to a new city. I decided to ask him about that, today of all days, how sure he was. He said 90%. I told him I was hurt because I thought he was serious about me (he’s told me as much, and talks about wanting to move in with me etc.). He said we can’t talking about this today because I am in a depressed mood. So I called him and he said the same thing, told me I should get offline, for a walk etc. But then he ended the call without a proper “goodbye”. I agree that I’m not in the right headspace, but I don’t think this is right and I feel very lead on now. At the same time, I don’t want to him to dump me. I’m so scared and I feel like I’m dying. I feel like if he was unsure about me already, I just pushed him to being even more unsure about me. He must be able to sense my desperation and my neuroses. Like if he’s moving then it was going to happen eventually but I just expedited the whole thing. Weirder still, he keeps asking me if I love him. I just don’t respond, because I don’t know. But he doesn’t say he loves me. Please help me make sense of it all.