I've had a goal to get in better shape since I've basically spent the last year drinking and doing nothing but being a bump on a log. Here's the issue I'm having. 

I bought a whole gym setup for my home, I want to use it but my brain just wants to sit on my phone or mindlessly do nothing the entire day. I get calls from friends that want to hang out but I usually ignore them or make up some excuse. I don't think I've hung out with a friend in over a year.

I get stuck in a rut every morning telling myself today is the day I change for the better. Then don't do it. Like right now I want to go for a walk around the track near me to get some exercise and spend some time outside yet my brain is not cooperating. It's like I have all these things I want to do but can't physically force myself to. I don't get it. Why can't I just commit to something? What the fuck is going on? I've been like this for quite a while. 

Could this be something other than depression? I know I'm depressed but is this a common thing to be constantly fighting with your head to make a choice that will help you?