I'm not suicidal, but i've always felt that existence is kind of an annoying burden. 

I've been religious, and the answers don't satisfy me. I've been an. I'm agnostic now. I have felt this feeling of going nowhere.

I feel like i have so many limitations. I am supposed to study for my exams, but it does not interest me at the least. At times, i've cried in my room alone because of the sheer stress. I am going to fail most probably. 

I've been learning many skills in the meantime. I can code in Python and I know the basics of web dev. I am intermediate in 3D animations. I know i won't die on the streets. I know 'hang in there' is what most of you are wanting to say. But, do I have to go through this phase of dread? This phase of confusion? 

I feel I have learned many things, i think life can be enjoyable. 

I have three months until my examinations. I know I won't kill myself, most probably. But, i want to cherish the brief moments of happiness that are followed by helplessness and depression.

Any help appreciated.