Where do I start? I have no clue where to start actually my life. I posted it in my BPD group because I knew that you guys would definitely understand. I don't even know who I am or what I want to be. I'm 31 years old and unfortunately I have to start over my life due to past issues. When I look back at it I didn't really truly have a life anyway. Definitely a lot of unhealthy relationships, pass substance abuse, abusive relationship, horrible friendships, self hate Etc. So now it's finally time to start with a clean slate. You guys have any advice on where to start? I don't have any friends I just have my children right now. I'm not working due to some health issues but I do worry once I start that I won't last at my job long. I've been through so many jobs SMH. So I don't know how to get out there and start a life. What is even normal? I don't know if I want to do the same thing every day at the same time and eat dinner and go to bed and that's it. I feel like that's what I'm scared of just my life being a planned mess. Being so boring with no type of fun or craziness involved. I'd like to have a happy medium again I have to start somewhere. So unfortunately at this age a lot of people don't start over but I have no choice. Any advice would be helpful. I'd like to get out more and meet people but as we all know with us we have issues with that too. It's a Catch-22 LOL. Thank you for listening.