so, i have a couple questions.

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for most my life i've been dealing with addiction and depression, but lately i've noticed i've developed anxiety and some sort of dissociative... disorder? i've also done more research on my indiv. symptoms and might have ADHD. no clue really, i don't want to self-prescribe, but i'm getting to the point where i'm willing to try therapy / pills in order to fix some of my problems.

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if i go to a doctor, will this be permanently on my record? sounds horrible, but i want a equal playing field with other candidates for jobs / schooling / etc. if my future employers see i have mental conditions, surely that'd decrease my chances of getting in... i'm not happy with my current mental state, but i'm still able to work and make a living.

i don't have any therapists or psychologists near me, so i'm pretty limited to self-help or meds.

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any help is appreciated. i have no idea what to do.