I’m sorry for wasting your time but i need help in knowing who I am. I’ve bipolar, BPD And OCPD. This is what ive been diagnosed and i cant sleep matter what meds, sleeping pills, or melatonin i take. It’s currently almost 3 am of my 8th or 9th day of not sleeping. I feel like I’m messed up beyond repair. For the past few days ive been contemplating about killing myself a lot. Like really a lot! At the same time i want myself to be normal. I keep hearing voices that make me feel more depressed and suicidal. Ive botched every single connection with others i had. I’m not on any social media. No one talks to me and the country where i live considers mental illness a stigma and a taboo. I see faces at random places even tho I’m alone. Idk whats wrong with me. Am i too screwed beyond repair? Will i forever stay mentally unstable and challenged? I don’t think I’ll ever have a life.