New Year’s Eve party’s and staying up till 12:00 am setting off fireworks for celebration of the new year seem happy to most people. This year it was hell. I was on a call but then I left the call saying I would be right back. I had my sister over so that kind of helped me. Just thinking about it made me anxious. I went to my room and wrapped myself in the blankets of my bed. I didn’t want to leave. But my sister asked me if I would like to watch tv for the New Years celebration. I said sure be soon afterwards I felt like I was on the brink of a panic attack. I went into my bathroom and sat on the floor. I didn’t want to move from the ground. I’m not sure why I felt like that. I just felt so helpless like I couldn’t do anything