I would like to say I’m already starting therapy to find out but I’m on a waiting list so i don’t know when i will get it but i need a-bit of help

For a while now i have been trying to find out if i am borderline or bipolar and i decided i was borderline for a while as i have 5 or 6 of the 9 symptoms(you need 5 to be diagnosed) and my symptoms seem to have more bpd than bipolar (but not by landslide or anything) however the thing that confuses me is that my mood-swings last weeks to months like bipolar and not hours to days like bpd kind of but ill get into that later

I will be happy for a while then i will be depressed for a while and the i will get all the bpd symptoms witch normally lasts a-few months and is usually the longest phase i will get symptoms like abandonment issues,splitting,disassociation,reckless behaviour,paranoia and during these few months i will have mood swings that only last hours

Some of the symptoms also cross over e.g. when I’m depressed i will also have abandonment issues and disassociate and when I’m happy i will still be reckless and impulsive bit not to the extent i am in the bpd fase

Im not sure if I’m borderline and i am just in control of it for a-bit and get depressed when it takes over me again and i keep doing that or if I’m bipolar and my manic stage is just really similar to being borderline