I don’t know what to do man. I have anxious attachments and I can be codependent because of it but only with people I really like. Like a best friend or a partner kinda close so I always think I’m doing good until it crops up again. I’m scared of losing my friends because I become too much, I apologize so much for literally nothing because I’m so anxious. Everything I do is based off the mood of that person and I know this is based in childhood when I did things based off my dads mood but now that I’m older I don’t know how to solve it. I want to have a boyfriend one day yknow? I want to have friends but when they get too close I start to care too much and the tendencies in an anxious attachment really show. I want to be better but I just don’t know how and I don’t have the money or time during college for a therapist just because art school projects take a hell of a long time to produce. I really wanna be okay and be normal and not feel embarrassed because it feels like I’m not emotionally mature when I get anxious as opposed to someone who doesn’t have panic attacks and anxiety over their relationships with others. Idk it just feels bad man :(