Traveled West for the first time. 
Stayed with a man who treated me like a queen. 
Shared my home with a man I've desired for years. 
Fell in love with myself again. 
And then it ended.

Abandoned by the man I let into my home and heart.
Got sick with the flu, afraid to call into work.
House became a giant mess.
Snow snow snow snow snow.

Yesterday, I spent most of the day stuck on my couch, heart aching from loneliness. Sent an Instagram Live post asking for support. 25+ people saw it, 1 responded. Found a little energy before bed to start some plants I've been planning for my window garden.

Woke up today around 7am with a massive headache. Couldn't get it to stop and couldn't fall back asleep. Woke up, made myself breakfast of eggs, bacon, and chai latte. 

Prepped a vegetable/chicken curry I've been too frozen to start. 

It's in the crockpot. I'm settled into the couch trying to rest off this headache. Listening to a funny podcast. And I'm at peace.

Life is kicking my ass.

Yes, and...
I'm not done fighting back.

