Sometimes I think when I overdose I actually died and I’m really dead thinking I’m living. I’ve overdosed four times and each time it was just pure blackness and no time existed. This first and 3rd over dose I should’ve never survived. The first time 7 minutes no heart beat. The second time the cops did CPR for 25 minutes and gave up waiting for the ambulance. I had thrown up and inhaled it. No one known I needed narcan both time.