The majority of the time I feel so alone and lonely, desperate for connection, I find myself putting up with complete bullshit from guys. Even if I know they're a complete asshole, I'll still talk with them and flirt with them, bc it's better than being alone. I HATE that I do this, and usually end up feeling more alone. I wish I could just set strong boundaries and say "no" to people, but I'm scared of making people angry or upset. This is yet another reason why I feel like I'll never have a real genuine relationship. I just let people walk all over me. I kind of feel like I deserve to be treated like shit anyways, but at the same time in the back of my mind I know that I deserve more yet I can't seem to find it or hold myself up to that standard..  Does anyone else do this....?

I feel dumb even typing this.