I genuinely can’t express how bad I hate myself though any text. I fall short in front of myself every day and have this rage inside me that I can not control. My fuse is the size of a grain of sand and I tend to let it run over me and I hurt the people who care about me. But I only treat the people who are close to me bad, it’s never someone who isn’t actually my friend. I treat strangers better than I do people who care for me. I don’t know why I have this problem but I need help and I’ve needed help since I was a kid. It started with cussing out my parents at a young age, then Onto breaking things, punching holes in the walls. Degrading my mom and dad, for when I messed up. Now here I am, 21 years old and I do it to my significant other. I love her and she is All I have left in this life I have made for myself. Why do I want to push my hate into other people ? Why do I have anger towards only people who want to help me ? Does anyone else have this issue …? I’m mad at the world. I’m not happy what so ever. I need fucking help