We're on day 5 of an episode, yesterday she left for hours and I knew what was up. Asked where she was going, she said anywhere the fuck away from you.  I laughed and said 'have fun', &amp; walked away. I'm done but for reasons can't serve divorce papers yet. So, an trapped with wife I no longer want as wife. She came back in a better mood and it felt like I was expected to be in a better mood to mirror her, lol no fucking way. Been cool, nonchalant, my non-reaction is pissing her off at same time she knows this is a hard boundary for me.  This morning I left for a few hours without saying where. It doesn't feel fair yet. Considering dressing well, looking dtf, and leaving a weekend evening for random hookup and then returning without explanation.  Fair?