
You stop putting in effort for meaningless friendships, you start to accept things the way it is and prepare for it to get worst. 

You stop talking to literally everyone. 


You are always close to taking your own life. 


You are just a zombie.  You are “going with the flow” while everyone else around you are actually enjoying living, (even if it’s just a little). 



You are trapped.  You have little freedom.  


You can’t reach out for help. 


You are riding the wave, hoping things will change for the better. 


You are preparing for this summer. A summer full of slaving, misery, stress, and possibly being sick. 


You are working for free. You are gaining nothing. 



You lose out on everything, nothing in your life will be normal. 




You are broken. 




You wonder, if one day you are able to get out of this….  what will happen if I do? 


What will happen if I finally have a chance, or if I meet the right people? 


Will I blow it? Will I run them off?  


I am so used to “going with the flow”, I am afraid that when I finally have a chance I won’t know how to take the chance. 


I don’t know if I’ll be able to maintain freedom if I ever get it. 

I am so fucked up, it sucks. 

I don’t know.    Today is May 1st, another month.  We survived. 


We are alive. 



Let’s hope for the best, and continue riding the wave….🌊


Buckle up, hunker down. it’s about to get bumpy🎢