So a couple months ago I started getting disability payments. This is because working causes such an insane level of disregulation for me that every time I have ever gotten a new job I was in the hospital within a week. But now that I'm on it I feel unable to explain to people why/I feel like I need to because they might think Im just using the system and think badly of me. Even when I say that working has consistently led to hospitalization for an attempt or pretty damn close, I still feel as if they don't really get it and are judging me. And of course I'm not going to say all the details to a casual friend who asks how I have money without working in a year. If I just say that working makes me really disregulated they'll be like "yeah work is stressful so what. It's stressful for everyone." I just really don't know how to explain it to people and feel they actually understand me.