I was depressed to begin with but having good grades gave a bit of meaning to my life. I was in the best 10% of my class (bachelor degree 3d year ) and i just failed an exam (data analysis), first time in my life, 6/20 . I am not the person i want to be anymore, my dream was to have a phd after my masters and i am alrealy failing  a class of my bachelor
i do not deserve to live or procreate
i am a fucking loser
i called my boyfriend to talk and he is busy, this pain is so unbearable to deal with alone
i feel let down and life is just so painful what is even the point
my eyes hurt like hell from crying all day long and i've been shouting like a crazy person in my room, uncontrollably and am now so embarrassed in front of my roommates
I feel like this is the end