I just hate the way I look, I can remember the first time I truly realized I was ugly when I was 12 and saw a photo of myself taken candidly. I hate my big ugly nose, my misshapen body, my tiny boobs, and chubby face. 
I know im ugly too because I’ve been told by a doctor that I have “strange” proportions for my height. My ribcage is abnormally long  and I have pectus excavatus. The only thing I like about my self are my feet which are lovely and small. 
I feel some days I don’t recognize myself in the mirror. I’ll just stand and stare trying to find something that feels connected to me. Something that I look like. I don’t know how to explain it but as long as I’ve been sick I’ve felt disconnected from my body. I suddenly realize I’m alive and have control over myself.