I’m 18 years old and a couple of somethings has happened to me when I was younger. I decided to tell my mom everything that happened to me 12/31/21 but I felt good about it and thought I was actually happy for The first time in forever, but I felt my depression come up and I wanna harm myself to the point of an unrecognizable state. I feel like I misunderstood my feeling… i don’t know what to do and I truly kill myself.