a lot of the times when me and my fp get in arguments it feels like she gets really cold and short with me… i get why she would get mad at me sometimes, i do say things out of line sometimes. a lot of the times when she gets particularly upset with me she’ll say stuff like “wow.” “ok.” “god i dont know, what do you want from me (my name).” “whatever” “im done” and she’ll curse which all just feels like the end of the world when i read them. its always when im jusy trying to express how im feeling and it just hurts so much when it feels like she doesn’t try to understand me and just wants me to shut up. she knows i have bpd and knows shes my fp and im really sensitive to her reactions but it feels like she doesnt care and it makes me so sad and i think about the conversation all day and all night. i know she doesn’t understand the full scope of how horrible these interactions leave me, how they send me into episodes. i know she’ll never really understand and it leaves me feeling so. so. so. alone.