I know there have been various posts made with this subject but I am curious of people’s experiences especially if you’re living in the UK as I know different options are available depending on where you live.

I am 26F and have not been dianogised with BPD but I am finding that I am easily fitting in with the symptoms. I constantly feel empty but that can quickly change to sadness/upset and then anger towards others which causes me to lash out at friends and family for no reason. When I wake up I feel like I never know what the day will hold because my emotions are like a rollercoaster. I have erratic mood swings that are all over the place and have no emotional stability causing me to feel constantly on edge and overthink from anxiety.

I find it severely hard to hold relationships with friends and family but especially when trying to date. 
I have ruined so many potential relationships with guys from being paranoid and having the fear of being left (this causes me to: over text, constantly stalking their social media to see if they’ve blocked me, reguarly needing reassurance that they like me/trying to force guys into convincing themselves they hate me or they’re gonna leave me so I know their intentions, becoming severely intense, falling in love and obsessing over someone in a short period of time (a week normally)). I’ve never had a bf due to this.

In the last year, I have approached 3 different GP’s explaining how I feel but haven’t received any help and was even told “to go excercise” &amp; it would solve everything. I have been thinking about going to private counselling but I don’t know if they would be prepared to speak about the subject of BPD. I feel so lost and have no direction in my life. 

So please tell me, how were you able to receive help?