I (30m) am at the point where I don’t really ever do anything but lay around and look at my phone. I go to work, make good money, but when I come home I just lay down and look at my phone. I have zero motivation to do anything. I never feel excited about anything. I rarely feel glimpses of any kind of happiness. I feel like my emotions are just numb and have been for years. From the outside you’d never know this about me, my friends and family probably think I’m fine.

I know I should eat healthy, exercise, go outside, etc. I’ve tried those things and they last for a bit but it doesn’t get me out of it much. I also just don’t have any will to do it. I don’t want to go on medication. 

I think part of it stems from insecurity of my height (5’4). 
I’ve accomplished a lot, traveled the world, had very interested experiences, but I feel this burdens me. 
I also just feel this anger inside me. I don’t know. 

Any help appreciated