I have only ever had extreme states of dysphoria while manic. The rest of the time I’m just depressed. People think I’m the biggest asshole when I’m having a manic episode because they think I’m having the time of my life instead of being scared shitless and thinking I’m doomed to hell. 

Sometimes I feel lonely even on this sub because no one seems to talk about mixed features. Am I the only one who’s never been euphoric *at all*?