I've been smoking weed, doing c*caine, &amp; drinking since I went on vacation from work Friday &amp; mixing it with my wellbutrin. I know I'm spiraling in a bad episode but I can't make myself stop. I feel so ashamed I don't know who to tell that I'm just in a bad place right now. 

I live with my family but I'm scared imma overdose alone in my room. I hate this feeling of loss of control. I havent eaten and i havent left my room aside from using the bathroom. 

Does anyone else relate? I just wanna hear other peoples experiences so I don't feel so alone :/