About a month ago I had a manic episode because my friend was moving out and it made things really stressful and then I ended up wanting to harm myself. I didn’t end up actually doing anything just had them in my hands but my roommate caught me while FaceTimeing my bf of almost a decade. He then breaks up with me because he can’t handle my mental illness anymore and I don’t think I get that. My thing is how am I ever supposed to love myself oranyone else if my mental illness just makes them abandon me. I have learned in the recent weeks I not only have bipolar but ptsd and bpd. My ex and roommate don’t want to see me for a while. I just don’t know what to do anymore and looking for more help. I’ve been in a metal hospital and have therapy but I don’t think any of that is going to help me right now. We are all in our early 20s if that helps.