Like I’ll just be sitting here casually and think of a whole ass plan to manipulate someone into a relationship with me, or how to get money or how to get something from someone. I absolutely never have acted on any of these thoughts but every time I take a step back and go “yikes that’s manipulative as fuck”. Like am I really capable of that??? I’ve never done it but fuck could I? I don’t know how to feel about it. Just another thing I hate about myself. Idk how to fix it.