I’ve been feeling rlly shitty &amp; I’m getting like small pains randomly all over my body and I gave myself too much insulin for something and my blood sugars been all over the place and it’s stressing me out. And I got little waves of derealization (best I can explain) and started thinking about death again  and I had a lot of caffeine so tonight isn’t gonna be fun. It’s my fault but i just don’t wanna feel like this. Like always on edge and anxious. I’m also getting really lonely. I stopped talking to my friends and I barely talk to my family even though I’m around them a lot. I just don’t feel like i fit in anywhere and I get really self conscious about everything. At this point I’ve given up in school. I’ve lost motivation and I keep self sabotaging myself &amp; overthinking about everything. I’ve basically been like accepting the anxiety at this point and I don’t really feel it as intensely anymore so it’s really just physical symptoms like chest tightening shortness of breath and pains/cramps. Idk it just sucks and idek if some of it is anxiety or just health problems in general. I been getting mood swings and shit like that and it’s messing with my head because I’ll just get really angry and that’s how I ended up cutting myself or really depressed and I’ll just lay in bed and do nothing all day. I don’t feel like myself anymore and idek who I am at this point because my idek what my personality is anymore and I just feel meaningless.