I have this giant sad pit in my stomach today. I’ve been in a good place but the last few days it feels like it’s crashing. Woke up this morning and just felt sad and hopeless. 

I feel the urge to cry but nothing will come out. I’m tired but I know wasting my day sleeping won’t help. 

I like my job but am feeling a lot of dread about going in tomorrow. 

I’m trying to get myself to leave my apartment today, even if it’s just to go get groceries. Fresh air helps sometimes. 

I’ve been trying to convince myself to go to a recovery group tonight (I’m a recovering alcoholic) but it feels like so much effort. They have a painting class that I’ve been wanting to try out.

I don’t know why I’m posting this, it sounds dumb. I know people have a lot worse problems than I do.

Maybe just some people who will have a conversation with me. Sometimes talking to people who know how you’re feeling helps.