Any of y'all get bored and want to do stupid things? In particular have risky sex with inappropriate people just to feel some excitement and to feel wanted. So I had a break up a couple months ago and I've been drinking a lot and yadda yadda but now I'm like so bored I want something interesting to happen. And rationally I know how damaging all the stuff I'm thinking about will be to me, but that self destruct button is so irresistible when the alternative is an endless future of emptiness. Anyone else have similar things?