i (16f) have been researching schizophrenia ever since i had an ‘episode’ (self harm/hitting/voices) a couple years ago and my symptoms have only gotten worse. i have hallucinations pretty much every day but usually it’s minor stuff like whispers or animals that aren’t really there, but there have been times where i’ve had hallucinations so real i was truly convinced. the hardest part is the voices though, they say awful things i don’t even feel comfortable sharing on the internet. i’ve been hospitalized before + gone to a few therapists and 2/3 said schizophrenia was possible but i would cut things off shortly after that because i was scared of getting diagnosed. i have moments where i feel like someone else is trapped inside my body or that i’m jesus and no one can hurt me or that the government is coming to arrest me bc they know ‘everything i’ve done’ (??? i don’t even know what makes me so paranoid about this because i havent done anything for the government to care) obviously this is a very summarized version but does anyone know what this is?? i don’t even care if it’s schizophrenia i’ve just been so confused for years and want answers.