I feel so alone. Earlier in the year I realized enough has gone wrong in my life in the last few years that the only reason I felt like living was being in love. I fucked everything up with my partner and really showed a lot of my toxic traits. I just don't feel like I have any reason to keep going. No goals I feel like sticking around for, no friendships and thus no people to miss me, and due to childhood trauma I don't think I care to stick around for family. I'm barely keeping my head above water financially and my bipolar is getting worse. Life just feels like walking through mud and usually having things to stick around for make it worth it, but not if you don't. Idk. Sorry y'all.