I've been underpaid and overworked for a while, and finally things have been a bit slow lately. So I decided to take myself out for a treat (McDonald's and a movie). I left work early citing a headache, and my boss' reaction felt cold. Spiralled into a loop of overthinking, and just when I reached the mall, I decided to just go home instead. I was worried about being spotted by someone, or somehow being exposed. I am overtaken by this guilt of lying, I'm constantly wondering if they all think I'm slacking off, I feel like I don't even deserve to give myself any good things ever. I hate it here.