I'm 21 years old, male. I was dating this girl on and off since january. She's dumped me multiple times before but always came back after a few days. Now it's been 3 weeks with nothing.

Basically, I had told this lie. She eventually found out and dumped me. I am losing my mind. I have completely pushed all my family and friends away over the last 6 or 7 months because of this girl. I have no one to go to.

She lived an hour and a half away. In june she asked me out again, and I told her I wasn't going to do it because she kept changing her mind and backing out. She promised she wouldn't do it again. I believed her. I moved my whole life to a new city so I could be closer to her, and then she dumped me again. We got back a few days later.. then this lie happened and we've been done since July 9th.

I feel so angry about this. I moved everything for her, lost friends and family. I gave her EVERYTHING over these last 7 months and she just ripped it all away from me.

I've tried not contacting her. But it's so fucking impossible. I end up texting or emailing her every day. Or calling. Or sending flowers or gifts. I hate myself for doing it. But I can't help myself.

I don't know what to do. I feel so shitty and have no one to go to now. We had literally everything in common. I can't do anything to make me happy because everything I would normally do is something that I have spent 7 months doing with her and it all reminds me of her.

I can't listen to the music I like, because she likes it too. I can't paint, which in the past has been my outlet... because we painted together, and it just reminds me of her. I can't do anything. I fucking hate it and I just want to see her again.

I know the one thing I can do at this point is give it time. I'm so fucking scared she's gonna change her number and i'll have nothing.

WHAT DO IT :(