
I have been sad like extremely sad (probably depressed my family never cared/thought of getting me checked out) since I was small like 6-7~ish? And it’s mostly due to my physical appearance and a bit of my family. My physical Appearance isn’t the best my liver or my body doesn’t produce enough insulin to level out the sugar or something that comes into my body? I don’t like to think about it so I just forgot but it has never helped me out anywhere. Everywhere I go outside of my house makes me feel like crap, seeing all those fit/buff/slim guys nice looking people hell I can’t even go to the beach anymore because I am ashamed of my self but it’s not only outside it’s also school. I have been bullied since I was grade 2 and this year was the absolute worst for me Lord of things happened like being bullied at school due to my weight and sexuality, people making absurd rumours about me which I don’t want to share here and people occasionally stealing my stuff like my goddamn glasses. I can still see but barely so it’s hard for me to find them again or they steal my books and all that other stuff that’s needed for school. Then my family is a whole different thing, 90%of the time they insult me like “when are you gonna loose weight?” Or “you won’t accomplish anything in the future if you stay in this weight “ and more stuff when I can’t understand a question they ask right (English is MY first language but not my families so I am bad at my native language so it’s harder for me to understand) they start calling me an idiot,braindead moron, fat fuck and other insults that it’s hard for me to translate bcuz I don’t know what they mean. I’ve tried everything to loose weight but it does not help what so ever. And everyone is getting to me I need help (not weight loosing tips cuz I’ve tried everything and given up) any advice on these kinds of stuff?