As the title says, my boyfriend ran out of lithium a few days ago now due to insurance and processing issues. As the med has been falling out of his system, he's seemed to have more of a positive vibe and definitely happier. Why do I like this more than when he's on that specific medication?

I feel like I'm being unfair and I want him to continue being stable but there's that little light I can see in his beautiful blue eyes again. He has energy, sex drive, and can actually have feelings. I know he needs the meds and I'm not encouraging him to stop taking them. 

With this, I know he's been having delusions again and starting to relapse. He'll never admit to it as he doesn't see his reality that way. What do I do? I'm staying with him no matter what, but it seems to be hitting him harder than last time and I'm as his delusional talk has started in with my own thoughts.