Hi everybody. I don't even know what to write precisely but I'm so fxcking tired, just in general. I'm deeply sad that I'll never have a life where I'm indipendent, or that somebody would ever love me (because of my OCD, weird way of living things, limitations I have). Doing things makes me tired, with a weight in the inside and low energy. Every 2-3 days I have an (sometimes bad sometimes light) anxiety overload moment due to some phobias that I got and last week I had one of the worst crying moment. I don't know what to do, and I feel so pathetic, adding the fact that I'm very slow at uni due to me being tired or not concentrated enough. I wanted to go to a therapist but I can't afford it.
This is my "mood" since the pandemic started (with ups and downs) and I wish I could solve it without a therapist. I don't know what to do. Hopefully summer makes me feel better