i had an idea about something being wrong w me given my intense mood swings and unhealthy emotional cycles, i even mistook it for bipolar but then i read about it and that wasn't it. went to the psychiatrist, got diagnosed of BPD, depression and anxiety. i'm currently on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication and it's gotten worse since and i feel like they aren't working. i talked to a friend with OCD, he was prescribed similar medication and we talked about it to which he told me that it gets worse before it gets better. not to forget i'm also going through a break up while i'm in the middle of finals, it's hard to focus. it's been an emotional hell, i've been rethinking every single aspect of my life, even my ambitions, i have no idea what to do, i wish i knew how to deal with this. i wish i knew what i wanted.