I know it sounds stupid, and trust me I think it’s stupid too, but I’ve always had this “need to know” kind of trait. If I don’t know when someone is going to come over or pick me up, I will have a panic attack. If someone doesn’t message me back as fast as I messaged them, it feels like they are ignoring me on purpose, like they don’t want to deal with me. I think this stems from a very emotionally abusive friendship from middle school. My FP at the time was a girl who probably had some issues too. Long story short, she would ignore me. All of the time, with little to no reasoning behind it. I would message her over and over thinking I had lost my only friend, just for her to message me back 4 days later calling me crazy. And it probably is “crazy” to blow up someone phone like that. I no longer blow up people’s phones, but I still feel the anxiety. Now it’s mainly with my boyfriend. Is this some sort of abandonment issue I may have?