I hate this so much, I’ve been having bad anxiety episodes recurring since last month but every since last week they have been the absolute worst. bad physical symptoms like couldn’t eat, stomach and chest pain and very low moods. College just started for me, I would suspect that to be a bit of a reason why at first but it’s going to be week two and I still feel the same. I hate how my mind keeps playing tricks on me, making me believe stuff I wouldn’t have dared thought to imagine a few days ago. I hate this version of myself and I know past me would of hated who i think I’m becoming. I do get moments of clarity which is nice but this is still so bad :(. 
   I’m getting a psych evaluation within 2-3weeks. I hope it ends, I seriously hope it does. I don’t like anything anymore and I have no care for morals anymore and if I do i feel guilty. I can’t sense what is real in the physical sense if I think about it too much. All of this can be changed with the correct thoughts though.