I take improv classes. I find that acting helps me to express my emotions in a more productive way. Today, in class, the teacher suggested that I play characters less and play a role more like myself. Well, that won’t work. I wanted so badly to tell him that can’t happen since I have no clue who I am and that every interaction I have with people is a split second decision on who to be to best fit the situation, but I figured he wouldn’t get it. Such is the BPD struggle. 