I graduated high school in 2016 and very shortly after had a falling out with my friend group that left me alone to face everything that life had to offer after it. I feel nothing has really been the same since, I don't nearly feel the same enjoyment or interest in life as I did before. I haven't made any new or lasting friendships (in the real world) in this time outside of "only talk at work friends" and this shit sucks. My girlfriend says it's just because they were toxic people and to some extent, maybe, but even still. It pains me to my soul because I really cared about these people, like they were my own family, and it was so easy to leave me out to dry like that. One has reached out since and kind of apologized but not really, told me to talk to the other guy because they changed since but it's just too late. Even if they were to come back, it's the fact that I was betrayed for so long I can't bring myself to trust. I don't know, just needed to vent, I see some stories that occasionally mirror mine and it makes me feel not so alone but it doesn't make it any less sad. I should just live my own life and move on like they clearly are, but I let this shit effect my life and ruin opportunities because of my own trust and self image issues.