i’m so frustrated. it sucks knowing what you’re feeling is irrational, and just not being able to help it. it’s so fucking exhausting shifting from mood to mood from day to day, or fucking hour to hour. it’s so tiring having these stupid impulses to do shit that you know is bad for you or you know will hurt other people. 

i don’t like hurting other people. i don’t like punishing myself. i don’t like feeling everything constantly and like somehow nothing at all at the same time. 

sorry, just venting. this is so exhausting guys. 