when i was younger before i was diagnosed i was kind of a whore. i used protection and birth control, but sex was a form of self harm for me. now that im in a committed relationship with someone i love i just dont really want to have sex. it makes me feel gross like it’s hard to explain i’m attracted to my boyfriend and i don’t know how to explain this to him. he tries to initiate stuff with me and i say i dont feel good or pretend to sleep and i feel like he gets frustrated