So as long as I (48M) can remember I have always gone through stages of being ‘down’. This involves doing something to forget everything. When I was younger it was getting blind drunk by myself. Now it’s binging on social media or TV. ( I’ll drink but maybe a few beers or a bottle of wine. I hate hangovers). I don’t do work or interact with anyone and get to the dark place of wouldn’t it be nice to just put a bullet to the brain and embrace the nothingness. Ahhhhhh nice. I have 2 great kids, a good job. A great girlfriend, friendly with the ex and a few friends. Basically a very good life. These stages last 2 to 3 days and I snap out of it and can be positive and active in life. This will happen every couple of weeks and as I get older I am conscious of how much a waste of precious life it is. But still I’ll get down and waste a few days.
Noting that there are people way worse of than me, I feel a bit bad posting but interested in other’s thoughts.
I am in my good mood at the moment so won’t mind direct feedback.