Hi all

So, as my title suggests, I’m returning to work on Thursday after an intense flare up of depressive symptoms associated with BPD. 

My boss is not particularly understanding of my issues and seemingly took it personally when I explained that work had been a major trigger of my flare up. 

Without going into boring detail, I tend to take on a lot of work to keep others happy, even if it’s detrimental to myself. However, others aren’t willing to help me with work if I ask. I am financially in the pooper, so I have also been doing a lot of overtime, which has physically exhausted me. Plus I’m now paranoid that when I return, everyone is going to hate me for having been off for so long.

I leave there at the end of August to go back to uni, so I don’t have long left there. However, I’d really appreciate any advice on how to keep myself going over the next few months. I have a tendency to catastrophise and assume the worst in situations, and I’m very hard on myself. 

Do any of you have any techniques on how to look at things more rationally and objectively when you’re feeling overwhelmed? Or do you have any things you do to help calm you in stressful environments? 

I’m not even sure if any of that made sense, but if anyone can help, your responses would be appreciated.

Thank you ❤️