I know this is pretty specific and not sure if there's somebody out there who will be exactly like this, but looking for insight from a male in their mid twenties who has depression, anxiety, bipolar and quiet BPD who isn't in therapy or on medication or completely sober. 

How in control of your actions are you when you're manic? Like lying wise and things you do when you're manic? 

I'm just wondering because my previous partner was compulsively lying to me and did some crazy fucked up shit while manic and recently when he and I were talking and he was telling me how guilty he felt it almost seemed like he was partially in control of what he did and that's why the guilt is so extreme. I understand you're out of control when manic, but the way he was telling me how guilty he was it was almost like maybe some part of him was in control and aware of what he was doing, but he did it anyways.