Does anyone have an FP of the opposite gender who is married and how do you handle this inappropriate situation? How do you get past the bond you’ve unhealthily created? I feel like I can’t breathe if I can’t talk to this person. 

Sometimes it feels like the only solution is to find a new FP, but that won’t solve my underlying problem, plus I’d probably just end up in the same situation with a different person.

Please no mean comments. I know what a POS my behavior makes me. I’m not looking for pats on the back or condoning of my past behavior. Just support from someone else in the same toxic situation.