In the past I've dated people with depression and they would treat me terrible. Now i got diagnosed last year and at first i was worried i would end up treating my partners as terrible as my exes treated me. 

I was okay for a couple of months so I decided to stop taking my meds, now I'm dating someone and I feel like I'm becoming a monster, im either mad or crying, I started self sabotaging the relationship, convincing myself that it wasnt worth it, I wasnt worth it, it was a waste of time, he was better off with another person.

I feel terrible being like this to him and at this moment I  just want to tell him to stay away from me I really dont  want to treat him the way I was treated in the past.