For over a month, I have tried to talk about my long-term physical health issue I have. I have been having weekly, if not more, doctors appointments, but something else has always come up.

My psychatrist said I really need to get then checked out, and I finally had the ability to tell my GP ..and they were like 'im not doing anything about that till I talk to your psychatrist'. I. Didn't even get to speak about what my symptoms were before she dismissed me. My psychatrist is the second specialist I have seen recently that wants me to see a neurologist.

My partner was supposed to go with me on Thursday, in-case they try to dismiss me again. I'm really worried about my health - my vision is fucked, I'm in pain all the time, very tired, and I keep dropping things. Being dismissed is really triggering for me BC I had two really bad doctors when I was a kid/teen, who would blame everything on my weight or my attitude... Including stuff like 'my whole family (more than 6 people) had a chest infection last week, now I do too' which would be met with 'if you weren't fat you wouldn't have got this!'

Except my partner made plans to go to a country town the day before and won't be back in time now.

He made a mistake, but I feel really shitty about it and idk. No one else will come with me and my health issues are getting worse so quickly, but I'm pretty sure this appointment is going to be hell, and unproductive and now I have to go alone.

I extremely rarely need him with me. Like maybe 2 times in the past 6 months, so it's not as if I am being burdensome by asking this of him.

He's apologized but like... It's another week gone by and my health gets worse.

I feel like my needs aren't important to him at all.