I am not even meaning this negatively but i just have to be honest. I have been to multiple psychiatrists and therapists and i’ve tried DBT many times and all these SSRI’s... for over a decade now... I work so hard to be okay... and here I am. still just a terrible fuck up. i do good for a few weeks and i’m back to square one. i know i’m doing wrong but when i get in my episodes i can’t stop myself. i also constantly dissociate. can’t keep a relationship ever. or a job. I’ve tried to go to church, I’ve tried to work out, i’ve tried to do so so much. I can’t do it anymore. I give up.