i rlly rlly hope im doing this right bc its my first time posting (i hope i put the right flair) but,

me and my fp have been fighting a lot lately and it was mostly just little arguments bc we both have been very tense and me personally very bad mentally but recently we had a really bad fight and im genuinely like at a loss for wht to do bc he left the chat we both are in nd has been ignoring me and im really scared hes gonna leave me bc of wht happened but im also like. rlly self destructive abt this stuff bc i tend to try to start arguments whn im rlly bad but i honestly dont think i can mentally take him leaving me nd i dont wanna put him thru this stuff either

i really need help figuring out what to do and wht are better coping mechanisms instead of resorting to fighting / arguments bc i dont think he will put up with it anymore