I work at a McDonald’s and I’m such a burden to all my coworkers, it feels like they all hate me. They can tell somethings wrong with me, I’m not normal. I weird them out and they can’t trust me, I just fuck up everything. I have no friends and no reason to stay. I’m constantly wondering haven’t they fired me yet. I feel like a mentally handicapped child that everyone has to be nice to and they’re all forced to be around me, maybe that’s exactly what I am. 
The manager is always so nice and reassuring to me and asking me how everything’s going, sounds like she’s just checking up on the “less then human” and pitying me enough to allow me to keep the job and “you have to be nice it them they’re slow” 
I don’t feel like I’ll ever be on the same level as everyone els 
My girlfriend works there but we work at separate times, and she makes a ton of friends and everyone is always doing fun goofy shit with her. 
I’m there and everyone is just mad at me and I’m trying my best but no matter how hard I try I still can’t handle the simplest jobs and everyone hates me. Even the people there who I don’t think hate me I know for a fact they would rather be with working with literally anyone els then me. 
I want to quit so bad, I hate being there. The whole time it just reminds me how much of a worthless freak I am. How no one is ever going to take me seriously, how now that I’m leaving high school and going into the real world, I’m never really gonna be able to connect with any person ever again and I’m gonna be incredibly lonely. 
I hope I get that job as a Pizza delivery driver or at least one where I don’t ever have to interact with my coworkers that often. I enjoy being alone, it helps me forget how “less than human” I am. It allows me to retreat back into my mind and just be me without worrying about anybody els. I get to be happy, I get to listen to podcasts and YouTube videos of other people talking about what they love and having fun. I can’t wait to shut everyone out of my life, relieve them of my burden, and just be happy being me. No one to judge me, no one to make me feel like I’m less than human