2018 was a very rough year for me. It started out okay until I got too close to someone I was obsessed with, shared my feelings, got rejected, and got worse from there. I continued to exhibit attention seeking, lying, manipulative and self-destructive behaviors throughout the year that seriously damaged my relationships with friends and family and I don't know how to fix it. The bipolar getting worse hasn't helped. I want to get better.

It's not getting better and my new therapist has undiagnosed me because I have ASD despite meeting criteria. I've tried DBT but I haven't been able to work through it. I don't know what to do.