I've never said this to anyone before but I heard from a friend that if I need help and wanted to remain anonyms, that this was the place to go.

about 3 months ago I was smoking the devils lettuce with a friend, I had a very bad high and since then I have not been doing well. It got worse when the new school semester started and many of my friends did early graduation, I thought that it was not that big a deal but they have all just forgotten about me like I am lost in space. my mother also lives like 3000 kilometers away and only calls like twice a month and she doesn't answer any of my calls. my geography teacher keeps throwing away any of my work and telling my parents I don't do any of the work its the only FU\*\*ING class I need to pass to graduate and I have spoken to guidance consolers about the issue and of course they believe the teacher. 

a bit cliché how ever the only reason I don't just end it is because there is still people in the world who care about me and I don't want to leave a hole in there life. and I have I have tried in the past and I don't recommend it, it is a painful process, hanging really pulls on the neck and stops blood flow hurts like hell. poisen if you don't take enough you feel like sh\*t  for a week.

I just don't know what I should do from here weather to end it or just keep blowing in the wind and see where life takes me.