Gosh I feel awful as per usual every morning is the same I wake up terrified for the day ahead just trying to stay stable enough to make it through to the end. I can’t stand this I’m so incredibly frustrated that I have to feel like this every morning. Gosh I sound so selfish when I know there are people who are more poorly than me. I’m sorry I just can’t stand this feeling. I don’t know how much more I can realistically take.