I’ve been disassociating for my whole life. I thought it began when I fell into psychosis years ago, but now, in retrospect, I can tell I’ve been doing it since quite a young age. I had some trauma I experienced when I was much younger, and I only remember any of it in like a dream state. For the longest time, I thought it was just a nightmare. It never registered that I had gone thru that moment (and more most likely), but my memory had been repressed. My brother, I believe, remembers much more of the trauma he received. Does that mean he didn’t disassociate due to the stress caused by said trauma? Or was it due to his lesser age? He’s almost 2 years younger so that could have factored in? It kills me that I couldn’t protect him. We have to protect the future (kids).