Like, I get super pissed alright? Like really, really pissed and it just keeps kinda getting higher but then suddenly it just zaps out and I feel tranquil. Like I'm just existing there and I have thoughts in my head that I think about, but I don't feel anything, and somehow I can function better? Like there's nothing. It's just me. My thoughts are just there floating and I can grasp them but they don't make me feel anything.