With every instance of depression, I have a decreased value of life. I have plenty going for me in college, not the best grades but im on the path for a degree. I have little interest in anything. theres no pinpoint where this began but all i know is at some point in high school i stopped the innovation of my life and ive been stuck on this "finish school, get a job, play video game" way of living. I dont have a  desire to do anything for fun, a desire to learn, i hate everything and i hate feeling this way. I think im starting to lose friends over it. Im a fucking asshole dude and i wasnt always like this. i havent had any sort of romantic encounter since high school i dont know what going on man i just want to get better. theres plenty of other major problems but i dont have it nearly as bad as millions of others so i just dont know whats wrong with me, i just want to care about something