I have been in a relationship for 5 months, I really like the girl, but lately the thoughts of self-loathing have returned and I thought that she stopped feeling the same for me, after an hour of session with my psychologist we came to the conclusion that I should talk about it with her and express what I felt instead of keeping everything to myself as I usually do. 

After a very difficult return home, I told her everything I felt and she told me that, yes she loved me, but she got mad at me for overthinking things and I feel that expressing my feelings to her just screwed up the situation and I think she hates me now. 

I feel like only my friends care about how I feel and it hurts me that having opened my heart, all she did was judge me for emotions and thoughts that I don't understand and can't control, I hate having depression I wish I could be normal.

 I'm sorry if this is poorly written, I'm not very good with English.