So, things haven't been great for me lately and to add to this I've just been told by my best friend - the only one I had for a long, long time - that she is moving from UK to Oz for at least a year and then maybe NZ for another year. I know I should be excited and pleased for her and her new adventures (I told her I was) but the only thing I am feeling is overwhelming fear and abandonment. I know it is ridiculous because it has nothing to do with me and I know it isn't rational to want to SH just to stop myself thinking endlessly about what I am going to do without her and even stupidly thinking she is moving to the other side of the world to get away from having to deal/put up with me. I can hardly say that to anybody though because I know how crazy it sounds. Doesn't stop me feeling it, though, like really intensely. She is hoping to be there as soon as early next year and idk, I guess I've just fallen apart. Everybody ditches me eventually and I don't blame them because I know I am not worth the effort but ergh, idk, I am just rambling now and I guess I just want to know if anyone else has experienced something similar and, if so, how did you avoid not letting everything completely go to shit? Thanks.