hey homies. i have bipolar II and really severe ocd. i’ve been in a depressive episode for a few months now and i’m so lost with what to do. sometimes i feel uplifted when i go to church and stuff but it just goes away so fast. i feel like i can’t connect with anyone, my brain is so fuzzy, i feel like a big mess, i’m having horrible nightmares, and i literally don’t feel anything. i forget to do stuff all the time - im so bad at school. it’s like im just floating through life with the most mundane emotions ever. it’s affecting my relationships. i will go out of my way for sexual intimacy just to feel some sort of connection - and it doesn’t do anything. i’m coming off as inconsiderate and uncaring to the people i love the most. my therapist had me order a workbook for bipolar disorder, but i’m lowkey about to call my psychiatrist to help me with medication. i’m on lamictal 250 and effexor 75 XR.

i don’t really know what the point of this post is - i just feel alone