First of all, this is my first ever post on Reddit. So, yay me, I guess. Forgive me if I don't have a handle on the norms. 

So here's my story. 

I've been dealing with depression and generalized anxiety for about ten years now. I didn't start seeking help until last year though. I did the typical male soldier thing and told myself to just deal with it. Eventually it got too bad. I finally found the right resources and started helping myself. 

Fast forward to about two months ago. My depression had been in check for a few months but I got some bad news and everything a switch seemed to flip in my head. All my old suicidal ideations and tendencies came rushing back like they never went away. I entirely found a friend I felt I could confide in. She has bipolar type 2 and I started doing some research on it. I noticed there were symptoms that answered many many questions about myself that I've had for years. In continuing my research I came across bpd and had continuous "light bulb" moments the more I research. I really hate to self diagnose but it just feels right. 

I called my therapist and asked her opinion and she said we would need to wait for our appointment so we can really hash out the details, which I'm totally comfortable with. 

Is this normal or am I completely jumping the gun?