God I am so fucking exhausted. Why does the system put all this legwork to get into therapy on the person with mental illness and not the professionals? Why are clinics so bad at responding to emails or making calls back for updates? Why are some receptionists so rude and unclear?

After months and months of searching for a DBT clinic, getting frustrated and giving up and trying again, I finally got onto the waitlist for one. Now it’s going to take around 4 months to get the initial appointment to get a *placement* into their *introductory* program. No telling when that will even be. My psychiatrist is concerned that this clinic might not have individual therapy anymore too, just group therapy, so now I have to look for an individual DBT therapist too. 

I’m so fucking exhausted. It’s all so expensive too. And meanwhile I’m just getting worse and worse. I don’t even know if this will work.