I dont know if this is a common thing among people with BPD but I've noticed lately that it doesnr seem take much for me to completely flip to the *dark side* like I have some twisted n obscure interests and so like a lot of people do, but I find if I don't give myself a *time frame* for me to indulge or be in that sort of mindset,I find myself becoming engulfed by it and sometimes to the point where I honestly become scared..Dont know if thats  Pure OCD kicking in telling me I'm sick and capable of horrible things...then at last moment something randomly snaps me back to reality and I reevaluate my actions and thoughts,become disappointed and or horrified and then continue keeping the *evil side* under wraps

I also find I've used maladaptive daydreaming as a sort of way to cope with things and explore my dark side.

Logical I know a lot of people have horrible intrusive thoughts or even taboo or socially unacceptable Interest and kinks and it's normal as long as they keep themselves in check..I somehow feel like an outcast monster..like things are okay for everyone else BUT me..
Anyways my question is basically does anybody find it seemingly easy to transfer their mind n thoughts to the *dark side* if they let them selves think certain things for a while n dont give themselves a time frame in which to stop..