    I have BPD. I have been managing my disorder. I have emotional ups and downs, my skin is thin, each of my emotions may be felt 100%, I'm impulsive, and I'm terrified of being abandoned. I've managed. When my emotions start to take over I usually manage to shut my mouth and if I have to I run away and hide. It's my way of protecting others from feeling like they need to walk on eggshells. When words and deeds cut me open and I feel like I'm bleeding I may not hide my sadness completely but I cry when I'm alone so no one else needs to feel helpless. When I feel a driving need to do something it's best to pause and evaluate why and so I change my mind often once I've had time to consider ramifications or my reasons. My fear of being abandoned is easier to manage by keeping everyone from getting too close, if they do they can hurt me without meaning to or worse, on purpose. I choose my friends with care giving only so much of myself. Its been a lonely life. 
    Only one person has been granted access beyond that point. One person in 35 years. What do I do now? It's all new. How do I manage my emotions when I can't hide anything from him? How could I hold back myself when I don't want that from him? I'm not going to let my BPD manage my life. So, how do I manage now? What works for you?