I never asked to be here 
My parents met and my mom thought why not? 
She the. Had me 
Not really knowing if she actually wanted to raise a child because we'll, she didn't raise me lol 
Now i. Here 
I'm stuck I can't kill myself 
When I should kill . Itself because why???
Because there's no hope 
There's too much I have to deal with 
And there's simply no hope for me LOL 
So what the fuck am I doing here? 
It's. Illegal for jill yourself 
Too many consequences of being looked at like a freak 
My thoughts aren't private 
This fucking sucks LOO
I can't wait to die 
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had 
I shouldn't have survived 
I shouldn't have been alive 
I should be dead, I'm too special and awesome for this world 
I let this world fucking corrupt. Me yo 
And I don't wanna be a part of it yo 
Not anymore
But there's nothing i can fucking do LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOKOLOL

What do I do?????