I don’t even know where to begin. I’m so exhausted. I try really hard to keep myself going but it’s just been getting harder and harder. 

I live alone, with 2 cats. I try, for them. I truly have no friends, I’ve been extremely lonely for awhile. Today I got fired from a job that i really wanted and I was only at for 4 days. I’ve been sick for the past 3 weeks. I’ve lost my appetite. I haven’t felt the slightest bit of joy in a long time. I can’t make dreams for myself because I know no matter how hard I try, I won’t reach it. I feel like a failure. A disappointment. Maybe everything that’s happening is my fault. Maybe I deserve this. I can barely make ends meet. Every time I start to think that things are looking up, instantly it crashes and burns. I’m stuck in this constant loop, I keep trying to get out of it but it won’t let me leave. I’m tired of struggling, I’m tired of stressing, I’m tired of not being able to eat, I’m tired of not being able to sleep. I just want to be done. I hate that I feel like it’s the only way to be at peace. I wish I could afford therapy. I don’t want to live like this anymore.