I have panic disorder, OCD, depression, and generalized anxiety, all of which have been relatively manageable for the past few years, until lately. We think I may need to switch meds. But anyway, I’ve started having these weirdly intense dissociative episodes that I haven’t had since 8th grade. It feels like dissociating but it makes all of my normal surroundings feel all wrong no matter where I am. Nowhere that usually helps calm me down helps me. It feels like everything is exactly the way it is, but in the wrong universe. Like I’m in some alternate reality that I can’t escape. It’s terrifying, but I’ve gotten more used to it. The first time i had one of these episodes in 7th or 8th grade, I locked myself in the bathroom for hours and turned the lights off in an attempt to isolate myself and calm down. When the feeling only kept growing, I was so scared that I was screaming and crying and clawing at the walls for some reason. This lasted for hours. The more it happened after that first time the more I could convince myself that what I was feeling wasn’t real and would pass, but it’s still not fun at all. I wanted to know if anyone else has had experiences similar to this, and share how you feel about it and interpret it. It would be great to know I’m not the only person this is happening to.