I'm in the first relationship of my life. It's been hell. My SO is the best. Totally chill, understanding and kind. But I swear to god everything he does sets me off. I'm constantly panicking he's going to leave me when he's spent the past year proving to me he won't. It's almost like I feel he's conning me. Like he doesn't really like me or care about me. Which makes me feel shittier because I know he does, I just can't accept it. 

So I ask you kind people, does it ever get easier?? Do these panicky feelings and insecurities ever go away??? Or is it something I'm gonna have to live with