I honestly feel ashamed to post here. I can't tell if I'm just doing it for attention or if I really need this, but I can't take being alone with this anymore.

My psychiatrist still hasn't refilled my prescription no matter how many times I've pestered him and his staff and now I've been without my meds for a few days.

Everything feels pointless. I feel so hollow. I can't get myself to do anything. I can barely muster getting myself to draw to help cope and it's not even working anymore.

I'm so furious with my psychiatrist. I definitely want to change when I get the chance, but that'll take time and I'll need my meds soon before I go crazy. This isn't even the first time, so I don't know why I'm surprised. I just want to feel normal. Why is that so damn hard?