I don’t know what to do anymore, being abandoned by my loved ones is my absolute biggest fear and no matter what I do I can’t stop destroying my most valuable relationships and forcing those I love to abandon me. I’m in therapy 3 days out of the week including DBT, I’m on good meds for my bipolar disorder, I’m in a rehab program for my drug addiction, I’ve gotten so much better over the past 6 months I thought, but it’s like I have no control when someone I love ignores me, I’m forced to watch myself destroy everything that I care about and nothing that I do will make it stop. I just want this fucking insane cycle to stop please for the love of god I can’t keep doing this.