I've been on meds for about a year now, and they helped with the worst of it. But sometimes I just get these episodes where I feel like I'm hit with a freight train of depression and I don't know how to fucking deal with it. Every time it happens it feels like I'm starting from the beginning , and it like forgotten how it feels, and its just a miserable experience. Normally if I'm lucky, it only last few hours. But this episode is now going onto day 2 and I don't know how to cope. I just want it to stop. anyways , sorry for the rant , I just have no one to talk to about these feelings