No, I don't hate having sex, in fact, I'm a virgin, I just, I fucking hate it. I hate the idea of sex, I hate people that have sex, I hate everything related to sex. I hate attraction, I hate empathy, I hate love, I hate everything related to it. That's why, when I do fantasize about sex, it's always rough and animalistic, because that's what sex should be, devoid of love. I can't let myself love people, I just can't, I love too strong, I love the same way Anakin loved people, everyone I love I obsess over. I can't handle it, I enjoy hatred, though, I like how my desire for any form of comfort and relationships fuel my anger and hatred. I hate everything, including myself, especially myself. And I hate sex because it's the ultimate expression of love. I've never even had a relationship, ya know? I'm not a normal BPD, no one would want to sleep with me, I'm just a filthy n***er, not just that, but a crazy one too. I really need to die, honestly. 