Thanks, university

I had an essay due last night that I'm only 100 words in and I've been having so much trouble doing essays lately, like I just have a mental block and trying to force past it instantly makes me panic and want to cry

Last night it got so bad I relapsed to cutting (which I've honestly been thinking about for a while and ngl it was a relief to do it again) and now I'm gonna be two days late (with a 20% penalty, joy) and argh it's just a lot