I always thought I was making small things big but some shit happened today that has left me shivering still. I don't talk to my father. Haven't in quite some time, around 6 months. He used to be an alcoholic and physically abuse my mother and sister. But he stopped and for some reason I thought my symptoms would die away with that but he's still very emotionally abusive. He raised his voice for some reason and I am still shivering. Due to this, anytime I go near alcohol, the smell pushes me into shivers and makes me cry. Same with men raising their voice. I want to move but my mom's paying for my degree and it's her house. I wish I could earn more soon so I can dart away from here. Any kind inputs welcome.