I genuinely feel like I’m going to explode. I just finished my finals for the semester and now I have over a month break before I have classes again. My bf (also fp) just expressed that he wanted more time away from me because he feels overwhelmed when we hang out for a long time. My mind keeps on wandering to creating an only fans or something sexual to make money and impress him so that maybe he will want to spend more time with me. I feel pathetic, but this fantasy of me making thousands of dollars and making him want to be around me more is so tempting. Is going for it a bad idea??