it's excruciating every time i interact with a romantic partner because I go basically mute when otherwise, with anyone else, or even with that same person just before we're "dating", I'm hyper and outgoing and comfortable and creative and I can experience and express thoughts in my head. I say "a" partner as I've dated four, all very different types of people, and experienced the same draining of brain juice as soon as we make eye contact as "partners". it sucks. lemme know if you can chat about it!!!!