I just want to feel at rest, the constant agitation is miserable. The concept of consequences does not exist in my brain and people around me get worried and overwhelmed. This makes me isolated as I start avoiding people. Drugs are a bit of an issue but also self medication, money I don't think about I just spend. My eyes shake and I cannot stop moving, even though everything is sore. I barely sleep, I'm stuck in a cycle sleeping for 6h on a benzo into being awake for two nights after that. My brain is so exhausted that I cannot get anything done in life but I'm so euphoric I don't really care. Next week I might start different medication for ADHD but I think I actually just need my mood stabilised. I cannot stop talking and my head feels like I'm drunk. Two days ago I started talking to non-real people I saw and heard it's the most intense hallucination I've ever had, plus I was sober, I had just been awake for 70+ hours. I walk way faster than I normally do and if my body hurts I go even faster. I'm scared of the crash. How bad do things need to be for me to be considered an emergency? What is realistic to ask for from psych? Any words of advice are appreciated