I managed to fuck up my life I think I want to kill myself. I read in the Bhagvad Gita that death is like changing a coat so that brings me comfort. 

I missed out on a lot of good years, due to anxiety and helicopter parenting. Never got to move out and now that I’m out of college I feel way more isolated and lonlier than before.

I have no hobbies outside of browsing Reddit. I’m not even sure if I could meet new people. Most ppl meet their spouses in college. I did not. I’m not socially competent enough to meet anyone outside of college. 

I don’t wanna kill myself but it feels like I have to. If I did I don’t think it would be a shock to anyone. 

Secondly I would be less of a burden on the world, my brother would be able to inherit my parents home. It just feels like everything would be smoother with me out the picture. 

Don’t know why I even wrote this, 2:30am and I gotta work. Ahh