I fucking hate myself. This is why people like me don’t really have a place in life.

Today at the subway this little old lady was struggling to walk down the stairs carrying a rolling bag. I was behind her, it was pretty tight, and just walked around her shamefully as people were looking. I felt so guilty, I was scared I’d bothered her 

I can barely order my own food or talk to my teachers. Im such a fucking menace
I don’t feel great. I feel like a horribly fake person
I feel unlovable. I’m only kind to people who I think I should be. Kissing asses and things like that. I’m not a good person. I wish I was