My therapist said she can’t see me anymore because I’m in a different state. I feel like she’s the only thing that keeps me grounded. She’s the only normal, logical, stable person in my life and I turn to her to everything to learn how to be a normal human. I feel like I’m floating above my body and I’m floating farther and farther away and my entire brain feels like BPD thoughts and I can’t fight them like I have been the past month and a half. It just took me over like a huge wave I wasn’t expecting. I don’t know what to do without my therapist I was just diagnosed in June and I almost kill myself only a month ago. And my work just got super busy and I have a learning disability and my boss is like wtf is wrong with you??? And I have to pretend to be normal but she probably thinks I’m lazy even when I’m trying my best. I may get fired. My bf is going to leave me. I’m a mess.