I'm sooooooOOOooOOoo done right now.

I was supposed to go to my friend's house today for band practice/a jam session. I guess my body decided otherwise because the anxious chest pain has been happening for HOURS. Four days ago I was too depressed to do anything, yesterday I was social and productive, but today I am confined to my bedroom by my anxiety.

I just wish that I could calm this feeling down. I know ice packs can help but I'm too anxious to leave my room. Thankfully I have my vistaril in my room. I'm just waiting for it to start working.

Deep breaths, deep breaths. I am a boat on a calm sea. Inhaaaaaaale aaaaaaaand exhale all that air out.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!