Been back and forth with my SO. They just kicked me out again. I want someone to be able to support me with my disorder but I feel like a burden to everyone around me. I feel imasculaed by my hypersensativity and mood swings. I cried last night because they were being distant with me and that upset them even more. I'm torn between wanting people to understand why I feel the way I do and trying to hide it because I'm embarrassed by my feelings. I have few people to turn to when I feel deeply depressed and my now ex SO only got irritated by my sensitivity, neediness and fear of rejection. I'm in a very dark place right now and the suicidal thoughts come and go. They would be more prevelant if I wasnt going to be a parent soon. I've failed at life in so many aspects from homelessness to financial struggle to numerous failed relationships. I hate myself so much I'm 27 and still feel like a teenager. I feel like I deserve love and a family but I cant expect someone to love and nurture me due to my illness. I hate my life right now and need to get some of this off my chest. To anyone to reads this I thank you deeply for any interest or care.