Went to a free mental health center today just to be told I'm definitely on the wrong medication but then aren't allowed to prescribe. And I have to go to center I can't afford to get new prescription I can't afford. I went to the center for help and left more anxious.

So many anxiety things I overcame.

Getting new friends. Talking on the phone. Working with actual people in a restaurant! Paying my bills, running errands! Being in any relationship.

And yet, I'm back at that state again.
Not only is anxiety and depression making getting work SO MUCH harder, being broke isn't helping and the place supposed to help me didn't. I need a plan but instead I'm panicking and leaving my couch is super hard. Not that I can't apply from jobs from my laptop...
I just don't know how it got here. I want to be my normal organised self who was getting better at facing things. In the last weeks my home is getting messier, my planner is getting messier, cooking is getting harder, every simple task is getting harder and hard tasks- impossible. And there are so many impossible tasks right now. I feel like I am on my own. I want to be amazing and make a plan and get out of this, but today I can barely breathe every time I'm away from my comfort place (couch). I hate being like this. I hate more having gotten better and then somehow, sliding back. Especially when I have no time for it, not that there is a good time for it. 

Today is just really debilitating and I can't breathe, so how do I face anything?