     Me 18F have been going to therapy for close to a year now and so far I've been through about 2 and I'm on my 3rd one now. So first off I'm incredibly nervous, especially with new people, so I would have my mom sit in on my meetings cause she makes me feel better and if I can't say something she'll try her best to describe what I mean to say. Anyway, my first therapist was kinda bad. She talked about her issues more than mine and would really only talk to my mom, I think she had a crush on my mom idk, but I would try to talk which was a big deal for me but she would listen for a second and go right back talking to my mom and I felt unseen, I mean that's how I usually feel but it's whatever. So long story short, she just up and left without letting her company or anyone know. Which really sucked at the time because my dad died the week she left! YAY!! Great time not to have a therapist. 

   After the first one left without notice my mom desperately tried to get me a new one as fast as she could because I just lost my dad and the company found us one! Cool right? Wrong. The second was worse than the first! I only had one session with her and she basically screamed at me for an hour for not wanting my baby nephew and my dad's funeral (real quick but I knew he was gonna cry because of the guns booming for the veteran send off and all that and then it would make me freak out because babies make me really uncomfortable and idk I just didn't want him there. He came anyway and did what I thought but it wasn't as bad as I thought. I love the lil monkey.) And so by the end of the session I was crying so hard I couldn't breathe because I felt like I was horrible for not wanting him to be there and that my dad would hate me for that. Let's just say I wasn't with her long and immediately got switched to my newest therapist/ my present day therapist. Basically she the better of the both of them but that doesn't mean she's good. She is a lil passive aggressive and I think she doesn't like me because I'm kinda scared to speak a lot due to the others. But it's not awful. Every time I go in and say some stuff and the wait for advice or for her to say something but it always ends in, "Do you want to play a game?" And I always say yes because I know if I don't I'll just have to repeat everything I already said or sit in silence, which I absolutely loathe. I know that doesn't sound like much but now she let's me out really early. Like I got in at 2 and it's supposed to end at 3 but recently she's but kicking me out at like 230 or 245 and I feel like she's annoyed with me..? The first one started doing that too close to when she left and I just feel like it's gonna happen again or she just dislikes me. I don't know I may be overreacting to it since I have abandonment issues and PTSD lol. So what do you think? Do y'all have any advice for me?