I was madly in love with my husband for 5 years. I have had a few days these past few months where I felt in love, but it has been very rare. I’m giving up hope that things will ever be better. I used to feel sad about it, but I don’t anymore. I want him to be happy and find someone who can love him, but that person isn’t me. I remember giving myself to him, but that feels like a different person now. We both feel like different people. We’ve only been married 2.5 years. It seems like a shame. I will always care about him, but things are never going to be the same between us.

We were supposed to go to the beach the next three days for my birthday, but I feel like it would be shitty to go and pretend everything is fine, so I’m going to tell him when he gets home. Wish me luck. This really sucks and is the hardest thing I have ever done.