i think i've had anxiety since i was like 7/8 but ever since covid and getting back into school after quarantining it's gotten really bad. summers are fine and honestly i feel great when i'm not in school, to the point where i can almost convince myself that i don't even have anxiety and i was just being dramatic or something. but the week before school started i was having panic attacks over the smallest things. 

during my sophomore year i was able to manage my anxiety but definitely not in a healthy way. i just want to find a healthy way to manage it. i've been in school for a week and it's coming back full force. i had a panic attack this morning over a presentation i have to do next week, i can't stop thinking about it. every time i have presentations or anything of that sort it literally takes over my life and it makes everything feel like the end of the world. i've talked to my parents about it and they both acknowledge that i have anxiety, despite never having taken me to a doctor because "they'll just put me on pointless meds." my mom thinks how i feel is normal (i'm pretty sure she has anxiety as well). i've tried to convince her to take me to a therapist or at least a doctor to get diagnosed but she refuses every time. not that i blame her, we don't have health insurance so i get it. 

anyways i really don't know what to do and i don't want to go back to hiding in the school bathrooms to avoid presentations and stuff. not to mention literally not eating all day during school because i hate the thought of eating in front of people. (and then by the time i get home i'm so anxious about going back the next day that i'm too nauseous to eat). so yeah i need advice pls