Does anyone else struggle with splitting on people but not idolizing them? I don't have any FPs, I don't even have romantic attraction anymore (asexual; was assaulted and have medical problems that require meds that make my interest in romance/attraction literally zero). The problem is, sometimes I'll make friends, and if they show even a little bit of attraction to me or do nice things, I split hard and I think they're trying to manipulate me into sleeping with them. It makes me so angry at them for things I don't technically have facts for. 

Right now I only have one real friend and he has once expressed an interest in dating. Nowadays I just feel so much resentment for him because he said that and am constantly on high alert. I know it's not fair to him but I get so angry at him for just trying to be my friend.

I'm quiet BPD so I usually can control it. I have a problem with ghosting people and splitting in general but with this case, I know when I cut him out of my life I'll be completely alone. I've split once before on this guy (immediately after he asked me out) for a good year or so. We only recently became friends again and I'm having severe urges to split out of nowhere.