Does anyone ever get anxiety when playing games with others? Lately, I've been playing a lot of league of legends and most of the time my friends play draft. I've played with them sometimes but literally every time we play together I get really anxious and stressed out. It can be with just one friend and I'm constantly tapping my feet, overthinking, and just worrying. It gets to the point im like irritated at myself because of it and just idk. I also tend to pick at my fingernails (which is a habit I've had since forever it seems like)

My friends tend to get angry while playing sometimes and my boyfriend gets loud sometimes when he's tilted which I can understand when upset but it can get annoying and just make me more anxious. I guess you can say im worried they'd get mad at me or something and I just don't want that. What really makes me upset is the getting loud and almost yelling like I just can't really deal with that. 

I'll sometimes play a game of draft with them and that'll be it because I end up feeling overwhelmed for some reason its stupid lol. Like in general my depression and anxiety has improved but its still not the best. Along with the anxiety comes the depression which makes me not be in the mood for really anything. Idk I guess I could maybe just play more to not feel as anxious and stressed out while playing but I just want to have fun and not feel anxious. As of lately I've been feeling anxious like all the time and its stupid like just being in my room by myself its like I don't even feel relaxed or calm. I'm just constantly overthinking and its like it never ends.

I tend to play ARAM mainly since I just find it more relaxing and I prefer to play it. I tend to play it alone because none of my friends prefer or like to play it but they play it with me sometimes because I like to play it. Which makes me feel bad for not playing much draft with them. They know how it makes me feel well my boyfriend and another friend does. I'm honestly fine with playing it by myself because idk even playing aram with them makes me nervous lol. I just overall like playing gaming alone. Idk this is just me sorta venting and just wanting to to see if anyone else relates? 

It really makes me hate myself being like this.