Okay hear me out - I don't have problems with public speech, like I'll introduce my self to people I don't know, I have no problem speaking, presenting to a large group. BUT when it comes to the people I know - friends, family - if I said something that could be interpreted as even a little bit out of the realm of perfect I lose my shiz. It came to a point where I cant even say what I think on a subject because it's probably stupid, I don't have enough information on a subject, my arguments are flawed, it's full of logical fallacies and even etc. I can't tell a joke, I'm afraid to tell a joke because someone will find it offensive, not funny or not interesting. And then I just ruminate and spiral. So I don't want to hang out with friends anymore because of this and if I do spend time with my friends I am exhausted afterwards because I'm constantly checking how people react, are they listening to me, what they might think, how am I sitting, am I stupid, do they hate me etc. Is this social anxiety or what?