I just started last week at Starbucks. My town is small and a fairly big tourist location, especially on weekends, so we are both understaffed and get a lot of people. I got barely any training too, I'm forced to work multiple stations when I've been working less than 10 days altogether, which is triggering my suicidal thoughts and just making me insanely stressed. For anyone who does work there with BPD, does it get better/easier? Will I just adapt and get better and I'll stop feeling like this, or should I not risk my mental health for it? 

Not to mention today a man tried to pay with a $100 bill and when I told him I couldn't accept it, he groaned and genuinely looked like he wanted to hurt me, which triggered me because it was similar to my abuser.