TW - SA I just want to be able to live normally. I have bipolar 2, borderline personality disorder, and anxiety - currently taking Trazodone &amp; Buspar. I have never worked a job longer than 5-6 months, and I haven’t worked seriously in over a year. I am married, no kids, and have a husband that takes care of me, and the household (financially). I am grateful to be in the position I am in, but I feel useless. I want to contribute financially. Every time I get a job I quit shortly after do to either being thrown into a depressive episode, or anxiety that manifests itself into physical symptoms and I get sick, like I have the flu. My husband is very understanding, and doesn’t mind that I only stay home and do the basic housewife duties. But I cannot shake this feeling of uselessness, and like I am worthless. I had so many aspirations when I was younger - to go to college, become a career woman. I barely tried throughout high school after my 9th grade year. During my freshman year I was manipulated into a relationship with a senior that verbally, physically, and sexually abused me. I don’t feel like I have ever been able to recover. Despite not caring about school, I still graduated with a 4.0 GPA, and attempted online college but dropped out after two weeks. I just feel like I will never amount to anything. Therapy could never solve my inability to work, and the drugs don’t help that either. I just don’t know what to do.