So I’m attached to my therapist, surprise surprise. We have just recently started discussing it and after our session Wednesday I have felt less obsessive for the first time in *months.* (I’ve been seeing her for 8.) I think it’s because I have all of these feelings out in the open and I’m not just keeping them to myself so talking about them is somewhat decreasing the severity of my attachment. 

That’s what I have wanted but now I feel weird, I feel like I’m internally panicking that I don’t feel as attached. 
I also did this with an FP from years ago, when I was younger, less mature didn’t know anything about BPD etc. I knew I was attached to them and tried detaching myself but it made me angry and I was all-or-nothing. If I wasn’t attached then I couldn’t be close to them at all. And I think that is what’s happening with my therapist. Of course we can’t be close, we can’t be friends and our relationship is a professional one. I don’t *think* she’s going anywhere, I mean I worry she’ll change jobs and leave me but…is this panic I feel black-or-white thinking?? The attachment isn’t fun, I’ve wanted it to lessen a bit but now I’m just confused about the way I am feeling. 

Is this a thing? Feeling panicky when you start to feel less attached? I plan on talking about it with her but wanted some input here first. TIA!