It's getting real hard, they only want to talk to me when it's about them and their problems and they aren't there for me and I've been struggling with things and have had nobody to talk to. I don't know how much more I can take. I tried to contact the crisis chat line but they are closed because of course they are. 
I've been actively trying to get them to even seem concerned about me and NOTHING. I got more support over my actions than concern. 
I'm finding myself wanting to do more reckless things but I know they're destructive and the only thing stopping me is the fact I don't leave my house or know enough people.