recently, i've (f19) been having a lot of anxiety thinking about life and death. i can't think of anything besides being alone and frail, practically hopeless. i have been having panic attacks thinking about growing old, or really just growing up at all, so severe to the point where i have this continuing intrusive thought that i should just off myself to prevent it from happening. (i know that sounds dumb but, it's just how i feel everytime i think about it.) this obviously isn't normal, but have you guys ever experienced this and/or know ways to handle it better? thanks