I am feeling very discouraged, overwhelmed and sad about this. I have known something was wrong with me since I was young. I have always been very sensitive, anxious and depressed. 

I don’t consider myself a human worth owning the body I’m in. I see myself as inferior in almost every aspect. Like I’m inherently flawed and disgusting. I don’t see how I can get past this hurt and recent diagnosis. The BPD diagnosis has made things harder for me because now I’m hyper aware that I have a personality disorder. 

I feel like I’m not going to ever be better. Like I’m never going to be happy. I’m always going to be alone. I’m never going to be accepted, ESPECIALLY now that I’m “officially” diagnosed. 

I just honestly want to die.