So at my school, there is a girl who I don't know and never spoke to, just see her passing by in the hall. She is super pretty, dress elegant, act classy, super sweet, and act super confident in a good way by her body language. I am girl who has insecurities, anxiety, and some ocd and whenever I see someone who's pretty and confident who I wish to be, I panic. So whenever I walk pass by her in the hallway or see her, my body and mind freezes with panic attacks, body starts to shake/tremble in fear, which happened many times. I also admire her confidence and hijab, which is one reason that causes this whole thing, it's because I wish I could wear one since it looks classy although i'm not muslim. Whenever she see me, she probably wonders to herself why is this random person so afraid of me. I tried to put myself in her situation and realized that she is human too, but that didn't work.

It gets worse.

When I went on insta I randomly found her account through suggestions, so I clicked on her public account. Now we probably all done this before; so I went through some of her highlighted stories and accidentally went through one that was currently posted on her insta story, which is a problem because she would then see who viewed her story. Somehow although she doesn't know me, she recognized that girl who is scared of her (me) and blocked me!!!! Which to her is super creepy. Now i'm even more afraid of her and I no longer see her since she is gone.

Now I need advice on how to stop having panic attacks around people who are confident and wish to be. Also I would like to hear your guys opinion on this situation if you don't mind sharing. I also need help on analyzing this situation.

*reminder, please do not judge me, if you are, then feel free to leave.