I’m breaking up with my bf cause I feel like he doesn’t listen to me or is interested in me. We recently had a terrible trip with his family and I wanted to talk about what happened. We never did but I kept texting and leaving messages trying to explain why I needed to talk. He said we’d talked “as nauseum” about it. I disagree. 

Now we are breaking up which I get is the best thing to do. But I can’t stop swinging from rage and being vicious to omg what did I do hysterical crying apologies. 

Suggestions on moving forward, getting over it, calming the swings...

I loved him and don’t want him to hurt him more than I already have. And I want to be strong for me.   