I (24F) have been diagnosed depressed for about 5 years now. I’m on a high dose of antidepressants and have had a load of therapy in the past so my depression has been generally stable. But today I had a depressive episode and had to cancel my FaceTime date with my girlfriend (24F). She was supportive and understanding but I can tell she was a bit sad by the change of plans which is understandable. 

We plan on spending the rest of our lives together and we’re very much in love and she’s always so supportive whenever I’m feeling low but I can’t help feeling like such a burden in her life. I literally can’t handle the thought of us spending our lives together and constantly being on edge in case I have a sudden relapse into depression. She deserves better than that and I feel like I’m robbing her of a “normal” relationship. 

I’m sure others feel a similar way but how do you guys deal with this? I’ve honestly felt absolutely horrible this whole day knowing I let her down because of my depression…