Hello so iam 23 f ( I have bpd ) I have been sexually assaulted when I was 7 yo by my uncle which caused a severe trauma and when I was 21 I got sexually assaulted by my bf who I really trusted at that time 
But lately when I go hang out with friends or when we are wasted 
Any guy who hits on me and tries to have sex with me I can't say no iam afraid of saying no so I let them have their way with me 
I wake up with full of guilt sadness feeling cheap and a whore 
Idk what to do or how to deal with this