I feel like the constant overthinking and analyzing things has made me more of a superficial person. I think when I was more carefree I was also more open minded. 


I was talking to my sister, and my previous job got brought up and I mentioned how my coworkers felt like I was only nice because I had to and I kind of agreed. I usually feel indifferent towards most things and I think my sis took it personally cause she’s been avoiding me more now.


I don’t know how I would just snap my fingers and change. Most of the forcing it is to try and not be rude but it fails anyways.