There have been ups and down in my mental state since when I had to choose college.
Rough 4 years, and one is left till the big picture starts_ the real life.
It get so much anxious to even think about it. And really I am a pessimist, thinking for the worst.
But idk why today I looked at form another angle
All I have to do is be there for myself ie earn for me, live for me etc.
So ig i have a lot of tims for that.
For that I can keep on trying. 
Maybe I am not making any sense,( even for myself) but even for a little time I am feeling little good.