I'm going to kill myself on Feb. 1st. 

My face became deformed after I got my first vaccine shot. I'm not getting better. My body isn't responding to any treatments I've tried so far.
I was a health and normal person before that and now I look like monster. Looking like this, I doubt I'll ever date someone again or find another job.

I've been looking for ONE reason to stay. ONE reason to prevent myself from doing this but I can't. This life isn't for me.

I tried to go to a party to meet the person I loved, to see if there was still anything between us. She completely ignored me and treated me like garbage.

I was going to adopt a dog but when the day I was going to bring him home arrived, he went to somebody else's home.

My only friend abandoned me for a stupid new relationship with a person she barely see.

I messaged this girl I had a crush on for months and guess what? She ignored me too.

Nobody wants me to stay. No one. This world isn't for me. I'm rejected by anything and anyone since I was a child.

Please don't ask me to call lifelines or to find God. None of them will fix my problem. My family also doesn't give a shit.