Why did it have to end up like this. I tend to ask this question every so often.

Why did I have to get schizophrenia. My life before SCZO was waaaay different and easier. I remember the good old days and was wondering how has your life changed from before to now?

Is it better? Worse? Same? I know we all have struggles and challenges. Have they made you a better person? Changed person? 

For me, schizophrenia changed my life entirely. From psychosis to now medicated self, I’m a different person. I still carry some paranoia with me and some trauma and I feel as if I have PTSD from all the demons I’ve fought. It’s been 7 long months for me now, almost 8, and I can say I’m better now but question why I was “chosen” or, maybe unlucky to revive such. 

We are all unlucky and I wanna say I understand and feel sorry for everything we’ve been thru. I guess I’m just in my feels right now but it’s rough living as a person with schizophrenia, even now. 

People will always judge us and we will never be the same. I believe we are lucky however that we live in 2022 where we aren’t in inpatient forever and have meds that take away the sights and voices….

I’ve always felt alone in my journey, but because of y’all I felt a little less.

I wish the best for y’all, love y’all ❤️