I’d been seeing someone since the beginning of April, even though I knew I was going to leave the country before the end of the summer. I thought we had a good relationship, they kept on telling me how different it was, how happy I made them, seemed to really enjoy the sex, said they loved me. I was really sad about leaving, so I bought a little necklace and wrote a letter, to which they cried. I thought we had a connection.

I’ve left the country about 3 weeks ago, and we’ve only talked once on the phone, more than 2 weeks ago. I’ve been trying to reach out to them but the answers are not satisfying, I get ignored for days, when I know they’ve been on their phone or on FB. It’s been driving me crazy and ruining my mood, and I hate that it has this effect on me. They’ve apologized saying they have been busy and their phone wasn’t working, but it sounds like excuses (they were unemployed and were still waiting on starting the new job). I’ve blown up, asking them to tell me if they’d changed their mind, if they’ve met someone new, etc. I really need to know, even if it turns out to be true.

I feel really betrayed and sad. To make things worse, their location is visible on snapchat, and I know that they’ve been going out late last weekend, and this one, and sleeping the night in unfamiliar settings. I can’t really mention this because I know how creepy it is, especially if it turns out they were at a relative’s house or something of the like. In any case, I’m trying to calm it down and wait. I gave an ultimatum saying that was the very last message I’d send, but the thought I’d just be ignored makes me want to block and forget. Seeing how anxious and desperate I get, and how shitty their communication skills are, I know it won’t work anyways, but for some reason, I can’t let it go :(

Idk why I’m writing this, but anyone’s been in a similar position? How do you stop? Any opinions? Thank you