Has anyone else felt that they are petrified of just about every challenge they have to face? I started a new job and every time I am supposed to learn or do something new, I internally freak out and feel like crying because I'm scared to make a mistake. Or when I'm cooking something new, and it doesn't come out right, I'm genuinely afraid of how my wife will react (even though she's wonderful and has never acted negatively towards any of my cooking). I am scared to go after the things I love, to try meeting new people. The worst part is I am not a scared person. I don't mind speaking in public or skydiving or eating something weird or whatever. 

I recently started a new job and I was tasked with doing something I have never done before. I had to go to the bathroom because I was shaking and was about to cry like I was going to go hysterical. This is happening more and more and I feel worse and worse about it every time it happens. 

Has anyone experienced this? What can I do? 

The absolute worst part is knowing that I need to talk to someone. Last year I tried to find a new therapist. After numerous emails to over ten different therapists, I received no response with the exception of one, who was too booked at the time to take on a new client. So now I stress out when looking for someone or even asking for help. Like I'm scared to be a bother or scared to get rejected again.