I want to be honest with him but im scared. I dont want to seem weird but there isnt a possible way to paint my bpd as normal. 
How do i explain that the slightest shift in mood/attention makes me fall in a downward spiral. How do i explain my abandonment issues without seeming “woe is me.” How do i explain my self harm habits without making him feel guilty. 
I dont want him to see me as crazy. I dont want him to be grossed out. I want us to be happy but i feel like i need to tell him. Should i just keep it to myself???