Lately, my anxiety and ocd are getting very bad ( because i said to my self i need to fight this, i need to stop ruminating no matter how scary it becomes and i did that) but it seems when im ignoring ( but still very scared) it becomes worse...lately im scared about my attention...i was watching tv and i got a phone call, i picked up the phone while i was watching tv and i was talking and not paying attention to the other person, then i asked again WHAT WAS THE PHONE TALK ABOUT ? i am very very scared of going crazy and losing my mind or harm someone...its like im constantly DEEPLY thinking about something but actually not thinking about anything...anyone experiencing similar things like this...couple days ago i was determined no matter what that i am going to get my life back in my hands...1 day with ignoring the rumination this happens...i dont want to be crazy or go to the hospital and never get out...  i am very scared anyone ?