Hey everyone

My favorite person broke up with me and I am terrified. I don't see a future for myself and I've been having suicidal thoughts. I want to go to an ER, but I'm afraid that they will just sedate me and keep me for days without any special attention to listen to what's been going on with me. I have not been officially diagnosed yet but I would like for them to verify whether I have BPD along with providing me options for treatment for both BPD and depression. I don't have health care so I can't afford to go to a private psychiatrist and all of the low-income clinics don't have available psychiatrists for weeks. Does anyone have any experiences?