I suffer from MDD and it’s getting bad again, suicidal ideation is creeping in again. I have no one to talk to, I don’t want to tell my therapist as I don’t want to be thrown into a hospital. I feel lost, like I serve no purpose here, like the longer I’m on this earth the worse I make life for my friends and family. I also have GAD and ADHD. So everything is dialed to 11. My therapist thinks I have BPD as well, but since I’m a male under 25 it’s very unliked I’ll be diagnosed since my brain isn’t fully developed. I don’t know how to quiet my mind, it feels like my soul is tearing itself apart. Does anyone have any advice on how to cope or stop this? I’m away from home and don’t have my meds with me.