I just need to talk. I don’t feel like I have anyone who actually understands how I feel. Not a lot of people in my group really understands mental health. I do have a great support group though. Just not easy to talk to about this. 

My emotions are always all over the place. Fine one minute and the next I’m freaking out. I have meltdowns. I disassociate all day. Intrusive thoughts. 

I feel like the worst part is that I don’t feel like I know who I am. Like I’ve picked things I like from others and take it. For instance a laugh or my voice. I don’t even really know what MY OWN voice sounds like because I feel like it’s always somewhat different. Especially depending on my mood. Happier =higher  sad =deeper. I don’t even notice half the time. 

I really just want a buddy. I’m lonely in this big world. 

- sincerely a lonely body.