Supposed to have bloodwork done tomorrow [can only use one arm atm because I got a shot in the other and it fuckin hurts] and the last time I did that it REALLY hurt. I also have a wisdom tooth consultation soon and with the blood stuff, the procedure and a separate thing all over my school break I just feel like a lab rat. I'm sick of all this medical stuff at once and all the uncontrolled pain.

What I think hurts the most is I can't go to my dad for advice. He recently said, "I don't know what to tell you. This stuff is temporary, what you feel now will be gone in a day or two. Sometimes in life you have rough patches. This [medical stuff] isn't frivolous." Okay, but that does fuck all to make me less afraid or ease my concerns/pain.