I'm afraid of what's going to happen with my job.  I feel so paralyzed everyday before I go into work that I can't get anything done.   I really wish there was something I could do to help ensure job security but there isn't.   Every mistake is magnified and escalated to the highest possible level.  I really need to find a new job but there are not many companies hiring in my area because of covid.  I really want to find a new job.  I hate when i feel like this.  I used to be so successful but I keep getting fired from jobs.  I'm afraid this is the best I can do right now and I'm afraid that I'm going to get fired again for being such a screw up.  My heart is just hurting everyday.   I want so bad to do a good job and be appreciated.