I've been super anxious as soon as my mom said I had a phone appointment with my psychiatrist. I mean I already feel extremely anxious when I have to talk to her and the fact that it was a phone call made my nerves go through the roof.

And so today I was taking a nap when suddenly my mom woke me up to say my psychiatrist was on the phone and I think my heart grew a size smaller... I stuttered a bit, my thoughts were all jumbled and I didn't say half of what I intended. I was quite a mess BUT I MADE IT THROUGH THE CALL!!!!

My next appointment (still unsure when) will be in person and honestly that's more preferable to me. I think I'm going to write down my thoughts and what I want to say because every time I go, I never say what I actually want to say because I'm so anxious and I forget my words.


I still feel a bit out of it and shaky even though the call ended minutes ago but I feel a bit proud of myself. I thought I would be waiting and suffering the whole day for this to happen but since it's still 1PM, I will treat myself today! But for now I will be lying in bed and do some breathing exercises cause my entire being is still feeling too frail.