I have severe abandonment issues, and as I recently got left by  the guy I was seeing I was triggered. Now my anxiety is through the roof, I live alone and now that I am no longer in a relationship this fact terrifies me and adds to my already high anxiety. I have to have some sound on the whole time, and I can’t go to sleep. Way too anxious to go to bed. So I only manage to fall asleep a few hours in the morning and then I feel worse. I can’t focus on work and I’m afraid I will get fired. I lost the motivation and interest in everything. I feel I need to talk to someone the whole time and tell them about how I am hurting. I am like a freaking child, I had some separation trauma and bad enmeshment as a child and this probably plays a part in all this, but I am already on anti anxiety and anti depression pills and taking therapy. Even showering feels like a mountain to climb. It’s so painful to exist. I do t know what to do. I just want to cry, I wish I was never born.