
So, here’s the issue... I’ve been in this really awful relationship for a while now... I’ve been unhappy for a long time &amp; I know he is... our families &amp; friends are sick to death of hearing us complain &amp; cry over each other. We are both sick to death of not being able to make shit work.... I’ve learned that if you are not trying to be your best self, you’re not only robbing yourself of a possible better life, but you’re robbing others of the person you could be to them... that changes my perspective a bit when I look at this relationship. I’ve been trying so hard on so many different levels to change, but he still wants to leave. He still hates my presence &amp; has but a trace of the feelings he once had for me, &amp; that’s only because... he can’t get it to go away... cuz we’re human.. his attempt at a conversation over the last few days &amp; some statements he made last night, led me to believe he was trying. Then this evening he sits me down &amp; says “.... I’m going. I just can’t take it.” He tried to get me to take responsibility for the death of this, &amp; I refused &amp; called him out on the things he was saying, which were not true at all... now, all of the sudden, nothing matters but the fact that he’s going to go. I’m angry now. I hate him now. I want him out. I don’t want to be around him... how do I get rid of these feelings? He’s giving me a peaceful break up along w his version of a resolution not quite found in time... whatever, now I might actually have a chance to meet someone that likes me. Someone that likes to be around me, &amp; doesn’t always want me gone. Someone that makes me feel good about being alive, not someone that makes me hate myself for not being good enough for him. So why can’t I stop the hatred? Why can’t I stop being so angry? I don’t want to be angry. I want happiness. I’ve been digging in the wrong area, so why can’t I accept that &amp; gratefully not waste anymore of my time in pain for absolutely nothing in return? Why can’t my heart &amp; brain get together &amp; honor what’s best for me?