I want to share how I feel but I really feel so numb and down that I cant even have the strength to do so clearly. I am tired. I want to end things but I am not brave enough to do that, I am just afraid and I don't know how to do that. Maybe things will get better in the future but I dont even want to wait and see it, I juat dont see any point in continuing this life. I am just tired. I am not able to get my dream job, my ex cheated on me, now I am almost unemployed and I feel like I collapsed under these burdens now and I dont have any energy to get up.

I just wanted to share anyway, I have friends but I dont really want to talk with them. I don't think people can understand it completely, I think it is just pointless. I just wanted to share how I feel, I don't know if it will change, I just don't know. I just want to sleep all day long.