A few years ago I survived a terrible health problem and during the process I’ve quit my job. Shortly after my recovery I started to work freelance because I had to take care of a family member. I used to be pretty career oriented but after all these health related problems, work and money related problems started to seem very superficial. 
During the pandemic I started working on a project I was excited. I love the work, i’m good at what I do and I find it rewarding. My problem is I get very anxious at meetings, especially the ones with business people. They feel very ruthless and I end up thinking about how I survived death to deal with this bs. I usually leave this meetings depressed and not wanting to work at all.
I know this is not healthy way of thinking but I can’t seem to get past this. Is there an angle I’m missing here? I have a meeting tomorrow and I already started to worry about it.