I work at a grocery store and before I was hired on I mentioned that I do not like working on register, they said they'd have to train me on register but I pretty much wouldn't be stuck on register that often. So fast forward 9 months I've been on register Every. Single. Shift. This may not seem that serious especially because of the fact that I've been here for nearly a year now. Within that 9 months, I've relapsed, my depression makes it terribly hard to wake up for every shift. I'm too scared to get groceries for myself I barely clean anymore and I cry ALMOST every night. Having to keep it together is very hard I've been drunk on the job multiple times and I cant go one day without nicotine. The reason I'm still here is because I feel like I have no other options. I cant quit this job just to go to a similar one, id rather just end it. And I've been trying to look for a work from home job like data entry or virtually ANYTHING else, but I feel like I'm too stupid to do it or not good enough to do anything so im here in the parking lot of my job 5:30 am, honestly and truly wondering if this is worth it... I'm so stuck. Im so screwed.