I have found that the life I live currently is not worth fighting for. I go through so much on a daily basis and it’s a constant mental fight with myself and toxic people around me. The only reason I haven’t ended it all is because I have dreams and aspirations that I want to accomplish in my life. And honestly, that’s scary. No human in this world, despite my level of love for them, is worth the pain I feel everyday. My brain stabbing itself repeatedly with no sign of healing. Because of this, I work so hard and try to excel in anything I do, not because I like it…. but because this is my last string of hope. I hope to find a purpose besides becoming successful because I am self aware enough to know that if I lose the fulfillment once I become successful… I will have ran out of reasons to live.