I want to start off by mentioning that I do not have BPD, but my ex-gf did. 

I don’t know if this is the correct place to post this but I’m kind of all over the place so any support would be very much appreciated. 

She recently gave me a very thoughtful present for my birthday. Took her about a week to make by hand, tailored it just for me, and put in a lot of thought and effort into making it. 

When she gave it to me, I didn’t know how to feel honestly. I know I was happy but it was kind of odd receiving it from her since we weren’t together. 

It did feel really nice to be with her again and hang out for a bit, but now I’m just all over the place. 

I really miss her and I really want to be by her side but I can’t right now. I want to give her some space for her to work on her mental health (that’s what she asked for when breaking up with me). 

She’s been messaging me more recently and saying things like “I still love you BUT, I’m still not in a good place rn”, “I want to be with you BUT...” 

All of this is confusing me a lot. I want all of that but idk how to go about my days now that she isn’t here as much...

Idk if this made sense, I want to type more but I don’t want it to be too lengthy. Sorry if it’s all over the place, I’m also all over the place so I can’t properly think...