This is the phrase I have to repeat to myself multiple times a day. I wake up and the thought of getting out of bed makes me want to crumble to a heaping mess of tears. But I get up anyway and hope the day goes by quickly so I could go back to bed. At work and with friends I put on a fake smile and sometimes I have to remind myself I need to smile. I am trying to motivate myself to keep going, I am even planning on taking myself on a date. But, there are moments where I am overwhelmed and can't breath. It doesn't help that I am everyone's uncertified therapist. They tell me their problems and I become so exhausted listening to them that when they ask how I am doing I just say I'm okay. 

I thought about talking to my doctor about my situation but I am afraid of how it will impact my insurance or if there would be any negative impact at all. I don't know I feel numb and don't remember the last time I was happy.