Seriously, it’s kind of ridiculous. John at my workplace could be talking about what a great family Christmas dinner he had and my mind will instantly go into sad mode, “Wow an enjoyable family gathering?? Can’t relate.” Actually I’ve found that it’s /hard/ to relate to anyone around me (which makes sense I guess, thankfully not everyone goes through childhood trauma and isolation). But it undeniably makes things incredibly lonely, in that I can’t really keep a conversation going. E.g.,: ‘Oh, John’s done talking about how nostalgic the holidays are…quick, find something relatable!!’ “UhhHhH YES, the holidays sure remind me of my parent’s screaming matches haha wait did I say something wrong??” Honestly I think that’s my main reason on why I distance myself from loved ones: they’ll find that it’s hard to relate to a traumatic past, so they’ll leave. Anyone else feel the same way??

Also, this is my first post!! I’m new to reddit &amp; am happy to be a part of this community :)