Initially I wanted to make a long-winded post asking unnecessarily existential questions but I'm choosing the healthier option. I don't want to know if that guy hates me/ ask if I'm worthy of love, *all I want to know is if you've ever had someone in your life turning into your FP without you even realising?* I've slowly tried to trim him out of my life but it hurts so bad.

Looking back, there could've been red flags I failed to notice. My thoughts were slowly being dominated by every little detail about his life. I wanted to talk with him more and more and more and the default boundary between friends was starting to bother me (bad on my part). 

How do I stop having FPSs? I want to argue that the feelings I felt for him were perhaps affection and I could've been slowly liking him more and more, but given my "condition" I'm not fit for relationships. I'll only bring pain if it were to happen. The only 'solution' for me in this moment is to isolate myself and eventually turn into an emotionless rock, unbothered by anything in the world.