Can’t seem to get out of bed. I have to look for a job and an apartment and I guess the stress of that is causing me to freeze. I thought I would be looking forward to this change I’m about to experience but I’m dreading it. I know things won’t get better. Deep down I know I’m never going to get what I want out of life. I’m not the type of person to  chase after what I want. I’m the type to lay down and die.