my past FP (who i trust and who's got NPD so she knows stuff about PDs) just told me that it's not possible to defeat BPD, that i'll have it forever and my only option is to learn how to live with it. But i dont want to live with that. I want this shit to be gone. I had to learn how to live with so many other awful things. I dont want to do this anymore. It's awful.

And now i got a new FP which only made it all worse. I started to SH again, i am in my worst "depressive" state ever, i cant even work normal anymore and my job is literally the easiest thing ever, everything about my life is shit rn. Ok appart from eating, started to eat normal again yesterday after i basically ate nothing for a month. I'm a bit proud about that. Still hate my life tho.

I just want this shit to be over. And if i cant be free of BPD while i'm alive i just have to learn how to die. one moment of pain seems so much better than a constant fight against my brain.

Please someone tell me the truth. Is it possible to get rid of it? Or would i have to fight it constantly if i stayed alive?