Hello everyone.. (sorry for my English) sounds crazy, but it's really like that.  I have this headache day and night and have only had a few brief moments without pain since.  I've come to a point that really scares me.  Of course I've been to all sorts of doctors/neurologists - MRIs were done with the diagnosis, no clusters, no migraines, no tumors, everything was tip top.  Which of course relieves me on the one hand, but makes me despair on the other.
 In mid-December 21 I went to a top neurologist in the area to get a second opinion.  He only said: "You probably have a special form of chronic tension headache, probably inherited, you'd better get used to this condition, there are no medical therapy approaches for it".
 Of course, I was flabbergasted when I heard that and since then I have probably been in the worst phase of my depression caused by it.  Suicidal thoughts accompany me every day, my strength to endure all this is dwindling more and more.  Just thinking about my family keeps me going.  I cry myself to sleep every night (if I do fall asleep at all) and can hardly get out of bed in the morning.
 Unfortunately, I screwed up a bit in my circle of friends, which makes it difficult for me to get support from friends.  I think they realize that something isn't quite right, but I can't bring myself to say how bad I'm feeling at the moment.  (I know I should „jump over my shadow“, but currently self-doubt and the fear of just being the boy with his problems that nobody understands are winning)
 I've currently been on sick leave for 4 weeks because I really don't want to go to work like this.  (Nevertheless, I have a guilty conscience towards my employer.. yes, we humans and our "sense of duty" haha)

 I found out for myself that these tensions and pains are caused or influenced emotionally.  In moments when I feel safe, secure and loved, they are almost gone.  The worse I feel, the stronger they get (like now).  It feels like a vicious circle because I just can't give myself that security.
 A doctor prescribed me Tilidin, which gives me some comfort in high doses, even if that is of course not a solution and the supply is coming to an end...

To be honest this post is a small hope to get some attention and maybe there is someone who has a similar problem or has an idea?  Who knows.. I look forward to any kind of feedback.

Thank you for reading :-)