Idk man, this is my second job, a dream job for most people in my country, but i think can't go to office, work at 9-5

I feel so weak, my brain feels like want absorb something but it's lacking. Maybe i don't have enough nutrition, yet i have lack of appetite

I'm barely normal in bmi, 167cm/54kg, i was having goal to bulk my self up to 70 kg, but it seems hard with working condition i got in

I just follow my life for what it's happening, i'm not really emotional anymore, i reached out to many people for my condition since 3-4 years ago

The only i can feel ok and not worse than this is in my room, playing dota ranked, idk maybe it will take me somewhere

Maybe i can work from home with my pc in my room

I can go outside actually, but not too long

This is just my rant, since i get used with my condition like this. Thanks for reading my not perfect post since i'm non native and i have people called "brain fog" frequently these days