It always starts of decently, but then my anxiety kicks in. 

They change their tone? Anxiety. 
They don’t message me as frequently? Anxiety. 
I’m initiating more of the conversations? Anxiety. 

I just need consistency and reassurance and every time something goes a little bit off, I just sabotage the connection. Because I’d rather just end it now. 

I have issues and flaws and I just don’t think anyone could ever look past them. And I hate the relationships I’ve had in the past that have ruined me. 

Luckily I enjoy being single for this very reason. But it would be nice for just one person to want to be with me.