I found out I had bpd a few years ago and although it’s nice to understand it better, I feel like nothing is getting better. I try so hard to be happy, I can’t stop thinking my partner is cheating, I can’t eat normally, I panic so much, I can’t have one day without a thought pushing through of anything bad and i’m exhausted. I’m sitting here at work, on the verge of tears and I don’t even have a reason anymore besides just being mentally exhausted. I feel like i’m drowning.