But some things are more depressing when you're not on your medication (been off mine for about a week, getting my refill tomorrow). One of those things, for me, is sexy women in pornography. I used to watch it too much (thankfully, not as much anymore) but usually it was exciting and not depressing. Because while I didn't have a beautiful woman, at least they were in the pics and vids. Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and the models/actresses are still in their primes (such is the nature of that business unless you look for older women) and it makes me regret all the women I was too scared to meet irl over the years (talking about dating too, not just sex). Working while obsessing over this isn't helping.