I decided early january to do a 30 day drawing challenge to get into the habit of drawing again. I made it easy by not making any daily prompts just draw whatever comes to mind. 
 I just hate that everyday it feels like a chore. I procrastinate until its late at night. i look at my drawings and I hate them. I hate them so much. I hate that I lost some of my skill. I hate that I dont have an established style.
 How is it that ive been drawing for 14+ plus years and still haven't gotten better? I just hate everything I do. I dont know why I choose to lay in bed than actually be productive. I want to do so many things in terms of art but because of depression...I just dont want to act on my dreams and ideas I have for art.