I got dogpiled in a TikTok comment section. A very innocuous video and my initial comment wasn't even bad. But a few people responded to my comment with some unnecessary rudeness and instead of me being a "responsible adult" or turning the other cheek, I got defensive, reactive and went scorched earth, like I always end up doing in comment section arguments. And then I get flooded with more comments from more people reprimanding me for being rude. Yes, it doesn't make much sense. But does knowing this stop me from dwelling on it for two days straight? Nope. I just became a ball of self-doubt and self-hatred. I feel like an awful person. The good news is, it's totally tainted the app for me and I have no desire to scroll endlessly for hours. And on top of that, I deleted my other social media apps too. Today, I started feeling almost normal again. I deep-cleaned the bathroom. I did dishes. I took a shower. I'm doing laundry. I paid some bills. Today, I've mostly just been thinking about how hard social media is for me. I wish I could function normally online. But for some reason, the opinions of random strangers on the internet matter so much to me, that making people mad can really bring me down. I guess it was high time for another break.