Hello I’m a 36/w/f
And idk if any has felt like this or ha e the same experience but I legit barley have any memories esp from my past. Of course I can semi rem things or when some one talks about a memory with me I try to go back. I have had so many traumatic things and experiences in my life that I feel like I have a wall up for them because my mind can not sort through the good from the bad so in some ways I feel like pretty much all of them have been like let’s say put in a locked box in the back of my mind to keep me as sane as possible. Idk again if any one has watched the show supernatural but there is an episode where the character Sam has a wall put up in his mind to block every memory to keep him from turning to a pile of mush from all he’s been through. And that episode has really sat with me cause that’s literally how I feel. With half the stuff I’ve been through in my life weather I’ve caused it my self or not I’ve known people who have been through way less and can barley function. I was wondering if any one else has felt like or may be going through the same thing? Sorry for the ramble  in a weird place right now