Have you found that your need to control or your internal omnipresent anxiety keeps you from really letting go and getting something from a trip? I’ve tried small and large amounts of shrooms and LSD mixed with weed and nitrous at times and can’t ever really seem to be able to let my grip on reality go. Like I want to go on the trip, but my body refuses to allow it and painfully pushes me to try and stay as sober as possible, as if to show off how in control of myself I am or something like that. 