I’ve struggled with anxiety for honestly as long as I can remember. Of course, I’ve had my ups and downs throughout the years. I’ve seen a therapist for years, done CBT, meditation, medication, and exercise. It all helps but I feel like it’s something that never really goes away. Likes it embedded in me. It runs in my family so I figured that it was passed down to me. I struggle with social anxiety, health anxiety, general anxiety disorder. I feel like I’ve gotten to the point where I can live a pretty “normal” (whatever that means) life but it’s exhausting. Having a job where I deal with people takes so much energy from me. But my job is what I thought was my dream job and I’ve worked hard to get to where I am. It’s frustrating when you know a piece of you is holding you back. And can I just vent for a minute about how fucking annoying it is when people say “you don’t seem anxious”? Cool, that doesn’t mean I’m not freaking out on the inside. I’ve just gotten really good at hiding it, because the world we live in doesn’t cater to people who have anxiety and I’ve had no other choice but to just push it aside.