I’ve been with my boyfriend for over 2 years now. We have been through a lot together. He struggled with addiction in the beginning but is now almost a year and a half sober. I am so proud of him and he is doing very well. I absolutely love him, he is my best friend. But I am starting to have reservations. I have not been interested in sex for a while, and have been standoffish physically. It is really hurting his self esteem. He is convinced that I am no longer attracted to him and that I only see him as a friend. I know I love him, I try to convince him I am still attracted to him but he is doubting me. I know that if I was in his position I would feel the same way. I don’t know what to do. I want to have him in my life. But I also feel like maybe we need a break from each other. Neither of us believe in taking breaks because we know things would never be the same. I want a future with him so badly. But I don’t want this to be the end of my fun years. I’m only 20, I want to go out with friends and go to parties. I have recently started hanging out with my friend’s group of friends and I’m really enjoying it. Im going to be 21 soon and I want to have a fun summer. But I don’t want to throw away 2 years for 2 months of fun. I am so conflicted. I am trying to not be irrational or impulsive but this has been in my head for the past week or so and I can’t shake it. When something gets in my head I obsess on it and can’t let it go. I want him to be in my life so badly, I’m just not sure if I want it to be romantically right now. I know I want to be with him in the long run, and it would be selfish of me to ask him to put us on pause for me to go out and party. I also know that if we break up, we won’t be friends. We probably wouldn’t speak at all, if anything he’d probably end up hating me. My friend told me to give it time and I am going to try to give it a month and see how I’m feeling then. If anybody has advice, I’d really appreciate it. I’m trying so hard to do the right thing, I’m just not sure what the right thing is anymore.