My boyfriend/FP and I had a rough day yesterday. We hung out that morning and I woke up feeling horrible and anxious thinking he was going to leave for no reason. 

The problem is that I don’t like expressing these feelings to him. I feel like he’s going to end up getting annoyed if I constantly think about him leaving but fear of abandonment is my biggest issue. Him leaving me constantly plays out in my head. I don’t want to just talk about it over and over because I know it’s going to get old…

I ended up being anxious and fairly quiet most of the day and I kept telling him it was nothing, or that I didn’t know why I was so anxious. By the time he dropped me off he seemed upset too and I had a breakdown after he left because I could tell
he was frustrated with me. 

I ended up texting him about it last night and he was upset that I didn’t just talk to him and tell him what was wrong, and telling me he “cant keep doing this.” He said it would make things better if I just talked to him about what was bothering me instead of telling him “idk” or “it’s nothing.”

This almost sent me into another breakdown. I thought me not bothering him with my problems would make him happier with me but it did the opposite. I’m so scared to lose him just because I feel like a burden when I talk about my feelings. Has anyone else dealt with a situation like this? How do you open up about your emotions when they seem so insignificant to “normal” people?