I keep ruminating about being manipulative, abusive, and toxic.. I don't want to be a bad person. I saw a status on Facebook today that triggered this. It was basically a status calling people out for being abusive and manipulative by threatening to end your life when a partner tries to leave. I did this last year with my ex and regretted saying it immediately. I didn't say it again afterwards, but I still regret that one time I said it. I also regret the times I was bad to other people and being controlling in my last relationship. I know that you can't stop people from leaving you and it's not fair on them at all to try get them to stay with you. I'm aware now. However, I can't stop thinking about the times I was insanely toxic to people in the past. Does anybody else have this issue? How do you manage it? I know the past is the past and you learn from mistakes and I'm getting there, but it still haunts me.