Every time I think I'm changing for the better I end up feeling suicidal and depressed all over again. I make a new friend and it goes well then I end up ruining it by lashing out over and over again. I'm in my second year of college and feel like I'm going nowhere. I should be happy, I'm in a sorority and have everything I could want but I'm still depressed and angry all the time. I go from loving my family to hating them and it's just getting worse being on winter break. I can't do this anymore I think I actually might kill myself I don't think I will see another Christmas. 