I got into a dispute with my fp and normally I would split and go into a mini psychotic episodes, od on benzos and cut my skin ... but I didn't do any of this. I sat down and reached out for help from the ppl around me that cared and I think it's because I finally know what condition I have and I am getting the right medication and therapy for it and finding a list of new healthy coping mechanisms. I feel genuinely happy that I am finally getting slowly but surely better. I feel happy that I am no longer in this never-ending circle of hurting myself.