I was always scared of dying and killing my self. I’ve had depression for a couple years now and it’s gotten 100 times worse. Lately I’ve been actually thinking of actually killing myself. In the past my ideations were more just wondering because I was too scared to go through with it. I don’t even cry or show many emotions anymore i’m literally just completely dead. I’ve never gotten these urges of physically hurting myself. I’m in a horrible place.