I’m 25 and I’ve been diagnosed since I was 18. My meds are usually very effective and I’ve been living relatively smoothly. Until this past year. Something must’ve snapped in my brain because all of a sudden I’m having huge meltdowns everyday and I can never see them coming. I have no idea what’s triggering them. I’ll be totally calm and then I start feeling confused so I start screaming at the top of my lungs. About 2 times I have put holes in the walls and I broke 2 hydro flasks by hurling them at the ground. I’ve barricaded my room until the cops had to come once. And just this last week, I’ve started attacking my mom, who acts as my caregiver, and now she’s all bruised. I can’t control my emotions anymore and it’s scaring me. My psychiatrist is so unavailable so I won’t see him until next month. I need help in any way. I’m uncontrollable and way too destructive. I’m desperate for some relief.