Every single time I see a guy, my anger and trust issues get the best of me. I tend to have intense out bursts in the very early stages of dating someone. I don’t know how to control or manage it. I find myself sabotaging every relationship I’m in and hurting a lot of feelings. Sometimes I feel like I say such awful things in my moments of extreme rage. I’m scared of the things I say when I’m hurt but when I’m mad, I just see red and can’t control what I say.

I am afraid of DBT and/or going on medication because I’m afraid it will change me. I feel like I won’t be the same at all, even my humour and my deep passion for things and people may disappear.

Any advice? I feel like I’m ruining my life with my outbursts :(