My dad is manic depressive. He’s been on lithium and seraquil his whole life. Because of his kidneys, they switched him to depakote with seraquil. He was bad. He’s been up and down. He gets set off easily. He’s already refused to leave stores and had cops called on him. I can’t get him to realize he’s not right. He says cruel things to my mom and 15 year old sister. He threatens to kick me out and calls me, a 25 year old man, a pussy and homo almost weekly. I’ve tried everything. I’ve gotten him to the ER multiple times, but he is the worlds best actor and they refuse to do anything other than up his seraquil. 

Is all that is left to do is Baker Act him? He questions my loyalty all the time even though I’ve been his biggest supporter throughout all of this. Baker Act won’t even work because he’ll be the worlds greatest patient and then come back home, be on good behavior for 2 weeks at most, forget about being on thin ice and then instantly start being disrespectful and CRAZY. 

I’m sorry. I know how much this disease pushes people away. But I can’t even get him to admit the slightest bit of wrongness to his actions. I’m almost thinking, fuck the kidneys, just put him back on lithium and I’ll donate to him one of mine because that’s how LOYAL I am. 

It’s destroying our family. We’re not rich, we barely get by. We’re about to be out of a home because of rent hikes. I’m trying to juggle him, finding a new place, school, and work. I haven’t lost my mind and I’m not going to but I need him to get better.