First of all, this post is about my younger sister. She’s been heavily intoxicating herself with drugs for fuck knows how long now and is on the verge of digging herself a hole, too deep for us to help her out. 

Because of her excessive usage of drugs in the past, she now fails to look at life in a positive light which has lead her on a path of depression and self destruction and I can see how it’s affecting my mum and dad..physically. Mums barely sleeping not to mention eating and my dad has lost a significant amount of weight. 

I’m the oldest out of my 3 siblings (25) and watching how badly it’s affecting my family which she fails to notice. (She says she does notice and feels bad) but then Carries on with the verbal assaults to our poor mother, after all that she’s been through trying to look after her, cooking for her, cleaning after her and even driving from A to B. 

I’m doing my absolute best to bring more positive notes into her life by offering alternate solutions for her to vent in a sober and more creative way. She has a real talent for writing..like, her material is crazy good. Me being curious and ambitious by nature, I’m always pushing her here and there to get some content out there and utilise the talents you have and it just hurts me that she feels like there’s nothing here for her. Constantly saying out loud how much she wants to die … 

There’s so much more going on but I’ll conclude with this: 

Helping someone that isn’t doing anything to help themselves is like trying to pump a tire with a hole in it. No matter how hard you’re trying, it’s never gonna work. 

If she keeps this negativity up, I don’t think I’ll have a sister leading into 2023.. 

Please help. I just want my sister back