I wish i was skinny, i have so many health problems and mental problems that loosing weight is almost impossible. I fucking hate not being able to wear long sleeves or wear shorts in public because im bigger. I hate going to places with people because i feel so ugly and uncomfortable. I have doctors always telling me to loose weight, why can’t they fucking understand it’s not easy.

i’ve tried starving myself, going on a diet and working out, eating healthy food, basically everything. I even went to fucking gym for a while but my anxiety just made it impossible to watch all the skinny people work out.

I hate when i eat, the guilt that washes over me.
I have some beautiful skinny friends, why can’t i be like them?  

I just want to cut the fat from my body and be pretty. 

Maybe i’ll be able to get a girlfriend or maybe i’ll be able to be confident in public.

i know my mom hates the way i look, she said she was big around my age and she lost a bunch of weight. when is it my turn?