I find my hardest challenge with BPD is severe depression, I figure that I probably have major depression along side with BPD but I find the depressive episodes and overall existential dread is what is the most defeating for me. 
I'm in DBT, some of the skills I have learned have been beneficial but I feel like it's not enough, not enough for me to find hope or love for myself or passion. I genuinely try to find glimmers of happiness and just feel so utterly alone. Nothing my therapists says to me lately seems to help. I am good with keeping up with DBT homework, implementing my skills, keeping up with housework, dabbling in hobbies, connecting with friends, eating healthy, and take supplements and remedies for my anxiety and depression and I still feel so worthless. Like my life is meaningless and nothing seems to bring me joy. 
I feel so alone in this world