I hate my body, I'm ashamed that I let myself get so fat over the last year.  I'd been at my lightest last November, by August I gained 70 lbs and it made me so depressed but all I did was eat more 

I lost like 30 lbs over the last month because I wasn't eating a lot and I love it. The fat just fell off. I was never that hungry and even when I was I'd drink a meal replacement that would keep my going.  I took a multivitamin, too 

 started eating regularly again recently but I'm so afraid I'm going to put it all back on again.  I have anxiety attacks if I eat more that 1000.  My goal is 1200/day but I have to force myself to eat that much.

I want to keep losing 30lbs/month. I want to see the shape of my ribcage again.  I want to see the veins on my forearms again.  I don't want my penis smashed between my disgusting fat thighs.

It felt so good to see the number on the scale go down and my clothes starting to fit again and all the complements about my weight loss

.  I'm going to try hard to eat to my goal, but it's causing me a lot of distress that I'm eating too much