literally. every time i try to ask people to hangout i don’t get a response until at least a day later. i’m pretty sure it’s because every time i leave my house i cry for one reason or another. i can’t think of any other reason. i’m the only common denominator. i just got out of the hospital because i tried to ||kill|| myself and while my family was really supportive it doesn’t feel genuine. they don’t have a choice but to be around me. i love my family but i know they are only there because they have to be. i honestly can’t even be mad at the people i know for trying to get away from me. i would honestly do the same. i tried to do the same. i just wish i hadn’t been stupid enough to try it with my adhd meds because i would need, like, 500 pills to have small chance of killing me. i don’t wanna say this, but nothing is helping. i’m gonna be smarter next time.