I wish I could just live.
There have been so many setbacks lately… I dont feel happy. Some situations are making me feel very hurt. 

I feel awful looking. I had to chop my hair off. Suddenly I have pretty bad acne all over my face.My skin reacts weird to all of my products. I randomly gain weight and I absolutely hate it. I’m having issues with my teeth and don’t know how to fix it at the moment.

I feel absolutely exhausted. I can’t work. I’m on a medical leave. I don’t know if I’ll get payed.

I feel alone. I don’t know anyone, friend or family to who I can go and just have a light conversation with as a distraction. Everyone has troubles. I truly understand how they feel and would do anything I can to help but these days I don’t have the strength nor the mental capacity to do so.
And even though I would have loved to have someone close to talk and have fun and to do things…I don’t want to date.. I’ve realized that the minute I get sick, I get dumped. I’m tired of being told that I’m too nice or to be with someone that literally has never any time for me. It’s all pretty hurtful.

I wish my life was happy at least just for a day, so I can breathe and build strength.