I was just wondering if it's a bpd trait to self destruct every time a person who would probably be healthy for me comes around and really cares about me? I think I'm past that self sabotage point every single time but then here I am again waiting for them to ghost me, blow up on me, block me from their life because what can I expect when I just keep testing them and not being honest and needing reassurance? Ugh I hope someone out there has some advice because this sucks.