TLDR; look at the title. 

I'm a borderline, and I'm 27 (f). I've been in a fairly stable relationship, despite some of my slightly erratic behaviors over the last year. I'm trying to settle down and get my life in order so that I may have children of my own, and I flip-flop between believing my partner and I will do this, to not wanting my partner to be the father of my children. This is mostly due to the splitting - which I think is my worst symptom in relationships. The splitting leads to the emotional reactivity, and the emotional reactivity leads to the impulsivity. I make rash decisions and can act erratically, but I think I've come very far since I was formally diagnosed at 14, and again at 20. I have been in therapy fairly consistently for the last 7 years. 

I think my difficulty, as of late, is accepting that my natural impulses, decisions, thoughts, feelings, etc., are all incorrect, or faltered in some way. I can lack perspective. It is hard for me in the moment of emotional activation to be objective (not that anyone is ever objective about themselves) about the big picture of my life. When I am feeling an emotion, I become the emotion. When consumed, I shut down, I think. Or, my logic does. And then I do completely insane shit.

That's probably too harsh of a judgment on myself, but it is what it is. I've been reading some articles about mood stabilizers as treatment for borderline personality disorder, and found some promising statistics about drugs like Quetiapine and so on being good for impulsivity and emotional reactivity specifically. If anyone cares to share their experiences with mood stabilizers, I'd really appreciate it. My appointment isn't until December 11th, so I'd like to really mull over whether these kinds of meds are the ones I should request.

Thanks, all.