My 20 y old sister has BPD. I'm 24 y/o. We both grew in the same environment yet I am okay but my sister is suffering. It's extremely difficult to live with such a person. She is the one I love most in my life. I am ready to go to any lengths to get her treated. But I do realize that I have to take care of myself too. She talks to strangers, engages in risky sex and harms herself. She has started therapy and I hope she learns to cope with het raging emotions and be the person she always was. I miss her terribly. We live in the same house yet she doesn't talk to me. I know she doesn't hate me. She hates herself which has distanced her from everyone. I try to be polite and I offer to help, talk, listen but she pushes me away. I give her the space she needs. Our parents had separated when we were children.

She doesn't share anything about her life with me. I feel very worried about her therefore, I read her chats in her phone to know what's going on. She doesn't know that. I feel even more helpless after reading all the darkness she is going into and yet I can only watch. I don't want to read her chats but I can't help it. I feel the need that I need to know what she's up to although I won't be able to do anything about it.

She has become extremely sexual. Just two years ago she was a school topper. She was self disciplined and very kind. Now she's a person I can barely recognize. The crazy behavior started happening when COVID happened and her school got closed. She fears that she will never find love and will end up like my parents. That's why she is trying fervently to find love in any guy she meets.

The guys she meets are all perverts who are taking advantage of her vulnerability. She doesn't understand that. She is obsessed with the idea of love and thinks sex can help her get that. I live in India, where sex is a taboo. My life has turned in ways I could have never imagined. I fear teen pregnancy and rape. I never want that to happen to my sister but my sister takes these things so lightly. I feel helpless. All I am able to do is to make her attend her therapy sessions and be there for her.