A couple weeks ago a friend sent me screenshots of my boyfriend on tinder using it at my house it broke my heart he said sorry and said it was just for “friends” I’m not dumb I know better but I stayed with him I decided to make a tinder and bumble with black screens and no name to see if he was still using them and I found him on tinder. He went on my phone and saw the notification of a verification code from tinder and bumble. He’s been giving me hell for weeks now for downloading them he had no proof I even used it ( honestly I didn’t I just wanted to see if he was on there). He told me he wasn’t doing anything behind my back. 
Tonight the same friend told me she saw him on bumble but didn’t screen shot like last time when she found him on tinder. So I made a catfish account and found him in like 10 minutes. My heart is broken I feel awful beyond the point of crying I just want to die. He’s been the only person in my life for over a year. I feel like I’m not good enough. I just want him to change I want things to go back to how they were when I met him. I’ve gained weight due to health problems and binge eating and just getting depressed. I’m so ugly now I have nothing to look forward to in life.