I've been trying to find a reason to live for the past few weeks. No matter how hard I try to think nothing comes to mind.

I realize a subreddit about depression ain't the best place to ask about reason to live. But fuck it as least I won't have yeslife mf telling me about unimportant shit.

So I've come to the conclusion that life is meaningless. The whole existence of humanity is a coincidence. So we, both as a whole and as separate individuals are absolutely insignifiant. That doesn't mean life can't be enjoyed tho. You could still make up "goals" and try to achieve them I guess. But I got nobody to support me, all the people that I've cared about ended up vanishing. I've lost contact with all the people I could have called friends. Even the love of my life has dumped me cause she "don't love you anymore lmao" or shit like that. I'm miserable at social stuff but I crave social contact. I think im too weird and neurotic to ever be able to find someone to love me. I don't have any goal or ambition. I don't have money. So what if I died ? Why would it be so bad ?

When I talk about suicide people are always telling me it's a mistake and the worst decision i could make. But honestly i just don't understand. Do they want me to stay alive because they'd miss me ? Im not even really close with the people who tell me that. But suicide is frowned upon and people are always talking about having hope for the future, getting better and shit like that.

Is there really a reason i should go on living ? I'm pretty sure there ain't one, at least i haven't been able to think of one. So could someone please enlighten me ?

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tldr : don't understand why i should live, need someone to explain what's so great about life