Anyone else ever get the feeling that they don't know who they are as an individual anymore? I've always struggled with my sense of self and my identity has always seemed like something foreign to me. Over time, and with plenty of therapy, I thought that I had finally gotten a firm grasp on the basics at least. But with COVID forcing everyone to isolate, I've had more alone time than I'd like which has prompted some self-reflection. In thinking back, I've realized that I never really had a firm sense of self to begin with and all I've really been doing is stealing personality traits from the people I spend time with and applying them to myself. I know this is what BPD tends to encourage - adapting like a chameleon to whatever environment I'm currently in - but this has left me feeling like a patchwork person with no opinions or beliefs of my own. Whenever I try to hammer down a core characteristic of who I am, I feel incredibly helpless to think of anything I strongly identify with. 

My question, then, is ... how do I go about discovering myself? Do you have any strategies that have worked for you? Please feel free to share any stories of success to inspire me. I could honestly really use them right now :/