i imagine my life with a spouse &amp; children, but when i think about giving birth to a kid, i hate it.

bipolar is genetic. i have bipolar I. i can't help but feel guilty at even the notion of having kids who would have a chance of having bipolar, too. not to mention, the antipsychotics i am on would mean birth defects. 

i want a family in the future, and i would 100% adopt instead of conceive. i'm wondering if anyone else feels this way?