She and I stopped talking almost a year ago, she was my fp and my life, my everything.
When it was her bd i went up and even that we didn't talk anymore, i wished her the best and send her a lot of love, like i used to do every bd of her. Maybe i expected for her to say something nice in return, maybe a i missed you or smth, all i got was a thanks and some hearts. It broke me but i endure it, i was suppose to be strong for myself.
Now, it was my bd a few days ago, and it was a nice day, but the only thing i truly wanted was for her to tell me something, anything, just a happy bd and nothing else.
But nothing.
Like i never existed, like all those years of her being my best friend didn't existed. Like if i was a nuisance all the time, just dealing with me to not make me kms, just being a responsability she never wanted.

I hate this, i hate this so much