Self harm talk in this post warning. Maybe I'm just venting, but I did something wrong today that is making me so angry at myself that I really want to cut or strike or burn or something to the point of severe anxiety. I have so much rage directed towards myself and no better outlet than to write it down and hope the feelings fade before I lose the mental power struggle. I have just one opinion question. Is is better if I engage in physically harmless behaviors that still give me the feeling of punishment that I feel I deserve? For example, is it okay to get rid of my favorite possessions in order to remind myself of the mistakes I made so that I cannot forget them? It seems to be the only way I can avoid making similar errors in the future. Plus, this has the benefit that I can sell most of these items to bring in some extra money so it is productive in a way. Besides the reminder of missing things, I can't seem to enjoy anything anyway, so I might as well make the most of the situation. I've been practicing alternate coping methods through DBT but today I feel overwhelmed because I know I'm in the wrong and cannot make things right. Just venting these thoughts might help take the edge off. I think it's okay to admit feeling this way just really sucks sometimes. It's not a permanent feeling, just seems like it. I don't want to actually mutilate myself, I just want the impulse to do so to go away. Giving in to make the feeling go away will just make it harder to resist next time.