My Lady and I have been having issues. That is a understatement we have had issues for the past 4 + years. She has cheated on me made me feel small in many ways or how I'm the reason for the situation. Which yeah it takes 2 to tango but there doesn't seem to be any I would say understanding on how much she has made me feel like a peice of garbage. We are supposed to be working on things and I had a shitty feeling she was talking to her last guy(s) and I was right.. snook on her smart watch which I'm not proud of but gave me answers I didn't have to be lied about. As much as I won't to say I don't care or that I knew it was coming or something along those lines it doesn't escape the feeling of separating from my 2 boys we have. I remember hearing my oldest crying why daddy isn't home because of the issues her decisions made it breaks my heart and I don't know if I will be able to handle that again or to deal with my boys broken hearted over shit she caused. If we didn't have kids it would be easy but with kids it makes me think if I'm quiting on my family giving up and that's not the man I am.. I feel lost. Hopeless and beat the fuck down..