Came into work excited I still get to see my family this weekend for “sibling Christmas”. 

(All of use are getting tested prior to meeting up)

We thought we may have to cancel because my stepdad has gotten COVID, but we all quarantined, no one else got sick and all our tests are negative.

I had to miss two weeks of work to make sure I was negative, and unfortunately I’ve missed a lot the past full year.

My mom had cancer, I had a previous COVID scare, this COVID scare and really awful allergy issues.

My boss asked me about OT on Saturday and I mentioned seeing my sister. She said something about her being out of state and I said we were all getting tested.

She looked at me so suspiciously and my heart just dropped. I feel like everyone feels like I was faking despite me sending numerous pictures of my three negative tests in two weeks and that fact that I wouldn’t lie about half of my family having COVID.

It just completely dropped my mood.

That along with the fact that I had to go into my building earlier (I usually hang around somewhere outside until just before) and all the usual people that dislike me for stupid, stupid reasons stared and whispered.

It sucks so much just feeling what started off as a good morning turn to shit.

My director won’t even say hi to me despite being right by him.

I’m tired.