I need help not letting my emotions take over. My unhealthy habits are becoming too taxing for me and my partner, and I love him too much but I can't seem to control my anger over little things. One time my partner didn't say thank you after I did something nice for him and it made me so uneasy and I started saying hurtful words. He said that I turn into a different person and that he's sick of fighting everyday. 

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Please don't suggest breaking up, this is just one side of our relationship, and I need help coping with strong emotions. When I'm sad, irritated, angry, everything seems to be awful. "I hate him, he doesn't love me, I want him to know how angry I am" type of thoughts run through my head. And once I get what I want, I get flooded with regret. I feel like a manipulative monster. I keep thinking wtf is wrong with me.