I’ve been taking percocets (oxycodone w/acetaminophen) to feel numb or something idk. I dont take them everyday. I take them once a while. Like 1 every 3 months just to feel something or nothing. I took my very last one the other day because I had a breakdown. Now I started drinking. I’m not addicted I just want to feel nothing. I lost the little bit of happiness I had, which was my ex gf. She was my happiness and we broke up probably 3 months ago and I haven’t felt that happiness since. I’ve just been sad. I tried going to the gym and going to work to keep busy but it doesn’t work. I’m not asking for help, I’m just using this to rant since I have no one to talk to.