I’m 19 years old. Typing this while in Tijuana in a club full of hookers after banging one. I feel like all my sexual energy like having boners for no reason doesn’t exist anymore. I’m working on my first relationship and I get very horny when I think about a girl I’m dating and when I see her and touch her. But I feel like I don’t have the same desire as other men my age. I think I went through puberty early and didn’t have girls in my life ever. I don’t know if I subconsciously made thinking about women sexually a taboo thing and block it out or if it’s my insecurities making me subconsciously think I’m not deserving of sexual gratification therefore no need to be horny. Might just be that I’m a bit socially anxious. I do not know. I feel like if I was just more horny through my day that it would fix my issues with self confidence. I’m in very good shape, I’m a PT and have a legit 6 pack and competitive powerlifting #s but I beat my self down because I don’t like how my face looks and need corrective jaw surgery for it although I’m not ugly. I don’t get morning wood anymore, I don’t get horny before I sleep anymore. It may also just be effects of quarantine making me almost delusional. I’ve been taking Finasteride but I don’t think that’s the problem. I don’t k is if there is something wrong with me. I shouldn’t have low T, and I doubt I have a medical issue. Any of this ring a bell? I feel like an outsider because I’m not a “PIG”
I used to get off on seeing hot girls but now it’s not like that. Really frustrated with my sex life, social life, and the fact that I feel like something is wrong with me.