Hello all,

I was originally diagnosed 3 years ago.
I have ever since been hard at work to recover from this

I try very hard to not split on my FP because she is the best and always there for me but for some reason thata who always takes the brunt of it.

Well after not having an episode for a lomg time it happened Saturday night, I yelled and said very hurtful things to my FP. I want to just crawl under a rock and die.. my FP is very hurt by this and says she cant keep at life with me like this. She doesn't want things to be great for years and me having an episode infront of our kids or just tearing all the hard work down.. please note she also deals with various mental disorders that are triggered when I split.

I know its probably for the best if I leave and we end our marriage at least for her because I cant keep doing this to her she deserves someone healthy that would make her happy all the time... i just wish things turn out different...

Any advice on this is great. Also any coping things or stories of your recovery road would be great! I just want to know it gets better and if this is a never ending road or maybe one day I wont have to worry any more

Thanks