I recently graduated from college (Jan 2020, i know great timing, and have been feeling so anxious about post grad life. Prior to graduating and right as I graduated I felt so good about the direction that my life was heading in. I felt like I was able to overcome a lot and do things that would typically make me uncomfortable, however, after graduation I feel like everything went downhill. That whole year I struggled mentally and wasn't able to find work. Fast forward to Jan 2021, I was working as a substitute teacher, really enjoying it, but I let my anxiety get into my head and ruin things for me again. My boss at that school asked me to apply to work there full time, which was a great opportunity, and I just didn't do it. I convinced myself that I wasn't good enough, that the staff didn't like me, and then I never applied. I stayed working there until the end of the school year and got on unemployment this summer. I feel so guilty and useless about self sabotaging and not allowing myself to take risks. I keep waiting for "the right time" when I will know that I am prepared, know I'll do great in the interviews, and know I'll get the job. My plan know is to stay on unemployment, sub again when that stops, then be ready next spring to start interviewing for teaching jobs in the fall. I just cant stop comparing myself to other people that are my age who seemingly have their lives together. Anyway, just wanted to vent. I don't talk much about this stuff with others cause I feel like I'm viewed as lazy but whatever.