I’m not sure if this is a universal bpd experience but I’ve always connected my restlessness to having BPD. I never stay long in relationships, friendships, etc, and I’m drawn to people who are the same, because there’s way less conflict and self sabotage when they aren’t expecting anything from you and vice versa. I’m always wanted to be on the road, traveling, doing things, creating new identities, fantasizing about different worlds and being someone else entirely. 

I think it’s my way of coping with how I am. It’s like getting in a committed relationship triggers me, and being too close in a friendship does too, so I prefer getting really close to people and then letting them go, but not in a dysfunctional way, but in a healthier, making memories, but ultimately moving along, like a rolling stone. 

Maybe I’m romanticizing it, but it’s been working thus far...I think I’m just a poet at heart