People always ask me why I’m such a thrilling person. Idk. I’ll do almost anything because of the fact that anyone could die at any given moment. Loosening my seatbelt on amusement park rides, cliff jumping from high places, speeding my car at 3am, drinking till I can’t feel anything weekly. Shit like that. Being suicidal doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m going to do it. It also means that you wouldn’t mind dying. at all. My mom died when I was 11 and today’s her birthday so that’s fucking me up a lot. All I want is to be with her man. I have nothing to live for. I just want to enjoy life again yk. I need someone, something or anyone. I’m still here though so I’m getting through it. For now.