Okay so as much as like my identity is completely distorted and stuff, the one consistent and prominent trait i have, is that of constantly being a victim. In literally any and every situation. I’m not sure if in reality I am a victim, but it sure as hell feels like it. It just feels like people are against me or the universe is against me and it’s out of my control. Like others/things are constantly acting upon me ? and i try to hold myself accountable etc but it’s difficult for me to see myself as having played a role in the bad things that have happened or whatever (I don’t even know if this makes any sense) but it’s not even a thing of like I’m acting like a victim or being pretentious about it. I genuinely believe and feel that I’m being hurt and that i had/have no control ??? I don’t even think I’ve explained this properly but I am sooo frustrated with myself, life and this fucking disorder.