Hi there, first time posting here.

So, I'm dealing with anxiety for a long time (currently 35, having it since forever), am experienced when it comes to having therapy and all that. Currently, I'm on my summer break and I can not relax at all. When I sleep in, I feel dread for wasting so much time on the day. When I finally get up, I think of all the things I should and could do, now that I have the time and all, but it's so overwhelming that I end up doing only a fraction or nothing at all.

It's not only with things I should do (like chores, cleaning the house, etc) but also things I would love to do, now that I have the time. I'm back at work on Monday and I feel like I've wasted all that time, because I wasn't able to relax or do nice things and it's just... Stupid. I should not worry ant efficency in my free time at all, but here I am.