I'm so awkward and nervous all the time and it's sucks. Pretty much every conversation I have results in me just racking over all the stupid shit I said. Then I always think that next time I'll be cooler, next time I won't say something stupid. Then as soon as I get in a conversation I'm as awkward and nervous as ever. It's just a endless cycle at this point and I'm tired of laying in my bed at night cringing over every little stupid thing I said throughout the day. It doesn't help that I blush so easily, so whenever I embarrass myself I can just feel myself going red just making everything worse