Depression means you get to do nothing. You get an excuse for doing nothing, for feeling like shit.

Feeling "normal" for the first time, what's the fucking excuse? I'm level headed, this is how people feel like most of the time, well fuck! This feels dull as fuck.

I miss mania, I miss thinking of myself so gradiously. i miss ME.

I miss thinking I'm invencible, I miss making a month's worth of work in a week, I miss the thing that makes me inhumane and a shitty person, a problem for all.

I'm in the middle now, how am I going to live like this, without the extremes?

I will do it and, for fuck's sake, I'm going to feel better then manic, Imma rock the world with a dull mind and a without an excuse for inactivity.

I'm going to be myself for the first time ever.