I’m in my second year at a community college in my hometown. I never used to get jealous of the people who got to go away but now it really gets to me. It makes me sooooooo depressed. I’m obviously gay and in high school I didn’t do much. I was a closeted freak who didn’t even know themselves. But now I feel like being 20, and not experiencing things that my friends got to do, is just getting to me. I feel like I’m wasting my life. I’m about to transfer to a 4 year college in the fall, but because of money I’m going to one that’s like 30 minutes away. With not much other queers. I know I have a bad mindset but I just feel like I deserved and could be doing so much more than how it is right now. I feel like a lot of people could possibly relate to this. But it is still a sucky feeling.