Recently, I moved from Canada to a country in Asia and I’m just really sick of everything here. I miss my old friends back in school like really badly, but my parents say I have to stop texting my friends because I need to ‘branch out’ with other people in my new school. But everyone here is so loud and violent. Every few seconds, someone will go punch someone else in the halls and my parents just say that they’re just joking around but a kid actually got bruised and it didn’t look like a joke. Plus, I came to school in the middle of the year so it’s harder to make friends. I have so much homework and I go to bed an hour or two later then when I would usually sleep and that just makes me even more tired and unmotivated. My grades have been dropping and it just gives me so much anxiety because my parents put a LOT of money in this school and I feel like I’m not doing enough to pay them back. Even worse, my stomach hurts whenever I’m at school and I’m sure it’s not because of my period. I’m not getting bullied but I just feel so lonely. My grandpa gets mad at me because I forgot to set the table and even said that Girls only do that. My cousin throws things at me and trash talks about me and when I talk back, he tattles on me and I get in trouble. I know people have worse problems, but I’m just too tired to repeat this cycle for the next 12 months. I’m just waiting for a car to run me over or for somebody to just kill me JUST ANYTHING that can kill me and end the suffering cuz I’m too much of a coward to do it myself. I feel like a waste of time, money and space. Can anyone tell me how to at least get over my old life because there’s nothing positive about the new one.