All I do is jump around from thing to thing to thing and I am never truly satisfied with myself. One by one I gave up on all of my dreams and aspirations because I was no longer motivated to do them.

I failed my entire spring semester because I couldn't find the motivation to do anything and depression was taking over my life as is has my entire life.


My life never has had and never will have meaning. I don't have anything anymore. I lost my friends and family. I'm failing again even after I promised I would do better. There's no point In living anymore. I have been hospitalized 3 times and it's only made things worse. I've been to 4 therapists and it hasn't helped. I tried to research to help myself find a purpose In my life and it didn't work  

My FP has their own life now and can't spend 24/7 with me. He was the only person I talked to and wanted to talk to. I didn't care when I lost everyone else because I had him. But now I don't 

All I can do this time is commit suicide and make sure it works this time so I don't end up hospitalized again.