i switched from weed to dabs almost a year ago because i just need to be able to put as much thc into my body as fast as possible. ive noticed when i go long enough without smoking, as in more than a few hours, i become an emotional fucking MESS. everything makes me want to cry whether its out of happiness or sadness. sometimes i just have the need to cry for no apparent reason. 

a lot of people say thc numbs their emotions but that isnt even the case here. i can still feel things when im high. i can still cry. i can still express things. but it doesnt all just come rushing out of me in such an intense and quick way it does when im sober. 

when i get high enough i feel more of my empathy come out and i feel GUILT for once in my life and i swear to god its whats led me to develop more empathy and better relationships with my parents and bf. i just feel so much more love in me that i need to get out. 

also molly (real molly not those shitty pressed pills) makes my bpd and ocd totally go away for the duration of my high. but the day after i feel very depressed so fuck that