i cannot believe this insane belief that what you give is what you get. all i do is give. i run myself dry with how much i give. and yet i never get. no one shows even a fraction of the compassion i show them.

meanwhile, the people who have wronged me have all of the social support in the world and are living lavishly.

i’m starting to believe that no matter how “noble” my life goals are, i will never get what i give. i will die without a single person appreciating my presence.