I'm 21. Dropped out of college / uni at 19. I've been on disability since. I live in the UK where getting therapy is near impossible. I'm on a bunch of meds that help a little.

I have a bf of over a year.

My family are disappointed in me. Yesterday I was smoking and my grandmother came outside to talk to me. She asked if I'd enrolled yet, and I said no because I didn't have enough gcse's. She got annoyed and asked if I was gonna move out yet because I'd get help, and said I needed a job. I said I don't know and started crying. I've lived with her and my uncle since I was 15. And I get it.

I'm an adult. My life is a mess. I don't do anything with my days.

I should be working and studying. I couldn't handle college. I couldn't handle even doing voluntary work.

My family don't want me, and I don't blame them. I'm a disappointment. But I can't do it right now. I can't live alone, I can't work. I can barely get out of bed or shower. I'm sorry.