Here's the thing,

I came from an Asian background where really prioritizes grades and achievements. Therefore, to be able to top the class, I've always had to work my fcking ass off. This results in my achieving high grades in class. And I'm still working hard to keep it up.

These peers, although some of them are nice, there are many just stick with me because they think I'll be useful to them. Once in a blue moon, their idea for the project got praised while mine wasn't. And all they did was bragging about themselves (which I rarely did every time the teacher approved my ideas). I find it really annoying and degrading to me too, while someone like them got approved and acted like they're better than anyone. They begin to speak in a superior tone like they get everything the lecturer wants. They also look at me a different way, LIKE IMMEDIATELY.

Welp, since they are no better than me, in a stage of the assignment, they were confused and asked me for my feedback. But hell no, I worked my ass off to get my ideas approved. While I was busy generating ideas to please the lecturer, they got all the time in the world to brag about themselves instead of looking into it. Well, I ain't gonna waste my time helping him because there are things I haven't even finished for my project.

Yeah and sure, I don't like helping them **because i fear they will be better than me**. Also, I once did help a rival in my class with a case study and I really regret if after.

Well, I always mind my own business, so you better take care of yourself too. If I help them, it's like they're building their success on my failure. So no, the competition is intense, so show yourself out. I worked hard for this and cannot help any one, especially when they are just in luck.

Am I being toxic, delusional or is that perfectly OK in a competitive environment of a university course?