It's tough being married and also fighting depression. Every bad mood can be misconstrued to be accusatory or meaningful when it's just my uncontrollable mind-state at a point in time. If I'm silent about it then it feels to my spouse that I'm denying my reality, but if I express myself to ever be justifiably upset about something then it can be chalked up to me misinterpreting things due to my depression. And it can be so hard to tell the difference. It's so hard to keep a happy home without gaslighting, feeling gaslit, or hiding things.