I recently started taking my meds more consistently which is making me feel bit better, though I’ll have occasional symptoms. The reason cause I moved back states and there’s difficulty contacting the SS office where I’m living and my Medicaid hasn’t transferred yet and I was scared of running out of meds so I took them only when it got bad. I’m currently on Geodon (one 20mg in the morning and 50mg at night) though I’m only taking the morning meds atm. I’m really afraid to gain a lot of weight (I was on the invega trinza shot and I went up from there 100lbs to 147 even though the shot helped out a lot and I felt normal and able to do more, the fear of weight gain overrides my need to treat my condition and i may have an ED I guess).

When I first started treatment around 15 years old I was on Abilify, Effexor, Seroquel, but I have very faint memories of how those worked out for me. I feel in general my memory is getting worse and idk why. Invega would give me weird side effects like lactation, (never been pregnant) my left hand would twitch, and my eyes would be stuck looking up. And they gave me congentin to counter those. On geodon I get dystonia on my jaw and it gets stuck open and it’s really embarrassing cause I can’t swallow and I’ll drool. Sometimes when I take my meds I’ll get a bit hungry and I’ll freak out thinking I’m going to gain a lot of weight again and I go through a pattern of not taking my meds as I should.