I am just so lost. 
It is so overwhelming sometimes to just be a human and work and do the things I feel like I need to do. 

I feel so annoying and whiny and horrible for feeling this way but I also cant help it. 

My whole body rejects the idea of working and going out half the time and I don’t know what to do. 
I want to cry and just cave into myself. 

I want to leave work because of this but I don’t want to lose money or fail on any level and I’m just so torn because I am not as functioning as I seem on the outside. 

I need help and I have already tried and I’m not getting what I need. 

I don’t know what to do and I hate that suicide sounds like the best option every time I get like this. 