Hey all,

Just letting it all out here ._. long vent...

I've been diagnosed with health induced anxiety... probably have something a bit more as my anxiety is pretty bad.

Recently me and my fiance went to another state and visited her family. At the house they have 3 indoor cats and  one outside cat, a stray perhaps. Just showed up one day and stayed. 2-3 months ago apparently. They feed it and it sleeps outside on and under the porch. It's super friendly, really soft even. But we were sitting on the ground and it comes over to us easily and we pet it and it jumped into my arms, well when it jumped out of my arms it scratched me, very briefly. Cat didn't look ill whatsoever.

Well I washed the small scratches and carried on. But out of the blue, my anxiety went on full overdrive. Thoughts like, oh god.. I probably have rabies now. We watched the cat the rest of the day and left the next day to go back home. Super content cat, slept on the porch. Before we left, cat was still really happy, didn't seem sick whatsoever.

Fast forward couple days later, my anxiety is at an high. Found a scratch I didn't clean off right away. Cleaned it. But just kept on driving it into my head that I have rabies. Kept doing the stupid thing and googling everything about rabies. Even tho, cat didn't look sick whatsoever, didn't lick his paws before/around us.. super friendly. I even went into a walk in clinic when I got back and they told me you don't need to worry about rabies. Okay, cool.

I went on wellbutrin for a week but pretty sure I had some weird side effects after about a week, so I stopped taking them.. not sure if that's long enough for withdrawal effects to hit me also? 

Fiance called her family and said they fed the cat just yesterday (been about 15 days since I got scratched). So cat seems to be fine, which should mean.. I'm fine(rabid animals apparently don't live past 10 days). but my mind keeps telling me your not fine. You have rabies. Keep panicking. I think I even started to clench my jaw? Face is weirdly numbed, and I feel the jaw muscles stiff. I'm super over aware of everything happening to my body. Hands/forearms are tingly sometimes also. mind is thinking, this is it. Rabies is now progressed.. but I know this is stupid and it's just my anxiety.

Anyways, long vent... All in all, I know it's extremely hard to catch rabies from a scratch. Cat is apparently still alive even.  I shouldn't be worrying at all, but right now.. my mind is racing. I'm obsessing over my anxiety and it's making the anxiety worse.. keep telling myself it's just anxiety, why are you worrying. Trying to take deep breathes.

Anyone relate... Just a scenario of what my anxiety is doing to me ._. help??