So here I am on day one of the latest attempt to quit and I feel so miserable and awful and empty. I always feel this way unless I am high. On the r/leaves board, people talk about how they are soo lazy and unproductive when smoking and are so much more productive and motivated when they don’t. I am the opposite! Weed also gives me my interests in art and fashion I suspect because I don’t enjoy it when  not stoned. I guess it’s my lack of identity. I want to quit but I get so upset when I don’t smoke, I’m sobbing right now. I can’t afford smoking weed all the time! I guess I can but there’s things I’d rather be spending my money on. I also feel like my organization and memory are negatively affected. I just want to take a long break to see what life is like without weed to know whether I really need it or not. I also feel like I have so much energy and want to go out and be social but my only friend here is a weed smoker and I know I would be too tempted. Help!!!