Don’t worry I will google as well :) but would love to hear everyone’s personal thoughts on this. 

I have suffered from one or both of these disorders for a few years now and it’s just getting worse. I fit the symptoms for both BPD and bipolar.  

I have never seen a therapist. Honestly it scares me to open up to someone and I don’t like the idea of being on meds the rest of my life. But I’m drowning in my anguish. So I think it’s time.