You said you couldn’t do it another day a million times. You swore you’d never be happy. It hasn’t been perfect and you are not fixed. But you are so much stronger than when you started. It’s ok to break down and fall apart, that doesn’t mean all of your progress is gone. It’s not about how many times you are falling down it’s about how many times you stand back up and try again. Just one more time, please allow yourself to try one more time. All your problems will not be solved in one day but you will also not have to deal with all of your problems in one day. The future is fiction and the past is a story, all you have is right now. Stop predicting your anxiety for the future. Breathe and allow yourself to fall apart, but use all your strength to get yourself back together. I know you feel like nobody understands you and you wish so bad that you had any other problem, but all that matters is that you have yourself. You are real, you are alive, and you are not going to give up because you have gotten through this 100% of the time. All you have to do is try one more time tomorrow. Please no matter how scary and bad it gets do not give up on yourself because you are not finished. Nobody can understand or knows how much you are struggling besides you, so you have to be proud of yourself for still going on under the amount of pain and stress that you feel. No matter who walks out of your life you will ALWAYS have yourself. You can and you always will be okay. You have this abundance of light inside of you to beat out all the darkness you feel no matter how scary it may get. 
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