I’ve been dealing with anxiety issues my entire life due to childhood trauma. (Self diagnosed by the way, I could very well just be a bitch idk).

I’m tired of just constantly feeling like something is wrong or something bad is going to happen. It’s to stressful for somebody as young as me (21) with too many other things to worry about. I have constant mood swings that’s just affecting my life.

My girlfriend has suggested therapy and what not to help me with my issues, but the problem is i’ve come to terms with the life i’ve had, and focus on bettering it through success. I don’t know what else a therapist would do other than letting me spill my beans, but that’s not what I believe I need. 

I also am deathly afraid of these types of meds. I used to be addicted to xanax (street pressed shit so fentanyl obv) and swore to never do that garbage again. I’m afraid these meds will repress who I am or turn my brain to mush.

I guess i’d like to know if my fears are ignorant, and some guidance would be nice :)