Hi all. 28 year old male, have had my delusions for a little over twelve e years as far as I can remember.

Have never seriously told anyone about my symptoms. I've tried to get medicated for the peripheral things like depression and anxiety but I've never told anyone (family or medical people) about the actual delusions and my forms of voices.

Today I'm dealing with a concussion, I just quit my most recent job about a week ago, for various reasons, and the day before yesterday binged on alcoholsnd fell off my bike, had to go to ER. Two staples in my head.

It's sure many of you share a fear of being committed. How likely is this? My most persistent delusions that my thoughts are read, that they are being broadcasted, and that I can read others thoughts. There is no interaction I have. where this is not going on, although it can differ in severity obviously. if I have taken a benzodiazepine or medicated with some other substance I am usually totally free of delusions for the duration.

I have been incarcerated for 52 months from age 21 to 25 and have a rich history of substance abuse.

How do I go about taking even a first step towards help? I don't have insurance

 My family is tired of my antics. I am slipping even further and further into abysmal depression, and I feel like I'm starting to physically deteriorate as well now due to the destruction I put my body through.

Any words of support are appreciated. Thanks guys