22f
I've wanted to end my life for many years. Since I was very young, traumatic experience - actually, many of them. I've spoken to my partner about my feelings of wanting to end my life.
I have nobody to talk to about the things that are actually killing my inside.
I've been betrayed by many of my family members and even my partner but I had to carry on like everything was fine. For reasons that are too long to explain in one post.
I'm constantly working and exhausted, when I have days off I can't seem to do things. I don't have the strength or care to do anything to take care of myself.
I rarely eat a proper meal.
I have a few medical issues, including reproductive organs.
I'm diagnosed with PTSD, Chronic Depression, Chronic anxiety, PCOS (cysts on ovaries - painful sex etc)

My partner and I have zero sex life. We hug and kiss each others cheek.
They're not attracted to me anymore, not admitted to me, but actions speak louder than words.
I caught them cheating. They admitting to wanting a boyfriend online, and obviously I cannot be that for them. 
I asked if they were comfortable with a break recently as I've been wanting to hurt myself and I don't want then to see, they refused a break.

I end up sleeping alone most nights and on the sofa.

I have too much other stuff going on. I'm losing my mind. I want to die.

I'm sorry, this was my only option of release that wasn't majorly self destructive. I'm trying so hard.