I don't have many close friends. FP is a best online friend I've had for about 2/3 years and we talk everyday and have so much in common. I also have a gf (long distance. we see each other as often as possible. polyam) who I'm very happy and in love with. Almost a year together. 

The other day, FP confessed feelings for me that'd been there for like a year and stressed didn't want to lose me as a friend and I do not want to either but I'm just so thrown by it and I'm really, really struggling with splitting right now on them it's taking all my mental energy. I just don't really know how to handle this. We've been talking normally since FP confessed but it's still like, elephant in the room. To me anyway. I'm starting to panic things will never be the same again and I'm gonna lose my FP. They mean so much to me. 

I guess it's the possibility of change that's making things wild?