
While most things before 5th grade is pretty hazy i do remember in 4th grade two things that stick out. (Just some context but i was with a pretty big friend group and most people in that group thought i was the funniest but i started wondering if i served any other purpose than just being funny after a small conversation about who was funnier. I didnt really think much on the topic after it was done with but at the time i remember being pretty sad because of how useless i felt  and how easily itd be to replace me(cause there was someone i thought was funnier than me there). Another thing i remember is most of the stuff i said that wasnt joking would just get sidelined or never held any importance. I obviously didnt dive that deeply into it but these are some things i think mightve heavily played a part in how i am today.