I (28F) have been diagnosed with depression since I was 13. I’ve worked hard to work through it with mindfulness,  and medications. In the past year I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I had to quit my job, apply for disability, and lost all of my friends. If it wasn’t for my husband I would be completely alone. Every day I wake up and just feel like I don’t want to be here anymore. All day long all I can think about is how I don’t want to be alive. I don’t want to kill myself just don’t want to exist anymore. I know I wouldn’t act on these thoughts but I just can’t deal with it anymore. I can’t find relief, I can’t get motivated, and I mostly just sit on my couch and cry when my husband is working. I just don’t see my life getting any better and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I don’t have any fight left.