Hey, 19M here. I'm having trouble finding the right term for whats wrong with me, I dont plan on getting a diagnosis from you guys but if you know anything it would help. I want to get help but don't know how to explain it. Or if its normal to feel this way. 
-I have trouble sleeping. I know i have to sleep but Its like I dont want to. I have to count breaths and wait for sleep. Im awake untill the last moment untill sleep hits me. So sleep feels like a chore. Like freezing yourself, "i have to do this shit again every night"  
-I think out every situation before I do it and take the easiest route. (Ex. I would tell my school counselor that I'm depressed as it seemed to be the easiest to explain.) 
-I dont feel depressed. When I search the definition it doesn't seem to land. I dont want to do anything social but when I go I have fun. Like weighing the pros and cons.
-My mind feels empty.  It always hasn't been like this, I used to hear what I call a "inner voice" thinking and weighing out pros and cons. I dont really think to myself like I'm in a auto pilot. In relationships it got me in trouble as I would over think. 
-I have gotten out of every bad situation with speech. In school I would get in trouble and never get punished as I could talk my way out of it. 
-i dont think I have any trauma. Only sad memory I had was when my parents took my egirl away when I was in middle school. I really liked her too. 
-I imagine myself famous or whatever when I drive or doing nothing. 
-I am very temperamental to my family but I know every time I do it but I still do it. My brothers have never wronged me but i can't stand it when they are in my room. Their presence urks me. 
-Ive done sports but never liked them. Just did it. 

I know this is alot and honestly I don't know if this is the right place to even post this. But I'm looking to be better i suppose. But I dont know what to fix... and it bothers me. Thanks.