I recently finished my PhD and am trying to find a job. I've been depressed for at least five years at this point, and feel like I did not do nearly as much work as I could have during my PhD. I didn't really network or build a lot of professional relationships, and now I'm finding it hard to ask for recommendations/references from people. I know that this was my responsibility as a PhD student, but I also don't know what I could have done about the depression given the person I was/have been. Now, I'm really scared that I will not find a job because of the lack of references, and I'm still depressed. I've tried a lot of different ways to get out of depression, but it always feels like 1 steps forward and 3 steps back. I'm really not sure what to do, and because I'm anxious about the job search, I'm wasting more time gaming or doing other things. I feel so lost and sad.