Literally all is fine in my life, just couple of things are not oging the way I planned, and I will need to put a bit more work into it, and even if it takes me a year, it will literally ALL be ok. Both situationally and finacialy.

But the anxiety is like a cloud over my head. 

I know benzos can be addictive, but taking them besides relieving anxiety, causes additional one - 

I am not afraid to be hooked on them, because I don't have an addictive personality and have been in touch with benzos for couple of years.  Even my doctor told me, that twice a week is absolutely normal and not dangerous. 

I am just afraid that it will stop working. That I will need higher doses for them to get the work done in the future.