
Hello, 

Throwaway acct as partner has Reddit and seeing this post would be triggering for him. 

I have been with my partner for over a decade. For the past several years he’s been experiencing AH and delusions (mainly persecutory). He was on/off medication, and the meds never made the AH go away but seemed to help with the delusions and make him less agitated.

However, due to the side effects of antipsychotics (he’s tried quite a lot and the side effects are substantial) and them not making the AH go away, he has stopped the meds and have been attempting to manage the symptoms on his own. 

It was alright at first - we were okay and he was functioning and working full time no issues. Obviously, over time he decompensated, and got to a point where he’s now fully 100% delusional and believes that the voices and the delusions are real. He believes that I have been “in” on this (colluding with the voices), and that even his family are in on it. He becomes upset whenever we mention psychosis because he believes the voices are 100% real and they are real people. He also had to take a leave of absence from work.

Basically it’s gotten to a point where we are going to break up and call off our wedding. He says he loves me but can’t be with me because I won’t tell him “the truth” (that I worked with the voices to torment him) and that he no longer trusts me. 

I am so heartbroken. Our relationship is going to end not because of the “regular” or “normal” issues, not because something dramatic or unforgivable or fucked up happened, not because we no longer love each other, but because of this mental illness that he is convinced he does not have. I’m watching him slip away, he’s turning into someone I don’t recognize anymore  because he won’t seek treatment or go back on medication and is convinced the people closest to him are hurting him. 

What do I do? Is there anything that can be done? Has anyone else experienced this themselves or with a loved one? I’m afraid that at the rate he’s decompensated it’ll only get worse.