I'm so tired of the mood swings, depression, not being able to take care of myself, yesterday I managed to clean my apartment and have some friends over for game night, I had an amazing time, and today I couldn't leave the couch for 10 hours and want to kill myself. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have ambitions for my life that I'll probably never see through and treatment for bipolar is only partially effective. God fucking fuck when will the emotional pain go away? Sorry to bum people out I just need an emotional outlet at the moment