I had a really bad break down this morning and my boyfriend took me to the ER. I want to die and disappear so badly. I've been going to counselling and have a plan to try and get better. But I'm struggling so much. I hate the hospital. I'm all alone. I'm exhausted. I don't know how long I'll be here. Trying to stay strong but it's so hard. I don't want to be alive anymore.