Why others make it look so easy to achieve things?

After graduating from College 7 years ago. I thought, this is my moment. BUT NO. I’ll disclosed what job is this. But, this is my dream since i was a kid. It took me extra years to achieved while others who started the same journey as mine is in so mich better position now, making living out of it. Even other people that have shift job from this occupation. who later found this in their life . (Nurse turned into this occupation) Achieved it effortlessly. Dont get me wrong, their are few times that i shine and felt my worth doing this. And yet for me, no matter how much effort put into it, it doesnt reciprocate the result i believed i deserved. I always fall short of people’s expectation.  I even encounter 1-2 ppl in my life that would question my past. ( Ex. Are you good in school back then?) Looking back, i felt like im a curse since my school days. Their are alot  factors to account in. Fvxk this.