I just called the guy I’ve been seeing for a little under a month and said “you stress me out”, “you are a dick” and “I’m going to stop taking my medication (and when he said don’t because that could lead towards toxicity I said) why are you so mean to me”. Even when he is not mean whatsoever and actually the nicest guy I’ve ever met, such a sweetheart but now I’ve ruined it. He hasn’t texted me back in 3 hours and I’m sure he hates me and never wants to see me again. Why do I do this? Why am I like this?