I posted a few days ago as a lead up to my disability hearing.

It went well. Kinda. My memory is terrible, but it seemed to help.

On top of that the employment specialist couldn't find a job I could do.

I'm a fatalist, so I still think it won't happen, but when I go through this process again, as the disorder continues to destroy me, I have greater confidence.

I did have to face the fact that despite being self aware, mania and depression cause more severe blackouts than I am aware.

My sister has my power of attorney, and was asked to talk. It was illuminating. On top of that my letters from my therapist, family, and friend where brought up a lot. It's hard to accept how people see me, but I can make peace with that.