I wish I could go to a prestigious university but I would probably have to wait until next year. I hate my current university so much, it isn't even like university. There are barely any students, no clubs or societies, nothing fun and it has completely destroyed my ability to have a social life. I'm so sad that I wasted my first year of university to something like this. I cry every single day over this same reason. It has completely ruined my self-esteem by making me feel insecure. I feel insecure because I feel like I'm not as smart as those students who do go to prestigious universities. This year was like a complete waste for me and I will live in pain everyday until I can finally be accepted into a good university. I always wonder how different and cool this year would have been if I was in a good uni. I would have so many friends, get to do so many fun things, and become a brand new me. But who I am now, I don't feel like myself and I just feel like a robot honestly. I have one more term of this crap and then I can finally leave forever. But I just can't get over the fact that an entire year of my life has been wasted like this.