I turned down a job offer within 24 hours due to irrational fear. I know I could have done it and I already put most of the work in.  Now I'm punishing myself -- like ... I don't deserve to be happy so I shouldn't be putting time into self care activities. I feel so guilty all the time regardless if it's a mistake... Or a perceived mistake. If I buy something and it's on sale at another store, I beat myself up over it for days. I obsess. I also have held grudges with my FPs... Like if they really cared about me they would know not to _____ (fill in the blank). I remember someone (my now hubby)  eating some food I was saving from 6 years back. I still bring it up (half jokingly) today. It runs deep. I just want these grudges to stop so I can just accept things and be happy.