I work as a cashier for a popular gas station in my small town. Two people came in yesterday who I haven’t seen in a very long time, which I don’t like, and I know don’t like me. For back story, they are supporters of the man who was found guilty of raping me back in 2016 and still consider me a liar to this day. I panicked seeing them walk in as anyone in association of my rapist gives me crippling anxiety. My mind began to race all of a sudden, I told my manager that I had a restraining order on them so they wouldn’t be in the store anymore to save myself from a full blown melt down. This turned into a heated argument between them and my manager, to which I felt guilty for starting anything. Why couldn’t I have just kept my head down and let it go? Why couldn’t I have just kept my mouth shut, let them pay &amp; walk away? Now, they think I’m even more of a liar &amp; think even less of me. I’m so embarrassed of myself &amp; my lack of control in moments where I’m so anxious.