TW: mention of drugs and suicide 

If I get kicked out, I’ll have to go back and stay with my family which will trigger me every second I am awake and sober. I don’t think I should stay alive currently and I am still at the university so it will only get worse if I go back to my family. I am not getting kicked out anytime soon but if it does happen, I’ll atlast be free. I might go and visit a few places or try all the drugs I can and then OD on them. I might get some peace when I die. Lol now I hope that happens so I can kill myself and not feel this or deal with this pain everyday.