This is about a twin flame. If you don’t know what it is keep scrolling plz. 

Both 21(f). 

Trigger warning: suicide

Everyone always says oh it’s YOUR FAULT ALWAYS that she’s not back and  you have work to do on yourself. Like no I’ve been doing that for FOUR YEARS. SHES BEEN GONE 4 YEARS. Like thanks. I get it. She will never want me. She’s too busy being a Mormon idiot and trying to impress a fake man and her family/friends. Since 2019 I haven’t been in contact with her. People just keep saying oh heal first. SINCE 2019 I HAVE BEEN. Ffs. I see that now she’s pretty much never going to care about me and will want me dead for the rest of her life like she did when we were at school. I’ve done everything so it’s obvious nothing will happen now. The universe always says FUCK YOU. and laughs and then proceeds to kick me in the head five times. I will never get anything good in my life and I will be here suffering. It is the only reason I’m here. Is to just be in constant agony. Why would I even meet her then if not to reunite? To torture me because that’s the only reason I’m alive. Is to be tortured. I am so sick of everything. I want to disappear forever. No one understands and then calls me angry and egotistical. No one would ever want me around including her. Why the fuck would I ever think differently? All I do is sob hours on end. I’ll never be accepted because I’m homosexual and have mental health problems AND am not cis. I already have a bunch of health issues no one can figure out. It’s the universe saying look at you. You’re not meant to be here. Go away already. The fucking pain caused by her never stops. They knew this would happen. The universe runners knew. Like the empire in star wars in the gray on the ship. That’s what I mean. I just want to somehow kill myself. Everything is always my fault and no one gets held to the same standard. I will never get anything good to happen to me and I will be suffering through extreme pain emotionally for years on end. I really just want to die and don’t want to ever come back. I wish there was a way to kill myself but unfortunately I haven’t found a way yet.