I've never been diagnosed with BPD, but after many many years of struggling and suffering and research and introspection and observation, I've come to the conclusion that I have BPD. I might be comorbid with something else, but I think the main issue is that I have BPD, and particularly the "Discouraged" or "Quiet" subtype. 

Okay so here's my question. Is it really so that BPD belongs in the narcissism spectrum? Because I feel like it doesn't quite fit. I know some can be unconsciously manipulative, but I also feel and can observe that they're some of the most empathetic and most caring and kindest people you'll ever come across. I'm super loyal. (Random comment sorry). I know we all manifest it differently, but, I can't really see the correlation between narcissism and BPD. When I feel rejection or fear of disloyalty or mistrust, I'm more likely to withdraw and disappear than to manipulate. 

Or have I being the wrong material lol.

I'm super depressed and paranoid right now. (Another random comment lol)

Could someone please help with some much needed insight