You sit lonely - in your own thoughts of darkness  - pushed forth by the very same people that control your happiness. You could be rich, poor, broke, homeless but if you had people who really cared about you, then maybe we wouldn’t be so hurt or depressed. But we care, A LOT. That’s why it hurts so damn much. 

No one reaches out to you other than to pretend they care because of their selfish guilt. Instead, they all pity you or mock you behind your back for your shortcomings. They could elevate you so easily by riding alongside you and teaching you how to be strong but instead they all play games with your life because they are shitty humans at best with no true love inside them so drain your emotions and your love hoping to get a benefit from it.

There is always an condition on their love and it’s selfish, yet we give our love unconditionally - to everyone. We give chances and we get hurt. They say we have to learn to hate so we can guard our hearts and our minds. But i don’t know how to hate. Spit in my face and i’ll be hurt but i want to work harder to gain more of your love.

We can’t take anymore of your attacks. You live to hate and take. We choose to hurt but have my own definition of integrity, and that is to honor thy fellow human as their life is as sacred as yours. If we are all of the same essence why do you treat others so poorly?

They never reach out and ask about your insides. They wrap their shallow conversation around their “ask”. They wrap their, “How are you” and “how is your day” around the real “Can i get your TV?” But we smile and appreciate and even somehow grow to love your shallow wrappers. 

I was told by what i considered a good friend who claims to live by the word of God, that “evil people give because it makes them feel better”. I smiled. But at that moment i realized that this human, in one sentence, has invoked so much. Everything i have done for them or anyone was now written off as evil and selfish JUST so that they can feel better about not doing anything for me. 

Who said this world was inherently good was very wrong. All humans fallback to selfishness and if i was to label that, it would be considered evil. Selfishness stops the growth of the living and the building of greatness. I learned from tiny ant colonies, how selfless they operate for the sake of their colony. We make accommodations for everyone but we are scared to ask for accommodations because we are bruised, hurt, and have no confidence. 

Is this our life? Are we chosen to hurt and be put down? Are we not part of your colony on this planet so that you may elevate us alongside with you so that we can use our strengths and talents to help your own weaknesses? 

Where you lack with love, i will fill.
Where you lack with empathy, i will show you feelings.
Where you lack with sensitivity, i will touch your heart.
Where you show selfishness, i will replenish.
Where you hate another, i will show you unconditional respect and understanding.

I am not God, Jesus, Buddha, or any deity but i can accomplish those things as the mere pathetic human i am, only if you allow it.

Help me thru my darkness so that i can shine a new perspective of light into our world.