Let me start off by saying my life used to be very crazy before i met my current husband.Over the past 2 years i have had to mentally had change many things in my life ever since i got married and i don't think i was ever ready for it. 

I went through a very abusive relationship for 5 years then had a money stealing "open" relationship for 4 years. During most of my second relationship, i was very promiscuous, and i had fun being in a relationship that basically had no rules to tie me down. I could sleep with whoever i wanted  and lived my life however i wanted without no type of judgement. I could control how i wanted it to be but after all the sleeping around, i kinda realized i wanted a child of my own. 

After having a big mental breakdown, (that led to a suicide attempt), I magically met my husband and he has always pretty much done everything for me. (He is in the Marines).He got me out of debt, we moved away to another state and we pretty much just started a whole new life together. I started seeing therapists, started working on how not to be a pervert, been on &amp; off meditations and trying lead a "normal" life but lately i have just been feeling hopeless for no reason.We had a few fights about how i'm not the "crazy sexual person i used to be" and i feel like he expected me to continue to be the person i was during the hyper sexual lifestyle.Its so hard to tell a person that your view on sex has changed but he was a 18 year old virgin when it met him. 

One of the biggest habits i have is comparing myself to him, even though i am 6 years older then him and i have alot more life experience. I have gone through 3 jobs ever since we moved to the new state and i keep feeling like a major failure. 

Is there some reason as to why i'm not the super confident person anymore? is it because i'm married now?