All my relationships have something in common: I'm always the one who loves more. I think I'm BFF with someone until I realize that they don't really care about me. 

It's confusing because these "friends" always confide in me but they never want to do the same for me. And I hate myself because even though they never help me, I always help them. And I always put myself second because I tell myself that *this time* will be the one. That if I help them they *will* care for me as much as I care for them. I'm never able to have a reciprocal relationship and I hate myself for it. 

DAE is the same?