TW: suicide

I’ve hit a rough patch lately and fallen into a depressive episode. Things aren’t going well in my life at all. Every single day this week I’ve stayed awake and contemplated ending my life.

Right now, I’m watching some beautiful pink clouds in the sky and thinking, “why not wait it out?” Being alive is pretty fucking painful and difficult. That doesn’t mean it always will be. Maybe it’ll get worse but maybe it’ll get better. If nothing else I’m curious and that’s enough to stick around and see what happens.

I hope everyone out there who’s struggling is willing to wait with me. Wait for the storm to pass, wait for some pretty pink clouds to float by and remind you that there’s more to life than pain even when you can’t fathom it. Maybe it’ll take months or years but one day I truly believe we’ll feel alright. Maybe not happy but at least alright. Why not wait?

If any of you are struggling I’m here to listen. ❤️