Most of you have issues trusting others, now imagine if you can't even trust yourself. Even though I doubt it, I hope one of you might have experience with this the same way I do.

I got bpd with an split personality. From my perspective this means my conscious and subconscious mind have there own will. I can basically never feel any emotions except emptyness. I guess cause I repress all my emotions. So I don't notice when I'm mad or sad etc.
My feelings build up so much in my life that my subconscious expresses them without me noticing. At first I might look mad without noticing. 

But now my subconscious can keep entire conversations with people without me finding out. When I talk to a person I say sentences with a double meaning. I'm just trying to use the literal one without even knowing that it could be interpreted in a different way. It happens quite often that the other can actually hold a conversation with my subconscious without me noticing. 

I would never be able to hold two conversations at the Same time with the same sentences, but still somehow I do it regularly.