Two years ago, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. This is when it all began. I kept waking at night with panic attacks, i kept having panic attacks out of nowhere, i feared everything. Now, 6 months since my mother has passed there is not even one single day i wont have a massive panic attack. I wake up at 6am just because of anxiety. My chest hurts, i cant eat, im panicky non stop. My mother died of a heart attack, and each timei feel my chest hurt or anything.. i get another panic attack because i think im having a heart attack as well, and then her last minutes come into mind and its just a vicious cycle. 

Its just like living with a monster. The gp has given me antidepressants but they dont help at all.. Here they dont give xanax and all of these. I am in therapy also since last year, but nothing. I dont know what else to do to ease my anxiety. I feel it will never ease.