My boyfriend lives with his family and I live alone. We are both adults (21) though. I am currently having the worst episode of my life and I can’t even get out of bed. I want to call him to ask for help but I feel guilty that I am invading his time with his family

My family can’t make it, my friend can’t make it and I am alone. I can’t do this alone I need help but the guilt and shame is eating me alive