Every day feels like an emotional rollercoaster and I feel so clueless with what I want in life. I am so fucking tired and sometimes I really just want to throw myself off a bridge. It’s hard. I’ve tried doing so many things and yes, I’ve made progress, but I still feel so fucking lost. 

I hate feeling this sad randomly too. My meds are making me act so weird all the time but I would be an anxious wreck and just so much worse overall without them. I hate myself, I hate feeling sad, I hate my life, I FUCKING HATE ALL OF THIS. I am so done right now. I honestly hope things get better.