I have been feeling really out of touch with myself recently there’s not a calm version of myself. I’m so overwhelmed I know I’m distancing myself from my wife and that’s wrong because we just had a beautiful baby girl and I can’t help but not feel that enjoyment and it’s the most beautiful time I’m only 23 and I have 2 beautiful babies my wife is so understanding and sweet yet I feel as if she’s under appreciated money isn’t an issue time isn’t but I can’t help but feel like I don’t exist outside of all the heat of hate or sadness I love my family so much and my friends but it’s hard to feel the love that I want when I don’t know what it is.

 (I’ve been in this cycle for 5 months) 

I’m completely medicated, exercise , financially stable , I write poetry.
 Nothing seems to work