I finished school around 3 months ago, and I decided to go to therapy after I finished to get it under control. I only have therapy once a week, so the rest of the time I have free time. My dream is to someday work in motorsports as a mechanic, and I want to pursue that dream as soon as possible. But because of my anxiety I'm not able to apply for anything because I'm too anxious.

When I meet up with friends and they ask "When do you guys have time?" I say "Basically every day haha" and she says something like "Yeah, unlike you, some people go to work and do something". And that makes me feel like my anxiety isn't valid. My other friends, except her, don't know that I go to therapy. So it's also awkward for me in that way. Because I always have to say "Yeah, nothing" to the question what I'm currently doing. I would like to just say "Yeah, sorry, I have to go to therapy" but I don't feel comfortable enough to let my other friends know, and I don't want that they treat me different.

She just brings me in those helpless situations in which I don't know what to do or say. Because she knows EXACTLY why I don't do anything or rather why I can't. And she knows that I go to therapy. So is it really necessary to invalidate my feelings? To make those comments? To put me in those situations?

I feel like she isn't taking it serious enough. And she makes me feel that it's not that bad and that I shouldn't be making such a fuss about it. I start doubting myself and feeling guilty for not doing anything. Even tho I go to therapy and try to work on myself. I mean, it's even my own goal to get over it as soon as possible, because I really wanna work towards my dream.


Sorry if my english is a bit.. gibberish or sounds weird, just wanted to get my thoughts out.