In other posts I've been mentioning a wonderful gal I've been talking to. We talk near constantly because we are both clingy. Sometimes I force myself to take time away from contacting her just so I can be less dependent. It works then cause I know she's there.

But today was different. I knew she had spent the last night staying up for its entirety working on a project. I told myself that she would say hi to me when she woke up. And yet I still found myself falling into a paralysis. I wrote down a bloody list of errands I needed to do for the day and I haven't scraped it at all. I just sat at my computer shaking, wondering when I'd see that notification from her.

When she finally spoke to me I broke down crying since I was so happy to have her back in my life. The entire day I knew she was into me and had a valid excuse for not being around but I just couldn't accept it. It was like she was gone forever and I'm still unable to stop fidgeting.