When im sober i dont talk much, i dont want to interact with anyone, my whole energy is different. 

I drink since my 18 birthday and i am 28 now. 

Last few years did a lot of parties and drinking mixed with drugs. 

And in some time i did benzos for the comedowns because it was unbearable at times.

So life sober feels like everything is gray and nothing really gives me pleasure or joy anymore for the most of the time. 

I dont talk too much anymore and my talk is very slow and emotionless.

What can i do to heal my soul and brain again?