As crazy as it sounds, I just don't know how I look. In the mirror I think I look fine. On camera if I'm using the face camera I also look completely fine. But when i use the back camera I don't recognize myself.  It's like my face changes completely. The worst of the worst comes out. This fucks me up because I just want to know how I actually look like so I could just accept it. But how can I accept something that I'm not sure of. Is this a mental illness? And if so how the hell do you cure this. If I look normal in the mirror, look bad on camera, then how the fuck do I look in person.