With how lonely &amp; isolating this pandemic has been, not to mention a rocky relationship with my boyfriend, I found myself drifting towards my old methods of coping. Projecting my weird feelings &amp; fantasies onto a random person. 

I feel guilty doing this, especially because I have a boyfriend like I mentioned above. I would never act upon these thoughts, but having them in general makes me feel scummy. 

But lately, I found that instead of this person being this over romanticized fictional person, I think of them doing/saying something awful or something completely off putting. It helps squash whatever was budding inside. Maybe this will help someone else who struggles with similar experiences.