I got everything planned. It was gonna kill myself on sunday. And my parents decided to cancel their trip on that day. WHY. . .. 

I am so done with life. I am fed up with everything. And now that I've done even more research I know there is a chance something will go wrong, I will survive and they will find me, which is TERRIBLE. THERE IS NO WAY I AM GONNA TALK TO THEM IF I SURVIVE. 

Why can't I be done with this absolutely useless schooling system and move out on my own and just kill myself. Like I HAVE NECESSARY SKILLS JUST LET ME WORK AND GET OUT OF MY LIFE, but nooo I need some paper saying that I wasted last 4 years of my life learning NOTHING. And I can't drop out and go work in some other profession just to get myself a room somewhere to end myself cause if I survive I will be stuck with that profession. I give up, I am angry. LET. ME. DIE.