I was at a gathering tonight and everyone was chatting; I got a bit upset about a sensitive topic that was being discussed, so I casually excused myself from the room (or so I thought) so I could have a moment to gather my thoughts. Turns out, after speaking with my boyfriend, that everyone apparently is under the impression that I ‘stormed’ out and there was an entire conversation as to my reasons for walking out. Another person messaged me while I was outside to apologise for upsetting me; I did let them know that it wasn’t their fault and explained why I walked out. I ended up staying silent for the rest of the evening as I was too embarrassed to talk to anyone. 

I just don’t understand how I can perceive things one way, yet everyone else sees something totally different.  I don’t even know if I would feel comfortable going to the next gathering (these are biweekly events) because I feel like everyone will look at me differently now. It’s really the only social activity I do, so I feel like I would be isolating myself if I stop going. Ugh! 