I ghosted my last place of employment nearly three months ago and since then, I’ve nearly run out of almost all my savings, i got a new car (bc the hood flew up &amp; smashed my windshield), fallen back into anorexic habits, and depression has skyrocketed. I have little to no motivation and the only thing that’s gotten me to at least apply places is the fact i have bills (gas, smoke, food, and regular bills) &amp; I gotta have some income if i’m gonna be spending. last year when i was in college, where i didn’t have a roommate, couldn’t go to my classes, couldn’t come home bc my car sucked, afford literally anything bc my job didn’t pay me, it made me realize that there are so many people on this planet struggling how can anyone really help you? made me super suicidal and i’m at that point again and i know it starts w me but fuck. one thing on top of another that should be motivating me is pushing me further into this black hole