My girlfriend means the whole world to me and I basically left everything else in the dust, which I know is an unhealthy thing to do. 

Last month she told me that she couldn’t currently be with me because she needs counselling badly due to some personal matters unrelated to me, I understand it fully and we promised to get back together when she’s better, but only now have I realised how much my own personal well-being and happiness was dependent on her being with me.

I’ve been so broken and anxious that she will leave me for good for over a month now and sometimes wish someone would just shoot me in the head. I know it sounds a bit pathetic but, I honestly don’t know how much longer I can go on like this without her... 😭

DAE here relate to this at all? No one will probably read this but I had to get this off my chest somewhere.