yeah hi i’m depressed lmao

i think i finally understand why i was acting the way i did. i’ve seen it before. when i was losing interest in my first boyfriend i was getting irritable, picking fights, being unpleasant. when i was losing interest in my third boyfriend the same thing, we fought like an old drunk married couple. 

it’s a pattern, at the time i don’t understand why i’m doing that, i can’t figure it out and i can’t stop and when it’s over i’m like “Oh i just wasn’t happy.” it’s not good and my feelings of love are so fleeting, i really hate that about myself.