First of all; not a native English speaker here.

I've been through months of therapy and through these months it kept feeling like my therapists weren't trying to help me at all. It feels like they were just pretending to help and getting payed while doing so. I've had countless fights with them and now I've filed a complaint against them, and haven't got any alternative. 

I'm too scared to meet any new therapists or help, especially after my GP whom I told this exact story accused me of being psychotic (which I'm pretty certain of I'm not. I don't see things that aren't there or hear messages meant for me or any other symptoms other than the depression) which caused one of the biggest panic attacks I've ever had and really put me in this position. Now when I even think about getting help I start sweating and panicking.

What should I do now..? I don't know who to trust in mental assistance and I'm too scared to take the risk of meeting more helpers that just don't care