My job sucks, but I'm uneducated and too broke to afford an education, so I'm just forever broke. I would go back to school in a heartbeat if it was an option. I live with my girlfriend of almost 3 years and if I could afford to move out of this tiny apartment, I would've broken up with her months ago. She makes double what I do and a break up would cost me thousands of dollars that I don't have. Even if I could physically move my belongings, I can't afford rent on my own anywhere within 300 miles of where I'm at, despite working 50-60 hours a week

We don't have any common interests besides smoking weed and when I try to take time to dive into my hobbies she complains that I'm not spending enough time with her even though all we ever do is spend time with each other. If I had it my way, I would get home from work every day and spend every moment indulging in my hobbies until I feel asleep without encountering another person, but I don't fucking get time to myself

I moved 100 miles from everything I ever knew to be closer to the city for her work and I hate it down here. I've lost touch with all my friends and family because of this relationship. The only time I can stand it here is when I'm drunk

I could probably move back in with my parents but they have some hoarder-ish tendencies and I couldn't live in that environment

I lost 150lbs four years ago and gained most of it back from all the stress and sadness and apathy. My life is a slog and at this point I feel like I'm just waiting to die, slowly trudging along in a world that can't see me. I'm a ghost, I barely exist