myself I have asperger, and something interesting happened. on a language app, some girl messaged me in 2017. she hates her family, she wants to live in Netherlands and marry me, sleep with me etc. I fall for her and say sure why not, youre cute. in her page she always posts negative stuff and many men try to calm her down. recently, she was supposed to stay at a guys house she met online, but when she arrived at the airport she got blocked. she then sent me a message help me i am at the airport and i cant speak English (we speak in Japanese)
i am homeless and live in a office without a shower so i have to go to the gym and travel 1.5 hours to see her. before i arrive she says another man brought her to his house and she stays there. the man contacts me. after 2 days i meet her. ice cold personality. but she is cute, and she feels close to me, like... when adults and children are in the same room and the x
children play in the playground, the children focus on the playground and are outsiders (?) to the adults. she felt very close to me so i fell deeply in love. she got kicked out and i reserved her hostel. in the beginning shed spam me messages and call me constantly saying come and see me please. i live far so i can only come every 2 days. when i saw her i was sooooo happy i laughed. when i am on my way and almost arrive i dance literally like yay im going to meet this girl yay yay yay i love you. we are both so similar, i have cptsd, derealization and aspergers and she has bpd, both of us swallow painkillers and complain of pain etc its soothing to have someone next to you who understands pain. anyway i pay all her food etc but she never thanks me.one night i suffer from insomnia and she cries she is lonely come to hostel etc. suddenly she stops talking to me and i see pics of other places she has been, she says dont come. she met another guy and prefers him. i cry and we finally manage to date another time.when i buy her a nice thing she becomes angry, even though she herself said buy this for me. last day i wanted to send her off to the airport because i wanted to break the ice and kiss and hug her. but another guy will be coming so bye she said. i had pain and insomnia, but next day after sleeping 0 hours i had cold showers and many supplements to power up myself and went to the airport. messages came she called me that the guy doesnt show up, help me. so i was happy and went to see her. in the bus i constantly looked at her i was so happy god god god so happy! then she sat next to me before check in i gave her a kiss on her cheek. i wanted to hug her and give her a series of kisses, it would be the final one anyway but she went the toilet to wipe her phone screen and i cried in the meantime. she left 

after that she completely ignored me so i posted text blogs about how much i love her on the language app. every day long texts with fantasy dreams (if i met her i would like to do this with her) every day i sent her i love you messages, i had drawn her face but she completely ignored me. 
so i could see who liked her posts and started to text them. they were very jealous men and said she never talked about me. the girl looked at my page and replied by messaging me "delete everything" "stalker" "die you motherfucker" "you are a criminal" and then blocked me on one side (she is still keeping an eye on me) i kept spamming i love you for 2 days while she was breaking down. on her page she was writing negative comments etc. i am in pain and I want to forget her but... i never fell in love so deeply.