I just wanted to say some random thoughts to keep me coming down. So when I have anxiety, my throat randomly starts getting really tense. Idk why this happens but it really freaks me out. I have a huge fear of being sick so when I feel nauseous, I go into full panic mode. It doesn’t happen all the time but right now it absolutely is. This is definitely the biggest one I’ve had all year and I’m just hoping that I’m ok. My girlfriend is a huge supportive model for me. She goes to the moon and back for me when I have my panic attacks. It doesn’t happen often but when I get panic attacks, I feel like I can’t move because if i move, I feel like I’m gonna die or something terrible is going to happen to me. 

One thing I’ve noticed what helps with my anxiety is using a cup of ice. I need to cool my body temperature down anyway because of my violent shaking and this cold feeling of an ice cube on my chest or neck feels amazing. It’s a very small break from the carnage but it does feel like it makes a huge difference. I feel like every time I get anxiety, I start feeling nauseous and every time I feel nauseous I get anxiety. I wish I could fix this but I genuinely have no idea how.