I was involved in a terror attack but I dont wanna talk about that.

I got diagnosed with PTSD 2 months ago. In the last few weeks it got so bad that I‘m seeing creatures running at me (Hallucinations). I‘m having strong nerve issues. Sometimes I hear voices or my hand moves by itself (My fingers are making circles). I cant control it or stop it from moving. I started taking my grandma’s sleep-medication to sleep properly. This shit fucked my mind up even more. I‘m suffering from: Strong nerve problems, anxiety, sweating &amp; hallucinations, hearing a voice, and nightmares about getting raped and killed with acid. 

I just need help and yeahh...

(And I‘m a 14 year old boy from Europe) 
My dad got shot, my mom Hang herself.

have a great day &lt;3