For reference, I have Quiet BPD. 

Sometimes I feel like an imposter when I come down for my episodes. That there’s nothing actually wrong with me &amp; I use it as an excuse for all my laziness, lack of motivation, &amp; shitty behavior. 

Because when I first come down &amp; start to feel “normal” again, I feel happy &amp; all is right in the world. I feel like my mood swings, my depression, &amp; suicidal ideation was all a lie. 

How annoying.