
I’m in my 20s and pay for everything. No help from no one. No bf to help me. No parents. No family. Just like all my friends have. I pay everything outta pocket. I work my ass off for my car payment, car insurance, phone bill, utilities, and rent. I feel so overwhelmed I already work 50+ hours a week, and even feel like I have to find a 2nd job. But at the same time how do I even manage attending college too, so I could find a better job possibly nursing field since that’s all I could really get a job outta here in town. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born or just end my life because it’s so mother fucking stressful and I cant even do the things I want to do like traveling, Hiking, losing weight, etc. life really sucks atm, FUCK. And yes I could maybe find a different good paying job without a college degree but I’m scared of doing so and not getting the hours that would get me to have the same pay check I already have or more. My dad sucks he doesn’t care about any of us. And my mom already has 3 little boys to look after I won’t tell her my issues. And she Barley has money so I to even sometimes help her. FUCK I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. I also can’t afford medication for my bpd and depression. Like fuck life yo!