i have a tendency to use people but i feel like i don’t do it intentionally. this is me towards my one best friend for example. i keep to myself when i’m moody and tired (so almost everyday unless i’m having some boy around for a night for a cuddle and some 🍆) so i don’t bother anyone, but i’d reach out now and then if i need actual help like something about enrolling in uni for example. when i feel a bit happier i also keep to myself but i also hang out and talk more with my flatmates. then maybe i’d disappear again and then when i feel great once in a blue moon i reach out and try to make plans. then she’d tell me i only reach out when i need something, which is true. i can’t even deny it. i’ve also cut off a whole friend group when my bpd symptoms got bad again, because i didn’t believe they could handle me, giving them zero credit because we were inseparable before then. i fucking hate this illness