I need to know how to not stop breathing. I know it’s caused by anxiety, extreme extreme anxiety. I tend to get sleepy When it hits me that hard. And then when I start to fall asleep that wen it happens. I think it’s my mind telling me something. 
I wake up gasping for air so far.. is 
This is normal. I don’t know what normal is I don’t know anything else anything else I want to unfamiliar with the pain it’s been constant for over 40 years. It  died down for a few years but as of recently came back with an intensity. Sometimes it puts me in a daze. The pain it’s So familiar it’s almost comforting. Also who is in his been with me all these years maybe I don’t miss maybe I don’t want to fight it I’ll just embrace it  it loves me