All my irl friends suck and I'm fed up of pretending they don't. I wish I could just leave everyone, they won't care if I died, heck, no one would. I'm just an user to most people, no one respects me. 
I was a sexual object for my abuser, I'm an art machine for my followers and I'm just a convenience for my friends or a toy that they can break for fun. 
I'm never a person, I have never been one. I wish I could just kill myself.