I’ve been in a very toxic and abusive relationship for the last 4 years, very on and off, he has cheated on me a few times. But I just can’t leave. Despite the fact that being in the relationship pretty much just hurts me. I barely ever feel happiness in it, it’s always sadness or anger or disappointment. Rationally there’s no benefits to being in it. But it makes me feel like I belong somewhere. And when I’m alone I feel so damn empty. I wish I could move on and not be so self destructive. I even moved 300 miles away for uni thinking it would help me distance myself, but now I’m just driving up and down like a maniac and spending £100s on petrol. Anyone got any tips on coping with being alone?