The unstable pendulum of moods even while on medications is supremely damaging to friendships. I have offended many people and destroyed long-term friendships as a result of my mania and then isolating depressive episodes.

There are some days I wake up and wipe half of my phone contacts/social media friends lists because I decide at that very moment that I no longer want this person/group of people in my life anymore. Then, whenever I am not feeling the way that I am when this happened, I am ashamed and confused.

I canceled all of my appointments today because I need a day to reflect. I half feel like it is good to take a mental health day and be kind to myself, and half feel like I am engaging in avoiding behaviors.

I hope all of my bipolar brothers and sisters are hanging in there.