Probably a dumb question but I’m scared:

Is this a real thing or am I just a spaz?

Background Info: 21, M, Depression/ Anxiety( Diagnosed 3-4 years ago, quit SSRIs about 2 months ago, restarted 2 weeks ago) Both mom and stepdad are loving and also have bad anxiety unless on meds. 

DONT KNOW REAL DADS FAMILY HISTORY, DONT EVEN KNOW HIS NAME


Is it possible for weed to activate psychosis? 
My symptoms seem like it: Sometimes feel things in life aren’t real, feel like I lost my identity sometimes, sometimes paranoia, terrible morning anxiety some days, usually before work), bad short term memory, sometimes feel like I don’t remember my thoughts when I get really nervous about my mental health) I’ve had nights I’ve smoked and felt out of my body, but I know that was just cause of the weed. For the last like month I can’t think about anything except my mental condition.

Once I get home my anxiousness goes away but I go right back to thinking about smoking. I didn’t take a break for a single day for about 6-7 months… Smoke only dab carts, 2-3 hits a night. Only smoked once 2 days ago after 2 week break.

I spend most of my day googling ways to get over different symptoms: derealization, psychosis, BPD, DID, Skitzophrenia, Bipolar. 

My mine constantly wanders and I think I have a new mental problem every hour. Right now I’m decently calm, and I don’t think I have psychosis but eventually my mind starts to wander and I think I have a new mental condition. Please tell me someone else has experienced this. I want to smoke now just to get my mind off this shit..

SHOULD I STOP SMOKING?