Losing. My. Shit.

Posted earlier this week about my friend deciding to end our friendship. Well, we talked for a couple days after and it didn't really seem like we were going to be completely out of each others lives. Just less involved. 

Until he just stopped answering. The first day I thought something had happened and freaked out and cried and worried all day. I thought there had been an accident or something. 

The next day my mom asked if he was ok for me (I started to figure out he might be ignoring me). And he answered her right away.

It's been 4 days. Lots of calls and texts and Facebook messages and he still won't answer. I know I should chill, but I hope you guys know how hard that is... I mean, I talked to him EVERY SINGLE DAY for three years, and now this.

I don't even know how to handle this. This is the third person I've let myself get close to in my life, and now the third person to just suddenly drop all contact with me. To make it worse, he knows about the other times and swore to me he'd never do that.

I feel like such a piece of unwanted trash. I've been doing my DBT stuff, but it's damn hard to not let it get to me. I can't see why everyone that gets to know me eventually has to run and hide and get away..