I got major surgery around two weeks ago. I’ve been feeling amazing. No pain, pretty good mental state, and overall really good mood. At first I thought I’d feel awful and I would go into a depressive episode, but I didn’t. This week started and I felt awful. I feel numb and I feel alone. I’ve been sleeping around 15 hours a day and barely eating. I can’t move much, therefore I can’t do much. Every time I shower I want to just give up and I just stay there for 10 minutes zoning out. I’m just so tired and I want to cry. My OCD has been really good but my mood is just not the best. I started taking lexapro for my OCD and it’s been working great; I usually get intrusive thoughts and really gory dark dreams because of it and the lexapro manages it. But ever since I got surgery my dreams are back. Every dream I have is a horror movie so my mind is always in distress. The only reason why I sleep is because of the pain I have both physically and mentally. I just want it to stop.