In high school, I would have near panic attacks almost every day from anxiety. My senior year I missed 60 days of class and only graduated because I was at a private school. It took me around 5 years to make it to my senior year of college. I would completely fail one semester from not going to class or taking exams, get put on academic probation, then get the bare minimum the next semester to get off academic probation only to be put back on it the next semester.

I'm now in my senior year of college and this is my last year of having my tuition covered before I am out on my own. I've moved far beyond anxiety and now it is a lack of motivation that not even the fear of being homeless can move. At first I thought it was an issue getting out of bed, but I started using an alarm across my apartment to force me to walk around to turn it off so I would not snooze past class time. Now I am skipping class even waking up 2 hours in advance because just getting dressed and driving the 2 minutes it takes to get to campus seems like an unbeatable obstacle. It feels like my energy for just living was depleted long ago and I just can't do it anymore.

Have any of you gotten over this at any point with school or work? I'm at a loss and really want to be the kind of person that goes to class every day. I just don't really know how.