So I’m feeling really sad. When I was 28 I had a nervous breakdown. It caused devastating anxiety, depression, and took my OCD to a level 10. I dealt with that for 9 months until a doctor realized the medication I had been on for an autoimmune disease was causing my problems. Apparently, I didn’t actually have any disease and I was taking it for no reason. Anyway after a year I had recovered like 80% and every month I continued to get better. I’m going to be 31 soon and my anxiety is up and down but I haven’t felt super out of control in over a year, until recently. I was actually feeling mostly good accept I felt winded a lot. I was thinking it must be allergies because mentally I felt pretty okay.(I believe I’m allergic to the family pet) Anyway something set off my anxiety and I was having a pretty bad OCD episode where my mind wouldn’t let it go. Now it’s been over a week and I keep mildly hyperventilating in my sleep and having anxiety in my chest. It repeatedly wakes me up after I get a few solid hours of sleep in and I just feel absolutely defeated. Im trying to take it easy to recover. I might go back to therapy, but mentally I feel okay, my body seems to be doing it’s own thing. I can’t even tell if the breathing thing is purely anxiety or not. I just don’t know what to do anymore, I thought I was past this.