Sorry for any cuss words that may be said during this.

Recently, I have been getting these strange experiences. I'm not really sure how to explain them other than I see things normally but sometimes they seem to real. Like walking into a classroom and seeing your friends talking. Then I get this intense feeling in my brain that it's very real. Like, extremely real. It almost hurts. Another way to describe it is like sensory overload I guess. I'm not sure if I have that but I know I have anxiety. I haven't been to any doctors because my parents would say "No, you're fine." It's just your phone doing that." Whenever I have these 'attacks' I feel so scared and vulnerable and it fucking hurts to feel like this. I don't want this. I just want to live a normal life. A life where I don't have to deal with this stuff. 

Anyways, I get it quite frequently. Sometimes daily. Sometimes twice a day. Sometimes twice a week. I don't know what causes it but it just happens. I'm not even sure if it links with my anxiety. Maybe it's a social thing? I don't know. Maybe it's just in my head and I just need help. It sometimes happens and I don't even realise it until I do. But the other times when I do realise it, I get panicked and start crying and I'm currently sat here at 6 am typing this out because I forget any other time and my sleep schedule is fucked.

I just need your advice on what to do.