I just got to work, anticipating on a 10-hour workday today, and I'm already over everything. I work at a non-profit, and most of the time I love the fact that I help people in my day-to-day life, but today I could care less about anyone or anything. I'm dreading the fact that I have to muster up the emotional labor to care for my clients and give a shit about my work. My chest and body feel heavy and my mind is fuzzy, I feel myself slipping into a dissociative state, and I'm not even sure if I want to take measures to dig myself out of it. I hate this feeling -- it reminds me of how I was before medications. I'm wondering if I should try and take a half day either today or tomorrow...