I just want to completely cut off all my friends and distance myself from everyone. I already started by completely ignoring almost everyone who I’m friends with and deleting my Instagram to further distance myself from people. I know this is self sabotaging for me because later in the future I’ll be more upset about being alone and having the no friends. However, I feel like I’m doing this as a way to protect myself against them, I feel like my friends aren’t really my friends. Often when I talk to them or hang out with them I feel as if it’s very draining or I feel left out. Another reason is that I truly envy my friends. I feel like they’re able to have stable relationships with other people and be likeable people, and I’m not able to have or be any of those things, I also feel like they’re trying to hurt me on purpose by constantly doing little things. Things will be going alright through out the friendship until these feelings come along. I’m conflicted with how I feel about having friends. I can never be happy for them or support them I’m always envying them or constantly being worried that they’re going to do something to me. does anyone else feel like this? If so can you please share some advice? I genuinely feel like I’m a horrible person and a horrible person to be friends with.