I think my mental health is ruining my marriage. I have depression, anxiety and was diagnosed bipolar recently. I don’t even know where to start, my husband and I have been together for over 10 years when we’re younger we partied had so much fun. It was great, 6 years ago we had our 6 year boy, everything changed I don’t know if my hormones got all messed up but I started pushing him away. We’ve moved a couple of times because of his work, but every time we move I feel worse and worse…my meds sort of stopped working so I worked with my psych to try to get on better ones and feel better about things but it backfired I had a horrible reaction to the meds made all anxious and insecure, he has been playing in band for a while now so he’s always in group chats and always on the phone I got triggered because I saw him having a conversation with a women I’m sure it was innocent, but it started to make me feel even worse I ended up in the hospital(due to meds bad reaction) at the hospital I started taking better meds and they’ve worked so far but he has been super distant he’s always playing shows and practicing Halloween weekend he was gone, I had planned to go but started to feel anxious about sleeping at another persons house and the crowds at the shows so I decided not to go. He sent me pics of him having fun, it hurt my feelings, i feel as though we’re living separate lives and he is ok with it. He’s likes going out and drinking and hanging with friends I’m more of an introvert and I don’t drink. We’ve had conversations about the situation. The last few times we did go out he got so drunk I was uncomfortable and all his friends were drunk too it was not fun for me at all. I have been trying so hard to get better and be able to give my love to both my husband and child. all I really want is attention, reassurance and to have a normal family.he told me that he has found happiness in his music which I get due to my mental illness I haven’t been the most fun and I have pushed him away. But idk what to do. Last night we had a conversation but he was drunk so he was being condescending and acting like he didn’t understand what I was saying. He now joined a second band so I feel like the. Situation is only going to get worse. I wish my brain wasn’t broken I feel like it’s all my fault.