I just don’t care anymore. I hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate that I’m lazy, I hate that I’m a loser and most of all I hate that I’m selfish. It’s my mom s birthday tonight and all I could do was sulk. Why am I like this. I wanna make these feelings or lack of go away but I really just want to be gone myself along with it 

The thing I hate the most about this illness is that I have to hurt or bring down the ones who love me most