my best friend of 7 years posted on a reddit support page for bpd close friends yesterday about how he plans to to give up on our friendship. i saw this and immediately call him to find out, he’s 100% leaving me. He said our relationship was toxic because of me, pointed at every one of my flaws but never took in how he made me feel. i felt i was strung along for 7 years of my life. He’s definitely my Favorite Person, we had many problems with our relationship and how i controlled my emotions with him. i’m still in awe that it’s over. my whole body is in pain from the emotions, i don’t want to eat, bathe, brush or do anything for myself. i ruined the one relationship i cherish the most. I caused him so much suffering that he had to leave me.
I don’t know why i am making this post, maybe some of y’all have dealt with similar things and i’m just looking for guidance. my “BFF” is set to leave the state after this summer. i think i might do the same. i need a new life, a new me. he promised me he might be back in 5 years but i think fat chance, he was never good at promises. hopefully my life will feel normal again right?