My psychologist and psychiatrist told me they can’t help anymore and my psychiatrist told me today that bc the meds aren’t working I need to find a psychologist that specialises in asd and bpd bc usually people with bpd get help from the meds I’m on and so now I don’t have anyone to help me and I don’t know how to get any help and I’m just really struggling lol. I don’t feel 20 in my brain. I feel younger and ill equipped for this world. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I can’t work bc I’m fucked up and I feel like I’m just failing. I never asked to be born and now I’m thrown in this world with no skills and all of these expectations and Im just drowning. And Im terrified of death so I just have to stay here even tho I don’t want to and just fucking suffer.