I have been having a terrible time of late and since the pandemic my anxiety has gotten slightly more unpredictable and difficult to manage.

I feel content staying at home and sitting on my bed. I know I should get employed soon but when I do get called for an interview I start panicking and start thinking of ways to bomb it so that they reject me or I turn down the offer myself. I know I have imposter syndrome and low self-esteem but why am I sabotaging chances at earning a livelihood?