I've developed an anxiety disorder mostly from my job but I'll leave that alone I have had GAD and panic diagnosed by 3 therapists and I think 5 psychiatrists and medication helps me from acting on my urges to get the fuck out of wherever but I can't remember what calm or relaxed is. I been on every med you can think of but lithium the ones that helped the most have been Klonopin 1st, Mirtazapine, Adderall (weird but I have depression also and it was for that) Modafinil, some calcium channel blocker but hurt my head, Seroquel but I couldn't get out of bed. I hear people talk about anxiety and wonder if that is even what I have went years without going inside a store and before doordash would pay friends to get my food, I avoid everything because its always annoying for whoever I'm with to leave when I've reached the severity that I can't take and will leave with no ill feelings towards them but I'll walk home or intent to from places hours away by car. I seem to of gotten worse and people I believe are tired of dealing with me and I'm not one looking for attention that is the last thing I want at all. Is it a delusion of anxiety or something? I have never been manic and have no psychosis and I think its worse being aware of what is going on