Trying to get sober from alcohol and pills/coke but since my diagnosis it feels completely and utterly pointless. I also got diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder. I have a history of eating disorders, ocd and agoraphobia and am still dependent on family to handle my money and pay my bills. Now it seems like this is gonna be my life forever and there’s no real point in staying sober. Sorta like life is gonna be miserable and crushing regardless of whether I drink or not so it feels like I’m depriving myself of the only thing that made me feel good for a while. Really holding on by a thread here.