And so on and so forth. I work late afternoon shifts so I feel like I'm just anxious and paralyzed for work to start and can't do anything functional beforehand. Then I hate driving in the car to work because of anxiety and then once I get there it's not so bad but it's wild how this is literally my life. Fuuuck. As a bpd person I want more time to fuck around but I should be doing something productive with my down time I have but I feel so tired from working even though my job isn't hard, I just feel burnt out from talking to people and pretending to be happy and outgoing...