Every time i think its finally going uphill, it gets worse again... if something makes me happy it gets taken away or i ruin it for myself, i overthink a lot so i never feel quite comfortable.
I literally have noone to talk about it, everyone i told writes it of as a joke or doesnt care after a while.
The last week Was pretty good actually but now it feels like i am falling even deeper into a whole,
I have diffeculty getting out of bed, following basic Hygiene, i slack off whith my workout Routine wich i startet to make it better.
I just dont know what to do, suicide isnt an option bcs i just am to afraid something will go wrong.
I just feel worthless every day and feel like just me being around makes life worse for a lot of people...