Hi, i am 29 yeara old and had a really hard life. In my childhood I never felt safe and grew up in a very chaotic household. We had money issues, eveything was so uncertain I had to care about things a kid shouldnt have to care, it was realy stressful. I never had my own room. I never could make friends because i was really quite and shy. In the higher classes i experienced mobbing etc. Somehow I made it this far. But due to my life I have really worse anxiety. I cannot communicate with people which causes me a lot of trouble at work. I just cant open my mouth and talk with people. I am just stuck in the past. I dont have any motivation to do something I always lay in my bed if I am not working and absolutely do nothing. 
Did anybody had to go through of something similar and has some advice for me?