I’ve (23F) grown more and more into anxiety as I’ve gotten older. My mother was a shit show as a parent, and I’m sure that’s where a lot of it comes from. She would panic just walking into Walmart 🙄 she pisses me off so much. I blame her for a lot of my issues now, but I try to help myself. I also have epilepsy, grand-mal seizures, I’ve recently gotten my medical card and I’m able to use it if I want or need to calm down and relax. But do I want to be like my mother? With a dependency issue? She’s an alcoholic. I used edibles for a while, and I’m also on anti-depressants/anxiety meds. I’ve recently gotten tired of using, I’ve been sober for a week and I feel better... until I don’t. Until I have a major panic attack due to sensory overload. I have a 2 year old son, he’s my whole world. I have two step kids, boys, and they’re 7&amp;5. I homeschool them now. Life is great, I’m given everything! I couldn’t ask for more. Buttttt, like I said, I’m okay until I’m not. Sensory overload is my main issue. What can I do. I feel aggressive and want to throw my head through a damn wall when I can’t hear myself think or when kids are too loud and don’t listen to me when I ask “go to your room and play for a minute.” I have to walk away and I just sit and cry and hate myself. It’s crazy, I’ve never felt this way before. I want to be a good mother, but I’m so damn anxious. That just deepens my thoughts and then I hate myself moooore. Idk what to do. My kids need me.