So yeah I’m the kind of person that will have literal panic attacks about very normal everyday things like flying, having an interview etc.
In a few days I’ll have a surgery - a very much needed one, which will increase the quality of my life. It’s a very common routine surgery, and I’ll be under anestesia. Now thing is, I thought I’m afraid of anestesia (or actually I’m afraid of not waking up after), but I seem to be surprisingly calm about the whole thing. Among my many other stupid things I’m a superstitious person, so my theory is: “ I’m always afraid about flying and I’ll never die so maybe when I’m not shaking every second of fear of the anestesia I’ll die” or something like that. Like this is a sign of something or dunno.
Please tell me something how not to go insane about constant anxiety…