I'm not sure if this is related to having BPD, but has anyone else experienced deep mourning years after something has happened?  My grandmother passed away 10 yrs ago and I never had a chance to say goodbye.  I've recently been looking at pictures of her and it just put me in a really dark place. She was like a second mother, a refuge from an emotionally distant mother. I didn't mourn at the time because I was emotionally numb, but now I cry everytime I think of her.  Has anyone else experienced this kind of grieving years after something happened?