 Hi everyone :)

I have really bad social anxiety and fear of rejection and I cannot stop thinking about one of my old friends and dont know what to do.

I met this friend in a reading club, we met several times  and it was really nice but still really challenging for me because she was a new person. she then moved to another city and wanted to  stay in touch, I agreed and we did. one time she visited my city again  and asked if we wanted to meet up while she is here, so I answered with  yes definitely and that I am free whenever. to which she never answered  again. that was 2 years ago. I was too unsettled and insecure to text  her again. I was afraid she didn\`t want to meet up after all and kept thinking if I should just text her or not and what I should write. but I was also wondering why she never texted again and I am just paralized in this state

last  week something reminded me of her again and I cannot stop thinking how dumb I  was to not just text again and ask if everything is ok with her and that maybe she was feeling the same or was feeling down. I feel incredibly guilty that I never texted again. Now I  feel like 2 years is too long and akward to just text and ask how she  has been plus I am really afraid of the rejection. But I really just  want to talk to her again and feel like I should try because I\`m sad this friendship ended like that

I feel really down and thought maybe others could relate or help with some advice

thanks for reading :)