I’m so tired. It makes me feel like shit. For as long as I can remember I’ve always felt less than others because I’m constantly criticized. When I lived with my mom she’d always say things like I’m lazy, why can’t I help her like my sister? She used to call me a devil child, disobedient, etc. I moved in with my aunt. She’s worse than my mom. She calls me selfish, lazy, tells me I have a horrible personality, I just expect people to do things for me, etc. I dated this man that I was madly in love with and it wasn’t long before he started calling me childish, and weak, and irritating, screaming at me all the time. It took me all my strength to leave him.  At jobs, I always feel picked on by the managers. The last one told me I was lazy, disrespectful, had no work ethic, etc. This job, Im doing well because I like it but I got really sad today because my manager told me I need to do better. My sister tells me Im a bitch and evil. It never ends. I always felt like I was a bad person and I broke down once to my therapist and she said are you kidding me? You’re so sweet and smart and funny. You’re amazing, don’t ever let anyone make you feel bad about yourself. It really felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders that not everybody hates me. I just want to know why people think Im so bad. I can’t be that bad. My self esteem is on the floor and I don’t want to try anymore.