I've taken countless meds for YEARS and it's nothing new to me, but recently I've been googling the side effects of Lamictal and Seroquel and god there are so many and I just spent 3 hours going through all these case studies like Seroquel can cause sudden death from heart arrythmia??? And lamictal causes memory loss? And a condition where your blood vessels individually burst? There are so many more I'm shakingggg lmfao I want to stop taking them!! And there are so many irreversible conditions you can get like Tardive dyskenesia. 
I'm absolutely terrified of slowly losing cognitive functioning, and I'm reading all these like threads of people who take these meds talking about their horrible experiences. They talk about how they are losing their ability to form coherent sentences, find the word they're thinking of and remembering names. And I didn't have a problem before reading it but now I'm convinced it's happening to me and I have irreversible brain damage from these pills. I keep thinking about it and now My brain feels foggy. I swear my doctors are just fucking me over for the money and I'm going to slowly lose functioning Until I can't do anything or think and I'm just a vegetable and die!!!! I'm reading how mania and depression and rapid cycling causes brain damage and how it makes you more disorganized and foggy and what the fuck. I'd rather be unmedicated than this shit