I texted my ex and he has me blocked also I’m drunk and I took ativan and I dm ed his old ig but idk if he will get it but I saw him in a dating app and I liked him but then his profile went away I know I should not have. Done it but I’m so lonely and I read our old messages today and I miss him so much he’s my fp and even tho he hates me and keeps me blocked I want to know if he’s ok I’m so mad bc I was doing so good but now I have fucked up bu messaging him and I’m so asheamed 