Whenever I have an issue or I "act out", I am told to cheer up or to stop being manipulative. I am not trying to be manipulative at all. It is also not easy to just cheer up.

I feel like I ruin peoples good moods sometimes. My parents always tell me to smile more and to act normal. I have Autism and suspected depression. My parents are supportive but sometimes they get tired. I feel like they dont understand sometimes. My siblings also dont understand. My brother once told me he was tired of me. He also has Autism. I also have issues with feeling anxious which manifests itself as feeling like people hate me. My parents always just tell me to stop feeling like that. It's not easy to stop feeling that way.