On mobile. Ive posted in here before about my friend.

A while ago she was annoyed that i had been distant with her and another friend. Ive been doing my best to not be distant, ive been active in the group chat. She stopped messaging the group chat, especially wjen I was sending messages. I gave it time to see if this would change and it didn't. Today i messaged to ask if we were okay. She said she really has nothing to say and she thinks weve grown apart and that in that time a lot has changed. I told her i love her and I that i hope it wasn't because of me. She just said that people sometimes drift. I understand this, but she really didnt give an explanation and i did my best to explain to her why i had been distant when she was annoyed about that. I coild see that the friendship was ending but its sad that she tried less than me at the end, even after sort of putting the blame on me for that. 

Ive had plans for nye for a while with my bf and friend and i found out today that shes going to the same place, there are other people that are supposed to be going and all the people going suggest that someone who i really dont want to see is going to be there. I'em really nervous for if she is there because shes the reason I've taken myself off social media and at work the other week her mum and grandma were in, the idea that she was possibly going to be there made me have a pani attack in the bathroom. Do i change my plans or just go and fingers crossed i don't see them?


This is sort of all over the place, sorry