TW: mention of dissociation &amp; suicidal ideation/thoughts
(just venting - feel free to react but please give no advice)
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so i got some new antidepressants and i'm pretty scared to start taking them since the previous ones made me dissociate so much. i experience mild to pretty severe (i guess? idk any amount kinda fucks me up tbh :'D) dissociation on a daily basis but when i took the first dose if the previous antidepressant it was super severe. and i'm honestly scared that this pill will do the same.
also the thing with it "getting worse before it gets better" also frightens me since i don't think i can really afford for it to "get worse" because as of right now i experience suicidal ideation pretty much every day and they're "just" thoughts now but if it really gets worse, idk how i'll be able to handle it. i think i WILL be able to handle it but it's not gonna be easy, that's for certain.