I (23M) me this girl (21F) three months ago and we instantly hit it off. Before her I was a virgin who hasn’t even so much as kissed a girl.

I’m very much in love with her and she has become my favourite person.

Unfortunately she had to return to her home country so she’s currently 400 miles away from me. We’re doing long distance.

My thoughts have really taken a turn for the worse and I keep thinking she could be cheating on me or leave me. She’s more comfortable sharing deep stuff over message and recently told me about her abusive ex and self destructive tendencies (doing hard drugs and having sex with lots of ‘weird’ dudes).

I feel so possessive of her, all I think about is her. The thought of her doing those things is overwhelming to me. Thinking about her with other dudes even though it was before she met me makes me suicidal.

It’s so immature for me to think like this I know.

Her ex was horrible and I really hate the guy. I keep thinking about what I’d want to do to the guy.

I’m not sure if I’m cut out for relationships. I feel like I’m too much and the way my feelings are going I think I’ll end up doing something crazy to ruin my life.

I love this girl so much. I feel like piece of shit because of the way I’m thinking.

Fuck I really hope I don’t piss people off here. I’m not an aggressive person and have never hurt anyone in my life. 

My therapist is on holiday for 2 weeks and have nobody else to talk to this about.