You know, it's very hard to explain to people how terrible it feels to be left without any explanation. It's so damaging, really. It leaves you with a horrible sense of guilt and shame and it makes you question everything you've ever done and everything you might do in the future. It's just so cruel.

Abandonment is a nightmare but silent disappearance is even worse. 
It makes you feel so used and lost. 

It keeps happening all over again and it has become my biggest fear. 
People i love tend to disappear and erase me and everything we had. 
Did i make it up? Did you really love me? Did i make it up? Were we friends?
Why didn't you explain? 
Why didn't you look back? 
What made you throw me away?