I tried taking an anti-depressing supplement called sam-e to help deal with a long, dark winter in a new city. Initially I felt amazing, energetic, full of joy and had a spontaneous way of dealing with life. 1 month in I got very anxious and mood swingy so I stopped. It’s been a week since I stopped and I don’t feel like myself, I feel hopeless, I worry and dread more than usual, and I am generally not positive or optimistic for more than a few hours. 

I’ve tried to get rid of the anxiety, I don’t even know if it was triggered by the supplement or if it’s a response to all the changes happening in my life. I moved to the city to start a new company and our investors backed out 8 months into the project, I now have to start over and my visa situation is dependant on my ability to create a new business.

It’s very stressful and I am living alone in a city after moving from a small town. I initially saw it as a fun challenge but now it’s like my body is more frightened and on survival mode. I wake up each morning hoping I’ll feel different; some days it works and other times I come back to this place. 

I also just started birth control and I’m extra sensitive to hormones so it could also be that. I’m getting my blood tested on Wednesday to make sure everything is okay. Could use some advice. ❤️