Hey,

I haven't felt this low in about five years, a time in my life when I was in and out of the psych ward as a kid.

I'm twenty now, and feel inpatient is the best decision for me both treatment and safety-wise.

I'm really scared about losing my rights, about not having my phone, and about not being able to possibly pursue my preferred career (EMT, requires a state license to practice).

I'll be taking all of this up with my therapist tomorrow but I'm looking for personal perspectives from individuals in similar situations. 

As a kid, I found inpatient to be rather enjoyable - like a break from home. But, I also grew up in an abusive house riddled with drugs and maggots. 

My therapist has been wanting me to go inpatient or at least PHP for months now.

So: is anyone willing to share their experience going inpatient as an adult?