Nothing feels good anymore, i try to read and go on walks and hang out w my friends but theres this deep emptiness inside me and I feel like a zombie doing all these things. Most of my life I have regretted not being able to do things because of this but now that i force myself it feels like so much energy is sucked out of me and Im doing it for no reason in particular except to not miss out but im still missing out cuz im not in the moment