I just had a full blown panick attack, at work, on my first day, while talking with the supervisor. I'm in healthcare and I'm training for a position at a good company. I felt prepared, I wasn't even that nervous.

I was on the verge of crying all day I d k why! She asked me if I knew something and I didn't know and she was saying all this stuff like these are things ypu have to know and you're not going to do well and that really stressed me out and I got tears in my eyes. She must have noticed because she apologized after. 

Later I went to go talk to her and she said something else that was something I didn't know and then I realized I did actually know and then she said I was being defensive (bc my tone?? Idk) and that set me off. I held it back as much as I could but then I cried and she was like sorry sorry and I said nonono and walked out.


 I tried to pull it together in the bathroom then came back. When I got back she apologized and kept saying like you have no reason to feel this way and I don't understand blah blah. At this time I started hyperventilating like I couldn't breathe and full on panic attack mode tears streaming down can't talk can't breathe and she's confused. I told her I'm having a panic attack and she says like ya I have those all the time have you eaten it happens when I don't eat and what is the reason why why why. Like that's not the same and it's clear you don't understand. 

I didn't know what to do I was just trying to calm down. I couldn't leave the room because there's people out there and this is so fucking humiliating. Then the other girls we were working with came in and then I had to find an excuse to get the fuck out of there. I'm sure she told them and everybody else probably fuck my entire fucking life fuck.