I'm just... so heartbroken. I applied for a job for the first time since my diagnosis. It's been 3 years since I've had a job. I was told "You're such an amazing candidate, you'll definitely get this" and God damn it. I believed them. I let myself hope. Let myself think of being able to finally move out on my own. Finally be myself. 

And then I get a rejection email. Like. Why did I even bother to hope? I have no skills and I know it. So did the company. Why did I bother?

I know it's just one rejection. But God. I'm in so much pain right now. I can't breathe. My throat is too tight. If it's this bad with one rejection, should I even try again? Maybe I don't deserve to move out and be myself.