My mother and I have had a strained relationship since I was 8. I’m 19 now. I’m in university in another country. I call my dad regularly; I try to do everyday, or at least every other day. However with my mum every time she calls or texts I find myself ignoring it. I feel guilty because I imagine she must be worried as I’m in a different continent on my own and she misses 
me. I feel guilty because I don’t miss her. I only notice I haven’t talked to her in weeks when the texts pile up. I feel bad because I sympathise; one day when I’m a parent I would feel so much pain and hurt if my child didn’t want to speak with me. At the same time it’s not my fault? I’m the child, it’s not my fault all the things she has done to make me alienate myself. Logically I know this; I just feel so guilty. But the truth is I don’t like talking to her; and I don’t want to. But I feel so guilty and mean for this.