I am now 22 and I’m only losing the motivation to do anything these days. I remember from early as 16 being depressed and I really thought it was the end for me then. It’s strange because I became so mentally strong, forcing myself to never give up and to keep trying but now I’m backed in a corner. I dread the thought of working for someone to the point where I accept not living over that fact, I guess employed people would see that as laziness and it’s sad because I was also that working class individual time and time again but since quitting past jobs I feel like I could never go back. I am STUCK on making my dreams a reality and I want to paint, make art, or be a content creators but through disappointment and failure I find myself losing the motivation for that too. I’m scared of what will come from even tomorrow.