So I only come to Reddit because after 3 different psychiatrists none could land on a proper diagnosis. I am NOT asking reddit to diagnose me, rather point me in the direction of people who have or still do experience similar symptoms. 

I have a history of mental illness. I believe I was diagnosed with chronic depression, borderline personality disorder, and ODD (as a kid). But after several years of constantly changing medications and mixtures of them (IE: Prozac, Zoloft, Abilify, Latuda, depakote, and maybe a couple more) I ended up weening off of them with the help of my psychiatrist because (at the time) they didn’t feel like they were doing anything. It’s been about 3 years since I stopped taking all medications but recently I’ve been having some very intense symptoms. Extreme hurts of anger, and when I say extreme I mean extreme. I won’t let myself do it in front of anybody but when I’m alone I’ll break things, rip up my clothes, punch holes in walls, throw and destroy video game controllers etc. in the car, slightest thing happens like somebody waits too long to accelerate at a green light, or somebody driving under the speed limit or even the speed limit causes me to scream and punch things uncontrollably. Note that I have never been violent towards other humans, animals, or even inanimate objects until fairly recently. As well as that I will go through major depressive episodes, not getting out of bed at all for several days, including using the restroom in cups or bottles in my room, tipping the pizza guy extra to bring it into my room, just very odd things I never used to do until recently. 

Since these symptoms started reoccurring I went back to my psychiatrist and he said he’s not sure as it could be a whole bunch of things, and that we’d have to go through the whole god awful process of medicine testing again to figure out what works. I went to two other psychiatrists and got pretty much the same answer. I am NOT against medicine, and I am willing to do it again, but if it’s not necessary to do the prescription cocktail again, I would like not to. If any of you experience similar things and could give suggestions on what it is for you and what medicines you take (if you take any) that would be fantastic. Thank you.