so me and my bf have been dating for like a few weeks but we have been friends for YEARS. the first part of our relationship i was like HE IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. which he is. he is literally the sweetest and kindest guy ever and soooo respectful. he is also super clingy and affectionate which i love because i am too. well i was, at first. but now after a few weeks i have been so irritable and he gives me anxiety :( 
anytime he gives me affection or any form of love i get angry and i hate the affection. from hugs to kisses to words of affirmation to "babe". literally any sign of love that he shows me i feel gross and anxious and hatred. i will complain and say please don't give me affection i'm in a bad mood. and when he asks to hangout i get anxiety and i'm like no go away i don't want to see him. i don't say that i jsut feel it and think it. it puts me in a terrible mood and idk why. i feel so bad. i don't know what to do. i've talked to him about it and he knows that i hate affection right now, but idk why i do. idk if this means we shouldn't be together or not. but im afraid to lose him because if it's a mistake then i won't be able to get him back again. and i'll be alone again and i will lose him. he is a great guy and i just don't understand what's happening. advice is much needed. idk if this is splitting or what but i need advice on what the heck i need to be doing.