Hello guys. I’m using a throwaway account for obvious reasons! I plan on seeing a therapist soon, but first I was hoping to get an opinion on what I probably have as a mental illness. WARNING, kind of messed up stuff coming up. So sometimes I’m “normal”, like I have some friends and I go out and do things and have fun. But I am obsessed with serial killers and I fantasize about killing and knives and stuff.  I also will occasionally enter this “mode” I guess you would call it, where I act like a psychopath. Like I feel completely cold on the inside, and people’s pain amuses me. I feel like I could kill someone and I wouldn’t even care. I have no empathy at these times. I picture myself with a knife stabbing someone. Then eventually I’ll go back to normal, but I won’t be horrified about what I was thinking about. I’m just like meh, okay. I was thinking maybe a sociopath or BPD, because it’s weird, like I sometimes have emotions and sometimes have zero emotions and no empathy. In general, I would never hurt an animal but I don’t really care about hurting people. I am also very manipulative and charismatic. Any thoughts would be appreciated! 