It's horrible. Out of like 13 or so people I considered pretty good friends as of 4 months ago, only like 4 of them have my trust rn whatsoever. Everyone else I'm paranoid.what they think. What they say.will they ghost me because I'm going my seperate way from most of them? I don't even know if I qualify for an anxiety disorder lmao but Im definitely anxious af. 

Shit keeps me up at night and distracts me from homework. I've cried a few times and I've also stared at the celing for hours listening to Nirvana trying to process my feelings. 

One of the 4 suggested I write this shit down in a notebook and I'll be honest it helped a lot but I'm terrified that my thoughts are actually legit and on paper. 

Y'all have anything similar? anything help?