I don’t have much of a social life, besides my two cousins and I don’t talk to them very often nowadays. I don’t have much to work on anymore, now that schools are out. And anything I do want to work on, I end up not having enough energy to do it. I watch every second, minute, hour, and day pass by me and I dread waking up everyday just to do all of it again and then try to sleep stressed out of my mind. I’ve accomplished nothing, these past weeks, and I hate myself for it. All I do while I’m awake is binge eat, and lay in bed watching a random cartoon while procrastinating. Most days I’m tired but I keep myself awake day and night because I don’t want to go to sleep, because that’d be a waste of my time, yet I do nothing when I am awake, and sometimes I do take naps and always feel ashamed and gross afterwards. There are so many things I want to do, and there’s so many things I love, or used to at least. But I always ruin it for myself, I can never enjoy myself when I’m relaxing, and I can never be satisfied when I am working on the things I want to do, because I get drained so easily. It’s always been like this, but lately it’s been getting worse. I wish I could get through a day feeling good, but every time I close my eyes all i feel is regret and shame for not spending my time more wisely.