I ended up not going to my own graduation cause social environments suck but I did watch the Livestream,  seeing everyone with their plans, friends, and hopes for the future while I have none of that makes me feel like shit, if I had alcohol on me rn I'd probably be drowning in it but I don't so good ol self harm will have to do, anyways I don't see any point in life. People always say it will get better but it won't