This has been affecting me for a while but I've been more curious about it lately and wanted to know if anyone else is the same way.

I feel like I never really learned how to enjoy things, I can like something for a moment but I have no connection to it, and it's impossible for me to explain or word why I like it if I do.

I feel guilt for liking them instead of focusing on "important things" to where I actively avoid them because they make me feel so bad!

I'm not sure how else to word it, it's so noticeable when a friend tells me about something or someone important to them and I can feel how passionate they are about it without them even having to tell me how much it means to them, but when I talk about something I like which is rare to begin with, I'm at a loss for words, I start to doubt if I even like it, and I quickly lose interest in it mid conversation.