My BPD has been flaring for about a month, and I truly don't understand how my husband could still love me/hasn't left me. I'm not mean to him at all, but I need constant reassurance, and we always are talking about our relationship and my goddamn stupid ~fEeLinGS~. It must be so tiring for my husband and get so old, but he just keeps telling me all day every day that he loves me. I don't understand it, but I am so thankful.

I'll be so happy when I can pull myself out of this spell. It seems to happen spontaneously and resolve in much the same way, so I'm trying to ride it out as best I can. I don't have access to DBT because all the therapists are too expensive. I see one at Catholic Charities who isn't trained in DBT.