A lot of tasks right now are a struggle- doing schoolwork on time, having any actual interest in said school work, making 'acceptable' first impressions with people I socialize with (I never know what to say). Literally everything is exhausting to the point where I feel like its just better to be the blandest version of myself &amp; go with that. No personality, just "ok this is what we're doing now ? cool". I don't want to have to make decisions, i want to be told what to do. Actually, i want to do nothing at all. I don't want to be memorable, i want to be small. I don't have any goals. the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning is the hope that one day I'll have a nice home with a nice yard for my future dog to enjoy. that's it. but before that happens, if it ever will (which is highly unlikely since i cant keep up with my school work), I don't want to be a real person. Does anyone else feel the same ?