So I overdosed on about 2g sertraline and 2g quetiapine on Saturday. I really didn’t think it through and honestly don’t even know what my main aim was. My memory completely blacks out from this point on.

[apparently my dumbass had gone to a friend’s birthday party, appeared very ill, so a friend of mine called me a cab and i went home leaving like 30 people worried for me]

Sunday morning I wake up and have forgotten Saturday’s events completely. That is until i check my phone to see a million messages of people asking if I’m safely home or even alive. They were that worried of me.

At this point, I’m starting to think that I may have done a serious mistake. I exit my bed only to fall down immediately: I was unable to walk.

So I call my countries emergency service number and pretty shortly they took me to the general hospital of the city. I was there in the ICU for hours upon hours, getting IV fluids, heart monitoring and everything.

I was shaking/seizuring like a Parkinson’s patient, my heart was pumping like 150BPM and I had difficulty speaking or writing or doing any normal tasks.

During the evening they had already calmed my shaking with benzos probably and they took me to neurology where I spent the night and returned home on Monday without any serious damage thankfully and able to sort of walk too. Only my face is a bit droopy but that might go away. So I’m typing this from home.

TDLR: Don’t for fucks sake overdose on SSRI’s/Quetiapine. Worst experience of my life easily. You may not get as lucky as I did.

One more thing. When I learned what mistake I had made, I realized that I can’t and won’t ever hurt myselfe in any way. I want to finally live.