I date this person for a while and it was terrible but the thing about that was I didn't wanna break up. I felt like I had to cling onto something and every time something was metaphorically thrown at me I always had an excuse for why it happened. I was cheated on and mentally toyed with for months and knew it but did nothing about it. BPD made me want this person more then getting away from them because I was scared of abandonment and the sick part is they were aware that I was scared of abandonment. All in all I've learned to pay attention to red flags and never hold onto something toxic no matter how much comfort it brings you.