I'm in the psychiatric system since 14 years. I got a lot of diagnosis Paranoid schizophrenia, aspergers autism, Depression, DID and BPD(and as a teenager anorexia but that doesn't matter for this post) . Like no one can get what I really have so far. I have 2 people mainly helping me my psychiatrist and my psychotherapist. And then there is this one doctor from the hospital who has a big influence too.
Before I got diagnosed with borderline they all meant they could explain everything with the other diagnosis. I got the diagnosis borderline 2years ago. No one believes all the diagnosis and I tend to tell everyone only what they want to hear. So I tell my psychiatrist about the schizophrenia and autism related problems. The doctor in the hospital about the did problems and my psychotherapist about the bpd problems... But I have the feeling no one really understands me and has an idea what is going on.
I know how to comfort them so they help me. My psychiatrist gives me trevicta(risperidone long term injection) my psychotherapist helps me sort out my feelings and the doctor in the hospital helps me if everything is too much. But no one actually wants to listen to me. I want one person I can tell everything to what I experience. But no one seems to be able, I disturb all if I start to talk about everything Freely. Anyone of you in a similar position or has a solution to the problem?
Nearly forgot to mention I have no one to talk about my gender problematic to.