I'm 20 years old and I don't do anything that matters with my fucking life because i don't want to live. its exhausting wake up everyday and realize that everything is so black and white. I'm tired of therapy, it doesn't work, I'm tired of trying to talk with my parents because they never listen and Victimicize themselves, I'm tired of losing all my friends because I'm toxic. I'm full of traumas, I'm full of sickness, I'm broken and tired, I don't want to live anymore, I feel so alone and unlovable. I just want to be happy or dead, why is so difficult? I'm trying therapy since 10 years old and never gets better