Hi guys. I have had a very hard couple of years, I am 19 and honestly it feels like I’ve had about 6 quarter life crisis’. I generally have very intense relationships and after going to a psychologist for a while, she thought I am potentially showing signs of BPD. As she was reading out the traits, to a lot of them I said yeah that’s me lol, but there were a couple of them that didn’t and it seems consistent 

Basically, I’m not an angry person. It’s quite rare for me to be angry - I even recently got betrayed by an ex/best friend after I did something really nice for his family... yes, I did get pissed off, but a lot of it was disbelief that he did what he did. I don’t really hate myself either (no more than the average person I believe) and I very occasionally (but rarely) think about self harm. 

The thing is, I identify so, so strongly with other traits; intense relationships, major fear of abandonment, I always think I’ve fucked up, but never have, idolising people around me, impulsivity when it comes to relationships, though, I occasionally spend money I don’t have, big waves of anxiety and dissociation. These are all pretty major - if there was a scale I think it’d be an 11/10. That’s the case for all emotions I feel, except anger.

I’m just not sure if it’s actually BPD or not - I will obviously go to more professionals but I just wanted to get your guys’ point of view too :)