speaking to my councillor and i finally opened up about how i react to food, my brain telling me that everything is mouldy and all meat is undercooked. she pushed me to created a character that i associate with these thoughts, the character that tells me that "i feel sick" and that everything i eat is gone off and will make me ill. I hope this is a step that will help me. Maybe I will be able to open up about my disconnection from reality before my sessions run out....