My life is good right now. I have a good job, friends, family, and my own place (recently moved out). But it’s almost been a year since I started working at this job and it’s starting to get more serious.

I’m lazy and I’ve always have been. My primary education didn’t really demand much from me and my college was a joke so I never really had to fully apply myself. Now I have a real job with deadlines and it’s killing me. I can’t just cram at the end to fix it, and I can’t bank on crappy teachers just passing me. 

Im scared guys. I feel weak, and I’m scared. Being an adult is hard and I don’t know if I’m strong enough. I don’t want to be embarrassed by failing at this. All my friends and family have such high hopes for me, and think I’m this great guy, but I’m barely holding it together.

God please see me. I need help, I need professional help. I don’t wanna lose what I have, but I feels so hard to change.