I just feel so trapped in a relationship im not happy in and everyone knows everyone so all of my friends would hate me if i broke up with my bf. All of my rage and self hate ive been hiding forever is finally breaking through and im crying for the first time in years. Im having a mental breakdown and i just feel like i need to escape but i feel like theres no way out of me feeling like a piece of shit and an annoying asshole. I feel like everyone fucking hates me and i cant do anything right. I need real help not just "its okay to cry" or "it gets better" because people have been saying that bullshit for fucking years and nothing has happened its only been getting worse. I just hate myself so much and feel it mightve been better if i was never here. I just want to let go of everything and make the fucking pain stop.