I just wanted to know if anyone else's breakdowns lasted up to two hours and if you experience any weird things like; twitching, disassociating, talking to yourself and sometimes I'll hurt myself really bad. I'll punch myself, leave bruises by swinging a weight at my arm or leg, I'll pull at my hair. My biggest thing is disassociating, it's a complete out of body experience. 
The other day I got in a fight with my dad and he found out I was molested when I was younger and completely flipped out on me. I immediately jumped to my defense and we started arguing about how abusive he was back then so why would I have said anything?? 
It threw me back, I went to my room and I was gone. I felt like I was in middle school again where his abusive behavior was the worst. I twitches so bad and I cried hard, I was pulling at my hair and I kept mumbling about how I took care of myself and I really couldn't stop.  Afterwards I was just really scared, I can't explain it down to the detail of how it went but it was scary.