I'm 7 months pregnant, we're not getting along and I am struggling. When he gets aggressive I will dissociate and not be able to engage or stand up for myself. I get emotional flashbacks and feel patronized, powerless, ugly, unwanted, and worthless. 

He doesn't care about my feelings - he thinks they're not relevant to him - and I don't feel like I can explain because he's a very competitive, achievement-oriented person and I think he will think it's just weakness instead of damage from the abuse I've been through. He already doesn't trust therapy and thinks it's a con. 

I wish I could just sever ties with him but obviously I can't, and I don't think it would be right for the baby. I also need to be able to stand up for myself because my pattern is to close off when I feel angry or upset - because I get so stressed that I can't think clearly or stand up for myself, I lose my sense of self, and then I just feel frustrated, violated and patronized.