I always get so anxious and worried that I am in fact a narcissist I like my appearance but obviously have that low self esteem honestly whatever is wrong with me I want to get better and improve like I know there’s something wrong with me, I mean I can say I mean things but feel genuinely bad after and will apologise I keep getting videos on narcissists on YouTube come up for me and every time I see one it like makes me feel bad and nervous and just my heart sinks I do not want to be hurting people I’m just so scared