It's weird since I spent so many years feeling the opposite way. This is the first experience I've had since overcoming codependency and I'm overanalyzing every feeling I have.

I'm in the early stages of what might eventually be a relationship. It's been about a month and we talk a lot every day and hang out a lot. I'm pretty certain she feels a lot more strongly about me and a lot more attached. Which scares me if I'm being honest because I don't want to hurt her and I don't know what level of affection I'm capable of. If I were to end things I feel like I'd be over it pretty quickly. I like her a lot, but more than anything in a friendship type way. I mean we spend hours just talking for the most part when we hang out and it's really nice. And she helped me through some really fucked up drama that happened at work. I really do like her. I just feel like I'm not feeling the feelings I'm supposed to feel.

I feel like falling in love happened really really fast and I got attached right away in the past. Now I wonder if I'll ever love someone as much as I have before and that's kind of depressing.