i don't know why i find it so frustrating, but i do. any attempt at drinking alcohol or consuming edibles these days inevitably winds up with me absolutely anxiety spiraling every single time. no matter how little i consume. i guess it's honestly not too bad of a "problem" to have, but sometimes i wish i could just have a casual drink without absolutely losing my mind. blows my mind that some people do both of those things to "relax". rant over.