My room has gotten to an embarrassing state. Nothing unmanageable for a person functioning well, but it feels like an impossible task. It feels like an accomplishment if I take my garbage out or wash my dishes for the first time in weeks. It’s at the point where i’m contemplating hiring a cleaner to do a one time deep clean just so I can feel back to normal somehow. But somehow even that feels shameful and embarrassing (and expensive)

I know this sounds like such a non problem to have but the mess is just a constant reminder that i’m having a hard time and have been having a hard time for awhile now