I left this sub at first cuz I thought I was just told that I have bpd so they can push pills on me but I figured a second opinion wouldn’t hurt since I’ve been obsessing and blowing up on ppl and other things I don’t want to mention now that I’m much older. I convinced myself to just cope ya know? But after a while too many hobbies can make u lose interest in having a hobby. I just want to stop feeling the way I do but the longer it takes to get meds the more insane I’m feeling. I’m at a point where I just wanna act unhinged BUT I can’t because I want to maintain this image I think ppl have of me and not placed in a ward. Like who cares? Right?? (I kinda do). I’m just ranting I guess. I just don’t want to feel like how I do now but I dunno what to do.