Hi everyone

So this morning I found out I'm pregnant and I'm not currently in a really stable relationship, if you've seen me post this last month (ha-ha)

Turns out life's a peach and I'm 5 weeks pregnant. My mom found out on her own because she came home when I left to cry to my neighbor (I don't have anyone else right now) and she found the box and saw I wasn't home. My mom is very Christian (as am I) and won't let me abort. I'm super scared and I don't feel stable enough to have a child, I'm not in a good financial situation and my private life is chaos. Please don't tell me about my "options" because my family doesn't work like that, I'm not going to be able to get one.

Can anyone please offer any words of support or maybe their experiences having a child with BPD? It looks as though I'll be raising this child alone with my mother and siblings right now. My future looks pretty bleak, I'm in shambles as I'm supposed to graduate Dec 2023 and my due date supposed to be some time in early May according to the doctor (my mom called and had everything scheduled and that's what they said).

I think I'm just overall very depressed because my relationship isn't stable and I don't feel as though the father will be a good fit or even want to be here. I feel very alone and I don't feel ready to have a child, I don't feel like I'll have the patience. I read a post a while ago about someone else asking about pregnancy and BPD, and someone said don't do it. This is the kind of advice I'm somewhat searching for, like realistic advice with our condition. What should I be expecting?

Thanks a lot in advance.