I’m having constant panic attacks that are debilitating and make me sick and I’m desperate for some tips/advice/reassurance. Here’s some context for my situation: 

21, F, UK. I don’t take meds except 5-10mg valium when panic attacks happen and I’d currently going to counselling weekly. Counselling let’s me talk but I dont receive much advice. My anxiety is endless, and I also have chronic stomach issues which are arguably as result of it which cause unpleasant and painful symptoms. 

I’m massively into films and gaming, so after having nearly completed my studies, I purchased a gaming computer for myself. I’ve only ever been a switch console player or a laptop player. I have 2 assignments left, so I bought it earlier anticipating I could do my assignments on it and then game away. My monitor arrived yesterday and the PC arrives Friday. For whatever reason, whenever I sit at my desk the past few days, especially since my monitor arrived, I get anxious and spiral into a panic attack, and my attacks make me feel I’m going to vomit / make me vomit and tend to cause me a lot of chest and stomach pain. 

I am really perplexed as to why everytime I sit at my desk I panic, and why my PC (a purchase I should be very excited about) has me so anxious, and what I can do to help myself not panic around such menial things - I always remind myself to breathe, it’s okay, get a hot tea and try calm myself and have some valium. Right now, I feel like my PC will turn up and I won’t even be able to use it due to anxiety and that seems ridiculous so I’d love to hear if anyone’s been in a similar situation or has any ideas that can help me not be anxious about my PC / change and help me with my panic attacks. 

I really appreciate it :)