Can’t handle being in this reality I have been in a mental hospital for a month and it just got worse it all just keeps getting worse I don’t have enough money for drugs but I genuinely need them so I can have a relief at some points and not kill myself I can’t handle reality all the time everyone in my family is so hopeful that I will get better and I don’t wanna kill myself and ruin Christmas for them but I genuinely don’t get how people do this shit every fucking day.