Sometimes I forget how fragile I am. When my brain breaks, the world breaks. Its a solipsistic nightmare that can last for years. It was trippier than the divine comedy and x files combined. I can't ever go through that again. Aside from me, the people in my life could not take it. "Real" life is challenging enough and we are all supposed to adult right? No matter how much it stresses us right? And makes our mental health worse we must do it, we must commute, work, pay the bills or become homeless or lose all your human rights in a psychiatric facility or residential program. This is why I dont think of the big picture or the future. I think of tomorrow and thats about it.