God i wish was like my brother, or grandfather or this one kid i went to high school with lol. I used to be pretty chill before idk what. Obviously bipolar has something to do with it but i used to be straight forward even through it all. I didn’t label anything or judge too much. But now that I’m diagnosed its hard to wrap my head around my life and this disorder. After a terrible cycle, im well enough to know that the meds are a good direction. Right up until i was about to pick them up. I still wanna believe that i can just stop it with my mind and im not ill. I have a pretty good grip on reality id say.