So I was hospilized for 3 months in Darwin hospital last year around the start of may and it was quite a severer breakdown of a pretty bad psychosis that I couldn't stop in its tracks. They gave me my first treament of ECT 5 times to remove the mania or psychosis which initially worked. They however left me go a little early at one point because I fooled them I was okay, (in which I wasn't) I just wanted to badly get out of there because for males in Darwin hospital you have to share a room with 2 other patients in the smallest rooms, I could barely sleep as they took me off seroquel.

Anyways, when I evenually came back into hospital after only a 3 days they monitored me and eventually started giving me 'Paliperdone'. At the time I didn't notice, and always trusted the doctors, but when I look back it completely took away the mania and put me into a numb depressive state. I was managable for awhile, but once they increased the dose to 150, I started to experience really bad effects. 

My whole body started feeling weird sensations, all through my legs, arms and body it was a weird tingling feeling. Then I started to develop really bad axnierty and then started to develop akathisia, from now which I now know. At the time, the doctors couldn't explain any of these weird side effects and barely didn't know what to do. It's only months later that I found out what 'akathisia' bloodly was, and is a main side effect of the PALIPERIDONE!.. From this, my sex drive has been completely comprised as he also gave me Zofolt to help deal with the akathisia which was another error which just made things worse.

So after months of pain and suffering, the akathisia finally went away.. but I still can't fully relax like I once did. The only presistant problem is this unexplainable sensations throughout my lower legs. It's a constant pins and needles like feeling, and I get it alot when I am obviously sitting down. When I am standing up right, it takes ages to go away and ends up feeling numb.

Every time I go to bed, it feels like a dull ache or numb type feeling hard to describe. But I assure you, it's gotta be this drug messing around with the dopamine in my brain. It's been nearly a year now, and I lack abosualte pleasure in anything like I did before. Mate these drugs cause more problems then they solve, and the patient is the one left to suffer at the hands of a doctors note pad. 

Has anyone else had this experience with this drug? Throughout my mental health career I've always had other drugs(for some reason can't say its name? wut) and now I know why they prescribe that all the time because that's probably the only antipsychosic that doesn't cause these awful long lasting side effects. I just can't believe it's been a year, and 2020 for all of us have been so shit, pretty over it.