So I am a 20 year old female with borderline, currently in treatment.
My therapist is the ultimate target when it comes to my severe daddy issues and need to feel loved and validated. 
He's almost 40, tall, kind of good looking with a terrific sense of humor and the kind of therapist who feels a lot like a buddy more than a authority. 
And he's in a relationship with a woman who couldn't be more different than I am. 
And of course, my attraction started to get in the way of literally everything and I had to come clean because therapy simply will not work if I'm spending all my time trying to be the ultimate desirable romantic interest.
He let me down gently. I knew he would. I had no delusions whatsoever that he would feel the same way. It hurt all the same. I'm so fucking sad and humiliated and I try to be mature and cool but at the same time my heart aches because I wasn't enough.