Every time things get really good and start looking up, I just get so scared. I get scared something really bad is going to happen. It's frustrating. What if someone I love suddenly dies? What if I find out I have cancer? I can't seem to enjoy the happiness for very long, and I just get so scared something will take it away.

My family is fairly superstitious. My best friend is the same way. The last couple days I keep suddenly getting random feelings of impending doom. He's had the same thing happen recently. All I can think is that even though I know we both have mental health issues, is that something awful must be coming, and it isn't just in our heads. I feel paralyzed, kind of, and not really sure what to do.