Some days I just feel so tired of not feeling good, not achieving my goals, and just surviving.

I feel tired of a couple decades of thinking I can feel better if I just do x,y,z and just realizing I just tend towards pretty constant anxiety and frequent depression and the best I seem to be able to do is feel good sometimes. 

I’m tired of the fact that I feel I am too unstable for a healthy relationship, and so I just be alone and I’m tired of being lonely.