My mother criticise me when ever I'm upset and mocks me when I cry, she doesn't take my depression seriously, she is fed up with me, I told her I don't like her and I wished she didn't exist and she told me to kill myself, if I cry for too long or urge, she'll tell to commit suicide, this is been happening for a few years now, I don't have friends and I don't have money to leave, and today she did it again and I wonder if I should do it, since if my own mother hates me and I have no one that likes me or friends