Every time I start to make friends get confidence feel good about my looks it all gets taken away. I struggled with dieting way too hard then the next year covid hit me badly could barely make it through school then this year I get a mental break super bad. I’m alone again all my friends left me and like wtf. I feel cursed. I apparently have trauma from bullying as a kid which causes panic attacks which doesn’t help. Like why is my luck so bad. I know I don’t have it that bad but dam god why u gotta send a 260 pound linebacker to rock my shit every time something goes good for me.