Okay so I’m aware that I am a conventionally attractive person . My entire life I’ve been sexualize and drooled over . Although I’ve struggled with immense body dysmoprhia in my life . Sometimes I feel like the most ugly and disgusting thing on this planet but sometimes I feel SOOOO FRICKEN beautiful and gorgeous and I have the biggest god complex and I start obsessively taking pics of myself and pretend modeling in the mirror . I will genuinely think I am the prettiest person to ever exist and that I deserve to be a model and a star. I feel I need to be famous . It’s like either or . I’m on both sides of the extremes . Either I’m the ugliest person ever or I’m the most gorgeous. It sounds fun feeling like the most gorgeous person ever but it actually gives me anxiety because I feel too pretty for real life I feel like I need everyone to see me or my beauty will vanish I feel like everyone needs to see me and that I need to be famous or something or I get anxiety ugh. Does anyone relate and get random god complex ?