I wanted to go jogging outside, but guess not due to the rain. My psychosis is slightly worse and I don’t know what I can do about it. After months of going back and forth about whether to do some kind of therapy or volunteering, I think I’m starting to realize I haven’t come across anything I want to do yet. Day treatment has helped me in the past but I’ve been through the program twice and don’t think I will benefit a third time. Last time I went, they kicked me out for relapsing and “not seeking help fast enough.” My psychiatrist wanted to wait a couple weeks to see if new meds are really necessary and they got mad… I don’t know what else I can do. My friend is moving in three months and, on my part, I will lose my main support system outside of family. I want to lose weight, watch some movies… but it’s going to be lonely without my friend around and I’m struggling with symptoms as well as a headache and tiredness and low energy. I don’t feel like doing anything. I wonder if there’s anything I can do besides wait and accept the way things are.