I went to my 3rd AA meeting. I'm lucky that my local chapter is really great. The way it works, for those of you that don't know, is that there are several different types of meetings once a week. You can go to several different meetings a week, but they're all on different days and largely have different themes. 

The meeting I went to today was my favorite meeting that I've been to so far, and there were so many people who said great things who I wanted to talk to afterwards. but I was so anxious. I wanted to cry because of what was said in the meeting, in a good way. but I felt embarrassed because I wanted to pour out. I felt like no one would have any interest in talking to me.

I'm home now, sad in bed, knowing that my fears weren't even based in reality. I've talked to some of those people before and really enjoyed it, and they enjoyed talking to me as well. Now I'm just lonely and have to wait another week for that same meeting. I'm going to go to others in the meantime, but that one is easily my favorite, so I'm disappointed in myself. It's kinda worse because a recurring theme in different peoples' testimonials was connectivity and how great it is to be connected to everyone else there.

Marked input because I'd love to know if you guys ever feel similarly or how you overcome emotional situations.