I mean it's obvious i should just off myself at this point, its been the same shit every single day, wake up, feel bad, go to school, feel bad part2, then come home and feel bad part3 cuz i felt bad all day.

Almost nothing helps, my only 2 friends are probably just as bad as i am so they can only help so much, music is the only thing that helps me forget about how much i hate myself but even that can't work everytime.

Im done of feeling like im behind all the time, 0 social skills, 0 academic skills, ugly both on the outside and on the inside, ugly face, body, and personality. It's no wonder why nobody wants to be my friend.

I know im not going to k*ll myself just now, but i sincerely don't get the point of being functional if it only means that i'll go through the motions of life with the smallest effort possible, momentary happiness, and CONSTANT EMPTINESS.

If God exists i hate him for hating me.