And in that time I've found my father passed away, my own mother within a month telling me to just get over it, then telling me she loved him too, just to break my heart. (They hated each other for years.)

I've had my family turn on me &amp; my mother leave me for dead, 

when all I was asking for was the hospital that isn't but 10 minutes away, she instead antagonists the situation, which if I was truly having a heart attack or I was 30 odd years older probably would have dropped dead on the spot. 

I've seen all sorts of friends come and go, some I've known since kindergarten even back stabbed me. 

I've have been cheated on in a handful of relationships &amp; developed deep trust issues, walls &amp; coping mechanisms for approaching people. It's to the point where I don't even act myself so when I am hurt it's not even me their trying to break. 

I even mistakingly dated a legal prostitute from the gold coast (fucken idiot) 🤦🏻‍♂️

I've been homeless (barely) living in a tent at the moment on my families front yard. 

I spent my last 3.50$ on some chips from a vending machine at a hospital last night, tried to get a mars bar and realised my bank account is run dry,

Which I was there on account of my confrontational demeanor, not because of an injury or serious medial issue. 

I won't get into it but I ran from an ambulance which was only trying to medically assess me. 

I've burned pretty well all my bridges on an account of how ignorant &amp; entitled I can be at times, which basically leaves me regretting a few friendships I shouldn't have ended. EG: a good friend of mine was being controlled by his girlfriend too much.. I should have just left it be but instead I wanted to see him man up and dump her ass, not understanding how much she truly meant to him despite her completely walking over him, he's a big guy but gentle when you get to know him. That's one I really regret. 

I've fallen into smoking copious amounts of cannabis &amp; on "occasion" drinking wine,
Which basically just compared to my smoking addiction is child's play. 

I had my uncle look me up and down, I call him out on it and my family refuses to believe me dispite me confronting him &amp; him being and looking overwhelming guilty.

My other uncle hit me in the head when I was coming out of the shower throwing me a meter back naked as he pleads and cries to me a minute later about me not going to the police about it.

Some other family members trying to drag me in a car, smacking my head against a car window &amp; fracturing my toe, which I then jumped a fence and ran for about a kilometre (with breaks in-between) 

Putting my trust in a worthless tools, One of them even tried using my own dead father as an excuse to try and being distance between us. That one still goes out of it's way to try and bother me lmao.

Getting a doctor who isn't payed off by a drug company is harder than it sounds, unless they don't need the money, some of them will immediately try and get you into something you won't be able to kick, leaving you worse off than before.

Realising an amount of abuse and danger I was in as a child when in reality I only assumed it was how all families worked.

Sure my family are here to support me even when these things bring up valid reasons for me to stress, that stress cannot be expressed because of the immediate dismissal or neglect or backlash that comes with standing up for myself.

&amp; I'm supposed to believe there's something wrong with me?!