I am very new to this subreddit, and I am 18 and was in a relationship with a girl with BPD. I know that 18 is young to be stressing a relationship, but I really want to be with her.. But the thing is we only dated close to a month and we spent so much time together bonding and I can tell she loves me(or at least loved) and sometimes she would just dump me for something completely random and without explanation wouldnt tell me why. It has literally happened 5 times, and each time she seemed more bitter and angry towards me. Our last breakup (which was last night) was because she said I gave her an anxiety attack. She does have a high level of anxiety, and in our past break ups she would say things like 'You dont deserve me meaning im not good enough for her'  and things like that. But then later she would call me crying and apologizing that she didnt actually feel this way, she was just in a bad place and she loves me. It was true and we are good for a couple days, but then Last night there was a stupid argument which led to something serious and i wrote her a long letter of apology, but she didnt want to hear it. She was cold, and she said for me to stop asking, erase our stuff and we are done for good. I already see that she is in a relationship with someone else, and honestly she does things like this to piss me off, but never a relationship. Before it would just be deleting our photos, but now she has this guy as her boyfriend.. and I'm not sure if she is actually just trying to make me jealous, or does she actually not like me anymore.. I havent talked to her since last night, but I wanna cut contact for at the very least a few days.. should I wait until she talks to me again, How can I tell this is just something she is going through right now?