i can’t catch up. days are going by faster and events, birthdays, bills things money has to be spent on it draining me. I just started working and feel like I’m there everyday yet my paychecks aren’t helping me cover anything. 

I’m over it. my thoughts are constantly consumed with  worry and i can clearly see imagines of self harm that cause me to temporarily lose myself trying to understand why I think harming myself would make anything better. 

it’s like I’m trapped in a dark and unbearably hot and stuffy cave, I can’t breathe. My hormones are high from everything and my cycle. 


I can’t stand it anymore and I need a way out that doesn’t involve harming myself because I know it won’t make things better but I just want to relieve some pressure.