Hi everyone I have a serious problem about my BPD life. But before I start I want to say I'm not a good English speaker. Soo forgive me If I do a mistake.

I can deal with many problems, mood swings or bad feelings causing by BPD. I had 7 years with that disorder. But I can't never find a solution of being stable about Job and education life.

I can't never proceed what a start. I'm finding daily day works and earn my life that way. But like most people I have dreams too. Also, I'm getting old. I need to do and create some things. The problem starts when I start to study or learn new things. When I start to learn something first days I'm doing very well and learning really fast when If I'm not stressful. But after that I'm just feeling soo depressive, lazy and like a person who can't be successful about anything. I am delaying. I'm delaying more than you can imagine. That delaying thing happened after my BPD. It was not that worst before I'm 16. Now 23. Last couple off mouths that thing turned a full of stress maker for me. I feel my self awful and depressive for the last months. 

What would you advise me ? Anyone had that problem ?   


Thanks and Best Wishes everybody in the group.