So thanks to reddit I was faced with the realization my former best friend's fiance sexually assaulted me at 16 while he was in his 20's. I decided that I was going to end the friendship. I have come a long way, and while I was emotionally moved I made sure to express my love, respect, and care for her. Statements such as "I believe you deserve better." "I don't think he loves you the way I know you deserve to be." "I love you and will always want the best for you." You see this guy not only sexually assaulted me, but he has been flirting with me, making passes at me, and has cheated on her. This just was a bomb waiting to blow. When I disclosed everything (once again this wasn't the first time) she was enraged and it led to a lot. One thing being she made fun of my weight. Due to almost being near death I had to take a lot of meds one being oral steroids and two forms. This caused me to gain weight. In 2 months I lost 45lbs, and am still going (I am actually very slim now before I was thick but still had a nice body). But she know this is a source of my lack of confidence. She used that against me.

Not just that she called me a liar, said him and her would pillow talk about me. That I wanted him deep down, and I was unhappy. That I think I am prettier than her, it got so bad my mother had to ask her to stop. I am very beautiful, while my insecurities would never let me believe that before I know different now. While life gave me shit it gave me looks, and a nice body. But I just don't know how to feel about what she said. Even though I speared her she didn't do the same for me. I already feel dirty from this realization, and now I feel like I was always hated. We were friends for 16 years, and I am crushed. She didn't believe me, so if I told her what he did would she believe me? I just feel so worthless.