I have no one to lean on. I have no escape. I can never rest when I'm at home so I rarely have the energy I need to work on the tasks that would provide an opportunity for me to leave. I've been depressed and anxious beyond belief for over a decade. I've been worn the fuck down. I didn't do myself any favors by succumbing to addiction for so long either. I want to go to college, meet new friends, and enjoy my life with some privacy and peace of mind, but I just spend all my time wishing I didn't feel trapped here at home in my miserable existence.

I feel helpless because I actually do have a few debilitating mental disorders. It was a miracle I even made it to the dentist today. On the outside, people wonder how I can feel so damaged. Apparently, I seem like someone that should have life going for them, but in reality, everyday I just seem to hit another wall. I was ambitious for a while, but nothing seems to work out.