I've never felt sympathy or guilt/remorse or even love. I lack empathy and have noticed this since childhood. All my life ive had to mimic people's reactions and facial expressions to make them believe I'm just ordinary like them I've tried to care about people but I just can't there is nothing there and never has been what could this mean. When I was about 10 years old I fell from a tree and hit the back of my head on a concrete fence my friend went to get help, i put my hand on my head and It was bleeding badly instead of crying I was laughing quite loud and didn't care one bit, when my friend returned He caught me laughing and said what's so funny? I replied I've got a fucking deep split in my head and blood is pissing out of it,then I carried on laughing.ive been in a lot of situations where I know I should be feeling something for people but i never have.
