It's getting old and everyone else just goes on with their happy little lives while the rest of us don't even want to live another second.

I tell myself it will get better but that's a lie. I have no hope left, no purpose, nothing to care about anymore, no friends, no dreams, NOTHING. I'm just a waste of a human being. I failed myself, I failed life. I'm too tired to try and catch up to even fit in a little.

This place is not for me but I can't leave because others apparently will feel sad that they never listened or saw my pain until it was too late.

I'm so done feeling worthless and having no damn purpose. Please don't tell me that I do, because I don't and never will have a purpose here.

This shit is getting ridiculous and out of hand. I'm not sleeping, I'm drinking 3-4 nights, I'm cutting, I'm having to do anything not to kill myself. No amount of hotlines help and I don't even think they care. I'm losing myself and its just becoming enough.