I've been reading this sub a lot lately, and I recognize myself in many aspects that you guys describe. 

My moods are a rollercoaster, I have a tendency to be inflexible in certain areas (in terms of values for instance), I can be highly irritable, enter in conflict with others over nothing (especially my close family), I feel empty, lost in a limbo most of the time, and I just can't seem to feel emotions like how others seem to be able to. And of course, I just feel constantly emotionally tired and broken.

I can't accept things, anything, anything at all, can change my mood from great to horrible, and I just can't compartimentalize. I can't keep a job, my image of myself completely changed depending on the person I am talking to, and many many more....

I need to see a psychiatrist to talk it over, but my experience of mental health professionals where i live, is that they are not very good. They don't really listen... I hope I'll find one who's good, but it's still a long shot. 

I have to count on myself, and for that, I need tools. 

I am already meditating, and started working out regularly a couple months ago, and am quitting smoking (previously 1-2 packs a day, and heavy drinking every week).

What do you people recommend I should start with?