Is that normal? I would say I’m leaning more towards euphoric when I’m manic because I’m optimistic and I am a lot more confident if not a little arrogant. I don’t feel like I’m floating on a cloud though. I just feel like all my insecurities have gone and I finally have life sussed. Maybe this is because I am not a very emotional person? I also don’t suffer with depression badly.

My behaviour is 100% off though. I can talk a lot of gibberish and just act erratic and odd. I can be a bit random and have big plans to change my life in one way or another. I barely eat, I spend a lot of money (not enough to get me in deep shit though), I have copious amounts of coffees and cigarettes etc. a lot of the signs are there. It has also ended in me being violent or abusive for little to no reason on occasion. I have been sectioned twice. I know I’m bipolar but I do get my doubts sometimes when I can’t always relate to others or it all doesn’t quite fit. Sometimes I feel like it might just be a by product of my low confidence/self esteem and it’s like I’m lashing out with frustration. I don’t see things or hear things either. I have had delusions of reference before. I think in my recent episodes there’s an element of delusion of grandeur but only mild.