My whole life I’ve felt trapped and stuck inside someone I never chose to be. I hate the way I look, the way I talk, sound, everything. I was bullied as a kid and made fun of all the time and I just kept it inside of me my whole life. Still get made fun of sometimes to this day. I feel like everyone I talk to doesn’t like me and thinks I’m weird and ugly. I can understand why people wouldn’t like me I look really odd. It hurts coming from an entire family of attractive people that I’m the only unattractive person in my whole family. All of my younger siblings are insanely good looking and of course I had to get hit with the ugly stick. I’m 21 and I haven’t done anything eventful or remotely fun in my life. No girls, no partying nothing. I just stay in my room all day playing video games while my siblings go out having the time of their lives bragging to me about all the hot girls they got with. It makes me so depressed that I can never experience the things that they experience. All i do is work and go to school and I can’t make any fucking friends because I’m so self conscious and socially anxious. It’s almost like I live my daily life with a giant blockade blocking my view of the world. What really makes me upset is nobody cares about how I feel even in my family, everyone is so fucking self centered it’s insane all they talk about is their great lives and crazy experiences and I just get talked over like I’m a background character. Imagine being in a family that makes fun of ugly people on a daily basis and judges everyone based on their appearance how that makes me feel as someone who is not attractive.