For the past few weeks I’ve had mere moments of happiness by myself, I’m either dependent on people to be happy or not happy at all. Emotionally I feel like I’m getting too unstable, past week
I’ve had several things happen which to normal people would mean literally nothing. Like: my driving lesson was canceled which I looked forward too (yes I still take lessons I’m 17) or I looked at a new phone that turned out to be something I didn’t want, both those things really got me down for like a week. After both events I skipped school and just laid in bed all day crying over a simpel thing

I hate what I’ve become and I hate how I am so unstable, and at this point it is just too much for me I haven’t gone a day without feeling suicidal for months now and it’s starting to affect everything.

I just want it to end