just want to preface this with the fact that i’m not even 17 (turning in 2 months) and do not have a diagnosis, so i don’t know if i’m just talking out of my ass here

this is already gonna sound so fucking stupid lmao

i’ve had this problem where i go absolutely batshit on my instagram close friends story and in my discord server, like, insanely disordered thinking. i don’t actually like attention or people knowing how i’m feeling, but it just feels out of my control? like i can’t stop myself from making all of my deep personal issues known, despite it not having any benefits. it’s only made my feelings of doubt and rejection in my friendships worse. but i can’t stop. it’s the first thing i do whenever i feel overwhelmed. i’ve tried reaching out to people individually, art journaling, and writing in my notes app (lol) before i do that, but it always comes back to posting online or ranting in my discord server with the same people on my close friends story. i hate being so needy and subsisting solely on their validation!!!!