I'm not going to act like it was awful, but one circumstance that literally just popped into my head was when I was raped at 16, but still got shamed by a close family friend and my dad, whom she told when I asked her not to. 

My dad also took money from me without asking or even telling me to give to my sister, who has always been the favorite sibling (between me and my brother,  who's the oldest). That happened in 2011. Right after I got out of psychiatric inpatient. My mom passed away when I was 12, and a month shy of 14 years after the fact, has not gotten her a headstone for her grave. He also has not once asked me how I feel about it,  or if its bothering me, or if anything was ever bothering me. Feelings were never openely shared between him and I,  and still aren't. We're currently not talking, I assume because I asked him for money after he made me feel guilty about giving me a large amount (to our broke family) of $250 for my birthday, but it was really just to catch up on bills, and none went for any sort of nice thing for myself. He made me feel guilty by explicitly stating he got my step mom a cheaper gift. He had to tell me this. 

I'm just full of a lot of anger toward him. Which I've noticed is getting worse through the years. Which makes me feel shitty because he's nearly 70 and I would hate to spend the last (hopefully)  15-20 years of his life building more and more resentment. But I'm really close to calling him right now and just letting him have it. I'm really angry. 

I really need help. 



Edit: can't find a Samsung keyboard that properly autocorrects my spelling errors... Ergh. 