I’m almost done getting off of it. I’ve been on antidepressants for 6 years and I’m going to see if I can handle being off of them. I’ve just felt really numb these past few years and also really anxious still. I don’t know how I would have survived without it. It saved me those first few years for sure but I’m trying to live without it now. 
It’s really hard. I’ve been weening off really slow for months but the absence of it is really hard on my body. I’m really irritated all the time and sad. Anything that happens will almost send me over the edge. Zero happy chemicals is super hard. Work has been giving me a hard time too. I was late one day because a lift bridge was up and I couldn’t move.. and when I got in all my coworkers were ganging up on me pretty much saying they don’t want to do all the opening by themselves despite this being the only day I’ve been late in weeks.. that alone almost made me burst into tears. I was so irritated and said sorry multiple times and they were still patronizing me like they were above me. That ruined my whole week. And then my bank took $200 in overdraft fees and that sent me even further. I’m not made of money.. 
tangent... anyways those things have been extra hard when I feel like I want to run into the woods and get lost never to be seen again. I’m really trying my hardest here and I don’t know if I can do it. I’m just suffering basically. I wish I could have like 2 weeks for mental health or even a few days but society doesn’t give a sh*t about mental health unless they’re pretending to care for brownie points. 
I swear if my manager says something to me tomorrow about not being as early as I should have been (yes I wasn’t even late I just wasn’t “early enough”) I’m going to 
S N A P. 
You can stop reading here if you want 

I just wanted to say that I WAS really proud of myself for showing up to work everyday on time and doing my job really well. It’s a fast paced job and I was once again really proud of myself until my coworkers basically shat all over me for being late one day. I feel like people take advantage of the fact that im a people pleaser. 
Literally one of them said “stop youre just a people pleaser” when I was clearly upset about the comments made at me about being “not early enough” 
I literally have blisters on my hands from rolling hot towels everyday and the other one had the AUDACITY to say they were doing all of the work. 

I’m sorry this isn’t r/rant but I feel you guys get it better here as you struggle with the same issues. 

Thank you for reading. Feel free to leave any coping advice + advice on how to stand up for myself at work and get peoples shoes off my face cause I’m not a doormat.