TW: Uvalde

I have this feeling of constant dread. I do have General Anxiety Disorder, but it hasn't felt like this before. My car was repossessed on Monday. I mostly felt numb and started looking for a way to fix the issue. Then on Tuesday, the Uvalde shooting happened and I spent a couple of hours watching the news footage. That's when the dread started. I constantly feel like I'm going to get in trouble at work or fired, even though I'm doing a good job and have a good relationship with my manager. I went to some bad credit card dealerships today and didn't have any luck (I went in super pessimistic). I've also been really sick recently. I may have to start biking to work, which is 4 miles, but my asthma is severely uncontrolled and I'm pretty heavy, so I'm not sure I can do it. I'm dreading that too. Last night my sister messaged me that she wants to talk to me about a couple of things, which usually means she's staging some kind of intervention or wants to tell me that she can't hang out with me until my mental health and finances are better (so her own mental health isn't affected, but I still think it's cruel). I'm avoiding calling her. I do have a therapist, but I'm having trouble booking an appointment with him because my boss is only sending out my schedule one week at a time and he's booked further than that. I also have an anxiety medication (buspirone) that I've been out of. I was able to get more today and plan to immediately start taking it. I guess I'm looking for advice to get rid of this feeling. I know tricks for acute panic or anxiety, like deep breathing, identifying objects around me, etc, but this is lasting longer than that.