Yes, it's about a boy... isn't it always? 

He left 8 months ago yesterday. Just up and walked out of my life because he didn't want to deal with me anymore. Looking back I don't blame him, I've re-read old facebook conversations and texts and I was just... horrible. Awful. Needy and aggressive. Disgusting towards him. I expected everything and gave nothing in return really. And as you know... every action has an equal and opposite reaction. We were not a great couple and we never had much longevity. I see that now. 

But fuck me it hurts. It hurts every day and every time I remember he's not here anymore. Every morning when I wake up alone in my parents spare room rather than next to him in the flat we shared. Every night when I get home and he's not here. Every time I pick up my phone and it's not him who's texted me. It feels like it'll never stop hurting.

I have no interest in any other guys. I don't want other guys. I just want him back. That's all. And I can't have it. I can't move on and I can't get over him. I don't know what to do now :( 