And feel like a shitty sister and aunt too. This is kinda long but I just feel like I need to vent. My brother and sister in law asked me to babysit my nephew on Saturday and I haven’t been doing great mental health wise lately but I said ok anyway bc I have too much anxiety to tell people “no”. Which ik among many other things I need to work on. And then they asked me if I could babysit him on Friday too and it’s not like it’s an emergency and they needed me it’s kinda for ridiculous reasons. And then after I said yes yet again (which yes ik I shouldn’t have but when the pressure is on I get too nervous to say “no”) and hung up i got so overwhelmed I started to have a panic attack and couldn’t stop crying and wanted to retreat to my bedroom and hide in my bed. My mom got really upset with them and she called my sister in law and told her that I’m trying to work on my mental health and that they’re overwhelming me etc etc. My sister in law was really understanding and nice about it. But I still feel guilty and so embarrassed that I’m a 28 yr old woman whose mommy called and bailed me out. I feel like a complete loser and degenerate I hate being this way and I wish I could be better.