Hi everyone, I don't normally post like this..lately I have lost interest in everything. I find happiness momentarily in things then start to second guess why I even bother. 

To give some back story, I am 32, I'd say I'm not successful. I do okay for my area but I feel like I'm constantly trying to just keep treading water to stay afloat money wise. I work as IT for the last 6 years, I manage an entire facility by myself (I have small guidance from other departments) I have lost all ambitious goals for my career, also, finding I don't like being around ANY of my coworkers. I have more projects than I have ever dealt with this year. I feel very overwhelmed anymore and constantly dread coming to work. 

Also, been dealing with relationship issues, resulting in moving into my own place recently and leaving my dog behind. I still talk to my exe but things are very blurred. I feel I'm stuck in a loop of being made to feel so guilty that I have to keep coming back to "help" out. On top of this, medical issues that hold me back from feeling the best I can.

feeling like giving up on everything, and I know it's said a lot by people feeling this way. The sad part is I have a very small family and would feel guilty leaving my parents, sister, and my niece behind wondering how someone who seems happy could just disappear without telling anyone why. 

I know this is selfish but I'm so detached from everything anymore and don't know what else to do.