I’m a 21M and I don’t know how to feel better. Been in the closet for 5 years, had a situation with my parents where they started screaming at me and hurting me both physically and emotionally until I “changed” to a straight guy. Currently I’m in college, supposed to graduate next year, but I don’t feel anything at all; like I’m living just to not hurt my siblings. Even when I’m around with friends I feel lonely and when I get home I just lay on the floor with no clear sense of what to do and it hurts knowing what I can do, but have no energy to do. Sometimes I wish I got through with ending it all a couple years back…