A couple months ago my gf called emergency services cause she was scared I was going to kill myself... Police showed up... I can lie well and it wasn't too long before they decided everything was okay and after they left my mum said something about me definitely not being suicidal because I'm me... And my brother was looking at her in agreement but also confused as to why the police thought that... How quickly they dismissed POLICE showing up to check on me hurt a lot but caused a realisation, people aren't good at picking up on your pain even if like me... You don't hide it... I'm often in my room alone, I'm up all night,  I listen to Lil peep, Ghostemane, Sadboyprolific and all that shit... But they were so sure of me being happy that they dismissed it that quickly