After 3 weeks of being okay...actually really okay, as in not worrying to a chronic extent that my FP would abandon me and then actually feeling like myself around them and generally having healthy interactions where I felt stable.....I make a stupid mistake. Last night I had a problem. It wasn't as bad as shit that's happened in the past, but fuck, I thought I was doing better. I know healing isn't linear, but damn it I'm tired of making stupid mistakes.