when i feel bored or alone i start to break down. my bf suggested i find some hobbies and things to do with friends to fill my day. that’s all good in theory, but when it comes down to it i don’t have the energy or drive to push myself to do either of those things. i have two friends and one of them lives an hour away, and the other works full time and goes to school. my bf lives five minutes away from me but he is always busy doing something. i’m just really frustrated. i feel like i have no one. i can’t stand being alone because i’m scared of what may happen when it’s just me and myself. i woke up this morning with all intentions of having a good day but now i’m just crying in bed alone. i reaches out to my bf and he just keeps saying “go out and do something. just stay busy” i keep telling him i don’t want to be alone, but it’s like he’s avoiding it. like he doesn’t want to fucking see me. i feel so neglected and let down by everyone today it’s breaking me down. 