when i was in middle school i was sexually abused and i’ve felt so worthless and helpless ever since. i’m 18 now. i go through periods where i cant eat or look in the mirror and it’s happening again. i feel like i was deserved to be hurt and that i deserve to be hurt now and i am mad at myself that i am not being hurt in the current moment. i really don’t know what to do i feel like i’m so sick. i don’t want to tell anyone this because i’m scared they will think i’m sick.