i always do everything wrong, i'm bound to disappoint everyone and just living is embarrassing myself.
my friends and family tell me that they love me but i don't understand how it is possible to love me in the first place, they're probably lying to me

i always meet people with bad intentions and bring trouble to others
i'm always anxious about everything and it's becoming too much
i can't go on like this
i can't even afford therapy if i wanted to

i feel like i'm losing the only friends i ever had and they are my everything, i don't even how would be my life if this happened.
i'm honestly wondering if there's a point in me just existing

i don't even know why i'm writing this