I feel I’m so easily swayed by my partner and end up always admitting that they’re right and I have all these issues and am needing to work on the things they’re suggesting. I definitely know I have issues to work on but I’m confused as to whether I actually am doing what they’re thinking I’m doing. But because they say that I am doing it so many times, I end up believing it. I ask my SO questions sometimes about people (who I don’t know but that they know, like on social media or something) and other areas and they get annoyed that I’m asking those questions. I know it’s not my business to ask those questions but my partner takes it as me not trusting them or being controlling. I’m digging deep within myself trying to figure this out. I know I’m insecure in many ways so I assume they are correct in thinking it’s coming from that place but I feel confused because I feel genuine in my interest in my partners life and how their world is connected to other people, what they value doing or what standards are in place for our relationship. I know we are different and questions that bother my partner wouldn’t bother me if I was asked but I’m confused af by myself right now. I feel like a bit of a pushover for letting them say what I’m doing and agreeing with it. I feel like I do agree with them now but I’m not sure if that’s because my questions have been coming from the wrong/controlling place or if I have decided that they are because my partner has pushed that point for a while and I can logically see how it makes sense. I feel like people without BPD are more sure of themselves and able to push their points and opinions more. I really struggle with that and feel so easily swayed.

How can I know myself more and be more confident in what I think? I don’t even know what I think and I feel really weak because of it