I moved country because I couldn't handle where I was and who I was with. The place I am now is way better. I like meeting new people and I fit in here. It felt normal almost instantly and that's the issue. Impulsively moving held me together for a week or two and now I feel empty. I've been getting high or bingeing/restricting or spending money on nothing to try to feel something. It works but it passes so quickly and then I feel empty again.