i really dont know if this is linked to my depression but if someone thinks this post doesnt belong here i will delete it. 

does anyone else ever just feel like everything around them is fake? sometimes i zone out everything around me, whats happening what people are saying etc and it feels like i go somewhere else, but i just dont think. i just kind of feel light and empty, and i have nothing to worry about. sometimes i feel like i dont recognise myself or i question my own thoughts, beliefs , actions etc. i wonder if this is actually me believing and thinking this or if ive just taken this opinion from someone else. i often question if i actually like something or what i think about something but i can never seem to come to a conclusion. a lot of the time it feels like i cant form my own opinion so i convince myself i agree with other people. and i genuinley dont know what i want or who i am. a lot of the time i feel like im just a bystander watching my life , and im making decisions and actions but its also not actually me. sometimes everything gets blurry and everything either feels much bigger or much smaller. i think the thing that scares me the most is the thoughts i get, theyre often intrusive or violent and recently i havent gotten them as much luckily but sometimes theyre things i know i dont agree with, or i know is morally wrong. but its not me thinking those things, if that makes sense. im honestly just really confused and ive been feeling like this for years