Nothing seems exciting for me. Everything is losing its gusto. I don’t know what to do with myself. I felt all zen when I came back from vacation but now I feel like I’m going back to the same routine. I start things that I don’t finish. I have no drive or motivation. I feel like I’m losing everyone I care about. I feel like they’re just getting fed up with me, are unhappy, or I’m just driving them away. I’m trying to plan things to do and I do some of them but I feel nothing. Only thing I feel is pain/grief. I cry about my dad who passed away three months ago or I get really hurt about issues with my boyfriend. I get rather pathetic and feel like I “chase” him. I don’t want to be this way. I don’t know what to do anymore.