yesterday i was talking to my bf about how i always make friends with depressed or unstable people, and that makes it so hard to become healthy. i straight up asked if healthy people exist because i’m starting to doubt it. he is an example of the kind of person i wouldn’t become friends with: originally he confessed he liked me and due to a somewhat complex situation and my mental instability i pushed him away. he stayed in my life, kinda in the background and i realized how reliable he is and i value that a lot.

it just made me wonder, how many healthy people have i been pushing away without knowing it? the only people who seem to really attach to me are codependent or anxious attachment styles, but maybe that’s because i’m interpreting the signals from the securely attached people incorrectly??

idk what this post is, just thoughts i’m having