This is aimed at the guys in here. 
Too start off i have been in/out of wards since about 15 and many different diagnoses (depression,drug induced phycosis, schiktztophrenia??) till i recently turned 25 and a new doctor mentioned BPD. I watched and read some things and it seemed that everything made sense for once! Then all of a sudden the knowledge of highs and lows, why I’m so quick too the thought of unaliving, the intense relationships i create and then seem too get sick of for no reason, my love hate relationship with substances since my pre-teens, i am so much more confused!?! I feel like ignorance WAS bliss and now i see destructive patterns it hurts because i know there there but I’m still doing the same old. Looking into dbt therapy but where i am its very expensive and im allready struggling working and having my kid 50/50. I think my question is does it get better? An already taboo mental health issue but being a guy where its even less recognised because of my gender, where do i go from here?