I have been dealing with symptoms of bipolar type 2 for a while but recently it has became much more severe. I was mistreated for depression/anxiety by my general physician, as it is often and was put onto a ssri. This definitely worsened my state and I was later hospitalized after an attempt on my own life. Getting properly diagnosed has brought some extent of clarity but I have been stuck in this limbo state ever since. I don't know how to get better and my out of patient care hasn't been the greatest for me. Something I have struggled with the most is managing both sides of myself in social settings. I have had these mood swings always but it's again gotten worst. Im at times very energetic and and bubbly and that's how people know me (or how I want people to know me), and when I crash I use every ounce of my energy to try to uphold this persona bc I suppose I don't know how to act otherwise. It's been so hard tho to play that up all the time and ever since this has all happened, I feel it's bc my friends and family don't care enough and it's too overwhelming. I know that's not true entirely but this journey has been very lonely for me and I'm trying to not let the anxiety get a hold of me. I'm trying to not people please for once and take care of myself but it's scary coming face to face with it all, especially alone. Do any of you have any advise, whether it being books, ways of coping, or just words of encouragement?