My anxiety has been right before, and since last night it’s been pestering me about this. To start, English isn’t my first language so pls excuse me for any mistakes…

I was travelling with my place of education from the 16th to the 21st. When we arrived back yesterday, we all hugged each other when saying goodbye slowly as everyone left. I was left alone with my educator who I’ve managed to get quite attached to (my brain constantly seeks at least one parental figure amongst a bunch of people who are higher up than me) as she thought she was getting picked up, we hugged and while doing so I let go of the ground. Im 150cm and struggle gaining weight, while she must be around 175cm, so it’s an instinct I have from being picked up against my will by taller friends. She caught me and caught my sunglasses from falling down

She ended up coming back as her family would be late, and we sat and just talked. My mum arrived to pick me up, but ended up being in the back instead of the front, so we had to walk to there. During it she took my suitcase and said she just likes to roll those kinds of suitcases (4 wheels) and I said I don’t mind at all. When I said it, I took her arm which led me to holding her hand briefly. I comment on how warm her hand was and she took my hands individually to warm them. When we came out, we had one last hug and this time she picked me up and spun me around. We said our goodbyes and I was on my way. 

I felt good about it all until I was gonna go to sleep, when I started feeling my heartbeat and over thinking it. And now I’m left feeling like she hates me now. I know it sounds dumb but ofc I can’t stop listening to my anxiety? She’s touchy with the other students (it’s normal in my country, it’s not in a bad way) but hasn’t been very touchy with me, so I fear she just didn’t want to and I overstepped a boundary.. I can’t exactly ask, as my anxiety is bad enough I’d have an anxiety attack if I tried..