The urges I have to self harm right now are rampant and I feel so afraid. I'm unsure of what to do. 
I am struggling to keep up with the excruciating pain. 
It's like I want to claw my way out of my body by cutting all over as if it would relieve some tension, but it's never enough. 

I just want to escape so bad. The urges to act recklessly are getting so bad. 

I've begun to think about my last days and I'm shit scared of what I'll do. 

Has this ever happened to you guys too?