I really don’t like confrontation so when we fight I get severe anxiety. She’s always threatening to break up with me. I’m loyal to her and show her love all the time. She’s so insecure we can’t watch films with nudity because she thinks I’ll be wanting what I see. Today we were suppose to go to Disneyland for her daughter’s birthday. I was really excited to go but had no sleep because we have a 5 month old baby. All I needed was 4  hours of sleep at least. I woke up at 230 in the morning seeing her mad at me because she went into my phone and found messages telling my mom about how we fight and she shows this lack of affection. Also saying how much she means to me but she didn’t care about that part. She grills me with attitude and I start feeling my heart race because I know that this is going to lead to an argument. I told her we are good and I’m excited for the trip but I don’t want to argue and I need sleep. Doesn’t listen and starts threatening the relationship. I walk outside to my car and sit in there. My hearts racing , I have cold sweats and I want to throw up. She knows that anxiety gets me this way. She bangs on the car door trying to get me to argue with her. I keep saying leave me alone to rest. So when 7am came around she left with the kids and brought a friend to replace my ticket. I never once said I wasn’t going to go, I just needed this nausea to go away.