He hasn’t talked to me today idk what to do. My suicidal thoughts when he wants me 📉 vs when he doesn’t 📈. They just feel bad rn. I almost killed myself last weekend over this. and now it’s happening again. I wish he’d want me forever. maybe this is just gunna be a weekly thing. I just wanna lay in bed &amp; die. I hope he texts me. idk what to do. idk what I did wrong again. everything. I suck at everything. I just want him to want me again so I can be okay. I almost killed myself driving today because I didn’t look both ways. Just thought that was funny.