**Impulsive borderline with a sociopath boyfriend as FP**

Hi, throwaway account here. The problem is as titled. I am an impulsive borderline who has significant sociopathic traits, this causes a lot of problems in my relationships due to the contrast between emotional detachment and infatuation. My current boyfriend and also FP, whom I've been together with for about a month, is a sociopath. As mentioned, I have sociopathic traits myself such as lack of empathy/remorse, manipulativeness, and intoxicating charm, so his sociopathic perspective is understood by me in some way, I'm not really "in the dark," per se.

 Additionally, as someone who is an impulsive borderline with similar traits, I struggle with genuine, deep connections, and also huge contrasts with idealization to devaluation. I go from superficial relationship to superficial relationship, carefully curating my image to be idealized to my standard and appear exactly how I want to. But he saw through my mask and lies immediately and revealed to me that he has ASPD, and practices manipulation, and lacks emotions himself, but reassures me that I am "different" to him and he genuinely cares for me. As a sociopath myself, I've lied about how I feel before to other people very often. That being said, I feel as if he's always lying to me and I cannot trust a word he says, leading to me spiraling. 

Our relationship is fine as of now, but I feel powerless with him because of his calculating and placid nature and lack of emotions but I am so obsessed. I cannot manipulate or out calculate him. As someone who constantly seeks to be the center of attention (ugh. fucking bpd) and needs constant stimulation and reassurance in order to not spiral, he cannot provide this to me adequately as he appears to be emotionless a lot of the time. I am also an emotionally detached person, but this time I am so, so obsessed. I think he’s a good guy, and I do believe he genuinely cares for me, etc, but this seems like a very dangerous hole and I am not sure what to do. He is my current FP, and a lot of the time when he is distant/does not display much affection, I cannot help but spiral. 

 I need some perspectives here as to what you think I should do moving forward in the relationship. Do you think we are doomed for demise? What do you think I should do in order to contribute to a healthier relationship? Thank you.