My self harm has gotten so bad I’m covered in cuts and bruises and I don’t know what to do anymore guys. I’m getting married this year but my mental illness causes so much pain and stress in his life that I hate myself more and more, which means I hurt myself, which hurts him, and the cycle keeps going.
I can’t pull myself out of this self-destruction.
There’s no worse feeling then having a panic attack and self harming in front of him. I make him cry. I just want to disappear so he can live happily.