Starting  community college after high school I was given the grateful opportunity to recieve a full ride scholarship that would pay for everything as long as I passed my classes. 

But after the first semester happened I had been failing all my classes and now I ow the school 1800 not even considering next year. 

I have lied and lied repeatedly to my family that I’m doing just fine when in all reality I’m a fucking failure that can’t even pass basic classes.

I don’t even know what’s wrong with me at this point and I don’t know what to do anymore.

What the hell am I supposed to do come end of next year when I will probably horribly fail and admit to my parents I threw my life away and owe the school upwards of 6000.