Spent a long time partying constantly, going on huge benders, bad decisions, surrounding myself with strangers who enabled me to continue. I stopped using my drug of choice in November after I lost control (again!) and fucked up a friendship with a person who's somehow forgiven me for all my shit. I'm also now in a committed relationship that's going super well (helped me stop using that drug) and we're staying together through quarantine.

I can't stop thinking about using that drug and going back to that lifestyle and it's becoming pretty invasive - how do I get out of this?