Hi, 
I was diagnosed with BPD about 2 years ago. I am someone with BPD, not the illness itself. I was just wondering and maybe looking for a solution. For my entire life, it has been very hard to accept that I can succeed. I feel like I have a constant other version of myself, like an anxiety clone that dismisses anything good or happy. Especially if I do something right. For example, I get a good grade, I tell myself it wasn’t me, it was the good teaching or I make a job interview, I think maybe they pity me. Does anyone else experience this and have you found ways to help? Thank you and have a great day :)