My mother started off not liking my bf (we’ve been together for a year and a half so far) and I still thinks she doesn’t like him but I’ve only recently been allowed to go over to his house and vice versa. I’m 18 and he’s 20 for reference. She never really had a set reason not for liking him she says she just doesn’t and something was off about him but he’s really sweet and the best bf ever honestly. She wasn’t good at expressing herself about the situation and it was all very toxic and emotionally abusive (I don’t want to get into too many details about that period) which is why now whenever I have to ask her permission to see him I get really scared and put it off until the last minute. Sometimes I get a random burst of bravery and go to ask but then my hearts starts racing and I get very anxious and scared and just stand there for hours until I muster up the courage to ask her. I know the only reason I act like this is because of how she acted towards him in the past but it’s very tiring always feeling this way and feeling like I have a burden on my shoulders until I actually get the courage to ask. I need to stop feeling like this because I can’t take it anymore. I just want to be able to ask her to see my bf without feeling scared or anxious. Any advice?