i dont really know whats going on but i feel terrible and i cant rven describe it. i dont feel real i know i am but i dont feel like it and im freaking out its been like this for the past day and i cant even remember a single thing i did yesterday. latelu ive just been flipping out because i feel like everyone hates me and wont talk to me and i asked and it’s literally because i havent even been talking to anyone. i swear to god i was i dont know whats wrong with me. i relapsed on c*tting a couple mins ago and im looking down and my body i dont feel like thisbis real at all. i dont feel real and im fucking terrified of everything and everyone i feel like im in danger or something or just that everyone in my life despises me

i hate this does anyone know what i mean and how to get out of this i genuinely feel like im not even real and i have nothing inside me and im just sucking every aspect of myself and personality out of everyone else and anything that i see