I’m not sure if this is the right place to post but I’m panicking a little and not sure what to do.

CN: work, suicidal thoughts, leaving a job, bad reference

I was recently interning at a company and was diagnosed with BPD while I was there. I’d had to have a few days off before the diagnosis because I was extremely suicidal. I ended up being signed off for 3 weeks by my doctor while I saw my local crisis team daily, was prescribed new meds and finally got a BPD diagnosis. This was obviously difficult to deal with, and while I did go back to work after the 3 weeks off I struggled and subsequently had to take more time off. I ended up handing in my notice – the internship was due to finish 6 weeks later anyway – as I wanted to take a little pressure off myself and also didn’t feel it was fair on the company if I kept missing work, even though I had a note from the doctor.

Fast forward a few weeks and I was feeling a lot better, more stable, and coming to terms with the diagnosis. I applied for a new job and was offered the role after a successful interview. During the interview I didn’t disclose that I had finished my internship earlier than intended as I didn’t want to get into my mental health issues, but I did tell her I had finished working there. 

The day I was supposed to start, I got a phone call from the new job saying they had spoken to my old work and found out that I had finished early. She wanted to give me a chance to explain “my side of the story”, so I explained I had been ill and felt it was the right thing to do at the time to give myself a chance to get better, without going into details. She asked for more references, which I provided. 

Today she rescinded the job offer. I contacted my old employer who told me they would always praise my work in a reference, but if asked would mention that I had absences and finished the internship early. I am obviously so disappointed, but also now super worried about the future. I have another interview tomorrow – do I have to disclose then about my medical history and absences from work? I feel like this is gonna put me in a bad position but I don’t want this one experience to stop me working again. 

Sorry if this is super long, I’m just so stressed and panicky and don’t really know what to do! 

TL;DR: Had to quit old job because of BPD, have already had one job offer rescinded because of this and worried it’s going to happen again. 