i feel really awful for saying this, because i feel like the only reason i’m able to is from a place of ignorance or privilege, but the pressure to think about voting and the future of where i call home really stresses me out. like i know what my beliefs are, who i would vote for, but i lost track of time and can’t get an absentee ballot anymore and the thought of going out right now really makes me anxious. thinking about how the results may change the country freaks me out. the affect it may have on everyone’s future. everywhere i go it’s vote, vote, vote— and i feel like i can barely take care of myself right now, but i have this pressure to help change the world when i just feel like i can’t. i hate going on social media right now because it’s all i see and read about, and politics are a constant reminder of the fucked up things happening, and i just can’t think about it. i hate it. and i know not doing anything is the opposite of what i should do, and like i said i feel so bad for having these feelings, but i just turn into such a mess.

does anyone else struggle with this?