idk if it’s just me but when i google why people stay up late, it’s usually due to insomnia or avoiding their sadness. but for me, it’s different, quite the opposite actually.
i’ve been thinking and i realised i stay up late even if i don’t want to because it’s the only time i truly confront my feelings and get to wallow in my own sadness. is there really a problem or am i just self pitying?
i cant help but think if i was able to work my feelings out in the daytime then i wouldn’t need to reflect on my bad life at night - but i can’t do that. so idk how to fix it
but i kind of almost like(?) or feel comfort in my sorrow. like i am truly alone with my thoughts and i don’t know why but even if it’s painful i almost want this feeling?
was just wondering if im the only one and just made it up or if other people are the same :)