It's been a long time since my last post here and i felt there's some progress here and there since i started going to dbt therapy but these last few days were rough for me. To keep it simple i did something i shouldn't and found out that my s/o in the first months of our relationship, he talked to a friend of his (that he kinda dated in the past) in an affectionate manner, they would talk about how they missed each other, that they loved each other (this probably was in a friendly way but i just can't with the fact that maybe there was something else going on).

My bf told me that he didn't mean anything romantic or sexual with that and it's also something he stopped doing a long time ago, he doesn't even talk with this person anymore but i couldn't handle the situation and i still feel betrayed.


We argued, talked and idk i feel like i won't be able to forget this quickly. I know he loves me so so so much and this is a thing of the past, something he can't undo, he apologized and recognized that the way they talked to each other wasn't the right one.


but it still hurts.