We've been together for almost one and a half years now(25&amp;26), but for a good two months he hasn't said I love you anymore. He says that in the months before, he slipped deep into a new depression without noticing, until we had a particularly big talk where he finally acknowledged it and said that he didn't feel that much love for me anymore.

He said he had become numb all around and as part of that he became numb to feeling love for me, and as a result had not been the best partner lately. 

We agreed to continue on, because we care deeply for each other, and his lack of feelings seemed to not reflect what he truly felt, according to him. For a bit it was quite bumpy, it still is. 

But he worked on getting the things in his life that had been falling to the side back on track and now he has some great opportunities lined up. I'm proud of him.

Obviously, he still has depression though, I've only ever known him with it. He still does not know whether he loves me.

Right now, we are standing at a crossroads for deciding what the future will look like, because we both finished our education.

I never thought that this person I care so deeply about wouldn't know whether he loves me when we are standing at this big point. And if it were not for this I would be so sure that he is the human for me and that we could make it through thick and thin because us together, we're the best team.

But with this... I don't want to make life decisions based on a person who may have fallen out of love with me.

I don't know if this not knowing whether he loves me is the result of falling into a deep depression, or whether he can't tell that he is falling out of love with me and can't tell because he has depression.

But in my non-depressed understanding, once you fall out of love, you generally never really fall in love with the same person again. One can rebuild something and make it work for a while, but in the end, my experience is that then the relationship wasn't it for me, looking back. But maybe it's different, because for me the lack of feelings weren't connected to depression. 

My boyfriend isn't doing much to make me understand the things that are going on in his head. He wants me to be with him, but, though I want to be with him too, I cannot really understand him with him retracting into his own head. 

I think part of this post is just to lament a bit into the void, because it's a really difficult topic to talk about with the people in my life.

But while I have your attention, may I ask, have you ever found yourself in a situation similar to my boyfriend? Could you share that anecdote with me?