So I struggle this time of year since my dad passed away on st paddy's day and it's in my face every year so it's hard to forget. I naturally feel depressed. I'm surrounded by amazing people but it isn't stopping the sadness.

Just over a month ago I approached a guy I had a crush on. Asked for his number and we began talking daily. It was nice I felt happy because he was showing interest. But he was hesitant to meet up. I understood that and tried to give him time. I've decided to stop asking if he wants to meet up. I've accepted that if he wanted to, he would. It made me feel rubbish because whenever I would ask he would either avoid it or say something like "we will sort something"

I'm feeling even worse about it due to the time of year. Its a grief period hit by the realisation a guy i really enjoyed the company of didn't feel the same. Which yet again means I wasn't good enough. I don't know what to do. I want nothing more than to find someone to love and have them love me and support each other through the good and the bad but I'm really feeling like I'm incapable of being loved.