My mental health has never been the greatest. I came to the realization the other day I’ve been depressed since I was around 15. Anyways I just recently moved with my boyfriend out of state and I am LOSInG my shit. I don’t know if it’s some sort of ptsd or just my anxiety, but I hate being scared. I don’t watch scary movies. I can barely wash my face or get in the shower without being scared or having the feeling like something is going to “get me”.. does anyone else have this or know what I’m talking about or what this is?? The point of my rambling is I know my boyfriend can tell I am losing my shit and I’ve tried to voice to him that I’m losing my shit, I have an appt Monday to get bad on meds which in its self should let him know how I feel. I’ve also told him how I’ve been sleeping until 1pm because it’s the only time my brain can relax... (I’ve been struggling with my inner dialogue being harsh and constantly going in my head) and he decides to come in here with a scary ass mask on and sit on the bed and stare at me until I turned around (I’m a light ass sleeper because my anxiety which we have fought about for weeks now because he keeps fucking waking me up) anyways now I’ve been having a full blown panic attack for damn near 2 hours and I really couldn’t handle this right now. That’s a lot of rambling on, but yeah I’m losing my shit