Hello. Im not sure if im allowed to asked for help, because my family tells me that someone has worse  than me and i shouldnt complain. But i feel really sad and tired of life for like 5 months so it might be depression. Im having suicidal thought sometimes. One time i grabbed knife and i wad just sittimg and thinking about my life. I decided to try to find someone to talk on app. Its only in my language and i didnt saw nothing simlar in english. But its just talking with random people on tezt chat. And ive met some really cool girl (im a boy) in my age and we are talking on diacord for 1,5 months now. I really like her. She helps me get it thru it. But last days she has renovation in house and she is rarely online. Im feeling really bad without her. She was getting thru depression when she was younger. But she promised me that she will talk with me today but she didnt. Im feeling so bad today... i have knife next to me. I need help with this shit im not strong enough. Just please someone help mee.. sorry if my english is bad its not my main language. I just need someone to talk with. About anything. Just to be there for me...