I don't exactly know why, but for the last 3 months I haven't felt happy or really excited about anything, but I thought that's just because I got into a new school and it would change after a while. Well it didnt, it probably got worse. In the last 2 months I went from kinda not happy to actually wanting to die.

But the thing is I feel like im doing this to myself. Like I am not really like this and my brain is just making this up.
I don't want to feel this way, but it's hard to actually tell someone because I feel like I would be wasting their time with something that could just be my brain being dumb. 

I have done some online quizzes and stuff, but they are just online quizzes so that alone isn't gonna make me fully think I have depression.

I have been telling myself that it's not real and I should just not think about it, but lately it's the only thing I think about.

So far I have been trying to hide this from my friends and family because really they're the last people I want to see me differently, but I think some of them are starting to see what's going on. I feel like I don't want to burden others especially not friends and family. 

Also it's beginning to interfere with school stuff and my sleep schedule. I basically almost feel tired and that mixed with how lazy I am just makes me just play videogames all day. And I'm just not hungry anymore either. I basically lost all appetite.

I can't really put my finger on any sort of event or trauma that could have caused me to feel this way either so I don't know what I should or shouldn't do so it doesn't make my situation a lot worse.

That's all I wanted to say. Maybe I forgot something so feel free to ask.