I’ve been sober for about a week now. I was to the point where I was sneaking boxed wines during the day just to get through the day. I’d also finish a whole bottle before bed. Alcohol calmed my anxiety. It made me more confident and seemed to dull my constant mood swings and episodes. I laughed more and interacted much better with others. 

I decided enough was enough when  last weekend when I realized I was having withdrawal symptoms. It’s been a tough week with the dry mouth, waking up, and sweating a lot. But I know that self-medicating with alcohol is not going to help me be mentally sound. It’s not going to make life enjoyable when I’m older. I’ve avoided bars and drink seltzer water when people around me drink. I’ve found several ways to distract myself when I get a craving. I was thinking at first that I’d do a sober thirty days. Now I think a sober year would be even better. I want to challenge myself to be better and to control what Ic an control. I feel like this is a big step toward healing and making less impulsive choices. I’m proud of myself!