My (M26) mental health is really bad at the moment. I’ve been exposed to high level of stress for a decade. Lately with the job being shitty, working long hours for peanuts(can’t even change it the economy is so bad atm),  having a kid to look after, rent, bills, car etc  I feel like I’ve got the weight of the world on my shoulders. I’ve tried to speak to my parents about it and every time I said I might have depression, I feel really stressed and anxious they just shut me down they either say you’re ok just a bit stressed from work or just change topic. 

Determined to prove them wrong I’ve visited my GP and he said to alleviate the symptoms (depressive mood and no sleep) he prescribed zolof and Xanax drops but in addition he said that it would be recommended to start therapy. Where I live therapy is not available on the national health service and I can’t afford it. 

I told them I need therapy and again they said that it’s a bit too exaggerated in their opinion and that I don’t need it. They said to just go for walks or a jog (how if I’m always low on energy and hate the world). 

I feel lost and my voice is unheard. My sister had some problems, she self harmed and everyone (rightly so) helped her. I’m thinking maybe I should try to kill myself or self harm too. 

I don’t know what to do. Any tips? 

TDLR: parents won’t acknowledge my mental health problems, scared of taking medication, can’t afford therapy and I don’t have anyone to talk to.