tw// suicide, eating disorders, abuse, trauma

i think i may have bpd?

a couple years ago, still expirencing mental abuse, i snapped, and before i did, i was fine, but after, i was every symptom of bpd, and, once they felt i got too out of control, they attempted to medicate me, but, my mother, in jail, was called, and she didnt let that happen, they never told me what for, i was also baker acted, and had my pee tested, assuming they were looking to see if i was on drugs

ever since then, i was able to move to my grandmother's because my father couldnt handle me anymore, then slowly to my mothers, when my father decided he was done taking care of his kid for the first time

after that, they attempted another time, i had gotten expelled, and they were worried about the behaviors i showed, causing two therapists, and a psychiatrist, the papers that were showing why i was at the office, i wasn't allowed to see, but i do rember seeing substance abuse

now, i have a checklist from a website of things that could cause bpd, i didn't take a quiz, because i don't trust those things,

anyways im about to stop sounding professional so

anxiety: I've heard about it but I've never really looked into it

depression: my therapist has stated i have depression

eating disorders: i dont know how to say yes without it being akward but yes

suicidal behaviors: what i said for eating disorder

substance abuse: no, that sh*t ripped my family apart

genetics: my father- he was abused as a kid, so it can explain enough, i can for sure say that bitch is a narcissist and probably bipolar, and my mother, she hasn't told me much, but i do know she was diagnosed with schizophrenia at one time- if i did have bpd, from a genetic point of view, wouldnt be that suprising

neurotransmitter: uuh

neruobiolohyrnjdjd: jm not smart i dknt knwjdkdns

childhood trauma: at its finest

also, with the provided evidence, assuming they thought i may have been on somthing because of bpd, and the medication, that everytime my mother refused to put me on, im kinda questioning, can someone please give input?