I’m so scared this is hypomania/hypersexuality. I’m even having panic attacks while writing this. I recently switched to Trintellex from Prozac and went from 200mg of Lamictal to 400mg to keep away the hypomania. 

I’ve been working with this girl for 8 months, and she would just innocently flirt. I never thought it was serious. She is absolutely beautiful and fascinating, I never thought someone like her would like me. I am on my way out of my current job and looking for a new one. We started seeing each other recently and I’ve never been with someone like her before. She is also 23 and I’m 36. I have had the talk a million times making sure this is ok, I would never ever take advantage of her. I’m a very nurturing person in relationships and in general. It makes me happy to take care of her. We have a lot of the same mental conditions like OCD/tics, ADHD, anxiety and depression, so we understand each other and know how to help each other. 

But if this is all hypomania and this isn’t real/healthy, I may never get over this. I have never ever felt so strongly for someone in my life. I’m not trying to have sex with EVERYONE, so that’s a good sign it’s not hypomania. But it is me hooking up with a coworker, which I have always done unfortunately in every job I have had. I never thought it would happen at this job. We were good friends way before anything happened, so we just act like friends at work and work well together. I know that’s not healthy, so I will find another job asap. 

I can’t even breathe right now, I’m so scared of this. We both cry often saying how scared we are of getting hurt in this. I don’t know what to do. This is the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me. If it is hypomania, and I snap out of this if I change meds, I really will want to end it. My life is crumbling around me, and she is the only thing that makes me smile. I have no idea what to do. Thank you for letting me vent.