Everyday day in and day out my heartbeat constantly reassuring me that something is wrong drinking? That's causing your heart to race, laying on your stomach that's causing your heart to stop its causing your heart to beat too fast too slow to flutter to jump into your throat I don't want this anymore I don't know how to ignore it I don't know how to make myself go back to being who i was the person who didn't hear a constant battle noise going on inside of me I want to be calm I want to live again.