I admit I have codependency issues, I hate looking at a future where I'm alone. 
Recently my partner broke up with me, it's fine since it was for his own mental health, wanting to recover from trauma before jumping into something romantic  I understand.
But I really didn't have anybody else, I don't have anyone else.
I'm completely alone now, and it's just crushing me.
My panic attacks have been out of control, my thoughts have been killing me. I used to use cutting as a way to ground myself, so I don't slip into a dissociative nightmare but my mother found out and hid away all the sharp things, so it's been even harder to help myself.
I try to reach out to people, but I'm so scared of it all. I write poetry, I play video games but none of it feels worth it if I don't have someone else with me.
I don't want to be alone, it hurts so badly