Hello everyone, I haven’t been diagnosed with BPD but I will say that the emotional mood swings, intense anger, and mostly.. the fear of abandonment are all aspects of my life that have consumed me for the past couple of years.

My attachment style is anxious-attachment and if you know anything about that, you know that individuals w this are always in doubt of their relationships and perceive any argument or little thing as a big threat to their relationship. It’s an emotional rollercoaster.. it drives me insane. I’m always in fear, waking on egg shells almost to avoid any problems.. yet communication is so important. It’s all very complicated.

My fear of rejection/abandonment and cheating is getting so intense it gets in the way of my daily life. It’s not like I’m crazy either- because I HAVE been cheated.. many times.. I always feel like I’m not enough or that I’m too much. I need help, I’m clearly all over the place and the therapist I was seeing wasn’t the most skilled with these tremendous fears of mine.