I used love to holidays and it actually used to be my favorite time of the year but now I don't really enjoy it anymore. I'm not alone but I feel alone. All my friends and family are really happy around this time and I miss feeling like that. Then I try to fake being excited and happy so that I don't bring others down but that's so exhausting. I guess I just feel more alone around this time because no one knows how I actually feel and I just feel like I'm missing out.