Im so scared right now. It seems like i have so many things to worry about that wont be resolved for a while so i kind of have to exist in a state of constant anxiety for a long time. Im so scared what this will do to me i was in a near nonstop panic attack the other day and my whole body felt tensed up and my hear was racing the entire time. This wull definetly kill me or at least shave decades off my life right? Ive been anxious like this pretty frequently the past 3 or so years and im not even sure ill make it past my 40s because of it which only makes more anxious. Im going to die way sooner than id like it seems and im so sad by this. These things wont even be all as im certain other worries will be added to the pile soon enough as well like always.

Ill have to get braces soon and dental work terrifys me

Im scared ill fail my college classes and waste all my parents money or take the wrong classes and have to stay another semester or too, also wasting more of their money.

Im scared i wont find love since im too shy to talk to anyone i dont know.

Im scared my heart will go out on my in a couple of decades cause of all the pressure ive put it through the past few years.

Im scared i wont be able to make it as a working adult as i still feel like a child/teen at 19

Im scared all this anxiety is really a brain tumor and not just a product of my brain devloping in my teens.

Im scared of how small the earth is in the universe and how easily things die in nature and how cruel it can be

Im scared climate change will destroy society and my all my time i spent working towards my career a waste

Sorry if this seems like a rant or whining but i have on one to talk to about this stuff and it is piling up so much and it feels like im surviving in spite of all this anxiety, not living or thriving.