It has got to a point in which life being good sounds to good to be true for me… Making friends sounds like something that I can’t do and having a family sounds like a fairytale. I am done waiting for a miracle, I have just accepted that life will never be good for me and I just need to live with that. Probably some people like me are not designed for this reality, we are not wanted or accepted here. When I am thinking about it something more than living lonely and depressed doesn’t sound possible to me. I don’t see a reality in which I can be happy or something like that.