why can’t i be a better son

why can’t i be a better brother

why can’t i be a better friend 

why can’t i be a better nephew 

why can’t i be a better cousin

why can’t i be a better person

why can’t i be a better student 

why am i such a disappointment

why do i need drugs

why can’t i actually contribute something to society 

why can’t i ever catch a fucking break 

why did i give up

why don’t i want to live

why did i lose motivation 

why can’t i be happy

was this my fault? 

why can’t it all just stop

why am i still here

why can’t i just die


what happened to me?