Does anyone else experience, or heard of someone experiencing a severe phobia of showering? 

I’ve talked about this with 3 counselors and I’m starting to think I’m really out here alone. 

I have a very difficult time taking showers, due to what I think is undiagnosed ADHD or some other mental illness. As in, I have to wake up earlier than needed every day of my life (for over 10 years now) because I have to argue with myself about showering. 

Literally every part of it is disgusting to me, from the water to the nakedness, to the scrubbing. I just wanna scream, if I think about it too hard I’ll either cry or dry heave. 

I’ve heard that this is common among those with schizophrenia but other than that, nothing. If anyone has any ideas or like, similar experiences, I would love to hear them. I’m feeling really isolated and troubled over this.