Hi everyone! I live with BPD and everyday is a fucking struggle yay. I have been in therapy and still am and my life was on an upward trajectory. my life was simple and i was excited in life and for all the time i could devote to my hobbies and my family. Then life's scum and God/science(whatever you believe is valid)-created-mistake was sent my way: a boy. Now, don't misunderstand me: not ALL boys r terrible, but many if not most are. Though, for those boys out there who r people who stray from the typical-guy pack of assholes: i am proud of u and good for u. Anyways, i met this guy on Tinder and we "hit it off" conversation wise for a week or two. Well then he asks for my nudes and i dont do nudes or at least havent before and so i was uneasy about it but he sent his first so i sent throwaway nudes. I then asked what his intentions r and he said he wanted to be friends with benefits or a relationship with me. Anyways, fast forward a week and he suddenly says he just wants to be friends, nothing more and i was so confused and upset because he then started to say how he was confused about what he wanted with me for the past couple weeks and he said this after he saw my nudes. WHAT. A. CREEP. he then started denying when i told him that he led me on and thats not fucking ok. anyways i got really angry and cut that shit off. well looking back it isn't something too surprising because this isnt the first time i have been led on and looking back on my exes i see a pattern: all the guys i have been with and fell for all had issues in the past with being hurt or hurting someone and they dealt with this through closing themselves off in terms of being emotional vulnerable to others (which is a toxic way of dealing with lovesick pain). also, ps to any guy (who isn't like the aforementioned shitty guys) out there who is into AMAB non-binary peep hmu lol jk unless u want to then go for it also i am really tired. also what a shit about my ex, huh?