hi all, 

i just need to vent and am hoping for advice or to see if anyone else has ever had this problem. i am terrified of my landlord for no apparent reason. i am very clean, take good care of my apartment, and have never had a maintenance issue or concern as my apartment was updated and everything was replaced right before i moved in. i have been renting this space for about 6 months and already re leased for another year into late 2022. i have always paid my rent and bills on time and typically early. i know my landlord from a few years ago when i rented another unit from her with some friends (at that point we had some negative encounters with her due to a very run down unit that would often need repairs and maintenance regularly, plus we were all college students and i could tell we stressed her out as we were all so young) fast forward to now - i live alone and do everything right. however whenever my landlord comes to my building to do showings or is on the property for other reasons - i get terrible anxiety. i feel she is going to come into my apartment without notice, or like i missed an email or text where i didn’t know she was going to come in. i am terrified i am going to be “in trouble” for something or like she is going to notice a slight mess and evict me. the whole time she is on the property i just feel worried and uncomfortable. i’m always afraid she is going to come into my unit when i am away from home. it’s worth mentioning that i have had bad landlords in the past and have had negative experiences of them being overly invasive/controlling or reacting harshly when i reached out about a problem. i truly do not believe that is something i need to worry about with my current landlord and all of my interactions with her since i moved in have been overwhelmingly positive. i don’t understand how to convince my brain that even if there was a negative occurrence or concern - it would be manageable and work out - my fear of being evicted or suddenly in a spiral chaotic situation is irrational. any reassurance i am being delusional is helpful or has anyone else had anxiety surrounding renting/landlords? it’s not constant, i would say typically just when she is on the property specifically or maybe even i go out of town for several days. thanks for letting me vent.