I recently ended things with my now ex because I was treating him in a hugely disrespectful way. Of course this isn’t the first time I’ve attempted to run. He’s on holiday with his friends and in these situations my brain literally combusts. I’ve struggled to cope with this in previous relationships and 99.9% of the time I act out and end things whilst they are away. I would say I’m probably in the worst state of mind I’ve been for a while. For instance, I keep over spilling information about unresolved childhood trauma (sexual abuse) to my friends when I’m drunk. I’m back to drinking too much alcohol on weekends. I went from being totally against drugs to then regularly taking them, this happened again only a few days ago. Whilst I’m so unstable I don’t think I should involve anyone in my romantic life because they will inevitably get hurt and badly burnt. To me, this is a rational decision and I can only see things getting worse in the way I treat him. I’m in DBT but there’s still a few modules to cover yet. I try to implement my skills and share with the group about how this situation is my hardest to battle with. Do I wait and attempt to pick things back up once I’ve finished treatment? Can anyone provide some perspective? Did I do the right thing? I’m absolutely mortified and have no idea how I’m going to tell my friends, family etc it’s over. Please help