A few months ago I got diagnosed with BPD. All this time I've trying to avoid medicine because I feel like I can get addicted and I have an aunt who is addicted to her anti-depressents and I don't want to end up like her in the future.
The thing is, my mood swings are getting worse, I started to get more flashbacks, my anxiety is getting worse to the point my panic attack lasts for an hour. On a daily basis. When they used to last 10 minutes or so. Every 2-4  days.
So I've been thinking of actually taking medication. I am scared of it because of what I explained, but I feel that it might help me (btw my therapy session is today  – I can get the medication today). 
Any advices? It will be really helpful. I want to hear you all out. Thank you.