I feel like Im not allowed to be angry. People are allowed to set me off and piss me off but if I get pissed off, everyone freaks out and Im being unreasonable.  MY wife is the worst. I misspoke, lost my train of thought. She kept hounding me, badgering me, making me feel like a piece of shit. So i get angry. She got in the car and left. I feel like I am being gaslit and Im not allowed to be angry. Its just the BPD. Sometimes I feel like everyone around me is toxic and has already abandoned me. I dont know what else to do but type here and get no response. I dont know what to do I am lost.