Ended up going into what I thought was psychosis during Covid and in where I did not know where I was, had severe hallucinations and delusions, and at one point thought I was the complete heir to the throne and Queen Elizabeth died. 


Luckily I had a doctors appointment today and they added anxiety and depression medication’s along with increasing my Lamictal, trazodone, and Abilify. But, I won’t lie ever since the psychotic episodes I’ve been severely drained and have had no energy whatsoever. Like, I have no motivation currently and because of that I had a severe panic attack considering the fact that I go back to college this week and need all the motivation possible to be able to do well at school. So here’s to hoping that the medication‘s work well and I don’t experience the same shit again. 


Shit sometimes feels like an extremely terrible indie film to be honest.