I (F/22) have never been diagnosed with anxiety or anything similar to it – I've never been to a therapist. But the more I inform myself about it, I think that probably something isn't alright with me.

I live with my long term boyfriend and usually don't feel like this, but now he's away for some time (work) and I have to be on my own. Days are fine, but bedtime is when it gets bad. There is not even anything bad happening, I am not aware of any fears, anxiety, stress, etc. But whole evening I have my stomach in a knot, I have cramps in my stomach and intestines, the kind you have before taking a big exam/going to a dentist. This weird uncomfortable rush of adrenalin. Except it happens when I am just chilling in bed watching a TV show/reading and it lasts for hours so I can't even focus on the thing. I calm myself down by breathing slowly and clearing my mind, but it comes back again.

Then when I try to sleep I have lots of intrusive thoughts, think about all the bad things that could happen to me/my family/boyfriend, I think what if someone breaks into the thouse when I am here alone? Also I have music play ALL the time in my head on repeat on top of that. It feels like I am standing in a crowded street. And I cant make my brain to shut up and calm down, even with focusing on breath, etc. Last night it took me about 1,5 hours to fall asleep because of that.

It only happens when I am on my own and it is quiet &amp; I have time to be in my head. It drives me crazy, because there is literally nothing happening to feel that way.