I feel so gross about myself today. I’ve been thinking and thinking and thinking about a guy who rejected me. Why did he rejected? what did I do for him to not like me? Will I get another chance when I love myself? My am I so fat? Why do I have so many pimples on face? Why can’t I love myself? Why do I hate myself some days and are okay some other days? Why do I hate looking at myself in the mirror? Am I ugly all the time? Will I feel this feeling tomorrow? 


Just to clarify, I am working on myself. Just over thinking at this point. I understand that it’s part of the disorder. Just hard to deal at this moment. Like I said before, I feel better to write down what I’m feeling to help cope with all the thoughts….