I don’t know why but lately when I get into these anxious thought spirals, I’ve been feeling like the only solution is to just up and leave my life. These spirals make me feel so helpless and out of control, and I feel like a burden to the people in my life. I want to run away from everything. My anxiety has become worse over the past year (probably due to the pandemic), and I now worry that it’s going to ruin my relationships. I worry that people are going to become annoyed with my anxiety and not want to be around me. That’s how I end up thinking, ‘well I should just leave and beat them to it.’ I hate typing this. It makes me feel weak and helpless. But I wanted to vent to a community who might understand what I’m going through.