hi everyone. i have anxiety and ocd. i’m a very safe driver because my ocd makes me constantly follow the rules of the road. last night i was driving home during rush hour traffic. i sped up to make a gap so i didn’t get smushed by two tractor trailers, but in doing so broke the speed limit. it’s 65 mph on the interstate. everyone was doing 80. i did 87 to make that gap and then let off the gas afterwards. 

i then saw a state trooper in my rear view. he followed me for a bit and i finally just pulled over because i stopped being able to breathe. i was about 900 feet from my exit. he pulled behind me and turned on his lights. i had a massive panic attack. i was struggling to breathe and crying and my heart rate was 160 bpm. it was all so embarassing. it was my first time being pulled over. i got 2 points on my liscense (NJ), and a $114 ticket for careless driving. now i can’t buy my biology textbook. it just all really sucks. 

i’m scared to drive now. i have to drive 4 hours back to school in rhode island on friday. i don’t know if i can do it. between the panic attack and the ticket in general. any advice is appreciated.