I'm about to graduate college and I'm terrified.  I have anxiety but since I got on Lexapro a year ago it hasn't been too bad.  But I've been more anxious in the last couple weeks, and it's been building up and getting worse.  I graduate in the middle of May.  When it turned April my anxiety got ramped up because I knew the date of my graduation is getting closer.

After I graduate, I'm going to move into my boyfriend's apartment.  My parents know this and have discussed it, and they're ok with it but they don't like it.  I come from a conservative family and I know they are going to think I'm living in sin especially my dad (even though they lived together before they were married).  One of my big anxiety triggers is my parents having anything to do with my personal life and their judgement of me.  There's so much they don't know about me that I hide from them so they don't judge me.  In the past I worried more about losing their financial support, but now that I'm graduating, I won't have their financial support anyways.  So now I'm just worried about their harsh judgement.

I work for the school so my employment ends when I graduate.  I am looking for a summer job that will be near my boyfriend's house. (In the fall I will start working on starting my career).  I have mentioned to my mom I guess I will be moving into my boyfriend's current apartment when I graduate, and then when his lease runs out we'll find a new place.  Honestly I don't even know what my alternative would be if I wasn't moving in with him.  I don't know where I'd even go.  Nothing is set in stone yet, but it just seems like this is what's most likely to happen.  I'm worried something is going to not work out and I won't find a job, and my parents will yell at me for being irresponsible. 

I'm just so scared that my parents are going to come down on me one last time and give me their judgement before I'm financially independent from them and they can't say anything anymore.  I'm worried they're going to invade my privacy, judge me, and criticize my choices.  They're on their way to my apartment for easter right now and I'm just very anxious and scared thinking about seeing them and the future.