So I pretty much have been struggling to take care of myself and feel disconnected from my body. I don’t have any skills that stop me from being paranoid about everyone around me and I’m stuck in an IOP program for anxiety that isn’t exactly working out so well. I just keep taking benydryl and melatonin and sleeping all day to get away from it all… I’m supposedly to start a new antidepressant an SNRI but I don’t know how those work cause I never took them before… I mean they always say you get out of therapy what you put into it and I don’t see myself getting anywhere but worse the more I see how people truly are and I was in therapy for over a decade… better off fighting my own demons I feel worse since I started meds and the doctors think it’s my meds that are making me sicker. Are they trying to conspire against me to keep me as a patient so they can make more money?