I’m in high school and ig everything at high school is fucked up but why is telling other people to end their lives so common. I kinda thought that everyone should know that that’s such a fucked up thing to say to someone, but I hear it all the time. Literally know a dude who struggles with mental illness and stuff who told me that he tells his sister to kill herself everyday and when I told him that was fucked up, he just said he doesn’t care, he wants her to. I get most people aren’t like that prick and probably just don’t understand how fucked up it is, but it’s not that difficult to understand. I’m suicidal and my sort of friends from school earlier were on ig live and I commented a joke and this guy told me he hopes I kill myself. I’m not effected by that to the point where I’m gunna do it, but the way I’m feeling everyday, if i ended up doing it and that guy remembered what he said, that’d probably fuck him up forever, because he’s a little pussy and I doubt he actually understands what the fuck he’s saying. I don’t fuck with anyone from my school anymore. They’re creepy af, they just keep doin weirder and weirder shit. Not only do I have to sit through bullshit lessons all day but the people I hang out with at lunch and shit and fuckin scum. And when I get home I either smoke weed or lay in bed for hours listening to music or crying. It’s nearly 2am, i gotta be in school tomorrow. Even when I finally get to sleep, I just started a low dose of prozacs for a week to see the side effects or some shit and they’re interrupting my sleep, giving me vivid dreams of chasing geese of cliffs and shit. Fuck this shit. I been trying to stay positive but fuck. I cba finding my razor somewhere on my desk and going to the bathroom, so imma jus lay here and listen to yung bruh