I'm struggling so much with just butting in whilst she's talking, I can't bloody help myself. I don't want to be rude and interrupt but I literally just can't help it like it just falls out of my mouth, no matter how hard I try to stop talking.

It's shit and my girlfriend is really getting sick of it. 
We're both diagnosed with BPD and it's so hard because I'm trying to be weary and cautious of her triggers but I keep upsetting her because I never listen and just constantly interupt

I'm trying to be better and raise my hand or ask if it's okay to talk before proceeding but it's still so hard, I can literally feel my whole body squirming, like the words are inside and under my skin dying to jump out of me. I try and hold it for as long as I can but sometimes I can't control it

I don't know why I do this and I hate it so much, I'm getting myself to a point now where I just want to completely shut down and not talk. I know it sounds bad but whenever I seem to talk I get in more trouble and upset so many people around me, I just don't want to so it anymore :( 

I'm sorry for rambling and if you have read this thank you ❤
I really hope this is a BPD thing as well and maybe others struggle with as well, I don't know, I just don't understand it and I hate it :(