We’ve all heard of the others(prodromal phase, residual phase, remission phase etc). What about this phase: My brain is fucked up phase. 

This is how I describe how it feels to constantly be in fear of horrific psychotic symptoms returning. It’s the memory of all of the psychotic episodes still giving you PTSD-like symptoms remaining in your head. It’s the idea that your symptoms that give you a feeling of “there is no cure to being this brand of fucked up”. 

Does anyone also have “my brain is fucked up” schizophrenia?