I'm in a new relationship...to give an overview of how I got into a new relationship, it was within days of breaking up with my ex, who I was still sexually intimate with, a couple of weeks before. After that it was just talking 

I have no feelings or desires for my ex, but I feel like since I didn't end things on a mom sexual note while I was with him, it makes me feel like I would engage in something of that sort again. I obviously don't want to but I'm extremely scared of it. 

He's an emotionally manipulative piece of shit who had no respect for me. Just wanted to hold onto me because he couldn't handle his own emotions. Im not sure if he cheated, I'm certain he did but he lied to me a lot.He's had a very bad impact on my mental health and I haven't fully recovered from what happened in my previous relationship, because I simply don't understand it. What, why how the fuck. 

I'm really undeniably in love with my boyfriend. I really really want stuff to work out between us and I've given my all. 

The last time I spoke to my ex was to tell him I'm in a new relationship, and it went badly. I was crying the whole time because I was an emotional wreck and probably felt guilty about hurting him and getting intimate with him towards the very end, he constantly told me to come see him. I didn't go because my current boyfriend would be furious and I was scared that my ex wanted to get intimate with me. I did not want to make any mistakes so I didn't go.

I didn't get physical closure, in the sense that I didn't walk away without getting intimate with him and just ending the relationship virtually. and I'm scared. Of getting intimate if come across him 

Though the very last time I met him, we kissed but that was it. He asked me to take things forward and i didn't. Maybe that was progress? 

Just please help me out