After what ive lived through in my prime time and getting diagnosed with paranoid schiz due to heavy psychedelic and overall drug use im not able to trust a single woman. I think every woman that owns a smartphone and has social media is already cheating or is ready to cheat at any time. This doesnt apply to every woman, but all the woman i myself am meeting. Also ive gotten extremely cockthirsty texts from girls who are in a long term relationships and it made my thoughts about this topic even worse. I got cheated on once and i think that traumatized me. Im aware that Men are just as disgusting since Ive had some friends who cheated on their girlfriends and flaunted about it, i removed those friends out of my life because of this degenerate behaviour. Infidelity is a big concern of mine when it comes to the topic of relationships, one part of me wishes to be in a relationship but if i think about getting cheated on again i completely block out every possibility of even meeting a girl. I didnt have sex or intimacy/romantic relationship for 3 years, i actually miss it. I dont want casual sex because i think that this activity too is for bottom of the barrell degenerates, im also extremeley paranoid of STDS, please dont tell me to use a condom because i know people who caught terrible STDS even tho they still use condoms.