I quit my job some weeks ago, one of my considerations was anxiety. After work, I’d find myself tearing up at the fact that I was in a place I didn’t want to be, pursuing a career I didn’t find fulfilling, and people that were well-meaning but so so hard to work with since I wasn’t as passionate for the career as they were.

Health also started declining for me and everyday was just this struggle to find a balance between my mental health needs and physical health needs.

Now that I don’t have a job that requires me to go out, I’m less stressed and  less anxious but it still really weighs me down to think about the future. I’m doing what I can with all that I have right now to keep afloat, taking courses, keeping busy, trying to be well despite all the setbacks. How come the anxiety is still there? Why do I still feel unsettled?

Do I have to get medicated again? It’s been years since I took medication for my anxiety but I’m thinking I may need them now more than ever.