I'm pretty shitty at committing to things and close friends and family have always called me out for it. Whether I've promised to do better in school, to save money, to meet someone to hangout, to check out a new TV show/movie that someone reccomended me, take my younger siblings and niece and nephew to Dave &amp; Buster's or that I'm gonna get them something for Christmas or their birthday but I never end up having any left of money because I blew it all so I end up being broke af before I ever buy them anything.

And I really don't know why I say things that I don't do. Initially, I have the intentions of doing these things but I just end up not and I don't if it's because I just don't give a fuck. I mean do, I obviously don't want to continuously keep dissapointing the people I care about. But fuckk.