It’s crazy looking back at old pictures and videos of yourself from not so long ago and wondering how so much has changed. Seeing a genuine smile and not remembering the last time you felt like that. I miss it so much, I see happy people all the time and can’t help but be so jealous. I want to feel that again. I want to feel hopeful and excited for things again. I want to be able to joke around like I used to. I’m tired of being so aware of everything I just want to be free. I want to care about things again.