my dad passed when i was about 10 and ever since then Ive found it really hard to find a reason to live. i lost all my ambitions and found myself lost and forgetting what my life was and is meant to be. for as long as i can remember i hated my life even before when he was here i still hated it. i dont have anything to live for. there is no one who cares but my mum whose been struggling so much. is there any point of living? in the end its just pain. im honestly trying so hard but my family well everyone makes it so hard. I might just be overly sensative or smth but everything hurts so much. i just want to be happy. or have just 1 person who truly understands me and supoorts me. is that too much or am i being selfish????? ive held it in for too long and dont know what to do so i finally got the courage to post. im sry for wasting ur time.