All I do these days is sit around feeling absolutely useless. I‘m 16 years old and already feel like there is no point in carrying on. I have no job so I have nothing to fill up time with something even slightly meaningful. I‘ve felt no thrill in my life for such a long time, I am constantly being told to live in the now by my family but there is nothing happening. There is nothing to be lived. And even with what there is I feel no motivation to do anything. I have movies I‘d like to watch, shows I‘d like to watch, books I‘d like to read, friends I‘d like to talk to, food I‘d like to eat, places I‘d like to travel, instruments I‘d like to play, stories I‘d like to write. But I have no motivation for any of this and I have no reason to do anything I previously had any ambition to do. It all just feels pointless. No matter what I do I‘ll wake up with the same dissatisfaction as from when I went to sleep the previous day. Sometimes I try not to wake up since I know that there is nothing to do, there is no purpose to be and no purpose to try.