Has anyone had any success in overcoming self sabotage? There is nothing I want in life, I have contact with no friends or family, no job, agoraphobia, every day is complete solitude at home, life is meaningless and empty, I have no reason to live. That said, I have no idea what the rules to this game are so I am trying to wait out this punishment called life until I die of somewhat natural causes. Try as I might to perform basic tasks required for the most baseline level of functioning, I cannot stop self sabotaging. I am very focused on healing and have been in consistent therapy since January. I have overcome addiction the previous year. However, any time I make a move to overcome one thing and succeed, I inevitable destroy something else. I am pretty screwed at this point and pretty scared. I have gone back to my ED I was severely anorexic in high school, recovered, still a healthy weight now but I’ve started severely restricting again. I got an interview with Trader Joe’s tomorrow and I am going to skip it. You would no believe me if I told you all the things I’ve thrown away. I don’t know what to do. My lease ends October and I’m terrified I’m going to go live on the streets. No matter what I do to sabotage life doesn’t end just gets worse. Too scared for suicide. Coward. Very scared.