I got diagnosed with bipolar II a month ago and I’m only getting worse because my grandparents aren’t allowing me to be on meds. 

I literally feel like I can’t do nothing and the world just hates me I’m very socially awkward.

I feel like every time I fail at something and get embarrassed I can’t look at myself in a good way I think everyone is making fun of me and they’re looking at me even tho in reality they don’t give a shit. 

I’m an freshman (15) in high school and I’m in rotc and regret joining so much because I embarrass myself every time they ask us to do our faces. (About face, left face, right face, etc) I can’t do them because I can’t comprehend anything someone tells me. And I get picked on for not nothing how to do these. 

I take jokes too personally and its landing me an assault charge and I’m going to juvie soon. (I fought someone because they said something to me) 

I’ve been in an manic state and I’ve only just been very angry all day. 

But i don’t know I just needed to rant