uh, I dont know how to start this. this is a fake account i just made so no one could know my real account, and probably no one would read this but, I am 15 years old, I have been struggling, I mean really really struggling. I have lost interest in most of the things in my life, I have few friends that you could count on fingers and I am no ones favorite, im just that guy that is there when they need an extra dude, no one checks on me unless I do, I am dealing with porn and masturbation addiction that im trying to quit for 2 years and cant quit, I feel empty and tired from the bottom of my damn heart I dont want to die I just want to sleep and never wake up again,, just sleeping without any pain or dreams. and no one cares about me beside my family, I have been dealing with this for 2 years now.. like I said I dont want to die i just want to disappear. and I dont have fun doing anything I liked before ... It fucking hurts man, man It fucking hurts im Crying, Im no one first choice or best friend no one likes me for being me. I always see the end of the tunnel but when im reaching it, it just goes further and further what i mean is when things get good again in life it just turns worse than before after some days, i dont want to talk to my parents about it because I dont want to tell the people who made me I dont want life anymore.  That's it thank you if anyone read this.