For me being a kid was easy (except the abuse lol?) I was really popular, great at all sports, above average academically and super confident in myself. 
The same as i started to grow, i managed to achieve some pretty astounding things, had a beautiful girlfriend, still popular, i could get on with anyone from any walk of life! I was always told i had a unique energy charisma about me, it made life easy at times! I made a few bad decisions when i hit my teens but all was good. I still had my charisma and was generally happy. 

Then when i hit about 19 things started to change, i dont know what happened, i got triggered by something. But the next few years was a downward spiral i lost my girlfriend, lost my home, lost my job, had fights with friends, starting getting arrested, i literally stopped speaking to everyone i knew. I realise now after some good therapy it was my bpd causing this as i had blocked things out from childhood and it had caught up with me.

The way i see it now is when im in a good stable place (which has been a while) my bpd actually turns me into a great person, great to be around, great productivity, great enjoyment from life. However when depression gets a hold or my anxiety gets bad i end up on the complete other end of the spectrum, i end up being a nasty bit of work, doing fuck all with my life, and feeling suicidal. 
Just wandering if anyone has noticed this happen to them? If anyone else felt that when they’re in a good stable place their bpd benefited them and even made life easier. before so and so triggered something and then bpd makes life impossible and extremely hard to get through.