For the past 2 years there has been this voice in my head that comes and goes. The voice takes the face of old friends I had at the time. The voice speaks freely and when I try to tune it out, it finds a way to hold on to things in my surroundings to catch my attention. For example, (I’d be watching something and they could say “stick to the basics” and my mind will go on and on about how I am not equipped enough to win this battle in my mind.) This voice tells me to stop trying and that I have no purpose. This voice tells me that I have sold my soul and that I’m not in control of myself. This voice tells me I am cursed. This voice also tells me that I am in hell and that I belong with whatever friend takes face in that moment and nobody else. Everytime I have a negative thought numbers pop up, ex.) 717, 222, 313, 525, 369, etc. these act as a confirmation to the thought I was just having. I feel overwhelmed by these thoughts. Anyone else experience something similar?