I wish I wasn't born. I'm too scared of what will happen when I die, but I'm to tired to keep moving forward.  I'm scared of the lack of knowledge of what happens after death, but I'm also scared that there might actually be people who care about me. I  realized that no one actually cares about me. Even if some one says they care it doesn't mean shit, its just what they are supposed to say to stop someone from killing themselves. No one gives a fuck when someones alive they just don't want them to be dead. I often wonder if anyone would actually care if I disappeared. I'm not even in college yet. I have a month before I leave and all I want to do is disappear off  the face of the earth. I wish I was never born in the first place, so there's nothing to fear or worry about in the first place.