I feel as though I have been stripped of lives fun and nostalgic memory making feelings. All of the joy and peace and morning sun freedom feelings. I used to have these all. Now all I think of everyday is being sick with a mental illness. It’s making me cry because why can’t I be like other people that don’t experience these debilitating feelings of random worry and consuming depression. I want to be a free spirit in this world of dreams and hope. Why can’t I feel that anymore??