Hi guys,

Anxiety (and depression) has started to take over my life since I graduated high school in 2017. It's progressively gotten worse since then and my psychiatrists have been prescribing different medications to treat other symptoms I've been experiencing like depression then psychosis then bipolar and so far they've all failed. Not only have they failed, I'm getting worse. I should also mention I have autism spectrum disorder. It's high functioning enough to make people think I have it in me to work 40-50h a week at some bullcrap job. Last time I tried that I was in the hospital every month. I have no actual 1 on 1 therapy in place because over the years I've lost hope in finding a therapist who can help. I can't do this on my own, medication is not going to do all the work. I need to get off my bed but it seems the only way I will is if someone is physically beside me 24/7 to help me do it. And I definitely don't want that. How have I made it this far? Help from my mental health program. But with the way things are going my period of being afloat will end, and I'm worried that this time it happens I won't re-emerge.

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So are there any online resources that can answer question like why I'm so afraid of hearing roommates make noise outside of my room? or why I feel incapable of having a regular conversation with a cashier? and most of all, how I can start to fix it and get better? I'm working on finding a therapist but I need to find the right one you know what I mean jelly bean?

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Thank you and take care,

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Jeff