So I have come to a realization that I really don't have many friends. Even people who I call friends, aren't really that close to me. I have gotten to the point where I don't let anyone in. Sure people know my story but they don't have a place in my heart. I love very very few people. I've had long term friendships that I thought would kill me when they ended, but inevitably they ended and I barely felt a thing. Is this normal?