I don’t quite know what to do right now, i came here to ask for advice.

I started talking to this guy a couple of months ago, he lives in a different country, everything was normal for a while there until a couple of weeks ago he told me he loved me. 

I didn’t know how to feel at first, we had only known each other for about 2 months but he seemed genuine. We spent two full days together, talking on the phone, playing games together. it felt like heaven on earth. 

3 days ago i realized i felt the same, so i said it back. I told him i loved him, and we opened up to each other, he understood my struggles and wasn’t afraid when i told him all of the mess inside. I told him i was afraid of being used and he told me he was also afraid, but for other reasons.. he didn’t want to do long distance 

I didn’t want to either, but it wasn’t like we would never meet one another. We talked about our feelings and how they were mutual, then came what we were going to do about it. He told me he couldn’t do long distance, i kind of figured that was just a gut reaction and i could change his mind. Evidently i couldn’t. 

I told him i didn’t want to just be friends, and then i immediately drew back on that after realizing what i had done, so i said i would message him from time to time. (in reality i was just going to do the classic post on social media in attempt to get him to love me again) but he unfollowed me. So then i told him goodbye completely, and i blocked him. 

I now feel extremely awful and i wonder if i made the right decision. i wonder if i should’ve just stayed as his friend and swallowed my feelings. I’m really really lost right now. 

My biggest weakness is that i can’t be alone, i always have to be talking to someone in a romantic way, and i had finally found someone who liked me as much as i liked them and now all of this has happened. 

if any of you know how to cope with being alone in the romantic sense, please let me know.