(33M) I’ve been having issues with friends and alcohol issues. I have voiced my clearance of how alcohol affects me and I started to slip ever since my birthday in August. A month later my friend (F) went through a violent breakup and reached out to me for safety. Our circle of friends are pretty much the same as a cast of “friends” and the problem is that most of the time no matter what struggle heavy drinking is involved and I followed suit. 3 months down the road we have been acting as a couple but still unhealthy but I was still taking care of her because I know she was hurting and within that small window she shared that she was bipolar as well which was new to me and I started to understand. Within a week of that she went out got blackout was texting me late where I was which I was at home on the couch and she never responded back. Found out the next day one of my friends (M) in our circle took her to his place and they had sex. I’m heartbroken from the friend standpoint and I have since placed barriers between all friends involved because it took them over 10hrs to tell me in which in that time they took me to her place of work for dinner they knew the incident I had no idea, continued to hang out after and then they broke the news and when she showed up everything escalated. She feels terrible my other guy friend feels terrible my other friends feel terrible for keeping it from me because they were trying to “protect me”. It’s really hard to forgive everyone because they’re all at fault but they’re in some way the only friends I’ve got. I’m adult enough to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason but just looking to see if anyone else has gone through something similar. Thank you in advance