Just pulled an all-nighter, didn't mean to but here we are. I know I get super in my head and think about my relationships and get unbelievably paranoid the longer I'm awake, I'm sure I'm not alone in this.

I know I'm basically asking "how can I not have BPD for the next 10 hours" but even just responding to comments while working will help distract me from all the "what ifs" currently filling my head. And of course I get irritable so I'm going to try to avoid talking to my boyfriend about anything serious so I don't do anything stupid.

I *might* have a chance at an hour nap in around 2 hours, but not sure if I should take it because waking up is gonna be super rough. Anything helps, really, just really needing a distraction! Hoping this counts as healthy rational thought!