For fucks sake. So there's a girl that recently came back into my life (like a few weeks.) I met her five years ago but we haven't spoken for about two of them.

She's so difficult. She doesn't do relationships because she ends up hurting people. She's like always around guys and stuff. She's not like a bad person idk it's just she's scared to commit I think. 

It's so hard for me to see her with other guys. Like if she would date me and promise to be faithful it'd be one thing.. but this love limbo we've got going on is killing me.

I want to scream. I can't go to work or even fuck around on my computer because she hasn't been replying to my Snapchats today. Like wtf it's so small and it might be nothing. Or it might be one of her moments where she just drops off the earth and leaves me wondering if she will ever be back. 

I can't fucking concentrate rn this is so stupid I feel so dumb depending so much on her.