Male, early 30's, an irrelevant person. I struggle to wake up, and also struggle to sleep.
I have no joy on absolutely anything that i had joy in the past. 

I go to the gym on a daily basis, but i don't really know why, because i truly care less and less about my body as these meaningless hollow empty days pass.

My existence makes my wife's life a living hell for her. I don't really know if things will keep to work out, because no one really enjoys sharing their home with a living zombie.
I only have negative thoughts and reality seems grey, foggy and painful.

I see here that most people are depressed only due to the fact they feel lonely or bad about their appearance, but unfortunately I am here to say that even if these are fixed, the death wish still follows you forever, as mine have followed me for 20 years.

I don't care about my friends anymore, i mean, i don't want bad things to happen to them, however i don't wanna see anyone anymore, it feels a struggle to maintain any kind of human relationship.

Work, what can I say? That's the slavery we are all meant to follow until we die, nothing else to be said. I have 2 jobs, which i suck on what i do but these concerns are lost in the past, nowadays I don't really care anymore.

This is why I am truly concerned now. I feel like I don't care for anything anymore, there's no more sadness about life stuff, only emptiness, and obviously i think about death a lot.

This is how it feels to be depressed, a constant flow of nothingness, pain and agony.

Don't bother pressing the useless send help button, you will just waste your time.