And I’m completely shattered. It’s all my fault. I’m so fucking stupid lol. I just wish I could view reality like other people but no i must have bpd and view everything in alls or nothings. We’ve been together for 5 years and it’s been my longest least turmoil relationship and now I feel like it’s ruined. My husbands mad at me. My family would hate me. I have no one anymore.