So sometimes I get convinced that I’m in danger like the other day I was out and I noticed a black cloud next to a cluster of white clouds and thought it was moving faster than the other clouds so I had to leave because I was getting anxious. Given the fact that I’m writing this and recognize it as a delusion it isn’t a complete delusion. It was more real at the time but even then I was constantly trying to tell myself it’s just a cloud relax but I wasn’t convinced.

I also have derealization sometimes with leaving my body included and I’m convinced that if I stay out of my body for too long I’ll die. I have trouble sleeping because every time I almost drift off my consciousness/soul leaves my body and I have to wake myself up because I get scared that I’m going to die or a demon will appear.

Sometimes I’m convinced people are following me or want to kill me. I’m also convinced that stars are aliens sometimes because sometimes they act weird. And I also think that I have seen some flying saucers. I’m hoping they are just military drones though. If I’m out at night and the clouds/sky turn pink/orange I need to leave immediately or I’ll be abducted by aliens.

I have to be quick in the bathroom or my reflection will kill me and if I look directly at my reflection I can’t breathe or every time I exhale it will take part of my soul. (I don’t know why but my exhales are parts of my soul and I’ll die when I run out of soul (I’m bad at words) some things accelerate this) I can’t be in view of a mirror when I clean my ears with cotton swabs and I have to watch my shadow if it changes in any way or something else appears I have to leave that room immediately.

Also bugs are government or alien agents spying on me my subconscious hasn’t decided which.

These are just a few examples.

I know it sounds ridiculous and in retrospect it is ridiculous but at the time I’m completely convinced this is real or kind of real. I think the reason I can kind of recognize things as delusions sometimes is because I don’t feel like anything is real. I feel like everything is a dream. So the alien abduction thing seems more real than the rest of the world but it still feels like a dream. Does that make sense?