I recently fell for a gnarly scam where they obtained serious information from me. However, I've done everything I had to. I've heard again and again that scammers don't spend much time on one person; they've probably long forgotten. I wish I could make my body believe that was the case.

There's so much that's causing me so many dark, painful emotions, still. So many unrealistic events are going on in my head, like them retaliating if my bank successfully disputes the charges, or my name being attached to criminal activity, or all these other terrible outcomes that I just can't get my mind off of. 

The worst thing is, I've done everything I could reasonably do. Credit's frozen, nothing weird on my credit reports, there's a police report filed, my bank's setting up new accounts for me, and even if they're not able to get that money back (which I'm told is doubtful), my parents have told me they'll reimburse my losses fully. I have LifeLock Advantage now, too, and I hear that it doesn't take terribly long to resolve identity theft issues, should they arise.

But the past few days, I've been crying so much. I always prided myself on being a defiant optimist, even with my anxiety, but I feel like I've lost control. I haven't been able to get up during the day until the afternoon, when, usually, I'm up and about at reasonable hours. I feel safer in my bed. I'm getting schoolwork done on a reasonable basis, but it's so much harder to focus.

I hate this so much. All the strides I felt like I made from my last anxious episode (unrelated incident) years ago, all the progress I'm making in life like succeeding in graduate school and getting my first job in my field...it all feels like it's being ripped away from me because of what this person did to me. 

I'm starting therapy again in a little under two weeks. I called my primary care physician about temporarily heightening my medication until then...but I feel so hopeless. That's not normal for me. Even after hearing from so many different people that it's going to be over after this event, and that I need to close the door on this and move on, I'm still crying uncontrollably. I don't even know what I'm crying about most of the time, anymore. 

I don't even want to look at anything relating to cybersecurity anymore because I feel like I'm just doomscrolling at that point. And, really, my situation really is, objectively, okay. The fact I jumped on it before anything bad could be done with my information (aside from draining my bank account, which is fixable) already put me at an advantage.

But I don't want to do this anymore. I feel so constantly scared and sad and anxious and like things are so much more terrible than they are in reality. 

I just want to stop crying, stop being afraid, and move on, like everyone says I should. I hate, *hate* that I'm like this. I'm sure therapy will be big, as well as if my physician approves a medication increase, but my life feels like it's out of control and I need to actually type out how I'm feeling so that other human eyes can see it. 

I want to know that everything is going to be okay, that everything is resolved. The thing is, the only way I can do that is if I time-travel into the future. So, at least, I just want to know that this won't consume my life any more than it already has.

I'm really tired.

TL;DR - Recently got scammed, and my mental health has pretty much exploded. It's an objectively okay situation; my bank says they're likely able to get things back for me in time (if not, my parents will reimburse me), and I jumped on things before my credit could be harmed or anything, but I still feel so terrible. I've been told a lot that scammers never stick around and hold what they took from you over your head, but I'm still crying so much during the day, for absolutely no reason. I'm taking steps, like starting therapy again and asking about a medication increase, but I just want an end to all of this situation.