Hey, so... I've always struggled with keeping in touch with friends ever since I was a kid and it kills me inside especially because it's usually my mental health that pushes them away 💔
 I currently take medication and am hoping to do therapy soon but how do you come back after that? I mean I'm not curred by any means but I can handle depression a lot more now. 
I always tell myself that everyone hates me and they are better off without me anyways or if they had kids... I don't want their kid to get to know I'm the sad lady that always cries but I've already lost so many friendships. I'm not sure if I should just leave them alone or try 🤔 
I also have social anxiety but the friends I want to keep in my life I feel like I've known them forever when I see them and it's fine.
Anyways I can go on for hours but like does anyone have tips?