I have people tell me I'm a good person. But I'm aware of all the crappy things I have done and the nasty way I think sometimes. I try to do things for other people because I hate seeing or knowing they are in pain. I love helping people because it makes me feel good too, which is also selfish. I care so much about others but then sometimes I'm super numb to them and can't feel any empathy, sometimes I'm too empathetic, sometimes I'm just mean.. it's just confusing. Sometimes I think I'm good and sometimes I think that's a joke and I am scum.  Is it like splitting on myself? 

I'm not happy with my over use of the term sometimes either.. please don't knock me for that 😅