I wanted to work at Starbucks so that I would be forced to be face to face and talking to people to help with my social anxiety. I am being pressured more and more by my manager to talk more with customers. She has told me that without customer connection we cannot do the job. I’ve been having really bad days at work where I cry uncontrollably all day and I feel like it’s due to this pressure and feeling of failure on top of the shame of crying at work in front of everyone. I get therapy from my work. After most session I feel even more depressed for days after. It must be helping because I’m feeling an effect. 

My social anxiety has gotten worse after experiencing overwhelming emotions at work. I feel a loss of control and physical symptoms of anxiety. My manager is overbearing but extremely understanding through all of this. I’ve already started applying to other jobs. I’m scared she is going to fire me if this keeps happening and I think it will because I never know when I’ll start crying. Am I even stable enough to have a job?