Where do i start? My life has been a shit show for nearly 15 years now ( i am 26 btw) and i don’t know how to change it and neither do i have the motivation anymore. I tried everything i could to make it better but nothing has worked so far, i had multiple therapists, talked to friends and family, i tried a dozens jobs, i tried being alone and being in a relationship, i tried hurting myself and isolating myself completely. Nothing ever helped me, nothing makes the voices in my head go away or make them at least a tad bit more friendly. They’re always screaming at me saying that i am a useless piece of shit who will never accomplish anything. I don’t have goals or dreams anymore cause whats the point ? I will never get there if i am like this and i can’t change myself, i don’t know how. I guess some people are just not born to be alive. Anyway i just wanted to get this out there don’t expect anybody to even read this there are people with far greater problems than myself.