I have been depressed before and have had all the logical reasons to have been. I used to mess my brain up with all kinds of drugs and I was in a very toxic relationship filled with all kinds of abuse. The drugs fueled my derealization and my visual snow which didn't go well with the depression. I eventually reached out for help and my parents and myself, with the help of therapy and mostly medication, got me rid of depression. 

Now almost one year off the medication I yesterday got a random feeling similar to back then, except without the derealization part. I'm trying to stay calm since I really think that the feeling will be gone within a week. And I know this sounds a little weird since everyone gets sad every once in a while, I do too, but this doesn't feel like that, it feels almost exactly like the depression from back then. 

I have done almost everything to stay sane recently and everything in my life seems good. I have a girlfriend who I love and who treats me well. I have been working out every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday consistently to keep my stress levels down and it helps my overall mental state as well. School and its studying have never gone better and I have routines that I rarely ever break. 

So how does this happen? Has anyone felt this random mood shift in a quite perfect time of your life? Could there be a reason for it or is it totally random? How would the brain slowing the production of them happy chemicals have any benefit for me? If anyone wants to share any similar experiences or if anyone has any answers to my question I'd be happy to listen.

Much luv from a randomly depressed dude &lt;3