I have a diagnosed mixed anxiety-depressive disorder, but really MDD, since I am relatively young (27) my doc didn't want to make it official as it can limit your job opportunities in my country. I've been taking anti-depressants for about a year, but then I stopped because it was making my mind "cloudy" and my parents were looking down on me taking these, as if it were a sin. Them, suggesting I should just eat different things, or that my body is too acidic or whatever pseudo-science bullshit they read somewhere did a number on my motivation. Fast forward another year after I stopped taking meds, I generally feel better, and the "dark" thoughts I had about...well you know, are less frequent.

Only thing is, I stopped finding joy in everything. Making music, listening to music, movies, shows, video games...it all just feels so empty. I have lost motivation to get up in the morning, to work out, look for jobs. I feel burnt out, unable and unwilling to continue forward like this. I know there is no magic pill for this, but if someone dealt with this, tell me what you did to bring back your will to live, your passion for people and things. Because, I can't go much longer like this.