Ive been in and out of therapy for 14 years which says a lot coming from a 20 year old. I’ve heard it all. Therapists told me I’m just lazy and i should “just do it”, people told me i just have too much testosterone cropped up, several doctors told me it’s just hormones, etc.

In this period of time i got kicked out of three schools and both my parents gave up on me. At least i have like the most amazing grandparents.

Now recently i finally got diagnosed with BPD and I’ve finally got some clarity. There’s definitely something wrong with me but at least it’s not my fault. Im experiencing:

Crippling fear of rejection and abandonment.
Intense jealousy.
Frequent intense mood swings (im either suicidal or in ecstasy).
Highly sensitive.

I’ll refuse to go back into therapy tho. Nothing made me feel worse.