Someone once called this, "God's curse".  Having what I have but being unable to enjoy it because of BPD. I collect disability and Section 8. If I work the government takes everything, 50% of gross, 30% in taxes and 30% of what I earn goes gross to rent.   


I make around $1000 in cash and foodstamps but I can have someone cook and clean for me as well. I have medi-cal and medi-care so I don't pay for kaiser at all.  My apt is $127 and I haven't paid my electricity bill in 5 years due to gov programs.   


More importantly in 2018 I bought a chevy spark Electric for FREE, the gov. bought me that due to smog laws and grants. I recently sold that, put the 10k in unemployment coronavirus money I got because I was fired in 2019 for going crazy at my job, and I put all the state grants and rebates for a 2020 Bolt EV, I again paid $0 and have around $2k coming back in grant rebates by going new.  


SO I have a new car, a place by the ocean, I never have to work a day in my life and I act like i'm a baller with a car that MSRP for $40K. But I struggle making friends and very few people would ever get me.   


So what would you do if you had all the time in the world?