I haven’t posted on here in a long time, but being that I’ve had to end some of my closest friendships in order to create healthy boundaries for myself, I don’t really have anyone to talk to.

I’m not sure where to begin, but I do know I feel very stuck, hopeless and frustrated. I am a 22f and I had previously thought I had hit my lowest about a year ago- turns out things have gotten quite worse.

every day feels absolutely agonizing. I mean this in the way that I have a constant feeling of discomfort- the kind of tenseness that makes you want to scream. I haven’t felt happy in a long time. I’ve lost my support system and am alone almost all of the time, minus work and school. I’ve been experiencing large amount of agitation and I find myself angry, which is a feeling I used to never feel/know how to feel.

I thought I was doing everything I could to get better. I went to treatment for my PTSD and eating disorder. I’m at a healthy weight, though I feel the most insecure I’ve ever been. I have therapy every week and I am on medication. but, I feel more empty than ever. I struggle to do basic tasks and I can barely remember what I did each day.

I don’t know where to go from here. any advice would mean the world to me, as I genuinely want to feel better, even though it seems impossible.

thank you.