I've been diagnosed with severe depression 4 years ago, I take meds, go to therapy, trying to live a regular life with meeting friends, having a job, trying to achieve something but none of that interests me. Most of my free time I'm laying in my bed and fantasizing about driving to a tall bridge I chose few months ago, texting everyone goodbye and jump into the void. I haven't yet done it for the simple reason, that I think I'm too cowardly to jump without hesitation, and a bypasser may "save" me and I get locked into a psychiatry. Basically I have only one shot at this, and I want to do it when I feel the time is right.

Just want to know if anyone has been feeling the same, and if they've managed to somehow take a 90 degrees turn at their life. I've been feeling the same for years now, and I'm all-out of hope that it will get better anytime.