 

I have 1 bestfriend, and 1 normal friend. I think? i don't know if she's still my bestfriend, it looks like she found so much new people at the new school that we both go to. While i'm over here struggling to be alive. We hang out 2/3 times a month, but she even hangs out more with her classmates than me. She knows i have social anxiety but not how bad im doing mentally. Im scared to tell her because i dont want her to stop hanging out with me or judge me.

And i only saw my normal friend once in this whole year, i tried inviting her over multiple times. She always choose others over me. Am i doing something wrong? Whats wrong with me?

I dont know what to do. Theyre the ony people that bring a smile to my face when i need it. If i let them go, i have no one to hold on to :(