hi guys. i’m on 15mg abilify and 150mg lamictal. i was bumped up to 15 from 10 last month because i was having a mixed episode (mostly on the manic side). it fixed the episode and i’m fine.

i’ve been in a relationship for the past year and ~7 months with a girl i love. but here lately i’ve stopped caring if we see each other, i don’t feel obligated to talk to her throughout the day… i’m not living up to her expectations of what a relationship should be. and i realized that i simply don’t care. i don’t care if we talk or see each other, i don’t care if we break up. i’m fine with waking up, going to work, coming home and eating dinner, sleeping, then repeating the next day, with that being my life. i love her but i don’t think i feel anything more than loving her as i do everyone else. there’s no spark. 

is this me being a complete asshole? or is it the meds changing something in me? she questioned yesterday if i was taking my meds every day because i seem angry, then normal, then treat her like she doesn’t exist, repeat. what is happening to me?