I’m so tired of life and living. I will delete this I just need to rant again.

I have a baby on the way but I honestly can barely look forward to it with everything going on. My husband and I have only a little over $500 in the bank right now. He’s immigrating so he can’t work yet. I’m trying to make enough money for the both of us right now but we need over $2000 by October. And havent been this short for a few months. We have been able to make it through reselling but my depression and anxiety have kept me from getting a “real job”. I honestly hate life and i swear everyone I talk to online hates me. I have no one to talk to other than my husband and when I try to rant or something online I always just get shamed and I feel even worse about myself. It’s like I confirm with myself how unlikeable I am. How worthless i am. How stupid I am. How no one likes me. I dont even know where to go anymore. I honestly dont belong here. I want to give my baby the best life it could have but I feel defeated. I feel lost and broken. I just need someone to tell me its going to be okay and that im not as worthless as i feel everyday. But i know its all fake i know im not actually worth anything or that it will be okay.