honestly i don’t even know if i can call them anxiety attacks? i have really self-deprecating thoughts and hateful feelings towards me and my behaviour (even though i’ve never done anything extreme). i shake, cry, feel extremely panicked , etc.

my doctor gave me 0.5 mg of lorazepam and it’s a ‘take when needed’ type of medication for me. i don’t really even know what situation is considered to be justified enough to take it. the only issue i have is that i’ve only had appointments on the phone, and we’ve never met face to face. i don’t know if he medicated me properly, or if i’ve even been diagnosed properly?? i feel like i’m just trying to “drown the pain away” when i think about taking my meds. it’s a lot of self doubt here lol 

would i take it when i’m in a loop of self sabotaging thoughts, or in a mental health episode?

if anyone here is prescribed anxiety meds for ‘situation basis’, when have y’all taken it, and is the aftermath more bad than good ? (if ur comfy sharing)