Currently hiding in our bedroom away from my boyfriend cause I’m mad at him about who the fuck knows tbh but all i want is him to come in here and apologize to me. Every time I leave the room to go to bathroom or kitchen he engages me somehow but i always shoot it down cause i secretly want him to keep showing me he cares or making him initiate convo asking me to come to him. But i refuse to give in and stop being angry because fuck my BPD ass. Like I’m sitting here admitting the fuckery I’m doing right now but will not go out and sit on the couch with him even though while I typed this out he called to me asking what I was doing and to come sit on the couch.

Why am I like this  