22yr old here with a whole life long of loneliness and isolation, I have really bad anxiety and feel like there’s 2 parts to me one that wants to be with people when they ask me too and another part of me that keeps me tied down and alone, sometimes feels like I’m a prisoner to myself. i have no friends and haven’t in years, last I can remember is elementary school. everyone I meet seems to either be annoyed by me or ends up not liking me for I don’t even know what reason, I left countless jobs due to someone having a issue with me, my last job I had a breakdown over another place of people not accepting me and was crying in front of people which is something I don’t do ever and find embarrassing, that day ended up being my last day there after 2 years there, I currently haven’t been working or going to school cause I never do good in school and not sure where I’m going in life like how it it seems like all my peers on social media have figured out, I don’t even talk to any of my family and haven’t seen them since 2014ish. I feel like everywhere I go in life ends bad and I feel like my depression is just getting worse lately, today I sat in a chair in my room all day and did nothing I hate my life which makes me just bitter and angry towards others for their lives being better in my eyes even though I know I shouldn’t be, I just want advice on how other people cope with loneliness and the feeling of abandonment by everyone?