I feel so stuck and I don't know what to do. 

A little backstory. I have struggled with anxiety my whole life. I panic at basically everything and so I am a huge procrastinator. This was manageable while I was in the education system because I had deadlines set for me and I was always within an organisation of some kind. However, now that I've finished university I have to be the one to discipline myself, which is very difficult for me.

I graduated university in summer and have been living at home with my family since. I care for a family member full time and I work on the family farm but I need to move out and get a job. 

I've been telling everyone I've been applying for jobs for a few weeks now but the truth is I can't even open websites to look for jobs because I instantly panic and catastrophise. My mind instantly goes to making a fool of myself at an interview and getting rejected, or somehow getting the job and then being humiliated and fired. I know that there are a lot of people out there who are terrible at their jobs and are extremely incompetent, and that I'm only just entering into the workforce as a graduate.i still can't shake these thoughts, however.

I also have to find somewhere to live. I am going to call to arrange a viewing of somewhere but I'm very anxious to do so.

I am apprehensive about opening up to my family as I am petrified of being judged (they rarely have empathy for people with mental health problems and can't fathom me having a life-long struggle with anxiety). I feel so guilty for feeling this way because I have all the tools I need to get a job, but I just can't.

Not sure what I expect people to respond to this, any similar experiences?

Sorry if this was all over the place.