Disclaimer I have not been diagnosed with depression but this feels like the right place to post this sort of stuff.

14 y/o here, obsessed with the idea of having to get a job to work 40/50 years of your life in order to achieve a sustainable life. I am under the train of thought that I would rather be dead than get a job and it is all I think about now. I can’t go out in public anymore without seeing all the shops and employees who are enslaved in miserable jobs they hate just to live or alternatively if I wanted to watch a video for example on YouTube or tv the thought that this person is making so much money makes me so sad to the point where i am just in a loop of my own head restricting anything in life giving me happiness.