I’ve got postnatal anxiety. My eldest is 3 and my baby is 9 months. I’m 26 years old. I adore my children and they mean everything to me. But since having 2 little ones, it’s just been so overwhelming. I’m a stay at home mother, who is also on break from university. It’s so hard. I don’t know how other mothers work with children, run a home and study too. 

I finally had the courage to speak up. It’s been 3 visits with my psychologist. She’s been great. I’m comfortable with her. But I feel like I’m still hiding alot of things from her. 

I’m terrified of driving because I fear crashing my car with my children. I’m only learning in carparks for now. I haven’t even brought this up with her yet. I hate relying on my family to take me places. I really do. I never ask for help with anything else. 

I feel like I’m not good enough for my kids. I’m scared of dying while they’re still young. My son is breastfed and still needs me. I hate these thoughts. 

I feel trapped sometimes. I had my first panic attack at night a few days ago. I felt like I was going to die. Everyone was asleep. I just tried to control my breathing and it seemed to work. 

My heart goes out to all of you who are constantly battling these feelings and thoughts. It truly sucks. I hope one day we can all look back on what we’re going through and say “I did it.” Because right now it’s so fucking hard.