Just know this. At the very least, you are most certainly, absolutely and definitely NOT alone in the way that you feel. I know this does pretty much nothing for anybody on here but I am just throwing this out there anyway. Your desperation and complete hopelessness is not bound only to you but countless others as well. We are all struggling together in this hell we call life. Support the people around you, your friends, your family and even yourself (yes I know that is the hardest one of all). Have love and kindness in your heart and do not let yourself be consumed with the artificial horrors of this world. Be better and be stronger. Do whatever you have to do to allow yourself to feel anything other then pain and misery. Do NOT be ashamed about the way you feel. It is almost impossible to not feel this way naturally with how bad and depraved the world has become. Keep fighting and never give up.   What have you got to lose? Play this game anyway because you are here now and can make people feel like they belong if you just try. Bless all of you. It is not your fault. It never was. You are victims who will transform into warriors. You believe in good over evil. That is why you feel the way you feel. You desire more and seek truth. You despise pain and suffering. Love yourself and others and you will see the difference. Do not let this materialistic and false world into your heart.