I have been extremely busy lately and all the stress doesn’t mix well with my anxiety. I have been getting a lot more panic attacks lately and it’s not exactly fun. 

To start, I’m a junior in high school. College is just around the corner and I’m gearing up for adulthood. I take 6 in person classes through my HS and I’m taking 2 additional college credit courses. I’m apart of art club, key club, hopefully NHS (still waiting on the letter cause my mail is backed up) student council, prom committee, band (learning a new instrument), soccer, and I’m a team captain/manager for our powderpuff team. I take it upon myself to do additional projects such as designing shirts for our powderpuff game next month and I’m already researching scholarships. I’m apart of AP art and I need to work on my portfolio as well, and I work about 12+ hours a week. I’m participating in a reading festival as well. On top of all of this, I try to exercise regularly and eat healthy. I’m even struggling in my math class so now I have to tutor and sessions are an hour long. 

Yes I brought all of this upon myself. To me success is defined as busy, so I need to keep up with a heavy flow. But I have no motivation and my emotions are so whack. I cut sleep to do things I enjoy. I usually read webcomics in my free time since finishing a chapter is a small accomplishment to me, but then I wake up too tired to make myself proper meals and I either starve until dinner or eat cafeteria food. Then I usually have shifts immediately after school and on weekends so i have a limited time frame to get any work done. Shifts end at 10 and since I’m awake for 16 hours straight, I barely study or do the bare minimum on my work. On my free days my parents want me to make dinner as well. Lots of responsibilities get cut or pushed back and they just continuously pile up. 

It’s gotten to the point where I am starting to panic regularly and I can’t calm down. I don’t know what I should cut and how to manage time. If anyone has read this far thank you, but if you have any solutions I will be very appreciative.