I recently started going to therapy to try and work out some anxiety that I have. I have past trauma, have experienced psychotic episodes and hallucinations, obsessions and compulsions, major mood swings, have issues with isolating myself, bad coping mechanisms, etc, and I started therapy because I really needed help. Personally, I would have gone to a psychiatrist first instead of a therapist, but I’m still a minor and my parents are worried that I’m going to get addicted to medication or that it is going to have negative affects on me later in life. I didn’t care too much at first, but I’ve been to maybe 5 therapy sessions so far, and I already hate it and dread going. My therapist basically told me that because of my past trauma I cannot process things and have developed bad coping mechanisms, so she said she was going to treat me like she would a patient with PTSD. So, I’m now having to relive terrible memories and things I don’t ever want to go back to in my therapy sessions and it’s honestly leaving me so drained and exhausted and it puts me in a terrible mood for days. I also obsess and overthink everything and so I end up involuntarily thinking over each session for days, and it just makes me so tired and even more anxious. I really just want to know what’s wrong with me that makes me think and act the way I do, but I haven’t been diagnosed with anything yet and my thoughts are so jumbled all the time that I can’t explain to my therapist what I’m thinking or feeling. I hate these sessions and I don’t want to keep doing them, but at the same time I know that I’m not stable and need help. I’ve also been really moody lately and every little thing that happens to me makes me have these extreme emotions that I can’t handle. For example, I can stub my toe when I wake up in the morning and it leaves me so frustrated and angry that I just want to scream at everyone I’m around for the next few days. It’s so weird because I used to be an extremely mellow and kind person, and now I hate everyone and want to be alone and everything gets on my nerves or upsets me. I just don’t know what to do anymore, and I’m tired of having all these highs and lows and not knowing how to deal with them or why they’re even happening. I’ve always been a very closed off person and since my thoughts are always a mess I have such a hard time talking to my therapist. I feel so uncomfortable during sessions and they make me feel terrible. Should I stop going? I just don’t know what to do anymore.