I am a 22 yo. female I have BPD and ADHD. I take concerta, wellbutrin, and was just recently put on topamax for a mood stabilizer. I am making this post because I wanna know what works for you all. When I am on autopilot and at work Imvgood at putting on a fake and being a chameleon around other people. I hate being alone though for even a second idk what to do with myself and I experience intense irritability and sadness when I am by myself. I also just went through a break up with someone I idolize about 3 months ago and from where I can not be alone I am in another relationship it is great he’s understanding and wonderful but im still having a hard time as my ex boyfriend was truly my favorite person and i did not wanna lose him (he was a covert narc who cheated and discarded me) and. i have frequent random crying spells. I feel a mix of empty and sad and even when I should be happy im not. It’s hard to feel joy. I just am trying to find answers or recommendations. I feel like something has always been missing or something I never feel like I’ll be satisfied in life