Its getting bad again, no motivation, days are blurry, im tired all the time. I am in university and i just cant study, i always just want to drink or do drugs or even relapse which i cant because I am always with my partner, who i am grateful for. I also think i might have adhd aswell, but I dont think anyone even believes me or cares so i just dont seek out help. No one knows im struggling, I go to sleep wishing i dont wake up. I feel so spoiled and ungrateful, i did so much just to try to be happy, and im still not. What is the point anymore?