I have been depressed as long as I can remember and I am only 21, but recently it has gotten much worse and it took me awhile to realize how I have never been more lazy in my life. I am in university full-time and also work a part-time job, but I feel like I don't do anything. I barely hand in my work on time, I don't exercise, I don't invest time in my hobbies or interests ever, and all I really do is sleep in my free time. I will also wake up from long naps and stay awake for about an hour, and then I'll just go take another nap. I'm not even tired, I just don't feel like being awake. I can also take naps after I wake up from a full night of sleep. 

My workplace is 5 minutes from me and I could easily walk there but I literally refuse to because I am so lazy. I think my lowest point was taking an Uber to a place that is literally a 2 minute walk. I knew how pathetic it was, but I just do not care. Three years ago, I was the complete opposite. I would walk everywhere and usually could stay awake in the day. 

I have also been having trouble feeling any sort of emotion. Especially with love and intimacy. I have been in a relationship for 4 years and I love my boyfriend but I have been feeling very numb and I am not interested in any physical affection or any affection at all really. I used to be a very affectionate and loving person and I feel like it has just disappeared. I could never tell if it was depression or a side effect of my birth control lol 

I used to be able to hide how miserable is but now I really cannot be bothered. I'm miserable wherever I go. My depression has caused me to stop caring about things I used to care so much about, which is bad but also good in a way. It is good in the sense that I am no longer an anxious person, but that is because I just feel numb to all emotion. I'm not even sure what keeps me going sometimes.