I'm sick of every day being such a fucking trainwreck. Nobody understands. Why is it that any time I try to explain to someone how I feel, they respond with something like, "well, its almost Friday. You can relax over the weekend, right?" ???

My brain and body are trying every day to kill me. This is terminal. I'm not going to survive this much longer. Every time I ask for help I get turned away or rejected. I'm too damaged for anyone to want to help me. I'm just barely making it through every day.. I just can't do this anymore. This is going to kill me soon if i don't get help, but I guess I just don't deserve it.