I just got invited to a New Years Eve party that I will have to come up with a reason to skip. Another friends wife Julie put on fb she will be there and I wont go anywhere she is.

A few years ago I had a manic episode thst involved me cutting myself with a knife. I was hospitalized for 11 days because I completely lost it being locked up. One of my final days Julie a respiratory therapist I believe was working in the unit. I noticed her walking down the hall but my nurse who was standing next to her said Hi my name. We both looked at each other but didnt acknowledge anything.

A few months later I was at the bar with my friends. Julie came to pick her husband up and stopped in for a quick beer. She was talking about how busy the hospital can be and I said I bet it can get wild sometimes. She looked right at me with a half smirk on her face and said it gets especially wild in the psych ward. Everyone else was kind of having their own conversations so I don't believe anyone else caught on to it.

It gives me extreme anxiety that she was comfortable saying it infront of me at a crowded bar. It makes me paranoid what she has said to her husband and our other friends who are closer to him than me.