I was feeling really good for a while, I was doing great and I thought I had a routine that was going where I could continue feeling good. I don't know if it's because I stopped taking my CBD oil (I'm still on depression meds) or because so many things have been changing but I'm fucking sad. I have that weighted feeling in my chest again. I hate myself, I hate my body, I lay here just inherently feeling like I want to die. I would never do it, but I just feel so fucking sad. This shit isn't fair. I just want to always feel good and when I feel bad I want it to be a normal every day sad, I don't want to think about dying when I something small happens. It's too extreme. It's too much. I feel so annoying. So alone. Why is my brain like this.