Uhh. So this all is really stupid but I am kind of still shook. I don't think I want attention, I just don't know what to do. 

Early this morning, I walked to the nearby gas station like I do basically every day. As I was walking in, some obviously homeless dude approached me and asked for 25c. No big deal. I used to live in a big city and was used to this. I turned him down saying I didn't have any money on me. And he was actually very understanding.

Grabbed my sodas and went home. 

This evening, I decided to go on a walk. It was still totally light out and I have never felt threatened by living here. I have had friends who said it is a little sketch but only a night and a little further up the hill. Great!

So I walk out of my apartment and who is there, that same homeless guy. He sees me, I am wearing headphones and I shrug at him and say "Nah, I don't have any cash". 

He then starts talking to me and gets right in my path, probably 6 inches away from me. He reeks of alcohol. I step back to give us some room as, you know, personal bubble for myself. He steps towards me. 

The place we were at wasn't unpopulated. It was basically the center of town, plenty of people around so I didn't immediately feel threatened. He goes on and on for maybe a few minutes. I've been cornered by these kinds before (again, big city), you let them ramble for 3 - 5 minutes about their sob story and how they totally definitely do spend it on drugs, then ask for a decent amount of money. 

So I let him ramble rather than run my chances at trying to evade him and failing to get around him. His story gets darker and darker. At first he was talking about where he got lunch, whatever. But then weird phrases like "my girls" and "I need some new girls" and started touching my arm, I would pull away and he would keep getting closer. 

He started talking about how he drinks heavily at a bar nearby ("I am not an alcoholic though, I've never even bought drugs"), I wasn't really listening entirely but I heard him say "I can't promise you'll make it home alright". I started looking directly into people's eyes passing by, no one was helping. I had to use the emergency mode on my phone and a call finally came through from the police, I pretended to need to take a call and he scurried off very quickly. I ran back into my building and everything just hit me. 

This all sounds very theatrical and overblown but I am shook by this. It took place a few hours ago and I don't even want to go outside anymore, I've been looking into tasers, I don't want this to happen again. 

How do I trust going outside? I think my BPD issues has blown this issue from "weird encounter" up to the level of feeling assaulted or violated. The police said they would keep an eye out for him, they came and took a report from me. But I don't want to run into this guy again. He asked where I lived and I told him I lived nearby but not at a building very close by. 

Anyone had these experiences? Do I just need time to feel comfortable going outside again and trusting? I need to get a real RBF and not being so sunny and approachable. I literally want to get a CCW or at least a taser holster and just open carry around town to tell people to fuck off from approaching me.