Honestly i haven’t really ever vented to anyone ever and idc if someone reads this but i just need to let it out. Im a senior in high school and my life feels like a dull never ending cycle. I do school online and i pushed all the friends i had away and now i have none but it doesnt matter because I hate talking to people and i loving being alone but it gets lonely as fuck when u have no one to talk to. I stay in my bed all day, do all my classes in my bed. I have no motivation to study or do my work, to shower, or even eat. I used to be a straight A student and now i feel like the biggest failure and disappointment to my parents. I have no hobbies, no one to hangout with, i stay in my room and when im not sleeping im either playing games or watching netflix to distract myself and try to feel something but i feel nothing, just emotionless and so numb i cant even cry. I dread waking up and lately i feel like suicide is the only way to escape this cycle. Maybe i should talk to my parents about it but they already have so many worries i dont want to be one of them.