Yesterday around 3 am I heard a dog whimpering and something struggling in water, after a few minutes I ran out my house and in this small river I have next to my property I saw a mama dog and after a few seconds I saw a puppy drowning. It was coming up and down and swimming into different directions. I called my mom and she came out with a landing net. We tried to catch the puppy with it but it was struggling so much we couldn’t. Suddenly it stopped. My mom forced me to go back home. I’ve been crying and taking my tranquilizer pills non stop. Can’t sleep and eat, everything comes right back. I keep blaming myself. I could’ve run out faster, I could’ve gotten into the water, I shouldn’t have put on clothes but run out in pajamas. I can’t function. My mom tells me not to torment myself with this but how could I when there’s so much more I could’ve done