just the thought of spending a week locked inside with my thoughts is scary. i told my mother about these fears and she didnt understand them at all, she thought i was worried about getting sick which i am not.

im relatively stable and not in danger when living life normally but i just dont know if that would hold up when spending so much time alone. i cant even stay at home for a day without feeling empty, i dont want to imagine what a week would do to me.