The last couple of months have been rough. Ive been weaning off escitalopram and finally got off it altogether a month ago - big mistake. I've been so anxious, on edge, and panicky about everything. I am not having a good time.

My anxiety disorder is my big problem right now - it is seriously affecting my perfomance at work because I'm suffering a lot of cognitive symptoms of anxiety - poor memory, lacking attention and focus, etc. I didnt even realize this until my Psychiatrist told me last week. I thought I could function without medication but that's apparently not true right now!

I shared this with my boss, and that Ive been having a rough time lately and they seemed receptive. For context, I work in HR with two lovely people - one of which, my boss - has formal mental health training as well.  We have a meeting booked tomorrow to discuss ways to support me and my performance right now through this - and I am SO nervous and anxious about it.

I love my job and really like the company I work for, and I know Im capable of more than the quality of work Ive been doing lately. Ive been trying so hard to keep everything together, to not forget things or complete tasks at a delayed pace - and it makes sense now, but Im still so frustrated and disappointed and I always worry about being judged (because it happened with my last employer).

Im sure I have less to worry about then what Im imagining in my head, but... that's anxiety for you 🤷

Im not great with talking about my feelings, and I tend to get emotional when Im distressed - I would love some advice, or if anyone has gone through this Id love to hear about it.