I wake up depressed every morning(let's be honest around midday), I'm constantly fatigued and incredibly lonely. It's been going on for months now. Everything is a huge effort. It's really really awful. The only positive thing to come out of it is that my BPD symptoms are barely there anymore because I'm so depressed. I just don't have the energy. I have a passion and something to work towards, I can't even focus on that anymore.