I am not advocating for anyone to be off meds, however, it is difficult to accurately describe who I am when I don't take my medication. Sometimes, I will be euthymic, other times depressed, but there are those rare occasions where I feel like I have the physical and emotional power to take revenge against anyone who has abused or wronged me in my life. It's like I could just explode and have the energy to reflect all the bad energy they put on me for hours, if not days. And this becomes a problem when the same people in my life still make the same microaggressions towards me and all the other things that bother me.

But, when I am medicated, I just...take it? Like, I am just unbothered or have no reaction, but the paradigm I have lived throughout my whole life is that injustices should not be ignored, and this just contradicts that.

Is this normal? Is this good for me? I am still not quite sure.