I had a spree of substance abuse that landed me inpatient. I was also admitted to the ER twice because of it. I'm unemployed, but I'm just... really confused.

I feel like my substance abuse mimicked symptoms of a mental disorder, and I'm not actually suffering from anything more than a substance abuse disorder. I've been sober, and I'm feeling good now. But I know in the past, when I've felt fine, I've soon after hit rock bottom. Thing is, the times I remember that happening were during my period of substance abuse. I really have no memory to begin with. Like, my brain is kind of just power washed clean and I'm forced to live in the moment.

Regardless, I'm going to be seeing a psychiatrist. Somethings definitely wrong, I just don't know if it's the correct label of wrong. I mean, my life is quite literally in shambles. I have no friends, no job, and I'm pretty sure my family is just awful and talking about how crazy I am. I want help, I just don't want the wrong help... and I also don't want a misdiagnosis, which I feel like I have right now.

Just looking for thoughts and comments on this