I need to vent somewhere and I feel like you guys would understand. my entire life I was focused on my romantic relationships and I never actually worked hard on my friendships. now I'm in a happy romantic relationship but I feel like I have no friends. I moved to another country last year and I'm having an even bigger barrier with the small group of friends I had. getting new ones is impossible because of the pandemic. I don't like communicating via social media, so it's hard for me to maintain contact. my BPD obviously makes me believe that they don't want me in their lives and it's even harder to start any conversation at all... I feel super lonely but really cannot break this circle at the same time. it's so annoying and degrading :/