Whilst I have been trying to get help for the past 6 months I have noticed many resources saying they can help get you back to normal. But what if there was never  a normal? What if you have been miserable for your whole adult life and school life aswell. What now? There is no normal to get back to because misery is your normal. There is truly no hope and I can only keep this up for so long. This isn't gonna be a happy ending.