I went with 2 friends to a island and one of em left before we even arrived. then on the island im drained, trainrides r like my kryptonyte but im no supe i just get scared and paranoid bc so many ppl.
Well we chilling drinking bear i start talking with others. Feels weird like i dreamed this

 feel the panic coming into my fragil braincellbootcamp and well i walk to the beach everbody looks into my face 
I walk into in ally and sit on the ground to breath 
Some dude walks by and keeos looking at me 

But i get to the beach calm a lil 

See the dude again he says to sumnody thats him
After that the girl i have or had feelings for texted again we stopped the contact a month ago and before that 6 months all by her 
And she confuses me bc i trusted her and was my safeplace and i really wanna talk but my mind dies and i get so paranoid i just spit out the dumbest shit
Well btw i couldnt really sleep for sum days and my mind went nuts my visions varifyed seeing shadowppl first then there was this couple having intercourse on thr beach but they were sand 
Ok now i start having a breakdown 
Get into a train the train makes sounds like someno on the toilet 
Every sitution that follows was once in a dream i heard music everywhere or ppl screaming my name over and over and over 
I couldnt walk just sit and smokr zig while letting 3 trains into my direction skip and thougjt everyonr wants to kill me
Sandppl
When i closr my eyes there r eyes 

I was so broken but i remembrrd a lil that i acted to her(,thr one i lovr)likr a fuckup so i apalogyzed 
Other sand ppl where still with me every where fading in and out 
music from water or wind train sounds good
Then on the last train soneone commits die 

My mind still raising im lost idk how i ever csn become "normsl" atleast better thena vegetable
The shower is my new friend bv he plays great music but apart from that i concinder pressing the delete button for me
Uh bye