I am a high functioning BDP and became friends with my therapist, this was fine until she also became friends with my boyfriend and started hanging out separately with him.  I felt threatened and not special (par for the course of a BDP)  drama ensued (caused by me, of course) and chose to not be friends with her, but yet she is still my therapist.  Now I have regrets and want to change it, but rightfully, she is keeping her distance because I hurt her.  I am trying to be respectful yet feel antsy and of course rejected now that I am ready to own my behaviors.  Its fucked up that now that i am ready she should adapt to me.  Its annoying being a BDP and when the crazy comes out, I create a mess that makes people feel shitty, and then I feels lonely and then want to fix it all.  Its all selfish. 