I’ve always struggled with anxiety and being a bit of a hypochondriac, I just want to say that up front.

There have been so many things going on. My anxiety has skyrocketed lately, I’m having all types of cognitive and gastrointestinal issues, but the fact that I can’t sleep is what’s frightening me the most.

I cannot lay on my back whatsoever, my airways are getting blocked, when I lay on my side, my arms get sore very easily when I lay on them anymore, and even when I do get to sleep, I either wake up with sleep terrors an hour or two later, or worse, right as I’m about to fall into real sleep, k stop breathing.

It’s been this way for a few days now. I also have been having trouble talking to people, I get this feeling of shortness of breath and I feel like I’m going to fall over and seize. I’m getting better with this, I’ve actually been able to hold conversations with my girlfriend for the first time in a while. But the sleep situation is getting really bad.

And my mind just runs wild with the possibilities of what is wrong with me or what could happen to me, and I’m so tired of it.