I feel so hopeless. I’ve hurt so many people, good people, people who were my friends. I drove them all away with my behavior. I thought I stopped a long time ago…but I didn’t. I’ve been mean, cruel, hurtful, all of it. I’ve sought out SO MUCH help. I’ve done DBT twice, have tried 16 different medications, have been in therapy with four different therapists for over 20 years…I have no friends and feel so much pain every day. I want to be happy. I want to have friends and treat them right. But I don’t know what to do. Am I just here to hurt, and to hurt others?