everyone feels so far away. im always putting on a front, i cant stand to feel the silence when im not the one trying to carry every single goddamn conversation. everything i try to talk about with people feels pointless, they either dont care or dont relate. i have so many thoughts and ideas but im nothing but a shitty plan b friend that nobody cares about unless they need a quick laugh. am i never going to be able to show someone the thoughts i have in my head? i try to fill the void day to day, but jesus. i feel so alone.