So I’ve been with my husband 10 years, married for 6. I’ve wrestled over really wanting to be with him. He’s a great person, just no intelligent conversation and huge lack of ambition. Come to realize thru therapy that I really am unhappy.  He’s stuck with me over the years despite my illnesses (bipolar, anxiety, bpd). He has glaring flaws like me (lazy, has lied about major things not fidelity related). 

But it’s being hammered in my head that I will have a really hard time finding someone else. And it is making me second guess my decision to get a divorce and I feel crazy. Do I stay with stability and be miserable? Or do I go into the unknown and keep hearing how “I’m never going to find someone like him”

I’ve tried leaving multiple times but each time I feel I get roped back in because he’s “so nice” and loves me. I know he’s not right for me. I feel lost. 