I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder several month ago. After learning more about the disorder, the troubles I had with my relationship made so much more sense. The inherent feeling of emptiness, mercurial mood swing, intense fear of abandonment etc. made sense to me. Without proper treatment, what I learned is that people with BPD will have a hard time maintaining relationship with not only friends but with romantic partners as well. 

With that being said, I don't know whether I'll ever have a normal relationship. Maybe with treatment, I could but I just could not fathom the idea that I need constant therapy in order normalize my relationship with someone. I don't even know whether I'm meant to even be in a relationship. I even have trouble making friends so what chances do I have on makes me think that I can get into a romantic one? I'm worried and don't know what to do....