Let me just say, this is not an average call center, we help the blind by using their cell phone camera to describe what we are seeing in front of us, or using team viewer for inaccessible websites, helping them do day-to-day task with information they didn't have access to before. 

This is not a high-stress call center where people will be yelling at you all shift, in fact my trainer can recall every time shes been yelled at in the last 5 years, its happened to her exactly 3 times. 

Buy y'all I am *terrified* right now. I start my first solo shift at 4 pm and I don't feel prepared at all, I'm sitting here crying because this is such a great opportunity for me. It's work from home, very flexible schedule, very rewarding work. I feel like I'm going to ruin it with my stupid mental health like I ruin every other opportunity. I can't shake this feeling that I'm going to mess up and I'm not good enough. 

There wasn't a ton of training, and I guess what do you really need to be trained on when it comes to just describing what you're seeing, but I just feel super unprepared and like I will stumble on my words or direct someone in the wrong direction or just not be able to handle it. 

I just want to be good at something, but I can't get good at anything because I handle my anxiety by avoidance. I don't want to constantly be on edge by always "jumping into the fire" its exhusting and I'm tired.