I got ghosted by someone I was having sex with occasionally and I feel like shit. Like I know I’ll likely never find anyone who’ll love me but damn I’m not even good enough to have sex with anymore? I feel fucking pathetic.

And the only way I stop obsessing over people is when I get under someone else. But I’m scared because it’s gonna be the same outcome with future people. They’re gonna get bored and ghost me. 

I’ve reached a point where I  turn down everyone who approach me because I know they’ll get bored of me and I’m not giving them a chance anymore to do that.

I’m so horny and I wish he would hit me up but he won’t. And I can’t even masturbate because it reminds me of when I felt like a loser. Like I do now.