Throwaway as my standard account is known on Reddit.

Life is hard we all know it, recently it's felt like things are just getting harder and harder... Think it started when I lost my job 18 months ago, when I was let go (for making a mistake in my first month, after helping deal with a problem I said I was unfamiliar with) in my dismissal I was told that maybe the field I was working in wasn't for me and I should re think my options...

Now at the time I didn't want to take notice and I managed to find a new role... Since then I have worked 4 different jobs... I'm sick of how they each drag me down grinding at my soul, I'm sick of never being able to make enough money to more tha. Just make my ends meet, when I finally thought I could start to recover financially and save BOOM. The universe hits us with the cost of living crisis, inflation hits a record high wiping out any "gain" I may have made.... During times of un employment I've racked up a fuck ton of credit card debt (fun)

I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not supposed to be working in this field, but I'm in my 30s and have people who rely on me.
Oh and to add, I'm having relationship troubles and while I'm trying to make it work, it's hard to be focused on how to strengthen things with the person I love when my mind is constantly going "shit how can we afford next month".

I'm sure all my problems would vanish if I could get some financial stability. They say money doesn't buy happiness but that is absolute horse shit, money 100% would solve all my problems and make the existence of life so much easier ...but alas I sit here with no idea how I'm paying the bills, with a partner who's pissed at me for reasons I don't know and I don't know how to find the strength to keep going, I have no friends near by, no one I can turn to for help...I feel so alone and I don't know what to do.