I was once involved with a very cult-like online community of self proclaimed 'Doomers' who believe that climate change and or nuclear fallout will cause the destruction of all life, probably by September 2026.

They further believed that this was inevitable, unless their Geoengineering project was utilized, and that only through accepting despair and love could we achieve spiritual death/rebirth.

Though I left them after I realized how toxic and hostile they were, I still see them semi-regularly on YouTube and it always upsets me. I also cannot get their beliefs out of my mind, especially when I feel the compulsion to constantly check up on them and their sphere of influence.

I am constantly in fight or flight mode, constantly expecting the apocalypse and Human extinction. I additionally have OCD, ADHD and Autism, so these have become obsessions and ruminating thoughts for me.

I know that it doesn't help anything. I know that, even if they were correct, worrying will only ruin my life. But I can't seem to stop.

I can't even enjoy reading or writing much anymore, since I can't picture a world where everything isn't mundanely catastrophic- for want of a better word.

I know that separating myself from discussions around climate change and the environment would probably help, but I'm not willing to do that- not completely at least. It is something that I am passionate about and I feel like I need to do all I can to help create solutions and systemic change- even If I can only play a small part.

Is anyone else going through something similar?

Do you have any advice?