I have a very close relationship with my friend, but there are things that this friend doesn’t find in me that they find in other people. It makes me feel not enough (very unattractive, a flaw in my personality, too feminine) and I don’t want to be this way. I know I’m putting too much stock into one person and I don’t know how to stop. It hurts a LOT, and it doesn’t help that I value this friend greatly. 

I know this friend values me highly as well, but it’s not in the same way. But in the other ways I want to be loved… I don’t have anyone that loves me that way.

I feel crazy and like I need to end my friendship to alleviate this constant pain, but I can’t do that.