Recently I had a amazing beautiful woman coming to my life and she failed to tell me about her mental conditions. Which also ran in the family, and after her abusive husband it was quite a cocktail. However it wasn't until our relationship hit rock bottom for the second time. When she ditched me at a bar for another couple and got so wasted she couldn't walk and tried to apologize I guess but was so wasted she was just gibbering. Got home and pissed my bed twice and the next morning left and I hadn't seen her for well since then this was last August... I know once they begin getting treatment and they're aware of their condition and make a conscious effort to avoid these instances where they split people the ones that love them or they choose to remember a figment of their imagination that they believe to be true and really occurred. And after all this time I have yet to actually hear the words I'm sorry for specifically what I did. Now there's a I'm sorry for the way I treated you but once there's so many different things to be sorry for you kind of need to specify just to show that you're actually apologetic. Not to mention the sex with the borderline is the best I've ever had and I get how promiscuous they are but if they're all about the good sex why would they leave the good sex to go have sex with someone that couldn't please them even move in with them and call them their boyfriend and girlfriend when I lived with her for 6 months and she hit me away in her room like a secret. It's all my fault I should have never trusted her I caught her in a lie at the very beginning about the dumbest thing but I knew then that that was just the start of it. But gaslighting can be a bitch and when someone's constantly telling you to trust them even though you know you can't it kind of fucks with your perception of reality. If anyone's in that position and they wonder they usually right and before he or she can hurt you anymore get away and stay away. I just hope one day I can at least get an acknowledgment of the damage that was caused to my life and and sincere apology and maybe a quickie :-) JK or am I