feel so selfish for feeling this way especially when I have children...been suffering with depression for years now and all I want is my life to end I've been through alot over the years ( I know am not the only one ) lost my mum lost two brothers lost a few close friends....even had to break down my friends door to find him passed away in his bedroom 💔😔😢 am just so down with everything split up from a long term relationship a couple of years ago every morning is a struggle to carry on with a normal life work for minimum wage to have no money at the end of the month then finishing work going home to a empty home.....cost of living is getting me more down 
I dearnt even go out or spend money because you never know I could be out  of work the following week 🙈 as i am the sole provider for myself and there's no one to help me out....just wish I had the guts to end my life...I know I'll be happy when am gone because I'll be reunited with my friends and love ones