Over the weekend I ran into a friend,  she was with her friend that I can't stand but this person for some reason can't take a hint and leave me alone.  Then I was in the middle  of a conversation with someone and she kept waving to me. She annoys the hell out of me so I was ignoring her, but she just kept doing it.

This isn't the first time. It's like I feel like I'm backed against the wall I can't tell her to leave me the hell alone,  because then my friend will probably be up my ass and tell me to "be nice". But she just... isn't someone I want to associate myself with.

So since Saturday this has just bugged me, to the point I'm considering cutting my friend out just so I don't have to deal with her friend anymore. 

I probably sound like a jerk, but there's just something about her that I don't like. She annoys me and I'm not comfortable around her. She also touched me once being nice and called me "friend".  I'm weird about people I don't like touching me or calling me their friend it's like she's trying to force friendship just because we have a mutual friend. That's not how it works. 

This isn't just a one time thing. It's happened with other people. And I'm sure it has to do with my anxiety.I just hate when people I barely know think were automatically friends just because we have a mutual friend.  I have to be comfortable with someone and friendship just happens.  That'll never happen with her because I don't like her.

Usually I can just tell the person to leave me alone and then move on with my life and it doesn't bother me anymore.  But my friend just says "she has a big heart" and all this bs. Good for her, doesn't mean I have to be friends with her.  I feel like I sound like a kindergartner with the "I'm not your friend " crap, but I'm sick of it. 

Why should I be nice to someone I'm not comfortable around? Makes no sense.