Basically, I saw a former friend that I cut off because I thought he was doing stuff to betray me behind my back, he tagged himself out of town this weekend, and I started having these delusions that he went with this girl I also cut off, basically the reason I got rid of them last fall is because I thought he was doing things with her and making moves on her behind my back while also doing this whole older brother schtick to me encouraging me to go after her and giving me all this advice and building me up and whatnot. This girl is an old friend of mine, somebody I’ve basically been in love with for the last 10 years and I have serious attachment issues with.

Anyway, he didn’t mention her or tag her or anything else. I just kind of assumed that she went because I know they hang out sometimes now and I have deep paranoia about it. There are plenty of other people who could’ve gone with, but none of the alternate explanations feel right. Believing they went together because there’s something going on between them is what feels right, it overwhelms me and any logical thoughts that I have about this. I’ve been breaking down with these paranoid type of delusions since last fall and I don’t know what to do or how to make them stop.