

I let the depression get to me. I got complacent. I stop cleaning Up, gained weight, and became a hermit since I work from home and just stopped caring about going out. 

Now after 7 years, the last 6 months have left her not wanting to be with me because of it all. I don't blame her. I wouldn't wanna be with me either. 

With rent prices the way they are, I could never afford anything on my own. Only other option is to go back to my mom's which just means I failed this whole adult thing. 

I'd rather just end this adult thing. Makes no sense to go forward. Especially without her. 

Thank you for letting me get this out. I hope you all live Long and Prosper. However my time has come to an end.