So, about a year ago I left a job where I vibed really well with a lot of my coworkers. I worked there for about 2 years. I left it after some work drama happened ( not involving me at all ) and I got an offer elsewhere for a few more dollars an hour. I left with a 2 week notice.

However after only a couple weeks at that new job I quit because the coworkers were horrible. They kept leaving me to do things I had no idea how to do on my own, they made it seem like any question I had was a chore, and the customers were significantly more assholeish than normal.

I applied to my old job so that when they had an opening hopefully I could go back. No one ever called.

When the holidays rolled around I stopped by the store to grab a few things and was catching up with a coworker. I mentioned how I was applying ( again but I didn't say that ) for the seasonal positions to come back and she was really excited and we both told one of the managers who pointed me at which manager to talk to at the time ( manager turnover was bad ).

I applied AND mentioned to one of the managers I had been cool with that I was applying ( this way they wouldn't need to train someone just rehire me cause I knew it all )

No one ever got back to me about a seasonal position. 

I was crushed, because I thought me and everyone really got along well. But even though I had experience I didn't get a call back. I did spiral about how they all probably didn't actually like me and were just placating me or something. But it still hurts to think about a bit. I've always had issues thinking people don't actually like me but this was actual evidence they didn't like me to a significant point.

I need some stuff from that store and was thinking of going in tomorrow. But I'm not sure. My bf thinks it's a form of self harm to do it, knowing how I feel about the situation. I feel like maybe it would help give me closure?  But idk. I could easily get the things I need on Amazon, it would just be more convenient as I'm going to the store next door to it already.

Thoughts? Opinions ? Idc how brutal.