So I’m (20) and a mom to a little baby boy who is 8 months. Idek what to rlly say or start. I live with my in laws. I just miss the old me before I met my bf and had a baby. That’s really selfish to say but I feel like I could manage my depression more. My mom was really verbally abusive. And I don’t rlly have family. I just want to leave ig. But with my baby boy but I don’t know where to start. I don’t even have a car . I’m not even graduated from high school. I seriously don’t even have motivation anymore. Sometimes it’s gets so bad I don’t even shower or take care of myself. My teeth are yellow. Sorry to whoever is reading this I’m just a mess rn and I need someone to talk to really bad. I just love my bf and I tell him but it’s like we’re not rlly in love anymore. And I kept telling myself at this point to leave but i won’t have anyone. I tell him how I feel too. My in laws house if always messy and I just can’t keep up anymore. Im such a bad mom because I sometimes can’t get out of bed and my boyfriend has to take care of him. Sometimes I just wish I could sleep forever. I’m so sorry my post is all over the place.