everytime someone decides to stop being friends with me i start to feel intensely suicidal. i live with the person who has decided to stop being my friend and i am having to move back home in a different city on the first. im feeling so intense that i reached out to someone who has had used me and been incredibly abusive and i even made a post asking people to keep him away from me. i have no medication to overdose on, i have no alcohol to fall asleep on, and i have no friends to turn to anymore. the person who has decided to stop being my friend said i was just a bitch with 0 friends. and its been clear to everyone i am unable to connect with people. ive always had a plan of jumping off a parking garage, but its so cold outside its miserable. i don't know what i need to feel better