Honestly isn't really related to anxiety as I think a lot of people feel this way, but I didn't know where to put this in so.

Anyway, I have to book an appointment that's about my bladder and I'm pretty sure it relates to my anxiety issues. The bladder thing interferes with my life and recently I couldn't go on a school trip because of it.

But I keep procrastinating and I fucking hate making appointments. The first time I called up to book one, it took 3 fucking weeks to finally get an appointment cuz they kept fucking me over and I was constantly calling and everything. I think cuz of this it's really turned me off and just made me dread doing it. I actually called in March but they told to call in April as I couldn't book any appointments in advance at that time for some reason.

But April came and I've just forgotten about the issue because calling is so stressful, especially since irl appointments involve my dad having to take me which just makes everything 10x more complicated as it needs to be on one of his days off, and has to be after school.

And idk, I'm just getting so stressed about it and I tried to distract myself but it just made it worse honestly cuz I couldn't stop thinking about it. I also feel guilty now cuz when I get stressed out, I find it hard to do my hobbies or do any work, and that makes me feel bad cuz I'm being unproductive. But then when I try to do work, I feel too stressed to do any :( I hate this feeling.

Might just book a telephone appointment so it's less stressful but I hope they don't cancel on me.