(im not diagnosed with bpd. i highly suspect i have it but im not going around saying that i do!! just want to post this here because i really do think i have a favourite person and i cannot cope with whats happening right now i just need to get it out SOMEWHERE)


he has no idea how obsessed i am with him he thinks im just a normal friend. well he knows i have issues which is probably why im driving him away more and more. but i really do feel bad for him. he's gone clubbing tonight and he's active on snap maps but hasn't responded to me in 4 hours and its 4am and i want to fucking die i hate this so much. :(

i feel so so stupid for being upset over it but im ruining our friendship and i know it. i judt want him to like me the way that i like him (i am completely fucking obsessed and i feel like my entire happiness relies on him talking to me lol)