Leftists cause me a great deal of anxiety. It’s not exactly their beliefs that cause me anxiety— it’s the people who call themselves leftists. 

Some background info: I struggle with mental illness and am on the autism spectrum. It’s mild and I’m very high functioning, but it still causes me issues. I can’t pick up on social cues sometimes and have odd interests for the most part.

Leftists, as I’ve seen in media on my phone or in the news, seem extremely harsh, authoritative, yet caring. Because I struggle with fitting in and understanding people, I become extremely nervous about trying to go along with them. They also have many strict expectations that always seem to differ from person to person, and this causes me the most stress.

Like I said, they have these very high behavior expectations. It also seems as though if this isn’t perfectly followed, they will “cancel” you and bully you, prevent you from getting a job or going to college. As aforementioned, I don’t pick up on some social cues. This leads me to saying insensitive things from time to time— I am happy to be corrected and ALWAYS change my behavior. I never mean anything badly and honestly just don’t realize when something is offensive sometimes. 

My heart feels like a fork in the garbage disposal. Leftism is the popular political opinion around me in my life, and I know logically that I need to conform to them if I want to be accepted and be good. I’m so exhausted from the confusion and the fear. 

I wish I knew how to get over it. I wish I could say “I know it’s not all of them!” But I don’t know one leftist who hasn’t made me feel this way.. I am so sad about it. I’m so hurt that they make me think they accept mentally ill people... just to turn around and put me down as soon as they see a chance to assert their righteousness over me. 

Note; I don’t like politics at all. I mention leftists because it’s the primary political opinion that I’m exposed to— I’m not around other politics nearly as often. I also do not associate with any political party because I can’t stand the anxiety.