I've been dealing with depression for the past 13 years. No matter what I have tried to do, fixes I've tried to make, goals I've achieved or changing my lifestyle, like taking anti depressants, working out, and going to therapy. I just can't feel enjoyment, or even contentness with anything. Logically I know what I must do to get my hormones in balance but nothing has worked. It's been a long journey and I have been tired before. I'm lost. How do I go back to when I was optimistic about things or had life in my eyes? I want to genuinely smile and laugh again. I don't know how.