It was me 

Although in my rage I said spiteful things and threatened to hurt myself, and although my mother is never going to understand my pain or apologize for causing it, I'm going to move forward. Spacing myself from the situation, I have to accept that there will never be resolution and get on with my life. I expressed my feelings, they are out there, and I'm not going to dwell. I have the weekend off work, and I'm just going to take it day by day. Self care. I have no choice but to see those people again, so I might as well make the best of it. 

I will be stronger when I work through this, not that this makes me weak. I put forth my apology for over reacting and it was rejected, and I'm not trying again. I over reacted but they broke a pretty solid promise. 

If I can't change the situation I'll change myself. 

