There is so much I want to say but mainly I hate myself. My FP and I used to have such an amazing and loving relationship and I loved and still love her so ducking much. Well on the last day of school this other girl whom I hated asked me out and without thinking I said yes idk y the fuck I would do that. I fucked everything up and I had to tell my FP. I felt so fucking horrible because we were never officially in a relationship but I so desperately wanted to be in one and although I know she doesn’t love me anymore and probably never will again I can’t help but breakdown almost every day because I have two classes with both of them and two more with the other bitch. I fucking Jae myself and I ducking hate her for asking me out like that. I kno i shouldn’t make it her fault but fuck it at this point I need to get over her or something but I can’t and I can barely function at school because they both talk to me but my FP is rlly distant rightfully so and I want to fucking kill my self. I want to rip my heart out or stab myself in the chest because I see no reason for living if I don’t have her love. It hurts like fuck and idk what to do what would a fucking normal person do? Should I talk shit over with her or should I let it be and have this slowly consume me until I eventually move on? Idfk and I need help.