They should be here within the next day or two, and I've been splitting on them so bad because they've barely made any time for me. It's not their fault, they work a lot... But I feel so alone and I've been so cold to them and just hateful ab myself and can't stop thinking and talking about how they probably think I'm fat/gross/annoying/ugly. We're going out of state on vacation together and I just don't know how I'm supposed to act when they get here. I don't even know how to act now. I feel like a toddler throwing a fit because I sent them a "k" when they messaged me last and I put their messages on mute so I wouldn't respond right away because I am so upset/having this weird episode.

Please any help at all would be appreciated because we're together for the next two weeks and I'm happy I will be seeing them don't get me wrong but I want to keep self-isolating and hiding from them but I can't because they will be here?? What do I just give them the silent treatment when they get here? What am I supposed to do/say/act??