I researched it and

 1) I already have a heart rhythm problem so I should *not* be taking this... I told my Dr about my heart already so this has lost some belief on them

2) if one month I don't have the money, I fucking die?

Goddamn this medicine has caused me anxiety. 

I guess I will call tomorrow and tell them I'm not taking this. I stopped over a week ago but I just have not not called yet. 

I just feel discouraged