This probably won’t be read by a lot of people but I’m doing a lot of inner child work and basically talking to my inner child out loud and in my head and being sort of a parental figure for them, and I’ve been having horrible jealousy issues the last month regarding my boyfriend and his female friends and it just dawned on me why the little girl inside me feels so anxious and self hating when this happens

My parents didn’t make me feel special. Little me didn’t feel as special as the other girls who had moms  and dads that met their emotional and physical needs. Little me was just there to give my dad narcissistic supply and be there as a support system for my mom.

Little me didn’t feel worthy or special. I never learned my worth or my beauty or what makes me special. I was broken in two. I never felt beautiful as a little girl. I never learned what love was or that it was okay to receive and give love. I was told that men would just use me. 

But I told her she is just as special as anyone else and that I’m so sorry that my parents didn’t make her feel that way, but I’m here to remind you that you are and be there for you. 

It feels soooo good to feel that angry knot in my stomach dissipate. I don’t need to constantly compare myself because I’m fine the way I am. That little girl is just fine the way she is. ☮️