I feel bored all the time and have  lost an interest in everything which used to interest me, my behaviour has changed a lot and I’m becoming a lot more like an asshole and haven’t felt anything for awhile. I don’t know what happened, this all started awhile back when I realized a lot of my laughs and smiles were usually pretty faked or forced and I started trying not to fake my emotions, since then I’ve changed so much. I feel empty, bored, apathetic and don’t really feel anything anymore. I know for a fact I used to feel things, I used to be anxious about my health or talking to people and I can remember definitely crying. 

But now I’m just blank, I don’t care about people or thing anymore. Things I thought I used to like or be interested in are boring to me now, and I just generally i don’t feel anything. I think I’m a sociopath, a psychopath or narcissist or something like that. I’ve stopped giving a fuck about anything, I don’t laugh or smile or even really like talking to people anymore.. I remember I was always pretty unemotional about emotional things when I was younger or even recently, someone in my family would pass or something and I remember showing almost little to no emotion. Was everything I was before just an act? My taste in music, the games I liked, the movies I liked was that all just a mask to help me blend in and I just forgot because I got so used to playing that part? I don’t think so but at the same time I remember getting into a lot of things because someone else was interested In it, I don’t know. I just feel blank now.