It's night time now where I am, and I just should have gone to bed. I sadly selfharm to cope with the cesspool that is my brain. I'm working on it with my therapist for a better coping mechanism, and honestly it is slowly getting beter.

But had had such a heavy week and thought "just a tiny cut to take the pressure off, so that I can sleep without so much stress" 
The moment I got ready to cut myself, my cat jump on my lap and gave quite a scare, and I slipped with the blade.

Now I have 12 stitches and bloody migraine but luckily the cat is fine and didn't got hurt. I think I would never forgive myself if my cat got hurt.

But yeah, I'm a fucking idiot and should have just gone to bed.