I survived and I'm not gonna tell the details because it could trigger someone but seeing my father cry, seeing my brother desperate, seeing my friends being afraid of what could happen is killing me, I'm so anguished for hurting everyone I love, i just want to get better but i don't know how. I'm starting a treatment today, I'll be like part of the time in a clinic and the other part at home, I hope it helps me, so many years fighting this disease, I'm tired and I don't know how much I can take, i don't know what I did to deserve this brain