I feel so out of place and I feel like nothing is real, nobody is real. I feel like someone or something huge is missing from my life and I don’t want to do this anymore. Everything up to this point has just gone completely wrong, bad things keep happening, it’s weird to be isolated and have absolutely nobody. How did things end up this way. I can’t imagine ever feeling different because I feel like this is my true self, it’s like I don’t want to get better and I just think it’s impossible to ever not feel like this every day.