I fucking just walked out on someone because I can't measure the line when a joke means disrespect or when it's a joke but I don't want to wait for the jokes to become disrespect and I can't let someone walk all over me and it's killing me I ruined an opportunity for myself because I deemed something little as disrespect BUT I DONT KNOW IF IT WAS BUT I CANT TAKE THE IDEA OF IT BEING TRUE AND I CANT LET MYSELF BE IN THAT POSITION AGAIN PLEASE I WANT TO DIE 