I’m constantly trying my best to keep it under control, and I know being open with communication is best to have healthy relationships. I’m just so worried about being open with it because I’m worried they’ll see me as crazy and leave me. I manage it as best as I can and I don’t lash out as much as I can, but when I split or get triggered, everything goes out the window and I internally shut down. It’s so hard feeling alone because I’m so scared to tell people close to me.