I keep thinking that maybe I've upset my friend because I accidentally spoiled a few things about a game and it feels like she's ignoring me but she might not be ignoring me, it could just be that she's busy or having a hard time herself but I keep worrying that she's angry at me and not telling me and I'm scared of bringing it up because what if it opens up a can of worms and she is mad at me and wants to friendship breakup with me and I also can't tell if I have any right to be mad because she doesn't want to talk about the game at all but I want to talk a little (without spoiling) because I love to share things and sharing things makes me happy but for her, she prefers privately enjoying things and would rather we say nothing and I feel like I can't say anything right and I'm so scared of her being mad at me and it feels like I give her judgement so much weight and she might not be mad at me at all and I might just be imagining things but I don't know that to say and I just can't sometimes, I fucking don't even. 

I just want things to be okay but I haven't the words to fix things.