I’m 29 and I pushed everyone away. I did this thinking that no one can hurt me if no one is close to me. Its been like this for a while  now and I’m finally okay. I’ve stopped crying myself to sleep, I don’t feel lonely anymore, I’ve stopped investing my energy to people that won’t even stay. I’m at peace that I’ll be alone and that’s okay.

But recently, someone’s trying hard to get close to me and I keep pushing him away. He said I should give him a chance but my previous experiences taught me otherwise. I keep pushing him away because I’m afraid he’ll leave me if I start opening up myself to another person.

I’m a mess.