Due to covid-19 my family and I have been at home for about the last year and a half or so. I think I've grown accustomed to their presence in my daily life. My sister and I just started our fall semester of college yesterday. Today is the first day my sister went on campus for one of her classes. As she was getting ready and I was looking for a backpack she could use, and I started to feel weird. The feeling was ever so slightly familiar but I wasn't sure what it was... Until they left the house.

When I was a kid me and my sister had a co-dependency issue. We got over it as we grew older but I don't think I've gotten over it as much as she has. I still cling to my sister a bit, especially when I'm anxious. And when they left the house I started to feel lonely *and* alone. The house is too quiet. My thoughts started racing and I can't stop wondering when she'll get home. Usually I can handle being alone, but I'm not used to feeling this distraught.

I don't know if this is the remnants of the co-dependency issue I had, or if I'm suffering from separation anxiety... or both. I just want them to come home.