I don't want these thoughts, why are they tormenting me? I'm so fucking scared right now. My body is shaking and I feel sick. Will I remain aware after I die?? Is it going to be eternal pain?? These two questions keep repeating in my mind over and over. I just want peace of fucking peace of mind. I will never receive it though, even death will not save me, I fear. I know this sounds childish and stupid, and it is, but I just can't stop panicking over the possibility of it. If this is what awaits us, we would never know.