For about 5-6 years I've been dealing with depression and anxiety. There's been times were it goes away for a while but I always come back to the cycle, and always for the same reason. Loneliness. However, this time I just feel like everything is going to shit. 

My social life has disappeared, my friend have faded to the point were I only occasionally talk to them online. 

My work/education life is crumbling as I'm about to drop out of uni due to expenses and overall reluctance.

And my love life has never existed in the first place.

I know I'm still young and I really shouldn't be counting myself out when I've still got so much opportunity but just watching my peers exceed in pretty much all of the listed issues is really starting to ware me down, especially since I feel like I haven't changed at all since my early teens.

I've always felt more mature than a lot of people my age, probably due to the shaky relationship my parents had during my childhood that caused a couple incidents of making me pick between the two. Even today (at 19 fucking years old) when they argue over insignificant normal things the panic starts to set in. 

I just don't know what to do from here or how things can get better. I've been in the pit before many times but I just feel like the damage is done and it'll always come back no matter how better life gets.