i honestly don't know what gets into me.. i've always been like this i suppose, at least since i was 10. maybe its hormones, or maybe i'm just using that as an excuse to justify my mood swings. i feel..let down. i feel like im insane and possessive and horrible. my fp spends a lot of time with his other friends which i dont have a problem with any of them and im glad he has a support system. however, when i say a lot of time i mean.. **a lot**. hours on end everyday. he tells me hes in love with me and is so affectionate and it makes me so happy, but i feel so lonely? we discussed this recently. he told me he'd make time and plans with me, yet he hasn't. i feel like i've done something wrong..i always feel that way. i get so irrational when he does this..telling myself im not worthy and that he doesnt enjoy my company and that he prefers to be around them. maybe he does. he talks about one of them so much..so positively all the time. sometimes that makes me jealous and think he has a crush on him. i just wish i could be normal