Sorry if this is the wrong place, but as the title says, I cannot wrap my head around the fact that it's all over. 3 years, just gone, half of it was wasted due to COVID and the lockdowns. At least a few times a week I think back to being away at uni and it makes me panic. Even worse when I listen to music that I would listen to during that time, remember what I was up to, who I was with, what we were doing, my job up there etc, it sends me into a panic and I have to force myself to stop thinking about it and take a minute to slowly breathe deeply to calm myself down. I worked so hard for 3 years and it's just all over and done.

I don't want to be dramatic but I started crying while writing this. I'm so anxious at the state of the world, I've been stuck in my overdraft for the better part of two years, I'm starting to not enjoy video games etc. I have spoken to the doctor about my anxiety quite a few times now but they just always refer me to a self help website and give me some techniques to calm down.

Sorry for the wall of text, I just needed to get it off my chest, if you read through it, thank you, really.