I don't have BPD. But my soon to be wife does, we've been together for 10 years.

I love her, probably a bit too much and I spend most my days wishing I didn't. I'm not going to deny that..

Every day, when we wake up. The first thing that pops into my head is "I wonder what will go wrong today". My girlfriend has turned me into a negative person. And I am bored of being called nicknames when things don't go as she wants it. I'm tired of threats, tired of being accused of everything on God's green earth.. tired of it all..

I wish I didn't love her so much, it would make life so much easier. And living in a small town doesn't make it any better.

I have no Idea where to go from here.. I think, every day I hope "it will eventually get better"

But it doesn't seem to.. And at this point, I am genuinely believing, my girlfriend is milking it / using it as an excuse.. I hate to say it.. But I do...