I refused to engage with who I suspect is my narcissistic manager. Despite months of provocation and taunts. 

I refused to engage in conflict or drama. The office wholly supports me now. 

My partner &amp; I might be breaking up and I’m ok with it. 

Started not to feel bad for having needs and drawing boundaries.

Started not to care if a couple people treat me bad, because I can still see the good in other people and the joy within life.

No longer compelled to use sex, seduction, or aggressive outbursts to secure the approval and security I want. 

I don’t have to be crazy. I don’t have to sell or trade any part of me to get anything from anybody if I don’t want to. 

I’ll be always be ok, bc I’m ready to help and be helped. 

It doesn’t feel like confidence, or arrogance. It feels steady. Self assured. Secure. It’s now my safe place. 

No therapy. Couldn’t afford it. No real support groups. 

Just God, meditation, radical acceptance, shadow work and determination to not settle because that would give me an excuse to hate myself and end my life.

And I refuse 

It’s taken years. Slow, painstaking, but a steady upward climb. It feels fucking good, and I wish more than anything, you might feel this too. 

You can do it. 

You are so much fucking better than all of this, you can be above it all. 

You will get through this, and heal, and evolve. You WILL do it. There’s hope. You just gotta have faith…

That you are a THOUSAND times greater, stronger and lovelier than the BS you’ve been subjected to. That’s a promise.