So earlier this year I couldnt get into any college despite having great marks/grades because In most colleges you have to buy the seat with money .
My parents didn't have any money to buy the seat because they had to marry off my sister and that requires a shit ton of money . So since they couldn't get me into college they decided to put me into a coaching centre so that on February  I can write an exam to get into the fashion college which I'm not even interested in .I decided to go for the coaching because I would be so bored to stay at home without doing anything and thankyou covid for ruining my life . The coaching costs a alot and they are basically a scam . They barely teach anything and took away so much money.  Now I have to self study and there is so much to cover which is quite impossible within 2 months that I will be getting. I have been studying for almost 14 hours a day and I'm so fricking tired and I'm chasing something that I'm not even interested in. My life only consists of studying and sleeping. I don't even have friends to talk to. I hate this coaching and I don't know what to even do because I spent so much money and I will probably have to wait until next october to get into a normal college if I can't get into this fashion one. My life is extremely boring . I don't even have a single soul to talk to and I'm always home and that's why I decided to join coaching because or else I will have basically nothing to do. I seriously don't even want to do this and I wish i hadn't joined this place and spend so much money on this scam like coaching centre. I'm so stuck in this situation and honestly wish I was dead. Can anyone please tell me what I should do?