Not gonna say my age, but I’m in my last year middle school maybe but I’ve been depressed for a while at least since fourth grade for eight months now I have been using a wax pen but lately, I’ve realize how  depressed I’ve been getting to the point where I’m cutting myself again I know people have a harder than me, but when I think back when I was 11,12, and13 I just realize how oblivious i was not gonna get into details, but it was stuff I shouldn’t have been doing at my age but a few months ago, I felt lonely, depressed, suicidal worthless, but a month ago I started dating this girl I feel a little bit better, but I am still depressed and the wax pens is making me feel more depressed than I have in a while. I’ve been trying to stop, but I can’t. If I wasn’t with her I’d probably be dead right now. Almost forgot  I’m a guy.