I feel like I've hit my lowest, I've cut pretty any thought of a relationship or any type of attachment out my life like I love my family and the few friends I have. Like if I removed myself from their lives or they left mine, it what everyone else has done so far so it was only a matter of time before they did the same. I had chance with this amazing girl but i just did all I could to avoid it. I live in a dump but it's either a ruin down camper or the streets, I work at most 3 days week and can't find another job without a vehicle but it will take me forever to save the money for a vehicle, working 3 days a week. Life is get more miserable day by day. I have this dangerous amount of anger that slowly losing grip of, like I won't hurt anyone but maybe myself. I just feel myself slipping away, like I'm going insane. The overwhelmeness, loneliness, anger, and pain from constantly getting push around and down by everyone who has been in my life or the one have came and gone make me feel like I'm just a hunk of meat and bone or just a husk walking around, just trying to hold on to whatever I can which hasn't been anything the last 3 or 4 weeks.