There are days when I feel pretty good but often a minor inconvenience would make me shut down and feel like shit, often when forced to collaborate with others in school. I can’t communicate properly because of my selective mutism which makes me feel even more pathetic–like I can’t even accomplish the simplest things because I don’t ask for help and the words never come out. I hate how often I just run away from people when I feel like I’m about to cry or when I’m too embarrassed to the point I intentionally avoid eye contact with anyone around me, they probably think I’m rude and stupid. Just thinking about tomorrow has me feeling incredibly dreadful and I’d rather break a bone than go back to places with people I’ve embarrassed myself around.