I don't know what's wrong and I'm not sure where else to post this. Maybe this is a narcissistic thing? I'm not really sure, and I feel bad for it because it's not like everyone I'm attracted to owes it to me to put out for me in some way shape or form. Like it's easy for me to say that I don't want that because that's not right for me to want, but does my mind agree with that? Because clearly if I feel like I'm uglier because women I like aren't flocking to me to tell me how much they want me as soon as I put out a selfie, then that's not a healthy way to think? It's weird because I know for myself even and a lot of people, I need some sort of emotional attachment to whoever I like in order to be sexually attracted to them. I just feel like I'm in some sort of mental and moral conflict and I'm not sure what to do about it. I Just want to feel hot and desirable again.