I’ve been unproductive in the past 6 months. Busy either sobbing or if I’m not, playing games to escape responsibilities. It became a habit last month to smoke every night and play games which I’m not proud of as I am utterly useless when high. And also I was recommended to stop smoking due to medication for my ADHD.

I realized that smoking weed does in fact keep me from getting sad. And it’s sad that that’s where I am in life now.