Last weekend I decided to quit because I went to a party, smoked and the next day I felt extremely sad, emotional, empty and even irritable. A couple of days later, I don’t think weed’s the problem. I still fill like I just described without having interacted with people or smoked.
I live mostly in isolation so my mood’s better and more stable when I go on walks, read, etc. weed was just part of my nightly routine (although there were some wake n bakes that I actually could tell made me anxious).
I have BPD so the correlation between smoking cannabis and my mood swings is hard to establish. 
The only reason I quit was to try and spend a sober summer so that I could go back to school with better brain function and memory. Now I’m questioning if I even wanna go back to school.
Also, I know I’ll end up smoking because I don’t have the will to not do so when I have to go back home to my stoner friends for the summer.
I’m high af on benzos tho so I think that defeats the purpose of wanting to take care of my neurones since they literally scramble my brain.
Tomorrow’s day 3 I feel kinda of pathetic for wanting to give up so early* but it always happens, no matter if I haven’t smoked in a week or a month, I’ll always go back.

*I wouldn’t think this of anyone else, relapses can happen but you also can get back on track