I genuinely think I have BPD, but I'm really scared to say anything or reach out to anyone in my life because I don't want them to assume I'm seeking attention. The fact of the matter is, I see  my mental health getting worse, and worse and worse. I relapsed in having dark thoughts and harming myself, and a lot of what I read about BPD genuinely applies to me.

And I'm afraid my parents (I'm 20, I can support myself.) will no longer love me as much as my step mother often mentions she hates people with Bipolar, so I could only imagine how she'd react to BPD. My biological mother has BPD, but I don't contact her. I'm very confused and feel like no one in my life believes me when I try talking to them about this. 

And yes, I am currently looking for a psychiatrist in my area to help me figure out if this is what's wrong with me, it's just taking a bit longer since I am a bit busy in life right now.