I missed another Pap smear today. I have just this terrible panic and I can't go. 

I didn't bother rescheduling this time. 

I'm not sure how to fix this. I've talked to my therapist and she said something along the lines of it sucks and I'm sorry but you just need to go. 

It doesn't help that the only medical clinic I can afford is full of angry people. I know they're overworked, but the anger really eats at me. 

And of course, I know if I cry or am anxious, there's a strong chance it will make everything worse. 

I've had so many awful experiences at the doctor.  I hate how cold they often are. I've had a couple really wonderful doctors in my life, but where I live now, my insurance ONLY covers the county clinic. 

How do you deal with cold, angry people? 

