i basically feel like garbage all the time and now things are piling up and i can’t get my act together. i’m a first year university student but i barely ever go to school. most days i can’t get out of bed. i oversleep every night but i still feel exhausted and can’t push myself to move. i don’t eat, i barely shower, my room is a mess, the usual. i don’t like living this way, living as if my life is over at age 19, but i also feel like if i had the chance, i would live like this forever. i hate my life. i am not happy at school but i need to finish it. i know that i need to get my degree, but i have 0 motivation. my friends want me to go back to therapy but it’s expensive and i feel like it doesn’t help anyways.