I meet someone, I’m really charming at first because it’s just light and fun and I can play the role that they want. Then we start spending more time together and they realize that was a façade and there’s nothing inside of me so they get bored. I’m so tired of not feeling like a real person. I genuinely have no idea how to just be myself with someone, express my opinions and desires because I don’t know what they are. All I want is for them to love me.