I'm in a wonderful casual relationship with someone I'm absolutely wild about. Last night he invited me over to a bonfire and afterwards we ended up getting intimate. Everything was perfect up until I realized that my period wasn't done (I thought it was). He understandably isn't a fan of blood but decided to go ahead with it, but then wasn't able to. We ended up cuddling and still had a lovely night but ever since I left I've been spiraling. It doesn't help that he's always busy during the day so I haven't been able to talk to him much today. Today I messaged him about a different sex thing we've been planning and he didn't react with as much enthusiasm as I expected so of course my brain interpreted it as hate.

I know I'm being illogical i know things are fine I know it's not my fault, but I'm terrified he hates me and everything is ruined now. Last night we called and talkex for hours after I got home and he said everything was ok and we talked like we usually do (most every night we call and talk for 2-4 hours). So like...thst should be enough to calm my mind but NOPE. I'd been doing pretty well but not being able to see him much lately has been fucking with me, and adding this on top of everything makes me want to yeet myself into the sun. 

It's been a while since I've had anything happen that made me spiral like this and I have no idea what to do. If it was a normal time I'd try to schedule another date (which I still might ask him to go hiking or something, neither of us has seen anyone but our families and each other.) I'm trying so hard not to cry or relapse or spam his phone with apologizes and beg him not to leave me.  I've been so anxious I gave myself a migraine and had to sleep most of the day. I adore this guy so much and I don't want to lose him over something like this, or worse because I flipped out on him. I've fucked up every other relationship that way i can't do it again. 

How do you calm down when you get this way? Usually I just cry a lot and spam people's phones with pathetic messages but I so badly don't want to do that....