I've had depression for about a decade now , tried all the meds , nothing really helped. Anyway, ,found a great girl, we got married, got pregnant, things going well. We moved to Canada from nz. Things were good, We had our stressed and struggles , I went into hospital for ECT treatment, sold to me under the lie it would reset my brain and I'd need meds, anyway, while recovering in hospital I get a barrage of abusive texts from said wife saying it's over and she wants a divorce, I've got three weeks to sort my shit, and move out.... Outta nowhere....  Then within a few weeks there's a new guy on the scene.... Anyway, I bottomed out big time, no friends or family for support... I still managed to work every day but hated it. I became suicidal big time, nearly over dosed with pills and whiskey... My son ,5 at the time didn't want to hang with me and always wanted his mom.... My mood just kept declining... So me and the ex wife talked and decided it best I leave Canada and go home back to friends and support.... It crushed me but I left... I didn't want to be another mental health statistic , suicide... I thought that would be worse for my son than me leaving.... I'm so lost... I've been gone 3 years now.. I try to make contact every week and video but he doesn't want to.... I want to go back just to be close to him but the ex says she'll make my life real difficult... She is now married to the new guy and has a kid by him.... I'm suspicious of the situation.....

Therapy hasn't helped , meds haven't helped. I miss my boy so much.. he's doing great , is happy and healthy so I'm grateful.

Lost and depressed ass hell.
Sorry for the rant... Uggghhhhh. 
Thanks for listening