1 _ I have been going through cycles of depression for 3 years now my biggest problem that I usually don’t feel any thing about anyone or anything but when I feel something it’s alway an overwhelming guilt about something that I know I can’t control 

2 _ every year I work on my self to get better but at the end of every year there always something that happen that bring me back to ground zero 2020 I was trying to lose weight and I was like 75% from my goal but I hade a leg injury that made me stay at home for a month and I gained double what I lost 
At the end of the last year I had gotten virus A and it was really bad for like 2 month I could only eat sweet potatoes and I was yellow like a banana at the same time I looked like I was dead my skin was dry like a 90 years old and I couldn’t walk for ten minutes without fainting or getting ill after like a month I thought I was done and I will move on but it just got worse the virus closed inflammation in my liver and I would sleep every day thinking I might not wake up tomorrow but nobody knew how I felt I was always acting like I’m ok but I clearly wasn’t at the end of the two months I went with my life like nothing happened and the thing that helped me with this was dark souls 3 I got the games since 2017 but I didn’t play it untill this year this game was the thing that brought me back to life and gave me hope I don’t know how but since I started playing it and gone to the whole series and all the studio games I felt great I wanted to live only to play the games but know I can’t play for like 2 months and I feel like shit