I feel so alone right now. I’ve been dealing with so much for the past few months. A lot that nobody knows about because I can’t tell my ‘friends’ since no one would understand. Also last time I opened up to a friend about my issues they made me feel weird and worthless.

I just sit in my room all day contemplating why I’m not good enough for this world. Why I’m so fat, but then just keep eating. Technically I am at a healthy weight but I feel fat. I am in my eyes. Ew. I hate myself.

I start university on Monday and I’m extremely nervous. I hate the university I’m going to. Been there to take some tests and everyone seems so shallow and conceited (showing off their hair/makeup and wearing brand names top to bottom).

Regardless I have no say in where I study since my dad forced me to attend this uni and I don’t live in a place where girls opinions are valued at all, but rather bashed.

I don’t know how to continue my life anymore. Everyday is turning into a struggle. I just wish I could end my life and die but I can’t because I believe in god. I don’t know where to go from here I’m just lonely asf.