So I started seeing the most amazing girl, and things were going amazingly, we had all these plans, both of us had just come out of long term relationships and we were best friends. Joking all the time, wanting to never be apart etc. But at one point I left town for a family holiday and she went to a club we go to a lot, on her own to meet other friends, and stayed for like 20 hours. 

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The following week she got very depressed and she started to distance herself. She finally got a bit better in the second week, and did the same, went out, and things got way worse. She told me she was starting to see patterns that reminded her of when she was hospitalised. Shes really smart and is learning to live with her condition, so she agreed it was the reason that this was flaring up again, after a long time of being quite okay with living with it, and also is actively working to not go out for example (as it makes it worse) and also deleting various dating apps, as she is realising unhealthy impulses she was starting to get from them. (we aren't exclusive) 

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But with the depression coming back and the bpd symptoms we started to drift apart. I decided if I wanted to be with her, then i'll have to sit through these parts, as that will happen again most likely, and I'm willing to do it, as everything was so good before. 

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But I am getting slightly worried that maybe things won't go to the way they were before. Ive read a lot of posts from really aggresively angry (mainly) men, who clearly feel like someone has messed their life up, and im trying to not take these seriously, but I just want to know, can I expect that version of her to come back? 

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Im seeing glimpses again of that version of her, but we don't say "i love you" anymore, we dont see each other as much, and it for sure gives me anxiety occasionally that im pushing her away by being too clingy. She is still planning trips with me, and we still talk all the time, but I sometimes can't help but feel that maybe that version of her wont be back. 

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I guess i'm just looking for advice from this community on how these relationships often play out. 

Thanks in advance