I suffered from postnatal psychosis and I can't remember what happened or what it was about other than it involved killing my baby. I was hospitalised on the high dependency unit and given ECT. All I remember is the feeling of intense fear and anxiety, almost terror that I was in, I don't remember what the delusions entailed. 

I had a second episode earlier this year and again, I can't remember the content of my delusions other than I was receiving messages through car number plates because I was specifically chosen by God to know the future. I was in hospital for two months and had involuntary ECT again. 

Sorry this is more of a vent but I'm just wondering if it's normal not to remember your psychotic episodes. It makes me worried that there wasn't anything wrong with me and everyone just overreacted.