I thought it would be best to ask people with some insight. 

We were together for almost 10 years. I love him so damn much, but I after his last mania he never really came back. 

He became cold, distant. He stopped talking to me. I set boundaries, he broke them. So I asked to separate. 

I thought maybe he would get help, get better. 

But it's been more than a month and it's the same. Maybe worse. 

I'm lonely, I'm hurt, and I feel like it was all a lie.