I hate this so much. I love my fiancé yet I’m treating him like shit half the time. He is away for work a lot and I think that triggers something deeply even though I kind of feel fine when he leaves and I like my alone time. 

But this rollercoaster of feelings… it’s so confusing and terrible to feel like I hate him sometimes. I hear that’s normal in a marriage but this lasts and I turn into a different person. When I lift out of it, I feel so guilty. He doesn’t deserve this. 

Has anything specific helped you minimize splitting? Any and all answers are very welcome. I want to feel hope that I won’t treat him like this because sometimes I think I should just break it off for his sake…