I was diagnosed with BPD 10 years ago when I was 27.  Since then I’ve gotten a diagnosis of panic disorder, anxiety, severe depression, OCD and bipolar.  A couple months ago I ended up in the emergency room because of a bad panic attack that happened at work and I ended up calling in sick the next day. 

My boss was with me. She knows and she claims to understand because her daughter has anxiety.  After that happened I applied for and got FMLA for my panic disorder so I can protect my job when I feel I can’t go in or if I have to leave early or come in late because of therapy.  HR approved it and she had to sign off on it and since that day there has been a definite shift in how she treats me. 

But I don’t know if it’s just me or if she really has changed but either way it sucks.  Nobody at work really speaks to me anymore and I’m trying to tell myself that it doesn’t matter, it’s just work, the important people still talk to you. 

But it’s hard being in a place for 8 hours a day and be completely alone.  I’m back at the point where I want to quit but I’ve been at this job for over a year now and I am determined to keep it. 