I haven't been able to truly feel happy or sad or any emotion for that matter for over a year. Even after being beaten,abused,bullied and having death threats sent to me I don't break down and cry or think about k1lling myself I just go about my day like nothing happened. 

For example I had a fight on the bus with my "friend" who keeps punching me and calling me slurs and some people from school found out so they led me into a corridor and started beating me up. I didn't tell any teachers because I wasn't mentally bothered by it. Now this happens almost everyday and I still feel absolutely nothing