kinda drunk while typing this but oh well. i don’t quite understand how i feel. i don’t feel connected to anyone. it feels like i’m constantly just giving people whatever version they need or want from me. i don’t feel like i belong with my friends or family. i love them dearly but i just feel out of place in this world. i’m okay with the idea of death, never had the courage to do it myself. i love life and i love people…just tired  of existing sometimes.