I’m on marriage number 2. I was single for 7 years after my first husband. I can look back now and see that the demise of my first marriage was 75% my fault because of BPD. I’ve now been married for 2 years. He’s a great guy but he just doesn’t get mental illness and he’s mostly unsympathetic. He can’t fix things around the house, he always wants sex but doesn’t treat me womanly at all. I don’t want to be your cum dumpster bro. I feel like I do a lot of the “manly” shit around the house and I hate it. I want to be a queen for a bit. I want to depend on someone else to do it for once. He also sucks as a stepdad. He’s awkward and barely tries. It pisses me off. That’s the short list. It’s just a lot of small things and it may be me not picking because of BPD but if that’s the case then I would rather be alone. If it’s a legit complaint list, then I want to be alone. If it’s not legit and I am just being a borderline, then I want to be alone. I just kinda miss my freedom and not because I want to date or even go out. I’m totally content being alone. It’s strange because I used to do anything possible to keep someone around. What should I do?