I dont know How to begin with the title or what to even use as a title. Thoses last years has been hard on me, as i Lost ALL my happiness and Just feel like a husk. It appears as everyone that i should love and should love back drains It.
My father drains as he Just push his problems with his gf to me as he wants to vent but Just that. My mother has betrayed me to the point that i could be in the streets and my father wants me to reconcile with her, even If they arent together. My romantic life Just sucks as i dont have confidence to approach girls anymore and the only time i had someone was Just a briefly moment that i ask myself why give false Hope. My memory is failing me because of stress to the point that i forget things as soon as they were Said. My father says that it isnt his fault too that im all alone even thought ALL my life he Said i should Just Focus on studying and after i got a job i should have someone and now i cant get anyone, besides the fights i had to hear almost everyday about that he had with my mother. And i feel like ending It all everyday. And still my father yet want me to put a false smile in my face as If everything was good when im at home for him to not feel Sad. I'm feeling like going Crazy and i dont know what to do anymore. I Just want peace and maybe love but i dont feel i Will get either. Not in this life atleast