Im 21 i consider myself to have never been in a relationship , i have no friends, no one sees value in me so they keep conversations short. What the hell am I supposed to do with all these thoughts and things that are going on. Im realizing that at my age, people settle with the groups they have and if you aren’t in a group it means you aren’t wanted. 
Whats the point of all this self improvement when i feel like shit at the end of it all? 

Each day im getting closer to rolling them credits. Cant take the loneliness anymore. It fucking hurts.