I don't know who to talk to or where to post this but I want to get it out of my chest. I have about 2 people I really care about and I would literally die for them. However I think I'm being a burden on them with my constant paranoia,  oversharing of my feelings and all my stupid impulsive behaviour that I know will hurt them but I still do it and they are still with me for some reason. Part of me wish that they will leave so that I can finally end it all