So I have depression, anxiety, and OCD. I usually have ok control with my emotions. I take antidepressants. For about the past 2 months. I have been kinda paranoid. I feel people use information against me to hurt me and they use me. I feel like I'm in a dream like state and Im very confused. I have always had mood swings but not this bad. I can feel emotions in my skin like when I feel rage or sadness it just takes over me and I can't focus. I will get very sad depressed for days to like  hours. Im not always miserable as long as I don't focus on it and distract my self but It is always back there. I went to the hospital the other day because I was having like a meltdown for about two days. I got released because I said I wouldn't hurt myself or anyone else. They recommended treatment but I've been there and no thanks.  

I usually put on a facade to. I learn to never say how I'm feeling or act how I'm feeling because it used to cause problems. I can hide things pretty well but I feel too much. It almost feels like post acute alcohol or drug withdrawals. Just may brain is tweaky

I haven't been going to work because I feel very confused and when I'm driving it feels like I'm dreaming. Everything is 100 percent intense all the time. I bail out and back out of everything. The worst part is I think I'm just dramatic. A little part of me thinks I'm just weak and dramatic and looking for a reason to justify things. Im confused and can't express things. 

Advise please! what is wrong with me