I have been suicidal for almost 3 years now. I've been to multiple therapists. I've had multiple anti - depressants and they keep me barely alive. But with each day, I just find more reasons to not stay alive.

I've spent the past year spending each day arguing with each and every way in which life sucks.

All I can think of right now is, this is no way to live.

All that comes to my mind now is regret about not jumping of that roof on that day, because now I'm afraid the suicide attempt will fail and I'll end up going through physical AND emotional turmoil.