i feel so so lonely and it's so bad that i feel a hole in my chest that aches so much all the time and i have no energy anymore 

i have a few friends but i barely talk to them anymore and even when i try it feels like they're moving on with their life and doing great things

and i'm here stuck being the same and getting emptier and emptier

i just don't know what the point of me existing anymore is

even if i was gone no one would notice much i don't have an impact on this world

i recently made a few new friends which is great but i feel like i always hit a wall and can never become close friends with anyone anymore :( is this what being an adult is gonna be like for the rest of my life? unable to make meaningful connections and feeling alone and empty