This emptiness is unbearable. I just want to feel alive again. I hate it so fucking much. I keep feeling the need to search out for someone to 'save' me but I know the only person who can help me is myself but I just don't know how. 

I lie in bed all day doing nothing. I watch YouTube videos just to fill the silence. I try playing video games but I don't find enjoyment in them anymore. I don't find enjoyment in life generally.

I just want to be happy. That's all I want.