OK let me say all my defects.. Tell me what's happening I wanna know..


I think I am mentally insane. Because when somebody really pisses me off (in my brain:I imagine choking them to calm down) watching anime is the only gateway from the world I have. I don't believe in god. I don't give a damn bout my family. I can get hurt(not physically) easily sometimes.. Like if someone betray me or things like that I wanna have a girlfriend but am afraid thta she might leave me(I am a virgin fyi) sometimes when my favourite anime character dies I tend to do self harm.. Sometimes when I get too angry I punch the wall to calm down.. It will hurt like hell but it will be a good distraction and I won't think for a while (cause of the pain I guess) I regret being born. I am 17 years old BTW If that plays any factor. Pls help me