CN: Covid 

Heya Reddit, 

just here to maybe find some good words or relief if only. 
So I’m a social worker which means that I make a living from dealing with other people’s shitty problems. I lately joined a new team and switched jobs. This seemed to be a relief from my first job that gave me panic attacks and made me feel depressed. A couple of month into the new position I already got the highest responsibilities there are in my position. I hate it. I hate my profession. Bad thing is that I’m actually good at this. After one month my boss even named me her deputy as she left for vacation. This is too much for me. But I don’t wanna reject anything as I am still on trial. 
On top of this my uncle is in the ICU with covid. It’s unclear whether he’s gonna make it. So my family also demands help from me. My father is unemployed and needs my help with applications. 
Everyone demands my help so all I do is help other people. But it doesn’t feel like anyone’s checking in with me. 
For the first time in month I took my emergency meds again. They didn’t help. I still feel like shit. I’m so tired and anxious about everything. I wish they would just ask me if I needed help just one time.