The physical pain from 6 years of complete isolation is causing me unbearable mental and physical pain my heart feels heavy I have no energy to workout or clean my room or even take a shower I just wanna lay in bed all day. I am tired of this suffering I just want a girl of my looksmatch to love me at least  I never had a gf I'm still a virgin at age 21. I'm so tired of this shit. I don't deserve this I never hurt anyone I never felt like I was good enough because of my experiences growing up in school. I haven't cried in a while because I just feel dead inside. I just can't take this shit I'm in physical pain.