I have been going to my current therapist for about a year. He has been very supportive and has pulled me out of a very dark place back in May.

Last week, I got a call offering me a job. They sent me a list of documents to put together for the payroll etc. They said they'll call me back in about three days to confirm an appointment at their office to collect the documents and sign the contract.

Yesterday, they called back saying they are rescinding their job offer and didn't disclose why. Today morning, my social media was flooded with an old friend of mine receiving an award for helping abused women. She had made fake rape accusations against me in the past. I was crushed.

I called the therapist for an emergency appointment. I went to his office and as I told him how horrible I felt, I saw him physically recoil as I cried and he said very generic things. I could sense by the words he used that he was withdrawing.

He then ended the session in about 5 minutes even though I hadn't stopped crying. He told me he couldn't help me and wouldn't elaborate about why.

I guess I'm in denial right now. I know to expect people I'm emotionally invested in to be toxic. 

But I don't know what to do when people who are expected to be objective like the therapists, even some people who are reading this, are choosing not to help.

I don't know why life wants me to be hopeless.