So idk what it is but when a scene in a movie about r*pe comes up I don't feel as repulsed to jt as one should yk I mean I hate the idea of it obv and the act so much but I don't react to its news the way ppl would u know shocked and devastated I do get shocked but not so much for some reason and I'm a very emotional and sensitive person I easily get effected but anything like this doesn't exactly effect me and I feel terrible about it so much bcz I know it's an awful awful thing and I don't want to normalise it or react just normally to it 

I was watching a movie with my bf which had r*pe  related scenes and we shut it bcz he said it was traumatising and I didn't feel exactly the same way I mean it was kind of triggering and I didn't like it but my reaction wasn't the same as my bf's 

I just don't know what it is with me I don't want to be reacting like this carelessly ???