I'm bram, about 3 years ago my dad left for about 1.5 years (me and my dad are very close) just after he left i tried to take my life twice not only because of him also other factors i rather not talk about. Since then i started going to the gym. I have been working out for about 2 years now. But because of a heart condission i can't go anymore the gym was a nice place were i could put all my anger into weight. But about 2 weeks ago i started smoking and drinking allot because i can't go to the gym anymore. I want to tell my family my story but i think they will judge me and i'm not a open person i keep every thing locked inside me. I don't like talking about my feelings. Does someone have any advice how i could talk to someone about it?