my intentions when it comes to other people are so pure and i'm really the most faithful friend someone could ask for. my acceptance of other people and willingness to help them is nearly boundless. ive heard "youve really helped me", "youre such a good friend" etc so many times yet no one offers the same back at me. no matter how good ive been to them no one loves me as much as i love them. no one shows me the same amount of acceptance and tolerance that i do for them. i end up feeling like peoples mom in a weird way, like people initially gravitate towards me because i'll comfort them and build them up, and then theyre off again. i had an FP for two or so years that made me feel like i had finally found someone who matched my feelings back for me and i actually thought we'd be together all our lives, but then she found new friends and that was all it took for her to just not care about me anymore. even though she said that these other friends judge her and hurt her feelings all the time, they are better options than me evidently. ive never been so hurt in my life, i dont even have words for it. i want to just give up on other people entirely because being hurt like this is almost too much to handle. i dont think i can ever trust another person like that again.