My bf of one year (29m) broke up with me (29f) today. He said he cannot forget the way i treated him in the past (my bpd) and love is not enough. I finally started treatment, medication and therapy but he says it's too late, when he sees me he just sees the way i treated him. He says he still loves me and that he wants me in his life still. He wants to spend time with me every now and then. He messaged me i love you several times today. I feel so down. I know its the BPD, and feeling abandoned and alone. I've had break ups before but I never loved them to the degree I loved him. I started getting help because of him. I feel like I will never find someone again and life feels so bleak. I asked him if there was a chance we would ever get back together. He told me he would never get back together with me and i need to give up on that idea. If i keep bringing it up or asking him he will block me. I want to so badly to call him and talk to him, he told me we can talk in a couple of days on the phone, and it really hurts. I don't know any other people with bpd and break ups to bpds are so much more intense, i would love some advice from other bpds on how to cope.