So first of i cant say this in real life because people would think im insane but after 7 years of depression and not talking about my problems to anyone i feel like im losing it i cant sleep never hungry and i keep plotting murders sounds dumb but its become almost an obsession every time im upset or angry wich is most of the time i start thinking about ways to kill people will obviously never talk to people about it but i just dont know what to do i actualy have more fun thinking about murder than doing things like playing games with friends and idk i need help and dont know how to get it without getting into trouble