I know in other posts I've talked about the feeling of remaining anonymous to who I express my feelings to. But now I think just maybe I want someone who actually cares about me. I feel as if there is nobody in this world who I can goto who will truly care. It's either they give you sympathy, they only listen to be nice, or they are paid to care. By that I mean I understand everyone has things they are dealing with. Everyone doesn't have time to help becuase they need help or are too busy. But I just want someone in this world who will genuinely care about me not a parent or a family figure, that feels to forced even though their love is real. I want another human who hasn't know me for all my life to genuinely care about me.

I always give others as much love, support, and care that they want/need. And I just feel like that favor is never repayed or always comes at some cost. I want to be unconditionally loved by someone and I want to return that favor by giving that person the world. But I feel like I'll never get that. It's too much to ask and it's not something you can just go out and get.

I want to be special to someone, truly special.