I'm feeling such intense emotions that I just want to get extremely drunk and fucked up on pills or something.  I've been through the Distress Tolerance and Emotion Regulation modules once each, so I have retained at least some of the info on the skills to help when you're feeling very intense emotions.

But it all just feels like boring bullshit. Don't get me wrong, I think DBT is great and believe in it and want to keep learning and studying it.  But it's like... DBT would suggest I go downstairs, put ice/coldwater in a bag, put a wet paper towel over the bag, and bend over and put it on my face for a couple minutes.

But that just feels like it wouldn't do anything.  I need something stronger than that.

Does anyone else feel this way (or used to feel) about DBT sometimes?  Is this just willfulness?=(  It just feels like I need something stronger, some medication, to get me through this.  I just feel like I'm drowning in despair.  I'm trying to not overdo it with my Valium.  I have some on hand but wish there was some way of coping with my emotions besides DBT or self-harm or drugs.  Or, I wish there was a drug that could make you feel totally fine with no bad side effects.