I don't know how to budget and every time I think about budgeting or saving money I have anxiety over all the possible situations that could go wrong. My two thought processes are that I either spend money or I don't spend it at all because there is no in between for that in my mind. 

Not only that I think about getting my own apartment straight away after I finish college even though it's stressful as hell because you know, I finished college and I have this idea that I have to become an adult-adult at 22-23 and do all the adult things like moving out and working a 9-5 job, stressing about minimum wage, struggling to meet ends meet, sitting in the dark when I miss a payment. Or even worse yet...GETTING KICKED OUT AND LIVING IN A CARD BOARD BOX BECAUSE I COULDN'T PAY MY RENT!!! That makes me the most anxious to the point that I want to cry. 

I might as well live like those people on Extreme Cheapsakes by not spending any money and just being pathetic and reusing plates or washing my clothes in bath water!