With my mom, sister, &amp; niece being the exceptions, I am never truly comfortable will anyone. I have close friends of over 15 years that I can’t even be my full self with. It’s so frustrating. It makes me feel so isolated &amp; abnormal. Any interaction I have with someone, no matter how “close” I am to them, my thoughts start racing. “Did I say something weird? Am I making it awkward? Do they understand what I’m trying to say? Do they sense my discomfort?” Idk what’s wrong with me. It’s actually severely affecting my life. There are good moments. Sometimes I’m able to let loose and relax &amp; have a great time. But it never stays that way.