I hope I can summarize this in a competent and coherent way.

I am a man who is nearly 26 years old, but I have the abilities of an 18 year old if that. I did graduate with a bachelors in business management, but I never learned anything (nearly every class was open book and allowed you access to the internet, the few that didn't, I nearly failed in).

I am fat and unhealthy, and I feel like it is finally catching up to me (I am out of breath getting out of bed once in a while).

The only good thing in my life is my social circle with good friends and a girlfriend.

I can't really survive in real life. Not only do I lack the skills to get a good paying job, I cannot stand working 40 hours a week. I would prefer death than working 40 hours the rest of my life (and before any links to that antiwork sub, that place is too fucking negative and make me want to kill myself more).

My goal is to find a way to work less, and I have thought of some ideas like blogging. I know it's unlikely even if you are skilled, but it looks like the only way that I can write about interesting things while making money that has the possibility of okay passive income. Issue again is the lack of skills. I cannot write well, I lack detailed enough knowledge about the field to actually write interesting articles, and I cannot think of any idea that would make me standout.

I don't want to wait until I am in my late 30's to gain all of these skills. My SO would leave me by then (especially since they want kids, and I will never be able to have them due to my financial instability), and I get a feeling my support structure will pass away by then. Even then, this magically requires me to develop any discipline.

Basically, I am a ticking bomb that is just waiting until either my support structure gets too old (my aging mother) or until my girlfriend naturally leaves me due to me being a failure in life. I am already too old to do anything in life. Any field would requires years of personal study and development. Life has already passed me by.

I have been to numerous therapists (and I am seeing one now), and I have taken half a dozen medications + ketamine that have had zero effect on me.