So I recently got a new job, I started on Nov 30th and did four weeks of training, then started on my own. Not long after I got the job, I had an awful panic attack, the worst one in years. And since then my anxiety has been at top level almost every day. I was managing pretty well up until my panic attack, but since then it’s just been downhill. I’m either too anxious or too depressed/unmotivated to do anything most of the time. I’m behind on my rent, and I called in sick every day last week. I feel horrible about using my PTO when I only started about a couple months ago, but I don’t know what to do. I’m just so anxious and exhausted all the time. Yesterday morning, I overslept by two hours and woke up to a bunch of texts from my bosses asking me why I wasn’t clocked in (I work from home), I didn’t know how to explain myself so I followed standard call out procedure even though I was already two hours late, and texted my asst manager and my team leader. I didn’t want to go into a whole bunch of details about my personal life, so I just told them I’ve been struggling with mental health issues and that I’d rectify the situation in any way I can. I’m scared I’m gonna get fired but I also feel like my life has gone to complete hell in such a short timespan. The days have blurred together and I feel like I’m not even really living anymore. I barely eat, I’m always exhausted, anxious 24/7 and I barely leave my apartment. I was thinking about texting my team leader this morning and being honest about everything that’s going on and just letting her know that while I am very grateful for my position and that I want to succeed, I’m also battling some very stressful and intense issues.