Being that my last relationship was with a narcissist that always made me feel like I was less than and worth nothing, I have been very closed off about inviting my significant other into my life. He’s invited me into his life since day one but I just wasn’t comfortable doing so myself. I finally felt like I could trust him with my feelings and wanted him to be apart of my life so I invited him to a wedding for my bestfriend’s sister (who is like family) today and to go to the Renaissance Faire with my grandma (who is my favorite person) tomorrow. Well today he woke up and decided that he has been too stressed out from work and that he doesn’t feel like going. I got upset and walked away because I wanted to get my feelings in order to avoid the inevitable meltdown. I came back and tried to talk to him like an adult and let him know that I understand he is stressed from work, but that today will be fun and I expressed how much it meant to me that he went, even talking about my feelings and letting him know that this was kind of triggering for me, as my ex never did anything I wanted to do but I was always expected to do what he wanted. But there was no changing his mind. He told me that there was no talking to me because he didn’t want to go. And then the meltdown happened. I told him that if he didn’t understand how much this meant to me and how I was trying to have him be apart of my life that he doesn’t see, then that he shouldn’t bother coming tomorrow either. Then I stormed out sobbing my eyes out and am now sitting in a Walgreens parking lot. He really has been wonderful about everything up until this point, and I understand he’s stressed. But this was a big step for me, and now I’m wondering if I ruined things because my borderline said that if I’m stressing him out, then I should just leave. I still plan on going to the wedding but I don’t want to be the one who texts first because I feel like I’m bothering him. I constantly feel like I’m bothering him and this happening when I tried to include him in my life just feeling like the whole world just ended. And we’ve never had a serious fight before and normally after I have a meltdown, people don’t seem to want to be involved with me further. I don’t have a purpose for posting this, I just needed to vent in a community where I may be understood. I tried so hard to be understanding, but it doesn’t feel like I’m getting the same in return.