I am going through something i don't understand. I don't know why I can't feel good about myself. Last couple of months, the organisation i work for chose a non competent person for a senior position i was working for for 4 years. That non-competent person was my close friend at office. So i got fucked by both my organization and my so called friend. I was able to get out of there but feel very heartbroken and dull in new organisation. I haven't delivered anything in past one month. 

I have also been supporting my parents bcoz my father even after having a decent career feels like a faliure and didn't get a house for himself and my mother. He is just laying over me. He is not concerned of how it affects my life. That i am 30 and unmarried. He is just chilling. Buying expensive things for himself and taking out his frustration on me and my mother. I can't leave my mother . 

My boyfriend has got a job few months back. For some strange reason he is complacent. Occasionally he talks of marriage but never follows through. He is annoyed at me for nagging. 

I have no support apart from my mother and my sister who is studying. I don't know what to do. Where to start. It's 3 days of constant crying. 

I just wanted a normal life. Please help.