DAE just gets so obsessed with their appearance that it becomes really overwhelming? 

I always want to look flawless and i am always overdressed, i really want to have a perfect look and be the prettiest bitch whenever i go. 

I feel like wanting my exterior to look flawless is my way of compensating how i feel inside, but honestly i feel like if i was visually perfect and beautiful, my problems would just disappear. Had ana/mia before and i really think that beauty is the key to happiness for me.

For example, if i was really really pretty my bf would love me so much, everyone would do things for me and people would think I'm not as problematic. 

That's more like a vent lol but i wanna know if anyone else relates to this....