I sometimes can’t get these thoughts out of my head that he’s already starting to reject me &amp; it hurts so bad.
He does not understand this affliction and refuses to accept that these symptoms can’t just be turned off or for someone with bpd to just decide they don’t want to think/feel this way anymore.
I do t think he likes the idea of being an FP, and does not actually accept that place in my life &amp; it’s killing me. I just want him to reach for me but he never does. I cry every day over this.