Ever since 1st grade, I've had straight A's. I was no.1 student in my entire elementary school. In middle school, I had all honors/advanced classes and 4.0 gpa, and was literally in the top 1% of all students. I genuinely enjoyed learning, studying, being at the top, and going to school in general. I've also never missed a single day of school, even when I was sick. 

This all changed when I got depressed halfway through freshman year of highscool. 1st semester I had straight A's, then 2nd semester, for the first time in my life, I had F's. Not just one F, but 6 F's, one for each class. Normally, when I had a B in a certain class, I would literally panic and do everything I possibly could to make it an A again. For some reason I just didn't care anymore. My anxiety caused me to stop going to school and was very relieved to hear when they announced that school was closing due to covid. 

Throughout my entire sophomore year(online due to covid), I had below average grades (c's and d's). I'm now a junior in my second semester. My first semester actually went great, I managed to get straight A's for the first time in 2 years. 2nd semester started off ok, but my anxiety suddenly got very out of control and I haven't been going to school for the past 3 weeks. I was doing so good but its starting to feel a lot like 2nd semester of freshman year. I hate to say it but I'm starting to simply not give a fuck anymore.

I'm no longer a straight A student.

Can anyone relate?