Hello everyone,

I just wanted to talk about something I realized about myself.

I only feel good about myself and needed when I am sleeping with a guy that I like.

I find my validation through having my body used. This can be really bad for me sometimes, especially when I have feelings for the guy and he doesn’t want a relationship.

I find myself feeling most needed, wanted, and desirable when I am sleeping with someone. That’s also the closest I feel to them as well.

I’m not sure if this is a BPD thing or not, but I find my validation in being used but then feeling deeply sad after.

Thoughts on this? Does anyone relate? :(