After a game of phone tag with my psychiatrist, I finally got her call. She booked an appointment with me for Tuesday to address my pseudo-manic episode I've been dealing with. While she was on the phone with me, she didn't hold any punches. She said we've about exhausted all our options as far as medications go. She pointed out that I've either had adverse reactions to some medicines, or I just didn't respond at all to them. She said we could keep exploring medications, but she was strongly leaning toward going the ECT route with me, which she claimed she doesn't do with very many of her patients. I was floored. First of all, I thought ECT was only for unipolar depression, not bipolar. Second of all, huh? Me? She also mentioned TMS as an alternative, but she pointed out it wasn't as effective, and my insurance probably wouldn't pay for it anyway. So anyway, she said we'd discuss it more when we talk on Tuesday. I'm mostly against it, as it's just so risky. At least if I stay unstable, I know what to expect. At least my memories will stay intact. It's a lot to think about.