I (20M) am really struggling from a hard breakup. We were together for over 3 years and had planned everything together (getting married, having kids, growing old together, etc.). She was my soulmate. We broke up fairly abruptly over 3 months ago, and since then I’ve felt completely empty. Regardless of us breaking up over 3 months ago, I still wear the promise ring she gave me because I still love her and I still want to keep the promises I made to her. But I know that she doesn’t want to keep those same promises and that hurts me so much . This is honestly the most depressed I’ve ever been in my entire life. On top of that, I’ve been having really bad unwanted intrusive thoughts about her being with other people (romantically and sexually), sometimes having them over 50 times a day. The intrusive thoughts are triggered by just about anything in my life, like social media, music lyrics, TV shows, etc. Having those thoughts is completely breaking me down. I have no will to do anything anymore. My entire life revolves around trying to not be hurt by her and I hate it. I hate living like this. Also, I’m about to go back to university and I’m terrified of actually seeing her with someone else and how much that’s going to hurt me. Another reason I’m scared to go back to university is because this will be my third year there, and I haven’t made a single friend yet. I hate to admit this but I’m genuinely so scared that I’m going to hurt myself when I get back to school because I’m at the lowest point of my life and things are only getting worse.