I am in a school currently for a program that is very practical and hands on. It’s a small program so everyone knows everyone. I used to go to a larger university and i found it easier to cope with my anxiety there. If i made a mistake or was doing poorly the prof wouldn’t know because i was just one out of 300 kids in the class. I’m having a really difficult time lately coping my anxiety. The course load is so overwhelming that i just tend to freeze up and don’t do anything. But then i get really down and hard on myself for being so behind. It’s this vicious cycle and it’s making me really angry with myself. It’s also starting to affect me at school because i’m making mistakes during in person labs. It’s really starting to consume me and making me disappointed in myself. It feels like this cycle of panicking about all the things i have to do so not doing any of them and then being depressed about all my failures and how much time i am wasting. I’m on lexapro and see a therapist semi regular but i’m still in this cycle. I know the answer is to just “do the work and then you won’t feel anxious about it” but it’s not that simple. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I get like this with everything too. I’ll work out good for a couple days and eat really good and then i just get so consumed and worried about if it’s doing anything that i will just stop all together for months. And even though i’m not doing anything, i feel so tired all the time. Does anyone else get like this? If so how do you prevent this type of cycle, or even diminish it a bit. I’m not looking for someone to tell me to just do the work. It’s not always that simple