Hi.

I have recently been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder... and I need help. To keep it brief, although I will be undergoing therapy (specifically DBT) in the future, my therapist has decided to help me work through my eating disorder first. As he said, the ED could have a deadly cost on my life sooner than I may realize and should be dealt with before anything.

However, I am really struggling with working through this illness on my own. I have tried to voice my concerns to my therapist that BPD is what is really "killing" me and I'd like to move forward with the therapy, but these concerns seem to be... ignored, for lack of a better word.

Today came a point where I may have pushed someone very special to me out of my life. I don't know how to work through anger, sadness, or any other emotion that comes through on THIS level. I want to change but how? What's the first step? Does therapy make it easy, does it present me with a black-and-white answer? Maybe these questions are stupid but, please, can anyone help?