Recently got diagnosed with SZA when I got mental help for the first time. I had a therapist say she thought I was bipolar, and my bipolar family member thinks I am too. But, my psychiatrist said I have SZA...and idk. I thought maybe she was right because my psychotic/psychosis/derealization symptoms are so frequent without it being during a manic or depressive episode...but now I'm not so sure.


After I begun writing down my symptoms and trying my best with my memory loss to compile how I felt during different episodes, I realized I only had hallucinations or psychotic symptoms during mania or my unlucky combo of the "mixed state" where I have both depressive and manic symptoms...


I didn't realize this when I first talked to her (she diagnosed me after only a few visits, 3 at most? I don't know. I can't remember shit anymore) and told her I THOUGHT the symptoms (like paranoia or abornomal thinking) were constant. But I realize now I'm just always in a cycling state and it's not actually normal for people to always be depressed and somehow feel like they also did drugs. It was my normal for a very long time so I didn't really explain my shit properly to her. 


How do I explain to her I think the diagnosis is wrong? I don't want to question someone professional, it's just I've been misdiagnosed many times with other health issues and I also put myself in a bad situation by explaining myself very wrong. I'm TERRIFIED to confront someone at all and I can't see myself saying "hey I think you're wrong!" What do I say?