I just spent the last hour talking to a friend trying to convince them that their depression isnt their fault and they need to stop trying to be strong for other people because its them who matters most, they have only recently gotten back from talking with therapists etc and they believe they are selfish because they are still sad. I got through to them in the end but idk how much longer i can do this for, trying to help him while dealing with it myself is so much but i cant abandon him or be honest with him, hes got enough to deal with right now i couldnt do that to him or take away from his struggles, im the only one he trusts to talk to about this stuff and i fear what he would do if i focused on myself more. He doesnt self harm though which is good, i've told him alot not to do it and i hope he listens. But alas im a hypocrite because while i lecture him on all these things i sit there with cuts in my thigh and my head full of the same thoughts he has. I hope he gets better soon because after he does i can finally give up without feeling bad that i left him behind.