I'm not myself anymore. I'm way more reserved than I used to be and just have no feelings whatsoever. I feel like a spectator of my own life, not actually living it. I get the odd feeling of anger or irritation sometimes but I am never actually happy.

At school is where I go to try to get away from my problems and I put on a fake personality. One that is happy, and sociable when in reality I am insecure and feel lonely and numb.