This might be all over the place but,
I suffer from BPD, severe depression, general anxiety, and social anxiety. i feel so messed up. People must think there is something wrong with me.
I am taking DBT classes to help regulate my emotions and trying new meds for depression and anxiety, but, even with all this stuff I want to socialize and do things because I feel like I'm missing out on everything. BUT, should I continue to be a recluse because I feel like everyone can see how messed up I am?

My life currently consist of maybe going out once every 2 weeks and then doing nothing the rest of the days, sleeping most of the time. Things are pretty bad, really bad actually. 

TLDR; I have multiple, mental disorders, but still want to have/make friends and socialize, but I'm in the middle of trying a new med for depression and DBT therapy for BPD. What do I do? Hide away and wait until I'm 'better' or socialize now?