
 So I work at a Trade Show exhibiting warehouse, where I have to do logistical work for upcoming shows, inventory and build exhibits for our clients to be previewed, then shipped out. I’m generally good at my job, and have even gotten plenty of good feedback from the higher ups, but the illogical, anxious part of my brain refuses to allow me to believe so.

 The anxiety and self doubt usually kick in during group projects or if I feel as if I’m being watched. No matter how good I am at something or how many times I’ve done it, my brain goes BLANK when I get this feeling. The anxiety takes over and it’s as if my IQ drops 50 points. For example, today I was helping a coworker modify a booth and I had the simple task of wrapping a blanket around a counter, so it wouldn’t get damaged in transit. Pretty fucking easy a child could do it right? I awkwardly attempted so, trembling, as my brain only focuses on my co workers perception of me, resulting in him laughing and doing it himself. Afterwards I feel physically ill from embarrassment and can only imagine hes laughing with other coworkers of my stupidity. 
 
 I don’t understand my lack of confidence in my abilities as well as my severe inferiority complex. When I’m left to work alone, I effortlessly run through projects with zero mistakes. I came in alone for overtime and Built a 30 ft high exhibit in less than 3 hours, so why can’t I do the same when people are helping me? I feel like this issue will only keep me from progressing and utilizing my full potential.

 Is this just me? I feel incredibly alone with this issue and am thinking of therapy as a last resort. Feel free to comment if you can relate or are going through something similar!

TL;DR: work performance hindered by fear of judgment, low self-esteem and social anxiety; can’t seem to overcome this.