I am graduating from uni and doing Computer Science. CS is one of the degrees where you can find a *good* job (pays more than average and not physically demanding) after graduation (with a little bit of practice).

The thing is I don't know if I want to do those jobs directly. I did some freelance coding and other paid projects which were fine. At the time I enjoyed the money and the pay, and it taught me a lot.

However **the thing is I feel like I don't appreciate the job enough**. I always wanted to be an assistant at some shop or a sales person. Its very much different that what I was taught to do.

Thats why I did some online sales which went fairly well, I made double the amount of what a shop assistant makes. This is where I fucked up.

Some of my friends and many others are working at a shop and don't like their job. I thought to myself, "If its that bad, why don't they do online sales or some other stuff where you get paid more and work fairly less?".

Then I started researching on making more money using my business. I quickly came to a conclusion that I could make more money when working for bigger IT companies (Facebook, Google etc.) or IB (Investment Banks) instead of growing the business.

For context, if I work as a shop assistant I earn £20k a year whereas I can earn £40k or even up to £120k as a new grad software engineer.

My reality got so distorted with these numbers, I rejected a £30k software engineering position. I was like "There are jobs which pay quadruple the amount, why bother with this one?".

This was extremely toxic of me and I didn't appreciate a job offer.

Not only that but I wasn't allowed to work at a shop or some other jobs where people consider "working class" because my background is "middle class" (btw i think all this class talk is stupid and toxic). I was taught to study 24/7 to get a very good job, work up the ladder and earn a shit ton of money (classic Asian family?).

So half of me says "Apply to more SE jobs and get that £100k. Earning £20k is stupid while you can earn 5 times more. USE. YOUR. BRAIN!!" meanwhile the other half says "You shouldn't look down on shop assistants, £20k job is what most people get.".

I really don't treat anyone bad on purpose but sometimes I unconsciously look down on these jobs. I never intentionally do that, its just half of me who acts like that.

For example I love my binman and give them presents for Christmas, tip waiters, always say thank you-please and smile to my cashier etc. but that doesn't mean I don't unconsciously think their job is easy and many people can do it.

I want to change. I want to choose and do something which might not bring a lot of money but make myself a better person. 

That's why I am planning to work as a shop assistant for a few months after graduation and possibly at a real estate agent meanwhile my family will look down on me for being a failure (since I don't work at a big IT/IB company and earn $$$). 

Because I am in some private groups which include the "top" new grads applying and getting $100k&lt; jobs. They don't appreciate anything less than $100k and fucking me up like my family's view.


What would you do if you were me?

Would you try to maximise your money and earn a lot of money for earlier financial independence? If yes, why?