I'm finding my behaviour repetitive like every time whenever i sit on bed or on sofa on leaving sofa i make it look super clean (i remove all the wrinkles everytime) which is not necessary since those are not noticeable; I clean my Phone, Messaging, Chrome, YouTube, Keyboard history every time, again which is not necessary. I do these 4-5 times a day and I'm doing this for almost 2 months now. Many times there's nothing left in history. I'm tired of doing all these but still I'm doing all these I don't know why I'm doing all these. Also I already know no one calls me and messages me ( i dont have any friend ), even knowing these I open these apps to delete my history just to look clean or to feel clean. Also I make every possible efforts to make my room feel super clean every second which is not necessary and this is killing my time. My attention spam became zero. Everyday I'm doing same thing. And I even don't know why. Maybe I'm Misdiagnosed.

There's a long story. I don't know how to start, how to end, how to explain. And English is not my primary language please forgive if there's any mistake. 

I looked on internet all theses symptoms are of autism and I don't know exactly what autism is. But repetitive behaviour is one of symptom. And epilepsy which I'm facing. And Hyperactivity. I can't able to express everything because of language problem. Please educate me on autism. I spent 95% of my time alone.

I'm bombarded with suicidal thoughts, self harm behaviour, mood swings, my sleep schedule is fucked, depression,... thats why I decided to visit psychiatrist. On first visit he prescribed me antidepressants and sleeping pills. They worked but not like expected. They make me feel like living dead human. My sleep shoot upto 12+ hours. Still every time i feel sleepy even after taking caffeine and 400mg modafinil I feel sleepy. So I decided to visit him earlier before next expected date. 

My psychiatrist is boomer. He behaved very rudely with me. He don't accept my Self harm cuts. And treated me  rudely. [And my second report says this. ](https://imgur.com/a/lQ1Hdgg)Ofcourse this are my problems which i mentioned to psychiatrist but along with these I mentioned everything but this is the final report. [He prescribed me these medicines ](https://imgur.com/a/UZGxDV5). I done some research on internet and i didn't find that these medicines are not best for me, they are for some other symptoms and mine aren't mentioned or medicines for my symptoms aren't given to me. I have my exams next month and I'm not prepared. If i didn't pass in exams my parents gonna kill me. Or they sell me to someone. Or disown me. Please save me. 

What can i do? Am I misdiagnosed? Can I change my Doctor? Please Help me. I'm desperate for help. Thank you.