I fucked up. I hit the bottom, this is the lowest I've ever been and I don't know if I'll ever get out of it. I don't want to lose the man I love just for a stupid mistake. I just went with a random guy, he was saying that I'm special and I made him feel like he never did. I stopped him a few times, then I just couldn't resist anymore and let him kiss me. Didn't go farther than a kiss, but for what he was saying to me, it meant a lot to him. I hate it when that need of being unique and needed overcomes the love for my boyfriend. I don't want to lose him for such a stupid thing. I'm scared.