So, not sure how to flair this. I pretty much only am friends with people online, but lately it's been a great source of stress and anxiety, to the point where I can't sleep.

I started talking to this person through an online app and for about a year now, we seemed to get along, have similar interests etc... not friends exactly but quite chummy. Now, for the first time I haven't heard from them in a while and it's eating me up inside. I keep rereading my last message to them to try and find out what I could've said wrong etc... it's pretty obsessive.

I have been ghosted a few times and I think it has left me with an irrational almost ptsd-like amount of stress and fear. I am so socially awkward and I lowkey hate "putting yourself out there" and "creating community". It's needed for so many things in society and I just rather...wouldn't. Help?