i was a strong, happy person, but since last 2 years things are effecting me differently........i was never someone who gets attached to people and i was fine but lately the fact that i m unable to keep  relationships randomly hits me and gives out this weird energy, i start loosing breath, i just want to cry out so loud which i can't cause i never ever cried since i was like 13-14.......
i have had 3 significant relationships in past and i have been single for 4 months now and i feel so damn alone but i still don't want to date anyone cause i know i will fuckk up....
suddenly out of blue i m victimizing myself for everything that happened when i was a kid with my parents, i don't want to hate them, i m remembering all that stuff that suddenly which i had long forgotten........why the fuck is this happening....why am i suddenly cribbing about my life so much.....please i need help...