Hi, so there’s somethings I’m wondering from the bipolar community that I experience often and I’m unsure if it’s a common thing with bipolar or if it could be something else. Basically what I find is when something doesn’t go as planned I’m unable to adapt to that and instead I get thrown into an episode almost instantly. It’s mentally exhausting especially when I’m aware life has a way of not going accordingly so having these types of expectations is just setting myself up for constant failure. Additionally when I’m thrown into these episodes in a lot of them I’m unable to speak, it’s just difficult for me to exist. I don’t want to talk I don’t wanna move I don’t wanna participate in life, I don’t wanna do anything but go home. I shut down completely and unwillingly. Sure it’s a want but it’s also a can’t talk even if I wanted to sorta deal. If y’all would be willing to share your experience with this or your knowledge of it within the bipolar community I would appreciate that.

I’ll be bringing it up to my therapist since it happens a lot and makes me feel like I ruin things. I end up the ahole in a lot of situations thanks to my brain and disorder, if I bring it up to her I want to at least have an idea of what this can be summed up to.