(Throwaway account because reasons.)  

So, the clock ticks, everybody starts countdown and we shout "Happy New Year!". I turn around. You'd think that I would be the first person that my boyfriend would congratulate, but he was just standing there. I was shocked, why doesn't he look at me? Wish me something? Some girl comes to him and congratulates him, gives him a kiss on the cheek and so on. Everybody have already congratulated both of us, and I'm still waiting there like a fucking idiot. I should have known. Every year the same bullshit. We celebrated three New Years together and each time was the same. He forgets that I exist. We go to a walk. I already know that I'll cry If I say something, but I still ask him why he didn't congratulate me. And the answer is the same as always, "I just don't feel the need to, It doesn't mean that much to me". Each year I told him that it means a lot to me and If he could do that next year, but It's always the same.  
I love him, but sometimes I want to just break up with him. I am quite an emotional and passionate person, but he's the opposite. On emotional level he's the same as a dead fucking fish. I know he's trying on physical level, but I still need someting on emotional level from him. I feel like I'm trying to fill a hole that can't be filled.  

Some people would say that I'm selfish or that I'm making drama over nothing, but I just had to went this out. Have a wonderful New Year.