*sorry if this is the wrong flair, had no clue what to put this under

I’m embarrassed to admit this but I’m struggling with this a lot so I needed to get it out. My sexuality keeps switching very quickly and now I think I’m straight after being outed as a lesbian. Idk if it has anything to do with my sz diagnosis, but I feel like a liar now. I have lost all attraction to women, even the one I planned on being with, and now want to get a husband and settle down and never think about being gay again. My medicine also mutes a lot of my sexuality (I used to be very hyper sexual before starting risperidone, sertraline, and prazosin) but now I feel absolutely no attraction to women and a little towards men?? Idk what’s going on. I’m too embarrassed and afraid to tell anyone, even my psychiatrist. I feel alone.