Hey everyone ***long post warning***
I was diagnosed with bpd and anxiety disorder in rehab at 18 years old. I’ve been treated for that and anxiety/panic disorder for about 8 months now. I’m on 150 mg of Lamotrigine and take Xanax as needed. 
My psychiatrist is unsure of what I have/if bpd is the right diagnosis, so he’s had a hard time figuring out what meds are best for me, since I fall under so many categories some meds could drive me to mania/put me in a deeper depression or cause me to have a negative experience like I have on abilify. 
My psychiatrist is going to send in an order for me to have testing done to determine if I have adhd instead of bpd or bipolar, and has me on adhd meds, lamictal and klonopin at night now. 
I have a list of my symptoms and I wanted to get some input as to what others think could be going on. 

*Flashing lights is overwhelming leads to freak out/anxiety/anger 
*Too many sounds leads to same ^^
*Brain is on fire/loud/static
*Can’t make decisions makes me furious/panicked and emotional
*Messy cluttered spaces everywhere 
*Cant finish a sentence without thinking of or starting another
*Constantly interrupting people without noticing 
*Any decision making at all is terrifying (what if I make the wrong one) 
*Cant sit still cant be in on place or sitting for too long 
*Constantly moving husband says even when I don’t realize it 
*Impulsive eating/spending/dying hair/piercings/decided on tattoo in 15 min 
*HArd to sleep mind races constantly 
*Can’t focus when driving, on phone doing hair talking constantly looking around (wreck less) 
*Zone out when others are talking 
*Never feel relaxed constantly tensed up
 *Put off dishes bills making bed showering doing laundry taking out trash
*Gets anxious when having to wait for anything 
*In a grocery store if there’s too much movement too many noises I can’t breathe and the tv static in my head starts 
*I hate the feeling of cold air or cold water on my face and brings on the tv static, super overwhelming 
*CONSTANT need to have plans to do something but yet have no energy to do it half the time so I feel depressed and unamused 
*Any change of plans freaks me out I panic when something is no longer set in stone 
*Any change in tone or body language sends me into panic 
*Hyper-focus on only negatives all the time 
*I get RAGEFUL when I feel like I’m not being taken seriously 
*build things up in my head and get really upset when they don’t match what I expected 

**** tv static in head starts when things are too much, a decision has to be made****