Long time no post from me, y'all. So, I was put in the psych hospital for thirteen days due to SI during the mixed portion. My psychiatrist insisted the hospital would be a waste of time. Meanwhile, my therapist, whom I talked to two days later, was willing to wait one more day for some sign of improvement before sending me to Hospital Land. My mom, however, sent me straight away to the hospital once she finally found out what was going on. 

Anyway, the folks at the hospital took away my Depakote (because it wasn't doing anything, really) and added Invega. They also experimented with taking me off my melatonin, which turned out to be a horrible idea. They also had to add a PRN of hydroxyzine for sleep. 

The hospital managed to fix the SI, but that's all I can say. I'm still (hypo)manic, and I'm not convinced there's any medication on the market that can fix me. My psychiatrist is now pushing TMS instead of ECT, but my plan is to focus more on therapy first and see if exploring my junk will help ease my symptoms. If it doesn't, then I can do the TMS some other time. In the mean time, I just gotta deal with the mania until I crash into a depression, I suppose. It doesn't look like stability is in the cards for me anymore. I haven't been stable in almost eight months.