I dont know why, im getting neck pain right now that is shooting up into my head and behind my eye and its very uncomfortable, a few days ago something similar happened where i was going to actually remove the eye with a knife but somehow stopped my self despite the encouraging thoughts of doing it, im not hearing voices but i felt that was the only logical way to rid myself of the pain for good. Its happening again except im not sure i really want to stop myself, im tired of the pain and my thoughts keep telling me that i should do it, to finally rid myself of the headache. This all started cause im worried my carotid is damaged but then its turned into this, i think the only reason im not doing it is because im not sure how to keep myself from bleeding out because i still dont want to die. I dont want to go to my dad because i dont feel i need help but inside i still feel like maybe i should, i know it s not normal to think this way but it just feels normal to want to do it, should i go to my dad and tell him whats happening, i just dont want him to think im crazy.