So I just recently lost my best friend, we were super close and I'm devastated, I can't seem to get past it and it's hurting me every second of the past week or so and I keep thinking about how life would be more manageable if I was gone, I can't continue to endure this pain, this sadness. I miss her. I miss having the support, I miss having someone to talk to, I miss late night calls and video conversations. I miss feeling okay and laughing.  

I havnt gotten out of bed at all and havnt eaten today (it's now 7pm) and I'll likely continue this behavior if I don't do something serious tonight, so I beg for someone to save me.