I just finished high school and am now taking a gap year before going to uni in a different country. All my friends are out of town right now, and I have nothing to do all day. I would love to get a job and I think it would also benefit my relationship with my parents, but I hate the idea of a job and getting out of bed everyday to *do* stuff. Even when my friends are here I don't enjoy spending time with them like I used to, they are fun and there is no drama but I simply don't see a point. Even now thinking about meeting up with them I just ask myself what we would even do..

 I only happily leave my house when I get to see my boyfriend once a week. Socializing used to be so fun for me, and now I have become so lazy and antisocial that I haven't seen my friends in weeks. I dread growing up and going to uni because I will have to do things. I would love to have a job, husband and kids in the future but I just don't see myself getting that far anymore, not because I am suicidal, just because there is some mental block stopping me from doing things. 

I am not doing anything all day, just waiting for replies on texts that I send my friends and boyfriend. Im not sure what I should for a year now that I don't enjoy meeting with people and I have no hobbies that I enjoy.