Happy New Year, this was by far the most depressing new year's eve EVER! We had this huge circle of around 30 friends. Half of them are gone, some went for the army, some went abroad for education. I never had a close relationship with my family, so my friends were everything to me. This huge friend circle, whenever I felt down whenever I felt happy, whenever I wanted I just visited "our place" and they were always there. We all used to get drunk and high, dance and mess around with fireworks every new year's eve. This year was so different. It was so quiet. If that's not depressing enough, by this month 2 of my closest friends are leaving. And by the next year, just 5 would remain (only 1 of em i'm close with) in our circle of 30 friends. My heart just shatters into pieces every time I think about it and I can't stop thinking. I know they are leaving for their own good but it's gonna be so hard for me. We have been together for more than a decade and we used to hangout everyday, they were the biggest part of my life. I know every good things come to an end, just had to get it offmychest. It's so hard to say goodbye