thing is that I have never been dignosed with nothing but asthma, professionally. But in this few years I think I developed something or at least have some sort of a problem. Since I was small I had problems with asthma and that resulted in a lot of pneumonia and when someting bad happened like a family memmber dieing I had bad attacks. I think that this problem effected me mentally too, i had problems with a few toxic individuals as well so i developed some kind of a trust issue problem. Most of thoose indivuduals are my relatives who just won't stop tormenting me and projecting their weaknesses onto me. Another problem is that I recently started really forgeting things, I still know a lot but it feels like my brain just won't function normally anymore. Also I either sleep for a few hours or nearly a whole day and I lost my appetite. I do eat but my taste changed almost completly. Even water makes me sick when I drink it, is that bad? I had some kind of meltdown few days ago but it was different than usually. Usually I would be agitated for few hours and maybe cry a little, takibg frustration on people i live with. But this while this one was happening I cryed and then started laughing. I couldnt control it until it passed. I was also more angrier than usual and yelled this time. I also noticed i have some kind of twitches like my leg twitching or my head. The thing that botters me the most is that if our country gets corona under control and i have to return to normal school, i might not be able to. A week ago i went on a walk around my town and it was terrifiing, i felt like everyone was watching me and almost vomited when i came back home. If anyone has some advice I would be extremly thankful.. have a good day. Lastly, yes I am thinking of getting checked for anyting but I'm scared of medical staff. Being an ill child i was around them too much and I don't like hospitals. Thnak you for reading.