I have wasted so much money on things I shouldn’t. I’ve wasted a lot of money of cam sites, strip clubs, and sex toys. I even ended up getting a happy ending massage years ago. 

I have just always had problems with feeling so lonely and having to fill in the empty void of my life. It used to be just video games but that doesn’t do anything for me anymore. 

I’ve always had problems with talking to women and I have have 2 major rejections. I just don’t see myself ever finding a woman who likes me. 

I have other issues in my life as well. I have no friends and I have poor financial problems. I am just banking that I get a good job from my degree. Hell I don’t even have a car or can drive. Pretty pathetic.

I just don’t know how I can stop. I always feel so awful because I know these things are destroying my life.