let me fucking rage 

i'll punch the walls

and punch my legs

my skin's all bruised

but i'm not abused 

tweaking on sobriety 

and nothing you say helps

"it's okay" 

"calm down"

shut the fuck up

and let me fucking 

rage 

nothing help 

nothing soothes 

someone's crawling out of my skin

i'll scream until my voice breaks

i'll punch a hole through the canvas

i spent 18 months on 

just let me fucking 

rage 

you offer meds

they make me worse

you offer love 

just shut the fuck up

take a step back

before i fucking hit you too

and just please

just let me 

let me fucking 

rage 

i want it to end 

but eventually it does

and the emptiness creeps in 

i want the chaos 

i want to hear my brain scream at me

i want to be insane 

but it hurts

it makes me rip off my shell

i crawl out of my own skin

walking around 

muscle without protection

blood pooling on the ground

i need to be okay 

but i can't

so until then

let me fucking

rage 

you can't do anything

no one can 

so let me rage 

oh please just let me 

rage