I pretty much spent the last 2 months pining over her, and just got a text from her saying "in no uncertain terms, i do not want to see you or hear from you". 

While I'm definitely distraught over this, knowing finally where her head is at is a weird relief and i'm hoping it gives me the opportunity to move forward after trying to end my life.  I'm not drinking, i'm going to the gym every day, trying to be healthy.  She was weirdly mean when texting me (apparently threw all the stuff i had at her house in the garbage) but at least I know what's up.