Yeah, i'm one of those people I guess. 

"Nobody likes me" is what I say to myself constantly. I don't even get why it matters. Why I want someone to lean on 24/7 even though I am literally textbook bpd with the "i hate don't leave me"

But I really don't blame people for not liking me. So many people say I'm cute, that my personality is also great. I'm compassionate, kind, whatever. Until they see me have an episode that I try so hard not to have. 

Then i'm just crazy, and idk. I have one true friend, but I don't think I will ever have a boyfriend. 

I hate being one of those people. The, "nobody likes me" guy. The one who says they have no friends when they do. I do it silently, but I hate sitting in my room feeling so disoriented from feeling lack of love. Even my FP is distant with me.