The so called golden years of my life &lt;20 were destroyed. So i at least wanted the remainder to be happy. Recently ive started to realise that things aren't going to get better. Im not gonna have the modestly happy life i dreamt of. I will most likely spend a large part of my life dealing with the fallout of my parents+sister's bad decisions.  How to live each day despite knowing you'll be living a life of no joy and no fulfilment and one which you cannot run away from?