I'm turning 18 soon. Finally going to be a young adult but I'm still in high school. I'm not going to school because my parents can't afford lol I study alone.. No friends.. Never had a girlfriend because I need at least some money for that. Which I don't have. Cant afford proper meals. All I do is just wake up, study for the whole day, repeat. It's boring. Living like this for years. Haven't felt anything in a while. I'm tired. I honestly don't see a future ahead of me. I don't even know why I'm writing this, it's pointless but hey, maybe I'll feel better idk. I'll probably delete this soon