Anyone else feel like they are constantly “facing the music” of their actions and behaviors? Sending an apology text after an embarrassing outburst (literally just sent one today..), showing up to work after arguing with a coworker, you get the idea... living with the consequences of impulsive actions done while emotional. The psychological toll is crushing, so much guilt and shame it’s almost unbearable. I have to consciously block out the crushing humiliation at all times or I would be confused with shame for how I’ve acted and all of the people who have seen me act out. When do I stop facing the music and can finally step into the sun?