First post to this group, I just reached out to my manger to hopefully set up a one on one meeting to discuss how bad my anxiety has gotten I’m trying to reach out to get help. I’m only aloud to work from home 2 out of my 5 days at work and it’s been so hard for me to come in with out having a melt down mentally I try not to show it but I feel like everyone around me can notice how odd I’m acting. I feel like everyone is out to get me for some reason. My heart is racing I’m shaking super bad and I’m constantly adjusting my position and I feel like my eyes start doing weird things and I feel pain from my neck while I’m sitting in at my office job and looking around constantly and it’s super hard to focus on taking phone calls i some how focus on everyone around me more than my phone calls whenever I hear someone talking I instantly just think that they’re talking about me and how much I’m moving around and acting odd. I got told I have anxiety about 6 years ago and never got meds or have talked to anyone about it besides my girlfriend. I used to be able to just handle it but here lately I’ve been in and out of derealization and everything just seems fake and I just want to break down and cry I don’t know how I’m going to keep this job I’ve been working with the company for 3 years now and it all started whenever I got too high on delta 8 about 6 months ago and had a panic attack in public at a movie theater and heard people talking about how weird I was being and heard someone else asking “is that man okay what’s wrong with his eyes maybe we should call someone” and I just feel like everyone looks at me like a crackhead or something. I’m just so lost how do you guys go into work? I can’t even go to Walmart or target with out freaking out. I’m currently on my lunch break freaking out about how I have to go back in after this and I don’t even think my boss is even here today to be able to have a meeting with me to discuss what I can do so I don’t lose my job over this.