Moved in today for my third semester and honestly I’m a bit of a sad and anxious mess right now. I screwed up some relationships I had last year before I had my BPD diagnosis and part of me is really upset that I didn’t start therapy sooner so that I would know and properly understand how to approach friendships. But now I’m here and it sucks knowing that there’s a group of people who (understandably) don’t like me or just don’t want anything to do with me. I’ve put in a lot of work to manage my episodes and have grown a lot but I just feel like I left a huge scar on how I’m perceived on campus and I find myself questioning the relationships that I still have here. What if I manage to mess them up too? What if I one day just learn that the people I care about so deeply just don’t like me? Idk what I’d do if that happens again. Taking a nap and then trying to be productive after seems like the move right now. I just feel so alone. Idek if there’s anyone here that I could/ should trust with this information.