Last April, I cut my friends out when I was experiencing a mental health crisis. Due to past traumas I don’t know how to ask for help. I tried to reach out to them to ask them to spend time together and they responded to the effect of “I think we spend enough time together as it is”.

So I cut them out.

At the time, I thought I’d make more friends, but it’s been a year and I haven’t yet. I don’t think I will. I have awful social anxiety. 

I tried to reach out to them (about a year later) to explain that I was experiencing a crisis and I didn’t know how to ask for help, but they didn’t respond. 

Now I feel even worse than before. 

I don’t know how to get through this. They were my only friends. I have no one else and I feel so alone. 

(I know I need therapy for my c-ptsd. I was abused, abandoned and neglected by my parents as a child).

I’d appreciate any help. :(