derealized/depersonalized/dissociated for 2 whole days after reading about the condition and being so scared how well it fits into the way i’ve approached life since i was at least 12 years old. freaked me out that just about everything about the way I approached life was a result of this - still have not reached the acceptance stage but i have a couple of questions 
1) do u think the diagnosis fits me if i am so able to hide most of the things i am going through? and am still able to function relatively in society? Bc i was watching this dr on youtube say the ideal treatment for bpd is partial hospitalization and i dont feel i am that bad - does this mean it does not apply to me? i dont know - like can i have it if i am Very Private about this aspect of my life? I simply hide away when i am in the negative stated bc idk how to control them yet
2) when u were first diagnosed did u start seeing bpd traits in literally almost everyone (wo the whole picture)? Idk if its an empathy thing or what 
3) do you feel when u dont sleep for a couple of days that u become so afraid and have more hightened psych*tic symptoms than when u’ve slept well? 

(More of a vent) ive been freaking out that people in school will find out about my diagnosis and i will no longer be able to work in the field i am currently trying to work in (it makes me extremely happy and i think if i get a job in it i will finally feel fulfilled) bc of the associated frikin stigma :( i dont think i am a bad person? i dont know maybe i am i honestly dont know