I have a good job. There is no major drama. I've succeeded in terms of achieving the American Dream (if that exists anymore). I have a good job, I have an apartment to myself in a fun city, and I don't have any major sources of stress. I'm 30 years old and I just feel lonely and empty.

I've had romantic relationships in the past. I'm nostalgic for relationships I've had before.

I had a good social group and two of my best guy friends have left over the course of the pandemic. I'm a guy and I still have a few friends around but it's so hard to make a deep connection with another guy. I miss my old two best friends.

I have issues with my self image. I don't feel good enough at work and I'm doing what I can to improve in all of those areas. I'm not so depressed that I can't take action.

I had a good couple of weeks but it's saturday night and I'm feeling bad. I'm getting back in shape, I'm doing better at work, and I'm holding off on dating until I'm ready. I can't help but feel that I'm missing strong connections and I'm just very lonely.

I'm going to listen to sad music and just process. I don't feel well and I'm hoping it'll get better later.

I'm posting here because I'm wondering if folks go through similar swings. I don't need to be told it's gonna get better. I'm just curious if other folks also feel a similar way and maybe give me some tips if you figured out some way to feel better about this.

I'm done a lot of therapy, I know what the "correct" thing is to do here. I'm just down right now and I'm gonna sit in the hole for a bit.