So basically this is the worst time of my life. A little over a month ago I lost the love of my life and I’m not going to explain how this affected me. All I know is that I’ve started to not be able to sleep again lately and I’ve been getting worse. I really have no one I want to talk to right now but I feel unbelievably empty and alone and I feel like the only thing that  can fix it is him. I can’t listen to music and I can’t sleep. I’m just looking for some people to tell me what I can do because I sure as hell don’t know. 
Nothing hurts worse than knowing you singlehandedly ruined the best thing to ever happen to you, that you said you couldnt live without. But now you have to and there’s nothing you can do about it.