ive never dealt with depression until maybe this past year. im not sure since ive never been diagnosed. i used to cry everyday over my ex, this lasted around a year. we were very on and off so trying to get over him was pretty pointless and just made me sadder. so i let myself fully attach myself to a guy that didnt want me. on his birthday, i tried to call him and he basically told me to fuck off and blocked me on everything. it hurt but it got into my thick head that i actually needed to move on. so i did and was kind of sucessful for a bit. i downloaded one of those selfcare apps and was doing great. i hasnt cried for him in 2 back to back weeks. then one day, i slept in a little too late and woke up and randomly started bawling for him. it lasted like 10 min then i got over it and tried to get back onto my selfcare apps schedule. i failed.. the next day i skipped things i was supposed to do just because i didnt care and it got worse and worse till i was back waking up at 7pm and crying at 3am. i genuinely think ive tried to move on from my ex and overcome my 'depression' if i actually have it. i dont need help or advice, my family rejects any idea of mental health so i will never get therapy even though i think i would find it very useful. i just wanted to say that this is what ive been dealing with.