We almost broke up (or I think we did idk) but then he said he didn't want to break up and I'm feeling really fucked up and i just ate an entire container of rice and I'm ready to puke and then fuckjng kill myself I xan't do this anmyore I'm so fuxking burnt out and I'm tired of pretending to be a fucntionting normal person when I'm not I'm tired of fuxking everything up I can't do this anymore u cant do this anymore I can't do this anymore