You know this feeling when you have the idea that the important people in your life don't Care? And you go into passive mode, like why should I Care? It makes you angry and distant first and then you get mad and then you're sad again and miss them and Care all over again. 

My husband is going through a rough time, last year lockdowns etc were hard. He is feeling better in general, but lost interest in several things, like our life together and me. 
It's been going more than 6 months that he's feeling ok'ish but doesn't really care for me anymore. He feels guilty about it, wants to want me etc, but just doesn't. (We go to therapy now, the situation is too complex to explain it all, he has autism himself)

This hurts, but I want to keep working on it, but it takes so long. I can't be myself in my own house. And to not let it destroy me I distract myself, stay positive etc. But some days are really hard, and I lose hope, don't see why I bother and lose interest in everything myself. 
I started thinking more like:'me, what do I want that's not related to relations with others', but it also makes me feel sad, empty and lonely. 
It makes me want to go into all kinds of bad coping, because why would i even keep on trying to be 'good'? 

Do you recognize this? 
Any advize on how to cope with this feeling?