My best friend and I don't see eye to eye on certain things, but I haven't really been open about that. I tend to only talk about the things we can agree on. I believe there will be a time soon when our disagreements will surface, and that they will turn on me. If they turn on me, I believe that they will either attempt to ruin my life by gossiping, airing out my secrets or past mistakes to the world, or kill me/have me killed. This friend holds grudges against people they hate, including former friends of their's, and has joked around about harming others. I do actually care about this friend, and want us to be friends, despite our disagreements, but worried they would not feel the same way, and would become cannon fodder for their resentment. I keep viewing every minute closer towards my death or life getting ruined.