In a nutshell, I'm 24 years old and am on my way to graduate from college, and despite all of my successes and positive attributes, I feel insanely depressed and empty inside, and even recently have begun contemplating suicide. During the days, I'll feel just hollow, and at night I'll often have trouble falling asleep or staying asleep. 

For context, I am a Computer Science major with a 4.00 GPA and am set to graduate this upcoming Spring. I currently work as a software engineering intern at a respected company, and have done so since May. They've offered for me to stay on and have even given me a return offer to join them again as a Full Time Software Engineer as soon as I graduate making 6 figures.

I have a girlfriend who is very much infatuated with me, and a very supportive and caring family and a tightly-knit friend group. 

I feel like I have what so many people only dream of: a great job, amazing academics, a great girlfriend and friend group, and a close family. 

Yet why do I feel so empty all of the time? So much so that I've felt so compelled to simply end it because nothingness sounds more appealing than what I'm experiencing now.

I've tried therapy and medication in the past, but am a bit worried about starting up again because I don't know what my therapist would think since I basically stopped seeing her for years out of the blue. Any advice would be great, as I'm totally lost and can't figure out why I'm feeling this way. Thank you.