idk, I made some friends 2 or 3 years ago and I was too attached to them cus they were the only people that truly felt like my friends after being alone for the entirety of my life. I never knew whether what I was doing were right or wrong because my emotions controlled my actions. I never had someone to talk to so all this bottled up feelings and emotions would just spill out whenever I'd talk to them. And whenever I felt threatened I started to become paranoid and I started to do things that only harmed me and others. I left them without an explanation but to me it just felt so obvious. I was the odd one out and I was the one who shouldn't have joined the group in the first place. I was the one causing instability to the group, I was the sore thumb that was sticking out. And to this day it feels like I'm the one to blame. And truthfully they're right. I tried to apologize to them but what is an apology gonna do if the damage has already been done. 

It's just that I'm so lonely it hurts.

If you people are still going through my profile like you used to, I won't blame you all for laughing at me for being so pathetic. After all I complain and blame yet I do nothing myself to improve the situation. Just know that I'm sorry for all the damage I've done. I really am