It's tonight. I've got a dress, gonna have a couple glasses of wine before it so I'm not a socially awkward mute. 

Had a weird day with two strong triggers so I'm trying to stay calm cause I feel manic anger building up and it usually makes for a fun drunk me, but it won't be fun for my boyfriend when I get home and crash and want to hurt myself.

Also guaranteed to do something to show myself up. How do you just errrr not be yourself?