So this weird thing happened, I was eating peacefully while watching a food show on YouTube on my phone and suddenly I just feel like crying, out of nowhere. Idk why I was crying and I was panicking because I can't stop the tears. I tried to focus on what I was watching but my mind just won't focus on it. 

Then my mom and dad suddenly came home. I tried to hold in the tears.  And they sat in front of me, watching TV. And I just feel like hurting myself so I started digging my nails into my calf idk why. And they started noticing that I'm sweating excessively. 

I was surprised, I gone back to my room and just cried bawling my eyes out and panicking because I don't know why I'm crying and why can't I stop it. 

And then I just feel the urge to bite. I bite the back of my hands until it started to hurt countless times. And keep digging into my calf. 

And this morning I woke up with bruise all over my hand, I didn't even notice that I was biting hard enough for it to bruise.