There’s this girl (22) i (21f) like. We’re both from strict religious families (though mine is somewhat a lot more religious than hers, her siblings know she’s not straight),so i guess we’re both closeted. I met her online and she lives 2-3 hours from me. I really, really like her. We were speaking for a good few months and then I randomly disappeared for a month because something bad came up and i just stopped replying to a lot of people. I miss talking to her and i feel bad, and i dont know how to restart the conversation. She has bpd and i know she struggles with feelings of abandonment and i feel like i unintentionally abandoned her. I dont want to hurt her. How do i go about it?