i don't even know why i said it but i'm really hurt because they were completely fine and happy with it, i don't know what to do now. it feels weak being like 'i didn't mean it please still talk to me' but they're the only person i talk to. i feel like they just don't give a shit about me isolating myself even though they know how much of a danger i can be to myself sometimes. even if i do go through with this, how am i suppose to entertain myself? i feel like i'm dying inside from constant boredom and having nothing to do just makes me want to relapse back into self harming behaviours. i KNOW this isn't the end of the world but it feels like it because i'm in a bad place right now.