This is just stupid. So a man cant even take himself out of his misery without having to worry about actually surviving the attempt and having to deal with brain damage, paralysis, disability, etc.... Theres no peace anywhere i feel like. Best way really is just a gun honeslty. But its not legal here. So ya what am i gonna do when time comes? 

Sorry for ranting. Just in pain, and really down and depressed. Was googling all this today... Really tired of life.