Why do I idealise someone after they break up with me even if I didn’t really idealise them during the relationship, I didn’t even find her that attractive now suddenly my mind is flooded with thoughts that this person was ‘the one’ and the most hot person on the planet. I often felt like I didn’t want to be around her at times and now suddenly I’m abandoned she’s my favourite person and I’m obsessing over her.

I know this person wasn’t the one they didn’t try for me at all, they didn’t want to listen or understand me ever and I got the blame for literally everything. I didn’t even find her that attractive, she’s not even my type now boom I can’t stop thinking about her sexually and everything.

This disorder is not fair, can anyone relate to what I’m saying?? I just want to know if this is a bpd thing. 

This happened with my previous ex and after like 5 months I was like what the fuck was I actually thinking, it was a blessing in disguise