so a little backstory i guess, my boyfriend knows i have BPD. i was very open about that when we first got together, (we’ve been together about three years.) it’s been a problem in my past relationships and he was pretty understanding at first but lately my mental health has just been as bad as ever. 

i know it’s from extra stress at my workplace since i recently got promotion and i’m working much more so we don’t see each other as much. we just bought a house and a lot of things have changed in the past year for both of us. but i’m always splitting on him and i don’t know what to do about it. i’m starting fighting, i’m accusing him of hating me, cheating on me, etc. when he’s never done anything of the sort. 

we also had a fight saturday night and he threw that in my face how i’m always thinking the worst of him and it makes him feel bad. i just don’t know what to do anymore. 

it’s making me wanna break up with him because everything in my head and telling me he hates me and all these bad things That aren’t true and I really don’t wanna end things with this guy. 

I just don’t know what to do anymore does anybody tips to stop splitting as much, oh I just had to kind of control some of these flareups as much. I’m normally pretty good with handling most of my flareups and splitting like this but lately I guess act out on him in the worst ways and I’m impulsive and I just don’t really know what to do anymore.