I have no ways to survive a month. After I paid the bills I something just gave and I gambled all of the remaining money away. What the fucking shit is wrong with me. I'm on a work trip and I've no heart to tell this to my wife. I'm atm in hotel room. Trying to think of a way to off myself.

My relationship is going to shit... I'm broke. Last week my wife got a diagnosis of Herpes. She claims that it has been just hiding past 4 years... Yeah sure... No symptoms but now. I've got first of those just 2 nights ago. So I think it's safe to say that she cheated.

I don't know why I'm such a coward. And I don't suppose anyone could point a ways to die fast?