I’m struggling because the thing that causes my fear I can’t even escape from to try to recover. It’s my own body! All the sensations that have scared me the tight chest, dizziness, lightheadedness etc. I just always think something is wrong. I’m so drained and so tired of this! I wish I was who I used to be. But sadly childhood trauma that was never dealt with has landed me here like it did when I was 7 and had it (I haven’t had health anxiety this whole time until now) 
But now I have two kids of my own and I’m failing them because I can’t even get out of my own head. I was Claritin for 9 months before finding out it was really affecting me mentally it made me feel like I was in the twilight zone I would get super sad for no reason the same time each night but it wasn’t normal it wasn’t anxiety it was so weird and scary. After that it triggered me I have a fear of medication and of health again. I feel like living that way for so long with doctors not thinking it could be the medicine and feeling so scared each night that I would feel so sad for no reason really affected me and now I’m still slightly afraid when night comes around of course I never feel that sad feeling anymore since I’m not taking that antihistamine but I feel like all on edge. I want to break this cycle! I’m seeing a therapist but it will take time to heal and medication scares me because I’m so sensitive to medication ever since I was a child I’ve gotten all rare weird side affects to drugs. 

I just hate this because it’s like physical symptoms are coming before anxious thoughts but my doctor thinks I’m healthy I haven’t had any major tests done though.

It’s just so hard and I don’t know many people with health anxiety so all the advice is very welcome 😭