I met a co worker for the first time and we immediately became good friends and I immediately developed feelings for her. The trouble is I only saw her once or twice a fortnight. But whenever she saw me she would go red and smile uncontrollably. Which would drive my anxiety crazy, I would constantly argue in my head like: 
“she seems into me maybe I should ask her out” 
“but she is 20, your 18” 
“Imagine you asked and she said no, she probably would laugh so just wait maybe you will be more confident later”

I worked up the courage to follow her instagram and ask her out. But when I text her she seems very cold and irritable, just responding with minimal words. Making my anxiety go “ha told you so” it’s all I can think about endlessly to the point I break down and cry thinking I can’t do anything I just have to live with this anxiety.

When I see her next she doesn’t comment on it she is still smiling and going red. Really confusing me and making the previous anxiety cycle happen again.

I don’t see her for 3 weeks due to surgery when I go back she asks why I didn’t go to a work party. She said no originally on an attending form. So I Said the reason I didn’t go is because you said you weren’t going, that made her so embarrassed she couldn’t look at me. So I though hmm that’s kind of a big sign she likes me. So on comes the loop of anxiety. Until I ask her out again on instagram to which I get the same cold and distant reply. 

All of a sudden my anxiety about her is gone and I no longer constantly worry. Even though she said no.

What I’m trying to say is, if you really like someone don’t wait till you get the confidence, just give it a go, even if it’s a no it gets rid of the ‘maybe there was a chance’ worry.