I used to love flying but now it absolutely paralyzes me with fear and I don’t want to travel anymore. I’ve had an anxious bladder and pee all the time for the last ten years, and it goes from 0-100, especially when I am in a situation where I can’t easily go to the bathroom. I will even feel like I have a full bladder and need to go urgently, even if I literally just went. 
I’ve flown across the country so many times the last decade, but these last few years have felt SO unbelievably turbulent, way more than I ever remember in the past. Like the seatbelt sign is on for almost the entire 4 hour flight, each f’ing time. I pee before I get on the plane, I pee once I get to my seat before take off, and then I try to go once the seatbelt sign is off, but the last few flights have been so bumpy from the start that I’m crying on the plane thinking I’m about to pee myself in front of 150+ strangers because the seatbelt sign has been on for hours. Even though they tell you not to and I know it’s dangerous (which makes me feel like I have to go even more) there have been times I *have* to get up and go to the bathroom even when it’s during turbulence or else I’m afraid I will actually have an accident in my seat. I have had a full blown crying, shaking, sweating, heart racing panic attack on every single flight the last few years because of this, and it’s ruined traveling for me. Its not so much the actual turbulence bothering me (although it does spook me a little), it’s the feeling of being stuck in my seat not being able to get up for an unknown amount of time and feeling like I desperately need the bathroom with no relief in sight. I usually travel with my bf who is there to comfort me and squeeze my hand, but tomorrow I am flying alone for the first time in years and I am absolutely horrified. I don’t want to drink alcohol because that’s more liquid, and I’m afraid of taking meds because what if I fall asleep and sleep through the only chance I’ll get to go to the bathroom, and wake up needing to go and it’s turbulent with the seatbelt sign on for who knows how long? Even if I don’t drink any liquids that day, I’ll still have to go. I always make sure to sit in the aisle seat close to a bathroom and go every chance I get, but the anxiety just makes me have to go 1847 times a flight and feels like an emergency every time, always at the worst times. 
😫 Am I alone in this!?!