After reading some of the posts on this sub I know that I am lucky compared to some, and to those people, I wish the best of luck in their lives. I just needed a place to talk about this and maybe see if I could get some advice.

I think I have some form of social anxiety? I don't know for sure. I have never liked talking to people I don't know, and I rarely have more than a couple of real friends. I am 17 and going back to my college (Alternative Education, long story but not a disability reason.) Literally tomorrow morning, and I hate the thought of it.

At the start of the last college year, I spent a few weeks alone, then became distant friends with the one weird kid who no one else would talk to until he dropped out a couple of weeks later.

I got lucky in December, I ended up but in a group project with a couple, who were both fairly extroverted and took some form of pity on me and befriended me. I became more open in classes and made a couple of other friends, but at the start of this year, I know that everyone I used to talk to either left the college or is in a different class.

I'm worried that this year will be the same, I will just go in, not talk to anyone, and then be the friendless quiet "weird guy" for the rest of the year.

This year could be even worse because not only is the course harder, I am also interviewing multiple times a week for part-time jobs and have done enough research to confidently self-diagnose with depression and mild autism, possibly some form of anxiety too.

This feels like I'm a preschooler crying that I don't know how to make friends, but tbh I really don't and I just want to be accepted and have a couple of decent friends.

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Any advice anyone has or any questions you wanna ask, you know where the comments are :)