I have had many fp’s in the past, most of them authority figures. Even though i did fixate on my current partner for a while and I was successfully able to leave most of my toxic tendencies aside before I completely ruined our relationship. Right now I have once again fp’d an authority figure and it is ruining my life. My mood changes so fast depending on how he treats me, if he pays no attention to me or pays more attention to other people I feel so sad, so much emptiness. I don’t know how to cope anymore. Its like chasing a high, when he is nice to me i am on top of the world but when he is dry i feel worthless. I am currently in therapy but I am even embarrassed about bringing this up, its consuming my life. How do you deal with fixating on someone you dont have a close relationship with? I feel like im always asking for crumbs.