I could have bpd, or...just be a bad person. I do show a lot of the symptoms but like not to the extent that so many of you do I think. I really don’t know anything. I’m manipulative and I go to such lengths to get attention and know that people care. I don’t even know what my mood is or who I am or what I’m thinking. I don’t even know if I’m imagining all this and I probably am. I just wish I had a good reason for being so horrible. Someone needs to shut me down. Tell me that I am just horrible and need to be normal and it’s not hard. Show me how warped my vision of the world is. Break me, crush me, teach me to feel and truly be someone, before it’s too late.