I saw my new therapist in person today for the first time. I was definitely all over the place when talking about what’s gone on since my last appointment with her. We started talking about some stuff and we went down the impulsivity rabbit hole and turns out for me sex is one of them. Which I already knew.

We then started talking about relationships and she said my tone of voice instantly changed. As soon as she asked about how this were going between me and this one person, I just started to break down. We talked about the relationships I’ve been in, and the common theme they’ve all had. It’s definitely a source of emotional pain and I cry when I talk about it. 

We started using the DBT skills handouts and worksheets today and picked out three behaviours I want to change and three skills I want to improve. I didn’t really give much thought ever to which behaviours and skills I need to work on and improve until today. 

I know I’m going to be in for a ride now that I’m starting to do DBT. 

I just hope it helps some