I really do like my therapist, but he seems to cancel on me a lot and given how clingy and insecure I tend to be it really fucks with me. I don't think he knows how much it bothers me, I've never told him and I like to think I hide it well.

I don't know why he canceled last week, just that he wasn't in the office, and this week he says he has to meet with his accountant. I wouldn't be quite as bothered if I hadn't been canceled on 3 weeks in a row back in December, and actually getting a steady weekly appointment was like pulling teeth. For the first couple months I was seeing him I was lucky if I got an appointment every two weeks.

I get it, shit happens. I understand that people get sick and things have to be done. I try not to let it get to me but goddamm it everytime my phone flashes I'm afraid it's him canceling my appointment again. I know I shouldn't be this upset and it's nothing personal but that just makes it WORSE because why do I have to be so goddamm SENSITIVE. WHY THE HELL AM I SO ATTACHED TO THIS PRICK I HARDLY EVEN KNOW.