My fp is my fiancé. And we live apart he’s lives in la I live in riverside so we only see eachother twice a week. We’re fine when we’re with eachother. But I feel like I ruin everything when we’re apart because I’m so scared and insecure. So codependent. He’s busy at work most of the time and I get so triggered when he doesn’t reply to me or doesn’t talk to me first cause I feel like he doesn’t want me even though I know he’s just busy. So I distance myself and become super depressed and lonely. Like I don’t function the same when he’s not around. I get hurt by him and kinda upset with him when he’s not even doing anything, then he calls or texts me and i feel happy. Then he leaves, and the depression continues. Until I see him again. My mind is an inescapable hell.