I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts, as well as depression for a while. It’s on and off. I haven’t been diagnosed yet but Im pretty confident it is depression. I really don’t know how to get help, it’s embarrassing as a grown ass man. I’m not sure where to start or how to change. I’ve talked to a crisis counselor online and they just repeated my problems to me, basically didn’t help like I thought. I’ve tried building up the courage to talk to my family about it, but I don’t think they’d really understand, plus they have problems of their own. I really need some guidance on what it is I should do. Please.