My behaviour was toxic and abusive. I have been in a constant cycle of fear and insecurities causing uncontrollable emotional outbursts followed by guilt and shame my whole life. My boyfriend ended the relationship after months of trying to help me change these unhealthy patterns, yet in the end he had to protect himself. He knew I was unwell and had to sort myself out, that the behaviour was very wrong and abusive, yet that I am a good person deep down who he loved. Since the breakup, I have been diagnosed with BPD which looking back, makes a lot of sense re my behaviour from a very young age. I am on antidepressants and am going through treatment to gain control of my Emotions and eliminate these unhealthy outbursts. Is there anything I can do to reconcile with my ex boyfriend? We are in no contact and he asked me to let him go. It appears he is making a clear break from me due to my abusive and unhealthy cycle. But now that I know what causes it and that I am getting treatment and bettering myself, I really think it could work between us.