I loathe myself 
So much 

I’m such a terrible terrible human 
I must be among the worst
Actually logically I know that’s probably not true 
I really don’t meet any of my expectations 
I’m a total failure 
Chronically late 
Lazy 
Uncaring 
Angry 
Full of hurt 
How can I stop 
I’m too tired 
It’s too much 
I can’t try anymore 
I can’t fight this 
So I give in 
And I hate myself 

Like the saying goes, 
“Trying is really hard, and living with yourself when you don’t try, is also really hard. Choose your hard.” 

But I can’t 
I need help 
I’m so lost 
And sick of this 
What’s wrong with me
Why am I such a failure 

I hate myself so much