Last night I had a bad night and a lot of suicidal thoughts... I spend probably 2hrs thinking if it was worth it or not... I didn't do it, of course, this morning my friend texted me and told me she dream that I killed myself in front of her (she doesn't know I have depression and an eating disorder) now I'm scared that if I ever kill myself she's going to blame herself... She told me that in the dream she felt guilty because she was there