I am finally admitting to myself that I am selfish. However, I keep it to myself and do my best not to let it show. For instance, anytime someone I care about is going through something, instead of feeling for them and what they are going through, I almost feel kind of... irritated(?) because I feel as if it is taking attention from me and the issues I am facing. I have found myself resenting certain people for making me feel like their problems overshadow mine and people care more about them and what they are going through than they do me. I know that this makes me sound like a total piece of shit - maybe I am. But I do a very good job at keeping it all in and not letting it show. So people honestly have no idea that I have these thoughts. It makes me feel guilty in a way because I am often recognized as someone who is helpful and comforting through the hardships of others. But if they knew what was going on in my head, they would most definitely say otherwise.