I've had depression in the past and I believe I never really got rid of it especially because I never treated it in any way, but last year I was doing fine. Everything was good, I had friends (still do), my studies were going pretty well and I was actually kinda enjoying life. So I decided to go study abroad for a year. Didn't seem like a bad decision, I had a friend who was doing it and he enjoyed it a lot and it seemed like something I would like to do at that time. But in January, my best friend 'broke up' with me. They said I was too clingy or something. This was the only person I trusted at that time and the only person I could open up to. Well, opening up backfired because after they went to distance, you know, less contact and less seeing each other, and it really destroyed me. It felt like opening up was just a really big mistake because now someone I can't trust anymore knows about things I don't want them to know about. Depression came back and I didn't do a lot for the next few months. 

I was going to France for my studies and decided it would be a good idea to learn some french. So I joined a french course at my university. I skipped a lot of the class because I couldn't get my ass out of my bed in the morning. But the course did one good thing for me: it helped me find someone to open up to and talk to again. That actually helped me a lot, not to get rid of my depression but mainly to be able to do all the paperwork for my studies abroad. She pushed me a lot and motivated me as much as she could. And I really appreciate her for doing so. Especially because she was helping me leave her which I know wasn't easy for her. 

So I went to France. I left the only person in the world I trust and I can open up to behind to go to France. I have been here for 2 days now and I have done nothing. Since I didn't do all the paperwork in time, I don't have an appartement yet and am staying in a hotel for now. I know there is a lot of stuff I could and should do, like getting ready for the classes or at least exploring the city, 
but all I did so far was stay at the hotel and lie in my bed. 2 days wasted. I don't feel like anything will change once I get an appartement or the courses start. I feel so useless and don't know what to do. Should I stay one year in France? This is not gonna end well because I actually have to attend the courses here. And I know that will be incredibly difficult for me when I can't even leave my bed right now. Go back home? I would love to do that but it doesn't really make any difference. I would still just sit around and do nothing all day, wasting my time, doing nothing. I feel like shit and have no idea how I should progess in my life.

TLDR: I have depression and went to France to study one year abroad. So far I just sat around all day, not leaving my hotel. I don't know what to do with my life, neither in France nor at home.