At the moment I'm in therapy mainly because of my depression but because of former drug addiction my insurance only pays drug therapy. 
I have ADHD and social anxiety, treated with Vyvanse and Pregabalin. I made a test at the doctor to diagnose my depression, result's at the border moderate/severe depression but her opinion is that it's dysthymia. 


Up till now (end of week 2) the therapy doesn't do anything to help me cope with my depression the only topic in the group talk therapy sessions are for addiction. I'm not interested in taking recreational drugs because I can't see any use out of them (even when I use them I don't feel better).


I don't know how I should survive my life, I don't think I'll kill myself tomorrow or next week but I'm scared that my depression will have the upper hand in 5-10 years because I saw it develop for the last five years.


I have a gf I love, I started doing sports since therapy, I read books, I'm able to work full time and drug use isn't a problem anymore but depression always catches up with me. 


I'm scared to try ADs because of side effects and what happens to me if the next one doesn't help and I have to change to another one. I don't want to suffer anymore.