Like, I these last four/five days I been feeling pretty "stable"; I dont feel a lot of desire of hurting myself, getting into drugs, or any risk situation, only the normal amount, which isn't a lot in my case.  
Also, yesterday and today I've been feeling "over-happy" and confidence, so I took the opportunity and I came back to talking to my friends after some days of isolation and hate.  
Like part of me wants to self-sabotage and ruin it all, another is afraid because my mental health issues are kinda the only thing that gives me some self image (it isn't a lot, but it is something), but another part feels like this is never gonna end; it already ended other times, but it feels different, you know?

Could some one with more experience answer me? (sorry for bothering &lt;3).