I feel like im on autopilot 24/7 and have no control over my actions. I am always aware of what im about to do too which sometimes makes me feel like a fraud because doing that doesnt fit the typical impulsive actions thing. Even worse feeling is that I am very much aware of what im about to ruin but i cant control myself to stop. 

Im constantly thinking “am i being genuine” whenever i interact with people because i can never tell if im genuinely acting out my real emotions or if its just the autopilot doing its thing in my head. 

tldr: I dont know if im real and I think im just a consciousness floating in a carcass doing things for me