Am I the only person who genuinely doesn’t enjoy anything anymore?like things aren’t the same as how they used to be.Back then I’d enjoy going out and seeing and meeting new people everyday,I’d enjoy hanging out with my family especially my friends,I liked being surrounded by people and didn’t hate myself or anyone,but back then I was really young and I got bullied a lot but I never let it get to me,But now I don’t enjoy anything at all.I can’t seem to laugh at anything or anyone nothings funny to me anymore.I’m just so mad all the time without having any reasons,I mean I do have my reasons but I’d prefer to not say it on here.Now I hate my entire family because when I was at my worst they treated me like $hit and made things so much worse for me by taking away things I loved like my phone,my makeup and etc.I honestly hate going out and I want to be alone 24/7,I hate the thought of having friends because I feel like I’m not fun enough or funny at all,I mean I am funny but it’s all fake acting I really waste up all of my motivation to make my friends laugh because I don’t want to look like a complete loser at school with no friends.And for my mum I honestly feel so bad for her all I’ve done for the past few years was treat her like $hit but it’s only because she should of thought twice about how she treated me at my worst and what she did to me.Right now I honestly can’t feel anything at all I feel no emotions nothing,I feel like I’m numb I don’t care about anyone or anything and I know my old self would never expect me to turn out like this.My mums always calling me a demon and etc she’s not wrong tho if I’m being honest I see it in myself too.I honestly don’t want to be here anymore I make no difference in this universe,I’m failing most of my classes and all I do at school is act like a human being it’s honestly all fake.I wish I could change I just hate myself so much and the thing is I’m still young and have a entire life ahead of me but ever since I turned 13 I insensitivity gave up