I have experienced depression on and off since becoming an adult. My husband and I moved to the state I lived in as a child after my elementary school best friend begged me to for years and my sister-in-law encouraged us to as well. To make a long story short, it's been 5 years my friend and I are the least close we have ever been, despite my efforts to maintain our relationship, we went 7 months without speaking and we don't keep in touch with my brother and sister-in-law either. I have a lot of resentment around this situation and feel depressed and like I am alone in the world. I feel like the resentment has ruined the whole experience of living in this state and I want to move somewhere new. I may as well be alone in a state where I don't have negative feelings attached to it than be in a state with people nearby who make me feel like shit. The depression is making it difficult to get excited about anything and even moving seems like a huge burden. I have heard the saying "everywhere you go...there you are." And that makes me feel like I will drag my depression with me every where I go and that I need to heal here. I know I shouldn't let it impact me as much as I do but I am sensitive person and I'm struggling with it.