I mean we only texted, but still. We wrote each other so many massages…And then when we wanted to go on a date she fucking ghosted me. 

I was so happy, my first date in years. Told my best friends about it. Then it never happend. 

She ghosted me for a week. Now I finally managed to text her again, even tho I was anxious af, only to find out she found someone else. 

I just cried my eyes out over I person, who I was never a couple with.

After that settled again the hate came…I hate myself. Why am I like this. I barely even knew her, but I imagined a future with her?! Why? As soon as someone shows my the slightest bit of affection I just fall for the same bullshit every god damn time…

fuck.