So I don't have a history of self-harm. I restricted my eating when I was a teenager for vanity reasons (plus it worked lol) but that's the extent of it. I'm just gonna be upfront I smoke a lot of weed and this past year it's started to trigger panic attacks brought on by hypochondria maybe (they exclusively happen when I smoke too much but it really depends on the day as to how much is "too much"). Would it be self-harm if I continue to smoke everyday knowing I might suffer a panic attack or would you simply call it a calculated risk? My SO has asked me to stop multiple times but he's also an enabler. :p But I love how weed makes me feel. Though when I get a panic attack it's fucking terrifying and annoying and exhausting all at the same time and I just motor through it. Shove it down. I call it "productive pain" to make myself not freak out as much about it in the moment lol. What are your thoughts on this?