OK so I feel like the childhood 'traumas' I experienced do not warrant a bpd diagnosis compared to other peoples. Like people have experienced awful abuse and severe neglect but in terms of me:
- alcoholic father, he was somewhat functioning but the issues that ensue I.e the intense and verbally violent sometimes physical (mum to dad - not vice versa), money problems despite having a good income into the house, reoccuring infidelity from my dad. My dad would be in an out of hospital when I was in the first year of primary school
- my nan who I shared a room with and was like a mother had a stroke when I was 8 and completely changed (immobile, vascular dementia)
-my auntie acted as my 'babysitter' since I was six weeks old as my mum had to go back to work,  she suffered from mental health problems and alcoholism and would convince me my mum was an unfit mother and try to take me as her own. 
She later became my nans primary caregiver and it would turn out she stole thousands from her  and verbally abuse her - when this whole scenario panned out I was always present amongst my mother and extended family during arguments and then we never spoke to her again. Despite what she did I felt lost when that relationship was gone as almost a second mother had gone within a click of a fingers?

I understand this can have an affect but to what extent? Like does this warrant my bpd diagnosis. It's strange that even with the diagnosis you can feel like you're not 'worthy' of it. (inverted commas cause that makes it sound like it's an honour when i don't mean it like that')

I guess what I'm trying to figure out if there are people out there who also have a diagnosis without experiencing the extent of the horrific fucked up shit others have. I hope this doesn't come across as jarring or insensitive. I really struggle with putting across a emotional sensitive post sometimes.