If someone talks to me in class or texts me, I always get suspicious like “maybe they were forced to do this”. I know some people care about me but it’s very hard to see why they do. I’ve been a loner most of my life and the friends I did have burned into my brain that they are the only friends I’ll ever get or I need them. I’ve gotten rid of most but Im terrified to let my guard down because I know I will be used again.