I can’t stop beating myself up over bad grades. Over the last few weeks my stomach has been constantly rolling. I feel so numb and useless. I don’t feel anything but tired or sick. I’ve spoken to my therapist about some stuff I’ve needed to get off of my chest but until I have a psych appointment there’s really nothing to help my situation because it’s most likely chemical (I’m in between medications and diagnoses right now. Tldr I have bipolar and GED, combo of lamictal and Lexapro isn’t working). Self care helps when I feel like doing it. I’ve missed some days of class and some assignments. Now it’s coming up on finals week and I’m so burnt out. It’s hard to even feel anxious. I can’t stop beating myself up over turning stuff in late and missing things. But I just can’t do anything. One professor has been understanding out of four. One was almost understanding but is still penalising me. This sucks so much! I care so much about my grades normally, why can’t I care? This is my fault and I’m still beating myself up. I just want to be normal. I need to have a good GPA. I’m a history major. Graduating without job offers is a death sentence.