I used to make fun of my sister because of her condition. I always made light of the situation and told her to toughen up. In 2018 I lost my FIL and had my first panic attack while eating a sandwich with my brother. It felt like I was having a heart attack and I was taken to the ER.

The ER checked me out and the doctor sat me down and explained to me “Hun you had a panic attack”. I couldn’t make sense of it all I have never been one to have anxiety or panic attacks and at 36yrs old ..why now?

Since then I have found out anxiety runs rampant in my fathers side of the family tree. Anxiety has caused me to have full on breakdowns and countless trips to the ER for ECGS,X-rays since my 1st panic attack. I have tried it all Zoloft , Meditation, exercise and even with all that it’s a daily battle. 

I have apologized to my sister countless times now having to go through what she went through as a teenager. This stuff is so fuckin debilitating. 

To all you that suffer everyday I’m sorry. I hope that one day you all can find your solution on how to deal with this.