i don't know where to go  

what do do

these thoughts are making me wanna cry and scream

but i just stand still

trying not to move a muscle

trying not to react 

trying to preserve sanity 

if i would to even make a sound 

everything would go black

than rainbow

they would eat me whole and now 

i would forever forget and leave this world 

but i would be trapped 

trapped in the world of flying brains and dying souls

they would make me do hideous things

to them , to us, to me

body is strong but the heart is weak

so i am never going to be alone

never again

there will always be something 

some murmur, a song 

between me and them 

between a lit cigarette and young lungs 

from now on i am never to fall asleep 

never safe 

never free