I’m just so angry. It feels like bipolar has fucked up so much of my life. I had my first hospital visit a little under a year ago due to a severe depressive episode that led me to be extremely suicidal. That hospital stay caused me to fail my university classes (as well as my depression keeping me from being motivated to do the school work), so I had to drop out of university. I moved back in with my dad and job hopped because I would get manic and quit a job. I got kicked out because of my manic behavior and had to move states away from my home to live with another family member, away from friends. Not to mention a second hospital visit for severe mania. I’m just so tired. It feels like bipolar has ruined so much. And even tho I feel stable now, who knows what it’ll ruin for me in the future?