I haven't been happy since I was in my teens. I'm almost 30 now. I don't have strong relationships where I live and I'm not particularly close to family. Right now I have a comfortable 9-5 job but I don't make a lot of money. I've always been an over-thinker and because I don't have any religion or faith, the world doesn't make a lot of sense to me. At this point, most women I come across are just useless or very full of themselves because they get a lot of attention in today's world and arrogant - and I think I have accepted that I'll be single forever and won't have kids.

There is nothing tying me down to where I live. I have no mortgage and no responsibilities - other than perhaps taking care of my parents when they are older and giving them grandkids. But even still I have a strained relationship with family and parents are both financially ok.

I want to be a better person and I feel like I'm just rotting away in my room. I'm too shy and I don't have confident to take on the world - but I feel like I have potential.

I was looking through some of my really old emails and saw that I told some penpals that I'll be travelling across the world. This was about 6 years ago and I haven't done anything.

How stupid will it be for me to drop everything and take a flight to somewhere and see where the world takes me and learn some real life lessons?