my depression takes away a large chunk of my motivation and pep. i’m a film buff so you think watching movies would be my go-to for comfort, but it’s getting to the point where even that’s too much work. i’ve basically been laying around and dissociating all day, the most i’ve done is check my phone, pet my cat and eat a little. 

it’s just such an empty, voided feeling. one where *anything* i do feels like it just has no meaning. i kind of realized i was at my happiest when i was visiting my boyfriend (he lives across the country), and when i was there i didn’t mind laying around and doing nothing because he’d be there with me. it just sucks because now i just don’t know how to pull myself out of this. i’ve been going for walks whenever i force myself to get out and it’s been helping a little, but it’s still just so difficult to do most of the time.

my binge eating disorder is also coming back a little and that’s fun, lmao. i guess eating helps me cope/find something to do. damn you taco bell, you’re draining my wallet