Sorry, I’m not a member of this sub but I  need some place to get this off of my chest. Sometimes I feel like no one genuinely cared about me, except for maybe my parents. I try so hard to be positive, take care of my family, keep other people’s spirits up, but eventually it all comes crashing down around me.  I’m married and I have two kids - one teenage daughter and one 8-yo son with severe adhd. My husband also has mental and physical health issues and I’ve always been there for him, but it seems like when I’m upset he somehow makes it about him and just leaves me to cry by myself. My son’s behavior problems have gotten so bad and it’s been very stressful on everyone in our house, but I’m literally the only one trying to get him help and in turn, help our family. My daughter can be sweet but is also moody (as teenagers are) and she can also be incredibly hurtful. I guess it all just broke me today. My husband and I rarely ever get time to ourselves. I asked him yesterday if he wanted me to ask my parents to take our son so we could do something today, especially since we’re both working tomorrow on Valentines Day. I don’t expect anything big; just wanted us to be able to spend some time together. Well, he got up and went to church this morning and we were going to do something after that, but then he came home in a bad mood bc his foot was hurting and took a nap. When he got up, he just moped around and never mentioned anything about us doing anything. I wanted to ask him about it but was waiting for him to wake up better and hopefully be in a better mood. An hour passed and he was still moping around, with no sign of interest in doing anything together or even remembrance of the plans we’d made. Meanwhile, I asked my daughter to do a chore before she left to go meet up with friends and she acted extremely put out and rude to me. Idk why, but that just sent me over the edge. She left, and I went to my room and cried. My husband came in and asked what was wrong so I told him. Rather than offering support or trying to comfort me, he just fussed at me for not being harder on her. He also seemed to get mad at me for mentioning that I felt like he didn’t care about our plans. This just made me cry harder. He ended up just walking away and going back to his recliner to scroll on his phone. After about 15 min I walked outside to my car to smoke (it’s cold outside). I’ve been out here crying and he hasn’t even tried to see where I went or anything. It hurts and sometimes I wonder why I even try any more. I’m tired of feeling sad, let down and worthless. Sometimes I just wish I could erase myself.