I’m constantly failing. Getting too upset, no energy, unable to cope with much stress. I’m not patient and I rarely know the right way to communicate - with my husband and my child. 

When I have episodes all I see is that my child will see it as well, and grow to hate me for it. 

I just want to be happy, energetic and able to handle daily struggles that come with every family. 

I always consider that my son, my husband and my unborn child would be better off without me in their lives. I don’t know what to do. And as usual I don’t know how to feel.