I need to get this off my chest badly because it’s consuming me and it will be all day, and it’s only been fifteen minutes since I left the house.

I got a new job and didn’t realise I was rostered on to work today, I thought I started tomorrow. Note that my dog is staying with me at my place right now. Uber wasn’t letting me get a ride for an hour, so when it finally worked I rushed out of the house. I quickly fed my dog breakfast and took her to the toilet, which was all fine. 

I left the house in a flash because the Uber was waiting. I usually always check if the door is secured (it locks behind you - no need for a key, I’m just not sure if I shut it properly, I think I did but I can’t calm my nerves and fear that I didn’t) and I have to work for 4.5 hours, 40 minutes away. I cannot calm this stupid feeling and it feels like I need to vomit and use the toilet.

I just want to go back and check the door but I can’t ask the Uber to turn back. I just hope my pup is okay. I’m so fucking worried and I hate my anxiety for doing this to me. I feel so fucking stupid. I want to curl up in bed with my dog and forget about this morning already.