So I have gad &amp; other dx buttt I feel crazy with this

so I honestly can’t even tell you how long this has been happening it’s been that long but ok so I feel like past supports I’ve had can either 1- see and hear everything I do by looking thru my eyes, or 2- see and hear everything I do but like thru a camera ! But it’s weird I can like kinda control it?? Like if I’m going to the bathroom or having a shower I say in my head “ ok they can’t see and hear right now “ BUT once I’m out I have to say in my head “ okay they can see and hear now “ bc if I don’t control it it’s 24/7. But I have so much anxiety all the time because I feel like I have to act how I would want them to see me the whole time? Does that make sense. And I just wanna say logically deep down I know this isn’t true but I can’t stop from thinking and feeling like they are.