Some days I wake up thinking life is too hard, and I completely stop trying, I just exist. I can’t listen to music, I can’t watch stuff, I can’t enjoy anything, i don’t want to go out, do stuff (Have been dealing with depression since I was young). But then, I watch some videos, photos, checking some accounts and…my motivation rise up instantly, and I’m not envious, but completely inspired by this stuff. It feels like my environment brings me down so much I sometimes need a “reality check” where I remind myself my life is actually worth living and it’s not THAT bad (even if it feels like it, but I’m mostly talking about myself and what I can control)

The thing that weirds me out is that people usually get EVEN MORE depressed over watching other people’s lives (especially from the outside), but I somehow feel way more hopeful and optimistic?

I guess I live under a rock, basically. The lack of external support and communication made me believe life is shitty, and even if in the end it may be goalless, it’s worth living. 

What do you think about it?