I’m 20 and live at home. Haven’t graduated high school cause I’m homeschooled and have one book report left and I can’t find the guide line so I can’t write it and my mom lost it. I wasn’t allowed to learn to drive and now I’m on my own and have anxiety about driving since I’m not used to it. I have no job but today I applied to one but the guy said they’re looking for people to work on the weekends and I can’t do that cause I have to rely on my mom for a ride and she can’t drive me on weekends. Somehow all these things written out feel like it’s out of my control but I still feel like it’s somehow my fault like I could be doing more or trying harder. I feel like I’m a failure right now and I have nothing to show for my efforts. I just got my permit today but I have no way to use it. My dad said if I get a job then I have to pay him some of my paycheck for car maintenance. I feel like my life is being taken away before I even got the chance to live it. 

I can’t even fully pay my friend back for concert tickets I bought cause I wanted to have one thing to look forward to and I’ve never been to a concert before in my life. 

If you think I’m a failure please look away and don’t lie to me. If you genuinely don’t think I’m a failure I just wanna hear someone say it. Any helpful tips are welcome. Thank you.