Just went to Paris for a week, and kinda left 80% of the anxiety there. it wasn’t as bad when seeing my sister and her boyfriend, who always make me feel like it’s okay to struggle, it’s okay to anything. 

but i get back home, where i live with my parents, and it’s as if just crossing the sign with our city name brought it all back.

i feel uneasy there, scared, fearful, everything stresses me out or makes me anxious. 

i can see myself have a job in a crappy place in Paris but i somehow get so anxious of it here. 

is it because i grew up here? is it my sister living with us giving us problems? i don’t know.