But I already knew that already...I don't know why I even try anymore when the result is always the same. So I suppose it's like w every other aspect of living. I'm always playing a role, forcing lies so they seem real. When really I should just do less. Especially since it's all destined for nothing anyway. So yeah alone is what I'll always be. I'm fucking alone lol...I get too caught up in fantasy. It's not real. None of it is