Lately all my past trauma it's coming to the surface, years and years of awful things are coming out for me to process. But I can't, i honestly feel like I don't have the strength to deal with another depression episode. I don't know what to do. I feel so alone, I've always been the one who takes care of everything and everyone else but no one takes care of me. Or even  being there to give me comfort.

The pain in my chest it's unberable, i feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack.