i don’t know what it is i see in the mirror. it’s ugly and fat and just looks like a a bunch of skin and fat, or a bad claymation. i think i’m trans and that might be why but it just feels so wrong. i don’t look like that. i see it, but it’s not me. i don’t have an ed or anything, and i hate eating but i can’t stop. i’m never hungry but i’m always hungry  but i can’t stop even when i’m so full. i’ve thrown up sometimes bc i eat so much. i hate eating. i hate looking at myself. i don’t even take showers. i hate it and i wanna be anyone else but me. i don’t like my hair. i don’t like my legs, i don’t like my eyebrows. i don’t like her.