I never have dealt with eating disorder but lately I have been very suicidal, just been through my FP abandoning me, followed up with my family moving overseas and living me behind; I couldn’t cope with this and I got extremely suicidal, so I started fasting for days, been two days without water nearly two weeks without any food, I have eaten yesterday and felt terribly guilty, tried to fast today too and now by the end of the day I decided to eat and I feel terrible already. 

I don’t know if it’s because I’m disappointing myself with not following my fasting or if it’s eating disorder.