Last month I had a really strange period I was kind of out of it I'd do anything that came to my mind I was roof hopping, running in roads and taking any kind of drug that'd come my way. I'm not this kind of person I'm not me I'm scared. I've really scared some of my friends one group won't even talk to me anymore. My thoughts were going so fast I couldn't even think clearly I'd do one thing and a million options would present themselves one after another I couldn't even choose sometimes and I'd just pace and smoke for hours in the night. It was so euphoric at times I felt so incredible it was so good life was beautiful I loved myself and everyone around me but it got out of control.

Is this insanity? Did I lose my mind? Should I tell people about this or will I get sectioned. I really don't want to get sectioned being trapped like that will make me explode.

I'm not usually like that I felt like someone else. It's kind of passed now. I'm mostly struggling with depressing days and very agitated nights. I'm really paranoid that everyone hates me now and I'm trying to move on from whatever just happened but my thoughts are still racing and I can't fully comprehend what happened, still can't tbh. I'm so irritable and agitated, I don't want to fuck things up even more.

I'm just trying to cope, it's half term for me now so I've got a good week to try and fix all this but I don't even know where to start. I'm sorry if I've rambled a bit I just can't quite get my thoughts down properly there's too much to say please just someone say something, anything, I'm so lost and confused