Hi. I was diagnosed about a year ago now and have tried quite a few different medication concoctions but haven’t found the right one for me yet. Something happened a few months ago that made me go off my meds cold turkey and made me spiral into a major depressive episode that I’m only just seeing the end of now. During this time I have been unmedicated and to say the least, unstable. I’m in a long distance relationship that has lasted over a year now and I can’t help but feel like a burden and unfit partner because of my symptoms, especially when I’m unmedicated. I need constant reassurance, have mood swings, get disproportionately upset and hurt over small things and it feels like my whole world is crumbling when it’s a big thing. Nothing helps the overthinking and what feels like internal chaos. I have overwhelmed my partner with my needs and I don’t know how to fix myself to be a better partner that they deserve. I love them very much and don’t want to lose them, but it feels selfish of me to subject them to all this. Does anyone have any resources or advice on how to improve and become more normal?