Hey guys just coming in with some food for thought. 

I had read this article the other day talking about how people with bpd (us) have brains that purposefully block out anything positive. People's love, happy moments, all blocked out by how our brains are functioning. 

When I read that I have to be honest. I got angry. But also relieved. I was angry because how dare my brain make me miss out on so many moments that were actually supposed to be good. How dare this mental health issue swipe away my happiness. But relieved because this whole time I would either blame myself or others for this unhappiness. But it's nobody's fault. Not even mine. 

We may not be able to fully control the initial block. But once we become aware that our brain isn't processing good moments properly we can then adjust our perception to fully accept the good things that come our way. 

A change of perception is a life long task. You'll never fully see things clearly. But if you can make just a slight shift you'll come to find out how much more beautiful life is. 

We are not our illness. We are stronger than the block. Stronger than our past. We can live a beautiful life despite what the voice in our head says. So next time you feel like you're in what's supposed to a beautiful moment but you feel like you're drowning. Ask yourself am I really drowning or does my mind just want me to feel like I am.

Stay safe guys much love!