Hey folks, 

Getting a psych evaluation Thursday anyways but wanted to throw this out there in case anyone else experiences the same. realized recently that my social anxiety might be something else instead? Doc thinks my depression and social anxiety diagnosis might actually be bipolar instead

My anxiety and stress revolves around how people perceive me. My anxiety attack triggers are any inclination of rejection. Ie: if it seems a person I’m seeing isn’t maybe that into me, I’ll get so anxious that it’s all I can think about and I’m basically in the bathroom all day throwing up from anxiousness. My solutions are asking them point blank if they do so that I know, or blocking a picking a new one ASAP to fill that anxiety hole.

The other thing is I look nice always. I do not go out in public (even to like pick up a prescription or groceries) in sweats or without any makeup. I don’t wear a lot of makeup always but I do always wear a little, and dress put together albeit a lil grunge since that’s my style (tattoos etc).

I recently went to the beach and my friends and I took photos. I’ve decided I’m a little too chubby to be attractive and now I’m just feeling apathetic about going out and doing things? Often after work I like to get a beer and now I’m not really understanding what the point is if I don’t look good? The weird part is, it’s not based on anxiety anymore about what people think - I literally can’t fathom what would be enjoyable about going out with friends if I don’t look good doing it.

I’ve struggled a while with getting hobbies and activities in my life that I enjoy that can make things exciting. Wondering if any of you have experienced similar struggles with people’s perception of you