this is... weird. i am usually a highly sensitive person. i will cry for no reason. i will say "im sorry" and mean it with all my heart. i will feel the pain of what you are going through. i will question my importance to you if you do not respond immediately, and so on.

but for the entirety of this month, i have felt nothing. when something insignificant happens, as the borderline that i am, i will feel very strong emotions and dwell on these emotions for an excessively long time. now, however, as soon as something triggers any emotion, i go back to this empty void of numbness. even the music i would cry to does nothing for me!

another example: i dont feel genuine sympathy nor empathy, at least from my heart. of course i'll say im sorry for your loss or whatever because its the right thing to do— and i would usually say that—but inside, i dont feel good or bad for them. seeing stories on this subreddit about how emotional and sensitive some of you are, i just dont understand how its possible

ive been in this cycle of feeling nothing/being hypersensitive for all of this year (and probably longer, i dont remember). but it hasnt ever been this severe.

i havent heard of anyone else with bpd feeling this way, so i came here to ask.