I’ve had anxiety since a child, and it’s always something different. First it was my heart rate, then a few years later it was my breathing, few years later(had a bad trip) I started overthinking about being able to apply pressure to my head and every anxiety I’ve ever had was from me having too much control over my body like controlling my own heart rate(what would happen if I sped it up extremely fast?, what would happen if I applied too much pressure to my head?) but now it’s those heat waves in your stomach that you get. Those disgusting sharp heat waves right above the stomach. I can get them on command and you’d think since I don’t want to feel them, I just don’t do them, but I psyche myself out into getting them. They’re the most painful and uncomfortable feeling things I’ve ever felt and it’s really fucking with my life because I literally feel the most uncomfortable pain and it makes me want to cry. I anticipate the pain and it makes me over think. Somebody please tell me you know what I mean…