I’m having bad dreams again, last night in my dream I felt as if reality was once again fake (it indeed was, since I was dreaming) and wandered around confused like I did irl a while ago, until I woke up to what I interpreted, in my slumber, to be a siblings throat getting slit by an invader. I checked on them, everyone is alright. I suppose I was just anxious about meeting some extended family today and that’s how the anxiety manifested itself.


Good thing is that negs are subsiding a little. I sometimes catch myself enjoying the sound of the rain or the taste of a burger and it feels great, like finding an easter egg of sorts. Good to feel human every once in a while.


I’ll try to hop off reddit now, I promised myself I wouldn’t go online today, but here I am, need to work on that. Anyways, that was my pointless ramble for the day, hope everyone had a nice Christmas!