 So, for as long as I can remember, I've always had this thing where I get a person in my head and become obsessed with them. Like, I don't want to think about them and obsess over them, but I do. I have no control over it. Then it gets worse as time passes. Then the person is in my head and can see everything I see. Like not in 3rd person but in 1st person. They see through my eyes. I have to close my eyes when I get out of the shower because I don't want them to see me without clothes on. I'm never alone. They're always there. I just want to be alone. Then eventually they get so loud it's all I can hear and they consume every thought I have. It never used to get so bad that I couldn't stand it, but as I get older it's getting worse. I am so fucking mentally exhausted. I'm on 3 different meds and it hasn't helped anything. I haven't told my psychiatrist bc I'm afraid of what he'll say.