I will make any excuse to myself to avoid leaving my partner’s place and go to my own place. If he isn’t doing anything, I find it really hard to walk away and do my own thing. I want to do things like play video games or paint at my place, but I get so depressed as soon as I finally force myself to go home. I binge on sweets and mope like I got dumped. 

My brain will be mean to me and tell me how glad he is that I left. It’s all in my head and just keeps bringing me down. 

I bring this up because I just left my partner’s house and I was making several excuses to myself why I shouldn’t leave.
“His neck is hurting and he needs me to take care of him”
“I forgot my keys. I have to just wait here for him to get home. Oh well. I guess I can’t go home”
(I have 4 housemates and our door is barely ever left locked so this is just bullshit.)

I realised this is my abandonment issues playing up. This isn’t healthy. I have been spending so much time around my partner we are both getting on each other’s nerves more and more. Yet I have an irrational fear of spending time apart. 

My guess is that I need to just remind myself that time apart is healthy and it’s not good to be so clingy and needy with someone. I need to be sure I don’t neglect my friendships and all other parts of my life (as I have been)

Anyone else do this? How do you stop? I find it’s really easy to trick myself into staying for longer. He won’t tell me to leave either (I think because he knows I’m sensitive and he likes coming home to me) so I need to do this myself. Any advice?