I am currently not suicidal and dont plan on doing anything like that. But I have been taking xans and other Benzos a lot for the past few months but I space it out so I dont get withdrawals .Iknow I am becoming dependent mentally on it but at this point where I honestly dont care anymore. I dont care about my school, future, etc and all iwanna do is get fucked up to numb everything . idk I just dont give shit anymore at all. I feel like dbt isn't doing shut an d idk what to do. Sorry if none of this makes sense im messed up rn. Im just done trying to recover . Whats the point if your family won't fo anything to help themselves . idk sorry for all this.