feel like an academic loser. lam tired, I need mental
health support but I can't afford it. So ever since I
was a child I was great in studies, i was an
overachiever, I had big dreams and goals. But I
couldn't score my desired marks in 10th grade coz l
got addicted to social media and it made me feel
like a failure. I felt ashamed and decided to go to the
farthest college from my school i felt like I was
dissociated the whole time all my decisions felt
impulsive. And as expected I did terrible there coz i
kept felt lost, the teacher there hated me, i felt
ashamed of what I had become. I couldn't study
properly i kept thinking about going back in time
and wishing to do things differently back then. My
class teacher called me a failure, my father called
me a loser. I have no confidence left. This is not
where I wanted to be in my live, I feel so helpless. I
even toke a gap year and I feel like a burden, i
couldn't study properly, it's so hard to concentrate
on studies, i have lost interest in things that I used
to enjoy. I've been having thoughts about s€lfh@rm
and $ulc1de ever since I was 15, and I am 19 now
and i still feel stuck. I really don't know to be
positive again. I want to live