My boyfriend said something that really triggered and upset me and instead of lashing out or losing my mind I told him I would be excusing myself for 5-10 minutes to sit on the porch and smoke a cigarette (which i only do in very stressful situations). I sat there and took deep breaths and decided in a relatively rational way how I wanted to proceed. There’s not really a happy ending, I’m still mad and hurt about what he said as his apology was kind of bullshit, but that’s really not important in the long run. What is important is that tonight I was able to regulate my emotions. I didn’t act on impulse. Good days happen sometimes, y’all remember that.