This drug makes me feel at times overwhelmingly happy. I feel like I could explode with euphoria. I suddenly have the urge to sing, dance and scream for joy! I feel invincible and beautiful and I love myself. I am attached to people and I want to be around them at all times. My favourite person could be God himself at this point. Out of the blue the comedown comes crashing through. The roller-coaster drops without warning. I feel horrible, tired, miserable. I could've lost my keys. Someone could've not responded to a text in time. Maybe they didn't say I love you in the right tone. I look in the mirror and I feel like a monster. A trigger sets off the comedown and all of a sudden I want to be swallowed up by the world. I hate myself. I am disgusting, worthless, pointless, evil, but so is everyone else. I am irritable and sensitive. One wrong word and I'm a bull in a china shop. I'm a bear with a sore head. One word out of line and I am nothing but angry flames from the pits of hell. All I want is for this pain to end. I want to feel happy and loved but I forgot what that even felt like. All I see is red and black. Life has always been this way. Nothing ever goes right. What's the point of being here anymore anyway.... then miraculously someone has seemed to slip this drug back into my drink because I'm suddenly back to the happy child, jumping for joy and loving everything. Seriously anyone else?