After spending 3 beautiful months free of my anxiety and psychosomatic symptoms, I'm back in the loop, but after experiencing those anxiety-free months, I now know what I'm fighting for and it's worth it. I fully intend on submerging myself in this experience. I've decided to face this storm head-on and not let it interrupt my life. I lost 3 years to it and a possible relationship that could've been amazing. I will make sure my anxiety burns away in agony. If something bad will happen, I will let it happen. I don't give a shit anymore. I will not fall back so far that I would need therapy again. I'm in a place where I fully intend on making out of this hole on my own because I'm the only one who can make a difference.