I am diagnosed with ADHD. Am 19 years old. And I’ve been having the issue where I ruminate about my past mistakes/actions and about bad things I’ve done in the past in a loop. My mind won’t stop being so loud and I can’t stay in the moment. Then when I get over that one, a new one pops up and the cycle repeats itself again except with that different one. Heck, at one time my mind randomly started having thoughts about kids, but I brushed them off within a week and they no longer bother me.

Yesterday, I was talking to myself imagining myself doing silly and stupid things and in different stupid scenarios like I always do. And just then, I invision myself in a catch a predator situation with a 12 year old girl, except I’m not a predator. I’ve done this before without becoming hyper focused on it. Basically just making fun of the things my mind tries to make me think of in a loop. But this time I’m stuck now on it.

I played a fake conversation in my mind like this.

Girl: “You aren’t gonna do anything to me are you?”

Me: (Sarcastically) “Oh, yes I’m totally gonna do a lot of things.(while licking my lips sarcastically.) I’m not.”

I know it was harmless and have no desire to act on them. But my mind is hyper focused on what I was imagining in my mind now.

Also, the licking lips thing was just meant to be a funny scare I don’t imagine myself actually doing anything.