I know normal people get lonely, too.

But having this shit is worse when it's your fault why you're lonely.

I still deeply miss that guy I talked to last Christmas because I really liked him. Long story short, he didn't reply for days and I thought he blocked me and I cried and got depressed and left him batshit crazy messages. Turns out he was just on vacation. He must have left a message when I blocked him lol.

I really like him and it's almost a year now and I'm still lonely and getting lonelier bec Christmas reminds me of the time I spent with him, even though it was only for a week.

I don't know. I think I just got triggered bec a dude from the past messaged me tonight and I really hoped it was him.

This BPD fucking sucks, man.