I've always struggled with depression and had a very rough childhood.

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As I grew older I had a lot of anger outbursts but my thinking seemed normal.

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Last time I felt really weird was when my dad threatened to kill me but I had to continue to work with him for 4 months and was being threatened daily with many fights with my parents.

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I turned to alcohol and after stopping after 1 week of heavy use I felt really zoned out. I started getting really anxious. I am a hypochrondiac, always searching for something that is wrong with me (I always think I have an illness). I couldn't think, I couldn't concentrate and was in a constant state of anxiety for 2 months. I got over it eventually with the help of my GF and friends. 

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Before that I was also a hikikomori for 7 years.

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I've never had "hallucinations" at daytime or never "heard things" but I did go through an episode before the alcohol thing where I had sleep paralysis and would mistake a shadow for a figure for the first 30 seconds of waking up until it went away. I kinda chalked it down to me being woken up abruptly by my anxiety or a nightmare.

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I did well after I left my father and got a job, a nice home and peace. After 4-5 months working at my job, being extremely motivated, even doing 2 jobs looking for a third I started smoking hookah to calm me down. When I did this I started to get the brain fog again and was literally unable to game, watch a movie or make music. I was just completely drained and didn't feel like doing anything basically. This stressed me out really bad and after talking with my GF I decided to smoke weed to maybe calm my nerves.

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This helped immensely. I was feeling amazing. But the problem is in the 2 months I smoke weed I smoked more and more overtime, even 4g a day if I'm not mistaken by the last 2-3 weeks. After a huge panic attack induced by seeing flashing lights after a major coughing fit I spiraled into absolute fear. When I closed my eyes I couldn't even rest because I would have weird thoughts or even see things at a certain point but only with my eyes closed. The day after I decided to quit smoking weed but felt very loopy/dazed, disinterested and extremely anxious. This time I was convincing myself I definitely had schizophrenia and would start hearing or seeing things. I don't know why I'm feeling like this. This is day 2. I tried hanging out with friends but I kept zoning in and out because my mind kept distracting me. I also feel like I'm acting jittery/erratic and just plain weird. I don't know what to do.

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Am I just being extremely paranoid/anxious, is it my hypochrondia or am I psychotic about to develop schizophrenia?

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Is it true that weed can trigger schizophrenia when it would have otherwise never appeared or does it just speed up the process?

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Is any of what I'm saying sound familiar to anyone here?