Like wtf I wanna have lasting relationships but I literally can’t anyone I get close with I perceive being rejected and push away and I get so fucking anxious. Whenever I’m around anyone I obsess over everything and wanna self harm. Like what’s the point of even trying at this point? I feel like I have to cut everyone off I’m a burden to everyone and I don’t trust anyone’s intentions I feel like everyone is lying to me. I just wanna die at this point. Currently in a sober house and I can’t fucking escape my intense ass emotions I just wanna numb the pain.I fucking sabotage everything I do I feel the need to destroy my life. Hella cravings to cut myself Rn. Any advice would be much appreciated I’ve been in this hell for too long.