I've been struggling with BPD All My Teenage life and on. Its been screwing with my friendships all my life. I have a bestie, and their triggering my bpd. I'll hit them up and ask if they want to hangout and it's weird, because they leave me on read and wait hours to reply back or reply back instantly. I don't know what any of this means. They have asked me about my bpd, and I explained it too them, but not all of it. Now every day I worry if they will leave me and don't value me anymore. To be fair there at work when they check my text so maybe that has something to do with it. I'm just scared every single day that someone will leave me. Am I over reacting? Also, when we hangout everything is good and nothing  sketchy happens. I'm just wondering if it's me or them.