why do i feel so emotionless? but first let me sorry about my english it's not my first language. In my country people don't really know about mental disorder. back in the day in my high school. my friend asked me "what's wrong man?" i answered "have you ever feel emtiness" my friend looked puzzled and told me "every time i saw you. you greeted other people with smile you look normal to me" that what he said. and yes i acted like normal in everyday life but i'm it's feel like i'm not alive. movies don't entertain me anymore. games don't make me feel fun or exited anymore. did i go to see the docter. yes i did. docter give me both SSRI(lexapro) SNRI(venlafaxine).but because of my idotic i didn't take any meds except sleeping pills because somehow i start to feel just a little bit of joyness. so i think i'm fine without any meds. but i have big arguement with my best friend and i'm really sad and start to feel numb again. and i'm started taking med despite knowing that it might take atleast four weeks for medicine to kick in.what a fool. i just want to share my story and ask some question. can my meds make me feel alive again.i just want to go back the day that i laugh with joyness.