I had a very mild but long lasting depression. I thought my only worth are my organs and that i cant be good for anyone. when something good happens first thing i ask is when will it get back to "normal". back to sadness. 

few months ago i reconnected with a friend. we spend more and more time together and she really likes me now. which is baffling coz i convinced myself noone can ever love me. 

i want everything to be happy now but i cant get rid of my dark thoughts. any help welcomed.