honestly if i look at our relationship objectively, we are not good for eachother at all and i’ve seen this coming for awhile (we’re long distance, 7h time difference, been dating for a year and a half), but i know how i am. 

i. cant. be. alone.

as soon as i’m alone i panic and run right back. i always do. despite knowing something is hurting me or unhealthy for me i sacrifice my well being to feel wanted and loved. my head races with thoughts of how dreadful life will be without that person and they don’t leave until i’ve resolved the conflict and have some sense of security again.

i’m scared bc i know how i am and i’m scared to be alone. or rather scared that i can’t be alone. 

any advice?