Hi guys, I was wondering if any of you have the same problem cause I think it's definitely a BPD thing.
I'm F21 and normally I have my sh*t together quite well, like my emotional control isn't too bad, I have an "organized life" (like a job, flat, friends etc).

But the ONLY thing that I really enjoy is obsessing over guys and I really don't know how to stop it. I only enjoy activities if there might be any hot guys to look at, whether it's going to a party, walking through the park or watching a tv show.
I mean I can still watch a show or hangout with my friends without any guys involved but then I always feel like there's something missing.
If I currently don't have any romantic love interest - and that can be anyone really, whether it's like some guy I'm actually dating or some random guy who works in a shop or even some tv show character - I feel super bored and I'm obsessively searching for someone new to have a crush on. It's like I can't NOT have a crush.

You might advice me to get a hobby or something but I've never stuck with something for longer cause anytime I picked up a hobby it was just to impress/feel connected to my current obsession-guy and after my obsession shifts so does the hobby (and my style of clothing, taste in music and everything else tbh). It's like I'm always trying to be like the potential dream girlfriend of the current guy crush and afterwards I'm like wtf, what was I thinking.

I even struggle with my choice for a uni course cause it seems so irrelevant knowing that it doesn't have anything to do with romantic love but just with my own life. I feel like if I'm not in love my life is super boring.

Does anyone have a similar thing and HOW did you get rid of it? I've been like that since I was like 13 and it's just getting annoying and I don't wanna blow up my life for some guy all the time - heeelp