I recently started a new medication, and feel very uneasy about my emotion stabilization on it. My doctor goes between two main diagnoses for me - schizophrenia with depression OR bipolar II. The medication is approved to treat both disorders. 

I just have been so use to feeling horrible that this feeling of being devoid of strong emotions is quite scary. I can’t even make myself feel bad, I’ve tried to think about horrible tragedies in my life and I can’t stir up any negative emotions. On the other hand, I can feel some happiness but it’s much more “dull” than it was before. Like if before my happiest felt like a “10” it now feels like a “2.” The only emotion I feel I can “summon” is irritation. I’m irritated I can’t feel emotions strongly and I’m becoming more irritated/short with people or situations in my life. 

Part of me feels like I am uneasy about this emotional stabilization because I’m afraid the bad emotions will come back with vengeance. Only time will tell. I guess in the grand scheme of things that this is better than being on suicide watch for my depression, but it’s still such an uneasy feeling. 

Has anyone else experienced this? Is there a term for it?