Hi, I’m only 19 and have struggled with depression for about 6 months more or less. It really came in August when I had to be hospitalized, put on medication, take a semester off of school, go to partial hospital programs, etc. Anyway, like many, some days are good and some are bad… Since I tried to OD on my antidepressants twice my psychiatrist doesn’t want to prescribe me anymore medication. I won’t do it again…🫣 (and honestly don’t really like taking any type of medication in the first place), but since I stopped taking medication, my lows are really low despite trying to “do more” and “be happy”. Idk, he’ll probably still disagree to put me on medication, but my therapist thinks I need both lifestyle changes and medication to really really see improvement but idk. With every 1 good day I have, it’s filled by 3 sad days and the only thing keeping me alive rn is my cat and bf and Ik I’m being too clingy for both of them…soo idk what to do…