Hi guys. It’s taking a bit out of me to write this… but I thought I might find people who relate to me or have advice on here… so here goes

I’m 24. I think I’m a pretty nice person, easy to get along with, etc. On the surface level only though. Inside I’m pretty empty, have no hobbies, no passions or aspirations about the future. The only goal I can say I have is "to be happy". Not sure what the hell that even means.

I only have two friends: my ex roommate who moved about 3 weeks ago, big introvert who does not go out/does not like calling on the phone (which I can understand) and a friend I met on a community from the internet that I see like, once each 2 months. That’s all. Since my roommate moved, i’ve been living alone in my apartment and I’m faced with how empty my life is and how lonely I am. Seems like I’m bad at keeping friends, probably because I never think of "catching up": i do take news from old friends, but I have nothing to say back. I don’t do anything in particular. Everyday is work, home watch TV and do nothing, sleep. Every day. Sometimes, I do see my girlfriend. But I can’t put all my needs on her. She’s a more independent person than me… So I can’t depend on her to fix my loneliness, although it does help to actually hang out with a human being sometimes in my week, LMAO. I think my feeling of loneliness comes from the fact I just think deep down, I’m super uninteresting, so no one would ever think I’m an "awsome" friend. I am very friendly on the surface level, but zero depth. 

I’ve always struggled with depression, so i seem to always go back to this feeling, and isolate myself out of habit. How do I break through the endless circle of loneliness if you know no one and is bad at finding actual friends who can hang? Or I’d like to hear your story too if you’re struggling. It helps to know you’re not the only one feeling like this