Hi guys!

So first I'd like to start by saying I've never been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder but I had some major anxiety issues when I was much younger.

I grew up to be pretty chill. It takes a LOT to make me the slightest bit worried but recently I've been having those "panic attacks" at night.

Basically I lie down and after a while I feel like I just cannot for the life of me take a full breath. It feels like my throat is closing up (it's not) and I just start hyperventilating. Just like that, at 3 in the fucking morning.

I do know where its coming from, or at least what's aggravating it. I seem to have rheumatoid arthritis (haven't gotten an official diagnosis but it's highly likely) and basically ever since I've learned that the cartilage in your joints and the one making up your airways are the same and thus can both be affected by the immune response, everytime my nose is clogged I have the worst possible response.

I don't know what I really want from this post I guess I just needed to share it cuz I don't like to talk about things like that with my family or friends and I think it'd feel good to talk to people who get it yknow. 

I did find that working out during the panic attack helps a lot cuz it forces my lungs to take full, deep breaths ; so don't worry about that. I just wish I could make it stop. I'm not used to being anxious like that and it's exhausting me (especially since they tend to happen late at night lol) and I don't really know how to handle them or if I should focus on making them go away or just go along with it

Anwyays thanks for reading all this guys have a great day or night