Howdy gamers. Haven’t posted on here but for some reason I’m feeling compelled. Just been rough lately, I’m not sure where to start. Been feeling bitter and cynical lately. 

I’m in between PCPs right now. I’m at college so my family doc is out of reach, and the one that I’ve seen in my college town prescribed me what turned out to be the Nightmare Drug From Hell (Effexor), which I took one dose of and decided that it wasn’t for me. 

I’m starting to think new meds aren’t the answer for me. I don’t want to deal with side effects at all. That’s why I’m tolerating lamictal, because it’s so mild. I’m not looking for a trade-off here. I’m on 100mg lamictal currently and it’s helping I GUESS but it’s still hard to do more than the bare minimum. I avoid social events because my anxiety has gotten so bad. I’ve kind of lost touch with all of my friends and I feel very alone currently. That’s probably why I’m here, just run out of people to complain to. 

I keep telling myself that it’s just a prolonged depressive state, and it won’t last forever, but I seriously don’t remember the last time I was happy with my surroundings. But it’ll get better ya dig