As I've dealt with depression for longer and longer, I've found that it dulls my emotions. I generally don't feel anything most of the time but what truly concerns me is that I don't feel anything for the people around me, except for in relatively extreme situations and I often feel like a sociopath because of it. Negative emotions are the only thing I can feel strongly enough, often enough to remember that I'm human and am capable of feeling emotions at all. I know it's counterproductive to wallow in negativity but at this point, it's all I have