Ok so I’ll try to keep this short and concise. 

Since I was a child I’ve had these episodes where I get trapped in my head/imagination and It’s like I go to a different place but I don’t hallucination or see things but it’s like I’m in a different place and I talk to myself. I get lost for a minute. This has been going on since I was a child I don’t know how much people realize I do this. 

Another thing that happens is that I have these personality changes. It’s like I’m still me at the core but I become a different person. It’s like a different person takes over me or something and my personality shifts. These shifts usually last for hours or sometimes days but it’s strange, hard to explain.

In between these times I feel numb, depressed or anxious. Is there something wrong with me? There’s more I could get into but I wanna keep it short. It’s crazy because I go from being super depressed and suicidal to be hyped up and on the top of the world. It switches on and off and I can’t control it.

another thing I should add is that there are these voices I hear in my head, they sound like my own. I believe I’ve been hearing them since I was young but my memory is bad. The voices are like “go hear”, “talk to this person”, etc. I’m 21 now but apparently at 16 the Christian rehab center I went to (I was there because I was suicidal) said I had hallucinations but I don’t recall seeing things although I did hear audible voices at one point but it only happened a couple times. 

I also took 10mg of lexapro for 6 years, if that means anything