Hello everyone. Im really having a hard time coping and trying to find ways to deal with my diagnosis. To make a long story short I haven't been taking my meds for the last year. The only reason is because I absolutely hate the way they make me feel. And I've been using drugs and alcohol to help numb my delusions and mood swings. It just doesn't help in the least bit though. After being in and out of mental institutions every couple of months for the last four years. In which I've lost jobs over... I've honestly finally landed a decent well paying job and I do not want to lose it. I really would like to hear of some coping mechanisms/advice that have worked for others that I can apply to my own life.