God there no good way to put this but I'm the worst of my family, I'm failing school, I do hard-core drugs and drink, I'm a toxic piece of shit who manipulates anyone close to me. I'm a pathological lier, just to make people think I'm more deeper than I actually am. I put this facade that I'm a great person who willing to help anyone but in reality I just do it make me feel Important. God there's nothing that actually brings me happiness, I try and try but at the end of the day I'm just worst product my family has ever produced.