I've lurked and posted on the subreddit for that but I was wondering if anyone with BPD experienced one as well? I feel as though I could use people in the same boat as me to chat about stuff I can't otherwise talk about. 

If you look at my post history you'll see I was being emotionally abusive to my spouse. It's been a couple weeks now and I'm doing a lot better with everything. I started lashing out because I didn't know how to handle the DB. 

I preferably want sex 3x a week. If more that's great too! We've had sex once in the last 4 months. And before that it was averaging once a month. We did have a couple weeks where things were better but that didn't last. 

My spouse has a history of sexual abuse, as do I, and it affected them and has made them sex repulsed. It was hard for me to grapple with that because my trauma made me hypersexual. I personally don't think I'm hypersexual but that's what people have told me so I'll go with it. 

They've told me it's okay to go get those needs met elsewhere. It feels really weird to me though. I want to have a sexual relationship with the person I married but I've got to get my mind around the fact that it won't happen.

I just really needed to get this out.