obviously i know that he has his own life but seeing him doing things that don’t involve me or without me just makes me feel so sad. ik he cares about me more than anything, i never doubt that. i just feel left out and that we’re growing apart because we don’t share those things. it makes me worried he’s gonna find other people, like someone better than me. when we’re out together, as crazy as it sounds, i feel safe because i can observe everything he does. ik he won’t do anything behind my back but being able to check is comforting, and without that i get really paranoid. it’s really hard to not do everything together, but ik that only doing things together is unhealthy. i think it scares me because i have nothing to do by myself because i’ve centered my whole life around him. it’s just scary and idk what to do to feel better and less crazy because i’ve really been struggling with this.  im traveling really soon and i won’t even get to spend time with him anymore, so both of our lives will just be us doing things without each other and the thought kills me. idk what to do.