I do take medicine for ocd but never actually found out if this specefic thought process was ocd.

Years ago I would be writing a book and some loud sound would happen and I just stopped instantly what I was doing. Because of that loud sound what I was doing was ruined and I can't continue or else it will end up horrible. This would continue for months before I could muster enough strength to start again.

Now it's the same thing but adapted to other things that I have even some interest in? Away from a game 5 minutes without my choice? I'm going to keep dying and suck. Something distracts me? My luck is horrid because so. Some one put me into a bad mood? I can't continue this creative thing I was doing for days or even weeks.