I wake up every day that I have to work multiple times in the night and have a hard time getting back to sleep because I can't stop thinking about work the next morning. I will wake up two hours before my alarm and not be able to fall back asleep, or even just lay there and relax. I will have to get up. Then, I walk around getting ready for work on the verge of a panic attack almost every morning. I get chest pains, I have trouble breathing, I cry sometimes. I had to call out the other morning because it was so bad that I couldn't stop crying.

When I actually get to work, the anxiety stays for a little while, but it will usually gradually go away as I get into the groove of working. But then all day, all I can do is watch the clock and say "only 5 more hour, only 3 more hours" until my day ends. And when I get home, and I have to do basic things around the house, I feel so angry and stressed and drained that it's hard to function. I have to fight the urge not to snap on my family. It's nothing they're doing, I'm just so high strung over work. 

I usually keep my cool at work pretty well, but the other day I actually freaked out on two particularly rude customers and then I just walked out of the store without warning. It felt horrible but also felt good to do that. I have thought about quitting a lot, especially because I do not make a lot compared to my work load. But it's hard getting a job right now, and I need to pay bills.

I feel like if I could get better quality of sleep at night without dreading work all night and waking up early, it would at least help my moods and anxiety. But the anxiety is what is preventing the sleep to begin with. Never ending cycle.