I'm not quite sure how to communicate my concerns, so I suppose I'll go back to the basics. I managed to make a friend for the first time in years. This is great, I now feel like I'm able to support, entertain, and challenge another human being. It's something I've always wanted to do, and it's something I never thought I'd be able to achieve. However, as it stands, I'm taking anything I'm able to get my hands on as a sign that I will be abandoned. Very small, insignificant things. Things I can easily reason myself out of, which I try to do, but there seems to be a large disconnect between my thoughts and my emotions. For the most part, no matter what I think, I feel like I'm just generally being driven by my emotions. I've asked for reassurance from this person a couple of times, which they provided, but I don't want to be a burden on them by asking as much as I would like.

I'm not quite sure what to do here, honestly. I'm able to fight, but not constantly.