I just feel like I'm full of all the problems that anyone can go through but the worst of them is the physical pain. Everyday I go to sleep with migraines and stomach aches that makes me want to just die and the feeling when waking up is just worse. I cant do many of the normal activities because of my health. I've went to doctors so many times but they also give me medicine that doesnt really help. Also I keep thinking how my body and face looks like shit so my body dysmorphia isnt helping with my mental state. The thing is I was never born like this is all result of my bad habits that slowly got worse over the years and i regret it every single day for not stopping while I had a chance. There is a lot to more to say but even typing this feels too tiring. I'm just thinking of suicide every single day and I cant imagine when it gets worse.