My ex was cheating the whole time we were together I knew he was and I’d ask him and ask him who she was and he make me feel like I was crazy biggest idiot and gaslit me the whole time. I feel like the biggest idiot I found out tonight through just stalking his Instagram and seeing the photos of them together and seeing her name. I feel like a complete idiot and I can’t help but crying I’m so alone when will I ever meet my soulmate and my love of my life feel like breaking up with my beautiful ex three years ago was the biggest mistake of my life even though I fell out of love with him I feel so alone and I don’t know what to do all I do is keep attracting these toxic unavailable casual men.