I'm diagnosed with BPD for years but my doctor's have apparently failed to go over it properly and how it affects friendships. I went like 4 years without bothering to have any friends just to make some online a few months ago just to find out about how BPD affects friendships and the favorite person thing. I keep reading articles and everything I read is like it's very hard to be friends with someone with BPD and the friends will need like resources and support to deal with me. like I've only had them a few months i don't want to make anyone's life's worse! I deleted my social media that I talk to them on. I think they'll be better off without me.they are wonderful people like they don't deserve to have to put up with my issues. like I didn't realize my neediness was so bad and I thought I loved people a normal amount apparently not , I love too much. I miss my FP horribly already.  I can't wait for my therapy appointment. these issues have been neglected for years. I'm not bothering to make friends again.  I still have my husband and sister to talk to. on mobile sorry for any mistakes also