I have one true friend who is practically the only reason I enjoy life and she doesn't want to be friends with me. She never messages me, it's always me who messages her. We see each other practically every day and yet if I don't initiate conversation we won't talk. She goes out with, messages and talks to her other friends all the times and yet if I try to meet up then she always has work to do or something. Every time she talks about going out with other people it's like it physically hurts.

I fluctuate between thinking she's the best person in the world when I'm with her and hating her and myself when we don't talk.