It's tough to deal with automatic negative thoughts, I know. I understand. My downs are so bad sometimes that I-- or rather these thoughts make me believe I should not exist because I can't bear living like this.

But I try to hold on to any hope, any motivation I have. A friend who understands my mental struggles. An activity that keeps my mind from spiraling down. A house chore where I clearly see the positive change after I've done it. A meditation that helps me relax. Family members who make me smile. A relief technique or method I haven't tried yet. A sudden rush of motivation or strength.

As I corrected myself above, it's not true that I or you should not exist. 80% of our daily thoughts are negative ones - don't make the mistake of paying attention to and believing every single one of them. I know it's extremely hard to do so sometimes, it is for me too. But try to enjoy and appreciate even the smallest victories and achievements so you can slowly build a strong foundation from those. Whether these thoughts are related to anxiety or depression (or something else), we'll be able to overcome them one step at a time. ❤️