NOTE: I will see a therapist very soon. I simply want peoples thoughts. I of course will take the therapists word over internet answers, I just want thoughts


So, let’s begin.

I do feel depressed when it comes to school and such. Often telling myself I’m dumb, a failure, etc. I do often hate myself and get upset with myself.

However a few things cause me to doubt it:

1. I’m not always depressed. I can be happy, like just playing videogames or looking at memes or such.
2. I can be motivated to get out of bed and such sometimes, to do things like play video games.
3. Im always helpful and willing to help my family, especially grandparents. 

Therefore, I have doubts. As while I do sometimes feel depressed, I dunno. I’ll be upset and unmotivated for school, but don’t have an issue playing games and doing stuff that’s a waste of time.

AGAIN: I will be seeing a therapist quite soon, I just wanted some advice