I'm so obsessed with him to the point that I literally can't function anymore if he doesn't text me back. I'm constantly scared that he cheats on me and will leave me for another girl. my abandonment issues have never been so strong. I just can't stop thinking about him. It's like there is nothing else that matters to me. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't stop the urge to control him. It's ruining my life. I just want it to stop. I feel like I'm incomplete without him and that I need him to be there for me all the time without healthy boundaries or restrictions. I honestly thought about ending it all if he ever leaves me. I've never wanted that. But I feel like there is no one that could ever replace him and make me as happy as he does eventhough my insecurities and fear of getting too close is not allowing me to fully enjoy him. At the point I don't know what to do anymore I really need some advice! I've tried to distract myself but nothing interests me. nothing. he doesn't know anything about my obsession. He doesn't know I have bpd and struggle. He actually thinks I'm quite independent. Sometimes I don't text back on purpose for a while so he doesn't think I'm too clingy. But I always secretely check his profile. is someone in a similar situation as me ? I'm just so tired of feeling this way.