Hi. This is my first post and english is not my first language so please be kind.

So... I (F20) might have anxiety but I don't know. The thing is that I've been feeling this way for as long as I can remember but everyone always brushed it off saying that I'm just shy. But deep down I always knew that it wasn't just that.

Lately, with Univerity's work and exams it got really bad. In a month I'll have my first oral exam and I'm already starting to feel sick. It's gotten to the point where I'm thinking about dropping out (I don't want to but it's a constant  thought). And thinking that a few days before the exam I'll be even more of a mess makes me feel even worse. I just can't deal with that, I'm having trouble sleeping and I don't know what to do.

I want to go see a doctor because I can't do this anymore, but the problem is that I'm still economically dependent on my parents and they don't understand it at all! Where I live, mental health is still pretty much a taboo (especially in small towns) and no matter what I do I can't get them to help me or even understand my point of view. I tried many times in past years to talk with my mother about it but she always brushed it off with a joke untill I broke down crying one night because I couldn't take it anymore for many reasons. After that night she took me to a herbalist shop (idk if the term is correct but it's the shop with all the natural remedies) because, and I quote, "all the psychologists are more troubled than the patients". So... nothing changed. I completely gave up until a year a go when I went to a chiropractor for my neck and back pains and he told me (without even me telling him anything) that I absolutely had to do something for my anxiety. I told my mom and she told me that we will figure it out. But it's been a year and again nothing changed. 

I feel hopeless. I considered doing it alone but public health care takes a lot of time (especially with covid), and I don't have the money to book an appointment with a doctor. And on top of that I'm not even sure how it works (I'm 20 but I don't feel like an adult, honestly).

I don't really know the point of this... I just wanted to get it off my chest I guess, since it's just me, myself and I (my friends know I'm very anxious but I've never told them the complete situation because I don't have a diagnosis and I always live in fear of having imagined everything).

I don't know... If anyone has a few tips on how to handle the situation, or just anything.