Today I was on public transport and a very violent fight happened directly next to me and there was blood everywhere. Although I acted calmly and I wasn't really phased by the blood, I just can't stop thinking about it even hours later.

I feel ill knowing it could have escalated even worse, say if someone was stabbed, its likely where I live. Its like I took a deep breath but I haven't fully exhaled, just feel traumatized. A few months ago I also witnessed a failed suicide attempt. Once again it didn't make me feel upset, just shocked, like everything's stood still.

All this stuff makes me never wanna go outside again or trust people. I don't want to see others hurt nor do I want to be a victim of such violence, the world is such a scary place, I don't know how to cope with it.