First, I apologize for my spelling/grammar errors. English isn't my native language. I'm also not very experienced Reddit user.

A long story short: I lost 2 loved ones for cancer this year. My grandfather passed away in May and my husband's grandmother passed away exactly a month later. This summer another family member got diagnosed with Alzheimer's, and 1.5 months ago my mom's doctor catched some "highly alerting cell changes just in time" in her cervix.

I've never been scared of death or cancer before. I used to be rational about these things - after all I'm just 29 years of and lead a pretty active/healthy lifestyle.

The fear I'm now experiencing is making it hard to enjoy the little things in life I used to enjoy. Lighting up a candle - potentially cancerous chemicals. Going outside on a sunny day - potential melanoma. Treating myself with sweets - diabetes alert! Chilling on the couch with hubby - but wait, is my chest hurting..?
The feeling I've back in my head weekly tells me something's not right. If I'm not experiencing any actual symptoms, my mind will play tricks on me until it's really hard to tell what's due to my imagination and what's real.

Since last April, I've been to 4 or 5 different doctors. Hearing them saying I'm perfectly fine calms down my nerves, but it doesn't take two weeks until my mind starts speculating. I've also seen a therapist for two months in June/August. I (nor my husband/family) have no financial means to see my therapist right now, though I think talking with her helped a bit.

I just need some advice how to control my anxiety/hypochondria.
The rational side of me understands my anxiety is likely connected to the unfortunate happenings in my life. But when the feelings hit me, they hit harder than I've ever experienced.