CW: mentions of SA

Can anyone else relate?

I went on a date the other night with a guy I met on bumble and I thought we really hit it off. Like I usually do, I ignored the red flags so he'd like me more and continued on with the night. We went back to his place and before things went all the way I got a little emotional and shut it down (yay SA trauma.)  I politely called it a night a while later. He ghosted me the next day and I absolutely lost my shit; I cried for half of the day and slept for the other half. I used some DBT techniques which made me feel better but I still feel awful, especially when I feel like the rejection was my fault for getting triggered. I wanted to do more only so this guy wouldn't leave me, but my trauma interfered. Not sure if that was a positive or not.

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I just feel like this (online dating) is a dangerous thing for me. No one takes rejection/ghosting well but for me it's one of the worst feelings in the world. I'm not sure if anyone can relate... I just feel fucking horrible right now.