I had a full blown manic episode several years ago that landed me in the hospital and was then put on psychiatric meds for the first time in my life. Doctors were uncertain about my diagnosis and settled on bipolar nos. I was in my middle 30s. Now I am TERRIFIED of it happening again. I’ve felt more up lately and noticing changes like getting an hour less sleep at night, mood improvement, feeling kind of racing thoughts, etc. No nothing really major or impairing my functioning too much but I am SO scared! Maybe this is more anxiety relating to how traumatized I was when the manic episode occurred those many years ago. I just don’t know how to live with this. I take Latuda and Klonopin (prn). I guess I just wanted to see if other people have such panic like I do about having another episode. It’s like I can never be happy again.