19 year old female, I have severe anxiety I’ve taken meds since I was 13 I’ve taken celexa, Zoloft, and now I’m taking Lexapro 15mg for my anxiety. At first it seemed to work… but then corona came around and my grandfather became terminally ill. Now it’s like I have no control over my anxiety every pain I get I think is cancer, or I’m dying, or my organs are blowing, or I have an infection. It’s crazy I think like this!! It’s just like I have a horrible fear of dying young since quite a few people around me died young. I could be just sitting in bed watching tv and I get a stabbing pain and I’ll get myself worked up and go on the internet and end up throwing up getting shaky and tingly or pacing the floor with a pounding heart every time. The doctor gave me 25 mg hydroxyzine to take on top of the lexapro for anxiety but I hate taking it because it makes me feel like a zombie! I also have my medical card but it’s hard to smoke when you are throwing up or have a empty stomach from Anxiety that will just make the high worse and I try not to rely on my medical marijuana constantly every day. Any tips for what to do about this anxiety? Can anyone relate? I’m trying to avoid having to go to a therapist as my anxiety gets the best of me their too.