idk y , but i feel soo dumb .whn i was 15 i was one of the smartest kid in the class , used to be topper in whole class now i feel like i am brain dead , cannot able to remember anything not even basic stuff in life , have lost all the confident in myself , all my friends gets full marks in exam without even studying and me on the other side got the least marks in the whole class , cannot memorise anything , addicted to porn , shags everyday ,cannot control , fell useless in life , dont have any one who would trust me , had a gf few yrs back left her due to family stuff and now she hates me the most , cant even cry becoz its all my fault . i have no idea whats going on with me . my whole life is fked up . upon that if i start anything new , i would concentrate for few min thn leave , my max conc time is 10 min , i have no idea what to do in life , i dont even deserve this life , pls help me if anyone could , i am turning crazy day by day . even tried physically harming myself . i am confused . HELP PLS !