I just need to vent. My fiancé decided to break up with me last week, it was an amicable split at first and everything was good even though I was devastated. When we were living together everything was great. We split everything 50/50 even though he earned way more than me he was the one who pushed for this arrangement. I would get paid two weeks before him so I would generally pay the bills including his car etc and he’d pay me back when his wages came through whilst also getting the groceries. When we broke up he hadn’t paid me my share of the bills, as I have two kids to think about I asked him when he’d be able to pay his share of the bills, even offered for him to only pay a 1/4 of regular bills (electric etc) and repay the money for the car payments etc. He said he would. However he hasn’t done this and has now blocked me on everything, I don’t get paid until next Thursday and have no food left, I haven’t eaten since Monday morning just to try and make the food last but I have no more food left, my kids are at school right now, I’ve tried everything to get some money and can’t get any from anyone. This has triggered my ptsd as I had previously been in a dv relationship where my ex would purposely withhold money from me and expect me to still pay bills get groceries etc. All those feelings I had back then are rushing back and I can’t bare it. I’ve gotten pretty good with my anxiety and rather than focus on the what if scenarios will just do something to fix the problem but I can’t fix this because I don’t have the things that I need in order to fix it. What’s worse is it’s messing with my med condition and now I’m having muscle spasms from the stress I’m feeling… I just want it all to stop!