Normally, I'm affected a lot by my bpd. Obsession towards friends (or lack thereof), idolizing my fp, etc. There are moments every few months, though, that I feel like a sort of snap out of it. I dont know if it's because I haven't been in contact with the people I express my symptoms towards, but it's jarring. In the moment, I may feel slight regret towards the oversharing and childish way I act, but during these periods of clear mindedness I feel extreme regret. Enough to make me want to split so I dont bother those people anymore. What do you all do when this feeling hits you?