Just a vent, I’ve already burdened my family with these thoughts and have to stop doing it to them so here I am. Anyway, I (22F) am just so done. I’m so lonely, lazy and pathetic that it physically hurts like hell. I have no friends and it breaks my heart to see people my age doing things with their group of friends and living normal lives where they can deal with hardships rather than being debilitated by them. I crave a relationship so badly but am too unattractive, fat and depressed to spark anyone’s interest. I’m stuck on a guy a met once all the way back in October and I feel disgusting and pathetic. I feel like no one will ever love me or choose me. I’m in medical school but am currently taking a semester off because my mental health was affecting my grades and the stress contributed to a failed attempt. I’m on the verge of tears at all times but can’t cry. There’s no point to this all, I’m just here to save my family and cat the grief. I don’t know what to do anymore or how to deal with this emptiness and pain. Sorry for the vent and whining