I don't like myself and I think that everyone around me hates me. 
It has always been like this and I thought that everyone thinks that their jeans are too blue, thier socks are too yellow or that that the old woman in front of you thinks that they are ugly and that's why she looks at them in such a way and that she probably hates them and tells her friends in the cafe near by that she just saw a dumba*s sitting in front of her at the train. I think that my  friends like me because they feel sorry for me and they actually hate me but they are just too afraid to say it. But I discovered that most people don't think like that. It blew my mind. I also don't like myself, I am too quirky, loud but at the same time silent, I'm so dumb and can't do anything right. When I was younger I cried almost every night, but these days I just lay in my bed, empty with an waterfall of toxic thoughts. I don't feel sadness that much anymore. 
But I don't have depression , it's not that serious. I just needed to get if of my chest, because I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone near me. 
(if anyone should ever read this, sorry for my bad English, English is not my first language)