My and my gf got into a severe spat the other night and it just kinda sent me off the deep end. I ended up having to fall back on to an old habit I thought I had moved past.. well after that night it just kinda feels like the floodgates have opened and now I'm just impulsively wanting to use it to cope. I talked to my gf about it and she was supportive when I told her I had cut. She was all you can talk to me, I'll always be here, don't hide this stuff from me. But I told her today that the feeling of wanting to cut is still around and very strong and she just immediately threatens to leave me if I cut again.. I just idk.. her saying that makes me wanna cut but I don't wanna lose her and I can't hide things from her... She is my FP and I can't lose her. I just don't know where else I can go to rant.. I tell her everything but this seems to be something I can't tell her and I have no one else. I just don't know anything right now..