I feel extremely alone in this world, almost like I’m not human. Maybe I’m a bit narcissistic, because I do believe I’m better or more attractive than most, but honestly I would tell myself anything to not be insecure. I’ve been addicted to sex, porn, for so long now. I can’t remember the last time I went a few days without sexual pleasure. It’s eating me up inside, it’s my only source of happiness. I’ve lost weight, I’ve missed homework assignments to have pointless sex or spend time with pointless people. I don’t respect myself, I think my problems are sad, and pathetic. I wish I could come back to the real world, get joy from life again. I owe it to my mother and my family, they suffer while I do. What is wrong with me, why can’t I wake up and feel the same excitement for life. This isn’t how it’s supposed to be. I’m waiting around for a girl to save me, but how can I save myself.