I’ve always been struggling with getting over my FP. However, now is so much worse.. I dated with this guy, my first boyfriend and true love, for 8 months. Then he broke up with me bc he didn’t love me anymore. It’s been 3 months since then and I just can’t forget about him, and I’m honestly trying really hard. Of course I suffered a lot when my previous FPs got out of my life but I was the one that cut them before they leave me.. 
I thought things were getting better in October but just found out he’s dating again, with the girl i’ve always freaked out about (because she is a pretty and interesting girl who’ve always shown feelings for him). I used to cry about it so much for him and he always said that he would never leave me for her. I’m feeling so empty. My hair is falling, I can’t study, can’t enjoy anything and my ED, which i was recovering from, just came back worse than ever (because she’s so skinny like a model and once my ex told me i wasn’t really his type). 

I don’t know. I’m so upset and sad. I just need some useful advices, from people who truly know how hard is to a BPD deal with breakups.