ive never like gotten a diagnosis from a doctor but i also don’t really know what’s normal bc everyone else in my house has depression or anxiety so please help! im not looking for like a diagnosis im just like confused  by myself. anyways so like sometimes im happy but sometimes a wave of sadness hits and i want to die. both can last a while. but also sometimes i feel like im just existing. and i get moderate anxiety when i shop and im pretty indecisive in general. im not really sure whats wrong with me. or if this is just normal ? i don’t really know what normal people are like in this regard. again please NO diagnosis i just want to know if this is normal