I'm so frustrated. I noticed that this has been a thing all my life. I WANT more female friends. I WANT more sisterhood in my life, but it seems so fucking difficult to achieve that. 


Okay, maybe I am into games and don't want to talk about fashion or beauty (not that women only talk about that stuff), but I feel like maybe I'm also too intense as a person and that scares most women away? It doesn't seem to scare men away much. In fact, if I open up to them, they have no trouble listening and trusting me enough to open up to me as well. Then sometimes they end up...liking me so maybe that's the problem there. I open up for the sake of opening up. They may open up to me because they want more than just friendship.


Anyway, this isn't about guys (sorry guys).


I want to know what I can do to be more approachable and able to keep conversations a lot more stable with women. I feel like I scare them all away with my intensity, or maybe I'm trying too hard to be friends with them? I do try to friend some new people I meet on facebook and then I message them, but it's not like I message them and spill all of my intense issues out. Not like that at all. Conversations just die out SO quickly!


Things I usually like to talk about: psychology-related things, select few games, relationships, sex, women issues (like body-related issues and feminism), food, art, traveling, future ideas, analyzing things, and whatever random shit that comes to mind.



My closest two friends are women, but they are both older than me, married, and too busy to spend time with anymore unfortunately. That is why I am struggling to search for more female companionship and have some sisterhood in my life. The lack of it makes me feel depressed and lonely. I still hang out with my guy friends from time to time, but it's just not the same or what I'm looking for. Why am I so awkward?!


I've even attempted to talk to fellow women from this subreddit. We'd talk, get to know each other on a formal level and then we'd openly talk about our problems. Then things would just die off and we'd stop contacting each other. It almost felt too forced or formal. 