I want to start this off by saying I am not in any danger of harming myself or others. 

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to end my life. To truly "experience" the end. For everything to be nothing. The only thing that really stops me is natural human instinct to keep myself alive. I know my family will be fine. My friends will be fine. It's nothing like that stopping me. Sometimes I'll park my vehicle at the bank of the river and think about what it would be like to slide my gear shift into neutral and just let it happen.