My anxiety causes me to overthink so much that I don't even feel normal, I don't even feel like I belong in this world with everyone else. Every time I am around someone or see someone, my first thought is "I bet they hate me" or "They're probably far better than me, I'll never compare to them, I should give up on life". Stuff like that is what I think around people even online people, I don't know what to do anymore. I've already thought about ending my life over these things because it's controlling me, I haven't ended my life yet though because I keep hoping it will get better. If I included everything I overthink, I'd be here for hours probably so I'm just gonna talk about me overthinking what people think about me. I've had people say I'm a good person, look good, you know compliments but even then, I still think people are judging me or hate me just because I exist. I even think my friends too which isn't good because they're all I got. I think my teachers hate me too, I'll tell them to have a good day and they'll be like you too in a monotone voice and for some reason I take that as them hating me and wanting me to just shut up. Recently my girlfriend cheated on me so at school I was too depressed to do my work so I skipped class and pretended to sleep in the bathroom so I couldn't get in trouble since it would be not getting enough sleep as an excuse. I get to the classroom after the teacher wakes me up and everyone starts talking about me about how I sleep all the time and now in the bathroom and they start saying how it's sad and the teacher joins in. I felt even worse, at that point I felt more like they hated me and were judging me. And the reason they said sleep all the time is because when I finish with work I sleep, I do this because I have no one to talk to. I wish they understood that. They probably are judging me and hating me for sleeping but if they would just talk to me and be my friend then I wouldn't sleep. I wouldn't be the stupid weird kid. Sorry now I'm just ranting but I'm glad I got it off my chest. Any advice on how to stop overthinking how people see me so I can be happy would be appreciated. Overthinking in general would be even more appreciated. Thanks.