I'm sad that I have BPD. I'm just so despairingly sad. I can see myself unstably losing my mind. I can see it. Almost like I was watching someone else react. I can see myself getting overly angry or overly upset or overly insecure. &amp; A lot of the time I can't make myself stop. Anti-depressants help, but not always. &amp; It makes me so upset to know I can never really be myself. That no one can know me like I can know them because the "real me" is so emotionally unstable it'd be too much for them. I feel so alone.