i’ve had really bad anxiety a lot of my life and have had an eating disorder (never been diagnosed but it’s been so long) for about 5 years now and i’ve been questioning what’s wrong with me for so long because i notice a lot of weird things with my personality so i was googling a lot of it and stuff normally came up for bipolar or bpd, my sister was diagnosed with bpd a while after i was researching it a lot to make myself feel less insane and everything started matching up and i’m pretty sure it’s similar common with siblings or sisters correct me if i’m wrong
but i’ve never been to therapy because i’ve been refused it as im really bad at telling my parents how i feel i just wanna know if i’m crazy or not because i see the symptoms of bpd and they match me almost perfectly and it’s really ruling my life at this point and i feel insane not knowing if it’s true or not but then i feel like i’m pretending to have these symptoms to myself to fit some kind of descriptor but why would i if it’s making life this hard