(Uh idk what flair I should use)

I kinda knew I had anxiety as a teenager. But I always thought shit like "well I shouldn't self-diagnose"

And then I found a piece of paper, in my dad's room, that said I had anxiety. No one told me lmao.

So like, I knew. But it's kind of like, I suspect I have ADHD, but I can't just *say* I have it unless I'm diagnosed. And if I do get diagnosed, I would probably just be like, "yeah, I knew"

Anyway. I don't really get anxiety attacks. Or maybe I just underestimate what an anxiety attack is, because I'm not really checking for symptoms in the moment. My anxiety is, for the most part, worrying all the goddamn time. About every little thing. Sometimes it's rational, most of the time it's not. Right now, it's kicking me in the ass.

I haven't talked to a therapist about my anxiety because, when I was diagnosed, all of the focus was on  depression. So I was diagnosed without even knowing, and I have no idea how to navigate it.

Meditation helps calm me down, but I forget to do it.