I'm ripping my hair out trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do to support myself long term 

I just want to learn to draw and have good experiences but I live in the US so I need a good job so I can get healthcare but fuck, I don't do well in school. I barely finished highschool, I'm not kidding. 

Please tell me I'm not the only one who is struggling with this. Literally no career path appeals to me and the idea of spending 40 hours of my week at some boring job I hate genuinely makes me want to kill myself.