I come from a very dysfunctional family but never realized it until just a few years back when i was like 22. Since then I’ve done research and watched videos on how growing up in a dysfunctional household can effect the brain during critical development stages. And honestly alot of it made sense. I honestly think im not that smart or at the very least not a complex thinker. Sure i graduated high school but literally by the skin of my teeth, looking back i think they just mercy passed me. I never could really pay attention in school and also I didn’t really care about school just cause i was more worried about my life at home.

Anyways fast forward to real time and i just turned 25 and i recently started making beats on my laptop. I’ve been a music lover my whole life, from rap music to metal, EDM, classic rock, reggae, etc... I really want to try rapping but i don’t really have a large vocabulary. I never read alot of books or poetry growing up. Also i never had an interesting life, i sheltered myself in my room most of my upbringing so its not like i have crazy stories to rap about. I have maybe a handful. 

Not sure where im going with all this honestly just needed to vent