I(17f) have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 10. I’ve never been able to stick to goals and there aren’t many things that I’m honestly good at. When I was 13, I made it a goal to try and keep a 4.0 GPA all throughout middle school and high school. I didn’t think I would be able to do it, but I’ve done it consistently for four years now. It’s fucking hard, but I have been so proud of myself for doing it and I haven’t felt proud of myself in a long fucking time. This year has been harder, but as of today I have all A’s except for one A-. And that’s awesome, I’m happy about that. But my teacher for that class has made things so difficult for no reason. I have A’s on all of the assignments, all A’s and A-‘s on all the quizzes, but I got a B- on the test so it lowered my grade. Test was a pain in the ass, I don’t do well with models and the format he had it in. I’ve worked really hard in that class, I’ve done all the extra credit and everything. But nothing has made a difference, all I need is 2%. I know it’s really fucking stupid, but it’s the one thing I’ve been able to keep myself to and it’s so incredibly frustrating and I’ve worked so hard just to have it taken away. My grades are still great, I’m doing really well. But I can’t help but feel so angry and disappointed because I only have one more year to go and I feel like 5 years worth of work was just flushed down the drain.