So earlier this year my friend group started becoming kinda of weird and not like it was before which wasn’t ideal but was okay. Then my girlfriend dumped me (for various reasons, I was shit for the last two months of the relationship but I tried to just deal with it for her sake, but I was too much of a burden and it impacted her to the point where she dumped me) which really impacted me, to the point where I would just sit by myself with my headphones in and stare off into space instead of talking to anyone (for a few weeks or something, idk) and that I started going to therapy (which Nothing in ~3 years of mental health issues has made me do)

Then my friend group situation got even worse, I ended up in a couple groups but not really being a part of them, not enough to get invited to anything. And I still had some individual friends but it just felt like I was losing everyone.

During all of this I had one friend who I was relatively seperate from all that, she was my fp and I heavily relied on her, she was basically the only person I would talk to about serious issues and I would go to her first if I had to tell anyone anything.
But then she went to a psych ward and started talking to me less, I’m not that great at picking up signals but I asked her and tried to figure it all out (her friends stopped talking to me as well) so I tried to give her space. But I asked again today more directly and sure enough she hadn’t been clear and I had to push the truth because I was basically too much to deal with and she can’t be that close to me anymore (although we can still be somewhat friends… even tho that never goes well)

And to top it all off a few weeks ago one of my friends suddenly died, so I’ve been to the funeral and everything. And my grandpa went to hospital the other day and looks like he’s going to die.

I also started taking antidepressants which are making my memory super bad so that’s scary.

I feel like I have no one left. How do I stop everyone from leaving? How do I stop being so much work for everyone around me? What do I do when my “overthinking” actually is right? Or any other advice, idk.