The past few years have been a severe roller coaster. I can't tell what's real and whats not real anymore. I've had episodes before but at that point I had friends and I lived in the city. But everyone kept getting scared or angry w me when I became manic. They left. Obviously I have some friends i can send memes to and I do have a boyfriend but he's not equipped to handle this alone. Anyway we moved into a new house in the woods and my paranoia insomnia and racing thoughts keep progressing. Im afraid of everyone and I feel like I'm about to lose everything. One minute I'm dancing to pop music I loved as a kid and getting chills the next I'm staring out the window crying. It won't stop. How do I make it stop? :(