I suffer a lot from self-hatred and the problems associated with it, one being poor self-care. I shower and brush my teeth regularly, but I struggle with keeping an exercise routine and excessive alcohol consumption. Essentially, I see no reason to improve my weight because I have the perception that I'm garbage, despite being told otherwise and disliking my body as it currently is. I don't know how to take the first step towards self-improvement when I don't see in myself what others apparently can. I feel like if I can get an idea of how to start the process, I can eventually pull myself up. Problem is, I've never stuck with any self-improvement goals in the past because the nihilism quickly sets in. Any ideas as to how to overcome the self-loathing?