I (22F) have been talking to this guy (35M) for almost a month now. I know it doesn't seem like a long time but before we even officially met and I saw him I knew I was going to fall hard for him. I had the biggest crush (bigger than with my ex I dated for 3 years). Last weekend I went to visit him in another state and I stayed at his place and when I tell you I had the best weekend of my life I am really not exaggerating. I cry because I wish it didn't end. The entire weekend we were attached to each other and looked like the cutest couple (we aren't dating though). It was the first time for as long as I can remeber, that I wasn't Insecure. The entire time I was there I felt so relaxed and happy around him. I felt like I was myself and wasn't afraid of it. I told him about my BPD and we talked about mental health and philosophy and all kinds of amazing topics and he actually listened. He wasn't just hearing me but actually Intrested in what I had to say and made me feel important. He would tell me that he really liked me and even said before I left that he really LOVED the time we spent together. 

But for some reason there is this voice in my head that is saying "you're missing all the signs, don't fall in love with him because he doesn't like you that much, you're going to get rejected!!". The annoying part about it is that he has never said anything to make me think he doesn't like me. We even talked about having a serious relationship and he said" he wasn't opposed to the idea" we are already making plans to see each other again in March.

I know it was a long explanation but I really would like to hear from some people, do you ever convince yourself that someone you like doesn't like you back. No matter how many times they say they really like you and everything they do shows they in fact do like you, there is like this fear that I'm reading all the signs wrong.

I feel like the only reason I really think this way despite him saying to my face that he likes me, is the fact that he sometimes takes over an hour to reply to my texts.