Días como hoy me preguntó a mi mismo si en verdad e sido yo tan mala persona para merecer las cosas que me han sucedido en esta vida nunca le e visto la cara a la buena suerte 

Days like today I ask myself if I’ve really been that piece of shit of a person to deserve all the bad things that have happened and continue to happen to me to today, I’ve never seen good luck… feels like the world is falling over me. I’m looking for prayers or guidance to help me look for the good in what is left of my life. Playing off my depression with humor seeming like I have everything under control isn’t working anymore, I’m dying on the inside physically &amp; mentally, I won’t give up on the faith I have I God just feels like someone isn’t letting him into my head and heart.