What I mean by this is that recently I haven't done much due to lack of motivation, but so many people think it's helpful to give me long lists of things to do and ways to improve myself. 
I sometimes can't even be bothered to get out of bed, so when people tell me all the things I need to do to feel better, it seems impossible. It makes me feel worse because I know how much more I need to be doing with my life, I just can't be bothered. It makes death seem like the easy option.