I almost jumped last weekend. Two years ago I lost my closest grandparent. This year I’ve lost my dad after a month in a half on the ventilator. They were all I had in this world. No job anymore, no friends, alone my entire life. Can’t drive. Depression, long-standing ptsd, anxiety and autism. Unjustly put in jail by my own family this year and kicked out. Been in 8 places in two months. Almost broke and homeless. Inpatient in the hospital a month ago. I’m determined this time. What do I reach out for? Nothing.