I suffered with anxiety all through my early teens. Tried different meds and nothing really worked. Then suddenly it kind of went away. For almost 10years. Now recently I’ve been having recent flare ups that have gotten to full blown panic attacks. Started with my wife having two miscarriages in one year. Then I lost my job of 6 years during the start of the pandemic. Had to move and got a new job. Fast forward a bit and I’m driving home from work and I’m caught in a wildfire with my only route home blocked, had no idea what to do, after three hours (my usual commute is 30min) and having a full panic attack I make it home. Forward a bit more and my grandfather calls me for a visit and upon arriving I find him in his chair suffering a heart attack. He passed. Had a panic attack all the way back home. Two weeks after that my Father-in-law passes away from Covid complications. Never got to visit or see him while he was in the hospital. My anxiety has been at an all time high and I can’t shake this sense of being trapped and have been overwhelmed by all the death and loses. On the days my anxiety is “okay” I’m in constant pain and have no motivation to do anything. I’m sorta at a loss of what to do or how to manage. I’m sure that this last year is weighing on my brain meats and I’m just processing it all but I’m just stuck in my loud head and my anxiety is to the point I can’t leave the house without the fear of a panic attack around the corner. I’m sure this year has been hard on a lot of people and maybe I’m just clearing my thoughts writing this.. thanks for reading.