how many times do i have to tell her that leaving me on read is a trigger? yet still she leaves me on read. all i asked is for at least some sort of heads up like "i gotta go" or "ttyl". but no. is it that hard to just give me a heads up? i feel like ive told her a hundred times that leaving me on read will trigger me into a spiral of paranoid thoughts  
"she doesnt want to talk to me ever again"  
"shes invested her time into a different guy"  
"she doesn't give a fuck enough to talk to me because I'm not important"  
How can I communicate that this is a serious problem? I've told her before but it obviously isn't getting through