So I'm in a crisis phase of feeling hopeless unable too be helped frustrated and alone. I have been drinking a lot to deal but the lack of sleep and trying too hold down a full time job keep up the lie that I'm okay .  I'm just at breaking point but I'm always in a n e I'm sick of bothering the nhs. I don't know what too do. I don't want too bother anyone but fuck do I hurt right now. Sorry I guess I'm taking up your feed with venting