My mum is an amazing woman. She’s endured so much with me for the past 6 odd years, and she still tries really hard every single day to make sure that my recovery is going well.

She wasn’t always like this, though. She had no idea about any kind of mental illnesses. She used to get really angry at me for messing up, without understanding what borderline is. I’ve attempted suicide a couple times. The first time she was furious. The last time, which was a couple weeks ago, she was just so concerned and loving and caring. Complete 180. 

Anyway, before she became more understanding, I’d split on her constantly. I talked shit about her to my boyfriend all the time, how she’s annoying, doesn’t understand, stupid etc. 

I’ve only recently come to realise how my boyfriend gets pretty irrationally annoyed at her. When I was taken to hospital after my latest attempt, he was there with me. My mum couldn’t come, so the two of them spoke on the phone a lot while I was out of it. 

She told him to “make sure she gets help and goes back to the mental health hospital. Make sure they take her there.” Afterwards, boyfriend bitched about it: “she was telling me to make sure you go there where you were laying in A&amp;E almost fucking dying. She’s so fucking stupid, the priority was your PHYSICAL health, why the fuck was she going on about the mental health hospital?!” 

Now, I love this guy. We’ve been together for years. If he annoys me, I like to tell him before it escalates. So I told him that if he wants to moan about my Mum, then to please be less aggressive about it. It makes me uncomfortable when he bitches about her. 

His response: “Okay. But you do it too lol”

YES BECAUSE SHES MY MUM AND I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SPLITTING AND MOST IMPORTANTLY SHES MY MUM

Gah 
