I’ve been in a depressive episode for almost 4 years now. I used to be a very bubbly, energetic, happy, emotional, and empathic person. Through this 3 year journey of depression I’ve had my ups and downs when it comes to my emotions and empathy, for example some periods I was very emotional and empathic. But recently, my emotions and empathy are little to nothing. I haven’t cried in god knows how long, and I find it hard to feel any empathy. I’ve experienced somethings lately that would make a normal person sad and empathic. I feel none of that, and that terrifies me. I feel like I’m turning into a disgusting monster.