Anyone else seem to have a “smorgasbord” of diagnoses that are all over the place? Sometimes of extreme contrast? Personally, I (31/f)have (all diagnosed) GAD, BPD, MDD, ADHD, trichotillomania, OCD, drug addiction, cycle between anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, and (undiagnosed but I suspect) perhaps autism to some milder degree. 

I rapid-cycle between despising myself and verbally demeaning myself, to defensively being like “no fuck that, you’re freaking awesome, they’re the ones that ain’t shit” almost in an egotistical way that would appall me to witness in someone else as a trait. 

I’ve always been the odd one, the outcasted-loser-nobody, and it seems to be recurring that random people extremely dislike me and hate me, for reasons that are rather unwarranted and unprovoked, both in my opinion and that of people who are close to me&amp;?know me best. People who I’ve never been mean to or done wrong or been anything other than kind and honest, if not a pushover, all seem to hate me, alienate me, hone in on me as their targe.

I  have extremely low self esteem, social anxiety, awkwardness, introversion, I’m quiet and unsure of myself (but sure of with a conviction the things I know, believe and am sure of), passionate, eccentric, kinda book smart, &amp;artsy, with an extremely caring and empathetic heart for everything and everyone- hate to see anything hurt or suffer, and when someone/something does hurt, I feel that shit in my soul as if it was my own personal anguish.

I don’t know, but all of this just seems really unequated to what I know and see the majority of people I’ve encountered in my life. Any insight would be awesome; I do know I do feel lighter already, having typed up a cohesive and sensible description of the chaos of my daily, that actually contrastingly feels rather incomplete and incomprehensible, nonsensical, etc.    

Anyway I literally just found this subreddit while simultaneously having one the worser of my bpd days, so I apologize if something too similar has already been posted.