I’ve thought I had diabetes for years now. I dont. I’ve had anxiety while eating for years now for nothing. Fuck health anxiety.

Like ever since I found out you could develop diabetes like 10 years ago I had been worried about getting it. I havent had a great diet my whole life but never been crazy overweight or anything. I even got tested thinking I had it like 3 years ago and doctor said I didn’t but they only pricked my finger and checked my sugar at that time and never trusted it.

I ate real bad during first year and a half of pandemic. Lots of whole pizzas, bags of chips, fast food, ice cream, etc. gained 100 lbs. I’ve dropped it since but that made me worry too.

Whenever I have eaten for years now I feel off if I think about it. Like shaky. I try and avoid sugar and carbs and if I’m eating them I worry I will pass out from being diabetic. For years now. What really set me off is I was drinking alot and eating a lot of carbs and sugar for a wedding last week and had felt off for days after. Body shaky, fet like I needed sugar, sweet smelling pee (which I’ve had for years, always made me afraid of diabestes, apparently it can be from dehydration too doctor said).

I was at my breaking point and went to cvs last night. They did a current test and a test of my blood sugar for last 3 months somehow which she said was 80 for them which was good and 4.5 for last 3 months which was very healthy and normal she said.

Right after I got chipotle, and 2 high sugar brownies and felt completely fine eating for the first time in years. I did this to test myself and see if it’s truly just been anxiety, which it fucking was.

I also had a high carb meal with a donut this morning and felt fine again.

Obviously I’m greatful I’m healthy but so fuckin sick of this anxiety. I’ve also been convinced I’m photosensitive epileptic since having a panic attack in a strobe room in a haunted house 8 years ago, hopefully that’s fake and my anxiety too.