my boyfriend of over a year whom i’ve known for 6 years and is my best friend broke up with me today. we’re both sick and i understand that’s hard. i also live 5000 miles away currently but have already planned to go see him in a month for his birthday. he has some form of schizophrenic/psychotic episodes that haven’t gotten a firm diagnosis yet and he felt another episode coming on and i also felt the change, but i’ve always stayed. he said it was because he isn’t the partner i deserve and that he needs to get better and he can’t live with expectations right now and i know it probably isn’t permanent but im having a hard time seeing past this feeling that i’m having. im scared he’ll realize he doesn’t love me and that i’m a terrible partner. im so scared and i feel so alone.