I know it sounds corny or like i’m some dumb kid wanting attention but i’ve thought about it and it’s the only conclusion that comes naturally to me. Like sometimes i feel truly nothing but rage and for no reason either i am just suddenly enraged until i calm down, and i’ve bought myself a punching bag and i can cope most times but sometimes i really do want to see myself bleed. like physically bleed, sometimes i think “man i would kill for a crazy nosebleed right now.” I haven’t acted on any of these intrusive thoughts but today I was driving home from my second trip to the gym, i go twice just because it’s a healthy outlet, and i started to feel the same thoughts, a very loud voice in my head said something close to “crash the car wouldn’t you love to be paralyzed and go the physical therapy” pr something close now it wasn’t like i have demons or anything it was just simply a very loud thought in my head voice and i truly considered it to the point where i could feel the tired begin to slip on the edge of the road over the paint. I’m just wondering if i am stupid, crazy, or need to seek legitimate help for myself. I don’t think i’d end up hurting myself but i got quite close today and i’m sort of scared for me or my family, i say to myself i couldn’t do that to my mom but i think about it and truly don’t care. idk what’s wrong with me.