I fought for so long , I stayed strong for so long but im losing the Battle. I have reasons to live sure, but the torment never ends. The loneliness is enough to break a man. It’s like a switch turned in my brain to where it seems like the only way I’ll finally be at peace . I can’t kill my self though I can’t do that to my family, my son. But the will to stay strong is falling away from me at a alarming rate. I know what you’re going to say. Tell someone right? So I do , then what I get a therapist , put on meds , be emotionally numb ? Why can’t I just be normal . I need reasons. My son is the only thing keeping me strong and I know I shouldn’t be using him as a crutch which makes me feel even worse but fuck he’s the only thing that makes me smile . I feel like I’m getting to that point where eveything seems peaceful because I know the end is near. There’s still a little fight in me though lm hoping I can pull myself out of this