I (m27) been divorced from my wife(f29) for about three years. I got custody of the kids and have been raising my son and daughter by myself. I've been struggling with mental health but these past 6 months or so I've done really well despite all my ex wife's craziness with her meth abuse and constant drama. I've always loved her and it's been very hard dealing with my feelings for her but I finally got to a place where I feel I'm ok, I've been seeing a psychiatrist and am on medication and have been really looking out for my mental health to be a good example for my kids. But about three weeks ago she got out of a rehab/mental hospital and really wanted to work on the relationship.  I love her more than anything and she's the only person I've ever felt connected to. And she knows this. I let her come here and we've been sleeping together and she's been telling me how much she loves me and all that. Well, tonight I had a weird feeling and went through her phone. Turns out she's been sending ass shots to one of her "friends" for the past few days and who knows what else. Now I feel like I'm falling apart again, I just wanted to feel loved by the only women I've ever loved and idk how I'm going to handle this. I think my mental health is going to take a serious nose dive. Idk how I'm going to keep it together. I know this is pathetic but I'm lost and broken and Idk how to hold on at this point