hey! I don’t use reddit much so please forgive me if I’m not using this right. Anyway, i’m a 17 year old F who has been struggling with visual and auditory hallucinations from what people around are telling me. I feel like they’re all lying to me and that I might even be lying to myself. This all started around a year ago after I was very badly traumatised by my exboyfriend at the time and soon after tried to off myself. didn’t work obviously but here we are. After all of this happened I started experiencing flashbacks which are fairly normal after my situation so I pretty much suffered in silence. After a few months of these flashbacks I started to hear my boyfriend, only this time it sounded like he was next to me instead of in my head which really freaked me out a long with feeling him touching me again. It’s spiralled out of control over the past few months where it’s more than just my exboyfriend, i’ll see people looking through my window, cameras on my bedroom walls and people telling me i’m going to die. I’m not sure if this is the right subreddit for this but I do not have the resources to see a professional right now so this is my only anonymous chance of seeking some answers not that i’m looking for them. I feel like i’m being watched and i’m not safe anywhere. I haven’t even been able to sleep in my own bed or eat because people are telling me my food is poison. When i did eventually eat i looked in the mirror and i looked green and I felt and looked like I was dying. Anyway I won’t bore whoever reads this if anyone does i just need some advice. Thank you if you read all of this :).