So, like the title says, I was given an official diagnosis the last time I went to the psych ward. I have two concerns:

What makes this different from avpd? Are there a lot of shared symptoms? 

I feel like an abusive shithead and often like I don't have any real feelings (or too many) , even though my ridiculous outbursts make it clear that is not the case. I'm on a waiting list for DBT. What can I do in the meantime to help myself? I'm destroying the only good relationship I have in my life and really don't want to be, but I just can't control myself. 

Thanks in advance.