Every day that I exist, I feel more and more apathetic. I have two real friends. One is like a sister to me and I absolutely adore her, and the other is pretty much my brother, moreso than my own blood sibling. The rest of my friends don't care enough to check on me, even though they say they care. My own parents hardly ever ask about how I feel, or ask if I want to do something, it's always "you have to do this" or "you are doing this" and I feel like a slave in my own home. I also went through a breakup around 3 and a half, nearly 4 months ago, and I'm still hurt over the fact that my ex walked out on me, rather than staying to help with my anger issues, which had been getting better in the 6 and a half months we'd been together, and her last words to me were basically saying I needed help. Reddit, I ask you this, what the fuck do I do? Self harm isn't an option, too many risks of arousing suspicion and getting shouted at by my parents for doing it "when I have no reason to", and ending it all of completely off the table, so what else can I do?