So I made a lot of progress with my last therapist last year. Enough that myself and him felt I was healthy enough to make a move to a bigger city in a different  state to move to dbt therapy. Anyways, havnt done that yet looking now. 

I've been thinking, a lot of the progress I made seems more like me justifying my symptoms rather then making any real progress. I am ok with my sexual promiscuity/risky and impulsive behavior and other things. Because I defined myself as a existential nihilist and described it as who I am.

I'm kinda ok with that, however I'm starting to feel like I'm a bad person and well the things that made me feel good arnt good.