To be fair, for the past few months he was leading me on about reconciliation &amp; kept sleeping with me. We both have bpd &amp; adhd. I was in a total delusion doing EVERYTHING I could to get him back. Well, I found out some shady shit he did a couple weeks ago. Lost my anger &amp; started raging. I got the cops called on me a couple days ago &amp; they told me to not go to his house. Honestly can't believe this person that used to Hoover me &amp; fill me with so many I love you's &amp; everything I ever wanted now gives me the silent treatment &amp; acts like I don't exist. He blocked me everywhere &amp; we have a child together we use a third party to communicate with. Yes, I should have known better but he shouldn't have played with me.. he knew how much I loved him.. I can't believe it. I don't want to be psycho, I don't want to be crazy. Im also in school, work full time, &amp; in therapy. I started journaling so hopefully that helps. God damn dude...