I know the holidays should be “merry and bright” but it sucks I don’t feel the same. Decorating for Christmas was never a family thing. I feel like it’s only my sister and I who would actually try and decorate. My mom kind of just shrugs and whether we do or do not decorate, all she does is act like it doesn’t matter or it’s “whatever”.

I don’t really have much friends either. So no “Friendsgiving” or anything like that to happen.

When my manager asks me every week “how was your weekend”, i sometimes have to make something up to make it seem like my life is boring and depressing.