Two HTP 5, fish oil, and one melatonin later why am I awake at an ungodly hour at night?

I need to sleep better to do better work and get more done but I can’t bring myself to stay asleep.

I feel inadequate as a human being in every way right now but instead of doing more work I end up scrolling the internet for reasons to stay alive 

It’s like my mind doesn’t know how to keep my body alive.