i’m 17, recently my anxiety has been so bad i don’t even have any normal days anymore. 

i’ve had severe anxiety since i was 10, mostly it comes and goes from time to time but for about a month now it has just been absolutely terrible. i quit the 4 sports i played, forced my mom to let me do online school, and i have been through 3 jobs. i literally feel like a prisoner. i cant go any second without feeling absolutely insane. my throat feels tight all the time (not even when i am having a panic attack) and i think about every single swallow. i’m writing this at 11 AM. I haven’t gone to bed yet because i’m too scared i’ll die in my sleep &amp; even then i can’t fall asleep because my mind is racing. I started lexapro a few weeks ago but it only made it 10x worse. i’ve never been medicated before. sometimes i feel like i’m literally just gonna die and i have to stand up and start pacing around. i never leave my room, i’m so depressed i would really rather be dead. i’m not saying this for attention but this disorder has really ruined my life. maybe not my life but for sure my teenage years. i’m supposed to be so happy, but no, i’m locked inside my bedroom because i’m too scared to leave. my heart is going so fast every single second. i’ve been to the er twice in the last 2 weeks. Ugh

sometimes i’ll be in a good mood and out of nowhere i tell myself that my tongue is swelling up. it gets so bad that my face starts tingling and i start trembling in fear