As far as when I was young, I was going against the grain so
to speak. I did poorly in school, not because of my inability
to lear but because the subjects didn't interest me. I would
think to myself when the bell rings between each class how
much like cattle we are. Then going into the workplace...
My fate seems sealed in the sales world and it depresses
me. I've been in management and I always challenge the
status quo because I find the processeses of certain things
archaic and they don't like change. I value teamwork and
working collaboratively to achieve something. I don't agree
with the hierarchy business model of entry level employee,
manager, general manager, etc. I believe a democratic voting
process should be in place. That the employees have the
power rather than a few executives. I value working only to
have money to live to enjoy family, helping those in need,
and hobbies rather than living to work. Employer wages in
most places aren't paying enough and I find it less stressful
thinking about losing everything and being homeless than
to barely get by just to hold on to everything I have. I've
developed depression, anxiety and panic disorder. Severe panic attack and on medication to help. Right now, I can't land a job because my resume is a mess. I didn't go to
college because I didn't want to pay for classes that I wasn't
interested in to get a degree. I'm a very creative person.
I'm a musician, photographer, and a self-studied scholar of
ancient religious texts. I started a photography business but
it hasn't gone well because the economy isn't great. I want
to move into a different field but even with my creativity and
experience, no one hires me because of the scenarios above.
I feel like everything is determined based on what you've
done rather than who you are. Is there no place for me? Am I
too much of a critical thinker?