I just spent an entire WEEK with my FP, and the moment I start driving home, I start feeling the awful BPD feelings. All I can describe it as is anxiety and my face feels like it's going to burn off while intensely missing him. The entire week was pure bliss and I had absolutely no anxiety or BPD feelings at all. I feel completely calm and happy in his presence. It feels like all of my negative emotions and mental illness melts away when I am around him. Sometimes I feel like the longer I spend with him, the more it hurts when I have to go home. Is the only solution for this to live with your FP? Will DBT help this? I want to fast forward in time until I can finally live with him and be with him every day. But is that healthy? I'm desperately looking for therapists who specialize in DBT and take my insurance. Until then, this hell continues. Typing this out makes me feel better, at least.