just thinking that there might be someone out there that truly understands me and thinks im enough sounds like a dream, we could spend time with eachother for hours on end without getting bored, we'd go explore amazing places or just play together till 3am, we'd talk about everything and nothing, and it'd be so interesting we wouldnt want to stop

we'd cuddle and we'd know that we love eachother no matter what, and that we're not alone anymore

i've always wanted to not be alone anymore

i've always wanted someone who'd understand me

but sometimes i feel like i dont even understand myself, and it just sucks, cause no matter how much i try, i never do, and everybody says that im gonna be alone until i do, so basically, i dont know what to do anymore

i cant understand anything, i cant find anyone that does...i just wish it would happen already, im tired of trying everything without anything working properly

im 21, by now i should've already found someone, instead no one likes me, they dont understand and dont want to, they just want friendships, and im ok with that, but that's not what im looking for

i wish i was enough for someone already, im trying my best here, why isnt that enough?

i just feel like i should've found someone in high school...believe me, it would've changed everything, not being alone by then just would've made everything much better

instead its like this now

i hate not being able to change things and make things better...it shouldnt've been like this, i should've a boyfriend, i shouldn't be alone anymore, why cant i do it already? what's wrong with me?...i always make the effort but no one seems to want to make an effort on me too

i just hate living, sometimes i think i'd be better off dead, maybe at least it wouldnt hurt anymore, it'd be ok