I have so much anxiety talking to people now, my friends/boyfriend that I don't even want to uphold the relationships. Everything I say/ do/ or don't do makes me want to cry. I'm positive this is the result of trauma and lacking a support system but what I'm worried about is never being able to form or uphold relationships again. People used to always interest me and it was fun hearing them talk about themselves and getting to know them- easy even. It was weirdly one of my favorite things to do. I had anxiety then but mostly I'd just stay quiet until I was comfortable around the person and observe. Now I hate the feeling of interacting with people most of the time and just feel terrified. Does anyone have experience feeling this way and some success stories/tips so I know I'm not doomed to be broken forever? I don't know if this is cptsd or what but something is wrong and I feel so broke and alone.  My only solution I can think of is to break up with my boyfriend so he doesn't have to suffer as he realized I'm not even here nor can I emotionally connect anymore so I can move across the country and have some sort of blank start.

&amp;#x200B;

Thanks, all help welcome