Both are borders. She was kind of depressed, I told her if she kill herself, I can't stand without her also. I think this made her more axious over me. She previously blocked me two time, once for one month, and second four months. Every time she felt anxious over my impusive behaviour. Now she didn't block me, I told her I will get no contact with her until she is emotionally able to contact me. Despite she didn't  block me, we didn't spoke since two days. I am kind of nervous.