I'm a 24 year old female and suffer from BPD, along with other conditions like carpel tunnel syndrome. Since turning 16-17 I couldn't even calculate how many jobs I've actually had, maybe 50. I massively struggle with anxiety and intrusive thoughts and believe when these conditions interact with my BPD, that it's a recipe for disaster.

I started a chef de partie job earlier this month after leaving a job that I was at for 8 months. I got the job through a friend so having someone there, who I knew, made the whole experience a lot easier. I had limited experience but had worked alone in a kitchen for a couple of months making cold sandwiches with hot options available aswell. The job was only going to be until the end of September, which my manager even said they were sad about and hoped I could have stayed for longer.

I've been at the job for 2 weeks exactly, my manager came in today after having 3hrs sleep which they do regularly almost every day. They had a bad attitude from the get go shouting about how they hated their job and didn't want to be there - bearing in mind this is the type of behaviour exhibited pretty much every day by them. They then started to pick at me about a list I had to do, swearing at me, passive aggressive comments, standing next to me for an uncomfortable amount of time in complete silence - I completely didn't make eye contact or look in that direction as this was happening. I told them I might have to go see a Dr as I have problems with nerves in my wrists (because of years of doing work just like thais) to which he said 'Go now then' I said are you sure? Because obviously I assumed it was a sarcastic comment and they then just started drilling me, insinuated I am incompetent and that they have personally paid me ££ to do nothing all day, said my medical condition was 'boring' which I had kind of just had enough at that point, I started to list the things I had done and started to get upset and said 'well, I won't come back then' and he says bye. I feel like people think I walked out on the job but clearly they wanted to have an argument with me instead of just discussing it like a professional manager. 

I understand kitchens are high pressure, completely however, I think this is borderline bullying. Feel like swearing and intimidating behaviour crosses the line. Still feel really bad about the situation though, embarrassed that I got upset and I also had panic attack afterwards. Feel hopeless, like I said I was only going to have this job for 2 months before I go away to study however it just feels like I'll never have a job that I thoroughly enjoy as long as other people are involved. 

tl;dr Manager was rude and confrontational after agreeing I see a Dr about a medical condition I have. I left.