I’m losing it. I feel so profoundly empty that I can’t stand it. I feel no guilt, hope, shame, love, empathy. Whatever. I am only capable of feeling impotent rage at myself. I know I’m just in a numb depression again (worse than normal depression by a long shot) but Christ I’m horrified by how it feels like I’ve lost my ethical values. I have no inclination towards sadism but my apathy and my awareness and utter indifference toward it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I was emotionally abusive towards my ex while I couldn’t get any DBT treatment but while I was struggling I was desperately clawing to be healthy and practice skills. I deteriorated and lashed out and attempted suicide out of guilt after the last straw. I’m trying to talk to new people just to feel something but I feel as though I should feel guilty trying to talk to new people and I do not know how to relate to other people and I’m wondering if I might also have NPD or maybe I’m Schizotypal I have no idea I feel rudderless and insane. Does anyone else relate to this that may have a comorbidity/answers?