I'll be 25 on January 6th and it's making me depressed. I am starting to feel old, I'll be 30 in 5 years and I don't feel as young as I used to. My younger sister is 19 and I am sometimes jealous of her, because she's barely about to start her 20s (she's turning 20 in April) and she's in university. I graduated from college in 2019 and now I'm in the professional workplace and I feel like I having nothing going for me anymore, I feel like the fun is over. Now I only have time to work and go home. I work pretty much everyday, and I get home at night, eat, and then go to sleep. None of my friends from college want to have fun anymore either, they are all busy. A few of my friends from college are already getting married and starting their families. I am too scared to get married or have kids because then I will officially be "an older lady" because I will be the mother of a child. I don't want to do anything for my birthday, I don't want to celebrate it at all because it would just be celebrating "getting older" and I am already mourning my youth. I know we all grow up, but man it feels horrible. It really depresses me seeing all these younger people still having fun and being carefree. Getting older sucks.