Everyone I’ve ever loved, gives me crippling anxiety. 

I have a cat and she’s so beautiful and she’s my world and having her next to me feels like nothing could go wrong. However, when I am not with her, as I travel a lot for work, I get crippling anxiety about her leaving me one day. I would wake up in the middle of the night and cry so much. She just turned 1 and is super healthy cat. I feed her good food to keep her healthy and plays a lot with her to keep her active. Therefore, all these fears I have now, won’t happen in any foreseeable immediate future. 

But I just can’t stop worrying and crying. I’m getting panic attacks over it. 

I feel this way for people I love and relationships I have and had. I would always fear for the day they leave me even tho there is absolutely no indication of that whatsoever.

I am so happy with my life right now. I feel like everything is in the right place. I am so scared and anxious this will be taken from me in a blink of an eye. It’s getting really difficult. I am crying and worried and stressing over possibilities of the future. 

I can’t breathe. How do I deal with this?