As it says. Fp is out of town having some kind of get together with friends. He has a lot of different friend groups and i don't know for sure who he is with now, but i got the feeling it's his bdsm buddies and they are having a sweaty weekend. 
I'm normallu quite jealous of him bad his other sex partners, but now that he _may_ be having bondage, domination, groupsex and other fun things that i want to do with him (he has refused these with me) it hurts hell of a lot more.

I know i shouldn't be jealous and i try to reason with myself that it's not that big of a deal. But it is and i can't shake the feeling that from now on he wants even less sex with me and eventually he won't want me at all. 

I have tried TIPP-methods and STOP-methods, but still i feel like spiraling in deeper and deeper to depression/anxiety/selfhate.

So, distractions, advices, support, anything is more than welcome and appreciated ❤️