My CV is akin to swiss cheese, which makes it nearly impossible to find even low level work. No one wants me. I'm worthless in the eyes of society, even though I WANT to work and usually get positive feedback from the people who give me a chance. I'm friendly, I'm always trying to be as professional and as diligent as possible, I'm a quick learner and I don't have a problem with being criticized when I make mistakes, I see it as an opportunity to be better. I get satisfaction from knowing I did a good job, no matter how low I'm being paid. I went to therapy, made sure to always take my meds, but I just can't seem to hold down a job. There always comes a time where my illnesses are catching up with me and I crash. I'm trying so hard, but it's never enough. For most applications I don't even get an answer, some call me back to ask about my CV. I don't want to talk about my private issues, but often feel pressured into oversharing because more general answers are not satisfying enough, but afterwards I simply get dumped. I often feel like I'm used for entertainment in a way, some kind of morbid curiosity. It's making me want to vomit with shame.