TW: Regressing/Negativity

I feel like my anxiety is so unmanageable that it’s affecting the ones that I love the most.. I feel like I have more bad days than good ones and I can’t stop crying. My anxiety feels so crippling that I can’t do anything. I’m scared I’m going to be alone due to this anxiety. That it’s pushing everyone away and no one is telling me how badly it’s affecting everything. Even if it was told to me how badly it was affecting everyone and everything, what could I do about it? 

I feel like it is ruining every aspect of my life. Everything good is going to turn to dust. I’m in so much pain and I just want it to stop. I want to be happy. I want my loved ones to be happy and not have to deal with me anymore. I want to stop crying. I want to work a job and go to school.

I feel like I’m losing everything very slowly and I can’t stop it from happening.

Maybe I’m the problem? Maybe it’s not my anxiety but me as a person?