[I recorded this, because I don't feel like text does words justice...](https://soundgasm.net/u/ManyMindsManyVoices/Im-tired-of-feeling) But you can read it too, below:

I'm tired of the loneliness... Waiting to find a person I will click with that will only leave, because I love too hard, and I don't want to change that for this cold, cruel world. I'm tired of wishing there was at least a voice to make me feel safe and loved and wanted, if not a warm body to actually hold tight...

I am tired of screaming into the darkness. I am tired of shallow, passing feelings with strangers online when I just want someone to actually enjoy. I want to kiss someone, even if I can't quite touch them. I want to hold them.

I want to stop being told I should live for me, because *me* only wants to find a real connection in this isolated world or not be in it anymore. I don't see the world through your eyes and I don't want what you want, so just let me leave... Let me find my oblivion because that sounds beautiful... Peaceful...

I can't take another cold, lonely night in this sad world, and I still hae to wait at least a few more to clean up my last thread tying me here..

I can't stand these nights, the end of the week looks so far away...