My boyfriend who I live with thinks im lazy and weak minded when I isolate myself and don’t go to work every single day (im self employed). He always says life won’t wait for you and he makes me feel bad about not having enough energy to do things. Sometimes I think he’s right and I feel like I’m useless and have no purpose in life because I can’t find any motivation. I try to push through everyday and not think negative but it’s hard. It scares me because I have thoughts about death and I only feel peace and I know that’s not normal. Having a partner that’s frustrated of you being depressed all the time doesn’t help neither.