Going through a lot. I can’t sleep. I’m so tired, but I can only sleep with the help of Benadryl or something. I have to wake up at 3:30 am for work and it’s 11:34pm right now. 

Last night I got about four hours of sleep, in intervals of an hour at a time, waking up constantly from vivid dreams. My whole life I just dream, I never feel like i really sleep. I fall into a dream, live that scenario, wake up from a dream. 

Every fucking night.
I just want to fucking rest. 

It’s been really bad for days but ongoing for much longer. My heart races and my brain will not quiet. I can’t relax. I’ve been trying to since 8:30ish.

Idk if this is the right place for it but I needed to type it somewhere.