throwaway - but i just need some help. i can't get myself to go to the hospital or call my therapist and tell him really honestly what is going on. i have a plan for thursday - i want to go through with it and i also don't? (i just feel like it is the only option at this point).

im not sure what to do. i dont wanna call a hotline bc im safe rn, and i dont wanna waste their time. i guess any ideas are helpful, thanks in advance.