I sexualize my FP and I feel really gross and creepy about it. I sort of picture this ideal relationship with them and imagine us being together. But I don't have feelings for them. I think about them for hours and I don't know. I feel like I wouldn't be as upset with myself if it weren't sexual but I have this urge to confess my love and feelings for them because of my obsession. I don't do this but it drives me crazy and makes me feel bad for even associating with them since I'm like this. They confessed being into me while they were under the influence of alcohol and I changes the subject because they were drunk but like since they said that I just romanticize what they said and the idea of being with them and it makes me uncomfortable Im thinking this since like they were drunk when they told me? I also have ocd so I might be looking too deep into it. They are aware of my disorders and everything and that they are my favorite person but that I want to keep it platonic but I guess because of the fantasies it just makes me feel awful. They're very understanding but idk, I just don't trust myself and the feelings I hold inside are overwhelming. Is there any way to distract from this feeling? Am I overthinking? I don't know.