Recently a lot of people(friends) who I gave my all to have abandoned me( abandoned in the lense of leaving me and just not talking to me again) and this is all keeping in touch via what’s app or watevs. 

I have a lot of trauma related to this for the past 5 years so I decided to stop making friends in real life. (I moved to another country not too long ago) 

But when I explain my pain to my mom or my bf they just tell me get over it and make friends. They don’t have my brain... But I can’t.... I’ve built walls around me. 


In private I cry so much because of the trauma which keeps adding. And people make it seem like I’m just so difficult like go and make friends. But I cannot. I get attached and I get hurt. 

Btw I am on meds and briefly saw a therapist. 

How can I stop crying? Pls any tips would be ideal. The object constancy is real and I wish I were stronger if this wouldn’t bring me down. The other solution is to move them into the black category. Bye bye forever.

Thanks :) 

I’m quiet bpd