I almost killed myself in February. And March. And April. I cut off everyone important in my life without warning and they all hate me, I split on my ex and he left me. Everything was terrible. I made a deal with my parents and friends I had left that I would fulfill my existing commitments (2 more years of law school) and really try in therapy, but if I wasn’t better after that I was going to kill myself and no one could resent me for it because I tried. 

Turns out therapy really helps! My life completely turned around. I got medicated, I’m doing DBT, I just got a new job and I’m transferring to my dream law school. My relationships are strengthened by me telling them what I’m learning in DBT. I am genuinely happy again, and but I’m still using my skills and developing as much of a foundation I can for when it inevitably gets hard again. My dad has finally recognized the seriousness of my disorder and promised to be of whatever support I need going forward. 

Try your best to pick yourself up, get into the therapy, and do the work. I was literally practicing shooting myself and preparing other methods I don’t want to share on here, but like I mean I was really low. If I could get out of that, you probably can too. It is so nice to have most of the weight lifted so I can buckle down and do the work. 

Best of luck, friends💜