I just don’t understand why I can’t be normal . Other people can walk around and just chat constantly All day. I can barely walk without tripping over nothing, the only person I can talk normally with is my mom, and im extremely quiet, I basically have to shout for anyone to hear me. It just feels like everyone else can just automatically do shit like this. I just cried because I was sent home early from work, but when they sent me out I though they were telling me to go on break. I spend maybe ten minutes back there on break before a guy comes back laughing and tells me that I was being sent home, not on break. I just don’t see other people fucking up such basic stuff.  I don’t want to commit suicide or anything but I just don’t know why I’m still like this after 19 years. Even back in middle school I could still barely talk to people outside of a couple friends.