I thought I'd be over it by now. I only had two people I could talk to, my ex I was on friendly terms with, and my closest friend who I used to be able to talk to every day. But I recently found out they got a girlfriend and didn't bother to tell me, so our conversations got slower and slower over time. I eventually blocked the ex for personal reasons, and now, it's like I have absolutely nobody to talk to.

I've been seeing a therapist. She says I'm grieving and that it takes time. I was really co-dependent on that relationship with my friend, and it only hurts more than usual because I had a stupid crush on them.

I want to focus on myself, like my hobbies and getting a job, but I can't focus. I just want to talk to someone. :( The "want" of wanting to talk and connect with someone is stronger. I'm even having a moment of weakness of wanting to un-block my ex just to have someone to talk to because at least there's familiarity, and something is better than nothing/numbness. I low-key feel like I'm going crazy.