I’m such a fucking mess. Does anyone else feel like they’re spiralling. Like genuinely every day is fucking struggle. I’ll have a few good days, I’m eating healthy, I’m on top of my uni work, I’m going to my job. And then I have this need to self destruct and I drink too much and I ruin my life. And then I say I’m going to sort myself out, and then the cycle repeats. 

I’m so fucking fed up of this life. I hate my brain and I hate being like this. I wish it would just all stop and I have no idea how to stop myself being such a fucking mess. It genuinely feels like I’m just watching myself from the outside and I know every thing I do is a bad idea and there’s nothing I can do to control myself. 