Hi Guys, 

Diagnosed with Perfectionism 

I just dropped a message to my Team Lead that i wont be working today, and i know that i did this because of my fear of failing. I tried to talk to myself and make myself to go to work, but failed today. 

But now what? I feel this huge guilt that what i am doing is wrong. 

In such scenarios what do you guys do to atleast make the day productive in other aspects of life. Is there something that helps you fight this mindset in the morning, i ask this because i have been struggling alot to make myself to go to work just because i fear i am going to fail.

Background: I am/was the Tech wiz in every assignment i got and recently was assigned to a awesome project where me (3 years of IT Exp) was working for a position for which a person with 8-10 years of exp was required, I aced in that assignment but i set an unrealistic goal or say unrealistic expectation of myself to make an Audit Pass, we did pass it but with 3 minor findings (2 were my mistakes). Everybody makes mistakes and even i have a rule to make any mistake only once, this was the 1st mistake but i am really have a tough time bouncing back to my old self.

Your help is appreciated, because i think talking to someone you has been in my shoes before and how they fought back is really gonna help me.