i’m really struggling to be okay and not split on my fp but it’s been so hard. we usually talk a lot everyday and write little paragraphs and keep eachother updated about our days and are excited to talk to eachother. but then she will all the sudden stop and pull away and stop talking to me as much and doesn’t seem excited to be around me anymore. i’ve mentioned this before to her and she’s said that she gives me as much as a partner would (we’re only friends) and that she can’t do that all the time. i try so hard to understand but it just feels like she’s distancing from me and like she doesn’t like me as much anymore. it’s so confusing and heartbreaking for me when she goes to excited to talk to me and writing me nice little things to suddenly just stopping and ignoring my texts and not showing much interest in being around me. it hurts so bad. i feel so stupid because i still write her things and try to cheer her up when she’s like this, but her replies are so short and she just seems tired of me. i’ve also really been struggling with self harm and i reached out to her telling her i was having a lot of urges. she tells me i can always reach out to her and she told me a day or so ago to not give in to the urges and to talk to her instead. so that’s why i tried to do. she instead didn’t acknowledge it at all and started talking about something else i had said before. then a couple messages later says she’s sorry i’m so sad and then never acknowledged it again. it’s just so confusing because she says one thing but her actions contradict it and i’m just hurting so bad. i feel so stupid and i feel like she’s so tired of me and like i don’t matter to her at all. if she told me she was having urges, i would drop everything and try to help her. it makes me feel like she thinks i’m making it up. i’m not. i hate reaching out about having urges because i feel like it looks like i’m doing it for attention but i was really struggling and she told me to come to her. it just ended up making me feel worse