I'm 6 days in on half doses, and tomorrow I start full doses - the first few days were great, I felt very calm and hopeful. But today I woke with a splitting headache and my heart is hammering. Panic is bubbling and it feels like I'm trying to hold the lid down on an overflowing pot. 

The frustration is that I KNOW its the medication exaggerating my anxiety as I get used to this, I was told to expect this by the doctor, I read the leaflet in the medication box, I did research on the specific type, but I still feel out of control. I know it gets better, but simultaneously my mind is telling me it won't.

I have deadlines and work to do, but I can't stomach it. I see my future ahead of me falling apart in a thousand different ways.

Please tell me it gets better - please tell me it will be okay