I told him about how my depression has gotten worse (i’ve had it since 15 and i’m 23 now) and how i’ve been thinking about death lately. 
He got angry asking me for how long i’m gonna keep doing this and when am I going to fix my behaviour. 

I told him that I feel like a failure and he said it’s not my job to be a failure, my job is to keep moving forward one step at a time and I should just focus on my studies or my university is going to kick me out. 

I told him that I feel like non of my friends like me, he told me that it’s probably because i act like a self centred bitch around my friends and i need to  fix my behaviour or nobody will ever like me. (I am literally a very nice and calm person and I’m never mean to anyone. The worst thing i do is I sometimes go quiet out of insecurity. I don’t know why he thinks i act self centred around my friends. He hasn’t even seen me interact with my friends. Regardless, he gave me more reason to hate myself)

Finally he told me that i’m an adult and i should be able to handle my life by now. At this point i was sobbing uncontrollably and he kept telling me i was acting childish. 

Basically he just re-affirmed all of my fears and gave me more reason to feel useless and hate myself. 

I feel so unlovable. My heart hurts so bad i feel physical pain in my chest and back.