I feels like there’s so much going on and so much stress with trying to get where I want to be. I gotta do 3 months of EMT class and it’s hard to absorb the information I’m given and it feels overwhelming. I gotta keep up with my religion, I gotta deal with financial garbage. On top of that I need that EMT certificate to get into this Hyperbaric chamber program which I could run the risk of not getting in because if I fail the EMT exam, I would have to wait longer to get in Hyperbaric technician. I want that job. And seeing how my friends was able to get valedictorian for EMT while I’m still here struggling to understand the material. Then the anger and anxiety while seeing other students who are more experienced in the medical field are attending the class and getting the answers right. It’s intimidating. Then I gotta be spiritual enough to be accepted by God or something, so I can be part of the witnesses. Then whenever my friends try teaching me, it’s like they treat me as if I’m extremely dumb as if I don’t know simple words. Am I just one of the few who isn’t smart enough or just can’t be good enough at anything? What’s the point of trying if I can’t better at something in life.I’m even scared that I may not get the job I want, even delay the process of getting where I want to be