Borderline personality disorder is controlling my life and has always controlled it. BPD has honestly ruined my entire life. I have no social life or friends, lost the last man I loved a week ago due to my insanity, rage, insecurity, etc. from the BPD, spotty job experience (did score a temp. job today though!), no car or even a license (I feel pathetic) because I’m terrified that my rage/impulsiveness + depression would make me drive a car off of a cliff. No money... staying with my sister currently. I have nothing. I’m a total loser. A week ago, I had a huge blowout with my now ex-boyfriend.. I went absolutely crazy and he’s now never speaking to me again and I can’t blame him. Because of this breakup, I am REALLY seeing how badly I need help and how destructive this disorder truly is to not only myself but anyone I love and care about. The same day my ex and I split, I was prescribed lexapro for my depression and anxiety... I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, PTSD, major depression, general anxiety disorder, and trichotillomania.. among other things 5 years ago when I was 23. Since then I haven’t been very committed to treatment or medication... just usually going here and there over the years... or when court ordered. I have an appointment this upcoming week at a mental health clinic and I’m hoping it goes well... I know I need to do this so there’s a sense of nervousness and excitement. 

Since I do plan on committing to some type of treatment this time— what are some medications that have helped you? 

How long did therapy + medication take for you to see an improvement in your symptoms?

Are DBT + CBT as helpful as everyone says? 

Is group therapy as terrifying as I think it is? 

Is it really ever going to get better? 


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