I don’t know what i’m expecting here. I’m so unhappy. And i want to get help. But i feel stuck. Like the floor underneath me is glued to my feet. Why am i holding myself back? Idk. No matter where i go and whoever i’m around, i feel homesick for a place that was never there. And i want a better life. But everyday is the same. I quit my job and im out of state visiting family thinking it’d push me to change. But now i just want to go back home to be unhappy there. I’m anxious as hell bc now i fear that my lack of motivation and anxiety will beat me and i wont get another job. And i’ll just spiral. Like i dont know wtf im so scared of. I’m so unhappy man. Its hurts. I have people that love me but i feel so alone. Like no one would understand why i do this to myself. Idk, guess im hoping someone out there has had experience with this feeling. How did you get out of this rut?
I want better for myself i dont fucken get why im not trying