I know this is long but I have nowhere else. 

Apparently he and the other three managers had a meeting about me because they ha some concerns and also because I was doing stuff that pissed one off. 

The one that got angry was the one that worked with me yesterday morning-I was almost an hour late because getting out of bed was such a struggle and then I had an appointment with my Psychologist in the early part of my shift. They’ve said before that I just a need a doctors note and that’ll be fine. Apparently they forgot and it’s not ok anymore. So that’s why she was mad. 

I’ve been consistently late in super early shifts  unless it is my boss’s shift because he gets angry but tries to understand my mentally health too. I have been taking advantage of the others which I know is bad. Everything is just so hard at the moment. One of my managers is my age and we talk and confide in one another a lot of our mental health. I told him I self harm. I did it again in a visual place on my arm and have been covering it up, until yesterday. I think multiple people put it together which sucks. My boss was also told by my other manager so he knew. I also tried to overdose at work and went and told my boss after I had done it. I spent almost 2days in Inpatient care. 

When my boss talked to me he said they were concerned which tells me that everything they knew like the self harm and overdose were then told to the rest of the managers so they would realize just how bad I’m doing. They were also mad at me and I don’t really believe they talked out of concern for me but rather they were upset and angry. I’m very friendly to two of the managers and the others one it depends on the day.

Either way I split on them the other day but this just validated the split. I’m a manager too and this made me feel attacked because they had two meetings about me yesterday. I can’t trust them or feel safe with them anymore. 

Has anyone else taken an FMLA leave? I’m going to see if I can do it with short term disability because my mental health is making my life, especially work, hell.

Thank you for reading.