I have a severe anxiety problem, it constantly affects my life in every way possible, I can't do anything or think anything without feeling guilty or it haunting me for half the day. I've tried so many times to make it go away and thought it was getting better, I even convinced myself to just act super confident and lie about being confident so that I wouldn't feel so bad. I told myself that I was overreacting and it was fine, and that helped a bit as well. 

But every time, it just keeps coming back. Anytime I make a mistake it comes back. I can't even be alone with myself because I just cry. I have to constantly distract myself and half the time that just causes more anxiety. I don't know what to even do. I try my hardest to be happy for everyone else, I try to act calm but in reality I can't even take jokes anymore. The only thing that helps with my anxiety at this point is being with my boyfriend, and I'm scared that my anxiety is gonna be an issue for him.

I feel like I'm just getting more and more tired, and more and more stupid. I feel like an issue to everyone. I want to be alone but I cant be alone. I'm sorry for making this so long.