*(TW: suicide, but there’s also no need to read anything below, I’m just ranting)*

Just left a relationship of 2 years because my fiancé was verbally abusive. I literally have nothing left now. No school, no car, no job (yet, because of not having a car), no partner, no friends — nothing. I’m stuck at my parents house because of my ill mother. I have to start paying back the school I dropped out of soon. 

I guess one way to look at this is that it’s all a “fresh new start”... but I can’t get myself to see it that way. Maybe I am grieving, but I don’t want to go on anymore. I’m tempted to give up on DBT. The only reason why I’m alive is because I’m forced to be unless I take my own life.

What motivates you guys to stay alive, and get better at managing your symptoms?