I’m currently saving up to go private for an official diagnosis, but I’ve been told by multiple professionals that they highly suspect bpd and it suddenly makes so much sense, I can relate to everything in the criteria in some way. Just looking for some advice and maybe you have shared experiences.

Since I figured out this might be what’s going on I’ve been doing research into coping strategies to keep me going while I wait to access DBT. Some of it’s been helping, but the more I learn the worse I’ve been feeling. I’ve been having huge fights with my partner more often and my anxiety is higher than ever. It’s so hard to explain but seeing so many people have similar or identical experiences to me is SO helpful but it’s also horrible. I’ve got this really sickening feeling that things won’t ever get better. 

So I guess my question is, when you first found out you had bpd, did you feel really lost? And did it get better? I just feel so hyper aware of everything that’s going wrong now but I can’t stop it happening. Hope that makes sense.