i’ve dealt with anxiety and depression my entire 21 years of living and it fucking sucks. i just want to die. nothing makes me happy or excited anymore. everything just makes me feel like shit or anxious or stressed. not living seems like the best fucking thing ever. or a coma. idk. i just want a fucking break from life. life moves so fucking fast and i just hate everything. i sound so pessimistic but it’s just how i’m feeling rn. i wish i wouldn’t be a pussy and just off myself. if anything i wish i could take all of my pills and then call 911 immediately so i could be sent to the hospital or something. put my life on hold. everything is so hard idk what to do