I have the next few days off work which I have been really excited about, today I was supposed to be meeting a friend which fell through for various reasons, which is actually fine because I didn't have the motivation to get out of bed. 
I have suffered with parosmia for the last few months which makes eating a struggle, so today I haven't eaten and I don't have it in me to try and cook something.
I'm just tired. I'm not even sure why. Life has been OK recently, besides a few family and work dramas, nothing overly terrible though. But I'm just exhausted. I just don't know what to do. 
I'm fed up of it all. I'm sick of my life. I just don't have the energy to keep going. There's so many things I wanted to do with these few days off but I just don't think I'm going to be able. All I want to do is stay in bed and pretend I don't exist. 
I don't even know what I'm looking for here but I can't talk to anyone in my life about this, everyone is going through their own struggles and I can't burden them with mine, especially when I can't even explain why I feel like this. 
I suffer with depression, and it comes and goes in waves like it does for everyone. I'm very self aware and usually able to do things to recover but this time I just don't feel like I have it in me to. I don't know if I want to. I just want everything and everyone to go away. I just want to go to sleep and not face another day.
Please tell me it will get better? I feel like no matter what I do I will always be stuck like this.
I'm just so damn tired.