When covid hit and we went on online learning it was like for the first time in my life I was somewhat okay. Before covid I was going through a refusal (as per usual), and a very unstable relationship, but after a few months of isolation and reducing my contacts to the bear minimum, I felt much better. It’s been a year and a half, and I’m so scared to be “social” again. It’s like i’ve learnt to exist in my own bubble, where I feel constantly empty and sad, but at least my worst traits don’t come lashing out because I don’t have to talk to anyone.