Okay but fr I have no clue anymore, I don't think this is normal. Sometimes I am not myself, sometimes i'm empty, then i can't smile or cry, it mostly only happens when i'm either alone or there's too much noise around me. But this isn't even the worst, I uave these thoughts that won't go away, it's turned into an urge by now, and I dunno hiw long i can resist. Society is fucked up and I wanna leave. This world is just fucking rigged and you can't trust anythibg or anyone, the only reasobs I haven't ran yet is 1 because I'm too young and would basically be a target for bad people and w because ion wanna hurt my family, they did nothing wrong to me and this is just all in my head. I think i might be a danger to myself. I'm not insane right?? This just sucks. And i'm scared that if i reach out they might put me in a psych ward or put me under supervision.