I'm a veteran and I am from an under privileged immigrant family, so going to college was something I couldn't even dreamed of. I've always been depressed that most of my friends who took classes together back in high school went to college after finishing high school but I had to "help" local restaurant's for below minimum wage. (because I couldn't legally work) And because I didn't go college like my friends I felt defeated and those who went to college stopped hanging out then eventually cut me off. After wasting three years of doing nothing, I decided join military in hope to change my life but the experience was not so pleasant being faced with so much racial discriminations and it's unbelievable but one of my NCO hated me just because I had higher asvab test score than others in the team. And, one time I was removed from my duty at the headquarter and the reason was they were receiving new enlisted guy with bachelor's degree. They told me they can't just put a guy with a 4yrs degree in a line. So they told me to train the new guy and just go other field unit to do other job. So, I left the military after my contract ended and while I was in I only developed complex of not having education because of how I got treated. I got diagnosed major depression and felt angry all the time but I used the anger as a fuel to study. Now, I am graduating from t30 university and starting my master's in t10 university, which I should be happy about. However, somehow I am still so depressed and because I was only focusing on studies to overcome the complex I just feel like I have no life. Now, I am entering 30s in my life and yes I would still have degrees from the schools I thought was everything but it feels so empty. I don't have a social life, no one I can call friends, no family (some other issue I didn't address), and no passion or motivation. I don't even know why I worked so hard, if this was what I am going to be feeling after achieving my so called dream or goal. What should I do? I literally don't see any point in my life now.