Anyone else have a family history of mental illness? I have depression and my mom's father was an abusive person, he hit her when she was young and insulted my sister constantly because of her chest. He died a few years ago from a lung disease but before then he never went out for like 20 years. I grew up with it so it was normal to me, but he was technically bed-bound (he always sat/laid on the couch or his bed and only moved to sit outside with us during the summer. His girlfriend was his caretaker. But I never perceived it as him being sick. I don't think he was impaired physically, and I never thought it was something mentally. Only now I realized how weird and normalized all that was. On top of that, my mom told me that his mother committed suicide before my mom was born and that a relative of my mom also committed suicide back in the 90s. I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts ever since I became depressed. On my father's side I think his grandfather became insane when he was older. My grandfather (my father's father) became schizophrenic after a heart surgery. I'm 24 now and have been reflecting a lot and this realization has been so scary.