i live in pakistan and im 14 years old they dont tell you your diagnosis n shit here but i googled my medication to find out what its for and its for major depressive disorder i think, ive been on a bunch of different medicines but right now im just on aripiprazole piracetam and bupropion, aripiprazole is an anti psychotic piracetam is a cognitive enhancer and bupropion is an anti depressant, most pakistani mentally ill ppl ive seen dont know what medication theyre on or why theyre on medication ive noticed that theyre all rly fucking lost and have no idea wtf is going on, theyre constantly being gaslit and dont even know it, esp mentally ill girls in pakistan like if ur a girl in pakistan who suffers from mental illness/es ur fucked u will become imprisoned in your room for the rest of your life and eventually being isolated for so long will make you go schizophrenic or some shit, which im afraid is whats gonna happen to me in some years, i have really bad social anxiety like im terrified of ppl so i always stay at home and i hate school more than anything mainly because of my social anxiety but also because i just cant cope with the general environment of school and after being in class for like an hour or so i start dissociating n shit and i lose all contact with reality and then i just keep my head down on the desk and i cant move or speak or do anything and all i want to do is just go home, so i dont go to school either anymore all i do is take my meds lay in bed use my phone eat take my meds go to sleep everyday is the same ive also gained so much weight because i eat alot and dont move at all and the stupid meds probably have something to do with it too, i feel fucking hopeless i just wish i could live a different, better life