 Hey everyone,

So college has been an absolute nightmare. I'm in a vicious cycle of feeling confident/stable pre-semester and then collapsing under perceived high expectations. A lot of it is me psyching myself out. I fall behind, then the stress of having to communicate with professors triggers avoidance, anxiety, and mood volatility hard. It seems to happen specifically to courses that I pre-meditate will be difficult. It’s so bad that, over a 4 year span, I have yet to complete even one of course in my Computer Science major coursework – yet I’ve somehow finished my gen ed’s with nearly a 4.0. 

Has anyone had success with succeeding in a situation like this? I’m so tired of being gaslit that I’m not a good student when they’re not accommodating for BPD difficulties. I know that I succeed in courses where expectations and material are clearly presented with minimal social interaction… but going to office hours and more social interaction is the only thing that keeps getting pushed on me as the solution. They have no concept of the extreme extent my crippling my fear of failure and judgement reaches. Has anyone ever had success in actually receiving appropriate academic accommodations for BPD?