Hi, I'm 59f. I'm pretty sure I've been depressed most of my life. Not until my 30s did one if my doctor's suggest that and that antidepressants might help. Almost 30 years later I still am battling it. I'm on meds I've been to many counselors. 

For whatever reason I've been watching many videos on YouTube fir the past few years about people that have had near death experiences.  If you type in NDE on YouTube you will see hundreds of these. One channel in particular that has great content is Jeffmara. 

When you hear these stories they give you a different perspective on life and this world we live in. It has helped me a little. I don't know if I'll ever shake this depression, or ever know what it's like to be sincerely happy but it has given me some bit of hope.