I have 2 therapists, but both of them will tell me parents if I say anything about this, the only person I talk to is a school-friend, but they have been busy lately, and I have nobody to talk to, I just am a problem to people, it seems like my parents don't actually care about me, they just don't want to get in trouble for anything, they constantly make threats by saying if I get in trouble or do anything to myself  the police will interrogate my little brother and grandma, and I don't want that because I don't want to worry them, and I have too much anxiety and don't want my friends and brother and grandma to be sad, but I don't know what to do anymore, I have a hard time in school, I only have 1 friend who is always busy. I pretend I'm fine, but It's hard to keep doing this, I'm just a waste of time and don't deserve what I have. Whenever I get in trouble my parents lock my in my room, and I hate it, i can hear my family having fun and laughing but I cant join them, I want it to end but I cant do that. I don't know what to do anymore...anyway thanks for listening to me.