I'm crying. I'm about to go to work and I can't stop thinking about how long its going to be. Same thing happened with my last job. I ended up having a mental breakdown and leaving through the backroom in the middle of my shift. I really want to love this job but I'm so scared of never being myself again. I seriously want to die. I'm gonna die alone. I have to call this stupid cab now so I'm not late. Bye guys. I just hope I won't breakdown today.