So I’m new to this whole bpd I have been diagnosed a few months back so I don’t know a whole punch about it, so I was just wondering if this is common or not, I see a lot of bpd people holding on to their fav person even if that means putting themselves last, my story is somewhat different, I blocked my long distance BFF on almost everywhere after we fought and she made me realize that she didn’t really care and she had way too much power over me and my moods, has anyone ever done that? Is this a bpd behavior or self destructive behavior or is it a cry for help to see if she would care more if she knew that she might lose me? 

I’m sorry if I’m all over the place I’m just too confused and pissed and sad
Whatever I just need guidance this is so new and terrifying for me.