I'm a 30 year old man, been struggling with depression for the last 10 years or so. My dog has been the only reason I haven't deleted myself thus far.

My dog has been dealing with health issues for the last year and I'm scheduled to put him down tomorrow. He's my best friend and the only person I have in the world. It's going to be the worst day of my life and I don't know what to do.

I've tried going to therapy but I can't afford it, and I don't seem to qualify for sliding scale therapy because I'm a straight white guy. The hotline seems pretty useless as they just regurgitate what you say back to you such as "Oh I'm sorry you're feeling like XYZ"