Hi again, so it's my birthday on Sunday (trigger for me) but my fp is asking if I wanna go out. The last time I tried to I chickened out because I hate my body so find it hard to be comfortable wearing stuff and I always end up not going because of it. I also end up dissociating and smoking and doing stuff I don't usually.
Basically, should I go out!? Should I try and celebrate my birthday? Try to make better memories? 
Should I just stay at home alone again ?