I feel like I have no reason to be depressed while also having every reason I have plenty of friends and very two close who I can tell everything and I still feel lonely and like I can't tell anybody anything I don't know all I really want right now is a hug and death it's so cruel of me but I almost envy people who can self harm because I can't completely bring myself to while still wanting to so badly deep down. I'm 14 and have 0 adults I feel safe and okay talking to and I finally got rid of my therapist because all she wanted to talk about was school grades and would even bring me down even more without realizing I feel like I have nobody my mom was even on the side of my sexual abuser not even believing me even though she barely knew them