I always overanalyze eye contact. In my current living situation, I feel like I've embarrased myself so much since I've moved to the dorm I've been living in. And now I'm sure they either think I'm disgusting or toxic. I have a hallmate that keep insinuating that I'm lying. And I keep overthinking about all the times I've lied and all the times that I've lied without even recognizing that I lied. Sometimes I just lie without even caring about the consequences and now I'm just so regretful of all the actions that I feel like I had no control over because I was just acting impulsively and habitually. Now I just feel like everyone on my hall is talking shit about me and that everyone on campus that knows my hallmates think I'm toxic and disgusting too. And I'm feeling like my FP is starting to dislike me at times too. Shes lives nearby in my hall. I just cant tell her how much I care for her because I'm scared shell be weirded out for some reason. And now I feel like because of my other hallmates shes starting to dislike me. I just wanna leave this place and start over somewhere else. But then again I feel trapped because I feel like no matter where I go, people will start to dislike me because of my impulsive actions and strange mood swings. I just wanna find people that will support me and understand me, but everyone I meet makes me feel like I'm just trash that no one likes.