this is a long post, sorry in advance. i met this girl around august and she quickly became my FP. we hung out pretty much every other day and she was the only person i was allowed to see because of covid and vice versa. my first attempt happened at the end of september. she wasn’t allowed inside but she was sitting outside my bedroom window (first floor) to be with me for hours every day i was there...friends that i’ve been friends with since childhood knew and didn’t show up. she was there for me, which made me love her even more. she had a gf who happened to be my childhood friend. i love both of them but my old friend had really hurt my FP, she left her multiple times and would say contradicting things. my FP asked for my advice and i told her to hang out slowly and see where it goes, but don’t go rushing back into it. soon enough they are back together and i’m getting attitude from her gf even though i helped them get back together. i have a feeling that my old friend doesn’t like me anymore and it’s affecting my FP and my relationship. i haven’t seen her in 2 weeks now and she texts almost every other day or so to check in but it’s not like it used to be at all. i haven’t responded in 3 days so she text messaged me, still haven’t responded. i know i lost her so i feel as if i should just let her go and avoid the hurt i’d be experiencing months from now when she cuts me off because of her girlfriend. it hurts though, she has seen me at my literal worst and she stayed. not a lot of people in my life stay. what do i do? she knows i have bpd but i don’t think she knows much about a FP. do i tell her she’s mine and that’s why i’ve been distancing myself. i don’t want her to think i just don’t like her...