Hey guys I'm 21 years old. I've been somewhat sad or depressed before when i was 17/18. After that I was actually happy for a while or maybe just the thought of being happy made me feel as if i was okay throughout those times.  

Currently, my mental state just fucks me over every time during midnight (since I'm just by myself). During the day, i have things that keep my mind off just thinking about myself. It's a weird feeling, the thought of me knowing it will be okay and these feelings will pass by for a while but just that mental pain that I can't explain, it still hurts.