20M 
I just can’t, im so stupid. Everything I do I do it wrong. No matter what, no matter how much effort I put on that there’s always somebody so much better than me. It’s really frustrating. I hate myself so damn much. 

Last week in a frustration attack I “accidentally” broke a inner glass door (dunno if it says like that, I don’t speak 100% English, cause stupid) and it cut my feet and hands. I was expecting to a glass cut some vein or something, but then mom ran upstairs crying and thinking I was several injured. I told her the problems that I’m passing trough and she told me that I had so much life forward and that she doesn’t know what would she do without me, that broke my heart and made me think. 

But I really hate myself as I already told, I literally suck at everything. The worse thing is that I cannot quit or “surrender” things that I wanna do, even though it hurts me a lot. I just wanna quit everything and stay in peace. 

I tried to play video games with friends, I got frustrated because a suck, I tried to play tennis, I got my ankle injured, I suck. I suck at college. It’s frustrating. 

I also suffer from anxiety and depression, and as you can see, from low self-esteem