This whole year, I haven't got proper mental health help from therapy. I have been put on wait, hold and cancelled appointments the whole time. I have in total only had 5 appointments this year? That barely nothing. And today, my therapist told me, they have decided to cancel my treatment because I'm not "ill enough" and can fix my problems others ways that is not via therapy. Which is hurting. I feel invalid because 2 sessions ago, I asked to be hospitalised because I was feeling dangerous suicidal but now they decided over me that I'm not "ill enough". I have been fighting for my proper diagnoses, but they don't listen, I have mentioned bpd, and want futher screening on me, and i had some and they said i show symptoms but dont want to diagnose me. And now they cancelled me, so now I totally won't get diagnoses or help. Im so tired of being treated like im garbage bag... I just have now more trust issues from therapist.