No matter how much I try or what I do to stop feeling like this. I always end up feeling like this. I hate it. I don't want to be a passive spectator in my own life. But things don't seem to change. 

Worst part is that I really had the audacity to believe that things were getting better.

There is like a million years of gap between me and every other person. I am miserable and sick of being miserable. I am anxious and feel extremely isolated.

I don't seem to have anyone that I can turn to for support.