Ethics, values, norms... None of them is important nor is inherently meaningful to me.

I have basic animal insticts like showering, staying in warm or resting on couch. I believe I am a bit smarter than average. 

I would not care if everyone died, if world collapsed or sun exploded.

I would not bleed. Maybe I would cry because it is giving me a subtle and profound pain to endure.

I feel selfish yet honest. It is not that anyhing is eventually meaningless since we will cease to exist when we die but that things are mere meaningless. 

Reaching a goal is like a dead end, you have to put another goal. When you can not reach a goal you say I tried maybe this way is better or other nonsense. Humans always justify things somehow at the end and say journey matters etc.

Idk man my diagnosis will be probably depressed. But I enjoy food I can sleep and believe I am rational. The opposite way would be believing an illusion.