Idk why but last 2 days been triggered and I guess it from everything having an association with things. For example during my training for work there was clients of a daughter n father n she sat on her lap n made me sad bc my dad n I never did that and not in a jealous way . It 5 years soon and also someone had an emergency happend  another day to a different person at work and it reminded me of my past OD. I just keep struggling and staring at. My food my mom begging me to not do med but I can't find anyone who cares enough to help me . I am about to give up on therapy I feel. Lol my mom is  having a sit down lunch while I wait to get picked up my bday is tomorrow just tired and I should of worked more hours bc we r short staff bc I'm not good at the task it not my main location for work but looks awful. My physcrtist of 2 years is leaving bc she gave up on me. Also my bday tomorrow and I'm going on a trip with bfay to celebrate a wedding.  F 25 as of thur lol