Im 20 i have no friends every kind of  relationship i make i turn it toxic. i've lost all my friends i've been lonely for 3 years now, i've tried to change myself, to make new ones and maintain the friendship (turn the page n start  a new beginning) but I am unable to make a relationship last more than 9 months I am desperate I do not know what to do anymore I am afraid of being abandoned again I can not stand loneliness I just want to find a normal life like the one I had before I don't want to live in the past anymore but what am i supposed to do when my present is so monotonous
Sorry about my english
I just wanted to talk