So pretty much I’ve had extremely severe anxiety all my life, to the point where it would make me physically sick in public or restaurants. When I was 16 I got it under control really well. Started working two jobs and going to college on early enrollment. I’m now 19 and I’ve built a wonderful life so far and I work really hard and it’s never been a problem or stressed me out. However about two months ago my cat ran away (she is back) however she is my first pet pet since moving out and her being gone sent me into the worst long term episode I’ve had since I was a kid and it’s completely reverted all my progress. Since then I feel like 24/7 I cannot shake the feeling of impending doom and being on the verge of a panic attack. Every single function of every day is like pulling my own teeth out. I wake up in the middle of the night already having a panic attack that eventually leads to vomitting until nothing else can come out then I just dry heave and cry. Going to either one of my jobs is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, I am having a panic attack on my way there almost every day. As I type this I am sitting with my family trying to enjoy dinner but I feel like I’m going to start crying and vomitting any minute now. Everything is fine, I don’t know why I’m like this. I feel like such a burden to everyone else because they spend so much time calming me down. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I want to enjoy my life and my time so bad but my brain won’t allow me to and it’s breaking my heart. I just don’t know what to do anymore I cannot keep going on like this.