i feel like i’m going mad. what’s worse? i don’t think they know they’re my FP. what’s even more worse? i can’t usually express or communicate how i feel without coming off as clingy or attaching or annoying.

I think i love them and i don’t think they do which is fine but i feel like there’s such a lack of communication with our feelings now and i feel insane always thinking about them.

The thing is most times we aren’t even messaging, due to time zones or whatever else, and it feels like my heads playing a record in my head over and OVER of this person... i’m trying to explain this more clearly and i know it probably doesn’t make much sense but for example i could start thinking about them and it feels obsessive. the thoughts always lead to more whether positive or negative but it usually feels  destructive. 
It also feels like while i overthink of this person i feel like i could experience going through a heart break, or going from shedding tears and breaking down (by myself) usually after they stop replying / reply next day.. so i’m pretty much doing this to myself?? if that makes sense bc when they reply it’s just casual convo right? but just not in my fucking head. i feel insane for trying to explain rn

i’m sorry i’m not clear headed right now but if anyone knows how to deal with FP obsession from a distance i would appreciate any support....idk man. i feel like a mess ever since i developed so much feelings for my fp. and i wish i could undo it all sometimes.