I’m in a really... depressing situation to say the least. 

First some background. 
Over the past two years I have had several different jobs in different fields and had to take four separate medical leaves because of my severe mental illness. These leaves required me to either be hospitalized or be in a partial hospital program for acute psychiatric concerns. It has dawned on me recently that perhaps it isn’t the jobs that are the issue but myself and my struggles. 

At this time I am on medical leave and about to start a partial hospital program. In the past I have gone on leave and upon returning have had to either go back in leave within two weeks or ended up quitting the job because my mental health immediately returned to how it was prior to the leave. My therapist (who I have only been seeing for a few months but like a lot despite some disagreements) thinks I just need to find a different job or return to the same place after the leave and “try harder” to detach myself and not let it bother me. Given my past issues I do not think returning to work is going to be successful and I will likely completely relapse and either have to quit or just “push through” which will inevitably... not end well if you catch my drift. Because of this I applied for disability benefits due to severe mental illness. My therapist and psychiatrist both think that I will not be awarded disability or that it will not be sufficient to pay my bills. 

So what’s the fucking answer? Return to work and be miserable which will lead to me sooner or later relapsing to the same or worse mental state? I’ve thought about work from home jobs as well but I am either not qualified for them or would absolutely despise the work (i.e. phone support customer service, call centers, whatever). I have no options, no answers, and I’m utterly at a loss. I don’t see how this could possibly play out in a way that I end up being okay.