F/early 20s. I recently developed an anxiety disorder I think. Intrusive thoughts, walking around feeling impending doom, as if something catastrophic is about to happen. A nauseous pit in my chest, feel like throwing up. Will have a good day and suddenly I crash by the end. Developed a health phobia. If not about myself, I'm frequently paranoid that my family members will suddenly develop an illness or die. So I get these vivid images of how I wouldnt be able to go on without my parents or how they would react when their parents (my grandparents) die, or even how they would react to each others death. I have broken down crying multiple times. Just typing this makes me cry. Turns out I have been having panic attacks but they aren't like the hyperventilating, crying, gasping, wet panic attack I had one time so I didn't recognize these. This isn't normal, which scares me, which makes me more anxious. 

&amp;#x200B;

Anyway, because this is so recent, is there hope for me to recover? Or is an anxiety disorder one of those things that once you get it, you have it forever, just in lighter forms. Because I don't know how I could handle this if it doesn't leave. Started online CBT with a "therapist" but I can't aafford a psychologist and am scared of meds.