I (f21) need to learn that he (m20) is not my everything and my life doesn’t revolve around him. He is getting sick of my bs and me getting upset over small things and causing drama. He called me childish and said it’s pushing him away. That I need to have my own life away from him and not make him my life because I obsess over the relationship too much. In turn, every little thing makes me feel like shit like I cry and wanna self harm etc. And beg for his attention. But it’s so frequent he is sick of it now. I have pushed all my friends away for him. So now I am alone and it just makes me worse.

I just wanna be better. I always go back to the cycle. How can I have a life with and without him? I don’t wanna push him away I think he’s literally on the edge of ending things (again).

We broke up first time because I went insane, shouted at him and just literally had the worst episode. So he had enough and left me. But we kept in contact hence the getting back together.

I acted like this in my previous relationship too but he kinda just accepted my ‘abuse’. But he told me I hurt him.