I guess that doesn’t quite make sense. I’m married, very happily, with four kids and another on the way. I’ve been incredibly manic for months now and I keep getting these deep existential moments of inner turmoil that I wipe away with impulsive spending. I feel like a fraction of the man I know I am. How do I just embrace these flaws and live my life to serve my family without messing it all up? Idk. This doesn’t even make sense. I just need to know I’m not alone.