I'm just fucking tired. Everyday I get up there is no meaning in life for me, I just live in a cage. Plus there is some very bad things I have with my marks, it's almost over, new year is fucking coming and I am in the baddest mood I've felt in my life. If I wont go up with my marks I'm gonna stay for the second year, fucking Merry Christmas, Happy New Year! And anything I try to do it screws up, and the time flies so fast, and it only gets worse and worse. I see others doing great achievements, like my best friend, and he is a very positive man, trying and doing everything, and there is just me, exhausted and I don't want to live, there's no happiness for me, only problems that get me feel only worse. What I am living for? What I am catching for? Fucking nothing, I see no interest in life I am just a stupid boy who just fucking feels some very strange stupid feeling. The teachers are angry at me. And here it is, 2 weeks until New Year and I just fucking gonna have four 2 marks in the quarter and I'm gonna stay for the second year. I fucking hate life, why should I do something, try to do it IF I HAVE NOTHING TO LIFE FOR?