I understand how it feels, High School was not great with me, I dealt with my dad and stepmom(Who were out of state at that point) not being active enough in my life, My mother's failed relationship with a toxic and selfish ex from 2016-2019(They may have broken up, but tried to be friends(which failed, due to the ex's narcissism and huge ego)(Who I despise gravely for him beating me, lying to my face about shit, trying to turn me against my mother(Whose not perfect either but still did a good job protecting and raising me)), and causing me to almost attempt suicide at 17. I was and still am incredibly protective of my mother. But I was always targeted for being "different" and people ignoring me for being "different", and the assignments my teachers giving, no matter if I passed or failed, being so forced, and rushed, and impossible to understand or learn. I'm so glad I graduated after the pandemic, I never want to set foot in that school again. College and eventually my jobs made me feel more welcome and at home than school ever did. You have value and purpose, and you have a lot of life in you. Don't ever waste it.