Everything's going wrong. I'll be homeless in a few months, I can't get any support, I have no friends or family. I just wanna die I absolutely hate living. I've ordered a will and started getting things together to 'opt out' of this living deal. Wanna go the whole 'put me down out of my misery like you would a dog' route. Plus I'm an organ donor so I'll probably create more good that way anyway

I keep trying to chase up support and find other housing services (I'm in 24/7 support rn but they have to move me out on my birthday as I'll be too old for funding eligibility) but I keep falling through the crack of too high need/ not high need enough because they can't trust me to not 'opt out' but they don't wanna put me on a ward. 

It's just all fucked. I'm in UK and they've announced further cuts to NHS and social care so things are only gonna get worse. 

I hate living so much. I hate so many things about this society we've created that no one changes because it benefits a small group of people. It's all fucked up beyond repair it seems.