I cannot handle the relationship any more. He is hurting me mentally to the point it is abusive (name calling and toying). He is using my anxiety against me. I am telling him my fears and he is making them true. I need to break up but it will break the last I have. I'm on a family vacation and he made me swore not to tell them we are back together so I can't tell them. I dont have wifi so I cannot tekst or watch stuff to get my mind of things. And he knows that. I will suffer and he wont