I got a bf after high school. We met online and he drove 4 hrs to meet up and go on a date. Since the first time we met we were exclusive. He’s  a bit older than me with a lot more experience and I feel drawn to him. Since he’s sweet And respectful I made him my world. I wanted to talk about/to  him all the time. I wanted to see him every weekend. I just wanted him to give all his love and attention to me 24/7. Quickly learning that he has other priorities sometimes. It’s still very hard. We’ve been together for a year and I still don’t know how to deal or communicate with him properly. Sometimes he tells me I make him feel like he’s the worst person ever because I react so intensely when he upsets me even just a little bit. I withdraw myself from him and feel like I need to ignore him to make myself feel better. I feel like he’s going to get tired of me so soon, but I can’t afford therapy right now which makes me feel so helpless.