I don’t know if anyone can help.  And being 33 He/Him, I can understand I probably did it to my self.  Maybe i am just being a “bitch” cuz I hear it all the time that I am to nice and it makes people calling me a bitch.  I am just following the treat people how you want to be treated rule 

I think to much where I back track years… I mean years where think did I do the right thing.


I feel like what others think have made me a slave to the point where I am who I am because of it.

I don’t know if this is depression.  ( I have seen a therapist and was prescribed lexapro In the past but couldn’t continue because of no health insurance. 


I have recently lost my job and it made me feel like I was not good enough. 

I overthink to the point where I don’t want to hang out with friends I’ve known for a while. (10+years.) I just want to stay home and not worry if I was well behaved at the hang out. ( not saying I was I obnoxious in anyway, but after hanging out I will constantly think “did I do ok?
I’m losing interest in what I love. I played video games but it doesn’t interest me as before.  where in the past it was a thing in my life I can escape to, and im just contemplating about life and how I have not accomplished anything to the point where my parents and family would be proud of me.  I think about my mother a lot and wishing I can make life easier for her and my family.  I really can’t go to my friends to talk about this because,  I have been absent because I don’t want to “hang out.”

My friends they are good people.  They will take care of strangers no doubt because I have seen it with my own two eyes. 

And I feel I am ungrateful at the same time because I have friends that will care for your well being.


I really don’t know where this post is going,  but I have been pondering on this for awhile and feel like I have not been a good son , I feel theY are always looking down on me,  where I know that it is far from the truth. 


I probably just need someone to talk to. 

Or maybe I am just lonely. 

Idk.