These past months have put me through hell. All I want is to be happy... I don’t want to go into detail but I got kicked out of my home, boyfriend and I would argue allot because of stress and now we found a new place moved in and I have a new job... today all I really wanted was to have a great night with my boyfriend... but it turned into how I don’t tell him how I feel without him asking at least twice.... that goes into anxiety and childhood trauma... but in the three years we have been together I’ve been getting so much better... or I think so I bring up how I feel and I tell the truth even if I need a minute to gather my self and courage... but tonight made me feel like I don’t try hard enough. That he asked me what was wrong many times and I said truthfully that I’m tired and frustrated because he was upset earlier and it rubbed off on me. I was getting activated because he asked so many times when I told the truth send he brings up a lot (in the past I’d have to ask a ton and pry it out of you) but it hasn’t been like that in a long time! Sometimes I have days when I don’t want to talk right away but will later on... but it makes me angry because it feels like he puts that in my face everything and it hurts my feelings because I’ve grown a lot and opened up so much and it seems like he doesn’t notice sometimes... it just really hurts me...