I've dug quite the rut for myself. Hurting mentally,physically and financially and I don't know how to escape. I'm a drunk asshole because I don't know how to cope with this bullshit. I'm a former h addict that just kicked methadone several months ago and I'm just replacing that shit with another downer. I want to be content so bad but it's just one thing after another these days. I'm in debt because I didn't want my dog to die. Why is life so hard??? I work my ass off and it's just  not enough