So over the years I’ve been dealing with anxiety, it was so bad in my teens I had to drop out of school. But somehow in my mid twenties I overcame it, or so I thought. I went through so much when I was 23 that You’d think it would’ve come back with a vengeance. I’d do everything alone and without hesitation, going to dinner, concerts, last minute plans, the works. I’m about to turn 27, and over the last 5-6 months my anxiety has been at an all time high, having panic attacks daily, and barely being able to leave my house. 
Last night I was supposed to go to a huge drag show that I bought tickets for and have been looking forward to since July of 2021. As I started getting ready I started shaking, crying, having a full blown panic attack. I almost felt like I was about to faint. My doctor prescribed me hydroxyzine for panic attacks but it doesn’t work for me. I wound up giving my tickets to my friend and her husband. Once I did that, the anxiety started to fade over a couple hours, but I got extremely depressed and embarrassed. I’m so crushed and disappointed in myself that I missed the event, I feel so left out and alone. I’m tired of living my life trapped inside my room and I’m afraid it’s never going to get better. My anxiety is controlling my life and I don’t know how to escape it. 
Has anyone else dealt with agoraphobia and have any tips or anything they’ve learned that might help? I can’t live my life like this.