Does anyone else feel this way? It's always a 50/50 chance that I'll actually enjoy myself while doing my favorite activities and I feel like it's getting harder every day.


My lifes a long story but the point is it's hard enough as it is especially with my good pals anxiety, depression, adhd, and bipolar disorder and all the problems that regularly come up in life, I learned the more 
 I distracted myself  with activities and hobbies, the less time I'd have to think and lose myself in negative thoughts.


(My hobbies are movies, video games, and most media btw)


Sometimes there's weeks or months where I don't do some of my favorite pass times because I'm frankly afraid I won't enjoy myself and its very very depressing, feels like I can't escape my life and it sucks since that's how alot of people get by.


Don't know what to really do :/