I've spun out of control. Rampant, excessive substance abuse of 6+ different drugs. I want to kill myself and feel ashamed that my friends and family even know who I am.

I get sick at myself when I look in the mirror. I feel like death isn't far away.

Don't know what to do. Some people say the psych ward saved there lives other say it's hell. This is my last chance and I need to make it count.