Like when I’m feeling awful, or even suicidal, I use the opportunity to reach out to my friends and fps over text and tell them how I feel, and ask for someone to talk to. Every time I tell them honestly how I’m feeling, they always attempt to make me feel better. This feeds the need for validation, because it’s always intense compliments telling me how much they care and need me. I feel really bad seeking my validation through my episodes, and then it leads to an even worse episode, where I regret bothering/annoying them with my problems. Then I apologise for bothering them and they tell me it’s all fine and they care, which in turn feeds my need for validation. It’s a cycle I can’t break.