thought i was over my old fp and didn't care for him anymore until i randomly got this pang of sadness out of nowhere and started vividly playing out a scenario in my head where we get into a huge fight lol. i guess that's there because we haven't really established if we're not gonna be acquainted with eachother anymore and it's just a sort of uncomfortable silence but if this is my brains way of telling me i need to talk to him and sort shit out i do not wanna do it!! im scared if i talk to him again i'm either gonna get attached again (if it goes well that is) or i'm gonna lash out on him like in the imaginary fight and im honestly not the biggest fan of either outcome :/ this blows