So after being out for little over a week with covid, all of a sudden my anxiety attacks are back in full swing. I've been without attacks for some time and I just don't understand why now all of a sudden I'm having anxiety about going to a job I really don't mind too much. Some of it is frustrating and can be overwhelming, but I work in an office setting with several of my close friends. I saw a doctor and on top of my 15mg of Lexapro I've been on for years, he gave me 10mg propranolol for my attacks. I also have a vitamin D deficiency just like last time i was having bad attacks so im taking vitamins. Only been a few days with the beta blockers but I'm still basically terrified that I'm going to be anxious and have an attack at work. 

It's like once you've had an attack somewhere, just going back triggers the memory. Despite the countless memories of everything being completely fine.

I really really don't want to lose or quit my job. 3 weeks ago I loved it. Trying to get a therapist but it's taking time and I can't keep calling out of work for days at a time. Last time I had it this bad I did end up quitting but I hated that job. 

I'm gonna be 32 this year and I don't want this to be my life. I want to be able to go to work and enjoy my friends company and be back to my old self again. I hate that you can be anxious and not even really now why.