I'm writing in a journal about an experience that happened to me when I was 14 that was super traumatizing for me.
How do you process this stuff?
I want to write about it to get it off my chest. I want to release the emotions I have attached to it.
I spoke about it in counselling last year also. 
But after learning so much about BPD I'm having memories from that year of my life.How needy and paranoid I felt afterward. I'm now understanding that it had a lot to do with this traumatic incident.
That's when the neediness and fears of abandonment really started coming up.

What advice do you have about this kind of stuff?
What do I do when it comes up?
I don't want to ignore it I feel like it's coming up for a reason.