Hi there , 

I've been in therapy for over 5 yrs. My therapist has never really flat out given me a diagnosis. I am now like 98% positive I have BPD and/ or possibly bipolar. (And btw I am asking today in session with therapist) I just want to hear what you guys think.

It just makes so much sense reflecting back on erratic life decisions, shit to show for relationships, and just they way I've operated. It seems so obvious now.

The fact that she hasn't said anything or mentioned other treatments makes me feel like "am I making this up ??" 

I have such bad paranoia at times, think ppl hate me, find me annoying, I barely even trust myself to make simple decisions, the social anxiety can be so crippling. 

So if in today's therapy it is said I just have depression/ anxiety,  like that's going to make me feel even more psychotic. 

Idk I am SO SICK AND TIRED of thinking all the time. But I CANT HELP IT. 

End rant.