Last year I had a situationship that lasted a few months. It's been a year and I can't move on, I feel deeply abandoned seeing her enjoying life and being happy, I envy her. She was the first and only connection I had, and it meant a lot to me, but not to her. 

She left me for her ex at my lowest, where I needed her. Obviously i was needy and I made her move further and further away, to the point where she blocked me in everything possible. The fact that it's been a year and I'm still talking about it makes me sad and just reinforces that I have problems. I don't know what to do, I will probably go back to taking medication.

During that time I met other people, but no connection was created. I feel like it was an extremely rare event in my life, to connect with someone. I feel like I'll only move on when I finally connect with someone else and that person connects with me, but so far it's been disaster after disaster. i feel alone all the time after she left me. i dont know what to do anymore.