I have been trying to apply for jobs since 2020 and I got my first interview today. I was so excited about it, I started thinking my life finally has a purpose. I received a rejection email after the interview and now I feel so terrible. This is my last year of trying to force this life thing . I have been suicidal since my late teens. I’m 24 now and so close to doing it. I stuck around hoping things would get better but it’s not happening . I have no job , friends or a partner