It's been 6 or 7 years since my first manic episode, mania and some years later I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. I suspect I might also be Borderline but I'm not diagnosed for it. I myself am also a psychologist, recently graduated at the age of 29.

Before that first mania, I was a great read, even an intellectual. I was reading a lot. But since I got narcissistically abused by a devilish friend and had bipolar 1, I lost my ability to read. I can not read. I mourn over the time I spent without reading. I'm perplexed, I don't know what really caused it.

I was a swimmer, amateur but I was a swimmer and I was only rating the healthy foods, organic and stuff. Now, I lost all my ability to control myself because it all seem pointless. I still irregularly swim, but can't control my diet as I used do.

I was moderately social, had close friends. All of them left me without any explanation after my first manic episode. Now, I feel like I even lost my social skills to the point that isolated me.

Thanks to God, I'm stable for a year, first time for 7 years but these issues are eating me out.

Thanks for reading. Peace.