Like the title suggests, I honestly keep living each day like something bad is going to happen.

I don't know if anyone else is the same. I have 3 beautiful kids, an ex wife who I get on really well with. I have a great job, yet I can't stop thinking about my past and future.

I have this thing called sexomnia. It means you touch, grope people in your sleep. Of course when I found out I did this in my sleep, I stopped sleeping next to people. Not that I did a lot anyway, but when I was younger I used to party a lot. One party I was at, I fell asleep. This girl lay next to me. I woke up the next morning with her friends and bf calling me a creep and a pervert.

This is stuck with me for years as I must have groped her or something in my sleep. It hurts me to think that and I just want to apologise to her. It's been almost 15 years now since this happened but still worries me till this day. 1. That she might called the cops and this is the bad thing I've been waiting on and 2. That she genuinely thinks I'm a creep.

I'm far from that. I just want to get on with my life and feel normal. Work hard, be a great Dad to my kids and be happy.