So I had a hallucinogenic induced panic attack that put me in the hospital recently and it also included my relationship ending with my partner. The thing is I'm supposed to see a doctor here in a couple weeks about my self medicating habits hopefully to get put on a working ADHD medication. I self medicate quite regularly including drinking smoking weed pretty much a full poly substance user. The thing is now I'm depressed and I'm actually super into sobriety when I'm depressed. Im kind of a masochist and actively deprive myself from anything that might make me feel better when I'm depressed. Im seeing the doctor to address my drug habits i regularly indulge in. The issue is I don't do drugs when I'm depressed and I'm worried that my actual issue will be overlooked because I don't self medicate when I'm depressed. Idk if this is relatable at all as I only see articles about people who self medicate because they are depressed, or people going sober experiencing depression. I really hope I'm back to regular by the time of my appointment to address my drug issue. But depressed me actively chooses sobriety and I worry my regular self issue will be completely overlooked.