My thoughts tend to be chaotic, so are my actions. I tend to react to situations in extremely exagerated and different ways. My thoughts change, sometimes it feels like I have multiple perceptions in one body. I tend to have short lived strong delusions of plots against me. 
I have emotional highs, where I feel invincible and think I litteraly have superpowers, I feel fast.
Then the same day I could be very sad and think of suicide and harming myself.
I also feel like there is something in my house when there isn't, I see in my periphreal vision people. I hear things that aren't there, I have walked with a knife in my hand around my house just to feel safe.

When it comes to bpd, it is a personality disorder, but most of this feels foreign, it is not embedded in my personality.