I started it at around 14 and I'm 18 now. Multiple times throughout those 4 years, my psychiatrist and doctor tried to wean me off of them when I was in a good place and I just fucking spiraled. I had great supports, a structured routine, and a stress free environment each time, and I just fucking fell into a pit of depression every time. I know there's a period of withdrawal to get through when you start the process to stop an SSRI but my doctor and psychiatrist stopped the process each time because they thought I might not get through it okay, and I wouldn't be able to function without the meds. All my emotions, both positive and negative, are dulled and I feel like a fucking zombie on this drug. I'm not myself, I used to have a bubbly personality and now it's just nothing. I'm just tired of this.