My fp and I broke up (relatively) mutually just over a year ago and I’m seriously struggling to let him go. I was hospitalised in May of this year where I was diagnosed with BPD. He was my first true love and the love I felt was so intense I always felt like something was different. He loved me too but not the same as I loved him. That is clear to me now. Despite the amount of time it has been, I still feel as though the breakup is fresh sometimes and I feel pain to the point where it is not only mental, but almost physical. The obsessive thought of him having moved on with his life takes over me when I am triggered. I have also been diagnosed with CPTSD and the triggers regarding my him are of the same intensity as my trauma. I don’t know what to do and how to move on. I could really use any advice or words of comfort or experience. I went to someone I know with BPD who just said “find a new FP” which doesn’t seem healthy at all. I just need some help from people who might understand. I feel so isolated and alone.