gf broke up with me a couple weeks ago we live together. we’ve been talking a lot and trying to understand each other basically. idk what the future is. yesterday though she said she wants us each to work on our own stuff completely for ourselves, not the other person. i can’t understand that at all. i said that’s fine and makes sense for her but i can’t define anything as being exclusively for myself because it’s not going to be. like, anything i do has Everything in it. i am going to be doing it for myself and for her and for everything else in my life. i can’t just say i’ll do it for just me because i know i’m not going to be doing it for just me exclusively, it’s everything that is around me too. even if we are just friends i still want to get better to be better for her as much as i want to be better for me.

maybe we just have different ways of seeing the world? idk. does anyone else relate to this way of looking at things? i just know how i am, and i know i can’t separate my emotions that easily, and the reason we got here in the first place is not communicating well. i’m trying to be honest about how i feel even if it sounds weird and intense i guess