I've been dating my SO for three years and have had struggled with BPD and mental illnesses for my entire life. I opened up to my boyfriend last night about everything I struggled with, and came clean about all the things I've done in the past/childhood that made me seem crazy. I've never told anyone else this and I have never been this honest with someone.

However, since I've done this he has been emotionally shut off and distant. Did I overshare? Did I scare him? I'm afraid that I once again ruined a relationship, and my only long term one at that.