I've lost all my hobbies and interests. So much to the point that I hardly feel like I can have a decent conversation about anything. Everything I say is either a literal joke or is said in a jokingly manner. I can't move past biting banter.I can't stop being the WaAAaaCkY character that I've put on over these past couple of years. I get older and somehow I feel more and more like a child. I feel like a joke of a fucking human being.

People think I'm so FUN!!! I'm HILARIOUS!!! Everyone thinks I must be busy all the time hanging out with all these cool people all the time, when in reality I NEVER FUCKING DO! I'm a fucking silly stupid little side character that pops in and out of people's lives from time to time. I'm not even the main character in my own life. 