This is it , one more month is all im willing to give it , one more month of trying , one more month struggling .  
i've only ever wanted to be normal , have a normal life , have normal interactions with people .  
I don't know whats wrong with me , i feel like im in the truman show or that my life is the butt of a bad Joke .  
boy do i try to hide it but people always seem to eventually see me for who i truly am , a failure , a less-thanhuman entity , a fucking garbage bag.  
all my life , all my fucking life ,i tried so hard just to be normal , not to be someone memorable just to be SOMEONE , Human  , a person you wouldn't think twice about .  
"you don't know what tomorrow has in store" oh trust me but i do , the same shit ,am i ever going to change ? definetly not , i had 20 years of trials and when did that get me .  
I am a sad excuse of a human being