I want to quit cheer. It makes me feel like shit. I want to cut, it makes me feel validated in my depression. I want to overdose and die. I want to throw myself down the stairs. I want to drive into the lake. I want to burn myself. I want to chop my arm off. I want all these things but if I’m unsuccessful in an attempt then I have to deal with all of this again. I’m done. I want to be gone.