For some reason I feel like I’m really dizzy... like something is not right. It started coincidentally right after I got turned away from 2 therapy places and people on the bus seemed to nervous laugh when I walk by. I decided not to do therapy for now partly because I am discouraged from being turned down. I have this belief that it is not right to live good right now. My friend said good changes might come when she moves away but so far that’s not the case. I keep trying to cope by lying in bed way longer than I should, just trying to relax. I have delusions that some people are in Hell, but they look normal when I see/talk to them so how does that work?