I know that I can’t necessarily put the fault on my BPD but I really think there’s a high chance that my borderline is contributing to me lying.

I seem to lie about pointless things at times like what I ate, how I feel about things, etc etc. the thing is, sometimes my lying gets way overboard.

I mostly lie to protect my own self from judgment and make people see me the way id want myself to be seen, rather than the way I actually am.

For example; if someone asked about my past in hs, (I’m a sophomore in Uni btw) - I’d just make up stories about having a good hs life and all the stuff I wanted but none of it is true.

This lying has affected some of my most valuable relationships. What sucks most is the consequence that comes with lying. It’s one lie first - then it goes spiraling down like crazy, with one lie over another in order to cover the initial ones.

I completely hate myself for it. I’ve been a compulsive liar for quite a while now. I never really felt sympathy for lying in my past. I never really thought about it. But now, I found this girl that I’m absolutely in love with (online) and I find myself making so much shit up and i can’t even begin to explain how guilty and bad it makes me feel.

I hate myself for this. I hate it. I just wish I could be normal. Any advice would be highly appreciated.. also I don’t lie about major things like my age or anything of that sort, it’s mostly like what I do in my day etc etc.