I (36M) love her (46F) I truly do, she makes comments like  you're too clingy + I need my space. She will go visit her family + friends for extended weekends and tell me not to call her. She tells me she doesn't want to work or help me with bills. She tells me it's hard for her to open up to me and love me like I love her. She says it's because of her past relationships she can't open up to me. She makes me feel like I'm a pain in the ass. I feel empty inside and she's only with me so I can provide for her. When we got engaged I was so excited to show off the news on my Instagram. She added me a few weeks later and she didn't have anything about her engagement, nothing eluding to her even being in a relationship. Worst yet she still had picture of her and her ex bf on there.  I'm trying to be optimistic and hopeful. We don't live together but I'm hoping it will get better once we do. Needed to vent and get this off my chest.