so i’m 19f and never been on this subreddit before but scared and need advice, diagnosed with type 2 about a year ago after a hypomanic episode. lately i have been depressed, abusing benzos that are prescribed to me, self harming again after being clean for a while, and not actively trying to die but not actively trying not to die, i’ve never been to the psych ward before but i feel like i should go but im scared that (1) they’re gonna take away my benzos, (2) my parents will judge with me because we already don’t have a good relationship and they won’t even say the word bipolar, and (3) i’m in college and i don’t want to fall behind or be judged by my professors when i tell them why i was gone. i’m just lost on what to do.