Hi I’m 23 F, I’ve always struggled with depression but this year it’s at it’s high. I am struggling between trying to take care of my mother who has brain cancer and now can’t walk and she’s in a really shitty living facility, this is the main effect. And trying to maintain friendships, my relationship, and keep a steady income. I am so tired all the time and I don’t want to go anywhere or do anything anymore. And when I do have the energy all I do is work, or have to go see my mom and my friends and boyfriend probably feel like I don’t value them. Besides that, I am at a complete loss and I feel like im going to be miserable until my mom dies and even worse after the fact. Im so stressed out worrying about her, I don’t even get the chance to worry about myself. Everyone tells me I need to focus on myself and set boundaries with my mother because she’s always calling me to come save the day. but I feel so guilty all the time because my mom is miserable, I’m the #1 person who’s always there when she needs someone, and it’s been a rough past few months. My mother cry’s everyday begging to come home. I’ve tried to think of any way possible to fix this and I can’t, I’ve accepted it but it still hurts. I feel like a victim and I’m in si much pain there is not a day that goes by where my heart doesn’t hurt, and I have lost all interest and hope in everything. I keep telling myself to push and just get through it but while I’m trying to get through anything my energy levels are so low I want to cry or just goto sleep, or eat. It’s disgusting, I’ve never felt so lost in my entire life. Sometimes I think about suicide which I would never do. There’s also so much other stuff just adding onto all of this that would make this longer than it already is. Any advice or uplifting messages wound be appreciated.