hi so on wednesday i was playing with my dog and some saliva leaped into my face, more specifically my cheek, near to some eczema that i have. of course i immediately panicked. i washed my face like crazy, i even put some alcohol in it, basically everything i could find. it’s been five days and my mind can't help but think, oh but what if some saliva particles fell on my mucous membranes and i didn’t notice? but since it's on my face, i can't do the post-exposure protocol anymore, because the virus is probably already on its way to my brain, isn't it? what if that enormous hole in the garage where my dog sleeps is full of rabid bats? in a town where at least one or two rabid bats are reported every year? so that’s it, i’m definitely going to die! i’m going to die from a vaccinated AND asymptomatic dog! that didn't even bite me in the first place! oh wait, so fear of impending death is also a rabies sign? SPLENDID, that’s like the last thing that i needed to hear. 

no but seriously, i’ve cried, screamed, i want to go to the hospital, i want to go to the hospital so badly that tomorrow i’ll just might run away from school to get my shots done. i no longer give a fuck about my abusive mom nor the smack that awaits me. i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die in such a horrible way. i’m way too young yet. there’s still things i want to do in my life. please can someone comfort me? or tell me that everything’s gonna be ok? please