Title says it all. I have both depression and SAD, and due to being currently in a depressive episode (let's call it that, though honestly it's more Depression Showdown Season Whatever !) I'm back on meds. I'm pretty high-functioning, so overall I can deal with it.

But.

For some dumb reasons, my meds just... stop working the week before my period. I can't focus, I make dumb mistakes at work (which come back in my face after, which frustrates and stresses me out, which amplifies my anxiety... which means I'll either end up stress eating or stress fasting. 

Honestly, I hate it. I'm ace, so I don't bother with the pill, and I don't want to get back on it, but sometimes it feel like it's the only way to ensure my meds MIGHT do the job the way they should. Or maybe it's my thyroid that screws me up but I live in a place where it's stupidly hard to see a GP OR a specialist (I live in France, so free healthcare, but it does not help me when it comes to FINDING a doctor...) so I'm not sure how to have it checked. 

Anyways. I needed to rant, because it's either that or cry because my day at work sucked, and I still have 10 days to wait till I see my psychiatrist to change my meds and ask if I can have my blood and thyroid checked, and I already know my boss will find something else to be pissed about tomorrow. So yeah.

I really don't want to have to change meds. I have pretty much no side-effects from them. I just wish they did the job EVERY DAY instead of being useless almost one third of the month.