I have a hard time letting people in but when I do I love them HARD. Maybe go the point of suffocation and it’s really hard for me to to be so clingy. Every time they take time away from me I feel like they hate me and don’t wanna be around me. I feel so alone and it sends me into a depressive episode and I end up cutting people off for DAYS to WEEKS. In my head I tell my self, “okay stop. They still cars about you, they’re busy” “calm down” “you are loved” but it’s just impossible to believe. I want to be normal so badly. I hate being myself most days but especially right now. 
Sometimes I wish people I cared about were as clingy as me but I know what I feel isn’t right...