I started showing signs of mental illness at around 7 years old I was first diagnosed with extreme agoraphobia to the point of missing most of my schooling. No therapist would take me and I was never happy I only cried and hid from everything and everyone. 
       Middle school is when I started self destructing completely. I self harmed and did drugs everyday for 3 years. I refused all help and no medication worked. They would only diagnose me with anxiety or depression even though it was way more. 
      When Highschool started I was in a physically abusive relationship and still followed my old habits. I ended up in the psych ward twice in 3 years. I didn’t do any school work because I had convinced myself I’d kill my self before I turned 18 so it didn’t matter 
      I turned 18 in august. They finally got me the correct diagnosis and I got the right meds. I started to become myself again. I started working at hard school and with my own mental health. I was able to leave all the toxic traits and people behind. I grew into a completely new amazing person and I haven’t felt this okay and happy in my whole life. 
          I applied for the college of my dreams after working as hard as I could this year (I even went to homecoming with friends which I had never done or even dreamed of) and I got in. Next fall I’ll be started my funeral directing and embalming degree. 
      I just want to share that it gets better even if it takes half a life time. I’ve done so many things I thought I’d never do. When I started my recovery I had no one to support me not a single friends and now I have a group of amazing people who support me and love me I just couldn’t be happier.