Recently I annoyed someone who means the world to me because I was acting like a bitch when she introduced me to a group of people in hopes that everyone becomes friends. in the past when it comes to groups of people I always seem to be left out of plans and fall to the background. My biggest concern not only involves my past experience in groups but the thought process of my friend preferring the group and wanting to spend time more with the group than me.

Logically thinking I know that’s not the case but I can’t help but feel she would go away and leave me all alone. i just don’t know how to act like myself in a group because I don’t want to be forgotten or left behind but it feels like a double edge sword. I’m just scared of losing this person but I also want to be better in a group. I’m so confused about everything I’m spiralling.