Hi! I don't seek advice very often because I tend to be able to deal with stuff myself or with therapy but I'm on anti depressants and anti anxiety so my brain is making other ways to make me miserable. So, I've had this friend since childhood, we grew up together as the alternative emo scene kid crowd and then she got a boyfriend and I got angry and jealous and we stopped talking. We met in a completely different town like 5 years later, where we had both gone to college. We have rekindled our friendship and we're now sort of living together. Her boyfriend was abusive and I pointed it out and convinced her to leave him and then she didn't have anywhere to live so she moved into our living room. Anyway, my problem is that same jealousy is coming up in ridiculous ways. It's not even like I *want* to spend time with her and if I *did* she is in this house, literally a staircase away from me 90% of the time and I can just go talk to her. She's made "new" friends and she's going out with these people and it's fine, right, obviously it's fine because I am just a housemate/close friend and I have no claim over her time. I've even found myself making "jokes" like "oh, if you like Lisa so much why don't you just go move in with her" to which she quite reasonably replied "I did ask, but she's moving into a studio" which made me want to throw up. Anyway, to help with the move, I was unpacking some of her stuff and putting it into more concise boxes (I have her permission, I'm not being invasive) and I found an art piece she did from the rift in our friendship where she lists her "friends" and I am not on there. It has made me almost suicidal to think about, which I know is ridiculous because it was me who stopped being friends with her and - I can't stress this enough - I don't even feel like I enjoy her company most days. Is there anything I can do to stop this because I know myself well enough that it's going to become... worse if I don't do something?