So, bit of a weird kind of question; 18+ please:

I cried during sex with my newest partner, and I think it’s because of some deep-seated issues with my past relationships/having been “used for sex” in the past — I’ve never really been good with my feelings or communicating them, and therapy has yet to help. I guess I’m just embarrassed and don’t know where else to put this question. I’m diagnosed with borderline personality and wondering if anyone has had similar issues.

I’m only 20 so I have a lot to learn moving forward. I’d like to grow as a person and have my OWN relationships without feeling conflicted because of my past relationships.
Suggestions for where else to put this is fine too, I’m aware that this isn’t the best sub to put the question under for sure.

Has anyone else gone through anything similar? Does therapy ever help? Is there a way I can stop thinking that every person I’m involved with is using me for their own personal gain? How do I move past this kind of thing and free myself?

Your own personal experiences and advice in general would be great too. I don’t know what to do with myself and I don’t want to put my newer partner through this kind of thing.