I hate sitting here trying to figure out what I'm needing or wanting, especially when I know I need something. It's like my mind and heart are at a disconnect. I feel nothing on the inside, but my mind so desperately wants to act out or do things I shouldn't just to feel something inside. I want to have an identity. I want to know who I am, why I am that way, etc. But I just have no idea who I am, nor how to feel anything. This will be my downfall.