I am 29, and feel like I cannot get my life together. I recently was diagnosed with OCD, major depressive disorder, generalized and social anxiety last year and have been taking meds hoping for some solution of just break from it all.

I'm currently going back to school as my first degree I absolutely hated and the job was not for me at all. The problem is I have switched jobs so many times and can't stick with anything my parents are disappointed in me and just want me to stick with something, but I just want to find something that makes me happy, although Idk that it exists and I'm scared I'm chasing nothing.

I am in computer science now as I know that would appease them since it pays well and I thought maybe it could fulfill the only thing I know I like, which is creativity. Well, Im in my second year and absolutely hating it. My grades are falling and I dont even care, I just feel bad because I know I will disappoint the people around me. I just want out of it, but don't want to keep quitting on everything.

I've been considering switching to visual fine arts even though I know my salary and job prospects will be lower, it's something I can at least express myself in. I've been doing some medium of art for a while and it's the only thing I haven't quit on in life. My youtube channel has even started to make some money, so I figured this degree would be better for me, I just know if I switch, my parents will probably be just done with me for doing this again and I feel like I'll be letting down my fiance even though she says she wants me to do it. I just don't want to keep burdening the people around me, but I am trying my hardest to find something I'll stick to and be happy it's just so exhausting and defeating I feel like I'm going in circles and I'm so tired of it.