I’m 24 yr old, female. I’ve had very bad social anxiety mostly all my life. Not  from something specific. I’ve just always been anxious. Afraid of people. I can’t ever talk to people, or make friends. I hear people  but don’t listen. While someone is talking, my mind is looking for a response and most of the time is not able to find a response and so it’s like my brain just freezes and I don’t know what to say. I was with my kids dad for 3 years and was almost always awkward around him. Couldn’t sing/dance or express myself around him. And I could feel his hate toward me for that. That’s the main reason I left, because of my mental health. I couldn’t be happy because of my anxiety. I Tried smoking and that actually makes it 100x worse. At work, it’s horrible. Do you know how when you first start a job you may be anxious around people like the first few days or even the first week? We’ll I am anxious and awkward  like the whole time I am working there, (even if it’s like 3 years I’ve been working there)and it’s mentally exhausting and draining, affecting my life negatively. It’s like I’m boring and have no sort of personality. I do, but it’s impossible to open up to anyone!, I’m such a people pleaser. I started taking alcohol shots before going to the store or anywhere out in public. But I’ve stopped drinking because I’ll be starting meds. I am starting Lexapro and I am very hopeful that this will be beneficial for my anxiety. Anyone can relate? Anyone tried lexapro? What was your experience ? Desperate to know lol any tips with these meds ?