Hello,

Wondering if any of you have had the same experience. In late 2019, I started taking the pill. It did it's job, couple mood swings nothing crazy. However, after 5 months, it hit. I was a wreck, I cried, was suicidal, I screamed. I got off it around May, 7 months in.

I felt slightly better, my periods were regular for 3 months. Until they weren't, my period wouldn't come regularly for months off the pill. I'm assuming my body was in shock. My mental health was better but nothing compared to pre pill, which was probably one of the happiest I've ever been.

In the summer of 21, my mental health got slightly better, not much. My period started being regular, like before the pill. That means it took my body 16 months to finally get back on it's cycle. My mental health still feels like when I got off the pill but nothing like before. I feel big waves of sadness and anxiety, this had never happened to me. I wonder if it triggered any kind of clinical depression. Did this happen to anyone on birth control?

Do you think my body (mostly my brain) has not recovered yet? Any advice? I'm desperate, even not feeling alone will make me feel better.