I (24f) have always worked in retail and service industry. Prior to the pandemic I worked in a niche service industry that stifled my ability to perform my job efficiently, in addition to my pay checks from my employer bouncing I decided to go back to retail. Fast forward a few months and I decided to take a 9 month program at a vocational school. About halfway through I realized it wasn't for me and wasn't able to drop out without having my tuition kept by the school therefore I decided to grin and bear it just to get the diploma to maybe branch off in the future.

I absolutely hate my retail job, so much that at least twice a week I sob before going in, I absolutely loathe my school, and I feel stuck and angry at myself for not preparing myself better for the future. 

My partner has a good government job but right now because of my decisions of trying school and going back to retail we are the brokest we've ever been. 

I am miserable a minimum of 65 hours a week being in what feels like an adult prison at school, a piss poor job, and an extreme feeling of inadequacy.