It's harder to work and/or seek better work opportunities the more depressed you are, but the more broke you are the more depressed you can get (especially if you have history of depression even in perfectly good times). How do I pull myself out of that state where my finances are pulling me down and my mental health is pulling my finances down and I am surviving on luck? I'm really scared of the way I think lately, that an easier solution would be to not exist. I don't want to think like that. But the only ways I've snapped out of that state in the past has been by combination of meds, therapy and daily habits. Got the habits covered, but covid ruined the free mental health center, so I am lacking the therapy element. How do I pull myself out of that state of deep depression? Can't even reach the crisis chats/lines lately, are there that many people calling? Things are really bad. I want to turn them around. I know I can finish one project and get paid, if I can just survive until then. But it's getting harder every day, the less food and bus tickets I have, the less problems I can handle. How do you pull yourself out?