There is a war going inside me. 
Between my fight instinct, and my anxious fear.
Havoc being played that I can't keep at Bay.
Beautiful memories being made.
Long worn sadness stains it grey. 
I'm trapped in here with myself.
I'm trapped in here with my insecurities.
I'm trapped in here with my guilt.
The screams echo all around.
I'm tired of myself.
I'm so sore from the day 
I'm so lost for words 
I'm not yet broken
I wonder will I be whole and renewed
I wonder will I lose 


I'm having a very difficult time forgiving my husband for cheating emotionally. I don't feel special anymore. I'm having a hard to compartmentalizing being a victim to another car accident. My physical pain is pulling the strings of my mental strength. I can still hear my babies crying. Every reaction is explosive. How do I turn it off.


I don't need advice just to vent thanks.