i get up at noon, i shower, i make myself food. then hours pass in which i do... well nothing. it‘s the saddest feeling when someone asks me what i did all day.

i do nothing. in the past i‘ve enjoyed making art, reading, playing video games, but i‘ve lost interest. if i force myself i stop after 15 minutes because it‘s just no fun. so i sit around and refresh social media 10 times a minute. 

my boyfriend tries to cheer me up but it just annoys me after a while because he can‘t help and it makes him frustrated too. 

the worst part is, i should study, i really should. but i can‘t get myself to do it to save my life. so i wait until the day is over and then i‘m depressed because i didn‘t do anything except survive and right now that isn‘t enough for me.

sorry for being a downer, i just feel like there should be more to life, but i can‘t achieve it