i just feel so lost and empty i dont know what to do. i have no friends i feel like nobody loves me. literally the only people i text is family and thats just for basic needs like food and stuff. life is just meaningless all i do is sleep all day. i dont know what to do anymore and i just cant handle the burden of being alive. i just want to be happy. i have been depressed for so long i dont even remember what life was like without my bpd and depression. every day i get more suicidal and i just dont know what to do