I literally have had enough of my life. All my friends are gone and are bullies now they hurt me, they punch me, they kick me and surprise surprise there is no one to help me because no one gives a single damn about me. 


My family has been making fun of me for the last 3 years because I have long hair they call me girl they call me daughter they make fun of my hobbies all the time. They get mad at me if I forgot one small thing they call me a dumb idiot, forgetful moron and dumbass.


I am trying extremely hard to get good grades at school but nothing is happening. While everyone is getting full marks by cheating I study for a month and get a 80 at best I know how to cheat but I don’t because I won’t learn anything from that. 


I keep getting the blame for stuff that I didn’t do for example; the principal got mad at me because I got extremely sick in a school day (I am extremely allergic to pollen) and she announced that I wasn’t there that day because I’m allergic to pollen so now everyone is making fun of me by saying “ what a loser can’t even go nearby a flower” 


I have had enough and I am so close from jumping out of my balcony very soon ( I live high enough to die if I jump off).