I fucked up, I am utterly alone. I was in a fucked up relationship where I was trauma dumped on emotionally abused through triangulation, lies and harsh criticism and abandoned from someone I have known almost my whole life, it did something to me where I just felt broken and I didn’t trust anyone because I just wanted a person I loved and was defensive and maybe mirrored the treatment I received on others, I don’t blame them.. why did I let someone abuse me and why has it tore apart everything in my world. I don’t know what to do to regain my light and joy I can’t find my way out