Both my bf and I (both 30s) have bpd.  Me being older, I feel like I have learned to control my actions when I'm extremely emotional. He has no control. His triggers are all jealousy related. He says it's because he loves me so much that he is so bothered by every man in my past.

We fight a lot. Over things before I ever met him. Over things that aren't true, too. But he believes his jealous thoughts. Let me add that I have never been unfaithful in ANY way. 

Unfortunately, the last time we fought we both self medicated. I woke up in the ER. My first concern when I gained consciousness was if he was okay. Besides his jealousy he is perfect to me. I love him with all my heart. 

Apparently I would have died if he hadn't given me CPR and called 911. I left the psych ward and went straight back to him. He has security cameras and I watched part of the fight. I saw him push me and kick me. I just now looked at my legs. The bruises are bad. Now I know why everyone at the hospital was asking me weird questions. I of course only spoke good of him. He IS good! 

I know how I sound.  But I swear his soul is pure. He just can't control his emotions. I don't want to give up on him but it makes me sad to think I might be one of those women. Btw he swears he's never going to do those things again and that he trusts me now. It's going to be different, right?