it seems this is the only time i can cry anymore. i love my medicine for making me not have those depressive episodes anymore but i also feel nothing. so i can only cry when im drunk. 

i would say i feel like shit but its nice to get the feelings out

i know 4 nights in a row isnt a lot but i havent drank like this in a while. not since 10th grade i think. dont really wanna get back into it like that but....rum and cokes are so good