Everyday I wake up feeling trapped under the bottom of the ocean. Constant pressure just weighing down my heart. Most days I'm surrounded by friends/family but yet I've never felt more alone. Just yesterday I was sitting here crying uncontrollably and not one person out of the 5 who walked past me asked if I was OK. The only thing keeping me going is the thought of my daughters growing up without me but yet I haven't gotten to see them since March 2021. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm constantly plagued my thoughts of my death, this frozen lake is looking real tempting. I've had my life saved from drowning at a young age so I think it'll be pretty poetic.