My aunt recently passed away, and it brought me to a point of realizing I have always handled mourning differently than others. I tend not to cry, but feel extremely uncomfortable at funerals. I get sad, and it slows me down day to day, but I never really scream or cry, especially when others are around (at funerals specifically. I tend to hold it until I’m alone if it comes to that)

It just kind of boils under my skin until I can get relief when I’m alone, but sometimes even then it doesn’t really happen. It just kind of burns like a wound until it starts healing. 

I just have a really weird issue with grieving in front of others. I don’t want them to see me suffer. 