So lately I've been trying to chanel my anxiety into healthy aggression (punching bag, lifting weights and as petty as it might sound I'll troll people that are entitled dicks online, no real harm ya know?) I guess what I'm trying to say is that when I start spiraling into an anxious episode getting pissed off gives me a sense of control that I can't achieve when I'm having an anxiety attack. I take medication and I've tried healthier things like meditation and breathing exercises but nothing seems to be as effective as turning it to anger... I know this probably makes me seem crazy but it's like I feel powerless during an anxiety attack and feel a sense of power when I get irate about things that I have a good reason to be mad about. But I also understand that if I don't keep this thing in check that disastrous things can happen and I'm always mindful of where the line is... But I'm sure some of you get what it's like to feel scared, powerless and completely out of control of your lives?