I will probably start clozapine sometime this week. I dropped over $100 for a digital drawing yesterday but for some reason I still keep wanting to shop. I want to look nice, be social, and do something with myself. Sometimes I just want to live a happy life where I feel optimistic and have things to look forward to. Right now, I don’t have much good news. My mental health is bad, my friend is moving away… it just feels like everything bad is happening at once. My psychiatrist just called and said my cholesterol and blood sugar are a bit high. I have to get weekly blood draws for clozapine. I don’t really know how to make the best of this situation. I set one goal to lose weight and ended up gaining weight. I don’t know what else I should do to improve things...