So first of all, I have a BPD discord server! If you wanna join and talk to me and other people, feel free to have a look https://discord.gg/QZtdyyz Thank you so much. Anyway...

So I find a lot of my BPD symptoms intensify for a while, then go away or at least settle down, which means I'm over a lot of the symptoms... Kind of. So one thing that's been very intense lately is my self image. Most of you will think I'm talking about the lack of identity but honestly it's not really that anymore.

I think I'm an asshole. Or at least, I know my BPD wants me to think I am. Logically, I'm a pretty good partner and I care for them greatly, I'm a supportive friend, and I have a good understanding for other people and a lot of perspective. But I still get my BPD nagging at me, telling me I'm a terrible person and that I'm just going to end up hurting my partner, emotionally of course. 

I think this is partly due to my parents, partly due to how much of an ass I definitely can be when I'm really, really angry. Either way I don't know how to get over this. Any help would be appreciated, thank you x