I struggle with having friendships as a lot of people with bpd do. I am currently struggling to maintain friendships and having a want to have them while in a relationship with my fp. Nothing can compare to her and her energy. I know hanging out and connecting with friends vs partners are different but I just can't see the appeal if it isn't with my partner. I feel like she is the only person who can fill that void and I hate it. I can't always have my partner and its so hard because I have a very limited want for friendships. I want friends and I want platonic companionship but I never feel satisfied. In my last close friendship, I ended up abandoning that person because I felt suspicious of her and her intentions. I am in therapy and have been for the past 2 years and while it has helped, I still find this aspect hard. My entire life revolves around my partner and I can't keep living like this because I love her more than anything in this world and I know its not healthy to be so dependent, especially because she is my sole attention giver. I am thankful she has been so supportive with my diagnosis, needs and wants while also maintaining healthy boundaries. I love and respect her so much for this because its not easy. I don't know how to do any of this and some advice would be amazing!