Sorry all this is a drunkpost because substance abuse is the only thing that brings me solace in this world, but like how do I even live a normal life? I'm severely depressed, so I can't feel happiness and BPD makes it so I'm just alternating between emptiness and extreme self-directed anger and frustration. I have ADHD and can barely function without medication which is way too expensive for me. How do I make it in this world? What do I even do? Why did I have to be made like this? Life is fucking unfair.