I just wanna rant and figure this out in my head so sorry how the length of this. 

I was in my cities mall today which is pretty big and has lots of different levels. I was walking through the bottom floor and I heard the loudest bang/thump I've ever heard. I look around and everyone is freaking out. I quickly realize there is a man lying near the bottom of the escalator, not moving, and his body doesn't look like it's in good shape. 

Long story short. He jumped or fell about 70 feet from the top level of the mall. I don't know if he died or if it was an attempt to take his life. All I know is I can't get the sound of him hitting the ground out of my head and the way his body looked. I walked past the site again later and there was a huge dent in the metal where he hit the escalator and blood splatter. I don't want this to permanently fuck with me cause my anxiety makes me sensitive as fuck with this kinda stuff. This all happened within meters of me. I didn't see anything THAT traumatizing but this whole experience is sitting in my stomach like a rock and I don't know what to do with it. I wish i knew more about what happened cause I think knowing if he was dead or alive or just SOMETHING more than just seeing his body laying there with blood, I would be able to process it. All i have his the sound and what I saw when i looked. Its freaking me the fuck out.