My FP has been gone for like 3 days? I was such an abusive piece of shit and I didn't realize it, how could I do something to someone I loved so much?? I am such a fucking monster, I can't live with myself I just feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. I hate everything and everyone, I just want to be better but I don't know how I don't know what I'm going to do. Im feel like nothing is real everything is fucking fake I feel like I just got shot or something, can someone please tell me what I am supposed to do now? I'm sorry for this I just don't have anyone to talk to anymore