I was studying for an important exam I'm not prepared for and started getting so stressed I felt like I was going to throw up. Impulsively, I took my prescribed as need kolonipin. I think there was some left in my system from when I took a tablet last night. Now I feel so drugged up and sleepy I cant focus and now I'm even more stressed somehow. I hate that I can't cope and end up taking kolonpin to avoid and slight stress and I hate that I have no self discipline. I've talked to my Psych and she said she would cut my pills to 15 a month so I panicked and asked her to keep it. I feel like a zombie and not being a zombie is unbeaeble. This semester has been horrible. It feels like I'm either so anxious I throw up and so drugged up I have to miss class because I'm scared I'll fall asleep and get yelled at by the profs. I hate this and I hate my shit self discipline.