Title pretty much sums it up. My entire life has been a fever dream of abuse. The past 4 years have gotten progressively worse and just like everyone has experienced significantly worse since the pandemic started. When I hear of someone passing away due to covid I can’t help but wish that had been me instead. Everything in the last 6 months seems to be going from bad to worse just when I think it can’t and I just feel like every decision I make is a wrong one. I just want this pain to end

If you’ve read this thank you for letting me vent.