Once I was talking to my bf and he stopped responding me for like 3 hours, but he was online all the time. This girl just posted a screenshot of a conversation that I think it was him who she was talking to. I got super mad because I was at my cousin's party and had no one to talk there. Then when I came home he was sending me messages how he missed me and those stuff. Like... I was there all the time he just preferred to talk to someone else. He said he thought that he already had sent me a message back, I didn't believe, but I tried not to care. But I keep remembering this and getting really sad about this.


All of this was in March and since then I don't like this girl, I don't like when he talks about her, I get super jealous and start crying wanting to disappear and leave him forever.


I actually used to like her when she was only my friend's friend. I hate that he just knows her because of me, because she was friend of my friends and then she became friend with my boyfriend. On their first contact, she was so friendly with him that I got jealous instantly. The moment they met, she called him by nicknames and was always talking to him.


Now I really think that she's more close to him than I am. I don't like being around her and I don't want her relationship with my boyfriend to last forever, like I wouldn't like to have her in our house or something. I fucking hate her.


2 days ago he was talking about her and I felt super sad and anxious. I hate remembering this. I thought they weren't in touch anymore.  


I just wish that I didn't care about this but I can't. I really like him and he's always saying that he truly loves me and wants to marry me and only me. But I can't stop making this such a big a deal.