I tell myself I need to be kinder and gentler to myself and to stop destroying myself. That I deserve something nice, deserve love and happiness. And I can provide that same feeling to others. I can be patient and understanding and kind because I can understand their pain and I can continue to love deeply and give everything that’s left in me because I understand what it’s like to be broken. But then I still choose the wrong path even when I know it’s wrong because deep down inside I still feel like I deserve pain and sadness. I wish these negative feelings would stop.