in the summer i’m very active. i gain a lot of muscle, eat healthily, i exercise. im healthy. but then when the winter comes around, i can barely get out of bed in the morning. the only thing i do all week is go to school, maybe force myself out for a walk where i think about how good things used to be, and meet my only friend over the weekend (even he got a partner so i can’t see him sometimes). it’s not very active at all. i lay in bed throughout the business week and barely do anything strenuous. i eat like shit. my stomach gets larger but my arms and legs just get so so small. i look so ugly and disgusting. i hate this. i cant even get help

sorry if this is all a bit weirdly typed, not very “in it” right now. sorry