I wrote in this sub almost 3ish month ago about my new job and I really felt terrible after my third day. I really think I was just going through alot in December after leaving my two year job and gotten a new birth control which I think worsen my feelings.

I couldn't live with my thoughts like everyday it was something new I was worried about. I feel so terrible every day waking up I felt like i need to smoke at least two blunts before working at 9am and I just knew I need to get some help cuz this wasn't normal.


So I finally got help through Cerebral and been talking to a therapist weekly and restarted all my meds. I really haven't noticed any difference yet but today I felt some kind of improvement


Today I was feeling on edge having the big boss there working right beside me which was the first time he spent a full day with me after changing my position. I kept calm and did my work as I always do. 


I blew him away with how I work. I really surprised him as my coworker told me. He said I'm really good at what I'm doing! I feel so accomplished today and it's been a long time since I felt proud of myself.