It doesn't seem like a big issue, but I'm a teenager and all I want is to spend a normal life like other teenagers. Like hanging out with friends, having fun, going to parties and all. I was good, about 3 years ago. But after coronavirus, I became totally fucked up. 

I used to spend time with friends and actually had a crush who liked me back too. But now, that crush is also ignoring me. 

In these years, I became depressed and started talking less to my friends. Still, I made efforts to stay in touch with them. But my family too doesn't allow me to go to parties and hang out with friends. That is why, they think that I'm a nerdy type of girl and don't want to hang out with them. 

Life is currently totally fucked up. What is enjoying? I don't know. 

Just wanna know that.. Why me? Why do I have to suffer all this. Everyday I see all of the people, who once used to be my friends, going to parties and all. And I'm here, sitting idle at my home.. thinking, why me?