my best friend who’s known me a decade said being my friend is a lot less scary and stressful now that she’s doesn’t have to worry about me making an attempt (it’ll be three years in a month since i last attempted).

my sister and i had a great talk and she said that i have so much to be proud of wrt my recovery (it’s very hard to give myself any credit).

and my dad said that i used to be so focused on my internal world and internal pain that sometimes it seemed like i was unable to engage in the external world at all (a very Dad thing to say, but he’s not wrong lol).

anyway it felt very self focused to bring up my recovery at all, but it was all in the context of much longer conversations and it was nice to hear outside perspectives. even when i feel like i haven’t made any progress i know i have and i know that the people i love can see that.