Basically, I've lost the girl of my dreams, I'm talking literally. I was with her for about 4 years and I loved every single moment I was with her. She recently broke up with me due to the fact she didn't feel anything anymore because I missed her hints as to what she was unhappy about. The things she said explicitly I understand and changed for her, but I missed some things due to mental health which I realised in hindsight, and I know she won't ever take me back and I can't live with that thought. I revolved my life around her because I cared so much, but I couldn't see where she was unhappy and she always seemed happy, so I don't how I was meant to change to her. It's been about 2 weeks now and I've had suicidal thoughts ever since, and 3 attempts...

I would do literally anything in the world to get her back, especially now I realise what she wasn't happy about. I feel useless and have no willpower to do anything, including what I enjoyed beforehand, and it's getting to that point where I can't move on and don't know how else to proceed other than ending it all. I need help desperately.