Hi all, so glad that this community is here.  I live in a relatively rural area and very little accessible support.  Thank you all for being here.

I was doing some research and was shocked to see on my Great-Great-Grand Father's death certificate (1959) that he had "manic depressive insanity".  His COD was a heart attack, but the Doc saw fit to list that diagnosis.  Strange.  But immensely interesting to me.  My mother died by suicide when I was one.  So, thinking I was predisposed through genetics to a personality disorder and I had events early in life before my personality was formed that certainly could be the activation of those predispositions.

I am having a whirlwind of thoughts over the past couple of days, but I am using my skills to sit with them and just take note of them.

Thank you for letting me share.