I feel so helpless and wonder why I suffer so much. What if some divine spirit gave me this in effort to challenge me to conquer it and realize what life is really about? Because everyone experiences problems related to BPD but not the extreme form of it, so they never bother to fix it and just deal with it their whole lives (self hatred, mood swings, minor splitting, infactuations) but since ours is so extreme we are basically forced to get rid of what is so toxic about us. Now I'm not talking about being superior but feeling peace and enlightenment because you are forced to search for it while most humans just mildly suffer their whole lives because their similar problems were so mild that they never bothered to fix it.  
    
I actually became a VERY good communicator with my partner because I was destroying relationships. I developed a very good philosophy on how to live because I was suicidal. I learned to love myself because I self harmed.   
  
I HAD to fix these issues because they were just common issues but magnified towards a degree that it was so clearly visible while if it was mild it would be just in the background, pricking me everyday that i easily to shove it in the back and live with it the rest of my life 
     
Tldr: everyone is in hell but doesnt mind it because they aren't in a super bad place of it, but we are basically shown what worst of hell is, and we are challenged to get out of it.   
   