I don’t even know how to begin to explain my last week my boyfriend of two years and I broke up which sent me into a serious spiral where I slept with many of his friends and many people off tinder only to have it all blow up in my face when one of their girlfriends found out , I was getting such bad death threats that I had to delete my Instagram and when I showed up to a party that I had already talked to my ex about and that he was for sure not going to, and as soon as I walk in he’s there and I just break down sobbing and he literally was gaslighting me and kept saying like I don’t know why you’re so upset it’s not a big deal, and I relapsed on self harm and basically have no friends. I’m staying at my parents house for a while but I’m scared to go back I’ve tried apologizing people literally want me dead ! I guess I’m just venting but having borderline at this moment feels like an unbearable burden, and I’m beginning to see myself as the problem again and it feels like nobody understands the pain so idk I guess I’m kind a looking for advice but also just validation because this community is the most validating one that I have yet to be a part of