I wrote off my family and haven't seen them for 3 years now. I did this because, I was toxic to them and they were toxic to me, so it wasn't healthy for us to be together. Recently, I ran into my brother and my niece. He seems much better mentally than what he used to be. He really wanted to be back in my life, so I let him back in. However, I didn't do it because I love him or my niece. I only did it because I didn't want conflict. I still to this day feel indifferent towards my entire family. I would feel unphased if they all died and it bothers me. The words I love you are meaningless to me, unless it's about a romantic partner. I only have true real feelings for friends and romantic partners.