I need something to cope with this dread. Nighttime is always the worst and i can't sleep. I don't enjoy anything anymore and everything feels like an uphill battle. College is a struggle for me and it takes all my energy to go to class and do school, work is a requirement to survive. I have this yearning for everything to stop, but I can't do anything to stop it. I tried to talk to my boyfriend about it and he says I need to stop thinking bad thoughts and that I'm not trying hard enough. He's had depression but it's not the same for everyone. I just wish I could be held and loved on. There's too many chores,  responsibilities, and work to do. I'm tired.