I am 21, I still feel like a kid. I've always known about climate change, or at least as long as I can remember (when I was around 12 it was still called global warming). Since I got more mature I knew it was bad and I always tried to help when I could. I also avoided climate news (which got pretty hard this summer due to obvious reasons ) because they are straight up bad for my mental health.

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And until last week I was a normal guy, just chose my Bachelor's professor and planning to write a summary for it. But then... I saw the Gutteres UN declaration about how we have failed to meet the 1.5C pledge which prompted me to see the r/europe post about the temps in nov() which prompted me to guardian articles and other posts/blogs which promted me to hear about McPherson and I think I just went to the deep end. Like I said, I always knew things about this but I think as an informational piece, not like this. I read about Blue Ocean Event, tipping points, breakdown of The Gulf Stream. It turned me into an anxious, scared, stressed mess.

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Is it real, are we really going to die in 8 years? It feels surreal, the literal apocalypse, feels like from a movie, something that you see on screen. Feels like it can't be real.