Today is Halloween, and I'm currently struggling with if I want to go out with my friends or not. I just moved to a new area where I don't know many people yet, and I was invited to go out to bars for the holiday.  This would be a perfect opportunity to get to know some people better - meeting people is hard for me, and chances like this don't come every day.  But I'm also exhausted - I just finished an extra long work week, with another long one coming up.  I woke up tired, and a part of my brain is telling me to stay in and get some rest. Thing is, it's Halloween - it's my favorite holiday, it only comes once a year, and some of the people I could go out with likely won't be around next year.

I feel like I find myself in this kind of position all the time, struggling to balance a need for rest and recovery alone, versus a need to be with people and socialize.  My whole life feels like I'm caught between states of isolation/loneliness, and exhaustion/burnout.  I can't tell how "legitimate" my exhaustion is - I'm very introverted and socially anxious, and most social situations feel exhausting to me by default.  I can't tell how much of this is me genuinely needing the rest, and how much of me is just wanting to take the easy path by staying in.  I really want to go out and get to know people and make friends, but I just wish I could do it on my terms when I'm not already tired.

Anyone have any thoughts on this?