Hi all! Hoping you can help because it’s absolutely crushing me. 

I’ve (M32) been dealing with post-Covid anxiety since I recovered back in Decemeber. I get random anxiety spikes and it’s been affecting me for so long. Prior to my COVID recovery, I rarely had bouts of anxiety.  One aspect that the anxiety is affecting me is with my relationship.  I’m seeing this absolutely amazing girl for almost 2 years now (F32). She’s beautiful, ambitious, and has an absolute heart of gold and our relationship has been a dream. To me, she’s the one. But when I’ve been anxious, I’ve been having very scary thoughts- am I into the relationship, do I love her, am I attracted to her, etc.  I know in my heart that I do, but my mind keeps trying to tell  me otherwise.  When I think about her, I get spikes in anxiety. When I talk/facetime her, I get a wave of anxiety that comes and goes. 

Whenever this happens, it breaks my heart. I get so emotional because that’s not how I feel and I don’t want this anxiety to be here. We are planning to move in together in a few months and I can’t wait to begin this new step with her, but at the same time, my anxiety is sort of pushing away some of the excitement. 

This anxiety comes on the moment I wake up. It also occurs during work and when I’m not doing anything, but it’s most prevalent when I think about my relationship.

Any thoughts? I love this girl to death and to me, she’s the love of my life. I’ve communicated how I’ve been feeling and she’s been so supportive. I just want to feel how I feel without this anxiety!

TL;DR - Got Covid, now have this weird anxiety that’s making me rethink my relationship with my fantastic girlfriend for no reason at all.