This is simply an interesting thought.

For a couple years I've been aware of a constant sadness in the back of my mind, and it never quite disappears. Yes, I can absolutely ignore it in favour of much more positive thoughts yet, somehow, I've gone through 4 panic attacks(?) (My rationality left for a couple minutes.) and I'm somewhat assured I would be diagnosed with depression.

Here's the meat: I've been aware of this since I was 8 and I'm currently in my teens (no, I won't specify my age). I've had 5 failed su!cide (is it censored?) attempts and my current burst of emotions over a failed grade just left me numb and sad.

Question:
Is it normal for self-delete attempts, when they fade, to simply leave one empty?