The following, every word, is entirely true. I will dox myself, because I have to. Please listen to me. Please help me. Anybody, I’m begging you. Mods, read this, at least, fully, before you delete it. But please help me. 

I have struggled my whole life with mental illness, but I was never able to receive the right care. That eventually led me to self harm and suicide attempts. 

4 months ago, I was discharged from a hospital into a homeless shelter and told to seek further mental health treatment. I found my own therapists and finally found some that really worked. 

The homeless shelter that I was staying at is religiously affiliated and expects you to uphold their beliefs, over your own. You’re required to attend biblical lessons every weekday unless you’re fully employed. Once you’re fully employed, though, you pay $400/month to continue living in the homeless shelter. 

The conditions here are largely based on the residents, whom the majority are parole boardees, right out of jail, or addicts. I’m just mentally ill. I have no addiction or criminal record. I’m just severely depressed. 

The staff has harassed me and discriminated against me, largely based on a prejudice of my non Christian beliefs. I had literally no where else I could be and had been looking for over a month with a social worker to find a place new! They rarely give me my meds as prescribed and they are in full control of them and demand that I ask for them and then quietly wait up to thirty minutes for them to give me them. Yeah. Just my meds that make me cope with my suicidal depression, haha. No big deal! 

Anyway, this is why I need your help. 

They have banned me from the shelter because they hold the right to refuse service to anyone. I participated in the program fully, better than almost anybody, despite my beliefs. The nearby emergency medical facilities won’t admit me just because I’m mentally ill if I’m not actively trying to kill myself. 

The cops believe I’m pretending to be depressed and suicidal. They think I’m wanting to go be with my “girlfriend.” The only person I talk to in this world, whom I met in a mental hospital four months ago. Right before a hospital called me to let me know if they’d admit me, my friend called me from that hospital! Wow what a coincidence! Hey, I want to see my friend. Is that so bad? 

So the police and the hospitals think I’m faking my mental illness for attention. I’m seriously, severely depressed and incredibly anxious. I have years of different doctor’s diagnoses and the police are ignoring all of them on their “hunch” that I’m faking it? 

Is that not fucked up? They’re all refusing to help me. I’m homeless. I’ve been sleeping outside the park for the past two days. The police took my drivers license so I can’t get a bus or hotel or anything to even get out. All I can do is walk, and they took away everything from me. I have almost nothing left. Just what I could carry with me when they told me to leave…

They treat criminals better than this! Sure they’re locked up, but they sleep, eat, and shower safer than me. I have none of those things, and I haven’t hurt anybody! I have no criminal record and I just got cast out into the streets permanently? 

I don’t understand. I’ve called everyone. 911, 988, my therapists, social workers, everyone. I’ve begged for help for hours. They all tell me that they’re trying but im just sitting here crying next to a tree. It’s cold out here. Below 40 degrees each night. Like I don’t have camping gear! I just have my clothes and the stuff I could carry. What the fuck is happening? 

Can somebody help me? I don’t want to have to make myself do something again just to prove to them I feel suicidal. This can’t be right. Please help me. 

I’m in Grand Island, Nebraska. They’ll know who I am. Ask for the body cam footage of everyone. Please help me.