I have a family who loves me and a couple friends, but I don’t care deeply for any of them. I could go the rest of my life without seeing anyone that I know ever again, and I’d be ok with that. 

All anyone has ever done for me is damage my self esteem or cause me stress. I want to have a rich social life but no one has come into my life who doesn’t belittle me or make me feel like an outsider. The solution seems to be to reach out to more people and keep an open mind, but that has only ever led me to more hurt and pain. Men tend to get excited about me, but they eventually realize I’m “weird” or boring to them and leave, every time. 

I’m not posting this so someone will feel sorry for me. I’m just looking for a way out of this. I don’t want to be socially isolated forever.