It’s all my fault, my relationship with my parents is distant even though i still live with them. I’m 18 and yet I feel as though my life is already past me. I feel like my best years are already over without having ever occurred. There’s also my education, I dropped out of high school and I’m trying to study for a GED but for my country but I’m just too stupid, and my parents are pressuring me to taking it or going to evangelical school, and I’m not sure I believe in anything at all. But I can’t just tell them to give me time because I’ve already exhausted all my time. I’m worthless and it’s all my fault, no one else to blame. Every time I go to sleep I just wish I could dream and then not wake up ever again.