I can't get a job in the industry that I want to work in. I make pennies despite having a fulltime job and freelance work AND contract work and it's still not enough to make basic fucking rent in my state. I hate being alive and what's the point of trying every damn waking moment of my life when it all amounts to absolute fuck all. 

I've applied to so many places, I thought my work was decent enough to get in. Apparently I'm not even worth a fleeting thought to these people, they wont even look through my portfolio or even take a glance at my resume. 

Why do I even try. I'm a worthless excuse of a human being. My life is a mistake.