relapses really suck dude, i had one on friday and i’ve been shitty ever since. i tend to get stomachaches before school normally they calm down a bit before my classes start though. but today it was terrible, i had to stay in the bathroom for a bit to collect myself and mentally prepare to be around my friends. my stomachache and heart palpitations were especially bad and only got worse during my first period. 

I wanted to go home so bad i felt so terrible for being so bummed out around my friends, not wanting to hug my partner. I felt so shitty but i tried my best to keep a happy face on because the thought of them finding me boring which then would proceed to them abandoning me is heart wrenching.

When i got back home, i was absolutely fatigued, the littlest things ticked me off almost enough to the point that i was on the edge of a breakdown. And then the worst thought came in, i’m going to have to do it all again tomorrow.

anyways hope your day was better then mine.