 Hey all. 

I've had horrible anxiety ever since I was little. I've been diagnosed with a anxiety/panic disorder. I pick at my fingers and lips and my OCD comes into play heavily when it comes to my appearance.

When I first started dating my boyfriend, his ex gf of 2 years was stalking me via her friends and harassing me. We started dating in 2018
This went on for a while and my anxiety made me believe her friends were still stalking me since last year. One was still following me.

 I finally confronted her last year and we just spoke, nothing really happened. When this was happening, my boyfriend did nothing. I told all my friends and they told me to just get over it. Everyone told me just leave her alone, it was her problem and my feelings basically didn't matter.

I still have resentments, anger, and when she came to my work last year I pretty much had a mental breakdown and I'm sure she didnt even recognize me.

I find myself stalking her Instagram page once every other day. I don't know why, I was just so scared and alone when she was stalking me I guess it brings me comfort to know she doesnt care about me? I like to keep tabs on her so if I saw her in public I wouldn't be scared again?

I was going to therapy for a while. I couldn't keep affording it but it was so nice for someone to tell me my feelings mattered and of course I felt that way because of my anxiety. 

I was wondering if anyone else had something similar happen? How should I overcome this?