28m here I got nobody, I’ve distanced myself from all friends and family. Mostly on purpose, and because I just don’t know how to respond with out acting. I do it to the point where I feel sick. So at this point I refuse to reassure people of an obvious lie. So I’m a hermit. Who is actively trying to drink himself to death. My own mother won’t reach out. I think they are all aware of where this is going. They won’t reach out. I won’t either. I’ve made sure of it. I have a plan. I just don’t want to hurt anyone when I do what I do. I’m sorry guys. I’m just out of options.