I don't have a lot of people in my life who I can call a close, supportive person (at least in terms of emotional/mental issues). I have trouble keeping friends, and my last close friend ended up actually being emotionally manipulative to me and my partner while we were all living together. At the moment, I don't really have any friends and am honestly traumatized and tired of all the work and danger that comes with having friends. My family is supportive materially, but I can't count on them to support me in other ways, especially because they don't know about a lot of my life. I'm in the process of getting a therapist again, but I will need to wait for a bit.

The person who is the most supportive of me is my girlfriend. The problem is I feel terrible for putting so much on her. I somewhat often feel like I am a burden. She always reassures me that she loves me and doesn't see me as a burden or as taking from her and not giving. She says I support her in multiple ways, as well. However, I still feel like I am taking too much from her and putting too much on her. We are both each other's main support person, and I'm happy with that. Sometimes I just feel like it's uneven because of how many issues I have, though.

Does anyone know how to combat this specific problem/thought pattern? Or just want to empathize/share their experiences with this?