hi! my therapist has been adamantly telling me she doesn’t want to diagnose me with BPD. i brought it up because i was receiving treatment for it when i was 16-17 but not diagnosed due to my age. i am now 21. 
at first she said it was because of the stigma, i said i don’t mind stigma- i already have been diagnosed with other things and they have stigmas as well, i literally can’t move to certain countries because of my diagnoses. i explained that a diagnosis or not i know i have it, i exhibit all but 1 symptom and have exhibited those symptoms for many years. 
today she said she thinks i’ve grown out of my BPD. while i have improved in many ways it has felt more like improving so i can appear normal to others while keeping my erratic emotions inside. i still have and express intense jealousy, self harm, desire to isolate, violent thoughts, and intense abandonment issues. but i guess because i express things with more maturity (?) and have recently started to set boundaries and attempt to filter myself it seems like i don’t have it.
should i even keep pursuing the diagnosis? it feels like a waste of time at this point.