My family is a joke. My parents are the only ones who I have a meaningful relationship with, and they're reaching the end of their lives. 

My extended family have never spoken a word to me in all the time I've been alive (I'm 31 now). My grandparents were not interested in having a relationship. Never even said hello, just stared at the television all the time I was at their house as a kid.

Same with cousins, aunts and uncles. Never even a hello since childhood. My uncle died from cancer a few years back and I'd never had a SINGLE conversation with him, despite being in his presence several times since childhood. He was only interested in talking with my dad (his brother).

I often wish I had been born male, maybe that's why my family members shunned any kind of communication with me. Because I'm an icky girl. I'm not transgender at all, I just think it would have been better to be male. Don't have to deal with stupid female problems like pregnancy. 

As for forming relationships with non family members, that's even more of a lost cause. I've never had a single friend. I've been through sexual assault in my teen years and I don't want anything to do with people again.

I am SO jealous of people I see on television with big loving families.