I have always been a sensitive person due to a warped mindset of: disapproval = abandonment/punishment/loneliness. So in a work environment when I am doing well and my supervisors see, I feel very confident. Yet on the other side, the simplest critiques can send me over the edge. I work in retail. Today I gave a woman the wrong change. The manager helped out and resolved the problem. Technically no big deal. But then I started crying, and did so for 15 minutes. Why? Self afflicted perfection? All my pain seeping out suddenly. I felt like an immature child who was burdening the store by having intense emotions. I worried over what all my coworkers thought about my character. It may have looked out of proportion to others, but it was perfectly reasonable to my ill brain. I realized both coworkers and customers were kind, I was not in trouble, but I still felt like my world was ending, meaning it was completely internal. To put it plainly, I give myself an impossible quest for perfection, and when I crack I am not allowed to show. I feel so sad.