I just need to vent out. I was in a relationship with a woman for nearly 2 years. I could say it was almost perfect, we loved eachother a lot and were agreeing on a lot of topics. At the beggining i was warned a couple times, that she is a typical fake "bitch" and will play me like all her exes. Of course I didn't listen. I am just so mad at myself that i didn't listen. She cheated on me and left me for another man. In fact, she was in relationship with him and me at the same time for a couple of days. I am overflown with hatred, sucidal thoughts, and I hate myself for being such a naive idiot. I was good to her, supported her in every way. I was always there when she needed me, I've never abused her or said anything bad about her, basically "Favourite person". She sworn, that she is going to spent the rest of her life with me, and that she will never hurt me. I'm constantly changing between being totally good, extremely angry and suicidal. I just wanted to vent out anonymously, since i don't trust anyone in my surroundings anymore.