Is there somewhere I can go where they'll kill me for me?

I'd hire a hitman to kill me but I don't want to go that route so I'm wondering if I can try anything else. 

Don't give me the it gets better bullshit. It doesn't. Doesn't matter what I do, I end up here all the same. Tired of this behavioral loop

Im not interested is this shithole of a planet / existence.