Things haven't been good these past few weeks.. months? Years? I don't know anymore. 
I haven't slept more than ~6 consecutive hours per day in months (and that's extremely rare, I'm happy if I can get 4 hours of sleep), I've been having brain zaps (even though I'm not missing my medication), feeling like I'm gonna faint or throw up, having almost constant headaches, rapid pulse, increased blood pressure, suffocating... Here I am, laying in bed now, on a rare day off from work, in desperate need of at least an hour of sleep, but my anxiety thought that a panic attack would be much more beneficial. I'm so tired of all of this, I just want it to go away... I don't want to keep on taking Bromazepam just to get through a regular day, I barely have any more energy to keep putting up a front and acting like everything is fine in front of people. So tired... 
All of this has also made me very agoraphobic. I've been avoiding plans with friends, doctors appointments, doing basically anything that I used to love if it requires me to go out. Hell, even going out to the shop to buy some food or going for a walk around the block seems almost impossible. I honestly have no idea how to make things go back to normal. Staying locked up in my room has also been bad for my depression (who would've thought).  I don't know how long I can do this anymore... I'm just so tired of everything...