BG: I live in a transitional home, where resident are given a year to help them get back on their feet.

I've been here for 7 months now &amp;I am a month away from starting my apartment hunt. I am absolutely terrified &amp;all I want to do is curl into a ball &amp;sleep.

I have zero energy, zero motivation &amp;zero desire to further interact with the staff members I now consider friends or the people that I've met since arriving.

As someone who's used to feeling worthless &amp;alone, finding a place where I feel like I matter &amp;feel connected was like finding the unicorn. I'm now starting to feel like I'll never have this again. 

Thinking about it, I either cry or shut down emotionally.