A while back i posted a DAE IN c-ptsd, question was; DAE switch between extreme, unconditional love and extreme hate and anger? 

A lot of people replied that it sounded like 'splitting' and that i should check out bpd. 

I refused to believe them. 

Anyways, i've been having extreme arguments with my sister who is, i guess, my fp. So i decided to check out this subreddit and it's all so familiar. 

I realise that i've been doing this for a long time. 

It's kind of scary because i've also been diagnosed as bi-polar and c-ptsd. I am currently in the hospital because the last big fight with my sister pushed me over the edge. I couldn't handle it anymore, i started drinking heavily, like, as soon as i got out of bed. 

I decided last wednesday to check myself into the hospital where i've been going for the past 6 years. Where i also was first diagnosed as bi-polar type 1 and ptsd. 

I've been sering a therapist specialised in developmental trauma. 

I don't really have a question, i'm just happy to have found this community. 

I have a lot to learn. 

Thank you for reading.