it’s so bad. he’s not on call with me and i start to spiral thinking about everything that he could be doing when he’s not on call with me. i start to panic and think he’s doing something bad to himself and not telling me, i start to think he’s mad at me, i start to think i’m too much and he’s just planning on how to break up with me, i start just thinking of every bad possibility that could be happening. the thing is he’s not a bad boyfriend, not a bad person and has never done anything to hurt me or make me insecure, i start to get so in my head about stupid things. 

and then i start to panic and i feel like i’m suffocating him in this relationship and then i start to think he’s gonna want to break up and i start spiraling more and it gets so bad. idk what to do i feel like i’m just a burden to him and he would be better off without me. anyone else would be better off without me. please someone help because this cycle, these thoughts, this feeling is so bad.