So, i've always been quite insecure about my body. Especially my boobs. I really just have an Acup and my ex bf's always told me it wasn't good enough. Even girls at school made jokes about me.

So my current bf knows about these insecurities but I also know ( because he told me ) that he's into big boobs. He often squeezes mine together to make them look bigger and then gives me compliments. Or gets all excited if I wear a push up bra.

Today I was laying down on the bed and I told him again I was insecure about it. And it sucks that I know that I can't live up to his ideal body type.

One thing led to another and I found out that he checks out lingerie pics and whatever of girls on instagram ( obvs with the big boobs ) and it just broke me so much. Since he first always denied that he did such a thing and always was very pushing the fact that I should trust him.

Although he was honest with me, which I appreciate. It really hurt my feelings a lot and I can't help but feel like a misrable mess. Very insecure. Not feeling good enough at all... 