Obligatory I'm on mobile so sorry for any formatting errors

It's like the title says. I'm (22F) having breakdowns once or twice a day. Most of them are huge - sobbing, screaming, almost vomiting. Usually I can't identify a specific trigger. And then the episode ends abruptly, and in between episodes I feel only a little depressed and am mostly functional. Occasionally, I'll go an hour or so and feel totally normal.

I've dealt with depression all my life, but never like this. I'm thankful that I don't feel so terrible between episodes, and that I'm not having suicidal ideation like in the past. But I'm so confused as to what's happening to me, why, and how to make the pain stop.

I plan to get clinically assessed and go back to therapy soon. In the meantime, whatever support, advice, or related experiences anyone can share is appreciated &lt;3