To keep it extremely short. Got out of one relationship that cost me a lot of my sanity and finally found a girl that understands me and for the first time in my life i have planned a future with her. Until i started kissing with her friend and grabbing her tits in front of her, but hey
they started kissing each other before i did, but i could not hold my fucking sexual urges and went for it which basically buried that relationship and now i can’t leave because it would fucking bring me over the very edge of losing it entirely. 

4 fucking years of constant depression, anxiety, and very strong almost uncontrollable sexual urges are killing me INSIDE.

At least, i have the alcohol to give me that fake happiness.