Okay so as a whole I feel lost, like I'm just in the passenger seat watching as my life passes by. I'm torn between not caring, and caring too much. I love life, I want to be happy then on the other side I despise being  here. My emotions are changing CONSTANTLY, and I don't even know how to feel. I don't recognize the person I see when I look in the mirror. Like, is this even real? or is this all a dream?