A few years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder; I never thought much of it because I had already been diagnosed with autism and that was my biggest focus of concern when it came to my mental health.

However, since starting Zoloft a month ago I've been suffering from pretty bad hypomanic episodes where I'm surrounded by a sense of powerlessness, anger, and ideation both of self harm and of harm to others to the point that I've started laying out plans. The other day during a moment of visible frustration (missed a boat I needed to get on) a police officer noticed and asked if he could help me and I had to restrain myself because I felt such a strong urge to attack him.

I don't know how much longer I can handle this. I've been trying to be more consistent with multivitamins just to keep my brain healthy but it hasn't been helping with my behavior.