i’m here writing this when i should be studying for my biology test. 12 am and i failed my assignment i stayed up late to do, even when my grandpa said “do a good job” before he said goodnight. i just feel like a fucking failure. i’m failing geometry miserably and i just can’t make anyone proud of me. i’m just so lost. i feel so empty, i love spending time with them knowing they’ll one day be gone and that’s something i can’t accept. they’re my only family, and i just feel so fucking down. life has been a bitch for a while and i feel like i’m slightly getting better but not all the way there. i’m just so… not okay. i’m just not me. i feel so fucking lost in this world and i’m scared for the future. i just hate it so much i feel so alone and so empty.