Hello everyone, I’m a 21 year old male with extreme anxiety. I grew up in poverty &amp; was very aware of that at a young age. I started smoking weed around 12 every weekend turned into everyday when I was around 14. I got introduced to Xanax at 15 which didn’t last long due to me coming home blacked out &amp; realizing the pain &amp; disappointment I caused to my mother. At 16 I was introduced to acid that turned into every weekend for about 3 months. In this same year my dad passed from a long time H use, the beginning to my mental destruction. We couldn’t afford to bury my father one of the roughest times of my life! I started selling drugs which I got very money hungry &amp; would do anything if it made me a few dollars. Started out robbing kids at my school which turned into robbing older guys. Started partying &amp; got introduced to cocaine that didn’t last Long after my girlfriend told my mom because she knew that was the only way I would stop. Around 3 months later me &amp; my girlfriend got into a accident due to a lady not paying attention. My girlfriend had a broken femur I had a broken ankle &amp; a TBI (traumatic Brian injury). During are time of recovery I was taking a shower while someone broke into my house &amp; stole my safe roughly 35k cash. At this point I’m 17 &amp; mentally lost not going to school with no future in sight. Due to the broken ankle as well as the tbi I didn’t get out much. My best of friends not checking up on me was rough at this point I realized I improved so much, I stopped selling/ robbing/ using all at the cost of not leaving my house. That lasted roughly 2 years. Around this time covid hit, my older brother became a extreme alcoholic as well as my mother. I allowed everything around me to fully consume me. Reality hit one morning after daily regret &amp; suicidal thoughts everyday. I came to the conclusion my only way out is to force myself. Me &amp; my girlfriend ended up moving a town over my first time on my own with extreme anxiety &amp; depression. I started a landscaping company going door to door finding work( something I could have never imagined, I avoided human contact for 2 years) That lasted all summer one of the happiest times of my life. I still have extreme anxiety, my hands shake uncontrollably with a shakey voice &amp; due to my anxiety &amp; past I avoided going to the doctor for medicine as well as the dentist &amp; check ups. I finally no longer let it control me or what I do. all the dark days &amp; endless thoughts,seeing a light at the end of the tunnel is unimaginable but I damn sure see it. God is good! Time heals everything. Someone always has it 10 times worse. Embrace the rainy days they won’t last forever if you stick around. Kinda just rambling but I’m sure this can help someone💪🏽❤️