I have a really bad fear of both the future and of dying. The thought of disappearing sucks but the thought of living forever also scares me and the thought of time itself ending scares me even more. I want to be worth something at least. Knowing the sun is gonna explode one day makes me feel worthless and like nothing I do will ever matter. Problem is I WANT to matter. 

 I have no clue what I want to be when I become an adult (I’m a highschooler) and having people constantly tell me that I need to choose only terrifies me more. Thinking about being older and working at a job makes me really anxious and the thought of being stuck with one certain job/occupation for the rest of my life scares me. My parents want me to go to college but I don’t know what for. 

I’m just so terrified of the future that even thinking about it makes me nauseous from the anxiety. 

Any advice is really appreciated.