I'm not sure what I even want anymore. 

This year has been particularly hard.
I've gone through a divorce and into a new relationship only to be lied to and used. 
To eventually a break up. As if my self esteem wasn't ruined enough. 

I just adopted a cute kitty to help me maybe have something else to focus on. Turns out I may have to take her back as she has will not go in her litter box.  I have tried so much but the financial cost to fix the issue is too much to bear alone. I was not aware she had these issues before I got her.
So now of course everyone thinks I'm an asshole. Not doing enough ext.


She is ruining my house I just bought. Which should be an accomplishment but only feels like more stress. My finances are not in good shape as I am on a sinlge income being on my own now. I've never lived alone and the adjustment is alot for me. 

I hate how everyone seems to tbinl I've achieved alot and I am surviving on my own.

Yet I feel like I am drowning. 
I just dont want to be here anymore. I'm so tired. . .