I am 26.. about to be 27.. and in 2019, I was going thru college and I was doing what I loved.. (art).. my husband became depressed, and it was a very low point.. and I ended up not being able to finish with the degree I wanted bc covid happened and the college sent us all to be online and I was doing art. I got something I didn’t want only bc I had enough credits to graduate bc I liked taking different courses. I resulted in liberal arts. It feels like a failure to get that. But now my husband is getting better and it feels like I’m left behind. It feels like no one cares like alone and invisible. I have isolated myself from the world ever since I was made to stay home during covid. I have extreme social anxiety now. I got diagnosed with depression with psychotic symptoms. I get paranoid from time to time. I’m scared of being alone. I’m scared of being by windows at night. And for a while that went away and I just visited with my dad after not seeing him for a while. He tried to take me two states away.. and became upset when I told him to take me home. We had gone to visit my aunt and go to eat and spend the day together. But he brought his gf along- I have never met her. This was my bday dinner. And he didn’t tell me happy bday, he didn’t take me to see my family. He didn’t ask me where I wanted to go.. it felt like a chore tbh. I feel very hurt but my dad isn’t all there mentally and growing up I was told that.. I was told I would be like him when I got older and now that I’m older I feel like I’m just like him and it scares me. Idk why I told y’all.. 

TLDR; hi I’m depressed. I feel invisible this is me admitting it — maybe my meds aren’t working