Since we are blessed with BPD and it very attractive traits our emotional response to certain drugs may be somewhat different than others and for that matter won't suit us as good as it does others.

Coffee e.g. is a complete hit or miss to me, either I end up feeling a sense of impending doom, or I feel pure euphoria for the time the high lasts.

Kratom (opioid) is quite good at numbing the chronic negative feelings I feel. So there's that. 

Please tell me what works good for you guys.