I struggle with completely immersing myself in relationships. I don’t think I’ve ever been in love with someone or anything like that. It’s like I’m unable to completely fall for someone and whenever I like someone it’s almost like I’m telling myself to like that person. I’m not sure if this makes sense and I’m also not sure if this is a bpd thing or what but yeah. I struggle with allowing myself to romantically connect with people. I often feel like if I allow myself to fall for someone I’ll probably just end up disappointed and heart broken. Not that I’ve had any intense romantic heartbreaks but yeah.