I promised I wouldn’t overdose any more. I guess I didn’t realize how much it upset them. I love them so so much and I feel so sad over disappointing and hurting them. They are angry with me rightfully of course. How do I go about repairing this?

I think my illness makes me out of control. I get these impulses and fixations and I can’t stop myself. And I don’t ever want to hurt anyone else but I have really messed up.