They're back, again. 

I lost my brother last year and every since then I can't let my mind wander.

If I do, what do I get? Oh, those fantastic videos of me slitting my wrists, hanging myself, shooting myself, jumping off a cliff, wrecking my car, ect.

It's wonderful, a third party view of it all, the whole act and aftermath.

On top of that my wife is done with my depression and is considering divorce because I can't seem to give a shit about anything in life.

And the kicker? I lost my job, which was my health insurance, so no therapy for me.