It’s so difficult to live life this way with a significant other.

I am in a new relationship and I feel that every time I’m away from this person I miss them so much, I just can’t get enough time with them. I know personal space is definitely healthy but I’m more afraid that any day that I’m not there proving I’m worthy that I will lose them. 

That they will lose interest or they will leave me. My whole mood goes downhill, I’m just in a melancholic mood whenever I’m not with them. 

I don’t know if I’m in love or maybe it’s all purely driven by being afraid. I feel I need constant reassurance that I’m still wanted and even then I don’t know if I could believe it myself.

I know what the healthy coping for a relationship is but my brain doesn’t work that way. I know that I should never have to prove to someone that they should love me or be with me. But I feel that I have to prove myself or else I will ultimately be deserted. 

Does anyone else feel this way?