I am just feeling lost and unfulfilled. I wanted help but no one could help me. I don’t feel at home anywhere. The world is a cruel place and people want to kick me whilst im down. Im sick and tired of it.  And I know im capable of so much. But sometimes i feel theres nothing I can do. No one understands what im going through or what point im at. I’ve hoping for better days, for a new start in life. It was okay for a moment, I had something going for me, but I got burned out. Though I have taking a break. I know it can happen again. Im back in an abusive environment and got no sleep. I dont know why I go through this and there seems no way out. I cant be here and I know I cant slip into old habits. I just dont know what to do with my life.