So I went walking today, I love the greenery and it was to sort my mind and make some really challenging life changing decisions not nice ones either.

1: Meet new people as people not friends, not anything other than me learning to listen, hear, feel. Challenge, o have anxiety meeting anyone as my behaviour is not appropriate and when you become to realise that you go on red alert.

But the challenge is to meet people and to do so yo have to start. I have joined online groups with others like me who are able to support me and learning here to hear will also help.

2: Acknowledge me and be kind to me. I mean really be kind. Love the pain and sit in it. Entertain the boredom by writing here or venting my frustrsyions in squiggles of none creativity. 

3: Understand life is a mess but sort out bits of it one by one. 

4: Eating daily, this replenishes me and if I do not eat that is not kindness. I don't even have to like it. I have to eat it though, ATM 

5: I am a wounded soul who can get better. That doesn't mean I'm gonna get it right, it means I've decided to get better.