\*\*\*I'm only affected when I know it's mine\*\*\*

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I'm 33, but I can't remember when this began, all I know is it's been most of my adult life.  It's such a dumb problem I have and easy to fix, but I let it constantly hold power over me... Like I am writing this right now as I have my phone next to me and yet to look at it.  I get waves of anxiety from not checking the alerts I hear.  It's not that I have anxiety from not being able to check them, it's from having to check them and unable to know what they could be.    


I feel like mostly all I see on my phone is negative... and I suppose I address my phone to always being a source of negativity...

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Additionally, this issue seems to only affect me after longer periods of not checking the phone.  Seems to affect me drastically more when I feel and know I have not been up to par with my day-to-day activities, personal or work related.   


When things in life seem very good, and I am on top of everything, it never effects me... So it makes me feel it's not the phone itself causing anxiety, but merely the activator for something larger... 

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anyone else dealt with similar?