I don't even know why I'm posting this.
I'm so tired of trying. I used to have "friends" who would tell me to reach out if I needed to but when I tried to, they're busy or "don't see" my messages until days later, so I've given up on trying to ask for help.
I saw a new GP today and she couldn't wait to get me out of the room.
I have no purpose, I have no place in this world. I'm hopeless and pathetic, I don't fit in anywhere. The world is an awful place at the moment, I don't want to watch it fall apart.
Everyone around me is so successful and so sure of their plans for life and I'm just stuck here, floundering.
What hope do I have? I'm 28, awful to look at, on disability pension, living in my parents house. Who would want anything to do with someone like me.
I'm a pathetic excuse for a human. At least if I died, my organs could be donated... That's about all I'm good for I guess.