My parents are assholes. They make my life a shitstorm and expect me to think nothing of it. They always disregard my feelings and emotions and expect me to obey them unconditionally even when I want to kill myself. They always push their fucking religion on me and use it as an excuse to be assholes. The only time they seem to care about it is when it’s about respect of parents but always ignore the humility part of it. I wish I could tell them I’m an atheist but I’d rather not get beat or kicked out. And then they take me on vacations with the rest of the family as an excuse to disregard everything and gaslight me into thinking they love me. Maybe they do but they show it fucking terribly. 



Life is a fucking hassle. Everything is a mission to do. It’s so fucking hard to get up and go to school. To do homework. Even to play video games. To just sleep is bliss and I wish I could do it forever. I want to kill myself so I could achieve that. The only thing stopping me is fear which is natural I guess.