My mother has always been very sexually open with me. It's always made me uncomfortable but I always put it down to her personality and her being a free spirit in that sense.

When I was 10 my mum took me to the shop and I got a few pairs of really lovely underwear (pants). I remember feeling so happy and so grown up. However, when we got home, she made me try on each pair and parade around the room to show her how they all looked on me. I remember at first thinking okay??? Then I was extremely uncomfortable, humiliated, disgusted with myself. I told her I didn't want to do it anymore but she told me that she'd bought them so she wanted to see what they looked like. I can't remember anything else but it still leaves me sick to this day.

I brought it up with her when I was about 16. I was visiting family in a different country and something triggered me into thinking about that moment. I rang and asked her if she remembered doing it and why she did it. She got so angry with me. She said something along the lines of "how dare you accuse me of something like that. I'm disgusted with you." Etc etc. I ended up apologising and just telling her to drop it and that I'd got it wrong.

I guess I'm confused right now. Was this normal? Do mothers do this? I couldn't imagine in a million years asking a 10 year old to walk around in their underwear. Even the thought is making me tear up.

I'm sorry I didn't know who else to ask. It's probably nothing but I can't stop thinking about it and I feel dirty. 