I haven't been able to eat for the past couple days because of bad anxiety that I'm experiencing due to my classes and worrying about the future in general. My appetite might also be impacted by a new birth control I started and some other changes that have been impacting my mood levels and sleep.

When my big anxiety wave started on Friday, I didn't have much appetite but still managed to eat two small things. Saturday, my anxiety was even worse. I threw up every time I tried to even drink something. I have a medication that helps prevent vomiting, so I took it today and haven't thrown up since. However, I still feel nauseous and have a rapid heart rate (my heart has been tested in the past and I don't have heart disease). I'm scared to eat anything because my body still feels like it's trapped in panic mode and I'm afraid that I'll just throw up more. I feel like I'm going to feel this way forever just because life stressors keep piling up and I'm super overwhelmed. I'd feel better if I could at least manage to eat/sleep properly but I feel like a failure for not even being able to do things that come easily to other people like eating and sleeping.