My anxiety levels are getting waaaay too high. I accidentally turn my music a fraction higher than I'm to, I panic. Sudden loud sounds especially in action movies, I panic. More than two people talking at the same time,my brain wants to explode. I'm so so tired. I used to have music as my escape but now I can't even listen to it peacefully without my heart raacing like crazy and I can't breathe.

My brain convinced me that nobody likes me, that they only put up with me on the surface but deep down they loathe me and can't wait to get away from me. I feel like im not capable of anything, that on the surface i might seem like I know some stuff but deep down I'm just this failure.

I'm tired of living like this everyday,so tired. What can I do to at least feel better, Any coping mechanisms? I swear I'll try anything