i'm on my 3rd bottle of beer, crying my eyes out, just another saturday night. my relationship with my SO has been falling apart for a while now, every week it gets worse. this disorder is ruining my life, i feel him hating me with every week that passes, every stupid fit of crying and hating myself and splitting because he didn't do The Thing i wanted. i'm at my wit's end. i'm exhausted. i'm done. i know i've sufficiently ruined his life i'm just waiting for him to dump me at this point. nobody ever loved me before him and nobody ever will after.