I feel like I can't catch a break. Like I just want to read a book, but life has other ideas. Whether my own mind is (missing word) itself or (missing word) is happening, as you can see, I can't find words today. Or whether the outside world comes to me with constant loud ads and the society screaming in my face about how shit isn't working anywhere for any reason.

Over the past few days, I've gotten about 9 hours of sleep a night. And as you can see, the more I sleep, the more stupid, angry, and (missing word), I become. I'm having the words pulled out of my head as I write this.

Like honestly. At this point, I don't give a fucking shit about human society. It should fix its own damn issues. None of this shit matters. People get so worked up over abstracts, things that aren't real. Only the world matters. Not the human world. But humans are delusional. They don't see the actual situation, the physical. We make our own fucking problems without solving any real issue.

I'm so tired. So very fucking tired. Just let me have ONE day off.