context: I (18F) always get extremely jealous whenever I see my boyfriend's (19M) ex post pictures on instagram, or whenever I'm out and about and I run into the various women he's had flings/hookups with. I always compare myself to every single pretty girl I see out there, which is a problem because literally every woman is so so so gorgeous (bisexual woman here btw lol). I would find myself constantly checking his ex's instagram to see what she posted and to see if I was prettier than her or not. At first it was just kind of sad, because I'd feel bad about myself and tell myself how ugly and undesirable I am (I'm not). But then it turned into full on bitching about other women in my private time. I'd screenshot his ex's posts on her story and I'd save it to my camera roll and put it in my eyes only on snapchat and I would make fun of her in awful, mean ways. I knew it was wrong but it was the only thing that made me feel even a little bit better about myself.

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But recently I've started going to therapy twice a week, and my therapist has helped me learn some techniques to battle the delusioned thoughts about others that I'm having. Long story short, I've deleted all of the screenshots and I blocked the accounts of the people that I constantly check up on for no reason, and I'm choosing to focus on myself and love rather than focusing on others and hate. Distancing myself from the things I know will bring negativity in my life has helped me get back into that mindset of realizing how hot and wonderful I am and how nice it is to be nice, both to myself and to other people. I hope I can get a little more secure in my body and mind so that I can hopefully reach out to these women and maybe maintain a friendship? They're not bad people, quite the opposite actually. Anyways I know it may not seem like a big deal, but I made stalking his past lovers a RELIGION, it was like an addiction where every time I would end up hurting myself but I just couldn't stop. But now it's time for me to focus on  myself heheh &lt;3