I am having a really hard time right now. I'm going through a lot in my life while dealing with several mental and physical health problems. I've been unemployed since October due to these problems and will be starting a new job tomorrow. I don't feel ready ready for this at all. I am also going to be borrowing a car until I can get my own. I am trying and failing at planning my wedding, I am selling my house and buying a new one that needs to be remodeled but I'll have to live in it while that's happening. Not to mention I stepped on a rusty nail and also hurt my neck really bad yesterday. 

My anxiety is telling me everything is going to go wrong, and I don't know what to do. My depression is making it feel impossible to cheer myself up and try to be positive. I feel like I'm hanging on the edge of a cliff by my fingernails and the bottom is a mental breakdown like one I've never experienced. I'm in therapy and have anxiety meds. But those aren't putting a dent in these feelings and I just can't see the next day. How I'll make through or be ok. 

My fiance tries and wants to help but doesn't know how and I can't tell him how to either. It feels impossible to explain to anyone how I feel so they understand and even if I could explain in detail, how could they imagine these feelings if they haven't had them before? 

I guess I'm looking for someone who has gone through this before and can relate, and maybe help me. Or even just some words of encouragement would be nice. 

Advice on how and where to start packing for moving to my new house would be nice too.

Thank you.