My heart has been hammering in my chest all week. I have barely eaten. Barely slept. 

I have a high level job (PhD scientist), I have just been given more responsibilities at work, and my boss described me as "confident". Ha! If only she knew I live in a constant state of panic and fear of failure. 

I'm also in the middle of moving. I will be renovating my new home. For me, having a tidy, organized, uncluttered home is my comfort. I won't have any of that for quite some time. 

Can't see my therapist for another month unfortunately. Not even sure why I'm making this post. I guess because you guys get it.