For the past month I have tried my best to act like a functioning adult. My place is clean, I’ve been exercising and eating healthy, in tune with my spirituality. I was so good at it I thought it was really me. It’s not me. This is meaningless. The spirituality is null to me. I only co-opted it because I have co-opted my FPs interest and personality. I still have no identity and wanna die and nobody cares lol