I have such a hard time connecting and communicating with people, even people I’m close with such as my family members. I see a lot of people describe pwBPD as “charming”, when in reality I am the most awkward person in almost every situation. I tend to hyper-fixate on every thing I say, every movement I make, anything at all in social settings, and I judge myself a lot, or assume that others are judging me. I come off as aloof or awkward because I distance myself from others in order to not seem weird but then that ends up making me seem weirder. I don’t know if I am alone with this, or if others even notice how uncomfortable I get. Please tell me I’m not alone in this LOL!