I've tried to stay away from people because I feel like they just silently tolerate me while wishing I'd go away. I used to be active on Reddit but lately all of my posts have gotten ignored or downvoted to Oblivion, so everytime I tried posting something and got negative feedback, it made me feel even worse than before. I ended up deleting almost every single post I made in the last few weeks. I also can't talk to my mother about anything because she has her own beliefs and thinks 'everything happens for a reason' and that my mental illness is a result of some sort of divine intervention/God's plan. My father doesn't even believe in mental illness at all. I used to see a  therapist but after having gone to so many different therapists over such long periods of time and feeling no change, I just gave up. I only have one close friend who really understands me and has stuck with me, but I feel like I'm losing him too.


I don't know what to do. Why does everyone hate me? Why do people always ignore or belittle me? Why am I constantly invisible until someone needs something from me? And yes, this really IS an attempt to get attention and sympathy - I haven't had that opportunity in a while, and I just want someone to listen and understand. I can't do this anymore.