Hey everyone, currently writing this post from a hotel bed trying to fight off throwing up again. So I’m sorry if this is frantic 

I don’t know what to do anymore. My anxiety has always been terrible, but mostly manifested itself in trembling, stomach aches, and other things that sucked but were manageable. 

I’m at the point right now where if there is any sort of disturbance in my routine I get physically sick. This ONLY happens at night when I’m left alone with my thoughts, and therefore I lose an entire night of sleep because of how bad my stomach is hurting. 

This is a recent thing. To make a long story short, my dad ended up leaving my mom and moving to a different country back in April, and ever since then my anxiety has been off the charts. I’m in therapy and everything my therapist tells me helps in the moment, but the second im left to apply it to my own world im right back here again. 

I cant stop getting sick and it’s awful. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to leave my house, Im supposed to go to college next year and I have no idea how im supposed to do that when I can’t even handle staying at a hotel for one night. 

This is a weekly event at this point, and I feel like im almost anticipating it but I just can’t control it. 

Please tell me if you also suffer from this, or if you have any advice. Im just so tired.