I have always drifted in and out of depression since i was a kid sometimes feeling on top of the world and others feeling like there is no way out. Well im 22 and about three months ago i realized how madly in love with my best friend i am. It hurts but its a relationship that's never going to happen. Since this realization i have not really had more than a moment that i don't obsess over him and trying to better our relationship even though its reached a ceiling that will never break, and i respect that. But regardless it has made me super depressed. I am usually a very charismatic, happy go lucky, outwardly selfless guy who didn't really care about my own personal self image. Now i realize that's all i can think about is my self image to him and to all my friends alike. I walk into a room and feel as though nobody wants me there and then obsess over why nobody would want me there(which is usually fallowed by a friend asking why im so quiet or if im okay) i know that people don't really hate me and my friends the greatest man i know and is extremely supportive considering the burden this puts on him(which makes it worse sometimes) anyway. My parents are both diagnosed with depression and anxiety and it only keeps getting worse for me(sometimes suicidal) and i am seeking advice on wither this will go away with the passing of time or should i seek some medical attention before suicidal becomes my only feeling.