I will try to write the shortest possible. Diagnosed 2 years ago  depression, anxiety and social phobia all severe, symptoms were presented way before officially diagnosed. Keep in mind that all this illness come with many kind of symptoms each and I’m presenting most of each of them.  

I’m 21, back in the days I cut myself, drinked pills with sleepy effect, had a diary that told many negative feeling and things I was feeling, like bad one, now days I’m currently having an addiction with weed and it made me realize I am actually very prone to become addicted to drugs.   As more young I consumed alcohol at parties or whatever but for some reason at the end of the night alcohol made my want to harm myself and a another level of anxiety,  now days I don’t cosume it, but I want to all to realize there’s something completely wrong with my brain and the only reason I’m trying to stay alive is for my love ones, I even got the idea to clean my room so they don’t have to clean my mess after, and I don’t know if people actually know the burden of all this. 

Been on and off with Lexaprol, will continue correct use in a month after I get my new appointments, there’s so much more to say I’m sorry for all this