I'm at a point where I think my new boyfriend has had enough, but he's not asserting it (just yet at least). I sent a video six hours ago... But I don't know if it's reasonable to reach out, and/or be upset about. He's with his best friend and I would never (intentionally) get in the way of that, but yeah. We're supposed to go to the Zoo tomorrow. I asked about it, but... It went unacknowledged?

I keep feeling the urge to end it (the relationship), so that I stop feeling unintentionally hurt/triggered. I often get to a point with my relationships where I feel like I can't win. With one hand, I'm holding on for dear life.The other hand thinks it's doing me a favor by trying to pry the first hand free.
Does anyone ever feel like holding on is often more painful than trying to balance and be patient?

IDK.