I'm not looking for advice anymore, I just want to say this out loud. I don't feel worth it anymore.

I don't think I'm good at anything. I've put in years into so many hobbies and it feels like I just can't get to a point where I'm satisfied. There's always someone better and I always feel awful about myself. I know that putting in work is supposed to make you better but it feels like no matter what I do, I suck.

I can't interact with people properly without fucking up in some way, my family situation is beyond fucked, I just feel like I'm not going to make it. I'm not happy. I don't want to live anymore.

I always feel like everyone around me hates me no matter how much reassurance I receive. I convince myself that I'm the worst person in the world.

I'm so sensitive. Everyone's words hurt and I know that as I get older, it's only going to get worse. I just want to be happy.

How do people do it? How do people tread along their lives and ignore the negativity?

Anyways, I know this is a mess of a post but I had to say it somewhere.