And I'm starting to be okay with that. Just now my boyfriend accidentally said that he cares a lot more about his nephew than about me. He immediately said he didn't mean it like that but that if he had to choose between his family and me it would be an easy choice. I get it. I really do. It's just that for me the choice wouldn't be that easy. I guess that means I care more about him that he does for me and that is fine. It makes me sad but it's okay. It has never been different. Everyone in my life has an easy choice and that choice would not be me. I guess I just wish I could be someone's first pick. I now know that I won't ever be and I'm starting to accept it. I hope it will soon stop making me so sad.