I’ve been told by my psychiatrist that I am am not ASPD, I am not NPD, but I have some traits of BPD. I’m also diagnosed with depression, anxiety and OCD.

I don’t want to be a narcissist. Idk why I just feel like being a narcissist means I won’t be loved and I can’t love anyone forreal ever.

But I’ve experienced devaluation of people. Idk if this is splitting or devaluing but when someone attacks me or hurts my ego I tend to shut them out completely but then I end up forgiving them eventually.

The other night I cried replaying and imaginary scene in my mind of my just screaming “please love me” to my ex.

I have pathologically lied before even about very small things.

I idealize people but sometimes I will mistrust them for the smallest things.

I know no one here can diagnose me but in your honest opinion does this sound like BPD or NPD.