I recently got out of a relationship with a man with kids and the only person that was there for me was a neighbor that I had started talking to recently. 

He confessed that he had always had feelings for me while being my neighbor for a couple years and even though I literally just left a relationship he was forcing himself on me sexually and emotionally saying that I am his wife and that he would love to have kids with me even though it was only four days into getting to know each other.

We are from two different races but because of my disorder I feel this person is way too blunt rude arrogant and immature for me. 

When I split and had an episode on him because he told me I need to lose weight he took these long paragraphs of text that I had sent him when I was raging and showed it to a buddy who doesn’t know me and his friend replied to him that I am crazy and that he should stay away. Sad we’re in our 30s lol 

When in reality that very day I told this man that I’m not ready for a relationship because I need to heal myself and I need time by myself and that I didn’t like when he called me too sensitive because I could say that he was too insensitive 

and I guess I’m getting more and more angry at men lately that I keep ending up with these people who are controlling and rude insensitive and have a hard time having self reflection or empathy for anyone but themselves . 

so I am always in the wrong and I’m always crazy because I have a disorder it makes me feel like I’m being discriminated against for something I can’t control even though I’ve been in thearapy for 7 years . 

just feel like there’s men out there that really pick on your self-esteem and dumb you down to make themselves feel better and to know that if you feel like crap about yourself it’s less likely youll abandon  them because in reality their deflecting all their insecurities into you then getting mad when u stand up for yourself. 

I guess I just have so much rage building out because it’s been ongoing thing for me and I know being by myself for a couple of years will help me get out of this mess but I’m just so tired of these men thinking that they’re better than women and it’s some type of power control and I don’t like people that discriminate against mental illness when they can’t look in the mirror themselves at their own flaws 

to me it feels like emotional abuse or I would always be wrong and can’t speak up for myself I just left a relationship for feeling like this and I felt this way right away with this new person which is why I broke it off. I guess I’m asking..

 I have so much anger I just want to tell this person why I don’t want to be with them because he keeps pursuing me and calling me even though I said I don’t wanna relationship  he has no respect for my boundaries and thinks he’s so special that he can change my mind or should I ghost him by blocking him even though we’re neighbors? 

Disclaimer : I got offended in the beginning of hanging out with his person because he told me I need to work out and lose weight and that I am weak because I’m so emotional all the time due to my disorder even after I shared scientific facts about our disorder he still continues to demean me for having it at the same time trying to state that he understands. 

Whenever I don’t feel comfortable to have sex with this person he literally gets pissy like a child and throws a tantrum and I always end up leaving because I don’t even feel comfortable with this person he tries to blame it on our race being the difference but I literally feel as a man he’s disrespecting me as a woman by talking about my weaknesses as though that’s all there is to me 

he also kicked my dog when I was outside and my dog was just running up to see him and that really bothered me I just feel like this person is so insecure they have to compete with me to feel better about themselves I’ve just never experienced this with the opposite sex before this bad. 

I’m not sure if this is my borderline rage speaking but I just really want to tell this person everything I hate about him because it’s stewing inside of me and I feel like he took my power away and I let him but at the same time I could just be angry at myself for allowing myself to be around somebody like this