Been struggling a hell of a lot more lately done pretty well. For myself over the last fue years got a good job married my dream girl got 2 amazing kids really I should have no room to complain but I'm. Missing something my wife seems to always be mad at me and I just want to be close to. Her yet she's always pushing me away my social life has died a death my hobbies are on hold and I'm leaning more and more on her I'm just a burden I can't get out of this rut and I can see in her eyes she hates me I just don't want to be here anymore and I've got no life without her and my kids I've got no way of fixing it and not the understanding of what to do I'm. Just going to go one night and die it would be better for them all than to put up. With my failings