So for brief context: I have a fairly large family (~30 people with aunts/uncles, cousins etc) and we always do cousin birthday get togethers with the whole family. Basically just another lame holiday party but with cake. 
Also, I have been unemployed for 3 months now (this will come up later)

So to the story, my little cousin had a birthday last week so we all got together today to celebrate. And as it usually is my anxiety is through the roof with this many people around, and being forced to have conversations with relatives with whom I have 0 in common with doesn't help.  I can usually stomach it for the couple hours but today was bad. Im always just kind of sitting against the wall, only speaking when someone initiates a conversation and generally trying to not be seen. But with my unemployment situation lately that seemed to be a hot topic of conversation. "Have you found a new job yet?" And then I'm stuck scrambling to find a reasonable answer to an unreasonable question. Like why is it your business? So after the 3rd family member in the first 45 minutes of the party asked me that exact same question, my anxiety flaired and I heard a voice in my head say "get out". And for the first time I just gave up and put all my faith in that voice in my head. I walked over to my cousin whos party it was, said I had other plans and had to leave.  Then I just turned around, didn't say a word to anyone else, walked out to the front door, put my jacket and shoes on and left. The entire time this 2 minute ordeal was taking place my heart was racing and it felt like my legs were shaking, but the moment I got in my car I couldn't have been happier that I had done it. 

Idrk the point of this post I was just proud of myself and wanted to share with someone ig lol