I know I am a secret shiziod with horrible depression. I am not afraid of getting help like a paranoid, more like I've been taught that crazy people get sent away. Welp I fixed everything months ago. Did whm to relax retarded spasming body, used sauna, ran, stretched, ate right, reconnected with family. I got shredded, then I got a great damned job. Then after months of working and grinding my child dog died that I was caring for. Long story short mom was a dick to the poor animal after the divorce, wouldn't take it to vet even though she had the cash so I took it in, (major teeth problems other dogs blinded her, etc,) and when the time came I put the dog down. I am too prideful tell my boss the real reason I was gone was just me crying about the animal and I lied and said it was a gym injury.  Anyways I called in for a week and when I get back using days I had saved up (leave) and the business says you can use these days I was forced to resign. Since its a forced resignation I cant even go on unemployment. Been looking for work, but at this point there is no reason. Days away from eviction which happens to be on my birthday. What does a fuckin person have to do? Fuck the universe. Fuck Life. The amount of effort put in to get fucking slapped back down. Its damn painful.