I was hanging out w my friends and I was kinda deunk and I noticed that I lost my cig pack which had a joint in it.. It was right before my friendhad to go home and I was sup posed to sleeover at her place but dumb fucking me wanted to go look for the joint so my best friend just went home while i left. And she sent me so many messages just lashing out on me saying i chose weed instead of her and it is true so i feek bad and i dont wanna lose her and ive tried to a pologize so many times but she wont listen snd i feel like a fucking shit human why the fuck did i do that. Im seriously addicted to weed and i was kinda drunk so i made the decision im pulsively but its no excuse and i just wanna die i hate myself so much what do i do seriouslly