Seeing someone who keeps either lashing out if I don't give them what they want or express that I'm struggling or they just end up apologising for it all. 

My mind is all over the place, and then, I find they've found my Reddit account. They're most likely reading this but it's got to the point where I don't give a shit. Sick of being insulted and just expected to magically forget the things said. Moving on, so what if I'm alone, I'd rather be alone and stabilise myself then rely on someone else to do it. 

Most of the time I understand why friends/partners leave me, it's my fault but damn, this time I don't actually think it is. So angry. 