so listen. i put a $740 down-payment on a DBT therapy group back in November that starts in March. at the time i was really in a horrible place, but everyone around me was telling me this program was the best thing for me to do. i have insurance, so i thought “why not”. fast forward to now - i don’t want to do this therapy. 

i get my insurance from my father - the source of all of my fucking issues. anyway, i sent him the invoice in January because he said i should wait (??) when i tried to send them in November. fast forward to now, and he’s not answering my messages asking about whether they will cover my DBT therapy. 

the insurance money goes through his account, and he’s supposed to send it directly to me. he’s done this in the past. and now i’m wondering whether he got the money and is holding it from me, or he just doesn’t want to talk to me, or what. something fucking happened and i think i’m screwed out of all my money. 

even if he’s an honest man (and that’s a joke), and insurance just won’t cover it, i’m screwed. because i can’t afford to pay for this group out of pocket. it’s over $2000. 

i don’t know what the fuck to do. i’m applying to universities right now and trying to figure that out, and i’m currently not on any meds because the last meds i was on made me really sick. i have to wait until March to try again. i’m probably going to have to move to a different part of the country for university, also, which means i will have to start all over again with treatment. and honestly if i have to start all over again, i will probably just not get treatment at all. 