(18M) So before lockdown I had been drunk around 5-8 times and loved it, during lockdown for about 7 months I didn’t drink anything. I went to a friends house last June and we drank. I was a lightweight as I hadn’t eaten anything and I hadn’t drank for 7 months, so I had two Scrumpy Jack ciders and was fine. After I ate food, I had two mixers of Honey jack daniels and coke, and then one shot of vodka in fruit juice. I developed a really bad stomach ache a few minutes later, and I wanted to be anywhere but where I was. I regretted drinking and told myself I’m never drinking again, and the stomach ache lasted 24 hours. I tried throwing up but couldn’t. The next week I went to another friends house and didn’t drink a lot. I had one Scrumpy jack and felt tipsy/light headed and fine, then after the second one the stomach ache came back again, keeping me up til 4am. This started my anxiety that has been going on for 6-7 months now, and my fear had got worse so now I’m scared to drink in case i get the stomach ache again and I’m scared to smoke weed/drink coz I won’t be in control of my mind. I want to go back to the old me 8 months ago.