Every morning I wake feeling the same dread fear and anxiety as if I'm the same scared little kid I was growing up. Its exhausting having to work with this chaos in my head. It only subsides by the time is 6 or 7 o clock. I'm on day 7 of taking latuda and still stuck in this mixed episode. Impulsive thinking of leaving or going on break with my gf of 3 years but those thoughts just make me feel more anxious and scared because it's not what I really want. Question of things are real. Feel disconnected from basically everyone and it hurts. It's just back and forth all day until night time where I'm just settled finally. It's like I'm looking for that "one" thing that will fix it but know there isnt that "one" thing. Ever since I quit kratom CT this mixed episode has put me in constant turmoil and if in lucky by nighttime it goes away and I can at the very least relax before bed. Not sure how long latuda takes to work. But I'm hoping I turn a corner soon. I dont want to keep waking up like this.