Ok so I'm a 25 year old dude who had BPD, major depression and GAD diagnosed during a hospitalization couple years ago and was in a bad place, not medicated etc. Nowaday I'm doing so much better to what i was, and mostly control the symptoms of BPD, the raging, splitting, self harm and generally being an ass to those around me that love me. Lowkey I sell some amphetamine and use it this day but it's under control and strictly to maintain a lifestyle I want.


So I met this girl last weekend while selling some a and we instantly hit it off and she's so fucking hot, and apparently thinks I am as well.. Almost made me cum by talking naughty to me lmao. Well got cockblocked and she went to a short stay in rehab next day but we still texting and it's obvious we both into eachother... But when she gets out she apparently goes back to what she became after the bag of A I paid was empty... Started acting so fucking ungrateful, shit talking to me and basically put on quite a fucking show and basically unless more amph was gonna show this party was over. But man.... we had so much fun when it lasted.. I mean I can't remember how good it feels when someone likes you and shit unless shes a very good actor but I can't get that night or her outta my head and I keep texting with her. 

All my friends are screaming "RUN" to me.. tbf they predicted the meltdown after yay bag was done... But I wanna give it a try, maybe quit using as well and we do it supporting eachother coz' we get eachother. 

But I'm having my doubts hence this thread.. Whatchu think I should do?