I’m so tired. I’m tired of being ill. I’m tired of being short and ugly. I’m tired of all my failures with any male I encounter on or off line. I’m tired of everyone hating me of seeing me as lesser than. I’m tired of being so lonely. I’m tired of how people treat me and make me feel. I’m tired of being a stupid bitch. I’m tired of being  a disappointment. I’m tired of being different or unique or abnormal. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of trying so hard to do better for things to just end up being 10x worse. I’m tired of my thoughts which haunt me in my sleep too. I’m tired of having no help from those around me. And I’m so sad I have to live the rest of my miserable sorry life with someone I hate with all my being; that person being me…

I’m most of all sorry that I can’t do better despite knowing exactly what to do