

Venting post:

I woke up triggered this morning by my husband having to go to work (when he had planned to be off). This has snowballed to me thinking he puts work first, that he doesn’t love me anymore or find me attractive after all these years. It has completely put me on edge today. I have told him how I felt (also asking him to not be defensive which is usually what he does when I express my emotions) and all he could come back with it ok.  It spirals into how he never messages me, asks about my day, or is physical and romantic with me first (I initiate most things). 

Also, I’ve only been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. So bpd isn’t even diagnosed but I’m fairly certain it’s what I have and why none of my other medicines even help. I just want to feel normal, and not have breakdowns at everything. 😭