I'm terrified to let anyone in and I feel like there's just something wrong with me. I can't remember what it's like to have a friend that genuinely wanted to be with me and would make time to talk to me. I feel like a freak and I'm unbearably lonely all the time. I had hoped that I would get use to being alone eventually but it's just getting more and more painful. I try reaching out but I still haven't received any sort of message. Not even a "hey, you okay?". Is it so wrong to want people to message me? Am I that much of a burden to others?