I just can’t take it anymore. I am CONSTANTLY thinking about death. I wake up and immediately think about death. i’m so scared of dying but get scared of living. I am never happy anymore I don’t ever have fun all I think about is dying. If I do have fun I immediately stop enjoying it and think about dying. I keep trying to imagine myself dying which obviously I can’t because i’m still alive. I just don’t want this to be on my mind all the time. like I just keep thinking this is it, this is all that life is. most of the time nothing feels real and it almost feels like i’m not even in my body. I’ve just been feeling so off. I feel negative and dark. I feel like nothing matters anymore and I don’t care about anything. I used to have AWFUL health anxiety and now I feel like I don’t care about anything. I feel dead inside.