My mom and I have become emotionally distant over the years and she tends to have a short temper with me. This is partly due to my behavior when I was undiagnosed and a bit out of control, and partly due to my family's toxic narcissism, which I won't get into. I was diagnosed with rapid-cycling bipolar type I in March, but have recently received a BPD diagnosis. This comes as no surprise as I've suspected it for years; the confirmation is relieving. 

Since my initial diagnosis and medication, my behavior and actions have changed drastically and I'm proud to say that I am a nearly transformed person. However, my mother still seems to hold these things against me. She tends to manipulate my mental illness, forcing me to second guess my feelings and actions, essentially gaslighting me. 

Nevertheless, she is still my mother and I want to talk to her about the things that are troubling me, but I'm terrified of what her reaction will be. Throughout my childhood, she was harassed by a woman who she claims has BPD. She demonized those with the disorder and perpetuated the stigma of those with BPD being manipulators, liars, etc. Based off her complaints, I suspect she doesn't believe the disorder actually exists and serves as an excuse for manipulative behavior. 

I've knew that I was suffering from this disorder long before my initial diagnosis, and because of my previous beliefs about the disorder, I ignored it and pushed it away until it became uncontrollable. Accepting that it is my reality has been simultaneously torturous and liberating, but now I have the knowledge and tools to make meaningful change.

Despite what I've said about my mother, I still talk to her regularly and I want her to understand and accept me. I don't know whether or not to tell her about this. I assume her reaction will be negative. Either she'll deny that it exists, or she'll resent me for it. Is it even worth bringing up? 

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tldr; Mother has bias against BPD sufferers and I don't know whether or not to tell her about my diagnosis