im tired of seeing myself fail in the betterment aspect of myself. I keep trying to love and give myself every chance I can get to know myself better. but everytime I do that I keep discovering things I hate about myself? what did I do for my own therapist to ghost me I just wNt to get better and im so sick of myself. like im literally just a slob and I hate everythinf about myself. I feel broken beyond repair and unfixable. I feel so drained and my spirit is so depleted. I feel this void that just sits inside of me and it churns ever so slowly and I feel like it’s consuming me. I really wish none of you or any of my friends have to deal with this and im so sorry that I have to keep burdening you all with my issues. I understand that you all care about me deeply and I really care about you all as well. I really do. But I get tired of living like this.