I have University exams tomorrow and I pretty much didn't study at all. I feel absolutly weak, I don't have any will to do anything anymore expect distract myself from reality with like gaming or watching Videos and that already for years now. I live in shit, I don't sleep, I feel absolutly lonely, the only emotion I ever feel is sadness, I have no girlfriend, no one who loves or likes me and absolutly no will to live anymore. I'm an absolute loser at every aspect and my whole life till now is just full of embarassement and dissapointment. Now I'm one month already on antidepression-medication and I still want to die, yes I want to kms but I'm simply too much of a coward to do that.