Honest question, im getting to a point where Its really bad. I cant even talk to my parents about this anxiety, i just dont feel comfortable. I really want to wait for the vaccine before I start therapy and do it in person, because its also really expensive. Weeds my best option, I'm doing it to calm me down and really just not think about all the anxiety I have. I feel like I can just have fun in my life again for once, Its constantly just sadness these days. But now I have anxiety about even smoking, because out of fear I made a promise I wouldnt smoke again. I hate this.