I'm waiting to hear back from a job interviewer, for a position I applied/interviewed for last week.  The only references I was able to list are people that I had a slightly strained relationship with. I also know people who work at the job I'm applying for - I got along with these people, but they knew me at a low point in my life, and I'm not sure how that will reflect on my potential hiring. 

I have so much riding on this specific job - it's perfect for every need I have right now, from my physical fitness to my social life to my financial status. People always scoff when you say stuff like that, and are quick to say "there are other good options out there," but at least for the hypothetical, *please* take my word on this - this job is exactly what I need, and if I don't get it specifically, I will be in trouble.  I'm in a weirdly specific situation, and hearing reassurances like these are not helpful to me right now.

It's only been a few days, and it's too early to follow up, but waiting to hear back has been torture.  My brain is running on a loop amplifying every little bit of uncertainty - maybe my references sabotaged me, maybe they couldn't get ahold of them and gave up, the fact that it's been more than two days when they got back immediately in all the other steps of the interview process means I didn't get hired, etc.  Irrational stuff like that. 

How can I quiet my brain down and just be patient until there's actually something I can do to influence the situation?