I have no friends, no romantic prospects (please don’t tell me to go to tinder, bumblebff, meetups etc meetup is dead and 40+ year old white man use it as a dating app). My job is relatively “easy” desk job. I don’t enjoy it but I can tolerate it enough. I don’t have any big debt aside from my credit card. I am decently attractive and workout 3x a week (116 lbs trying to get to 125 lbs) and try to read atleast 15 mins a day.

My life is generally low in stress but I am soooo bored, stuck and lost. I truly don’t know what to do with all my free time. I just wander around like an infant baby. Im addicted to my phone and socials bc I truly don’t have anything better to do. I attempt hobbies like piano and language but I get bored easily.

Even when I try to sign up to do more “social” hobbies they eventually die out and now it’s even more hard because of Covid. I haven’t even traveled outside the country since 18 (and please don’t tell me to solo travel). And that shit kills me daily. 

My 20s were pretty much wasted to depression and strict parents in my formative years (18-22). I don’t know what I want to do as a career. The only viable option seems to be is to be a “influencer” and start some shitty merch that no one wears anyway.

The other day I started writing a story bc I need a creative outlet bc I can’t sing, dance, play music or draw. 

I have no social circle to turn to and I come from a broken family, so no hanging out with cousins either. I’m so bored I wish I was dead so I can escape this feeling. Even if I do have good habits I’m not happy.

Idk I guess it would be nice to hear from someone in a similar position