about 5 days ago, i made the decision to step away from my phone and online friends. i was feeling unappreciated, unloved and uncared for by them, so i put my phone on do not disturb and set my status to invisible. i haven’t posted anything on social media and haven’t replied to any messages. i thought that if i took a step back, it would help me to not focus on that part of my life and feel better.

now i just feel worse than before. people have sent me messages asking how i’ve been doing multiple times since i left, but for some reason i still feel like no one cares about me. even my ex called and texted me a lot to basically confirm i was still alive, but i feel like it’s not because he cares about me and it’s only because he didn’t wanna feel guilty.

i don’t know how to take away this pain. i don’t understand why no matter what i do or what anyone else does, i still feel like no one cares. i’m so incredibly sad.