Let me start this by saying that I am not suicidal. I have zero desire to die. I mean it, the thought of dropping dead from like cancer or something terrifies me. Okay? Now,
When I think about like ending it or something. My heart flutters with like, excitement. Like it skips a beat. Idk why exactly. It's something that has always happened to me. When I was a kid I use to think about what all the bullies and shit would think if I did it. Then play the scenarios out in my head of how everyone would react and I'd get this same feeling. Was just curious if anyone else has experienced this. Thx.