I know BPD people often have other comorbid disorders.  I often have fanatic daydreams of wealth or power.  Or being respected and understood.  I'm not a narcissistic person though.  Maybe it has to do with looking for an external fix to my emotional problems.  Maybe part of me thinks money would give me some control over my life to make up for the lack of control I have over my emotions.  Or it's just escapism.

I get into these dreams so intensely I feel like I break with reality for a time.  I also take on the mood of whatever music I listen to.  I can get super excited or overwhelmingly sad.  But I still like to listen to sad music even knowing how it will make me feel.  I also daydream of dramatic suicide.  Does anyone else experience this?