I just want to know what I'm doing wrong. I made a large group of friends last year, and while I haven't seen them as a huge group in a couple months, I still want to be friends and speak to them. The friend group, however, seems to be slowly but surely cutting me out of their lives. A few people have straight up deleted me off social media and don't return messages if I ask if I've done something wrong and can fix it somehow. Last time I saw them all, I felt this weird vibe of "oh we don't like her and I wish she didn't come to this event, but hey I guess we can pretend for a few hours, right?" Someone at the event wouldn't even look at me, meanwhile she looked at, spoke to, and hugged everyone else. I see them all on social media, talking with and supporting each other, reacting to every post they make. They don't do that with me. 

I feel alone in every friend group I've tried to assimilate into. It feels like I'm trying to fit my square body through a circular hole; it's awkward and impossible to do. I'm second string, even if people won't admit it, and it hurts. I don't want to keep going through the pain of making friends only to lose them a year later. There's about 6 people out of the 20+ person friend group who still interact with me on varying levels... And that's awesome... But I want them ALL to like and talk to me. I know how pathetically whiny that sounds and I hate it, too, but I just... I want them all to sincerely like me like I sincerely like them.