You have the ability to do whatever you place your mind to. (well not everything) You have to initiate that desire to be better, no one can do that except for you. Others can push you to, and try and steer you, but you have to want it for yourself to truly make it. Set those goal for yourself and make them happen. 

This year though, will be my Phoenix rising. I hit rock bottom, and that’s okay. Knowing that I can only do things to better myself and get up from here. 

I’m motivating myself to work on a project, I’m listening to podcast that help with BPD, and reading anything that can help me, focus on ME. I still have someone I love and care about(RNA) and despite not being with them, I’m understanding the concept of genuine love, and what they’re doing is for both my and their benefit. 

I will be better. I will do better. 
It’s going to take sometime, but I will make it.