Ever since I started working on a locked down unit I’ve been dreaming more and in almost every one I end up being raped or something along those lines and recently I’ve just been feeling worse and worse when I’m awake. I had to take an Uber home a week or so ago at 3am and it was a young male driver and I was just so scared the whole time and it’s not like he even did or said anything to me but I went home and cried and almost threw up. I don’t feel like I have a reason to feel this way. At work I have to change patients to make sure they don’t bring anything in and sometimes the men make comments but none of them have tried to touch me or anything. I think something happened to me when I was little. I don’t know if it was being molested and I don’t know who it was but I know something happened to me. I don’t talk about it because I don’t remember anything about it I just think of times that it could have happened but I think I’ve just blocked it out. I don’t speak about it at all because I guess there’s not really anything to say about it since it’s all just foggy. I don’t want to be told I’m just making it all up or that I’ve just created a memory in my head of something that didn’t happen. I’ve had anxiety and depression since I was a kid too and that doesn’t help but these dreams are just making everything so bad right now and I just feel like I have no reason to feel like this