I’m so alone. I think everybody would be better off without me. I was to disappear. The voices and visual hallucinations are taking over. I don’t want to eat or take care of myself. What’s the point. I’m a teacher but I cant do this anymore. The kids would be better off with someone else. My fiancé would be better off with someone who wasn’t sick. My family would be better off without the burden of me. The voices are consuming me and isolating me. I do t trust anyone. I’m numb. I’ve given up. 

The longest death I’ve felt is staying alive.