im 22, £30k in debt from a uni degree i hated, suffering with bpd. i finally got a retail job - it was hard to even get this job because of the pandemic. my parents think im gonna swing into a job i studied for but its not that easy. 

i self harmed last night really bad in a manic episode. i feel hopeless. i dont feel safe enough to talk to my parents about my problems because they add to them; calling me a "shit cunt" and "it's" got to go (it being me). 

i just need some encouragement and some support