Ok so on the 29th (Saturday) I went to a bbq/party with a bunch of older adults I (20m) was the youngest person there. Everything was going great for a long time, then I had a panic attack. I don’t remember much about it because I disassociated pretty hard. What I do remember as people being very supportive and caring. Beyond that, nothing. Now I know this isn’t abnormal but since that happened nobody is talking to me and I still don’t know what I had the attack over, I don’t know what happened at all. I know I calmed down a bit and was eventually driven home but I feel physically sick because I cannot stop worrying about what happened. Did I end/ruin the gathering? Why won’t anyone get back to me? Did I hurt someone (emotionally)? I just have no idea and I CANNOT stop thinking about it. I don’t know if this is a rant or my asking for help but it’s out here now!