So basically, I keep going between being super disappointed in myself because I feel like I'm being selfish, or I feel so angry because I feel like he isn't considering what I want. We come from very different backgrounds which is why we want two very different things. I grew up very poor, with roaches and plywood floors in the house. Some nights we only had the propane heater or the oven for warmth. Overall I struggled a lot growing up in terms of housing. He grew up in an upper middle-class cul-de-sac. His dads house has a kitchen so large and beautiful that it took my breath away when I first saw it. They have 2 fireplaces and a beautifully manicured lawn. I could just go on and on with descriptions on how different our lives were before meeting each other. Now we've been together a while and want to own a house. We both want to stop renting. But he shows me houses in tight neighborhoods, with tiny yards but perfect houses. His ideal house is &lt;1 acre of land, in a neighborhood, that's modern and up to date with no work needing done. The problem is that I want &gt;5 acres of land, I'm in love with the old Victorian and colonial style homes, and I don't want neighbors right up my ass. I want to be able to have a garden, a goat, and some chickens. My dream is to have a small farmette. He wants the in town life. The house i recently showed him was up to date on most everything, but it needs new floors throughout because the carpet is worn and some of the original wood floors were painted over. Its beautiful, has barely over 5 acres, a huge porch and kitchen, its in our price range, and it isn't in the middle of no where. We still have neighbors. But it isn't a neighborhood. After the 3rd picture he started scrolling his phone and I lost his attention. I feel so angry because I want to be happy too, and I know I will be miserable if we go with what he wants.