It first started as some weird weed-induced form of Alice in wonderland syndrome where my arms and hands felt gigantic. I couldn't even look at them because they looks so grossly out of proportion that it made me anxious and nauseous.

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Now, sober, lately I'll derealized as per usual but even when I'm somewhat grounded, I feel that my arms-- my hands especially-- aren't mine. In the sense that they just feel wrong/off in some way, they don't feel entirely attached to me in some way. I have a lot of anxiety on a daily basis, so when this starts up it basically triples and leaves me unable to do anything but just stare and wonder why I can feel my hands but I can't feel *my* hands. 

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In fact, I'm only writing this because this is the sixth time I've resurfaced from this feeling in five hours and I don't really know how to make it stop. My hands always look somewhat off to me nowadays, even while I'm typing I'm trying not to look at them because they look entirely foreign and gross, like some