long time since ive posted butttttt......lol 
I thought i was doing pretty OK, i had a new friend group with lots of ppl on discord, and we were all getting along really well. some hiccups here and there with my emotions but otherwise OK. today the kicked me (and boyfriend) from the group chat, and i recived a message that i "was just too much to handle anymore, and the group unanimously decided to let you go". i was heartbroken to say the least, and angry and devestated and upset and yaddda yadda.. i posted about my feelings, as you do, and one of the things i mentioned was that I know the group well, and I will now be the butt of this week's jokes. I cry for a while and then phone my dad to distract me, and i felt pretty good after the call. 

then..  ....lo an behold, one of the group members reblogged aformentioned post and added nasty commentary mocking me for this post, and then posted a bunch of screenshots of my blog (something that already really really Really freaks me out) and was publicly making fun of me on their blog (thus proving my post?) Anyways im doing OK...now.. but im still really emotional about the whole ordeal and most of me has decided to just get over it and move on but as soon as i start thinking about it i get really upset again!! my bf is doing his best to support me but i feel really awful tha he had to loose these friends too, all because of me. and i just feel really awful in general. 

this doesnt warrant a response, just wanted to post somewhere where ppl .. get why im so devastated. 