I always think people are talking about me, that they want to hurt me or make my life miserable somehow. I mean it was learned over a long period of time where that was actually happening but still. It's not anymore. I know it's happening and I can recognize it for what it is now but every single time my mind goes to that place first. One person that I confided in told me "just don't think like that." Right. The only person who totally gets it is my therapist. It just takes me to a very dark place. That's where I am right now. There's really very little keeping me here right now. This is an exersize that I go through on a regular basis and lately is becoming more and more difficult to get through.