As long as I've been diagnosed I've considered myself 'high-functioning bpd', where it affects me personally but not professionally. But in the past year everything has gone bad. I lost really good friends and went from a solid B student to suddenly failing all my classes until I'm waiting to hear if I'll be kicked out of the faculty. My FP is leaving me in September, my mothers going into surgery soon, angry customers at work are actually stressing me out until during my last shift I left the store mid-shift crying, etc. I bought a kitten to prevent me from hurting myself (working) and I know that if I did to anything my mother would commit suicide after me. I'm stuck. I remember years ago I didn't think I'd live past 20 years old and now I feel like I'm ruining any chance of a future I could have. 

I feel like everything is out of control and I can't get my life back. 