Every week/almost everyday I have thoughts like “what if I wasn’t born in this time” “what if I was born as a different animal and I got killed instantly” which leads into me thinking about what is my purpose and what is life in general and gets me feeling really really down and sad. 

I’m getting quite concerned with these thoughts cause they make me sound insane and they happen almost every day of the week. 

For example yesterday I saw someone squishing an ant and my first thought was “what if I was born that ant and I got instantly killed, what would be after that? only death? what is death, what happens after we die?” and that lead to me thinking about death all day 

Is this normal? We have been in a lockdown which kinda makes sense. But can someone explain what’s going on cause I’m getting slightly worried about the thoughts about death I’m having. What shall I do about this?