Hi everybody, hope you're all having a good day. 

I'm feeling very vounarable and scared, and I hope you can give me some advice on what my next step should be.

I've resently been dumped, by everybody. Even my best friend and my parents are ignoring me. I'll soon run out of money, and without an education, and with my bpd, I can't really get a job that pays enough to keep my apartment. 

Recently I have been getting some job offers abroad. Flight and accomadation all payed for. I don't have any friends here, and myvfamily doesn't like me. I don't blame them, really, I get it. I'm weird, awkward, ugly and insane. But if I get this job, I'd at least have some people to talk to. They're gonna make fun of me, ofcourse, but I am quite good at ignoring it. When I don't care about people, I usually don't care what they think about me either. So I think it could be feasible. And I honestly don't like the alternative: staying in the same city, with all the bad memories, trying to avoid people I know, being poor on benifits, drowning in my own misery. 

On the other hand, it's frightening to move to a new country, being utterly insane, exploitable and yet unapproachable. 

What do you think I should do? I don't have anybody else to ask.