I don't have the usual signs of anxiety like sweating, increased heart rate or breathing problem. From outside people can hardly tell how much I'm struggling. But I can't talk to people. I was always introverted, so I always talked less. But now it's interfering with my day to day life. 

Whenever I have to do something involving others I would feel this intense uneasiness and fear. I don't know how describe it. It has become extremely difficult to get out of my house.If I somehow drag myself outside, I can barely function. 

For example, Today I was supposed to have lunch outside. I was standing in front of the restaurant . All I had to do was walk inside and order. But the thought of it crippled me to the point that I decided to skip the meal.

Even writing this had been a struggle despite It being totally anonymous. (So thank you if for reading this far. )

Is it anxiety? If it is, what should I do? Mental health facilities are not so great in my country. My father won't take it seriously anyway and I can't afford it on my own.