Hey what’s up Reddit lately I have not been feeling mentally well for the past year I have been thinking about murder a lot lately I don’t know why but it keeps going on in the back of my head the thought of killing myself or killing others and before in the past when I was younger I would always avoid these thoughts and say no that’s wrong to think about but now it’s hard to control them some background info I am 14 I have had on and off violent thoughts my whole life but I have never had these violent thoughts that have been this extreme before I am taking to a therapist and I told my mom more info about what is going on with me but I feel like I might hurt someone in the future I am worried should I go to a mental hospital? I cry sometimes because I am so lost and distraught I have no friends at school so that doesn’t help I am socially awkward I get angry very easily I have some past trauma I also possibly have a erection issue but anyways back to the thoughts I have also had in the past a obsession with serial killers like Ted bundy for example but I have a feeling of wanting to do what he did but worse and do more murders and again I know these thoughts are wrong but it’s very hard for me to avoid them my mom tells me that I am just being a teenager with hormones rushing and I am not crazy but like I said before I used to research serial killers in the past and also got obsessed with them also I have had very violent thoughts in the past. Anyways if anyone can help out by telling me if something is wrong with me or any advice that would be great if anyone needs more info just kindly ask and I will most likely give anyways see ya.