•I know how you were feeling
•I never want to go through that again
•You hurt so many people even yourself in the long run
•You lost lots of friends/family/people on the sideline
•You tried to end it all
•Antidepressants tried to kill you
•Benadryl tried to kill you
•You never wanted to be mean
•I know you're angry full of rage
•Everyday I wish I could be on medication sooner
•I wish I could go back and say sorry make things right
•everyone sees you as "unstable- hard to be around"
• I'm stuck in this loop everyday reminding me that I messed up 
•Feeling alone 
•Still to this day spiraling 

Dear unmedicated me