Just like another user here, Im not sure how I even got to this point. I felt like i was a normal person until middle school. 
My first experience with anxiety was being in a silent room, and having my stomach make noises (i know its silly) but as a young teen i was terrified of being in a room with strangers without any white noise. So i skipped and acted out in school to avoid it.
That was the first time my brain physically manifested my anxiety.

Later on it stopped since i dropped out, i got a job and i was fine, i was nervous at first but i ended up working there for almost 2 years!

That’s been my only real job ive held the longest. And after being unemployed for a while, i got used to not socializing. Work from home was my goal, and i even dropped that because i was too anxious to speak to strangers over the phone. I always manage to overthink myself to death, until i run away because i dont feel capable of my responsibilities or making moral or financial decisions. Im anxious about driving alone and the highway, im anxious about starting my new retail job sunday. Its eating me inside that a simple feeling is stopping me from being a productive 23 yr old woman.

Reading and writing only helps so much in the moment.