So I've been suffering with depression for over 10 years and recently it has become unbearable. The past few months have been awful, I'm not getting any enjoyment from anything, I spend most of my nights crying myself to sleep and it feels like I have no control over my emotions. My boyfriend is doing a great job supporting  me but now I feel like i'm miserable all the time even though I try to be upbeat. I keep thinking he deserves better and not having to deal with me and my mental health problems. I've recently started back on antidepressants and they help a bit but my breakdowns have begun to take over again. I'll be fine one minute and the next I'll be in floods of tears. I've tried exercising, meditation and i've also given up smoking and drinking i'm currently 13 weeks sober. I just feel like I have lost all control. Any help on how to try and ease this would be greatly appreciated x