I am 16 years old, and I am in 10th grade. I have Depression and possibly Anxiety. I constantly have negative thoughts that control how I feel about things. My thoughts are also just a very dark place that would suck me into a black hole of sadness and Loneliness. As a shy girl that has some Anxiety, its pretty difficult for me to connect/open up with others, Its already hard to even have an decent conversation. The thoughts I have consist of "Your a waste of time, don't bother anyone", "Your friends and Family don't care about you at all.", "Your going to stay lonely and unloved for the rest of your life" thoughts like that, but I also had Suicidal thoughts, but I would be too much of a coward to actually hurt myself, especially if I know it isn't exactly going to do anything. But I however wish I could explain this to my friends or family, I wish for them to understand me in some way, but I also don't want to bother them and I'm scared of what they would say to me. I just wish my mind and thoughts didn't treat me like this, I wish I could go back to being a very happy girl that everyone loved and paid attention to, now my parents don't know what to say to me because we barely talk unless its needed, its not that I'm not loved by my parents, I just don't feel loved that much.   
I apologise for the long paragraph.