Hey everybody

So just before covid, I was in a band with my two best friends, I was the main creative force and we were still riding the momentum of our first album. Since then, I've not been able to play gigs or rehearse at all, and they both left the band for creative reasons. Now I'm preparing to get back into gigging in the new year but with backing tracks. So just me. I still feel heartbroken about them leaving, and I'm horrified at the idea of the core of who I am as a musician being so brutally different, it's like I don't know who I am anymore. How do I focus on the positives and try not to freak out when this could potentially be a good thing? I feel sick with fear when I think about how different my life is since those times where everything felt so exciting. Thanks for reading.