I keep adding another flare but when i post another one appears :/ anyways cw/ suicide

I’ve been on medication (Zoloft, Abilify and Lithiofor) for a year and i still dont see any improvement in myself. Im still the same, not to say it is getting worse especially this year. Ive had so many episodes and ive attempted suicide 5 times, all these in the span of 5 1/2 months. Is it me or is anyone else having the same problems with themselves:(