I feel like there is something wrong with my brain. Ive noticed signs if OCD such as me needing to clasp my hands every 5 minutes or pick the skin in the side of my thumb to the point where it doesnt heal. 

I have terrible, violent intrusive thoughts about people and myself. 

Ive sh'd on multiple occasions.

I listen to music almost constantly to drown out my thoughts. 

I have depressive episodes where i basically feel suicidal. 

I feel disconnected from my family who can be toxic at times and then try to act like nothing happened. 

I feel so alone all the time but am very introverted. (Pretty sure i have social anxiety) 

Can someone help me on this? Is there something wrong with me? Do I need to see a psychiatrist?