I know it sounds pathetic

She lives in france and i live in belgium. We have broken up once before because of the distance (when we were younger this made things complicated) but we got back together a year or so later.

Then after a litlle more then a year my weed addiction got the better of me and i started being a jackass so we broke up again.
This was a couple of months ago. Since then i have stopped smoking and became mentaly sober. I believe we could make things work again so i plan to win her back.
I will see her again this summer vacation (we both go to the same place every summer this is how we met)

I am spending a lot of time making her things like origami flowers and stuff to make her see that i have changed wich i truly believe i have but i am scared she has moved on while i am putting (maybe wasting*) all me energy in getting her back.

Maybe it would be better if i just moved on and stop wasting my energy but i cannot imagine my life without her i have tried to move on but cant.