Its been about 2 years since being officially diagnosed and apart from being pissed I wasnt told I had this earlier I at the same time see why some doctors wont tell a patient they have this disorder.

I kind of figured out I cant really cure it just deal with it and one big problem for me right now is relationships, I believe I am only attracted to emotionally unavailable women, he with an attachment disorder or whatever.

From what I have read there is no fixing this so I am kind of making it an excuse not to date anymore and just accepting being lonely, I lie to myself and say that its impossible to have a longterm relationship with this disorder but I know some have I just kind of think they are outliers.
I believe I am also co-morbid NPD so that just mulitplies my problems.

I just wanna know if I am right to lower my expectations in life rather than chasing what seems to be a carrot on a stick for wanting stability and a seemingly normal life at home.