So today I actually talked on the phone with a person and scheduled a dentist appointment. 

I’m scared and embarrassed about what they might say when I open my mouth. 

It’s been a decade since I’ve seen a dentist- I never found one when we moved here. I’ve always had good pretty good mouth hygiene and have never had a cavity (pretty sure that’s still the case). I’m 37.

The problem is my gums. My husband and mom died 12 days apart in August 29. I had a long period where I didn’t take good care of my teeth. 

Now my gums are receding and are often painful and sensitive. I’ve taken up a strong regimen of brushing daily with gum restore toothpaste, using antiseptic mouthwash, flossing and using a water flosser. That has allllll helped a lot. But...it’s still not great. 

I’m afraid when they see my mouth, they’re going to make me feel bad or berate me for letting it get out of control.