Long story short, I have had anxiety since the age of 15. From the ages of 15-18 I was given every anti-anxiety/anti-depression under the sun. As I got older, I stopped taking medications and just...dealt with it.

The last couple of years, my anxiety/depression has returned with a vengeance. I sought therapy (still searching for "the one" as I haven't clicked with the the last few, and the one that I did click with stopped taking my insurance.) Also, normally my way of dealing with my anxiety is exercise (specifically long distance trail running and weight lifting.) Due to a year long injury/illness I haven't been able to exercise (besides short walks) and my anxiety is through the roof.

I have been on a few medications this past year (lexapro, then lamotrigine) and while they all manage my anxiety...they also make me feel lifeless. Numb, tired, no energy, no joy, no feelings. 

Has anyone has success with medication that doesn't make them feel like a lump? (cue the "President's of the USA" song.)

I have an appointment next week with a new therapist, and while I'm going to tell her all of the above...I'm just trying to seek direction in the medication arena. Obviously, no one thing works for every person but just trying to get an idea.