So... my girlfriend of 1 year is going to be leaving for Europe (I'm in the US) to study abroad for the spring semester.  Her flight leaves on January 21st and she comes back in late May.  I don't know what to do.  I'm so lost.  I've spent practically every moment with her for the past few months.  She was one of the only people who came to visit me in the hospital after my suicide attempt.  She's my life.  I know this isn't healthy.  I know I need to try not to be so attached.  I know I shouldn't worry about being abandoned.  But I do.  I really do.  I'm so afraid that she'll get over there and decide she doesn't want to date me anymore.  I'm so afraid of losing her.  I don't know what I'd do without her.  The study abroad thing is bad enough, I'll only be able to talk to her for a few hours a day because of the time difference.  If she leaves I don't know what I'll do.  I have nothing without her.  She's at home right now.  300 miles away.  We're spending New Years together.  Just the two of us.  It's day 2 of her being back at home away from me.  Yesterday was brutal.  Watching her drive off.  Today, I feel so numb.  It sucks so much because this whole process of her going abroad is just dragging on.  Right now, with her being in the same time zone and only a 4 hour drive away still hurts like hell.  If I feel like this now, what the fuck is it going to feel like when she's across an ocean? 

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I'm sorry.  I just needed to rant a little.  If anyone has any recommendations about what I can do to stay safe, sane, and somewhat happy, I'd appreciate anything you've got.  