I'm only alive for my therapist, coworkers, family and friends...which I know is a  lot of people but still. Is it worth it really to just live for them? They say suicide is selfish, but I'm putting everyone else first and this is my life. If I wouldn't hurt so many people I would be long gone....Ive been feeling this way for a long time and its not fair. 

I'm alive for others, not for me. Even my profession shows that.