I hate feeling jaded and derealized, my derealization comes and goes and it sucks, but I've been smoking weed and drinking because of past tramuas (Read about it here https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/re9tqj/i_hate_my_body/?utm_medium=android_app&amp;utm_source=share)
I have family who loves me but I really don't tell them my problems that much but my 2 only friends I hardly ever see but text alot know my troubles and care but I still feel like this shit isn't getting any better also back in the beginning of January I had an acquaintance accuse me of something that wasn't completely my fault.

I've been on meds before and it really doesn't do crap so i took up CBD and it helps,  I have younger siblings who smoked THC and that makes my anxiety worse so yeah pretty much I hate feeling derealized, or like I'm in a dream. I would like to make more friends locally too (ALBUQUERQUE NM area) besides my depression stuff I make music and draw