My interests, feelings and relationships are constantly change. There is nothing I crave more in my life than some kind of consistency. And since I'm super distracted (ADHD) and useless and change my mind about interests so much, I can't exactly be consistent with a passion or work or anything. So I intensely want to harm myself  or smoke all the time or drink all the time or anything just so it's one thing in my life that is consistent. If yes/no, is it a BPD thing or potentially an ADHD thing or just a me thing. And do you think there could be some other reason to it? I am a baby BPD after all.