I don’t know if it’s just me but. Well let me start the story from the beginning. One time a friend of mine asked me if I’m aware that I’m manic or depressed why don’t I just “not be” (they didn’t mean any harm). They just didn’t really understand why I would spend money even though I knew it was impulsive. 

I don’t know if it’s just me but it’s almost like a calling. As in I’m aware of it and it’s very easy to feed into it. A lot of energy to combat it. Am i the only one?