I (21F) just got a BPD diagnoses and it’s been pretty hard for me to handle. Everyone in my life I know with BPD is very unhealthy, and while I know there are healthy people functioning with BPD, personally the unhealthy ones are the only frame of reference I have. Having my brain associate me with them and compare me with them is tough, even if I’m not actually in their same field.

I’m nervous about how having a diagnosis is going to affect me. I know nothing in my life will change, but I’m nervous I’m going to start “playing a part” or acting a different way bc I’m treating it like a self fulfilling prophecy. I’m also nervous I’m going to push people away bc I feel like I deserve it.

I feel overwhelmed. Any tips or advice on how to process and proceed as a newbie would be greatly appreciated :)

Also, I decided to start Euphoria today, which might have not been the best timing.