I think I’m manic but I’m on my meds. I’m not looking for diagnosis. Just sympathy. 

I’ve been having focus problems for a long time now. I was prescribed adderall in February and it worked great and perfect for one month, then it triggered a very emotional state. But it felt like everything was going right for one month. Then I stopped that med because of the emotional state.

Cue up two months later I’m wanting to try it again and see if the same result happens. I get a new prescription, but the medication doesn’t feel the same. I can’t focus on it. Nothing feels right, and after two weeks I’m having a sleepless night. It could be unrelated. But it just sucks that I had a moment of time where everything was balanced and now I can’t seem to get there again. And this sleepless night is going to disrupt me and make me an a-hole tomorrow and it’s going be “well why didn’t you sleep?” And I’m going to have to say “I tried.” Etc.