2015 has just been so shitty. I started the year with a broken ankle and a bit of debt (due to not being able to work thanks to the injury). Long story short, I fell in a certain fast food/sandwich shop that's name has something to do with trains underground. 

*Anyway*, we put in a claim because I fell down the stairs which were very wet and there wasn't a wet floor sign in view. After months of waiting and pestering, debt increasing and trying so hard to be patient, I got a reply today. I'm not getting a single penny. Not getting loss of earnings for the three and a half months I had to take off work, absolutely nothing. I was counting on this so much and getting that email today after work has just absolutely broken me. 

I also lost my passport earlier in the year and was unable to go on vacation with my boyfriend to meet his family. I was still trying to get over that but its just eating at me. I had a freak out earlier and gave myself a good few punches to the temples, just like old times. I scared my boyfriend so bad that he won't even talk to me now, he went downstairs and started talking to his friends, completely blocking me out. 

I'm still suffering from this injury. I have a metal plate in my ankle and I can't do half the things I used to do. My painkillers make me ill but if I don't take them it hurts to even stand up. 

I don't know what I'll gain from this post but maybe ranting will stop me from doing something I really regret. 