I don’t want in anyway self diagnose myself or expect others to do the same, but sometimes I suspect of having Borderline Personality Disorder however, I haven’t been able to reach the adequate help.

I really display some of BPD characteristics but I am not entirely sure. My boyfriend can also agree with me on this one too. 

Characteristics such as compulsiveness, self destructive behavior, get angry very easily and whenever I do, I turn to self-harm, my relationship with my boyfriend is hell of a roller coaster, we fight a lot, I break up with him at least 3 times a week, I can never make plans because it’s never solid, great desire to shoplift, I am very insecure about my physical appearance and sometimes I feel like I have no personality. I also feel depressed at days and when I do, it’s pretty bad like I will cry a lot, put myself down, won’t feel like doing anything, not even taking care of my own hygiene etc.

Sometimes I suspect it could be BPD but at the same time, it could also be a million other things. I just know something is not right with me and although I wish I could find the adequate care, my social circumstances doesn’t allow me to. Any ideas of what might be going on with me?