If i wasnt so attention seeking specifically from the ages of 11-16 i think i would literally be fine. If i didnt have endless embarrassing moments to look back on, endless lies i told to think about, endless mistakes ive made, times ive put my foot in my mouth, then i probs wouldnt believe so intensely that i am literally the worst. worse than logan paul, i told one of the same lies he has to everyone at school when i was 11 and 12 and maybe even 13. Can u imagine for so long?? Then listening to the internet slate him for was like listening to them slate me for it. and im so shitty that if even one word that has to do with one of the big lies i told comes up on a tv show or something i will change what we are watching cos i am a coward and can't bear to be reminded of my own actions.