I've posted  here many times under many different names. My cat is dying as of the moment and I can't do anything about it. I wish I could take him to a vet but I don't have the capacity to take him there. My internship is starting next week and I won't have any money until I receive my first pay check next month. It's so hard to see him suffer. He's the only one that tethers me to this world. I wish I could die with him. He took me out of depression, and I can't do anything for him in return. He's the only reason why I continue to fight. I continue to feed and make him drink with a syringe. He hates it when others do it but he trust me his life. I wish I could tell him I'm sorry that couldn't do anything. I love you. 

I'll have my final interview in an hour. I know it's selfish for me to say I wish I get through it when he's the one dying. I don't know where else to share it.