My anxiety/depression have completely spun out of control since my dads stage 4 cancer diagnosis in October. I can’t believe it’s been 5 months and I am still hardly coping. I feel like I am falling apart from the moment I wake to the moment I fall asleep. I have crippling anxiety. About everything. About my dad. My own health. My husband and my daughter. I almost feel paranoid. Like I will never feel happiness again. I’ve had panic attacks that have landed me in the hospital 5 times. Im so ashamed of how I’m handling this. My poor dad worries about me. I have a 3 year old and I can hardly enjoy time with her. This is all happening and my dad is still here. What is going to happen when he’s not. Im so scared that my anxiety and depression will kill me. I miss life before. Im going to be 30 next month and I’m so depressed that my life has turned into this. I have talked to multiple therapists, tried multiple meds and nothing is helping. I feel so hopeless. I just want to enjoy time with my dad but all I can think about is how depressing life is and what’s the point to anything? I need support. I need help. I need someone to tell me I can survive this. Please.