I feel like I will never escape depression. It’s something that’s been a part of me my entire life which probably originated from some family trauma which has started to resurface or return. In November I attempted suicide for the first time, it changed my perspective on everything and I promised myself I wouldn’t try again because of how it affected people but I just don’t see a reason anymore. I’m tired of living for other people, I’m tired of life. My depression resurfaced pretty bad this time and I’m now failing a couple college classes which will most likely result in me dropping out. I want to be successful, I want to enjoy life. I’ve tried. It feels like no matter how much I try I’m held back by my depression. I feel held back by myself. I can only look at myself and see a failure, I had so much potential once.