Anyone ever tried this?

I just remembered trying this for a bit years ago when I was gifted a couple of grams and I remember it had some interesting effects.

I didn't know about its supposed anti-depressant and anxiolytic effects back then though and I just used it recreationally, although those effects became clear to me very quickly. I still vividly remember feeling so calm, focused and happy a couple of times when I used it. I also overdid it a few times and it gave me a bit of a head- and bellyache, probably mostly because I snorted it because of the immediate effects, and snorting it also didn't feel that great. Probably partially because of me associating snorting substances with coke, making me feel like a junkie, but also because after snorting it the taste kept lingering in my mouth and nose and afterwards I just kept having an irritating feeling in my nose and throat for a while which made me sniff and scrape my throat the whole time.

I'm wondering if it's maybe something I should try again for a while, this time orally and in lower doses, to see how it affects my depression/anxiety in the long run.

I even tried growing it back then (it's made from a succulent plant) as it's not that cheap and I wanted to try it some more, but eventually the few plants I managed to germinate died before becoming big enough to even consider trying it, and I wasn't exactly sure how to go about it anyway. After that I kind of forgot about it but now years later and still struggling with depression and anxiety I'm wondering if I should try it again.

Not sure about the legality of it in other countries but where I'm from you can just buy it in specialized stores for legal "highs".

[https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34333104/](https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34333104/)