Hello to anyone reading this. Im 18 years old and officially broke up with my ex just about a year ago. We were together since I was 14 and a freshman in high school (He was 16 and a junior). Keep in mind we got intimate and serious quickly. Our relationship was a mess. We would argue very often ending in screaming matches. It sometimes even got physical between us. I was drained and remembered depending my happiness on the status of our relationship. 

I feel like being that young in that changed a lot of my traits and morals. My self esteem is completely shattered and because of him and other flings since the breakup, I believe I will never find anyone that will treat me right and take me seriously. After medication and therapy Im still sad.

This is more of a rant Im sorry lol

But I do feel like I completely changed. Now I smoke, drink, etc to just escape my mind just for a moment. A few years ago I would've never even picked up a vape. 

All in all, I feel like he took away my innocence and I would do anything to go back and redo my life without him.