Im 18m and i feel stuck with my life and have had depression for 2 years and i absolutely hate myself. 4 months ago i got a job and i work 10 hours on friday and saturday (im in last year of highschool in sweden) and since i got my job i have lost the last bit of hope and motivation with everything in my life that i still had, sports, school etc. so why dont i just quit my job?         

Well it is difficult enough to get a job where i work and the potential for growth is very high ( i work at a fancy bar/resturaunt) and the fact that my boss and other higher ups wants me to stay and advance to be a bartender, i have no social life, and the free time i do have im just alone being miserable with no one to talk to, i feel like i am a waste of a life, wasting my own life, im not good at anything and everyone just thinks i am weird and wants nothing to do with me, i dont have to say anything and people still just ignores me and i just feel like ”ending it” is the best way to end my suffering that ive dealt with for 2 years