I don’t even mean in the sense of pure happiness just in general atp. I’ve noticed a very recurring feeling flushing through me. Not rly numb per se but more just kind of a blank sense of yourself. My entire body feels like TV static, as if nothing i say or do matters so why bother in the first place and what i mean by that is it just feels like whatever emotion i’m feeling whether it be happy, sad, mad, etc., it goes away as fast as it came. And it’s tearing me apart silently. This is the first time in a while i’ve tried to explain it so forgive me if it’s a bit confusing. When I’m having a good time smiling, laughing all the good stuff, out of nowhere it’s as if the emotion as a whole is jus washed away like a sand drawing sitting on the shore. 1 second i’m up the next second it feels like i’m rdy to go home and just look at my ceiling and think. And i don’t necessarily have to be happy either it can literally be any emotion but it still results to that same hollow feeling. Idk I feel like i’ve been dealing w my depression so long that it’s not even rly an impact to me anymore it’s more like an inconvenience that just results in what i’ve began to feel over the past couple months. The only questions I rly hav is, Does it ever go away? Does it rly ever get better?  And if things do get better how long would it last? Thank you for reading this post i hope we all genuinely can find peace one day.