I've been ignoring her for over 2 weeks now. All calls everything. 2 weeks ago we had a call and I listened to her stuff and then when I went to talk about mine she gave a bullshit excuse and put the phone down saying she would call me back. She never did. I waited all evening wondering what had happened and got no response till the next day.

I've been ignoring her since. I felt really vulnerable sharing that stuff and to just be shutdown and then be worrying what I did wrong or if she was okay with no response really messed me up.

If I am honest she can be very self centered, but then so can I so we kinda balance. And like I dunno she's a messy human but she has been there for me in the past.

She messaged me today in a panic calling me worried what she had done wrong and idk I suddenly realised what I had done. I still feel kinda ambivalent though so worried right now if I speak to her I am going to make things worse.

I need some perspective and maybe some advice. Like have I really messed up?? Blurgh.