I'm stressed out by planning and things I have to do. I felt dehydrated and got a headache &amp; a similar feeling to dizziness. I feel like things keep messing up and I don't have everything it takes to just keep fight back. I'm irreligious yet I feel like my soul, and body, is tired from trying to do the right thing &amp; keep everything organized. Before, I split and decided to rage against the idea of succumbing to failure and would go out trying but I don't know now. I also know stress kills brain cells so I should try to relax. I'm just trying to help my side of things balanced and survive. Despite being excited about finding new means to survive, I know I shouldn't be happy with selling my 'products' (blood, for example) to live. Why is surviving so hard?