Well after a few months I’m actually starting to feel slightly optimistic. I was laid off from my job yesterday which was actually a relief because my boss was impossible to please and terrible at communication. I had been super depressed and anxious about going to work and not really sleeping or eating. 

Although now the anxiety about finding another job is really starting to seep in. This job really destroyed my self worth confidence so I’m now doubting that I will be able to do anything. What if no one will hire me? What if they all think I’m useless there? What if I can’t do anything good enough? What if everyone hates me? I know the what ifs are not good to focus on but I just have this terrible feeling in my stomach I can’t get rid of. 

Anyways thanks for letting me vent.