At the beginning of the school year my friend and only reliable support system ditched me. Now it’s the end of the school year and I think I’ve completely lost it. I have a new friend group and things were going fine and I thought I was fine but now l guess it’s not? I have constant paranoia that they will leave me and frequent panic attacks when I feel like they don’t like me anymore. Sometimes I even yell at them or lash out at them. The other week I shifted the blame on to another friend for why my other friends “don’t like me anymore”. Sometimes I get so angry that I want to punch something or rip my hair out. Yesterday I was feeling particularly suicidal. I feel like some kind of creepy obsessive stalker who can’t get enough of their friends. I feel so bad for roping them into this. 

This is very difficult for me because my therapist is on maternity leave and my medication for depression feels like it barely helps anymore. There are 2 days of school left. What should I do?