After months of theraphy and medication, I have identified an inner self that was doing all the bad job. Up until now I thought my repetitive abstract thoughts were true and I embraced them everytime they appeared.

I have depersonalised myself from these thoughts and now I call this being “The Orphan”. Its way easier to tell her shes not true when I am not talking to myself. She has been with me all my life. Insulting, taking me down, deprecating myself maling me believe everyone hated me. Its a new begginig to accept I have the right to not believe and kick her out of my life. I sometimes feel too selfish for not embracing the suffering, but she wont be taking over again.


To all of you going through this terrible illness, there is a way to the other end. Do not believe your thoughts and ask for help ❤️❤️❤️❤️