Warning: English is not my first language so plz be kind also I never wrote on this app before I'm new to that stuff.



So yesterday, I (F18) choose some clothes and my dad bought them for me as a late Christmas present. It's a hoodie and sweatpants set of the store's Playboy collection. I just found it cute (before knowing the history of it I just liked the color of it no other thoughts in my head). So when I tried it on to show it to my dad because I liked it he said that it's pretty but it's a shame that they are putting the brand on the clothes.

I was so confused and concerned that I kept thinking about what he said the whole night. So then I searched the brand up and a youtuber that I enjoyed watching did a video about the disturbing truth about the brand. I watched the video and my whole face changed. I was like omg how could I be so dumb and clueless I didn't know all of the accusations etc.. so I felt HORRIBLE about buying the clothes that I started crying. Like I cried for many reasons but it was mostly because I was overwhelmed with emotions.

I'm also thinking about exchanging them. I am also stressed out about having to tell my dad that I want to exchange them and his reaction (he's a narcissistic) etc. I can't hide that from him bcuz I'm physically injured(I injured my foot) so I can't go there and do it on my own (my parents are also really strict so I can't go anywhere anyways). Also, I'm not good at explaining things with people in general it freaks me out. 

I just dislike how emotional and anxious I am as a person. It like my brain's on caffeine with constant thoughts. I hate having emotional meltdowns over little stuffs. I don't anymore, I'm so lost. Sorry for wasting some minutes of your life and for probably sounding so overdramatic. What should I do? Any advices/solutions/thoughts on the situation?