Hey all, 

After researching BPD I find myself certainly relating to many of the characteristics regarding to the disorder  In general, I'd say that I've spend about a year researching multiple anxiety or depressive disorders.  However, this seems to match me the closest.

To discuss the ways I (feel I can) relate:
According to the DSM(w/e # it is now)

- i feel i have a very tough type with relationships.. both romantic &amp; friendships, they fail, often.. and i regret it.

- i've never known myself. there has been multiple "me's" that i've identified with, but none of them have been strong

- i take part in a decent amount of alcohol abuse and other self-harm in a sexual sense, as well as eating a lot when i'm stressed

- family and friends often comment on my moods, in which i often react in extreme anger, blowing up on people i really do love.

- i'm generally not happy, even if i should be i just feel "ok"

in general, i'm just looking for some commentary. if the people in this community think i should pursue help, i appreciate it.  i'd like to state that i'm 21 years old, nearly through a college degree, and am still moderately unhappy with myself. on the outside, everything seems fairly  happy and successful, but there is clearly an emotional issue that must be dealt with.

i hope that this community is open to this type of a post, i appreciate any attention, help, or response to this post... thank you!