So one of my most painful and constant symptoms of BPD is my fear that everyone is mad at me. Tonight we had to bring my cat to the emergency vet, we’re already over $500 in (and this will probably continue going up), and I’m shaking over the fear that my fiancé is mad at me for saying we needed to bring her. Logically, he’s said we gotta do what needs to be done, and when I asked he said he’s not mad at me, but I’m absolutely convinced that he’s mad at me somehow for needing to bring her to the ER vet. I don’t know how to calm myself down and my anxiety is already on overdrive because this cat is my life, she is basically my baby and I’m so worried about her, so I can’t quiet down my mind about my fiancé being mad.