At certain points in the day, I have these, what I call them "down periods". I, when in a normal attitude, always look to take and play people for my own gain. I don't think I am a psychopath, I think I'm more just dark. I feel no guilt although, depending the person, which makes me worry. I could harm everyone and not feel a thing as long as I get what I wanted out of it, and the few people I care about still view me normally. I engrain thoughts into people's heads to fit in, to take what I can. I have done this before and want to stop. Many people have called me a psychopath, I don't think I'm a sexual predator, I view myself as a predator of people, without any sexual desire towards victims of my schemes and plans. I want to get better, I want to heal. But for now, I am stuck in cycle of predation and jealousy of what others have.