Every day I get up in the morning and get ready to go to work. Then I go to the office for about 9 hours (plus a 40-minute break for lunch), and by the time I get home, my energy is so depleted. I just sit down, watch TV, maybe play some video games if I have time, and then go to sleep. Rinse and repeat, every weekday.

I live on my own, and it’s the first time living away from my parents. I don’t have a girlfriend and I’ve never even had sex yet. At age 24, I feel like this is extremely embarrassing. I’ve come so close to hiring a sex worker just so there might be a small chance of me losing my virginity. Dating apps have not worked for me and they are extremely toxic. I masturbate and use phone sex way more often than I’d like to admit.

I just want to be in a state of eternal sleep, so that way I technically don’t die, but I no longer have to face the grind of the week. I hate that every day is the same.