We didn’t wanna leave each other so he ended up coming back to mine, but we mutually established more than once that we would not be having sex/doing anything more than kissing.

After maybe 20 mins at mine of me being in another room cleaning up after rude friends who left my flat in a mess, he started falling asleep… I understood and was said “Babe if you’re tired, get into bed properly and go to sleep x”


But now he’s been asleep for an hour and the floor of every room is covered in my blood from the slashes I’ve done to my ankle.


Why am I like this???