People hate it when I'm not in a good mood but, honestly, I am pretty ok when I'm grumpy, that's just how I am. But before therapy I would usually pretend to be someone else and fake a smile and polite tone all the time. That didn't end well for me.

I thought therapy would bring the good mood but no, not anytime soon, apparently. Basically, the best thing I can do for myself right now is allow myself be grumpy. Problem is, people hate it or just dislike it so I am alienating people and am lonely. Faking it eats my soul though. #dilemma