I want to actually fucking cry. 

I’m done. So I’ve been talking with this dude for weeks, he took me out on a first date and I liked him. I asked him when we first started talking what he was looking for and he specifically said he didn’t want hookups and wanted something more. 

So I continued talking to him. I didn’t get to hang out again with him until last Sunday but in the weeks leading up to it we were hardcore flirting, and talking about possibly having sex. 

We talked literally all the time &amp; daily. I clarified a bunch I didn’t want to do this if I was just going to be a one night stand. 

And he reassured me I wouldn’t be. 

Yesterday after he dropped me off home he’s been acting really off and distant. And today he’s completely ignoring me. 
Once again I’ve been lied to and used for sex. And I allow it to happen over &amp; over. 

I hate myself.