What’s the point of fighting and trying so hard when everything ends up the same? It doesn’t matter what I do or how many different things I try. It’s a never ending cycle. I don’t have the energy left to keep fighting and trying to fix myself when everyone I care about ends up betraying me or abandoning me. Do I really just attract jerks, or does putting up with me just break people and make them awful?

I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. I need all the hurt to just stop.