I (15m) have been thinking about self harm a lot lately. I've been close to attempting it before but today I was just in the kitchen and the thought of taking Ng a knife and cutting myself came to me again. And then I took to my leg. I didn't cut  but I scratched some skin of. I don't know how to feel about that and generally anything anymore. I don't think I'm mostly sad but I also don't think I'm happy. I feel guilty when I feel good and sometimes I just feel horrible for a bit. I don't know what's going on. I don't know if I'm faking. I no longer want to meet with people and my motivation and care for the things around me have dropped completely. I don't know if what I am experiencing is something everyone has to deal with or if something is wrong.