My first time posting here, I'm sorry if I'm breaking any rules. 

I have several mental health issues (bipolar, ADHD, and last but not least generalized anxiety woooo!) but I would like some advice or rationalization on something very specific.

I had to go on medical leave for 3 months due to my mental health. I never went back to work after my leave and I ended up having to quit voluntarily because going back to my work environment would have been detrimental to my health. 

Anyway, I need a job and need to update my LinkedIn. And I cannot bring myself to log into my LinkedIn. Opening LinkedIn means seeing posts from my former colleagues and higher ups, and being reminded of the fact that when I left I didn't say goodbye to anyone, I just ghosted everyone but HR. It also reminds me of the horrible work situation I was in. It also reminds me of how well my peers are doing vs. myself who has only moved backwards in terms of progress. 

 Just thinking about it brings me feelings of shame and embarrassment and guilt. But I need to do it, I need to update my freaking account and apply to jobs. 

How do I bring myself to log into my account? The mental resistance I'm having is unreal. I've been trying to do this simple task for a month now. Any advice much appreciated.