My depression is getting really bad. I can’t fight the feeling. I have an escapist coping mechanism, whenever I feel like shit I just want to run away and keep running til I feel okay. I go to a hometown university in Michigan. I’ve lived here since I moved from my home country as a refugee when I was a kid. I want to get out of this town, away from everyone, away from my toxic mother, away from every relationship with any person I’ve ever had here. I want to transfer to a school in Boston, just drop everything and never come back without a word. I’m so tired, I want a clean slate. I don’t know what will make me feel better. Am I thinking about the right choices or am I just manic. I don’t know, I just want to be okay