I tried out cross-dressing in spite of Pride Month. I put on some nail polish, and it felt great. I tried lipstick for the first time and, once again, I felt great. Maybe its the fact that its something new, or maybe I just love the way I look, but I was super proud of it.

And then the panic started...

I dont know why but the cross-dressing led me into panic attack mode and made me start overthinking everything, like "is this who I really am or am I escaping?" "Are you sure this is how you wanna present yourself?" Etc. Etc.

I dont think I have any trauma of anything Trans related, but I do have Social Anxiety. Ive been looking it up and others are also saying that the panicking is coming from OCD (specifically, TOCD). I just cant put my finger on it.

Does/Did anyone else panic from Trans or cross-dressing their first time or am I heading down a wrong path?