maybe it’s the bpd, maybe it’s the family trauma but i hate my birthday so much. if i don’t tell anyone and i get no messages i irrationally resent people for it, if i do tell people and they forget or don’t make a big enough deal about it i resent it. really there is just no making me happy on my birthday. i don’t want attention but i resent not getting it. too much attention is bad as well. can anyone relate?