I’ve never been diagnosed with depression when I was younger nobody noticed or cared, I don’t know which one, and now I don’t have insurance but I do have a fear of doctors. Since I was 8 I’ve shown signs of depression. Starting when I was 8 I even tried to commit suicide a few times but “chickened out” when I started getting blurry vision. I’m now 27 and still struggle with my mental health. I don’t want to live but it’s been a long time since I have. Also I wouldn’t commit.