I hate it when people tone down anxiety. When I was going back to school nobody really understood that I felt like my lungs and heart were being ripped out and eaten in front of me every second. All they think is I'm being like "oh little bit nervous teehee 👉👈 I wonder who's gonna talk to me."

No

Just no

"Are you anxious about school? Awwwe don't worry we all are" are you puking due to the intense anxiety you feel every morning just by the thought of school? Are you ripping at your skin in class without even knowing because you can't handle not knowing what everyone is thinking or doing? Do you break down when you have to talk to the teachers about going to the bathroom and when you do get permission to go to the bathroom you end up not going out of fear that the teacher was probably joking with you? So far people who say "aww we all get anxious about school" don't. Most of the time they think anxiety is just being shy. I fricken hate all of this.

It's even worse when they think I hate school because of the learning portion. I love learning! I would rather do it in a safe environment where nobody is forced to speak to me. Nobody once he at school. All the teachers want are money.

Years 
And years
And years and years and years of being in schools that didn't give a crap about me and only cared about my brother even though I was so close to stabbing my arm at times to avoid school.

My new school is much better but the principal scares me. She smiles too much. They all smile too much. It's fake.

I just don't want to thinks anymore. I wish I was only just shy.