Sometimes I feel like I hardly know myself. I’ve been in different circles throughout my school years from elementary to middle school and I’m finishing freshman year of high school. I’ve changed over the years in so many ways. I hate the person I used to be, all loud and laughing at everything, but in all seriousness, I miss that. I’m a little more laid back now for the most part but I always criticize myself for getting too energetic or something. I feel like I’m trying to be calm and sort of “whatever” and I listen to people more because I want to understand people around me better. But I still don’t know myself. I don’t know what I really what, who I really want to be. I feel so isolated and alone. I just want to feel good about myself, but I can’t. I feel like no one knows me or truly sees me for who I am because I never show it. I hate myself, I hate how I am. Am I gonna feel this way always? Maybe I should just except that everyone puts up fake images and I should just keep doing that.