I have been dealing with depression for quite some time now I'm a 22 year old male who still lives at home in a bad situation for many reasons including verbal abuse, very bad family issues, living situations like our house being bad there literally being mold in our house and specifically close to where I sleep which I know does not help me at all since I've been close to it for most of my life now. I'm trying to save up money to move but I just keep finding myself falling back down into depression again because I can't see any positive outcome and I want to move away from my family and the town I live in is so negative and I need a fresh start but im worried because I don't know how to adult because my parents haven't taught me anything and anytime I ask for help I just get yelled at and told I should know how to do everything without every even being taught anything so im scared when I move I won't be able to do basic things. Money shouldn't be hard to save but my credit is terrible because I had a credit card I got and forgot about because my parents wouldn't help me anyway with making a credit score so I figured a bad was better then nothing but now I have paid it off and idk how when I even have money ill be able to apply for anything.  I just don't see anything positive at all in the future for me and I barely have any friends anymore and I feel like a bother to everyone I talk to just not sure what to do to try to fix things since everything seems to fall apart even when a little good happens it immediately goes bad. 

I almost daily get into a terrible mind state and just wish I could give up or restart. Ive never done anything bad just constantly think of negative things and feel as if life isn't worth living and there's nothing out there for me anymore. 
I'm sorry if this post is a big grammar mess and mess of things I just needed to see if anyone has any tips for me any suggestions because life just scares me anymore and need help figuring it out.