Will I ever find someone that I can truly love? I’ve found people that can love me, but how do I know I love them? How do I know I’ll ever be able to find someone that I can say with certainty that I love? Are there any success stories out there? I could really use some resources concerning BPD and managing it with relationships. I ruined a relationship I had and now he’s seeing someone else. I ruined the best thing that could’ve happened to me and I was given so many chances but every time I ran away to go find someone else because it wasn’t exciting enough. How can I fill this hole within me of emptiness and loneliness? Sex doesn’t work, alcohol doesn’t work; my reckless behaviors seem to always end me back where I started.