Hey. 24M, sufferer of anxiety here. I had been fine for awhile, but two weeks ago, it worsened after a night of drinking with my lil brother, something that normally doesn't bother me, but my anxiety worried me because I wasn't sleeping with a bunch of substances (including weed) in my system, when that's sent me straight to bed previously. 

These past two weeks, I've alternated good sleep with bad sleep, sometimes being able to go right to bed and sleep 9 hours, other days taking me forever to go to bed and only sleeping for 3-5. I'm constantly worried about sleep during the day, like, mind can't take itself off it, for the past couple weeks. I'm worrying again that it could be something worse (I have hypochondric anxiety on top of sleep anxiety), and it keeps taking me back to the night in 2020 when I went to the hospital because I completely blew my top and had the worst panic attack ever over not sleeping too much.

Past couple nights, it took me forever to get to sleep the night before father's day (Slept 3-4 hours), and yesterday it took me forever as well (Slept 5-6 hours). That may seem like good sleep to some, but it's freaking me out again because it's not normal. Now, I'm worried that insomnia is going to worsen, and I'm frightful and anxious about it each day. I'm doing my best to enjoy my everyday life, but the people around me can tell I'm not as peppy as usual. I take 100MG Hydroxyzine nightly, and 50MG Trazadone nightly, which usually works like a charm, but it has been nothing short of ineffective this time around, which is terrifying. 

I've told my therapist about all this, and called my psychiatrist, but she can't get me in for an appointment until July 5th, although I called my normal PCP today and she can get me in tomorrow to talk about it. I'm just scared that this time it won't go away, or that a new prescription won't work :( I'm terrified daily, and I just want a hug. I don't want to be a burden, I'm trying my best, things are just really tough rn :(