Back in January I used to drink tons and tons of coffee and I didn’t notice until after a while, it totally made my BPD act up. I was in a relationship at the time and it made me do toxic little kind of things to try and make him jealous because I thought it was funny and cute when he was upset and concerned. Also, the actual episodes and BREAKDOWNS I had because of coffee. 



My ex actually let me know a few times that he consciously noticed before me how bad it was for my brain. 


I don’t really drink it anymore especially since the taste and feel in general holds memories of the relationship (terrible terrible breakup) but I get impulses. Like when I go into 7/11 to get a drink and notice the iced coffee and tell myself it’s not that bad. Oh, it is though. 