I’m a failure. I’m failing every subject in high school because I can’t find the energy to study. I’m not smart enough to pass so why should I even try anyway? I know my future is fucked now. I actually have an interest in cooking but how the fuck am I supposed to pursue it if I’ll never get into college? I’m just going to wind up with a shitty job and struggling to pay bills till the day I die.
I just feel like an object with no purpose in this world. Every day I’m suffering from depression and anxiety and I tried telling my family but nothing has been done to help me. I attempted suicide last night but it failed. I’m just going to keep banging my head into a wall… maybe something will happen to me. I don’t care anymore.