i feel like im walking through fog all the time. time is both moving painfully slow and ridiculously fast all at once. nothing feels real or tangible, i dont remember any aspect of any day. i drive home from work and think to myself what the fuck just happened where am i who am i? nothing is enjoyable i want to live in my daydreams forever, and when i remember that, actually, im me and i have to be me forever, i break down and cry. My friends at work have gotten too close to me and care about me too much and it makes me feel weird and itchy like im not even here im not real who are you friends with? i dont know what to do with myself im too scared to live to scared to kill myself