hi all! first time poster here. i don't really have anyone irl with lived experience who can give me real guidance on this at the moment so i was hoping to come here and get some insight. 

basics about me: i'm 26, been diagnosed as bp2 since 2018 and have been taking a pretty great cocktail of meds after a lot of trial and error and have been relatively stable through biweekly/sometimes weekly therapy appointments and having a great support system around me. currently taking 125mg lamotrigine (titrated down from 225 because i switched birth controls) for the bp and 50mg trazodone for insomnia. 

the issue is the trazodone. i just moved to australia, and they don't have it here and i'm worried about the replacements i've been offered. the doctor i saw said i can try zolpidem (ambien) out for a few weeks or go back to the low dose of seroquel that i used to take before i started the trazodone. the issue is i really like my trazodone! it's the best at helping me sleep and hasn't had any bad side effects. i didn't know what zolpidem was at first and stupidly agreed to try it out before doing some research into it and i know i'm maybe just overreacting to ambien horror stories because i'm a hypochondriac and they're the first things i see when i google ambien, and now i'm scared to take the ambien i already bought and paid for. is it worth it going back on the seroquel even though it gives me pretty bad sleep paralysis from time to time? I've also seen that ambien isn't meant for continuous use and my insomnia has been chronic since i was literally 13. 

i was just wondering/hoping there's someone else out there that has had to switch from trazodone to ambien and if it worked for them, or if i should stick to what i know (seroquel) even though it's not always amazing. anyone who might know more about australia's mental health care system too would be great!

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thanks!! i hope i'm not asking for too much. it's just flaring up my anxiety pretty bad right now.