Been diagnosed for a few months. I had been on wellbutrin for 6-8 months prior to this diagnosis and liked it enough. During the fall, I became extremely depressed - more so than usual. I lost my grandmother, was traveling a lot for funerals, work was awful, drama all around and I just crashed. It was a really bad depression. My doctor chalked it up to the Wellbutrin and took me off of it. When I sprung back in the spring, she diagnosed me with bipolar 2. I don’t know how important it is, but I have severe CPTSD and dissociation with a touch of OCD. She put me on lamotrigine (titrate up to 200mg) and I hate the side effects of it. I can’t say it keeps me “stable” since my life is going very well now &amp; summer gives me such great vitamin d! 

There have definitely been times in my early 20s that could be “manic” but also extremely dissociative at the time due to trauma. Other than that, I am definitely up and down in what I would believe to be a normal fashion… things annoy me, I get pissed. things make me happy, I get excited. She says a lot of these are “hypomanic” episodes. I have issues with ruminations and obsessions - if I want something, I cannot think normally until I have it, even if I put it off for weeks. But since I got out of college and an abusive relationship 2 years ago, things haven’t been bad at all. Most mellow minus a few minor stints. 

I didn’t start taking any mental health related medicines until a year ago. I was depressed, absolutely, but I have been since I was young. The side effects and switching from all the medicines has been bothering me and my sensitive body. My paranoia and intrusive thoughts have been insane since this medicine. My doctor is *extremely* quick to diagnose and rx medicine without much caution. 

I want to slowly get off them to see what I am like without the medications anymore to see if things change. I feel a bit helpless since I don’t know a lot about medicines or what’s needed when. But I’ve thought about this for a while and I think it’s what I want to do. How do I approach the “I want to take a break for a bit” conversation without it seeming like a reckless decision?