Think it's officially over tonight. We had been circling the drain for a while now. It's so so difficult, because I love him to bits. 

But I know that I hurt him with the way that I push him away and then I pull him back in. And I know that he couldn't give me what I need. I don't really know if anyone could give me what I need.

So now I'm alone. I'm alone, and I'm so far away from home.

I hate this so much.