I guess I probably always "had" anxiety, it just never really surfaced. 

I had all the traits of an anxious person, I overthought stuff, had a lot of stress, was never really super carefree or happy. But about 3 years ago, I would say my life was still normal. I was in highschool, i didn't consider myself to have any mental issues, everything was alright.

Then some issues arose in my life, and I feel like I just made a few bad decisions that led to more bad decisions, and before you know it I felt like I was living trapped in a hole, became depressed, lots of stress and anxiety. And around this time was the transition to college, so I had to focus on school, try to focus on my social life, keep up with everything around me.

Here I am a few years later, and throughout this time, I haven't ever felt "normal", there are ups and downs, but i'm still dealing with so many issues and i wish every day that I could just reset my life back a few years, and try to start again.

I lay in bed now, and kinda just laugh to myself. Its so sad how my life kinda just spiraled out of control. How I don't even remember what its like to live each day in the present, and overall enjoy life. And throughout it all, i've been missing out on some important years in my development, so now I feel very much behind, causing even more stress and sadness.