I can't bring myself to reply to any text message, not even from the guy I'm dating, not even from my therapist.

It's like I'm forgetting about everyone because of this quarantine thing. Since I can't see them in person, my mind starts to forget about them because I have issues with object constancy. 

I know that I need to keep the relationships alive, but it seems like such a hard work. I'd rather work 12 hours straight than replying to a single text message.

Also, I don't want to have to apologize. It's been two weeks since I stopped replying. I wish I could just slide in as if nothing happened.

I'm such a bad person.

I'm tired of being sorry.