
Wish I never had it but I guess we all wish we never had anxiety. I’d say around 13-14, my god it was the worst part of my life. I went to doctor’s crying I couldn’t what it was nor why I was feeling this way. The doctors explained to me that I have anxiety so I was hmmm okay tf is this, so I went home researched lol because my parents never understand nor taught me about emotions. 

It just got gradually worse n worse, I would cry at random times it would hit me at 5pm till all night. I didn’t know why it would get triggered at that time, anxiety attacks unknowingly scared for what that couldn’t figure ( now I don’t have them anymore but) 

So worse that I wouldn’t eat felt sick…sick sick sick looking and smelling food made me sick, my body would shiver, body felt so weak, bad headaches such bad headaches. 

I would go to bed so early force myself to  just to make the feeling go away, the  scared feeling. 
I lost drastic drastic weight at the age of 14. I was horrific because I had no support from my parents or siblings they’d “say suck it up , why you crying people are dying in other countries why are you worrying “ like hello my body is reacting like my body is gonna understand that . 

Somehow I taught my self to get better but of course I still have anxiety it can get worse at times but just looking back at that time makes me sad I had to go thru and deal with it alone not knowing or understanding what was happening.