So for some backstory, I had two panic attacks about two weeks ago (never had before) both caused by weed and I haven't been the same since. Every day is a struggle of either deep depression or anxiety doing things that two weeks ago I didn't think twice about. I tried to attend a concert last night thinking could handle it and I couldn't make it 30 mins in. It was embarrassing. After going to the ER for the second attack, I was given hydroxyzine as a crisis med. I had to take one for the first time since my ER visit last night. 

I've seen a therapist regularly for about 3 months now, and anxiety or depression has barely been brought up (I never considered myself having these) and we've been talking about these panic attacks I've had recently. Given the possible causes and after affects (weed caused, now weed withdrawal since Ive quit, stomach issues, loss of appetite, random bouts of anxiety about things I could easily do before, and depression) She has mentioned that it could be my gut health. I immediately changed my diet to whole foods and I've taken a slew of supplements for months already, cut out weed, caffeine, processed foods, I sleep normally. Ive done this for the two weeks now. 

I went to see a family doctor and told her my whole experience. We did blood tests and everything came back normal: vitamin d, thyroid, etc. And she suggested I try either Zoloft or Lexapro. 

Since I've never experienced panic attacks, and never considered myself to suffer from anxiety or depression before these last two weeks, I'm afraid to embark on a journey of possible trial and error of medication for months. I've read both success and suffering stories of both of these meds. I understand now that everyone is different and results may vary, but I can't help but worry that I don't actually need to take meds, and I'm just suffering from withdrawal symptoms of the changes I've made OR the after affects of having two panic attacks. But at the same time, I feel like I can't go on like this. 

My parents and I are close, and they think I've struggled with depression for a long time. I think: Maybe I have, and I just assumed that was normal life? But I cant find answers. 

This is all so new to me and i'm honestly just scared of myself and the things I'm currently going through. 

I guess I just wondered if anyone else has experienced this random onset severe anxiety and depression out of nowhere with no explainable cause? And if so, did you try a medication that worked for you? Was it worth the side effects? 

Thank you for reading this ❤️ any and all feedback is greatly appreciated.