I’m just so in pain right now and idk what else to do or where to put my thoughts. About a week ago, I had a major panic attack  the led to some bad self-harm ideations and almost suicidal ideations. I tried to use the frozen orange trick, but ended up hitting myself with said orange on my leg and right in my pelvic region.
Flash forward to about a few days ago, and I started having major pains in my pelvic region. Time for an ER trip! We thought I had a ovarian cyst that ruptured, but after an ultrasound and a CT scan, everything looked fine. But I have been in such pain since then and my anxiety is through the rof while my BF is gone at work and I’m alone for 14+ hours. Also being told I am crying and moaning in pain just to get his attention. I more just want comfort going through this and hate being left alone while suffering physically. I am told that I should go back home, but I really don’t want to deal with parents after a long fight we’re going through and scared of never seeing my BF again (irrational fears). I just can’t cope with mental and physical pain all at the same time.