Everything makes me anxious. I get easily jealous, I am afraid of illnesses I do not have, I am afraid my parents will die soon, I am afraid of death, I have huge imposter syndrome, winter makes me anxious and depressed, summer makes me anxious and depressed, song lyrics deeply disturb me because they mostly cover jealousy and angst/love problems, the fact that about 30% of partners betray in their lifetimes makes me lose all hope and trust, I am afraid of my own decisions, I am afraid of missing out, I feel like I have wasted my 20s being too serious, the list goes on. I see no joy in anything. Some days I do fine but at days such as this one I just feel hopeless and sad.