If you had my thoughts and lived a day in my mind, you would consider killing yourself too. I don’t think people understand that if I weren’t there, their lives would be so much fucking easier.  All I do is cause problems and hurt others. I’m so fucking ashamed of myself and I barely just turned 20. My life is such a burden on others especially my FP and he started verbally abusing me which made me want to kill myself even more. I hate myself so fucking much. I hate who I am.