So it all started 7 years ago when my mother passed away from complications diabetes and pneumonia I think she might also had high functioning depression which what I think cause her get sick didn’t really get to say any last words is what hurts me most she was in hospital 35 day in induced coma after her death I feel I didn’t really get to grieve the right way I went straight back work and was workaholic about 5-6 six years I was helping my brother build he’s construction company during this time my brother who was also my best friend started dating he wife she’s an awful person very needy doesn’t really care about us much and it shows which makes it difficult to have relationship with him my brother during this time development an addiction to gambling and stop doing his part in the company and i didn’t know what was really going on with him at the time I started to do almost everything in the company .so I started working long hours barely had any days off it really took a toll on my mental health plus he had stop paying weekly checks that then one day I just didn’t show to work I got tired of him taking advantage of me took it too far he was my brother never would I had thought he do this to me I always look up to for him to screw me over this way I never I can’t even maintain job now cause my enxiety just goes tru the roof I even started experimenting with drugs I don’t know what to do at this point I’m broke no hope no ambition.