Currently sitting in the park while it’s snowing with a winter storm warning and truly hoping I fucking die. I’m so angry. I’m not actively suicidal, but I just want all the pain, emotions, and misery to end. 

My ex just told me he used me after I was vulnerable with him and told him I loved him and he said he felt the same way. Then broke up with me.

I’m two months behind in school.

I was in a car accident in feb.

I’ve been sick since Christmas: covid, shingles, sinus infections.

I’m so fucking angry and UPSET. I can hardly stand it. I want people to know it’s NOT okay to hurt me. I want to make everyone know how badly I’m hurting. FUCK. I. AM. SO. ANGRY. Nothing is going fucking right. I’m trying, I’m staying sober so I don’t make my mh worse, eating healthier so I feel better, trying to sleep. Sometimes I don’t even know why I fucking try. AND to all the people in my life that don’t have or really understand BPD: NO, I cannot JUST get over it and move on. I FEEL differently than you. No wanting to die is NOT me being dramatic.