guys it’s soooo bad, 5 years ago i met a guy, we hadn’t had an actual “relationships” (like they were but not labeled lol) but we were so close and went through so much ;-; super abusive, super fickle, he left me in 2019, i’ve then  found a boyfriend for 2 years, but still wasn’t able to forget him. and now when me with my ex broke up i WENT TO PRAGUE just to see him, stayed at his place and then he just kicked me out. oops i did it again D: and my treatment doesnt help me at all. i’m so afraid i’m fixated on him for good because i have bpd and i’m demisexual. and now he found a new gf, she’s cute but i can’t help but hate her. it just sucks