 

I used to really get comforted when i sleep because all i wanted was to die and didnt care about anything i just wanted to end my life and wished i didnt wake up and now i am completely another person that i dont know, i am terrified of death and i am even more terrified when i wake up and realize that i wasn't feeling anything at all when i was sleeping which sounds really like death. And now i want to be suicidal again because i think i was stronger,Now i am so weak.I am scared of time moving really fast it gives me panic attack.And i am even more scared that i will be like that my whole life, i am way too young for this,i feel like even if i go to a therapy nothing will change i read alot of people saying that therapy made them worse or that it didn't change anything , i am scared if therapy didnt help i will completely lose hope in everything, God i am so scared and i have no idea what to do.