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I just want sleep to come. The girl I've known for a week who doesn't reply to all my messages and doesn't show that much interest but that I'm somehow attached to, uploaded a snap story of her with another guy, smiling and holding him, sadness and anger were my feeling response, but I have no right. But anyway, she is from the other side of the world and I was trying to turn somewhat of a new leaf today and not message her but she sent me a photo to keep her streak up and I just replied goodnight cause in the photo it said sweet dreams, god knows if she sent it to multiple people simultaneously, it's now 3.30am there and 7.30pm here and I just want sleep to come so this bad feeling in my heart and everywhere actually can end and I can wake up to a snap photo from her or try and make a conversation with her tomorrow, but hopefully I'm blessed with her saying something to me first, she probs won't, she said she didn't have a bf, I can only hope she is telling the truth, this is day 2 of her with this guy, yesterday in bed with him... Fuck. Is she trying to make me or me and other people jealous or does she just care about their guy. Fuck knows. She is my only social contact outside my grandparents, I feel like I fit AVPD.