Basically I’ve had a really rough year, and sort of went on a self destructive spiral that lasted about four months. I’m slowly piecing my life back together, and part of that was starting my new job student teaching. I was so excited to have a “normal” job and schedule. But nervous as hell. An hour into orientation, I started feeling so sick. My stomach was cramping up, I threw up and also had some other gross GI issues. My boss was very understanding, I told her it was probably just a stomach bug. 
I’m trying not to let this get to me too bad, but it’s hard. I’m so fucking ready to go back to living a somewhat productive and maybe even enjoyable life. The fact that days like this happen makes me feel like I’ll never be normal.