I believe like I have too many problems to get into a relationship. I have some paranoias that there are rumors about me in my community. I have done some things that I deeply regret. I’d hate to ever have to explain that to someone. They’ll never understand. There’s so much stigma towards my past that get stares in my area. I’m a male interested in females. I have never had a girlfriend. I think women would pick up on my issues. Once she finds out about my past she’ll surely run away. 
When would be the appropriate time to bring up traumas, rumors, mental health?
How can I get into a relationship despite all of this?
What traits should I look for in a woman?