A bit of a rant, I’m super confused with everything, I got out of a long term relationship a month ago and I have really unhealthy coping mechanisms, I ended up having sex with one of my co-workers the next day after the break up, I’m now dating said co-worker, we haven’t been together for long, don’t get me wrong she has my all and I give her all my attention and energy, but there are times where I miss my ex girlfriend but I get over it within 5 minutes, it’s almost a rinse and repeat type thing, my ex used to sing beautiful boy by John Lennon to me so whenever I hear that song it triggers something, I’m so fucking confused because as soon as we broke up she turned bi or started experimenting with girls and that fucked me up, but like I said I’m with my current girlfriend now and I can’t stand the thought of being alone, I need to have someone beside me I feel as if I’m all over the place right now as I type this but I just have these insane mood swings where I miss my ex but then 5 minutes later I’m completely back in love with my current girlfriend. I’ve been extremely down these past weeks and I don’t know what for I think my life is just on loop. School, work, home. Repeat. I’m sorry if this was all over the place I don’t know who I am anymore or what to do I just needed to rant about some things.