Very odd to say or write. But I genuinely used to think that killing myself would be a good way to die and that people would appreciate me more when I am gone. I Had these thoughts approximately 5 years ago now. I am very happy to report that I do not think like that anymore. I enjoy life, generally speaking. I am positive about my future. It feels great because I am almost done college now and never believed I had a purpose or life to live for a little while. To those of you suffering, hating the day-to-day, and wishing it was all over; I promise you there is someone that cares about you and wants you around. Even if they aren't in your life yet, there will be someone one day that feels this way. Please continue to power through the pain and find something you can try to get better at.