Title says it all. I’ve dealt with anxiety for the majority of my life. My anxiety manifests into severe physical symptoms. I can go a long time and do great and then go through weeks to months of terrible anxiety and panic attacks for no reason. Lately, my anxiety has been unrelenting. I started medication about a month ago. I do notice it helping and have more better days than not... but days like today make me feel like I’m just a terrible mother because of my anxiety. 

I tended to the kids. Cooked and cleaned... but by afternoon my anxiety was flaring up. The shortness of breath, feeling smothered, increased heart rate... I tried a bath after my husband got home but it didn’t help. I’m now laying in bed. He took care of dinner. I feel terrible because I should be cooking dinner... I should be spending time with the family... but instead I’m laying in bed. I want my life back. The morning bike rides with the kids... the arts and crafts. Silly stories and family game nights.