hi, im 18 and female. i have anxiety/ptsd and one of my most prominent fears is that of needles.
i’ve had panic attacks during yearly blood draws/vaccines. it’s a nightmare. last year i managed to not panic for the first time but i nearly fainted. 
it’s embarrassing but the sight of any vaccine or needle ignites very strong terror. i cannot even stretch my arm out to reveal my inner elbow because i begin to feel nervous and nauseous. 
i have not gotten the COVID vaccine because of this and i need help. i don’t know what to do. i want the vaccine, i’ve tried making appointments, but i always cancel them last minute. i drive by the place i plan to get it at and feel nervous and ashamed. i feel embarrassed telling people i have not gotten it and even worse admitting that it’s because of a stupid phobia. it’s embarrassing but the fear is very real. 

please leave any advice or tips. :( anything helps. thank you