This morning it took everything I physically had to pull myself out of bed to go in to work today. I had extreme anxiety about going in today and all I could think about was maybe an accident would happen to me on the way so I wouldn't have to make it in. As soon as I got there I started crying, I felt like such a baby. I'm sure most people don't like getting up early and going to work, so why am I the only one acting like a little child and crying over it? It's so embarrassing to admit the reason you're crying is because you don't want to be at your job. But why does it feel like I'd rather die?

I am already feeling even more dread for tomorrow because I have even more of a workload than I did today. I want to call in, but I would feel too ashamed because that means its even more of a burden to my coworkers who end up with all of my workload due to me "just not wanting to get out of bed."

I don't know what to do or how to deal with this.