Living in this accursed world with the way I am is truly a doozy. I am 23, STILL in college, autistic retard, almost talentless/un unique, mostly alone, and getting constantly betrayed by those who I thought would’ve benefit me. How in the actual fuck has society not collapsed yet is beyond me. I’m becoming too exhausted to deal with all this shit and my will to live is shrinking. Why can’t for once anything that I really desire work the way it should??? All I want is to be valid somehow and contribute to something that will make me worthwhile. Otherwise why do I even exist in the first place? Especially since I’m a defect in a lot of ways and surrounded by traitorous scum. It’s like all of the forces in life are against me.