Hello! Recently I've been looking into some "inner brain" issues I have and found out about BPD. I'll be seeing a therapist god knows when but sooner rather than later. There is a whole bible or symptoms but I'd like to see if anyone relates to some of mine:
(Some might be BPD and some just me being sensitive/weird)

- massive mood swings, like going from nothing can stop me to wanting to shoot yourself over tripping and falling.

- very simple things make you anxious. Even a simple task like having to talk to a teacher makes you paranoid af. A confrontation from maybe like a security guard makes me think about it all day despite KNOWING that he doesn't give a shit

- daydream a lot, like imaginary friends that don't really affect your real life but you just kind of imagine hanging out with them.

- I have nice friends and am decently attractive (tall and kind of fit) but I still have massive self-image issues that seem to change every few days.

- feelings of guilt at times when I'm in my "peacful" mood for the thoughts I had at my "awful and mean" mood.

- over analysing a simple compliment or a slight jab (insult) and concluding that I hate this person but only temporary.

- rapid change of political and philosophical views due to the mood swings

- being really passive about stuff because you know something is boiling inside of you that people won't like and occasionally it comes out in a form of being really mad or anxious in not so tense situations.

- paranoid when I see others doing stuff and not including me. Feeling like I'm forgotten.

- taste in women changes all the time. Someone I'd date a month ago does not fancy me at all now.

- pushing people away and feeling like an outcast and another week inviting them to get beers and trying to include myself.

- feeling guilty or like a fraud for feeling mentally ill but at the same time normal. As in: "I'm self aware that I have mental issues but I've been kind of normal recently, this story someone posted kind of relates to you but at the same time you're not acting irrationally at this moment so how do you know?"


I'm gonna fall asleep and check replies when I wake up.