im so tired of this. i feel like im constantly on autopilot. i'm on 30mg of lexapro and they want to increase my dose again. im so tired of this life, i just want to be happy and functional. a few weeks ago my therapist suggested i might have ocd. that on top of depression, anxiety and adhd just makes me feel like im just some big jumbled mess of mental illness. i hate myself. what did i do to deserve this? im tired. im tired. i dont want to talk to anyone i dont want to move anymore. i just want to rot away. ive been in treatment for over a year and nothing seems to get better. im tired