I'm very courius what people would think I might be or have, not asking for a diagnosis just an opinion. I have a morbid obsession with controlling people if someone doesn't like something I do like it causes me immense stress and anxiety making me persuade or manipulate said person to change there view to mine and when it works I feel a sense of relief like I just passed an exam or a divers test. For me everything is about me I don't tend to really care about others unless I'm the focus or it involves me directly. Ive even created a persona of myself by telling my friends I have DID in simple terms multiple personality disorder and in doing so created another version of myself using it I can hold different views and opinions act differently and when I get caught or in trouble I can just blame mental illness and it works every time. I often think what others would say if they knew the real me and that's why I'm posting this. On another side I have am obbession over multiple girls who went to my secondary school stalking there pages screenshotng  every and even making collections of them for sexual gratification ofc they are all in there 20s now but I figured id be truthful and wouldn't hold back. Sometimes I want to suffer from mental illness just because I feel it would spice up my otherwise boring life...... I sit down all day play games sleep jerk off and sleep more haven't had a job in many years and so far I can't be asked I'm aware I need to do something but no motivation befals me why would I get up do do stuff when I ahev everything I currently want. Anyways thats everything apart from thinking of the occasional how would I hurt or kill you nothing more to say