Recently I’ve been so hard on myself about work. I feel like I’m deficient and terrible at my job. It was becoming debilitating and I almost didn’t want to go to work because I thought they probably wanted to fire me.

I look up to my boss so much, and not in the usual “she’s great at her job” way, but because she is such an amazing individual with amazing values that inform her work. I just wish she saw value in me.

Anyway, my ex girlfriend met my boss the other night, and she later messaged me saying that my boss couldn’t stop raving about me. She talked about how clever I am and said she hopes I enjoy the work because she’d be really upset if I left.

And I just broke down into tears. Full on ugly sob. I’d spent weeks thinking I’m terrible while my boss thinks I’m great. Also to hear someone I respect so much to say these things about me was so special. I’ve always had weird attachment issues due to an absent mum, and praise from women older than me really touches me.

I feel really great right now. It’s like I am constantly ignoring signs that I’m great and instead just listen to that voice that tells me I suck.