i lost my dad 3 months ago and it has been downhill after that. I feel like I had something wrong with me for a few years but I was able to tone it down. but now I have no motivation to do anything other than laying in bed. waking up to do even the smallest things is a challenge. I don’t even know the last time I took a shower or brushed my teeth. I feel gross but i can’t help it. I started therapy right after I lost my dad and started taking antidepressants and the dosage keeps rising every session. I recently tried to end myself but it didn’t work. everything seems meaningless and I miss the girl I used to be a couple years ago. I get constant support from family and friends and they try everything in their power to make me happy. I feel even more shitty because I have every reason to be happy with my life and yet I don’t even remember the last time I spent a full day without breaking down. I have a loving family, I have a boyfriend that would do anything for me, I have friends that prioritize me before everything and yet, I just can’t enjoy life. I am trying everything to change that but nothing works. I miss my dad. I miss having fun. I miss enjoying things. I miss being able to be happy. I just needed to get this off my chest. i don’t know what else to do.