I've been struggling with mental health issues since years n it's only gotten worse. I feel scared to go back into therapy as I always failed in that too. I feel scared all the time. I'm severely depressed n anxious. I feel suicidal n the only reason why I've not killed myself is bcoz I'm a coward. I'm too scared to hurt myself. I hate myself, I feel worthless. I don't even know how to pick myself up n move forward. I've pushed away everyone, family n friends. I struggle with loneliness yet I can't stand people. I don't know what I've become. I'm losing whatever sanity was left in me. I just wanted to vent I'm sorry.