It was finally getting fucking better until I had to get fucking blocked even though I don’t know what the fuck I did and she won’t even tell me fucking anything. Probably for the best, sense she makes me feel like so much shit all the time. 

I asked my friend to ask her for me and she said “I don’t fucking respect people or her” and is saying I need to change. I don’t even know what the fuck I need to change about myself and she STILL won’t fucking tell me. 

Then i tried telling my group chat that I was having homicidal thoughts about my family, and she decided to say “wow, you’re so cool and edgy” and then told me that she feels like that too and should just get over it, which made me fucking angry, because you can’t fucking just get over thinking about beating your fucking sister with a crowbar, thinking about shooting your mom, and beating your younger sister with a fucking sledgehammer. But she doesn’t care at all (fucking shocker) and then proceeded to make this shit about her, and then tried saying that she “felt soOooOOoOOOO bad for me” which made me fucking lose it on the inside, because I know she fucking doesn’t. 

I can’t fucking stand her anymore and don’t know why I’m about all of this. She also told her friend a about me, but not about her, because she’s fucking delusional, saying I’m self centered or something. 

I know I’m a dick, but she still won’t fucking tell me what the fuck I did wrong. 

Just needed to rant because I don’t want to tell my family about this