so like 5 days ago i was tearing up writing a big ole essay about to post it on here talking about the mishaps of the last 6 months but the last 2 days have been this weird kinda peacefulness in my head and its been really nice. i have been dealing with trying to enjoy being alone for a while because i had a big ole breakdown from jan-march or something and my bestfriend had blocked me a month ago and i deleted all my social media which has helped a lot with my mental health i think. theres still days where i feel like im haunted by some things my bestfriend last said to me but also she said nice things but in the end she thinks im a toxic person in her life. im becoming more and more at peace with it and if any of you are recovering from the favourite person block - yeehaw may we all just grow from this shit :$