I've been depressed since I was 6, I'm 26 now so that's 20 years of feeling this void of self hatred. Every year it seems to become worse, I've tried medication and while it works for a few days, the depressive episodes still come back.
I still hear those voices telling me how worthless and undeserving of every good thing I am. I've had two of those episodes today, I started hitting my head so hard it still hurts.
I feel like I will never be normal, like I will never exeprience happiness because   even if something good happens in my life I still think I don't deserve it. So my question is, does depression ever go away, will it ever get better or am I just wasting time living?