I am on Reddit as a mental escape I am going through a lot stuff I dont know who to talk to about. I am not sure who I can talk to about it so here I am. Ill admit I like the NSFW side of Reddit. What is weird is I am not getting off on, it is more like “ok cool” nothing clicks I am numb. My work life is decent, nothing bad nor good. My relationships are at best one good the rest distant. Sometimes I dont think getting high helps, but when I do get high, I become useless. The anonymity helps me feel safe, but I want to be able to just release myself and do what I want without fearing backlash.