Since I’ve been thinking the past few days about this whole “getting started in the morning” thing I decided last night that I’d try to do things differently today. 

Decided I was going to walk on the treadmill. My brain immediately started criticizing me: you won’t stay on for as long as you plan because you never do; you probably won’t even start because you can always talk yourself out of anything with the slightest positive orientation to it. 

Did walk on the treadmill and stayed on as long as I had intended. Actually felt the experience to be pleasurable, which I was definitely not expecting. 

I keep reading the rules of this sub, afraid someone is going to take away my ability to post. I would be sad if that happened because this feels like a kind of connection to me. 

Depression is definitely a roller coaster.