Hey guys. Before we begin I just wanted to clarify by what i mean by the title. As the title suggests i feel like I am living someone else’s life. I am dead inside. For example, I do what many people tell me to do. I go to gym (PHUL). I read a dedicated 1 hour a day (on les miserables now). Play basketball. Keep clean of my house and my bedroom. But it feels as if i am not there. It just feels empty doing all those things. I have no interests. You could say basketball is one of my interests but I slowly started hating that too. I am just not there. Everyday is the same and I feel like nothing changes. I talk to people but it’s meaningless. It feels like people just fake their smiles for me. In fact they believe that I am just a weirdo. I don’t know what i am doing to be honest. Just doing things that were supposed to make my life better. Yet i am still lonely. 

I’ve tried talking to a therapist but it didn't help. Honestly feeling weak because i went to a therapist. 

Also I don’t think I experience any emotions other than being angry ( i guess that’s the easiest emotion to feel) but i haven't been able to actually laugh. I had to force myself to get a laugh out of myself. I did this thing where first thing in the morning you wake up and start laughing. But it didnt help. 

I know this sounds cringe but I want to actually be happy with what i am doing. Being uncomfortable is no problem for me. But the reward just seems insignificant. I appreciate any help.