The last time I posted I remember how scared I felt. Hallucinations were new to me and I felt like I was literally losing my mind. Hearing the confirmation that it was indeed a nervous breakdown with psychotic symptoms was both a punch in the gut but also provided relief. My doctor did not treat me as if I was crazy, instead he met me with perfect understanding and grace and provided me with multiple resources to help me psychiatrically treat it.

This was new, and scary and for a moment I thought “if I’m just going to keep getting ‘worse’ what’s the point?”

But it was a relief to feel that even though I may have hit a wall mentally, it didn’t mean I was out of treatment options. There’s genuinely a plethora of treatment options and opportunities out there, even for the uninsured or state insured. It helped me to feel less like a lost cause and more like I still had room to keep fighting.

I know it’s easier said than done, but please don’t give up on yourself too soon. Because I know I was about to. And if anyone feels at the end of their rope and reads this and needs to talk, my inbox is open.

I’m rooting for us all.