Basically,I'm in college and there's two year groups and it's a small one.

I'm going to be in the year above,the older year group.

Now,a few years ago (about four year groups ago) I apparently hit a girl on the face. I have no recollection of this happening and didn't have one at the time. Nontheless,everyone else seems to believe it happened at the time. 

This girl has a sister who possibly could be coming in the next academic year to my college,in the year below. 

And the worry my brain has chosen to give me,is that this younger sister of the girl I hit is going to come to my college and hate me,and she will tell people in my year group and the year group below what I did,and everyone is going to hate me and be out to get me because of that.

I'm also in a similar vein worried about the entire upcoming year group, because I wasn't popular in secondary because I used to get picked on and whenever anyone said something to me I'd say something worse back. I was an idiot who hadnt learned to just shut up and ignore people.

These worries are constantly on my mind and it's dominating my mind,I can't get them out of my head and I can't do anything but wait the entire summer holidays to see the new lower year group that is upcoming and it's possibly going to ruin my summer holidays. It's hell on earth,this constant worry and fear.

I know the logically, nobody really cares about me,it's been years since the incident,a year or so and an entire pandemic since I was last in the same high school as any of the people I'm worried about,I look quite different because I've greatly changed my hair style and it's length,that everyone has more important and more urgent priorities than me,that it's been years since it happened and that people aren't likely to hate me because of this.


Nontheless,I'm paranoid and convinced I'm a bad person despite this.  I don't know what flair to put for this so I'm putting it as school. I guess I just want someone to remove my brain or something