so i want to start of with saying that i am in a long term commitment relationship with my partner. i have talked to them about this problem already but i feel like input/advice from people with bpd will help. i struggle very hard with becoming infatuated with someone for short periods of time. i will get like butterflies or blush, i will think about them often, day dream about holding hands, kissing, etc. that will last for a few days maybe a week at most then it just goes away and i feel so guilty. i don’t want to be with other people or even have intimacy with others. i feel really guilty when this happens and i get very disgusted with myself. i don’t want any sort of open relationship/poly relationship. i’m not sure what to do or how to control it. my partner is extremely understanding and trusts me 100%. i feel guilty that this happens and i try so hard for it not to. i’m not sure what i’m doing wrong, i don’t act on anything or thought. it feels like i can’t control this thought pattern and it makes me very anxious. can anyone relate?