This January I started my first real and healthy relationship. I was so happy and really was having a good time with him. 

Lately I noticed he was pulling away. I tried to convince myself it was all in my head and my fear of abandonment. He wasn’t texting or calling as much and would rarely asked to hang out.

I started asking him if everything was okay with us which would always turn into a confusing argument.

Last night I confronted him, told him something was clearly off and he agreed. He said since he’s started working 60 hour weeks he doesn’t feel like he has the emotional energy to be in a relationship. I told him that no one is too busy for a relationship they want. He disagreed and said he doesn’t want to break up but doesn’t think he can give me what I deserve. 

I’m pretty upset cause I think that if he wanted the relationship to work he would have communicated his needs and the effects his demanding work schedule is having on him. 

We weren’t able to finish the conversation last night. I’m waiting for him to call me now so we can have a conversation that will most likely end in a breakup. 

I’m devastated, heartbroken, angry and just in so much pain. I really loved him and had such high hopes for us. I hate that I have to go through this. 

The kicker is he was one the one that chased me down. I was so hesitant to get into a relationship cause I didn’t want to get hurt and he told me to take a chance with him. Only for him to give up on us 11 months in.

I don’t want to spiral after this but I don’t know that I’ll be able to stop myself. I really felt like he was my rock the past few months. And now I have to let him go. 

Life sucks