i'm depressed . I've been depressed for a long time and i don't know what to do about it. i sometimes feel like things are gonna get better but it never does. it feels like i'm in a hole and there is a pile of worries covering the hole and not letting me out. i'm so tired of myself. I hate the way i think and the way i look. i can't tell anyone that i'm depressed since people depend on me. I miss laughing and dancing and doing stupid things and actually caring about my studies. I also think i've got a hint of anxiety. The only reason i'm still alive is because my siblings and mom need me. I can't do this anymore fr i'm so tired. I just wanna stay in bed and not deal with anything anymore