I could scream because of my frustration. I finally have vacation and I am to scared to anything alone. Even riding the bus or going out where people see me.

I wanted to go  in a wellness bath to relax, but i am scared as shit I will do something wrong, I don't like it, I don't know what to do with my time, what when it is not relaxing but stressful. What when people wanna talk to me, what when someone is watching me. I sitting there with a beating heart and can't get even packing. I was so happy I had time and now 
I just wanna hide inside my flat so nobody will talk to me or see me.

There are days where I have full confidence and then there are times where I get scared of everything.