Just because I feel like talking to someone and I have 1 online friend right now who seems to ignore me, Ill post here.

I hate my body and just want to stop looking like myself. I have been told numerous times in person and online that I am "attractive" or "pretty" or something along those lines. I do not see myself as even remotely appealing but the point Im trying to make is NO ONE can tolerate my personality. 

Granted I am only 18, but my longest relationship of any kind is a few years. Ive rationalized this to me being insufferable which is a fair conclusion, needing continual attention and support from any person. My current friend Im quite sure is just by my side so I dont do anything stupid. 

I have been told

Well I saved this post 2 monthes ago and kinda just died inside as that person I mentioned earlier has said they dont wanna talk to anyone anymore. So im beyond lonely and can only fantasize about silly stuff.

I hate being. Idk how people live

SO QUESTION TO THE 1 PERSON AUDIENCE WHY DO PEOPLE LIVE MAKES NO SENSE HULP :&lt;