So I’ve been healing these past few weeks and without my fp it has been easier way less negativity in my life and I’m focusing on myself and this girl I really like . Problem is today my ex fp decided to call me cocky say I think too much of myself and basically Said I couldn’t get any man I wanted , I laughed at first because it’s simply not true and I proved him wrong because just as he said that maybe like three minutes before men were approaching me and trying to talk to me , when I mentioned this to prove him wrong he acted like I was the one in the wrong which it’s like ok I don’t expect him to like have maturity to realize how dumb he sounds but what REALLY bothered me is the fact he didn’t apologize about those comments he made.
He knows about my bpd and just a few hours before he was telling me I love u bla bla , but throughout our whole relationship when I did have doubts I realized now he was lying to me as he just revealed his true feelings about me , so I wasn’t really all that to him i wasn’t “perfect “ , I don’t mind those comments because I know I’m special but the lying throughout the relationship just bothers me and reassure the doubts I had abt myself.
Idk why I’m even feeling bad abt this it’s kind of stupif I feel pathetic for even caring but it’s really hurtful seeing how malicious a person you used to love innocently can be . 
It’s kind of like oh if this person really claimed they loved me more than anyone else and even they can make these comments about me then anyone will eventually turn against me ,it’s bugging me .
I also have to mention this person shouldn’t be the one calling me cocky as he has seen how I went from having loterally 0 self esteem to actually having a healthy relationship with myself after therapy and meds , and this person is the first one to be cocky too.
Should I block forever ? Idk what I’m waiting for would an apology even make it better ? These people never change or realize their behavior .I also have to mention this person has npd and aspd and they’re not in remission at all, they’re not self aware and most likely never will be a and when ur dealing with people like that u will always be the bad one In their mind .
This person lacks self awareness maturity and critical thinking skills but I never thought they would go this low.
I really feel like relapsing right now I hate this stupid disorder