I’m sitting here in the dark with all the pills in my house wondering if I have anything to live for. I don’t go to school I just stay home all day in bed rotting away. I don’t have any friends close by and never get invited to anything and seeing everyone having fun with friends makes me want to die even more. The only thing that really helped with my anxiety is cigarettes but there starting to not help anymore. I feel like there’s no other options I have no one to talk to my family is to busy to talk to me. I tried going out but I have anxiety attacks or think people are judging me. I also got nothing going for me I’m not smart I make a lot of mistakes I get to scared to talk to people, can’t even hold a conversation. Hospitals are stupid they make me feel paranoid and feel like I’m in a prison. I also just chain smoked the last of my cigarettes. I don’t think it’ll affect anyone if I die today.