I just feel miserable i feel like i make everyone miserable i feel like a bad person for being jealous or envious when my partner hangs out with people when i haven’t had friends and like 4 years i miss my cat and i know its my fault he’s gone forever and i can’t forgive myself and just think im going to be unhappy the rest of my life I constantly think about committing suicide but i know i won’t do it i cry every morning and wake up in the middle of the night because im so upset or scared