I still have five things to do tonight before I can sleep and then I have to wake up at 8 and pack up the car for a road trip and then be in a car with my parents for 14 hours and not get to what was my grandparents' house until like 2 am and then I can't ignore the fact that my grandparents are dead and my dad is verbally abusive and a bigot and I really don't want to be stuck in a car with him for 14 hours aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this.