I have extreme anxiety and social anxiety. I hate myself.  So my son is graduating college in two weeks. I was so nervous about going I was freaking out. I shaved my head, which I have done a number of times. I don't want to go to the graduation because my ex will be there and he is the one who fucked up my mental health to begin with. He 8s not close to our son but he shows up at events like graduations to be in the limelight etc. Well, I will just be stuck at home crying like usual. Just how he wanted it.