Like holy shit every time I have to seem a good time, the "bad me" slips. I let of this unlikeable energy and I hate myself for it.

Like whyyy how can some people be total assholes and still be happy while I fuck up once and hold myself accountable for it for eternity.

Like everytime I am home and am by myself, everytime I have this space to let my mind go free it just goes against myself.

Like holy fucking shit I know mistakes happen but why cant I bring up ANY compasion for myself?

Why cant I just fucking say "its enough" why do I have to keep bringing myself down and why do I keep thinking about what a piece of shit I am.

Im sitting alone at home right now and I cant stop ragin about myself and my actions and who I was today. 

Can anyone please help me and stop this self hating rampage