Idk what the point of this is, ig a vent but i've lost my mood stabilizers and dont know what to do about it due to some weird circumstances, im dissociating thru most things, and im having physical problems with daily tasks causing school to be a shit show.

But my friend is going thru delusions and shes convinced killing herself and reincarnating will unlock a certain thing that will solve her future problems and i didnt know about this delusion until recently but she kept asking me if i believe in reincarnation which i do (and we've chatted about it before casually so it thought it was chill again but apparently its not) so i feel like ive accidentally worsened the problem but talking about reincarnation with her bc she keeps texting me all the time how she cant wait to be reincarnated. Her therapist keeps telling her she might have to go into higher level care bc of the delusion and suicidal thoughts (which ive had to do before and i had mentioned a long time ago i got unlucky with my program and it was bad for me so now she's v unhappy about it) and im pretty sure i've made all her delusions worse based on shit ive said in the past bc i didnt know.

And i talk her down multiple times a week when shes like i wanna kms now and i just dont feel anything anymore im just either numb or anxious and i feel like a shit person bc shes one of my best friends but all i do is feel scared when she texts me bc its usually about wanting to die and im stupid idk how to deal with that shit but i feel like i should feel something else bc she might actually commit one day