Going through a rough time and just starting to realize that I’m heading in the direction of having no friends. I’m not a dependable person because I can’t even depend on myself. This makes it so that most of my relationships are shallow and kind of pointless in a way? I love people, have even been in love once. But, I just kind of move in and out of people’s lives. I don’t stay around to become someone important to somebody else or even someone you see every once in a while. A social nomad if you will. But it’s kind of lonely being this way. It’s really fucking lonely. I just don’t let people close enough to me and it’s starting to really hurt my mental health. 

I just wanna sleep for a week or so.