I’m in my junior year of high school and I always think I’m a nobody. Around 3rd grade I was diagnosed with a few health problems (that don’t effect my brain in any way) and this caused me to not really be involved in anything but track and cross country. Anyways around 9th grade I was told my health problems are getting worse. This caused me to literally be involved in nothing throughout high school, but only this year. (Track and cross country) both of these sports I was once good at but now I’m literally garbage. I’m literally a nobody in high school. I only have like 3 close friends that want to hang out. 2 of which have gf’s so they rarely do. I’m not a bad student in school I average a B+ (3.6 gpa) but I feel like I’m going no where. My family isn’t really the wealthiest and I’m constantly left out of events in the friend group I’m in because I’m busy with work or appointments or school. I don’t know man I’m just really having those nighttime thoughts lately. There’s so much more but I don’t feel like completely venting tonight. Another thing that’s been getting me is that I really like this girl. I’ve liked her sense the end of 9th grade (almost 3 years). I love her smile and personality and she’s honestly beautiful. I don’t consider my self ugly at all. I honestly think I’m somewhat attractive, but once again I’m just a nobody, and she’s really good at loads of things. I really like her and I wanna tell her how I feel. She’s the only person I’ve ever loved, and I’m afraid she’ll say no. Anyways I just have tons of thoughts at night and things I once enjoyed I no longer like. I feel like I’m going no where and because of that there’s no point of going on anymore. I’ve learned to hate the way my life is going and I just wonder what future is aged of me. Anyways goodnight.