I believe i made a lot of progress with my BPD. I no longer have, nor i need a FP. I can control ny impulses, i can ignore most of my paranoia, i can keep my mood swings in check.

But i just feel terrible. Today is my birthday, and i cant help but feel undervalued by the people on my life. I got texts and all, but that was kind of it. No one wants to hang out, no one wants to do anything... while in other peoples birthdays, they go out of their way to make even surprise parties.

I know this is the BPD talking, i know that i am surrounded by good people...its just that, for one day i wish I could feel valued, just for one single day...is it too much to ask?