Finally going to see a doctor to hopefully get some anxiety medication, for a long time I've known that I've had some sort of social anxiety, I was doing pretty well in 2019, moving to a new city with my 4 1/2 year, super supportive and amazing girlfriend, going to a new college getting a new job, I made some great progress.....then covid, quarantine and the constant craziness of 2020 sent me back to being worse than ever before.  Now in 2021 realizing how it's affecting my relationship with my (amazing and perfect) girlfriend, my family my friends, I'm happy to get past this. I will get through this for all of them.