Sometimes I really hate myself. I see one negative thing and then go down a rabbit hole of negativity. People can be so cruel for no reason. They hate one person so much and for some reason I turn that inward at myself. I guess it’s bc I recognize some of my own traits in the other person. Being cringey, boring, sad all the time, a mess. And I’m a hateful person, too, sometimes. At the end of it all, I feel like a shit person. I’m crazy, nobody likes me, my ex probably hates my guts, I’m victimizing myself. No wonder only one of my friends talks to me. My logical mind knows I’m overreacting, but I still feel like I don’t belong anywhere. It’s just one of those nights where I think about all of my negative qualities. I feel like people would hate me if they really knew me. I feel guilty for having negative emotions.