I do believe medicine helps so so much but this being my first experience with it sucks.


Started two meds for the first time last Tuesday and i have honestly felt better without them so far. They have done nothing but kept my whole body tense and mess with my sleep schedule, eating, and made me irritable. I cant even get myself to sit down and do stuff i enjoy because I'm so on edge.

Its led me to distrust my doctor as the first time i meet him he puts me on OFF LABEL uses for two drugs. Like all of my friends are confused as to why SSRIs weren't his first choice and instead im on an antipsychotic and a beta blocker. It makes no sense and he hasn't told me the reasoning for his choices and i have to call him on Monday to ease my mind.

Ive been struggling with bad anxiety and nasty physical symptoms from it for 2 months now but Id take it over this. Even if it does balance out and start working this is hell.

It stresses me out every time i take a pill knowing it could just keep making me feel bad and that i might have to keep cycling through different meds thatll all do this to me until i find the one.