Does anyone else dread their birthday? I tried to get some sleep but woke up within a couple hours. Just cant shake this feeling im about to be ambushed. I hate my birthday: I am getting so old, the people around me are getting older. What if my family members start to get sick because of their age? and it feels like its my age commanding it. Theyre not getting older, I am. and everything in my life is changing because of it. I just wish I could pretend I didnt exist. Nobody cares about my birthday besides my mom. Nobody even knows its my birthday. All of my old friends hate me. I just feel really triggered like im losing everyone around me.