Does anyone feel small or feel like they fucked up the moment they say no to something they don't want to do? Then feel even smaller when the person seems to act different towards them? Like why do I feel guilty for saying no to something I don't want to do. I've been a "yes woman" for majority of my life and hated doing stuff I agreed  to, all because I wanted someone to stick around. Either way they disappear in the end and I am left analyzing why they did which pulls me down even more. I'm either insulting myself or just in a bad mood for a few days. 