I’m sorry. I can’t handle being here anymore. I’ve tried to keep myself alive. People keep telling me it’s gonna get better when it doesn’t. I tried, that’s all that’s matters. Please forget about me, act like we never met, don’t grieve, don’t cry, don’t feel bad, don’t get mad at yourself for this. I need you to keep breathing for me. I just can’t keep myself here anymore. I’ve tried and tried and tried but I just can’t. I can’t handle the panic attacks anymore. I can’t handle the anxiety. I can’t handle the depression. I can’t handle the relapsing or the urges to hurt myself. I’m giving in to myself. Life is killing me.

I’m gonna say one last goodnight, and this one shall last for eternity

Goodnight - 15 year old Addy