i notice my psychosis gets worse when I am irritated or angry and it tends to lead to me me to saying harsh words to my friends like “fuck off “or “go fuck yourself“ which they’ve communicated that it hurts them and they know i don’t mean it but i hate that it just comes out of my mouth so easily when i’m in a bad state. i can’t forgive myself for saying it and i feel so much guilt that it makes me debate cutting my friends off or at least attempt to because i’m tired of hurting the people i love. i’m scared one day when my brain gets too fuzzy i’ll tell them to fuck off or just never talk to me again and they’ll get tired of it and actually listen.

does this happen to anyone else? how do you cope with it or at least try to?