But just knowing that I spent the last 6 years depressed as fuck without treatment when it was within my reach this whole time... I don't know how to feel about that man. I literally just asked my doctor about how I felt I might be depressed, and she just handed me a paper with about 10 questions to fill out, and I was diagnosed and prescribed medication within that one appointment.

It was that easy.

I've struggled so intensely over the past few years. I've ruined friendships, I've spent countless nights depriving myself of sleep, I spent so much time wishing I would die.... And just knowing I could've been fine all that time and I didn't have to suffer so intensely??? It's throwing me for a loop and I feel so angry at myself for not asking sooner.

I know I'm only one step out of the woods and still have a long way to go regarding proper therapy and counseling to treat it, but I'm having a bit of a crisis here.