I’m 20 f. I have anxiety disorder. I get anxiety about lots of things but the one affecting my relationship is this. I’ve been in a 2 year relationship and lost my virginity to this guy. In the beginning I wouldn’t have sex at all even though I really wanted to in fear of being pregnant. Then we did for the first time and I enjoyed it, but counted down everyday to my period and would be up all night thinking what if I’m pregnant. We always use protection and he even pulls out with a condom so he doesn’t even finish inside me. I’ve been on birth control before and I didn’t like the moods it gave me. I have an app that tracks my period and ovulation.

For a few months my anxiety went away and it was nice, but now it’s back and if his penis even goes near me down there I’m anxious till my period. I’m anxious with sex. I’m anxious using a towel. I am educated on how pregnancy works, but I’m having irrational fears with ways I could get pregnant. Sometimes even after I get my period I’m still afraid 

Any pain or weird feeling I get after we’ve had sex I automatically think it’s a pregnancy symptom, and I’ve bought multiple pregnancy test before because I was scared the first negative was wrong. My bf is really understanding with all this, but I get anxious which tends to make him anxious and I don’t want him to be anxious about my irrational anxiety.