I (21M)suffered abuse from my father until I was 18 and he died. During that time and since I've suffered with perpetual feelings of inadequacy,  anxiety and sometimes depression. I can't stop beating myself up about my mistakes no matter how hard I try and whenever someone compliments me I feel uncomfortable and undeserving of it, also whenever I get something good in my life I'm always scared it's going to go away for no reason.

Right now I'm feeling particularly low and I'm coming to a lot realisations about stuff, I'm in therapy , but it feels like I'm so deep in I can't imagine feeling differently.  It's all I've known most of my life, I always think one day I'll feel valid but that day never is today.
I want to live life, right now I feel like I can't.

Do people every get out of this? Or is this the rest of my life just dealing with it?