Since the announcement that classic wow was going to have wotlk I have been wanting to reactivate my account, I have “free” game time but I know in order to play for free I have to work at play which is fine because it allows opportunities for people with fixed income like myself. 

The problem is I have been spiraling lately, having a hard time enjoying anything and not getting anything done. With all the macro issues feeding my anxiety I have had trouble controlling my anger which has not been a problem for decades. 

When wotlk was live the first time I was in a good place and happy, even had friends online. I was a really good tank and enjoyed the experience. Today I have no friends, I mean my wife is my best friend but other than her and my son I don’t interact.

My fear is falling into escapism trying to replicate when I was happy. 

I updated the game today. But even that made me feel guilty. I am going to try and get out of the house for a bit. I don’t want to spoil my good memories trying to relive them when I am on a down stroke.