So for the past month or so I have been in self-quarantine with my parents and my dog. The first week went pretty well. But the last few weeks my moods have been all over the place. I wake up raging mad, am super happy for a few hours then I feel depressed then I'm like really happy again and the in really mad again. And it's honestly driving me nuts. The worst thing about all of this is that my dad, whose got anger issues is there too. Most of the time. And he's a really big trigger to make me less stable, as that's what I've found out about now together with my psychiatrist. 

I very often just feel like I should just end it all, although I know that it'll all be worth it if I keep on going, or at least I assume that that is the case. I have just been all over the place lately, and it was all going so well for me the past few months. It really felt as if I had gained mental stability, or at least, what I would consider as mental stability. Only a few moodswings a week with sometimes a bad day. Now everyday is a mistory as I just don't know what kind of day it'll be. I really hope the rest of you all is doing well, in their own way. I myself am just, quite done from time to time.