I tell my non depressed family members and husband how I wish I could be normal like them. I wish I didn’t have this cloud hanging over me reminding me how at any moment my mood could change for the worse. How at any moment my anti depressants could stop working. I wish I could have “normal life” without worrying about how the next day is going to be like. How I’m constantly paranoid about things around me and overthinking. Trying not to stress about what people think of me. I just want to love life to the fullest without this weight that consumes me. I want to be normal