Hello everyone! 


I hope someone here can answer, I really feel all alone with this and it makes me really anxious. 


It started about 5 weeks ago. A new wave of depression and (I think) anxiety hit me. At first I was really depressed and felt sad all the time. I cried a lot, had no appetite, you name it. 


But then suddenly I felt numb: 
Everything I cared about: It just feels numb. 
I lost all of my passion for hobbies I once really loved. . Like I suddenly don't care at all?! Suddenly all my hobbies feel strange to me? 
Even talking to or meeting my friends I normally really care about just feels... strange? Idk I feel like I don't really live in the present. I live more inside my head and I can't do anything against it. 
It got so bad, that I barely go outside because if I do, I start to panic. I just want to hide in my bedroom all day and I have no idea how to continue going to uni.
I'm really afraid I will feel like this forever. It's just so unfair because before that I was doing awesome and was enjoying my life, friends and hobbies. Now I feel like I just want to throw away everything. :(

Has someone ever experienced the same? I'm really afraid I will never like my hobbies again and will never feel that deep connection with my friends.