
I don’t even like typing it cause i feel like i’m manifesting it. i’m 20, about to transfer to university, and honestly i’m not even that excited because i can’t see myself in the future. I have always been afraid of death but have been hyper fixating on it lately. I just can’t imagine myself making it to 30, getting married, having kids/grandkids, etc… It’s honestly scaring me cause i’m a huge believer in having a “feeling” about things. I think i believe in an afterlife but it’s still so scary. I don’t want to die soon, i would love to live a long happy life and become an old lady. i just don’t know how to shake this feeling. is it normal or should i take it as a sign?