I really don’t know why, but I have this thought stuck in my head that I should stop talking to my family members and friends and just shut myself out, because it’s hard for me to explain how BPD affects the way I approach life to everyone…

That ends up with people asking whether it’s sane me or BPD Mme who’s talking and that breaks my heart, because now other people are also not sure about me… that’s why I feel like ghosting everyone and just running away from home…

But on the other hand, I start regretting that thought, because there’s people haven’t done anything to me to deserve that… well… most of them… some of them just use me and make a bigger fool out of me than I already am…

I’m in a huge dilemma, does anyone else feel like this?