I(25f) had to leave my country for security reasons but my dad stayed there and the thing is, he’s a pessimistic person so growing up with him was not easy, in fact, I struggle with severe anxiety because of him ( I wont go into details) but every time I am on the phone with him and we talk abt very basic stuff, my voice will start shaking and I will start crying for no reason…. And I can’t understand why. Our relationship when we used to live together was not good at all, very abusive both verbally and physically so I do believe till this day I carry a bit of hate since it was unfair for me to live like that. But nonetheless, every once in a while, I will think of him and also start crying for literally no reason.