This is a burner account because I feel a little uncomfortable sharing. I’ve got a shoulder surgery lined up soon and I’m feeling pretty off about it. I know I’m doing the right thing by getting it but I live a pretty active lifestyle and I’m at the point where I can’t do the things I love at this point in my life, I try to tell my friends and girlfriend how I feel and it just feels like they’re brushing aside what I’m going through and how much this is affecting me. I feel so isolated and alone and the thoughts I’m having about myself are a little frightening. It’s hard for me to look in the mirror sometimes and I feel like a failure of a man. My thoughts are crushing me and I’m constantly in pain, I don’t know where else to turn so this is my Hail Mary pass of hoping this will help in some capacity. Thank you if you decide to respond I appreciate your time.