I think everyone hates me. All of my friends are just leaving me now because they think im just to strong to hang or be around with (to hard on them i'm guessing) some of them say that they feel uncomfortable whenever I make jokes. One of my closest friends, that I would even go as far as calling her an older sister figure to me, says that she wants me to leave her alone now. And another friend that I just meet just said they don't wanna talk to me anymore for absolutely no reason and then blocks me. Is my life getting worse? People think im sum kind of idiot or weirdo (and even the r slur) but it's my anxiety, adhd, and ocd that make me act like this. I try my best to calm down whenever im drawing alone or watching a movie/show/video or gaming. the best thing that keeps me calm and happy are my friends, i enjoy talking to someone that i can actually relate to, talk about the same topics and things that we like. but now it's going away. I barely have anyone else to talk to now. How the hell am I going to fix this. I wanna make a plan to just run away and go some where far away from everyone, friends, family, etc. and just be by myself. my life will probably get worse soon afterwards too