Absolutely just…at all. I seriously cannot. Im scared of everyone because i just assume they hate me and i cannot for one second believe anybody could love me or give a shit about my wellbeing.

I will lash out and accuse people of lying to me when they say they care, because the idea that they still say it even though my brain completely believes they hate me and want to hurt me, makes it worse. 

It’s exhausting. I don’t know what to do.