Trigger warning!!! 
When I was 14 I was raped by someone I thought was a friend, I was asleep and woke up to him having aggressive sex with me. He then pretended to be asleep and asked me what was wrong after he ‘woke up’ and saw me upset. Everytime it comes to this time of year I have horrific nightmares, eg my hands being stuck in concrete and getting raped and not being able to free myself to stop it. I need help, I’ve tried therapy, sleeping pills, class A’s, alcohol, everything. Nothing stops it, and I just want Christmas to be a happy thing. Does anyone know how to help? I’m so sorry I just need something new to try I’m so desperate