DAE feel like such an outsider? Like everyone else is so well connected and you're the outsider. Why is this disorder so isolating? I constantly feel like I'm trying so so hard in all of my relationships, romantic, family, friends, everything. I just feel so left out. It feels like in a weird way everyone is on this giant inside joke and I'm on the outside, if that makes any sense...but not really a joke. I get so jealous of other relationships. Obviously I know it's not healthy. Especially with my partner (FP). I don't even like hearing him talk about other friends or people in his life. I know this is toxic but I just feel like I don't fit in anywhere. And the bigger feeling is that if I quit trying so damn hard I feel like everyone would just fade away. Like I constantly have to keep up these efforts otherwise they'll all leave.