I was only diagnosed with BPD earlier this year in March and began to see a therapist weekly around that time as well. My therapy is mostly focused on my anxiety and depression, since ive been struggling with them for most of my life and was diagnosed around age 13. I feel i just cant relate to others feelings who also have bpd. i guess this might be a symptom of bpd, but it still bothers me. The only time i'm forced to think about it is when i begin to get impulsive. a few nights back, i downed most of a bottle of vodka, ditched my friends and went on to do some illegal and just dumb things. I havent been able to get it off my mind. I feel so guilty and so out of control. I ask myself why i do things but most of the time i cant answer myself and then i remember BPD is a part of who i am.

Its hard for me to accept this. I feel like maybe i can still change or that maybe its just a mistake,but deep down i know it will always be there. How long did it take you to come to terms? or are you still waiting.