I'm becoming a bit of a regular here. 

In the wake of my recent diagnosis, one thing I'm very cautious about is who I tell. So far it's been my mom, my SO, and my sister. I'm aware of the stigma around BPD, I'm self conscious, insecure, ashamed. etc. All the things one SHOULDN'T be about mental health (I know it furthers the stigma) but feelings are feelings, that's what I'm feeling right now, and I'm very wary about telling people.  

Today I found out that one of the people I did confide in (who was well aware of how delicate of an issue this is) told some other people who may have by now told some other people. I feel like I've completely lost control, and that if this information about ME should be disclosed to anyone, it should come from me. I feel very disrespected, very exposed, very... naked? I don't know. 

Anyone else deal with this? I know the ideal world is to embrace it and say "This is me and I'm not ashamed!" But this is fresh, and I'm not there yet. So for now, I feel completely exposed and violated.  