And of course it's always plastered on social media and you see all this positive attention everyone is getting and you see how it seems like everyone is doing great. You get asked by family when some of these big life changes will happen to you and you know deep down inside...not anytime soon. 

You know you are not well off financially to buy a house and you don't have parents who can help like some others. You see your friends wedding photos and engagement announcements on FaceBook and you wonder if your boyfriend plans on ever even thinking of asking you. You're left out of the group of friends who all have kids and who rarely ask you to hang out anymore because it's all about the kids. You look around your dinky apartment you share with your boyfriend wondering how on earth you'll ever have anything better when prices are sky high and you make $13/hour.

With 30 approaching me in a couple of years, I'm not sure how to take this all in. I've had these feelings bottled up for months and I had a long cry tonight. It hurts. 

I'm hoping to encourage others who feel similar to me to also share their feelings.