I finally got into a BPD specialized therapist, and have to take 3 hours a week off of work. I offered to make up the hours on different days, but was told no, that I needed to use my vacation time to cover my absence. This had made several of my coworkers resent me, and I've witnessed them email each other about me, and have overheard them complaining about me, saying things like "I'm too annoying, dramatic, and problematic." All of this stress landed me in the ED on Friday night, and I took two personal days to recover. I'm afraid that if they fire me, I'll lose my insurance and my income, so I'll be even more SOL. Sorry to complain, I'm just super freaking out, and spiraling.