
Hey guys, 

I feel weird for posting here but I need the support. So a friend of a friend (well really someone i had a few mutual friends with) disappeared around a week ago.  His body was pulled out of a river last night, a considerable number of miles from where he was last seen.
I’m struggling with so many feelings right now around this. 

1) guilt. I didn’t know this guy personally and so I feel weird about having feelings about the situation. 

2) sadness/anxiety/fear. Foul play is speculated but not confirmed. This makes me feel sick for his family, but also very nervous and scared myself. He went missing while walking home from a bar alone in the city, something I’ve done dozens of times. If something could happen to him, who’s to say that it couldn’t happen to me? I’m so scared now that something will happen to me or the ones I love, esp since something so terrible happened to someone two degrees of separation from me. It feels so close to home. 

3) I’m angry that his case didn’t get national media attention like Gabby Petito’s case did. Nuff said. 

4) This whole thing makes me feel weird about the whole true crime genre/industry. I used to LOVE true crime but after this week consuming true crime entertainment feels weird/exploitive/wrong. I know this isn’t a situation that I am directly connected to and I feel bad that it’s affecting me this much.