Recently I've been spiralling and getting worse and worse after a breakup to the point where I have had some problems with thoughts and ideation of a certain doing-the-big-bad-permanentzthing variety. It comes and goes but it has completely put a halt to my life. I've kind of exhausted all of my options with therapy and the NHS mentql health system is shit. So I feel like it might be a good idea to get everyone in my friend group together and let them know that someone should probably keep an eye on me since I've been having these kinds of thoughts and one half attempt that I didn't finish with. Not sure if this is the right thing though because in my head it works but it may just come across as a dick move, making everyone panic and get mad at me. But I also don't trust myself with the unpredictability of my moods (I'm the internalising type, not the acting out at people type, so they don't really know unless I tell them). Should I make them aware or nah? Would it just make things worse?