so there’s this guy i saw in class a few weeks ago for the first time and i found him attractive, but that was it. when i saw him again it felt a bit more intense and i really wanted to approach him, but never did. despite the fact that we’d never even talked before and all there was was his appearance, i started to obsess over him and tried to create a personality for him in my head. i would plan out my outfits based on what would make me look more attractive and even plan out ways to sit next to him in hopes of actually approaching him. 

2 weeks later we still haven’t ever talked because i’m too afraid of rejection to even make small talk but i’m genuinely so sad over this situation that it physically hurts. now this whole thing has the potential to, and has, ruined my entire day on 3 different occasions. i feel like a creep and extremely pathetic because this situation quite literally doesn’t exist outside of my head and it feels like an actual crush which is something that never happens to me just based on looks. 

i’ll go on his social media and make myself feel even worse and i can’t explain how upset i feel. in 2 weeks this course will end and i won’t ever see him again because it’s not at school and that’s making me extremely upset too because i’m attached to him now and it makes no sense for me to be attached to someone i’ve never even talked to before. i feel so stupid and pathetic. have any of you ever been in a similar situation?