Recently I’ve been feeling like I check all the marks for BPD or the people in my life with it all mirror me in some way. I feel like I don’t exist, zero worth, paranoid, and I have to fake it all the time. But my friend said I can’t be bpd cause I’m too hyper aware of how I act. Like in a social situation I’ll just bottle it up and feel resentful but I rarely blow up on someone. Or like I’m always hyper aware of myself cause of anxiety. But can I be BPD but hyper aware of it?