Hi there I'm 21M I've always heen a happy little guu until 2018 when the depression kicked in, don't know why it happened but it did now it's been 4 years and countless nights without sleep and crying i don't even have any friends all i have to call a friend is an Abusive gf who just wont listen to me or she won't even let me break up woth her and that's making more depressed. We had a fight and she has blocked me (i fought because she wanted go shopping and i couldn't because i have exams) and now she has blocked me. It's been 7 days amd I'm suicidal since then. Having no friends is a curse there is jo one to talk to i hope reddit can help me