I fucking hate myself I’m actually in so much fucking pain and fucking fuck  bpd why does rejection have to hurt so badly? I don’t know what’s worse being told your incredibly attractive but it won’t work out (meaning that your personality must be actual shit) or being turned down because your not beautiful and knowing forever your unlucky lottery of physical genes have meant you’ve missed our 
Hahahaha guess which fucking one

You are the only lot who can understand how much this kills, how insecure we become through rejection, which further increases the self hatred and need for validation and oh so the cycle continues.