How do I get over a breakup with someone who was one of my FP? Met online and knew him for about 6 months, 4 months spent actually in a “relationship” (though we never really called it that) and we had a lot of love for each other. Before we started I warned him I was weary about long distance relationships and he assured me it would all work out and made me comfortable so I trusted him. We have had about 3 fights prior to this one. We had a fight this past weekend and among other bad things he ended up calling me ABUSIVE for not wanting to be in a serious LDR relationship in order to better myself, mental health and BPD because he said it “messed with his head”. But I have felt off the rails lately and as if I have no control on my life right now. Despite this I find myself missing him or at least talking to him 24/7 now that it’s over. Why do I miss it if he said terrible things to me? How can I heal easier when he was a FP for me? It feels so hard and this is my first real experience with heartbreak. I just don’t want to feel empty anymore. 