why is it so hard for people to message me first? why does it have to be on me to bother them for attention when it only takes them like five seconds to send a simple “hey”

i absolutely hate being the one to initiate conversations so much i go to great lengths to avoid it. i’ve tried and i either get ignored or even worse i get a weak ass conversation that fizzles out quickly

i’m feeling so isolated right now and it doesn’t help that i’ve slowly but surely fallen out of touch with the few amount of friends i still had. i really have no one right now and making new friends as an adult is hard and highkey depressing, its intensified now with the pandemic. i’m so fucking sad