I don't know what happened, and it's weird to me somewhere along the line I stopped caring. If I'm alone in a car I'll drive 20+ over the speed limit, I couldn't care less if I crashed or got a ticket or even if I make it home safely. I don't care if I get fired from my job, I don't care if the person I'm dating breaks up with me. Nothing matters to me anymore, it's such an interesting feeling. I got yelled at the other day for messing up at work and I just stood there staring at my boss like it wasn't happening to me but to someone else entirely. I can't remember the last time I put effort into feeding myself properly. I bought a 5 gallon bag of popcorn 3 days ago and have been eating off of that. All of the food in my fridge is slowly rotting away. But I don't care