I have no idea why. I love my husband more than myself (which isn't hard), but I had a dream where I cheated on him with a random stranger (not based on anyone in real life). In the dream, I went on a date with someone, and the agreement was we weren't to kiss, but I really wanted to... we ended up making out multiple times (after some weird dream stuff like me accidentally killing him, me then also dying/being killed, can't remember which and then being with this guy in the exact same place as before we both died) and apparently it was allowed because I was wearing a particular scarf? The worst thing was this was actually a sequel to a dream where I cheated with this guy before and he had been wearing the scarf that time... wtf is going on with my brain. It wasn't even him lead, he tried to convince me to not cheat on my husband but I really wanted to.

 I woke up feeling so insanely guilty as if I had actually done it, I f*cking hate my brain. I would never cheat on my husband in real life, why does my brain make me do it in my dreams?! Not a clue what I want here, I guess just reassurance that I'm not the worst wife ever. Right now I feel like I'm hiding this huge secret from him when it was just a f*cking dream.