DAE ever feel blah for a while? Like that is so not BPD, and so I’m just not used to it and it makes me feel hopeless. Like this shit, everything I do, day in and day out that fulfills people just does consistently fulfill me. It does give me those I don’t want to live feelings. But they aren’t I want to die feelings either. I think it is so much about patience and finding small moments of joy or even difficult moments that do turn out.