I wondered for quite a while now whether I am the only person to feel like every word I ever say or write about my thoughts and behaviours just does not reflect reality. In the very moment that the words are leaving my lips I feel like they have nothing to do with me. Like nothing ever really seems to explain how I view the world.

At times I just quit texting or speaking because I feel like I just made everything up in my head to crave for attention.

I'm just so fucking sure that this post for example is another attempt to put me in the center of attention. Somehow I'm posting it anyway tho and that just doesn't make any sense in my head because I know that if I don't feel like I should post this then I really shouldn't. Whatever.

Does anybody else feel like this?