I´ve been reading a lot about BPD and FP, trying to figure it out who is my FP and why. Last year (I didnt have a diagnosis) my boyfriend was the ONLY person I cared about. I had some friends but pushed them away. Some how I manage to also pull my boyfriend away. I convinced myself he didn´t love me, he was with me just to f\*\*k, that I wasn´t right for me, etc. But, I couldn´t say anything about it just because I loved him so so so much.

Then we broke up. Worst time ever. And this year we talked again and we´re back.

Now, I´ve been thinking about him A LOT in order to not depend so much on him.  He is not my therapist. I realised he is my FP, I call him whe I´m sad, not to talk about why I´m sad, but to listen his voice since it helps me to feel better.

I´ve experienced a life without him when we broke up, it was hard, but not impossible. I prefer a life with him, althought I don´t need him I choose him everyday.

He´s been a great support in this hard and confusing path trying to discover what is BPD. He has so much patience on me. Of course I have some behaviours that are not okay, but I always try to calm down as I can. I love him with all my heart and I want to have a healthy relationship, so I work daily on it.