I've been living with diagnosed generalized anxiety disorder for six years now but I struggled with anxiety for years before getting a diagnosis. My family doctor had been guiding me in the search for a medication that would provide relief but eventually ran out of ideas and referred me to a psychiatrist. I've been seeing that psychiatrist for about eight months now but not regularly as it takes everything in me to book an appointment. After the five or six medications I've tried and the countless dose increases, I've just about lost hope in psychiatry. I've seen three psychologists (one of them I'm still seeing on a weekly basis) and one life coach as well but that approach hasn't gotten me very far either. 

I'm currently on 100mg of Zoloft (sertraline) for my anxiety and also major depressive disorder and persistent depressive disorder. I've been taking this dosage for about two months. Some days have been ok, others have been absolutely awful. At this point, I don't know what's me and what's the medication, but I've been feeling like an absolute zombie. I've been so ridiculously lazy (like, not clean my room in months lazy) and I can't focus on anything long enough to do simple tasks like the laundry or even shower. I'm not present in conversations, I take naps every day because I'm constantly exhausted, I get hung up on all my mistakes and worry constantly that I'm doing something wrong. 

The point of me ranting about all of this is I truly do not know what to do. I finally worked up the courage to book a follow up with my psychiatrist but I don't know what to tell her. Is it even worth going through the struggle of trying yet another medication just to be let down again? Do I need to just try harder in therapy? Should I just try increasing the dose of the medication since it has seemed to help in the past?

I'm honestly just getting so tired of feeling completely devoid of joy and excitement. I feel like I'm wasting my life away and it's so frustrating. If anyone could share some positive stories of lasting medication successes that they've had or any advice for how I should move forward I'd greatly appreciate it!