I've been having these intrusive thoughts for a while now and they're very bothersome, makes me anxious and unable to talk. 

I get thoughts of ripping my nails by forcefully pressing them against the wall and dragging them down ( I try to calm myself down my touching my nails and reminding myself that this isn't actually happening, it helps but it's so frequent now it's getting worse) Or carving the small cut i have anywhere. And I have a huge fear of hot things. Hot water, oil, fire etc and Everytime I get near them I get so anxious and immediately get flooded with thoughts of how the person getting close will die because of it and I'm telling you it's like straight up final destination typa deaths and it's very tiring and I find myself staring into the abyss biting my lips with tense shoulders or picking on my skin. Or imagining myself biting into an ice cream and that makes me cringe a lot and cover my mouth as if Im totally doing that(I have sensitive teeth).
I can't help it btw 

 they're usually triggered by ,me, yelling or someone else. When I'm angry -and when Im not- like yelling to the person in another room so they can hear me, only to find myself shriveled, getting goosebumps and trying to distract myself from it.. like it's so dumb cuz this isn't real at all but I'm still getting affected by them. 
Another thing that might help you, help me understand what's wrong with me is that I pick on my skin a lot, bite my nails and rock back and forth all the time. I have so many issues I don't know where to begin haha this is some of it I guess 😅 

Do you think I have ocd?  Therapy is an almost impossible thing in here cuz, apparently, if you're not bleeding you're fine. I hope this is the right place to speak about this I'll post it in other communities too for more help.