I’m breaking people. I can’t stop posting about my issues. I can’t stop thinking about how great one year or so was better and I was happy. 

I have ADD, health anxiety that patting  myself down with every jolt of the head in fear of a concussion (my brain is too broken for me to chance breaking it even more). 

I also have Depression.

I just can’t take waking up into a world of boring rejection. My hobbies reject me, my friends somewhat reject, my mind rejects me.
If I was to kill myself, my family and, if they exist, god would reject me.

I try to reject me my reality on a daily basis but it’s just so hard when your brain is so unbelievably unmendable that you can barely read your own name or the description to a show you’re interested in. 

Idk