2021 was the worst year of my 17 year old life. I started cutting myself again this year after being clean since 2018. As weird as it may sound, my mental state improved in 2020 when everyone was forced to be quarantined, but even before quarantine, I felt the same as I do now but a little more stable. I feel like I learned a lot about myself and like I mentally grew in 2020. But late 2020 and all of 2021 I felt like all of that was just thrown away and I feel useless. Being back in school and being around kids my age made me feel worse about everything as well. I feel like no one wants me around, I have no real friends, just acquaintances.