Hey everyone, 

I hope everyone is doing alright. I wanted to gain a bit of a perspective on how I’ve been feeling. COVID has taken a bit of a mental tole, as it has for a lot of people. To sum it up, I was doing great during quarantine. Working from home, staying active, etc. I got to a point where my anxiety went through the roof. I ended up on Lexapro after consulting with a doctor and it left me worse off. I spiraled a bit and I feel as though I still have some PTSD from how it made me feel. I went off cold turkey and really found a good stride moving forward for a while.

Off and on, I’ve felt great and I’ve felt anxious. I’ve consulted with a therapist and even graduated from her program. Negative thinking has been my downfall and I really give myself a hard time, especially when I’m on a longer streak of doing well. I’ve found over the last month or so that I haven’t really been enjoying things as much as I used to. I tend to search and associate other’s mental health with my own and I think I might be generating a habit of being obsessive with how I can get better. 

I don’t think I’m depressed, I think that these negative thoughts loops are controlling my mood. Does anyone have a similar story or success story? I recently bought “Feeling Great” by David Burns. I’ve heard good things and I think the written CBT can help me.

Thanks in advance for any advice. I’m determined to get better, one day at a time.