Hi everyone, thank you for reading my post. I’m a student at college and am currently taking a public speaking class.I’ve had a massive fear of public speaking for about 8 years and it was so bad at some point that I couldn’t even talk to friends without stuttering. I had a traumatizing experience as a child connected with speaking, was bullied for stuttering in middle school and more. I spent years and years “building” my self confidence and skills in public speaking, I created a new image of myself and somewhat succeeded. I thought that I have gotten rid of my phobia because I don’t stutter because of anxiety anymore but yesterday I had to talk in front of the audience for like 30seconds and it was so horrifying for me. I didn’t show that I was scared but if I do longer presentations I for sure will fail. I want to drop that class because I can’t risk going back to those times where I was so insecure because of my phobia. I’m scared that if I take the class I’ll be humiliated again and my years of hard work will be wasted. I went home crying because of how scared I was. 
I can drop the class if I want to and choose another one but I cannot decide. Should I challenge myself once more or just drop the class to save my mental health from going through such hardships again.