All I do is worry. Some days are better than others. But it always comes back. Will this ever end? Why can't I control this? Why I can't I let go and say f"&lt;k it? One day it's a strange feeling in my head. One it's my breathing feels off. Why Is my heart beating so fast? Why Is my heart beating so slow? Why do I continue to do things that I believe continue to trigger and elevate anxiety? Why can't I be normal? I love my life. I love my children. I hate anxiety. I hope one day I can learn to live this. To overcome. To deal with. To not let it control me and my thoughts.