Growing up, I looked different, and I lived in an abusive household. I was repeatedly called an ugly child by my parents and then berated whenever I brought it up or showed distress about my appearance. I had health problems from a very early age, as well. I was made fun of because of how I looked which caused me to have mental breakdowns. I was beat up as a child if I didn't do something exactly how my parents wanted me to do it.

When I was 3-4 I had the MMR vaccine and when I was 5-6 that's when most of the physical abuse started. I'd suffer repeat mental breakdowns as a result of this and then my parents swiftly tried to blame me having mental breakdowns as a result of abuse as ''autism as a result of the MMR vaccine''.

I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome, which causes a whole variety of health problems, and it can cause mental problems in of itself. I currently am suffering from SIH which is a serious and life threatening neurological disorder, and it is progressive, as well. In the past my mother tried to halt me from being assertive with doctors, but now I'm not taking any of that shit anymore.

My mom told me my family thinks I'm ''stupid'' yet they all believe that stupid Qanon shit, refuse to acknowledge that some people are different, and refuse to acknowledge that all my friends think I'm intelligent and a nice person to hang out with (gee, I'm nice to people who treat me like a person?! Who woulda thought?!). When I was having a medical episode my treatment got delayed because these fucks thought I was ''just being stupid'' and injected me with an antipsychotic drug that a relative was taking - a drug that ended up causing me to have a stroke. The reason I was mentally unstable is because of how my family treated me.

Whenever I told my mom I'm not feeling well, or I happen to not be acting high on happiness literally 24/7, she gets angry, calls me explaining things ''arguing'' and then smashes up a bunch of my stuff - like, GEE, I'm sure that'd be super duper good for my already bad mental health!

Part of this brain condition is that it's only alleviated by lying down. Then my mom's like, ''all you do is sleep in bed all day!''

OF COURSE I'M IN BED MOST OF THE DAY YOU STUP!D IGNO!RANT DOL!T! I EXPLAINED THIS 100000 TIMES, I HAVE BRAIN FLUID LEAKING OUT OF MY FUC!KING SPINE AND LYING DOWN GIVES MY BRAIN A CHANCE TO BUILD UP FLUID AND RECOVER. IF I STAY UP TOO LONG I COULD LEGIT HAVE ANOTHER STROKE AND DIE. I DON'T WANT TO BE STUCK IN BED ALL FUC!KING DAY.

Then when I forget to turn a light off I'm given death threats and told I did it on purpose..I'M LITERALLY HAVING PROBLEMS WITH MY MEMORY WHICH IS BOTH CAUSED BY EDS AND THE BRAIN FLUID LEAK FFS WHY WOULD I FORGET SOMETHING ON PURPOSE? HELLO!?

Then I'm told things like ''if you forget stuff how can you remember how to use a shower?!'' and I facepalm, again, having to explain that even dementia patients still remember how to eat despite not remembering how to make a cup of tea. So I guess ALL those dementia patients are making it up.

Then outside my family, people are so fu!cking stupid, ignorant and gullible. If people weren't constantly being stupid it'd probably look like the year 3,000 by now but people are too busy bickering over the most stupid shit that is often extremely judgemental in nature. I remember back in 2011, 2013 my friends died in terrible accidents. Of course, me, a being with emotions, cried right after learning that they died, and my mom was like, ''grow up or I'm driving you to a mental hospital!'' and then in 2013 both my mom and my dad joined in, laughing at me as I was on my bed in tears at my friend dying, taking turns to mock me.

SINCE WHEN IS SHOWING EMOTIONS BAD?! ARE HUMANS THAT FUC!KING ROBOTIC AND EVIL THAT THEY HAVE AN ENTIRE CULTURE AROUND SURPRESSING EMOTIONS?! Ever since my parents did this shit, whenever THEIR friends die, I grey-rock them and offer them NO emotional support at all. You seriously berate me for showing emotions yet you wonder ''hmmm why are you so mentally unstable?!'' HELLOOO? I feel like smashing their fucking face in.

Then I'm asked to do stuff, and I tell them I'm not very well and depressed so I don't feel much motivation to do anything but sustain myself, then they tell me to ''grow up'' and I'm like ''don't make fun of my height'' just to spite the fuckers. But when I say I'm depressed they're like ''But how come I'M not depressed? Therefore, YOU cannot be depressed!'' which makes me feel like grabbing fucking a bowl of sulfuric acid and throwing it right in their goddamn faces.

I have no faith in humanity anymore, I barely see most of them as people anymore, I just see primitive apes who think they are sentient. I feel mentally damaged by what I've been through, very few people seem to have ANY compassion to other living beings anymore. I was diagnosed later in life with Borderline Personality Disorder and even now I have these horrible mood swings that get so bad I feel close to having a heart attack. I routinely go through phases where I feel like I'm not a person and I don't deserve anything because of how I was born.

I know it sounds stupid but I really relate to Magneto from X men.. I find other people with EDS are much more compassionate and understanding and I feel much safer being around them than my own friggen family.

I feel like I want to work at a correctional facility in the future. A zoo for humans, where I can actually punish them for their terrible innate behaviours, as an outlet. Why do we have to test medicines on animals? Why can't we do it with these humans, who are not innocent? Humans always say ''but we can't, humans are intelligent!'' well fuck off with that because dolphins and killer whales are intelligent AF, perhaps even more intelligent than humans yet humans love putting them in tiny fish tanks for fun and games.