I grew up in kind of a fucked up household that looked nice from the outside.. that being said, my relationship with my family (which I still live with, bc I’m in college) is fucked. My mom in unstable and used to offend and hit me as a kid, she tried to suffocate me with a pillow once and never let me really have emotions.. on the other side my grandmother was this authoritarian and always right kind of person, the type to raise her voice to criticize everyone and never accept being wrong. Even if i grew up in this background, I still feel like i’m demonizing my family everyday... in my head they become the worst demons i’ve ever met and then i begin to act this way, i think very low of them and am defensive 24/7 in every interaction with them, I always tend to see their intentions as the meanest in everything they do. On the other hand they’ve always worried and help me no matter what, so when I see this I realize how much I demonize people once I feel hurt by them