and it's not very good, and would need to go through maybe eleven more drafts to be any good, but I sat down for a few hours and *worked on something* and *didn't get distracted by abandonment fears while working on it*, something that I haven't been able to do in months, and I'm kinda fucking proud of myself, and I'm gonna stop typing now before I start thinking things like "don't get complacent" and "it's a fluke." Also 8 days sober y'all.