Hello guys my name is Allen, I'm 17 and I deal with anxiety often.

Most of the time it is due to not feeling like I'm meeting my expectations. And even if I were to meet my initial expectations, I would then think "still could have done better" 

I am never truly happy with myself and a lot of it was school related because I desperately struggled last year with the pandemic and my mental health sucked so bad (had my first panic attack at one point) and even if my grades were all A+ it wouldn't have made a difference because you can always go higher until you overwork yourself and burn out and I feel like I'm destined for failure because I get anxiety about burning out so I approach slowly and then don't do enough to meet either mine or others expectations for me.

I always grew up as the smart kid (I knew all of the 50 states and their capitals at like 5) and now I feel like I am useless because I can't get anything done of value.

Also now that the school year is on break I realize that school anxiety isn't its own standing thing, it's a symptom of general anxiety for me.

Another thing is that I always feel like that if I don't do something by the time something happens then I'm worthless and stupid and lazy even though I don't know when the hypothetical deadline is, what it is, or how to remedy it.

I just don't know what to do because I feel like if I continue feeling like I'm going to die if I don't complete arbitrary tasks then I'm going to break. Any support or advice is welcome. Please let me know if you've had a similar experience and how you worked through it.