Ok y'all I have the bpd. I've been working on all my toxic traits while in relationships and have mostly managed them. But I'm still the WORST ex ever. So me and my ex/fp broke up almost a year ago, we maintained contact, tried to be friends talked, hung out, after a few months started sleeping together again and I kinda thought things were getting better and maybe we'd date again, but I'm February he randomly disappeared a few days before Valentine's day (still talked but stopped visiting) and then told me the first week of April he met a girl and was interested in her, now last I heard (begining of may) they're seeing eachother, don't know if they're dating or still just casual or even if they've stopped sing eachother by now but none of that matters, what matters is he's basically stopped talking to me/ responding to texts and I haven't seen him since begining of may, which as someone with bpd makes me freak out and cling and try harder to get him to talk to me. Logically I'm aware we broke up a long time ago, I'm annoying him, he's with someone new, probably doesn't want to be friends anymore, most likely will never like me again as more than a friend and I want to cut contact stop bugging him and let him live his life, but I can't stop texting him. I've tried literally everything including deleting his number so I can't text him then realized I'd memorized it. I still want him to be able to contact me if he wants to but how in the world do I do no contact??? I text him multiple times a day wether he responds or not and it annoys even me at this point that I just won't /can't stop. Longest I've going with no contact since we met about 2 years ago is 15 days. I wanna do atleast 30 or 45days if not always. How do I shut my affection off. How do you forcibly make yourself stop loving/liking someone who probably doesn't care about you anymore??? Help. Seriously.