Sorry about my language, im dont speak very good english.  
**TW:** *I do mention some anxiety-symptoms, but I tried to not talk to mutch about it =)*  


Ive struggled with anxiety and depression for about half of my life.  
I always functioned in society, untill a few years ago when I suddenly one day got my first panick-attack so sewere I havent even managed to find someone experiencing something similar.  
I wont go into details ofc, since it may trigger someone, but it was like I gave birth to panick and it stuck with me.  


Since that time, I finally got some help, and ive been constantly working on myself and challenging myself.  
I have a job, a wife and a child on its way.  


However! Im struggling with theese weird flashes of anxiety that comes out of NOWHERE.  
I feel happy, im content, and im not affraid at all. But still its like my body experience the physical symptoms. And the situations I experience them are totally random.  
For example: I can speak in front of 100 people and not feel a thing.   
But I may start to shivver or get dizzy, or feel like I cant breath when im in a lovely dinner with close friends while we laugh and have fun.  


I even got major panick once because I ate some cheese, lol  
Or when getting adrenaline from a good movie  
Or even when im looking forward to something great  
You get my point  


In the start of my journey it was kinda easy, because I knew what situations triggered me: But now it just shows up randomly from totally mundane tasks. Sometimes with a month between (And then sticking for a few days).  
Sometimes I just have a bad month and I swear I can FEEL when anxiety leaves my body and I know I wont see it for a while  


How do I work with this? When its totally random? My biggest problem is the good ol "I forgot how to breath," wich suddenly tunes in  
I know I most likely will prone to anxiety for the rest of my life, but it feels like Ive hit a wall.  Like I can see the sun, but the window is foggy and I cant get it off  


Anyone experienced being "recovered", your brain feels normal again, but like the body dont want to let it go?