Everyone always thinks that I’m so strong.. my neighbor even said to me “I never worried about you, I know you can take it” 
By now the age regression from my c-ptsd is impossible to take.. I’m this little girl that just wants someone to say that it’s going to be okay, but instead I have to be a functioning adult that doesn’t have any struggles and is happy in life. I go about my day reminding myself with the two little words “no joy” that I’m not in this for fun anymore.