I cannot move past my semi long distance relationship with my boyfriend that he let crash and burn 2 weeks ago and betrayed me by going back to his ex he dated only for a few weeks cause she’s in town visiting. I’m sure he will try to come back and we even spoke last about maybe getting back together but not after this betrayal. I can’t stop thinking how angry and shocked I am that he did this to me. I’d never wish this heartbroken pain on anyone… it’s truly horrible. I tried a therapy session with a new therapist and it was of zero help. After I had a horrible breakup last year in a similar manipulative betrayal situation my now ex boyfriend did something similar. I can’t believe it’s repeated. I truly feel cursed! I feel hopeless. I’ve never had any luck with dating and have always been courageous to put myself out there and try to meet new people. I have given men chances that I shouldn’t have and am used for attention or sex in the end. Everyone stinks over mr heart, I’m terrified to let a single person in now. Even some friends haven’t proved to be there for me this year and have been flakey. I don’t have the greatest relationship with my parents either. 

I’m stuck in this small city where there’s literally no one my age only families, students and tourists. I’ve never lived outside of my state and have zero idea where I’d go. I would have to give up my successful small business that’s established here. I’m fairly well known in this small city. To start over and profit elsewhere is extremely tough to restart a business. It took me many years to get where I am and I’m proud of myself for it. But all my friends have moved away. I have 2 local friends I see maybe once a month because they’re so busy. My closest friends live in another city 2.5 hours away, also where my exes live, and it’s not a place I see myself living. I’m 30 now and thought I had found “my person” after years upon years of men treating me badly and lying or cheating. I have such a big heart and have so much to offer. I gave the relationship my whole heart and loyalty like I always do and I always am the one who gets hurt… I can’t do it anymore. I cannot keep it up. I can’t go on and see not figure. I saw a future with him and now nothing.