Not sure if I picked the correct flair (on my cell and my eye sight sucks sometimes)

I've been lurking around for a bit and thanks to y'all learned about DBT. I've been researching it and stuff. Thinking it might be time for a change. 

Short back story, I was diagnosed back in 2012. It was definitely unexpected. I was expecting bipolar as that runs rampant in my family. It was the first and last time I was 100% honest about myself and my past with a doctor/therapist type.  Her solution was meds. Didn't work for me. Life basically took me to some to another place, then another, etc. 

I've been looking around for places near me that specialize in DBT so I don't have to do it on my own. I also decided I wanted to see my records from that time. It's been 8 years and I can't really remember much about the place except it was income based. I call a random place, thinking that might be it but it wasn't. I explained the situation and they gave me the name of the correct place only to tell me they had closed down. Now, me being me, I google the place and find another office, in a different town and call requesting my records. They called me back today to tell me that my records were destroyed last year. 

Y'all even though I know the truth of it all, I'm freaking relieved. I'm truly glad those are gone! Will I feel that way tomorrow or the next day? I don't know, but right now I feel how I feel. Maybe someday I'll be that completely honest and open with another doctor who won't just throw meds at me but offer an alternative instead ( besides group therapy! Seriously, why do these Dr's throw someone with social anxiety into a group of strangers and think they will open up!?!?)