


I know that my brain will literally make up senarios sometimes just to make me spirial so, I doubt my suspicions a lot but this has just been rubbing me the wrong way every time I think about it. 

So, my fp has a friend that I absolutely can’t stand, and it’s literally only because every time she is brought up I get sick to my stomach with jealousy. At the end of the day I know that my jealousy isn’t always rational with her, but it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. I start to spiral when I think about her too long.

For background, the two of them actually met on tinder before I met my fp on tinder, which is absolutely fine. But it bugs me so much that this is a girl who was almost my fp’s girlfriend, that they were almost in a relationship. ( Even though my fp insists they never actually talked seriously, they talked seriously enough for her to think there was something there and she ended up blocking my fp for a while after they denied her a relationship. ) 

Well they’ve been back in touch for a while now, from what I know they talk every now and again. I’ve told my fp that she makes me uncomfortable but they don’t want to cut her off and I don’t feel like I have the right to tell them that they have to, as much as my little bpd brain wants to. 

Basically, my fp and I got into an argument the other day because she invited us to go out to a club with her and her boyfriend. I was very much against it, I’m not a person who really goes out anyway but I definitely did not want to go out with her. My fp was upset and I once again explained that their prior relationship made me uncomfortable and that I just didn’t want to go. Here’s what I’m suspicious of. Half way through the argument my fp makes it a point to delete their Instagram. Nothing else, just their Instagram. And when I asked why they did it, they just said “you get jealous over everything.” 

I know that my fp and this girl primarily talked on Instagram, and I still don’t know why that was their reaction to me not wanting to go. It’s not like they’ve stopped talking to her since then, they still do, infact she just got added to our close friends discord server. 

I don’t feel like my feelings about her are justified but they eat away at me. I can’t do anything about it either, because my fp is not understanding. I just feel sick. 

Is this actually suspicious or am I just being paranoid? I know it’s totally possible I’m just looking into all of this too much so please be honest guys. 

Also, I’ll probably delete this not long after I go live. 

( This is a repost and yes, my fp is also my partner. )