16m bipolar. Just dropped out of Highschool.

 Everyday i would come home from school and just listen to sad music and lie on my bed. If it was too much too handle i would cut myself then just cry. I skipped a few days and i could not keep up with all the courses and the homework and the responsibilities and just having to walk through school without just dropping to the floor and tearing up. So i dropped out.

Now im supposed to do something like exercise or learn something or find a hobby, find my passion. But i cant im burned out. All i do is watch netflix and youtube shorts on my bed. part of me knows i need to make some important decisions on my life and just wants to die another wont let that happen but willl let me suffer anyways.. i cant do anything. I cant pick up a damn knife or climb out onto my balcony to just end it. I cant even get out of my fucking bed. i feel like im on fire and my skin and flesh are burning and i cant do shit. im so afraid of losing my friends and having to restart all over. I dont know what i am going to do. pleasee give advice anything helps.