This started a couple months ago when I noticed that I fake and force out a lot of my emotions, since then I’ve been trying my best to stop faking emotions and have talked to my dad about all of this already but he doesn’t believe me and thinks it’s anxiety even though I haven’t really felt anything towards this for months. I want to believe he’s right and wanna have some “awakening” moment where I realize this was all just overthinking and I can go back to how I was before but I really don’t feel anything anymore and have even noticed that I’ve become more manipulative recently.

But the thing I’m talking about tonight is the fact that I realized I don’t really enjoy talking to people and realize I’m very different from the people I talk with online, I was In a call with them tonight playing Minecraft and while they were talking and laughing and cracking jokes I was just silent for the most of the call and really didn’t feel a need or really wanted to speak. I felt bored, empty the whole time. I talked a few times here and there and I faked a laugh at some moments but like I said before I didn’t feel anything.. I didn’t wanna stay in the call and kinda just wanted to leave so I kinda just left a few minutes ago and decided to post here, could I have turned myself into a sociopath? I’m 16, and like I said before I noticed this a few months ago and when I tried to stop faking emotions I noticed I also developed more sociopathic behaviours.