Sorry it’s quite a long one but hope for some advice… 

I grew up in foster care due to severe abuse. I do speak to my biological family on occasion but certainly not regularly and we aren’t close. I couldn’t go to them about anything. I was relatively close to my foster family but they moved 120 miles away in February. 

At the time, I wasn’t too bad. I was with a partner and coping. As a slight backstory, they had another foster child who I considered my sister. She was older and had severe schizophrenia. To me, I think they shielded the extent of it but I never felt they were very supportive of her and how unwell she became. Christmas of 2017, she was very poorly and ended up on a psych ward thanks to me following finding her in an extreme situation self harming severely. She died in feb 2018 which devastated me. But the point is, they never appeared very understanding of her mental health and therefore when I was diagnosed with bpd, I didn’t share the ins and outs with them directly but they are aware of my condition - though I doubt they’ve researched anything. 

Anyway, when they moved away in Feb, as I said, I was okay. Since then, they’ve scarcely spoken to me. I got a text on my birthday the following month and one phone call a few weeks after - to ask for my Netflix password. That’s it. I’ve rang them on their birthday. In May of this year, I made a serious attempt on my life and was hospitalised. I’ve not told them this because I’d spoken to them twice since they moved and like how do you have this conversation on the phone??

Two weeks ago, I split up with my boyfriend and they know due to social media etc but they haven’t once asked me how I am, rang me or checked in. I use Twitter to vent a lot and they follow me on there so they’ve definitely seen the state of my head and how unwell I am but they’ve still not reached out. I’m going through some incredibly stressful stuff (break up, moving house, new job and my biological father is incredibly unwell) and feel very alone.

I feel angry at their lack of support and communication and I do appreciate it works both ways. But at the same time, I’m supposed to be the child and shouldn’t have to ask for help. They know for sure I’m having a tough time but they’ve just not been there. I’m now more alone than I’ve ever felt and don’t know what to do. Am I being an asshole for not asking for help or are they being assholes for not speaking to me at all about anything - including a severe breakup after 5 years where they’d met my ex and loved him?!

I don’t know how to handle this. I don’t want to start saying stuff I will regret to them but I do feel abandoned and alone and would like them to know how shitty I think they’ve been. Any advice?