This probably sounds weird to "normal" people but I hoped I could ask you fellow bpd-peeps.
 In one of my first diaries (I was 15) I started writing entries with blood (with a diy-quill) that I got from selfharm. 
I started this a few weeks after starting to cut myself. My mother found my diary someday and gave it to a psychologist (who read it even though I told her I didn't want that, always had a feeling she was more there for my mother than for me, later I was told by my therapist that it was not ok that she read the diary). Anyways, the psychologist thought it was "very strange" behaviour or sth like that. My therapist after that didn't really care abt it. 
What reactions did some of you get? Did you also feel kind of happy/proud abt these blood writings (or thought they were cool - i still do like the look in some strange way)?