So I've been dealing with thoughts of suicide pretty regularly when I'm depressed, but the thing is they're not *serious* I guess is how I would word it. It's more of a "Hey, I could literally kill myself right now"

But the thing is, it hasn't really gotten serious for quite some time now. Like I've haven't actually intended on doing it recently. No plan or anything. 

If I get close to doing it or making a plan I get scared, so that means I'm not suicidal if I don't actually want to off myself, right?