I used to be a gifted kid in elementary school and tge beginning of middle school. In ninth grade I feel like my brain doesn't work the way it is supposed to, I think slower and am constantly contemplating suicide.  It doesn't help that I am constantly pushing my old friends away and the other students ridicule me and treat me like shit. My dad won't even let me get my ged when I'm old enough. I feel like I have no control. I just fantasize about walking until I reach Canada. I want out.