Sorry if my English is not perfect.

I always dreamed about buying a sports car. The thing is that I've been off benzodiazepines for 15 months now (after a 7-8 year treatment) and I'm somehow more excitable now (fast heartbeats, nerves, adrenaline sensation).

I've been with the car for 2 days. Yesterday was mostly OK, but today I felt very anxious. I live in a medium city and these type of cars are not very common, so people look at it or sometimes say stuff to me (not nice at this moment of my life since I feel somehow agoraphobic/asocial after pandemic).

Even the sound of the engine makes me feel anxious and gives me an excessive and not calibrated adrenaline rush every time. I slept 6 hours in 2 days so that definitely doesn't help, but yep.

I needed to vent about this, if you have any perspective about it just let me know, because it would help.

I want to think that my brain is just getting used to it, and that it will feel more normal in some days when I get more used to the new situation.

Thanks