I’m in a new relationship and things are going surprisingly well. And then my bpd kicks in. If my boyfriend doesn’t reply in what I deem to be a proper amount of time my brain freaks out. I start thinking that I’ve done something wrong and he no longer wants to talk to me. Which then turns into he wants to break up with me. Which naturally turns into I should kill myself because who would want me anyway? I absolutely hate that I can so quickly escalate into suicidal ideation. So far I’ve done well not acting on these urges. I’ve also been able to not let my boyfriend know I’m having these mini meltdowns because I know how ridiculous it all is. I’m worried that he’ll leave me if I do tell him. He knows I have bpd, but things have been going so well that I don’t want to mess things up and let him see the horror bpd is. I just don’t know what to do to stop the spiral thinking.