I (27M) have been thinking non stop about my ex for the last two years now. My friends tell me get under someone to get over her. Which usually leads to me having the same relationship I had before over and over. I'll spend months on dating apps feeling rejected then fall in love instantly and at some point 4months to a year they leave. It made me ponder if it's personally me or others with BPD if we love them because they're here at that moment and when they're gone we miss them until someone else feels this hole left by whatever we went through. Are we hopelessly romantic or lonely leeches. Maybe I'm splitting as I'm writing this. I know most of this won't make sense but if it does. Any insight?