I know what most of you will say and that is no of course not. But idrc about that, because one way or another, one of these days I am just going to kill myself. It’s just a matter of timing for me, so it may not be for another 20 or 30 years, but one day I will have sweet release from this hell that is life and that I can promise you. Anyway, I’m just debating on whether or not I should start indulging on alcohol to try coping with my misery and dissatisfaction. I am truly so unhappy. Maybe getting drunk all the time will smooth that