I was a member of this sub until a few days back. I was at the verge of suicide then, my suicide note went hot on SuicideWatch and was all set up. But then my gf broke up with me, i was already so unstable and her breaking up made me, unstably stable. I wanted to live, left all those depression related subs and games, decided to focus and work on my life. Things seemed to go pretty well but then, all it took was an anxiety attack. Now I'm back in my deep hole again :(

Things are closing up on me and there seems to be no way out. I'm breathing hard rn, i really want to leave this place, hug someone so tight and feel comfortable crying. I'm terrified of everything, I'm afraid of people but yet i feel lonely, very much. I really wanna be something in my life, but I'm afraid i won't be. My stomach feels heavy and i just wanna cry rn to someone who'll understand me. But no one even knows me. When i close my eyes i get quick flashes of uncomfortable scenes and makes me more scared. It all feels like a nightmare, that i wanna wake up from so bad. I just want to live a worry free life with someone who understands me working in an average job, just like normal people........ :(