and she was really understanding. i explained how i didn’t communicate or explain any of this to her before because i was scared she would leave, so i just bottled my emotions up the best i could since most people don’t try to understand bpd or it just gets too much for them to handle. she told me this and i wanted to share in case anyone needs it:

“If they don't care to understand and stop being friends with u, u dodged a bullet. You should be more open about these things. Ik it's hard but relationships need honesty and communication to work. Again, if people can't handle that they don't need a relationship of any kind” 

you deserve people in your life who care to understand you and communicate with you. 

also i explained what a fp is and she said “no wonder why you were so sad” which made me laugh because she is the first person without bpd to get me and understand. i’m just glad to have her.