 

I, an 18m recently asked someone out to my school formal. Even though I'm very happy that they said yes, I started thinking about what could happen in the future afterwards. Later that day, I began to think about us in the future possibly being a couple, then getting married and so on and so forth, until I thought about my death. The more I thought about it the more it scared me - regarding the innevitability of it, my legacy, whether or not there is truly an afterlife, etc.

For the last few days at random I would begin to panic about the idea of me dying, in which I would suddenly stand up, walk around the house breathing heavily and sometimes crying. Not only have I lost interest in many of hobbies such as gaming and watching videos, but I have also lost my appetie at times (I'm still drinking water and eating a bit but I just can't find myself to have as much as I usaully do without feeling sick). 

The only person I've told so far about this is my mum, and I'm planning to tell my dad and my school councilor about it soon but thats my plan so far. This has never really happened to me before but I feel as though I really need help and advice in both overcoming and understanding this issue.

Edit: I’ve just talked to my dad about this and I’m feeling much better - he talked to me about many things, such as our impact on the universe, forging our own destinies and living a happy life, while also not allowing depression to control us. Thank you to the people who upvoted this post, since in my interpretation it shows that people both understand this issue and care for me