Hey everyone. I’m looking for some similar experiences. I was diagnosed with bipolar II, OCD, and generalized anxiety 16 years ago and I’ve been on a steady regimen of sertraline for a large chunk of that time and it’s very effective in keeping me leveled. I’m not sure if what I’m experiencing is normal or related to any one of my conditions, so I apologize if this is the incorrect sub.    

I’ve recently told my husband that on the daily, for the last 3-4 years, I’ve felt like my mind is somewhere else. However, I also feel like I’m present. I engage with my husband and children, talk, spend time, do normal family things. But I always feel like a small piece of my mind and attention are off somewhere else. I’m *constantly* thinking about my own death— I’m not suicidal, but my natural death: when it’ll come, how old I’ll be, will it be cancer, etc. I try to “live in the moment” and not think about things I can’t control but it’s difficult. I feel like when I’m not giving my brain power to my family and personal life, it’s all going towards being “somewhere else” and ruminating about old age and my death.