I had a scary day the other day, I forgot to take my antidepressants (Celexa, works for me I guess) and I was sweating, obsessive, depressed, and somewhat suicidal. I feel like I became a basket case. Like how I was before I took medication. 

My meds keep me somewhat controlled, not very happy, not extremely sad, but more so middle ground. Kind of like a robot. It helps my lows not become too low. However, if I forget to take my pills for one day, I feel like a train wreck. 

I’m worried if it’s making my BPD worse but idk, does your SSRI’s help keep you maintained?