So the past 2 days I have been in California. I took my parents to Disneyland and Disney California Adventure for their 35th anniversary. I had panic attacks both days and wasn’t able to enjoy any attractions. I feel awful and like I ruined the gift I had planned for my parents. It was very hot and that had put me on edge as soon as I had arrived but the crowds (which pre covid were never an issue) were awful. I tried to ride haunted mansion and got past the stretching room only to freak out and use an emergency exit. Like I said I feel awful and depressed. It sucks because I have been working on my anxiety with my therapist and take meds but it feels like nothing works and I am just bound to sit in my room without traveling or being around people out of fear of having a panic attack 😔