Its like an ingrained habit to fucking hate  work. My mood instantly goes down. It's pavlovian at this point. I just do not know how to be like my serene coworkers. I want that sense of peace. No inner anxiety or rage. I'm afraid my fate will be top job hop for the rest of my life. I just can't handle things I hate. But what I hate is literally the key to keep me afloat cuz I'm the creator of my own destiny