I was supposed to go to a family meeting. Just my aunt, cousin, mom and me… I’m already dressed opened the door looked outside trying to find force to go.. But I just can’t, I dont have the force anymore and what scares me, I don’t want or feel the need to go outside anymore, “what’s the point? I already know how I’ll feel, awkward and empty.” That’s what I always think. 
I’m just so damn tired.. My birthday is March 16, and it has been almost 7 years of this shit… Thank you for reading, I just wanted to write this somewhere.