So from a young age people have told me that I’m talented. I make animated films and they usually get very large reactions and I feel a ton of pressure. I also have had a learning disability (dyslexia) all my life, and severe OCD which pretty much makes it impossible for me to ever chill the hell out bc I instinctively feel like I’ll fail every situation I’m in and I’ll never self actualize. Do you know what the worst part is? My anxiety is so SO SEVERE that I have nightmares where my greatest fear (insects) are chasing me or eating me, then I wake up and start hallucinating the insects crawling all over me!!!! It’s traumatic. Im really doing my best to take on more responsibility and it is less scary than I expect but I have so much excess anxiety that it’s psychically draining to do anything productive. I’m 22, almost 23 and I am so fucking afraid of my future being destroyed bc of my horrible anxiety over shit that probably isn’t a big deal, the pressure put on me from a young age and the fucking constant nightmares. I’m really really drained. I feel like I’m going to break one day and have a serious nervous break down. I need help.