Am I forcing myself to belive I'm hypomanic? Is it all in my head?

Is my depression really depression or Am I forcing that to?

Is it the music that's making me feel so fucking good right now?

Is it all in my head? 

Is Knowing not getting enough sleep when hypo the reason I woke up 1.5 hours before my alarm or Am I actually hypo?

I feel so fucking fake right now. I was horribly depressed last week the lowest I've ever been. Now I'm feeling so fucking good. 

Is this in my head? Am I faking? WTF is wrong with me if I am faking? Why would I want to fake this? What does that say about me as a person? 

I'm so confused...