Hell everyone.  I am new to the forum.  I found the group because I was searching for references to a mental health medication.  I have been diagnosed a few different things over the years and also been prescribed medication over the years.  I never gave the Rx a chance or was using drugs or alcohol at the same time.  I never gave myself a chance.  Several years ago my physical health declined and with it my mental health followed to the point I was contemplating suicide with a fool proof well defined plan.  It was then I turned my mental health over to a new psychiatrist and I've followed his directions for Rx ever since making changes over the course of years now.  This is the first time I've ever trusted any MD with Rx and the ironic part is that I would dispute taking a prescribed Rx yet I would think nothing of my self medication and abuse of prescribed drugs with alcohol.  I am at the point where my mental health issues are being addressed by various Rx I could get into, but suffice it to say I think this MD is on the right track.  I'm not feeling better, but a lot of this has to do with daily pain and inability to do basic things I enjoyed like walking on the beach and in the woods.  I just can't get around like I used to and it has overwhelmed me.  The weird thing is the pain isn't unbearable if I take it easy.  The problem was that life doesn't allow you to take it easy it just keeps kicking your ass.  I kept going and going until one day I just stopped.  The pain would fill my brain and I would think of suicide.  I would think of impending death.  I welcomed death.  I was very lucky that two different doctors took me out of work and supported their positions on my physical and mental disabilities.  They have know me for years and was always functioning albeit a daily struggle and they could see I couldn't go on anymore. I came on here hoping to chat with people coping with physical and mental disability, so if that is you than maybe we can chat.