I heard stories over the years of people dieing because they just gave up on life. Like just laid down, went to sleep, and never woke up. I've been begging for that for years. Every time I go to sleep I hope I don't wake up. I tell myself I'm done. I give up. But then I still wake up. Dad died at 29 in his sleep. Lucky. I just want out damn it. Sorry. Ranting.