Lately all I’ve been doing is casual dates that end in hook ups and is never talking again (promiscuity is THE worst symptom that I have to deal with from my BPD) but I met someone who I actually like. He seems to like me but my insecurities are already ruining any chances of this relationship blossoming.  Last night I slept over and couldn’t fall asleep because I was scared he would not find me as attractive when he woke up because I took off my make up. 

Every second of my day lately is fantasizing about him and our relationship or worrying that he’s going to just lose interest in me.  I’ve been playing it cool, not fully letting him in because I don’t want to seem desperate or get hurt. I don’t know how to stop these intrusive, obsessive thoughts and I’m so scared that this is going to ruin anything I had with him.  

Anyone go through this when entering a new relationship and how do you cope?