Looking for fellow ADHD’ers who also have BPD. If thats you then Ive got a question and am wondering if you can relate.
Does anyone else take Vyvanse and endure pure hell? I feel an extremely strong sense that everyone Im around fucking despises me even If I have not said a word or if they don’t even know me. Its pretty much unbearable and happens every time I take it. The strange thing is though this does not happen with instant release amphetamine such as adderall. This also reigns true with cocaine. Its something about the dopamine being much higher then Vyvanse can produce, It just no longer feels atall like anyone hates me and It makes me feel like I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks about me and I feel like everyone likes me. I know these drugs are ego boosting but extended release stimulants are extremely ego diminishing for me. Anyone else experience this? I know someone else with ADHD+BPD who experiences the exact same thing. Yet people with just ADHD without BPD don’t claim to experience this.