I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety at the age of 12. I am proud of how far I've come these past 5 years, but its getting a bit hard acting like everything's okay now. In the beginning i was getting better i went from attempting suicide once a week to once a month, to not at all, but due to some certain situations i feel like my old mentality is coming back. I hate having to go to school due to it being the reason i feel so depressed. Its my last year and i know that if ive attended for 3years already how hard is it to survive a couple of months...but idk this time its different. I see myself falling back into my bad habits. Its so hard for me to get out of bed, to leave my house. It takes so much effort for me to get up and take care of myself hygienically. Today i barley was able to shower and im so proud of myself for taking that step. I don't like being like this, i don't want to feel like this. I hate that ive tried so hard just to end up in the same place. I just needed advice. Is it a valid reason to try to ask my school if i can just due my courses at home? I cant go to school its too hard for me that i rather do the work at home Is that possible. I do want to college and i don't want to ruin that opportunity due to my mental instability.