I've been sick since the beginning of the year, terrible GERD and pneumonia. Even my cough hasnt cleared up yet since the beginning of the year. 

I just began dating my SO last September. And during that time, my GERD began acting up. It could be due to anxiety of getting into my first relationship.

So.. Because of the pandemic too, most of our dates are a little "simple". He just comes over and we spend time talking to each other, having meals, watching movies. That's it. The entire year. (i even had trouble putting food down my throat because of gerd. Embarrassing.. I know.) 

My anxiety is preventing me from even going out because i did back in august and it was bad.. My Gerd acted up, pneumonia.. etc. 

About 2 weeks ago, he said something during a fight that bothered me. He said that there isn't progress in our relationship. And he can't see a future for us if this goes on. But he still loves me and doesn't want to leave me.

We say the same things over text during the days we are apart. Have you eaten? Have a nice meal. I'm knocking off now. I'm going home etc. We do say more personal things, but they are pretty much the same(?) that's what he said. Which is to him, no progress. 


For me, I just like his presence. Spending time with him calms me down. I like spending mundane days doing nothing with him, even. Particularly because I'm more of a homebody while he seems to like going out. I also get anxiety eating in public and prefer eating foods that I can eat (because of my gerd).. While he likes trying new foods. It seems like we aren't on the same page which gives me anxiety. I also have health anxiety... I feel sorry about that and am working on my anxiety. 

So... Does anyone know what progress is? How is it made?