I've been having some troubles and it's really starting to affect how I view everyone and how I interact people. I feel like it's kind of hard to get into detail but for an example ever since getting diagnosed I feel like I've wrapped myself around the idea that this is all I'm ever gonna be and I constantly feel like how I talk to people or unintentionally hurt them is because I am this way. I always have to keep in mind whether i'm being abusive or manipulative and so and I can't seem to tell the difference anymore. i know that my bpd is affecting me greatly and most certainly my loved ones I just really don't want to feel like this anymore. I dont want to be that girl whos a borderline or that girl whos mentally ill. I wanna be normal and okay and not hurt anyone anymore.