So I have developed a crush on a girl that I work with. We work on fire crew and are on a crew where it is very tight knit. I thought there had maybe been something there but yesterday I learned she's been hooking up with another guy on my crew, who I consider my friend. They always hang out but I thought it was platonic, since we all spend so much time together. I dont know why I'm so hurt. For some reason I feel left out,which is stupid. My anxiety is really bad during the season as it is a stressful job and this just makes it worse. The past couple months have been rough and my self esteem is pretty low to begin with. I know I need to move on so I can do my job efficiently but seeing them together makes me feeling terrible. For some stupid reason, I feel that I need to attribute dating to being an adult, which I am, but I do not date often due to my shyness and looks. This whole situation is utterly stupid and small in the grand scheme of things but since my world is so small for these next few months, my brain makes mountains out of molehills. I just want to get past it and not have feelings so that I dont feel terrible all the time.