Hi, everyone. I've been dealing with anxiety for more than a decade now. I've always been socially shy and awkward and I never drank or partied. Everyone in high school thought of me as a goody-goody and I took that as my identity. In college, I once met up with a group of five schoolmates from high school. I got drunk (because I did not know my limit from never having lots of alcohol before) and basically fell asleep soon after. But I also puked in a bathroom sink (which I cleaned in the middle of the night after waking up) and to this day I am so embarrassed. I did apologize to the party host profusely and she said that lots of people get drunk and puke and that it's normal in college. But just thinking about it makes me physically sick and tired. I feel like my whole identity shattered and that this is something everyone will talk about and still talks about today. I know how fast (and wrong) things spread where I live. I feel so bad like I did the most embarrassing thing ever and I'm never gonna be able to think of myself as a "classy" girl. We didn't meet with each other after that, nor did we hang out together before the party. We just happen to run into each other and they invited me. It's been a few years since that party and still feel so embarrassed that it really holds me back. I never drank after that because I think I'm a failure for not knowing my alcohol limit.