Long story short, I've struggled with BPD since I was a teenager, I started going to the gym last year after a particularly bad breakup knocked me to the point on a three month horrible mania trip. Was on Wellbutrin and started having major depression/manic anger episodes and I stopped, which helped actually a lot. Last month was particularly bad however when I tapered myself off my depression and anger stopped. 

Recently, I've been waking up earlier in the morning and I've noticed it alleviates my depression and makes me more motivated to take on the day. Has anyone else noticed this? 

Also I've recently been trying adderall. My previous doctor prescribed it and it helped. I didn't have bad crashes or mania. But my new doctor refuses to prescribe it, even though I have actively told him for months how much it helps me. Does anyone have experience with this? 

I've also tied DBT therapy yet my anger is still manic to the point where it scares me. I'd like to control it in some way, does anyone have any coping mechanisms or experience.

I'm new to Reddit and this is my first post. I'm 25 and relatively healthy minus my BPD and major depression/anger issues. My BPD isn't something I speak about openly and most people who know I have it have no clue what it is some I'm hoping maybe I can help some people in this community and you all can help me. 