I am currently working towards tapering off my medications (SSRI and mood stabilizer). 

I have been on various forms of SSRIs and SNRIs for the past ten years with little results, even though various doctors have been convinced that I have improved on them. I never felt like they did much past the first few weeks of positive adjustment (eg. waking up earlier in the morning). 

One of the main reasons I haven’t stopped taking medication is because my doctors say they see improvement, they don’t want to taper, and my own fear of what will happen if I get off them and realize that I do want to be back on a medication and I have to wait 6-8 weeks to get back to a therapeutic dosage. 

After having an unusual (and scary) experience with geodon and excessive weight gain on lamictal. I have decided to finally taper off of medication. 

I am currently 6 months into DBT, working with a therapist I enjoy, and a BPD diagnosis. 

With this amazing support system I have right now, I have decided this is the time to see what will happen when I get off these medications.

I am excited, worried, but overall optimistic. Any advice is appreciated!