I've never really got excited to holidays, birthdays and special events too, I'm always overly worried that I might mess it up or something will go wrong, I guess the pressure of it supposedly being such an amazing experience overwhelms me to the point I'm afraid it won't live up to those expectations. 

I'm going to another country soon with my partner and although I know it should be exciting I feel I ruin it all by worrying about everything, being late, tourist traps, language barrier, getting scammed, missing out on something, pick pockets, getting lost. All of these things overshadow what I should be feeling and I hate it. 

How do I fix this? I just want to feel normal for once.