So I caved and contacted my FP. I wrote the text quickly and then immediately put my phone on airplane mode. I changed my number so his first response was “who is this”. When I told him it was me he immediately texted me back and asked how I was. Telling me he missed me and have had me on his mind. We made plans to hang out on Saturday. First time in six months since he lives in New York and was only in my town for art school. I don’t want to split on him anymore but sometimes I have no control. I need to learn how to cope, and I believe my therapist and psychiatrist can help me with that.

We didn’t text each other for a month prior because giving my disorder I needed a lot of reassurance, and he was not responding to my text, I later found out he was going through a lot at the time. I felt selfish but I sometimes unIntentionally I only care about my feelings, and I admit that. I want to preserve our friendship. Thanks for reading my rant!!