i'm sick of them, i'm sick of being obsessed with one person. my ex is my FP. i left him and it was for the better but i miss him so much for NO reason. i swear i don't even like this guy. he's funny and can be sweet and that's what i cling to and obsess with. i'm in no way physically attracted to him, yet i feel like i "love" and need him constantly and it makes me physically sick thinking about him with someone else. 

BPD is like an alien has taken over my brain and is making choices for me. i feel like i legitimately have 0 control over this attraction and i guess i do...?