like i dont ever get a moment of respite and my mind is just go go go all the time. i also have ocd so i think its the cause of me feeling like this. but im always worried nonstop and i was even before my ocd kicked in. i used to be worried constantly about my gf dying or getting hurt, and now its just me worrying about nonsense things or irrelevant things from the past or small thoughts from so long ago that make me feel awful and sometimes itll make up things for me to worry about too.

it almost feels like my brain just gets bored without something to make me agonize over and i dont know how to make it stop. i just wanna relax for two seconds but my anxiety has been eating me alive all day and i talked with my gf about my worries but now my brains saying shes gonna hate me?? so my worries are at their peak and i just wanna cry