Telling me I was meant for something because I survived a suicide attempt. No, it is because I did not take enough. There is no meaning there. It just was an attempt to end my pain at that time and other times as well. 

And I am not strong for putting up with it either. I did not workout any muscles, I have to carry bipolar disorder regardless… I would cut off the tumor of it if I could, but I couldn’t… so I tried to cut off my whole body but my scissors were to dull to finish it. That is all. It’s just a shitty disease that I hate.