I don´t really know where to start to be honest, I doubt that anyone´s going to read this post. I´ve never posted on Reddit by the way. I just want to know, how do people continue to living their lifes? I´ve been going through a very hard time over the last year, I´m just tired. I don´t want to suffer any longer, but I´m too much of a coward to actually end my life. But to be honest? I would be glad if it would end. Sometimes, I imagine myself after death. Being rocked in to peace by the sea. Laying there, with my eyes closed. As if I´m asleep. While the waves are carrying on my body. With all of the bad emotions that have been hunting me, leaving. Just peace. How am I supposed to live life? How? I just don´t know. I can´t do this anymore. I can´t continue to live a normal or happy life while I´m drowning in my problems. I feel helpless. I need a hug, something. I do not have faith in god anymore, but sometimes I still imagine god proceeding to hug me after life. Whispering to me with a kind and soothing voice ´´Don´t worry, it´s over now´´. I´ve been in pain, for way too long. I´m unhappy.