I just went to the mall and i felt like shit because of all the pretty girls around us. i kept imagining he thinks all of them are prettier than me and would leave me for them. this one girl was walking in front of us and i get jealous so as a way to cope i pointed out i liked her jeans and how much prettier she is than me. then he looked over and i get worse so i told him in a jokey voice not to look at her because he knows i’m insecure so he would know i was feeling that in the moment. btw this is everywhere!! wherever we go i feel like i have a sixth sense and it’s to detect pretty girls in the area and compare myself to them and assume my bf is checking them out or thinking how pretty they are. i don’t know what to do about this. it just feels so toxic and i hate being jealous and sad all the time. i wish i felt like i was enough or that he wouldn’t abandon me :/