I've gotten ECT and therapy for the last several months and I'm doing better. I feel especially lucky and have my husband supporting and loving me. I never knew I could get better. I had extreme apprehension to begin with. Thankfully though, things are going along a lot better as time keeps going on. I never really have myself any credit for getting help but recently I've come to the realization that very few people in my situation receive help and dedicate themselves to being the parent I strive to be. I hope this is uplifting for others dealing with the same situation.