No its not. Its only okay when the meltdowns aren't around them. When the intrusive thoughts aren't ruining their every friendship and relationship. Its okay until it affects them. I truly envy people who can have such a positive outlook on life it must be nice. But I've been through enough to know its only okay when shit gets real and  you see who is all talk (most people are wow shocker). Until then it aint okay.

Im kinda glad I have nothing or no one in my life that I can ruin or potentially ruin things with. Its easier being alone. As much as I crave companionship its in everyones best interests when I stay tf away. Idk why I bother trying but some times I get sucked into it as become hopeful that things will be "okay". They've never ended well and what good does wishful thinking do. Absoloutely nothing.