I was diagnosed with BPD about 4 months ago even though I've thought I had it for over a year now. I hate therapy because I've been to so many that didn't work out (mostly due to me lying). I'm starting to feel very hopeless because meds aren't doing anything and lately my mood swings have been very extreme. My SO thinks I'm annoying and never wants to talk to me because he "doesn't like talking on the phone or texting." I just want him to realize he'd be better with out me. People are always happier after they leave me. He doesn't care about what I'm going though and basically just wants me to act like a normal person and give him space. This had been destroying me. I've felt very suicidal due to the lack of love and care he shows me. I just feel so hopeless and I just want to give up.