I’ve picked 2 fights with my bf, apparently I’ve been “a massive bitch” for the last few days, I’m just feeling overwhelmed by everything and I feel like that first DBT session just drudged up all my years of trauma and I’m reliving it all and it doesn’t help I had a friend ask about what it’s like being cut off from my family bc she’s cut herself off and now I’m all shitty again about my stupid ass family kicking me out and then pretending like they did nothing wrong for lying about me. Idk I’m just a huge massive mess and I want to fucking die every time I start getting overwhelmed I just want to start hitting myself in the head or hitting my head against a wall and that feeling is so overwhelming in itself I can’t deal with this can’t wait for next weeks DBT sesh uwu