i am absolutely obsessed with my fp who hates me and wants me out of his life. i’m in so so much pain all the time. i can’t stop thinking about him, reaching out to him, driving past his house to see if his or his new gf’s car is there, lying to get him to come back, reckless behaviors, etc. the more i try, the more he either ignores me or treats me very badly which i honestly deserve, but also can’t handle.

i feel like a terrible person and i know i need to stop before i end up in jail for being a stalker but i don’t even have the desire to stop because my mind is so deluded into hoping he’ll just care again. but he does not care. please help…