Way before I got treatment showering was nearly impossible. I could go a long time without showering as long as I didn't smell or look dirty. I don't even know why I couldn't shower.

Now, after treatment and years later I'm doing 90% better but the whole showering thing is still an issue. I don't even know why. Maybe because I don't like to look at my body, but I'm not even sure. It's such a fight to get myself to god damn bathe myself. I haven't admitted this to anyone because of course they wouldn't understand and it would be horribly embarrassing:(

Does anyone else deal with this and why do you think it's so hard for you?