I constantly feel like whenever I get too comfortable in life, like getting off my diet, not going 110% on a workout, watching P*rn, or just doing things that aren’t good for me, I delve deeper into this depressive state until I fix the problem by staying on track for usually 4-7 days. Why does this happen to me? Even expressing my emotions to people by accident makes me want to end it all and idk why, I thought suffering built character