Anyone else have a strange obsession with inflicting major self mutilation? I’m talking about cutting off fingers, toes, ears, gouging out eyes, etc.


Semi-recently and on a total whim I cut off one of my digits with a power saw for no real reason other than I felt I had to for a few days prior. It was the only thing I could think about at the time and after doing it I had a massive wave of relief wash over me.


I’m waiting for someone to comment saying this is BIID, and I highly doubt that’s why I did it. BIID usually develops in early childhood and is a lifelong obsession with being an amputee (usually of one or both legs) rather than a few days of wanting to injure yourself.


Thoughts? Anyone done something similar? What did your therapist/ psychologist/ etc. have to say about it?