At the start of this year I had developed a major anxiety disorder that developed from me overdosing on a weed edible and having a consistent panic attack for six hours. I went to my nurse practitioner and she has given me ativan and buspirone for it. It was going well until I had a panic attack after taking the buspirone because I thought I was having an allergic reaction to the medicine. Now everytime I take a different anxiety med for it I break out in rashes, have panic attacks, and feel like my throat is closing. I know it's just in my head. I am well aware of that. But I can't stop my brain from creating this train of thought that I'm going to die if I keep taking that medicine so I stop. I am constantly at a state of panic without anything to help me. I don't know what to do anymore. I am terrified that if I tell my nurse practitioner that I had to stop taking the new medicine because of this she is just going to give up and put me in a mental institution. Please, help me. What do I do? How do I cope with this? I am so emotionally, physically and mentally exhausted and I just want to give up.