this seems like a pretty stupid question, but well, i have this unshakable feeling that i’ll die. like today, tonight i mean. i also have bad anxiety, this feeling like ‘i’m going to die if i don’t manually breathe every second’ has caused a lot of panic attacks before ; where i’d go to the hospital in an ambulance. i’ve been having anxiety every night for the past few months, and well, as you can see, i’m not dead yet. but heres the funny thing - bloodwork is good, health is good, they even checked my heart and it was good. oh yeah it may be a little late to say but i’m 13, so, obviously it’s unnatural for someone my age to die, right? 

i don’t know, i keep feeling like it’s more than anxiety, like a warning type of thing. i feel like i’ll die tonight. almost like i won’t make it through the night type of thing. i’ve been googling about things like “bad intuition about health” and often times it just says it’s anxiety. 

maybe i just trust my gut feeling too much? the doctors wouldn’t lie, if i was dying my lips would’ve been blue by now, but still. 
what if i am dying tonight? 

there’s no possible way i’d just drop dead for no reason, or that my body will suddenly turn on me. (i have no past of serious conditions or anything other than common colds so we can check heart problems off the list) 

this feeling never comes on until i start thinking about it, though i’ve randomly asked my family, “i’m not going to die right?” multiple times, even today i said that i wasn’t ready to go just yet.