So, lately I've been going round and round in my own head, trapped in its subspace where, experiencing mood swings has become so common that i dont even know what I am anymore... 

I never had a perfect life, from my early school time, I've been bullied, if not physically then mentally and I've never had the courage to tell my parents... 

When I joined college, I tried to change that but it doesn't go so well, I can pretend I'm perfectly fine but every once in a while, I'll just break down into tears with no one to listen... 

It's like I've been not at all alone, yet no one with me... 

I feel my life is left with nothing, everyone feels I'm happy, fine and enjoying yet, they fail to notice the struggles I face... 

I've no personal, professional, social life and I don't even feel like what's the motive of me living and capable of nothing...