so for context i have a slight background in feeling quite strongly about this book when i was trying to look for information and books to help myself, it was basically the only thing that was suggested was how other people should deal with me rather than i can help myself you know

but my mum was suggested this same book by a service local to us whilst i am on the waiting list as almost support for her (even though they’re suggesting or offering me nothing despite being in crisis but i know things can’t happen overnight) and it’s just really gotten to me that i’ve seen that she has ordered this book which to me seems very damaging and quite demonising to the sufferer 



so essentially i just text her a big paragraph after seeing she’d ordered the book and i was hoping someone could offer some insight as to whether i’ve completely blown this out of proportion and how to get over it a bit lol:

“i feel like that book you've ordered is just going to be really stigmatising and biased and stereotyping depicting people with bpd as manipulative and ruining other peoples lives on purpose and basically acting as a guide on how to abandon someone who is suffering. it seems like the one made to be offensive towards the person with bpd and confirming negative stigma and views potentially help by the reader to 'save themselves' by portraying the other person as someone who wants to hurt them
i just feel like this proves what a massive negative affect i have on everyone around me but having the worst impact on my family that i'm literally ruining everyone's lives by just existing and because my brain seems to work a different way 
it feels like you're going to be recommended to keep a distance from me to stay safe so i don’t manipulate you more because it's clear i can't love or be loved properly 
i don’t want to hurt anyone around me at all and never would intentionally do that and i'm so so sorry if i ever do but i just don’t want something to change your perspective too so that you start to see me as a sort of villain in your head and like you have to censor and carefully plan your every move around me”


i don’t even know if any of this makes sense really i’ve gotten into quite a spiral about it and i’m so scared it’s going to change her view of me and on some level abandon me or withdraw from me somewhat