I've had pretty bad depression for years now and after high school my depression hit my pretty hard and from time to time I still have my episodes. But I believe my depression has pushed away a lot of people I once had really good relationships. Most recently I think I realized I potential indirectly pushed this girl I've had feelings for years away because of my depression. A lot of people will tell you your depression can be a big factor in you why some people may want to avoid you. I'm sorry to all my friends and family that my mental health pushed then away. I also deal with anxiety also makes me think that people I once were close with purposely avoid me because dealing with me is a drag on my life. I have very bad self-esteem issues and I don't really think good of myself. I constantly look at the mirror and point out my flaws. I've even gotten to the point where I don't think I'm deserving of love. If I could do it over again and change it all I think I would be much happier.