i’ve ruined almost every friendship i’ve ever had, a LOT of people hate me and think i’m a horrible person. most of the time i try not to think about it because it makes me angry/sad/generally uncomfortable. i know i’ve done bad things, been manipulative, and hurt so many people but it hurts me too and it doesn’t seem like there’s any way to apologize and repair those relationships. my biggest issue is that it seems like i can’t escape from everything, i still see people i had beef with sometimes and i know they’re in my city so it stresses me out when going to the store or meeting new people. what if theyve heard about all the things i’ve done? maybe it’s a selfish to only want to apologize to clear my name but it’s such a stress in my life. i feel like i’ve made so many enemies, does anyone else feel this way?? i don’t mean to ruin everything it just kinda happens.... i feel awful. how do you make amends with people you’ve hurt?