So, I confess, I do like this song “Forever Young” by Alphaville, even if it may be tacky 80s pop. Today it came on in the car and it is making me realize I really do not want to “live forever” or even to be old. I want to be young forever, when I can enjoy the passionate romance and fun and be happy before my mental health and BPD get worse with adult responsibilities, a mediocre job, all will to live gone and replaced by taxes and bills to pay. I have a guy I really love and I don’t want him to see me age ungracefully and look old and grey. I want to either be young forever or not exist past being young, it is already hard enough to exist with BPD. So, do you really want to live forever, or never...?