Man, I don't even know what I want anymore..

I currently have a job that is set up for solitude. I'm a 3 person department and we all work different shifts in different cities. The rest of the people in the building are mostly stuck on the phones talking or grouped in other areas. I watch over things on the PC, so getting up and walking around is not a possibility.

My husband, on the other hand, is a manager, and he gets lots of social interaction at work. Hes made lots of acquaintances, if not friends, and has gotten close with some people. And I'm so jealous of him.

Normally I like the solitude, I like reading and doing my own thing, but lately I've been desparate for other people.

The big problem is I don't have many friends. And the friends I've made are also in another city. My husband is really my only close social tie. And when my husband is busy socializing with others, I feel like I'm stuck waiting for him to find time for me. And when he doesn't talk much I assume the worst and my fear of abandonment kicks in, which sometimes makes me take things out on him...

I know I need a life, I need to talk more I need friends and hobbies, but I don't know how to be Passionate about those things. I seem to only feel passion for my husband and the things we do together, and everything else is just waiting for the next time we chat or spend time together

How can I focus more on me, or accept that my job is one of solitude and cope with that instead of fighting against it?