The job that I work currently, as a skincare specialist has given me nothing but stress when I did it. I became an esthetician before covid hit and now I am struggling to find a job that actually pays well in esthetics without it being religiously offensive. I cant do eyebrows because Im muslim and prefer not to touch other males because I get uncomfortable but its part of my job and I have to do it. One of my friends is doing an online course in software engineering but i feel like i am so stupid that i wouldnt be able to grasp that concept, my problem is that i move way too fast sometimes with my life and im never happy with one thing in my life. it took me 10 months to get a $20 an hour job in esthetics which i only work on the weekends. So it doesnt pay the bills. I want to be able to get a high paying job in either tech or healthcare but I am very dumb and stupid to do that. im also 22, have adhd, crippling depression and anxiety. i know i lack discipline and trust me im my own harsh critic.