It all started when I met my boyfriend. I fell in love quickly it's my first ever crush and relationship. When I realized I was in love with him I was tearing up it's was such an intense beautiful moment. He was perfect but then I started getting insecure and jealous and from there on our relationship started to get worse.

 I would split at him and tell him I hate him and resent him because he prefers other types of women. He never told me he prefers these women but I could tell from what he was following. When I split I become so angry and behave in a way I would never do if I was sane. I was so inscure I would look at pics of body parts he prefered for hours and cry.

 I went to a therapist online but she said she couldn't help me and I need professional help near me. I went to a psychiatrist once and she gave me meds that people with body Dysmorphia usually take. She never diagnosed me because I only went once. I stopped going because by that point he broke up with me so it was pointless to spend so much money on pills that I didn't need anymore.

The only thing I was splitting about was my looks and insecurities. So do I have BPD? I took a test online and it says I have severe BPD but I just wanted to make sure. Tell me what you think.