hello! 

i finally can go to a psychosomatic clinic tomorrow. the second time this year. but im so fucking scared. my stomach hurts, i have nausea and i feel like im getting sick. i know thats all because of my anxiety :( i wanted to have a relaxed last day before i go but it feels like hell. how can i relax? 

i mean im kinda happy that i finally can go (after waiting a few months) and that i will feel better in some weeks but still. last time i went there my anxiety disorder wasnt thaaat bad, i still was a little scared but thats nothing against the feeling im having rn. i cant even go and walk the dog for 10 minutes alone, how the hell should i go outside and smoke a cigarette on my own when im there? what when im getting a panic attack in my first group therapy session? aaaaaaaa im so scared