I suffered from extremely debilitating , low-functioning depression from the beginning of 2020-June 2021. During this time, I didn’t have the energy to brush my teeth, shower, eat, use the bathroom, and most days I could barely get out of bed. I stopped taking care of myself; I dropped out of school and for a while all I could manage to do was mindlessly scroll through social media and watch movies, which didn’t help. I was severely suicidal and struggled with self-harm as well. I’ve since then recovered from this depression, and I’ve been clean for almost a year now.  Nowadays, I feel numb/apathetic most of the time, but I still have at least a few happy moments that get me through each day. I’m content with my life. But I’m still suicidal.  I’ve had this lingering desire to die in the back of my mind for as long as I can remember.