possible TW: vomiting.   
I have absolutely no sense of smell, and a very bad sense of taste, which makes almost everything taste like garbage.
I want to eat, but also dont at the same time. everytime after I eat almost anything I want to make myself throw up, and sometimes I do, almost everytime I go for a walk, or to a restroom and try to drink water so it’ll be easier to make myself vomit. I cant do shit for long. I’m super skinnh for my age, length and age. I want to live but also want to end it all. 
There’s no joy in eating, and people make it sound so nice and tasty. It tastes like dirt. And I just want to vomit it all out.