Long time lurker, first time poster. 

Just wanting to vent. Feel like I’ve cut off all my supports so I’ve got nothing now. So where to begin hm. Let’s see like 3 weeks ago two of my closest friends decided to take space from me because my actions have hurt them. My one friend is someone who I’ve considered a sister for many years. She says this past year it’s been a very one sided friendship. That I haven’t been there enough for her and what I’ve been going through is too much for her own mental health. But the sucky thing is I never tried to put my emotions or problems on her. Instead I kept that to my FP. She says I haven’t been empathetic enough to her own strife. Even though I’ve tried to explain that a lot has been going on with me. What with being recently diagnose. 

Anyway I’ve been trying to move on and not let it get to me. I’m on new meds and am going to see a therapist. But her and the other friend distancing themselves from me has caused everyone else in my friend group to no longer invite me because of their beef with me. (Which I still don’t understand how you can do that to someone who is struggling and asking for help). So after spending some time with a friend not too directly involved she mention to me my sister friend was waiting for me to reach back out to her. Well I decided after a glass of wine I would text her and offer to meet with her. She told me she needs some time to process (even though she’s had 3 weeks) and give me a deserving response.

On top of this all I recently told my FP I need space from him because I just couldn’t handle him constantly invalidating my feelings and getting so defensive when I tried to explain myself. So here I am on a Friday night messaging whoever will listen because I’m desperate to vent and feel like all my outlets are gone. 

How’s your night going?