Feeling completely demoralized right now. I have been working on going back to school for the last two years. I dropped out the first time when I was 17, I had a lot of things going on in my personal life and I wasn't ready. I did what everyone told me to do, went to community college to finish my pre-recs, and then transferred to a larger college. I got into every college I applied to, but I got my financial aid back and it was laughably small. I don't even know how it happened, because even though I've been working and saving for college, I'm broke as fuck and I don't come from family money. I submitted an appeal, but they denied it. I'll have to turn down my offer. All of my friends got to go to undergrad AND grad school on their parent's dime, so they don't understand how hard it is for me right now.

I've worked service since I was 15 and I don't want to do it anymore. I've lived my whole adult life barely hanging on to an apartment, a car, and necessities. One accident could send me into homelessness. I don't know if I will ever live a comfortable life. I just want to be able to rest.