I just wanted to clarify what exactly I have been experiencing. Whenever I see to sit down and height focus on my stayed at night I can the space out quite a bit and then when I space out I feel sudden panic and feel absolutely terrified. This only happened after I had a bad experience smoking weed. I went over my father's house and roll myself a joint and I packed it not fully knowing what it would do to me and all the sun by felt extremely spaced out I couldn't think straight I was extremely scared I thought I have broken my brain and I was stuck in this vegetative state forever.  

Ever since I have been experiencing these moments where I space out and I feel exactly the same way as I did smoking the weed. 

I have read up and have found that it can cause depersonalisation disorder which I have actually been experiencing. 

It seems to happen a lot more frequently if I am taking any illegal substances. Any sudden change in my state of mine causes me to feel spaced out and then I start to panic where I can't think straight. 

It does even happen when I was using a elevator where my use popped in the sudden change of pressure and when that happened I started to panic again though this was a lot easier to come down from as I haven't ingested anything