it makes me so guilty how jealous i am with my boyfriend. not only does my heart sink and i feel sick every time he’s even simply messaging someone else, but i also suffer from extreme paranoia. paranoia that he’s going to leave me for these people, paranoia that he likes talking to them more than me, paranoia that these people won’t respect our relationship at all and make advances on him. it’s like i want him to talk to no one except for me to avoid all of this. of course none of it is based from logic, but completely due to my extreme insecurities and lack of self worth. i’m extremely self aware, and i don’t want to be toxic at all. i don’t want to make him uncomfortable or push him away. i want to trust him, i want to support him, i want to be a healthy partner!! yet i feel so torn up inside. i bite my tongue as much as i can and just deal with my pain on my own because i don’t want to push him away. but it really hurts constantly putting myself through all of this. i develop bad habits like stalking his social media, and any one he talks to. it gets to my head super bad. it’s really starting to effect me and i’d really love to stop. any advice or just people who can relate is welcomed.