PSA to those who have toxic bpd traits in relationships: the cycle of abuse is real so please be careful 

i think it's safe to say the majority of us remember the first times we showed true signs of bpd. i used to have anger issues and extreme emotional dysregulation but the first time bpd became really obvious to me was my first relationship. it was toxic and emotionally/mentally abusive af and i ended up adopting and portraying all the most toxic bpd traits...traits that he also had. 

it was only my next relationship where i was with a boy that was the complete opposite. so loving and chill and kind. we started fighting loads until i realised that he had started copying me. every toxic bpd trait i had he just uno-reverse-carded. 

it actually made me really upset to see someone be so desensitised to my toxic traits but also adopting them as well. 

bpd is a relationship disease. 

but it doesn't have to be. 

i know it's not all about relationships and just cause he has those traits doesn't mean he is bpd but the fact he fits the criteria of bpd because of me??? 

i believe bpd is contagious. 
or at least the bad habits that come with bpd are. 

please if you were in an abusive relationship take time to heal before getting with anyone else. 

if you have toxic bpd traits do not brush them off and say "it's my bpd there's nothing i can do about it". that's just accepting defeat and why would you want to live eternally as a toxic person.