i don’t have a personality or identity. i don’t even remember what it feels like to be a human anymore. i know it sound so cliche, but i literally can’t feel anything anymore. even being in the presence of my family drains me after 5 minutes. i can’t deal with just simply existing now. i’m so overwhelmed by the absolute emptiness inside of myself, and it just feels like on giant contradiction. everyone irritates me but at the same time i have no energy to even be bothered.