There’s one guy who I got really close to to the point where I became obsessed and my BPD symptoms really started to show, I kept bothering him when he was clearly fed up with me, I was paranoid about him leaving when he really wasn’t going anywhere (until I caused him to) and I cried myself to sleep whenever something went slightly wrong with him. Now this person is out of my life and I’m really glad because all of the stress that came with him is gone too. But now I try to distance myself from my friends when I notice we’re getting too close, I only see my closest friends every few months and the others I barely talk to. This has caused me to feel pretty lonely but I would prefer this to the paranoia that came with being close to someone.