I just have BPD, not clinical depression or anything else. I'm wondering if ketamine infusions might help me. I experience episodes (sometimes half a day, sometimes up to two months) where I feel like a body with no soul - excruciating emptiness - and emotionlessness, which causes me to desperately want to die. Looking for feedback on others' experiences. Hope it's okay to make this post. I'm not asking to be guided, just to hear from others what this kind of treatment was like for them.