TL;DR - I want to go away with my family but it will be 3hours drive each way in the car and I know I will be panicking. I’m also super anxious about leaving my cat.

Tomorrow morning I’m supposed to be going away for the weekend, it’s to a family festival and it sounds like a lot of fun but ever since I heard about it I’ve been back and fourth about whether or not I want to go. I was pretty certain I wasn’t going to, but now I think I’d like to try.

We would be leaving tomorrow morning, my parents who are driving are coming back on the Monday, my aunt is coming back on the Sunday and said I can come back with them which suits me much better because I’m also so worried and feeling guilty about leaving my cat (I do have someone popping in to feed him, but I’ve never left him before.)

I want to come back on the Sunday but the thing is - I panic on long car journeys, I worry about the fact that there’s no quick access to a toilet, or I start feeling sick and panic about being ill in someone else’s car, for these reasons I think being in my aunts car seems worse, even though I will likely feel the same in my parents car, but I really would prefer to leave a day earlier.

The journey will be around 3hours and I’m bad enough when I’m in the car for like 20-30mins. I’m starting to have doubts about whether or not I should go again.

It really does sound fun, everyone else is so excited and I wish I could feel that way. The anticipation of what I expect I will be feeling is really putting me off going and I struggle to control it.