Does anyone else get this?

My boyfriend and I don't live together, and we both have really packed work schedules. We see each other as much as our schedules allow, but sometimes we can go for a week or more without being able to get together. You'd think my separation anxiety would be out of control, but instead it's weirdly the opposite: I feel okay being apart from him even though I miss him, but then once we see each other again, that's when my anxiety starts up. It's like I'm scanning for signs that something is wrong, and it takes me a while to acclimate and feel comfortable around him. Almost like I'm afraid the time apart will have made him realize that he's better off without me, and I'm bracing myself for the other shoe to drop.

Does anyone else get this feeling? It's so frustrating for me.