And I grieve in advance of the next meltdown. My FP is out without me and I don't mind at all, I'm sitting at home drawing happily and enjoying time the way I like to, and I have a distinct way to enjoy myself, because I do like things, and I am a whole person with desires that matter, even just to me, and that's important enough - the most important thing, perhaps! 

I wish I could feel like this every daaaaay