I just recently came across what BPD is. I realized the symptoms hit so close to home. I followed this sub to learn more about it.

 I always have the tendencies to dissociate myself from others and also crave so much for their attention. I've been basically depressed my whole life. I never truly liked myself and my image. In fact, I don't think I can even tell you about the things I like about myself. It's frequent for me to feel empty to the point in feels like my chest "physically" feels hollow. When someone I like doesn't show care the same way I do, I tend to overthink too much - thinking maybe I am a piece of sht. I would cry out of nowhere because I just feel extremely sad and sometimes I don't even know the specific reason behind it. Most of the time, I don't want to fall asleep in fear of waking up and having to deal with another day. In HS, I tried harming myself and fortunately, I have never done that recently though I still have thoughts about it.

I would say I am getting a little better. I am trying to learn more about my emotions and behavior but I want to know if I should seek for a professional help?