I made a really good friend a few months ago.  We’d hang out almost every day.  This week I’ve seen her once as I know she’s hanging out with another friend.  It suddenly feels like I’m competing for her friendship now and it’s a battle I rather not do.  My self esteem is already low so I feel like it’s a battle I’ll lose.    
    
I was with her in her car and she mentioned hanging out today instead of tomorrow because she had something else going on.  It sent me into emotion mind since Fridays were usually our thing. As she was driving I was covering my eyes and secretly crying so she wouldn’t notice.