Hello! My name is Sam and i have been suffering from derealization/depersonalization for roughly 5 years now. The first symptoms showed after i had a really bad panic attack after smoking weed for the first time. These symptoms, however, have not had any relation to my anxeity other than the panic attack. 

Since november last year, i have had anxeity every single day. Yes, i know why but i am not too keen on sharing the reason here. Either way, everything sex related is now really boosting my anxiety. For example; I have had several fucked up sexual fantasies during my teens and they are now coming back to haunt me. 

Yes, fantasies. I now have anxeity over sexual fucking fantasies. I feel a strong urge to tell my wife about every single fantasy that i have ever had, and i am well on my way there. I can barely look at some of my freinds because i have fantasised about their mothers, sisters etc. 

I have come to a point where i no longer feel like there is light at the end of tunnel. This is tearing my life apart and i am ready to do whatever it takes to make my anxiety go back to the dark place where it came from. What do i do?


(Sorry if there are any grammar mistakes etc. I can barely focus and i am very bad at spelling.)