I'm in the middle of a mixed episode. My sleep schedule is fucking horrible right now. The only time I can sleep is early morning to afternoon. That means I haven't worked in over 2 weeks. I'm 33. I already have to live with my parent's because I never have been able to adult properly but now they are also paying my bills. This depresses me even more. My mom is getting really annoyed with me the last few weeks. I told her I'm having a hard time right now but she still asked me annoyed "what happened today?" Last week when I didn't work. I told her I didn't sleep that night but I wanted to say "I'm fucking crazy that's what happened." I said something about needing to buy a new sweatshirt because I gained so much weight my clothes aren't fitting anymore. She said sitting on the couch next to my sister "you mean I need to buy you a new sweatshirt." Then didn't understand why I was upset with her for talking about me being broke infront of my sister. She apologized but not until she tried to tell me nobody else was around or heard trying to justify her behavior first. Now she told me yesterday when I said I scheduled an extra therapy session this week because I'm struggling right now that "I'm just going to have to get back on track. You were so motivated a month ago. You just have to start exercising and getting to work again." I told her yeah it doesn't really work like that. She's usually so supportive but shes losing her patience and its making things worse.