i am confused by what i am feeling. i feel as though i am spiraling again after a couple weeks of really good mood. the first day i really noticed i was off, i was feeling very sad, and was crying so much. the other days i feel almost empty. i feel hopeless. i need to cry but i just can’t. i’ve had thoughts that my life is pointless and that there is no purpose for me to be here. but at the same time, when i’m around people, more specifically people i’m close to, i feel fine for the most part. i’m not withdrawing as much socially. i feel like i’m faking it. am i depressed again?? what’s going on?