I hope this is a good place for this post this rant. I'm usually not an anxious person. I've always been pretty good at shrugging things off and not worrying... except when it came to my health. Now, ever since I heard about webmd symptom checker that might as well have been my google default window. I have a terrible habit of attributing any ailment to being worst case. Mild back pain? Probably Ankylosing Spondylitis. Pain in my abdomen? Hernia, definitely. One day I researched how they would fix a (imaginary) hernia I had and nearly passed out from the stress at work.
  
I was getting better though. Except one day I had really bad cramps in my abdomen. I told myself it was probably just something I ate, just sleep it off. Except it got so bad I curled into fetal position crying, and eventually caved and went to the ER. it was ER worthy though, appendicitis. I thought it was kidney stones or something so the surgery surprised me.  
  
Unfortunately the appendicitis also was the tipping point for an apparent pelvic floor dysfunction that I've had for years unnoticed. So from surgery 10 weeks ago up to today, I've had bladder issues, mild ED, sharp pains in my pelvis, and just a general need to be near a bathroom since i feel like I gotta go very suddenly. This shit sucks. I'm 21 years old and have to deal with the bladder habits and sexual function of a 80 year old dude.  
  
Thankfully everything I've read says it's all reversible and for the most part it's getting better daily. But of course I am researching like crazy for every little thing concerned that maybe it's not going to go away. I am concerned maybe I have diabetes, multiple sclerosis, nerve damage, etc. it sucks.  
  
Not just that though, I've had pain in my belly button since surgery too and have attributed it to possible incisional hernia, abdominal adhesions causing small bowel obstruction, or IBS. I just can't chill out and go one day without double checking that my symptoms match with less serious problems, and feel like I'm looking for any excuse to go to the ER these days, even though I want more than anything to never have surgery or step foot in the hospital again.  
  
I am reading a book now that hopefully will help learn to manage my stress about all this. Just thought I'd share what's on my mind.