Idk it the title makes sense but let me explain. I suffer from anorexia (or i suffered a greater deal years ago but anyway) and i abuse drugs frequently. When i split on somebody or they do me wrong in my perspective, and when they know i have an ed and abuse drugs, i make it so apparent to them - i stop eating, i start using more in front of them and around them, just so they can see the pain they’ve caused me and in a way make them feel guilty for treating me that way. I have no idea how to stop. I know how terrible this is, i know it’s disgusting and toxic but i dont know what else to do. Does anybody else do this or something similar?