i've been going into that shitty work for almost 10 hours a day, totally exhausted, I got ticks in my eye due to lack of sleep since I wake up before 5am and I feel like I'm depressed. Only thing that I'm here for is my gf, she really helps me, especially when we call and text together. She can't call every single day and she doesn't feel happy either. I want to make myself happy and her aswell. Im very young, I don't want to die yet, but I feel like I don't want to be here anymore. My gf is the only one that makes me want to be alive.