Background: Me (17m) and my bf (18m) are in a open relationship. I suggested it. I didn’t have a person in mind, I just wanted that freedom. He tells me that he has a person in mind. That person, named Kai is someone I’ve been hating because of the fact that they were my boyfriends type. My bf and I are both switches and we agreed we’d only top other people and not bottom. 

My bf and kai tried to date, but kai wasn’t comfortable with me still being with him. And I wasn’t open to a polyam relationship. So they agreed to stay as friends. These past few weeks kai has been nonstop gifting him stuff. My best friend mentioned that my boyfriend never stops talking about kai and how perfect they are. 

I’m depressed over this. My bf never talks about me like that. The way they talk about kai. I fear that he wants to breakup with me to be with kai. I think about breaking up with him bc of how much he wants kai. My bf has also not been topping me at all. I’ve always been the one to top recently. And whenever I am in the mood to bottom, he’s never in the mood. My best friend suggests that I find someone. I’ve got a guy a like but he’s straight. And no one else interests me. I hate feeling like I’m being replaced. Rn he said he was gonna hangout with Kai this Saturday. Saturday is our day to hangout usually. I’m so tired of hating myself but I do. I hate myself so much.