I miss her. I wake up and go to sleep in an empty bed. Even when Im with people Im lonely. She tells me its okay and that we are doing fine in this 3 year ldr. But i know shes not lonely like I am. Anxiety is making me second guess everything. My feelings, my perceptions, her feeling snd intentions, the feelings and intentions of everyone else. my own body. I don't know what is real and what is the anxiety taking over and making me paranoid. I'm certain of nothing. I havent slept in 2 days. I just want a hug from someone who makes me feel safe. Too bad that person is so, so far away. 

I am so alone, and the silence is so loud.