I've been battleing depression since I was 15 I've tried almost every antidepressant I can afford but nothing works. I go to therapy and have a therapist managing my meds but I still want to die. Today I tried to jump out of a moving car in an attempt to get hit but was stopped by my husband. Been thinking about slittting my wrist or overdosing. I think me living this long is unnatural and should have died long ago. I have a son too that I love but think he would be better off without me. Having a chronically sick mother isn't good for him. I think everyone would be better off without me.