ive moved to another country and i am falling aprat already. im derealzimg and havjg an anixiety attack qnd then my thougjts go blank i am sprialing. ive just come yesterday. 

why did i do this? i wish i coulve gotten help and i wish i was ready. im not ready. i just take pills to cope. my therapist isnt answering. 

im going to land myself into a psychward for sure this time, and in a foreign country where i dont know the language.