I think my depression is mainly for feeling worthless and a failure. Always had issues with this growing up but my husband really made me feel completely worthless and abandoned me with 2 kids. I slaved for him, literally. He took my vulnerability and tramped on it. I did drugs for a while because it just made me feel nothing and work hard like a robot. Stopped the drugs but now I feel more damaged and emptier than ever. I have no desires, no energy. Just nothing, emptiness and silence inside. Because it’s just better to be a quiet robot.