
Hey, I had an exposure of unprotected sex 3 weeks ago. Both oral and vaginal, he did not ejaculate in my vagina, he did it in my mouth and I swallowed it stupid enough. Vaginal sex lasted maybe 5 mins only. I have never felt so dumb in my life. Before we did it I asked him 4 times if he was clean, he said yes. I EVEN specifically asked "will I be tested positive for HIV?" He said of course not.

A little background, we live in Europe. He is an european white dude (dont know if this will matter)

I cant rely on him of course. I dont know the guy. He is married though, but still. Thats why I am doing a swab test tomorrow. I have no major symptoms other than being tired, but I have a feeling its from me losing sleep.

Since I have no major symptoms, my doctor told me to do HIV test at 3 months mark. Should I push it to 4 weeks? Will it make a difference? I honestly dont know how risky my situation is.

This whole situation has opened my eyes up about STD, moreover i did this hook up during my manic episode, i am depressed, ive felt empty for such a long time, i wanted to feel something, i wanted to feel the void, i thought doing hook up will bring back my feelings. It has just so far made it worse. I think about ending it all. I am dumb, and naive. Stupid and careless.

I dont know what id do if i end up testing positive... thanks for reading. And anyone who bothers to reply, i trully appreciate you.