Hi all,

I suffer from bipolar disorder. After a manic phase I was hospitalized and medicated in March, and since then I've been depressed. There has been a lot of progress and recently I thought I was over my depression but actually I still feel so painfully empty that it makes me think that I want to die. I don't have much drive at all and I feel like I'm just wasting my days away, waiting for time to pass and distracting myself. I'm not actively suicidal but it's just hard to live this way. I don't know what I can do. I don't understand why I'm still so depressed and I feel like I'll never get back to "normal", to how I was before. Just wanted to vent a little and if anyone has some hopeful info or stories to share that would be nice as well.