I am going to hell according to most religions, according to science I will cease to exist into nothingness. Even if it's a lie I'm telling myself, I hope that after I die, I will be reincarnated for another life, another chance to start fresh and hopefully I have a chance to be happy this time and hopefully I would meet the best friend I lost from this life. It's probably a lie, but what does it matter? If science is right, I won't feel anything anyway. If religions are right, well, I can't really change who I am, I was already condemned to hell the day I was born. So nothing really matters except for the last effort to comfort myself before I go.