My boyfriend told me I was ugly &amp; to kill myself. He knows I really struggle with suicidal thoughts….. We have2 kids &amp; I thought we were better than that…. Now I’m in a daze. Idk why this is hurting so much but it is. Trying to make it work with a narcissist is going to literally kill me💔 Maybe I do need to die. Maybe I just can’t take this pain anymore. I’m just sitting in bed bruised up after he just choked me &amp; punched me in the face. Why do I repeat the same cycles my mom endured? I just want to die sometimes.