feels like this bout of bad anxiety will never go away because the reason I’m anxious will always be around and i can barely do basic things anymore because of it.

even if I don’t feel anxious for a second I’m reminded of “that thing” that always looms over me and is waiting to destroy my life. everything reminds me of the reason im anxious and nothing makes the feeling go away.

feels like ever even trying to get better is pointless because the reason im anxious doesn’t feel irrational at all to me, like oh actually YOU SHOULD BE ANXIOUS, you deserve it and it makes sense because it IS GONNA HAPPEN. And if someone tries to console me I just think that I don’t deserve it and if they understood why I was worried they wouldn’t feel any sympathy for me.

i just feel so lost and like my life is pointless because I’m waiting for it all to come crashing down...

if anyone has any experience for a similar situation and it got better, I’d be glad to hear it :)