Last night was crazy. I had no idea what was happening with me. I felt so energetic. But I was sobbing. I was sobbing and singing a song. It was some weird tornado of emotions. I was dancing around. But I wanted to smash the TV on my head. Smiling and sobbing, singing a song about how I dont want to be here and that I'm a terrible person. I felt so reckless. It lasted like an hour in the middle of the night until I decided to try to sleep and eventually did. What was this? I felt like I was going crazy. I just wanted it all to stop. I felt like I was drunk but I remembered everything and hated myself so much. I worried my sister and I feel terrible about it and so guilty.

 I dont know why this happened. Is it normal? Or could it be something?