So I recently got diagnosed with BPD and bi-polar 2. I’ve been reading and learning about BPD and figured out I was more of a quiet borderline, where I direct everything towards myself and have self destructive behaviors because of it. In my reading though, even on here, I feel like I see a lot of manipulating behaviors in borderlines and I just wonder if I do it without realizing. My past relationship ended kind of mutually but I can’t help but think back and try to see if I manipulated her and didn’t even know. Which makes me feel like a bad person because I was manipulated emotionally all my life and I never wanted to do that to anyone else. I guess this is sort of a rant but just wondering also if anyone feels the same way? 