This was posted in another place but its kinda still really bothering me and maybe getting worse? I feel... really dumb and close to crying rn. I'v been having a really  fucking hard time with making progress lately and have been dissociated a  lot but still trying to work thru my shit regardless to see if that  helps? anyway like... last night? i posted something in a different sub  and kinda dazed my way thru my post and forgot some of the rules because  I'm a) out of it and b) feel like i have to justify my entire life all  the fucking time which really messes with my ability to listen to what  to do or what not to do. uh... so yeah the mods like... told me what's  wrong an put my post on pause but i still feel really bad and upset and  like I'm a bad person even after editing everything and i just wanna cry  because i feel like i should just like... delete the thing and give up  right then and there because maybe I'll break more rules again and hnnn.... how do i make my brain shut the hell up send help