i (21m) recently got diagnosed with bipolar 2 after seeking medical attention for a breakdown that occurred after my partner and i separated. it turns out the medication that i had been prescribed to treat my ptsd and adhd were causing manic like symptoms that compounded with the stress of the breakdown of our relationship. a lot of things that were causing stress and confusion in our romantic relationship i can attribute to unraddressed hypomania and my own distress living with it

now that im on antipsychotics and the rush is over, my heart is shattered. i feel like i have the answers too late and ive pushed someone important to me away due to acting out of distress and self sabotage amd mental illness. i cant get over it and i cant forgive myself. they are their own person and i respect them and their needs, even if it means ive lost sabotaged my chances with them again, but i dont know how to get over mourning the damage done after a manic episode. im in therapy, im on meds, im getting my life back together, but i miss them more than i can say.

they were a very central figure to my life for the past 3 years, does anyone have tips for addressing hypomania, the following depression, and heartbreak?