I have BPD and just wanted to know the other side of things. I am typically really sweet and kind, but have a horrible temper, desire to be in control, abandonment issues, low self esteem, can get abusive and and sooo needy. 

Most times, I know for a fact that I emotionally drain people around me. But for some reason, when someone leaves or have had enough of my bs, I become a “victim.” I am so troubled because how I feel about myself shows in my behavior and how I treat others (this last statement is not an excuse, but an observation).

How do/did you deal with this type of person? How did you feel being close to someone with bpd? Did it emotionally scar you? And how are you doing now?

Thanks