I’m 20, stuck at home living with an abusive dad that my mom refused to kick out despite him threatening to k-ll us twice. Being here makes me feel so trapped and I blame him for how I become and what I’ve been through. I have a sister which I don’t have anything against with although we don’t get along sometimes but I can’t help to compare myself to her. She goes to a good university, has a lot of friends, stable, with a long-term boyfriend who loves her and she just got a job today.  I, on the other hand, was always the one struggling, depressed. I’m in uni but every second of it makes me wanna k myself. I have no people to go out with, no job, and romantically, I’m always the less-better-version of an ex that’s why I never ventured on being in a full blown relationship because I don’t feel enough and I know I never was for anyone. I don’t know where to go from here. I just want to end it and at least not be a failure anymore.