I feel so empty, like I'll never be happy again. I'm stuck inside of my head and there's no way out. I don't even recognize this person I've become. In the past couple weeks I've thought of every way I could kill myself, and my over thinking mind has reminded me every way I could fuck it up. I don't want to take the chance of living through it, I would be so disappointed. 
I'm just a shell, I can't work, I've tried numerous medications and therapy with no relief. 
I used to think of other people like family and would come to realize I don't want to hurt them but lately it does nothing for me. I don't know how much longer I can hang on.