I had a really bad panic attack. I was trying to sleep but when I'm anxious, it affects how I sleep (shortness of breath, wake up panicked). I couldn't sleep because I felt like I couldn't breathe and it was even worse when my voice came out weak. I called my mom and I was starting to calm down but I looked in a mirror and I realized all around the edge of my tongue was a pale color (i brushed my teeth before this so I didn't need to brush my teeth) instead of pink. This sent me into complete panic: heart beating out of my chest, feel like I'm going to pass out, shaking, cold, etc. I thought I was having a heart attack so my mom called 911. The EMTS tested everything and guess what? Everything is absolutely normal. I really really hate how debilitating anxiety. I just want to be normal again.

By the way, I see a therapist every tuesday and I'm on day 4 of starting lexapro. Also, sorry if I'm not making sense or the wording is wrong, I'm not really in the right state of mind right now.