Generally I have found that I most often disassociate during tough situations as a defence mechanism. But ever since I started dating my partner and have been in the “healthiest” relationship I’ve ever been in, I’m finding myself disassociating even more when I’m around them.
I could just be sitting on the couch with them and my brain seems unable to process that this me living out this experience.
I don’t why but my brain seems unable of grasping the fact that I’m capable of being in a situation like that where I’m cared for and sage if that makes sense?