Hi. I was recently diagnosed with BPD (about a week ago). Currently, I'm having feelings of being the only one, feeling alone, no one understands, etc.  


Honestly, my diagnosis explains so much for me. Random outburst, loving someone one minute then hating them the next, really intense emotions, self-harm. It's nice to know there's something to explain how I've felt for so long. I'm excited to get the help I need, I've been seeing a therapist once a week for the past few months and I have my first DBT on Friday.  


I've been writing in a journal everyday. That's been helpful. Also, I got about six books (in the super obsessive manner that rules my life). I quit drinking the first of November, that was tough after about six or seven years of heavy drinking, but now I am feeling a lot better. I was able to have just ONE glass of wine the other day and that was such a good feeling. I feel like I have been making some good steps, but I'm also waiting for the day it all crashes down on me.  


It's definitely been weird being able to know what's going on. What was finding out for you like? How do you feel you have bettered yourself? And do you have any advice to give?  


Thank you! I'm excited to talk to you!