Throughout my life I've been in countless relationships.  Some were meaningless.  Some were deep. However,  I always find a way to find something wrong with everyone.  I've heard the "right one" speech more times than I can count. To the point my mom died 2 years ago, and I haven't formed a single real emotional bond since. I'm aware I'm not attractive anymore.  I'm aware I can be hard to deal with. The problem is nothing feels right. Every part of me feels like I should give up. Accept ill be aline. Especially since I'll never be able to give someone the in-law experience now. It's just me. Alone. Now and forever.