I have had anxiety all my life, but now it took a turn into madness.

My anxiety is strongly connected to my digestive system, I have been diagnostized with general anxiety disorder, IBS and GERD/LPR. And it making my life miserable, anxiety makes my digestive symptoms worse and my digestive symptoms make my anxiety worse, so lack of appetite, frequent diarhea, gastric reflux, throat clearing and sometimes I pee so much every a few minutes that I am surprised that there is so much amount of water on my body.

I also start to think that there is something very wrong with me, specially on my throat because of LPR and Ive done a lot of medical tests and they didnt find anything. Moreover being underweight doesnt help too.

Besides I have developed a strong fear of medicines side-effects and I give up taking them because they trigger my digestive system really bad, from PPIs, benzos, anti hismanines, h2 blockers, Paroxetine, you name it etc. If that wasn't enough drawing blood makes me feel sick/faint everytime, and I really fear that I need a IV bag because it makes me feel umcorfortable and start shivering with cold the whole process. Funny enough, endoscopies are fine because there is no needle envolved, but I always ask to do without sedation.

Sometimes I have sudden shivering attacks, specially when i wake up in the middle of the night where I feel very cold and I always need my wife to hug me to calm me down and go back normal, and I fear a lot being alone and unable to save myself in case of medical emergency.

Finally COVID only make me feel worse about getting medical help, even though my symptoms started before it.

I just needed someone to read this, no need to reply, but any help is welcome.