I always overthink every relationship I have, especially with friends I haven’t spoke to in a few months, and I convince myself that absolutely everyone hates me. This year has been super hard as I haven’t been able to see anyone for months and my brain goes into overdrive almost daily. 

Does anyone have any coping mechanisms for when this happens that actually work? Some of these people it would be weird for me to randomly message as we mostly speak in passing so I would rather not reassure myself that way. I just want a way to shut these thoughts down and stop listening to the BPD demon who tells me that I am hated. I despise living like this. It gets so bad that it makes me want to end everything because I feel like everyone would be better off without me. Help :(