Today I didnt take my meds because I didnt have a chance to eat until 6pm (work and used my lunch break to nap) and I dont like taking them unless I have some food to stop me from feeling nauseous. Recently I’ve been slacking because my sleep schedule is off and I wake up barely on time for work. I’ve been getting a lot of end of the year stuff dumped on me. I’m also a full time student who has been putting things off, it’s my last semester. I don’t know if this is something other ppl feel but tonight I am so overwhelmed and having passive suicidal thoughts. Not in a heart racing way, but in a wow everything sucks *sigh* way. But I don’t know if it’s me or my inconsistency w meds. Do you ever feel this disconnect? Is this an organic thought or a side effect? Also I feel like I don’t know how i’m feeling, ever anymore, it always just feels bad. I don’t think I can remember a time when I haven’t tried to contemplate and figure out my thoughts and emotions. Sigh. Guess it’s kind of an all over the place rant now.