So during the summer I got triggered by ptsd and my fiance said "wow I thought you were over that." He didn't apparently mean it how it sounded but it was too late. In my head we were done.
I met someone online and pretty much had an emotional affair and I was obsessssssssed with him. Then be ghosted me and I got even more triggered and went full slut mode. Then he came back...

Fiance found all of this out and now obviously I'm not allowed to speak to him or anyone And he only wanted naked pictures suddenly and not be my friend. So I shouldn't want to speak to him.

 But I miss him. I miss the old him (I don't want to send naked pics) It's really hard to resist trying to reach out sometimes. 

Idk what to list for flair..