my life has gone into a spiral over the last 2 years. broken up with, have had covid twice, 2 trips to mental hospitals and 8 different meds later. now i’m struggling with constant anxiety issues and panic attacks, they come out of nowhere. over the last two years every month i get closer to finally saying my goodbyes. everything is extremely hard to cope with. i try to cheer myself up but i can’t, life is dull. don’t want to die but feeling like it’s the only option to get out of the loop im in, really need some help, anyone.