Tonight I’ve been dissociating severely. It’s the worst it’s been in months, but I feel okay. I know it’s from stress and anxiety but it hasn’t been this bad in a fair while. 

I recently spoke to my doctor and said I felt I was under diagnosed and am waiting to hear back about an assessment for ADHD. Its been a few months but I keep forgetting myself to get onto him. 

I wish things could just be easy and straight forward. I’ve been struggling for   15years, got diagnosed with BPD in 2017, got a good counsellor but it’s not working anymore. 

Mental health services are underfunded and even going private isn’t easy because of referrals and trying to find the right fit. 

I’m just so tired of it all and now this current state… feels like a never ending vicious cycle I’ll never be able to break no matter how hard I try.