I've never been sure of myself. how am i supposed to build relationships when I don't have any sense of self. 

I act and react differently depending on how the other person is acting/what they are saying. I feel like a complete fraud, I don't even know what's true and what's not. 

I lie for validation, I lie for convenience, I lie for reassurance, I lie to cover up another lie. 

It's disgusting how deceiving I can get. Especially towards my FP and the few people who seem to care about me. 

How do I fix this 

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