Throw away account for reasons. 

I felt like for a while I was doing better, that I was okay maybe, but last few days have been crippling. It's as if all the sudden a switch was turned on in my head that is stronger than I've felt in years.

I'm trying my best but I'm definitely not winning any battles right now. I even pushed myself to get things done around the house but I'm back in the same spot I started in. I can't make phone calls anymore, answering the door is near impossible, and I dread getting up and going to work in the mornings simply because I'm terrified to make a mistake or talk to anyone. 

I push myself to get better, but I'm only getting worse. I say that the tag is, "Needs a hug/support" but I know once I post this I'll feel like an even bigger idiot than I was before and that there a low chance I'll even be able to reply to anyone. 

Talk about pathetic. I definitely feel pathetic. 

Thanks for reading this mini-"rant"/letting my get my mind and thoughts out somewhere.