I used to have a best friend.  He was a man (I am a woman) and I think the nature of our friendship was misinterpreted by him and eventually we had a big blowout fight and I went no-contact.  It was horrible to lose a friend I had since childhood and took me a while to recover.  Now that I have some distance (it’s been 4 years) I don’t blame myself or him for the falling out.  

Here is my current problem… he’s been on my mind lately, and since our friendship ended abruptly and without closure, I was thinking of sending him a message/text basically saying I wish him well and I’m sorry for the way things ended.  I don’t expect a response, but I feel like I just NEED to say my part to get that sense of closure.  It’s giving me massive anxiety to even think of pressing send, though.  Best case scenario he reads it and thinks “that’s nice,” worst case he responds explosively or again misinterprets things.  Have any of you ever done something like this?  Did it help your anxiety?  Did it make your anxiety worse?  If the person responded, what was the outcome?  I wrote it all out and didn’t send it like they sometimes teach you in therapy and it did not help.