I've not been sleeping well since the past 10-12 days or so. I have always been a night owl so it isn't a new thing but before at least I've  squeezed in some 3-4 hours of sleep even while not having the proper sleep cycle.
I don't have classes till August but I do have some assignments that I need to get done but the thing is I have been staying awake till 5-6 in the morning, then go to sleep for an hour or so even then I'm not fully asleep. I'm having this overwhelming feeling that I don't know about what. I have had a rough month and even though I'm trying to move on from it, I'm still not able to. I have dealt with anxiety in the past but this seems way too unhealthy and even my parents have started noticing it. I'll stay awake on the pretext of doing my assignments but not do it and go to other room, cry for a while, my heart feels heavy and then I'll try to journal for a while because right now that's the only way I can have some control over my anxiety. Its the worst of anxiety attack because I feel out of control most of the time. The cycle then repeats, in the morning I'll try to just focus on things to engage my mind elsewhere but it's not working. I'm scared and I'm not scared at the same time. I am not able to concentrate on my work and I feel like giving up because it's way too difficult at times. Earlier, i used to at least do things just for the sake of doing it but nowadays, I'm tired to even do that much. I tried fixing my sleeping schedule but it does not work, i wake up feeling too overwhelmed to sleep or just lay there not sleeping at all with the constant fear of something going wrong.