I cry over the littliest reasons and constantly cry in front of or around others, I feel so worthless and numb, I think about dying nearly everyday and get horrible migraines. Everyone ignores me and treats me like a burden, I hope that when i die my family will look at me even for a second. My sister hates me  and the rest od my family know I have depression but dont care or forgot. I've tried talking with my grandma about my problems since she never tells anyone but she just says its because im still a teenager and ill get over it when im older, but I've been thinking I was worthless since I was 9. I have no friends to talk to and am always miss pronouncing words so I never talk. A couple yeats Should I try seeking help?Is it bad that Im always thinking of ways to die? I tried telling my grandma about this to but she told me to stop talking like that. Is there something wrong with me for feeling like this or is this actually just normal?