So today I lost my therapist.

I liked her because I was her first client and she used to write down everything I said and helped me cope with my stressful job.

December last year my store went jnto bankrupcy and I entered depression. So I went to a psychiatrist to see if it was possible to get antidepressants.

I was diagnosed with BPD and it was eye opening. Suddenly everything in my life made sense.

But my therapist didn't believe the psychiatrist and told me they would talk about it. But she never did.

The last  4 weeks we had to reschedule the session, because she insisted in scheduling for the afternoon even though I'm a freelancer and might be called any afternoon for work.

So today she rescheduled again, it's fine. Asked if it could be on saturday, I reminded her that I work on saturdays. Asked if it could be on friday afternoon, I said it could, but I couldn't promise I wouldn't be called to work. Then she asked if it could then be monday afternoon, and I said the same thing.

I got angry at her for not understanding that any afternoon I might have to work, and I told her I was going to look for another therapist who could work on morning.

Then she sent me a huge text on whatsapp, saying that she was doing her best but that she found out she have a h-pilory bacterian in her intestine today. I told her I had this all my life. She then said I was doing what I do to everyone, which is to cut them away. She is not wrong.

But THEN she tells me she lost her grandmother yesterday, and that I was behaving just like another client who got angry that she didn't answer her mail within 2 hours, and I'M SORRY?

FIRST, I didn't know she lost her grandmother AND I didn't get angry because she didn't answer me as fast as possible, but now she was comparing me to another client who was clearly a jerk?

I might be on the wrong here, but I'm feeling terrible.