Im so lost in this world
I dont know what to feel
Dont know what to do
Dont know what to think
I feel happy for a few days if I’m lucky
Then back to my normal sadness
Sometimes I write out my feelings cause I dont know how to explain them out loud
I’m sad, I’m not “good” or “alright” like I always say when someone ask
Because when they ask they don’t really care
I have no one to talk to, not like I would even if I did
Cause when I did have that someone I still couldn’t get myself to do it
I’m sad, just a continuation of feeling sad
I’m tired of putting on a fake smile everyday
I only have 1 friend which she’s barely really my friend cause we barely talk or hang out now
I lost everyone that I used to call a “friend”
I lost the one person that I loved
We would’ve been together a year now if we were still together
I cried on what would’ve been our “anniversary” 
But my problems didn’t start with her
They’ve been there
I’ve always been sad
She made me feel happiness but then made me feel the worst pain ever
Heartbreak
I don’t know when my sadness really began
But I think it was around the time Yoshi died
I didn’t get to say goodbye to her
I was hurt
I’m still hurt
I’ve been hurting and I dont know what to do to heal
My ex suggested therapy when I called her when I had a “breakdown”
I don’t want therapy
Therapist are just people that are nosey and want to be in peoples business 
They think they have the answer for everything 
I don’t want anyone to study me and my body language like I’m some kind of book
I’m sad
Once again
Of course my happiness didn’t last long
I don’t know why I’m sad though
Nothing happened 
At least not right now
I don’t know, I guess I got lost in my mind again
Like always, I think too much
Sadness 
Sadness and confusion that’s all I feel