I (21F) was diagnosed with BPD almost four years ago. Since then, I’ve cut off contact with pretty much every person in my life. The pandemic made it easy, and during that time I managed to redirect my obsessive, favorite person energy towards fictional characters and the like. 
But as we all know, the pandemic didn’t take real life away forever. 6 months ago, I got a new job. In this job, every room has 2 employees that have to work together all day every day. Already, that sent up red flags for me and made me worry that I would become obsessive over my partner, but I had no interest in the first couple of people they paired me with. I worked for two months with one woman that I found mildly annoying, so nothing was going to happen there. This continued, and I thought I was fine.
And then my boss needed a fill in in her room, and she specifically requested me. I knew right then that it was a risk. I tend to FP any older woman in a position of power over me, especially if she’s attractive, and my boss is definitely all of those things. She’s always laughing at my jokes and making it known what a good employee she thinks I am. I thought it would die down enough for me to breath when I left her room, but then she pulled me aside to tell me that she specifically wants me to fill in for her and help her in her room when she needs it, because she knows I know what she wants done.
It’s torture. She’s always so nice to me and she views me as smart and capable, which are two things that I’ve never ever thought I was. She makes me feel special. Every day at 5 o’clock I go in to cover her room so she can go home, and every day I feel like she takes a piece of me with her. Every time we interact it feels like the energy is just sapped out of me. I love my job, and this happens everywhere I go, so I don’t feel that quitting would help me. I don’t know what to do. Any advice?