so due to my age i can’t get a diagnosis. my therapist told me straight to my face that if i was 18 i’d get my diagnosis. it’s infuriating and frustrating. cuz i cant 100% say that i have this disorder. i believe i do. i’ve been told i do, by professionals too, but if people ask if i’m diagnosed i don’t know if they’ll understand and that’s frustrating. i wanna be accepted by a community that’ll understand my struggles and not rationalize them or complicate them. people will try to diagnose me themselves and tell me it’s just puberty. i’ve had these symptoms before puberty. it’s scary and exhausting. i’m tired and people keep adding on to that stress. i cant talk to more than 2 people now. one of them being my favorite person. i’m scared i’m too clingy of him but since i pushed away so many people.. i’ve got no one else to hold on to. anyway i’m getting side tracked. i hope i can be accepted into this community on reddit. even without a written diagnosis. just hearing her tell me we’ll have to try and “prevent” it just for her to leave the next week broke me. the car ride home was heavy. it took me 6 weeks to announce it to my parents. my diagnosis but also not my diagnosis. don’t get me wrong i understand why they can’t diagnose me, but i’m still frustrated. it’s difficult to talk to people about it because of how taboo not only the subject is but the disorder itself. it’s difficult to accept myself in fear of developing something worse due to unhealed trauma. i just wanna be heard and understood by people like me. 

have great days or nights &lt;3