My parents fucked up, they didn't have money and weren't able to raise a kid but they still had me, sadly my mom was an alcoholic an my dad went to jail, so my mom remarried and my step-dad was a sick bastard, my family was always in debts and I was always so disgustingly jealous of all the kids from my school who didn't deserve the wealth they had access to cuz of their parents, seeing spoiled and entitled they are yet they had everything I could ever dream of having. Going to school was a nightmare, not having enough money to buy enough notebooks or get books for certain classes and having to put 3 different subjects in 1 notebook and have teacher yell at me or have kids fuck with me cuz they all knew what kind of family I came from and what kind of life I had and how funny that was to them.

I was always so jealous of all those kids born into families ready to give them everything, of all those girls with their moms teaching them things and going shopping and having their moms tell them what shampoo is best and what skin creme is good for them and what they should and shouldn't wear and sit in a cafe and be able to talk openly about boys and girly things or even deep things or philosophical questions and debate things or their moms teaching them what boys to stay away from and which boys are good and have those embarrassing talks about sex and what they should and shouldn't do, I never had a mom like that, a mom that wakes me up for breakfast or tells me to tie my hair cuz it's hot an I'll have pimples or tell me to wash my face multiple times throughout the day or to change clothes often an have her wash the dirty ones every 2-3 days or have a mom that would bring me fruit or ask me if I wanted a snack then bring me a sandwich or cookies or give me a monthly card to go to the pool an swim or go with her to buy a bikini or a bra for the 1st time an have those embarrassing moments... or have her teach me about eyebrows and make up and eyeliner and nails and how to to my hair or face masks or watch movies with me or help me decorate my room whn it's holidays or give me gifts when it's my birthday, hell even just congratulate me, praise me when I do well in something..  I never had a mom basically an God knows I'm fucking jealous of all the girls that had moms like this an took that for granted and were so shitty to them, I never had a dad either, to give me time limits and tell me what things to stay away from or a dad to take me hunting or tell me to do martial arts or teach me to handle a gun or teach me to fix things around the house, tell me he's proud of me or tell me mom is just a lil over the top cuz she cares an he'll talk to her about my punishment or have him be relaxed an chill an help me sneak out to hang out with my friends longer or have him order pizza and teach me about computers or just spoil me like most dads do with their daugthers, or have a boy over for the 1st time and have my dad look at him weirdly or my mom question him his name, his parents, where he lives, etc. hell I was never even able to invite anyone to my house cuz I lived in a rats lair rather than a house and I was so ashamed of that, so shitty going to school with 2 pants you change around and a couple shirts and that's it, having the same shoes for months and the same jacket for years or not even having them cuz they broke and you can't afford new ones, not having much food to eat cuz your mom is too busy drinking her life away to make any kind of food while others had a full damn fridge of food and kept complaining they don't know what to eat, not having a good phone cuz you can't afford it or not having computer or internet for some time cuz it's too expensive, while others had a gaming setup a laptop a tablet a phone a plazma tv too, being sick and not being able to afford meds, while others parents freak out when their kid gets sick and yours just tell you to get over it and shut up, but hey at least I had a roof over my head right, can't complain I guess.. 

You guys even felt like this? Am I the only one..?