Hey everyone, I'm using this subreddit because I don't feel like bothering any of my close friends with a repetitive rant about feeling depressed or unloved, as it is not exactly something new for me to talk about. I just want to get this off my chest.

I know my family and friends love me. But I don't feel like it and it's making me so sad. My dad left the country 8 years ago and not once did he come to visit, after bankrupting our family. My mom has a good heart, but she is overprotective and not once does she give me compliments. The other day I ran 12km straight without stopping, which for me was quite an achievement, but when I arrived home she complained "what are you doing? 1 hour running is too much, that's silly" and not one congratulation or anything. She always doubts my capabilities to do something outside of the box.

I also never had a girlfriend and I've been rejected a few times, and it hurt me so much that I'm afraid to express any interest to a girl.

My friends are amazing and I can't complain about them, but still, despite working so hard on myself and on my career, I feel so unloved, even if I rationally know that not to be true.

Sorry for ranting but I needed to get this off my chest...