I \[20F\] spoke with my psychiatrist last month about some concerns I had, and she told me to look into BPD. I went to my university library and read textbooks, etc. and related heavily to the case studies and other info. Today I had an appointment with her and she says I have BPD. I cannot afford a therapist, so she gave me so books and resources to go through but I really don't think I can do this alone. I have so much trauma and things from the past, and my emotions are so intense. I don't have a support system IRL, so I'm completely on my own. This is really scary.