for those who experience elevated moods/mania/hypomania/etc, do you often feel like your manipulating others and their perception of you? it’s kind of hard for me to describe in writing but i’ll try my best:

so basically, because of your elevated moods, especially if they are positive (or perceived as positive by others), does it feel like you are manipulating the people around you bc they don’t know that you’re going through impulsive/reckless habits and instead see it as good? like, they get excited for you because you are finally out of the low/depressive moods, but then you just feel like you’ll let them down again once the impulsiveness passes? i hope this makes sense 😅 but i would love to hear responses if you relate and are comfy to reply :)