My ex broke up with me. He was my fp and only thing that allowed me to get better for a while. I did make mistakes in the relationship in the last which I regret so much and I’m so sorry for. I can’t help feeling like I manipulated him into staying after that and I feel just too much shame and guilt for me to handle even though he forgave me and we did move on after that. I feel like overall I was a good girlfriend, I improved myself alot thru the relationship and he ended up being the one treating me badly at the end. Of course, I would do anything to stay with him and be with him even though he was acting cold and mean. Now, he is truly done with me, it kind of came out of no where but he had been acting cold and distant for a while. All I can think about is him and how much he loved me and how that changed. He has completely removed me from his life. I can’t stop thinking and feeling like I’m dying. I can’t do anything, can’t eat or sleep I can only be in bed and cry and have extreme emotions and thoughts.