I (F24) had accepted being alone some years ago. After abusive relationships in every avenue of life I just decided to check out. Hadn’t dated in years.


Met someone while out with a friend, things blossomed and he’s seemed like none of the abusive people I’ve dealt with in the past, the opposite. Has been amazing for about a month and a half. Just about the point where I’ve started thinking it could actually work and feeling a kind of happy I haven’t felt in god knows how long.


Well I ruined it. I tried to have an adult conversation about a trigger which makes me feel insecure. I immediately was not worth an adult conversation. He just immediately over text decided he’s not the type of guy for me who can put up with any of that. I wasn’t even worth a phone call or in person conversation despite asking. I literally calmly approached a small situation. I feel so worthless and wounded. You accept the apathy but when you have a taste of that happiness and it’s ripped away. I feel suicidal.