I've been on SSRIs to treat depression, anxiety, OCD and anorexia for six years, since I was 12. I was in outpatient intensive treatment for about six months before I started taking Prozac and nothing seemed to be working, but within a few weeks of beginning medication, I began to make significant progress, especially regarding my ED and OCD. I honestly don't think I would have survived without SSRIS, but since then the side effects have become almost unbearable. I think being so heavily medicated (dosage of 80 mg) during such formative years really screwed me over developmentally, especially sexually. They make me feel numb and uncreative and foggy and my art suffers as a result. I've tried to lower the dosage or go off of them many, many times (with guidance from my psychiatrist) and it consistently ends up with a relapse/attempt. I switched to bupropion (Wellbutrin) a few months ago, which helped with depression but FUCKED my OCD. It got to the point where I couldn't function at all and was having multiple panic attacks and episodes per day, so I went completely cold turkey (with approval from my doctor). Since I've been unmedicated, I feel like my eating disorder is back in full force. I'd been able to manage it relatively well but that feels impossible without the meds. I've lost twenty pounds in a few months and I can't fight my compulsions at all. I talked to my doctor, who told me that the only other option is antipsychotics which will likely make me gain a shit ton of weight and have even more numbing side effects than SSRIs. I reluctantly went on Lexapro a week ago (10 mg for now but they're increasing to 30 which seems like a lot for an 18 year old who's 5'4) and I am constantly tired, lethargic, lazy, and depressed. It may have helped with my OCD but only because everything is muddy in my head and I can't get out of bed to clean or organize. I realize that was a LOT of background info and if you've read all this you have my utmost respect but given the context, does anyone have any wisdom at all on the subject of treating this particular combination of disorders without SSRIs? I'm open to trying just about anything. Thank you!