I had the realization today while happy how illusionary in happiness really is. Happiness is a fantasy that we give ourselves to strive and push towards. Even when happy I've come to realize it's fake, being happy is a physical sensation for a moment but even while high and literally forced into a happy state I was able to realize that I'm still sad. How can I be sad while so happy? Because I'm not happy, the goal of long term happiness is an illusion that I'm letting myself into, it changes nothing, and pushing in the hopes of happiness in and of itself is pointless, trying to become happy was a wake solution all along, there is no true out, nothing will be satisfying