I will sometimes get the urge that I want to take care of myself. Meaning showering, brushing my teeth, brushing my hair, Etc. then I try and it’s too much effort, too much for my brain and I just end up back to where I was and even more mad at myself. I get so let down and then punish myself because I’m so lazy and others my age are in college, have jobs, have a LIFE. what am I doing? Nothing.