I'm 29, I have a job, have GF of 10 years, and a roof over my head. Some say I'm better off than others, but I feel like I'm just failing. I have no energy to go to work, no energy to give my GF the attention she deserves. I've put us both in a financial hole which I see no end in, well I do, but I don't wanna go that route. I grew up being told I was worthless and never gonna amount to anything, and I just wanna ask them, how did they know? I'm stuck in place where I'm faking a smile on my face everyday just so I don't worry her. But honestly, I'm scared shitless. I have no money for food, gas, rent or any basic items to get by. I have work tomorrow and don't know if I'll make it as my only transportation is falling apart, but if I do make it, am I gonna be able to stop the voices in my head saying to just drive off and never return? I don't know why I'm here, nobody is gonna help or anything. Maybe just venting, who knows. I'm sorry for the things I've done in my life to get to this point.