I know I’m fighting reality a bit but I wish, like most of us do, that I didn’t have this stupid fucking disorder. I’m tired of every day being so emotionally draining. I’m tired of the rollercoaster mood swings. I’m tired of thinking I’m getting better and then five minutes later have thoughts about self harm. I’m so tired of having these emotions. Ok, dbt gave me ways to cope with these huge emotions. Cool. But I just want to stop feeling them. 

I feel so unstable. So unsure of myself. So unhappy. So exhausted.