I’m only 23 and I’ve already became an alcoholic/cokehead, had a fair few near death experiences, gained and lost more friends than I can count, became agoraphobic, been in trouble with the law and a whole load of other shit. It all just seems like a cycle that’s just gonna continue again and again. On top of that this disorder turns everything that should be good into torture. I’m gonna be miserable basically all my life and continue to make everyone else miserable too. What is the actual point of going on? It seems like it’d be so much better for me and everyone else if I’d just off myself already. Not saying that I’m going to but it’s all that makes sense to me in the long term.