Today was supposed to be an exciting day for me, but it turned into just numbness. I’ve been in the process of healing myself since February and have made tremendous progress.. though, today’s like today I felt defeated. I felt like I should have been sooo happy today because I was doing something I looked forward to for sooo long, but now that the day is over I feel even more stressed. I even had therapy today and I just felt like my therapist and I were not on the same page… it made today suck even more. My BP is normal around 110/75 and it was 135/95 tonight and maaaan did that stress me out even more. 

I feel like I need to remind myself that it’s okay to have set backs like this sometimes. Comparatively to how I use to react to things I can see the progress, but it doesn’t make the feeling any less shitty. I know I’m just venting but having someone listen or even knowing that at least one person read this makes me feel a lot better. So if you’re reading this.. thank you honestly❤️