First of all I’ll say that I’m 16yrs old.

Through the trauma of mental abuse starting from the age of 6, I have been dealing with depression and anxiety. 

I want to go to a doctor and try and get a diagnosis as I believe something else is wrong with me mentally. I also want to try new things and be a less private person to family and friends. And on top of that, I want to get a part-time job.
Thing is, I’m too anxious about doing all of this and most importantly with it, I can never seem to find the right time to do it all. I don’t want anything I do or say to come out of the blue at a random time for both family and friends since I’m scared that will make things feel somehow different in the household/friendship. Aside from mental problems, physically I’m in an okay spot with both of these things, and I don’t want any of the good things to come to a sudden end because of my actions