Well to preface this, I've been talking with an ex and we were on the fence about how we feel about each other. We both admitted there's some feelings but she told me she had to speak to her therapist. Anyway today I seen her post something about "reading love stories because of the lack of any in her life" (paraphrased) so I called her out on it and she responded with she wants to only be friends. The clarification early is good I guess, but this is the second time she's done this... before I was much more hurt over it... I suppose I anticipated it this time. Anyways, I can't match the energy I gave her before and I'm sure she'll notice. It's her fault this time around, I bent over backwards and changed for the better yet she still won't accept me to try again. Relatively speaking I'm much more stable than she is (and arguably a little bit more attractive). I seen her house its in shambles... I just don't get why she doesn't see that she won't find opportunity to meet someone who cared for her the way I did, and who accepted her for herself even if she's a fucking mess. I had to vent somewhere... thank you for listening to me.