It's been way too often for my liking that I have been falsely accused of being on cocaine when experiencing an up (I have BPD). Has this happened to anyone else?! It really puts a dampener on everything -_-
I've got some examples/additional information below:

At one point at my old work, there was a rumour going round that I was often on cocaine in the work place, which was absolutely not true! (tbf super gossipy agency - peers kinda live for this stuff and most of it is false). Rather, due to BPD I would experience fluctuations which included highs of energy and socializing which I suppose must have appeared to the layman as similar to a cocaine induced high.
I've already always been an energetic extroverted child (other parents would often question mine what they fed me 😂😂)

I take modafinil during the work week to deal with BPD-related work productivity impediments such as insomnia, emptiness, depression etc, and it also seems to help me stabilize my mood swings in the work place because I can get into deep flow and feel greater reward.
Modafinil is definitely not the reason because I experience fluctuations of energy levels/highs&amp;lows with or without modafinil ingestion - modafinil just helps motivate the execution of job requirements regardless of the state I'm in.

Now going on a tangent: for some reason if I mix caffeine and alcohol, and I'm feeling good, people also think I'm on cocaine or other drugs. I've been kicked out of clubs for this false perception.

A more recent example - last night (2am), when I was walking out of a cafe after buying an espresso and using the toilet, I passed by four waitresses kinda chilling/chatting against a wall. As I passed by one loudly said, "she's definitely on cocaine". I found that really hurtful and out of order and turned back with these hurt emotions expressed on my face. I stated, "that wasn't a very nice comment. I found it quite hurtful. It made me feel sad"
 
This is a classic example of the BPD fluctuation to a high being misunderstood -&gt; the circumstances of the day's events had made me feel really amazing due to work and social triumphs, and I impulsively decided to stay out alone and keep drinking after a friend went home at 11pm -&gt; because the high made Westminster look so beautiful and I was feeling such a rush of freedom and an urge to explore the electricity of the night. I also impulsively called a friend of which return text messages I'd been procrastinating on, as well as calling another friend to come join me in my impulsive night adventure (the friend complied). The night was definitely one of the most notable BPD intense good feels I've ever felt (previous to this night I'd been feeling overarchingly negative fluctuations so this change in events was more than welcome!!)

 I'm curious as to whether other people can relate to this. More specifically, has anyone had the experience of being consistently falsely accused of being on cocaine?! I'm getting quite frustrated. -_- it really puts a dampener on the good feels which totally sucks.

