

I’m terrified of the future. I’m terrified of my past and how it will affect me. Even with my medication it’s often hard to do anything but live in the moment. I feel overwhelmed by nothing and everything at once. What could be vs what happens. I have no idea how to process so much. I’m really good with talking to people but not great when talking to women. I’m great at what I’m great at but I havent found a job where I can really thrive. I need help with my alchohol addiction and to learn how to live life sober and happy again. Stuff like legos and videogames and even hanging out with a girl on a date or chilling with my sister or anything. I didnt NEED to do anything back then. I shouldnt need to now. It scares me often the more I think about my future and the repercussions of my excessive youth.