In the past year ive lost half of my family, most recently i lost my dad.

I feel like im falling deeper and deeper into this black hole of depression and i cant get myself out.

I keep thinking this has got to be rock bottom now right? But it keeps getting worse.

I wake up and rather feel numb or overwhelming grief, i dont want to be here i just want to sleep, which is all ive been doing for the past week.

I did call samaritans hotline to talk to someone when i was feeling suicidal and they really did help at the time but im on my own rest of the time