hi i have bpd, as you most know relationships are hard when you suffer from bpd for multiple reasons, i really need advice so let me give some context because im really confused on what I should do and ive been being really cold to my boyfriend because of this. so my boyfriend went camping with this girl he used to like years ago. (i know that itself sounds bad but they have been friends since kindergarten so it’s not really my place to tell him he can’t be friends with her because of his past crush on her whatever) they went camping on this girls grandmothers land which is huge and super pretty. this was like a two day thing and honestly I was super anxious about him doing something with her because I already am really insecure and really anxious and he knows that and he knows my issue between the two of them. 


okay but yeah he didn’t really text me much the days he went but I understand people get busy but it still hurt. but the last time I saw him in person he told me that this girls boyfriend kissed him while drunk. they were both drunk but the boyfriend who is straight kissed him on the lip. my boyfriend (who is bi) keeps talking about how it was just supposed to be a funny straight drunk guy thing but I don’t think it’s funny at all and I’ve made that very clear and he doesn’t really show a lot of remorse with my feelings towards that and thinks it’s no big deal.


now I would feel more forgiving if he told me right away and at least felt a little bad about it. but the way he said items just gross. he said it made him feel good to see the upset look on this girls face after her boyfriend kissed him (because apparently she used his feelings towards her to kinda play with his feelings in the past). he talks so much shit about this girl but they still continue to be friends. 


he told me about this kiss probably four days after it happened, he said he didn’t wanna tell me right away because it happened the day I got into a small car accident. im very torn between forgiving and forgetting knowing it will always hurt me deep down, and breaking up with him because we haven’t even been dating a full two months and every now and then he will make a comment that hurts my feelings a little bit but it’s nothing super bad or toxic just annoying and that’s because his words leave his mouth faster than he can think about what he’s saying. 


opinions? should I break up with him? should I try to move past this and try to make our relationship stronger?


tl:dr: my boyfriend got kissed by some girl he used to likes’ boyfriend who is straight and he thought it was more funny and didn’t consider how upset that would make me. Im questioning if I should continue being with him or not considering he’s not the one who initiated the kiss. should I stay and keep trying?