My brother is pushing me to do a call, I’m autistic so it’s not so easy for me. 
I feel shit and had suicide thoughts just now, there are gone now because I’m busy with Reddit right now.
Before I can do the call I have to find information in a giant folder and it is just exhausting. I already tried yesterday and today but it’s all more complicated than I thought. I’m exhausted and don’t want to deal with it anymore. 
I feel useless, just playing video games and doing nothing. But I also can’t do much.