
Hiya, ive got several mental health issues and psychological and mood disorders. Anyways today has been a horrendous day for my BDD particularly. I subconsciously compare myself to everyone who I walk past and I tend to think everyone is more attractive than me. I’ve been told I’m good looking before several times but I just can’t see it what so ever I look disfigured. Anyways a girl on tinder called me cute (I HATE being called cute it makes me think I’m a cuddly teddy bear) when she messaged me and it sent me into meltdown and I had to punch a wall to control my anger and I even cried (which is something I never ever do). Also, I was sat there earlier doing it in the train station thinking about how ugly I am and then a woman with a physical disability walked past and seemed extremely happy and just going about her day and it made me bust into tears sat there in the train station it just made me feel so fucking stupid. It’s honestly tearing me apart, I’m speaking to my psychologist tomorrow but i can’t keep living like this and feeling this way