For the last few years I’ve been very emotionally numb. I cry like once a year and am flat on average (don’t get too happy or depressed). I think it’s cause I’ve built up some kind of tolerance to both sides of the spectrum.

I’ve considered going on Wellbutrin and have used it in the past, but I’m afraid that my dopamine will get screwed up if I go off it. I’m also thinking about committing to the gym and seeing how that makes me feel. I don’t get out enough and am not close with anyone outside of my family anymore. It’s kinda sad, I don’t think I’m socially awkward (or a complete introvert) but I’m in a weird limbo between High School and College. There are things I want to accomplish but I’m having trouble taking that leap of faith. I have a somewhat partime job but need to start working full time and focusing on my education. 

I also want to reconnect with old friends but don’t know whether I should do that or reach out to new people (maybe a little of both).

I don’t know if I’m making this post for attention or not (and will probably delete it later) but I appreciate whoever took the time to read it. Sorry if it seems like ramblings. I want to know peoples honest advice so please don’t sugarcoat anything.