For this semester all of my courses are online but I live in a rental not so far away from campus. My classmates want to hang out at campus and the thought of meeting a group of people (strangers) face-to-face makes me nauseous. I have pretty bad social anxiety and it's been much worse since I started getting acne 2 years ago. My skin is not bad at all, but I have body dysmorphia and it's heightened with anxiety. My friends constantly question me for turning them down and not meeting them and frankly I'm sick of coming up with shitty excuses. They are not close friends or anything, but I've been through a lot of bullying in the past and now I seek validation from others as a result. I've always been an introvert and had a few close friends. That's what makes me happy and serene. In large groups I feel like I can't be myself 100% and it triggers a lot of self-hate and panic. How can I create boundaries and say no without feeling guilty or ashamed of my mental health? College is intimidating because everyone is social and outgoing whereas I like to read, hang out at home, take myself on solo dates, chill with my dogs etc. People call me boring and lame I'm just so frustrated.