None of the triggers that usually come with visiting my family. No anger at my dad. No disordered eating. I had some treats but didn't stress about it or binge. No feeling like I had to be "perfect" to not ruin Christmas. No stressing about not being who or where I want to be in life. No pressure to fit into the image my parents have of me. No yelling at /physically intimidating my family. No stress or disappointment about gifts.

It was nice. 

And I don't feel the usual dread, embarrassment, and loneliness that I usually have every year with no NYE plans of my own. I'm kind of looking forward to it, honestly.