I don't really know what to call it, I don't know if it's psychosis, or mania/hypomania, paranoia, or just a BPD attack. Today I was sitting on my couch, watching YouTube, when I suddenly felt extremely anxious and on edge. I don't know what caused it, ive had a normal day and havent had any worries of abandonment or anything really that I think could've triggered it, it just happened. I started having racing thoughts and extreme anxiety, I felt like I needed to punch something or hurt myself in some way to get rid of the feeling. I started pulling at my hair and breathing rapidly. I tried stabbing myself but luckily I was able to hold myself back. I just felt such racing paranoid thoughts from seemingly no where. It wasn't like a normal anxiety or panic attack, it felt more like what I think might be psychosis but without hallucinations. It was scary as this has only happened to me a couple times before. Eventually I had some alcohol to help calm me down, but in the moment I felt, just, I don't know, so paranoid and impulsive.