Idk what to do about this right now. I think my meds might not be working as well as they should be. I'm on 30mg of lexapro and lately it seems my emotions are either blunted or nonstop pain that I eventually cave into and cry randomly. I also am constantly tired and brain fogged. I don't get much done in the day. My dad is pissed off and critical of my lack of productivity. He is verbally abusive and has said horrible things to me. It really sucks on days that I want to enjoy and there are no current stresses. I think I'm having issues with loneliness as well, which I don't usually notice because I'm pretty introverted and comfortable by myself most of the time. But I don't want to socialize cause I had a really toxic friend who I had to break it off with in 2020 which was kind of scarring. My other friends I've known forever and I love them, but they live miles away and I hardly ever see them. My sister moved away and lives with a partner who is verbally abusive toward me which makes me worry he is also abusive towards her but she hasn't said anything so far and seems happy. That change has been mildly soul crushing and feels like a loss. On top of all this, I'm having a really hard time with body dysmorphia and agoraphobia. I want to be able to walk out the door and enjoy the day and just get on with my life. I have these panic attacks or an overwhelming feeling of defeat and I just resign myself to staying inside cause it's too difficult. It's overall just been a hard time.