A little context.
I'm in Alabama where Healthcare and specifically mental Healthcare is some of the most expensive and of the lowest quality. My "doctor" experiences have been 90% "here's $200 help me figure this out doc" 
10 mins later I'm leaving with Prozac or Lexapro and my "anger issues" are just a part of me I need to work on. 

Due to being mentally ill I'm also broke as shit and no longer have the resources to pursue dead-end doctor visits in exchange for my weeks pay. 
Trying explaining this over on r/psychology but those privileged fucks banned me for asking for Insights on the matter. (Not everyone is a PhD student or can endlessly afford Healthcare) 

With that out the way my search as lead me here asking you guys. 

I have extreme emotional instability and periods in my life where I feel I'd "test" more towards bpd and periods in my life where I'd test more for bipolar. In my honest opinion I believe I have both but I'm ignorant what do I know. 

I do know my episodes are much MUCH worse when I'm awoken prematurely or am still groggy from sleepiness. Might sound like just regular grumpiness and maybe it is mixed with my disorder. But 75% of all of my "freak out" have been in a "sleepy" setting. 
I can't seem to find any info on this out there or anyone to talk with about these things. 

This has been a long rant and I feel its more of a message in a bottle at this point but thank you for any advice or kindness you can show me. 

I'm tired of fighting a forever war when I don't even know the enemy.