TW: injury mention (not self-harm)

I sliced the entire layer of skin off my thumb while using a mandolin. I was slicing cucumber at 3am for my lunch.I go to work at 7:30 am. 

Anyway, it was bleeding BAD. My first aid kit is pretty legit though, and I managed to wrap it well enough to stop the bleeding and the pain. I didn’t fret or anything. 

I had to call an uber to go to the emergency room. 30 minute wait. During this time I finish chopping my vegetables and put away the rice I’d made. When I cut my thumb I hadn’t bled on my tools for some reason?

I go to the emergency room. My driver drops me off two blocks away and I don’t feel like correcting him. I take a little stroll at 4am to get myself to the ER. Before I enter I check my insurance app to see what my copay is. $400! I’d stopped bleeding bro, I’m not paying that. 

I decided to go home and sleep. Another thirty minute wait, 20 minute drive. I would wake up and go to urgent care in the morning. I ho to the bathroom and realize it looks like a fucking murder scene. Had I bled that much? Whatever, I would just clean it later.

Flash forward to me at Urgent Care. They take off my wrap and I start gushing blood. The pain is immense. They see bone.  Back to the ER I go!

Honestly, some of this was probably shock, but the time of the day, the decision to leave the ER, and the massive irritation I felt at not slicing the whole cucumber was totally hypomania lmao. I ended up finishing that salad and making some kickass bulgogi too.