Like many people with BPD, I have issues with substance abuse. I abuse drugs when I’m feeling those feelings of emptiness, or usually after a breakup/when I feel abandoned, I do drugs to feel better. Sometimes I don’t have drugs though and that’s when I turn to my psychiatric meds. Instead of taking the recommended amount I’ll take more than I’m supposed to (never enough to put me in the hospital) or I’ll just take it whenever I feel upset instead of when I’m supposed to. Does anyone else do this?