Anyone else? I lost a lot of friends after a bad break up (I had to distance myself from my ex and old group of friends, and during the relationship most of my friendships suffered due to jealousy/neediness on my ex's part) and now I'm just alone. No family in the country I'm in either. Working from home finishing my PhD, currently unpaid as well. 

I know I'd feel better with more friends around, but I'm too much of a bummer to be around right now. The few friends I have left have moved away. Even then I know they'd find me too depressing to be around right now, and I'm too depressed and busy to make new friends (currently in the last few months of my PhD)

It really sucks. There's a lot of bad things happening in my life right now and it all is just a lot to handle on my own. I'm in my 30s and still feel like I'm just floating around while life happens around me.

I just wish I had someone I feel comfortable around to just play video games with sometimes, y'know? Especially with the state of the world currently. It doesn't feel like things are gonna get better, and I just wish I weren't alone right now.