I’m a 18 year old senior in high school. I have struggled with anxiety all throughout high school and it really affects relationships I have with people. Anytime someone asks me to hang out other than my best friend I decline in fear of embarrassing myself and I really just don’t want to do anything with new people but deep down I do. I barely talk to girls because I get so nervous around them in fear of them judging me or embarrassing myself. I pretty much ignore girls and don’t really acknowledge them. This sucks because I really want to be friends with girls. I hate how my brain is like this and I’ve tried so hard to change but I can’t. When I walk in the crowded hallways I feel like everyone is staring at me and judging me but I know there not. I am also very self conscious about my looks and I go to the gym literally everyday and I still feel so ugly. Ah my life sucks:(