The days go by so fast but so slow at the same time it just seems like and endless cycle of sleep wake up eat and then go to bed I can’t be social anymore I used to be the one to get every one together to hangout but now I barely hangout when my friends ask, everybody says their there if I need to talk but there’s nothing to talk about all I feel is pain no one understands me there’s no point to having friends anymore just dealing with myself already feels like a relationship people want to talk to me but I can’t say a word I’m so dead inside I don’t know what to do I don’t think I have a future everyday just seems like a bunch of fake happiness and then it ends like this it’s hard to even see that as happy anymore emotions have no meaning cause I am all of them but it doesn’t matter cause tomorrow I’m gonna be happy for a couple hours and forget about all this and then be sad again fuck this fuck everything
I wish I killed myself when I had less of a problem doing it now I just care too much it seems like my brain just wants to torture itself