My mother doesn't understand how much pain I'm in and yet she still persists in ridiculing me for wanting to be Trans and I can't take it anymore. I have tried to explain things to her but she is too much of a sheep to think like a modern age person. She is a slave to her "old ways" beliefs, and also doesn't understand how difficult it is to live with autism, ADD, ADHD, and OCD but of course she thinks that these disorders are no big deal and that I should just get over my struggles. What a fucking idiot. She ridicules me for making mistakes and I can't fucking breath; I call the suicide hotline just to stay alive, and I just feel anxiety and depression non-stop and I can't take it anymore. I feel like throwing up all the time, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I cut, I have panic attacks, I freak out and break things, I scream at people, I can't feel any positive emotions. Meds won't help, weed won't help, councilors won't help, and i don't have any friends to talk to. If only my mother understood, if only she treated me right and understood my anguish,  I would've gotten to have a good life. Instead I will just give up. Some people weren't meant to be born and I'm one of those people. Its just too much pain. Anyway I'm curious, do any of you feel the way I do?