Hi everyone! My mom has bipolar 1 and I seen how hard she suffers when she hits her depressive and manic episodes. Usually, her episodes accompany delusions and thoughts of persecution that are extremely intense and she’s disconnected from reality. 

I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but in October - early December I believe I experienced something insanely similar to a manic episode. I should probably go to a doctor….. but I basically had thoughts of persecution when I moved to another state so bad that I had to move back in with my family. I felt alone and vulnerable. I didn’t leave my house for over two weeks. Only leaving once to take out the trash. I ate like maybe once every two days. I knew that I was being delusional, which is why I’m not entirely sure if this qualifies as a manic episode. I couldn’t stop my belief that there was someone watching me from the vents, I knew it was crazy and untrue but I couldn’t sleep and everyday I woke up, I felt blessed to be alive that I escaped “death”. However, I knew I wasn’t really being persecuted, it just felt that way. Once I returned with my family, things subsided and I entered a small depressive state. I feel better right now. Without any meds for bipolar. So I don’t think it may be entirely but I’m not sure what’s wrong with me. 

Any support would be greatly appreciated. I am also diagnosed ADHD. Maybe the adderall gave me psychosis but I’m not sure. Thanks again 💞