I'm so tired of dealing with all my feelings and trying to vocalize them to others. No matter how I try to explain to others they don't understand and it's so tiring.

I dont want to hurt my freinds, I just rather be alone because I wont feel this way and I can't hurt anyone else.

I hate when I try to tell people my triggers and they still continue to do those things so I've jusr shut up and I don't want to defend myself because I don't want to make an argument 

But im so scared I'm just being selfish and that I'm a bad person I wish I didn't have to live with this and I felt my feelings like a normal person