I dated her, and after a while I noticed a cold/hot pattern and she told me she's diagnosed with BPD. It didn't sink at first, and she started to share.

She never felt good enough for her parents. 
She self-loathes.
Her fear of abandoned runs so deep.
She slept with many men.
She was raped.
She suffers from post-truma.

She split on me a few times and this was the last. Before the last Itimw  tried to get her into DBT therapy.
The fucking guilt for failing won't leave me. 
My Mom was very critical, hated her-self, suffered from post-truma and this opens all my wounds. 
I can feel her pain so intensely I can't stop crying for days now. I get shivers down my hands.