I hate having hair. I've been this way for years. I cannot keep it looking "decent" when I'm depressed, and as a woman, the standards for women are so unequal. Added to that, the hair salons that I went to as a kid/teen made me feel terrible about myself, socially and physically, so I haven't been able to go to one and instead have been doing it myself for years.


Some of my family always has to comment on how I look like shit, either my hair or acne or because I don't wear makeup, etc. I'm so tired of trying to be like "idc what I look like", because their words do get to me and it makes me wonder if I just spent all my energy &amp; money conforming maybe then I would get love and support from them that I don't have rn, it's tempting, but hardly sustainable for me.