I honestly have no idea what I’m doing anymore. Even right now as I type this I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m lost. Everything feels like a struggle. I feel like I should’ve been someone else. I struggle to find any deep connection with anyone anymore. I keep wishing and hoping that one day I’ll find something, but I never find it. Every day feels like another RNG to start caring about the life I’m wasting away. But I know that it doesn’t stem from me. I’ve never been one to care about myself. I’ve only cared when it comes to others. If I am alone, I have nothing to care about anymore. And I’m too often alone.