I’ve had general panic disorder for a couple years now.  Stemming from the euthanizing of a family pet and the ptsd it apparently caused.

I got a new job just after I was diagnosed.  To be approved for the position I had to submit my prescribed medications.  And they took offense to the Xanax prescription I held at the time.  Silly me said I could stop taking it cause I didn’t really need it anyway.  Boy was I wrong.  Now I can’t take the single medication that works to subside my panic attacks because it would “interfere” with my ability to perform my duties.  Complete horse shit.  The medication they did not take offense too turned me into a literal zombie unable to learn new things or even stay awake.  

So I’ve been taking Xanax without reporting it to work.  I just don’t understand how I or my doctor can have zero say in this.