I feel like I don't know what my body looks like, or what it's supposed to look like, or what I should do about it. I've been struggling with eating disorders since I was about 15, and I've both been underweight and overweight. Right now I'm at a fairly average weight, and I get lots of compliments on my body because of my chest and rear, and I supposed being 'curvy' is popular right now, but I feel like I don't know that that's what I really should look like. If it were up to me, I would be a completely androgynous being, but then I worry about being 'skinny,' since a lot of people don't seem to like skinny, and I would still probably be seen as being feminine -- although I have no desire to be masculine. I don't understand if I'm supposed to be curvy and thick, or if I should be thin. I'm so frustrated. I want to be attractive and I don't want to be attractive. I don't know what to do with my body. I don't know what I want or how I should look. 