I was diagnosed with BPD, like a year ago, but it was never explained, nor were coping mechanisms explained either. I was seeing mental health through the military for a while, and it was actually helping until I wanted to cross train into another career field and was disqualified because I had previously sought out help. Strike 1 for me. Then my lovely new therapist who was switched on me suddenly told me that continuing to see mental health would ruin my career...strike 2. Long story short to the military my diagnosis is now in remission and I’m fine. But I’m not fine. I’m all over the place. It was only tonight I randomly decided to start actually researching BPD because I’ve been having such a hard time coping with life and everything has been escalated. I got back from a mentally/emotionally draining deployment overseas 2 weeks ago and all I want to do is talk to someone who understands and can gently help me sort through things so I can make sense of this and what I’m going through. Im also terrified to be a mental burden on someone, but the constant overstimulation and busy work that is my brain is exhausting and some peace would be nice, you know?