i don't care if anyone reads this. i don't care about anything anymore. matter of fact i hate everything. i hate being depressed and i hate myself but i don't give a fuck about getting better anymore.  i don't care about being happy. i don't care about working or going to school or doing anything. i'm going to take my life once i get the hell out of this shit hole town i'm in. so why the hell should i give a fuck about anything? everyone thinks i'm a dick head nihilist but what they don't realize is that they're the reason i'm like this. all my fuckin life i've cared for people and everyone fuckin used me a threw me out and now i'm empty and i don't care. fuck everyone, fuck everything, fuck me. every day i feel like i'm going crazy and i don't care. i hope i go fuckin crazy so i'm not even able to comprehend how i feel. but who cares. i don't.