I started to have an anxiety attack at about 3pm, which was unusual as I was having a good day, I was hungover and feeling week as I drank too much the night before but I pushed myself to out and get some fresh air. I felt so much better I got my favourite drink and my favourite food, I was doing good. Then as I went to do my weekly food shop I started to really need the toilet, normally that's fine yknow I just wait till I find a toilet but I was panicking so much. I got into the toilet at the supermarket and just started to panic even more I spent about 15 minutes in the cubical silently hyperventilating as I just couldn't get my breath, I felt super bloated super suddenly and really scared. I got out and there was a worker there she asked me if I was okay and I told her I was in the middle of a panicattack.
She offered for me to hang out with her and offered me some water, I said thank you but I needed to find my friend, the sooner I could find my friend we could finish food shopping and go home so I could take my beta blockers as I forgot them at home.
I immediately started panicking when I left the toilet I was in sensory overload everything was too bright all the sounds were painful to my ears and everyone was suddenly taller and making me feel so claustrophobic.
When I did get home I took my meds, more then I would usually take but still in my dosage don't worry. I took a nap thinking it could reset my mental state, I woke up still panicky and have not calmed down since I still feel like I'm struggling to breathe my chest feels really heavy and I just don't know what to do. Normally in this situation I would lean on my friend who lives with me however she is currently at her mums taking a well deserved mental break herself, so I did not want to disturb her. I spoke to my oldest friends and I calmed down a little but my anxiety is still a lot higher then normal and I'm unsure of what to do. I have tried breathing exercises, distracting myself with new TV shows, rewatching my fav TV shows and keeping myself busy with my mobile games but I still can't relax.
I guess what I would like is some words of encouragement, I have a few friends who I know are there for me, but it is late and even then I know they aren't all that comfortable dealing with a super high level of anxiety, small panic attacks they can handle but I know larger issues make them a bit uncomfortable. So if anyone has dealt with an anxiety attack to this scale and has tips on dealing with it by one's self or if anyone could offer any words of encouragement I would be so grateful, even writing all this down has made it a bit easier to breathe.