Just venting. Now i know what it feels like when someone doesn’t invite you and i understand why but seeing the party and how many people were there it’s really heartbreaking to feel so left out. We were friends for a very long time and drifted apart a while ago but we reconnected last year but now i feel like she 100% doesn’t want me to be a part of her life as a friend anymore. We know each other for 10 years and i don’t really have many friends. It’s very sad to think about and it’s the first wedding of a friend ever. I’m really sad but very happy for her. It just feels like shit to know that you’re not important for someone you thought you would be and values our friendship. I don’t know, makes me think about how important it is to stay connected to people and that it means a lot to be a part of such a huge life event. I would invite every person i like, no matter if there wasn’t much contact in the past few years but at the same time i will probably never want to get married. It makes me see things differently in a way. I keep thinking about all the reasons she didn’t invite me and it makes sense but it still feels so… bad and i can’t stop thinking about the negative way she must think about me and the fact that i just simply was left out while so many other people were there. I never thought i would be so bitter about this and she didn’t answer to my congratulations yet. It makes me feel very alone and weird and i take it super personally, i really can’t help it.