i don’t mean just cause she’s dead. i haven’t felt like myself. i have felt so alone despite the people and love around me. she would vouch for me. she would keep her promises. if she says she would do something for me, she’d make it happen. now i feel like others could care less. i feel like all my friends look at me differently. not to mention, i’m at home crying myself to sleep and i have a friend saying i’m barely there for her even tho i check in on her all the time and she doesn’t do the same for me. that’s not even half of what i’m going through.