I feel like I’m trapped and I’m going crazy in my head and I’ve never posted here before but I don’t think anyone else could understand. 
I know I’m in an unhealthy relationship because of my extreme anxiety throughout the whole thing and I’m always worried he’s mad at me but he lets me sit with it and won’t tell me what I did wrong. But i do not want to leave, even a little bit. I’m not strong enough to say I want to break up and hear him just let me do it. My brain falls into pieces just cause he wants alone time sometimes and I know that’s ridiculous and stupid but I’m so scared of being alone and I’m convinced I’m going to ruin it by being fucking crazy. I have literally no control over my emotions and I’m so dependent because I have no clue who I am. And I hate myself for it and it’s a cycle. I just want to sleep for a few weeks