I feel weak and numb, I feel like Harry Potter when the dementors attacked him, like all the happiness was sucked out of my life.

It's so annoying, I can't even say hello to my mates when I'm chatting with them, if they call me I'm silent and they only hear the tapping of my computer or my guitar.

The thing is, I just want to be out there, I want to feel like someone.

I want to be someone to someone, like a friend, a good daughter, someone who makes someone proud, but I can't be that person.

All I am is the fatty of the school, the short fat dork who does nothing right.

I can't even making my parents smile let alone them say the 2 words: "I'm proud."

It's so painful all the time, I feel like no one cares. 

I just wish I could erase myself from existence.

A lot of the time when I try being out there people just frown down at me like I'm a dog trying to be a cat or something.

Is it not normal for someone introverted to try and be more optimistic?

I'm so pessimistic I swear.

Welp, there's that rant/vent, sorry...