 

Im a 28 yr old guy with BPD from a traumatic childhood + a genetic disease. i was outside the store eating and I'm anemic so i always look unwell. these two guys (17 and 21) come up to me and ask me if im ok. i say yeah and they said i look unwell and i said yeah im anemic. anyway they began talking with me and one of the guys said hes a rapper. they said they like chatting with people and arent there to cause any trouble, they were just worried about me because i was eating alone and i looked unwell. they disclosed a bunch of information about themselves and their social media. anyway i told my sister about them and she freaked out saying they were likely bad guys and i cant trust them because ''you can't trust anyone anymore'', and they were grooming me or something to see if im vulnerable and next time they could jump me or something

I find I overshare on impulse because I feel like i need support and validation from people and im lonely 24/7. one of my doctors thinks i have craniocervical instability which is a slow terminal illness and my health has been a downward spiral. if it does turn out to be craniocervical instability i'm dead because they don't do surgery for it in my country and it costs too much everywhere else. but i bottle things up to my family. my irl friends abandoned me years ago. but now im having mood swings and thinking maybe my sister doesnt want me to be happy and also that maybe i should start being anti social and shut myself off from people

im stressed out