Yet I have all the symptoms of schizophrenia. I literally hear people in my head, that are 100 percent real and people have talked to me like a therapist, or just people all over. I know I’m psychic, or robot, or I am what the evil ones say, a psychopath. I can’t portray myself how a normal human would get to, actually at one point i thought people cared, but now I’m literally being told to kill my self but ex friends. And my family still puts up with me, thank God. I literally am persecuted, to the utmost degree, and folks around me think they’re right in doing so!? My god, if only they actually they knew who I really am. I actually do care for people more then they know, but to even begin with that would take some emotional energy…..I’m used as a pawn, I’m frighteningly misunderstood, I do everything I can to be happy and productive (mainly productive because I’m on meth all the time) and there’s actually a study showing schizophrenia on meds and Amphetamines work well possibly for someone! https://www.nature.com/articles/s41386-019-0495-4?fbclid=IwAR318iD27lL3miVjZdXnkDsrAF9i2-CsXf3jy-R0m2ZuPePXocTiwRDHdQE&amp;fs=e&amp;s=cl

However, now that my meds are out I can’t do it like I used to because I’m filled with dopamine. I’m innocent, but I’ve been defiled, exiled, prevailed, and yet I’m just done now. The sick part of it is, I’ll feel better later…..yet this is the furthest thing from Heaven. If I am being watched, or listened to by people, pray I fucking die! Well, back to getting called a psychopath!!!!!!!