~ Crosspost from another sub because I didn’t think about posting here first. ~

 When I was younger, I would never cry. I felt like I didn’t have any feelings, but I probably suppressed them because of my anxiety. I could watch any movie and never cry. I went to some funerals and fake cried as I felt bad for feeling nothing. I always felt numb. I don’t feel like I remember much from that time neither. I was anxious and probably depressed.

Now I’m just so emotional all the time. If I see a march (anything from farmers to trans rights) my eyes water, I feel like breaking down and I’ll have to hold in tears. It’s ridiculous. I think about how people struggle in life and I’m tearing up. If i watch a movie, I often can’t stop myself from crying. Right now, I’m at 40 minutes of the movie Short Term 12 and I’ve cried twice already. I feel fine though. 

I’m happy that I feel so many emotions, because now I feel joy sometimes and sadness some others. It seems much more healthy to me. When I listen to a song I like, I feel happy. I used to think music was useless and stupid because I didn’t like any song. It made me feel nothing and I didn’t see the interest. I felt like everyone was faking it?

Anyway, I guess I’m asking if you can see such a change in emotional levels in 1 or 2 years, or if it might be medication? I think I might have changed (for the worst) when I started taking anxiety medication (Effexor messed me up so bad). I started getting emotional and/or happy a year ago, but it’s getting worst now, and it coincides with when I found better suited medication for me.

Tldr; can you go from having no feelings at all to cry do any reason with age or medication? Or is it a BPD thing?