I have been really depressed the last month to the point of taking time off from work and doing some sort of program. The last two days I thought I finally broke out of it; deep cleaned my room and apartment, made all my appointments for things I have been putting off, started to work out again. Today I felt hopeful, then later at work I started to think about what religions (I never was religious in my life) I should look into to believe in something or getting into witchcraft to manifest what I want in my life, making a list of tasks for me to do when I get home at 10pm, and having so much energy despite sleeping only for like 4 hours last night. Texting my guy friends to see if they want to link up. And all these big projects and ideas I should start. I started to feel it in my eyes which is here I usually start feeling it first. 

I just know that I’m gonna be crashing soon so I’m riding on the high right now.