Maybe i was a bad person to begin with and was too naive to see my actions, i don’t even know anymore. From what i remember, before i became depressed, everyone would tell me how sweet i was and i would find joy in such the smallest things. Now i hate everyone and everything. I used to love spending time with my family, but now whenever they’re around, i completely isolate myself. I self sabotage every relationship i get in, it’s so impossible for me to feel love for someone in that way, all i find is their faults. It all makes sense though, how the hell am i supposed to love someone else when i literally hate myself? I hate going out because i can’t help but compare myself to others. Everyone is prettier then me, their body looks better, their clothes look better, etc. I can’t even pray anymore, my faith is so down the drain…and on top of that, school starts in 10 days and i don’t know if i can mentally handle it. I’m on academic probation because my gpa doesn’t meet requirements and now that’s added stress. I’m so jealous of people who are genuinely happy, people who are in relationships, girls who aren’t fucking skinny like me. I don’t know. I just hate myself but i’m too embarrassed to admit i have a problem