My anxiousness has been a part of my life for years now. I have very few friends around me. I expect a lot from them and feel sad when things don't work. Ofcourse I know that everything cannot happen according to my desire. But that feeling of ignorance is always triggered. Because of this over the years I've reduced a lot people around me.

For instance I used to speak to few people on call frequently. Later I called them couple of times and they didn't pick up the phone. No one bothered to even call back or even text. So my mind decides that they don't care about me and I stop talking to them. Few months they call me because they have some work and I still have that ignored feeling on back of my mind. That fear of loosing people always makes me sad.