I was always a pretty anxious kid but recently, in the past year or so, my anxiety has really sky rocketed. 

I get anxious over absolutely nothing, it takes me forever to calm down and now the breathing exercises I used to rely on dont work anymore. Before I used to have anxiety around people and public speaking but now it’s in every aspect of my life. From not being able to sleep bc I’m to busy crying about how everyone I love is gonna die to feeling sick to my stomach over mundane tasks. I get really bad physical symptoms too like hot flashes, cold sweats, a very upset stomach and man I just cannot breathe.

Recently my health anxiety has me so paranoid. I’m in a country that’s not mine, already making me anxious and on top of that I’ve gotten sick. I know i shouldn’t search symptoms on google but I’m just so freaked out, I don’t know what’s wrong  with me and i feel like I’m overthinking it and making up symptoms now. Sometimes I’m so convinced I’m gonna die and the doctors here don’t do proper check ups, just put a drip in you and send you along. I freak out even more thinking
 bad things bc if i think it, it’s more likely to come true.

I feel like I’m overreacting but my brain keeps saying, what if I’m not. I don’t know if this post even makes sense, I’m flying back home in 12 days and I just wanna make it home.