For starters: I have not been diagnosed with any mental health disorders. I am 13 and I feel anxious and depressed all the time.

I feel irrationally anxious about all sorts of things. I'm worried when I go to school because I'm constantly afraid that I forgot homework, or that I'm gonna be asked a question I don't know and be humiliated, or just generally feel like an idiot. I get anxious talking to my friends. I am worried even about things I usually enjoy, like clubs and sports, because I don't feel like doing anything anymore and I think people are all looking at me wondering what's wrong with me. I'm scared to go home most days because I just want to go to sleep but my online friends will be mad if I'm never around. I'm scared to go to sleep because I don't want to deal with the next day, so I stay up.

I think I have anxiety issues. I feel terrible all the time, but I don't know what to do from here. Sometimes I have what feels like a panic attack, but I'm not really sure what those feel like. There's always a shadow looming over me, whispering that everything's gonna go wrong.

What do I do? I'm scared to tell my friends, or my parents or anyone at all about this stuff. To be honest, I'm feeling anxious making this post right now. Should I try to get medical help? I just need some advice..