I have such bad money anxiety. I shouldn't, I know I shouldn't. I make good money and can support myself while saving a lot because I don't have a social life. But spending even $10 to eat out makes me feel like I'm wasting money. I think what if I have a health emergency and need that money.  I can't stop the thoughts.

Recently I purchased a new phone because the phone I was using (Galaxy S7 if anyone cares) is almost 5 years old and starting to really have issues. I know I'm in need of a new phone and its about time I get one but my anxiety keeps telling me to take it back (I have a week left to return it). Maybe I should. I'm not tech smart, I don't understand hardware, and just try to go off reviews, which I did. But I keep seeming to find faults in this new phone (Pixel 4a again if anyone cares) but I can't tell if they are actually faults with the phone or me overreacting. The main fault seems to be I feel like I'm missing notifications. Are they not going off? What if an emergency happens and the notifications doesn't come through? These thoughts started when I saw a comment on YouTube of someone saying the camera goes out and you have to go through the warranty process to maybe have it fixed. I though "oh that would suck maybe I shouldn't chance it" and the thoughts have now snowballed downhill. 

I switch which brand of phone it is maybe that's the issue. The worst part is I keep thinking maybe I should get the more expensive phone from the same brand as my old phone (Galaxy S21 or S20 FE). But then my anxiety tells me no because its twice the price of the one I picked up and would it be worth it, what if it has the same issues or similar issues? I don't need something high tech to game on. I need a basic reliable phone (ideally to last another 3+ years) that takes calls, texts, okay photos, and allows me to use social media when I'm not at my PC. Is twice the price worth it? Replacing a $350 is better then a $700 phone. But is the $700 made better, will it hold up longer? I can't turn these thoughts off.

I've gotten such bad anxiety when I've research phones. I fell judged when I go to try out phones and feel pressured when I asked for help. It's always buy the latest and greatest from the staff. I've spent the past 2 month researching phones and having this anxiety about them. I have hard time sleeping, have no appetite, I've had to take time off work because I can't function and just obsessively think about this phone. I even joined Reddit just so I could ask other people if the issues with the phone is normal but have gotten no responses. If I return it I start all over with another phone testing, trying, anxiety telling me to return it. 

I don't know what to do. I want to stop these types of thoughts. The what if this happens, or what if that happens. I have no control over the future there's no telling what can happen. Maybe it will all be fine. Maybe it will break and it will be an inconvenience and I'll be angry that the money spent was wasted. I want to go to therapy but the though of therapy leads to me spending money and the anxiety of "what if it doesn't work I waisted all that money". I don't even know how to find someone in my area that would be good for me. I just feel so lost and alone.