I've emailed a bunch of them so far and even tried calling 2. Only one got back to me and though his prices are kinda high for me, I figured I could stretch out sessions. Now he left a message and I've been waiting for him to call back again all day as I only get his VM.

I know it's just... my fucked up brain... but I'm sitting here like "is something wrong with me?" I've reached out to almost all the people in my price range and who do deal with stuff I'm looking to tackle, even if it's not their specialty. I feel like I'm running out of options of people I can meet in person and it's just making me feel like I'm stuck with a therapist I'm not really fond of right now. :s