For background: I had a biopsy last year and was diagnosed precancerous stage 1 (please note the "pre", I'm not cancerous at this time).

I didn't want to go for several reasons but I went because it would have devastated my husband to go through life not knowing. I have a serious phobia of anyone intentionally cutting into me for *any* medical reason. They didn't use anesthetic, which my doctor had known but didn't warn me, so I felt everything.

I have a second biopsy scheduled for Monday at a different place that will use anesthetic, but I feel like it's a waste of my time and I do not want to be cut again, even if I don't feel it. Especially after my experience last time. I did some Googling and found that the condition I have is known to develop into cancer over the course of years, so I don't see the point and I don't want to put myself through this.