I have BPD and gender Dysphoria. And it's not a fun experience. In the first part, I tend to agressively shave my face every day. I can't live without my gender gears or else no one should even interact with me. And naming my deadname makes me react very aggressively. And I can't wear man's clothing whatsoever. It was so bad at some point that my mom accused of going to fast in my transition. Ppl who misgenders me regrets ever interacting with me. I've even tried to commit to a DIY bottom surgery. (Good thing I talked about it before doing it, cuz I would have been dead.) I bleed alot from shaving impulsively which ends up making me have many lil scars.