Had my psychiatrist appointment the other day - as well as diagnosing Social Anxiety Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder Traits (I think she put off the full diagnosis because of stigma, she talked about not wanting to label someone "so young" (I'm 25) and how it's "complex" etc, but that's another story), she said she'd put me forward for DBT but I wasn't accepted onto the course. She invited me to look at her screen and it said in my notes "To access the service serious self harm must be present and from his notes the patient doesn't have this, so therefore doesn't qualify". May not have been those exact words, but that was the general idea. 
  
So I guess prevention *isn't* better than the cure huh?  
  
So she's discharged me from their services, I'll no longer see a psychiatrist. She's referred me to see a Psychologist and I should be getting more CBT. It completely failed last time, but I'm open to it. Maybe it'll be better with someone new. She also recommended taking a residential 2 day anger management course. Not sure how I feel about that. Being without my partner for 2 days doesn't sound particularly fun :\. I'll still take Quetiapine (25mg once or twice a day) but not sure if that's going to help (been on it 2 weeks so far), and she's also prescribed Propranolol for the social anxiety. I'm still coming off Venlafaxine (was no help). Thinking about possibly asking the doctor for another anti-depressant to try because I still feel shit (tried Citalopram and Venlafaxine so far). Other thing is I feel tired ALL the time despite my blood tests being normal, and the Quetiapine obviously doesn't help with that! Of course with starting another anti-depressant I could potentially get even more tired.... I already don't have the energy to exercise or do much of anything.