The title says it all. I’ve been falling back into hugely disordered eating habits and substance abuse and tonight I just want to dIE. I need to get a therapist but I can’t afford it and am procrastinating finding one anyway. I can’t tell my boyfriend because I feel like a HUGE burden as it is. I just want to slip into a coma or be admitted to inpatient so I don’t have to think about the horrible things weighing on my mind 