So back in October 2019 I had some slurring and a numb like face and it only appeared to come when I had this feeling of impending doom. I got diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder.

The bad thoughts went away but the slurred speech went away but numb lips stayed. Exactly a year later my slurred speech returned in October 2020 and I was told it was still anxiety. With the pandemic going I developed health anxiety. So I kept pushing because I refused to believe this was anxiety

My medication was upped and I was recommended to a therapist and it never helped. As time progressed eating became painful and talking impossible. I was recommended to be checked in because I was in bed all day. The idea was I was depressed. I don't know how it works in other places but in Iowa I had to be seen by an ER Doctor and when I explained everything he told me there was something wrong with my tongue. He said glossitis and it turned out not to be the case. 

Though he was wrong it got me started toward a diagnosis and treatment. It took 7 weeks from that day to meet with a Neurologist who from first glance noticed my eyelids were droopy. He noticed the way I walked was slow and weak. He noticed I couldn't hold my head straight.

He assured me it could be a load of other things besides worst case scenarios like ALS and MS

In the subsequent 2 weeks I did a lot of tests and x rays. Finally I had a diagnosis. Myasthenia Gravis. I'm seeing a doc for treatment plans next tuesday and have been on medicine for a week and when on it I feel strength in my extremities and my talking goes normalish. The Doc did say my tongue and legs would take longer to return to normal because of the atrophy so I'm not expecting a lot for a week of medication.

I have a new lease on life and part of me is scared that I won't trust doctors moving forward. Had my doctor not brushed me off for 8 months we could have caught it sooner.... but they kept telling me it was anxiety.

I feel better both physically and mentally but part of me is still scared