and what they say is really bad.  They wont stop telling me im going to and i know why.  Ive tried everything i can do to rationalize and cope with it but nothing i do works.  I try to remain calm most people dont even know what im going through people say ignore it or dont listen to them but to me its impossible.  I just dont know what to do Im trying not to believe what they say but a part of me is convinced it is real.  Any advice