Long story short, I had an experience last week that echoed my initial traumatic experience that I believe contributed to a lot of my mental health problems. 

Since then, I’m riding HIGH. I have barely slept, I’m running on 10000 miles an hour, I am only eating really unhealthy things at random times of day. I am having obsessive and even ‘exciting’ feelings/thoughts of suicide. Basically, I am spiralling and FAST. I am normally a ‘quiet’ BPD but I know I’ve been acting erratically at work because people keep saying that I’m acting odd and that I look/seem to be drunk.

I don’t know what to do. Please help.