I've been ignoring that I might have depression because I haven't been properly diagnosed. I don't want depression, nobody does. I have been feeling this way for a while now and I can't remember the times when I as happy at all. All my life I thought I was okay and I would never have any issues, but my life has been so hard lately, I don't want to do anything. I have to go somewhere later and I don't feel like I will have a good time, so I don't even think I should go. I have a boyfriend, and I don't want him to see me like this. Im afraid he would think I am a huge problem. Maybe I am a burden to everyone and not just my boyfriend. I have no one to talk to, I am stubborn, so when I don't want anyone to know then I will hide everything with the best of my ability. Im writing on here because I can't hold it in anymore. The bad thoughts are getting more frequent and I want it to stop. I just want to live, but I know deep down I don't. I have nothing to live for. I am a burden to everyone I know. I am replaceable, everyone's lives will go on. Am I just overreacting? does everyone else have these thoughts? Maybe I'm faking this?