Okay so I’m sitting here sipping on alco (again). Not the most glorious thing I know. I’ve had pretty messed up childhood and 2 years ago my first boyfriend left me, my father abandoned me and my best friend dropped me when I was at my lowest. Met a guy that I’m with for around a year. On the beginning while still in talking stage all he would be talking about were his exes and girls he hooked up with or had a thing with, he’d send pic of a girl he was attracted to, he even told me how first girl tasted like. I found it very uncomfortable but I beared with it because my feelings were already deep. At one point I broke down and told him what I thought of it all. Now months later I find it still bugging me and I would bring it up here and there in our conversations. He did apologized but it’s like my heart is still cracked from all of it. I kinda want to cry because it’s silly. And now recently he told me he finds other girls pretty and that just because he’s with me doesn’t mean he’s only straight when seeing me. I know it’s natural to be attracted to other people but damn. I just wasn’t thinking of that till now. Overall in my past experiences there were always other girls. I suppose I’m scared it will end up the same. Sorry I just don’t have anybody to talk to so I thought I’d drop it here. What do you guys think I should do? I’m just very scarred from everything that ever happened.