Long story short I just had to let go of my 4 year old golden retriever day before yesterday after a very sudden (within 2 days) very traumatic sickness hit him. I have two dogs still and I’m terrified they are going to die like this too. It’s all I can think about. Death. Im stuck on it and now my husband just texted me saying my older female just threw up. Throwing up wasn’t one of his sicknesses but im dying. I want to rush her too the vet and get a full panel done. 

But our vets are super booked so the soonest I could get in  for a non emergency is in a month (I checked the app not called) they might make an exception for us seeing how our other one just got so sick but I also have phone and social anxiety and what if I’m just being dumb?? 

Any tips to help me with this??