tired of waking up. tired of making sure they're in a good mood so they dont insult me. tired of constantly failing expectations. tired of having to eat. tired of having to clean their messes every day. tired of being told to kill myself, by my brain and by them. tired of the screaming matches that result in no change between them. tired of the mood swings. tired of being told how good i used to be. tired of being told im only this way to suck pity and attention out of them. tired of being a coward. tired of never being seen as good. tired of jealousy. tired of the hypocrisy. tired of everything.