I’ve been with my boyfriend for like 18 months, we’ve lived together the entire time and I’m extremely dependent upon him. Obviously, that was hugely exasperated during the lockdown when we could only see each other, so the dependency we have upon each other is huge. We’ve just broken up and he’s moved back home, we’ve broken up over his shite mental health. I don’t wanna share too many details cos that’s HIS thing. But I’m really struggling now living alone, knowing what to do with myself, I have that constant like pit in my stomach - the one you get on a rollercoaster just before the drop (closest comparison I could think of lol) - and I feel really lost and empty. My friends are ALRIGHT but they’re not the caring types lol, and the ones that are are nowhere near me. This is pretty tough, I’m struggling with the basics, like even eating? I’m not hungry anymore? I’m worried because I was making quite big progress with my BPD, I’m starting DBT tomorrow and I’m on medication that’s genuinely helping, and now this has really ramped my depression up :( how do any of you cope when going through a breakup with BPD? My normal coping mechanism is IMMEDIATELY dating someone else, my therapist has told me not to do that and I don’t really want to, it’s so unhealthy :(