I'm so sad

I haven't gotten out of bed all day, I haven't eaten, I went to shower and ended up crying in the tub for 30 minutes.

I don't want to talk to my fp, I feel like I need to distance myself to the point where either I'm independent enough to be in a healthy relationship with him, or strong enough to end things. 

For now tho, I'm so depressed and I don't know what to do. I only ever talk to him, and he's the only one who ever cheers me up. I want him to compliment me and hold me and shower me in love, but I'm angry and bitter and I don't want to need him the way that I do.

Are there any coping mechanisms you guys have for me that don't involve giving in and going to my fp for attention?