I won't get into all of the ~~imaginary~~ psychotic "reasons" why I've held out this long, but I'm leveraging my current hypomania to make a positive change and remove one more barrier to socializing. I even scheduled the second shot for right before Christmas which means if I get a bit sick from it, I can quietly hide that fact from my co-workers.

I've never been a very social person and I've been slowly declining in ability to *deal* since my ex left me 4 years ago. Without my FP in my life to show off for, I'm a mess and work is about the only thing that keeps me stable. (She was my FP long before we becoming intimate.) My inability to cope pulls me away from society and anyone in my life that might give a crap about me. It's a vicious cycle and it doesn't take a rocket surgeon to see where this isolation leads.

Anyway, wish me luck!

Mostly posting this for accountability since the two people I'm closest to would NOT be supportive on this decision. Which also has me wondering how borderline they are... One of those people is my mother.