I wish I was just gone at this point. Life just isn't worth this pain. I wish I just wasn't here. I'm just hurting in a way that can't be helped. No one could love me because I get attached and ruin everyone and everything I do. All I want to do is to drop off the face of the Earth. It literally won't hurt anybody. Not a single fucking soul. But, the second I get close, I chicken out. I can't even follow through with it. My former FP hates me because I was too much for them to handle. I just can't do this anymore but I can't even follow through to get out of it. Sorry. This is just too much right now and there's literally no one here for me. not a single person.