I have a tendency to be a hypocondriac which doesnt really pair well with my interest in psychology and to be more specific mental illnesses, every time i discover a mental illness that i can relate to even the slightest its like i suddenly become a person who is suffering from that, it feels so real and i cant control it but eventually it fades. Like when i read turtles all the way down by john green and started researching deeper into OCD (which my sister has so i already researched a bit) i was sure i had OCD, and the evidence was half there as i am often very obssesive in nature but i dont have compulsions. (at least as far as i can tell) but it felt so real, i am generally a germaphobe and with the added hypocondria about OCD i washed my hands 30+ times because it wasnt feeling clean, i also washef my hands with rubbing alcohol once. Its so frustrating because deep down i know it isnt real but i cant help but feel like its real.