it hurts so much because this 29 yr old woman very beautiful swedish blonde randomly added me on a group about BPD on facebook i was nervous but played my cards well, after 5 days of chatting i was in love and even self harmed with a fork knowing we cannot meet, how do i move on for good? this has destroyed my wellbeing, mental health, and everything that reminds me of her makes me tear up, i know i have a problem and need help i am a mentally ill person with OCD and possibly BPD and i want to move on, any advice?