I get such a dreadful ache feeling in my chest whenever I think about having a job. My heart just sinks. I feel like I’m not capable of keeping up with it. It’s very odd to me too because I was a barista for 2-3 years and loved my job, I had no issue. What changed? 
I stopped working there because focusing suddenly just got harder. I couldn’t prepare drinks right, I always forgot shit, couldn’t handle being a cashier either, I’d start panicking and tumbling over my words. I also can’t even count change like my brain hurts when I try to. What freaking happened to me lol - my mind literally feels cloudy. Is it my depression? ADHD? Idk I was never like this I want my old self back :(
Gosh don’t even get me started on school..