I've had multiple attempts before but I've never felt it so intensely. I genuinely don't think I can live on anymore.  I just don't see a way out of all this. Knowing that these symptoms and feelings are going to be lifelong and never-ending is so fucking daunting and because of BPD my grades have slipped at law school. If you don't know; grades and experiences are EVERYTHING for a law student and without grades you can't apply for internships. I'm going to graduate next year with a shit gpa and I'm never going to get a job as a lawyer, nobody is going to want me and I don't deserve to even fucking live or love. I just don't want to feel like this anymore