I'm terrified to but I think I'm going to do it. I mean even if I'm not ready to give it up it's not like she can force me to. And I absolutely should put it out there to talk about. Just talking about it would probably be helpful even if I don't quit right away.

This is the only issue I've been this nervous to talk about. Talking about literally anything else seems easier. No one knows about this. But I want to start by telling my therapist.