Hi everyone.
So to make a long story short : my male best friend and I have been sleeping together on and off for a year. We’re extremely close (like always together, I sleep over all the time etc). 
Recently I had a flirt with a guy and following that my best friend grew more intense towards me : more romantic... for a few weeks it felt like we were a couple altho neither of us want that (I know that its an illusion created by my brain cause ultimately we wouldn’t work as a couple) and he is just a bit anti-couple. 
But these past days he’s gone back to being just friendly (well... he came to dinner with me and my parents last night and then I slept over at his place).
I just got home today and I’m spiraling. Like he doesn’t desire me anymore, I’m just a depressive dead weight, I’m probably getting on his nerves and he’s probably tired of me... he wanted me to join for a run with his friends but I had other things to do so I left and now Im just in this weird state : I feel empty and worthless...
Please it me it shall pass :(