I can't do this anymore. There's no point to me being alive. No one truly knows me, loves me, or cares what happens to me.

All I wanted in this life is a chance to love someone and be loved and needed by them. I just wanted to make someone else's life happier.

It doesn't matter what I do. It doesn't matter how good I am or can be. I'm not supposed to be happy. I'm not allowed. I'm supposed to be here to witness the one and only thing I want in life slip away and never remain.

I'm just here to toil and suffer and to be reminded of what no one will ever feel for me. Trapped and alone.

Fuck this shit. I just need to get my fucking nerve back.