i’ve quit jobs impulsively before, out of anger and being unwilling to experience the rage that the job brings me any longer for whatever reason. 

i am grateful to still have a job while many others don’t, but working in food service and being considered “essential” while being treated like shit by customers, coworkers and corporate is taking a big toll on me and i can’t handle it. i know this anger and frustration is justified to an extent but not to the degree at which i’m experiencing it. 

i was offered a new job right as we went into quarantine and i wasn’t able to take it. the job i really want won’t be hiring for a while, and since i need access to some facilities at my university that won’t be open for a long time in order to take the classes i need to graduate, i feel like i’m stuck here forever.

i really just don’t know what to do because i feel myself becoming increasingly angry at my job. the location i work at was actually just shut down and i was transferred to location across town that has terrible management and is absolutely disgusting (which heavily triggers my ocd.) 

i need some sort of insight as to what i can do because i know my bpd is blowing things out of proportion, but i also know my situation actually is terrible! at 9.75/hr it’s hard to remain positive and grateful, especially when working for a company that doesn’t care about  it’s employees well being and with guests blatantly refusing to partake in preventative measures. 

i know i’d be going from a bad situation socially/health wise to a bad situation economically. but i feel powerless to stop myself from doing this because every day i go back in to work i feel myself closer to just blowing up then and there.