So I wasn't really sure if I should post this here. I've been struggling with my BPD a lot for the last few months and I couldn't seem to get my head in the right place... then just today everything sort of clicked and I just typed this all out to remind myself of the thoughts and ideas I had about who I want to be, so that I can re-read them whenever I feel down or disliking who I am.

Anyways, I figured on the off chance that these words are beneficial to even a single person that reads them, I decided to go ahead and post them. Hopefully they're as helpful to you as they are to me.

IT DOESN'T MATTER. How you feel, what you think. All that matters is what you do. Do whatever you want. Stop living life trying to please everyone else. Please yourself. Be happy. The people that really matter in your life will see how brightly you shine, and flock to you. Everyone that runs away doesn't belong in your light.

Be who you want to be, not who you are.

Just because you're hurting inside doesn't mean you need to show it. If you do show it, don't be ashamed.

Take what you want. It's ok to be selfish -- everyone else is.

You literally only get once chance at life. Stop wasting your only chance.

Every moment is one you'll never have again. Cherish them all, the good and the bad. Everything you feel is just affirming you're alive. There is no such thing as a good feeling or a bad feeling. Feelings simply are. We're the one that assigns value to them. You can enjoy all of them, even the bad ones sometimes.

It's ok to feel hurt because that means you've loved and lost.

Stop accepting everything you're given. You don't have to accept anything you don't want out of life. Even if it hurts yourself, or others, you can decide what you want out of life.

Decide what you want and take it. Stop asking for permission. It's easier to ask for forgiveness than it is to ask for permission.

The people in your life that are willing to forgive your mistakes are the ones that matter.

People that leave your life are worse off for no longer knowing you.

Just because someone leaves, doesn't mean you have to just let them walk away. Give them hell. If they're leaving your life anyways you might as well make them remember you.

Nothing you do in life really matters so you might as well make an impact on whatever or whoever you land on.

Enjoy everything you do. Seriously, you enjoy cutting yourself and that's pretty fucked up. You can find joy in anything if you put your mind to it.

Everything is important but nothing is important. Just do what you want. It wont matter to you after you're gone.

If you're going to kill yourself anyways you might as well live a little first.

STOP FUCKING SAYING SORRY YOU PIECE OF SHIT. SORRY NO LONGER EXISTS IN YOUR VOCABULARY. YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE SORRY FOR ANYTHING.

Money is not happiness. Success is not happiness. There are people with far more money and success than you that are more miserable than you.

Happiness is a choice, not something that just happens to you.

Appreciate what you have. Don't mourn for what you don't have.

It doesn't matter how you spend your time as long as you enjoy it.

Don't let other people tell you how you should be living your life. It's you life. Live it (or end it) however you want to. Happy, sad, miserable, depressed, cutting yourself, it doesn't matter. Everyone else has their own lives and can decide what to do with their lives. They don't get to tell you want to do with yours.

If you want to find a great career and make lots of money, do. If you're content to never do that, then don't. 

The only life not worth living is one filled with regret.

Stop letting other people make your decisions for you. No one else knows what's best for you like you do. If you don't care either way, then choose one at random and if you truly didn't care either way, the outcome wont have mattered. The important part is CHOOSE.

Don't be a passive participant in your own life.

You experience emotions a lot more intensely than other people. Most people wont understand that. It's ok. Enjoy the intensity of how you feel. Most other people will never feel anything as much as you do and that is seriously their loss. 

There are no bad feelings or experiences. Everything, even displeasurable sensations (like dirty hands) can be enjoyed with the right mindset.

Nothing is permanent. Everything is temporary. Enjoy what you have before it is gone.

Do everything exceptionally. Exceptionally bad, exceptionally good, exceptionally average. It doesn't matter. The only 'bad' when it comes to doing is not doing.

There's an awful lot of beauty in this world. Enjoy it. Even in the littlest things, like a simple tree, there is something to be appreciated. Experience everything with a sense of awe and wonder.

Stop doing so much nothing. It's your life and you are literally wasting it one second at a time. DO SOMETHING!

Apathy towards everything makes life not worth living. Care! If you care about something, don't let it go. If you lose it anyways it's ok to mourn the loss.

Say what you mean.

Change is hard but necessary sometimes. Don't reject it. Embrace it. Grow with it. Always be the best you you can be. You can always be better.

You can't control how other people are going to perceive you. All you can do is try to be perceived in a way that pleases you the most.

If it pleases you to make other people happy, then do, but being happy with yourself is far more important.