Yuppers, this one is quite the doozy. 

So I found out my fp who is my boyfriend has been keeping up a relationship with his ex. Over text only saying how much they love and miss each other. 

I’m heartbroken and I’ve had a few break downs and full on shut downs after finding out. I almost ended it but I couldn’t and now I’m sick because I no longer have any idea what our future looks like or if we even have one.

But...

I’ve actually done worse things so I have no idea why I’m freaking out. When we first started dating I had a similar relationship with my ex and we would talk about how we’d be together one day again. And when I had a professional issue I ended up calling him for advice and not my bf. Also around Christmas we sent pictures back and forth on Snapchat and masturbated together over the phone. 

That’s mostly in the past now and we hardly talk. 

But one of my coworkers had a crush on me and in the past week or so he’s smacked my ass and kissed my hand (I was standing on a ledge and gave him my hand to help me down and he did and also kissed it). 

So I have done and am actively doing worse things than my bf is but here I am unable to eat or sleep because of what my bf is doing. 

What an absolute mess I’ve made.