in my relationship, a lot of the times i get upset and go mute, well on the otherhand, my partner is trying to get me to communicate, and they get upset that i dont. everytime we argue or are upset at eachother. i cant help but want to litterally killl myself or want to hurt myself. i feel it racing through my veins like i have to. or i get upset easily with them. and it makes me feel so much worse and i want to stop it all but i cant. the voices in my head are just so loud and i want to stop but i cant. i want to just hit myself in the head or hit something a
lot of the time because i get so mad at myself. and i feel so guilty.