I trauma bonded with her and just want to feel the high again but over time I became mean to her over the abuse and she will not talk to me anymore. I want to be drip-fed by her so bad!!! I crave the high so much even if it hurt me. Whenever she even talked to me it started feeling so fucking good but I knew it was hurting me. I can’t stop obsessing over her even though she is demeaning me now. Am I a bad person?