I'll start by saying I have gone through years of therapy since childhood. I have been diagnosed with dysthimia, GAD, Bipolar, severe social anxiety and EDNOS (purging/starving myself).

I was doing ok. Really. I had been pretty stable for years. 

Recently everything has fallen apart. I married an emotionally abusive man and am now in the middle of a divorce. I have my own child and just had my third miscarriage and my anxiety is just out of control.

This wasn't even the first abusive relationship I've been in but it was okay until my soon to be ex wrecked me financially and now can't cover most things.

I have gone back to crying at the grocery store ( which took years of therapy to get over with a CBRS worker). I've lost jobs because of my social anxiety and am so worried that this one isn't far behind.

I have also recently had the flu and between the vomiting and stress (and a recent Dr. visit) it has kicked my eating disorder right back up.

I should be on medication but I can't see a psychiatrist to get anything refilled or pay for it right this second. 

I'm very behind on my work inservice and can't even get to my car before crying. I have so much paperwork to do and everything just seems insurmountable.

How am I supposed to fix this by myself? I can't even sleep let alone function as an adult. My coping skills aren't even working.

I guess I'm just looking for advice. Sorry if this is a complete mess.
