I’m in my second year of college and getting by somehow and I already feel like I’m not made for the adult life , it’s so overwhelming, so much to do and with my mental health I sometimes feel like my heart will stop beating and I can’t breathe. My parents probably already see me as a failure nothing I ever do is good enough, on hearing this it’s always the cliché statement “ live for yourself “ but how do i live for myself when I don’t even have the energy to live. It feels like I’ve wasted all 20 years of my life and the worst part is knowing I’ll be feeling the same till the end of time. When I was in grade 12 I scored 96% and that’s the only time my parents were happy, all my life feels like I’ve to keep proving to them that I’m worth your love and respect.