I’m so fucking tired and over everything, myself included. I just refilled my benzodiazepine medication and am debating taking all 15 pills at once because I  can’t deal with today and just want a rest. If I could spend my life sedated on benzos I happily would. I wanna do it on my lunch break because I’m tired of work too. I’m 23 and already see the end. I have nothing to look forward to in my future so I may as well enjoy my present, even if it is spaced out and not mentally present. Does anyone else feel this way?