so last year my FP ignored me for about 7-8 months. when we spoke again i asked if he had been in a relationship during that time - he told me 'no'. today i find out he had been. i keep finding out new things i never knew about this person and i just feel like i was just something to pass the time. he throws me away whenever a girl comes into his life while claiming to like me "a fucking lot". i just don't get it. i stupidly broke NC to tell him i hope he's well today and now i just feel like a complete failure and i've been crying and feel like throwing up. i'm just so stupid. i trusted him so much and he'd always tell me to just trust him. ugh.