Every time my fp asks me for something my immediate response is a yes even though i don’t want it to be. Sometimes i feel like my fp is aware of this phenomenon but they rarely ever stop. They told me all these personal things and said that they love me but at the time i didn’t respond to that like i wanted to because i was afraid, so a week later i confessed to them that i actually like them and they told me they were joking about everything they said. It hurts so much i can’t stop thinking about them every second of the day but they won’t even talk to me now i feel like i’ve been abandoned and idk what to do i feel so lost the only thing i can think about is killing myself i haven’t been doing anything productive at all i’m alive but i feel so dead