Basically, I used to be in an online group of writers for almost three years until I was kicked out by the leader of the group because we had a fight. To keep a long story short, it was a really toxic environment and me and my two friends (one got kicked for being associated with me, the other one chose to leave) are glad we managed to get out of there.

I still miss the people there though. We always joked and everything, I could tell them anything.

Now? I feel isolated from every single person around me. Sure, I've found a new group that makes me feel safe, but I've known these people for like a month and don't want to seem weird by suddenly dumping everything onto them. On the other hand, I don't want to dump everything onto my two friends from the previous group either. At this point, it feels like I'm not valuing the people I currently have around me because I have so many people to talk to, so many people who seem to enjoy my company, yet I can't help but feel...isolated. I'm afraid of telling anyone because I don't want to seem like I don't appreciate them.

All I have is music and my dying creativity. I'm scared of it being that way forever.