Okay so this sounds really pathetic because I know I shouldn’t be this wrecked over this and shouldn’t need to “cope” over someone not texting me but I’m just so upset. 

For the past 3 days my conversations with a very close friend of mine have essentially been me texting her, her leaving me on read, me texting her more to get her attention, and then her responding with one word and leaving me on read again. 

It’s been giving me so much anxiety. I don’t know what I did or what changed because before then it seemed like things were fine. Its also just not typical for her. She doesn’t always respond immediately but she never just reads my message and barely responds. I want her to text back so badly, even if it’s to say that she hates me, because at least then I’d know for sure instead of letting my brain jump to all the potential conclusions. I know that she could be busy, or maybe just has some shit going on, but I wish she’d tell me if that was the case. I deleted the conversation from my screen bc looking at it made me more anxious and angry and that helped a bit but I still feel like my whole day is ruined. I can feel myself on the verge of spiraling and I don’t know what to do. 

I’m so sad and so angry about it and I feel like my brain and body are blowing up. Does anyone have advice on how to cope with this and how to resist the urge to just go nuclear and send them like 20 messages?