• i’m 18 and work full time for now as i’m taking online school (high school).
• my anxiety has been getting so bad in the last couple of months. recently my intrusive thoughts have been worse, they get bad at night. i think about how my parents and family will pass one day (this is a thought i’ve dealt with before i don’t know why it’s back and hard to deal with again).
       - i have other intrusive thoughts about how scary the future will be. i am so scared of the government (even more so recently because of covid). i am always so scared and feel like something bad is going to happen (apocalypse type stuff) and i am also afraid of AI taking over the world (LMAO i know). these sound more silly when i type them out but they’re so real in my head.
        - my girlfriend is getting her covid vaccine tomorrow, and it makes me a little bit uneasy.
• super stressed out about having to go to college soon and picking a career to make steady money. i want to be able to financially support my parents one day, they’ve always worked so hard for me and they were never as privileged as i am and i feel like i have to do right by them.
      - i’m terrified over the economy and inflation? i haven’t even looked into it myself because i’m so scared i’ll find something to make myself more scared LOL. i’ve just seen people make comments about this on social media. i feel like i have to make money and learn to invest it before it’s too late. 
• not sure if drug history matters at all, but i’ve ingested thc on and off since i was about 14, and lsd in small doses a few times less than a year ago but not recently. i really hope i didn’t fuck my brain up.
• does anyone have any advice as to how to get past this? or even some info about my concerns that will make me feel better lol. i feel like i’m going insane. i just want to feel normal again. i want to be able to enjoy my life again, i should be happy! i have an amazing girlfriend and loving parents. i just don’t want to burden anyone with my problems. especially my parents, i talk to my girlfriend about it sometimes but she still doesn’t know or understand the half of it. please help.