Getting married.

Having 2 kids.

I wish I could turn back time and stayed single and never had children.

I wish I was independent and could do whatever I wanted at any time I wanted.

Now i feel my only way out is suicide. I fantasise about it every day. Every waking minute all I dream of is mustering the courage to get past the initial pain of slicing my arms deep to the veins so I can bleed out in minutes and just die.