I rarely had any friends growing up due to… I don’t really know why. I just blamed it on my autism.

Regardless, I’m now in my freshman year of college and I’ve found that no matter how many friends I have, I still feel this pit of loneliness. I don’t know why.

I have true friends. I’m supposed to be happy, and yet, I still feel that hole in myself and my heart. Like I’m always alone, that I’m laughing alone with a bunch of shadows. I feel like I’m the only person in a room.

Does anyone else relate to this experience?