Hi, I'm new here, but I need somewhere to put this.
Tldr: I didn't get accepted OR rejected and I'm going to vomit.
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The sheer amount of stress and anxiety I have been dealing with surrounding a certain college application has been so bad. I applied to my dream school surpassing every academic nessecity and giving letters of recommendation and supplemental materials galore, but despite my high hopes I keep finding myself having panic attacks every time I even think about getting that letter of rejection, getting that little nudge in my email saying you have let everyone down who believed in you. I just got an email about my decision and according to the school they are waiting to decide and need to further talk to be about my financials. They say that all the effort I went through to stand out and be a star applicant was noticed, but  my  family  makes  too  much  money. Despite one parent providing with $40,000 and being homeless twice, not college support from my parents, we make too much for acceptance. On the bright side I get to plead my case and move further rather than a flat out rejection. One the other hand, well, my dad getting a stimulus check in the mail made the FAFSA fuck everything up in my application. 
Hell, last night i had a panic attack thinking about how awful of a student I am, but I don't even know if this makes any of that feel better.