I have been feeling depressed and anxious for the past month or so. It's been terrible and cause is that I am 34 with no friends and haven't had a job in 10 years and failed university twice. So I need to get on with my life or I will be homeless sleeping on the streets. 

Because of the anxiety and depression this thinking/worrying got me, I managed to lose weight, by new clothes and work on my CV so I was fruitful in that sense. 

But the feeling just wont go away, so anxious and depressed. I am afraid if I take the meds, and depression/anxiety calm down, I go back to my old lazy self playing video games and not doing anything.