I have considered breaking up. But I really cant afford to. If this doesnt work out Ill be homeless until I figure things out as I dont know anybody in the state I live in. My family has a history of not helping me I was homeless before with no help. And I dont have any friends that dont have familys and are in no position to offer me any help. I have pointed this out. She always says she will stop. Then she throws it in my face, calls me a cry baby and all kinds of names. I get so mad but I am not the type of person to sink to her level. But I dont know how to save myself. I am exhausted of this. She was my solitude and escape from my depression and the reason I had the energy to keep up with my daily tasks, however now she is the cause of my depression and she constantly has me stressed to the point I cannot even relax to watch a tv show. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again I am so fucking tired of this constant battle. I do not want to keep swimming anymore shit.