i don't know what i'm feeling but it's... not normal for me??? it's positive don't get me wrong but like??

i had an FP for the past few months-- they aren't my FP anymore; or so i thought??? i don't know how to describe this feeling. like, i don't feel the constant need for validation/attention from them anymore. like it's still nice &amp; i love when they give me it, but i don't feel like i need it, especially not 24/7. i don't feel like i need to text them 50 times per minute &amp; i don't feel complete dread if they take longer than an hour to respond anymore.

but i don't hate them??? which is the weird part for me. i've hated literally all of my FPs after they stopped being my FP. i still feel very positive about them. that's why i'm tripped up and can't really figure out whether or not they're my FP still. i guess they aren't since they don't feel like a **necessity** anymore which is like,,, how i feel about whoever ends up being my FP.

am i just maturing? am i just getting better? i don't know lol. either way this is positive and i'm really happy about this change. not only do i not hate my former FP, i'm still friends with them??? unprecendented as hell for me.