I get mad angsty over getting pregnant for no good reason. Last time I had sex was AT LEAST 7 months ago, and I have gotten a (negative) test a couple months back to soothe this fear, but it's relentless. 

I'll be making a doctors appointment soon because my period hasn't come twice in a row now. Its likely that its caused by stress and weight fluctuation, because this happened to me back in my first year of university. 

It's gotten to the point of getting adrenaline surges when I get full from eating (which is just epic) and late at night it keeps me from falling asleep. It's even popped up in my dreams.
I'm just absolutely terrified of harboring a living thing in my body, of having to get rid of it, and mostly, of having to carry it, and be responsible for a life on earth whether I raise it or not.

I'm aware it's all irrational as fuck, but this fear gets me jittery with dread and I don't know what to do about it.