everything feels to omuch  
today i binged like there is no tomorrow (hopefully) on probably 10000 kcal 

i skipped the gym  
i havent studied for my final exam on wednesday because i i couldnt focus due to the guilt from bingeing 

i feel fat as fuck

my narcissistic mother is mad at me

my sister is useless as shit 

i dont want to burden my friends 

but then im an incoming sophomore in college

the boy im talking to  has probably already realized the bigass piece of shit that i am and so is now ghosting me

my booty call isnt answering which idk is probably an okay thing since i feel like shit with my body lol 

i really love the program im in altho orgchem is hard as shit rn but i want to finish my program and be an amazing professional in my field 

but i cant im so fucked up 

wow typing this made me further realize that i really do want to die