i don’t know what’s wrong with me but recently at night i have been having some really scary thoughts. It’s currently 1 am and out of nowhere i was convinced that i was forgetting everything i had ever experienced and that i was about to forget where i was. my thoughts have become really loud and almost like i can hear them out loud. just the other day i had a small pain in my heart and i had a random shock of thought that i was going to die, i genuinely  thought i was going to die for a moment. i also have very extreme depersonalisation, when i’m laying down in my bed i feel like the only real person and that everything around me just seems like a dream. I don’t know where i’m going with this i guess i’m just ranting on.