okay, this could belong to the perspective part as well but here’s the story: (ps. i’m 18/f, romantic interest is 18/m) i would like some input!! (sorry it’s so long!)

2020 has been a rollercoaster for my romantic relationships. i’ve talked 4+ men, and they all ended up being shit. i finally found a guy who’s outrageously nice, attractive, caring, all in all an amazing guy. i really like him, and i believe he feels the same about me. 

so here’s the problem: i get mad at the smallest things. i’m not sure if i’m overreacting or if it’s something to get upset about. we have been talking for just over a month, and i believe we both have made it clear that we are only talking to each other. no other romantic interests. a couple weeks ago i had asked him if he was still speaking to his ex girlfriend (they had just ended their 2+ year relationship a couple months ago). he responded that he hardly talks to her. i was content with this. i have severe trust issues stemming from my first love cheating and lying to me every chance he got. i was content with his answer, and we proceeded with our relationship. then, a couple days ago he was dropping me off and his ex snap chatted him. he responded. i was confused, why would he speak to her, right in front of me? (also if you are unaware, on snapchat there is a function that the person you talk to the most gets an emoji next to their name, so you would think that because we chat allll day every single day that we would have that emoji. we don’t. so who is he talking to more than me ??? no idea!!). i confronted him about it, he told me that he was concerned to not talk to her because she’s crazy and he thinks that she might get him in legal trouble due to the fact that she is underage still. previously he had told me that he would sleep over at my house since my parents would be out of town. he later told me that he had agreed to stay at his friends house because they were have a “boys weekend” because he hadn’t been spending much time with them because of me. i left his car very upset. proceeded to get black out drunk alone in my house.

next: he told me that he would spend the whole next day with me because he knew it sucked that he couldn’t hang out with me that night. i woke up fairly early to get ready, and learned that by “all day” he meant after 4pm. (i have no friends, my father took my car, i don’t see anyone but him. i’m currently at the end of medical leave so i sit at home all day) this kind of upset me a little bit and when i suggested we hang out before 4 he said he wanted to spend more time with his friends and basically to suck it up. he didn’t mean it to be rude or anything. he picks me up, we drive around for a couple hours and his friend calls him and asks for a ride home from work. he says yes, and decides it’s time to drop me off. i get mad about it, acted out a little bit, he felt bad and told me he would pick me up later. due to dumb complications with his friends, he could leave. didn’t end up hanging out longer. didn’t end up hanging out the next day either. he gets upset / stressed when i voice that i’m upset with something he does. 

i’m not sure what to do about it. should i just shut up and be quiet, try to ignore it? or is this something i should speak up about?