So I go between hypomanic and being super depressed all the time and it’s VERY noticeable at work. Or at-least I feel like it is. Like I go from being super talkative, smiling, laughing, joking and over all no filter so annoying (I hate my personality when I’m like that), to then barely talking or smiling and just getting through the day looking -and sounding miserable. I just fucking hate myself so much and then go home and overthink how I acted and hate myself but I literally don’t know how to stop it? Also in full sincerity I don’t know who I am or what my personality is because when I’m depressed I’m introverted and when I’m manic or hypomanic I’m extroverted and SO FUCKING ANNOYING I just hate myself so much and wish I knew who I am.