I'm too messed up to write my whole story, but I just want it to stop, I'm so sick of it all. I hate myself I hate my life and I hate feeling this way b/c Ik my problems are a fucking drop in the bucket so I just feel selfish for wanting to die over seemingly trivial fucking shit but I can't help myself 

this is the closest I can do to reach out I just have a mental block when I think about calling a doctor or seeking therapy or new meds I just don't think I'm worth their time and I can't bring myself to reach out but everyone keeps telling me it's the only way I'm going to get any better and it just makes me want to die more 

I'm not suicidal or physical with myself but I'm just tired of curling into a ball in the corner and bawling for hours evey few days because my life is crashing down around me