i dont know why, but some time anger take me over, when i so depressed. it making me sick of everything. i been in my dark time i guess. i been trying to be good, but it seem pointless when everything around me hiding something from me. sometime i wish, i have a power that can control people, and can read mind and, see the truth. so i can make better decisions. but do such things exist?

i always question why people hate me so much. what i did wrong? i have ask to them, most of the time. they keep secretly using me for there own good.

am i being crazy? what wrong with me? am i been cursed? is someone control me? why i dont feel in control of myself?

why and why and why and why...
sick living like this...
why no one tell the truth... 

i feel trapped...
to many bad thoughts in my mind...