long story short all my life i have been addicted to video games but in 2019 i  quit my apprentiship with my dad to play destiny 2 (yes i know how sad that sounds) Well it wasnt mainly due to that but if i wasnt interested in it i feel like i would of been able to function like a normal person. I have only just realised the effects that this has had on me.  To put this into perspective i could pick a random date in my lifetime and more than likely i will be in my bedroom just wasting my time. 

My life when  i was fully addicted was wake up at 11/12 play all day , walk the dog the shortest amount possible go down for meals and have a break then go straight back up after, I would stay up til about 1 am then would turn off the pc then watch youtube in bed for 1/3 hours   then sleep   then do the same thing all over. I was really depressed back then and this is how i coped to block out reality.

Not all hope is lost though. Last year in lockdown i finally woke up from what the fuck i was doing with my life and started eating more healthy going outside etc etc. From doing this i have lost 2 stone and honestly cant believe how i got here.  If i was still playing games for nearly 10 - 13 hours a day i dont know what my life would look like.

I struggle with social anxiety but its not as severe as most of the people on here i would say. I just find it difficult to put myself out there such as : taking photos or posting on social media. I'm just sick of being scared to do things that other people do without even thinking about it. Even making this post is hard but it feels like a good step in the right direction. 

Im also trying to start online dating properly and would love any advice for bios etc  (19M   BTW )