i hate it!! i was doing just fine, a month and a half without a fp, feeling like a person again, and now it's happening all over again. im scared to lose myself again, i don't wanna go through all those things again. anyone shows me a little  compassion or decency and im obsessed. it's always the same. i have no idea how to stop it.. i feel like it's already too late, my thoughts are getting more and more about them, ffs rn im obsessing  over them not answering me, their texts are starting to be the only thing i look forward to, exactly like every other fp ive had before. everyone else is starting to seem dull and boring to me, and they seem like the only person that exists. i just... feel so powerless