I have been having mental health struggles for over ten years. Hope had kept me going for a very long time, but recently that hope has faded away and been replaced with emptiness and despair. I’ve tried my ass off to get better, quit drugs, started going to therapy, moving out of my moms house. Nothing has seemed to make a difference. I think I’m cursed to spend my life in misery. I don’t want to die but it is something that makes more sense every day. I wish things could’ve been different for me, I wish I could be a normal person with a normal range of emotions, but I’m not. My family has kept me going for years but it just doesn’t feel like enough anymoret.