I live with my girlfriend and her sister and nephew at her mother's house. I have nowhere else to live. I love her, but it's highly likely she's using some hard drugs, or withdrawing from them. I struggle with my own addictions so it's triggering to suspect use and find paraphernalia. We have different preferences as far as drugs go.

But my suspicions aside, because I feel paranoid even if it's a justified suspicion because I don't trust my emotions at all, even if she's just a person who sleeps a lot when they aren't at work or have specific plans, it drives me fucking crazy. I'm bored, and uncomfortable in this house anywhere but the bedroom, but if she's asleep it's so fucking annoying to tiptoe and be quiet in the bedroom and feel awkward opening the squeaky doors with loud, clunky malfunctioning doorknobs, to go to the bathroom.

Anyone have any tips for self-soothing and distracting myself? I am in DBT and I want to be skillful but I'm about to use self-harm to shut my goddamn brain up and punish myself for being who I am, and I feel stupid for feeling that way. We had an argument earlier about this and she says I make her feel like shit, so even though she says I can talk to her about *anything*, she then throws it in my face when I try.

I have $50 to my name and my car registration was due last month. I need to get a job, save around a grand, and move out ASAP. So I need to work on finding a craigslist roommate that doesn't want me to do their laundry in exchange for a cheap room. Creeplist.