I’ve been having such a hard time with disassociating lately. The second I think of something that upsets me, my mind goes somewhere else. I’ll read a street sign out loud without even meaning to do it. Lately though, I’ve been hearing myself say out loud “I want to die”. There’s no other way to describe it, other than it’s not me saying it. I didn’t even think it, it didn’t even cross my mind. But I’ll hear myself say it out loud.

I’m more just worried that this isn’t a symptom of BPD as much as something else. I was wondering if anyone experiences that? Feeling like your mind is speaking for you? 