For example I'll say something probably over sharey about how much pain im feeling which yes, I obviously know it was the wrong place. I delete it right away and feel stupid.. so then I end up deleting my whole account. Every time im on Facebook or Instagram I feel so emotional. Im just constantly wishing I was at everyone else's level in life and doing the things their doing. It's ridiculous. It's like shit I deal with enough shame on a daily basis I'll just deactivate. But then you crave attention so you do it again... Last year I was Facebook free for like a year because I had a boyfriend and it was easy. Now im single and on and off that and Instagram. I ended up just making a BPD insta because at this point its the only type of environment I can relate to. I feel fine when I have that account because it's people I don't know who understand and are interested in me, like actually. I grew up with a bad reputation because I would always post innapropriate things about how sad I was from a young age, and now that I hardly do it all if I do I freak out at myself and do that whole cycle over again. I've come to realize that im better off without the social media because it just makes me feel bad about myself.. aside from my disgusting habit of over sharing.. does anyone else just delete their account if they post something and people comment back at you.. or you post and obsess about how people will judge you... or something where you just feel dumb for having it? This is ridiculous 🤣 

Fuck social media and phones I miss playing with sticks in the yard pretending I was MF Hermione Granger..