I apologize in advance this isn’t going to be super coherent. 

My first long term relationship came to an end about a month ago. It wasn’t bad, in fact we just realized we made better friends and roommates than we did a couple.

The problem is that he’s my favorite person and I didn’t even realize that till after we broke up. And the even worst part is I think I lost actual feelings for him two years ago and the last two years of our relationship was just me being mentally ill. Which makes me really really sad. I wish I could go back to three years ago and just play out that summer over and over. I loved that version of him. I love this version of him now, but not in the same way. 

Also I’d love to just turn off the favorite person part of my brain cause I don’t even want to be around him but I’m fucking obsessed with him ://

I’m just so so sad.