Hi, I am an 18F and have been diagnosed for a year and a half (have been on medication and therapy since) i am also undergoing treatment for depression and anxiety. Recently things felt like they were going okay for me. I was not feeling that i have completely recovered but i was okay and that seemes like a privilege and something i never thought was even possible. I got out of school and was free for a few months and the boredom obviously killed but i kept telling myself it is temporary and college will make the emptiness that comes with boredom go away. But I moved away for college two weeks back and i feel like i have lost the ability to connect to people. I am unable to open up maybe due to past experiences. maybe because i dont want another FP. I feel sleepy the entire day even when i am not doing much. i feel like i am not even emapthetic anymore, it is like i dont care about people around me at all. if people disappear from my sight it is like they cease to exist i completely forget about them even the people i should love and care about for example my own sister. I feel no sense of connection to people. when i am sitting around people i always dissociate. i stay in my dorm most of the day and feel empty. seeing the same faces everyday annoys me. i forget to wake up for meals most of the time. i hate myself.