I’ve been struggling very very bad lately but haven’t gave into the urges. I’m 35 days sober from alcohol and 54 days clean from self harm. I’ve been wanting to relapse so bad that it physically hurts my body when it’s all I can think about. I’ve been able to wait it out and not give in. I’m proud of myself and wanted to say it somewhere because I’m not comfortable telling anyone in my personal life. It feels big to me to get this far after having a really dark year. I’m proud of myself.