Christmas the happiest day of the year, is funny how for some people Christmas is so beautiful and happy, they get to celebrate with family and friends, they eat delicious food and make great memories, but for other people is quite opposite. 

This Christmas is going to be the worst of my life, and it shouldn’t be that way, I’m relatively healthy, I’m not in a respirator like many people now days, I have a place to sleep and stay warm, I have some food in my house to eat, I might be short in money but I have some money, but I don’t have a single family member to be with, I don’t have friends to laugh and make memories with. The love of my life the person I was supposed to get marry next year just broke up with me and in such a short amount of time she is already going out with other guys meanwhile I’m in my room crying over her, just remembering all the memories we made during so many years, I was loyal, I always put her first, I give her space to have friends and go out, I took care of her when she was in the lowest, I sacrifice so many things to make her happy and now I was left with nothing but pain,sadness,loneliness and suicidal thoughts. 

It’s funny how the absent of friendships can weigh more than vital things in life like health, money, success and many more.  

who knows maybe this is my last Christmas of my life.