they said i should go out more, hangout with friends, find a hobby, exercise, just do something! but i always end up in my bed the whole day. i only move when i have to go to work. i will slap myself if i have to just to make myself get up. my work is the only thing going for me, i have nothing else. probably the only reason for me to function like a normal productive citizen—at least pretend like i am. 

i tried to find people to hangout like on bumble bff, but i ended up neglecting to reply because i have no will to actually form up a sentence. so yeah, deleted it and will probably just stay in bed forever. 


sorry for this rambling, i just feel so alone right now.