I'm pretty sure you can't just generally without any reason be sad. There has to be something specific.

To me, it's having a stutter.

I feel trapped in my own body, and since there is no cure yet, there is no escape. 

I'd either have to live with it (which means a lifetime of pain and embarasment) while accepting the limitations it imposes on my aspirations or I'd just have to kill myself since I'm genetically doomed by birth and will never be able to be free and live the life I truly want to.


It's funny to me that if a doctor gave me a pill now and the stutter  completely vanished, I'd stop being depressed in an instant and possibly be the happiest and most grateful human on planet earth, rushing out to live my life.

( I know that because there was a time as a child that I didn't stutter and although my life was far from perfect, I was happy.)

My experience is more like losing something you once had and knowing you will never be able to get it back. Like, knowing how it is to be walking and then  sometimes in the future  completely losing the ability to. But I highlight that, it's physical. It's constantly there. And time doesn't make it easier nor do you forget.

So, you end up asking yourself do you just accept the life that you are given knowing that it's half of what is was/could be, or do you feel there is no pride in it and decide to end it, since the suffering is not worth it for what you are ultimately getting?