I'm a burden to everyone around me. All I do is eat and sleep, and I know my parents would be better off without me. I really doubt anyone would miss me, they would probably secretly celebrate not having to put up with me anymore. I've been praying to God every night and I think I've been hearing him tell me that killing myself is what I need to do for the sake of everyone else. If I can help them by dying, I'd gladly do it. I've never cared what happened to me, but I care what happens to my friends and family.

Dreams about God telling me to kill myself happen a lot, and I've heard his voice several times telling me it is the right thing to do. I don't want to disobey the Lord anymore. I want to bring good into the world.