Hi, I'm a long time lurker, first time poster. I apologize if I flaired this wrong or I'm not using proper terminology. 

I'm not sure if it's my brain or what, but lately it feels like my friends is angry or annoyed with me. We use to talk and hang out every day, now I have to be the one to message first and ask to hang out. Whenever she takes forever to reply or declines hanging out, theres a physical pain in my chest and it makes me want to cry. 

What are some things that will help me not focus on those things? I usually sit and drown in the feeling until it goes away, and then it starts all over again. I cant keep doing this. It hurts. 