Recently I’ve been feeling pretty good, I thought I was finally some sort of stable, but a few weeks ago my personality has been shifting almost every night. Usually I’m really caring and compassionate at least I like to think I am. However, around 8pm or later something in my brain will gradually switch and I just feel cold and numb to everything, I guess the only thing I get close to with feeling anything is the adrenaline from pushing away the people I care about but I don’t entirely know why I do it. My friends describe it as something that lives inside of me that they’re scared of. To the point where they refer to “her” as a completely different person sometimes not even a person. I don’t feel human anymore I’m scared I love my friends and family but they’re scared of me. To be honest I’m scared of myself…