Hello everyone 
I’ve been feeling extremely bad this last 2 months, I started taking C, sadly I knew if I try I couldn’t stop. It’s easily available where I am. And I haven’t spent a day without it since I started, (just 1 day, 5 days after I started because I’ve take too much and felt horrible). Just a friend of mine know, I have a BF and he doesn’t know, one of my best friend is very aware of drug use and I’m scared to tell him. I need to talk about it because I need to get it out of my chest. I have problem with my nose (I always use tissus) and my family start to become worried about it. I don’t know what to do. I can’t stop, really I can’t, not now. I have an appointment with my doctor with my doctor. But I’m scared to overdose. I’m on medication (antidepressant and Xanax, for my depression). Seriously I don’t know what to do. I just need help, advice or story about you, because we all suffer from BPD