My boyfriend (24) and I (20F) have been together almost a year. I absolutely despise his son (1.5 y.o) partially because his mother is a psycho that harasses my boyfriend and I and partially because I can't handle sharing the attention. Every time my boyfriend spends time with his son (which is always at his ex's house because she won't let us take him and hopes if he's around her he will want her back which he never will, she's crazy) I get so jealous that I end up taking a bunch of Valium and self harming. We are moving out of state soon and I can't help but hope he loses the custody battle so I never have to deal with the ex or share time with the kid again. He is adorable and sweet and he loves me but I can't look past the fact that he isn't mine. I just want him out of my life so we can have our own family free of drama. I know this sounds so selfish but I figured if anyone understands me here it's you all on this sub. How do you guys deal with sharing your SO's time with their loved ones? Can I fix how I feel?