Hey ya'll.

So one of my closest friends just told me that some of the time it seems like I don't have any interest in her life and like I turn things around and focus on me. This is very concerning because a lot of people that were once close to me (and have now left me) have said the same thing.

I feel like I am a very compassionate and understanding person, so every time I hear this I am shocked. I don't know what the hell is going on and why this always happens. Idk if this is a BPD thing or what? I'm terrified she is going to get tired of me and start to draw back from talking to me.  I tried asking her today what I can do to change and she got mad at me for brining it will 3 days later.

I just don't get why I always seem to push people away and can come off as selfish and uninterested in other peoples lives.

Also, today I am just very sad. I feel discounted, distant, empty, listless, unmotivated and alone. This hit me out of the blue. It's 8:30 and I want to go to bed despite the fact that I took a 2.5 hour nap today.

Thanks,
Ri