I don’t see any way to fix my life or be happy again. I’ve made too many mistakes to turn things around. I don’t want my daughter to die. I hope she and my other children can find happiness in this world. I feel guilty bringing them into such a cruel place. 

I hemorrhaged last time I gave birth and I’m thinking this time I won’t sign consent to receive blood products. I can’t help but want to die in a way that it’s not technically my fault.

I can’t feel joy anymore. I’m so unhappy with the way my life is and I don’t see any hope to fix it. I hate my husband. I’m so u happy in my marriage. I’m ashamed of myself and my choices. I just want to be done. I don’t want to start over. I just want to be nothing.