She just got back from Vegas and also has a cold and mania and weeks of sleep deprivation and she just looked miserable. Her parents have finalized plans to move to Vegas in July, from Hawaii. She agreed to go to Kawaii Kon with me in two weeks, even though she is short on savings. I will pay for her. I feel like Hawaii is not just a place to live for her, it’s home, and she has a life here. She is my only close friend and support system apart from family, so it will be an adjustment for me as well. Hawaii is a nice place whether you like beaches, hiking, retail, or community activities, but I just looked at the website of Summerlin and it looks like a nice/friendly, upscale/suburban area. It says online they have many cafes and parks and it is the rich part of Vegas. Red rock canyons in the backdrop. That makes me feel optimistic that she will be alright. Idk how I’ll navigate my life after she leaves. I already feel isolated due to covid. Today the two of us went to the mall and hung out around the bookstore. I saw a cookbook that reminded me of the the countryside gardens I used to cutout from magazines as a kid. I used to sit at the bookstore while waiting for support group to start. I feel like when I stopped attempting to look for work, I stopped wanting these things. I feel like if I want to do day treatment, now is a good time since I want to find some life direction. Maybe it’d be nice to volunteer or something as well. Tomorrow it is the weekend and I don’t have any plans. My friend only has three more months in Hawaii and I really want to be on the right page.