I started with scratches, but then i needed more so i started punching, then biting, and then i started using tools that were sharp and now im starting to actually cut myself on the surface layers of my skin but i can feel myself urging for more, for more violent measures, i want to see blood i want to bleed i want to feel like the world around me and myself are still real and this is the only way to ground myself, but it never lasts long until i need more. Its like a fucking drug that i cant get enough of I WANT more. I dont know how to stop and im afraid if i keep going down this road only sorrow will come to fruition but its like i need to peel my own flesh just to feel like im still real, how do i stop?