I don't know how to start this, but I really need advice. The past year I have been dealing with a lot of social anxiety and overthinking. It got to the point where ordering food or going to shops alone is unbearable and now I need to do that a lot (I can't  go on a walk without feeling awkward and feeling like everyone is judging). As I grow I begin to realize that there's not going to be people in my life who always hold my hand and walk me through all of the situations. To add to that, not too long ago I experienced a new issue - I don't want to hang out with people, who usually bring me so much joy, reason being that they misunderstand everything I try to say, kinda makes fun of my anxiety too. The problem is that I cannot leave them, they are the only friends I have and I find it difficult to make new ones (have lost friends in the past, had horrible experience being alone). It also doesn't help that I can't open up to them about my issues and emotions, so I leave everything bottled up and if I try to open up, all I get is "same" for an answer. To add, I can't tell my parents about my issues due to me living in a country where mental issues are misunderstood and made fun of. I tried to tell them, but they didn't seem to care and shrugged it off, blamed it on me and lack of social skills for not being able to do simple life tasks, and it sucks that I can't go and see a professional so I know what's wrong with me for sure... Therefore, I wanted to ask for your advice on overcoming these issues. I know this post is a mess, but I do hope someone can share their success stories or just experiences with me on facing these issues. Thanks in advance.