I’m waiting to hear back about starting with a psychologist for a second opinion and then to start the diagnosis process and hopefully trying to get on meds. I’m just scared though.

I did the intake over the phone and because I’m at home and family is nearby, I kinda BSed a bit when she asked if I’ve had any “self destructive” thoughts or if I’ve made any attempts to harm myself today / recently.

I’m just scared, because I don’t want to lie at all, because I know that anything I can tell them is something that can help me get diagnosed and on meds. I’m just scared.

If they find out I’ve self harmed would they psych hold me ? Or admit me to a psych hospital ?

I don’t want that. I’m not suicidal, I can just get really mad and instead of letting it out on others I let it out on myself. I don’t cut deep, only little scratches. I can’t be hospitalized. I have stuff to do this week coming up and next week. And then I have to work and go visit people over the summer.

Since I’ve just turned 18, they aren’t allowed to tell my parents anything specific which is a good thing, but I’m still on their insurance. I don’t want to be admitted to a hospital and I don’t want to be put on a psych hold. Would they do that ?

Sorry if I’m repreting or spontaneous making any sense I’m freaking tf out