My partner broke up with me today because he told me he might be gay.… I do not see this ending well for me at all. As a borderline manic depressive in times of trauma I’ve been known to completely shut my brain down, and engaging in shifty behaviour like drinking or over spending.

I’ve dealt with liars and cheaters, narcissistics and abusers but somehow this one hurts more because this is one where he couldn’t help how he feels and somehow that makes me angrier. I’m not angry that he might be gay, I’m angry that atleast with the others it was their choice to be shit. This wasn’t his choice.

I feel so utterly shattered in my own mind , I unfortunately self harmed, but I worry for my mind in the upcoming months. No danger to myself but just worried for my mental frame of mind