i feel like shit all the time and it’s so hard to imagine being happy again i feel like everything is just gonna get worse. i used to keep my feelings to myself and everyone got mad at me for that and then i shared my breakdowns and sadness and i’m a burden now no one what’s to deal with. i am not a light in anyone’s lives. they would all get over my death and maybe be happy they don’t have to deal with me anymore after the grief. 

i don’t want to die but no one would miss me anyways. i’m scared to die but they idea of my death being a long term relief makes me feel better. therapy isn’t helping and my meds aren’t helping and i’m getting worse and i’m sad and scared. i’m not gonna kill myself but i don’t know what to do anymore because i have no one and nothing