I'm currently in dbt, yet my behaviours have gotten much worse, even thought I know what they are and I'm overwhelmed with guilt as soon as I do it as I know it was wrong. I've hurt the people I love the most to the point where they have to leave me and that obviously is heartbreaking but I understand. I just don't see a way out for me, I want to end this suffering and I need to keep people safe by ending it.