
I have been going crazy for the past month and idk what’s happening my girlfriend and I are having hard times , it’s mostly her but I love her and I’m going crazy one second I love her second I hate her I go crazy with rage and hurt myself and cry then the next second I’m wondering why I’m doing that and get normal then I’m punching everything again idk what’s happening I don’t like it I feel irritated and reckless yesterday I was watching yt and I suddenly got angry and started punching my table then started crying and hugged the table and started apologizing and talking too it, ik it sounds stupid but that wasn’t me idk why I did that I have terrible thoughts of extreme things I want her back idk what’s going on I feel terrible and it hurts idk why or what’s happening I can’t talk to anyone about this or my parents I feel reckless and hopeless someone please help me idk what’s happening