I am nobody’s first choice, so when I am hanging out with people, it always feels like an uphill battle, in which I am unknown/disliked and I am trying to get to being the most liked, usually by copying someone else and by trying to be a class clown. I cannot simply imagine that someone would like me without me having to put a ton of effort into seeming like a different person than I actually am (quiet, shy, insecure). I’m not sure what to do?