I am 27 female, have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. It runs in my dads side of the family, the majority of us struggle with it to some degree. But it feels like I'm drowning and I can't keep trying so hard to just stay afloat. I've seen multiple therapists, found one I really like who I see on a regular basis. I'm currently on 300 MG of wellbutrin, but I have a long list of meds I've tried (cirpralex, effexor, zoloft, prozac, xanax, klonopin, trintellix to name a few...)This one has the least side effects but tbh I've been on it so long I don't know if it's helping or not. Been hospitalized, tried ECT, bought the self help books, could go on and on but this would be too long.

I just need something to hold onto, anything, anyone out there who can provide me a little something to keep me going. Somedays it's too much, and I feel like a shell It's getting so exhausting. The only reason I'm here is because I couldn't do it to my family and friends.
I hope all of you out there are staying well and fighting❤
Thanks.