I'm not necessarily looking for advice, more just some empathy and discussion with likeminded people.

The past 3 years have been horrible for me. My father died from alcoholism and then my only sibling died from alcoholism as well. I'm 26 and my only immediate family is my mom who is in poor health. I got laid off last year and got dumped by my serious boyfriend that I thought I would marry. On top of this I already deal with anxiety in my day-to-day life.

I took a new job and started a grad program across the country. I only have 1.5 years in the program, and then I really want to just move home to be with my mom and other family. But sometimes I wonder if I'm crazy for even having come here. I live alone now, and I'm terrified of the isolation I will feel. I got a cat, so that helps a bit, but with my new job being all remote and my grad program being remote, I just feel so scared. I keep being so scared that I'm going to have a mental breakdown or that something will happen to my mom when I'm gone.

I just thought this might be a good place to talk it out and feel a little less alone in my anxiety and depression.