After having two separate conversations with my sister, and my friends I’ve just now realized that it’s not normal to think that there are people watching you through cameras in your home. I have never been on anxiety medication for long because it makes me feel so dull and I just deal with my anxious moments as they come, but the paranoia is such a constant in my life that it never occurred to me that it’s not normal. 

I don’t know what to do with myself now that I know this is abnormal. Back to the meds that make me miserable, get therapy, or just live in my normal. It doesn’t cause me to want to harm myself or others but I definitely have moments where I get embarrassed just being home alone and doing normal things because the “camera people” might see me doing something weird. It’s like social anxiety has followed me into my own home. Anybody else relate? Any suggestions?