it's good to know it's not just me in disbelief.. it's the right choice.. to believe in me sucks.. i'm glad you're a quick learner as i'm still struggling to never believe again.. it's painful as you know.. i wouldn't wish this cycle on anybody, yet through knowing me i've poisoned you.. i don't know what difference it would've made to have known sooner, but i guess it would've been nice to know that i'm alone in reaching happiness.. i gave what i could but it'll always be outweighed by my negatives.. nobody's fault but mine, not that it needed to be said.. i never gave up on our potential, but I'd understand why you'd need to in the light of someone like me and how i rarely ever stepped over the line.. many would easily, and i hope they show you what i would've at least liked to have attempted to.. it's a sensible decision to have changed your mind long ago.. i tried to tell you at the start but it's difficult for people to understand at first, but thankfully you understand you cannot untie me.. what you've likely not understood yet is that it's not only you: nobody could.. painted any other way only fuels the cycle.. i'm tired of it and i wish to give in..