I feel like I have spent my teenage years living completely dead serious and depressed, behaving almost like an adult but now it seems to me that it is completely the opposite today. I have always felt like I am loosing my youth and I think now in the present I have spontaneously loosen all of my brakes. And it is quite interesting. Different. I almost wish I could have this 10 years ago. But I guess today will be fine. Do you have something similar going on with you too or is this completely unrelated?