Ok so I have realized lately ever since I’ve been learning more about my disorder that I’m becoming more aware of the mood swings. let me try my best to explain, for example I was wondering today when I was going to have a mood swing because I’ve been aware of it and I’m always thinking about it now, and then when I do have one I’m thinking to myself “is the reason I’m having this mood swings because I’m forcing myself to have one?” And then I start to think “am I faking this mood swing??” And when the mood swing happens I’m very aware of the fact that my mood just changed.. I would like to know if anyone else experienced this before?? I’m afraid because I keep thinking that I’m faking it..