I have the delusion that these guys from support group want me to help them get soulmates. From my point of view, it is a really bad idea and I have nothing to gain by getting involved. I am notoriously unromantic and I feel like it’s something you have to win on your own. Respect my decision not to help. I want to go jogging again but am kind of tired. I decided to not volunteer at the homeless shelter and I’m out of ideas for other activities I can join. The women’s group is doing knitting and I don’t know how to do that. I visited the mall today to return something for $15, then came home and just relaxed... My mom is away for the month for her job and I’ve been going out every day. I think I would like to transition to being at home more and doing some jogging and housekeeping. It’s my intrusive thoughts telling me to volunteer but I’m hoping for some quiet days to just work on my own happiness. I am starting to feel saddened with how I live my life these days and sometimes I can’t wait to sleep and just forget everything. The dogs cheer me up, though.