I’ve definitely had issues with this. I would say offensive things calculated to infuriate people I genuinely liked for...no reason I suppose. To keep people away. I once claimed I was racist when I am not to keep a friend out of my life. I once when I was at my worst state mentally nearly ran my own car off the road to convince someone I liked to stay away from me. I do not dislike these people, my mind just tells me to remove them from my life and I am not sure why.