I’m completely smitten with this guy and he seems to genuinely like me back too.... It seems like we are rushing into dating quickly (3 dates in a week, spoke on the phone for over a month before meeting.) I’ve been trying to focus on my needs and building better coping mechanisms, I didn’t want to actually like the damn guy. He seems genuine and I’m totally falling for him.

I hate myself for that. 

I shouldn’t be dating.

I should be focusing on getting better because I’m nowhere close to stability.( a lot closer then before though)

I’ve been trapped in this whirlwind of excitement and strong feeling... I run away with it... which is what I’m not suppose to be doing.

Why is it wrong when it feels so right?!?

I hate myself for letting things happen.