Hey everyone  first sry for my bad english isn't my native also In moment iam writing this reddit iam on dru**s because of my miserable life.
Idont have anyone to talk with him so iwant write my life story 
I was born in poor family and iam the first son I remember my childhood was fun until I become 6 I start noticing iam smaller thin my friend I remember when tried go to school in first day no one believe  iam 6 life goes and still my friends get bigger and iam still small start mid school and everyone in fk school  ask me in lunch break about my age and they laugh about it and I hate it so much I cried alot why I born like this my family is religious so am I but iwas thinking if there god why we born to suffer why iddnt born like everyone else  see all my friends had gf and iwas alone since no one want love freak its awkward  to have bf looks my young brother
And my personality  kinda shy intelligent and funny  rn iam 25 y old looks like 12 and icant smoke on the street  because everyone will stare at me in weird way and gave that look ohhhh A Rude kid smoking  even if tried buy cigarettes  always on pay out get asked about my ID  and they laugh about it  icant go to bars because iwill become live event everyone stare at you and laugh  I spend last 4 years sleep the day and keep awake all night I only go outside to buy food or cigarettes  and my room was a trash  but changed my life and tried be more positive  and found  a job  as cashier everything was great  in some point but routine start killing me and get the questions why kid working or why you are not in school also seeing couples  and I wish iwas normal so I live my life even girls buy from the store they think iam kid
Idk what should I do icant live anymore iam so depressed now