I’m 18 and I just graduated and recently everything feels grey and just not real. I recently had an event pop up and I’m going to get tested for STD’s soon. Now it just feels like I have nothing else to do in life? It just feels like I finished my role like in a video game as an npc. I’ve tried working out and it honestly helped I felt happy for that day and night that I did it. But I can’t figure out why. I do smoke weed and I guess it kind of amplifies it like a bad trip typa thing but I don’t know what to make of anything at the moment. I can’t sleep without taking melatonin. And I have a mom who’s really religious and really ignorant. To the point when I asked her for a therapist she said “oh brother” rolled her eyes and never got me one. I just feel stuck in mud and Ik I can get better I just don’t know how. Anyone else feel like this?