I have been struggling with this for along time on my own. I have not been able to cope I have lost relationships as well as loved ones I have pushed away. I have been hiding with a mask and a fake smile. My parents never knew the suffering. I finally decided I can't be happy until I do something I have 2 kids and a man I love so much I wish I never put him through. I broke up with him because of doubts insecure and trust and due to my mental illness.I had a great job career but I also have past that haunts. I am taking time to get the help I need and medications I need to continue my life abd not live in this fear of losing my mind.