I’ve been living the same routine for years. I wake up, go to school, come home and go to bed. Most of my friends have different friend groups that they circulate around and I have no one. School is a chore, most people think I’m weird and I’m so fixated on the idea of being normal to them that I’m a lost cause.

I’m so sick of it. I can’t tell my friends because they’ll bombard me with their own problems, and it’s not like they’d give me advice because they’re not like that. I can’t tell my teachers, because it would cause more drama and I can’t tell my family simply because I don’t want to worry them. 

I don’t harm myself, I’ve never done anything like that and I never will. But I’ve never felt so empty before in my life, and people will just tell me that’s a part of growing up. My friends aren’t my friends anymore and nobody is close to me. I’m just part of a jigsaw that’s slowly falling apart.

I just want someone to talk to and they won’t judge me or vent to me about some of their own problems. You know how if you wet a sponge too long, it’ll eventually just leak? That’s how I feel right now. I’m sorry if I should have put a trigger warning or something but I’m just so confused and hopeless at the moment. Just any advice is all I ask. I’m sorry for such a sad post