I couldn’t tell if this was allowed or not but I just am having such a hard time I wanted to make a post.  I’m 27 and I was diagnosed BPD about a year ago, previously I’ve been diagnosed Bipolar and generalized anxiety and generalized depression.  Nothing really stuck until I went in to a new therapist to get tested about autism and she came to the conclusion that I have BPD and it makes sense and the more I read on here the more I feel like less of a horrible monster of a special snowflake and more like oh shit other people are suffering just like I am.   The “crisis” I’m having.  And I hate to use the word crisis because I feel like I know so many people going through stuff but I always feel like my problems are the worst.  I’ve been dating a girl for 3 years we live together and spend every waking moment together and it’s been rocky for the last two.  It’s almost like she knows how to trigger my BPD and make me not eat for days because she hasn’t said I love you in days and if she doesn’t say I love you often enough or kiss me or give me signs of attention and affection my appetite dies.  But the second I get attention days worth of appetite will hit me like a brick wall and I will binge.    All my friends try so hard to get me to break up and move in with another friend who has actually been with me for 7 or 8 years and he is often my FP because he has seen me at my absolute worst yet he still has my back and honestly it blows my mind that he still wants anything to do with me.   I did DBT for a while but I stopped going because my girlfriend wanted to hang out on Friday’s when my DBT group was.  But she tells me that she never said that so maybe I thought she wanted to hang and I quit for the wrong reason.   I’m not medicated but I need to be on something.  I’m going to see my primary care doctor Monday and I have been trying to find out what a good mood stabilizer to try is.   Does anyone have a good recommendation on a prescription.   I’m sorry my grammar is so bad.  English is my first language I just suck at grammar and typing and I’m crying as my girlfriend gets ready in the bathroom for some reason I’m frightened she’s talking to someone else even tho I know she isn’t. How do I get rid of these thoughts.   