They know I’m hurting and not in control, yet they use a rude tone of voice with me and aren’t careful in terms of helping the situation.

I can get very bad episodes where I’m full of rage and she just adds fuel to the flames as if she doesn’t care about me and sees me in an episode as the real me.

I feel like this is resentment and I just can’t fathom staying with someone who disrespects me like that.

I try my best, but episodes are uncontrollable sometimes and if they are the one to cause it then I believe they should be nice enough to be careful while I’m trying to calm down.

I feel so hurt and betrayed. I don’t even know my partner anymore and today they feel like a stranger. For someone to give me so much attitude and snappy responses and horrible tone when I’m in distress isn’t the love or care I need.

How can I stop feeling guilty for episodes that aren’t even my fault? I legit tell her how to help me and she always does the opposite and gets rude and forgets about me.

I don’t want to be alone forever, but I feel like I may be.