I’m realizing I’m a bad friend, I talk over people, I disregard others feelings I am careless in general and I don’t think it is fair to others to be the way I am. I don’t know what to do to fix this and I am hopeless that I will change at all. I’m a bad person honestly, I lie all the time and I’m selfish. I don’t even know how to change that or if it’s just some ingrained flaw. Why do I bother? Like I’m not bringing all that much to the table to contribute to others relationships in a health way and I’m having a hard time seeing the point of continuing if I’m such a bad energy around everyone I know. Ramble fest for sure so sorry about that but I’m spiraling and finding it difficult to stop the negative thoughts when they are reinforced by my own shitty actions and the feedback from others. Oof.