I’m feeling pretty terrible about myself atm, my fiancé (been together 7 years and for some reason he’s stuck with me despite what I am lol) works so so hard to support us and I contribute nothing, I just fuck up everything I touch. Life, apart from cursing me with this horrible mental illness, has offered me so many, SO many opportunities, far more than most people have ever had, and I’ve fucked it all up. Im 26 and have been fired from EVERY (I cannot stress ‘every’ enough) job I’ve ever had. Every single one. But I feel like there’s only so much I can blame on bipolar until it becomes a blatant character flaw. 

What I need really… is a feeling of solidarity that someone has been through this too. And I’m genuinely sorry if you have coz it’s a shitty feeling place to be. I’m watching my 20’s fly by day by day and just wasting my whole fucking life. Idk wtf to do with myself that I won’t end up fucking up at the end. I was thinking of studying again but I’ve already screwed that up 3 times. Im just a fuck up and I feel really alone in that.

Help.