It’s been five months since my friend cut me out of her life with no explanation. And so much has happened since that’s shown me she was a shitty person and I’m better off free from her but I’m just really down bc it’s her birthday. I feel so cheated and lied to developing a dependency on a friendship with someone who I guess I just really didn’t know. The shit she did to me is so horrible but I still just wish I could tell her happy birthday. I want the old friend back, the one who cared about me and didn’t treat me like I was disposable. I want that friend to have a great birthday but I think she doesn’t exist. I was just pretty stupid. That’s who I miss I guess.