I absolutely freaked out on my boyfriend over the phone and punched my wall and nearly cut myself and said a bunch of shit that I don’t like to share and I was really vulnerable and now I am so embarrassed and guilty. Afterward he told me he doesn’t know if he can be what I need because of how intense my emotions are. He didn’t break up with me but I feel like I’m way too much and now I just want to shut down and leave him before he leaves me! I hate myself. I ruin his day every day and I am so shocked he still loves me. I don’t understand how he finds me lovable in any way.