Please recommend good books on the subject for a person who has BPD and has educated himself on the basic stuff like symptoms and the dynamics of it. I think I am looking for, I don’t know, deeper informational assurance of what I am dealing with and how to live with it and survive close relationships, if I some day let that happen to me any more.



As a personal intro: It is weird. I went through 3 years of therapy. I think I was treated as ”merely” depressed and traumatized. My life was very mentally stable for a lot of time, for the first time. No self hate, no throwing stuff on walls, being able to put other people’s aggression into a healthy perspective. I even ended my SSRI treatment, with a long and safe withdrawal period. Then something happened. I moved into a shitty apartment by misfortune and had ended a starting relationship (on a good basis of mutual understanding) a few weeks back. I was under a lot of stress and the hatred just would not back off or would not bend into rationalization. I have lived like a robot for a month. I take Diapam because some insignificant insult that my ex made got me into hacking my vacuum cleaner into pieces with its tube.

I think I need to face this thing for real.