I'm just saying. Me and my fp are on and off, and I understand that our relationship isn't all that healthy, but despite that, I've just been so happy that I can call him my friend again :D. Even on days when we don't talk, just having that sense of security that he's still my friend, just make me feel so much better about life. I feel like life is worth living :D. I understand that there is a lot of bad thing in our relationship and how being dependant on him will ruin my life, but for a second, I try to ignore that and think, at least I'm with him again.
Sorry for rambling, but Im just so happy :D