A little more explanation: during september I’ll be in France to do the vintage, but I’ve never done a work like this, and I’m feeling a lot of anxiety just thinking about it. 
It’s an experience I would love to do (not just because of moneys) to get out of my comfort zone. I’ll be in a house with a lot of people, also a lot of people I know, but my catastrophization anxiety is killing me. I need to live with some of my comfort that will prevent me from having an anxiety or a panic attack whether I am in my house or not, and I’m sure I’ll find a way to have them even there. I’m also sure this will be a beautiful experience but I’m scared I won’t feel safe with all the people in the house and I won’t be able to stand that. I’m scared terrible things like teethache, stomachache, vomit, and such, will happen to me while I’m far from home and nobody will be able to take care of me while I’m feeling that bad and I’m not sure I’ll be able to do it alone. Also I don’t really like travelling because it makes me so fucking anxious to leave my house for more than a day (there will be my family everyday, but my anxiety is completely irrational) because I’m terrified someone will break in, hurt my family, my cats, and also steal everything I own and lovely collected through the years. But I also know that I can’t renounce to this occasion because when I’m calm and I’m able to think about it normally, I sincerely enjoy the idea of doing a different experience and not just working in a random bar in my city, also it’s even cooler because I’m going with my friends and one of the friend’s friend owns the whole place. 
This shit all started to happen so much in my head tonight because I met a person who went there years ago and told me terrible stories non stop (like people cutting drugs with the kitchen knives, people sneaking into the bathroom from the window while you shower, waiting five hours to have a shower because there’s a lot of people and just one bathroom [this is actually true but wasn’t a problem until now, because one of my friend who goes there every year told me they are really organized with the turns not only for bathroom, but also cooking etc], cockroaches everywhere and bed bugs [I have entomophobia and this really triggered me, absurdly surprising more than people sneaking in the bathroom without you knowing]). Even if more than one person told me that even if the work is hard it’s totally fine to live there, my brain decided to believe one fucking drunk person who claimed that going there was worse than hell. 
So I’m here to ask you for some support and also every advices you have about this kind of fears (travelling, staying far from home, and all of the above) that are literally destroying me right now. 
Thanks in advance and hope you’re all having a nice saturday night!