Sometimes my partner would do things or take on certain lifestyles that literally aggravate my soul and rip me apart into a billion tiny peices, but logically I know such a thing shouldn't make me feel this bad, and it's a main theme of "why don't treat me the exact same way I treat them?" And i just refuse to except that people are different and love in different ways, not everyone is going to drop absolutely anything to give their lover attention ay? And I can't communicate this to them, because it will make me sound pathetic, to them and to myself too. I really... I love them, I really love them, but majority of the time I'm just suffering in silence (yeah I have quiet bpd) in the relationship rather than feeling loved and prioritised
Heih