I just found out about BPD and am 99% sure that I have this, probably since early teens or childhood. I am wondering if having BPD stemmed from abandonment issues I had as a kid. I want to know if anyone else has a similar experience growing up. 

My parents loved me very much, and being an only child I felt special. I remember having a lot of friends from very early on all the way up to 9 and 10 years old. I would go visit my friends at their home to play, sometimes they would come over. But eventually I would never get to see them again and I didn't know why. Maybe our parents didn't get along or their parents thought I was a weird kid. There was one occasion in first or second grade, I wanted to hang out with one friend I had grown attached to during recess, but he was crying and kicking in my direction, telling me to stay away and that he couldn't be friends with me anymore. He seemed just as sad about it as I was so I assumed his parents told him that.

After switching schools, it was hard for me to make friends, and still keep them up until high school. Any new friends I have made I became very attached to, and I have felt psychologically manipulative towards some. Because I don't have any friends from when I was a kid or even grade school, I feel a lost connection with my roots and even more disconnected from my true self.

Does anyone else remember childhood experiences of not being able to keep friends? 