I’ve been talking to my ex boyfriend more recently. He’s not sure if he wants to get back together but we’ve hung out a couple times. He’s starting to become my FP again and it’s causing a lot of anxiety. Partly because he doesn’t know what he wants and also because he’s not giving me a lot of attention. 

I can feel myself putting him on a pedestal and I know it’s not healthy. 

I want to go on psychiatric medication but it’s taking a long time to get referred by my therapist to a psychiatrist. 

Also I’ve been slowly realizing that my dad might also be borderline. It’s hard to come to terms with because our relationship is so bad. I feel like I should have empathy for him because we suffer in the same ways but at the same time he’s done/ said things that I can’t forgive. 

Any kind words or advice would be very much appreciated