My birthday is coming up and my s/o really wants to go on vacation. However, I always feel like I can’t go to anything high-stakes in terms of the money spent because I’m so volatile. The last concert we went to I dissociated really hard before we had even gotten there yet, and I self harmed after. The last vacation we went on ended with a fit of rage. He’s my FP and so I’m really easily triggered by anything he does. If things don’t go perfectly, I dissociate. He’s trying to find a cheaper option, like a night at a hotel by a local beach, but even that feels like too much for me because what if I dissociate or we fight and we just blew $500 or something for no good reason. Anyone else deal with this and how do you manage it?