my bf said he’d be back at 10:00 and it’s 10:20 rn and he hasn’t texted me and i know he’s probably having fun with his friends and lost track of time but today is my only day off this entire week and i wanted to spend time with him tonight after we got off of school but by the time he’s home he’s probably going to want to go to bed and i just feel like he’d rather be with them than me. he’s always with them when i’m at work and he says he’ll be home by the time i’m off but half the time he isn’t and i brought it up (more so got mad at him for it) and now i feel guilty for thinking that way. it feels like he doesn’t love me even though i know he does and i have to keep reminding myself he has his own life too and we literally live together so it’s not like i don’t see him. it’s just hard ive been splitting on him so much lately so a lot of the time we are together we’re both upset. but we talked it out tonight and we’re having a good time but the moment he left i just started crying and i’ve just been smoking to not resort to other unhealthier habits. idk this is all over the place i have nobody to talk to and i feel so alone rn.