So i recently discovered bpd &amp; really resonate with the symptoms &amp; my mom, of the closest people to me refuses to even listen to me explain the symptoms &amp; how i've experienced them everytime i try she interrupts me or belittles what im saying by saying that everyone has bad days or that i go through everyday emotions. She even had the audacity to do an online test "thinking of me" and it came out negative because people with bpd are known to do impulsive things and i don't WHICH SHE IS VERY WRONG ABOUT she clearly hasn't done enough research to one see that bpd is not the same in all peopl in everything i've seen describing impulsivity there was substance abuse included &amp; let me tell y'all before i went on my current trip i was smoking marijuana 5+ times a day wheneverrr i felt a negative emotion or even the heavy feeling i get before i break and sheeeee supplies it to me i can see why she may doubt the mood swings since i've been drowning them out since my last relationship which i believe was my first "fp" he was extremely toxic to me and i fell into an extremely deep depression, self harming attempting suicide everytime he left me it felt like my world ended &amp; my whole heart was ripped out my out chest. when she found out i had been self harming she made me promise that i'd tell her whenever i felt even a little depressed again &amp; over the course of the past few months i've tried to tell her time &amp; time again that i was going thru it, her solution everytime was giving me more weed &amp; saying i needed smoke. i've been concerned with myself for quite a while and had been doing research ever since my first dissociative episode first i was concerned that i could possibly have add/adhd which i told her about because in school little noises distracted me so easily &amp; made me so extremely irritated i either was filled with rage and lash out or completely break down &amp; start crying and my eyes get blurry and unfocused everytime i try reading(which also happens when i dissociate) but it didn't really resonate with me so i kept going &amp; i found out about bipolar disorder which didn't exactly resonate with me but i could relate quite a bit but the long episode just didn't fit but i told her about that too then not to long ago while i was sober at my friends house i got a better idea of the symptoms cuz they weren't suppressed by drugs lol and i came across bpd i've never resonated with something so much and it's been really comforting seeing that others go thru what i do still i don't want to self diagnose but whether i have it or not i still experience the symptoms &amp; i've been trying to explain that to her but she just wont listen. When i was just on the phone with her she told me that when i see someone to see if i have it she's gonna tell them that i've told her about multiple disorders and that i might just be trying to fit into these symptoms :///. This is beyond important to me and if she messes this up for me our relationship will never be the same, we've gotten pretty close these past few years and she's one of the closest people to me &amp; i really expected her to be there for me with this so it really hurts that she wont even listen and would listen an online quiz based off of what she thinks she knows over me :(((  Ps sorry if this is messy im kinda emotional rn &amp; it hard try to gather my thoughts *IM NOT TRYING TO SELF DIAGNOSE IN ANY WAY BUT I TRULY AND GENUINELY RESONATE WITH ALL SYMPTOMS IVE SEEN CORRELATING WITH BPD*