I've never told anyone this, I don't know if it's really any different than how anyone else live their lives, I guess. 

Did a lot of studying today and ended up in a ball of anxiety. Even though it was 6:30, I decided on a nap. Cause then I'd stop chewing my fingernails (which I did today, only 2 of them but I hadn't done it in over a year). I digress. I woke up and went to the bathroom and asked my mom to heat something up for me for dinner. I was coming out to get it and I started questioning myself, "Should I shower?" and instead of some simple answer like, yes, because I'm dirty, it's like a list a pros and cons forming in my head about taking a shower at 9pm. And how will taking a shower at this time affect my mood? Will it make me feel better or worse?

I guess I was thinking, like maybe it's BPD? Or any part of my several mental illnesses. Do other people think this way? And by "other" I mean... regular, normal... people without mental illness(es).

I also might be in a migraine/meditation/after nap coma so I guess just ignore all this if it makes no sense.