I don’t even know where to start, I don’t have a bad life compared to a lot of people out there but I have had a lot of bad experiences growing up. I turned 18 today but I feel like I’ve lived so long already.. my life has no consistency.. I’ve been to 6 different schools, moved houses every few years.. never held down a job for over a year.. and my thought process is like a mirror of my life experiences, like my mind and my thoughts hold no consistency and I always feel different about things all the time, I’m not bipolar because my moods don’t last long enough, they’re constantly changing. I don’t wanna off myself but I don’t really wanna pretend I care about society and all the selfishness and evil in it either.. I don’t know if I wanna live or die