The past month has been an absolute train wreck for me. Just an absolute shit show that I won’t go into detail on. But for the first time tonight, I’m feeling pretty good about things and life in general. It’s a weird feeling and I’m trying to enjoy it. But there’s this nagging voice telling me that everything is going to fall apart again and I should stop being happy. I feel like if I say anything about feeling like things are good, it’s going to break the spell and everything will go to shit. I felt like this for a few days over the summer (I was on Latuda plus 3 other meds, helllooooo over medicated) and I felt like an actual human. I like this feeling and I want to stay this way, I’m just scared about it too. 