I am struggling so hard. I cannot eat, my ED is as bad as it has ever been, I black out every time I stand up. I am constantly thinking about suicide. I have been searching for a therapist for two years with no success. 

Today I went to my local health centre. They just sent me back home, telling me to use coping skills. I know psych hospitals suck, but I do not care enough about my own life to take myself to the emergency room. I wish the doctors would just tell me what to do.