My boyfriend and I are long distance right now, 1hr 45ish due to college. He was calling me as he was getting ready to leave for the drive up and when he looked at traffic and saw it was going to be 2 and half hours due to traffic I completely lost it. I started acting like an anxious freak and getting really snippy and didn’t know why. It wasn’t till after the phone call it clicked in my head. I was so, SO scared to inconvenience my parents as a child. I was always met with berating and an increased self awareness and anxiety that I must not take up too much time or too much space. I would, and still do, jump hoops to avoid upsetting the delicate boundaries in my house growing up. Hearing my partner having to wait in traffic to see me, completely triggered me and actually made me act agitated to HIM. Crazy… I wish my anxiety didn’t manifest in agitation and anger but- it does. I’m working on it. Just an interesting thought. The fears we hold onto as children, the “tip toeing”, it sticks around.