Ok so I’ve had twitches for a while that usually get triggered by trauma or (when I was unhealthier) when I thought I didn’t navigate a social interaction very well.

However, today for example, my sister (who I’m very close to) was having issues with her boyfriend and was crying so I offered to hug her. So we hugged and I think I began to overthink it. By the time it was over I had definitely over thought it and couldn’t stop twitching or get random boosts of adrenaline where I had to skip about the room a bit or annoy our dog with cuddles. 

And I’m really confused as to why. Was it because *lol I literally just twitched* I thought I didn’t do it right? But that doesn’t make sense because I trust her. I feel like it’s more about physical contact but not sure why? I can comfort people well verbally, and while the idea of comforting someone physically is appealing, whenever it comes down to it this is always my reaction. A friend once joked saying I was touch starved but I’m not sure if I qualify for that. Sure, my relationship with physical contact has always been an odd one because I almost crave it and adore the idea of it but whenever it happens I get like this. 

Please if anyone has ideas I’d really like to hear them. 

Thank you :)