I think I have BPD. I'm very afraid of seeing a doctor because I have a fear of being misdiagnosed and not getting better, or simply made to feel like my problems aren't real. My mood swings are killing whatever important relationships I have left with people. I want to be left alone because I feel like I'm completely fucking everything up. I have terrible abandonment issues, I get irrationally mad and sad in an instant that lasts from a few hours to a few days. I can deal with depression and I can deal with anxiety, but my fluctuation of moods and my confusing thoughts about people is just absolutely killing anything good that's left of me. I used to self harm, binge eat and now I get paranoid and impulsive because of how overwhelming my fears are. 

What type of doctor should I see? What should I tell them? I've seen a counselor and even though she gave me tools to help my depression and anxiety, this is far bigger than something I can deal with on my own.