I’m kind of obsessed with my coworker who I barely see/speak to because he avoids me and is being real weird lately. We used to have a real good friendship but I ruined it, timing-wise I guess and now he doesn’t want to hang out with me whereas in the past I would always be too busy when he would ask to chill. I’m really obsessed with him and I kinda want this pain to end so maybe I should just quit to get away so I can forget about him. I just reread our texts from the fall when we were good friends and I’m cringing and probably gonna cut tbh because it fuckin pains me to see how the only good friendship with a guy who really cared about me as a person is ruined and it’s partially my own fault for not taking him more seriously sooner. That and he’s going though some bad shit Rn but I can’t bear it, I just want him here for me like he was in the past because he brought me a lot of comfort in the past and I really truly care for him and want more than anything for him to be happy but he’s always such a smartass to me lately and it makes me feel like shit. 