let me start this off by saying i do have a therapist and it does help me for some things and i’m on zoloft but it doesn’t help much despite being on 100mg. i’ve tried so many other medications as well. however i’m terrified of my therapist ratting me out to my parents (i’m a high school junior) (and yes, that has happened before with a different therapist) for some of my more severe symptoms. i’ve had social and general anxiety for what i’m pretty sure has been most of my life (diagnosed), and i also have autism. however because of my paranoia, especially about being watched by the government (through hidden cameras, phone/computer cameras, etc), and tendencies for things like magical thinking and excessive ideas of reference as well as a family history of schizophrenia i’ve looked into things like paranoid personality disorder and schizotypal personality disorder. for a while i felt like STPD fit me pretty well even though i’m young but i’m scared i’m somehow subconsciously faking pretty much everything and it’s getting so suffocating. if i’m not worrying about a lack of plan for something in the future or dreading an appointment or remembering to tell someone somebody else told me something for them, then i’m worrying about how i’m supposed to manage my day to day life when i feel like i’m a fraud because i feel like my symptoms are too severe to just be anxiety but not bad enough to be anything else. even when i’m at home trying to relax i remember that everything has a webcam and anyone can hack it. i can’t handle anything on my own anymore and i can’t ask my friends for help because i don’t want to treat them like therapists. it’s kind of ironic that i trust strangers on the internet to have good intentions and want to help me more than i trust my therapist with things like this but sometimes that’s life i guess. anything that’s helped you to just go about your normal life and keep yourself from being so overwhelmed would be so so so appreciated.