Days, weeks, even months pass by and at the end of it all i can't recall what I've been doing all this time. I rationally know i went places, met people, but it feels as if all i did was waste time in my bedroom. 

I graduated, I'm trying to find a job, but not that hard, therefore i feel very useless because everyone around me is so busy.
I dissociate a lot, I dont feel in touch with my emotions, i have no idea what im thinking about most of the time, or what i feel.

When asked about stuff, i try to avoid.... literally thinking. I feel like im going dumber and dumber each day because i literally don't feel like using my brain and i feel very... closed.
I used to be able to manage daily life and fake it in spite of it all but i feel so tired and hopeless and useless and not even a human anymore. 

Will i ever switch back on?