does anyone else feel like during a panic attack your brain just goes “here, watch your deepest and darkest fears come true in this possible future that by the way is not just possible but very very likely/certain because of this this and this!”

(tw//suicide)
it happened to me last night. i imagined my best friend stabbing himself in the heart right in front of me while i begged him to stop, calling for help, anything to stop him from ending his life. i imagined all my closest friends ending their lives one by one, ignoring my cries for them not to leave me. it’s rare for me to cry, but that had me shaking and crying in bed. horrible experience.