CW: Self-Harm and Eating Disorders.

Hello everyone. I’ve been struggling with depression, self harm and now an eating disorder for quite a long time now…I started medication back in November. I was right on track but for almost a month now it has been hard for me to fully get back to normal. It just feels as though, I am unlovable, and undeserving of attaining stability and normalicy once again.

My friends have always been by my side through this journey- and I try to he with them as much as I can through their tribulations too -but recently, one by one they have started to take their distance from my negativity (which I completely understand, because having to worry constantly about someone is exhausting and I can just imagine what it’s doing to them). Whoever, I cannot help but feel guilty about driving people away…it feels as though Im ruining everyone around me and that they’d be better off without my prescense.

These people mean a whole lot to me…I don’t know what to do, or if I should approach them and tell them I understand their decisions, or how to even comfort myself…or just bring myself to understand that it is okay to get better. Any advice would be appreciated :(