Simply put it I myself am somewhat of an emotional wreck but I have always been able to keep myself calm and composed but I don't know if it is because I am mentally strong or if it is because the rest of my family has enough problems. To sum it up, My dad died about 8 months ago. And my brother had moved back in with me and my Mom to help with the rent,bills,etc. Anyways he has always had his problems so it's no surprise after 2 years of not living with us he still does, but we found out he has been doing Meth as well. And despite putting on this facade of getting better he is still using. And as for my mom, she had a rough childhood but she turned out "okay" but she definitely has something wrong with her too. Needless to say with my mom not being the most stable person and my Brother problems with his drug addiction I feel like I have to be strong. I mean I have mentally prepared for a long time that I would outlive my brother and now with this I have to even more. I don't know as bad as things get I don't really ever see myself commiting suicide but having the only other people in your life busy with their own problems doesn't leave you with much to do other than "stay strong."