I have been battling over whether to get the covid vaccine in August or not. Please do not judge before reading all of the info below, thank you!

I am absolutely pro-vaccination and am happy most of my family has gotten the vaccine and that they did not have very serious complications.
I myself do not dare to do it right now because of (how I perceive?) my health. I've been struggling with my mental and physical health since I was a small child, been diagnosed with cardiomyopathy (still not sure if I have it tbh, my cardiologists have never found anything specific and I have never taken any medicine for it), somatization disorder, clinical depression, generalized anxiety disorder and mixed personality disorder (avoidant+anankastic+histrionic). Checked myself into a psychiatric hospital for a month, but the only outcome is that I do not take any meds anymore. 
I am currently either exhausted or in panic mode, so I am bedwritten most of the time. I have terrible headaches and a sensation of somebody pouring acid on my brain, shakes, visual disturbances, breathing issues, racing heart, nausea, dizziness and all the other fun stuff anxiety has to offer. Can't honestly even remember how does it feel to be.. normal I guess? People say that stress is the silent killer, I can't even fathom what years of this terror have done to my health. Have not had a fever in 7 years, even when I had bronchitis several times and needed antibiotics, not sure what does this say about the state of my immune system.

I feel like I might not even survive the shot or the adverse effects.
I do not want to put anyone in danger just because I didn't vaccinate, but at the same time I have minimal social contact anyway. I work from home, have food delivered to me, have managed to meet friends twice and my family 3 or 4 times this year. I know it's not 0 contact though.

So.. should I suppress my ego and anxiety and get the shot anyway or wait until I feel better?
Also thank you for reading all of this, just noticed I accidentally wrote a lot more than intended!