Seriously, I haven't said one word out loud yet, but this just took me from joking with a friend on the phone laughing to ready to walk out and do something really extreme. All I did was question about spending more money ($120 today) on something that doesn't work and he won't listen to my thoughts. 

You know you have BPD when a $120 purchase makes you go from laughing to suicidal in seconds... Ughhh. What would you do? Crawl under the covers? Rant on the internet? Go out and be around people? No family nearby to vent to. My family hates him and wants me to divorce him, so I've distanced myself from them.