Not sure if this is a mental illness or if it even belongs here, but I can’t seem to find anywhere else to talk about this. Sorry for bad grammar. 

For a long time, I’ve gotten attached to shows, movies, and books. Recently, I’ve been imagining I’m one of the characters, playing out scenarios that take place before or after the timeline of the show. Kinda like a fanfiction, I guess? But this has gotten to the point where I can’t escape it? Like I’m imagining the charters from the show (or whatever they are from) in my head, watching me I guess? I picture my head as a room with a big screen, this big screen plays what I’m currently doing from my point of view. I imagine I’m playing the character, if that makes sense. Like let’s say there’s A and A’s friends. A’s friends would go into their mind and watch them, but the thing is they are watching their past? It’s super hard to explain. Everywhere I go I feel as if they are watching me, this includes out of the house. Like if I’m talking to, let’s say, my friend then I will imagine they are a different character from the show. This is driving me crazy and I hate it, but I can’t find a way to stop it. On top of that, I also feel like there are cameras watching my every move, so when I act out things, try to learn new dances, try to pronounce Japanese and Russian characters, (I’m trying to learn languages to get my mind off of all of this) and etc, I instantly get embarrassed. Whenever I think a camera or person is watching me, I tend to think they’re watching me through my window. 

Once again sorry for bad grammar, and sorry if this was hard to understand. If you can relate to this please let me know.