Last night I (unsuccessfully) attempted and am now suffering from the after effects of it, as well as withdrawal from my usual meds that i had to stop taking a few days ago because i ran out. I tried reaching out to my best friend/FP and no response, which is absolutely soul crushing especially considering I don't know if I'll even wake up tomorrow. Today has been hard enough, I'm so dizzy and disoriented i can't walk in a straight like and i keep bumping into/falling over things, on top of that i'm starving but cant eat much because the thought of food is making me sick to my stomach. 

I just want the suffering to be over once and for all.