i struggle a lot with identifying emotional intensity. after years of repressing almost anything i felt, it's very hard for me to underestand what i feel. i know i am sad or happy or angry, but it's as if i don't have a scale of underestanding; i can only see the ends of the spectrum. i get irrationally sad/happy/angry with little things because i literally feel everything at high intensity, and it's hard for me to feel anything less.

i have been diagnosed with bpd by a psychiatrist and i am doing therapy, but i really can't manage to change the way i percieve these things, and it's really getting to me. i am afraid i will be like this my whole life, and it is TIRING. 

does anyone have any tips at all? or does anyone feel the same?