During the past few months, I became best friends with a friend of mine. Without me realising, I started copying all of his actions. I started to talk like him, act like him etc.

We were going out a lot and I even convinced myself that I actually was an extrovert and loved parties and meeting new, random people. 

During this period we made a really  good friend and we started to go out with the three of us. We always had loads of fun, until I cheated with this new friend on my boyfriend of two years. My boyfriend didn’t like going out, so I thought, at the time, that we just grew apart and the relationship was coming to an end anyways.

After a lots of drama and breaking up with my boyfriend, everything is now sort of okay. However during this period, I had a lot of time alone and started behaving like my usual self again.

Now I’ve realised that I was just copying my friends behaviour at that time and we’re not the same at all. He hasn’t done anything wrong, but now it feels weird hanging out with him. I cancel almost always when he wants to go out and comments like; “We”re literally the same” feel wrong now. Hanging out with him now feels awkward , because we’re not actually alike.

I do really want to stay friends, because  he doesn’t deserve it to just get ditched by me.
I really don’t know how to handle this situation, any advice or people who’ve had a similar experience?