***I have been genuinely curious about this for AGES.***

Does the lack of public affection from your S/O or FP ever make other borderlines feel ashamed/embarrassed of? But to a weird extent. Like your S/O or FP refusing to hold your hand in public or post about for example. Not even the upright refusal, but them just not doing it in general. As if they forgot, or never had the idea to begin with. Personally, asking my girlfriend to post about me doesn't even make it better because i had to ASK her. It wasn't her idea, it was mine. Sometimes i express how the lack of that type of affection makes me feel, and when she then offers to post about me i freak out because i think i'm being selfish or egotistical. And it really isn't the same feeling. When it's random and unexpected it feels so good, but when i have to ask it's no longer a surprise. It was no longer her original idea. I could go on about this forever but right now i just need to know i am not alone.