Anyone trying to figure everything out by yourself? Using knowledge gained from reading, tv or anywhere really. I find myself, though maybe a bit slower than a process like DBT, slowly working through the symptoms by just being opening to learning things from everywhere. I take a bit of eastern philosophy and practices as well and I find it helps. Especially in regards to acceptance, letting it flow, chakras as being real or metaphors etc etc. Though sometimes I find myself plateauing... but as time goes on I chip away at everything.  Some days its hard to regulate emotion or feel like I'm in reality, some days are great. Some moments I have clarity and some moments I don't. I understand this is what happens when you have bpd, but the "good" moments(trying not to explain things in black and white..) tend to be better than lets say three years ago, and the bad moments tend to be easier dealt with. I've stopped people pleasing the majority of the time, express how I feel at times and I teeter between being confident in my beliefs and having none at all. Today over meditation I came to the root, the whole abandonment fear thingy. I can trace it back to certain memories but still having a hard time letting it all go... I guess that comes with time. Anyways yeah.. I was just wondering who else does this by themselves?