For a few months there things got better and I was able to busy myself while my boyfriend (and FP) played video games online with his friends, which is an every day thing and even long gaming sessions on the weekends. Lately though it has been hard.

Today he didn't actually start playing with them until way later than usual, but the several hours before then he just sat at his desk on Facebook. It was *killing* me. We watched a couple episodes of tv with dinner and then he went back to Facebook. HOW CAN FACEBOOK ENTERTAIN SOMEONE FOR HOURS ON END?

So now he's playing games with his friends and I'm dying for attention. I can'tt get myself to focus on anything. I can't relax. I just want him all to myself. I feel like I'm going to go crazy.

I don't want to be like this. I want to be able to enjoy time by myself.