I have lost hope for it all. Recently graduated college but can't do anything with my degree because I have to go to grad school etc etc. I have no sense of accomplishments. Not happy with what I do in life. 
In constant chronic pain regarding my muscles. Always tense. Always tired. Chronic back pain. I have a shit ton of health problems. Sleeping problems. 

There's no point of it? I can't keep going like this I've been looking for fixes and solutions but nothing seems to work. 

I'm so close to ending it but I might just have to wait for something to take me out. 

I have never felt so alone in this world. I want to believe that it gets better but it gets harder each day.