I live in a big city and dropped my three best friends (we were a group) in July because I figured they didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. It was just a feeling. I deleted my socials too , and haven’t been hanging with anyone (hung out twice w an acquaintance, but that’s nothing compared to hanging out with your best friends). 

I reached out to one and she was understanding and said she was happy I reached out. My other friends i miss but I’m paralyzed when I think about messaging them. As time goes by I feel like the window of understanding for my situation dwindles and i just look like kore and more of an assholw. I have literally no friends and hang out w my bf all the time. He has friends and I always feel so sad when I see him texting them and stuff because I don’t have that. I’m not really sure how to proceed with this. Should I just text ? Anyone else been in this situation? They knew I’d been depressed for a while before I ghosted.