Right now im in college an irregular student 
and now im just done and tired with it. I want to stop studying because i feel that its not for me i don't enjoy it i don't feel like I'm gaining something even if I'm going to it. Honestly, its becoming hard for me to continue and when i say something about it to my family they'll just say see through it till the end  and personally I'm only doing it for the sole reason of paying back the hardwork my family is giving me just to go to college. I told them about it that maybe i dont need to continue going to college because for me its a waste of time and money cuz like i said im not gaining anything but they kept pushing this idea to me to just continue it.  It doesn't feel like its ending and the more i do it my mental just go boom everytime. Its causing me great anxiety just thinking about going to college every single day gaining nothing. I can't say anything about it anymore to anyone cause they can't understand what I'm feeling and its really eating me out. I'm having a hard time sleeping because of it. I don't want to disappoint my parents but it's hard for me to keep doing this. I don't know what to do. And so lately my train of thought keep on ending in one solution and its wanting to end the suffering and its not getting any lighter.