i feel a bad period of mental health coming up, it's like i feel it in my body and i can't quite put my finger on what it is until it's inevitable, i was lucky to get out of it last time, even spent some time relatively happy but that creeping feeling is coming back and i'm terrified i won't make it this time.

all i can think of is the negatives, i don't want to be here anymore. and i don't know if i'm going to be able to stop those thoughts this time