I’m still undiagnosed apparently I am a guy and bpd takes a long time to diagnose so We were friends on discord, never ever been as emotionally vulnerable in any relationship before, revealed how much I hurt when I care, They have nothing but been supportive and empathetic one of my friends she also has bpd, and could understand my insecurities but instead of facing these feelings of paranoia that they will abandon me I always use to leave or unfriend them, but idk why and how but they always understood me still but after the splitting episode which was just me projecting my stupid invasive insecurities to them, they have been soo soo reasonable and understanding I feel so crappy that my feelings of abandonment overpowered my empathy. Now they have had enough I mean for real it was exhausting for both parties but no matter how much they hate me for it I will always love them. Enough is enough I jeopardized a beautiful friendship just because I got overwhelmed by emotions and could not regulate them, I have been cheated by myself 

Did anyone else also had a similar wake-up call to address not only bpd but any issues