I hear more about manic triggers than depressive ones. So I'm intrigued, does it always follow a manic episode for you? Do you think its situational and if you changed your circumstances it would still happen? Do you find you get stuck in a negative thought loop and could potentially break out of it?

I'm asking because I can't identify a trigger for mine, but at the same time when I come out of an episode I look back and feel like if I really really really tried, I could have pulled myself out of it.

Maybe its guilt but I look back on depressive episode behaviour and just feel kinda pathetic you know? I feel like it's not who I am and it's embarrassing when I don't talk to friends and family for a month or so(and for no reason). Like I want to hack my brain, and potentially stop it from happening before it really takes a hold on me. Not sure if thats possible however. Responses appreciated

**added the suicidal thoughts trigger flair incase this brought up negative thoughts/memories for anyone