Hey

I'm not sure why I'm writing this. I guess I just want to vent.

Anyways I'm a 16 year old guy with depression and all I have to say is fuck life. I didn't sign up for this shit, why did it have to be just me that existed, couldn't there be anyone who actually want life?

I stopped going to school a couple of months ago. I have no energy to get up and go to school, but I keep up by studying home, and I don't really know why. The plan is that I'm going to start going to school again but I really have no motivation to go back to that hell. I'm not bullied, I have friends and I like the subjects in school but for some fucking reason I hate it so fucking much, I don't ever want to travel to school again, just to dread what is to come.

I really wish I could die, but I'm imprisoned in this fucking world because I don't want my family to be sad.

I don't really know what to do anymore, I have had lots of motivation earlier about learning a new language, start a company or learn an instrument but I don't want to do anything anymore.

What is wrong with me