 

F\*\*\* I hate you Borderline personality disorder.

You make me feel in ways I can't describe yet you destroy every single thing in my life, you hijack my emotions and clarity, you make me so sensitive to anything, the slightest fucking change and u make me feel a volcano of emotions, you make me distorted and angry, you make me have no identity at all, you've robbed me of my gray areas and most importantly youve sabotaged me but I love you, I'm so resistant to getting u treated, I guess I'm a stupid masochist.

This illness destroys lives in some cases,It destroys your community (some cases) and most importantly yourself! It robs you of gray, everything is either black or white, you're so sensitive to the point a relationship update on Facebook can trigger you into a dark pit of homicidal anger, sadness, rage. You feel robbed from the things u think u deserved.

I know it's hard but one day you BPD wil bow to me, I will regain my identity, my self and my emotions, you will no longer haunt me and make me suffer. You are NOT ME, and never wll be me, i am not you!! stop destroying me.

\- my poem on Living with BPD as a young adult male.