I'm 16M and a guy. Everyday I struggle alot with intrusive thoughts and like I always feel like I'm closer and closer to doing them, which I did at some points react on them and did ridiculous things. I have very violent, sexually innapropriate, and dangerous thoughts like when angry at someone I might think about killing them alot stabbing them hitting beating whatever I can think of and the thoughts get very violent in the process. Or when I see a girl, I look to the ground look away and even if they say hi I pretend not to look or hear them because my sexual thoughts and fantasies are so strong that whenever I see a girl my reflex is to think of them naked or fucking someone or me or I am brutalizing her in some way. I just cant talk to girls anymore, it makes me nervous, and I look at her I get immidietate boner and always think sexually of that person and like how i could rape them in the moment kind of fantasies which dosent help me at all. Last year I reacted and almost choked my 19 year old brother to death, a brother which I hate but I had si much thoughts and anger and everything.  I got nobody to help me out, am very lonely kid and just want a bit of help from some of you,