I’ve known for years that people outside my immediate family didn’t like me, this includes many of my cousins/aunts/uncles as well. I can’t say I blame them as I know I’m not a relatable person. This didn’t really bother me much because they all live a few hours away from me and I rarely see them. I’m beginning to think that my brothers and sister don’t like me either and this is actually hurting me a little. I know they won’t ever admit it, but I think they’re secretly a little embarrassed of me. Without a doubt, I can clearly tell that I’m the black sheep of the family. Some of them know of my problems with my self-esteem, but they haven’t spoken to me in over a year. They haven’t checked in on how I’m doing. Do they not care? 

Our relationship hasn’t been that great since we’ve last interacted, but I don’t think it was so bad as to where they won’t talk to me anymore. I don’t know what to think right now.