Somehow I got this fake psychic ability. I realized it was fake after a while when answers weren’t lining up so that’s one thing. 

Alright secondly, just a lot of stupid ass hallucinations. I’ll feel like I’m getting poisoned and my thoughts will be fuzzy and all that and for a while I was driving a lot to get away from the house because I was sure that if I was at the house I would die but then I realized that was fake. Random hallucinations. A guy dancing his ass off in traffic. A guy skateboarding where no one ever skateboards and dressed to the nines. A guy walking shirtless literally right beside the highway. A woman waving a white towel above her head in a circular motion without ever messing up while she walks down a sidewalk. A woman mouthing to me that they want to kill me. That had to be a hallucination or maybe some people do actually want to mess with my head in real life. 

Anyway, the house in front of me and the house behind me are both owned by companies, not people. The people who were supposedly contractors working on the house in front of me now live there, only after I called out my dad who’s supposed to be dead who I suspect lives behind me for my mom living in that house. I was like get her and that same day a moving truck came but there’s nothing in that house and then shortly after the contractor truck and a jeep are there and the jeep follows me around. 

The house behind me is empty too but the lights go on and off at that house. The yard is perfectly manicured. The guys truck that’s parked in front of that house drove up and down my street 2 days ago and waved at me like my dad used to, a super slow wave. My dad was supposed to be sick. He looks my dad with plastic surgery and weight loss surgery but not sick. 

Then today I apply for a job pretty far away on Craigslist by text and the dude that called me, I’m pretty sure it was the guy who lives behind me, it sounded like I expect him to talk but not like his old self. He started off the call saying hi how are you which that isn’t a business call so I waited a few seconds and hung up and then when I realized it was the job I texted them that sorry I thought it was someone I was having issues with and anyway, I asked him for the job by text and he said he would see what he could do and then a couple hours after, he sent me the new employee paperwork and benefit elections and all that by email but we haven’t talked since. 

If that is my dad, I probably should’ve talked to him on the phone, but if it is him, I don’t know how that’s possible. 

I bitched at him on Grindr for raising me like shit and never fixing the house and basically blamed him for everything which was probably inappropriate but a couple days later I had a ton of guys wanting to have sex with me and a lot of them sounded unauthentic though so I wasn’t really comfortable hooking up except for one. 

He was white on Grindr and Mexican at his house. Now today a picture of the Mexican guy I had sex with last night messaged me and come to find out this one is Asian. I don’t care about race but I care about consistency. 

A so called cop called me today and I recognize the number but never answered. I checked his number and it’s a therapist office. 

What else oh yeah. My ex. He came over maybe 2 months ago and was a fat hairy mess and said he’s never shaving for anyone and then I go to his house and he’s clean shaven and muscular like he used to be.