So I had like two beers and wanted to get more in  nonstop shop about a kilometer away. There's a drive way where almost nobody drives. I didnt endanger anyone but still got pulled over by a stealth police car. Lost my drivers license and had a panic attack. The police shouted at me and all. I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT. So far, I was stable but since yesterday with all of that, I started splitting and spiraling again, I just can't, i hate my life.. 

Disclaimer: yes, I'm an idiot, just wanted to share something that most people wouldn't. Feel free to hate. Just thought that it shouldn't be a taboo to vent even if something is my fault. Love you, dont drink and drive. Be more responsible than i am. Thanks