One of my worst struggles when it comes to BPD is the lack of a sense of self. I feel as though I have no values, beliefs, interests, hobbies, or goals other than to get someone to love me. I feel like that'll never happen, though, because there's nothing in here to love. I'm just a shell, a ghost, a shadow. For the GoT fans out there, I feel like Khal Drogo after the witch brings him back to life.

I know that this is just my perception, though, and that I do have traits. I'm trying to identify them and write them down so I can remember them later. I figured out a trait today. It's a small one, but I figured ad share them with you guys as I figure them out.

I really enjoy the feeling of waking up well before dawn to travel. Especially if it's cold outside. It reminds me of family road trips to my grandparents' house during Christmas time.