
I’m on day 7 of upping from 20mg to 40mg.  

Quick backstory:   50yo M.  Great life and family.  Money isn’t a problem.  Work at home. Former alcoholic.  Nearly lost everything and everyone.   Sober since 1/14/14.  Got impatient care at hospital.  All good since.
 
My doc then treated me with Prozac and Clonazapam.  I was on 10mg Prozac and .50 Clonazapam twice a day.  

Got real depressed the fall of 2014.  Doc upped my Prozac to 20 mg.  Took about a week, but it worked.  

2015 I told doc I didn’t need that much Clonazapam, so I cut down CT to .50 at 6pm.  Rolling along great.  

My dad died suddenly in June of 2020.  My doc immediately gave me 60 extra .50 Clonazapam to help me cope as needed.  
I took them over a few months.  When I ran out I went back on .50 once a day no problems.  

September 18, 2021:   Pharmacy switched my maker from Accord Clonazapam to Teva Clonazapam.   No problem for a couple of weeks.  Then Bam! On 9/25 started having tingly face and tight shoulders.   I started obsessing about my health. Googling everything. I wasn’t in full-blown anxiety but needless to say I ended up there.

Finally got back on the accord Clonazapam about a month ago.  Hasn’t helped. 

The last 2 weeks have been back to full blown anxiety.  

Shoulders tense, sweaty palms, sleep and appetite messed up.   Completely unsettled Not happy.  Not enjoying anything. Can’t think about anything but my issues.  

These anxiety symptoms has led to some 
depression I think.   

2 weeks ago doc added Buspirone.   Helped initially.  He upped me pretty fast over a couple of days.   By the end of the week I had some reactions to the higher dose.  (20 mg)   Sleep got worse. He would not raise my Clonazapam.  Added melatonin to sleep.    I sleep about 5-6 hours a night now.  

One week ago doc cut my Buspirone back as needed.    Said I was welcome to take it or not take it.    He upped my Fluoxetine to 40 mg.    I’m on day 7 today.  Still have anxiety.    Worse in the morning.   I can’t tell what is the side effects from upping and what is anxiety.   

I’m not being very patient, but I feel like I need to add to my Clonazapam until the Fluoxetine kicks in.   Doc is completely against it, but I’m exhausted of feeling this way.   

I feel like I’m at a major crossroads like I was when I nearly lost it all with alcohol.    


Thanks for reading.  🙏