It all stems from the fact that I’m so lonely. Really, that’s it. Other reasons too, but those can all be fixed.
It’s like I feel less than human because no one wants me. What kind of life is that where no one wants to be with you, no one wants to be around you and no one ever has? It just makes me feel so shitty, like I’m not good enough. This loneliness is never ending. Ever since I knew what romantic relationships were I’ve felt like this. Some days I’m numb to it and don’t care, but then it just catches up to me and I feel so fucking shitty. I’m tired of what feels like a never ending cycle.