
I’m a 21M . I’ve escaped for so long and done so many things out of low self esteem. I was raised by a single mother which allowed me to escape. I wish that I had the courage to help my mom out, but I didn’t. I feel as though I’ve been hurt too much and hurt too many people. Being naive really was the reason for all of this happening. I feel like I’m being a little bitch but I can’t move forward. I’m not a natural winner, but I know that I have the characteristics of one. Whenever I try to rise up, I just go lay back down. The past is too painful to deal with. The regret is too strong. The only way I feel I can operate is through bitterness and anger. I’m going to therapy but I can’t do the work to help myself. I’m learning about myself but I just can’t do the work. I’ve been disciplined before but I was doing it to escape the past. I need to be kind but I can’t figure it out. How to let go and be a kind/strong person?