Since my first true psychotic break I have been trying to figure out what caused this. At first I blamed LSD. Then I blamed the Adderall I was prescribed in my teens. Then I blamed my abusive ex. And when off my meds I just delusionally blame random events or things that haven't even happened. An old friend of mine would ask what happened to me and I'd say some crazy drug story or how I was raped or something along those lines and genuinely believe it was true as I said it. 

The reason I bring this up. Is because I'm still young when it comes to this illness.(20m). And I just manically try to find someone or something to blame. I remember being fine before and now I'm not. This delusion that it was caused by something has led me to blaming my parents for this(delusion that Adderall caused this and they gave it to me). And so many arguments have happened because of this. Medication doesn't seem to get rid of it either. On medication I mainly just don't care, occasionally I have moments of clarity like right now. But it has made me turn against my parents. This disease is awful