It’s frustrating. I want to be that person so much, but I can’t. I’m disabled. Bipolar is one of many problems I have. And I feel like I’m just collecting problems at this point. Everything is worsening and I’m really depressed.

I can’t focus long enough to read a book, I can’t finish school, play video games. Everyday, I pace journal eat and sleep. I’m so tired of this life. 

I used to be productive, healthy. Good skin care. I could read a book. I had motivation. Now it’s all gone and I’m left with nothing. I miss the good times.