Today is the day! After 5 long weeks I see my FP today, I am a mixed bag of emotions right now. It was just going to be a day trip but we are now staying the night in a hotel together. I got myself feeling really good about myself. Lots of self care. I really hope this goes the way I’d like which is getting back with him. He said he’s willing to talk and work things out. Knowing him he wouldn’t stay the night if he wasn’t comfortable. I just can’t wait to see him. I’m trying super hard not to get my hopes up. This man is everything and I adore him. He is the reason I quit drinking, got into healing and really started researching how to fix my bullshit. I hope he sees that.