Basically the title. 

I'm 28 years old. I wasn't well educated on mental disorders to know that I had bipolar, but i have been severely depressed through out my life and would get extremely functional periodically. 

I went to a therapist after my recent breakup 2 years ago. Since I really thought I had found the one and we had to break up due to my recurring severe depression. So, when it happened and I lost her, I decided to get it checked out and fixed. 

Since then, I was diagnosed with severe ADHD, Bipolar 2, anxiety, depression, and CPTSD. I was medicated for a year too. Now, I'm medication free. 

What the medication did however was it removed my hypomania completely, and I wouldn't say I'm depressed anymore. BUT, I have zero motivation to do anything productive. I try to work, I try to start working, i try to form a healthy habit. Basically I try a lot to start something, I do it for a couple of weeks, and without a hint I stop doing it too. Like, if i would take a break day from Gym chances are that day will turn into a week and no more gym. 

I'm tired of fighting myself and feeling bad at not being functional. Which in turn makes me sad and slightly depressed.