Lately I've been feeling a lot better, I haven't had as much heaviness on my mind, I've not been having a lot of stress, I haven't been cutting myself. I've generally been really good. For some reason I just don't like it. I don't like not having any pressure, I don't like not wanting to cut myself, I don't like not wanting to cry all the time. I really feel like a part of me is gone with anxiety, depression, and self harm. I feel like something is left behind, something that I miss. I've been catching myself trying to make my own problems, without my express intent. I relapsed in my self harm a month ago, but I haven't felt any craving for it lately. I've finally felt normal, I've finally been normal, but I hate it. Is there something wrong with me. I just want to go back to the cutting and the crying for no reason. I feel like I thrived there. I don't know. Is there something wrong with me? Am I a sociopath? Am I a compulsive liar? I don't know.