I can’t control how I feel, nor how I think. It makes me so mad when people suggest that I should just say no to being sad. I can’t. If I could do that. I would. It’s not like I haven’t tried either. I’ve tried thinking differently, it isn’t sustainable. For the longest time, I could barely control my own actions, let alone my feelings. I wish I could just switch my mindset, but that’s not how I work.