I don't know what else to do but post here, even knowing I most likely won't get a response. 

These past 2 weeks have been the WORST 2 weeks of my life. I have been on Lexparo 20mg for MANY MANY years but I have been so irresponsible about taking it the past year. Felt like I didn't need it so I was taking it so sporadically (one or twice a week for the past year). Been taking it again daily for the past week and a half or so. 

This past 2 weeks, I've thought I have had every condition under the sun. Been to the ER twice saying I had brain cancer (CT scans negative). Been to the ER saying I have stomach cancer (CT scans negative). Since then, I cannot stop with constant panic and worry. Waking up daily sweating and panicking. Which has led to me googling all day. "Why can't I calm down, am I going pshychotic?". "Why do I wake up with random songs stuck in my head all day and getting Deja Vu, do I have epilepsy?". It's just a constant worry about every thing under the sun. I cannot get a control of my thoughts and its causing me to not focus at work at all. 

I legit don't know what else to do. I have an appt with a Pschy tomorrow (after weeks of calling and begging them to get me in there). I am so scared they are going to see my condition and tell me to admit myself to a mental hospital. 

I want this to go away more than anything. I want my life back. I have an amazing wife and a beautiful son and I can't even be a good husband or father because all i do is pace around the house in a state of panic. 

Please someone tell me this will go away and I can live a normal life again. I am so hopeless and I cant take it.