Have had issues with anorexia in the past and presumably in the present day, but I've been trying to make a conscious effort to nourish myself. 

I hardly ever get any hunger cues. I would not consider myself to be a picky eater, but I am often repulsed by food for at least a short window of time probably on a daily basis, even foods that I don't typically mind. There have been times where I have choked, gagged, and just felt completely defeated trying to swallow a dime dized piece of bread.

Somewhat related, I have a lot of anxiety about time constraints and constantly feeling like I'm not being productive but also not getting anything out of my free time, and I'm constantly in a state of panic about what's next on the to-do list.

That being said, when I was struggling with weight loss about a year ago, what really helped me was cooking my own meals. But it started to become more and more frequent that I would become grossed out and unwilling to eat the meal that I just cooked. Now that I have harsher time constaints due to life, the thought of cooking gives me anxiety. I spend most of my days, every day, dreading how I'm going to source my next meal, frustrated that this is something I have tackle like THREE times a day. Every meal seems like a marathon. I have to work up an appetite which can take hours of picking at my food, but I also fear contamination for certain foods. When each meal takes hours of mental preparation and sometimes hours to get through the preparation and consumption of the meal, it gets to the point where almost my whole day's worth of mental energy was expended on thinking about food. Thinking about how I have to figure out what to eat every single day for the rest of my life makes me feel paralyzed

I tried googling to see if anyone shares my same anxiety about how frustrating it is that we have to partake is this kind of energy intensive task so many times a day, but did not find much so lmk if this is relatable