i am in love. i'm falling hard. so is he. 
this is great. 

the issue: i'm moving out of state in a month.  he cannot come with, as he has strong ties at home. 
i cannot stay because, well, fuck this hell of a state. 

i am terrified. i really want to be in this for the long run. but how will i manage without him physically with me? i will get jealous. he'll probably find someone better. i'll make some stupid impulsive decisions and ruin what could be an amazing future. he gives me so much hope for healing. i cannot stress enough how good he is for me. but i am so afraid of him leaving me when i'm gone, or before i'm gone, or  not being able to know what is going on in his life. 

i could lose him to someone else, or god forbid, death. everyone i love dies. at the worst times. jesus christ i'm just so horrified. i need advice and reassurance.