My phone broke and the shop people camt fix it. Nothings backed up either. 

I had so many photos of us, one at his dad's wedding, at conventions, helping him move, just hanging out together. They're all gone. Everything is gone. I miss him so much I feel physically sick. I just. I don't know what to do without him and i just feel like this is a breaking point.

I can't ask him if he has them still, he'll just block me. And even if he didn't he probably wouldn't send me them.

I don't know what to do. I've just been crying for the last 30 minutes.

I don't see a use in living without him. I'm so so tired of this. I just want it over with, I just wanna fucking die so I can stop missing him so much.

I don't wanna be alive.