a couple days ago my best friend overdosed on pills because of an extreme panic attack. he took every pill in his house that he could find beciase of an irrational fear of school. the only thing that stopped him was the fact that he told a different friend what was going on at the time and that friend came to his house and stopped him before he took too much.
my best friend ended up in the hospital where they told him that he might die in the next three days. 
i only heard of this after the whole situation (before he told his mom-who ended up taking him to the hospital), because i randomly texted him something unimportant that happened during my day and after that text he suddenly wrote about the situation which led me to have a complete breakdown. it was the first time i  cried in school, and it was one of the worst feelings ever. 
i can't believe he actually did this. i think im still in shock. i don't want to make the situation about me, but i feel really hurt that he didn't tell me what was going on earlier. he's my best friend, and i thought i was his. we've been through a lot of shit together, and we've always been there for each other. but suddenly something like this happens, and the first person he contacts isn't me. obviously i'm glad that he wrote to someone, becuase he was literally one or two pills from literal death. but the fact that he'd rather text a guy from his class about this and not me really stings. and the worst part is that if the friend didn't show up to stop him then i wouldn't even know that anything happened at all. he would have just died and not even told me what was going on. 
this isn't even the first time a person close to me nearly died because of a pill overdose. i hate these types of situations, but i keep finding myself in them for some reason, and it's really taking a toll on my mental health. i'm only 17, i need a break.
i wasn't really sure what subreddit this post belongs to, so it might not really fit here, but i just needed to vent a little. also english isn't my first language, so i apologize for any grammatical or spelling errors.