Anyone here work in the mental health field? As a mental health professional I'm surrounded by licensed mental health individuals who make hurtful quips about borderlines and how disruptive they/we are. I am afraid to speak up for fear they'll know "I'm one of them". I have serious concerns about my behavior as a professional and struggle incessantly to be "normal" and hide this huge part of my life that is my disorder. I come home at the end of the day so emotionally exhausted that I am surprised I am able to wake up every day. Ironic that I tell clients we should safety plan and that they have a reason to live and to push forward ...and yet, I'm ready to do the opposite. This field is so draining and as someone who has a BPD diagnosis the only support I have found is suffering through 2.5 hours [roundtrip] 2x a week to see my psychologist. What a struggle even that is because I over-analyze everything I'm told or they say. I even obsess over my clients and if I've been that "perfect" clinician that particular session. 
The struggle is intense and I have yet to find someone in the field ....you dont have to be to comment. Its just one of those sensitive days after a rough 8 hours at a mental health center.