Yet I don't do enough to change it. I'm scared I'm gonna be killing myself if I do anymore than I'm doing, but the truth is I'm killing myself by doing nothing. This "life" I have now isn't getting me anywhere. 

I'm tired of sitting around watching TV and playing videogames. Like dude.... Wtf are we doing? 

I don't exactly have the greatest health and there's a pretty good chance I'm gonna die young. It's hard to accept that reality but that's just what it is. 

I'm not happy at all though and maybe I might never be, but I have to know I tried at least. 

If tomorrow comes, things will change, I'll change.