I used to be a fun person, at least I think so. After my last relationship I feel like I lost myself so much. My anxiety cripples me. Today my family and some family friends gathered for the first time in forever and I kid you not, I probably said at least 3 words. What do I even say? What do you want me to say? It sucks seeing my cousins bring their partners around and them being so fun and outgoing. Makes me miss having a partner. But I need to better myself first. Will meds help? I feel like they’ll debilitate me more but just suppress my anxiety. Ughhhh what the hell