Now, here me out. 
I don’t mean anything suicidal/self harm. I mean letting go and letting my emotions run my life. Here’s the thing, I hold back so many of my feelings in fear they are extreme (since I’m such a black and white thinker) but sometimes I just want to explode. As we all know, we feel everything 100000x  stronger than usual, so I’m basically taking all of those feelings and bottling them up because I don’t want to explode. but I think I need to. I think I need to just let my emotions get the best of me for a minute so I can feel alive again. I’ve maintained my “sanity” for about as long as I can. Pretty soon, I’m gonna start letting loose. Is there any advice on how to get our feelings across in a way that others won’t find so extreme? I don’t know. Does this make sense? I’m rambling. but yeah basically I’m tired of holding back everything I feel because someone might take it as me being “crazy”. shit