Does it ever feel like that? When you meet an interesting person, when you want to share your thoughts. But nobody wants to give you feed back?  And the people who seemed interested in you only become voices in your head while you play out the anticipation of making real human connection.  But it never pans out.  You must let the thrill of hope fade.

Doesn't it suck to be entertaining....but there is no one to laugh with..or even at you. Or to join you in your frolic.

What do I want from that person i wish i could meet and know? Do i want some impossible and inhuman thing? Acceptance...no filter conversation...to be enjoyed.  Why people "get to know you" by making assumptions and categories  for you but not ask about what you think about yourself...or tell how that is  or is not so?

Are they afraid to hurt my delicate feelings ......what could they tell me...the worse.... what they think........

Do they know, i believe my izm was created,  because no one loved me for who i am. And it is hard to live having to ask people.....

Please tell my why i am too stupid to bother with. I am intelligent. I just don't do social cue behavior. I think i am authentic but...please tell me why no one cares to know or be known very deeply? Do you also live with this loneliness...normie?

Sorry folks that was just a rant....i feel mopey....it hurts sometimes. 

\*\*setting alarm clock for work in the am\*\*