Hey it's been a while ... I'm doing better now I'm not dead even though I almost was I can't say I'm a changed person who has a better life and I'm happy and recovery went super well like most recovery post are I stopped cutting and not eating but my living conditions haven't changed much or even at all I'm still 8 feet deep in the closet I'm comfortable in not miserable like I was but I'm not happy with my life I've grown comfortable with my grim reality that I'm nothing. My scars are pretty bad I'm doing extremely well in school now top of my classes but socially I'm still invisible and with the few friends I have I'm fake nothing has gotten better but somethings got a less worse. I left all of my online communities due to the request of my mother of my relationship with her is as strained as ever my sister is getting married my brother is finishing highschool my mother quite smoking everyone around me has grown I know that time won't wait for me to get better but I'm trying to say the least that's all that matters right