I don’t want to get too deep into what I’m anxious about, but I’ve been increasingly paranoid over the past few years. It comes in waves, I start freaking out because brain starts rationalize what I know is irrational and what normal people would simply brush off as a thought.

I never had a “it feels like the world is ending” moment  , at least not yet, but I do feel like someone’s out to get me or trying to “take me down”. Because of those thoughts it’s really hard for me to open up and be vulnerable. I’m holding on to privacy both on the internet and in real life, but it’s starting to effect my day to day. I can’t go out what’s so ever without it making me feel anxious and stiff. Not to mention it causes headaches, stomach pains, irritability, constant anxious feeling throughout  the day, hyperventilation when it’s at its worst, and insomnia.