My wife is the worse thing for my mental health... before I start this will be a vent. My wife is very selfish, when my mom was dieing in the hospice at 55 I wanted to take time off work my mom had 6 months to live but for my wife I decided to wait 3 months and than take the last 3 months which I did my wife through that whole 3 months was pissed off at me about bills which we were fine we had everything paid and kept bugging me about going back to work and I refused, she would get mad at me and tell me my mom's fine but she ovb wasn't. She died Oct 5th 2019.

I have depression anexity bipolar and a personality disorder I work 12 hour days and I am a team leader I manage my mental health pretty well but sometimes it gets the best of me. One day I'm having a terrible time and I'm trying to vent to my wife. She says "I think it's weird that men have feelings..but like go on" anyways I stopped talking 

Different time I opened up and she rolls her eyes and says "iv had a way worse life than you" I would never to anyone compare lives.

Iv been at my job for 9 years I was thinking about applying somewhere new same pay and benefits to start but she got mad at me and said stop talking to me and I know why she's mad out benefits stack. So she gets 1000 in massage not just 500 but I said please I just want to apply and see but if it's not good I won't go than she's gets all mad and tells me to stop talking.

She's very controlling always yelling at me to do stuff like build a deck and out kitchen that I did in a weekend I just want to rest.

I rub her back and hair every night to help her sleep and run and get her things I hardly ever sleep


I'm thinking about divorcing her but I donno if I have the mental capability to do it

Sorry for the vent I'm just burnt out.