I’m having a hard time being compassionate towards myself. I was with my s.o. for 4 months…which is pretty long for me. I’ve never been so open about having BPD because I was just diagnosed a few months ago. I sort of always had a feeling I had it but other mental health professionals missed it and called it anxiety/depression. 

Has anyone had a s.o. that sounded like they care about your condition, but simultaneously used it against you? 

For example, I can tell when I’m about to have an episode and would let him know because I always feel awful afterwards. He said he was open to talking about it and when I told him what my thoughts were the discussion started escalating.  After a few minutes he just looked at me and asked,  “Do you like being this way?” Which just set me off. It was a confusing relationship. He said he truly cared about me and wanted to help but at the same time I felt like a burden and that he’d do things to test my reactions. It’s hard knowing if I’m just being paranoid or if my intuition was right. I miss him, but do feel better without the judgements and being triggered by him.

Does anyone have a successful relationship story?