I’ve been wondering, bc personally I have so many feelings and empathy for others! But I lack anger and self esteem except during hypo mania. It’s as if hypo mania is who I wanna be all the time almost, but my soft nature over comes me and can’t deal with the no fucks given way of the hypo mania version. I become embarrassed of how I acted while hypo even tho while hypo I enjoyed every decision I made! Bc I didn’t give a fuck ya feel me?