1 year ago I applied for a scholarship that I did not really want. It was a shot in the dark. I went through tons of letters, interviews and surprisingly got it in the end. The scholatship is to go to Europe and study. Now by then I reaaaallly did not want it but managed to let my family and friends talk me into it. Huge mistake because my mental health spiralled down to zero. I suffer from OCD and anxiety and Ive hit rock bottom. This Sunday they announced it in the huge local newspaper. Everyone knows and now I want out before its way too late. Any tips? I need a seriously good reason. Ive used like 3 dumb reasons to try and get it deferred so the scholarship admins kind of already know Im messing around with it. It also turns out the program I chose is total nonsense.