In the past three months I have:

- switched directly from Paxil to Lexapro (went badly)
- went back to Paxil and added Abilify (tried it for two weeks and hated it)
- went back to just Paxil and added 1 mg of Ativan daily (though you’re not supposed to take it daily)
- tried testosterone injections (my testosterone is off-the-charts low for a 49yo)
- cross-tapered from Paxil to Lexapro (3 weeks now)
- added Ambien for sleep 
- stopped the testosterone because I felt like it was too many variables

So now I’m down to 10 mg Lexapro (3 weeks in), Ambien and 1 mg of Ativan. 

I’ve been feeling major physical anxiety, mood swings and zero motivation.  I think a lot of this has to do with still ramping up on the Lexapro and likely being “hooked” on the Ativan and getting “rebound anxiety”. It’s probably also not smart to be on Ambien too. 

So, I think I am going to try to taper off the Ativan and Ambien. I’m worried it will be really hard because I’m in a very stressful part of my job but I think I need to do this. Wish me luck and feel free to send advice.