I hate my disability

I hate my disability

I don’t know if anyone can help me but every time when I talk to people I always have to look down. I’m having a hard time doing iContact. I also have a lot of disabilities. I have ADHD as well and honestly I have no friends no support nothing I’m always alone nobody likes me. I have been alone all my life and I have a speech problem and it’s hard for people to understand me my point is this why every time when I talk to people? I always have to look on the ground I have terrible I contact. Nobody really really liked me and I have been having depression for years in years and years I have tried improved my life nobody wants to hang out with me. No female likes me, and when I do talk to a female, they always have to take years and years to respond back my text message, does anyone know that I may have autism I really don’t know if I have autism I have been depressed for years and years and years nobody really really like to be in my hometown and I am 30 years dose adhd make you do you have depressing I’m pretty sure I have  depression all my life. I had a sad and honestly I’m just trying to have some friends and that nobody wants to be my friend.