I have an amazing psych who is out of network. I have health insurance but he doesn’t take mine (or any). All the in network psychs I’ve been to suck. They will give me the pills that I do need but they will not explore any farther than that. They just want the insurance payout from pharma, and to get that they write scripts but don’t care enough to assess any root problems. 

But this out of network guy is great, but he charges $250 for an hourly session (and this is already a discount from his normal rates). I told myself that I will do this once a month for my own mental health, for now. I am able to do this financially but it is not easy. It definitely is a big expense. I’m not going to starve over it but $250 a month is a big chunk of change to have to shelve out. 

Just venting. Shit sucks. Wish i didn’t have to spend for this, wish I was just well. But ik it’s a cost i have to eat for my own mental health) Just frustrated.