i feel like a duller/cloudy version of myself, does this make sense to anyone else? i don't know if anyone else can see it except me but even if im out and feeling "good" i'll still feel empty and dull. i feel like im ruining all my relationships with my friends because they are trying to get conversations out of me and i have nothing to give. i will feel fine and then at a certain point something will switch and i'm back.