I'm currently at university and I have a load of work to do, I have almost three weeks of work to catch up on. I stopped going to uni for a week, so I could revise for an economics test, which I ended up revising for the day before. I know for a fact I failed badly. So I decided that during the following 2 weeks, I would stay at home and revise all day everyday (a lofty goal I know). Predictably, I didn't revise at all (just played video games) and now I have more work to catch up on.

I talked to my mum about this and she says I'm using escapism and procrastination to avoid failure, she made me promise her I'd go to every lecture. But the problem is every time I try to psych myself up in the morning to go to my lectures, I just sit there and do nothing. I just can't bring myself to do anything and I just feel so pathetic. I just wish I could make myself see the consequences of my actions but it's like my brain refuses to acknowledge what I'm doing is wrong. I'm just super stressed out right now, I feel like a massive failure and I broke the promise to my mum. 

I just wanna get back on track and I can't, idk what to do anymore, I fucking hate myself.