I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I'm on the edge. However small it may be, one push. Just one push. Just one sentence. Just one more interaction with my family is going to send me over that edge. Over that line I had promised never to cross. I'm going to lose all the self control I have. 

I've been trying to be strong. I've been trying to get myself together for the last few years. I feel falling. I don't know what to do. I don't have a fucking clue. This is the most I've shared to anyone about this. Please...just any good advice will do.

I want this to end. I want this to end the good way. I want to have a life. Please, help me out