i just wanna start out by saying that i am safe. i live at home with my mom and she is very caring and understanding and patient with me and my anxiety and shes been keeping a close on me during my trial of this new med.
anyway, i started taking hydroxyzine/vistaril/atarax again recently and ive only been on it for two weeks, but the side effects have been awful. i used to take this years ago in high school and i was only on it for a month before i had to be taken off it. but its been a long time and i have a different doctor now and he wanted me to try it again before we try a benzo (theres a history of substance abuse in my family so were trying to avoid benzos if we can.) but this med… has been making me feel wacked out.
its giving me the same awful side effects that it did in high school which consist of headaches and hallucinations. i keep thinking im seeing things or hearing things around me that arent actually there. like small fish swimming through my room, bats flying around, cats and dogs out of the corner of my eye, white blobs and faint shadowy shapes, but if i try and look directly at any of them or notice theyre there they suddenly disappear. i know theyre not really, but its still really scary and off putting.
not to mention this med hasnt helped me feel any less anxious either… i just feel weird now i guess. im hoping to talk to my doctor on monday and see what to do about it, so wish me luck, yall🙏🙏