As you can tell from the title, this is something I have known about since I have been a kid. I used to get infatuated way too fast and get anxiety when a girl wouldn't be going as fast as me. Since growing up though, I have been able to slow down. However when it does happen, I don't know why my anxiety just starts coming out again.

Starting back in October of 2020, I was talking too this girl for about 3 months and nothing really ever came of that besides texting due to her being manipulative and gaslighting me, however I was head over heels for her. It was one of the worst 3 months of my life and after that happened I made alot of life changes and all of 2021 was pretty much the happiest year of my life.

Now in 2022 I recently moved to a new city and met this one girl. We have been talking for about 3 weeks almost every day and she has texted  me almost every evening asking how my day was and is actually interested in getting to know me. Since I learned not to get to into her yet, I usually just responded to her whenever and went about my day. Usually we would have around 1-3 hours between each of our texts to each other.

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Fast forward to last night, I took her on a really nice dinner date and we talked ALOT. afterwards I walked her home and she asked if I wanted to come inside. We talked more and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex. However part way through she started bleeding and the condom came off in her. she was incredibly embarrassed and almost started crying. I just kept hugging her telling her not to worry about, that I still had a great time, and stayed with her for about over an hour. I eventually had to leave to go home but afterwards on my drive home, I really started falling for her. She texted me a bit when I got home saying she was happy I made it home safe.

Today though, all the anxiety I used to feel when I was younger falling for girls who might not like me back started flooding into my head again. I couldn't sleep well because I wasn't sure if I did anything wrong and I just wanted to be with her. We texted a little in the morning, but the texts that the past few weeks that normally took 1-3 hours to get a response from each other feel like a millenia now. my anxiety really is coming out in those long waits because I really just wanna talk with her and I'm afraid she's gonna ghost me like a bunch of other people have done to me in the past. I know there is nothing I should worry about, but I thought I had my anxiety under control finally only for today to suck again. Does anyone have any advice on how I should control it best?