I did something stupid without a real reason why, but when I realised it could kill me, I kept going and passed out. I'm still feeling off, but I had work so I didn't go the hospital and I have work tomorrow so I don't wanna go tonight.

I don't know if I went at it knowing I could've died but I know I didn't stop when I really realised I could. Idk if that counts as an attempt.

I want to call my mom because I'm just kinda scared and uneasy but I cant talk to her in the first time in months to tell her what I've done. I dont even know if she'd pick up if I tried. So I'm just going back to my place and idk i guess that's it