I have meltdowns where, for whatever reason it is, I am either too riled up or too dissociated to use DBT methods, and can potentially pose a significant risk to myself. I feel like with medication I should be able to take the edge off and then be able to use DBT. 

I've tried soooooo many. Quetiapine (25mg, 50mg, at start of episode but I've also tried up to 100mg daily), Ativan (0.5mg, 1mg, &amp; 2mg, absolutely zero effect at any dose)  Olanzipine 2.5mg dissolving tablets is what they have me on right now, but the first two times I took it, it took almost three hours to kick in (unhelpful).  After that it hasn't affected me at all, though I haven't tried a higher dose yet.

Do any of you have prn medications that have helped? I know there's a lot of kickback about Xanax and Valium but I've read that some people have a good experience with it. 

Also, if it's relevant, I've been on Lexapro (between 10-40mg for like 8 years, though stopped bc it didn't do anything anymore) Zoloft, which made me insanely suicidal, Prozac which made me sick and I'm currently on Trazodone 100mg for sleep.

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Anyway thanks in advance :)