For the past few days, I went on an online shopping spree buying things that I don't need. I was under control for quite a while and suddenly I got really strong impulses. I ended up spending 3000$ in one week. My financial situation isn't the best either.

Parcels started to roll in and quickly realized that I didn't need what I bought. I already went to several stores to return items and sent a whole pack of packages back to various depos for online stores. Other places aren't so friendly when it comes to returns so I'm begging the support lines to cancel my orders before they are shipped.

I doubt I'll get all my money back. I started looking through my many drawers that are rarely opened full of stuff that I never used. I'm currently putting classifieds to sell some of these things at a loss obviously.

During this period this week, I wasn't going through any episodes, I'm quite stable actually. However, my psychiatrist and psychologist constantly remind that impulsiveness is part of my personality structure no matter what kind of episode I'm going through. Several years of therapy and I still can't get a hold of myself.

Finding ways to cope with my impulsive nature has been a real challenge. I've tried all sorts of techniques like making lists, trying to think through potential purchases and delaying it and so on. Including other circumstances, my impulse buys have been the most wasteful aspect of my budget.