My dad died 4 almost 5 years ago and ever since evey holiday has been complete shit. I have a girlfriend now and we had so many plans and I thought this was gonna finally be a good holiday. However she is depressed rn and can't drive the hour here cause she doesn't trust herself to. Also she's sick now which isn't her fault but it's gonna be another shit holiday and all our plans are ruined so that's fun. Yayy I'm sick of this, everything goes wrong constantly in my life.