I'm a 20 year old living with OCD and GAD since I was a child. In this past year I've been very preoccupied with existential questions, things like "Why do I exist?", "How am I alive?", "Am I even real?" and things of that nature. I get very very overwhelmed when I think of how big our Universe is and how small we are and insignificant in the grand scheme of the story of the Universe. It's a very difficult topic for me and right now, as I'm writing this, my palms are sweating and my skin is covered in goosebumps. I'm Christian, so I try to find reassurance and comfort in my faith and it's been really helpful for me, but because of my OCD I have these doubts permanently lurking in my brain and it's exhausting. Also, everything ties with my self-harm and suicidal OCD because my intrusive thoughts would tell me "I don't matter in the grand scheme of things so why continue" (that was really triggering to type, ugh). I've been feeling like this and extensions of it for a while now. I don't want to die. I've received so so much love in this life and I love for my life so so much, I want to give back this love to the world just as much as I have received, but this disorder makes me constantly doubt everything and it infectes almost every thought of mine. Does anyone have any words of encouragement, reassurance or advice for how to cope with these symptoms? Thank you! ❤️