I feel like I am an abusive husband towards my wife. 

A few nights ago, we were having an argument and she tried closing the door on me. I punched the door back open. She already has PTSD from an abusive relationship and this triggered her to the point that she left me. Idk where she is. All I know is that I feel like a horrible human being and a bad husband.

All of this changed when I turned atheist. Our relationship hasn't been the same since I changed my faith. She is Seventh-day Adventist. Our faiths do not get along well together. She won't let me come out about my faith. Won't let me practice a lifestyle outside of Adventism. And I guess I kind of exploded on her. 

I have no words. I lost my wife. And its all my fault. I don't love her anymore. I want to divorce her. 

Idk what to do... 

Throw in immigration to all this and it doesn't make things better.