I’ve struggled with unchecked anxiety for years. I never realized until recently when i realized I barely even wanted to live the life I have. I got help, got meds. things have been getting better slowly. 

I hurt my ex so bad because of my anxiety. We broke up, and some days i wish he would understand what it was like for me. I never meant those things I said. I never wanted to hurt him, yet my anxiety got the best of me and pushed him away. 

I want to be normal.
I want to have my old life back.
I want people to understand how it feels to work so hard to change your life and yet still don’t separate you from your anxiety. 

Sometimes i feel like my battles are too much to bear. I don’t ever want to give up, but I want to be normal so bad. 

My mental health has ruined my life— and I let it.