i made a great friend, we click, we have fun, we burn down villages in minecraft and i accidentally ruined the world he and old friends put countless hours into, we can joke around for hours and we have the same sense of humour. he’s been helping me go through my breakup because he’s going through similar things and then he had to go and catch feelings and i never took him as the type.

it’s still the same ig, but we were in a call for three hours this morning and then i had to go and he asked if my ex called and that’s why i had to go and admitted to feeling jealous of him for the second time today. i really really don’t want to lose him as a friend. i really care about him. but i’m not at a point where i can be with somebody else and as fine as i feel right now i know i won’t really be okay for a couple months at least. he cried when he confessed knowing i can’t reciprocate his feelings and i cried because i was so scared i was going to lose him too. 

it’s just a big mess.