Today I got into a fight with my bestfriend. I haven't seen her in weeks (I guess more than a month). She has been pretty busy (full social agenda) and it has been multiple times in which we have to reschedule. Today I felt bad because, she cancelled again, and ... I JUST WANT TO BE IMPORTANT ENOUGH THAT SOMEONE MAKES TIME FOR ME AND HAVE TO TELL OTHER PEOPLE THEY'RE BUSY BECAUSE THEY'RE GOING TO HANG OUT WITH ME.

But I feel like I am asking too much. I hate it because she is the one I always call when I am having an anxiety attack and the last time I had a best friend like her, the other girl basically dumped me because I was only using her.

So today's episode is titled: "I am in the middle of splitting". I am a terrible person for making a huge drama and asking for too much, and I only hurt people because that's what bpd people is in this world for, isn't? I just want to push her because seriously, who wants a friend like m e? Who would love someone like me? But at the same time, am I doing this to play the victim, or because I care about the person?

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