Hii guys! I suffer from clinical depression and TMJD. My doctor also suspects borderderline personality disorder. I am so sick of fighting. I have had 5 nervous breakdowns in last 2 days which includes screaming on top of my lungs and crying like hell. I contemplate suicide everyday. I just wished I had some elder to tell me it's going to be okay/hug me through it all. I am 22F. I have so many exams coming up. I am so jealous of my friends who are striving through and can put in the hardwork. For me, if I could lift a finger and make it all stop, I would. At this point, I literally feel that if not suicide, I'd die of the heart pain that I have.