So I started doing delivering for Instacart (grocery shopping/delivery). My Boyfriend and I went to Kroger for my first order. Btw, I have $550 in bills due in 5 days 😄😄😄 so anyways, all is going well until I have to locate all these packages of meat. I am not familiar with the meat wall and after several failed attempts to find the proper product, I threw my hands up and contacted Customer Care to cancel the order. I stormed out of Kroger and sat in my car and sobbed. I tore off my rose gold bracelet and necklace. Ripped my fave rubber bracelet that read “don’t give up”

Everyone says to implement coping mechanisms but when I’m having an episode, it’s very ugly and I’m extremely hard to reason with. I feel like my BPD is more mild compared to when I was in highschool.....

I just told my bestie I would rather be a drug addict than have BPD. 80 days sober for fucking what????????