It's a long complicated story but I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years. It wasn't due to BPD which is why it's taken me awhile to post on here. It was due to domestic violence on his part. It's been hard. My mental health team moved me out of the house 2 weeks ago and I flew cross country to live with my brother for awhile. I'm having a hard time but right now I'm a quiet borderline, bottling up my feelings. The two friends I had are drifting away. It's taking a long time to get mental health services set up and I really don't have anyone to talk to. For my family I'm pulling off the everything is normal act but inside I'm broken and devastated. I cry when no one is around. I feel like I lost everything. I don't know what's coming next or how long I'll be able to keep it together.