Feel like mental health professionals have a far more stigmatising view than the average population. 

Get tossed between diagnoses, first I'm clinically depressed, then I'm BPD, then I "just need to stop thinking so negatively". I've dumped a few thousand into this with no improvement. Think even my GP is fed up fo me. 

Referral for therapy, 3 month waiting list, I get "suicidal" in the mean time and the referral is rescinded, back at square one. This is what mental health care is like in the UK unless you want to pay and arm and a leg for 50 minutes. 

So yeah fuck it, I'll fly to some beach in 24 hours. Money I spend on therapy could be spent on that and maybe I'll feel alive again for once. I vomit blood several times a day so I might not have long left anyway, might as well enjoy life. 