
Long I was straining,

Collapsing then running,

From hospital to club,

I willingly doused my life…

With kerosine and a match,

I enjoy being spun,

Addictive is lust and drugs,

Then maturity or exhaustion?

I did not want another try to die,

So I traded intensity for stability,

Not fully grasping the new recipe,

But this teacher can figure it out.