

I’ve been off of work now for 2 months because of a fracture in my foot. I’m due back tomorrow at 5:30am and it’s 10:42am now. I’ve just woken up and my head going and I can’t stop thinking about it , like yesterday too but I wasn’t as panicked, I wanna call in, but because I’ve been off already for 8 weeks it seems ridiculous and my attenendce, before my foot,caused my to call in at least once a month ( until I were threatened at loss of contract ) so I’m scared to call it and I don’t wanna seem like I’m pushing boundaries or takig the piss or get fired but one extra day so I can have that bit more prep... it’s creeped up too fast and I can’t handle it

I stopped taking my anti depressants during this period because I could not afford them. I don’t know how I’m gonna find it at work ( I can imagine how I used to handle in before my tabs:( ) which is scaring me. I don’t want to tell my managers I’ve stopped taking my anti depressants because a major anxiety causer for me is letting personal information out at work, as there’s been times where some really personal stuff has got around and KEPT around unnecessaraly... it’s really affected my ability to trust anyone there, but anyway thought I’d add that in. 

Edit: phone calls are hell for me, especially to managers.