It feels like every step I take is just ruining my chances at having a good life. Social Media doesnt help it just makes me more depressed and makes me feel bad for feeling a bit jealous of someones life. I wanna change I just cant its like my energy is just being slowly taken out of me and everything I once loved just feels useless when I think about what I could be using that time to do like studying or even keeping myself healthy. I have been having recurring thoughts of suicide and how it would affect others like if they just wouldnt care or maybe I would be making their life harder. I regret everything I have ever done before and although something may feel right in the moment afterwords I always think about what I did wrong and how I may of fucked up. As of now I am a sophmore going through so much with my parents divorce and school related shit like what the fuck will I do with my life is it easier to just dropout and do something.