**Not making this post as a suggestion to go without your prescribed medication**

Just wondering if anyone else feels this way... 

I almost prefer being unmedicated, even though it's fucking hell sometimes. My depression gets so bad and fucks with every aspect of my life... My anxiety makes me feel physically sick most days... But... I also kinda..enjoy?..the familiarity of the awfulness and the ups &amp; downs. Maybe "enjoy" isn't exactly the right word but...idk. 

 Obviously without being on medication, your emotions feel deeper and more profound. Things seem to have more meaning, even if it's an excruciating experience. To me, the ups &amp; downs keep my otherwise boring life interesting.  Yeah I'd probably be way better off on medication... Idk. Anyone else feel similarly?