No where feels like home, been like that for a few years I don’t feel ‘safe’ or at peace anywhere. I’m the failure of my family even though I do try, I swear I try so hard but it’s just hard asf man I feel like this world isn’t for me everyday Is just stress I b wishing I had no family so I could just jump off the highway or some shit I b thinking about it then I start to feel guilty asf cuz I have a family, but then I start thinking will they even miss me or care if I went.  both parents have their own families and I kinda feel out of place they’re both married to different people and have a child together so when I’m around I kinda just feel like an outcast nobody in my family understands my mental state except my sister but it’s just abit to late cuz I’ve been dealing with this shit alone so I don’t know how to accept the help. My parents just b thinking I’m lazy and shit when I’m just overwhelmed. I haven’t ate in like 4 days haven’t showered in fuck knows I can feel myself spiralling and I hate it.