I’ve never had many friends as an adult due to moving around a lot as a kid paired with social anxiety.  I couple of years ago I made some new friends, and one in particular became a very good friend who I saw often.  We both got into relationships around the same time  and made less time to meet up cause we were always busy between our partners and work.  Over a year ago now we tried to make plans that didn’t pan out for reasons that were totally understandable and we haven’t talked since.  I feel so guilty and anxious about how much time has passed, and even though I sent the last message, it’s like I can’t bring myself to get in touch again because I feel like it’s my fault.  I think about messaging all the time but the months just keep going by and I’ve felt worse about it over time.  I know friendship is a two way street and I shouldn’t blame just myself, but I can’t seem to help it and at this point I’m scared that I’ll never hear anything back when I do finally message because why would someone want to be friends with someone they never hear from.  How can I get over my stupid fear and try reconnecting with this friend and the others that I’ve let go?