Good evening, I'll try to keep it quick. 

Almost a year ago, I decided enough was enough and decided to see a doctor. They sent me to a family therapist (for some reason), whom I visit alone.

From the get-go, they spoke over me and misinterpreted things I said. They were very forward with their questions, such as "how would you rate your family," generally rushing me and getting the wrong idea about me. It was very stressful and awkward. Their advice was to "practice breathing exercises and sprint in place for 5 minutes 3 times a day," that it'd "transform me into a 70% happier person."

Thing is, one of my main points I tried to make during our conversation was the fact that I usually lack the energy to even walk around the house, let alone run in place. I've *tried,* but I usually give up after a few seconds because I start feeling sick. Yes I'm unhealthy which is one part of it, but I'm unhealthy because of that lack of energy to begin with. My doctor suspects it's hormonal, and I agree, which is why I'll be seeing an endocrinologist soon.

We had our second appointment a couple days ago, which I had been dreading. Instead of getting anything new done, he repeated information I had told him last session, said things like "I don't know why you're sad" despite me having explained that to him just moments earlier, and scolded me for being unable to keep up with the running. 

He then claimed that I was doing all this to myself, and that I didn't want to be helped. He threw out some condescending metaphors about how I "passed the depression class, but failed the happy class." He also claimed that I was "too afraid to take control of my life," despite me telling him multiple times that I desperately want to learn to drive, get a job and move out, but that I can't due to my crippling anxiety. At the end of the appointment, his told me to "fake being happy, even when you're not, even in front of other people," and that he "expects a better progress report by next week."

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Talking to them gives me *more* anxiety, and that just doesn't feel right. I feel that a text therapist, or a therapist that is slower with things in general, would allow me to articulate my thoughts more clearly. But I'm afraid that maybe I'm just being lazy. Like maybe I *am* somehow intentionally failing the running assignment. Or that maybe if I changed therapists, the next one would be even worse.

**Tl;Dr: My current therapist is judgemental, condescending and pushy. I don't feel like I'm being helped, and if anything, this is giving me even more anxiety and insecurity issues. Should I change therapists? Am I just lazy, or is there actually something wrong with me, and therefore I'm valid in searching for a better therapist?**