My wife or 12 years was recently diagnosed as BP after years of struggling with depression and loss and identity issues.  I told her the other day that it feels like I am starting to understand her completely for the first time in our 14 years together.  I refer to it as the Rosetta stone of our relationship since I can now look back at high points and low point of our relationship and realize completely that they were real.  She felt them just as I did...only moreso.  I express through a Dr. Seussesque writing style beginning with a very narrow view of the outside world and an equally painful inner dialogue; the wonderland quote I saw on this forum for the finally:

The world around her is black and white.
The shades vary little from darkness to light.
Quickly dark and quicker light
Peaceful calm before the fight.
Years of confusion and bitter scorn
The masks she wears are all outworn
She can fall deep in love on a whim
And just as quickly devalue him
There is beauty hidden behind that mask
There is focus somewhere when applied to task
A wonderful chameleon perfected disguise
Changing herself or risk painful demise
She hates you, she loves you, she wants you, now go
she's angry, your fault, you never cared for her though
"You are the one with the problem you see
My doctors are quacks if they'd only listen to me
Those all around me are causing this pain
True friends do not hurt you or cause you disdain
If they really did care I know just what they'd do
They'd do everything except what their putting me through
No one loves me, they never did
They never came looking for me while I hid
they didn’t come running while I tried to die
If they cared about me they wouldn't say I would lie
I had no control, my life like a dream
As I dragged the razor for my little red scream
At my lowest point there was no one around
No wiped away tears as I stared at the ground
Placed arms around me and squeezed me so tight
That I forgot the darkness and basked in their light
I hate you, I love you, don't leave me, now go
Even Alice in Wonderland left wonderland though"
