Sometimes I think my BPD turns me into a monster. I behave irrationally and say/do hurtful things to others. I am actively working on it through CBT and DBT, but I'm starting to think I'm underserving of friendships or a romantic relationship.

My psychiatrist said that I will grow out of this as it was caused primarily by childhood trauma which stunted my emotional development, but when will that be? Does that mean I can't be in a relationship until my "20s or 30s" (when my psychiatrist said I'd grow out of it)? Does BPD make me unloveable, as I also have depression? Are any of you guys in happy, stable relationships? How tolerant are your partners of your BPD?