My boyfriend of 7 years knows I have BPD. I feel like he does/says things to make me jealous though, then acts oblivious. This is a small thing but it pissed me off. 

We used to smoke weed together, but I can’t handle it now. Sucks, because I used to enjoy it. My bf laments, “Remember how you used to smoke weed with me? That was cool. Sucks it makes you paranoid now...” 
He’s tried to get me to smoke with him since but it’s always ended bad. 

So last night my girl friend came around. I invited my boyfriend and our guy friend over They asked if she wanted a drag of their J. She did. He and our friend were surprised, had this, “Holy shit, that’s cool!” kind of reaction. I was happy drinking and got way too wasted, ended up sick. Then the next morning my boyfriend turns to me as we’re having a smoke and says, “It’s badass how Lisa can handle smoking weed.” 

Handle??? Why’s it badass she can handle it? We both know I can’t anymore. It sucks! Are you implying I’m not badass? Why not just say it’s cool she smoked or something like that? Why even specifically point out that she can handle it? It made me feel inferior to my badass friend. I just smiled and agreed, but I confronted him tonight, asked if he was trying to make me jealous. He acted oblivious and called me crazy. “What’s with all this jealousy???” I feel like his comment would make anyone jealous though considering the circumstances :/ 




