Pretty much my life was going alright i wasn’t really struggling much with anxiety to tell you the truth i thought i had gotten past it (ive had it since i was about 13) this was until about 5 weeks ago when i went to the city and had a panic attack out of nowhere this was horrible as i was so far away from home, this panic attack completely debilitated me and i was afraid to leave the house for weeks, about a week later i had another panic attack this time at home, it felt truly horrible i was 100% convinced i was going to die, this completely changed things up for me as i no longer felt safe in my home and felt constantly on edge and anxious.

Anyways 3 weeks ago i moved to University, i had been feeling a bit better as i had found ways of coping after my panic attacks, but moving to uni has completely hit me hard as i no longer have immediate access to my parents who were very supportive of me and starting lessons.

What im really struggling with is the physical symptoms of anxiety i just feel completely drained and exhausted both physical and mentally, also feeling very achey. When i feel tired i worry that its because im dying so it kinda creates this vicious cycle of feeling tired, worrying and feeling more tired. Its kinda created this feeling where i dont really feel outwardly worried anymore and more so depressed, i just have this very real feeling of impending doom and that everyday is my last on earth and its just become so hard to relax myself and turn my brain off, it just feels so horrible and hopeless.

What really surprises me is just how badly anxiety effects you physically, i always thought it was more of a mental thing, ive read on the subreddit some cases of people feeling nauseous over anxiety.

Just how im feeling at the moment is probably the worst ive ever felt in my life, i just feel so helpless and trapped and just yearn to go back to how i felt a couple months ago. Ive had a horrible thought today that this will last forever and not even medication will help.