I just looked at the post of this subs and I realized that I have all the similarities that BPD has . Yes I either give 200% or 0% . 
I never ignore people I care about but they never hesitate to kill my heart . I have no friend and I used to have one but it turns out he was just using me for my knowledge , exams, gfs , et cetera et cetera. And I'm a fat person that's why never been good at my own love story which never ever started.

So I don't know what to do now. My life is messed up really bad. Anger issues, parents issues I have all kinds of issues