This is kind of a funny problem have, so hear me out. 

I work at a theme park where I work on a ride that I really love to work on. Thing is it’s a super scary ride, and when you’re fully qualified, you are sometimes required to do a check in the morning which involves going on the ride. 

The ride is like a 150ft swing, where your are strapped on to two wires, and then you get winched all the way to the top, strapped into a suit, facing to to the floor, and then you drop into a massive swing on the wire. You fall for a second and then you go into a swing, it’s super fast and super high up. 

Here’s my concern; I may have to get used to going on the ride if I wanna work on it, but I’ve never done it before. Also the morning check is watched by all the first people to arrive at the park. At the very least I will probably be going on it once, soon. 

My concern is not the safety whatsoever, I know that the probability of injury or death is negligible, it’s probably the safest ride there. My concern is my reaction to the very real fear and adrenaline of the ride. I’m basically scared of either fainting or having a panic attack. The other people who do the check basically have no reaction while on it since they do it all the time. 

This could be a good opportunity for me to face my fear of panic attacks and confront it, which may be a positive development, since I have avoided other things due to fear of panic attacks too. Also maybe I will get used to it if I do it often enough. 

Any advice?