I’m 29 I have literally nothing going for me in life. I’m a heroin addict, the fact that I have bad depression only makes me want it more. I don’t have a job. My family all thinks I’m the worst person ever. I have no friends. I don’t go out. I can hardly get myself to do the things I use to enjoy. My boyfriend of 12 years who lives with me wants to leave me. It’s hard for me to get over the break up because I have a co dependency with him. I can hardly eat or drink water. I can go two-three days with out eating. When I do eat it’s something really small to make my stomach stop hurting. I have no appetite what so ever. I’m sertaline 100mg. I don’t know how to stop the pain. I keep thinking to myself that one of these days I’m going to be so depressed that I’ll kill mussels to stop all this emotional pain. I hate depression. It makes nothing in my life enjoyable. The only friend and support was my boyfriend. Now that he doesn’t want me I feel so lonely. I feel like I have no one to talk to about my problems. I hate my life.