Made a post here a good few months ago now about how I was feeling down, and I tried several things like going for walks and doing stuff I enjoy but I still don't feel like me. I'm not sure how to word it but it's like if someone give me a 1 million pound, I dont think I would be happy, havent been happy or excited about anything in ages. Felt like ending it all a few days ago but not sure I could do that to my family. The worst part of it all is my blank mind, like I could stare at a wall and not have any thoughts at all come up, it just gets really lonely when you dont enjoy your own company. Sorry for being a downer, not sure what to do.