I'm a terrible person, I deserve to suffer to be tortured, abused, to be murdered and hurt. I am so disgsuting and worthless. 

I am so disgsuting. I am a terrible person. Explosive anger issues blowing up at everyone. They dont desevre it. I am so sorry. All I do is make everyone miserable. I hate these outbrusts. I am so fucking sickening and pathetic. 

Someone needs to hurt me. I need to be hurt.  
I need everyone to hate me. I do not deserve to be happy. I am so digsusting. 

I deserve to suffer the worst things imaginable. I need to feel as much pain as humanly possible. I am so worthless and repulsing and selfish.  
I need to physically and mentally hurt. I deseve to be abused, emotionally abused, physcially abused all of it.
I need to experience the most pianful and worst things imaginable. 
I need to someone to punch me hard and kick me on the ground. I should have the shit beaten out of me. I want to be hit by a car and slam a hammer down on my arm until bone sticks out and be cut open until i bleed out. I want to jump off my roof and provoke someone into beating the shit out of me. I want someone to beat me, break my bones, strangle me,  anything. I need to be used me abused and hurt in every way possible. I am so horrible.
I don't even deserve to eat I am too disgsuting to eat. I deserve to be hurt. I deserve pain. 

I desereve to be tortured. I deserve to die the most painful, gruesome, drawn out death possible. 

I am a truly revolting and awful person. 

No this isnt some edgy joke post. If you say that i will block you.