Brief backstory: struggled with depression/anxiety since childhood due to trauma and grief. On meds for years, getting back into therapy (though it's currently making me feel much worse instead of better). In January lost my heart and soul dog. 6 weeks ago adopted a puppy and it's not working out with my other resident dog and there's a lot of stress and sleepless nights and guilt and overwhelming grief coming back about my dog who passed. Basically I've been crying almost every day for 6 weeks. It varies from hysterical sobbing to just unstoppable silent defeated tears falling for hours. 

I don't know if I should be trying to stop it when it happens or just giving into it. It's a LOT of crying and it does not make me feel better after. If anything it makes me shame spiral even more ("why can't I just stop this and be ok" etc) I don't know if I "need" to cry or if at this point I need to just try to push it down and distract myself. Does that make sense? It's getting really disruptive.