So for the past like 10 years I've identified with having adhd, depression, anxiety. I've only just finally noticed/accepted the reality of my mood swings and triggers, and the effect my upbringing really had on me. It's pretty disorienting because now symptoms I though were due to an attention disorder may actually effects of PTSD and/or BPD.

For example, in very difficult or high-stakes situations, I forget how to speak. Not just that, it's like I forget everything I have ever known. This can happen during a conversation with a loved one, giving a talk in front of a group of people, etc.

Basically, a lot of behaviors I thought were due to lack of attention may very well be dissociative symptoms of PTSD and/or bipolar. I don't know, that kind of blows my mind.