ever since my "best friend" stole my boyfriend ive been depressed ever since

that was december 2020 before that life was good he ment a lot to me i loved him so much and he also loved me so much and then yeah he was in love with my "best friend" and since then ive just been super depressed they both hate me for no reason and now im questioning my gender which is great..

idk life is good but for the last year and something its just been crap i do want to move on but its really hard