I can't make a friend to save my life. Like at all. I can't hold a conversation it always  dies after 10 seconds because I can't figure out what to say. I've heard all the advice, I've been to therapy. I never improve and nothing ever works. I tried making online friends and even that doesn't last they just get bored of me or forget i exist. If I have no one who cares about me I can't motivate myself to do anything, because why bother? So I should probably just accept the fact that I'm going to be forever alone and die early because a life without friends is not a life worth living, period.