My tics have become so much worse these past few months. The doc, took me off lithium and an antidepressant because it was basically making me urinate 24/7 and I wasn't responding. 

Currently, I'm on Xanax, Namenda, and Clonodine. These past few days I've been having these strange thoughts that I logically know are mine but I question. If that makes any sense? I'll reach for a cigarette and I'll have this thought that pops in my head that says "No". I'll be eating, and I'll get this thought that says, "slow down". My focus is absolutely shot, can't even really understand a movie. Can't drive, can't remember the last time I smiled etc. Oh yeah and, I can't relax for anything. I have some minor TD, but I think I need to go back on some type of antipsychotic. 

I've dealt with this beast of a disorder for so many years, and it just keeps getting worse. Has anyone had anything that helped them just "be" I guess? I've trialed over 60 meds so I'm constantly losing hope. The cognition issues, and the fact I can't even be around people destroy me as well. 

I know this is a huge list, so thanks to anyone that took the time to read it. Hope all is well in your Worlds.