I have recently shared some of the delusional thoughts with my psychiatrist and talking about my experience aloud made me realize how delusional it is. I have been thinking about it all day and looking and the DSM-V, it is very likely that I have a psychotic disorder. I havent talked about these thoughts to a psychiatrist since now because I thought they were normal for some reason?

I was wondering how to go about bringing it up to my psychiatrist, since it is very hard for me to put things into words. 

The past 3 years or so, I have been unable to work and my thoughts have prevented me from functioning. I would get them frequently and it would take me days to dissect what the hell they meant and if they vere real and rational or just weird ass thoughts I had. 

I've had a psychotic episode (got hospitalized) before, so I know some of the types/ categories of delusions I usually get. I have also complained about speech/ thought impairment ever since I was a teenager but, again, I seem unable to get my concern across and validated.

Also, any tips on how to calm down after coming to this realization? I really need to remain as collected as possible and get quality sleep. 

Appreciate the help :)