the girl who used to be my favorite person and who i could’ve had a relationship with had i not ruined it posted a video on her spam today of her and her new gf and they kissed and it’s really hard to not text her again and stir shit up bc i miss her so much. i know i can’t cause i need to stay out of her life cause she’s been hurt too much for me to hurt her again but even tho i don’t know 100% i have a strong feeling she’d take me back idk i feel like i’m losing her for good and i don’t want to. i wear the necklace she gave me everyday hoping she’ll see me wearing it when i post and somehow realize that means i still think about her everyday and still want her in my life but that’s crazy and it’s not good for her. i just need encouragement not to text her pls i keep trying to convince myself she posted that knowing i’d see it and hoping i’d say something to her about it which is also insane but i haven’t had a friend like her ever and i miss her so much.