I'm feeling like I take more than I give however I do give back to my friends when I can I have an inspiring presence to some and feel like changing their outlook and keeping things positive/light is my contribution. I do not self proclaim this. This is something many have told me.

Also progress update on my self healing/self care journey:

I've gotten really good about stopping myself from being explosive or instantly negative. Last night I gave myself permission to be angry and it came, and went. It was still rocky but yeah!

It's not all negative on this front. 

In everyway I am getting better and better everyday. (Make this apart of your mantra when you feel unnecessarily panicked or worried. Same with anger. Then proceed!)