FYI: The relationship was not abusive


Hi! I really need some reassurance because I'm sad and confused and I feel really lonely and misunderstood.


I once knew this person and I realized that once I got to know them better, I started to have pseudohallucinations that were said using their voice. Like I would for example hear their voice in my head saying 'Wow it's raining' but not really as a thought, more like a literal voice and something I can't control. The closer I became with this person the hallucinations became stronger and I couldn't see them anymore but don't know what to tell them (I hallucinate because of you???). I tried to explain it to my doctors but they never understood and told me I should go to the psych ward because I might have schizophrenia. The thing is I don't have any other symptoms and no one in my family has it.

What's more, the only medication that works for me is sertraline, antipsychotics are not helpful. Also, imagine how hard it was for me to leave someone so special to me beacuse of some weird chemicals in my brain. I feel so lost and misunderstood, I read the entire internet just to get rid of the pseudohallucinations (and didn't find anything) even though I'm not in touch with them anymore. I'm lirerally so traumatized