I've never felt anxiety and depression much until this past year when I got out of the military. Last semester which was my first college semester I became suicidal and shit got bad

I recently started micro dosing shrooms and its been helping a lot. 

Today was just a shit day. I started thinking about the future and things I need to pay for and finances a bunch and it had me freaking out for some reason. I haven't played hockey in months and when I got there 30 minutes ago I turned around and went back after seeing the 15 people in line for it outside of the rink

I've gone so long without socializing daily that everytime I talk to someone I freak out in my head and get anxious all the time in any social situations.

If anyone has any advice or can talk pls hmu