trigger warning for those that get induced anxiety from reading about other ppls anxiety (like do lol). Lately my anxiety has been so bad. I think maybe its because I drank a redbull today idk and I'm off two hrs of sleep probably but going to sleep is so hard these days. I just had a really bad panic attack where I  felt it building but somehow I thought getting into the shower would fix it but it rlly induced it and I had to turn it off and sit in front of a fan in my towel while doing breathing exercises. I hate the feeling after you have a panic attack too. Im trying to get better but its hard I'm not on any meds as of rn i was on busiprone and it did help but yeah idk I wanted to stop taking meds altogether for awhile. I feel like my anxiety had also worsened my dp a lot I constantly feel horrible. I just cried so much after this panic attack and it felt good but I really hate this feeling. why do I have to suffer with this. idk what to do anymore.