Currently a sophomore pursing a bachelors degree in Civil Engineering. I finished last year with a 2.5 GPA. I've been struggling with clinical depression since I was like 12 and it has gradually gotten worse. The mixture of being trans and having depression that just exasperate each other is making everything worse. I currently don't have insurance so I haven't been able to see a therapist or get top surgery which is a big contributor to my mental health. The free therapy services provided by my university are incredibly inadequate for the level of fucked in the head I am. 

I aspire to join the Navy and follow in my parents footsteps but there's a few issues with that. The military doesn't really like trans people, they definitely don't want anyone with mental health issues (which I understand but still hurts), and my GPA is quite low and bars me from joining the college program the Navy is offering once I become a junior. I'm not even taking that many credits (14) and I'm still incredibly overwhelmed and mad at myself for fumbling so hard. I got an actual zero on my last exam. It takes a lot for me to just get up and study. Additionally, since I was 16? I've been addicted to pot. Alcohol is also making a stronger appearance in my life. They just make me feel better. Especially when it's late at night and the suicidal thoughts really start to kick in, if I smoke a little it all goes away. I really want to take a year off school, refocus, earn a little money, and get my life together because I'm too young to just throw it all away. Given the context I have given, what are y'alls opinions on taking a year off?