I've got a move coming up and I really don't want to go. Trying to figure out how to stay has had me in this state of constant anxiety for about a week or two now, like it's this one giant, neverending panic attack. I've always dealt with anxiety issues, but this is on a whole new level. I almost can't remember the last time I've breathed normally - a couple of days, maybe - because of that anxiety-induced shortness of breath, my chest is tight and achey, I've even been feeling some aches in my arms from what I assume is my blood pressure having been at roughly 490/350 for a week straight, and it's been affecting my sleep quite a bit.

I'm just so exhuasted with this. I want this god damn move to go away so I don't have to deal with it anymore, I hate that I'm such a failure that I don't even have the knowledge or money to choose what to do with my life, I still have to tag along with a parent at 27 years old.