I used to write poetry and I found this poem I wrote 5 years ago. It really reflects how messed up my attachments and relationships were and probably still are. Sometimes you need to let people go, no matter how hard it is. You will be okay.


• Letting go of yesterday •

And i'm still here,

Perched on the ledge of yesterdays dreams,

Caught up in a string of memories,

Of hope lost and hope found,

And i'm still holding on,

To what used to be,

To what once was,

For my claws have grasped deep,

And I can't let go,

To the joy that we lived,

The life that we breathed,

And I refuse to hear the blackbirds song,

I will not wake,

I'm not ready,

Sure I want to dance in the rain,

But I don't want to get wet,

I want to to be alone,

But not with myself,

I want to be free,

But I don't remember how,

I don't want you here,

But your absence is deafening,

So i'll keep dragging you back,

Relighting the flame,

Burning us both to the ground,

Because you were all i've ever known,

How can I let go?,

Let go of what once made a difference,

Of what once made a life worth living,

And deep down inside I know,

My inability to let go will be the death of you,

And I want to tell you to run fast and far,

But I'm afraid I wont be able to catch up.