I had a breakdown a few months ago due to stress that left me with terrible anxiety and also caused physical health issues with headaches and vertigo. I've been on sick leave but need monthly notes confirming this.

Throughout I've struggled with doctors patronizing me during phone appointments. Saying I'm being silly, being a bit stupid, I'm just not trying to help myself. I don't know if this is misplaced anger due to the pandemic and my problems seeming little compared to covid and the risks to physicians, or if it's just pure ableism.

I've been keeping diaries for my mental and physical symptoms. I've changed my diet to be healthier and weed out triggers. I took up yoga and meditation. I got a water bottle to hydrate better. I took whatever medications they gave me until they gave me an allergic reaction and despite the medications still doing nothing after six months of scripts. I got some self help books while waiting for a therapist referral. I told them all of this. That's not trying?

I bring this up during my monthly phone call. The doctors completely talks over me like I hadn't even said anything, and says that well we need to be working together, it's not a blame game, and they really need me to keep filling in online consult forms and phoning back to update them on my medications and therapy. Lady, I've just told you that the main reason communication broke down was that your colleagues have been belittling me to my face over my mental health and my physical health issues not being end of the world bad, on top of not explaining the full medication options open to me and framing it so that I thought it was that treatment or nothing, that I haven't felt supported or respected in my recovery, and you somehow find a way to put it back on me? Not even a little acknowledgement? Just 'if your anxiety is really that bad.....' 

I'm not asking to be babied. But a little understanding and humanity would be nice. My life has been derailed by the sudden onset of this breakdown and I'm trying to get it back together. 

I just gave up, did my yes man impression and waited for the call to end. Some people shouldn't be in medicine.