My girlfriend left me about a year ago, and it's the first time I've been single in a long long long time. We were together for ~11 years, and before that, my then girlfriend and I were together for maybe about 3 years. So for the last 14 years, I have not been alone. That's almost half of my entire life.

I am not coping well since she left. I have been drinking, more than a few suicide attempts again, cutting etc. And I don't know what to do. It all just seems so pointless since my ex left me. I had a reason to go on when she was around, but now I have no one.

There's a live-in facility I could go to that I am seriously considering. But my current situation doesn't allow for it just yet. The soonest I could go in is a couple of months, but I don't know if I can hold on for 2 more months until my situation allows me to go there :(

I'm just so lonely :(

Don't care if no one reasons this. Just wanted to put it down somewhere.