hi all! so it’s 3:56 am where I’m at and I’ve just wanted to vent a bit. 

I graduated from college last year in may. after a horrid job search with covid, i literally landed my DREAM job.

I love it a lot. It works well for my schedule, I feel like I’m doing something worthwhile, etc.

I’ve always struggled very deeply with depression but mainly anxiety. I’m a super anxious person. 

When getting my first big job, I’ve had so much more anxiety about it. We had 3 people let go since I’ve been there and I’m just TERRIFIED of suffering the same fate. But, my boss has told me how great of a job I’m doing and any mistake I made are just because I’m new, etc. I feel like they’d tell me if there were problems but I feel like sometimes you just never know.

Also, I’m not sure if my coworkers like me all that much. I’m a very outgoing anxious person which is odd bc i just over talk when I’m anxious and I feel like I always have input on discussions which causes me to be anxious about talking to other people bc i don’t want to over talk or not let someone else speak.

I don’t know if any of this makes sense, I guess I’m just curious if anyone has had a similar experience or has some advice for me.