Today was the last straw I've been depressed and helpless for the last year. Everytime I ask for help, I get confronted by "I have my own problems to deal with" but I must be on call to help my family 24 7. Do favors , do their job etc. I have no money and I don't know how I am going to pay rent let alone eat. But I get a call that I must come fetch my grandmother ( I live 20 minutes away) to go take her to the shop 200m up the road. Only to find my mother sitting there doing nothing. 
I lost it. And apparently I am the lunatic. I used my last petrol to take my grandmother.  Don't  know how I'm going to get to work. I know cutting them off was the first step to healing. But I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel here