It keeps getting worse, it just started off with breathless which I would weirdly wish for over what my anxiety has turned to atm.

I’ve always had a bad relationship with sleep but tonight is just plain awful, I keep getting hypnic jerks which are physically preventing me from sleeping.

Yesterday night, I thought it would be a good idea to pull an all-nighter to ‘reset’ my sleep schedule as I had gone back to my old habits off staying up incredibly late but ended up taking multiple naps after staying up till 9am so I wasn’t tired when it was time to go to bed.

It’s now nearly 5am so there’s no way I’m going to be able to sleep as I’ll be in till something like 12 in the afternoon, not that I have a choice to sleep.

After several hours of trying to sleep, that wonderful feeling of drifting off finally happened when it was abruptly disturbed by that stupid feeling of falling causing me to jolt awake. 

Now I’d usually be fine with that because I’d be able to fall asleep again right afterwards but nooo, not this time. It’s great how my brain thinks I’m dying so it feels the need to keep waking me up over and over again. Who needs sleep anyway, am I right?

I’m hoping if I stay up all day today without trying to fall asleep once, I’ll be tired enough later and won’t have my over-dramatic brain try to wake me up because it thinks I’m fucking dying lmaoo