CW: s*x mentioned




So basically a cornerstone to my coping skills is just immediately rejecting anything and getting away from any situation, person, idea, whatever...that is making me uncomfortable. 

This means that with ptsd, bpd, and whatever else is wrong with me, I tend to kind of “abruptly leave” situations. And I really thought in the beginning that I get interrupted so much and no one really wants me around so it’s not like anyone would even notice. Well they do! They notice and I guess I’m kind of a b!tch. People immediately feel the need to get to the bottom of my sudden departure but that kind of ruins the coping skill. This is my way of not getting worked up about something, it won’t help to discuss why because I know my feelings are extreme and I won’t be able to explain it well. 

So that’s the back story, anyways, I live with two men and right now. One of their dogs is in heat, which is making the other persons dog extremely obnoxious. I absolutely loathe casual conversation about sex, outside of privately with my partner. I don’t know why, it just makes my stomach churn the way people talk about these things and I get triggered. They’re not doing anything wrong, but It immediately makes me irritable and nauseous. So I get up and leave every time it starts up. And so now my partner perceives an issue. I say that i just don’t like hearing about that stuff and so I leave the area. He says he’ll talk to the other person...I say no because this other person is not doing anything wrong and I know him well enough to know he would feel extremely guilty and it would cause awkwardness. My partner wants to understand what he said wrong, but there was nothing. I’m just uncomfortable with regular life sometimes due to trauma. 

My irritation surrounding the entire two dog situation even sans heat, is compounded by my cat having died about 3 weeks ago suddenly after I left her home with them post op. (Again, they did nothing wrong but my feelings remain dormantly and carefully irritated by their animals who are not fixed as I had done for my cat, which was never so much a hassle.) 

Tl;dr 
My boyfriend and roommate have their dogs unfixed and I am irritated after losing my cat and also tending to have a vast amount of bizarre sexual trauma ptsd triggers. I’m coping by leaving the room when I get irritated but it’s making my roommates believe there is a big problem when I am in fact managing the problem (me) perfectly.