The anxiety I have been feeling on my daily basis is killing me, felling so anxious everywhere even in my house when all I'm doing is just trying to relax, crying myself to sleep almost everyday thinking that I have to wake up the next day and repeat everything again for the rest of my life, the suicidal thoughts are becoming constant and everyday I feel myself getting a little bit more of courage to finally do it. I'm so so tired of felling all of this, the only thing that helps distract me from this chaotic world is music but even that is becoming useless.

If I find the help and strength to not kill myself in these next years I want to become the type of person people look up to when they need a warm shoulder to cry