Last week I had no motivation. I didn’t go to work with my dad and I didn’t go to the gym. This week. Monday I usually hangout with my mom but she didn’t come this time. Tuesday I had to call the cops on my brother and sister in law. Same Tuesday I had an appointment to get a psychiatrist for my meds. Couldn’t go through with it because my dad was in a lot of pain. Had to call 911 again and go to the hospital for hours without them calling on my dad so we left. I barely ate. Wednesday I barely ate as well. I slept all day. Today i barely ate again and had to come to the hospital again bc my dads in pain. It’s been 4 hours and we’re still waiting to be called on to get into a room. I’m so so tired. I’ve had to fight the urge over and over not to SH or attempt. The barely eating has been so triggering bc I use to have an ED. Idk what to do about any of this. It’s so much more details I’m leaving out but I’m just so tired