I can't see myself every being in a long-term, successful and happy relationship. Its almost like people will say they understand but when things get rough or I become "too much" they just can't be bothered and leave. Meh I really am used to it. Friendships ending bother me less since I've gotten accustomed to friends forgetting I exist.

 Relationships on the other hand make me feel somewhat special. I hate how the validation is like a constant high. It makes me feel great in the moment but then later on I feel like shit. But they usually end when things get serious. People hate my mood swings and I dont bother explaining it cos I know it won't really matter. I HATE being emotionally draining &amp; I feel like im always going to be a burden. I can go from ridiculously happy to just upset over the smallest shit. It made my ex crazy/frustrated so he left like any normal human would. I highly doubt anyone would stay long enough to look past all the crap. There is a lot of crap. Relationships are about sacrifice, compromise blah blah but nobody is willing to compromise for someone who has "issues". So I just leave relationships alone, lesson most definitely learnt. Im just wasting my time.