I’m not really afraid of the ocean by itself but I’m terrified of big waves. I’m usually always anxious but seeing big waves makes it so much worse. For some reason I’ll just be laying in my bed and I’ll try to find videos of the biggest most terrifying waves possible. Sometimes I’ll even look at footage from tsunamis. I don’t know what a heart attack feels like and I’ve never looked up what it is like but if I had to guess I would assume it feels something like when I look at those waves. For some reason I still keep going back to look at more. Does anyone else do stuff like that?