So I have eating disorder tendencies, a really unhealthy compulsive relationship with food, I basically can't control it , so I only eat one large meal at night, and then suffer a minor anxiety attack, and then just repeat the next day. 

At least doing this has kept me lean and from becoming unhealthy, but it's still an issue, today I ate during the day and my mind raced all day, and I have been OBSESSED over food.

Obviously the long term treatment is therapy, but the issue i'm having is, my therapist is morbidly obese, like she's huge. She sure knows psychology but how the fuck am I supposed to talk to her about this? Can I trust her advice? I feel like it will be so fucking awkward.