I used to have a bad habit of snooping through my husband's phone. I'm not 100% off that behavior but I've gotten a lot better. 

Nothing good ever came of it. I either found out shit I didn't want to know which hurt me or I didn't find anything and I would feel like shit for violating his privacy. 

I'm in a situation again where my sense of trust is low and my curiosity (paranoia?) is high. I confronted him about the situation and he gave me a response that is technically plausible but part of me doesn't believe it. 

If I give in, look, and find what I think is there, I think my marriage will be over. My trust in him will be irreparable and I'll have lost yet another person I love. If I look and don't find anything, the guilt will eat me alive. I'll have to confess to him and I don't think he'll ever forgive me (perhaps rightfully so). 

How do I fight this? 