Anyone at all? Anyone who will know what to say or when to be quiet, when to hug me or when to give me space?

I feel like a lot of us feel lonely even when we have people in our lives and this is not just related to us pushing people away, but also other people not knowing how to adequately handle our emotions, problems and some of the tragedies we have survived. I'm frequently told "I don't know what to say." when I try to open up to people and then there are others which I don't feel I can talk to at all. I feel constantly alone even if I'm with other people and even if they are talking to me because I can never truly be myself in fear of being disappointed that people will reject me, push me away or simply not know how to deal with what I'm saying or my emotions... And if I do find someone I connect with I ultimately end up overwhelming them, at least eventually and they start to distance themselves.

10% of people with BPD end up killing themselves and I'm pretty sure that a lot of the time that is because we can no longer fight for acceptance and understanding and never truly feel like we matter, because no one will ever get to know or accept the real us.