I'm not sure of even how to put it into words. I'm exhausted. 

I've moved into my own place, I've recently started a new job. I'm overwhelmed. I don't want to die but I also feel like I don't want to exist. If that makes sense. I'm trying my best, but at this point I feel like my best isn't actually my best. I'm not sure how to fight these feelings of inadequacy, or how to fight off regret over things. I have acknowledged my mistakes I've made, and will never make them again, but somehow still manage to beat myself up and regret every mistake I've ever made. 

I hate feeling like this. Can I just not be tired for one day? Not be overwhelmed for a day?