I don't want to say much in case the person reads this &amp; recognises themselves but I just can't stand that we keep hurting each other. It feels like we don't/can't understand each other. Everything I thought about him turns out it's like he's the opposite. 

So many things he said kinda don't add up &amp; I'm so wrapped up in it I've got no perspective when I'm talking to him

I'm not used to being horny with anyone else yet &amp; I need to find that otherwise I'm just a liability. &amp; I need to stop talking to him. &amp; I'll never forgive him for stuff he did anyway so Im probably hurting him on purpose anyway without realising just to get him back. The pain is just never going to stop till we stop talking &amp; trying to be frkends