I don’t know if it’s just me or if the whole isolation/ full year quarantining has made me 1000% more anxious when it comes to communicating with people. I feel that I can’t have a simple conversation with people sometimes bc of my anxiety- mostly job pre screening calls/ interviews. (I just graduated college in December and I’m job seeking).I get super nervous and kind of blank out sometimes bc I simply lose my train of thought or can’t find ways to elaborate myself. It’s super stressful and impeding on what I actually have to offer. My mouth gets super dry, I have to concentrate really hard on what I’m saying, I get the shakes, and I feel like I’m a little awk.... also I have this issue where I’m so insecure in myself and believe Im incapable of doing any job... it makes me feel horrible and like such a bum. I really hope things get better and that I’m just over thinking and that I will do fine in any job I end up getting, but I’m so unhappy and insecure about myself right now. 

Does anyone have any tips for this? Btw I do have a history of anxiety and depression and was put on Zoloft. Although it helped my anxiety, I stopped taking it after a couple months because it simply made me numb to everything and not really care about stuff (which was no good obviously).  I just feel like I really need a confidence boost or something or more exposure to PEOPLE- honestly I don’t even know. I’ve been so alone for months now. I feel like I don’t know how to interact with people anymore and KIND of feel like everyone else has moved on a little bit about this whole COVID thing and is living their lives a bit more normally. Then there’s me, living completely by myself with nothing to do but job search all day- then sometimes I don’t even do that- I just loathe myself all day. 

I’ve always been a people person and “kind of” confident but for the last two years I’ve just been down in the gutter.... 
Sorry for the full out rant and poor grammar, I just really needed to get this off my chest.