My husband said something that hurt me. I'm internalizing most of it and isolating myself because I keep thinking of ways to lash out and hurt him back and I really really don't want to do this anymore especially since the kid is home right now. I keep telling myself that he didn't do it maliciously but enough of me knows that there's a fair chance he did do it out of malice because he's been hurting lately too. I know that's not justification for hurting someone. We're both in our motherfucking mid-30s and someone needs to be the goddamn adult in this household.