well I actually went on a run to exercise it off, it kills me that my brain is like this, but basically my girlfriend opened my snap, didn’t respond, didn’t open my texts and posted a snap story of her and her friend hanging out. That’s one of the biggest triggers for me and it bothers me so much and I don’t even know why but it does. I think the greatest thing I’ve read is that people who have super intense emotions go out of their way to reassure others that they’re prioritized, and when it’s not reciprocated we want to jump ship. I tell her small things like that that bother me and she also has BPD and gets triggered when I bring up the little things, she says she’s the type that doesn’t mention small things like that and focuses on big things to bring up and communicate about. She was an abusive controlling relationship before me so small things like this that are brought up bother her. But these “small” things keep happening and bothering me too and I don’t want to shut up and sit there and take it. Every time something like this happens I have to go on a run to shut my mind down from breaking up or ignoring her or being passive aggressive, which I’m very aware is dramatic for something small. But it still hurts. It’s like I’m constantly fighting with my brain to not self sabotage. I love her so much when shit like this doesn’t happen, so I know it only needs to pass. Idk.