

hi!


ive been getting hallucinations on and off for the past 2-3 years and only opened up about it to family members about 6 months ago. 

The hallucinations can be really heavy, or really light, they come in periods, and those periods can last anywhere from a week to 4 months or longer.
At the start it was just around night I would get visual, but i would also get audio and touch sensations throughout the day, 
now when I get these periods they come all throughout the day, not just night.

I would hear beeping , hissing or whispering sounds, I’ve also now am beginning to get times where I hear my friend or family members talking to me, only to find they’re not there, 

With visual I would see bugs / animals, people and things moving, like jackets, plushies or dolls. (Just to name a few)
The people I would see would look like actual people, sometimes looking like my friends or family members, at the beginning though it was just black silhouettes and I would only see eyes and noses at most, keep in mind this is at night.

The sensations would be like something or somebody touching / crawling up my back or legs, and touching my shoulders or neck. 
(I also now get sensations as if somebody was grabbing my legs or breathing down my neck)

I can get highly afraid of things, eg, I feel like I’m being controlled, or I’m going to drown in a bath, or if I’m going home I feel I’m being followed and I’m going to get kidnapped. 
These happen quite regularly and can get really scary, they make me feel very uncomfortable. 
(I’ve now also been feeling like somebody is under my bed at night, which makes me most nights unable to sleep.)

I also have a very bad memory, I can’t remember simple things, like peoples birthdays or names, even if you’ve just told me them. 
There’s been many points I’ve forgotten my own birthday.

Another thing is that I’ve been told I’m “flat”, or talk very dryly. I struggle with my emotions a lot and can’t really tell what I’m feeling. 
I do however get very irritated extremely easily, though I think that’s just me being moody. 

I struggle a lot to do basic things, like get a bath or go for a walk. 
It’s not that I don’t want to do it it’s just I psychically can’t get myself up to do so.
It’s happened a lot when my friends have asked me to hangout, 80% of the time i cancel on them because of this.

I also get moments where I feel as if im not real and neither are the people or things around me, it can get really confusing and I can’t tell what’s real or not.

I feel as if time goes by too fast or too slow most days. 

Nobody in my family really has major mental illnesses, however my dad has been on anti-depressants, but never fully diagnosed with depression.


Im just wondering if anybody else gets these type of things, I’ve been to a doctor and she said it was just a mix of anxiety + mild depression. She may be right but im worried incase it is something bigger and it will come back.