Got some bad news today and I’ve been fighting SI ever since. I just wanted to say that I hate having / being bipolar so much. It’s so easy to believe my really depressed thoughts, and it’s so hard to remind myself that there is more to life than being really fucking depressed. I’ve been forcing myself to focus on other things today and I’m not going to hurt myself, but damn it all if that doesn’t feel like it would be the perfect solution to stop feeing like absolute shit.