Not gonna lie: I feel fucking *excellent* right now. But I also know where this is going. 

Depakote and Invega made me a zombie. I couldn’t function. I’m not saying I wanted the mania, but I did. In the back of my mind I know *exactly* how this will end. 

What can I do to ease what I know will be a bumpy ride? I’m unable to see a doctor anytime soon and really don’t wanna go to the hospital.