I’ve always struggled in school and it’s been the main source of my depression. I’m currently in my 5th year of college and I’m on the verge of giving up even though my passion requires a college degree.

This month has been a very rough month for my mental health since I’m forced to watch everyone graduate except of me. I feel like a loser and a failure, I can’t achieve something as simple as an Associates Degree.

There was a video of a girl putting her graduation tassels around her parents neck at the end of her graduations since she is a first gen graduate and all I can think of is how I’m never going to be able to do that for my parents. I’m the failure kid in their eyes. It will be hard to watch when my younger siblings graduate.

Getting academically dismissed was very hard. I thought about it multiple times to end my own life but never got that far as to actually doing it. My boyfriend is the only reason why I’m alive today, he’s my only inspiration to stay alive. I don’t know where I would be if he never entered my life. He’s the reason why I went back to school. But I’m still failing. Why why why