I have been diagnosed with BPD by my therapist who specializes in it, and by my psychiatrist. They say my case is very classic of BPD and they have no doubt about my diagnosis. I agree because of what I experience now definitely is BPD, however, I know that it is a disorder that is developed by trauma, but I didn’t have any. My parents are still together and they are absolutely amazing and loving, I have an older brother who I love very much but he was kind of distant when I was a kid and I always wanted his attention, but it was never something serious. My mother lost her parents when she was 13 and since I was a kid I have always been absurdly afraid of losing my parents, so her trauma definitely affected me but I’m not the one who experienced it. I had a normal and healthy childhood, and became very depressed at about age 13, but nobody even understood why because I never had any problems. Now I’m an adult and I’m still struggling so much despite not having a good excuse for that. I feel so fucking guilty, I don’t think I have the right to suffer, you know? Basically everyone around me has had some trauma and they all seem so much stronger than me, and meanwhile I’m here being a burden to people with all my mental illness but I don’t even have a reason to be like that.