When I was diagnosed with BPD and we started digging deeper into my life and the way things are my psychiatrist pretty quickly recognized an eating disorder. I binge eat... a lot. Especially during breakdowns. It’s uncontrollable and I hate it because i’m high school I worked really hard to lose weight and I was where I wanted to be but I’ve gained around 100 pounds since then. The thing that is frustrating is that a lot of people don’t recognize fat people in the same category as people that are really small. Let me be very clear that I’m not bashing people with eating disorders that are skinny, just the way the world views us in general. 

I am trying so hard to lose weight but sometimes it can be hard. I’m trying to cut out meat for environmental reasons but I’m always aware it’ll help with my health and I am excited but today someone made a comment about my weight and it just made me sad. I haven’t even told my closest friends about my BED because I know they’ll think it’s an excuse because, once again, the world has made it seem that way. 

I guess I just with the world was kinder. I know I have to learn to take things and just move on but you never really know what someone is going through. I have all skinny friends so yeah I notice all the time that I’m not that. I’m gonna stop typing now bc this is all giving me a headache but I hope that if you’re having the same problem with people judging you about your weight (no matter if it’s too skinny or too fat) that you know that you’re beautiful and you are loved despite the judgmental assholes in this world.