i’m 22, and i’ve struggled from depression and anxiety with ocd tendencies and adhd since i was at least 15. However as a child i remember even complaining about feeling nervous and sad for no reason. after struggling with depression and anxiety for a while it became debilitating. i saw a therapist at 16 and was prescribed prozac. it literally made me feel bonkers, i had severe depersonalization, intrusive thoughts, harm ocd. i ended up in the er with a panic attack. i went on zoloft after that and it was helpful, it changed my life. i still had boughts eventually but i could function and felt normal finally. however in the past 4ish years i feel like it has not helped as much i struggle a lot with obsessive thoughts, negative thoughts about the meaningless of life, and thoughts regarding how i’m a broken person because of my mental illness. recently in the past few months after switching to lexapro i once again had debilitating anxiety. i literally considered checking myself into a psych ward because i really could not handle it anymore. i lost 10 pounds in like a week. i lost my appetite and could not function. i’ve switched back to zoloft and upped my does to 100mg. i take beta blocker for pots and anxiety, vyvanse for my adhd and klonopin as needed. i really thought that was helping but i’m back to where i was. feeling utterly lost and unable to enjoy my perfectly good life. i’m always worried that my life is meaningless, everything i do is stupid, and life in general is just scary and exhausting. therapy and medication has helped but i feel like i should not still feel like this. i thought this was a treatable illness but i’m feeling hopeless. please help. what has helped you guys? i’m serious about trying anything now. please don’t comment that u agree depression is hopeless bc i really do not want to hear that.