I'm currently in a situation where I can't drive more often than not because of almost accidents. These almost accidents are where I've come very close were intense and awful. It feels like it's become a new trauma for me and I can't overcome it, I get into my car and begin to shake, driving my joints tense up to the point of pain. This has happened with some other things, like airplanes after 9/11.  


It feels more and more debilitating as time goes on. I can't go anywhere, do anything.  


To me it makes sense because of how emotionally raw we as people with BPD are, but sometimes I worry I'm invalid in my feelings. My brain turns moments of high emotion into trauma, which fuels my PTSD. Is anyone else this way? Is there any way I can make it better or is the main solution to force myself through it?  


I don't know if I can.