I'm not sure if this is the right place for this or not, but I just need to vent and maybe some validation. 

I guess I'm in a pretty bad place right now. Yesterday I didn't go to work and didn't call in for a third time and my boss texted me asking if I'm okay because he knows I've been having a hard time. He's been so nice and understanding and he respects my position at my job because when I'm there, I do a really good job and I'm a really hard worker. I didn't go/call in again today and I'm just really upset at myself. I feel guilty because my boss has been so nice through all of this and I keep fucking him over. I've been looking for a new job, and I got an interview in a couple days. I feel like I'm disappointing everyone who's been so proud of me lately.

TLDR; I have a lot of destructive tendencies and I guess I just need validation from someone that I didn't fuck up beyond repair and that I'm going to be okay.