I think feelings are rekindling for an old crush. She's definitely interested in a relationship, at haven't actually talked about it obviously but I know. She's said so in the past. Anyway, I've been with my fiance 10ish years. And suddenly I feel like I'm making a mistake by being with her, and the guilt crushes me. I thought I wanted to marry this woman, to grow old together. But all I can think about is life with my friend. We have so much more in common, our conversation flows better, and I can literally talk to her about anything. To top all this off, I feel such shame for these thoughts. I know I am already betraying my fiance and I don't know what to do anymore. We are going to couple's counseling soon. I guess I'm just venting to anyone. I will be doing DBT soon, so I'm hoping it can help me feel less absolutely insane. I love all of you. Fuck.