I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ve spent so much money on treatment, and I’m still alone. I feel like it would logically be better for everyone if I killed myself. 

My sister is having a baby soon, and I feel like it would be better if the kid would never meet me. 

I’ve quit my job, too scared to go outside, and I don’t want to go back into the world. I do not want to hurt people. Memories of my past are on repeat in my mind. So many bad decisions. 

I’m too scared to do it, though, because I think it will most likely be painful.


TL;DR: Woe is me.