I'm 18 and my parents are moving to another state and I'm going to stay here alone because I finally have a job and college that I don't hate.
My best friend since high school and FP has suggested for us to live together, so I don't have to be alone (he knows about my bpd and I hate to be alone) and we can help each other.
The tricky thing is that I was completely in love with him for the past two years, had some terrible codependecy and obsession problems, now It's getting a little better because we are not seeing each other a lot as we used to, but I still miss him a lot every single day, even when we are months without seeing each other.
I am so happy thinking about us living together but also afraid, because I know he doesn't like boys, what if I start idealizing and obsessing again and get really bad because of jealous or something like that?

I really need some advice.