I'm not sure what the true meaning of depression is and it's like Everytime I bring it up, people kind of brush it off.
  
 I'm 20 years old, I've been in some of the worst situations imaginable, from having five guns pointed at me with one in my mouth, having my house shot up, and facing life in prison.
  
 I've had much more terrible experiences but I've never gotten PTSD from it, I trained myself to be empty inside and to not care about things, so that way I could feel happy. Fast forward I met a girl and dated her for 2 years, but the heartbreak made me feel so empty.

 In conclusion, despite what I've been through I'm a happy cool person to be around, i'm really kind and respectful in public and give money to the homeless Everytime I can, but it feels like something's eating me up inside... Im not sure if I need to seek treatment or if time will heal