First post here. My anxiety seems to be increasing, particularly in regards to imagined scenarios. I'm struggling with thoughts about really stupid stuff and I'm hoping to get some advice. I've been turned down for counselling on NHS and now I'm not sure where to go for help. I was given anti anxiety meds but they made me feel exhausted but wired, I was embarrassed even opening the door to take my post because I felt like the postman would think I was crazy. I stopped taking them. 

My worries include:

- feeling very on edge when laying down. I have this awful feeling of someone jumping on me and breaking my shins. My legs actually hurt when I think about it. 

- I get upset and overwhelmed when cooking because I have a fear of knives (most likely due to an ex who threatened to stab me)

- I no longer sleep in my bed. I sleep on a sofa which faces my front door due to fear of intruders. I just never feel safe.

- I avoid going outside unless I absolutely have no option ie having to take the bins out. I can put it off for days, and really have to force myself to do it. The thought of going outside makes me feel like crying.

There's lots of other things but I won't give an exhaustive list. I don't know if I should ask for new meds to try or avoid the anxiety of another phone call. Any advice/tips would be appreciated.