I’ve noticed lately that if I’m not focusing on my bpd and focusing on recovery all the time, I just get worse. Like my coworkers were saying that they thought I was misdiagnosed and I didn’t have bpd and someone I trusted gave me some validation but they derailed me from believing I had bpd all together. Now I’m angry, bitter, and I feel even worse than ever. I feel like all the progress I made has just been destroyed and now, after I’ve spent weeks trying to focus on anything other than bpd, I’ve only gotten worse with my interpersonal skills and emotions. However, when I focus my energy and mind on recovery entirely I start making strides again. Is this normal? Should I keep going this way? I don’t want my recovery to be an obsession, it’s all I talk about other than politics. 