TW: mention of some form of selfharm


I don’t really have a lot of healthy coping mechanisms, but I have gotten better at staying away from the unhealthy coping mechanisms. However today is one of those days where I just don’t feel like staying away from those unhealthy habits. It wasn’t even that bad of a day, it was just a bit of a downer. But I do intensely feel the need to do something harmful to myself. I’m not going to take it too far, because I don’t want to worry those around me. 

It might be because I have had a lot of ups the past month, something I never really experienced and I can feel myself wanting to throw chaos in the mixture so it feels familiar again.