I have a lot of things going for me. I go to school, I have a job, I have friends. I’m considered above average in terms of attractiveness. But the only thing that matters is that men see me as desirable. 

Whenever I’m sad, or I feel like I don’t belong, I think about any one of the three guys I like. I fantasize about going on dates with them, sleeping with them, and having kids with them. Nothing else matters. I just want them.