Ive lived outside of my home country for about 15 years, and every couple years I go back to visit my grand mother. She raised me until I was 7. I love her a lot, and me leaving her is what my psych told me triggered my bpd at a very young age.

Im 22 now. Currently in a fragile mental health state, and on meds. Living with my bf outside of my familys house. She approves of nothing in my life. My choice in clothing, hair, beliefs. She loves me, but she doesnt know me. I feel like I have to be a performative monkey to appease her. When I had a massive breakdown with self harm and suicidal idiation, she was upset and refused to believe I have issues. Shes a control freak who always critisizes people close to her and pushes them away.

Im scared to face her. She wanted me to grow up bold and brilliant, but Im an art school dropout. Im on meds and she doesnt believe in the need for them. Does anyone know of coping mechanisms to coping with stressful family members??