It’s super hard to describe my anxiety/ depression? Not even sure what to call it. Wondering if anyone else out there can relate. Everytime I talk to someone who’s on LEXAPRO it seems like they have a trigger whether it’s feeling like they can’t breathe half the time, panic attacks, family trauma, school or work anxiety, driving anxiety, etc. and that’s why they’re on it. for me, no external factors of my life give me anxiety. I used to have panicky symptoms &amp; health anxiety randomly and that is what first got me to go on LEXAPRO 5mg and I was cured of that. Now, I’ve fallen into a new anxiety that is all mental in my head and has nothing to do with anything, it’s not about my health, not about my boyfriend, it’s not about my family, it’s not about my job, not about friends, etc etc. it’s just this everyday feeling where I feel like I am in life… but not really IN it. It feels like I’m having anxiety about having anxiety? And for me that’s not feeling completely myself, feeling like I always need to be doing something and distracting myself from my own mind, everyday is more surviving then living, can’t find too much excitement about things but I still go and do them. Most normal people go about life not thinking and analyzing, just living. And I used to too. I am now completely different and don’t feel fully myself. I mean I was so used to living with friends at college always seeing my boyfriend and now I’m back home working a 9-5 living with my parents and only see my bf 2 days a week. and I’m like is this just adulting and my brain sees it as not normal since I went from chaos and entertainment 24/7 to doing a whole lot of nothing and a lot of alone time. I should be able to wake up for work and do my job come home go to the gym eat dinner watch a show and sleep without thinking so much into it and trying to look for satisfaction and trying to exist almost?? It sounds insane but I’m trying to describe it… I’m Not just living everyday chillen I’m Always thinking ab everything like what can I do w my time lol and always trying things to do to distract my mental health I feel like I don’t actually enjoy my time as much when hanging with friends as I did before hand ( and when I had that health anxiety and panick problem being around friends helped SOOOO MUCH, I loved sleepovers and doing everything together) now it doesn’t help anymore with this mental thing. Idk why I’m obsessed w the thought of what the heck do people do at home why do I feel like my time always has to be preoccupied???? and I’ve never thought this before!!! It’s all so strange and I wanna be my normal self who always loves being around friends, who does things with ease and no thought about it , who loves the weekends and isn’t scared of “ free time” and I get nervous now that I feel this way and that I’m not normal and don’t know what to do to help it. Honestly this feeling has gotten wayyyyyyy quieter and I’ve been going through life much better probably because I bumped my 5mg to 10mg 2 weeks ago after a depressive episode. That was also scary my mind sunk into a random depression one day and finally that debilitating depression is lifted but now I have this weird mentality. I’m hoping LEXAPRO can continue to help and my brain can balance out. I’m thinking it’s mental ocd where I’m obsessing over feeling normal and therefore analyzing things and feeling out of whack? But idk. Would love advice!!