I haven't been able to find anyone else who experiences this and my therapist hardly even understands it.

It started out as daydreaming constantly due to trauma. I'm not always imagining specific scenarios anymore, but I can't get the fictional characters to go away. I know they're not real but they're always listening to my thoughts. I constantly feel like I'm being watched.

There's only one part of me (Called A) that's able to get rid of them, but I don't control A at all.

I also have very frequent intrusive thoughts, which makes the fictional character thing so much worse. I am constantly telling my brain to shut up or saying things that make no sense because I'm talking to "myself."

I don't hear voices (only occasional completely random phrases in voices I don't recognize in my thoughts and whenever someone like A talks to me, which their voice is just mine but talking a slightly different way), but it feels like I do which doesn't even make sense. It's like the same exact feeling and reaction someone has when they hear voices, but without actually hearing any voices; it's all thoughts and feelings I have absolutely no control over that aren't quite the same as my normal intrusive thoughts.

I feel fucking insane. I don't understand. Like I said, my therapist doesn't even understand and just said it was interesting. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with my brain. I'm already diagnosed with multiple things but none of them explain this.