Today was my first day and in the middle of training, I shut down and just left. I think I want to go to an inpatient facility because I haven’t been able to hold a job at all this year. I turn 23 at the end of this month and I’m very depressed. Family members and friends are confused about me or either make snide remarks about how I can’t keep a job. At a family dinner, my cousin “jokingly” said that I never keep a job as if I don’t already know and don’t feel terrible about it. My mom claims to be patient but I know she’s fed up with me. She’s said before how she doesn’t have any help and never did and how when she was my age she already had her own place and stable employment. I have a potential guy I’m dating but I’m worried I’m gonna scare him off. He’s younger than me and his parents wanted to meet me but I just feel like I’m nothing to be proud of. Who wants to bring home someone who doesn’t have a steady job or anything good going for them? I just don’t know how much longer I can do this. I really just want to fall asleep and not wake back up.