Don’t really know why, just woke up and out of nowhere it hit me hard. Endless sadness. Despair. Self disgust. Feeling eaten alive and then one minute later just laugh at my pathetic self for being such a loser, just to cry again and then repeat over and over and over and over.. 

Even though this happens from time to time and I‘m used to my „daily BPD mood swings“, it always fucks me up really bad.