I’m bad, I’m truly bad and beyond saving it seems, I’m boring beyond belief I’m bad at reading situations and ruin everything, I have no friends, all alone, I feel like the black sheep of the family, people tire of me so easily and I can’t blame them, look at me I’m not interesting, I wish to god I was but I’m worthless, I feel this overwhelming sadness that doesn’t leave it’s there in the back of my mind chewing nonstop at my mind, I don’t truly smile I don’t truly laugh. I put up my mask that’s all, I wish I had people I wish i had someone to be my friend even though I’m boring and can’t do much, I feel like I’m about to just cry again at work, I feel this void as always and it won’t leave cause I know no matter what I do these feelings stay the same I know the people I talk to and hang with will leave me they always do and it all me, I’m not being a Debby downer just realistic I’d do anything to have friends just please, I’m so fucking low I hide it nonstop but it’s there all the time I wish it wasn’t, I just wish I had people had friends wasn’t such a loser, a fucking reject everything is grey nothing shines