It’s so hard to have a normal day without wanting to self destruct and sabotage my life.It’s seems like I switch back to my childhood and feel so hopeless.That’s when the suicidal thoughts come back to haunt me .After Being shattered into pieces I gather what’s left and build myself up .I tell myself don’t let the moment I’m feeling right now destroy what I accomplished. I achieved so much success through the pass months and I’m really happy about it .I been employed for 6 months and sober for 2 months (only smoking weed,stop abusing alcohol and pills) .In reality my inner child just wants someone to hug me and tell me it’s not my fault and it’s okay feel this way .Hope y’all have an amazing day and remember if you are feeling shame ,it’s okay to acknowledge it and it’s okay to take a mental break ,we’re only human .