Been depressed lately and it hurts like hell. Getting out of bad is a chore. Thoughts of non-existence are a comfort. 

Silver lining? I’ve been completely disillusioned, my ego has been shattered. I no longer pretend I’m living a good life, that I’m happy, that I’m not lonely or that I am in any way special. From now on it will be brutal honesty to myself and others, which before I couldn’t imagine. 

I suck. My life sucks. Most people are much better than me in every way. It is what it is. I’ll try to cope and do the best I can in this hard, lonely existence I don’t seem to be equipped to handle. No more lies.

Fight on brothers and sisters.