Expecting something from nothing and it's all nothing. It's all a lie and the more I do the more I suffer. So doing less is actually ideal and the closest to the truth I'll ever get...I just need to let go and do less. In the hopes someday when I've abandoned it all I can be free of suffering entirely. That's all want, so I'll just start embracing the process of letting things go...and if that doesn't work fuck me ig. I'll just blow my brains out lol