I love relshenships, my truest highs are from love, I was in a relshenship with the most beautiful women for almost 4 years we have a beautiful 2 year old
. daughter together, I'm young I'm 21.

I left 6 weeks ago because I loved her to much and I feel like I'm to insecure. I have allot of anger (working on it in dbt). Shes a fiery person too and it was constantly big fights that ended up with me either in hospital, on a drug binge or self harm or attempts. I couldnt keep destroying her and myself and our daughter and I was 7 months into dbt and left the relshenship to focus on that get a job and have a good relshenship with my daughter. 

Leaving her was the hardest thing I had to do and I got a job and I was doing alright I wasn't coping well everytime I was home alone and she was starting to hang with heaps of guys more and all the memories came back and everything hit so hard and I had a break down ended up in hospital again I just cant get her out of my head I feel alone I feel like I've lost everything good in my life... I've stopped going to my job which is really good for me but I cant handle the pain anymore. 

I wanna be with her so bad but I'm to needy and I need allot in  a relshenship as I'm insecure as fuck still and paranoid the other person dosent feel the way I do and that they will do behind my back I have bad trust issues.

I'm just over feeling alone no matter what I do when I'm with someone I get the best highs but the lows are life threatening 

When I'm alone life goes better but holy fuck I hate this empty hollow feeling I have without her and my daughter around.