I'm pretty much visibly upset several times a day, usually to be triggered easily by something small turning into something huge and dramatic when I talk about it, but I live with my FP and I'm closest with him and he always asks me whats wrong when I'm visibly upset and pries at me to share whats bothering me, and when I do, I just cause problems between us, but when I don't talk about it, I start to feel worse and worse because I can't talk reason into myself, no matter how hard I try. its really lose/lose. my paranoia and delusional thinking keeps getting worse each day, to make matters worse. I'm afraid of needing to go back to the hospital, but my birthday is this weekend and I have a elaborate special birthday plans I don't want to miss and am really excited about.

DAE relate, and/or have any tips/advice from personal experience to share, or able to recommend a DBT skill to effectively combat this?? I dont want to ruin my relationship, because this man is absolutely so perfect for me, the only one for me, and he's my reason. I also can't live with every little thing bothering me and ruining my day constantly with paranoias and delusions. thank you!!!! &lt;3