Hi all, I want to share a story and have it off of my chest and also ask a question about it.

I was raised by a caregiver as a child. I have always thought I had only 1 caregiver. And it appears that my parents had changed 4-5 caregivers when I was an infant (in the period of 3 years after my birth - and due to caregivers' family conditions, not that I was too difficult haha), and I was very much attached to the first one so kept calling the next ones with the name of the first one and I remember memories only with her, not with the rest. 
So when I found out about this it felt like a moment of enlightenment and also deep sorrow. 

In my personal life I'm very afraid of losing people, and so I expect people to do that as well. This turns into a self fulfilling prophecy in my life and I can't trust people enough to allow them to see real me. And even when I do I still feel that they will not care about me at some point, or they'll lie to me.

Do you think this feeling of abandonment / trust issues might have been caused by my early childhood memories? Do you think it's too late to work on issues that I don't even have a memory of? (maybe hypnosis could work but I don't know).


I'm new to the community, sorry for misuse of terms and possible offense!