Every day is the same. I want to make a change. I want to have a partner but I can't maintain anything substantial in my life. I have too many issues. I wanna spare anyone from dealing with my stuff. I wish I wasn't so lame to be around. I want to be a dumb unassuming girlfriend as long as it means I get to have affection and "love". That's how miserable and alone I am. Lol. Pathetic