**TW - being sick**

I haven't been to the dentist in around 12 years because my parents tended to forget to take me (divorced parents - bad relationship, not much communication). Now I'm 19 and I almost certainly need a wisdom tooth removing - but I physically can't even think about the dentist without having a panic attack even to the point of being physically sick. I really don't know what to do. It's not even the idea of going to the dentist, it's the thought of having to be awake during surgery. I know they can give you sedatives and things so I won't even know where I am, but even then I just know I wouldn't be able to cope with it. I straight up refuse to let a dentist near me for anything more than a checkup unless I'm completely unconscious, but I've been told that that's only for really complex cases and I am really despairing. I'd literally let my teeth rot away in my mouth before I'd even think of speaking to a dentist it's so severe :( Any advice would be really helpful because my parents keep asking about if I've booked an appointment yet and even them asking me makes me start to panic.