I wanted to go to "Aokighara" or "Jukai" in Japan to end my life. It's a top destination for people who want to end their life. It's a dense forest. I think something is holding me back, Like that leaf in Edgar Allan Poe's "The last leaf". 

 However, I changed my mind and I think that soon enough I might leave this subreddit. I think I am better than I was 2 years ago. I think I'll move out of this sub soon enough. I hope, in my heart, you all can find a way too :)