It all started when I was cheated on several times by my ex-girlfriend, it was my first real relationship and I was in love and didn't want to see the truth. After the breakup I became cold and unloving, I was in a relationship again, but I knew it  won't last long, after all we broke up.  It's been 2 years since my last relationship and I've been doing great without a relationship or woman in my life until now, but now during the pandemic I'm having severe depression because I don't meet anyone new (whether as a girlfriend or just friends) I have a best friend  who sometimes chills with me at lunchtime and a buddy at school, i only have 2 friends in total, in the last few days i have been texting a girl a lot and we had actually arranged to meet up today to chill (not more) it was actually planned that we would  hanging out for two but now she either brings my best friend with whom she gets along really well or she doesn't come at all.  It doesn't matter, I just can't deal with the fact that I can't hang out with anyone alone and I can't find friends who only know me and not my best friend.  'Cause I just can't find friends who like me the way I am or my taste in music ( I listen to hip hop and old school but every goddamn person I meet listens to UK bullshit and new school shit and that's why all the people hang out more with my best friend,  because everyone is the same, they all hear the same rubbish, they all dress the same, and they all only talk about the same bullshit) i just can't deal with the situation anymore.  the last 2 years of my life i was cold and others didn't interest me, but i just need a girl no matter if girlfriend or buddy