I was at work two nights ago and I didn’t particularly feel so great coming in because I had a lot on my mind already and wasn’t in a good headspace. I was quiet and not too open to speak to my coworkers. A little later in my shift, I was on a break eating a snack, and I felt a rush of panic come out of nowhere. My thoughts were racing and and I felt restless in my seat. My state of mind was so frightening, it felt like I was detached from reality. I lost my appetite and quickly ran to the bathroom because I then started crying and didn’t want anyone to notice me. I was in there for a least five minutes trying to calm myself down. My anxiety didn’t completely go away, but I eventually came back to where I felt functional enough to finish my job.

It’s hard to describe, but it was a very uncomfortable moment for me. I thought I was going to lose control and it was the worst state of emotion to be in. This also happened a couple weeks ago while I was out of town and having dinner at a restaurant. Someone noticed and asked if I needed help because I looked frightened. I appreciated her concern, but I also felt embarrassed. I wanted to enjoy my time but I couldn’t because what I’ve just experienced.

Would these be anxiety attacks? I’ve been seen for dealing with general anxiety for many years, but wasn’t sure if these episodes would be considered as them.