I used to love my religion. My relationship with God is probably the closest one I have. It has sustained me through the hardest points in my life. I know that religion isn’t for everyone but it feels like a cornerstone of my essence. 

My husband has been weaponizing my religion against me. Saying things like “you’re not doing xyz right” “if you do that you’re going to get xyz punishment” “are you trying to disappoint God? Because you’re doing it wrong and my way is the only right way”

And I feel like my essence is poisoned. I’m so depressed already but therapy and medication can only do so much when the person I’m supposed to love and trust most is turning me and my God against each other. I feel like I’m constantly fighting with him and in myself, and I can’t turn to God, as I’ve done in the past because he keeps saying I’m such a horrible (insert Persian of my religion here)

I feel so absolutely isolated and I don’t know what to do. The one relationship I could usually turn to feels poisoned.