For everyone who needs this right now..

I know, sometimes it’s hard to believe in yourself as there is this little voice in your head, that tells you what a big loser you are and seems to be there just to make you feel worse and hopeless. 

But the voice ignores the fact, that it is so much harder to cope with everyday life if you have a mental disorder.

It’s hard to struggle to get out of bed every fucking day. It’s hard to manage everything around you when your mood constantly swings from worst to best (sometimes for no „real“ reason). It’s hard to cope with those mood swings in social settings, too, as you can’t act them out all the time, because that could be very weird. It’s hard to built relationships, as you feel rejected by so many things and think no one really likes you, or have big issues to trust somebody. Also it’s hard to maintain relationships when you have to deal with splitting and switching between „you’re the most important person in my life“ and „I don’t even care about you/I hate you“. It’s hard to have some kind of emotional outburst and then out of nowhere wonder why you‘ve even been affected by something so much and just feel like a pile of shame.. 

I could go on like this for a while. There are many things (also not everything I listed have to apply to everyone, I know symptoms can be very individual), but what I want to say is, we have to deal with so many symptoms every single day and though I don’t want to invalidate struggles or problems other people without a mental disorder have to deal with, it’s fucking hard! 

So be proud of what you manage to do every day and that’s doing your best to cope with all those kind of things and trying to keep yourself together! It’s a lot of work and you are a strong person for facing it! You’re a fighter! 

Keep it up everybody, you are stronger than you think!