I got recommended for DBT therapy after being diagnosed with BPD at 14. That was 4 years ago. I went to an intake but never followed up, and continued my 1 on 1. 
 Every year after that I also got recommend for it, basically every mental health professional I see now mentions it now.
I have severe general and social anxiety, to the point it can take me upwards of an hour to go upstairs to use the bathroom if there are people home. I'm renting from my boyfriend's parents. 
I cried for half an hour at the food bank because there was too many people, and had a panic attack when I got home.

I can't bring myself to go though. I'm terrified of it. I'm having health problems, and I'm on welfare so most of the rides to my appointments are covered by them. I already have usually 2 a week. 
I have a lot going on, between anxieties, rituals, pain, stress, appointments, family. I'm overwhelmed. 

Overall I don't know what to do, I'm having a lot of issues DBT could help with, but I have no energy, and I already feel pressed with leaving the few times I do. Going into public is extremely draining.

Has anyone else dealt with this? Have you overcome it and gone? Is it better to stick with one on one?

I realize it seems silly to ask because of the recommendations, but I don't know if I can.