I’m trying to better myself and turn a corner. I’ve been trying to get a job for like a month. I’m running out of money. There have been really loud renovations happening in my apartment building for several weeks now and it goes on for 10 hours at a time. 
I thought I was getting better. I thought I was becoming more confident. I thought I could do this, but today I had to call off an interview because I was having panic attacks. And who’s to say it won’t happen again tomorrow.

I’m so tired of being scared. I hate this shit.
Not really looking for solutions, I just need to vent I think.