im not diagnosed but im pretty sure i have a bpd and bdd :( My self image fluctuates so intensely. I could literally feel like the hottest girl on earth today and tomorrow id want to take a knife to cut off all my face fats and peel off my skin. Id have like a god complex and have a 360 switch up the next second. Honestly, i cant stand looking at myself in mirrors anymore because of the uncertainty of what id see if i look into it. i could look good but i could also look hideous. Its really affecting everything around me a lot. Based on what i see in the mirror id treat people differently. I would make really intense eye contact sometimes and on other days, i would avoid it completely and give people the silent treatment for no apparent reason. And then when it looks like theyre finally going to give up on me, i start treating them well again. i really hate it. i feel so toxic