i have really bad bpd and adhd- i realised my ex boyfriend, who i still love so much, was gaslighting me throughout most of our relationship. he is a good guy, id like to believe. my mind doesn’t want to believe he’s gaslighting me but my gut tells me he is. i just never know if i’m acting out of place or if the feelings are real and true cause of my bpd. he said that we should part our ways, he told me we weren’t making each other happy, i got really upset. i felt so sad that he wasn’t trying to understand my side, i felt like i was talking to a wall. i just don’t understand- most of the time he’s so loving, hes so affectionate. i feel like we will never be able to communicate, but i still don’t want to give up on him. am i doing something wrong? should i move on? i feel so scared losing him, i feel so alone without him, he means the world to me.