So with time, I feel bored and bored to live. Meeting more people gives me shivers. I feel lifeless. I don't want to achieve anything at this point because it's useless. I got no motivation left. I feel lazy to get up and talk to people. Recently I had a very disturbing nightmare that made me scared. I broke down in tears and finally decided to write it in a diary to feel better. I recently developed anxiety and it gives me a lot of shivers. I don't know if I really want to continue. I just feel like if I can't cope up with my surroundings I might just give up because I am tired.