I don’t want to get another year older when I feel like i haven’t grown at all. Emotionally i feel like a child, with the tantrums and the outbursts. I’m terrified that my friends will ruin my birthday. My last birthday was pretty traumatic, and my birthdays before that were messed up one way or another. I’m scared my friends won’t show up or the right people won’t say happy birthday and I’ll be drunk and alone and do something stupid. This is very classic of me. How do y’all deal with birthdays?