I was always second choice/ the side character during my whole life. Even outside the home no one wanted to be my friend. We moved alot and despite meeting all kinds of people I was always bullied and ostracized. to this day I don’t understand why? Its not possible that there isnt even one person in this whole world that likes me and would feel like they want to be my friend. 
I was a hyperactive kid, most likely have ADHD ( maybe on the spectrum idk) I was never magnetic or charming but god did I try. I tried so hard to get people to like me that it was pathetic. 
Even the meanest people I met have friends. Why do people navigate towards a holes? why is it the more people try the worst they are treated? 

Bullying messed me up beyond repair and now Im here wasting my life away. Zero friends Zero acquaintances. Terrified to leave my apartment. I just feel so sad and so sorry for my inner child. My heart breaks for them