It's this inner battle that's tearing my inside up, I feel so excluded from everyone and boxed up. I can't talk to anyone about how I'm doing and like I've said, I'm replaced and everyone can deny it all they fucking want but what do you call ignoring someone for someone better? Yeah, that's what I thought. 
Anyways, I'm so confused and I feel like I'm ticking but I can't explode because I don't know how and I feel like me exploding would be killing mysekf. I'll probably just hurt myself and that'll be that 