I've always been scared of the pain but if I use pills it won't hurt all I have is my dog but he will be alright without me, my family thinks I'm doing it for attention and she always thinks I'm faking so I can't get help the thought of never having to do anything again is really taking over so I'm going to take 15 pills then die in the shower the only person who would be sad isn't in my life anymore every time I leave my room I'm met by a offensive "joke" from the most narcissistic person I can think of she will be sorry she never took it seriously this is a last effort to find any reason at all