There's only wrong answers. You apologize, and it's wrong. You're being manipulative, you're trying to make them feel bad for you. You defend yourself, and it's wrong. You're not taking responsibility, you're speaking over the hurt you caused. You try to make up for it, and it's wrong, you're love bombing them and trying to sweep it under the rug. You're trying to swim but keep getting further away from the top. You're trying to turn but every way you look at is wrong. You're exhausting, exasperating, the single most disgusting creature to walk the earth.