I'm in a recovery house that is toxic and devalidating as fuck to me. Upon reflecting, I suppose now that im sharing, I was feeling incredibly lonely, hurt and inadequate,  a bit ok f rage when I think of specific persons I take the devalidating personally with. I just downloaded tinder, pof, and badoo in some weird attempt to fill this hole, then check meetups see if there were any support groups in my area for mental health or bpd. Maybe I'll magically find someone through my title, otherwise anyone with suggestions ? I deal with intense anxiety some days that make it hard to socialize or create friendships but, I want this to change for me.