Today, my friend called me. Probably to invite me over for a labor day kickback. But i ignored it, i ignored yet another friends olive branch to help relive me from my crippling loneliness. As much as they try and give me chance after chance, i close every door that could possibly lead to a better life.

Idk why. Maybe im afraid to be better. Maybe im ashamed of myself. Whatever it is, i wish i wasnt like this, and wish i could just answer them, but i cant.