I was at a bar with friends tonight. They made last minute plans to go to a house party pretty far away when I was already hitting the point where I wanted to go home. I finally said look I don’t wanna go, I’m not going, I’m gonna go home. They kept pressing it a bit but it wasn’t an issue. 

Then some drunk guy gets in a stupid argument with my friend, I try to de-escalate as it’s almost at a physical fight. Now I’m almost squaring up with this guy and my adrenaline is on 10. I finally get him to chill out and then my friends start to escalate it again. I physically separate everyone and push my friends out of the bar. Everything was fine. 

But now my heart is pounding, I can’t focus on anything, I’m angry, I have all this pent up adrenaline that’s just coursing through me. I try to accept the feelings and slow my breathing, which works and I’m calm. But then I’m completely fried. I’m irritable, tired, disassociated, and just wanna go to bed. So I leave and head home while my friends go to this party. 

As I type this im getting texts like “you should come!! Sorry don’t hate us”. 

Like I’m not mad at them, I wish I could get back into the mood I was in 2 hours ago and just go to the fucking party. But no. Adrenaline rush ends my day. 

Kind of a rant. Is there any way to come back to baseline after adrenaline spikes like this? Is this just my biology?