Anxiety is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. I didn’t have it my whole life then suddenly, over the span of three days I went from fine to very much not fuckin fine. I had 6 hour long panic attacks everyday for a month and doctors were baffled. Eventually the suicide ideation set in and I got freaked out that I was losing the internal debate with myself in the topic of not killing myself, and for the first time I reached out for help and put myself in suicide detainment for two weeks. Best decision I ever made, hands down. It’s been about a year since then and I’ve been through months of IOP (intensive outpatient) and made it back to school. It’s come to a point where everything I experience that makes me so happy reminds me that I could have killed myself and never experienced any of it. So I just wanted to say that if you’re struggling, I know it’s hard, but there’s a certain feeling of empowerment when you are able to maintain and take care of yourself. It’s a hard thing to learn how to do, but that’s also why it feels so rewarding. I like to think that I’m lucky to have to deal with this early (I’m 21m) because now, by the time I hit the halfway point in life, I won’t have a crisis and buy a lambo with my new wife and fuck up my kids beyond belief because I learned how to and how not to take care of my self. I’m not perfect and I fuck up constantly, but as long as there’s some progress, ie. a change of mindset, diet, routine, exercise, all that good shit, then Im able to still be proud. Love you guys, if you wanna talk about you’re situation or the things your proud of yourself for, no matter how seemingly small, go ahead and share cause the solidarity between people with anxiety is a beautiful thing that has helped me a lot, and to come together and gush over each other’s accomplishments is a valuable thing and might pull someone out fo a bad day somewhere in the world.