I’ve been dealing with depression for years, it’s genetic and yes I’ve been clinically diagnosed. So I’ve been dating this girl for like a year and a half now and it’s been great I really love her and she’s really made things better but recently she’s become short and distant and I’ve tried to ignore it right? Like maybe it’ll go away and she will start being herself again, well her guy friend invited her to go bowling today and some backstory about this guy is it’s obvious he likes my girlfriend but that’s another story of what he’s down to show it. But she said yes because I’m out of town so she wanted to go and be active so she FaceTimed me while she got ready then she drive there and she said bye etc. so she hasn’t texted me for like two hours by this point and it was 7 when she texted me “won’t be done until 12”
So I said “Alright I love you” and she said “okay we got zaxbys btw” (which is like our place to go and eat there’s a whole story to it) and I said “ahh lucky, i love you” and said “lol” and ya know it just kinda hurt and now I’ve been over thinking for an hour my minds going through the worst possibilities and now I can’t stop crying and I just want the pain to go away I wanna just be happy why can’t I be happy I just wanna be happy