I am currently becoming seriously depressed and one of the most alarming developments is that within the last few days the high that comes from being around my FP has stopped dead. As if my own body cut off my supply of endorphins.

I wanted to be less obsessive about him, but I didn't want it to be like *this*. Intellectually I still trust him a lot and think he's a great role model but there's definitely something that's just vanished into thin air. I desperately want it back since very few things are currently making me happy and until now this was the most reliable one. Just being around him made me feel much better.

Has this happened to anyone else? I'm sure it has something to do with the depression, this is peak "not enjoying things which used to make me happy".