Even though I am about to hit 30, I still have a lot to learn. One thing is losing someone close to you. I lost my grandma to type 2 diabetes last year on Oct 30. I cried a lot, and a lot. I hate how covid prevented me from going to her funeral. I hated how, because my parents decided we move to the states, I didn't get to see her for 5+ years. I still miss her a lot. As I am typing this, im crying so much I can barely see what I am typing. Is it still grief, when I cry sometime when I think about her. I would cry a long time, feel fine for a month or 2. Then I would get this feeling again from a trigger that makes me feel how much i miss her. She the first person I ever lost that is close to me. I have so much regret, but I know she would want me be happy. But I still feel so sad at times. What is grief? does it come and go? I know theres no time to heal and cope, but what makes it mean you have learn to cope with a lost one?