Like whats the point of me living. I already know that past friends dont wanna associate with me because of my illness. There's also this girl that i met in highschool who dont wanna associate with me either. Im pretty sure i fell in love with her. Feelings still remain for her but im not sure if its love (if that makes sense). I just wish they knew how sane i am.... If you here that someone is schizophrenic, most people's first instinct would be to avoid that person. Which I understand. I need things to change. Right now. I hope God helps me out hopefully now. But i doubt it.