One of my friends who knows the shit I have gone through told me that they have seen me slowly being crushed by all of this shit since they met me.  I'm too consumed by all my problems in every aspect of my life, and I don't have an outlet that allows me to escape temporarily from my problems.  Sports, this city, and work have been ruined for me because of all of the shit that has happened to me through those.  

I'm just looking for new things to try and help me escape and not be consumed by all my bullshit.