CW: Self harm, alcohol mention

I feel like such shit lately. I’m mean to all of my friends and I can’t stop self harming every time I am. I feel like nobody really likes me but when I try to express how I feel to people they get frustrated and stop talking to me. I’m having problems with a friend because he told me his wife hated me and I spiraled, and everyone keeps telling me to consider his feelings. It’s hard because it feels like nobody is considering mine. I apologized and he kept on about how I’m too mean to him. I told him to set boundaries with me. He told me he needed a break from the conversation.

Am I crazy? Am I wrong? Is everyone going to leave me? I can’t stop drinking and hurting myself.