Background Info: I was feeling great for about 3 months, then suddenly I felt invincible, threw away all of my meds, wrote a 15 page essay throughout the night (not a suicide note), then the following day, took a half day off work to attempt a suicide (had a mild argument with my boyfriend via text during work)...

My doctor won't diagnose me because she's afraid to misdiagnose me... But the meds she's put me on, and are hesitant to prescribe says otherwise. The hospital I was sent to did diagnose me as bipolar, but apparently they weren't supposed to tell me. It was a slip up. (I'm in a country with universal health care so my bill comes out to like $10 per therapy session + medication. So I know she's not benefitting from pushing meds).

Lamictal, Abilify - mood stabilizers

Seroquel - to fall asleep

Lorazepam - anxiety, restless legs from Seroquel

Klonopin, Trazodone - to stay  asleep

Xanax - to lower, manage my sudden anger and agitation I've developed the past few weeks

Concerta\* - adhd

Lexapro\* - SSRI; depression

\*I had to beg her to put me on these two. It took me a whole month of me crying, whining, begging, and threatening to go off all my meds cold turkey for her to add them. But she did say that she was worried that these meds would make me more agitated and aggressive.

So far, I'm happier and more talkative. It reminds me of how I was for those 3 months before my failed suicide attempt...

Is anyone on this much meds? And how are they working for you? What meds are you taking if not this combination and does it work for you? I know that meds react differently for everyone, and I doubt my psychiatrist would just switch my meds just because I said it worked for someone else that I read from reddit. I'm asking just because I'm curious.