Hi there,
So my doctor just called me and told me I have an STD. I’ll get a treatment for it and it’s done so that is not the problem.

I’m in a relationship and I told my bf about is. He is pissed and don’t wanna talk to me for a couple of days. I know it’s shocking and he needs to take his time to get over it. BUT he wants to find out how we got the STD and after that he wants to talk with me. 

I feel like he is letting me down right now and he is going to break up with me because of a fucking STD???? He know I have bpd and these things can cause suicidal behavior but I don’t think he cares or is aware of it right now. 
Before him I got tested on STD because I wanted to be sure and I didn’t have an STD. However there is a girl in my house with an STD and we used the same razor blade.. 

I wish my bf was here for me and us so we could talk about it and get over it but he doesn’t want to talk to me at all and I’m just standing in the dark all by myself. He hates me and I just want die.