Hi guys so I’ve been stalking around on this subreddit for a while but I’ve been a bit shy to ask. So basically I’ve had a past history of what’s been diagnosed as depression and have been on citalopram for each of these 2 previous episodes which normally last 3-4 months of the year. Each time these episodes have came on are when I’ve experienced rejection (breaking up with my ex and losing a close friend through my own behaviour) but this episode has been different but the same. It started about 2 weeks ago after I’ve just recently moved out with a mate and it’s been horrendous. I’ve had good days and bad ones but basically my mood has been shifting every 6 hours or so and I’ve been experiencing hallucinations, ecstasy feelings, depression, anxiety, mania and these weird full body highs. I’ve not been taking any drugs at all (with the exception of weekend binge drinking) and I’ve been trying to look after myself the best I can. I’ve been referred to the NHS mental health services but so far they’ve been absolute shambles and I’m going to go private for a diagnosis tomorrow. I phoned 111 tonight and went to a health centre for the GP to tell me they couldn’t do anything about it. I feel like I’m on drugs when I’m sober this is a absolute joke.