I finished school 8 years ago.I changed a couple of schools.After I transferred to another school, my life got worse.My classmates didn't like me.Sometimes they bullied me.I was lonely.I considered myself the worst.My parents were unhappy with my studies, my father scolded me.

The girls didn't like me.I envied the boys that the girls liked.I wasn't attractive enough.I began to think that something was wrong with me.I tried to distract myself with video games and porn.Pornography made me feel worse.Sometimes I felt depressed, sometimes anxious.

In my soul, there was enough pain, loneliness, resentment, low opinion of myself.And after porn, it all intensified.I began to think that I have the wrong body, that I'm not beautiful enough, my dick is not right, the color of my hair, eyes, skin is not right.