I have so much to do...I have errands to run...I have things to buy...I need to get out of the house...but I'm getting so anxious. I don't want to go anywhere. I don't want to do anything. Everything has been making me so anxious. Just the thought of going anywhere makes me afraid. I'm trying to allow myself to take it gradually...but even now, after doing things slowly and trying to get outside and push myself, I feel panicky. 

I'm not normally like this. Normally if I have to call someone to make an appointment, I can. If I need to go out and get laundry detergent, I get in my car and go to the store and pick up the damn soap. If I need to go into the post office to drop off a package, I usually do it. But lately I just can't. If I begin to get ready to go out, I start feeling numb... when I begin thinking of the thing I need to get, I start panicking. I can't just do one thing a day...I have too much starting to pile up. 

I would ask my husband to do the things we need done...or just some of them...but I so afraid he's getting tired of my neediness. I'm beginning to just feel more afraid and I don't know how to cope...