I was diagnosed over the summer with BPD and am starting to realize I have many symptoms of PTSD from years of not knowing what this was, and having it dictate my adult life. 

I feel if I had been diagnosed way sooner, I might have handled life differently, and perhaps not be dealing with the way things have spiraled out of control. The emotions that I feel from life experiences are shock, fight or flight, trauma, devastation, anxiety, paranoia, distraction, memory loss, shame, not knowing what are my own thoughts, mental exhaustion, debilitated.

Perhaps I'd like to share this because I'm starting to think BPD is almost a gateway to bigger problems if not handled on time. I'm suffering severely from it.