The constant triggers to the smallest things, the jealousy, the insecurities, the comparing myself to others, the abandonment issues, the constant change in my emotions, the feeling of not being in control, the impulsive behaviour, the burning rage when I'm angry, the self harm, the feeling of never being good enough, the lack of identity, just fucking everything. I don't want it anymore!!

I hate myself because of this illness, I feel like I am going insane. 
I genuinely feel I am slowly getting closer and closer to ending my life because of this illness. 

I beg every day to just become normal. I don't want this illness anymore. Please...