Lately i felt like i’m at my breaking point. Nothing feels real what so ever anymore and i’m having too many delusions and hallucinations . I don’t have insurance but i think maybe i should be admitted into a hospital. i’ve been to multiple before but that was when i had insurance. i don’t have the money to be able to pay for it and neither do my parents. this is just toiling on me and i just feel like ending it all if i can’t even manage to get help. i do go to therapy and a psychiatrist but i do that in self pay format and it’s pretty cheap i’d say. i have so many urges to just open up my skin deeply like i did before and just ending it all. what should u do? should i really just end the pain now? it seems like i don’t have a choice at this point.