For context,right now I have been homeschooled when i was in 7th grade (i'm supposedly in 8th grade now) and ever since then my scores have been slipping and i feel fucking dumb, i do five assignments each day in each different class i'm sadly struggling a few like in math and in science i feel like crying almost all my scores be going up and down i get 60% in my quizes but sometimes i would get high scores like 70% or 80%  or 100% but most of the time i get 60% or lower i'm highly stressed right now and no one around me is making it better i turned to homeschooling cause i can't take the sexual assault or bullying anymore so much more happened last year and i don't want to talk about it. I use to have so many good grades but now I'm just failing basically, right now i still have to wait for my mother to find a new house first then she will be able to find me and my brother a new school but i can't help but feel stressed over it because it already have been like month's and when i keep asking her about any updates about finding a new house she completely shuts me down about it and just yell at me for keep asking her. I hate living i hate being here and all this mess is making me not eat,not sleep, not take a shower, not get up from bed. I keep having nightmares about school a lot and terrible things that happen to me in general. I try my hardest in my assignments but i feel like I'm not trying hard enough. I feel like i won't achieve anything. I seriously want to die right now, i really do i can't take this amount of stress anymore i'm only 13. The only coping method i do is cutting cause that's the only thing that makes me feel good. I feel so alone everyday.