After the darkest year of my life I met a woman. The first person I'd ever met who I believed I could spend the rest of my life with. She was intelligent, successful, attractive, and when we were together, kind.   After four months of being nearly inseparable, she flew back to the last state she lived in, finished moving our of her ex boyfriend's place, and asked me to never speak to her again.      I am beyond devastated.  Don't have a clue how to cope. If I was depressed before, I don't know how to describe what I am now.