Hi! I have no intellectual interests or hobbies. I feel pretty emotionally flat most of the time and when I do experience emotions, it’s usually just restlessness, fear, or frustration. I’ve tried so many hobbies and nothing stuck. I don’t really feel engaged by being alive or doing things. I make myself do things like go to the zoo, walk on the beach, etc. but I don’t really feel fed by these things.

I want to fill the emptiness but I don’t know how. I want to pass time in healthy ways but I have no real drive. No positive emotions = no personal reward for effort.

Anyone been there and kept the search up and found exceptions to the rule? Or should I just stop trying to find something that will make me feel any different?

I wish I was obsessed with reading about things. That would allow for an endless way to pass the time.