The last month I’ve crumbled and I can’t be strong anymore. The last year I’ve been dealing with the death of my dad and I’ve not showed any sort of emotion to anyone. After all who would wanna hang around with someone who was a downer. My mums side of the family don’t care and have moved on and I don’t fit in with them. My dads side of the family think I’ve got over the the death of him. 

So I turned to weed as a way out as no one wanted to know if I was alright. My former friends are now ‘too mature’ for me and they’ve left me alone. I only have one true friend at school and I think I’m a burden to him. 

Every night I’m up thinking if I can get better and if I would be missed.