On more than one occasion I've been a no show to an important job interview because of a panic attack or, simply not being able to get out of bed..

Like today, I missed my second opportunity at interviewing for one of my dream jobs as a curatorial/guide at an aquarium. 

I had a decent panic attack yesterday and was left with that weird hangover they leave behind, I just couldn't face that world that early this morning. 

I also missed my first interview back in May, I can't remember why but I did atleast email with some excuse and eventually received a second offer. 

The worst part.. is I'm to ashamed to say or do anything about not attending the interview.

Theyve tried to call... they've emailed..

I am silent.. all I want to say is, "my apologies, I was tied up having a panic attack" 

But, that would be wildly inappropriate..