I have a lot of “problems”. It’s difficult to function as a normal human being. But there’s no reason for me to have these problems, especially the trauma-related ones. My therapist says I was emotionally abused, but I’m pretty sure I just had normal parents and a healthy childhood. I do have diagnosed GAD, which I agree with, but maybe the generalized anxiety is causing all this other perceived stuff? Like depressive periods, wired/hypervigilant periods, and dissociation? I spend so much time researching psychology to figure out what is wrong with me, but in the end, I probably have nothing and am just lazy. I have fibromyalgia, which I’m probably faking too. How can I stop my brain from faking these things? I’m tired of hating myself for not having a job and productive life. I need these “symptoms” and my obsession over them to stop. I’m sure I’ve just deceived myself and everyone around me.