I do t want to live but i have people depending on me. The world overwlems me and i cant deal. I love feeling drink its the only time i feel free..with my medicayion combination i feel numb, problems are in my head byt i feel numb my limbs are numbing anf i get to just exist and nithing else…its not a solution but neither id my medication clearly..:.ive been severely depressed my whole life ihe been too sensitive for this world and this is the inly time i can just be wothout my myscles tensing just from existing..i love eberyone but hate myself..