i really hate everything about it. I wasn’t supposed to be born and then it happened. i ruined my moms life and career path. my father is a piece of shit that i promised i wouldn’t end up being like but it seems like more and more the pieces of shit in this world just get no consequences. i used to have friends. Then combined with the fact i made a few dumb decisions along with them blatantly just being fake i ended up losing pretty much every single one of them. All of my relationships have failed either due to me being young and dumb or them switching up. everyone ends up hating me. i love people too hard then lose them. i really feel like i have nothing else to live for. i feel like b i’m going to be a failure regardless of if i live or die. i just regret the fact i was born and really wish a lot of things went differently. now i’m stuck cause 1) i couldn’t do that to my mother 2) i’m scared to die for real. the pain. the unknown. i just don’t know anymore. i really have no one and i needed to vent. thanks for reading if u made it this far. i don’t know where 2 go from here