I grew up in a family that was not close to each other. We rarely spent time all together, and barely did fun activities together. I'm 21 now, and my boyfriends family loves having family get togethers. I hate family get togethers. I always have, I feel uncomfortable and extremely anxious the whole time. I really like my boyfriends family, but I never want to have to hang out with them. I only want to see them on holidays/birthdays like I do with my family. I told him that I don't like family functions and that I don't want to get close to his family. I know that might be a bitch move, but I keep my circle extremely small because everyone else has fucked me over terribly. I don't want to get close to his family and get hurt by that. His family is also completely different from mine so I'm 10x more uncomfortable. They're rich, they care about presentation, everything has to be perfect. I feel the exact opposite. I've turned down hanging out with them a handful of times, but I genuinely have to go over to their house for the super bowl. I don't like football. I'm severely depressed, I don't like anything. I'm starting to realize that I would literally rather die than do the things I don't want to.