I'm not afraid of taking medication for depression. I know it's purpose is to get me feeling better and the side affects of medication in the past were never that bad. Still I can't find the motivation or discipline to keep taking it everyday. 

I'm not sure if it's hopelessness or not. Medication for depression has never worked for me in the past no matter how long I was on it. I'm fully aware another medication type might work this time around. Despite this I usually end up maybe taking medication for a few days then stop because I don't get any positive effect.