I feel I’ve experienced depression for about ~10 years now with 6 years of it officially diagnosed and with treatment (medication, CBT). I just entered a new phase in my life but at the same time feel I’m still in the same place and maybe got set back a little bit mentally. I feel my new responsibilities in life has been unearthing past childhood trauma and issues and I wake up some days feeling that there’s something in me that has changed for the worse. I feel broken and it’s nothing like I’ve experienced before, I feel every last bit of my fighting spirit is just gone and I’m just tired. 

I have a partner that’s supportive and amazing but he took on a job that’s incredibly demanding and I feel terrible about having to add to his list of growing responsibilities especially that he’s a top performer at work and is basically brilliant.

I’m not sure what I want to get out of posting this, but I’m just hoping I make it through this.