I’m 18 years old and this summer has been a living hell for me. for the past three months i can’t remember a single day we’re i felt even someone calm for more than an hour. i’m trying so hard to stay optimistic but it’s so hard. i feel so hopeless and alone. i went to the ER for a panic attack last month and they took and EKG and found some PACs which is a type of skipped heartbeat but the cardiologist said it was normal. I can’t stop obsessing over it though. i’m so scared something is wrong with my heart even though i’ve been reassured by professionals time and time again. i’m switching off of zoloft to lexapro some days i feel better but other days my anxiety is so debilitating. i spent the morning throwing up and shaking from a panic attack. i have orientation for college in two days and i want to go to college and be successful so baldly but i’m so worried i’ll be to anxious to do it. seeing the toll this is taking on my mom is so devastating. i just want my life back. i used to be so happy. i can’t do this anymore.