Hello yet again  


Back in 2018, i was told i needed to have all my wisdom teeth removed for growing in the wrong way.  
And four years later they're still rooted in my jawbone. Because i can't bring myself to get it done.  
I know this is a necessity, and isn't something i can push off because i'm scared. Being a hypochondriac, the repercussions of not doing this terrifies me.  


But the fear of getting it done is paralyzing. I'm already scared of hospitals and needles. And now i have to do something that i haven't had done since i was like 4. The thing that scares me the most is the anesthetics. I'm terrified my heart isn't healthy enough for it. I know i could go for a sedative and not go completely under. But i don't want to experience the procedure either.  


It's all just a lose lose for my anxiety. Reassurance from dentists haven't got me to get it done. And the threat of complications from not getting it done hasn't. I'm not sure what will.  


I'm terrified of having it done, but i don't want to reach a point of no return, where i'm in pain and the surgery will become more complicated than it ever needed to be.