I am sabotaging myself, I almsot never sleep and eat. I reached the point of absolutely not enjoying anything that I used to and I am very lost in life. There is no better time than now to suicide, I dont know what do I want to do, my family hates me, my friends probably hate me as well and it is not like I cry or become angry because of it, I am simply numb about everything.

I have been wondering... Is this what living as a teenager should be? Am I missing something? Am I weird by saying these things?