Both my parents are severely disappointed in me. I dropped out of college, don't have a job and I losing my sanity.

I went to a neighborhood party tonight and saw my ex. She was pretending like I don't exist, so I got drunk and lashed out at her whole family.

My parents were embaressed and her whole family disgusted.

I really let go of my life. I am no longer the confident, athletic, academic achiever I used to be. I am a bottom of the barrel peace of shit who disappoints everyone and deserves to die.

I try to get better, but nothing helps. I hate everyone, especially my dad for calling my insane.

I know he isn't wrong, but honestly my parents are my final line keeping my sane. I honestly think of just shooting myself and getting it done with.

My ex and her parents think I am a clown, my friends cut contact after I dropped out and my parents are no longer proud of me. They are disgusted by me.