I miss my boyfriend so much, but we’ve been broken up for a month with no contact and this has been our worst breakup. I really did love him and I’ve never connected with anyone like that, so whenever something would go wrong I’d feel it more intensely and it was like my entire world was crashing down. I’m worried that having any sort of contact with him would be wrong for a lot of reasons. I feel like he’s hiding something from me or has lied about a lot, since he texted my friend who he said he hated asking if she wanted to hang out. that hurt me so badly since he was trying to put effort into seeing someone he said he didn’t like but didn’t see me. I also don’t know if he’s angry at me, since he said our breakup was my fault to the same friend. I really do miss and love him though, and I feel like I want some type of communication, but the fear of rejection or being lied to is too much.