i just need to vent right now and sort my thoughts. the last few weeks very pretty calm for me, uni didnt started yet so i was home a lot. but it starts next week and i was feeling really happy about it, i like my uni i have friends there and i like what i do. but suddenly this morning i felt so anxious. i almost got a panic attack and i didnt had one for a while now. because i thought that im going to have a panic attack i even felt more anxious, i hate this fear of panic attacks. 
i tried to stay calm, did some breathing but i feel like i forgot everything i normally do when i feel anxious. i can stay home today and for the next couple days so thats nice.
also im having a cold and my period which doesnt really help either