New to the group so hi everyone! The last three years have been tough- my now ex-fiancé relapsed hard on fentanyl during the pandemic &amp; it took me a long time to end things, I also financially supported both of us, both of our parents were diagnosed with Cancer, &amp; I was diagnosed with PTSD because of the mental &amp; physical abuse (11 stitches in my head). A lot… I know. 

I moved in with family for a year which was nice but difficult but finally got back on my own feet. I’m working at a bar that is really good financially and I’ve made friends but it’s also cliquish. I’m older (38) than 90% of my work colleagues (including managers) &amp; while I get along with people because I’m the funny gay guy at work I feel like I have very few connections/friends. That’s hard when you don’t really have friends outside of work, your family is not super close though you try hard to be good to them, &amp; your rock (my mom) is always in pain in medicated.

I have my dog &amp; cat but I really feel like I have no one. It’s been two years since my relationship ended &amp; I have a lot of trust issues and am not putting my baggage on someone else.

I used to be SUPER outgoing- going to school, working three bar jobs, &amp; working at bank while having a social life. I discovered pills at 21 &amp; it consumed my life- over seven years clean. I go to meetings for myself, Naranon, &amp; I just don’t know how to socialize. I can fake it at work but my social skills are just embarrassing.

This was a long rant and I’m sorry but maybe someone will see something I say and it will resonate?

I hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving!