A few weeks ago, about a month ago actually, I was offered and was hired for my first full-time job. It was a good experience and was making good workmates. The only downside was it was in food service, so I had to deal with people's orders correctly. But I had problems getting to work on time and my managers had to talk to me about it. However, on Friday, I was let go because I arrived to work a few minutes late than normal. No second chances, just let go.

It pisses me off because I felt I was improving in my workflow, particularly in that week. I was arriving on time, much earlier than expected, and was getting good reviews. Notably in the position as host. I even was gonna start working in the kitchen this week, rather than just working in front of house.

But the moment I started to get good with a job I was enjoying, my anxiety or what have you sets me up to fall. I left to work on Friday earlier than expected because I had to do some mail for my mother, but I still arrived late. Maybe it was a sign this job was not for me because of how fast I was let go.

Time management has always been a factor for me, especially when I had to leave for somewhere. I never take into count the trains in NYC and how much they suck in getting somewhere on time. I wonder if having a job affects my anxiety even if I don't know it, making me question if I am doing a good job and self-sabotaging myself in the process.