In my last dorm I couldn't really connect to anyone because I was always in my room. I couldn't even go to the kitchen and cook something, because I was scared of meeting someone. And I would make the most stupid mistakes, because I simply cannot concentrate on cooking when there are people in the same room. I've had social anxiety for a couple of years now and although it's getting better, my social skills are still almost at zero. I'm really awkward and cannot hold any conversations, because I never really know what to say. People sometimes just assume I'm dumb or uninteresting. And often times I think they're right.
Additionally, some people that live here don't even speak my language, so I have to talk to them in English, which is even more difficult for me. I just want to make some friends and it makes me so sad hearing them in the living room having a good time, while my anxiety prevents me from participating. And even when I'm participating, the social interactions completly drain my energy.
There were times where I would overcome my fears, but it just made everything worse, because the outcomes I was fearing became reality. I really don't know what to do anymore...


PS: I already have a few friends outside of the dorm, but I don't meet them very often, because I have the same fears with them (just not that extreme)