I'm worried to talk to a friend of mine. Always. 

Losing a certain friend recently has made becoming friends with someone else a horrible thing. They now became something to lose. I worry about everything I say because I'm just worried that I'm going to say something that'll end in them leaving. Sometimes I just dont want to talk to them or write these long paragraphs that I end up deleting seconds later,, before they get a chance to read it, because all it does is remind me of the last time I said something and screwed up my friendship with someone irreplaceable. 

Sometimes I just regret knowing the people I do. I just occasionally stop talking to everyone, because they became something that might just leave too.