How can I stay alive when all i feel is despair? 
I don’t have a reason to be here. I don’t have money or a job and it seems like no one will ever hire me before I run out of money and everyone knows it doesn’t get better when you’re poor and homeless. 
I don’t want to wake up crying every goddamn morning wishing I hadn’t woken up.
I’m tired of being all alone.
I’m tired of negativity eating me alive.
I’m tired of feeling dead inside and out.
Every day my pills call my name and I almost take them all … almost. 
I’m tired, I’m so tired and the only thing ahead is more pain and hurt. 
I don’t want to do this anymore. 
I don’t think I can.

Whoever deals with these feelings and you have the strength to stay? I commend you, strong one.