Well I'm trying to keep it short. My parents got me really mad and I hurt myself pretty badly afterwards but I'm still angry. I got mad at my boyfriend because he wasn't texting back the whole day. I'm trying to be as 'friendly' as possible but I still can't stop myself from saying mean things. He wanted to break up with me last week but I cried and said things like don't leave me I can't live without you, I love you so much... But now, while I'm angry asf, I feel like breaking up wouldn't be that bad. I'm wouldn't miss him because he's an idiot and I'll be fine without him. I'm not sure which version ("I can't live without you"/"I can live without you") is true and I'm scared that I'll fuck every up. I feel like a monster because I'm so sensitive and mean at the same time. Please tell me anyone else has experienced something similar