 You're having a lower mood than the regular lower mood. You're either chatting up or having a conversation with anyone. Something was funny and you can't stop laughing until being disoriented. Then you panic completely disoriented with a low mood and you can't stop crying for a hour or two. Then you're completely confused, disoriented and dettached from reality (or not, psychosis might not happen but it's common).

There, I've summed up every situation that has landed me on ER, the psych ward or with the law. If you dont' struggle with similar symptoms or situations, I honestly doubt you have BPD or an actual diagnosis. There I'm perfectly describing the mood swings and the relation with dissociation and psychosis that are key components of BPD.

I'm past being disoriented. I just feel extremely pissed off right now. I'm glad shit is over, I was panicking but I didn't cry. I remembered I was loved by some people and that took my back to reality.