It’s been 21 years and I finally feel for the past few I’ve started to get a good handle on my BDP.  I’ve been seeing therapist since I’ve been 10 and it took a few to find one that really helped, she helped me understand my intensity of emotion and why I was so attached to others and gave me really good tools to help myself. I eventually out grew her with what she could tell me and I had to move on to another therapist who is specifically trained in BDP. She has helped me in more ways than one in jusr the few months I’ve known her. It’s been a slow journey but with constant practice and doing the things to keep me happy it’s allowed me to have healthy relationships and have healthy boundaries. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is that it won’t always be horrible. Sure I still have my bad breakdowns and I’m not 100% stable but I’m able to handle them a lot better than I have in the past. I know that sometimes I just need to cry and breakdown because that’s just how I release things. I know I need to workout at least three times a week to keep my head straight and stay away from too much caffeine to keep the sucidal impulses from increasing. But I’m aware of that now and can help myself in the way I need. 
It may take awhile but it does get better. Keep your head up and be aware of yourself and your emotions. I believe in you❤️