I’ve been diagnosed with many mental illnesses throughout my life. The most recent is OCD that is only about self harm and suicidal urges and impulses. 

I don’t have a clean house or car or any of the good traits I just completely obsess and feel compelled to act on intrusive and relentless sh and suicidal compulsions. Psychiatrist said it has fevebloped off the back of complex trauma.

That is some fuxking twisted shit... anyone else have the same???