I’m not sure how to word this. But like does anyone feel like they’re constantly being watched? Idk if it’s a BPD thing so sorry if it’s not! 
But I’m so convinced I’m being watched, but like ? I don’t care ?? Like everyone freaks out that government and that are watching them but I’m not fussed. There’s something outside my window that looks like a plant hanger but I’m convinced it’s a camera and I’m being watched at night. And I’m not bothered by it? I’m just like okay someone’s watching me. 
I was the same when I was a teenager too, I was convinced my parents were spying on me through a tiny camera in the corner of my room. My vision isn’t very good so I could never see if it was actually a camera or just a small hole. 

Sorry if this is confusing but just want someone to say they understand this??