I was so out of it for the past few days, all of my triggers were not even push but more like smashed with a mallet. I was dealing with the death of a very prominent person in my life. My FP/SO left me. My traumas were relived all in the span of two nights. Everything went on a downward spiral and I ended up, last night, driving out in the hopes of ending everything. 

But I somehow ended up in my local police station. I was hysterical, bleeding, trying to get through some language barriers with the police. They weren't getting me beyond the "I want to die, i dont want to call anybody or go home" bits. And idk, maybe in a fit of confused amusement, three of the cops invited me to go to the local fair (a local cowboy fest with a concert) "to relax" and suggested I drink with them.

I was so fucking confused.

I think my confusion broke my brain and snapped me out of my mania. Or something, i don't know. It's all a blur now. I didn't go with them but yeah..