my FP who is also my best friend is the only one who seems to care about me, but even then i feel like he's lying to me. he seems to be fine breaking my heart into pieces and getting a girlfriend that he's only talked to for less than a month. he told me i'm dateable and he loves me. so why did he choose someone else?

i'm not good enough. clearly. no one wants anything to do with me cause i have absolutely nothing to offer. i'm boring as shit and i don't do anything. i'm absolutely fucking useless.

my heart is so broken. i just want to die. i'd rather die than feel this lonely for the rest of my life. i feel like i'll never meet someone like him again and i sure as hell will not meet anyone that wants to fall in love with me for me. i want it so bad but i don't even deserve it. i need to learn my lesson. everyone's left me for a reason.

and people need to stop lying to me saying that it will get better. how am i supposed to survive when i'm so fucking broken