Spoke with the mental health team today... the home visit team. A step down from being admitted to hospital... I don't want to go to hospital, I didn't even have them in my home. Met them at one of their centers... it was horrible. The place was nice enough, and one of the staff members was cute... but fuck my life, being in there made me feel crazy 😅 I've gone to bed early and hoping to just nod off as last nights sleep was terrible! (Shout out to my kitten booping my face after 4 measly hours sleep).

I'm at a point now where I'm scared to be put in a hospital and figure I can just bs my way to being cut loose... I don't know what I want from these people, but I know I don't want to go inside.