It’s almost like my fear of abandonment or loneliness just makes me want to isolate more and continue to be lonely? I honestly feel like an awful and terrible person now that I’ve been thinking about this, because I blocked a family member who is going through a rough time without provocation. I definitely think I had some things bubbling under the surface that I took out on him but I also HATE feeling needed by someone or constantly needing to be there for them when I myself am constantly craving this idea of being “saved” or someone supporting me.