Who else is tired knowing that they’re always going to be the obsessed/clingy/crazy one in every relationship? Whether it’s romantic or a pure friendship. Being in either one is a huge trigger for me and I’m losing my sense of self. What am I supposed to do? Isolate myself forever? 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m self aware and I know how to ground myself. I just hate having to deal with these thoughts everyday it’s getting exhausting. I was making progress and now I’m back at the start. How do I stop falling back?