Thanks to anyone who reads this

I honestly live a normal live, but  a part of me feels dread all the time. Sometimes throughout my daily schedule I suddenly become dreadful of dying and other thoughts. One part of me wants to lash out about everything, while another part of me wants to die. Basically to sum thing up I want to die, yet I don't as well since I'm scared, I worry about my family and friends, I always question my existence, and can't handle silence sometimes since I'm alone with my thoughts nothing to distract a bit. 

Does it happen to any of you, that you are going through your daily activities then feel an incontrollable dread about living. Overall I am just keeping it together, barely sometimes.

Thx to anyone who reads this.