I love my boyfriend very much and we are currently long-distance (3 hour time difference, i'm farther ahead) and we've very recently both just got jobs that take up much of our time individual and therefore our time together. early in our relationship, I was always jealous him, he had friends, i've never had a truly fulfilling friendship that lasted more than 3 years, and i currently just have 0 friends and that's been a thing now even before i met him (i'm 21, he's 27). He has a seemingly good family and I do not have that in the slightest, but that's besides the point  - I don't know how to deal with him having friends. 

earlier, I was bad with it but then i got okay with it because we spent most of our time together anyway but now that we don't have that much time together it seems like it's impossible for me to handle with the mix of missing him and jealousy that he's just casually hanging out with a group of friends that miss him, that care for him, ect ect. it makes me want to kms whenever i think about it all and it's almost time for me to sleep to get up in the morning and he is still not back which means we won't say goodnight to each other. sigh, i genuinely just feel the most self destructive when i think about this. i could just off myself, i could just tell him i relapsed and i need him to come home, i could just block him even and never speak to him again, but i'm not because of rational reasons and because he's my FP. lol. 

anyway, anyone have some advice?