hi. i hope this is he right place for this. i’m sorry if it’s not. 

my anxiety is starting to get really bad again. it’s starting to make me very codependent on my boyfriend, and i feel like he’s going to end up hating me or leaving me because of it.

i don’t know why, and it feels like i can’t even control my reaction to certain things — when i don’t hear back from him for a long time, my mind starts running rampant. he likes to fish, so sometimes he’ll be gone for 8, 10, 12 hours at a time. it’s like the longer the timeframe, the stupider i act. it’s like i lose control over my own thoughts. 

i feel like an idiot getting anxious over something so insignificant. he tells me that i ruin his entire day when i act like this. but i don’t know how to stop it. i feel so stupid. i don’t know how to explain any of this him without him getting mad at me. i try, but he takes it as me trying to start a fight. 

i’ve tried therapy before, but it didn’t really work out for me. i don’t know if i should to try to get on some sort of medication again. i feel really helpless right now. any advice would be great. 😥