I can either stay isolated in my room or attempt to engage with my family. Engaging with my family will inevitably turn into a disaster even if we go out and do something I am sure. Isolating myself in my room just perpetuates their thinking that I am a lousy, no good, depressed, lazy fucked up mom/wife. These are their words. Not mine even though I feel like that. I am depressed I will admit. I've got 4 days of this shit I have to deal with and I don't know how to. Fuck! 