Long rant incoming:

Okay. So. My partner and I have had our first dog, a Chihuahua/Pomeranian mix for almost two years now, and he is not only our little baby, but my Emotional Support Dog (ESA) that helps with my BPD symptoms, anxiety, and stress-induced panic attacks/mental breakdowns.

A few weeks ago, we decided we wanted to add another dog to our family and expand the pack. We are huge dog-lovers and love our first puppy more than anything, so we have been wanting a second dog almost as soon as we got the first one. We adopted our second dog, another Chihuahua mix, from the Humane Society and the first couple of days, everything was going great. Our first dog was a little bit nervous and wary, but aside from that, everything was perfect and we couldn't have been happier and more excited.

Cut to a few days later when the stress of having the second dog caused me to have regrets as I started having daily mental breakdowns, an increase in my mood swings, even more volatile emotions than usual, more frequent rage episodes, and I started to feel extremely overwhelmed overall. 

On top of having BPD,  I currently work two jobs, go to college full-time, and have an extremely low stress tolerance (probably because of the BPD), so I think the additional pupper might not have been the wisest choice, but I figured it would be okay because my partner doesn't work, only goes to school part-time, I am graduating with my AA in December (so I will be done with school for a bit), and I am quitting the second job in a month.

My schedule is going to become significantly less demanding, HOWEVER, next fall (in 2022), we will be moving cross-country to transfer to a four-year university. The plan is for me to live in the on-campus dorms with our first dog as my approved ESA and then have my partner live in the off-campus housing with our second dog and, in theory, I feel like that will work out, but for some reason, I can't help but feel like it is going to be too stressful and isn't in the best interest of our second dog. Our first dog will be living with me in the dorms, so I will be able to run to my room in between classes and clubs whenever possible, and I will have extremely quick and easy access to him, but because my partner will be living off-campus, she will not be able to tend to our second dog nearly as often as the first and he has pretty bad separation anxiety.

I can't tell if the idea of potentially rehoming our second dog is coming from my mental health issues or if it really isn't the best idea to bring two dogs to college with me or if it's a mix of both. Does it seems like I think it might be better to rehome because of my low stress tolerance and poor mental health, or because it really isn't wise to bring two doggies along with me for an active university lifestyle? 

I also keep "splitting" with our new dog. One minute, I love him more than anything, never want to give him up, wholeheartedly embrace him as part of our pack, and can't wait to get a third dog. But then the next minute, my brain rejects the idea of loving him, tells me I don't have the capability to love more than one puppy at a time, I miss our first dog terribly (even though he hasn't gone anywhere), and I want to go back to how it was before the second dog. 

I am looking for any outside opinions here about the situation to help me get out of my own head and see everything from more of an objective point of view. Does it seem like I making a big deal out this because of my BPD combined with my inability to handle stress and having two dogs will actually be just fine, or is it actually a better decision to find a loving home that is a better fit for our second dog?