I just went to one of my favorite artists concerts and was barrier and I just cried through the whole thing and on the way home and I don’t know why I’m so sad. I know I am liked by many people. My roommates, friends, and family. I genuinely don’t believe anyone loves me though, specifically no one would ever EVER put me first in any situation. I am no one’s person. And I used to not care about this at all, I was totally focused on achieving my dreams and was happy with strong friendships and fun and working towards my passions. I now have no passion despite desperately wanting to feel the motivation I used to. So basically have given up my dreams, work a stupid dead end job, and have no one who cares about me beyond just having me as a pal. Idk. I try going to therapy but all they ever tell me is to talk nicely to myself and love myself bullshit. Why? I’m so ugly and fat no one would ever touch me or look at me romantically in any way. Even just strangers look at me like I’m trash. Just had to vent I’m sorry if this isn’t the right place.