So this happened first: [https://www.reddit.com/r/casualiama/comments/o8csz9/im\_a\_24\_year\_old\_bpd\_ocd\_and\_anxiety\_disorder/](https://www.reddit.com/r/casualiama/comments/o8csz9/im_a_24_year_old_bpd_ocd_and_anxiety_disorder/) and [https://www.reddit.com/r/tifu/comments/qjg2hd/tifu\_by\_taking\_a\_job\_that\_ruined\_my\_life\_in\_just/](https://www.reddit.com/r/tifu/comments/qjg2hd/tifu_by_taking_a_job_that_ruined_my_life_in_just/)

So, I think Im starting to ruin my life because today I grabbed my bottle of klonopin and took 3mg and a cannabis gummy. I usually take 1mg klonopin when I have anxiety episodes. Bad idea. I regret it and will not do it again. I ended up with my heart rate up, i was shaking and I was very hyper. I nearly went to the ER because I felt like I was drugged and having a panic attack. Plus, I was sweating.

I did it because I wanted to forget a little bit about life, but I fucked up and regret.But I want to do it again because I cannot get out of this life situation, what can i do?