I’ve been in a really bad spot lately. I’m failing my classes, I had a fight w my best friend and my parents are beyond frustrated with me. Things didn’t work out with a man I got attached to pretty quickly and that was sort of the last straw. My ex (who lives 2,000 miles away from me now), invited me to Michigan and asked if I wanted to go to a concert to see my favorite artist. At first I said no bc we had a very volatile relationship, but he ended up convincing me— and I really wanted to run away from my life for a few days anyway. Plus it was my birthday and it did sound fun. But it hadn’t even been 12 HOURS before I left his place and stayed with my sister since she lives a few hours away from my ex. He got really drunk and we fought really badly. He told me he didn’t want me to go anymore bc he admitted to getting back together with a girl he was sort of seeing. All of this came out AFTER he was drunk of course, but it wouldn’t matter if he had been sober. I’m completely devastated despite how predictable it should’ve been. Everyone warned me so it’s hard for me to open up to anyone about what happened in detail. I just feel really empty and alone. I’ve been feeling suicidal on and off for a few years and I’m scared that too many things are working against me right now. I’m about to get on my flight back to California and I am absolutely dreading being up in the air for the next few hours with nothing but my own thoughts. I guess I just needed to vent. It feels like I’ll never be happy. I don’t even know where I’d begin.