Finally, after about 16 years, I have found my Diagnosis &amp; proper medication dosage for my Bipolar. 
Everyone’s brains are unique and different. My family history is 4 generations deep with this. Mostly self medicated, with Alcoholism, abusive relationships and self hatred. So after 16 years of trying to figure it out on my own… Now I am in AA, haven’t drank in over a year! I see my therapist every other week. I’m married (husband does not drink) and I changed careers.I asked questions about my family history, I learned my great grandmother was also in AA, also BP ! I also learned about my dad’s meds, told my doctor about my family history began discuss medication options.
What I learned/ is : it’s OK to need meds. Also everyone has different symptoms, I am a frequent crier and sometimes would cry randomly at inappropriate times and didn’t know why and it was uncomfortable and embarrassing, that’s just one of my symptoms in my mania…and it’s ok and waaaay better now. Mood stabilizer is on the lower dose, I am young and may need an increase over time, and that’s ok too 💜👌🏼
With daily cardio, and Mediterranean diet(minus the wine)
250mg Depakote 
40mg Prozac 
Life is 10000X better now.