OK so one thing I have never done is call 999. I try to help people in situations however whenever emergencies have been going on there has always been someone else who is better at medical stuff.

I ask if I can help try and help out but apart from that I don't do much. Because I've never had to before.

I've carried my sister up a beach after getting a small graze. Lifted said sister and brother out of a pool from almost drowning when they were little (different ocasions) went to put someone who fainted into the position thing but they woke before then said they were OK so I made them sit down and have a drink.

But all these things are the closest to emergencies I have gotten.

 At half past 11 I got an sos alert on my phone from my partner with their location and phone call. I accidently clicked hang up instead of speaker so I tried to call them back 5 times.

Tried on phone, messenger and even discord multiple times. Whilst also messaging through each app. Asking if they are OK and if they could respond.

Didn't get a response so I asked if it's possible to respond or I will have to call 999 for their safety. Said please awnser if you can. But I had no response since.

So I messaged that I will call 999 and apologised if it was a false alarm. I called them. Gave the location and said how I had no info on what's wrong but I got an sos and they aren't responsive to messages or calls.

So they are on the way. 

They said I could hang up after so now I'm waiting until I get any updates on what is going on and I am petrified! 

I don't know what would be worse! On one hand if it was an emergency then I'm petrified for what is wrong and hoping they are OK! (They have had fainting episodes alot frequently and also struggle with mental health so could also be that)

But on the other hand. They are a night worker and sleep in the day. So what if they just rolled on their phone and accidently triggerd it not waking up cos they are asleep?

They would be highly stressed because their mum isn't the most forgiving of any issues so if it is a false alarm they will get a load of trouble for it.

No matter what the outcome is I'm petrified either way!

One thing I know is that I think I did the best thing in that situation having nothing else to go off thinking there is an emergency I would rather be safe than sorry.

Wouldn't want to think it's false then turns out they died because I thought it was false. (Then there comes the spiraling) 😅

So I think no matter what happens I will stand by the fact I did the right thing.

But that doesn't stop the anxiety and panic from being present 😅😥

I will have to wait for around an hour for that's when they are said to arrive there at latest.

If its not an emergency then I will surly get a response. It it is an emergency I will get a response later on when they can hopefully (and hope they don't die cos catastrofising is always fun!)

But so I'm now sat clinging to my comfort items petrified. I really hope they are OK and idk what to do for the next hour.

I will update when I find out what the matter is. For now I just need to let this out somewhere and try to calm down 😅