I have bpd, I am a mother and my child has Autism.
I am a young mum and had my child at 16 to a man who was 26 and it was a one night stand I barely remember I was really suicidal back then trying to overdose on prescription pills and self harming.
I had found out I was pregnant at 20 weeks then was admitted straight to hospital for pre eclampsia.
Now my daughter has Autism I have been a shit mum for 2 years I had an eating disorder and hardly made it through a year of university.
I had a muslim bf and reverted to islam and he always cheated on me then moved back home to my parents where my dad who is the reason why we had such an unstable life hasn't changed a bit.
I still suck at communicating with people and always shut down along with dissociate when I face any difficulty in life the craziest thing is I want to get better so bad but keep hitting a brick wall! Always feel confused and anxious about what is the right decision to make I only have myself to rely on 😩
Bpd makes it so hard to make logical decisions cause you feel everything all at once then get so exhausting with your brain running 24/7
I keep trying to eat healthy and excercise but cant stick to anything as I need to save to get my own place but then also need to think about what career I am going to do and what I actually can do.