I've been struggling with jobs since I was 16 and I feel like such a fucking failure. I've been working in call center environments for a few years but they never last longer than a few months because the job gives me anxiety and something always goes wrong. I'm actually pretty good at using computers and being able to talk on the phone because I don't have to see people in person, lol. But all my co workers usually hate me for being weird and not caring about them and I'll get fired for that. Like grow the hell up and leave me alone. I don't know why I have to eat lunch with my co workers and talk about stuff I don't care about to keep my job even if I'm good at my job or I'll quit because all I can think about is how I can't fuck that job up or I just don't care about it anymore due to being overwhelmed with the anxiety of all my co workers not liking me or just being interested in something else. I'm in therapy right now and hoping to go through DBT  so I'm really hoping that will help me in the future. I'm 100% fine with working at home forever to be honest. I'm actually working at a call center again and I'm on my second month mark which I started working at home the day I got the job because of COVID and it's a dream come true lol but I'm so scared when I go to start actually working with my co workers everything is just going to be done and over with again....I'm doing really good at the job itself but I'm so terrified when I go back I'll be fired right away and I definitely don't want to work at call centers forever  :( I'm literally sobbing...

Is there good jobs for people with BPD that have a livable wage? Or maybe is there call center jobs that you can work from home at?  I really want to make something of myself  so I can feel like a person for once.

In a sad way it kind of comforts me knowing I'm not the only one who has to deal with BPD so I don't feel like a complete freak. Sending love to fellow Borderlines. This shit is no joke. 