Day 4 without meds. Had a mixed episode yesterday and lashed out (verbally) at my wife. Went out, did something really nice. Stayed up all night. Depressed today. Can feel the psychosis at the edges of my field of vision like little scurrying rodents. Keeping it together though. For now? Cold turkying antipsychotics is not a fun game. I really wanna get off this ride as soon as possible.