I’ve dealt with anxiety my whole life as it seems easy to identify, or has gotten easier. Lately as I’ve entered my 20’s and I’m becoming more independent, I’m having the first time in my life where I’m in control of things and I’m finding peace, or so I thought. I’ve always had intrusive thoughts of horrible things. I’m an extremely (maybe sometimes too much) empathetic person and I feel extreme guilt a lot, especially when it comes to hurting people or causing harm, which is what most of my intrusive thoughts are. I’d get thoughts of hurting people after seeing an object, or think of someone else hurting my loved ones, or see myself doing something terrible to my loved ones and it would drive me insane and into a pit of guilt and shame and extreme empathy. The other night literally out of NOWHERE, I remembered one time when I was a kid I got an intrusive thought of sexually assaulting my infant brother. I love him so much, I would never in a million years hurt him or do that to anyone, let  alone an infant. A few nights ago, I remembered that thought for some reason, and my mind vividly depicted me carrying out those heinous acts. I know deep down I did not do anything nor would I ever. But I keep going back and forth and keep questioning my compulsions and wondering if they’re real. I’ve never gone back and thought about me doing this, it’s never crossed my mind because it didn’t happen. For whatever reason (probably because things in my life have been calm for the first time) my brain just did this, and it’s trying to find a way to make me an evil person. I feel like there’s an impending doom. Has anyone experienced something like this? Any tips to deal with it?