I am driving myself crazy being stupid lol

My boy has a demanding job which requires him to do field work often. When out in the field there is 0 service. Even better he has no idea for how long or when he comes back when he goes to the field.

Its been a long one. Hes been gone since Thursday and of course its now the weekend and my bpd is starting to reer its ugly head. I'm scrolling through all of his followers on social media and over analyzing every person on there. Its SO stupid because I know he's not cheating or anything. But its like my brain wants to make things up because I haven't heard from him :(

He might be back soon and I know it will all go away the moment he calls but rn I am STRUGGLING. I am trying to stay busy but im not good at it. How do I shut my brain up?