I have learned to "see" my whole field of vision as a single object that feels like it is positioned extremely close to my face. My brain starts to have trouble interpreting the distance this "object" is located at, so the whole field of vision starts growing/shrinking to infinity and I get completely disoriented and start panicking

Also a big factor is my thoughts. I don't really remember how I used to experience thoughts anymore, but now they just kinda overlay on my vision, so it is extremely easy for me to scare myself just by visualising something scary and it appearing right in front of my vision (kinda)

This is the biggest cause for my anxiety right now and I can't seem to unlearn this mode of awareness. I get panic attacks every night, because the blackness of the inside of my eyelids starts morphing and kinda "consuming" me

Has anyone experienced anything similar? I can't find any information about this