Hi everyone I guess. I’m 22 years old and I’m spiraling out of control, nothing seems to be helping anymore : not friends, drugs /liquor, my family or girlfriend. I’m a pretty strong minded person and I know I would never end my life but god would it be nice to never wake up again I don’t know what to do anymore I just had a son he’s about 2 months old now and I thought he would change my life around but it hasn’t I can’t find a stable job my relationship feels like it’s on the edge and no one knows how I feel except the lil I tell my girlfriend and now Reddit. I just don’t know what to say do think or feel at this moment to get better my girlfriend wants me to try therapy but I wouldn’t even know where to start. There’s so much I could say but then my mind floods with voice saying all of this is just an excuse and I’m just lazy but i know I’m not lazy I’m just so exhausted that I can’t do anything anymore. Here’s to hoping I can find someone who kinda feels like me so I’m not alone anymore because even when I’m with people having what seems like a good time in the back of my mind I know it’s just for the moment and it’ll never last forever.