Every thing seems like it is wrong. I am falling to the ground and I have no support. I am confused and not the person I was yesterday. I dont recognize myself in the mirror. I love this girl but she does not love me back or is unable to because of how unstable I am. I keep up with life but my mentallity is steadily declining and I cant hold on much longer. I feel alone and afraid. There is a good chance I am bipolar because I have felt as though I had a manic episode and am still currently in one. Where do I go from here? I am drunk and afraid that I will be alone my whole life because I am not good enough or made for life. I want something more than what is going on rn. I can learn what I need to college wise but I dont feel whole. I am strong and resistant to everything the world has thrown at me but I cant hold on. I want to cry but I cant. I AM IN PAIN. Nothing makes sense and I am scared. I wish I was normal if that is even a reality. Normal is so subjective and hard to come by for me. Everyone loves me. But I cant love myself. I am pretty, I am smart. But I am not enough. The pills have changed me but have not fixed me. Wellbutrin 300mg and seroquel 25 mg currently. Pls tell me that there is hope for me. I feel unable to connect with anyone even tho I am physically attractive. Pls tell me there is hope.