I always have lived with my parents and living in California I always hear cost of living is so high. My sister managed to get a tiny apartment in a neighborhood that some say is not very good, and she basically lives paycheck to paycheck working full time at a job with a toxic work environment. One of my other brothers got married and lived with his wife and she made good money. My other brother also got married and lived with his wife. 

I don't really see an example of anyone who is single and was able to move out and have an enjoyable life and be able to support themselves well and live in a good neighborhood here. I feel totally lost on if I'd ever be able to do it. I found out I could get free college possible and then maybe I could find a career that pays well enough to live but I have no idea how to navigate that stuff. My experience with college was crap and I got a useless AA degree in the past. I've never even worked consistently long term and hated almost every job I had. I'm introverted and get bad social anxiety. 

When I think about my interests in life I hear from other people that those aren't well paying fields to go into either. Everything just feels hopeless. Living with my parents isn't horrible and they don't treat me horrible. But I just feel like if I moved out and had a space of my own everything would get clearer and I'd be happier and healthier and more in touch with what I want out of life. I might get out more, make friends, or even date a guy for the first time and have my "first time" with someone. I want my own space and privacy and I don't want to feel like an unmotivated depressed child anymore.