Hello everyone 


It’s hard for me to even say details. But I am in therapy not medication yet. I am going to be soon! But I have had sooo many public meltdowns it’s insane. I just cry/scream/fall to the ground/shout/cuss out loud etc 


I work from home and now it’s getting harder for me to even leave my bedroom because I hate myself and am so ashamed and embarrassed. I can only imagine what the neighbors hear or think about me. Sometimes I have so much anxiety I run home out of nowhere 


It just makes me feel so crazy. I can’t explain it. I have no family or friends support so it’s extremely difficult. Does anyone here relate? I really hate myself at the moment and I don’t know how to move forward and forgive myself cause I’m so embarrassed to go back out in public after my public meltdowns 


How do I deal with this? Thx