When I was hired there was a backlog of work. I have ADHD and just never caught up to the complete flood of tasks. Then I was told I was running 3 events with very little time to plan them and I finally hit my breaking point this weekend after having a heart to heart with a trusted mentor.

I feel so guilty for how I left things but also I was working 50-60 hours a week, was having daily panic attacks, daily migraines, crying frequently despite being a seasoned professional with over 10 years of experience. The fact that the org kept asking for more, kept pressuring me to loosen my boundaries, and then provided mostly criticism and elicited so much fear in me felt like being in a bad relationship. 

Because of how uncomfortable I was and how little they have respected boundaries over the past few months, I felt like I had to resign over email effective immediately which I’ve never done before.

I’m still waiting for the nonprofit to respond and I’m still so fearful. I have no idea what I think they might do but I’m so uncomfortable that this chapter in my life even happened. My former confidence is gone, I feel burned out, and I don’t know what’s next for me but I know that job wasn’t it. 

Thanks for reading. Wishing you all the best.