I deal with a narcissistic and emotionally immature mother. I hate to Aya this but she is part of the reason why I am depressed. But because she has gaslight me so much and she feels like nothing is wrong with her I just feel like a burden and I cannot do anything right. I feel like a terrible person. I have disappointed my parents. I know when everyone looks at me they see me as this shit human being with nothing to offer this world. I  know this post may not be appropriate for this sub reddit but I just want to get this off my chest. I am tired of living like this. I just.....wish I could just dissappear. I want to be free.