DAE sometimes wake up in the middle of the night with sever delusions about your day to day life? Paranoid thoughts you have, you “know” them to not be true but still can’t shake them.

It feels like you are finally thinking clearly and you’re grounded enough to realise these “truths”. 

An example would be that I’ll feel like I am idiot, merely tolerated by my environment, due to not having the choice of not having me in their life. Examples would be work, family &amp; friends to some extent.

Another would be seeing myself from the outside and would interpret how they see me as, annoying, a child(I’m 25), awkward &amp; causing nothing but harm. 

Is this the result of coping with not fitting in or anxiety from worrying too much? My ego being hurt from not lining up with how people perceive me?

Curious to hear if anyone experienced something similar?