I think might do it now. I got a bottle of vodka and I'm drinking it to the end to get drunk so I can get enough courage to jump on the train tracks.

I might also chicken out and just go back home drunk. So realistically, nothing might happen and another 

Hey, I bloody tried my best. This world is unforgiving and hates me. It's okay, is hate it too. I see people just passing by me as I drown myself in alcohol, no one stopped to help. Shows just what kind of people really are. Again, can't blame them. I would do the same.