Okay so this is gonna maybe be a bit too out there, but I kind of feel like I get mad obsessive sometimes about attractive people. Not conventionally attractive people I guess but people who have personality throughout their entire body almost. 

I feel like having bpd I observe things a lot more than other people and maybe think about stuff to the point others don't, especially in an unnecessarily emotional way? 

When I see someone attractive it's almost like I am so attracted to them I could imagine our happy fairy tale life together. Too many movies? I genuinely don't know but It's like when I wake up from a dream and the dream was 5x better than my current reality. The person looks like a dream almost, I dream I've been trying to never wake up from.