I finally come to terms that I can no longer be in a realtionship ever again. I don't where I'm going with this, but unfortunately, I'm going to have to end all alone in my life.

I wouldn't even bring a child into this world either.  It's just sad that I have to accept this fate. At least I'm doing it for the selfless cause. 

I wouldn't even risk passing this disorder on future generations. It just seems so damn selfish. This world is hard as it is, there's no reason to bring more people into this mess.

Again, I'm just venting I guess...