First and foremost, I suffer from PTSD, Borderline Tendencies, and GAD. 

Most of my young life was plagued by witnessing the ugly side of crime, violence, death, and systematic abuse. This isn't a pity post, just a little bit of background. 

Flash forward and I'm 24 years old, living on my own with roommates, and held a number of decent paying jobs over the years. 

But the pandemic and the loss of my copywriting gig has forced me into a shitty retail gig with a shitty boss and abusive customers. The familiar and lingering sense of unease is now a steady surge of rage. I was afraid of people, now I'm arrogant, bitter, and vengeful towards those who wronged me. 

I've channeled the majority of this into working out and being productive but I just can't relate or really "be" the person I was a few months ago. 

You guys got any advice? I'm revisiting my psychologist Monday for an assessment.