backstory anyone who knows me knows i’m a huge girly girl and that i’m known for always doing makeup, like i’d seriously wear it everyday. and i use to love dressing up everyday as well but ever since my mental health has gotten worse over the past few months i can’t even bring myself up to do those things. i’m totally repulsed by even the sight of myself my mental health getting worse has definitely made me hate every part of myself even more than i did. i can’t even get myself to eat let alone get dressed up to look pretty. don’t get me wrong i’m not purposely not eating but my paranoia has gotten so bad i just can’t stomach food. i’m really afraid i’m getting extremely bad to the point of no return.