I have just recently been clinically diagnosed, and I’m having a hard time. 

In a way it’s comforting - now understanding why some major events and relationships in my life have ended or resulted in such specific ways and with such specific reactions. 

But I also have this strange denial feeling, that I’ve just been faking it the whole time, or that my diagnosis isn’t accurate. But that probably has to do with being misdiagnosed for years before this. 

I feel like I gaslight myself (I don’t know how else to put it aha)? Does anyone else feel the same way? And I understand everyone’s symptoms manifest in different ways and I have to remind myself that...