I watched a show called Red versus Blue when I was younger. In that show, two of the characters are having a conversation, One of the characters tells the other one, that "everyone makes mistakes". And the other one responds, "No, we don't all make mistakes. Some of us very specifically make mistakes and others don't seem to make any mistakes at all." As a kid, I didn't really get that line. I do now.

I see my own failures in such a crisp and clear detail, that it seems impossible for me to think that most people are as bad as I am. And like, a part of me thinks, maybe If I could see everyone's life as clearly as mine, maybe I wouldn't seem so bad. Maybe somehow, someway, everyone is making as many mistakes as I do, but I just can't see it. 

Or, maybe I really am just the worst.  I wish I could just *know.* I wish some angel or something could come down from the sky and tell me, "You are a good person!" or "You are a bad person!". Just so I could know. Because right now, it's like, I'm devoured by my doubts.