Hey, (sry for poor grammar) im a 23 year old girl that has recently fallen back into depression and selfharm after 4 years of being "clean". Over the last two weeks (probably longer but it has been really prominent in these weeks) i have developed what feels like anxiety and to deal whit the emotions i have resorted back to my old habbit of selfharming.

I have this really really great friend that i have told these things to and she has really done her best to comfort me. My biggest problem is that my anxiety is really focused around this friend, even though she has reassured me multiple times these past couple of days that im not pushing her away and we will always be friends i still convince myself otherwise. This friend has for the last 3 days stayed up whit me untill 3 am to support me and let me cry on her shoulder. i promised my friend to stop my selfharm immediately but in reality i have done it everyday and just not been honest about it for close to a week now and that makes me feel like a really shitty friend.

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i suppose i just want to know if anybody has got some advice for me