I look at people who graduated the same year as me, already with high salary jobs, relationships, a loving family. Meanwhile I haven't done shit in the past 2 years, my mom passed away 6 months ago, I basically don't have a family other than my dad who I barely talk with, have no hopes of getting into a relationship. How on earth do I overcome all these obstacles ? I know people have it worse than me but a lot of people have it way better than me too, and I cannot help but be bitter and envious. I don't want to be this way. I want to learn how to find gratitude and be content with what I have in life. It takes forever to even find an appointment with a therapist. 

I'm just ranting, will probably delete this later.