I had something along the lines of purging disorder a few years ago. I had recovered completely but relapsed again recently. My life is spiralling out of control.

I tend to eat small portions and go throw it up immediately. I have been doing this for the past 2 weeks or so and it was all good until around 5 days ago. I somehow lost the ability to make myself throw up. I drink enough water while I'm eating, and I try to induce vomiting immediately after eating, however, I just gag. Nothing comes up, except for a large amount of saliva. I know it can't be because 'I'm not doing it right'. I have done it before, I know what I'm doing.

This just makes me wonder if something is wrong, or if this is a normal bodily response?

Any help is appreciated.