that will end my suffering rather sooner than later. I just can't build up the courage to do it myself.

I don't even know why I feel that way. My life isn't shitty. I've got a girlfriend who I'm living together with in a nice apartment, I'm currently a trainee in a chill company with nice pay checks which will only become better in about a year and I've got a few good friends who I can talk with about anything and who are nice to me. Yet for some reason I'd like to die. Idk... Sometimes everything is just too much for my brain and I feel overwhelmed even though nothing is happening that should make me feel overwhelmed...