i don't know if anybody else has this, but i struggle with security issues. i don't like being alone at my apartment, not because i feel like someone is going to break in or something, just because i do not feel at home and i feel so alone without close family or friends around me. my parents house brings me so much comfort for myself and when i'm anxious or stressed. i feel like i don't have to be a adult / real person when i come here. which i mean isnt really so bc i still go to work and what not but i just feel so much better in the house i grew up in with memories surrounding me and my parents near. it makes me feel safe. 

it's gotten to the point that i really only go to my apartment one day a week and the rest at my parents house. my mother and i talked last night and she said it would just make more sense to move back in temporarily until i can save up and possibly move out with my sister or boyfriend. 

my mom worries that my anxiety about being alone will drive me to have a episode ( where i go to the psych ward or something of that nature because it's happened before ) 
so she wants to prevent that now by having me move back in for a bit. 

i guess my question is who else struggle with transitions and " growing pains". 

i wish i was a kid again where my parents house was my home and i didn't have to debate how long i stay here. i love my parents and my mom said i don't cause problems when i stay here she just essentially wants me to be able to feel security on my own. 

growing up is tough.