I've gone to therapy, had medication, it made things worse and in tried to kill myself in 2014. I'm unemployable because I'm incapable of focusing, thinking, or doing anything of value for anybody. Even if I could do those things nobody would hire somebody that will try to kill themselves the moment any stress happens.

I don't know what to do. Once my elderly parents die from old age I will be completely alone, then what? I can't take care of the cats, I can't do anything. I'll run out of money and then I'll be homeless and people will show their true face. People hate the homeless and want them dead, I should be homeless and somebody will kill me.

There are people who want to live that due every day, and I want to die and I'm forced to live. Nobody cares.

I don't even want to be alive and I'm forced to think about all this crap.