Hi everyone

I've been politically involved with a campaign for a politician that I admire greatly. They helped me find a job, and although I've had to take a break because of school, I've done a little volunteering recently while has settled down. They are absolutely amazing.  They are a hour and a half away via transit but they are completely worth it. 

I'm more of the introverted type, which surprises some people because I seem very extroverted and bubbly on the outside, especially during one on one conversations.  I also have social anxiety when I know I have to do big things with groups of people. It's election day coming up, and the politician asked if I'd be able to volunteer. I said yes, because I thought I would be doing the counting of ballots. As the organizer started to explain everything to me, I learned that I would be knocking on doors, as well as driving with other volunteers around the neighbourhood (to remind people to vote). The organizer even told me to refrain from cancelling because they have many volunteers to organize and I just froze. I knew that it would me too much for me to handle, but I didn't want to let them down. So I just agreed to do it. I know I should have told them no at that time, but I was too embarrassed to do so.

With the election coming up at the end of this week, I had to email the organizer today and let them know that I was so sorry to be cancelling and that it was due to my social anxiety and not being familiar with the neighborhood. My cellphone is also in terrible shape and it dies all the time. Thus, I wouldn't be able to contact anyone if there is no outlet around.

I told the organizer that I admire their work ethic so much as well an thy didn't respond. I feel so ashamed of myself. I even said that I would come by tomorrow to do some clerical work to make up for it, but since they didn't reply, I'm even embarassed to show my face there tomorrow. The politician didn't respond either, but that's expected because of how busy they are. I've truly done my best to be there for them, and I hate the thought of letting them down so much, because we've developed a bond that almost feels like family. 

I'm so darn embarrassed to go there and see them tomorrow to do one volunteer work to make up for the cancellation my election day commitment. People will ask me if I'm volunteering that day and I don't want to talk about my anxiety. My mom understood where I was coming from but she said that inahould feel embarrassed. Can anyone please provide validation or support? Thank you.