My FP has blocked me on everything but I have a feeling she might have some sympathy for me and unblock me on Christmas, so I really want to explain to her why I acted like I did and why she should give me some sort of chance to correct my wrongdoings. I told her I have BPD before she blocked me but her response was along the lines of "I don't care, you do this every time and I'm not excusing you again" and I doubt she did any research. Idk, I'm just wondering how I could articulate the extremely intense pain without sounding like I'm desperately trying to win her back, like I normally do.