Empathy confuses me. Like I understand why someone is sad but most of the time I think their sorrow is irrational and illogical (ex. crying over a your favorite characters death). I know I should care about the way other people feel but to be honest I don’t. Once someone point blank told me I have no empathy. I don’t really remember why but I believe we were talking about something and my exact words were “Yeah, I understand why they are sad. I just don’t care.” I can put myself in other people’s shoes and understand their actions from a logical and psychological point of view but not an emotional one. It’s hard to explain but it’s like I can feel that something is morally wrong and feel logically upset about it but I never feel anything with my heart. To be honest, I feel nothing in my heart, it’s empty or null in a sense. However, when it comes to anger I can’t really feel it with my heart either but I feel it more than other emotions. It kinda feels like the anger of other people courses through my veins.

For example, I watched a movie with some friends where a man murdered someone. I understood why he did it more than from a logical stand point. The man suffered so much and I felt like I could feel his anger, it made me pissed just watching it. After the movie was over, I talked to my friends about it and I said something like “I understand why he did it. If I were in his shoes, I would’ve killed him too.” And they responded in disgust with what I had said. They said that even with the circumstances, it wasn’t justifiable to kill the guy. I agreed with them, I didn’t believe his actions were justifiable but I also didn’t believe he was in the wrong for killing the man. I suppose the worst part is I genuinely meant that if I were in that guys shoes I would have killed the man too. In a way I regret those words but at the same time I spoke the truth about how I felt so I stand by my decision. Is it wrong to feel this way?? I think it is maybe?I’m pretty sure that just because I feel anger doesn’t mean I am empathetic right? For a while I thought I was empathetic but I’m beginning to realize that i misunderstood it’s definition. Frankly, I’m kinda concerned that I feel nothing other than maybe anger. Is there any way to fix these thoughts? Do I even need to be fixed?