Okay not like my FP isn’t in my life anymore. (Btw I’m 24yr F with BPD) 
They just became my romantic partner and like we’ve been goin for a bit. And we’re having a baby and we just moved and we worked together and I’m with them always and I love them….but like I need someone new to be obsessed over. I need someone new to give me all the attention. But my partner is still mine and we stuck together fo lyfe.  He gets the concept and is chill with me looking for friends. I just really want a platonic friend and it’s weirdly harder to find than I thought it’d be.  Just thought I’d share since it’s been on my mind. It’s weird. It’s like a need that must be met and if it’s not I have this idle anxious energy in me over it all.