I want to be something i can never be, that thing being the only source of happiness, without it i can't be happy.

I have been told i am intelligent, i get good grades,  i am somewhat of a mix between a nerd and a back bencher.

I have done drugs to cope with the pain, but lately i have been thinking, what's the point of living like this....

So here i am, asking you, to share your opinion...