my bf and i broke up yesterday on the basis that we are incompatible and i have romantic needs that he cannot meet. i still love him so much and neither of us wanted it to end, but staying together would have been prolonging the inevitable. 

i'm freaking out because on top of the hurt, i'm terrified that i'll never find someone else. i'll never find someone who understands me, who forgives me and doesn't think i'm a monster. he checked all those boxes for me, but he might be aromantic while i'm overly romantic. it just didn't work.

but he was perfect in other ways, and i feel like its over for me. i got so lucky this time, how will i get so lucky again? most people can't stand my complications, my over-the-top emotions. i know there are other fish in the sea, but i feel like a shark who scares them all off. i was lucky to find a fish who didn't fear me. i'll never be that lucky again.