it hurts not being with anyone who cares.

    Not sure if it's entirely related to being a demisexual but I have this mentality where I'm impulsive and it leads  me drifting away from being a demi sexual but in the end of the day I don't hook up with anyone and I still want to meet someone truly special or worth memories. I truly started to hate the world around me and myself . These past few weeks I started this new job and it made me feel more lonely than before to a degree. I've been working with only one co-worker who barely talks to me and from time to time I close for some nights alone .


   When people barely acknowledge you as a human being you either grow numb to that emotion or you just feel empty or just bad. I'm too comfortable with being miserable and I don't complain much because it's just an everyday thing with me now. For the people who are looking for someone what are you doing in the meantime to just fill that void and help you become a better person because I truly want to be one. I'm tired of living a life where it's just nothing but unfulfilling boredom and frustration. I truly want to make the world around me happy and I just don't know how to.