For the past four years ever since my first breakup I haven't been able to move on. There will be times were I'll go weeks or months not thinking about her. But I always come she's in my head constantly I play over the events in my mind almost every day. I know it's over and I know it wasn't even a strong relationship and she wasn't a very kind person. But she was still my first girlfriend. And it's had an impact on my life like nothing else and not a good one. She seemed to have moved on days hell maybe even hours after. But look at me four years later still letting it consume me. I try so hard to forget but I can't I'm so embarrassed and ashamed to even be writing this. God I wish I could just go back and do it right. I wish I never met her if I knew that this would happen. I just want forget I want my life back.