The last few years I've felt like my life has been on fast forward. Nothing's really changed in those years either. I feel like a failure.

My teen years felt like they dragged on forever. I felt as if I would never grow up, I felt as if I had all the time in the world to figure things out. However the last 6 years have passed in a blur. I've just turned 24 and I can't believe it. Since graduating high school I've spent 6 years with no major changes in my life. No job, no lover, no car, still working towards my fucking associate's. I am so fucking old and such a failure. It's terribly embarrassing.

I think a bit part of it is that I used to feel like the main character in my life. I mean you should, shouldn't you? At some point I switched from the main character to something that is merely acted upon. I am merely a nonhuman witness to the lives of others.

I don't know what to do. I feel like it's too late.