I just met my crush of ten years again. She’s a famous person. Bought a vip to meet and then I just feel like a bunch of feelings after so much stimulations from the crowd and everybody, the staff and everyone looking at me I feel like I can hear them calling me weirdo. 
I really love her and I wish she’d me mine but she won’t.
I wish that my love isn’t like this but I feel this since I was young the moment I began having crush it’s always been with celebrities.
I can’t find normal people interesting. At this point in my life i feel like I’m so gone and I wish I can just die already. I have nothing in this world. I hated my co workers which my majority of my time spent and then they’ll again torment me again. 
I hate this life.