I find that if I don’t do this, it has a HUGE negative effect on my mood. Can’t quite put it into words but I feel it has something to do with the whole "unstable identity" aspect of BPD. Like after a few weeks I look around and worry what my place says about myself and the worry builds enough that eventually that I gotta change it around and move the furniture etc.

Keeping up with the cleanliness of my apartment is also another battle. Ugh.

But yeah overall I’m curious if anyone else’s mood is affected by their environment. Even beyond just home. I find myself constantly looking for new coffee shops to do work in because they all start to feel hostile or uncomfortable despite usually being charming at first.