Hi so I have diagnosed bipolar spectrum disorder and I have a lot of trouble consolidating my emotions with my reactions to situations. Often my reaction is blown way out of proportion to what's actually happening. Mood stabilizers and therapy have helped greatly but sometimes situations like these happen and I'm confused as to whether it's okay for me to react this way or not. Some advice would be awesome. 

Anyway so me and my gf (who knows I'm bp) were playing a game that involved taking turns. The turns are something you can control the length of, it's not like "until you beat a level". I took about 10 minutes on mine, with her helping me, and then she took her turn and refused any help, even telling me to stop talking. After 25 minutes I was really frustrated with just watching her quietly and decided to watch a YouTube video while she finished her turn. I started watching one on the PC and she yelled at me for ruining her recommended videos with what I was watching, while physically lying on top of me so I couldn't click on my video. I got up and told her "I'm genuinely pissed off" (those words exactly) and walked to the bedroom to cool down on the bed. After about 3 minutes she walked in with our cat and they started to play on the bed on top of me, then she laid on me and tried to kiss me and I told her no. I got up and said "I'm going out. You didn't do anything wrong but I'm really angry so I'm leaving for a while." She was like "...ok" and I left the flat. I'm scared I maybe have upset her so I'm just going to turn my phone off for a while and maybe go to a movie and then come home. Did I fuck up really badly I'm scared, maybe I should have stayed home I don't want to ruin anything or make her worried :((

Thanks for reading