Last night I had a breakdown that kicked my ass, to say the least. And in a rather intoxicated state, my FP, which happens to be my best friend, pretty much laid some hard truth on me. Today I'm left here trying to pick of the pieces of the mess I made, as well as find some sort of self evaluation to deal with it all. Emailed a new therapy group in hopes of trying that, as well as have been trying to find joy in the smaller things I've neglected rather than self destruct like I'm leaning towards. I can feel myself wanting to split, so I'm trying to separate myself from the situation. And honestly, I needed to rant this all out somewhere because I have felt so very alone today. 