I posted this in a work subreddit before realizing it probably wasn't the best place. Most people don't understand how anxiety cripples a person. Long story short, I quit my job because they enforced a 24/7 call support and each of us has to take a month-long shift. I can't do that. Being on call in general gives me anxiety - I can't imagine doing that for the whole month. Just thinking about it in these past three days gave me multiple panic attacks I ended up being physically sick. I don't want to know what a whole month would do to me.

It saddened me so much that I have to quit. But I know I can't do the on-call even if I wanted to. A part of me is angry with myself for not being able to toughen up - but then again, anxiety disorder isn't really something that I can will away overnight.

Not being employed gives me anxiety too - but not as bad as work did. I'm actively looking for a new job now. Hopefully I'll get something soon. Thank you for reading.