There was this festival at my university today, and so I went out. There are people who I am able to hang out with sometimes but they seem to tolerate me more than they like me. I met up with them but eventually they all ditched me, and went to parties without inviting me. No one is ever going to care about me. I'm never going to not be lonely, even if I put in effort to socialize. There's just something I'm missing that other people have naturally. I think I'm just going to down all the Xanax and Oxycodone I have left and be done with this pain. Fuck this world, it deserves all the pain it receives