I’m 20 and the only way I ever feel comfortable is if there’s something constantly reminding me of my childhood. 

For example the smell of like vanilla and brown sugar foamy soap from bath and body works is my favorite smell because my aunt had it at her house when I was younger and I used to go over there a lot. So now I have to get that exact body spray and I only use that one. 

I NEED to have my floor lamp and only that for lighting because yellow light from tall lamps makes me feel more comfortable, another thing my aunt had. 

I need my lava lamp on 24/7 because I used to have one. I need my my fan on 24/7 as well because the white noise calms me down. And I NEED my baby blanket everywhere I go. My grandma crocheted (I hope that’s the right word) it when I was born (and it’s still in perfect condition lol) , so it has these little tassels on the edges from like the extra yarn sticking out so I’ll fidget with them and I need it with me everywhere I go. Obviously I don’t bring it in public, but that’s the only exception. 

Idk I just need a lot of aspects from my child hood because that’s when I was my happiest and I think being an adult now has put too much pressure on me and I can’t handle it with how bad my anxiety is.