I just want some honesty and reassurance with what I am feeling. I often feel like I am going to be like my brother who is schizophrenic and every doctor I have went to has told me what I am feeling is normal and that I am not crazy. They truly all believe it's anxiety and I know it is, but always seem to convince myself maybe it is something more. I am on Lexapro 20mg for 3 years now and it has worked so well for me only until I get a sick and my anxiety gets bad. I just received my booster shot 4 weeks ago and I actually got better pretty quickly and took me about two weeks to recover. I have though added BuSpar 15mg it has been about 4 weeks now and I haven't experienced any effects until now. My anxiety is very bad and it just happened one morning, this started about 4 days ago. I just can't eat, sleep, and perception of time is super slow. The derealization gets bad and I always convince myself I have something other than anxiety. I am also afraid of going through a med change and have actually saw so many positive reviews on Effexor XR. I just know from Lexapro 20mg which most of the time does help me, in the beginning it made my anxiety worse. I just hope I don't need to change meds. My girlfriend believes that I move to quickly with things and I do, she thinks that I should stay on Lexapro and if BuSpar isn't working I should just get off of it after the 6th week mark. She just told me too that I never talked to her about being on BuSpar and that one day I just told her, that I am on a new med in addition to Lexapro 20mg. She said it does work because my anxiety only gets bad when I am sick and she is right. I am convinced Lexapro stopped working and she thinks it is working and just sometimes needs to work harder while I am sick. I just need advice and reassurance. I am a 19 year old male and still living with my parents and I am super independent but when I am going through what I will call an "Anxiety Phase" I am a full time job. I guess if I am being positive it is better I figure out my mental health now and still live with my parents than have a family and kids and can't work and can't pay the bills. I hate being dependent on anyone except my girlfriend, I am comfortable with her. I am working now at Publix Super Markets and they have been so good to me but I just don't want to be stuck at the house for three months dealing with really bad side effects. Thank you for the support! I appreciate it.