I feel worthless and stupid and conceited 
I feel like a waste of air and space and resources
I feel like I can't do anything right or good, I'm just a net loss to the world 
all I do is disappoint people and make them angry and worried and irritated 
and I can't stop, because it's just who I am 
all I deserve is to die, then I can't hurt anybody anymore 
I mean, I don't fucking do anything but watch the same tv shows over and over again and procrastinate and smoke and cry, I can't function anymore 

even my own cats don't like me 

and I feel such random hatred and disgust for people, people who love me
I don't have anyone to go to for comfort or reassurance, and it's my fault, and I don't feel strong enough to support myself 
I feel revolting, and I wish I was dead