I hate this disorder so fucking much. I'm so tired of feeling triggered by things that in a normal person seem reasonable. I'm so tired of the mood swings. This disorder feels like this toxic phlegm that covers everything single centimeter of my brain, distorting everything. I feel this hole in my chest where my heart sinks, and I'm so tired of this pain that I just wanna crawl into it myself. I wanna turn into an atom. I wanna be free of this shit..