So a couple of months ago i tried to off myself to pull my fp back after months of an emotionally unstable relationship and I couldn’t handle the emotional agony from the abandonment and rejection. Fp found me attempting, briefly cleaned the wounds and had a panic attack some time later (she has been having them more often.) she was calmed down later by a caretaker and I was taken to a hospital. This is hard to admit but I am still in doubt wether or not she was traumatised by this, we were very close until a few months before my attempt and when she found me she was genuinely worried, but I still think she probably doesn’t care. Even worse, I do not feel bad for potentially traumatising her, I acknowledge that this is morally wrong but I’m genuinely unable to feel guilty. And now that I think about it, I don’t think I ever felt any severe guilt at all, even though I’ve done some really bad stuff that impacted people. I’m somewhat aware of the consequences, what I do to people and how it affects them but I’ve come to the realisation I just legit can’t feel guilty. Idk how to feel about this discovery.