Random thoughts… I made it another year… slicing a peach &amp; thinking about the sharp knife… seeing my 3 sweet cats that depend on me. Thank God I have my cats. I could never… I’ve lost friends that way… why am I wide awake at 2am? Enjoying the peace &amp; quiet… dreading on sleeping even though I love sleep… the morning will come too soon… another day at work… no one knows. My dr’s appointment is next week. Took me months to reach out. Why was I born this way? Everyday life is so difficult. No one knows.