like the title reads, i’m crashing. these passed 2 days have been pretty bad, but it’s been bad all week. i don’t really like to be negative so it just kinda makes me feel like a burden to everyone around me? my manager at work told me she noticed something was off and gave me a hug, which really helped me to realize she cares. that helped a lot honestly.
i think it kinda started spiraling when my boyfriend read my journal. i write down all my insecurities, how i’m feeling, my thoughts in general and i wrote stuff that he has done that kinda hurt me. he was, of course, upset and i apologized. things are weird now. i’m suicidal again. i harmed myself again. i feel like a burden when im alive or even if i were dead. called a hospital then realized i don’t have anyone to watch my kiddo. not sure what to do at this point. pretty much only ranting. i’m sorry. i don’t mean to be so negative