i annoy everyone and everyone hates me and because of that i hate them. and i am angry at them. i am angry at the world and i want to punch a wall and scream at their face because how could they treat me like this.
i hate feeling hated and i hate feeling annoying but it’s even worse because if i show my sadness and anger it will only make me feel more annoying.

i just want to get drunk again and cry and scream but i’m months sober and it’s a constant craving that’s so hard to resist