I've gotten told I might have bpd, but a lot of what I'm seeing on bpd doesn't seem to apply to me. 
I don't have relationship issues outside of my mom (typical romantic relationships range from 1-3 years and I keep friends for longer) but I get bullied a lot and don't really respond well to it. I also don't have an FP, mostly I just seem to have a lot of self hate and destructive patterns. 

I'm really confused.