Hey! I have my last big exam in a week and have a paralyzing fear of failing or not doing well enough. It makes it impossible for me to study. It triggers bpd episodes almost everyday when i try to work and I become suicidal, then it goes away. But the bpd episodes hurt really bad and are heavy. Does anyone else experience this and do you know anything that may help? 

Also my first language is not english so I’m sorry if the grammar is bad..