I am the problem. This is my second therapist in the past year and although she is miles better than my last, she still isn’t helping me at all. 

I am not able to talk about the traumatic things from my past that really bother me. I am physically not able to get the words out, even when I’m alone. I don’t even think that I want to talk about them because I don’t want anybody to ever find out. But a part of me does want to tell someone because I’ve never told anyone and there is a small voice in my head, which I suppress as much as possible, making sure that I’m always reminded of it. 

I don’t think that continuing therapy is really going to help because realistically I’m not going to magically be able to talk about it, but I don’t know what other options I have.