My mom is really bad at talking about mental health so she gets mad whenever I express my issues. I told her I was suicidal months ago and she told me to kill myself. She could of been the last thing I needed to push myself to doing it but I’m I was too scared to do it. Months later to present day I’ve been passive aggressive towards her and disrespectful. Im mad she said that because I could of done it. I would of if she told me at the right moment. 

She doesn’t even remember that she said that. I don’t know what to do with this passive agressiveness :(