idk why but my partner makes "jokes" about me cheating nearly every day and i'm getting tired of it. he calls my phone my "bitch device" and says that i talk to other people on it when that's literally not true. they've dug through my phone twice and found no evidence of me cheating, but just like... porn? but they have porn saved on their phone probably and i don't even care. i literally have never gone through their phone for any reason. they also are like constantly hanging out with their friends so i don't understand the whole concept that i'm the cheater when they're basically just abandoning me at this boring ass house i live at with my grandparents and coming home late pretty casually. i literally don't even have ANY irl friends anymore besides my FP so when they call me a cheater i just despise them and want to die lol bc WHO TF AM I GONNA CHEAT ON YOU WITH, STUPID BITCH.  

and when i get upset about these jokes they act like they don't know what happened, like they have no fucking emotional intelligence whatsoever. i just don't get it. i can't even tell if its a joke or if he's deflecting/insecure anymore. is this a same sex relationship thing? its just got to the point where i don't evel feel comfortable sharing with them that i use reddit. i know i'll automatically get those stupid, annoying ass "is that your bitch talking to you" comments. i never even want to tell them if i'm making a new friend or something. this isn't life.