I (F35) am a long time sufferer of mental illness, and I’m kind of at rock bottom right now. I’m losing my husband, my daughter, my life as I know it. I’ve been fired recently due to my inability to control the symptoms of my illness, and even worse, I’ve started self medicating to help numb the pain. In the process, I’ve abandoned my husband. He is basically in a partner-less marriage. He’s wonderful, and has been amazing for more than decade, but I’ve finally pushed him too far. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I can’t live without my daughter. She is my life! But I think my husband will fight tooth and nail for sole custody and probably won’t let me see her. 

How my title works into this: (obviously I watched Joker recently) but it really stuck a nerve with me because I feel like it’s so true. So many people seem to think you get treatment for mental illness, then suddenly you’re cured and expected to act like a “normal” member of society. I’m sorry, but I think that’s such bullshit. 

Anyway, I just wanted to rant I guess. I have no one to talk to so I decided to reach out to kind internet strangers. 

Have a great day everyone.