i go through derealization a lot. these certain “off” days i feel so disconnected from myself and what the point of “going through a day” is that i consume myself in impractical things and not more than what i feel like doing.
i establish mentally that i’ll only talk to like one person that day. or i don’t and it just happens. i have no energy for anyone else. everything is too much. noise is too much. being called by a family member is too much. anything that isn’t just me and my favorite person is too much. it’s like i’m not even that sad either i’m just in a state of mind that can’t take any more... of anything. it might be sensory overload but when i have days like these i simply can’t handle more than a set amount of things and people. i’m so tired of me.