I’ve been forced into dating older men for a while now by one of my alters. He enjoys seeing me upset. If I don’t do it he hurts me...he started at the end of last year and I’ve been traumatised by what some of them did/said to me and forced me into. I’m currently fearing for my safety because one of them knows where I live...but I’m beginning to feel attractions to people older than me...I spoke to one of our plural friends who has PTSD from being trafficked as a child, and they said that they had teleiophelic attractions because of their abuse as well...I’ve lost friends because of this...I don’t wanna lose any more...my usual age of attraction is 16-35 for males/masculine people, and 16-45 for females/feminine people. Is there any way to stop this?…I feel so disgusted in myself...it makes me wish I was dead...