I gave up on telling people (close to me) about my mental health issues/struggles. Anytime I did they used it against me, manipulated me, were talking behind my back (despite the "no judgment"), etc. So I've come to the conclusion that there really isn't a point in expressing my pain. 

However, it gets me thinking sometimes if maybe the way I articulated my mental health deterioration was not clear? Maybe the "I have suicidal thoughts" wasn't a strong enough statement that my mind is gone? I don't know...