It was bad enough having BPD and dealing with so much before. I had isolated myself for a while and didn't want to talk to anyone after some arguments with my FP that made me very upset. I ended up trying to make a friend to help deal with loneliness, even if I'm very shy and anxious around most people. I trusted him because he seemed like a good person. 

I'll never trust anyone again. I lost my virginity before I had my first kiss, and it was forced upon me. I recently found out I'm pregnant, and it's hard dealing with it alone. I still live with my father and haven't told him. I just feel like I want to die. I don't have the money for an abortion. If I could come up with it, I might regret it and hate myself. I know I'm too unstable to raise a child anytime soon though. I'm scared. I've been having bad episodes and have been dealing with bulimia too. I feel like I hate and am scared of almost everyone right now