Sounds dumb right?

Once upon a time I was with someone who treated me like dirt. When they would start being rude to me, I felt like I couldn't function. I'd accidently mess up doing stuff I'd otherwise be fine doing. Cooking, speaking, typing, you name it - if I was in the process of doing it and they started in I'd start doing a bad job.

Some people even started hiding online from various people in the group so they wouldn't have to worry about them wanting to play with them.

Last night I hopped online with 2 of my friends that I play games with pretty consistently. We do our typical banter together and I know in my heart they don't mean anything they say. We all poke fun with each other. The issue was, they were playing with 2 other people who I used to really enjoy playing with. Now those 2 people...I really don't think they mean to make me feel the way I do and I don't want to be the sensitive little girl in the group. But last night was just rough for me...One wouldn't stop making me feel like I was terrible at the game, which made me play even worse. In the end I just shut up and played. I didn't really talk much until I got off. 

And I've been bothered ever since. 

I thought about messaging one of the 2 that I still play with and have a good time most of the time. The other can just be an asshole. 

I wish I could find a friend group that I meshed well with.