I've been struggling with anxiety and depressive mood for a long time, it's gotten worse since the start of the pandemic.  
Haven't worked on my thesis in months. After having spent an entire month (September) crying every day, the whole day, I decided to postpone my graduation. I felt horrible, but relieved. Haven't done anything since: I avoid thinking about it, I spent the last two months mainly binge-watching TV shows on Netflix and feeling guilty every time someone asks me about Uni or future plans in general.  
The other day I finally found the courage to open the Word document, edit a few sentences and.. I called it a day. It felt like an accomplishment.  
I feel terribly incompetent in my field, I guess it's the biggest obstacle that's preventing me from giving it a try. This thesis feels like something bigger than me, too overwhelming and indomitable. So a part of me thinks it's best if I just stay in my bubble and detach myself from these responsibilities.

I am passionate about the topic, always have been, I don't think there's a lack of interest that's standing in the way (even though I have periods in which I question my academic choices)  
After months of trying to take better care of my mental health and letting myself rest a little bit I finally feel good enough and ready to work, I feel motivated again- so:  
Do you have any tips on how to stop using avoidance as a coping mechanism? How do I sit with my anxiety?  
I apologise if this post feels rushed and unfinished, English is not my first language.