So unless things somehow go well tomorrow, pretty sure I've lost my friends :) (dead inside)

Well I probably lost them last year, I've just been working hard to fix my short comings and learning to socialise. They just haven't given me any more chances. I thought they did when I was invted to an end kf term gathering, that was just a close friend begging them not to exclude me...they excluded me from everything else though. 

Guess I gotta accept it. Stop denying it. Stick with my online friends. At least they're supporting me even when I flip out and say stupid things. 

At least this is my final year of school and I barely have any school left thanks to trials this term and finals after graduating as well as september being the fun year 12 month. 

Just gotta find a new safe space at school for lunch and recess but apart from that, I'll just be looking towards seeing my boyfriend again when I graduate and starting fresh in university next year. 