I know everyone says that you need to be happy when you're single, and not everyone who is in a relationship is happy. But for some reason my mind keeps telling me that the only way I'll be happy is if I find my perfect partner and I get to that "happily ever after" phase. 

Every relationship experience I have had so far has ended up miserably (sometimes due to my own fault) and I have been cheated on twice and it gave me such severe trust issues. But I still keep thinking that the ONLY way I'll truly be happy is when I get into a romantic relationship. 

Everything about my life revolves around attracting the perfect partner. I workout ONLY to look more appealing to the opposite sex and not because it makes me feel good (although it does sometimes). I go to the office and work ONLY to make more money to spend on my future partner. Literally the only thought I have throughout any task is "why am I still single and how can I get into a new relationship asap". 

Its like some weird parasite in me who just wants to find someone to attach to. I forced myself to stay single for nearly a year and that just made me crave relationships more. I feel like I'll never be happy