They made stable but at cost of what and fat , un happy have no energy at all  i feel frustrated because i feel I'm brain wash to think i can't live without meds meds meds are everything I'm like  there has to be a freaking way to live without them i feel miserable . 

I understand bipolar is pretty Sirius i did a bunch crazy thing when I was Manic. Bla bla bla . 

But what kind life is this u gotta stick to your meds that makes you fat tired and miserable or nobody will love you .