Throwaway account, I (M,26) diagnosis of BPD &amp; mixed depression and anxiety.
Have been doing better since my diagnosis, on Lamotrigine 50mg. 
However the past couple of weeks I’ve been struggling with adopting a new FP, and unfounded jealousy and paranoia about my partner (M, 27) leaving me or finding others.
I get an awful physiological reaction to these feelings, followed by intensive intrusive thoughts and violent hallucinations. I want to get help and be well. Please anyone who has been through similar help me before it’s too late