So I did the adult, sane thing of talking to a guy I know about having a bit of a crush on him. We're good friends, and we've been talking a lot more as of late. He let me down gently, saying he's already got a boyfriend (sort of - it's complicated) and that it wouldn't be wise because we live too far apart.

I tried my best to nip this in the bud, before I got crazy obsessive and fell head over heels before I even knew what was happening, but I can already feel myself becoming more and more upset by it. I think it's because now I'm alone and there's nobody I know who I could date.

I'm just so lonely. I didn't want this to hurt as bad as it did. :(