I am interested in how it takes over you physically and mentally.

For me, after a trigger or simply waking up ready for borderline action I almost shake with fuel. This can last all day or all the minute. I am ready to pounce at any annoyance and kind of want a trigger? A reason to let out. I am a walking shit storm grinding my teeth that I feel I have no control over. Everything becomes a trigger. I begin to have sensory overload and dear Lord, all humans become stupid, vile rodents who have no use on earth. At the same time I am kicking my self to calm down but I can feel the urge to cry there too. My breathing changes and overall I feel frantic, fearless and fearful. How does it feel for you?