It’s more than just mental. It’s also an actual visceral feeling. My body feels heavy and I feel physically depressed. My ability to focus just isn’t there so I’m currently still in my pajamas and doing the bare minimum to work from home. I’ve also decided that I’d like to keep a low profile this weekend and eat takeout and watch Netflix with my SO, which he’s okay with.

A few things have contributed to me just not feeling well today mentally: too many social obligations, not enough time to myself, working at a job that I hate, not exercising enough this week, realizing a couple of my friends are getting closer (and not feeling jealous or angry, but just sad) and my partner’s parents canceling dinner with us tonight.

I just feel so exhausted. Too exhausted to exercise, too exhausted to walk my dog around the neighborhood, too exhausted to really do much of anything at all. I think I’ll take a bath once I throw in the towel with work today too.