I’m turning 27 this year and am not planning on having children any time soon. i would love to share my passions and culture with a family of my own one day, but the idea of motherhood terrifies me. I am scared that I will make their life miserable.

I split on my bf every time we hang out. Thankfully, he’s very loving and supportive, which makes me feel even more guilty bc I know he could be doing more with his time instead of constantly reassuring me that we’re okay. I can’t imagine splitting when I do have kids in the future, whether w/ my current partner or with someone else. 

Sometimes I think it’s best to just isolate myself from people so that I don’t end up hurting anyone.