I have been relatively stable for a month or two. Or shall I say I have been feeling pretty content/numb. They haven’t changed my meds. I’m still on Zyprexa, Depakote, and Ativan. However, I’m sleeping up to 14 hours each night now. I was going out everyday even if it’s just to grocery shop, but for the past few days it’s difficult to do anything other than lay in bed. I am too afraid to ask my doctor to switch up my meds because my mania and psychosis episodes are extremely severe, destructive, and I put myself in dangerous situations. At least with depression I am a bit more in control and I don’t end up being involuntarily committed. So I am here to just vent about feeling numb, sleeping a lot, eating a ton, gaining weight, zero energy, I don’t want to socialize, and I don’t feel like myself.