I have been taking this approach for the last month or two and hadn't really put it into words until now.

Pretty much all of my life I have tried to deny/hide/mute/change my emotions since the way I feel isn't really acceptable to most people. I don't mean any harm by that statement, as I know many of you have BPD, but I think you know what I mean. 

Well, obviously that hasn't worked. I believe the end goal for me is being able to feel my feelings but present them in a way that is acceptable both to me and the people around me. I guess I sort of figured that in order to do that, I had to actually start feeling my feelings first. So that is what I have been doing.

It may be misguided or just flat out wrong, but I have been feeling my feelings and being honest about my feelings with anyone I've spoken to this past month. No filter. Just straight from my mind to the keyboard. Obviously I try not to express myself in a harmful way, and the people I've done this with were told that this is what I was doing, so I consider that fair warning. :p

The plan after being able to fully feel my feelings without trying to ignore/mute/deny them, is I will then go on to try and figure out what I need to do in order to regulate them in an acceptable way. I think that this "full feeling of feelings" is a necessary step before that, though, as I am not used to feeling or expressing my emotions at all.

I would love to know if anyone has any thoughts or feedback on this.

The problems I have run into is that the few people I have exposed myself in this way to did not accept my feelings. That is obviously no fault of theirs, I have a lot of feelings. :p I was bitter at first because I find that I am mostly capable of listening/understanding/supporting/helping other people when they are suffering, so I just sort of expected people to do that for me. I understand now that a lot of people can't, won't, or don't want to bother dealing with my shit. That's totally fine.

I do not think that it is true that NO ONE would listen/understand/support/help me with these feelings though. I of course desire companionship, especially when I'm trying to essentially rearrange my brain. I now realize that I was naive to think that the people I confided in would be able to do this. I don't think there is anything wrong with me continuing to talk to others and hopefully finding someone that is able to put up with me while I do this. I certainly do not EXPECT to find someone to go along for this ride anymore, but I don't feel like it is rude/inconsiderate/disrespectful/what-have-you to HOPE that I find someone that wants to share this "feeling of feelings" with me.

Is the theory wrong completely? Am I wrong for hoping to find another person to share this with me?