I'm so depressed right now. I'm currently 6 months sober and I'm usually not depressed..but right now I am in a deep depression. My house is a mess despite JUST cleaning it days ago. Cat hair everywhere because I have two cats that just shed constantly. I spend the majority of my days sleeping. Which isn't fair to my son. I'm not being a good mom. I don't cook supper. I'm lazy. I just lay on the couch depressed. When I get up to try to clean I instantly become agitated and lose my energy. I'm overwhelmed. Besides all of this I've had 5 Dr appointments in the last 2 weeks. I'm also in school..have a full time job. I just want to give up. I literally feel like I'm suffocating. I don't want to die because I know I will have my ups again but I just want a fucking break. What can I do to get motivated again? I feel so defeated.