I don't know what to do anymore. I was admitted to a mental health facility in December involuntarily. I had a seven day stay, I felt better. My therapist fell through and my insurance changed so it took me a couple of months to sort it out and get back in. My primary care was managing my meds. I started to slip, I was self-harming every couple of weeks, and then I failed an exam, and then my therapist fired me, said she couldn't offer me "the support I needed". Didn't give me a referral or anything. The next day my wife and I agreed that I should check in voluntarily, so at the end of March I had another four day stay in the hospital. New meds, and this time a psych doc and a therapist. Both are still ongoing. I was doing fantastic, even got a promotion at work, but I feel it all slipping away. The self-sabotage is never-ending. I don't know what to do. I'm ready to hurt again, and I'm scared and I don't want to go through it all over. It's so exhausting. How do I break the cycle?