I'm not someone who has an anxiety disorder or anything, but there are some things that really scare me, and this is probably number one on that list these days. 

I'm M28 and I've had long hair for years (which I cut myself) because I'm too afraid to have anything done with my hair. The sporadic few times I've been to get it cut and styled I've always made sure to go to a different place each time, and I've never been happy with the result despite going for something different each time. 

I don't understand how people are able to get their hair styled so nicely so effortlessly, and especially continue to style it the same way by themselves each day. It infuriates and embarrasses me at equal measure just thinking about it. 

I just feel really ugly and self conscious when I get in front of the mirror and have to specify what I want, then act like I'm super happy with the result each time. Sometimes I think I just have really shitty hair to work with or something, but people have complimented me on it even when it's been a complete mess, and I have a fairly thick head of hair which I suppose is a good thing considering how many guys start losing that at my age. 

I also hate knowing that everyone will be aware that I've had my haircut when I get it done, and I cringe at the thought of having to listen to loads of comments from people, so that gives me anxiety too. 

I really want to change this and I feel like it's important for my confidence and self esteem moving forward to get over this fear.