So one thing I've realized from therapy is to notice my 'hooks' or the things that trigger my feelings of insecurity of fear of abandonment and to acknowledge every time I get 'hooked.' 

I've gotten better of acknowledging these moments so I've started pacing myself and start reflecting instead immediately reacting. 

I know I still have to improve on my reflection time but when I do reflect, I put it into writing. Seeing all the thoughts written down, my rational self sees how absurd some of my thoughts are given the facts I'm seeing or experiencing. 

I start writing letters, what I would've said if I was to allow myself to say the things I wanted to when I felt vulnerable; journal entries for when I just wanted to explain *why* I felt so attacked or alone. 

Even though my online blog/diary gets no audience, I feel lighter knowing that my emotions are out there and not bottled up - and maybe even someday, someone will come across it and acknowledge me.