Anyone else get this super specific anxiety 

Where any mild inconsistencies in the way they experience romantic or sexual attraction towards a partner or crush makes them feel they’re not really into them and are lying to themselves and their partner and thus leading them on?

It’s a fear that’s been kicking my ass in relationships and crushes. Any thought or emotion that’s not exactly positive somehow overrides everything you ever felt for them. I could smile a lot around a person, stare at them, feel sexually turned on by them, think of them 24/7, care deeply for them and one time I feel or think anything different, I am suddenly a pathological lying asshole who’s stringing someone along. What’s worse is I suck at expressing verbal affection but the other person doesn’t so the difference in love Language validates this fear. It’s really scary to have this fear and I try to remind myself romantic feelings aren’t consistent always but I still worry.