Whenever I’m in groups, I thrive, I do great. But they have to be premade, ordained by something else whether it be work or a club or whatever. I have nobody outside of that. I am completely incapable of being social or meeting people outside of those scenarios and it makes it so frustrating because everyone always has other friends they talk about and I just feel pathetic. I like to think I’m somewhat charismatic and there’s people that mean so much to me and I need people to survive but I just fucking can’t find anybody and it kills me. Groups of friends fill me with rage. I just want to have friends to go to the fucking bar with but every night I end up alone smoking. What the fuck can I do? I honestly fucking hate people and society so much but I really need it. God fuck my life.