me and my two friends we used to hang out semi frequently and play games pretty much everyday together (this was probably until last year july), i was at a really bad place back then so they helped me a lot, not directly, just by their company. then slowly both of them got busy with school but it moreso they also lost interest. I'm homeschooled and they go to school together. i never went to school with them but if i could choose over going to school if it was with them i definitely would. I also moved so we don't meet as much. I didn't care about any of this as much until a few days and would just remember them as "good times" and didn't mind enjoying myself by my own company. but in these past few days those days just have been hitting me and iv'e constantly been looking over old messages and clips and just really wish i could go back. Like i've mentioned before i was at a bad place last year but the depression just slowly went away as i started focusing on other things and myself, or atleast it wasnt as bad as before. these past few days the old times feel like theyre coming back and this time i don't even have the company of my friends which was the only thing that helped me. yes i talk to them online occasionally and i do know other people, but its the same situation where neither of us really talks much, its just a once in a few months communication situation with them. Sorry for the long text. but i just wanted to know if i can get rid of these feelings and just move on like before and why they are appearing back all of a sudden. thanks for reading.