As a First daughter I have a big responsiblity that my father and mother always tell me ever since i was young, they always tell me that " i have a responsibility to help my family when i grow up, and i need to take care of my siblings" but you know ever since i was young I was anxious and scared because of a big responsibility that I have, like I need to get a better grade and when i graduate i need to find a work so that i can help my family

You know it feels like a chain that forbid me to fly and do what i want, so being a first daughter is like a curse to me

Because I cant do what I want, I cant enjoy my life 

I can even think for myself and I always think that I need to hurry up and find a job which is terrified me...

I want to be selfish but I cant, this responsibility is huge for someone like me and i cant tell it to my parent that Im suffering, and scared of my future because I know them, they will not give me an advice but they will scold me  so i have to carry all of this alone