hi all, first time posting here so forgive me if this is out of vein. I just really need to vent about this to people who will understand on a visceral level.

i hate the way this disorder makes me behave, but fuck, i cant stop from behaving this way. melting down at the drop of the hat, totally labile i can assure you of that. im just angry, for no reason that i can name. everyone here (im in rehab, im an addict as well which i know is a factor but that's not the focus of this rhetoric) must just think im insane.

BECAUSE I AM INSANE. my perspective is so far from reality, and i know this logically, but logic means nothing when im spinning out completely emotionally.

ultimately, i know all of this is because i feel invalid, not worthy, unwell.

send help :-(