I’ve been thinking I probably have BPD for a while now and I may have just scared someone I care about.


I got into a fight with a family member this morning and had a huge rage episode where I went to my room and started screaming profanities at the top of my lungs and repeatedly hitting inanimate objects. My little brother, who is 17 and often quiet about the things that bother him, was in the next room, and it’s a real possibility he heard me even with his headphones on because I was LOUD. After the anger subsided, I started having intense feelings of self loathing and shame for not being a better person and family member. I didn’t feel like myself but like another person, some awful, angry, POS had taken over my body, and now I am so, so sad. If I did scare my brother, how can I possibly apologize to him? I just want to fix this so badly. I want to be good