I can’t stop hurting. Because I am having so much trouble, I am being very difficult to people around me. I only have a couple people in my life and they are now super mad at me. The problem is when I get depressed I fly off the handle. Not violently. I was physically and verbally abused as a kid, so I know how to put words together to devastate someone. I am so sad that I can’t control my depression. I take 6 pills a day to help…they barely work. 


No matter how much I try, depression keeps going. Destroying any relationship I have. 


I am so tired. I have been fighting for so long. I just want a break. I am exhausted with all the coping mechanisms. I am constantly hiding my depression so people will like me. I am just so tired.