long story short, i went through an extremely traumatic breakup with my last fp that involved me getting sa’d, sudden 100% emotional + physical disconnect from my fp and discovering the magnitude of the betrayal, manipulation and lies of their making. 

it’s been 3 years and i have never developed a new fp. i still think about the old one daily but out of spite - i’m genuinely worried i’ll beat them if i ever see them again. has this happened to anyone else? i’m not necessarily upset about not having new fps but it’d be nice if my brain would forget about the old one. 

up until this i used to consistently make new fps once the connection was cut between me and my old one, but this time it never happened. any experiences or advice? thank you