just venting because I work customer service and today was particularly horrible. 

i graduated college 30k poorer and work in customer service. i have severe depression which I have been through countless treatments to no improvement. Dealing with rich mean people all day destroys my self esteem and the little energy I had to begin with. 

the best part is I haven’t made a single friend in the city I moved to 7 years ago. It just gets harder and harder to be alone after every soul destroying day at work with no friends to talk to or see a movie with. the more I see other people with friends and partners I feel angrier and more depressed.

 i am an average attractive AFAB/NB person, not really pretty but im not completely hideous either, I have plenty of hobbies (which I never have time or energy for) and it just makes me sad wondering why I am rejected by everyone around me constantly. i don’t have any friends on socials, no family either since they all passed away. 

every morning i just wake up angry I keep going to work in my limited time on earth on a dying planet. going it alone every day. knowing it’s probably to never change because apparently I’m too depressed for anyone to ever care about. i just figure some stress related thing will kill me if I don’t myself someday. 

just needed to get it off my chest.