The past few months I’ve been just ignoring it. Making excuses to make it easier on myself. But today I realized. It fucking sucks. It hurts. So. Fucking. Much. I want a redo at life. I’m so tired. All the bad thoughts I thought I conquered just flood back in and in a funny way, I feel clarity. It’s all too much for my mind and I’m so tired of being treated so badly no matter how kind I am to every. Single. Fucking. Person. And no one does it back. No good people in this world because it’s impossible to be good in this world without being delusional. I hate it. This is all so fucking dumb. So pointless. It’s almost laughable.