To start off I was on no sleep for 24 hours. I had multiple attacks for several different things. 

I hate bugs with a passion. The building I live in has an infeststion of bed bugs.we dont know where they are coming from. And no one Is doing crap about it (my ex owns thr unit), ive said multiple times I want to brinf in a prfessional but he still thinks we can do it ourselves (vaccuming and spraying). Even I know this wont take care of the issue.. With the amount that well killed yesterday just had me having multuple attacks about this. Why did this have to happen.

I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone and trying to make moves on my crush...the issue isnt fear of rejection.. Its the fear of not knowing how to do it as ive never made it past confessing how I feel (in the past as well) I'm sure it could be as simple as a hey will you go out with me.. But even that feels to hard to do. I really like this guy alot but it feels like I wont do it right and I fear he will get tired of waiting for me to say or do something. It makes me sad that I could be missing out on something amazing. Anxiety increased and had multiple cry sessions because of it.

In total I must have had at least 8 different attacks in one day. Im so exhausted today but I think I got anxiety in control.