i don’t really know what i look like. i know objective things about me like hair color, height, general face shape, etc but i can’t put it all together and picture myself, i also have no clue how anyone else sees me. every time i look in a mirror im like “oh yeah that’s me” and it doesn’t feel that bad but over the next few hours i’ll slowly forget and get anxious about looking at another mirror. even just slightly reflective surfaces i try to avoid, like i’ll always angle my phone away from my face when i’m pulling it out so i don’t accidentally get a glimpse of my reflection. i think im scared that ill catch a bad angle then convince myself that’s just how i look from every angle. it feels stupid to care so much about appearance but i can’t stop. i wish i had a definitive image of myself, even if negative, just so i could stop worrying about it so much.