 It’s easy for people to tell you to find who you were before you were mentally ill, but I’ve been nothing, but destroyed by those who pretended to love me since the day I was born. I don’t know who I was before I was mentally ill. Mental illness has been with me as long as I can remember. I was born of empty love. How do I find someone who never existed? I’m trying to create someone new off of something unfamiliar. Maybe that’s why I’ve always been, so in love with the thought of not existing anymore. I never really existed as a real person in the first place. I'm trying, but today is difficult.