There's just nothing. I don't enjoy anything anymore and I haven't in a very long time. Not only that, but my life is purely meaningless, I have no one and nothing. I died a long time ago.

My oldest brother did it at 25, he was sort of the troubled child getting into drugs and gangs. Ironically I'll have him beat by 3 years even though on the outside everything looks great for me. I think it will just totally blindside my family, but unfortunately I can't take the constant pain of slogging through every day. Too fuckin tired to keep doing this shit year after year.