Hi, first time poster, I'm here because I'm at the end of my tether. I'm an idiot for not reaching out sooner because honestly reading so many of your situations instantly makes me feel like I'm not alone. 

I've had health anxiety since the unexpected, traumatic, and sudden passing of my father a number of years ago, but its been getting progressively worse, I'd say its been affecting me on a daily basis since the start of 2020. 

I dont know what exactly what my triggers are but I'll share some points

- its 10 to 20 times worse in the evenings, especially when it comes to bedtime.

- my symptoms are undeniably physically dominating me, the worst being a shortness of breath (likely linked to the way my father passed because I'm now completely terrified of not being able to breathe).

- I dont worry excessively about money, or my job (which I love), I'm pretty sure my anxiety is entirely health/death related. 

- I'm physically average, could probably afford to lose a few pounds, but I wouldn't say I was overweight. 

- I recently cut out alcohol and caffeine almost entirely which has helped a little. 


Whatever treatment I'll be able to access, I need to do something about this, but I'm asking if anybody here that has been going through treatment for a while or has learned to completely manage it, how is life now? Can you have days without anxiety entirely? By which I mean days without physical manifestations?

How much better has life gotten for you guys?

Much love and happy thanksgiving from Europe.