Idk why, but sometimes I just want to be so depressed I can’t even function. It’s annoying being in between. I’m not so fucking depressed like I would be if one of my friends or family members died, but I’m at an uncomfortable state of depression. 

Idk why I want to be so depressed. Because it’s comfortable? So I can actually FEEL something? Not feel so fucking numb? I hate being at an in between. It’s so uncomfortable where I am rn. 

Does anyone understand what I mean? Any advice or relation would he appreciated