I'm going through a transitional period in my life and having some doubts about my ability to function long term in society. My first boyfriend put this idea in my head like 6 years ago that I would never be able to maintain any level of consistent material success or happiness and it's kind of stuck with me. Even without his voice in my head I struggle to picture myself going through multiple years without some sort of crisis rupturing my life based on my chaotic history.

I just graduated college and I wish I could just be excited about what the future will bring, but I don't trust myself to not go through periods of self-destruction and depression that inhibit my ability to thrive in school, hold down a job, and not ruin a relationship. Any tips on how to reframe my mindset around this are also appreciated.