i feel so conflicted for being secretive.
My dad and mom split a few days ago quite suddenly while i was at college (im 19 btw). Things got a little heated and my mom being an anxious person got a restraining order. I still love both of them but my dad is really pissed and upset about the whole thing and does not want me talking to her out of fear of it making things worse legally for him. I want to keep in touch though and plan to use my mom's new number (she got a new one after this) and give it a different name on my contacts and talk in secret. As i said i love them both deeply but my dad pays my car insurence and phone and im in a position to pay for those rn. Is what im doing right with me talking in secret to her? I feel so anxious and sad about this whole situation. If this is not the right thing to do what should i do? If he does decide to break me privacy and search my phone im going to tell him that i need to keep in touch with her but i dont want to if i can avoid it as this wound is still fresh for him.