I'm in the middle of a pretty big mental health relapse, lots of SI, self harming, self destructing, the works. I get extremely obsessive thoughts that center around my fear of abandonment. I can't ever stop thinking about my SO's past relationships, how he probably loved them more than me, how disgusting and ugly I am, etc. I also get intrusive imagery and thoughts alongside them - when he touches me I often imagine him touching someone else and wonder if it was better. 

These thoughts are literally non stop. They take over everything and ruin me. I'm in therapy and will be seeing a psychiatrist soon to get back on lamotrigine. What I want to know is...has anyones thought patterns improved from mood stabilizing medication? Or is that something that can only be improved through intense therapy? I guess I feel like, even if the medication helps my mood changes, it's not worth it if I still have to fight these constant thoughts. And I'm so scared I'm going to be living with these thought patterns for the rest of my life. 

Any experiences you guys have with obsessive/intrusive thoughts and the effects of medication would be so helpful! 