i'm struggling really bad. basically every aspect of my life is crumbling, and at this point i know my actions are the problem. in the moment, when I'm lashing out and insulting someone over literal stupid shit, i have a very hard time taking responsibility for my actions. my FP literally says "just please take responsibility for yourself"... and i cant do that? does anyone else struggle with this? i'm also having a very hard time apologizing, for example I'll say "im sorry for calling you a cunt for not picking  up my lunch, but i didnt feel good" and like.. looking back on it i KNOW thats not an excuse for treating people like shit. can anyone relate?