YOU'RE NEVER HERE YOU NEVER FUCKING CONTACT ME
YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE THERE FOR ME YET YOU NEVER MAKE AN EFFORT TO CALL ME OR TEXT ME OR JUST DO ANYTHING THAT SHOWS THAT IM NOT JUST ANOTHER PERSON TO YOU
YOU'RE MY BOYFRIEND YOU SHOULD COMFORT ME SOMETIMES I DO IT ALL THE TIME BUT WHENEVER I AM SAD OR ANGRY YOU JUST DISAPPEAR
I HONESTLY GAVE UP SO NOW EVERYTIME IM FEELING BAD I JUST VENT ON FUCKING REDDIT INSTEAD OF TALKING TO YOU IT'S BEEN MONTHS AND YOU'RE ENJOYING IT SO MUCH WHEN I DON'T BOTHER YOU
HONESTLY I SHOULD JUST FUCKING KILL MYSELF SO YOU WILL FEEL BAD BUT THEN AGAIN YOU WOULDN'T EVEN CARE AND THAT FACT MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU'RE SO GOOD AT LYING AND ALWAYS SAYING THAT YOU LOVE ME I ALWAYS BELIEVE YOU AGAIN AND THEN YOU FUCKING DO SHIT LIKE THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN ALWAYS APOLOGIZE BUT NEVER CHANGE
I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU SO MUCH BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST HURTING ME THINKING ABOUT YOU HURTS ME AND THAT'S SO SAD BECAUSE HALF A YEAR AGO THINKING ABOUT YOU MADE ME SO HAPPY I COULD CRY
EVERYTIME I FORGAVE YOU I LOVED YOU A LITTLE LESS AND IT MADE ME FEEL BAD BUT I CAN'T STOP IT
YOU'RE TELLING ME YOU'RE NEVER GONNA LEAVE ME BUT I KNOW YOU WILL AND EVEN IF YOU AREN'T GOING TO LEAVE ME YOU WILL HURT ME AND HURT ME EVERYDAY
AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I AM NEVER GOING TO LEAVE YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH SO I WILL JUST SUFFER FOR EVER

okay that felt good