A little about me. I’m Asian and I guess can be considered a formerly “gifted kid.” I went to a very competitive and smart hs where I was surrounded by brilliant kids. I wasn’t used to the rigor of the workload and I constantly compared myself to everyone who did better than me. 

I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was severely depressed. I would head straight to bed after school, and wake up at 2AM to start homework or studying. Coming from an immigrant household, my parents were absent most of the time and couldnt support or help me. I would write notes to myself about wanting to die or about being an imposter during class to cope with how much of a failure I felt like. 

It wasn’t until college that i finally sought therapy and started recognizing the shit I was going through. Now that I’m in my mid-20s, I can proudly say that my depression naps are at a minimum, I can enjoy the little things in life and things are less heavy. The debilitating thoughts are still here and sometimes I do find myself spiraling but I’m so grateful to have gotten better. 

To everyone who is dealing with depression, you are one strong ass mf. You got this. Coming from a depressed soul such as myself, don’t let the depression trick you into thinking you’re less than.