Hello so about 3 months before i vented in some subs (you can check them) and guess what &gt;!my condition get worse  !&lt; some times when I be under a bit of pressure like some times It would be a small thing for eg: my parents : go sleep now (or smthng like this but a bit more aggressive )  Or my parents fight id go crazy and laugh hysterically and cry and  my heart pulses a lot  and i feel the world rotates all of these things on me at the same moment  idk what it is a panic attack   and these thing happens to me about 2-3 times a month ratio Btw I was too close to disgrace my dad (he is cheating my mother ) i thought that ill do my crazy plan ([here is it](https://www.reddit.com/r/malementalhealth/comments/ubfxyq/i_need_help/?utm_source=share&amp;utm_medium=web2x&amp;context=3) )....   id write more but I'm too lazy  aaa let me continue at the present moment I stooped going to the gym  coz my parent did want to go on a vacation but they had cancel it  and the same thing for my french courses I do love french (and lang learning in general ) and I have the motivation but idk  most of the time i  found my self watching memes aaa there is a thing made my anxious recently in Iraq (where I live)  there is something like makes you get over a grade in a one year (study two grades in one year after passing some IQ testes and testes in the first grade (that you are in the present time) and this thing can happen in 3 years in the iraqi edu system the 6th and the 9th and the12 for example when you are in the 11th grade and you want to skip the 12th year and go to collage you have to get a 5gpa (95/100 more or less every year it changes  ) in the 11th grade after that u have to get IQ test and a 11th grade test in one set if u past it u have to pass the 12th grade if u just got 85/100 or more U can go to any collage in iraq ) sorry for talking about the iraqi edu system instead of myself lol  i want to do that thing but im scared of what will my parent reaction I always Imaging searing in my face and being anxious about it