If you touch me my skin will come off in your hands. Something is shaking under my skin and I can't get to it. If I stand still for too long I'll die. No one knows what the fuck I'm talking about and no one ever will. I don't know where my body is, if that even makes sense. 

Nothing means anything anymore. I'm a 27 year old degree collector who just finished her first week of classes for a mental health counseling degree.... I can't even hold myself together. I have no idea how I got to this point. I've always been overestimated while I'm actually completely incapable of even the stupidest, simplest things. Nothing means anything to me..it's like every single fucking thing is the same as everything else.'

Nothing gets better.

As I get older, the more I realize that my case is hopeless. I'm one of those people who will never get better. It's not going to happen because I'm not capable of it.