I have thought I had recovered from the bs so many times now. I feel like I am content with meeting people knowing that I will never be able to have a meaningful connection... I can't breath sometimes...I have been in so many jobs lived so many different lives and I thought it was just because I wanted to change my own outlook on life... I understand that everything is revolving and I am going to feel good again but maybe being content shouldn't be something that I should aim to getting back to. How do people even build relationships outside of work? I need to say yes more but damn it's gonna be harder to say goodbye then. It's shit anxiety is shit... It's incredible that I still don't have a better understanding of it under the effects of it.