I wonder a lot if I damage my brain big time, I had a psychosis break at, what, 15 yo till 20 now 24. Used some drugs, not the "heavy" ones, primarily joints.
Was out of the world for a big period, always on the  abyss cause i knew that i was not ok, and wasn't responding properly.  Knowing that maybe you are not ever going to be normal again can make you freak out.
Now i am ok, compared to that.
Going off the meds (y) 
finishing college, but not sure if i can. I just had a response of a teacher after i asked why i had a bad grade and she totally shattered me. I thought i knew the subjects but after all didn't have a clue, that really makes me think that i am deluded to think that i can be clever.