I’ve lost the will to live. I don’t really see the point in it anymore as the past 3 years have been really bad. First I had a second mother to me die suddenly from cancer, a secret kept from me from her family. I can see why that makes sense but I still can’t process it. Several months later, my own mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and I had to accept she was going to die in 2-3 months. My mother made a speedy recovery surprisingly and she is now cancer free which makes me feel really selfish and guilty about me feeling this way. The past years flew by like nothing and nothing has been the same since. Now I am heartbroken over a relationship that I was invested in. The worst part is there are some many things I fucked up on that could’ve changed so much. I gave her a gift for her birthday and I wanted it to be special and 2 weeks later she broke it off and blamed me for everything I did. I feel like I’ve been saying the same shit over and over again and I can’t take it anymore. Im living life like a rerun everyday.
Living life like a rerun everyday 
Living life like a rerun everyday
Living life like a rerun everyday