I can say I'm curious but feel mentally exhausted. I researched how clothes, plastic objects, vessels and walls are made, And how to fix them. Since my father stopped taking care of me. Now I'm broke I worry about everything. I'm so desperate about taking care of 'my things/belongings like clothes, dishes, house. I'm emotionally attached to my things I FEEL SO HELPLESS &amp; DEPRESSED BECAUSE I CAN'T FIX THEM OR CREATE NEW ONES. I don't even have money to buy anything. Also I feel we relying on necessary things/materials that are made by complex process

I worry that What if all the factories that makes clothes and things disappear or out of resources? What if electricity, telephone never invented? I feel I'm nothing without all these people. 

PLEASE HELP ME OUT what should I do