Excuse my English, I know 3 languages yet English is my weakest language. Anyways met my ex about a year and 6 months. She was the coolest most outgoing person I've ever met. I'm completely opposite. She never told me any disorder she had but she did smoke a lot of weed since I met her. Everything went excellent at the beginning of our relationship, after a few months she started having this problems of being left alone, she never wanted me to leave her side or play video games/do my own thing if she wasn't involved in it and even got to the point she can't sleep without me. I'm guessing abandonment issues. 

She continued smoking pot then upgraded to wax about 8 months into our relationship and that's when I started seeing a lot of anger. She couldn't handle most of our discussions. She would get extremely mad and throw tantrums like a kid. It would get to the point were one time she smashed her head against the wall hard because I didn't want to do what she wanted and she believe that she's right instead of meeting half way.

About 5 months more into our relationship I've tried my best to keep her happy, she tried different ways to resolve problems, example we would write it all down and when she would calm down she will respond, she never liked me saying it because she said that when it came out of my mouth it made her extremely pist. She said the way I talked and how my voice sounded I was rude and belittling her. I complied and things were working out somewhat. 

About 2 months after this she was extremely happy her therapist in California finally gave her Adderall. She jump of joy and was extremely happy. The moment the medicine was ready she picked it up and thats when everything started going down hill. She started developing this twitch on her mouth and would be very narsassistic/gaslighting personality I've never seen before. Everything irritated her that wasn't her way. I was always wrong in every discussion or every action that she did not like. She would belittle me and say I was belittling her, I tried getting her help and interven but things got much worsed to the point she broke up with me on April 10th of this year for a stupid reason of not bring her the car when she wanted it just because I had other things to take care of first. She had no use of the car and she new I was busy. She made it hell. Tried to destroy my life and because I'm hispanic she called ice and lied on so many levels to get me supposedly kicked out of the country because of my skin color. 

She was still living with me about a week after that but on her own room. She called me to her room and showed me marks on her legs from bruises from her not eating I'm guessing idk, she had 2 big dogs that always jump on bed and she suffers also from pancreatic problems. She said that if i cross her in anyway she will call the cops and get me arrested for beating her up, i laughed and walked away. I tried to be as much as friends as I can be for her and help her out because I new she wasn't well mentally. 

A couple of days later she tried to win me back and telling me how she needs to go on this journey and thanks to me she can see more clearly. It got to the point were she invited me to go eat at in n out and I accepted but at this point I was recording everything with my phone. She talked about her being God, demons beat her at night and leave those marks and how she's dead and she died the day I didn't fight for her to come back after breaking up with me, don't get me wrong I love this girl like I've never loved anyone else in my life but there's so many things she wanted to controll and chnage me to her image that I wanted her to notice her own mistakes but I guess that backfired somehow. She talked about a friend that she had back in Woodstock that saw her die and they put her on a bag. Supposedly even the cops told her that she was dead and saw her and how in the world is she alive. She called the friend and confirmed everything. I was mindblown on how can this person do this to her unless of course she's also suffering somehow 😔.  

We ended things pretty badly after this. She easily replaced me and moved in eith someone else. Completely disregarded her 3 dogs. I fed them/walked them and try to make her take her things and her dogs even if it hurt me. On may 20th she broke up with the boyfriend because apparently she was 3 months pregnant and it was mine but also she was showing me text of how she had a lot of arguments with him about how he doesn't look at her in the eyes like I did/how he didn't take care of her like I did and did things in certain things for 18+ like I did.

She was drunk and called me to meet her at the park. I did. She wanted to go eat in n out and then abducted me after in n out to go to the beach. Told her I needed to go back and she started talking about how the music is giving her signs/beeping of cars and even license plates and all of this guys around the world are adding her on Facebook to talk to her because they know she's God/Jesus. 

Couple of days later I told her I can't deal with this. She kept talking to guys explicitly and sending photos when she supposedly wanted to be with me and marry me. I broke things completely with her. She started staying and sleeping in my car that I lend her in places like Oakland California, Hayward California. Dangerous place for a girl under 100 lbs. She was 130 but after all of this she lost so much weight.

One day I get a call from her parents asking to please take the car away since when she's like this she drives 100+ a hour and I need to help her and get her in the hospital. I tried but every time they did a 5150 she would put this fake persona were everything is completely fine. About a week after this I decided to go get my car from her, me and my friend followed her and she stopped at a hospital in hayward. Which she got out of the car and kept walking side to side nervously, went to the next vehicle and she started talking to the driver, so I send my friend to check who she talking too and if I got the time to get my car back. When he got close to were she was he noticed she was talking to the empty driver seat of this red Cadillac. We continued following her and we arrived at a food store. At this point we waited about a hour and some homeless guy went to the car and started having a conversation with her, she got out of the veichle and went to a burger place next to the car. I got up and quickly took my car away from her. Called the cops and told them were she was and if they can do a 5150 and left. She always calls me and she knows I always help her but I did not want to be there since I don't know the homeless guy and she's very scary when she's in this episode. 

About 3 hours later I get a call from the ex bf she went out with after me. He's worried because she called him and she makes no sense at all. She's talking nonsense. She called me righ after that and starts telling me to meet her in theountains were we met and that my house in on fire and the devil is there. She told me to meet her yet she wouldn't give me a location. Ex bf of hers calls me again saying she's driving and she's trying to get away and I told him she has no car what do you mean, so I went and tracked the phone since we shared the same apple ID. She made it from castro valley to alameda California in the street I'm about 5+ minutes, I new there's no way you can do that without a car. Even driving at the speed limit its impossible. So I went after her.

I got there and she was driving this prius, no one else in the car then her. She was onto of the sidewalk. I parked in front and went to her (recorded everything) she said she was shot by the cops, some guy tried to kill her and that the car was a gift from Buddha. The car had a lot of religious figures with multiple hands and she said it was a gift from above. She made me take my shirt off cuz it was red and she was wearing this sleeping very reavealing gown. I kept asking her were she got it and she kept saying it was a gift. Later on when I called the cops they told me she stole the vehicle from this lady and she was wearing her cloth that was in the car. When police arrived she also said she was dead and they can't touch her. She got put on a phych ward. She was let out a week later and I picked her up. But the moment she got out she took a pill she hidden in the car which was Adderall, took a adavan idk if I'm saying it right and took her weed vape pen which had some stash of wax and smoked it. I tried to stop her but there was nothing I can do. On the way home she was extremely hypersexual, she tried many times and even tried to choke me because I wasn't seeing her way about magic, she also tried to choke her self. 

Forgot to say she hit me multiple times when she stole the veichle so now I'm a victim of domestic violence even if it wasn't hard or affected me. Anyways going back to the next day after I picked her up from the hospital she wanted me to give her my keys to my vehicle that I repoed from her because she lost hers and proceeded to hurt me and leaving a red burn mark on my arm. Like I said I've been recording everything. So I decided no matter how much I love her she needs help and needs to be put back in the hospital. So I called the cops and showed them what happen. She was arrested. Later that day I learn from people around her that she saying I beat her up and raped her. I guess they didn't take her to the phych ward but instead the hospital to get checked. She said I was amber and she was Johnny depp. Next day she texted me saying how I ruined everything for her. The plan was for her to have the keys go to garage sales, go to a concert and then she was gunna drive me to Vegas to get married and I ruined it all. 

The next day which was Monday they told me she was in the hospital phych ward. She got admitted again. This time they found meth in her system. When she called my number she said thay homeless people were trying to take her stuff from her and she found some cops, they felt bad for her and order her a Uber and decided to go to Oakland to ahotel. She got in this black BMW and aperently the driver gave her meth and she smoked it and once she notice it was meth she threw it all around the car. And she supposedly got out of the car and driver left with everything. Her 300 dollars cash, cloth and even phone. She had nothing and wanted me to find her stuff then after that she said she met this cool guy and she told him what happe. And he gave her a leaf to chew on, next thing she remembers is waking up in the morning in front of a smoke shop with her cloth unorganized in oakland and cops talking to her and they took her to the mental hospital. At this point I called the hospital and told them to block my number. I was crying at this point I didn't know what to do, how to feel. At this moment I still feel weird and lost in my thoughts. 

Well a week later she got out on Monday. Weird thing is she always calls me atleats to ask about the dogs when she's got some clarity. She's missing. She never contacted me. Her family which is in Michigan, NY and Florida know nothing of her. She loves media even in her episodes she loved getting online on Facebook or Instagram. But there's nothing. She's been MiA since Monday and it's Saturday as of now me posting this. I hope she didn't fall into meth or bad people since she's in bad shape mentally. Today I found a good family that took 2 of her 3 dogs. I'm going to keep the puppy with me since all she knows is me and her basically. But the other 2 adults went to a financial stable family that is very friendly and open the doors for me to visit the dogs whenever. And the reason why I did this is because her parents have told me how this isn't the first time neither the second time and both times dogs were starved almost to death and they deserve better lives. To say the truth about this I'm quite scared because if she shows up idk what she might do to me for getting her dogs adopted. She did sign the dogs to me if she didn't take care of them but she's not well enough to do so. And I've been holding on them for more then 2 months. Also parents told me some of her diagnosis and also when I was putting her things from my room in totes I found a paper from Michigan stating she was Schizoaffective bipolar kind. With heavy cannabis abuse. 

Am I wrong about how im dealing with things? Am I being to harsh by getting the dogs to a better place? What do I do with her stuff. It's like a knife killing me slowly every time I see her cloth and stuff. What should I do? I know most answer to all of this but unfortunately if anyone could help me with answers to this it would be appreciated it. I feel like I need motivation, at the moment I'm truly lost on all of this. The worst part is if she does get better the moment she comes around for her dogs it might put her back in the same mentality but at what cost? The live of animals? She already blackmailed me that the moment I try to get rid of her dogs she would take them with her, they would just end up being hurt. Or killed and they should not deserve a life of misery because of there owner.