Long story short, I was outside a concert standing with my brothers and grandparents when a dude start joking around with me about a song I was singing out loud. I casually joked back but the dude didn’t let up. He eventually was plainly being an ass hole. I’m usually very witty around my friends and family and have very good banter. But for some reason I was caught very off guard by the situation and sort of laughed and froze and found everyone staring at me including my family. I started to say something but stumbled and became consumed with self conscious thought. I have had a panic attack before from a bad trip so I know what that adrenaline panic feeling is and I felt it start to set in. My grandmother looked at me sad and said “it’s okay” which made things so much worse. I eventually just smiled through it but it’s fuxking killing me now. I never freeze like that but there I was looking like such an idiot. I had the thought to start a physical fight but I knew that would just further display the insecurity that was bleeding out of me. I can tell my family sort of feels bad for me now and I fucking hate it. I hate weakness. I hate feeling weak. But  truth is I folded and withdrew into myself. I’ve managed to laugh about it with my family. How do I become better at verbal exchanges and just being more comfortable in those types of environments without becoming so insecure? I’m going to let this eat at me for a while knowing I let some drunk dude humiliate me in front of his friends and my family.