i’m always doing the wrong thing, im never helpful to anyone. i get in the way constantly and im so unnecessary difficult to be around. i feel like i never do anything right. i just wish i was in a tv show where i could just apologize, fix my mistakes then move on to the next episode and everyone would forget. i just wanna be normal. i wanna be in control and confident and daring. i want to be trustworthy and dependable but instead i’m just a big fuck up. i don’t wanna be a fuck up. i just want to help. i only wanted to help.