Throwaway account. I’m living far from friends, family and boyfriend in another country for this month, I should be happy bc I’m young experiencing living alone and not paying anything. But the truth is I’m so tired, anxious, sad, I did not go to work today and said i was sick. It’s my first time living alone and I just feel so low. I should be getting around the city, partying, going out to eat. I’m eating myself to death, restricting, and repeat. I will not say this to my bf because I am ashamed, can’t even think saying it to any of my family members, who would not undestand and maybe think of my as ungrateful.
Sorry for the rant I needed it.