I'm tired of not getting sleep because all I have are nightmare. I'm tired of pretending like I'm ok when I'm not. I'm tired of going to bed crying because I have nothing, nobody. I'm tired of staring at my medicine cabinet debating if I should just down a bottle and see where things go. I'm tired of putting all this work into trying to better myself only to keep fucking up my life. I'm tired of wanting to be open with someone only to be hurt. I'm tired of not knowing who I am. Nothing in life seems to be enjoyably anymore. I use to keep hope that things would get better but it just never seems to. I'm tired of seeing people happy and enjoying life. I'm tired of trusting people. There's so much I just wanna say but the headaches are killing me. On top of that I keep spacing off every other second.