I have this habit of running away alot. I've already tried to leave at least 5 times. Sometimes, I don't really consider this a problem, but other times I keep crying because I can't stay away from my house. My sister and my mom emotionally abuses me, and every time I try to speak up for myself and confront them, they deny their actions and tell me "that never happens" or "your just making that stuff up". Any time I come back from trying to run away, my mom loves to tell me about random kids that are getting kidnapped, raped, and killed. Honestly, I couldn't care at all. Violence is the last thing on my mind. My mom loves to think that I'm trying to act "grown", when I'm not. I'm just trying to run away from your dumbass. 

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And some other times, I feel like my father doesn't love me (I actually love him alot but I feel like he doesn't feel the same way), and that's what motivates me to run away. When I run away, I have this stupid impulse to go back home. And I hate it. Honestly, I don't what to do anymore. My hope, is that I can just have a VERY long stay at the hospital, without my family visiting.