I'm starting to feel really hopeless, as if I'm going to explode any minute. I've reached my limit, I'm tired of things never changing and that I always end up being pitied and victimized.. 
I'm tired of never being able to control anything in my life. 
I'm tired that no one feels like doing anything except saying empty words.. 
Above all, I'm tired of being taken for granted and not be respected. 
Why do I now feel fear in expressing how I truly feel out of fear of being sectioned!? 
There is no way for me to rise above all of this and that is why it's only a matter of time before all this explode... maybe then someone actually do something that actually changes anything.. and that doesn't hurt me deeply or make me prisoner in someplace else. 
I need someone that really focuses on helping me solve all my problems and that has trouble sleeping until it does so.. this is the dedication that I would like for people to have and feel also. Leave your excuses behinds and admit that, the reason I'm all alone is that my value is low.