i used to be very sick but thanks to working medication i’m much better nowadays. i went to therapy regularly for more than four years but after changing therapist like 5 times in 1.5 years and not really clicking with the last one. because i’m so much better i thought it wasn’t necessary to get a new one and now i haven’t been to therapy in 8-ish months. i never loved therapy but i feel like it might have been a bad idea to just quit, even though i had to change therapist so many times and start over. 

my eating disorder is acting up and i still struggle with self harm, but most of all i feel like i have to work through living after mental illness. i never thought i would live to be an adult and it’s all just crazy to deal with, and i feel grief over my lost childhood and teenage years. could this be something to work on in therapy or should i just deal with it on my own? i feel silly but i miss the good parts of therapy and even though i’m not nearly as sick as i used to be i still think it could help me. thoughts?