I'm turning 19 tomorrow; he'll be 20 in a week. We've been dating about two months. He knows I have BPD and I'm gradually explaining to him what it is - for instance, I talked to him about abandonment sensitivity issues in the context of BPD today, but I feel like I conveyed it all incorrectly or that the message won't totally stick. 

I mean, I love him, and he loves me. I just don't know if he really understands how pervasive BPD can be. I don't know what his thoughts are related to the disorder, and to me in the context of the disorder. 

I also don't know if giving him material on BPD (like books and stuff) would help him at all, or if it would come off as... I don't know, like I'd be giving him a laundry list of things that are wrong with me. And that he might realize that I'm broken and a mess and there are plenty of other girls out there who would love him who *aren't* suffering anxiety attacks or BPD episodes.

I'm going to talk to my counselor (who is at my college, I have to wait til after break to talk to him) and hopefully start some serious DBT work with him if I can. I wonder whether bringing my SO along for a counseling session so my counselor could help explain things to him would benefit us at all. 

I just don't know when or how to bring that kind of stuff up with him - I don't want to scare him with "lol, come to therapy with me!" One idea I have is talking to a mutual friend of ours who has mediated with us before - the last time we had a serious talk about issues in our relationship, she was there and helped us both to express our feelings properly (I get the impression that he gets really nervous about expressing his feelings, because he has this awful fear of hurting others, especially me) and kept me from freaking out. Maybe the three of us could talk about it together, so I can get a feel for what he's most comfortable with doing to understand things. The thing is, I only can see her at college too, so I have to wait a good two and a half weeks. 

I'm just very confused and scared of making one wrong move for fear of screwing everything up.

**TL;DR:** See title. 