my old best friend was everything to me. She moved about 3,000 miles away four years ago. We tried to keep in touch, and this last year i fell off honestly. It’s been a wild year of me trying not to kill myself. She doesn’t know that. 
I was either too crazy, sad, depressed, or busy to talk to her and i didn’t wanna just lay all my shit on her. 
I saw on instagram she is in my neighborhood seeing another friend on vacation. She didn’t tell me and frankly i’m devastated. I reached out to her on every platform imaginable — phone, text, DM, etc.
But it’s the middle of the night. I hope she replies. What if she doesn’t? I feel awful. I feel like the worst person alive. I’ve already composed a text to send to my therapist at 8am on the nose. 

Is anybody awake? Can anyone talk? Anyone? Anyone? Anyone? 