I wake up everyday and i am stuck with these thoughts that question everything i do. I question if i am depressed or am i just convincing myself I am. I don't know how i am supposed to feel, i don't know how to be human anymore. I have to learn how to communicate with others like a fucking toddler. I feel lonely but somehow being with people makes me feel like i want to die even more. There is nothing interesting about me, I'm not smart I'm not good looking all my friends don't care about me except when they need someone to laugh at and call me emo when I'm not acting all giddy, they don't like me, they like the idea of me, and all they do is argue. I want to go back to the days where i felt happy but i don't know how happiness even feels anymore. I want out already, i don't know what to do I'm so confused and lost but i can barely make it to seem like I'm alright