i hate my brain. its like- idk.
for example, my friends mom is a dickhead. and everytime my friend complains about her, something inside me screams "hurt her." or "kill her". i know it seems edgy but i'm genuinely concerned that i'm gonna act these things out.. and now i'm hesitating on taking my meds because how can i trust my prescriber? how do i know that these meds aren't just making me worse so pharmaceutical companies can gain more profit? and i'm constantly so fucking paranoid that someone is either inside or outside my house.. i swear i see things in the corner of my eye and i hear things others dont?? like "what'd you say?"  "i didnt say anything" "oh." like idk i feel like im going crazy. i want to kill myself.