I don't know why, but it is the first time that I am not jealous. My best friend will have her first date on the 14th. Her first date in her life and maybe the two will get together. Although I am struggling with the thought that there will be another person in her life, who is important, within me I am partying like a teenage girl. I hope I am changing into the person I want to be. I want her to be happy and this guy is really kind and really is interested in her like I would wish him to. She told me they kissed for a brief moment, my heart started bumping hard and my smile turned into a huge grin! I want to be the supportive sister, who she can trust. I want to be understanding and the one she can tell everything without me getting mad. Thank you for reading &lt;3