So I know that not everyone in this world are super warm, caring and understanding people, like I know that in my head, yet I don't truly understand that when I actually deal with one, and I find myself unable to deal with these kinds of people. For instance, I got called today to do a job and I thought I could make it but then I realised that it conflicted with an exam I have and so I called in (as soon as I noticed, 2 hours later when they gave me the times) and I was trying to tell them how I misread it and I have an exam and trying to apologise and be sorry but they just coldly said 'ok then bye' and now I just feel all confused and child like. I also feel that they won't call again which is really annoying. Like, they didn't even say anything like 'ok well that's understandable' or whatever (it's a TV extras business) and this was also the very first time in 3 months they've even given me a job and I paid them nearly E100 to get my name listed. So it sucks in that way. I'm angry because I paid them and have not gotten anything back for my money yet and she acted so cold on the phone. Now I feel like shit. 

I wonder if I'm ever going to be cut out for working in the real world where people don't care about you and just want to make money. Like I don't know if I could handle difficult people or people who are just quite cold. I get so easily put off, I walked out of the only part time job I had because the boss I had shouted at me because I was doing something (relatively minor) wrong. I just couldn't deal with ever seeing her or going in again, I totally lost my nerve. 

Ugh, it's so hard sometimes to be so sensitive. 