So I’m attempting recovery or better yet controlling my issues with splitting and lashing out for the past 3 days. I’ll be starting DBT soon so I’ll be able to recover better under the guide of a professional. 

I feel much more at ease knowing I’m not hurting other people and starting petty arguments but I feel on edge or anxious almost *all* of the time. What’s the deal with that? 

I feel like my brain is on all of the time and I’m walking on eggshells with myself.  I’m constantly afraid of splitting. I split *a lot* :/ and I’m impossible to be around or talk to. I live in fear of it. I’m afraid every day of getting upset or starting an argument. I’m hypersensitive to everything especially with my boyfriend so it’s honestly not hard to trigger me. I’ve been trying to work on not voicing every tiny thing that upsets me because a lot of the time it’s so petty and not worth it and I’m tired of arguing and making huge deals out of nothing. 

Is there anyway to just relax? I feel like I can’t even enjoy the peace of the calm. I hate approaching every day in fear of an argument or me splitting or getting upset. I just don’t want to get upset at all which I know is unrealistic…What helps you guys?