My ex messages me, and she’s being so nice, telling me she wants to be friends and fix the relationship, etc. But I just can’t reply, I feel like shit for pushing her away and hurting her. 

I also turn into an anxious angry mess when I’m involved with anyone, and it’s best that I just stay away from her - we have such a good connection but I keep getting triggered by her and getting angry, so I have to stay away. I miss her so much, but the moment I start hanging out with her, even as a friend, we’ll fall into our old habits and I just can’t. It all feels so overwhelming. 

I had to delete her number because just the sight of her face in my WhatsApp contacts was making me feel terrible, ugh. 

Anyone else ever feel any of these things?! Can’t just be me 😔