I haven't officially been diagnosed w/ bpd but the feelings of severe emptiness, bouts of emotional rollercoasters within the day, (finding out my hyperactivity is just bpd mania) - all points me in the eupd bpd direction (in rehab now for substance as well) but i guess i wanted to know if its normal to go through life with this disorder and act as a sponge to literally soak up anyone and everyone's personality? from likes to dislikes, to different political povs, to different schools of thought? especially your favourite people around you? and then sort of inbox all of them into the back of your brain for use because you hate the fact deep down inside you don't know and feel like you will never know who tf you are?