Burner acc cause I don't want family to find this but I have been feeling sad for so long. It has been an ongoing cycle of storing up sadness then crying g myself to sleep at 3am. And This hasn't gotten any better. I've now gotten insomnia, extreme fatigue, bad appetite etc. Before these problems atleast my life wasn't hard to love (it still wasn't a happy one tho). Every single morning is pain. Every single night is pain. Every single second of my miserable life has been painful. And none of my problems can be treated (I have long covid and doctors know nothing about it rn) so I've been in this vicious cycle of waking up to pain going to sleep with pain living with pain and I just had enough. My grades are in the ruins. My social life is in ruins. And any dreams I had of becoming successful is in ruins. Atleast the goals I had kept me going while I'm bottling up all my emotions but they're gone. I don't know if I'm just thinking like this cause ve been crying for the past hour. But I don't know how much I can go on for. This shit is just so miserable.

I just want to be happy again.
Show my parents that moving out of their comfortable lives in a corrupt country just for me was a good choice.
But I can't 

Please someone help me

I just want to feel happy