and everything has gone to shit. My meds aren't working, my FP has barely said a word to me in over three weeks, I'm back to self harming and suicide ideation, my depression is at an all time low and I can't talk about it without people wanting me to go back to the psych ward.

Mostly what's bothering me is my FP. Over three weeks, and the only time he talks to me is at work, and we're not in the same department, and it's all about work stuff. I'm angry. I'm so fucking angry. He won't text or call, unless to ask why I didn't show up for work today (I called in sick). And he doesn't ask why I'm angry, he doesn't do anything. He acts like he doesn't care! But when I tell him I'm angry with something he gets mean and it makes me feel like I had no reason to be upset. I apologize then he gives a half ass apology and promises to do better. But this is a cycle, and it happens like clockwork. Is it me? I'm not asking him to text me every single day, or to abandon his other friends.....I just want him to talk to me.