She has a lot of hobbies, and does so many things. She doesn’t succeed in everything, but she does a lot of work. She’s so amazing and so positive. I’m very proud of her (and probably very jealous)

And here I am, 80% of time depressed ass and 20% manic that does nothing.  
I feel guilty about that. I don’t work a lot, but I’m still super tired and exhausted.
I used to be such an amazing person, but now my heart is aching and I’m a monster.

It kills me.