21f, i don’t know what i’m doing, i don’t have any goals, i don’t have any motivation. everyday just feels like a blur. i told myself i would never consider suicide as an option, so with that in mind i feel like i don’t know where to go. 

i’ve been trying to get a therapist for the past couple months now but i’m struggling to find someone. it makes me feel alone. slowly but surely i have lost contact with my friends so i don’t have anyone to speak to. i feel like my cats and my mom are the only ones that know what i’m going through. 

i want to be happier, i just feel like i don’t know how to. i wish i had someone to help me but maybe i’m supposed to go on this journey alone.