I feel empty. And lost. I lost my person, and quite frankly I don't know what to do with myself. We were together almost a year, and I had some of the best times with this person. He was my everything in the love of my life. We had plans to live together and get married. And now we broke up and he wants space. And some things that happened seem crazy because I've never seen the side of this person before. I don't know what to make of it. But I wanted to work on a relationship after some time. He doesn't seem to want anything to do with that, says that he forgives me, I feel like everything's my fault, although it is not. I just don't know what to do. I feel abandoned and alone, having him to talk to day after day and to see and to make love to. And then it's all just taken away. I don't know, I sound like a mess. I feel worse than that. I barely slept last night because I'm so stressed out. And my friends are sick of hearing about it. They're just like any to get over it and move on day by day. Well I just want to lay here cry and think about killing myself. I felt like we understood each other so well but then after some time and issues that we had we just stopped understanding each other. I feel like he was trying to slowly push me away over the last couple weeks. And then the big fight sent him over the edge and he just chose not to reconcile. I know he's going through his own shit too now, and it sucks because I can't even be there for him. I'm worried and I don't know what's happening or where he is or who he's with. Clearly I have codependency issues when I'm rereading this. But I also know that I love this person very deeply and hope that one day we can find our way back together. Our relationship really was the best thing that happened to me. Even through the bad shit, I loved him more than anything.