With me (quiet BPD), it's a very confusing feeling when I can go from looking at myself in the mirror one minute and have an excellent self esteem and feel the motivation to dress up and do my makeup and socialise for the whole day into the nighttime and go clubbing, then come home and completely trash myself and feel like the most hideous deformed monster on earth and end up self harming in the early hours of the morning, THEN the cycle repeats until by the end of the week i'm so worn out and exhausted that I can't function and get my 12454334th identity crisis.

Im so fucking tired.