Does anyone else feel like when they date someone they throw themselves all in because we feel so intensly? I have been seeing someone since April and we spend so much time together basically every weekend. We have gone on vacation and met each others family. Sounds great but I always feel like I am the one putting in all the effort. The texts, the phone calls and affection. On top of this he says he is not ready to be in a committed relationship. He states we are exclusive but not an official relationship. I know I should latch on to titles but its hard not to bc it makes me think what is wrong with me? Why can't he want to be with me or have his hands all over me? I have been trying so hard to work through my BPD and not let it sabotage me but these things really bother me. I just want someone that is %100 all in with me and for me. Tonight we had a pregnancy scare bc i missed my period we talked about the options of having a baby and we both agreed an unplanned pregnancy is not ideal but if it happens we will discuss it. He asked what about a unplanned pregnancy was unideal for me and I mentioned not being in an official relationship bothers me. He didn't correct me. I said this conversation made me feel sad and he changed the subject. I just got off the phone. Now im hurting and so angry at myself for getting this attached.