I’m 26, have a kid and a wife and I just came to realize I’ve had BPD from the moment my father passed away when I was 6...and how did I find out ? A text from my wife saying “ you emotionally abuse me “ and this link

https://mental-health-matters.com/borderline-personality-and-abuse/

I don’t know what hurt more.

Learning about  myself like I never had before 
Or realizing what I’m doing to her and my son. 

I’m in my car smoking a joint and drinking a tall can. 

I want to give up, I don’t want to give up. 

I don’t even know.