I dont know what made me think that I could possibly be someone that could do something major with their life and impact others lives by making them feel like they could be and or do whatever they wanted to do in life. 
I dont know what made me think i could ever have what it takes or be taken seriously enough to work by someone who is living my dream,hoping i could learn and use what he/she did to help me live a successful life.
I dont know. What ever made me fee like i could ever manage to get 1.8 million to buy a Carrera GT.
Im so worthless i get even afford a 20k M3 E46
Im so worthless that i have to drive the same car my grandmother drove me in 20 years ago when i was just a baby.
I dont know what made me think i could start a successful school supply business that actually worked
Dont know how i thought i had a chance in helping other people get there ideas turned into reality
Dont know what made me think i could start a successful car washing business
Dont know what made me think i could be a good photographer and start a business doing something i enjoyed while getting paid for it.
Do know what made me feel like id be able to get my dream house in Whitefish,Montana ( its already gone,someone who was worth something in life had the 3.75 million to buy it).
I dont know why im try to help people because when i do they lash out at me and then go back to the person that originally made them sad and laugh with them while im sitting here lonely and hurt.
Dont know why im trying to get friends because no one seems to think im worth anything.
Not point in talking about getting a girlfriend.

I just hate how short i have held up in achieving my dreams. I dont know what made me think i could be like the guy in the nice car with a family thats thankful to have a father/husband/son who had and has soo much potential 


Being in a City (St Louis)Reminded of my far im falling behind on the social ladder☹️ 

Just a lonely guys rant.