I have people that I'm friendly with, but I push everyone away, so that we won't ever become friends. I feel so uncomfortable getting close to people as far as the friends dynamic goes. I would only feel comfortable getting close to someone if I saw a potential for a relationship. I can't have a lot of people in my life. It's just too overwhelming. This is why I don't want friends. But I'm lonely. Super, duper lonely. I don't even know what I'm asking. Does anyone have any words for me?