Two days ago on Wednesday (It's 1:53 AM here at the time of posting), I got so stressed that I tried to hurt myself with a sharp pencil since there were no other sharp objects around me, I kept on poking my  arm with the sharp pencil but sadly nobody was there to stop me. I stopped poking my arm when lunchtime started but I still felt so sad so I decided to tell my twin brother about my self harming problem but he was too busy talking to his friends so everything I said about it ended up getting ignored by him. Yesterday I felt relieved but soon that changed after I felt too sleepy at school even though I was usually fine after sleeping for that long, because of how sleepy I was, I went over to the school's fale to sleep but I ended up giving up after some time because there was too much noise coming from the other students which would disturb my sleep a lot, after that everything was normal until an hour ago when I realized that I napped for too long so my brother complained about it and I tried to tell him about my depression but all he said was "You know other people have problems" "You probably only have light depression because I didn't see you cry that much" so I went to the bathroom angrily where I took a bath, brushed my teeth and cried, I went back to the bedroom to find him sleeping already so I sat on my bed and cried a little bit before going to bed, I started writing this post 10 minutes ago and this is where I am right now. I hope that tomorrow will not be as shitty as yesterday and Wednesday.