there's this guy i hook up with for like the past 3/4 years that i'm weirdly obsessed with but we're not even really friends much less a couple. i know i don't love him or maybe don't even have a crush on him but i care about what he thinks about me SO MUCH like i get panic attacks if we're going out with friends and I see him flirting w someone else etc. Sunday I broke down and told him how I feel (in person) and even tho I don't feel my feelings were bc of BPD (I told him I was sad we never went on a date after hooking up for 4 years) I feel the way I told him this was completely BPD of me... and now I feel soooo bad bc he hasn't texted me back and probably thinks I'm crazy (haha) anyway.... going thru it rn