I know I am not and I know it is ridiculous to think, but everyday I wake up and I am afraid that I will amount to nothing. That I am going nowhere and that I will fail at making anything out of myself. 

I am constantly worried about my future and what it holds and if I will ever be able to make a life for myself that is fulfilling. 

I just had to drop a college class because I was failing. I have never ever ever done that bad in a class and I think it knocked my confidence that I had in myself. Maybe I am just feeling the stress of being in my first year of college but I feel like it isn’t normal to feel this way to this extent.

Actually I know it isn’t normal. I talked to my mom and sister about this and I said “everyday I wake up and I am afraid that I will fuck up my life forever.” And they told me that not everybody feels like that and my mom asked if I have been taking my meds (I have). I just don’t know what to do about these feelings or how to cope with them. I am just so afraid that I am going to ruin my life.