I thought I would be child free but. I am worried now that I won’t have anyone when my parents die. I also never thought about having children but I am starting to feel that I want to experience motherhood but I am worried and scared of pregnancy, getting fat and hating myself. My marriage falling apart, not being a good mother. Countless negative scenarios has made me all depressed and anxious. Wanting to not live …I feel like I was in a bubble and now I’m facing future and life.