I've recently gotten myself involved in a situation I knew very well I shouldn't have. 
My constant feeling of emptiness and loneliness is making me do things that offer fleeting validation but are just incredibly self destructive. 

And even though I'm fully aware of this, I can't stop myself. I need help. I need someone to talk to. But I cannot afford therapy. I don't have any friends. I should be thinking about my work, my career but instead I've got my thoughts wrapped up in completely messed up thought patterns and behaviour. Desperately need someone to talk to.