I am 14, underweight, around 90 pounds if im lucky, I hate my life and everything, I would kill myself but i have people to lose. I am insecure, maybe schizophrenic im not sure but i show nearly every symptom, i am going into highschool, im skinny asf, girls are attracted to me and like me but I dont care about women, Im bored 24/7 and have to smoke weed to feel good, its sad(I am safe and smart with my dosage). I don't know what to do with my life, I basically skipped 2 years of school. No one really knows how i feel but I talk to my older brother about 10% i guess. My humour is dark I am different than anyone else and not okay mentally, i truly feel like a loser and posting here wont help me at all, i wont do therapy; I dont understand how me talking to a person listening will help at all unless i need to vent. I get attached to people easily even if they havent treated me right or anything. I never feel hungry unless im in complete agony from no food. Feel free to make fun of me.