We were talking for a few days, and we were discussing being a couple for those few days. But when I had a small episode due to something unrelated, and he said he wanted to be polyamourous. Which, knowing my BPD, I cannot handle. I told him I wanted to block him, but I just never got the guts to do it. We're still speaking but its triggering. He makes me both happy and sad at the same time. I feel like I'm not good enough. He said he cannot handle my BPD or my age (I'm 6 years younger than him). I keep being mean to him because I don't know how else to act now. I'm vunerable and hurt and I feel like the more I act unhappy the less he'll want me, and it makes me nervous to act like myself and then I act mean because I just get scared. I just don't know if I should/ or could cut him off. 