I’m a teenager who likes her hair short, with it up to my ear and half of it shaved. The issue of this being that my hair grows extraordinarily fast and is very thick, so when it reaches a certain length, becomes a lot harder to control it. I have to get it cut every two months or so. 

Now I’m a person with several anxiety disorders, so a lot of things make me anxious. Even things that are seemingly normal (Take dog barks/whines for example) can set off panic attacks. But for the life of me I cannot explain why my hair being longer sets them off too.

It’s horrible. I get constant nightmares about it being long, and every time I touch or look at it, all I can think of is how much I want it cut. A voice constantly bangs in the back of my head repeatedly saying “you need a haircut. You need a haircut.” I keep telling myself I won’t look pretty again until it is cut.

And in all honesty it’s not even that long, just chin level. So why do I feel so ugly? Just the very feeling of it in my face makes me wanna scream. 

Does anyone else have this problem?