I didn't realize how taxing moving would be for me mentally. I had so much anxiety leading up to today and was trying to plan every little aspect to help quell my anxiety. And the day came and everything was coming together, it was good.

But after landing everything from my room into the u-haul, I was just standing in my room and I broke down in tears. I had just lost my safe place and my home for the last four years. This was my home, my place, my spot. I worked for hard and did so much and now my home was no longer my home. And the new place wasn't home yet, and I had nothing.

I just bawled so hard. I still am it's still a lot to process. I know this new place will feel like home in time but for right now I feel like I'm in a strange new world and it terrifies me.