I am so tired of trying to find a decent job. I hate it. Every time I find a new job, the pay is so low and I'm still left struggling. 

I have a degree in sociology. I want to go back to school, but I need a job right now I pay my bills. Life sucks so much right now. This has been going on for the last 3 years.

It's to the point where now I'm considering becoming a police officer because I need a decent paying job. Crazy thing is, I don't want to be a police officer and I hate paramilitary institutions. But I feel like I have no choice. 

Law enforcement just doesn't fit my personality. I like to grow my hair, dye it, wear piercings, smoke weed, and mind my business. 

I feel like everybody's gonna be like just stop smoking weed, but I need it. I have a medical card and use it for anxiety and depression, in addition to my daily meds. I just feel my head is going to explode. 

I just want a decent paying job, while being allowed to be myself. Why is that so fucking hard.