I’m fine for weeks or months at a time, on the outside I’m an average women, nothing remarkable. I go to school, have a full time job, a great apartment and a pretty cute cat. Nothing out of the ordinary but sometimes I just get these episodes and I can’t get out of bed because there is such a weight on my chest, all I can do that day is tread water. Those days are hell and they can last two-three days then I go out and I’m fine for a couple more months but they always come back. I want to die on those days, I reach out and people believe I’m being irrational. Maybe I am but how do I prevent those days? I’m scared one day I’ll do something stupid…