i haven’t felt this alone in years. i’ve lost so many people in my life this year, a lot of whom i was friends with or were in my life for almost 10 years. i know it’s what i have to do, but goddamn it fucking hurts. i feel so isolated. there’s a big hole in my chest. i don’t have any family i’m close to besides my sister, and no friends anymore. i feel incredibly unloved, and to be honest i’m not sure if i ever have felt truly loved before.