I might finally be able to get therapy. Buuuut the place I first went to and *does* ambulent treatment, sent me forward, becasue they are not specialized enough for my case.

The next place that is, however, does *not* do ambulent treatment, So either I lay in to the hospital while the semester lasts, and fail my exams because of that, or push the treatment to *After* the exams, which is basically automatic failure because I can barely take care of myself, not to even mention fucking Studying the **7000 pages** I need to know by the letter.

Oooh, but getting delayed a semester or two is not the end of the world? I am already delayed by an netire year, but if I don't pass this exam, **I WILL BE FUCKING EXPELLED FROM UNIVERSITY!!!!**  