Hey guys, I hope everyone is taking care &amp; keeping safe. I stupidly stopped taking my meds (MDD) a few weeks ago, must be 3/4 weeks. Yesterday, most of my symptoms hit me again and I feel so fucking weird and messed up. I think I’m relapsing and I am so angry at myself for never getting round to refilling my prescription. 

   Right now I have no energy to speak to my friends and I’m scared that I’ll end up pushing them away cause I’m no fun to talk to when I’m like this. I also feel really scared and almost ashamed because what does this mean? Does this mean I’ll have to take meds for the rest of my life to feel okay? It makes me feel kinda weak (I know that’s the stigma talking) but yeah I can’t accept the fact that this might mean I’ll have to take them permanently. 

   For some context, I’ve been on them since January of 2019 and I started tapering off (initially it was 150, then in august I went down to 75, then I was on 37.5 and then stopped suddenly cause I didn’t feel like the 37.5 dosage was doing anything). Anyway, I am going to my psychiatrist tomorrow to talk to him and refill my meds, maybe talk about upping the dosage again. If anyone’s been through a similar experience or just has any input or advice, I’d really appreciate it, thanks if you’ve gotten this far and read the whole thing :)