I was recently prescribed yet another SSRI by my new psychiatrist and shocker - it made me acutely suicidal, and I've stopped taking it but still feel like shit. I went down this path because I have been dealing with depression that will keep me in bed all damn day if I don't fight real hard to get up. Now, I'm trying to kind ketamine treatments I can do somewhere near me, as I've tried 4 or 5 SSRI's in my life and they all bring me to the same place of despair and frustration about my life. I don't know how much more of this I can take, I'm always unstable.