I hate feeling irrational rage, like I'm furious at everyone right now just for being busy tonight, and like having more fulfilled lives than me like I do literally nothing unless I'm hanging with them but they have things outside of me and I'm SO ANGRY AT THEM FOR THAT. 

It's not really fair of me I know but it's just ugh I just don't know why I need them way more than they need me....especially my fave person who has been ignoring me most of the day😔😟😡