Hello everyone!
If my post doesn’t belong please feel free to remove, also sorry for bad formatting. I’m new.


So, on to my question. I’m 19, female, and it’s recently been suggested that I might be suffering from some type of anxiety disorder (no definitive diagnosis yet, I’m sorry). 

A part of my behavior and coping mechanisms that I realize is potentially harmful to myself is my inner self’s reaction to feeling embarrassed, awkward, or inadequate in any way. Outwardly my reaction range from getting quiet to becoming defensive or self deprecating, but recently I’ve noticed that I always do the same thing in my head. I hope I can describe this adequately.

Basically, I get a voice in my mind chanting ‘You’re a bad person’ over and over again until I can return to looking ‘normal’ on the outside, I often do it to keep myself from crying in public when something has made me feel bad about myself. I don’t know why it helps to stop the crying, it’s like ‘I’m bad and I don’t deserve to cry’, maybe. 


But I realize it isn’t healthy to call myself a terrible person when I’m already feeling vulnerable.
Does anyone have a suggestion on how I can improve this behavior? Can you recommend a more uplifting mantra to repeat to myself, or has anyone experienced something similar and knows how to overcome it?


Thanks for reading.