I have been depressed since I was basically born. I’ve come from a poor, below poverty line family. I’ve been homeschooled my whole entire life. My parents are Christian jerk offs. Anytime I find someone I like, someone I “click” with, even just a really great friend; my parents find out and go psycho. I’m really hurting this week, I found someone that I really enjoyed talking to; and we started developing feelings for each other. We were texting for like 2 days; and I really enjoyed those two days more than almost anything in my entire life. I was so close to asking them out…. And then my parents found out. They went off the deep end! They demanded I break contact with them completely, and never talk to them again. :(

It’s been 2 days and I still feel dead inside. I feel like I really hurt their feelings, and I miss talking to them. 

I tried to get over it by seeing No Way Home on release at my theater, maybe to get my mind off of things. THEY LITERALLY DEMANDED I TAKE MY BROTHER, TO MAKE SURE I WASNT ON A DATE!!!! Anytime there is someone/something I enjoy, it gets taken from me. 

I’m sorry if there’s a lot going on here, I just needed somewhere to rent before I do something crazy.

Anyone got any suggestions to take my mind off of my pain?