My brother lives with his girlfriend but today he came home like an hour ago. He’s downstairs talking to my dad and I’m upstairs in my room having constant anxiety. Every time I hear any little noise that sounds like he’s coming upstairs I get this electric shock in my body and my heart beats faster.

It’s so frustrating because I’m not scared of my brother. I love him to bits but my anxiety won’t leave me alone. I’m trying to distract myself but there’s not much I can do. I can’t even do my hobbies without feeling really uncomfortable and having to stop after a few minutes. I hate this.

My biggest hope is getting the SSRI medication but that’s gonna take ages because I still have to get an appointment with the psychologist so I have to wait. I wish they would just give the damn medication so I can start feeling better.