I have BPD but this isn't that BPD related. Don't know where else to post this. These were people I drank with every Thursday for the last 6 years. A year ago I joined their group chat and a few months ago I became more active in it. I'd occasionally vent there and share my worries and whatnot and like two people got annoyed by it but didn't really complain too much until today when even other people started chiming in that if not for me the chat would be great. So I obviously left.
      
So now I'm stuck without a social group. I still have a few friends but I talked with this group on a regular basis. I guess I'll try getting a support group online but I don't think it'll be easy. No one really has a reason to care after all. I guess I'll be fine it just sucks relationships end as soon as you become more yourself. It's like I'll have to hold in my thoughts and emotions for the rest of my life. I really hope not ...sorry for writing this, I know I"m horrible and would be better off dead but yeah.