I used to be a class clown. Making dumb jokes during a certain part of a class. Seeing the whole class laugh because of me is so satisfying and it gets better when afterwards we would repeat and discuss about the same joke and make variations out of it. I would even preview upcoming topics and pre plan my jokes to be said during then.

Now class is depressing as fuck. I just fall asleep lonely. My best friend in school moved last year. Honestly the boys are pretty ass. I miss her a lot. I don't have friends in school. I'm a weird kid. I don't listen to mainstream music, I don't play a whole lot of video games. I hate sports generally and I just spend my free time reading sheet music that I brought with me.

It's just that repeated every day. School is nothing but a repetitive toxic cycle. I don't have any opportunities. I doubt I'd get a scholarship in the future anyways