I had a meltdown today and I've been stewing on since. One of the conclusions I've come to is i don't get triggered by anything or anyone else but my ex (baby daddy). I used to get triggered so often that it landed me in the hospital several times last year but ever since I've kicked him out I haven't had a terrible time. I know I've been getting gaslighted, verbally mistreated and one a couple of occasions I've been threatened physically (lifted off the ground and almost stomped on). Looking back at it I've only been this way since he came into my life but I've also had a couple of things happen around that time. My biggest triggers are being called a bad mum or sl*t. 
So do I have a bpd problem or an ex problem.
Note- i am seeing my psychologist tomorrow, but I wanted to talk to others with bpd to get some talking points.