Ill try to keep this shirt sweet and simple since i can type soo much about how i think and feel so this'll be short. First off, i think about suicide (not planning the steps, just in general) i think about the horrible things going on in the world. (I type these for relief btw) and i think about if they could happen to me. I'm really terrified to think of the bad things that could happen to me and lately I've been feeling nothing but shit. I can't be happy, i try to be but i am not. I don't know what to do with my life and i soon have to leave on my own, about a year or so. I can't keep my thoughts in order and i would ramble on but. In short Im just terrified to be on my own. I don't want to live in this harsh world, the fact that no one cares about anyone at all. I don't even think caring exist, it's just a word that sounds nice. Stressed out. I don't know how long I'll be alive and i don't know the point of it either. I was gonna type how i truly felt but i can't think straight anymore. You may think I'm high or drunk for some reason but I'm pretty much drowning on my own ineptitude. 

Well thank you for reading even though I will never know but i like to write this, it helps somewhat get my self centered and on track with how I feel and it's a stress reliever somehow. Hopefully someone going through what i feel and shit knows they aren't alone