I was hoping to hear some stories from others about their experiences as a parent with BPD.. Googling 'Parenting with BPD' was a painful experience, it seems a lot less hopeful than when I thought I was only battling depression.. My daughter means the entire world to me. She is a very happy and intelligent, creative little girl. But I'm worried if my behaviors might have long term effects on her.. I've never been cruel to her, I've never hurt her physically or verbally. But she witnesses, no matter how hard I try to keep it private, my struggle, my breakdowns, my fights with her father, witnesses me being unhealthy mentally in general, my inability to be a functional member of society (not working, not going to school, not socializing), and I see that I must not be a good role model. I'm not a bad parent, but I'm scared I might not be a GOOD parent, might not ever be able to truly be a GOOD parent.. Can you really be a good parent if you aren't a good role model? I'm scared she might grow up and feel unloved because I'm not able to give her my full undivided attention when I'm having such difficulties, that she might suffer her own internal struggles because of me, that no matter how much I love her and how hard I try, that I might be causing irreparable psychological damage. What effects is my illness having on her? I'm so afraid of ruining her, it all feels so very hopeless right now.. Is there hope to raise a happy healthy child, despite the illness? I would love to hear some stories that aren't so horrific and discouraging as the ones that come up when you search online..