I vowed not to let my emotions take control of me, I vowed not to show my sad gloomy emotions, I am weak i get easily sad, I overthink a looot, and my self Sabotage makes me annoying and I lose friendships at a very fast rate. I end up sharing things with a girl. None of that ever suits a man. As a man I feel seeking comfort, venting showing weakness is killing my game and I am loosing all my respect in this way.
    I wanna leave all this, I want confidence. I am not confident at all, I am not happy at all. I work hard try to get rid of these but, its just I cant let go of this stuff, I feel as if these are soooooo deeeeply rooted in me, that it has become a part of me. I don't know what to do. I just want to be a normal person, a normal cool guy that is well respected in society, a man who is an alpha, not a weak idiot.