I never wanted this, absolutely everything in my life is overly complicated and it always has to do with me. What do you do when you’re so anxious and depressed you physically can’t do something like make a call to medicaid or be in the same room as your boyfriends brother who hates you without feeling like you’re going to pass out? Being so anxious about something to the point you can’t do it and in turn having heavy depression over that? I’m 25F, 85 lbs, depressed for as long as I can remember and I don’t see a way out anymore. I live with my boyfriends family without a car or job in the suburbs and I have no hope in life. I can’t do anything on my own, everything I try despite trying over and over I fail at, and every “big” bad thought or feeling I have genuinely comes to fruition in my real life. I want someone to care but mainly I just want to get out of this house but I can’t leave my boyfriend because he’s the only person who somewhat understands me and loves me without conditions despite me going literally crazy. I don’t know what to do anymore.