I’ve started to experience quite bad anxiety recently, in the past I’ve dealt with depression and anorexia but lately they’ve been under control… or just paving the way for anxiety to become my next best friend. 

I’ve always worried a lot but it’s never been like this, when I’m away from my boyfriend (most of time as we live in different cities) I think of the millions ways something terrible could happen to him, recently this has also transferred to my parents and thinking about how lost I would be without them (I’m 21 and financially independent but they’re still big pillars for me). The latest development is not being able to sleep either :(

My boyfriend and I joke about it because it’s almost as simple as ‘don’t think’ but I can’t just not think.

I’ve tried therapy multiple times, albeit in another country, but every time it’s just felt useless like I’m feeding them exactly what they want to hear (probably because I’m also a people pleaser). So I’m willing to try new things! What has helped you? What hasn’t and why?