I don't know what else i can do at this point. I am 19, not currently in school or employed. i graduated at 17 during the beginning of the pandemic, I never really knew what i wanted to be in life. I never thought id make it this far, I remember I would pray and beg for something bad to happen to me so I wouldn't have to be here. Ive worked several different jobs since graduation in order to get my car, but I ended up just burning myself out. Ive struggled with an eating disorder since I was around 12, so I'm reaping those consequences now. Ive lost a lot of hair because I was slowly killing myself, I started recovery 6 months ago solely because of this + my body was withering away. but now my skin has never broken out as bad as it is now, ive lost all confidence, i cant even picture myself in a work environment when i look like this. I dont want to build a life for myself anymore I'm just so tired. when does it get better?? i havent been happy in so long.