I originally posted my thoughts and actions on the mental health sub labeling it as maybe bipolar disorder. However everyone was telling me what I have may be BPD.

This is the exact text of what I put:

I’m unsure how to put it other than bluntly but I think I’m bipolar. I’ve been told pretty much my entire life that I may be bipolar from friends to my own mom. I’ve always had mood swings. I could be sitting laughing with my friends and I’m the next second just shut down. I’ve just always have done that. I also have times where I have “episodes”. I just tend to completely shut myself out from other people and disappear. 

The reason I feel I need to actually put a label on what’s wrong is due to a recent relationship. I was with this beautiful girl and she really liked me. Everything excited me but after a couple hours of hanging out it just disgusted me. All the feelings I had for her just disappeared so I ghosted myself for a day or so. After that I wanted to go back because I really did like her. But I did it again and finally decided I can’t keep doing it to her so I let her go. This has happened multiple times it was just the fact it happened like that is what scares me.

Idk what’s wrong with me but I feel like if I truly am then I could seek the help I need.