The other night, I was at a friend's place for a party. I had eaten too little that day, and drank/smoked too much. I got an Uber to take me home. Thankfully, I made it up to my room. I woke up the next morning, not a single message asking if I made it home okay. Not anything about what I missed by leaving early. Nothing at all. I don't know if it's just me, but that feels like a pretty basic thing to do. You're supposed to check up on your friends, and make sure they're okay, right?

My issues here for a lot further than just that night. The only time people really talk to me is when I can do something for them. Wether it's helping with working on a project or just being there to listen, it's like all I am is a tool to be used. I don't feel like a human being. I don't think my friends even think of me like a real person. Sure, I exist. Sure, I'm a human. But a person? No.

My apologies if this isn't appropriate for this sub, I just don't really know where would be right for this, and I needed to get it off my chest.