Oh man, guys.

A few years ago, the hospital I was at diagnosed me with BPD, I didn't really believe it, and now my therapist is saying I'm textbook, and I can see it now. It makes sense.

How do you guys cope at work? I'm super stressed right now due to working 36 hours a week and being a full time student with 13 credit hours (just dropped a class, so I had 16 hours before). I just got married to a wonderful man who's being so sweet about my mental shenanigans and I've lived in this state for under a year. I have a very, very limited social group.

ANYWAY back to my question. The other night, my clinical manager pulled me aside and said that I basically wasn't pulling my weight, wasn't putting in effort, not doing things before they're asked, questioning the things I'm told to do, spending too much time working on homework, etc. Of course, I started bawling and it took me like, 40 minutes of lying on the bathroom floor, picking at my skin, trying to compose myself. 

I don't know how to face these people again tonight. I love my job, I truly do. But I've been so, so stressed. My therapist has been on the phone with both me and my husband all afternoon. I was convinced that she'd reached her breaking point with me, though she's saying that it's not at all true.

I just don't know what to do right now. So I'm baking another couple batches of banana bread and prepping dinner before I head off to work in a couple hours. How do you guys cope with negative feedback at work? :/