Today's Christmas.. Im sad because im slowly realising that my childhood is slipping trough my fingers, im 15 and almost 16 next month. I've been taking Citalopram for about a year now, and i normally feel "good" i feel sad but i can't express it,But today, today's different, tge sadness is so overwhelming, i feel it but I can't "let it all out", for once I wish I could cry, but i can't, and.. that just makes me mad, i feel like im trapped in my head and im too weak to get out of my own mind. My life feels like ts going uphill, but everytime i take a step up, i fall bavk down. Recently, the wierd dream everyone has that you are falling, these dreams make me feel something i cant normal feel, emotions, i haven't cried in about 6 months.