I'm so incredibly tired trying to prove I'm not a terrible person because of this disorder. I get that left untreated we can cause harm to others... but to say we can't truly love? Why would anyone say that... I'm just so confused and now I'm questioning myself and I can't stop obsessing over it.. I've been with my beautiful girlfriend for almost 2 and a half years.. I love her so fucking much... now I'm scared... I'm so tired of feeling like a goddamn monster for a disorder I didn't ask for... I feel like my heart has been split open and I just want to give up... does this ever get better? Why is this stupid comment on a tiktok from another borderline fucking me up so bad.... why can't we just stick together in a world that is constantly putting us down.. I don't get it...