been suffering from serious si for months now, theres less than a week left untjl my date,,, and now i wanna admit myself into the psych ward bcs a small part of me ddoesnt wanna do it anymore!! i want to die but i dont at the same time! and by "admitting myself" i mean talking to a helpline so they can admit me bcs.im a minor. is this serious enough for the psych ward or is there a possibility they wont send me bcs  i know, if im left alone on that day something is gonna happen :/ and i feel the psych is the best option for me as cbt doesnt work and my parents wont be able to keep an eye on me for the entire day