I found it so difficult to have healthy relationships with friends that I've slowly pushed them away and every time I see them online I get jealous of everything about them.
I get jealous of how they express themselves, how they hang out with friends and have fun, how they pretty much are comfortable with who they are.
I feel like such an asshole for it tbh but I get so angry and self hating when I see them.
Anyone else get this and know how to deal with it??