I was cheated on and lied to constantly (my fault rly as I stuck around long after I knew that) by my first boyfriend. Anyway, now I’m in a relationship with someone else. He’s a decent and good guy who’s not done anything “wrong” so far but I feel utterly unable to trust anyone after being hurt before. I try to be a positive thinking person but for some reason when it comes to trusting men my gut jumps to the worst possible outcome when I know they don’t deserve that. He’s a handsome man and a so girls hit on him a lot. He’s my FP if you subscribe to that concept. Right now this beautiful girl just started were we work together who is trying to hit on him a lot and I just need help coping so I don’t slip into a hole. I’m off work for a few days and it’s literally gonna eat my brain out. He doesn’t know that I have BPD and I’ve managed to suppress most of the outwardly visible symptoms which has been very, very hard for me - and that’s when things are good and normal..

I need some guidance and grounding to reassure myself things will be alright and to not think/behave in a toxic manner. I want to feel better and treat those around me well!! I would like to feel good and have a decent nights sleep ❤️