The therapist i’ve been seeing weekly for nearly 2 years is stepping down from her position. I’m destroyed and it feels like somebody died. I’m moving out of my toxic household and she had been giving me so much hope these last 2 years that my life would change once I moved out and that once I moved I would really start to see even more growth and healing. She would always tell me once I moved out I would be able to do more trauma work.  I’m moving out next week and the fact that she’s leaving at a time that I was under the impression she was going to help me through is eating me alive.


We have three sessions left and I’m debating if I should even go. Maybe I should just cut my losses while I’m ahead because I don’t know if i’m capable of attending 3 more sessions knowing she will be leaving me. This feels like the ultimate abandonment. I know she has her own life and I don’t blame her personally for what she’s choosing, but I can’t help but feel a bit of splitting toward her and even though I literally love her she’s the best therapist I ever had I feel the urge to “abandon” her before she “abandons me” by ghosting her for our last three sessions. However, I know this will cause me great pain and I might even regret it. I don’t know what to do… she said the practice is looking for a replacement, but I don’t know if they’re gonna find one in time within 3 weeks? I’m going through such a hard time right and this is the icing on the cake. I can’t do this. Should I go to the last three sessions??? I’m so confused. I sobbed and hyperventilated for an hour after the session where she announced this and then slept for 10 hours. Advice is appreciated.