I´m not formally diagnosed yet but will most probably be in the near future. I don´t know if BPD can be of "the worse" or "better" kind, but for me it might not be THAT bad (like, I manage to keep close friendships, no one is suspecting anything at work, haven´t had any suicide attempts etc.) but of course my mental issues are screwing my well-being in many ways, and my long-term boyfriend just broke up with me because I´m too crazy. Right now I feel so down, waiting to go for an investigation next week, heartbroken, alone, anxious all the time etc. And now I found this thread and it seems like I´m gonna have a depressing life. If my life will be like this forever, that I won´t be able to have a partner, kids, a life pretty free from anxiety, then I don´t know if I want to keep on living. Please someone, tell me it can turn out OK, that I might have a life worth living in the future, cause I´m desperate =( Thank you all and feel better!