I'm a mom and the only reason I won't end my life is my children.  My husband is possibly more mentally ill then me and often pushes me to just get it over with and kill myself he can't take my depression and anxiety anymore. I have asked for a seperation or divorce a couple of times but he refuses and is convinced we will get through this. It has been impossible some days to even want to get up.  I'm holding on by a thread none of this can go on.  I feel most awful for my children I don't know if it's better if I'm gone or if I'm here.  Im just really lost and exhausted I'm on 3 different prescriptions I'm on long term disability I go to therapy I have support other then my husband but none of its been enough.  

I don't know what is best I don't want to hurt anyone but I've been hurting for so long ...it feels like an impossible situation.