I hope I am using the correct tag for this post.

Idk if this is necessarily a BPD thing but sometimes, like today, I want to bawl my eyes out cause I feel so bad for the people I love and care about. My step dad had a tough day, he and his lifelong friend helped a random man who had fell in a bank parking lot and cracked his skull. He called me out of my room to tell me about it and seemed shaken up, which makes sense cause he had no idea if this guy died or what (he did call the cops and an ambulance came to help but he was there waiting for them to show up for 10-15 minutes). Now I’m in my room wanting to cry cause I feel bad for him. Cause regardless of his shitty day he’s still gotta grocery shop and all this other stuff like this man does not get a break. I want the people I love to be happy and when they’re not, or I can see they are struggling or having a rough time I feel so helpless cause really what can I do in this situation? Sometimes you can’t do anything to help other than be supportive, but rn I also am dealing with an intense 5 day long tension headache, and I haven’t had a headache this bad since I was in elementary school, so I can’t do much at this time if I wanted to. I feel this way quite often about different family members in my life. I’m not sure what to do, it’s just an awful feeling. When I feel this way, I can spiral into thoughts like “I feel guilty for existing” cause to be honest I am pretty lazy and could probably be more helpful at times and ease some of the stress of others around me. I know it’s not my responsibility to make others happy but it correlates with my own happiness. I’m not sure how to cope with this type of feeling.