I got out of a pretty toxic relationship around September of 2021 and it was my last serious relationship since. It was also my first relationship after being diagnosed with BPD. Idk if it’s just me or what can make this happen, but I’ve been wanting to be in a relationship but every single time anyone gives me too much attention, I push them away and get turned off. Im not sure if it’s because my ex didn’t give me much attention? It’s so weird and right now my FP is my bestfriend so it’s also hard to develop a relationship because usually the person I want to be with is my FP. Im not really sure how to navigate talking to someone new because of this. It makes me feel like I’m not worthy of love. I like attention, but not too much. Once anyone gets clingy, I run. Im not sure what to do about this issue..