I’m constantly growing my beard thick and then shaving it completely. Like I’ll have it clean shaven and say to myself that it’s just what I’m going to do from now on but then go back to the beard with the same sentiment. Same with my hair sometimes I want to grow it out and keep it like that and other times I decide I want to keep it short and later regret letting it grow out. I had my hair down to my armpits in 2019 and then got it cut and didn’t regret it until a month later. Is this a bipolar thing? I’ve also always had weird relations with gender. I’ve thought I might be trans in the past but I was so in the middle for so long that I stopped trying to reach a conclusion on it a few years ago. I know this is a weird post but something I always questioned.