I’m not asking for any advice, just venting here. From my experience, nothing good ever came out of reaching out or telling people about my mental illness. Opening up has only made things worse. Now I wish I had never said anything about it. At this point I just don’t even want people to get to know me, because they wouldn’t understand unless they are mentally ill as well. 

For several years I haven’t received any emotional support from family and no one (except for a few online friends) has taken it seriously. My parents recently told their new friends about my condition and only one of them said “Well, she could try therapy.”  The thing is I have tried therapy, medication and even seen a social worker. None of that worked and I don’t want to have to go through the extremely uncomfortable process of having to explain myself again.

I’m just so tired of the stigma, being misunderstood discriminated and discriminated against. The truth is that most people don’t care or want to get involved. I know it’s my responsibility to fix it, but without a health support system for it, it seems impossible to heal. I’m always been surrounded by a lot of people who have their lives together and it only just pushes me to isolate myself more. Because of the treatment I get, I can no longer stand people anymore. They only care about themselves.