I firmly believe that I will be alive for a short period of time. I see no future. I’m “good” mentally, medicated, happy and in a stable relationship. 

This person sees a future?? with me, but I don’t. (It’s even awkward for me to type it out) I don’t want to get married, I don’t want kids… It’s not because I don’t love him, I do, I just don’t see myself taking on those roles. I honestly think my only purpose is to help other people grow and find themselves, since I can’t do that because of my BPD. I will never be normal and I will never be able to live a fully normal life. Which is why I feed off of helping others, it genuinely makes me smile. Knowing that I impacted someone so much that I changed their life for the better brings me so much joy. I’ll keep on doing that until I decide It’s my time to leave one day when no one needs me anymore, which is why I’ll probably die fairly young.