I have lived on and off in the most episodic sucicidsl states from ptsd and bpd.

I don’t have much time away from it, but I have been working my ass off caring about all the details of my life: 

Therapy, exercise, diet, sleep, who I f with, who I don’t f with, what I listen to, my hobbies, who am I, my traumas and taking the time to go through them and either release or rearrange them, my regrets, my emotions, etc 

And it works…. 


I had to fight my way through caring how I felt and the shadow side of myself that told me I wasn’t even worth doing it for. 



I just wanted to share incase anyone needed to see the other side and have hope.