I’m so so so sorry if this isn’t allowed. But please hear me out. I really need some guidance. To clarify: I am NOT asking for a diagnosis. I will not accept a diagnosis unless it is by a medical professional.

 PLEASE read the whole thing! Ty in advance


 I was prescribed Lamictal nearly 2 years ago. I never got a proper explanation of why I was prescribed medication. At the time I think my psychiatrist had mentioned either cyclothymia or bipolar 2. I was never diagnosed tho. It was only mentioned. I have had consistent episode of what I believe to to be hypomania. I have seen and heard things that weren’t there. I have had racing thoughts. I have gone on little sleep and have have been SUPER energized. I’ve made bad spending habits. I’ve made horrible sexual choices. And for the depressive episodes: It gets bad. Sometimes it gets really bad.

She knows these patterns. And the way she talks about them she KNOWS them. Would I be “diagnosis seeking” if I called up and asked her? I am obviously not a medical professional, and I really don’t wanna have y’all diagnose me obviously. But I can’t help but feel like what she said, and what my symptoms are are correlated with bipolar. If anyone can give me some insight, I’m not looking for a diagnosis, but is this something that’s appropriate to ask my psych about? I’m so, so fucking lost. I really, really don’t want to seem like someone who is seeking for a diagnosis. And I don’t want to seem like someone who is seeking medication. I just need to know what’s going on. I’m scared of my mind, and I really need to know what’s going on. I have anxiety, panic disorder, depression, and ADHD diagnosed.

Is it wrong for me to seek out a diagnoses bc she mentioned those? Am I a bad person for asking her? I’ve been seeing her for 5 years.