I’m 23, male, just found an amazing partner a few months ago, moved in, loved every moment with her, ended up building a resentment towards my family, ended up in stressful situations being resented by the girl I loved, got kicked out in a really nice way(which makes things more painful in certain ways), and now I’m living back with the parents I’m emotionally resentful towards and they’re trying to provide me comfort but it’s irritating me.
TLDR: I feel stuck and all I have found to help is manipulating my own thought patterns, which in and of itself feels morally sickening to toy with my mental status even if for betterment of my health. I’m not sure what to do with myself, I’m trying to practice acceptance but all I want to do is escape.