Today has been such a struggle. I’ve been on a dip since Tuesday but yesterday and today have been the worst of it and I’ve communicated this to my partner that I live with and he told me to let him know if there’s anything I need or anything he can do to help. I asked him if he could clean up the kitchen (it’s all his mess anyway) which he has been promising me he’s do since Thursday and I asked him if we could watch a movie tonight because my symptoms are at their worst in the evening and I don’t feel safe with myself. He’s not done either of those things despite his promises and has just been playing video games instead which just makes me feel worse because it feels like he doesn’t really care. When I’m depressed too I really struggle to eat which is made worse if the kitchen isn’t clean or if all the pots I could use to actually cook myself anything are all stacked in the sink. It just makes me feel even worse because it makes me feel like this person who is supposed to love and care about me doesn’t and like I only have myself to rely on when I can’t even take care of myself or trust myself to not be a danger to myself. It also just feels a bit shit because I know if it were him in my position he’d expect the world from me and I’ve only asked him to do two small reasonable things.

TLDR: I feel like shit and my boyfriend can’t do the bare minimum