I’m not really sure how to feel about it . I was very manic &amp; that turned into crying , not eating , the constant need to be awake &amp; doing something (some of these things are common with my mania) but is it normal that I’m kind of angry I cried so much while being manic ?? Like I ruined it ?? I won’t lie I prefer being manic over depressed . Staying in bed all day &amp; night , sadness , just doing nothing . I hate it . I’ll go back &amp; forth with it but when I am feeling depressed I realize I like being manic a lot at least more than being depressed . I’d say this time it was my least most “destructive” . I usually get into a lot of trouble &amp; ruin relationships . Does anyone else feel this way &amp; do you like being manic ?