My boyfriend is my FP. I have realized just suddenly in the past few days that I am literally nothing without him. He's been busy, we talk maybe like 1-2 hours max recently, and I have been feeling so depressed and absolutely empty because of it. My happiness, etc is all dependent on him. If he died, I would die also. There is nothing of substance to me if he isn't around. Like I'm literally just masquerading as a person at this point, because of how empty I feel. Aren't real humans more than just flesh? I don't feel like anything more than that; I'm just a body who is just surviving. If we're not talking, all I'm doing is literally just sleep. All I do is sleep nowadays. Because there's no reason to be awake unless he's around. 

I'm planning on breaking up with him once this stressful part of his life is over with, because he doesn't need me around making his life more difficult, and I never deserved him in the first place.