Throughout my life I've never had a whole lot of friends.  I'm a loner at heart and the majority of time I don't want many people around.

I do have a few close friends,  but most live pretty far away with busy lives.  My closest is a married man who is limited to the time he can spend with me.  He calls me daily and takes me to eat but I'm not even sure I'd want him around more than an hour or so.

Lately I wouldn't mind just having some to spend time with.  Male or female, it doesn't matter.  Someone to come over after church.  We don't have to interact constantly.  We can eat lunch, then they can watch the game or play video games while I read a book.  Later we can run out for some dinner.  Just to have another person around.

I live in a city of about 100,000 people so you would think this wouldn't be difficult to find.  But I have such a hard time clicking with people or even finding someone I'd want to spend time with.  Instead I have these "fantasy" people who would be perfect to hang out with, but probably don't exist.