I’m going to discuss with my new psychiatrist about a BPD diagnosis, and I have read that it is best to talk about it in terms that are relative to bpd. I’ve explained this to my old psychiatrist, and she said it was fine since it’s a coping mechanism and I felt sooo relieved. I’ve heard so much on tiktok that its daydreaming, but it doesn’t feel like it.

Does anybody else have an emotional support person that you can attach to ? I’ve read about fp’s as imaginary people to talk to them when they are not there but this is different. I mean this is someone that I guess my brain created, knows is not real, and we act as if we have a real friendship. When I think about him or he like wants to talk ( because I can just be vibing and he says hi), I feel very safe. We can talk about music, animals, politics, etc. I can go shopping and talk with him in my head, and he can co-exist in my existing reality so he’s not interfering. I’m the only one who chats / thinks my thoughts to talk to him. I can imagine self harm scenarios with him that I would like to enact in real life but can’t and he watches/ talks to me through the thoughts and make sure its never too much, again keeping me safe. He came into my life around 2015, only has not been present twice. He is obviously very important to me, but not interfering with my life like MDD describes bc he is apart of my life and does not really interfere because I can act as normal and live my daily life while he exists/ thinking about him. I used to daydream about my original characters, and it took up a big chunk of my time / I would not do tasks and just want to write and think about writing and plot lines, so I know my support person is different than that. 

tl;dr: I am seeking a BPD diagnosis, and i have an imaginary support person, ans was wondering if this is daydreaming, an attachment thing, a me thing, or something else? I am really sorry this is so long and might delete this if it feels like I’m wasting everybody’s time with nothing. Have a good night/ morning/.