Dirty Little Secret. It's not superaccurate if you follow the proceedings of the actual trial but still.


**This post is mostly about the movie.**

I am blown away by and feel horrible because I recognize a lot of myself in the movie character that is based on Jodi Arias. Not the actual stalking, or the violence and threats, but her behavior in the beginning of the movie. Our pathologies are eerily similar.



When she meets Travis in the movie, she basically keeps shooting herself in the foot because she goes straight for seduction rather than letting things develop organically. She's met this guy ans suddenly she wants to "secure" him as if her life depends on it. This puts him off, and the sad thing is that I believe he would've fallen for her if she had acted more natural and less intense. 


She manipulates him and drives him into a corner, where he feels bad for not commiting to her right then and there. I feel like I've done this to my ex and my current bf. It's never enough commitment for me, which is insane. Seeing this reflected in such a horrible character has me questioning my sanity and my... purity of heart if you will.


That's all, I just wanted to vent cause Idk what to feel.