The title sums it up pretty well. I am a 24 years old girl, and I have already passed what could have been my best years. I have been anxious and depressed for such a long time, that I think this is just how I am as a person. I am ugly, I am boring, I don't have anything to give, but I am still always surprised no one gives a flying fuck about me. No matter how much I try. I have been trying to accept the fact that I will end up alone. All I have to show are some shitty ass relationships with people I wish I never touched. 

I cannot talk to anyone about this, if I tell anything to my mom, she just guilts me, because in her mind the fact that I am 'young' means I should automatically be happy. Which, in theory makes sense, after all, like she always says, it will only get worse. But it is already pretty fucking bad now. I either feel like sobbing all the time, or I do not feel anything at all. I had a bad romantic experience not long ago, and I am not even surprised - there is literally nothing to like about me. I wish I was not a freaking coward, and I could end it all. No one would care other than my parents. I can't take the loneliness. I can't take the apathy. I can't take not seeing any hope. 

Sorry for the rant. But, thank you if you read it. It means a lot.