I feel like I’ve tried most of it, self help books, no alcohol or drugs, exercise, meditation, vitamins and supplements, therapy, eating healthy, drinking water, getting sleep etc. 

Yet, I somehow feel like I haven’t tried enough before I turn to meds. I feel like my anxiety and depression isn’t ‘bad’ enough even though I’ve been having some intense suicidal ideation and spent the majority of my life in suffering. 

My therapist strongly suggested that I should consider going on meds and I hold a lot of resistance against them. I could come up with so many excuses and reasons for why they wouldn’t work for me.  

I’ve heard of a lot of bad and catastrophic experiences with meds. 
I’d also like to learn about the positive experiences with them please. I’m so tired of endlessly spiralling and being imprisoned by my own mind.