I want so badly to feel right but so many things hinder me. 
I've got Fibromyalgia, I'm always in some degree of pain. Some days not so bad, others are horrible. I can't always keep up with the house work when it hits me hard and carries on for days at a time. Last bad bout- It was from Tuesday til today. 
I felt better and normal for about an hour today, then it all went to shit.

I get over whelmed and can't always keep cleaning up after the kids and  s.o.  it wears me down. I feel worthless. 

In my head it keeps saying it over and over. I snapped again today, got really super violent towards my s.o. and myself. 

I just want to be right but I don't think it'll happen bc that other part of me that's freaking out won't stay down and be quiet. 

I don't know what to do anymore and I want to end it so I don't have to deal with being this crazy girl stuck in a body that won't function right. But I feel so guilty bc of the kids. 

I'm just so tired of being crazy