I’m 25 male and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone in my life, I’ve just hit a year clean of heroin but I’m obsessing over relapsing just to get my emotions in check, basically my girlfriend doesn’t appreciate me at all and I’m pretty sure we’re close to breaking up, all the signs are there and we’ve agreed we need to have a talk when she’s free , but even when I thought things were good they weren’t, she never gave me compliments or made me feel like how I should and we haven’t slept with each other for months I felt like i was just there as emotional support or someone to chill with, it’s clear things are coming to an end, I don’t think I’ve got the energy in me for another break up my last one 4/5 years ago nearly killed me, I’ve got no friends to turn to because A few have died  and the rest I just can’t be around any more or have pushed away through addiction, I just feel like I’m fully alone n I’m loosing the only person that gets me out of the house and stops me from relapsing now all this is happening idk how I’m gonna stay clean I’m already finding myself thinking off how I’m gonna find a plug  and score some dope, access has been the only thing stopping me the past few days I’ve got no one  I just either wanna be numb or dead I wouldn’t mind either