I’m no one’s favorite person. Everyone just tolerates me but no one actually likes me. I don’t know how to fit in with people anymore, it feels like I’ve only gotten more awkward and unlikable as I’ve gotten older. I feel so alone, but I don’t have anyone to talk to about it. I do have a boyfriend but that feels worse somehow - how do you tell someone you love that you feel alone despite their love and efforts? The relationship is wonderful but I still can’t help but feel this way in all other aspects of my life. I recently began looking for a therapist to help with depression and suicidal ideation, and every single therapist I reached out to that seemed like a good fit/could work for me financially, had a waiting list of 6 months or longer or was not accepting new patients. I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I’ll end it before I figure it out.