Fuck love. Fuck talking. Fuck having friends. Fuck amounting to anything in this stupid life. I’m done trying. I’m done with sleepless nights, I’m done with rejection, and loneliness. I’m not gonna live in misery with unbearable anxiety and depression for seemingly no reason. I’m sick of no one caring. I’m sick of everyone leaving. From my earliest memories the trauma began. In all of my life it’s always been “it will get better with time.” That’s bullshit it’s only gotten worse. In my 16 years of life all of my accomplishments all my As and medals, and certificates, trophies it all means nothing. It’s all for nothing.  I’m sick of it. Idk what I’m going to do, medication, therapy, it all does nothing. It doesn’t soothe the trauma, the rape, the abuse. It doesn’t stop my life from getting any worse either. I have never and will never look in the mirror and be happy with what I see, I will never look on my life and have anyone be proud. I’m just so tired of this.