I don't have any friends and I don't talk to people often because of how terrible things get when I do. But I started talking to someone recently. I got attached almost immediately. It felt so nice to not be alone anymore. I felt like a human being again. But I was feeling really anxious and was having a hard time talking.  I tried to calm down and ended up waited awhile before messaging them but I think I said something weird when I finally did message them. Then I had a panic attack because of how terrified I was of having to feel alone again. They haven't messaged me back in awhile. I think I said something wrong. But I'm also probably reading to much into it. Either way I just feel sick right now