I am so lost and don’t know what or who I’m supposed to be or to how to even be me. My moods keep dropping and crazy mood swings half of the time I don’t even realize I’m deferent i don’t who I am I don’t remember half of my life only the past 3 years and it’s still so blurry. It feels like my heads ripping apart I don’t know what real I’m so confused. What have I been doing for the past 15 years i don’t know I feel like a zombie I’m always on auto pilot. I’m really trying to hold on and I don’t know how much longer I can. Why do I live why dose anything exist why why why… what’s the point I don’t want to be here anymore I’m tired of always trying I just wanna fade away.