I can’t do this anymore. I’m ruining my life and I don’t know how to stop. I get so angry, I can’t stop it before I say and do things I can’t take back. 
I want to stop so bad bc I know I’m hurting ppl and myself but I can’t. I don’t know why I can’t just stop and I don’t know how to help myself

And pls don’t just say “go to therapy” unless you’d like to give me the money to do so or else that is not an option for me