Lol. Ironic. but it is what it is, lost my FP, going to lose (alr started) my only beautiful feature of my body.  
felt the peak of my life alr, everything else later is just going to be the lesser version of it, heck ill be crying of happiness if it even get close to that.   
I have plan to have as much fun as i can get, maybe replicate that magical year. if i cant then i can always kill myself later. that's pretty much my plan lol  
Sorry for meaningless vent