this year ive been struggling terribly with my mental health and with life issues in general. i have a past of mental illnesses and one rehabilitation when i was 13. in the past couple weeks, i have been thinking about suicide. i have been harming myself by scratching my arms. about 2 years ago-ish in the summer of quarantine 2020, we got two kittens from my dads friend. my family and i have raised them well and we love them dearly. theyre very affectionate, but one of them favor my sister and my dad. tonight, i was harming myself again at 1 am and my cat noticed i was upset. she jumped onto my bed and sat there looking at me. i couldnt do it in front of her. in her eyes i felt like i could see sympathy, but maybe thats just my theory about cats. i was petting her until she got sleepy and i was more calmed down. i couldnt stop crying after because she stopped me from harming myself more. i truly believe cats feel emotion. i love my cats to the bottom of my heart.