i’m waiting to hurry up and be with the love of my life and i’m waiting for a transfer from my company so i can be with her. i know it will be different but life where i’m at sucks and has been hard and depressing and terrible for me she is the light in my world (i’m not codependent i’m aware of what this is). she’s my support system but so far away. i gained 30 pounds and i feel gross. i know i’m all over the place but i just wanted to anonymously reach out for support. i’m drowning in depression. i don’t tell her because i don’t want it to be over whelming. (i talk to her when i desperately need it)  just need encouragement to keep going. i have bipolar depression.