I have fucked up everything up. All my friendships, my relationship with my parents, my education and everything else I can think of. I just don't know how to get back up from this low I feel. Dbt is helpful in coping with the effects of my bad decisions, but it doesn't stop me from making bad decisions. Have isolated myself for the past 6 months. Now I want to go back but can't seem to face them. Every thing is just falling apart around me and all I can do at this point is cry. There are days when I feel alright, and I think I have made some progress. But when I see the big picture, it just was another step towards fucking my life up. 