People always tell you “it gets better” but it doesn’t. Sure, I have moments of being content but at the end of the night when it’s just me &amp; my thoughts, I’m miserable. I replay painful memories or makeup situations in my head that make me feel terrible. I get triggered so randomly &amp; I just don’t want to be around anyone. I push what little amount of people I do have out of my life constantly. I fully believe they’ll hurt me eventually. Everyone does. I isolate but that just makes me break down even more. I can’t heal from my trauma. I’m broken &amp; I truly feel that I need to disappear..