I have a mental illness and was very aware of it. I'm on medication and in therapy for about 6 years now but I didn't realise that I was actually crazy. I thought I was mentally ill but in a "normal" way. I just realised that it's not the case. I'm mad in the way fictional characters arent, I'm mad in the way people society stays away from. I've ruined so many relationships and friendships without realising it. Looking back now it's so clear to me but I didn't see it at the time. I feel awful for the pain I've caused others while thinking i was reacting to them. I was reacting to things that only happened in my head. Nothing was real. What do I do? I don't see my therapist until Monday. Idk how I'm supposed to deal with this. I hurt my sisters. I hurt my family. Over things that didn't even happen. God help me