Just wondering if this is BPD related for me or due to something else. I never really want to have sex, and when I do my interest lasts for about 10 minutes then I start dissociating. 

Having sex for me is like eating a donut. Do I need it? No. Am I opposed to eating it? No. Will I enjoy eating it? Yes for about 30 seconds. Can I live without it? Absolutely. 

I get so jealous of other women who have strong or just healthy sex drives and feel DESIRE. I want to be normal and enjoy this thing everyone is always talking about. 