i cant believe in myself, i cant envision any of my effort resulting in anything except failure. so tired of trying so tired of not being good enough. so tired. who understands the pain when theyve never been burned, who understands an injury you cant see, who can know what it is to have it permanently there. im drinking beer at 2:30 pm, getting closer to alcoholism each day. i know i’m breathing but who is alive. fuck