I just woke up and had a complete breakdown before even getting out of bed. I’m not sure what’s warranting it but there’s one thing looping in my head and that’s— do I have a right to my friendships even though I feel like I’m messing up and they’re all around out of obligation to boost their egos? The other part of me is like…obviously I don’t think anyone is that selfish… but basically… I don’t want to be alone but I’m in so much pain and I really want a hug but I don’t think I can ask. I don’t know what I need right now I just want this anxiety to end and I want to find out whether I truly make a difference in this world. (Sorry in advance for the length; this got deep really quick; I trust in your opinions)