It’s almost like I’ve (23/f) woken up and realized that I’ve sabotaged potential and real friendships in the past year. I’ve destroyed these friendships by isolating myself, cancelling on plans, and probably being just depressed in general. I’m so depressed now and I have no idea how to fix my life. I think what pushed me today is that me and my boyfriend are on the rocks and now I feel incredibly lonely without his attention. I have barely any family and my job is so stressful. I want to pick up and runaway but I literally can’t. Just feeling so down it’s scary.