Sorry my original post was all over the place made no sense, I am having such a bad mental breakdown. I am so stressed out by everything, school, my relationship and hypochondria mostly right now i  have been suffering with this and other mental health problems for years I feel like giving up I am in so much pain. I am so scared to talk to people because it usually makes it worse bc I can feel them not care about me. Whenever I think I am doing well I go right back to square one. I am hurting so much I can’t even explain how much pain I am in and how much worse my mental health has gotten. I have such a bad memory when I am upset I can only focus on everything I hate about myself. I literally don’t know how to fix any of this I want to be better but everyone hurts me so bad, I am so sensitive to emotions and it just seems so hopeless I don’t know what to do. Nobody cares anymore they don’t understand how hard it is to feel so much all at once.