I wish I was comfortable with how differently they think or do things. I wonder if that’s why I can’t leave my current relationship(s). It makes me so uncomfortable and uneasy it makes me feel gross . When I do get closer to them I end up backing away and never talking to them again or I keep them just far enough that we can text but nothing more. Weirdly I crave friendship outside my circle and I feel open but it never last. I get panic attacks or rushing anxiety I’ll leave without explanation. What do I even say ? Idk I wonder if anyone experienced this ?