I've been in and out of inpatient and residential programs a lot. I also suffer from self harm but that has improved since my last treatment center in August. Now that I feel like I got back on track with living a normal life, I started experiencing auditory hallucinations and am back to feeling unstable again. My husband and I want to adopt a child in the next 5 years (I can't have kids because of my meds) but is now having second thoughts because he doesn't want to raise kids with a sick mom. I don't want to be injuring or hearing voices or going to the hospital with kids either and every year I keep saying I'm going to get better and I don't. 

Does anybody have any experience with this or words of wisdom?