so i just got a dx of bpd this past friday and reading here &amp; elsewhere on the internet has been totally lifechanging - i've had FP's my entire life &amp; never knew that was a ~thing~ and a recent really bad episode of suicidal ideation/self-harm was brought on by my current FP sent me to the hospital and eventually a psychiatrist who diagnosed me. since i became friends a couple months ago w/ my FP, they've identified - i think unknowingly - a bunch of behaviors of mine that i had always just tolerated, as symptomatic of something bigger (which turned out to be BPD). 

so to get to the point - for most of my life, i've suffered genuinely untenable FOMO (fear of missing out). people always see it as a joke because obviously many ppl feel FOMO to some extent, and lots of my friends have sent me pics of them hanging out without me to bother me. it's always very lighthearted but FOMO will often send me into a total anxiety tailspin, which i've tried to explain to so many people &amp; no one ever really got it. when it happens, it's never that friends have purposefully excluded me. it's always that i had other plans or other places to be, but nonetheless, the anxiety of not being there can TOTALLY shut me down and send me into the darkest place.

my FP who is a fucking angel has been saying to me that i need to stop with the FOMO because ppl doing stuff without me doesn't mean they don't love me, or care about me, or miss me, or want to be there. for months i've been explaining to them that's not the root of the problem, but in light of my dx and a bunch of shit that's happened to me over the past few years, i think they're right &amp; that my FOMO is actually just a crippling fear of abandonment. even though i am very aware that my friends really do love me and aren't abandoning me. 

does anyone else have this experience? does anyone have tips for dealing with the FOMO? i don't want to feel this way, it can be so intense that it's impossible to deal with. obviously as i start to get treatment i'll learn some tools but i was just wondering if anyone else has dealt with FOMO.