It constantly feels like somethings wrong with me. And I'm constantly afraid someone will notice it.

I don't even talk to people much anymore, I'm afraid my voice will break or something because of how nervous I am.

I'm nervous about my posture, I'm nervous about my face twitching, 

I'm nervous about the fact that I feel like I'm going to pass out because of how nervous I am, 

I'm afraid people will notice how nervous I am, 

I'm afraid of how people may think I'm strange when I don't respond because I'm nervous, 

I'm afraid I may act on my intrusive thoughts, 

I'm afraid people will think I'm walking funny.

The list goes on forever, and since I'm nervous about nervousness and nervousness causes everything on the list that makes me nervous it all builds up in a vicious cycle.

Even now you can see I'm ranting. My brain never shuts up. It always has something to say. Always analyzing, always trying to find schemes that others are coming up with that simply don't exist.

I'm trapped in a nightmare, and I'm afraid of everyone so I cannot ask for help. So I spend my time alone. Alone with this mind that seems to want to destroy itself at every moment of the day.

It won't end, I literally have no one to turn to. 

Everyone thinks I'm weird, my parents don't believe mental problems exist, and I am my own worst enemy.

I know people want to help, but please don't send me a private message. That makes me nervous, what doesn't.