So our wedding got pushed back to next year due to covid, which to be honest, I was kind of hoping it would go ahead this year as we would have had an excuse to invite less people. 

Nevertheless, I hate being large groups of people, I hate people looking at me, I hate having awkward dealings with family I rarely see. I literally shake out of fear every time I think that I'm going to be quite literally the centre of attention for the day, all those people just watching me all day. I can't think of anything worse. 

I can't bring myself to do a speech in front of so many people but I know it'll upset my fiancé don't.

I feel like with my wedding being over a year away, and the struggle I'm going through now with the fear and panic of it, how am I going to cope on the day? I'm scared I'm going to faint or have a panic attack in front of so many people.

Anyone been through this? What did you do?