hi guys, something just happened to me and I have nobody that I can share this with except for you guys.
I let My ex bf that I have liked for almost 2 years now know how I still feel about him.I am in love with him still. He asked if I wanted to go to a basketball game with him
I am so delusional thinking this would be a way to rekindle. Keep in mind it has been a year since we broke up, so I was super excited to go see him and I left work early so I could spend time with him.after the game he ended up telling me he kept my items I left in his car and hung the painting we made together in his room. I was so happy until he said he didn’t think the game was “date like” and it was just something to do. He just wanted to make amends in case he passes away at any time.He just wants to be my friend but he can’t give me what I want. I asked him why he would to this to me again now all I have is having to heal all over again and now I’m so confused and I can’t stand to look at myself because I think there’s something wrong with me.I don’t feel like I’m good enough or ever will be good enough for him. I feel ugly and disgusting after giving him the satisfaction of hurting over him still.
I got out of his car after he said “ You don’t deserve this and you deserve way better.”
now I’m left alone with my horrible brain. I feel so stupid.every time I loook in the mirror I hate what I see.