So.. i actually don't have anyone to say this to or talk about it with, I've met this girl 6 months ago we went through alot and talked everday at a point we just shared our whole lives together but the thing is she's pretty far away from me, I've grown a crush on her long ago and well never talked told her, im sure none is interested to hear the whole story so the thing is, she killed herself 2 days ago , it was really sudden and I didn't even believe it, but now that im sure and.. its kinda too late , the thing is, why don't i feel sad, i just kept going through my life like it's nothing and she was really important to me i mean, i loved her, but now i just don't have any feelings about it, can anyone help me figure out why, and thx for reading i had to tell someone at some point