I don't know what to say, or how to give back story. I don't even really know what happened today during another breakdown. All I know is I hit myself on the head over and over again with my fists and air freshener can. Now I feel like I'm going to die because the other night I saw on TV how a girl got hit in the head and then she had a seizure and died. So now that's going to happen to me. My head feels really cloudy and I don't feel real, I'm not sure if that's because my girlfriend left for work while I was in the middle of dissociating and now I'm dissociating alone and I'm not used to that. Or I'm dying. I almost don't want to die.  

So heres the point to this thread... Does anyone else feel like they are dying if their support leaves them mid dissociation? 