(TW maybe - mention of sxicide)



i feel like the only reason i love her (FP) so much is because she’s saved me from commiting suicide at the beginning of the year when i was severely depressed. and since then shes the reason why i try to stop my self from doing anything bad to myself because i want to live longer to cherish her happiness for longer. i dont want to let go even though staying with her only worsens my obsessive state and makes me feel violently sad, angry, and hateful towards myself, people who try to get close to her, and even her (FP) because i can’t stand feeling like she wants to abandon me every second. i know i am only a leech that only breaks wverything around me of their happiness by staying this way but i dont know what else to do. i miss how things were when we were just normal friends and i felt normal with her but she let me live and i dont know if this is for better or worse. sometimes i wish she never saved me. i feel like it would be a happier place for all of us.





tldr does anyone feel like their obsession with their favourite person only derives from that they “saved” you from something bad??