I know his depression has nothing to do with me but no matter what effort I put in nothing cheers me up and it makes me upset.. I just wish I could make him happy and go back to the way he used to be. 

I can't help but feel im the reason for his depression and he doesn't want me around.. I can't help but feel he doesn't value the effort im putting in either.... I dont know I just feel so worthless to him because I can't make a single change in his day even when im trying my hardest. :( it feels like its been so long since he's been happy and we've both been happy.. I just miss his getting excited about things and his adorable smile.. I never see it anymore. I really dont know what to do anymore. its driving me insane.