I’ve had severe anxiety since I was 11 because of something traumatic that happened to me at school. I tried and failed to go back to school for 4 years because I couldn’t go through a day without having a panic attack. 

Finally the principal of the school told my parents for me to just give up and do homeschool because since I still hadn’t been able to stay at school, I probably wasn’t ever going to be able to do it. So I was homeschooled and had little to no social interactions since then.

I’m currently 21, turning 22 next Friday and I’ve been trying to get a job (and hold it) since I was around 17. 

I had my first job at 18 as a janitor at a rodeo. I felt generally comfortable with the job and my sisters boyfriend had the same one so added comfort knowing someone there. The first day went great. I was working on my own, had no panic attacks, little anxiety overall and I liked the job. 

On the second day, I was halfway through the shift, when these two ladies that worked there as well approached me in the area that I was covering. They made conversation and although I felt my nervousness and anxiety increasing, it wasn’t bad. Then they found out it was my first job and started making fun of me because that I was “too old” for this to be my first job and just saying a bunch of things that made me feel terrible. 

As soon as they left, I went to the janitors closet and had a really bad panic attack. I got picked up and couldn’t go back after that. That has been the longest I ever held a job.

I’ve gotten about 4 jobs since then and either couldn’t show up or only made it through one day. Most of them had little contact with other people

 I’m on medication and it helps with my everyday anxiety, but when it comes to work or specific social situations, it’s like nothing.
I also don’t have any type of special talent or skills and I can’t speak on the phone, so I’m having a difficult time finding at home work. I’m not sure what I can do now