No matter where I go or who I talk to I can't fit in or connect with anyone. Everyone has their own friends and cliques. Even if I do find someone to talk to I know for a fact they don't need me as much as I need them cos they got other people to go to besides me.

If I somehow manage to get and hold a job all the interaction is hollow and meaningless.

At any social gatherings I don't really know what to do due to being a loner all this time. As well as feeling like a fucking freak cos of my stupid self harm scars on my hand and arm.

Not to mention dating or relationships, which I never had and in this state I won't have anytime soon...

Just laying in my bed awake at at 5am lonely for the countless night in a row and needed to vent sorry.