So uh.. during last nights psych appointment my doctor came to the conclusion that what we previously thought was a mixed episode was more mixed/euphoric mania and that now I’m in a true mixed episode. She had prescribed Ativan for when I’m manic and I told her I was worried that it might trigger a full manic episode in a mixed state like this if I take it and she said she would rather me be fully manic than in a mixed state because of the risk of suicide and all of the ideation I’ve been having and that if I was gonna be in an episode happy would at least be better. Is that.. normal? Like it just felt weird to have her kind of suggest that mania would be an “upgrade.” She’s been amazing with everything and honestly one of the best doctors I’ve seen in general ever. 

On a side note, does triggering mania to get out of a mixed state ever actually work?