I dont understand how to deal with thing when it gets bad at night. I could have a good day but I'll lay in bed wondering if I should die. I dont understand what I'm doing wrong. I dont know how to make it stop either. The whole night time breakdown thing is a newish thing for me, like usually if I'm dealing with stuff its prevalent throughout the day and not just at night. My sleeping pills dont work anymore so I can't even sleep to avoid it. I breakdown almost every night. I use what coping skills I can but I doesnt help. I'm in a good place in life and I can't enjoy it