I had never heard of BPD untill a few months ago when my last therapist started to doubt that depression was all i was suffering from, but i lost my job / insurance and transportation all within like a 2 month period so things halted for a bit.  I am back in college now after dropping out for many reasons 5 years ago and have been regularly seeing the free counseling there and last week the BPD diagnosis finally became a reality.

Im off antidepressants for now ( was on effexor), but without insurance and being in a dreaded red state there is no options to fix that.  I am meeting with my therapist again so that we can discuss some free DBT programs in the area but im really disappointed that instead of getting relief from a diagnosis, its only driven my anxiety to super high levels.  I had a crazy bad interview for a simple retail job mostly because my job history is pretty toxic and telling my parents was seemingly a mistake because somehow an official medical diagnosis is somehow and excuse and not a call for a little bit of help or sympathy.

TLDR anyone else crushed by the diagnosis of BPD even tough you could see it coming.  not really sure how my already overstressed relationships can withstand something like this