**Long post, also I’m feeling like I’m getting close to an anxiety attack typing this**

Hi everyone!

This is my first post about having health related anxiety and I know I’m probably being paranoid but I’m overthinking too much. 

So long story short, back in fall of 2020 I was having seizures for a bout a month (5 seizures total). I had a fall and hit my head in August of that year where I had to go to the hospital and get stitches. I had a second fall at the end of the end of the following September and that was when I had my first seizure.

All of my scans I had came back normal and the neurologist thinks that they were just due to head trauma and not epilepsy.

Throughout that October was when I had the rest of the seizures. During this time the neurologist got me medication and after getting it adjusted correctly I haven’t had a seizure since October 29 of 2020. I stayed with my mom for a bit while I was having them and then after a few months of not having them anymore I moved back into my apartment.

I don’t think about them much anymore and don’t generally worry about starting to have them again. 

However, I started thinking about them again recently due to a conversation I had with a friend of my moms. My mom had a small pool party/get together last Saturday. One of her friends that was there has epilepsy. She hasn’t had a seizure in 25 years but it’s still something that was part of her life.

Her and I were talking at the party and the topic of seizures came up. I mentioned that my next neurologist appointment it’ll be two years since my last seizure and the topic of coming off meds could come up. Now realistically I have a good doctor and I’m pretty sure if I mentioned I’m nervous about that she would give me the option to stay on them if that made me more comfortable.

My moms friend kind of was saying stuff like “make sure you don’t let her pressure you,” “Make sure you’re getting enough sleep, sleep deprivation can cause seizures,” “I had a seizure coming off one of my meds so just be careful if you’re thinking about coming off them!”

After that conversation I’ve been feeling really nervous and thinking about seizures the last few days. 

I know that when I think about it rationally and not let my anxiety get the best of me that my medication has been working fine the last year and a half and that my chances have actually starting to have seizures again are slim, but I think the conversation triggered some anxiety and bad thoughts - that month I was having them was a scary time in my life so thinking about it makes me anxious. 

Anyways, my moms friend is super nice and I know her heart was in the right place when we had the conversation and I’m not mad about it, it just kind of made me start overthinking is all.

I have a therapy appointment Thursday so if I’m still having anxious thoughts about it then, I’m going to mention it. I have a good therapist and I know she’ll ease my anxiety. 

I’m probably going to talk to my mom about it after work today. I don’t want her to say anything to her friend - I’m just close with my mom and she’s usually able to talk me done when I’m anxious.

Thanks to everyone who read my long post!