Short background I was kicked out at 16, homeless, moved in with a guy who offered to care for me and he got me pregnant at 17. He wanted to abort, and I’m pro choice but was raised extremely religious and personally could not go through with it, so he cheated on me and I left. My mother let me move back in, only for the baby though, and proceeded to kick me out 3 months after I had her. I spiraled back into old bad habits and found a place to live with roommates but didn’t really get a chance to heal or learn how to be a mother, and my mom took temporary custody of my daughter without my consent which was allowed because of my mental state. I met a wonderful person who I got along great with and who helped me out of a terrible situation I was in. We started dating and the year we’ve been together has been the most stable year of my life, we live together, and for the first time ever my mom actually approves of someone I’m with. We want to get married in a couple years but I need to be more mentally stable as I currently am not able to work or even get out of bed everyday. Well 2 days ago I found out I was pregnant... again. I’m terrified and feel extremely stupid and guilty. I’m still not comfortable with abortion but I’ve actually considered it this time because I don’t feel ready to be a mom still and I don’t want it to destroy my relationship. He does want children and supports my decision either way, but still has concerns about being ready for it himself as well as me not being able to handle it. But my therapist thinks I’m in a much better situation now then I was back then and thinks it would go much better now. I’m so torn and terrified. Has anyone else dealt with anything similar? Please no hate I really can’t handle it rn and I’m aware the internet doesn’t care but I’m desperate and have no one to talk to, please only kind words or advice ♥️