Hello, I was sent her by my girlfriend. I guess I don't know what I'm posting for. She brought up the point that I act like I might have BPD but I don't think I have BPD. We both have been seeing the same therapist and he's never thought I had BPD. I guess I've never told him I got raped at 16. But to be fair I didn't understand I got raped until just a few nights ago when I confessed it to my girlfriend. I also confessed all my lies. But I kept lying about my lies. And now it's been 6 days of me saying I'm done lying then lying and then admitting everything again. And now I've told her the truth but she won't believe me. The second she questions me about what I'm lying about or if I'm still lying I scream and get angry and I feel so genuinely that I hate her because I've told her asking me if im lying is mean and I resent her so much. I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess it never sounded crazy but I just wrote it all down and maybe I am crazy Because that sounds crazy. I've completed issolated myself but I used to always be social and loved having friends. I can do my Job well but after some time I don't want to be there and usually end up stop going to work and getting a new job. But I work at call centers and I don't lose my shit there. But why do I lose my shit with my girlfriend? I can feel so happy and then so betrayed and hate her and I just don't know what I am. I read your stories here and I relate to different parts but never the whole story so I don't have BPD right? But she thinks I do. I don't know what I am and I guess I'm posting for someone to help me understand what I am.