I really can't remember my reasons. I think  I might of split on him too.       
All I know is I really miss him.         
But I know it would be my last push if I lost him, so there I did it.       
But it has made my situation a bit more complicated.      
He will get the money from the flat sale, but that doesn't really bother me.        
But I've had a will made so when I do die, my dog goes to my Mum.     
I know he would really like her back, but his Nan would not let him keep her.      
Also, my Mum has been looking after her for the past few months and has a really strong bond with her now.       
Unfortunately it will take up to a month for the will to come so I can sign it, which seems unbearable to me.       
I have struggled with suicidal urges since I was 12, my first attempt was at 13.     
I have had around 13 attempts, with 7 in the last 2 years.        
I'm sick of it.       
It would make sense that I would lose the only reason to live to give me that last push.