DOE find this? I don’t think it’s connected to having BPD, maybe it’s just my chemical makeup. Anytime I drink I almost can instantly feel the effects. Weed is much worse. I recently started smoking to help cope (I felt I was drinking too much and waking up was getting difficult) I feel such a heightened sensitivity to my emotions under the influence. It’s almost like I don’t feel I’m living my own life and I’m watching it as a movie. I do feel this way sober as well. Thoughts?   