I have severe bpd, I take my meds, go to therapy, work full time, pay my bills. Whatever.... 

I try my hardest to live a somewhat stable life although BPD clearly makes me feel emotionally stable a lot of the time.

This pandemic really hit everyone hard and probably made my BPD worse and now all I want to do is take drugs all the time and get high. I try so hard not to and it annoys me. I don’t know what to do. Cause I work so hard I have the money to do it as well and that’s what annoys me even more.