So i'm on grippy sock vacation atm thanks to a sewerslide attempt (german, so its not so bad).
And today i had a moment where my normally quiet bpd became loud

So there was this girl here that i ofc instantly developed a crush on (go figure). Today she decided to leave against medical advice after just 4 days there. My dumb ass got so fucking worried about her that i had a meltdown on the spot. I was so pissed because how dare she make me worry about her? So i just started yelling about some unrelated bullshit. She tried to give me her number but i just snapped back at her "i dont want your fucking number"

Normally i can keep shit like this under wraps but this time i exploded

Luckily i calmed down before she left, she wasnt mad at me, and i got her number in the end. So it all ended well