I'm getting my tonsils taken out later this week. My mom just told me that I'm not supposed to have aspirin or ibuprofen for two weeks before the surgery or else I'll bleed out on the operating table. No one at the clinic told me about this after I scheduled my surgery and I've been taking aspirin and ibuprofen daily for my chronic headaches. 

Part of me is panicking because I need to reschedule the surgery and part of me is saying "this is fine. I want to die anyway. Why not die peacefully while under anesthesia"

I feel like I can't really admit that anywhere but here and I just needed to get it off of my chest while I'm waiting for the nurse to call me back and see if she says that I need to reschedule the surgery 