hi, i tested positive for covid this week, so i've been isolating for a few days now. i don't want to seem overdramatic or silly, but it's been causing me a lot of anxiety and i've also been dealing with my seasonal depression coming back, so i'm struggling quite a bit. i'm sorry if this post is quite long. i think i just needed somewhere to talk about how i feel. thankfully i avoided covid for all this time, and i'm fully vaccinated so i'm not too sick at all. most of my physical symptoms are clearing up.

i'm still scared though. i did see my boyfriend and my grandad a day or two before i knew i had it and i'm terrified i passed it onto them. both are also vaccinated, my grandad having his booster, so i think they will be okay. i'm scared for them though. i don't want them to go through what i'm going through right now. i don't know when i'll be able to see them again due to this and it's making me feel even worse. i really hope they'll be okay.

the issue is i can't even go on a walk outside which is one of the main things that helps with my anxiety. i have a garden, it's small, but i've been going out for a bit of fresh air. i also see my boyfriend often usually which helps, but that can't happen right now. it's not that i don't have other coping mechanisms, but i feel like i'm just stuck inside waiting for more bad news - someone else getting sick, something bad happening. this feels like a nightmare. i've always feared this happening since the beginning of the pandemic. i keep panicking all the time. there's just too much time to think.

i think what i need right now is just some kind words or reassurance. has anyone else had to isolate ?  how did you cope ? i'd appreciate any suggestions on what i can do to feel better and get through these next few days.