I'm male, I'm 25 and I live in the US. I'm a working college student. I need to heal and I need a path to being healthy. Anti-inflammatory diets, vitamins, avoiding sugar and caffeine, my own introspection... None of that is cutting it anymore. 

I got arrested for stalking relatively recently. The charges were dismissed. As part of the arrest I got a "EMERGENCY PROTECTIVE ORDER" put on me from my ex. The morning after I made bail and was released, she called me from a restricted number to make sure I'm out of jail, she felt bad. lol. In case you didn't know, she broke the law. She couldn't call me.

I don't even know what her statements were or what she said or showed them to get me arrested because they don't have to disclose that until the DA brings charges against me. 
I had no idea, I could be arrested for stalking. A FELONY. I never threatened her or anything. We never even fought or yelled at each other. She always told me things like I was a nice guy and the most affectionate guy she had ever been with. When we broke up it wasn't that bad, I just left and she told me If I needed to talk about it, we could in a couple days.

I had no idea she was going to say she was "scared of me". 


I had to hire an attorney for 7500$ and I lost my job. I have to find another job in the next couple weeks or I can be in huge financial trouble.

I know I didn't handle the breakup in a healthy way. I told her I might kill myself. I fought it. Tried not to, just couldn't stop myself. I wish I could say what I was hoping to accomplish but I don't know, I guess I wanted to know if she cared. She acted like she didn't. 10 days later I went to her apartment to apologize. She just yelled at me and told me to leave, so I did. We only live a mile from each other and we work less than a mile from each other.

Obviously, I'm not a good writer and my thoughts are scattered.

