i feel emotionally numb and when i end up getting upset; it usually comes out as anger… i’ve felt with a lot of shit and always held myself together.. but i feel like my friends hate me, i feel like a burden to my family, and i snap over really small things, for example: losing my earbuds (i use music to help me deal with things). and i’ve gotten to a point of S/A or having suicidal thoughts… i’ve talked to my parents but they never let me get therapy, and even mock me over things sometimes… and i’ve called the Suicide hotline a few times when i feel angry or lost to a point of taking it to far… i can’t tell if it’s all a phase because i’m 17, turning 18, or if i’m genuinely depressed… my girlfriend tells me i need help, and she supports me a lot, but i never know how to react about it.