I (m20) never had a relationship. Honestly I wouldn't care this much undr other circumstances but this deprives me.

Everyone around me have or had a relationship. They go to the bed happy. Either because they have someone that cares or they had a bad relationship and got out.

Don't take me wrong I'm happy for them. But seeing then happy makes me envious. I wanna be happy as they are.. But I am not.

I just feel empty inside. I have no idea whether I'm depressed or just sad.

Yes I have a crush and she does show some signs of affection (kiss om the cheek) but later also reffers to me as "friends". And this kind of relationship drives me even more sad as I don't know whether she caes or not.

I have no idea what to do. I wanna feel free to not have a relationship but I just don't. Only seeing a happy couple makes me sad.

I'm having more happy moments now (because I just don't care) but sometimes it hits me hard.

TLDR: Never had a relationship. Want one because idk what to expect and everyone is in one around me. Depressed because I don't have one.


What do I do?