I (21F) feel like I’m ruining my life more and more everyday. I don’t do anything except for sleep and occasionally shower. I can’t even eat anything because I just don’t even feel like it. I’m missing out on my life because all I do is sleep. Nothing makes me happy anymore, not even art or gaming. I see bad and cynicism in everything. I see corruption, greed, violence, and hatred everywhere I go. It’s like once I learned about how bad the world is I can’t let it go. I don’t even have friends or a social life so I can’t even let reality change my opinion. It’s getting to the point I’m so resentful for being born. 

My memory seems to be depleting and I feel so dumb. I’ve always wanted to be a doctor and go to medical school but that ship has sailed because my GPA is a 3.1. This semester I might get a C in my chemistry class so it’ll go down even more. I don’t know why I’m such a loser. I feel so pathetic for being a lazy daughter that just sits around moping. Medication doesn’t help, exercise doesn’t, and CBT therapy didn’t help either. Why can’t I just be those content humans that have regular amounts of motivation and a decent outlook on life? Worse part is, my life isn’t even that hard and yet I’m struggling. What is wrong with me?

TLDR: I’m a directionless loser with no social life, or hope for humanity, that wishes I was never born.