I have a high IQ. I was tested in high school and I am “high functioning” when it comes to studies and degrees. I can’t figure out what I want to do though. I chose a career in the mental health field (I’m pursuing psychiatry). But I can’t even begin to explain how lost I feel here. I feel ashamed because I struggle with empathy, patience and kindness sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I do feel these emotions but they come and go. I’ve always been a loner with very little social contact. Now, I’m thrust into this field where I constantly need to be social, understand people and help them understand themselves. I feel at loss, more alone and isolated. I feel like an imposter and an actor when I’m seeing my patients. I’ve at times contemplated ending it all. I don’t know what to do. I can’t get into therapy as my country doesn’t have DBT programs and my therapist in the hospital avoids me and cancels sessions with me. Finding a good therapist is very difficult in my country. 
I’m quite sure I don’t have it in me to do justice to this job. I’m struggling.