I’ve had anxiety for most of my childhood (I once had anxiety &amp; panic attacks every morning for 2 years straight in high school). In my first couple of years of college my anxiety for some reason went away, but it’s been triggered recently. I’m finishing my last year of uni and am mandated to get the covid vaccine. My parents are anti vaxxers and warned me that if I get the vaccine I’ll most likely die or have horrible life-long side effects. Not the kind of thing one would want to hear. But I got my first shot, much to their dismay, and since then my anxiety has gone haywire. I have been having trouble breathing, getting that oh so annoying lump in my throat, and always having the thought of me dying/suffering in the back of my mind thanks to my parents. I can’t even imagine my anxiety getting worse after I get my second dose. It puts my mind into a dark place. Honestly, it almost feels like my parents want me to get a horrible side effect to say, “I told you so”. I just don’t know how to help myself with this. It was a miracle that my anxiety kind of went away on its own before so now that it’s back, I can’t help but feel defeated. I have a poor health history so I can understand a bit why they’re nervous about me getting it but I just wish they didn’t try and use fear to stop me from getting it. They even threatened to pull me out of uni and my dad (who has a myriad of mental health issues himself) lost his shit when I firmly told him that I’m getting it regardless of if he wants me to or not. I’m breaking down crying every night from this anxiety and its getting harder each day for me to manage it. I wish I could afford therapy to have some sort of guidance but it’s not in the cards right now. If someone could just send some reassurance my way, it’d mean a lot.