 Do not take this as a humble brag, please. This is a nightmare.

 I'm in my 30s, and have struggled with anxiety and insomnia since I was very small. I analyze and analyze everything to the point I rarely leave the house, anymore. I had a very rough childhood and was born with mild CP, but I also tested with a 132 IQ through school. That is not a brag, it's miserable, especially in this increasing unstable society. I was a daredevil as a kid, suffered several concussions. I genuinely wish one had caused serious, irreversible damage. Please don't write someone off because they're "gifted". My family has always told me I'll be fine because of how I tested as a kid, ignoring what my neurologists told them and ignoring the fact that constantly processing input is no way to live, let alone be productive. I don't want medication, I was on it as a kid and became a zombie. It also doesn't react well with my CP in some cases and creates shakes, as a doctor found 2 years ago. Sorry this is long, need to get it out and don't want to burden the wife or neighbors. Thanks.