I’m a junior in highschool and it’s horrible. I had moved schools during the summer and so when school started, I knew no one. It was a problem but not really because I’ve never been the type to care about friends or any of that. I think it’s getting worse now though. I’ve never been the quiet type ever, anyone who knows me can tell you that. I talk, talk, and talk. I’ve just been so anxious. Is it stress? I mean there is a number of things I can be stressed about. School and basketball is stressful because it’s a lot of pressure on me. I’d be sitting in class and out of nowhere, I can just feel awful. My hands start getting sweaty, Chest starts to hurt, I feel like just becoming nothing but a sea of tears. I’m on the basketball team and I just feel so small on the inside you know. Everyone knows everyone and I’m just there. Even when they try and compliment me or talk to me. I just brush it all off. I want to be more social and build relationships this year but it’s like I can’t. I just can’t. I think they think I’m stuck-up or something. I had begun to think that maybe I had some type of Bi-polar disorder, and that made me even more anxious and sad. I don’t want to be mentally ill. Kids my age should be worried about much other things than rather or not their chest pains are due to stress or a heart attack. I get angry at myself because I can’t even be who I am. I’m just in my head now. I don’t want to take drugs but if I have to then I will. What I just typed doesn’t even summarize how I feel man. Will CBD or THC help? I just can’t continue to feel like this anymore.

I’m sorry if this seems all over the place, I’m just everywhere. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m not suicidal or anything but I do sorta wish to just be invisible. I’ve thought myself out of happiness plenty of times before and never once into it.