 (15M) I constantly feel like I am not good enough, I am surrounded by people that have their life's ahead of them, they are extremely accomplished, and just seem to be carelessly good at everything, then there's me. I like to think that I am reasonably smart at school, but I get used because of this. I guess there's just a lot going on in my head rn, I can't help but feel like if I'm surrounded by accomplishing people right now then how am I going to deal with life, I mean how can I compete in the future. I also have issues with people, I have trust and commitment issues and out of my friends there is a loud outspoken egoist who pretends to care about people, A person who is too busy with accomplishing outstanding things to talk to me, A person that never hangs out with me but makes me feel guilty when I think we're not friends because she calls me her best friend, and lastly a person who has is suffering from a difficult home life, depression and a bad breakup. Out of all these people, I want to trust them, but they don't give a fuck about me, at least not like I care about them, but I feel like it's wrong for me to stop hanging out with them, why is that??. Oh and I swear there has to be something wrong with me, I mean, I don't know, I just feel broken now, I don't have a moral code, and I'm good at lying, and I can go from feeling so good to hating myself instantly, I watch my weight and I think I could be anorexic even, and I just feel like everything is wrong with me, I don't understand people, Not like I should. When I talk to either Guys or Girls I feel the same, anxious to get away, maybe it's just from easing back into school from holidays but I'm a fucking mess rn. Lastly I want to say what is wrong with society man, everyone is always lying, no one can trust anyone, going to school everyday is like living the hunger games but everyone's pretending that they aren't, And that's just a small part of the social struggles at school, along with that there's relationships and general etiquette, and above all that there are damn exam's I'm just hurting