My boyfriend broke up with me one week ago and I don't think that he will contact me again even though nothing is clear like he broke up because he was triggered by my bpd (?) and blocked me on every social media.. 

And even though I could I don't want to get over him.. and I don't know why. We had a really good time together but the more I think about I feel like I was a terrible girlfriend.. I manipulated him to make him take care about me and always started to fight with him because I couldn't handle my BPD.. I feel horrible and he'll never know how sorry I am..

I don't know what to do or how to let him know.. Do you guys have any experience with being left and trying to get back with your partner?