I guess this is a vent. I'm kinda at the end of my line here. My doctor and i have been trying to find the right medication for me and we decided on Lamitcal. It works well to keep manic episodes at bay but it does nothing to touch my depression or anxiety.

My anxiety has become crippling in my daily life to the point where I'm scared to even leave the home alone. So crippling that every time I mustered up the motivation to meet with an employer it never gets further than the interview cause i get so anxious i ruin the first shift or get stuck in my head and don't show. 

I don't know what to do anymore. I've told my doctor countless times that my anxiety has been getting progressively worse over this horrible 3 year time span and shes never taken it seriously. I feel so hopeless, i don't believe that anything gets better anymore. I just feel scared.