So my bf (been together for 1Y and 7M) has been a good support for quite some time now. I’ve talked to him a lot about BPD and what I personally need from him as a support (ie what to do if I’m experiencing an episode, etc) so I can work on myself effectively. Things went pretty great for a while but lately, things have begun breaking down and I genuinely have no idea what to even do

So he and I have been experiencing some pretty heavy financial issues as of late that ultimately stems from when his car was totaled on Sept. 30th. I essentially had to give him $1,000 to the down payment of his new car which fucked me over financially to put it bluntly. I’m struggling for money now and it’s become so overwhelming as of late. I try to voice with him everything that’s been stressing me out but he just gets angry every single time I bring it up. I can’t even talk to him about any of this without him blowing up on me (which in turn causes me to blow up) and him saying that I’m trying to blame him for everything, etc etc 

Tonight I didn’t blow up in anger but I just felt so defeated. I just knew I wasn’t going to get anywhere. I left to go to the bedroom and I overhead him calling me a “whore” and a “cunt” and saying that I need to get the fuck out of his life (financially I can’t, even if I wanted to. I can’t get an apartment near my campus since rent in that area is far beyond my range). I completely broke down in the bedroom. Those words have a really hard effect on me too since I was SA’d when I was a teenager and he knows this

I don’t know what to do at this point. I feel like my hands are tied and I can’t even talk to him without him blowing up on me again. I feel trapped and I don’t know what to do