Hi all,

I’m going to out myself for the first time ever. I suffer from General Anxiety Disorder and have been for over 20 years. 

Since the day of my diagnosis I have been taking 20mg of Paxil daily.  For the most part I’ve weathered all the storms that had come my way.  My life was pretty darn good. 

Earlier this month I got a headache. Tension headache. I sit in front of a computer all day....so it was bound to happen.   This time however...it didn’t go away. In fact it got worse. As it got worse,  I became more anxious. The more anxious I became the worse the headache was. 

So here I am. 26 days into a tension headache and my anxiety is at the highest  it’s been in 20 years. Complete melt down last night. 

My anxiety was always driven around my health. I get a twinge or an ache....well then I must be dying. Normally I could fight it off....not now. 

3 visits to my doc and one to the er. All to treat the headache when in reality it’s my anxiety. 

My doc has asked me if i was interested in increasing my dosage. I said no. 

Today I called back....scheduled an appointment to have them increase my dosage. 

I feel defeated. I feel sad. I’m scared. 

I went from this guy who could take on the world (while on meds) to this complete mess (while on meds). 

I have an amazing wife.  I’m lucky I’m not fighting this alone. 

I’ll do anything right now to be headache free though. 

Thanks for letting me vent and for not judging me.