Hey I am 19 yo and it's feeling like my life is over. I got diagnosed 2 or 3 months ago with a bipolar disorder. But as it turns out I have afhd and a bpd or a mix of that. I don't know exactly bc my psychologist couldn't explain it very well to me.

Well now to the real problem. 2 month ago I nearly killed myself and since then I have extreme problems to leave my apartment. I get anxious when I am out there especially when I have to be around other people. My emotional state isn't really better. I had 2 relationships that were extrem but short. I got too attrached like always. My best female friend distanced herself from me because she couldn't deal with my behavior. I was clingy and spend a lot of money on her and shit I don't need.

I am really unstable in the moment. I live between I fucking kill myself I destroy my flat or I lie crying on the floor. I don't know what I should do. Everything is so fucking unstable.

How do you eh... Organize your life or deal with that problems?