I know how unhealthy this is yet I don’t know how to stop. It feels so bad to be so angry that you feel like your blood is fucking boiling. I won’t even try to get close to a person unless I think I will be their best friend and the top priority in their life. I’m disgustingly jealous and enraged if my friends even mention another person they talk to.

I get to a point with every best friend of mine where I basically cut them off because of feeling unimportant and like they don’t give a fuck about me. I care more about everyone I’ve ever met than they care about me. Anyone else struggle with this?