Almost everyone I know who is also 21 has a job, is living by themselves, is probably married at this point, and has a driver's license. Here I am having none of those things. At least for the part of not living by myself, there's a justifiable reason for it (we're in the age of COVID-19 and my parents are doing well financially). But everything else has been taking a toll on me. Because I don't have a driver's license, my parents have to drive me and my twin brother to college (something no parent should have to do) and before stepping out of the car, I have to wait before nobody is around as I don't want anybody to know that my parents still drive me to and from college. Even my youngest brother got his driver's license and I still don't have one.

I somehow feel like this is my fault. I am so lazy yet I care about independence. It's the one personality trait I want to possess the most. Yet I'm nowhere near independent. I would feel so embarrassed if any of my college friends knew about my situation. But some reason, my twin does not feel the same way despite being in the same stance I'm in.