I don’t know if this is an appropriate place to vent about this, but I’m doing it anyways. I have stuttering induced depression. Well, I guess that’s not the best way to characterize it, rather, I have bouts of depression that are exacerbated by my already horrific stutter. As long as I’ve been able to speak, I’ve stuttered. The severity of my stutter fluctuates depending on numerous factors, but for the most part it’s semi tolerable. Every since I’ve turned 18(I’m 24) though, it has been unfathomably bad. Simple utterances are extremely difficult and usually deplete my energy entirely. It doesn’t help that most people I come across perceive me as a total moron, and hey, maybe they’re right. They don’t say it explicitly, but it’s evident based on body language and how they speak to me. I know this issue is probably foreign to a lot of you as talking is effortless for most people, but it’s affected me badly. I’m an introverted guy by nature, but it’s fucking torturous to be completely unable to express myself in anyway. My interests are vast, and when I meet someone with similar interests I’ll try and build a rapport, however, the person usually loses interest immediately for obvious reasons. I’m just exhausted and want this perpetual torture to end. To make matters worse I’m beginning to become increasingly scornful towards humanity as a whole; I know that’s probably irrational, but how can I not feel that way when I’ve been ostracized so profusely? Honestly, I hate to say it, but most people are self-righteous pieces of shit, completely devoid of anything even remotely resembling empathy. Anyways, that’s it.