It all started when we started remote work and we bought a new house.

We bought the cheapest house possible in our area because we want to save more. But I'm FOMOing hard on the house I really liked. It would have been $500 more / month. We can totally afford it but opted for the cheap one that neither one of us liked.

On top of that, after living here for a year our neighbor's mentally ill son decided to burn our vehicles. We lost all our cars and our garage was damaged too. I won't go into details how we know it's him, but we do and the police do too. (He burned 35 cars in my area)  Not enough physical evidence to charge him tho. He still constantly walks through our driveway when he goes in and out of his house, we can see on our camera.

And after 2 yrs of living here, our other neighbor had to leave cause landlord wanted to sell. The new owner that bought the house turned it into a slum for maximum rental profit. 

So we are sandwiched in between a crazy pyromaniac and a slum. I can't have peace in my own home. It is eating me away mentally. If we had bought the slightly more expensive home, we would be starting our family already. But instead I feel so trapped and stuck here. 

We can't sell and buy again cause housing market price and rate are insane. We can't rent out and rent somewhere else either due to rental income after tax won't cover mortgage. 

The frustrations and regrets are real. The feeling of being stuck, helpless, vulnerable have been slowly transferring into my job and my relationship. Working remote doesn't help either cause it's a constant reminder of my living situation. My relationship also feels stagnant cause we both are on edge and instead of growing, we've just been escaping and distracting ourselves.