I mean not the usual way of getting traumatized and then devoloping depression because of it. I mean the other way around… 
I have derealization and depersonalisation disorder followed by depression and anxiety. 
Sometimes I feel traumatized by the horrible things that I felt when I‘m depersonalized. And also I‘m extremly afraid of my depressive episodes… It‘s probably not enough to call it trauma, right? 
But how do I cope with this fear of mental illness? I feel like this fear of DP/D sometimes works as a selffulfilling prophecy which makes everything worse….