I don't understand what's going on... 5 days ago I was good. I saw things clearly, not emotionally or through the lens of insecurity and fear. I didn't overthink people's actions or words. I didn't have paranoia. I didn't split. And then.. the paranoia crept in, the insecurity overwhelmed me, and my fear gripped me. I started acting out and even my dreams turned to nightmares. I know not all BPDs are female but I swear this happens around my period every fucking month. What is going on? I hate this.. I feel completely unstable.