So it happened again

Uhhh I keep going through these cycles of impulsive behavior with uncontrolled feelings. I feel like I’m fine and stop taking any medication. Then my relationships start getting rocky and drama happens. I have a breakdown and have to deal with this. Then I start to recover and then fall into the same sort of trend. Then, as I just had a moment like this, I realize “oh, wow. You’re actually behaving very irrationally and are completely out of control.” I lack so much perspective and then all of a sudden I’m like oh wait. Probably get healthy and productive again. Yk do normal things and stop obsessing and blocking people. You’ve actually been a lil bat shit for who knows how long. 

Here’s to maybe keeping the crazy in check before it gets out of hand again.

I need a routine and hobbies fuck ME