im exhausted. i graduated this past year and applied to college. i enrolled and im going through picking classes, getting my supplies, meetings, and setting up loans. im terrified. if im being honest i have no idea what i’m doing when it comes to college. im the first in my family. the issue im having is the extreme unmotivated mindset i have. i can barely get out of bed. i dont have a job because of it. i do feel bad for not working but it causes me to slump more into a depression. i’ll lie there all day looking up jobs and never apply. i end up sobbing and having panic attacks because i feel like such a bum. but i seriously cannot get out of this slump. i only found out i have BPD a couple months ago and im waiting for therapy. is there anything i can do to pull myself out?