i’m so sad right now i don’t know what to do. backstory: i just graduated highschool this summer and due to being sick for 4 years i missed out on a lot of things that i’m trying to make up for now (on a gap year).my dream is to study dance at university and i have practice almost every day and compete. 

now to the point- a relative from my home country called and talked to my dad, they asked about me and what i was doing to which my dad replied “she graduated and now she doesn’t do anything”, relative asked wether i wanted to go to university and he said “no, but maybe one day she will” relative then asked if they don’t push me to do something to which my dad replied “no i can’t be bothered”

he made it sound like i have absolutely nothing going on in my life, he didn’t even mention that i compete or train every day. my bpd has been pretty good lately but i feel like i’m gonna have an episode again, i’m literally crying because he probably isn’t proud of me and i don’t want to do dance anymore. i cant start studying right now because i have to prepare myself for auditions and take some time off responsibilities and just focus on my passion but now i’m second guessing myself.