I want to explode and I want to hurt them and I want to expose them… but I don’t because I know my FP doesn’t want me too… everyday I try to act like everything is okay but I have this sadness and rage that doesn’t go away and I dissociate a lot and I don’t even want to talk to other people anymore… I don’t understand why I’m acting this way if I’m not the one who got raped… but the predators were my squad that I would always hang with and we clicked. I do feel very betrayed but I think it’s changing me as a person i never thought such bad thoughts of someone and it scares me… I honestly want to hurt them… I want them to suffer… and what sucks the most is I understand what my FP went through cause I’ve been raped lots of times in my past so this happening to him brings all my trauma back too… so sometimes I want to hurt myself too I want to be a good girlfriend and be there and I do but I’m having a hard time because I’m going through it too… I am just stupid and not strong person… I’m a loser :(