oh my fucking god i have not been this excited for a long time, holy shit. she is everything now. she will fucking love me. having a manic up episode now. ahhhh. so fucking excited. i am ready for the next horrible mistake. fuck it. i will be fine. FUCK IT. we will all find love eventually, but lets play a game once in a while. oh man i am manic now. she is everything. i fucking love her even though i know i dont.