Just as the tittle implies I'm the issue I always was and I always will be I'm only writing here to voice it because if I say it to anyone I'm suddenly throwing a pitty party and they lie and act like it wasn't me who got myself and others into the situation at hand my fear is I will never learn to not be the issue I just wish I was normal I wish I wasn't problematic I wish I didn't make up excuses for myself and try to convince myself I'm in the right but honestly most of all I wish I never caused the problems I have is there any fixing them maybe but will I still always have to deal with repercussions yes and for that I'm sorry for everyone around me who also has to deal with the repercussions of MY actions I'm truly and completely sorry