It seems im stuck in Limbo in my Life. Im not really sad, but far from happy. Now the reason why i feel like this, is because of my disability. Autism, its mostly Autism that holds me back. 

It seems i will spend the rest of my life in some home for disabled, i will always have a legal guardian, i will always be on disability benefits. It seems i dont have any possibilities in life to grow, to achieve something.

But i also of course cant fall deeper, than im already. Im in Limbo, theres no way out, i just exist, im here, i try to escape reality with whatever possibilities i have. It doesnt really make me happy, but atleast i dont go completely insane.

But why should i keep living, when i will spend the rest of my life just existing, and trying to escape reality? When im in reality most of the time miserable? And like imprisoned by my disability?