In desperate need of some advice. 
I’ve been in a relationship for about a year now. my fiancé enjoys the occasional porn. Or just looking at half naked girls. We’ve had some really big discussions on how that makes me feel. Lots of tears from both side, we both really care about each other despite what I’m about to say. 
So, when the things I just mentioned happen. I get this intense feeling of rejection. I try pushing the negative feels away and not mention it to him. Even though I know I probably should explain how it makes me feel. 
But then comes this horrible emotional reaction of seeking attention where I absolutely shouldn’t. I don’t want to keep hurting him. And I’ve been really trying to understand my emotions as well as the root cause of this reaction. It’s never meant to hurt him, it just tends to be my reaction to feeling rejected. I would love some advice as to how to stop the cycle or even some talking points. Really anything would be fantastic. 
Thanks in advance 💛