That’s when I was first diagnosed bipolar to rapid cycling… Since then I have lost a lot of things.. mostly my social life. I was “normal” in high school had friends and a job. Now I have no life at all. My anxiety stops me from doing everything.. my ability to overthink in every situation is super powered. Any friends I had have been pushed away. How can you be lonely terrified and so badly wanna make friends all at the same time. 

I had a close friend group… for a super long time.. and everyone grew away from me.. I haven’t been able to move on. I’m worried all people will now do this to me.