I have been in and out of mental institutions since I was 13 for fits of rage and self harm. First I was diagnosed with adhd bipolar 2 for 20 years. Never really felt any mania just extreme lows. Next I was diagnosed schizo effective which I do agree with because I have auditory hallucinations. One therapist suggested I may have bpd a few years back, but no one near me wanted to believe it so they suggested I see a new therapist. I knew little about bpd and dismissed it. The last few years have been a kamikaze of fuck ups and I stopped all treatment. I was suggested a video about bpd and I exhibit all 9 traits. I thought I was an empath lol. Called a doctor and am resuming treatment now that I have a target and I agree with a diagnosis I hope I can finally kill this demon that makes me hate myself.