I'm tired of knowing it's my fault.
Tired of knowing that there are people who have been through worse and are better off than me. 
Tired of trying and trying, but finding nothing. 
Tired of being over a quarter of a century old and having to ask my father for help. 
I am not able to clean my teeth or have normal hygiene. Much less can I work.
I don't produce. 
I am worthless. 
I am tired. Tired of people telling me that nothing is wrong while they look at me with sad eyes.
Tired of the "solution" being chemistry and still staying the same.

I'm hanging on a rope that is about to break.
I am not afraid.
I know that nothingness is coming. 
I just have to wait.