I feel like im faking depression because i usually don't act/look sad. I'm Literally so happy every day i could win an award that has "happiest person on earth" on it, yet i still manage to have depression somehow. I mean, yeah i have a mom who rarely hits me and/or yells at me because of small things i messed up but She's just doing that so i can learn from it.

I don't think i have depression anymore, these are just most likely overdramatic moodswings and i pretend like i have a serious illness. I want to stop. I wanna stop pretending like this is real when i know It's not. Like one day i would be sad as fuck, crying, having a breakdown then on the next day i'm acting like the most cheerful person who has ever touched earth.

I feel so fucking stupid every time i vent to a friend because i know that i am most likely faking this shit and i'm just bothering everyone i talk to.

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please just help me so i can stop faking it, because i am 100% sure that i'm only doing this to get attention. Sorry for bothering you.