Skip to the last paragraph if you just want to read how I've coped with having an fp who has been out of my life for over a year.

My fp was a guy I hooked up with who basically told me I was the most perfect girl he'd ever met and introduced me to all his friends, only to suddenly ghost me except for hookups and told me not to talk to him in public. I cut him off a little over a year ago now, and I'm not gonna lie, it hurts like hell to not have him in my life. It hurts, but reaching out hurts more bc I know he will always lead me on just to disappoint me. 

I've learned to cope by relying on my friends for emotional support and pursuing other activities that I find fulfilling. Not gonna lie, quarantine has helped a lot since I haven't had to be on campus with him, but opening up to my friends about my experiences and building a stronger emotional support network has helped me a lot with coping (as well as learning about how shitty of a person he is lol).