So, yesterday after not being able to see a doctor to talk about medication use, I told my partner I thought I was having a depressive episode because all I wanted was to curl up in bed and watch Netflix and not do anything. My partner and I have been together for 2 years. But, in response to my statement, he says" well you can't, you have things to do." And, when I cry, he tries to " fix it" and tells me to stop crying. So, I didn't cry in front of him; I went to my best friend's apartment after eating with him at a restaurant. And, I cried as soon as she let me in the door. Her and I talked and watched Netflix. Then, I came home really late. When I came home, I noticed I kept getting stuck on his words when he would say anything and it just escalated the situation. He now understands that I just want him to listen and be empathetic. But, I can't tell when my own responses to things are self sabatoge or if they are appropriate. I've also realized that when I go into a depressive state, I don't want him to talk to me and his voice is annoying. And, I feel bad for saying this but it's true. I also feel like my own partner can't relate to me emotionally.