Sooooo,

I was discharged from inpatient in 2018. After a 5 month admission, with multiple attempts and SH episodes. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Previously I’ve been diagnosed with bulimia, depression and anxiety

Since, I’ve been at uni, and moved on with life. 

But this tiny part of me really really misses it. I often think about things I could’ve done if I was still there. Since leaving, I’ve had to hide my mental illness. I’ve got no therapy for the first time in 5 years, and my GP want to stop my medication for no reason (despite me telling them I cannot function without it, so I’m changing GP’s)

But, I’m always stuck with this kind of ideal world where I’m still there, and I can act on my impulses and I could tell people how I feel. My time in a mental hospital was horrific, but it kind of felt freeing to be able to be open about how I feel, and act on my impulses. 

Has anyone felt the same??