It is very contradicting knowing some of us feel the need to be in relationships knowing we can’t or shouldn’t. For me, personally, being in a relationship is like I’m on drugs and I hate feeling like this. I’m tired of putting myself through the mental and emotional stress knowing I do love the person or people I value. I love the high feeling I get when things are okay but hate when everything seems to be crashing down. Almost feels like I’m a volcano and will explode.