I'm sharing this here because I dont know who else to share it with and I needed to tell someone! 

But I am so incredibly happy right now, my boyfriend who I started seeing at the beginning of the year, told me he loved me last night. 

The relationship that we have is so healthy, open and honest. We are both so good at communicating and setting boundaries. He really listens to me and validates my emotions. He makes me feel ok in being me. Ok in being emotional and irrational sometimes. Ok in being low and Ok in not having good days all the time. 

I am myself when I am with him and he loves me!!! This time last year I was in hospital, 7 months ago I was convinced I was going to be single forever. That I was incapable of ever being in a healthy relationship (I have been treated badly in the past). Now I am here, and I am with him, and I am so happy. 

Even on my days when I am bad, he doesnt judge me, nor does he try and fix me. He just lets me cycle through it. I am so lucky and so grateful I have meet him when I did. 

He makes me feel safe. He makes me feel secure. He fills me with hope and love.

Awww I'm so happy ❤❤❤