
Sorry if my English is weird it's not my first language.

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I don't have any diagnosis yet but it's on it's way, I'm asking if you relate to this, and if so how do you get through. 

I fully understand that no one here as qualifications to put a diagnostic (I've read the rules haha) but for now my psychologist doesn't know about this situation.

I really hope I'm not being biased with what I've read online about bipolarity but I recognize myself in a lot of the symptoms described.

I'm only 22 years old though.

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Right now I'm starting one of those phases where I'm really depressed. I don't eat very much and I spend a lot of time sleeping, binging series or doom scrolling. I lost a friend and a social circle so I won't be able to go out before a while.

Starting at the beginning of the summer I've made friend with someone where I lived and got to spend a lot of time with him meeting other people (which is unusual for me). I was very motivated and happy to finally spend time with other people and would go out a lot.

After that, thing started to get ''slower'' and I went out less often. I was glad to see people but I found it to be kind of exhausting and at some point I would only meet the friend I've made in the first place. 

Last week I renounced entering a scholarship which I've been waiting for because I got scared of it for multiples reasons. Things has gone down since and I entered a very dépressive phase which made my friend leaving.

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Earlier in my life I've already been having many very similar paths/situations (that I can describe if necessary).

It was actually a long-time friend of mine who pointed out that these behaviors tend to be repeated over a long period of time

I do see a psychologist but haven't talked with her of this yet and I won't be able to see her before two weeks. I only take lamictal, thinking that it acts as a mood regulator (I took it in the first time because of epileptic seizure which where actually due to alcohol abuse).

If you have any tips on how to get through this for now I would very much appreciate it.

Thank you for reading all of this