Ugh I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel stuck. Everyday I’m stuck just overthinking every little aspect of my life. Criticizing myself for things that happened years ago that don’t even actually matter. I’m stuck dreading what’s going to happen next to the extent of full blown paranoia. I’m fucking sick of blaming myself for EVERYTHING. I’m stuck feeling guilty for ruining everything around me. Every time I try to talk to somebody they just tell me “go on meds” and I fucking hate that idea. I’ve been diagnosed with numerous mental issues and I’ve always tried not to focus so much on the label but just focus on what is best for me but at this point I don’t even know what that is anymore. I tried medication years ago for about a years worth of time and I didn’t feel any better but I’m sick of hurting those around me and I’m tired of feeling like the biggest piece of shit in the world. I honestly am not even real sure what this post is for but ig I’m just venting so thanks for listening ig