FP decided it was best to change the title of our relationship, of course I panicked immediately after. 

I thought they were going to leave me or disown me of the sort. They said they’re always here for me, I don’t know how they deal with me or they put up with my wild accusations. It hurts knowing that I did nothing wrong but you always feel that you were at fault, you always feel that there’s someone else that is better than you when there isn’t. 

I accidentally lashed out at them, I feel so gross about it. They understand my condition and they understand what I’m going through and how difficult it is. I’m trying so hard to get better about how I put things.

This condition is a struggle but I understand I have to better myself.