My mom knows exactly what my emotional tripwires are, and sometimes she sets them off on purpose for what I assume is to make herself feel powerful or in control. 

I remember one time she did this we fought so badly that she physically pushed me into a door frame, which left a mark on my arm for around two weeks. I threatened to call the cops on her (since she’s the one who initiated the physical violence) but she told me that she would tell the cops I was out of control so they would lock me up in a mental hospital. I know how manipulative my mom can be so I just didn’t call them. 

I don’t live with her anymore, but the only reason I don’t is because I chose to go into more debt than needed so I can live on my own while attending school. I could at any point lose tuition money and would either be homeless or forced to move back in with her. 

Thinking about it makes me emotional and irrational and idk what to do about it.