it’s been a pretty rough week but the past two days i had shifts at the piercing shop i work at and got rly good feedback and enjoyed it a lot, plus i got to call with my best friend overseas which was wonderful. i had a shift today at a bakery ive been at 4 months now, i was pretty tired and dreading uni work tonight but trying to be cheerful with customers. 

except as we were closing a customer yelled at me and called my service and attitude “disgusting” and claimed i was rolling my eyes at him and everyone in the store hated me. it shook me so bad i started crying as he started complaining to my manager and now i don’t know what to do. all my coworkers were lovely about it but it really set off my bpd, wondering if everyone does think i’m terrible at my job with a bad attitude and im just not aware of it because of my bpd. none of my coworkers heard our interaction before he started yelling but i literally just asked him to slow down in what he was asking for and to give me a minute. now i’m wondering if that was out of line and if i’m going to get fired or if i need to quit but i can’t afford to lose this job. i hate myself