maybe our problem is that we had high hopes.
«standard of success or happy life»
everything starts from kindergarten, we are taught to be friendly, sociable, decent, and after -school, study well blah blah just maybe in the beginning some dude did everything and people took his experience as an example and it became a standard, but if you don’t sociable or withdrawn means you are somehow not like that, broken.
and no one has ever said to our faces that they say «no, my friend, you have too high hopes for life.»
we have always been introduced, they say if you do everything right you will directly come to success
and then those people disappear
and you remain in the middle of the abyss where there is absolutely no one and nothing
you scream "what's next?" and silence in response
and you start running in the dark but it's just running in circles you won't get anywhere)
After doctors diagnoses drugs "be stronger" "you can handle it" "don't give up"
everyone wants to motivate you…….
in the end you always want to be where there is nothing
no light no time no soul no sound
absolutely nothing