My partner is so sweet and loving, I adore him and he adores me. But I can’t shake the notion that I’m worthless, that he’s too good for me. I’m so scared I’ll hurt him and he’ll have to leave me. 

I do my best to be healthy, I try not to voice my insecurities because I truly don’t think it’s healthy to put that shit onto him, he isn’t and shouldn’t be a therapist to me. But when he calls me beautiful as we’re laying in bed together, I can’t help but look away as I grab the blanket and curl my body into a tiny ball. When he tells me I’m kind and a good person, my eyes water and all I can think of is that I’m not. He expresses so much sweetness and tenderness all the time to me, but all I can think of is how unloveable and undeserving I am of the happiness he gives me. 

I can’t shake myself. I’m trying to unlearn these beliefs but it’s harder than I thought. But I want to get past this because I think this is the best, healthiest and happiest relationship I’ve been in, and I want to be well to be with him.