Hello fam jam, I got some stuff I wanna talk through and whether or not any of you have experienced similar things. I’ve notice over the last year I’ve had an increasing appeal to domination and sadism. These things kinda alarm me because that kinda stuff has never appealed to me before. I think part of the domination thing is definitely the idea of being in control of a situation so people can’t abandon me, and the sadistic thing is an outlet for the intense anger I feel towards people who’ve triggered me. Idk 

I was talking to someone else who has bpd about this and they said they actually swing towards sub-masochist because they felt secure with a dom and they felt relief from the pain that they were inflicted with. 

Any of y’all got anything to say about this kinda stuff? Similar experiences? Thoughts?