Hi all, I’m fairly new to this group and so this is my first post. But does anybody else get this really weird feeling when you get closer to someone? If I ever get close to this someone, I sometimes just get this feeling that I don’t want to be around them anymore, at least for a while. And lol sometimes I feel like I’m somewhat embarrassed of them(??) like I wouldn’t want people to know that I’m Very close to them (don’t mind if people know I’m friends with them, in case somebody asks about this). And wouldn’t want to be with them in public for a while. 

It is definitely some form of self sabotage, but I don’t know, I thought I was over feeling like that (it was a trend at some point in my life where I’d feel like that with everyone), but recently someone told me they think of me as their best friend and that they literally tell me everything and ever since I’ve just been weirded out and barely want to speak them and want to get away from them for a while. So is this like….a bpd thing? Or a “Im just a very weird person who has the tendency to be rude” thing? Wondering if anybody else felt like that or has advice On this.