Psychotic major depressive disorder &amp; sociopathic narcissistic personality disorder.
Both of these i feel i have learned to manage, but i can slowly see myself turning back to the person i used to be. The affects are always there, and i always have to think twice about what i say and do but… slowly i feel like it’s becoming harder to hold these thoughts at bay. 
I’m starting to lose interest in literally everything, hopelessness is setting back in, and my ability to care about how others feel is starting to wither away. I don’t want to become the person i used to be, but i find myself at moments of weakness allowing myself to. 
I was prescribed 300 mg of Wellbutrin almost a year and a half ago but i stopped it as i felt that i no longer needed it for my depression. I don’t believe there are any medications for SNPD, but i’m almost intrigued to find out. 
I feel like i’m destroying potential relationships and it’s becoming harder and harder to care about consequences or the feelings of people i care about…
I watched my mother cry about a month ago, and the first thing that came to mind was disgust instead of worry. I almost find it annoying when friends tell me their issues, and yet i know that these thoughts are bad. It feels like i’m faking or lying when i say that i care or act as if i do. 
I just want to go back to normal… and i don’t think i know how.