Several years ago I was about to have a son.  About a month before he was born I was raped by a man.  After it happened I was luckily able to get some sweet revenge (a severe beating from me when the drug wore off and I realized what happened.).   

I tried to hide what happened from my family but ultimately I think it just took a toll on me mentally.  I've been diagnosed with ADHD PTSD anxiety depression and bipolar both before and after this incident.  I feel like I have developed a bit of a personality disorder since then and I ended up blowing up my relationship with my sons mom.

I've been able to salvage the relationship enough to be able to coparent or at least parrallel parent my son without a custody agreement but I really dont know where to go now.  Maybe I should try going back on medication but I've hated all the pills I've tried.   It's been getting to the point where it really impacts my ability to work and I think I need to do something relatively soon because I'm tired of starting over.

Does anyone have any experience with the new brain scans?  Do they work, any positive or negative experiences would be appreciated. 

I'm not going to kill myself because I need to be alive for my son but I did try a couple years back my taking all my medications but obviously I survived.