I had a meltdown a few days ago. I just didn't want to go to work and I impulsively quit after a few no shows due to me being sick from not taking care of my dietary health and having gastrointestinal issues.  I basically slept in for two days and ate carbs. I was also really distant from my family whose super clingy and affectionate , especially my terminally ill grandpa and I got really aggressive and antisocial for a few days which made everyone worry about me. Which gave me more of a reason to quit my job somehow. I just made any excuse not to go in and called out. My family doesn't know they won't want me to lie but also very overprotective and would worry to much if I quit and not give me the space I need. I am keeping up the lie that I am working while I look for other jobs and try to study for college. Just now that I'm out of medicine and can't afford it plus seeing a new therapist.  I really need anything right now because I can't afford 150 per session for a dbt specialist and I'm not diagnosed but I have been to him once and what he said really helped but its too much money , especially when I can only hold down a part time job. I'm just stressed about really affording everything.  I asked my dad for some money I'm assuming he will pay, I'm just sad that I can't do this myself after 2 years .