I’m a grown woman. Nobody wants to hear from me. That I’m in emotional pain. That I feel invisible. It’s boring to people now. 

Texting the hotlines to get some pretense that someone cares when I know no one actually does. It’s easy to just say that they do.

Please don’t misunderstand this and think that I’m talking about self harm because that’s not something I’m going to do but sitting here in a pile of my tears isn’t what I want either.