
I have been constantly thinking about these thoughts for the past months. i suffer with depression and sometime's i fear of thinking about my loved ones, reminding myself that they could have forgotten about me causing my mental state of health to deteriorate faster. i'm completely sick of feeling this empty everyday is the same. i'm pathetic. i just want to feel something else rather than this constant dread. i'm not doing anything anymore now. i'm just simply existing for no reason. everyday is just a cycle of nothingness and ignorance but the worst part is that i can't bring myself to change, 'cause of the weak mentally i developed over the year. it's really tiring me at this point. sometime's i feel like there is no reason for me to be devastated and overwhelmed with emotions bacause i feel like my own mental problems are compared small to others. which is why i invalidate my own feeling of thoughts.