I’m a 20 years old gay Medical student living in the middle east (extremely homophobic country).
 my family would disown me for sure if they knew about my sexual orientation and would never accept me for who i am, my dad might even kill me.
Last year i got depressed due to several factors academic stress, me being gay in homophobic country etc.. and I genuinely thought about suicide so i decided to meet a psychiatrist back then.
i didn’t feel comfortable sharing the fact that i’m gay so i just told him my depression is most likely due to the academic stress andfamily issues.
he started me on anti depressant but it didn’t really help and i don’t think i ll be ever be happy..
Some people told me to escape the country when i graduate and get my degree but i don’t think i ll be able to make it and my odds are tremendously low so theres no point in trying.