

I have struggled with Anxiety for years always been the fear of death, started randomly with me having having grasps of breath and sometimes feeling like I don’t get enough air, all got worse when I started suddenly getting chest pain here and there and searching up on google (wich we all know makes it all worse) I have had 6 EKG tests in the last 3 years. It’s the hearth I fear the most for sometimes cancer and sometimes my brain, I know people will say “life is more scary and fearful” but the thing is I LOVE life even tho my life is far from perfect and I’m afraid of the pain my family will go trough if I was to die and my close friends, I Also fear me dying while being awake like getting a hearth attack and feeling it happening. I don’t work right now either (not bc of the Anxiety) but this togheter with the Anxiety makes my sleeping schedule terrible, I also have a lot of muscle Knots and pain bc of I rise my Shoulders bc I’m Anxious. If I get a massage my breathing and everything gets better for a short hour maybe and then it’s back…. I really don’t know what to do… the worst thing about this is the Sleep I want to sleep like I did a couple years ago, I’m 19 y old going in to 20 in September