I feel like my brain is fucking mush. I can barely think. I can't communicate with people. I can't hold conversations. I'm trying to go back to school and am struggling with basic community college courses. It's absolutely pathetic. I've been out of school and isolated for too long. I've drank too much alcohol and done so many psychadelics that my brain is fried. I'm fully sober now but it doesn't matter. I feel like I'm going to be resigned to working a job that doesn't pay a living wage for the rest of my life. I used to be a pretty good student in high school but I took what little intelligence I had and stomped it out. The fact that I threw away a chance at a decent life kills me. Now I'm at an age where I'm stuck with whatever I have and whatever I am. Sorry for the rant/rambling.