

I just started on Zoloft to treat one of my many symptoms and I kinda have a clearer head and I been trying to isolate my different experiences from childhood trauma, anxiety, my anger outbursts at work, violence, manipulation, lies I've told my family, friends, my past relationships now I made this  internal realization that scares me.

I said this to myself..... 

Everybody are characters in my immersive movie and I can manipulate the story however I want. I subconsciously loved the idea of creating a false sense reality for people and use it to twist their heads and hurt them.

What does this mean am i I'm psychotic. I never knew I did this until now.  Im even starting to recall things I did to people and I'm like wow I can't believe that that's me that did that. This "ME“ tells myself I would never do that but when I have that "thing" that triggers there's no controlling my emotions and this other person comes out like I'm watching it play out in a movie. 😭😭😭