It feels like everytime I try to not be an asshole and leave a pointless fight alone, I get attacked. I couldn’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to be compassionate or friendly with my family and I end up pissed off, inconsolably sad, and lying in bed, exhausted by the end of the day. I always end up with the thought, “Why did I even fucking try? I’m meant to be alone.” And revert back to being distant and cold. I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong and being around people is so tiring and not worth it at this point. Does this happen to anyone else?