Recently broke up with my bf, due to him betraying my trust many other reasons. I have so many mixed feelings about it, I know it was the right decision cause I just can't trust him anymore and it won't work for me as ill just drive myself insane staying with him exclusively. yet us moving on has hurt me so much. were so separate now, and it hurst to see how we use to be together 24/7 all lovey dovey and what not. And now we are noticeably distant. it hurts to see us grow apart honestly. Its hitting me so hard today. he seems to be handling it fine and that  makes me feel worse lol. IT dosent help either that we live together and i have a lease with him til august. im depressed having a hard time caring at trying to do better at life as i feel hopeless and have been for awhile....idk what the point of this was, but idk it just feels right now that things are not going to get better, idk what to do, life feels pointless as the days go on, i drink cause thas the time i feel warm and free but i know this is a bad path for me, but cant seem to find a better purpose