(CW Substance Use)

I have plenty of friends and stuff, it’s just soooo tiring to go out in public to hang out all the time. Lately I haven’t even been leaving my room, I’ll just text friends 24/7 and leave the house when I need to go to work/buy food.

It’s kind of isolation but without the negativity of feeling lonely. I also find it soooooo much easier to talk about how I feel to friends/romantic interests when I have a few minutes to gather my thoughts and put it down in a coherent text.

If I do feel like being social I will just get someone to call me. And when things start getting dark I FULLY isolate by smoking weed, chucking on headphones and listening to music in the dark until I go to sleep.

When I do go out (usually once a week, sometimes as much as every 3 weeks) I find it’s easier to have a fun and remain light hearted because all the dramatic stuff has been dealt with online previously.