It's pretty much the title honestly. I went into therapy yesterday expecting to talk about the depression I experience but instead got Simi diagnosed with bpd. She didn't say bpd to me but instead said emotional dysregulation disorder and I didn't put the pieces together until that night. The more I look at bpd symptoms the more I see the parts of myself I deeply hate and regret and I am so scared that this isn't something that can be fixed for me. Since then I've slept really shittaly and I'm incredibly anxious that I'm going to hurt my boyfriend accedentally (I sort of have been although I don't think he understands it yet) I've seen a lot of stuff on this subreddit talking about "favorite people" as in people you think about obsessively, and "breaking" as in leaving and as much as I unfortunately relate to these terms I don't really understand what that has to do with bpd. If anyone could explain or help me understand exactly what this diagnosis means for me I would really really appreciate it. I'm 17 btw