I am a 22F with cyclothymia \[a milder cousin of bipolar\] and I am on escitalopram for the past 2 months. I dont take any mood stabilisers as I had side effects from trying one previously so my psych decided to put me off any. Anyhoo, i wanted to ask what do you guys do when you have severe bouts of hopelessness and depression. These past couple of weeks have been horrible. I dont feel like doing anything at all. everything feels pointless. i am tired and sleepy all the time. hungry and bingeing on food all the time but still not feeling full. I am going to my psych today for a refill and will bring this up, but i just wanted to see how others deal with this. I remember feeling something akin to this a few months back but my meds then improved this to the point that i realised how i was so depressed back then. and now its back to that same place again. i am sorry for not sounding coherent, but i just wanna get it off my chest. 

i have so much work piled up and chores and stuff to do but it all feels so pointless, like why should i do it if i could be doing nothing at all. things dont seem worth it anymore at all. what im worried abt even more is that lets say my next set of meds improve this for a while, what if this repeats again. and there are bouts of this depression followed by some good days and so on. it is making my life so inconsistent, idk anything anymore.