Therapy did help, a LOT, I'm a 29 years old french woman (so please excuse my mistakes), and I'd definitely wouldn't be there without all that work. But heck, every week-end, every moment I spend on my own is a dive to a deep end. I need people to keep me anchored. I'm also fighting with an eating disorder, have been for most of my life. I'm not stuck and I can see all the progress that I've made the last few years but I also see everyone else "building a life".
Sometimes I feel like I'm watching everything from the sidelines.

Yes, my childhood was shitty, it could have been worse, but it was hell for me. I worked through that and still, I can't get rid of some behaviors.

I don't know why I'm writing here, I guess I just need to talk to people who actually know depression, because honestly most people don't.

I'm not asking for a solution, I just want to talk to you and exchange on it. Have a lovely day/night