I have a crappy life. I work a job that i don't like. I am living in a place that i hate.  I love a girl that i can't have. I have a very limited social life.

All i do in my day is getting up at 7a.m with my sad/ dead mood. I go to work until 6 p.m. I go back home exhausted and aching. Then i get stuffed for dinner. Then i spend 2/3 hours on my phone and then i jump into bed. 
Rinse and repeat. Every day is the same.
I have no escape except time. In 2 years i will move away, change job and hopefully have a better life in a place i like. But right now i have to stick with this job because its near to where i live, the salary is pretty decent, and it is a good experience to put in my resume, even if it's not what i wanted to do nor what i was prepared to do.
But right now i only do work, eat and smoke cigarettes.
2 years are long to pass in such conditions trust me.
 
On top of that, when i have my mind empty from other things, my thoughts always go to a girl that for distance/various things i can't get with. I really would jump into the fire for her but that doesn't matter when you are thousands of miles away.

All that is silly, like what's the point of all that. I only have hope left. Don't worry i'm not suicidal, i wouldn't wanna die but, hell, it is hard to do such a life.
At least i still have hope. Maybe someone calls them illusions, but it's worth a shot. I can't be worse than that anyway. What do i have to lose? My peace? My happiness? 
Now it' midnight, i have to get my few hours of sleep before getting a cigarette, jump into my car and rush to work all over again.
Sometimes the pain gets more intense, but i can't do anything than try to clean my mind and go on like a robot.

Sorry to bother you