I had dp/dr and panicked about there being something wrong with me, either a brain tumor or I was going “crazy” or gonna develop schizophrenia. I got over this fear with acceptance. 

But now I have this irrational fear of becoming a murderer? It’s really weird, I don’t even have many intrusive thoughts related to harm like with harm ocd. I have no violence in my past, no anger issues, and I’m really loving and kind. A leftest lil anxious boy lol. But for some reason, anytime I read a story about murder, or serial killers, or really fucked up people. I get hit with this fear that one day I’ll change and become evil like them. “If they could do that, then could I ever do that?” Especially the cases of people who seemed like normal people then became a murderer. I feel so ridiculous and stupid for this and it’s really f-ing annoying. I’ve never wanted to hurt anyone. So all day I look up cases to find similarities, look up sociopath traits and narcissist traits, trying to find people with similar fears. 

And the thing is, people with harm ocd get intrusive thoughts about harming people a lot, I don’t get them hardly ever. It’s just the obsession of what if. It bothers me so much and is taking a lot out of my life. 

Has anyone ever had this fear? What could be wrong with me?