Me and my partner are together for over 4 years but lately we're having more and more hurtful fights since my mental health is in a bad state. He says I make everything about myself, but I try so hard not to... I've been very self-destructive and the feeling of guilt is not bringing me anywhere. I feel so damaged and not worth of anything, toxic, narcissist and so on as well as angry I have to exist at all. I may be afraid of changing since I already have an obscure view of myself. I don't know what to do, we're sleeping in separate rooms :(((