I was diagnosed w/ adhd several months ago and have tried concerta (methylphenidate) and vyvanse (lisdexamphetamine). They have helped with some aspects but my life has continued to spiral out of control despite that. Avoidance of my stressors (right now being falling behind in school and the upcoming major life change of graduating and getting a real apartment, real job etc) + hyperfocus/anxious obsessing = I spent hours and hours and hours basically reading the whole DSM. I've just been feeling convinced that it's not just adhd + depression/anxiety, that has honestly just never felt right to me in a way that's hard to explain.

I boiled it down to bpd and/or bipolar spectrum. My therapist is having us move forward exploring bpd. She had me take the LPI and BSL and I scored *very* high on them but then on the other hand my mood will change for zero reason where I will feel like that's ridiculous and I'm "normal" and just need to get a handle on myself, and then it will change again from the slightest thing and I'll be completely debilitated again. Which I see in many posts here as I've been reading up on this sub over the last week or so. My mind is a prison of torture because I internalize everything even this stupid "is it bpd or not" question and that back and forth is so distressing.

Anyway if anyone has experience with having both these disorders and either how that process of determining the bpd after the adhd went, or how stimulants affected them as well, I think it would help me with trying to figure out what's going on with myself.