It feels like the world is closing, like the colossal weight of my burdens, my regrets is catching up and any joy has been chipped away at and I feel like I'm crumbling.

I am or am not like you, whether I fail to see it or want to acknowledge it I'm hurting though sometimes pain is good for the soul I hope you can see this as a beautiful compromise between the realities of life and it's hardships.

I have a life, A family but I want more and can't bring myself to tell them or anyone for that matter that my regrets, and choices in this moment may outweigh their needs and I feel selfish and lost these feelings have been around for the past 3 years since my father passed away.

I feel lost, Alone, hurt and I suffer my mental health is probably the lowest it's been maybe it's from the pandemic or being shuttered in am I selfish to need to put my needs ahead for a change?.