another school thing. this time its gym yippee. i both love online school because i don't actually have to go in-person and see everyone, but at the same time i hate it because it makes it way too easy to skip school without people knowing. case in point; my gym class. I hate it. I'd rather die than exercise in front of a camera, but whatever. so, i've started skipping. not consciously, not really. it's like "today i'll take a break, and i'll go tomorrow," and i know that this is bad but i can't stop. as you can imagine, my grades taken a hit from all this, it's now a B+, and I know realistically it's not that bad, but I can't help feeling like a failure. my teacher is nice thankfully and lets me make up some points, but it doesn't really help that fact that i both feel extremely guilty for skipping and end up hating myself, hating my brain, for being so goddamn stupid and not being able to take things a second grader could probably handle. maybe im just lazy or something.