as the title says, i started my first job last weekend (20 years old) and i've already been struggling to the point of wanting to skip my next shift and just quit.

the job itself is general kitchen duties (washing dishes, cleaning) and i've been working from late afternoon until 1am so far. i would finish earlier but i have been very slow at actually doing the work, which makes my anxiety act up as i constantly think that everyone is judging me for working slowly. because of this i find it difficult to talk to any of the staff, even to ask for a break.

although i have been dealing with anxiety disorder for a while, i haven't felt like this for a good few months, which is something that worries me as i know that it could easily get worse very quickly. i am trying to decide whether to simply quit and find something else (as i don't want to just give up on a job after making progress) but i also don't want to be seen as a quitter. my next shift is tomorrow and i'm also deciding whether to even show up to that, since i've started to become not just anxious about going to work but almost like i'm afraid to even show up.