As the title says, I’m the friend who always has something wrong &amp; it’s quite frustrating for me. I have BPD &amp; been diagnosed for 2 years. I thankfully have amazing friends who hear me out &amp; try to be there. But it’s been made clear that it’s just draining for one (my best friend who I always go to) because she herself also has BPD &amp; is introverted so her social battery can drain easily. She feels guilty &amp; is worried about us trying to find some boundaries that works for us both. I’m not mad at her, it’s totally okay &amp; I understand. I just feel so guilty now &amp; im not good at finding a balance. I feel I should just keep everything to myself now because I don’t want to burden her. She says I’m not a burden, she just needs to find the balance. But I just wish I didn’t always have something wrong with me. I feel like a major burden. I have a psychiatrist but I have no availability to other help. I truly don’t see myself getting better despite wanting to. I feel I should just end my life to end my pain &amp; not be a burden to others. Idk what to do.