I’m at my wits end. I don’t even know where to begin but i need help. a close member of my family has struggled with mental illness from as long as I can remember and it’s taken so so so much out of me living with them and trying to help them and feeling like it’s never going to get better. I’m sorry if this post is long or feels like a rant but i just feel so hopeless. This person has made life miserable for the rest of my family and tears us apart. and I know they are sick, and can’t help some of their actions, and I know i can’t hold this against them because they already know how much they hurt us. I’ve been living through this my entire life. Every time it seems to get a little better we end up back at the bottom. They threaten to end their life just as often as they take it back and tell us they only said it to manipulate us into doing what they want. I struggle so hard with not getting angry at them because even though their actions can be abusive, I know theyr sick. I can’t keep watching the rest of my family fall apart over this. I feel trapped and hopeless and like no matter what I do it won’t help and never will.