Lately my life has been less than favorable. I have been talking to a girl online and it was going fantastic. I though I could finally be happy and enjoy my life. The relationship was long distance which was always something that bothered me a little but I payed no mind to it. I knew it was an honest and sincere relationship so I knew that she meant everything she said. Just yesterday she said that we should probably take a break. I agreed to it because I wanted to respect her decision. I didn’t cry, even though I thought I would. On top of that my grandma might die soon, which isn’t helping anything. The lack of friends I have is another thing that is just beating me. Every time I am exceedingly happy i end up loosing the things that make me happy. I’m just so lost right now and I don’t know how to react. I feel like I’ve been stripped of all my emotions. I just wish there was someone there that wouldn’t always disappear on me