hi, i don’t post much on here but i really needed advice and to just let it out. i have had severe anxiety my whole life, got diagnosed and medicated at 12 and have been since. any major (or minor for that matter) change sets my anxiety off. Starting middle school, high school, and moving were all traumatic events that made my anxiety so bad i got suicidal. i just recently moved into my college dorm (i was home for fall cause covid) and my anxiety has come back full swing. i only live an hour away but it is still terrible. i just don’t think i can do it, live away from home. i haven’t even been there a week and i’ve already had to come home two times. i feel bad for coming home because it feels like giving up but i just have to. i just feel so so homesick when i am there. none of the “friends” feel real and the thought of having to live there makes me feel such dread. my boyfriend is also at home so that makes it worse. i miss him all the time and i just want to come home and be with him and my family and my room. i’ve tried to find others with severe anxiety who feel like living at college is impossible but i haven’t been able to find anything other than tips like “go for a walk!” which i understand but like, what about for the people who aren’t simply feeling homesick they are feeling down right suicidal because they cannot handle living away from home. i feel so useless and hopeless knowing that so many kids my age can go to college no problem and i have to go home twice a week. i also hate the location of my college. it is in the middle of no where and i am a very city person but i had to go there for money reasons. so what do i do? should i just give up and move back home? but if i do that i’ll have to go back in the fall anyways and do it all again. and i won’t make like any friends. but i also feel like i’m missing out by coming home so much. but i need to come home or else i will literally lose my mind. sorry if this is a mess and i sound crazy and disgruntled; it’s cause i am. any advice ?