I love my 2 friends, they are one of the few things that make me happy. Especially my best friend who I’ve known for years. I don’t want to get rid of them, I don’t want to be lonely, but it’s for the better. Sometimes my depression gets ahold of me and I’m just negative. I don’t want them to have to put up with my negativity. They deserve better. One time during a mental breakdown/manic episode I even sent my bff a picture of my freshly cut bloody arm in an attempt to sever our ties which was NOT okay, and very toxic/selfish of me. She ignored it. I already scared away enough people with my negativity (I don’t blame them), It’s best if I leave them alone. It’s really hard though. It’s hard to not text them as my thoughts feel like they are going to burst my skull open if I don’t tell them to anyone. Also we sit right next to each other in class, and they always strike up a conversation with me so I end up hanging out with them the rest of the day. I feel like I’m going to break if I get rid of them, I need someone to vent to even if they don’t listen. (I do wish they would care, I don’t think they do, I don’t blame them.) Please help me get rid of my friends.