I’ve been a roller coaster of emotions. My sister been so unpromising telling me one thing and doing the other. She won’t leave her abusive relationship. I get really bad every time she abandon me and just wanna kill myself. 

I also hate how my sister comes, smokes my weed and then disappears. She always comes through my window, ask if I weed, smokes, then just goes to smoke with her boyfriend. I’m also going through splitting on my fp since she left to spend time with her bf in Florida. 

I really just needed more cigs and alcohol to forget about my current situation and i just feel bad cuz my mom doesn’t even drink or smoke and she’s been so understanding with me smoking weed. I just feel shitty.