After spending the holiday period at home with my parents, I moved back to my flat today where I live with my girlfriend, and the disruption to my routine has left me feeling completely bereft. I miss my mum, my house, my brother, my bed, everything about being at home. I miss feeling looked after, the comfort and security and I can't adjust right now to this change in my life. 

I felt the same the day I went home in December, only not as intense. The pain I'm feeling is so intense that I feel like I *need* to go back home *right now*, or catch the train tomorrow. I want to drop out of school, drop everything and just go back home. It feels like this pain won't ever end - I know it will, but it's just so hard to see past it.

I don't know what to do, I really need some support right now. I keep bursting into tears and every slight reminder of home is making me so unbearably sad. I just want to go home. I'm so homesick. I hate BPD for making this so intense. I really need some support - what do I do?