I think ive entered the "red zone"   Ive lost the will to fight, i just dont care anymore. I started meds a few months ago and therapy starts this monday, things were looking up but i got into deep thought and decided i dont want to try anymore, its not worth it. There is absolutely nothing in this life that is going to make it worth living, not even a relationship as a matter of fact being in a relationship makes me downspiral and it doesnt end until the relationship does. I hate people and i hate what were capable of, i hate that a vast majority of us are so driven by sex and i hate even more how openly we talk about it. I hate that the need for it even exists, you all disgust me. I hate money and i hate greed and i hate that everyone is so thirsty to climb to the top just to "have it all"  WHO CARES!? Frothing at the mouth over petty little material things and empty connections, i hate the human race and i cringe everyday waking up realizing im part of it. I hate that we have to eat, i hate that we have to use the bathroom, i. Hate. Being. Alive.        If any of you have felt like this and made it through, how did you do it? Cause for me personally i think this is it, ive thrown in the towel.