Idk what the fuck is wrong with me but I’m goddamn tired of this life dude. Yeah everyone is though right? So when the fuck am I writing a Reddit post? For sympathy, for attention? Hell no. I seriously want to fucking know what’s wrong w me man. I’ve got an insane amount of eye floaters, always in a deep rage, or depressed or fucking numb one or the other and it’s so goddamn stupid I hate you I hate pedestrians fuck the world and everyone who lives in it this shit is so stupid. I’m gonna die regardless but I’ll be damned if I don’t continue to have everything I’ve ever wanted cause what’s the mother fucking point if I don’t get there. I’ll be in jail or dead soon probably I’m impulsive as fuck I’ll probably get drunk and get a dui if I get another vehicle, last one got totaled in a wreck because I was drinking and driving like a bad mother fucker hell yeah. Nah but fr dude I’ve gone through every ssri, I’m thinking of going on Xanax, that’s my last resort because I can’t continue living like this I just can’t something’s gotta change and I’ve tried everything and I know none of you have anything that will make me feel any better because if you’re here I’m goddamn sure you’re in the exact same fucking boat if this depressive state of mind coming and going but it’s still always there sometimes we can just distract ourselves for a week or so but it’ll come back I’m 20 years old been battling this shit since I was 16 I’ve got parents that love me but I don’t give a damn that shit doesn’t help me at all, what are the enjoyments in life? Food? A girlfriend who is going to be just as much hell as she is good? What’s the fucking point if this life man if serenity will never come? Should I live my life in misery just so I can make it to heaven if that’s even a fucking thing yeah definitely gonna live my life for a god that makes me miserable for 100 years just so I can go worship him for eternity fuck that fuck this fuck you fuck life fuck fuck fuck I’m mad I’ll be sad later then I’ll go to sleep repeat the cycle til I go on a power trip trying to become a millionaire so I can have something to my name. No friends, no life, nothing. My friends say I’m bipolar but ssris are supposed to fix that and they ain’t done a damn thing yet. 👍👍👍👍