I’m tired of being told my problems aren’t real or aren’t as bad as I think they are. 

Being told I have lots of people who care about me is insulting when I really don’t and I told them I don’t. Being told I should stick around and suffer for years for my dog is insulting. Maybe some people really actually don’t have people who care/people who would miss them. Maybe I really don’t have a better future to look forward to - some people peak at 26 and maybe that’s me. Maybe I’m right about my worthlessness, but people aren’t ready to hear that. 

Frankly it’s insulting to be told repeatedly that I am wrong when I observe my need for social support, meaning in my life, and a reason to live. I don’t have those things, but people love to tell me I’m just being dramatic or that I’m incorrect. I say those things through years of observation and I’m a smart person and it’s true. It’s so disingenuous and selfish to try to talk me out of offing myself or having those feelings while also failing to provide any real support or even believe me. The gall people have to tell me I’m wrong about my lived experiences right to my face. Or to suggest the damn hotline knowing full well how crappy the whole system is. 

I can’t be the only who feels this way. I can’t get support because nobody even hears what I am saying. It’s like I’m mute no matter how loud I scream. They’ll be in denial until the day I’m no longer on this planet.