I have some of the worst anxiety ever when I am doing anything when leaving the house or interacting with others in any way to an almost unbearable point, however, when I am at home and not having to deal with anything to trigger my anxiety I feel completely dead inside and numb as if I am in a dream. I switch between these two states and can never feel like I am in a normal state. It feels like two different extremes, feeling like my heart is going to beat out of my chest from stressing and overthinking over the smallest stresses of life, or feeling like i’m a walking corpse or in a dream. When I am in this dream-like state, I can't really feel any emotions, I feel numb, my eye sight becomes tunnel visioned and a little blurry so it is hard to focus on things, and I feel the need to be shocked in order to "wake up", like jump into a ice cold lake or get tased. Does anyone know what this could be or what I can do to stop this cycle? I was also considering anti-anxiety medication, but I am scared that it will either make my dream-like state worse, or make it so I feel like that all the time.