does anyone else do this? i mean i know this isnt the case logically and i do have family and friends who love me but a lot of the time i convince myself theyre trying to hurt me or purposely exclude me and it makes me shut everyone out of my life and isolate, which seems to further my problem. i don’t know how to break this thought cycle, i have low self esteem and a lot of self hatred and i’m not sure where to start to improve my life, i am in therapy currently but feel like following the advice is impossible because im in my own way and just cant break the cycle of bad thoughts, anyone else?