I got officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety in 2020, though I have been dealing with symptoms since childhood. After the diagnosis, I was prescribed meds and I tried therapy. The therapy did not help and the meds worked for a while. I believe that the meds can help up to a point but you need a positive &amp; happy environment to actually get into a better mind space. I don't have that. I am living paycheck to paycheck at a job which literally makes me cry every time I think about going to the office. With work from home being taken away I have to go to the office and I hate it. The reason I am living paycheck to paycheck is a debt which I did not handle well. At the same time, I am in love with someone who doesn't love me back but wants to be friends because I support her unconditionally. I have begged her to stop talking to me but she insists on it. If I complain that she doesn't give me time I get told off that I am behaving like a child, to the extent today that everything is on her terms. My job prospects are really low, my ability to move on from her is really really low and my capacity to reduce debt is also low. My family says whenever I want to talk to them about this is that I am complaining and I have a good life. I am coming out of a loveless marriage and will be officially divorced in a couple of months, which has taken a significant toll on my mental health. I have no motivation left to do anything. I can't see a future for myself. I am alone and I am nothing to live for. I am crying in the office as I type this. All I can think of is a way to kill myself so that I can finally have some peace