How to stop - checking on FP on social media, thinking of him, creating stories in my mind, checking other girls potential new gfs, checking all freaking social media, remembering good moments, crying, missing, hating him, and then wanting him to come back? He's been so terrible to me and other women that I don't even want him around... But still my mind is playing with me 😔

I start having headaches after days of CONSTANT thinking about him. I take sleeping pills and calming pills because sometimes my thoughts cause strong physical reactions such as fast heart beat, shaking hands etc... It goes away when I drink alcohol (max 2 glasses of wine) but it is not the way.

I don't know what other things I can think of. I cannot listen to music because it reminds me of him, I can't focus on books, nor sport. Not even speaking about work and being productive. Isolation is not helping.

I really need help.