After seven years of being treated for a mayor depression, I’m finally starting to be lower dosed. 
I hope I get to start living life without any medication, since I’ve never experienced a lot of things (like ando orgasm) without being under the influence of antidepressants or/and sleeping pills. 
This is a small victory for me. I couple years ago I thought I was going to end it. But know I feel ok with my physical existence and experience. 
I don’t fear death nor I try to cause it by myself anymore and that makes me live life in some sort of comforting calm. 
I didn’t know who to share this with, 
Thanks if you read it