I find that I often group some things that have affected me as trauma. However my therapist and psychiatrist both haven’t even seemed to consider trauma even though they know almost all-if not all the details or symptoms that i think represent trauma from the incidents. I guess I’m just curious if anyone here might consider this as trauma or just anxiety and depression like my psychiatrist says. And I also want to know what you do and don’t consider as trauma. 


To give you an idea, some of these “traumatic” events for me include. 

Subconsciously holding back and refusing to communicate my thoughts, feelings and emotions. As well as not really asking for things for myself. This is because of  my fear of rejection and just being brushed off. From my experiences of being emotionally neglected and just ignored by my mum. 

I believe I have some sort of rejection trauma because of the above as well as the fact that I get sent into a full blown panic attack and break down whenever people say they love or care for me (because I convince myself they don’t do it hurts less) and because of the amount of times I have been kicked out and moved around to different parts of my family since the start of last year until now (for now). &lt;— which because of that I get sent into panic attacks when people seem sick of me and close myself off. 

I’m very sensitive to loud noises, I can notice small noises a lot of the time when others don’t, which I think is just from being hyper aware of my surroundings. Loud noises ring in my ears and make me cringe because it’s just so uncomfortable. Sudden loud noises are a huge thing though. Just hearing something drop near me or something break really loudly sends me into a panic attack and rings in my ears for a while. When it seems to not affect anybody else. One example I could give is at work one time I had dropped a glass and it smashed which made me kind of zone out and just be very fidgety and feel unsafe for quite a while, I found that after I went home from that shift I could still hear the ringing of the glass quite clearly. 

^ I think that might be from being bitten by a big dog when I was very young and another big dog when I was like 10 ish because they probably would have been barking or maybe growling. Or it could be because when either of my parents get angry they get aggressive and they probably threw glasses or smashed them when I was younger to take out anger. Though I can’t be sure as I don’t remember much so something else entirely could have happened as well. 


Feel free to share your experiences as well, especially if you are unsure like me 😊