This stresses me out so much. I am signing petitions and I am trying to help but I am too fucking mentally ill to do anything besides that. I am raising awareness when I can and I am doing all that I can but I am not in a mental place to leave my house.

I don’t WANT my kids to ask me anything. The fuck am I gonna tell them? “Your mom stayed at home and contemplated suicide.”

I support the movement with all my heart, but people saying that just makes me feel like I’m not doing enough but I can’t do more. It’s not because I feel “uncomfortable” it’s just that I will fucking break down if I go out of my house, but I feel guilty because it stresses me the fuck out. I feel like I’m disappointing kids I haven’t even had, like I’m a bad mother before I’m even a mom.