Hi everyone, I have recurrent depressive disorder.

I think the thing that bothers me the most is the feeling that I can’t change «the loop». Everyday feels like the same. When I get depressed I start to notice this and see the bigger picture.

Monday: School, workout, sleep
Tuesday: School, workout, sleep
Wednesday: School, workout, sleep
Thursday: School, workout, sleep
Friday: Sleep till mid day, go party
Saturday: Sleep till mid day, either go party or workout
Sunday: Sleep till mid day, workout, sleep

Every week looks like that, EVERY SINGLE ONE. Im sick of it. It’s demotivating and understimulating. Idk what else I would do, but I do know that im tired of living like this. Im 17 btw.

What should I do? The only things that gives me pleasure is weed, alcohol and masturbation. That’s sad asf.