I guess this has been a long time coming. The girl I put years of my life into and was planning on proposing to would use every opportunity to try convince me that any time I got upset or hurt by something she would do I was in an episode of some kind. I stopped making excuses to myself for this behaviour and broke up with her last night.
 A couple weeks ago we went to a bar and I got a bit drunk, she spent the rest of the night coaxing me to admit that I was hypo and therefore nothing she had done in the weeks preceding was remotely wrong. Gaslighting had been a staple in the relationship and I kept rationalising it. I was sent into a major depressive state because of this and at one point cut off all family and friends because they kept telling me I'm not a horrible person and what she kept saying didn't make any sense.
I feel such a sense of relief. 

If anyone tries to use bipolar as a weapon against you, run.