I’m getting ready to give up. I feel like if things don’t lighten up in the next couple of days or by tomorrow.  I might actually do it this time. I can’t take this any long. I’m so numb but scared, depressed, and agitated. The meds have made my appearance unappealing and I feel even worse. I feel hideous. I miss when life was good. I don’t think it’ll get any better any more. I’m too far gone.