I’m currently seeing a psychiatrist for my mental health issues &amp; I feel strongly that I have bpd because the symptoms that I suffer from are the main indicators of bpd, I have cptsd &amp; have a family history of mental illness &amp; depression. My mother had bipolar II schizophrenia &amp; that affected my life so much as i endured so much physical, emotional &amp; psychological childhood trauma that still affects me till this day. my mother passed away this year &amp; it’s affected my life so much. I’m in the U.K. so seeing a psychiatrist through the NHS was a struggle as I had to essentially try to take my life just to receive help as i was just being ignored before. I only see my psychiatrist every 12 weeks &amp; each time she says I have the symptoms of bpd &amp; she thinks i may have it but doesn’t want to diagnose me with it due to the stigma around it &amp; just labels what i have as emotional dysregulation &amp; wants to just put me on medication despite my qualms &amp; history of why I’m against it. I just feel like she doesn’t actually listen to me &amp; I’m always leaving the sessions more depressed. How do I go about getting the help that I need ?