I don't care if its romantic or platonic. I'm tired of people leaving my life when I need them the most or ghosting me without even telling me what happened, so I've just decided I'm better off doing this shit on my own. I'll continue to associate with the friends I have now, but as soon as they're gone I'm not going to try to make any more friends. The less people I let in to my life, the less chance I have of making people uncomfortable. You probably think I'm a selfish, immature person, and its because I am.