I’ve completely bought into the stigma. I hate having BPD - I hate saying that it’s my diagnosis, I’ll do anything I can to avoid the topic because the first thing I think of is all the negative stereotypes that come with it. I wish I had bipolar or something more ‘acceptable’, and that makes me hate myself even more.

I tick literally every box in the diagnostic criteria, I’m basically a textbook BPD case. I’m halfway through DBT, I’m medicated, I’m in individual therapy, and I still feel like it’s pointless. I’m 25, how am I supposed to form my own personality at this point? How do I break the cycle of making friends, forming a bond, and then splitting on them and cutting them off all together? I’ve spent 28 weeks in DBT and I’m terrified I’m going to come out the other end with even less answers, I don’t care about mindfulness, I want to know how to fill the gaping void in the pit of my stomach. 