I’m so full of anger and sadness and betrayal. My therapist and psychiatrist have been talking about me I thought I could trust them but they’ve been emailing and saying anxiety is causing me to imagine the bad shit that’s been happening to me, to have somatic symptoms. I’m not anxious, I know when I’m fucking anxious it’s hard to ignore

I hate them both so much I can’t put across in words the anger I feel about this. I’ve tried to self discharge from their services but my therapist called me and fucking manipulated me into seeing him again in two weeks, he knows I’m bad at being confrontational and took advantage of that, and my psychiatrist hasn’t responded directly just sent me out another appointment, what does that even mean?

It just feels like they’re trying to gaslight me. It’s not even that I want them gone because they’ve helped me so much over the past few years but I don’t understand why they’ve started doing this, what their motive is, get me? And I have no way of venting because usually it would be to my therapist. And my partner lives with me now which usually is great but it means I have to hold myself together and don’t get as much space 