Lately, I've felt incredibly unhappy and unsatisfied with my life. I keep thinking it's things that I'm lacking but no matter what I do, I don't feel okay. I feel unentertained, even when I go out and do things with friends I don't feel happiness though I feel as if I'm supposed to in those moments. I feel hopeless and empty. 

When it comes to emotions in general all I feel is rage and pain, sometimes followed by daydreaming in the car where I imagine scenarios that make me feel better, almost like I'm better than anyone, yeah I know that sounds bad but it gives me some feeling. Euphoria maybe. I lash out on my partner especially, I'm not exactly that happiest in our relationship, I feel drained and uncared for even if they say they're giving their best efforts. I feel trapped and like I want something more or different in general, I know they won't change though and I feel as if our relationship won't improve but leaving them is impossible now for reasons I cannot explain. 

I feel absolutely miserable, I feel as if I have nobody to talk to or have fun with, I wanna go out and do things and take care of my responsibilities but my sleep schedule is bad and my motivation is low. Does anyone know what this is?? To give background I have bpd unfortunately and I don't know if this is an episode but it's gone on for a week or a few now (not good with time) help??? Tips??? Please and thank you