When I was younger I loved having alone time but now I'm 17 and when I'm alone I'm basically stuck with my thoughts and it gets me really sad and nervous. For some context, I've never been diagnosed with it cuz I'm too nervous too, but I have clear symptoms of ocd. I panic a lot, it's not like normal ocd you hear about with cleaning and keeping things a certain way, although I do like keeping things in a certain order or doing things repeatedly. I also have the type of ocd that comes with bad thoughts, basically my ocd makes me feel like a terrible person and it's hard because I believe it. Some days it's so hard to try to ignore my thoughts, I have so much anxiety about many things. I don't really wanna open up about it but all you need to know is that I'm always worried I'm a bad person or I'll do something bad. I know that's what ocd does but it's hard not to believe it. I might seem annoying to my family or my friends because I always wanna talk or hang out but I hate being alone with myself. I feel stuck, stuck with my thoughts... and it's so sad. Thanks for reading and sorry about this little vent, have a good day.