Hey folks! I really need your thoughts on this since I can't find proper answers anywhere.
I've been against taking any mental illness meds for many years. And in fact I was even not fully convinced that psychology and therapy actually provide anything more than a space to exteriorize and that's it. 
Yet I've started to go to a psychiatrist couple of years ago and he never prescribed me anything. We just sat and talk. Then I had some episodes of panic attacks, racing thoughts, and paranoia crisis (de-realisation and dissociation) trigged after a health problem. He suggested that I take zoloft 25mg but never insisted.
Few months ago, I've moved to the US and was having these weird heart palpitations, and I was text book depressed. The general physician prescribed to take zoloft. So I said this is the 2nd time I get prescribed this, I should probably try it. 
After doubling the dose, I had a bad episode of what they called "mania" and I needed to get hospitalized in the psychiatric emergency. My head was vibrant, racing thoughts, feeling trapped in this state, having some panic attack, feel anxious, couldn't sleep, and at some times I had even difficulties speaking. I got prescribed then wellbutrin 150mg. I've been taking that for few days and I'm ok but my sleeping pattern got fu**ed: I can't sleep more than 2 hours straight, feeling trippy everytime I wake up, remembering every detail of my dreams (which is the weirdest thing since I used to forget them). 
And today I'm prescribed other meds after checking with a therapist and a nurse practitioner: Quetiapine 25mg and Gabapentin 100mg.
They said I have a bipolar disorder and a borderline disorder, but I feel like I can't trust that.
It's super odd for me as a foreigner, that US therapists and psychiatrists immediately direct you to meds after a single session! 
I personally don't think that I have really aggravated disorders despite all what happened and I'm really scared to fuck my brain again with these meds that they keep changing each time I visit one of them.