I’m so tired Of fighting with this disorder yall. It’s literally ruining my life with the mood swings. I’m from Florida and I just got out of a year long relationship where my mood swings, hyper reactivity, and abandonment perceptions where a huge rift between us. She is such a sweet girl, I was lucky to have her as long as I did. She put up with so much man. She just had her fill of it and I can’t blame her. I am tired of it too, and I try so hard. It’s like every time I take a step forward I go back 3. It’s really frustrating and upsetting. I can’t talk to any of my friends about it because it’s hard to articulate what I’m feeling. It’s like a million emotions you want to describe but you can’t. I finally am getting back up with counseling as well as restarting my antidepressant and buspar. I want the change for myself. I’m tired of this disorder ruining my life. I feel so alone, my mom passed away in January 2020 and she was my confident. When I lost her I lost that so I hold it all in, and tbh I’m not dealing with her death well at all. I just want to be different. I want to prove those who say im incapable of change wrong