i always feel like i ruin my relationships and that they always leave in the end, and i keep reading about how some people hate their exes who have bpd and that they felt abused and manipulated and that i can’t help but think i’m one of them? and if i tell FP about it they say i’m thinking dumb things and that they love me and that they won’t think of me like that ever... but i know it’s a lie? it won’t ever work out for me..