My mother had a chest discomfort today. She checked her BP and it was like 12/8 with 150 pulse. She went to ER and they just gave him one dose of benzo and let her go. After that she went to private hospital and she got hospitalized. While these are happening, my grandfather just called me and said: Your mother is just having a heart attack what are you doing?!? I tried to get information from him but he continued to tell some more incriminating sentences so I hung up on his face. Eventually thing he said was just an exaggerate. I can continue to story but my point is different right now. When I heard the thing I couldn't do anything. While trying to get information from everyone who I can, I tried to find my keys. I couldn't find them and shut the door and started to walk to hospital. I couldn't get what the hell is going on actually I was just calling some people and walking. And I had to get back to home after some calls but I didn't had the keys. I thought about climbing to our house but I was so anxious so I just waited in our garden and looked to balcony straight minutes. Then I ran to hospital again. Docs have put her on drip and monitoring her heart rhythms. When I was running to random places I actually didn't felt anything. When I saw her I started to cry. I cried a lot. Also she's doing fine now. Willingly or unwillingly I started to think about real scenarios. I was also thinking about that scenarios before but It's much more realistic right now. While going to random places I was like in a half-fainted position. Sometimes I couldn't walk because of panic for minutes. What if I didn't saw her at there an there were just nurses trying to comfort me? I do not have any idea what I'll do or what I'll feel like. I mean I was like a zombie before I saw her.