I don't want to have these feelings and thoughts anymore I feel like I am about to burst.
There is so much going on in my head and body I can't even identify a single thought and emotion. 
I can only pause them for some time or self harm until I feel empty.
I don't want to do this anymore. 
I don't know how to escape this state of mind.
Sometimes I would rather die than make the effort it takes to get me out of this.