Hi ... 

So, the thing is I didn't think the entire quarantine thing would have any negative effects on me. I love to stay home and I don't particularly like people, but I was wrong. 

It all started falling apart yesterday when I had my Skype therapy session. I was sitting in my parent's room, because it is the most private, talking to my social worker when my dad comes in. I know he forgot that I was having a session, but I feel so violated. I yelled "Whoever that is go away!" and he made this motion with his arm. He usually does it when he is angry at my mom. The rest of my session was shit. 

He says I over-reacted. Did I? 

Anyway, my dad went through some crap years ago that is still really affecting him right now. He is a ghost and now that I see him basically all the time he is really freaking me out. I pick up on everyone's mood so easily and ... 

Today I totally lost it with my mom. It used to be something that happened all the time, but I have gotten so much better. She ... God I am whining. 

I just really needed to vent about this, I feel like I want to cut, but I don't want to break my 1 year 3 months "streak". 

Am I in the wrong with my dad? I'm splitting right now, so he is just bad ... I need some advice if anyone wants to give it.

\- Nina

P.S. This is really rambly and I wrote it while sobbing. Sorry if something doesn't make sense.