Hi, i can't understand myself at all. When someone teases me, I get offended easily and always having the urge to cry because of frustration. When I play a game and I get shot or die repeatedly without having a chance to fight back (im a noob), I get frustrated and cry easily. I always cry because of petty things. When someone is asking me to do things in repetition, I always feel frustrated. I don't even want to cry but my chest just feels so heavy and I'm always flooded with a lot of thoughts such as "why am I like this?" "I played this game a thousand times already, why am I still not better at it?" "how can I respond in this situation calmly?" "why am I always offended?" I just don't understand why. I tried to be calm many times, I tried everything I could to stop my emotions. I tried to conquer my thoughts and think about other things, too. I always distract myself like watching funny videos and memes when I feel like my frustration is kicking in. I always suppress my emotions and swallow everything I feel inside, trying to run away from it but it always come back. It comes back worse, and heavier. I really wanted to go to a psychiatrist because I think something is wrong with me. Not only crying but when I feel frustrated I always hurt myself physically. Punching my head, pinching myself, punching myself as hard as I can so that I can ease my frustration. What do I do