(I'm 13m) and i feel like I've lived long enough, I don't even want to be cured from this hellhole I'm just waiting for it to end, I'm not harming myself anymore because it usually doesn't work and it's kinda uncomfortable to be in physical pain.

The main reason I'm posting this is because I've got no one to vent to, I have a "friend" that I spoke to and stuff but she told me that she wasn't the right person for me to vent my anger on because she said that "she might say the wrong things" and she told me to look for someone else.