Idk what to do or who to turn to. I feel I can’t talk to anyone I’m close with because I’m afraid they’re just tired of my shit and I feel like a burden. I’ve been suffering from MDD and anxiety for over a year. I lost my job twice this year because of it. I’ve been unemployed for two months and I can’t seem to get an interview. I have a really hard time leaving my home with my anxiety. My car is also in a bad state so I don’t want to drive it. I’ve managed to stay afloat for the time being but the money ran out. I have no way of paying rent in two days and I have no job. I lied about it too. I had found something. I went one day and it consisted of door to door. You know people with anxiety can’t handle door to door. I have no motivation. I don’t want to leave my home. I don’t want to inconvenience anyone or have them judge me. My parents are old school. They don’t believe mental health is an issue even though I see where I got it from…
My friends have pulled through and helped me before so I can’t ask again. It’s just putting me into a deeper depression and I can’t see my doctor anymore because I don’t have insurance. I just want to disappear. Just get in my car and leave it all behind. I feel so hopeless. I want so desperately to be happy and comfortable and do all the things I daydream about but seem to never be able to motivate myself to do…
Does this ever go away? Nothing has helped me. None of the medication. I have depression, anxiety, PMDD, and ADHD. I ran out of my ADHD meds and can’t get anymore. Can’t afford to anymore. I’ve been doing small jobs here and there to be able to feed myself and my animals. 
I just wanted to get this off my chest. Have someone other than myself read this. I feel so lonely.