Its crazy how you can be doing well for weeks and months then one tiny thing sets off an episode and youre crying your eyes out and feeling incapacitated, wanting to just throw yourself in bed and be alone and far away from everyone and everything. I just want to cry and disappear and i hate this feeling in my chest. I hate how intensely i feel. I really hate this guys why does it have to hurt so much? Youre doing well and then youre not and it feels like youve taken 1000 steps backwards