Last week I was charged with assault on my father and my husband. I had been drinking (which pairs with my bpd like a nightmare) I went into a RAGE I can’t even remember what caused it, of course. My husband called the police and I was charged with 2 counts of assault 4. I spent 4 nights in jail, would have been 11 but my mom bailed me out. I’m so tired of hurting people. In my outbursts I turn into a different person entirely. I am SO CRUEL and emotionally and physically abusive. I’m scared I’m going to lose everything as this is far from the first time I’ve had horrible horrible outbursts. 
I am going to go to an inpatient treatment center and was curious if anyone has been to any or know if any that SPECIALIZE in BPD or somewhere that really helped them. I’m tired of hurting the people I love :(  