I have been really growing throughout therapy and responding to DBT. Overall I have been able to manage my symptoms, and start increasing my self worth. I mean hell, I am going 3 months strong of no contact with my last FP. But now, after having a weekend of making memories, recovering from a hangover, and not working out for 4 almost 5 days in a row. Also, picking up my first extra shift and having no me time for over 12 hours, I want to let it take over.
Especially from being super triggered by multiple things in one day.
I want to let my BPD kick in, like I am at a loss of what is a healthy option but rn I just am struggling and suffering.
I want to go out to a bar, I want to overspend on things I dont need or a festival tickets I was contemplating going to, I want to go for a long ass drive, I want to escape.