my fp have always been love interests. ive been in love w the same guy for over 3 years now, i have been with him in the past sexually but he never told me how he truly felt and always gave me mixed feelings but i took every crumb he gave me because i was so obsessed with him, i felt this love for him that i couldnt put into words. i started college in october and since then he reaches out to me from time to time but not regularly, and because i started therapy and been so tired with classes my obsession was a bit more silent. but it was still a lot and i was still checking on his socials every day and posting just to see if he'd reply. today i had dinner had a friends house and another guy was there, i met him before but we never had the chance to hang out like today and now i cant stop thinking about wanting to be with him and how much fun i had and i feel like i dont have butterflies with the other guy and i want to cry so much about this. every time this happens, it takes me years to move on from a favourite person but when i do its so FAST. it scares me so much because i was so attached to loving the other guy. i hope tomorrow i wake up and feel differently about this because i havent slept yet because i have so much in my head. does anyone relate to having the same FP for a looong time but when you switch its almost instant? i hate it i want to cry i feel awful i dont want to live in society anymore i feel so inadequate idk im so sorry about this rant. this makes me so depressed.