All of my life, I have struggled with the way I look and started hating the color of my skin since I was 12 or 13. It hasn’t changed at all for the last 10+ years tbh. But I never hide the fact that I’m *this certain race* because I’m not trying to become something I’m not. I’ve always felt like everyone outside my race hates me, not entirely because of my skin color, but because I believe they know how much people necessarily don’t like me within their race (?) when it comes to their first impression of me. 

I’m sorry for how stupid this might sound. I know I should’ve just kept this in the drafts but I’m so frustrated in how I think &amp; if I mentioned this to a therapist I’ll be feeling even more embarrassed since I have to face them.