The moment I read about BDP (like 5 days ago) something about it about the signs just felt like it explained alot about how Ive always felt but have never tried to put into words, because well i have never told anyone about how I feel. I always thought everyone felt this way but they just had it under control and were somehow just stronger and I was weaker for wanting to talk about it and vent. However there is still a lot that is going on inside my head, and frankly I'm scared. So scared even to go to the lengths of seeking of a therapist; I'm m not one to mope or talk about my pesky little feelings. However one part of me keeps telling me to cancel and keep it all in and trust no one, because no one ever truly and intrinsically cares. Not even i care about me, because in the end I don't even know if I exist or if im just an imagination of something.