I always get too high or too drunk never just a little bit. 

I abuse it nearly everyday. Weed is my lifesaver, and coolers are becoming my new obsession.
It's bad.  But I can't help it anymore. Being sober is so depressing, so damn hard for me. 

I can't be sober for more than a few hours. My brain can't handle it. I need something to ease the pain I'm feeling deep down. And I mean, the feeling of not being sober, is just sooo damn good.
 
I love it. I love being in a different mindset than what my brain would normally be in. 

And it helps. As bad as it is, it helps more than my meds do.