For the past 4 years, it's felt like I'm being tortured by life, I've been living under the control of so many people without a single opportunity to make decisions for my own life, all of these forced decisions came crashing down on me and it's thrown me into a deep misery, the most painful part of it all is that the people who put me here not only deny it, but go as far as to blame me for it, and I don't know how much longer I can endure this.