I'm tired of everything. I'm at a point where i feel so emotionless but full of emotion at once. my mind is a mess, i just wanna escape this shitty life. nothing ever goes right for me. i hate everything so much. 

i want to get out of this so badly but i barely have strength left in me. i spent my days crying and crying, praying for it to get better but it never does. it only gets worse. 

other people are living so happily, why cant that be me?? is it too much to ask for???? im so tired. i cant take it anymore.