“I’m exposed, like a nerve. It’s a nightmare” that’s what Bruce Banner says to Tony Stark about being the Hulk and that’s the best way I can express how I feel about the intense emotional distress I’m in. I am in crisis and I don’t know what to do. I have no one to talk to. No one to sit with me. I just want someone to be here and sit with me. I don’t want to go to the hospital, or call a stupid helpline. I’m in so much excruciating pain worse than any physical pain I’ve ever felt but I wish it was physical pain because I could deal with that and this is much worse. I’m so absolutely sad and devastated and in so much distress that I feel like my body is just going to shut down because it’s not possible to withstand this much pain. I keep hoping I’m just in a nightmare and I’m going to wake up but I’m not waking up. I can’t stand it. I don’t know what I expect from posting this I feel like an idiot. I’m starting DBT at the end of March but I’m in crisis *right now* and I don’t know what to do nothing is helping. I need to make it stop or just something to help a tiny bit and take the edge off a tiny little bit. Nothing is working. Anyway thanks for reading this if you made it this far. Hope your day is going better than mine! 