I’m 17. I’m doing online school and I don’t have a job anymore so I spend every minute with myself and I get too caught up in my head. From the minute I wake up I think I’m dying, all the way till I can hardly go to sleep until 5 am because I’m so scared. I’m going to the doctor next week but I can’t wait that long. I keep wanting to dial 911 on myself because I feel this lump in my throat and I keep having trouble swallowing. I also keep just getting weird weird feelings like that everything around me isn’t real. Idk I cant even watch tv without thinking about it. It’s literally every single second of my day. I’m about to take a walk and listen to music to see if that helps, but I really don’t know. What if something is actually wrong and I’m scared for a reason? I swear my throat is swelling. My chest feels so heavy like something is weighing it down.  I also keep pooping (tmi) bc my stomach is literally trembling all day and I assume it’s messing with my digestive system. Or something  is seriously wrong and that’s the reason for all the diarrhea??? And it’s not actually anxiety?? Idk what to do. Omg. Also, I live with my sister. She is at work all day. My mom lives 30 mins away and tries her best to help. I’m alone all the time and I’m just really scared