I don’t really know what to do, I live with a co-worker\friend of mine who is generally ok but I never know when he is going to be in a bad mood or something, but there have been I few days where he has been really frustrated and even yelled at me sometimes even tho I haven’t done anything or even talked to him until that point, he is a lot older and more intimidating then me. But because of this in the past I’ve just come to a point where I am always worried he is going to be in a bad mood and lately I’ve been self isolating in my room a lot I most the time just go straight to my room unless I know for sure he is in a good mood that day. But I am always so anxious I am scared to leave my room, scared to come home, and the isolation is starting to impact my mental health. He has even brought up to me that he has noticed how much I isolate myself and asked if something was wrong but I didn’t know what to say, because he is not always in a bad mood but my fear of the chance he might be has taking over. So I just told him I’m fine, but I really don’t know what to do I am stressed out all the time at home, I feel trapped in this room, I’m feeling lonely I don’t have many friends, and finding new housing is just not possible right now cuz of how exspensive it is. 

I’m way to anxious to confront him about it and I just don’t know, I’ve also just been really depressed and anxious in general but I don’t want people to worry or anything so I just act like everything is great and I just try to be nice and happy,(fake a smile) until I am alone. I just try to act like everything is ok and try to be happy till I am alone again but trueth is I am in agony, I am unmotivated and just uninterested in doing anything and I am anxious all the time, I can barely sleep, it is hard to find appetite and no one knows cuz evertime I’m the past I have tried to reach out about these problems I just somehow make things worse for myself and I’m just to scared I feel like I need to hide them and figure them out myself cuz I’m reality is it really anyones elae problem and should I really bother people about it. 

I’m also a person who is very controlled by there emotions in the past I struggled hiding my anxiety and depression and I became someone people didn’t want to be around, so for the past few months I have used everything ounce of energy to hide my problems and always act happy and in a good mood no matter how bad, I mean people seem to like me more but I feel so lonely and trapped, I don’t know what to do anymore.