i have lived with anxiety my whole life, had my shares of trauma and panic attacks, anxiety has been such a part of my life that i used to think my mind was divided in 2, one evil but inteligent side and one good but easily scared side, and I had a panic attack while on a drugs a week ago and it traumatized me for days, until i realized i had anxiety this whole time, and that my other side was actually my anxiety dragging me down and making me distant from others and made me quit my job, but i recognized this anxiety so clearly now because i got so good from distingusing my bad side (anxiety) and my other "good side", and basically everytime my anxiety talks to me i shut it down asap because i know thats not me, and ever since i learned that ive felt so alive, emotions feel so real now, the world feels colorfull and wonderfull again, sounds feel more real too, like when i was a kid.... my whole life has changed, everything makes sense now, and i havent let my anxiety control me since then, is it possible i may have beat it? i only plan to get healthier and more active, started finding a job again, started talking to more people, started to not be afraid of sleeping or anxious, i really feel like my life has changed.. i barely recognize myself too, but i feel so much more like me now