They cleaned a bit ago but god this house just grosses me out so much.whenever I come home my clothes stink, there’s sand everywhere even though we haven’t gone to the beach etc. 

today my grandpa got out a jar of some spice that had RUST on it. I couldn’t eat because of that. 

Well my hair has begun to get oily and it’s going to be the same as all the other trips to his house. I’m going to be scared that something will come out of the shower head or the drain. So I will only shower once or twice a trip. Also the towels are fucking disgusting they smell of mold and it’s just god I hate it. 

Also my stuffed animals I can’t sleep without smell as well when I come home and I’m scared if I put them in the wash they’ll rip apart. 

I can’t take my meds because the glasses are dirty all the time. I can’t brush my teeth because the toothpaste gets bugs stuck in it (since my brother and sister forget to put the cap on) 

What do I do? I’m scared of becoming uncleanly myself but I don’t want to touch or get involved with anything filthy..