I don't really know what else to say than the title. I am exhausted trying for years to be skinny. I want to be thin but im cursed with a terrible metabolism and inability to stick to a routine. I hate exercise cause I cant find one that is stimulating for me. It's all boring. I love bread and paninis specifically and I am tired of binge eating disorder. I'm so tired of struggling (ok im def dealing with tons of other stuff but that other stuff makes these feelings stronger. Life is hard in general right now). on top of that. idk what else i need to become pretty. I got lip filler, they look a lot better but its not enough. and i edited my face on facetune and nothing looks good, i mean, it could be the angle but still. i want to be someone who has no bad angles. i want to be gorgeous but thats impossible. I don’t  know what im asking help for right now. I just need to feel not alone I guess.