This is torture. Everytime I am upset or I feel the slightest touch of rejection, it feels like my heart shatters into thousands of pieces that shoot trough my body like the bullets of a shotgun.
All I feel is pain, it hurts, it hurts so much that my breathe could stop at any second because my lungs feel like they are frozen by a deadly coldness.
My mind is foggy, I can't see clear, there's just the borderline functioning like a third eye but instead of looking through the fog it's looking through a kaleidoskop, distorting reality.
I want to cut my heart out so badly, because I feel like having a bomb inside of me that explodes by the slightest touch and then tears apart me and everyone around.