I'm trying to connect it to things, but I notice that I have times, often ranging from hours to even a couple weeks where I get incredibly jumpy. It tends to be around times when I've had an argument with someone. I get spooked really easily. I notice if it persists, my paranoia gets ratcheted up.

It doesn't have to be the person I've argued with. I've been on my guard at a friends house leaving their bathroom because I think really paranoid things.

It's worse if I'm around the person I had the argument with. I get paranoid that they "hate" me so much, they're going to kill me and will be extra cautious leaving a room.

Or, take this: I remember I had a fight with my mother and we were both in the kitchen, she pulled out a knife for cooking, I jumped back because I thought she was going to stab me.

It's crazy that this is how my trust in people works.

I get paranoid or anxious and think people will hurt me. There was even a time my girl friend went to give me a hug and I flinched. She was like, "You flinch when I give you a hug?" I said, "I thought you were going to hit me."