i’m struggling a lot. especially when it comes to knowing when i’m devaluing my boyfriend vs when i am actually seeing things rationally and realistically. for example, some days i feel on top of the world if our relationship is going well. if hes giving me a lot of attention i don’t have a lot of doubts. but then there are days when i am hyperaware of red flags (he tries to make me jealous a lot but i do the same) and i almost feel disgusted by it. it’s like everything is a red flag. but i am wondering if it isn’t devaluing and i am actually recognizing that he isn’t good for me. how can i separate the two?? also, i have never been so depressed and behind in my classes and it started when i dated him but that is definitely my own fault.