I live in New Hampshire, in the United States.  

Things are bad.  

I have medical insurance from my job, which is nice, but there just... aren't any psychiatric treatment options for me.  

I've gone through my insurance company's roster and literally called every psychiatrist and psychologist within 150 miles of my work and home.  There are dozens and dozens of them.  

And almost all of them are either geriatric specialists or pediatric specialists, and won't treat me. 

I found exactly two who were willing to set me up an appointment, both in separate sliding-scale clinics run by either a city or a county.  

The first one told me I'd have to attend three (monthly) counseling sessions before they would discuss medication.  This seemed fine, because my experience in psychiatric care has been me parroting the diagnosis - which I got when I was 17 years old (I'm 43 now) by a doctor who spoke with me for fifteen minutes and then never saw me again - and them asking me what medication I'd like to try.  So basically I've always been treating myself, so you can guess how that's been working out.  As much as I felt like I needed to get on some kind of medicinal mood stabilizer, I appreciated that they wanted to take some care in making a prescription.  

But then I missed the third monthly appointment due to mixing up the days on my calendar, and was told that I'd have to start over and do three *consecutive* monthly appointments before they start seriously discussing treatment.  I just can't trust a health professional who withholds treatment as a punitive measure for missing an appointment, so I looked again.  

The new one would only make appointments monthly as well, and I went faithfully for six months and got a new diagnosis, which is Borderline Personality Disorder (and not Bipolar Disorder, which shed some light on why 25 years of off-and-on treatment never helped).  And then she promptly announced that she doesn't treat borderline patients.  

So there, I've literally exhausted all of my mental health options.  So I'm stuck here trying to bring myself through DBT and... that's not working.  Mind you, out of 50 US states my state is in the top 5 states for mental health care access... I can't even imagine what people in the bottom 5 states are trying to deal with.  

Is anyone else running into issues like this?  People are always trying to be encouraging, saying you have to be willing to seek help.  I am seeking help, just not finding any.