Hey everyone. Thank you if you choose to take the time to read this. I've seen so many posts of people opening up on reddit and asking questions so I thought I'd give it a go and see if I could feel a bit better from it. Just made an account about 5 minutes ago to do so actually haha. So I'll just start with a bit about me. 

I'm an 18 year old lad from England. I've got a very loving family, nothing has ever been wrong in my life. I'm popular, have lots of friends that care about me and I've got no physical reason to dislike myself. But everything just seems to be going wrong and I don't know why.

For the last three years I would say I've been getting what some would describe as lazy. I've not been going out as much, I'm beginning to not reply to my friends messages and ignoring them. I've lost friends and none of them even check up on me. I feel so alone. I want to go hang out with them but I just feel like I can't. I'm just learning how to drive and I'm terrified to do that, I just want to say no and give up with that. I've just dropped out of college with no idea what I want to do with my life, the things I used to enjoy no longer excite me. I'm waffling on a bit sorry, I don't really know how to put it into words. 

In short, losing friends, terrified to do anything, no enjoyment out of anything and just don't see where I fit in the world as dull as that sounds. And I know everything will get better etc but I just don't know where to start? 

Just needed to vent a little, never really spoken about it before but it's 02:57 in the morning and it's just on my mind for some reason. Thanks.