I’m finally realizing the effect of alcohol on my anxiety. Like a lot of people, I’ve been drinking more since the pandemic started. I’m noticing that my anxiety is always awful the day after drinking and the severity is correlated to the amount that I drank. I cut back, only allowing myself to drink maybe once a week or less often. Last night I decided to have some wine. I was feeling really happy after getting a great job offer and I’m in a new relationship with a wonderful man. I ended up having way too much. Not long after I got up I realized that this was going to be bad. I’ve had 2 full blown panic attacks today. I’m unable to sleep tonight. I don’t think that I can allow myself to have alcohol at all if this is the toll it’s going to take.