Guy I like works out side and keeps giving me rashes yet I never make him feel bad about it. But as a result my skin hasn’t looked the best. He asked if I ever shave my arms bc guess he wants me to which hurt my feelings but tried to still have a good time together. We went to a restaurant and I was really tipsy when I went to the bathroom. They had very thin cheap toilet paper. Wiped and guess lil piece stuck. We stopped at a park before he dropped me off and when he fingered me guess he found a small bit of toilet paper. It was right after I sucked on one of his balls for the first time and it was also our first time playing in public so was feeling vulnerable. That’s when he said what’s this and pretty much thought I had a uti. So now not only did I feel gross about having hairy arms but now I felt gross about my hygiene but I had just showered before going to the restaurant. Then when he dropped me off I accidentally said I love you when trying to say bye see you later and shit. Literally just want to distance myself so hard. My allergies were bothering me was drunk. Wasn’t all there and have been hanging out with him soooo much. We have been talking for 5 months not dating yet and have only done hand stuff up today. Now I just feel meh. He just got tested for me. But now I don’t even want him to touch me. I’m a hairy gross bitch. I feel like I constantly try to understand, not be critical, and make people feel comfortable but I never feel that back from friends or people I like. Please message me wish I had anyone to talk to.