This is a vent as much as it is me asking for input. I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this and share their experiences. 

For once in my life I can say it wasn’t a toxic relationship, which makes it feel all the more strange that it has to end. But we are not compatible, we disagree on fundamental issues and a future together was not possible. I’m struggling to identify my feelings surrounding my situation though. 

On one hand “out of sight out of mind” seems to be the case; he isn’t here, I don’t have to face his current suffering, I’m not forced to think about all of our lost memories together and I don’t feel overly confronted by feelings of guilt and regret. 

On the other hand, I feel that if I was to truly focus my mind on the reality of the situation then I’d be ready to break down sobbing. I feel completely apathetic to our parting yet simultaneously suffocated by the pain of losing him and I don’t know how to think or behave. 

I just feel completely lost. I was already torn up about problems from past and present, now i feel as though the pain from my breakup has blended into all of my pre existing issues. Has anyone else ever felt this way after leaving their partner?