i know i cannot trust my own feelings and reactions so i rely on people all the time. when their opinion differs from mine i usually assume they must be right because my own opinion is not as valid. i realise this is highly problematic but it helps me avoid troublesome situations.

then i'm considered an awful person because i talk about feelings intensely and everyone's trying to guess my inexistent second intentions. "you can't be this confusing just because! you're trying to trick me!" (i don't really know what they're thinking).

i wish everyone was a little more naive so they wouldn't automatically assume i'm trying to hurt them on purpose, i'm not, i'm just trying to deal with my own problems and part of that is communicating.

*sigh* this is a new account because i try to obsessively cover my tracks without reason. thanks for reading me, [here are the lyrics of my favourite song so you don't go empty-handed](http://genius.com/Giles-corey-blackest-bile-lyrics). take care and stay safe everyone.
