My sister is a social work student.

I told my family of my suicidal tendencies and that I think I have depression.

She told me not to use the word to describe myself if I am not medically diagnosed as a depressed person.

I don't know what to do.


I can't get diagnosed because I feel like I won't get work if they see me having depression. 


I want to live a happy life. 
I want to move forward but thoughts of wanting to end my life won't go away.

What do you call someone like me.
If I don't have depression, what is this?