Since the age of 13 I have had a love and addiction to cannabis.

This addiction is going on 18years now and I know I need to stop as I don't feel healthy anymore, but it also helps with my emotions, like I feel that I handle things better and I don't feel everything so intensely.

Every time I attempt to give up or even cut down I get very emotional and cry a lot, I don't realise how much pain I am masking until I actually stop and life feels very empty and dead without being high, just to be totally honest.

I am on a reddit for stoners who are trying to stop and I am so inspired by the people who have given it up but this is helping or atleast I feel it is helping me cope with my BPD but I am so tired of wasting my money and time on dealers,

I just want a better way and to overcome my addiction.