Hey y'all.

I started taking 10mg of Citalopram 3 months ago after struggling to manage my anxiety/panic disorder without meds for 2 years. Citalopram was the third SSRI I tried after Lexapro and Zoloft, both of which i could continue taking after 2 days due to awful side effects. My doctor says I must be very sensitive to medication side effects. 

Well, Citalopram was like a magic bullet for 2 months. I felt normal for the first time in what felt like forever and I actually felt functional. Unfortunately, around 8 weeks, I started having nightime hallucinations. 

The first night, I woke up to a girl with long, stringy black hair levetaing above my husband. I immediately knew I was hallucinating and woke him up. The girl disappeared and a stream of Day of the Dead skulls started twirling around in my vision. 

Next night, an overweight man in a red speedo was standing at the bottom of our bed. Two nights later, I woke up to a group of floating, menacing Lego heads spinning around. 

Needless to say, I was scared I was going into pychosis/developing schizophrenia. The doctor assured me that hallucinations are, unfortunately, a rare side effect of Citalopram and I would have other symptoms if I was developing schizophrenia. 

We tried to keep me on Citalopram for the next 5 weeks to see if the hallucinations got better. They did not. Every night, I've seen glowing shapes pulsating in and out of my vision, and occasionally (like 3 times a week) I'll wake up to full-on images. 

I called my doctor yesterday and said I wanted to taper off and try a different med- I'm tired of having hallucinations and being afraid to fall asleep. I have an appointment with a reportedly very good psychiatrist at the end of this month, and I hope we can find something that helps. I'm just feeling a bit frustrated right now. 

Anyone have any success stories after trying multiple meds to help me feel better?