Nothing makes me feel more alone than other people. It's like words can only do so much to reach out to another person, and no matter what, all you're doing is trying to express thoughts that can't be put into words. It's a strange feeling I can't really express, a feeling of being completely alone in the universe, knowing there is no way I'll ever connect with someone else on a spiritual level. Even with close friends, I'm only communicating with man made words that mean nothing. It's all empty. 

And sometimes everything suddenly starts feeling like an illusion and I can feel the floor move beneath me, I look down at myself and wonder who the hell these legs and arms belong to. And I wonder what I'm doing here on this planet at this moment, and even though rationally, I know that I'm a normal person just like everyone else, I cannot help but feel like some fucked up alien consciousness placed on earth and everyone else is just a puppet controlled by some supercomputer I cannot even fathom. In these moments I feel like a full blown lunatic. Like a psycho with main character syndrome.