I'm defeated.... 

 Pain is way too much and I can't handle it no longer. 4 years I've been with this illness and nothing has been able to make me feel better besides alcohol. (Which I've only drank once a year on my birthday) I've ran out of options and I'm ready to go. My point of this is..

Why do I have to outsource to Switzerland because I don't want to go out on the end of a gun but instead leave peacefully in my sleep.. It should be an option for us. But instead I have to sit in pain and wait out the next year for all the paperwork to go through. 

This isn't like a "Oh pls save me and change my mind" post, I really just believe that it should be a legal option for us that have tried all current (and experimental) treatments for depression while nothing has worked and are left with no choice.

Why am I choosing to do this? I'm 21, no responsibilities, no girl, no kids, no career, disabled, and a total liability emotionally and financially on those around me.

I'm just curious on your perspectives around this and if you think it should be legal for us.