I've been homeless the past few months since I left the psych ward for a suicide attempt, my mum felt too scared to have me home in case I attempted again. I've lived at a homeless shelter that gave me a room but I couldn't get benefits to pay the small rent fee so I had to leave, so now I live with my fiancé. 

I have no meds since my doctor needs to assess me, plus I can't afford meds. My fiancé lives in a house share since he goes to university and his 3 house mates moved in this past week and my anxiety is so bad that I stay in his room all the time since I don't want to bump into them. One of them steals things from the bathroom and kitchen and I haven't been sleeping since I don't want them stealing my things. My physical health is bad because of my mind, I have bad headaches and stomach aches from stress. 

I feel uncomfortable living here but I have no where else to go.

My self esteem is low, I cry a lot since I'm sensitive. I have no friends. I get jealous and paranoid in my relationship with my fiancé. I want to die, I want to do it tomorrow when my fiancé is at work.