I'm really struggling with feeling utterly alone, I've struggled with this for a long time and it is become too hard to bare. To know I'm always going to feel like this when I'm on my own hurts so much and I feel so much internal pain feeling like my own company isn't enough. I don't want to rely on others for happiness because I know you can't rely on someone always being there. 

Will this ever end? What can I do?