I am really exhausted. For the past month I have constantly went from being elated and having butterflies for this adorable new person I've been seeing, to deep sadness and panic that I won't see him again, that I'm screwing things up and that he's going to disappear. I've only ever been ghosted once when I was younger, and it still has an effect on me to this day. If someone doesn't reply, I think they're never coming back. Just needing some tlc at the moment. He works a lot and he has autism, so he is usually quite burned out and will cancel plans to meet because he just doesn't have the energy. We also live an hour away from each other in different cities which local COVID restrictions have wreaked havoc with. I have a lot of strong feelings here, including my gut driving me towards him which has never happened before. Way too many highs and lows have occurred in the past month. I just feel really sad.