My FP has disappeared. Probably because they have their own issues. We were each other's therapy buddies. He hasn't texted me back (he hasn't seen the damn text so of course not) and I have nobody to talk to about how badly that hurts because so few would get this level of intimacy where there's no romantic intent.

He's probably out of town for Christmas. He and his girlfriend are probably doing something together. Maybe his phone doesn't get reception where he is. Maybe he's been really focused on getting through the holidays and they aren't his favorite and maybe he just needs to be alone. 

These are all perfectly valid reasons to be too busy to respond to a text and that is okay. But I keep getting this awful feeling that I'll go to see if he's read it and it turns out he has and chosen not to respond. Or that he has seen it and has responded and tells me he's decided that this relationship is too much to pursue while he works on himself or something. Which I guess is also okay. But then how would I explain to others why I seem so sad? What a bummer of a dumb situation I've gotten into. I love Christmas. I don't feel like feeling this way right now. I just want to enjoy the holidays with my family