I’ve been anxious my entire life. It started as a child, Id get anxious when my parents fought, witnessed some DV between them in my very early years. I’ve lived in 3 countries and experienced a lot of different cultures. I grew up insanely poor, but we made it through. I was bullied a lot for being one of the only brown kids in my town when we came to the US, so I had to learn to stand up for myself and always had my guard up. I developed GAD by the time I was a young teen, but didn’t seek help (medication &amp; therapy) until my early 20’s when I was in college. I’m now in my late 20’s, a married adult with a full time career. I’m still in therapy, I’m still on medication, I’m still struggling. Life lately feels so monotonous and bleak. I’m either anxious, depressed, or a combination. I’m worried I’ll never feel joy or happiness again. It’s actually terrifying me. I’m never emotionally present, just in a constant state of hyper vigilance or too depressed to know what’s happening around me. 

Long story short, life is shit and it’s been especially shit for a while now. I’ll continue doing what I need to, to keep myself “stable”, but fuck do I miss feeling any bit of serotonin. Anyone else sick &amp; tired of being sick and tired?