I had a super fun day with a friend I haven’t seen in years, but my anxiety managed to still hang over me. I kept ending up on the verge of tears and throat is tight. I’m only 18, but now I’m constantly thinking about the day my parents (especially my mom) are going to pass on, how I’m supposed to keep living without them, the day that I grow old and pass on as well and how much I wish I could be a carefree child again. Death is basically always on my mind and it’s just awful. These thoughts make me question my quality life. It’s really painful.