Hi everyone. First time posting here, long time lurking here.

I have this thing where if I think of of something really terrible that happened to me as a teen, and even more recent stuff, I will unconsciously say something like "Fuck" or "I hate you" or just a grunt if I can control it (especially around other people). All these gutteral responses come from a sudden rush of shame or regret. When I am alone, falling asleep, they come on much more strongly. Wondering if any one else does this, or if perhaps this is a sign of something else like OCD. I know you guys arent doctors. Just wanted some general feedback. I get medical insurance in January and will being it up then.