Im so sick
Of people leaving
And me being left behind
To endure the parting
And im so tired 
Of being like this 
Constantly on edge 
I want to give back 
To the world
All the ruin that
It gave to me
And so
I want you all of you to know
That even though Im thinking of 
A billion possibilities of why 
Im not good enough
And where
I should have done better
I am also thinking
Of a billion different ways 
To bring suffering to everyone
Who has ever left me 
In a state like this
I want to see your ruin 
And Ill do it with my own hands
Now dye Red stained 
The world is mine