Recently me and my girlfriend for almost 3 years broke up. She was my first girlfriend, basically first for almost everything. But since then the loneliness is becoming way to much. I've masked my depression from my friends and I'm too scare to tell them. I also have really bad anxiety which makes it worse for me to talk to people. I can only hold a short conversation for a few hours then I end up just repeating myself and then just stop speaking.