I was a crier when I was a kid don’t get me wrong. Cry when I got hurt, cry (&amp;tantrum) when I either didn’t get my way or couldn’t express how I was feeling verbally, cry when I was center of attention/had to talk out loud (hello social anxiety).

I still struggle with social anxiety, and it’s actually upgraded/added generalized anxiety, so I’m basically constantly anxious; which really sucks. But I’m 23 now and I still cry, if not more then I did when I was a kid.

I cry if I want to do something but my anxiety is preventing me from doing so. I cry if I mess up a painting (I’m an artist). I cry if I don’t have anything to do &amp; overwhelmed with the thought of “I should be doing something productive right now”. I cry if someone asks me for help &amp; I decline because I’m busy. I cry if I don’t feel I’ve done enough for the day (I’m unemployed so I don’t really have a daily set schedule, I make it up as I go). I cry if I want to hangout with a friend, but I back out last minute because my social anxiety is too heavy to go thru with the plans. I cry even MORE when I result in crying to release stress because crying is time consuming and makes my mind scrambled/prolongs what I should be doing/pauses what I’m doing. 

This is not a fun way to live. And I have absolutely no control over my crying, TRUST ME. I’ve tried all the ways of preventing &amp; stopping crying, and NOTHING works.