This month was the first time ever I’ve had a manic break down. Actually, having my breakdown caused a lot of relief because I went to see a psychiatrist and I found out I have PTSD &amp; am bipolar. Finally got answers to my many mental questions. But I am finally coming down from the episodes and I am traumatized. This month was intense. I lost 10 pounds. Still not able to eat. I NEVER knew how powerful the mind is and how important mental health is. I was going crazy. I couldn’t trust my own feelings. One moment I’m in a high euphoria next moment I’m depressed but beyond depressed. I can’t concentrate. I can’t look at people in the face or be around them, I would hit myself. I literally was going crazy. The thing is I’ve always been a strong minded strong willed person but my life completed changed and shift in ONE month. I cannot believe this is my new normal. And learning how to relive because I am experiencing and going through things I’ve never dealt with. I feel like I’m grieving the old me. I just want to hug my young self. It’s just overwhelming. No one understands except for this Reddit forum. But I am thankful God really has helped me see how much good change finally being diagnosed will bring.