I honestly don't know if that's a symptom of bpd or social anxiety or whatever, but it just feels so hard making friends. When I meet someone I tend to fake into being a totally different person, I try to appear fun and edgy and interesting, but when they start coming closer, trying to arrange going out with me or something I immediately get scared and shut down, I don't know why I do that, I guess I'm afraid they will understand I'm not that fun and reject me and I rather reject them first. Does this happen to anyone else?