I feel like I am at such a low point in my life at the moment that I only feel "ok" when I am distracting myself from that overwhelming feeling of emptiness and dread and sadness that I feel.  
My day consists of waking up with this heavy feeling and blackness in my chest, and the rest of the day is spent trying to distract my brain by binging Netflix shows, watching shit on Youtube, talking to people to get a small boost of happiness.

But when I am alone with nothing the feeling comes back, and it is worse at night.  The moment I switch Netflix off that blackness creeps back, the thoughts creep in, I can't breathe properly from the anxiety and I have to distract my brain with something else until I am too exhausted and have to fall asleep, usually around 4am.

My mum and my friends who try and help me keep offering advice along the lines of "if you do something productive or sleep earlier you'll feel better" but I just can't and I don't know how to communicate that to them.

I just don't know how to deal with all of these emotions.