I've just come to a strange realisation. I always though very few people came to find reciprocal love, and for the vast majority (i.e. me) crushing is one sided. I've never thought much of crushes, growing up I never realised the aim was to have crushes reciprocate my feelings, until recently with my FP. 

Been crushing for over 2 years and I've somehow subconsciously hoping that by bugging them with my love enough, they would give in. This has made me realise that for some reason I've always thought that finding an SO was about persistent one-sided love until the other person just gives in and goes along with it. 

Does this explain why I've been forever single? What am I supposed to feel/ want/ hope for/ do for a relationship? I'm so confused, I have no reference of a non-toxic long-term relationship to go by outside of fiction. 