Currently I'm dealing with the situation of "what's the point of life" etc.

I used to be so introverted as a child and it my early teens but now I am a non stop radio, literally every second of my life is filled by noise from my mouth because I hate silence around me, that being unless I have my headphones in to fill the void. Me constantly talking is stressful as it pushes people away, makes me look like I have extremely poor social skills and never shut up. I've suffered from anxiety and depression for quite some time now and it's taking a toll, literally can't be asked to leave my house incase I do something wrong. No matter how I go about my business I constantly feel like everything I do is wrong and over analyze it. I don't always understand social queues or anything like that so it's hard for me to fit in socially.

Relationships are rarely made and connections are self sabotaged without any reason. 

I have two full time jobs which I have managed to keep for the past 3 1/2 years which is a great accomplishment for me, I've always had great feedback from customers and people I work with but anytime I receive any compliments or feedback I shut the conversation down due to feeling like people are only saying these things to make me feel better.

Most, if not all people find me weird due to my tone of voice and opinions. It's just a chaotic mess if entirely honest. If I can't do what "normal" people do then where do I go?

Do I just lock myself away from society to go insane or do I keep trying?

I don't really have suicidal thoughts but all this is really baffling to deal with.