When I’m anxious and I’m out-and-about, I find that calling someone makes me feel better. 

The first person I usually go to is my mum, but after starting a new job, she never answers. I do have a diagnosed anxiety disorder (panic disorder), so she definitely has a good reason to pick up (if anyone asks her). I want to say something about her lack of response, but I feel so selfish because I know she can’t be as available as before.

I guess it’s because she told me she can still stay on the line but not speak as much, which I’m more than happy with. But, she’s not even picking up.

I guess I need to stop being dependent on someone else because that’s not a good way to live. But, I feel so uncomfortable with the anxiety I feel when I’m by myself.

Sorry about all this; I just needed to rant/vent.