Ever since I’ve been told I had bpd I’ve been obsessed with the fact that I have it. Is this normal? Like I feel more self aware and more pity for myself it almost makes me feel like I’ve gotten worse even though ive been in therapy for a little for it. I like don’t understand the need. Maybe it’s validation or maybe it’s just how it is but I just feel like I’m craving something out of it and I don’t know what.