I’m going through a breakup and the breakup was largely my fault due to my instability. 

Things have turned sour with my ex and, I regret that I made things that way. He basically blocked me on Instagram and changed up all his profile pictures, I was angry with him for it. As the picture he had chosen was one of me and him and it hurt that he just cut me out like that. 

I guess he moved on a long time ago. I’m having a pretty difficult time with this and don’t have any friends to turn to. My mum is trying to help but I just feel so incredibly lonely. 

I became so attached to my ex, he became  my everything. I lost sight of who I am. 

I’m currently back at my parents house after
moving out from my ex’s flat. I feel so so alone. I just sleep in and try and get whatever freelance work I can done. Today I was feeling fine then reached out to him and got angry. He said this is the reason we broke up. I get it, but he was partly to blame too. 

I also started snooping around Instagram at my ex before this one and found he’s in a relationship. They look so happy, he still is wearing the bracelet I bought him which made me feel kind of happy. 

Why does everyone else get to move on and be happy and here I am back to the usual lonely state I always end up in. 

I have no one to talk to and need to get out of this rut. I don’t know where to go with life I feel so confused and lost. 