I’m sure many can relate that you will be having a few great weeks or months then BAM, you spiral and you spiral so far down that you think the only way out is the letter. 

I have it saved on my phone and it tears me up that my mind fucks up that much. If I’m always going to be spiraling… is this maybe the best way out?

Family and friends gets nervous everytime I spiral and maybe if I was just gone they wouldn’t have to worry anymore. 

I was on the train yesterday and just kept thinking fuck, I can end it just here. 

Don’t want to live like this anymore.