Just having a rough day/time and wanted to post somewhere. I'm currently sitting in my office at work trying not to cry because I'm just miserable all the time lately. I've heartwrenchingly cried at night the last 3 nights because I miss my grandpa who passed in October and I miss my ex-husband who divorced me and left for the army the same week my grandpa died. I'm overwhelmed with current and upcoming bills and I have to take my car in for a diagnostic exam because it started smelling like straight fuel when I turned the heater on today. The cost of everything in life has gone up, I feel constantly lonely and abandoned, and overwhelmed, and I'm so sad and tired. 

I'm just drowning and having a bad day today. I wish I still believed in magic or love, but I don't believe in anything anymore.