TW // self harm, suicide
sorry just want to vent and ask for some self soothe ideas after a horrendous evening- 
had a few drinks at my mums house and then went home to my boyfriend and then just lost the plot and became extremely suicidal, creating a plan. not sure why or what happened. i phoned the crisis line and they were pretty unhelpful,so i went to a&amp;e, my boyfriend drove me and picked up my dad and my friend.

had the usual assessment with the psychiatrists. he wanted to section me for 28 days. i just did not want to do that at all, the idea of it really panicked me. he instead decided to get someone to visit me and put me on lorazepam for a few days to make me calm down until i get proper therapy again.

just been a really stressful time and it’s so scary to lack that control and everything, as well as hurting those around me (not physically! more emotionally from me being suicidal). i’m lucky to have people around me that are supportive but it doesn’t help making me feel more like a burden.

any advice or just encouragement would be amazing - thank u x