Currently in the process of trying to get benzos. It's the only thing that works for my severe anxiety, my panic attacks, and my flashbacks of traumatic events such as watching my mother die violently at the age of 16.

I'm at the end of my rope. Please do not tell me "it gets better" or "just hold on'. I have been trying for nearly a decade. I cannot live like this anymore. 

Thanks, dipshit teenagers and rappers for making the lives of real people with real problems insufferable.