I usually see my bf fridays and saturdays but I can't this week because of my parents. I'm already distraught and then he says that he cant see me next week too because he has exams to study for. i literally do not know what to do next week, i would normally have classes to occupy me at least somewhat but i have 3 days off and usually the only thing that keeps me going is that im going to see him on the weekend. I have no other friends and nothing to do and it seriously feels like my heart is going to explode from crying because on top of that he can't text me during the day anymore and can only call me for an hour at night. i know its wrong but i feel like he doesnt care at all

im also worried about staying in bed all day and getting depressed, my mental health is at its lowest point already and im scared that without the motivation of being able to see him or at least him sending me messages anymore i'll become worse. i'm already terribly suicidal (and no i can't go to the hospital its a long story but its not an option) i just feel like this is going to be such a low point for me.

does anyone whos been in a situation like this have any tips to make it better please