The BPD symptoms I have related to a low sense of self and chronic emptiness cause me great stress in my life and career. One day I think I want to be a career woman, finish my bachelor's degree and take the CPA exam. In the two years it took me to advance from an associate's degree to a bachelor's I have lost all interest in this lifestyle. In the past I would get a really great job with great pay after a year or two I would be so bored and burnt out with it and couldn't figure out why I hated it so much since I was paid well and treated well. I could rationalize that it didn't make sense to quit and stay there for years knowing I was absolutely miserable. Now I know this is a huge issue people with BPD face. I almost prefer to have a terrible job now so I know I can quit stress free at any time. I would literally agonize over leaving such a "great job" knowing that it was an awful decision to make and worried I would never find something else as good and regret it. I am an extremely logical person so when my BPD symptoms cause me to want to make bad decisions it causes me so much inner turmoil to fight against it because I know its wrong but at the same time I'm not happy in my current situation either.