i am ignoring my fp right now (hes my best friend or at least he used to be). im splitting on him and im pretty tired of it. im not sure if this is justified or if its irrational. i feel like he doesnt value me and i feel like our relationship isnt the same anymore. he really doesnt seem emotionally intelligent and just leaves me on read or says 'that sucks' when i talk about my problems. once i was really upset and i made it really clear i was upset over text, he left me on read and didnt talk to me for 3 weeks. later he said he didnt know what to say to me. that hurt pretty bad but i 'got over it' like i always do. but im not over it and of course all the things come spilling out later. im also not over the fact hes still pretty good friends (i think they are better friends than we are) with my ex who lowkey destoryed my already really fucked up mental health. i talked to him about it but he said hes friends with him bc hes been friends with him for a long time. so i stopped talking about that. in general i just feel disatistifed with this friensahip and i have been for a year now. idk if this is irrational but i dont want a friend who just wants to hang out when everythings nice and wonderful. last 2 weeks ive been very suicidal and i have had nobody to talk to. even if i tried to talk to him like: hey im rlly suicidal rn and dont wanna be alone he would probably say he cant hang out bc he is going out with his gf or his other friends. i dont know if im being irrational but i just want normal friends who give a fuck. nobody seems to take my disorder seriously and everyone seems to weopanize my emotions against me when i feel anything and invalide them because im 'overreacting'. idk what to do. im planning on telling him that i just dont think he treats me well and i feel more sad in this friendship and that we should just stop being friends. the worst thing is i think he will just say aw im sorry that you feel this way but okay. he wont even think twice about it or try harder.