My mom was in a really bad condition 8months ago. She was connected to one of those heart monitor or something thing-y and on it I saw the number '87' and since then I can't stop seeing it!

I remember it was 87 because I used to use this number for my usernames. My cousin did first and I got the idea from him but that was years ago.

First it was me randomly checking my battery % to see that it's 87 or my teachers would randomly write it or me randomly opening the page 87 or even a post on any social media with only 87 likes or comments! Once I was watching the movie prediction from 2009 and there was a line in the movie that said '81+6' this shi really creeped me out. Once on two different commercials on my TV it displayed '88' and the other one '86'! I know it's not 87 but that's two coincidence at once!

I can't go one single day without seeing it.

I simply came to the conclusion that maybe my mind was just focused on this too much that's why I keep on noticing it everywhere but at the same time my mind keeps on telling me that there's more behind it so I went on every meaning behind 87 (its spiritual meaning, 87 days after my moms hospitalization etc...) in conclusion my mind won't let me believe that it's just a coincidence or it's just me idk. 

I also came across a video on tiktok where man was explaining his experience with schizophrenia. He said that when he sees a blank page he sees faces on it and I do too but on walls. It's not really faces tho they are more like characters I have NEVER seen and constantly change as long as I'm watching it idk if this has anything to do with schizophrenia but when I look at an object for like 5secs or more and move my eyes away, i see the outlines of that object for like 10secs or something! For example right now I'm watching the back of a chair, when I move my eyes from it I see the SAME EXACT details on it on blank walls or not necessarily. The outlines are more like colorful shadows. 

Idk if this is important but I sometimes feel things touching me when there's nothing there. Like ants on my body or something. I don't hear any voices tho or anything.

So what does any of you think?