I’m seeing a psychiatrist later this week after having a really bad relapse into my depression and anxiety as well as having some new issues after I moved away for college. I’ve seen a psych before and I was on zoloft for a couple years, but I really don’t remember any of it that well (also was a minor at the time, so the process was different) and I’m nervous for how this is going to go. 
I struggle with emotional permanence/describing a symptom or experience when I’m not actively experiencing it, to the point that I convince myself it wasn't real or I was being dramatic/attention seeking. I’m trying to write things down as they come up, but right now I have a long and unorganized outline. I’m scared of not being able to get to all of it and getting misdiagnosed or misunderstood. I had an intake at my school’s counseling center and I really struggled— getting scared and answering questions wrong (like actually just incorrect to my experience). I ended it crying because she asked me what I wanted to do next (making an appointment for therapy etc) and I couldn’t decide.   
I’m also scared about the possibility of going on medication. Zoloft was what I needed at the time but I don’t want to go back on it due to side effects. I know I can do my own research on anything they prescribe me but it just all feels like a big decision at a time that I don’t trust myself to make any decisions. 
I guess I need both advice about just calming myself down before the appointment, and also a good "strategy" to have the most successful experience possible and actually get the help I need. Does anyone have ideas on how to prepare?