I (21m) am in college. I am a kissless virgin. When I am at campus, I notice people with guys and cute girls in their friend group. I wish I had that. I have only one friend that is nice, but all we do for fun during weekends is play video games. I am shy (I have been shy my whole life) and I think very boring, I don't have jokes. Every weekend I see large groups of guys and girls drunk, and dressed to look for parties. I feel sad because I am missing out. Occasionally I will also attend a party, but I will stand in a corner and do nothing. (I try drinking alcohol to get me to talk, but it does not help me. When I am too drunk I am an idiot.) I have no friends there and will leave early. I return to my room and pity myself the rest of the night. Saying stuff like " why am I like this?" or "why doesnt socializing and meeting people come natural to me?" All I do is go to class then during weekends, I feel empty inside. I go on walks around campus sometimes in the weekend and see others having fun and socializing. It makes me feel depressed and I don't know what to do.