I have OCD, Depression and BPD i sttruggle with self harm and i tatted both my sleeves so i can no longer cut myself, my life for the past 2 years have been parties and a lot of drug abuse like xanax promethazine weed lsd and ecstasy, just experimenting on myself see how much i could take and not OD but i ended up overdosing on a mixture of prescriptions and 600mg ecstasy on purpose and survived, i have corrupted my mind entirely and don't know what do, every day i'm playing russian roulette.