She has asked me to leave for years, blamed me for a lot, but I always wanted to be close in case she needed me.  

Now I’m living someplace else, maybe just for the summer, but WOW now that I am just a half step away I can realize how tormented she is.  I wish she was not tormented, questioning my every word, and intentions of others, she is an amazing, loving person, and mother, but her mind just won’t shut off.   I can now sense what it would be like without her and it’s sad but also calming-since I know life can be better for me at least.  

I have tremendous respect for women with BPD, it’s not your fault, and I wish women were treated better so many would not suffer from BPD.  

That’s all.