Where I live (and I think in most western countries), BPD qualifies as a disability, and therefore you can get financial aid from the gov if you’re unable to work. 

There’s been a number of times in my life where I’ve felt that I should stop working and go on disability for the short term, but I never have out of fear that I would never feel “ready” to return to work. And then there’s also the overwhelming feeling that if I go on disability I’ll be a failure. Whatever that means. 

I started college this September (a huge deal for me), and work has become extra overwhelming. I’m worried that continuing work could sabotage my ability to do well in school.

Basically I’m just wondering if anyone has ever left work on account of their BPD and gone on financial aid. Did it help? Did you return to the same job after? How long did it take? How did you manage to still feel like a “productive member of society” (I hate capitalism, yet this is somehow still super important to me??)