And he's going to be leaving in 6 weeks. After being in therapy since February, trying to commit suicide, and being switched to him in april I finally got comfortable with starting to open up to him a bit just to find out that he'll be leaving in 6 weeks and I'll have to start all over with a new therapist. I know he's doing the clinicals that he needs to but I don't know why the fuck they assigned me to him if they knew he was leaving so soon. Yeah let's give the person with the deep seated abandonment issues to the therapist that's temporarily here. Beyond that my depression has gotten a lot worse since they switched me from prozac to zoloft (I was tired literally all the time. Still am). In addition to this we're leaving for the field in 2 weeks and last time we went was a *really* low point for me and if they think I'm changing in a tent in front of people or taking a shower in front of people they're fucking wrong. So they're also going to make me do that probably, and also they're going to cancel all my appointments while we're in the field and there's apparently no way I can stay here while they're in the field. I told my senior PS that I very much could end up in the hospital again and he just gave me a lecture about how bad people who are deployed right now have it. Sorry to bother you guys but I really needed to get this off my chest.