

• I am extremely insecure and jealous of other women and have no idea how to turn it off

• I am constantly accusing the men I ever romantically entertain of having multiple women, even when it makes no sense

• I'm a pathological hypocrite.  I get angry if the people I love have celebrity crushes and it triggers severe depression even though I have them myself 

• I go through their social media if they have it in order to catch them in a lie or liking stuff from other women/following other women 

• My virginity is all I have right now.. and although I wish I could find the strength and security to experience love making, If I lost my virginity and got cheated on and played, I'd be scared for my safety.

• I can't afford therapy or anything. 


So, I've been single without any sex for 29 years and I'll be 30 in 5 months . By staying single, I am helping myself and others and saving them from the headache I KNOW I'd give them.

 I am now 99.999% sure I'm gonna die a virgin, without knowing how it feels to hold, kiss, and make love to someone I hold my intense feelings for. 

Everybody else gets to have boyfriends and girlfriends and these things are minor to them but I just had to be Borderline. 

I feel so alone, left out, &amp; lame. People think virgins are lame and on top of that I'm forced to be a virgin because I can't control my intense emotions.

This sucks.