Today I (14m) got into a fight with my dad (45m) and stepmom Aubrey (48m). So as I was eating breakfast my dad was asking me how I was doing. It was going fine until he said he and Aubrey were thinking about taking me and my sisters (all 16f) on a family vacation. 


For clarification I don’t like feeling like I’m taking money from my family and it makes it really hard for me to accept gifts from people. For example last year at Christmas I got an iTunes gift card from my aunt and I still haven’t even used it because I feel like I would be taking money from her.


Anyways I said no thanks and he got sad and asked me if I was okay. I lied and told him I was fine but he could tell I was lying. He asked me if I was really fine and I said I was. He said that he knows I’m not really fine and that it’s okay to talk to him. I couldn’t help it and just started crying and when he and Aubrey tried to hug me I pushed them away and just left and walked to school early.


I feel terrible because I understand that my family is just trying to support me but I just can’t help it. I feel like I ruin everything and that every time someone tries to help me I push them away. My sisters have texted me and have been asking me how I’m doing and such along with that my mom (41f) called me and said she is going to get my therapy session set for Saturday and that I should apologize to my dad and Aubrey cause they love me and want to help.


I don’t know how to. How do I apologize and does anyone have any advice on how to get better with my depression.