since I can remember people always bullied me and sometimes my own family does it, they were the ones who broke me before someone did it and although they caused me a lot of traumas I never stopped loving them. 

I'm losing myself again and I don't like the feeling, I feel like a burden to my parents, the last time I tried to leave I saw my dad crying and that hurt a lot and now that feeling comes back and every time I try to speak of my problems with my parents they always ignore me and tell me that I am crazy, I feel that if I do not vent now I will lose myself completely now.