Tl;dr ive been out of oxy, Diaz and quitiapine for days, local doc couldn’t help bc its not my usual gp. Gp doesn’t work til Monday. Had a freak out at ER after 3.5-4 hours (empty waiting room, i was told I was next upon entering). Panic attack, signed release forms and stabbed my arm deeply a few times with the pen then dropped it on the floor. Fucking awful behaviour by me and I called an apologised. This illness is rough guys and I don’t know what to do besides meditate and mindfulness. ——mod warn me, or redditors tell me to delete this, first time here but i dont think I broke a rule?