Like- like love is something a far distant thing 

That when you’re alone, it doesn’t feel like anyone has ever cared or loved you.

And it’s so easy to slip into self isolation to leave friend groups.

To withdraw into yourself.
Even as you’re hurting 

Even as you hate being alone 
How it eats you alive
Even as it means you succumbing to the self.



 Replaying pieces of conversation.

“You shouldn’t enable someone by staying w them”
“You don’t need to stay with the person for an entire week, you don’t need to spend that much time with them,normal friendships don’t work like that.”

“Do you know who that is? That is his girlfriend”

To clarify I put the boundaries tighter when I found out he had a gf but still having a fp hurts. It really does.

It’s their birthday
Am I a downer?
Should I just not appear.

I mean they have plenty of friends there and they are a really good person  it be a shame for me to ruin the day with my stupid emotions…