I've been trying so hard but I don't think I can handle it anymore. Having to be around many people, having to be the center of attention most of the time, group work, I've done it so many times yet I'm not getting better. If anything it gets worse and worse. The worst thing is, the lessons and exams aren't even that hard, I could go through it easily if it wasn't for this thing that's holding me back. But I know that's not how it works outside of college, when I get to have a job I'd have to put up with people and their shit again. Thinking about that makes me not just want to drop out of college, but to drop out of life altogether.