I don’t know what do to do anymore. Everything seems so pointless. I feel miserable. I’m 22 I don’t have any friends or a boyfriend. I’m so fucking lonely. I just want to get drunk everyday. Numb all the pain inside. I ruined my life and I literally can’t do anything about it. Nobody is gonna help me. I have no one. I had so many opportunities! It’s all gone now! I have nothing left. I’m forced now to get a job because I’m broke. But how when my anxiety is really bad?! My anxiety is only gone when I’m drinking or smoking but I can’t work like that. It will destroy my body. I’m living with my grandparents right now. I have an appointment at a therapist soon but I don’t want to get better. I lost everyone that cared about me &amp; I will never meet people like that anymore cause I’m getting worse everyday. I feel like a horrible person. I really would need the right people around me, someone to love me. I know i need to help myself but it looks impossible! I don’t want to feel this lonely anymore! Is this my destiny? To die all alone? I feel like I can’t even die cause I never even lived? Can anyone relate?