I feel like no matter what I do, I am never satisfied. I have the perfect partner, one of the better jobs a college student can get, and I’m pursuing the education that I want. I was not working for a full year, and I was completely reliant on other people for my finances, now I finally have money for myself and I am still sad. I cry every few days because I am so exhausted from being at work, and I have no motivation at all to do the things that I like. I lose my self of identity and dreams constantly. I just want to get better, BPD is so hard sometimes :(.

 I have a DBT worksheet my psycho-therapy counsellor gave me, but I have no energy or motivation to open it either. I don’t even know what this post is for, I guess it’s just ranting and venting with people that understand what I’m going through.