So I'm questioning a lot of different things lately such as morality, spirituality, religion, matrix, and simulation. Like what's real whats not whats the truth. Like if there is people who experience stuff in Christianity or Islam or aliens or reincarnation or people have had experiences or gone through this stuff. Whats real or whats not. It makes me struggle with dying and the afterlife. Also dealing with conspiracy theories, vaccine issues, elite, reptilian, and all that stuff. also dealing with anxiety and issues of questioning my morality like am I bad or good person like I only did good things to feel good or to not suffer in some sort of hell or issue not I did good from the bottom of my heart. Or am I not committing bad things due to laws and or fear of consequence basically telling myself if such things didn't exist I would be bad and do bad things which is just a weird fucked up thought of mine. And I discovered collapse-awareness and It just drove my anxiety and ocd way up high like why do I care so much about the world and how it is why am I selfish because I wanna survive I wanna live am I good due to just fear of religion God or some sort of karma or would I commit bad acts. What the fuck is wrong with my mind and the way I think I don't know anymore and I'm losing it. If I wasn't scared of life after death I would have killed myself by now.