I've never reflected much upon it until recently. And the more I think about it the more irritated I get with myself for not being able to remember anything basically. I can't even remember recent fights because I dissociate. How am I supposed to be able to remember childhood trauma? I've trying really hard recently to remember, anything? Not just trauma but any memories from my childhood? All blurry...

I know SOMETHING happened. But all I can remember are the feelings I felt, but the memories are completely blank. It's super frustrating. I'm not even sure if they are legit? Do I even want to know if they are?