I was so happy and was finally excited have a REAL Valentine's Day. 


But it just couldn't pan out, could it? 


It's been months since I last cut myself but boy this must be what an addict feels like when they need a fix. I'm so so tired of living and I just don't want to do it anymore.  I'm so tired of getting excited only to have that taken away from me. 


I was so happy last week. I wish I had the guts to end this. I wish I was stronger.