I've always felt that I want to, I need to, I have to run away from the people I know and restart somewhere else where noone knows me. obviously that's difficult to do with no money so I usually just do it with petty things. for example from time to time I delete my social media profiles then start new ones without telling it to people. so in these cases I lose friendships and people because obviously they have no clue what happened to me. that just feels... good. I mean it doesn't give me WOW THAT FEELS GOOD feeling but I feel it's the right thing to do. it's safe.

but I always have to realize that if I run away I'll have to do that again because even if I'm extremely careful to not make new friendships or new acquaintances I'll have to because of million reasons. and I don't want to be known by people, I want to disappear. it's not about death, I just want a life where noone knows anything about me.