im just probably acting pathetic. my mom keeps telling me that its normal to feel like this. but i dont think my friends dont enjoy anything, feel like a burden, feel like someone that nobody needs, feel like a complete loser, want to die and disappear. if this is normal than what is the point of life anyway? if we are here without choosing to exist why do we have to live a life we dont want to? i always convince myself that everything will be okay if this and that happens but the reality is that nothing happens. it will never get better.