I can barely feel anything if at all. My friend group is falling apart. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia which has caused all the drugs i used to cope to make my mental worse. i feel like i’m running out of time. i’m bored of everything i do. i don’t know how to change even though i know i should. i feel like i’m a terrible person even though others have said otherwise. i don’t know how to be authentic. i don’t know who i am, not even a little. i feel like i don’t exist. i’m losing hope for a good ending