So this is probably gonna be long and rambling but I just feel like I’m gonna explode and I had to rant. I grew up abused by my parents, and a lot of people I’ve talked to, including mental health professionals, have told me that the abuse was really severe. 
And then I got to college, and I had this friend group. At first everyone was really nice, so I got REALLY attached to them, I literally felt like they were my family, and after 19 years of being hated by my biological family, I really wanted a family. But they actually turned out to be really awful people as well. They manipulated me and bullied me like really badly. They would make me cry on purpose because they thought it was funny. And I still wanted to be their friend even though they did that, I didn’t realize what awful people they actually were. The bullying continued for the whole school year until I was suicidal at the end of the year. 
I had to be hospitalized in a psych ward twice and transfer colleges to get over it. And then, months after I thought I was over it, one of the bullies randomly started harassing me on social media, which just redid all the trauma I went through. And, on top of that, I tried reporting him to the college for harassment, and they said he did nothing wrong, but when I responded to him and did exactly the same thing to him that he did to me, they said that I was harassing him. 
I just feel so angry at everyone. I’m angry at my parents, at the bullies from my college, and the administration from my college. Even my so-called “best friend” always defended my abusers and I feel angry at her for it. Sometimes I feel like it’s all a big conspiracy. I sometimes think those people bullied me because they WANTED me to kill myself. I feel like everyone in my life is out to get me, even when they tell me that isn’t true. I do have a few good people in my life who genuinely care about me, but it seems like the bad people in my life outnumber the good people by a lot. DAE feel this way?