Like, something I need to get around to doing sooner or later. Like "I should clean my room soon", you know. "I should get around to doing that."

I'm a lot more methodical after getting fucked by life a bunch of ways. I tried to kill myself this time last year and I owe like $10,000 to the hospital. From that point forward it just became a matter of time, and I'm getting closer. 

Like.. I got better and stopped drinking and then I resurfaced in reality and realized how much I fucked up, and that it's really not fixable. :/

Some people are just unlucky, you know?