I read a lot about individuals with BPD being manipulative and being liars... I’ve never found that true of myself (I have BPD). I hate the stigma because I feel that anyone who knows about BPD will automatically write me off as a lying deceiving b* . Idk if it’s my trauma or the way I was raised but I find it super hard to lie to others- even if it’s to protect them or it’s just a little white lie, and I even find it hard to ask for what I want or need. I don’t think I am manipulative or steering others to get my way, I some how WISH I had an ounce of strength to actually assert my needs.
Does anyone else find this odd? I know Ofc the symptoms and stigmas around BPD are relative to each person suffering- but I see this “symptom” a lot when reading on my disorder, and I don’t see that within myself. Anyone else?