I just wanted everyone to be happy. But I am exhausted. I can’t find happiness. I  had a mostly happy childhood except my dad said I annoyed everyone. anyways I am in discomfort everyday, exhausted from chronic illness. I can’t drive far because I’m exhausted and my eyes will close. I like life, but it’s to hard for me. And please don’t tell me to work hard. I made mistakes in high school. I lost a few friends. Anyways I would be fine with falling asleep forever kind of but it’s scary but the thing I’m most afraid of is hurting my dad. It’s not because I love him. I just can’t go on feeling like a loser, I’m terrified of getting a job. So I’m not sure what’s worse. I love my fam but I’m lost