I did something small and stupid and unimportant that I ended up apologizing for but I can't get it out of my head and I feel awful. I feel ill. People should just ignore me. Stop talking to me. They're probably sick of hearing me talk anyway. I would be. I'm not going to stop talking but that's because I'm a coward who would rather force her presence on others than be alone. The one person who might be able to make me feel better is asleep and I can't wake him. I can't. He said I could wake him but it ruins his day, I know it does. I can't wake him. I can't walk all the way to his room, I can't knock loudly enough on the door. I would just be awkwardly standing in the hallway until I started crying and turned around.

I'm just stupid and annoying.

I don't know what to do.