A few months ago my therapist told me that I have "emotional dysregulation disorder" and when I found out that was a nice way of saying I have BPD I kind of dismissed it and thought she was just trying to get rid of me or something lol. But the more I thought about it, the more my behaviour makes so much sense and now I...kind of feel like she was right. But now I'm freaking out because I don't know what to believe anymore. Were all the times I was upset justified? Have I been the toxic one all along?? I really am having a hard time because I'm wondering how many people I've been unfairly suspicious of because of this. I've hurt so many people because of this. I don't even know how much of my personality is ACTUALLY me or just the result of this disorder. I feel so lost. I hate how I am, I hate that I can't self-regulate, I don't even know where to start for help because apparently therapists don't like BPD patients. I just feel so lost and i just don't know what to believe.