This is a huge problem for me. Unless I’m constantly validated by people (my best friend with benefits) it just doesn’t exist and it isn’t true. I have a small butt and he loves it apparently but I’ll look at other women and absolutely crucify myself. I look at myself in the mirror and cry looking at my face and body. I have grown to think that if guys find my body attractive that I am worth something, even though I don’t want to feel like a piece of meat. I posted nudes on Reddit when I was 18 and got high off the validation when in reality all those guys would say the same thing to anybody else. I immediately regretted it after and hated myself for it. 

I feel like if I’m not happy with myself I will never be happy in general. I’ll go through periods where I’ll feel myself but immediately go back to hating myself in like an hour.