I'm tired of it!

I'm tired of being told by people better than me that I should be okay with who I am. Like they fucking know! Like they'd be fucking okay!  Like they'd have any idea! 

It's fucking constant. It just is. They all expect me to settle for something they'd never settle for. They expect me to live a life worth so much less than anything they'd ever want for themsleves. They don't fail. They don't make mistakes. But they lean over my shoulder and they tell me, "it's okay! These things happen. The world goes on."

I wouldn't need to love myself, if I was just like these people. Cause I wouldn't make these mistakes. Cause i'd be good enough. 

A part of me knows that this is a delusion. But IDC.