Hi, Hope all are doing well today.  


So this one girl i want to talk to in class she is a very good friend(atleast for me) and i just love chatting with her cause my suicidal tendencies go away but she replies in like hourssss but its almost like she chooses to ignore mine until some strong mood change comes cause my friend has told me she replies to him fairly sooner and i am losing it.  


One person who kept me going is now straying further and further away. I wish i could tell all of this to her but it would seem like i am begging for it and forcing her to reply.  


I am introverted and dont know how to start a convo but i send her memes to atleast get a reaction but no atleast 5 hours she will take and today when she replied she just asked "what happened in school today" no acknowledgment of the reels and memes and this makes me think that she dosent even wanna talk to me and that i should just kill myself as i have been told many times.  


Anyways hope everyone has a great day!