I feel like there is something missing in my live. Even tho I have a girlfriend I'm rarely happy. 2 years ago I couldn't even imagine to get this far in school but now that I am i am still not happy. There are days where I could just cry all the time and on days where i don't feel that sad I am still not happy. It just feels like there is a big part of my live that is missing. I can't figure at what or who it could be.

Maybe i miss the times when i had crushes on girls that i knew would never ever date me. My live just feels pointless and i am not looking forward to anything. I used to think that by the time i had a girlfriend everything would be better but it kinda isn't and i also lost my only goal in live. I am just existing and that's exhausting.