I have been always a leader. I started my first web development company when I was 15. I dropped out of my college and started a successful product company and things were really great until I turned 27. It took a hard turn with my bipolar. I became manic and spend all of my savings plus my company account balance on stupid lifestyle things when I hit for the first time.

I became obsessed with an employee girl in my office and did some stupid things to impress her. I didn't even notice her before my mania. I became a laughing stock in front of my employees. I was admitted to a mental institute during my first manic episode at 27. This continued for another 4 more times and each time I lost a lot of money and employees and loyal partners until they all resigned from my company and I was forced to shut down my business and go back to my parent's place and a huge suppression hit me during the covid lockdown.

Now, after 3 years, I gained some confidence and decided to join a software company as a project manager. Regret hits me hard. Really hard. When the owners of my current company video called and give me first introductions, My heart was crashing down as I never worked for anyone. Now I'm sitting in a cubicle, one of many employees, looking at my watch thinking when can I leave the place and go home.

A target I set myself is 1 year, I continue to work here somehow and I will get out and start my business again.