Hi all,
Just venting here as I am struggling to keep it together.  I am in a good relationship with a decent guy. Of course I'm looking for ways to sabotage it. I get bored or jealous or both. Sometimes I peg him as a bad person. Cant seem to turn my brain off and just be happy/satisfied. So, what do I do? Go out and mess around with a toxic individual which in turn creates guilt and more self loathing. Ugh. Any words of wisdom? I know what is right and wrong...just cant seem to control those urges. :(