how is any of this even possible, I lost the ability to walk and then just outright could not move for 3 hours. i only just now can sit up again, even with the nicotine patch I put on when I started losing my balance. i feel so fucking bad and now I'm getting so depressed so fast.  
  
its only day 1 but I don't know how much more I can take. life in general these past two months have been so traumatic and painful, wellbutrin put me in my first psychosis which led to two more psychotic episodes within that week. few weeks later had a thc induced psychosis and since then never stopped hallucinating if I'm not on an AP. The hospital traumatized me this week and put me in so much fucking pain and didn't help me for so long. I'm physically fine where they hurt me now but I'm still getting shooting ptsd pains through there or some shit. i cant take it anymore, any of it