Get in bed, too late again, my mind is constantly rolling. Past, present, future, stressors, disturbing accidents when I was in EMS, I just can’t shut my mind down and I’ll either lie awake in bed or get on my phone. I know blue light bad but the distraction is what is mainly needed. 

I have struggled with bad thoughts before but got a grip on it in therapy, sometimes life just is too tough. Haven’t had a good cry in a minute though, might be just what’s needed. 

My gf doesn’t understand most of it, makes me feel alone.