I had a recent relapse due to my abusive mother (who doesn’t believe I have BPD, she just thinks it’s the autism) and I’m finding it hard to put into words what I need/want to say to a counsellor. 

There’s a whole bunch of stuff I want to talk about, I’m thinking of making a list and dividing it into “topics” like BPD stuff, asexuality/gender stuff, stuff about my Mum, etc. I’m thinking of getting my partner to help with this because I’m a really poor self-historian. 

Does anyone else have any suggestions? I want to talk about my violent thoughts I have towards myself basically every day but I don’t want to get thrown into a mental health unit if that makes sense? Not that I think University counsellors have the power to do that, but I’m still deeply ashamed of it. 

BPD is such a cunt and I’m just a mess over my mother being an emotionally abusive prick to me for all my life while thinking she’s the best parent in the world. She gaslights me so bad. Ugh. 


Sorry for the rant guys, I just needed to get it out. But if anyone has any advice on how to broach issues with a new counsellor, please let me know 💕