Idk what to do anymore and could use some advice... 

TW: abuse, sexual assault, graphic death description, depression, PTSD, ED

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I left a 9-year abusive relationship 7 months ago... He was a sociopath and narcissist and I'm completely emotionally drained and have a hard time feeling anything other than apathy or sadness

in my 27-year-old life I've been raped by 3 different guys, homeless twice. mother died of cancer 2 years ago and couldn't see her for 6 months when she was in the hospital due to C-19. A father figure died last summer in my arms after his throat was severed (an accident) and he bled out... I have major PTSD from that incident as well as from other things that have happened in my life. 

I've been in therapy for the last year but feel hardly any different. I'm in school trying to change my life, practice healthy coping mechanisms, got a stronger support system, and try to self-care. but I'm so emotionally tapped from everything that's happened in the past couple of years that I rarely feel happy or motivated to do anything. My sleep is shit and even when it's not I never feel refreshed... I have trouble waking up because I'm not living the life I want, there are very few things I look forward to. I have an eating disorder I am trying to recover from as well.. it just seems that everything that could go wrong in my life has... I'm so fucking tired.

How do I feel happy again for longer than a day? How do I cope with all of this? How do I feel normal again? I want to live but I suffer from major depression...I just want to move on and live a life worth living... I'm starting to lose hope ill ever feel normal again ... (no I'm not going to commit suicide or anything... just looking for some insight)