I have social anxiety but this past year I’ve pushed myself to get into uncomfortable settings that I know I can handle. I’m becoming more comfortable being myself. But my downfall is I constantly worry about the way people perceive me. I’m trying my best to let this go and I talk myself out of my intrusive thoughts but it’s a constant struggle honestly. It’s not just in person but online specifically Instagram. Im not sure if I’m the only one but Instagram in itself brings me lots of anxiety. Part of me is torn and I’m looking for some outside insight. For some background I have enjoyed Instagram because I’m able to follow pages I’m interested in but Im also able to share my fashion sense and connect with others online. Majority of my clothing is thrifted/second hand. I’m very much into sustainable fashion and up cycling pieces rather than resorting to fast fashion. I enjoy the process of taking the time to hand pick my pieces at the store then curating outfits. Most of my Instagram content is just that me and my outfits. I get so excited to see the reaction of my followers and what they think. The only issue is every time I post I get this pit in my stomach if I lose followers over the post or say it doesn’t do as well as I thought . I don’t necessarily care about losing followers but it makes me question whether what I shared was worth it or something I shouldn’t have posted. It’s feels so silly I second guess myself. I feel this inner conflict within myself fighting this anxiety and reminding myself I share my pictures because its my passion what others think shouldn’t phase. I wonder if it’s vain of me that I’m posting myself? Styling myself is my favorite part but combining this passion with social media worries me. Is this me wanting validation? Is this normal/healthy? Idk for me Instagram started off fun but now I have these second thoughts about how people see me. I just don’t want to come across as something I’m not and that’s what scares me about the internet. It’s been about a month or so since I’ve deactivated. It hasn’t really effected me I do feel a sense of peace of mind. I don’t have to worry about how I’m perceived I can just continue my life in anonymity. I do enjoy sharing my outfits it was fun and I know if I decide not to return part of me will miss it a bit. I just don’t know what’s better for me. Does anyone have any similar experiences/thoughts regarding Instagram?