Nothing happened, that's why I want to tear my skin off. There's nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. Everything seems boring and out of reach. 

I had a huge urge to cut myself, I really felt the need to do it, but I didn't because I don't want to feel the pain, I just want to injure myself.

I want something to happen!! Something to pull the numbness out of my soul!!! I'm begging for it! Going out is boring, there's nothing to see; buying things is meaningless, just instant, momentary satisfaction. 

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There isn't anything I want to learn, anything I want to experience. I'm going crazy. Please help me