The day after I turned 17 I went to the army recruiter and signed up. I just graduated infantry oscut and airborne school (youngest in my class both times) and I thought that I would be happy after messing everything up for so long. I dropped out of high school, college, I was failing school for aslong as I can rember and I was always alittle bit of a mess up in my parents eyes, I was doing a lot of dumb stuff ever since I was younger, typical stuff like drinking and smoking and what not, so this was my fresh start but honestly I’m not happy. I met this girl two months before I left for basic and I’m not some overly opportunistic person. I assumed I would be gone for a couple of weeks and she would get bored and leave me. That’s what most chicks would do. But she stuck right by my side the entire time, she wrote me love letters every week and called me every weekend when we got our our phones, I really liked her from the start and I feel like I found the one .I know everyone says that and then it doesent work out so it’s kind of a clich. But she’s been there so much for me . I literally think about her all day when I’m busy and we can’t talk. I want to just run away and find her, and tell her how I love her but the government will chase my ass down if I do. I’m so stuck between bailing and getting with her so I’m actually happy