Advice needed!!!!!!


CW: Suicide.

I posted this the other might really late, so I wanted to edit it and hopefully post it at a time where I am more appropriate with my words. I don’t have diagnosed BPD, only ‘BPD’ symptoms listed by a therapist.

I am not sure how I feel, but I think I tried to kill myself in February. I just refer to it as a weird day, and never really talked about what happened, except in passing to a therapist. I texted my friends I loved them, and then had a weird ‘ it sounds like you wanted to say goodbye’ convo and I dropped it at that. The next day my stomach hurt really badly, and all of my joints, some other things, my friend bought me apple juice because I felt really bad and too sick to go to the store. I feel really weird talking about it like I am dramatizing my experience 

I want to tell my friends. I don’t know how or when it’s appropriate, don’t want to be too serious or too funny like ahaha about it. I want to tell them because its been almost 3 months and it bugs me that nobody really noticed. It also bugs me that I don’t know how to tell them or think that without seeming manipulative or overtly negative.
I don’t want to just say it because that might make them worried. If I get all serious, it might be weird. 

Has anyone else had an experience like this? How do you talk to people ( the ones you love most) about how you tried or maybe tried to commit suicide recently???