I went to my doctor and she diagnosed me with anxiety and depression. I've been doing alot more self reflecting and realized I've been anxious for a long time and just not realized it because I thought that, that was just the way you were supposed to feel. I'm realizing alot of my actions and habits stem from anxiety. It's making me apathetic to everything. I feel like I have no control over how I feel anymore and like my anxiety decides how I feel about everything. I don't really know how to feel about anything and then it just makes me feel more anxious.