I was recently found ineligible for unemployment benefits so I filed an appeal. I just feel so incapable of anything. I’m already 26 and I still don’t have a license due to anxiety attacks and trauma. I rely mostly on bus since I was 16. I used to not mind it but it has seriously impacted employment and being able to get places on time. I have worked remote and there is a small hope that I’ll be on a project in April. Even though I’ve been without work since mid February. I do my own hair, nails, makeup but sometimes I get tired. I’ve been applying for jobs everyday and I’ve had interviews remote but I’ve gotten passed over. I’ve never had the confidence or social skills to get ahead. I notice that usually it’s not only about education but who you know. I don’t have friends, a significant other or my own place and I’m currently without work, also don’t have a car. It’s rare that I feel ok because my anxiety ruins it. I feel like it doesn’t get better and I hate complaining but I’ll probably be dead or homeless by 30 because I can’t adapt to society. I don’t have the edge and my kindness is a weakness. I haven’t done much that I wanted to do. I’m the only person who can both destroy and help myself.