I've just recently come to terms with the fact that I am sick and need help. It took me years to finally let go of my pride and my ego and accept that I'm not just like everyone else. And it sucks. 

My entire life I wasn't like everyone else and I chalked that up to not trying hard enough. After my diagnosis, I had explanations for why things had been off and problems that I just couldn't explain. But I refused to rely on that. I was being told the truth: I have BPD, I'm not like everyone else, I need help. But I said "Bullshit, everyone else is wrong, I'm the one who's right." I wasn't being told the truth, and I wasn't going to fall back on BPD to explain all my shortcomings. I was accusing other people of hiding the truth from me while in reality I was hiding from the truth and rejecting it in favor of pride and ego.

Things will get better.

Anyone else had a similar experience? 