So I'm 16 years old and I think I've had depression for atleast over a year but I don't want to go see someone about it because I don't want my parents and other family to worry about me right now.

My dad has recently been putting pressure on me to get an apprenticeship(An apprenticeship is like a job and school combined, you train for a number of years for it) for panel beating (which is repairing dents in transport) and it's been pushing me further into darkness and I haven't a clue what I want to do after I leave school rather it be this year or next. I'm afraid that I'm gonna be 25 with no job still living with my parents.

Before this I went through a faze where I would barely talk to any of my friends at and after school. They put the pieces of the puzzle together, and they would all tell me that life would get better and that that'd hope I feel better. They try force me to go to the school counselor which I don't want because they notfiy my parents about it and then I'll put pressure on them when they work their asses off for me and I feel so ungrateful because I show barely any emotions anymore. Even before that faze I was bullied because I was the "pussy" and the "waste of oxygen" at school and alot of people hated and still hate me.

5 or so years ago I was such a cheerful young boy that would get along with everything and everything I would draw cool little pictures and give them to my friends and family, but now I don't have any energy to do anything anymore. All I do is go to school, sleep in most of my classes, come home and lie in my bed and scroll through some social media till I cry myself to sleep which would be around 11 then wake up the next day at 7 and go to school. 

I feel so empty inside all the time and just of late I somehow got a crush on this really nice and cool girl at school, so I plucked up the courage to ask her out but she sadly rejected me.

I want to end it all right now, I feel like theirs nothing and nobody in this world for me even though so many people care about me. And I honestly don't want them to care so much because theres nothing special about me at all.

I congratulate you if you've read all this thank you for your time. Please older people please tell me it will get better