Adulting is so freaking hard and i just need to get it off my chest right now.

i don’t have too much friends i can tell this too so i’m just writing it off my chest hoping that takes away a bit of the anxiety for a while.

i’m having so much trouble with adulting, at 25. i haven’t figured out what i want to do in life yet even if i have some ideas. but reaching out to organizations for training courses, calls, emails, mails, unemployment center, financial help, signing up to programs, meetings, all of this is stressing me the hell out and i feel like a whole child because some people are just so great at it and i can barely handle a phone calls without my heart beating out of my chest so hard that i can hear it. i have a lot of struggle with changes, i’m a very routine person, and i try to tell myself it’s not the end of the world, and it’s not, it’s really not, but i can’t help the panic and anxiety all day, all freaking day.  i’m just tired of that feeling. 

it feels like not only are you late, but you can’t even handle the outside world. anyone relates?