Yeah you know what, we do some pretty fucked up things. We threaten suicide. We manipulate people. We can be abusive. We can physically hurt ourselves or others in anger. We can smash things up. We can say ridiculously awful things when we split on people. We can degrade and demean.  
I’m guilty of EVERYTHING above. But you know what? I’m SICK of feeling guilty about it. I’m sick of trying to make up for shitty things I did. I’m not living in this emotional debt anymore. I’ve paid it off. I’ve said sorry to the people I hurt and they can either move forward from that or they can’t. If they don’t that isn’t my problem anymore. I’m moving past it because it will kill me to forever feel bad about what I’ve done to people. I need to forgive myself and so does everyone else with BPD. We do bad things sometimes but WE ARE NOT BAD PEOPLE! Just because someone says what we did was unforgivable to them, doesn’t mean we can’t forgive OURSELVES.  
The damage is done now. It’s gone. We can chose not to hurt more people in the future or hurt ourselves but we cannot change the past. Please everyone, accept what we did and move on. Accept what was done to us and move. on. 
I love all you guys and we are worthy of love.