I'm 29 years old; struggle massively with anxiety, never had a job or been in higher education, this has continued from when i left school (2012).


I'm terrified of how far i let myself go, and i feel like i can no longer turn my life around on a normal path. Is it possible for me to get a job and make good money by trying now? Would i be able to make friends? 


I'm trying to get in touch with a doctor to talk about my anxiety but i've had no luck is that a good first step or just a waste of time?  I have no one to talk to IRL
I'm just so lost on what to do


There's this quote from an article "Suicidal people have transformation fantasies and are prone to magical thinking, like children and psychotics" and i think that's true for me.