I don't know how to feel about most things in my life, it's not really bad I just have to deal with drunk parents fighting which I mean sucks but I could have it worse. I just don't know what I want I've gotten to the point where I block everything out because I'm used to doing it at home so at school i don't do much and I'm a senior so that's an issue and I'm broke but keep driving around spending all my money on gas doing little things for money but every time I think about getting a job I think about it to much and stress myself out and dont apply anywhere,and I'm egetting to the point where I feel like when I graduate I'm just going to drive myself insane like I've been doing the past few years but worse because I'm very antisocial and don't talk to people, so even this is a jump for me because even typing this I've thoughtj of deleting it because what if someone I know sees it and somehow recognizes me and brings it up I'll shut down I'm very chill and collected in person but I've convinced myself everyone in my new state doesn't want to be around me but tolerates me. I've been here for 4.5 years and I thought it would get better but it's not.this is the first I'm telling anyone of this amd I don't even know if there's helping me maybe I just needed to vent. Sorry if this doesn't fit the sub it's all I could think of going to and sorry for typos gave up on spellchecking about half way through.