i’ve been with my boyfriend for 15 months now.
our relationship, at the beginning, was definitely a lot more intense and filled with so much love. we go through periods of comfortability and non excitement that it’s so hard for me to decide if i want to be in this relationship or not. of course i stay. 

then i get a bit of anxiety thinking that he might be feeling the same way too. that he’s too comfortable to even feel love even though he says he loves me. i don’t believe that and i get extremely paranoid. 

so i don’t know what love feels like.