This is my first time posting anything.
I’m a single mom to 2 girls, 15 and 16. We’ve been on lockdown for so long now. They’ve been talking with friends and I can’t get them to even spend time with me. Since being on lockdown my depression has gotten really bad. I take meds but they don’t seem to be helping. I can’t stand feeling like this. I started cutting again but it’s gotten warmer so if I cut again I’d have to wear long pants and shirts so I’m trying not to. I’m just trying to hold on until my girls are out of high school and don’t need me anymore. They’re the only reason I’m still here but once they’re on their own I’m sure they’ll barely bother with me anyway. They’ll have their own lives to worry about. This is all just so hard. I don’t want to do this anymore.