I posted here a few days ago about how my ex and I are on a break. Well, we had a talk and he said he's not in love with me and there's no chance of us getting back together and that he's probably gay.

I moved across the country and left everything to be with him. We were engaged. Now I have to give up everything again. 

In DBT terms, my reasonable mind knows that he's gay and there were signs and it never could have worked and I'm better off knowing now then in 10 years or whatever 

but my emotional mind is off the wall. He's my best friend. I'm never going to see him again. I lost my home. My cats. Everything.

Everyone is telling me to focus on myself and my future and I am. I'm doing self care, taking my meds everyday, showering everyday, cross stitching to take my mind off of everything. I even enrolled in school and I still feel like shit. All I want is to go home. I don't know what else to do. I can't stop crying and I just want to go home.

ETA: I feel like I've been kicked out of my home. We didn't have a discussion. He bought me a one way plane ticket and I left. We were supposed to get married in May.