I feel like I'm ready to leave this world behind 

My days consist of sitting in a chair for 7-8 hours staring at a screen trying to either find a part-time job or a college course.

But to be honest I don't want to do any of those, I don't want to study because I know I'm a shitty student, and I feel like I'll be a terrible employee due to my mental health. 

I tried college last year and after a month I quitted because I felt out of place and dealing with anxiety and depression didn't help. 

I hate waking up in the morning, I hate daytime and at night I just breakdown praying to not wake up the next day.

I really don't know what to do at this point.. I'm hopping for some sort of accident to happen and put a end to this because honestly, I just feel hopless.