I’ve always had a black and white view on mental illness till the past few weeks. I always thought people with depression were just looking for attention and pretending but now I’m starting to just not be able to sleep at night thinking about how I will only live one and if it’s worth it to keep going. I’ve slipped behind on school because I just hate everything about assignments and I wish I could just go back in time when I did not have to worry everyday. I don’t have problems socially, though I’ve never really had friends. I’m in high school right now and taking more work then I can handle so I could graduate at a normal time because I procrastinated a semester into failure. When I try to do any school work I slip into the same habits of getting lost in YouTube or Instagram shorts that strip endless hours and leave me either rushing things or handing things in late. I practically need to catch up on 100+ hours of focused school yet I can’t get in more then 30 minutes in a day. This makes me really struggle to get out of bed knowing I’ll be miserable. I’m not sure if this is the right sub for this but if anyone could give me any recommendations for motivation to get school work done I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you