I spent a lot of time with my FP last year and because of this I neglected to reach out to my friends as much as I used to. However, I noticed that when I stopped making an effort with my friends, nobody reciprocated that effort with me. I have always been the person who sets up plans, decides what we do and when we hang out, and makes an effort to reach out to people and check in on how they're doing. None of my friends have done that with me since I stopped making as much of an effort.

It really bothers me because even when I was completely absorbed with my FP, I STILL made an effort to check in every once in a while. 

I feel torn between blaming myself for letting these friendships burn out and angry at the people I thought were my friends because now I feel like our friendships were one-sided. 

No matter how much I try to validate that they also have shit going on in their lives that I probably don't know about, it still makes me feel very upset and very alone... 

I am afraid to drop these friendships because I don't feel like I won't have any friends left if I do. It's been a long time since I've had to make friends and I feel like I don't know how to anymore. Really stuck and don't know what to do. I'm sorry for rambling. 

Any advice would be greatly appreciated :/