I am so irrational but I cant help feeling resentment and suicidal. I go with my bestfriend to the gym around 4 days a week sometimes less. She doesn’t wear an underwear, and proceeds to get her pussy juices on EVERY FUCKING SEAT. She insists to do her sets first so im forced to directly interact with her filth on literally every surface in the gym. First time I addressed it jokingly because I didnt want it to seem like i was seething and she LAUGHED it off. Second time i told her that she’s getting her juices everywhere like a slug and its grossing me out . She said that theres already so much bacteria and that im in denial about how disgusting the gym already is. It makes me want to fucking die because the gym is the only place i can go for mental distraction and now it’s absolutely filthy with pussy bacteria on every corner. I tried lying and saying I cant go so i can go alone, but I literally found her there. Even if she stopped doing that i will still think of it and i hold so much hatred for her i just cant handle it. I already know the gym is gross but to see it in live action makes me contemplate my death even more. I dont feel like going to the gym anymore so ill just be miserable and i dont wanna be her friend anymore my god