I woke up today with a message from my older sister saying to message her when I'm up because she has good news to tell me. My mum messaged me too to say that my sisters boyfriend proposed to her and now they're engaged. I just don't give a shit.

I'm not jealous, or sad or happy, I don't feel anything towards it. I'm not happy for her, but then I'm not anything else. I haven't replied to either of them because I have to fake happiness, I would just tell them 'oh that's cool' but they'll get mad. I really just do not give a shit.

This has happened before, but when one of my partner's family members died, I think it was a great aunt. He was upset and went to the funeral, but I didn't feel sad and I couldn't do much towards comforting him. I wasn't like 'I'm happy she died', it was more like 'I don't give a shit because I can't feel sadness for you'

I feel like a horrible person but I just can't feel emotions when it comes to other people's emotions. And when it comes to my emotions, I'm emotional as fuck.