I’m an INFP female and I overall just feel everything very deeply.  I love hard and I hurt when others hurt and I want people to understand my pain and help me but no one I know is ever on the same page about anything.  I’m visiting my older brother and we started talking about “politics” and he just kept telling me I was stupid for my beliefs. And that I live under a rock and I victimize myself.  We briefly talked about misogyny and the patriarchy which he doesn’t believe in and told me that it’s not real. Anytime I try to talk about my experiences and the things that hurt me I’m blown off or called stupid or told I’m burdening my family.  Ao much of my interactions with my brothers is very surface level because they refuse to understand misogyny and their part in it.  I can’t even tell them about how their friends assaulted me growing up or how our father raped me for year because they wouldn’t believe it and they would tell me I was hurting their feelings.  I’m so sad every time I visit because I’m just holding in all of my feelings and I’m not respected as their equal or even as a friend.  It’s so hard for me to make friends and I feel such a deep connection with my family but it’s like no one cares about me so why even try anymore.  I just want to be seen and respected and loved but no one in my life is really there for me no matter how much I try to be there for them. It really hurts to always be the one that’s not wanted and I’m tired of just of being alive.  I just don’t want to feel anymore it’s exhausting