I started taking Zoloft in February of this year. I started off on 25mg and then went up to 50mg about 6 weeks ago. This past weekend I went out with my girlfriend of one year. I drank too much and ended up blacking out completely. I think the alcohol had an interaction with my Zoloft. As a result, I kissed a man at the bar for free drinks and then I confessed to my girlfriend shortly after. Apparently, when I was blacked out, I went to a different person and then told my girlfriend to go away. I don’t remember any of this happening, but she does. She is extremely hurt and wants to fly back to our home state (I’m attending grad school across the country). I don’t know what to do. I love her so much and she is my best friend. How can I mend this relationship? Does anyone else take Zoloft and have these blackouts when drinking? 

Please no hate. I’m fully aware that I made a terrible mistake. I’m already living with the additional anxiety, moments of panic, and extreme shame and guilt.