My father had a heart attack (60) and it does not look promising. When it happened I went to see my mother (1h away) and for the last 1.5 weeks, I am living in my old room. My mother is completely devastated and is scared about the future. Always says how she can’t continue living without my dad. I am fucking anxious too. I have a very good relationship with my parents and I am always with my parents during holidays and often on the weekends. But atm I have the feeling, I just have to function. Most of the time I won’t allow sadness. I work from home and try to manage everything. We don’t know what will happen with my dad. It could get better but will take weeks. But it could end instantly. I can’t stay with my mother because that will break me. But I am scared to leave her. Most of the time I can’t cry, I just feel an incredible burden and a pain I have never felt before. I often struggled with mental health but now I feel like I am stuck in a nightmare that won’t end. I don’t know why I am writing this, but maybe someone has a good advise for me.