I'm scared all the time and feel like a complete failure. I often think about killing myself and I honestly don't find a reason to live I'm on anti depressants n anxiety medication. I feel like I'm useless. recently my bf broke up with me because he was going through something I don't blame him but he stays with me when it's easy n breaks up the moment we have a serious fight I feel like I'm trash now. I Really what to die but scared to end my life. I don't know what it is to feel happy, safe, peaceful and successful. Why am I like this? Why can't I be like others who are happy and successful Why am I so dumb ? I try n try n try I'm just not good at anything. I Really Really really wish to have a successful and happy life but will I have it ?