i fucking hate it. it makes me so fucking angry i just want to strangle her or yell until they have to tie me up. i’ll tell her about a thing for school, that’s absolutely pointless, doesn’t matter to me future carrier at all, and most of all makes me miserable and uncomfortable, and she tells me that “its just life and you need to get used to it” SHUT UP  i fucking get it life fucking sucks and nothing good will ever happen to me but god woman do you have any empathy at all? if life is really all about doing things you fucking hate just because someone told you to, i think i’ll just kill myself. maybe that is just life and i’ve just lied to myself that i’ll find something that makes all the bad parts worth it and have some ultra mega positive mindset like “maybe i have to do this today but after its done i’ll be a day closer to doing my favourite thing in the world that costs so much money i cant only do it once every so often so i can still have food on my plate”. i want to rip my throat out. maybe im just a spoiled brat i hate myself FUCK OFF