I suffer from body dysmorphic disorder. I left work early bc someone told me that I basically deserved my girlfriend cheating on me the night I attempted suicide. I met her on only fans bc I was desperate to talk to someone. It’s amazing how people lack compassion. I understand that beautiful and ugly people struggle, but I don’t deserve to feel like this. I constantly compare and beg for validation bc I’ve been rejected my entire life. I’ve been suicidal, I’ve had no appetite and dropped 20 pounds. I need any kind of support right now. I’m tired of this. I’ve tried therapy and psychiatric help everything