My ex drained any but of confidence left in me and destroyed me with it. I've been trying new things, and been trying to meet new people in this new town but after 9 months here no one has really stuck. I can't seem to find enjoyment from anything. I don't even feel the need to have sex anymore, or date. Which honestly would be the one thing that no matter what happened I'd still be able to do and helped me cope with a lot. Now, I have no coping. I workout only to get out of the apartment but even that isn't helping. I've tried everything I could think of. 

How do people even live? I've always had issues being happy but never like this. 

At this point I've kind if accepted that I'll probably end it all some day in the future. I'm not to that point quite yet, but again I'm still trying but nothing works anymore. 

I smoke weed to be able to escape these depressing thoughts, and drink tea to relax a bit. Outside of that, what else can I do?

Everything feels like a waste of time. I'm starting to accept that no matter what I do, nothing is going to change, and I'm still going to be alone in the end like I am now (again). 

Dude, I even tried to get a roommate in hopes that maybe that'll give me some human connection ( and save a bit of extra moneg), maybe meet people through him, but that didn't end up working out either. 

Someone give me some other options please. I need to find a way to be motivated enough to accomplish something with my life before the rest of me is gone. I'd hate to die without leaving some kind of trace in this world.