My good friend had to reschedule their birthday celebrations due to covid. I was relieved when it was postponed as I had been anxious leading up to it, even if I wanted to go to support them.

The new date is tomorrow and when they asked if I was available I panicked, couldn't breathe and started crying. I don't know if I can do this as it is a bunch of new people in a place I don't know. I know things will be alright but I can't stop worrying and I don't want to be a bad friend.

I told them I don't know and now I feel awful. I know if I told them they would understand but I just don't want to mess it up.