I’m 15. I’ve dealt with the yelling and domestic abuse for years. I wish i had a happy and functional family like everyone else because i feel so alone. Why is everyone else happy but me? I wish things could be different. I’m tired of things never staying good and being scared in my own home. I’m scared to grow up because of my childhood. I don’t know what will happen or if things will always be like this. When i was staying at my dads home i was happy because it felt like a functional family. I wonder if things could’ve been different. I can’t change anything right now. I love my mom and I’m scared for her. I just wish i was happy and had a normal functional family. I don’t feel normal or okay. I want to get rid of my moms boyfriend because he makes me so miserable. I hate being picked on for no reason or involved in their arguments and then yelled at for not picking a side because i was confused. I wish my life was different. I feel so disappointed in myself and my past. I’m so jealous of my friends. They’re so happy and essentially have it perfect. I wish i could be like them or live the life they lived.