This about sums up my dating history. I'm used to rejection but I'm upset she coudln't be fucking honest and tell me she wasn't interested. She kept leading me on over and over and then getting pissed when I tried to make a move. Unless I'm a complete idiot and I was misreading the signs, which is quite probable and would be even more frustrating. 

Of course having BPD this is enough to send me spiraling into an emotional breakdown. There will be a lot of wine consumed tonight. Just trying to keep a lid on my emotions before I flip out and do something stupid. I blocked her straight away which is probably for the best until I calm down. Argh fuck me and my shitty undesirable personality.