Just a warning, this is kind of a mixed Venting and Seeking support post.

So, I figured out tonight that my wife (me mtf BPD, her cis female Bipolar) heavily edits her reactions and emotions around me because she put together that I was super volatile with my emotions. Well I realized it when there was a situation that occurred that really made her upset but I could tell she was modifying her delivery of her feelings so that I wouldn’t spiral into one of my Downs about it.

This kinda rocked my mind because I realized just HOW volatile I’ve been all my life and why I’ve had so many problems with friends and relationships. This behavior is what really messes with friends because they have to be careful around me with what they say and feel even. Now that I realize I’m the equivalent of an emotional timebomb with a hair trigger, has anyone had any ability in managing this? I really want to get to a point where my wife doesn’t need to edit her emotions and words to protect herself from my emotional outbursts. 