I used to be super empathetic but ive been pushing it down for years because my heightened empathy when i was younger was dismissed and disapproved by my parents. ive found myself unintentionally looking down on others for having what i call "immediate feelings" because ive been conditioned to believe that those kinds of feelings are wrong and make you a bad person, and more extreme and dangerous feelings were the only ones that ever got me my needs met and feel like they are validated. and its made me into a huge asshole lol. like ive had my fair share of HORRIBLE opinions because i cant access basic empathy. and i feel like shit. and i want to know if anyone else is like this. like ive totally completely turned off my empathy/social awareness and its put me into tons of avoidable messes. and i really cant stop because in my head i think the bigger mess it is the more valid it is because of conditioning in my childhood. i just figured this out with my therapist. i really am a shitty person because of it and im just starting to realize. and i feel stuck