I never thought I'd see myself posting anything like this to a forum, I usually just kept it to myself.  
I honestly don't really have a family, and I don't really feel like the few friends I have want to be around me. I honestly try to improve and I have no idea what to do anymore. No matter how much I adapt or improve it seems not to be enough for anyone. A common experience for me is also being hated or abandoned by people and not being told what I did wrong. I've been spiraling more and more recently and I thought I'd post here for maybe some insight or just to get it all off my chest, even as I type this I'm damn near breaking down because simply thinking some of this is just painful. I can't say that I truly have no one, but I really do feel alone. I apologize if I seem ungrateful or anything, I wouldn't mind knowing if I'm just misunderstanding my situation.