I've had anxiety as long as I can remember. I didn't realize it was anxiety until middle school and then I shortly got diagnosed. I've always received very little help with it, it took me 3 years to get in to therapy and that was for my depression and then I lost it because of COVID. They always say anti-depressants are supposed to help but they don't do anything (I've been on several cause it was a whole process figuring out what worked for me). Shortly after I got diagnosed I started having heart palpitations, they were infrequent but still something I brought up with my pediatrician. I got my heart checked out they said I was fine and I figured I was making something out of nothing. Then sophomore year I had a ton of health issues and my heart palpitations got worse, I even went to a cardiologist and they said my heart was extremely healthy and that it was likely just my anxiety. Recently (almost a senior) it's become a daily issue, and I can just feel the anxiety almost coursing through my entire body every day whenever I let myself not be distracted. My mom doesn't think any doctors will give me medicine to help with my anxiety and not only is it so hard to get in to therapy but I know it's just not going to help me because of my past experiences with it. I'm just so sick and tired of this disorder and I hate knowing it'll never go away or fully get better.