My anxiety has skyrocketed recently and it’s getting so bad that I’m starting to be bedbound because of pure fear. So I’m gonna rant and hope it helps a bit. 

1) worried about going back to school, mainly cause of social anxiety, eating infront of others at lunch, the idea of being in a crowd and in class. The thought of talking to people again is genuinely scaring me. 

2) worried about going to town and something awful happening like a terrorist attack and me getting getting caught up in it and dying 

3) (relating to the last one) sometimes I fear getting out of bed because I feel like something awful if I get up and leave my room

4) worried about dying in sleep, I’ll be lying there and my brain will say “hey you are gonna die during tonight” and I’ll believe it every time 

5) (related to the last one) - panicing so much about my health recently and it’s because of covid which is just shitting on my mental health, I simply scratched my neck the other day and now I think I have a tumour under my neck metastasising. 

6) worried about learning to drive - my family have had multiple car crashes and have almost died in them, especially my dad, I really fear that he will get into a car crash that will kill him but he will never listen to any of us. I was so nervous that I had a full blown panic attack the first driving lesson I had. Which just embarrasses me to the core and I feel like a let down thinking about that

7) worried about my grades at school - I have failed every exam I have done this year, I really fear that I’m gonna get kicked out at this point

And I’m slowly losing motivation to do anything because life in general is draining me and I just want to stay in bed cause leaving bed seems like too much energy 

The thing is is that I know my thoughts are irrational but I don’t know how to stop them at this point, it’s just seeming like too much