I was only 2 or 3 when I started showing signs of autism, but I didn’t get diagnosed with it until much older(most likely sometime during my late tween through early teen years) I am now 15 turning 16 this year and I noticed that I started to somewhat fear abandonment, I still have no clear sense of my identity, my mood swings have become unusually stronger, I’ve been having very negative thoughts here and there, I get strong urges to do risky things, and the strangest thing is that on some days I really hate the ones I love for no reason,  but on other days I am super close and I value my loved ones. I am NOT asking for a diagnosis, but I’m wondering if these are actually symptoms of  BPD, or if it’s just puberty doing it’s thing, or if it’s because of the recent quarantine driving me insane. But whatever it is, I really hope I can get things figured out.