I’ve had anxiety for probably like 6-7 years but it has never ever been this bad. Accompanied by my worsening emetophobia I’ve been having panic attacks almost every day for like 3 months. I actually just finished having one lol... I was in the shower enjoying myself and thought to myself that my stomach feels kind of full and then I spiraled for like 20 minutes. What usually helps didn’t help but as always the stupidest things do. I was just standing next to my boyfriend crying and just touching him because he comforts me. He was in the middle of a competitive game so he told me to watch and it actually helped hahah. And then when he won I asked him if it was his first game and one of his friends heard and said I’m their team’s only fan so they all clapped for me haha. So stupid but also sweet and made me feel so much better.

Anyway I have a doctors appointment on monday and initially it was supposed to be for my stomach problems (that are probably caused by the constant stress I’ve been under tbh) but I have to tell her about my anxiety. It’s taking over my life and I need medication. I’ve never gone to a doctor for my mental health problems (I probably had depression a few years back but it went away when I graduated) and I feel really scared but excited. I want to be normal again!!