It is clear to me that my anxiety and dissatisfaction in daily life is completely caused by the power of my thoughts. It is equally distressing and empowering to be hyper aware of the criticism that plays on repeat in my mind, knowing this voice is not me and is not reflective of the reality of any given situation or “problem” I find myself in. 

I constantly beat myself up for not being able to find a job and not knowing what to do in life. People all at Uni and working tons. I got two jobs recently and the criticism subsided for as long as it took for me to then compare myself to others that are working a lot more than me (my shifts are three hours)

I feel like my happiness is robbed by something external to me. I feel like by myself and in my own little world I am comfortable and truly know myself. But I get so caught up in comparison and what I should, could and ought to be doing. I feel like my anxiety comes from a place that is not true to myself but from cultural norms and expectations I have internalised. I want to find the freedom in myself to live according to my truth and unlearn some social conditioning 

I am so quick to be sensitive and defensive. I don’t want to feel sorry for myself and bully myself constantly anymore