Sorry for grammar errors I’m not an English teacher so if it’s hard to read I apologize. I just wanted to tell my story to see if someone would understand or have an idea of what I should do. A year back I got into a terrible car accident with my friend, we were going down the high way at 4 a clock I had just gotten off of work to pick him up and hang out for a little bit. We’re driving down this super dark part of the high way, when a man ran out in-front of my car and I collided with him head on. Their was no reaction their was no stopping it happened so quick I just didn’t even know what to think except pull over on the shoulder immediately. Me and my friend were in shock we didn’t know what to think I still don’t know what to think it almost seems unbelievable. We called 911 and they shut the entire high way down within 15 20 minutes. We got an ambulance ride to the hospital luckily with little to no injuries. after it happened it took a long time for me to realize what actually went down. When the detectives came to ask me questions the first thing I wanted to know was is he alive. Deep down I already knew the answer but I just needed it to hear it from them, I broke down instantly but I sucked it up and gave my report. The worst mistake I made was post what happened  on social media I was so grateful me and my friend were alive it was just a heat of the moment. But what it helped me realize is how many people genuinely don’t care about me it was curiosity over concern and I would tell anyone that. kill someone and you’ll see who your friends are, I know it’s morbid but I believe it without a doubt. This event has changed the way I think for the rest of my life. I tried taking mushrooms and acid to find a deeper meaning to what it all was but that made it about a thousand times worse. I’ve been having a lot of thoughts of doubt of who I am what I am. Am I real am I fake it’s all became a blur recently I just wanted to talk to people with similar traumas and or similar thoughts of not being real. I just want to go back to how I was content with life and happy to be alive. P.S sorry for grammar any questions feel free to ask Ty for listening