So I’ve been with my partner for almost a year now and I can feel myself splitting away from them all together. I’ve been suffering from quiet bpd for as long as I can remember and it has costed me fallouts with people i genuinely cared about. It started out great with this person until they got hooked on drugs and they too were diagnosed w bpd… only theirs is the explosive kind. Every single day from that point on its been a series of either love bombing or not texting for an entire day… but at this point i don’t really care.  I want to leave but there’s this small inkling of me that still wants to stay. I want to cheat so that’ll give them a reason to break up with me so I can finally be free. I hope I’m not a bad person for this