I don’t know how else to put this post. My husband has been a meth addict for two years now and I am almost positive he is a sex addict with either meth psychosis or paranoid schizophrenic. Since we moved into this house I am now moving out of alone with my kids he has been concerned with ghosts which I’d agree is possible but since the beginning of January he has changed tune to the effects of people in the attic (not much crawl space mind you) and under the house with walls they hide in when we are “trying to catch them”. They drill holes and send probes and cameras and electro stimulation things up the holes and in the walls and reach 6 feet of needed just to “rape me in my sleep”. Except now “I’m awake and allowing it to happen” which he then considers it cheating on him as well as “a part of a kinky sex ring” all being done under my house. He moved out about 6 weeks ago and yet he comes over and has started placing small nanny cams around to listen and video record these. No video bug sound one time where something is going on in my sleep, but another when I make some noise nothing more than a “ehhh” sound yet now the fight has been on. I reacted so bad one day because he is obsessed with it that he listens to the recordings all day at work and when he gets to his friends house after and writes notes about everything he thinks he hears. I have listened to other recordings from those cameras and DO NOT HEAR anything, sounds from the tv on the distance with my door open and in another room. I feel completely prisoned and no where to make any kind of move in any direction and my BPD is being triggering to the lowest depths I’ve never in my life have faced. Because I’m not my medication that makes me ill and unmotivated (I’ve been on multiple kinds) I’m endangering my children but if it wasn’t for him and what he is putting me through I wouldn’t be this unstable. He makes me feel unstable and succeeds in making it worse. He keeps saying my reaction is on me and I know that to an extent but when does his crazy actions be considered in to what he is cause me mentally. The abuse is way worse than physical. He said I said I purposely started a fight just to call the cops and I’ve never done that nor want to. He has started making things up in his head of conversations. Manipulated me trying to get me to admit to this sex ring and cheating shit. Why would I admit to something I don’t understand and haven’t done. Why would I admit to it just for him to hang me. I’ve tried not to tell him he’s crazy but I can’t anymore. His family has said he’s lost it. But I’m alone in this fight. We try to work us out just for him to keep recording and “find more ammunition”. 

I know I’m missing details but I can’t even think straight right now. I’m supposed to be packing and my ADHD has completely taken over and this whole thing is all I can think of. 

I don’t know what to think anymore, and through the separation he says he can’t be friends because we weren’t put on this earth to be just friends. 

Am I the crazy one?