My husband is on deployment, I’ve been crying every single day since he left, i have no appetite and have to force myself to eat so I don’t pass out, i try to get on with my day but the intrusive thoughts make it harder and harder, i take breaks from work to cry in my car and pretend like I’m okay but I’m not fucking okay. I know other spouses can deal with deployment but i can’t deal with deployment. I thought I would be fine and tried to prepare myself but I have so many goddamn issues. I cant fix myself and I can’t do anything about the situation and it’s driving me insane. I barely sleep because of our time difference and I want to talk to him. I can’t fucking do this till October.