Sorry if this doesn’t make any sense my thoughts are not very coherent right now.
I haven’t had a FP in 4 months, and I feel like I have lost myself again. I’m out there looking for my next FP but the one I have found is six years older than me. Frankly he doesn’t give a shit about me, so I try not to get too attached to him. But most of the day all I do is think about him and I just want to find somebody my age that understands me. But I have used all my energy on this guy and I don’t have anyone for when i eventually 
crash and burn

I do have some friends, but they get sad, frustrated or even mad at me when I talk about my feelings or something stupid I’ve done. 
So I don’t feel like I can go to them for support.

I just feel like I’m gonna explode if I don’t find someone real soon and I don’t know what to do about it…