I was offered a better opportunity as far as my job goes. But choosing growth over comfort is putting me on a massive downer. Unknown territory, uncertainty, doing this all over again. But I am certain that I need this and can't turn it down.

The other part: My dad is happy for me too, but it really eats at me that I don't see him as much as I used to (I don't live with him anymore and he stays kinda far). And he's aging quite fast (not just the facial way, but the physical way), worst part is that he's very active because he is a blue collar worker. 

My mom passed last year, I was unemployed when she passed (the employment rate in my country is pretty bad) and had to take care of her going through cancer and multiple sclerosis at the same time. I would love her to have seen me now but I would never wish for her to return in that state of pain she was in.

I can't even put my finger on the exact thing that's eating away at me, it feels like all of them at once (and I do vent my issues to the ones who care but this time it's just not resolving anything).

It would be nice if I can just accept a good thing when it's happening before my eyes. But all it does is make me emotional about the past, present and future. Yep