Hey guys, so Ill keep this story as short as possible, but basically I fucked up at work the other day when dealing with a customer. Said customer was trying to tell me to do my job incorrectly (and against the law, quite frankly), adrenaline or my black and white thinking kicked in, I had gone to the back room of my job, said the customer was a B word apparently, and said it rather loudly as well.

Whats fucked up is... I dont even remember saying the B word or being THAT loud. It was the definition of blind rage. Ive also been forgetting to take my medication constantly for the past few months. When I miss even one dose, Ive come to realize I get waaaay more aggressive than I normally do. Just out of the ordinary aggressive. Like, its basically a set up for being in a crappy mood the next day.

I feel like im rambling at this point, but Im just wondering, at what point did you guys ever feel it was the right time to mention ur mental illness or mental health struggles in a workplace setting? How do you take responsibility for how you behave, but also recognize their will be literal adrenaline pumped moments where your brain just goes "danger danger, this person is bad bad bad" essentially? 
I attempted to mention the medication issue but essentially my manager sort of brushed it off unintentionally and just was like you need to sign this write up form tho" (whuch btw, said I would be TERMINATED the next time it happened). I sort of want to speak to my senior manager who is frankly a bit older and generally more experienced being in a managerial position. 

I just dont know guys. Any stories or advice would be great. Because I truly love this job and I want to keep it. In that moment tho, I truly felt like I had no control over my reaction. Yet, i still admit, yes, i did fuck up.

Cheers to anyone who took the time to read this.