hi, im on zyprexa + citalopram + lexotan (changed them three times over the course of six months) but I don't know if what i feel is normal (?)
let me explain myself better, i still have major breakdowns but if without meds it took me weeks to recover now it takes me some days, at worst a whole week.
i still feel like im on the edge of breaking down, like it takes me one wrong step to just lay in bed sleeping all day.
I don't have daily suicidal thoughts anymore, nor i self-harm anymore, but i really really really want to lay in bed sleeping all day, i have no interest in participating in society, i want to lay in bed doing nothing.
so i was wondering, at what point is it my fault? like are the meds not working? or is it me not making enough? i don't feel stable at all and my psychologist feels the same way too, that's why she was wondering if i was actually feeling stable enough to "rebuild" myself.

to all of you who have major depressive disorder, how do meds make you feel? how did you know they were working?