My depression is a super bitch today and my support system decided to get help without me knowing. Mind you it's not professional or even medical help, it's some stupid religious treatment, trying to find for some "spirit" disturbing me and making me the way i am. Like helloo?!?! Im like this cuz im mentally ill, not cuz of some of stupid evil boogie man. I felt sooo betrayed and to make matters worst, they even told those people abt my sh history, I don't tell ANYONE abt that. I've made it VERY clear that im not religious but these people keep pushing it and at this point i feel like i wanna kill everyone and then myself for having to put up with this bs. Having bpd is already a pain in the ass as it is, now I've gotta deal with people telling me i don't have it or it wouldn't happen if i believed in skydaddy. 

Idk what else to do, whenever i reach out i feel like the biggest burden but when i don't get super lonely. Both circumstance makes me wanna die so i guess you just can't win :)