I have called my pharmacy and doctor 4x each today and can't get any help refilling my venlavaxine Rx.
Brain zaps. So many brain zaps.
I am recounting terrible mistakes I made in the past and beating myself up for them. 
I'm having suicidal thoughts.
I don't enjoy life, everything hurts, everything is scary.

I am so AFRAID of dying, of losing my mom, of the world going to shit! I used to pray but what if it's all made up? I have so much fear in my heart right now. Someone say something encouraging and pray for me, please.