I have many times considered taking my life, however when I experienced how it affects others it really made me reconsider these thoughts. Sometimes the pain life brings feels unbearable, but the thought of traumatizing people around me does not bring me any peace and maybe this post will give insight to some of you guys. 

The guilt. 
The overbearing guilt everyone has to live with for the rest of their lives for not being able to do enough for you. 
Thinking every day of possibly just one thing they could have done differently to stop what happened. 
There truly is rarely a person who doesnt have at least a few people in their life who would be left with an unbelievable amount of grief and guilt. 
My best friend committed suicide almost 5 years ago, and two days ago another friend comitted. 
Their families and friends including me are still suffering. 
My best friends younger brother 5 years later still cant come to terms with it and keeps blaming himself for not being at home at that moment. Their parents couldnt continue their life normally. Therapy isnt helping. 

My other friend who just lost her life, her mother and older sister are suffering so badly, they had a very close relationship and trying to accept she is gone and that they couldnt save her broke their soul. Her best friend found her dead, you can imagine the trauma this will leave her with. The loss of her one life has ruined dozens of lives forever and left them ridden with trauma. 

Saying that people “get over” someones death after a while is a complete and utter lie. 
No one ever gets over it, but they learn to live with the pain and suffering caused by the death. 
People will miss you, people will spend countless nights blaming themselves for what happened to you, thinking of the last words they said to you or you said to them. Trying to find the answer to something that has no answer.
Suicide leaves no space for closure for your loved ones. Just guilt and pain.