I deserve to die and I'm never going to be a functioning human being I'm fucking stupid. I need to get a job and I'm to depressed to even MAKE MY OWN FUCJING FOOD what kind of pathetic fuck am I. I can't even say I've tried to get better because I haven't how is this an attempt to be happy. NO ONE IS HAPPY. No one around me has a life we are all waiting to die and I wish I can do it right fucking now and just kill myself. I'm so close to doing it. Masmmsjdjsisnsjjsnsnsmsmmsmsmsmmsms fuckkkk