Well, here we go. I have borderline, anxiety, anger management issues, panic attacks and few less important things. It wasn't such a problem few years ago, but the last 3 years are the peak of those feelings. Havent been in college/high school (dunno how its called in US/UK) since 14th february. I spend every day in home, procrastinating or taking drugs. Its not about addiction, its about getting rid of bad feelings, i can stop any moment i want, but why would i? It has been proven, im not making myself believe this - once i stopped taking for half a year and i didn't felt like im craving for it or anything. There is no way to help myself and im not even trying to get better. It is too late. Dont jump in saying "its never too late" because its not true. I won't say what i think about suicide, its not important. Dunno if there is anything more to say, its already kinda pathethic