Here I am. Messed shit up once again. I want to desperately start DBT for the first time and give it a chance before all the people in my life leave for good. 

Could you guys please give me your best suggestion on how to get help? The place I live in doesn't really offer any DBT groups or sessions. It sucks. But what are we supposed to do in order to heal. 

I refuse to take medication just because the times that I have, it has messed up my brain even more

Thanks for your time