Today, my husband was ashamed of me. In all of the time before my diagnosis and after, he has been a near constant in my life, and nothing like this has ever happened.

I got surprised by a phone call, and I didn't understand what I was supposed to do. Eventually, my husband got on the phone with me to help. 

I told him that I didn't understand what they wanted me to do. He became more and more upset and then hung up on me. I embarrassed him. I feel so deeply shameful.

Sitting with this feeling really hurts. 

Over time, my husband has gotten less patient with me. He has begun to make decisions for me. He largely does not include me in making plans. He talks down to me. He's disrespectful.

But, he would say the same about me.

It's all just fucked, and I want to bite my tongue off. If I couldn't talk, maybe things would get better. 

Have any of you experienced someone being ashamed of you because your illness?