I feel guilty posting on here knowing I'm not diagnosed with anything but everything is so relatable? I'm a teenaged girl (no specifics on age for safety :) ) and I have a feeling I might have bpd. I'm afraid that if I do see a therapist that it's going to be a waste of time since I'm just a kid and the symptoms can get mixed up with adolescent behaviors and such. There is a chance that it might just be stupid mood swings and I acknowledge that I might just be driving myself crazy, but it feels more extreme. My mental health has been really bad lately and I don't know how to cope and I'm pushing people I really love away. In order to see anyone for this, I'd have to really push for it and open up around my parents which could get me in some trouble. And I would feel foolish bringing up bpd to a doctor or whoever I have to talk with because it's like I'm telling a professional how to do their job. Is it worth pushing for help or should I wait it out until I'm older and see if the symptoms continue? It's really hard to describe in one reddit post and reading this right now makes me sound really dumb but I need some insight on this. I really don't want this diagnosis to follow me around but at the same time, it might be my shot at feeling a little better.
p.s.: I'm aware this sounds really self-diagonse-y but I'm still unsure.