Since I was young, I’ve had depression. I’ve tried medication, and still I have this constant hollow, heavy feeling. Like I can laugh at a joke, but I don’t feel truly happy. Ever.

My dad died in January and it’s only gotten worse. I tried to kill myself 2 years ago in April, and clearly that didn’t work out, but the way it affected my family made me feel too shitty to try it again. I hated seeing how it hurt them. But I’m just so tired of being sad...Is this how it’s going to be forever? I feel like happiness is just a big fat lie at this point.