I feel like my intrusive thoughts are horrible, and I really wish they would stop. I don’t know anyone else who has intrusive thoughts like me, maybe that’s why. But from a young age, like 8, I’ve had horrible sexual intrusive thoughts including having sex with a parent or parents friend, killing animals, etc. And honestly it just sucks so fucking much, I wish my mind never imagined this shit. I love both of my parents so much and not in some weird creepy way, I’d never want to have sex with either of them. But I’ll be trying to masturbate and then boom my mind imagines my dad or some shit. I love all animals so much too, I’ve thought about becoming a vet or someone who works with animals in zoos or what not. I hate just randomly sitting there with my dog or other animal and just thinking “I could snap their neck really easily” or “I could stomp on my snake really easy”. Or even to myself, and I know that’s a bit more common or at least it’s the one that’s openly talked about. It’s just so fucking annoying and I don’t want to take medication for them, or I’d rather take medicine just for them not like anxiety medication or depression medication. Please tell me I’m not the only one, cause I fucking hate this and I really don’t have anyone else to talk to these things about.