I'm so sick of being here. Always disappointed by them. I'm sick of explaining myself and what they did wrong... you should kinda fucking know by now?? Completely drains the life out of me and I'm disassociated to the point of not really feeling anything atm. 

I want to distance myself from them so I don't have to feel this anymore. I'm sick of the intense feelings you evoke in me. Yet I find I want to TELL YOU I'M NOT GONNA BE TALKING TO YOU.

 I could just prove it by ... you know, not talking to them but I feel like I want them to know NOW. I actually started to do this again, I started by saying "I need to distance myself from you" and they "don't know what they are doing wrong".