A few weeks ago, sometime in November I believe, I made an inappropriate comment to my fp Doll in front of a few people, and it really hurt him a lot. He has bpd too and was hurt quite a lot, and decided it's better for him to have distance. A little bit ago I was struggling and cried out for help publicly. He saw it and contacted my mom, and since then he's been more present in my mind. Plus he had mentioned an event that might happen on Dec 31st so I was thinking about that too. Last night i had a dream that he texted me and wanted to be friends again. I don't know what to do now because it felt so real and I miss him so much and i might see him tomorrow at school and i want it to be okay but it's not. I really want to text but i know it's a really bad idea because i hurt him so bad