I have been anxiety attacks for the last week and i know that I'm gonna have many more for the next two weeks.

I have been unable to sleep for the last 10 days (it's 3am right now) and i know it is because of my anxiety.

I have had anxiety for many years now, but i have always been able to hide it and control it. But it has been really difficult since I got PTSD half a year ago when i worked as a firefighter.

The reason i am having anxiety attacks now is because my parents are visiting me in two weeks, and i don't want to see them.

I want to cut contact with them but i am too afraid to do it. I am terrified if them. I have been terrified of them my whole life. I got no problem entering a burning house but i can't pronounce their names without sweating and stuttering.

We live in different countries and they are coming for a about a week in two weeks. They are gonna live at my grandma's house.

Them coming and me having to see them is giving me so much anxiety. I normally have 3-4 anxiety attacks a week, and i normally can control them. But I've already had 6 anxiety attacks this week. Yesterday a doctor had to stay with me for 15 minutes because i was panicking out of my mind, that was a really scary experience, it might have been my biggest attack ever.

Knowing that they are coming is also giving me sleep paralysis, and that doesn't help my anxiety levels...

I don't really know what to do now... I need sleep... Please god let me sleep