Hi all! In the past two weeks, my anxiety has manifested into an unstoppable force. 

Especially in the last month, it started to consume my day-to-day activities, my hobbies, and my enjoyment of spending (socially distanced) time with friends/family. 

Now, I often wake up in the middle of the night restless and unable to go back to sleep. I cry alone in my bed almost nightly (I haven’t cried in several years - I’m generally a very happy person). I feel a sense of hopelessness, like nothing will ever fall into place. Weirdly enough, I feel guilty when I feel happy. Like if I’m laughing and having a good time, a part of me chimes in and says “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” 

At what point should I visit my doctor? I thought for a bit that I was in a ‘funk’. I’ve tried meditating regularly and reading self-help books, but now I’m nervous that this is my new normal and I need therapy/medication/outside input. Thank you all in advance :)