all i’ve ever wanted was to be held in someone’s arms and to be told it’s gonna be okay, that has never happened.

all of my past relationships i’ve either been cheated on and or abused physically or mentally, this has lowered my self esteem to a point where i don’t believe love is real. i don’t love myself due to the people who were supposed to “love” me treated me wrong and makes me feel unloveable,

how can i crawl out of this loop and how could i better myself and maybe find the one?