I just... I don’t know. I’ve only been formally diagnosed recently, after years of different horrible fucking meds, different diagnosis etc etc, but bpd has always been suggested. I’ve known for a long time. But now it’s real, it’s real, ya know?

I feel hopeless, and defeated. I’ve been on a downward spiral since Christmas. I start DBT in September which is great, but I need something to help me right now, because I’m living in hell. What can alleviate my pain right now? I can’t concentrate. I can’t think properly. I hate myself. Please please, what can I do. I’m struggling to put one foot in front of the other.