Idk why I’m like this but I’ve been like this my entire life deadass to the point where it’s a pattern everytime I  go through a break up I seriously feel like screaming bloody murder, breaking my legs and bones, jumping off buildings, paying for a personal assassination, clawing at my skin, drinking till I die it feels like the world is ending I loose all my appetite and I’ll spend days and every second within those days months a year even before all day long stalking them wondering what they’re doing calling them sending paragraphs after paragraphs… sometimes I’ll be fine like I’ll ignore it for 2 months then I eventually get sad and end up texting them again not being able to eat sometimes even throwing up. Like I cannot help myself sometimes like it’s so bad.