i made a post on another subreddit about how i feel i am being abusive to my boyfriend because of my bpd and everyone there made me feel like it was my fault. i'm tired of feeling like this, really. regular people don't understand how hard it is to deal with this disorder. they really don't understand. i feel so weak because silly me almost had a full meltdown over people attacking me like that. silly me deactivated my old reddit account (it wasn't even that old, it's probably my 5th one this year.) just to escape from them. i really am super pathetic!