I'm used to being sad as the sort of "miserable" aspect of life, but recently I've just been feeling nothing. It's not like I can't feel emotions, I can, but they're just getting dull. Being happy and sad are just so close it's hard to tell a difference. I thought being sad was miserable, but feeling nothing is just so much worse. I don't understand anything fully anymore. It's not that I'm sad, it's that there's nothing. What do you do when you can't even cry about it. How am I supposed to feel. My girlfriend makes me happy, but I don't feel genuinely loving for her, and I hate it. I know I love her, but I just don't feel it. I know I love to play piano, but it's just so mundane and boring now. Doing anything just has about no purpose behind it. I have almost no reason to do anything, it's more like forcing myself.

I don't know what to expect from this, but I just want to talk. I'm not suicidal, I'm not rash. It's just that, feeling practically nothing, sucks. I can't feel the same about anything.