I don’t know if this is my ocd or not exactly 

For starters, I’m 18 and want to quit porn as I don’t think it’s making my life any better and only worse, I have a lot of anxiety. I’ve always wanted to have a good relationship with my wife in the future, but I’m worried the porn I’ve seen could affect that. With porn use you start with very basic stuff like nudes, to more extreme stuff like the degrading shit that makes you feel lesser as a man but you could still get off to it cause it’s shocking or taboo and it just ends at the porn since it’s not actually you. I’m worried that what if this porn that I’ve escalated to will ruin my future relationships, I just want a fulfilling one and nothing to ever be like the things I’ve watched in porn. I’ve gone from the stress and anxiety of thinking that I’m a pedofile, to a criminal, to a psycho, and now that I’ll be a bad husband because of the fucked up shit I’ve watched, and the cycle never ends. When I get over one obsession I become super confident, then i find something to obsess about and kill it. For example I’ve felt super confident in who I am lately, started talking to more women, but it’s getting shut down because I’m connecting the weird porn I’ve seen to me being some weird beta that has no chance. I think this is how ocd works and it’s always fucking me up when I’m in a better place finally. Someone please help