For what I say or do.. I have these moments when out of the sudden the whole world is not backing me back anymore, do you ever get that feeling? And I feel bad for all the things I've said and how I've said them. I use this excuse of the borderline (I don't want to accept it at the moment) to act like a madman. And I hurt the people around me, mostly female. This is why I tend to be whatever about a relashionship at this point in my life.


But sometimes I go back to being the old me, smiling at work and interacting with people making new friends and hitting on girls. I think hitting  on them is the best part   because I get quite bored once I know we are on the right path, and goddamit I do everything to sabotage what I have built. It's like building a house aof cards just for the beauty of seing it collapse.. Priceless 