Obviously I will be talking to my therapist and med doctor more but after this weeks session I feel really confused. My therapist thinks I have BPD but my original diagnosis is Cyclothymia(basically bipolar 3, a simple explanation for times sake). I have struggled with the original diagnosis for 2 years now and have never felt that the hypomania part fits because yes I can feel good but it's no hypomanic high in my opinion. My therapist agrees she has never seen it happen to me either many depressives but never hypomanic. She wants to step away from that diagnosis the only issue is I do feel more stable on the mood stabilizer I'm on and my med doctor doesn't agree he thinks they play together, per say. I'm just not sure how progress is made here especially when my therapist doesn't do DBT which I've been told is the only treatment for BPD. She knows some and is willing to try with me and I am thankful for that because we have an awesome relationship(my last one wasn't a good fit and I forced it and made no progress for about 2 years) and she believes the relationship is what is important not her skill level in DBT, and I trust her my head is just spinning with it all. I was told by my med doctor it's a learned disorder, that DBT is my only hope, and that I'm basically a child who will throw tantrums so bad my parents will always give in out of embarrassment or the level I bring it to. One I am 24 almost 25 thanks for that comparison also that was never my childhood experience! I was beat and frightened into submission, I was the perfect child who never out spoke an adult, I still apologize to strangers in the store for existing and walking past them. I hate how nasty and mean this disorder is made out to be, and that people don't realize it's a spectrum not everyone who has it leaves a trail of destruction behind just like not everyone with depression has psychosis. There are levels to this and everyone (me included) just lumps everyone together and demonize them. Sorry for this long bit of a rant, I just don't have many to talk to about this and no one that really understands it other than my therapist...