Every single day I feel like there's a black hole that's constantly consuming all of my serotonin so I have alot of bad habits like drinking,smoking, developing hypersexuality, it's like i keep trying to fill a cup without a bottom. I wish I could feel real emotions like love but it's hard because of past experiences.
I'm basically just addicted to whatever gives me that "ahhh fuck" feeling but it's getting bad. I'm getting bored of drinking and jerking off,I used to workout multiple hours a day just to feel something and I still do but every other day. I'm just looking some a little advice because I can't live like this anymore,very few things satisfy me in this life