I wanted to make this thread because I lost the one true girl I loved with all of my heart she was my first true love we had dated two times we loved each other so much and we were both so insecure that we didn’t love ourselves and it just led to fights and tears and anger. Everyday I wish she would come back into my arms and tell me she loves me I lost my virginity to this girl I did everything with this girl she was my first for everything and I wanted to start a life with her after we had broken up I had made the mistake of having sex with a female it was meaning less and brought me no joy. I thought it would help me I thought I was over her but it only made me feel like the bad guy and that I don’t deserve her. Now I sit in my room every night dying in my own thoughts. I contemplate suicide every night and I think I will eventually take my life I know it’s selfish because of the burden that would be putting on my mom and the others I love but I can’t live with the pain knowing that I can’t have this girl anymore she was my one and only