I've never thought of it until my best friend told me today that my behavior makes him think that I can't show empathy towards myself. At first I wanted to defend myself with shallow arguments till I thought about it and noticed that he was right, I'm able to show empathy towards anyone but when it comes to myself I can't even take a break or I'm automatically human garbage. Currently I'm not in the right state of mind to be productive + I have covid + I can't concentrate at home so it should be okay for me to not be as productive as usual right? Wrong. I couldn't stop thinking about how bad of a person I am and that if I'm not gonna do something for university today my life is ruined and other stuff. And over all I just kept beating myself down over not being productive for just the time I need to feel better so I can go back to the library on our campus and work there. I hope that I can do some assignments tomorrow with someone else online, because otherwise it will end in procrastinating and me just being myself once again.