(21m) I never thought It would come to the point where I would be posting on a depression subreddit. Honestly, I never thought I would be depressed at all. I’ve had family members pass away and I was sad for a while but life moved on. I had my oldest brother pass away when I was 13 (he was 19). Even then, I never felt depressed. Just extremely sad. 

It wasn’t until I took dating seriously and had my heart absolutley torn apart. It was something I had never experienced before. Two years gone like that. I started working out and I’m never satisfied with how I look. I’m 6’2 and 150lbs. I try to convince myself things will be fine but sometimes my head gets to me. I’m still going through the breakup so everything is hard. It happened three months ago, and I am finding it hard to move forward. 

I’ll be fine for a couple days, then it’s days of constant sadness and not really wanting to be here. It comes and goes in waves, but those waves hit hard. 

Not really sure what to do anymore.