Honestly, I cannot bear to read any of the posts here because everything is so... everything. its all too spot on, all too real, all too overwhelming, everything. 

I just recently got diagnosed with BPD. lol is diagnosed even the proper term for this? 

I don't know what to do, and even if I see a "happy result/ending" here, I know it won't necessarily apply to me. And if its a bad one, then that doesn't help. And saying that it'll get better or keep your head up, or keep going or that someone else will come around, or anything at all, will not help. 

so honestly there is no point in me really posting this but I don't really know coz here I am anyway. 
