i wish there was someone who told me everything ugly about myself so i could fix myself because i cannot deal with the fact that im so ugly anymore. i try to feel like pretty but end up just overs3xualizing myself and not even feeling or looking pretty. i wanna fix my brain, i wanna fix my skin and my hair and my body and my "style" and my clothes and my mind and my thoughts. i cant remember a time when i didnt hate myself. i cant remember a time when i didnt wanna look like someone else. everyone pretty hates me. they dont say it but they do.  and i have no real friends and i always text first. im on a fucking reddit page ranting because i have no purpose and i have no life. im sick of feeling bad for myself but i dont feel bad for myself i feel angry at myself but everything is telling me i feel bad for myself. i embarres my self even when no ones watching. i try to make myself happy and free spirited and end up failing. no one wants to hang out not even myself and i dont even know that but god im so selfish. fuck im just so sad. i just want to feel better. i wish someone could make me feel better.

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please.