Sorry guys not good with formatting and this is on mobile. 
So I've been recently diagnosed with bpd always knew I had something wrong just would never get it checked out. All is going good until about 2 weeks ago.
About 2 months ago I got into contact with an old girlfriend of mine that I've been in love with for roughly 11 years.
Haven't had a decent relationship since, we're back together now and everything was great until a few weeks ago and I had an episode. She knows about my bpd and tries to be supportive. But I'm a very affectionate person ( love holding hands, cuddling, just basically any contact will suffice) but she is not so much like that.

I feel as if I'm getting on her nerves with it all the time. When she doesn't want to it drives me into a very depressed state of mind that I've been stuck in for the last few weeks and I really don't know how to get out of it. I know she loves me and cares for me but seems like I'm around too much and I try to give her space which pushes me further into this state. Not sure where to go from here any advice would be greatly appreciated

Edit: I'm a 26 year old male she is 25 not sure if that matters or not but figured I would include it just incase