Long story short is I was enrolled in a DBT program and it turns out the people running it are a bunch of money hungry assholes who don’t give a shit if we get better or not (before anyone jumps down my throat, i was flat out told this), and now I’m out all the money I paid for the program. So tbh I’m slightly traumatized by the experience at the moment and also now have had zero therapy or support for the past 3+ weeks. 

Right before I started this DBT program I had just started seeing a woman who I really liked, she just doesn’t practice DBT. I’m not sure if I should just reach back out to her and try to get back into therapy asap or not. I WOULD still really like to learn the skills and think they would help me, but I didn’t really feel like I gained any benefit from sitting and having someone recite them to me every week. 

I was also having a lot of trouble within the DBT program bc I am having REALLY severe health problems at the moment which are effecting me cognitively and are fucking with my memory pretty bad so like even when we learned the skills I pretty much just forgot them immediately. And also like I can barely stand out of bed half the days so my mind doesn’t feel like it is working enough to really get at it. Idk. 

So I’m just trying to figure out if it is better to go back into regular therapy for the moment and put DBT on the backburner and just try to learn the skills on my own using self help tools..... I know it is ideal to be in a DBT group obviously but idk if i can handle it if i run into another shitty situation like the one i just had. Obviously no one can answer this question for me lol but would just like to hear others experiences!