I’ve really been wanting to self-harm lately. And it’s not even cutting, sometimes I’ll be driving and I think about how I could kill myself in that moment, or I’ll see train tracks and wonder how quickly it could be over. I feel empty but also like I am falling apart, like I can’t hold on any longer. I’m just so tired of always ending up in the same place, it’s like a cycle of getting slightly better and then being back to my lowest point again. I feel like I’m not cut out for existence, like maybe this life just isn’t for me, maybe I was built to live in a world like this. I just want to feel okay