I just need to get this out somewhere. I’m not okay at all my panic attacks combined with intrusive thoughts have really left me no room to cope with anything. I just don’t understand why when someone needs to be left alone that other people have to make it about themselves and their worry. When in reality it does nothing but exacerbate my situation if I’m constantly getting poked. I’m tired of this man. So tired. This is no way to live. It’s like I’m being choked constantly.
I’m just so exhausted. And it just there’s a certain uncontrollable rage that builds up with the panic attack. It’s like I have no control over myself. I need to live alone, but I feel trapped because I can’t do that. It’s actually become impossible.