If I can’t do the most basic thing as human connection I might as well end it. Most people have had they first kiss/sex by the time they’re 18. Here I am at 21 with nothing and I can’t make any friends. I’m worthless anyway. I’m simply too ugly. And yeah I’m negative and depressed, who wouldn’t be in my situation?! I’d be just as happy as those in relationships if my life was filled with positive validation and good experiences.

At least if I kill myself I improve the quality of the gene pool. At least then I’ll know I genuinely contributed something positive to society.