I need to start my internship in 3 weeks to date and I will haven't found out heard back from anyone... I don't know what other companies I'd like to work for and I'm too worried to find ones... Getting out of bed means that I have to send the letter I prepared yesterday which I'm really unsure about. I just don't feel it's good enough, nor do I *really* want to work for that company but it's a lot better than nothing... And I really only have myself to blame because I started preparing my portfolio way too late and I started applying way too late. I thought I had enough time... Until I didn't. My school will probably help me find something when it's really looking hopeless but I'm scared I'll have to settle for something that I really *don't* want. I've only sent out over application so far and I feel like I'm sabotaging myself on purpose so that I don't have to do the work that scares me and frankly, that's exactly what I'm doing...