I have literally zero people to talk to. 

There are about 4 people that would be upset if I ended my life and they don’t talk to me either. They’ll be at my funeral though, pretending they missed me. 

I was depressed, almost got out of it, but then realized that nothing is getting better, my family has abandoned me, and I have no friends. 

I have tried everything - medication, changing my diet, working out, getting a better job, going out more. Nothing works. 

I still want to end my life every morning. 
I need help. Can’t think of a good way to end it that is quick but also painless 

I’m tired of pretending the future isn’t going to be hopeless. Some say “stay focused on the present” but the present is also hopeless and meaningless. The past is all pain and regret and failure. There is nothing except death. 

I was going to end my life 8 years ago because the future seemed hopeless and bleak. A psychiatrist told me I can’t predict the future. Things aren’t as bad as I predicted they would be or imagined they would be in the future.  They are much worse. 

Sorry for the long wall of text. I have literally nobody to talk to and I’m sick of talking to therapists and psychiatrists, most of them are less than helpful, and just regurgitate the same useless ideas from their poorly written textbooks and course material.