Call me naive or whatever.  I should know that I can’t expect society to be inherently kind, but I am shocked every time someone is mean to me for no reason.  I have low self esteem and have recently joined a gym.  I look foreign but I am a halfie and have grown up here so I speak the language.  The number of snide comments I’ve heard is really discouraging.  I’m trying to be positive and not sensitive but it’s so damn hard when people keep cutting me down.  I want to go back to not leaving the house.

Some of the posts I’ve been making on Reddit about dieting and gym stuff for advice - the feedback has been quite mean… and I don’t know why because I said I was just starting out.  And yet people still judge.

I have no idea why people exist just to be mean.  I’ve never been that way and I really struggle to understand others who get pleasure out of saying things that are nasty.

I know reddit is a nasty place, full of bitter people hiding behind anonymous screens but damn.  I was asking for advice, not asking to be roasted.  I didn’t expect to get hate comments on something so innocent.  But yet again, I have had high expectations and have held people to my own standards when clearly, some people just don’t have morals.  I’m trying not to let each comment get to me, as well as each “ew” glare at the gym from fit people, but it’s really hard when I have depression and insecurities already.  It’s not other people’s problem, but whatever happened to “be kind because you never know what people are going through?” :( 

I’m literally trying my best to be the best version of myself - kind and empathetic to all, but to get so little back from people is really hard.  I don’t expect everyone to go out of their way to praise me, but gosh why do so many people readily insult others when they have done literally nothing to deserve such?

Heart hurts.