So, I have this friend who I’ve been friends with for a little while and we’re close, I mean he has seen me during a suicide attempt and we’ve both had many conversations about how “close” we are, I guess what he said on his end wasn’t true. Lately, there’s a shift in our friendship, and tonight was the last straw. I’ve been asking him to hit me up when he’s free, but he never does even though he said he would. Then, I find out he’s hanging out with our other friends, and I feel so stupid and idk..confused? Since he said he was busy and would hit me up when he’s free, but doesn’t and precedes to hang out with our other friends. Idk man..I’m so confused about the situation. I’ve done so much for him, which is my own fault, but it really does make me feel stupid for believing all the times he said he was busy was actually true. 

Maybe it’s my BPD, but it really sucks finding out one of your really “close” friends seems to be avoiding you. He said he’s not, but his actions say otherwise.