life just keeps throwing shit at me and i am constantly overwhelmed and feeling like i’m suffocating. i feel like my mental illness is never going away which i’m sure of since it’s been 5+ years now. i just recently got my own apartment and i’m tired of the stress and the need to work 5 days out of the week to maintain this mediocre living. i barely have any friends and one of my old friends just cut me off suddenly. i’m not close to my family but i have 3 cats that make me close to happy. i don’t know what i’m doing with my life and why i’m here.