been diagnosed with mdd since i was 23 (turning 27f this year). it's definitely gotten better but there are episodes where i just have no motivation to do anything, even though my room is a disaster zone and there are so many opened boxes from packages that i'm too lazy to take downstairs to the garbage room.

all the simple chores &amp; tasks are so insanely hard and i feel like shit because at the end of the day, it just feels like i'm just a lazy person who has no hope in taking care of herself or being a responsible, independent adult. my mom has reminded me that ever since i can remember.

it feels like i'm never going to actually really reach the best version of me or that the best version of me isn't that great to begin with.

to summarize: i'm just extremely sad and unmotivated right now for literally no reason, my brain just decided to feel that way in the past week.