Its been almost a year since i logged on here because i thought i was getting better. But as days past, i lost a lotof people including my girlfriend.

But im not here to rant about my break up, but i genuinely feel left out on everything. I have no friends irl and all my internet friends are having different interests than mine, i tried joining but it doesn't really peak my interests and now i feel very left out.
No one talks to me on a daily, my parents hate my guts and a one "close" friend of mine hates me now for giving a bad advice.

I feel so alone and left out, no one around me other than my thoughts. At many points of my life i tried ending it all but i couldn't, idk whats still keeping me from ending my life when i literally have no one with me anymore.
I wish i could have the courage to end it all. I wish i was strong enough to put me to sleep