So I felt good, got excited to go for a long walk, I got dressed and 5 seconds after I felt bad and sat still in my chair for 1 minute and then decided time to really go for a walk but 5 seconds after I got undressed and felt really, so I stayed home feeling depressed and disgusted and thought about slitting my wrist! I took my meds to calm me down ( 2 mg xan) to not feeling this horrible « dégoût » and then I had three rounds of scotch! I blacked out in the living room but woke up in my bedroom with vomit everywhere! Plus texts of closed once insulting me and telling to grow the hell up!


I hate this severe mood swings and people hating me for my mental illness!