**trigger warning: Covid, fears of death, someone else passing away from an illness**

I’ve dealt with anxiety (and specifically health anxiety) for as far back as I can possibly remember but recently my mom keeps hounding me to get my booster Covid shot (I’ve been putting it off also for health anxiety reasons) and telling me how our uncle works with a young guy who passes from Covid with no prior health complications, ect ect. Now I can’t stop thinking I might have Covid after starting 2 new serving jobs and I’m just going to stop breathing right here right now. 
I also feel like I can’t breath, can’t seem to focus, too hot then too cold and like I’m seeing everything happening around me but my brain isn’t actually processing any of it. I always describe it as the lights behind my eyes are dimmed, if that makes any sense? Sorry for rambling I’m just alone and feel like I’m going a bit crazy.