I've been depressed lately, with everything going on. The fact that I experienced everything I thought I would never do or experience.
My parents don't believe mental Diseases exist. 
They told me to be kinder to my sibling because she has a "high heart rate" and I shouldn't stress her out. 
LIKE WTF IM LITERALLY DYING IN FRONT OF THEIR EYES AND ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS HER AND HER HEART BEAT
I AM LITERALLY SO DEPRESSED ALL DAY AND I FEEL RAGE MY HEART RATE IS HIGH TOO. 
I've been stealing pills and taking them, i have physical pain and mental pain from not being able to sleep. 
I don't want to be a druggie on top of everything I am. I'm crying 