VENT !!!

im trying to finish high school, i have a job and i have applied for college for mechanical engineering. i tried to move out of my moms house but she started sobbing and im getting cold feet. i feel like no matter what i do, no one will ever be proud of me and ill never be good enough. im on lexapro and can talk to people and my mood has been better than ever but, im not good enough. when will i ever be good enough? i guess i feel like a disappointment because im transgender and anything i ever do will ever negate that. ill always be a disappointment because i am transgender. i could find the cure for cancer and i feel like i'd still be a disappointment. i just want to be good enough for someone. i just want someone to tell me im not a disappointment. i just want someone to accept me for who i am and support me. but thats impossible. ill never be good enough. no matter what i do. is anything even worth it? i dont know.