My fp was also my ex. They are making it seam like I did them so wrong when I told them I was spiraling and needed help I was told I was fine but then I’m the being of April we going into an argument because I wanted to be alone and they wanted me to go with them and there friend and I got told o hit rock bottom. At that point they said if I don’t get help that they would end everything. She was my fp but she says that I cheated on her even tho we were in an open poly relationship. She said it was because I didn’t tell her first but she has slept with someone before I moved in with her and didn’t tell me till 2 days later. She also said she lost all feelings the same day we broke up she wasn’t sad. She was in a new relationship not even a month later. She  said that I ruin everything because I can’t control my moods and when I was on meds I was always sad o mad. I don’t know how to show I’m happy I never have and she told me I ruined my and friends birthday celebration because our birthdays are in the same week at Disney because I struggle to show that I’m happy when I’m on meds I can show it when I use weed tho. But I still love her even tho she doesn’t care about me at all. How do I stop missing her as a fp and partner? I don’t eve remember may June and some of July everything is blending getter since I lost her as my fp.