I have horrible anxiety and I started my internship today. I got to HR at 8 and all the new employees and I sat in a meeting going over paperwork until noon. A horrible headache started at 9. We finish the paperwork, and they let us go to get lunch. I grab something, I’m surprisingly able to eat just fine. I look at my face in the mirror, and my eyes are red rimmed from my headache. I’m thinking “Great, now they’re gonna think something is wrong with me.” But I have to go back into HR to finish setting up my account. At this point my head was hurting even worse and I started to feel nauseous. While I sat there waiting for them to finish up my account, I started to feel as though I was going to pass out. Thankfully I didn’t get sick or pass out. But after finishing with my account set up, I went to the department I would be working in. My tasks were to get familiar with a programming tool I haven’t worked with before and to read over the code from a project they were working on. Easy, no people interaction. Except my headache had not eased and I could barely focus on what I was reading. I got off work at 5. It is almost 8 now and my headache isn’t any better. A headache from 9am to 8pm. I threw up when I got home, took some medicine to try to get rid of my headache, threw up again so that medicine is probably gone. I’ve felt nauseous on and off since. I don’t think I can eat. I don’t know if I can physically do this internship if this goes on.
My mom has told me “Just breath. Everything’s going to be fine.” But I felt relatively calm during the meeting but the headache just showed up anyway and wouldn’t go away and it just got worse from there.