I've been in therapy for so long. I've held down a job for years. And it might not be the best job, but I'm ok. I have friends. It's not the most active social life, but people are busy, so I understand. In general, I can see the progress I've made. Except for romantic relationships.

I'm still in love with my ex. She's my best friend. We talk all the time. And I'll always be there for her, just like she'll always be there for me. It's so hard watching her date others though. I've kept these feelings to myself in the time since we broke up. And I've tried to move on. I've seen other women, but nothing lasts because I just can't get over her. I mean, I still want to spend my life with her. I know it's not my reality though. 

I'm just so tired of hurting. I can't even have a sexual relationship. Try as I might, I haven't been able to orgasm since I was with my ex. 

All the therapy hasn't helped me. And I don't know what else to do.