Been on disability for about 3 years now. Before that I had a decent job at the age of 21 making 12.50 an hour which in 2016 was pretty good for a 21 year old. But after not working for a while and being on meds a long time my life feels monotonous, stagnant and boring. I have no friends, cut them all off bc they weren't good for me while ill. I live with my mom and am working on moving out with my ssdi money. Will probably find a place soon bc of some help I'm getting with my social worker. Just saying does life get boring for yall or what? How do you keep going knowing you have no career and no real life path. I get 1100 dollars from ssdi a month which is nice to have but I feel like I should be making more bc now I'm 27. I feel like this illness has slowed my life path down and made things kind of hard. I am afraid of school for some reason. I want to have drive and make more money then just an ssdi paycheck but don't want to lose the ssdi. It's almost became a crutch I've leaned on and now I want more. Just a rant.