I have no friends. I rely on my family to make me feel good about myself. My emotional neediness fucks me during the holiday season.

I hate the holidays. I never go through the holidays without hysterically crying myself to sleep. Just like on my birthday.

I compare what I get to what everyone else gets. I cant help but think that I’m the least thought about. People seem to hardly put effort and when they’re confronted with it they tell you that you have issues. 

The holidays are so toxic for my brain, I just wish I wasn’t around people who celebrate them. I would cancel my birthday too if I had the power.