Emphasis on by “people i know” cause I don’t have the same issue when I’m travelling in a new country or place where I don’t know anyone cause I’m new so it kinda gives me an excuse to being alone. 

And that’s perhaps why I moved around quite a bit in my 20s. Here in my current town where I live, I feel like I have no excuses for having a more solid social life and get too scared to leave the house cause I don’t want to bump into my co workers or anyone from the past and be seen as a loner. 

Ideally I’d like to have more friends other than my judgemental “best friend” or others who I’ve lost touch with over the years but it’s really difficult to start from scratch. I don’t want to admit to my vulnerability to new people so instead I fake a busy life or pretend that it’s my choice to do things alone. 

I can’t keep city hopping till I find a new group of friends. I just don’t know how to reset my current social life I find myself with. It’s getting quite touch as I get older.