tiny backstory: my FP is my cousin who raised me. we experienced similar trauma.

anyways… he’s on vacation with his sister, his son, nieces, wife, mom, and step dad. his wife and his mom (my aunt) are constantly posting pictures from the vacation and it’s killing me. i feel like i’ve been abandoned and replaced and i’m angry.

i haven’t talked to him in over a year. i’ve kept my distance because my own mother has made me feel disgusted with how much i basically idolize my cousin. 

i just miss my best friend and wish i could tell him everything but i know it wouldn’t end well. 

just needed to vent and get this out, it’s put a huge damper on my mood these past couple of days.