Yk that feeling when everything stops being any interesting, you get flooded with numbness and omnipresent anxiety that turns every moment into not being unable to do your tasks and being painfully anxious over it, when you can’t make yourself do anything. When another kind of anxiety makes every second torturous, when this weird feeling of lacking smth non existent but seeming so essential that each moment you can only think of that and try to do anything just to get rid of this feeling, fuck I’m so tired my mind can’t think straight I’m fucked, I’m slipping back into all the unhealthy coping mechanisms and I’m getting more and more suicidal really fast, I am terrified what’s going to happen tomorrow, I’ve seen it all a thousand times before it’s the same exact shit again and again, I know what’s going to happen and it is unbearable, it is a torture. I have no idea what to do. Please help, how do you cope with this shit? Anything? I don’t want to go through this again, I’ve just recovered after last time. Please not again I don’t want this again please not again, what can I do? I want to escape this