Hi. I feel like I struggle articulating how I feel to myself a lot, being that I don’t really have access to therapy, or have the most understanding family (regarding mental health being a seriously inhibiting thing). I live with my family in the suburbs having to move back home after college. It’s hard. I don’t have a car, and so I’m essentially trapped (non-existent walking infrastructure) and it’s really isolating. My family just moved here so I don’t know a single soul in the area. There are almost no situations where one could even possibly bump into someone by chance. No authentic public sphere, everyone just stays in their house with their huge yards and keeps to themselves. I literally only talk to people at work, then go home and instantly feel dread. A huge weighty feeling, like I’m nowhere and here at the same time. 

Everyday is horribly the same. And I wish I knew how to save myself from this pain. Does this feel familiar to anyone?