Hi! I’m a 15F. I’m not officially diagnosed, but bpd runs in my family. This is kind of just a rant but I just want to feel like somebody understands what I’m dealing with. The typical borderline range is almost always directed at my parents. I struggle so much with splitting and see pretty much everybody in black and white. I’ll go back and forth with my friends and feel like I can only be friends with one person at a time and have to ghost everybody else. I feel this overwhelming need to get my friends to like me. Even if that means putting up with things that I wouldn’t usually. I also over share a ton and think I’m a lot closer with people than we actually are. It’s so embarrassing. I have no stable self image and have no idea what I believe in. I feel like I’m having an existential crisis except its every day. I am currently on 100mg of Zoloft for my depression and anxiety. It seems to be helping my depression quite a bit as I haven’t had any suicidal ideation’s as of recently. And I want to go on some thing for my mood swings and rage problems but idk. I’m just sick of pushing everybody away and not even knowing who I am. I feel like I’m a fake person and everybody who loves me is just loving a façade I put up. Am I the only one like this