i don’t know how to explain this really but wherever i fucking go it’s like i’m out of place and it feels awful and so awkward. I just don’t feel like i belong anywhere and i still get jealous of everyone else having fun . this is precisely why i don’t like summer or even the weekends because i’m just an outsider,to make things worse i had someone in my life (fp potentially)and with this person everything felt right and perfect and he felt like home to me yet i don’t know what’s happened but the relationship isn’t the same anymore