As the title states I was recently diagnosed with being bipolar. I am 23 years old and all my life I always thought my behavior was "normal".

It's honestly one of the hardest things that I have attempted to cope with and is a daily struggle. 

I have these times where I can obsess over the dumbest things, such as my friend being online on discord but not talking to me. 
She was in a call with someone else, not responding to me yet we'd just gotten out of a call and she had told me she was going to bed. 

Why did it bother me? I still don't know but it caused me alot of panic and today I somewhat blew up about it. I didn't want to or mean to, but I did.

This is just one of the many examples of my struggles and isn't close to the worst one but it sucks regardless. 
I hope that I am able to finally seek peace and not have to deal with this shit in my head one day.