My anxiety has been through the roof lately, and I think it's kind of self-inflicted. I've worked in some variety of health for a long time (have bachelors in health science, worked in pharmacies, now work at a doctors office). It's always fascinated me, but has also been my biggest curse. When I was younger, I worried about getting some horrible disorder or disease that would kill me. All. The. Time. 

Now that I'm an adult, yeah I still have it. It wasn't as bad though - until I got diagnosed with a rare sleep disorder that I kept brushing off as me just not having a good bedtime routine. So I have this chronic illness, okay, whatever, it's not dangerous. 

I started learning how to be a medical coder a few months ago, and was subsequently introduced to the *thousands* of ways that the human body can get FUBAR, especially with neurological disease. Idk why but the possibility of developing a terminal neuro disease scares the shit out of me. And a lot of the bodily symptoms I've been having - muscle twitching, cramping, dizziness, racing heart/pulse, etc. - are symptoms of both anxiety AND these diseases. I'm afraid of coming off as a hypochondriac to doctors and them not taking me seriously as a result, but I constantly worry about whether what I'm experiencing is self-inflicted anxiety, or an actual thing that should be checked out. I don't want to pay $100+ for someone to say "it's anxiety bro, do yoga."