
I’m new here! I just found this community and I feel like I can let everything out that I’ve been holding in over the last 2 years, as many of you may understand. 
I’ve been struggling for some time &amp; last year I had a job that I hated. It was during COVID and I was working from and I did end up leaving, once things opened up and I could find another job. 
However, as someone who already struggled with anxiety and depression, working in such a negative environment only exacerbated my mental health. A few of my friends even told me they can’t be around me anymore because of how negative I was being. But they didn’t tell me. They just started ignoring me and cutting me out, they didn’t tell me why until I confronted them. 
When I confronted them as to why they were treating me the way they were, I completely agreed with them. I was being negative. I was being toxic. I was struggling.  I owned it.
But the fact that they didn’t tell me and just cut me off really bothered me. It was a time I was truly struggling and since I lost 2-3 friends last year because of my mental health, I get too scared to open up again. I definitely try to be more conscious of how I act, and what I say, but I truly don’t think people understand. When someone, not just myself is spiraling, it is SO hard for them to be there for others when they can barely be there for themselves. 

If you’ve made it this far, THANK YOU for listening to me vent. 

It’s just something I’ve really been struggling with over the last year and a half and haven’t been able to voice it to anyone. It’s only caused my anxiety to worsen in fear of losing more people 😩
Any tips or advice?!