i just embarrassed myself at my internship and i'm pretty upset about it. my internship is in a hospital but i'm working outpatient so i'm not seeing very ill patients or anything. today, as part of orientation, they took us through the emergency department and it freaked me out so much. i've been in plenty of EDs before with no issue, but this hospital is in a large city and very sick patients were lining the hallways. i started to have a panic attack and asked the employee giving us a tour guide if i could step out. i left and went home because it was the end of the day anyway.

i feel so shaken up and embarrassed. one of the other interns on the tour with me texted me to ask if i'm okay. my anxiety feels so heightened now and i still have to go to class tonight. i thought i would be able to handle it but i wasn't. i guess i'm just feeling really down on myself :(