I simply feel like I’m trapped. For a moment every once in a while my hopes go up and then something happens and the feeling is crushed and replaced with anger and sadness. At this point and time I have opened up about these feelings to a select few of my “friends” that I thought I could
Trust or depend on just a little bit. All of them either said sorry you feel that way, and went on to never receive any support from them. Not even a simple check in to see how I’m doing. Or, just didn’t pretend to care at all. I feel lost and fatigued from trying and trying over and over just getting put back at square one. I want to simply feel loved looked after and able to fall back onto a person who cares about me. I’m not going to kill myself because I can’t bear the thought of how it will devastate some of my family, but If I was being honest, I wish I could end this terrible nightmare.