I have no friends, no real job, and I dropped out of school. I have nothing really and just drain from those around me. I've been nothing but a burden on someone since the day I was born and I feel its time to end it all. I'm tired of having to rely on others to survive. The only reason I haven't done it is my 3 dogs. My eldest dog is 10 turning 11 in just a few weeks and I know if I don't come home one day that he will be heartbroken. I've had him his whole life and he depends on me as much I do him. My middle dog is 5 and was never wanted by anyone, starting out as my siblings dog but they didn't want him so I took him. Without me he wouldn't have a home. And then my newest puppy is just over 3 months old and has bonded with me on a level I didn't know possible. I was actually there when he was born and I was the first person to hold him and all through his early life I was holding him and with him. My dogs ate the closest thing I have to children, but I see them no different than I would a human child. I don't think I could ever leave them. I just want to be a stable person so that I never have the thought of wanting to leave them.