I've been struggling lately I've told my parents the way I am feeling ( I am 19 btw) they have gotten me a doctor's appointment. The doctor prescribed me anti depressents but they don't seem to work. Yesterday was a really bad day for me the first day in a week since I've had sucidal thoughts. A week is good for me I used to have them everyday I've and I have  attempted once roughly a year back now but I am still sad everyday and my self esteem is still really low.