I don't even really know why it was so bad... Might be fear of the covid, might be social anxiety even though I wasn't expecting to talk to anyone and didn't, or maybe it was stepping out of my comfort zone. But fuck. 

My hands were shaking, armpits were leaking, heart was beating tf out of me, kinda struggled to breathe (also first time wearing a mask since I haven't left the house), my biceps and thighs are all weak and sore because I guess they were tight the whole time, chest pains from too fast heart and not enough breath...

But at the end of the day I still enjoyed it. Finally got some sun, got to see real people and faces, got some fresh air, moved around a bit. But yeah, that shit took a TOLL on me both physically and mentally.