I’ve reached a huge roadblock and now feel completely helpless...

I have had the same therapist for maybe 3-4 months now. In the beginning she was awesome, it was as if I was talking to a best friend. She would curse, react in a funny way (not inappropriately, each client has different boundaries but since I’m so young she knew that talking in a way a friend would would help me relate to her more), and was honestly great at explaining my intrusive thoughts. 

However I just finished a therapy session 10 minutes ago.. Half the time she didn’t even know what to say or how to help. “I don’t know kiddo” is an exact phrase. Another one was “I don’t really understand”...

How does a therapist not understand me.. She seriously didn’t even know how to respond or how to help me. She asked me what do I think I should do, and obviously I have no fucking idea, which is why I was asking her what to do...

At this point I just feel helpless.. If a therapist doesn’t understand me, who will? I don’t even understand myself.. I don’t expect my friends or boyfriend to completely understand either, because my situation is complicated and (i thought) only a professional could really dive deep into what’s wrong.

I’m exhausted. I’m so exhausted.. I feel like I’m never going to get better at this point. I’m embarrassed and don’t wanna open up to anyone anymore..

EDIT: she also said “maybe journal your feelings every day so we can figure out a pattern” WHAT?? I have been talking about this situation for over a month and I talk to her twice a week, yet she hasn’t noticed a pattern? At all? Seriously?