i know some of you will relate but sometimes i cant tell if my bpd is making everything around me seem awful or if everything around me is awful. 
but anyway, i hula hoop and juggle and use other props like that sometimes just for fun. i have no desire of being in a circus or carnival. 

but a lot of the time ppl tell me “you look like a carnie” or “you look like a clown” or “you should join the circus”. i know they are jokes but the fact that so many people have told me that now makes me think are they roasting me??? or am i just perceiving this situation super negatively? let me know