When my FP is away at school during the day, we (obviously) can’t speak for that time. It’s about 6 hours.

When he comes home and calls me, I feel almost empty. It feels like I have to turn myself on.and that feels impossible because... the emptiness. 

It’s so bad that he told me things don’t feel the same for the past two days and he’s right because I was acting how I did. When we are together a lot, it’s like effortless and everything is great but as soon as he’s gone for a bit it’s like, well it’s almost like he doesn’t exist.


I know this sounds really awful please don’t like attack me. It has been this way w every FP though. It’s like an emotional thing I don’t know. I just am scared cause I want to stop.