 why am I so sad? I have everything, a good job, a good car, two apartments .. (I live in Poland) I have no debts. the only addiction is cigarettes .. I go to gyms and swimming pools (I love to swim) I am big 6'6 ”and weigh 264lb. why am i so lonely ?? why can't I get overwhelmed? why can't i sleep ?? I should be happy .. and why am I not? why do I think to kill myself every other day? sometimes I am really fed up with this loneliness and all of this