i really like someone, ive never talked to him before and we only share one class together. its overwhelming and weird how much i like him, i have the biggest crush on him and i honestly wonder at this point if liking him is a good or bad thing.

for one thing, ive struggled with school and waking up in the morning / being on time for YEARS. nothing has ever helped me . i start liking him and suddenly im waking up at 4 - 5 am, getting ready early, etc, and i LOVE going to school which i hated and ditched every day in the past.

the problem is i feel almost obsesed w him, like everything i do is for him when ive never even talked to him before. altered my playlists based off the band t shirt he wore.... ;-; 
thinking of him whenever i get dressed, 
every day that i wake up leads to the moment i get to see him, even if its just for a moment. and when he's gone i want nothing but the day to be over, so i can see him again. the amount of times i get to pass by him in the hallway, just getting to see him at all, affects my mood for the whole day. 
he skips a lot of classes so i skip mine aswell and walk around the school hoping ill pass by him. (which has worked 3 out of the 826262 times iv done this) 
i would do angthing, ANYTHING, for him to talk to me , i want to get to know him so bad

(TW TW TW) 
(# This paragraph mentions eating disorders #) 
(u can skip to the end tho)
for a while i was managing my ed. not going on any diets / trying to restrict, just eating everyday and kinda hating myself. when i started to like him, oh boy that rlly kicked off my eating issues. i decided im gross n need to loose weight for him to like me. to the point i dont eat for 3 days then eat little 2 days in between &amp; repeat.... exercising for HOURS. literally waking up every 2 hours innthe night to exercise and going untill i black out. and when im doing it i tell myself its for him and if i eat im giving up on him. errghhh. 

i know this isnt going to work out (hes a cancer and im an aries) but he's quiet, unapproachable, i have so much anxiety that id prob faint if i talked 2 him. im kind of scared of what is going to happen i know it will end badly when i come to the conclusion that its not gonna work and rlly accept it and so basically when reality hits i'm probably gonna spiral and hurt myself in some way. 

he's just so perfect.