like seriously, everyone's gonna die. lost all they've achieved  
why even bother when u know you're gonna lose them?  


i don't find any goals in life. any purpose. as a result, suicide is becoming more logical to me. im understanding it.   


i just don't know anything. depression mate. if you'd see me a year ago, you wouldn't that ive changed this much. converted from a boy who was exercising 24/7, reading books, playing games, enjoying studying to someone who's just asking himself what's the great goal of life.   


ill probably wait a bit. religion didn't give me any purpose. all i hope that would give a new perspective, is philosophy. im gonna try it. if it doesn't work, that's it. im hanging myself