I am a 911 operator, have been for the last year. I've always struggled with a anxiety / depression. But this last year has been the worst of my life, I'm almost sick I'm so nervous everytime I go to work, I keep it together for the callers but when I go home I have panic attacks and spend all my time thinking about how I'm going to get through the next shift. It's affecting my relationship, it's affecting my confidence, I lately haven't had any motivation to get outside and do anything. I'm so scared to make a decision, I know I need to part ways with this job but I don't know what to tell them - I know I can't go back. I've been off sick but I feel that I need to just tell them I'm quitting and never look back. 

I'm just so worried about what others will think, what I'll do next, and how it'll reflect on me professionally. But I also feel that I can't keep in this downward spiral any longer. Am I crazy?