So, I spoke with my psychiatrist yesterday. I was on the fence about "dumping" her, but I've decided to hold off on that. I've decided virtually every psychiatrist on the planet is either crooked or just plain incapable of helping me, so leaving her to find someone else would be a fruitless endeavor. 

I explained to my psychiatrist about the possibility of a minor TBI that could be exacerbating my mood instability (I'm reluctant to even label it true bipolar anymore), and she agreed that I needed neuropsych testing. So she's going to set that up for me. In the mean time, I've decided I'm tired of the medication roulette, and I'm just going to stick to the meds I've got, purely for damage control. They're not really doing much else. So, she agreed to not see me again for three months. 

As for my therapist, I talk to her again in a couple of days. I've been seeing her once a week, and I don't have any complaints with her. But I just want a break from psychiatry, therapists, the works. It just isn't doing anything. I can tell her how I feel and see what she says, I suppose. But considering I just got out of the hospital not too long ago, she may not take kindly to me wanting to cut down some on therapy. Idk. I'd rather see my chiropractor than see another psychiatrist or therapist, at this point in my life. I'm burned out from it. 

Anyway, thanks for reading. I've tried almost every med combo there is. I don't think the mood instability will resolve until I get my physical health in order.