Sometimes I feel like I’m going to lose my mind. Idk how to explain it. I just have these moments where I feel alone in the world and don’t feel like anyone is truly there for me. The friends I  once had don’t feel like friends anymore. Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m anyones first choice. Other people get chosen over me. My girl got a ticket I paid for to come road trip with me back home and after she bought it she realized she had a event to go to that day. I told her it’s fine and hoped she would still pick me to come be with but she chose the event over me cause it’s a business event I guess but there’s going to be plenty more of those events. I just feel lost in life and put up a mask. But deep down, I wanna cry, deep down sometimes I feel like I’m ready to die.