Made this post a bit ago and already fell of track. Feel like whenever anything good starts to go on it stops and is taken away.

https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/mb8fjw/actually_might_do_good/?utm_source=share&amp;utm_medium=ios_app&amp;utm_name=iossmf

I’m not getting the full time position, at least right now I think. The spot I was going to take was given to someone else who I believe they are training to be a manager in another store. Good for him but I really needed the full time position for the moment. 

I was planning on being full time at this store and while I’m doing that I apply to some unions for work, fire departments, sanitations, and even to become a court officer. I just get a little nervous about the future, and am aware of how hard this might be to do with covid and all these people that don’t have a job.

If I had this one friend of mine around (no shes not dead) it be easier to think about all this but at the moment I can’t talk to her. I’m glad I did go to college even though it was a waste but I still grew as a person, but I still wish I started earlier on what I wanted to do in life. I know there are older people than me (23) who don’t know what they are doing and in a way that relaxes me but still doesn’t help.

I know in 10 years I won’t be worrying about things like this and I’ll be happy but now is now.