I'm too big of a coward to end my own life otherwise I would have done it years ago and I don't want it to get to a point where I harm others so I'm just asking God to please end my life. It's not too much to ask for. 25 years of suffering and going nowhere is more than I can take any longer. Please God just end it.  


P.S. If anyone mentions getting help, you can go right to hell. I don't give a crap about getting help anymore, I'm way past caring about anything anymore. I just want to die and have it end.