I’m all on my own and too afraid to reach out to anyone. All I’ll do is scare them away. I’ve been living on my own for the first time. I worked so hard to get this far and yet it’s still not enough. Work is a dead end that will only get me to doubt myself. Socially all I can do is laugh along and pretend. I don’t know.  There’s just too much. Winter is coming and the weather is already depressing and the days too short.