I’m in physical pain, my heart hurts that bad. The loneliness is chilling me to my bones. It’s 85 degrees outside and my body is shaking. I feel so cold. The only warmth I’m feeling is the sting of a few tears I just can’t hold in any longer. 

I just want a hug. I just want to feel something warm and completely engulfing. Where do I go to find this? I tried talking to a friend, obviously I’m here, so that was a mistake. They only pushed me further into the darkness. 

Why is it so hard to find the sunshine today? My stomach is churning. I feel nauseated and uneasy. I wish I had someone to turn to. Someone safe and comforting who understood or at least was capable of empathizing. Not that it should be anyones responsibility to help me feel better, but I just wish I could just feel someone else’s presence nearby. Someone who saw me. We wouldn’t even have to speak, just knowing I wasn’t alone would be such a gift right now. 

I’m so tired. So so tired.