So....for a lot of the time I can function properly. So much so in fact that I've never been diagnosed with anything (until now) because by the time I get to see any form of health professional I have usually come out the other side of my crisis and gone back to being a relatively stable person.

I can have a job, I can have friends, I can function relatively healthily, I have urges all the time and spending is a constant issue and I only really lose it when I let my guard down and start to fall in love with someone OR when I'm exposed to a Major stress event (at least once a year around this time)

So because of this I've been single for the past 4 years, I've tried to be with people but its mostly been delusional relationships that are mostly one sided.

I guess I'm worried that because I'm so highly functional that I don't meet the criteria for BPD and that I will escalate myself to be taken seriously. Obviously theres something more going on with me to have a crisis as bad as I do, and I have so much trouble with my interpersonal relationships that I can't really get close to anyone and I'm SO lonely.

So my main BPD issue is relationships. And learning to deal with crisises more effectively.

Does anybody else experience BPD like this? Going into periods of whats almost like remission?