I got prescribed valium by a psychiatrist and when i used it i felt intense relief like, 30 minutes after taking the medication i started laughing like , i couldn't stop laughing, i literally laughed like crazy, it lasted for like 10 minutes , i kept smiling, everything felt silent , i was able to lay on my bed in dark without tryna distract myself on the phone because of my anxiety, i literally closed my eyes and fall asleep within seconds, i was able to eat food without experiencing panic attack, my appetite got stronger, i stopped starving myself due to my anxiety, i felt so fricking good . I was able to do things to help my depression since i didn't have to deal with anxiety.

The bad part however it only lasted for 3.5-4 hours, i went to sleep after taking valium and 4 hours later i woke up with anxiety not being able to fall asleep again, my anxiety was back basically, i had to take it again to sleep. I didn't like this cuz it's like i have to take it every 4 hours to feel normal. 

I only used it for 2 weeks, i was out of pills for 2 months, I've been trying to heal myself with meditation , eating healthy etc none of them worked, i feel like I'm wasting my time because nothing actually helps,  I'm not sure if i should see a psychiatrist today to get valium again, everyone says it's addicting but i didn't get addicted to it, it didn't give my any side effects, i just didn't want to use it because i didn't want to be dependent to a medication to feel normal, but my anxiety is at it's peak now and ruining my life so i can't see any other way at this point, i tried everything, nothing helps except medication, idk what to do