Hello everyone, this is my 1st post here, so I want to thank you for letting me join this wonderful subreddit!
Tonight I lied down in my bed and craved for a hug. I am really having a rough week. My obligations are failling, my friendships seem like a lie and today is exactly 4 years since my grandmother died. My true guardian, role model and third parent. I try to cry but only dry tears come out. I feel like a dusty old book on the shelf of a closed library. Old, used and nonexistent in other people's lives. I don't know what to do. I just need a hug. 
Regarding my friends, I feel like I am drifting away from them. I was supposed to hang out with them, but they told me they couldn't make it cause they had other plans, and their plan was to hang out together with another person without me. Is it selfish to feel left out? I have a sense that only I care at this point about our relationship. I don't know.
All I know is that I am currently lying on my bed alone in the dark. And I need a hug.