Should I ask my parents for a therapy session? I'm scared to ask my parents for therapy and I come seeking opinions on what I should do. I'm 15 y/o and these feelings have been killing me. I'm sure changes in hormones have a part in this but I have been dealing with feelings of poor self-worth since I was 6. I begin slightly shaking, clinging, and breathing heavily with excessive worry and fear almost daily now but I'm worried my parents will say "average teenage feelings" and leave it at that. I also don't want to waste money on something that might be just a phase and so I'm asking for thoughts on this matter. 

Now for a little backstory. My writing may be a little messy so I apologize in advance. Thinking back, I've had "symptoms" of anxiety for a while now. I was yelled at a lot as a child for very trivial matters and still to this day ill get hour-long lectures for things that arent that big of a deal. After a specific scolding when I was around 6, I believe that kickstarted things. I started playing what I saw and heard in my mind over and over again until I got night terrors. For some reason, I can still recall this moment, and it still scares me. I became afraid of a certain speed (like m.p.h). A strange thing to be afraid of I know, don't know if this is just some sort of trauma-type thing or what but it was always weird to me. I start sweating and shaking whenever I think about anything with that specific speed and I don't know what that means. Anyways, fast forward to early 2019 and my grandma passed away. She was the only one I truly felt attached to and trusted (I have trust issues, don't know why). So her passing hit me hard. A year later (when COVID started) my dad cheated with my best friend's mom ending in a lot of self-confidence issues and when my trust issues began showing. My parents are still together they just argued and eventually got it worked out. Since I don't want everything to go downhill again, I just bottled up everything and hid what I felt. 

Now to the present day. This is why I find it so difficult to ask for a therapist. I'm afraid that my parents will just brush it off or be disappointed and think they did something wrong. This hopefully doesn't give the wrong idea about my parents. I believe they tried their best and to be honest, didn't do a horrible job. There were still good times I remember and they've done a lot for me. Unfortunately, I can't truly say "I love you back" without my parents telling me and that hurts. I know people have it much worse than me and that's another reason that's holding me back from asking. Either way, I'm still heavily considering therapy, and why I'm asking you. Is it just a phase? Will, I benefit from a professional? Am I being petty and should just deal with it? I'm not looking for a diagnosis but would love some thoughts on the matter and will try my best to answer any questions if any.  Thanks!  


P.S. I hope this wasn't too long, I tried to cram as much information as possible without it being accessive. Apologies for any grammar mistakes.