 

After some time in quite a deep mental hole, I decided its time to do something. Im at my last year of university, I wanna do so many things, but thats actually so hard. **My biggest problems are motivation and concentration.** While I can do nothing with motivation (except maybe forcing some habits), my **concentration issues** pain me. **I find it hard to concentrate on one thing for more that 10 mins,** **Im easily distracted by random things, sometimes I find myself staring at some point for 30mins for example, without doing a thing.** Not to mention the fact that my hand automatically moves towards my phone whenever I sit down to study.

**How can I train my concentration? What can I do to finally be able to try things?** I wanna do so many things, but I cant even focus on one. I have ***BPD*** and **MADD** that actually fuck up my brains and concentration quite a bit. Thanks to them Im getting dumber with every passing year. **My psychiatrist said I should just get used to it, but how am I supposed to live with that?** I decided to be better and do better, to get out of my illness, to try living like a "normal" human being, but I feel like life is constantly putting obstacles in my way and that kills my motivation instantly. **Is there really no way to improve ones concentration?** Like, i dont know, sudoku or chess? **Or should I just come to terms with the fact that Ill never live like a normal human being?** Sucks to have **pseudodemencia**.