Hey guys, always hoped I'll never have to ask this question but here we are. We're both 17 and were together for almost half a year now. It's not the first time we dated, though. We met two years ago, dated for some time, and broke up because of a stupid misunderstanding. She eventually wanted to come back but I didn't want to.   


Then it was me who wanted to come back, but in that case, it was her who had a boyfriend at the time. She texted me again when they broke up and we quickly fell in love. Like REALLY, in love. We were both obsessed with each other, it was all nice. She then became distant for a while, we got into a slightly heated conversation and broke up again only for her to come back not even a week after. After this, it was even better than last time. We never argued it was never dull, we spent a lot of time together and we were both so much in love.  


The day before she left for a 2 week-long trip we were together and for both of us, it was the happiest time in a while. But she had already begun to have some very bad breakdowns around this time, not even wanting to see me. It was good for a couple of days and then out of nowhere, she changed. Like 0-100 kind of move. She barely talked to me, barely wanted to see me. Didn't react to compliments, didn't compliment me. And she used to be extremely clingy and obsessive, it was one of her best traits.  


And it was never good again. The school was tough on her at the time, she was getting more depressed and her new meds weren't quite working yet. Her mom also didn't want her to get into a relationship then and wasn't very supportive, not allowing her to sleep at my place, etc.  


I was aware of what depression does to people so I was never taking it personally, making sure she knew she was not hurting me in any way and that I understood her lack of energy and that she didn't want to see me so often. I gave her space when she needed it and affection when she needed that. It got a little better, she became a little more clingy and expressive again. Told me she misses and loves me, sent me some love videos, and said "If this won't be us when all of this is over I'll be sad".  


We were supposed to see each other, but her mom didn't allow that as she also needed to study. She began crying and eventually said that it'd be maybe better if we stayed friends because she's a mess and not ready for a relationship, but that she hopes we'll find each other in the future as we always had. I supported her and said I'll be here as a friend only, then. This was Wednesday.  


She stayed in touch, we were replying to each other's pictures, complementing each other. But then suddenly she stopped, left me on seen. I reached out, asked how she was doing and if her meds began working, and if she wants to hang out we can. She said it keeps getting worse, the meds are not helping, and that she doesn't really have the energy to go out and ended the conversation.  


That made me nervous. This was Saturday evening. On Friday morning, a day ago, she was complimenting me and replying to my stories on Instagram, obviously trying to stay in touch. Left on me seen on the very same day, only a couple hours apart. I sensed something was off. She also had a tweet on her Twitter that said "I hope we find each other", and on Sunday I noticed she deleted it. Made me even more nervous.  


I couldn't resist the urge and texted her on Sunday evening again. I said that I miss her, to which she responded that she was over me. That she's losing feelings for "life in general", and feelings for me are dying too. She said she doesn't want to not have me in her life but all she's focusing on is herself. It caught me by surprise, I didn't really expect her to do a 360 like this. We agreed not to talk for now and give each other some space. Nothing toxic, we thanked each other for all the love and great memories, gave sincere best wishes and it was over.  


I'm sad and disappointed. I consider myself a "planner", I like to get ahead and expect things so that I can cope with them more easily. The first time she asked me to stay friends I was calm, felt no sadness at all. I saw that coming, it's very common in depressed people. But this caught me off guard and scared the fuck out of me.  


All I'm asking is if you think this is truly her depression and that I shouldn't really give up on her, but keep some faith. I'm obviously trying to move on at least to the extent that I don't feel sad anymore, but I do want her back. Our relationship was excellent, all the problems we ever had has been these outside factors (school, family problems, depression). We always kept a spot for each other, and always came back to each other.  


I truly believe that she'll come back eventually and that we're gonna be a happy couple again because it makes no sense to me that she'd lose her feelings like this if it weren't for the depression. I'm hopeful that as her depression improves, her feelings for me may come back. I'm obviously not gonna "wait" though, as she may never come back again. But I have faith.  


If you got this far, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Any input would mean the world to me.