For me, showering feels like a nightmare. I absolutely dread it and put it off as long as possible. For one, I have body dysmorphia and an ED and can’t stand to look at my body.. it’s triggering and can actually ruin my whole day sometimes. Another thing is I’ve always been super depressed with a lack of motivation or drive to take care of myself.. not necessarily thinking I even deserve to be clean. Another is I fucking hate managing thick ass length hair and shaving. All these things together, and I just shut down. That said, I love my hair way too much to cut it and unwilling to do that, even if it hypothetically made my life a lot easier. It’s been recommended to me before but I can’t do it despite it being really hard to take care of. I might hate shaving even more. I could get away with shaving much less often because my boyfriend is really accepting and attracted to me no matter what really, he actually encourages me to do it less because he sees how stressed it makes me and he doesn’t really care that much, but I’ve been so conditioned and brainwashed by society to do certain feminine things.. I hate it. I’d be so happy if I never had to shower again. 

Can anyone relate and if so, have any tips or advice with managing or overcoming this? Thank you