I called 911 on myself because I was having a pretty bad mixed mood but mostly manic episode which I'm on disability for and I was really scared for my own life the police came were very disrespectful and rude threw me to the ground covered me and Bruises by slamming me down handcuffed me dragged me to the hospital where the hospital screamed at me to calm down and gave me no medications didn't let me talk to a psychiatrist didn't let me talk to anybody and just wanted to be condescending and then whenever I wanted to get my phone so I could arrange a ride home later they literally made me stand up and they arrested me and took me to jail of course I was belligerent at that point and suicidal so they put me in solitary confinement and I was there for 5 days with no clothes no glasses no blanket no toilet paper no soap no shoes no socks very little food a cup for water but it was so disgusting in there that I didn't feel comfortable touching anything I couldn't use the bathroom because they were always watching me and now I just have such a hard time using the bathroom at all and it really has ruined my life and that's just one of the things that I'm dealing with I used to do art every single day and now it's so hard to get motivated to do it and my obsessive compulsive cleaning has really ramped up and so when I get anxiety I freeze up and so when I freeze  up my cleaning halts and then I have even more anxiety cuz my house gets so filthy I really would love to sue the police the jail the hospital all of them but I'm poor I'm on disability I'm disabled I can't even talk to a lawyer without paying one so once again the system gets away with it because they're oppressing somebody who has no power and no resources to speak out it really did ruin my life and now I'm still on probation from that and literally all I did was be loud at a hospital I didn't threaten anybody I didn't hit anybody I didn't swing on anybody I was just belligerent and loud that's it I'm so devastated that I've had to deal with this I had never had a record before I never had problems before and now I just can't even get off drugs I can't do my art anymore I can barely eat I can barely sleep I can barely think and it just sucks I thought maybe I was at a point in my life where I could get off disability finally this year I was doing so much better and then everything happened I think the thing that mainly triggered the episode that put me in jail too was my house burning down in a forest fire and while I was in it there's just been so much trauma this year don't know if I'll recover ever