So I have been going through a rough patch, I am recovering from an Eating disorder and have been having alot of anxiety so my therapist, parents and doctor decided it would be a good idea for me to go on meds. I had been through therapy for a couple of months but now I am questioning if I was even trying. I mean maybe I wanted to feel bad? Right before taking meds I was terrified of the side effects. I just started them 2 days ago and I am already feeling better. I have less intrusive thoughts and kinda less anxiety. Not perfect but feeling better and more manageable. I know that antidepressants take a couple of weeks to start working, so I am feeling like that means I dont need them. I guess this is just a placebo effect that I am feeling? I don't want to be on them if I don't have to be. Especially because I am terrified of weight gain.