I've posted about this saga before, so here's just the latest miserable chapter.  FP is less than an hour away for a week, but doesn't want to talk to me rn, still wants space.  I don't know the next time they'll be this close physically (they live hundreds of miles away), home territory for us both.  I've been burning in pain without being able to express myself to them.  I'm considering sending a small note, maybe something longer, to just express some of my feelings rn towards them.  My heart feels utterly compelled, my brain says it's a bad idea.  What should I do?