Hey all,

I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar depression about a year ago. I take 200mg of sertraline which is my max dosage, and I’ve noticed my lack of emotion has really been transforming into a cynical personality, in essence,
I’m pissed off at everything, everyone and genuinely believe there is nothing good in the world anymore.
I don’t have any real friends at school, in fact I hate going to school because of my lack of friends, I manage to keep a 4.0 gpa (which is really starting to make me think it won’t last)
Every lunch period I go to the library as I don’t feel comfortable sitting at a table with my “friends”, they are extremely sensitive, and my extremely dry and dark sense of humor isn’t exactly a good combo.
Our school has no service, can’t even go on any apps, our chrome books have almost every website blocked, and it pisses me off to see so many people have such a great time together.
I feel misunderstood and shoved out of the group.
I’m afraid to try and become friends with someone simply because every single friendship has ended in a terrible way, by them either ghosting me or just flat out telling me they don’t want to talk to me anymore.

… I can’t keep going like this, I’m genuinely afraid I’m going to cause a fight at school, and I never would ever want to hurt anyone, but this anger and hatred is really starting to build and have no one to talk to about it.

Please help, I really am desperate and scared.