I feel like such a worthless loser all the time. Yet I have friends who think so highly of me and I don't why. I think they just don't know me well enough and I'm just one mistake away from them realising how terrible I really am.

In particular I have one friend who's just so much better than me. She's an incredible digital artist and I know has other friends who are far cooler than me. Not only are we friends but she's really affectionate and says she loves me alot and I really don't get it. I'm not good at anything and I know she has other talented friends who she could be talking to. She says she finds me funny and likes the way I talk but I feel that shouldn't be enough. Sometimes I even resent her because I don't believe she loves me so she's pretending to use me for attention. I know I'm terrible for resenting someone who's been so good to me but I can't help it.

I'm tempted to cut off everyone who cares about me because I can't take feeling this way. And they deserve better than someone as instable as me. I'm just going to drag them down.