Im so tired. My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 months. He seems so supportive of my BPD and PTSD. Sometimes he doesn’t understand but always comes around. We’ve been really good lately. Meaning no fighting and its been really good. But I was triggered so hard this morning when I saw him write in his journal he misses his cheating ex. I don’t know what to do. He claims he loves me and that he’s never felt this way before. 

Also idk what to do because half the things he tells me I feel like are variations of the truth or lies. Especially now. How can I believe you love me when you miss someone who cheated on you years ago. 

Now I feel myself questioning the relationship. I feel like he’s with me out of loneliness. Its so hard to give the benefit of the doubt (especially with BPD as you know). I feel like I trusted him and now I want nothing to do with him. I took all my stuff from his apartment without him knowing today. Im so upset. Am I over reacting?