Hello 💕

For me it seems very contradicting to accept or love myself while I am in therapy to become a different person. I need to change myself, otherwise I will probably kill myself one day. Society and family expect me (generally depressives) to go to therapy aswell, they want me to change, so they don't accept me how I am. It totally makes sence, because nobody loves/accepts an illness.

Then why should I say "I am okay how I am" if I am obviously not ? It feels like I am only allowed to love myself if I change myself. 

And yes I am not my depression but I am depressive for years so I don't think there exists a "healthy me".