In my class, I always sit somewhere I can see everyone because if I don't I'll feel like everyone is starting at me and judging me from behind. But yesterday our teacher changed our seats and she put me right in first bench and my anxiety skyrocketed so frikin much, my hands were shaking so badly that I couldn't write. So I thought of speaking about it to my teacher (I somehow gathered the courage) but she didn't even listen to me, she didn't even care, she laughed and said "you can get rid of your anxiety if you sit there" I started shaking again and I knew I was gonna break down if talked to her any longer so I went into my class and tried to calm myself down. But I couldn't stop the tears so ran into the washroom and locked myself in there and cried a lotttt. Now everyone in my class thinks I'm some weird girl who is "scared to sit on the first bench beacuse her hands are too shaky" I know everyone thinks it a very silly reason to cry about but it's a really hard for me. I hope there's at least one person here who gets it.


Just wanted to share this somewhere.