So from College to present day I've always been anxious of things I'm not comfortable or familiar with and would tend to have to only do these thing once a couple days or week to prepare. Social situations are the worst but recently, I dont know what, something has changed.

It started with going for my haircut, I dont suit short hair and so keep it long but not fully over ears long. However, the barber said what she was going to do and instead cut it really short. Usually I would panic about this, as this exact thing has happend before, but this time i didn't, I was totally relaxed. 

Another, I planned to go alton towers with friends I havent talked to since high school, usually I would worry about how they've changed, if they will like me, what they think of me but I didn't think about this at all. Even the roller coasters i didn't fear, the most extreme coaster I've been on before alton towers was a 2 minute ride that is a little fast with some small drops. I ended up going on all the big rides including the smiler, oblivion and nemesis. Oblivion has me worry a little but I think that was fear of the unknown more than anything, a 55m verticle drop it a pit is a little worrying.

Now as I'm writing this, I've just missed my train stop and in the middle of nowhere at some industrial stop and I'm nothing but relaxed. This type of thing would make me so unbelievably anxious, I tend to plan everything when traveling going over it every minute.

Hoenstly it is so nice being in this state of mind and not caring about anything.