(sorry for my English its not my first language)

I feel very invalidated. basically, now that I've been diagnosed with BPD everyone treats me as if my emotions aren't valid and everything I do they say "oh it's just her BPD talking"

my sister forced me to get on my meds even though I didn't want to. she said I was different when I'm not on my meds. but I feel like the unmedicated me is the real me so I wonder if everyone just likes the zombie-medicated version of me and not my authentic self. I still take my pills but no one knows how much of a burden it is. they make me feel .like a fucking zombie. everyone likes this zombie apparently. I don't know what to do. I don't want to take my meds but I'm afraid everyone will leave me if I don't take them.