Deleted my Instagram today, blocked my FP and his new girl on all social media and blocked his number, took down stuff and put away things that remind me of my FP from my room, had a complete mental breakdown throughout the day today about everything between us but I think I can say I’m going to be okay. I don’t have the pressure to look at his social media or think about whether or not he’s posting about her since I blocked him. I need to let him go and these are the first steps. I’m going to hang out with my friends tomorrow and try to forget about him. I’m going to do this for me because I deserve to be happy. I’m working on myself and maybe one day my FP and I will find each other again on better terms and we’ll be able to have a relationship. But for right now, this is how it has to be. In my head I have to act like I hate him and can’t be around him or else I’ll end up reaching out to him again. I cannot have a relationship with him right now in any capacity. This is how it has to be and I need to do this for me.