(Copied from r/anxietyhelp, because I really need all the help I can get)

When I was in high school, I did horrible on the SAT primarily because of my anxiety. So much depended on this test, and it was a horrible experience for me.

When I took it back in high school, it took everything in me not to break down in the middle of the test. I wasn’t finishing the sections, and I felt like I was forgetting everything math wise. I felt so stupid.

My mom told me I should take it again, but I just said no. She kept pushing, and we argued about it a lot. I refused adamantly, and I never told her why. She finally let it go.

Back then, I didn’t know I had anxiety, and I didn’t know how I was supposed to tell her I panicked during the whole test and was always on the verge of tears. It had felt like my heart was beating out of my chest, and it was the worst experience I’ve ever had academically.

I ended up going to a small college and just finishing some classes until I could transfer to a university.

Fast forward to today, I want to be a teacher. But the requirement to get in is either another standardized test (GACE), re-take the SAT, or take the ACT (which I hear is similar to the SAT). 

None of these things I want to do. I hate standardized testing, but am I really going to give up the future I thought fit me so well, teaching? I really thought I found what I was supposed to do, and I’m so worried anxiety is about to make the biggest decision of my life. I’m so tired of not getting a say because of my anxiety. It’s part of the reason I gave up being a vet, and at this point, I just don’t know what to do anymore. Please help me.