I have never posted here before but I just need to vent. But to keep it short, I am a 19y/o female recently diagnosed but showing signs for a long time. I am one of the louder types(?) I do believe. I've had a long history of mental illness from when I was a (friendless) child, spanning to now. I was diagnosed a few months ago when my ex of 6 or 7 months decided to leave me and I completely broke down. 911 was called. Hopsital stays. Etc. Flash forward to now. Its been a few months since we've talked. But the last time when he decided to block my number while I was put in hospital he told me he still loved me but I was too much for him. So I go back out there since I had put all my eggs in one basket(him) I had no friends or anything. Just myself and I don't really tolerate being alone well(romantic relationships). So I met this guy. We play a lot of video games together. Are interested in the same things. Both have gone through some pretty tough shit. And I told him I had bpd from the get go. I just got that vibe from him that I could confide in him with that. So. Things start sparking up between us. We get close and hang out a bit. Things were good. He kissed me. Multiple times. And his girl friend had just left him earlier in the week because she wants to be a prostitute or something. And I get it's not right to just tear into someone's romantic life after something like that but they weren't together long and I thought he deserved better(((me)))). And he basically left me signs as well to say he was interested as well with the kissing obviously. So I just continued. We werent officially a thing yet(I thought we were close to it) and then today he drops a bomb on me right after dirty stuff and is like I'm still dating her. So I lost it. Went absolutely nuts. Cut my wrists fairly deep. And told him about it. So he calls 911. They show up at my house. 2 cop cars and an ambulance. The whole attire. And after arguing with the cops for a bit about whether I would go or not and arrest threats I finally gave in went to the hospital. And now I've been sent home again after they bandaged me up. I know my reaction was over the top. I know. But am I justified in being upset over him essentially leading me on? It really hurts because I fell for him quick as I always do. He was so nice to me and have nobody around. I just. I don't know. I don't know why I'm saying all this I just need to let it out and know if I'm justified in being upset even though I took it over the top 