I'm not the only one here right? I don't even wanna leave the house and see happy couples or families. It all just leads to suicidal ideas and substance abuse. Some people actually get to wake up and feel love and warmth and energy? All my life i've been everyone's detour, everyone's bridge, everybody's fucking backup plan. Sure i'll be there for people every step of the way, then they decide its no longer convenient to keep up the facade. You'd be suprised how many people throw out the words I love you then walk it back a month or so later. People are wretched absolute oafs. Taking advantage of your kindness and willingness to help. I don't see a reason to stick around for any of this shit anymore. To be depressed is to be terminally unfulfilled. Now who the fuck wants to stick around for that?