6 months into dealing with mysterious and undiagnosed abdominal/flank/back pain, I am a bundle of nerves on a daily basis.  Admittedly, I have always had a problem with Googling symptoms, but it's never been over something so chronic as now.  I am on high alert for every (now familiar) twinge of pain, always Googling potential conditions it could be, stressing out between yet another doctors' appt, and in the back of my mind, constantly flip flopping between "your tests were clear/this is painful sure but not life threatening/listen to the doctors etc" to "this MUST be cancer/this is my last christmas/i wonder when my last day will be/this can't be anything but cancer/how long do I have left?/why can no one diagnose me? oh my god i must be dying".

I have NEVER had such a long-term pain problem as this, nothing helps and whilst all the tests so far ARE clear, I am exhausted mentally and physically from 6 months of constant uncertainty and fear.  No amount of the doctors saying "whatever is wrong with you isnt life threatening" seems to convince me because I always think ".... but what if you're wrong/why does it keep getting worse then?" 

I know I'm my own worst enemy with this, but I just want whatever it is to be diagnosed and treated.  Even if it was cancer, at least we would then know and can make a treatment plan.  I just feel so left out in the cold and my quality of life consequently right now is virtually nil.