I'm in an extremely happy relationship. But I cant see it that way. I was even going to start this post with a rant about how wonderful this man is, but I just can't do it when I'm in this head space.

I'm happy, but when something small goes wrong I instantly want to abandon ship. All I can think about are the tiny wrong things with both of us and I become convinced we should just break up before things "get bad". 

He's my best friend but I know if I tell him how often I think this way it'll hurt him. But I'm hurting and I don't want to. 

So many of the things that happen are right on the line between "talk about it and fix it" and "this is a very bad sign". I can't tell. I'm lost and scared I'll abandon the person I love most because of my insecurity.