I'm 20 and I learned a few months ago that I have BPD. I always agreed with people that it was weird how I never had a significant other but ever since that realization, I kind of felt like it made sense that I never had an SO. Like, of course. I get scared when someone I'm attracted to tries to touch me, I have delusions, I'm hypersensitive, have anger issues, etc. etc. I get it. I would have a really hard time loving me too despite my good qualities. I just wish I got to know what it feels like. I know it's not like the movies but it still seems really fun and fulfilling. Someone I can learn about, grow with, stay up late with, go on adventures with, surprise with goodies, work through the hard things with, nap together, just doing domestic things. But I guess it's not the worst to do it alone