Lately I’ve been trying my best to deal with my fp leaving me. I “fixed” things with them yesterday. In reality, things are exactly the same. They didn’t contact me at all today. It still feels like the same situation. I feel like I’m overreacting and being toxic. I keep checking to see if they’re online on social media, seeing them pop up every now and then. It’s driving me insane. I don’t ask for a lot, I never did. But if they can go on social media, can’t they say hello to me? They know what they just put me through. They know the way I’ve been feeling. So if we’ve just “fixed” things, why aren’t they fixed? Why are they still silent, still putting me last? 

This isn’t healthy. I can’t do this. I just don’t think I can let go, either. 