Writing this on a throwaway because I just want to get it off my chest, but I feel like I’m never going to manage to overcome my trust issues. I’ve struggled with anxiety for upwards of 7 years now in and out of counselling and never got a diagnosis but seem to always find it harder than my other friends to feel secure in friendships and relationships. Even with my best friend of 7 years, I feel like I’m going to lose them and I’m going to be forgotten. More recently another close friend and I also fell out and they’ve stopped talking to me because of it. I don’t want to lose these people but I don’t know how to tell what’s real anymore because I’m just so scared I’ve lost these people forever. I’ve been in abusive friendships where I would be constantly belittled and made to feel like nothing and I feel like I’m still carrying around this part of me. I just don’t know what to do anymore