I’ve said this every day for two years only as things have gotten worst 

I don’t want to but I’ve been off my medication for a week because it can’t be refilled and I’m dying. I’ve been having a constant panic attack for a week now. My family said oh were fine without medication you’ll be fine. I want to shoot them I’ve always hated them I just finnaly got an interview at a new place after months of looking for anything. My last job shut down due to snow

I’m this close to shooting myself I’ve never been suicidal but the thought had crossed my mind a few rare times the last few years. I need therapy bad I saved for weeks and only could afford to go once. The world is turning to shit and I cannot express to you with any fucking words how awful my luck has been the past 3 years atleast. Im one of the if not the most unlucky person in existence if I don’t get some kind of help soon I’ll most likely just have a heart attack and die i thought about going to the emergency room just to have someone o talk to and maybe someone would fucking listen and give me an idea to get out of this hell but I can’t because i live in the middle of fucking nowhere and my cars been shift by angry rednecks and I don’t have a way to go a