Right now I am struggling... and I hate it, I don’t even know why I feel the way I feel. I like to over analyze everything but there’s nothing to analyze I have extreme highs and extreme lows for no apparent reason. Today it made me call into work... again.

My therapist says I fall under HSP Highly Sensitive Person, and that I require more meaningful connections and authenticity. The people I want to open up to(my roommates who have been my best friends) aren’t good at listening. I can tell they don’t want to hear it because me talking about my problems stirs up some of their problems. I’m also a people pleaser so of course I listen to their problems and help them but never get the same in return. It’s made me resent them at times, and I hate that I feel that way.
I’ve also informed them of my triggers that cause sensory problems but they are back to doing those things again and it really hurts but also drives my anxiety so high. It’s so hard managing both depression and anxiety. 

After leaving the mental health hospital I was doing really good, but now I’m just existing and I feel like I am losing myself really fast. I don’t know what make me, me anymore.  I miss the hospital, it’s the only place that I felt safe and heard.

I showered and did laundry today so that’s a positive and I made myself some food finally. Be good to your bodies, love y’all.