I have therapy but I hate myself for failing in therapy before and now Im going back with such a terrible outliok on my life and my therapist is gonna have to help me not wanna die because I'd rather that then work a shit job the reat of my life. How do I change my mind because work is a really big deal to my brain and I'm gonna lose it, I feel like I'm totally losing it. I wanna just scream. Help me