Feeling suicidal and struggling to calm myself down as the person I’ve been obsessed with for three years is finally admitting he has no feelings for me, after messing me around for so long. We’ve been sleeping together on and off for three years - he goes through a cycle of pretending to care about me briefly and then cuts all contact and ignores. Then comes back again a few weeks/months later. He always blames the reason we don’t work on me being too intense. I’ve been so in love with him I’ve never had the strength to end it. Today he’s finally admitted there is nothing there and he has no feelings for me. Now he’s being very dismissive of me and not realising how much this has hurt me over the years. I want to hurt myself so he understands my pain, I know it’s wrong but I’m struggling to change my thinking and accept the situation. Please help if anyone else any advice. Thank you