I have two surgeries coming up, both of which are elective and both of which I want more than anything. The problem is, I want the outcome but the process gives me extreme anxiety. I’m anxious about the procedure itself, I find the whole thing humiliating and having to admit my anxiety only makes it more humiliating. I am afraid that I won’t be able to go through with it if I don’t figure this out. I’m on medication that helps a little bit but not enough. Doctors and hospitals and the whole thing triggers a huge flight response in me and I don’t know why. Please help.