*Typo in the title, I meant dissociation. My bad.*

Has anyone ever had a psychotic episode where they started throwing things (i.e. glass cups, chairs, end tables, anything else you can get your hands on) and just feeling pure rage and intense pain? It hasn't happened to me to this degree in years, but just looking back I can suddenly remember it. This was pre-diagnosis. Arguments with my (now ex) boyfriend would trigger me. I would never harm him physically, but a few times I did what I mentioned above. Then afterwards, wailing on the floor, wanting him to help me. It was awful. It's so hard to describe what was going through my head at in those moments. It's almost like watching yourself from the outside just losing control. Dissociation, I suppose.

Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this?