I feel like the inside of my head is covered with heavy, thick tar.   
I can't seem to do anything other than sitting in front of a screen and consume content I guess.   
I can retain basic health and hygine. I do leave the house and take walks.   
I can socialize within my current circle of friends and family. But I'm almost unable to work, to learn something actually useful, to express myself creatively or interact with new people.  
Therapy isn't helping much but atleast I have it. And it's gotten to a point where I feel like this state is really unjustified so I get incredibly angry at myself. I guess there are things that happend that are the cause for this. But I could've had it much worse all things considered.

Currently I live in the vacant apartment of friend and have a sort of job which I will need to quit at the end of January. Partially because of my state and because some now defunct part of myself registered me for an application process of a good art school which will happen at the end of feburary.   
Of course I've done nothing in order to prepare so far.   
Be it studying or looking for a job and a new place in the city the school is located in.

Honestly, I don't see how I'll have a future in this half-husk like state.   
I might aswell just go. One way or another.