First off, I have some issues with overthinking to the point where I overthink almost everything, and when it comes to communicating with others, it gets worse.

I have a friend who I sent a stream of video messages to a few weeks ago, and at the time, I apologised for sending so much (as I usually feel very guilty after doing so), and at the time, she said it was okay and she liked it. But then I was at a dinner party with her and a few other friends about a week or so later, and she said, 'To be hoenst, I did find them quite annoying,' and considering that's one of my biggest fears (annoying people), it really hurt me. 

Since then, I've been overthinking it more and more not just with her, but with lots of my friends. If someone doesn't respond to my messages within a certain amount of time, I'll start to think they absolutely hate me and just want to get rid of me, and then even when they do reply, the thoughts sometimes persist. Although they agree to hang out with me and we end up having a great time in person, I can't help but overthink every single aspect of texting and what certain words or reactions mean.

I had this happen today again, and I started breaking down because I sent a message last night and they didn't respond until past midday, because in my head, I thought that they had already seen the message and were just trying to ghost me or send me a message of 'stop texting me I don't want to have a conversation with you'. This person is a very dry texter anyway not just with me, but I can't help but overthink every single thing they do over text. In person, they're so so kind and lovely and don't seem like they hate me at all, but the overthinking goes: 'Hey! They only agreed to hang out with you because they're being nice, they don't actually want to see you', or, 'They haven't responded quickly because they saw your message and are trying to stop you from starting a conversation with you.'

It's horrible and makes me so upset, and I can't help but always think that I annoy all my friends. I just want to be able to stop thinking like this, because it really hurts.