Gonna start off by saying I know my fear is likely irrational. I have severe panic disorder to the point where I have fits of hyperventilating/near fainting/face goes pale/rapid heart rate. I also have severe OCD. I really won the lottery when it comes to mental illness! :’)

I’m supposed to get a flu shot tomorrow. I have this new obsessive thoughts about anaphylactic shock from it. When I was a kid I had a face swelling/rash from taking this antibiotic called bactrim but that’s all I’m allergic to to my knowledge. I’m definitely not an anti vaxxer by any means, I just get obsessive thinking over everything and it’s pure torture.

To make things worse I cannot find a ride to the appointment so I have to drive myself 25 mins there. Sounds easy but driving also induced panic. Add this fear on top I am a mess. Everything triggers panic come to think of it, I’m tired of living this way.