I'm currently mid-relapse with my anxiety which isn't helping things I know. It's really beating me down on top of being a bit out of it with my meds going up so I'm not feeling as strong. 

We originally were planning to get married on our 7th anniversary in April. We got engaged 5 years ago and are finally in a good place to do it after years of shit. My partner said tonight he wants to delay it by another year and I can respect his reasons for that. I'm just devastated about it right now, I feel like I need to go hide away with my guitar for a while. Fuck sake. Sorry just felt I needed to share.