I am 15 I was raised in a good family and never had.                     problems,my country is rich and not in poverty but I grew up in a place with alot of poverty as I was 7 I was physically abused everyday by teenagers who did it for fun not just one but more than 5, bullying and alot of things I went to a school which was racist against me made fun of my ethnicity and race,I was mentally abused by my teachers and even students one day while playing in 2nd grade a guy broke his arm because I bumped into him and I was traumatized,threats from his family,teachers and even got police threats I told my parents everything and they moved cities and school but in the result of that changing I couldn't complete 2nd grade and I had to repeat it again and I had seen a man killhimself from my own eyes and I saw his dead body when I was 10 years old, I had moved away from every friend I lived my whole live since alone without friends and never made friends because I always felt like I was being ignored, abandoned and anger I always pretended nothing was wrong with me nor I'm lying here to make me look like some villan origin story I have been lonely because of my own mentality to a point I feel like humans and living things are just a dream nothing feels real,people backstab me all the time and ignore me I have this constant depression and emptiness I don't spend time with my family they are all busy everyday I stay in my room 24/7 and go out once a month I'm not suicidal but the fact that I think everyone is my enemy and a backstabber and I'm sick of my brain, I change personalities multiple times a day I feel like everyone hates me even my family,sometimes I'm cheerful and happy then I become really serious and dead on the inside I take everything personal and seriously and no body wants to speak to me