its nothing personal at all. i dont want everybody to be depressed but its like im an emotional outcast. i dont know what happiness is anymore. everytime people laugh or smile it makes me burn on the inside. again, nothing personal with anybody i just hate this environment in which everybody is positive (to an extent) while im in a living hell. its like being a black sheep in a heard of white sheep, or when you break your leg but all your friends go to the trampoline park and you just sit there watching them have fun. i just dont fit anymore. people go to school, hang out with friends and have fun. i dont have any of that anymore. my piece doesnt fit anywhere in the puzzle yet the people around me keep trying to force me in. it fucking sucks.