I’m so exhausted there’s nothing I can do. I take my meds daily and go to therapy but both aren’t helping me. I’ve been on so many different meds and I’m tired of having to find new ones and go through the same routine all over again. And with therapy I feel like I gain nothing from it. I just talk about my issues and my therapist recommends the same bullshit or doesn’t know what to say. Things are getting bad again and I’m reaching my breaking point. Fighting my urges to cut right now cause I’ve been clean for a while. But it just feels hopeless so what’s the point I may as well, I need some distraction or ray of hope but I’m just empty. I just want to be happy and I’m doing all the right things within my capabilities but it’s fucking futile.
Fuck my existence for being so soulless