Tomorrow I need to have a biopsy on a cyst in my right breast. I have health anxiety. I have come so far…nine months ago I was having panic attacks, raising my blood pressure, and feeling like I would never be myself again because of anxiety. I have been doing so well keeping it together through the mammogram appointment, the follow-up ultrasound, and now waiting for my biopsy. But I feel like I’m pushing back on a dam that’s shaking with the force of the anxiety behind it. I hope to remember:
- I can find calm EVEN IF I’m not ok
- being sick is out of my control. How I react is in my control
- my anxiety is trying to protect me. I can say “thank you” and appreciate how it’s protected me in the past while letting it go now