Am not a native speaker.

I was diagnosed almost 6 years ago, not only with bipolar type 2, but with Antisocial personality disorder. 

Is there any reason not to do it? 
Am a complete loser, no job, talent or a dream of my own. Living in a shitty third world country. I have never been a part of anything in my life. I did theater for a while, and I guess that gave life a certain purpose, I was never really good at it. I never fit in, I guess.