Hey guys. Ive been in a spiral of unstoppable thoughts for weeks now and i feel like i dont even have a personality anymore. I cant eat much and i cant stop thinking about it becouse if i dont feel like i letting it win. But the thoughts itself are nonsense. Feel like if i do this for long they gonna become reality or im gonna loose my mind. There are no good ocd therapyst nearby if its that. I just hate waking up and just instantly getting reminded that thats my life. Just this tought and fear.