I cant stop. I woke up and i just hated everything. I feel so helpless and i just really want to hurt. I feel like I deserve to be alone. I feel so ashamed just being alive. I dont want to do it anymore..... I bit my boyfriend on accident. I didnt want to I didn't mean to. I cant control this.... I feel so alone. Hes gonna leave me if I cant fix it. I have no one left, everyone just keeps leaving or dying. I feel so emotionally fucked up and I can't save myself. I am currently hiding in my bathroom trying to hurt myself while crying and blasting music..... My boyfriend took everything that would hurt me.... I dont want to do any of this i just want it to stop.... I feel trapped in a glass box in my own head just watching the shit i do but cant stop... (Currently diagnosed with PTSD, social anxiety, manic depression, ADHD,  and now bpd most recently) someone please help me comment what I should do message me 