Hello.

I’ve been in a weird headspace for about five years now and I think it’s finally getting the best of me. It started out 5 years ago when I was 15 with simple “teen” things like feeling awkward around people or feeling misunderstood. But those experiences, with time, grew bigger and  weirder and were definitely not something ordinary people went through. It came to the point where I basically feel as though I have no real identity and my true identity is only for my private self. I feel as though I’m concealed from people and that they just toss me around with any true attempt at understanding me. I can only describe the feeling by a person literally decaying and desperately calling for help but nobody noticing it. I’m sick of it. I have heavily unstructured days, enormous bouts of crying, I’m constantly under stress (sometimes for the smallest things). It takes me hours to get out bed and I barely start anything. I get overwhelmed by everything and cannot form a social contact to save my life. My dreams are constant nightmares. What makes this worse is that, in general, I have everything I need in life and live fairly comfortably. So why should my mind act so chaotically and destructively?

What is this? What can I do? I’ve tried (attempted to try) a plethora of self-help methods there are and even go to therapy (which I think isn’t helping me).

Any answer, comment or anything else will be greatly appreciated from me. Love all of u&lt;3