After 15 years of dealing with my emotional swings, instability in times of stress, and the out right hateful things I have said to him, my husband has finally had enough. I can't say that I blame him. He needs and deserves a real wife, not an insecure 33 year child who constantly needs emotional babysitting. 

Unfortunately,  it has only been within the last few days that I have started to realize the severity of my issues and the depth of pain I have caused him over the years...and it isn't like he didn't try to tell me.

I'm afraid that it's too little, too late. I'm trying to extremely mindful of my words and actions towards him, but I know that just because I've gone a few days without raging at him and threatening to end our marriage doesn't make up for 15 years of my bullshit. And I know that simply committing to no longer emotionally damaging the person I love doesn't instantly make this a functioning relationship. My husband needs real adult love. A partner. Someone who brings out the best in him. Someone he is happy to love. I hope it's not too late for me to learn to be that person.

Sorry for the lengthy post. This is my first post to this board, and I'm not even sure what I'm looking for by posting...I guess support. Self realization kind of sucks...

