The last few months have been tough for me…

For context, I graduated HS this last year - I was middle of the road average. I don’t have a license, never had any interest in it. I don’t really have many prospects for the future, as all of my interests are dead ends career wise and honestly I hate it. I can’t find any purpose in my life whatsoever.

I’ve also never been a social person, but even I noticed these last few months have been even more terrible for my health than usual. I put on weight, cut myself off socially, and haven’t really done much to help myself out of it.

As my parents would say “I’m stuck in a rut” whatever that actually means

I have this deep down desire to do something with my life, go somewhere, experience new things, but when I get down to it - I can’t get past my own brain. I overthink everything, I absorb stress like a sponge, I worry about things far out of my control, and especially in the last few years I have become a hypochondriac about my health.

Some days I can’t fall asleep until 2am, other days I feel so tired I could go to sleep at 4 in the afternoon. 

Very few things actually help me “forget” about this situation; cooking/baking and my dog.

Today was one of the worst days I’ve had in a long long time and I’m just reaching out for experiences.

I’m not sure if this is against the rules for posting here or whatever, but if anyone has experienced this in the past and has *ANY* help or ideas they would be greatly appreciated and if more information is needed I’ll gladly help

Thank you for anything