Birthday is next week. I absolutely hate it. I don't want the attention, I don't feel that I'm worth being celebrated. I'm in my mid 30s now with a series of failed relationships. I've hit "that point" where my S/O is no longer my FP and I'm not in awe of them. I have found my libido to be extremely low lately (which affects the S/O).   No changes to my meds, just generally depressed with where I'm at in life and focusing on all my failures.    


My birthday only serves to remind me of the fact that every year I age, I continue to fail, and get one day closer to losing my dogs and parents, playing on my abandonment issues.