this is a genuine question because i feel like since i'm a dude (19), BPD is being so overlooked for me. not once have a therapist/psychiatrist/psychologist said to me "you seem like you have BPD." i've been evaluated twice by professionals and was diagnosed with autism spectrum and bipolar 1. funny thing is that when i first suspected i was autistic, i told one of my past therapists and they told me they didn't think i was. now, i'm having this same issue possibly with my bipolar 1 diagnosis. i literally have never experienced mania in my life and was told i had bipolar 1. the same person who evaluated my for bipolar i guess also tested me for BPD in the test but I didn't recognize any questions that had anything to do with BPD. it was all old fashioned (they even did an IQ test) which seemed useless for me imo. now, my psychiatrist is putting me on 1,500mg of lithium which hasn't changed anything i feel (i am so much more irritable all the sudden). i'm tired of being told i'm bipolar by psychiatrists/therapists because they take the advice of the weird bipolar 1 diagnosis i have...

idk how in the world they think i'm bipolar because my moods are influenced/triggered mostly or i just feel flat? i used to SH a lot, one time i broke down after a breakup and tried to chug rubbing alcohol, i've done this like 3 times. i hate and love people (mostly my fp) very easily. one of the biggest factors that can switch my mood is my partner. all they have to do is say something in a tone or way and i'll hate their fucking guts. same with family members, it's so easy to hate and i find comfort in 'splitting' sometimes. sometimes my hate for loved ones is so intense that i wish they'd disappear. when people yell at me or raise their voice it is extremely triggering. i feel like this makes my relationships with others unstable because i will avoid them or become argumentive. my anger is explosive but internally (resenting). i feel empty all the time because have ASD makes it hard to socialize (though, i've started to appreciate being by myself more now). i feel like anytime i bring up my symptoms i will not be taken seriously by ANYONE besides this sub. i relate so much with people with BPD from the posts here and it makes me upset that i'm labeled as manic depressive when it's so untrue. even before i've been medicated, my mood swings were of the same reason: relationships. relationships might be the death of me.

out of all my symptoms, is BPD not a possibility? my doctors act like i HAVE to be bipolar 1 and it feels so invalidating. anyone know what i should do?