I have a problem pushing my life forward. Whenever I get a job, I either get so anxious that I show up several minutes late, or get so anxious while on the job that I leave an hour or two early. This, obviously, causes me to lose jobs.

I also struggle with eating, where the only thing I can bring myself to eat is junk food. Just thinking about eating fruits and vegetables gives me this primal fear. I know it's irrational.

I am very sad about not being able to push myself. I have been in the same life situation for ten years and I want out. But that feels impossible. 

The root of the issue is that I always feel like I'm about to "collapse" so I'm afraid to push myself further. I worry about psychotic breaks or other heavy falls where I won't be able to properly pick up the pieces and move on with my life. My therapists tell me to just "keep pushing" and accept that it will feel uncomfortable -- but it doesn't just feel uncomfortable, it feels like I'm a ball of thin, delicate glass that's prone to bursting if it takes any more pressure. 

Have any of you felt this "ball of glass" feeling? And what did you do to overcome it?