Suffered with MDD, Severe GAD, and PTSD since I was a teen.  I'm now 40, no dreams, no goals that would make me happy, never married, no kids, unable to hold a job due to mental health, unable to financially take care of my self.  Only reason I don't end the pain is fear I'd be sent to hell, and I don't want to hurt my mom, dad, or sister, or niece.  This may keep me from killing myself, but in 20 years, no matter how hard I've tried life has not gotten better.  All I see is a future of pain from watching family die, watching my health deteriorate, my finances strangle me, and the after the climax of suffering, death.  The only hope I have is after death.  I have no hope for my future like I did when I was younger.  I no longer have dreams for my future.  I see no light at the end of the tunnel.  There are so many who have it worse or harder than me, but thanks to not having a brain like an anchor dragging them to the bottom of the ocean, they find a way to live, thrive, or at least dream and have hope for their future.  I just want to see a possibility of joy for my future.  I want to have hope, like when I was a child.  I want to look forward to something positive again.