Most times I put on makeup I have panic attacks. I don’t put on makeup as often as I used to and it’s been a lot less stressful since I stopped doing it as often. I personally think I am very very ugly and I don’t really care about how I look like if I haven’t put makeup on. I feel like having makeup on makes me sometimes feel even more ugly cuz I’ve taken 2 hours to make myself prettier but I still look bad so I panic. I end up crying because I’m supposed to be in my “prime time” and I don’t look the way I want to. It’s really sad because if I just put on makeup for fun like I’m just staying home it’s very relaxing and even fun sometimes but my panic attacks have really ruined it for me.