i've been spiraling down a dark path and god i just want to go back to the ward the nurses were so nice and they actually helped and it was j a really good experience and i'm at the point where i don't feel like i can keep myself self and i want to fucking die bc my parents are abusive fucktards who ruin everything in my life but last time i was at the ward my parents made such a big deal out of it and treated me like i was crazy and weird just in general made me feel really bad for having to be hospitalized and idk what the fuck to do