I myself am in the adult industry, webcam girl/model, whatever. It's porn. and its the best thing that ever happened to me. But I cant help but have over whelming feelings of insecurity and even disgust when I think about my partner watching porn? We recently had a rather large discussion and I finally told him about my feelings. I cant really help them.. But I dont understand them. I just feel grossed out by it. Never once has he (said) he has any issues with my camming, and I've been going steady for about 7 months now. I just dont know what to do. I cant really talk to anyone about it either because its embarrassing and I know people will tell me "its just what guys do." Is there not men out there who dont feel uncomfortable with their girlfriends watching porn? For me, its more of a "why are you fantasizing about other women?" ordeal. It grosses me out. It just seems wrong. I'm at a loss. And I'm afraid that ruminating over this experience is going to ruin my relationship. Which has been happy and very healthy for the last 2 years. I cant be the only one who feels this way. Lately it's all I can think about and I'm starting to feel insane. 