So my friend has been totally shady this last week, which shouldn’t surprise me as he’s a heroin addict but whatevs.

Unfortunately, I depend on him for rides but he’s been leaving me on read until the last minute when I ask him If I can get a ride that day (I pay him and he works next to my work) which causes me to have panic attacks because I’m in a situation where he or a very expensive Uber is how I get to work. And I’ve explained that but he keeps doing it.

Anyways so me handling him ignoring me trying to get a ride home from work involved getting black out drunk at my job by accident and then puking in my Uber home. Go me! -dabs and cries simultaneously-

So I’m already having huge amounts of shame not knowing if I did something dumb and looked stupid/upset someone. And then dude messages me “Hey D” and I reply “hey what’s up?” And he’s just like “I can’t give you rides to work anymore” and I ask why and he says the tolls are a lot and he’s trying to pick up a morning job and then just hasn’t talked to me sense even though he knows how badly this fucks me over.

I wasn’t even mean either, I was crying and hyperventilating and feeling betrayed but all I said “well I’m not going to lie this is kinda devastating but I understand, I don’t want you to miss out on a job opportunity.

Idk so I’m not sitting here hungover, full of shame, and feeling super unimportant and betrayed. 😞