I’m an emotional mess. The past few days have been a nightmare. I can’t stop. It’s easily triggered and it’s this horrible ugly cry like I’m expelling demons at full force. It’s not even like it helps me feel better. It doesn’t. It doesn’t even fully stop. I’m so tired. I was doing so fucking good I swear. No one believes me but I was! I was fucking great! I wish someone at least fucking believed me! I was so fucking good dude.