okay like 2 or 3 weeks ago I just suddenly had this mental breakdown i don't know what happend It started with depersolnization that went on for a long time that I even start getting shocked when I looked at myself in the mirror, confusing dreams or imagination with reality,  nightmares and being scared of sleeping, irregular sleeping, intrusive thoughts of self harm and suicide, having a mental breakdown and crying and hitting myself, now I almost cry everyday before sleep and uni started so more stress, and I am angry for no reason I keep talking to my family in harsh tones, I feel so so lonely and scared and overwhelmed from life itself, I started uni I am falling back into system but idk I feel weird, I am seeing a therapist soon hopefully this week, I just felt lonely and wanted to vent