i feel so alone, it’s insane. my bond with my fp is quickly proceeding towards the devaluation stage and i feel like i have no one. they were the only person i used to speak openly to and now it feels like i can’t talk to anyone. it’s horrible, i just wish i had someone to care for me. ii just recently got my bpd diagnosis and i wish i could talk to them but i need to respect their need for distance. i feel shuttered and useless. i just drink alcohol and go to sleep. rinse and repeat. i wish all of this would stop.