Remember one thing from this. This is not your fault in any way. This decision was my own and you all did not cause this. In fact you three are the reason why I lasted so long. Without you I would have done this years ago. I want to say sorry for being a terrible husband and father. I was mean and sometimes abusive. For that I am sorry. Nothing more hurt me than that. I love you all so very much that it hurt. This decision was inevitable really. I’m just surprised it took this long. As they teach you in church, I had to pay for my sins. Unfortunately it was time for me to do so. I ask that you remember me for the love I gave. Just remember that it is not your fault, I am the sole reason this happened. Another thing, never let anyone tell you that you don’t deserve the world. Take nothing less in life, and strive for everything. You deserve the very best life has to offer. I love you all so very much and I am sorry I had to do this. I love you all very much and hope that you don’t miss me to much. For even though the end may be near for me, your life is just beginning. Take everything you can and build a bright future. You are so smart and able to do anything. Strive for it. I love you and hope to see you again. 

Love, DAD, Husband