It hit me today that my husband doesn't even care that he hurt me or if I trust him.  He never said sorry even for him talking to his ex and considering getting back together with her while we were having problems.  I've let this man treat me like the mud on the bottom of his shoe for so long.  Because I'm so afraid to lose him.  I still found myself catering to his pain going on in his life and it hit me.  Why am I giving a shit?  Why am I not caring about me?  Why is my pain not important but his is?  Why am I treating myself so badly?  I'm a good person, it's time to care about me for once.