I told my FP that I suffer with BPD, I actually never tell this someone bc I dont want to be "the Borderline-Girl", but I hoped that he may has understanding for when I tell him something I shouldn't. I have seen him once since then, nothing was diffrent and we spent a nice time.


Now we went to holidays with friends. At the first day he was just like "No I deffenitely dont want to share a room with you. Im done with you". I have no idea what was wrong, when I asked him, he ignores, I ask him to talk I dont want to lose him I like him, he ignores. 


He came to my room once bc he wanted to talk with the other one in the room. He saw that I felt bad and my arm was completely cutted. So he left, just with the words "fckin BP". Never thought that those little words can hurt that hard.