I try so hard even get up and have shower and wash my hair. Also go to work. I try so hard to fix my wrong and made my life better but it’s still a mess. I forced myself go to have hair cut, manicure and made everything perfect outside. I try so hard still go shopping. But I made many wrong choices in life and I feel myself is so stupid. How do I make my life better? I married a wrong guy and plan to divorce. I was sick and cancer healed and always tired. The only time I am in peace is alone and in my bed also sleeping. I am not good at facing reality. How do I do now??? What should I do??? I don’t want to feel bad. Compare to lot of ppl I am a loser!