I'm down really really bad right now. A couple months ago my partner of 8 months left me. I  loved her with everything I had and more. We left on good terms even though I didn't agree with it. I am still friendly with her family but I have been trying to keep my head above water these past 2 months but man it's hard. I have been getting therapy for stress and I have had some recent health worries within the family. Yesterday was her birthday and I seen on social media she was with someone else.

While I am happy that she seems happy. I am also devastated that she has moved on and I'm just done. I know it's a selfish thought of she can't move on while I feel like this but I have the thoughts anyway. Today I have had thoughts not to kill myself but to just not exist and that would be better than the combo of what I'm feeling right now. Idk I just need to vent and I'm in a bad place.