I just need to vent a little bit and this is the only place I can think of.

So..

I had to make a very difficult decision this week to break up with the love of my life. the reasons mainly focus on our mental health, I'm too tired to open it more. but I feel like I have given him the last step towards suicide by breaking up with him, I feel like I have killed him. I met him today the first time after our break up because I had stuff at his place so I picked them up. I stayed there to keep him company a bit, it appeared to be fine for him aswell. but I just noticed how much colder he was and I just felt that he has given up completely. I feel like I destroyed the good side of him and I just don't know how to cope. I don't feel like telling him everything about how I'm doing or what I'm thinking because at the end, I know he won't care about me and what I will say might end up being useless because I think he is going to try suicide very soon, I'm just at a loss and I don't feel like living anymore knowing what I have done.