I recently come to a conclusion that I'm a indecisive person. If I choose to made a choice I don't like but benefits for me, I will become anxious. If I choose to be made a choice I want, but is new and maybe not very beneficial for me, I will become anxious too and surrounded by fear. Whatever I choose, I will still feel anxious and I will doubt my decisions, then I will think of the other one and wants to change it cause of my anxious feelings or fear. This feeling won't leave me until the decision is over. And I think I might just have anticipatory anxiety, or decision making anxiety or just anxious over uncertainty. I'm not sure, all I know is that I'm anxious. And this sometimes can feel terrible, yet other than reducing the anxious feelings or symptoms I had, there's nothing else I can do.