I was overwhelmed by so many different thoughts and feelings. I felt out of control. I took control while I was browsing the front page. Lil Dickey is trending. Gave me the idea that helped. Decided I would just take whatever popped into my head and try to make a couple lines that rhymed.

I guess I just found a new way to cope. To focus. To express myself, even if it's just to me. I have no intentions of doing open mics. I purposely don't try and over think it. Keep it simple. I get off track if I don't. (see this paragraph as an example) New way to catch it, check it, change it; if need be. Not only can I vent but I can also use it to work out solutions too.

Here's something simple that just spilled out.

    I don't believe but I do have hope
    We aren't doomed and we can cope
    You may not understand but I want you to see
    That this illness is just a part; not all of me

It wasn't specifically because I was thinking about BPD but more Mental Illness in general. Not enough is being done. I feel our way of life of greed and bigotry is ruining us from the inside. We are told, tricked, lied to, deceived, and however else you want to describe it.

There is no good or bad. No failure felt. Not a professional and I'm not perfect. I did something today that I felt was productive and wanted to share. Maybe this will inspire someone else who was disoriented to find their own way.