I can’t do conversations, every time I try starting one or keeping one alive I just start doubting myself, if what I said was right, if they’re even interested in what I’m saying, if I’m annoying them, if I speak too little, if I speak too much, if I’m too depressing, if I’m too happy, if I’m too boring, if I’m too blunt… it goes on and on and on

And it sucks, just having conversations about anything is what helps me feel normal, what helps me feel like I am a human, but I just can’t do it right. I try and try to get better at it but it’s something that I can’t get right, I get too nervous or too scared to start conversations or I feel too bothersome to keep ones already started

I don’t know, I just needed to get it out of my system