I know I am self centered and I lack empathy. I wish i was normal. There are some periods of time when my thoughts and some days i cant speak right. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia and my doctor is thinking i could possibly be schizoaffective. I always have doubts about myself due to my past and its only been these couple of weeks ive been sick and its sucks for everything 

How do u maintain ur self esteem while being sick my moods change drastically describe how ur mental illness is like

I hate this phone i know my grammar sucks

I almost broke up with my boyfriend i am scared because he doesnt believe im schizophrenic and i go through a lot of mood swings and i want us to be together forever 

Please be nice or at least not insulting comments because i dont know how to deal with a relationship right now