i always feel like my problems have to be the biggest problems or im invalid. my problems have to be the worst or else im not worth anything. 

i know this makes no sense but i still constantly feel like im fighting to be the most broken. as if garnering pity and trying to validate myself in this way is healthy. 

i feel like if someone else has a story worse than my own then i need to be okay and stop moping because im not them and therefore not worthy of being sad/angry/depressed/etc. 

anyone else feel this way? or like if someone mentions something bad happening to them you shut down bc you cannot stand someone else being hurt? because YOURE hurt and it feels 100x worse (in youe head)