My chest hurts, like there's a weight on it yet nothing inside and I just feel terrible. I feel like I ruined everything and I know I didn't but I feel like I gross people out and they're just being polite but they don't really want to be with me or whatever the fuck this is my mind is going a fucking mile a second and I'm always finding excuses as to why everyone either secretly dislike me or I'm just a self-compassionate idiot or a fucking attention hore. I also feel that I'm lying while I'm typing this.