i always let my fears/anxieties ruin things for me and i don’t know when i’ll be able to conquer them. one day it’ll cost me something big. it always gets in the way and it frustrates me so much but i feel powerless. my friend asked me out and i wanted to say yes but i started overthinking about a lot of things. what if he changes his mind and realizes he doesn’t like me? what if things go badly and we’re no longer friends? i thought back to previously failed attempts at relationships i’ve had and they all failed because i was insecure and anxious and scared. i felt like one day they’d realize that i was ugly or they didn’t actually like me. initially told him my worries and he said that he understood but i wasn’t saying no because some part of me wanted to try and he was right. but the more i thought about it, the more i just overthought it. i said no because i felt like if i said yes all my fears would just be in the back of my head and i wouldn’t be able to happy. but now that i’ve said no i regret it. i don’t know why i’m like this and why i can’t just set aside these feelings and give things a try. it’s making me miserable and ruining my life.