The first time I saw her, I knew she was going to be a special person in my life.

Now, I've known her for almost two years, and she's the best human being I have ever met. Idk how close of a friend she considers me to be, but as of now, she is my closest friend. She's pretty mature and level-headed, and she's kind of like an older sister figure to me, even though I am hella attracted to her.

There have been no mistakes on her part, and she has never hurt me in any way, but my perception of her is rather damaging. For a long time, I'd seen her as an angel, my saviour. But I know it is wrong to see a human being in that way, to reduce her to a concept. She has her own life, her own story. I always remind myself that.

Recently, I found out she was attracted to girls... and I am a girl. I often daydream about us being together in a romantic way.

Realistically, I know it won't work out. I'm not particularly religious, I believe in the possibility of there being a God but I don't believe God is good. Meanwhile, she is a Christian, and she believes in the Bible with all her heart.

Besides, I am way too emotionally unstable and needy, and I know I would never be good enough for her. It had always been her saving me, and not the other way around.

(Also, there's a good chance I'm not her type. I'm unfortunately an unpleasant-looking person.)

I want to quit it. I want to stop being this person who is so helplessly attracted to her. She's been such a good friend to me.

How did you stop being attracted to your FP?