i had a crazy panic attack out of the blue, 5am , got up from bed(asleep) and started puking and sh*tting, sweat , tremor, starting to lose control, losing my sight... Meanwhile took 3 Xanax of  0,5 mg... it calmed me so i can settle
down. I won the battle. Though
... I feel guilty for taking pills to calm (keep
me in control to be exact. It helped. Now im in bed. Cant sleep but im calm.

Im aware that i had things going on that were flooding inside me and needed to go out. 

(also Im kn lexapro 10 mg, but they dont work like they used to)

What do u guys do, whats your routine or advice?

Much love and thanks