I’ve been seeing this girl, both of us have BPD, her emotions were a lot more intense and unstable than mine. The good times were great, the best I’ve felt in years. But at the drop of a hat, over literally anything, her emotions could switch and she’d turn into this person who hated me. She’d tell me she hated me, berate me, tell me she wants nothing to do with me, I’m nothing to her, she’s talking to other guys etc.  She’d scream at me and punch things. She’d tell me she never wants to speak to me again and wants nothing to do with me, I’m the worst thing in her life and the reason she wants to kill herself. So I’d say ok, I’ll respect your wishes and leave you alone, but she’d just spam me with texts and calls until I answered. This could last hours, even if I blocked her she’d make new accounts. 

She doesn’t treat me well, I’d call what she does to me abuse, but I love her. I want to help myself and get out of the situation, but it’s so hard to let go. I’m really struggling, I don’t want to be abused like this anymore, but I don’t know how to leave, and leaving hurts just as much. Does anyone have any advice they can give me?