So, I’m (24m) not diagnosed at the minute, if ever, but I fully resonate with a good 90% of what is being said here by others, and with what I’ve read elsewhere. Scarily so.

One big difference I’ve noticed between my experiences and others is that I personally have a disgusting amount of confidence. Not constantly, it’s almost like a switch. It’s there when it’s needed. As well as hating myself a lot of the time, I think I’m gods gift to the realm. I have a level of vanity I probably have no real claim to. It’s not to the level of “oh I’m stunning, you need to worship me”, I just think I’m hot shit. It’s only really been like this since I was 21, when I came out of the ol closet and started my grindr endeavours, leading to many a random hook-up with people I deemed way out my league. Before then I was very quiet, shy and had zero self confidence. 

Now it’s like my social-confidence has sky rocketed, yet my self-esteem stays very plummeted. 

Can anyone else relate to this?