Please don't put me in r/im14andthisisdeep, been there already and then diagnosed woth social anxiety a week later or so.

Since 6 months ago (February) I started feeling really sad all the time, had multiple hour long daily crying sessions for no particular reason, and my misophonia started getting really bad (sound sensitivity, never goes away or gets better). I was living every day just in order to get an A in school (ended up being the student of the generation mostly because high expectations) and when school ended (mid Jun) I was still feeling this way until the end of the month, then had a one-month-long break from this feeling, not completely, but it was still something. I thought it was just because of school then. Exactly three days ago it was back. I heard Love me like there's no tomorrow by Freddie Mercury (I'm also hypersensitive, been told by professionals), and that song is exactly what I feel like. I've felt like that earlier this year too, for months. And that's not a good feeling (not the lyrics though, the music). What the fuck the song just started playing. Welp. Anyways, that song has triggered a lot of memories of conversations with my mom, some things my sister [17] has been doing that'd make me devastated and so on. 

Now I know it's not just because of school and I can't go that long with this feeling again. I've been feeling just numb and isolated at random times, sometimes don't recognise the fact I'm surrounded by people and just be trapped in my own thoughts, which I don't even remember when reality hits me. Is this what depression actually feels like?