tell me why the simple act of texting an old friend happy birthday was enough to send me into an anxious spiral. i second-guessed myself about 7 times before i sent the message, and my heart is pounding. then i turned off my phone because i’m literally scared of what she’ll say. to a HAPPY BIRTHDAY MESSAGE. wtf is my life? she’s the nicest person ever, i just hide from everyone i know because i’m an anxious husk of a human being. i’m always waiting for my friends to rip into me but they never do. i don’t deserve them.