I wanted a Kia stinger and when I first got it and drove it the first couple days. My depression came back. My job gave me a raise and a promotion. Couple days later my depression came. I’m at the point where I stopped talking to all my loved ones and friends and just wishing I could die in my sleep. I just don’t want to feel this sadness no more. I see suicide as the only way out but I know I’m not capable of actually killing myself, but rather die of natural causes. I have everything I want but yet I feel awful.