I am done being depressed. I am done being angry. I am done people having to see me like this. I want people to see me happy. I am done with people fighting were I live. I want people to talk to but I end up pushing them away. I feel like blowing up at a person for a small reason. I am not going to. I hate my bipolar disorder. I try to be good and it has not gotten far. I want to be happy I don't want to be depressed and angry. Maybe I deserve this. Maybe I am such a loser that this happens to me.