I got drunk and said stupid shit and now he's upset with me. I haven't left my bed in the past two days. i just want to die, I feel I fucked up my life forever. He said he wasn't leaving me but I feel like I'm just hurting him and everyone around me constantly. Fuck BPD, I've never been so distraught and full of self hated, he's never been upset with me before. I've rarely talked to him the past days. I can barely even remember what I said, I don't know what to do anymore.