Hey guys, just wanted to share some more of how work has been going. 

I did pretty well this weekend, but my standards for myself are so high that I constantly feel like I’m not doing enough and that I’m going to get fired. My therapist expressed to me that I can do my best at work while also knowing that it’s just a job and won’t make or break me, but that seems impossible. Work =\= relax. I know what she’s trying to say but it just doesn’t click for me.

So I’ve been stressing. Today, my boss called me. I thought for sure it was bad news, BUT...

He said I’ve been doing a great job, not only that but we are going to do a team trip, and we’re going to stay in a hotel and whatnot. I think that’s pretty good news???

But god, everything still feels wrong. Like this shouldn’t be happening to me. Like it’s a joke and everyone I work with makes fun of me when I clock out. What the hell man

This is a positive post tho but like damn!!!