I always monitor it to make sure it’s normal and I’m perfectly healthy but the way I feel and the state of my mind tells me otherwise. 

I recently went to a urologist and got told I had varicocele because I felt a pain on my left testicle so now I feel like my whole world has come crashing down and I feel like there’s absolutely no point in looking after myself anymore. 

I’m just devastated and I blame myself for it even though I’ve made attempts to be healthy.

Anyone have any tips on how to push on with a positive outlook in mind?