Hi Everyone,

First time poster. Little nervous, I don’t think this will make sense to anyone

I am diagnosed with GAD, I’m medicated. I’m still having a hard time. Does anyone else have a difficult time putting into words what’s making them anxious? I present with a lot of symptoms of anxiety such as irritability, spiraling, crying, excessive sleeping, insomnia, GI issues, lack of motivation, bad memory, mood swings….

And yet there are days I just feel like shit. It’s not triggered by something particular. I’m just in a perpetual cycle of spiraling about random things. Usually about how ugly I am, my personality, something in the past, money, my house, my job 

It can change. I can be really happy about my job and feel awful about my house

Feel great about my house, feel awful about my weight 

You get the idea…

It’s gotten better since staring Lexapro. I don’t lash out with anger like I did before which was my number one priority. But a lot of the emotional stuff still comes up. 

I guess what I’m trying to ask is if anyone else has a similar experience and did it get better? 

I just feel like a shit person who wants to not be a shit person and can’t cope with it 

Every goal I have, once I accomplish it, I get sad because I don’t feel fulfilled. My degree, my job, my house, I’ve been in a relationship for 7 years. Some days none of that holds weight for me, just the bad stuff