I’m 15m and I have been possibly suffering with undiagnosed severe depression for most of my life, I feel like a burden when I’m cared about but hate others when they don’t care about me, whenever I don’t have anything to do most of what I think about is different ways to commit suicide, I have a level of insecurity to the point of losing so many of my best friends to impress others who don’t care about me, I feel like I can’t talk about this to anyone because I’ll just be made fun of because I’m an impulsive liar due to my insecurity.