I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life. But I’ve never felt as horrible as I do right now. I’ve never felt numbness until now. If I’m not at work, I’m in bed sleeping the day away. Because why would I be able to stay awake like a normal person? I wake up for work, come home, take a 6 hour “nap” wake up for a few hours and go back to bed until my alarm goes off. My room is absolutely disgusting. I feel so disgusting. I have no passion for anything. I just graduated college and I’m still working at the same fast food place that I’ve been at since high school. I have no idea what to do, and let’s be honest, I didn’t do well in college because of my shit mental health. I graduated, but barely…. So I feel too stupid to get a real job. Im currently taking lexapro but I feel like it’s not doing anything. And I know I can talk with my doctor or even better get a therapist. But I can’t even get out of my bed most days so making appointments feels impossible. I can’t even get up to take the laundry out of the washer, it been there for several hours now.