I’ve had this appointment twice already, the first time with a different surgeon (who handled the situation very poorly. I like the surgeon I saw the second time and he’s who I’m seeing tomorrow). Both times I’ve gone in, I’ve had panic attacks and been hyperventilating and they weren’t even able to get the IV in me. I essentially turned into a giant freaked out toddler. I was given Valium both times, but it just didn’t seem to help. 

Tomorrow, I’m going under general and they’re putting me out with gas instead of an IV. They didn’t give me Valium or anything to take beforehand. I’m still so terrified and it just feels impossible. I know I have to do it. I’m just so anxious. I’m also really scared for the after part when I’m recovering. Any words of encouragement/ positive experiences would be so appreciated.