It’s like I know I should go to the gym and help out around the house, but I never ever feel like it. I’m always laying down on my phone. I can’t even do the shit I love anymore (write, watch anime, go for walks). All I do is listen to music and enjoy a better life. I made goals for myself for 2022, but I have yet to execute them. I can write them down all I want, but I can’t execute them. Im F21, I’ll be 22 next month, I shouldn’t be dealing with this. I’m in college for nursing and I work at a mental health hospital. I work in a unit with kids with behavioral issues and it’s so draining to have to constantly redirect them, get cursed out by 8 year olds and have a power struggle with them. 

I hate it when people come to me with that “no excuse” and “you’re in control of you” and “you are only stopping you” attitude. That’s why I don’t really like life coaches. Plus that mindset does well for me.