I'm (F14) going to leave for residential eating disorder treatment tomorrow. I wanted to tell my fp (F16) goodbye, because she is the most important, special person in my life. She said I was a bit too intense, but it was fine. She said it was weird because we didn't seem to interact much. basically, I poured my entire heart out that she was my best friend, I was super upset and emotional, and I still wanted to be friends when I got out of treatment. She said, "sure" and then she blocked me on everything.

I don't know how to process this. I'm aware I may have been too intense, and I said multiple times if I was crossing a boundary for her to be honest with me. I don't understand, and I feel like I'm dying. She was everything to me. I thought we'd spend the rest of our lives together, I thought I meant something to her. And now, I just feel like I've lost my entire identity. I don't know who I am.

I don't want to get attached to another person, but I need someone. Everyone I love leaves because I love them. I don't have any other friends.