I am so tired of being poor I have a sitty job an poor education plus I live in a third world country .

So how the hell am I going to be able to affor things is so frustrating to try to survive .

Plus when you get sick or your mother get sick how am I going to buy her medicines she needs some pills for the heart around 50 bucks per month here is very hard to get that money .

I don't have a dad he passed away 8 years ago worst day of my life he left us debts that we still are paying still remaingin 1000 dolars 

Hard will be a soft word to describe what poor people pass everyday I am writting because I already dry my eyes out from the ton of times that I cried already.

I only have 100 dolars for all my month expenses how the hell cuz I can't write bad words or I will get delete the all  text How I mean How am I going to survive.

I am looking for 2nd job but is hard I haven't been able to find anything at night shift cuz the schedules here are insane is like you are a slave for 1 job.

anyways I jsut want it to get it out of my chest it's 11.28 Guatemala time and my ovethinking keeps me up until 2 am most of the times.

sorry if any bad writting or orthography.