A bit about my BPD. I’m almost 33. Diagnosed with BPD in Jan 2013. Completed 16 weeks of MBSR therapy (mindfulness based stress reduction) 5 years ago. Lost some of the symptoms, kept others. I’m starting DBT to help with interpersonal effectiveness. I have a long way to go. Especially since I live in Alabama and DBT is scarce, not covered by any insurance, and is 80 bucks a session. I’ll find a way through it though. I have to! I can’t neglect getting healthier, even when I’m doing good or I will spiral downward into shit again. Or BPD will come in full effect the next time I fall in love. I can be almost BPD symptom free when I’m single. But the moment I fall in love, fear pops up out of nowhere like, “Hey bitch I’m back”. I don’t want to lose someone I love again. I want a healthy relationship more than anything in this world. I won’t lose hope that I’ll love again one day and they will stay. I just won’t happen until I’m healthier. I don’t wanna hurt someone I love waaaaay more than I don’t want to be alone. 

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