Hi! Have been dealing with mental illness and chronic illness a long time, plus a few traumatic experiences in the last few months. It's honestly been the worst time in my life. It's always been hard living with these things and they have progressively limited me more even though I think I'm quite good at accomplishing a lot despite them. What I am able to fight past has become increasingly futile over time, and more recently, I just cannot do anything.

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I lay around and tell myself to do various self care things, hobbies, cleaning, things that I know are in my best interest to do and would make me feel better or that I'd enjoy. But my body will not get up and do the thing. My hand will not orchestrate the thing on my computer if it's a computer thing. Even computer games. I scream at myself in my head to do these things, that I WANT to do, and I just cannot do them.

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It's mysterious. I don't know how to get out of it. Things that have not helped or I just cannot do: therapy, meds, talking to people I like, micro scheduling my calendar, music, sticker charts, habit tracking apps, bribing myself with rewards, sleeping more, more things I can't remember right now.

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Obviously I continue with therapy and meds because they're helpful in general but my MH professionals nor doctors have any advice on how to overcome this. It's crazy making. I want to do these things but there's like a force that stops me. It's frustrating. I don't know what I need, or need to do. Any ideas to become capable again? And what the hell is going on?