I've been working on myself for 10 years. 
It always comes back to hating myself. 
It feels like I'm fishing for compliments but nothing ever helps. 
The best reason I can come up with for not hating myself is that it's unhealthy for me to hate myself. 
This doesn't make me hate myself any less. 
There's a million reasons that people like me, there's a million reasons why I shouldn't hate myself. 
None of this takes away how much I hate myself and I don't know what to do about it. 
So tired of dealing with me.