Basically I have been going downhill the last week and a half. They say I am becoming more psychotic every day and my depression came up again. My parents are worrying and they called everyone for help. I had a breakdown and hurt the people I love. This resulted in the police showing up at my house and taking me to the psych ward. This is the 20th time in the last 2 years.

I am here involuntary, so in my country, that means that I have to stay here at least 3 weeks....

I don't want to take my meds but I know I have to take them eventually or they will give me a shot against my will.