We loved each other so much and we got engaged last Christmas. My partner are actually the person know that I am a BPD. I am so thank him for that.
But as you guys know, long distance is hard even for normal people, I am very struggling. I feel like whenever he does something makes me upset (can be the smallest thing), I feel terrible, start shouting at him and act very bad. I am less emotional and crazy when we are together.
Sometimes in my head, there are too many questions like Am I deserve to be loved? Am I a bad person, etc...
I have no doubt in our love, I am just worry that I am destroying the relationship and one day he feels enough of me and leave.
What kind of therapy do you guys having? Any suggestions?