Not really sure what to say anymore. Never really had a real passion or desire to commit to anything. Most of what I feel is artificial and can change at any given moment. I did everything I had to. Got a fair job, relationship, car, some money saved, all of it. These things are great but only really distract you from the truth. Alcohol is my only real friend. I lost pretty much all of my friends due to their toxicity and unreliability. I just sleep, work, eat, fuck, work out, drink and play Halo. Sounds like paradise but cursed with unbelievable pain, trauma and regret. Each day is another maybe.