I started lexapro almost a month now and I feel like an emotionless husk. I consistently feel like I’m on this edge of a huge breakdown or meltdown but it never happens. Why do I feel like that’s worse than actually having one? I hated panic attacks, I really did, but now I feel like I can’t feel anything. Is it bad that I want it to happen to me? I’m just so desperate to feel an once of pure, intense emotion I don’t care if it’s horrible. I always feel like I’m on the verge of tears, a full out sob-fest. But. it. never. happens.