For me, at least. I've already been in a bad mood all day because my hair looks bad (growing out my impulse pixie and I badly need a haircut) and I made a fool out of myself in traffic today. Got to work and I'm on my second write up for making mistakes. Third write up and I'm out. I'm quality control so that's FAIR I guess but still.

It doesn't help that my assistant didn't come in today. This is the fourth day she's missed since she started 2 weeks ago, and she's the third helper I've gotten (the first two quit, both because of me, neither was really BECAUSE of me though, second needed a scapegoat because she didn't want to do the job and the first has undiagnosed BPD I'm pretty sure). I'm getting mad about everything. My checks keep coming out wrong, the operators keep needing my signature for stuff when the opposite shift doesn't even HAVE to do signatures anymore, I made my boyfriend mad today with my little fits, man I'm ready to scream. The plant manager has caught me on camera having my "outrages" so I'm outside having my second cigarette in a row thirty minutes before we're allowed to come out and smoke.

My heart feels like it's trying to jump out of my chest. I wish my period would start so I can feel normal again. 