I don’t care anymore. I don’t eat, I’ve lost way too much weight but I don’t care. I can’t sleep more than an hour or so a night. I’ve lost everyone, everyone. I don’t have the energy to get out of bed most days, much less be proactive. I can’t hold down a job without meds, I can’t get meds without a job. I had to sell my car, makes online the only option for me but they don’t pay enough. 

I’m sick of it. I’m so tired. I’m 27, ive never been happy. Never once. There’s places in Europe where they consider bipolar to be a valid reason for assisted suicide. I wish I could say I’m going to do that, but I’d need to be a citizen. Even that’s not a option, because why the fuck would I ever have options. 

I’m so fucking tired man.