I have bpd and have been struggling with my toxic behaviours, suicidal thoughts and tendencies, and my social problems. I made progress I haven’t self harmed in years, I’ve been to therapy and ever since recently I’ve been taking my anti depressants. 

My best friend I’ve known since I was 7 and I reconnected when we were 24 after we stopped hanging out when we were 19(due to my issues I drove a wedge in between us but she never gave up on me) My friend introduced me to her group of friends and I agreed to meet them. We would play online games and meet up on saturdays to hangout. I started taking my meds in February specifically so I wouldn’t cause any issues and I’d have more mental clarity. I was really enjoying myself and this was the first time in my life I’ve had the chance to have a group of friends that I didn’t feel weird being around. 

I found out recently though that there’s this guy in the group who is jealous of my friend and I hanging out so much. Apparently he fights with my friend online about how close me and her are. He doesn’t like it when me and her play games alone with just the two of us. When I join group voice chats he doesn’t speak at all, but I found out he talks when I’m not there, he even talks openly to my boyfriend but not to me. Idk it’s a weird situation, it bums me out a bit because I tried doing everything right this time.

I’m not sure if I can handle this. I don’t want my bpd getting in the way but this is all I can think about since I heard about it from my friend. My plan to deal with it is to be nice and try befriend him so he won’t be as jealous. It’s just weird to me, I’ve always been the jealous person in these situations.