i made a post on r/depression about  it  already,  but  i  think  people  here  will  understand  a  bit  better  how  hard  this  is  on  me.  Every  day  all  I  want  to  do  is  talk  to  her  and  tell  her  about  my  day,  but  all  that  does  is  make  her  annoyed  and  then  she  distances  herself  even  further.  she  has  been  my  best  friend  for  10  years.  i  can‘t  lose  her,  i  feel  like  my  whole  life  is  derailing