Paranoid despite normal bloodwork. Hearing people's voices is enough to make me enter hypervigilant mode. I cannot always listen to music to block out the noises. It is so bad to think that youre being listened to and evaluated all the time. I just hate sensing people's presence around me.
I can never relax. I wish I lived in a lakehouse far away from any kind of settlement only to drive once every two weeks to buy supplies.