Hello, so I have anxiety and like two years ago I developed this fear of fainting, irrational because I have never fainted in my life, not even being close to it 😭. 

This fear is literally destroying my life because for some reason I connected it with eating, well this is how it started, when I get really stressed because of uni I get really anxious and when that happens I lose my appetite and don't really eat much, the thing is during this period of time I had this intrusive thought "you're eating too little, you're gonna faint" and had a panic attack over it, I didn't feel like I was gonna faint until I started having the panic attack, it never stopped since then and it's being 2 years. Whenever I'm hungry I think I'm gonna faint and panic, it's awful. This has made me get this bad coping mechanisms where I would just eat all the time so I wouldn't feel hungry like ever which made me gain weight :( 

I don't do that anymore, I just keep some snacks near me so if I get hungry I can have a bite. It's still awful, I still lose my appetite when I'm too stressed out but I force myself to eat at least half the plate (before I would eat 1/4 of the plate). When I'm not stressed out I eat the full plate but still get anxious when hungry.

The thing is I started to work out because of quarantine and the weight gain I experienced, back in the day I was really into working out! I loved it, Id go to spinning everyday and also would do some HIIT like twice a week, it made me feel amazing but now I panic if I do something remotely intense, because guess! I think I'm gonna faint, I have to eat before working out (and not a tiny snack) and that makes my stomach hurt during the workout, and also makes me think if it's worth it, because I have to eat first and I don't burn those calories during the workout, bc I can only do a light workout without panicking, so if you do the math I'm gaining weight 🥲 also can't go on a diet because of this fear and I just don't know what to do, it's making me sad, any advise? 😭🥺