Me and my "boyfriend/FP" haven't been doing very well, a lot of things have been going wrong (we aren't technically together anymore, I don't really know?) but for months now I've dreaded doing things along, whether it's in a game or something irl because I was always like "I NEED TO EXPERIENCE THIS THING WITH HIM."

Today, I went and did something we always do together.
I just did it.
It was great, I had fun, and I didn't think about him the whole time, it took me months to finally do it but I did, I did an activity on my own and I feel so great. I just hope this feeling lasts into tomorrow, although my mood swings are so bad who knows. I'm enjoying it for now.