I've been struggling to be sober for the past 4 or 5 months. Well, that's a lie, I've not been sober for the past 4 or 5 months. I dont like this anymore, it's just scaring me. I want to be happy and healthy but I feel like I cant be normal without drugs. My therapist knows but I've been telling her it isn't problematic and it isn't a way for me the escape, but it is. I'm going to tell her Tuesday when I see her but I just wanted to know if this is something you all struggle with as well. 