This is the most annoying shit ever. I struggle with quiet bpd, so most of the self destruction is aimed at myself and not necessarily towards others. I'm very aware at what can trigger me into splitting and I've been able to block it out, especially when hanging out with friends/family. I absolutely do my best to make sure that I'm in control of my emotions which is very tiring because I have to be aware of them at all times. Anyway, I've finally opened up to a couple of people about my BPD and their first reaction is "well you don't seem like you have bpd"....???? It bothers me because it stems from the stigma that tells the world how we are basically manipulative POS's. I hate it so much when others tell people with mental illness that they don't "act" like they're mentally ill, especially with bpd as it is very complex. I have to do my very best to mask my illness because I'm so scared of people thinking I'm "crazy" because of the huge stigma around it.

Also, I know I seem unreasonably upset about this, but it's happened 4 times already. I hope for the day that the stigma isn't as big as bad as it is today.