I’m worried I’m going to lose my job, I got home from vacation and had Covid contact as soon as I got home so I quarantined the next week. So now I’ve missed over two weeks of work. Driving in today I just felt sick and anxious and ended up saying I was still sick. I’m just making it worse to finally go back tomorrow. But Just thinking about going to work and being around people having to pretend like everything is fine when I feel like I just want to hide in my bed from the world. A world that just keeps getting worse. I don’t know what to do. I’ve even upped my meds but I don’t think they even help anymore but my drs haven’t prescribed me anything new. I know I should see a therapist but finding one that isn’t just like a ldac is soo hard. They are all full or don’t take my insurance. Why is it so hard to try and feel better? Why do I keep doing thinks that just make me feel worse