I’m really tired… I keep making the same mistake over and over again. I keep in mind not to, but I still do. I’m a coward. I can’t even take a step without anxiety kicking in. I just feel like I’m worthless… and stupid. Parent goes quiet at times when I talk like this… I’m tired. Those urges are crawling again… so much stronger than before… I just want to sleep… I just want to feel like me… I finally figure something out then I feel confused about another thing. I’m possibly autistic but never officially diagnosed. Maybe adhd too? I feel like I’m in a chaotic spiral.