I don't know what to do anymore.

I feel like I've never fit in, always the least popular friend, never any idea who I am, what I really like, I feel like there's literally nothing certain about me. It's always changing and fluctuating and there's no consistency. Gender, hobbies, sexuality, interests, relationships, aspirations, anything. 

I just feel empty. I feel more lost than I've ever felt. More mentally ill than I've ever felt. In the process of getting on medication and seeing a psychiatrist, but holy shit nothing is better. Everything is worse. High school sucked, now I'm 24 and worse off than I ever was and I don't know how to do it. I don't know how to keep feeling empty and all the stress in the world on top of it. Everything's too much or not enough or uncertain and I'm so tired, tired doesn't even describe the way I feel anymore.

I just don't know how to get through this. I want to feel certain about who I am for once, or what I like, or even what I want. But instead, here I am.