I feel like all I do all day everyday is wait around for my FP to text/ call me, I don’t even go out anymore unless it’s to work, all I want to do is hang with them when they’re free. I feel obsessive and crazy that it hurts me so much to not hear from them even for a few minutes. I’ll try to distract myself by watching netflix but every 10 minutes i check to see if they’ve messaged back before eventually getting bored of the show and calling them. Before I had them I didn’t have a FP and would often distract myself with weed, acid, alcohol and whatever else I can do for fun. I was doing this for a while in the relationship and would smoke weed about 10-12x a day to distract myself but they pointed out how self destructive it is the way I used substances so i’ve basically quit only using weed every now and then and an occasional pill when really anxious or stressed. But now I don’t know how to distract myself when I’m not hearing from them without being high. I feel crazy and I hate it, I know space is completely normal and fine but I wish I could just be with them every second of everyday. I feel bad for being so clingy, emotional and unstable. I’m thankful they put up with me and want to talk to me everyday why does that not satisfy my brain enough? they’re the greatest for putting up with my unstable breakdowns and rapid mood swings and always being there to talk everyday, I should be happy with what I have but I feel so empty when I don’t hear from them instead