Just deleted all my social media and blocked a few numbers of persons I felt didn’t have any good reason to continue &amp; stay in my life... I’ve been dealing with depression &amp; anxiety for quite some time... it’s like all I want to be is alone .. I feel like no one gets me .. I just want to run away sometimes. I feel like a horrible person now, I’m always so dull. I quit my job and I don’t want to go back to work but bills are piling up, my kids are the only reason I’m still here... my family and i aren’t close they live far and no one ever really comes to visit us, I don’t have many friends to genuinely care about me i mainly just have acquaintances.. my relationships don’t last long. Honestly at this point I just want to disappear change my number and move sometimes I wonder who’d come search for me, or if anyone would care enough to try.. idk I guess I just want to feel like I belong here or maybe I just want to be at peace?... I wonder what it’s like..I crave nothing but peace, a peaceful mind, a peaceful life, a piece OF mind... that’s when my bad thoughts tend to come in. (Of course my depression loves to get the best of me.) Sometimes I wonder if this is going to be the new me forever. Not going to lie it frightens me from time to time when I get deep into my thoughts...