Life became a shit show for me at a young age. Too much to explain, let’s just say it’s full of death, abuse, and neglect. From a young age I tried many times and failed to kill myself. Since you’re reading this you can determine that those attempts were not successful. I wanted my trauma to end and in some way it did. But I still relive it everyday. Most of the time it’s when I sleep. I live out those days like a movie watching the horrible things that has happened to me.

At this point I don’t want to sleep anymore or at least when I fall asleep I never wake up again. It’s a shitty life I live and every day I wish I pulled that trigger and something came out.