I was a star student by every stretch of the word. Never got below a 97 in middle school. Was top four percent in my class in high school. I attend a top notch university. Did very well my freshman year (GPA: 3.87). Then the pandemic hit, I haven’t passed a class since. I’ve gained 60 pounds, become dependent on alcohol, become a recluse, and become so pessimistic that despite my intellect I want nothing from this world. I’m not suicidal, just cynical