I am spiraling because of nothing. This morning I broke no contact with my FP and he obviously didn't reply. Now I feel like I need to cut off all our mutual friends (which are all the friends that I have), but if I end up alone I don't want to live. I don't see the point in getting better when I'll be lonely. I had the desire to do a few things on my own, but now it all seems pointless to me. I am honestly suicidal because of this and have absolutely no energy. Everything that is planned for the coming days annoys me. I feel like screaming, cutting, anything to make that "angry emptiness" stop. I don't want to live like this. But I feel like calling the hospital would be over the top and not necessary, but there's also no one else to talk to.