As narsisistic as that sounds, I can't help but feel like it. I know it also sounds delusional too. Im not to come off as "better than others" but I have good intentions. I always had a kind heart. Im so soft. Compared to every family member, I'm the odd one out. I'm the most caring and rational one. Everyone else are all older and couldn't care less about anyone, they only care about themselves. The only family I got who weren't like that aren't even related to me! 

I try my best not to give into dark thoughts or take my anger out on others, but I also end up keeping it inside which makes me explode. 

I always feel like I have this "little kid soul" inside me deep down.