I can’t see any point of doing anything. No matter what I do it doesn’t feel enough or satisfying it’s like I’ve lost taste of life. I don’t enjoy things like i do before. And even if I enjoy things it’s just temporary and then the emptiness rushes in again. I’ve started taking a hypertension medicine 8 months ago and one of its side effects is depression and I might be feeling this way because of it. Or maybe it has nothing to do with it. I’m like a zombie just eating studying and sleeping with no passion or purpose in life. There’s no light at the end of the tunnel instead it’s just blocked permanently. I’ve lost contact with most of my friends. And I don’t have the energy to make new friendships or get into a new relationship I’m just so exhausted and not interested even though I had many opportunities to make ones. Some nights I over dose this hypertension medicine just to relax and feel nothing at all. And I believe I became addicted to it unfortunately. It’s called propanol. I wish the doctor never prescribed it to me. I miss being normal..