I’m 21m and have been depressed for several years now. It seems to have started back when I was in high school and lost the first and only girl I’ve ever been close with. I was with her for a few years and one day she decided to ghost me. I haven’t been the same since then, I think about her every single day and I can’t stop. I have horrible anxiety and that leads me to question every decision I’ve ever made. I constantly think of things I could go back and change despite being unable to. I’m so unbelievably lonely and don’t think I could ever be happy without being in a relationship. I’m not sure where I’m going with this, everything just hurts and I need to let it out