I need some advice on a really complicated issue. So I had a stroke that impaired my left side when I was 11, I’m now 17. Recently I’ve been really thinking about my friends. I don’t even know where to start, and I don’t even know if anyone can help me. Almost my whole life I’ve had the same friend group. However, after my stroke I noticed some changes. I was never invited to anything (I think this is partly because my stroke). The main times I talked to these friends was at school and when we would play PlayStation. But that was pretty much it.  This is how it’s been for years. There’s been many times where I’ve gotten sick of them and wanted to cut them off, but I never did. Starting in 8th grade, they started to drink alcohol and smoke every time they hung out and I just did not want to do that. This just added another problem because now I didn’t even want to be invited. But I just kept playing PlayStation with them and taking to them at school thinking they were my friends. I want to cut them off SO bad, but that would pretty much leave me with nobody to play PlayStation with. This is a lot of what I do in my free time because I can’t play sports anymore. Also, if I cut them off, I don’t know how I would find other close friends. I’m “friends” with a lot of people, but it’s just not really real I guess. I finally cracked today after videos were sent to the group chat (that  I don’t really know why I’m in) of my “friends” doing stuff that I wasn’t even invited to. I just don’t know what to do. I could cut them off, but then I would have nothing to do in my free time because I wouldn’t want to play PlayStation by myself. Also if I cut them off, I still won’t have any REAL friends to do stuff with. I’m just so lost