i’m in this organization and one time a communication problem happened. so i was not in a meeting one day, and i got a lot of angry texts about me not being there. just because the head of the organization forgot i told them i couldn’t make it previously. so everything ended fine and they apologized.

i thought i moved on from it. but now everything something happens where i may have made a mistake in my job i get really anxious and scared. i’m scared they will send me angry texts again and that i’ll disappoint them. maybe they will kick me out because i’m so much less experienced in comparison. 

i also don’t hold any resentment for the first incident since it really was just a mistake. there are two leaders though, and one of them i’m totally comfortable with. the other one scares me though. right now i think i may have made a mistake on doing my part. so i’m just awaiting her to text me and tell me how i’m wrong. so i’m just really scared right now. even though i know it should be okay. it just gives me anxiety.

this is more of a vent but any advice would be nice.