I've always been the silent kid who had no friends. Now, as an adult, I see no changes in my life. The people i call friends are only there to use me. I never had a friend who was there for me when I most needed them. 

After years, I thought I finally had found someone who can love me unconditionally and accept me as I am, but even she wants me to change myself, especially my appearance, and makes me feel like I'm worthless and not good enough yet she keeps telling me how much she loves me. I feel terribly alone and confused all the time. I already feel disgusted even when I'm thinking about myself, and she is not helping at all with her "rightful" comments about my body and about how much I eat.

Will people ever respect me if I lose weight? Of if I start being a social person? I've always tried to remind myself that I have nothing to fix about me, but people came to my life just proved me wrong, or they convinced me that I am the problem.