My good friend who I have known since high school recently told me she would be coming to visit my city in a few months. I expressed to her that of course, I was very excited, but deep down it is the farthest thing from what I want. We talk often, but only over text. I haven't actually seen her in person since I first started experiencing depression. Now, it has been over a year since I last saw her and I've gotten so much worse, both mentally and physically. She is basically the complete opposite of me, she has many friends, a supportive family, etc etc. I know she will want me to take her around town to do things but she doesn't know that it takes all my energy just to get to work in the mornings. I know that I will have to suck it up and see her a few times, but I am just dreading it. Just typing that out makes me feel like a horrible person...