I have been dealing anxiety my entire life and certainly long before I had a name for it. I always struggled with talking people. I always overanalyzed what I did and said. I tried to make myself as seem ‘small’ as possible and I often felt that other people made me feel even smaller. I just didn’t want to take up metaphorical space. This year it is changing, through medication, therapy and just good life experiences, I have been to several social gatherings where I didn’t worry about what I said/did or what other people thought. I didn’t throw pity parties for myself nor blame other people if things didn’t go exactly how I would’ve liked. And the social gatherings that normally would have been a caused constant anxiety  were actually enjoyable! They weren’t perfect I had awkward moments of course, but they didn’t bother me. And people actually liked me as a result! I have never been the fun/cool person in a group and I think I may have been on several occasions. Who would’ve thought! I just acted how I always wanted to but my anxiety never let me. This is just a huge win for me and I just want to celebrate it with people who understand!