I'm so behind in school, I don't have the energy or care to get caught up and it makes me feel so guilty and pathetic. I have no life, no interests, no passion, no friends, and no way to get help. I'm the most boring and unlikable retard in the world, but I just can't fucking kill myself already. 

How do you fucking cope when you literally cannot do anything?? Every moron on these types of subreddits says "focus on your interests" or "go to therapy" or some generic cancer like they didn't read the fucking post and didn't bother to use 3 brain cells and consider that maybe that doesn't work for me.

It's so unbearable to see everyone else be able to overcome their shit or end their suffering, while I'm stuck in agony, unable to do anything but smoke weed, self harm, fight urges to snap and fucking strangle someone to death in the middle of class out of sheer frustration and dread having to go to work where I get overwhelmed and make barely any money.

I feel so lost and hopeless.. I just hope I piss someone off and they kill me in retaliation.