after taking a concoction of muscle relaxer, prednisone, klonopin, and gabapentin i woke up in the floor and had no memory of falling asleep 
it’s like early morning so i smoke some weed and then i guess all of these drugs together i thought it was a great idea to send another text paragraphs long apologizing to her. i went on a walk and started coming down and texted her less than an hour later that i was sorry for contacting her. i told her a year ago i wouldn’t attempt to contact her anymore and i was doing so well until my inhibitions were released and i feel so bad about yet again crossing her boundaries and going back on my word when i said i wouldn’t 
i even wrote in my notes app a couple days ago how i was so lost w out her but i wouldn’t be selfish and contact her knowing she is happy and moved on and then it all went to shit. im also prescribed all of these meds.