I feel like everyone is such a bullshitter. Like, what reason would anyone have to keep living if they literally dont have anything they want out of life? I dont want to travel, I dont want to build a career, and I dont want any hobbies. And then people act like you never gave any of that a real try. I'm fucking 30, I've tried building hobbies and working hard and traveling. Nothing I've done in my life gave me a consistent joy, and I cant even imagine anything will. Then people will say to just keep trying and itll happen eventually. Fuck you, that's absolutely ridiculous. 30 fucking years is enough time to find something, anything. And then people act like me taking my life would be a big deal, from the people who wouldn't lift a finger for me prior. They just dont want to look like they didn't care cuz that's the socially acceptable way to act. Y should someone who's miserable and unobjectively will always be miserable extended their misery for the sake of those who only would mind if they ended it. Its fucking insane