I'm very bad at this friendship thing. Not in general, but also in general. I can't get people to stick.

All I have is my bf now. And that's wonderful, he's great but having friends outside my relationship is also really important to me.

8 months of daily talking and it's done because I reacted badly to suddenly being alone at home for a month. In the moment the feelings were very real and I was only focused on my own stuff and so I was honest. But also pretty harsh without even being aware of it. Just so wrapped up in the 'this is how I feel so you must have somehow caused it.'

And once I was done telling her that I wish she would open up more and not agree with me so much, I had a bit of awareness and even said, this might not even be about you. I'm just in a very bad place. But at that point the damage was done. She stopped responding entirely. 

Its possible I really hurt her. Shes entitled to her feelings. She doesn't have to be in contact with me. 

I tried to ask her how she was holding up. Tried to reach out, Attempt to apologize. She responded by blocking me on Facebook and leaving the mutual chat we were in.

I just feel like I'm back to square one. I've destroyed yet another meaningful friendship. I've had a long string of destruction throughout my life of cutting ties with people after a certain time period, but perhaps I'm just idealizing friendships that really weren't going anywhere. 

She made me feel less crazy, but maybe it really wasn't going anywhere.