Everything seems to be falling apart and I can’t stop it
Nothing makes me happy anymore I really just want to die 
I can’t get health insurance to save my life because I can’t just get myself to do one single productive thing 
My therapy bill is at 600$ going up 160$ every week bc of dbt. Then I also have 1on1 therapy bi weekly which will make it go up more.
Cant tell my mom bc She will hate me
I was doing so good at my job it was all I had going for me but I fucked it up and now I know everyone’s talking about me
Everything hurts and I just want it to stop
Dbt is really good but it’s hard to think about any other day than the day that I go to group
Everything is painful and I’m so fucking alone 
I wish my parents didn’t leave me here all alone
I wish I didn’t have to make all these choices
I’m always so
Sad and it feels like everything will always fucking suck no matter what I do