I can be hurt and betrayed by the person I love and I’m the one who ends up apologizing. 

My partner recently hurt me real bad, and went as far as to talk to random women for attention and tell them I’m abusive. I found a text on his phone to some random girl.

He says I drove him there, to look for female attention.

I forgave him …
I didn’t want to lose our family…

I feel so alone. 

He calls me abusive all the time, so I tell him to please leave me. 

He threatens suicide if I ask to break up.

Yet I am abusive.

I have outburst just like anyone else in an argument.

I am diagnosed bpd and he knows it so he uses that against me all the time.


I sometimes wonder if he has bpd….

I just want someone to talk to right now