I am 21 years old. I quit my job last year because I was draining me and I just couldn't anymore. I made that decision in the best interest of my life and mental state yet everyday is a constant reminder that I am a failure. My mother looks at me everyday like I am disgusting. Everyday is a challenge to just wake and stay awake, to not succumb to my feelings of impending doom. Yet because I am in a hard place, because I don't have any money right now to support myself I am the family disgrace. I just need a little support but I battle this everyday around people that just think I am lazy. I don't want to lay in bed all day and do nothing, I wish I could have a normal appetite and eat, I wish I wasn't so weak, I wish I wasn't me, maybe then I could be normal, maybe then I could be an adult. 

HELP ME!