The happiest I had felt in a while was when I was dating this really awesome girl just a bit ago. It just broke up the monotony of everyday and gave me someone i trusted and could talk to. We decided it wouldn't work out, but decided to still be friends. And i really wish I could find someone new. But dating apps give me so much anxiety, and do does just talking to someone random. So this makes it really difficult and I just feel so alone.