Lately I've gotten it into my head that I'm a failure and that's why I'm alone. I wasted my free federal grants for college on a degree I don't use, only to work a job I love but don't make enough money at, wishing I could go back to school so I could further myself in the field I am now, but I don't have enough money. I'll never have enough money to not live with my mom and brothers, and it just feels like they're getting tired of me. 

I don't know why, but I've associated those issues with the fact that I've had zero meaningful interactions with anyone who could be a potential significant other. Like, I feel like women can just sense that I'm a failure and a loser and just stay away from me (not that I'm owed a relationship or anything) . And I honestly don't blame them.

I really wish I could just forget who I am so I can just start life over.