I was diagnosed with depression when I was 10, and now I’m a junior at university, and my major kind of requires me to be submitting my work places in order to get in galleries and the like. At the moment, I can barely make it to class and the store. I’m coming back from spring break where I did nothing but sleep until noon, watch LOTR, and play some mind numbing games. I had a day where I thought I had finally overcome my decade long bout of passive suicidality (it comes with every major wave, and I’ve been at the point for several years where I am not a danger to myself), and then literally the next day I realized I was hitting a major depressive episode (i was drunk the day of my false epiphany😅).

I don’t know how I’m supposed to be spending 60 hours a week working on my work, plus applying for things, and doing basic human tasks. I am battling the urge to withdrawal from the semester, because that would ~really~ mean taking a year long break (my dept is small so many of our classes are only offered in only 1 sem), and I fear I won’t come back. Two people know that I’m struggling right now, and they are dragging me places soon, but I don’t know how to find the energy to get my stuff together. Little tips would be helpful. Low energy tips preferably.