I’m so tired of life. Why does it have to be so hard? I don’t understand why I struggle so much. My life isn’t even that bad compared to other people. But here I am crying alone in my room again. I didn’t get any work done today and I feel awful about it. My family is just down stairs having a good time talking and I just can’t make myself join. My bf moved for a job, and this week he’s in NY for a new hire event. He’s out having fun I’m I’m just here waiting for him. My bsf is at the beach with her other friends and I’m just here. My ex is celebrating his 2 months with his new gf and I’m here. My bf is always here for me, but I can’t bring myself to ruin his trip. I was getting better, but now I’m here. Why is all of this so hard? Why can’t I just be back with him? It’s been almost 2 months apart and I have to wait 5 more. But I can’t do anything I feel so alone.