This is useless, I'm so overwhelmed with the fact that I haven't got a job yet and it's been 6 months. I can't bring myself to get out of bed or apply for a job because of the fear that I don't qualify/I'm not good enough and won't last. I'm useless to my mom, useless to my sister, useless to myself. it hurts, my heart hurts. I can't sleep at night; I find myself wasting away during the days. My friend of 9 years went ghost because she is in college and working towards her desired career, and I'm just..here. Being left behind once again. I can't help but think I'll never catch up to her. I am hopeless once again. I want out.