It’s really hard to get over someone you liked more than anyone you’ve ever met. You think they’re so charming. More aligned with you than anyone else. More compatible with you than anyone ever has been. 4 years of getting to know this person and dating. The relationship was tumultuous much of the time. And ultimately toxic. They don’t want to be friends but I do…so I have to lose my partner and best friend. How do you cope? Because drinking isn’t working for me it’s just hurting. I’m already in therapy. I have a chronic illness so I can’t just go to the gym or take vacations or run around all the time with different people. How do you self soothe without drugs and alcohol. How do you get over this? Is the belief that they’re more compatible and more interesting than anyone else ever was or ever will be just a lie or cognitive distortion? I really hope that part is all in my head and that I will come to find in time that they aren’t as special and unique and amazing as I made them out to be? I hope…