I’m in high school going into my junior year. Little bit of backstory. When i was a kid i got kidnapped by my mom and my dad didn’t get me back until i was 6 months old. Growing up my dad always painted my mom as the villain and this obviously stayed in my head. I grew up thinking he was a perfect role model and that she was a bad parent. Then my mom got arrested for a year for a DUI. My dad couldn’t keep a stable job and we moved in with my grandparents (his parents). My grandparents pretty much took care of me. Occasionally on summers my grandparents would go to Connecticut or NYC on vacation and started taking me. One time i didn’t want to go and stayed home. This was while my mom was in jail. It was the day they were returning and me and my dad were supposed to clean the house. I walk into the room and he is overdosed with a needle in his arm from Oxy’s. I called 911 and he survived. This happened two more times and he eventually went to jail for a year for child abuse. In that time i realized he wasn’t a good parent and that my mom cared more. I went through several relationships and got cheated on, ghosted, and hurt multiple times and now i find it hard to trust. I finally have a girlfriend who i feel actually loves and cares about me. But whenever she is hanging around another guy or anything i just get extremely jealous and have intense anxiety. I am diagnosed with severe anxiety since i was 13.  I have panic attacks and i’m just getting close to giving up. I don’t know what to do anymore.