I've had a few SOs in the past but I always ended up totally destroyed because of my over attachment and basically going too fast.

The first time this happened was about two years ago, when I met this amazing guy. I fell in love with him immediately but he froke out - which I now understand, since I basically only saw him twice before telling him I was in love with him.

Well, a while ago he started texting me again, and I somewhat ignored him. He kept trying to get to me and last Friday we had a proper, emotional conversation for the first time ever. He told me he missed me very much, and that he felt very sorry for rejecting me just because he was scared of being hurt.

I even told him that I was sorry for being so overly attached to him, and I told him about how my ex ditched me for this same reason - and he said he'd never do that to me, and that he felt that it was him who was overly attached to me now.

So we met on Saturday and it was amazing, we didn't have sex (not that i really care about it) but we kissed and spooned and watched the Gia movie and it was basically amazing. I even kissed him in front of his father.

But now i feel like shit. Because it takes hours for him to reply to my texts. He told me he wanted us to talk (I.e. Text) more and more frequently. But now we barely exchange 20 texts a day?

I know this is most likely my BPD, but is this normal? Am I going to lose him? I can't afford to lose him, really. Did I mess up? I'm freaking out, seriously. He's the only one person who I can be honest about everything, as he's been thru a lot of shit too. 

We live around 80km apart,  it takes me 2 hours to get to where he lives. It's not much, but we're both in college so I guess it's only viable to hang out on the weekends. We're gonna be able to see each other much more in summer though, and I'll move to the city where he lives in September so it could be really good.

It just feels as if, while he couldn't have me, he appreciated me a WHOLE LOT more than now, and he told me beautiful things but now he doesn't? I'm probably overreacting, I know I am, but man it feels so real I can't even describe the fear I feel.