But as of lately, I've been experimenting with wearing clothes that show of my figure a little bit more. 

I've always been extremely uncomfortable in my own body. A few years ago I had a breakdown because I felt bad that I didn't dress sexy enough for my boyfriend (he never said this, it's just how I felt), how I wanted to, but that I was so uncomfortable with the idea of sexualizing my own body. 

But I somehow managed to post nude photos of myself online to try and feel sexy and confidant. It worked but only for a short while. 

I never show cleavage. I barely have tits but I'm still extremely uncomfortable with the idea of showing even a little bit, even just around the house with my partner. When I'm home I live in big baggy sweaters and sweats. I look and feel frumpy but it helps me feel safe. It's starting to bug me more lately. Why am I so uncomfortable showing my body? What happened? 

My partner and I discussed recently the possibility of me having repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse. My dad makes me really uncomfortable, for reasons I'm not sure of. I don't trust men in general.