i absolutely adore my girlfriend, or so i thought. this is such a strange feeling. 

i was madly in love with her yesterday, it felt as though i couldn’t even live without her. but now, suddenly i just don’t care about her anymore. i usually text her “good morning” as soon as i wake up because i miss her so much. but today, nothing. 

and the strangest thing is that she did absolutely NOTHING to make me lose feelings/interest. no argument, no nothing. it just sort of disappeared and i now feel indifferent towards her. 

but now i wonder if i was just acting. what if i never actually cared about her at all? not sure what to do now but i’m feeling so guilty. 

i told her that i would never leave, that she meant the world to me, that i wanted her for life. but the thing is, in the moment i truly DID genuinely feel those things. but now it’s just gone and i’ve broken yet another promise. 

i’m just afraid that if i leave her, the ‘love’ i felt for her will come back &amp; i’ll regret my decision. but i don’t feel it’s fair to keep someone around when you know that your heart isn’t in it anymore. 

i’ve never experienced this side of me and it’s scary. do i care about anyone? do i even know what it means to love? ugh.