This is wild to me, and I think this sub is one place that’ll really understand why having an entry level job is such an achievement.

I have anxiety, depression, delayed sleep wake phase disorder, untreated ADHD, as well as some other severe hinderances that I deal with, but I landed a job.  It’s really down to luck that I did, because I know someone who gave me an in, but I initially was hoping I didn’t get it.  I was so scared and sick with anxiety and my concerns were corroborated by previous working experiences where I wanted to cry every day, I was so stressed, my self perception was at an all time low and I felt physically sick and miserable every moment.

However, I got this job and of course so was anxious, but I didn’t really have an option to decline.  On my first day (last Thursday) I made [this](https://imgur.com/a/J9KPJ9e), which was suggested to another poster by someone else on the sub (not sure who, but thank you).  Everyone I met was very nice, very patient, and told me that though the job isn’t difficult, the instructions will seem unintelligible until I get the hang of each task and that they know exactly how I’m feeling.

I get to work in an open lab with massive space, constant access to the weather outside with big doors always open, no rush or pressure, lax breaks, headphones allowed, music on the speakers.

I have to wake at 6:00am but somehow I’m managing it, and I’m not dreading work, like at all.  Ideally, I would make money without any obligations lol, but I sincerely do not mind this.  I never thought I would ever feel this comfortable in a job.  I thought I was doomed to be either poor and limited in opportunities or fucking depressed and anxious 24/7, but apparently not.

I’m sorry if this comes across as bragging and may be hurtful to some who read it, but I think it’s important to share, because I’m honestly in a state of disbelief at how I’m coping.  I have awful, restrictive anxiety but this thing I thought would kill me, isn’t killing me.  Like apparently you *can* do things despite your whole being telling you that you can’t ¯\\\_(ツ)_/¯