So I've been seeing a psychiatrist for 2 years for a very deep depression. Little by little he shared with me that he thinks I have bipolar disorder but that it was weird because I do not meet all the criteria. Recently I moved in with my boyfriend in another city so I had a new psychiatrist. She told me she thinks I have bpd. Since hearing that I've been doing some research online about bpd and was shocked because it describes a lot of things I've been feeling since I'm 15 but couldn't put into words. It kind of blew my mind to be honest and since being on this sub I relate with a lot of experiences. I learned a lot about what I think to be symptoms I have. But here my boyfriend intervenes. We were discussing when he said something that triggered me. Before learning about bpd I would have let my emotion consume me and become very sad and cry or be in an unstoppable angry state. Sometimes I just don't say anything but keep thinking about it for hours and when a minor inconvenience happen I blow up.  But as soon as what he said hit me ( I felt as if it directly hit me physically) I immediately recognise it as a symptom and manage to "soothe" myself. I was kind of proud but I couldn't resist the urge to ask my boyfriend if he really meant what he said. I just needed to hear from him that it was just a joke or wathever but he told me I was being weird, that I had changed recently ( a lot of things changed in my life this year ) and that I was manipulating myself to think I have bpd because the old me would have never be upset about something like that. But he doesn't understand that it happens a lot, I'm often trigger by small things but I would either be directly really mad or just say nothing and "blow up" later or a few days later. It really threw me off because I was really proud of myself for 1. Recognising a symptom and what triggered it and 2. Being able to kind of solve the problem in my head. But he saw it as me being weird and not like what he was used to. I don't know if any of this makes sense, english is not my first language, but I would love to have some advice because now I'm really scared to just be crazy and convincing myself that I have bpd... I do have 5 of 9 symptoms but I don't know ):