okay this might be a little long so I apologize in advance. when I was 8 years old I was diagnosed with ptsd. At 16, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Then, at 17, they said I have Bipolar 1, anxiety, and ADHD. After trying about 8 different medications, i ended up off my meds for about 4 years because I thought I was doing fine. Now this year, I realized I’ve been in a deep depression and didn’t even know it. I’ve been in the house for over a year, I really only leave to go to work. I don’t go out like I used to, I don’t meet up with friends or any guys. However, I’m perfectly content, but at the same time, miserable. Don’t know how to explain it. I’m happy being a homebody and staying to myself, it’s peaceful. But it’s lonely and I feel like life is just passing me by at this point. But when I do get an opportunity to go out, even though I know I should, I just won’t. The thought of having to get ready and make myself look cute, then being around people and have to act like I’m fun and happy when i really just feel nothing… and the anxiety, we’ll that’s a whole other story for another day. It’s been like this for about 15 months now. Before that, I was out drinking and clubbing almost every night for like a year… anyway, this month a new psychiatrist diagnosed me Bipolar 2. So how was I diagnosed bipolar 1 AND 2? Which one is it, I’m so confused… and my family telling me I’m not bipolar and the doctors just want my money, doesn’t help at all because now I’m just questioning am I even bipolar at all? I definitely don’t think my brain is normal at all LMAO