It gets so old 😪 im in therapy, psychotropic medication therapy. Nothing works. No one understands. No one has any meaningful advice besides boilerplate bullshit. 

Effexor sucks, lexapro sucks, benzos suck, Elavil sucks, ambien sucks. What's it take to get some damn seroquel or an anti psychotic that gives you the zombie feeling everyone whines about? I'd like to just curl up and feel like a zombie and be left alone for eternity. Is that too much to ask for? 

Too afraid of getting marchman acted if I told my psych how I really feel. This world is vampire that just sucks you dry at every turn.