i don’t know where else to put this but anxiety is the most evil thing to ever exist. i’m gonna assume some of you have had it rough since covid. so have i. the detachment from the real world is getting to me bad. i can’t believe i have to grow up like this.  as my parents are high risk i’ve been anxiety attack scared shitless since this all started. not only has it made me fearful of outside but it’s made me fearful of my health. it’s all i can do just to go on a walk every once in a while. as i write this i stay in a the most nerv racking painful though loop i ever knew existed. that oh my god my anxiety is gonna kill me but i can’t calm down oh my god i’m gonna die i hate to calm down. i just wanted to come here and to some good ol fashion venting. i’m going through it and i’m sure some of you are as well. if i could hold you all and tell you it’s going to be okay i would do it in a heartbeat and i’m sure that you all would do the same for me. be safe everyone.