i’m in a really tough like spot rn, friends are belong assholes on purpose (which the admitted to), and my housing for next year (college) is falling thru, and something good finally happened, i started seeing a guy. now i’m 19 and every single guy i’ve ever had a thing with doesn’t want a relationship, and i thought this guy was different, and he was showing me signs of being different and that he wanted a relationship. and so as we’re in the backseat of my car, his hard dick in his pants pressed up against my stomach he says “i’m in a really weird place romantically rn” and it just fucking spirals man, and went the same way as always “i really like you and felt a click but i’m just not looking for a relationship rn i don’t think i’m ready” and like normally i wouldn’t care or at least be a little bothered, but we had just had the best three dates i’ve ever had, and what really fucks me up is that he knew the whole time what he was gonna say to me… the whole date where we had the best time and he continually furthered interest in me… i’m just so fucking tired of this shit, it’s so hard to find guys and i’m just over it, when do i win? like i literally had to go to rehab in the psych ward over this summer and then this year has been just blow offer blow