Every time i have a review with my GP or psych nurse, i always dread the questions about self harm and suicide.

This week i’ve been feeling pretty bad. I had to ask my partner to take my bank card away because i was close to going out and buying a load of alcohol (i’m 1 year sober because the last time i drank was awful and involved more than one suicide attempt). I’ve been thinking about it a lot; both drinking and self harm/suicide.

I have a phone review with my nurse tomorrow and i know i should be honest but i absolutely hate admitting that i’ve been feeling suicidal. I hate being asked if i have a plan, and being pressured into revealing my plan if i say yes. It makes me feel pathetic and awkward.

At the end of our appointments she always asks “are you going to keep yourself safe?” and i always say yes because i can’t imagine saying anything else. If i say no, even if it’s completely honest because i don’t think i can keep myself safe, i feel like i’m lying or being overdramatic.

Does anyone have any advice on how to feel more comfortable being open about this stuff?