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I'm a 17 year old male and when I was a kid I used to feel a lot of emotion like I cried at school for hours each month, that emotional. I'm not sure what happened but I guess I just woke up one morning and something in me just shut off all essentially all emotions in my body and for the past 3-5ish years I've kinda just been like completely nothing. Its not something I'd change I personally think its a one up from people because I dont have anything stringing me back from doing what I want to do, for example if my friend is scared I wont really care I would just do what I want to do, if anyone is sad I wont care and do what I want to do, nothing would really hold me back anymore. I'm very out of tune with other peoples emotions and in complete honesty I dont get any of their emotions, when someone cries I just sit there and either don't listen and or sit their in disbelief on how people can let emotions run there life (i know they cant be controlled but thats just how my brain works). Ever since this happened I have been called cruel, nasty, evil by my own family and didn't care, never have amd to be honest, and I was just being honest to my family and if they get sad and all emotional on it I see it as a problem for them, not me. I get really angry really fast about things and as I quote someone said to me "You dont just stab the knife in people, you stab the knife and twist it"

I am always nice to people when I first meet them and will always strive to be because I dont want to be known as a cold person even though I wouldn't care if I was it known as one but it would be more of a convenience to me if everyone knew I was nice. This is the first real time I've talked about my true self you people might think I'm nasty or something like that, thats your opinion and I do respect it but this is just me being honest and talking about what I feel in the inside and who I am.

I am not sure what happend or what it is but I do like it, I like not feeling much, as shitty as that may sound, but it is a double edged sword in which people will eventually figure it out and then treat u differently even though I cannot control it.

Thank you, feel free to ask any questions I'm a open book.