When I was a kid, I used to think life would get better as I got older. But year after year, although things might temporarily start getting better, I'm inevitably left with another hole in my being. I don't think life gets better anymore. I think it's just become a collection of damage and pain. I've become so empty, I feel like I'm just a drone going through the motions. All I want is to genuinely feel happy, but I don't think it'll ever happen anymore.