It's been almost a month and I feel so weak for even still being hurt by it but it really affected me in a super negative way. This is the second time I've been ghosted by someone I was really really into.  It just makes me feel so gross like what's so bad about me that me having feelings for you makes you run the other way and just completely treat me like I no longer exist when you find out it's really just been taking a toll on my perceived loveability I feel like no one is ever gonna want me. I feel disposable I thought even if she didn't feel the same that my friend would just talk to me and we could keep being friends. I would have kept it to myself if I knew it would make her just disappear altogether