So Hi... I've never really posted something on Reddit before so yeah, let's see.
Hi my name is Sky, last year in in june I got diagnosed with depression and in november with severe depression and since my last diagnosis I also developed an eating disorder ( anorexia ), since all of that my life contains only downs and really rarely some ups.
In the last month I realized that I'm not in love with my boyfriend of 1 year and 3 months, it's breaking not only his &amp; my heart, it's also destroying me.
I am so scared of loosing him because he was always there for me, he held me when I was screaming and crying because of the pain I'm in, he held me back when I tried to commit, he helped to get over my ex best friend and all the things she put me trough.
And now? Now I'm loosing my feelings for this amazing person and I can't change it, I'll loose him if I break up and then I'm alone.
Yes, I do have friends BUT I'm always scared that they'll leave me and hurt me the same like my ex best friend did, I'm scared that I annoy them and that they don't really like me.
I feel like a burden to everybody, I wish somebody would end my suffering, I just can't do this anymore. 
Please just help me.