I feel like I’m just a placeholder in people lives until they find what they want. The guys that like me is only because no one else will give them the time of day. My friends like me because they don’t have any other friends.. I even feel me and my mom are only close(she tells me all the time I’m her favorite) because my sister is older and has her own family now. So many people have told me I’m there best friend or favorite person in the world and I never return what they say because I feel like it’s a lie on their end and would be one on my end too... I don’t know if I settle for being a placeholder or am I just being over analytical and self sabotaging...