TW: Disordered eating

I haven’t worked out in a long time. I’m lucky if I shower regularly (as gross as it sounds). Can’t be bothered to wear make up or do my hair. I’ll restrict my food all throughout the day, then binge in the evening and spend the rest of the night making myself sick. Even doing a food shop spends me into a spiral because I can’t make my mind up on what to purchase for the week. 

And then everything on top of that (codependency, wanting to hide, mood swings, suicidal thoughts, overthinking, SH) just makes me feel exhausted. It is honestly so overwhelming trying to be a fucking person.