One month. After waiting a year and a half and two denials. I finally got to talk to my lawyer and I told him the dark destructive side of me (I take it all out on myself) and why it destroys me when I’m working because I can get triggered so often when in public spaces or stress. He said that he is completely open about mental disorders and has a dealt with a few personally and that I can be completely open. I am and will be at my hearing and he said that he’s sorry it’s something I deal with but those actions and thoughts will definitely help my case, lol. 

I broke about 3 years ago after a slow descent and I tried really hard to keep working, changed jobs multiple times to find one I could do and finally couldn’t anymore. I might finally see some light in this darkness if I get approved and I will just absolutely cry in relief. Wish me luck!