So, it is 6am here, I've been awake for an hour and I am typing through tears. My 14 y/o son struggles with significant anxiety and depression. We have been dealing with one thing or another since he was in grade 1, starting with migraines, then stomach pains, constipation, dizziness,  eventually being diagnosed with Conversion Disorder, which then transitioned to anxiety, then adding depression on top of that. He has been hospitalized once for a couple days due to risk of half harm and suicide. Right now he is in a day treatment program at the hospital, he hasn't attended school regularly in a couple years. He says he is feeling worse now than when he was hospitalized, although he can't tell me if his safety is at risk. He wants to quit the program. My mental health is shit. I spend most of my days barely holding back the tears. I can't focus at work. I feel like I can't take this anymore and I need to escape, but there is nowhere for me to escape to. I am trapped. My husband and I started councilling ourselves a few weeks back, but I don't know how much it will help as it can't deal with the problem. We were given 'homework' by the councillor, a list of questions to share with spouses to help them come closer together,  we have had it for over 3 weeks and only worked through a few of the questions once. My husband works two jobs so often he says he is too tired to think about that. I don't know how much more I can take, but I don't know how to make it stop.