So i have panic 3-5 panic attacks a day and nothing has worked have been through many medications so i have bought .25 xanax and been taking them every day for a month wich is as needed there isnt a day where i dont have a panic episode . So my question is will i have a seizure if i want to come off of them until they actually prescribe me them? I dont use them to get high or anything just to feel normal. I will never be the same and scared to be dependent on them for the rest of my life. Any recommendations? Every ssri has gave me suicidal thoughts and messes up my brain even more derealization plays a big part in my panic disorder and felt like i could not handle it no more or something bad would happen . Thanks for any responses