hey everyone, i wanted your opinions on not feeling positive emotions and how common it is.  i recently realized i can't feel any happy emotions, and even if i get the chance to, it's very fleeting.  i realized this cause i've been hanging out with this girl and i'm thinking about her often, but i can't even tell if i like her because of how much my emotions are masked.  i had to ask my friend if he thinks i like her.  and recently, i started putting out spliffs on my arms just to feel something other than depression.  my sister also got pregnant and married and i didn't feel anything until a while and when i did it was just cause i had been drinking.  i feel like i only feel stuff when i'm drinking and smoking.  is this normal in people with depression? like i literally couldn't tell if i liked this girl because of how shitty i feel all the time.