My entire life has fallen to pieces around me and I struggle every day to find any reason to keep going. 
I had need with my wife for almost 20 years, in August, the day after I had a heart attack she just abandoned me without even saying a word to me. We had planned on going into town to get my phone replaced and do some grocery shopping and while I was in the shower she took all the money I had out of my pants and everything I had saved up over the year to get through the winter when I am not working and left without her even saying a word. I later found out that she had been cheating on me and had been planning this for a while. I struggled to come up with some money and I got my phone replaced and I even paid for the service to get restored on her phone only to have every message I sent ignored and every call from me was either ignored or hung up on. I devoted literally half of my life to her and I wasn't even worth the effort to say fuck you I'm leaving. Its been months since she left and I still haven't heard anything from her. And I just feel so empty and alone , she was everything to me but apparently I didn't mean shit to her. I don't know what to do with myself nothing seems to matter anymore. I have such a hard time just getting through the day most days. It just seems to get harder every day and I'm so tired of trying. I am sick of the constant unbearable heart ache and utter emptiness of my life . I just don't know why I even bother any more.