A lot of the time, i almost feel guilty for feeling good. For being happy. It’s like There’s something deep down that is just sad AF and the depressing thoughts linger despite me displaying happiness. &amp; actually feeling happy. Idk, it’s a lil hard to explain. 

..BUT, I’m starting to learn that i DESERVE to feel that good feeling. ✨All the pain I’ve endured. All the time I’ve wasted being afraid to step into my true self- i am so so ready to just be happy and do what i feel is best for ME. Not anyone else. 

There’s a lot that’s happened this year that shifted my spirit and my focus. 

I know i cannot keep holding myself back because i know I’m destined to be great and share my empathy to others💕 

I really hope y’all are feeling good, feeling GREAT actually✨❤️

Trying to remain optimistic and not really dwell on the fact that this may or may not be mania or simply just a phase and that I’ll be depressed af again sooner than later. The type of depression i can’t shake and can’t fake to the world. 

Trying to not even think in that matter tbh❤️ feeling amazing and i really hope y’all do too. 

&amp; if y’all aren’t feeling the greatest, just know to take it one step at a time and keep faith. Faith that you’ll realize you deserve to be yourself, love hard, not give af even harder🤭 jk but seriously, sending luv hugs abundance and overall peace 💕✨🤗