(tw mentions of substance abuse and eating disorder) this makes me sound ridiculous but i know if anybody is gonna understand it’d be you guys in this community. i was in a relationship with this guy for 2 years in high school. its been about 3 years since we broke up and i havent been in a relationship since. i have this unhealthy obsession with him that i’ve been working through in therapy even after blocking him on everything and attempting to re enter the dating world, to no avail. the other night i found out he’s seeing someone new, and its a girl i had always compared myself to. i dont think i’ve ever felt this much pain in my entire life. in the past 48 hours i’ve quit my job, broke my 1+ year streak of being sober from alcohol. haven’t slept, screaming and crying to the point of throwing up. started binge eating again. this is the most debilitating heartbreak i’ve ever experienced. despite years of therapy i have no idea how to navigate my emotions and i’m terrified this feeling will last. i DO NOT plan on reaching out or getting involved in his relationship at all, in a way im glad he’s happy. i am just in so much pain it’s unbelievable. has anyone experienced something similar? how did you get through it?