So last night i was laying down when i for some reason became fixated on the lamp next to my couch, im not sure why but i just knew something was wrong with it. Mind you it was dark in the room except for the tv which i was watching so maybe this could be a trick of the light combined with my bad eyes (astigmatism in both eyes, near sighted)  but my reaction was still strange to say the least. It was breathing, i mean i could see it expanding and contracting and associated it with breathing and i was convinced it was as well, i told it to stop, and yes were still talking about a lamp, i told it to stop breathing or that I WOULD stop it, i wouldnt. So i grabbed a knife and started threatening it saying things like "i told you to stop" among other things eventually i put knife up to it and unplugged it because i knew that was the only way to stop it before it could hurt me, and it did stop in fact when i unplugged it and although i now know that it was not a normal thought process now it made sense then, i was in real danger because of my LAMP. Hell even now i cant even help feeling like i have to sit with my face towards it even though i know its not logical to be worried my lamp might attack me or plug into me or something  ridiculous but its just how i feel deep inside myself,  i just cant stop feeling like i need to kill it, and Yes to make it clear for the final time i am talking about a LAMP, i feel insane, ive been losing it over the past couple months with these episodes, not too long ago my thoughts were telling me to cut out my eye and i had taken a knife to my face before stopping myself ( not actually hearing anything though)  and then the same thing happened except i hit myself in the face with a wrench. Im worried i might be in the beginning stages of some sort of psychotic illness, whether thats schizophrenia (great aunt and 2nd cousing both had it) or something else, thanks for the help