So I’ve always had pretty bad social anxiety and I can’t stop thinking about times I made a dumb mistake, said something awkward or was accidentally rude to someone because of my lack of social skills. I don’t have any friends so when I’m not at work I’m just sitting alone in my room and can’t get these embarrassing memories out of my head. To the point where I consider suicide (I’m not in any danger, I wouldn’t actually do it). These moments won’t stop replaying, sometimes being at work helps because it takes my mind off things but even going to the gym or watching my favorite show doesn’t help me anymore and I have nothing else. My insurance doesn’t cover mental health services, idk what to do