I am 42 years I was diagnosed with BPD two years ago. In that time I’ve lost my marriage of 20 years and started a new relationship. I quit multiple jobs. Massive self sabotage for two years. 
Today I have an opportunity to make things right on so many levels. I have an interview with the facility that is gonna offer me a professional position with a very good salary, all based on my paper persona.  I am so scared I am gonna screw this up. 
This job would provide me with health insurance enough money to live on and I can see my kids again,  the pressure just seems to be mounting.