I’m 17 years old, today I just started school again  and realized how lonely my life is. For the past 2 weeks I’ve tried hard to get my shit together, going to the gym, trying to make new friends (not very much luck) putting myself on a proper diet and fixing my sleep and picking up some new hobbies. But today I hit a wall, my motivation is down, I’m always anxious and my depression is getting worse.

I literally feel like a ghost around people. A few days ago I was at a family party and I tried sparking some conversations but as always the person either responds with a short answer then walks off or just completely ignores me. I have a loud voice so I think it’s hard to not hear me. Because I didn’t have anyone to talk to I went on my phone for a little while then had to use the bathroom for like 15 minutes, then I come out to where everyone else is and ask a question to a person, and it again came back to no response. I’m not sure if it’s just me overthinking or what ever.

Im venting here on Reddit to get some advice on what other people think. Any suggestions or advice would be very appreciated.