Have you ever been so obsessed with someone? And not necessarily a romantic interest, but it can be..

You send a message. 
They reply within a few minutes...
Everythings fine.

You send a message.
They don't reply for hours. 
You can see they were last online 18 minutes ago...
Everything comes crushing down.

They feel happy, you are happy. Not just happy but ecstatic. 

They feel sad, you are sad. But not just sad, you are crushed. 

You care so much about this person and want the best for them. They don't know that. And you don't want to tell them how you feel because it would be instant rejection.

So you carry on trying your best not to be too obsessive over them. Every minute is pain because you want to talk to them but you know it will come across too 'clingy'.

You would give your absolute everything to this person, even take a bullet for them, but you can never tell them because its your 'fantasy'.

You think about them all day, go to bed at night listening to songs that remind you of this person or connect you in some way, even go as far as fantasising that they are right there with you because it justifies your thoughts and gives you more comfort.

But this is not reality.

In reality all these feelings are made up in your head. That 'favourite person' of yours has absolutely no idea how you feel about them and how you would go to the ends of the earth just so they were happy. 

They have their own lives, and you are just one small part of it. An 'aquentance' , a 'friend',  and that's all you'll ever be. Even though to you they are your all or nothing. 

And its sad. Its really sad because you put all of your energy and emotion into something that isn't 'real', even though its a reality that exists for you..