I’ve always seen my upbringing as normal. I always felt love from my parents and they were always around. But I’ve recently connected the dots. Throughout my childhood I would have arguments with my parents always resulting in me being the bad guy. They would invalidate me, I would lash out, they would invalidate more. I was constantly confused on who was right. I felt emotions and they were not frequently validated. This has lasted for an extended amount of time (11 years). By now I’m a disoriented mess. I can’t tell them I feel abused because... they’ll invalidate it! I feel stuck. They’ve always told me they were great parents and were there for me. I feel like I’m living a lie.