I’ve talked to so many different people, tried different meds. It seems like nothing works, I think it’s because I don’t *want* to improve

But what do I do then? When I’d rather sit and plan my suicide then my day?

I just talked to a mental health nurse in the front of my house with police and everything, they just said you had to suck it up and that’s that when you’re at my point. But I would just prefer to be dead