I used to have a strong sense of self. I used to think that everything I believed was "right." It was always the right way, I really strived to be the best person that I could be. I worked on myself so much, exercising my body, learning things so that my mind would grow, I had a super strong moral compass and wanted everyone to be treated as fairly and as well as possible, but then I started listening to other people. I was no longer listening to myself and my own beliefs. People had I guess challenged my beliefs and I ended up listening to them and changing my beliefs to fit theirs, but that made me become so depressed because I was no longer my own person with my own thoughts, all of my thoughts had conformed to fit other peoples. Which is really stupid to me imo because how could I go from having the most confidence in the whole entire world to wanting to end my life because I'm so depressed and confused now. I'm just different than I used to be, but I don't want to be different. I want to be happy again. I want to have my own sense of self again. I want to have direction in my life again. I don't want to just sit around and listen to other people, I want to listen to myself and to have my own beliefs again. But it's so hard when I've been through so many belief changing that I no longer trust anyone anymore. How can I believe someone when they say that something is good for me or that it is healthy? When I feel like EVERYONE lies just to try to get other people to conform to them. Idk, I just want to have my own beliefs again, but what if I'm wrong and I mess up my life? lol idk I'm just so confused.