Ive been listening to linkin park today and it reminded me of mid to late 2000s where i was having fun and goofing around with my family. Before everything went to shit and anxiety made life impossible.

My heart literally hurts from the pain, i cant believe that those memories can be this painful knowing it will never ever go back to how things were

Im 25 now, living alone in a different country far away from my family. Made no friends at uni or work due to my reclusiveness. Spending everyday alone (especially as your online friends that gave you some kind of social interaction move on with their life) has eaten me up inside. 

Seeing myself become this at my age while your brain fucks everything up is just depressing. Im losing the tiny little hope i had over the years

Sorry, just venting