Whenever I (20, male) think about having other people care about me, it just feels so weird and almost wrong to me. Like, I know it's not bad to have other people care about me: I know my happiness is important too. But, it seems almost selfish of me to ask anyone for anything. If I talk to others about my feelings, I don't want to bother them with my problems, especially since I struggle to understand how complaining about my emotions fixes anything. If I ask my friend for a hug (I'm fortunate enough to have one friend), I don't want them to hug me out of pity. I don't want to be a bother to anyone, ever, as much as reasonably possible. I don't want people to worry about me, or my problems, since I struggle to understand how that is good for anybody. What difference does it make if people care about me? I feel it would be better for people to spend their time with others instead of "wasting" their attention on me.