I've been married for 18 years.  All of my friends have fallen away.  My only real friend left is my wife and I don't know how to make new friends.  We both have severe anxiety/panic disorder.   When we talk about the problems we're experiencing with it, it causes the other to feel the anxiety.   We're both empaths.  It's so hard to not be able to talk to her about the battles in my head.  I usually just let her talk and try to be a good listener and a good friend while keeping my own struggles buried so she won't have to worry about me.   I'm looking for advice on how we can co exist in a space where we both have a voice.  We're in marriage counseling to help with communicating,  we both see individual therapists, we see psychiatrists and take our meds as prescribed.   We try to get out of the house to do fun things together but agoraphobia and social anxiety severely limits where we feel comfortable going.  We also have limited money so weekend trips are out, plus we have children to take care of.  Plus she has limited mobility due to knee injuries so walking and biking or any exercise is pretty much out.  I feel so lost and alone.  I feel like there's nothing I can do to make things better.  Some days I want to die but I keep going for the kids.  Life is really hard.  I don't know where to turn.