this is my First time posting so here goes.

I struggle a lot when it comes to freindships. My constant anxiety of thinking i've annoyed them or that they wont want to talk to me (in person or texting) makes freindships hard and thats before i sit down convincing myself that they don't like me or even hate me. 

The Feeling that i'm just being a burden is emotionally and physically exhausting. It also means i can't be as close to them as i wished i was.

i'm not the most social person and im very awkward at times but i've been making progress slowly but surely but even tonight as i write this i've avoided messaging one of my freinds depite wanting to for no other reasons other than being scared to bother her and the fear of annoying her.

its a lot too write and im sure i've missed out something (theres so much that goes on in my head) but i've spent all day with these feelings and ideas in my head and i just needed to get it out. 

does anyone have any advice that could help me start to get over this? 

thanks in advance.