I've been working from home 95% of the time for more than a year now and it's honestly been great, regarding my work. But at the same time, I've been feeling the need to make the transition to a new job for a while now, and have been more actively searching for a couple months.

What gets me though is scheduling phone calls and zoom meetings and constantly worrying about how to make it work with my existing schedule. This week alone, I've had three interviews already, all managed to be scheduled during my typical lunch time so it's less likely someone at work calls me.

But in a handful of weeks, if I haven't found the right job yet, I'm going to have to go back to trying to do interviews and search for jobs without the luxury and privacy of being at home. I've had recruiters call me all the time on my phone, which is fine, but if they did that at the office I'd have to go find a place to hide to answer their call and all that fun stuff.

Two things, though. One is that I know this process won't be forever, and at least I'm getting interviews. Two though, I know I could quit my job. I have plenty of savings to last a while, but my inner anxious self just doesn't compute the idea of throwing away financial stability. I can certainly schedule my interviews outside of office hours and keep playing this game of hiding the fact that I'm looking for a new job, so quitting to make it a little bit easier could bite me in the long run, or even make me settle on something that wouldn't be the right direction I want to move in.

Overall, I'm just writing this to express what I've been feeling lately. I've also been feeling depressed and unmotivated lately, so it's just all kind of layering on top of each other. But I feel fortunate in many other ways.