I went on vacation with a new friend. We only knew each other for 2 months but we got on really well. She was the first autistic person I’ve met and being her friend was extremely challenging.


She said i caused her to SH because i shouted &amp; spilled a drink on her at the club when i was drunk. In my mind it was a silly little drunken argument and we made up the same night or so I thought. She just came back into my life now almost a year later to tell me she SH that night and she carried on with vacation for 2 weeks so I could have a good time 

She also said i encouraged her to take migraine meds from the pharmacy which were dangerous when combined with alcohol and she was taking them for me so i could have a good time if she was in a good mood (not having a migraine). She said one of the side effects of migraine meds is heart failure and I cared more about having fun than her potentially getting heart failure (I come from an orthodox religious family so this was the first time I was allowed to travel without family/chaperone at 25 years old. I admit I was in the wrong for wanting to party and go out every night but I just wanted to make the most of my 2 weeks of freedom before I return back home which felt like my prison. I just bought an new apartment which is currently being built so my life is improving). 


BUT she never told me any of this until now and she would go to after parties and party until the afternoon the next day WITHOUT ME. Of course I didn’t want to go out alone, I went with my best friend, it wasn’t a solo trip but I never asked to drink while we were out or take anything. I have other friends who don’t drink when they go out if they are on antibiotics for example. I should e neveR SH or know anyone who has so please share any advice you have for me. I’m starting therapy to deal with the guilt but it’s 1 month away and the guilt is eating me alive. I haven’t slept in almost 2 days. These are her exact words: 

“I was abusing alcohol &amp; more FOR  you. To not feel pain for you”  

I had to give myself a scar to remind myself the pain you put me through” 


“did I tweet about how selfish you are that you TOLD me to mix alcohol &amp; medication. I overdosed FOR you”  (social media is our job btw so this is her threatening to ruin my career. She also admitted to copying my work/ content to get a reaction out of me after we stopped being friends 


“I could have ruined your reputation and I still can”