Friendship means nothing to me, I’m getting kicked out of college for not going to classes, I want to pursue a career in music but my family don’t support me, my parents abused me, my mum always critised me, called me fat and a spastic as a kid, screamed at me for any small mistake, my step dad only noticed me when I did something wrong, never acknowledged my existence, is also blind, have never met my real dad. My 18 y/o cousin used to physically assault me when I was 7 in front of my parents, he would hold my arm behind my back until it was about to break for 2 mins and my parents did nothing. I’m so mentally fucked and I don’t know the way forward from here. I guess live by myself and work on my music career? I can’t go back home as my parents abuse me