No one except my husband and like 2 friends. 

But everyone else who I try to talk to and hang out with? I feel like they just put up with me. 

No one EVER asks me if I'm okay. Even my college "friends" who KNEW I was self harming and suicidal. They never once asked if I was okay. 

Ex's who I sometimes still talk to, they never ask even though they know my entire history. It's so weird knowing all these people who used to be so involved in my life will just watch my Instagram stories but never even say hi. 

I try so hard to talk to people, but the conversation always ends because at some point they never text back. I try to make plans, it never works out. 

No one texts me first. It's ALWAYS me who texts first, and I am always available to talk to anyone! 

No one is ever excited to see me. No one speaks kindly of me. I'm no one's favorite friend. I am the forgotten friend, the background friend, the wallflower friend. 

Fuck. I'm so sad. I stopped taking my meds this week. I just want to feel something real again.