Yeah yeah you can't self diagnose obviously. I just came across this sub after spending some time googling why my emotions are like a rollercoaster and I haven't related more to anything in my life. Long story short my parents were abusive and neglectful and left me and my siblings with a shit ton of mental health problems. My sister has been the only one brave enough to go get professional help for it and she has since been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ADHD and ptsd. I've struggled my entire life with depression, social anxiety and my emotions in general. (I no longer struggle as much with depression thankfully due to years of self-development). 

Anyways I always felt like my emotions are extremely turbulent. It has ruined most of my relationships and I'm just now understanding that it's because of me. My boyfriend could say one slight thing that wouldn't make a neurotypical person blink yet I'll literally feel like my whole world is collapsing. I have a hard time keeping jobs and commitments because I'm always ready to "escape" if I'm struggling. I have major trust issues and if someone I love does me wrong in any small way I have the urge to cut them out of my life forever. Its like my brain is black and white with no in between. It just feels like I feel more than everyone else. Things are either good or the worst they've ever been. I am just now realizing that I'm the problem - not everyone else. This is only half of it, and I feel like a horrible person. I can't get professional help because 1. Money 2. I have social anxiety and 3. I don't trust therapists or psychologists at all because I used to work for one and she constantly talked rudely about her patients (yep sorry, confidentiality is not really a thing). So I guess now I can start reading and learning more about it and how to deal with it at least. This sucks.