I just dont know what to do anymore.. its feels whatever I do, howevee I am.. nothing is enough. 
Im trying to make those healthy boundaries but everyone keep saying that I manipulate and I should grow up and life dont always go my way.

And I literally am not making demands, Im just making those boundaries..

But people, those abusive people, even family member use toxic shame on me and make me feel Im the evil one here.. in every case..

Im just tired..
And want to disappear.. so they or anyone cant reach me but Its not that easy.. 
Imm literally day dreaming of just renting a new apartment, changing my name and number and disappearing in all social media bc of this.. I just dont know how to approach or am I really strong enough to do it...

#tootired