Over the last year my anxiety has just been getting worse and worse. Lately I’ve been having anxiety dreams and the last one I  had was kind of traumatizing. I’m in the shower and start having an anxiety attack. I lay down and just start balling my eyes. And get the most real and intense feeling of complete hopelessness. Like I will never be happy or fine, and I come to the conclusion that there really is no point of living if I have to suffer through this my whole life. I woke up after that but that’s honestly how I actually feel. I think it came out in my dream because in real life I have a wall up that I use to avoid confronting everything wrong with me. I’m going to seek help still, but if I can’t find relief then idk that I can continue on.