Ive been havin ocd since I was 12 and had almost everything you can think of (harm ocd etc etc) but what Im experiencing now is making me scared 

I been having paranoid intrusive thoughts for like a month now and although I havent acted on them and I still am able to type right now that they are not rational they still scare me (cause I cant shake em off 100%). Am I becoming schizophrenic/ppd because I feel like im losing myself a bit more everyday. To prove myself im not paranoid I take extremely long walking/cycling routes on the way home. 

My mind never stops racing when something happens (and I know its just coincidence or whatever) my intrusive thoughts want me to believe it wasnt a accident. Basically mu intrusive thoughts just want me to think like someone who is paranoid (if that makes sense)

Shit is tough idk what to do anymore I miss my old self