I’m sorry if this is annoying. I’m frustrated at my anxious thoughts. I don’t want to annoy my close friends/family. I don’t have a therapist. 

My brain is exploding!!!!! Why am I so annoying? Why am I so stupid? Why aren’t I more likeable? Am I likeable? People like me. But do they really? I bet they all are faking it. I bet I’m secretly annoying everyone and they’ll all laugh about it later when I’m gone. I wish I was smarter. I’m so dumb. Everything I say is stupid. I wish I hadn’t said that. I bet they think I’m stupid. Why can’t I make friends like other people do? I have friends. But not new ones. I can’t make new friends. Why am I so awkward? Do I care about things too much? Do I not care about things enough? 


Constant. All day long. I’m on 20mg Lexapro since 2016. I’ve been semi consistent with it. I skip it every once in awhile because I’m lazy and think it won’t matter. Maybe if I never skipped these thoughts would go away. Does anyone else feel like they are their own worst enemy?