I was diagnosed with depression about 6 years ago (even though I was probably suffering from depression since I was 13-years-old), and although I’ve been in CBT therapy and on antidepressants I still wish I was dead every-time something negative happens to me. I’ve been suffering for so long, and I just wish I wouldn’t wake up in the morning. 

Today I was feeling the worst I’ve felt in quite sometime, and I contacted everyone who I am semi close with saying I was down and they all said they were too busy. I am so fucking alone and I have been for so long and I’ve been trying everyday for half of my life to get better but it just doesn’t. I don’t know what to do anymore.