When I was watching this I couldn’t help but see some similarities in the way I act when I have an episode. Does anyone else remember this old YouTube gem? Maybe I’m dating myself here for most of y’all…  In any case what would we diagnose this kid with? Beyond the obvious…. For context this was obviously staged but maybe we can suspend disbelief for a moment. I’ve also noticed that the way he acts touches on widely accepted tropes of how a “crazy” person acts and how lots of these are linked to how people with BPD behave/are perceived by neurotypical people. I myself have had a tendency to slap/punch myself when I’m angry so it was somewhat jarring to see it here. I also remembered a scene in the movie Zola where one of the main characters goes into a very BPD fit of rage when his girlfriend tells him that she is going to continue escorting instead of leaving Florida with him. He continues to cry and start to punch himself before attempting suicide. One of the worst parts of having BPD is the entertainment value neurotypical people find in our dysfunction. I understand that most people couldn’t possibly understand the feeling because they simply don’t have a baseline for how it feels. However, a large portion of people blindly assume that just because attention seeking behavior is part of the diagnosis that we can simply stop acting how we do at any time. This is a very frustrating dynamic, how do some of you make sense of this? What hurts the most is that people will recognize that you have a disorder, but not feel any sympathy when you have disordered behavior patterns that negatively effect them. It’s a sort of classic dynamic with mental illness but people with personality disorders really get the short end of the stick in this regard. A way I’ve described this is as follows: “when I show signs of improvement, it is taken skeptically as I’m seen as having a very difficult to treat disorder and I am reminded that there is something wrong with me. At the same time, when I show symptoms of this disorder that are inconvenient to those around me or are harmful to myself and others I am held responsible and if I bring up the issue of mental illness I am shut down and told I am trying to excuse my behavior. Where is a healthy place to live in between these polarities? 



[Greatest Freakout Ever](https://m.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=39&amp;v=YersIyzsOpc&amp;feature=emb_logo)