I hate that I can only have one person in my life. I know this is my FP, but I hate it sometimes. She knows she’s my FP and we work together to help me when I struggle and lash out. She’s also my roommate, but we get along perfectly fine. The problem is I’m so scared of her leaving me it consumes me. I trust her but my brain will randomly make me flip out about her leaving. Recently we talked about getting another roommate and I freaked out because I get too overwhelmed living with more than one person. I hate the thought of them choosing each other over me or just even having to be around two people for long periods of time. She’s understanding and I even tell her she’s welcome to move in with other people. I’m okay with living by myself, but she tells me she doesn’t want to leave me. Sometimes I just wish I could be around more people for long periods of time but I get completely overwhelmed by it. She doesn’t mind it and makes sure I know it’s okay. But I keep beating myself up because I don’t want to hold her back even though she promises me I’m not. Sometimes I think I might be her FP too and that’s why she understands. I’m also confused on whether I’m in love with her or not it’s hard to tell with my brain because she completely consumes it but i try to stop it.