I find myself with a human who fills so many of my needs &amp; wants. It’s still new, but... he checks off a load of boxes for what I want in a partner. I am finding that my favorite person is someone who fills few needs and kinda messes with my emotions. (Same cycle every year- march to June) That person is my ex but we’ve been apart for over a year. I love being validated and being told I’m cared about by this person. Same as with my SO, but it doesn’t feel as real. Am I leading my SO on? Am I still in love with this other person &amp; in denial? I think I’m fine without him but, why am I not able to feel close to anyone else? Is that normal?