I’m so tired of feeling like this. I go through phases of feeling like I’m lucky to have the people I care about in my life to feeling like I’m a nuisance and they all secretly hate me. I can’t even explain it to them because they’ll say they care but I wouldn’t know if they’re lying or not. I don’t even know what part of my insecurities are real anymore. It feels like I’m always reaching out to them but I’ll check my messages and I’m the one not responding. I just wish I didn’t have to live like this.