Essentially what the title says.

Long distance Boyfriend broke up with me 2 weeks ago due to his depression, we haven't had a positive interaction (call, text) for a month or month in a half.

At first it's been okay, I've been trying to prioritize his mental health even though I'm a trainwreck (reacurring depression, anxiety, ptsd) - it can work right? As Long as I work it has to be okay!

Then he started distancing more, we haven't been talking. We have been on break and I've come to realize just how badly all of this is affecting me. I'm spiraling, started self-harming and have fallen into full blown depression again... I just can't anymore. I'm trying to hard just to very likely be discarded in the end. He has broken my trust and my health and I just can't let go.. I'm so so tired of all of this