Idk where to post this shit or if it has anything to do with any of the "signs of personality disorders" I was diagnosed with (bpd and avoidant personality) but I find myself being pretty emberassed admitting to myself I actually kinda really believe certain things. Like everything feels soooo fake and I "know" this is reality and whatever but I kinda don't know? None of what I feel makes sense but it also really makes a lot of sense and I don't know if I'm just making myself believe bullshit or if I really feel this way and whatever but damn shit just keeps hitting me in the face that I can't help but kind of see as... well, evidence kind of? It just has me kind of lost. I was wondering if that's common/if it's even really part of bpd or avpd or I'm just a really dumb delusional bitch