i obsess over topics so much people think im on the autism spectrum. right now im super into vintage barbies and other toys. its like all i talk about or focus on. i live breathe and die vintage barbies. i *am* vintage barbies

seriously tho do yall have this too?? ive had a lot of similar phases in the past and they always seem to somehow correspond to my appearance. for example i got hella into green day and mcr and stuff in 7th grade and started dressing emo asf. then i got into punk music and got a leather jacket and a mohawk. 10th grade i tried to go “basic” to appease my piece of shit (now ex) bf bc those were the girls he was cheating on me with and in that time i stopped being interested in really anything. my appearance was plain and normal and so was my head. 

but now im like way happier dating someone who actually appreciates the fact that i can like things so much and i collect hella toys and i dress all pastel and stuff to match it. and im happy. more than before at least. 

just w the things i obsess over...i like them so muxh its like a physical feeling in my chest. i dont think anything can make me happier than my toys, learning about toys, looking for toys on ebay etc. i dont want people to think im weird but its just a special happy feeling that absolutely nothing else is capable of creating for me.

so im just curious do you guys have anything similar? like these sorts of special interests or focus on a specific topic? is it even a bpd thing?


edit: no obsession has ever been stronger than my current one. i especially am weak to [mod era barbies](https://images.app.goo.gl/NcbJQN2JSnAaHv4eA). those r where it goes from special interest to a little weird because i would do anything to somehow resemble one of those

edit 2: ALSO!!! feel free to talk ab ur interest in the comments!!! cus i know it feels damn good to talk about them