The past 24 hours has been my personal hell. I quit a college club that I put my everything into because I was being treated like shit. I thought I would feel better after, but I am so disappointed in myself for losing such a great opportunity, have no self esteem because I do not understand why they treated me like that, and have so much social anxiety at the thought of seeing them around campus, I am stuck in my apartment. I haven't eaten a proper meal in 4 days, and even though I am so hungry right now, I can not eat. I keep thinking: Maybe they'll like me if I'm skinny? and this is the only way I feel like I have control is by starving. I want my physical pain to drown out the emotional pain. Somebody, please, help me.