I can't do anything right even as I try and try. I'm so scared of talking to people. I had a breakdown yesterday cus I ended up blocking my mom's card. I entered the wrong code cus I mixed up my memories.

She tried to re-assure me but I just broke. I feel like such a failure. I used to live independently in the UK but I was forced to stay home in my home country because the country was Red listed by the UK.

I failed university. I'm a screw up who can't even function. Every mistake cripples me, during my driving test I was shivering like an earthquake. I can sit in a room with more than 3 people without feeling eyes on me.

I feel like there's a bolt in my skull. I just wish I wasn't such a mess.