Does anyone else go into that loop of nothing I do or say matters when you get triggered? What can I do to get out of it, no one in my life understands mental health at all let alone mine so my boyfriend is just frustrated because he doesn't understand. How do I explain it to him, like my everything just shuts down, I lose all energy and motivation and it makes me have really bad suicidal thoughts or want to self harm but I've been clean for years. I can't afford therapy, insurance or medication and I just need to learn how to cope but I honestly have no real help anymore.