I'll make this short and sweet. Whenever I come off from being manic I realize there are chunks in my memory that I don't remember. Sometimes it isn't too bad but sometimes it's like days at a time. But eventually they would come back to me at random times and the horro I feel by the things I've done hit. Hell, I remember one time (and all the unpleasant details aside) I ended up making someone move across the country after I bullied them in a manic rage. I hate myself for this and understood just how bad it could get. Thankfully this was when I wasn't medicated and shit was at an all time low but it still haunts me to this day that I literally don't remember most of my manic episodes until it's far too late.

I'm posting this ti see if I'm not alone on this or if it's truly just me, then I should start getting a hold of this