Went out for late night Mcd with a date, got the cold shoulder when I dropped em off, even after insistently messaged me to go even when I had stomach cramps. 
Came back home to chill and play games with a regular online friend. He keeps disconnecting and I couldn’t get any replies through. 
Sister came and join our discord call, only because her boyfriend is asleep. 
FP(Only slightly tethered) came into call and later triggers me extra when he told me to shut up so he could adjust the volume of his podcast. 

Tonight’s splitting dinner special is extreme loneliness. Brother this split hurts extra, that trigger really connected through my deep-seated loneliness not only from my FP but the rest of my friends. I really just wanna scream at them and tell them they will miss me and can’t use me for comfort anymore, leave discord, block all their numbers,  and take some time to heal. 
But that’s not the correct way to do things, so I’m going to have to tell them some fucking easy-to-digest PG version of tonight, and say I’m just a bit tired and need some time to rest from social media for a bit. 
FUCK. And they were even fine for 90% of tonight, but my stupid fucking brain can’t stop perceiving all the fucking negative parts. 
Sigh. Thanks for listening to my Vent-talk. 
You guys lonely?