Hi.

 I don't know where else to turn. I am so scared, shameful, and uncertain on what lies ahead. I made a mistake at work at my old job but then switched over to a different company but still work really closely with my other roles team. Basically they are my client now. Towards the end of my role I was spread so thin and very burn out and while still helping my old team I caught some things that I dropped the ball on. I let my old boss know about it + need to tell the team that it affects. It goes against my personal brand and I need to make sure I maintain relationships as I need to for my new job sake. I have been going on and on in my head the "would have should have could have". Then rehearsing the conversation that is going to happen with the affected team. It's neausating and exhausting. 

I hate that I worked so hard to have such a great reputation and now have to rip it all down. I'm afraid I have causes too many issues for both companies. My old now client has to deal with my short comings and for me to perform well at my new position I need to be trusted. I feel like that trust is broken. 

I have been ruminating with this since last night. It has been breaking me all night and I can't keep doing this. I have so much in my life to be proud of. Why does this break me so hard? I feel I have let down everyone at work. I try to explain to my spouse but it's just hard for him to understand. Thanks for listening. I need some reassurance that it will be ok, how to get through it, or just some coping mechanisms to help my ruminating tendencies. I haven't slept and I'm to sick to eat.