My fp was a friend of mine, before I even knew about the bpd I felt very attached to them. That was the problem. Eventually with drinking jealousy and...everything else I drove them away. I got the diagnosis and quit drinking cutting but it was to late. I just cannot let go I don’t even think I want to but the pain is unbearable the jealousy the missing them etc. I tried reaching out to them but no. Now I can’t imagine ever letting them go but can’t stand the pain. I’m struggling to see any way out. It’s like I’m drowning