I'm very depressed and here is my situation :

21

on my 2nd year of uni, but i never go to class it was just to leech the scholarship (500e/month in France), alone in a dirty small student room. 

0 friend, 0 family here, 0 gf

no driving license

no money, the scholarship barely covers my need in food.

far from my parents in another city

i spent 2 years in complete solitude, poor diet and bad sleep, all day on my PC consuming bullshit medias 

i can't do a third year of leech because i'm getting kicked out end of August, i'm in a deadlock.

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I have two solutions :

\- i find a job as a waiter very quickly, after that i find a colocation and i stay here. But given my curent situation and mental state, i don't know if i will be able to stand this job. 

\- i go back to my mothers house, i will get my mothers love that i missed so hard, but i will be ashamed to be back in this miserable state, and i don't like my hometown (Marseille), it is a shithole to be frank and my mothers appartment is in a bad and poor neighborhood.

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My dream is to become a digital illustrator, i am very motivated, i draw since i'm a little kid and i am very well informed on how to succeed, but it will take time, 4 years i would say until i can make a good living out of it. The class i want to take online is 1k euros, not that expensive.

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What should i do Reddit ? Please help me.