I just got out of an inpatient facility about a month ago (where I was diagnosed with BPD) and things have been going really, really well since my release, but I still just feel this craving for the self-destructive things that I used to do, and I don't know why. I feel like cutting, I feel like smoking, both of which I haven't done since before I went to the hospital. I used to do both of those things as a method of escape or self-punishment, but now I just crave doing them and I don't know why. I haven't done them because I'm scared of being in the terrible place I was before, and I don't want to spiral again. I don't know if this makes sense but yeah