I don't really have anyone to talk to about this. I been home alone the last couple of days. Figured now would be the best time to just let go of everything. I'm so over my intrusive thoughts and not being able to function at all. Yet, I failed. Like, how bad do I have to be to not even do the one thing I want? Honestly, it is to the point that I'm just so over being sober.

Ahh, yet, drugs aren't even enough to properly kill me.