So I must tell my parents today that I 

Have depression/ Tried to hang myself last month/ Stopped going to university a month ago/ Stopped going to driving school also a month ago

They think I have my driving test today so I have to tell them the truth, we already joke about me even going to university because I am always already home when they arrive and when the ask me about when my driving test is I always told them that I still have some mandatory lessons.

The way they parent is just ask how uni and driving school was and how I am doing, so they A. Being nice and not bothering me or B. Just wait till I tell them everything because It is really obvious.

I have an older brother who my parents could not really raise up because they moved to another country when he was around 6, so they were more concerned about themselves and getting a job while they put my brother into a poor school and had him raised up by other poor kids with a sort of gangsta mentality (Sounds stupid I know, but I don't know how else to describe it), but he did everything himself and is now successful by modern standards (House, wife, kids, car, friends).

And I who got everything without doing anything (New Console for Christmas and allowance for example) now has to say why he is depressed and wished to never be born and justify lying to my parents and wasting their money for almost a month.

My dad is an immigrant from Russia who holds traditional values very high and who is also racist and homophobic (So basically your typical old man who said that everything back then was better) he just makes dumb jokes, has a lot of mood swings and can't read the situation (Not understanding why my mother is angry although every toddler already figured it out), but as far as I know at least 20 people be it family or friends died in front of is eyes or couple hours later after seeing them.

My mother works way to much she wakes up at 6 am works till 5 PM and does house chores till 7 or 8 PM all on her own, while my father just watches TV and she very rarely asks for help. Also when discussing something with her for a long time she just puts a wall in front of her and blocks any more attempts at having a meaningful discussion.

And my dad comes home in about 2 hours so idk why I posted this.