I’m new to Reddit so Idrk how to format anything sorry! 😬 also if this isn’t allowed lmk and I’ll take it down but…

I’ve been prescribed Ativan and I just already feel my addictive dumb azz wanting to just @buse them…I mean I don’t mind lol. I’m kind of just excited….but my main worry is I’ll get hooked but then not have access to them often enough to keep up the habit…
Then the only other med I’ll be on is abilify. 
So I’m hoping maybe the abilify will help me get stable and then I won’t crave getting high as much…? Idk… just needed to vent 
Oh lol and funny enough today I told myself I might stop smoking weed and cigs and start eating healthier and start this new awesome lifestyle to help my chronic illness issue. Lol as if. Idk y’all I’m all over the place but I guess what else is new…