
Family, friends, love interests…. I just find myself missing, thinking, and fantasizing about these people that can’t even be bothered to text me… 

I keep trying and trying to connect meaningfully with people, and I just can’t.  Sometimes I feel I’m close, but it’s not reciprocated…. 

People go days, weeks, months… without writing or replying to me.  


I usually hear from people when they get bored, or horny, or need something… usually I’m someone people can come talk to, and want to when they have a issue or problem.    But they don’t really return the favor, or can’t even seem to be bothered with casual convo.  Eventually they just all kinda disappear for good. 

I get apologizes and half ass excuses sometimes.   I’m always a good friend they say… but then I never hear from them and they make no efforts to see or talk to me.  Again, unless they are in crisis or feeling sexual… 


Like… this is really breaking me down.   




But ultimately, I just realize how alone I really am in the world.