I've had people asking me out but I rejected them because of my thoughts of finding the "right" one which will never happen, because there is never the right one. I'm 19 years old and I'm a female. I have high standards because of the social media and my family. I want my partner to be good-looking, smart, kind, understanding and has a good income than mine or similar to mine as I'm planning to be a doctor. I have a guy that I like but he's 10 years older than I am. He's very nice like super nice. He's the type of guy who would help you no matter what the problem is and he loves to help people, but he isn't good-looking or makes a lot of money. He still lives with roommates which should indicate his income. We work in the same store but different departments  and there is some indications that he might like me in some ways. I would love to be with him but I feel like I'll regret it. There was also a guy that tried to ask me out who also works in the same store but different department. He's a year younger than me and he plans to go to the military soon (about a few months. I rejected him because I feel like he's not my standards too. He could make a good money in the future but I have lit of things going on and he's not the type of person that can understand what I'm going through and also can console me. I've been hea depressed lately and I've had some days where I just want to hurt myself or dissappear, the other guy that I like would deffinitely know how to help me and console me as he does to others but I really don't know if i can be with him. I might be feeling very lonely as I just moved to a new country and I have no friends because of covid. I wish i can just tell someone how I feel lately and not feel crazy, sometimes but I don't want to burden anyone too. I can't just tell my problems out at work as I don't want my other co-workers or people to hear what I'm going through.