(preface: i am early 20s female with anxiety, depression and adhd) Long story short, i just moved out of my parents house. im now living in a condo my parents own with my cousin so i’m not even paying rent at the moment. i just got a promotion and i’m switching from part time to full time, and overall work is going well. one of my best friends is getting married next month and im a bridesmaid. my birthday is also coming up and overall lots of good things are happening. 

however, i can’t feel happy about any of it. im constantly exhausted. i want to be in bed 24/7 and im overwhelmed by simple daily routine. im procrastinating easy things i know i need to do like getting my license renewed and i’ve missed a doctors appointment, a chiropractors appointment and therapy all because i just completely forgot. im anxious about the wedding, about people asking what i want for my birthday, about getting birthday and christmas gifts for people, about a convention i want to go to this month but still haven’t gotten tickets for, i have health issues i need to check up on but haven’t because of anxiety around making and going to appointments. 

i constantly feel sick and i think it’s my antidepressants, but i’ve been on them for years and they worked for so long and i know the process of switching will be horrible so i haven’t done anything about it. work is better than ever yet im so incredibly burnt out im having trouble doing more than the bare minimum, and im now supposed to be a supervisor and the standard for my coworkers. 

what i really want to do is isolate myself, curl into a ball and hide in my room for a week and do nothing but eat and sleep. i want to cancel all my plans and skip work and just become a hermit. everything is so much and everything is happening so fast. i don’t know how to make it feel easier. im so tired and anxious. at times i kind of wish i didn’t exist. does anyone know any good coping mechanisms to recharge my battery or face reality? i don’t know what to do