had a very rough break up 2 months with someone i still love a lot. 
i've been so good for the past few weeks in processing and spending a lot of time working on myself, trying to address some of my own shortcomings. part of this was attempting to create boundaries re communication between us, because i felt a clean break now would give us a better chance at potentially reconnecting in future. 

the past few days though i've been caught in a complete obsessive spiral and my thoughts have been completely taken over with desires, romantic dreams, happy memories. what do i do with this?