TW: self harm

I know this isn’t that BPD related but I’m hesitant to post mental health stuff outside of the BPD/CPSTD subs

I’ve been prescribed valium as a PNR (taken when needed) for years. In the past my mental health was worse so it was pretty clear when I needed to take some. But now it’s better and pretty stable and yet I still want to take in some situations. Like tonight, I have an urge to SH and my anxiety is pretty high, plus I’ve had a bit of a difficult day with interpersonal relationships and despair about the future. But I don’t *need* to take it, I won’t SH if I don’t. How do you guys manage inbetween times like these? Would you take meds? I know this is pretty dumb to ask but I’m kind of at a loss in how to handle bad but not life threatening emotional states. And yes, not wanting to abuse/get addicted to my meds is a part of that. Important to note that I don’t take any regular medication, so I have to feel the full force of emotional states which is...difficult