My mental health has been on decline for a while, but I feel like I’m going to be pushed over the edge soon. Lately my anxiety will get so bad I feel like I’m going to have a manic episode, which I’ve never had before. I get tempted to do self destructive things. But then other times I feel almost empty, like my body can’t handle any more anxiety so it shuts off for awhile. I would seek help if I could but even the thought of it is scaring me, like I’ll just be a burden and waste the doctors time. Idk what to do