I always think he's coming back but he's with his ex now. The same ex he told me "could die in a ditch for all he cares". The same ex he'd never get back with. The same ex who he said cheated on him numerous times but then said "he was the influence". The same ex who stripped him of all his dignity. When he was with her he had "no other options" but with me had so much more. I cannot get over this man and honestly every bone in my body wants to sabotage this relationship because it wasn't with me. He broke up with me FOR HER. I honestly want to kms cause he has gaslighted me to the point I think my only option is him. I hate him but love him. He makes me wanna die and live. I don't know what to do because my only form of living is for him. He has proved this for 6 fucking years.