(I’m 19f)My psychiatrist recommended I be tested for BPD due to its high comorbidity rates with ADHD, and I have pretty severe ADHD. At the time I dismissed this because I thought he was blatantly wrong. More accurately I convinced myself that he was wrong. I kept thinking “my emotions are all over the place because of my ADHD, I’m just clingy because of trauma, I’ve been clean for years so that doesn’t count, I’m not that impulsive!, I was just having a bad week/month/year” and so on. But I recently realised that no, my behaviour is not normal, something is wrong beyond the ADHD and anxiety. I should have listened to my psychiatrist.

My question is, does anyone have any information or know any credible articles on ADHD and BPD comorbidity, and does my diagnose of ADHD complicate things? I’m having a tough time finding information about it and would like some help.

Just to be clear I’m not looking for a label, I don’t want a diagnosis, I’m not chasing it, and if this is just my ADHD and anxiety bouncing off each other I’m fine with that.I’ve just had issues with evaluations in the past because of my ADHD, and the emotional disregulation and zoning out being blamed for all the discrepancies in my behaviour like my extreme fear of abandonment, irrational mood changes over the smallest things, unjustifiable rage, lost time and a blurry sense of self and my life and future. I just want to know what the hell is going on

I wanted my psychiatrist to be wrong because I was in group therapy with two others with BPD and it looked like hell. I just wanted him to be wrong because living like this hurts, and I just so desperately want it to stop, but things may not be that easy. 

I’m sorry if this doesn’t belong here, if there’s a better place please direct me there.