i emptied my bank account and feel guilty because im unemployed with little income. there's enough to buy food and household items.   

i rarely buy clothes/self care items. it all stresses me out. it's usually food or toilet paper or on special occasions a substance. only save up until i shopping binge.

so uneasy right now. my brain is like this is a good chance to not buy food so your eating disorder gets worse and i'm thinking no omg why am i sabotaging my life