I’ve been thinking about something stupid I said years and years ago as I was younger for days on days, it’s beaten me to a pulp tons and tons of times throughout the day, with these alternate scenarios even popping up in my head to humiliate me furthermore.

The thing is, I haven’t yet found a positive to come out of it yet, so it’s kind of sitting in the back of my head without being elaborated upon.

I can let it go at any moment, never think about it again. I have full control and I’m glad… but I’m afraid of making the same mistake again, even if I know I won’t. It’s physically impossible, even.

There hasn’t once been a moment in which I thought “The past is in the pst.” because I regret it with every fiber of my being. It’s crushing, humiliating.