Whenever I am mixed or depressed, ocd contamination goes on blast but so does this weird paranoia I get about water. When I was 9 I lived in a house that had over 40 highly toxic chemicals in the water. Every so often I get this strange nervousness and anxiety about my drinking water, fearing if it’s safe? Like tonight, I’m trying to cook dinner, and I didn’t hear the bubbling of the water so it’s been bubbling for a while and I lm really scared to eat anything out of it now for fear that the pan particles have come off in the water. I don’t see any scrapes or breaks in the pot, it’s a newer pot, but still, even if I can’t see it. I’m so hungry and I can’t stop crying, this is absolute hell