Been with my partner almost 7 months now. Neither of us have said I love you. I want to and find myself almost saying it sometimes. But at the same time, I split on them too and will go from being all googly over the moon on cloud 9 to hating them if they do something that upsets me. I don't think they understand that at all, because normal people don't feel like that right? I haven't explained splitting to them either.

I don't even know if it's really love. There's also the fact that our relationship has an end line, we're not going to stay together forever. They want kids, I'm adamantly childfree. We know, at least I know for certain, we're not going to end up together. They might still think there's a chance I'll change my mind, no matter how many times I tell them otherwise.

I don't know how to navigate this with my bpd. They're as much a source of support and comfort as they can be my demise due to how volatile my emotions are. I guess they're my FP. 

Given all this, does this make sense at all to say I love you?