Since my Dad died, it has just gotten much worse. I'm worried constantly about my mother now, she coughs a lot due to smoking I think, and now she's suddenly started to belch loudly and often when she'd never do this beforehand. She will not go to the doctor though and it makes me angry because I just want my mind to be at ease and to know that she's alright. She probably knows it's nothing serious, but my damn anxiety always considers everything to be serious.. I try to reassure myself that if she says she's OK, she is. And I'm trying to do well in school as well and my grades are shitty because 99% of the time I'm worrying about my family and their health, none of them are exactly healthy but I'm only alive for them. I want a good job and to succeed but I feel like that ain't gonna happen. it fucking sucks..