at this point my mental health has been getting so bad i don’t feel real anymore. i’m already so horrible at describing my feelings that i cant tell anyone how i feel. it’s exhausting i an the only one who knows what’s going on. it scares me. i cant feel emotions anymore i feel like. i stay up all night and sleep all day to make sure i don’t eat. in slowly killing myself and it’s so hard to watch i cant even look at myself in the mirror. suicide is always in the back of my mind but i’m stuck in my room all day with no access to anything that could harm me. it upsets me but it’s for the better. i’m just starting to feel so hopeless like i am never going to feel normal again. i’ve already detached myself from everything around me:(