I'll start by saying I had an emotional loss recently that I felt I handled really well. I even celebrated the accomplishment with my counselor. In it's usual form, emotional distress works it's way in and two nights ago I got sick. (Truly sick, not just psychosomatic).

Then the real struggle began, since I got sick, I apologize to everyone for existing I feel self loathing and hatred for being so worthless which makes me physically and emotionally feel worse. 

This morning I woke up, I threw up and then I laid back down wishing I could kill myself for letting everyone down and being a disappointment and feeling like I will never be good enough. 

Sometimes I wish I could just be free of the thoughts of inferiority and be NORMAL. Then I wondered, in our community, is this normal?