16/f Why do I feel so disconnected I’m not happy or sad I feel confused about how I feel it’s not often I cry maybe once every three months I laugh but that happiness it only last for a second I don’t do school I’m on my phone for up to 60 to 70 hours a week JUST READING I go through so many ebooks and regular books a week I don’t understand what’s going on with myself I want to live  i’m homeschooled so I don’t go out the house very often weeks go by like minutes for me I don’t even realize what day it is half the time I used to wish to die but the only thing I want to do now is live I don’t feel like I’m living I feel very empty And numb but not sad I try to do things I used to enjoy but that doesn’t work I don’t recognize how I feel I feel so confused and lost I’m starting to think there’s actually something physically wrong with me