I feel like a prisoner to my own mind and I will never escape. I've tried therapy, medication, nothing seems to help me. I wake up every morning, look in the mirror and just feel complete disgust and sadness. This has been going on for years and years, it's exhausting.

I've only been here for 18 years yet it feels like my life is already over, as if I have given all I've got and I'm ready to pass on. The worst part is it feels like I have very limited options. Had to drop out of school around 6 years ago due to physical illness, since then I have been crushed by anxiety and depression. What the fuck am I supposed to do with no education/qualifications and very bad social anxiety? I'm assuming exposure is the best way to deal with anxiety but my self confidence is so poor that the moment I see myself I just want to hide away. I have no one to dump all this on so I just thought I'd vent here.