hi, I have no clue how to start this but I've been struggling with depression for a while and I have no one to really talk to and I tend to get really bad episodes, I've been getting them a lot more frequently and they are a lot harder to deal with recently. I'm not sure if I need a trigger warning here but I have attempted and I've been struggling with those thoughts all over again and it's been really hard. I have had trouble with feeling like I'm fucking up a lot of my friendships and relationships. I just haven't had anyone to talk to because sometimes I can't turn to the two people I normally do because they both are going through a lot themselves. I have also struggled with a lack of concentration. I do also have problems at home that worsen my depression and stop me from getting diagnosed with anything other than depression. Im not sure what else to say so yeah thats it :)