I don't even know if this is the right place to go, or post this but I'm lost. 
I'm 24 and 2 days ago I was diagnosed with BPD and honestly don't know where to turn too. I really didn't even know BPD existed until now.
Not to get into details but I am now just full of hate and spite towards the people in my family that bullied me and neglected me and isolated me etc. and to my parents who let it happen. Like was I not good enough to just love? 
I hear most people feel relieved once they've been diagnosed, but now I feel more alone then ever. I don't even know if I have the right to be angry or its my fault for not being stronger when I was younger. I just don't understand why people just couldn't be nice, does anyone know what I mean?