Honestly it’s not surprising but I’m just so hurt. And angry with myself but it’s 100% my fault. I was with such an amazing person who took care of me, loved me, kissed me, did nothing but treat me right. And i treated him horribly and didn’t appreciate anything nice he did. I was verbally and physically abusive (within the past year it has started and i have no idea why :( ) iwrote him a long letter a month ago promising to love him and never be mean again, but the other night i got to drunk and said horrible things. And he officially broke it off. I don’t even know why i act this mean, i love him!!! He is extremely upset because he loves me and is just so hurt by things I’ve done. He doesn’t wanna be with someone who hurts him , because who would? He has been my best friend since age 11, now we’re 21and about to go separate ways :(

Has anyone else completely ruined the best relationship they had ? I know he still loves me, he didnt wanna break up doesn’t trust that i will ever change. i told him about all the symptoms i have and that how i feel and act isn’t normal and i wanna go talk to a therapist to get a little better. I’m just so frustrated i hate my personality. I literally drove the best thing in my life away. This just happened within the past 5 hours but i am sick to my stomach. This is my FAVORITE PERSON. I could use some advice or some nice words. I cannot believe this happening. I hate being an angry moody bitch. I hate that i pushed him away and now i am alone. I wish i could wake up and this was a bad dream, or i wish i could restart my relationship. It wasn’t always this bad.