Hi everyone. I (34 F) finally reached my breaking point over the weekend and decided to take some time off work and check myself into an inpatient mental health facility next month. After another long night of binge-drinking, saying horrifically mean things to my boyfriend, hypersexuality, spending, and really scary suicidal ideation I decided it was time. This was of course followed by intense guilt, shame, and disassociation. 

It has been a long, LONG, time coming. And I am scared. I am an attorney and doing something so extreme is terrifying. I keep second guessing my decision and telling myself I can pull it together. But I really know I can’t.

Having a place to actually fix my medication regime (right now I am on everything under the sun), get intensive DBT therapy so I have the skills to calm the fuck down, and just reset my life sounds great. And I hope it is.

I am looking at a couple programs in the LA area that are mental health focused. Female only. Anyone who has been have any advice? Or just kind words of luck? Or honest warnings? Thanks, guys.