I used to spend a long period alone in middle school when people would leave and not want to sit with me at lunch and I had insecurity about almost everything about me . I became focused on reasons I’m not good enough for people to be friends and started having higher standards for myself . I have social anxiety disorder and  people call me quiet or socially awkward I become really upset in an instant , it’s really harsh the next hour , and the dissatisfaction and anger within myself doesn’t stop for days. I feel like I perform in front  of everyone so that they won’t think im a reject . Tonight someone said “ you never talk , why are you talking ?” Like five times over the course of the night and also pointed out how I’m quiet and when people agreed I got upset . Even when my anxiety isn’t bad around people , I still get called quiet , then get really angry about how no one likes me because of that afterwards . I also don’t know how to act around people because  I don’t have a dad