I just can’t stand this anymore!

Had a whole weekend free with my boyfriend and we decided to stay in for Saturday night to make the most of having a free house (my flatmate is on holiday). I spent the whole time worrying about whether or not he was having a good time. 

We decided to make cocktails and play a game but we were just sat there and I felt so much pressure to be more fun. I felt he’d have so much more fun with other mates. He then suggested a walk which was nice but then we came back and I felt I was being so boring. He grabbed the duvet and we put on a film and I got upset because I felt like I was being so boring. 

He reassured me so much and told me he was having a lovely evening and I had nothing to worry about. But MY GOD it’s exhausting. From the minute we made cocktails I felt so much pressure and I couldn’t just relax. I just felt like I had to be more fun. 

Does anyone else struggle with being in the moment because I’m honestly so upset and tired of overthinking