People keep telling that self love is the key of happiness, but, how can i love myself if i have no reason to do so? I just don't want to be myself anymore and I wish I was someone else, I hate looking at myself at a mirror.

I'm hideous: My face is bad and my body is an insult to human beauty, no matter how much i exercize, no matter how many cosmetics I put into my skin, no matter how well i dress, I just don't like how I look.

I'm not likeable at all: While I do not consider myself a bad person, my flaws are stronger than my values. I tried so hard to improve as a person, but my flaws won't go, is like the more i try, the worse they get.

I have no talent: Nothing is good enough, I just can't be at the height of my favourite creators, and if i ever had a talent, I'm quickly outclassed. Like, my classmates seem to do better things than me, even if i put the same effort. like, what's the point on trying with a flaming passion if I do not outstand nor get recognized.

I'm not interesting: Nor is my life. Most of my friends and  acquaintances  seem to be realized, either they are into cool stuff (freelancers, sports scholarships in other countries, becoming streamers, becoming top players, etc), have outstanding grades or traveled to other countries, even doing things alone. But...what about me? My life is lame, I'm just a loser who still lives with his parents, never traveled away from the country and is not into something cool. I'm not a freelancer, neither a pro player nor a streamer or stuff. Heck! Even my father has a more interesting life: By my age he was already engaging with gals and nowadays he has a long running and successful biz which even got interviewed by local youtubers.

I just wish I was someone else: Like that fella who streams and has a good job even working in other companies' projects, someone who lives every geek's wet dream (pro streamer with a solid life and a gorgeous geeky GF), or one of those freelancers, anything but myself. 

I just...have no reason for being proud of myself, my only achievements are some languages certifications and being one of the few members of my family in having a full education.