In the past there have been times where I've been extremely suspicious about other people, had feelings that something bad or sad was going on, felt a shift in someone's energy etc. I know that - under stress - people with BPD can experience paranoid ideation (and I definietely have), and I also know that there have been instances where my perception of other people's feeling tend to be skewed towards the negative. 

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Like sometimes when someone's tired, I think they're mad at me when they're really not or I might interpret mild annoyance at me coming from someone as if they've suddenly started to hate me. 

However a substantial amount of the times when I've had this feelings of "this bad thing that I won't be able to handle is happening", it turns out that I'm right! And I always wanted it to be that my mind is playing up scenarios that aren't real but whenever I feel something, it's almost always happening!! 

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Sorry for disorganized writing, I can't express myself very well today.