We've been together for about 8 months and he's fully aware that I'm crazy as I've let him know but he doesn't know how bad it gets or the ups and downs and I'm not quite sure how to tell him. I don't want him to Google it because I don't match everything it says about bpd but most of it I do. I'm scared and I don't want to lose him, last night i did open up and tell him a little bit, it was our first fight and the first time in my life i really communicated with a boyfriend that way.