hello! thought id say something here since i feel like a lot of people that i talk to dont quite understand me, so i was thinking that maybe id talk to some ppl who may be able to understand me. for me, there are so, so many things that anxiety has been messing with in my life as of right now. but i kind of just want to talk about one of the main things that anxiety's messing with right now. i cant tell as to whether or not im making the right move for a lot of things. for example, with art, i cant tell if it's alright for me to be complacent with not drawing as good as i feel i should. i see so many other ppl draw in a way that's quite cool, so i wish to do the same myself. but then i get to a point where i just think, "ill pass" or whatever. but the ppl that ive been talking to make it seem like im "being lazy" or "not appreciating those put in effort." but every time i try to, i just want to puke after a while. it just feels like im forcing myself too much. honestly, it kind of feels this way in general with life. whenever i try to push myself to do a bunch of things thatll help me get better, i just feel like my anxiety gets worse. but i when i try to ignore it and just relax, itll only be so long before it comes back. i just dont know what's what anymore