Was prescribed Xanax (0.25mg, so the lowest dosage) after being diagnosed with GAD but I only took it for a couple of days before stopping since I read up on how addictive it could be and I didn't want to rely on medications to manage my anxiety. And then a year or so went by and I pretty much forgot about it. 

Yesterday though I was feeling a little bit worst than usual, persistent headache from the moment I woke up, bad work stress, and accidentally had a double shot of espresso (didn't know it was a double shot when I had it). What followed was random goosebumps for a couple of hours and an upset stomach. And then late at night, I kept chattering my teeth like a tic, like I knew I was doing it on purpose but I couldn't stop. I realised I have a couple of tics when I feel particularly worse. 

So I took a Xanax and went to bed. Today when I woke up, everything went like my usual days would go but I realised I was okay?

My phone notifications weren't making my heart race (usually if I was waking up or trying to sleep and my phone kept buzzing, I would feel anxious and had to silent my phone completely), family members pottering about at home making noise as usual didn't make me anxious and have that awful feeling in my chest, etc.

Basically I experienced all the usual things I'd experience but instead of a 10 on the scale, it was more like a 2, like I know things like this and I know my usual feelings, and I was a bit startled to realise I wasn't feeling like how I usually would. Like, why isn't my chest and gut feeling those usual awful feelings? 

I'm wondering if this is what people with no anxiety feels like? Is that why some people couldn't understand how people with anxiety feels the way they do? The difference is so startling because yesterday night I was feeling so awful and today I woke up feeling... normal.

I do still know how bad xanax can get so I don't plan on relying on it but this is kinda just a revelation to me I guess. 

P.s. The difference when I took it the first time around wasn't really very clear to me cause my head space was too messed up but my SO did tell me there was a very obvious difference to the way I acted when I asked as I wasn't sure if the meds had much effects.