I’m crying cause I love him so much, so much I don’t want to be away from him. I’ve let myself let him be the centre of my world and I’m so terrified. 

I can’t have him when he’s at work, and I’m okay with that but apparently my emotions just won’t let me be okay. I just want him holding me, feeling safe and warm. But I’m at work, he’s at work, and I just want to cuddle him. 

It’s fine, I know it is, but we’ve sent less than 5 texts a day the past few days. (I know he’s busy, I know he’s at work, I see his location). After work we share about our day, and we are so happy to see each other - it’s like we were never apart. So I know things are fine, but here I am upset because I don’t have him with me rn.

I know this isn’t logical, I know my brain is being an asshole, but here I am.