My SO and I have been together for about six months or so. Since we met I basically lived here. He didn't seem to care. He loved that I loved spending time with him. The past months have been a fever dream. I lost my job and car. I am absolutely in love with my SO and I'm so glad he has been so kind to me. 
    Lately we have been fighting a lot and I will admit it's all been my fault. I've been so sensitive lately and have been overthinking everything. Today he kicked me out. We talked for about two hours but the first hour was mostly me trying not to hyperventilate. But we made sense of the change he wants and I respect it. 
    We will still be together. He'll still kiss me and I can even sleep over every so often. But we both need the space. We can't be spending this excessive amount of time together. This relationship is wonderful but so toxic. So toxic. So I am packing my things up tonight and leaving. I can't even get started since I keep crying. I know that this is a good change and he still loves me. And things will be better. We both know it. It'll be so much less stressful. But I feel awful for allowing it to get this far. 
    I feel like I have hindered him so much. I feel that everyone else saw it but me. I just wish I could undo the damage. I know I should focus on the upcoming adventures between us but I am just so disgusted by myself.