I'm so torn between opening up to my friends (who seem to lack interest in me anyway) and keeping things mysterious...they all seem so okay with not having me around and talking to me, and I'm just getting so frustrated, and the more time I spend alone the more obsessed I get with the fact they don't need me. 

Little things are setting me off, like I saw that my crush is snapchat best friends with my ex best friend (we are no longer best friend cause she slept with my crush) and it's soul crushing cause my crush and I used to be such close friends and I'm feeling so replaced...with my old best friend of 19 friggen years...I feel so broken ugh I'm losing everyone around me!!!