I mostly start to fantasize when he is treating me bad, has rejected me, doesn’t seem to care, or doesn’t take my feelings into consideration. It makes my heart sink but I also love the feeling of feeling unworthy and undeserving of love. I imagine him not loving me and choosing to be with someone else. I tell myself that I’m not good enough and I find myself doing this the most when I feel he’s going to abandon me. I always tell myself that I know I’m right.