It's scaring me so much but I don't know how to tell him without being hospitalised. Like I'm not a danger to myself (well not right now) or others I'm just terrified of where this is going, in arguing with everyone and crying like I'm grieving. It's been almost a week of this mixed episode and I've barely started meds. Like how do I tell him without him doing that? 

I can't get hospitalised, I'm not in my home country and my family would be extremely worried especially since they wouldn't be able to visit me. Wtf do I do??? Maybe worth noting that my psych doesn't prescribe benzos