There's this guy and he seems to put me on the back burner alot. He's not like most guys. He's very cold and often selfish but for me he's opened up and shared. It's just sometimes he'll give me the silent treatment, say something and walk away and leave, or like for example when I told him I cut he said it was stupid, retarded, and he was washing my hands of me and he can't handle that, etc...  


Now. Tonight. He wanted to hang out. So I thought. But then he fell asleep. I stayed up on my computer and he woke up after a few hours angry at me. But he was the one ignoring me and falling asleep...then I tied to lay with him and touch him but he just kept pushing me away and not giving anything in return. Now he's sleeping in my bed and I'm in the living room thinking that I am unloved, unworthy, and sad. Would anyone feel like this? Or is it BPD that makes me take rejection and fear of abandonment to the extreme? Cuz I think he'll probably yell and storm off in the morning and then ignore me until he needs something. But I want to believe that's not true.