I’m 22 and currently in university trying to get my degree to be a teacher. I am so far behind in my program that I will likely graduate when I’m 24. The fall semester has just started and I am so depressed. Time keeps passing and I am so deeply uninterested in everything around me. I’ve already missed two weeks of classes because I can’t make myself go. I hate myself and I know I could be doing better then this right now. But, fuck, I can’t seem to try or do anything. I was thinking maybe dropping one or two classes might help me feel less overwhelmed. I know if I told that to anyone around me they’d say “no, don’t, you can do it, just try, etc” but I genuinely don’t think I can do this. 

I know if I drop any courses I will graduate later then I think. At this point, graduating seems so far away and I wish I could just be done and not have to do this anymore. All my friends graduated last semester and I’m all alone on campus, and I’m the oldest one in a lot of my courses. I just feel so soporific all the time and it is so difficult to get up and do anything. I am exhausted.

I don’t really know if this post makes sense, but I’m looking for advice on how to push through university with chronic depression. Anything helps and I would really like to hear some positive thoughts as well.