I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2012 and ofcourse my first manic episode was quite a journey. Rapid speech, mood swings, extreme anger, delusions of grandeur, becoming overly religions, racing thoughts, literally little to no sleep, feeling like I was being followed and all my devices were bugged and someone was listening in, paranoia etc etc 

I then had my second manic episode in 2021 and I feel like I didn’t really pick up on the signs that I was going manic and the episode was quite different. It wasn’t anywhere nearly as intense as the first one and I ended up trying to go to a pshyc ward but they didn’t admit me and luckily my local GP was heavily involved and put me on a anti pshycotic and i stabilised. One of the strange things I would do was every night I would just grab a bunch of household items and I would drench everything into a bath 🙈 but again I got religious, thought someone was trying to find me and had some of the symptoms from the first episode but not all and less intense.

Lately I’ve been feeling manic and I can tell it’s happening. The best way to describe it if you’ve ever used DJing software on one line you will add in drums, and say the next line another instrument. I feel like have one line playing a song and then another line is my normal thoughts and then there is racing thoughts happening on line 3 and 4 and sometimes 5. I’ve been feeling very angry and irritable at times how I have felt in the previous two episodes, sleeping pattern is definitely disturbed compared to normal and sometime I feel extremely tired and other times I have lots of energy. I almost went for a run yesterday which I haven’t don’t since 2018. 

If someone who’s has a few manic episodes can get back to me, so the episodes vary from one another? Is it always necessary to be admitted to a pshyc ward like with my first episode or do you have milder episodes that don’t require you to be admitted? What do you do personally when you are in control still and can feel you are starting to go manic? Is there a way to reverse this and if so how do you go about it? What works best for you?