I finally got my license. I genuinelly thought it would never happen. My brain has kind of just accepted I would never get it. But it happened. 

It took four tries - and the craziest thing was that I was terrified of driving, but terrified of the driving instructors thinking badly of me. 

But I got my license and I never have to feel that anxious ever again. Never have to take a driving test again. Im in shock. AHHHHHHHH. Thanks zoloft.