Serious question. I just keep struggling and it feels like it just keeps getting worse. I have people that care about me, but keep pushing them away and feel like a piece of shit. When I try to reach out it feels like I can't form the right words and end up not making any sense. So, in short, I feel like I lost my will to live. No matter what I try to do or try to think differently, it just doesn't work. I feel like I can't do anything by myself anymore and need help with everything, like I'm mentally crippled. But I can't possibly rely on people who have their own lifes to live and things to deal with. So what am I supposed to do when I don't even have the energy to do anything? I even lost the strength to fight against my bad thoughts which was pretty much the last thing that I tried to do, but I'm just tired. I don't feel like I can tell anyone either because I'll hurt them badly by saying that I don't want to live anymore because I'm too tired to keep fighting. What do I do?