Some background: my husband and I separated about a month ago from some complicated relationship dynamics. We were new to poly/non monogamy and he asked me to cut my other partners out and I couldn't. We have two daughters (2.5 &amp; 15mos) I've been working open to close at work and then home with my daughter's alone the rest of the time.

At first I was doing okay. As okay as you can be, trying to process the intense emotions and work through things with him. I started having an episode and just going through the motions and feeling completely empty but I don't want to drag anyone into it. Also, I know that feeling better won't last if I'm just talking to them because they have other things to do and sometimes they are triggering. 

I used to run, do yoga, listen to music, etc to help with the empty episodes but I haven't had time being by myself with my daughter's. Last night, I spent 15 minutes doing my nails and then watched TV but I felt worse after TV. 

Do you guys have any advice for getting through this? I've set plans to working through things with my husband but right now I have no energy or follow through because I'm just chronically in the deadzone. If it doesn't keep me from losing my job or isn't necessary to keep my girls healthy, I've got no energy for it.