*  Hobbies feel like chores.
* Everything feels like work.
* The world is actively ending.
* Everything is getting worse.
* Death is inevitable and there's nothing after it.
* Health deteriorates.
* I am unable to learn or internalise new skills.
* Everything is temporary.
* Greed rules the world.
* Meds and therapy don't work.
* Self help advice doesn't work.
* Following advice leads to failure 100% of the time.
* Everyone only offers vague niceties or hollow platitudes from a place of baseless assumptions.

What can I actually do when I am forced by circumstances beyond my control to sink nine times the effort into everything I attempt for less than half the results, and then fail anyway.

What can I do when meds and therapy don't work, my depression is 'treatment-resistant', my fear of dying is paralysing and all-encompassing, and existence has literally no meaning at all.

What can I do when I can't even create my own meaning because I am bad at literally everything I attempt, and I really do mean literally everything I attempt even after thousands of hours.

What can I do when I can't even learn or internalise new skills in order to improve at anything I attempt, therefore forcing me to engage with every single hobby perpetually at the level of a rank amateur.

What do I do when life isn't for me?