I rarely write, i rarely talk. But because i know what struggle you people go through everyday , i know the pain , the agony, emptiness,   the feeling that you have lost everything and everyone and that you cannot control yourself, your thinking, your actions, the actions of other people , your feelings . Life has no meaning to you , living has no joy to you , people just hurt you and everything you see is a lie. As much pain as you can endure is the answer to you , as much misery so you know there can be more. Putting it simple : Playing life on Hard Mode. Trying to figure out yourself is impossible, to figure out the reason to exist is impossible. Not just for us , but for anyone. So long the churches the spiritual world, so long the ideologies so long everything in the history of humanity that doesn't involve a certain individual. You are not alone in the world, no one is , having BPD , being sick, having one leg or none. We are all the same, enjoying the ride of life and is your obligation to do for yourself what you want in your life. NOTHING can stop you, think outside of your body, outside of your mind be the part of this big thing that is life. Be calm , Be patient , work on yourself , improve yourself everyday, be kind to everyone around you and you will see the BPD will easily scale down, this demon that is eating you up will easily run away from you because the negativity is going to be replaced with positive thoughts and energy. Will and positive thinking is the key to everything in life. No one know what the fuck is going on, life is a clusterfuck after clusterfuck. Your thoughts are your life. Just control them, manipulate them, take your mind to whatever place you feel is peace. Use that place to feel , to be alive, use it to do whatever you want. You want more pain, go there , you want more joy, go there. There is no better place in the world then human mind. Control , be strong , be independent , if you cannot do it instantly don't worry, visualise , visualise a lot. Until you have the courage to try that. Yes you may fail , it may be worst but that is just the begging. And every start is hard , be persistent , trust. You help yourself if you are not helping others. Help others , be kind , be smiled even if it's hard try, people will notice, be positive , just try , try your best. Enjoy the ride, don't worry. If it's bad it's not the end , in the end everything is alright. Love you all,stay positive , believe in yourself, do for you what would you like others to do to you and you will feel a lot better. Treat others like you want them to threat you. Be strong , use that rage and pain and direct it to love ( your family, friends, SO). HELPING IS CURING. Helping others cures you. Remember you cannot be right or wrong, don't worry there are no rights or wrongs in life, everything depends on the way you look at it, the persective. Im not trying to shift your mind, I'm not trying to tell you it's all in your head, I'm just trying to be that person that is going to tell you that living is caring, for yourself and others. Everyone has it's problems, everyone , just be there for yours fight them , you don't need anyone in life as long as you love life. Make yourself to like it! Fulfil just a bit of your dreams, dreams don't have expiry date, dare to dream positive, dare to visualise success, just dare, everything you can dare is there for you , YES it's hard , but do it try. Die trying if you have to because you will know that you have tried to do something good for you, something You wanted. Stay positive, and everytime you are having a bad moment , just think about something you like. It's not a cure, it's just life, you cannot cure it , you cannot kill it ,you cannot finish it, you can just exit the game. But before you exit try to help others a bit. People don't live for themselves, they live for others. Enjoy this ride, and just live. Stay positive and love you all , be healthy, be successful , love yourself and others. Stay strong and do not exit just yet, explore a little bit, there is something for everyone in this life. Bad things come good things go, and other way, yin and yang , good and evil. Splitting, black and white thinking , use that in your advantage, go full white , go yin , GO just GO, WHENEVER YOU WANT. WORK AND LOVE. STAY STRONG AND BE STRONG FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS. Everyone has it's problems you are not alone. REMEMBER! 