Throwaway for obvious reasons. 

I tend to be okay with my friends and relationships for a year before I start getting aggravated over things. My bf and I have been together for about a year. I put him on a pedestal when we were first dating. He felt like my savior since he pulled me out of a year full of psych ward visits and addiction. 

He told me right away that he had a permiscious past(slept with over 25 girls). It never bothered me... Until this week. Now I'm obsessed and can't stop thinking about it. I'm depressed and my moods are starting to swing on a more consistent basis. I don't want him to touch me and I feel completely withdrawn. edit: I'm also getting urges to go sleep with a bunch of people. As in break up so I can go fuck a bunch. This isn't right but the urges are starting to yell at me 

This is so unfair to him. I understand that I don't truly feel this way (or do I?). I wish I could go back to when I didn't care and just accepted him for who he is. He's a wonderful guy and he's absolutely a dream. I go back and forth between thinking he's the greatest thing to not wanting any physical contact. I'm out of counseling right now but seeking out help asap. 

I don't want to feel this way. It's also unfair to him. 

Does anyone have advice on how to navigate these intrusive and unwanted feelings/thoughts?

Thanks. 