I just feel like there is no way anyone will ever love me again. I'm too broken now, too far gone. Too fucked up. However you put it nothing changes. How can someone love me? I dissociate so hard that I don't know where I am and I get so confused an anxious while that happens that I just give in to it. I feel so empty constantly that I just feel like I dont have a heart because it feels like there is a gaping hole where my heart should be. How can I love without a heart? Then there is the voices. When they come they are louder than my own thoughts. That is sure to scare off anyone who is remaining. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just need to get it out. I feel so useless, so broken and I feel like a complete joke. I can't do anything right. I give up trying. I want to give up caring but I can't.