So I came accross a forum on reddit that is basically people posting about their partners with bpd. And so many hurtfull things are being said. That they should just leave and break up with their partner asap, just because they have bpd. I feel so worthless. I am in a loving relationship but reading all the things they write makes me feel not worthy of a relationship or even life. 

I know in my past I have hurt a lot of people since I did not get help nor was diagnosed. I know that most of the stuff they write couldve been me a couple of years ago. I think that is why i take it so personally. Like, I feel like im having a break down. I just want to disappear. Everytime I hear about bpd besides reddit is when theres a serial killer or a psycho person on the screen. It actually makes me depressed.

I also advice people strongly to not look for the forum, it is so bad for your mental health.