i haven't been talking to my friends lately but i've started to make a few attempts but all the conversations are short and i feel like such a bad friend and like none of my friends want to talk to me. every time i try to talk to new people i get so anxious about how i'm coming across that i ghost them very early on. it feels like the only person i have is my girlfriend but that's so unhealthy i don't want to put the pressure of being all i have on her it'll make me feel so awful and manipulative and ahhh i just don't know what to do i feel so alone