(sorry if my english is bad. English is not my first language)

Right in the moment I have very negative feelings and suicide thoughts. I want to distract myself from them but I don't know how. I would have taken drugs a year ago, but I'm clean now and don't want to start again.

My friends are meeting tonight, but for various reasons I don't want to go there and I don't want to tell them how I feel because I don't want to depend on them.

I'd love to just go out and meet new people, but I'm too scared and I don't know how to do that.

So if any of you have a tip on how to distract me, I would love to hear that!!!