Long time reader, first time poster. 

Hi. I have major healthy anxiety. Heart palps, nausea constantly, emetophobic, whole nine yards. In therapy for years. No meds because I can’t swallow pills for fear of choking (that’s a fun one…) How my husband loves me is beyond me. 

Little one (14mo) was exposed earlier in the week and tested positive this morning. Beyond a fever, she’s acting totally fine. You would never think she had something. I naturally freaked out. I dropped two tests trying to test my husband and I from shaking so bad once I saw my little one’s positive test. We turned out to be negative. How long will this last- I’m not sure. Could we be lucky- sure. Is that realistic? Doubtful.

I’m vaxxed but not boosted. We’ve been in masks all day while letting her take charge of the house trying to sanitize wherever she goes. It’s inevitable it’s going to get us. My brain goes instantly to death. This is how I go. 

The thought of not being able to breathe is terrifying. I can’t stop it and I’m distancing myself from my family which makes me feel like a shit human. My little just wants momma hugs and I’m letting dad do everything. 

I don’t even know what advice I’m looking for at this point. Tell me things will be ok even though we probably will be a covid household soon.