Just venting I guess. I'm so broken hearted. Not even two months of marriage and he's said he hates me three times now. Each time I've broken down and told him how devastating to me that is, each time he swears he won't say it again.  

I'm not really sure where to go from here. He obviously means it. We're stuck in this horrible, evil cycle where things are only getting worse. True happiness feels so unobtainable and I'm so tired of feeling like I deserve this. 

I feel like such a pathetic person writing this all out. I'm so tired of being dictated by my emotions. I hope everyone else is having a better day.