32M, I don’t know where to start but over the last year I’ve had like 5 or more jobs and quit for multiple different reasons but at the core it’s always anxiety and depression. I just started mertazapine about a week or two ago to help with sleep, anxiety and depression but I’m still having dreams of self harm and waking up with incredible urges to do that again. 

 Today I just woke up and I almost ran away from everything and ended up quitting.

  I really don’t know what to do…I’m trying to change the way I think and I know it takes time but I’m running out of time…