Recently life has been REALLY shitty for me.
I mess up more often than I usually do, which sucks.
I have this problem; I am desperate for validation from others, more specifically, my classmates.
I care a lot what others think about me, and that sucks since the tinniest tease or insult from my friends can ruin my entire day.
I wish I was different, I wish people didn't see me as a sorta easy target to insult, and worst of all, I'm jelous on the person that insults me the most, everyone just likes him for some reason, he is more smart, gets along with more people, but he is also kinda similar to me, we both have a similar sense of humor and we're both kinda introverted and quiet (he might be even more than I am)
I wouldn't call him a bully since we get along really well sometimes, but it's just certain moments where I hate the world because of him.

I'm really lost and confused and I wish people would just give me more positive attention, ik that sounds really egotistical but that's really what I want.

I don't wanna waste my teen years being depressed and sad all the time, so I really wanna get this fixed.
Any advice is appreciated.