35 m. Various bouts since 16 lasting anywhere from weeks to months. Latest episode started 2017/18, started meds 2019. This was the longest and most severe one I experienced by far.

Started thinking recently, darkest thoughts almost totally gone, not as pessimistic or moody. No intrusive thoughts either.

I don’t feel like I did before 2017 - I still have marked anhedonia now, but it doesn’t seem to bother me as much as it did.

This should technically be a cause to celebrate - but then I realised, am I out of the ‘low’ episode, or have I just accustomed to this as my new baseline as it were?

Anybody else had this too?