I've only known this person for 3 months but I felt instantly connected to them (to be fair, we were both lovebombing at the beginning lol great start to any relationship). They say they aren't capable of giving me a romantic relationship which I was mostly fine with because I'm still recovering from a breakup and distance is a huge factor, I told them I'm just happy to have them in my life and we referred to eachother as eachother's "person' and left it at that.

I dont normally trust easy, but they are so bluntly honest with me I don't think they would or could ever lie to me. They cycle through friends a lot it seems and I've seen that they often delete entire friendslists of people leaving just me on multiple platforms. They've told me multiple times that I'm their only friend and I believe them considering we talk on the phone for the majority of the day when I am not at work and do everything together.

So I'm not sure why this is bothering me so much. While on the phone I heard them call me by a name that is a little similar to mine but definitely wasn't my name so I immediately questioned (thinking they stumbled on speech or something). They told me it was a friend they had before me. I immediately felt ill. My FP has told me about a lot of people they used to communicate with but never this person. So I can't help but assume this person was what I am now to my FP. I wont ask because I dont want to know. I went to bed a few minutes after (they could tell I was really bothered by it). I tried to explain why it upset me but I dont know. I said it's because I struggle with sense of self which is probably partially correct.

It's morning now and Im still sick over it. I don't see them in the same light. I always send good morning messages but I don't want to today. I have nothing to say.