I am a loner I would say, I have a very very good girl friend and my boyfriend, no one else except my own family, like my mom and siblings. I'm tbh not unhappy with that situation but if someone would afford to give me another good girl friend or a girl friendgroup I wouldn't say no.

But now my problem: I just can't when my bf has other friends, it makes me sick to my stomach, my heart sinks when I only think about it. I wish I could work on that, I wish I could fix my splitting when he is with his BOY friends, I know he is loyal, I know he doesn't surround himself with other women.

But I still can't let him have fun. I want him to be with me every hour of the day, I try to better myself I really do but I still feel so misunderstood, not only from him with this topic but also when I tell my mom/sister about it. They always say I cant own people and that they have their own needs. I know that and I always make myself aware of that and remembering myself... 

but I still feel like their acts with different people are translated to "I don't wanna be with YOU rn because they are better for me atm, I will come back to you when they aren't as interested anymore." As I said, I do remind myself, that that's not the case.

And I'm very afraid of splitting because of that reason, seeing MY people with different people than me always shocks me, brings out anger and frustration and especially A LOT of sadness. I'm tired of it tbh, I can't even handle it myself anymore because after all the splitting, after all the moments I always drain/scare the people I love the most.

Can you relate? How do you act? Have you dealt with it and what helped you? I'm at the edges atm, if you readed it thank you and if you answer something I'm glad and thank you!!