I’m kinda reaching a new level for myself in the nightmare that is being conscious. I’ve pretty much stopped drinking because every time I do I get violently suicidal. Maybe it has to do with my meds but oh well. They’ve got me on Wellbutrin. On the surface every one says I’m doing remarkably better than ever. I don’t know. I have nothing to complain about, I’m just angry. I just feel anger towards everything. I have nothing in my life anymore. This week I got hit with so much unnecessary stupidity from multiple Ex’s contacting to my boss trying to fuck with my leave when I haven’t been home in 2 years. I only got drunk once. Drinking doesn’t add the filter like it used to so I don’t have a release anymore.