I love my mom. Shes the best that i could ever ask for and I admire her a lot. But heres the thing: she have anxiety, a strong and explosive personality and a victim complex. Her anxiety is getting worse everytime, while anxious she gets more explosive and more picky about everything and that leds to a "after argument/fight/screaming" moment where she acts like the victim. I love my mom but it is getting nasty. Im very conscious about her mental conditions but what its too much its too much. I dont have any mental issue, Im a very calm person, the totally opposite of her and that leads her to criticize every aspect of everything that I do and am getting sick. Why cant I be like all the family that just ignores her? Why I love her so much even when she is making me sick, anxious and someone who doubs about self-worth? I confront her with that and she just explode, shaming me  for not doing things her way and putting the fault of her being like this on her childhood. She is a sick person, toxic as hell. But still... I find moments where she is nice and kind and the best mom ever. Im tired guys. I lost all interest in doing things for anyone because I cant help but feel like I will get ashamed again and again by her. Her words in this argument finally get to me, harder and deeper than I expected. This is just a stupid vent I guess, I just dont wanna talk about this with the family because they will be like "She is always like this, ignore". thanks to who read this all.