 DISCLAIMER! I'm not trying to diagnose myself in anyway ! Also a trigger warning ⚠️ 

Basically I have been through a lot of trauma and the only professional "help" I've gotten was a family friend who is a therapist / pyshcolagist  ish because my family couldn't afford it she agreed to come to my home to talk to me and help me. This was because when I was with my grandmother in another country for like a year i can't remember why she had a exorcism done on me because of my illness and then I went back home and my parents who are also abusive noticed my mental unwellness and got this family friend to come see me. Now fast forward this therapist was in my life for years she had "diagnosed " me with Schizophrenia, depression, anxiety, social anxiety and also said I'm most likely said I'm suffering from slight autism?(whatever that means idfk) even gave me anti psychotics and stuff She turned out years later to be talking sh!t about me to my mother the whole time and eventually stopped helping me and my mother said I was lying about everything for attention. Now about 2 years later out of school and stuff I'm struggling very much mentally and just crave validation on what's going on in my head so bad I cannot afford help atm and I do plan on getting it but I just wanted to basically ask what people think I could possibly have symptoms of or what they think could really be going on?
If that makes sense? 

Basically heres some of my mental problems 
- extremely easy agitation 
- depression 
- nervousness , panic attacks hyperventilation fear and like flash backs sometimes.
- auditory hallucinations 
- hallucinations  
- one moment I could be so happy and in love with my boyfriend and next I could break up with him on the spot like it doesn't matter at all ( but I'm self aware and don't because I know that's not what I really want) 
- very manic I could be happy for a week and very depressed the next ( time is random could be days, months doesn't matter) 
-very emotional but extremely insensitive and I cannot read a room for the love of God
- over stimulation with textures..etc sounds 
- random tics kinda but not very often where I just do things like flip my cup upside down ( I did that the other day it felt like a bad itch then I just did that and I don't even know why) 
- I also freeze sometimes and I can't move or speak 
- and sometimes I really try to talk and I just can't 
- also the very uncontrollable desire to sh
 There's more but that's all I think is worthwhile? And sorry again for the length or if it was triggering or insensitive ahhhh :( 
Anything will help rlly just trying to get an idea before I get help so I'm not a spratic mess of not knowing and being shy and confused myself 

Again so sorry :(((