 

Backstory: (kinda, i cant remember anything really)

So I *had* (**:(**) a friend that also went to my school and understood me really, REALLY well. I think I fucked up somewhere across the line, but I honestly cant find what would have broken the entire relationship. I did try to reach out and tell him how I was feeling, but I'm sure that I overwhelmed him with all of this. I was trying to get the relationship back together, which was really, REALLY hard because he left the school. (probably to distance himself from me) Despite, I tried to keep in contact with him and offer to play with him but he didn't respond. I woke up this morning to find that he had blocked me.

He was literally one of the only things keeping me together inside and when I found this out, I just burst into tears. I didn't know how to form what I was telling him without overwhelming him as I'm also struggling with ASD. He had been really, really tolerant of me and my ADHD too. I just can't find what to do anymore. I'm an introvert and he was a extrovert that adopted and brought me into his friend group, and I, having some really toxic relationships with a bunch of people that still taunt me to this day, and being an introvert, can't bring myself to introduce myself and try to make new friends.

I'm broken. How do I recover from this and if possible, how do I mend the relationship I have with him? Brodie, if you are reading this, I'm sorry. I'm really fucking sorry. I didn't mean to do it.