Hi everyone, I'm not all too regular in posting here but I have made some posts in the past and got some good advice. I've been pretty well and I'd say even asymptomatic for a few months, but now I feel like the symptoms are starting to come back again and tomorrow I'll get an appointment with my psychiatrist.

To my main point of the post though; I feel like I'm having a really hard time making my friends and family relate with me, I try telling them about the symptoms I'm starting to experience again and they are almost dismissing me by saying I should just keep taking my meds and go see a doctor, which I mean obviously is good advice on an objective level, however I'm kinda messing the empathic relatable part in it. I know that my friends don't really know what it's like having uncontrollable hallucinations, and they might even think I'm exaggerating or maybe even faking it, which is giving me kind of a tough time too. I feel like I currently have no one to really "go to" to talk about my problems with because I feel like I'm overwhelming them with this mental illness. I totally understand if they try to avoid the topic because it's hard for them to deal with, but I can't avoid it because I feel like I'm walking into a fog and start losing control again like I did a few years back. 

It feels as though when my friends say that I should get help or seek other groups who might understand me better that what they're saying is "Go find some other friends" and that hurts my feelings. I might interpret a bit more into it than what they intend to tell me but I'm just stating the fact of how I feel right now.

Also if anyone has any advice on my onsetting symptoms I'd be very grateful because right now I try to avoid those feelings and I know it won't be a long lasting success. I can't tell whether it's gonna get worse or better in a few weeks, but I am taking my meds and I am seeing a doctor about it, so the advice I'm looking for might be based more on other people's experiences.

Thank you