So I’ve had mild symptoms of BPD my whole life. Splitting, fear of abandonment, all of them lol. But they would happen occasionally. 

Then my ex came along and wow, he really knew how to turn on the disorder. I felt like I was BPD throughout our whole relationship. I was emotionally drained everyday and bc of it I was also physically drained. 

Here I am after breaking up with him and I’m back to my mild symptoms. When I do feel any negative emotion, it still goes hard, but I am in situations where I can’t just act out like how I did when I was with my ex. I’m learning self-control because of it and I think that’s good.

I am talking to this guy (fast I know but whatever, my relationship was long dead before it ended) and I really don’t think I’m going to tell him about it. I don’t want to scare him away. He’s actually motivating me to become better.

Ok, this was everywhere.

I just hope this is something to be excited about bc I thought I was going to be a monster for the rest of my life.