I have severely bad panic disorder surrounding medical situations since I was a child, but it was really escalated about 7 years ago when I got pregnant and had a miscarriage and my treatment in the ER. I have not been able to go back to the doctor, even though I know I need to.

I want to work toward being healthy again and get past this mental barrier. As strange as it is, my brain has fixated on my blood pressure as a huge thing of concern. 

There is a history of high blood pressure in my family and I am just terrified for them to take it and tell me it’s high (and then have to be on meds). No idea why.

Has anyone else dealt with this? I feel so defeated.