[TW]
I have experienced emotional and physical abuse at the hand of family and friends. It’s always happened they never seem to remember or realize it..
I been groomed, humiliated, mocked openly, ect. Yet no one seems to understand why I am so depressed, sad, hopeless, suicidal..
I know from past experiences that there are ways I can change my mood but it’s physically impossible for me alone. I been broke down, confidence killed, self esteem destroyed.. tried paying to have people stay instead of getting ghosted or blocked within a few week-month but it still happens even after sending money..
I feels theirs no hope. I attempted not alive 5 times in my life. It seems im so useless I can’t even kill myself right.
Im at the stage of completely giving up and not trying to physically function in anyways what do everr…
Here’s two these pills…. Let’s just up it’s enough.