I feel stupid, I feel shame, I feel pain and exhaustion, or sometimes I can say that nothing at all. Empty, I think that’s. More suitable word. 
In the last year a half, I’ve gone through a weird/bad breakup, sent my stuff to my country, 2 days later I was in my home country to send my stuff back to Sweden, started a new relationship with a wonderful man who also was kinda of a friend, changed 4 jobs, moved together, besides my cat from previous relationship we have a dog that I wanna give to adoption(long exhausting process with doggo), bough our own place,had fun, now we are working together and every single day, feels like the world is pissed at me. I know I know, I was suppose to learn something. Let’s face it Karen, when you’re tired AF, always on the run and the only moment when you can be alone and breath, is when you’re on the toilet, it’s not fun
I’m tired, I feel like crazy and I don’t now how to stop it. 
The career part, working with my bf .. I’m making the stupidest mistakes and I now that I can do Better, however, with all the sh*t going around in my life, I can’t breathe. My bf is not rushing me or anything, neither the less, he’s trying to help me, cause I’ve told him about my potential bpd( on my 2nd session I’ve been told that I have it and the symptoms) 
And with the jobs, 🤮 bad bad experiences and my paranoia went up with a side dish of working from home and get depression. 
Yeah, pretty much all. 
Thanks for reading.