recently started abilify and to my surprise it’s actually working well. i have had no big blowups/breakdowns since i started it. overall i’m just more balanced in a way i’ve never thought i could be (and without therapy!)

but still i want to quit my meds. i think it’s self sabotage but don’t understand why i want to when this is all i’ve ever wanted. 

anyone else get the urges to self sabotage/ have insight on why? i really am kind of confused and hurting over wanting to revert back to being unstable