I don’t know. I’ve just felt unsure about a lot of things lately. I have things I guess I care about, like working out. Not murdering people. But other than that I just feel like this desperation. For something. And I don’t know what. I kind of just live. Everything seems so lukewarm. Disappointing. I feel ashamed about it sometimes. I don’t talk much. Essentially mute in certain situations.  Everything goes through some rational filter and I feel like it takes all the fun out of my life. I’m one of those guys you would be like “well he seems like he would be fun at parties.” I don’t know. I can be passionate. But what that usually looks like is me letting my anger control me and me losing my shit and saying or doing something that I really should not do. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me, but this has been on my mind all today and I just wanted to vent.