So, I've always had the traits/symptoms, but I was in CBT/DBT for a few years and while they're definitely still there I have a handle on things and for the most part, I'm doing good with myself and my behavior.

One thing I've been told to find a BPD community about, to ask them how to handle this, is recklessness regarding myself.  I'm responsible when I'm caring for a person or animal, but when it comes to me I'll do really dangerous, obviously reckless things like meet up with 40-50 year old men for dates (I'm 19) without telling anyone.  It's not that I don't know what can happen, or that I specifically don't *care*, it's more like... I know what can happen, but I know if it happens it happens.  It's not the end of the world.  Even if I end up dying, I won't be there to know it. 

I don't want to be this way.  It rubs off on my brother and it's not fair to the people that love me for me to endanger myself, but I don't know how to get out of this place of not taking things seriously enough regarding my wellbeing.  I posted this issue on a Facebook group and some BPD people told me to find a BPD community because this isn't an uncommon issue.