But what blurbs out of my mouth or my fingers are:

“You don’t care”
“I am so angry with you!!”
“I don’t know how to explain”
“I REALLY DON’T LIKE YOU”
“I wish I took care of you more”
“I’m not okay to talk right now, can we talk another time?”
“🥺”
“Are you busy?”
[ Cute dog gif ] 
[ Angry baby gif ] 
“I hate you”
“I’m sorry”
“🥴😡😔😭”
“Thank you”
“How come you didn’t invite me?”

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I have issues communicating
I’m trying
I just realise underneath everything 
I actually do really love them 
I’m just over sensitive and over react and I misinterpret or assume
And then I fail in communicating 
And live with assumptions

And then I go up and down an emotional roller coaster of normal &gt; happy &gt; mad &gt; sad

I can’t rewind back time
Yet I’m losing time

I can count the people I have left in my life now with both hands 
And 
I swear I’m trying my best and learning not to overreact
I don’t want to lose who I have left 
😔