today and last night were rough and i felt so anxious that i felt like everything was spinning for a second and i was just anxious and ruminating about shit in my head all day long today.

i feel so awful. my mind is telling me i’ve done something very bad and that i’m a horrible person but i don’t know what it is or why?? and i even felt weird talking with my gf as if i did something bad or something and it sucks. i just don’t feel like myself right now and i just feel sad and scared and empty. has anxiety just drained me lol