It seems like we are never good at the same time. Which is kinda sad. I'll be doing fine for several weeks but then feel real shitty for a week or 2, I've been on sertraline a year and am a hell of a lot better than i was, i have much more energy, feel happier and generally just feel better. 

My girlfriend on the other hand. Seems to have got worse. And she seems to be struggling and unhappy more than she is happy. She gets very stressed about her job, which she used to enjoy. I don't really know why and I'm not sure she does but she's an anxious wreck. Last week things seemed to be looking up, she started going to the gym with her sister and seemed happier in herself. But today she just tells me she wants to kill herself. 

She started taking sertraline shortly after me, and felt bad on it. I told her i did too, it's pretty common, and u just have to soldier through and give it like a month or 2, and then it helped me. Well she gave it maybe 2 weeks and just stopped. She tried another one for about 3 weeks, she started coming off it a week ago, taking one every 2 days. But says today she felt shaky and just terrible. I forgot to refill my sertraline over Christmas and new year, and after about a week and a half of just stopping it, i too felt shaky and just fucking horrible, withdrawal symptoms i guess. So i think that's what she's feeling.

Over the last few years i have got pretty good at looking at myself and my life subjectively, if i feel bad, why do I feel bad? More often than not there was no specific reason, it was just my default mood i suppose. But realising it's just chemical imbalances in my brain, kinda helped a lot. Being able to take a step back in my darkest moments, and look at my life objectively, realising I'm okay, I'm physically okay, I'm in no imminent danger, these feelings are coming from my brain, not even outside stimuli a lot of the time, just originating in my brain and thoughts. 

i try and kinda remind her of this stuff, if she starts a new medication or something, it's the medication, it's just chemicals. You feel bad but you are in no danger. You just have to ride it out. I tend to feel a lot worse in the evenings too, so my general rule is, if i start feeling bed, i go to bed, listen to some white noise or minecraft/skyrim soundtrack to calm my mind and put me to sleep, because staying awake feeling bad and having spiraling negative thoughts never ends well

Anyways, i just don't know what to do. I feel so helpless. If my gf is depressed with me, does that reflect bad on me? She seems happy when she is with me. It's mainly just her work, but i don't know how the hell to help with that tbh