I'm 19 years old, living in a third world country. I worked hard to get into a med school for the past three years but I couldn't do it (depression and this pandemic fucked things up). I had started learning how to program a month ago and I love it so much. So I decided to do a CS major but now all the good colleges are way past the deadline and I feel very bad about myself. I don't wanna live in this country. Everyday, i wake up to a harsh reality of how fucked up my life is. All my highschool classmates are in top programming schools and now i have to struggle to even get into a mediocre one. I fear that I wouldn't do well in programming as well and I would not be able to migrate and then i will just end up as a dumbass having to work 9-5 in a country and a job that i would not like. I wanna die already.