my background: i’m a full time student and work full time for a charity. i’m still studying because i failed after being spiked and raped about a year ago, and it fucked with my concentration. i always feel like i’m failing. in my work, trying to get things completed, in my relationships. i’m meant to move into a new flat today but i know i’m going to fuck something up and let people down. i just want to end it all, i have done for so long, and i was wondering if escitalopram/lexapro od would work? i’m constantly filled with dread, anxiety and disappointment with myself. i hate myself and i don’t see that ever changing.