So, I am not diagnosed or anything but the main reason why I suspect that I may have BPD is relating to "favorite person" concept ig? Like I always have someone to I obsess over (generally people that are emotionally unavailable or just completely unreachable to me) and merely seeing this person becomes the only goal of my day? If they are in a good mood and we happen to have a nice interaction (or if they simply acknowledge my presence) my whole mood changes positively, suddenly my day becomes great. However if I don't get to interact with them (or they don't acknowledge my existence) or they are in a bad mood I get extremely upset. Like so upset that I start to question my self-worth (to the extent of having suicidal thoughts) and even if I actually exist? I literally become paralyzed with these thoughts and I can't pay attention to anything else. 

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Is this what having a favorite person feels like or do you think its sth else?