I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for years now.  You would think I would be use to being numb.  It is exhausting having to pretend everyday that I'm happy, and the moment I stop pretending, people tell me to stop being so sad or depressed.  The other day I went to an amusement park with a friend, and I still didn't feel anything.  Not excited, not happy, just an empty feeling.  About four hours into the day I just felt drained and couldn't even pretend to be excited/happy.

I've done therapy and seen a doctor, but nothing really helps.  I've tried finding hobbies, but nothing is interesting.  I buy things but it doesn't make me happy.  Hell, I even got a raise and I still didn't feel anything.  Overall, it's strange that feeling nothing is the more painful than pain itself.