To begin, I don't have bipolar disorder. I'm usually depressed or morose, although I perk up a bit in certain circumstances. However, for some reason, falling in love was like touching a live wire. I was energetic, happy, smiling. I felt drugged, totally detached from who I was before and afterwards. I was ecstatic, and my sister has described it as "deliriously happy, scarily unbalanced." Has anyone else experienced this? Following the relationship was the most excruciating depression I have ever felt in my life, I was attempting suicide multiple times a week and absolutely unhinged. Is this just first love, or have people had multiple experiences with the manic love and soul crushing suicidal state that follows?