I just have a really hard time believing that people care for me. I tend to isolate and push people away bc I feel a responsibility to save people the trouble of getting close to me. Even when somebody is standing in front of me telling me they love me, I just don’t buy it. There’s constantly a voice in the back of my mind saying “what a fucking liar. Nobody could ever love you, and you know it” I just know that I’m going to mess things up, and I feel that I’ve manipulated them into feeling that way. They don’t really know me, they just think they do. It’s so exhausting to deal with that all the time.