I met a guy here on Reddit. Admittedly, I was a mess in the beginning as I was unsure about being with them. But then we finally got to a stable place until he began have familial issues due to his younger brother returning, work starting and him going back to school. 

It got to the point where we weren’t even talking. I was the only one putting effort in without much reply. I saw he was able to change his Snapchat Bitmoji, I saw his discord said he was online playing video games, or on Spotify updating his playlists and adding new songs (which he puts a lot of time into). 

I realized that as I was the one putting in effort towards our friendship, for a potential future together, I wasn’t even worth one second of his time. 

Sure, he did reply but only when I asked for the reassurance. 

I realized that I just needed to break away from him because waiting as I was, I was only going to put myself through more heartache. :/ 

Maybe I was overreacting. I mean, I can understand being drained from it all, from having schoolwork, having work. I can understand preferring to relax and chill with games. 

I mean he did want to become friends because he didn’t want to feel obligated to put in time towards me because he knows he would only end up focusing more on me and not school.

Fair enough. 


But I decided that it’s best I let him go for now so I deactivated my discord and I have chosen to leave him behind for now.


Whatever happens is going to happen. 

Can’t force it.


Now I just have to keep moving forward.... onto a life... quite possibly without him in it. 