I've continually pushed everyone away to where I have no support structure. I'm completely alone, the past few days I've been drinking passing out, waking up drinking and passing out again. I'm fucked from my poor decisions. I thought AA would help me get sober but I guess I'm not ready for that. You would think going to rehab back in 2020.for a suicide attempt would have been my rock bottom. It wasn't, idk what my rock bottom is. I just want a hug and for someone to tell me things will be OK.  I'm tired of feeling sad all of the time.