I'm writing this here because I fought with everyone I can talk to. I am so lonely, I have no one. Nobody understood me, nobody loved me, nobody valued me in my whole life. With constant confusion, I tried to survive the terrible things that had happened to me. But I can't take it anymore. I lost hope for myself. Tired of hurting myself, tired of failing, tired of being alone and disappointed. I just want to die, I don't want to exist anymore. I'm just tired guys. I'm so tired of being myself. I'm a failure.