I’m so fucking tired

Today was a good day. I was in such a nice mood almost all day and then RIGHT before bed I got in a small disagreement with my bf about something that literally didn’t matter and I fucking blew up

That kind of rage that feels like flames in your chest. I wanted to rip myself apart. I wanted to smash my head into a wall. 

It didn’t help that my bf, instead of trying to understand, just wanted to go to sleep. ya I would also LOVE to go to sleep right now but I can’t because I’m like this. It made me feel so completely alone and unloved and unsupported.

Of course 5 minutes later I was bawling my eyes out, asking him if he was going to leave me. 

I’m just. This isn’t fair. I don’t want to live like this. I’m so exhausted. 