This year has been really hard on me. I got out of an abusive relationship, my dog passed away, I had family drama, and of course the pandemic makes everything worse. 
I haven’t felt like myself for a long time. I catch glimpses of myself but it’s always short lived. Before this I was doing so well, I was off of meds and just overall happy. I feel like I’ve taken five steps back with my recovery. 

Last night I had a horrific panic attack and had to call off work today. Naturally I feel insanely guilty about that and worry about being fired. I can’t do anything today but lay in bed. I feel like I’m just dead inside. I want to call my therapist but don’t even have the motivation to do that. How do I handle this?