Lately I just can’t stop crying. During the height of the pandemic I of course was depressed from being alone and lost in life. I was working from home and didn’t want to leave the house for so long. Then my mom died and then I got fired. I’ve been so stressed and depressed. I find myself feeling my feels for the first time in a long time. I used to feel bad and then just be a bundle or boiling sadness or anger, nowadays I just can’t help, but cry when I feel sad. I guess it’s good that I’m letting myself feel things, but it comes at inappropriate times and I can’t help it. It’s super embarrassing. 
I’m trying to get out more and I am, but I’m worried I’ll break down in front of important people or at work. 

Sometimes I can tear up and feel my face change colors and I know people can sense it. I am trying to hold it back, but I think after so long the emotions just can’t hold in anymore.