I am not sure why I am even posting this. I just can't fall asleep tonight. I feel sick because of my decisions and the toxic person I let get into my life and destroy everything. But that's not even fair...in reality, I was the one that allowed this to happen and that failed to protect myself and others from such a person. Now I wonder if I can trust myself again to do the right thing if I come across a similar person in the future. Am I even worth the trouble? Should I just get away from the good people in my life so as not to fuck them up? 
 
What a waste.

I am just useless.