I have intense health anxiety, ever since I was a kid, mostly regarding my heart health. I think it's because it's the most prominent symptom of my panic attacks, with palpitations and racing beats. I have been assured that it's normal. 

I've been having some intense anxiety over the past couple of weeks. I got a new job, which I do like but I took a pay cut to get my foot in the door of a major hospital and get out of the toxic situation at my old workplace, which paid me more but it wasn't worth it. Because of said pay cut, it's been harder for me to have enough money to make any sort of significant dent ent in my credit card debt, even following the Ramsey model. 

I'm struggling with being able to focus and finish my online medical coding course, which has a deadline to finish by the end of June or I need to pay for an extension. I'm trying really hard to finish soon because this job pays a LOT when I'm certified.

On top of this, there's a MAJOR battle with my new insurance company over one of my medications that I use to treat a sleep disorder similar to narcolepsy, but rarer. The med is $17k cash price a *month*, and my new insurance took its sweet time only to deny it two weeks later being like ummm you haven't seen your doctor in over a year, go see him and MAYBE we'll reconsider. Like my diagnosis hasn't changed, assholes, but thanks. So the thought of my med still being denied after I see my doctor freaks me out, because I cannot function without it at *all*. 

So of course now with my heart rate being as high as it has been, and now working in a position where I am regularly reviewing medical records of patients where it is rather detailed with their issues regarding high blood pressure and tachycardia, I'm getting more freaked out. I'm only 27 and the thought of potentially having to take blood pressure meds freaks me out even more. 

Ironically though I did just take a propranolol about 20 minutes ago and I'm waiting for it to kick in, so my body can calm tf down. God I hate this. Situational anxiety is so hard to treat. I definitely need to go back and see a psychologist, because I feel like I'm trapped in survival mode again.