I finished college in 2020, I just wanted a way out in life a break from school and no longer having to worry about going back because I can't afford it anyway. I am recently going to start my very first job soon at a grocery store which im happy about but theirs something else I wanted to do ever since I thought about it. I wanted to join the airforce after graduating college because it's something I wanted to do unfortunately In college I was going through a extremely hard time I was harassed by a guy my last two semesters of college and he stole my book bag.

I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life I changed my degree I don't know how many times and because of my family life I just wanted to move on from it all because of me coming from a very dark and traumatic childhood. Especially because a lot of it was when I was in school but anyways I wanted to use the military (air force) as a way to finally move up in life and be able to do more things be more independent and social not only that be able to be financially stable and be able to actually afford being independent and on my own.

Unfortunately my depression took that away from me to you see around that year of college when the guy stole my book bag I started taking medication for my depression because of the relentless of it, and around this time I wasn't thinking about the military I just wanted to do school and that's it.

Until I started looking into it and thought this is it this is how I'll be able to afford being independent and be able to consistently do more things and keep my brain busy not only that I live in a extremely small town theirs not that many opportunities for work here unless you move and have a partner to help you and are financially stable (which I don't have neither).

Anyways I recently got off my medication and in August it would have been one full year I've had my medication off and even then thats not enough unfortunately from what I've been told. Unfortunately  for me I don't have that many options like my friends do because they all have partners and people to move in with (siblings) and I don't have that.... the one thing I had in my life to finally turn it around and be able to do more things and it gets taken away from me because of a disease and I hate it....

Not only that theirs not that many career options here either and I can't afford to go to college because I don't want to go Into debt for a degree and have to pay back student loans...


I'm just hurt and lost because this was my last damn chance it was I'm not joking about this if I did have more options to choose from I wouldn't have thought about going into the military.

Anyway thanks for listening I've been emotional and crying all day.