I was only recently diagnosed with BPD and have been researching and learning more about this disorder. A few weeks ago, I was forced into voluntary hospitalization. While there, the psychological I was assigned to told me that I "manipulated" my way into the hospital as an excuse to get out of going to work. He said this was further proved by my BPD diagnosis. 

I haven't been able to shake this. It felt so invalidating to hear and it's making me not want to talk to anyone about my feelings. Sometimes I'll be thinking about it and I'll halfway convince myself he was right. Maybe he is. I don't know anymore.