I (16f) want to become a better daughter and sister but I keep having violent outbursts that hurt both my family and I. I really can't go on anymore, I know I'm young and have a better family than most people. I don't understand myself, I hit my head to forget my trauma and now I can't remember but still feel the pain of it. I want to die every day. I feel like shit, I hate my face I hate my body I hate the things I say out of anger I hate my scars I hate the expectations that have been put on me I hate my mind I hate what I've become I just want to rest.