Hey guys,
I just have the feeling that I just can't get out of the permanently bad mood. As if the world had conspired you.
I jump from sickness to sickness, because I can hardly or not at all reduce my stress, because there are so many stressors e.g. work, work colleagues, health, sleep and so on. Today I finally have my first day of vacation and what happens? Exactly, the heater breaks down and the part needs, if everything goes well, at least 3-4 days. I would never commit suicide, so really. But at the moment I'm just permanently fucked up, would like to cry, but that's not possible either. I go from shit to shit and there is no improvement is in sight. I only ever see the bad and don't enjoy anything anymore. Every twinge could be a fatal disease, many situations are just overwhelming and except for my sweet little family, computers, space and astronomy everything just fucks me off. I have the feeling that I can't get out of this horrible, pessimistic and painful mood.

Of course I am open for tips and advice.
Thanks for listening, stay healthy and have a great week.