Every night before I go to sleep I pray that I don’t wake up. I just don’t believe there’s any fixing of any of this. I got sent to the hospital last month after writing a note and sending it to a friend. Now I’m 8k in debt. I’m very lonely, have 10 health ailments and spend all day just scrolling social media and trying to work but it’s so hard. I want nothing more than for someone to just come and take care of me. Feed me, take care of bills, comfort me. The psych ward was so scary so I’ll never attempt again but I just pray to God every single night to take me. I want nothing more in the world.