while i had a traumatic childhood, i now have loving friends that are always there for me, animals that i love to care for, lots of things that i enjoy yet i still feel useless and depressed. i’m 15, was diagnosed with depression at 11, started self harming around that time as well, and started doing drugs at 13. my mental illnesses have only gotten worse and i don’t understand why none of the therapy or medications have worked, on top of that i have everything i need. i constantly feel like shit, nothing i do will ever be right and i’m not worth anything and i don’t think i ever will be. everything in my mind is fucked up and i can’t seem to figure out how to change that but even if i could, i doubt i’d have the energy or motivation to do it. knowing that i could be genuinely happy without having to do drugs first honestly just makes it worse. i don’t know what do with myself anymore, i just wanna be normal for once