Here it goes. I have a lot of childhood trauma and issues. Feelings that has pent up over the years. And mental break downs too- have been common. But I've never had a panic attack, until now. I was questioning religion and life, and all it's problems. I was feeling really low and started crying- uncontrollably. But than, I couldn't breathe. I just kept taking breaths in- and in- and in- but it just wouldn't stop. I couldn't breathe. My teeth got tingly, I couldn't feel my heart beat, and I felt like I was dying. I brought my dog to me as comfort and at first he wasn't really in the mood, but then he realized I was hyperventilating and came over to lick all over my face. That helped. When it finally “calmed” my throat was dry, and I was light headed. I texted my Friend who experiences panic attack themselves and they recommended some water and to take deep breaths- positive thoughts too due to my suicidal thoughts that we're happening prior/in the beginning of the attack.


Now that I've had one, I don't know what to do. I'm a minor, and I've asked my parents for therapy but they denied me because they don't want adults “affiriming my sexuality” (another day, another talk) but my mom has been diagnosed with anxiety and she believes in the extremity of panic attacks (in fact, her friend is a mental health professional and once said she could see the signs of a panic attack in my eyes- germaphobia kicked in from an unmasked friend of my dad talking to me, I guess I looked freaked)

I need to tell an adult, this is serious- right? But my parents are so hard to please and talk to. I don't even care to be here much anyways- but I know I need help. How can I tell my parents/mom without going through all the annoying questions- just to get shut down again?