Tried to post this in r/offmychest but it won't post.

 There are many issues that I deal with in my daily life. I am a person who basically has a counselor stamp on my forehead for as long as I could remember. People can tell me anything. . . everything. But I haven't yet found someone who I can do the same with. I have always had a deep need to be understood and to be known. In fact, as a child, I was never very family-oriented and always preferred to have a chosen family. Because they are the ones who you choose that choose you. I have found that people don't really take the time to get to know me. Like really know me.

I don't plan to have children. I hope that my legacy is built from the support, love, and kind things I've done with others. But there is something missing from that. I need to feel like my life is known by at least one other person. My best friend could be close but she has an issue with memory and frequently forget A LOT of what I share with her (not her fault). Both my parents have deteriorating memories as well and never really knew me anyway. In any case, I just wanted to get off my chest that I fear dying and leaving this earth with all of my stories never having gone anywhere else. Without truly feeling seen and known.