After every possible relationship I (20m) ruin I figure out the jist of what I did wrong, which is always roughly equivalent to with some minor editing/clarification ~got attached too quickly/easily, and was then too needy, especially when I got paranoid they were distancing. I can figure this out but I never implement the solution. I'm so tired of falling in love, and then watching them run away, and then dealing with a loss I can't even deal with so I make new accounts and beg them back. Which only pushes them away more and causes me more guilt and shame. Maybe if I at least waited a month to make the account... At this point I think I need to look more into finding peace within myself, loving myself, fixing my life up a bit, and then going out to find a partner. It's so tiring, the cycle...