I recently got married, found out I am pregnant and you know life should be amazing. It isn’t, my husband of 2 weeks but been together for almost 8 years can’t seem to stop it with his porn addiction and blames me for not able to get his needs satisfied. He has kept this secret and has spend so much money on these girls that’s it’s crazy to even accept. He believes their sad and pathetic story of their life being horrible. 

Worst part is that he defends them and gets upset with me because he thinks he can do whatever with his money and if he wants to spoil them he should be able to. I needed to get away during this unfolding and which i did to find myself and be ok with being alone. Now he is using that as an ammo saying I am running away from my problems, when it’s him who has the deeper issue. When we talk he mentions he is depressed and I get it’s no lie of how serious it is but he is making me be in dark place. 

I don’t even know if he wants our relationship to work. I need a sign that I will be ok and so will my child. i want this to last and be the couple who fought our way to a success marriage but it’s so hard.