I hope more than anything else my wife and children never have to go through the things I do on a daily basis. The constant struggle to wake up and leave the house to work a dead end job just to make ends meet, the overwhelming feeling that everyone around me thinks I'm a piece of shit, the constant fear that one day I'm just going to off myself because I can't deal with this anymore. I can't even have a normal conversation without overthinking so much that I shut down. 