All though i have never beem diagnodsed with depression i have noticed that i tend to push away those who bring me the most joy i have these weird tendecy to just push them away after a few months(I belive this is why I never have a set freiind group).Just recently i broke up with my girlfreind of 7 months ,while in the momment it felt like the best thing to now i feel this massive guilt for not being able to tough it out for the person i care about the most.I get this is probably some self astemine issue(sorry for the misspelld words im a stressed highschooler alone in his room) but i think every one hates me just for being there and recently i have been hating my body even more, i hate my voice,hair,nose and [ect.Im](https://ect.Im) not looking for pitty im just looking to express my self i have really needed an outlet to let this all out.