I feel like I change my life pretty regularly and then it's like the past version of me wasn't me at all. It's hard to explain but I thought maybe some other people with bpd might understand what I mean.

I can't even count how many times I've just entirely upended my life. Houses, schools, jobs, friends, they never last for long and I feel like I'm just constantly having to reinvent myself. I'm a new person in a new place doing new things but I always make the same mistakes and end up having to kind of torch my new life and move on. I look back on memories and it's like it's not even me. I feel barely any connection to any of my old friends, homes, etc, it's more like looking into someone else's life. 

It feels like my whole life is just a really messy collage of different versions of me and I hate it. I just want to know if I'm alone in this or not.