Hi everyone. I need help. I’ve always struggled with anxiety and depression with some ocd tendencies for about 15 years. About a month ago I tried taking Wellbutrin. (Stopped after six days.) This is when my world fell apart. I felt every different. Like I didn’t have any thoughts in my head. This caused me to get in my head and the thought, “Wow you’re a conscious being with thoughts” sent me into a panic. This caused me to experience horrible existential OCD. Ever since then I feel so lost about everything. I have horrible depression, anxiety, depersonalization, and OCD from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. I am so hyper aware of my existence and thought process. I no longer have free flowing thoughts. I can only think about why I feel this way and if I will feel normal again. I don’t want to be hyper aware of my existence anymore. I feel like I no longer have a personality, like at all. If I’m not depressed and anxious, I’m extremely numb. I no longer have interest in anything and feel like a shell. I can’t sleep nor eat. I can’t focus on anything. I feel extremely robotic. I have tried accepting these thoughts, but that doesn’t make them go away. I want to enjoy life again and not overthink everything from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. Medication doesn’t help and is what caused this. Does the no personality/numbness sound like depression? I’m trying to get TMS therapy soon. I’m so afraid it won’t help with my enjoyment or getting my personality back. Has anyone experienced this before and came out on the other side? Life feels very scary and alien to me. It’s like a light switch was flipped in my head and I’m no longer the same person. I can no longer live like this. Thanks in advance.