So i (38m) don’t really know what to think or do. I don’t really feel like I can open up to anyone at all without coming off as “Poor pity me”. Usually if I do open up and express myself or my feelings, it will offend someone and come off in an unintended way. I constantly think that I should just disappear, not like unalive myself or anything that drastic, but just go away in general. I’ve felt like this for a very long time, and every time I try and bring it up, (whether in therapy or otherwise), I am met with a “stop being a baby and man up” attitude. I constantly feel like I am a burden as so many “friends” cut all ties or treat me like a number. It’s kinda gotten to the point where I ask “how long till you leave like everyone else?” Obviously I don’t say it aloud but that’s the thought. Should I just disappear or continue going through the motions and keep my “mask” of happiness on so people don’t worry about me? I just don’t know what to think or do.