Perhaps someone can explain this to me, because my therapist seems more worried about me going to college 🙄
Basically, I have this weird need for people to think I’m perfect? And I get really upset when I screw up and people “realize” I’m not perfect. 
Essentially, for example, I basically want people like my boss to think that I’m this “good” person, who doesn’t make mistakes or have any lapses in judgement, etc. BUT, when I fuck up and she has to have a “meeting” with me, I get physically ill and beat myself up because I’m worried that she’ll think I’m this dumb, incompetent, moron that’s incapable of the smallest tasks. 
TL;DR, 
I want to be perceived as a perfect person, but when it people “find out” that I’m not, it screws with me physically and mentally. I know I’m not perfect but I guess I have this fear of disappointing people? HELP. 😫