whenever I used to smoke weed I'd walk around the streets cowering in fear in case someone I went to school with or knew would see me, I was quite terrified and even without weed I used to be dreadfully uneasy and inhibited and robotic, but after a while of being just with my family or with a really small social network - which helped with self compassion and eradicated the self hating thought patterns that are often instilled in vile negative high school environments and studying psychology and philosophy obsessively (Jidda krishnamurti, Alan watts, Eckart Tolle), I found out the vast majority people are in a state of deep inner turmoil/self hate and automatic/unconscious social conditioning that judges themselves and other people, inner turmoil means that when you look at other people you see a reflection of that inner turmoil and not a truthful depiction of a person. happy people generally don't judge or have negative opinions about people that aren't doing anything wrong. also vast majority of people are very deluded with arrogance, superiority complexes and a complete lack of understanding of other people and their subjective experience, which only a really emotionally intelligent person such someone who works in mental health can grasp. I'd say 95% of people's judgments about other people's experience would be completely off the mark, why would you care about someone's perspective that literally has know idea about your own subjective experience, past and expression of life which is too abstract to understand? most of time people's actions and appearance in real life is illusionary, people put on a mask and hide most of their inner mind so onions are like looking at the tip of an iceberg, in fact the people who act weird, unorthodox and non conforming are usually the most down to earth and nice and non fake, not that your not those things if you act normally. awesome people are often attracted to people who act themselves and who don't fit the cookie cutter mould of what other people expect of them. anyway if your lucky enough to not have experienced the horrible illusion of being brain washed into believing that people either a.) actually care what your expressing and what your doing b.) actually know who you are c.) thinking that their opinion even affects you in anyway or matters d.) not understanding that their negative way of looking at people is actually more embarrassing than any embarrassing act and their digging their own grace - I hope you can drift out of that socially conditioned and unnatural thought pattern, cos its just a thought and thoughts are like weather - sometimes they can be pure shit and sometimes they can be like the sun shining a light on the dark