I got my FP back and like a week or so later they have gone again.

I feel like i’m going fucking crazy.

This all happened because I said that it’s sexist for men to call women sexist. They then called me sexist for saying that men should not use that word... that it’s a slur.

I sat through an hour of them insulting me and calling me sexist, all whilst not insulting them back because even after all that I didnt want to lose them. I said I felt like shit. They said I deserved it because i’m sexist. I said I was just defending myself because I’m not going to be called something i’m not, but apparently if i’m “sexist” I can’t defend myself. I said I was having a panic attack, they said I didnt know what one was. I asked them to stop ganging up on me, they said I was playing the victim.

I can’t fucking win. I hate my life. I hate that I love people who treat me like shit.

I hate that I started off my day okay, to then end it in tears. Again.