So im a 14-15 year old male that lives in America (haha America bad go brrr) and I might have anxiety but I’m not sure.(Sorry for bad formatting/grammar doing this at night on my phone) My worst symptoms of whatever I have are, thinking everything hates me, nothing I do is correct, my friends just feel bad for me and that’s why they talk to me, insomnia, not suicidal but wanting to just disappear for a day or 2, I’m faking my way through life, I always dwell on what I do wrong, and I always am planning my long future and never taking in my present. I have become aware of most of these through my favorite pass time. Hockey (Roller Hockey) I love hockey I’m in my second year of playing and it’s one of my few happy times a week when I’m practicing or playing but after every game I feel like I could have done better and start mentally going down the self pity rabbit hole. I almost quit because I got angry over basically nothing during a game and was in a deep hole of self loathing. There is so much more but I just need to talk to someone and I don’t know where to get help at (therapy is to expensive atm)