It’s been a little over three weeks since my partner/FP and I broke up. I didn’t realize that I had BPD when we were dating, but I just wanted him and his validation in a way that he wasn’t able to handle. 
We ended on friendly terms, however I absolutely hate thinking about him because it reminds me of all of the things I’ve done that have hurt him and have been a burden to him.
What I feel most guilty about, however, is that I’m so fucking tempted to text him in the hopes of getting him back… honestly a huge part of me just wants to guilt him back into my life and I absolutely hate myself for it.