How do you deal with breakups with this disorder? I was only diagnosed about 2 years ago. I don't do therapy as I don't have money. 

It seems every relationship is the most intense I've ever had and every break up is the most heart crushing, even after only a few months I am devastated and suicidal. That's where I am right now. 

I know I really shouldn't date right away but I know I'll be looking soon just to fill the void she left, if I don't just off myself. 