I’m 18 yo girl, and I have a horse. His name is Moose, and is so very calm and nice to be around. He is a big part of my daily life and truly helps me just keep going and holding routines, even through the messes that often pop up. Lately we’ve switched barns, and he now lives in this stable where there are 3 other horses, by 3 different owners. He’s been living there for about 2,5 weeks. We all share certain stable-duties, and switch day to day to help each other out. It sounds great, but feels like a disaster.

Owner #1 is a woman in her thirties who just had a baby. I don’t see her often, she often does the morning routines, stays with her child the rest of the day I believe. She’s had her horse at this stable for 4 years.

Owner #2 is a woman in her forties. Her horse has been there for about 1,5 years. She’s in the stable in the afternoon so we’re there more often than not at the same time. Face to face she is nice and welcoming. In our group-chat, not so much.

Owner #3 is a woman rubbing her fifties. Her horse been here for a little over a week, so me and owner #3 are the new guys.

Owner #2 made a group-chat for us all, together with the woman who owns the stable. I’m getting more and more anxious about this. Every night now for a week she’s been sending very long texts reminding us all of small things that are wrong and that we all need “to think about more”. Things as in remembering to switch certain lights off and making sure all doors are closed, keeping gates closed, locking everything that has a lock, etc. It was fine the first time. Ok, good! Sorry that I or owner #3 forgot about that. We’ll make sure to remember that next time! Thanks for the reminder :) The second time it was a bit embarrassing, but still alright. But not all the next times. Now, I’m just figuring out the exact timing of the day that nobody’s there. All day I’m anxious that I’m gonna get another text in the group chat that I did something wrong AGAIN. The worst part is that when I’m in the stable while owner #2 is there, she says hello and does her duties, just to go home and rant about how I’m not doing things right to EVERYONE in this stable.
Owner #3 accidentally put owner #1’s blanket on her own horse last week and owner #2 got pissed. Like long-texts-pissed. It feels like owner #1 &amp; #2 are conspiring against us, and talking shit to the stable owner about me.
It would’ve been great if she talked or texted us privately to make sure we do stuff right. Now it just feels like she wants us ashamed, for she is literally preaching this to everyone in the stable, probably making them all trust us way less.

Small thoughts have gone through my mind these two days. I want to hurt myself now. Suicidal stuff, especially picturing how owner #2 would react to it. And absolutely horrible things that I could do, like not feeding her horse or leaving him out in the cold at night. Putting things in his water etc. Things I know I just wouldn’t do for the life of me, but still flash through my mind.

I don’t want more confrontation by any of these women, I just want my horse to be happy.