Hey you all.

Few days ago I had to call someone. Heart beating really loud and fast which is normal to me at this point. No one picked up so "lucky me" I guess. Afterwards my hands went sorta numb though. Which has never happened before? Got me really scared and thinking my fear of phone calls might be a little more serious?

Also how do yall got a therapist? I'm not even sure how to contact one. Like I don't even think it'd help that much to talk to someone. And I don't even know how to contact a doctor when I can't even do basic calls? So weird... and no my mom won't do it for me, she thinks telling me "just calm down" helps :::)