hey BPD brothers and sisters. it is me. so i have a best friend (also my FP) of 5 years and we've been through a lot together. we've both started our first jobs at the same retail company (different locations) just a couple months back. but now, he is going to be promoted while i'll be continuing as the usual retail assistant. i honestly do feel some bit of jealousy because he's doing absolutely fantastic but on the other hand i feel like a proud mother. alright anywho since he's taking up new duties, he tends to spend more time at work these days and when he's off work, he's too tired to do anything but snooze.
basically i miss being around him so much and i've been trying to convince him to go to work less to spend more time with me. seeing him spend so much time at work and not with me makes me feel like i'm unimportant and i feel like he doesn't love me anymore. at the same time i feel like i'm holding him back from reaching his fullest potential because i believe that my incessant bugging has been some sort of a pressure on him, making him unable to do his best at work. i dont know why i do this but it has obviously put a strain on our relationship because he barely wants to talk to me anymore and i've been feeling really low because of this. am i being toxic for being the weight that holds him down? how should i talk to him about wanting to spend more time with him? 
TL;DR: am i being toxic for asking my best friend (FP) to forgo work to be with me more? how do i tell him that i want to do stupid shit with him again like in the past?