I got back together with a former girlfriend who i beleived has cheated on me and screamed the meanest things i could think of. I told the person she was dating at the time that he was being cheated on. Im not sure if she even knew she was cheating. Its complicated. I never showed anything nsfw but i described things. And it seems to have really hurt her.

I really hate myself for being capable of doing something like that. I really want to hurt myself because i deserve it, i want to jump from a height or cut my thighs. I cant believe i did that. I never wanted to hurt anyone. WHy did i fucking that. WHY