While I can’t change the fact that I had an episode, nor can I change the fact that I’ve been difficult. I can control how I act after the episode is over. I can control how I react in the future.

For now I will drink a few glasses of water, watch some videos I enjoy and then go to sleep. My episode may affect me tomorrow but at the moment nothing more happened than me crying.

It wouldn’t be a disorder if it were easy. There are ugly parts to this disorder I’m trying to fix but I am not perfect.

I’ve spend 50 minutes crying over something unimportant. I chose to cry and I’m choosing to stop.