So I'm in final year of alevels and I'm feeling quite stupid and shitty. We recently had mocks and I absolutely fucked up my chemistry exams. I had a rlly bad episode (idk what to call it) of depression during both exams where I just didn't want to do alevels because I knew it would all be useless cus there's no point of anything. 

This was the first exam where I had left entire pages of questions unanswered (I always try my best in everything but this time I just didn't want to) so I started crying and wanted to die. Following this, I got my results and had a parents evening soon after. It wasn't fun at all. I haven't told anyone about it because I feel stupid and so fucking sad. I also don't want to tell my parents cus then I'll have to explain everything and that's hard. 

I'm concerned that the same will happen to all the other upcoming important exams and decisions in my life and I'll be a complete failure and will probably k-mslf soon. I just don't know what to do with my life amd my body it's just all too confusing and immature ik. 

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk about my messed up head. 

Does anyone have anything that may be of use to me? Idk what I'm looking for at all. Sorry