I have the issue that it’s hard for some doctors to take me seriously. I definitely have anxiety and am Bipolar, though we are unsure whether its 1 or 2. A recent psych thought I may have PTSD, which could explain a lot of the behaviors that fuel BPD like symptoms. I don’t have enough of the 9 indicators for a diagnosis so some will slap a “BPD traits” diagnosis on me. They assume I have it because of self harm and suicide issues. I don’t have any fear of abandonment, I don’t struggle with self image beyond the normality of my bipolar’s depression (feeling like a burden at times- with great convincing from my partner), my relationships are stable except for the one with my partner but that has been because a lot of cheating/sexual abuse/manipulation on his part that has driven me worse (we do have good times though and are both working on ourselves, I’m def working on coping mechanisms and fighting his ideas of my self worth. I’m 55 days free from SH!), I’ve very rarely had explosive anger (haven’t had any since medicated for bipolar, and beforehand it was maybe twice and not towards anyone?), I don’t feel empty, I don’t have crazy mood swings unless hypomania kicks in and I’m manic a few days; the only other one I could associate with would be dissociation but even that would be explained better by PTSD. When facing sexual triggers I’ve gone into full blown paranoia and hallucinations for a day, very closely mimicking mania but not lasting long enough for that. Much dissociation for me happens with triggers like emotional manipulation or abuse that make me try to turn off emotion and guard myself. I was told b a psychiatrist that they once had been diagnosed with bpd traits too but completely recovered and then were told it was most likely that they had trauma issues, not BPD.