I've been struggling with my mental health a lot the last few months.

I was diagnosed as ADHD in South Africa but never treated. I went on a downward spiral in October and pushed for an ADHD referral from my GP, I was also given 40mg Propranolol to take as and when I need it. After getting little other support or help from my GP I eventually found myself under the care of the Crisis Resolution Home Treatment Team (CRHTT)

After a psychological assessment I've been preliminarly diagnosed as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder aka Borderline Personality Disorder.

The psychologist advised that I would not be able to seek a full diagnosis for both ADHD and BPD at the same time and must pick one. Bearing in mind that an ADHD referral can take 18 to 24 months in my area and BPD can take up to 12 months. So I need to decide if I chase the BPD or the ADHD. I don't know which is making which worse, but if I choose BPD, I'll be taken off the referral for ADHD which I've been on for 6 months already. 

I'm not 100% sure I agree with the assessment by the psychologist. I spent 1 hour in a room with her and she was pretty convinced by my notes alone that my Emotional Disregulation is a result of EUPD. I kind of want to schedule another session because I'm just not sure. 

Anyway, she prescribed me with an antihistamine called Promethazine Hydrochloride/Phenegran 25mg as and when I need them to a max of 100mg per day. This is purely to make me drowzy in order to relax me and calm me down. I was hesitant on the antihistamine as they've rarely made me sleepy but agreed to try it for 2 weeks and if those don't work and antipsychotic next. I took 50mg on Friday and it disnt help my breakdown at all. 

When I collected the promethazine prescription I found a prescription at the pharmacy from early April by one of the GPs for 75mg Venlafaxine. I never finished the appointment so never actually received the prescription and it was automatically sent to my Pharmacy. I told the pharmacist who tried to give it to me to keep it because of who the prescribing GP was. 

My next GP appointment is 21st May, they have nothing else available unless it is an emergency which is a loooong time to be pondering things.

I'm considering asking for the prescription for the venlafaxine and resuming the propranolol on a more permanent basis and unsure whether I should try to book an emergency appointment with my GP to discuss this?

The Crisis Team psychologist won't be sending my GP a letter until she has consulted with the Assistant Psychologist, who she wants me to see a few more times before they discharge me, and the rest of the team on Wednesday morning. 

I also need to decide by Tuesday whether or not to be referred back to the Community Talking Therapies Team for potential CBT or general counselling. I've had a string of bad interactions with them since October as they've been downright useless. Failing to follow up on my referral, forgetting about me. I'd rather go to the team in the next town over. I've had 1 assessment in March. 

Also I'm moving house in 2 months (received an eviction notice on Friday as well as my preliminary diagnosis) most likely to a different town or county so there's another reason I'm unsure on talking therapies again. 

I'm just a bit overwhelmed at the moment and feel like I'm sitting in Limbo until Tuesday as Monday is a Bank Holiday and my brain is going overdrive asking the same questions again and again.