I was speaking with my psychiatrist the other day and was telling her my situation:

I have always had rocky relationships. I am with my current boyfriend and he’s wonderful. So I don’t know why I do this. We could be sitting on the couch perfectly happy and he could say something innocent, maybe a joke that’s not even offensive, but it somehow triggers me. I am so sensitive and take such great offence so easily and then this impulsive thought comes into my head. I think he didn’t respond the way I thought or wanted so now I am going to act cold, angry, snarky whatever the case may be. I will tell myself that it is illogical and will drive him away.

Then when I have started driving him away with my horrible behaviour I become desperate that he doesn’t leave me. I beg him for forgiveness. I don’t know why I act so horribly when it’s usually over nothing. It has become such an issue in my relationships and this one and I told my psychiatrist I can’t continue this way it is destroying my relationship and destroying me emotionally. 

She said I may have a mild form of bpd. She is prescribing 2 mg abilify. I haven’t started it yet but I was interested to know does this sound like bpd?

Does abilify help with impulsiveness and angry or snotty outbursts when I become so sensitive? 

I really can’t have these angry illogical and impulsive outbursts anymore. It’s ruining my life.

Will abilify or any medications help with this?