I've realized today that people don't recommend/want a romantic relationship with someone who already has mental struggle.
I knew it was too good to be true, life is just giving me another lesson to learn the hard way ;

broken people doesn't deserve to be loved...

Now I'll have to leave the only person I have fallen in love with to prevent him from getting too attached to me and hurting him more. If he stays, he'll get hurt or leave himself. 
I shouldn't have trusted myself. Life is testing me and playing with me constantly, should I've knew it was just a game. 

I'm tired of getting false hopes that things will get better,
It never gets better...

I'm tired..