For something you started in the first place. I self sabotage everything. I jinx it all. Cried all morning, he watched me, didn’t console me or anything. Cried because of something i said, i say stupid slick things, regret them when he gets upset, and cry. Like a fucking baby. A fucking child. Maybe we’re both the problem. How did things gon from perfect to a whole 24 hours of bad energy, crying, attitude, fighting. Him ignoring me, and saying hurtful things through text makes me wanna fucking SH so bad, and I haven’t done so ever since i was 16 dating a manipulative cheater. What else is there to do but get drunk and listen to music just to escape the present and live in the past?