 Long story short , I got my nephew (step sisters child) when he was 16 months. He’s 6 1/2 now. I adopted him a few months ago. I’m not married so it usually just the two of us. As a heroine baby, he deals with ADHD, impulsiveness, anger, all common to kids born addicted. Last night I wouldn’t let him play video games because he wouldn’t clean his room. He’s had all day to do it. He knew the consequences would be we would t go to the arcade if he didn’t. By the end of the day when I told him we could t go because his room wasn’t clean, he had a full blown meltdown. Screaming he hated me over and over and I was a bad daddy over and over. I e struggled with BPD most of my life but I’ve never known hurt like I felt when those words flew out of him. I broke down. Today I’m still on the edge of crying at work. I’m a mechanic so that’s not okay lol. I don’t know how to handle his anger. It’s always directed at me. I’ve tried everything from spanking to time out to taking fun things away. Nothing matters when he’s angry. He doesn’t care what I say or do. He goes to therapy that seems to be doing nothing. Takes medicine that seems to do nothing. At school he does great. It’s always just at me. I don’t feel like I’m equipped to emotionally handle that kind of rejection and anger every time I have to tell him “no”. I’m going to have a heart attack or a break down. It’s literally breaking my heart. I feel so lost and alone.