I’m still scared and let people push me over, freeze up, shake all day, let people bully me all the time. The worst part is I’m doing the most I can to help my mental health and it seems to have no effect on me no matter how much I work on myself. It’s like I’m looking through a window seeing all of this happen knowing I’ll never be able to be the person I want to be no matter how hard I try, it’s like this everyday and I usually end up questioning myself what’s the point of life if it’s just the same boring routine everyday if I just have to endure pain until one special day I magically am confident and on top of the world. Like its unrealistic and I’ll prolly be this bum 36 year old male that shakes all day and can’t talk to anyone. I’m 18 currently n I hate seeing how time passes as I’m not growing at all mentally.