So I’m currently going through a lot and don’t know what to do but vent to random people who’ll listen. Lost my job about a week ago for me not being able to show up enough. And and just lost my FP and this hurts so much. And I’m trying to be as emotionally mature as I can about the whole situation, and not let anger take over when I know it’s just me upset at myself. I just feel my partner deserves better than me. She’s an amazing woman and I love he so much, but it’s just so hard to watch her settle for me and I understand. Ik she believes in me she didn’t want to cut all contact, but I have a feeling it’s for the best we do if we break up. I’d be crushed to see her socials months later and she’s with another man. I’d honestly rather be blocked. My housing situation isn’t very stable I’m just crashing at a friends and everything just seems to just be going south. Might check myself into  the hospital, losing her hurts the most.