i try my hardest to express my feelings and hardships to people i trust, and they don’t even bother to read my texts, answer my calls, etc. i HATE being vulnerable, but i’ve been trying to be more open about when i feel hurt. now i just feel stupid. it’s so embarrassing especially when i’m always there to nurture these people when they need it. i’m convinced no one would care if i was alive or not. i’m only 19. i shouldn’t have to feel this way. i hate this illness and not having a support system