I know our thoughts can be intrusive. We feel things that aren't real. Like we're not enough.

But what do you do when every single person you love actually says that to you? Even your family? It's not my thoughts. It's true. I can't ever be the person they want me to be. I'm a constant disappointment and they literally told me they aren't going to be there anymore if I have another breakdown.

They said I'm selfish for trying to have the life I want and not thinking about them or spending time with them. It doesn't matter that they trigger my anxiety by leaving me to clean up after them. (Literally, I live with them and they don't clean) Or their moods affect mine and I try not to be around them when they're depressed or angry because it hurts me too much. I guess they just want me to pretend not to have feelings? 

Even my girlfriend just told me I'm not enough. Of course, she told me it wasn't me, it was her. But I've heard that before. But of course, she loves me. That's bullshit. If she actually loved me, I'd be enough. She just thinks she does to make what she told me easier on her. 

I'm just done. I truly have no one.