Long story short, I accused a super close friend of mine of doing something she didn't actually do. The doubt was just eating at my mind and I couldn't take it anymore, she was saying how she doesn't have to prove herself to me, but then I threatened to slit my wrists if she didn't and she ended up posting proof. This is by far the worst thing I have ever done and I don't think there's anyway I can ask for her forgiveness.




after she sent me the proof she told me: **"Don't fucking talk to me until im ready to deal with you"**


and I replied with: **"wait, why not just deal with it now? yes im a cunt and theres literally nothing I can do to get you to forgive me"**


She then said: **"Because im done with you. Theres nothing to talk about. My mangos (manga) are waiting and my uterus hurts. So leave me alone**


and finally I told her: **"i should feel sad about that at the same time im glad the doubt isnt eating away at my brain anymore. alright, i wont blame you if you never wanna talk again. im just glad you ended up being right"**


(this was all through text by the way)


So /r/BPD what the fuck can I even do I just feel fucking horrible for what I did to her, shes been with me throughout all this stupid fucking bpd and depression bullshit and this is what I do to her? how can I possibly even hope to salvage this shit show...