He was my booty call for like 7 years. I only accepted that level of relationship because that's all he's capable of. I'm 46 and I should know better. I sent him a couple of messages and there's been no reply so I assume I'm blocked. I won't try to date again. My looks are gone anyway and I've gotten fat. That's probably why he hasn't gotten back in touch with me. It could also be that I'm a terrible person though but he doesn't know me that well so he wouldn't know. It's hard to let go of your last chance at any kind of affection