im not alone as long as i can hurt myself right? ill never be alone that way.. its like a backup right? so i dont have to worry? right?   


i know it isnt true, dont worry. im just alone right now. i might get some new "friends" later though. we'll see how i feel. i hope i can get more. please. hahahahahahahahaha life's a fucking joke. i just laugh a bit when i think about the fucked up shit. like yk, life and why it's so shit for me. fuck this lmao. just. fuck this...