I know this isn't healthy and I've tried looking after myself whilst in a relationship but I completely hate myself. I don't focus on myself or anything. I'm always focusing on the person I'm with and I know this is deeply unhealthy. I stop what I'm doing immediately if they text and they come above friends. Why do I do this? I just want to focus on myself, but I hate myself completely and I just want to focus on who I'm with only.