The past few weeks I feel like I am not a real person. Like I’m a hologram doing the things I do. Like a prop. I don’t know how to fully explain it. But when I do things I’m just watching myself do them. I haven’t left the house in a couple months, not even to go to the corner shop. I don’t feel real. And it makes me confused as to why I’m alive. Like the only way I can describe it is like wearing VR goggles and I watching a POV. I can’t remember when I last showered or brushed my teeth or cooked. I eat one take out meal a day. I feel like I’m in a constant state of ‘just about to pass out’ I’m kind of seeing things but more like I’m imaging it but it feels so real but I also know it’s not. I can’t stop looking at myself in the mirror and when I do it just doesn’t make sense to me. I’m not me, like I don’t get what I’m looking at and I hate what I’m looking at. Anyway I feel like the way I live is like I’m moving through water, everything is slow and really hard to do. I’m really tired