So my partner is an active addict (I am as well but 8 months into recovery)

we don't live in the same place anymore and the past week he has been acting incredibly suspicious disappearing for a few days or saying he'll call me when he gets home only to reply saying "i just got home had a ride" at 5 am when it is a 5 minute drive home (this was at 11 when he said)

he has already cheated when we first started dating again. I feel and think that he has done it again which is whack. i also recently lost a friend from my group over stupid drama. which is causing that hole that i have in my chest to grow. too far in the process of healing and therapy to use my old negative coping mechanisms but I dont have new ones to take their place. It's making me feel so lonely. 20m here (just got diagnosed a two months ago but suspected that i had it for years\[old shitty doctor refused to diagnose me\])