This feeling haunts me. 

When they ignore you, ghost you, act bored, when they're busy, or when they have a bad day, my mind instantly thinks of abandonment. It has come to me constantly asking for reassurance by my FP, everyday. A couple of weeks ago they even told me I was annoying because of all the oversharing and reassurance stuff. Couldn't stop thinking about that. 

How, just how in the earth can I stop feeling abandoned as soon as my brain tells me so? How do I stop spiraling into an episode just because they were tired and had a bad day?
How do I cope with them ignoring/ghosting me and how in the earth do I resist the urge to ask for reassurance? Or is it too late?