Everything around me is black, I look at anything bright and it just fades to dust in my hand and I'm left staring and black in a mirror. I want to sleep and not feel the tiredness, the anxiety, the stress, the uncertainty, the boredom. I don't feel like my girlfriend is someone who I can truly rely on and it cuts me to the core. I just want to skip ahead some days in a painless coma, is there a safe option?