I'm (22, FtM) coming up on my third year of hormone replacement therapy this November, and hair loss has become debilitating on my brain. It started around the one year mark, but it was a very small amount and did not bother me much. 

Now though, it has taken over my every day thoughts and brought so much negativity onto my appearance. I wish I could say I saw it coming, but I spent very little time around the men in my family while growing up. I feel very ugly. To the point where I've shed tears over this. I realize I have bad anxiety that could be making this issue into a huge problem for me, but I just don't know how to stop it. I didn't mentally prepare myself for this at all. I feel too young to be dealing with this. The thought of going off hormone replacement therapy has even crossed my mind- that's how awful I feel about all of this. I just don't know how to accept this. 

If anyone has gone through male pattern baldness please do share with me anything you think could help me.