I had a really hard time staying asleep last night.  My Fitbit says I slept 1.5 hrs.  But, I was able to stay up and get to work early.  

I feel like people at work are upset with me.  A few barely speak to me. I feel like I annoy them by existing.  

Then, my boss asks why I have not documented very many interactions with clients in April.  I told her it is hard, people want to sleep or not be bothered since I have no influence on discharge.  I work in peer support in a mental health crisis stabilization unit.  It is pretty kick back, usually.  Sometimes I feel tense when there is commotion.  I forgot I was out 3 days in April, I only work 2 days/week so it makes sense I would have less 1:1.

But, I am not very confident in my performance.  I have come a long way with social anxiety but I still get nervous striking up a conversation.  I hand out a sheet for our patients to fill out with a mood rating and a goal. It is simple because they sometimes are pretty symptomatic and I don’t want it to be difficult. But, I can use it to have a topic for discussion. 

I have been planning to retire in 2 years.  I will be 60 and my son will have finished college. But, other days I just want to throw the towel in and quit now.

Not sure what I am looking for. I guess any advice or words of wisdom.