i understand what FP means so no need to explain that. 


so, there is only one person on this planet i ever miss. right when i met him it was different from ANYONE i have ever met. i immediately felt safe and comfortable. with everyone else in my life, friends, parents, family, girlfriends &amp; boyfriends, whenever someone touches me i immediately stiffen up, feel anxious, and get extremely uncomfortable. but not with him, i met him and right away wanted to hold hands, i was mesmerized by his hug. i didnt even feel a little nervous. 



i didnt have any feelings for him initially but then a mutual friend of ours told me that this guy really liked me. so i started to crush on him, and we got together. we broke up exactly one year ago, things have been getting a lot closer again since january. i have always loved this guy. we split because he felt like he needed to focus on himself and think about our relationship more. but now we are back to being lovey dovey and i think we are gonna date again soon. 



we met 5 years ago and i still haven't encountered anyone i even feel remotely similar to. i dont miss anyone else, i dont want to spend time with anyone else, being around other people is tiring. i genuinely dont need friends or family to be satisfied. just whatever he does naturally is perfect for me. 



im not demanding with him or obsessive or needing constant attention. i love how things are and i am so thankful for him. our relationship makes me grow, makes me feel more considerate. makes me feel like i am not crazy and i can get better, i can control my emotions. the thought of having a stable &amp; healthy relationship makes me take a deep breath and discuss solutions. i have grown so much because of our relationship. 


i feel like a complete alien to everyone around me. people just do not understand a word i say. but things with him are just right. i have not ever met anyone else i feel drawn to like him. i am happy with that but im wondering if anyone else thinks is this way? or am i crazy 🥲