I just can't seem to relax throughout the day, every time I think about sitting down and reading/watching a TV show/meditating/putting a face mask on etc I've got 1000 things on my mind (random stuff, anxious thoughts, things I have to get done etcetc) so I never get to truly relax. I panic just thinking about reading cause it'll be calm and there's "nothing" to distract me from my thoughts (until I'm able to focus on the book, which can take a while).

The only time I'm able to actively relax is when I'm tired. After I've worked out for 1-2h in the gym or late at night. Gotta find the sweet spot between "anxious mess" and "falling asleep". Feels like walking a tightrope &amp;even when I manage to get there I have more important stuff to do than relaxing (eg. studying &amp; other stuff that my anxious self didn't manage to do)