day by day goes on and the thought of not being here is always there. I could be having the time of my life but the next second Im thinking about how id be better off gone. I feel like being here isnt going to benefit me any. I do like to think of the future and I enjoy being around my boyfriend and all but my mind likes to tell myself oh its to hard for you to make a future like that. youre a failure and all this nonesense. im overall just emotionally exhausted and I dont know how to get these thoughts of not being enough out of my head.