My parents are first cousins. They had an arranged marriage back home. As a result I suffer so much. I suffer physically, emotionally, and socially. I sometimes wish I wasn’t born. Society  labels me as a freak. My other cousins even point it out sometimes and make comments/jokes. One of my cousins was like “You know your parents are like cousins?” I act like it doesn’t bother me but it bothers me so so so much. I get treated differently by own family. 
When I was younger I remember telling a friend that my parents are cousins. She was like “WHATTT”. I learned  in grade 5 that I should keep this a secret. I sometimes wonder how am I gonna explain this to my future husband or children… it’s gonna awkward. 
I am cursed in my physical appearance and I know it’s 100% because of my incestuous genes. I can’t even look in the mirror sometimes because I’m soooo hideous. I despise my cousins who have non related parents and are sooo fucking pretty. My parents relation has affected every area of my life. I try to be positive but there are moments where I just lose it. And right now is one of them.