I smoked weed at 17 and got Derealization for the first time. It was so bad. I remember everything felt in slow motion. I still get anxious thinking about that day. After that I never smoked again. But after a few months I randomly got derealization again while I was in school. I left that class immediately and went home.  Then a couple weeks went by and I was on a bus going to school I got derealization again. When I get derealization it feels like everything is in slow motion and it feels like imma faint or I’m floating. I never ever experienced it before the weed. I really feel like weed ruined my life. Before I was going to school / applying for jobs / going outside. Now it’s the total opposite. My biggest fear is derealization/fainting/vomiting/being alone.  If I never touched that weed I would be fine right now. I remember in the past I was so strong. I could handle almost anything. I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK. I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND NEVER HAD TOUCHED THAT WEED. I hate it so much. Not worth it. I haven’t had a normal day since then. My days are filled with anxiety. And I ain’t got no money for help. Like wtf do I do.