So basically, last night I didn't end up going to sleep till 6am, which then meant I didn't wake up till about 12.  
When I did wake up at 12pm, I was still pretty tired, I didn't think of anything in particular, I thought I should take my meds, but I ended up going back to sleep till about 1pm, when I then got up and went about my day doing nothin really, just the usual wasting time.

Then, at about 6pm, I am suddenly hit by a wave of sadness, over what? I don't know what, it seems as if everything that should have been making me sad over the last few weeks suddenly hit me. Ouch.  
After a bit, I couldn't take it anymore, I haven't felt this sad since the start of January (note that I've been on this medication since late November, antidepressant SSRI idk the exact name in English, but its like the strongest SSRI) So I went to go take my medication, that I had forgotten.

What I'm saying is, this has created a new fear in me. What the hell am I going to do once I come off medication? Things still haven't sorted themselves, dare I say they're worse than when I started medication, except I'm not so sad about it because of meds. I know my mum wants me to come off this medication in March, which is so soon. I'm scared as fuck. I can't go back to how I was before again, I need more time on medication till my life improves, and changing schools/country isn't happening until the end of August/September. I don't know what to do, I just know I am in fact scared as fuck.