I've spent so much of my life with people saying I don't think the same as others. My perceptions of peoples words and actions are way off base. My emotions drive me. Now I'm dating someone with a very high IQ and extremely logical mindset. He sees me as drama and while he tries to understand he just can't get past the fact that my thoughts make no sense...especially my fears. My mom and sister have become a sounding board where I run to them, filter conversations and they try and translate things to me. Its tiresome for all involved and I feel like an alien. People try to get close to me but I don't let them and if they do I quickly become more work than I'm worth. I just want to hear that other people feel this too. I feel so alone. I feel so broken. Worst part is I've done a ton of research on my issues. I've been in therapy and treatments for years. I have made a lot of progress on the outside with things like my eating disorder but its a constant battle to fight my brain. I feel like I'm trying to control myself because I know why I do what I do but I still cannot stop it.