Cutting myself used to help, it didn't  exactly  make me feel better, but it killed a bit of the pain inside me. And it gave me something else to focus on. I stopped 5 years ago,  because of external pressure, because of the comments and questions. I want to cut myself so bad..  because I want to doe but don't  have the courage  to do so and that is as close to killing myself as I am capable  of getting