I was on my journey to recover but ever since last night I just feel like dying...

We went to counselling a few times trying to get him to understand what I’ve been going through 

But last night through a heated argument he revealed that he has never believed that I am ill. He thinks that I am finding reasons to not support the family financially and find reasons to not work. (I’m only 20 just graduated thinking of going for uni) btw I work though but the money is all used for my hospital and therapy bills. Not only that I’m paying for my own uni... He thinks that I am pretending to be sick to look pitiful and gain sympathy so I won’t have to work

He also say that he has given me everything I have a roof on top I’ve got caring family members if I am not happy here I can gtfo of his house.... 

I’m speechless he didn’t sound this nice btw... now I’m just stuck with a broken self image like maybe he’s right I just wanna die it’s all a lie 

They say try not to be alone, let others help you... but not everyone that approaches you wants to help you. My whole world just flipped he isn’t my FP but those words and how he pretended to be nice hurts 

Sucks to try so hard and wish to be considerate of those who loved me but Fml... it’s all a lie just when will I die...