Hi all..so I just had a panic attack because I have to give my presentation for my internship tomorrow. It’s not a presentation with slides, just a walkthrough about the report I had completed, so I’ll be sitting down, which makes it a little better.

I didn’t even know I had to give this presentation until last week, when my manager asked me to present my report to others on the team. I have been trying to not freak out about it until my breakdown today. I cried and cried and now my eyes are swollen and my head hurts.

I have spoken to a lot of the people I’ll be presenting it to, and many have been very nice about it and said they’re rooting for me. I can’t help but feel nervous about letting them down though. The actual report is not the issue because my manager said it’s good — I’m just afraid of freezing up and stuttering like I always do. I’m scared that I’m going to blank on questions and look like I don’t know what I’m talking about.

I feel like such a failure because everyone is cheering for me and my work is good but it’s my character and my anxiety that’s going to bring me down, like always. I don’t really know why I’m posting this except I don’t know who to talk to about this. I just need some comfort, I guess.