Hi

I have this very weird thing where I horribly overthink things and have frankly weird thoughts about mundane things, and this causes me anxiety.


It seems like my brain is trying to torture me and ruin things I like. For example, if I buy a new car. I go over a pothole too fast and I'm afraid it may have caused some damage (even though I know it hasn't), so I make a mental note of it, so when I get home I can type it in a private document on my PC, which I recognise is pointless.


If I'm enjoying an online game, I will be worried that I will get banned for something (even though I've no reason to be banned), so I write in a separate (separate to the car document) document for my eyes only, "I have never done X,Y,Z, my account is in good standing".


Recently I got worried that I downloaded my Facebook data onto my work PC, even though I logically knew there was no way (because you need to go through a lot of steps, it's not a case of 1 button and you've downloaded everything). So then I started searching the PC for possible terms to make sure that nothing was downloaded, and yes, I logged that in a new document. 


If I have a really personal document (for example a financial document or a diary), I'd have it passworded. But then I get worried that I accidentally uploaded it somewhere, or accidentally moved it to a USB stick which I plugged in at work, so my brain thinks maybe I accidentally copied it to the depths of my PC at work. Or I get worried that maybe I've accidentally copy and pasted part of it somewhere. So again, I write this in a document: "I definitely have not copied X to X, blabla".


My brain creates ridiculously farfetched scenarios, and I feel obliged to log them all. I have (utterly boring) documents containing thousands of words consisting of this nonsense and I'm not too sure how to stop it.


Separately, when I enter PC documents, sometimes I have to re-enter it like 5 times in a row because my brain thinks I may have accidentally deleted some words when I opened it (which I know is nonsense).


I know this is EXTREMELY weird. I have had this sort of thing for many years now, but feels worse as of late. Can anyone relate?