so for some context im a sophmore in highschool and everytime around november/december to around middle of march or april i feel like doing nothing but staying inside and withdrawing from society. and i went to online school because i thought it would help but it hasnt. its made it worse. i hate being cooped up in this same house all the time. and for some reason my mom decided to get a house in the country side so its not like i can just go and see my friends or make new ones.

i dont know what to do anymore. that online school i mentioned messed up all my classes like i passed english 9 but they gave me english 9 again and i was supposed to have earth space but they gave me chemistry and i tried to email them but it never worked so i just eventually came to terms with it and gave up. 

im scared i guess. even if i stayed in person it would be even worse than it was but i wish i could see everyone again. i wish there was a way i could choose between going and staying home because i can never stick with one.