Idk man, I had a Xanax relapse on Saturday, thursday was blacked out and fell in my bathroom loud enough at 3am to wake up my stepmom and little brother. He was scared. It’s Friday. I gave my therapist all of my pills, I’m friends with my ex who I thought ruined my life, I started doing NA. And like yeah I still struggle but, I think things are starting to be okay. It’s strange.