I feel like most people are comfortable or over time become comfortable smoking weed. I've had problems with it for years.. it throw my senses into hyper drive and I can't calm down... too many intrusive thoughts, too much paranoia and by the time I come down I have completely isolated myself. Most people around me do it (incl my mother who I live with so thats a thing). I understand that I don't have to do anything I don't want and it doesn't make me cooler to be a pothead but at the end of the day, I still can't help but wonder why I'm struggling with this... it seems so trivial of a problem but I understand the benefits and the insight people get from it and it makes me kind of envious I can't harness those benefits n insight. P.s. what things do yall do to become more in touch with yourselves p.s.s I can't afford very good mental health care p.s.s.s is this a non problem

Tl;Dr smoking weed is always a bad experience for me and I think it has to do with my overlapping complexes and mental illness. What do u think?