i have several things wrong with me mentally right now. some of them i use to not have but i’ve been depressed since age 10. i tried to think of ways to die when i was 10.. now that i’m 18 i think it’s even more fucked up because what 10 year old thinks about killing themself.. but late 2019 i took 12 zolofts a day i was feeling suicidal. weirdly after i did it i went about my day like i didn’t just do that. after about 30 mins i started to slowly feel the od affects and i was slowly dying but didn’t know it. i then got scared (even though i was the one who wanted to die) and then told my mom what i had did and went to the ER and got fixed. somedays i wish i had just let myself be scared and let myself die in my bed. mentally nothing has changed since, in fact i’ve gotten worse. i wanted to post this on here where people don’t know me because i needed to rant but i don’t want to seem like i’m searching for pity from anyone i know. and tbh i don’t like anybody in my life right now so idek who exactly id tell. i just wanted to just get off my chest that i wish i was never here on earth to begin with.