I don't know if I have have depression or any other mental health issues as I never had any diagnosis, but sometimes I feel I relate so much to things that people with depression say how they feel.

I feel lost, tired of trying so hard to even complete basic tasks. I don't feel anything except emptiness and dull pain. I often think about how it would be like to take my own life. I am scared to talk about it with anyone. Because I feel no one will get it. I used to try to communicate with my husband about how I feel bad. But one day he ended up saying "why don't you look for a job?" I tried, got a part time work. But now it makes me feel how incompetent I am, how behind in my life and career I am than my peers. And it hurt when he said that. It was fine for a while, but now it's a mess. I don't feel like telling him anything anymore, because he doesn't understand, and he will probably say something stupid again.

I feel inadequate, I literally have to force myself to shower, brush my teeth and stuff like that. I don't feel like cooking or cleaning, but if I don't, no one will. I will go hungry, the house will be a mess. 

I can't take the burden anymore. Work, studies, chores, what to eat, what groceries are needed to be bought. Everything is a mess, I feel so overwhelmed. I don't think it will ever get better, it's just getting worse day by day...