i’ve lost all my friends. it’s hard for me to keep people around no matter how hard i try. I don’t know what i’m doing wrong. i try to stay away when i have an episode so i don’t scare anyone away. i’m genuinely a nice person, i try my hardest to help others out and be there for everyone. i don’t know what i’m doing, it seems like i’m in the back of everyone’s mind, im the backup friend even to the people whom i have known for years. it’s so lonely. god it’s so fuxking lonely living with this disorder