i’m in a pretty bad slump atm, some back ground info is:
-I have Bpd
-my boyfriend cheated on me. (confusing)
- my dad is a pos
-I have no friends because I moved to a new state and I go to school in a different town, but it don’t have friends here and I didn’t make good friends at school because after I quit alcohol, they dropped me. 
-my job makes me happy 
-I love my boyfriend so fucking much but I also just think a lot about how he cheated. it wasn’t physical it was over text, I found it on his computer, it went as far as what’s app and he didn’t show me that. he’s really been trying to make it up to me that he loves me and he does, I know he does but it’s just hard. it was awhile ago but still, I have bpd and it hurts. 
-for some reason I can’t stop thinking about my childhood. I wish I was a child again constantly. it makes me cry, I was closer with my family and it was just better. it makes me so sad but now that’s i’m older I see how toxic my parents are. 
-I feel alone, I don’t love myself anymore. i’m going back into a depression. This is so scary and my boyfriend is trying so hard to help but he just doesn’t understand, I gave him 9 months to fricken learn about bpd and we hard a fight two months ago about how he didn’t and today he admitted he never researched it. i’m so confused by him because he wants couple therapy so he can understand my disorder but still. We are currently apart and it’s just annoying. 
I feel like my life is falling apart. my roommates 2/3 of them fought w/ me, made fun of my mental health and a lot of other things.  I just constantly feel like I can’t win, I love my school but it’s in a rich part with rich students and i’m far from rich. I just hate it. even my best friends parents sat me down today because they are visiting us and they tried talking to my parents and they said how they feel bad and they wish I could come live with them and it’s just so hard. they even wanted to get me a credit card. life is so difficult snd I just had to get everything off my chest. if you made it this far thank you, I really appreciate you 💜