My husband is leaving me due to the fact that our ten year marriage although amazing there has been some severe trauma brcause of my BPD and impulsive decision making and lying over shit ive done has destroyed it. My heart is shattered he asked for a divorce yesterday , rightfully so. He said he was done it's so unhealthy for us to be like this and I agree. We're high school sweethearts, best friends, we really only have ever had eachother. Were extremely co dependent. Our babies our 1 and 3 they mean the world to us. I'm struggling mentally and so is he. I don't know what to do. I want to run. But my kids are my life. I've been crying two days straight I'm afraid I'm going to go off on a binge drinking thing because that's what I do when I stress. I just am distraught lost hopeless. Just need to talk to someone. ✌