I am 19 and I really wanted to be a father, but with my mental illness, I am afraid I might reproduced damaged children or they might have trauma because of me. Am I the only one who's afraid of having children because of BPD? I am afraid to end up like my parents, even though how much I may try to be not like them, I am still terrified of being like them and having a children who struggle in the future because of the way I raise them.