About a year ago, I had a mental breakdown I guess you could call it. I've had social anxiety my whole life, but in a span of about a month it reached a new level.

I couldn't get out of bed, just wanted to cry. Prayed for God to kill me if I couldn't be healed. Cried at the doctors office, cried many times in my car alone. It was a very dark and scary time. Which is why I'm posting here.

I didn't think there was any hope for me. I couldn't even sit with my own family anymore without paranoid thoughts. 

However, fast forward a year and my life has totally gotten back to normal. The process started once I started taking medication. (Small dosage of xanax daily  + Celexa)

The main thing is to find what works for you. The first two tries I had bad experiences with the medicines and they didn't work, but finally I did find one that worked for me. I believe my faith in Christ kept me going, and that God used the medicine to heal me instead of taking me out of this world when I prayed for it.

Hope you all find rest. If I can come back from my deep level of anxiety, there is hope yet.