I've had depression since I was a kid when my parents got a divorce, I'm 24 y.o. now so you do the math.

All these years have been a constant rollercoaster of feelings, going from not feeling too bad to being on the edge of attempting suicide.

I've seen about 5 therapists and 3 psychiatrists and none of them could do anything for me.

Now I'm slowly seeing how my friends are getting so ahead of me in life, getting the jobs they studied for, finding love and getting their own homes while I'm stuck not accomplishing anything.

I used to fight to be happy and get out of this, even feeling that maybe I was about to on a couple of occasions only to fall back into the hole harder. But now I just accepted that it won't happen after all this years.

I don't think it's worth it anymore to keep trying only to hit a wall over and over. I've given up