I know this is really fucked up but I’m not the type of person who should have multiple kids. I can’t take away from my kids I have already. I can’t be off medication for 9 months. I’m not making up excuses. Ive been taking birth control pills but I’m still pregnant. I shouldn’t have kids but I do and they’re my reason to keep going. I haven’t been the same since I’ve had my last one and he needs a lot of attention. My relationship isn’t very strong either. I feel like because of this illness I’m dependent on him and I don’t want another reason to HAVE to be with him. Again not making excuses just need to tell somebody.