I've been in school for 5 years working on a computer science degree. I have a 4.0 GPA and genuinely like the field I'm majoring in except for this one class requiring two term papers. I had to drop the class last semester because the writing was too difficult for me. I can't understand the scholarly sources I'm finding because they're just too inaccessible for non-experts in the field. I've been spending like 10 hours every day for the past week and I haven't found anything I can understand or use.

The first paper is due Friday, and between that and my other classes/midterms, I'm most likely not going to finish it. I'm not able to withdraw again, so I'm most likely going to fail and tank my GPA. This means I'm not going to be able to transfer to a different school to circumvent this required class/writing assignment. I'm fucked and will basically become homeless since my parents won't help support me since I'm no longer in school. Good jobs won't take a college flunkie/dropout. I also can't afford an apartment on my own on minimum wage. I'm seriously considering suicide. It's the only solution I can come to right now.