So earlier today i made a post, about just anything. But let me give you one crucial tip. Delete apps such as social media and youtube or anything that gives you triggers do it now (so you cant compare yourself to others also... but keep netflix hehe). Im more confident like at work today i can talk without anxiety just go with the flow type talk. Another tip is to get sleep. Know that you are a unique creature and there aren’t many like you that can feel like you love your bpd never compare or wanna be like anyone else. Know that you will find friends and you can have a good relationship with family (if they are toxic fuck them get your shit together and leave). Try to quit any bad addiction you have and replace it. I have had bpd since i was born believe me ik everything in and out believe me all the suicidal thought, ups and downs, all of it ik it all. But focus on yourself and only yourself and do good and believe me everything will fall in place i promise. You mental health always comes first. And ik you think about all the wrong you did in the past but guess what it was for a reason it was bpd and urges not YOU. Love yourself and all flaws and mistakes.