I’m just wondering if any one else experiences the same thing. 

My anxiety is always with me. However there are certain things that happen daily or slowly over the course of time that build the amount of anxiety I have at any point in time. It seems in these times the only “relief” I can find is that I have the power to make all of it go away. If the anxiety becomes to much I can end my suffering permanently. Its not much relief but it is all I can get unless I finally commit.