I still feel like because of all these triggers that get me riled up/upset, I'm forever..I don't know 13 years old? Not even just that, I'm 28 and I still act like I'm even younger than that sometimes because of my emotions and I hate it so much. When will I grow up?


I remember being a teenager and I had older 20 something sister-type figures that I looked up to. Now I'm their age and I'm nowhere NEAR their maturity level.


I don't understand how to be emotionally mature. For example:


Boyfriend and I make plans to see each other. Suddenly, boyfriend's time with me gets cut in half because of a very minor priority he placed first when he could've easily cancelled on the other person. I cancel plans altogether because it's either spend the full time with me, or spend no time with me. This "all or nothing" attitude is something that complicates all my relationships and I get so easily disappointed with people.


No matter how much I try to picture myself in the other person's shoes and show empathy, it's so difficult to come to a compromise with them when they've let me down.