Sometimes, without even trying, or meaning to. Other times - I don’t know why, because you’re just a horrible person. 

I ghost people. I have done. I do. 
I ghosted my best friend (my only real friend) for five years, after I did something I felt shameful for. We are on good terms now, but I hide a lot of my true thoughts from him.  From everyone. My family. Acquaintances. Nobody really gets to see the real me. My wife probably gets the most of me, but not all. I’ll ignore people if they reach out. Work colleagues - past and present - I’ve cut them all off. 

Why do I do that? 
When all I want is attention, and to be validated. To feel like I am worthy to people. Why do push everybody away?