Photography.
Photography is so many different things for me.
Photography can be many things for many different people.
Photography can be just a hobby, a coping skill, a way of life, or a job.
Photography for me is such a big impact in my life as a coping mechanism, it's like my own little getaway. It's my getaway from the whole world, it's my own piece of reality that I can control. It's my viewpoint on reality when I'm losing touch with it myself. It's finding the most perfect angle in a situation that I usually couldn't see by myself.
When I do photography I completely lose track of time, personality, mind, and just being a person all together. I become the photography in that moment as that's all I can bring up in my mind. I lose track of hours doing my photography, slipping into my own reality. I lose track of myself and don't have to worry about emotions or being in that moment. I can just be nothing but a perfect picture in my eyes.
Photography that you do doesn't have to attract anyone else, it just has to be perfect to you. It has to be something YOU like, nobody else matters unless it's your JOB to do it. I'd never take on photography as a job, I might offer to do photography for someone but I wouldn't get offended if they didn't like my angles or what I take of them, because in that moment I find the angle,the activity, the pose, all of it just absolutely gorgeous.
Sharing my photography in physical form is such a hard thing for me because I don't like people having that key to my reality, that PIECE of my reality, I may show digital copies, but I'll never print you a copy unless you mean something dear to me.
Photography is my key to life, without it I'd of given up three years ago when everything took it's turn....