i’m super embarrassed to post this but i have so much anxiety right now. i don’t know why but ever since i was little i’ve always lied about my life to make it seem like it was perfect. it’s obvious a self esteem issue but i care way too much about what others think of me. anyways i ran into a girl i went to high school with who i’ve always been jealous of her because she’s beautiful and super smart. in school we both got good grades but after graduation (3 years ago) i didn’t go to university right away because i wasn’t sure what to do and i work full time while she’s in law school. i feel really embarrassing that im not in school and feel like i should be so when i saw her i lied and said im in university. she asked me so many questions about what i’m taking etc and i stumbled on words a lot because i was lying but i was scared of what she was gonna say if i told her i just work. i feel like she definitely knew i was lying because i told her i was in my 3rd year of nursing and she asked to see my course outline on my university website. obviously i don’t have an account and then i told her that i was just starting out with school and i couldn’t login to my account. i know i shouldn’t of lied but i can’t help it, like i said it’s always been a bad habit but i worry too much of the opinion of others. she told me to send her a picture of my course outline when i get home but i’ve been ignoring her about it. i feel sick because i lied and i told her so much about school i feel like if i told her the truth she would just think something is wrong with me. i don’t know what to do because she talks to a few of my friends and i’m scared she’s gonna tell them and my friends are gonna stop talking because i lied. i’m trying to calm down but don’t know how