I truly am stuck on what to do with my mental illness ... Majority of the time they leave me or occasionally not a good fit.  I am so sick of having for find a new therapist and phscrtrist . the one session i had today was a waste of time never remembering anything from the next session nor sending me resources or having me do hw like is told. I am sick of therapy but i need help and I just get shy at first few session. no one understand me and i can not explain what is going on with me. i feel like i have bpd but no one belive me . my phyctrist left me and never got back to me like she mention abotu a reffferal.  i feel like i should just stop but i know i need help and i want to be back on meds since I am starting my new job soon and need to be proffesional