Does anyone else know what I mean? It’s not like I don’t know what mindfulness means, I’ve looked it up countless times- it’s just that I don’t understand how to be in the present moment. I am constantly being dragged into the painful past and getting triggered, and I am plagued by intrusive thoughts that are strong enough to ruin my mood and send me in a downward spiral that will make me want to isolate myself and deal with the pain alone. When that doesn’t happen, I’m anxious about my *future* in every aspect of my life. I can’t think without some negative voice in my head ruining something :(