I’m a straight female, to clarify. I can jump right into sex, no problem.. which I know puts them off from wanting anything more than sex. Most of the time, I kind of don’t care about having a relationship and my only concern is getting off. Other times I absolutely hate myself for being so promiscuous and I cry almost hysterically bc I’m so lonely- these feelings usually go as quickly as they come, but they’re so intense. And actually, I think deep down/if I’m being honest with myself, I do want a relationship and a life with someone.

I’m getting older and literally everyone around me is getting married, but I almost cannot even grasp the concept of two people meeting and actually dating, and falling in love. It makes me really sad. 