I really wish I could just quit life. I screwed up too many things for myself, despite the support of my family. I have very little fight or desire to keep going on pursuing anything. It's starting to feel pointless. Even if by some miracle I managed to find something I love doing, it's with the expectation of making money.  Then that money has to equate to enough to access food, healthcare, and shelter which will probably not be ideal/safe unless you make a substantial amount. I hate being 30 &amp; still living with my family, but I also don't make enough right now to live on my own. And the career that would have accomplished that I'm not sure I want to pursue anymore/I've disqualified myself from getting. And say I decide to "switch gears "and pursue something else, that is going to require schooling/training i.e. more money...that I don't have. Short of getting the courage to kill myself in some gruesome but effective way,  I'm having a hard time seeing what else is left at this point.