my FP is my boyfriend of 4 months and i love him and never felt like this before, he’s met my friends they’ve hit it off but i’ve always been reluctant to meet his bc i know somehow i’d be jealous of their relationship, i finally agree to go to the movies with my FP and his two best friends (a guy and a girl) they introduce themselves to me just small talk and thennthey do nothing but talk around me the entire time, he made me sit on the end of the aisle i felt like an outcast the entire time, afterwards they’re all talking and laughing at inside jokes it was like i was invinsible i felt so distant i was so hurt and sad i questioned whether he even likes me, i know to a person without BPD something like this could’ve been prevented if i talked more but i felt like my presence was non existent to them? ever since then ive been in a depressive episode i haven’t wanted to see my FP like i used to i hate feeling this way. i found the guts to tell him while i was drunk two nights ago how that night made me feel, he apologized but i felt so stupid and melodramatic for telling him now i want to fade away from this world lol 