I’ve had suicidal thoughts whenever I face setbacks, I try to be resilient but everything ends up crashing down

I do realise that it would be a waste to kms,especially since I have holidays so I’m honestly just chilling right now. The only thing is that my room just got painted like an hour ago. I’m still lying under the AC in a closed room and don’t really care if the paint vapours harm me lol

It’s a hard to breathe and I realise that nothing really serious would probably come from this but if the paint vapours could hypothetically kill me I wouldn’t be bothered to save myself