And he rushed me into a ketamine infusion, and now I don’t feel as depressed I don’t think, but I still have those thoughts rattling away inside of my head.   

Is there really not a way to get rid of them? I’ve tried loads of anti depressants, anti anxiety, anti psychotics, and weed.   Weed sometimes comes close.   But overall I still just get these thoughts and urges.   

Sometimes a relationship will help, though that isn’t perfect either.   


Am I doomed to think of suicide for the rest of my life?   

Is anyone else struggling with overcoming these kinds of thoughts and urges?