18 years of life and all i have to show for it is what exactly? You cant answer that and sadly neither can i. Life is so meaningless at its core yet people walk around acting like they have real purpose. Maybe i just dont get it. Maybe im the outlier. Maybe im the one thats broken. All my life has been spent trying to fit in and trying to do the right things in order to be successful. Now im almost out of Highschool with a brain that has no direction nor motivation, but the world just keeps on spinning right? The clock keeps ticking. People like me I suppose get sucked into some type of religion hoping it will suppress the pain and give them meaning, those same people fail to realize that they’re doing more harm than good. Suppressing you’re thoughts only lead to you being some body else. Some body thats you but deep down at you’re core just isnt. 


These are the exact type of thoughts i have when im trying to do basic everyday tasks. Im never focused on any one particular thing, my mind is always racing. It makes me think to myself if i could some how organize my thoughts… you know what if we could organize our thoughts and really focus on the task at hand we could all do something really special one day. Everyone of us you, you and yes you as-well. At this point im just going off on a tangent so im going to stop typing now. If you read this all the way through i just want to thank you and hope you live up to the potential you and i both know you have. Thank you &lt;3