This will be kind of vague because it's very personal and I'm pretty ashamed that I feel the way that I do, so hopefully it still makes sense to you guys...

Anyone ever hyperfixate on a concept rather than a person or thing? I'm so obsessed with this concept of freedom and the impossibility of it (for me), it permeates my every thought and I am SO ANGRY all of the time. My options feel like 1) be free, or 2) die. There feels like no continuing down the same forced path, and I can't get out of my head about it. I can feel it building inside of me, this pressure, this rage, this need to liberate myself, and it's only a matter of time before I have some kind of episode. I'm already starting to act legitimately crazy..

Not sure what I'm searching for here, maybe just commiseration 🤷‍♀️ this is a really hard place to be at and not many people would understand, so hoping to find that understanding here!