I moved into a new apartment this summer and it’s my first time really living out on my own.  I’m now across the country from my entire family partly to escape an abusive home life and partly just to have an adventure.  The only problem is, anxiety is stopping me from furnishing my apartment.  It’s been six months and I sleep on a cheap mattress on the floor, and finally just got curtains two weeks ago to cover the windows.  My roommates tease me about how strangely I live but what they don’t know is that it’s because of crippling money anxiety, and feeling like it all could be pulled out from under me at any moment.  I run my mind in circles about if spending money on furniture is even worth it if I’m broke, and what if I don’t even stay in this apartment for long because the rent in this city is high and I’m having trouble doing it on my own.  I’m literally just trying to buy a nice bed frame because I’ve never really had one, and I’m being my own worst enemy.  The anxiety of this whole thing is really alienating too, and I feel like nobody else has gone through this or understands it.  Does anyone else have any advice or have you experienced this?