I've never been able to not take what someone negatively says about me as anything other then the truth. 


For years I've tried. I've done DBT and CBT and alot of other threapy and it still doesn't help. 


I think it's the truth and there's nothing that can stop me from believing it. if someone says "you are ugly" then that's it. I'm ugly. Nothing else is true. And I'll end up falling apart inside out. 


So many times almost ending my life from things I'd hear online. It hurt that much and it is all true in my head. It's not even from a state of depression ether, it's like a impulsive truth that I cannot ever think otherwise about . I don't know if it's a trait if this disoder or if it's anther one of my mental illnesses doing this. Or potentially the brain damage I have or something else? 


I don't know. I can't reassure myself. I've never been able to. Even as a little child. 


It courses so much pain and I don't know why I can't rationally tell myself it's not true. I just can't believe it.