In my contry there is a saying, a year passes, but a day never. This last year made me feel just like that, i dont know where the time went but at the same time it felt like an eternity. 
Do You ever think about how a certain date that once had no meaning, suddenly can gets a meaning,  so years before you didnt know that just that date is something big.
May 28th, for example, was such meaningless date for a  20 years of my life. It is 3 days after one of my friends birthdays, its 10 days before my friends moms birthday. It is 3 days before June. 
And suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere, he got his meaning, and he will continue to have a meaning forever now. 
It became the day my best friend died. A year went by and my head or my heard still cant accept that fact. Its like i buried my soul with him along with our childhood and friendship. 
He practically raised me and taught me more than my parents did, tough me love and understanding and especially acceptance of differences. 
He was funny, kind, full of life and love toward life. He traveled, worked multiple jobs, partied like all people in their 20s do hahah
 If you had to earn right to live,  if anyone deserved this life, it was him, and it was taked away from him, so you can imagine the thoughts in my head, the feeling of void, regret and guilt, as someone who doesn't appreciate this life as half as he did.
This all rant is happening because in few days, it will officially be a years since then and in this year that went by i talked about my feelings with someone maybe 3 times and its is eating me up every day for the last year, i just had to get it of my chest s bit before it eats me completely.