I was meant to be going on holidays with my family tonight. It’s been planned for months. But recently I’ve had a major setback with my panic disorder and consequently my depression. The plan was for them to go without me, but I told my therapist I was scared I would seriously hurt (or even kill myself) while alone. Now my mother has to stay at home with me. I feel like a disappointment; she’s such a hardworking person and now she can’t even go on a well-deserved holiday because of me. I should’ve just kept my mouth shut and dealt with it myself.