When I was younger I was intensely passionate about at least 1 or 2 things. I had stuff I loved doing. I would love studying and learning about these things.

Now working and school does nothing but drain my energy and my mental health. My best parts of my days are when I avoid it all like a plague and watch YouTube videos. Used food as an emotional crutch too so now I'm 40 lbs overweight to top it all off.

Miss my childhood and my passions. Life has just become a shit ton more dismal. Thought about ending it like twice but luckily my mental isn't that far gone and I'm able to drag myself out of that kind of thinking.