I was so scared last night again for how I keep hearing things I prolly am thinking of doing. I needed to do something to get it off my mind or else I might do it , I almost did tho I was already doing it out rather preparing stuffs unknowingly I was doing it. Like i was ordered to do so and I can't say no or like head was just listening to what it was telling me to do. I wasn't in control of myself for a moment until I realized what I was doing. I'm scared oh f that feeling of blankness yet noisy atmosphere , I don't no hot I snapped back but it still haunts me. I'm doing a lot of things now and that sliver of quiet atmosphere scares me so