This is mostly a vent. I've been in a dissociative state for a couple weeks now, and when I'm not dissociating, I'm usually depressed. My partner said he was worried about me, but has done nothing to show this. Today he said he was frustrated because of it and what being in an episode has led to (mostly asking for help in ways he's not capable of providing). I told him that I don't know what's wrong but I don't want him to be affected by me being in a bad space, so I'm going to take some time to myself. His only response was "okay." I don't know what I expected but maybe a little love? Literally any sign to show that he actually cares what happens to me.

Ftr, he's an amazing partner and is usually very understanding. When I have a longer than average episode, he does get frustrated, but this is the first time I felt like he didn't care and don't think it's just in my head. I don't know why I'm in this state, but feeling like the person I thought would hold my hand through it doesn't want anything to do with me is definitely making it worse