I'm 20 and I live in the US. In no way shape or form do I have both the money nor insurance for this. I'm fucking scared of debt but I'm even more scared of continuing on like this. My mother never raised me as I should have been, I have bare minimal life experience outside of a single job and I simply don't know what to do.

I have anger issues, I have personality disorders, I have problems with dissaociating, I have extreme depression and a constant feeling of emptiness. All of this is self diagnosed, but for how long I've felt such a way my whole life I find it hard to believe it's anything else. I simply don't know what to do and all I ask for is any sort of advice.

I'm not a college student, I do not plan on college due to salary and lack of motivation. I am currently a NEET due to moving, a broken hand due to myself, and again lack of motivation. I just want to know what is a good idea from someone who is genuinely somewhat knowledgable. All that I see online is thousands and thousands of dollars that I cannot spare nor have which only increases in how severe you are and the amount of treatment included.


What do I do?