I was diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 14, but my friends with BPD (who all see me  at different times, in different settings and don’t know each other) always said that my symptoms seem more like the ones they had when they got their diagnosis. Up until now, my doctors have always said that my fear of abandonment is my depression, my paranoia is my depression, the feeling that things aren’t real is my depression. Today I reached a real low and got an emergency appointment at the doctors because I just needed someone to listen. And someone did listen! There’s a new doctor there (I’m hoping she’s not just a locum) and I saw her with a list of my symptoms and told her exactly how I feel and she agreed that it sounds more like BPD than depression, and is referring me to talking therapies for CBT and DBT. I’m just so relieved that someone has finally listened to me after years of thinking that I was just a bad person and was destined to never feel “normal”.