It's like I'm finally aware of how much of a shitty person I am and I do experience a moment of clarity after crying so that works.

And no, fellow member of this sub. I won't do extreme or dangerous shit to make me feel alive. 

If I did, I would have just jumped off the nearest bridge. Do you want me to fucking do that as my fucking evidence, you piece of shit? WOULD THAT MAKE YOU FUCKING HAPPY?!