Ok guys so I did it. I finally accepted that I need medications to help me stabilize my emotions. Little back story I have almost died several time due to complications with medications. I have severe trust issues with doctors but in the interest of self preservation I just took the leap. Its day 3 of the medication Cymbalta and I feel ok. Yesterday afternoon I felt like I had taken a small dose of some really good extacy idk if thats good or bad but I felt great for a bit then I would get really tired then go back up... not really fun on the down side but emotionally stable non the less. Experiencing slight nausea throughout the day and cottonmouth but other than that im ok I guess. I'll keep updating as it goes. Oh so im on 30mg Cymbalta they plan to up it to 60 in 11 more days. Wish me luck