I don't fucking know why but I honest to God feel like such shit right now and I want to tear the FUCK out of my wrists.

I'm messaging a guy, V, and he's not... the most... best.. he's very toxic. Example, told him being called good girl/little girl will trigger the FUCK out of me sometimes and he said he didn't care. That's one thing.

Anyways. I just really want to fucking die right now and I'm hoping I fucking get triggered MORE to dissasociate and slit my fucking arms open.

Everyone I live with will be fucking pissed when they see I did this but I don't care. I can use the excuse that I don't want my sisters bfs kids to see my scars and that's why I'm wearing a long sleeve. Fuck. This. I want to fucking cut.

Why am I fucking like this!!!!!!!!!!