i'm a very impulsive person and i often do stupid things and realize how stupid they are way too late. 

lately i have not been caring about anything and i havent been feeling anything either. i notice myself doing dumb things like giving myself tattoos or crossing the street at the last second, almost getting ran over, because i wouldnt care if i died and it gives me a small adrenaline rush.

ive been noticing impulsive thoughts about running away to a different country, and just fleeing forever, just popping into my head. also thoughts of commiting crimes. im already kind of a thief (im not proud of it. kleptomania runs in the family) and ive been feeling like id be better off if i got caught, because at least there'd be something happening in my life.