I constantly feel tired and sore no matter how rested I am, there is always a lingering ache. It's been like that for 7 years. I'm 18 now turning 19 in a few days. Some days are better than others and after a string of decent days I begin to believe that I have finally overcome it. And then I open my eyes one day and I feel empty. It used to be sadness but now I've gotten so used to the feeling it's as if my brain has given up trying to produce the emotion and just chooses nothing. I've never said that to anyone, never even wrote it down maybe this will help. I've thought about suicide but every time I do I can only picture my family grieving over me and I don't want to put them through that. I don't know what to do with my mental state. If anyone wants to talk I'm more than willing.