he won't leave me alone. he was my first fp. he wont stop trying to come back. i think hes addicted to hurting me. the second i let my guard down even a little he just.. destroys any progress ive made and villanizes me. i feel like my only experiences with guys have been through narcissistic abuse. and so, i guess i thought he changed. i thought enough time passed. he pushes me on purpose. he gets so excited to watch me split on him and then degrade me for it. he laughs and villanizes me. i hate him so much. i want to hurt us both