Using mobile so sorry for format.... Why do people need you in their fucking lives?!like... They'll go months without talking to you or realising you're a person but when you talk about depression, suicide and them living without you is something they can't live with?!
My family growing up was very disfunctional.... We all have an unhealthy attachment to each other but I always feel like the left one out (three siblings over all).
I just want to die. I was to stop hurting so much but I know what the pain of losing someone does to someone and I can't do that to them. But I'm barely part of their life. Why do I need to life in this fucking devestating life for the few times they remember I exist? I'm so fucking tired.