So back when it was my bday i got drunk, I started asking her a buncha times if we could kiss and stuff and she was saying no and i kept asking. Too be fair i was asking if it was sexual harrassment and she was like no but the thing that bothers me is I think I knew it was bad but the drunkness made me not feel guilty. And when i did feel slightly guilty I asked if sexual harrasment. And with the kiss questions I wasnt aggresive i was just asking a lot. The reason she was saying no is because my siblings were there and it would be like PDA. She says it really isnt that bad and that there were no victims. But end of the day theres no excuse for sexual harrassment even if it is my gf or even if i was drunk. There was no excuse for the sexual harrassment and I cant deal with it. Ive never had this cause this is a real bad thing I did and I just cant deal with it I dont know what too do. And we also did kiss when it wasnt PDA, and I asked if that was cause I coerced her into it and she said no but still im worried I did and that makes me feel even worse and its just all bad. And like sometimes she said no too what I thought was a private kiss and sometimes she said yes so that made me thing I rlly did coerce her but she said that when I wanted too kiss in a seperate room ppl would know where gone so thats why it was a public kiss kinda. But one time we did kiss in a seperate room so idk if that was coercian. Sorry im all over the place. But like we kissed in seperate room once, then she said no for all the other times I asked for seperate room kiss, then we kissed when my brother dropped her off and i was there so I walked her home so we could kiss. Also I think she gave me small kisses in between that I feel bad about cause i feel like that was just coerced. Shes rlly great and is fine and wants me too feel better about this and I do too, I just cant.