I know the whole basis of BPD is abandonment but I used to have such an intense fear that my bf was leaving me and always acted in a way that I thought would prevent that. For some reason I don’t really fear that much anymore. I’ve seriously been starting to worry about him dying. I hate when he drives or leaves the house. I’m in a full panic until he’s back and safe with me. This past week i’ve thought he’s been dead about four different times. Does anyone know how to calm this down and let me think more rational? Or is death really just so common and i have the right to fear it this much?