You know that feeling you get. Where you chest just feels so heavy yet entirely empty all at the same time..? I'm there right now and really really don't want to do anything stupid but I'm having trouble even typing this because my eyes keep watering. 

I got a damn speeding ticket but I swear I wasn't going as fast as he says i was going. But no one believes me. My parents are making me feel even worse and it just keeps getting worse and worse. 

I've graduated college. Magna cum laude. I did everything right and yet I still fuck up. I try so hard to stay in the lines. To stay out of trouble and yet here I am. I swear, I feel like i would be better off dead.