Help help help do I have this ???

Could this be schizoid or a cluster a pd?
Or like dependent or avoidant pd


People always end up not liking me

I have stayed close w my hs friends for a while. I have such bad social anxiety and am afraid when I’m alone w people that I don’t even like being w them alone. I went to college and met a friend. I almost walked away from her bc I thought in my head “she probably doesn’t wanna talk to u” even tho we were friends. Ugh. I always tell my self to stop talking to ppl and idk how to talk to new ppl. I am overly accommodating and mimick them bc ifk what my personality is. I can be bubbly positive cute flirty and fun but I’m rarely comfortable. I’m so reserved. I got so close w my college roommate. She would be so happy and say how we were best friends. I always tried to act like her so she’d like me and so times I did it too much.  But I always feel awkward abt knowing if I’m invited to things. Like I just feel weird w new ppl. I’m scared to text and reach out. When we first met she’d say how we needed to get matching tops for games but since she never actually invited me I felt awkward inviting myself w her. So I just got rlly close and did everything w her and became best friends w her. But I feel like she started to not like me bc I stopped hanging w my other friend and doing my own thing and I’m so dependent. I’m also childish and can’t stand when someone questions me even tho I’m innocent I feel like when someone feels I’m a bad person I just naturally get defensive. I also wouldn’t ever shut up abt the boy I was hurt by. Even when she had hard times of her own I’d try to stop talking abt the guy but I had trouble. I feel like I was just following her. I was only happy w her. Even her friends like drained my energy and I feel like I’m only myself and talkative w her. I also randomly find inside jokes cringe and stop doing them w friends which obviously hurts ppls feelings and I shouldn’t do that I do think that’s bc social anxiety

But like my roommate saw me as someone who was happy all the time. I love socializing and partying every night. But I just get scared. I like when friends tell me secrets and don’t tell anyone else bc rhan Ik a matter to the friend. Which I was. She did say once that I pretend like everything’s perfect and ignore my problems.