 I need to get a job but I just watch YouTube all day or go on Reddit. I smoke so much weed I'm too paranoid to leave my house without someone I trust with me. I obsess about a man that never liked me and make myself crazy. I texted him really crazy things and he blocked me. I want to learn how to be happy by myself but I obsess over this every single day. He told my childhood friend what I said and the shame is eating me.