I feel like I’m constantly fighting for my normalcy. I’ve been struggling so much with my graduate program, with my thesis defense coming up and feelings of depression and inadequacy. I’ve got bipolar 2 too, so the lows are really getting to me and I wish I was in the normal euthymic phase. I was there about a year ago but even with meds I feel so alone. It might have to do with being in another country, somewhat isolated from friends and family. My boyfriend and friends have been nothing but supportive of me when I’m like this, but I feel so down that its like I’m in a pit and can’t get out. I graduate in 3 months so I’ll be moving back home soon, but I feel so horrible and my intrusive thoughts are getting bad. I have no thoughts of suicide or self harm, but the negative thoughts about myself are really powerful and I just wish I could get better. I feel like the progress I’ve made since my diagnosis 3 years ago has been for nothing if I’m going to be like this. Does anyone else struggle with this? I feel so alone.