During the next week I'll be in the hospital to learn new skills and also to get intruduced to DBT. My Therapist also tought me some basic DBT skills and I tried to educate myself how to develop and use skills but my problem is that I feel so silly actually doing it.
I try to speak to my inner child means I feel like a childish coward. Trying to express feelings through drawings? No, I can't to that, feels wrong. Playing the guitar to calm myself down...  I can't cause I'm not able to focus. I'm also not a musician....
Going on a walk? Doesn't feel like it's working... just walking aroind like a lonely idiot. 
Just trying to rationalize my thoughts is so hard. I know that most of my thoughts are BPD bullshit but I'll never be able to escape this hell... 

I really don't know what to do and I don't have much hope in DBT... 
Does anyone had the same experience and is now doing better?