I'm 25 (f) and love at home with parents. I've struggled with depression since i was very young because a narcissistic physically and emotionally abusive mother (i still live with her). No one in my family believes the extent of things that happen and my dad is hell bent on living in a fantast where we are a happy family. 

Anyway, the past two years have become really bad for me. I've let my bedroom become a horrible mess and im so embarrassed but i dont have the energy to clean it. I have little moths flying around and it's taking a toll on my health too. I have contant dry skin, bug bites on my skin etc, mould in my cupboards. 

 Today, my dad put some bedsheets in my room and it was the first time he's seen my room like that and im so scared he will shout at me and embarrass me. 

I don't know where to start and i don't know how.