it hurts so bad....my friend just texted me saying goodbye for the last time. I can't stop crying. He's dead. I should have been there for him when he needed me, maybe then he might still be here. I have ptsd from losing people and severe abandonment issues. I can't deal with this. I don't know how. I lost another person. why do people keep leaving me?! I'm mad, im in pain, i don't know how to deal with this! It fucking hurts! Everybody leaves me. I know this is short, but i honestly can't even put this kind of pain into words. Its agonizing...