Im really stuck.. i got anxiety + panick attacks 7 years ago.. since that day i just stop doing more and more things.. like hanging out with friends..going to te places..vacations etc.  
so firstly i didnt know what happened to me.. i was driving in the car with my friends and my entire body got numb..i was feeling like dying.. they rushed me to the hospital.. and doctor that was working there just gave me glass of the water on the first sip everything stopped in less then a second.. then i went home, and it started to occure whenever i was alone.. then my parents tried to help me with just doing random things.. walking in the nature visiting family.. each time it was too much hard for me knowing that i cant do nothing by myself.. i was kinda forced to go with them everywhere even if wasnt in a mood to do such things.. example cause i knew what will happened to me if i am alone i was forced to wake up every morning even tho my sleeping schedule was so bad.. i needed to follow them to their job and wait for them until they finish working..that was stressing me so much... that was going on for almost 2.5 years.. and once i was so tired..i couldnt wake up.. and i managed to stay alone at home.. since that day i never left my room.. its always dark inside.. i didnt talk with friends for almost 5 years.. i dont talk to people irl i didnt live my life for almost 5 years.. i dont know how my town looks outside whats new i dont know anything.. i live really low life.. i lost over 15 kg i was really buffed i eat once a day sometimes not even that.. i used have 74 kg on 185 cm height.. now i am around 59-58 im not even sure.. my health is so poor, my muscles are gone... my knees are hurting cause im not moving at all... i am just laying down.. i got used to it..even all of this things gaved me even more problems.. from all of this i got tinitus, ringing inside my ears, now everything that is too much loud drives me crazy, i cant sleep if my pc is not turned on.. my parents kinda left me out.. now they just bring me food.. i dont have money for clothes.. for nothing.. i survived winter in the summer clothes... i dont have anyone to turn to.. i dont know what to do.. where to go.. to who i should talk..? i visited therapyst long time ago they gaved me some pills that were making me feel so lazy.. slow.. when i was taking them i felt like talking 2 feets away from my body.. it was so strange.. i stopped taking them cause my heart was beating so strange from them so couple times it cause me to have a panic attack... and due to everything my family is mess while i was feeling so down.. my parents were fighting for 2 years every single day.. cause their marriage was about to end.. me being so mentally abused from the past, war and racisim in the school i kinda saved their marriage i was stepping inside every fight and hold them while they were fighting smashing things around house.. it was soooo bad... cause of those issues my room got filled with plates and my hygiene left to 0.. it was dirty.. why? i dont know ... things were just adding up.. i didnt know where my head was.. im 27 years old.. what will happened to me? what will i do? im not productive at all.. i live with 1$ daily when i transfer it into food and thats it.. im not gonna lie i want to dissapear i dont have suicidal thoughts i used to have them for the long time.. but not anymore.. i just dont see way out.. i feel like there is big mountain on my shoulders.. im getting old.. i missed so much in my life.. and ill miss more cause i dont know what to do.. if i leave my home more the half of the mile.. i get panic attack.. its just so bad. PLEASE HELP! With any advice..