I feel like people said I am not ugly out of sympathy and pity. I am super ugly and I feel super ugly. It is not only ugly but I am short and have very bad personality with unlikeable characteristics. I am just bad at everything I do and I am just a garbage in the world. It is sad that I cannot just dissapear from this world and wipe everyone memory about me since nobody actually care about it. Yea there is people said I am good looking but it is super unconvincing and I really hate myself. I am just ugly and nothing I can do about it while I try to accept it but it is making me more depressed. Why am I even here trying my best when there is nothing to work for? I almost believe some people compliment but in the end I found out it is out of sympathy and it is not even close to the compliment. I have huge mental problem and I can only solve it alone and I am tired of it. Life sucks and nothing turn out good and I can only wait the day God actually decided to take my life since I contribute nothing to the world.