So I’ve recently been diagnosed with bpd which the one person I have actually told said makes a lot of sense but now I’m struggling with my identity even more and just wanted to see if anyone had any sort of light ? 

So I’ve always had issues with my identity I’m not sure who I am the usual. I did the awful thing of trying to read loads and loads of stuff about bpd and now I feel like it’s kinda made me worse? Like I’m TRYING to be what people expect? I don’t know it’s hard to explain? 

I also feel like now I’m just really second guessing myself, is it me? Is it who I’m pretending to be? Do I even have bpd or have I just seen something and ended up displaying the behaviours? 

I’ve got a partner at the minute but I’ve completely gone cold on him he never asks me how he can help and it’s clear I’m in distress and I’ve met someone new who is amazing and I spend all my time talking to and really really makes me feel better and challenges me to be a better person but now that’s adding to my confusion do I just think I like the other person or not.. am I making a big mistake?

Basically I’m super weirded out and have no idea of my own thoughts or feelings and this is a bit of a rant and I feel a bit manic so none of it probably makes sense but yeah pls someone comment or something