I went through a horrifying trauma (not that that excuses it), and a period where I had no job. It started with stealing food because I legitimately had no money, and then it was clothes I would then sell for money. And then it became makeup and books for absolutely no reason, just because I wanted to and I could. This was thee years ago, and ever since, I’ve had nightmares from all the guilt. Lately I started again with small markers from craft stores and nail polish. But I want to stop, I can’t handle this guilt. I talked to my therapist about it awhile ago, but she said I need to forgive myself for doing what I needed to get by, but I can’t see it that way since a lot of it was makeup and shit I didn’t need. I’m trying so hard not to be consumed by guilt and shame