My dads bi polar and I've been diagnosed as a depressive however the diagnosis came during a depressive period so when I was asked if I've ever had periods of feeling high or manic I said no because I was so obsessed with how miserable I was. I'm only asking this really because I can't tell if I'm in a manic episode or not I really don't want to self diagnose because that's seems inconsiderate of me. If I was described my state of my mind and the moment its like very erratic and frustrated. I want to try do something but I can't focus on anything and I'm pacing around alot I'm finding it hard to sleep. I'm sorry if I'm making assumptions this is just really frustrating to me because it feels like I can't control my own head at the moment like I've got energy to do things but I can't apply it and its driving me up the wall.