Just want to rant and put word to my emotions that I've been feeling lately. I feel like no one actually truly cares about me. I live with my family and I'm someone that believe someones action more then their words. Because of that I've seen a lot of actions from my family and siblings that to me indicates that they are really selfish and just care about them self. I feel like I'm being taken advantaged of and I'm just someone who should be there to fulfill their needs. I'm just not that important to them. As long as I can remember I've always said to myself to not have to much expectation on someone because I do get disappointed again and again. 

Today my mother was in the hospital and I stayed at home from school because I didn't feel that well either. I was having a lot of anxiety and I've been very exhausted the last couple of days. But I forced myself to cook, clean and take care of my younger brother... when my younger sister returned home from school I asked her if she could help me with something small but she snapped and started to scream about her not getting to rest and she was changing.. Ok for me, but no need to snap because of that. I didn't say anything because I thought, yes she may be tired, she can maybe help later because mom is still in the hospital.  But no she didn't... the only time she came down was 3 hours later when I finished cooking, she ate and went upstairs again and didn't do anything to help me. And this is not the first time my siblings have acted this way. My mother will be sick and not able to do something and I have to do cooking, cleaning and  go to work and do my school work... and when I call for help they will snap at me and be all bitter about it. I've told them may times that I can't do everything by myself, that I need help and if we helped each other out all the screaming and yelling would be non-existent. We would finish so much faster and everyone can go on and do whatever they wanted to do. But why do I have to bear all the burden? Why will they not care about how I feel and how I'm doing?  I go to school full time and I also work in a fast food restaurant and still come home and need to do shit. And the only time they talk to me is when the need stuff? Whatever that is money, food or just to talk about how they are feeling? My sister does this all the time. I'll be coming home late at night and all she wants to do is talk about herself and how tired and anxious she is. Like the whole world is centered around her. When I tell her no, I cant listen she will get all grumpy and go and complain to my mother and just making me feel bad. My mother will only talk about herself, and my brothers are to busy with their computers or being outside. I feel all alone and I just don't have the energy any longer. What about me? Am I not human? Don't I deserve to be asked how I'm feeling? Do I not deserve a nice warm meal when I'm sick? Do I not deserve to be listened to when I'm feeling down? Why do they not care about my well-being?