Hey everyone.
I wanted to make this post because I am completely terrified about starting to Uni and honestly, I just want to know more on how to do well.
As a bit of background, I’m a overweight 20 year old who doesn’t really have any friends. I struggle with confidence issues and depression so whenever I make a massive change in my life, it gets extremely overwhelming to a point where I just feel hopeless.

I’m moving to university on Saturday, while all my flatmates have moved already and are enjoying the partying and clubbing.
I have never been to a party or even been clubbing and I know that as an introvert, I just probably won’t enjoy it. 
I spoke to my flatmates on our groupchat on snapchat and I just don’t feel like I belong :(, all of them are healthy, attractive and just enjoy living, while on the other hand I am dealing with too many things that I wish i could get rid of.
Sometimes I would ask a question in the group chat and just no one would respond until someone else talks.

For the last month I have been wasting paycheck after paycheck on clothes that are oversized (ended up being way too big) and a few shirts for clubbing in case. 

I’ve talked to so many family members and family friends and all they kept saying is “go party on freshers week, go do this and that and enjoy yourself” but to me, it has caused more anxiety over anything else. I just feel so unprepared socially.

Right now, I’m procrastinating on my packing for Saturday because I am just dreading moving in and will very most likely cry myself to sleep the first few nights until i feel properly at home.

Wish my mum was here to talk to.
Maybe fucked up people like me shouldn’t go to university. I’m almost sick to my stomach