I'm so tired of feeling like this everyday of my life, I'm so incredibly sad but I can't cry it just sits in my chest and I just want to rip it out. I can't do anything without thinking about how pathetic I am, how no one will love the real me, how fucking stupid I am, I'm such a loser, everyone would have been better off if I never existed.

I keep telling myself this is the day I'm going to hang myself but I can never do it.. I just chicken out and pretend I'm going to do it next time.

I don't want to die even though my inner voice keeps telling me to over and over again non stop.

I can't live like this forever i have to kill myself.