Just got out of a 3 month depressive episode and can feel the mania coming on since last week. I don’t have an appointment with my psychiatrist until next Tuesday and I fear I might just fly off the handle before then. I don’t like talking to my friends about what I think cause I don’t want to overwhelm them. My SO other has been patient and understanding but just doesn’t understand what’s going on completely. Just feel like the time of self-destruction is coming at me full speed and there’s nothing I feel I can do to stop it.