So one thing I am learning about myself is that I am occasionally in situations where I'm in a slightly serious pickle but I blow it up in my head and become extremely anxious for days. In this situation it has to do with sexual health, so this is that kind of post just and I may get kind of specific just so you know. I found a little pimple down there last week and was pretty sure it was just an ingrown hair. It went down right away but I decided to get it checked as soon as I could just to be on the safe side. Back in January, I had been intimate with someone who had HSV-2. We used protection, he wasn't having any flare-ups at the time and he takes meds for it. I never showed any symptoms either. So I know chances of me having it are much lower, but it is still possible so I'm taking my precautions.

I should get the restuls next week and I'm actually not that worried about them. What I am freaking out about is that I've been seeing a guy casually this summer and really feel I need to tell him just to be transparent. It's the responsible thing to do. But honestly, when we first started getting physical I didn't even think about mentioning that I may have been exposed to HSV, even though we were being cautious (FYI, I used condoms with guy from January, and I use condoms with current guy). What I'm freaking out about is about telling him. I'm so so afraid of bringing this up and making him super mad that I didn't mention this before. Especially when this more likely is nothing. But it's also killing me not to say anything. Either way it's killing me.

Anyway, does anyone have suggestions on how to approach this and how to talk to him about this? Honestly I feel like I first need to bring down the anxiety cause I am at a 10. I'm sitting at home right now and am barely able to move. Yes I know about deep breaths, but I need more strategies. So I need strategies on bringing the anxiety down a notch and also on communicating this with him.

As you can imagine I already feel guilty and ashamed and stupid for not being proactive about this before, so please do only share constructive feedback. I don't need someone else reminding me how serious this can be.

TL;DR: Took an STD test to be extra cautious because there is a chance I was exposed to HSV-2 in the past. Freaking out about telling this to my current partner and need suggestions on 1. Bringing down extreme anxiety I have, and 2. Telling this to current partner.