You know why I feel so betrayed at the end of every friendship/relationship? It's because I always bend over backwards to help out others but the same is never done for me. I try my hardest to be someone they can trust, their "go to person", but they can never be the same for me. 

Now I know, not being able to trust others is a BPD characteristic, but I would like it if even some of my kindness would be reciprocated. 

Anyway, rant over, perspective needed. Thank you.