a while ago now (2-3months) i was questioning a close friend of mine about something stupid and was being kinda annoying, i didnt realize until she expressed that she was annoyed with me. her annoyance led my bpd to believe that she hated me and that i should never speak to her again and i blocked her on everything (just bpd things lol) i then contacted her a week or 2 later bc she didnt make an effort to contact me (it was the final straw for her in our friendship and i was about to learn that)  she replied to my message that i sent saying that im weird, a baby and need to act like an adult (every friend whose abandoned me has called me a baby before leaving), and that she doesnt see why anyone would want to be my friend because all i do is guilt-trip and play the victim and need to be coddled all the time. this was beyond hurtful because me and her have been close friends for a long time now and i’ve opened up to her deeply about my mental illness, but i’ve realized that when it’s the final straw for them, that’s their choice. although she was mean and that wasn’t okay, i am trying to accept that im not entitled to anyones friendship that that im very hard to be close to cause i have this horrible mental illness. i cry uncontrollably sometimes remembering the things she said, and i was wondering if anyone else who has bpd has been spoken to like this and if someone close to u has ever just decided it was the end because of how hard it is to be close to people with bpd?