I’m a 40 year old guy that been thru a lot in the past 1.5 months. I tried to take my life after my wife said she wanted a divorce. ( I had death on my mind for months, this topped it off)I drank muriatic acid. My wife called 911 and I ran from the police and EMS.My heart stopped once in the ambulance and once in ER. My wife never once came to hospital, would only call the nurses to check in. I don’t care what her and I were going thru I would have been right by her side with 110% support. She didn’t tell anyone until day 3 the drs said I had taken a turn for the worse and wouldn’t  make it thru the night. So she finally called my mom to tell her I was in ICU about to loose my wife.  I’m just having a hard time dealing with this. I’m an idiot for still wanting my wife back in my arms.