Every day I am worse. The battle that I have day by day, I can less and less with it. I can hardly stand waking up anymore, much less going about my day. I'm only alive because I don't want to ruin my parents' life for the years I have left.

I have endured 35 years in this valley of tears. I can not anymore. I just wish I could live like an android, feeling nothing, until my parents live their last day. And then I can rest too.

I don't have my own life, because the only thing I want is to be able to stop suffering because of how badly I've had it and have had it in my years of life.

Please I want to end this soon