I can't seem to go a week without fucking something up rather seriously, and now I'm possibly dealing with bullshit I've been desperately trying to avoid. On top of that, I've been losing people I've been connected to as a result on ongoing issues, and so on. My health has gone to shit, despite being relatively young, and I'm chroically alone or isolated, I think.

Why can't I just be normal? why do I have to destroy my own interests constantly? and why do I have to deal with genetic illness kicking in now of all times?