I'm tired of just feeling so damn hopeless. Each day is the same exact as the last, and will be the same tomorrow and the next.

Wake up, eat once, lay back down, cry, sleep, repeat. No energy to do anything else. No care to do anything else. Just a lazy broken mind.

Some days I drink. When I'm sober I hurt having nothing to numb the pain with so I sleep long hours. It helps. Maybe that's why I stay here for now.

I have no idea why I'm here. I'm useless and honestly don't care to do better. I don't want to do life or be here but I am stuck here. I can't kill myself yet because I have family.

I hate it here and want out. Also I need drink I'm going crazy without it!