TW: self harm, suicidal ideation 

I’ve had one of my worst days in months after a steady incline of getting better. I’m feeling really disappointed in myself and embarrassed at the way that I’ve acted.

I had a really intense episode of body dysmorphia that ended in self harm and a very near attempt. I didn’t communicate properly with my boyfriend and was so overcome with guilt that I told him I didn’t even want him around me. This has really upset him and he thinks it’s because I don’t love him anymore. Things have since calmed down but I still feel like he’s upset. Our parents are/were supposed to be meeting for the first time this Sunday. 


I don’t feel so out of control anymore but I’ve got an arm full of cuts making me feel pathetic and my fp doesn’t want to be around me. I’m crushed and I don’t know what to do. 