Feeling very stressed and struggling badly lately 

Given the current pandemic and my own workplace I am finding it very difficult 

I want to leave my job; its a toxic environment and I keep getting told that I'm not needed. Everyone is bitchy to everyone else and I hate it 

The workplace is struggling to make ends meet and we can all see its failing which doesn't help moral. 

My period also are all over the place and trying to find a balance of contraception because of it 

I want a full time job but given the current world we live in its getting more and more impossible with the amount of job losses 

I fear for the world and what we are doing to it but people will never change. 

I want support from my bf but I just think he doesnt care. Maybe he doesnt or maybe he does 

I want to blow all my savings on random stuff.... what's the point of saving to move out when I cant even get a full time job 🤷‍♀️ I feel like im saving for nothing by seeing where everything is going it could just be wasted sat there

I want a workplace to give me the chance, I have a lot to give and would be great 

I hate the world we live in and I hate the people in it. Self centred and always looking for an advantage so what is the point. I might as well use my savings to buy stuff rather then save it to move out with my bf 

I have been drunk multiple times and bashed my diet- im classed as obese and im trying but as usual it's not good enough 

The quote that comes into my head is 'this life is overwhelming im ready for the next one' but please don't be worried whoever reads this  im not suicidal- just my wondering thoughts..... i will struggle on because thats what i am expected to do.... put on a fake smile and pretend I'm happy because who wants to inconvenience of my drama 

Rambling...i apologise