I never had a bad life per se, I just always have been pathetic and mediocre.

I have very few friends (only 1 of which I still see in person). I have never had a girlfriend. I have never had sex. I never kissed anyone.

I have never acomplished anhthing. I work at a mill and I hate it. I hate manual labor but that's all I can get with my literature degree. I don't have any skills at all. I fail at everything to the point where it's comical to others. I still haven't succeeded in getting my driver's license. Last time I tried (this morning) the lady evaluating me stopped me 10 minutes into the test because I was too dangerous. 

I have started writing a poem about my life (it's not completed yet):


"Hollow
An empty being
He is nothing. He has nothing. 
He has never truly lived.
Human simulacrum, 
Homonculus!"