I feel like as things get better in my life, I get worse. Nothing's good for me. I could have the most fulfilled successful life and I'll still want to d*e. I don't want to be around for only suffering. I can't even enjoy the 'good' moments, because they just aren't. I'll never be happy no matter how hard I try. I'm 24 and I've had these feelings/symptoms since I was 15 years old. I've had therapy, different medications, lifestyle changes. I don't see a way out. Nothing changes.