Hey, this is my first time on Reddit but I am feeling lost..after years of me being confused on why I act the way I act I saw a psychologist and we did some screening and I told him everything I’ve been going through and my thoughts and what not and he said straight away that it was BPD and it all fits PERFECTLY! I also have severe anxiety and depression and PTSD (grew up in a cult, emotionally abusive mother, was raped, was in a bad marriage, basically I’ve hit every bad branch on the tree of life) and I have ruined pretty much every relationship in my life...I told my roommate (used to be my best friend (?)) and she kind of laughed and asked how they can diagnose off one visit (the guy I’m seeing has more experience than I’ve been alive and he is extremely good at what he does and has obviously seen it a lot and I passed all the screenings for it with flying colors) and then she laughed and said I am just saying this for attention and that she’s never seen me actually have a full blown anxiety attack (which I get often but usually hide them decently well until I’m alone) and now it makes me feel like absolute crap...the boyfriend broke up with me because of how I was treating him and he says that he loves me and is trying to make things work but I feel like all I do is mess things up over and over because I make up all these completely unrealistic scenarios in my mind and then I guess take them out on him:/ I just feel lost and like I don’t have anyone because I’ve literally ruined my relationships with everyone! I recently got a DBT book and it has good points but it is so hard to apply it to my life because I don’t know how! Like I try and do the mindfulness stuff but when I am in that state it feels impossible..please tell me I’m not alone in this 😞 because it hurts so bad. 