opening up about my struggles was a huge mistake. they constantly get used against me, i get scolded for feeling the way i do, they treat me like some freak. they don't understand anything. rather than trying to listen, they label me all sorts of names. it doesn't help when they share my issues with people outside my own family. i've been locked in my room, listening to the same song for the whole day, in hopes to calm myself down and dissociate for a while, yet their harsh words are able to penetrate through my headphones. i am so fucking tired.