Hello, my name is Albert.
I’ve recently started highschool and I don’t know what to do. Today was my first day and I already blew it with having an anxiety attack. Everything is so overwhelming when I start thinking about my anxiety. I am fine for the most part but when I start thinking about how theres the possibility I’ll start feeling nauseous later because of my anxiety, it just makes me feel like shit for the rest of the time. It’s hard to calm down in school considering you are not allowed to have long bathroom breaks. My parents have reassured me it’s only the first day, but I am dreading tomorrow. I don’t want to go but I so desperately want to keep going. I don’t want to give up, but right now it seems like the easiest way out is to just disappear completely. I am not ready for this year and I’m afraid my anxiety will get so bad to the point I cannot recover. It’s not only the feeling, but I’m struggling with eating as well. I know it’s going to make my stomach hurt and make me have no energy, but I can’t bring myself to eat anything. I want to keep going but Its so hard to see clearly. I’ve always been a logical person, and I know that what I feel is just anxiety. But its so overwhelming sometimes I just can’t handle it. I think it would reassure me if someone else was in the same boat. I feel alone and that I cannot express my feelings good enough for people to understand.