They are a good friend. I genuinely feel happy around them. We have fun, we laugh, it's a good time. It's one of the only times I feel good without the help of drugs.


Then I go home... And suddenly feel empty, terrible, worthless. The happiness will linger for a while after seeing them but then I randomly get hit with a wave of depression. At first, I didn't put it together that it consistently happens after spending time with my friend but it has become a pattern.


It's not their fault at all, they are very supportive and nice. So I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced this. Did my brain just produce all the dopamine it could muster while we were together, and then after I go home, I'm just completely depleted of happiness chemicals? I'd like to hear y'all's thoughts.