So there I was yesterday, going to bed at night and then
"Wow what if you're attracted to stuffed animals?"

I have _a lot_ of stuffed animals in my room so of course this thought made me severely uncomfortable, and I was like
"What?" 

And then It was like 
"Yeah, I mean you _do sleep_ holding one right? At the age of almost 17!!"

"Lots of people do that, I just feel comfy that way."

"Nonono, this is different." 

"How?" 

And then a stupid memory that happened at most two years ago, and that seems to prove it but honestly doesn't prove shit. 

Also, sometimes I kinda think that some of my stuffed animals have real emotions (it happens with other objects too) and so remembering that thing that happened made me feel like I did something really bad to one of them and made him terrified for life???? 

Basically the memory was me (maybe between 14-15 years old) remembering this one time that I used one of them for _you know what_ because it had a really soft tail and I just wanted to know what it felt like. I remember first using like its head or something and then it didn't work and I went for the tail. 
And it's not that big of a deal, but just try telling that to my brain. 

And now the problem isn't even me being attracted to stuffed animals, it's more me being somehow a sexual deviant or something like that. 

God, this is so stupid. What was the reason?