I'm trying to shake the negative nonstop rampant thoughts and get on with my day. I would like to be happy and know that my circumstances right now are not forever. That, perhaps, the recent fall of things MAY be able to change (despite being physical and prob won't change without surgery). I'm trying to have faith and hope, but I cannot see a light. 

I'm begging you to share the thing that gets you through and helps u see/feel that positive outlook again.

I can only bother my partner so much for assurance. I'm still learning how to grow in this area.

Ty.