How do I not freak out when my friend said this? She assured me she wants to still be friends, but I said some hurtful things to her. In my past experience, people needing space always leads to them leaving me eventually.

I also have been going through an incredibly hard time, been in and out of the hospital for my mental health, and really need her right now.

I understand I made some mistakes but it’s so hard to go through my day without talking to her. How do I get through this? It’s making me seriously want to die. I know it’s not healthy, but I still feel that way.