I have a panic disorder and take Lexi pro but a panic attack occasionally slips through. It’s because I have an issue with thinking about d—th and what happens after and I get myself so riled up that I have a panic attack. I can barely even think about the word without having to be careful about it. It’s becoming an issue because I stay up when I try to sleep. 

When I lie down my thoughts get worse and I usually have a panic attack every night because of it. The only way for me to keep my mind off it is to watch a commentary video or something similarly while going to sleep. 

Are there any other ways to cope with this? It’s terrible and I just want the thoughts to stop :(

Also, I can’t just accept that it’s going to happen. I’ve tried and failed many times, all it does is scare me.