I’ve been depressed since I was 11 and I’m 30 now.  In my early 20s it was easy to make friends because I had my high school crew and lots of drinking buddies (no longer a drinker) but as fair weather friends do those people all slowly disappeared.  I’ve also had falling outs with people due to trauma surrounding the relationship or them not respecting my boundaries (cough cough… dudes).  I had like one friend left who I’ve known since I was a kid but I am realizing how self absorbed she is and she recently treated me like utter shit.  I told my mom about her behavior and she told me it’s better to have no friends than a bad friend, which I guess is fair but still sucks.  My question is what about me is so bad that no one wants to make the effort to be a friend to me?  Sure I’m depressed but I’m kind-hearted and funny and will always have your back and encourage people in whatever they’re going through.  I have work friends I hit up and really try to engage with but they’re so busy and I feel like most people don’t really feel the need to hang out with coworkers outside of work.  But how the hell else am I supposed to meet people in adulthood?  I have my boyfriend but I am just so lonely otherwise and feel unworthy of love.  Am I just broken? Anyone else relate or have tips?  This hurts so bad.