 

Everyone's turned their backs on me pretty much.

I've  been so lonely for the past 3-5 years. I've been dealing with being so  sick both mentally and physically and disabled and living alone with no  benefits for the last 3 years. Dealing with literally everything on my  own, every crash, struggling with money so much, crying to myself, not  talking to anyone because it just makes me feel worse.

I've been so mentally ill for the past 9+ years

I've been dealing with chronic pain for 5 years, chronic fatigue for 3. And other stuff too.

I  know this is the end. I can't do it anymore. I've reached out to so  many people but I just felt so much worse afterwards after seeing how  they really don't help or say I'm a burden to the person that it afects  me the most to talk to.

I just feel so wrecked inside. So damaged. So alone. Like in so much pain in this last moment.

I  wish I had never called him or any of the other people and just killed  myself right away. Now I have to deal with the heartache of being  rejected, called a burden, not taking seriously.

I  attempted a bit over a month ago and I feel like this is it I'm gonna  go now. I just can't. I'm so heartbroken and I just feel worse than I  did a month ago before attempting. I don't have any more energy.

I just can't. I just can't go on. It hurts so much.

Everything seems to get worse and worse everyday and I am not sure how to fix it.