Hello! I've (like the title says) been recently diagnosed with BPD and in completely stunned. If there was an author writing a book on my life and dictated the outcome, well bravo dude you have created one of the biggest plot twists of my life, I digress.

I was making this post because I need advice on my current and future "relationships". 

Is having a lover rather than a serious relationship worse or better for you personally? I'm currently seeing a guy who I have sex with, connect really well with, and go out sometimes and do stuff with (mostly because he lives 3 hours away). When he doesn't text me back right away I wanna kill him and curse him out, but as soon as he does I literally say omg I love you! He also has no idea of my recent diagnosis.

I'm sorry if this is a jumbled mess and maybe I answered my question myself but I definitely should not be in a romantic relationship, so should I stop thrill seeking and having this strange hook up situation as well?

Thank you in advance for the advice, I'm a bit lost atm