It’s not like I don’t want to get therapy, I’m desperate to get help. I want to get better, to go to therapy, to get on medication, I just can’t fucking afford it. I don’t get insurance through my work, I can’t afford to pay for insurance, I make too much to qualify for state insurance, and I certainly can’t pay for sessions out of pocket. I feel like I’ve fallen through the cracks and left behind. I don’t want to die by suicide, but with the trajectory of where my mental health is going, I don’t see things getting any better for me.