His new friend:

“Go cry to your friends, wait you have none”
“What’s your snap score?”
“You have 40 disorders but only 4 of them are diagnosed”
“He cares about me more when he has known me for 2 days, compared to the 6 months you were together”
“You were abusive”
“You’re an attention seeker”

Him:

“You’re a narcissistic”
“You’re a psychopath”
“I don’t care about you”
“I don’t love you”
“You fit many symptoms of narcissistic personality disorder”
“I hate you”
“You keep coming back for attention”
“I wish I never met you”
“I should have ended this relationship 4 months ago”

Alongside this, he said he’s never going to be speaking to me again.
Which is okay, because he showed me his true colours and I could never be friends with someone who said those things to me.
It really got to my head, and I knew everything that I was diagnosed with explained my struggles perfectly, but I still feel so horrible about myself, because my only friend, the only friend I have ever made in my whole life and only ex boyfriend said these things about me. Like, the only person who has ever tried to get to know me has said these horrible things to me. I just woke up with them in my head and I felt so hurt. I don’t even know how somebody could say this to someone.
This was just after I’ve got out of hospital from a suicide attempt too, he knew that.
His new friend is only 14, he’s 17 and I’m 18. The 14 year old says she has more maturity than me. It’s like a blame game. Being in a relationship with him bought out the worst in me but there is no reason to insult me because doing that doesn’t achieve anything. I’m afraid that if I ever get close to someone again they will think the same thing, I don’t even trust myself in any kind of relationship anymore. I know that I am capable of so much bad and I can barely see any good in myself.
I don’t know what to do? I’m so hurt and messed up.
I was only diagnosed with BPD 7 weeks ago.