Hi, I’m just looking for some advice. So last Saturday I got into a massive argument with my sister that led to me basically having a breakdown and I really hurt myself. Since then I’ve needed space before I spoke to her but this has just led to further problems with her and she’s mocked my bpd and said i just think I’m a victim etc and now my mum has got involved. We ended up having another massive argument last night and I’ve blocked them both on everything and told them I never want to speak to them again along with some other very horrible things I don’t even want to repeat. Obviously now I feel horrible and guilty for what I said and I know I will need to speak to them again but I’m struggling with my mind because I feel like I still don’t want to speak to them. Does anyone have any advice on how to rationalise this to myself and maybe find a way to make things up and not to hold a grudge against them. Thanks.