I don’t really know how to start this so I’m just going to jump into it. June 26th is my birthday and I was a little upset that ny best friend missed my birthday didn’t call or text and he never misses it so in my own selfish and stupid mentality I decided not to contact him waiting for him to and just wanting to give him shit over it in a jokey kinda way it almost became funny to me like “oooh Imm gonna let him have it” week after my birthday I found out that my best and oldest friend committed suicide needless to say it wrecked me mentally and emotionally and I cry him every day. What I didn’t know until a few days after is that he committed suicide on the day of my birthday. My fiancee has been very supportive and just there for me and my son keeps me busy but it’s the quiet nights that get me or when she’s at work and I’m alone doesn’t help that my childhood traumas have spiraled me into depression and my best friend was always there for me as well. I don’t know where I’m going with this I just wanted to some words of encouragement I guess.