I can’t take it I need to rant even if no one reads this. I’m tired of waking up not wanting to leave my bed, Im tired of knowing my only friends are behind a screen and they have actual lives while I dont, I’m tired of knowing I annoy these online friends with my idiotic jokes and energy, I’m tired of comforting myself with food and stress eating, I’m tired of trying to loose weight and for nothing to happen, I’m tired of crying myself to sleep, I’m tired of every time I change my clothing I see all of my scars from cutting, I’m tired of not having any real life friends for 10 years, I’m tired of not being able to live a normal life due to medical issues, I’m tired of thinking about past suicide attempts, verbal/physical bullying and sexual harassment, I’m tired of knowing I have learning disabilities but I can’t get them tested so everyone calls me stupid, I’m tired of myself I just want to be normal I hate myself 

I need to rant I’m sorry