My mom would always criticize everything I do growing up. If I make the slightest mistake she would call me “stupid”, “pathetic”, etc 

She would discuss my flaws to her friends and family members every time they would come over. Despite all this, I still try to civil with her. 

BUT everything she does triggers me. How she looks at me and even when she’s trying to help me out. It’s like all I think of is the times she would put me down when I was younger and hit me. 