Whenever there’s a problem in my life it usually always seems to be because of me. Im tired of always doing things wrong and saying the wrong things. I’m too moody, too hardheaded, too ignorant too closed off, and too self pitying. I want someone to be there by my side no matter what but I always seem to ruin it and they eventually leave (understandably).  I’d also like to be able to be proud of who i am and how i’m doing mentally. I understand that I am the problem, now I just want it to stop.