tl;dr: Went off my anti-depressants I had been on for 3 months bc of suicidal thoughts, felt better now but struggling to figure out what to do if they continue to make me depressed 

I finally got on anti depressants and into therapy and after the 6 to 8 week time period on zoloft (Sertraline) I start to be able to function as normal. I basically made a complete turn around in my depression in 3 months.

Something strange I've noticed though was thought my anti-depressant has worked normally for helping me deal with my depression and anxiety with in the last maybe week or so I noticed my depression starting to come back which is really strange because I had finally gotten out of an incredibly stressful moving situation. 

I ended up feeling extremely suicidal (didn't take action, thank fuck) and quict taking them for 2 days straight. 

Those 2 days I felt better than I had in the last 2 weeks the only thing that really had changed was my attention span but other than that I didn't have any symptoms pop back up.  I felt great but I was wasn't sure if I should bring that up with my therapist or not because everyone I know keeps telling me I'm crazy for going of my medication but I feel like I know my body well enough to notice an issue.