I’m not sure what to do anymore. I’m constantly having a battle inside my mind about every single thing in my life. I have an addiction of meth that I’ve been battling for 2 years now. I know the drugs don’t help but when I stop I can’t stand how I feel sober. I feel like a lazy piece of shit, I have no idea who I am, I can’t get myself to learn new things and afraid of everything. I feel like I’ve made up all my mental problems up to victimize myself and everyone around me doesn’t believe me. The only thing I’ve noticed that has helped me with beating the craving of meth is a xanax when the anxiety starts but I can’t get it from my doctor and no one sells any in my area. I’m lost.