i’m in an ldr with my bf who i love a lot and he just got back home from a trip to visit me (we both live with our parents still) and i’m having the worst anxiety flare up i’ve had in a while to the point that his constant company on call with me is one of the only things that’s kept me from feeling like i’m alone with my thoughts and completely spiraling…

however his mom keeps nagging him that he’s spending too much time on the phone and she’s come in multiple times to talk to him about it and now pulled him out for a “talk” and not only am i alone now but terrified that i’ll lose the one reliable support i have…

however i know that it’s a bit ridiculous to expect and rely on his company even if it’s just until the end of the week when i have my appointment for meds adjustment… and i wish i wasn’t like this. i hate this. it’s taxing and i don’t want it anymore i just want to be normal…….