I can’t sleep because my heart races when I try and sleep. It’s making me so much more anxious and I feel like I’ve gotta be sleeping somewhat because I’ll lay in bed for hours and time passes but like am I really asleep?? Idk and it makes me more anxious to think about being sleep deprived because I’m afraid I’ll hallucinate or something. My stomach is messed up from this and idk what to do :( it’s never been this bad before and I just want to be normal. Everyone I talk to about it just doesn’t understand. 

I wish I could just fall asleep and not think about my breathing. I’ve tried watching movies/reading/podcasts/asmr everything :(