Out of nowhere, my only friends insulted me, gaslit me, and proceeded to block me on almost everything and completely abandoned me. I have no idea the real reason why, and their reasoning for it kept changing and nothing I did could help, or change their minds.

I'm so hurt. This has happened so many times, with many different friends. I just get abandoned. I really trusted them, thought I finally had real close friends. But no, I didn't. I feel like such a joke for ever trusting anyone again. I'm sure they think I'm a fucking idiot too and are happy I'm gone.

The cherry on top is while this was all happening, I was just realizing how much childhood trauma I have had and realized I had been groomed online as a child. And I am also going through a awful time with depression and possibly going to be hospitalized. And this happens. This fucking happens. I get this. This is what life gives me.