i struggle very hard with holding grudges and continuing to check up on ppl who have hurt me badly (like looking thru their socials) 

one day i will be perfectly fine and over it then the next night i will be filled with so much hatred n bitterness, its like i can't be satisfied until others hurt how they hurt me :( 

it makes me feel bad and i dont want to hang onto the past but i don't know how to stop obsessing over my hatred and the past