I’m feeling those darker feelings creeping in. 
The irritability / sadness / numbness - etc that comes Along with feeling suicidal. 
I’m not having a plan for it or necessarily even want to. It’s just this heavy black cloud that is saying I don’t matter. I make life harder for others. I made dinner , I’ve enjoyed and laughed today and despite seemingly just a little blue but pushing through I feel - this weight. 
I’m playing dead by daylight with my friend. I’m not in crisis , per say. I’m just in heaviness. 
I’m doing all I can to distract but maybe I just need to sit inside of this feeling and learn I’m safe even if it feels unsafe. 
Can I get some love here?