I’m 15 my bf is 16 and we’ve been dating for over a year, he just came down with a really bad sickness this week and I haven’t been able to see him because of that, I’m really depressed rn because the more time I spend away from him the more time it gives me to overthink, I miss him so much that it’s making me suicidal and wanting to relapse with cutting 
How can I deal with not being able to see him because certain circumstances it’s been super tough 
I’m bipolar and suspected bpd but I’m too young rn
I’m sorry if this is the wrong spot to post but I assume there’s some people here who have good coping tips for wanting to relapse and missing someone so much 
Thank you