I am prior service but I never deployed. I never did my actual job. I feel like complete trash because I was med boarded. I feel like I can’t connect to anyone anymore. I can’t connect to actual vets and I can’t connect to civilians. I’ve seen fucked up stuff while I was in but still not the same as combat vets. I have so much guilt because I never deployed. The guilt eats me up and i don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t talk to someone because it comes down to me complaining because I never shot anyone before. It sounds like crazy talk. Being  infantry that’s all we want, that’s how we are bred…