I'm gonna try and keep this short but I desperately need advice. So we have been together for almost 5 years. Of course she has randomly gone cold on me or distanced herself from me but it's always worked out. Im not perfect im not gonna act like that at all but I have been very very good these last past 2-3 years being patient understanding literally doing anything and everything for her and she for sure has recognized that. Recently she was sent to a mental health clinic for a week and then moved which doesnt effect our relationship but it meant she lost a lot of her friends as well as her counselor. When she returned from the clinic she seemed better for like a week. I know people can put on masks so I was paying really good attention and nothing really popped out to me. So randomly she goes cold, ok I go through the motions slowly trying to get through to her but nothing works, she completely ghosts then blocks me for literally 2 fucking months. She came back gave a short apology which in a way didnt feel like she wrote it if that makes sense. Anyway I replied and again she sorta ghosted me?? Ever since then we have just been so distant shes been constantly adding and blocking me every week and I thought a few days ago this was over we had a decent talk and she said she would write more when she ate. Again she didn't. Didnt even message me anything on Christmas.
She posted 2 story's within the last 2 days were it just seems like everything is fine? Same with her posts on insta. It's like she had artificially cut me out of her life. It hurts so fucking bad considering how much I love this girl with literally every bone in my body and this is what I get. So what do I do? I'm shattered currently and I literally had to remove her because it was hurting too much. I don't know what to do. Fyi I did miss some minor details its been a crazy 4 months probably the worst in my life and I also didnt want this to be super long.