My entire life I have been abused emotionally and physically until age 18. I am 20 now and I cannot function properly. I have tried medication but it does not help. I have done a little bot a therapy but it does not help. I feel empty inside everyday. I get little to no pleasure in life. I have no motivation to do anything. I cannot work. I cannot go to school. I cannot build relationships. Everyday I am suffering. My parents were not fit to have kids. The amount of abuse and neglect I went through makes me wonder if it is even possible to live a successful life. I am so sad that I cannot function in life. I really want to kill myself to end my suffering. Am I not justified to kill myself? The abuse and trauma physically altered my brain.   


give me a reason that I should stay alive. You cannot. What can fix me, nothing. Why should I be alive. I cannot function. I almost killed myself with heroin in november last year. What is going to change my mind about suicide. Euthanasia is right in my case is it not? I need to kill myself to end the suffering.