Sorry for my english

I was sexually abused when i was a kid, i kept it to myself, i was afraid someone may find out, my family was unstable, i changed schools and cities, my father was absent in my formative years, i felt like he hated me, i don't have any meaningful relationship until i was 22, i was bullied and harrassed all the time, my fp left me and I don't know what to do, what can i do to stop feeling lonely