Every morning I wake up with an internal struggle that I don’t want to live. I’ve made some huge mistakes with money and lost a good job recently due to a wild manic episode.  I’m starting a new job next week and the anxiety is eating me alive.  Some days I just want to be done with this life.  I think it can be better and there are brighter days ahead. Right!?

I was doing drugs a lot the past 5 years and really lost everything financially. I’m starting over at 43 and it’s so daunting.  The world is so expensive just to be alive.  

It takes me until noon everyday to want to try and make life better.  The depression has been so bad this week.  I don’t want to wake up any longer. 

It gets better , right?