Why do i do things that hurt myself and put myself in danger just not to hurt myself cause i have kids and im trying to hang on. But i GIVE UP. IM TIRED OF CRYING. MY CHEST HURTS SO BAD. AND WHATS SO MENTAL IS IM CRYING BC IM ABOUT TO DO SOMETHING THAT I DONT WANT TO REALLY DO. I LOVE MY HUSBAND SOOO MUCH BUT HE SOOO ME NOOO Effects. And he says bc I'm a Drunk Bitch but dont want to leave me cause i take care of the kids. And work....i dont understand im FEEL SOO ALONE. I FEEL LIKE A BURNED ON MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND KIDS.