I recently started therapy and began taking prescription medication to try to address my depression and anxiety. My therapist sent me a link to some daily affirmations she wants me to listen to and say. The first time I played the video, I got about 30 seconds into it and was just bawling and had to stop. I tried three times, and each time I found the affirmations intensely painful and upsetting. I have since looked up several more sources for daily affirmations, both written and audio/video, and every time, I react the same way. I can’t really convey how real and intense my reaction has been. I always thought affirmations were kind of silly or cheesy. I didn’t think they could trigger me into a deep and debilitating spiral. But there’s something about the stark contrast between the affirmations and how I really feel that makes me feel significantly worse. 
Anyone else? Any way I can get past this so I can use the affirmations?