I am 16 years old and have been to the hospital twice. Once in 8th grade for depression and attempted suicide and once this past year in december for the same reason. This past year they gave me meds, prozac and something I cant remember the name of. I still get depressed very easily and I don't see the point of doing anything. I am very paranoid. I always think someone is watching me, through my phone, computer, in public. When ever I leave some sort of group of people I feel like they just talk behind my back. I skip meds sometimes because once they made me feel ill and I felt like the meds were trying to do something to my body I didn't know about. I always jump to the worst conclusion which always brings me back to wanting to be dead. If I get an F on something in school I immediately think I'm going to have a terrible future and my parents will disown me and hate me. I withdraw myself from everything and usually just stay in my room where I hope no one is watching and mind my own business. Since 8th grade I could hear voices in my head that are on and off. I feel like its my own thoughts but I cant control them. I don't know what happened to me. When I was little none of this was an issue.