So, got in a little bit of a heated disagreement with a coworker a few hours ago (don’t wanna go into too much detail there, but we have a “rocky” relationship at best). Now, me being me, when something like this happens, I’ll have a million emotions and thoughts running through my head, ranging from “she’s pissed and will never talk to me again”, to “it’s probably nothing and she’s over it”. And of course, my number one urge is to apologize over and over to reassure myself that she isn’t, in fact, pissed for whatever reason.

And I held this urge back for like 3 hours, until it finally slipped though in a text. And all she says is, “then go home”, which may have been true, but damn did it hurt at the moment. Since the pandemic, my mental health has plummeted, and I haven’t been able to get a therapy appointment after like 20 attempts (all booked or didn’t return my calls). Just feeling kind of frustrated all around right now.