...I feel like I'm edging closer and closer to another breaking point, even though I don't really want to. 

Tried ending it all not too long ago. Now parents keep telling me how horrible they feel because of "my actions", fearing that our family may fall apart because of everything. Friends are leaving me because of my suicide attempt and ontop of that I get to hear that I'm a fucking burden on a daily basis. 


I mean, I always knew that nobody actually wants me here. But now I get to actually FEEL it through other people. Makes it so much easier to leave this hellhole someday.