i love a girl that isn’t sure if she loves me as i do her but we’re still close and intimate, her and my best friends and me are a group that hangout all the time. there’s so many tiny moments that happen that make me feel like i’m not good enough for her and my friend is better, he’s fit and rich and funny and smart i mean a really stand up guy. so my head always goes to what if she thinks he’s better than me, why would she bother with me if he’s so amazing. i get quiet and start to feel terrible about myself and that leaves all the room for them to talk and have fun and me not talk little to none. which leaves me feeling so much worse bc i’m manufacturing the exact thing i that makes me feel that way bc it makes me feel that way and the way i react. and at some point they ask me what’s wrong and all and i wow their deny say i’m tired or just say i’m a bit depressed without ever telling them how it is. i just wish i could have a good time with them and not worry about anything and not ruin times bc i’m selfish and jealous and anxious. i’m ashamed of these feelings deeply. any help would be appreciated