38 divorced male. Unemployed. Lost my job after breaking down. Fail to kill myself last year. Spent 14 months in total isolation. I have nothing to offer. I enjoy nothing lately. I miss her so much. So lonely feels like a slow deaf. Tried so much to get work but nothing.

Im screwed. There is no bouncing back when every thing is in this state. Cant even afford to see the right people to get better. The future only holds worse

I want to go where I cant come back from. There is no other future, I've tried over and over and failed. This is the only option now to avoid the pain, loneliness, homelessness and sadness