I can't afford a therapist or have family that I can really talk to so I have to depend on friends to talk to. The problem is since I moved onto college, all of my old friends are too busy to talk to me. I'm also pretty quiet/socially awkward so I haven't made any friends at college that I can talk to. The only person I have is a long-distance where my SO has been really busy, going from calling for hours every night to messaging me a dozen times a day and calling me once or twice a week for an hour. 

I've always depended on other people to give me a personality, to make me feel like a whole human being. Without anyone around me I feel empty and irrelevant, I could die and the only thing that would happen is that my immediately family would be sad for a couple months.

I've never felt more alone in my life and I don't know how to handle it, and I don't think that I can.