No matter what I do I am not finding happiness. Life is constantly throwing rocks at me. In every little task I try to do, I face the maximum amount of hurdles I can. Recently there was a raffle at my work place, there were 11 participants and 10 prizes and as I expected I was the 1 unlucky person in that raffle. These kind of things happen to me everyday. I am tired of questioning "why always me?". I have zero friends, I separated from my family years ago and I have no one I can talk too. It makes me more depressed that I have no one to share these kind of things with. I want to be happy but I dont know what to do for it.