Venting I guess??

I've had a really difficult couple of years, with it reaching its peak last October when I had a suicide attempt and then had a very difficult recovery. Now I feel my life is actually getting better - I think my medication is helping, I've started university, I'm maybe more stable than ever. 

The medication I'm on made me realise how black and white my thinking was before, and it restored my libido to what I assume is a normal level (after what I think was straight up sexual dysfunction for years, i was so used to feeling nothing most of the time)

I think I have a crush, which is amazing!!! Cause I got so destroyed by my ex last year, I never thought I could even find anyone else attractive again, or be capable of dating again. It's been so long though that I'm worried it's a "favourite person" thing. Like how do normal people date?? Or flirt?? Or even just know if they like someone for real??? What if I'm just horny and I mess up a good potential friendship over it?? 

I think I just wanted to vent or idk, talk to someone, because having a crush feels so fucking good, and for once I feel like my life is in my hands, and that also scares me in its own way. I don't wanna fuck things up anymore!!