 I feel like I am hurting everybody in my life because of my mood swings and instability. And the way I split; every 2 days saying I don’t want to be their friend and then caving in to their wishes and saying cool I’ll b ur friend. Getting easily disgusted by affection and then having deep cravings for it- so it seems impossible to tell whether I actually want to have a relationship (romantic) with somebody or not as well. Being hurtful or rude to them and then immense guilt after. Trying time after time to do better and somehow I still breakdown or engage in the destructive behavior. There’s no escape to the self sabotage. I’m losing hope and I am so scared of hurting others. I am also so exhausted from the mood changes, I’m beginning to lose of sense of who I am and feeling like a burden to others and honestly MYSELF. I’m sick of myself. Fuck. Anybody relate or any tips?:((( I don’t know what to do. I’m tired of being a fucking bad person, hurting others when that’s my worst fear. Thank you for any advice.