........or had a sound-proof room or something. 

Honestly, face to face therapy upsets and unsettles me.For various reasons. i honestly might do much, much better with teletherapy/online therapy.......... if it werent for the fact that I dont live alone.

Part of past trauma i had was having other people listen in on private conversations of mine and use it to hurt me, or just undermine my privacy. I was always invaded. And even when I wasnt, I could never cry, or yell, or do anything Ever, I could mever truly be open or express my emotions, because other people werealways, ALWAYS within earshot.

And of course, I live with roommates, in an apartment. The presense of others makes it impossible for me to be open or comfortable  At all. So teletherapy is impossible. And with everything going on, being in poverty, and being unable to drive.........