This is a life experience of mine - with a good "ending"! 

I was in a year and something-long relationship that ended a week and a half ago (but I didn't feel anything towards her for the last month). I'm 23 (M), she's 21. We were living together (she moved in to my flat). She ended it, but I was already planning to end it, so it was mutual. She was my "FP".

The relationship was abusive and manipulative from her side. She's a chronic liar. I got her out of all her problems (but mainly drug use), gave her everything I could (love, care..), and gave her 8 chances in total, after she lied to me about doing drugs behind my back and few other things. 

I suffer from PTSD since she came home drunk one day (alc makes her violent, that's why I don't drink), nothing was happening at that time and all of a sudden, she punched me hard in the face 4 times after I asked her "are you okay? you seem sad". She then severely cut herself and almost bled out - had to call an ambulance. Blood everywhere, almost accidentally hurt my cats. I won't go into any more details, but my PTSD is getting better lately.

*(I myself am on opioids prescribed by my doctor, but I didn't abuse them once in our relationship, only several times before the relationship, for example after my kitty died - so I'm not a "saint" myself. She did meth btw).*

Her mom loved me a lot, cause my ex, because of me, finally started living a "normal" life - could finally do her hobbies and was stable with me (we both got BPD, the difference is that I'm working with it for years and she didn't even started). I only miss her family after the breakup - not her. 

I finally grew my balls back and put myself on the 1st place. Handled it the best way I could. I'm a recording artist, and because of her, I was unable to be creative - that resulted in a way that half of my fanbase is gone now. 

I was depressed and anxious all the time. Now, I got my whole upcoming project planned out and I'm happy about it. I created myself a new style and I love it! I make music for 8 years now and my motivation came back. It fullfils me like it did before. People are waiting for me to drop new stuff. 

Yesterday, a new friend of mine, who also makes music, came over for the 1st time, we both played our unreleased songs to each other and we were just vibin'. Then, we hooked up, cause she's honestly so hot - more than my ex was/will be in my eyes and it was amazing. Got no words for that. It wasn't anything serious, we just had lots of fun. **I never felt more alive!**

I'm now living again, enjoying life to the fullest. I wanted to share this experience with y'all, because 1st - I needed to write myself out of it and 2nd - this might help/inspire someone, because life is full of surprises! 

Thanks everyone for reading, appreciate it. Much love