Hello, I just joined this sub. I've been depressed for around nine years now, though I have never been the happy type. The reason this acute depression started was a girl, and then a couple more girls came as the years passed by. I've found out that what may be the main reason for feeling depressed is that I feel lonely and I really want to have the love of a woman by my side. But I also know is nobody's responsibility to make me happy or anything else. But Im also tired of stuff, nothing really makes me wanna keep going, I'm working on a new business and still I don't feel really excited about it. Things have gone worst since I haven't been able to save money and I'm stranded in the us cause I haven't been able to renew my passport and at least be able to travel around. My alcoholism has only gotten worst and I just want this whole crap to end.

If you guys could share more about your experience I'd love to connect to you that way. Thanks.