I went and took a peek at the BipolarSO’s subreddit and found a lot of people talking about how horrible their SO is because of their disorder. It makes me lose hope for my current relationship. I struggle with my disorder but I’ve been getting better.  I feel like I’m just not worth anyone’s time and my recovery isn’t worth it because everyone will still think of me as someone who is bipolar, not someone who struggles with bipolar. I don’t want to be my illness. I’m not really in a safe place and it hurts a lot.