I keep deleting everything I post here because my mood keeps switching around. Does anyone else find it difficult to do anything for themselves when they don't have an FP? I lost mine just over a week ago when they gave up on me. It's a constant struggle between wanting to do something, but then avoiding it thinking that it's not going to change anything and is useless to attempt something good for myself at all.

I'll get on a high, thinking that I can accomplish everything I put my mind to. A couple of hours later it all comes crashing down on me. I start thinking it's absolutely useless to attempt anything of any kind and start to feel intensely depressed. Believing that nothing matters, that I won't feel truly happy ever again. Only to have my mood lifted once more a few hours later. It's a constant high/ low mood that I cannot seem to maintain