Like seriously, what is this nightmare? Lol. I was so not ready for this. Right now I’m being forced to face the fact that my life was a big fat series of distractions: constant work travel, big job/workaholism, over spending, over eating, drinking, smoking, many men.. etc 

Now I am at home all the time with nothing to do (I keep myself busy but still) 

I feel like all the hardships I didn’t process in the last year I emerging and asking me to process them 

I feel like I’m forced to acknowledge how shitty I’ve been the past year 

I feel like this is all so heavy 

And then I can’t even do the classic resolve thing, “ok I will change I will change! And this is how!!” because we have no idea what the world will be like after this. When will I get a job? What field? What industries will have been obliterated? Which ones will I wish I had hopped onto? 

Etc 

Anyone else feeling like this quarantine is good for them longterm but soooo painful short term?