Hello everyone! I hope you are all doing well. I am struggling and I would appreciate some advice.

As the title says, I struggle with serious discussions. Especially in groups.

I love my friends/roommates but I feel like I do better socially when we have “casual” interactions over “serious”

I have pushed myself socially for this group and my efforts have not been wasted. They are really lovely and understanding people. I get on with them very well. 

I become anxious when I think someone thinks I’m stupid and sometimes during these discussions I feel like I’m disappointing them because I do not contribute as much as they can. They all know so much about topics that I never thought about. I always feel like my brain hits a wall. 

I don’t know what to do. It is affecting my perfomance in classes and socially. I’ce tried time and time again to accept it but it always come back. It hurts me that I always feel like the odd one out intellectually. 

Do you guys have any advice for this? I can’t go to therapy at the moment.