so i know being self destructive is a characteristic of being bpd, but my life has been so up and down the past few years that it feels strange to be completely content. i have a boyfriend that i love and trust so much, a family that's pretty fucking chill (i came home last night n my mom was like "oh u smell like weed lol" i love her sm), i graduate school in three weeks. so why do i feel like destroying it? i haven't cried or been angry in a few weeks, while i get upset, it hasn't been as dramatic or  rage induced. it feel so weird and i like it a lot, but i'm scared i'm gonna pull something out of my ass to be unreasonably upset about.