Hey everyone. I’m coming here to rant and get some feelings off my chest. I’ve recently been having what my doctor says is either epileptic seizures with stress as a trigger or pseudoseizures (PNES). I have to get an EEG once it’s safe to due to covid and I just feel terrible. Every seizure I have just tires me out more and more and they’ve become more frequent. It doesn’t only take a lot out of me but also my fiancé to sit and watch me suffer through one without being conscious of my surroundings or him trying his best to comfort and console me.. making sure I’m breathing and telling me everything is okay. I feel like a burden and that I’m useless in my own body because I can’t even control my own emotions to not have one. I feel needy and demanding and I feel awful he has to deal with me. I’m hoping to figure out what’s really happening to me and not only help with the seizures but also the stress, diagnosed depression and all other troubles of life with therapy, which can’t come soon enough.

For those who read this, thank you for letting me vent and help my stress go down just a little at a time.