Thats it. Just want to disappear into nothing and float away like a cloud, weightless and denseless. I hate this human body, its incredibly restrictive. I dont want anxiety. I wish i could turn it off like a light switch. But its uncontrollable, its something that my logical mind has no control over. I have been feeling so depressed and anxious recently. I just dont want to interact with anyone or don't want people to see how anxious I am. Its embarrassing because I'm 23f. I am supposed to be this together adult, who is confident and composed. Instead I'm a mess. I dont feel like im an adult I feel like im about 17. My anxiety makes me feel like I never left my teen age. I feel permanently stuck at 17. I hate this. I am so afraid of other people judging me. I am so scared of other people. I wish i could become a vapour or an orb, just floating away and away.