So I've (f 29) have been in therapy for the past four years (mainly for depression, anxiety and a burnout). I've been working very hard on myself to process my childhood trauma and I'm doing significantly better. 

I grew up with an emotionally, psychologically and physically abusive, narcicisstic father. And I'm still living in the same house (moving out in February if everything goes right). It took me ages to see how his behaviour towards me was not normal. And that he was the reason why I got sucked into this black hole. I couldn't move out so far because for the longest I didn't have the mental and financial resources to do so. But now I've finally reached a point where I got a apartment viewing next Friday. So this sparks my hope. 

But some observations I made... whenever I leave my hometown, I do significantly better, mental health wise. But whenever I return, I turn into a depressed, unmotivated person again. It's as if I'm being thrown back into a certain state of mind when I'm here. And it's almost impossible to get out of. 

It's as if everything costs me 10x more energy than in a healthy environment. And I just don't see a point when I'm here, to stick to a routine. Because it seems like an impossible task.

So has anyone here experienced something similar? Can a location really suck the life out of you?

Will my mental health be more stable once I'm far, far away from my dad?