I found out my fiancee and the mother of my two daughters had cheated on me a few times with another guy. We had been together for 5 years. I thought about it alot and decided that I shouldnt just decide to work it out and that that type of betrayal is just too much. So I broke it off and told her she needed to leave. She left to stay with a friend and took our girls. I still see them a couple time a week still, but it's not like I want it to be. Then I found out that she and my daughters moved in with the other guy. Idk what to do. I relapsed after 8 years clean and have been using daily to try to numb myself and feel nothing. I work from home and am just barely able to get my job done. I miss my family more than anything. I feel like I should've agreed to just let it go and hope for the best. Now I'm stuck, lost in the wilderness and think about killing myself all day to escape this reality I'm living in