Is that what it is? 

Why when I met you in person. I felt like I didn’t kno who you were. I built this picture of you in my head. I made you perfect in my mind. I saw you all white. It wasn’t until you were in front of me. 

Asking to borrow my car. 

That I realized I made a very bad decision. 

That was last year. 

This year. I’ve attached to another. And I’m doing the same thing. Well. I WAS. 

I Never knew I did this. I put ppl on this pedestal. I paint them In my mind. My lens. The way I WANT them to be. And not for who they actually are. 

Why does my brain do that? Why does it ignore all the red flags? The REALITY of a person. Why do I make them my everything?????