Definitely been feeling my BPD the last couple days. I had a pretty good week last week, got to see and spend time with lot's of people I care about and it was really nice. However, I accidentally ran out of refills on my Celexa, so I have been off my meds since last Tuesday. My husband helped me set up an appointment with my Doctor, and make arrangements with the pharmacy so I should have my pills again soon. I was doing pretty good without them, but I started to feel a bit ill and weird on Sunday, then yesterday I could really feel that I was off my meds. Ended up pretty much sleeping straight from 6am to 9pm. Woke up to eat, and then I went back to sleep. I slept most of today, but I am up now and just trying to relax and not completely lose my mind. Been trying to go back to sleep for the past couple hours to no avail. Hopefully I will get some sleep tonight because I feel like shit. My whole body aches. My mental illness is defintely manifesting physically. I feel like a black hole of despair right now, not really sure what I mean by that but it's the best way I can describe how I feel right now. Hopefully I don't have to wait too long for my meds, and I don't get any worse in the meantime. I would like to not be a depressed blob all week, but we will see what happens. Too anyone who read this whole thing, thank you, I feel like such a mess. 