But I just went off on my therapist. I just couldn't handle her downplaying my feelings. She kept constantly putting out how I can "change" my thoughts. Well no shit but obviously I struggle with that or I wouldn't even been in fucking therapy for the past 10 months 

She never talked to me with any compassion or understanding. Of course she doesn't care about the damage she caused as I'm just another client on the assembly line. 

Why should I choose to be alive when I can't even fucking trust so called mental health professionals to have any empathy. 

I guess there is no help for someone like me. :( I give up.