I’m the meanest person I really hate myself right now
I’ve got into a fight with my sister for dumb reasons and I just lashed out last thing I remember is slamming the door and throwing my stuff on the floor and then sleeping for long hours in the middle of the day. 
I feel so horrible especially that I thought I’ve got this under control and that I didn’t lash out like that in years but seeing this crazy anger I felt kinda made me loose hope