Does anyone have any book recommendations for me to buy for my FP to help him better understand BPD? My BPD (which I’ve refused to get any treatment for until now) has really caused pain for him because of the way I’ve acted when he’s “abandoned” me, but I didn’t even tell him I had BPD until this most recent time I had an episode of lashing out this week, and it has almost ruined our relationship because I’ve hurt him so badly. But he wants to understand and has asked me how he can better understand my illness and how I didn’t hurt him with actual malicious intent, and how there’s hope for me to get better once I get treatment, so I thought getting him a book would be a great idea. 

And idk if it makes any difference but the times he’s “abandoned” me were because of me acting impulsively and being hurtful and then I just lashed out more and couldn’t get control my emotions because of my mental state, further pushing him away and causing us both more pain. (I just wanted to make sure it doesn’t sound like there’s ever been something toxic coming from him)