It's so strange because I really want to hangout with people but it's like as soon as I get home or have a day or I don't want to do anything but just sit at the house and do my own thing.

I get ready for work and want to hangout with old friends, while I'm at work I still want to hangout with them but as soon as I get off I just want to go home. It's like I only want to hangout with them before I go into work and during work but yeah once I'm out it changes.. 

And before in the past I would make plans with people but every night I would try to go to bed I wouldn't be able to sleep just over thinking to myself how annoying I am and how they probably don't like me and just feel bad for me and how they have all grown as people and I'm literally the same from high-school days... 

How am I supposed to get past this and actually have friends again? I legit have not hung out with anybody in 5 years or so...