I had just moved to another apartment, it's year 2 of independence and yet no progress. I feel like I am not good enough, opportunities in the degree I have is not enough for everyone. I moved with my spouse, young, excited and eager. But sometimes i wonder if made a mistake by moving to a tech city, thinking there'll be high chances of remote opportunities for me.

Driving gives me such bad anxiety, I don't know what to do. Sometimes I question why I left the comfort of my home with only utilities to pay and here I am, struggling to pay rent and not making use of my degree. I don't know what to do anymore. 


Some days I feel so empty and some days I just want to be gone. 

Financially, driving and not being social enough to create connections; I will try to improve but today I am simply sad.. Praying for an opportunity to grow will come. I feel as though I am trying my best but lately it just hasent been enough