I reread  my post on here and I thought ''Why did I vent? I  admit need help.' I  do not want to waste my 20s like this and I feel so defeated because I battled with mental illness for so long and I was carrying so much frustration. I did not know how to feel about having BPD when I saw the diagnosis on the card , I did research and  was in denial at first becauae it made people with BPD seem like dangerous peole and I internalized it and hated myself even more  and it all spiraled from there.. 
Despite everything that happened in  my life up until now I know I cannot live my life in this cycle and I want to ask for advice on how to cope. (Other than my psycologist).

Here are a few questions.

What is DBT? If you tried it out did it work for you?

How do you deal with trauma resurfacing?

How can I accept this diagnosis and not let it consume me?

How do you handle obsessive thoughts about FP? I want to think about something else that calms me down and let go of this person.

How can I stop the intense sense pf shame and guilt I feel daily?

How can I handle my emotions in a healthier way?

How can I stop resorting to self destructive behaviour when I am really upset?


I appreciate your replies. Thank you.