*Hi, my name is Wade and I am mildly depressed person....*

I (M 25) honestly haven't really felt the same since the lock-downs in March 2020. I was having the time of my life in college, and then it was all ripped away from me and I finished my last semester in my bedroom on a computer .... 

I was planning on doing a gap year after graduating, and traveling around the world or applying to Peace Corps. Obviously that hasn't been a possibility until recently (2022). But I just have kinda lost part of myself. I had all kinds of aspirations and ideas and things i wanted to do with my life. 

I haven't had the desire to date, or hook up, or even hold a conversation with another person since 2020. I mean, I do at work and everything to just get by, but when I am on my own walking the city streets, I just don't feel like interacting with people. I don't call up any of my friends from college, I just feel so removed from so much .... 

And I have been focusing on the flaws of my body, like my bad acne scars on my face, and I am more of a lean body type with thin arms, so I dont feel like much to look at. and holy fuck, how am I already 25 years old? I feel light years behind people my age. I have been working part time at a job that pays $15 an hour..... and my living situation is a hybrid of hostels and staying at home. Meanwhile, people younger than me are running their own businesses, or working on a Masters or Phd, or otherwise doing something much more impressive.

But my biggest assets have been writing a SHIT TON  in the diary app that i have (Journey), and dogs :-)