Everytime my boyfriend shows any sign of being attracted to someone else, loving someone else, or not wanting to be with me I panic so much it feels like I'm not myself anymore, but some sort of second awful version of myself who will say anything to prove what I'm thinking, no matter if it hurts him. I can't get out of this cycle of "I'm not good enough and here's why you think that &gt; the fact that I'm being like this makes you dislike me anyway" the exact thing I'm scared of happens when I react like this because this pushes him away, he even said so himself. I just don't know what to do. Everyone I've ever loved or cared about has left me without me knowing why, so how can I trust people when it always happens anyway.