About a month (or two ago) I (32M) was having difficulty in remembering back to my childhood. Well, I've been working with a therapist for several sessions (90 minute sessions) and there are 2 big things that I've been unpacking. 

1. My mother used me as her "emotional dumping ground," and controlled every aspect of my life from when I was a child. This went from all doors open in every room (including bathrooms) to never being allowed to close my door at any time. I was always guilted to stay at home with my mom instead of going out with friends. Additionally, she always chose the clothes that I would wear, and she has even admitted on more than one occasion that she wished that I was a girl--and because of that, it really messed with my self-esteem. Since my dad was always working (business trips, and just constant hours in the office), I bore the brunt of her frustration. This, ultimately led for various bouts of self-harming...not active self-harming, but passive. 
2. This is coupled with #1. I attempted to have my own group of friends throughout school, but I was never allowed to hang out with them. However, I was continually forced to go to one of my mom's friends, where I would be with their son. This led to some unwanted sexual exploration, which then led to full out assault, which I didn't complain about because my mother would have gotten mad at me. This continued for nearly 4 years, which at the end, the son then tells me that I "helped" confirm that he is bi. It's because of this that I still have an issue with people who are bi (although I know not everyone did this, just him). 

So, there is a lot to still work through, but it felt really relieving to unlock those hidden secrets and share them with my therapist. I still have a long way to go before I can even confront my mother about everything that went on.