This last year my coping mechanisms have been binge eating and impulsively buying clothes and makeup. So now I’m overweight and my economy is fucked. It has gone so far I’ve had to ask my mom for help, which is not something I like to do because then I have to admit to her I can’t take care of myself. Which is true but I like to pretend I know how to adult.

So now she has way more control over my money and food than any mother should have for her 23 year old daughter. But it’s good because I’m eating like a person should and I’ve even started up a savings account, usually those doesn’t last longer then a few months if I have complete access to them. 

So yay I did it. 


Nope! 


Started cutting instead because why the fuck not? Like can I just have some coping mechanisms that actually are good for me?? Noooo of course not! I just find new ways to be an asshole to myself. I had been clean for a really long time too.

I really only care about instant gratification and have zero ability to think any further than that. 