I don’t really know how to describe it but I seem to have a tendency to get into relationships with abusive people.

I’m always scared they will cheat on me/hurt me/abuse me. And if it’s really happening I’m kinda feeling like “ah finally. My anxiety was right all along”

It just feels so strange. I get that I tend to feel attracted to these people but I can’t stop to be wondering if it’s all my fault all along? Maybe I’m making them? Maybe it’s a strange way of a self fulfilling prophecy?

It’s just so weird.