I called out of work for like 5 weeks cause I was honestly ready to kill myself/give up on everything and working made everything a whole lot worse (I am from Germany so they can’t fire you for being sick etc.). Anyways I worked through it with my therapist and I am somewhat stable again and returned to work yesterday. 
And I hate everything.

Nobody speaks to me, all my tasks have been given to other people, nobody even really acknowledged that I am back or asked how I am. It just fucking feels like everybody made up their mind and decided I called out for FIVE WEEKS cause I am lazy???

This makes me want to just quit so much. It’s so frustrating that nobody believes you, when you tell them you’re sick without having some physical symptoms. It makes me regret coming back in the first place. 

Working is incredibly hard for me as it is and now I feel like all my coworkers hate me on top of that.. fuck