Im use to anxiety being like, Im in a crowd and it all of a sudden feels claustrophobic, or going in front of an entire class for a presentation and im shaking while thinking the worst like people laughing at me or hating me. I worked really hard to overcome a lot of my fears and to silence those nagging thoughts.

Except I feel like my body still remembers? Every day I wake up and its literally like I feel it in my body that something is off. It makes me feel sluggish and like I dont want to move because “something is off”. I describe as i notice my heartbeat, like I know its beating though I cant tell if its beating faster than usual though I assume so since I normally dont notice my heartbeat otherwise. I have to really focus on breathing or remove myself from an environment for the feeling to lessen. 

It happens at night and when I wake up, I use to have a lot of depression/anxiety episodes at night which impacted my sleep but I thought I was over that chapter of my life. I hypothesize that maybe its also correlated to allergies/asthma because I tend to get more frequent episodes at night, so maybe theres something in the air that just makes me feel “off”? 

Its really annoying, Im on Zoloft, but i cant tell if its helping.