no one misses me like i miss them… no one cares for me like i care for them… i try so hard but receive nothing in return…. i wait for messages from friends all day but get nothing…. i try to make new friends but it’s so damn hard…. i’m alone in this dorm all day with no roommates, just suffering by myself…. i’m treated like i’m beneath others… like i’m a piece of trash waiting to be disposed…. i thought i was getting better but it feels like i’m regressing… the loneliness is so painful i can’t stand it anymore i’m about to burst…. i just want to be special to someone and not an afterthought… not a side piece…. i’m practically crying for help, but no one will find this… i can’t even post this on my main account… i know people say you have to go out and find your happiness but i’m tired of trying all the time to no avail… i just want some sort of light to enter my life…. i want affection and love and good friends and to not feel like i’m alone in this world… fuck my life it hurts so much