Long story short someone I trusted more than anyone destroyed my entire life at the beginning of the year. He had been secretly plotting against me and turned on me. His actions resulted in me losing my entire social support system, my home, my job, and my sanity.

I know at some point I will likely use my own death to punish him for what he has done to me. I have made sure he is the only emergency contact specified in my phone and he will be the first person to be notified. When I was notified of my dad’s suicide seven years ago, it shattered me. Not because he was my dad. But because he had reached out for help and I ignored his pleas. I live with the knowledges every single day that I could’ve easily saved him had I lifted a single finger to do so. It eats at me. I can only hope my passing will manage to eat away at the person who took everything from me this year and who has since ignored me begging him for help and mercy.

He has a bright and promising future, and frankly I hope to be able to destroy his ability to mentally function and work hard to achieve his goals, just as much as he destroyed my ability to do so.

Anybody else ever reach a point of being so done but wanting to use your exit to forcibly teach someone a lesson?