Im not talking about suicide. Im looking for input from people who have been able to overcome BPD.

Ive had BPD all my life. Im a 26 yo female with 3 kids and a crazy relationship with their father. Recently I have been working on healing from BPD and have made amazing progress.

The one thing I still struggle with is the loneliness. That feeling of emptiness and being unwanted and unloved. Loneliness has been the reason for most of my actions in relationships. Me and my kids father have been broken up for a month now but we still live together. Hes been living the single life while I'm still holding onto hope that we'll be back together. While is focus has been on multiple women mine has been on bettering myself and being a good mom to my kids. I've been doing really good controlling my intensity, reactions, and emotions but one thing i cant kick is the feeling of loneliness. Its not an everyday thing that i struggle with anymore but when I do have these days (like today) I am just down and depressed and feeling really needy.

My question is how did you overcome the loneliness? I dont have any friends or family, social media (besides reddit) or just people in general i can turn to besides my kids father. Im trying to respect his space and his feelings but at the same time all i want to do is be near him and cuddle him and ask him all these questions that i know will just piss both of us off. What can i do to move passed these feelings without leaning on someone else?