i actually like my work. it’s good pay, it’s a good environment and even my boss says i’m doing amazingly. i just started this week. 

but it’s taking a fucking toll on me. i’m constantly stressed. i have so much to do on top of 20 hours of work a week - college,
placements, exams, gym, maintaining my mental health, learning to drive, being in a long distance relationship and having severe fucking anxiety 

i feel like such an idiot because so many people work longer hours and don’t complain. i’m only 18, and i feel like a failure. 

i want to go and see my boyfriend for valentine’s day but i’m already petrified of taking it off work. i’m so busy and i’ve turned down 2 shifts already and i’m terrified of letting everyone down. 

the free time i do have, it’s impossible to relax. i’m plagued with anxiety and frustration. constantly worrying and i can’t even chill. 

i feel like i’m at my fucking breaking point for no reason.i think i’m genuinely just a weak, lazy fuck and i feel like im falling apart.