I'm 17 years old and currently at the worst point I've ever been in life. I suffer from hypochondria, in case you don't know what that is, it's basically very intense health anxiety. I'm always worried about my health and any symptoms send me in a spiral of worry. It's been like this for years now but it's been pretty manageable.

 An year ago I got a symptom of cancer and since than it's been very bad, leading to panic attacks and me worrying about something new every day.

 I'm trying to get over it but no one's there to help me. My dad basically sleeps all day cuz he can't sleep at night and my mom works 2 jobs so she's almost never home. And even when I do get to talk to my parents they basically tell me it's all my fault and to just "man up" which makes me feel even worse.

I have a few friends irl but they don't really give a shit so I stopped trying to talk to them about it. I'm not in a relationship so I can't get support from a gf either.

I feel alone and hopeless. I feel like sooner or later I'll be diagnosed with a dangerous disease that will either kill me or prevent me from having a family in the future. I just want someone to hug and comfort me but there's no one to turn to.

Pretty much the only way I have to calm down is daydreaming or self harm. I don't know if I can keep going.