Bad feelings every day all day, panic attacks, called in today because I can't even muster up the energy to move my body, life is ticking away while I sit here doing nothing but cry. Severely mentally ill, needed help all my life but my parents never got me the help I needed. Not their fault, but they failed as parents. Society failed me. Disfigured myself on purpose when I was delusional and now I have to live with it every day. There's no escape, there's no way it'll get better for me, I just want out now. My brain is diseased,. I can never be at peace.