Okay so basically I haven't had therapy on forever or had my meds checked out. My last therapist two months ago closed the case because I didn't know the ground floor meant basement of the building and I couldn't find the office and basically had a panic attack and quit. She just told me I'd be like this forever. The one before straight forgot about me and just said to check myself into a home. 
 I want to be able to hold a job and live a normal life but I'm too messed up right now to be able to fight for the appointments and leave my house. 
  I've been in therapy as a kid but they always vanish when I loose insurance even if I have the cash. How to do I find help that gives me more than 30 minutes a month with state insurance?