I’m coming to the realization that I’m damaged goods. I had a son who died, none of my relationships worked and I honestly couldn’t even begin to summarize why they didn’t work out. 

Although I have this disorder, I’m still a genuinely nice person. I can definitely say that much. I don’t go out of my way even during my episodes to attack or harm others in any way. I have a few slip ups, but never with a partner.

Now I’m my early 30s and seeing how stable other adults are, I have come to the realization that maybe I’m not worth a second of time in someone else’s life. As a friend or a passerby maybe, but not to spend a life with.

I’m learning to become okay with it. I mean shit I don’t even love myself 100% of the time so I don’t really think anyone would want that.

Am I wrong for this thought?