I have had the same friend group of 4 girls since elementary school (we are all 26 now), and we have always been an extremely tight knit group of friends. We do everything together, we tell each other everything. 

I have been extremely depressed for 6 months and within the last couple of weeks of spiraling and going back to the psych unit for a 6th time, I have started strongly resenting my friends and being really angry with them for what seems like them not caring anymore. They’ve known I’m not well, that I’m sick, that I’m struggling. No one was responding to my messages in the group chat. No one checked in with me to see if I was even alive after feeling suicidal. 

I left the group chat I was so angry. I said fine I’ll just leave if you guys don’t care. 

I’ve never been angry with my friends, I’ve never had fights with them or not talked to them for longer than a couple of days. 

I just feel like maybe this is a result of being really down and already dealing with a lot of anxiety and depression and hopelessness. It’s not like me to just ignore them but I genuinely just …don’t care anymore. I’m willing to throw away 15 years of friendship over this. It’s strange. 

Anyway, just ranting. It makes me sad.