i have a really hard time controlling myself when something goes wrong, even minor things. 

my mind jumps to "kill/harm yourself" in seconds. and i have tried over the dumbest shit. 

earlier today, i got removed from a group chat of people i was trying to befriend because it was strictly a gaming group and i don't have gaming equipment. it wasn't personal, but i broke down over it and self harmed. 

does anyone have tips on how to not react like this? 

its honestly embarrassing that i get so upset over stupid shit, of course i don't realize that until after.