My life seemed like it was great and wonderful looking back at old pictures, but at some point my life fell flat. I don't even know when it happened, but I realized that something changed when my parents said that I was, "different". I have loss of appetite, constant fatigue, insomnia, etc... but most importantly, I'm not happy. I honestly do not remember what happiness feels like. Of course I have small doses of happiness here and there from funny videos, or movies. But it's temporary. You're happy in that exact moment, but all is gone as soon as it ends. And life feels empty again. I tried to convince myself to enjoy things in life, but it never worked out. It's funny how everyone thinks that I'm a happy and energetic person when in reality I'm pathetic. They don't realize everything is an act, not that I want them to know. I don't even know where I was going with this, it became a rant about how lifeless I am haha. I just don't know man, i dont know why I changed and I dont think I can change back to who I was. But I don't feel enraged nor sad about it. In fact I don't feel anything no more. I don't think it's depression? Maybe I'm in denial? Perhaps im not suffering from anything at all and im just pathetic. Well my fingers are tired so im done with writing about my boring life. Thank you for tuning in