This is going to be a year filled with lots of wedding activities for a couple of my close family members and I feel terrible about the way I react to things like this. I’m in therapy but it doesn’t seem to be doing much. I started an anti depressant a couple months ago too. I might need to go up on my medications but I’m scared of all the side effects.

Yesterday for Easter was the first event I’ve been to in a while with some family members I haven’t seen in a while. I was so anxious about not wanting to leave the house to go there that I was an hour late &amp; when I walked in everyone was eating and turned to look at me and asked why I was so late. I tried my best to relax and be normal but I think my fear was all over my face and my family looked concerned. I tried to calm myself down the whole time &amp; it got a little better after about an hour but I was having panic attacks and trying to play it off that I was normal in the beginning which probably looked INSANE!! I love my family so much &amp; I don’t know why I react like they are murderers or something when I haven’t seen them in a while. I’m really worried about the bigger wedding events. Thank you for any advice or experience you can share with me