Yup. It’s painful being here knowing I’m wasting a good time but this isn’t something I can just shake off. Im trying my best to smile and enjoy the time I have here, but I can’t. I can’t let go of my past mistakes and regrets. I lost so much this year and no amount of “just think about the people who have it worse than you” will help. Not to be an asshole, but that does not help at all.