I've never split on him this bad. This is only the second time in our relationship that I've done it. It's like I can only see his faults. I can intellectually tell myself his strengths and that he is a good man who loves me, but I don't FEEL those things. 

I've been crying for basically two days straight because I noticed that the way I've been feeling about him has caused me to be mean to him at times. I feel like if I loved him, I wouldn't treat him that way, and it means I'm a bad person. He was mean to me today, too, but that's rare, and probably only happened because of the way I've been treating him.

I need help. I want to feel in love with my husband again. It hurts so bad remembering how much I loved him, because it feels so far away. I don't know how to fix this.