I feel like I keep hurting people. No matter how hard I try, it's like I can't control my actions. Then I just get overwhelmed with more self hatred and want to sh. I get so angry and upset that I disappointed someone. It's like a hurricane of thoughts about how I am such a fuck up. It feels impossible to combat these thoughts sometimes. I always end up just spamming them with messages about how sorry I am and revealing too much information about myself then feeling like I'm making it about myself. I don't know how to cope when someone is upset with me, it always feels like the end of the world. I, somehow, make it worse.