if this is the wrong subreddit for this, just let me know and i will take this post down, i am just like, 95% sure this is a bpd thing.

on my 2 year anniversary with my boyfriend (also fp), i found out he was cheating on me, and on sunday night, i found out he had cheated a 2nd time with the same person after i originally confronted him about it. i have decided to keep the relationship, but i am in so much pain. i haven't self harmed this bad in years. 

it is caused by him, but is that manipulative to say? he knows i'm hurting myself again, but where do i draw the line with how much of it i tell him?