Not sure this belongs here, but I realised today I actually really love and connect with the song "Feel", by Robbie Williams. Hated it by proxy all my life because my sperm-doner hated it and would rant about how "fake and pretentious" it was when I was a kid. I never realised I'd never actually formed my own opinion on the song until now, then when I thought about it more I realised I actually loved it as a kid before SD 'banned' anyone in the house from liking the song. I looked up the lyrics and cried at how well they encapsulate what I was feeling back then, and still feel:

"Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living 
Not sure I understand 
This role I've been given 
I sit and talk to God 
And he just laughs at my plans 
My head speaks a language 
I don't understand 

I just wanna feel 
Real love fill the home that I live in 
'Cause I got too much life 
Running through my veins 
Going to waste 

I don't wanna die 
But I ain't keen on living either 
Before I fall in love 
I'm preparing to leave her 
Scare myself to death 
That's why I keep on running 
Before I've arrived 
I can see myself coming

I just wanna feel 
Real love fill the home that I live in 
'Cause I got too much life 
Running through my veins 
Going to waste 
And I need to feel 
Real love and the love ever after 
I cannot get enough 

I just wanna feel 
Real love fill the home that I live in 
I got too much love 
Running through my veins 
To go to waste 
I just wanna feel 
Real love and the love ever after 
There's a hollow in my soul 
You can see it in my face 
It's a real big place 

Come and hold my hand 
I wanna contact the living 
Not sure I understand 
This role I've been given 
Not sure I understand 
Not sure I understand 
Not sure I understand 
Not sure I understand"