Due to mostly covid my social anxiety has had a chance to blossom up again but I decided that it was time I atleast TRIED to go out the door and be social. It was 3 very draining hours, I just kept zoning out and my face turned into a resting bitch face. I decided to push myself because thats what helps so I pushed and pushed, took some breathers, went back in, reassured myself I was doing well. It was well until my body decided "NOPE we are done lets go" and hit me with physical anxiety symptoms, when I feel cold and get the shakes that ive messed up and pushed myself way to hard.

So I left without even saying goodbye(ooft) got home and straight to my own personal safe spot, my bed.
Currently dealing with a lot of anxiety that also woke up my emetophobia(fear of throwing up) and I can feel panic building up. Im proud I actualy went out but this was hard and I learned that one does not need to do 3 hours straight away but ease into it with baby steps.