I’m just curious. Is a sense of self truly necessary? I sometimes understand the feeling of yearning for it, but at the same time I also feel no need to find it. Perhaps it may also be related to my field of education and work, unlike those creating art and such I dont really need to have a sense of self. All I do is just walk around the factory, check the pipes and how it operates, make sure everything is running smoothly and then go back to studying. So I never really felt the need to find out who I am.

But lately I’ve been talking to more people, then I was asked. “How would you describe yourself?” I’m not sure if I answered them or not. My mind went blank. Suddenly as if all my repressed feelings suddenly bursted out, I just sat there laughing awkwardly. When I got back home I started thinking more and more about it. For years I’ve always brushed off those things. My exes were obsessed with such things, but I always got annoyed at the topic. 

Anyways, main point is, is it truly that crucial to have a sense of self? Or am I just too used to repressing bothersome thoughts and emotions?