doubt that there is a going back. she is such a great person. but after some time the conversations got stale. just a how are you doing. no meaningful, deep conversation anymore. probably because i didn’t wanna talk about my problems for a while. but i didn’t realize how much i needed a simple how are you doing every now and then. why the fuck do i do that. i really regret it. it wasnt even a good way of pushing her away (if that even exists). i just said that i dont see a point in having boring meaningless conversations and that thats it. but apparently they meant alot. now i‘m just back to being by myself. atleast i‘m used to that…