I’m 23 and coming to the realization that that I’ll never be able to afford to live comfortably and happy. Ive been dealing with depression and anxiety and drug and eating disorders  my whole life. Last week I took a lot of pills and my boyfriend and mom couldn’t wake me up. I just wanted to sleep forever. I have no savings but I need a new car because mine is breaking down. My family constantly puts me down for it too. I know I should have money in my savings but I impulsively spend money to get just a little sliver of dopamine. It’s fucked up. My brain fucking sucks. At least I’ve been losing weight from not eating so I can at least maybe start to like my body again.