I've noticed some comments and notes of folks with BP whose trajectory of hypomania seems to get more and more into a feeling of constant irritability over time. 

Except for one major psychotic episode and alongside what just got recently diagnosed as adult ADHD, it's hard for me to tease apart a lot of the hypomanic episodes I might've had. 

But I've noticed whereas in my 20s, those would be marked with kind of a naivety, a feeling of strong interest or woo-like compassion or what have you, I just have these peaks now that feel more like I'm just real fucking energetically depressed and pissed off for a bit. 

It could be being on mood stabilisers (what a lame tradeoff if so lol) or just the illness changing over time. Could also be depression really kicking my arse more as the years progress. 

I know a lot of you have only ever experienced hypomania in that fashion, but is anyone else feeling those episodes shift much more into irritability with age or just me?