sorry , i dont have anywhere else to post or anyone to talk to i tried to post this on my profile im not sure if im doing it right.

i never hated myself until now. yeah, i was fat cuz i loved food, but i loved myself enough to lose a total of 190 lbs. and now i hate myself cuz apparently im a bad person without even knowing it myself. but if all these poeple on the forum think so it must be true. so i hate myself now. i went from being fat to the point where im struggling even getting food down my mouth because i feel so depressed. i never experienced being so upset that i completely lost my appetite. 

i feel ike a total loser and piece of shit. like i must be a terrible person. paid for 2 therapists in the last  days and then told me they didnt think i did anything wrong but im not allowed to use the forum anymore so i know i did. i fuckin hate myself. i would never have done anything to lose my support group and now i realize im a fucking stupid terrible person and i hate myself .