I can feel your hold on me
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growing distant
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and I know I should be 
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Grateful
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Relieved
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Rejoiced
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but instead 
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I am terrified
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you have been 
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in my bloodstream
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inbetween every 
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thought 
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for long enough 
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that missing you 
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will be missing 
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me 
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and I don't know who I am
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without someone else
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telling me 
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So who will I be 
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when the pieces of you 
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fall away?_x000D_
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20 January 2020