I have two kids, my brother is a 44 year old sex offender. They let him move back into their house. He was busted in a sting operation with a male minor, he also abused my other brother and myself when we were young. I tried to tell them long before his arrest that he was a threat. No one listens. I moved out I started a life, I have beautiful children and I was the one cast aside. I never get a phone call, I cannot visit, I’m the one with no support. This hurts me. All the abuse I faced from my entire family and now I’m the one that’s the problem. It just hurts so much. 

The big question is I don’t even know why I care, it seems like the normal thing is to have parents who love you, grandmas and grandpas for spoiling your kids but they just keep letting me down.

I have spent most of my life comparing 
Looking at what I thought was normal
Wondering when I would feel safe
Wanting love
Lingering In the hot pulse of fear 
Realizing abandonment is both perceived and tangible 

I just need some support and advice.
This hurts.