I started being friends with this person nearly a year ago and towards the end we got very close (basically in a relationship..?) but i was very distant and uncomfortable with it. Something happened between us (I found out they said some shit about me) and i immediately cut them off and didn’t seem to feel anything towards them, a few weeks later and i started to miss them, kept checking their social media and everything seemed much worse because they’re gone. my view of them switches from “i miss them, i’m sure i can meet up with them again, it will be embarrassing but i can get drunk so it’ll be okay, it’ll be worth it, i want to see them again” to “i hate them. i hate their face, their voice, everything about them annoys me and i don’t want anything to do with them anymore”
What’s that about?