i am a 20f who was always suffered from anxiety &amp; ocd. i am currently on anxiety medication, but recently have wondered if i have bpd or bipolar. i’m not sure which one my symptoms fall more under.

i am constantly anxious about something, always. my mind is never stopped and relaxed. i have anger issues and tend to have problems controlling my emotions. one moment i will be sky high and the next i could be so sad. not only do i lash out at others, but i am incapable of sharing my feelings. it is like in the moment i know that what i am doing is wrong, yet my mind refuses to allow me to act “normal”, “kind, or “reasonable”. i just become “mean”, “selfish”,”ignorant”, and i lash out and continue to yell and be “psycho”. it’s literally like i can’t stop. i don’t know how to be alone and it effects everything. i also binge eat to cope with EVERYTHING. i also am constantly having depressive episodes and i cherish the mornings when i wake up and my anxiety meds actually work. i want to change so bad, i can’t stand feeling like this. i can’t stand it effecting my relationship either, i feel like such a monster. i cause problems that aren’t even there. can anybody relate? is this normal? are these normal anxiety symptoms?