Hello,  I am a person who is a fighter since young age, been through alot of shit, but never been effected mentally, however last year was something else, and I lost my best friend and my grandpa, I gave it all in my practice and failed miserably, my mother for a while got so mentally abusing and because I fought from every single side of my life, I would not feel like myself but I pick myself up, and I don’t do it alone my bf has helped me, however my mom went into surgery I was mentally doing really well, however, I have this asshole professor who insisted that I need to do the presentation and how If I didn’t do it I would be “violating the rules” I was so pissed. i had to leave my mother in the hospital after surgery. Go to college which is 45 mins away for an unnecessary presentation, and the professor had an asshole attitude, and I came back to my mother so I could spend time with her, My day started at 5:30 am yesterday and ended at 9pm, today I woke up and I really jus don’t want to do anything, I want peace and an easier life, I survived a lot and now I am just tired of it all. And dropping out of college is not option where I live.