Have you ever felt so much, you stop feeling anything at all?

I’ve been off work the past couple of days due to stress and idk if its my body/head being overloaded from anxiety, but I’ve gone completely numb.

There’s no concentration, no appetite, no desire to do anything. I can’t watch TV, I’m disinterested in books, I’m stuck in my room because I can’t bring myself to go downstairs and have a conversation with my housemates. I haven’t talked, smiled or laughed in the last 24hrs. I haven’t left the house, not motivated to work out, and I’ve turned to napping away most of the day so at least I’m not awake anymore.

I feel completely devoid of emotion. I feel like I’m existing badly, and not living at all. I should be in the prime of my life (26yo) but instead I’m obese, depressed, unable to keep a job, failing out of my masters programme, and losing all my friends. 

If it wasn’t for my 16yo sister and my Dad, I’d have nothing else to live for. I’m so done with being here.