Hi! Please excuse my English.

For context: 25F/NB, I am an artistic type. I dropped out of video game school in May of last year because of stress and haven't done much since then that would be considered productive. I registered at my local employment office and even went through a course to find a job that might suit me. I kept crying on the phone with my appointed counselors because I couldn't bring myself to reach out to employers. Now the course is done and I haven't made any progress (even gone backward a bit). I am stuck.

I have zero qualifications; my education path is a disaster. I have a Bachelor's in literature studies (from a college I also dropped out of) that I can't do anything with because I don't want to be a teacher or researcher.

I have severe social anxiety and had a bad experience working in a book shop because of the clients and my boss so I'm scared of applying for that kind of job.   
Again, because of SA, I'm terrified of going to a therapist.

Everyday I check for available jobs and end up physically overwhelmed. Frozen in place. Same when searching for a therapist. And I struggle to talk about it to my family, cause we rarely talk about our problems.

The worst part is that for everything else I've been thriving. I work out every other day, clean the house, cook, and work on my various artistic projects, no problem. But when it comes to searching for a job, suddenly the brain has left the building. 

I don't know what to do. Thank you for reading.