I usually delete my posts, finding some solace in the fact that I vented my feelings out, but today. I can’t stop my tears from flowing. I lost my uncle today, he was 60. He leaves behind his wife and 2 daughters. I would call them cousins but they’re much closer than that.l, they’re like real sisters to me. Watching them cry made me cry so much, I never wanted this for them. 


Shit just had to hit the fan. He had a triple bypass surgery 2 days ago because of a heart attack he had a few weeks back. he was frail, week and a bit negative about the whole thing. But I don’t want to remember him like that. He used to tutor me in maths, he would let me stay at his place in the summers when I was young and take us all out to ice cream. He’s gone now, fucking gone and I can’t stop feeling angry and hurt and sad and depressed. How many times do I have mourn in the past 12 months, it hurts so fucking much. I want this kind of pain to stop, I’ve mourned a friend, a close uncle and my grandmother last year in itself. This is not fair, not to me, not to those close to them. It’s not fair