I work from 8am-3pm, Monday-Friday. I get no breaks during that time because I work with little kids with intellectual/emotional/behavioral disabilities. I get home, do summer school for a couple of hours then go on my phone and stay in my room for the rest of the day. I use to love painting, drawing, and playing the guitar. Now I can’t even think about playing my guitar before almost having a panic attack. I have guitar every Saturday, so I need to practice otherwise my guitar teacher will be disappointed. It’s already basically Thursday and I have only practiced once this week. I’m a total failure omfg, I can’t even pick up my guitar without feeling gross. Can’t even start painting without my world feeling like it’s going to end. I even just finished cleaning my room but it’s already messy.I feel like I’m slowly rotting away. I’m probably going to self harm tonight just because I’m so tired.