So i had a from birth to 10 years old. I loved him we did stuff together he took me to hockey games, played catch, and watched sports with me. But then why would he leave my family and not talk to us for FOUR years. He’s gonna be working near my town on a farm so he asked to see us. Why? Like I need help how do i deal with not having a dad it’s so hard seeing people do things with their dads. i cry every night and i have no clue what to do. It’s too much but i don’t know what i can possibly do. And i had always been a skinny or small kid and as i grew up i got bigger but it was fairly noticeable. and my father was fairly big and now i feel like i am. i don’t think i’m the same person but i look like him. i just, someone tell me what to do it’s hard to deal with. especially when i’m only 14 turning 15 on june 3rd. yay. it makes so sad and i just wanna just crawl in a hole and die. idk what to do man