Hi, I'm new at this community. I'll be quick and tell you some experiences I've had that make me think I might be depressed. I'm a male, 18 years old, I'm studying in a university (software engineering), I have a girlfriend (still don't know how), I don't work. I usually think life is very boring. I tend to feel like from now on life is gonna pass extremely quickly, and it will be something like this: study until graduation, work, work, work, marriage (I don't know if I want to get married, but just to illustrate), children, work, work, getting old and sick, then die. I can't stop thinking that that's literally it. That's all life has to offer to me. And that is boring as fuck. Sometimes I feel sad, but normally I don't feel sad, just disappointed. I create in my mind worlds much more interesting than this one, worlds in which I save the world from all social problems defeating some kind of enemy (like doing a revolution), or other worlds in which I'm just a side character, but live happily in a house studying nature like a scientist, without worrying about boring jobs or stupid (extremely stupid, so stupid they can't be more stupid) academics. When I get back to the real world, I just feel like there's nothing to do: just watch passively how life goes its boring way. Nothing makes sense to me. My girlfriend is so cute I can't do anything but to adore her, but anyway I'm totally conscious that I'm with her only because it's pleasurable. And I don't feel bad about that because I think love doesn't truly exist: is just a way to hide that the only think we care about is pleasure, to justify stupid pleasure. I have a few friends, and when I'm with my girlfriend or with my friends I try to be funny and laugh a lot, I try to keep a cheerful personality, but in the inside things are different. Well, that's it. What do you think? Am I depressed?