Life is so meaningless. Go to work, get off, play video games, go to bed. Weekends come around. I do something pointless to entertain myself and wonder why I have to be alive. Rinse and repeat for years on end. 

I was with my ex for nine years and it was so different. Now everything is miserable 24/7. My life is trash without her. 

I tried volunteering a little and I can tell it won't help at all. I know exercise is supposed to help but it's hard to care enough to do it. Exercise was kind of her thing so I can't even do workout videos at home anymore without it being a reminder. 

I could fill my days with "exciting" activities and it would all be pointless. What do people do that actually makes life worth living? Because it's not worth it at all. It's empty, pointless and pathetic. Without my ex it's all just garbage. It seems like if you don't have a so or family of your own to make the meaninglessness less severe, it's all just shit.