All my life, I've had comments about the way I look, which has made me feel really anxious and scared about meeting new people, and going out in public. I just fear getting any more nasty comments, Because of this, I've got used to just hiding away in my flat, only go out for food and work.

I try to block out the way I look, and it works for an amount of time, but then I hear someone say something and I spend days, or weeks rehashing everything that has ever been said to me, and I can remember them all. I just feel so sad, and hate myself. It mentally drains me to try to forget about my looks, and pretend I look normal. 

I was doing okish, until I had a dentist appointment last week, and in the waiting area, a little girl came in and said to her mother 'that man looks scary'. Then at work a few days later, heard someone say 'it does look frightening' to be fair, I don't know if that was directed at me, but because of what that little girl said, I suspect it was. 

So now I just feel like crap, and anxious about going outside again, just want to hide away from the world, for forever.