Hey!
So today I feel totally fine. I’ve always been mostly high functioning and I mostly manage to keep my inner turmoil to myself as my mood always tends to swing more to the negative (sad, angry, irritable, numb) side, yet I am in a good mood today and I can actually get things done, feel like I’m interested in stuff etc. Kind of feel like it would be possible for me to have a decent future.. Days like this happen rarely but it always makes me question my diagnosis. See, I’m scheduled to attend a psychiatric daycare for some time in two weeks because I’ve been depressed and abusing a lot of alcohol lately and it has been interfering with me getting things done (also self harmed a bit). Today I feel I should cancel it, I feel sane, okay and as though I had been faking my symptoms all the time.. DAE get this way? How do I trust myself?