I'm on meds. I'm in therapy. But it feels like no matter how hard I try to be myself, others are intervening to make sure I can't be myself. They want me to fit into a box. They want me to be "normal". It's like I'm being watched, and controlled by others. My option is either break on through to the other side and end up being a toxic bitch like my mom, or continue being stepped on and "formed" like my dad.

Reminds me of The Truman Show. Being watched on TV your whole life and having your whole life decided for you. I feel similar to that right now and it's scary.

I want out of this simulation.