My depression has finally set in. I could feel it coming for weeks. Throw some seasonal depression in the mix and you got a recipe for disaster. 

People seem to think I’m depressed because of a string of bad things happening all at once. They don’t get the fact that I’m depressed plus those things. 

I don’t know how to cope. I took a cbt course but it focused on suicide as that was a bigger problem at the time. Other than that I don’t know how to deal with this and certainly not alone. I don’t have a very great support system. 

I’m not sure it’s depression or something else but I feel like I’m going to explode gibberish and insanity all over everyone. I’ve been avoiding people at all costs. 

I’m sorry for this stupid rant. It’s just that I have nowhere else to go but the internet.