On friday I went out with my support worker and I was irritable. I'm still irritable. Everything is annoying! People asking me questions. I even feel irritable because of a dream I had.

I even feel irritable about things that happened 10 years ago. I'm also feeling annoyed with my self. I feel like I'm stupid. I'm stupid compared to my siblings. I hated being in special ed because it was so patronizing in my opinion. Like one lady thought I couldn't read. Also they should have just let me fail! I honestly should have dropped out. School didnt do me any good. 

Today I feel irritable because I'm with a friend. It went well but I had a rough night tbh. I stole an ambien because i couldn't sleep. Stayed up and was hallucinating.