So who else here, when feeling triggered or upset by something their FP has said (or not said), feels the need to write a million different draft versions of what they want to say? Sometimes I send a final version, sometimes I don’t and just end up going silent for a bit until I calm down. The thing is no matter what I send I’m never satisfied with the response but I always end up believing I’m at fault because I didn’t communicate clearly enough. 

I know some of it is me just trying to calm my tits and make some sense of my spiralling thoughts. A kind of emotional purge I suppose without actually saying it to my FP and potentially upsetting them. 

But I also feel like if I can just word it in the most perfect way he will suddenly understand me and truly know how I feel and how to navigate my ups and downs. Then all will be well in the world. But there’s just so much, it’s a tidal wave.

I obsess over every tiny detail.

It drives me nuts but I can’t seem to stop it. My notes app is full of drafts which I go though and reread sometimes and it’s basically the same shit over and over but written in a slightly different way. Like I’m stuck on loop! 

Please tell me I’m not the only one who does this…where’s the off switch? 😩