I'm not sure sabotaging is the right word, but basically I'm wondering if anyone else has made attempts to kind of interfere with their therapy.

For example, with my first counsellor I would constantly lie when they asked me questions about symptoms and things I was feeling, which of course made it basically impossible to improve because the counsellor didn't know what was happening. 

Same thing has happened recently with a psych I just started seeing. I lied about important questions and I don't know why. 

And now due to COVID-19, face-to-face sessions with the psych have been suspended. They offered to do a phone session with me, and I refused. I just wouldn't pick up the phone. Then when they asked again, I straight up said no. 

Why am I doing this?? And does anybody else do it?