Some context I have been in a long term relationship with a girl who had bpd. We have been together for 2+ years and we both are 19 now. She started becoming extremely verbally abusive and controlling and I drew the line when she hit me and wanted me to “spoil” her and she would get upset when I wouldn’t pay for her meal at weekly dinner dates. Regardless of all the times she did crazy things like blackmail or cut herself in front of me to stay I do love and care about her. Before she met she lived on Male validation and was very very promiscuous. But she was extremely loyal during the relationship (I think) but we did break up one other time and she downloaded tinder hours after we broke up. We did get back together a couple days later. But now it is official and seeing her already back on tinder hurts she did send me a text saying she was numb from all this. I don’t know I would just like to hear how people with borderline feel after a break up in a long term relationship.