I’ve been really challenging my anxiety lately (because F it! I was so miserable staying in 24/7 because of the what ifs) and I’ve done so well. I hid away my oxi-meter and I have gone on TWO nights out with my friends (for the first time in FIVE YEARS), I didn’t drink as I don’t enjoy it but I had such a great time even when a palpitation snuck in I thought NOT TODAY. 

One of those nights was last night. I am tired as heck today as we didn’t get in til almost 5am (oops!) but during some of my errands today I felt a bit short of breath again, I tried to ignore it have got on with my day I’ve sat down for dinner and the SOB was awful I truly felt ‘this is different’ and I went and rushed to get my oximeter. I’m so annoyed at myself that even though I know the chances of me (26/F) dropping dead are slim, I let the thought overrule me and now I can’t shake it. Part of me is saying go ER incase but other part is saying you’re tired you’ve been busy if there was anything untoward you wouldn’t be writing on Reddit! PSA I also have such bad allergies atm so I’m sure that’s contributing