i don’t really know how to phrase this, and i am currently having a breakdown so i do apologise if this makes absolutely no sense at all. 
i just want to go home. but i am home? i’m in my bed, at home, i’m safe, i’m with my family, but i want to go home? it’s like my whole body is begging me to go home but i can’t because there’s no where to go - like internally i don’t have a home. i don’t feel like i have anywhere. 
i don’t even know anymore lads. i won’t lie, i’m not seeing much point in doing this any longer.