So, and I know how silly it sounds, but I absolutely have to sit in the first high up seat on the right. If someone else is there and I can't sit there I spend the entire bus journey feeling so anxious that if something else goes wrong I'll have a complete breakdown. No one else I've told this to understands and I feel bad because I've otherwise made significant progress with travel.
And I just don't know how to be "normal" about this, like I know I shouldn't be so panicked about this, and it makes little to no sense