I’ve been diagnosed with “quiet” BPD for  almost a year now, but I’ve been struggling with mental health my entire life while simultaneously internalizing a lot of it. 

The very few friends I have are neurotypical and while I’m aware that everyone struggles(i’m really not trying to minimize that), there’s a difference between being stressed/sad you failed a test and surviving multiple attempts to end your own life. There’s a spectrum and they are luckily not on my side, and I’m glad because this disorder fucking sucks.

Anyways, they “know” I have BPD but to be honest I don’t think they *really* know because whenever I get the guts to let them in and express something, they always tell me “oh well that’s a normal response” or “i can relate”. They’re great people and they mean well, but it just shuts me down. But let them have something bad happen, and then they act like their experience is unique to ONLY them and I’m kinda sitting on the side like 🧍🏼‍♀️

I’m not dismissive of their feelings because they’re just as valid as mine, but I can never help but feel that they need to READ THE ROOM. This stems to other things like money, family, trauma, etc.

I’m aware that I did this to myself for not truly showing them all my symptoms but do I have to do that for them to understand the severity of this disorder? I don’t think so. I was just wondering if some people can relate and see how they handle the situation. 

This definitely wasn’t supposed to turn into a rant, I just moved and am without a therapist atm…