Hi, I just wanted to ask random people as I can't ask it to any people in my life. No professional has diagnosed me with anything. I think that I have anxiety for the last 3-4 years and it is growing inside me. Everyday, I wake up to stress about many unnecessary things and these ideas just make me sadder and darker. I am afraid to go out with my friends, or going out in general and I don't know why. But I don't think I am agoraphobic, because it is whole another level. I just think that I have social anxiety because every human interaction I make, or thinking about it which is almost every little second in my life, makes me feel scared. That is why I can't go out with my friends, have fun and live the life while I am alive. I was a person that couldn't understand people who would commit suicide but now I really do get it, it is just unbearable. I would never ever commit suicide, btw. I just feel like I will live my life but nothing will come out of it, and it will just be a pointless life. I can't tell about this to the people I know. I have told my parents about this once, they took me to a therapist, who would just talk nonsense and I told them about this. Later, I decided not going to see her and my parents had already been thinking that therapists were just a waste of money and me telling them about my experience strengthened their opinion. I thought that my anxiety would go away with time but it is not and I am stuck at house since the beginning of summer break. I feel sad about this so much. I don't want to tell this to my parents once more because I know that they won't want to send me to the therapist once again. They were already complaining about it at the first time. I feel like I am in a desperate position which I put myself in it. How can I overcome this situation, do you have any suggestions to me?