If it's okay I'd like to info dump to get my head straight and hopefully get some support.

-Mother is complicated along with her mother. We couldn't visit due to poorly child and I'm anxious about how it looks. I feel like I'm lying and using my child as an excuse even though I've been covered in vomit this week.

-I'm worried that I haven't done enough in the way of presents for the difficult ones above, but also loved ones and my children (including Santa)

-i'm anxious about money and the lack of it. 

-I'm unable to see loved ones due to COVID and COVID related worries. I don't want to accidentally make elder relatives sick.

-I feel massive pressure to make Christmas nice to our little family and I don't want anyone to be disappointed because I haven't done enough.

-I'm on the verge of thinking I may have ADHD and part of that is realising I forget stuff. What if I forget something and ruin Christmas?

I know it's a random dump of info. If it doesn't follow the rules please let me know. I just want to know I'm not alone in feeling this way.