My girlfriend just got out of rehab after three weeks and broke up with me after three years together. I feel like I have nothing anymore, she was my everything. We've lived together and worked together almost this whole time. We have a car that's in both our names, I'm really scared I'm going to become car-less and homeless soon. I don't know what I'll do for work if that happens; I don't have any savings at the moment I'm trying to recover from my past debt that I put myself through. I've been waiting for her so excited her to come back as her original self and be the girl I originally fell in love but she came right back and broke my heart. I don't have ay friends of my own that I can rely on or any family. I feel so hopeless and desperate for anything to work out in my favor right now. I'm out sitting in the garage right now because I can't bear to lay in bed and sleep, I want to check myself into the hospital but I have no idea what would happen, I make too much money according to the state to get free insurance and I definitely can't actually afford it either due to my own bills. Been feeling like I'm just slipping back deeper and deeper into that hole and I really just don't care anymore I've given up; I see no point in trying anymore I've gotten back up on my feet so many times I should have a medal, I've tried to kill myself multiple times already. My girlfriends family treats me better than my own and I honestly don't want to put them through this anymore but I truly don't want to be here part of my own vicious little cycle I stick myself in for no reason, I'm supposed to go to an IOP group therapy, but the past several weeks I haven't been going and my social worker or councilor I don't know what he is, he is however absolutely terrible at his job in  my opinion and he's the only one currently available for me. I've been to the IOP place so many times that they said if I leave and come back they won't take me this time but honestly that doesn't bother me in the slightest; But then I wonder what happens if it happens again will I get moved to some other in-patient facility? I just don't know what to right know I can't even think about anything, I haven't been able to talk to her for the past few hours. I'll update if anything happens.