I don't know what to make of this. It seems like a combo of BPD and ROCD or something in between. I had this problem in my last relationship too, and that relationship sucked balls. Sometimes I don't know if my current one sucks too, I'm constantly confused about reality.

I love my BF of 8 months, but I do have doubts about our relationship. He is the best BF I've ever had but sometimes I question us in the long term for reasons I won't go into. Whenever I am physically with him, I feel extremely happy and calm...we are very intimate and he is so comforting. However, whenever I am away from him, after about 2 days my mind starts to loop in all my doubts, disappointments, and criticisms of him. It starts to make me feel like I don't even know him - all I can see is the bad and I want to break up. Maybe I'm splitting? It happens, without fail, EVERY time we separate. I am on a trip right now, and its been 8 days of non stop looping in this negativity.

And I'll add, these looping thoughts oscillate between "i dont know about him/us, maybe this isn't the right relationship" to fear of him cheating, fear that he doesn't love me enough, that he loved his exes more, etc.

I don't know what to make of this. It takes a toll on me, on him, and on the relationship. I'm constantly confused. The anxiety and negativity is so strong that its not something I can really turn off. Does anyone experience this or know how to deal with this?