My boyfriend is gone on for work (army) and I’m in so much physical pain bc I just need him right now. I don’t really have any friends, I’m alone, I’ve been alone all day and I’m just really sad. I can’t stop crying. I don’t want to exist. I don’t know what to do. I now want to breakup but I love him so much and this is his career but this fucking sucks so bad. My heart aches. And I know how pathetic I sound. I wish I didn’t feel this way.