I've been struggling for awhile, but I don't know how to explain it. I feel like the past year has just passed me by (probably because it has) and I know I should be doing better but I don't know how? I feel like there are a lot of feelings bubbling below the surface, but at the same time I don't recognise what they are anymore or don't want to because I've been suppressing them for so long... Does anyone else feel disconnected from their wants/dreams/interests/goals? I feel like I'm lacking my motivator for combating my anxieties, I've run (flight or fight) for so long I don't know what to fight for anymore - like I've put myself inside a bubble which I know logically is only temporary and not great long term, but I can't find it in me to be better (like that isn't a strong enough motivator, even though logically I know it should be???)

Tl;dr how do you find motivation to face your anxieties?