I'm tried of having Bpd. I just spent an hr crying my eyes out. Reliving every moment anyone and everyone has left and abandoned me. The reality of this mental illness makes me sick and tired. I don't want it. I don't want to be so broken anymore.Someone i grew close to online just  told me they no longer wanted to talk and so they left. I feel stupid and depressed. Another person left me and I know it's some how my fault. I wish I didn't feel this way after everytime someone leaves or stops responding. I wish my brain wasn't so broken