Life is supposed to be fully of surprises, right? All I have seen is how bad life can be, I don't know if I'm supposed to be the one God uses for laughs or do I have a greater purpose in this world. My optimism is slowly deteriorating and it's getting bad. I thought I was living a good life, but being here just makes me wonder if I'm really a human or just an NPC that just lives. I see through everyone now and it makes me question if I'm even worth anything at all, if I'm not, then so be it. I'd rather get out of this world quitely than have a big shocker to people anyway. The only reason people would miss me is because they miss making fun of me. Oh well, I guess my purpose to be used for entertainment I guess, so great for life, right?