This month has been so stressful. My body hurts so much and for what? I just want someone to comfort me and let myself be comforted without the fear i have to take potential abuse with it. I'm so physically and mentally exhausted and after all these years I don't know how to relieve stress properly. All I got in life was invalidation, called many insulting names, driven out of communities and I absorb so much stress that I pass out for hours. And what do I get in return? I basically made another person upset because I can't physically function from all the burnout.

I'll isolate myself completely if I have to. I'll purge my what's left of my social life just so I can finally be left the fuck alone for it. I don't care anymore. I don't want to cry from it all anymore. Because God, just PLEASE give me a moment of peace.