My group of friends and family is fairly small. I learned early on that real friends are hard to find. As a result I keep my group small. But as a result. I always been the "strong" or "responsible" one...even when things are horrible for me...I always had to be the strong and responsible person and not let it show that I was struggling or unhappy... some people tell me that its due to how I was raised...I dont think so honestly. I think its becouse since I been on my own thats how I had to be nobody else was next to me to tell me "it will be okay" dont worry I got it babe, you take it easy today" or anything similar... so why is it even when I lose someone important to me... that I'm not allowed to feel sad and be weak for a little while while others can but I'm put down, I'm shamed for having emotions....Im told they dont matter... but then asked to help pay for the funeral...