I was recently diagnosed with BPD during quarantine and have been unable to access resources. My psychiatrist has not been answering and I feel uncomfortable speaking to my therapist on the phone. I feel myself getting attached to a new FP and it scares me. I don’t want to be attached. The logical side of me says that I don’t need a guy and should learn to be independent. I hate that I always unintentionally search for that attachment to men! He messages me everyday and I always feel like i’m being reserved/detached/uninteresting because I know that I tend to over share with people I am attached to. So in order to keep myself from over sharing, I don’t share at all. I feel like I am just going to end up hurting myself. I have only been talking to him for a couple weeks and hate this attachment! I have been so detached from reality lately and I don’t know what to think! I feel like I can’t trust my brain.