i gained nothing. in fact, i lost.

fuck. ok so i told her that my cousin "raped" me when i was about 6 years old. it was actually molestation and not rape, and she corrected me about it. now, what else?

she did nothing. she took it as no big deal after realizing that. who the hell gives a shit about mixing words up? i'm still traumatized no matter which word. you better thank the deity up above because i still have enough self respect left in me to have the courage to actually tell you about it and not blame myself. you didn't do that. instead, you shut me off. i actually told you when i was younger and you forgot about it. you just keep denying, denying FUCKING DENYING IT ALL

i hate this family. mom, i love you. i really do. but you're just such a dick. why should i tell you anything about my problems, when you're just going to tell me that "it's all in my head" or that "others have it worse"? damn, i feel like my classmates or peers are more of a family than this shithole.