I got diagnosed with borderline about 3 years ago, and haven’t really had any help since. I constantly feel empty and unable to fill this void in my chest. I find myself becoming extremely agitated when I’m not doing anything because the boredom is absolute agony. My emotions get the best of me and I push people away and then end up regretting it. I feel like I’m nothing and all that I’m made up of is my disorder. I’m actively seeking help and just want to better myself and stop feeling like this all day everyday. It’s getting really hard and I’m scared it’s going to end up consuming me to the point where I can’t go on anymore.