Hi, if u read this and have an advice for me plz help me. So i lost my house and my grandfather few months ago and i'm still feeling not well. i had a depression 1 years ago during covid and i wanted to die but now i still want to live and need some help so i can continue on wanting to live. i had to move to my mother s house and i feel really bad at home i have no father and seeing my mother, step father and step sister they feel like a real family and i m basically alone and hurt at home. At school my grades are bad, i m doing my best to save the day and i think i ll be able to save it, i have a ne week holiday soon and i ll study as much as i can to make up for all the work i didn't do. But the problem is that i have a teacher that s telling me everyday i see him that i m basically not made for this course and hearing that really hurt. I started to become narcissist as a way to protect me from all the people who try to break me down but it s starting to wear off. But the thing i m also wondering is, is he doing that to help me or is he really trying to humiliate me? He stating this everyweeks, i know my grade are bad but i still got my previous year and my first semester this year with 12/20 and i failled one test this semester so i can still save myself. i m making mistake in front of him cause i m very very why and when he ask me a question in front of the class i even forget that 1+1 = 2 u know that kinda stuff. So right now school is shit, at home it s shit i don t even know if i like my course. I kinda like 1/4 of what i m doing right now so i don t know if i choose the right path either. i m lost, alone and hurt but i m doing my best to survive so if someone have advice i ll glady take some. thx u and sorry for my english i m not good with it