I feel like I need to talk triggers with people who GET IT. I can’t help it when I flip out sometimes-trust me I do not want this. It’s embarrassing; I feel immature and toxic.

What are your biggest triggers? Do you have any particular coping mechanisms?

The first for me is feeling embarrassed/shamed in some kind of way when I have my guard down...for example in a rare instance that I feel happy and am not “watching” myself/my actions. 

Another is not feeling loved/wanted by my partner. Feeling rejected...which then leads me to project all my self loathing onto them. 

Both lead my down the BPD rabbit hole in a major way.