I feel extremely lonely because I don't have anyone to even talk to, let alone support me. My family was never there for me, my friends that I thought I had really don't care, I've never even been in a relationship before. At least several times a day, this intense loneliness overcomes me and it's so overwhelming that I'd either have to harm myself or physically destroy something just to ease the feeling like my lungs are collapsing from episodes of anxiety. I really don't know what the hell to do. When I try to make friends and they genuinely ask me about my problems, there's so much about it that they really stop trying to help and stop caring (because I'm obviously helpless.). I don't know what the fuck to do with myself, it's like this every single day. (No, I don't have access to professional help. Yes, I've tried. Yes, I really don't have a single person in my life that cares about me. I know that because no one bothers to even talk to me.).