I've(22m) suffered depression for as long as I can remember. And the two times, two lovely girls decided to try and help me, try and make me happy, I've hurt them.

Now I'm all alone again, I pushed my friends away months ago. I tried reconnecting recently, they were there, but the loneliness doesnt go away. Tears roll down my face as I think of both my previous partners. Of the happy times we had and precious moments we shared.

All I have left now is nothing. Nothing i can feel a connection to, and an endless void that cant be lit or escaped from.

Everyone says there are better days to come. That's such a lie. My life is nothing but emptiness.

I want a light in the dark, but at the same time, the coldness of the dark is comforting.