I'm 20, i live with my mom and sibling. another older sibling has their own place. 
Since 14 i had anorexia and depression + general and social anxiety. My ed got me into a lot of arguments with my family and i started isolating myself in my room a lot. I love my mom and my siblings, they have done so much for me but i struggle so much just to talk to them in person or by text messages in our group  chat. I recovered from my ed partially, I just still have this deep anxiety and shame. I'm struggling so hard to reconnect with them, especially my siblings, i struggle so hard just to talk to them and show affection. I don't know what to do and i'm afraid it's too late to show them how much i care. Both of them told me i dont talk enough to them or show much affection, my grandma said i must hate hugs and that i'm so quiet it's like i dont want to talk to anyone at all.
I just want them to know how much i care and appreciate them and talk to them normally like they do.
Any advice is welcome.