I'm 21(female) undergraduate. Completed graduation this year and right now I'm not doing anything no internship no job nothing. I am in immense pain and anxiety. Don't have anyone neither in irl nor in elife. I cry every time when I'm showering, eating, reading book. I'm a loner. I want someone just to sit with me. I've always been a loner but recently been feeling lonely. And its not good.
Secondly i have to find a job asap. Everyone just talks about this, when are you going to do a job, look at your peers everyone is doing something. And ut makes me so anxious, i smile and reassure my parents that relax i will soon find something. But I'm basically lying. My father is not earning either.
They say everyone has a person you can talk to and being a girl it's easier and a guy will definitely simp on you and listen you rant then why am i alone.
They're are so many issues going on in my personal life. Always had a grip but now I'm losing it. I know I'm late and mist of my mates are moving forward. I talk to myself that everything's gonna be fine. Talking reassuring calming myself saying it again and again and it's not working. I am so scared and under anxiety that i can't even make a resume. Always overwhelmed and nervous scared of don't know what.
I have no idea why am i even asking for help from reddit. I don't know anything. I don't know how i will manage everything in this moment, i just want some guidance help or anything. 
I am really scared and having su!c!dal thoughts.