I've realized recently that all my so called friendships are a lie, they have simply stayed with me out of pity or because they felt they had to. So I have decided for their own good I should disappear from their lives - this is what they want but they will not admit it and if I didn't take action things would just continue the way they were indefinitely. I feel so guilty for the burden and stress I have caused them and I'm honestly embarrassed that it's taken so long for me to see the truth. I guess I didn't want to see it.

Since I feel so bad about the situation I wanted to at least try and create some closure, so I decided to apologize for the way things have been and to let them know I will not be bothering them anymore - I thought it would be unfair not to explain myself and I was expecting them to be relieved that they don't have to pretend anymore. But it seems to have made things worse. 

They're treating me like a total fool, saying I'm wrong to feel the way I do (even though it has been made very clear to me that I am at best an inconvenience). And I'm only apologising because I "want something out of it". I'm simply trying to do the right thing here by distancing myself from people who I hurt with my presence. They will be objectively happier without me. But it's like they are refusing to admit this to me or to themselves. What more can I do now?