Been feeling really good lately, but today I felt like shit and gashed my thighs. Going to college again soon and I just got  really, really stressed out of no-freaking-where. Thought I had finally found my major and now I'm having second thoughts. For my 4th major since graduating high school. Plus I really don't want to transfer with my current job,but can't find anything closer to campus with pay anywhere near my current pay. Minimum wage is pretty low in Texas (7.25), and I expected to take a pay cut, but going from 11/hr to 8.25 is just like uggghhhhhggggg. But I don't feel like I can keep my current job because of the hours (12 hour shifts, sometimes over night) and just the general level of stress that comes from managing shifts by myself. Plus I'm fucking OVER the level of harassment that comes from being the youngest manager by almost a decade and only fucking female. No, you wouldn't "be able to seduce" me if you "really wanted to." Well maybe you could because of my non existent impulse control. Wonder I've only had 2 blow out fights. Hahaahahaa FUCK my life. Just when I had tricked myself into feeling better for awhile. Again. Should anticipate the crash by now. Halp. 