This year has been awful, to say the least. I have attempted suicide or had suicid thoughts every other week and at its peak i was suffering from insomnia with bouts of suicidal thoughts pouring in.

I have no one to confide in. The irony is that i actually have quite a presence on social media, but yet i have been the most lonely all year round. I make comedy skits online, just to take away the pressure i face from life. It has backfired immensely and now i get anxiety from it.
People have also changed how they treat me ever since i became "popular". For example, people that were once mean or bitter to me are suddenly incredibly nice to me.
My mood has never been stable this year.