I love my boyfriend but he makes me cry a lot. Our relationship is complicated. We had a weird start and we haven’t really moved forward from that.
I don’t think he’s THAT aware of it, though he has told me he feels he’s not doing as much as he could. I really don’t know how to tell him that he’s actually not. 

He’s abroad right now and in a very stressful situation. I don’t want to add more problems to his life. He knows I suffer from BPD, depression and anxiety and that I’m currently unmedicated and not doing therapy. I just sometimes feel that out relationship is all pretty words and not much else. 

My depression and anxiety are super high, and right now, he’s not helping. I don’t want to break up with him, I really don’t. And I know (at least I want to believe) he doesn’t do these things on purpose. 
I don’t feel comfortable talking to him about this yet since he is so far away. I know I’m problematic too but I just wish I could stop crying so much.