Why isn’t there a subreddit called “tell everyone your sob story so you get some validation for your feelings and want to kill yourself less”? Yes, I know that would be called “therapy”.  (I’m on a waiting list apparently) 

Any experience I’ve had online has always been met by such harsh critique and people so severely misinterpreting me- how do people even make friends online?

My partner has said to me “it would be nice to come home and you not be so f*cking miserable”. Heh. He tells me I want to be miserable. 
I want that virtual cuddle that most people seem to manage but never me.

Everything is a mess.