Im finding it so hard to do the basic things without wanting to break down. I literally don't even wanna get out of bed to pee so my bladder is starting to hurt from how long im going holding it. I cant seem to find the right foods to eat so i'm just starving until night where I binge. I feel sick, I feel tired and I feel swollen. I want to get better but I don't want to do anything so I wont get better. Ive been overly self diagnosing lately with all these different illnesses... Im sick of this shit I just want answers and I want the constant suffering in my head to end. Why is it so hard to get help without attempting/having obvious sh scars? Why cant anyone care/help before its too late?