Long story short is, I have very terrible anxiety. But last week I just got my first job in years cleaning semi primitive bathrooms on these camp grounds. It's part time, cash money, simple work. Weekends are very busy so even after you clean they get tore up. People are coming off the river drunk, high, and sick from the sun. Track mud into the bathrooms which mixes with water from the showers. Well I did what I was supposed to do and squeegeed the floors during my cleaning. On my way home boss called and reemed me about how she couldn't smell cleaner, and that she is paying me x amount of dollars (in sort of an accusatory way) she expects to smell the cleaner. I said I understood and asked if I needed to come back to fix the issue tonight. She said no but expects to smell cleaner in the bathroom tomorrow. 

I do 100% get where she is coming from. BUT I dont like the insinuation that I didn't do my job. And now ill sit all night having anxiety attacks thinking im going to get in trouble or fired over this tomorrow. And I know its ridiculous to even think that way but that's just how my brain goes and I hate it. 

Anyways, I just wanted to ramble that out. Thanks for reading.