I was diagnosed with BPD early last year, got onto a Ketamine Trial for Suicidality, and after a year of treatment, I felt like a new person. I felt like I had a life back. 8 weeks after the trial has ended and I feel as though the effects of the ketamine have worn off and I’m back in hell. I can’t live like this. I’m tired. I’m never going to escape this hell. I wish I could just go without hurting anyone.