It's shocking. My mental health has done a 360 over the years and not in a good way. I had the most severe social anxiety in my teens it's hard to describe how bad it was. Then when I was 20 I read about the psychologist Albert Ellis and his infamous talk to 100 woman challenge.  

I made myself I had to do it but I made it harder, I had too ask the woman out not just talk to them. It started out as scary, and brutal, 19 straight rejections at one point, but soon I found myself really enjoying it and having fun a sort of masochism. After that I was fine socially. What I ignored was the increasing hallucinations. 

Around 2 years ago I started talking to myself, out of loneliness in different voices to have fun and because I was worried my vocal cords were starting to atrophy. Then I starting talking to my hallucinations.

Now I dominate a conversation and sometimes I go from talking to a person to at them off on some nonsensical diatribe.

 I did it the whole hour to my new therapist this week and was disgusted with myself and thought this is the same as talking to a hallucination. I told her that next week to ask more questions and give me insight because I didn't like how it felt.