i’ve been struggling with self deprecating thoughts for years now with intense stress when it comes to socializing or being in public. i’ve even had anxiety and panic attacks and often think about how life isn’t worth it anymore. i hoped that it would go away, and when i thought it would, it’d come back all over again, it affects my day to day life... i know i need help and i know that there’s something wrong with me. 

i’ve been trying to get help, but whenever i reach out to someone to work towards that, i just feel like i’m faking everything for some attention. it’s driving me insane and i don’t know what to do anymore.

i just want to know if anyone else ever felt this way, cause it’s honestly horrible and invalidating.