For this example, listening to music. I'm pretty much always listening to music, I have been all day. My FP is working from home which is really nice, and we've spent a lot of time together throughout the days ever since (we live together). He had trouble getting my attention all afternoon, cause I was doing my own thing and could barely give him the time of day. So the second I see him put his headphones in and start listening to music, I become internally frantic and angry.. I feel rejected and abandoned and ignored and I don't want to lash out, and I don't want to feel this badly. I feel so tempted to though. He rarely listens to music and I usually get his undivided attention.. I'm a hypocrite and I know that. I know I'm being irrational. I know this isn't a threat to our relationship, realistically. But I can't talk sense into myself (as usual- my thoughts have been becoming more deluded and it's like I'm in my own world and can't make sense of anything, and been more emotional than ever, and lashing out at my loved ones a lot (which is unlike me, I'm typically extremely calm and the voice of reason among most of my peers). What skill can I use to combat this?? I feel myself going off the deep end more and more each day.. I've been doing everything to encourage abandonment and practically beg for it, but he's so unwaveringly devoted to me, no matter what I do.. I've never seen a man in such foolish blind love for anyone before like he is to me. But I don't want to be this way, I don't want to feel and act like the way I am, I want to be the best partner I can. I just took some seroquel to try to calm down and distract myself.

PS. please don't attack me or try to tell me I'm crazy or something. I'm doing everything I can to self improve and become the best version of myself I can be. Just like with everybody else, compassion would go a long way. Thank you for any/all help. &lt;3