3 years ago, I was referred to a LCSW by my primary care physician. I deal with chronic depression and at the time, it was especially bad. I have been to therapy before and it has really helped but the therapist they set me up with is at an inconvenient location so I thought "maybe my depression isn't that bad, maybe I don't have to go, I'm rarely as high risk as some other people. It just randomly comes and goes... I'm a naturally bubbly person, maybe I'm alright." Along with therapy, the LCSW also prescribed buPROPion to combat depression and ADHD. I took half a bottle and started worrying that it would affect my reuptake inhibitors and that my body will come to depend on it and need more of it. I was worried the LCSW was overdiagnosing/overprescribing... ADHD was not even in my radar at the time.

However, in the last couple of years, I started seeing myself align with symptoms of both depression and ADHD more and more. Bouts of depression just hits me really hard and I just want to crawl in bed and do nothing for days on end. (I spent the end of December and the entirety of January in bed.) I can't focus on a task and can't accomplish extremely small goals I set out for myself. I'm scared I'm at a point where I might actually have to rely on medication. But I'm about to lose my insurance in under two years (under parents atm) and if I do get on medication, I will come to depend on it and won't be able to afford it in the future.

Can I please get some words of advice...? :(