Just a rant overall

Im in school and school is brutal. Stress is overwhelming to same the least. Im in a competitive medical program and lemme tell you- having anxiety during all of it sucks. Im burnt out. I constantly think everyone doesnt like me or my mind shuts down esp. when I need to think or act. Im always thinking people don’t like me and when my cohorts joke with me, I take the smallest things seriously and personal. And my classmates are amazing but my mind is so strong it turns them against me. Even though its okay for me to joke with them. But do I act up? No, I kinda just shut down and being a male I hate that about myself. Just shutting down. I get initimidated by people too. It sucks. I just wish I was normal. Plus, I cope with overeating. So my self-confidence low because of my body image. 

On a positive note, Im grateful to have amazing friends, amazing classmates and I’m in the program I worked so hard (with anxiety and depression) to get into and I’ll be working the job I’ve always wanted once I’m done. I meditate when I can and its amazing. I was working out but hurt my foot so Im pent up cuz I cant work out so...thanks for reading.