So I (pwBPD) was with this person (exFP) for 2 years and things ended up pretty badly (no shit) with them blocking me everywhere and not wanting to hear from me ever again. 5 days ago they texted me out of nowhere some dumb thing that was super meaningful to us while we were together and we’ve been talking since then. My heart still misses a beat whenever I see their name popping on my screen and I feel like I’m falling again… We were super toxic for each other and I know it’s not a good idea to go back to this but idk what to do, I feel like I have 0 control over the situation and I’m freaking out.