The man who I love more than anything broke up with me 4 days ago now. We were together for a total of 5-6 years. I'm hurting so much. I loved him so much. I still love him so much. I regret not trying enough for him. I got so comfortable with him I stopped trying to better myself and I regret that so much. I wish I could have given him everything he wanted. We dated for the first time for 3 years and I broke up with him because I hated my life and blamed him for it. I hurt him very badly and yet a year later he was willing to be with me again. I vowed to do it right the 2nd time but I failed. I failed him, I couldn't, no I wouldn't give him what he needed even though I could have. I was just so focused on myself I didn't realize I was hurting him again. He thinks he forced himself on me because I'm always so hesitant when it comes to sex but he didn't and no matter how much I say so he won't believe me. So now here I am, alone and so so depressed. My heart and soul are hurting more than I thought possible. If any of you are out there reading this and in a relationship, do everything you can to keep your partner happy. You'll really regret it if you don't, believe me. I wish so much to go back and focus on him more. He's a wonderful man, so funny, kind, patient, has such big dreams that I wanted to help him fulfill. He was to me the most attractive man on earth no matter what anyone else thought. I was in awe everything I looked his way and saw that he was mine. My wonderful man I miss you so much.