I am looking to make a huge step in my life. 

How do I know if the step is my BPD talking or if it is actually a good idea? 
This isn't something I can take back afterwards. 


[[I have decided to leave my partner of 6 years. We have 3 children together. I have never felt happy while with him,I have just stuck around because of the children. I want to leave. I want to move to a different state with my kids, have a full time job, finish school, take care of the children and all the bills. My partner supports whatever I think will make me happy. However, what if I'm wrong and this is just my BPD messing with me? I feel impulsive because I decided and have now applied to 50+ jobs and many apartments. If I leave I can't come back.]]