 I am a 31 year old male.

I've had a messy life and I don't have a job right now. 

I suffer from lethargy and often feel depressed. 

Sometimes I search for suicide on Google or YouTube and regret it. 

Also, if someone doesn't reply to me messages, I get caught up in the thought that they hate me and it's painful. 

How can I get out of depression? 

It's too late, but I want to try again. 

please help me 

I used a translator. Sorry if the sentence is weird.