Everything I do seems to be the wrong thing to have done. I’m pissing people off, I’m letting people down, I’m bringing people down. I isolated myself for a long time because I didn’t want to burden people, but now I’m actually making an effort to improve things, life isn’t getting better, it’s just crumbling around me faster. 

There’s so much going on and I can’t put what’s in my head into words. I just panic and babble. 

I don’t know what to do or who I even am anymore and I feel so alone.