I’ve (16F) struggled with anxiety for around 3 years. It started of as social anxiety, but it’s become more generalised as time has moved on. 

My parents are aware of my struggles, but they refuse to get me diagnosed or anything like that as ‘the waiting lists are too long for mental health services’. I’ve had other issues that I’m not willing to talk about here, but anxiety has been the main one. 

My mum has always tried to be supportive, but she’s trying to do it all herself, and sometimes in trying to help me, she makes things worse. Most of the time I don’t feel valid, if that makes sense. I never talk about my anxiety that much anymore because I hate the conversations we end up having most of the time; it’s as if she’s angry at me for having it and being pathetic about it.

So today, I had an anxious moment and a few hours later when we were eating dinner, she brought up something completely unrelated (but still to do with my anxiety) and it felt like she was berating me for it. 

I told her I was sorry, but it was in an obviously anxious way. She then tried to turn it on her, as if she was the one damaged by my anxiety. 

I don’t know what to do- most of the time I feel awful and quite ill with anxiety and other such problems, but I can never speak to anyone because I feel invalid, or I can’t say anything because I’m the one causing problems for everyone else because of it.

Thank you for getting this far &lt;3