Okay so I lost a whole year of memory right because i had a lot of trouble with sh and there’s this guy I really really hate and i know one of the reasons i hate him is because he lied to me about sh to make mine worse. But recently everywhere i go I mistake a lot of men for him and sometimes it takes me minutes to realise it’s not him and even if I only think it’s him for a second I still get really freaked out. I saw him in person a while back and had to leave because i was having a panic attack as soon as i saw him. I don’t know why I’m so so so freaked out by him and why i keep thinking I see him everywhere and i was just hoping someone might be able to help me figure some shit out.

I also suffer from dissasociation and my friends recently told me once when I dissasociated i told them a lot of stuff but i clearly remember only saying one thing to them and have no recollection of saying any of the other shit to them. Like zero recollection at all I remember getting on the bus while dissasociating and then I remember being on the beach we were headed too. This kinda thing has happened before. Very weird. Anyway sorry for the long rant if you recognise or can think of anything that could help I would rlly rlly appreciate it.