Hi there, new to this sub - thanks in advance!

Recently, I've realized, that I tend to distract myself in order to avoid how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking. 

I noticed this, because I simply cannot just "be" - I always give myself a project, go on my phone, play a game, watch tv, or go to bed early in order to sleep. The issue here is, I know I'm trying to avoid something, I can sense that i use this to cope, but I'm unsure of what it is that I'm trying to avoid, and am honestly a bit scared to find out. 

For background - I have been diagnosed with anxiety/depressive disorder and am on medication for it. I typically feel ok and well balanced, but lately it's almost as if a light has been turned on and that I am starting to notice that I'm leaning on this distraction and avoidance.

Does anyone happen to understand this or relate? If so - how can I go about figuring out what I'm trying to avoid? (apologies if this is hard to understand, it's all very confusing)