This guy i been dating... we went out today and spent all day together. While hanging out he did a few things that triggered my mood slightly. I felt like i was splitting him in my head here and there. While watching the movie i grabbed his arm and we held each other the whole time. Kissing slightly here and there. Then it was time for him to go home. He hugged me and we kissed goodbye. I'm heading home and I text him thanks for dinner i had a fun night. He then tells me "you did?" He tells me he felt like a BURDEN to me. Like how the fuck. He thinks i showed him zero affection and he feels like he wasn't even with me. I got so triggered when i got home i started crying. I told him i wanted to cuddle all night long with him and hes like "you didn't want to 😏" i literally went nuts and told him you don't want to see me anymore. Its fine" he ended up not even reading it and went to bed. Here i am. Alone again. In my bed. How can it go from holding each other tightly throughout the whole movie then he gets upset. I feel like hes done with me. He barely fought for me. All i can think about is suicide and how I'm gonna be all alone on this fucking miserable world. I feel like him not even calling me last night proved hes fucking over it. I just wanna cry. I just want him back. Fuck my fucking lonely shitty life. I literally put ALL MY HAPPINESS in this asshole and its ruined. 😔😷  nothing makes sense. 