Work is shit. 

It's two years since I OD last and I still feel suicidal every day. 

I'm exhausted. 

I hate my body.

I feel sick with anxiety.

I have ignored some of my best friends for about a year.

My dad has cancer and is financially fucked.

I just want a break, but I just want to break myself as well. I have an urge to self destruct and to destroy myself and everything around me.