I have several anxiety disorders (general and social) as well as depression and ADHD. I've always been bright at school (when I can keep my attention) and love school. Hell, it's ine of my goals to teach in the future. But in the past few years because of plenty different circumstances I've had crazy trouble with school. I got accepted into my dream university (great!), and moved to another state for school. I got my own appartment, got a job. All good. But then... my anxiety for everything...
I never really looked into getting help, I intended to, thought it was a good idea, but never got to it.
Finally, about a year and a half ago I finally started getting help. Got a specialty personal mental/academic coach at my university as well as (very recently) a therapist.
And really, since then, I've gotten so much better! I've felt optimistic and getting things done since then. Been great. But, because of side circumstances, even though I've been doing good, I decided to take a one term break.

Just ONE term. Not the hole year, just one term. Just wanted to give myself some time to cover some personal goals and other small troubles and still have time to breathe.

So, I decided to take a break this term.

All good, fine. But then, last month, I was in a small car accident. I was fine, and my Dad was able to travel up here and help me fix it up so I didn't have to pay. And my car's all good now. The issue is, I wasn't able to work while my car was down (I Doordash for an income right now), which set me back about a half month in expenses. And now, I make up for my lost time it looks like I am litteraly going to have to work full non-stop for the next month. No weekends, no breaks. 11 hour days for the next 23 days! Just so I don't lose my apartment.

Now, my family has helped me out with money in the past. But, right now, everyone's broke. Most of my family has been out of work lately because of there own medical issues. So asking them for help is a no. And I have 0 friends at all anymore so no help there.

So, my only option right now, it seems, is to work none stop for the next 3/4 weeks.

And really this wouldn't bother me if I still had time to get my personal stuff done that I took this break for. But, after I get caught up financially, it looks like I'll have only a month to get to the stuff I wanted to. And that's not enough time.

And so... I'm arguing with my self if I should take another term off, my winter term, and wait until spring to start back. But, if I do, I'm terrified of the constant pattern I always hear of. If you take a break from school you'll likely not return. And even though I love school, I really want to take an even longer break. But, I'm terrified if I follow in the pattern of many others of not returning.

And that terrifies me...

I don't know. Not really looking for advice, just wanted to spitt out my anxiety...

Thank you.