I’m so tired and exhausted. I don’t think I can do this anymore. 

Ive tried everything, drinking, drugs, traveling the world, traveling the country, buying new stuff, going out more, I’m now trying immigration in hopes of something. 

I feel numb and empty constantly. It feels like I’m sleepwalking. Like I’m not present in the room. All of these things are happening/have happened and I haven’t felt alive for any second of it. I feel like an empty casket. 

My only way out of this is either help or to kill myself. I can’t sleep, I have 0 apitite. 

The last time I felt the emotion of happiness I was 11 years old, after that point a light went out. I the only emotions I seem to be able to feel are negative ones. Is this what life feels like for others?