Today has been absolutely shit. By 8am I was already crying and hyperventilating from anxiety. On Tuesdays, my in law drops my child off to nursery and I was due a payment today of £150, which I was intending on giving them when I picked up my child. I usually give my payments in the afternoon as it gives me a chance to get to the bank. I got a phone call from my in law saying that they were turning away my child due to unpaid bills that were apparently £400! So my in law paid the £400 and called me to say how humiliating it was (which I totally understand). I was so confused by this because as far as I was aware, I was going to be paying £150 today and that was it, no big deal. Apparently they had emailed me to say that if I didnt pay in the morning they'd turn my child away but I never saw that email because it went straight to my spam folder (which I will now be checking daily as i would with normal emails). At this point I was an absolute mess and also angry that the nursery had spoken to my in law about what I owe, and it was a big shocker to me to know that I owed much more than I thought I did! It was so embarrassing and just humiliating getting that call from my in law. I've been feeling sick all day because if I had known the bill was so high I could have easily paid if off today, as I've already paid my in law back. I genuinely did not see that email and if I did I wouldn't be stupid enough to send my in law down to drop off my child and be hit with the heat of it. I don't even know what to say, I just feel angry and guilty and I want to SH to get rid of the feelings but I know I cant. I just dont know how to process all of this. It may not seem like a big deal to some but to me this had absolutely crushed me and I'm a total state, filled with anxiety, dread and guilt which is eating me alive.