I thought my BPD and abandonment/trust issues were bad before, but after being cheated on by previous partners it has made it so out of control and crazy like never before… 

I’ve been in a super healthy and loving relationship for almost two years, and I am still paranoid that they will eventually leave or cheat on me. They haven’t even done anything that would indicate this, and are nothing but loving and wonderful towards me.. but I STILL get anxious and paranoid over it. I feel so bad that I project my anxieties on to them, but even then they are so lovely to me. 

It really has made me realize that even when everything in my life is stable, happy, and just overall good, i’m still messed up. It makes me feel like i’m beyond repair. it’s so painful. I personally feel so inadequate as a human all the time.. 

If you have any advice on how to get better with not being so paranoid about this, please let me know. If you have a similar experience, it’s encouraged to share.