without friends I’m honestly nothing. not worth anyones time. and the only friend I thought really cared about me is starting to become uncomfortable with me. I can’t take it I know I’m horrible I can’t keep a relationship going for the life of me. it makes me sit on the edge of my bead, debating over over dosing its that bad. No friends. No fucking point. I was destined to fail this life, my mom failed and now its my turn. I should just kill myself before I become her. no one cares about me. I can’t even care for myself. all I can trust is strangers because its a one time vent and they don’t have to get tired of me. strangers are the only people I trust because i k ow the pain i expirence from them is only temporary. I can’t be left alone. alone is the dark place. alone is death. alone is not okay. im not okay. fuck meditation. fuck being in your own mind it juat makes things worse. people dont love me and people will never love me. im always the one to text first. cause y’know what? no one wants to talk to me. not unless we’re in a group them i KNOW their talking about me behind my back. no one likes me. I can’t lose you. I can’t be alone. I JUST FUCKING CAN’T!!!!! i wish i wasnt such a loser.