I have drifting thoughts of suicide, not in a serious way but mostly just daydreaming about how much easier life would be if I was dead. I often walk through cemeteries and I'm jealous of all the dead people who get to rest peacefully forever and without any struggle.

However I don't really feel depressed, in fact I'm quite optimistic about the future all things considering but the suicidal ideation is always at the back of my mind. Does anyone else feel like this? Or do you only ever think about suicide when you're depressed?