I just can't do this anymore. People hurt me. Then they act like the victim and antagonise me. I can't express i how shitty i feel rn. I have no one to share it with. And the people hurting me is my own family. Word pierce  straight to my heart. I can feel pain in my chest. I can't stop the tears. And they don't even acknowledge that they do it. Even if i have been pointing them out for years. They keep hurting me. I wish i could get out. Life would be better if i wasn’t here. But they keep closing every door and every window of opportunity. I've become more suicidal and depressed than i ever was. I just don't know how to get by day by day. It’s so hard. I wish i didn’t have these cancerous illnesses and thoughts.