I (M 25) just spent the last hour typing out the story of the last week and a half of my life trying to explain why I feel this way, but when I went to post, Reddit glitched and deleted everything I typed…. 

Very very long story short, my mother (51) is practically dying at a hospital right now…. My partner (23 M) broke up with me two days before my mom had her 38th heart attack, and had to have emergency Cardio Catheter surgery…… this was the first serious relationship I’ve been in, in 9 years…..

I’m crushed, and absolutely devastated, I’ve been teetering on the unspeakable edge for the past 5 days….. I’m trying to hold out for my next therapy appointment, but I know I’m going to get put on a hold, and I don’t want that…. My therapy appointment is this Wednesday at 11am