My (22f) boyfriend (22m) is my favorite person. We have been together for a long time and just bought a house together! I am excited to move in with him as I love him so much. 

He expresses to me constantly how much he loves me and wants to be with me forever, but lately I have been having horrible anxiety that he’s lying. I have absolutely no reason to think he doesn’t want to be with me, and he always provides me reassurance if I need. I just can’t get it out of my head. I’ve been having horrible nightmares all night that he’s cheating on me and I am always crying whenever he’s not with me. I haven’t told him the extent of how I’ve been feeling because I know this is my problem and not his because he hasn’t done anything wrong. I just hate feeling this way, I love him so much and I feel like my insecurities and fear are going to sabotage this relationship. 

Does anyone else have this problem in relationships? I just got diagnosed a couple months ago so I am still in the beginning of figuring this out. I don’t know why this has been so bad lately like all of sudden. Nothing bad has happened!! Completely the opposite, actually!

I think I’m just not used to things going this well for so long and now that we’re moving in together, I just naturally think something is going to happen to ruin it. I hate my self-destructive mindset and that I need to ruin it before something else does. 

This is mostly just a vent. I just hate feeling this way all the time.