I feel awful right now, I've been diagnosed with bpd for over a year now and recently started dating again. There's this girl that's liked me for two+ years now and I've always shut her down but recently I decided to give her a chance. I don't know what to do because I feel like she's really dependant on me already and it keeps triggering me to have these fucking freakout moments I keep to myself. I'm not used to letting myself have feelings anymore and it's really making things hard for me but I don't want to upset her but it's so hard. I keep feeling like I should split but FUCK, this is the only person that's ever liked me and I don't know what to do, I don't know why I can't just be normal ..