Sick of this

I can’t stop googling schizophrenia and paranoid schizophrenia. 

I’ve looked it up so much my thought evolve around them so much. I relate everything to schizophrenia with these thoughts I worry so much about “what if” I believe this. It’s starting to fucking annoy me so much now. Read so much about this condition my anxiety is through the bloody roof and I’m questioning everything. Has anyone else had this and beaten it? Scared of harm coming to me, scared of what if food is poisoned, what if, what if, what if all the bloody time, every single thought I feel I’m having is a what if thought. Anyone else?

Thanks