It’s currently the early hours of Thanksgiving day. The people who I’m living with, are shit-faced drunk and were having a nasty fight over some  stuff I don’t want to get into and other shit. I planned on going to bed sort of early because of the holiday, but now it looks like I’m going to wake up later due to all this bullshit keeping me up. This isn’t necessarily anything new, the fighting and drinking has been a problem for a long time. There was improvement, but it’s been going on and off. I’m just so tired of it. I’ve already got my own problems that I’m bottling up, always feeling like shit, not wanting to get up, feeling worthless and absolutely despising myself, so having to deal with this is just too much. All of my life has been so incredibly rough, and I’ve been dealing with this along with my own issues for so long. I’m tired of it. I just want to be at peace. Is that too much to ask? Yes, apparently it is. 
I don’t know what to do. I feel completely stuck with no ability to make things better. Everything looks so hopeless. Why am I here just to suffer?
(Tl;dr) Does it really ever “get better?” Does it? Cause I have a very hard time believing it. It all looks like shit to me.