I’m not sure why this happens to me. It’s like I’m always a little bit anxious and morose when everything is going good but when things aren’t going great, I few almost like, empowered even? 

It’s like, the people around me aren’t used to those bad feelings and they might even dip lower than me. 

I was like, the comedian in my family for a very long time whenever things were stressful. And things were almost always stressful. 

I’ve actually learned a lot and emotionally leveled out A LOT in the last year (since I first got the BPD diagnoses), so I’m experiences a more appropriate version of this while corona is going on for once, and I’ve also learned to really appreciate when things are going well (I literally used to be like Daria 24/7/365). I hated being compared to Daria but I guess I really can’t argue because that was fairly accurate. I still don’t have a ton of enthusiasm like her, but I’m a lot more pleasant and try to look on the bright side of things now. 

But yeah, does anyone else feel this way?