Tough shit to accept. I've maintaned a positive attitude for months, been eating healthy, lifting, stopped using like before. Got a romantic partner. Got a challenging job.

Didn't want to reach this point. Some things won't change. I don't even feel mad, and I got nothing to whine about. Can't tell if partner is either depressed or trying to leave me, we've never argued because there's nothing to argue about. I'm fucking up at new job, can't avoid all the symptoms and unhealthy coping mechanisms on the person in charge of training me, and the person is genuinely passive agressive to add it up.

NEET lifestyle and using 'till sudoku won't work anymore. Too pussy to do it. Feel angry at being stuck here.