 I've always been really nervous around people and i've never been able to talk to other people without them making the first move. I've really wanted to try talking to other people but whenever I try i get really back chest pain that only stops once i settle down. What makes this worse is that i feel like even if i did manage to initiate a conversation with people I'd make a fool of myself or they'd talk behind my back. I've been pretty effected by my childhood where my anxiety might be from, My mom always had to use me as her personal support and i was basically nothing but an item that she kept from my father, She left me with my grandparents because she couldn't support me And they constantly harassed and treated me worth than dirt. I'm now constantly looking over my shoulder and get terrible anxiety whenever someone approaches me from behind, I cant even have people touch my shoulders without getting bursts of sheer dread and panic.