I’m currently having a really difficult time with really intense anxiety, to the point where I can’t leave the house. This is really unusual for me and it’s been on going for at least 8 weeks now. I’ve reached out to my gp and my mental health team numerous times. I try to deal with these things as soon as possible to avoid hospital stays. 

I finally got a call from my mental health team today and I went into detail about everything and when I was done one woman just told me that this can’t be cured, I’m already on medication and I just need to start thinking positively. I’ve been in the system for like 13 years (usually pretty stable by BPD standards) and I have heard some shitty advice but this just made me burst into tears. Why bother telling me for years that I need to reach out when things get unmanageable just to tell me to think positively. It’s so frustrating. I’m not asking for the world I’d just like to leave my house without having a panic attack so bad I faint.