My thoughts are extremely intrusive and I can’t get rid of them.
I have seriously invasive thoughts that disturb me from day to day. I can try to ignore them by distracting myself with tv, schoolwork, working but they end up coming back. I have thoughts that people from my past want to try to ruin my life and career and are going to say terrible things about me to my employer and ruin my reputation. (Old friends, past relationships). I have thoughts that people are saying terrible things about me. I don’t know why.
I also have intrusive thoughts that I’ve done terrible things and made mistakes in my life and that I’m doomed because of it. Lately I have been experience OCD like symptoms. But I don’t know that they are prevalent enough to really be considered OCD or anxiety. For example: 

I had to drive all the way home when I was almost at my destination,  on my way to a birthday party because I thought I left my tub water running and thought I was going to flood the apartment, and I was late to the party because of it.

The other day I microwaved a cup and it starting smoking in the microwave so I took it out and it wasn’t hot but I threw it in the garbage and later at school got extremely  nervous that my house was going to catch on fire. 

I even have been checking my stove top three - four times after using it to make sure it’s off. 
 
I used to take antidepressants years back and now I’m thinking maybe I need something again. I’m just nervous to take medication.

Not asking for a diagnosis. Just need to get these feelings out to somebody because i don’t know where to turn or if I should just figure this out on my own.