Does anyone know anything I can do, I've seen 9 specialists and none could help me and I'm currently in a program to see if it's caused my a mental disorder but I don't think it is, I know I have a few disorders but I don't think they are causing me to want to die for every little thing I do right or wrong, cut my wrists open again for something so insignificant as dropping a fruit.
I don't understand why I want to die, why does it feel like the world wants me dead and I do to I really don't understand.
I've tried taking walks I went to the gym I started new hobbies I go for walk I try to eat healthy when I'm able to eat I try to sleep when my mind isn't tearing me apart and still nothing I do changes anything. I'm still as sad as when I started, nothing works. Does anyone have any ideas anything at all beacuase I can't live like this.
Constantly in pain.