I am a 21 year old female and I feel like I can’t maintain relationships with people. I have a boyfriend and he is pretty much the only person I am capable of hanging out with. Other than that I sometimes go to the gym and/or I eat away my life (I suffer from an ED.) I have friends but I pretty much never hang out with them. I will text them but only when I’m at work and the moment my boyfriend gets home it is as if my cell phone is gone. Our relationship isn’t the healthiest. It has been on and off for two years. When we aren’t dating often I became a raging alcoholic and I would start sleeping around with other men like 5 in a week. I also was extremely depressed and would get self destructive. The last time we broke up for two months I even went as far as to date someone else for a month. This person had a life outside of me, I hated it because then it was like I had to show this person up and show him I am not too clingy so I spent all my time with the many friends I had. I didn’t like this I went back to my current boyfriend. I just I don’t like hanging out with anyone but my boyfriend, I don’t even like texting other people as much as him. I just am worried about this behaviour if it would be considered unhealthy. I find I also don’t want to make any new friends anymore because of this. The moment they want to hang out I get extremely anxious and just want to ghost them. I don’t mind texting them but often I will accidentally ghost because I get bored quickly.  I don’t mean to do it, it is just like I can’t maintain friendships because all I want to do is hang out with my boyfriend, go to the gym and work a ton.