So 2 nights ago I had a intense breakdown from POCD. I was crying so hard I almost started shaking and felt like I was holding back blood curdling screams. Ever since then I haven’t felt like me. Every time I was up the day doesn’t feel real and feels like some alternate dream universe thing. I feel physically and mentally exhausted and I feel like I can’t react in the way I should. Today when I woke up intrusive images instantly hit my mind but I didn’t have as much anxiety that I normally have but I still hated the thoughts. Is this normal? And is it derealization or depersonalization?

If I could describe it it feels like I’m a imposter living inside my body almost pretending to be who I used to be. I feel like I just switched into a new person. Never before has OCD taken such a toll on me