Hi, 
Ive been debating if I should make a throwaway account but oh well, I shouldn’t be ashamed of my body’s natural fonctions. 
Anyways, I’ve been encountering a bit of an issue for the past, what, 2-3 weeks? Every time I have to walk somewhere or take public transports, I end up needing to pee really bad. It’s been a struggle, last week I went to visit a friend in another city, and every time I took the tramway I was this close 🤏🏼 to losing it. I’ve always had a small bladder, and I know that I already do need to pee often, but lately it’s been on my mind every time I have to go out. It’s stopping me from going to appointments (I don’t have a license so I just walk everywhere or take public transports) and stopping me from having fun with my friends. I constantly fear that I’m going to pee myself in public, even if I don’t have the "need" yet it’s still always on my mind. I’ve read about it a bit online and the most logical reason as to why it might be happening is anxiety. 
Now, I do struggle with BPD, depression and severe anxiety, all diagnosed obviously. I’m not on any meds because I never follow the routine and I often snap and take a bunch of them at once. I haven’t started therapy yet, just being seen by a psychiatrist. 

How am I supposed to stop getting this constant urge to pee ? How if I can’t really control my anxiety? Has anyone ever went though this before?

I have so many questions and not a lot of people to ask around me, im hoping someone in here knows what I’m talking about and can tell me what to do to make it stop, because the last few weeks have been awful because of this. 

Can’t believe this is my first Reddit post ever but oh well! 
Thanks in advance for the help