I’m currently in my final year of university and I’m struggling to reach the end. I have failed 2 modules this semester that could really set back my entire degree and I don’t have the energy to do anything about it. My anxiety makes me genuinely scared of going to lectures and seminars, it’s so strange but it is the only way I can express it. It feels like fear and so when the time comes for me to leave, I simply cannot. This combined with feelings of hopelessness and numbness does not help my academics in any way. I feel like such a loser because everyone around me is doing so great on this course and I’m the only one doing resits, I’m ashamed but also feel so beat. 

To find the energy and motivation to do absolutely anything has become the most difficult thing for me. I have no will power, no ambition, nothing and as a result my grades are plummeting but so does my mental health. It is just a never ending torture. I used to be so smart and good at school but I also believe that’s what led to my burnout, by the time I reached uni. Now I just spend my days in bed, hoping I fall asleep. I spend my time on social media to escape and forget my life.

I post this in hopes of hearing other peoples stories/ experience with this. To feel less alone in my struggle and to know what I could do to change. Thanks for reading :).

PS I have not been formally diagnosed as where I am, seeking therapy is expensive :/