I’m 24F, I’ve had anxiety from when I was 8 but officially diagnosed when I was 19 and went on to Paxil (40mg a day).

My anxiety occurs when I’m not in the comfort of my home, going outside and not knowing where the toilets are, when there will be another opportunity to use the bathroom. Will I make it, will I make a fool of my sick because I feel so sick. Most of the time this anxiety is occurring in car rides before/during/end. 

May 2020- my final year of social work I decided to come off my medication because I felt like I didn’t need them, I had felt anxiety free for so long I couldn’t remember what it felt like. 

November 2020 came and I had a near miss at work, driving and nearly didn’t make it to the toilet. Few days later I get vertigo (occurred year before), constant nausea/upset stomach/dizziness. My anxiety came in full force... 6 weeks later and I haven’t been able to get on top of it. I can’t work/apply for grad roles/do activities outside of home, it’s all a huge struggle and tiring. 

Yes I feel better than when it ‘re-started’ but I don’t feel like myself. I want to get back on medication but a new type, I want to feel like myself again. But I feel like a failure. How long can you take them for? 


P.s.
I see a psychologist 
Brought healing crystals 
Use breathing and grounding techniques 
Called my brain a name (edna) and tell them the thoughts are not useful etc 
Walking/exercise/meditation/massage
Listen to Podcasts on health