I am haunted by my traumas and trapped in my reality . here are some  of things that happened to me and made me suicidal . A bus accident as a kid , domestic violence , multiple incident of sexual child abuse , reguler mental and physical child abuse . multiple incidents of sexual harrasment , sexual assault , huge painful cavities on my front teeth and sexual haarasment  traumas that makes me scared to leave the house,- food , services , safety , woman rights, basic human needs and essenitals , all either aren't available or exist in a terrible quality where I live . there is a beautiful world outside where I live  away from the envy , hate , bullying , rudeness , A place where I would feel like a human . but for years I wanted to leave but there is no way out . I am haunted by my traumas and stuck on the reality of where I live leaves me deoressed , anxius and suicidal and there might be only one way out .