My mom and dad know I'm gay, my grandparents aren't. I live in a very religious Christian household. My grampa preaches and is the "head" at our church. 
I hear constantly about how being gay is so wrong, it makes me feel terrible. 

On top of that my gran has been putting me on diets since I was four and I'm still so fat, the hatred I feel for my body is intense. 

I struggle real bad with anxiety and ADHD, and self harm unbeknownst to anyone but my mom. 

Today I cut my hair, and my dad was the only one who liked it. Everyone else hates it so much and it hurts cause my mom said I could do it. I thought she'd support me but she didn't. She isn't talking to me and it hurts so bad. 

I can't believe my family can make me hate myself so much.