So, object permanence is that you know something still exists even when it's taken out in front of you. It's a natural development for babies, basically.

Welp, for BPD, lack of emotional permanence is a thing, i.e. you forget or you can't seem to accept that the emotional attachment (from your partner or friends, etc) still exists when you no longer see or hear from them, even when it's only been a few minutes. Hence, the paranoia messing with our brains.

I noticed that I've been becoming very sensitive lately, and my emotional permanence is really just... broken??? My SO is very busy but I always take it as a sign that he does not want to talk to me or he does not love me. Which, I know, is wrong and immature. Still, it's the paranoia that drives the controls. And I want to be the one in control instead of my emotions, paranoia, etc. but Idk how :') i've been practicing DBT, mindfulness, and journaling, and busying myself with my school work, but it's always lingering there. I just hate it so much :')