Some parts of this post may be triggering \*WARNING\*

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I'm 24, been in self-imposed isolation (agoraphobic) for 3 years+ and now getting help for my Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. I have to now start looking ahead to the future and it looks bleak; partly because of my mental state but also just in terms of cold, hard facts. 

I was removed from school without finishing exams because of my first catastrophic mental breakdown. I've never had a girlfriend and have only had sex once with a prostitute. My teeth are rotting and disgusting because I can't go to the dentist; I can't leave my front door without having a panic attack 9/10 times. I'm 20 stone, I don't even eat poorly or an unhealthy amount, it's just being sedentary for 3 years.

Even if I can break down all my mental health barriers, I still have so far to go. I won't go into every aspect of my mental health because I will be here all day. But I can't even see myself being able to cope day-to-day with normal interactions, let alone ever being able to find and hold down a job or relationship. I just don't see light at the end of the tunnel.