So today my friends wanted to go into the city near where I live, we look the train in. They had convinced me to call out fo work but I felt bad so I just told my boss I could work at like 7 (I work retail part time). So we get into the city at like 1 and spend a few hours but then my friends say that we should just take the 6:30 train back however it takes an hour to get back home from the city so I was gonna be like half an hour late for work which I already lied my way out of if not more. My parents where pissed and made me leave my friend and walk like an hour to get to the station from where we were. My friends wanted me to stay with them but it would’ve eaten me alive if I had to call my work and lie again so I just left. 
I suck at directions and I was already dehydrated, even thought Google maps should be easy to follow it was getting all sorts of screwed up and at one point I just went into a full blown gasping for air panic attack in the middle of a busy city, lucky a nice women’s saw me and tried to help me and point me in the right direction. I worked up the courage to talk to a few more people however they were all telling me different direction. I was so lost and trying to to just lay down and cry in public, the city is scary and hella busy and me and my friends had already seen some creepy ass dude who tried to get us into a building. I ended up finding this super nice mother with her young kids to were also going to the station and I followed them like a lost puppy.
When I got there tho, she had to leave and I NEVER ride the train so I literally was so confused. At one point I asked a bunch of train conductor who probably thought I was on drugs as I was hella panicked and nearly passed out in front of them. But ya I got on the right train after they helped me but omg I knew being in crowds triggered my panic attacks but being lost is a whole different story. But honest this is probably progress for me. I may not be a child, I’m a sophomore in high school, but considering I had a deadline to get to the train and shit and I am more or less useless when it comes to direction I’d say I’m actually proud of myself for once for actually asking for help.

But yea I don’t really expect people to read all this shit I wrote but I found posting stuff like this really helps my kinda just get my thoughts out.