I woke up so angry today.. I can’t even wake up happy anymore. All I dream about is dying horrifically and it scares me to the point I can’t sleep. I can’t even communicate with the one person who’s stuck by me forever and I know I’m losing her because I’m dragging her down when she has so much potential and I just want her to be happy.. I’ve broken up with her but she stays around and asks if we’re still together because I just said it out of anger and I just want her to leave so she can be happy… I Only my third day in and already I quit.. I left another job. Another bridge burned. Soon I’ll be alone with nothing but my regrets and failed attempts to try and better myself.. I can’t win.. I’ll never win. I just want to feel happy again. 

-Trevor.