I started to have a rly great new years eve. I've been seeing someone new for a few weeks now and he came out with me and the family and it was lovely, but then he got a bit drunk and hypermanic and I felt overwhelmed and couldn't deal with it.
Then he heavily implied he wanted to tell me he loved me and I told him not to bc it was too early and I couldn't reciprocate yet and I wanted him to be sober first time he said it, but he said it anyway and it kind of made me happy but also rly wound me up.

Long story short, I just kind of exploded at him a little bc i felt rly sad about how tonight ended and it's also put the fear of God into me bc i rly want this potential new relationship to work and I'm scared that I'm having to have a go at him just a few weeks in. I'm also terrified of how he seems to hide from problems. I was pointing out stuff that upset me tonight and he'd just go "I'm sorry, it's on me.", which, then forced me to comfort him and I wasn't in the mind frame to do it and now I'm just left half splitting and internally screaming about whether he's mature enough ahhhhhhh

Happy new year I guess???