*PLEASE don’t tell me he’s a horrible or insensitive person or to break up or anything like that. It will sens me into an episode I somehow managed not to have earlier. I just need to rant.*

“What will you do if I have a kid with someone else?”

This is the 2nd time he has asked this during 2 year relationship, both times when we’re on break. It had me in a panic crying at my job the first time he asked (almost exactly a year ago) and he knows this. He asked again just now.

I told him if he already had a kid, or if we were married, got divorced, and he had a kid with someone else, I would probably accept it more. But if he got someone pregnant while we’re together or while on break, I’ll feel betrayed and most-likely cut him out of my life entirely.

He wasn’t happy that I would prioritize my emotions over a new life. I don’t see why I should if I have no relation to the baby except for a betraying partner. I honestly don’t see why this question should be even raised in the first place if he’s not seeing anyone else.

He says it’s just something he thinks about because it happens often. His family is full of divorce, cheating, and half-related siblings. He thinks it’s a normal adult conversation to have and I’m making it into a big deal. I get that, but I think it’s preventable, and I really don’t want to be asked about it unless he’s planning on it happening. 

After this talk he gave me a “well now you’re gonna start ‘acting weird’ (he’s talking about my episodes) so you can leave now.” I was pretty calm (thank you DBT) but took that opportunity and left.

Now I’m tempted to just cut him off entirely before he makes a baby with someone else lol.