Nobody knows how I truly feel. Not a single person. I wish I could tell someday how bad I’ve been doing. I’m too embarrassed and ashamed to talk about it. I have family and friends who I’m sure would understand, I just can’t bring myself to tell them. I feel as if I’ll let everybody down if i tell them. Its nobody’s fault, just my own. I just want to tell a stranger on the street that I am mentally and physically deteriorating. I’m so fucking alone.