I went to the doctor with u/imgoingalittlenuts2 last week. (If you've missed our story we've been together for 16 years,  married 9 years in March) . I've been seeing this doctor for the better part of 3 and a half years. He, I would say, knows me well. So he laid some truth on me. I'm still... I don't know what I feel. 

He said that, either 1. I never had bpd. 2. If I had it, I no longer qualify for it as I don't have the overwhelming urges to act on whatever, damn the consequences. Or.  3. That I  might still have it but with the medicine, therapy,  reading books, talking to others, and taking it all so seriously and busting my butt, I would be the first person he's ever seen beat bpd. 

Guys. I don't know honestly what the answer is.  I know that I did have bpd. Life was horrible with it. I know I could be triggered by the drop of a hat. I know that my marriage suffered. I know I hurt a lot of people. I know I hurt myself. I know I've never felt so useless and not worth anything... but I also now know I can try anything I set my mind to. And most times I'll be successful. 

I know it's a tough road. I've been there,  but for that one person struggling I hope I can bring you hope. Have the confidence that you can do anything. Because really you can. Put one foot in front of the other a good day can turn into a week,  then a month. And you can shock yourself.