I’m not even sure what I’m upset about. Also know is that I’m upset about some thing and my thoughts are racing. I can’t even pin them down.

I could go on about how deeply unsatisfied I am with my body and the way I look. I could go on about fearing rejection and then getting it in everything I do. Every hobby I have, I face some form of criticism. I’ve earned resentment from my peers for trying my best in class. I don’t even flaunt it, yet I feel like people hate me for the results I achieve. Then there’s the fact that they don’t know how painful it is to achieve “Straight As.” Its murder on the brain, and you just keep kicking yourself for not being perfect. I don’t even know what I don’t know. It’s gotten so bad that I struggle to get the proper sleep at night.

How do I silence a brain that’s operating like a car stuck on full throttle? Where’s the neutral gear?