i've been seeing this guy for two weeks now, basically spending every evening together and accidentally falling asleep together. he's said many wonderful things to me such as "you make me happy" "your flaws make me fall for you" and "i like you because you're crazy" (obviously he knows about my diagnosis and we joke about it lmfao) out of no where. when he doesn't say these things to me i tend to question if he still feels that way. even if he spends hours touching/cuddling/kissing me, i tend to need that validation through words or i think he's just doing those things because he has to in order to keep me happy. 

i know how completely irrational my thought span is and he knows how stupid it can be (i'm very open with him about my thoughts), but i still can't shake the feeling that he's pretending. abandonment issues are so real and all i want to do is feel secure without constant validation. i want to be able to just be in his presence and not be concerned about his feelings for me.