i remember my pre-depression abilities or think of what I'm capable of when I'm not in a depressive episode and feel so weak. people say not to compare yourself to others but I'm not. I compare my depressed self to my not depressed self and it sucks. i know i would be graduated by now without it. i would have a job and my own place. i would still find pleasure in things. i had so much potential and I've had to grieve my former self and that sucks.