Im sitting on my piano stool underneeth a noose. I just want the pain to go away. But I dont want to bring the people i love any closer to the same state of mind im in by killing myself. But I dont see the pain going away any other way, please, it hurts so much. Just one selfish action, just one and then im done. Please

I'll probably just sit here and debate with myself wether to do it or untill i get so tired that I just end up going to bed, so that I can wake up to yet another miserable day. But I really dont ever wanna go to bed again