man fuck my life honestly. everytime i start to believe i'm getting happier the source of the happiness is taken away from me. maybe god just fucking hates me. in the past i have quite literally got on my knees and begged god to take my life away because I COULDN'T FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE. and just when i thought i found someone that would help me they end up making me feel even more shit. i don't even think i see myself living till i'm 18 to be quite honest. i don't know where to go from here either, maybe i should just fucking kill myself because i mean fucking nothing to anyone but a cheap laugh