Currently feeling a huge amount of health anxiety because a few weeks ago my balcony fell through and littered the outside floor with a HUGE mass of bird nest/poo/feathers/dirt. 

Today someone is coming out to inspect the damage and look to repair it, and so I decide I should clean it up a little. So I start sweeping the mix of wet and dried dirt/poo. 

I wore gloves and a surgical mask because I was slightly worried about bird poo being toxic to humans, but oh boy I didn’t realise just how bad it can apparently be until I did the bad thing and googled it afterwards.

So I’m pretty much convinced that I’m gonna contract 1 or 3 diseases now because I’ve tried to do this myself, and made a huge mistake in doing so. Apparently this is something best left to professionals with proper gear. Surgical masks don’t suffice apparently. 

I can’t wait to spend the next 7-14 days just waiting to see if I get sick and how severe it might be. Anxiety and mental illness is exhausting and I’m over it (but otherwise okay). 

Just venting... thanks for reading if you got this far.