I’ve never used this platform before, but it seems like the community really does support each other so maybe it’ll help. I try to be a good person. I have a good sense of right from wrong, even if I take part in the wrongdoing I feel the weight of it on my soul. I’ve always been a negative person, expecting the worst to happen even if there’s no real rational reason to think like so. Positivity doesn’t really come easy, I prefer to just turn my brain off. I’m trying to get off drugs, I pretty much smoked every second of my existence last year, I can’t remember most of it, maybe that’s a good thing. I think I’m having some withdrawal symptoms (half way through week two cold turkey) I just feel like my life is going to end although I don’t think I’m suicidal, I couldn’t do that to my friends or family. Some times I wish it would all just stop. I haven’t been able to sleep much lately, and the things I used to enjoy I don’t really anymore. I am practically incapable of making decisions and it’s destroyed a lot of relationships. I feel like a major fuck up bc I know it’s my fault. I really try to do what’s best for other people cause I know they matter more than me. Idk if anyone feels this way or maybe I’m just a little bitch feelin sorry for myself.