I feel so alone. More so that I'm working my dream job. Moved to my dream country. I'm doing what I love, but there is no joy in it, other than in the work. Everyone that I work with, everyone that I've met, I just push them away. Today I thought about it, and I've come to realize that if I keep pushing people away, I can jump in front of a train, and only the people at work would notice because I wouldn't be there. To be honest, it sounds like an amazing idea. Don't get me wrong. I really do love my job. I love me. I just hate being alone so much that I'd rather die than just continue to be alone. What's worse is I can't tell anyone. 

Just let me die alone, seeing as how I'm already there.