I can only leave the house to smoke and get a takeaway coffee these days. Some switch flipped 3 weeks ago that put me straight in bed, picking at my skin and feeling like my world as I knew it was ending. The last 3 years of university had been the best of my life, I had conquered all my fears and thought that the anxiety had left me for good. I’ve started on Mirtazapine which thankfully has been going super well, I’m a bit groggy and irritable but it’s helped massively with the digestive and appetite issues I was experiencing. The weird thing is I can’t pinpoint exactly what’s making me anxious, the stress is over and I have potentially a year of doing nothing ahead of me, so I don’t know why I’m feeling like this. I can’t fathom that one day I’ll wake up and go get drunk with my friends again and not even think about it. I’m scared the meds won’t work because I have a month until my best friend is coming to stay with me and my birthday party, holidays etc. If I miss that it’ll kill me. I can’t even exercise because it makes me feel sick to my stomach. Have you guys ever felt like this? How did you dig yourselves out of this hole?