I feel like such a garbage excuse for a person. Over the years, my anxiety has consecutively gotten worse and has led to the point where it is very difficult to leave the house to hang out or anything because I'm scared of having a panic attack and its literally just so draining. Because of this I've had to cancel almost everytime my old best friend would ask to do something. I didn't know what was wrong with me then and i wasn't in therapy, but we basically never talk anymore because of it. I was also in a friend group with that friend and barely hung out because I tend to avoid situations. I know everyone probably gets the vibe that I just don't want to hang out or anything, but that isn't the case its just incredibly hard for me and it makes me feel so weak and stupid because I literally always cancel. My old best friend and their other friend just texted me wondering if I could hang out at all this weekend and I don't know what to say. I'm having such a bad week with my anxiety right now. Besides normal anxiety I also have contamination OCD which is very hard to deal with right now because of the pandemic. It has led me to he extremely agoraphobic and basically a shut in at this point. I'm doing online school right now and don't have a job so I'm by myself most of the time. Anyways, I run the constant fear of getting myself or someone else I love sick and one of my compulsions is literally not going in anywhere. I don't like going in stores and rarely will, so its hard for me to do anything. I feel like such a bad person and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to say?? My anxiety is literally so extreme and I just started going to therapy please help if you can