I don't deserve it that you treat me like crap, I have BPD and I am working on it so hard, but you don't see it, you blame me for everything and you hurt me on purpose so you feel powerful. You know you can treat me like shit because I am to scared to leave you so I always beg for you to come back even if you don't deserve it. You don't love me, you hurt me on purpose. You lie about everything and get mad when I caught you. You planned a holiday behind my back and the only thing I asked was to call me or send me some text and even that is too much to asked. And when I say that you get mad at me and ignore me on purpose. You destroy me, all the love I have to give to you and you give nothing back. You break my heart and crush my dreams and I am still to scared to leave you. If you had truly loved me you wouldn't hurt me on purpose. You never touch me, you never say you love me, you just like to hurt me on purpose. I am in this prison for 6 years and I cannot leave. I hate my life, I hate my feelings, I hate my sadness I just don't want to go on anymore. I have come so far and it doesn't matter, you are the only one that can still break me and make me feel this way. I just don't want to feel anymore. I deserve to be loved, I deserve better.