I have an long term Illness (I’ve had it for 2 1/2 years) symptoms awful Nausea, Diarrhea, tiredness, stomach pain, food allergies… Ive been on meds the whole time this time I did it.I did everything my doctor told me to do to get better.. you know what freaking happens??? I get worst! I can hardly eat, i have to keep leaving work early, I’m so tired I can’t do half the things I love.. I’m over it so badly, I keep trying so hard but it’s like I never get out of a hole. I don’t have enough money for more testing… my mum doesn’t want to pay for it (I’m 15) I have a $500 dollar med bill coming up! How the heck am I going to pay for that with $300 a week! I’m lost… if suicide wasn’t a sin in my religion I’d be gone ages ago. I don’t find any point in my life at the moment. And I hate it every moment i miss out on so much because of this dumb fucking illness. I know people can have illnesses a lot worst like cancer which could kill you… my can’t kill you but it makes me want to die so badly. I celebrate feel normal for 2 hours yesterday I was able to eat because I didn’t feel like I ate because I wanted to not because I have to. I had to stop in the middle of my walk the other day I curl up and cried because my stomach hurt so bad!!! Okay Rant over.