My Best friend of 13 years just died two days ago. I have finals week next week and i need to get a B on a final i know jack shit about to not fail this dumb ass fucking class that im paying 30k a year to teach myself shit that im only learning to get a letter grade that means im good enough to get a stupid fucking job that im going to hate. All i do is pretend im ok. Im just on my 3000 bad day in a row. im just a little tired you know? Wtf am i even supposed to do? My whole life has been stolen by school and im a fucking block head who has nothing to show for it. All of this torture just to go suck dick for a bs 9-5 so i can barely afford to house myself and live. work work work school school school money money money. This shit isnt even real. I wish people saw me for who i am not my fictitious financial value.