I (30s M) have been depressed for quite some time now. I've been on Wellbutrin for a little less than a year now, and as it has drastically reduced suicidal thoughts, I'm still really down, and it's like whatever I do to get through one hurdle, 3 more pop up. My 4 year relationship has essentially just been me being used, at least emotionally cheated on (confirmed by her) and mentally abused, but for some reason I still love her (30s F) and can't bring myself to end things. My mother acts helpless and I'm all she has left. I am dealing with the attorney, insurance companies, and condo association on her behalf for severe water damage caused by a neighbor's leak. My job is an unorganized disaster. With the unheard of rapid inflation of everything I'm barely making it paycheck to paycheck. My rent is about to increase $200/mo. My family that I'd do anything for don't talk to me anymore and I don't know why the distance grew so much. I have 2 or 3 real friends and I barely see them, and only hear from 1 somewhat regularly. I've been dealing with health issues since October and the doctors have been less than helpful. I'm just lost and trying not to spiral back to the darkness I worked so hard to get out of. I could really use some support, kind words, and reassurance that I can get through this.


TLDR: my life is a mess and I'm trying to hold it together, but I'm really struggling. I could really use some support and encouragement to keep going and not give up.