I suffer from severe depression and anxiety, i don't have friends i could talk to. I feel like my life has no meaning and I'm worthless to people around me. My family isn't really wealthy so we don't have much money, and we have just enough to live a decent life, so i don't have super nice clothes and expensive stuff, and a lot of people in my classroom are mean, unfriendly, and a lots of times they just try to avoid me as much as possible like I'm not even there. My looks don't help that. I'm fat
[100kg and 180cm] and i don't like my looks at all. You could say than do something about it. Yes I'm trying.. my mind is in a really bad place, I have a lot of suicide thoughts and i selfharm, and the only thing that always saves me from trying to take my own life is my brother and my mom being home. I'm scared i don't want to die but at the same time I want to, because i want to finally find some peace and get some relief.. A lot of things happened recently, I've lost my grandpa, I've lost my best friend, she was there for me, but she left me because i did few things wrongs. She's another reason I'm thinking about a suicide.