I’ve always struggled with my self confidence and self worth but here recently it’s been extremely difficult. I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is a fat ugly piece of shit who is useless. I think I am the stupidest person alive and will amount to nothing. I truly believe some days that I am worth nothing and I fear that my boyfriend would leave me for someone more beautiful and skinny and confident. I am disgusting. I disgust myself. I want to lose 50lbs overnight. I want to starve myself so maybe I’ll lose weight. I’ve tried working out but I never stick with it Bc I’m fucking stupid. I’m 200lbs and I just feel awful. I want to disappear.