I’ve just had enough of everything I don’t know what to do anymore or who to talk to. I tried to end my life twice through overdose and that didn’t work. I have episodes where I just don’t want to be here anymore I get agitated and it doesn’t matter what anyone says or does it doesn’t make it any better. I fear that I will have an episode of contemplating suicide and I’ll just jump off a bridge it’s like my mind takes over and I don’t think of anyone else. My last resort is sectioning and I know what it’s like (I live in UK), but I feel like that would be the safest environment for me where I can focus on getting better without having that constant worry of ending my life. 

Can anyone provide any advice at all I would appreciate it. I just feel like my life is so pointless growing up with a disability, being bullied, always feeling different to everyone else, childhood trauma and now having a constant battle everyday with my mental health. I try to get on with life but I always feel like it would be better if I wasn’t here.