So for the past couple years I’ve been cycling like crazy- an up and down episode probably every other month. My depressive episodes have become progressively worse to where I can’t get myself out of bed until 5pm or my bladder will explode. I’ve missed work, missed therapy, and I’ve completely isolated myself, aside from my mom who texts me each day to make sure I’m still alive.

Aside from obvious shifts in mood, I also feel paranoid about going outdoors, that any interaction I have will go wrong, that doing anything but laying still will cause something bad to happen. I can’t seem to shake these thoughts I’m having. Are these signs of bipolar? Is there more going on?

Note that I do take meds (2 stabilizers, 1 antipsychotic) and I probably need them looked at again. I see my psych next week but I just couldn’t wait to hear from others who may be stuck with the same thoughts and feelings.