I finally worked up the courage to post something here, and after I saw all of the nice and encouraging people on this sub I was willing to give it a try. 

I have been struggling with school ever since virtual/hybrid started, I found it difficult to do work at home because home was my safe space after school where I would read, watch youtube, etc, and just forget about school and try to calm down. But when I had to do work at home I felt that the school was invading my safe space, and I freaked out. I threw my bag with all of my school supplies and my school computer in my closet, and muted emails from the school, I missed every Google meet for the two week lockdown, every assignment, every email. Many of my family and friends just called me lazy, and that just made me feel like something was wrong with me. I made up all of the work on the weekend and when I went back to full time after Christmas I was super scared and anxious and i freaked out again. I just got back after my first day back in full time after being yelled at by a teacher for turning in a late  assignment and he gave me homework lab (detention) after ranting about how terrible our sports teams and academics are (we are a small school) and he talked about my late assignment in front of my whole class. (I am currently trying not to cry from embarrassment lying on my bed typing this.) Please somebody give me some advice?