Hey everyone so basically I've been struggling with my mental health for like a year, and i aint here looking for help but more of a insight as to what im going through, i just have these thoughts that im gonna die at 19 but on a specific date for someone reason, that date is 24th Jan 2026, I would've not long turned 19 by then, I just wanna die young and save my self going through all of life's horrors like losing horrors, but i feel so guilty about it.