I do this with the only other two gay men in the office because I'm intimidated by their looks. I'm the only POC in the office, and I was the first gay person to be hired at this location— and I feel like they came in and out-shadow me in every way. it makes me not want to speak or interact with them, when I did once they initially arrived. I know it's *super* petty, but it's a mix of feeling envious and feeling inferior. 