I also know I ducked up my friendship w my best friend and it’s my fault and I accepted it and my bf made a fucked up decision and I’ve been :|| the last time we hung out it was to talk about it then he left to work long distance I felt eh and not in a relationship and I thought of other people but I still felt for him and faithful but I want us to be honest w each other irl and me to to prove to myself I can truly be alone and when we meet we can try again