I live life day by day and it feels like I’m in a constant battle with happiness  . Everyone around me would probably  describe me as a happy character I’m always trying to joke around and lighten the mood but I get into moods that get set off randomly and usually when I’m alone I get into really deep thought about friends who have passed away (the latest to a possible suicide ) (overdose)  or the money troubles I’ve been having,  or my vehicle troubles I’m a 19 year old male  and don’t want to feel like this the rest of my Life I am emotionally tired and more than physically tired I feel as if I’m almost being dragged along for the ride I just feel like a weirdo and I don’t know why   I can’t ever be happy and anywhere I go doesn’t feel like home … any feedback helps or any tips to try and create a more positive mindset