I thought that I was better but I was wrong. I'm hurt, stressed and can't cope with life.

I chain-smoke, chain-masturbate and I can't break free from myself. I've been living in this psychological terror movie and I feel helpless, hopeless. I hate myself for being this way.

I don't even have words to describe how I feel and I just feel like hanging myself. It's the only way out of this mess.