[[For context]](https://www.reddit.com/user/ILoveMyFriendAlex/comments/h0ljjq/i_did_itagain/?utm_medium=android_app&amp;utm_source=share)





After reading the link, you can probably tell what happen. You see a while ago I called put my fp for lying to me about being busy when I asked him to hang out. 

[[explanation]](https://www.reddit.com/user/ILoveMyFriendAlex/comments/gkwsem/sad_times/?utm_medium=android_app&amp;utm_source=share)

My therapist basically told me to let go of this, because he most likely did this in order to not hurt my feeling (which ironically made things worse). What REALLY hurt was that I tild him to at least apologize for it, but you know what he said? "NO"!Just that one word riled me up and made me so upset. I thought he would at least back it up with an explanation like "It's because I didn't want to hurt you, and that's why I think I shouldn't have to apologize for this". While still upsetting, is a lot better than just refusing to say sorry. :( (Ngl if he genuinely said sorry, I prob would have let it go)



Anyway back to the present. I asked my fp to hang out (A few months after the occurence where now he's more comfortable with hanging out). He said no,but you know what happened? My little bpd brain said "HE'S LYING LIKE HE DID WAY BACK THEN! LOSE REASON AND PISS HIM OFF!" And that's exactly what I did. Yes I did actually believe he was busy,but I really wanted to show me that it really hurt me that he lied to me... In hindsight I should say sorry, but I still feel as if it's okay to be mad, but I know it isn't? I don't know, it was...just a lot to take in and I just wanted to share it with you guys