I'm 17 and it's been a long time coming. I always knew there was something off, or unstable about me, but I was too scared to admit it. I got diagnosed with depression and anxiety/panic attacks about 2 years ago. Then last year I got diagnosed with bipolar 2. Looking back, I never really did relate to mania. Honestly, I'm surprised any professional took "talking a lot and being hyper and happy" as mania, compared to my suicidal depression. Despite that, my bipolar diagnoses didn't sit well with me. It left alot of worrying things unexplained, and my meds didn't help me. Then I heard about BPD, from the internet of course. Still surprised no doctor brought it up. Anyways, I looked into. I watched videos by professionals, read articles from reliable sources, and everything clicked. Thos wasnt bipolar. I was 95% certain I had BPD. It explained all those concerning things bipolar didn't even address. I went to my psychiatrist and told him what I had been thinking over. He listened and we talked. He was hesitant, but he agreed. I had BPD. By the end of that appointment, I had learned alot about myself and my road ahead. I'm excited, while nervous.