This world doesn't feel real.
Im always the underdog.
Everyone is noticed besides me.
Everyone talks to everyone besides me.
It seems like I'm the odd one out.
Nothing feels right but I know I've got to fight.
Im starting a new job tomorrow but my bpd is getting worse.
Im in a semi dark place, it's like I have two distinct personalities: Dark me and functional me.
I scare myself with fantasies these days, they've never been so bad.
Im without a mental health team but I'm able to cope. I don't need a therapist, I don't need medication... Or is that the illness talking.
Am I going to have my psychotic traits come out again?
I don't know anything anymore.
Im getting lower and lower.
I feel like I'm constantly being watched. They're making judgements on me.
Im making it up. I'm making everything up. I'm a background character in everyone else's lives. I'm an error.