I know grass is greener ideals aren't good or empathetic, but I cant help but wish I could at least hold down a job or a hobby. I'd still feel worthless, but I could trick other people into seeing value in me. In my current state whenever I say I'm a piece of shit, people just agree, because I am a piece of shit by the overarching framework's definition. I have nothing to offer, I'm literally worthless, I just wish I wasn't that