Had to put my 11 year old puppy down, had her since she was a few months old. I’ve never felt any pain like this, maybe I’m crazy but I’ve never even felt a 1/10th of this pain when even my own family members passed.
Taking this hard, and letting all of my business take a plunge. I’m so close to eating some Valium and chasin it with some vodka… I really wanna get high but I don’t know if I should numb this pain or eat it. My pup was there for me through everything. Had her in the vet for over a week but took a turn for the worse today… $8K+ bill, but would have spent a million for her. Had other pups but never a bond like this. Nothing feels real and I don’t know if I’m going to continue in this world. Just a mindless 2 am rant but maybe someone will find solace in this. Sentences are all over the place, I don’t know what to do.