I dunno why but I really have not cried like one would be expected to cry at the loss of a parent. My dad(step) died on April 28th 2018 due to getting behind the wheel while drunk. Worst of all he killed a 16 year old boy in the accident. I feel horrible for the family. Since his death the remaining members of my family have moved to Idaho. Im the only one in California. I still have not visited the site of the accident. I dont think I want to. I feel very indifferent and confused as to why i am not a blubbering mess. Is this something unusual for a b.p.d 33 year old female? 