I want to rip my fucking face off. I hate who I am I hate everything about myself. I'm so fuckinv stupid and I'm so depressed no one gives a shit. I'm a selfish asshole I deserve to die.  I hit myself in the face because I need to feel pain. I would cut myself everywhere if people couldn't see it. I want to run away and hide. My brain feels like it's nothing. Why did I have to be born. I love thinking about having a gun to my head. Holding it there so death is in reach. No one loves me and no one ever will. Everyone around me wishes I was dead just like I do. There's so much pain inside me. Helphelphelp