*disclaimer, I am not going to hurt myself or anyone else, just seeking others advice or experience*

For as long as I can remember, Ive struggle with anxiety and depression. While I won’t get into details, I experienced some Trumatic things as a child and teenager, and as a 25-year-old woman it affects me greatly. I’m currently being medicated, and seeking out a different therapist because the first one that I had wasn’t a good fit for me. I have a good life, I know this, and anyone who would look at me would probably call me successful and very fortunate. While I am those things, I still deal with the thoughts of just being ‘done’. I could have a good day, but if something were to go wrong or set me off and I just panic, it seems that my first instinct is to go towards the thoughts of it doesn’t matter that I’m here, it doesn’t matter if I were to be gone. It just goes from 0 to 100 so quick, how do I make these thoughts stop? What are some things that have helped you, what are some words of advice you’ve gained from? Thanks all!