I cannot continue to live how I've been. Drinking or crying myself to sleep every night, when I can sleep. Nonstop suicidal ideation, including gestures. Deleting all of my social media then recovering it. I've moved back in with my parents, which I'm ashamed of. I'm not getting the help that I need. I struggle with codependency and love addiction as well. I was also recently diagnosed autistic. And finally, I'm bulimic... I have a lot going for me. I really need help, imminently. But cost is prohibitive. Can someone help me find a therapeutic program to help me with all of this, that won't cost thousands of dollars a day? I'm so overwhelmed it's difficult for me to do this research. I have Oxford UnitedHealthcare insurance. Thank you.