im 20. i dont feel grounded to reality. im convinced everyone else is telepathic other than me and can think at higher levels, hence me talking to people, working, and living my life is a massive joke for everyone else to continue observing. this seems unlikely as i feel i would've realized this earlier in life (if this is true however please disregard this post and continue pulling your massive joke). 

I also have been being constantly ravaged my waves of self loathing thoughts and an extreme sense of overall inadequacy as a human. these thoughts have gotten so painful to deal with that i am planning on taking myself out with a ruger 10/22 on tuesday. 

because everyone else very well may be telepathic, this means everyone else KNOWS im going to off myself too and arent going to do anything to stop me. this has my self loathing thoughts snowballing towards a quick suicide. i dont even know if telepathy is real but im somewhat convinced everyones just an actor for this joke on me. please just tell me the joke, or just let me atleast know that there wont be a hell after i off myself