I've had this empty feeling for over 5 years now. I never understood what this feeling was because I thought it came and went randomly. But lately, I've felt empty most of if not all the time. It's a suffocating feeling in my chest. I read a lot of manga and light novels and watch a lot of anime and I always feel envious of the characters who have good platonic/romantic relationships which usually kinda triggers that suffocating feeling for a few minutes which is replaced by an even more painful feeling of emptiness. The suffocating feeling is bearable but the emptiness is what really hurts. Sometimes I feel so empty I just start crying. I don't understand what this feeling of emptiness is but it really scares me. It's happened more and more often over the years and each time I contemplate ending everything because I can't understand it. I've tried to OD once but failed. I'm scared to die but I'm also scared to live with this constant feeling of pain and suffocation in my chest. I don't know what to do and I don't have anyone to talk to. My parents are the kinds of people who won't understand and would blame it on my phone and laptop usage. I've tried talking to my friends but they just rub it off as a joke. I'm at my wit's end. Has anyone else ever experienced this? What did you do? How did you cope? Does anyone know what it is? Is there a way to get rid of it?