I haven’t dated anybody since 2018 when i had a full blown breakdown and sabotaged my life which resulted in me being diagnosed and medicated. 

I think she likes me too, we talk on the phone for hours and share a lot of the same struggles when it comes to mental health, family issues, etc.  Boy what a feeling it is to meet someone you actually like. I feel alive for the first time in years. 

If she ends up not wanting me that’s fine too bc i just want her to be happy but oh my fucking god I’ve spent all day thinking about her and i can’t remember the last time I’ve been this fixated on someone. I’m 25 years old but I feel like some type of teenage crush vibe in my body rn and its so surreal.