Male, 18, UK

Hey. 

I have been suffering with anxiety since late last year - probably due to extreme stress that I was faced with. Now my anxiety plagues me pretty much most days, here’s how it goes. I will think of something (usually my future/education/or mental stability), I will catastrophize and overthink so much to the point where the overthinking becomes reality and I believe it will happen. This “delusion”, which is the only way I can describe it, will cause me to feel like my life isn’t worth living. For example, I was overthinking earlier, that my life is going to be as depressing as it is for the rest of my life, I will have no prospects and I should just die because everything is grey. A few hours later after reflection, I can see that this isn’t the case. But, I’m scared that these delusional periods will get longer and maybe it’s something worse than anxiety? My doctor prescribed me with propranolol beta blockers but they are useless. Has anyone else experienced a similar thing? I’m going to make an appointment and hopefully start some SSRIs. Thank you to anyone who read this far ❤️.