Just venting to try and process some thoughts here. Saturday I went on my first date in like a year and I feel like we really hit it off but later that night I think she wanted to send me nudes but I just talked about other shit and now I feel like she lost interest because she’s hardly talked to me today even though I know she’s just tired and busy. We have a second date set for Tuesday at my house so I’m pretty sure that means there’s mutual interest and I’m really worried I’m gonna fuck it up because I’m constantly hoping I get a message, I always fuck my relationships up by being too needy or too aloof when I feel like they get bored and I really don’t want it to happen again, this girl is actually different from all the others and I don’t want the same shit to happen. This is why I stopped talking to people, I’ve never had a relationship last for more than a couple months and they don’t even end bad, they just dry up. I seriously hate myself.