A few days ago, I volunteered to host a new years party for some old friends since I'm in town for break. At the time, I wanted to see them and was low key afraid if they had something on their own they wouldn't invite me. 
Flash forward to now and I'm splitting so hard I'm tempted to cancel the whole thing the day of even though everyone has already bought items for. I'm regretting it to the point I want to engage in my targets and lay in bed all day. All of my thoughts are focused on not wanting to host this, not wanting to see anyone, and regretting ever opening my mouth. Wish me luck.