tw// sexual assault 

So I haven’t been on reddit for very long but I realise it’s helping me a lot to just talk to people like me. Things have just ended with me and someone I was almost in a relationship with. He’s been so wonderful to me but things changed over the weekend. He wasn’t explaining anything until he just had an outburst and explained how since last Wednesday when I opened up to him on the phone, while crying, about my sexual assault from last year he basically told me he doesn’t want to be my therapist and that he doesn’t think mental heath is ever an excuse, that he doesn’t know why I’ve been picking stuff apart etc or worrying like I do and that every time we’re calling I bring up little digs apparently. This has kind of flipped me on my head and I’ve been a mess since I got those messages. I feel like I’ve let the most important, hopeful thing in my life disappear. I feel so beyond terrible and I hate myself for being this way. I wish I could just switch the worrying off, I hate it. I truly ruin everything