i’m scared my fp is gonna leave me. yesterday in the comments of one of his post he had a conversation with a girl who is a lot prettier than me and was obviously flirting (i think). that really set me off and i cried for hours thinking he lost feelings.

i felt confident about our relationship for awhile because i knew he liked me back and he always flirted with me but now i’m not sure again. is he getting bored of me or he’s sick of me? i cry too much and i told him abt me being upset yesterday and i feel like i annoyed him because i’m always upset and he has his own issues so idk why i keep expressing myself i just need to suck it up people don’t need to know when i’m upset. i’m so fucked up and he deserves so much better than me i feel so bad i’m like this. 

i’m so attached to him and i don’t know what i’d do if he left me. i keep on bottling this all up and i can feel it all piling up again i don’t know what to do. i don’t wanna repeat what i did last time and end up in the hospital for the third month in a row. 

i feel like i’m gonna end up hurting myself again because i don’t know what else to do without bothering anyone else. please help i don’t know how to cope.