My dog passed, I can't get over this shit, this year can't get worse, I've lost my granny and my granda within a month of each other earlier in the year and now my baby. I don't want to be here, I don't want to die but I don't want to be alive. I can't stop crying and my need to relapse back into alcohol is real but I'm trying to combat it with cannabis but now I'm running out with no money. Ugh fml