After being in the hospital and experiencing psychosis I really started to avoid a lot of things in my life.

I was dealing with a lot of paranoid thoughts but also I actively was trying to stay away from stuff that triggered those thoughts and negative emotions which seemed to always spiral into something bigger.

Some things that I couldn't do were mundane things like grocery shopping and working, I would get paranoid thoughts about random people and coworkers and I just couldn't stay calm.

So I started avoiding going out and thankfully was able to transition to working from home.

I also made connections between my delusions and ideas in media, so I stopped playing attention to the news, and basically limited my media consumption to what I would allow a kid to read about and watch, and avoided anything with ideas about certain topics like telepathy or hell or anything violent.

I think it helped a lot with my mental health. But in some ways I'm still afraid of those ideas, that exposing myself is like looking into the void and the void looking back. I don't want to give my mind fuel to torment me with. So no scary movies, or even movies with intense scenes of action or violence. I try not to even think about some stuff like conspiracies and negative thoughts about myself or others. I don't drive at all if I can avoid it, I cancel plans to go out just because I'm too nervous about driving.

How do you know when it's safe to go back to normal, trying new things, reintroducing old things, and how do you get over the fear of going out?

On the bright side I have not had psychosis in two years now and I've changed a lot for the better and people have told me that I seem like I'm doing well and most importantly I feel happy again.