I feel like I’ll never get out of this hole I’m in. I’m going through a divorce and lost my friends because of it. I had other friends but my mental illness showed it’s ass and now I don’t have them either. I’m 29 and back home with my mom and stepdad because I can’t be trusted not to end my life. 

I’m so miserable. I keep trying to give myself hope and I can’t find any. Medication isn’t working. Therapy isn’t working. I’ve been through this so many times and no matter how much progress I make, I fall right back to where I am. 

I don’t know if I need advice, a friend, someone to tell me it’ll all be okay…I don’t know how to help myself at all.