I am struggling through suspected bipolar 2. (Not diagnosed entirely but my last psychiatrist was treating for mood disorder and my therapist specifically thought bipolar). Recently been in a very low low and I’m actually currently writing this from a crisis center I was involuntarily taken too. 

I just need to know… does it get better? Does anything I do matter? I feel so defined by the hopelessness that’s around me. I feel so alone and crazy. I feel like everyone in my life will abandon me because of my Illness and that there is no relief from this eternal pain of rising this rollercoaster. 

I am so new to this, and scared. I just got a good job and I know I’m going to fuck it up. It feels like everything is just a matter of time.