Hi. I have been writing for the las couple of weeks here and in r/adultsurvivors. 
I just need to vent somewhere. I feel like no one can really understand me.

I feel alone, I have never had a girlfriend, and my friends, far from helping me, are starting to laugh about it. 

They just say “go out and find one” like it is that simple. And maybe it is for them. I just don’t know how to deal with ir. My CSA has affected me in so many ways… and my friend just don’t take that seriously. I constantly think that it is because I am a man, they just don’t get how my abuse and my depression affects me. 

I am tired of being alone, and tired of everyone else judging me. I feel so inferior I cant live like this.

Sorry.