Idk how to start this. Everything has been so difficult for me. I dont want to make this too long so I'm just gonna get straight to the point. Whenever I plead my friends or literally anyone for help with my anxiety, no one listens. I constantly tell my friends about my anxiety and they just brush it off as if it isn't affecting my life. They never check up on me or do anything. Idk weather they just ignore me or they just don't want to help me. I feel so unwanted and feel like a burden..I'm currently talking with a psychologist about this but I'm still not really getting the help I need. My family is one major issue with my anxiety. They don't help me that much whatsoever but I still love them. My mom also has anxiety so she knows how it feels and tries to somewhat help me with my symptoms which I greatly appreciate but sometimes, she's a pain to deal with. She verbally abuses me and I really hate that because it brings my confidence down and makes me want to die. I get suicidal and intrusive thoughts almost everyday and I just can't seem to find a way to get them out my head. I have such a hard time sleeping at night as well. I take melatonin which helps A LOT because it calms me down and helps me sleep so much better. Today I ran out of melatonin and I'm super anxious because I'm afraid that I won't be able to sleep without it. This might sound weird but I literally love melatonin. I take it every night which I know I shouldn't do but it's what helps me sleep and helps my anxiety as well. Since I ran out, idk what to do. Idk if I'll be able to sleep tonight..does anyone know what helps them fall asleep and/or help anxiety??? Anyways, thanks to those who took the time to read this and I hope the rest of you who are having a tough time will eventually get through it and feel better &lt;3