It’s at a Starbucks. I am 22 now, but I worked there for about 4 years previously. I recently got fired from my desk job, so I am going back to Starbucks full time. It will be at a different store being as I have moved much closer to DC. 

I’m afraid that I won’t be good enough. That the people there won’t like me, or I will over share. I’m afraid I’ll be late. I’m afraid to even enter the building. I feel like a loser because I have to go back there, but then again so many people my age work that same job. But here I am, bullying myself in my head to the point of literal fear of something I’m actually good at. Why couldn’t I be good at something more respectable? Then it’s fucked that my head even convinces me that it’s NOT completely fine or respectable. My head is telling me that I am awkward, lazy, stupid....my head is telling me that I am not good enough but my heart is screaming that I am.... I hope that doesn’t sound lame. 

I could really use some kind words/advice. Love you all. 