I’m in the middle of my first mid life crisis. I feel stuck, I feel angsty, I want to be doing so many things but lack the motivation to move. Everything feels so overwhelming and so difficult, I try to keep telling myself it’s ok and that I can do it I just need to try, but somehow it feels like.. whenever I try, things get worse or the realization of how stuck I am takes over. It’s never ending and I’m so tired of being tired. 

Every week is the same. Thing. Over and over again. This can’t be it. This can’t be all there is until the day I die. Why is it so hard to make money, why is everything so expensive, why is it so expensive to live. Why are we fighting. Why aren’t we trying to save the planet. My worries quite literally consume me and on top of it, I feel so guilty when I complain or feel like I can’t do anything, because of how the world is right now and there are people fighting to survive. 

Why can’t I just do things. Why am I this way. Why don’t I ever have any motivation or drive. I’m so tired.