I haven’t realised until now just how scarred I am of social situations.
 The thought of asking anything out of anyone makes me stressed. I can’t have a normal conversation with anyone that isn’t my parent or close friend. Heck I can’t speak with my cousin or other family even. Though around close family and friends I’m social and love making jokes.I always have to stand behind or with someone or I start to stress a little about anything really. I thought it was normal until now when my mom asked why I never speak around others. She complains that just sit quietly while everyone else are talking and having fun . Ive just got a problem with speaking with people. 

 It’s hurting my school work as I can’t ask about anything. If I forget a pencil I straight up don’t work for the whole period or ask a friend if they’ve got a spare pencil to share. Sometimes I’m able to ask about it but even though I might sound confident about my question as I’m asking it afterwards my whole day is taken up by me constantly asking myself if my question or request was stupid or not. 

I don’t know what to do and my mom is pissed because she thinks I don’t like my family but I do! I love my cousins and my other family I just can’t speak with them.

Is there something I can do?
Sorry for the terrible grammar btw.