Hey 👋,
So first things first, ive not been diagnosed with bp. Recently tho ive been thinking i might be Bp. Im not a professional and i cannot know for sure but ive done alot of research lately and i relate to alot of symptoms described on various forms and articles. Im meeting a professional in a couple weeks so i guess ill find out soon.
Im posting this to share my experience, thoughts and to ask some questions to clarify things for myself.
With that being said:
So all my life ive been pretty unstable. Throughout my childhood till now (im 20 rn) my mood had always been high and low and sometimes normal. Personally i thought my depression started at like 14-15, but my mom informed me in a conversation about my symptoms that i was 6 when i first told my psychologist i didnt want to live anymore. I was kinda shocked as i never knew I’d been struggling so long. It does explain why i remember so little of my childhood tho. So my psychologist diagnosed me with ADD. Thinking back there are so many things that could have been (hypo)mania that were labeled as ADD symptoms. I mean i do have ADD with no doubt, but i know alot of people with ad(h)d and compared to them im alot more extreme in all the stupid things ive done. Its also not very typical for someone with add to have these moodswitches. Ive had periods where i felt really good and i would do the most impulsive things. And ive had periods where i couldnt get myself out of bed. I would work  15 hours a week and spend the rest in bed for months. Recently ive noticed my symptoms getting worse. I do stupid things that mess up my relationship with the people i love.
But its almost impossible not to bc of how fucked i feel. 
Anyways, thank you for reading. 
I do have some questions. If you could help me answer those i would be very gratefull. :)
-How young can someone be diagnosed with bp?
-Does everybody with bp experience anger issues while being (hypo)manic?
-is it possible to have a (hypo)manic episode followed by a depression episode followed by another (hypo)manic episode Back to back without being stable in between?
-can sleep deprivation trigger a manic episode?
-are there other triggers to trigger a manic or depression episode? If so, what triggers your episodes?
Thats all
I appreciate ya”ll &lt;3333