And I wonder what you'd think 
I wonder what you'd think if you saw this 
If you saw her once like this. 
I wonder what you'd think of the girl with her guts on the floor. Of the girl who tried breathing through tar. 
The girl who cried because she didn't get attention, and the girl who screamed because someone saw her. 

I wonder what you'd think if you stole her eyes and saw her through them. If you saw the tattered pieces of a person dressed expertly in caffeine and oversized hoodies. If you saw how she slams her own hand against her throat. If you felt what it was to drown on land. 

I wonder. 
I wonder if you could love that. 
I wonder if anyone can. 

I wonder if you know who you're talking to. 
I worry what will happen when you find out. 
I worry not that you'll leave, but that you'll leave having wasted your time. 
Not that she was worth it in the first place,
But still 
It's nice to think that your time was well spent.