I am a doctor who failed at getting into residency. For once in my life I was confident something was going to work out for me only for it to mess me up this bad. It didn’t work out and it got the ball rolling for a lot of things personal and professional. I am forced to take certain decisions in my professional life because of my personal situation and that kills me a little bit every single day because of how ambitious I have been all my life. And while all of this is happening my anxiety and worrying has peaked. I feel so dead and hollow from inside because of all the crap that goes on in my brain. It’s just been hell. I was excited for my prospects in the future and now I have nothing to look forward to. My brain just keeps going in circles and I am convinced I am going to be a colossal professional failure. 
To add to this my parents are overly involved in my life and their extreme sympathy for me is suffocating. They obsess over my career and don’t give me a break any waking minute and project their anxiety on me. I can’t not live with them. I didn’t even realise how toxic they were being till someone pointed it out. 
I don’t feel like getting out of bed Because I’m so scared to face my life. 
To wrap it up. It’s just been the worst 2 months of my life and it keeps getting worse every single day. The anxiety, the situation I am just drained.