Im shaking typing this out, shaking and crying like shit. I have been crying every night for the past few days. I've been feeling dissociated since March but it got serious when I got here alone. I booked all of my hotels and flight tickets to different places but I really want to go back home, I don't even care about the money.. I am in serious need of help right now, I haven't been this bad for years now. I am so afraid something might happen to me, like some dissociative disorder or anything.. even if not now, in the future. I honestly am out of control and in desperate need of being admitted to a hospital. No friends of mine care enough to check up on me, even though I told them that I've been having a mental breakdown for a few days continuously. I haven't eaten anything for the past two days, just 10 bites of rice, soy milk, small chocolate and half energy bar. And honestly I don't even feel hungry. I have no idea what to do, I have two options - Call my dad and explain to him everything, I think he would understand and want me to come back home., Or just go ahead with life and continue my travel until 22nd until I go back home and then look for help there.