I’m not quite sure how to explain it tbh.
 Sometimes I’m
Not sure if I’d even still be here if I didn’t have responsibilities and people who needed me to look after them.

That can’t be normal
Right?

I hear people talk about the plans they have for their futures and which university’s they’re going to go to and what age they want to get married ad. Start a family ect.


I find it hard to think more than a few weeks into the future.

I just feel like I’ve let everyone around me down, I’m so many ways, my family, my friends, even those random classmates I barley talk to, no matter who it is I feel like I’ve let them all down.
And I feel judged for it.

People always say “just because you’re story started out bad doesn’t mean it has to end that way”
But what if it does? What if I end up becoming one of those statistics? Just a number, nothing more.

Some days I feel like forgetting all my responsibilities and ending it all, but then guilt over takes me and I realise that I’m not even free enough to end my own life,I think of my little siblings who’ll be alonee in this cruel place if I leave.


I know I probably sound dramatic but I just needed to rant and get this off my chest, sorry.


Does anyone else feel this way? Or HAS. Anyone felt this way in the past? And if so, how did you get out of it?
To whoever is still  reading, Thanks for listening.