Here goes.


I feel like there are two people inside me. One that is the me that the people in my daily life sees, the swedish 15 year old [my name]. Insecure, mentally unstable and depressed. Reallyfucking depressed.


But whenever I go online or go someplace where there are no limitations, like in video games, I become someone completely else, someone I truly feel on the inside. This person I call Cat, a bubbly and adorable girl that is very energetic cute. Also a weeb lmao.


I feel like my most genuine self when I'm this "Persona" perhaps, and I HATE the real me. I just really want to escape this world, I have thought about killing myself, lucid dreaming whatever, and VR is too expensive. Playing video games on my computer just isn't enough. I just want to become someone entirely different, I wanna be Cat.