I thought that I was allright, I was before covid at least. Tonight i’m going out partying for the first time in 1,5 years. My heart is beating hard and fast. My shoulders are tight af. 
It is a mixed anxiety, one part is purely social. The other part is the alcohol, how it makes me feel tomorow and the thought that I cant take any meds while intoxicated, I dont dare to. Alcohol used to be something I looked forward to, but now it’s just scary.