These past few months have been nothing but exhausting, she is my literal soulmate, love her with all my heart but recently she hasn't been able to do nothing around the house because she says she doesn't feel good and it has been over a week, but its in a way that she just gets home and sleeps or being on her phone, i understand sometimes that due to her BDP she has a ton of mood swings and maker her feel like that, i try to make her feel better by cooking for her, giving her the attention she needs, or just taking care of her all around, but it doesn't really make a difference. In the mornings she is all fine, but once we get back home she is back to feeling down, i feel bad thinking that she does this just because she is just being lazy, but i do understand its because of her BPD, recently i just have felt mad and not in a good state of mind, she has not noticed yet on how i have been feeling, and i don't want her to notice, because i have a feeling it will just make things worse. Im not a person to lose their cool immediately, im very understanding, but i think i am almost at my max and i feel like i might explode any time soon, and i specifically dont want that to happen but at the same time it feels like she is not putting no effort in to our relationship. I guess i will just have to patient.