Okay so first of all. Hi i am from india and i am 17 years old and preparing for an entrance exam. 

I have a problem that i literally can't talk to anyone especially girls. I have literally no self confidence. People generally don't approach me or talk to me because they think i am wierd and rude. I am not too good looking so there's that. 

When i come home i just can't study. I always and i mean ALWAYS feel tired and fatigued. I overthink way too much and because of this my head hurts most of the time. I don't have genuinely good friends who care for me. Generally they make fun of me in front of others and just don't know what to do.

I just wanna always lay down on my bed and don't do anything. I am also doing NOFAP as people say that it helps during your depression. I genuinely don't have a clear goal in my life and all my friends are succeeding in their own fields while i feel like i am following someone else's goal.

I don't know what should i do and i don't have the courage to speak to anyone and tell my feelings to them. Idk what made me like this and this is turning into my personality and my social interaction is so low that it affects me mentally. I can't even ask a doubt from the teacher while a class is going on.

I can't afford therapy because my parents wouldn't allow and they would judge me if i say to them that i am depressed. In INDIA people take depression so lightly. They just think that the person is sad but that's not the case.

Any advice would be very highly appreciated.
Thanks