i think i have bpd, i’ve been told i have it by multiple friends and family members and even a psychiatrist at one point but i didn’t listen. now i’m almost positive i do. i ruined my relationship with my boyfriend, i have these horrible bursts of anger and i took it too far this time and my worst nightmare came true—he left me. my two closest friends left me too. i’m very isolated where i live, i moved here to be with my now ex boyfriend and i have nobody and my only support system is gone. i ruined the best thing i had going for me. i really don’t know what to do, or how to find any kind of community or support. i also want to repair our relationship even though i know i hurt him and don’t deserve him, i just want him back. i just want things to be the way they were before. does anyone have any advice? i’ve started seeing a therapist, i bought a dbt workbook, but i still feel at a loss because i heard bpd is one of the hardest illnesses to live with. i feel like i will keep sabotaging my relationships, anytime i think things are getting better i spiral again.