I have a serious commitment issue that I believe is really messing with my productivity and mental health. 

I'm afraid to start something new because I'm afraid it wont be a good use of my time. For example, I really want to start reading again, but I always second guess myself and convince myself that I should be spending my time doing something else. I want to teach myself how to code, but I always question the best way to start and end up giving up on the whole ting. Even with relationships, I'm so nervous to commit to a relationship because I'm afraid it won't work out and all that time will be wasted. 

It just feels like I'm in a constant loop and can't seem to break out of it. This leads to me questioning my own character and who I really am inside, which is a hard question to answer