So, I'm 32. I've graduated from a university. I've taken extra courses. I've had jobs while studying. I've started a big theater group and produced it for two years. I'm capable, willing and a very good worker. 

But apparently I'm unemployable and can't educate myself more. 

I've been unemployed for 7 months. Had a temp job for 6 months last year, not possible to continue there, though they loved me. Before that I was unemployed for 2 years, took a course for 6 months while looking for a job. I've sent well written letters to hundreds of places. My CV is superb. And no one wants me.

I've tried to look into educating myself more. All the roads are closed. Either I don't have the money and can't get it or it's just not possible to study those fields that would benefit me.

I feel horrible. I have nothing. No future. I can't support my son properly (luckily his dad does). I can't support myself. I'm stuck and I have nowhere to go, and really, I've looked at all the options. 

I'm starting to lose it. Without a job my mental health repidly declines, and is already really low. I don't know what to do. Therapy doesn't help. Going out and excersizing doesn't get me a job. Trying doesn't help. I've done all I can, with no results. 

My whole life has been a mistake after another. And now I can't make any more decisions, because all the doors are closed. So this will be the rest of my life? Stuck home, because nobody wants me. I was dumbed 2 months ago, and I really can't do this on my own. I already hate most of my life. My new appartment. Trying to go out with friends, trying to feel not alone all the time. Staying with my son all the time, doing nothing that would make me feel like a human being. I've lost it all. I have no life anymore.