i have been searching everything trying to find a cause for all of my symptoms that affect me daily, which are getting worse and worse. the only thing i want in the world is to finally feel released, even to the point where i nearly committed suicide. 
here are my symptoms, tell me what you think:
memory loss (rapidly getting worse)
delusions
agitated (even at the slightest things)
self harm (on and off for years)
hallucinating 
weird emotion (too long to explain)
isolation, making myself feel alone 
i don’t like things i used to
anxiety 
“highs” where i suddenly feel a rush of joy, even during a depressive episode 
constantly getting confused even at simple things (also getting worse)
i feel slowed down doing anything
i have an overwhelming desire to obsess over things (projects, hobbies, even people)
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sorry that was long. but for a long time i thought it may be bpd, and so did some doctors i have been to. but when i heard about schizophrenia i decided to look more into it as the person describing it sounded exactly like me, it’s like i was the one talking. my symptoms are all there, it describes me perfectly. i’m a little shocked but also confused on how to get help and if i even should.