I (21F) love my mum (53F) very much but I notice whenever I'm around her all the growth and development I've made with my mental illness seems to become non existent. I get so uncontrollably angry and I feel frustrated at myself, I don't want to be mean to my mum but it seems to always happen if we spend too much time together.

It's like every little things she does frustrates me and I feel awful which makes my actions worse. Is there something I can do to fix this? I want to be a good daughter for her and I know it's breaking her heart. She used to be in denial about my mental illness and tell me I'm a horrible, selfish, narcissistic bitch. I worry that she's right and I don't want that to be true, but the way I treat her sometimes makes it look like i am. I'm not that way with anybody else, so is there some underlying psychology within this or am I just mean? What can I do to control these emotions?