I feel like harming myself tonight. I won't do it but that feeling of wanting to just take out all my frustrations on myself is so strong.
I'm such a mess. I'm a mid 20's absolute fuck up.
Everything I touch just turns to shit.
I'm unemployed, still live with my parents, and just feel like an absolute failure.
I'm back to uni for a second degree that doesn't look promising. My first was absolutely useless.
What is so wrong with me?
Why can't I figure life out?
Why am I such a fuck up who has to listen to advice handed to me by family that has cost me so much?
Why did I have to be born?
Why can't I give the rest of my life to my pets, parents or those who desperately want to live?
I don't want to make it to tomorrow.
There's too much on my mind. I just want to sleep yet even that I've been robbed of.