So yea, this both happened on one evening.

I know I shouldn't have a crush when I have a boyfriend I love. But even if I love him, it happened that I got a damn hard crush on a guy from my university. Since we both are in the board from our students association, I see him pretty regularly.

Yesterday evening my Boyfriend just broke up, with one message. So my friend wrote my crush he shall care about me, what he did. I wrote with him and smiled again. Then he mentioned that since a very short time, he has a girlfriend. Aaaand I'm down again. 

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But like the title, I'm pretty proud on myself right now. I had a big knife in my bedroom, but I didn't used it. I'm "clean" since 2 years now. Since the time my last BF (actually the same BF as now) broke up with me. I even forgot about the knife laying in my bedroom.