i’m (24F lesbian) in a rocky relationship, for a little over 10 months. she’s (28F lesbian) reassured me so many times she wouldnt leave me and made so many promises and we had plans to move in together soon and so many things… she broke up with me a few days before our anniversary in june, july and now august. we got back together everytime- in july, the time before the most recent, she really fucked up and really wanted to be back in my life and be together and convinced me to trust her again. i was actually ok with that breakup but i couldnt turn her down. she made more promises than ever this time and i let my guard down, just for her to shatter my heart again a week or so ago. we agreed to work on things and take it slow but she thinks she can’t give me everything i need rn… i can’t let her go, so pls don’t tell me to just move on. i have no friends- one best friend who is very tough love and not so comforting, and one friend who is just like me (bpd, bipolar, gay woman) but lives all the way across the country so we can’t talk as much. other than that, i’m really lonely. i live alone. i’ve been depressed and unemployed for the last 5 months, just got a new job starting next week though. anyone have any advice of how i can maybe start distancing myself a bit from her so i’m not constantly obsessing, thinking of her, texting/calling or waiting on her, counting days and hours in terms of when we’ll next see each other… its too painful. please help me figure out how to shake this obsession and just fall back :((( that way either she will feel more comfortable and want me back again fully, or I’ll realize it still isnt working but it won’t hurt as much. but as of rn it feels like if she leaves me I’ll end up in the psych ward (don’t say i might need it, i’m already medicated in therapy 2x a week) okay so any tips are appreciated please be kind thank you