I don't like the term favourite person.

All of my attachemnt figures, the people who I end up basing my personalty off and the people my universe temporarily revolves around, have always been people I  can't spend time with, so work colleagues and tutors/teachers mainly.

Now I am going to (hopefully not but I've tried everything) lose another one. And I'm worried that the person I am now will be lost again because right now I love my hobbies and the way I am, but that won't stop me from changing again...

I have tried to get closer to my current attachment figure during lessons, tried to get them to hang out after, etc, and it hasn't worked. They obviously like me and they don't hide it, but I'll never be mates with him despite my best efforts... But I don't know what to do...

My personality has been stable for 3 years...Longest I have ever known it to last, and I'm worried that the more of my attachment figures keep deserting me, the more I'm going to be pushed and one day I'll totally break once and for all... (although I can't blame them for "deserting me" since they don't understand my situation to be fair, they're usually strangers/acquaintances unfortunately so it's undersrandable...).