I’m so tired I wake up i feel okay, After having done breakfast i feel heavy I’ll search for 10 biscuits 🍪 that i know that are too much but i want to do it so i add 4 biscuits and put a biscuit back in the pack and so on. After i feel the sense of guilt and later i do physical excercises and that’s it. I have to fight with my head everytime. If I’m studying i feel okay but after having done 20 pages i stay in a line for a minute and 40 minutes passed thinking at my life and sadness and so on. Then i try to study but I’m so tired to do it, so i put something on and I go out with my gf. I talk to her all the time. But she doesn’t actually know the thoughts I’m dealing with… I want to die but I don’t know how because i love her and my friends