I am diagnosed with depression and I’m working on ways to change my thought process so that I can feel some sense of relief but everyday my body is in a Constant state of panic, worry, anxiety , consumed by my own thoughts , I don’t know how to cope . It’s like I’m in control but not at the same time . I just want this pain  to end , I want these feelings to go away so I can feel happy, I don’t even know what it feels like to not be in this depressed state because I’ve been in it for so long .