So as far as I(20M) can remember I was a bright student and had best possible result in every grade. Fast forward to freshman year of college I fall into deep depression because of family problems, I always had suicidal thoughts but I decided to get help and saw a psychiatrist. He gave man heavy doses of med but at the end didn’t help me much. As a result of all these my grads eventually dropped. All my friends got into the best universities of my county and I fall behind. Today I found out my gf(20F) got accepted to a very reputed university though her social media. I am very happy for her but i was also sad because she didn’t tell me anything. I texted congratulating her and asked why didn’t tell me anything. She replied after a long time which she usually doesn’t do and her tone was also kinda off. After few back and forth she gave the attitude that she doesn’t have time for a loser like me.


My family is treating me like shit, not in great relations with my friends. She was the last person i could talk to or talk with. Now I'm all alone, filled with regrets and suicidal thoughts and also nobody to talk with.  I dont think will able to hold on for much longer this time. I dont see any point of living this miserable life of a loser.