I'm not worth the waste...I've given up entirely. I help so many people that I know, but when I need help they're never there. Literally never. They'll see it and never respond. I've finally gotten a text back from someone that calls themself a friend...it's been an entire MONTH.

I give so much but I'm always rejected. I'm always abandoned and I just cant fucking take it anymore. I cant take the pain i cant take the suffering.

I want out. I want to be loved in that special way like everyone else gets to...but everytime I try I'm left to rot alone every single time. 

I just want to be first for someone...im always last or non existant for everyone. Even though I've done the absolute most for all that come to me...

I've tried so hard...I just want someone to love me...I've worked so hard, but I'm always left. I cant take it anymore. I don't want to live if I'm not going to be loved.