im having the worst time letting go of a friendship that i messed up because of my own insecurities. it happened in like feb of this year. i clung on too tight and caused a fight because i wasnt getting text messages back. i know now i was the toxic one and wish i could go back and redo it all. i sent them a very long apology text message a few days after the fight and they never replied to me. they didnt block my number or social medias. it just seems like i dont exist any longer in their world and that makes it worse… i found out today that they never blocked me on instagram and im trying so hard not to request them. please someone give me advice? i struggle to make friends or even keep friends long term and i considered them a best friend for years. i want to reach out and try to fix it but im scared theyll think im crazy. i think i am crazy. what do i do? i want my old best friend back. i dont want to make new friends.