30mins straight of hysterical crying because my cat abandoned me and wouldn't miss me if I was gone. Crying that my cat doesn't love me and that I just want to be able to cuddle it cause it's fluffy. Honestly considering if life was worth living because it rejected me.

My partner is and was very confused. Tried to tell me the cat was just a cat and he still loved me which I adamantly rejected. Because it doesn't care for me and never has. How other cats have hated me before for other reasons.

Anyway. Calmed down now. Sometimes I sit there like nope can't have BPD, I don't have abandonment issues...