Maybe a weird question, but has anyone ever done a little amateur psychoanalysis and tried to figure out why their schizophrenia has manifested the way it has? I've done some really thorough thinking and I can think of perfectly logical psychological explanations why I've had every delusion and hallucination. It's all compensation for some kind of injury or lack, and even though I believe it might be biological at some level, I honestly don't think I was destined by genetics alone to get schizophrenia. It took a messed up life to form and shape it.  

I've never had a therapist that specializes in classic psychoanalysis. Pretty much everyone I've seen falls in the CBT camp and is hardly equipped to handle psychosis. Although it would be intimidating as hell at first, I would really like to try classical psychoanalysis someday. It's not a popular approach to schizophrenia these days, but the only time I've ever heard of a cure (i.e. permanent remission) for schizophrenia, it involved classical psychoanalysis. I'm pretty satisfied with my current medication, but I just have to face the fact that medication alone is never going to be enough to rid me of all symptoms. I've settled on a medication that mitigates my paranoia and has almost no side-effects, but the hallucinations persist. I honestly wonder, though...If I could face the deep emotional undercurrents and needs that influence my schizophrenia, then maybe I could deal with them and rid myself of them and get rid of schizophrenia once and for all. I don't know how to do this on my own.

Yeah, so I have a lot of time to think, and this is what I'm wondering about today. What are your opinions on the matter?