I used to be pretty volatile, emotionally and in relationships. After several years of therapy, including a year of DBT early on, I am doing much better than I was. However, I have recently been in these positions where I have to leave some things/people behind that I love. 

I have felt really odd the last few weeks. Like I couldn't actually feel emotions, but my body was acting out pretty rapid mood swings. My emotions are like 10x more intense than they normally are. I will have passive thoughts that I'm crazy, a burden to the world, and I'm not worthy. 

It occurs to me that I have taken on the things I'm leaving as a part of my identity. And now, I'm having to leave them and I don't know what even will make me myself anymore. The remaining parts of me that I see are parts I don't like. I feel hollow.  I wish so much that I could at least pass as normal.