So a few weeks ago, maybe less, I posted about being alone for like a year and afraid of dating again. 

To reiterate a little, I got dumped, have been single for more than a year, kind of afraid of commitment. Every potential person to date hasn’t been good enough and I felt like I probably wouldn’t be able to love again. But that all changed in like 4 hrs 

I met up with someone I thought I was going to dislike but I actually liked them A LOT. It was like taking a drug. I was high on the idea of being w someone. I loved everything about them and after they left my house I couldn’t stop thinking about them or wondering if they liked me and now I’m getting FP anxiety. 

We didn’t text very often before we met up because he’s busy and I’m bad at small talk but I’ve been feeling anxious because we only established that we find each other attractive and funny and want to hang out again, which seems normal and rational considering I only just started talking to him last week and we just met on Thursday. But being an insane person, I am very infatuated and ready to seal the deal (sex and relationship) 

On top of that, I had been planning to move to Chicago within the next 2/3 months but I’m already thinking of postponing because I want to date this person. This is a horrible idea because I’m planning to move in with someone else and they’re already looking for apartments. It’s almost as if liking someone is a factor for whether or not I like living somewhere. I live in Texas and it fucking blows here. I want to move to Chicago bc it rocks there and I have friends. And there are probably way cooler people to date than Texas. But now Texas doesn’t seem so bad just because I could potentially be hanging out with someone that I think is cute and funny. and get this, they are usually only gonna be available once a week. 

Anyways, how to I subdue this FP feeling? How do I stop this person that I actually don’t know at all from dictating my decisions and actions when I know it’s irrational? It’s literally like my mind is a completely sentient being separate from myself!!!! 

I know I’m being crazy and too attached already to someone I don’t know!

Anyone else ever feel this way? 

PS I’m not blaming my “crush” in any way, it’s all me being too addicted to attention I guess 