There's me. There's my existence. Trying to live a deserving life like everyone, I'm not asking for fancies or hoping for them I just want to live a sustainable life. A life where I I heal &amp; Forget that I don't need to always think or seek the love of my parents. I don't get a hello or how are you doing today...I get something like to argue about it they pick a problem with me. I get "shut up &amp; respect your father!" Respet him because he's a narcissistic &amp; toxic. because I can't speak my Adult mind. I just stay in the room all day. With my kids while my husband works. I can't stand seeing my father. I wish a miracle could happen, money for a place to live in peace, but that's the hardest thing to happen. I don't feel like I'm good enough 
i don't feel good everyday. I hate being systematically poor. I try everything to be an entrepreneur 
it never works out. I do my best to remain hopeful all the time I want to feel good. I want to lead. But all I feel like a donkey, that those who ride me will do it till I break.... anyways.. another day another shit to face.