So, Title says it. My life was so fucked up that I'm just emotionless at this point.

Getting called names, insulted, ignored, even by my "Best friend" at school for 8 years.

Horrible father and sick mother.

Poverty.

Horrible at learning.

Bored all the time.

Even, when my alocohlic father died I just stared at the seats ahead of me while people cried at his funeral. Didn't go to his grave ever, now whenever someone mentions him i pretend i didn't hear them. I act as if he never existed. I never cried for him.

I really never cry, the only times I cry is when I watch  some random show to bear with my boredom and realize I'm about to finish it.

I can't express emotion, Im just scared/cringy/weirded out by it even thought I know it's normal. I would BEAT THE HELL OUT OF SOMEONE if they even tried to hug me. I would ignore someone and pretend I didn't hear them if they asked me if I want to be their friend. I would probably kill myself if I kissed someone.


And if you think I'm not emotionless,  trust me I'm just as emotionless as my dad's rotting carcass in the graveyard lmao I don't even give a frick.


Phew, making a new account for this was a good idea or else someone from my family might have found this post. Oh wait i dont have a family just strangers chilling in my house