Every time something happens, I make it my fault. If someone does something that hurts me, it was my fault somehow. I trace things back to find the point in time where I did something that lead to them hurting me. If something goes wrong at work, I find the point where I mismanaged the process. Why do I do this? Why do i fuck things up and cause myself so much pain? I know I'm the real problem here. If I had only done things differently, I wouldn't be in this situation.