Hey lovelies!

I’m really adamant about finally starting to take action on my journey to wellness and I’m going to try to further explain/describe to my psychiatrist what exactly I’m feeling. I’ve been doing so, but I’ve always had trouble finding relatable words ): 

Does anyone get what I’m talking about here? I know us bpd *warriors* often deal with chronic emptiness and that’s one of my most troubling symptoms, but I have so much trouble trying to find the words to accurately describe it. 

I know each person is unique and feels differently, of course. But considering the fact that we may share the same somewhat similar experiences/feelings, I’d LOVE and GREATLY appreciate if you’d help me out to try to find better words that will help me find a connection with. “Miserable” is def one of them. 

I’m medicine resistant, I’ve tried TMS and ketamine infusions for my MDD but unfortunately found no alleviation in my symptoms ),: however, I recently tried ambien(zolpidem) for insomnia which sadly didn’t help me sleep, but actually alleviated the “hole in my stomach” sensation/severe agony that manifests into “bad” stomach unpleasant feelings. It’s not actual pain, more like emotional pain. That’s why I’m focusing on this symptom bc i feel like if I get this under control, I’ll be more mentally able to roll with the punches of life. 

I hope what I’m saying makes sense, but if anyone is willing to help me out to find the right words and wants to ask questions for more clarity, please don’t hesitate!!

Thank you SO much in advance for any help♡ maybe even just seeing this post and any help/descriptive words come up, it can help others identify their feelings better and find more peace in their lives! 

God bless ♡