Hey so I just graduated from university a month ago and moved back to my parents' house while searching for a job. My mom has been super mean to me and constantly bashing me for not having a job. She has been bugging me to search for jobs while I was still in school but I was really stressed and busy with projects at the time and couldn't bother. Also, I really hated the degree I was studying for and hated all the coops I have done previously, and did not want to enter this field for my full-time job. I really wanted a few months to relax and collect myself. My mom would always call me a failure, a loser who sits around and does nothing and when I'm eating dinner she would tell me that you are so fat stop eating so much (she would constantly call me fat and ugly). She would also constantly compare me to her friends' kids saying how successful they are. Every time I hang around her, I feel very anxious and irritated. Whenever she says anything bad about me, I would cry for hours in my room and wanted to kill myself. She once said something bad about me in front of my dad and my dad told her to stop and just let me breath. And she said oh she's an adult she can handle it. My dad is really busy with work and kinda hard to talk to and I don't have the kind of friends where I can open up about being depressed. I really wanted to move out but I don't have the money at the moment. I have been so lost and unmotivated. I have been in this state since high school when I lived with my parents and my mom would get pissed at me for not getting a good grade or not getting into a better university, but recently its just been worse. Just really really wanted to vent to someone thanks for reading