Tonight my husband and I agreed to divorce. We had a hurtful conversation where I was sobbing and he was acting cold. Two weeks ago he was holding me in bed and telling me that I was home, and that he never wanted to be without me again. I'm heart broken. 

I was trying to express the thoughts I've had in the past week (about trying to determine if this marriage is salvageable), and he hung up. I guess to say that it's not. So I started texting him mean, horrible, nasty things. It just poured out and I couldn't stop myself. I blocked and unblocked him about 10 times trying to keep myself from harassing him. He ended up blocking me. That's fair. 

I don't want to be this person. He's put me through so much pain, but I still love him so, so much and I don't want to be this ugly, nasty person to him. I believe I've essentially ruined any chance of reconciliation on any level (as partners or as friends), but I don't want to make it worse.