I keep writing and discarding posts here, I won't let this come out of me. But the truth is.. I was doing well. I have delusional disorder and only dopamine blocking meds were standing between me and emotions. Since I don't have negative symptoms. I was doing well when it comes to delusions, and it all went to shit. Worst delusion since starting meds. So the plan of getting of olanzapine (I take olanzapine and abilify) went to shit. I want to rip my eyes out. All the improvement and hard work for nothing.