I’ve been feeling down since January. A lot of events have happened to me that are very hard for me to forget and just move on. I mean yes, there are times where I don’t think about it. The fact that I have to pay for treatments recently, has gotten me thinking everyday. I do not know what to do, they’re very expensive and my parents won’t be affording it. My grandparents died 3 months ago due to covid. Nearly every girl I talked to, has walked away giving me more issues such as trust, attachment, and abandonment. I am lonely and hopeless by all means. I don’t feel that comfortable talking to my friends about whatever. I genuinely don’t think anyone has my back. My parents are conservative so they wouldn’t understand. I am suffering, but I am trying my absolute best not to show it at all. I zone out during the day even when I am out with friends. At this point, I just need someone to talk to. Thank you for reading this, means a lot even if you didn’t interact.