I'm a high school junior this coming yr. Ive had anxiety since I was younger, likely around 7 yrs old, but diagnosed this Feb (mostly social anxiety). This is also comorbid with an eating disorder, depression, and body image issues. 

Last time I had a school pic was freshman yr bc sophomore was all virtual and many ppl skipped picture day. I've always hated pictures even before I had body image issues, which was pretty young bc I've hated my body and face since 10 yrs old. In pictures, I usually chicken out or cry bc anxiety, ya know, or sit there with a straight face. I find it incredibly difficult to smile for a picture. Especially now with my depression I can't even fake it. I can't smile bc 1. I bet I look ugly and deformed as hell and 2. Anxiety says no way 👎. Not even sure why pictures have always caused anxiety. 

Kinda considering attempting to skip registration so they can't take the pic, but then I don't have an ID which id probably need since school is in person this yr. And they might pester me into doing the makeup pic. this is in about a week and I've been anxious about it. Maybe if I tell my treatment team they'll pressure me into doing it.

I'm not on meds but am likely starting Zoloft soon, mainly for depression but my psych said it should help with anxiety too. I just hate the physical symptoms of anxiety, like sweating, nausea, muscle tension, stomach discomfort... People say I literally look sick when I'm having an anxiety episode. Is anyone else like this and do you have any advice?