Everytime I have an argument with someone, even if it’s not personally about me, my heart starts racing and I can barely let a word out. For example my job is covid-related and I see people everyday. They are just as tired of covid as I am, and theres times when people get really impatient and get mad at me and every time I freeze and I just want to cry and punch a wall because I can’t express myself like I would want to. Also, here I am 5 hours later at home trying to convince myself that I did nothing wrong, but it’s really hard to. I seriously envy people who can just let it happen and get over it. Seems impossible to me…