Every time I thought I had a good friend, I seem to be more of a therapist for them when they're in a crisis. When life is going good for them I feel completely forgotten and left out, which is my worst anxiety btw. It's not like I don't try to establish a connection. When I ask them about hanging out with either one of them they are busy, which I respect, but never do I get hit back up when they're free. 

So in short: My only social contacts trigger my anxiety constantly and I feel emotionally used