I’ve been suffering from paranoid thoughts since I was little. When I was 7 I was convinced my mother was smoking even when she promised me she wasn’t. At 8 I was convinced my aunts nanny was trying to poison and kill me so I never ate or drank anything she gave me. At 10 I was terrified someone was out to get my family and that I was going to be murdered and could never sleep. I even have a vague memory of fearing my own mother, a vague memory of feeling like she was out to get me (idk if that one is real though I can’t really remember)Now I hate going outside because I think people are staring at me, talking about me, judging me, even following me. A few months ago I was terrified that the guy on the roof outside my window was A CIA sniper out to kill me. A few days ago I starting, what I think was, hearing voices. Just voices in my head and sounds that weren’t mine, but I knew they weren’t real. The voices stopped after a few days but now I “see” random and disturbing images in my head at random times. I feel like my thoughts are not my own. The problem is, I tell my parents, and they either tell me that it’s just A) not happening, B) I’m just 21 and tired) or C) everybody feels this way. I can’t trust my own feelings anymore. I can’t even tell if what I’m experiencing is normal and it’s driving me insane. Im at the point where I feel compelled to just stop taking all my meds because I believe that I’m just crazy and they’re is nothing actually wrong with me and I’m just dramatic and in need of attention. Ive been diagnosed with depression and social anxiety.