Never diagnosed, but working on getting a diagnosis...  


None the less, today was probably one of the worst days of my life. I lashed out too hard, and now I got a response of:   
"Talk to me again when you're done being a brat."   
Now, I'm feeling angry, depressed- and extremely guilty. I know I shouldn't have gotten mad at him at all, I know what I'm feeling is probably wrong- but I just can't help myself. I feel like he's going to replace me with this other person, because every time they talk, it's like he enjoys them more than me.   
Honestly, replace probably with fact. I KNOW he likes this person more than me, even though they barely talk, do anything even remotely interesting, and aren't even funny. 

What am I supposed to do? Do I apologize? Do I ignore him? I don't want him to stop talking to me, but I'm so sick and tired of him doing this on purpose (at least, that's what it feels like). Crying my eyes out, feel like punching a wall, and feeling extremely suicidal. I just don't see how things get better from here, because this cycle always continues. 

I just dont know what to do.