In may 2020 I met my person. I knew as soon as I met him that he wasn’t only going to be my fp, but that I had met the person I was meant to be with forever. 
We spent the entire summer together denying any feelings we might have had bc he was a senior in his last semester of college and about to move back home (4 hours away from our school and where I live) and both of us hated the idea of distance. We decided in the beginning of august, right after he left, that if we didn’t try we would hate ourselves forever.
So in August we started dating, and there was never a single problem in our relationship. It was genuinely perfect. I could not have been happier, and I had never felt a love for a person so deep despite the fact that my bpd is pretty severe. 
Last sunday we broke up. He grew apart, the distance made him fall out of love. We talked about me moving to where he is for the summer to try, we talked about trying to make it work, but last night (stayed together at a hotel) he decided it just cant work right now. He’s told me if he ever feels he made a mistake he’ll tell me, and that if he moves back to the city where I go to school for work I’d be the first person he tells and maybe we could try again.
I am undone. I have never felt pain this deeply, there are no words to describe how I feel. He is my soulmate and I know it, but he doesn’t anymore. I can’t breathe without him. I don’t see a future for myself if he’s not in it. No one will ever come close to him or what we had and I know it.

I cannot handle the pain of knowing I’ve found my true love and knowing I’ve lost it and can’t get it back. I feel hollow. I don’t feel safe. He’s all I had. Please help :(