does anyone else just absolutely HATE the way they look at times. Not just to look in the mirror like “ew i’m not looking my best today” but I mean to look in the mirror and want to die because you feel so hopeless and insecure with yourself. I feel so insecure with my face that I worry what people are thinking when they look at me all.the.time. I have really low self worth because I’ve suffered from abuse and other stuff my entire life and when I get rejected I feel the most crushing feeling it hurts so much. I think i’m the ugliest person in the world and I don’t understand how people can see otherwise. I’ve had a lot of guys interested in me but driven away by my self destructive ways and insecurities. anyways that’s it. Sometimes I feel extremely attractive, but that lasts two seconds until i’m reminded that i’m ugly and always will be. I couldn’t even look my boyfriend in the eyes.When he would look at me for more than a few seconds I would panic and look away.