I have a girlfriend and a job interview coming up in a few days and I can't tell if I'm terrified of screwing up or terrified of the drastic change. I recently told my parents about my depression and they didn't do much about it other than ask if I'm ok every once in a while (I just say I'm fine). This past Christmas I was genuinely happy despite it not being the best Christmas, I think I was just not worried about all my problems and just wanted to chill for the holidays, but as soon as new years came my mom yelled at me and guilt tripped me for not having a job and when I told her about the progress I was making with my mental health she just downplayed it. Now I'm trying my hardest to not let that sink me down back to rock bottom because I can't go through that again and I have a girlfriend and a job lined up but I just had my 3rd anxiety attack ever when nothing substantial even happened and I'm shook. Idk why this is happening and I don't know why my brain seems to be just holding me down trying to make me fail. What do I do?