So I noticed recently that it’s been a month since my FP has stopped talking to me. I dearly wish they would let me come back into their life but i know they won’t. The day they stopped talking to me was terrible. I knew I had fucked up and couldn’t stop crying. The next day I had a midterm that I bombed. It’s been a whole fucking month since they’ve talked to me and I still cry about said person. The other day I was scrolling through my messages and their messages came up and it left me hysterical. It was me begging for them to talk to me again but they never responded. The other day I was fine and I they were there. All they said was hey and I couldn’t function. After they left I started to cry and now I can’t really function correctly because I saw them and I want to die. They aren’t talking to me and I’m really mortified because to be honest I have no idea who I am anymore. Everything was about them so I made myself into something they would like. But here I am all alone once again because I ducked up. I just wish I could be normal and get over this quickly. But my brain is stuck on this person and it sucks.