Thought about my friends and how they didn't know I'm this depressed. Thought about how I wish I could take their pain if child loss, bad job experience and partner cheating. And then I'd kill myself and take their pain with me, and then being kinda tipsy on Easter reminded me that sometimes the pain is for a reason and it doesn't always have to stick and it needs to happen to expand and experience "that" to grow from it.

I kinda felt like I wanted to be the green mile movie and help friends and "go".
But today kinda makes me feel like I want them to experience these things so they will grow. I'll help them but I want them to be better for themselves.
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Happy Easter people 😁
Remember you'll always be loved. 
Some where or there there's love and support I promise ...