So, I have always had trouble sleeping. I eithee can't fall asleep or I experience night terrors and wake up multible times. I do find it easier to sleep knowing I have my bf with me. I can snuggle up with him and he wakes me up from my nightmares. 

However I am away from him for the next 6 days. And I miss him terribly. I can't stand the thought of not having him here. And it gets a little worse at night since I fear sleeping without him. 
On top of that, I have these irrationel thoughts of him doing a lot of things while I'm not there. 
I hate it so much. It's like a bad itch you accidently scracth. If I accidently think of it, it just gets worse. It's in the back of my brain. I can't help it. 

I hate it. With every fiber of my body I wish I could just wash the thoughts away. Permanently.