I hate feeling this empty. I have a million emotions exploding in my heart but all I can do is lay in bed and let them tear me up. Come on mania, give me my mood swing so I can go back to being functional. I just want to text bomb everyone I know and beg them for affection and attention, but what's the point... Even if they obliged I'd still feel like I'm drowning.

Why can't I just be happy, why do I keep doing this to myself