Hello! I'm a 19yo girl and my bf (19yo) is basically suffering because of me. We've been together for 1,5 year, and living together as well. My libido is pretty much inexistant, and I'm unable to feel love (been this way for about 4 years now). 

I don't know what to do. 

He's the sweetest guy, he's so loving, patient and everything. I don't want to lose him because of the way bpd makes me act, I contain it to the best of my abilities but it still leaks. I'm either all up or all down, usually very angry.

Help me please.