It started when I was looking through old records and found one saying my overdose I took when I was 15 (which was definitely a suicide attempt) was described as self harm. It didn't say I was attention seeking, but I'm, how tf is that self harm? That was a suicide attempt.

Now I'm on 37.5mg of venlafaxine, but I'm thinking it's a placebo because that's lower than the recommended dose which is 75mg. I don't know, am I thinking rationally, or does this sound weird?