I'm 18M, last year when i was 17 during a manic episode I flew off the handle at my mum and left home and I ended up signing myself up for universal credit and rentine a place in bath with no experience of having my own place, it was a fucking nightmare and I was in such a terrible place, ended up in hospital after multiple suicide attempts and then soon ended up back at home. I feel pathetic, like when I had my own place I was finally moving forward in the world but now I'm back home it's just like 2 steps forward one step back - doing stupid shit and then having to deal with the repercussions in a cycle. Sorry just a ramble