No matter how much I desire a closer and healthier relationship with those closest to me (ie. boyfriend and older sister) they tend to be the relationships that are the most toxic/unhealthy with constant conflict. I really want to be able to have stronger, deeper, and healthier connections/relationships with people and figure it would be easier to start with those closest but it always feels like it's the hardest. I feel like they don't really understand me (or at least me w/ BPD) and it gets in the way of us making progress in having a better relationship. Does anyone else experience this or have any advice on how to manage it?