Most of all I am concerned with sometimes having this overwhelming urge to &gt;!threaten with suicide!&lt; to stop the person from "leaving" me. It disgusts me that I think about this and I never act on it, but it's really mentally taxing to keep it to myself. But even apart from that, my constant poking at the issue of leaving (which I think is just percieved) just makes things worse all the time, but I am unable to stop myself, or even if I do manage to stop myself for a time, it makes me feel really awful and doesn't solve the problem.

Sorry if this is the wrong sub for this kind of question.