I just don't care about anything. About to finish the equivalent of high school next year and I couldn't care less about going to college. I don't want to become anyone. I don't want heaps of money. I don't give a shit about anything that happens to me in the future. I just want to not be perceived by anyone that I don't want to and not be forced or expected to do certain things, preferably don't exist, although dying is a thing that scares me because it's so unknown and mysterious.
So I know I'm just going to be constantly bothered by all the inconveniences around me. I value everyone way higher than myself so I keep away from people literally as much as possible to not hurt/worry them.
I really don't know why I should be alive if I'm just going to be waste of space and energy of others but my beliefs and brain won't let me get rid of myself. I know I shouldn't be like this but nothing has changed in probably 4/5 years so it probably never will.

Don't know why I decided to write this but whatever. Thanks for reading I guess.