I can't stop. I can't stop hurting people. I can't stop feeling guilty about it. I can't stop harming myself and cutting myself over it.

I just want it all to stop. I want to be normal. I don't want every relationship of mine to be unstable because of me doing dumb stuff or reacting harshly. I don't want to lose any more friends. I don't want to get abandoned. I don't want to react like I do. 

It's getting harder to hold on. There's only as much as meds and weed can do. Everything is falling apart, and there's nobody else to blame but me.

I don't know what this post is. Maybe it's a cry for help. Maybe it's desperation. Whatever it is, I hope it works. 