I don't know but i want some validation to my decision. I have been down for years with anxiety and depression. Exercise, therapy, eating healthy, etc didn't do much against being passively suicidal. I find there's nothing really that gives me any satisfaction. Trying hard to hold a job, its extremely draining. I don't have much money maybe to survive about 6 months or so at best.

I have made a decision to leave job in 2 or 3 months for some money and pack bags and simply walk in whatever direction. Walk until my legs give up. Travel cheap for as long as possible. No future plans, no anxiety. And when money runs out i make decision to whether to come back and find another job or just off myself somehow depending on my state of mind at that point.

I am tired of society and tired of myself. I am tired feeling extremely empty and have no fullfilment despite trying new things and experiencing new things. Just low level constant anxiety that only goes away when i don't care about anything at all (just walking without a care randomly). 

Only thing is I wonder how i will hold out for even 2-3 months.