I’ve been in a really good mood today, it was my first day back at school. When I’m happy, I get paranoid that I’m putting on ‘rose coloured glasses’ and ignoring the problems in my life that I ‘should’ be thinking about. 

I then start to search for something to worry about, almost subconsciously. 

I think it’s to avoid becoming very disappointed when the happiness goes away, or if something happens, so I self-inflict worry to avoid the intensity of another set back. 

I just wish I didn’t do that, but it feels automatic and isn’t something I can necessarily control.  

Does anyone else find themselves doing this?