I have to tell my therapist over the phone Tuesday I want them to take me off lorazepam. It’s causing immense stress right now because I know they may be upset with me.

I basically took all my Ativan this month and only have about 5 pills left and my appointment isn’t for another 10 days. I really hate myself so much because I knew this fucking drug would end up becoming a problem. 

I’m also dealing with COVID right now so I can’t risk another withdrawal. I feel like my psychiatrist and therapist are going to be mad.

The only way I’ll be happy again is if I am off this drug but I’m on 2mg a day. How the fuck am I going to come off this stuff


I hate benzos