I feel like I would feel better if I could just cry. I want to feel sadness. I want to feel anything. Yesterday I was so angry that I punched a pillow. It felt wonderful. But it was only for a moment. Now I feel nothing again. I need to cry. But I can't make myself cry. 

Anyone able to make themselves cry? I know this sounds ridiculous, but I feel that if the tears would happen, I would feel such relief.