These past few months my anxiety has been at an all time high. I’ve quit multiple jobs because of this and I suffer from suicidal thoughts. I have decided that I want to change and actually give life a chance. I started a new job that I absolutely love with great people. I started waking up earlier so I could have time to meditate and journal. I’ve been trying to remain calm as much as I can by breathing. I mean my anxiety is bad but I think I’m starting to figure out how I can cope. But one thing that hurts is that while I am accomplishing these things it seems pretty normal for the average person. Living my day to day life feels like I’m dying. I have such a hard time trying to see the silver lining. Nobody has told me how proud they are of me. I’ve been getting my anxiety under control and just trying to better myself as a person. But everyone around me is like “finally.” But just because I’m pushing forward doesn’t mean that it’s all disappeared. I just need a hug.