Hi. It is not normal of me to post something like this, and life has taken quite the strange turn the past week or so. Today about 2 hours ago I had my first full blown panic/anxiety attack I've ever had. 

Over the past year or so, I've struggled with mild anxiety when it comes to new foods, medicine, or drinks. I have a huge underlying fear of having an allergic reaction. I had to take antibiotics &amp; the first night I took it, I sat in a hospital parking lot for an hour to be sure I wouldn't have a reaction. The week following this might, every morning and night I would have small(but controllable) minor freak outs. Just little bits of worrying and not feeling great.

I finished the pills 3 days ago, and started breaking out in hives when I would wakeup following finishing. I am on day 4 of being off, and I have not felt well. I believed I had Covid, and have been worried the past 2 days that I have been having trouble breathing. I was at home in bed today, and started to feel tight chested and light headed suddenly after googling symptoms of Covid. I rushed out the door to the Urgent Care near me, and ran in begging for help. They took me to the back and instantly took my pulse and blood oxygen. 

In that moment, I thought I was going to die. I have never felt so helpless. I felt my world spiraling down, and my brain truly thought I wasn't going to make it through. The doctor told me I have extreme anxiety, and after this I called my dad and found out he struggled with it for many years of his life. 

I feel as if I am starting a new chapter of my life, and I have never been so scared. I feel helpless. Where do I go from here? How do I fix this? I feel like this is a life that I could not live. Feeling this level of stress every day has been the worst thing I've ever experienced.

Thank you.