I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my first. I’m nervous. I’ve got the instincts on taking care of them. I raised my brothers, was around kids all my life, was the church babysitter. But I feel like raising your own is a whole different ball game. I don’t wanna scar my kid the way my parents scarred me. I want to be aware and conscious of how I talk and treat my kid. I want to be paitent and understanding. I really do want to be mostly gentle parenting with a little old school in there. I’m just so nervous about my anger and feeling annoyed or agitated. Getting overwhelmed or over stimulated. It would be nice if I felt like I had a partner who could be capable on their own if I needed them to take over but I just don’t feel that way with my hubby considering he had no clue about kids or babies being the baby in his family. He also is just clueless in general. I love him but lord help him 😅. 

Has anyone found anything that works. And please don’t say meditation because that’s all I hear from non bpd family and honestly if that’s the only solution I’m screwed.