we are on a break right now because he told me it was too exhausting having to walk on eggshells 24/7 to make sure i dont freak out. i realize how toxic ive become to him and it hurts him as much as it hurts me. it has been 2 days since we stopped talking and i cant sleep im always thinking of him. 

im considering breaking up because i dont think im emotionally and mentally stable enough to make or keep him happy. but he doesnt know i have bpd per usual reasons.. i just dont know if i can end this when i know that this is better for both of us. help?