I had the nightmare about attempting suicide by slicing my wrists, getting caught and having a group of policemen/doctors shove me down and restrain me, while I fight for my life and keep screaming “no no, no stop please,” begging them not to take me to a ward or institution but usually this nightmare has different endings, this one recently though was just every adult and friends I knew were discussing how mentally unstable I am and then people showing up at my house to take me away. 
This isn’t fair, I don’t like how my own mental hospital is so shit that I’m more scared than anything to go back.