This isn’t to say I think anyone else should feel ashamed. Just me. It’s just, the fact that BPD is a cluster B disorder and seemingly lumped in with the worst of the worst is so shameful. I don’t want to be this way. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I am doing what I can to not but fuck is it so shameful to feel like I have no control over when I overreact and when I don’t. I know I am unpredictable and I feel so sorry for anyone that tries to love me because I don’t want to be! I want to be normal and healthy andI try so hard to be but sometimes it slips out and I hate it!