My grandma is in hospice. I go with my mom to visit her at her nursing home about twice a week. She has a rare brain disease called Corticobasal Degeneration and there is not much known about it because it is so rare. She has not been able to really talk to us for over two years now as it affects speech. She can never tell us what she is thinking or feeling she just is able to make moaning/mumbling noises. It really makes me sad that I can't really communicate with her anymore and I don't know whats going on in her head. I feel guilty because theres not much I can do to help her. Its hard to watch her suffer. I get teary and cry almost every time I see her but I want to stop because I am worried she can tell I am sad and I don't want to upset her more. She has been in and out of the hospital for months now and came close to dying twice. My grandpa who was the main one taking care of her also fell and broke his hip in June and was also in critical condition. To top this off my ex boyfriend died of a drug overdose in July. We were not together but we had been on speaking terms and I had been texting with him a few hours before he overdosed. The next day I noticed he never answered me but didn't think anything of it and then I got the news. I was in complete shock and had a full on panic attack the rest of the night. Am I just depressed right now because of all this and will it pass? I feel anxious, sad, and preoccupied with death/morbid thoughts a lot. I've also lost a lot of weight. About 15 pounds. I rarely feel like eating. A lot of my friends have not been very understanding at all and think I am just being dramatic. My sister and parents are also saying at some point soon I need to move on and not let this affect me so much but I am having a difficult time. I would appreciate any advice you guys have for me.