I have friends 

I've truly been in love more than once 

I still have my youth 

I've done every dangerous thing you can do 

Now...what? 

I just found myself skating, shirtless, blasting music into my face, when a car was coming behind me, so I found the most logical place to bail (in the shadows), and bailed. 

I picked up my board and looked ahead. There were 2 people on the corner up ahead. I live in a downtown type place where people die sometimes and there's a homeless problem. 

As I walk closer, one of the figures walks away, but the other just stands there, staring at me. I'm ready to go. I don't want to. But I'm ready to have a gun pointed at my face and I'm ready for someone to rob me. So I lock eye contact with this shadow person. Cause I'll die. Eff it. 

When I'm like 3 feet away, it's some girl in all black, holding my gaze. She didn't do anything. She seemed more scared of me than me of her. 

Idk. I almost wish it was a scary man with a knife. Am I depressed or just numb to this sterile world? I feel like each day I'm waiting for "the thing" to happen. 

I want people to not have time for Facebook because they're too busy trying to not die. 

21 more years.