I’m so sick of this illness. I’m so tired of doctors and therapist telling me this isn’t my fault. It doesn’t matter if it is or not because at the day I’m the one stuck in my own head trying to get out. I’m the one who has to deal with this everyday. I feel so isolated and lonely dealing with one extreme to the next. This pain I feel everyday is so hard to live with. Ive been trying so hard to cope, I’ve been doing yoga, painting, diving into school work. Nothing is working anymore. I’m in so much pain and I can’t stop it. I know that I’m not superwoman but I thought that I could at least piece myself back together but I can’t. I can’t do it anymore.