I hate my emotions. 

I feel like I can never get anything to come out right and I’m always just being out of hand. 

But I really feel what I’m feeling and I’m not trying to be a bad person. I wish someone could understand what my head feels like and how scrambled up my emotions and thoughts are. I feel like my brain gets so fuzzy that I can’t think. 

I almost hate myself for it. 

I just wanna be alone forever. I hurt everyone I love and I don’t know what to do.

Sometimes I just wish a huge truck would hit me on my work commute or that maybe if I just closed my eyes god would so the work for me. 

I ruin everything. I feel bad. I just feel bad.