So I've been having a bad week at work. Rough start so depression and migraines kicked into high gear. Tonight I'm having even more go wrong so I slowed down and did some research. ADHD untreated all my life, depression from bullying, and anxiety from everything else I think finally took it's toll. I know for a fact my ADHD is treatment resistant because I gave it a legit shot and my doctor said I was "so used to living with it that medication won't make a change" and I got the same results with depression and anxiety meds. So all my mental illnesses are medication resistant and now I don't know what to do. See a shrink? Tried that before meds twice and got nowhere as well. Hell at this point I'm wondering if I'm just so lazy that it's being misrepresented as depression and ADHD. Maybe my parents were right that I'm lazy. Maybe growing up people were right to say that I don't have motivation. I know deep in my heart that I'll amount to nothing anyways so isn't this all just irrelevant rambling anyways. But then again why am I even writing this? As some cry for help? Maybe to see if I'm not alone? Hell if I know, I can't even remember what day of the week it is. I guess no matter what I'm just going to amount to nothing. No career, just scraping by and doing what little I can to keep myself off autopilot