basically title, my ex died in july and i’ve been feeling empty and soulless since. i’ve googled hundreds of times “how to cope w FP death” and NOTHING comes up surrounding BPD and i just feel fucking lost. i miss her so much, and i don’t know how i’m supposed to just… exist. now. without her. 
sorry for the vent, i just would like to know if anyone has been through something similar and has insight on what i could do. thank you (LLS🌟)