For as long as I can remember I've suffered with depression. It started in primary school and has only ever gotten worse. For years I haven't been able to enjoy things like I know other people can, I feel completely empty. I don't feel passion for anything and have no drive to improve myself. I don't even have the drive to be upset at how I feel. I've tried multiple anti-depressants and none of them have done anything to alleviate the emptiness I feel. I don't have the passion to work even if it meant that my survival was on the line. I don't even have enough desire to end it and kill myself. All I want to do is fade into non-existence with nobody remembering that I ever existed in the first place. I wish I could be passionate about something but the most I can ever feel is complacency. I don't even know why I'm posting this as I know it won't help anyway.