Growing up I 25f was always more reserved and shy but I still had friends and I really loved life. It wasn’t until I was molested a few times  by my moms bf that I really understood what was happening to me and it took me a while to speak out about it. When I was 21 I finally told my mom unfortunately she didn’t believe me and left me all alone to suffer with my trauma. Till this day she’s still with her bf and she has never asked me if I was okay. I thought my trauma wouldn’t affect my life but once I finished communicating college I decided to take a break from school. That break lasted 3 years and sadly I can say I haven’t had a social life since high school.

       Now I do have a few friends I talk to hear and there but they never really invite me to hang out so it makes me feel unwanted sometimes. I hate scrolling through Instagram every weekend and seeing people partying with their friends or hanging out and it makes me sad that no one wants me in their life. I feel like my life is slowly passing me by. I should confess that I don’t drink alcohol a lot and I don’t like clubbing and partying, but because that’s basically what everyone does now I feel like there’s more to life than that.

  No one checks up on me not even my mom or family. I’m home 24/7 and I don’t leave my house at all. I don’t have a social life either nor do I get to really enjoy anything. My sister in law even called me lame because I don’t go out and party every weekend like her. I realized she didn’t like me because she never wants to hang out with me because I’m lame to her. Idk what’s wrong with me that people don’t want me as their friend. I don’t think anyone would care if I disappeared.