Lately I’ve been having really bad anxiety and panic attacks when I think about the future. I’m planning on finally going back to school and completing a bachelors but… I just don’t know.

There’s so many different versions of myself inside me that all want something different for the future; and I want all of these things equally even though I can realistically only do one or a few of them.

But to choose one feels like I’m denying all the others- and it feels like I’m killing a part of myself. But to continue wandering around aimlessly while I watch the world go on around me is just as painful.

It really feels like I can’t win no matter what. Accomplishment or permanence is terrifying but so is indecision and nothingness. Is this something others experience?