I typically don't interact with those I'm not certain I will get along with. Sure, I was distant after we hung out, but that was because I wanted to reflect on our relationship. You can easily get information out of me when you want to. That's why I was hesitant while talking to you, but also what drew me to you in the first place. I was filtering everything coming out of my mouth 10 times over. 
I have deeply rooted trust issues that stem from my traumatic past. The fact that I spent 2 years in isolation due to depression before having met you doesn't help either. 
Sometimes I ignore you, but never on purpose. I always feel like fucking shit immediately after. The first time I did, I was running late and all I could think of was arriving on time. I have obsessive thoughts about certain things, being late is one of them. I walked away kicking myself for how i mishandled that situation. I wanted to talk despite my laughable social skills. 
I wish you could hear me out sometimes when I have things to say. You'll yell at me for doing something wrong, I'll rationalize my mistakes so you can understand where I'm coming from, but when I do that you completely ignore me or get mad at me. I'm guessing you do this because you think they're excuses, they are in a sense.
I thought you were an amazing person, really fucking cool and I miss what we had. It might've been nothing to you but it had meaning to me. Looking back, i didn't approach our relationship as I would've liked. I've learnt so much since, but unfortunately for me, there's no going back because things won't be the same. 
It sucks that my quirks, if you can call them that, tainted my reputation. Being quiet doesn't help me in trying to prove that I'm a good hearted person and mean no harm. I care about people who wish death upon me.
Didn't want to leave this soon, but I'm gonna have to because things are getting worse for me there and its getting harder to fight my demons and urges. My health comes first.