He said it. He’s been thinking of breaking up for the past month. He doesn’t love me like he used to. Yet he says he still loves me, it isn’t my fault, he feels like he holds me back and doesn’t want to hurt me all the time. I want to work together and grow together. I can help him, I’d do anything for him. I think he has PTSD from a friends suicide years ago that he never dealt with but he refuses to get help even though I’m getting help for him.

I’ve been crying and shaking for hours.

I can’t lose him. 4 years of memories and living together and a dog, and he’s my best friend. We talked about getting married and having kids. I can’t fucking lose him.