I do this all the time, I feel myself getting attached to people (mostly men) who I know are emotionally unavailable, won’t invest time in me and don’t really care.

I do wonder if I do it on a self destructive level. I know deep down they are going to ghost me or reject me because they don’t want me to get attached or to speak to them daily. 

I just can’t help myself. I will drive myself mental staring at the unread messages for hours. Wondering why they don’t want me. Seeking validation purely because they are not interested. 

Weirdly enough, if someone does show me a high level of interest I run a mile. 

It’s like I almost want to be hurt and abandoned to prove all my insecurities are correct.