I cannot afford therapy at the moment and don't know where to ask. I mainly have Ocd, anxiety, depression, dissociation and possibly some form of autism and BPD. I say BPD bc the only symptoms I relate to are unstable sense of self. 

Im 23 rn and As far back as I can remember, anytime I looked in the mirror I'd feel weird, like is that me? Not in a dissociated way though. Im a decent looking guy but I don't have any unique features or characteristics that only I possess both in looks and personality wise. Ive always struggled with my identity and knowing what my place is in the world, not knowing who I really am.

Im not good at anything, no hobbies or skills, I've struggled to have values and opinions, im gullible and easily believe what I read or hear. In a room full of people, I look around and see every person having a unique trait about them, something that makes them THEM. I don't know who I am. I also could imagine myself growing up, couldn't see my adult self. 

To cope with that I'd pretend I was superior to everyone around me but really it was just a veil as I had no knowledge or skills about anything. I'd imagine I was a wwe superstar walking down the ramp as a kid,  being an actor in movies, or a famous person giving lectures etc, sort of a daydream, very vivid and real but not the maladaptive type I think. These could just be a common experiences but I have them still on a daily basis. 

All that first came to my notice when I got high by myself and looked at a group picture with my friends, I noticed I'm standing awkwardly, and have no Uniqueness about me, what do I bring to the table, no personality bascially and it gave me anxiety for the first time.  

I've kinda said the same thing repeatedly lol, apologies English isnt my language, im just trying hard to express properly what I have on my mind. Could this possibly be BPD or just issues stemming from low self esteem?