i hate that everything that i used to love is just not the same anymore. 
i dont have a job, my parents are clearly disappointed, my friends are all doing something with their lives.. it’s so embarassing. especially because i used to be the „smart and strong“ person. 
on monday i’ll ask my therapist (who is technically not really my therapist anymore but she told me i can come if i need her) if we can talk. i hope i’ll have the courage to tell her everything without sugar coating it, i need advice from someone who (hopefully) wont judge me and wants the best for me