Hope everyone’s doing alright. So far, life has felt like a Hollywood villain arc whilst getting kicked around and spit on by this blasphemous brain phenomenon, as I assume many of you also experience. At the end of the day it helps to think about how the universe is a 93 billion light-year void of primarily nothing, placing no obligations on us whatsoever. Human-life, and all life for that matter, is just a miraculous plaque spreading across the surface of the planet and what you do with your life doesn’t matter in the slightest. My expectations have grown awfully low in life in the last 10 years, and the decrease in expectations unexpectedly made me appreciate things like simply having a set of eyes to look around with a lot more.
Most of us were just raised in garbage-dump environments and that’s why our brains are deranged, I’ve experienced my brain probably become 50% unfucked through just consistently trying to find treatment through medication and exercise, still feel rough sometimes though. Albeit I’ve been as close to being stable as ever for 2 years now. 
Don’t give up!