I cannot handle the smallest social situation with anyone. I was recently diagnosed with BPD, which would explain why when I perceive there to be a small change, or felt insecure about something I may have said, (even if it’s nothing bad) I become depressed and nervous until I’m reassured in some form that there is nothing wrong. Due to this, I feel like I cannot focus on many other aspects of my life because I consistently feel like my world is falling apart until I am reminded everyday by those in my life that I am not a nuisance to them or that they don’t despise me for something I may have done to offend them. I’m 19 and have to focus on my future, but I feel just so sad (and I know this is melodramatic) that I feel so sense of identity outside of people and that I feel like people are my lifeline despite not even knowing how to interact with people anymore.