I am a complete failure that can't function like a proper adult. I think I have 3 options. 

1 I can live my life as a failure and be disrespected by society and my family.

2 I can game end myself (in minecraft)

Or 3 I can cut ties with my family and try to survive but they are the main reason I don't game end myself plus I doubt I could even survive on my own.

I seriously cannot cope with life and I have already been such a burden to my family that I can't even ask for the money to see a therapist. I am frozen and I cannot move forward in. The advice people give me doesn't really help. My family thinks that drinking is my problem but I drink to cope with all of my other failures. There's probably not any meaningful response that can be given to such a vague situation but I just needed to say it. I don't need anyone to tell me to live. I will still be here frozen next year I'm sure waiting on nothing in particular