i don't feel good. i go in public and i post on socials and I talk to people and i pretend I'm okay but I'm not. i have to pretend I'm okay because every time I let it show that I'm hurting, people cut me off and ignore me.


"you can talk to me the next time it gets bad!" they say, not meaning a word. People only want to talk about themselves. I don't blame them, I feel the same, which is why I try so hard to be a good listener.


no one would want to talk to me *at all* if they knew how bad it was. 


no one wants to hear it.


I don't know what to do. I don't want to be alone, but it feels so lonely to keep everything inside.