so i met a really nice guy who was sweet to me and i’ve never been treated that way irl. it was over a game and we got closer and started dating he asked how i look but i could not send a picture of myself. i HAD to catfish him because i know if i showed my face he wouldn’t love me i’m not even that ugly i just have horrible body dysmorphia and my self worth is based on my appearance all i care about is being attractive i just wanna be loved without feeling like i don’t deserve it or like i just want it to feel genuine it’s hard to explain i really can’t deal w this anymore i wanna fucking kill myself. i didnt wanna catfish him but i couldn’t help it like i had to. i’ve literally never felt so loved before and if he founds out how i really look i’ll feel disgusted of myself. i wanna die. i tried to take pictures of myself to like look attractive so i don’t catfish him but it didn’t work. im literally a stick figure.. i’m underweight and it’s ugly on me my face isn’t attractive so i cant show him that. i feel so horrible. i just wanted to date him and i wanted him to know how i really looked so it feels like a real relationship but i fucked up