I can't tell if it's the medication, some kinda cold or stress formulating in self sabatoging behaviour. DAMNNNNN these headaches tho. I'm not a doctor. I'm not sure what the difference is between a migraine &amp; headache but these things suck &amp; are consistently ruining my days. 
I want to be productive. I want to get back to work. I want to be successful. I'm not sure about socialable but I'd like to attempt some kinda healthy relationships. I want to be a responsible adult. I want an organized routine. I want to have fun &amp; enjoy life.  
I know that seems like a lot of wants but honestly these are things I see others with &amp; they seem to make life more manageable. If I had them they might help me too right? I dunno it's worth a shot. 
How am I to work on any of these things with my head pounding though? It's hard to focus on anything even on a good day. Those two poor lil brain cells of mine. How am I expected to focus with all this throbbing? Ughhh the thoughts. 
All I want to do is curl up in a ball in bed &amp; sleep the time away. The negativity. The pain. The hopes &amp; dreams. The failures that will never be accomplished. Why must I exist? To be so insecure &amp; hurt for no other reason than because I just am. To make others look good? I don't get it. Maybe I never will. I continue to try I guess... Nonetheless 🤷‍♀️ good times, bad times... Welcome to life I cant say I'm happy to be here but hopefully that will change soon
-xo