And it still isn’t anywhere near as beautiful as you. As this community. I’m almost 28 and was diagnosed with BPD almost a year ago. 

Since I can remember I’ve been the most volatile, toxic and horrible person in the world. I’ve been sent to rehab. I’ve been hospitalised countless times. I’ve lost everything, fiancé, best friends and family because they thought I was on drugs. I’ve always put myself down.. I’ve always been so harsh on myself I wouldn’t begin to be able to tell you.

Then I was diagnosed. I hadn’t heard of this before. After I was allowed to leave I looked it up. And it all came crashing down. My anger and hate. My resentment and loathing.. and I forgave myself. I forgave myself for almost everything. I hold no grudges. No anger. But have stepped away from my past life.  I can forgive, but I will not forget what happened.

Today I discovered this sub. I discovered you. It was like cutting the spine off a book I had never read and seeing the world for the first time, it being splayed all over the floor. Jesus.. I’m not alone.. And neither are you ❤️ 