Basically my FP was my ex boyfriend the whole bpd thing and me going spiral and he feeling helpless and thinking he was triggering me 24/7 was freaking him out but he felt like he couldn’t live me, so eventually he started to her bitter and resentful and telling others he had to go to therapy because of me. 

I am obsessed with him and I know I fucked up badly with him but not intentionally it’s just that I have no family and am very lonely, depended on him economically and emotionally, but now I’m okay being by my own. 

I’m in tears and it hurts like hell because I know I won’t walk back, he won’t reach to me, this is it. This is me letting him go for everybody’s sake. I’m slowly starting a new way in my life and will use all my skills to cope with my illness and concert it to good things.