The student art exhibit is opening this month and the advertisement featured a drawing of a woman on a chess board with water dripping from her hands under an orange sky. My friend is still trying to sell me on therapy and day treatment. I did the program in 2019 up until the Fall when I went to China to see relatives, then started aftercare when I got back. But then I relapsed and got kicked out but for some reason that episode felt a bit magical instead of stressful and I thought the game I played on the bus had meaning, the videos I saw had meaning, and shows like snl and pictures on tumblr all had meaning. That feeling is gone now though I still have some mild psychosis. I spent $150 on clothes today and day treatment would be a good time to wear it. My friend leaving and my family moving to a new house are two big things happening this year. I want to make progress on my recovery and lead a better life. Pretty much the past 6 months, all I’ve been doing is help my mom clean her boss’s house, run errands, pick things out for the house, take naps, buy food, go jogging, etc. It’s not bad but maybe therapy can open up a new door for me or maybe it will not. I’ll think about it… but my psychiatrist didn’t want to write me a referral when I asked him about therapy. I like learning but I already graduated college and see no point in taking more classes with no intent to find a job. I’d like to wear something nice and do something social.