things have been rough recently but I didn't expect them to just ignore me or be so disinterested in reaching out. 

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having a hard time dealing with the fact that he hasn't inquired about me recently. we live together and the last time he asked me about anything to do with my life over a week ago.

I left for a trip this morning for a few days. It's nice to have a break from the usual dynamic.

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But I am irrationally terrified that if I don't text him, he won't text me at all. My heart is already breaking thinking about not waking up to a text from him tomorrow morning. but I'm not gonna text first! It just makes me feel worse.

I didn't use to be so bad. Had a good spell for a couple months, he even told me so. But the stress of my life changes recently has caused a relapse into bad behavior of basically crying to him/ getting mad about our relationship being lame.