Everyday i feel like a nuisance to everbody.. Waking up kills me because i really don't have energy anymore... The things that made me happy before don't do it anymore. I have no social life at all, no things to look forward too. i just wake up, go to work, get home and try to socialize and make friends. Whenever i try to meet new people i always feel like i have to put a social "profile" on my face just to feel like im inside the group when in reality i'm not.. The next day they have forgotten me.. People alway say " you gotta love yourself first" Well how should i love myself when i'm not interesting to talk to at all... Thats why i feel i'm a nuisance to other people. i just don't want to bother people.. it also helps when a friend they know join and i just stand there staring.. Yeah i fucking hate myself. It's not just the social anymore too. i just can't find the beauty in life anymore. i feel like a fucking slave just to wake up and move forward. "It will get better over time" How will it do that when everyday is the goddamn same?

Tbh i don't even know what to do with this thing called "life". i just want to sleep.