This is random, but this thought just came to me. When we are faced with the pressure to "change our behavior" habits, or belief patterns, we are quick to make a 360 degree change because we lack identity so it is easy for us to make the change or be overconfident in our ability to make the change. But what we are actually changing is the mask / character we play and the deep flaws of BPD are still present. 

That is so scary because I tend to do this and REALLY believe it, but the responses I get from my reality doesn't match up with what I think I am putting out there so it just feels like I can't trust myself anymore.