I love my mom more than anything but she definitely has struggles such as anxiety and depression that stem from her childhood traumas, As i’m growing up i started to view my parents as real people with problems just like anyone else and that was kind of hard for me to accept. Growing up as a child just as i’m sure others do i looked at my parents as invincible seeing them upset/sad or depressed absolutely kills me and i have insane anxiety attacks over it. my parents don’t necessarily speak about there feelings ever and i feel like i can tell EXACTLY what they are feeling just by the glance of an eye or a change in there tone and i just spent hours having anxiety over it i just want them to be okay. It’s like when i was younger and struggled from depression my parents were supposed to save me and i feel like i constantly have to save them even though they don’t need saving. I wish i didn’t carry others feelings on my shoulder i feel like i need to take care of everyone all the time but instead of talking to them i just stress out about the fact that they’re sad in my head and dont say anything out loud. I feel like the reason i hide my feelings is because i don’t want to ever make others feel bad or upset others if they actually knew how sad i was. i just wish i could stop feeling this way.