hi, i’ve had some anxiety attacks before due to some old bad memories but besides that i’ve never rly had other problems.

now that i’ve moved into college i’m suddenly filled with dread and now i’m thinking anxiety is just overtaking me. every second of the day i’m thinking about how i have to go out and be social, how the communal bathrooms are so uncomfortable, even trivial things like exhibiting bodily functions scare me. i’m also thinking about changing majors and like idk it scares me bc my future is just not certain anymore and that’s so so scary

i start class monday but every time i think about how i have to walk over, my stomach turns and i lie in bed in pain thinking im absolutely pathetic for having a weak body :// i fight to get up and i end up feeling fine after walking for a bit, but that initial moment is scary because i feel like i’m going to puke in public

it’s been a week and i still cannot get adjusted… i think i’ve also been down with stomach flu or something so I threw up the first few days and I’m continuing to feel queasy. 

it also doesn’t help that i’m not very social but everyone around me is just so energetic and i feel my energy just getting sapped. i’m so done and college hasn’t even started wtf

sorry this is all over the place idk what to do. is there anything i can do to just. calm myself down or something. i’ve been feeling suffocated and i couldn’t breathe well a bit ago and i feel so pathetic but i have to get over this ://