been majorly depressed my entire life and nothing has ever satisfied me no matter what i have or succeed i am miserable and stuck in my negative perceptions. i had derealization for 6 years caused by the extreme depression. not only is my mental completely fuckd beyond repair but im about to be back living on the street because i can’t pay for rent. i have no friends no family. the only person that has brought me happiness recently cut me off with no reasoning. i was very isolated as a child and am very socially awkward, its hard for me to even walk into a public building without shaking and embarrassing myself. feel like there is no coming back from this, i have lost my mind and officially given up.