Every single relationship I’ve been in has been a rebound. All of my relationships have started within a month of the last. I can’t imagine myself not in a relationship anymore. I know it’s bad for me, but I don’t know how to stop. They never end well and are always short and intense. My last relationship was the most intense I’ve ever been in. We said I love you in the first month of dating and were head over heels for each other, but ended so badly after 4 months. It ended because I had a drinking problem and let my emotions get the better of me. I used to drink on the daily which lead to me subconsciously sabotaging our relationship. I would call him very drunk screaming and crying and threatening to kms. I’ve made him drop everything he was doing just to make sure I wasn’t going to hurt myself. Towards the end of the relationship I told him I thought we needed a break from our relationship, but when he agreed and said we should break up, I immediately felt abandoned and tried everything to take him back. Even though I was the one to bring up the break up. Not even a week later I met the person I’m seeing mow. We’ve only been seeing each other 3 weeks now. We just spent 4 nights together and it’s been very intense. He treats me better than any person ever has and just like a girlfriend, but he told me he wasn’t quite ready for a relationship yet. As soon as he told me, I felt incredibly abandoned. 

How do I stop the cycle? I know this relationship will just be another short lived relationship.