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**Background**    \- I am a 26yo male that lives in Europe (Not UK). When I finished  High   School I didn't really have an idea of what I wanted to do with  my  life,  so I tried to get into Med School like every smart kid does  these  days.  Luckily I got in and even if I wasn't really sure about  it, I  took it  as a "sign" that I was meant to be a doctor. Not the  greatest  reason to  get into Med School but nothing I can do to change  it now, I  guess.

**Problem**    \- I am two months away from graduation and I don't want to this    anymore. I'm tired and I'm spent. Medicine is simply not for me. I even    like the subjects I study (most of the times) but I just can't bring    myself to work in it. I have an anxiety disorder from before I started    Med School, mostly well managed, and now it has come back in full  force.   Why? Well, there's multiple reasons.

For    once, the Med School I go to is completely shit. In 6 years I did    rotations in the hospital for a number of days that I don't remember but    it's definitely less than 50. You heard that right. And that's not    because I am lazy or I didn't want to go and found ways to avoid it    (altough, I kinda didn't want to go but forced myself to anyway), but    because it's just that bad. Of course, CoVID didn't help things in this    regards but even without CoVID things were not any better. A  ridicoulus   amount of information is shoved down your throat but it's  useless,   because you don't need to know actual useful clinical  information to get   good grades but the Professor personal pet peeve.  For example, in   Psychiatry the Professor is specialized in  Schizophrenia and that's all   he did, down to molecular basis that may  or may not be true because  it's  all still being researched. Nothing  about ANYTHING else. The  result of  this is a feeling that I will  graduate Med School without  knowing jack  shit. This, with my anxiety  that constantly tells me "what  if you  misdiagnose"... You get where  this is going.

Second,   the  feeling that I'm not nearly finished, there Residency ecc. Which I    knew before going into Med School of course, but I didn't know how  soul   crushing the whole process is. Friends that are in residency work a   lot  (altough not the crazy shifts 36hrs americans do, like goddamn how   can  you guys even live), have no free time, shit pay and don't get   teached  anything still because they are seen as cheap workforce and not   what  they really are, students.

For    last, I feel all my anxiety, while still there before I started Med    School, is getting worse and worse BECAUSE of Med School and Medicine.    I'm spent, I just want a quiet life somewhere, doing some mindless job    in which a fuckup will not kill somebody and my anxiety is at bay and    just enjoy life. I'm just not suited to this whole being a doctor  stuff,   I don't have the will to commit further.

But   now the question, what will I do? Thankfully I don't have any student   debt and the like, but I really don't know what to do. How can I tell  my  family, friends ecc. "uhm, you know that thing where I will become a   doctor...? Yeah, kinda don't wanna do that anymore...". Or what   job/career to pursue... I feel stuck in these loop of anxiety I feel I'm drowning.