I don't know what to do. I(56F) have been in limbo for 5+ years waiting to die. I can't work due to multiple mental diagnoses including bipolar, anxiety PTSD etc.  SSD keeps denying me. 

I recently realized that I've done everything I was put here to do. I don't have any friends (by choice). I don't want a social life. I lack the drive for human interaction cuz I've had enough disappointment.  I've tried to end my life over the years, but haven't found a successful way. Why tf do I have to be here. If I was an animal I could be legally euthanized. Why can't doctors show the same compassion that vets can show animals.