I dont really know where to start but I have experienced bad trauma as a child that has and will impact the rest of my life. I am only in high school but have been struggling for a while now. I may have social anxiety disorder which makes me feel uncomfortable when lots of people are around and I feel like people are always talking about me and looking at me in a bad way. The amount of work we are getting is starting to impact my whole day and I feel so overwhelmed and starting to give up. My grades feel like they are starting to drop and I don't feel myself that much anymore. Im too scared of asking for help as I think my parents might treat me different or think I am lying. I have thought about suicide but never wanted to actually do it. I think I need help but don't know where to start. Sorry this Is just a big rant.