I know you're not suppose to define yourself with a diagnosis. But after answering over 567 questions and neuropsych evaluations, I'm strangely comforted by the fact that there is a reason for all of my behaviors. 

Changing and learning to live with my hourly 5 minute roller coaster of emotions is daunting because they have been all I've had since I was a teenager. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm scared and feel like I'm now living for my BPD. 