Trigger warning: This topic discusses suicide.

At first, it's okay to say you're having these thoughts. It's brave. And people will not generally ghost or slow fade you if you come clean with these thoughts...ONCE. 

However, I have an acquaintance I met in a chronic pain subreddit who exchanged numbers with me and has, no lie, expressed suicidal ideation two dozen times in the last year. She has said it 3 times just this month. And I really fucking resent it. 

I am somebody dealing with depression, PTSD, addiction, and chronic pain myself. I deal with suicidal thoughts too, but when people ask how I'm doing, if I'm not well I simply dodge the question. I will not burden them over and over.

I am in no position to be somebody's therapist as I'm dealing with the same condition she is. I've spent countless hours offering ideas and she disregards all of it. She's petrified of getting worse, as am I. But I am risking it and putting my body through torture via multiple surgeries (4 this year) 

In that case, all she's doing is dumping on me, and here I am afraid to ghost her or say goodbye because what if that's the tipping point that sends her over the edge? I've never even met this person but can't bring myself to do it. But truth be told I do not want to talk to her anymore.