I had an argument last night with my parents. They don’t understand how I feel and won’t even try. I am 1/3 sisters. One is older the other is younger. From a very young age they both bullied me about my weight calling me fat that even know that word feels the same as being told hello. I have really struggled. My eldest sister has hit me a lot and my younger sister too. Even too this day , right now I’m trying to move on and forget but my sister called me a spastic yesterday and I just feel it all come back. My parents don’t understand that if something is still happening how can I move on from it. They continue to try and justify by what is going on by bringing up stuff I have done in the past that I don’t do anymore. I have apologised for any wrongs I have done. But how can they compare my bullying to making mistakes? They say things like go take your medication. Trying to brush of how I feel as my disorder acting up. Tonight I have had enough. I really contemplated suicide. I just don’t want to live like this anymore , I can’t. I just can’t. Life is insufferable. I just feel empty and I am looking for something to fill up my whole. I even thought about getting pregnant? So then I have someone who loves me and wants me. I’m 18. What is wrong with me. Suicide seems like a big decision. But I really feel like I can’t do it anymore. I just want someone to care. I just need to get away from here.