For months now I've been living in constant anxiety and fear for irrational things, and meds don't seem to be helping at all.

I wake up with my stomach hurting so much because of anxiety and go to sleep the same way, I can't listen to music because i think bad things will happen, I even sleep a certain way because other ways are too anxiety inducing. I used to be a lot into spirituality, it brought me joy and certain "calmness" now all it does is bring me fear. I can't think normally because I try to prevent myself from thinking "bad things" (which does not work at all, but I can't stop doing it). 

I have weird things that I have to do or my anxiety gets worse, it's like this got progressively worse. I just want to be at peace with my mind.