It's hard to explain it, when you're alone your whole life, there's this feeling of loneliness in the beginning, it sort of drags on and it's difficult to start with. As time goes on it feels normal and being around people becomes the stranger. Then more years pass by and suddenly everything is on mute. Early mornings watching the sun come up and suddenly there's no sound in your mind anymore or no dragging in your heart. Anything you experienced before is on the other side of the glass and its too fogged up to see through it now, so it's just a blur of what it used to be like. It's as if a switch inside me flipped off and I don't remember what it was like when it was on.