I got diagnosed with anxiety a little over a few weeks ago. I've become distant with friends and family except for the ones who I see almost every day. I don't know what to think of it, it gives me an answer to everything I guess, but I never thought it was anxiety.

Anyway.

At around the start of December of last year I had a really bad panic attack. I was doing black belt testing and over worked myself so much, and didn't eat because of stress,  that I had a panic attack. I couldn't breathe, had tunnel vision, almost fainted, etc. We thought it was an asthma attack. (I haven't been disagnosed with asthma, but one of my parents has it and I've shown a bit of symptoms. Not too many though.) But after a week of researching me and my family decides it was a panic attack induced by exercise.  

After I got diagnosed I've been looking at things in my past and realizing all of the things that anxiety has probably caused. I have had a few mild attacks since diagnosis, mostly about things I've done and could've been better, ir just about me in general. They are all in the shower, because I know nobody can hear me and I just start breaking down and crying. I don't like talking to my parents about it. It makes me feel like a failure. I do stress a lot a lot about things, every mistake turns into me beating myself up. Would it help to talk to somebody? A therapist or counselor?  

This post was a Rollercoaster of things so if you made it this far I applaud you. Thank you for listening to my little rant on panic attacks.