I really want to join a gym.  I know I will feel self conscious which will make me act weird.  Aside from a total cure in my self esteem and BPD, is there a way I can fake it until I make it?  I really miss being athletic, depression has taken its toll on my body and mind.  I feel like working out can be therapeutic.  There are so many gyms in my city, I just have to pick the one I want and go.  I don't know what holds me back!  I want to be like everyone else....I'm reading yelp reviews of the gyms and everyone seems so normal.  I think about going to a fitness class and wanting to stand in the back and hide...and not even go at all and cancel my membership.  I would love it and have fun if I could rid myself of self consciousness and crippling sensitivity.  