To mom: You are the most disgusting, rotten hearted individual that has ever been my displeasure to know. How can a parent treat their child in the way you do? Do you really hate me that much? It seems you do. Every single day i wake up i have to deal with your constant emotional abuse towards me. Im forced to bite my tongue to not aggravate the situation. I’m forced to keep it bottled up and hide my true feelings about you as an individual. Thats not fair. A child should not be afraid to speak their true feelings. That’s unfair. 

Whats also unfair is always being your outlet to vent your frustration and anger over….existing? Its not my fault you had a shitty life. And its not my fault you’re a miserable piece of shit. You need help. Medication. Something. I cannot keep living this way any longer. You make me want to fucking kill myself. Will that solve the issue? Would i be less of a burden to you if i was gone? Nobody takes me seriously. They treat me like im a fucking moron. I do not deserve to be disrespected in this way. Much less from my OWN PARENT. 

You try to berate me and make me feel bad about myself on a daily basis. Then complain that i wont spend time with you? You try to make me feel guilty by bringing up school shit as if any of that matters or that it justifies the way you treat me? Actually…FUCK YOU. 

You always have something to say and I know you always want me to hear it, but why do you feel you deserve to be heard? Im genuinely curious. Why do you think anything you say actually matters? I dont owe you any favors after the way you constantly treat me. 

I helped you buy that fucking dog, and you abuse the shit out of it. You scream at her just as bad if not worse than you do to me, if you can actually believe any of that. I helped you BUY this dog. I don’t know why. Honestly, i never even wanted another dog. All you do is bitch and whine and moan about having to take care of it. It makes me wish I never wouldve helped you buy the fucker. 

No. Nothing that either of us do ever seems to make you happy. Any moment could be my last. You never know what happens. Anything can change in an instant. What if i die in a car crash one day on my way to work because im so dog tired from not being able to sleep because you bully me constantly? What if i die in a car crash, what will you say then? “I’m sorry”? If i died would you even feel bad about me being gone? With the way you treat me it seems you wouldnt give a fuck. Nobody really seems to give a fuck lately. The reason why dad is the one i respect between you two is because he actually treats me like a human being. 

All you do is complain about stupid shit. I can never do anything right here. I’m sorry I’m such a heavy burden to you. If im that much of a hindrance to you in your day to day life why dont i just quit and live somewhere else? Its clear you must hate me. So with every fiber of my being i can say with no regrets whatsoever, I say this, about everything you’ve done for me and all you’ve put me through my whole life: GET FUCKED