I don't feel like the life I'm living is mine. For context, I'm a 20F form a conservative Hindu background living in the USA. My parents make all the decisions in my life. They choose my future career, my major, which schools I applied to, and eventually they will choose the man I marry. I grew up Canada and though I am religious, I have a different views of life than my parents.

My parents worked hard to get here from India, my dad is an IIT (a major university in India) graduate, and my mom is has rich grandparents from both here sides. After years of applying to different countries, they finally went to Canada. And because of that, they always want the best for me and my sibling.

This often means they want us to have the best appliances, the best grades, the best future, and so on. They always wanted me to become a doctor, and even when I was a child they refused to entertain any other careers. I grew up loving biology, especially molecular bio, and so I thought maybe becoming a doctor wasn't a bad idea. I mean I couldn't really picture myself doing anything else. Now after 2 years of college, I realized I don't know if I want to go to med school.

This just lead to me failing a lot of my classes and getting a diagnoses for severe depressive disorder. On one had I don't want to tell my parents this because I'm afraid of getting disowned and/or married off, but on the other hand I'm scared that my future is going to be full of regrets.

So, AITA for thinking of myself more than what my family's expectations are for me?