So my fp knows that i have terrible trust issues (because of the bpd) and that i absolutely hate being lied to. i always have feelings of him lying but don’t say anything since i’m trying to be better. by the way we don’t see eachother a lot since he likes his space and he’s never boughten me anything and has never gotten me anything for valentine’s day. i’m okay with it bc im not the type of girl that needs gifts and things. i literally just want honesty and he knows that. well he got me some thc vape stuff for me and we were video chatting and he said i’m gonna use it and i told him to PLEASE not use it. and he said ok i won’t it’s disrespectful. later, i asked him if he did because i had a feeling and i have very good intuition. he said yes and i got so upset. i told him he betrayed me and broke my trust because it really felt that way, but he said he had to because he felt really depressed and sad (he has his own things going on). so i understood and told him next time just ask me and i won’t be upset. later that night we video chat again and i had a feeling so i asked him and he wouldn’t say so i hung up and texted him and asked and he said he did. i felt so disrespected and hurt because it seemed like he didn’t care at all about how i felt. i told him it was over and i was pretty calm about it. i love him a lot but i can’t stand being lied to. is breaking up a good idea? i also just feel like i deserved to be punished since i can lash out at him sometimes. am i wrong for being upset about it? 