i’ve talked to plenty of girls in my 18 years but last year i found one that changed me in every way. Unfortunately when i first met her she was dating an abusive person, who would slap, grab and call her names. Eventually they broke up, but she was never able to get over him. I found out they started talking again. 

I was so close to finally showing her what a good boyfriend is like, but alas, i’ve failed. 

some days i cry so hard that i start to shake uncontrollably, and some days i feel nothing, as if you were to look underneath my skin you would see nothing but emptiness and darkness. 

this has gone on for close to a year with no end in sight, no days off. no one seems to care. The only thing people say is “you’ll find someone else” and “you’ll get over it”.