Right now I'm going through a phase where I feel numb and nothing after almost 2 years of feeling suicidal over my ex leaving me. Because I feel nothing not even the mood swings I used to have it feels like I don't have bpd anymore and that I'm fine so I have the urge to quit therapy and my anti depressants. I'm guessing this is probably the wrong route to take but therapy is expensive. What should I do?