I am so terrified that I will turn into someone like Joker, just lose my mind and start hurting people. Tge worst part is it genuinely feels like I need to do that whereas before I'd never even consider that... Except for one time in my childhood, when my grandma annoyed me I wanted her dead, but it always passed after a while. I'm so scared that I am turning into a monster that I do not know what to do