For context, I'm 21 and in my 4th year in college and I've struggled heavily with procrastination throughout my adolescence and even still to this day. I've always tried to choose classes in which I know I don't have to do many assignments nor projects and just banked on being able to do well on exams. It got me this far so I never really thought to try and change it. I realized I needed help after almost dropping out in Fall 2020. I've been on SSRI's for almost a year now and I've been feeling better. I've been doing well in most of my classes this semester, except one; an 8 AM 400 level class with only 4 other students that's almost all research. I showed up for the first month and a half, then one day I overslept and missed the class. I thought to myself "oh its just one class you know what you're doing" because I had just taken the exam and I regret that I ever let myself off of the hook. 

I did well on my exam but I haven't showed up to class in 7 weeks. I've been waking up, going to campus, and started sitting in my car not wanting to do a single thing. I received an email from my professor 4 weeks ago to which he asked if everything was okay. I didn't even respond because I didn't know what to say. I just couldn't force myself to go to this one specific class. Now I'm stuck because I'm trying to do my research and I have questions but I don't know if my professor would judge me harshly or even respond to me. 

I know what I've been doing is wrong. I didn't even give him a "yeah I'm okay but I'm struggling mentally" to just let him know and I really regret it. I'm lost and I don't know what to do and I'd appreciate any advice.