I have struggled with mental health for a long time but at the moment I am (with my wife) facing the worst circumstance possible for us. We are united in it, but words can't quite describe how horrific it all is. Some of those who carry some weight as to why we are in this position are funding us to have counselling but it is yet to start.

My depression makes me collapse into myself when my wife needs me. I struggle to be strong when on the verge of crisis.

As a younger man, I tried to take my own life. Now I am married I vowed to not consider this - it is no longer just "me", it's "us" - so it really isn't on the cards, I have no intention of putting those who love me through it.

Not sure why I am writing other than to get it out there. This is hard, and will get harder before the end.