I had my final assessment yesterday with my psychologist and I’m super nervous today. I’m waiting for her to call me to discuss treatment and go over the assessment. I keep writing things down that I forgot to mention or feel like I should have, because a part of me believes that she’s going to come back and tell me I’m fine or don’t need help and it’s all in my head or I’m making it up. It doesn’t help that my last therapist straight out told me I didn’t need therapy.... I know that I need help and there’s so much I need to work on and connect with literally everything in the borderline criteria... so why am I so scared? Why does a diagnosis mean so much to me? Clearly my fear of abandonment is at all time highs if I’m even worried my therapist will abandon me lol

I didn’t know where to put this in here but needed to kinda just write it out and get it out of my head!