Im 20 years old. I am not diagnosed with BPD. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. For a few months, i've been suspecting that something else was missing and after joining this sub, I feel like I've met a community of people similar to me.

I've been struggling with my mental health since i've graduated high school during the pandemic. Looking back on the past 2 years, i've realized how much I changed and how the people around me have changed as well. I lost a lot of friends due to not communicating with them for years. I feel absolutely guilty for putting everyone through my bullsh*t. My two friends have told me how much they miss the old me, even though that little girl was hiding so much pain behind smiles. I feel like I make people uncomfortable to be around me especially on my bad days. Do you ever feel guilty for the pain you've unintentionally caused people while you were hurting? How do you deal with it?