I’m diagnosed with BPD PTSD ADHD GAD SAD but I was looking at DID and researching the past month and I resonate with a lot if the symptoms. Since elementary school I’ve had these 4 names in my head Theresa older women. Jessica, Ralph a older man, Benjamin I know what they look like and maybe their voice but know thiers other voices named Samuel age 15, Andy age 4 Sadie age 8-9,Andrew 15 and Zachary age 17 and Aisha age 8. I kinda know what Zachary, Sadie,Benjamin and Jessica and samuel look like and maybe Theresa she’s a older women. I hear a lot of voices in my head male female younger older. It kinda sounds like a inner monologue but theirs different tones and pitches and ways if speaking some are critical of me other are supportive and encouraging some sound child like (child like ones don’t usually come out tho) they comment on the things I do and what I say and my behavior and descions and argue. I think their might the main three or four voices that usually speak tho. I also find that I have grey outs and sometimes black outs. I sometimes feel possessed and that I can’t control my body but I don’t know if that’s BPD thing. I also had ‘hieght distortions’ in hs I felt smaller then taller Sometimes I feel child like. But I also don’t think I have enough trauma ; threw ages 3.5-8 I battled a chronic illness eplipsey and have seizures and apparently remembered the hallucinations. I also don’t remember my childhood from age 12 and under. I feel like I don’t have the right trauma or I’m not traumatized enough. I also gaslight myself into thinking I’m faking it and making it all up for attention. How do I stop gaslighting myself?