I met with my psychiatrist today for the first time. I’ve done therapy in the past but I never mentioned my childhood or past trauma. I explained how I’ve been feeling for…what feels like forever lol. He immediately asked me a series of questions and we discussed my past relationships, childhood and etc. He said he wasn’t going to diagnose me with BPD after one session, but he’s “very sure” that I have some personality disorder due to my past. He’s referring me to a therapist that specializes in DBT therapy. He explained to me about my negative thought patterns, self destructive behaviors etc. A part of me feels relieved? I’ve speculated that I have BPD for around a month now and to have that be almost confirmed makes me feel a little bit better, but I also feel like maybe he’s wrong? That I’m just over exaggerating my symptoms and that I don’t need therapy lmao and I even explained those feelings to him and he tried to reassure me by saying “that’s literally borderline thinking” but I don’t know. I feel conflicted.