I have BPD (obviously) and my boyfriend is my FP. He hasn’t been treating me the way I deserve and isn’t being nice to me. Recently he got so drunk he yelled at me for three hours about dating someone before him then got so drunk he peed on the floor and I had to clean it up. I don’t see this relationship lasting any longer but the last time I tried to break up with him I didn’t eat, shower, or sleep and ended up (TW) self harming. How do I end this relationship without spiralling and ending up hurting myself? I know I need to leave but it seems like I emotionally can’t handle to be alone again. Any advice?