I hate my anxiety, what it does to me, my relationsships and my whole life. It hinders me from having a ”normal” life. It hinders me from having friends, going out, having fun, enjoying university (not US). This is supposed to be ”the prime time” of my life and I feel like a worthless failure.

I don’t want to feel this way, I want to have people that want to be with me, to be around other people and not feel uncomfortable, anxious or like they’re judging me and making me doubt everything I say or do.

It creates issues in my relationship with my boyfriend, where I overthink and I interpretate everything.

I want to feel calm in my life, to feel meaning, be happy, feel joy more than a fleeting moment.

I’m scared to loose him, he is seriously everything I have, I have no friends here, the only friends I have live far away and we speak rarely.

I hate to feel this lonely, it’s never been this bad before. When I try to connect with others it either doesn’t go well or it fades out quickly. I feel like I have so much to give but nobody wants to even give me a chance.

It feel like nothing in my life is going my way and I hate it. I don’t know what to do.

I’ve been anxious before in my life but never this bad. I don’t feel like I have controll over anything. I feel so alone and isolated.