Let me just say this now I am not suicidal which is a good note to start off with but not very happy note to begin with. I've been bullied for as long as I can remember I've been left by my best friends to seek out popularity and sex instead of me. I was called so many things and called out for about everything you can think of with no one to talk to I started to believe everything they said. I was convinced I had a birth deficiency that made me less brighter then usual, I believed that I was the most ugly piece of shit I've ever seen. Even my kindergarten teacher apparently abused me emotionally as a child. My dad is abusive and has anger issues towards me especially when I talk to him about me being bullied. And as of right now I'm in grade nine trying to fight off my girlfriends bully's. And its been so hard I just want to ask how do you make it better from here when life gives you the worst it can offer. 