Hi, I am having a mini meltdown of sorts because I randomly got paranoid something bad was going to happen to a loved one and now I can't stop thinking about how it might come "true" if I keep thinking about it. Just to preface, I have bipolar II and have been on medication for 2 years, I also quit drinking 2 years ago and I don't do any recreational drugs, I quit smoking, and I eat and sleep regularly. Things are going fine in my life, truly nothing to complain about apart from things here and there that I occasionally stress over, but otherwise I have been trying hard to keep it together. Suddenly today I started to feel really bad about something and the anxiety went from there. In my mind I have a huge emphasis on "last words" of people I'm close. I carry a lot of guilt about having 'bad blood' with people and as hard as I've tried to settle things sometimes things do not work out that way and I get paranoid that my last words with someone will be negative. I don't know why I'm so fixated on this and I feel silly even just typing it out. Does anyone else know this feeling?