We met about a month ago online and it felt as though he was perfect. i had just survived my worst suicide attempt and my life had been a nightmare. we started talking and he made me feel so normal and okay. he’s talented, understanding, fun to talk to, very loving and most importantly is extremely understanding when it comes to my mental health.  from the beginning i was okay with his flaws (not physically attractive and clingy) but i was still head over heals talking to him until i started getting really anxious. i got back to my old self and started to feel weird with affection, talks of commitment terrified me and just having to not be alone would make uncomfortable. i talked to him about them and he was understanding but i still feel anxious and agitated. i want that painful solitude i had before him back and now i’m uncontrollably focusing on his cons and i’m nitpicking and completely ignoring all that’s good about him. i am aware that i may be splitting but this has been happening for a week and i’m starting to feel like i hate him. i don’t know what to do and i’m extremely confused . please help.

ps. he’s my first boyfriend ever