There’s a lot of reasons I feel this way but I’m pretty sure BPD is the biggest reason. I couldn’t open myself up to the last guy I was with and so he left me - which is fair, I suppose. But now I feel like I’ll never be able to be loved or love again. It’s like I struggled to connect with him and like the last partner I was with (super toxic person in comparison to him) I was overly attached to. I don’t know that middle ground and I can’t help but want to be with someone and yet can’t bring myself to actually meet people because I don’t want them to suffer being with me