So, my depression got back for a few months now. I’m trying to do everything I know that helps, but this time around it isn’t doing effect. 

I work out everyday, eat healthily, do therapy and I try very hard to change my depressed perspective about everything.

But none of this is changing a thing. I feel like shit everyday. I’m consumed by anxiety for working home office. I can’t focus or summon the will to want things anymore. I’m hopeless, I just can’t see meaning to life anymore. I don’t see the point anymore. All this effort for what? To barely survive? I don’t really feel like taking my life, if I’m here even if suffering I don’t see the reason not to continue till the end, life is an one time thing. I trying one.

So, I wanted to hear different perspectives about medication and what to expect. 

I already tried zoloft and lexapro some years ago and it didn’t help, but at the time I overcame it with therapy

tl;dr rant about trying to fight depression and not succeeding