hello i would appreciate it if yall could be non judgmental for a sec. please i need help.  i got hired for a warehouse/packaging job today while i’ve been having a severe episode of bpd . i have not gotten diagnosed however i’ve done my research and plan to discuss it with a psychiatrist. but please am not trying to self diagnose however i’m terrified of messing up and it’s an hour away and they’re asking me to come in at 7am but i feel horrible because my family needs money but i literally cannot process information at all, i’m overwhelmed , hating myself . also have a job interview at a grocery store tomorrow also but that’s also an hour away i don’t drive only bus and i’m freaking out rn i don’t want this to get in the way of a new opportunity however it’s eating me alive right now I don’t know . and plus the job is hard labor so i don’t if that would help right now . i feel like a failure . i would really appreciate if anyone could assist me and give me some advice.