even though i’m happy, i feel like i’m always one inconvenience away from everything good in my life going downhill. i can’t handle the thought of losing anyone or anything i have currently going on for myself. it makes me horribly anxious just thinking about it, i start to freak out and my stomach hurts super bad. i have no idea how to prepare for my next episode because if something happens, i’ll spiral and never ever be able to get back out of it