I try my best to be a good person and help people. I talk to friends going through the pit of depression. I send letters to cheer people up. I buy presents for friends just so they smile. So why do I never feel this reciprocated? Am I just a selfish cow for wanting this back? 

I wish people could see what I'm going through and show me that they care without my awkward attempts to tell them.

Might just commit and not have to feel the pain anymore. 