giving myself until 7/10/22 for things to look up and i swear to fucking god i will shoot my head off with my step fathers' gun if i get even worse which i most definitely will. apparently i can't even do a basic hostess job right because that's how much of a fucking failure i am. no one gives a fuck about me and to those like my family and therapist it will be a huge burden lifted for me to go. i can't fucking sleep, i can't eat, i can't do basic stuff like shower and brush my god damn teeth. i am m looking forward to july