My Mom? Cheated on my Dad and fucked over our family as a result. Showed symptoms of meth addiction and her personality was warped so much that she's nearly unrecognizable from the empathetic person she once was.

My Dad? He was forced to work extra because of my Mom leaving. Putting a lot of stress on him as a result. Now, it's pure anxiety whenever I'm around him since I'm trying to watch every little thing I do to not upset him. He makes me feel guilty all the time with every little thing he says. Belittling my feelings and criticizing my actions even though I already told him I'm dealing with depression.

My sister? She tries to start or escalate whatever argument that doesn't even need to be brought up. Being unhelpful, lazy and entitled. She even fucking says that she could do better when dealing with depression. 

I feel like I love no one. Only saying "I love you" to avoid any arguments that would make my life harder than it has to be. To fufill their fucked up version of "family." When I told the people that I loved that I'm struggling, what did they do!? They showed no fucking empathy. Belittling me. Acting like they could do better. 

FUCK THEM! I wanted help and this is how they treat me!? I can't deal with this shit! I'll fucking kill myself out of spite just purely for them. Then they'll fucking acted like they cared when they're at my funeral and act like fucking hypocrites. 

I WANT TO DIE.