hey guys, usually just a spectator on here but i don’t know who else to talk to today. i went to graduate school last year and since then everything has gone so downhill for me.. my girlfriend wanted to come but she had an opportunity to go to med school so i screwed things up with her so she could make the decision without thinking about me and now she’s going to med school somewhere else and needs time and space and i can’t let go and i can’t stop the thoughts in my head. i don’t know why i can’t deal with anything rationally. i’m thinking about just dropping out of grad school and moving home and i don’t know if that’s rational or if i’m going crazy but i feel like my life is so out of control. 