I was diagnosed with BPD late last year and the psychiatrist asked so many questions about previous relationships and it honestly shocked me. I had no idea how bad it was. I feel so sad sometimes because my younger sister has been in long term relationships and is currently in a really positive and healthy one and so is my younger brother. He’s been dating the same girl for 3+ years and I’ve never dated someone for more than a year. I constantly feel like I’m not good enough and maybe I’ll just never be happy and it breaks my heart. 
I thought researching more information on being in relationships when you have BPD would be helpful but honestly it had so many negative articles and it just discouraged me. 
I just feel like I want love so badly and I want to get married and have a family one day and I’m so scared I’ll mess up any future relationships and never be happy and it makes me so sad.