I just don't like anything about myself or my life. It's not the worst, but there's nothing about it that makes me happy or that makes me feel like it's worthwhile to live. I just want to stop existing. I just dont want fo be here anymore.

I'm especially mad at my parents for having me. I know it's not their fault the way my life turned out, but it's their fault I'm alive in the first place and I just can't help but feel anger at them.