Long  story short, I've always been really awkward and socially anxious, I've  also have a really hard time understanding things. Like it's truly hard  for me to write down on here but after being high from edibles, things  just started to 'click'. 

I came to the conclusion that I may be autistic or have a mental  issue. Some symptoms of what I have, I tend to imagine things and laugh.  I've been doing this for a while now, probably since childhood. People  always asked me what I'm 'thinking' and i never really understood what  they meant by this until now.  Same things with their 'looks'. I also remember a teacher from high  school will always ask me if I was 'alright' and again, I wasn't aware  what they were referring to.

As you may guess, I had trouble having and keeping friends. I would  lie just to seem like an interesting person. I was super depressed  (still am) wondering why I'm not 'normal'. I have a job now, and I  realized that they treat me different and have realized that they think I  may have a mental issue. 

This trip was truly an eye opener experience and idk, I want to talk  to someone about it. I want to talk with my parents about it. I have a  feeling they've known about it all along but they just probably assumed I  knew about it or would 'get over it'. I'm just upset right now that it  took me this long (I'm 26, soon be 27) to realize my issue.