Ok so my boyfriend and I are both recreational drug users but like I just mainly smoke weed and the occasional psychedelic. Last year we tried ketamine together for the first time and both agreed it was the best drug ever. Did it another time after that together. This year I said I didn't want to do ketamine anymore and he said he had ordered some but the order got canceled. Then I came over to his house a week later and I could tell he was high plus his pupils were really dilated. I confronted him and he admitted to it. I said its ok but I don't want him to do it alone. So we did some together later that week. But after I made him promise that we won't do it for a long long time and he agreed. Then the next week I caught him doing it again. Should I be worried? I think I'm going to make him take a drug test today bc im really scared. I can't deal with addicts not bc I don't have empathy but bc it is extremely triggering since my mom is a drug addict/alcoholic. He's my fp and I feel like I can't live without him. We want to get married and have kids so I'm really scared that he is jeopardizing our future together. Whenever I have brought up concerns he says well you smoke weed everyday, but we all know that different drugs have different properties and that you can't get physically addicted to weed but you can get addicted to ketamine so I feel like they aren't comparable. Anyone have any advice please im desperate