Am I nice or horrible?

All I want to do is to love and look after him..
but loving too much hurt him.

I never meant to hurt him, I only ever love him.
I never want him to hurt or be upset, but I did just that.

It feels unfair. I only want to show that I love him and it came out in all the wrong ways.

I'm nice for loving, right? But I'm horrible because my amount of love hurt him, I was too much for him.

I don't even make sense to myself. In the end I'm just a horrible person.