I can't talk to anyone about this because I feel like no one will understand. No one will care. 

I'm a single mom, I work full time and I have a boyfriend. I workout and I journal and I try to paint. I try to keep in touch with friends and my community and I'm not close to my family.

I feel like like I'm failing everyone around me. I'm a burden and I am not wanted.

I went to pick up my kids the other day and my son looked and me and hung his down ... like he hated that I was there. He hates me. 

My daughter is sweet but I know she gets disappointed by me too. She thinks I'm going to stay another family and she thinks I don't love her. 

I feel like as hard as I work and as much as I do, I am failing them. I feel like a bad mother for leaving thier dad and breaking out family apart. I have failed them.

Then my boyfriend, I just don't feel like im good enough, and I know he's still in love with his ex. He will never see me like he saw and loved her. And with these insecurities I make our relationship worse. 

I make everything worse.

Everyone would be happier without me. I am not wanted. I hate myself.