So let me start with the thing that happened earlier that started this whole thing. 

My two closest friends (I’ll just nickname A and B) are also dating and today was their 6 year anniversary. I happened to be hanging out with them and they were describing the presents they got each other. A started sending me pictures of things that I had assumed was what she got B, but it turns out that was for Valentine’s Day and I accidentally spoiled one of the three things she got him.

Mortifying, to say the least. But this is also my best friend, the person that knows everything about me and I trust with my whole life so basically this immediately hit me and made me completely spiral (not her fault obviously I felt super guilty) and I apologized to her publicly and privately. She told me it’s ok and she wasn’t mad and although I struggle to believe most people, she is the person who I trust to tell me how they actually feel because she is incredibly blunt. We ended up hanging out for hours afterwards and she even sent me a game privately she thought I would like so I know she’s not mad, because as I said if she was mad she would of left, taken time to cool off and talked to me later (she’s extremely intelligent and can problem solve really effectively).

So I haven’t brought it up again, because I know this is me irrationally holding onto something she isn’t mad at, maybe just disappointed. My emotional side is screaming that she’s secretly pissed and will now be blocking me and never speaking to me again, even though logically I know that is not true. I guess I just don’t know how to let go of this and if anyone has any ideas how to do so without bothering her (since, again, this is entirely on my emotional state. She told me she wasn’t mad and I know she isn’t, so idk what talking to her would do) please let me know