a few months ago i was in a terrible place. i was in and out of hospitals weekly, had a breakup that caused me to lose all of my friends (including ones that i considered my best friends) and had outbursts of uncontrollable anger at my mother due to an untreated mental illness. i’m medicated and currently looking for a job, but there’s so much shit that i’ve left behind that can never be fixed. it will never go away i will never be able to get the memories out of my mind. i just want to leave. i want to go away and never have to deal with anything ever again.