I hate how powerful BPD is. My emotions are so strong that they can disable me physically and it’s just this constant feeling of being trapped in my body and feeling so helpless while I am just beaten down by my world continuously. This sort of thing f*cks with my head. 
I just need some peace, love and security. I feel so alone and sad. Thinking about my freedom and if it even exists. At this point it seems too good to be true and I’m just gonna be miserable. Can you guys tell me some kind words and tell me I’m important anything that makes me like not want to kill my self. Thank u.