I have not been enjoying my first year at college so far. I’m so exhausted and apathetic and depressed. I feel super lonely but at the same time, I want to be alone all the time. Anymore, on the rare times that someone tries to make plans with me, I push them away by making an excuse or just ghosting them.

I just want to go back. Back to a few years ago when life just seemed so much simpler. I was struggling with anxiety and mental health problems then too, but at least back then I was back home with my family, the people at school who I miss so much and my hobbies. Now I’m stuck in a tiny dorm room with a roommate I can’t stand and constantly fighting to just get myself out of bed in the mornings. I’m just so tired.