Just here to vent. In need of kind words/thoughts/suggestions

I hate everything right now. My life sucks. I hate my family. They ask for too much. I give too much. Nothing is ever reciprocated. Not surprised I have bpd &amp; very convinced it stems from treatment from my family. I want to die but I have someone to live for. Someone please just talk to me help me sort my feelings...idc if you ask questions 