I wish there was somewhere I could go to help my mental state nothing makes me happy and I’m getting more numb by the days I’m afraid if this continues that I won’t be here much longer it’s a constant uphill fight that I’m just not winning. I’ve tried traveling, working out, pursuing my career further. Nothing is working I’m desperately trying to find my footing. As I keep living I keep finding less and less reasons to want to stay here. I know it’s a selfish way of thinking… it just hurts a lot.