Hello I’m a 15 year old male and I don’t really know what’s wrong with me. I just can’t feel anything for my life or me in general anymore. It’s just a struggle to feel things anymore I talked to my counselor and took the depression test and I’m apparently moderately depressed but i don’t wanna believe that. I just go day to day not really caring about myself. My rooms in a mess constantly I only eat like one time a day and for some reason even though I’m not ok myself I only worry about how others feel or think. Things that used to make me happy just feel empty and the only thing I really feel other than this emptiness is either a split second of happiness then it quickly fades or anger about little things and i don’t know what to do I’m failing school because my sleep schedule is trashed and I don’t even care about that. What makes it worse is I can’t really talk to anyone about it because I have major trust issues I only opened up to my counselor because I’ve known her for awhile and I don’t tell my parents anything because my dad works a lot and I don’t wanna burden him with this small stuff and i I feel like my mom just completely invalidates my feelings the last I told her about something serious that was bothering me she told me she didn’t care so I don’t tell her about anything about me. Idk guys I’m just confused and wondering am I actually doing bad or I’m just doing this for sympathy even now over the screen I’m holding back alot of things because I don’t wanna come off as needy do I actually need help or do I need to grow a back bone and grow up I’m here on Reddit because whatever you Guys  tell me will be truthful and not because it’s your job please help m