in advanced im sorry if this whole thing doesnt make sense and lacks context i just have a really big urge to vent to at least someone whod take a glance at this, even if they dont finish reading it thankyou :,/

me (f17) gf (f17)


my gf is my fp and has been my fp since before we started dating. we used to be glued to the hip for our whole relationship (like 3 years) straight until recently. I have no idea what i did and it feel awful for it. I dont even know if i did anything but i know something is wrong. I was usally the person she would vent to abt everything but even that has stopped. Shes cold towards me and idek what to do anymorw when we speak. Im having a big feeling shes grown tired of me and doesnt want to be with me anymore but she always reassures me that she still loves me and will never leave me. she does it so much that she gets mad at me when i doubt it (which i understand bc it probably is rlly annoying to her when i deny it when she says she loves me LMAO). Anyways, we would call every single night until we fell asleep and would call during the day to keep eachother company even when we are doing nothing or doing our own thing; but now we havent done that in a few nights already and she doesnt seem interested in calling me at all anymore. whenever we talk its as if im talking to a friend rather than my gf. it feels like im talking to a wall at times too. im 100% certain she isnt cheating on me though which is reassuring but idk, it doesnt feel the same anymore and its starting to irritate me a lot which is making me afraid that i will blow up on her. i dont want to scare her away but i feel like its the only thing i can do. Ive given her space for almost half a month now and nothing has changed. is she taking advantage of this space to let go of me in less invasive “im not feeling this relationship anymore”? or is this just what happens in every relationship and i just have to deal with it for the rest of my life. i tried to ask her what was going on a few nights ago but even then all her answers were very shallow. Losing her would be like losing my lifeline. we fell inlove at a very young age, i really dont know how to live without her. loving her at such a young age,i shaped my whole future around her. I planned my whole future knowing shed be there. idk man, weve had a few breaks in our relationship before so im not new to breaks but they were all mutual, communicated clearly and never lasted more than a month. this is just new territory to me because this is completely opposite to her personality. i am aware that she could just be going thru some things that she just happen to not want to tell me but idk, i feel like a little “im going thru something sorry if i dont act myself” notice would have been nice. im on the verge of a melt down i am just so overwhelmed by this even though its so stupid and dumb. i feel like i dont have the right to be upset either because this probably is just anormal relationship thing and my sensitive ass just cant handle normal people things.. I just feel so dumb feeling like this