There used to always be some 'spark' deep down within that made me want to love and care for someone with my whole soul. Just getting a little attention from an FP would make that spark even brighter.

But now I've noticed it has gone out for good. I don't feel that extreme, selfless desire to care for someone anymore. It turns out the 'spark' was just a symptom of BPD and treating my underlying BPD extinguished the magic.

I'm sort of sad it's gone and happy to not be at the mercy of such extreme feelings anymore.

Not sure if anyone relates to any of this but I just wanted to share that.