Hi I have been suffering from some form of mental illness for sometime and it would be good if some people could shed some light on it.

Basically it all started around 15-16 years of age started developing symptoms of primarily obsessional disorder which is where I would have negative sexual and violent thoughts and phrases continuously pop up in my head like a broken record. These thoughts would only pop up when I was in public and around strangers but not when I was home alone say playing video games.

But fast forward my primary obsessional disorder has pretty much 99% disappeared. I still get other ocd symptoms like checking the stove, locked doors and my alarm clock but these have subsided and are only mild at times.

Now I have kinda of like racing thoughts and I talk to myself in my head a lot. I excessively imagine conversations and I get so caught up in these conversations I get paranoid that I am physically saying what I am saying in my head like a crazy person talking to themselves. This has never actually happened though but I still get anxious and paranoid that I do.

I also experience what is termed maladaptive day dreaming where I fantasize about have a girl friend and a relationship and I could do this for hours on end and this only really happens when I wake up in the morning making it very difficult to get out of bed. I currently take a low dose of seroquel (75mg) which has significantly reduces this though.

I don't know if this is coincidental but my first symptoms started appearing approximately 1-2 years after I started living with my mum full time who is an alcoholic, depressed, hoarder. And I also embarrassingly confess that I have a porn addiction I am struggling with.(IE I watch things that I would have used to find repulsive/un-attractive). That also started after I started living with my mum full time.

I am a full time student at university in my third year and I also find it very hard to concentrate and submit assessments on time.
Sorry if this is too much to read but can anyone offer me some advice, is there anyone else who suffers from the same problems (specifically paragraph 4), am I stuck with this?, how can I reduce the negative symptoms and/or potentially fix this?.

I am going to see another doctor again but any comments and advice would be extremely appreciated.