Why be honest with anyone? They’ll just use me or judge me. Everyone wants something. I’ve feigned loyalty to get ahead. I don’t know if that’s bpd or machivellianism. 

Child emotions adult body hell

Excuse my diction and syntax, I have adhd. If you don’t like it I guess it’s really not my problem. 

Might sue my mom for defrauding $17000 from me. Or I could just kick the bucket and let that be eaten up by funeral costs.