God why am I always so annoying. Sometimes it's on accident, but other times I annoy people on purpose. Especially if they already seem mad at me. I want them to yell at me. I want them to hurt me, either verbally or physically or both.

I feel bad about it. But Im a piece of shit who always makes excuses for myself. I need someone else to correct me, cause apparently I can't take care of myself. I just want people to be mean to me but they won't unless I give them reason to.

Why am I like this?