tl;dr just leave your opinions!! 

it seems like it's always blamed on sexual abuse, parents leaving, etc. i've been sexually abused, but idk, i feel like i developed BPD from the emotional abuse mostly, and from some horrible breakups at a young age.

when i was 12-14 i had a relationship with someone older than me. i won't go into details because personally it's very bad and creepy and i'll leave it at that i guess. i would cry when i saw he was talking to other girls, when he wouldn't text me back it would absolutely break me, he manipulated the fuck out of me, i'd self harm and blow up. i never seemed to have BPD issues before this. 

it was worsened way way way more when i got into a relationship and got cheated on when i was 16. every breakup since then just makes me lose it. i've had drug problems and self harm and the whole 9 yards. i've been diagnosed with BPD about 2 years ago. i'm just curious as to why this developed and i'm pretty sure this is why, at least for me. my parents got divorced and that didn't hurt at all. but the breakups absolutely ruined me, and now when a guy doesn't text back in 10 mins it's just engrained in me to worry.

this is a terrible sickness and i wish i wasn't put through what i was, i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. i'm so tired of wanting to die and i just want to be healthy. and i also want this guy to text me back