i’ve spend the last few months living in a few places where i’m not very close to the people i’m living with, and far away from friends i’d spent the last few years with (i recently graduated from college in new york and then moved to boston). im planning on moving back to new york soon, but i just dont know if i’ll run into the same problems wherever i go. 

i’ve never had huge ambitions in life, and have always just been satisfied with having people in my life that i’m happy to be around. but since i’ve been in this new city, i haven’t felt very close to people, and oftentimes i feel almost like a ghost. i dont want to be this way, but its so difficult trying to take the first steps to things that might make me happy. i really dont know how to meet new people, and cant help but do the easy thing and just stay home. i feel very rudderless in this moment, and i feel like im on the precipice of changing for the better or finding myself in a situation where i feel this way forever.