I was born and grew up in a country that doesn’t offer citizenships at birth to children of non-citizens, just permanent residences. I left when I was 11 and have lived in 3 other countries since, and am now in my early 20s. I had the opportunity to renew my PR when I was 16 but it was practically impossible since it was all under my parents’ control, who didn’t seem to care at all. 

It might’ve been obvious but I recently realised that it’s impossible to renew that PR this late, and that the country I consider home pretty much treats me as an outsider at this point. I’ll only ever be able to visit my hometown as a tourist, unless I somehow break into the country’s impenetrable job market. 

No clue why I wrote this post since it seems like such a stupid thing to be messed up over but I had to get it out there. I’ve never lived in the (unstable) country of my citizenship and I might have to move there in a year once I’m done with college, so my future has the potential to be pretty dim. Things aren’t looking bright.