I'm 22, but in my mind, for the past months I have made myself believe that I was older, (crazy I know) this was due to the fact that I have an extreme phobia of time, and getting older without experiencing everything I want to experience in life, most importantly a relationship, which I haven't yet and it bothers me a lot, I have tried.

There is not a single day that goes by, that I don't sit and calculate how many months I have left before I turn a certain age, and in that moment I start to become very scared and anxious, it feels like I'm running out of time, and the odds are slowly turning against me, and now that I've had a stable job for the past 6 months, it only became harder, because I feel like I've wasted 6 months very fast, and it certainly feels like less than that.

I'm not perfect by any means, a few years back I was in the worst stage of my life, physically and mentally, but as time passed I tried to get my life in track slowly, so my past has definitely caused this anxiety and depression that still lingers around my life. 

I know that I should be more laid back, confident and worry less, because those are all attractive traits in a man, I try a lot to hide my insecurities in general, but when I'm alone, or with someone I like, they all come strong. 

Should I go to therapy?