Hi all, new to this post, I (30 M) just reaching out for support. 

I have anxiety and paranoia, and probably thanks to covid, depression.

I see a therapist, I try to take stuff to help, CBD usually. But recently, my anxiety is causing huge issues at home, leading to the deterioration of my marriage, and I am just so sad I cant even think straight right now.

My wife of about a year and a half (28 f) together for about 3 and a half, is upset about how my anxiety is affecting her. She is getting tired of it, and no matter how hard I try I cant improve it.  She gave me a set time to resolve my issues by, but I think she already made her decision. I know I'm difficult to deal with sometimes, but i cant flip the switch overnight either. I cant help my mental conditions that I have to live with.

We have a lot of good days, but every time I mess up it becomes "you wanted to stay together not me" which kind of defeats the purpose of us trying to stay together.   Both of us are working from home, caring for a newborn, time is short as is, the whole everyone being around each other all the time is still a new thing only 9 months now. I'm just seeing my life crumble before my eyes, and I will go from a nice house and a nice family and a nice situation to being broke and divorced and alone.  Pandemic or not, now is a difficult time for me to really improve things. I dont have much to work with as we are all trying to be smart about the pandemic.

Just looking for tips on if anyone has improved their situation when their spouse has had trouble dealing with your anxiety.  I wish I wasnt the way i am, but i cant help it, I'm trying to better myself, i love my wife so much the thought of this all falling apart is just making me literally cry right now. So If anyone can provide any tips or anything I would appreciate it.