i feel like my problems are not enough to be depressed, i know people go through a lot worse and this might be stupid for some people but i have non existent self esteem, im ugly and im not exactly good at anything but it’s mostly physical, im so ugly that i feel like i deserve nothing. i truly feel that i don’t deserve love or to be loved in a romantic way because of this. i’ve been talking with a guy on social media but i use filters and edit my face in every pic and im so scared he’s going to stop liking me once he sees me irl (its not extreme but i still edit thwm). i cant love myself, my insecurities make me want to die. why cant i feel happy when all the other aspects of my life are going well? college and work are ok but this is the only thing i need to be happy. i’ve been doing so well these days too. i hope i die tonight. im sorry if this sounds stupid for people with real problems im so sorry