First of all, FUCK YOU IM NOT CHRONICALLY DEPRESSED IM HYPER EMOTIONAL AND PARANOID. DEPRESSION IS JUST A BYPRODUCT OF MY OVERREACTION TO LITTLE THINGS.

But srsly. Ive actually been exercising consistently, 3-5 times a day for an hour at a time and let me say, I feel exactly the fucking same.. I guess i dont hate myself as much and my back issues are getting better but for the most part, being healthy and on a steady diet and good schedule still dont change the fact that i freak out over small things. I have crazed outbursts at people and get overwhelmed so easily. Im still paranoid my boyfriend is cheating on me when rationally i know he’s the sweetest most loyal man ive ever been with. I hate this mentality. Im walking on eggshells in my own life. I never know when im gonna lose control so i just try and do as little as possible. Speak as little as possible. Idk what to do anymore besides carrying on and drifting away. Im ok but ahhhugh i need to scream sometimes.