My therapist told me today that after the last three visits she could see me getting progressively worse. My grades are shit, my own anger and resentment has seeped into my relationships and I hate the person I see in the mirror now.
When does it get better? This is not a hate of my body or face, things I can cover up, this is a deep ugliness that just resides in my psyche. I want nothing more than to be a good person to those I love but it’s like my mouth and thoughts are not my own, and come out without thought.