To sum up i've had permanent anxiety for years now, been going from one topic to an other. Now i've decided to move city and uni and i've been having INTENSE anxiety about it, and it stuck with me until now. It's just i'm feeling so much regret of moving out, and i trapped myself because of my anxiety. It's just i don't  see a point in a life i just end up feeling anxious and bad all the time, i've suffered from years, from the minute i begin to see the light i make a decision than i couldnt and now can't change and ruined my life even more, it's just, i'm exhausted. Weirdly after feeling anxiety for months my brain switches from being numb to feeling even more awful. For now, after a spike in anxiety this afternoon i just feel numb and out. It's exhausting.