Sigh... I dunno. I feel like when you’re anxious you can’t tell if you’re overthinking or your fear has some merit. I’ve been making a lot of posts about me liking this girl and questions like,

* Am I weird for sending a lot of hearts?

* She didn’t reject me but someone said if she ‘takes too long to message’ she ‘definitely isn’t interested’

* What if I am too pervy and say she’s beautiful too much?

* What if I have a flaw like being awkward that turns people off?

Basically I’m sorry about all these questions..... they’re kind of meaningless, right? 
[As Eckhart Tolle said, they’re not happening now but they *might* happen.](https://youtube.com/watch?v=3I5L2otW4r8)

That is a good video I’ve seen many times. A couple things I remembered: 

Well, the fear is usually so powerful you can’t stop thinking about it which makes you more worried, can catastophize more. 

Breathing helps. I think awhile back I tried like 3 deep breaths when anxious, decided it wasn’t doing anything, then forgot?

I remember that it’s important to have evidence for things. I don’t have any evidence I’m necessarily a weird person? Or I’m too perrvy necessarily? (Even tho I’m kinda embarrassed about my horniness) 

I feel bad, I dunno. I smoked some green, had a long day at work, and found myself making this post. Please provide feedback! Also the anxiety video is great.... 

I dunno me worrying about the girl and how she sees me, an attest to good character right? I mean a bad person wouldn’t care right? Why am I making this post? I’m going to try more breathing....

With all the ‘relationship anxiety’ sometimes I wish I didn’t have a sex drive...