For background I'm 17 M and bipolar2 and BPD as well as some other shit not really relevant

The deppression is crushing. It feels like 1000 pound blanket draped over me anytime I'm not immediately distracted. I get horrible headaches, pretty sure they are migraines but not sure. The anxious energy feels like my brain is on fire. So much normal energy it's like I'm crawling out of my skin. At the same time time I'm so mentally exhausted I just want to lay down and sleep. I'm so restless, I'm so tired. I cry, I pace I lay in bed moving my feet because if I'm completely still it actually fucking burns. I'm so irritable I'm probably hell to be around, anything I don't like piss me off behold belief, I cannot control my anger. All my BPD symptoms are heightened which is bad enough on it's on. I wanna just collapse and die.

Too top it off I'm completely out of drugs which are the only relief because nothing is fun