I have the sweetest 11m old son in the entire world!! I would do anything for him. This is the first time I can honestly say I'd die for someone. 

Anyways, recently I've started splitting on him. If he shows more interest in his father or a visitor, I get extremely disheartened. I feel like I'm not worthy of him.

Also, I have huge anger problems BUT I've managed to keep them under control pretty well. But the compulsion to have a fit of rage (non violent) is growing stronger as he grows to be more of a handful. 

Advice/tips/experiences? 

My son is my world. I want to improve any way I can.