Out of a long term relationship start of the year, got cheated on. It distraught me as we had built so much together. Tried to figure it out but she lost her feeling in me.

Started talking to a long time friend even more after my break up.

Slowly caught feelings, after 7 months. spent almost every day together, she got me trying new things. Things was good.

Talking to someone helped me deal with my break up (emotionally didn’t express how I was) I have a disability which made things difficult living on my own and just day to day life. 

Anyway, I play with friends online but found out today, that my friend had sex with a close friend of mine. I know it wasn’t a relationship thing between them just a shag. But he told me over voice chat.

This hit me hard, she doesn’t know my feelings and such nor did the friend. 

I guess it’s my fault, I was too slow? I wasn’t making it clear enough? I just feel a failure and this is destroying my mental health thinking about it.

I just don’t seem to catch a break.

I feel like I’m just going to alone and as it stands trust nobody. 

I honestly can’t take it anymore.

I have the medication to stop feeling the pain and end it all. Things would be easier.