Im just really mad right now that I … like, exist. Idk, it’s just now I have to deal with all of life’s normal stresses and knowing that I’ll eventually die, too. 
So, I could be middle aged now or in 10yrs …. Or die tomorrow because of illness or some accident or some crap…. It’s so upsetting and anxiety inducing. I have to proceed as if I am going to live for a very long time but no one knows and no one knows what quality of life I’ll have, either, when I’m old. 
I’m here because my mom decided to have me without my input or consent because you can’t ask a fetus for consent. If she could have asked and I know what I know now, I would have said no.