Hi. 

My story is very long and I'm frankly tired of anonymously telling it, but I need help so I will try my best to sum it up here.

I have severe OCD and from the time I was 14/15 I've beem isolated from the rest of society because of it. I was homeschooled throughout the majority of high school, didn't have any irl friends or anyone to see outside my home aside from one or two family members (and i am not nor have ever been close to my family at all,nor do i want to be). Tried to go to college at 19 with absolutely no treatment or healing (from a therapist, i did everything on my own to get myself out of bad ocd spots bc i despised feeling weak/crazy), had to take medical leave before the semester even ended because i was too exhausted from ocd rituals to complete the work.

Shortly after got my first boyfriend who was an abusive, manipulative asshat (before him i just talked to random older guys online and became infatuated with them as i had no actual experience with the opposite sex or friends). Met him online, ofc (never have met a guy irl). I broke up with him after 2 years, had a major downward spiral.

It is now 3 years after i dumped his ass but idk what to do about treatment and i finally got my health insurance sorted after not having any for a while.

I have some severe social impairments from just not being socialized at a critical time and having mainly parasocial relationships, with the one real relationship i had including constant abuse.

I know how the ocd should be treated but i am less sure about my social ineptitude. I feel like it really needs to be addressed and no one (healthcare providers) listens to me when i emphasize that. Id anything, my severe isolation and loneliness has affected me worse than the OCD.

What do i need to fix it?