Been a stressful few weeks dealing with my college that overcharged me and now won’t help me with getting the money back (bank lost the check) I asked the college if they could cancel the check and refund the money to my bank account but the lady who answered the phone at the college blamed me for not knowing what a check is and said that’s my problem. 

Hence I had to keep calling the bank again and again w no answer to rectify the situation- when they did pick up the bank blamed me for not notifying them that the check  was from the college  ( I showed the bank the letter from my college so they should have known. and even told her to track check the number and amount  but she said it couldn’t be done but when I called the hotline they were able to do it)

Idk why but this stressful situation has made my anxiety skyrocket to an all time high. I keep thinking someone will blow up at me and call me stupid. I grew up with a father with an explosive temper who would curse you out for 40 minutes for spilling water and wouldn’t hesitate with getting physical

I know this doesn’t make sense but I feel like someone is going to blow up at me and I would be powerless to stop it. I feel like everyone who I dealt with actually hates me and my heart won’t stop beating so fast and I feel nauseated all the time 

I was crying in bed last night because of how stressful this whole situation was. I know other people have been through worse and I’m sorry for posting this but this anxiety and all the bad thoughts is really taking a toll on me. Please I really hope someone knows how to deal with this.