my mom berates me for not waking up every morning at 4:30 am, 4 hours before i actually have to go to school, i cant sleep later than 11 since i go to school “like an idiot.” school is, school. its whatever, i have good grades, a’s and b’s, but i rarely talk to anyone. I spend most my time online anyway, and recently i feel like i’ve lost myself online too, i’ve lost so many friends who i knew for years, its always my fault too since i say something wrong or take something the wrong way. i feel pathetic.