I don’t care about anything right now because I’m drunk I’m self sabotaging I’m myself by telling my girlfriend I don’t care if I hurt her that I wish that I hadn’t had taken her back for cheating and I I just want to fucking rot under a rock and I don’t know why I’m doing this I know I’m going to regret everything when I’m sober but I fucking hate myself, I don’t want myself to succeed I wish that I never existed because I’m only wasting everyone’s time, I wish that everything was handed to me on a silver plate even though I don’t deserve it I want attention I want everything but I don’t deserve anyone that loves me I’m toxic and I don’t care I don’t want to burden anyone anymore, no one has to take this seriously I just wanted to get this out of my chest