I am pretty bad with anxiety and self hatred.  I feel suicidal a lot, but wouldn't ever follow through, because my kids need me, so that just isn't an option.

I usually stay pretty busy, my wife works full time and goes to school full time, so a lot of housework falls on me until she is done with school next year.  So I come home from work, I have a couple shows I watch daily, that takes maybe 45 minutes, then I clean for a bit and make dinner, by then it's time for the kids to spend a little time cleaning up toys and getting ready for bed.

This weekend my boy casually told his mom "I love you Mommy,  I don't love Daddy because he doesn't play with me enough."

I've been pretty crushed since then.  It's been a tough Monday at work.  I can't stop telling myself how useless I am and what a terrible father I am.  Even though I know I'm not.

I guess I'm just here to vent and get it off my chest.  Feeling really sad.