I'm so tired and I'm in so much pain. I feel like it's never going to better. I'm not good enough for anybody and I don't deserve my friends. I'm not worthy of love and that hurts so much because that's all I want. I want to feel loved, I want to be held, I want TO love and I just crave physical affection so much but know I'm not worthy and will never get it. I'm insecure about my looks even though I regularly exercise. I'm not even a shitty guy that just wants to use girls, I treated my first girlfriend so good and had nothing but good intentions but in the end, she just lied to me, played with my emotions, and left me for another guy. I am so fucking sick and tired of feeling like shit every single day no matter how hard I try. I want the pain to end already but I know it never will. 

I'm sorry for venting but I'm just so tired