I 27F have spent the almost 10 years of my adult life constantly suffering. Whether it’s someone dying, losing a job, or breakups I never get a second of joy. I’m always just grieving the last thing I lost and I really don’t know how much more I can take. I really envy people that come out of situations stronger cause that’s never the case with me. Any time something hurts me it just feels like someone is hitting a bruise that can never heal cause it keeps getting bigger. I don’t want to hurt my family or my cat but I don’t want to be living right now either.