Basically the title. I told my fp, who is also my only friend, that I still have a crush on her even though I had previously led her to believe that I got over my crush. I was just trying to be honest with her because there’s certainly no one else I can be honest with. She said that I don’t need to be honest with her about everything, and now I feel like I might have sabotaged the only meaningful relationship I have. Now I’m just sitting in my room crying and cutting myself for the first time in over a month, but she’s the only person that knows that I self-harm so I don’t even feel like I can talk to anyone about how much I fucking hate myself and everything I do. Why do I ruin everything good in my life?