This in the beginning of a bad moment I can tell. There are thing just not getting let go. I’m getting hyper fixed on everything that makes me sad. Hating my face and the way I look. And really just being unable to believe that anyone will want or love me. I’ve spent a whole lifetime hating myself and most days I can try my best to not get obsessed but today I can’t stop thinking. Can’t stop hating myself completely. I have so many other things going on but it feels like the straw that broke the camels back. Now I’m stuck. Also currently off my meds so my episodes feel stronger. I’m just trying not spend the whole day crying. The kind of scary crying, where it seems like your body is just expelling all the demons at full force. 

Do you guys have any specific things you can get fixed on that you cant let go?

Any advice?