Just dot pointing the run down

&gt;Broke down and entered sleep deprived psychosis due to life having some major blows
&gt;Tried to kill myself
&gt;"""Friend""" ghosted me when I asked for help
&gt;Decided to do it so drank a whole whiskey to prep for suicide
&gt;My other "friend" showed up with....everyone. I work where I live so that includes my MANAGER
&gt;Proceeded to tell everyone I have schizophrenia and I was on full display for everyone to enjoy
&gt;Broke down crying and begging for them to kill me or leave me alone
&gt;People left and friend told me we would just talk
&gt;He lied. It was so he could get the police to take me.
&gt;I sat infront of the Police whilst my "friend" told them I was threatening to kill myself
&gt;I was placed in a police car, compliantly, whilst my workplace and others looked.
&gt;I was placed in a ward and whilst still hung over was made to sign a legal contract to not contact my coworkers (two one of which were these "friends"). I was out of it and completely destroyed and signed
&gt;Was told by "Friend" who delivered the contract that everyone is sick of me.
&gt;Lost job
&gt;Might lose living quarters
&gt;Just wanted a person to sit with me and talk with me because they said they would always be there for me.
&gt;I'm now stuck in a ward with no friends. Nobody but me and my sketch book.
&gt;I am so hurt and sad, I don't want revenge or anything or to get even, all I want is for someone to be here for me but I feel betrayed.


Has anyone else had similar experiences or advice on why, now that my life is ruined, I should even bother trying to get better?

I feel completely destroyed and I have lost everything.