hello redditors. I'm so angry at my life, I'm not depressed or manic in the moment. I'm on medication and I'm just angry about everything. I'm 27 female and I'm not able to work anymore. My symptoms are under control, if I'm stress free. I tried to work, but always landed in the mental hospital. 

I can work, but in some special places for people with disabilities. 
I don't want to put those places down, but I see how much potential I would have, if I just wasn't ill. I see all my dreams popping in my hands.
to the outside I try tp show an optimistic attitude, but I'm literally losing it, because I have to build new meanings to my life. 

I don't know where to even start, what to do with my life. I'm overwhelmed and disappointed. People expect you to have your shit together with 27, I feel like a loser and my life is a fricking nightmare.

ps: just got out from a maniac episode.