I'm not comfortable speaking to anyone irl about any of this so here goes..apologies if the flair is wrong, I don't know which the best one is

Turns out I suffer from anxiety a lot. Have done all my life. Completely oblivious to everything health related..due to this realisation, I'm deep in the pits of anxiety, depression and terrible mood overall. I've declined a lot mentally, pushed everyone away. Don't respond to anyone on my phone apart from a select few. Hopefully this changes soon.

Struggled through uni, had no friends at all. Been for about 5 months total and I'm on my fourth year because of COVID.. 

Final year, met some people and got chatting.. invited me to a game of football (soccer) to which I just said yes before I could convince myself to not go.. super nervous and stressed lol I'm not the best but used to play casually. Need to wing it today and hit the gym again to get my stamina up! Hope I don't mess it up today

Let's hope this starts something new 🙏 my body is still achey from the night out but I need to put myself out there!