I have tried to maintain positivity within my life, but I thought I was going to kill myself yesterday. I had a plan and access. I had an emotionally taxing week, and I was so tired and drained. When I get this depressed I start to feel guilty for every bad thing that I’ve ever done. I started apologizing to my ex about how I treated him, and he immediately knew what I was planning. He talked me off the ledge, but now I feel so guilty for wasting his time and him having to talk me out of the abyss. Like my brain won’t allow me to express how I truly feel to anyone with feeling extremely guilty afterwards. I don’t deserve the love I receive. This guilt has made me feel like I’ve upset him even though he assures me I have not. How do I accept his words? How do I move on from feeling this guilt? How can I accept my emotions?