I don’t know where else to post this but I just wanna vent and hope someone can maybe relate. 

I overall rlly don’t like where i’ve been placed in the universe, if that makes sense (like time wise and geographically). It also doesn’t help that I don’t know my identity. Like I don’t know who I am and everything just feels eh. There is too much to figure out about yourself and I know I don’t have to use labels when self defining but it’s too the point where I feel like I don’t even have ONE label. Like it’s TOOO undefined. I wish I was an orb or some shit that just existed and have that be it. 

Usually when I feel like this I like to imagine myself in some other time period. What I like about the past is it just feels so content. I wish I lived in a time with little to no technology where I could just wake up and do my stupid little daily tasks as a stay at home parent or whatever and have no real ambition. I just feel like there’s too many opportunities for me? ( I don’t know how to describe this feeling). Honestly I wish I could control day dreaming better and choose when and for how long I could live inside my head, pretending to live different lives. 

Hope this made any sense at all.