Something my friend said triggered me and I split. After that, I was full blown hysterical and said a lot of mean things to them. They didn't talk to me after that night and a couple days later after calming down a bit, I apologized to them for doing such things. It took them a couple weeks to give an actual reply but now I'm basically in a state of anxiety because what if I lash out on them again? So, I've been keeping my distance and avoiding them. I don't really want to hurt them again for the nth time but I know avoiding them is not right in some sense and I don't want to avoid them too. I know this isn't healthy and I really want things to be the way they were before but I'm so scared of them and myself. I don't want to tell them my condition because they don't really believe in things such as mental health. They might think I'm crazy and further push them away. But they are really kind and understanding towards other aspects... Or maybe this is just me masking abuse by placing them through a pedestal. How did you guys recover from having a sudden outburst on someone you care about? How did the other party recover? Will things ever be the same again?