I'm so lost... 

I don't know who I am, or what I even like anymore. I feel so empty and hurt. I'm trying my best everyday but it doesn't seem to be enough.. 

My boyfriend told me I need to try. Which hurt me more than anything... because I've been trying so hard to get help.. and figure my life out... but I'm struggling. 

I cannot keep a job for the life of me. Which I know my mom and bf are both disappointed about it.

I drink and use substances to self medicate. I know it's not good. But lately it's just been extra hard to not be tempted to indulge... 

I've isolated myself. I don't see friends anymore. I wanna see them, but deep down I'm scared they don't want me around.

I feel like I'm not seen as a person anymore. Just a problem. Which I think that hurts the most. I just want someone to know that I am trying... even if it seems like I'm not. 

I just wish someone would hear me 😔