Realistically, it's not that big of a deal. The best thing to do, is sit with it. Let it pass.

I'll be okay. It's a minor setback. An embarrassment. On top of so many others. My life is a constant embarrassment. That's okay. I'm learning. I'm getting back into it. It is what it is. It really is just what it is, nothing more. I'm only here, now. That's it.

I'm fucking trying. I want to be better. I deserve better. I will achieve what I want. I don't care how much I have to sweat, how much I have to burn, feel, whatever. I will get what I want. I will carve out the life for myself that I fucking deserve. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.