I see some people on here talking about how wonderful their FPs are: how they understand BPD/mental illness, how patient and kind they are. If you have a FP like that, then I’m truly happy for you. 

However, I’m so fucking jealous of people who have good FPs. My FP ended up abandoning me because of my mental illness. It hurts so fucking much. I tried to keep it a secret from them, but it eventually came out, and they left. It just fucking hurts more than I could’ve imagined.