It’s been 3 &amp; a half weeks since I  [20M] was given my working diagnosis meaning there could be other disorders present. I’m strongly suspecting possible ADHD too. 

I’m on two forms of medication which the doses have been increased due to the rapid deterioration of my illness. I’m finding that I have to switch my brain off, even allowing myself to think sends me into an endless loop of inner conflict. Not to mention that I’m pretty much sensitive to every little thing regardless of how good or bad it may seem in reality. 

My psychiatrist advised me to take an another 10 days off work whilst I keep on top of my meds. I write in a journal daily so my therapists can review how I’ve been doing day to day, safe to say that writing it down definitely helps. To sum it up, I’m self isolating by completely avoiding social interaction with anyone unless it’s necessary. 

I’m going to use the next 10 days including the time off work to hit the gym, go out running and work on myself physically through training. Making my time productive by keeping myself busy is probably the best thing I can do. 

Sometimes it’s hard to believe how bad this is getting, almost as if there’s no ‘rock bottom’ and I’m endlessly falling. All that matters to me right now is that I’m trying, yeah it still hurts badly but I have to keep fighting it. I’m going to do this for myself.