I'm disenfranchised with the world. My childhood is over. I've self isolated so badly I don't even see my own family anymore. I no longer partake in hobbies. I'm always chronically exhausted. I have to force myself to eat and drink. My therapist isn't helping me. I've realised how selfish and awful the world is. Capital doesn't care about us. Everything's man-made. My heart is broken. 

I need to go on for my family. How can I force myself to continue for them when I can't keep on going for myself?