Hi- first of all, let me just say that I am a college student and that being said, it's also implied that I'm pretty much broke. Because i'm always unnecessarily worried that my boyfriend is going to decide he doesnt like me anymore and will break up with me (catastrophic thinking), i wanted to go all out and buy him a bunch of things hes been wanting. one of these things being those birkenstock boston clogs. unfortunately, they are out of his size everywhere.

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i came across this website [https://www.myallfeet.com/](https://www.myallfeet.com/) when i was bored at a sorority event, found his size, got excited, and ordered without checking customer reviews. i guess that was pretty ignorant of me. the company is based out of china and the reviews are awful. cost me about $120 for the shoes and apparently their products are cheaply made, sometimes dont come in the right size, or dont come at all. its impossible to get in touch with their customer service. 

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i told him that i think i got scammed out of these shoes and if he finds them (he is currently traveling abroad so i thought they may have them across the pond) he should buy them. he asked me for the site and i first refused to give it to him bc it does look sketchy in retrospect. he said it looked shitty and now im freaking out bc i feel like he thinks im stupid.

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i realize it was a stupid thing to do but i genuinely was excited that i found them in his size and jumped the gun. i was also slightly distracted at that sorority event. lol. i keep asking him repeatedly if he thinks im stupid, he says no, but i cant help but think hes lying. 

hating myself right now and trying to convince myself he wont ditch me for this. its hard.