My boyfriend (m23) and I (f23) are going through a really tough time at the moment. 
I am living though an episode of anxiety and depression rn and I use lots of my energy to get going, in the end it’s hard for me to consider my boyfriend because I try to hold a good mood, make everything around me feel good for me so I don’t break out in anxiety and depression. 

And I feel like I do this most of the time, don’t consider what my boyfriend wants. Yesterday he opened up about this and that he wished I would consider his needs and wants more. 

In the end I got massive anxiety and ever thought ended up in me breaking up in the future. I just don’t have energy to constantly self care, as I am trying to overcome anxiety and depression, and consider someone else who’s plans might interfere with what I need to stay in a good place. 
For example we try to make sports together, and he resolves his day Plan about this. When I don’t feel like it or my anxiety acts up at the moment we want to start working out, I feel bad for him and me and I feel pressured that I need to do Sport on that exact day, which puts more pressure on myself - it’s not that my boyfriend is pressuring me, it’s me 

In the end breaking up is longer on my mind because I think it’s so much easier to work on myself alone and not consider someone else all the time, when selfcare alone is already really hard for me at this moment. 

Im also experiencing rocd which makes me question my love towards him all the time, I’m not even sure anymore if this is rocd or if it is really true, and not considering him makes be believe that I really don’t love him - and this also triggers my anxiety, that we need to break up 

I dunno what I should do anymore, my boyfriend also can’t handle my strong emotions and sadness 

TL:DR Staring to self care and considering my boyfriend all the times, gives me so much burden, that o think I need to break up