I had very conservative people around me while growing up and I've been always told I have to keep my virginity, otherwise I'd be unlovable and worthless. Even though I always defend people, especially women in that case, when people try to slut shame them but I can't do the same for myself. I started to read sex stories around age 11-12, mostly smut fanfics. Then started watching porn, a lot. Then started to take pictures of myself with my face covered. And I felt extremely guilty while doing all of these and was even scared sometimes in case someone finds out. 

I'm also not very confident with my body. I can change my pose, lighting and even use photoshop while taking pics. But I'm not comfortable with someone else seeing my body. Because I can't change it and it will look the way it looks. It will sound funny but whenever I get close to someone alongside slut shaming myself, I imagine that person losing interest and leaving the room after seeing my body. 

DAE can't or didn't have sex even though they have a high sexual drive?