I know my bf/fiance loves me but turns out he is still married to his ex wife and refusing to pay for a divorce.  Yes I have mh issues so of course I feel insecure but am I wrong.  He's been married twice so not a big deal to him but I never have so it means the world to me. Guess I am just not worth it and I don't blame him I really am high maintenance. Spent the past 6 weeks at his house and tried to kill myself every weekend!!! He's a really good guy and doesn't deserve this and tbf I don't even know why he's with me. Idk what to do. It's so insignificant to me but not him. Worst thing is I like living separately but just want that ultimate commitment 😪