so our family went through a lot lately and last two months ago i had an anxiety attack with my sister while it was raining so hard because of the typhoon and my dad was trapped at the second floor of our house when it flooded at our place. my sister was shouting at me while i tremble, my brain feels cloudy and i was crying so hard. i was biting my nails till i didn't know it was bleeding and eversince that day my anxiety just worsens. 

i do have anxiety attacks before the flood happen and kept on hearing voices in my brain and i always do self harm pr try to commit suicide when the voices gets louder or when my sister keeps on hurting me with words and telling me how worthless i am and all those kinds of things making me want to kill myself by the end of the day. it just frustrates me so much how my sister knows i have anxiety, depression and ed but acts and treats me like i don't have any..