Finally built up the courage to talk to the girl I like about what we are, we used to kiss when we where alone, had slept together, she showed signs that she was interested in me.. or so I thought. When I finally talked to her about what we are, she said she likes to hang with me and just chill and have fun, but she isn’t looking for any relationship. Which I guess is fine, we had a good thing between us so I’m "okey" with that.

A day or so goes by, we still talk normally, but she is getting more and more distant, and is flirting more and more with my best friend. It’s like she’s pushing me away to make space for him. I don’t know if it’s me overthinking, or whatever it can be. But why can’t she just be honest with me? Is it so fucking difficult to tell the truth instead of slowly pushing someone away?

This guy is also my workout partner, so I see him in the gym, talking to her. She used to talk to me too, but now I’m just being left on delivered while they talk. And it just hurts watching them flirting, I have no clue what to do. Most of the time I don’t want to get out bed. I’m already struggling due to past relationships, I’m feeling like this is going to break me. I throughly thought I found the one, we clicked amazingly together, and now it’s this shit. Just why? Why does everything have to hurt? And why does it always happen to me? With already struggling with myself, I’m starting to feel like there is something seriously wrong with me…