I've been struggling a lot for the past week or so. I have been way more suicidal and yesterday I made several attempts, all interrupted. I don't need medical attention but I just don't know if it's worth going to the psych hospital. Part of me is terrified of what that would be like during COVID and is convinced I'm fine now. I've been inpatient twice before and it's been helpful but it's such a huge disruption to life.