I've been though so much therapy from the ages of 15 to 26. It's my 26th birthday and I've been trying to convince myself to stay alive. I've never been in a relationship, I feel like I'm stuck in a dead end job and I just want to give in. I'm so tired to trying to be hopeful and that everything will slot into place and I'll realise " I was right, life does get better"
 
I'm too old now. I feel like my life will just be a series of trying to kid myself that things will be fine and will sort themselves out. I'm 26 years old today, and I'm done.

I just feel like I'm unlovable but I know that's not true. 

I'd miss my friends and I'm sure they'd miss me. I'd miss my family. And I know it would kill them.

But please, someone tell me what is the point of fighting