I'm 26 and I don't want to try anymore. I spend hours and hours in bed or watching YouTube or social media because I don't want to think about my life. I had an engineer degree with honors but I'm not proud of myself, I feel like an impostor, I can't get a job, interviews make me nervous and generally I end up sabotaging myself. I look at other people and their achievements and feel bad about myself, like a looser. I don't have social skills, I make everything awkward and sure people thinks I'm weird. Always struggled with these problems but I managed to keep going by learning things that could help me, hoping to be successful in my career, but at 26 I don't think that will happen.  And if it happens, I don't think it will make me happy anyway.  I have always said that if I found a good job the first thing I would do would be to go to the psychiatrist or wherever people could help me, but I see that possibility further and further, I am losing the battle.  I no longer find things that excite or motivate me, I just want to put everything on autopilot.