Day in and day out I constantly think about my face. Some days I debate on burning it off so it isn't a problem anymore. Having to sit around and wonder how anyone could love my face, think it's the best face in the world and only want me. Love seems unlikely. Security in a relationship and believing them seems like a funny joke. I'm unhappy in life, ugly and stressed. I just want to find peace and content. I'm not a religious man, death to me is peace . But it also worries and scares me. I don't know what to do. I just want to be okay. My body is plagued with acne and weirdness, my face unworthy of love and admiration of another person. 
I just type these things to vent.  I don't want to be me anymore but I have no choice. Why couldn't I just be born as someone with a little more that could be gained in life. Love in particular . I love with everything I have but I don't feel like I can be loved . Not looking like this, I don't have to be an Adonis, just handsome. Just remotely attractive. Just someone with enough looks to have love and security.  
Idk how to end this I could go on all day.
If you read this, thank you for listening. 
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