im 18, no friends (even online since they all have lives now), no job, nothing to do all day, never had a girlfriend, took my ged so i dont go to school anymore, basically missed out on everything you do as a teen, my mom knows that i started taking drugs and have been really distant from me when i need them the most. so more than anything i just want to die and not have to worry about anything anymore i just want to be done but cant get myself to do it. maybe one day.