so I've been fearing that I might be going insane and today it felt so real that I was going into psychosis,I have experienced a great amount of schizophrenia ocd and it's the worse,i have constant thoughts that only a mentally I'll person would think,and I'm scared that I am actually believing in the thoughts,i tell myself if I truly believed in the thoughts i prob would have done something stupid by now,but tonight it feels like I am and I'm scared that I'm gonna harm myself somehow,I don't want to,I dont really wanna explain the thought but it involves schizo and suicide,I fear that I'm gonna believe in the thoughts and harm myself,Its so bad to the point where I dont even know if i believe in the thoughts anymore,I keep having thoughts that everyone isnt real and I feel insane for it,but for some reason it makes me feel lonely which really scares me,I feel like I'm a threat to myself and I really wanna send myself to some psych ward,and now I'm doubting that everything I said was actually true and I meant it and now I feel unsure,I'm so scared,I cant stop crying