It feels like nobody will ever understand what I'm going through, and even if I make progress mentally nobody can see it. Nobody can hear it. Nobody can see my progress only I can. I never feel like I'm right. Everything I do is wrong and the world did not want me. I was not meant to be here. And I got gipped out of a happy childhood and healthy relatio ships up until a few years ago. I wasn't supposed to be here. Why couldn't I have had a good environment to grow up in why couldn't my parents have been kind why  oukdnt the kids and teachers not target me if I had been shown I was worthy of love I wouldn't have seen myself as less than dirt and gotten myself into a bad relationship years ago I feel like I'm never going g to be normal and nobody wants me here
I'm angry at the cards I was dealt because I know the kids who put me through hell are doing g well and I'm not. Life isn't fair and i hate the one I was given