I miss how it used to be that I just... Had trouble getting up and dealing with self hate. 7 years later in self harming and diagnosed with MDD, I hate it. I find it just infuriating how now I can't go a day without questioning my sanity and feeling like my mind is falling apart. Recently my coming out as trans hasn't helped much since I have the stress for well... Coming out. I just can't stand this feeling of chaos, the anxiety and constant paranoia about my life, mental health and relationships.