One of my neighbors also has a toddler so I thought when I saw her at the pool I’d try to talk with her and make plans to hang out later.
So eventually our kids hang out again and we talk and make further plans with just us.
Each time we would see each other she would really open up to me. She’d show me scars and tell me stories, a lot of which were sad or upsetting. It gives me a great deal of comfort to be around people who’ve dealt with painful things. It helps me feel understood.
So on the night it was just us, I opened up with her. I told her about my BPD and my traumas. I figured also opening up would help her feel like I also understood. She said we should hang out the next day to meet her BFF and leading up to it I bailed because of an episode. I said I was just too tired and I’m going to bed early and we should hang out sometime during the week instead. I tried not to put pressure on myself for canceling.
The week comes and I text her suggesting a hike and I don’t get a response.
I’m just trying to make friends and it’s really hard