So im gonna start with some short context possible to write on a reddit post. I'm 25 years old and I have never experienced hard anxiety before. I had the usual anxiety you get before an exam or an important event but anything different than that, I haven't experienced anything worse. I'm an only child and I have been over protected most of my life. Both parents are old and they had hardships so it is understandable. 

Now for how my anxiety started. I was in danger of getting COVID mid January. Like really close. I was extremely lucky that I didn't get it. After that day, I started having anxiety everyday the whole day. When I had a small COVID sympton I would start shaking, feeling nauseous and having to check my fever/oxygen everytime. I did that like 20-25 times per day. Then, 3 days after I got my negative result but the anxiety didnt stop. I was still feeling nervous, nauseous. I could eat but it was really hard to. Waking up was really scary because everytime I woke up, I felt dizzy/naseous, my body was tense and I felt nervous. I have always had sleeping problems (I use to always wake up tired even after sleeping 8h+) but never like this. I'm a person that I feel like absorb the environment feelings so I had to cry some of the days to feel better. Hopefully, my parents were there to support me and understood me completely. I was really lucky in this aspect. After being like this for a couple more days, I realized that I was having anxiety and immediately contacted a psychologist. With the passing of the days, I started informing myself and tried to apply some breathing techniques to that helped me but I still had days of feeling nervous almost 14 hours of the 16 that I was awake. I had really dark thoughts, that I have never in my life had before and it scared me a lot. I started being scared of the fact that the anxiety wouldnt go away and it would get worse. I started sessions with my psychologist, which help me a lot. Like A LOT. It was an immediate help. The perspective of my problem changed and I started getting better. I was scared of going out or meeting people that don't really care about COVID anymore, but also, this COVID incident triggered other inner problems that I've had my whole life. I started trying to go out more, doing simple tasks such as buy groceries, help my parents with bank stuff, go to my family meetups and even meet up friends a couple times. 

I've been 1 month with my psychologist now. I have various days of the week where I am completely anxiety free, or I have really small anxiety that only affects me a couple minutes and I can control with simple breathing techniques and calming myself. 

What happens to me now is that sometimes I wake up feeling super nervous. After a couple days of being mostly anxiety-free, I wake up feeling tense, nervous, with negative thoughts, thinking that I'm about to have a panic attack (which I haven't had so far), but I feel on the edge. After a couple minutes or sometimes hours, I can relax myself. Maybe after watching some youtube videos, TV or standing up for a bit, the feeling goes through. I dont try to fight it, but sometimes it really is hard to not try to fight it, because it gets really scary. 

Right now, im jobless, studying for the CFA Level 2 (Finance Certificate), which is gonna take me 6 months to study and preparing myself to move out of the country for a Masters in 7 months. I feel like I'm getting better but the relapses are discouraging. I know it is normal and I try to stay strong, but I wanted to share what is happening to me now and see if anyone can talk about similar experiences and what they did to overcome them. 

I really appreciate people that read this and appreciate anyone that wanna share their experiences and advices!