Lately I just can't get out of bed. I have no motivation to do anything. I'm surprised I make it to work half the time, mainly I do it because of survival. I don't want to die necessarily, but I don't want to keep getting up everyday to do the same things as the day before. It's like an endless loop of hell. I've lost touch with my friends, my hobbies, I barely even want to watch TV anymore. Nothing strikes my interest. I used to be so goal oriented and I would go to the gym, do my makeup,  I even balanced a checkbook. I don't do any of that anymore. I've gained a bunch of weight with no desire to lose it, I spend money with no thought of saving. Btw I also just got a bill for 2 grand front the IRS so that's fun. Considering I live alone and make just enough to afford my place, food, cats, etc. I've been thinking about just not paying it. I worked thru the whole pandemic at a hospital and risked myself and didn't even get a third stimulus, and now I owe the govt 2 grand. I feel too weak and exhausted to give a damn about any of it. I just want to get back to the person I used to be. I used to be so inspired and motivated.