I have Bipolar II and anxiety disorder. I’m on meds. Even in my best moments I have many, very paranoid thoughts throughout the day. I’ve begun to notice most of them don’t even relate to “real” things. I stopped watching horror movies quite awhile ago, stopped consuming any creepy content, for this reason.

I like being up at night and I have to get up for work around 4am. This is really starting to bother me. If I’m alone and it’s not sunlit outside, I have to actively distract myself from not thinking about demons, or something around the corner, something in the dark, whatever. It’s interfering with my sleep, I just wait till I pass out with the light on. As with everything, some days are better than others, but I’m an adult for gods sake lmao. I just want to be comfortable alone.

I have a feeling this is a little... PTSD from my psychosis last year? I haven’t been in psychosis since, but it definitely changed my brain in some ways. I’m looking for reassurance. I’m really hoping someone can tell me they relate, or offer some coping mechanisms :(