
so idk what this is. like i used to brush it off as anxiety, but it’s gradually been getting worse. i have intrusive thoughts. the ones that give me the most anxiety are the ones about me questioning whether or not the world and ppl around me are real. like my brain will convince me that everything and everyone i know is a part of some “matrix” and that i’m the only one who isn’t aware of it. ik it sounds dumb, but it’s really distressing. i also have  a constant thought in my head that everyone is mad at me and hates me and that it’s just a joke if you’re my friend. the two kinda connect i guess, i feel like people are fake therefore the relationships i have with them are fake too. usually when this happens i’ll desperately reach out to friends or ppl i know for reassurance. or i’ll google or watch a youtube video about the topic for hours. i struggle to get things done now. like it was always a question within me, but now it’s becoming really distressing.