I’ve been depressed for awhile now and it’s starting to feel like I’m in an endless loop of depression at this stage. 

I lost most of my motivation years ago, so I haven’t been progressing in life. I’m stuck in the same place, and I’m never changing or getting better. 

I just want to drink and sleep, since it’s the only escapism from my miserable life. I don’t want to wake up, struggle to function, do some shit that I don’t care about, sleep and then do it all again the next day. 

My life feels so pointless and empty, I have no friends and I’m not close to anyone. I’m constantly lonely and it’s been slowly chipping away at my self esteem over the years. I can’t even get another person to find me tolerable, I’m such a fucking loser. 

Even the worst of people have friends, yet I’ve been friendless for years. I feel so broken and like I’m failing at being human. I don’t know why I’m here, I can’t imagine living like this forever. 

I also have an anxiety disorder that’s been fucking up my life, I feel like I have no control. Everything is just falling apart all of the time, and I’m disappointing everyone around me.