Does anyone else struggle with making and keeping friends? It seems nobody can handle my BPD and I feel forced to keep others at arms length. This gets very lonely and isolating. I do not want 20 acquaintances to call me to come get drunk with them every Friday I want a best friend to share real  things of substance with. Then, on the rare occasion I  make an actual friend my bpd  f** that up too so always always back to square one . Sigh  
I don’t know what to do or how to fix this