How do I tell my boyfriend that I want to kill myself whether it's a 10-minute thought of the day or it consumes the whole day it's still prevalent thought in my head and it's not so much a depressive thing like it goes up and down I'm just scared or worried about how to phrase it because his best friend committed suicide and I'm scared about  bringing to the surface the memories of that horrific thing but I just feel like I need to confide in him and I don't know how to word it