Is anybody else's life here ruined in a way you can't control and by something you didn't cause at all? I look at my life and opportunities, compare it to my dreams and just (very) minimum aspirations and it's just out of my reach. 

This is soul crashing, and it's an observation that tells me my life isn't worth living; I don't think I can have a more positive than negative experience here anymore. I'm fucked.