I have wasted 9 months of my life. (M,23)I've ruined my physique, Dint proceed to what couldve been a promising modeling career, Failed to score good in college, lost money foolishly to frauds, dint study for military exams, ate junk all year,bcame in a casual relationship, got serious..girl had depression and ex issues... ruined my mentality too. Now I'm attached to her. She got a job .. Im jobless.. skilless..motivationless...I just eat junk.. waste my parent's money. Can't discuss anything with anyone coz there's no solution. I just dont have that motivation to do anything. I'll pass my research thesis.. apparently im not dumb at studies. But I'm not hapy with my life..not even borderline satisfied with myself and what a failure and disappointment I've become.. I eat junk all day.. shit all day.. and do shenanigans all day. I JUST CANT DO IT AND WANT TO DIE SOMETIMES.. SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO BECOME ALL OF THOSE THINGS BUT JUST CANT DO IT.. also aint got money for therapy. Waste all of it on junk food.