I burned out 2,5 years ago and as a result of that got really depressed and had really hard anxiety and couldn’t study or work properly for a year. And that year was straight from hell, but I did grow more as a human during that year than the 20 years before it combined.

During the last year my life has been decent:
-survived studies/work with good results
-my anxiety levels are most of the time really low
-My bad days have been decreasing and good days increasing

What I’m wondering about and quite honest, annoyed about is that I have like 1-7 days straight I feel energized, content and able to do everything I want. But after those days I have 1-7 days I feel low in spirits/empty and with low energy, On those days I just do my routine work: work/study and do some relaxing activities and sports by myself but I have no interest whatsover to do anything else. 

As the good days feel like how I was before it gets my hopes up and I just love every second of those days, but the drops to the worse days just takes down my spirit and I just think I will be in this loop forever😂 I guess I just hope to hear about how the end of beating depression feels like, is it like this?

One of my other theories are that I’ve always been maybe a bit down in my mood but with distracting myself with superficial things as being with as many women as possible, do well in my studies/work etc. As well as just surpressed my feelings. (These are things I’ve done tremendous work and progress within the last 2,5 years)
And since I don’t surpress my feelings anymore I feel the feelings stronger, and just relate the bad feelings to my burnout and just feel worse😆