I’ve been trying to get control of my life after years of depression, low mood and motivation, anxiety and, as of recently, migraines. 

But despite trial and erroring multiple anti-depressants and counseling, I still feel hopeless. I just got done with a group coding project and felt I barely contributed anything. I feel like a burden to my classmates. I feel like a burden to my family. I spend hours laying in bed, browsing my phone, trying to pass the time by escaping reality. 

I just got a rejection email for a job I interviewed to. It’s like everything I could’ve went wrong, did went wrong. I’m not hopeful for the future and I wish I was aborted.