was doing ok for a while, but just ended being depressed again. then today, i found something from my bestfriend.. who is my ex, but we still love each other.
i have her gmail account on my phone because well you know, i was her bf, and i helped her wt her stuff needing an account. i was doing something and used my account, and because my gmail doesnt send notifications, all the accounts on my phone send all the notifs at once. and i accidentally clicked one of them, it was an email from her and her friend who hangs out wt her in university... i wont say what the email contained... but, it broke my heart when i read it... and it had "from your future husband" him, and "your future wife" her... 
i tried so hard to keep this relationship with her, that one day, after we finish our studies, we can finally be together... but now im lost... we wpuld say we loved each other everynow and then, but... what for...
im still her bestfriend and will always be there for her, but she is a mess, just like i am, and i just cant tell her stuff to do so she becomes better... she'd hate me, why, cz im her bestfriend... her ex, the only person who understood her... but now... she has found someone else...