I hate talking about it with my friends and family. I only recently, out of the 10 years I've been struggling with seeing and hearing things aswell as my depression, have told anyone. It's like nobody understands. I try to explain and I get pity and mocked. My dad just said I need to "man up" and the hallucinations will stop??? Like wtf. I hate the look on their face when I say sometimes I see bugs crawling all over me for a heartbeat and then it's gone, or how I see and hear people that arnt there, or sometimes it looks and feels like I've been lit on fire then its gone. I just don't know what to do sometimes. I can't just call in to work and say I can't come in when I haven't slept in 4 days and am seeing things when I don't have insurance and need to pay bills. I have been trying so hard but its pushing me to my limit. I had to leave my toxic ex this year and moved cuz of it. I just feel so alone. My "friends" just watch my spiral decent to madness. I just want a hug from someone who cares, but that probably won't happen.