Hey 
I don't know where is my life going but it hurts me a lot 
Why does my mood change so often ?? To be honest I'm  sexual attracted to children but I hate my thoughts a lot . I feel like an abominable person .I don't bring these thoughts myself . they come to me by their own .and haunt me a lot . I feel like the most disgusting person In the crowd . I want to respect girls , protect them , protest any discrimination against them .but I get cold feet cause it feels me like I don't have any right to say anything for I myself am a monster. 

Plss help me 
How can I get rid of this shit 
It ruined my entire life 

I didn't used to get such thoughts and feelings before 4 months . but now everything is changed 

I don't wanna be pedophile 


