It’s like....

Sometimes I jst decide to leave it be. I sign outta my socials. And I’m fine. 

But I also can’t talk to FP this way. 

But....... I’m ok. When I open the apps and check again I’m probably gonna spiral and feel like trash when I see he isn’t replying. Maybe I should let him go. 

Sometimes I wonder if I should jst tell him goodbye. He doesn’t know how this affects me. 

But idk. At the same time I dnt want to lose him. I jst want to rid the attachment so badly /: 

I wish it was healthy. Like I could jst see him as a regular friend.