Well, it's a long story from the past, when my father was success. I was very suprise how success he was before marrige. Well, when my father and his fiance aka my mom afford a new house amd ready to move in, things went bad. The damn stupid fucking trash neighbour lead my dad to the gamble path. He lost a lot of money. And it has been 16 years since then, he haven't paid them all
 Yet he did it again. Recently, he borrow from bank some money. I am afraid that the debt our family has to pay would be much larger than what i have in mind. 
  I have been a burden for my mother for over 19 years. And i hate myself for cannot help her. I tried to make money on my own but it didn't work bc i dont know what to do. I'm fricking stupid and trash. I made my mother, a person raised my life with all her heart. But i only brought her sadness and more stress. She carry my family finance and she put a lot of hope on me. But i like my father, again failed her. I just want to end her suffering and idk, sonehow cure my dad.
I wosh there was a time machine to help my dad, my family, my mother.
Ps: sorry for the long and useless story of mine. I dont speak english as the first language so mind some errors.