I have issues with interpersonal relationships and try to remain cognizant of this fact. 

So today and I just want to give up:

I live in a shitty small town in Montana where the gays hate me because they habitually, incessantly ditch because they’re “busy”, well guess what so is any fucking adult, don’t piss on me and call it rain.

Issue one: guy wanted to hook up, I texted him four times in a row when we were having a conversation now he won’t talk to me. So fuck him.

Issue two: “c” blew me off this summer, and just quit talking to be cold turkey, then I messaged him and he said he just got “busy”, but then also fucked two other guys. Fast forward this month after I talk he apologizes and wants a second chance only to do the same damn thing but I’m the bad guy for getting upset.

Issue three: guy again wants to hook up today but last minute gets busy. I say well if you’re not interested let me know he said oh no I am I’ll just message you when I find time... triggered... when you find  time you’ll message me at some point. Then I say that’s kinda shitty we can’t plan for another day says he can’t deal with me.

Issue four: guy and husband have done the same thing to me for years, set up a time to
Meet only last minute to cancel them. He messaged me today and said he wanted my
Dick, but I said you’ve blown me off for three years he said “true”, then called me dramatic because the ONLY time he asked me to come over he has a cat and I’m deadly allergic to them, so he calls me and the cat
Situation “dramatic” and blocks me...  sorry that me going into shock with cats is dramatic.

Issue five: again another guy on Grindr messaged me he blew me off when I first came out he lived 40 miles away, blatant blow off. Oddly enough he moved to Denver when I did, and guess what he did there too? Blew me off, then fast forward 4 years later he apologizes profusely and says he wants to meet me. I say ok well we’re in Montana again we can. Then today he hasn’t messaged me for 6 months and today sends me a pic of his ass and wants to come over and fuck then during all of it he says he wants to date and asks what I look for and I tell him and he says obviously that’s not him gets mad and tells me I’m an asshole and block me.


Literally every single thing is making me mad. I’ll probably just kill myself one of these days because no matter what happens I’m just a shit person