I spent all weekend super upset and would barely say a word to my partner. I was moping and getting overly upset and every little thing he did. Then I spent all of yesterday crying and wanting to die but knowing I’m too pussy to do it. Suddenly I snapped out and began laughing while scrolling tiktok and sucked it all up. I was thinking I am strong and I will keep pushing.

Turns out I just got into a manic high and I stayed up all night, worked out even though my body was telling me to rest and now I’m thinking of spending the day cleaning and doing all the chores I neglected while depressed. I am thinking I will take a really good shower and do a whole self care routine as well. But I know this isn’t me “doing better”. I’m just manic.