if i want someone to love me, or even to be friends… deep down i know that i would like those things, but after so many bad experiences, i want nothing to do with any of it. i’m lonely, but also want to be alone, yet i am craving social interaction. i know i’m cared about by my family…but i have no-one else in my life that cares about me besides them. i just want to talk to someone i guess.