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In short, I’m no good at all in situations that call for me to be loud/vulgar/aggressive (unless I’m really, really mad, which is so rare that I just feel like I can’t get in temper anymore). I rather sit and talk through an issue; however, I realize this isn’t the way of things here in my country or with my sister. It’s either get vulgar or get lost. I feel very discouraged right now because I just don’t know how to act in those kinds of confrontational situations, but at the same time I don’t want to be seen as weak or foolish.

I feel like a weakling. I’m scared for my future with aggressive/violent people. I just wish I could tune into my aggressive side but alas, that is nearly impossible for me. The rational side of my brain is telling me that such occurrences will be a rarity in my life but what do I do when they do happen? Cry like a fool? Run away?

TLDR: I get very scared/emotional in potentially violent situations and I’m scared it will ruin my life (anxiety?)