Been feeling really down lately and today it’s hitting hard. I miss my ex. I miss my stable life. I miss affection and being loved. 

Leaving my 11yr relationship late last year was not easy but I know it was necessary. We had our own place, pets and dreams to grow old together. From being in stable position in my life, good jobs, family and friends, to coming home alone everyday is really starting to affect me. 

I was doing well in the beginning, found some new bar friends, busy with family but it’s not the same. They come and go. I don’t have anyone to vent my work day to everyday or someone to just watch a movie and wind down with. It’s a huge life change and I’m having a hard time getting used to. 

My loneliness is turning into me making bad decisions. Seeking drugs, sex and alcohol to cope and missing work because of it. That’s an added stressor too that I am watching myself slack off and not giving my all and I cannot CANNOT loose this job. This lifestyle is also leaving me broke! 

I’m really just here to vent. But if you’d like to share some things that helps you get out of a rut and get your life and happiness back on track please let me know. 

I appreciate all and any advice.