So, everything that you imagine can go wrong has gone wrong for me. 

I got fired, got COVID, my girlfriend doesn’t want to have sex anymore, I can’t eat, sleep, I hate myself, you know the story. 

But now I can’t even pleasure myself. I just feel dirty and unwanted, so why should I be able to pleasure myself? 

So now I’m sexually frustrated which is horrible for a guy my age, and I can’t take care of it myself. 

It hurts, but I’m not a toxic guy who thinks that means I’m entitled to sex. If anything I think I’m not. The worst part more-so my mood is bad. Now I’m not sad but angry, calling people bad names and shutting them down. Getting mad at my girlfriend when I can’t even bring myself to tell her why. 

Anyone else ever get in that hole? That place where you can’t get sex, and also can’t do it yourself?