I’m not invalidating anybodys feelings but I’d 100% rather be depressed &amp; still be able to function in society then the latter. 

I let depression effect me so bad , I haven’t been to work in 2 months , I have debt now. I dropped out of school because I couldn’t study when the only thing I could focus on was the fact that I wanted to kill myself. I ruined relationships. I stopped caring about my appearance &amp; hygiene , etc. i can’t do shit for myself. I’m a burden to everyone. 

I wish I could still accomplish things &amp; be *somewhat* normal and not let depression take over completely