I feel like there's nothing left that I can look forward too in life. My friendships that I put so much effort into are fading, some due to lack of time, some are just not interested anymore. Any career I'm interested in is never going to make a livable wage, and getting a regular job like retail is already going to be difficult since I'm disabled. People keep talking about a shut down or societal collapse in a few years anyways, so even a good paying career is just going to become worthless.

It just seems like everything is a dead end, and nothing is worth the effort anymore. 
Even the hobbies I used to enjoy, I can't find any motivation to do since I end up feeling like it was a waste of time.