I feel like my nervous system never gets a break. Wanna go food shopping (well you can’t go all the way to the back of the store because what if you need to get out) wanna go on vacation? (No because you’ll have a panic attack on the flight and die) ETC. literally. I try everything I “meditate” I try working out, I try walking, I try daily positive affirmations, therapy, meds, talking myself out of my spirals. I genuinely don’t know what it’s like to feel calm. And it’s ALL I want to feel. I have anxiety, about my anxiety. I panic before I even have an actual panic attack. I see no end in sight and it’s not the kind of life I want for myself. I’m not meant to be anxious. I want to enjoy my life and go on flights and see the world and be happy and not worry. I want to have children and not worry about my medications, i want my boyfriend to see the fun exciting side of me. I want to be happy and enjoy my life. I fucking hate this. And I’m so close to giving up. My body and mind are so tired. I cry all the time. I’m only 32 years old and have suffered with this since I was 16. I just want to be normal. Sorry for the vent. Anyone else ?