hey guys! uhh first time poster here and on mobile so sorry for bad formatting but I need your guy's help:) I'm 14 (relevant to the story) and back when in sixth grade I dropped out for six months because I couldn't get out of bed. It wasnt depression i dont think i just saw no point, everything seemed muted and i felt like i wasnt myself. i would just like in bed and feel funky about my thoughts. it was like one of those dreams where you're falling and wake up, except you dont wake up. or maybe like playing in 3rd person mode in a game but the game was my life. just a blurr of desaturated emotion. it was there for a little over 9 months and for some reason, it just went away. I went back to school and it was over. recently I've felt myself slipping. this hasn't happened in years and I can feel myself getting dull and emotionless, I can feel my mind and body become just a mixed bowl of grey watered paint. I dont know what this is or what's it called. I'm getting scared all do something I regret, my kinda stranger I'd be very thankful for help of what this is