Why does everything have to be a competition with us ? Like if I’m not the prettiest or smartest person in any environment, I literally want to kms. If my friends are getting more interactions than me on social media, I start resenting them. If they have more friends or are in a good place, it makes me feel so horrible about myself. I don’t want to feel this way but I genuinely can’t make it stop. I remember the one time my friend and I went out and I had a bunch of guys hit on me, she had like 1  ask for her number and I got soooo jealous. I obviously didn’t act out on those thoughts but internally, I was in so much turmoil. I always try to fight these thoughts but they are so overwhelming. I genuinely hate it here lol