I wasn't always like this I think. But this year, I dont know if it's because of CoVid or my imposter syndrome in general, but I have a dissertation to submit for my research degree and things have been overwhelming. I've been letting little things affect me, like my friendships with a few people which are new friendships. I find myself worrying about them and my friendship with them in general,  whether I'm too much, whether I did something wrong, if they're okay, if I've disappointed them, etc. I know this isn't normal because it's become quite debilitating—my chest gets tight, I cry a lot, and I lose the willpower to do things because my mind is stuck on an endless loop of worry. I've never been this insecure about my relationships with people, and I don't think I've been this insecure about my self either. I know people here might have struggled with similar issues so I hope someone has some advice to offer. I'm at my wits end. I cant be giving in to this sense of worry because it's quite draining. It takes me 1 or 2 days to recover and I cant afford to spend that much time since I have real life responsibilities that  I cant always avoid. And I'm just fucking sad and weak when it happens. And I cant let my family see me like this all the time. I feel bad for them. No one wants someone who's constantly panicking or isolating themself because they're too worried to even talk.