I'm nearly 25 years old and I've just been rejected romantically again. I've have never ever been in a relationship. I feel so disgusting. Like an intruder upon genuine society yet so desperate to be apart of it. I've nearly killed myself a million times and I never have because I'm a fucking pussy but also I fundamentally can't seem to let go of hope. I let people treat me like shit as long as they give me bread crumbs of attention because its a temporary relief from the impending loneliness I will have to face for the rest of my life. I wish the universe would kill me and at the same time I wish to live for ever for the chance of fulfillment. I'm beyond exhausted. There is not a word for how I feel. Someone save me. Please.