Maybe I am a terrible person. I try my best not to be but maybe I am bc no matter how hard I try I always end up alone. I'm currently seeing someone but think she will eventually hate me too if she doesn't already. I only want to be there for her but I feel her withdrawal already and I don't blame her. Maybe I'm too much, too needy etc. So sick of struggling to just maintain normalcy for just a short period of time. I don't want to lose her but reality is that she deserves better. I cause pain, annoy, confuse, and am entirely irrational at times. Fml this one is really going to hurt, I've wanted her for a min and now that I have her I just don't think I will be able to keep her. All I can do is try, just falling short gets old.