we all get asked this question at some point in out lives. usually my answer would be “i probably won’t be alive in 10 years,” but i’ve been really detached lately and now when i think about my future, (something i usually don’t do because it’s stressful) for the first time, my mind has created a very vivid picture of what my life would be like in 10 years. i’m rich, lonely, and mentally unstable. the picture i constantly see in my head is me sitting on a couch in a hug living room, drinking a glass of wine and smoking, while i have a bottle of pills next to me. outside of my glass walls, i see the sunset; it’s so beautiful but everything seems so unreal. the feeling that i have at that moment is just overwhelming emptiness and loneliness and i want to give up so bad.. it replays in my head like a memory. I just always think about how i will manage after i push everyone out of my life and completely isolate myself. with any part of my future, i think about how big of a burden my mental issues are. 

on the bright side: i’m rich, so that means i had to be successful in some way right? like it kinda makes me feel good knowing that my mental health didn’t make my life a total loss. 

what about you? what do you see?