I was diagnosed with bipolar a few months ago. Last year, I was in a relationship and incredibly happy. I felt like I was going to be with this person for a long time. 

Flash forward to the summer time, and it seems like there was an immediate switch. I went out on a binge and drank every night for a week when i was out of town for an internship. After that week, everything felt numb and I got severely suicidal. Flash forward to now… and it feels like I haven’t felt any of that again. If anything, I just want to be alone. I’m on meds now for bipolar and I think they might be contributing, but the first time I noticed the numbness was right after a manic episode. 

How do I start to feel again? I’ve always felt things so deeply. I’ve always been very sensitive to both the good and bad. But now it feels like I can’t feel anything at all, and coming off my meds isn’t an option for me right now. I’ve tried a few times and it’s gotten really bad.

How do I feel human again?