I have hypomanic episodes so I have really fucking outlandish ideas but I’m too reasonable to actually go thru with them. Like pretty much every month I come up with this day dream that I’m gonna drop out of school and pack up all my shit and then move out of state and never contact anyone again. In the moment it seems plausible but then I still have that little voice saying no so then low and behold the next day I still show up to school at 7:30  lmfao. But sometimes I’m like fuck I would be so much happier if I wasn’t so reasonable. If I could actually just have the courage to do whatever the fuck I want and live without feeling miserable everyday. And yea that makes no sense and if I followed thru with all my manic thoughts I’d be dead or a drug addict but still