I'm not sure this is the right subreddit for this but idk where else to post. I started a new SSRI that made me suicidal, depressed, and anxious. I've now quit it but the effects are still noticeable.

I haven't slept properly for days and can barely leave my house without crying. My mom just told me "I don't get why you just can't do X, only you can do it, nobody can do it for you. It's not like you have work during your days".

I'm not a person that lashes out often, last time was 2 years ago, but I told her to go fuck herself. I've got ADHD so getting myself to do stuff and having routines is hard enough for me. Now I haven't slept properly in days, I'm so anxious I cry all day long, I don't even have energy to play with my cat properly and she dares to say that and that she understands how I feel.

I wish I could think "Let's do the dishes" and just do them, or think "Let's call a friend" and just call them. I can't though, I really fucking can't no matter how hard I try.

I need to get out of this fucking house. I've been abused my whole upbringing and this is fucked. I'm 19 and hate it here.