I have been diagnosed with bpd for a little over a year and that’s about as long as ive been dating my partner. He is for the most part very understanding with me. He has never shown me any signs of cheating but I have seen him zoom into a picture of a girls ass before and know he watches p*rn. Why does this affect me so bad? I just feel so sick and honestly sad when I see his searches and have told him it makes me uncomfortable but he called me insecure. I know it’s normal for people to be attracted to others but it hurts cause I feel like i’m not enough. On another note if he so little as has a conversation with another girl I get extremely jealous I wish I could control this and just not care about what he does cause I know he loves me and won’t hurt me.