**TLDR:** My best friend has BPD and won't talk to me, so I sent him a gift with everything unnecessarily labeled to show him I still care and love his dry sense of humor (Full album: [I SENT A PACKAGE TO A PERSON](https://imgur.com/a/lclcTwH).).

I thought some of you here may appreciate this story, especially if you feel bad about pushing someone away before they could leave you. 

Today is my best friend's birthday. He has BPD and hasn't talked to me since the beginning of January. Even though he won't even make eye contact when he sees me in public, I still wanted to get him something because I still miss him every day. 

We live about a mile apart, but I didn't feel right about dropping something off on his doorstep or at his work because I wanted to respect the boundaries he set. Instead, I figured I pay the $6 to mail him something across town. As I looked over some gift cards at Target, I realized how lame that would be. I also realized it would be a waste to get a little mailer to send it in, so I got a bigger mailer and just walked around and thought about what I could put in there.

I decided to follow a theme and send him the most egregiously neutral present I could think of that he would still think was dope. I just think it's hilarious to put so much work into something that is both disappointing and awesome at the same time.

I found a birthday card that says, "IT'S YOUR BITHDAY. THIS IS A CARD" on the [front](https://imgur.com/9MuL3Bp). Then, it says, "THIS IS THE INSDE" on the [inside](https://imgur.com/Xw3xv2F), and then nothing on the [back](https://imgur.com/ySv6yfz).  

So naturally everything is unnecessarily labeled to match the tone of the card. This gets it all [in one shot](https://imgur.com/9MuL3Bp), and this is what my favorite asshole is going to find when he [opens an unexpected package](https://imgur.com/YTPRiSe). He's a student and takes pride in his notes and studying. So that's why I decided to give him some awesome supplies to take notes for class and get ready to apply for grad school. 

I got him a full-sized Moleskine, some dope mechanical pencils (science major), my favorite pens, some Post-it labels (not pictured) and a mothafuckin gift receipt. That way, if he's mad at me for caring, he can just return the shit out of it and buy whatever he wants.

Here's the full album with all the text of every note: [I SENT A PACKAGE TO A PERSON](https://imgur.com/a/lclcTwH).

There's a good chance he's going to get pissed that I sent something to him. I don't know, but I love getting people presents. So fuck it—if he gets mad, that sucks, but at least he can fill up pages in his sweet new notebook about how horrible I am in archival-quality ink.

I had so much fun sending him the gift, especially since I know it's going to be a total surprise. At first, my anxiety was going through the roof because I kept thinking about how mad he'll be and all the mean shit he's going to say to me. But then I realized I can't read his mind or see the future. Also, it's not my fault that he told me that I was his closest friend last year. It's definitely not my fault I believe him.

But who knows, maybe I'm just a delusional weirdo that misses a best friend that always hated him. Oh, well. The worst that happens is that he gets mad and tell his girlfriend how horrible I am for getting him such an awesome present. He can throw out $40 of school supplies, or he can return them and buy... School supplies and groceries?

At any rate, I don't expect anything out of it. I don't expect to get a thank you or any sort of acknowledgment. I don't expect that he's going to look me in the eye next time I see him in public. But I hope that no matter what he tells people, he's going to know that deep down that there will always be at least one person who cares for him, no matter what, even if that person is delusional and a "clingy needy ass" that just can't take a hint.

Even if he never talks to me again, that motherfucker is getting a graduation present, a wedding present, and fuck it—if he has kids, I'll send those little assholes a graduation present when they turn 18. After that I'm probably done, and the ball's in his court 😅.