My ex broke up with me but we’re still friends...sorta. More like amenable.
Anyways, I really want to be friends with benefits but he says it might be a bad idea and has been curbing all of my not so subtle advances.

I feel pathetic and undesirable when he says no and because I ask.
But I’m mad and confused at the fact he says no. I’m out of his league in looks but he’s the best lay I’ve had so I don’t want to find a rando to be my fwb. 
I try to look at the situation and imagine someone expecting sex out of me and I see that it’s unhealthy af but I can’t stop splitting on him because I feel like he should say yes.
I’m probably going to keep trying.
I look desperate. 