why does my life has to make me constantly feel pain and pain and pain and after that, something “good” &amp; painful again. Years and years of fucking pain. You recollect your shattered self through pain and try to hope, to be confronted with more “good things” and pain again; you recollect your shattered self and try to hope, to be confronted with more pain; and the cycle is endless.

Never ending misery and pain. I would pay millions to be numb and not feel a damn thing.