I don't want to ask any of my irl people because I think I'll just come off as toxic or weird. 

I had a few instances where I tried to be nice and have been pretty mellow for the last few months just trying to positively vibe with people. But then a few comments in a row by friends are kinda bothering me, I need some help trying to figure out if these are really worth being upset about.

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With all the following people I've had strained but overall loyal friendships, where I've probably overshared a lot but I've tried to get better.

First is a friend who asked if I wanted to go on a walk because we had to rain check last week due to snow. I said I needed to rain check again because I'm not feeling well and it might warm up by next week anyway and our other friend that was going to go is also tied up this week. His response was "ah, sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Same things as always?"

To which I started to wonder if I have been being a burden and oversharing. I havent said anything about stress to this person in probably a month but I did come to them last time I was suicidal.

 I asked them as much, and they said "you're good, I know I can come to you when I feel bad, so equivocally the same for you." 

Which sounds good but it's the "same thing as always" that's giving me pause.

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I get a little frustrated with my cousin who has ADHD but am still overall very patient and they even tell me that they appreciate my patience. I am helping them learn D&amp;D and their disorganization and lack of focus can turn into flakiness and sometimes there's a little tension between us over it but I try to remain as neutral as possible. During our last session they did something clever, so the next day I told them I thought their move was really clever and I was impressed. They said in return "thanks. Good job herding us."

This gives me pause because it felt a little like a slap in the face, like all I've been doing is herding or corralling people, when what I'm trying to do is work hard to create a fun experience for everyone. 

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Last one, I have a friend who uses a different tone and attitude to talk to people. They usually have really deadpan humor or kind of a mocking sense of humor where they act incredulous if you don't know something. I don't particularly like it but I try to just take it as humor. But this time they really argued with me about some things. I think I was catching them up on our last D&amp;D session which they missed that day and we got to talking about a videogame I just finished that they are a big fan of too, and I made pretty innocuous statements in some cases, like saying that it's suspicious that the remastered edition of the game is coming out at the same time as a trailer for a new installment. I was kidding of course, because it's clear that those two things are probably connected but this friend really doubled down on me for saying it was "suspicious" like I was stupid for thinking that and would not let it go. Even when I said "why are you fighting me about this, like why is this the hill you're dying on?" And they said "what do you mean, I'm not fighting you?" After that it was awkward. I tried apologizing for fighting them even though honestly I didn't start it, and they just accepted my apology and seemed confused.

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So like...AITA? Am I just misinterpreting these things and being triggered?  I honest to God cannot tell, and it's just really bothering me, but I know trying to talk about it with them will make it worse like I'm making something out of nothing. I've done that before. But these were just all in a row and I feel like I just kinda am getting kicked when I've been really trying to be better. And the only answer seems to be not to say anything even though it's really bothering me.

Help?