I'm on Buspar 20mg twice a day. 

Nothing I do brings me joy, I'm anxious about everything, and I mean everything. It feels like everyone is out to get me and ruin my life, I have cut my self off from my friends because I feel like I'm bothering them, I don't talk to my wife because I fear I'm bothering her. I'm in constant fear that I'm going to be fired from my job, for what my co-worker says is me over thinking stuff.

My job has forced me to quit all nicotine products or they are going to drop my insurance and now I have no way to cope, and I'm going through withdrawal. 

It seams like everytime I turn around something bad is happening and I dont know how much more of this I can take.

I have other mental problems as well but they seam to be in controle its just this anxiety.

I have made an appointment to see my doctor. But he is going to feed me the same bull shit. I need to quit caffeine, get plenty of sleep, and I need to see a specialist and I dont have the 100 bucks to go visit and I can't afford anymore medication, it's already 350 a month for my meds. 

If anyone has any recommendations on what I can do or what to ask my doctor for it would be much appreciated.