I feel like im stuck, nothing is moving forward. I cant get a job cause i feel like i have no skills even though i have a degree in media, i forgot all of it and my motivation is so fucking low i cant seem to get myself to want anything. I want to die but im scared of it, but i dont want to live. Its like hell. I cant seem to want anything in life. i always have this gloom over me no matter what. I sound like im complaining which i hate and i usually dont want share my feelings but rn i feel so lost and confused and i just want to hear what people here might say i guess. I suspect i have ADHD because i can never focus, even when i start something i start thinking about a million other things, or maybe anxiety or depression and sometimes i believe i have so many disorders that i cant be saved, actually i believe that all the time. I want it to end. Maybe i should get prescription drugs but im scared of getting worse. Has it worked for anyone btw ? 
Hey thanks for reading actually