when you have such a nice period of time doing things with your friends and just knowing who you are, and then suddenly it’s like nothings right anymore, your friends aren’t your real friends and now you’ve been contacting them way too much and then way too little, and it may seem small but literally having no idea what person you want to be that day, im so used to expressing myself externally, with clothing and makeup, and now i just don’t know how to present myself because i don’t know who i am, and you slowly know you’re getting worse and you can’t do any thing about it?