For me it’s the worst thing I associate with being manic / hypomanic….I ended up moving to a whole new country two times for work opportunities when manic and crashing a few months after and when my episodes are shorter I tend to disappear for days without warning anyone and taking a train ticket for a random city. It’s starting to really worry me because it impacts my relationships my job and my trust in myself :( I don’t want to wake up again one day and not understand why I am in the place I am