My therapist forgot about our zoom session and I texted her and called her about it and it seemed to trigger my fear of abandonment and I felt like I was going to cry. Which does not seem healthy. But I was afraid I was going to have to find a new therapist bc it was hard to find one who took my insurance in the first place and I also like my therapist and I also don’t want to have to get into my shitty childhood with a new person. She got back to me eventually and we started late and it made me kind of feel like a burden and less enthusiastic about the whole thing. That’s it