So the past two weeks have been a whirlwind. I’ve been splitting on my mom and friends. 

Recently I confessed my feelings to my fp who told me he doesn’t have the same for me. He’s the only person I talk to and from our text messages I thought he’d feel the same. Now that I know he doesn’t I’m hurt and I feel off. I want to kill myself to be quite honest. Of course I’m not going to do it but I’m so devastated that I don’t know what to do. Recently he’s been busy with work so he doesn’t talk to me anymore. I’m constantly left alone with my thoughts and I can’t leave my house so I’m just alone all the time. My antidepressants don’t work anymore, my next psychiatrist appointment isn’t for weeks I feel like I’m going to break soon and I don’t know if I can handle it…

How do I stop myself from going crazy? Everyday is a constant battle that I don’t know if I can take