This is just a vent 

But omg some people just don't get what it's like to have BPD. No matter how you try to explain it, work with the person and being patient with them because I've been on both sides of BPD. 

But like the urge to just let go and fully split on them sometimes is insane but also knowing id probably really hurt their feelings over something built up anger and rage. When I tell them no to something they see it as an invitation to keep pushing. Stop fucking pushing. Because I'm just gonna let all this rage go 

There isn't really a lot of outlets where you can just fully let go of it without hurting anyone else or even yourself. 

Gonna try and find some local rage rooms maybe. Anyway yeah had to get that off my chest.