i (m21) found my bf (m23) looking at girls again. 

i found him doing this about a year ago and i thought he’s changed. 

he seemed so empathetic and genuinely seemed like he wanted to change and did. 

but i found him doing the same thing he told me he’d stopped and lied to me about it all this time. he knows my boundaries and i’ve communicated to him many times and i really thought he understood and cared. 

i don’t know what to do. i live with him and we do love each other very much and i don’t want to be apart from him. he’s so sweet and helpful and is overall such a good person but i can’t handle my boundaries being overstepped like this again. 

i packed my things and left the vids up so when he gets home he’ll understand how hurt i am. i don’t even want to look at him. 

i really need help. i don’t know what to do now. don’t tell me to leave him. i want to work this out but i don’t know how. we’re too invested in each other’s lives for me to just leave. i couldn’t handle that and would probably end up k*llling myself.