I’ve only had it for a week and I feel like I wanna sit and cry all day. I can’t look at little girls without anxiety, I can’t think of sex without intrusive images of kids doing disgusting things. It feels like I’m in denial. I’m 17 and have been attracted to woman all my life. I remember before I turned 17 there was a 14 year old girl I found attractive

PS: I’m in the car typing this and literally almost had a panic attack as I was typing this. I’m shaking and my heart rate is so high right now. I’ve relapsed hard into OCD. My old OCD never gave me panic attacks