Hey all first post in this group. I suffer from anxiety and I had a lot of health problems growing up. Now as I’ve gotten older most of them are under control, but I feel like I’m super vigilant to any physical changes because of my childhood. I try not to be a hypochondriac but it’s hard not to be wary of illness when you were a prisoner to your body as a child. Recently this week I noticed some discoloration on my breast and thought it was worth making an appointment for. After making the appointment I decided to give myself a breast exam and found a decently large lump in my breast. Of course I will point this out at my doctors appointment. I’m sure it’s not likely anything serious but my brain instantly goes to cancer. While I’m sure it’s probably something not serious or benign it is just terrifying to have to wait for so long to be seen with COVID and be stuck with racing thoughts of all the bad things it could be. It’s awful to think that it’s something terrible and then I get mad at myself for thinking that way. I tell myself to think about other things and try to distract myself but it’s hard to get my brain off the topic. It’s a vicious cycle and I just want to yell at my brain to shut up. I know going to the doctor is the only way to get out the of the cycle of worrying and being mad at myself for worrying, but the waiting to get there sucks. Thanks to anyone who read this post I think we all need a safe space to vent once in a while!