As the title suggests, I feel lost. My girlfriend recently broke up with me and it’s just hurting. My chest aches every time I think of her. My life feels like it’s been going downhill. It’s almost winter break and I have to go back home where she is. I don’t want to see all the places that we went to and visited. It scares me to think of the wave of emotion I’ll feel if I see these places. The breakup has been tough for me. There are days I want to talk to her and share how I’ve been feeling, but I know that she won’t want to. Life hasn’t been the same without her. I’ve thought about ending my life. I’ve thought about how satisfying it’ll be to finally not feel this pain that lingers within me. Every time I think about my death, it brings me slight happiness. I am lost right now. This post may not make it seem like I’m lost but please believe me, I am lost. 
Thank you for reading.