I just don’t feel like dealing with the holiday season. It’s just exhausting to act like I want to be around my family and my in-laws. My mom tries to treat me like I’m her therapist no matter how many times I state my boundaries. I have to walk on egg shells around my sister because if I ask a question the wrong way, she’ll go into a full blown panic attack and think I hate her. Then my dad decides this is the one time of year he wants to get the house together because my perfect brother is coming in from out of town and we must all bow down to him and pretend that we aren’t a family of mental fuck ups. My husband is working through a new ADHD diagnosis and I’m trying to not lose my shit on him as he gets under my skin. It’s just too much!

I just don’t have the energy to fake being normal today. But if I don’t, everyone’s gonna keep asking me what’s wrong and then say I’m being rude when I’m honest and say being around them is what’s driving me nuts.