im not sure if i should talk about this on here but i’m gonna give it a shot. about an hour ago i was pacing in a circle in my room talking to myself and repeating the same things over and over again and having a conversation with myself occasionally grabbing my head or standing against the wall. i convinced myself i wasn’t real and only once or twice i realized how insane i sounded. after a while i was staring in the mirror talking to myself then i told myself to get in the shower. i took a shower and the water felt really good so i took a bath and while the tub was filling i put my head against the tub to listen. after the shower i calmed down and now i’m here. that was one of the first times in my life i’ve felt out of my mind. i felt it coming beforehand too, i even texted my boyfriend saying something like “i think i’m actually going crazy”. i just don’t know what this was called. a breakdown maybe? i’m not sure.