UK just got locked down. I’ve been fighting incredibly hard to push away the suicidal thoughts and control the self harm urges the past couple months but this is just too much.
I don’t want to use up the NHS’s precious resources and time with another hospitalisation for self harm or botched attempts. So my fucking intrusive thoughts tell me to successfully end it this time.
Living situation is unbearable because my alcoholic family is dysfunctional as fuck. I’m nearly out of benzos and will die from a seizure anyway.
Absolutely zero self-worth.
Mood swings are getting waaay worse and very violent and destructive lately.