I dunno, I'm posting here cuz I think I'm having an episode but it's hard to tell through all the booze. Im so touch starved and lonely in the presence of loving people that I just don't know what to feel anymore. I have moments where the fog clears and I realize how truly depressed I really am, but it's like I'm pretending so well I fool myself sometimes. Sometimes I feel fine and normal, and other times, like rn, I feel like I'm a hopeless messa nd it's only a matter of time.before I'm dead. I dunno... Anyone wanna talk? I dunno lmfao I just don't even know what I'm doing anymore..