This is a text I got from my roommate today: 

" Please clean...I don't get why I need to ASK you when you NEVER need to ask me to do my part. Tomorrow's my day off and for once I would like to not have to clean on that day so fricking move please" 

I actually was in a really good mood today when I got home and planned on cleaning and doing dishes but she was sleeping (in the afternoon bc she's working an overnight shift) so I didn't want to wake her? And then I ended up passing out on the couch and now it's 9pm and this is what I wake up to and even before I saw this my mood had already plummeted from napping 
We've been friends for 13 years and right now I'm splitting and I either want to clean everything and curl up and die or respond with something snarky and angry?? I can't use my dbt skills and idk what emotions I'm experiencing rn. 
I feel like a POS but I thought that I've been doing well lately with chores and I've been struggling mentally lately but my life looks okay from afar since I have a part time job and sleep in my spare time? Like I feel like I should be picking up the slack but idk how to tell her(who is super stressed right now bc she's doing full time school and working a full time management position?) that I do need reminders? I wanted to respond with something like wow sorry you don't come home to a perfectly clean apartment fuck off?? But I can tell it's my bpd mind lashing out
I just suck at communicating and I feel guilty since I have all this "free" time that I'm wasting and she's busy 80hours of the week?? Like how do I say" I want to legitimately die and idk why even tho my life is v chill and my only job is to clean." 
Vent over and now I'm going to stay up all night and clean, go to therapy and sleep 