so having bpd i feel like my emotions are so drastic yet to me it feels normal, i dont know anything else besides the extremes. when i like someone it feels like i love them, i dont know if i've ever actually been in love before but the thought of being in love terrifies me if just really liking someone is so strong. i'm currently dating a really sweet guy he tries his best to understand me and is very supportive but it's hard to be with someone when it feels like we process everything so differently. 

i feel like i don't know how to differentiate my feelings like what's real and what's just my bpd exaggerating things. in my head i feel like i'm ready to tell him that i love him but it's only been 4 months, obviously i'm keeping it to myself i'm not trying to scare him away but do any of you struggle with feeling like because you have bpd you'll ALWAYS have stronger feelings and "love" people more than they can love you simply because they don't have these same types of intense emotions?? 

i just sat in my room before typing this out and kind of bawled thinking about how i'll always be the one giving more of myself because it's a natural thing for me to want to give my all to someone but regular stable people just aren't like that