TW : condoleances. 

Ugh ! I asked my date / FP to see each other today. He did not answer for 12 hours, only after I sent him another message asking if I should be worried (it was hard to wait that long OMG …). 

I spent the day splitting, crying, running every scenario of how I’m a terrible person that will never find love. 

Turns out he cut his phone off because he just got the news of an acquaintance’s passing away. 

I hate that I immediately went into panic mode. I hate that I instantly turned everything into a me story. I hate that I allow myself to think that it was my fault. 😡