So it's very complicated but i hope you'll understand whend you're done reading. So there was this girl and we we were good friends and we spent almost everyday together at school. But soon i caught feelings for her and after some time i thought it woul'd be fair to tell her cause we've spent so much time together i've also talked about it wiht my friends an they agreed so i told her. Her reaction was incerdibly disgusting. She told me that she wnats some distance (i totaly understood that btw) but her reason why was that she found it unpleasant cause "i've toutched her on a birthdayparty". The point is that i've never done that and everybody who was there knows and confirmed that. That was like a hit straight in the face. But i couldn't say something against it cause i drank some alcohol and i'm a man who's gonna belive me? I felt like i never was good enough and all the things i've done for her were worthless. I felt so alone after that and 1 Month later she apologized and we started to do it like before. But it was eating me up inside that she did that and she never confessd that the toching thing was a lie she just apologized that she dindn't just said that she wants distance. So after a couple weeks i've cancled the contact to her but i still can't forget her and life feels so empty wothout her. I haven't got pleasure for anything and my friends can't really give me advice cause they've never been through shit like this before. So can anyone help me out?