TW// Food and Eating Disorders 

I’m not sure if this is the right place for this other than the fact that I have BPD and i know most of my issues stem from that. 

Anyway, so, my fp (who is still unfortunately my fp) broke up with me two months ago and i handled it pretty hard. i made a post about it before and things still suck but i’m working through them. 

the actual problem is that i’ve nearly stopped eating. food used to bring me so much joy, SO much joy, and after the break up it just… stopped. every food i ate made me sick and miserable. and as someone who just loved food so much, i didn’t eat to sustain myself ever, just when it would make me happy. 

because of that, i’m averaging like 600 calories a day (mostly liquids) and am losing weight rapidly. i’m trying so hard to eat more but the hungry feeling has started to feel comfortable and i don’t know what to do. 

it’s like when i get better at some aspects of my mental health (i’ve stopped alcohol and caffeine, my living space is clean, i shower regularly and do my work), i destroy some other facet of it. 

if anyone’s experienced this and has advice, i’d really appreciate it.