I made a post on here a few days ago saying I hate cosmetology school. But I hated college too. So if I drop out of cosmetology school I'm working at Walmart for the rest of my life. But honestly I have no will to live and no ambition in life so I'd be fine with it. Every day at cosmetology school I feel absolutely horrible. All I want to do is lay down and sleep and my smile there is fake. Today something happened that felt like the last straw. I was standing behind a girl in my class, waiting for her to pack her things up and the girl next to her told her "move up so people can walk past you." As I was walking past the girl, she said "it doesn't hurt to say excuse me." I think that girl hates me and I can't stand being in a class with someone who sees me like that. I just want to leave this place.

 I think im going to kms in a few months, I just have to be ready and be prepared to go through with my decision. I am not meant to be here. I don't want to be here. I don't want a normal job. I have no excitement about anything and id rather die.