So I had a really bad breakup about a year ago, and I’ve sworn off dating till I turn 18 because I genuinely fear my bpd, and the type of person it can turn me into.
I’ve had plenty of time to come to terms with my relationship ending, but when I say it severely fucked me up (even though it was only 3 months) I mean it.
Anyways just recently like last night I kissed this guy I’ve been talking too it was all very unexpected but there was tension between us.
It was a long kiss, but I’m not sure if it actually meant anything or if I’m reading to far into it?  I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that emotions are complicated and not everything is so black and white. But I feel like my mind has already caught feelings and I really don’t know him as well as I want to, but for some reason I feel myself getting attached already.

I’ve always had trouble taking these things slow but I really am curious where this could go and I really don’t want to mess it up.  Any tips?