TW: sh

Let's get out of the way the fact that I've never been diagnosed. Talking to my previous therapist was like talking to a wall, even after I told her I self harmed, had constant panic attacks and thoughts about kms. I'm about to meet with a new therapist in a couple days and I've just been thinking that maybe I had bpd, I'm not diagnosing myself I just really want to know what's the cause of all of these things I'm feeling.

How do I ask her if maybe it's bpd? Should I ask her? Or should I just wait until she says something?

Life is getting harder by the minute for me and the constant mood swings aren't helping, I'm also in college and I'm scared that with exams coming up I'll just break down and not get back up.