I've been working without rest or breaks for a years and I'm not even that old, but Christ, I'm so very tired. I don't feel comfortable at my room in my uni but i can't stay at home either, because all my mother does is remind me how much of a burden I am, how much she hates me, how much I ruin everyone's lives and how much of her money I waste. And the uni keeps trying to actively fuck me over, where everything I've done over the past has been rendered completely useless by a decision they made for me, without even letting me know. I've been diagnosed with severe depression and the meds i was initially prescribed made it worse to a point that I was too depressed to even go see the doctor again, and now i cannot. I have to start all over again, in all aspects. I don't feel anything except pain anymore, and I can feel myself getting worse, and every time i try to get better it somehow always gets worse. It's taking a toll on my friends too, and all I feel like doing is driving them away and never talking to them again because i don't want to hurt them, but they're the only reason I'm alive. I have no support from any adult whatsoever, and the only person who can take care of me is myself. I don't know what the point of going on is. It just feels like everyone would be better off without me. I don't know what my future is. I don't want to fight forever, I just want to rest for a few days. I'm really really tired.