TW: brief mention of SA and suicidal thoughts 

I am struggling with so many medical issues along with weight problems due to PCOD, I have a rocky relationship with my antidepressants and I am just so so tired. Its so hard for me to do anything. I don't understand my mom, she understands me enough to let me get help but that's where her udrstanding stops. I wake up, I'm getting told off by her. I get that me not being an active helper in household chores pisses her off but its not like she has to do all of it alone, we have helpers and ugh she's frustrated over my younger brother and other stuff and I feel that just makers her angrier at me. my father doesn't give two shits, despite being a doctor, he thinks i haven't gone through anything that would make me get this way (funnily enoughi have, from SA to bullying to suicidal thoughts ive had them all) ...no matter how much I try I can't make anyone understand that "depression" doesn't mean crying 24/7...getting out of bed is so hard. I am so tired of fighting with my mom, she's overbearing, she wants everything done HER way, even my healing process has to be the way she likes it. I struggle to reach out because i have been told that my problems make other people sad and troubled and I don't want anyone to feel forced into listening to me. I suppose that's why I'm here venting, sorry if like none of that made sense 💀