i was in the bathroom and everything through my mind was going shitty. I felt like there was no air to breath and felt like i was not listening to anything from the other room, my parents, my siblings...i relapsed and started cutting again :(*  and everything was going "great" or so i thought but what the fuck is wrong with me. And after i got up ready to leave the bathroom and i heard my father say to me he will take me to a test for school that i missed last week...which i screamed no i wont go.  And i miss all those opportunities to do better, be better that now..i am just on survival mode all this time, all those months. And everyone is on their own world...life goes on.