Needles are probably my second massive phobia, only being kicked to second by my fear of vomiting which drives my anxiety. I have acute anxiety and would probably describe it as just below agoraphobic. I’m getting a service dog for the anxiety and PTSD in a few months and currently I’m on lorazepam which is taken only when I’m in an anxiety attack or know I’m going to have one. (If I’m unable to control it that is)


 I also have vasovagal syncope. It’s a common and shitty disorder which I wish would die off. The higher my anxiety and stress, the more likely it will occur. My own mind is a dick to me about it too. It usually happens a minute after I got any type of injection, just enough to let me think I’m in the clear. There is a possibility that absolutely nothing will happen and that’s what I’m aiming for. I’m getting the Johnson and Johnson because it’s only one shot and I’m prone to passing out when I get shots so I didn’t want to be humiliated in a huge hospital full of already nervous and impatient people. 


While, I’ve been able to be decent with my anxiety about the injection, my anxiety is now deciding to attempt to work me up which is NOT what I need or want. I’m not sure what to do but ignore it. I’ll be taking my anxiety medicine tomorrow because without it, the effects are so much more worse.