I have had a fight with my friends, sometimes I just bother interacting with people. It all started when I got engaged, whatever I did, for my friends it was wrong.  I also quarreled heavily with a very dear friend, who now I do not want to see and hear anymore, because according to him I would have neglected him when it is actually quite the opposite.  He told false stories and muddied me in the eyes of my friends only to pass for the good of the situation, thus making me pass for the bad one.  I constantly feel that no one cares more than me, they only remember your worst moments.  Sometimes I wonder why I deserve all this, where did I go wrong and what can I do to fix it, but day after day I can't find an answer and I wonder if it is better this way, that I remain alone and always be excluded, and those few Sometimes I am called only for a personal interest.  I'm tired of being treated like I don't deserve, apparently the more good you do, the less you get. Having a girlfriend helps, I feel less alone but having sincere friends is another story.  Words are heavy but apparently no one notices it.