For me, life just consists constant waves of work, even if i finish one thing in thousands of more things to do there would be more to come. I don't understand how the majority of people can go through all of this shit. I always say to myself "I've done enough in this day", but in reality i had only catched a miniscule amount of a constant flowing waves of work. I always say to myself "I will just do better next time" but it always ends up me doing worse and sometimes i will even reach the point of not even trying. I just can't be, will never, and will not be enough.

Adding the fact that im only in middle school and im already struggling this much, for my classmates school is just a side thing that they do and they do infinitely better than me, they have social lives, they have passions, they have things that they are good at, they do things that are helping their parents. The future is also a thing, if im already struggling this much, how can i survive the workforce? I will also land on a dead end job or possibly not even getting a job and becoming more of a burden to my parents more than im already am because of my bad grades that are also constantly getting worse. I feel like im just too weak for this world to be honest, i want to die.

Therapy isn't a thing in here either, my parents would surely won't take me there because of financial reasons and they don't believe in mental health, aaand they are also very religious. 

Life is not for the weak i guess.