I cant relax. I cant stop thinking about death. what even is life. what’s the point. I don’t feel real half the time. when I go out I get such bad anxiety I can’t even function. I’m so tired of this. why cant I ever be happy and just be careless. I’ve had anxiety my entire life. I just can’t stop thinking about dying. it’s causing me to not even be able to think straight. it scares me so much. nothing is helping.