I'm a quiet BPD 'sufferer'.. I've always been the same person with the same mind but I feel like I've went through train wreck of useless emotions and suffering.. Even when I isolate myself from social relationships (I've been better off being an 'introvert' lately rather than facing my insecurities, uncontrollable mood swings and emotions)

I have not been diagnosed with BPD yet.. I'm thinking of seeing a psychiatrist for diagnosis, and psychotherapist for treating.. I need therapy big-time.. 

Don't need to respond to this, just felt like I needed to write this down.. 

Maybe someone can advise me.. Tell me your experience? Opinion? What's truly going on in my mind?

Thanks reddit!.

Note : I'm a 16 year old boy.