I've been struggling with a depressive spiral that has caused me to miss therapy appointments and lead to my therapist dropping me. This was the first therapist who took me seriously about ADHD and who I actually liked. I'm at a loss. I've been everywhere else in town and either I can't afford it or they didn't work for me. This has plunged me deeper into my depression to the point where I'm not sure there's anything left to do. I'm never going to be healthy. I'm never going to be a good person. I just want to be done with everything, but I can't hurt my family like that. But which hurts them more? Losing me or the fact that I'm a disabled leech who can't get anything right and just screws everything up? I just don't see the point in trying when I can't keep on the right track.