So I am a medicine student, always trying to keep a smile on my face, I have ended in a really big hole, so I was living with now my ex girlfriend for more than a year, she made me make ideas for the future that I even didn't think about them, like having kids, etc... So o thought that I was just doing fine after she left, recovering myself but then my uncle killed himself, and I felt down on the rabbits hole, I just keep listening to music all day long to maybe get back up, but I just can't smile, can't feel anything, I'm at a moment that I'm only surviving.