I really want to get this shit out of my chest. Im alone and crying I took my anti depressants more than prescribed because of that fucking video that I just watched from INSIDER please don't tell me it's my fault for watching it because I can't handle being blamed right now.. So I watched a news video from Texas about a man shot by his ex-wife's boyfriend about custody sh*t or something. and I become hysterical when the guy full the trigger and heard the gun fired even it's censored but the gun fire sound in the video triggered me and I have a trauma of watching someone die with gun shot and this shit in the news shown remind me of that. Made me so anxious and I got a psychosis for a minute. I call my mom and she's going here in my apartment but she's not here yet. And I'm still crying from that. I wish that bastard who killed the man die! I don't care if he thinks its self-defense he even said somewhere in this phrase "I told you this might happened" I fvcking hate murderers. fvck!!!!!!