so this is kind of like the first time I've ever had to reach out for help. I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety, the infamous combo. I've been getting by without too much trouble but my exams started recently and it's been about two years since I've started taking meds cause this thing started effecting my day to day life around that time. the problem is that when I'm on meds I'm spacing out a lot, i can't  concentrate at all and everything feels surreal. so since the exams were near I thought id stop taking the pills cause that way I'll be able to concentrate more. and I got to say it was a really stupid idea. prior to all this I used to score at least 75% on every test and with meds I can barely even understand what I'm reading, now without it looking at the book makes my eyes go dark.  


I really think my brain is now fried or something cause I just can't remember ANYTHING I studied when I am attending the exam. as soon I get inside the room my vision goes darker, hearts going like a freaking car engine and suddenly I have to pee even though I just did. I think the trigger is that I'm asking for validation from someone else I'm still not 100% sure what it is. but I've been successfully failing most of my exams recently. I used to be called gifted when I was younger and now I can't even think of a damn thing. when I'm trying to study and my mind just goes blank. I'm starting to get tired of this.... I mean like is it really worth it living like this....  


i just wanna know if there's anyway i could handle this...