Ok. 

So I really hate my current job. I am ONLY at it because I need to support myself and, more importantly, need the health insurance, because I have a recurring health problem that I’m finally going to get figured out at the end of the month.

I have an acquaintance from my old job that says they are extremely short staffed. Hmm. I didn’t totally hate my last job. There was some aspects to it that make it difficult, it’s a pay cut if I were to go back, but right now it seems like a much better option.

The pay cut I could handle. The only thing I’m worried about is if they’ll even consider me. I was fired because I dropped dirty on a drug test after getting injured (weed). I’m so worried that they might not consider me that I’m already talking myself out of applying.

But folks, I HATE my current job. It is not something I ever planned on making into a career, most of my direct coworkers are toxic, self centered people. I loathe every day. I only look forward to the weekends. Even then, I get upset by Sunday, because I know I have to go back to work the next day.

I just don’t want to glorify my previous job, possibly go back, and end up in the same boat. But I need out of my current job. I’m getting thoughts of just quitting my current job with no backup plan. Which, obviously, is moronic, but I am impulsive, and even more so when my moods are low.

Any thoughts? I know this is very -me- specific, but I just... I dunno. I gotta get out. And i want to do it with a back up plan.