I’m 15 and I really need help for my anxiety because it’s given me a horrible life. I’ve always had bad friends who I let walk all over me and bully me, I can’t date because I’m too afraid I’ll cross my partners boundaries or make them uncomfortable which leads to me giving them no affection, I can’t even go to school because of it. My anxiety has gotten a lot worse over the last couple years. At 13 I went into high school and it was the worst school experience I’ve ever had, all the switching classes with new teachers and new classmates every hour gave me so much anxiety that I started skipping a lot and eventually got enrolled in an alternative school which was a bit better but still hard for me. I slowly stopped going and I now don’t go at all, I’m going into 8th grade this September when I’m supposed to be going into 10th grade (going into 9th grade in social studies but still really behind) I only have one friend but when we hangout with anyone else ,which is rare, she kinda treats me like shit and even when we’re alone she won’t listen to my interests. I’ve been on anxiety meds before but they didn’t help and I had an appointment for cognitive behavioural therapy with the therapist I’ve been seeing on and off for the past couple years, but she has never helped me so I told my mom no. I need to get my anxiety treated or I’ll end up alone with not even a highschool education, I just want to be a normal teenager and go to a regular highschool and have friends and date. My anxiety has led to me isolating myself, becoming depressed and suicidal, if I don’t get treatment for this soon I’m going to kill myself because I can’t live like this