I feel likw a fucking failure. The past 2 years my mental health has just become worse and worse and today im a fat fucking piece of shit just sleeping and playing video games all day. Everyone makes me feel like a failure, it seems like my dad is litteraly embarrassed that im his son and my mom is bscly treating me like im never gonna become anything. My sister is fucking treating me like shit, always making me feel like shit and every fucking day is the same routine. I wake up, play some video games, go out of my room and instantly i get thrown a comment from either my dad or sister and then i just go back in my room for the rest of the day because i feel like fucking trash. I cant even fucking cut myself because its stupid hot here in this shit nordic country called norway so i have to wear a tshirt.. I want to get help, i want to start training but im so fucking scared of being judged and the fact that i dont have any friends irl makes everything worse. I really dont know what the fuck to do and i feel like im getting really close to taking a kitchen knife and slicing up my wrists while drinking some old ass strong alchohol that my parents dont / wont drink. :-) have a nice day :-)