(18M) I didn’t finish high school, I can’t seem to get a job, I applied to the most simple of places and got no answer or denied, I have a deformed body and physical pains and so much more bullshit so it’s clear what the universe is saying I’ve seen the signs and had a plan for them but they just keep getting more obvious and what I’m supposed to do does as well, I’m meant to kill myself. That’s all there is for me, Maybe after leaving this body I’ll be in a more enjoyable place, I want to kill myself because there’s some sort of power to that I guess.