tw suicide

i don’t know how to cope with my life anymore. my favorite person blocked me. i feel awful. i cant describe the amount of emotional distress i’m in. every waking thought i have is about them. i feel so suicidal now that they’re gone. when they left me in april i attempted and it failed. i’m so close to attempting again. i just don’t see the point in living anymore. i don’t know how to exist. how do you deal with this amount of emotional pain? please help me. i cant deal with this for much longer.