So it's been like months that i haven't had any Anxiety attacks so i naturally thought maybe I'm better now, so i stopped going to my therapist for 3-4 months because I felt like I didn't need therapy anymore, plus it's expensive af. But today during a lecture in college those symptoms started coming out randomly I felt like I had to do something or else something bad will happen I've never cried in public before so in order for my classmates to not see me crying I somehow managed to get out of class before I burst into tears I walked back to my dorm crying.... Sounds stupid ik but I couldn't hold back anymore.. And yes I don't know why I didn't go to the toilet instead. 
I am really exhausted from going to therapy and constantly feeling this way. I've been searching for whatever my trigger is but I still can't pin point what exactly it is.