I just don't know anymore.

A few days ago I spoke to a psychiatrist for the first time and she said that while antidepressant would probably work well in my situation, I can't take them because they conflict with the anticonvulsants I already need to take.

The only way to make it work would be staying in a clinic for 6-8 weeks and try which antidepressants would work without causing too many seizures.

I haven't had a seizure in 7 years and I have to risk that for some improvement I may get? 

The epilepsy is one of the reasons for my depression ffs.