anxiety has been there, been trying to work on it and i think its finally going well. but now i have more and more stressful things, ive started to feel more depressive. or something. or then just purely stressed. i havent been cleaning up(i used to like it. my apartment is an embarrassing mess now) and meeting friends seems pointless, doesnt feel fun, i just cant talk much anymore and im always about to cry but i cant. :(  at the same time i feel so so lonely, but dont have energy to socialize.