A number of years ago I was very depressed. Was on antidepressants for 3 years and had a breakdown. I managed to after this bin my antidepressants and work on myself. 

I lost 4 stone and was really happy. I got a girlfriend who I loved and still do love. 
I recently have been trying to buy a house and have just succeeded. This has really worried my girlfriend who is also prone to depression. She thinks when I get a house I would have left her because I didn’t want her to move in right away. 

I’ve never lived on my own. I still live with my parents and I’m 25. I’ve stayed at home for the sole purpose of being able to buy somewhere. My girlfriend has been living out of home since she was 18. 

We kept on arguing so much recently and she dumped me and asked me back then dumped me and asked me back and dumped me again. 

I love her so very much and she still loves me but I know I can’t get back with her because I will not feel stable in doing so and I feel like I’ll be waiting for it to fall apart again. 

I’ve known her for years but we were in a relationship for one year. I know it’s not a long time but we were seeing each other so much throughout that year that life just feels lonely now. It’s been a week since we talked. I should be happy something I’ve been working on for years is taking fruition, but my heart just hurts. 

Just wanted to vent to strangers I guess! Hope things are working in your favour Redditor’s