I don’t think I have a future, I have no interest in anything no idea how to do anything, I don’t understand how people live and function, I feel like my future doesn’t exist, I’ve never held a job long than two months, I’m riddled with anxiety and being around people just makes me fold in on myself and end myself, I’m 21 and feel like I’m dead already, I take medicine, live with my parent and other messed up siblings, I’m not the only one and honestly I don’t see how much long any of this will last, I really want a life, a source of income but it all seems so out of reach in fact I think it’s nonexistent.