I don't want to be loved, I don't want to rely on other people yet I do without knowing it so I end up taking and taking thinking I don't owe anybody shit, people say deep down everybody wants to be loved but I really don't and that doesn't make me special as much as I would like it to, no one is jealous of me as much as I may believe it. It's like I've shot myself without even thinking of loading the gun, I'm responsible but I'm not aware