i want someone to tell me that it’s worth it. someone to tell me to wait, to not kill myself, because i’ll actually be happy. that i’ll actually enjoy my life and it won’t feel like a chore. because that’s all it is right now and none of it feels worth it for an “ok” life, a day job, a possible family, just a mediocre life. and living with depression for the rest of my life. i don’t really believe that i’ll actually be happy and enjoy life. i feel like i should just get it over with before i have to suffer any longer. :/