Has anyone else obsessed over a FP who cut off all contact with you for three years or longer? I feel so stupid, I feel like I should be over it. Heck we're sort of back in contact (meaning we have only texted again, they were all positive texts) but I think it made the obsession worse. Literally *every* single second of everyday I think about her. I think about all of the conversations we had, I cry over the memories and *everything* is about her. It can be the smallest thing and I'll think of her. 

Her cutting me off was the hardest thing I have ever faced in my life (I pray with all my heart I won't face anything more difficult than that because it was awful), and I know we will never be close like we once were. Her Birthday is Friday and I know I shouldn't text or call for my mental health's sake, but I haven't heard her voice in over three years and I'm dying to talk to her. It will probably make me obsess even more, but I feel I cannot live without her, even if it's the last conversation we have then that will be better than nothing. 

Please let me know I'm not alone, that I'm not the only one who still obsesses and constantly thinks about their FP for years on end. It's so annoying, and I want it to stop. I have no idea how to stop, and I don't know how to stop living in the past and breaking my own fucking heart. 