I'm scared to go to sleep tonight. My paranoia has been up, maybe, or whatever hallucinations have been happening, but I've been experiencing terror at loud noises. I know the fireworks will start, and I'll wake up again and be afraid, and experiencing anxiety symptoms. My sleep has been absolut crap anyway, so not sleeping won't mess with me so much, might even be favourable because with all the dreams/nightmares and interruptions, sleeping has been more draining than anything. But, bottom line, I'm just scared of experiencing that fear. I've been contemplating extremes today, not to face it.