So I had wanted to go to this one country since I was little and I finally managed to study abroad in that country.

I was really enjoying hanging out at the University campus there and was making so many friends and amazing memories and was starting to once in my life not suffer from depression. 

Unfortunately one of my friends I made was actually massively racist (the country definitely has a SERIOUS racism problem.)

They would say things here and there that showed their racism, really messed up stuff. Eventually I stapped hanging out with them for obvious reasons.

Then, they made up some bullsh about me and got me in trouble with the university there. So I don't think I can go to the campus again. Amd I was really wanting to do my graduate college work there too.......

I ended up looking at pictures of the university from google search the other night and it brings back SO MANY awesome memories and I AM JUST SO FUCKNG SAD BECAUSE I can never go to the place where all of those memories are.

Sometimes I want to sign up anyway but I know I probably can't return because of that racist basterd!

Sometimes I want to go to a university with a similar campus but no matter how hard I search, I cannot find a campus that has the same open atmosphere  and beautiful architecture etc. like this campus in the country I went to

. I'm so fucking depressed. 

I can't go back to this University campus that I have so many memories of and FUCK EVERYTHING I HATE PEOPLE AND F FUCK DUCK FUCK.