I thought I was doing better. I have a new job. I have a best friend which I never thought I would have again. 
But I feel so lonely. And I’m so stressed. Idk what to do. It’s making me want to self harm and that’s a thought I thought I’d never have again. Idk what to do. I need to go back to therapy but I forgot how hard it was to start going. I will go. But I have to check the benefits for my new job and see if that will cover it.
The new job scares me. I don’t know why I keep choosing jobs that make my social anxiety worse.
I wish I hadn’t stopped taking meds. 
I feel so alone.