Every week in my (online) math class, there is a formula quiz so it’s very easy to do well if you have the cheat sheet. However, the teacher is extremely strict about cheating and makes everyone show their face and hands at all times on the video call. I can’t help myself but have the cheat sheet next to me (out of frame) and copy off sometimes. 

He has never noticed I guess until this second semester. A few days ago, I couldn’t see my cheat sheet clearly so I raised my head slightly out of frame and for a long period of time. So later that day, he sent me an email saying that my camera angle was bad and to fix it before the next test. Even though that’s all he said, I think he plans on not grading my formula quizzes anymore. He usually grades quizzes by the next day but he still hasn’t done it, at least for me. I also have a feeling that he somehow caught me cheating on the quiz prior because my grade isn’t in the grade book for that either. I’ll ask other classmates if he’s put in the grades for them, but part of me doesn’t want to know. 

I’m a senior in high school yet I feel the need to risk getting caught cheating. Even though I’m in online school I should not have done this, especially in this class. I feel extremely guilty for feeling like a verified cheater now that he probably knows. I am scared that he will give me 0s or worse, report me. Cheating is a common thing at my school, but people do way better than me at concealing it. And so I have gradually started cheating, especially during online school because it’s extremely tempting. 

I wish I had some person in my life to vent to but I have no friends and my sister doesn’t care. I wish I could stop thinking and panicking over this issue and just move on to do other things, especially now that it’s the weekend. Idk what to do I wish I was more chill and just let things be.