Throwing this out into the void because I just need to throw it somewhere.

As the title says, I've lost everything while struggling with my mental health. Clinically diagnosed with MDD and GAD. This has been going on for over a year now with no signs of letting up. I am seeing two psychologists/therapists, a psychiatrist, and am taking four pills a day at maximum dosage, but none of it seems to work. In a matter of twelve months, my mental struggles have managed to end a 5+ year relationship due to my partner being exhausted dealing with me, burned various bridges with friends due to the same reason, indefinitely delayed my college graduation due to failing class after class (I was a straight A student before), and my job is now on it's last string because I keep dropping the ball on my responsibilities due to lack of vacancy in my mind and near zero motivation. I've brought my struggles up to management, they understand, but I still have responsibilities to perform and if I can't, I'm going to be released.

All my hobbies have dried up to die and I have unsurprisingly have made no effort in finding new ones because I see no point in it at all.

Why does life love to sucker punch you when you're already down? How is that fair? The only thing I'll eventually have left to lose is my existence, and that seems to be rapidly approaching. Why, why, why...