I broke up with my ex because we were not meant to be together. Breaking up on and off every month like clockwork. We do love each other as much as a narcissist can love a girl with BPD. We were deeply trauma bonded. It was a bond very difficult to break even though it was draining us mentally and physically. Every time we broke up it would bring me literal physical chest pain and every time we would reunite it felt euphoric.

Even though he’s been incredibly hateful during the breakup, I still empathize with him, love him, and miss him. In a nutshell, he’s been trying to make me hurt like he’s hurting by calling me names, and trying to sabotage any new relationships I make. He also tells me deliberate lies to try and manipulate me into coming back. I still care for him. Must be that BPD super empathy, huh? Anyways, just thought I’d share here to see if anyone has had similar experiences. 

Thanks (: