I thought I’d be scared to even go out anymore cause of it. Like within this last week I’ve gone out like 6 times. And I usually go out once a week lol or every two weeks
I’m not drinking. Mainly Shirley temples lol 
I’ve been going to my favorite club a lot. 
I feel like I’m trying to fill void
Or not be alone at night especially now that I’ve been getting out of work early 
I’ve just been saying yes to everything. 
Just an observation of myself. 
Idk if the dui is connected to it
Definitely should start going to therapy again 
Cause the DUI still does feel real. The night in jail still doesn’t feel real.
Maybe I’m just trying to feel real too? Idk 
Thanks for reading