I rarely have alone time. My girlfriend is usually home, and I'm working a lot. Everytime I do spend an evening alone however, I always look forward to watching a movie, cook a delicious meal or maybe play som playstation. But I always end up on the couch, on my phone, scrolling aimlessly through shit I've seen before, where everything feels like too much of a task, also things I actually enjoy. Even starting a movie is usually too overwhelming. It feels like I physically can't get off the couch, and I'm just laying there, staring at the ceiling, with a nervous lump in my stomach.

And boom, the night is over. I just wasted it.