I was about 10 minutes into an hour-long drive with my partner. I'd already been feeling tense and anxious about the drive since last night, but I really wanted to try and I wanted to go with my partner. But as we got further away from home the dread started ramping up and I just felt like if I kept pushing I was going to be fighting a full panic attack. 

My partner, bless his soul, said we could turn around so I could go back home. I feel terrible about delaying him. I'm glad he's so understanding, and I'm working on not feeling like I'm disappointing people when anxiety changes or cancels plans, but it's hard. 

I've been dealing with this for so much of my life. I've had some successes, but there are still bad days and today was one of them. I want to keep pushing when I feel that it's right. Between anxiety and irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) it's frankly just hard to go anywhere sometimes. 

Just looking for support from other people who deal with this.