i feel like everyone around me knows nothing about me and it makes me want to isolate myself from everyone close to me. i feel like i have a lot of feelings and experiences inside and i can’t get myself to talk about it with other people. the only person who i feel like knows everything would probably be my therapist because she helps me process all of this stuff that i have suppressed for a long time. i wish my friends and family could understand why i am the way i am, what i have gone through, what i continue to struggle with. its hard to express these things when you know they wouldn’t react well or wouldn’t know what to say to you. i dont even know how it would come up without having a breakdown. i feel so alone living with this somedays, i dont know anyone who could relate to me in this way and it sucks. sometimes when i do open up about things i always end up downplaying it and make it seem like it doesn’t effect me or that it’s dealt with