Hello people. First post with this account but I am a long time reader.

Long story short, I had the opportunity to go to school in 2019 (even though I already had the schizophrenia diagnosis) and do some kind of apprenticeship. It wasn't easy but I got my diploma and very soon started to work.

I worked in three different places, more or less the same job. I resigned form the first because working conditions worsened when there had been a manager change.  I must add that during the year and a half I worked there, I was often on sick leave and I even had a period where I worked part time but still got payed whole time (it is some kind of thing you can benefit from in my country when you are very sick).  I didn't work for 6 months after that. 

I then worked 4 months in another place but I got fired because I wasn't good enough (too slow, forgetful, and so on). I tried my best but I disliked the job because of bad vibes with coworkers.

Finally, the most recent job was surely the most difficult. Part time but very demanding. I resigned before the end of the trial period. The things that were said to me were that I was too slow, forgetful, not observant enough...

I am today in a place where I feel that I can't do that job anymore, I feel like I am less and less able to work. But that feeling doesn't stop at working. I feel that as the years go by, I am not as able to focus, read, speak clearly (I have to search for words when I have something to say), etc.

I think that I might not be the only one to feel that way. I fear that things are going to get worse as years go by. Do you have some kind of advice ?

Thanks for taking the time to read my post, and have a nice day.