

Sometimes you’re right, but most times you’re wrong. 
Sometimes you’re clever but most times you’re stupid. 
Sometimes you’re loved but most times you’re ignored. 
Life is a guessing game, and when will you win? Probably never, the game is rigged. 
Sometimes you’re you, but mostly you’re not.

Also codependent and mostly afraid of losing him. I’m scared , but also a closet alcoholic. Have to watch every word and every action. Every day is a balancing act, and yes it’s exhausting. Currently in bed because he is angry with me and watching tv , and I don’t want to anger him more/ be around to make him angry. Gonna drink some more here in secret and maybe feel a little bit better before bed ...