CBT, ACT, DBT, EMDR.   All of these are great you learn a shit load of recovery tools in them. Same with my 12 step program. 

I have a toolbelt covered with any tool I could want.  
But I can't use them consistently or always at the right times.

I am in several psycho educational groups at the VA. 
There is no group therapy available.  No workshops. No weekend intensives.  No at home visits.

I am disabled but not receiving diablity from the VA or soc sec yet  I have no income to spend and the VA is my Healthcare. 

I have been in recovery over 8 years.  Each year feels worse than the last and I'm now sleeping with a knife and belt on my nightstand.  I don't plan on using them anytime soon but it's comfortable knowing there is a way out. 

Im on Lamotrigine and zoloft and wellbutrin.
 
Just upped the wellbutrin 6o the max dose after my session with my psychatrist Friday.   

I  cant do anything consistently and they keep giving me homework that I never finish or stick with.  I keep trying though.  
Every time my bipolar downturn hits or my sleep cycle gets irregular which is every week.  It erases all my baby's steps.

I've heard of addiction wack a mole but mental health wack a mole?  

Just venting i guess.  I coulda journaled this i guess.  Idk