another day of being bored, listening to music and looking through  reddit and even that boring the fuck out of me. feel like ive been ringed out, just fucking empty now. well, dead inside but also not, you know? sometimes the song "Iowa" just feels like  my mind. like its slowing fucking breaking. how much longer can i take of this horse shit. how long until something bad happens, how long until i finally snap and fuck it all. it would be exciting, fun. it wouldnt end well after i felt different, itd be difficult but id just ignore it. i couldnt move on from it though. fuck that and fuck everyone. whats this all for anyway. i need a bigger and better reason to hurt myself