You ever feel so isolated in a crowded room? When all others seem to be content, happy, productive and all you can feel is complete detachment from everyone else. Why can't I be normal, why can't I be productive, why can't I be happy? When one of the presenters got up to speak, he seemed so relaxed as if it were no big deal and I couldn't help but cry a tear, as to why I couldn't be like that despite having given so many presentations in the past. I had this overwhelming feeling today and after this, I've had strong waves of anxiety to the point where I felt sick and had a hard time breathing. I think it is an anxiety attack? But it has been happening for the past 7 hours, so I'm not really sure. 

Anyways I've been feeling like this during every meeting, feeling completely detached from everyone in the room. It really sucks and just makes me feel even more lonely than I was already feeling.