I don't know what to do. I have a family history of anxiety but everyone likes to pretend it's not there. Most of my family are alcoholics because of it. I was just talking to my mom who is concerned my brother has anxiety because of how much he drinks. She thinks her kids shouldn't have any kids of problems whatsoever. and this is what she says ALL THE TIME "I hope you guys don't those problems your grandmother has (anxiety, agoraphobia, etc..) it's unbelievable and weak...bllah blah... and they're always making fun of people for not being able to function in society, etcc

well this past august I began having severe panic disorder, anxiety, etc and have trouble going places now.  I'm deciding to start Zoloft on my own without telling anyone because I know I would be made fun of. Hiding my anxiety is really hard but its better than being made to feel broken. im 21 years od and part of me thinks, why do I care what my parents think? but the other part is thinking im defective and useless because thats the message ive gotten my whole life about anyone with any kind of anxiety  issue.

tldr, how can I be kind and accept myself and not care what my  stuck up family thinks about me having anxiety and being medicated for it??