I seriously don’t want to live anymore. The reason is probably stupid, but I just can’t do this anymore. I’m tired and exhausted. All I feel is pain and it’s killing me. My mental health has gone to shit and I don’t think there’s any going back at this point. The one girl I love and care for hates me and is hurt by me all because of something stupid that I did. We’re in a ldr and I know they’re hard, but her and I have been together for 3 years. I dont even know how to live without her at this point. We’re always calling and texting each other. She asked me for my instagram account one day and she told me not to delete anything. I impulsively deleted a group chat I had with friends thinking it wasn’t gonna be anything big and I even told her that because I didn’t think it was going to be something big, but it was to her. It was the biggest mistake of my life because it broke her for months. She always thinks about it and it kills me. Just last night, she was yelling and screaming/crying over the phone to me because of it. Hearing her voice and her voice cracks fucking broke me so badly. How could I let myself do this to her??? I hate myself so much and I just want to die. I don’t just make her suffer, but I make my mom worry and suffer as well because I’m just crying all the time and I’m always serious and I can’t do anything about it because if I try, I’ll just feel so guilty. this is all just killing me and I don’t think I can take this for any longer. it’s 5 AM right now and I’ve been up all night, my eyes hurt but I can’t go to sleep.