Not sure if this is the right place to post but I needed somewhere.

So I have been working in the cruise ship industry for some time now and recently joined a new vessel.

Long story short, my colleagues, led by one ring leader specifically basically emotionally ostracized me to the point where no one would ever start a conversation with me, invite me out anywhere and I was treated like the plague. 

All because I refused to go out partying with them on one occasion as I had so much work to do. The leader in question suffered from extreme ADHD - not sure if this is relevant or not, but I do not consider her behavior normal - turning people against someone because they didn’t want to go out one evening. 

It got so bad that I could feel my mental health declining, I had to go.

It became too much for me and I quit the job. I hate quitting with a passion so this was a double whammy for me.

I came back home to my girlfriend who started to treat me very differently. She started to flirt with other men in front of me and belittle me to her friends and family. I could tell she had lost interest and I know it’s because she thought I was a loser for quitting. She’s  from a country where men just don’t do that.

That turned very toxic very very quickly. To the point where I know I was being gaslighted, she was invading my privacy and belittling me.

So that ended in me nearly having a breakdown. I moved back to my parents and broke up with her.

My dad is a very proud person, if your at home and your above 18 he will treat you like dirt and humiliate you until you move out. That’s just the way it is.

So now I’m at home, belittled by my dad. Completely riddled with anxiety, depression and anger, a lot of anger.

I’ve lost a lot of confidence. I’m trying my best, taking care of myself and as much as I hate to do it as it fills me with anxiety, applying for jobs.

The main thing is anger. How could I let one person destroy my life because they were so immature - to the point of playground bullying for months on end.

I know I did the right thing for my mental health by leaving. But I still feel very wounded and angry and down.

What do I do?