Im a walking corpse pretending to live everyday.Because of my anxiety symptoms and sometimes they just kickin in.When i make eye contact with people i just freeze up nd my focus kind of starts drifting away.Such awkward eye contact has really ruined my socialising.And then i find it fldifficult to make expressions coz of my muscle tightness nd that creates more awakwardness.Sometimes it makes me embarassed in front of people sometimes in front of my own friends.I barely know how my body will behave how when.I feel like my friends see thru my anxiety nd just give up on me sometimes and like theyre not interested in me.No wonder i feel suicidal so frequent.Feeling like ending my life has just become an everyday thing now.Im like an unlovable deadweight ppus this muscle tension i tried taking effective measures but nothing seems to really cause it to fade away.Can someone help me understand this facial muscle tension.I cant do facial expression without struggling anymore,even smiling seems so hard to do on the spot.