my brother and i barely talk at all and i feel like such a weirdo because of it. im too scared to talk to him, im scared of talking to everyone. he doesnt even try to talk to me or my parents all he does is sit in his fucking room so i just panic when i see him because i dont know how to act. i dont even have his phone number its that bad. and i dont even know when this started we used to be so close

i feel like such a freak though im scared its my fault. because every year i get worse and worse being around other people. im so uncomfortable even when im with my own friends because i hate myself and i feel like theyre judging me too

this sounds so awful but i cant wait for my brother to move out. he stresses me out even though he doesnt do anything.  i keep telling myself its me but how am i supposed to fix anything when im so fucking anxious  and self conscious about everything. hes the normal one and the older one but he doesnt even fucking try

i miss when my friends and my brother would all hang out. i miss it so much everything was so normal. i dont know what happened