I just notice something when i do research on my mental illness (bipolar or something idk).

I notice than bipolar usually start on 6 years old. And i starting to thought that what am i doing when i was 6. Well, i cry over a girl not play with me and let ant climb over my whole body and feel the tickle. Oh and i kiss a friend of my which is a boy (i am a boy). And i remember crying a lot butI was the one that causing it. I remember i made a teacher so mad that she grab my ear until it bleed. The teacher got sue and i had to go and see a doctor.And i remember i was so manipulative i always got what i want smoothly without anyone knowing i am manipulating them. In fact i was manipulating myself. I just insert fake memory all the time. When i feel like cry i make up some good memory like i was eating ice cream with my big brother and lil brother and also my dog but i don't have them. I only have mom,dad and a sister. I even make up a best friend. And i always feel like my stuff toy was alive, like talking to me. And i always tell my stuff toy to speak when nobody is around, it is like "Hey i know your secret , don't be shy." And i always thought i had a superpower or a spy. I never tell anyone about it because my first thought is "A hero never give out real personal infomation."or"Don't tell them or the russia will kill me." Now when i know all of this i notice that i am making my whole world up like i was depend on this fake thing to survive. I feel like i need a talk to my parent sometime.