I've been trying to become a better person. I've made real strives in the last year.

But it feels like I'll never get to outlive the person I used to be.

I want to be forgotten but people from my past keep finding me and making sure everyone knows who I am.

If I can't be forgotten then I don't understand why I can't die.

Living with BPD and the knowledge my default is to hurt people is no way to live.

I just want to die so it will stop.