I’ve never felt like I was “supposed” to be anywhere. Nowhere has ever felt like “home” to me. I’ve never had solid friends who stood by me. I’ve always felt like an outsider. I see all of these people with lots of friends and loved ones and I just don’t get it. Why can’t I have that too? I’m nice, funny, friendly, supportive, and always there when people need me. And yet, I don’t have the luxury of people giving the same back. I don’t have any two-sided friendships, everything is just one-sided and has been my whole life.

Part of me thinks I wasn’t supposed to be born, like I shouldn’t be here to begin with. I feel so lost and so alone and I just want so badly to belong somewhere in this world. I just want to have a place. I want to be worthy of friendships and love.