I’ve been clinically diagnosed with depression in the past and was medicated / did cognitive therapy.  When stressful times presented themselves again, I recognized them enough to get help.  But here I am again!  My life has been a whirlwind recently with one of my 3 children being diagnosed with a handicap, work being crazy demanding and unfulfilling, and my ex checking out of parenting responsibilities (he has the kids only every other weekend but that’s too much, so he’s leaving them with me over Christmas).  I have no family nearby BUT am blessed with a wonderful boyfriend who’s at my side.  

I feel so guilty because I did virtually no Christmas traditions this year with my boys and have pretty much emotionally checked out.  I’m terrified to get more help because I don’t have the time for therapy.  I have no “me” time left after caring for my kids as it is!!

My BF is out with friends tonight so I bought the ingredients for my favourite dinner, yet they sit untouched in the fridge.  I’ve barely eaten in 24h.

I hate this time of the year.