This is a bit of a rant because i didn’t really know exactly what to say so it’s a bit long.
TLDR: I do not think that i will be able to be  in a loving relationship with anyone and it’s making me a bit sad.

I’m in high school and yes i know it’s very early and i still have my entire life but based on how things have been my entire life so far, and with no sight of change in the future, i don’t think I’ll ever be able to be in a serious relationship, or even in a casual one (dating). It’s not because i am a rude person, i just have terrible social skills, and i am not very good looking. I was popular at my old school but i switched schools and now i am less popular. But even at my old school the thought of anyone girl liking me didn’t or seem possible, and it still doesn’t. My plan for daring was to start in college because i think my chances would be better, but it’s not like i don’t want to date now. I just don’t think that i can. I just do not think it’s likely that anyone would seek me out over anyone else to date. I oftentimes find myself lying in bed at night just imaging hanging out with a girlfriend, nothing sexual or inappropriate, just hanging out. Even in movies when i see people hug or kiss i feel something. It’s hard to describe the feeling but it’s sort of emptiness because it’s like looking at something that you really want, but will never have. I know i am probably just being dramatic and it will turn out ok for me but i have never really liked anyone that way and even if i did the chances that would someone would like me back, or even going out with me if i asked them are slim to none in my mind. My family life is very good, i have Avery good relationship with my parents and my friends. Not to toot my own horn but i am sort of the “funny” friend in my friend group but i still prefer to be alone and am an introvert. I am also very good at sports. I just don’t know how i would even talk to someone i liked. Whoever someone new comes into a group, or anyone me know any situation, i have no idea how to talk to them. In my own friend group i am very outgoing, and i kind of talk a lot. But if it’s anyone not in my friend group i shut down and try to escape the situation. Because of this, I just don’t see a loving relationship anywhere near in the future, and i am sad about it. I know that i need to be more outgoing but i am definitely getting better. Again, i am definitely being over dramatic about this but it’s a though i have had for a long time and i just need advice. Although i have very good relationships with my family and friends, i am a very private person and i really hate talking about this type of stuff around anyone so if i have a problem i just keep it to myself and i can do that but i just need to talk about this problem. Anything helps.