I haven't been formally diagnosed but after hefty research I've found it fits more than anything else. I'm horrible with people, so I have no friends. I've only ever had one girlfriend, and that didn't go well. Both of us were equally fucked in the head, so it didn't last very long. That was little more than two years ago. Since then I've shifted from public school, to home school, to going to school at night for 4 hours where we work online (I'm still in high school). My self esteem is nonexistent, I have no confidence. The smallest things can set me off into a bad mood/rage, but anytime there's conflict, from being lectured to screamed at I choke up and start to tear up. For months I was abusing cannabis because it made me feel good and happy, and it kept me from really feeling much of anything but I've recently stopped. I'm too afraid of what my parents think of me to ask for help, and I'm afraid of them treating me differently because of it. And honestly, the only reason I'm still alive is because I don't want my family to have to go through all my suicide might entail.