One of the most difficult things for me to deal with is when I have experiences (usually very minor) that trigger the feeling of being disliked, unloved, forgotten, or unimportant. I have such a strong need to feel special or important to many people, even people I’m not super close to. I feel like if everybody doesn’t love me and care about me, then it doesn’t matter if a few people do. I need frequent validation from people for me to feel like they actually care. When I feel unloved and forgotten I tend to isolate myself almost completely. I get urges to do things to make people remember or worry about me so that they check in, so I know they care about me. I haven’t done anything very rash or direct, usually just deactivating all my social media and hoping someone will notice. Sometimes I hope people will notice my self harm, so they will realize the pain I’m in. Though it’s relatively mild, I know this is attention seeking behavior, but I do it because I feel so lonely and empty inside. When I get into strong suicidal ideation, which isn’t hard for me, one of the motivations is that if I were to suddenly die, maybe people then would think about me and feel the loss, whereas if I disappear by avoiding people and staying at home nobody seems to be affected. Perhaps if I died, people would remember me and I would have importance. I know this is an irrational pattern of thought, but I find it very hard to cope with. Have any of you experienced similar feelings?