It seems like everyday of my life I have a meltfown and it just ruins everything. Yesterday was because my bf was with his friends instead of with me (this happens every time he's with his friends which is usually every other day), today is my birthday and I'm upset and suicidal because I made cupcakes but the icing isn't firm enough since I added too much milk. I almost threw them all out (only one was iced which I threw out), I'm sitting outside to calm down now so I'm glad that I didn't.   
  
I bought a laptop that doesn't work so that pissed me off the other day. Other events this week that triggered me being suicidal are me being late for work, me missing the bus, my boyfriend sleeping in this morning so that we couldn't start my birthday celebration sooner, me getting dirt on my couch, and probably more things that I've now forgotten.  
  
Idk man, it just sucks. I want to deal with things normally. I want to not be suicidal over icing that'snot firm enough or whatever other trivial thing I get upset about. It sucks being profoundly upset every single day of my life holy shit.  
  
At least it fades after a while, especially if I sit outside on my own to relax and be away from the situation but it's so hard to deal with this stuff every day.  
Just wanted to vent.