Hi, there Reddit. 

Okay so long story short, I and my ex broke up in lockdown. The relationship, I felt was ending way before it actually did. It happened. Now I am having to live with them until I move into somewhere new. 

My emotions have been up and down. Through being sad about it ending for it to now all be anger towards them. To top it all off, I got covid. My moving day had to be postponed. I cannot seem to control my anger towards them anymore. I get annoyed at them at every little thing and completely lose it. Earlier, they knocked over my jewelry box. The items in the said box were very important to me and I lost it. Ended up in an argument. Things were said and I now regret getting so angry. I have just had enough and I am at the end of my tether. At this rate, I feel myself slowly slipping into the SI. I feel at risk.

I am always the problem, I am not playing the victim here I acknowledge my anger as problematic but no matter how hard I try, the rage always comes back.