I(25m) have all the things I aspired for in life. I have money to live on and a well paying job. A nice house and some nice possessions. Lots of alone and free time.

But I’m not enjoying life. Life still sucks even with everything I have. I don’t get why anyone would ever enjoy this.

Jobs suck. All of them. I am interested in what I do but working sucks the life out of my interest. They take up so much time and energy. 

Relationships suck. I got rid of them cause I hated them so much. So much effort and energy and time for it to be able to fall apart at the drop of the hat. Even the peaks of relationships suck, I hate people and being around them, even if I love them, sucks.

Free time sucks. I have plenty of hobbies i enjoy, but they’re all ruined by how much energy they take. They’re fun, but I’m exhausted at the end nonetheless. I hate this stupid fucking human body and all its limitations. Thousands of fucking years of evolution and this is what we get? Fuck that.

Speaking of which, being a human sucks. I am always sick. Fucking. Always. Even when I’m not, something hurts, or I’m tired, or hungry, or thirsty, etc. It’s so exhausting having to take care of a body. Having to deny yourself of what feels good in the moment so you can be better in the long run sucks ass. I hate eating healthy food. I hate exercise. I’m sick of having to do them.

The only enjoyable part is sleep. But you can’t do it for very long.

I have so many great things. Everyone else in my situation is happy but I don’t fucking understand how. How could anyone manage to be happy in this world?