Mental episodes may be ruining all of my relationships and I’m having a hard time with it. When a situation of frustration, confusion or upset occurs for me I have what me and my therapist are referring too temporarily as a mental episode, these are where I become almost inconsolable, I have the responsibility level of a cracked up toddler and the same self preservation. I do dangerous things, impulsive things and go to a very dark place through Overthinking. 

I’m having one of those episodes now and I think it’s ruining my relationship with my boyfriend and that scares me so bad because I love him so much, more than I’ve loved or cared about anyone else. 

I don’t know what to do anymore I can’t handle this anymore.