i go to NYU (extremely strict on covid guidelines, understandably so) and the whole lot of us haven’t had much of a social life all year. my friend and i (literally. my only friend) decided to go to the park and eat some chips on the grass for a bit. mind you, we were alone, surrounded by grass, and just eating together. then we decided to post a tik tok together as a joke because we were pretty happy about being outside in the spring after staying locked up. 

we are two vaccinated, 20 year old women. so when the hate comments appeared on our tik tok, one saying “wow. you go to nyu? you both must be self entitled brats” and another going
“if you guys go to nyu can you at least follow covid guidelines, you guys don’t even wear your masks and clearly haven’t watched your friends die on facetime”, we were pretty confused. these were shitty highschool kids commenting and i draw the line at arguing with minors on the internet, so i deleted the tik tok. i swear to god, we were deadass alone in this park and eating and just having ourselves a day. we don’t go outside, barely have friends because of the pandemic, and have at risk family so we have to lock ourselves in and get tested every week. so it was just really out of line to see these little shits making these outrageous ass remarks about us with no context. we followed new york city covid guidelines to the T, and are well aware of kids lirerally partying in miami or going to ragers, while we sit in our rooms most of the time reading fanfiction and watching tv. 

i know that these kids are minors who clearly don’t know what’s going on or what our characters are like. i don’t know why i’m this upset (i am a grown ass adult for fucks sake) and i can’t help that my anxiety has just driven me to be this upset. i know that my reaction to strangers and their assumptions is disproportionate and that i’m internalizing stress that i don’t need to be. but i just objectively know that we did nothing wrong and have literally sacrificed our social lives for this pandemic and to just be getting accused of bullshit on our one day out. it just sucked. 

i’m so sorry for the rant. and if anyone comments, i appreciate your time and apologize for you having to calm a random girl down over really silly things like this. i feel so guilty that my anxiety is this bad. i just feel like i can’t do anything right. does anyone have any tips to de stress from hate comments, especially knowing that these kids don’t know us and don’t have context so i shouldn’t be taking this so hardcore