I spent the morning posting pictures of my garden on my snap story and sending the longest, most oversharing texts to my recent fav person whose shockingly entertained that for months now. I showed up to both of my jobs and actually went out of my way to talk to people, telling every coworker the same bad joke. Then I got home and started to feel so embarrassed by how much I overshare and bother this poor dude. I deleted everything from my story and have vowed (for the thousandth time) just to ghost him until I’ll definitely give in 2 days from now and send him nudes of me covered in glitter or my shirt up at work and complain about how he’s neglecting me even though we’re not even together and he sometimes keeps his distance. I suck at socializing with my new coworkers and most people, it’s like I reflect on how I acted that day and am just like dafuq who even is that. I know I’ll be so embarrassed as coming off as having 0 self awareness but do it anyways.