Family gathering next week with people I haven't seen for years, however I'm terrified of the thought of going. Since I last saw them I haven't really got anything to show for what I've done, I'll just look like a failure in front of cousins who are actually doing shit and look a lot better than me. I'm depressed but I know the advice is to get over it you need to go out of your comfort zone but will it not just make me feel worse when I see people in relationships and being happy and successful while I'm here, stuck and sad with no job, partner, social life and quite unhealthy (working on this). The issue is deep down I would really love for it to be easy for me to go, have a drink and chat with family I haven't seen for years but theres something in my head telling me not to that I can't get out. Its so frustrating, I feel like im missing out on living because of it.

So is it worth going to see what happens? Am I overthinking? Or do I just stay in and make up an excuse because I might break down and have an anxiety attack? Which is the healthier option