I've always suspected to have BPD, it was quite obvious since I was probably 14-15yo but the ''narcissistic'' part came as a surprise to me. I do not care about what people think of me and I certainly do not think I have a super ego, but my psychiatrist said to me it seems like I'm unaware I have a low self-esteem and somehow, it explains why I feel constant disdain toward others and why I often feel the urge to provoke or belittle people (although most of the time, I don't act that way, I hold myself back, but it doesn't stop me from thinking about that). I have low tolerance for emotional distress/display from others, and once again, I try to control myself, but I just end up feeling angry, and I blame people's weaknesses for that lol.   


At some point, when he suggested I might have a low self-esteem, I cringed and said I can't imagine having that. He asked me to elaborate and I told him it's because I perceive people with low-esteem as pathetic and unworthy, then he smiled and told me that's probably proof I have Narc traits........wow the irony....  


So it does make sense, my ex psy thought I had antisocial personality disorder, which is fair, but again, I didn't even meet half of the criteria of ASP. So BPD was my only lead, but it didn't feel quite complete yet, especially because, to me, BPD sounds like a whiny, weak bitch who can't live for themselves (haha, now you see my narcissistic traits manifesting) and I couldn't recognize myself as being ''clingy'' or ''desperate to be liked'', far from that. So Narc traits feel spot on, and I probably don't even realize I see myself as superior to compensate with my low self-esteem, and I don't mind that to be honest, I'd prefer that than to be the one who keep going like ''woe is me!''   


Anyway, does anyone else have this or what?