I finally was able to my mom how I feel. Im a 24 year old guy and I've never been close to either of my parents. But I finally got the courage to tell my mom how I felt. She was supportive all though it wasn't anything I wanted to hear. But when I told her I have constant suicidal thoughts she got quiet and told me "don't do that" and reminded me how much her and my dad loves me.

I feel so guilty for making my mom sad like this. I don't want her to worry about me at allm but I couldnt bottle my feelings up anymore. The guilt is eating me up still