Just had 2 friends cancel a trip we had been planning months because it will make them go broke. I completely understand why they wouldn’t want to go, I’m not judging someone’s financial situation. But it is just the way. “Oh yeah I forgot I’m moving out and need furniture so I rly can’t go on the trip. Ive known this for months but just thought about it lol”. I even tried to offer to pay a bit for their part but suddenly it’s all just too risky and too this and that. 
You know, the entire excuse train.

Don’t get me wrong, these are all reasons I understand.  I would never force someone to spend money they don’t have or take money from me when they feel bad doing so. It’s just THE WAY. The way I saw this coming. The way everyone is so in on it in the beginning, and then slowly becomes quiet... and then iffy. The way I knew that every solution was going to come w another excuse. I felt like this was THE thing to look forward to. I just know that at one fucking point ppl were going to realize that trips cost time and money and actual enthusiasm and they just can’t find it within themselves. And I just feel like a clown being the only on that was truly behind the plan. “Oh you were enthusiastic and willing to go absolutely bankrupt for this thing? Because the excitement is the only thing that is keeping you alive and somewhat sane? Well too bad I need a new couch”. I know its overdramatic and overreactive. But that’s just what it feels like.