hey angels, so i've been talking to therapists and stuff and when i try to explain to them what i feel before i go "Mr.SelfDestruct9000" i usually say "oh it's like an emotional hurricane. it's like i feel every emotion and no emotion all at once and then i start thinking bad thoughts to distract myself/ following the emotion, and i usually end up smoking or c---ing until it passes" so does anyone else feel like this? i see people say they're "super sad" before they go self-destructive( which i also get), but i also feel like this? just super uncontrollable, angry, sad, kinda euphoric, anxious, can't think straight, racing thoughts, hyperventilate etc... 

any replies are v much appreci8'd

also everyone have a wonderful day, stay safe, and enjoy the sunlight (or rain or whatever weather u got going on)