I have always dealt with anxiety in my day to day life but around mid-june of this year everything became so much worse. My anxiety was always manageable and I only ever had a handful of panic attacks (aside from those involving smoking weed). After a trip to NYC in june my anxiety sky rocketed, i ended up having a really bad panic attack and had to go home early. ever since then i’ve felt lost. now all of my thoughts are about my anxiety and what might cause an attack and trying to do anything to stop that from happening. I know that ends up doing more harm than good but I can’t seem to get out of my head. I keep making progress but it resets itself whenever something sets me off and I go back to being afraid of the anxiety and back to square one. A specific example is where I start feeling some normalcy, go out with friends, and then have a brutal panic attack when hungover the next day. and then for days after that i don’t even feel real and can only think about my anxiety. I don’t know why this is happening and now I’m afraid to drink but i’m a social drinker and I want to be able to drink and not have a freak out the next day. I’ve found that I specifically get very anxious when my body feels out of balance (illness/hangover) or if i’m in situations i don’t want to be in (like the hangout with friends goes too long or I feel trapped in any situation). I just don’t know what to do. i keep feeling like i’m going back to normal and something happens and then i’m up all night catching my breath and trying to keep it together. I just want to go back to where i was before june, i’ve never dealt with anything so difficult and would love to hear from anyone who’s going through/has gone through similar sudden panic problems. 

There are also more specifics to this story about why I had that first panic attack but I didn’t want this to become a novel, I can answer any questions in the comments if anyone needed more information. 

Tldr : About two months ago I started having severe panic attacks and now I’m terrified of my anxiety and don’t know how to go back to normal