I know what this does to me. I’m financially irresponsible, exceptionally promiscuous and all around can make some risky decisions. BUT I FEEL ALIVE during these times. I’ve been on a journey for two years figuring out the right mix of meds, and they’ve certainly done wonders (especially lamictal). Most days I feel evened out and steady…

But…I find myself yearning for that wild rush of energy and feeling good about myself. It beats feeling “meh” or depressed at my lowest lows…

Thoughts?