so, i was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few months ago, and i’m still struggling to actually believe it. i feel like a fraud, i feel like i don’t have this illness, and i feel like it’s something else. i just feel that maybe because i have OCD, that i just obsessed over developing schizophrenia, and it mimicked symptoms to the point where they thought i had it. i want to come off of my medication prove to myself that i don’t have it, if i don’t present any symptoms in the days that i’m off of it, then i probably don’t have schizophrenia, but if i do show symptoms, then i’ll believe it. my brain’s just so scattered, how can i prove to myself that i actually have this illness? i just don’t buy it