I'm lonely af. Life made my friends let's say "disappear" (they did not die, they're fine, but we lost the "connection" we had), so yeah, I have no friends. Haven't even kissed a girl since the last 3 years, tho I'm not really ugly, I even work out. I just do not really like people. I find them either mediocre or boring. I study a lot, and can't stop hating myself for not trying hard enough. I'm at a unversity, I believe I'm smart (and I'm not a narcissistic). So, why do I have no real friends? Why do I have no girls in my life? I do not smoke, rarely drink, and have no negative addictions at all (ironic, I decided to have a bottle of wine to relax now, and since I drink very rarely it hit me real hard, so yeah I'm kinda drunk rn). I just wanna know why. What makes me a loner in a world where there are billions of other people.