Every single day I’m so fucking irritated, sexually, emotionally, and much more. With ocd I have some decent days, and when I have decent days where I actually get out and try new things but someone is there to tear me down, it makes me not even want to exist anymore. Every single day I have a moment of becoming super angry and unleashing it all on whoever is closest to me, I say things I don’t mean, I will insult anything in my path. For example my mom the other day said that if I talk to girls like I talk to her I won’t ever have success in dating, in which I responded to fuck all women in 2022 anyway, and other bull shit. I’m just so fucking pissed off lately, but it’s like a motivated pissed off. I want to get in the gym, look everyone in the eye and just tell the world to fuck off. I don’t know what’s going on, and I don’t think Prozac is helping at all. I’m sick of the anxiety, the depression, it’s all turned into anger. I used to have social anxiety, now my heart just beats cause I’m always in a bad mood and angry. I’m super pessimistic, anytime I remotely have a girlfriend I feel the need to want to cheat on her and make her feel like shit since I’ve convinced myself they’d cheat, and my whole worldview is fucked. COVID just ruined my life as a whole I feel.