I’ve literally been doing SO well for myself. But as always, occasionally and episode will get the better of us.

I was in a hypomanic episode turning worse, which a few days ago switched into a mixed episode. I’m thankful I’m at least very self aware so I know what’s happening but it’s almost scarier knowing and not being able to stop.

I’ve never seriously considered the hospital before but if I’m not better or get any worse in the next few days, I’m most likely going to admit myself.

Scared but more scared of feeling like this without help. Only reason I’m thinking hospital is my dr is on vacation until my next appt in two weeks