I love my boyfriend and he’s really supportive but it feels like I can’t enjoy it (the relationship), honestly NEVER thought someone could tolerate me for more than a year. because I’d either get cheated on like my dad did to my mum or he will die randomly. My thoughts won’t let me enjoy anything. Took myself off of mood stabilizer because lithium scares me.. I promised my psych and therapist I’ll start again a week ago. Anhedonia is kicking my ass, not sure if I’m experiencing a low or this is just how I am, negative? I’m still taking my antidepressant but I’ve been taking it for years. Kinda losing my insight, beginning to undiagnose myself, ever since I stopped mood stabilizer weed has been making me dissociate.