So, I'll try to keep the post focused on what's happening right now.

For the last week and a half I've been dealing with really bad episodes of anxiety and had 1 to 3 anxiety attacks a day. I'm a pretty worrisome person, and everyday I assumed something else was happening with me. At first I had trouble falling and staying asleep, so I thought - Insomnia. As the attacks grew more out of proportion - I've self diagnosed myself with heart problems, blood pressure issues, a stroke, I was thinking I'm losing it. One of these days I've had really bad intrusive thoughts. Needless to say - I love my family and I love my life, but yesterday I thought "what if I get to the edge and hurt myself or my loved ones?" It really threw me off, because I have a tendency to overthink things, I got the worst anxiety attack I've had to date, and just broke down and cried. Made a pretty impulsive decision where I signed up to a gym and prepaid 18 months. Luckily, you can freeze your membership if you're lacking motivation. After having that crazy day, I went to my ex-gf for help, and she really calmed me down, I finally managed to fall asleep without the need for sleeping pills or any other help. Woke up feeling pretty refreshed and calm, but being so calm really messed me up and I started fearing my next anxiety, constantly surrounding myself with "what if's".
Further context is that I had a pretty similar experience about 8 years ago, and eventually I developed Agoraphobia. 


Am I losing it? It's feels that way, I'm afraid I'll have a psychotic breakdown eventually. This is so scary.