I have no diagnosis but have struggled with depression and anxiety type symptoms for many years, so have frequently been on the end of that feeling of impending doom. But these past two or three weeks it feels different. 

I assumed it was a side effect to the medication I just stared but I stopped it and it’s still persisted. I just have this overwhelming urge that something about to happen. Sometimes it feels bad, but sometimes it’s not even a bad thing, just something. Something big, that’s right around the corner. Almost feels as though I’ll hit a breaking point. It’s felt like I’ve progressively been slipping away from my body and dissociating further and further, my sleep is all over the place, my dreams are vivid and emotional, my thoughts are more like abstract concepts than streams of words like before and it feels like I’m completely losing time. It almost feels like I’m waiting for a psychotic break or a manic episode or a nervous breakdown. Which I’ve never experience anything other than hypomania (or the similar), or severe depression. It doesn’t even feel like this event is going to be a bad thing, just something that’s going to shift my world view. Like a word on the tip of my tongue I just can’t get out, or when you’re just drifting into the state of drunkenness where you feel it and are aware but enjoy it. 

I don’t feel bad, I feel somewhere between spaced out and restless, but I just can’t shake this feeling.

Everywhere I look people keep suggesting a feeling of impending doom but it’s not doom, but I don’t know what the hell it is. And why don’t I want to stop it?