UK.
Daughter 18.
No other kids as couldn’t conceive again.
Husband came along in 2007 after daughters dad severely abused me.
Current husband and I have depression.
No motivation to do anything in life.
I can’t even find motivation to get basic health issues sorted!! I have talent especially looking after young children … but can’t be bothered to find more work !!!!
We work 20 hours a week between us.
Not enough to meet basic living.
Daughter fab she works hard and an A student. Going to uni in October.

She deserves to go on holiday for once - with boyfriend- after A levels - she planning this with boyfriend. Will cost £800. I promised to pay half . But we can’t afford even basic bills . 
Yes I’m awaiting massive judgement of why do I not get more hours .

Go on tease me with this 🥹🥹🥹

I  so depressed and down and unmotivated. 
I plan on Not eating for a month so she can have £250 to go on very very very well deserved holiday as she worked hard since aged 4 and she now 18 and deserves this.

I want to die