`Hello guys! Me again. I wanted to make a post about talking about where my problems started etc. I assume it's going to be a kinda long post since I also want to show this to my pyschiatrist. So basically it all started 2 years ago, summer. I was doing very okay with my school, I had bunch of friends that I got along with, my studies were amazing, overall my life could be more perfect. After the school season ended, all my problems started. I lost weight a lot that people were thinking I was anorexic or something like that, I was on video games 24/7, I started not to take showers, and things like that. I know it sounds like a basic depression episode but the thing is that I wasn't feeling hopeless, sad I was just unmotivated. Then the new school year started. Damn, it was a mess. I lost all of my friends, I was sitting alone at my desk everyday at school, I gave up on my grades, I started to not to go to school anymore. I couldn't concantrate during classes because I was always daydreaming. I had insominia. My teachers started to notice I had inappropriate behaviours such as my friends. They always claimed the way I behaved is a way that a 10 year old kid would behave, they said I was not acting my age. My gaming addiction was still a thing at that time by the way.I would get into REALLY bad fights with my mom that I still can't believe I acted towards my mom like that. Then the mid term break started. Me and my mom decided to go to a winter holiday. It was one of the worst times of my life. I wouldn't sleep I would go on the internet and search some mental illnesses and act like I had one of them. I was overthinking a lot that it was like a mental torture. It felt like I was out of my body. After that I suggested my mom to see a pyschiatrist so we did .Dang, that man was a total freak. During the session he told me something about me that I didn't know. I don't want to share what it was but it was basically something you would be proud of to hear if it was about you. And then he diagnosed me with anxiety disorder and gave me 50mg prozac. We refused the medicine therapy. Since we refused to use prozac I went to a different therapist. We had 2 sessions with her and she said I didn't have anxiety, I was misdiagnosed and she would like to investigate more into that. My mom refused that insevtigation and told me it was just a phase and I will be okay but she will send me to a different therapist. I know I kinda have a disorganized speech but I try my best. So after that pyschiatrist (which was the doctor who told me something about me I didn't know), I had a ego boost. I thought I was the greatest person in the world, I was the brightest. I was already having problems with my friends so whenever they would say something that would get on my nerves I wuld be like "Ah, it'S okay I'm better than them. They are jealous of me." Then we went to a different therapist. First it was nice, then I started a conversation about the thing that boosted my ego. The thing she said about me didn't satisfy me so I we stopped therapy. I'm making another post, I will continue this!!`