I dont have a diagnosis and I will be going to therapy in about a week. I have been suspecting that I might have some quiet type of bpd. I have pretty much every symptom to an extent, except for splitting, which I realize is a major part of the illness. For me it's pretty much always wanting to be around my friends and never wanting them to leave. I also have extreme abandonment issues. But at no point to I ever start hating my friends and wanting them to leave. Is this something that happens or should I be looking elsewhere?