I’m so pissed, anxious, scared, and hurt about this whole situation which might be fixed on Monday, or not. It’s 50/50. I’m going to go crazy thinking about it. 

My dad and I are poor. I’m not sure how much money I made this year so far, but I make $11.21 an hour and since he’s almost 80 he’s struggling heavily to find a job. We’re mostly living off my money and his social security.

Applying for FAFSA originally wasnt an issue for 2021-2022, however we accidentally set his income as 0 when it was really 9,900. (He does charity work on the side for a non profit). This covered my entire year using a Pell Grant. 

For the 2022-2023 we were lucky and managed to make just under $18,000 all together through him and I. They denied my grant, and claimed he’d be able to pay the entire $8,000 for my year. Except, he can’t. We can’t. We didn’t even pay two months worth of rent that year (2020.) 

I’m just so scared and anxious and I can’t stop thinking about being stuck in poverty for the rest of my life. Why the hell is this happening to me? I just want to be a teacher, but I can’t afford to pay out of pocket but they expect me too. I’d rather die than take a loan out, and I mean that very seriously. 

Thank you for reading, I mostly just needed to get it out of my system.