it's so bad for my mental health lol. but i legit can't help it. almost every single person i've become attached to/obsessed with has been unavailable in some way. whether they're emotionally unavailable, in a relationship, married, much much older, or just not real at all, i have a habit of becoming in love with people like that. not sure why, i guess maybe it's a subconscious masochistic mindset, or just a general hatred for myself and rejecting love from people. i feel like i don't deserve real, emotionally available, nice people in my life. anyone else struggle with this?