i feel like i’m only here for everyone else’s benefit. i try to love and care for others but the only thing people do is use me or disregard my feelings. i feel maybe i’m too soft but my emotions are valid. i’m a fucking human too! i try to keep going because maybe things will get better but everyday feels like torture. i contemplate ending it all but i’m too scared of what comes next. i’m stuck in this cycle of agony and unhappiness and i just need it to end now