So I've been seeing this guy and whilst things have got pretty intense pretty quick I'm trying to stay realistic. I've been doing really well at recognising when my thoughts are completely insane and not acting on them in an extreme way (side note, I'm really proud of myself).

Anyways, I've been slowly tiptoeing around my mental health problems, we've talked about depression/anxiety and I've opened up a little about how much my brain exaggerates things,, he has been amazingly supportive about it all. This morning whilst chatting shit about his ex he threw in that she was "borderline with bad mental health" and I swear my heart stopped.

He went on to talk about how he'd tried to encourage her to get help and that she wouldn't, as if that was the problem, but now I'm terrified of what he might have suffered with her and how he'll react if he finds out I have BPD. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell him anyway but now I feel like I want to actively hide it, which I hate when I've been trying to be open and trusting with him.

I don't know what I want from this post, guess I just needed somewhere to voice my worries with people that might understand.