I’m lucky enough to still have friends after I treated them so badly in the past, but now I’ve run into this issue where I distrust any close friendships or try to avoid people that I know I’m going to click with quickly/intensely, simply because I don’t wanna screw it up (especially with people idolise/put on a pedestal). I don’t wanna be afraid of getting close to people, but I just don’t trust it. Anyone else had experience with this?