When I was 14 I was admitted to a child psych ward - I was s\*\*\*\*\*al, had bulimia&amp;anorexia and ocd. I was treated with fluoxetine, which elevated up my mood. After that, I was admitted at the age of 15 and 16, for two months and then a month. My mom said to my doctors that I am "too happy" and without my consent they gave me lamotrygine. I wasn't "too happy" - that was a normal mood, I've just been depressed since I was SEVEN and me being able to laugh again was something unusual to her. I got off the lamo as soon as turned 18, I've also ended psychotherapy (with my therapist approval). Now, due to starting hormonal contraception 8 months ago (at 19)  I've fell into deep depression again. I've been to three different doctors and every single one tries to convince me i have bipolar type II/cyclotymia after I tell them I've been on lamotrygine for 3 years. I DO NOT have elevated mood, don't get impulsive, do not spend my money hastily, don't get sudden bursts of inspiration or anything and never did.  I'm just more sad and less sad. 

I'm just fucking exhausted. My psych ward bff tells me I should just go to another doctor and hide the fact that I've been treated with normothymics. Should I?