I feel so alone and no one seems to care. I am sitting here cutting and crying and trying to fight the dissociation. My boyfriend had friends over and it sent me over the edge. I'm really that pathetic that I can't handle being around 3 people. I want to be mad at him for not comforting me but I am so scared of driving him away that all I can do is sit alone in my room hoping that cutting will eventually dull my emotions. But right now I feel so physically numb that I can barely feel the knife. Second day out of hospitalization and here I sit. Wow, I really am a failure.