i used to write, just for fun. nobody else ever read much of it, but i'd write little short stories, poems, songs. sometimes i'd turn them in if my english classes ever had some creative writing type assignment we needed to do, with minor modifications to fit the rubrics. other than that, it was for my eyes only.

nowadays, i feel like i can't write creatively at all. i want so badly to do it again, to get stuff out of my head and onto paper, and i just can't. i feel like i'm trying to get water from an empty well. my head is so clouded that i can't figure out what i'd even write about. even this post took me much longer to type out than i'd like to admit.

it's been years since i've been able to write with any sort of consistency. it used to be so therapeutic for me. i could write for hours and even if it was shit, i still enjoyed just being able to make something. now not being able to do it at all is just making me more miserable.