I feel like he now knows exactly what to do to “trigger” me, yet my heart is telling me he is being manipulative. or am I being BPD delusional? He knows I rely on his confirmations and reassures yet he only blames my ex for hanging on to me to control me (but I really think it’s him!) 

He knows about my terrible I was to my ex. Serial cheater, liar, and whore. Mostly and fully afraid of being alone. I have come to terms with it, but my current FP seems to remind me when I get real stupid or insecure. 

He seems to confirm my insecurities so this makes it even more confusing.