Im 23, I cant seem to make it more than a week or two without some kind of emergency or stressor kicking up my depression and suicidal thoughts, I constantly feel like Im carrying a weight on my shoulders that  never eases up and no matter how strong or brave people say I am for making it through everything before this, Im none of those. Im tired. I want to die and leave this life behind because it has brought me nothing but challenge after challenge after challenge and Im tired of fighting.