I notice other people saying rude and mean things to each other, or being extremely late, forgetful or disrespectful. They remain friends or laugh it off.

But if I slip up one time people often don't want to be friends with me anymore. Even when I apologise, things are not the same. What's worse is these slip ups often happen when I'm dissociating.

I think it may be because they didn't like me much to begin with and were just looking for an excuse. Or maybe it's a lot more intense when I do something wrong. Or maybe they only want to be my friend because I'm the nice one, and when that's broken there's no reason left.