Hi. I’ve been up and down over the years and have been diagnosed with MDD and ADD.  I take meds and am in therapy off and on for periods of time.  I cannot afford regular therapy and generally I am not doing too badly.  I wake up each morning and get to work.  I come home to my family.  I do some yoga and try to move regularly.  
I do not feel myself.  I feel another cycle of darkness looming.  I use cannabis daily and drink alcohol on weekends.  I think if I drank during the week It could become a regular pattern.  I want to shake this and I try different things.  It is as if there is too much going on and filtering what I need is difficult.  I’ve always had the mentality that we over complicate our lives.  I would like to live out in the woods with no electricity or technology and not in an effort to isolate but just to simplify. 
Not sure my point in posting this.  I guess I am looking for some support and suggestions from others in how to feel connected.  Take care folks.