I was diagnosed about two years ago and have gotten a lot better since learning more about BPD. Although I've had a really hard 6 months, quit a toxic job, lost two jobs, had to move home and now me and my husband are living with his parents. I don't self medicate or self harm as much as I use to but the problem is I don't really have anything healthy to replace them with. On top of that I don't know if my meds are right. I struggle with insomnia and can go days without sleeping. I've been using edibles (marijuana) to sleep but it's so expensive and my doctor won't prescribe me anything to help. I am so anxious all the time. I'm on anti anxiety but I honestly question whether they help. I am starting at the gym again and I am a vegan so I do eat healthy. Maybe I just need to vent and I'm not sure if this was the right place but I don't really know where else to turn. 