There are genuinely little to no faults in my four year relationship with my boyfriend. Our communication is good, we’ve worked on it for years. 

Randomly I’ll be bothered about something like he hasn’t FaceTimed me this week, so I start to feel unwanted. I convince myself almost monthly he doesn’t actually love me and I’m just a placeholder. He has assured me many times this isn’t the case. Even when my boyfriend compliments me and tells me how much he loves me, it never registers in my head. I always find an excuse inside to reject it. My attachment style is anxious so if he takes an hour or so to reply, I get upset and convince myself of all the things mentioned above. 

It’s exhausting.