I feel so alone and I want to die. Idk why its bothering me so much, I've always been alone. But for some reason lately it's been crushing me. It feels like I'm suffocating. I think it hurts so much more because I've been trying to be social again, but I'm always left out. I see everyone going out with their friends and having having fun, but I'm never invited. I have no friends, well I should say I have a few friends but they are never around. They always call me, or message me when they are down, or having a bad trip on drugs and need someone to talk to. I'm always there for everyone, but when I need someone there is no one. No one is ever there for me. I keep reaching out, practically begging just for someone to help me. I just want someone to care that I'm hurting.. maybe they'll miss me when I'm gone.