I’m 23 years old. Graduated ten months ago and unemployed. I was addicted to weed for 5 years and spent my time in university gaming. Never paid attention to grades or real responsibilities. Always wanted to be social but never did anything towards it. I stopped smoking weed 3 months ago. Still feel like I’m aimlessly going through life. My mind is constantly stuck in the past bringing up every worse memory from unrelated events. I spent the last 3 months in isolation pretty much except from my family. I have overthought and sat in my room sleeping all day for so long that I started feeling pain inside my body (like stress). I can barely wake up in the morning and I oversleep everyday. I just think how my life could’ve been different if I wasn’t addicted for 5 years and if I actually cared about myself. I’m in a constant loop of beating myself up. And all my “friends” are in better places which makes me feel way worse. I have support from my family and they’re all good people but I still feel miserable. For so long I’ve been focusing on other people and didn’t take proper action to fix my life. Instead I used to resort to smoking. Now I just feel depressed all the time and I’m always in my head. I can’t see a way out but I want to have faith.