I’m a young woman, already living with ADHD diagnosis for several years. This Monday I got diagnosed with BPD. It feels so ducking scary, like I’ve always known there is something wrong in my head but it’s so sad to know it. I guess it explains all the shit that went down in my previous relationship and many other dysfunctional behaviors. I somewhat feel relieved but I know there is sooo much work to do now that I can’t avoid since I know what’s up with me. 

Couple things that scare me the most is how stigmatized this disorder is, how hard it would be to find a partner who would want to deal with all this, and my future. I have very ambitious career aspirations and I currently have a lot on my plate. Instead, I’m kinda spiraling down into depressive state where I have no desire to do anything. I’m usually very active, so it drives me mad.

Where do I go from here? Like how can I continue living like nothing happened when my whole world changed?