I’m not gonna lie it would help for some people in the comments to give me some advice. But recently I’ve been good friends with her and it is an long distance relationship. But we recently got together and I’m seeing her soon anyways.

But it just sometimes I have to admit it can be hard for me to deal with her tho I love her a lot. I got my own problems as well from GAD to Social Anxiety. But recently we were doing okay and just out of the blue she felt emotionless and then just deleted all socials or form of contact with anyone for a few days. Must I say it hurts just knowing sometimes there’s nothing I can do. It’s completely turned me into an mute whenever she does this the 2 or 3 days she’s gone it feels like an eternity all I do is sleep and work I can’t even play games. I just sit in an pitch black room just waiting to hear from her. I just hope she realizes I’m here for her and I’m not leaving her. She does have ptsd from an past long distance relationship. So I understand it’s gonna be a while until she’s comfortable with it again. It’s just really I love her a lot and she’s the first girl I’ve loved since losing a girlfriend who was pregnant 5 years ago in an car accident. She made me feel happy again and she helps me through a lot. She actually listens to me. I just needed to get this out I guess. I love her and I’m still learning to understand bpd and get use to it.