What I mean by that is I have mood swings that are just plain stupid. For example I'd watch a TV show and feel way too hyped up about any little exciting thing happening during the show or on the opposite getting super depressed over any bad little plot twist or situation, just as if the show was my own life. Even after I stop watching the show, I usually end up with leftover feelings for a while. 

Well, because of stupid things like that, I just never know what to think about my feelings, how genuine or important they are.

I've been very depressed for the past 3 months and a few days ago it just was too much I had a meltdown and I rushed to the doctor to ask for help because I was so desperate. Since that I've been like... turned off. It's been about 2-3 days that I've been feeling empty and pretty much "blank". I don't feel anything, don't really think much. It's been really weird because I've found myself looking for them feelings almost like I miss them. I've been trying to think about the things that usually me hurt me and tear me up instantly when I think about them, but nothing. I've almost been trying to push the tears out (I know it's silly) but it felt so weird and unatural that nothing happened. I just don't even know or understand why I've been so depressed for during 3 months. It's been really difficult and I know I felt it and it was very real but now I just don't get it. I've been wondering, was I just lying to myself or making it up for attention ? Driving myself crazy because I know how I felt, and I know it was real and now it just looks so distant from me. I don't even feel guilty about the possibility that I was just been crazy and made created very dramatic situations for so long when I usually would. 

So I'm here not knowing if the depression will come back and if the emptiness is just a phase or if the depression was the phase. Not knowing what is real and what isn't. Right now I litterally feel nothing and thinking about it, it's pretty scary. Also, I'm afraid of what's coming next. It's all just very confusing. Anyone relates ? Help please ?