I (26ftm) just moved in with my boyfriend (25m) of a year and a half 2 months ago. I moved out of a toxic household and he has just started working full-time. I've been having trouble adjusting and I hate how my mood is so dependant on my boyfriend's mood and getting affection from him.

I know I'll adjust like I always do. When we first started dating I was very clingy, I slowly got better. Then he started an internship, which turned into part-time and now recently full-time.

I just have a lot going on in my brain right now and it fucking sucks. He is so loving and understanding of my bpd and other issues but I would love for my brain to be normal for once.

I'm tired of dealing with my mood and bpd on top of trauma and everything else. I don't know how to fix it without time and slowly adjusting. I'm quite self aware and can't out logic my emotions. My memory is also slowly getting worse which doesn't help.

That's it. That's the post.