I just got an email earlier today from my college announcing that most classes will start remotely, and will continue remotely until the omicron tsunami burns out. 

Then, I had to go to the grocery store to pick up a prescription, and not only was it packed, but the workers there were clearly lacking and stressed (not to mention the “now hiring” signs plastered fucking everywhere), and a lot of shelves were empty. 

My mom also came back from Holiday traveling, bringing with her a stomach virus and a cold (not covid, thank God). But, we’re both pretty sniffly and she has constant nausea, so I’m pretty worried. 

Last week, my doctor’s checkup appointment was cancelled due to covid. It’s not an emergency by any means, but it really just goes to show me how stressed out the medical system is given the circumstances. As someone with Cystic Fibrosis, and given that me and my family are sick, I am especially alarmed, and my docs sent me an extra supply of meds just in case the delivery trucks get fucked over. 

It’s all just super fucking freaky right now. It’s equally enraging. I’ve spent this entire pandemic being as safe and responsible as I could possibly be, especially given my CF. And yet, it’s like I did it all for nothing. 

All I can do to comfort myself is repeat the following: 

“Me and my loved ones are vaccinated and boosted, therefore are significantly less likely to be infected with covid, let alone get sick and die from it. The supply chain is pretty wonky right now, but there is still plenty of food and ingredients available in stores and in mine and my loved ones’ homes, and there always will be (even if I have to buy different brands than I usually do). The covid surge will eventually and quickly subside. It’s scary now, but it won’t be so scary in a month from now, if the models are right. There are still so, so, *so* many people out there, willing and able to offer help and support. I am not helpless either. There are things even I can do to help myself and others. 

If nothing else, this too shall pass…”

It just sucks ass right now, and my added anxiety disorder isn’t fucking helping as much as it likes to think it is!