The last 6 weeks I’ve been off my meds and felt amazing and I’m not gonna lie I think I was manic cause now I just wanna cry for nothing fucken a…. Take your meds if your bipolar is bad enough to warrant them. You will breakdown over nothing 😂😂😂 and I’m a landscaper so I looked like a little bitch in front of my team. Modern medicine is amazing but I wouldn’t recommend seraquel for sureeee shit made me retarted I hate the idea of being a lesser version of myself but sometimes you have to take the bad with the good. I’m trying vraylar and some blood pressure med for anxiety  so wish me luck. 90% of this episode was thinking I was gonna keel over and die at any moment terrible thing to worry about