This sounds so weird im aware. But after reading reddit posts im pretty sure i have PPD a lot of the posts i relate to…will talk to a doctor about it soon.

However now i feel i dont even know like itchy and dirty like i just rolled in some grass. My scalp itches, i feel like my skin shouldn’t be on me. I feel like my brain is contaminated and just wrong because I have such a skewed reality of things and I seem crazy. 

I want a clean brain :( im ok with my adhd or anxiety. But this just feels like im crazy and my reality, my world around is not right in my brain which means its corrupted and its missing things of a normal brain or has things on it.

I hope someone can understand this what Im trying to say. I know it sounds insane everything I just said but i wanted to tell someone. its really making me feel REALLY bad about myself and about how i treat others around me. i feel sad, and crazy.