I just got a letter that I have an appointment soon to review my SSI case to see if I'm still eligible, and I'm extremely nervous about it.

I've been receiving benefits for nearly a year, and although it's made a giant difference in my security and quality of life, I now live in constant fear of doing something that will get it revoked. I watch my assets like a hawk, and report *everything*.

I was approved for mental health reasons, so I was already pretty lucky once. I still regularly go to therapy, am unemployed, and take medications for my personality and panic disorders. But because I'm not *visibly* disabled or struggling with a physical ailment I constantly feel less "legitimate" in the eyes of the government.

It's ridiculous, I know, but every time I leave the house now I worry someone from the SSA is going to jump out from behind a bush and "catch" me not being "mentally ill enough" to earn this support. I'm afraid to smile in public, or be seen anywhere bathed and fully-dressed. 

It's really getting in the way of my ability to recover from certain traumas and efforts to manage my symptoms. I feel like I have to live in a perfect homeostasis of illness just to survive. Not too crazy, not too little.

I guess my question is a twofer. How do I stop being so damn afraid, and what can I expect from this interview? What sort of questions do they ask? What information do I disclose or not disclose? Am I making a big deal out of nothing?