From a young age I’ve had sensory issues and for whatever reason every so often they sort of “flare up” to a point where everything feels disgusting. I hate eating and preparing food for myself because it feels so unclean. I hate having to use the bathroom. I sometimes have a hard time sleeping (when I don’t use sleeping pills) because the sheets against my skin make me feel disgusting. And this feeling never really goes away except when I’m in the shower. But when I get out of the shower I feel disgusting and unclean. This sounds so fucking crazy I know, but I’m not joking or trolling at all: existing as a human is so uncomfortable to me and I don’t know why. Being human depresses me.