I thought to believe that I couldn't feel because I think, overthink way too much but after reflecting on my life; i've been free all along. I connected the dots and realized I was a deep feeler all along. I was a victim of sexual abuse for 7 years, went through a miscarriage at age 13, went through an abortion 5 months ago (this killed me to the point that I cry that I did this but my ex bpd bf wouldn't have helped me and I couldn't have done it alone). I go out of my way for people who I love. I don't actually hide, have secrets, my heart feels, i'm fluent with my expressions and feelings, i'm not depressed, i'm happy, I found my purpose in life and i'm going to reach for my goals. I want to help others who vision the same and to have that same opportunity. I thought I was an ice princess but I love, with all my heart. I don't feel abandonment, i'm not jealous, I hope the best for people and want them to be happy. 

I NEVER HAD BPD AND IM SO HAPPY! I'M EMPATHETIC, I RESPECT, AND I'M NOT JUDGMENTAL! 