I have recently had a big falling out with all of my friends (again) and with that came a new wave of depression. I must say, I'm not mad. For the first time since I was 11 years old (I'm 22 now), I do not feel an urge to go looking for a romantic relationship, which ultimately led to the demise of all of my friendships.

The concept of going on dates has become foreign to me. I can't understand why anyone in their right mind would want to go meet someone with a preestablished agreement that you will have to have sex/kiss/whatever by the end of it. I also can't see myself ever meeting anyone, but maybe it's the depression talking.

I know this is not good, but I feel more tranquil knowing there's no one around me, and at least right now I don't think there ever will be again.