Today I was contemplating ending everything I don’t have any support from my family, just about all of my friends abandoned me except like two, and I can’t afford the type of therapy that I need. I’m in so much pain both emotionally and physically. I’m 

The only people I’ve seen say Bpd gets better are people that are able to afford tons of different therapies and stuff some even go to these fancy vacation looking hospitals. I hate when people say “ well just go to therapy if you actually want to get better and everything will be ok” when America is literally the worst for healthcare and most people can’t afford therapy. The only psych wards I was able to go to in the past looked like jail and didn’t care to help. 

As for everyone else, they appear absolutely  miserable. I am almost 23 and I follow some older people with Bpd on tiktok and Instagram and they are in the worst conditions I’ve ever seen. The worst self harm I’ve ever seen in my life and they’ve tried so many different meds throughout their life that didn’t work, they just want to give up. It’s very sad and I don’t want a life like that but my life basically already is that :/ I definitely don’t see myself lasting much longer in the conditions I’m in.

I honestly feel like surviving is based off how much money you have and how much support you have around you. If that’s the case I was doomed since I was born.