I want to talk with someone about what and how I feel, but I do not know to who.

I don't want to talk about it with friends bc i'm scared they're going to be sad as I am or get "annoyed" from what i say.

I'm too scared to talk with my parents since my mother probably would be constantly worried about me (or wouldn't believe that i'm depressed) and probably "traumatized" by the fact that i'm trans.
And my father bc i don't see him that often (even if now i'm legally allowed to choose when to see him I can only see him on sundays bc of school)

I'd talk with a psycologist but because of my mother I don't really feel like it (at least until I'm not going to be able to move somewhere else, so quite sometime)