Lately I've been feeling guilty/bad about my boyfriend having to deal with my episodes. I try to remind myself that he loves me and that most of the time everything is good, but I am also suppressing a lot of the negative thoughts and emotions so he doesn't have to deal with it. 

Relationships are really hard when you have BPD.

I used to think I should never be in one, until I decided to take a chance and see what happened. Well, I fell in love and now I want to do whatever it takes to keep him around. But I don't want him to have to deal with me sometimes, it feels unfair.

Anyone ever feel similar?!