.. and it isn't for lack of trying. All of my one night stands ended up with me getting bored after 10 minutes and pretending to orgasm. After the initial excitement, I find myself thinking "what is the point of this?" in the middle of the action. 

It's not like I'm not a total perv either. I have an irresponsibly sized collection of porn. Based on what my ex-girlfriends have told me, I'm apparently pretty good at it, too. 

I love telling my partner I love them and telling them they're beautiful souls but I can't say that stuff to strangers.

I avoid relationships because they break my brain so I can't even remember the last time I had sex... 3~4 years probably. People are always shocked when I tell them that but I really just don't see the point without romance and I'm terrified of romance, so that's just how it is. 

..but everyone else seems to be obsessed with it. Everyone on TV, the internet, in movies, etc..

Makes me feel even more defective than I usually do.

Can anyone relate?



