So today's I tried MDMA for the first time.I was so close to closing my eyes and falling asleep,but I didn't.I was very hyper aware and talked very quietly.That's unusual for me cuz I'm naturally berry loud and clumsy person.My head cleared,and I could focus on one though (also unusual for me)and I felt calm FOR THE FIRST TIME in my entire life.I didn't laugh or fall or did any dump shit in general.Also I started cleaning my friends apartment for some reason 😂And currently the after feels like nothing,it feel like what I've felt up until I took the pill.I tried green punishers with around 200 smth grams of MDMA.I acted drastically different than the people around and I'm starting to wonder if it because of an illness.I haven't been diagnosed with anything till now, I've had two sessions with my first ever psychologist.Idk if that info will be neaded.Can someone please tell me why I acted the way I acted?