i let it slip that i hate myself, i dont feel loved or feel anything in particular. n got hit w the "its just cuz ur on ur period". IT IS NOT. im always like this. just why? this week was damn horrible. no one loves OR EVEN LIKES me, they just complained abt me staying home bc i couldnt move. but its always like this. i never have appetite, i never want to get up, i never want to take a shower, I NEVER LIKE MYSELF. everyones jjust annoyed by me. i just had something to blame it on. thats all. it doesnt change anything. n it doesnt matter to anyone. 

i really wanted to see my cats this week. but i. couldnt. i left so quick. i miss them. its so lonely without anyone "there". whats the point of living with people when they dismiss you? at the same time living alone would probably kill me. i CANT LIVE ALONE. my thoughts are not even in "reality." theyre in some kind of past or in a "what if" scenario. im just going to isolate myself even more from social media &amp; rl. no one will even notice. no one will care.