it's kind of weird that it's this late into winter that I'm feeling my seasonal depression kick in, but I assume it has something to do with the abnormally warm weather we've been having lately. honestly, I'm not 100% sure if this is SAD or if it's just because I had an awful night at work, but I'm pretty sure it's the former since I barely have the energy to type this out, and I feel like I'm about to cry.

I vented to my mom earlier and she said I should talk to my psychiatrist, but with my work schedule my waking hours are usually from 3pm to 7am, and that combined with low energy/motivation and hardly enough energy to even talk half the time makes it hard to ask for help. I wish I could just email her, but iirc it has to be in person (or maybe telehealth).

I don't really know where I was going with this. I've been writing this for like 20 minutes, and I don't even know if I got out all that I wanted to write. anyways, if anyone has any advice, I'd really appreciate it. I know this isn't very specific, sorry.