I cant do this I just cant anymore I wanna be happy again. Im dealing with lots rn ever since I watched some verg graphic gore, smoked weed, had dpdr, researched solipsism. Its all too much for me I wanna be happy again I just cant see the world the same anymore but I want to please someone help. Ive had this kind of depression for years it comes and goes. I hadnt had any kind of major depression tho for a while. This doesnt feel like itll go away I rly need to know and make sure itll go away because I just cant especially at night thats when it gets rly bad. I just don’t know what to do, this doesn’t feel like it’ll ever go away. Please please help im desperate.