I was just at a family friends and we stayed at their guest house and I had a splitting episode because I was triggered and I felt like everyone was telling me that my trauma was my fault and I should know better and I just feel really embarrassed because people heard me because the walls are that thick. I just feel really embarrassed and humiliated because the splitting episode also was a yelling and crying battle between me and my mom because I was trying to be heard and I was trying to feel understood. I just don’t know what to do because I feel like I’ve ruined my relationship with my family friend I’ve had for years because I don’t know with how he perceives me now I just don’t know what he knows about me or what information he heard during my episode. I’m just scared and embarrassed to face him again. Especially having a splitting episode when you come to visit someone for me personally that it’s just very embarrassing having an episode like that when not in your own home it’s embarrassing for me personally.