I can't hold motivation to do anything I will always find a way to make it seem like people are against me I feel bad if anyone notices I'm sad I feel worse if they ask what's wrong I am starting to not be able to stand being around the people who saved me from falling down into isolation I don't know what to do and am too scared to ask for help and don't even know if anything is wrong I don't know what to do so I have resorted to asking random internet people