 First of all, I would like to say that English is not my mother tongue, so I apologize if I express myself poorly or you do not fully understand what I am trying to say.  I'm just here to vent. 

I don't normally talk to anyone and would like to share my thoughts with other people. This way you can give me your opinion and help me feel a little better, if you want. 

 I feel so empty and lonely and I don't know why I should feel this way.  I know that I am privileged compared to other people who have a worse time than me and with all those people who throughout history have suffered much more than me, and I repeat it to myself every day so as not to be so pessimistic and pathetic, but no works.  Sometimes I think I should never have been born. 

Sometimes I think I'm not made for this world. I really think that I should not exist and should stop doing so as soon as possible.  I know the world doesn't make any sense. I am aware of it. Still, despite the advantages that this could bring, I am unable to lead a satisfactory life.  I know that the universe is cruel and indifferent and that, although I am a privileged person from the first world who has all my needs covered, I am unable to enjoy my existence.  

I don't like who I am and I have a feeling that I never will, and I think this is the cause of all the problems.  I'm just pathetic and I don't deserve to live.  

I have a feeling that I will end up committing suicide sooner or later.