Ive had depression since I was 13 but I’ve mostly had close friends I can lean on. Right now not so much. I work 11am-8pm so most of my friends aren’t available during the week. On the weekend use a bit of time on my passion project with is my band but I don’t really feel close to them which is fine. My best friend who we have always been close and been emotional supports to each other has been distant. He says he’s been depressed lately which I believe but he hung out with other people on a day he said he can’t hang out with me, which kinda hurts. 

I’ve been watching YouTube videos of this comedy channel where they have friends making skits and I just sit there and get lost in what it’d feel like rn to have friends I can see like that.

I work alone like 1 on 1 with kids so I don’t get social interaction at work. My supervisor came to my site to check in today and it’s really dumb but I enjoyed it just cuz I got to interact with another adult today