I will start this by saying I do have borderline personality disorder. So take with that what you will. 

So I(25F)  hate to admit this but I have a problem where I feel the need to always have one person to give my attention to. Usually this means flirting and maybe fooling around. And as embarrassing as this is to say I usually do this online with someone I met gaming. Well every so often that person leaves me for either someone in person that they meet or some stupid crap that ends up happening. And that has happened again in the last week.


I did like the guy I was talking to and we were planning on me coming out to visit him when this crazy shit was all over. But then he met a girl there and now can't even be my friend anymore. I have literally no idea what to do with myself and I am desperately craving that connection. I would get on a dating app or something but if I am being honest, I don't want a boyfriend and I am EXTREMELY self conscious of how I look these days, I gained a lot of weight after my last relationship a year ago. I also just love the feeling of being with someone and that connection without all the complications of a serious relationship. 



I guess I am just wondering if this is a problem other have and what you do? I am getting depressed and lonely and I really don't like this feeling. I just want someone to be there. Shit.