I had a counselor I liked fairly well from June 2017 until May 31, 2018. In June, I missed a few sessions due to my counselor's vacation and a week or two of insurance issues.   


Then, I got a call saying that my counselor was no longer with the agency.   


So, I was assigned to counselor #2. She wasn't a good fit for me and I was relieved when her schedule and my availability for counseling did not line up.   


Counselor #3 was awesome- best one yet- and then she had a family emergency and I never saw her after the first week.   


In between counselor 3 and 4 I had a week off due to scheduling conflicts. Then, I met with the fourth counselor (who also runs the agency I go to for counseling).   


I met with her on Monday the 23rd. She did not say anything to me about not being in the office on the 30th. Fortunately, I noticed that I didn't receive my usual phone call confirming my appointment on the business day before, so I decided to call before driving the 30 miles out to my appointment.   


Between having random weeks off with little warning or no opportunity to reschedule and changing counselors so often, I feel like this is a complete waste of time. It takes a while to actually build a repertoire with a counselor, so having random weeks off and not being with someone longer than 1-3 weeks before I get shuffled from one person to another doesn't help my progress. In fact, it might even be hurting me.   


I've, essentially,been out of counseling since the end of May since all I've done since then is have weeks off or spend sessions going over the most basics of my history (including taking all the same tests I had to take when I first started at this place). The first few weeks were rough because it was a sudden change, but now, I'm feeling fine. I'm actually more fed up with this than anything.   


It's not like they are providing me with a counselor who is trained in DBT or specializes in BPD patients. They're just finding whoever will fit my availability and isn't likely to quit on me. If I were getting more specialized care and/or care from someone who can provide the additional aspect of spiritual counseling, then maybe I'd be more willing to stick this out. But right now, I'm really not sure if this is worth the time/energy or if I should just save the gas money and discontinue counseling entirely.  


I quit my meds cold turkey last year (insurance change- couldn't get my prescription renewed). It made no difference. I'm starting to feel that counseling would be about the same.  