I’m scared. I’m stressed. I’m pressured and frustrated.

First of all it‘s just that this will be my last year of school. I want this year to be good and I want to get good grades without having the feel that someone judges me because of the way I talk, behave, respond or “not“ talk. I am more the lonely “quiet“ kid and after school begins I get major migraines, anxiety and symptoms of depression. I feel like I’m worthless or not enough. I don‘t want to feel that way. I want to accomplish and achieve the goals I set myself. I don‘t want to change myself for others.

In the holidays I needed 1-2 weeks to get to myself again and have more intuition about myself, like caring and maintaining myself and finally get a main focus on myself. Now I’m scared that after school begins I will completely forget about all this and let life (ignorant people) and anxiety fuck me all over again. I’m just so done.

I’ve had anxiety going to school since I was in elementary school.

Any advice on how to handle it better. I try to not be impulsive, but that just feels like I’m looking myself up and I end up escaping it with destructive behavior.

That said, stay healthy =)