I have been on meds for a few years now. up until now they had been working great. I got out of an abusive relationship in december and since then it’s like I got dropped off the side of the mountain. im rapid cycling over and over. I just got out of a month long depression episode. every wrong thing feels like someone is searing my flesh. I can’t handle it. I want to die. I can’t handle normal problems without my mood catapulting itself into oblivion. im pissed im sad im tired.  so so tired. I haven’t felt this bad since before I was medicated. im at a complete loss. I take my meds I see my therapist I do what needs to be done. and still, I feel like I want to be done. I don’t want to fight the triggers, fight the mood shifts, im over it. im completely exhausted. im exhausting my friends too, and it causes me so much guilt. 
what can I do? I journal, I talk to my friends, my therapist. I exercise, I usually feed myself alright. I talked to my psych and she increased one med but she wants to wait and see what happens. I don’t know. im sorry, im just really really struggling right now.