My psychiatrist recommended therapy. I haven’t gone yet but I’m afraid if I go I won’t be able to protect myself from people that want to misuse me. I’m afraid it will make me more vulnerable &amp; that people will walk all over me. 

I obviously don’t enjoy not knowing who I truly am or what I believe in, telling my boyfriend he’s awful, hurting myself, pushing away my friends &amp; family with my words/actions…

Is this stupid to say? Idk maybe I’m just a lost cause.