I am an 18 years old Male. I have been struggling greatly. Financially, I am supporting myself as my Mother had stopped any kind of support since I turned 18 and became a Canadian Citizen. Unfortunately I have been so irresponsible with money. I spent it all on video games. Expecting that it'd make me feel much better. Been away from my Mom for 4 months. I left Ontario because we had a fight about me confronting her why she has a new boyfriend she's not even divorced yet and the stuff she promised me, that she'll fix things with my dad. I've been in Canada for almost 2 years now. Me and My Mom were apart since I was 7 years old so I didn't get to know her and when I arrived here, we were strangers arguing all the time. I am sick of this. I think about other people's feelings more than myself. Instead of helping myself, Here I am thinking if I should do this and that so I won't disappoint them. I'm about to fail high school. My grades got so bad because of my anxiety and I might have ADHD because I couldn't focus at school nor at home. Nothing can help me anymore. I tried medicines for 3 times, nothing worked for me. Tried therapy, it makes me feel worse. I seriously have no Idea. I have a girlfriend and I feel like I need to leave now. I an just concerned on how my Family and Girlfriend will feel if I suddenly vanished. I love Life but it makes me so sad and depressed.