Seriously... I have to sleep. So when I do, I dream.... and you come back to me... in a cruel fashion, angry, spiteful and vengeful.... no goodness.
 I dream of worries. Of fears and of things I cant control. I want peace from your ghost, you took soo much from from me. I can't anymore... these scars on my heart. I want out of life... I want to be free of this pain. I want to be able to live without hurting soo much... I don't know whats left of me anymore. I csnt love like i used to, I can't move, or think like I used to. I can't find the strength. I wish I could erase everything...  why couldn't you just leave me with a part of myself. Why do you have to tear everything off me I worked soo hard to heal.