I'm thinking of killing myself. I'm tired for years and years trying to improve and nothing I can't take anymore.

I have friends and my sister, mom and dad who support me, I'm in college, I'm practically dating, i have everything right?

but I can’t visualize a future I always thought I would be dead before 20 and I’m still here, I can’t see the future, forget the past and not even focus on the present.

it's all dark and i'm tired of being in the dark. i want to escape, i want to disappear.