So for starters: yes, I know these are delusions/cognitive distortions, and no, this is not a troll post. Also, sorry if this is kind of incoherent/rambling. 

So I've had anxiety almost all of my life and it had always bothered me, sometimes becoming deep depression. I always jumpt to the worst case scenario and assume it's inevitable, which I know isn't healthy. It often becomes so bad that I worry about tiny things, like what I'll do for dinner that night, as if they're the end of the world or a butterfly effect style decision. 

Recently, I've been having a lot of "I called it!" moments, like when I guess that a coworker would be absent or that I'd get off work early. Now rationally I know these are lucky guesses but nevertheless I cant shake the feeling of "ok but what if they arent?", which I know is completely crazy. 

That alone doesnt bother me that much, but it gets worse when something bad happens to me that I predicted, and I begin to think "what if I'm right about all these other bad things that I worry will happen?", despite there being little evidence for those worries. It's here where the "what if I'm a psychic?" delusion comes into play and won't leave me alone. I go down the rabbit hole of "I was right about those small things and that one bad thing, does that mean all the other bad things I'm predicting will come true?" And they almost (like 99% of the time) never do. 

An example is I recently came out to my sister as trans, I guessed that she wouldnt react well, and she didnt. According to my mother (I'm away from home), it worsened her anxiety. And recently, I hooked up with a dude that I hooked up with before, and after he left he blocked me. I don't think I did anything wrong, but after correctly predicting my sister's reaction I keep thinking "I was right about that, what if I'm right about thinking I did unintentionally do something wrong and he hates me now?" It gets so tiring. 

Basically, this was a mix of venting and genuinely asking if anyone has some advice for this. I'm tired of catastrophizing and looking over my shoulder over every little thing that happens in my life.