it’s been over a year since we broke up and i’m still not over her. i think about her all the time and i have created this fucked up fantasy in my head that we will get back together in the future and that it would be a healthy/normal relationship. i know this will never happen. but i can’t stop thinking about it. everything reminds me of her. i know ending things last year was for the best but i don’t think i can love anyone else. i don’t want to love anyone else. i don’t want to be loved by anyone else. i saw her today and i glanced at her lock screen and it was a picture of her kissing her new gf. i’m so heartbroken about it. i know it’s selfish of me because she’s probably in a better relationship with an actual sane person now and honestly i’m happy if she’s happy but i’d be lying if i said i didn’t break down in my car after seeing it. i work full time, i go to therapy, i’m on meds, i make music, i go to shows, i have friends, plenty of distractions but she’s always in my head all the time. if anyone has any advice or anything that can cheer me up i’d really appreciate it a lot