Having a kid at 20, working a job I absolutely dread, girlfriend doesn’t want to be intimate to me. My 20s are over before they even began, every decision I make I get myself into a deeper and deeper hole. I hate myself and my messed up life, just want to end myself and have a fucking do over. Life is just too much especially when you’re a dumbass that keeps making it worse for himself. Thought having BPD alone was bad but this is a whole new level. Having a kid at 20 because I was too impulsive to protect myself and my girlfriend is exhausted with me I’m struggling hard with my mental health and it has taken it’s toll on her. I quit a job I loved in order to peruse something that would pay more but that was a mistake. I dread going into work and it never fails to Trigger a depressive episode. I just want to go to bed and never wake up, fuck my life.