It's really hard to explain this because my mind is in a constantly anxious state. I find I'll be anxious when I have a lot to do and when I get a break my anxiety gets even worse because I have more time to ruminate. The more I try to distract myself the stronger the thought of it trying to go away becomes and then it feels impossible. Usually I can't pinpoint what it is about but sometimes I go back and blame my bully from the past (even if I didn't care for several years about it) or I blame my parents for neglect. I'm not even sure who's fault it is. This anxiety comes most days but some days (rarely) it's gone.