I am supposed to start a new job tomorrow that my roommate helped me get because he was friends with the coordinators. I missed training for the job because I have classes until late in the evening every weekday plus I have the least amount of shifts out of anyone else hired in my same position because of the same reason.  Both these things make me feel like a massive burden and I feel like I'm going to screw up and everyone on my work team is going to hate me. I have almost no idea what the duties of the job entail--they sent me a PDF, but reading through it last night sent me into one of the worst panic attacks I've had for a while because it felt like I absolutely will not be able to do this.

I have considered running away or hiding from my apartment tomorrow so I can't be found. I have been so absolutely terrified about this and I feel like I can't do it. I really don't know what to do and the constant panic attacks about it have been excruciating.