Hi BPD, first and foremost- thank you. I just recently 'self-diagnosed' myself. Yes I know I need to be evaluated by professional, but I cannot even explain how much everything I have learned about BPD explains me to a tee. It's been really nice to discover that there are other people like me and who struggle the way I do, it's been a very lonely and confusing couple of years and this subreddit has been a real comfort.

I have a couple questions I would like to ask.

-How did you go about finding treatment? I have tried to find someone for DBT in my area and I cannot find anyone that is not private. I just recently graduated college and so $200/week on therapy is basically impossible if I want to keep a roof over my head. Is there another type of treatment to look in to? Would just CBT be an option?

-Relationship: I am dating someone currently. And it's extremely complicated. He is depressed and distant and it KILLS me. I let him not texting me or wanting to hang out all the time affect me too much. Even if I'm not officially diagnosed, would it be something to talk to him about? We've been dating on and off for about 6 months. Anyone have experience in this? I know it's not very serious with him, but my emotions are having a serious affect on me, and I think something needs to be done. (Talk or just end it to focus on getting help and my life together?)

-Any hobbies or activities that you have found helpful? I have trouble making myself do much of anything. But I think having a hobby would help me to stop just depending on others for my happiness. Has anyone found anything in particular that was helpful? Maybe stress and anxiety relieving?

I would really appreciate any feedback and/or advice. I feel like I have no one else to talk to about this.