I just started uni and my course is psychology bsc. AND MY HISTRIONIC SIDE TELLS ME TO TELL EVERY SINGLE LECTURER THAT I AM DIAGNOSED WITH BPD WITH STRONG HPD TRAITS. Like it's unexplainable I just feel the strongest need to tell them about it. I don't know what I want to accomplish with it. Also I have a problem with gatekeeping and I'm 10000% sure that when HPD or BPD comes up during any lecture I'm going to try and be a smartass about everything which is definetely going to annoy some people. 

How do i stop seeking attention and validation so much. I really can't explain it but i fantasize about my lecturers being IMPRESSED with that. I feel so stupid. Please if you have any tips on that, share them with me.