I have a question about a skill!

It's actually one of my main skills. It's extremely effective.. But I can't figure out a way to use it in a healthy way long-term! Maybe someone has an idea?

My skill is venting. I can be in the deepest, darkest depression. If I just write everything down that comes to my mind and hit send somewhere I feel almost immediately better. I then also enjoy seeing people relate and sometimes people give nice advice or make a funny joke or whatever. It's just really nice! It's 1) attention 2) venting and 3) community/social. Perfect skill for me!

But now to the issues. It can be quite extreme whenever I vent. And I know it's not that serious and that 30 minutes later I'll feel better. Others don't.

So there are places like this subreddit. Fine, right? Yea. And it works pretty well here. But the more people I reach, the more places I vent at, the more effective the skill is. And that is where it can become toxic and I just can't figure out a healthy base.

As an example my private Instagram account. My real life friends are there and food bloggers folllow me. Not a mental health crowd. But I reach a lot of people. I have over 1000 Followers. So if I vent there the 1) attention and 2) venting and 3) community/social aspect works wonderful, but then it gets weird. People take it so serious, they don't get it. I also feel a bit embarassed and ashamed and over-dramatic. I feel triggering. 

I've made pure venting Instagram accounts, but there I don't reach many people (yet?). 

I don't know.

Back in the days when online forums were a thing it was perfect. They were popular and huge. I was able to post kinda anonymously, yet my name was recognizable.

My main issue tbh is about my main account. I LOVE venting there. But at the same time it's so awkward and embarassing and weird, because my FACE is attached to it. My identity. You know what I mean?