I have BPD genetically. and i have been struggling with my relationship. we have been together for a year.. actually i dont even know if anyone would read this cos i kinda dont really exist here. but anyways back to my incident. my boyfriend is pretty mischievous and would play with me by teasing me or try to annoy me all the time. and sometimes i think it’s fun but sometimes i cant stand it. sometimes anything he says could trigger me. sometimes i cant stand talking to him. but i dont know if it’s my fault or his. he would tell me that this relationship turned us toxic. but every relationship i had told me this. and he wishes i can suppress my emotions more so that he won’t be so stressed out around me.. i don’t know how my head works and sometimes i just want to bash my head into a wall because when i disassociate, ‘voices’ in my head start repeating every negative thing anyone has ever said to me. and im stuck there. anyway im just blabbing on now. am i splitting on my partner? and does anyone else have a similar experience? it would be nice to have someone to talk to:/ but idk