I am male, early 30s, and am seeing a therapist for my BDP.

I had a strong emotional experience from day 1 as a child. I was a happy toddler, and the adults in my life adored me, and things were great until I experienced parental abuse at home and bullying at school. After that I only remember wanting to cry all the time. Though I am %100 sure that I got beaten and bullied, I am not %100 sure that I ended this way because of that. As horrible as it sounds, I know children who went through more horrible shot, yet ended up very well adjusted as adults. So maybe I was born that way. Yet again, I know adults who feel things as deeply as I do, yet are in tune with their emotions, and are very successful.

My life would be several orders of magnitude better if my inner world was as calm as your average guy. I am perpetually amazed how typical people live their lives without experiencing things like I do.

Why cannot I just bring the volume down? :D Food for thought.