Please I don’t want your judgment on this. I’m not in a good place right now. 
My boyfriend and I have been together 5ish years. We moved to TX from NY and adopted a dog / rent an apt together. Our lives are totally immersed. In the past 2 years i was diagnosed wi Th panic disorder. Originally I was having them several times a day. Now I’m having them once every few months. Progress 

I’m in therapy, on meds, exposing myself little by little. Tonight I had a panic attack while driving because my road was closed down due to an accident and I couldn’t figure out how to get home. Was on the Highway and completely lost. My BF had to end up helping me get home. 

He was so mad. Told me I’m not even like an adult (I’m 30) and told me I had to get my shit together or maybe I should move back to NY. He said he wouldn’t trust me with a child because what if This happened while a kid was in the car. He said my therapy/meds weren’t working. Ignored and disregarded all progress. When I tried to fight back and tell him this what anxiety is ... irrational fears ....he said I was giving excuses.

Up until the last month or so he has been INCREDIBLY supportive of my anxiety. He always said the right things and knew exactly what to do to help calm me down. I relied on him so much because he always helped and never judged. Now all of a sudden he’s “threatening a breakup. Saying he doesn’t know if he can do this. AS IF THAT HELPS MY ANXIETY

He wants like a clear answer. Now. On how I’m going to fix this. I’m at a loss right now. If we break up I dont know what happens to our dog, I dont know how I’d get my car or my stuff back to NY (I have flight anxiety AND driving anxiety). I’m not currently working FT because of my mental health. So I’d honestly be fucked. If he does stay with me I feel like I’ll forever be thinking “is this too much? Has he hit his end now?” I’m afraid I’ll feel like I’m never good enough, I’m definitely feeling that right now.

I know this was long &amp; I never post on here, I’m just such at a loss and heartbroken and don’t know what to do. I just need some motivation. I can’t keep living my life with panic attacks. I just can’t.