I just wanted to get away from being boxed in at home. But I was only to realize that I’m never going to amount for anything. 

Attempted to drive through a rich neighborhood today and that obviously didn’t help. I’m never getting at that point where I just figure it out and make enough money to live on my own and start a family. I am a loser. 

I was teased for having a learning disability and was pushed through special education programs for most of my childhood. Would like to add that I never made it through a semester in college. I am far too stupid and afraid to make connections with new people, and I don’t find opportunities to leave the house and when I do, I feel lost. 

I have set myself back several years—maybe even decades—with my performance. I just could not figure it out. Every time I speak about it no one understands. Every time I post here people say they understand but it all ends with “Good Luck” and “Sorry to hear that.”