I am not sure why. Currently I feel really dumb that I don't know what I am supposed to do. I am a developer and we use some form of agile kanban stuff. So I took a task, have no idea what it is about, how big or small it is, where to find information about it,  and so on. I have been trying to search up information and I think I found some about What. 

So after 3 days I maybe know what to do. Now I have no clue about how to do it. I really need to ask for help, but I am hiding from my co workers instead of asking for help, which just increases my anxiety and I really really don't want to... ask. It's a very supportive work place and when on site I can ask for help, at worst it's after some hours of anxiety.

I know I should "just do it" and that it isn't a big deal, but it will be if I continue - this already happened a million times in my life but yeah. I really need help and input or whatever. Something new.

My fight or flight is 110% flight.