i hate my body, but i’m a guy so no one really gives a fuck, so i just skip meals and fuck myself up. logically i know i’ve lost a shit ton of weight and i excercise but it’s unhealthy— i still don’t see it. i still see myself as a fat fuck.

with the weird place i am in life right now— i’ve lost all my friends and the two or three i still talk to leave me feeling like i’m bothering, burdening, or imposing on them. 

i don’t even know what to do anymore. im just trying to stay fucking sober and sane.