It feels like my FP is avoiding me and it’s making me want to die. We essentially had been doing the whole friends with benefits thing which of course did not end up working for me because i’m extremely attached now. at the beginning it was fine because i was all up on my high horse and playing the field and dating other people too. well he had also been hooking up with someone else who he even told me about which was whatever because we are not exclusively together anyways. I had also been hooking up with other people. but now he actually likes her and when i asked him if he likes me he said it’s different and now i just feel like the friend he fucks if he’s bored and then i just get thrown on the back burner. he made it clear that he still cares for me and that we’re still close friends but that honestly still feels like i’m being abandoned. we essentially went from acting like we’re dating to barely speaking at all right now and it’s killing me like it physically hurts. i just feel alone now which i think it why i haven’t been adjusting very well. he doesn’t want a girlfriend which i believe because it honestly takes a lot for him to want to settle down with someone but i just know she’s getting more attention than me right now and i still can’t help the paranoid thoughts that he’s gonna like fall in love with her and i’m going to be completely left. my anxiety has been through the roof and truthfully the only way to get away from it is sleeping or hurting myself. i also find myself constantly splitting about him and it’s honestly a miracle that i’ve held my tongue and not reached out to him for the most part. i know i need to just give him space for a little but i am dying everyday and idk if anyone has some tips to recenter myself or something but it would be greatly appreciated.