this might sound really weird but i hate the fact i have never been hospitalised for my mental health. The people around me i know with bpd (which is few) have all needed hospitalisation and time in a psych ward (and in absolutely no way is that good) but because of how competitive MH is, i feel so invalid. I feel like i’m constantly fighting with myself to go further to feel like i am “bad enough” and it’s such a toxic mindset to be in.