I was EXTREMELY anxious about something I absolutely had to do, but did not want to do at all. I had one anxiety crysis on Saturday about it (and a pretty bad one), and yesterday I woke up to a panic attack (the whole extreme pain in the chest, difficulty breathing and thinking I was definitely going to die package). 

This situation had no specific scheduled date, so I thought "well I can just postpone it". But deep down I knew it would just keep triggering my anxiety for longer if I did that - and it would be bad in other ways too.

But I really considered postponing it because as the date I had established (which was today)  to do the this thing came closer, I became more and more anxious about it. 

BUT IN THE END (after venting in the bathroom and almost crying about it again) I DID IT. 

I know this is completely irrelevant to you, but I FEEL SO PROUD OF MYSELF. I do everything that I can to stay away from situations that trigger my anxiety that badly, but sometimes I have to deal with this. And it's one of the hardest things for me to do. 

BUT NOW I DID IT. 

I know it's not gonna be easy the next time I have to face this, but right now I'm going to allow myself to feel happy, light and proud and that's it!