I am done and I hope this ends as soon as it seems it's going to be. 

I did what I was told, didn't mess around, go to school, get a job. Didn't get fucking anywhere. Tried it all, being friendlier, less open. Playing dumb, playing smart. Worked hard or hardly worked. Same fucking result. Try after try and I'm still in this hellhole I didn't even asked to be in. 

Since I didn't live up to my parents' expectations I was sidelined. Begging for affection led me to the worst of the worst and ended up drained of care and self-esteem. Now I'm empty, no feelings, no friends, no nothing and guess what? it's all on me because I wasn't enough.

I am really tired of this planet and I hope it's over soon. If you feel like telling me that I'm worthy and stuff, go and find someone near you and tell them so. Let them know they matter, show them the respect they deserve. Make an impact where it's tangible to you. I'm so gone those words would be two seconds of comfort for me. 

Really just want to go to sleep and be done with it.