I’m 17 and today just fucked up a relationship between two friends. I was trying to break off with one of them because I hated them and I went off on why I didn’t like them and genuine criticisms of them. After a little bit he told the other friend what I said like a piece of shit even though I told him to keep it between us. He even said he would. Now the other friend fucking hates me. They were very important to me and I loved them, but I have fucked everything up. I’m so fucking stupid. I let my emotions and depressive thoughts and anger take control of me instead of calming down and leaving. I was feeling so much better too, but everything is back to where it started. I want to kill myself even more now, but I know I can’t. I want to send a suicide note to the friend I hate. I’m just a depressing piece of shit dumbass