I’ve worked out and not eaten to the point where I can say I look decent and lost about 20lbs, I’ve been trynna increase my confidence, I’ve been trynna study harder and make an effort to reach out more. What’s the point though, none of it has seemed to help in any way, the only things that were stopping me from ending it (listening to music and vibing with friends) isn’t even helping tbh. All my friends seem to be in the best place of their lives while I’m stuck here just trynna make it they week by week. Everyday pretty much merged into eachother and it feels like my life has no significant impacts. Besides my family I doubt anyone would care about the fact that I died for very long so there is no real point to it all every after putting in so much Time and effort. I’ve given up again and this might be my last time I ever realize that what I was looking for dosent even really exist.