I moved to a new city in October to pursue a dream career and have been at a pretty soul-crushing job for the past 6 months, but I took it knowing it was a step in the right direction. I had some dream interviews lined up in the past couple months that didn’t pan out, which absolutely sucked and has been making me even more keen to move on from my current gig.

I had a job offer materialize in the past few days that I decided to take today that seems better on paper in every way; money, responsibility, learning opportunities. It’s not EXACTLY the work I want to be doing long term, but shows people in roles I want to be in that I’m competent and can be trusted. Since accepting this offer a few hours ago, I cannot for the life of me escape this feeling that I fucked up by taking it and that I’m going to fall flat on my face.

I’m not sure if it’s the fact I’ve had a miserable 6 months in this new city and battling a resurgent depression/anxiety for the past 2 months, that I’m not liking this dream career path as much as I thought I would, or a combination of the two. I am completely terrified that I’m stuck in this field now and that if I try to swap careers again I will be completely screwed.

I feel like a nervous wreck and I don’t see an end in sight for these feelings and just needed to get this off my chest so I can breathe even a little easier.