My psych NP changed my depakote dose due to mania and now I am sleeping a ton, but the dreams are so incredibly vivid and wild and nightmarish. I can't always tell what's real or not and I'm waking up a ton. It's slowly gotten better over this week, but I don't  know what to do between now and my psych appointment on Wednesday. I am starting to feel a little depressed and thinking of just not wanting to exist. I'm just so tired of going through this. It's been weeks of mixed states, mania, depression, and horrible nightmares or poor sleep. What's the point?