I’ve had a lot of sex including one-night-stands and I usually hate myself for doing it but I didn’t want/couldn’t stop. I also fluctuate from having high sex drive to none at all.

I’ve never orgasmed before in my life despite having a lot of partners, so I think it’s because of me. Like I feel that my inner guilt or shame at having meaningless sex makes me unable to orgasm.

Is hypersexuality a part of BPD or maybe sex is a self-destructive trait of BPD? Interested in other women’s experiences with sex and orgasms.

edit: also I have quiet bpd idk if that changes anything