Anxiety

I just want to vent. Today is one of the days where my chest feels like a 100bricks are on me and I am going to not make it out of this feeling. I feel so isolated and alone. Like I can’t find anybody to relate with. My husband is so good at loving me through it but on days it happens when he’s at work it’s like I’m stuck at home with a ghost who won’t quit haunting me at every turn. I struggle so damn much, I struggle to keep jobs, to be a functioning person. And sometimes it feels like I’m living a cursed life. All I ever want is to desperately feel better. To be better. So much has happened in my life to warrant my anxiety disorder. I want therapy so bad. I need it desperately. Our insurance sucks and it’s so expensive out of pocket. We have 3 kids so they are top priority with our finances. I’m sorry I just wanted to vent my feelings today so things won’t feel as heavy in this moment.