I completely depersonalize the person I am angry with, and immediately want to set their house on fire or hope they hit me so I can hurt them in the worst way possible, I get very narcissistic. This is not me. I know my anger is a cover up for my sadness, I just don't know how to calm myself down when I feel like this. It's like all the love I once had for that person completely disappears, and when I feel this angry, it's usually a permanent split. When I recognize people who have traits of my abuser(s) it infuriates me.