this all started about a year ago when I had a bad high from smoking some weed with my friends. I have always been an anxious person and thinking back I am pretty sure I experienced panic attacks when I was really young but just couldn’t describe to people what they were, however these panic attacks stopped and I had completely forgotten about them, anyway fast forward to last year I wasn’t a stranger to smoking weed I had in fact smoked it a few times before (I was 15 at the time which is silly i know) and I went out to smoke with some friends. This resulted in me having an extremely bad high and having the worst panic attack i’ve ever experienced and begging my parents to call me an ambulance. Ever since then I haven’t felt like my “old” self apart from a week after the incident where i was fine until i had another attack and set everything off again, even though i’m 16 now I haven’t been able to leave the house without having a panic attack and have even started having them in the house aswell. My symptoms that scare me the most to be honest are the dejavu experiences often and the bad taste and smell in my mouth due to their link to seizures which is my biggest fear. Saying that, i also do experience pretty much every single other anxiety symptom aswell which for a normal person would be enough to tell them that it’s anxiety but not for me. I should also add that since that bad high I have never touched weed again. I just feel like there is no hope and I am going to feel this way forever because everyone i know with anxiety has said they don’t experience the feelings of dejavu and the phantom smells etc which is making me think there is something wrong with me neurologically. I haven’t been to school this year which is a big problem as i’m in year 11 and have my exams soon and haven’t learnt a thing. I can’t even go and get my haircut because of how dizzy i feel in the chair. I have been speaking to someone who has been sort of like a stand in therapist as I am on a 6 month waiting list for CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) but I have been begging for medication to make me feel better and nobody will give me it. I am just at a loss as of what to do and need someone to tell me that has had a similar experience to me that i’m overreacting and it is just anxiety.