Here I am posting again venting on how much I want to kms. I’m at a point where as soon as I’m given the opportunity I’m going to take it. I really truly hate living in this world. I hate everything I’ve had to go through, I hate seeing everyone else suffer too. I don’t know why I’ve put up with this for so long. I want to cry and be held and told it’ll be okay even if it’s a lie and my future has no hope. I don’t want to die alone but at this point it’s probably what’s best. I just can’t take it anymore, I know things won’t get better. I wish I still had the dream of continuing my life and getting better but the depression finally won ig. I’m not scared anymore, i doubt anyone could talk me out of it.