my only creative outlets are drawing and music, but unfortunately i came to a realization. i came to a realization that i’m a nobody, i’m just your average person. it’s not that i wanna be better than people, i just wanna feel like i’m smart or creative because that implies that i have something new or unique to offer the world, but my friend made me realize that i’m just the same as everyone else, and that kinda sapped the fun out of drawing and music since there’s tons of people better than me, one of my closest fucking friends said that himself. i’m not skilled in those areas either. i fucking suck at drawing, my friend said that he’s seen better art than mine and yeah that should motivate me but all it did was make me feel worse, like why should i keep trying if i’m nothing special. he’s one of the 3 online friends that i have and i don’t have any irl friends so half the time i just sit in my room with nothing to fucking do.