almost every person in my life has abandoned me. friendships, relationships, my own father. i barely became aware of who i was recently at 29…. i was always pretty toxic and weird i guess. 
but i still can’t let go of the past. im sitting in bed at 2am just dwelling over every single person that has left me. i am so angry but i’m more angry that i care. how can i just let this go. i don’t care about anybody. it’s always been just my mom and i.