I had a bsf / girlfriend . We were so close and I had never in my life had a bond like that and haven't since. Now that I look back our friendship/relationship was pretty toxic but I didn't care bc the good outweighed the bad. I don't know how to explain but our bond was like once in a lifetime. about a year and a half into our friendship she screwed me over heavily. She did stuff with my boyfriend at the time and then tried to say she was on x@nax and didn't remember any of it which I later proved wasn't true. But anyways I tried to be friends with her again after that but it just wasn't the same so I cut our friendship off. It felt like somebody had literally died. Like a piece of me was ripped out of me. Its been about two years since I ended our friendship and it still feels like im grieving a death or something. I miss her so much and I still feel so much pain and heartbreak when I see old pics and videos of us. I just dont know how to get over a favorite person after this much time has passed. Idk I'm just sad and irritated rn. :(