I've known for a while that my emotions are unstable and that something is just wrong aside from my depression. I was diagnosed today, and it's good to put a name to what causes me so much pain because I can relate it to people and understand myself. Last week my mood took a very sudden negative turn when my friend asked me what was wrong all I could cry was "I don't know, there's something wrong with me", in great distress while becoming lost in the feeling of having no control over myself.

I'm not one to feel fear, but it's scary, so scary. I break things when I don't need to, an amazing day can turn into one where I'm cutting myself, and the feeling of emptiness is overpowering. But knowing why means I can find ways to live with its and most importantly not feel ashamed of myself.