i just kinda need to vent right now. i found out my partner has been talking with his new colleagues recently and there's a girl from his uni whom he started following on twitter. i tried to remain calmed but ended up asking him about her. he then told me he likes his new colleagues and wants friends. i should be glad for him but im not. im overpassed by the thought of him finding other people and losing interest.

i didnt even try to fight it. once i felt this rave of emotions i cut myself. my skin is really pale, and the slightest wounds remain two months on my skin at least.

i tried to be thoughtful with myself during the cutting so i did it on the upper side of my leg. but i lost it and now my leg is so full of wounds.

my family thinks i dont self harm anymore. we go to the beach every weekend so they will find out for sure. moreover its summer and here its so hot everyday.i dont know how to handle this. self harming was one of the causes i was neglected by my family in the past. i cant let it happen again.

can anyone tell me how to hide my wounds? they arent deep but there are a lot of cuts. i cant let anyone know about this. thanks.