I (38f) have an appointment with my gp tomorrow for what I'm calling myself "high functioning" or "chronic low grade" depression. I'm worried the doctor will laugh at me and tell me it's in my head. I started EMDR therapy a few months ago for childhood bullying, but she has not diagnosed me with anything even though she is also a clinical psychologist. Should I ask her too?

Although I feel I've been somewhat low since I was 13, it's gotten worse since 2018. And worse again since 2021. I had a good few stressful years but the last year has been good and  it's my worst year.

Here's my symptoms: tired, fatigued, exhausted all the time, angry and irritable, impatient (never used to be), terrible sleep (falling asleep early and waking at 2am for hours), don't leave the house unless I have to or with husband, don't like going to bed alone, no hobbies anymore - no gym, no reading or listening to music, forget things all the time, can't watch a movie because I can't focus, work is slipping (WFH since 2016), dread spending days alone with my toddler because its so tiring, I love her of course but it feels very dulled down, bored with life, no strong emotions, my empathy for other people seems to be gone, no real happiness. 

I'm sure there is more but I'm worried that my gp will not entertain the thought of me being depressed because I get up everyday and do what has to be done (nothing more), and I'm not in bed all day or not crying all the time(I used to many years ago).