There's so much going on that is causing other people in this world to feel pain and suffering, but I never let it get to me much. Tonight I started crying uncontrollably after reading my neighbor's cat was hit by a car and tried to make it home in pain. It was bad enough that they put the cat down. For some reason seeing animals suffer hurts me on a different level than humans. I guess I feel like humans can communicate their pain or even do something about it, or try, whereas animals can't do much. The thought of that car suffering was too much to bear.

Yes, It has dawned on me that horrible, horrible stuff is happening to animals all around the world during every second of every day. I know, I know, I know. When something happens close to home, and when you loved seeing that cat, it hits differently. My dog would always watch for that cat and get angry when it wandered out in front of our house. I always asked my dog where the car was, and he would get really interested in looking out the window. Now that daily routine will be different, and that fucking hurts right now. Kind of a silly thing to be so upset about, but I truly am upset beyond reason. 

I think I am deeply depressed already and didn't realize it until now. If this has me so worked up, then something isn't right. It feels like pain and suffering is inevitable for all living things--and it is to a degree--but it's really hurting my soul right now.

I just really needed to reach out to another human, so thank you if you read this far. This is minuscule compared to some of the other problems others are struggling with, but it felt good to express my feelings.