I’m so tired. I keep pushing anyone who tries to get too close to me away. I get so convinced that no one cares that I make them not care. I keep hurting everyone. It’s over with my partner this time for real, I’ve gone way too far. I don’t want to keep hurting him, I’m a toxic person. Every day I wake up and remember what my life is like, what the reality of it is and want it to end. I want to stop waking up. Nothing ever stops. I’m so overwhelmed by everything, everything makes me so anxious. I just want it to stop. I’m sorry for the rant.