So many years married, beautiful children, successful career...but my spouse is dreadfully unhappy and angry. Claims she's just my FP, that I don't know how to love, and that I have ruined her life. She resents all that we have...she took the children and moved to another city last year. I let her leave, then she begged to come back. Lies. Now I sleep in the garage.
She read the book "Stop walking on eggshells" and only uses it against me. Holds it up during yelling matches and shames me. Even when things are quiet, she ignores me.
All I wanted, from my youngest memories was to be held. I want someone to look into my eyes and tell me everything is going to be ok.
Now I have someone who looks past me and screams. I have the exact opposite of what I've always dreamed of.
I wish I didn't exist; I need this pain to end, yet I have wonderful children to care for. I will do this all for them.
My entire life is one long episode, one long nightmare, a continuous abandonment, over and over, left in the dark, left to never see the light of day again.
When Friday comes, at least I can drink and get some sleep.