I don't know what to do, I've been in a really bad place today, I've felt suicidal all day and have been trying to keep myself busy, now it's got to night its got much worse. I feel so agitated and ended up sat on a motorway bridge, I thought to myself to not be a dick and evolve someone else, if your going to kill yourself do it by yourself, I managed to talk myself down and I drove home but all I'm thinking now is take all of the tablets that are in my car or use the knife to cut my throat or arteries, I've tried phoning the crisis team but they haven't answered. I get that they have other people to deal with so there probably busy, I really just don't know what to do or who to reach out to to.