Meaning I won't sleep tonight because I just can't. I'm off medication for now because my previous meds didn't quite work like they were supposed to so I'm prone to episodes.

Plus I've been undergoing so much stress lately even with medication I could get an episode (also I often forget my meds)

Often I "just" get hypomania after the all nighter night where I'm just so productive all day and night but it's happened that I've gotten a full manic episode after. I'm scared that's gonna happen.

Luckily I've got a psychologist appointment in about 10 hours though (it is currently around 2am)