So I’ve had to quarantine away from my church because my parents were sick. I haven’t been back because I’m questioning the churches actions a lot. Ever since I’ve been questioning for some reason something feels different. Everyday feels the exact same. All I do is watch stuff online, play video games, and play guitar. There’s absolutely nothing new. I keep feeling empty and I keep telling myself “there’s gotta be more than this” and “I’m not living my life the way I should”. I’ve never been depressed but this is making me feel lonely and a little sad. I’m super anxious now because I’m terrified of getting depression for some reason. To the point where when I was in bed last night I thought about it and shivered for a split second and almost all my dreams were related to this. I can’t afford to have depression and I’m just hoping that it’s a feeling we’re all having right now

Does anybody else know what this is? And can anybody else calm me down a little bit?