my credit card monthly billing cycle closes on the 26th of every month and i’m really not looking forward to getting that “you owe this much” email tomorrow. 

not looking for input or anything, just venting about how reckless i’ve been with money this past month. i have all my bills, groceries, fun things, literally everything except rent coming out of my credit card and i don’t have a strict budget but i like to keep it under or around a certain amount and i know i’m well over, if not double, my target spending amount for this month. 

i haven’t been particularly manic this month but for some reason it’s just been way too easy to swipe and tap everywhere i go and now i’m going to have to deal with the consequences of that. i can afford it, that’s not a problem. my problem is that i wasted that much in the first place for seemingly no reason. it’s just the wastefulness aspect that’s bothering me ugh. like i’ve been wanting a new car for a year now and i could’ve put that much towards the car or something actually useful.