That moment when your supervisor asks you if you can give them a heads up before you have a full meltdown and need to miss work, so they can plan accordingly. No, no you can't. Because that isn't how this works. I wish I could just get my calendar out and mark, "Hmmmm March 18th. That seems like a good day to have a meltdown. Oh, and I want to be suicidal depressive that day, not paranoid. I don't like being paranoid." Because you know, living with this is just that simple.