So I have been feeling little joy in almost anything but my life is good like theres nothing wrong with it. I have great parents, going good in school ,etc. but I still feel like shit. I have look at the. symptoms and I have quite a few like feeling hopeless, suicidal thoughts, feeling useless, feeling not good enough, etc. I also feel like I put on a fake smile a lot. People seem to generally think I'm happy. I think I have depression but every time I tell myself that I do I tell my self that I'm selfish and that people have it way worse than I do and I shouldn't be feeling this way and those thoughts make it worse. This all first started around 3 years ago and I just shrugged it off because it was pretty mild at the time. But, over time its gotten worse especially with the pandemic and the loss of my grandfather. I don't know what to do and I haven't told anyone about this but my best friend and now this reddit community. Does anyone have any suggestions or anything like that or if you've experienced depression is this what its like or do I have something else? Thanks for reading this.