I was doing really well but small things happened and I didn't voice my hurt in time. I lashed out again and I think I'm losing the person I love because of it. I had to delete my original Reddit account because it turned out my ex has been stalking it for over two years. I'm under a mountain of stress. I'm watching my parents marriage fall apart. My sibling won't come home because of my parents abuse. I'm burning the candle at both ends and it feels like all my limbs have been tied to horse that were sent galloping off into different directions. I'm really scared and for once I'm not thinking about Doing The Bad Thing but how I cope if they leave me really is up in the air. I just wish that I had it together. I wish I wasn't so fucked up. 

Oh, and I can't talk to my best friend of over a decade because I had to cut them off for deciding to date my ex's (who again emotionally abused and stalks me) BFF. So that's fucking mint.

So guys, what the fuck do I do cuz I can't afford therapy