So I have “quiet” BPD, which I’ve heard used interchangeably with “high-functioning” BPD. But I absolutely cannot stand the term “high-functioning”. To me it feels like an invalidation of my daily struggles. 

Sure, I get up, I go to class, I have a 4.0, I have a job. I’m doing just fine on the outside. But in reality, I’m constantly battling suicidal thoughts, the shocks of emotional highs and lows throughout the day leave me drained, the reason I do well in work/school is because I have no concept of who I am or my worth unless someone is giving me an A or an award or saying “good job”, I question whether my boyfriend is gonna leave me every single day. 

I’m not high-functioning, I’m just suffering quietly. 

Does anyone else feel this way?