I’ve never done anything, I don’t even think I’ll do anything but I’m just so *tired* of my life going wrong. Every turn something is falling apart. “There’s so much good in life, you just gotta get to those times”, yeah but when you hold off for those times and then everything goes to shit, it’s not really worth waiting anymore for something like that just to be fucked over again and again. I want to take my pain away, be numb for a while.