So I try to understand what I feel and how I can describe it so much but it’s very difficult. So often I feel very tense in my neck and from my thoughts. I can’t really be relaxed and even when I’m relaxed I have this fear that I will have this shit feeling again. So the thing that fucks me up is that I get like an pressure from inside my head and feel very tense. The feeling in my brain feels like my brain is overwhelmed and crashes like a computer . That’s the part which is very difficult to describe. Everything feels so shit and I can’t be like I am. I understand jokes but can’t really laugh. I can’t be myself. I can’t express myself. I become very sensitive and take everything very personal. When I’m anxious I also come over as someone who thinks he’s very cool or arrogant although I don’t want that. I feel like I can’t really control myself and I feel so unsure about myself. I can’t look people in the eyes then because I feel so broken. But I don’t have panic or something . I feel very tense from my thinking. Also get this feeling of adrenaline in my arms very often. But then I also have days where I feel relaxed and I’m the opposite and feel like life is beautiful . I don’t understand myself. I have no constance in my feelings. So does anyone feel similar amd is this anxiety ?