Today was my graduation and I hate the fact that it should be such a huge milestone and proud day for myself. Which it was - until it came to taking pictures and I felt disgusted with my appearance. 

Whenever I look into the mirror, I’m actually pleased with my appearance and I overlook my minor flaws because I know I look decent. When it comes to pictures I look so different to my reflection and it really bothers me. I start to notice all these minor flaws completely maximised and it just instantly puts me into a bad mood. I will think about how I looked in one image for the whole day, look at other people and compare myself. When I show to other people they say I look pretty or beautiful and I just can’t even figure out if they’re being honest or trying to make me feel better. 

I feel like I do a pretty good job of acknowledging everyone has imperfections, the great value of self love and that I shouldn’t compare. However, it always changes when I see myself in picture or I try to take a picture and I just can’t look how I want to look. 

Due to not feeling good about my appearance in pictures, it sort of ruined the feel good vibe to such a special day and it made me realise that when more of these days comes I will just be a mess. Like imagine me on my potential wedding day LOOL. I would probably just go home in a strop. I also hate the fact that I turn miserable and I know it shows on my face. It makes me feel like I’m so vain. 

I would appreciate any advice or something to reflect on to hopefully change my mindset.