So I'm 13 and at 11-12 maybe even 10 I had thoughts to hurt others that made me anxious and now most times if I have one of those thoughts it doesn't feel like I care and I used to obsess over it and early 2020 I was depressed and still am but now that's alot of days recently I've been emotionally numb but still have depressed moments or days and can relate with most signs of depression I did talk with my parents about how I've been feeling but I didn't get into much detail I didn't tell them about me not feeling like I care about others and if my pet dies it doesn't feel like I care as much if at all and I'm ashamed of myself I keep beating myself up mentally for this