I was doing pretty well and something small triggered me and sent me into a tailspin of depression. I’m totally “stuck” if anyone can relate to that trapped, endless loop feeling. 

My partner made helpful suggestions to accompany him on a long beach walk and I declined. I just couldn’t muster it to go out in the sun and walk around. 

He called me and asked me again if I wanted to take the bus and go join him. I said no and he said “okay” and immediately hung up. I know feel more shit for disappointing him. 

I’m about to smoke a bowl to try and shake this off 

Anyone go through this? 

I wasn’t depressed for like 2 months before this, it was great, now everything feels pointless and I feel like a piece of trash, I’ve wasted my entire weekend wallowing and he doesn’t understand how I feel because he never experienced it and doesn’t really get why I can’t do the things that would be helpful