Just trying to put my thoughts into words for my therapy appointment tomorrow:

Everytime I have a task that I don't want to do or that brings me anxiety, I either waste the whole day doing absolutely nothing avoiding the task, or spend all day thinking about the task, making it so much harder when I actually have to do it, and leaves me unable to do anything else the rest of the day. 

I have to go back to my part time job on Wednesday, so somehow that translates to me not being able to do a single thing today because I have to work on Wednesday? Even though today is only Monday? And although I will be putting my two weeks in on Wednesday, and I'm only working a total of four shifts over the next two weeks, somehow I can't spend just 3 hours doing my other side job, in which I make about the same and enjoy a bit more, just because I'm technically still working my other job? 

I have hobbies I want to learn and get back to, but somehow because I'm working I'm afraid I'll lose the time I have to relax? Even though doing nothing but scrolling on my phone all day brings me more anxiety and I enjoy my hobbies?

I have to put away my clothes and pick up my room, but I just can't. I know I have to, I want to, I know I would feel better, but I just can't, like I'm stuck, because I feel like I have other things to do, but I don't. 

I need to build a routine, because I do much better when I have a solid routine, but I can't even start, not to mention having literally anything on my schedule fills me with dread, no matter what it is.

This is one of the biggest detriments to my life right now, like its starting to affect my ability to do anything, so I hope she can help me work through it