Life was disrupted again today when I had another episode of intense anger. It was triggered when my insurance company called to inform me that they would not be covering my psychiatrist, not even as out of network!! So my visits will not count toward that deductible. 

Yes, I got angry. I got so angry that had I been a cartoon character, my face would have turned bright red and my head would’ve exploded. However, I just had my 40 minutes of TNT before it just went away and I was laughing at my cat’s antics. 

It’s so frustrating to look back on my day and see those episodes of extreme anger or sadness or what have you and realize how unpredictable my life has become. Sure the insurance co. thing might spur anyone into a fit of anger but the whole consuming nature of that episode makes it different. Not to mention how, Poof!, and it’s over. 

Those pesky episodes, emotions on steroids. Every day. An exhausting life with BPD.