Recovering from agoraphobia and panic disorder. 

I have dinner plans tonight. I’ve been doing great going out to stores and out to eat, sometimes with a little anxiety but I push through most of the time. The last few days I’ve noticed I’m really over thinking it a lot.. kind of hyping myself up and getting myself nervous for no reason. 

I’m sitting on my back porch, heart pounding, feeling light headed that I have to go to dinner, imagining the worst scenarios and I just don’t know how I got to this place in my head. I’ve done this a thousand times! Why am I so anxious? I have no clue. It’s disheartening when I’ve been doing so well.