    i started experiencing this around a week ago. i thought about my breathing so much which leads me to breathing manually almost every moment when im awake . everytime i breathe “normally” which i dont even know if im breathing too fast or too slow most of the time when this happens, it feels like im holding my breath but i still kinda get some air still.

    i constantly have to take deep breaths but the it only feels satisfying after a minute or so of not taking a deep breath. this also causes me to have a slight chest pain in the right side everytime i take a deep beeath but doesnt happen all the time.

    the only time i get to “relax” is when im asleep but sometimes i have a hard time sleeping because of it. its been bothering me and stresses me out. 

   lately ive been thinking about death (not suicide) a lot and sometimes i think if this is how i’ll end up dying (lack of oxygen). a few days ago i used a pulse oximeter and my oxygen was fine but my pulse rate was low. i dont know if its a sign of an anxiety or panic attack, i dont know if its a sign of an anxiety disorder because im not diagnosed although my mom does have an anxiety disorder and depression. she told me i might have an anxiety disorder since genetics plays a role in mental disabilities but im trying to stay away from self diagnosing. 

so what do these symptoms usually mean ? im most likely going to the doctor after the covid cases in my country cools down. i cant seem to forget about my breathing which makes the situation harder. breathing exercises also dont help. 
forgot to mention !! my dad has a heart disease and i tend to eat high fat foods like cheese and snacks. im 14, 5’2 and 88 pounds if my weight and height even matters. im uneducated about this topic and i’d love to hear your guys’ opinions.