I'm 31 years old  and have been crying all day. To give you some context, I'm an Uber driver and own/rent out a few cars. My elderly/sick parents live with me in a studio apartment. Things are okay financially but obviously not stellar. It will improve over the next few years.

I guess I'm really sad because I've always dreamed of being in a relationship where I felt like I was important/mattered, felt special, and felt loved. I guess I'm sad because I'm 31 and don't feel pretty anymore. Dealing in life having bipolar/BPD/ptsd has just been hard. I've made so many silly decisions and basically wasted a decade of life. 

I want kids but don't really see myself meeting someone and getting to that point before I get infertile. I'm just fucking sad over everything. It just feels like I've been trying to cope in life while having brain damage. Making stupid decision after stupid decision. Never really building anything.

It's just been hard.