I have been in therapy for more than half a year.
We identified some of my issues and layed out the necessary steps to overcome them. I've got meds, like, at home.

I'm just so tired all the time, I cannot even imagine doing the most basic things, like eat or sleep regularly. I don't know how I could ever graduate university like this. I'm losing my friends, I'm fucking up my life.

However, I just can't get myself to do these things and I constantly forget to take my meds.

When I started talking about this to my therapist she basically said I can stay in therapy or don't, she won't force me to.
Every appointment I have to lie to her because I can't tell her how terrible I'm doing.

FUCK. If I fuck this up, that's it for me. I am losing everything right now, but i feel like I'm paralyzed.
I literally know what to do, step by step.
But tomorrow I'll simply lie in bed, sleep, watch videos, hate myself.