So a while ago I found myself cutting my wrists (I was dissasociating and in the middle of a rage episode). Then I started crying out of nowhere and noticed I posted a bunch of things on my social media and I dont even remember doing it! Now Im kinda chill and laughing at memes at 5 am. Im dissasociating again and I have no idea of what to do. Also, my heart and chest physically hurt so Im just hoping I have a random heart attack so I can fckn die cuz I feel so empty and numb