  A year ago I met a girl and got interested in her. Time by time I saw her Facebook stories, heard many news about her and that interest started growing and growing until It reached a peak. I wanted to be part of her life, part of the experiences she was having. I tried many times to talk with her because I wanted to mean something to her. I have read Dale Carnegie's book about winning friends and influencing people and you know how all my attempts with that girl end? Complete failure. She did not give a single f\*\*k about me and that’s when I started questioning myself: am I doing anything wrong? did I fail at some point? is there anything wrong with me ? that questioning lasted way too long. Even though she gave me many reasons to hate her because of her ignorance, I still can’t get her out of my head. I still think about her almost every day and want to figure out how to get out of her ignorance somehow. 

 I mean I really want to know why people ignore each other for no reason, I did not do anything bad to her right?  I DID NOT DESERVE IT. All I had was a big interest and that’s it. Is that bad? I think not, wish someone had that huge interest in me. Many of you will say that I have no life and that kind of stuff and I agree. 

 That girl really is special because she is always winning. She accomplishes goal by goal and all she has seen so far is a success. She has everything: beauty, acknowledgement, popularity and dominance. The girls who she hates are jealous of her. To say in short she is having any teenage girl’s dream life. Also one of my friends is close to her and as I know she is very friendly and loyal to the ones who she likes. Many even mentioned her as the kindest girl because of how friendly she was to them. I still do not know many things about her but I do know that my interest is slowly turning into jealousy and hatred.

 Every time I think about her I imagine myself as a total loser not only because I failed my goal but also because I spent so much time thinking and solving that person. I am the one who literally almost begged for attention. I am disappointed in myself and do not want to lose next time as well. 

 Can someone advise my book(s) about how to gain meaning in someone’s life, how to influence them and stay in their head as long as that girl stayed in mine.

 Also, I want real advice about how I can forget her forever because right now she is literally the world for me. (I do not have a crush on her. Well, I had but just a little ago she got in a relationship with another guy)