It's the biggest mystery of my life to me. I'm a 28-year old male and ever since I'm 9 I've noticed I can't laugh really hard. what I mean with that is laughs with tears, laughs that you can't stop, give you breating troubles or stomach pain etc.

I've never had one of these before, absolutely never. And I don't know why. I'm diagnosed with Aspergers, but I asked others with autism/Aspergers on the Internet and everyone has these fits at least a few times per year. I was also diagnosed with depression, but I can't be depressed my whole life, that's just not true.

So what is it. I just don't understand... I want to experience this. I also tried weed, comedies, everything really.

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I can laugh, but only normal everyday laughs. I can also feel happiness or get excited. I can crack jokes if I'm in a good mood. I'd like to know what might be the cause of this, I can answer every question. 

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**It doesn't matter if you can't tell me, but: I'd mainly really really like to know if I'm really missing out on the absolute best thing in life, or if it's also okay to just don't have them?**

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I never told anyone this in real life because I'm afraid I get rejected for being emotionless or weird or whatever.