I'm currently on 40 mg memantine once per day and 50 mg quetiapine per day before sleeping. It's been like 2 weeks since i took this combination.  


I no longer eat alot and drink lots of caffeine. I no longer defecate 5 times per day. I no longer have generalized pain. I have energy. I do not get angry at all. I have no ocd now- which was literallly treatment resistant to almost every ocd drug class-.I no longer take random drugs, OTC or not, stimulants or sedatives.  


 I feel sympathetic toward another family member with bpd, which i think is important due to the fact that i never thought in this way, i used to think in a way that they are hurting me with their illness, but i never thought of what their illness was doing to them like mine was doing to me.