I'm a failure at being a mother. I was a failure at being a partner. I'm a failure at being a daughter. 33 years old and I'm nowhere in life. I work in a job I hate that doesn't even pay the bills and I feel like I'm drowning... and no one knows. They see the smiles, the jokes, the laughs, when deep down I feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of my own depression. Half the days I can just barely force myself to function as a normal human being and I'm just so tired... so very tired of feeling too many things. I have no one to turn to for help and no one that truly even cares. I sit alone at night, every night and just reflect on how things might be so much better for everyone without me. I just don't know what to do anymore. 
Thanks for letting me get it all out.