I've been doing a lot of research on BPD, as it is a common comorbidity to autism &amp; ADHD, and many people (women in particular) tend to be misdiagnosed with BPD. I'm trying to learn more about the internal processing differences between the three diagnoses and would love to hear from you!

Some really interesting parts of BPD that I've come across are:

⭐ difficult relationship with mental illness:

- staking identity in it
- using it to get other's attention to signal that they need help
- difficulties identifying what symptoms they actually have
- struggles with imposter syndrome and whether or not they are mentally ill enough to be seen or get help
- struggles with wanting to get better due to fear that mental illness is what keeps them interesting

⭐ issues with memory:
• mirroring or stress related memory rewrites
 descriptions I've seen of this from BPD members:

- overthinking themselves into oblivion (do I really have this symptom? Do I not? I did [insert recent behavior here], so that's proof that I do have this! Or is it?)

- tendency to believe that whatever they're mirroring is how they have always been, even if it isn't true

- triggered by others pointing out changes in behaviors/preferences/trait claims that are not consistent with their actual past (I've read that this is a big trigger, for some, for splitting)

- struggles remembering what they are actually like &amp; absorbing traits from others around them, from symptoms of mental disorders, from people they admire, etc

⭐ issues with remembering things in general

I was curious to see if anyone (whether you have BPD or you have a relationship with someone who does) has experienced any of these and would be open to answering any questions that are specific to your experience? I'm very curious to learn more about the internal BPD experience from actual pwBPD! 

(Could you also specify if you have a specific subtype of BPD?)