Everytime I come close to happiness, there is always this feeling that kills my hope. This feeling is like "I'm finally happ... but I was depressed and so many people are too I want to help all of them before I can be fully happy". I can't feel happiness if everyone can't. It may sounds dumb but in my head being happy is related to being egoist, if I eat everyone must eat (figuratively).

Some people are like me?