it really upsets me how i’m sure i will never ever feel better. simply because of me being unable to heal from my trauma. i know to feel better, i would need professional help. but since my trauma involves an “abusive” (idk if that’s the right word, i mostly blame myself for it) parent, they would need to report it. my family has already been reported before, because my dad was drunk, fell &amp; broke a rib. my dad didn’t do ANYTHING to me or ANYONE. it’s my mom, mostly when she is drunk. it just upsets me having figured out why i am so depressed etc, but not being able to get better. i always thought knowing why would really help. but it didn’t change a single thing. i don’t even know what to do with myself anymore