I'm feeling really guilty about stuff that I've done to someone in the past. I have been obsessing about a situation that I've caused and I can't get it out of my head. I've acted so inappropriately towards a certain person and I feel really weird about it. I made them think that I feel a certain way towards them which isn't the way I feel, and now I don't know how they feel about me anymore. I'm really embarrassed for taking a bad situation, fixing it, then making it worse again. And now that I've been obsessing about what happens, in making my boyfriend feel bad constantly because I've been depressed about it. I'm sorry that I've been vague about what's going on, but for my own best interest it's best that I speak about it vaguely here, then try to forget about it. Even though I've been acting crazy, the people involved have been pretty understanding. I hope they still realize that I'm very fucking mentally ill. I'm going to the doctor very soon, which is what they wanted. I'm not sure what I want out of this, I just want everyone to be ok. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings anymore. I think it's best if I left them alone for a long time. I'm sorry for the weird post, I just needed to say something. I don't want this situation to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend, so I think it's best if I move on after this and try to forget what happened.