If someone told you the grass was actually greener than staying in ur unhappy relationship , would you leave ? 

today I told him I need some time apart to think. My friends support me and think I should use this time to be fully single and independent to be whole again. I've lost myself and in an unhealthy. Have tried countless times in our relationship for space.. therapy.. breaks .. etc . To me I am not getting emotionally what I need . 


During this time apart I am scared. I am scared to be able to stand alone and find out it's not as bad to be single ?


I am scared and nervous of what life possibly could mean without him? 


I'm scared that I will be fine .

I'm scared that I'll go back and be miserable just to be in a relationship I know isn't serving me the way I want it to. 


TL:DR- after years of personal growth through DBT support system and medication, my relationship with my BF is still uncertain. He is not sure if he sees a future with us. I am unhappy. I asked for space to think things through. I am nervous that I will conclude I want to be single