After unbelievable amounts of stress, anxiety and deep depression (to the point of contemplating suicide), I was finally in an okay/good place.

For like 30 seconds until my manipulative ex who I literally haven't talked to in months texted me :^)

Ever since I read that message, I've been spiraling between literally every negative emotion I have about myself, about relationships, about everything. 


It sucks because I moved on from him and I'm with a wonderful guy now, but the whole thing has me questioning everything. 

I loved that man with my whole heart, I was willing to drop everything to be with him. He took advantage of those feelings and made it seem like we were on the same page, but then after using me for some quick fucks, he dumped me over message. I mean, I told him everything. Even  about the men in the past who have hurt me and then he just went and did the same thing. 

And now I'm paranoid that it could be the same with my new boyfriend (which I know is ridiculous but it just sucks). I just have so many feelings :(