I have dealt with intrusive thoughts often and lately they’re more like images. They used to drive me up the wall; I’d worry about them for weeks on end and have full panic attack about them. I have tried dealing with them in the way that I should, focus on reminding myself that they are just thoughts, theyre not how i really feel, ect. I got fairly good at doing that every time. It didn’t help in the moment but looking back on it, it did help. 

I am confused now though, because I am having those thoughts again but am not panicking. I was almost able to brush them off my shoulders. The mere fact that i did that (let them show themselves and let them pass) has now sent my mind into a frenzy. My mind is now telling me that because I am not panicking about them like I did before, it must mean I want that to happen. I keep telling myself that it’s not what I want, and that its not me, but my thoughts are just starting to get tangled. Im getting so confused and honestly actually panicky now because those thoughts are bad thoughts and even though they are just thoughts, why am i not panicked like I was before? Can someone let me know if I made progress on being able to whisk them away, or if i should be concerned that I’m not worried about them?