Okay so I have BPD because my parents were abusive etc. Over the years I’ve gotten a control of myself, and I feel like it’s mostly gone away, but I still have some lingering symptoms. Which I’m okay with because they don’t affect my life badly. 

Anyway I’m coming to the conclusion that I just don’t like most people. I’m a 23/f and I just don’t get respect from anybody. I’m getting a degree in MIS, I made a successful job out of petsitting for 3 years at 30-35k/year, and I just don’t have to explain anything else. I guess I’m pretty friendly but people will touch me, hit on me out of the blue, or ask why I’m not interested in them (I’ve gotten really good at rejecting people because of this), or just say passive aggressive things and assume I’m dumb. One bad thing was my friend started watching his Snapchat stories, so I stopped talking, and he was like “keep going”. He had the sound on and everything. 

I promise I’m a decent person and I’m really trying! I’m happy to talk to people most of the time, but if someone starts showing little respect I just get irritated. I try to calm down but can’t. I don’t lash out but I can’t hide the fact I’m not happy. One person said “I don’t know what else to say that won’t make you mad”. I just feel like I can’t recover and my only option is to leave. I guess it’s a temper? I just get so disappointed, and not angry, but snappy.

Does anyone else have a problem with this? I would like to meet one person who makes an effort to have a conversation, be polite, and thoughtful. Like it doesn’t even have to be a good conversation just don’t be rude.