I'm 17 and today I was driving with my driver's permit with my mom and little brother in the car. I had to turn left but first I had to wait for cars to continue driving straight and then wait for an opening to turn left to another road if that makes sense. My mom told me to go but I was nervous cuz I didn't really know if I would make it and then as I was turning left I saw a guy in a motorcycle at the left of where I was gonna turn. Btw the cars here were going like 50 or 60 miles so what I did next was so dangerous... the motorcycle guy wasn't in the left lane I was driving to but for some reason I thought he was or I thought I might have hit him so I stopped the car the moment the car was driving straight towards me. Sorry if I'm not explaining this right, but anyways my mom SCREAMED so loud cuz she really thought we would have went to the hospital if we got hit. I thought I didn't turn that much, idk what I was thinking. I was trying to help the motorcycle guy, luckily the car swarmed around us and then I went. My mom said if I would have been hit I would have went into the direction of the motorcycle guy which could have killed him. This is really bothering me... I could have hurt or killed people today. I feel like a monster, my anxiety is telling me I stopped on purpose and I wanted ppl to get hurt but this isn't true, I think I have OCD because I have bad intrusive thoughts. These thoughts were really bothering me though, I cried a lot. I could have hurt people today, I'm so glad they're okay but wow. And I really scared my brother and mom too, after the whole thing happened and I drove off safely I held in a laugh because my mom's scream was so loud and crazy and I thought it was funny. Now thinking back at it I feel bad because she was scared and I shouldn't have thought her scream was funny. I told my brother and mom this and my brother laughed and thought it was funny too and my mom said it's okay because she said "it probably did sound funny" but for me, because I have bad repetitive thoughts about myself, I was thinking I was a terrible person for thinking her scream was funny. Even if my brother and mom agreed and didn't think too much of it. I feel like a terrible person all the time and this event didn't help. I'm so glad no one was hurt... but someone COULD have gotten hurt. I hate driving, I'm bad at it and I can't take it anymore. This is bothering me a lot, sorry I had to vent about this.