i feel like im falling a part again. last year, my ex would completely ignore our relationship issues. i mean, in general he would ignore me for days on end. any issues we had, it was never going to be discussed. i spammed him with messages, calls, voice messages, anything to get him to talk to me because i so desperately just wanted to be heard and cared about. i was constantly invalidated and told that he just didn't care enough to try and reach out to me anymore. i eventually just broke it off for good after months of trying. this entire relationship was basically a whole episode. 

its been a year now and i find myself in that exact same situation. i feel like im starting to emotionally spiral again. that same feeling is coming back and i feel like going on a rampage of self destruction. im in the process of getting help now, but i feel like the process is going to take so long that i wont be able to even see the light at the end of the tunnel.