Ashamed about past. Lonely no close friends. Scary things from past. Lost in present. I am in a part of my life that I could be embracing but rn I am feeling broken . Semi crush on ex casual sex partner who will never talk to me again. I am feeling so low. I have nobody to talk to I feel sick. Want to binge drink but at least I'm too lazy to get up and buy alcohol. Sick of being socially inhibited and fucking submissive because of my low self esteem or fucking whatever I have . SCREAM