I moved from the east coast to New Mexico to live with my mom, and I lived here for the past two years. Everyone told me it was beautiful to live here, which is true, but that’s the only good thing you can say about NM. There’s 1 million people in the whole state and I don’t think they’re real people. When I speak to them I feel like I’m talking to bricks. They have no expressions or emotions and it feels like they say automatic messages.
When I was living on the east coast people were social and I did things outside during the day. These peoples version of fun is sitting in a car until 3am smoking, ONLY. Sure that’s fun sometimes but I want to actually do things. One day, I planned a day trip to a farm but said person decided to leave after an hour to do whatever with their friends. Probably smoking and drinking like they did yesterday, and the day before, and the day before. 
And everyone’s broke because their quality of work is trash. There’s no passion here, it’s just dead and full of drunks. One day I walked into a store of workers my age 21-26 and no one greeted me. The next person walked in and the whole store welcomed them. It’s not a huge thing but the fact that Im colored and have locs could have been a factor. There’s definitely internal racism here because there’s only 2% of black people. Half of them want to be a white mans best friend because they deny the fact that they’re black. I’m pretty sure I can continue but I don’t care anymore. Just know I hate it here and it feels like I’m living the same day over and over. It’s beyond boring and I want to bang my head against the wall everyday.