I finally had to cut things off with my FP.... he hurt me so much, it was better this way. I’ve legit never cut off my FP and stuck to it. But this time I will. This SUCKS he’s still my FP, it’s different tho. I’m not as obsessive about him anymore, but if I stop and think “oh what is he up to rn” it brings up a lot of emotions, so I try to avoid that. 
BUT fuuccckkk meeee. There’s this boy I met on tinder who knows I’m going through a break up ish (my FP and I weren’t dating but we were a thing?) and he’s got them daddy vibes I love so much Bc I was deprive of love as a child (: and he’s been super comforting and I feel my self getting attached fast and THE CYCLE IS GONNA CONTINUE I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP IT.