I’m 20, Male. I recently told a girl I like a lot, and who I truly thought felt the same, how I feel. She says she likes me, but more like a brother. This isn’t the source, just the spark, 

I’ve got no one but my parents because it’s too expensive to leave. My only friends are coworkers, and the best of them is leaving, so I find myself further, alone. I’m a big person, 6’4 and I’ve struggled with weight my whole life. I sometimes think, what’s the point anymore? 

I have this feeling I’ll be alone forever. I’m just ready to give in now. I’m done with the pain, physical and mental. My sciatic bouts have been world changing. To top it off my dad is suffering depression too, and my mom drowns her problems with beer. 

I try so, so hard to put a smile on everyone’s face but I can’t seem to put one on my own. I don’t know how long I can keep going like this