Read my post history if you want. I'll give you the cliff notes though.

*I was seeing my boss

*Things turned sexual

*Said she liked me but things can't work out right now due to her being my boss and being overwhelmed with stress

*I said OK, maybe some other time or when I leave

*I ask for advice here on why she has been more distant lately. Noticed she has been spending more and more time with another guy at work

That's the story so far. Now for the likely final update. I saw their cars parked next to each other at work which I know doesn't sound odd but they were at the far end of the parking lot. Why would they park so far from the door? I already had my suspicions and I thought that's all they were gonna be until I noticed her walking out to the vehicles. She was putting something in his vehicle (first 💔), so I figured I'd stop by and ask if she's heading out and Merry Christmas.

We had a short conversation before I jokingly pointed out what I already knew: "Looks like you found a new man already lol." (Obviously didn't say lol out loud, just signifying I said it jokingly)

"Things just happened really quick. It didn't happen until after us." (Call me dumb, but I believe this. She really was around me too much for someone else). 

I kept talking to her, telling her well that sucks, you broke my heart, moved on pretty quick, etc. Didn't say any of it in an angry way, just saying what I was feeling. 

Here's the real kicker and what really broke me: This girl has been seeing this new guy for, idk a week maybe, and told me everything just happened so fast and she fell so quick for him. *She could see herself marrying this man* **THIS FUCKING BROKE ME**. Yes I know I've only known her for about 6 months, and been talking for about 2 and I never once considered marriage at this time. I liked her alot but it was way too soon for that.

The fact she moved on from me so quick (days) and fell so hard for him that she's ready to *marry* him? Dude, that hurts my heart so fucking bad. The fact she never saw me in that light but after a few days sees in someone else? 

Funnily enough, almost exactly 5 years ago this exact situation happened that swore me off relationships. Not marriage, but a girl I had such strong feelings for moved on from me so damn quickly. 

I'm starting to think I'm unlovable. Seriously. I've never been with someone longer than maybe 2 months/2 dates. I want to think it's me, and I admit I acted stupid before, but I thought I was doing so much better. I guess not.

Now I'm just sitting here crying and thinking about how things could've been different had I met her working literally anywhere else.