I absolutely hate myself. Being someone who hates going in public and wearing scrubs for work is honest the only reason I'm getting by. And my boys. I'm only 10 lbs lighter than I was when I was pregnant, I'm all stomach and I fucking loathe myself. Everyone always says to "do something about it" like its so easy going to the gym when you have body image issues and no one to watch your kids and you work full time. I tried on a bathing suit today because I was determined to not be this person around my babies but I just broke down in tears. I honestly wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for them, I have no reason or happiness to stay here.