I had a terrible argument with my partner. And it was a lot of hurtful words thrown between the two of us. I feel emotionally exhausted trying really hard to communicate my feelings, and he accused me of using him as my personal therapist. He accused me of not loving him, just an idea of him.

I'm tired of hurting people in my life, intentionally or not, and the guilt weighs a lot on me. Right now I just want to cut myself off and stay away from any relationship. All I've learnt is that relationships and love will cause me a lot of pain, and I'll likely hurt someone in the process, even when I try my best to practice what I've learnt in DBT. I still care about my partner but, somewhere in my gut I'm wondering if I should just end it. 

I feel like during arguments he's as guilty as I am with struggling to be empathetic. And I just feel a lot of hypocrisy on his end. I'm not allowed to talk about my feelings in depth but somehow he's allowed to (and I never complained about it). I feel like if I'm going to be feeling this invalidated throughout the relationship, I really don't want to put up with it. But at the same time, when things are good with him, they're really good and I just feel conflicted with everything. 

Sorry if I sound like I'm rambling. I just feel like I fucked up another relationship beyond repair and I'm about to be single again.