I don't know if anyone else struggles with this.

I'm so lazy that I don't work on the things that are causing my problems. I just avoid everything. All I want to do is get away from the things that cause my issues and I can't, so my depression is getting worse.

I wish I wasn't born. I never asked to be born and now I have to live with envy of others who are having great lives and experiences.

I don't relate to anyone where I live, they all want babies and families, a mortgage and 2 cars, the most boring mediocrity that anyone can subject themselves to.

I'm sick of doing normal shit and finding life boring. I have things that I do (horse riding and weightlifting) that should bring me joy but I'm either forcing myself to do them or having only short lived joy that never lasts.

I wish I could be somewhere else but this would mean I have to work on my problems and I just *cannot be bothered*.

It's easier just to sleep or play videogames all day to escape.