Hey ya’ll I’m just reaching out because I was wondering if anyone has gone through a similar situation as me? I’m a 24 yr female. So recently I decided it was time to get off a medication I’ve been on for 7 years (suboxone). I got through the withdrawals now my mental health is just declining. I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore? I know the medicine must have been covering up some of the demons I already had and now that there’s no more cover sort to say, it’s just bubbling back up to the surface. I can’t even really put into words how strange I’ve been feeling just empty like a walking zombie. I have no motivation to preform little everyday tasks. For example I use all my energy to take a shower then when I get out I have to sit down for about 30 mins to try and regain some strength from the shower. Everything feels so heavy all the time. I am watching myself push people away even tho I know I need help. When I try to explain myself to family or friends they just seem to say all the wrong things and I just sit there like I want to say something but I physically can’t like I’m frozen. Which I guess is better then when I just say stupid mean things in rage. I have been diagnosed with manic depression in the past. I do have an appointment with a new psychiatrist but they couldn’t get me in for 3 weeks. This time is hard for me because I guess I really never new myself due to having a substance abuse problem throughout high school then maintaining some sort or sobriety on this medication now I’m just alone with myself. I just don’t know who I am. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Any words of advice or encouragement? Does anyone think it’s possible that a medication could almost allow mental health problems to go dormant?