I feel like I should preface this with I'm safe. But I'm struggling.

My biggest mental struggles are hypochondria and anxiety. Individually, they're easy enough to manage and I can skate by with minor inconvenience as long as I take my meds. Together, they're a whole new beast and I don't know what to do. 

My anxiety presents itself as physical symptoms. Cold sweats, hot flashes, nausea, diarrhea, dizziness, topped off with the feeling of impending doom. Obviously feeling like I'm about to die does absolutely no good for my hypochondria, which is also convinced I'm going to die at all times. This last anxiety attack was so bad that I dipped halfway through my shift, relapsed with self injury after years, and took 3 days to get back to a semi functioning state.

I'm 28/f. In a healthy relationship with 4 wonderful pets, lots of plants, and a cool job. I'm in okay physical shape. Im no athlete and i hate salad, but i take care of myself. Sure, life could be better, but im doing really well right now. I dont know how to make my body understand that everything is okay. I shouldn't have to make my partner put a hand on me for hours at a time because I'm afraid I'll die if I'm left alone and no one will be there to call 911.

Guided meditation has helped get me through the little hiccups, but I haven't found anything that helps during an actual crisis other than knocking myself out with Tylenol pm.  I'm sick of this. I'm sick of being happy and appreciating life and everything it has to offer, only to feel (almost exactly) like im being dragged down to the bottom of a tar pit. 


Advice? Similar stories? I'm at a loss and I'm very tired.