i’ve never posted anything on reddit before but i’ve seen the videos and i just wanted to tell people my story before i do it . im a 15 F and yeah my life isn’t as bad as other people but i just don’t see a future for myself. im a coward i’ll probably back out but i might change my mind when i finish this bottle of vodka. i’ve been raped 5 times since i was 12 I got myself in those situations i was a stupid kid who wanted to be cool and hang out with older people . doing drugs and all that but all i have done is ruin my life, im trying to stop but i might try OD if this doesn’t work, i love my parents and the idea of hurting them breaks me. I lost all my friends for a guy who i just ended up messing things up with, maybe i am being dramatic but i’ve been in bed depressed for so long i don’t see things getting any better and i’ve done all this to myself. i only have myself to blame, im so selfish. i just want to feel loved, i want someone to just hug me and tell me it’s okay but im just so lonely and i don’t see it getting better. goodbye reddit thank you for entertaining me so many times . it’s just gotten to be too much