I always have been. Since a young age and had my first crush. I just want someone who will love me no matter what side they see and won't abandon me. My memories have always felt so painful since I am the only one that has them. Sharing life with someone is the only thing I can fathom as meaningful anymore..

After having my heart broken so many times, I've realized I teeter back and forth between wanting someone to control me entirely or let me control them. I'm like a child missing my safety blanket. I wish I could control my emotions but I just end up wallowing in my emotional turmoil.