I've been suffering from anxiety and depression, a very fun combination for maybe 9 years now, often times I carry on with life but sometimes I can't help but to laugh, I'm not really sure what I'm laughing at, maybe I'm laughing at how it's not killed me yet and I'm still kicking, I'm not too sure. Naturally I find it mostly annoying because it is, it's like my brain is actively working against me but fuck my brain at those points. Whenever I have a complete mental breakdown I actually feel invigorated, like nothing truly matters at all because it's in those following hours where my shit is catching up to me. I also feel closer with someone if I ever bring them into my breakdown when I can tell I need to talk to someone. I realise I'm rambling that seems to happen a lot but I'm here wondering what others feel like when they aren't actively suffering from their illness (when they aren't having a breakdown or an episode, I'm not up to date on all the mental illnesses so I'm not sure how they work if they stop sometimes like depression and anxiety)
TL;DR: let's discuss our mental illnesses