I don't want to make a long post so I'm just going to try keeping it short. I'm also on mobile so I apologize.

I could be having a great time with my bf and enjoying each other's company when something so small just sets me off and then I break down and start having an anxiety attack. This has been happening more and more lately and it's been killing me because my bf has been pretty great to me these last 6 months and I feel like I'm just the most unbearable person to be around, yet he still wants me around...at least until we got into it tonight. It was my fault and now I'm laying awake next to him and the thoughts won't subside. We almost broke up because of my bs. I just want to make everything right, but I feel like I keep messing everything up and my thoughts are scattered. I'm tired of feeling like this and I'm tired of being a burden on everyone. I hate myself for everyone I put through this, sometimes I think isolating myself would be better, that way I wouldn't hurt the ones I love anymore.