Recently I started causally seeing a woman. We started it as a FWB thing but I am starting to have feelings for her. The thing is I don't know if would be a good thing to get into an actual relationship with her because my life isn't in a good place.

I'm what a lot of people call a manchild. I am financially unstable, my job isn't high paying or respectable, I have a hard time getting motivated to clean my house, and I'm not very smart or deep. Basically, the only real hobby I have is a podcast which is something the world doesn't need from a 34 year old loser.

It's causing me a lot of distress and I have been thinking it's better for everyone (friends and family included) to just shut myself off so that they don't have to deal with how much of a dumb asshole I am. I don't think I believe that I deserve anything good because I'm not a good man. I have been decent in offering emotional support to my loved ones but that's about it. 

My life is so less than what they or any future partner deserves. What they deserve is the best and I cannot give that to them.