I feel like I’m suffering just to be alive. The only time i feel at peace is when I’m asleep. The only reason why I’m still here is cause i don’t want to be that person to pain my mother and siblings. I’m 33 tired of being in relationships. I can’t find happiness or joy in anything and if i do it’s a brief moment. I’ve been going on like this for years. Used to enjoy gaming used to enjoy doing anything with cars. Now i just want to get off work and go home and stay there. I’m just a random guy sharing my thoughts for nothing else to do.