last appointment I finally talked to my doctor about suicide, which is constantly on my mind. she asked me if had any plans and I couldn't be honest with her as I was afraid of possible consequences. she changed the prescription, but it's still not working.

 I'll be back in a few days and I'm not sure if it's ok to come clean about my plans. obviously I have no intentions to tell her the details, but at the same time a small part of me is somehow trying to get better. what could possibly happen? anyone been through this?