Since yesterday I've been thinking, I don't need a relationship right now. I've always craved one and was so depressed about being undesirable but maybe now is not the time. I'm going to just focus on myself the best I can and work on building muscle just like I want to do. I have a lot of good qualities that most don't in the school I go to. So I don't know why I'm so upset about being lonely, when I finally get with someone I feel that I'm going to be bored. So I don't need a relationship. I can confidently say I'm smarter than a great number of people. I'm gonna try this thing where I fuel my own ego but not in a narcissistic way because no. Well wish me luck.