Title doesnt explain too well ofc but recently ive just been in a really crappy place mentally and i feel at some point it could become self destructive. ive noticed that i have heavily considered ending it all because of a couple short term and long term things. i wont bother going into specifics but essentially, when i end up thinking about most things i can genuinely contemplate suicide. ive had a couple waves of depression where i just think and feel the worst but the fact that i contemplated this so casually almost scares me when i actually think about it
So that brings me to the title; are there any notable things i can do during times like these to get my mind off it? i dont want to bother with therapy or anything since i personally feel i have naught to talk about (i have no trauma or whatever but it just feels kinda humiliating in a way) unless it is a last resort.
thanks :)