As the title reads, I met a psychiatrist and explained to her my symptoms and was told I am a classic case of having BPD. 

It has been quite validating to finally have a professional diagnoses. I never once suggested to her I had BPD as I wanted to see what her opinion would be if I didn't mention it. 

The disassociation associated with having BPD has gotten worse within the last year. Medication sometimes helps, but the feelings of constant emptiness, depression, low energy, and intrusive thoughts still remain. I swear I'd go crazy from loneliness if I didn't have my FP around me often. 

I'm curious how to others living with this disorder have healed and gotten better. I take Effexor which definitely levels me out and makes functioning a bit easier, but things are still really tough. I can't spend too much time in public or I get overstimulated and frustrated quickly, so I try to limit as much time I am around people. 

