I’ve been on a productive, positive, and healing journey. I handle situations better, split less, and have a lot of gratitude.  But sometimes I get so drained, my soul feels sucked dry and that shadow hangs over me. I don’t want to admit I’m depressed but I do. I’m on the last dose of antidepressants before I finally go off. I’m not staying firm in my boundaries because it makes me nervous to think about how they will react. I’m sinking into my bed and I miss comfort that I don’t think I can find at the moment. I’ve tried aromatherapy and music and funny videos. People don’t talk about how tiring healing can be. I’m running out of energy. I just hope I can figure it out before it consumes me.