I’m physically disabled and live in a small town so I don’t have access to anyone other than him, he belittles bpd and constantly says things like oh you could just get over that (over me being raped) and I could just force myself to stop having melt downs and attacks.

Worst off he never listens I said I was really struggling with bulimia and insomnia and then in the letter he wrote to my gp he put I was eating and sleeping well 
I have to see him every other month and by the end I’m in the mood to self harm and hurt myself. I’ve complained but nothings been done at all, I have to see him to get my important medicine 

How to I steel myself or prepare myself to see him? And my partners come with me in the occasional times they’ve been able to get off work and said it’s def not me he is being belittling and rude.

Any advice on how to prepare to see him? Just talking about him makes him completely miserable 