My therapist told me that I've subconsciously chosen to 'take up no space in this world', and that children who realize their environment isn't safe- will be diagnosed with personality disorders when they're adults.

Good to know.

I cried a little and it was exhausting; My brain doesn't like when I cry so instead of sniffling and tearing up- like I'm supposed to- I switch off and on between gagging and keening. 

Now I'm lonely. And I need a hug