I don’t know what’s wrong with me. So today my boyfriend wanted to go to the market in the morning, meet his parents for a gallery walk and then go to a music festival. Already the thoughts of doing all those things in one day was making my anxiety go way up. I have major anxiety about socializing with people or being around people I don’t know very well. I get thoughts of “what should I say” “what do I do” “I don’t want to come off as stupid and awkward”. I can’t help these thoughts since I’ve had them since I was like a little kid and now I’m 30. 
So I made it through the gallery walk and at first the music festival was going ok. Then a few hours in, I’m standing there and I can feel myself start to cry. I don’t know why I’m crying and that makes me want to cry more and I don’t want people to see me and think I’m weird. Then I feel worse because he sees me crying and he’s great enough to tell me we can leave even though I know he was looking forward to the music. I wish I just wasn’t so damn sensitive.