Is that bad? it comes on my mind quite often, I get thinking that of I had one I would have an excuse for wanting to die and I wouldn't even have to do it myself....also sometimes when I'm driving I start thinking, I wish I would crash and just die.  I sometimes kind of wish I could change places with terminal ill kids, like I wish I could give them my "healtier " life because they are so young and shouldnt suffer and while me I just want to die..this weird?anyone else feel like this?