I get super attached to people in my life even when they are clearly not good for me yet I don't know how to move forward to make new friends. My ex-roommate/best friend stopped talking with me and removed me from her life without letting me express why I moved out. I even gave her enough notice so that it wouldn't be a shock yet when the time came she just went cold. And even though it's been a month it still hurts. She wasn't the best person to be around yet she was my best friend for 8 years. Idk how to let go. 

I want to be able to have friends in my life that want to stay yet I recluse myself away so much it feels almost impossible. I've gotten over the scariness of being alone I'm not sure I'm able to handle the loneliness I've got going on. So much so that I've depersonalised three times in the past week. 

