got into a bit of an argument with my best friend and we didn’t talk for a few weeks. it made me realize how much i depended on them on a daily basis to keep me happy and motivated and now i feel bad bc i feel selfish in wanting attention from them and i feel bad for myself bc my tendency of relying on others for my own happiness. currently we’ve made plans to talk later as we’re both pretty burned out by finals but i’ve been feeling so numb lately and sad overall because i don’t know how i can be content with myself. i cant focus knowing that i’ll always feel lonely.