I feel so dumb. I thought I  was ready to make more mommy friends and I was especially ready to make new friends with women with children with special needs like mine. Everything was going great until people actually wanted to meet me in real life. Then all the fear came flooding in about how I’d be judged for my looks or my quirkiness or maybe I’d try too hard and rub people the wrong way. I basically sabotaged any chance I had to make friends and then deleted the app. I went from being so excited and positive to start a new chapter of normality in my life but wasn’t ready. Does this ever get easier? Why do I feel “normal” somedays and like a recluse others?