So basically some background knowledge is that along with both suffering from really bad anxiety my best friend and I suffer from depression. Let’s call her Jackie. Some more info that might be helpful is that I cry a lot and am really sensitive, and I’ve been in and out of the hospital for suicide and depression related issues, so fighting the battle against the idea of losing myself has come up a lot I’m discussion with me and my friends because I know I can talk to them. So last week Jackie, my ex who I’m still friends with, Jackie’s boyfriend who I’m also friends with, and I were all playing Sea of Thieves together. Jackie had asked me to guard the ship because there were other people and she didn’t want people to board us and sink us so she asked me to watch the ladders for a bit. I said okay and watched the ladders until she left the boat, and then I thought I could stop. But when Jackie’s boyfriend came back on the ship he asked me why I wasn’t watching the ladders and all three people from the other ship were on our ship. We ended up taking care of the issue and I apologized a lot, and then after we took care of it I went back to watching ladders but Jackie told me to go onto the island because she didn’t trust me to watch the ship. I suck at combat and there were a lot of enemies on the island and I apologized again and I told her I could watch the ship but she was just being really rude about it. So I didn’t yell at anyone, I muted my mic so I could have a cry. I was going to come back after a few minutes after I calmed myself down. Jackie asked where I was and her boyfriend said “well she’s done”. I figured he meant he thought I was angry and done with the situation which made me upset so I unmuted my mic and said I just had to cry. Jackie immediately left after that and so did her boyfriend. They both blocked me on all social platforms and iMessage, and the only information I have on why is what she says to my ex boyfriend. So apparently she needs some time because “being depressed is my only personality trait”, and that I’m “self centered and can’t see past myself”. It really hurts and I have no idea what I did that could’ve caused this. All I did was cry because they said they couldn’t trust me. It’s been a week and I’m just so angry, sad and confused. I just needed a place to vent so here you guys go.