Recently my depression seems to have turned to anger, everything pisses me off, and I end up shutting out my friends because of it, even if I'm only angry at myself. For example, while making new years plans today I've been pissed off by something so minor that I don't want to go out anymore, because I know I'll sit there raging, not talking, and wanting to spend the whole night away from them. But if I don't go ill feel left out, get angry at myself for being such a dick and be stuck on my own spiralling. 

I've never been an angry person, and I think I have some real issues around it because being angry makes me feel sick, it turns to crying immediately and often leads to anxiety attacks, I don't know how to process the emotion, and the only way I can really stop feeling It is to either decide to feel nothing and sit there feeling numb, or to sleep it off, which means I could be taking multiple naps during the day. It messes up my sleep cycle as well as making me rely on sleep and dreaming as a form of escapism, and that just makes everything in life worse for me. I don't know what I can do to process the feeling in a healthy way.