So to kinda start somewhere where I feel like it needs to start. Last year my hs best friends/crush came back into my life after 2 big fights. Anyways she apologized for how things ended before and I did too. We start talking again everyday and she tells me that she has bpd. I start researching it and start realizing that I show a few symptoms. She pushed me to go to therapy and I gladly went since I wasn't really happy where I was in life. I start going and 2nd session in my therapist told me I show signs and that I may have bpd. I was kinda excited just for the fact that I would have something in common with my friend. Now fast forward couple month finally got diagnosed with bpd and it feels like I've been faking it the entire time. Like I keep looking back and the past is so fuzzy and it's hard to remember who I was back then and I got nothing. Like I feel like I've just been putting on a show for a diagnosis for some twisted reason. I just really want to feel normal for once haha. Anyone out there kinda feel the same or have the same kinda feeling?