25f with BPD here… got back on medication recently and I already had a bad first impression of this new doctor bc she was over 40 min late to our first appointment. We had a really rough first interaction thru telehealth or whatever because she was so late and I was already going thru a crisis and it was just… I’m not gonna get into it. I made a post about it the other day on here. Anyway

She was really judgmental of me and when I mentioned that my family doesn’t accept me because of how I dress and having tattoos, she told me that tattoos/piercings are a form of self-h*rm and I got really annoyed. I have 8 tattoos that can easily be covered, I don’t get tattooed every other week and have any regretful ones and even then, who cares it’s my body. She looks young and seems cool too, so I don’t really get it.

Anyway, she put me back on lamictal and Zoloft and both make me so sick. The Lamictal makes me break out into a rash and made me manic/aggressive the first month and I told my new doctor that, but she put me back on a low dosage and what happens? Rashes. I get eczema break outs on my face that finally went away from using Eczema Honey, but now they won’t go away after starting Lamictal again and I have ugly rashes on the back of my hands that won’t go away, which is new. She just told me to take Benadryl after me waiting over a day to answer my message thru the app and I think she’s underestimating the seriousness of the rashes. Zoloft makes me sick if I don’t eat anything before taking it, so I’m good if I just eat, but all of these meds are making me wake up in the middle of the night too. 

I’m on 2 other pills than the ones I mentioned and I’m just annoyed because I told this new doc that I left my old one because I felt unheard, was prescribed too many meds and she was always super late to our appointments and this new doc does the exact same thing. It’s also hard to reach her thru the app we use when I have questions. It takes her 1-2 days to answer and I think she just has too many patients. Feeling hopeless

TLDR; after getting back on meds for over a year, my new doc put me back on meds that I told her make me sick and I feel unheard