Hi, i have depression and have been taking meds for a long time now. In general it's under control. But, i have a problem with relationships of any kind. I sort of wonder if my heart is completely cold. At first, i fall in love, am all cute and fun and caring. Then, a day comes when for no reason at all i just. Dont feel anything positive towards the person, all of the sudden. In fact, the kinder they are, the more they disgust me. I feel annoyed that anyone would feel like they own me, know me, like im their lap dog. I know its weird and a wrong way of thinking, but it always happens. It just happened now and im so full of anger and im so confused. I dont know what to do, my bf didnt do anything wrong, hes so sweet... which is exactly what irritates me. I suddenly hate being touched, and being given attention. I think its important to note that the only relationship where i never felt this way was very toxic. 
Anyway im wondering whats going on, why am i so cruel? I know in my head its not okay. Im putting away talking about it with the bf because i wonder if maybe im feeling like this rn due to self quarantine driving me crazy. 
Also, im the same with friends, maybe without the anger, but first im a normal friend that talks to u a lot and cares and then all of the sudden chatting seems like a chore and i cant force myself anymore. I know friendship and love is work and i should make myself get over not wanting to give more, but whats the point if its making me miserable and isnt natural at all?? 
Ive been spoiled by my parents my whole life so maybe i just turned out selfish and mean?

Havent been to psychologist in a year, i had to vent a bit. Thanks for any advice or observations.