I'm 25 year old male, queer, black, and living at home with my parents and I feel completely trapped in my current situation. Right now I'm working at a cafe for $15/hr but that cafe is about to close and I'll be out of a job. It’s honestly the best working situation I’ve ever had and I know that nothing else will compare to our specific work culture. I have the option to work at a friends new restaurant but I've realized that the service industry is unsustainable financially and especially emotional (I cannot restrain my open distain for customers and am openly hostile in my interactions with them even when I'm trying to be nice).Almost all the restaurants in my area pay much less than my current one and I was barely able to pay my bills with this job. I don't have any other job skill experience outside of restaurants. The pandemic is really bad where I am and nobody seems to care as well which makes job hunting harder.

I went to commuter college 3 different times and just stopped going every time and am now expelled from the local community college and unable to enroll in any another accredited institutions because my GPA is 1.8 and I won't be accepted. My college was paid for because of the GI bill from my father but that expires at the end of this year when I turn 26. I would go back if I could. I have the option to go to virtually any trade school and it will be paid for but I have no idea what would be worth it, (culinary is an option but id be stuck worse off than I started with front of house) and I can't do anything super physical because I'm chronically and suffer from a lot of fractures. 

The only skill of note I have is photography, specifically portraiture and fashion is what I'm "known" for. The issues I faced with photography is that I have NO studio space, and I have ZERO business sense and skill. I would always fuck up delivering photos to clients because I would l get so sick of looking at them that I would just not edit them, make excuses, or they'd be weirdly unhappy while also saying that the pictures are objectively good.

My life is literally so stagnant and this pandemic isn't helping. I'm completely lost on how to move forward in my life and my family is really resenting my inability to sustain myself but I also don’t want to. To sustain myself in my current position I’d have to work myself to the bone just to pay bills. I also have no intention on being independent (I know that makes me a terrible person) but I also know and see the strain it’s putting on my family and it’s unsustainable and unfair. I’m lost on what to do.