My boyfriend and I are moving in together this Friday.

I’m very proud that I’ve come far enough for this to be a possibility. I’m very grateful that he trusts me to keep working on myself so this can work. I’m very scared I will fuck it up, but also hopeful that I can continue on this trajectory of positive change. 

I do not take the gift of a new chance lightly. It’s up to me... I will not let my BPD sabotage this opportunity to be happy. It will be hard and I know I will slip up, but I can do this. 

He didn’t always want to do this with me... as recently as December he told me he wasn’t ready. I work everyday to show him I’m changing and he can trust me to keep at it. Right now, he believes me, and I need to make sure I treat that trust as delicately as it is. The love is there, I just have to let it in and stop giving power to the BPD trying to trick my brain.