I’ve always felt like I’ve been an anxious person. My baseline almost feels that way. I’m uncomfortable in social situations at times, worry about saying the right thing, worry about saying the wrong thing. I worry about letting those I care about down, I worry about their reaction to the things I have to say, I worry about confrontation. 

I worry about life week to week, every week I anticipate with anxiousness what next week will bring. I worry about keeping my pet in routine. I worry about something as simple as a drive to an unfamiliar place.

The list goes on, this month projects to be a busy month and I’ve had all of these thoughts and feelings rush through my head. I recognize there are plenty of childhood traumas that contribute to why I think this way and life at the moment does seem stressful.

Despite feeling &amp; thinking the way I have, I haven’t  let it stifle me and I’ve pursued things to the best of my ability. I don’t feel as if it’s debilitating but it’s always there. Right now I’m trying to come to terms with is this just my “normal” or should I finally look into attacking my anxiety specifically. I think the part that frustrates me the most about this is that I work in mental health. I support mental health for adolescents, I like to think I have a general understanding of what to watch for. But with me, I always downplay. I just don’t know what to think, is this just a bad month because things are busy, money is tight, and I’m not excited about a return to work or am I just starting to truly look myself in the eyes. 

Not sure if anyone can relate to this and I do apologize for the wall of text.  I just needed to write this out.