I was clean from self harm for three months and 9 days. It started to feel like nothing was real. It was like my vision just wasn’t right, like I was in a constant state of dissociation. I could see things and I knew what they were and where they were, but it just wasn’t clicking in my head. I had an overwhelming feeling that I wasn’t real, that nothing was real. Self harming made that feeling go away. I hate to break my clean streak but it was worth getting rid of that feeling. Has anyone else ever experienced this?