Does anyone else feel like when they are at their lowest that’s when they see things the clearest? 

I feel like I can see life so clearly now. For how shit it is. For how I am too fucked up to not suffer long term. And how if I was smart and brave I would just go ahead and leave. I feel so clear and calm about all this. I’m only frustrated that I cannot go through with it. Because the rest of the time, when I don’t feel like this, when I feel “okay” or “good”, it’s all a lie that I tell myself to stick around. Because human instincts are to survive at any cost. 

I’ve felt this way before. Does anyone else ever feel like this?