It's Black Friday, meaning it's time for everyone to buy shit. I got paid today and so I decided to try and pick up some things that I need.

Even though they're things I know I need, I still feel so guilty for spending money on it. I feel like I'm being wasteful and being a terrible, ungrateful person.

It's absolutely not reasonable, to feel how I do. Yet I do anyway because of a mix of stupid things going on in my head. I hate my brain so much for doing this shit to me. I know it's unreasonable but there's still that guilt, shame and just utter disgust for myself at buying myself something. 

How can I have the "treat yourself" mentality when I don't feel like I deserve it? Does anyone relate to this at all?