I just started browsing this sub last week and it is a brutal place man. I still can’t look for more than a few threads at a time for my own sake. But I’m glad people have somewhere to strip off all the fake layers of themselves they put on to show the world and just be themselves.

I wont’t sit here and tell you all the cliches about how it gets better. That’s not what I’ve learned. Life didn’t get better, I got better. I got stronger. I looked at myself in the mirror at rock bottom multiple times and realized I was living life as someone else. Someone i’d let the world lie and tell me I was until I believed it. I never forgot any of the pain…I took it all on the chest until something in me, the little bit of me that was still in the mirror and clinging on from the darkness pulling me down, said no more. And I buried my demons in a 6 foot grave with a marble headstone.

I’ve done this more than once too. It’s never just “over”. But you start to learn new moves when you fight more fights.

It breaks my heart seeing you all like this. I have this drive in me now to just take people’s pain, seeing them say they hate life just like I used to but knowing how good I felt when I beat it. If you’re reading this put all your demons on me. The more I bury them, the better I feel. And maybe some of you out there will realize that beating demons gives you that feeling you could never find anywhere else…