What if the voices I hear are just my mind? I mean I can control my mind, and I can't control those voices no matter what I do, but what if they are just my imagination? I can control my imagination, but maybe it's starting to become uncontrollable as I get older. Besides the voices were never external, they've always been internal.

What if I don't experience paranoia? What if it is just anxiety? Anxiety that has kept me in bed, too afraid to leave my room, for many days, and anxiety that told me I am the reincarnation of a bad man. (which has been resolved as of today due to a kind internet stranger helping me out. Talking about the reincarnation part btw.)

What if I'm just making it all up? What if I'm just exaggerating? 

What if I'm annoying to her? What if she wants to hurt me? What if she's out of her way to not help me properly in any way possible?

Idk, I'm just rambling at this point.