I’ve been dating my partner and FP for at least 2 years now. So far it’s been a bit rough, he’s called me abusive and stated that I’m too much to handle but I’ve forgiven him easily for that. 
Recently he took a break from me to have time to himself. He’s the only person in my life (no one at my school likes me) so it was draining. When he came back, he was so perfectly fine that it unsettled me. I didn’t know how he wasn’t more worried about me, knowing I have abandonment issues (thanks dad for that) and usually down spiral. He blamed it on his brain. ‘Sometimes I just forget people exist, it’s not anything against you though.’
But he’s been so shallow lately. It feels like I’m talking at someone and getting nothing in response. I love him more than anything, but it just feels like he’s put a wall between us. 
He used to love me so much. He’d stare into my eyes and admire me. He never does it anymore. We’re in a long distance relationship and I’m hoping and praying once we see each other in person it’ll get better.
But the thing is, I’m scared to move in with him. I’m scared it’ll hit me one day as ‘holy shit. I don’t feel loved anymore.’ And I’ll be stuck in a house after cutting ties with my toxic family with someone who doesn’t make me feel loved or important. But I love them so much. I feel so stumped.
I mean what if no one loves me like he does? I mean sure he barely talks to me during the day, but I think he still loves me. What if no one stays as long as he did? I don’t know what to think anymore.