I don't know if this decision was impulsive or not but I am now free. The meds they gave me made me suicidal and amplified all of my bpd symptoms, now I am a little bit more mentally stable. I am also going to use to break to pursue my eating disorder. they never cared about me anyways. Only God knows what's gonna happen to me because now I literally have no one. I hated therapy anyways, they always just made me feel worse