I have never had very many friends and when I was young I certainly did things to push people away like being incredibly clingy and angry but I’ve gotten older and had a lot of therapy and I don’t think I have many symptoms any more except for periods of very intense emotions but I don’t show that to others. But it just feels like people don’t like me like they can sense there is something wrong with me. I don’t know what it is I’m doing that makes people keep me at arms length. They don’t mind me when they need something for me but no one who claims to be my “friend” is inviting me to parties or get togethers. The only people who seem to like me are my family and my partner and that’s it. I really don’t understand it. Is there something about me that gives bad vibes? Is there something about me that they are picking up on that I just don’t see? Am I a bad person? I just don’t know anymore. Sometimes I wonder if there is something really dark inside me that’s just laying dormant that they see that I don’t.