I have anxiety, and my boyfriend has suicidal thoughts and ideation. I'm terrified that one day he might really commit suicide. I cry about it everyday and sometimes can't get out of bed because I'm so worried he'll kill himself, and I constantly ask if he's ok and he tells me he is. He tells me not to worry and that he won't, but he really hates living and it really scares me. He tells me he'll be here every day but I remember early in our relationship he told me, "You should get someone who you know will always be here." Like here as in alive. What do I do? I always worry even though he tells me he won't do it. What if those feelings overtake him and I can't help? Not to mention I can't see him in person.