cw // overdose, hospitalization, overall gross stuff 

yesterday i was hospitalized for an overdose that i did on impulse. the whole night i had been hallucinating and experiencing paranoia and i’m not sure what led me to od but it didn’t have suicidal intent. i called the ambulance and when i got there they made me drink charcoal and i was hooked up to a few machines (not sure what all of them were, i was out of it the whole time) i woke up to go to the restroom and ended up having hot flashes and throwing up instead. i felt like i was dead. after throwing up they put me in a wheelchair because i was too weak to walk back to my room without collapsing. i’m better now, i’m still extremely weak in the legs and shaky but i’m alive which is all that matters.