My bipolar affects all of me before I have my period and also during. I used to not have terrible PMS when I was in teens but since being diagnosed in my early 20s, every month it's like I'm on a mood episode. Before it's depression that it usually triggered. Recently it's mania. This month, it's mixed with psychosis.

Because of my stupid mood, I get really irritated easily and one time I snapped at my brother and immediately regretted it afterwards. Now I'm stuck at that regret. I am spiralling. It's not terribly bad at the moment, but I'm afraid it will be.

I now have an anxiety after a small thought on how I may not be able to finish my acad requirements. It was a very small trigger. I don't even remember what that trigger is exactly.

Also, the articles I am reading for a class trouble me. The issue is very dear to me, and maybe on another days it will not bother me as much, but right now I couldn't read the articles without being too emotionally invested. And the deadline for this project is only a few days ahead. I'm starting not to function well.

I don''t even know if I have the correct title for this, nor do I know what exactly I am asking advice for. Please excuse my rambling.

I don't know. I also feel sad because I'm with my family and they really don't understand it when I need my space.

I'm so confused and lonely and anxious. I'm having a hard time starting my tasks for today.

I hope everyone here is safe and sane.