I do not have BPD, but I fell in love with a man with quiet bpd. He split on me after I told him I loved him. It has been a year and I cannot move on. This was my first romantic/sexual type relationship since I was raped. The way he left me and cut off contact has re-enforced feelings of worthlessness from that assault and I can't seem to get over it. I can't afford therapy. I am on the edge. I don't want to lump everyone together, because I know that everyone suffering from BPD is different, but any advice on how to get him to speak with me would be appreciated. I really can't move on, I've tried and it isn't working.  I need to know I meant something to him and that I didn't make it all up in my head. Please don't advise me to just move on or get therapy, I've tried.