I’m newly diagnosed, and while I studied psych in college and thought it sounded familiar, it took me being an adult and having crises weekly to understand that yes, BPD is what’s happening. I’m still trying to wrap my head around this disease, cause it’s so confusing.

I love my boyfriend, but sometimes when I’m down and empty and sad, I don’t feel that love for him. It goes away. Along with the ability to enjoy much of anything.


When I’m enraged, I just hate everything, including and sometimes especially him.

When I’m clear or very happy, I know I love him. He does so much for me and tries so hard to understand me, and to help me. He’s beyond words supportive. 

Does anyone else feel this? How do you meld the extreme opinions of your partner?