I behaved destructively in an argument and I had been doing so good controlling myself. I didn't hurt anyone or myself but I made a mess and ruined some things. This is the day after and I just keep crying at how fucked up I am and how I will never just be able to handle conflict like a normal person. I also keep crying because my favorite person used to love me even at my worst and clearly doesn't anymore. I don't know how to keep healing myself when I get his animosity, his anger and disrespect when I'm just trying to communicate.