what to do??? on a daily basis my mind is attacking me with all of these bad thoughts and bad memories. i tried to combat them with good things and good memories, but that backfired and made me feel worse. it makes me lose a grip on the present and travel back to the memory. and then i get even more sad because i don't have whatever was in the memory anymore. i end up wishing i could be in the good times again. 

so basically bad thoughts make me feel bad but good thoughts make me feel bad too,,, i wish i could just have no thoughts at all