I was diagnosed with severe depression over six years ago but it’s been extremely bad for over two years now. I’m also a heroin addict that’s obviously not helping, but even when I’ve been able to get sober for a bit there’s no improvement. I went back to working full time almost six months ago. I thought that would help a lot, but again, little to no improvement. When I’m not working, I stay in my room with the lights off watching TV and sleeping. Occasionally I’m able to bring myself to play video games, but after an hour or so even that becomes exhausting. My room is absolutely disgusting 99% of the time… the half of my bed that I’m not laying in is piled with trash because I can’t bring myself to clean or throw the shit away. Even getting up to use the bathroom is exhausting so I piss in empty bottles, which have also begun to accumulate in my room. I shower maybe once a week, and that’s being generous, I usually just wait until I’m visibly dirty or when I can’t cover the BO with deodorant or cologne. The only reason I’m able to get up and go to work is because I know if I don’t I’ll be homeless, dope sick, AND depressed. I’ve tried two different medications to no avail… well, “tried” is a stretch. Usually stop taking them after a week or two because “what’s the point” or “this shit isn’t gonna help me”. I’m so tired. I know there are things I can do to get better but taking that first step is so hard… If anyone can give me any advice or suggestions, I’d greatly appreciate it. Thanks for listening