Hi! I'm 20 years old and I was on my 5th period and having remote classes, then last semester I took a leave of absence from college because I was feeling very depressed, despaired and self destructive, my physiatrist recommended me to take a time off too. I used to live in another city to attend college, in an apartment owned by my parents, but now I've been living with my parents in my childhood house and they want me to return to college after 3 months off, but I'm not ready yet. 

I've been attending therapy and taking medications and my mood is a thousand times better than when I was low and having classes, I've been following a routine that makes me feel good and allows me to have healthier habits, I've been sleeping well and getting nutritional treatment too, I feel anxious when I'm outside home but now I can control it better, I finally got my driver's license after 3 years and recently I've been able to study for 2-3h, 4 days per week. 

I'm on my way to get better and I'm really proud of what I've achieved so far, I'm trying to remain patient with myself but my parents makes me feel like I'm too slow, lazy, dramatic, they DEMAND that I get back to college already and I have a hard time telling them 'no', specially cause I'm very dependent of them, I've never worked (depression has a part on this) and they always provided me my needs, including paying for my therapy and meds even when they don't accept my mental illness so well, I fell like my feelings and my choices doesn't matter to them if it goes against what they expect. 

I'm worried cause...does taking a time off makes a burden? Sometimes I feel like it's asking too much for them to take care of a 20 years old daughter who's currently not even studying. Would I be a selfish and spoiled daughter if I make a choice of my own when everything I "have" comes from my parents? Should I get back to college now or give myself some more time? (I want to get back on the second semester of 2022)

I would appreciate some advice and I wish you have a good day :)