I study in Hong-Kong (the most competitive city) on full scholarship. And this scholarship is renewable only if your GPA is 3.2 or above. 
My freshman year I suffered a lot and didn’t know it’s smt related with health. Thought it’s just stressful semester and my anxiety. On my second year I started taking medicines and got 3-4X dumber (I AM SERIOUS). I was doing part-time job at Starbucks to support my emotional health, but my memory and reaction speed really made this job challenging. I arrived to university and couldn’t study at all! I forget my credit card pins, passwords even the things I hide to not to lose! 
I took a gap year and started curing bipolar disorder, and it’s medicines make feel me half dead half alive elephant. I can’t even clean my room or worry about my future.

Usually it takes time to get to used to medicines. But 3 years- is a lot! 

Do anyone had smt like this and how you handle it. Did you ever think that you won’t be as alive as you used to be? Are you living your life or waiting this moment to pass to keep living? 


I really need to do smt with all this