I feel so awful for my SO. At times he can do minor things that trigger me and make me so angry and upset to the point of where I don't want him to touch me. Then I'll get so depressed afterwards and want to just kill myself for an hour or longer before I feel better and he just looks worried and unsure of what to do whenever this happens. I also know that I love him but I frequently will have episodes where I think I just want to break up with him and shove him out of my life (shove everyone out of my life, actually) and once I've calmed down I immediately feel regret for thinking such things and beat myself up over it. He gets so anxious with me and when he's anxious about us I get extremely anxious and panicky. Does anyone else have this? Because I just feel so alone and awful about it