So this loser will share on Reddit because “talking is healthy”.

I’ll keep it short. BPD and rejection = extended crippling emotional agony.

I got used and rejected again today. My BPD brain wants to literally die (long term suicidal and self harm). I cried. Alone to myself. 

I did all the right things though. I didn’t freak out. I handled it maturely and respectfully while still standing up for myself a little. I googled how to respond to anxiety and insecurity and rejection in a non-BPD way.

Now I sit with the agony squashed to one side, while “keeping busy” with my hobbies like a healthy person.

I’m spiralling inside.