These past few days have been so fucking shitty and depressing. The isolation of staying at home and doing the same shit everyday is killing me. Usually when something like this happens I replay the entire thing in my head over and over again until I fucking lose my mind.

 Maybe it's because I didn't feel numb for once or maybe it's because I've been fearing something like this happening for so long that I was glad it finally happened. Can anyone else relate?