My partner and I moved overseas to work with wildlife in a third world country. As adventurers, this was absolutely perfect. Like a Tarzan and Jane adventure. Being a male, my partner was able to do far more exciting work the first 6 months. During which I (as usual) started having these episodes of being convinced he didn't really want to be with me. I soon after learnt about BPD and that knowledge has changed my life. Recently, I've been given a far better paying job contracted for 10 months. My partner then casually mentions he wants to go home and finish Uni, initiating a long distance relationship. I feel like he's jealous of my job. I feel like he's looking for an excuse to leave. The BPD elements of my personality are hurting me terribly and I'm struggling not to feel abandoned in another country. 
I won't be one of those women who give up their opportunities for men. How do I graciously accept being left in a third world country for 10 months without going on a full rampage, hurting this person and blaming them for abandoning me?