It's been a rough road, but still I can't get my head over some things. I don't feel like a person anymore, don't feel alive, feel insecure about my future. Ever since I've been out of the hospital last year (my first psychotic episode) I've been struggling with feeling emotions, having a perspective on life and specially think my cognitive functions are limited compared to what they've been before (I struggle in understanding things/people/ideas and thinking clearly). I'm a musician and even my composing and playing skills have been reduced. It's like I'm having difficulty engaging with life and it's activities. Is this something expected from bipolar?