i made a post on r/sad about the act itself, the sort of it is light cuts more like scratches on my arm, honestly i wasn't to panicked at the time but now a day later im freaking out like wtf have i done. what sparked this is that im doing a show with my towns local community theater (musicals and shit) in 2 day, its out side and it my job to get myself a costume, so just regular clothes from home but i got all these very noticeable cuts on my arm, so i was gonna were long sleeve for now but the show is gonna be outside and its gonna be fucking 90 out side so im fucking panicking, no one know except for reddit humans. a side note is i dont want to do it ever again if you care, like in the moment i didnt get much from it at the time and now im having anxiety attack about it, so now i just hate myself more than ever. Strong 0/10 just fucking dont. so yeah idk what to do, i think im just gonna tuff it out in my jacket. but more importantly idk what im gonna do, idk if they will fully heal or just parsley, i dont wanna wear long sleeve but also also i cant tell my parents im mom just fucking lost her dad and is wayyy over working her self.  also also also in a week were taking a trip down to Florida for 2 week so im worried about that ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. idk why im still typing im so fucking dumb holy shit. i want a hug and my weighted blanket isnt helping.