Ever since I can remember I’ve not had the best romantic relationships with women. I’ve sadly, no matter how hard I’ve tried, let a past one a decade back define me. I overthink with how to talk, what to do etc. if If I think like they’re bored I’ll just end it and never talk to them again, as I’ve got the rejection in my mind without giving them a chance. I overthink that I think it’s for the best. Over the last couple of days especially.  I’ve just been worrying I’m simply not good enough for anybody - that I’m destined to be alone. 

I apologies for the Mumbo jumbo - I’m never the best with words when I get like this. I just feel like I’m a nobody.