So I’m not asking to be diagnosed here but my therapist has brought up recently that I have “personality issues” but has not ever touched on it probably and I don’t know why. 

I guess I more just want to see if people relate to how I feel and what I’ve been through and see if it adds up because I just feel like I need some sort of explanation for why I am the way I am. So I have a lot of trauma in my life that I struggle to let go off, my mother has BPD and emotionally neglected me as a child and my dad was in jail then got a new partner and had a new family and pushed me out. I’ve had multiple suicide attempts in the past and some for attention and some for real , I used to get suicidal as a child to try and find ways to make my mother care for me (such as “if I jump infront of a car maybe my mum will give me the attention I want”). I become fixated on people and have ended up in hospital due to self inflicted injuries in the past because for things like I thought my boyfriend was breaking up with me (I’m not proud of these moments). I struggle with substance abuse (both parents are addicts) and suicidal thoughts weekly/daily. My emotions feel so much sometimes that the only way I feel I can stop them is by killing myself. There’s so much more too, like I’m on an amber alert with the police for running away and shit and have had times in the past of delusional phases like not sleeping for weeks believing that I will die in my sleep. I also change who I am to fit the people around and take on other peoples personalities. There’s so much and I just want some help but I’m too scared to bring this up incase I’m completely wrong. Does anyone relate to any of this??