Living with my mum at age 28 due to a nervous breakdown when my grandmother died. Also looking after my bed ridden grandfather who can barely say yes or no. I've been seeing a psychotherapist and really thought I was progressing and this morning I asked mum not to mention I'm on a diet to anyone and I know I said it nicely and I wasn't angry or anything and she just went off and told me I have been talking to her terribly and she doesn't even know what to do with me. I went nuclear and was like maybe we can't live together. I got my husband to come pick me up and left. I had a psych appointment in a few hours so I just cried. My husband messages my mum to tell her I tried to walk into traffic (I was just thinking about it and walking towards it I never tried) mum messaged my husband and said I have been acting like a teenager and she is too old for that. I went to my psych and he said that the type of fight happens a lot when somebody starts therapy and I was like "it happened on the Kardashians" while crying he calmed me down and I came home and now my mum is sulking and I really don't know if I'm a horrible person or not. I have been changing and becoming more independent. Becoming a bit bolder. I really thought I was doing better. Turns out I'm just a pain in the ass. I feel rejected and worthless. I want to hurt myself and drink or have some opiates but I know I can't let myself go down that road. This is a tldr but at least I vented.