I joined this community because my now ex boyfriend has BPD and I wanna understand and help him better. Last month I found out that he has been cheating on me for months. It was the second time he cheated but I loved him too much, I chose to forgive him. I thought he actually changed, turned out he just got better at hiding things. I am clinically diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder. My mental health has been deteriorating badly, and I just want to d*e. I'm having mental breakdowns everyday and nothing seems to help. I don't know what to do with my life right now.