TW: hallucinations, su*cide

Ever since i was little (like 5 or 6) i 
would get nightmares about someone stealing my most precious belongings, mainly cuddly toys and stuff because i was fucking 5. It got really bad to the point i would see things and i was absolutely terrified of the dark. Eventually i somehow learned to lucid dream, so i dreamt that i shoved the person who was stealing my stuff into a closet and stabbed him to death- 

I got over it and no longer saw things, but i started to feel like i was being watched. 

Around summer 2021, i tried to kms. After that i started to see things moving in my corridor, i would see strange bugs that werent there. Now its gotten worse, i see my door moving, people talking to me and i always feel like theres someone standing behind me.

Does anyone know whats going on?