I dont post here often so I'll keep this semi-short, just the story. 

So last night me and my ex-boyfriend were talking and I havnt been doing so hot lately, I feel tired. Like mentally tired. So I brought it up and he wanted to talk about it for once, 90% of the time he doesnt want to because of his anxiety.

So we got talking and talking, I felt like ending it there, so I considered overdosing on melatonin. He says he'll say 'anything' to get me to not do. And I ask him to say that he loves me. Instead of that he gives me a big speech and says Im gas lighting him, guilt tripping him, and abusing his trust for my own befit.

I feel like I should be mad at him for saying I would do any of that but I dont know anymore. I didnt intend to do any of the things he said and I just feel... terrible.