I am relatively fine, but I have my episodes and everything. I have trauma, which I can't seem to get over of... One day I think yay I'm over it and I'm fine now, and a few days later I'm crying in public thinking about it. And the symptoms of this illness sucks. My relationships are affected, my personal and professional life are affected. There are so many other factors to think about in life too. I just feel like I can never get to a point in life where others can. My friends seem to get along well with life, know what they want out of life, enjoy it; whereas I can't do any of it. It just hurts to know that I might never feel "normal" and that this is my normal. But this normal is shit. I don't want it. But honestly I don't even have much energy anymore to even work on it. Although I do try.