well i did it. finally took it a step too far and ruined it for good. now i’ll be the crazy ex girlfriend. my actions and the way i have behaved is so embarrassing. no wonder he fell out of love with me. it can’t be fixed. i can never be loved. i’m too much. i’m protective and clingy and fucking mean lately, i will die alone, and probably become homeless. this is a living fucking hell. i am so alone. i am not loved. if i was loved he would try to contact me and be kind again but i guess it’s time to accept i plagued yet another thing that was once beautiful in my life. i can’t wait to die. there are no words to express this pain. i will rot in my bed.