This is a FWB - I've been in for a whole 3 years. I'm feeling mixed emotions all over the place and don't know how to go about it. This happened on Tuesday, but I didn't look too much into it until today. I realized this morning that I was suppressing my emotions, so I wouldn't have to deal with it. Very unhealthy. So, now I'm dealing with them and I feel crushed by the fact that he didn't regard my feelings at all. He never told me how he felt or let alone end things.. just blocked me off everything.

But, it's not even that, it's everything that he said last week that is giving me mixed emotions. Last week, I messaged him after not talking in months and asked him "are you done with it?" Which I 100% would have been okay with! Then he said "no..never..I'd be crazy if I did" so... I told him "okay same, cause it's hard for me to cut you off" then he kept on asking me why non-stop.. then he said "just let me wife you" then I was "no lol" cause i'm not looking for a relationship and I know he isn't either... then I went on to say "I want things to stay the same between us." Okay, so I started feeling a lil insecure because in the past he sort of disrespected me and he begged to be back in my life again. So, I brought it up again .. he said "he's sorry" again and felt like I wasn't comfortable, so he said it was okay if I walked away... Then, I said "no.. I just overreact sometimes" then he was like "thats okay baby." We snap chatted throughout the week and met up Wednesday.

Best sex ever. He felt the same way too. So, halfway through it he said "wanna make a tape? this is so good" Then, I kept saying no. Then, he said you could keep it on your phone. I said no. Then, he was like "I can't believe you don't trust me.. after three years." Then, I thought about it because the one thing about him is he doesn't share nudes, talk about other girls, even talk about me to his friends - which I like. It's very low-key between us. So, we recorded and I told him I'll send him the last half of me riding him.

Now, I don't know if I was acting clingy in any way. But, that night I sent him half of it and he didn't respond until the next day when I knew he was online. Then, he said "I like how you cropped it haha" and I said "I didn't want my face in it lol.." A whole week goes by.. I message him on Tuesday and asked if he wanted to come over on Thursday.. he said "I will if you send me the video I've been thinking about.." I said "then don't come lol." I truly didn't care if he was gonna come or not. Then, the next day, I saw he blocked me off everything.

He's never done this to me... so I know we're done. But, I'm now wondering what I did or said? We always said from the start to let each other know when we're done... I even told him last week to tell me if he was over it... I feel like he didn't wanna tell me, so he wouldn't hurt me... but it hurts even more now... I know he wasn't in another relationship either or with another girl... why would someone give up good sex too lmaoo?