The fucked up part of depression is that most depressed people know what it takes to get better. I've been trying to do those things. 

I'm socialising more than ever, getting regular exercise, keeping busy with work, doing everything I can to keep my fucked up mind working so it can't tell me to kill myself. 

I've even downloaded dating apps to try and meet people (haven't set up the profiles because pictures of myself make me sick)

It doesn't help. I'm just as depressed now as I was when all I did was smoke weed and play video games. That time was probably better because at least I got some level of enjoyment out of life.