You ever feel like you’re just not good enough for anyone? 
I’m in a relationship with my boyfriend(28) for 8 years. Well I’ve been expressing to him how the relationship just feels like roommates and he doesn’t listen. Just thinks I’m starting an argument all the time. 
We work together 
And we drink with people at the shop. 
Well I got drunk one time and was upset and told someone how he said I need more independency but he could explain farther of what he meant. So I’m my head I’m constantly wondering what he means. I’ve backed off a lot. 
Well another day, my bosses friend asked why we were married, and of course me being annoyed, I said he said “I need more independency” and he asked what that meant and I said I’m not sure he couldn’t tell me. So he gave me advice saying how I’m too pretty to be unhappy in this relationship and how I’m still young (27).
Well there’s not much I can do right now because I built his life and not mine. And I have to start over. So I’m currently in the progress of looking for a new job and paying down $7k of credit cards. 
Well yesterday I sat down with my boss, my bosses friend, bf, and another coworker. Well I got a 2nd beer and my boss said “I don’t want you getting too drunk” or something along those lines. And it just made me feel like shit. Like I can’t express my feelings to people, even when my bosses friend asked why we’re not married. 
I could have just said something else but he tells other people “how much of a c*** I am”because I wouldn’t let him drink and drive to get his young brother. 
I don’t have much family. Just sisters I talk to, but they don’t listen to me. And I only have one good friend that hears me complain all the time (recently, I’ve never been like that for our 22 year friendship) 
No one listens to me really and it feels like I’m just not good enough for anything. 
And I don’t know how to fix it. Do I start a new life? But I don’t have enough money to move out and I need a bettter job which will take time. But it’s scary being on your own. 
Does anyone have suggestion on how to feel better? How to feel like I matter? 

Thanks so much for reading.