 Ive allowed myself to be consumed by my anxiety and depression due t losing friends after finally feeling accepted. Ive lost friends in the past and have developed unhealthy coping mechanisms of codependency (seeking outside reassurance) that I am working on.  


When I am *myself* (the version of me not consumed by anxiety) I am generally silly and upbeat, ive been able to turn my "social awkwardness" into humor and charisma which allows me to talk to people easily. I was able to get closer and make new friends by just being myself, and I wasnt overthinking anything about what I say or how people see me, I was happy to just enjoy the time with them.  


Recently ive been stuck in overthinking spirals which makes it difficult for people to want to be around me. Talking about issues with friends occasionally or even more often small issues that are just moved on from is healthy to feel supported, but I overthink and make it a focus of every conversation I have.   


Though my friends want to support me, not fix my problems, and still want to hangout/talk, I know its exhausting for them and myself for me to be this kind of person to be around. They are less inclined to talk to me as often, and I dont blame them at all for this, they do tell me they care often but its hard for them when I overthink too much.   


How can I talk to my friends when lately ive been stuck only talking about my issues? What kinds of things can I say to change the conversation or start conversations as fun chat/banter if they have an expectation that I will be down/anxious?