Hey guys. 

For this past month (and the next 5) im studying in another country and it has been a really amazing experience. Ive done a lot of new things, met a lot of new people and I now have a group of friends (weird and new for me, for sure).

The problem is: my mental health is getting shittier everyday in here. Ive been having panic and anxiety attacks often, ive been really doubting my worth in the world and my self esteem is basically inexistent at this point.

I dont have a room to myself in here, so my mental shit always leads me to cry in the street at night, but its like 2 degrees now and it will only get colder. All this new group of friends (who i constantly doubt even like me) think im crazy because basically all of them have seen me mid-crisis crying over basically nothing.

I dont want to go home and I really like it here, the experience has been great. But my fucking brain putting me down everyday is so bad and i dont know how it will be in 5 more months, it sucks