I'm in a really bad state of mind right now. I can't stop thinking about suicide and suppressing my feelings. It seems like there is no future. It seems like the only thing I can do is to suppress my feelings for a certain time but that's only temporary. Please. I just need a hug. I just need someone to reassure me and to tell me it's going to be okay. I don't know what to do. I want to go to a psychiatrist, but I'm too scared to do so. I'm afraid of being exposed about my feelings. I talked about it to my parents, but it feels like I can't open up to them completely. After I told him about my feeling my dad started debating me. He was telling me that there's no need to feel that and that my fear of being weak because of seeking help doesn't make sense. I just wanted someone to listen to me, but he started a fucking debate. Please. I just want help. I just need someone to support me. I can't stay strong any longer. I can't keep it on the inside any more. I seems like I can't open up to anyone. Please. I can't do this any more. It can't go on like that. It's unbearable. It's really horrifying. I now have a fever because of my depression. I feels like I'm dying. I'm just so afraid. So alone. Please. I'm so afraid of death because of my fever