I feel like I often forget how immature I am for my age. Perhaps it's because my dad died when I was 13 and I never matured and got hit hard with depression, anxiety and dissociation/numbness.

I just hate how much I joke all the time and act nervous.. it's as if I just chilled out my depression would surface and I'd want to not joke or talk much at all with others.

Anyone else struggle to know if their being mature enough for their age, if they are using humor as avoidance or legit life affirming reasons, ect.