I have been fearing I have schizophrenia. I have a family history of mental disorders.

I noticed a lot lately that whenever I talk to friends, I would often blank out mid sentence because I have a lot of things in mind. I also switch topics very often, as noticed by one of my friends, because I wanna discuss everything at the same time.

These arise a lot whenever I have anxiety. I fear it's disorganized speech/thought. When I was calm, though, like last night, I noticed that that rarely happened.

This fear is shit.