I work in a high pressure field (fundraising) and it's not one I really ever sought out. I'm a writer by profession and my background is as a sports journalist. 

I've been at my job for more than five years and have met with a lot of success (more than $100 million raised on proposals I wrote) but I still don't feel at home in the job. 

It's a corporate environment and I'm just not a corporate type. I'm more creative and I find sometimes the pointless made up pressure, the environment and everything else anxiety inducing. My bosses are great but the wider environment of where I work is harsh, heavy on criticism and light on praise even though our office does the bulk of the work to convince donors to make major gifts. 

I have a thicker skin than most but I'm just starting to really resent feeling anxious about work all the time. The problem is it's a union job and it pays well and they've let me work remotely. I'm the sole breadwinner in the family and I'm not even sure if, even if I did leave this job, whether I'd want to stay in this field. But very few writing jobs pay as well. 

I realize this comes off as whiny as most people are in far worse positions but I'm also writing this to say that work anxiety can strike even when you're in an "ideal job." I've been struggling a lot lately and wonder if anyone has any advice?  I just feel trapped. I have this sick fear of authority and this need to please people I don't even like very much.