Im not excessively sad, but I dont like my life and dont feel like doing anything, i feel disconnected from my friends and indifferent although we had great connection, I have an internship in the company I always wanted and dont enjoy it, I feel like nobodyy gets me, that I will never be enough and that there will be always something missing in my life, my sleep is disturbed, my apppetite was low but is recovering already, so Im feeling like this is nothing serious and I just have a bad attitude about life, because I know how negative and distorted my thoughts are but I just dont feel motivated to do something about it, happiness seems unappealing, talking to someone about it feels pointless too, like in the end its not a big deal and I will get on with it, but still I wont be happy or if Im happy I still dont feel my life is enough, Im turning in circles and cant stop thinking about the past, but I dont feel like talking to a therapist either cause I feel so uncared for and like my struggles will be minimized. I have so much inner conflict and I dont know what the problem is, and I try holdin on to my routines and all tht stuff but i dont feel its fixing the problem