Diagnosed depression/anxiety, autism, possible ADHD.

I was making good money working abroad for the last 5 years, fancy restaurants, hotels etc... yet I never developed a life outside of work... My holiday periods were spent passing the time with caffeine &amp; mind numbing games on my phone. Yet I felt validated with the money I was saving which I believed would change my life.

I told myself I'd take a one year world trip and find a more fulfilling/balanced lifestyle - I took that trip, but nothing changed. Turned down a lot of prospective partners as just wasn't feeling it, my emotions are often muted. Ended several relationships around the 18 month mark in my 20s as I end up losing feelings for my partner

Due to lack of motivation I can't see myself returning to work &amp; I burn out fast. Various antideps haven't helped, one triggered a seizure, ADHD stimulants make me anxious.

And honestly? Even if you gave me a magic pill and I felt 100% tomorrow I still don't know what I'd do with myself.

What can I do?