Yesterday, I went to the store where she happens to work. I went down a random aisle, not expecting to see her, but there she was. She sighed heavily when she saw me and didn't do anything else. Since then, I've been dying to know what was going through her head, and if she hates me or has forgiven me or not (which I doubt.)  


What made her bounce happened two years ago. I was extremely suicidal and emotionally unstable after I broke up with my then-GF. She saw this as me being manipulative because I threatened to do something drastic multiple times. She then sent me a Google Doc telling me all the things I did wrong/to hurt her. I don't remember much of it, because she was very angry. But what I do remember is that she was mad at me for venting to her about my ex, even though she never told me to stop talking to her about that.   


I have tried to contact her with only months of time going by in between attempts but to no avail. I talked to my friend about this and he told me that I shouldn't contact her at all and give her the space that she needs and that she will talk to me again when or if she's ready.  I fear that she may never be ready, even though I desperately need closure. It's been almost 3 years and my dumbass is still not over it. I need all the advice haha.