... well because you know, one day you feel powerfull, motivated, ready to move some mountains if needed, and the next day it's the rock bottom, i feel dumb af, demotivated and all. 

so i keep the same job for &gt;10 years because i'm afraid of quiting or having a new job with new challenge, meet new people, or be the weird one in the company.

it's too stressfull and i will lose sleep for months. which would make me more dumb, awkward and weird, and so on...