I feel lost. My ex is my fp, and we’re pretty close. Unless we’re arguing, not a day goes by where we don’t text or at the very least send each other videos on TikTok. The thing is, she’s married. I know, it’s not great. They were separated when she and I got together, but after our very messy break up she ended up going back to him. We stopped talking for three months, but then we reconnected, and things have been complicated since. 

She says she doesn’t have feelings for me anymore, but because of all the fucked up shit I did, we have many things we need to work through. As a result, we often get into long, drawn-out fights or have these intimate conversations, and it’s so confusing to me. 

It makes me feel like we’re back in a relationship. She knows I still have some feelings for her, and it feels like she’s keeping me on the back burner. Part of me knows it’s not healthy, but the thought of cutting ties hurts so much. I’m not sure how to handle this or set boundaries, especially when I’m not entirely over her. I’m sorry if this is incoherent. My mind is all over the place. I’d love to hear if anyone has been in a similar position.