Ok so I don't really know how to word this but I will try my best. just want to know if anyone can relate to this.
Ok so before I was medicated my thoughts were non stop. I never thought anything bad about it I just  talked to my self a lot and the voice in my head just sounded like my own thoughts so it seemed normal.
Now that I'm medicated I can now see that everything I did wasn't normal let me list a few 

1whenever my ears were covered or I was listening to music I would here my name being called mainly from my wife ( ex now ) or my mom 

2I drew a face on my hand almost everyday so I could speak to it like I  made a face for the voice in my head 

3 this one's a hard one you can let me know if this is just me and not delusion so my voice hated my wife made fun of her non stop and bad mouth her and I would imagine hurting her and stuff ( we fought a lot some times and  we pushed each other around it was bad don't feel like going into it ) but I would regret these thoughts and actions almost immediately and the thought just didn't sound like me 


So can anyone relate hehe
Feel free to ask any questions