Suicidal thoughts are often linked to depression, but I get them just as often when I’m manic.

When I’m manic, the thoughts take on a sly almost ‘snake oil salesman’ lime edge. (Trigger warning going forward)

They sound like;

“Hey baby girl, you’ve been wanting to die for awhile. We’re not depressed now and we can do anything! Let’s follow that dream. This world is too shit for your beautiful soul. Life sucks. Everything sucks. Let’s just see what’s beyond death. We can do anything we like, including this. Let’s leave.”

It’s shit lie that that ends me up in a psych ward. It’s this fast talking smooth suicidal demon that goads me into suicide attempts.

No one ever talks about suicidal thoughts like that. Am I alone on this?