Hi all, I thought I would post here as I’m at my wits end and I’m wondering if anyone can relate. I’ve managed to hold down a full time job for the past 3 years and proud because I had major issues holding down jobs previously. My job is stressful and I’m constantly overwhelmed and anxious due to the amount of workload and lack of support.

I feel like the overwhelm has increasingly worsened since COVID due to the fact that I am overwhelmed with other non-work related issues and my BPD has been a lot worse lately due to everything that’s going on.

I was planning on either finding a new job and/or possibly go to University next year as a mature age student, so this most likely isn’t my “forever job/career”, however in the mean time I have to stick it out at my current job due to the global situation.

My anger issues has been really bad lately due to the fact that I’ve been becoming really stressed, overwhelmed and as a result very angry. I’ve been throwing, kicking and punching things in my room (currently working from home), yelling out of frustration, taking it out of my partner verbally, wanting to self harm e.g. huge urge to smash my head against something), I’ve even punched my work laptop and thought I broke it (luckily I didn’t break it).

I’m wondering if anyone can relate to intense feelings of rage due to work related anxiety/stress/overwhelm. 

Asking for help at work is not something that’s possible right now, too long of a story to tell on here but in terms of workload I mostly have to suck it up.

Any insights would be appreciated.