I went back to college and I was having a decent time. I was learning some old-new things about computers and programming and was really digging it. Now suddenly I'm just laying in bed, getting anxious about the 8 assignments I have due, I feel like I suddenly can't focus on anything. I write down the notes, commands, shortcuts but when it comes time to put them into practice, I just can't make sense of it. It's my second time through the wringer and I couldn't even make it past 6 months, how'd I make it past two years The first time? 

I know I'm gonna fail another class and it just feels like I'm not meant to be here if I can't even remember a few lines of words I'm suppose to be using every time I start an assignment. I'm finding more joy and sense of completion with my side hobby but I know that's not an option. I don't have an extra $2000 to shell out for equipment on something that might make me a few bucks. I just feel like giving up again.