just to be honest; i suck at texting. i am a bad texter. 

i haven’t had friends in so long, nor have i met people who enjoy texting as much as i do. when this pandemic hit, my social anxiety hit rock bottom. i found myself wanting to stray away from people. i became more &amp; more socially anxious in general &amp; really dry with texting. 

after the pandemic has kind of cleared up, i’ve used this opportunity to go out &amp; be more social again. i’ve tried making new friends &amp; it’s hard to click with people. maybe it’s cause i’ve gotten used to years of loneliness, but whenever i find someone fun to hang/text with, i find myself drifting away. sometimes i’ll take hours or days to text people back. and i know that’s when people start to lose interest in maintaining contact. i guess i’m like a low maintenance friend? i honestly don’t mean to do this to people. i know partially it’s because i get easily distracted and/or overwhelmed. 

but i’m really trying to be more engaging so that i can step out of my comfort zone &amp; build friendships but i can’t snap out of this text-lagging phase. this is so conflicting when i’m trying to make friends. advice please.