I’ve been seeing a therapist for the last month and today she told me that she’s 100% sure that I’m bipolar. 

I know they’re different forms of bipolar disorder but my symptoms don’t seem to match up. For the last 10 years or so, I’ve suffered from excessive daytime sleepiness. I now realize that that was depression. Then in February of this year, I started feeling worse. Some days, I struggled to get out of bed. Things just felt overwhelming which is odd for me because I’ve been running through walls (in a good way) my whole life.

Frustrated with the continued symptoms—mainly being sleepy and having heavy, sometimes almost disorienting brain fog, I did seven infusions of ketamine. That didn’t help at all, really. I felt decent one or two days. Meaning the symptoms resolved. Then about 10 days after my seventh infusion, I started feeling even worse: can’t sleep, can’t focus, maybe worse brain fog, heavy disassociation, etc. But then anxiety started and I can’t sleep without alcohol and my brain is now mush from the fragmented sleep.

My self-diagnosis is complex PTSD—my ACE score is very high and after one of ketamine infusions a significant childhood trauma I hadn’t thought about in years came up and I cried uncontrollably for 30 mins. As I continue to read more about complex PTSD, I’m certain that I have it though I guess that doesn’t mean that I’m not bipolar. I’ve been reading different threads here trying to get a sense of how symptoms manifest differently for different people and very little of what I read resonates/seems familiar to me but I’m also keenly aware that I’m avoiding a bipolar diagnosis and am biased in that way. 

Are there any hallmarks or indicators that I can look for? Note, I’ve seen several therapists over the years (seeing two now) and she’s the first person to ever suggest this. Well I’d prefer not to have the disorder, obviously if I have it I have it and I need to be put on the right medications, so. Thanks in advance for any help or insight.

tl/dr: how can I tell whether or not I’m bipolar?