hi all! i've been seeing a therapist since fall 2020 for depression and anxiety. during the course of this treatment, i also had an appointment with my primary care doctor in which i was prescribed antidepressants. recently i've been feeling like my sessions with this therapist are just a bit lacking for several reasons – for one, it's virtual therapy, over Zoom, and i don't have anywhere entirely private to do it (college student still living at home), so it's hard for me to open up completely about some things for fear that someone else in the house might be able to hear me. i know several counseling centers in my area have started offering in person sessions again, and that's what i really want, but this therapist doesn't offer that at this time. 

for another, i just don't think that their approach is working that well for me. we spend a lot of time in my sessions digging into the "why" of my mental illnesses, and i leave the sessions feeling like i know myself a little better, but then i go out and live my life and realize i have no tools to actually cope with the symptoms of my mental illnesses. 

finally, i've been wondering lately if i have something else going on besides anxiety and depression. i'm studying psychology in school and honestly the more i learn about borderline personality disorder, the more i feel like it makes sense for me. however, my current therapist seemed hesitant even to label my depression and anxiety as such officially, and i don't feel super optimistic about exploring this new possibility with her, especially if it's just going to result in even more digging into the "why" when what i really want/need is tools. 

anyone have any insight for this situation? right now i'm considering 1) finding a new, in-person therapist on my own, and just letting my current therapist know in our next session that i've decided to move on, or 2) basically explaining all of the above to my current therapist and seeing what she recommends.