It's the worst part bc I know what *not* being severely depressed feels like. Even when I'm not depressed I am always worrying about being depressed.

The world feels a bit more dull. Music is less enjoyable. Shows are less entertaining. Food is less appetizing. I nap more. I cry more. I isolate more. Friends are more irritating. Life seems more pointless. 

It's frustrating because I know what triggered this episode, that is, failed friendships &amp; romantic relationships, and that made me isolate. Isolating worsens/triggers my depression. But then even having out with friends again doesn't pull me out of it, it just makes me annoyed. :(