I have been really struggling. I am super anxious all the time. Intrusive thoughts, panic attacks, disassociating, etc. I'm in a relationship and it's really good but its a triggering source for me. As are social situations, thinking of the past too long, and literally everything. I have been struggling with feeling like I don't belong anywhere. Like I'm not good enough for any friend circle and no one wants to be around me. It's been very lonely. I convince myself that everyone hates me and no one deserves to be around me. 

To combat this I've started thinking about making new friends and relying more on myself for happiness. I'm trying to discover who I am. I feel like I've tried so hard to be what people want me to be or what I think they want and it's gotten me nowhere in feeling more secure. So I guess my question is, how tf do I find out more about who I am and what I like? I don't want to build a whole new life but I want to focus more on myself and I simply don't know how. Can anyone else relate to this? Or have any suggestions for what I could try?