I'm just distracted for a bit and then when I get to rest I feel sad. Every single day for over a decade. My life is great, yet I'm dead inside and I don't know why. Every once in awhile I can't take it anymore and get extremely frustrated and beat myself just to get it out. Nothing helps. Not pills. Not therapy. Not friendships. Not family. I don't get it. I cry for no reason. I guess the only good feeling I get is seeing other people happy, but I also end up getting envious of the fact that I rarely feel it, and that my baseline is to be sad.

Anyways here's one to the void.