Not often I post here, just looking for some comfort from some strangers. I feel unable to share how bad the week has been with the people in my life.

In the past week: 

I've been assaulted (which in turn has triggered my trauma-related nightmares). 

I've self-harmed (for the first time in a couple of years).

I got observed and didn't receive the best feedback.

I got a cold. 

I've felt so crushingly alone; I live with my ex (long story), my best friend is in Canada, and I feel too needy to ask for more attention from other people in my life.

I've been contacted by another ex several times to be told how terrible he's doing.

I've eaten like utter shit and not taken care of myself enough. My room is a mess.

I have good things in my life, I have no questions about that, and I'm immensely grateful for them. But I feel so overwhelmed by the bad at the moment, and I feel like I have nowhere to go and nothing to do about it, trapped in this pit. I just want to feel okay.