I have had near constant anxiety for 5-6 years, it's ruined almost all my personal relationships, to the extent that the only ones I have left is people that feel they "can't" leave me, like it'd be immoral or something, such as my dad. Now, that could be my anxiety telling me that, but I really don't offer anything of value to anyone outside of unwavering loyalty.

But to the point, over the past 18 months my mental health has been up and down, some days I feel like I'm back at rock bottom and other days I can hold a conversation with a stranger with only severe sweats (ie no panic attack). But even on days when I feel like I have no reason to be anxious, when I feel like I've done everything to not be anxious, I can still consciously feel my heart pounding every second, this physical symptom just never goes away. 

It could be for a plethora of reasons because I'm not particularly healthy, I'm drastically underweight, I don't exercise enough and I smoke, so now I think making this post at all is ridiculous. But really I'm just wondering if anyone else experiences these constant physical symptoms even when they don't necessarily feel anxious within their mind? Like even when I'm not anxious, my heart will ensure that I am aware that I have severe anxiety and it will hinder me every day, regardless of what I do.

Tl;dr: Anyone else always feel their heart beating out of their chest even when they shouldn't be anxious/don't feel anxious in their mind?