Hello, this is my first time posting here and I am seeking advice from other with BPD. I have recently been diagnosed with cyclothymia or Bipolar III, but I am also concerned that I also fall under criteria for BPD.

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I understand that BD and BPD have a LOT of overlapping symptoms, for many months I have done lots of research on both of the topics and came with that research to my therapist. After some back and forth, even arguments about it, I was put on mood stabilizers after anti depressants didn't work. After that I had been diagnosed with cyclothymia.

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However, I have always related to symptoms of BPD, obsessiveness, jealously, idolizing friends/partners, and then completely hating them or feeling they completely hate me. Snapping at others has made my friendships and relationships very very rocky. I get so sick to my stomach when I see my friends hang out with others, I am described by some friends as possessive.

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These feelings though I know are not logical, I feel as though all of my feelings are extra, always MORE than I see others react. I don't really feel in control. Of course, the BD plays into that, but on top of it it's the extreme anger, extreme love, and extreme disgust of others. Narcissism and then complete self-loathing and hatred. It makes me feel like a monster. It makes me feel like nobody should be my friend or partner cause I always hurt them or just hurt myself.

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I have also done research in that BPD in cyclothymia patients aren't too uncommon. When I tell my therapist about these feelings, about the hatred of my friends and impulsivity to just cut them all off and isolate myself, he just brushes it off, that sometimes people are just assholes. It didn't make me feel very good.

tldr; diagnosed with BDIII, symptoms of BPD aswell, need advice

I am here asking for advice for others who have been diagnosed, what are your experiences and what do you think about this? Thank you!