So I'm pretty new to this knowledge of what is probably going on, I'll be going in for my official assessment and diagnosis next week. I'm sorry if this is a frequent question.

I'm afraid of him leaving but at the same time my husband doesn't fulfill my needs sexuality. I crave attention in this regard and he has a very low libido (also absolutely no kink or roleplay) which makes me feel like he doesn't like me as much as I do him. 

To substitute this We've talked a lot about the possibility of getting a sexual partner on the side. Currently I'm allowed to send out photographs and accept them as well as do some further talk with people I used to know. 

Half the time I feel like this is a great idea! The other half I feel like he's trying to get me to do something "wrong" so he'll have an excuse to break up with me. 

The worst part is I am incredibly jealous about his friendship with another female. She's a really nice girl and I have no reason to think that it's anything more but I feel like he's getting his emotional needs met by her and not me. I don't know how to deal with this hypocrisy. 

How do you cope? How does your partner deal with your sexuality? How do I be a bit more empathetic to the way he might feel about this?

TL;dr: I'm a horndog, husband is not. I get satisfaction from other people, with his permission, but don't want him to leave me. How do you and your partner deal with sex stuff? 