Lmao, so basically let me break it down. Like I said, this will be long and kinda ranty.

- Got my old job back
- Got another bank account after screwing Chase over
- Started hanging out with my best friend almost daily
- Started hating my hellfire self thanks to BPD
- Questioned my BPD diagnosis 
- Kinda narcissistic now too 
- Started drinking alcohol way more than I should at 19
- Relapsed horribly 
- Hooked up with someone last night and my hellfire brain is freaking the fuck out how do people with BPD just hook up with someone and not want to say "I love you" all the time??? 
- Dyed my hair pink and gray 
- Stopped talking to Ex FP 
- Started vaping again
- Made some new friends

My life has been eventful the last fucking 23 days and I don't know what the fuck to do? The thing that's fucking me up the most is the hook up because MY ASS wants to just like... date him now which I know will change soon but everytime I do something sexual with someone my brain just says YOU LOVE THEM!!

Bleh lmfao I hate myself so much but it's gucci lmao I want to achieve death someone please help me