but stopping my amphetamine medication (add) has me spinning in circles doing nothing. I can't take stimulants, I feel too good and I can forecast the long-term future with how I abuse them. There is no way I will live past my mid 30's if I were to continue. Which means accepting the symptoms, much of which are depression, anxiety, and insane OCD. Sometimes I feel like maybe I should just go out on a limb and take speed until its cardio toxicity finally gets to me.. I just have health anxiety so those heavy duty med scare me.