Seeing a new guy and when I’m with him it’s nice for about an hour before I feel like I want him to leave but then when he’s gone I just want him to come back. It’s such a bittersweet feeling of I feel lonely when he’s gone but want him gone when he’s with me?

This also brings me on to the fact that I can blank his messages when I’m busy but when he blanks me when he’s busy my heart feels heavy and I feel that sinking sad feeling when I’m not even sure I like him? 

I don’t want to play with his feelings but even I don’t know what I want so how do you even figure it out when your brain is so split. :/ 

I just keep pushing away but secretly wanting him next to me I suppose