Hi, this may or may not be long. I apologize in advance if it is… 
I’m exhausted. In every way possible. I work in mental health as a peer support person… (ironic huh?) my job is the only thing that gives me fulfillment. Here recently my work will not let me take off to take care of my teeth (lots of pain), get controlled substances refilled at my doctors, or even see my therapist. My manager told me to “ration” my medicine. At home, I am not in a happy place. We bought a new home, but my fiancé is a recovering addict and he’s struggling. I’ve tried in every way possible to help him stay on track but when he doesn’t see the issues, he doesn’t feel he needs to change any behaviors. This alone is exhausting. Our relationship is horrible… trust gone, no intimacy, no romance, nothing. My dad was diagnosed with stage 3 stomach cancer and he’s in Mexico (I’m in the US). I got to see him for 9 days in March, but it basically killed me with guilt to leave his side. My mom is a double amputee who likes to guilt trip me because I am not home a lot and can’t invite her over to our house. (Because I’m not there). My work has put more responsibility and less time to do them. I’m so overwhelmed. I’m so tired my eyes burn. I can’t eat anything because of my teeth. My head is full of horrible thoughts.. they won’t stop. It’s like a mouse constantly going on those spin wheels… and I usually sleep.. but I can’t sleep now, and I feel like the walls are closing in, and I have no where left to go… I’m so tired…