I've had severe depression for years and i tried my hardest to overcome it with willpower and motivation alone. but whenever i tried it always failed and it always something outside of my control. 

**I saw something that i dont want to see. i heard something that i dont want to hear. i accidently did something that make my depression worse**

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I feel like someone/something cursed me. 

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i tried to take a note and reflect to it so i'm not making the same mistake again and tried for numerous times of trying to get out of my depression but something keep brought me in into my depress state. and without me noticing i became a highly sensitive person where i got hurt almost by anything.