
So I have bipolar 1 disorder &amp; BPD &amp; in the moment I needed affection BAD so I invited a guy over that I’ve been talking too online &amp; the condom wouldn’t fit his penis and in the moment me being so horny and hyper I felt like I needed to feel SOMETHING so I allowed him to attempt to put his dick head in me without the condom but luckily my vagina was so tense &amp; clenched up &amp; it DIDNT fit in me so there was NO penetration but definitely unprotected genital contact now I’m replaying this stupid event in my brain having panic attacks because of it , beating myself up , binge drinking to forget the stupid choice I made with a stranger and I’m scared shitless that I could be pregnant even tho I took a plan B pill the day after it happened I’m still in pure panic!! Anyone think I have much to worry about when it comes to pregnancy?? How can I stop hating myself for what I did ?