i realized some time ago that my life was just too painful, and i'd rather be dead. but my parents have basically compromised everything they wanted and deserved in life, just to take care of my less-than-grateful self... I might be a total piece of shit, but they don't deserve to feel like they failed as my parents. so i always figured suicide could wait until both my parents had passed on. 

some days are harder than others, tho

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