sorry in advance if im unloading a bit or it seems like a mess, i keep alot of things to myself because i don’t want to burden anyone

ive always been a paranoid person and ive had adhd my entire life, when i was a kid i never knew i had adhd or anything. my mom was really insistent that nothing was wrong with me and i was a kid making shit up. obviously she was wrong because i got diagnosed with adhd at 16 even though i know for a fact ive been this was since as long as i can remember. 

anyways ive never thought of myself as someone with anxiety but over the last few months ive been taking on more responsibility and initiative in my life and this last few weeks ive had a really bad feeling that im gonna forget one thing and completely mess up my life. ive been triple checking everything i do and I STILL manage to forget something. i forget a step and my job and my boss grilled me and i cant stop thinking about it even on my day off. today while driving i thought i was gonna die the whole time. 

sorry if this is dumping too much i just dont know what to do