F 20 I’ve been struggling with depression ( MDD ) for the past 10 years and now anxiety for the past 7 months... to keep it short it has been a very hard year and my sister got mad at me because my anxiety was coming back and she just had a baby and was like “ you’re lazy and u keep talking about ur mental health but I just had a baby and ur a fucked up person cuz u only care about yourself “ and it’s not that at all it’s just my depression is getting worse and little does she know I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and battling not kms every single day yet I’m scared of dying too. Then my ex told me to go kms and nobody would miss me and other hurtful things and it just hurts because I feel alone and like I have nobody who cares about me or loves me and I feel like I’d be better off if I wasn’t alive because then people would be happy and I feel like I make people suffer and like I’m a burden because of my depression and mental health. My sister also told me I should be locked away in an asylum because I’m crazy when all I said was that I needed a day to myself because I was babysitting non stop for her for the past month and she wouldn’t let me go home at all although I don’t live with her