I watched a video about crimals and sometimes malingering (faking) a mental illness (generally psychosis) to a therapist, doctor, judge, etc. It got me thinking, but can you malinger to yourself in private?  I feel like I subconsciously when I'm by myself. I never tell anyone I'm having this or feeling any types of symptoms. I noticed if I read about an illness or hear about it, I "adopt" all of the symptoms including hearing and seeing thing (obviously not the only symptoms). It's so weird and I hate it