So 6 months ago my ex broke up with me because she needed to work on her own mental health and didn't want me to feel that she was too distant. And that when she was better she would reach out and we could talk again 

I checked up on her through her mum every weekend and she finally said I could reach out yesterday. 

So today I posted a card to her and it arrives at the latest in 6 days. Hopefully we can talk again and I didn't just lose my FP and ex for ever.
 
Problem is I'm going to be crazy nervous up until she replies and I don't know how I'm going to cope with that, I see my psychologist tommorow