I hate needing so much reassurance, even if he told me he loves me this morning by the afternoon my brain is like "yeah but its been a few hours, he probably doesn't love you by now" and I start getting extremely anxious and anticipating him abandoning me like every day, I wish I could just allow myself to be happy because he does make me happy and I love him so much but I almost feel like the happier I am the more I need to be like on guard because it'll just be that much worse when he abandons me