my mental health has been at an all time low recently and being without a car in an area without accessible public transportation is killing me. i cant afford a car, busses don’t get me everywhere i need to go, theres NO bike infrastructure in place (and the roads are so busy and full of reckless drivers that i don’t entirely feel safe biking on them) and its eating away at my will to live. i can't even buy groceries without needing someone else to take pity on me and haul my ass over there. let alone having any sort of social life, i lost all my friends since i had to move towns due to personal reasons, none of their parents want their (adult) kids (who still live at home) coming to visit because i live in a high crime area, and i don’t have a car to go meet anyone places. my apartment is just a glorified prison. it's gotten to the point where i dread my days off from work, all i do is sit in bed all day doom-scrolling through social media and crying. all i live for nowadays is work because i have nothing else going for me in my life. if this is what life is supposed to be, i'm starting to think i don't want to live like this anymore... it's all just too much :(