Sorry for the upcoming word-vomit
So my girlfriend and I have been together for 1 year, and the past couple of months have been emotionally turbulent for me. So in my state of unease I compulsively ask for reassurence on the daily even multiple times a day, The reassurence will be a script of "I won't betray you. I love you, I need you, You are the most important person to me, I want to spend my life with you, No one else, I'll respect your boundries" the problem is I still fear that those feelings and beliefs will change and that scares me so much. Like I need her to want to be with me more than others. Then every day it seems like I forget that thats how she feels and I need it all over again cuz I convince myself that somethings changed in the past couple of hours. I think that I'm fairly paranoided because for example I get paranoid when she's not responding or falls asleep later than me because shes texting other guys or something like that. I know that's completely irrational but its so hard to fight those thoughts because they just illicit such intense emotions. How do y'all deal with this type of stuff?