Please be compassionate if you respond with advice. I guess I just need a place to admit what I am doing. I lost my job May 1st due to coronavirus. I am extremely isolated and have little to occupy my time. Around the same time I got back together with my on again off again guy, we are both 37 and I am a female. He ended things again. I started texting him from a bunch of different numbers from a texting app. Sending him angry texts about him constantly being in dating sites when we were together, then begging him to come back, then sending him unsolicited nudes with really explicit sexting. He has sporadically answered, told me I look great, etc. then two days ago I asked to see him and he told me that I am harassing him and he wants nothing from me and he is afraid of me and worried about me. He said he wants me to take care of myself and that I need to stop. I’m realizing how long I have been doing this stuff to him (I showed up at his house unannounced once time he broke up with me and we had sex). Anyway, usually when I engage in this kind of harassing and stalking he ends up sleeping with me again but I’m realizing now that I am abusive and scaring him. Can anyone identify with this or help me in any way? I feel like a sexual predator and and deeply ashamed.