Everything is going down hill and I’m hearing a constant scream in my mind, coming from all the agony. I keep lashing out towards my bf and I feel so much anger towards him, but it is only because I am feeling so vulnerable, insecure and unsafe right now. When he says or does something that upsets me I react agitated. And then he gets angry with me, which makes me feel even more rejected.
I try to open up to friends but I don’t manage to take of my mask, I’m telling them about my struggles as if I’m talking about someone else and it makes me feel even more lonely.
It is so frightening to see your life slip through your fingers, and it feels like there is nothing you can do.

I could really use some kinds words right now from people who can relate.