I need some support / back up. 

Coffee and caffeine period kill me in the anxiety department. I stay away from it for long periods of time and feel great. Then I get back on the habit and feel terrible but for some reason I can't stop.

My boyfriend got a keurig and I have been having maybe half a cup a morning and it gives me a little boost, but then sinks in as impending doom. I feel overwhelmed. Frantic and panicked. Today I had a really bad headache from trying to not drink coffee and I took an excedrin migraine with caffeine. I thought it ll be a little dose of caffeine enough to make me feel better but not mess me up. Wrong. Intense anxiety and impending doom! My limbs were shaking. On top of all this my stomach is a mess. 

The thing is....I know how good I feel off caffeine..my stomach issues go away completely. I still have anxiety but not these intense episodes. My moods are more consistent. Stable. 

Tomorrow is the day I am resolving no matter what to not have a cup of coffee or caffeine period. I need a little support / motivation. Also does anyone else have this experience with caffeine/ coffee? And anxiety? Or even the cycle of stopping caffeine and then going back?

Thanks guys.