I'm on daily 30mg Paroxetine for about 7 months now and Lorazepam to take as needed when I'm having panic attacks. Paroxetine does work for me in stabilizing my mood and anxiety in general. I don't have daily panic attacks anymore but I still get them every 2 weeks or so. When I think about my whole situation I feel hopeless when I come to the conclusion that anxiety is part of me and is something I can't part with. My psychiatrist says it could just be genetics. Medications do help, but that doesn't mean I won't ever feel anxious if I take them. The fact that I need a benzo to calm down during a panic attack means I'll be dealing with numerous panic attacks in the future, and I hate the thought of that. I'm too afraid to ask anyone I know about this question because I don't want them to worry about me being suicidal, but I'm also afraid of the answer to be honest. But I know the thoughts will eat me alive if I don't get an answer to it. Any thoughts are appreciated.