I am unsure how many of you hear from people, "it takes a special and patient person to get you," or, "you make me exhausted."

With me anyways, and probably with you all, people LOVE us at first. But as they get to know us, we do something- too intense- that pushes them away when we are excited and do not mean too.  I have been analogized to "cocaine" "fun and great at first- with a crash ending".

If you are borderline like me and found at least one person who "gets you" and is "patient"- try your best not to push them- because it is a rarity. I feel like for us, those people become our FP. If you can hold down a FP relationship and make it healthy- you are doing great.

But the question remains- how do we not wear people out? I hate being alone- and that is when I call people- and even if its not negative, it is still about me. I cannot make it about them- all I care about is my FP and getting support. Selfish af!

Anyways, do you get told you are "too much", "high maintenance", "complicated", and "exhausting"? I find these all insulting.