I'm an 18 year old guy who lives with his mom, her bf and my sister (16). I've had depression for many years, but nobody cares, despite almost killing myself at one point. 
I've done nothing for months. I can't find a job, I left school, I can't even take a single photo for a provisional license. I get yelled at because I don't wash up for a shower. My dad treats me well, but doesn't realise the pressure he's putting on me. 
My mom's bf is the cliché abusive step-dad, but with less hitting. He hasn't done much since I turned 18, but he used to be very verbally abusive and, sometimes, physical. I'm scared living here and I wish I could either die or have enough money to live alone.
My 2 friends are busy with exams, so I can't even rely on them for help. I just don't know what to do. I wish I was suicidal again so I could be free. I wish I was just happy for once