Since I was very young I've exhibited BPD symptoms, most women in my family (my grandmothers and mother) also suffered from BPD. When it began to get really bad ( recklessness, extreme mood swings with suicidal thoughts/gestures/attempts that would occur many times, dillusions, splitting on people, etc) I received a diagnosis and was in the process of treatment when my family's insurance changed, and I could no longer go to sessions without paying with money that we don't have. 

It's becoming bad again, and over the past four months I've made attempts at suicide, have been splitting on my boyfriend and friends regularly, and have started being unable to attach myself with charitable things I've done in the past, and I've felt like I can't even recognize myself. I'm trying to get back into the swing or DBT, but I don't feel like I can commit to it much. How have others learned to handle recovery? 
