I feel kinda bad and tired. Everything is kinda repeating itself and it doesn’t feels right. It feels like all people leave but no one comes to my life. Shit became like a routine… Money to return, living from pay checks to pay checks. Even when I see someone trying to understand or support me I am just saying I am already fine. I know there r still people who care about me but it feels so right just to disappear. I do really want feel happy but I even don’t fucking know what can make me be this way. I feel like all my decisions where so not right but it’s too late to change anything. I don’t know what to do and how to be. I just really wanna fade away…