I just want someone that I can talk to. I have friends that I do things regularly but I just feel like I couldn’t tell them how I’m feeling or like I could only tell a few of them but I don’t know how to bring it up. Lately Ik this might be cringy but honestly I’ve started joking about killing myself and not being around much longer and saying stuff like that and I’m just hoping maybe someone will ask me if I’m ok. But honestly I do t even know anymore. Just today I was with them but it was like I wasn’t even there. I don’t matter to any of those people. If I was gone I don’t think any of them would care. I don’t think anyone would care. I’m just an extra in everyone’s lives. I don’t matter to anyone and the world would be better if I just disappeared. I’m just a burden to my friends and loved ones. I have no one. I’m just alone all the time with ny thoughts. Telling myself I dont matter and that I will never have any one that truly cares about me. I don’t think anyone would care if I offed myself. 

sorry about spelling errors and typos idgaf

this was my yearly rant on this sub thanks for reading. I hope your life matters more than mine. ❤️

bye