I am having a hard time in my relationship. I have bpd and I’m extremely stressed and it makes me act out a lot more than I used to. I am very or I should say— I was, very aware of my anger and I would shut it down immediately by using somE DBT skills. Now I can’t stop and I’m worried my fiancé is going to leave me. It’s gotten so bad— I really don’t want to get into details. But anyway— I was looking around some bpd threads for people who are in relationships with people who suffer from bpd and I was curious about how the other side felt. The people who have to “deal” with us. It was a BAD idea and I should have never looked into it. It directed me, eventually, to this YouTube group for victims of people who have dated people with bpd. That alone made me feel like some monster. The group is called “An ear for men” or something like that. I listened to this guy scold people like me. Saying horrid things about people like me. It made me feel worthless. It made me feel like I should be locked away because I don’t want to hurt anyone (emotionally). The man even said things like “don’t get into a car with a bpd person”— like seriously?? I understand everyone is different but he didn’t say that— made it seem like we all are like that. Idk I’m feeling really down. Like numb. I showed my mom and she said it was nonsense, but I showed my partner and he didn’t think it was completely nonsense. Are we just all monsters? Is that what everything thinks? Idk how to deal with this :(