I'm 23, just graduating college. I had no "college experience" as I commuted and transferred a bunch so it was hard to make friends. Been on and off with girlfriend for past 3 years. I have been depressed consistently since I was in high school, with intermittent dreadful months. Was neglected by my parents throughout high school. I coped with self isolation and look back at HS as some of the worst years of my life because of it.

I've always fantasized over this "college experience" and have loved every small dose of it that I've gotten. But since I was in a relationship when I started college, I didn't dorm and did community college.

 I've tried Meetup groups, going way out of my comfort zone and going clubbing with random people. It was fun but got old, as I live far from the city and couldn't bring anyone back with me. It's my only option to get out there...

Now I am graduating by the end of the month, which is an achievement I'm proud of, but I already have huge regrets on missing this social aspect I've so desperately needed since high school. I don't want to feel like I've missed out for the rest of my life. I've contemplated this since I started college and this has led me to state of despair as I age and continue to ponder.