Ugh.

To sum it up I seek validation from others, specifically men, because I never got it during my childhood. My husband knows this. We both know he can't always give me the validation I need and I need to find it in myself.

How do I find it in myself? Is that even a thing? Is it one of those 'fake it til you make it' things?

Last night I told my husband that I don't know who I am. I really don't. I have done some stuff. I believe certain things. I like and dislike certain things. But I don't know how to define myself or how I relate to the rest of the world. Is that learned in DBT?

I do DBT one-on-one with my therapist, cause there aren't enough people to make a group. I'm still working on distress tolerance.

How the hell do I look for something inside myself if I feel so empty?