I feel like I never have the energy to do anything. It’s like I’m internally panicking all the time and I don’t even know what triggers it. It’s mentally debilitating and I just don’t even feel like I know myself. I feel like the past 18 years of my life I’ve been on autopilot and now I’m just realizing that I’ve done nothing with my life. I do nothing except for college online from home and sometimes go to my boyfriend or best friends house. I’m always just lying in bed and scrolling on social media and feel like I have no purpose. I constantly have intrusive obsessive thoughts about dying and death, it’s like it never leaves my mind. I feel like there’s no purpose to life and when I try to tell myself it’s inevitable and to enjoy every moment, it just makes me panic even more. I don’t know what to do and I’m so tired of feeling like this. I just want to be happy and not feel so overwhelmed every second of the day. Please help any advice is really appreciated.