Your life feels like it just went over a cliff. Havent showered in days, cant give a fuck what i look like. I cant talk to anyone. Panic attacks.  Dissociation. Been in bed on my days off and barely move. Isolate from everyone.  Started self harm again. Using alcohol to cope. 
Its been a very bad few months. I cant even stay an entire therapy session bc im a mess. Im sick 9f crying and pretending