I just recently moved into a new apartment, my job pays me well, I have family nearby that cares for me, but for some reason, I struggle with feeling fulfilled the moment I'm not participating in a social interaction. Today, I didn't even have a full meal and it's already 6pm. I thought having a bigger kitchen in this new place would help me feel more motivated to cook, and it does (in a way), but today, I feel like sitting in bed and crying. I have severe depression and have been taking medication for it for the past 22 years (I'm 30 years old for context). It works fine as long as I'm busy and mentally distracted. I would go on a walk or a drive, but it's raining outside and I can't drive by myself because I haven't gotten my license yet. I have very few friends in town because I moved here in July of 2021 and with work keeping me busy and covid still rampant, I'm struggling to make friends as fast as I used to in college, and the friends I do have live several states away.

I can't tell if I'm doing something wrong or if I'm just being a big baby. Could anybody share tricks they use to put their mind at rest? I occasionally meditate, but my mind usually takes over with a billion worries. I greatly appreciate any advice and support :)