hello bpd partners! I'm 20 years old, I have already tried two careers I deserted from and I'm thinking about whether I should leave my current one (psychology) and try a music career or staying where I am and doing some courses in instruments I like.
The problem is this: I have recently discovered that music has always helped me in my anxiety attacks or when i was about to cut or some other precipitate decision. Music has always been my saviour and I had never really paid attention to it. So I started thinking that, even though it's a less stable job, studying to teach music and play should be more satisfying than a "common" career, as I would be dealing with a non-meds form (I take meds but don't really want to be a bunch of it) to calm my various crisis.
I played guitar and piano for a time and took singing lessons, but because of my familiar environment and insecurity I stopped some years ago, and only stayed with listening to music almost all day long because it tranquilized and focused me. I never dared to give up a "stable" career for music because of parental pressure. My parents tell me I can study whatever I want, but I feel that is not the truth. And currently, the passion for it has been distracting me from my studies - and not only music, but art as well. Painting, drawing, etc have been helping me quite a lot with emerging from a critical state I was in some months ago. I can't be sitting down and studying because I feel i'm wasting time. Time for what, don't know, but it gets me really bad. I think there would be a difference between studying Bruner quite bored and in silence (sorry music, cannot mess in this one) and studying and at the same time playing the piano. But, I also like psychology! 
So, what should I do? Any suggestions?