Sorry my title sounds like a study, but DAE ever get an overwhelming urge to lose access to their phone? And for the specific reason of not wanting to overreact or get upset about something you find triggering? I wish I could lost for hours into drawing or studying some topic, but I find that being on my phone so often makes it hard. It's unhealthy to get absorbed in something for too long, and I think that I'd rather it be something I have shit to show for. 

When I go online I just see a bunch of shit I'm paranoid about for some reason, things that trigger me, then here and there good thoughts that I know I should think myself but feel impossible to think. Like, yeah it'd be nice if I could force myself to think that when people are rude or offstandish, they could easily be having a rough go, but I am having a rough go. I've had a rough go for years, and yet people always seem to try and one up me on my trauma. I used to share more, tell random strangers the most random and uncomfortable things, now I can't stand to even type out certain stuff. I know someone is having it worse.