I’ve dealt with very deep depression and bad suicidal ideation for most of my life, but I never have acted or had much of any symptoms of BPD until I graduated highschool. The last few years I feel like this explosion of emotion happened. I started splitting bad, having these insane mood swings, not being able to make any decisions, etc. and I’ve never have dealt with emotions like that on this sort of level before. But I’ve also had huge things happen in such a short span of time such as, being in my first committed relationship (now married), moving out of my abusive home, and being basically pushed into adulthood without any breaks basically in the span of being 18 years old to now 21. Is this unusual? To have such a sudden start in symptoms? Do people usually experience these symptoms in teenage years? I mean I had some symptoms such as depression and suicidal thoughts but I have just never been like THIS until a few years ago. I’m just wondering if I truely do have BPD Or I’m just a product of my situation? Or maybe I have BPD now because of what’s happened? Or that just sometimes symptoms occur later in life? Does anyone have any insight on this?