Title basically. Just want to share my experience: I have been doing better over the past few weeks, but thoughts remain that I don't deserve people, that people would be better off without me or that the friends I do have, don't care if I'm there or not. I have come close several times to either just delete their numbers or go out with a "we shouldn't be friends" text. I am weirdly proud, even though it is less than ideal, that I start remembering that I feel my best around my friends. So that having friends is always better than having no friends. So cutting contact = bad idea. Even if I don't believe that I deserve any of them, it is up to them to leave me if they want to. I am not going to. It may scare me, but I think I deflected already a lot of emotional pain for everyone this way.