Trapped in a body that does nothing, feels nothing, has no value to anyone. I'm sick of this world that gives me so little. I know I'm being ungrateful and there are people who are worse off than me (people with physical and mental disabilities). But comparing in the spectrum of functional and "normal" people I'm down there at the bottom of the barrel. 

I'm sick of imaginary worlds I create inside my head. Tired of having to shower waiting for my sadness, loneliness, anxiety, depression to disappear...

I'm tired of telling lies to myself waiting for everything I'm going through to finish and the best phase of my life begins.

High school was the worst time of my life. Worst. I hate that shit. It was 3 years completely ignored and alone.

I didn't suffer "physical" or "mental" bullying by anyone. I just hate that time because people bragged so much, genuinely pretended to help each other and gave me almost no opportunity to "live" their vibe.

Tired of being locked in the house for over 2 years while everyone lives amazing college experiences. 

Someone to turn off my chip!

Nobody cares about me.