People tend to say "If you need help, you can talk with me" and then...when you do it they try to take the spotlight from you, making it somehow a competition on who suffered the most and then they'll probably say "If I didn't killed myself and had a worse live than you, you shouldn't do the same". I'm sorry that you had a bad childhood, I'm happy that you passed through it and now seems to have a neutral or good life, but I'm not you and I'll never be. My family really seems related, it's either them telling these shits or saying I'm going to hell if I do that and showing me the most grotesque personality I'd ever see in a person. 

Kinda just wanted to take this off my chest