Recently I was actually doing really good, and it was all because of my boyfriend. He's really great and made me feel so loved and kept from going into a dark place, but that all changed a week ago. He got a new job and we've barely been able to talk and that's really made my eating disorder flare up. But today has been the worst yet, on top of him not having the time to talk to me he is also hanging out with his coworkers alot, and yeah I'm happy for him but I'm starting to feel so abandoned and unimportant, and on top of that I was supposed to hang out with a friend but they had to cancel. Now I feel very abandoned and like absolute shit and haven't been able to stop self harming for the past half hour and it's been worse than I've ever done it before. I just feel so horrible and like I'm completely alone and I can't handle it