Hello - this is not with the intent of seeking diagnosis, however I would like to get an idea if these things are unique to me or if anything sounds familiar, as I am not successful in receiving a diagnosis.

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To begin, Im a 16 year old male living in New York City. My dads family for the most part has a history of mental illness, drug use, and  family abandonment issues. In 2004, my father experienced severe psychosis to the point of going missing. He was missing for approximately a week, and was found with a handgun, barefoot with no recollection of anything. He became severely mentally unstable leading up to this, and was subsequently hospitalized for both his physical and psychological condition. 

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After this incident, he was taking Effexor (SNRI medication\] and was on it until 2015. Then, he abruptly stopped without consulting a psychiatrist. After this, he began self-medicating with alcohol and ended up cheating on my mother. My mother discovered this after a while and was pressing him about this. In a matter of around 5 months, he walked out on us and went on with his girlfriend who he currently lives with.

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SO, after this I became extremely depressed, as in suicidal ideation, it was a struggle with visitation, everything at home.

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Fast forward to currently, I have had on and off depressive symptoms since this event. However, I have many symptoms which do not all show depression.

I have;

Difficulty focusing (affecting grades poorly\]

When I close my eyes to sleep, I start sweating and become full of severe anxiety to the point of panic attack for seemingly no reason

Become very easily stressed over tons of minor things

Frustration with people in general, self-isolation