tw// suicide 

first post lol :p i’m 16 years old and have pretty much dealt with bad anxiety my entire life. my heart always feels squeezy and it feels like someone’s always sitting on my chest. i find myself always on the verge of tears and can just never relax. it feels like my brain is constantly going and thinking 24/7 and idk how to help it. it seems like i’m always going to bed with these anxious feelings and waking up with them as well. it’s taking a toll on my physical health and overall well being. i’ve always been hard on myself when it comes to school which is one of the biggest causes for my anxiety. i go to a CTA high school so i’m in my third year of architecture and i’m currently all honors/dual credit classes. this added stress makes everything so much worse especially since my anxiety won’t allow myself to do anything mediocre when it comes to school. one of my closest family members has also committed suicide a few weeks ago which really set me back. i lost all motivation to do anything for school so now i’m extremely behind which is making my anxiety 1000x worse. i’m really not sure what to do and how to help these feelings but it felt nice to vent