Im on caplyta and its helping with my depression but I still have suicidal thoughts because of my triggers. I just randomly get the urge to self harm and kill myself. I dont think I am depressed because I am not sad and can still do everything I have to do. The most recent suicidal thought came because I just realized I am not happy with the life I am living and am a shell of who I was before Bipolar reared its ugly head. Im in therapy now so hopefully it can help. Does anyone else have suicidal thoughts without depression? How do you deal with them?