I always heard being an adult sucked but I didn't know it sucked this much. Yes I have money and I can do what I want kinda but like, I hate this. My life seemed to be on track before covid, I graduated high school and started college but since covid started I stopped going until I can go in person again but I have no idea when that's gonna be since they change this at the drop of a hat

My friends are still going to college. I'm going to concerts and meeting people my age getting ready to graduate college soon.  People I know online younger than me are now getting farther ahead in life than me. I miss before all this covid shit where even if I struggled I'd at least still have structure in my life for now at least. Knowing what's happening next, knowing I can do things in the future, my life seemed certain.

I have no idea what I'm doing with my life anymore. I wish I could disappear at least for a bit to get a break from just living.