So a for the past 3-4 years I have had clinical depression, during most of those few years I constantly wanted to kill myself and really hated my life. Most of this year I had that numbing feeling of neither being happy or sad but something weird happened a few weeks ago. One day I woke up and felt strangely good, like actually normal. Nothing in my life changed to were it would affect my mood drastically. I am scares that is just a pyschcolgical defense mechanism and this is just a temporary thing. Because while I feel normal to an extent something just feels off, sorta like when I had that numbing feeling. Any ideas as to what it could be?