Hey everyone, 

I was diagnosed with BPD in crisis and GAD in April. Lately I've been noticing my pattern with people. I'm a huge people pleaser and I'm afraid to give my opinions on anything or disagree on anything with anyone. It's become hard for me. I feel my desperation for friendships and desire to be well-liked is becoming painfully obvious and I don't know how to change my behaviour.

I had a very quick diagnosis so I wouldn't say it's an official one, but I honestly believe I have BPD. My sister has type 1 bipolar with psychotic features and her psychiatrist wrote that my mom has BPD after a few times that my mom exploded at her, and my uncle has the diagnosis, so I think I've inherited it, unfortunately. 

I'm still waiting on my appointment with a psychiatrist to get an official diagnosis. I'll take another year before I see one since I'm not suicidal and I'm in Quebec and it's always a super long waiting list for them here. 

Could my desperation be part of my BPD? Any explanation why? Thanks. 

Tl;dr: I feel I'm very desperate to be liked and make friends. Could this be a symptom of my BPD?