Everything in my life has fallen apart. She dumped me last night after we moved to her dream city a month ago. I fronted all the rent for the first two months and now she says we're not compatible and that I'm too clingy, I need to much affection, I'm too jealous. I would have done anything to change and be the person that she wanted but it's too fucking late and I hate myself for it. I just went on probation for a drug offense on Monday and part of the terms are that I can't drink for 6 months. Idk what I'm going to do. I don't have that in me. I don't have 6 fucking months of being alone in this apartment hating my life every single day. I'm just glad that there's no restrictions on buying/owning firearms. I found a gun store just a few blocks from a nearby train station and once I have a few hundred saved from this paycheck and the next I'm just going to go buy a 12 gauge and blow my fucking brains out. I can't fucking stand this. I feel so fucking used and worthless.