Yesterday it happened again. I met this one guy who's nice to me and we agreed to go to his place. Listened to music, made some adult stuff, what drunk people do. But suddenly I stood up when he was using his bathroom and left. I left in the middle of the night without shoes, in a shirt and luckily my pants on with my own key. I left my phone there, my stuff, my favorite jacket. On my way to idk, I changed my mind and tried to go back, but I actually forgot where he lives, so I ringed at some doors, totally stupid and I'm so sorry for the poor people I probably woke up. One guy called police, no stress this time, something I'm kinda proud of. But they couldn't help me and I had to go through the whole city to go home, it was cold and I cried constantly on my home. I'm so ashamed of myself. I have no contact of him and I just hope he will meet me at the place we met yesterday.   


Please tell me, I'm not the only one randomly leaving some situations/places. I assume it's because I'm afraid of emotional connections.