So My BPD ex asked for space way back and she'd talk to me in a month or two. I recouped feelings and told her a week later. She says she's not ready and then says she's not comfortable yet. The night kinda ended her snapping on me saying why am i making things about me when i told her again how i feel about her.

I reached out a week after that just to make sure were good based on that interaction we had just to make sure we had a chance still.
She kinda snapped on me again, told me to fuck off said since i didn't wait a month, leave me alone, she doesn't wanna tell me how she's doing, and she's about to go into surgery for something unknown to me.

I reached out 3 weeks later after that and she tells me she doesn't think we should be in contact anymore. I get a random notification on tiktok that someone with her name viewed my snapchat and it adds up time period wise as well but when I confronted her about it a week later she denies it was her.

Specifically, She said please don't contact me and she also said because I keep trying to contact her after she said not to it's a dislike.

Now I'm just confused. I get the boundary was broken but when she told me to wait a month or two she did bring up wanting to die from a specific thing that was occurring and that she's not fun to be around right now. So now I'm confused on like am I just being tested? Is her saying please this time around like she's trying to nicely tell me to leave her alone vs lashing like previous times before.
Am I painted black in a bad way or I'm in a fog. Do i even believe that she isn't viewing my tiktok like idk how to feel right now. I'm damn near broken without her was able to move on for a bit and when i saw the notifications I broke down instantly and waited to contact her again. Thoughts?