My Birthday is on Friday.  I was diagnosed and put on atypical antipsychotics in 2002.  I'll be 45 on July 1,  So, over half my life I've been on these disgusting drugs.  I want off.  And the more I read, the more upsetting  the data is:

a) it now seems like a multi-**year** process, as opposed to about 9 months to a year.  Great.  
b) the list of potential (negative) side effects seems to be growing.  
c) since I'm on Caplytla, and there's only one strength - well, fuck.  No one even seems to know.  

Meanwhile, I'm exercising more, eating better and yet my gut expands and my sex drive again has plummeted.  Now, I'm not naive enough - I hope! - to imply that everything negative is because of antipsychotics, and everything positive is because of my pluck determination.  But I'm wiped!  And, I don't think I should be,  

What do y'all think?  How's everyone doing that *have* stopped them?  More balanced, less, neutral?  It's such goddamn tradeoffs, but I always think there will be an ideal time to go off them, and there **isn't.**  Thoughts?