Just venting.....I had candy for breakfast. No lunch. And I'm about to go eat cheesecake rather than prepare some actual food. I haven't brushed my hair, bathed or dressed. I did brush my teeth. A small victory.

I'm not at my rock bottom worst depressive self right but I'm really struggling to get the stuff done I need to get done. If I don't figure something out ASAP I'm not gonna be able to pay my bills. The less I do the more money I lose. I can't afford to lose. 

I just can't get going. It's been days. I usually don't eat when I get like this but I've been eating candy and I bought a cheesecake the other day when I had the energy to shop. I'm eating crap food, sitting around, watching tv and reading and posting on r/depression. I need something good to happen to give me some hope and energy.

I almost feel guilty for posting this because I know I'm in better shape atm than many on here. I'm not suicidal. I ate.