Am I just that blind to my own behavior or is this plausible?
Here is me: I’m a 23F grad student, I live alone about 12 hours from my friends and family. I make acquaintances rather easily bc I’m told I’m really friendly. I’m an oversharer. I’ve never been in a relationship bc I’m disgusted by intimacy and being vulnerable. I think most people are lying. I tend to lie quite often, but this really hurts bc OCD. I can’t remember the last time I was “angry.” If anything I get annoyed or really upset at things. My friendships last a few years but 50% of the time end tumultuously. I like to bike. When I first moved for grad school I had sex with strangers…. A lot. Now I’m disgusted by myself and men. 
I’ve never done drugs. Doctor says I drink too much…. I drank once in the past two months. I mean it was like 13 drinks. 
I’ve had severe depression since I was at least 10 along with OCD. Attempts 1 when I was 15. Mostly severe anhedonia. Recently I voluntarily admitted myself and my medications were changed. First time in my life I’m not severely depressed.
I don’t know if I’m looking for reassurance, or if i am blind to something.