Idk I think this is just me Overanalyzing my behavior &amp; demonizing myself  but there are times Where I genuinely feel like a black hole to everyone around me .. I feel like I move things so fast with people &amp; Develop extremely co dependent relationships because I dote on everyone &amp; say/do things that I know will get me closer to the co dependency even If I don’t mean Anything of what I say .. I make myself sick sometimes Thinking about the emotional state I’ve left my exes In .  Nothing ever is enough for me.