I'm too impulsive for this shit, I can't stick to anything and then I lose it and have to start over. I don't have any energy left for this, understand me, you know why others are striving? They work on something and then they get the reward from improving and levelling up meanwhile I work on something, ruin it and fall back two steps. I never budge upwards, it's all downward for me. I never had anything stable in my life, my mom changed her parents frequently, I changed schools all the time, changed homes, changed friends, changed pets because they died, changed hobbies because i got bored, changed changed changed. Whatever.