Tbh I don’t what the hell is going on with my life. I’m depressed and I know this. But at the same time I know my life isent as a bad as what I feel like it is. I have a decent job in my city and can pay my bills respectfully and am currently going through a break up but if we’re being honest I couldn’t care for it less it. I feel like my life is an endless puzzle that’s I need to keep solving and at the end of the Fay I like drinking. And when I drink I like to imagine what everyone’s life would be like without me. I like to think how maybe my death would actually make an impact in my life(which honestly I don’t think it would) my moms been a heroin addict since I was 10 and I have no dad. Outside of that I have zero family. I feel like the life I live effects nobody else and I want to kill myself. I can’t find a reason to not do it