i keep wondering if my fp is mad at me. and so i end up constantly asking them if they're mad or annoyed with me. initially they aren't but with my persistent questioning, they obviously get kinda mad and annoyed with me. i wouldn't blame them because getting a "are you mad at me" text every hour of the day would get on my nerves too. it hurts so much to live with the fear that they will get annoyed with me and leave me. it seems as though i'm so desperate for validation, i feel embarrassed. it's been close to 3 years now that they've been my fp and i haven't stopped worrying. i wish that one day i'll be able to wake up without the fear that they get mad at me and leave me.