Since morning was anxious.  Tried accepting it. Tried belly breathing.  Reached the place.
In there was waiting and was anxious.  Was belly breathing.  Remembering funny things. After about 20 minutes,  felt a little better.  Otherwise wad tense nervous heart racing feeling generally uncomfortable  racing negative thoughts. 
Was in the machine asked how much time it will take. He said 20 to 30 minutes.  

Boom. Suddenly felt like I could not do it. I raised my hand and told him I couldn't do it. Asked him if hrad can be outside. He said no.

Boom I said I will come   by again after taking a xanax. 

First epic fail after a long time. Feel so bad and weak.

I wish they can make those machines better as they make me claustrophobic.