I [M20] just discovered this sub, first time poster. I've struggled with anxious thoughts most of my life, but in the past 6 months or so, I've been getting progressively more intense and longer lasting panic attacks, mostly brought on by going to work, going to the doctor, just really being around other people. And I understand people have attacks differently, but in mine, I almost completely seize up, I can't speak, and my muscles spasm uncontrollably. I lose almost complete motor control, and this can last from 15 minutes to an hour, sometimes I'll have another right after I've calmed down from one.

About 2 weeks ago, I went to the urgent care when it got to the point that I was literally waking up shaking from anxiety. He prescribed me 1mg ativan twice daily, until I can see a primary care/psychotherapist.

At first I loved them. They didn't make me feel "high", but I could actually go outside, talk to people, and do most of the things that I couldn't for so long. It just made me a happier person. But recently I've noticed that I'm much more short-tempered, I get irritated much more easily, and these are emotions that I've hardly ever in my life felt, which really scares me.

I really enjoy taking the ativan, because I feel like a functioning human, but these new angry emotions are scaring me a lot. I've not done anything to physically harm anyone or anything, and I don't believe I could, but it still worries me.

Does anyone have a similar experience? Advice? I guess I'm just really saying "hello" to the community.