Not 100% sure I have BPD (diagnosed OCD, currently in DBT with a potential case for quiet BPD)

But today, I had an OCD episode, overcame it… then I got fixated on a hurtful word a friend said to me over a year ago. Started imagining things I wish I could’ve said back to him (and they were not nice)… and then I started thinking “I don’t like this person anymore. He thinks he’s better than me. He just gets to be perfect and I can’t ever do it right”

And just wild things like that. Like I found myself *hoping* he would say something mean to me so I could have an excuse to be upset.

Then I finally stopped and was like ??? He apologized and everything already. It was a year ago.

I’m STILL fighting with those lingering feelings lol. Is this splitting or am I just being a baby