So I’ve had bpd for a little while but only recently have started having splitting episodes. However what started this one was that I’ve really messed my arms up punching a broken punch bag with terrible gloves. As a result of this my fingers wrist and my forearm aren’t moving the way I want them to. I freaked out and it started an episode. This time though I knew it would take a few days to recover as I was focused on getting my dissociation and panic to calm down. After a 24 hours I began to feel slightly better and knew I’d feel better in a few more days like before BUT during this I was on Instagram and in my recommended I saw a really messed up and extremely disturbing video which feels like a nightmare I would have when I was really young. I am unable to get the noise in that video out of my head and the thought of it keeps triggering me to freak out more. Scariest thing ever and I am really unsure of what to do. Thanks