i’m a senior in hs this upcoming year and i’m so incredibly scared about turning 18/doing all this college shit/living on my own. No one’s listening to me when I say I fear leaving my community and support system. 

I’ve had depression for the last 5 and a half years gone untreated because my parents only halfway believe me when I say I’m suffering. They only listen when Im having active breakdowns in front of them screaming that something is wrong. I’m so tired, I’m so so tired. I honestly don’t know if I can take what’s coming and I’ve been contemplating ending it all before I can even enter that stage of life. 


My grades have been shit the past two years because my depression’s only gotten worse and I’ve absolutely lost all motivation. I’m aware I put myself in this situation but also, I couldn’t help it. i don’t know what to do but I’m scared for myself and the fact that no one is listening. Every time I try to express how I’m feeling, I get laughed at and brushed off with an “it’s gonna be alright” but I’m so tired of hearing that. I’m never gonna be good enough and I don’t think I deserve or even need to be on Earth. I don’t know what to do.