Im not diagnosed with BPD but im planning to get checked when im older but anyone else here absolutely hate their crushes. I havent dated before because i always end up hating the people that i like. When men are nice to me i get attached really quickly and i become borderline obsessed with them. But once they show me any disinterest/maybe theyre just tired, its like a switch goes off and suddenly i feel so irked by them and i passionately dislike them. And then this would last for a few days/week and then i just dont feel anything towards them anymore and i just cut them off. I feel so toxic especially because this means i give mixed signals really often and the guys i talk to end up feeling really confused and hurt that i broke our friendship/situationship. I feel like its so hard for me to get into relationships but i really want one :(