Me and my friend met each other 4-5 years ago in school. Since then, we’ve been basically inseparable. But I recently noticed a behavioral pattern in me. Whenever she is gone for the smallest amount of time, my mind races to the worst possibilities. 

Examples: “What if she’s dead?” “What if her house caught on fire?” “What if she got kidnapped?” “What if somebody is selling her organs online while I’m sitting on my bed comfortable and safe.” “What if she killed herself.”


I’ve been hyperventilating and crying for the past hour. After not seeing her online on discord, I’ve been panicking. We are always active, every second of everyday. And if we aren’t texting then we’re calling, and vise versa. It’s not a one sided friendship, she loves me as much as I love her, and when one of us is gone we always miss each other. But this time is different, I just cannot shake this feeling. I’ve been wanting to call/text her mom to see if she was alright but I’m so scared of embarrassing myself or getting a answer I don’t want to receive. And usually when she goes somewhere, she tells me beforehand. We fell asleep on the phone last night and when I woke up, she was offline and had hung up the discord call. She only uses her laptop, never her phone. And discord is the only app we really use to communicate (and very rarely Instagram). But I’m just so worried. I have a huge fear of losing my loved ones, especially my bestfriend. I have no other friends, I don’t know what I’d do without her. I’m so scared. I miss her, and I hope she’s okay