I will hear something or see pictures of gross or morally wrong things that I’m not really normally attracted to but instead of seeming like intrusive thoughts it feels more like I’m having a sexual reaction before processing the thing. It feels the same way with family members and then I wanna like disappear. 

But other times it feels like I cannot think of anything else and I definitely feel like weird.

Is this normal for intrusive thoughts or am I just a creep?