Plenty of people are far worse off than you.
You travelled to so many places.
You have great memories too. 
You have food and a roof over your had. Stop complaining!-------------------------------------------------------
But my mind is chaos and I don't know what to do.
I'm worthless, lonely, my inner child' feeling blue.
I cannot handle my emotions.
If only I could disappear... 
I love my life.
I hate my life
full of insecurity and fear.