I am an extraverted person and really want to have friends but I feel that I can never make them. It feels like all the girls I talk to are very happy and they all talk about the things I am not interested in (college football for example). It seems like it is so easy for them to have their own group but I feel very excluded, mostly because I don't feel like I can express myself around them, or be upset, angry, and annoyed (which I am very often), or else they wouldn't wanna talk to me. I am not trying to sound like a pick me girl, but generally guys have been more accepting of my personality than girls, despite me automatically turning every friendship with a guy into a friends with benefits situation. I'm just not sure what to do anymore, I feel like having bpd has caused me to not be able to find anyone I can show my real self to.