Some background ill try to be clear im crying while typing this. 22yr M. About to move in with a few friends of mine iv known for years. We just started to reconnect about a year ago and things going well. I just got home from a trip and we hung out once and I said something lets say controversial? And they got mad at the time. But we patched things up. Now they wont tell me when they all hang out. And i feel like they are just plotting against me or dragging me around as dead weight out of pitty. Im so done with myself. Iv felt this way forever and this is my last group of friends.. if i lost them id be gone. I feel the same way about my family. I just cant help but feel im nothing but a burden on anyone. And im not enjoyable ro be around. I force a smile all the time and i try to be sarcastic and funny but I always find a way to fuck something up and Im sick of it and myself. Im so empty and I feel so alone. My fiance of 4years and I just broke up too and I have nothing left. What do i do.