In relationships, I notice that I get incredibly more mentally ill and I find myself almost kind of going crazy and saying and doing things that don’t represent me, but represent my illness. My BPD gets substantially worse in relationships and I don’t know why but that is my trigger. I know BPD has been called “the angel of death card for relationships”. Ive set a rule to myself to not be in anymore relationships but I find myself becoming lonely as all my other friends have so’s but I can’t. Does anyone ever do this too with relationships? And how do you cope with it?