they didn't die or anything, just gradually stopped being my fp. we also talk a lot less now than we used to (24/7)
i'm not dealing with it very well since:

1 i lost my main source of support and validation

2 i've been so occupied with them for the past 2 years that i lost almost all my other friends

3 i don't have a personality of my own

what i've been doing since i realized they stopped being my fp is mostly having breakdowns all the time because there is noone i can turn to or seek validation from. there is noone whos likes i can project onto myself so it feels like there is even less of *me* now.

has anyone ever had to deal with that? how did you get over it?

!! please don't recommend therapy, i've tried it all my life and it never worked out !!