Hey anxious people. I (23f) have struggled with anxiety in various forms (mostly social and generalized, as well as semi-related skin picking OCD) for many years. Lately, its mostly on the backburner until I have to face a social situation. But today I am feeling like a puddle of anxiety with physical symptoms and mental chaos. This is because my boyfriend, who is my only close friend, has gone away for the weekend. I keep tearing up and I don't know what to do with myself. I also quit drinking a few weeks ago, so I have the added challenge of not being able to just numb out and cope in unhealthy ways. Being healthy is hard!! I'm super anxious about staying sober and being alone. It's like when he's gone I realize how isolated I've become. I'm having non-stop negative thoughts and the time is going by so slowly. I've gotten no work done today because I was too nervous about being alone. 

I'm going to try and see an old friend for a hike this weekend and I might treat myself to some bubble tea if I'm feeling really down (which I am). Other than that, I really don't know what to do. I have to catch up on work, but I feel too anxious and terrible for not getting anything done today and it's making it so hard to focus. Any tips or commiseration or kind words would be very welcome.