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seeing other people eat made me happier because I wasn’t that “weak”. But then they put me in therapy and blá-blá-blá. But every time I see a picture of an anorexic I wish I was  them, miss feeling my bones, looking at the scale and see the numbers dropping a little bit everyday, clothes being too large, measuring me everyday. I felt stronger than everyone because I would eat 500 calories (in a “fat day”) and 2h of exercise and wouldn’t feel sick. I never got my body goal but I wasn’t a nasty fat shit. I felt just “fat”