Hi guys. 

So my FP asked me for space. He’s struggling A lot rn with his own shit and needs time to himself. I understand that. I support that. I want him to feel better. I’ve been watching him slowly descent more and more into depression. So I do want him to take the time for himself. 

BUT. 

My BPD always fucks me up. I start to hate ppl after a few days of no contact. I start to rlly hate them. Or I’m so stressed out due to the fact that idk when we’ll talk again. Or IF we’ll talk again. That I end up blocking. 

I’m asking for advice. I rlly do care for him. I dnt wanna lose him. But it feels like I’m going to be abandoned. I feel like hell forget me tbh. 

I’m doing ok today. And when he told me I didn’t have a freak out like I have in the past. But I know this feeling will go away soon and I will start to rlly crumble. How do u guys cope????