i’m legitimately so normal like this disorder just makes no fucking sense i have very healthy relationships with my family very healthy relationships with many wonderful friends i’m funny and fun and decent looking and smart i’m finishing up my first semester of law school and yet when it comes to men i am PSYCHOOO and i just don’t even understand how an entire mental disorder can only affect my romantic relationships?? logically it doesn’t even make sense and i’m so annoyed like i just got home from hanging out with some friends we had a great time i was smiling laughing joking around and the whole time i was sitting there thinking i’m so normal and happy how do i have bpd???? and when i think about myself in this light i think about how i could easily get over my issues and add a normal flourishing relationship with a man to my normal flourishing life and in theory it seems so plausible like how could that not happen???? i am so normal???? it seems like it would be so easy???? i say to myself yeah you could definitely do that like how hard is it to just NOT send a million texts when you get into a slight disagreement with a man? how hard is it to NOT block him when he can’t see me because he’s busy and then unblock him the next day and then block him again when he doesn’t respond in 3.5 minutes???? yet i just know deep down that if i were to start seeing someone that normal would just.. go away as soon as i got even somewhat attached. where does the normal go??? how does it just go away??? i am so normal and successful in every other aspect of my life????? this makes no sense goodnight