Tomorrow I’m going to a therapy appointment for the first time in my life, and it’s been pending ever since being diagnosed as borderline and type 2 bipolar a couple years ago. I’m not sure what to expect, and I’m terrified of what it’s going to mean to open up and be honest with a complete stranger. I don’t even know where to start. There’s SO many things I’ve kept bottled up for years and years, what if I’m too overwhelming? What if a bunch old pain surfaces and I break down? And my biggest fear: what if it doesn’t work? I’m so afraid I won’t be able to beat my bad habits.. but I also know I desperately need to try and get out of my own head. I had my first self harm relapse after two years the other day and if anything, that’s show me it’s time to put myself first. Any tips on what to expect and how to handle this? I’m not really sure if this is something I can do and it’s taking everything in me not to call and cancel last minute. 