I have crippling health anxiety and I’ve tried so hard to battle it on my own with no meds but it’s so so so difficult. The only thing that helps me is being with my bf but we’re long distance which just makes my anxiety worse tbh. Every single time I go to the doctor or a pain I was anxious about goes away, I tell myself this is the last time I’m gonna get health anxiety, and then boom, a few minutes later I find a new lump or feel some type of pain. And then the cycle starts again. And if I feel fine and healthy, I’ll be thinking about what if I get some horrible illness in the future. I’m only 18 and I feel like fucking shit knowing that this is probably what the rest of my life will consist of. I want to try meds but my mom is really against them. I just don’t feel like there’s a point in doing anything anymore. I was never like this before, I used to be the opposite of this actually. I was fearless and I looked forward to the future. Now I’ve become erratic and unrecognizable and just straight up psychotic tbh. I absolutely hate this.