There is a guy I've known since 5th grade (now in high school). I always an interesting relationship with him with a lot of drama and constant switching between being best friends and worst enemies. There was something about him that made me feel very strongly. I was always aware of his presence in the classroom and I would think about him a lot and how he behaved and what was going on between us at that moment. He was the only person I knew with whom I felt like that and I feel like he had some kind of control over me. I avoid him now because of some stuff that happened and I can't handle being around him.

Also I have another guy in my class whom I opened up to about a lot of my past issues. For some reason I felt like he'd understand things such as self-harm and that stuff. I couldn't handle talking to him in the long run though so I started to avoid him too. 

I recently realised that these two guys have something in common that I never felt in anybody else. They both have some sort of intensity and "realness" about them. They both seem to have some sort of mental illness but I am only assuming here (though the first guy almost certainly does). They have some sort of heaviness about them. When they speak to me I feel like I am 100% in their attention and like I am in some sort of bubble and completely vulnerable and exposed. It feels like when I talk to them they have 100% control over me. They affect me and make me feel in ways that nobody else does. I am terrified of both of them and simply can't deal with the emotions I get because of them. I feel lightheaded and like I need to cut after talking to them. It's a shame because the second guy is pretty nice, but I feel like I need to avoid both of them to remain stable. Neither of them seems to be aware of the fact that they make me feel like this. 

I spoke to a few other classmates about this and it turns out others have noticed this "heaviness" about them too. 

I can't quite put my finger on what it is about them, and I was wondering if anybody else knows similar people or what causes me to react so strongly to them. And if there is a way to handle them without having to avoid them.