I have bpd and my marriage is really struggling , We have actually spilt ATM . I have always needed him to be more aware and educated on bpd but he has never read up on it or even had a conversation with me about it .So recently I  felt extreme loneliness and have been talking over message to a guy that I know struggled with mental illness and that was fine at the start but them conversations changed to inappropriate conversations and I didn't stop it. I encouraged it. I do feel awful about it and know it was wrong.Last week my husband saw the messages on the phone and now has ended it with me . We are still living in the same house but he would like me to move out when I can get somewhere of my own . Do you think there is any way I can save this relationship or have I finally fucked it for good  