I've had depression and anxiety for most of my life. I've been in treatment for 4 years, but my symptoms for both remain.

I just got back into college after taking a 2 year mental health break. But now that I'm on my own with a full course load, my anxiety has been a lot worse. I feel like my anxiety and depression are a balance. If I'm more depressed, I'm usually less anxious, and vice versa. 

But now that I'm experiencing intense anxiety again, I'd much rather retreat back into my depression with how bad it is. I wake up every morning in a panic, my social anxiety has spiked, and having to manage my life on my own is extremely anxiety-provoking. I don't mean to dumb down either disorder, but I'd prefer to stay in deep depression than high anxiety.