I have a problem with craving validation and attention from men, but when they get too close emotionally, I freak out and push them away. I wish I knew why I did this. Why can't I genuinely like someone instead of just using them for their attention? Is this a BPD thing or am I just a picky ice queen bitch? Please don't be mean, I really try not to lead guys on, I don't even realize I'm doing it until it's too late.