Hey, I need some help.

This is probably not important but I’m a female (19) who doesn’t live in the US.

So, quarantine has been kicking my butt since the begging and I don’t know how to cope with it, I feel like my family doesn’t want to understand what I have (seemingly bipolar II, plus trichotillomania but that’s for another time), every day I feel more and more alienated from them and that makes me extremely unnerved and anxious. 
Guess this is unrelated but I’ve started to see colours when there are supposed to be none (example: was shaving my leg and my hand was tinted green. Was reading and a blotch of red appeared on the pages, etc.), and I really don’t want my parents to care much for me because they are extremely busy (yet I’m a looser of 19 years who still lives with her parents and depends entirely off of them). I just don’t know what to do to keep myself calm, I’ve been cutting myself and pulling hair out like crazy and yet I cannot seem to be “done” with anxiety.

Anyways, the point is that I feel like shit, I’ve hurt myself for the last two weeks and to be honest I just need some help.

P.S.: sorry if there are gramar mistakes, english is not my first language  ^^

-Sorry for the long post! I guess I needed to talk about it-