I’m in the process of interviewing for a new role at the company I work at here in Australia. 

I’m a long time anxiety sufferer , and usually take propranolol before interviews. But didn’t do that in first rounds and I felt great.

Had the final interview yesterday. All interviews have been over video. 

I already met with hiring manager and felt like I killed it. This last round was with a direct report (a peer essentially).

It was a very short interview (15 mins) and after exchanging pleasantries, something triggered deep anxiety in me. I felt intimated all of a sudden by the interviewer. He asked me a straight forward question I was not prepared for. Once I felt the panic set in, I froze like a deer in headlights (fright response). Hard to tell for how long (5-10 seconds?). I turned off my video and said I was having technical problems. He said we could continue without video. I asked if he “could hear me” while the video was off. Sort of to mislead him.

I took deep breaths for about 20 seconds. But during that time I was panicking how I blew it and there wasn’t much time left in the interview. And then I turned the video back on.

The first minute with the video back on was rusty - my posture and expression were bad. My eyes looking tired. And I wasn’t speaking confidently. 

But then I turned it around even though I felt rattled inside. I managed to answer the questions well, speaking much more confidently and smiling, even though i felt rattled

He allowed us to go a few minutes late. 

After thanking him , I apologized for the technical issues, which I think came across that I was getting distracted with messages from colleagues. Which maybe is good as he related to it. 

Did he for sure notice my panic attack? Did I blow the opportunity?