so i almost never have crushes or date anyone cause i don’t allow myself to because i can become obsessed and it’s not a good feeling. i end up making connections and assuming ppl are being more than friendly so i just don’t let myself think about anyone romantically unless i’m certain they’re into me.
there’s a person in one of my classes i thought was cool and kinda cute but again, i didn’t have a crush. the semester ended and i asked for everyone’s ig handles so we could keep in touch. a few days later they replied to one of my stories at like 1am and we talked for a while about cooking. just a nice friendly chat about food. well tonight i dreamt about them and we were IN LOVE. i woke up feeling real confused. now they just randomly sent me a post of a really cute cat. this is just the second time we talk outside of class and because of my dream i’m feeling waaaay more inclined to interpret this as flirting even though i know they’re a very friendly person. 

the thing is because of that dream i’m worried im just gonna become obsessed again. i don’t really know how to move on. one part of me thinks “they’re flirting with you, they like you!!” and the other “they’re just being friendly, maybe they sent it to you as a mistake.” regardless of their intentions i think i’m just afraid that i decided to like this person out of nowhere z almost like i inception style planted the idea in my dream because i WANT to like someone. i don’t know, i’m just confused. i feel like my brain is connecting dots and making connections and i don’t even know what it is that i want. i feel like i’m on autopilot and it freaks me out.