Hi, why I'm always overthinking that leads to depression? like, I just want one day that my mind will be fine, but I can't, I always think bad for everything, my gf, my job, my life, my future. When my gf hangout with her friends, my anxiety goes boom, I can't think clearly, I can't focus, maybe because I've ever been cheated several times that makes me overthink and maybe I got trust issues.. Even everyone seems tired with me because my overthinking mind, she helped a lot about my overthink, but still I overthink.

I'm really tired by myself, sometimes I think that suicide is the best way I can do, but, I still have my little sister that I'll be the person responsible for her. I'm on a job right now, and my *not boss* but like admin or something, always judge me that I can't do anything, always yelling at me, like I didn't have any mistake, I only do what my job does.

I don't know, I only can cry every night and hoping tomorrow will be fine, thank you :')