I have severe clinical depression, minor generalized anxiety disorder, and undiagnosed but extremely likely bipolar disorder.  I use weed and nicotine to help, although I know very well that they are not always healthy or long-lasting coping mechanisms. In addition, due to the obviously terrible current state of America's economy, I work two jobs and about 65 hours a week, and was under the impression that I am managing my depression very well at the moment. But something I didn't realize until maybe today though is that work might be a secret coping mechanism. I am in the middle of my first day off after 54 straight days of working anywhere between 6 and 13 hours a day, and before my last day off I've had a similar schedule. And I don't know how to do it. I don't know how to have a day off anymore. I have been suddenly slammed with a depressive episode and the only difference in my life is having this day off. I don't know what to do with myself and I think not having work to keep me occupied has allowed my brain to let all that back in. I wanted to relax and enjoy not having to get ready and clock in and be exhausted all day, but it's almost worse. I attempted a couple of my regular hobbies that I haven't had time for; today I painted a little bit and continued some personal researching that I haven't had time for in weeks. But neither one, nor anything else, seems to be able to keep me occupied for more than half an hour. But this rigorous and non-stop work schedule has me at the end of my rope, so the constant is not healthy for me either. How do I work enough to support myself and keep myself sane but at the same time not fall apart on my few and far between off days?