I (16M) am a complete loser and every time I reflect on it I can’t help but go into a deep sadness knowing that it will probably never change anytime soon. I had a real great friend group in Abu Dhabi from 2019-2020 but one thing lead to another and I left that friend group and moved countries and my life’s been pathetic ever since. It was the dumbest decision I’ve ever made and that impulsive decision has completely changed how I live my life. I don’t like to go out, I don’t have any friends, I don’t have any hobbies, I have no aspirations or shit I want to do. I’m a completely boring person who just sits around all day when I don’t have school. It’s been like this for over a year. I go to a psychologist to try and help how I can attempt to make friends and become more social but I get easily discouraged for any small reason and barley bother. And the school I go to is in a community where most people have known each other for a long time so I barely bother to try to make meaningful relationships. I don’t even do drugs or smoke or drink because it intimidates me and my parents have been very strict on that my whole life but it’s more so the intimidation factor. I really have no life. All I do everyday is slug around watching YouTube and the NBA and while I watch these things I have momentary happiness, but after that especially at night or when I’m alone it’s just emptiness seeing who I am as a person. Writing this won’t make any difference but I just felt that I wanted to write this somewhere because I can’t talk about it with my family or anyone.