I am struggling at the moment.

I'm with my SO since one year. My partner is very understanding, calm and loving. He never gets mad at me. I never felt so loved. I love him too.


I have enormous problems with jealousy. I know, he is with me, he loves me, all that. Still, my brain gets out of control and it's very, very unhealthy for me. My ED is out of control ever since and I split almost every week, it hurts me.
I am not able to talk with him about these problems. I tried to. He dodges these kind of conversations which hurts me even more and makes me feel abandoned and betrayed. 


I'm reading here that people either stay alone for their mental healths sake, or they say they continue with the help of DBT etc. DBT did not help me yet with the splitting, my main problem. So I am confused. Should I really go on?

*edit: a word