I had some EMDR therapy yesterday and I feel like my emotions are everywhere. In the middle of one of the eye movement sets I started sobbing. I was told to bring up an image in my mind of my father and I just broke. He died March 17th from MANEC cancer and I haven't been the same since. 

I feel like I'm in a hole and scrabbling to get out. I keep getting images of him at Christmas and then only 3 months later in hospice. Some days it feels like he's still here or that I'm waiting for that call from hospice. Its like my brain won't accept he is dead - even though I have his ashes in an urn. 

Does anyone else know if EMDR will get easier or if it hurts and tires you out each time?