It's a lot to explain but to keep it short I've struggled with fatigue/mental health for years but last year I lost my thyroid due to cancer and had a radiation treatment and ever since then the fatigue is insane. I'm talking making it through every day is a drag; even though I enjoy my work I'm counting down the seconds till I can go home and stop pretending I'm not miserable. By the time I get home I'm having morbid SI thoughts because I can't deal with the thought of being this tired forever. I can't NOT take a nap and the whole nap my brain is in and out of processing my day. Every morning I have to set multiple alarms that require me to complete tasks (squats, math problems) to turn it off then I still can't get up. I feel like I'm on nyquil fighting to stay awake. I'm only 27. I work out, go for walks, use a SAD light, all my blood work is normal but nothing helps. I've talked to my doctors but they're forcing me to keep my TSH super low and not having a thyroid has just made the mood stuff 10x worse. I'm debating going off my lamotrigine to see if the energy improves or if I can induce a better mood but I know it'll destabilize me. Idk what to do 😭