So I am in hypomania and i got angry with my friends. We all play dnd together and  we're working on a personal project for it. I decided to make a plan to get things done because we were behind and had full intentions of going about it in a polite way, however my excitement took over andi changed a part that someone else was working on. I changed it back but the damage was done. Then a few days later a group message about it went up and I felt really called out (even though I wasn't mentioned by name) and responded really directly to it and was angry and wanted to talk about it with everyone. The words were fine, but it was the tone that was upsetting. I didnt cuss, i just explained how i would have preffered this handled privately and i was angry that i was being talked about behind my back. Well.. everyone wont talk to me about it. They all need space and are avoiding me. Ive tried to reach out, ive apologized, however there's been nothing but coldness and aggression. It's been really painful and I know i deserve some of this as their feelings are hurt and that deserves respect. It's hard not to let my feelings or rejection and not being given a chance to resolve things take over, plus I'm still in this whirlwind of emotions and everything's turned up by 100. 

Now they all want to play dnd without me, starting tomorrow and my bf is going to do it with them. This really hurts. I'm trying to be kind and empathetic about it but this really feels like an in your face rejection especially because my partners involvement. It's going to happen and I need advice on how to manage my feelings and what to do to not feel so hurt by everyone.