So I'd been paying all the rent, and the cell phone bills, and everything. His name is on the lease, he kept going back and forth between his hometown (where he'd use) and where we lived. I finally had enough and broke up with him about a month ago - I was hospitalized after. I've struggled a lot. I've struggled to let go of the relationship. He owes me at least $300 dollars because I'd paid for his recent cell bill, and when I found out he'd been using, and spending his money on dope again while I was shouldering all the responsibility, I finally called him out on everything: that he abandoned me (literally) and his responsibilities, that he'd fucked with my head and gaslighted and manipulated me for months and months, that he used me and took advantage of me, that he called me names, and that I was done with all of it and didn't care anymore about what he thought of me or what he called me.  


Except now, I feel extremely guilty...like maybe I was just really mean. Please someone help?