ugh so last night i got in a really bad mood because my bf told me he made plans to hang out with this girl
on monday. she's some girl he messaged on facebook because they always reacted to each other's posts ig. so he asked her if she wanted to be friends and then from there they started messaging ig? and now they have a 20 or so day streak on snapchat... which makes me uncomfortable as hell. i never brought it up to him because i really want to trust him and not overreact all the time but it's hard to feel secure sometimes. so i couldn't fall asleep at all because i was spiraling and overthinking every thing like why does he want to hang out with her on my day off??? the last day off i'll have with him before he starts his new full time job AND not one job but two!!! it's going to be hard to make time to spend together after he starts work on tuesday and yet he wants to spend monday with her... it made me really upset. i wanted to snoop through his phone while he was asleep but i didn't because i hate that. it's an invasion on privacy and creepy so after like hours of laying there and torturing myself with questions and scernios of what they were gonna do bc he never told me??? i finally decided to just wake him up and tell him how i was feeling... and he laughed at me... he said it was silly because she's literally just a friend and i shouldn't worry but i can't help it! and he told me that he asked her to hang out, that he messaged her first and that when they first started being friends, he told her he was TALKING to someone??? yes we weren't official at that time but he was calling me his gf anyways and saying we were dating and it didn't matter about a title because i was his but when it comes to this new girl, oh we're just talking... i don't like that. so i asked him if he updated her and told her we made things official and that i'm his gf and he said no...  but i'm sure she knows i post about u on there... and she also told him she thought he was cute and he said thank u??! like to me, this girl was trying to put it out there that she thought he was attractive and the fact that he didn't shut it down upsets me because i have like 30+ unread messages on facebook from guys trying to be my friend and telling me i'm pretty and i don't give them the time of day. i just feel like i'm putting too much into this relationship and not getting it back... he also told me that i'm kind of clingy and he just needs space sometimes and it just makes me freak out and out of habit become more clingy because i'm scared to lose him. i don't know what to do, i felt a little better after our talk but now i'm at work and spiraling and i'm scared he's going to leave me...