Why dont they get my highs and lows? Seriously this time lesson learnt, tactics applied. Why do they rush me around I have my routines that keep me in check and from getting to far mentally “out of bounds”. My manic phases have straight up been dangerous to my well been and future. I’m medicated but have trouble when I get into a “thing” I get off my patterns…. I fall off my good habits and I start to corrode inside out till I fall into a depressed state and watch other relationships evaporate. Truly that’s never what I’m looking for really either … this shits hard any dating advice? I even tried to tell her let’s go slow but it’s all blow up again… felling alone