Obsessed over and feels like love. Still with him (just about) but he has all but said he can never be that person and love me. And yet he cares and we text everyday but being apart and knowing that he has committment issues and will never be that person in the long term gets me in a suicidal state almost everyday. It makes my symptoms worse and my S. H and I know the right thing to do is end it but I love him and don't want to. I'm getting iller and iller and functioning less and can't go on like this anymore. I feel too much. I don't want to feel. 