I'm learning DBT in a group, working through trauma with my psychologist, and have been reading TONS on BPD and CPTSD.  So I'm trying to work through everything really intensely and really fast.  I have a stupid, complex chronic pain condition I'm trying to heal my mind for, so I can hopefully get better as fast as possible.

Sometimes when I'm trying to figure out reality, I end up talking to myself, to answer the thoughts in my head.  Like, "No, of course your psychologist wouldn't fuck with you when she said that; of course she meant that..."  And if I'm thinking about extra confusing stuff, I sometimes pace my room trying to think about it.



P.S. I don't usually post two things on the BPD subbreddit on the same day, but when I do, I'm stressed the fuck out.