 Im just writing this to vent and feeling sorry for myself. 

being stupid is a detriment in every part of life, since deceision making and impulse control are heavely affected. No matter if problem solving skills, academic references,a quick in the moment or long lasting career, medical… deceision. You are pretty much on your own with your shitty problem solving skills (cant really rely on anyone because you are just a constant annoyance and noone needs that, or capitalize on you´re stupidity).  
 everything feels like it´s especially hard since you are slow to understand and process information, let alone acting accordingly which drives colleague mad.  
 

being stupid is depressing as hell.  
 Getting pushed aside, insulted or bullied is normal to me, i even understand it: no one has the patience or will to deal with my bullshit, getting frequently angry and annoyed with myself.  
 as kid i´ve been told that everyone can choose what he wants to do and how he wants to carry himself.  
 i always wanted to work with psychology, since it´s a fascinating field and maybe you are able to help people + i always hated physical labor. Too bad i learned that im really shit in school, no matter how much i tried. 

my job or the jobs im able to do are hellish and the kind oft thing no one else wants to do and as bonus it´s shitty paid too… makes you wonder what would happen if all stupid people would stop doing their shit jobs. probably nothing, guess there is a reason why we are poor.  
 

being stupid often feels almost scary.  
besides the existencial dread of how im gonna find a job, how can i cover up my fuckups and so on. thanks to my bad memory it often feels like reallity is changing just to make it as bad as possible for  
me.  
often i cant recall something at all, like a day/week before i´ve been told something or i did something and the next day it´s like it never happened… makes you doubt your senses or perception of reallity sometimes, as if someone or something is out to get you.  
however i understand if someone forgets something a month ago or something but i forget things i did study multiple times and really tried to imprint on my brain but well…  
 

thats just a short and very poorly written summary of a few problems you face with being low iq. Im sorry about this mess, but i never was any good at writing and yes i took my time with this text and still it turned out like this.