i hate having to wake up everyday. going to work and going home. going to work and going home. i hate it. i hate being here and i hate being alive. i hate myself. yes call me lazy or unproductive whatver i don’t fucking care anymore. i am lazy. i don’t want to get out of bed. i don’t want to do anything. i truly just don’t have the will to live. idk how people do this everyday. for the rest of their lives it’s just this. everyday i hope that i could die in my sleep but no. things don’t get better. life isn’t worth living