I have BPD and also PTSD from a lot of horrible experiences, including repeated sexual abuse / exploitation.  When I see people being misogynistic on social media, sometimes I really lose my cool.  I will go straight for the throat and say whatever is the meanest ad hominem attacks I can think of.  Afterwards I feel ashamed and become afraid that my friends saw my comments and will think I'm just a hateful bully.  But just reading people say degrading things about women triggers me so bad it's like I can't even control it.

I'll go without doing this for months but then I'll see a comment that I just can't ignore and I'll get sucked into a back-and-forth for hours just verbally attacking strangers and feeling really hurt when they attack me back....

Does anyone else do this?  Am I a bad person?  Usually the people I'm "trolling" kinda deserve it because they're being very insensitive, but I feel like I just seem crazy or like a toxic person / bully.  I just keep oscillating between feelings of self-righteous rage and then shame...