don’t know if this is necessarily correlated to bpd. feels like i’m on an island in space. i don’t even feel real. i have completely isolated myself from everyone and everything, it is my fault. i did this to myself. 

i feel so weird and not human. i’m currently sitting in someone else’s body. i don’t even have anyone to reach out to. i did this to my fucking self, i’m not unlikable, i just ghost people, i cut them off, i run before any friendship has even started and i try to fucking blow up the ones i have. 

i hate coming here because i hate this part of myself and fuck man i don’t know how to describe it at all