I have panic attacks from walking past people if they even glance at me, i hate people seeing how pathetic i am. Im scared of mobiles and cameras, i dont want anyone to photograph me to capture how pathetic and ugly i am. What if they are laughing at me? I hate my friends seeing me so pathetic. I dont want to eat infront of anyone it might be gross for them. I cant make eye contact i cant talk, my voice is too high piched and disgusting for people to hear. I want to hide my face so no one has to suffer looking at it for even a second. Im really scared of going outside. Until my parents forced me to go outside after 4 years of not going out once i couldnt bear it. I felt like everyone was thinking about how ugly i am whenever they looked at me, Im scared if someone is filming me through that window.

i doubt anyone read this but if you did sorry for wasting ur time. I dont know where else to vent about this.