About a year and a half ago, i met this guy, who straight up everyone knew was a player, he had this charm to him that you couldn’t resist. We started becoming friends with benefits and like an idiot, i fell for him. That was the start of the worst year of my life. He was constantly drinking and hooking up with other girls, i was nothing to him. So i spent a whole year crying everyday because he wasn’t in love with me and because he talked to prettier girls ( one of them my ex best friend). I had to hear stories about him hooking up with other people and my BPD just intensified these emotions so it hurt extremely bad. Sometimes when he’d do or say something that hurt me i’d stay in bed for over 2 days crying nonstop. He’d also ghost me after every time we hooked up and come back when he felt like it after about a month or so and i never said a thing about it. He would talk shit about me and deny it when i ask him, lie about his virginity and never apologized for a single thing he’s done yet has the audacity to come back after every terrible thing he’s done. After about a year and a half, I’ve grown this hatred for him, and thats where it all ended, i couldn’t think about him or be next to him without feeling an overwhelming amount of rage. He ruined my life for a year and probably thought nothing of it.  Not mad he didn’t fall in love with me, just mad he did all these terrible things. But its over now for good, finally rejected him for the first time!! Super proud of me lol