I don't know who I am or what I want to be. I don't feel like i can be independent, i don't have motivation, but I feel like i'm just going to let everyone down and be stuck working minimum wage and not actually enjoying life. I haven't heard back from my college application at all, either. It's so bad that sometimes believe that [CW] ||suicide is a better option than being stuck in this hell.|| My body's been racked with random symptoms and panic attacks for over 4 years now, with no help from several medications and therapists. I just want to be normal goddamnit