I am currently going through another random spell of panic waves and slight dissociation. Not sure exactly what triggered it, I guess I have a few ideas of what may have but overall it seems like one of those bad anxiety weeks that comes from nowhere. 

This time it is manifesting itself as the usual impending doom and adrenaline surges, but with a new twist. This time I have been feeling intense dizziness/almost vertigo symptoms. Almost like being hungover, that spins type of feeling but I am months sober at this point. I cut out all recreational drugs and alcohol because they were huge triggers for me and it was necessary that do. I used to be a huge binge drinker for years. I feel it damaged parts of my brain or something.

I am a 23 year old male, and when I get like this I have to try to focus in things that really matter to me. My two main things that calm me down and give me something to focus on other than my inner demons are my wonderful girlfriend of 4 years, and my cat who is turning one in a few weeks.

Do you guys have any people/things/pets/hobbies that keep you grounded? I know for me when I start feeling like I am going to die or vanish from the world due to anxiety, my cat can almost sense it and will come curl up next to me and bump her head on mine in a super loving way. Same goes for my girlfriend, we both suffer panic attacks and anxiety so she knows when I am in the middle of an attack, and she will just scratch my back, rub my feet and get me some tea. 

The greatest thing to keep in mind is these feelings are all temporary. When I am going through it, I just repeat to myself in my head that every time I get like this it tortures me for a few days, I battle it, and then it seems to crawl back into the deep caverns of my mind for months at a time leaving me mostly alone. Sort of reminds me of Pennywise from IT. 

Try to think of what brings you comfort and peace. What keeps you strong?