A few hours ago I told my mom I am starting to hear voices again.

Her response? "You're not crazy. You're not schizophrenia."

Mom, I love you, BUT WAS I FUCKING IMPLYING I WAS????

No, the fuck I wasn't!

And yes I did get mad at her! I even asked her if she is starting to think I no longer need medication based on her "ObVeRsAtIoNs".

Yeah, she basically said I don't need as much help as I think I do base on her own observations.

MOM GOD DAMN IT YOU ARE NOT INSIDE MY HEAD

YOU DO NOT PERSONALLY FEEL THE PAIN I GO THROUGH EVERY DAY

YOU CAN NOT SEE IT ON THE OUTSIDE

Yesterday I tried to tell her that I have huge memory gaps in my childhood and from the past few years. Due to finding out that memories being blanked out is a trauma response.

Yet she brushed it off!

"But, you remember these moments!!!"

Well yeah because THOSE WERE GOOD MOMENTS 

God, I'm so fucking pissed right now.