
    I’ve been diagnosed for about 2-3 yrs and I knew it wasn’t gonna be easy at all. I’ve done my DBT sessions and my therapist said i’ve really grown a lot since our first session. I haven’t spoken with her in a while since completing the sessions and i can say I am feeling better. I am approaching things differently or at least recognize some impulsive behaviors. I haven’t dug into the real deep shit that drove me over a cliff like Bonny n Clyde but i will eventually! 

    The thing is, i’ve recently tried letting someone into my life w/o having doubts and be deceived by my own thoughts but i failed. I got scared when she told me “It’s like i’m walking on eggshells w you sometimes” and it scared tf out of me. So i ended it for her sake and I’m trying so hard not to be crazy so that whoever has the privilege to end up w me doesn’t feel that way. I’m just so tired of this. I won’t give up because i know the second i do, that’s when ill lose it all. 

   I’m looking into books about being in a relationship while having BpD but i wanted to hear from some of you guys who also dealt with this. How long? How long did it take you to realize that you were ready? 

TLDR: How long did it take you to be a healthy partner to your s/o?