Lately, my BPD has been flaring up very badly, and this is including a depressive phase. I am constantly waiting around for direction/purpose. I need people to tell me what to do because I don't know what to do myself, or I just don't have any effort to care.   
The worst thing about it is, I actually get mad when people don't give me tasks. It seems I just want someone to blame, and I have a need to prove that I am not slacking off.   
Does this make any sense? Has anyone else experienced this?