I have faced years of this stupid illness, around 8 years till now. By now, I should have gotten "used" to it. But no, I am far from it.

The last time I visited a CBT practitioner (like 3/4 months ago), after a few sessions, she once told me "Some people can just never overcome Depression. You just need to learn to live with it". And before anyone bashes her for it throwing at me a negative comment, I would disagree with you. She tried being positive and all, but in the end, she had to be realistic. So, I would not say that she was going against her practice.

I intend to come to terms with my depression, but I just can't. I am unemployed, broke, no relationships etc. I am really really lonely and sad. I curse myself for being such a failure. I tried being positive, tried going the self help route, tried changing myself, but I am just too much toxic for myself. All I think all day is of my death. Just how much my life sucks and how sweet it would be if somehow, I could just perish off the face of the planet. I have people who care for me (don't want me dead), but I cannot open up to anyone (apparently, I am just too negative).

So yeah, back to the question, how the heck do you some to terms with being sad forever?