My memory is bad, my dissociation is bad, i always am feeling out of it. I feel very ditzy, unorganized, sometimes i cant even keep a conversation because i forget what im saying or what we are talking about and that i never make any sense. I hate being just out of it all of the time. Everyone else notices it to. I really do try to focus and for the most part i can however sometimes I literally cant process anything and i dont understand why. Growing up i had great memory and was always on top of everything but has gone downhill the past few years and its now is getting so much worst the dissociation even though im doing so much better like losing weight, better hygiene, cleaning more but interally it feels like im losing grip of reality