do any of you ever feel scared of your own thoughts? like your feelings are all too complex and you'd rather not look into any of it because you know you have a problem, a really deep and maybe unfixable problem and you're scared that once you take a peek at whatever is going on in your head and in your heart then it would be 10x harder to pretend that everything is completely fine and that you don't need help even though you know you need help and have tried countless times to make someone, anyone, see that but no one does. and if no one can see that you need help what's the point in any of it? what's the point in trying? its like anytime I feel a rabbit hole of thoughts coming on I immediately reject it because all it does is remind me of how I cant be helped and I cant be saved and I cant keep living like everything is okay. Is it just me? please someone reply because I feel like I'm going crazy.