well i have enough lexapro to last me at least 6 months i take 30mg or well, used to.

i decided to stop taking it because of how lifeless it makes me. now im now you, it works different for different people but in my case it was weird and just made me a person with no soul. i started seeing things that i was always disgusted of like gore and blood and actually enjoy them. 

like bloody scenes in movies where they have to remove a bullet and stuff like that. before that i couldnt tolerate them but when i was on lexapro i was a different thing

i was just a machine basically. i didnt have any feelings or emotions i was basically an apathetic psychopath. a lot of my friends hated me and tbh i really still dont care but wtf i would care those are my friends of years. its weird how i view things from a totally different perspective now

i stopped taking it a week ago. i dont feel any withdrawal symptoms from it. i just now hate gory things again. but i also got my anxiety back and some of my depression too.

are you supposed to be on anti depressants your whole life? i didnt know that tbh

so yeah, either i take them and be a careless soulless being. or i dont take them and start acting like i have infinite periods.

i still dont know which one to choose lmao