I wanted to see if anyone has the same issue as me.

The amount of people I would say I trust, I could count on one hand. And if someone betrayed that trust it would mean I lost finger if you know what I mean. I have my circle of people and there's room to leave but no room for someone to replaced.

However, I could tell them about being anxious at work, relationship, money - absolutely anything.
And then there are days randomly where the thought of opening up to them sets me off on a huge anxiety attack. I've convinced myself that whatever my issues are, either they won't help or they can help. Which means they're useless to me. 

It'll take me months before I open back up to them and it's not their fault. 

Anyone have anything similar?