Hi I literally feel like I might die at any moment right now I’m so scared. Im just noticing at 1 am that my very old apartment has a number of cracks along the walls and the walls themselves look curved and bent like in a crappy funhouse, all of this along the top of the walls gives the impression that my unit is being crushed under a hydraulic press. Doors have been closing weirdly and I’m pretty sure the door frames have been warped.
Also the building is a soft story in the earthquake country of california. My bedroom hovers over the garage with no supporting beams directly underneath to support it.
The building already had significant structural damage after a larger building was constructed next door. That was fixed but I’m worried not enough. 
Ever since that condo collapse in Florida I have had a number of sleepless nights about the prospect that could happen to me. 
My parents completely dismissed my concerns and even got mad at me for freaking out. 
I’m currently sitting in the living room next to the front door with all my most valuable possessions, including my kitten.

I feel completely unsafe in my own home. 

These past few months have been hell for my mental health with so much anxiety and depression and intrusive thoughts and I don’t know if I can take it anymore.