I. Can’t. Take. It. Anymore.

My moods change from happy and positive to miserable and angry within hours. I’m awful to be around and I know it and I hate myself for it because I don’t even want to be around me.

So I take some pills or drink to change my spirits. That doesn’t work anymore at all. This chronic emptiness has just made me into a shell. I don’t feel anything anymore. I don’t feel joy, excitement, interest — only apathy and limited amounts of empathy. Oh and of course irritation at anything and everything.

I hate this disorder. I hate my life. I live in a capital city and I feel suffocated, almost like it’s not enough for me and I need more. I always need more.

I’m just done