This is something I’m worried about. As a kid I was always super bright. Got put up a year in school. I did have adhd and was super hyper but I was bright. I was 13 when I first got put on SSRIS and started having episodes. I’m now 20. I don’t feel the same. I had my first psychosis when covid started and went through a very hard breakup not long after over the phone because the relationship was long distance. The last job I had was over a year ago . I quit because it was just too much for me emotionally. Ive always just been so damn sensitive. The last year all I’ve done is uni and self isolation due to extreme lockdowns in my country. Ive gone months not really doing anything or talking to anyone as I’ve been the “toxic” friend everyone wants to stay away from. No one likes you when you’re mentally ill. So here I am nearly in 2022, nearly 21, with barely any friends and a terrible sense of disconnect from myself,my family and the little friends I do have. I can’t hold a conversation anymore or watch a movie, I can barely think about anything , I’ve noticed how slow I am and it’s actually kind of frightening, embarrassing also because I’m living with the constant paranoia that I’m saying or doing something dumb and not even noticing. Anxiety and depression that don’t improve for years is crippling for your mental abilities. I’m just not here anymore.