over the past few days, I was finally able to get out of my mother’s abusive household. so far things are looking hopeful, im safe, I have food now, my extended family in another state are looking to take care of me until I turn 18. 


however, I just feel so drained.  ive had so much  advice and positive messages from hundreds of ppl in other subs, hundreds of texts on insta, hundreds of snaps, but I just don’t have motivation to reply or hold any conversations. I just feel so fucking sad. like I don’t know how to explain it. only thing I’ve been doing is just talking to my friend &amp; her mother when they check on me , some of my family members and sit in silence and cry.  my mom kept calling and texting me last night but I blocked her. 

idk it’s too much to explain. 


guys I feel like I am better off dead….. that’s all I feel. 

I’m having a hard time taking basic care of myself because of how empty I feel. ive been thinking about taking my own life. 
I’ve been thinking about everything that lies ahead of now. its so uncertain, and it’s killing me. i just wish I had the chance to be normal. i wish I had the chance to be happy.


i don’t know….. I am worried about myself, i just wanna pass away and be forgotten about …. 


i wish there was something I could do to change this