Sometimes, when I'm really out of control if it's about to my emotional reactions, I just totally forget what I said a few seconds earlier. 

For example, when I was talking to my therapeutist a year and a half ago, he said something really obvious and provocative about my behavior. In defense, I immediately threw him a harsh sentence. He didn't say anything for a few minutes about it, then he brought it up again. And I was just wondering what is he talking about, seconds later I froze and scared. I thought I never said it to him then the memories of the moment slowly developed. 

I'm still terrified tbh.