I’ve been seeing my therapist for a while and I like her a lot but she has cancelled on me the day of our session several times and I have always been understanding as she would say she had an appointment or something. Lately though, she’s been cancelling on me several times and she just texts me an hour before to tell me, and last week she didn’t even let me know, she simply didn’t show up. She said she felt sick that day and thought she had reached out to all of her patients to cancel but forgot about me. I don’t want to be the stereotypical BPD patient who is hard to work with and honestly I think I’ve been doing good with not splitting on my therapist because I haven’t since we started seeing each other and I have been very flexible because I don’t want to be a bother, however it’s gotten to the point where I haven’t seen her for weeks and she just cancelled on me an hour ahead of our session and I just kinda broke down (i’m on my period and have had a hard week). Anyway, she has told me before that she doesn’t charge me her full rate (she works on a sliding scale and knows I’m not able to pay $300+ for a session), and I don’t know if this is me grasping at straws but I don’t know if she just doesn’t care because she’s not making as much money from me or because I’m just annoying and unimportant, i don’t know. I’m probably just overreacting but I feel that she could at least let me know beforehand. Like if I were to cancel the day of, she’d charge me full price, so why is it ok for her to cancel so often? 

I’m just venting honestly but I also wanna know if i’m overreacting and what should I do? I like her but I also feel shitty always being cancelled on at the last minute.