I’m a 17 year old trans guy. I turn 18 in the next 3 months and have been waiting for years to start my transition due to a non supportive family. I started T in January and I’m so happy but I lied to get it. The doctor asked me if I struggled with mental illness. Mostly depression and anxiety. I admitted I did but when she asked me if I still struggled I lied and said I’m much better now. I said that because I was scared that if I was honest she was going to tell me I wasn’t mentally ready to start T. I needed this. I needed T. For months, I’ve been trying to hold myself together enough to make it through top surgery before I can finally stop bottling it all up. I’m scared that if I open up they’ll cancel my consult for top surgery and take me off T. After the surgery and the healing I can let go and spend a week or two in a mental health facility to get better, til then, I feel so drained and tired all the time. I just wanted to tell someone, anyone.