I feel like drinking is the only thing I look forward to. I have nothing else that brings me any joy in life. I have no friends, distant family, I have nowhere to go and nothing to ever do. Trying to go out and do things alone is extremely boring and anxiety-inducing. Every day it's just the same old boring silence. I'm really trying to stop drinking, but it's hard when alcohol is pretty much the only thing in your life that makes you slightly happy.