So I have a boyfriend (20,M) who I've been with for 11 months. Before that he had, let's say a couple non-sexual flings if not relationships. 

Now I do trust my boyfriend, but not enough to tell me the truth sometimes. I'm heavily insecure and I have an anxiety disorder which makes me bombard him with questions every split second of the day. Case in point- 

I cut my hair, short. There was this girl, let's call her A who sort of gave me the idea to shorten my hair as she looked quite good in them. In the beginning I somewhat did want to look like her but that was only because to me it was unique and I really digged her look. Not necessarily the person. 

Then I was watching gilmore girls. Same thing happened. Saw short hair, wanted them. 

So I cut them. I know it shouldn't matter too much but my boyfriend probably doesn't like them. I instantly noticed that I looked like this A person who my boyfriend is also familiar with, as in he's seen the way she looks. She's damn stunning and my boyfriend finds her quite attractive. 

Fearful of the same, I asked him " do I remind you of someone?" And he mentioned one of his flings and told me this other girl he has a fling with had the same hair. Now the only thought that came into my head- what if he gets reminded of her when we're getting intimate (he's never gotten intimate with her as far as I know) and then I asked him about girl A and he said, "I don't think so" "I don't remember" I think he mostly says this to out off conversations. 

I don't know what to do. I told him I won't be willin to get intimate with him out of the fear of him getting reminded of someone. I can't seem to get this out of my head. And I feel like I should shave my head off. 

I'm really anxious. Help. Advice. I know this is petty but my Anxiety won't let me live. 

The thing I'm most fearful of is him getting reminded of these girls when we're having sex or worse him thinking of them. I can't wait for my hair to grow out because it's going to take a while. Even if I do end up getting intimate with him I don't know how I'll make my anxiety subside. 


PLEASE. HELP.