i can’t feel much of anything. not even sad and sometimes i sabotage my own relationships and success to feel something and start fights for it. i can’t care about much i forget about things and can’t hold grudges. have such a hard time feeling sympathy or empathy. i don’t feel guilt unless like shamed enough. it just feels like my emotions are so much harder to reach. and sometimes i get these mood swings i love because i feel something and i don’t wanna get these regulated by a doctor because i like them but i do things i regret during them.