For some context, the last 2 years we have been on and off dating a couple of times with my fp. 
First time was amazing however I was stupid and split because of some issues that wasnt even my concern but it happened. 

About 6 months later I came back and we started dating again, this is where it gets weird as she only did that so that I wouldnt be upset and didnt actually like me or so they say, it's at the point now where we arent dating currently however they said maybe sometime in the future. 

Currently just about starting to understand that but am very stuck on what to do now, I love them so much and it hurts to even speak to them knowing that they dont love me back. 

They support me and know of my bpd however I can tell it is getting to them a lot. Just wanted to ask what you would do in my situation, I dont want to split however I know it's probably the beat choice here just wanted to back it up instead of me being insane.