I have a lot of stuff to tell. I'm close to blowing my brains out and I kinda need someone to talk to. Now I have friends, but I don't want to bother them with my bullshit. 

Most of the time I tell them through sarcasm and jokes. I'm not sure how to actually fuckin tell my friends or maybe even my family, about my bullshit in a way other than joking about it. Venting on reddit all the time is only helpful up to a point.