I posted a few times about starting medication on here and r/zoloft but i just couldnt stick with it, the symptoms are too much for me (insomnia and fear of hurting myself or someone else, more anxious than ive ever been, among things) and I just dont think its worth it right now.  I was doing well with therapy so im just going to focus on that for awhile

I just feel so guilty, like im weak for not being able to handle it. Everyone was saying just to get through it and it would be better. I feel like i let down myself, my therapist, the psych, my partner, etc. They are all very understanding and say i should do what i think is best but i still feel like a failure for not being able to take it