Hi I'm Ash. I have been dealing with BPD symptoms since I was 19 and I was diagnosed when I was around 25. I just started doing some light exercise preparing for yet another job (I've been through about 18 at this point) and I start next week. I also made the decision to stop using sex as a coping mechanism because of a very traumatic rape that happened to me 2 weeks ago that involved a good friend of mine. I don't know what else to say except... it stopped. The pain in my heart stopped. The constant fear and worry and exaggerated EVERYTHING. it S T O P P E D. When I think about like worrying about it I am a little worried it will come back but like not BPD level of worried. I was able to let one of my friends go after thanking him. It didn't hurt. It didn't feel like my heart was being ripped out. The only reason I am nervous to post this is because I don't want to jinx it but I want to give people hope. The 10 year thing is true guys! I didn't believe it. I didn't. I am in tears and I hope you all find your happy endings! I leave you all with this. On February 12 2022 I am having my 28th birthday party and I am making it a "beat my life expectancy party" and I know that is kinda bleak for those of you still suffering but I planned it before I knew this would happen. If you can see the happiness in making it to 28 I urge you ALL to kick ass and make it to 28 and beyond and have that same party. I will post about mine, I promise. Love you all! - Ash