I don’t know if this makes sense or not. I feel like I am overwhelmingly empathetic towards people that I let even their cruellest words or mood slide because I understand what it’s like to be in a shitty, uncontrollable mood. This leads me of course to get walked on... 

On the other hand, some days I have no empathy at all and can be straight up savage. I’m talking awful. I would be really selfish too. But then after a while I reflect on something I said or thought and just feel immensely sad that I could be so evil. 

Ugh. I tried. It’s so difficult to convey my thoughts some days. It’s as if my mind can’t come to the decision of the perfect thing to say so it leaves me blank instead. 