i feel like i’m a nice person! but i swear i just get crazy and i don’t know how to keep it in check 😭 i genuinely have no friends, and i really wish I could make some :( i recently started college, and we have to do a group project so we all picked our groups right? well anyways this guy in my group project and I have been getting along great! we meet up individually and talk for hours after our lecture. well anyway he has more classes with this girl who is also in our group project but she hasn’t been doing much work so i’ve been sort of miffed about it. well anyway i asked if we could all meet up to work on it after class today in our gc a couple days ago and he individually texted me saying that the girl couldn’t. so today i’m talking to him and asked him about why she couldn’t just respond to the gc and tell me that she couldn’t come? well anyway he told me that they talk out of the gc and i have a feeling since i’ve been making a lot of plans and trying to get them to meet up so we can work on this that they dislike me. well anyway i kind of got upset and told him that i bet they all have a secret gc without me in it where they talk shit about me and when i said that the atmosphere IMMEDIATELY changed. it got so awkward and weird and he just told me that they didn’t. he left like right after too. god i feel so awful why would i say that??? this has been my first chance at making a friend in a whole year and i blew it. we were actually getting along really well too. idk what the point of this post is i just wish i could keep my thoughts from ruining my relationships. does anyone else feel like this?