I've been struggling with this so much the last few years. Now that I work for myself from home(solved one problem!), I have the new problem of not being able the get myself to leave the house.

So, I can't get myself to go to the gym.
I can't get myself to go and get groceries until I get really desperate (I don't buy them online).
I won't go and get a coffee, or go for a walk or anything.
I moved to Italy nearly a year ago because I wanted to be surrounded by history and culture and amazing things. But to get myself to go out and look at it is nearly impossible. I tell myself I'll go tomorrow, and the cycle continues.

I can only force myself to go out when I have an obligation to other people who are expecting me. Even then I spend a few hours deliberating on whether I should really go or what sort of excuses I can make up. So far I've kept my commitments 90% of the time, which is good.

I have this bf (you may have read about our dramas in other posts), and I kinda expect him to care about this and to help me get out. But since he now only sees me on weekends, he doesn't know the living hell I experience on weekdays, and this is causing so much resentment that I feel is reaching a boiling point. 

I've written before that I feel like I need a full time carer. I really do think this and if I could afford one I'd hire someone to parent me. But I don't have that option right now, and my bf isn't willing to fill those shoes.

So why am I having this problem leaving the house? I wish I knew so I could try and solve it.