I dont know if i have the disorder i just dont know which community would even fit and i wanted to get this out

I hate this so fucking much. Constantly having a huge pit in my stomach that makes me miserable and angry even if im with people im comfortable with i cant help but be miserable. My brain is constantly working overtime to make think so much about things i shouldnt think about anymore and im so so tired of it. I hate how easily i snap at the people that I love and now im more worried theyll despise me as a result but i dont know what to do about it. I am scared of being alone.

I had such a good streak where i felt genuinely great and happy with myself but its all gone to the shit at this point. 

Fuck this.