I decided to open up and be honest with people. I realize I have many friends that actually love me, they know my demons and they're always there for me offering  their help. I'm extremely grateful for that.

I recently opened up a Tinder account and despite me being insecure and having low self esteem and depression I've been getting lots of matches everyday. I've clicked with many women. I'm already going out with one very soon. This is a huge confidence boost. They keep telling me I actually look handsome and attractive and that they love my personality and vibrance, which is weird given that I have severe BPD.

Just wanted to share that, I hope this lasts. Heck, I might even get a girlfriend and a serious relationship. I don't even care about sex and I'm almost 27, I know it's hard but believe in yourself.

**I'd appreciate any advice to not screw these unique opportunities. I love how I feel and I don't want to go back to being a suicidal loner. Most of these women are singe mothers, I don't mind, I actually admire strong women like these. But this makes me feel somewhat insecure.**