It’s a long story, so I’ll just cut it short. One of my toxic friends from the past has been making fake accounts on Instagram to try and trick me so I talk to them.

I’ve been ignoring them, granted I’ve only gotten 2, but when I get another one I want to just go along with it. Recently I’ve been thinking about how shitty of a person I used to be in elementary school. I hurt my dog when she barked and bit at me every now and then, I was mean to one of my friends because I couldn’t let get of 
a grudge, and was just a very weird person in general.

All the bad things I did I think corralled to my anger. I had no idea how to deal with it in any healthy way, and to this day my only method is to scream into a pillow. 

I’ve made amends for most of the stuff I’ve done, but all the stuff I can’t make amends for are bothering me. 
I just feel a tad selfish ignoring these messages. It was a living nightmare talking to them, and I don’t want to go through that again, but maybe I deserve it?

As long as I’m writing this I want to just say some obvious things: please please please don’t hit your dog since it’s harmful and not a good training technique, and forgive people who have changed :)