I have been really stressed lately. Alot of pressure at work, Mom's health, weight loss issues...etc.

The only bright part of my day seems to be that 1+ hour that I play online games with some of my IRL guys that ive been playing for years with but everyone started ghosting me for no reason.

The other day, one of the guys overextended and died and blamed me for it. then a few games later, we had another bad game and he rage quit. Since then, I am getting ghosted by everyone and they don't tell me the reason.

I really don't know what I did wrong. I never disrespect anyone, I am the one who always tries to shows interest in their life problems, I try to be the one who brightens up the mood. And I ended up being ghosted? Why do I have to lose my only safe haven, for no reason? I sometimes talk alot which makes me lose focus but no one every had a problem with that? 

I can't stop overthinking what I did wrong. I just wanted everyone to have fun...

I can't stop thinking about it. I havent slept in 2 days, can't swallow my food...etc. 

I just noticed everyone online and they all went invisible mode as soon as I logged in. I started having a panic attack. My mom is trying to get a hold of me but I really don't want her to know of my current situation.