I hate what I become when I get romantically invested in someone. It reduces me to the clingiest, most insecure, anxious, and neurotic version of myself. Especially because I feel so strongly for people so fast, I’m always worried I’ll invest too much too soon. The relationships always feel unequal and inevitably I feel like I’m always the one who cares more and who is willing to give more, then that makes me feel resentment towards my partner. I am always the one who reaches out first/texts/calls first, the only one who ever offers to meet and who tries to make plans, and it is exhausting. My BPD makes me feel like I will be too difficult to love sometimes. I just wanted to know if any of you had similar experiences/general thoughts.