I’m a disappointment to my family. I’ve never been in a relationship and I’m too old for it to ever happen at this point. My parents are going to die soon and I don’t have any  children of my own. They think I’m a loser. I know I am. I’ll never find anyone to spend my life with. I’m just going to die alone. So why not kill myself now? I wouldn’t have to suffer this loneliness anymore. I’m just too old to not have any relationship experience. I hate myself.