I don't know how to carry on. 
I wish I knew things are going to get better.... But they haven't been.
Every time something bad happens, or it gets worse I hear that things can only go up from here. That it can't go any worse. That it will her better.
Well. It's not. I don't know how to carry on. I don't know how to keep the hope that things will get better. Every time I think I'm at the bottom, I find a deeper end. 
I just .... I don't know what to do anymore