I just got married march 10th. Everything has been so perfect.  Then with the quarantine my husband starting working from home which was fine. Except now it seems like his entire world revolves around work. I've been telling him for weeks how lonely I am, but it doesn't seem like hes getting it. In fact yesterday I was really upset and he said "where is this coming from" which proves to me he doesn't listen to me. At first I was just dealing with it and I was doing okay. This week however has been really bad.

He will stay logged in at work an hour over pretty much every day now. Once he logs out he will eat and run outside to do work in the yard.  I dont know what is real or not? I'm pretty sure hes always texting his coworkers and that hes been trying to hide it from me by turning his phone away from me or setting it down low next to him. I dont know though maybe I'm just imagining this because I'm freaking out?  I dont know if its real so I dont want to say anything.  Just to be clear I dont think he is cheating.. I just think he values those relationships more than ours.

I'm starting to split on him and its freaking me out. I keep thinking that getting married was a bad idea.. or that I have to protect myself before something bad happens. I started hurting myself again, I'm crying all the time, and I am slowing beginning to just feel so empty inside. Like I've  known my whole life I had no value and that I dont deserve love. My husband made me feel otherwise.. but now hes proving to me that I'm right. 


Please help me know what to do to fix this.