i don’t even know how to explain what i just did, it was so bizarre. i just finished going for a bike ride and then i went into my room to clean it up a little. but all of a sudden it felt like i lost my mind and i started throwing everything away like a maniac, things that i didn’t even want to get rid of, but i ruined them in the moment so i can’t even take them out of the garbage bag i put them in. i was literally ripping up and cutting shirts, photos, books.??? it’s like i just let all of my anger out. and once i finished cleaning up, i barely remembered everything that i threw away and i just stood there looking at the three filled garbage bags of all of my stuff. i probably ruined about $300 worth of my collections. what the fuck. i seriously need some help but how do i even start a conversation with my psychologist about this??