Last year I was supposed to go into college but I decided to take a gap year to help run my auntie's shop. A year later the shop closed down and now I'm back at the point of choosing my next steps. I wanted to spend this year self teaching myself woodwork more specifically wood carving and If I go to a college it'll most likely be a course similar to it. The problem is I have a lot of anxiety about going into college. My experience in highschool was an extreme low in my life. it wasn't bullying or anything but rather the stress and workload, getting up that early doesn't work for me, the whole thing felt out of my control. I ended up having constant panic attacks and breakdowns pretty much everyday. So I kinda have a little ptsd of having to go through something like that again. So that's why I wanted to self teach myself at least for a year but I'm getting a lot of pressure from my family to go to college and I don't want to explain this situation to them, they don't know anything about the stuff I went through in high school. If anyone has any advice or gone through the same thing I'd really appreciate some help.

Hope you guys are doing ok &lt;3