Over the years as my other mental illnesses have been getting worse (anxiety, depression, avoidant personality disorder) I've become increasingly concerned about germs and right now I think it's causing me to have a panic attack. This probably sounds silly, I know, but the bathroom is the worst and it intensely scares me and sickens me when I think about the germs in there. So just a bit ago, I was cleaning in there. I started to feel sick because of my thoughts combined with the smell of cleaner (the cleaners smell awful to me). After cleaning each thing, I just had to wash my hands after everything and it was really stressful. Anyway, after cleaning I went to research different cleaners (need some new ones) and just looking and thinking about all these cleaners has now left me feeling intensely sick. My head hurts and I feel nauseous and I just feel dirty. I feel like my hands are dirty and that my phone is dirty and that I'm just spreading it everywhere and I'm getting so overwhelmed right now. I feel horrible. I wish I didn't feel this way... it scares me because it's gotten bad pretty quickly. Just for reference, my dad is a germaphobe and also years ago when I was dealing with trauma, I became very OCD and cleaned obsessively. I guess it's just coming back, but worse now. 

I'm not incredibly knowledgable about this, but does anyone else experience something like this? Does anyone have tips on how to stop feeling like everything is so dirty? Because I do know that things are clean around here and also that germs are normal and it's impossible for everything to be spotless all the time but there's just this feeling I have that things are so dirty and contaminated... I hope this makes sense because I feel like I can't describe it well enough. Anyway, responses are greatly appreciated.