I dont know how to put this, since last 1 year I was going downhill but I am at my lowest currently, Im 21 and have no future plans, about what am I going to do, I see around my friends are all doing jobs and moving on in their life, I'm just here stuck, this anxiety gives me fear of everything I do going wrong,and it does my business is not profitable and I don't have any other source of income, im scared of putting more money and loosing it. 
I'm so anxious that I buffer doing things  that I'm confident and 100% sure. Fuck how did it came to this, I have no self-confidence, and toxic shame, I do things wrong and then get angry on myself for doing it, this compulsive nature mixed with depression is the deadline surely i get fucked up thoughts, till the point I procastinate and watch youtube for 4 hours a day, if this goes on like this for 2 more months, I'm not sure what will happen to me. Just sharing this to feel relieved