Tonight I was having a bad episode &amp; wanted to self harm so bad. I was about to throw up for the first time because I needed some control and a new type of pain (gross I know). I literally had my toothbrush down my throat and a little voice inside my head just told me to stop tonight and to be easier on myself. So I ran myself a candle lit bath, cuddled my cat and went to bed with some music. 

sharing bc it’s possible. one night of freedom. hoping for more in the future.