I am a student in 4th year of university and i got my iq tested once and it was 120 so i know that i am not mentally handicapped. But i was bullied a lot in school because i used to behave strangely, had no contact with reality, for example i wore high heels when i was 14, or refused to to a ponytail during sports lessons, broke my ankle by kicking a wall, converted to islam for a week because i liked a muslim guy, LIKE EFFIN TRISHA PAYTAS, sometimes stopped listening during the middle of a conversation to look somewhere, like a dumb person. I am a lot less strange today because i am not bullied anymore and got used to socializing more, but i am still strange and do a lot of inappropriate stuff without noticing it. Like asking professor a question while moving my hand a LOT, like an italian caricature, it was a math question do the movements were unnecessary. And probably mant more embarrassing situations that i didn't even notice were embarrassing. I feel like i am probably extremely dumb and everyone is hiding it from me to avoid hurting me. I know it's paranoia but it seems so real sometimes. I was so weird and lost, so even if i feel like i've changed i probably didn't. I am still that strange teenager, the "dumbest girl of the class". Dies anyone feel the same?