So i was prescribed Ativan a couple years ago but i abused the utter shit out of it so I stopped getting it filled. Then about 5 months i started getting attacks like I never knew possible. not just worry, but as bad as im going to kill myself if they dont stop and they were happening sometimes several times a day. I finally got back with my dr and he put my back in Ativan (thank God) the way he prescribed it was take 1mg but if a half mg seems it would suffice, then do a half. I got this script on monday and have no benzo tolerance yet so of course they are getting me a little bit high and drowsy. and my girlfriend is freaking out that I look fucked up but if I could have her experience the absolute TORCHER that these panics involve she would be taking a whole one too. its just Ativan so its not like super strong in the first place. idk it hurts my feelings that she is putting her thoughts before my actual mental illness. she wants me to see spiritual healers and all that, which I would be into but there is NO REASON that these are happening, it’s strictly chemical. idk it’s frustrating.