Hi everyone 

(Includes conversation about hitting)

I'm a 16 year old female and I think I may have BPD. I started showing major symptoms back in 8th grade but I never got help.

Before you start saying that most of the symptoms could just be me being hormonal, I don't think me hitting myself out of uncontrolled anger seems normal.

I am so helpless and so tired. I need help.

I am attached to this person and I go completely insane if I sense a change in her tone. I almost like split in 2 different people. At some moments I hate her and others, I idolize her. 

I don't have any support at home at all. No one believes in mental health.

If I could get help though, where do I go? My pediatrician? A therapist?

I need help before its too late.