Since I didn't get a response in the covid vaccine subreddit, I guess this is a more suitable sub for my post.  
I was tested covid positive one year ago and went to get my first shot of pfizer today. I forced myself to get through all the checkpoints even though I was already anxious but as soon as I sat down beside the doctor who would vaccinate me I had a full on anxiety attack und had to hold back tears because I was so scared but did not want to just storm out, which would not have been possible anyway. So in the end I got walked out which was very humiliating.

I do suffer from some form of Agoraphobia, intrusive thoughts here and there, and CPTSD but I did not expect myself to freak out like that. I am just scared of being that one millionth person that has a severe complication from the vaccine or whatever the rate is. This anxiety is also fueled by studies that show higher risk of side effects for vaccines in previously infected people.

If someone is interested in those: [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8002738/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8002738/)and [https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/10760296211020833](https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/10760296211020833) \- I know this is just a preprint but it does irritate me that blood viscosity seems to be linked to the occurrence of certain side effects, that also get reported after vaccination (like irregular menstruation).

I already showed this to a medical student friend of mine and he says it does not mean much and that covid is more dangerous, even if I have some immunity left from my past infection.

Also I want to note that when I had covid, I had symptoms for like two months, felt miserable, chest pain, apparently a mild bronchospasm or something, breathlessness, burning and itching rash on my face etc. So I am also scared of catching covid again.

I would appreciate to hear stories of people that had covid, and tolerated the vaccine just fine. Maybe I can throw down a xanax and get it over with then.