I am not suicidal, I just want to get that out there. But, as of late I am finding it harder and harder to be happy. I used to enjoy drawing, baking, singing and my various hobbies. But now everything is so boring. I can't start a hobby or activity without thinking "yep this is pointless". Things rarely make me laugh anymore. Memes are just so bland to me now. I am just so emotionally drained that I don't even have the energy to feel things. I just don't understand what I am doing wrong.

I take my medicine. I talk to people (in real life too). I am very open about how I am feeling. I try my best to eat healthy even though I am fat. I do well in school. 

What could it be? I know I do have some outside factors of my life that are effecting my mental state but it shouldn't prevent me from being happy entirely. Yeah I have family drama, but doesn't everyone? 

I am just getting sick of it all. Every day of my life is the same routine and I can't afford to make any major changes. I am just so bored of everything for no reason! I am in a constant state of either being numb or sad. It's gotten to the point where I don't want to talk to my friends even of they are right in front of me. I just want to sleep all day. I am so tired. 

For context purposes my mental disorders are: depression, anxiety &amp; I tend to space out and hallucinate. My doctor is not sure on what causes the hallucinations yet but they think it could be a type of schizophrenia.