both my fiancé and i are BPD . we tried St. John's happy bills and woke up like happy babies . like default humanity . my fiancé has worse BPD than me and he was wayyyy more stable than he'd ever been on weed or other self medications . ST. JOHN's HAPPY PILLS ! be careful tho they mess w ur hormones a bit and make birth control ineffective lol like the pill and the shot . anyways this helped for us and we r vegan and don't like medications . also try Lions Mane Root powder for ur brain to function better . helps us not sabotage each other and our beautiful relationship lol . best of luck to you and ur love