i just posted earlier today and i’ve been researching/thinking a lot about my new diagnosis of BPD. i honestly feel like i may have been misdiagnosed. i’ve been feeling extremely depressed for about 5 days with loads of intrusive thoughts about my new relationship (do i actually like him, am i ready for a relationship, what if i still have feelings for my ex) etc etc. i was feeling the happiest i’ve been in a while until these thoughts started to come up and cloud all of the positive feelings i had been having. when i have thoughts like this i feel extremely guilty- to the point where i get sick at times. it’s hard to eat. in my past relationship, i never left him when i had these thoughts, he left me 5 times (adding this in incase it helps with someone else’s input). growing up my childhood was okay, it only got bad at age 15. but both of my parents are in my life. but they’re relationships was rocky and unstable and both of my parents struggle with mental health issues. in my last relationship, i definitely wasn’t perfect. in the beginning i was  definitely insecure and was always seeking reassurance that he still loved me, wasn’t going to leave, etc. but then it eventually evolved into reassurance seeking about me having doubtful thoughts. in my new relationship the doubtful thoughts have came up again, along with feeling guilty about any other thought that could potentially jeopardize the relationship. idk i would love some input