Been feeling weird. Im going through a mix of celebrating and trying not to be too harsh on myself.

Sucky things:
Have to pay a lot of money for a class im taking in the fall
My coworker is doing shit that could get us all in trouble
I relapsed yesterday (was almost 3 wks clean)
I dont think i can see my current therapist anymore (im trying to find someone else anyway, but im nervous to not have anyone for the time being)

Good Things:
I have tickets to see motley crue this week and some to see judas priest (favorite band EVER) in a couple months
My classes for my career path start a week from tuesday
Im almost one year on T (hrt)
I finally got a piercing Ive wanted forever and Im looking at getting more
I got a hobby that keeps my hands busy and I might be able to make some money out of it
I got involved in a group for LGBT people my age

Im just feeling weird because on one hand im feeling disappointed and upset with myself for relapsing and feeling like shit but on the other hand im trying to look at the good stuff too

Im thinking about asking about going on antidepressants when i get my physical soon