Even if my hobbies include: games, drawing or playing some instrument, i suck at it. I never tell about my problems to anyone, this is literally the 2nd time ive done it and its because im sick of my life. I go to the gym sometimes but even if i do exercise my OCD or depression doesnt go away. Im graduating from high school in 10 days and im still pathetic enough to not have made any friends (I moved to a new school last year). my life is shitty overall and many people have told me to kill myself if im so miserable all the time, and yeah, my relationship with my family is dogshit too, my dad just wont talk to me because he used to beat me as a kid and hes "depressed" and "regrets it". and my brothers think im pathetic overall. I dont want anyones approval on the internet, just tell my experience.