There’s been some drama at work, and at the end of it all I got hurt. Deeply hurt. I had finally felt SOMETHING other than the empty void where I seem to enjoy residing and I was so happy. But things in my world don’t always go according to plan. They really never to tbh. Anyway, today I think I had enough. I internalize everything normally, but today internalizing the pain wasn’t enough and I’ve been lashing out at everyone. Just been mean and sarcastic and snarky. And I like it. I know they don’t deserve it so I do apologize after because I feel guilty, but it feels good to not, for once, harbor it away inside and let it eat away at whatever parts of me are left. That’s all.