Constantly staring off into space, tired, nothing stimulates my brain, no sex drive, can’t get aroused anymore. I don’t get that happy brain feeling or anything when I see a hot girl or something fun. I constantly find myself bored and not able to have fun anymore. Everything looks so dark and bland to me. I constantly feel blurry and unable to speak clearly anymore. Nothing feels real. The world looks gloomy to me 24 7 and I can’t genuinely smile. Constantly staring off into space. My brain never feels awake. Caffeine won’t wake it up, sleep won’t, nothing does. Taking Wellbutrin but haven’t noticed an improvement or bad side affects. I have no feelings anymore. I don’t love anyone anymore. I don’t have any of those feelings. I’m completely numb and don’t know what to do. Nothing caused it. Just overtime being depressed since I was younger may have caused it. I dont have that low of self esteem or that much anxiety, but I do feel like this. I can’t wake my brain up. It’s so bad. I can’t see clearly. I’m constantly in a fog. I feel like I need to electrocute my Brain to wake it up. Also I’m constantly tired. I really wanna know what love feels like and a relationship, but all this is getting in the way.