I do a really good job hiding my depression. In public, I’m super joyful and try to make everyone laugh and feel good. I do a great job being “the life of the party”. But then, lots of people ask me to hang out, grab drinks, even to dates and I have to say no because I just can’t keep pretending for that long. I can only wear a mask for a couple hours at a time. But I feel really bad about always saying no; I’m not trying to be rude/ come off as a dick. It feels wrong to be making someone laugh and have a good time, then keep saying no/I’m busy all the time after. I’d just rather spend my free time alone, I’m too tired.