I used to have so many friends and I loved making people happy. I was so funny and easy going and always went the extra mile for people just cuz its what I enjoyed. I also had lots of ambition and interests and loved to have conversation about anything. Ive been stabbed in the back and let down so many times that my whole personality is gutted and dead. I want to get better but dont think its possible. Hate myself and its exhausting to be around people I dont trust anyone anymore. 

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I turn 22 soon and not sure ill make another trip around the sun, can no longer stand the pain.