It's a familiar feeling. You'd think I'd know how to deal with that by now. Instead, I have to stick to the only thing that has worked for me so far: Wait it out. 

I've got so many things on my mind. Should I really just make a fresh start and change everything about myself into the person I *want* to be? 

I feel like I have delusions of grandeur. I wish I could make them go away. I wish I could make a decision and not go back on it 30 minutes later. Being able to focus would be great too! 

Right now, I will open a document and make a list of all the things I hate about myself. Only, this time, I will also write down ways to solve it. 

I really just needed a place to vent. Thank you. 