I wish I could get far away from my family. I wish that I could have one day where I’m happy. But wishing is pointless. Nothing will ever get fixed and I will just suffer forever. My life has no meaning. I don’t try hard anymore nor want too. I’m miserable every day and I just want some peace. My friends won’t let me go which sucks. I don’t know if they understand how bad my life is and what kind of pain I endure. They tell me to have hope but there isn’t any. All those years ago I hoped that by the time I’m 20, I would be happy and living on my own and having a job but none of that has happened. I’m 19 and just wasting away. I feel alone since I have no friends here where I live. I’m probably never gonna meet my best friend which sucks. I just hate being depressed all the time and suicidal. All I want is some peace but it won’t ever happen…I just wish I wasn’t alive or ever born