I feel like at this point in my relationship I can’t tell if I’m the one being a bad person or if I’m getting abused :( 

I heard this is common with ppl that have bpd. My bf says that I’m a bad person and I feel like he is right.. i do have trouble controlling myself when I get on his case about things and I tend to interrogate him about them and he doesn’t like when I ask questions he says it makes him feel like I’m making him feel bad. Sometimes though it honestly feels like he does things to intentionally trigger me. 

In addition to that there have also been times early on and now where I haven’t said anything when he has done things or acted in ways that hurt my feelings and I didn’t set boundaries, or defend myself. I feel like this is all my fault and I don’t know what to do anymore. I wanna be with him because there’s so many things I like about him and about when we’re together but part of me doesn’t care anymore I don’t like being hurt and I don’t wanna unintentionally make someone feel bad or hurt them.. Should mention I think we both have bpd.