I told him the thoughts I’m having. You know, *those* ones. 

I’ve been having horrible physical outbursts because of it. 

I buy fence posts just to punch or break them 

I’ve been screaming and yelling for hours. I want to destroy or hurt something. 


Im so angry and being anxious really causes me to act out. Being anxious makes me angry and it’s fucking weird. 


He doesn’t do shit to address it. I also mentioned my hormones and he doesn’t “deal with that”. 

One time a cyst on my ovaries burst, I screamed at my ex, flipped shit off a table and passed out in front of him but that only happened once. I blacked out.

He placed me on an SSRI but those make me more impulsive so I’m too scared to take it. 

The moment I feel anxious I snap but I just pretty much realized it. Idk crying solves nothing. Although it’s frequent lol