I can't afford shit and it's making me feel so useless and lost. I Honestly don't want to do it anymore. I don't have the motivation to deal with any of this shit anymore. Nobody wants to talk about it with me and actually take time to listen to how I feel. 
I can't stand it anymore. Being broke not only tore me apart but it tore my friendship with good friends who said I was a dick and a loser because when it's like this I can't feel anything but anger and anxiety. I feel like once I have my footing I slip away again and I don't want it anymore. 
I hate this. Nobody is willing to help me out so I'm consistently struggling to get by.