Don't get me wrong, I defintiely want to recover from my anxiety disorder. But, I get worried or I overthink on how will my life be when I am normal? What will I think about if I don't have a millions thoughts racing?  What will I do when I don't have to stay home because I just wanna be alone and agarophobic? Will my mind be blank? Is it supposed to be blank most of the time? Will I be bored by not having something to think about? I haven't been normal in a lomg time so I don't know whay life looks like without anxiety, all I know anxiety is the devil and I'll take a normal life any day.