I caught Covid so I've been off work for the past 11 days and while the first 5 or 6 days were crappy due to covid symptoms, once they eased off and once my brain got out of work mode / worrying about being off work... I actually relaxed... I slept properly, I wasn't overthinking everything all day, I didn't have to worry about what my work day might entail. I was free from resposibility. Of course I still felt some anxiety during this time because my mental illness wasn't magically cured by some time off, but it sure did offer some relief.

Now I'm negative for covid, it's back to work tomorrow. As soon as I got that result this morning, the tension kicked in. I've been stressed all day and now my head is splitting. I just know I'm going to get annoying comments off my manager about me getting covid (I've been really careful this whole pandemic, still wear a mask at work etc). And I'm just really not looking forward to having to deal with the general day to day stuff at my job that doesn't bother anyone else but gives me a stupid amount of anxiety. I did not miss my job even one tiny little bit, not a single thing about it.