When I'm not hyperfixated on a video game, literally nothing in my life is free from worry. I can't do anything fun or relaxing because it's full of worry as well.
I'm so scared about everything.
I'm also really scared that my parents are miserable and are unfulfilled with their lives but there's nothing I can do about it, but I can't stop worrying about it because I'm aware of it now.
I get screwed over by everyone, including teachers, but I'm left as the one who has to deal with it so I can't not worry about it. 
I'm just tired of feeling mortified, self conscious, feeling trapped and like an idiot, and not being able to relax or be happy like everyone else can.