Parents are gone till late tomorrow, and no one knows/cares how I am, at this point I’m just trying to work up the courage to end it, even though I know what it will do to my parents and one friend who genuinely cares, but I can’t be like this anymore, the other people I thought cared don’t, this pain always manages to make it’s way back to me and I’m just tired of it, if it weren’t for me being worried about how my family would feel, I’d be gone by now, so it just feels like I’m serving a literal life sentence because I don’t want to live anymore, everyone says oh it’ll get better but I’m tired of it not getting better, I’m tired of coming home from work and being utterly alone, I’m tired of feeling like I have no value in life or to myself, I just want the pain to end