cuz that's me and its shit.  part of it i attribute to being trans and having a tumultuous relationship with my own body, another part to being shy as shit, last relationship i had was 2014 i think.  got close with a girl but didn't work out because she had trauma from before and wanted to take things slow.  broke up for other reasons tho it probly looked like i broke up because she "wasn't putting out" which mightve been a subconscious reason but that's besides the point   


i end up being unable to talk to girls like a normal fucking person because of the hypersexuality, i think.  and its driving me insane.  ended up flirting basically way too hard with a coworker and now i think she likes me but i lost interest and now i hate myself for it and dont know what the hell to do.  i wouldnt mind being her friend but i come off all wrong and it would be weird because i can never be friends with girls without feeling like a guy--maybe thatll change when i finally get transition going (again, i was on hormones, but then taken off them because of mental health, long story, plus surgery is far away and another difficult thign)