I’m 15 and I’ve been having signs of anxiety for years without me or my parents noticing. It has gotten worse the past weeks since I’ve been suffering from panic attacks and I don’t really know why it triggers most of the time. It makes me feel like I need to throw up, makes my heart rate rise and makes it hard to breathe. I’ve never had them as frequently as these past weeks and it’s making it harder going through school and doing things I used to love. All I wanna do is lay in my bed and do nothing.

I’m gonna go to therapy next week. I’m kinda looking forward to it but I’m still nervous because it’s therapy for teenagers kinda and then it feels like they’re gonna tell me my feelings are invalid. I think so because they might not be so educated since it’s therapy specifically for young people. 

I’m also scared in case I get diagnosed, because then I would know for sure that I have anxiety, and the thought of it also freaks me out because I don’t want to suffer from this I want to live a happy life. But mental health has to ruin everything. 

Thanks a lot for reading! I just needed to vent.