basically 31 year old man. never had anything more than 2-3 months.

i sought out a therapist that had experiece with bpd as i thought what i experience is similar to splitting.

i go out with someone and im crazy into them. when they start behaving childish/manipulative , i over react and dump them. everytime. then i frantically try to fix it with waves of desperate text

An example, was the last woman i was seeing. i had whiskey dick the first time we had sex. the 2nd time she started putting alot of pressue on sex by saying sex doesnt work for us, before we did any foreplay and how i shouldnt like her so much. the third time, she proactively said sex doesnt work for us before i even tried to kiss her and she just grabbed my dick while i was laying there and said i cant get hard with her as im too nervous and how we need to wait a few months for sex. and when i tried to talk to her about it, she just kept saying im so nervous over and over and how she is suprised sex is such a big deal to me.

I guess my doctor sees my trigger as that behavior. Basically, any time a woman or even guy friend plays coy and starts trying to manipulate me. or atleast i feel taht they are. as i had an extremely manipulative substance abusing parent.

so i snap, break up, and embarrass myself trying to fix it. 

I may or not have bpd, the therapist just believed that i had traits of it specifically what i described and how i always feel like other peoples actions are a reflection of myself.

but im worried, this is something that will seriously make it difficult to find a long term partner.

I have dated women for a few months in the past that were healthy relatiopnships that i let fade when both our interest started weening. but they were very direct , assertive people and didnt ever try to manipulate my emotions or fuck with my head. if i did something that bothered them, they would just let me know even the tiniest thing. so i was never angered by them.

so, thoughts on how difficult this will be to find a long term partner?