I got attached to someone really quickly and worth out details we stopped talking but they literally just ghosted me. Not even a okay we’ll depart thanks for everything or whatever which I would have said as well because moments are special for me but they ghosted me and it’s very painful? People are allowed to do what they want but I hate that the most. I hate wearing my heart on my sleeve and maybe they did too and I didn’t notice and what not but I keep beating myself up waiting and waiting and hoping knowing I can’t keep living this way ya know? I look forward to everyday still, what I’ll eat and wear and study, but there’s always that small hope. I catch myself thinking too much and I just want to refocus. I don’t know how they feel however, I will always blame myself and my BPD and I’m just so tired. Something blooming ended in the ground so quick, maybe the way it started but familiarity. I just wanna breathe lol