So currently I am a freshman in college. Also I’m failing all four of my classes. It feels weird because I don’t really care that I’m failing. I’m also commuting to this university which kinda sucks. I have severe social anxiety and low self esteem. I constantly I have negative thoughts in my head of my self. I’ve never self harmed but it also feels like I’ve never loved my self. Its been this way since 3rd grade so people have always thought I was quiet and weird. Ive made one really good friend who’s always there for me, but sometimes I think about what I even provide in the friendship, so I distance myself away. I realize now how hard I was on myself, and that most people didn’t really care that much about me. But I feel like I can’t change it. Some people might think I’m a chill quiet guy, but I’ve never told anyone how I actually feel. I don’t wanna tell someone and think that my feelings are stupid. Lately my mom has been looking at me, and asking if everything is fine. And it honestly pisses me off, it annoys me when she says that. Because it’s like don’t wanna admit that I’m not doing good. I’ve been debating about going therapy don’t really know if it’s worth it lol.