I WISH I was over exaggerating but I seriously always seem to fuck up. Whenever I’m confronted about it I legit break down because “how could I be so unthoughtful.” Even if I don’t deserve it, I have to be told if I deserve it or not because I genuinely just expect the worst for me from anyone and everyone.

Then people feel bad for me because I’m SO upset...Unless it’s resolved or I forget about it, there is absolutely no way I can get over it. 

I genuinely wish I would just die in my sleep tonight. I can’t live without people at all ever....but I wish that I had never made an effort to have relationships with people. 

Seriously I know I’m being so “oh everything bad always happens to me.” and I’m not saying I’m not responsible for some of it but oh my gosh universe.   

p l e a s e universe, give me a break.