around a week ago, an old highschool acquaintance reached out to smoke some weed and hang out/catch up a bit.they suggested today to hang out and never got back to me. i am just feeling so shattered. i can’t deal with it, there must be something wrong with me so they don’t wanna hang out.i keep having to distract myself so i don’t end up self harming or taking anything. i have a list of activities i can do instead, but it’s so hard to stick to and follow when all i want to do is punish myself.
any advice for sticking to this? i know i just have to wait until something good comes around again, but right now i can’t imagine that happening at all. everyone in my life hates me and there’s no returning from that.