it’s crazy how much something as simple as talking can bring up so much fear for me. this presentation that u have to do is stirring up so many of the bad habits i used to have but have mostly managed to overcome… i have no choice but to do it but it’s in 3 weeks and i’m already stressed out of my mind. headaches, nausea, fatigue. i wish i could just be good at speaking, i can’t think of anything i’m afraid of,, maybe judgement ? but god i don’t know what to do. i’m at the point (and this is coming from someone who double masks and barely goes outside) where i’m like maybe if i get covid i can be excused from it. feeling so frustrated with myself