Once I feel this way, I truly cannot stand them anymore. I just want them to stop texting me or asking me to hangout or checking up on me (I know it’s so sad that I have great friends) because I’m just so done with having to reply to them even if it’s just a few sentences here and there. It also makes me feel even shittier because I can tell that they try hard to be close with me and help me with my issues and I can imagine how heartbreaking it is for them to see how we’re slowly separating and I’m not putting any effort into saving our friendship but I just can’t help it. Once I want you out of my life, I truly stop caring about you completely. I know I’m an asshole so I don’t need to hear that in the comments, I just want to know if anyone else is the same cuz I’m so lonely but this is the shit I do and it’s like I can never win.