I got invited to a party as a plus 1 by a girl who I’d been talking to for a while. I didn’t know anyone else who was going to be there. The mix of having a crush on the girl and not knowing people gave me a panic attack the morning if the party after already having a few days of negative thoughts about it.

I feel so silly and useless. I can’t handle it and have to quit everything or else I just can’t relax. I feel so stupid. I can’t even handle talking to a girl for a while or going on a date without having a panic attack or at least intense anxiety let alone having an actual relationship. I can’t imagine ever going on a date or being in a relationship without being constantly anxious.

I feel horrible and ashamed that I had to cancel on everyone and just want to sink into the ground. I’m scared this will fuck up my life.