Lately it's been weighing on me that my life seems to be a struggle to nowhere. I've had to pause my schooling because my mental health wasn't allowing me to focus. I just got out of an abusive relationship only to be hit with the fact that most people I've dated don't want anything serious and I end up being used. I love my friends, but I know they can't always be there for me and I'm terrified knowing that someday all my friends will be gone living their own lives and I'll be alone. I work nights and all I can think about is how tired I am and how I'm not able to see anyone or make plans because of work. All my money goes to rent or helping my roommates with rent. The one good thing I have is that I'm trying to transition right now but I'm scared that nothing will change. I don't know how to deal with my crippling loneliness and it feels like I'm meant to be alone.