I’m 14, and in 9th grade. Since 5th grade I have been dealing with depression. I hate that I am writing this, and I hate that I can’t tell my parents about how  shitty I feel. I have been kicked, bullied, made fun of, and excluded because of something I can’t FUCKING control. I have never had a girlfriend, never been invited to a party, and I am left out of practically everything. What fucking sucks is that adults always say, “Oh well redheads get all the ladies when they grow up.” AND THAT ISNT TRUE. IT FUCKING ISNT! I have so much rage built up in me that I feel like im going to do something stupid and fuck up the rest of my life. I’m going to try out for my highschool baseball team, but I’m so in my head that I feel like I won’t make it. And since my mind is all kinds of fucked up, I don’t put in the work to actually do anything to get better. I have a great life, 2 loving parents, a good house, good friends and yet for some goddamn reason I am depressed. I ducking hate my life and I hate myself.