I’ve been pretty much isolated for a good amount of time and constantly would like to go out, for a walk or whatever but I just can never ever seem to put my foot out the door. Despite how badly I want/NEED to go outside I just can’t. I can’t do it. I’m so torn up inside because I just want to enjoy my life but I just can’t? The only times I do go out my mind is just a tornado, causing me to not enjoy it at all. And being inside all day is so fucking mind numbing , but going outside scares me to the core , even though I know I won’t die . It’s a annoying dilemma that I hope it’ll resolve itself over time but I can’t just expect myself to one day feel totally good doing what I can’t do now. I don’t ever know where to start, I know it’s to go out but .. sometimes I think it’s just better to stay comfortable rather than putting myself through that, but I know I have to give it up at some point