I'm on a mission to understand my symptoms. I was diagnosed on Wednesday and slowly I'm starting to understand things I never understood before. Hence why some of you might notice my username popping up A LOT now and in the near future. I don't know when I'm going to see a therapist to help me understand things, hence why I'm here. I know the internet isn't a substitute for real life psychologists and whatnot, but it's the best substitute while I can't see someone.

I'm reading [this article](http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2922389/#!po=2.72727) at the moment and one part that stood out to me was: *"BPD patients do have quasipsychotic or micropsychotic symptoms, such as voices telling them to kill themselves..."*

I most certainly have that, but the voice is my own. I've never had a voice speak that isn't my own. Sometimes a third voice will join in, but again it's my voice but with a different perspective to my voice and my head voice. I don't control the head voice when it's telling me to hurt myself or sabotage myself in whatever way. And I don't control the third voice when it joins in the conversation somehow. Does anyone else have the same? Is this psychosis or is it normal?