I live abroad in a developing nation, so access to cheap therapy isn't an option. I can pay the big bucks for an English speaking therapist here, or, as I was before, use an online service like Betterhelp.

It did help. It helped me, which in turn helped my relationship.   
But, I can only afford 4 weeks at a time, which I have to save up to buy. 

  
Today I feel like i'm falling to pieces - everything hurts. I'm spaced out and my whole body in tingling (does anyone else get this?).

But I don't want to talk to my partner about it because she's just received bad news and she needs to focus on herself. 

&amp;#x200B;

I'm considering going back on medication. Previously I took Lexapro and Welbutrin for anxiety and depression. I no longer suffer with depression, just anxiety. Should I go back on Welbutrin? Lexapro made me happy, but it also destroyed my sex life, so I probably don't want to touch that gain.