I'm 33, have been trying to fix my depression since I was 23. I've been on Cymbalta for 4 years, but it hasn't worked and the withdrawal is a nightmare, I went to rehab and it felt so transformative but I've relapsed 3 times in 8 months because 1. I'm an idiot and 2. I lost my insurance and cant afford the medication I need to deal with addiction. I just switched to Prozac but at what point do I just give up? I have an MBA, but I can't find work, I wanted to join the military but taking medication makes me ineligible. I don't want to kill myself, and I don't want to hurt my wife and my family,  but I feel so hopeless.