Why is it all so hard? Why cant i do basic things? I can’t remember last week. Im falling and crashing hard. Nothing brings me joy. No emotions other than immense anger and sadness. A longing to be gone from existence, free from it all. Im stuck in a never-ending slow torture by the hands of life and time. I feel beyond helpless and trapped. I hope I get out of this or I fear the worst. Numbness and dissociation are constant.