I rarely dated in my 20s, just a lot of first/second dates here &amp; there... I was INSANELY picky/perfectionistic and always wanted guys who were unavailable, it wasn't very healthy. I wish I at least had sex so I could feel more 'normal' but I pretty much had a fear of sex in my 20s and was asexual/lacked a sex drive so I avoided it. Only recently in my late 20s did I really get into it and desire relationships but I feel like I missed out on so much... whenever I date &amp; a guy asks me my longest relationship I hesitate to answer and feel soo embarrassed.. my longest relationship was a year exactly and I even struggled to have THAT (i.e. I was not very much physically attracted to the guy, but just went along with it to feel normal and like I'm capable of having a relationship. He wanted to marry me but at that point I had to call it off..)

I am 31 now and feel like... what normal person hasn't had a string of relationships by now? I've dated here &amp; there and honestly don't really desire a relationship right now anyway for various reasons so I'm cool with that but whenever I AM serious about it, I feel so insecure about my past and how to explain it.. should I even get into the sex issue? or whatever... etc. Can anyone at all relate?