So I’m 17 (male). My whole time through puberty I’ve been straight. I’ve loved the traits of women (thighs, hips, butt, breasts) and I’ve even had about 3 crushes on women older than me. I never doubted this at all. But right before my niece was born I started to have POCD. Now that that happened I’m terrified I’m a pedo. My anxiety is so high and I almost had a panic attack because I had to look at a young girl in the eyes. I keep getting sexual intrusive images and they feel so real. It feels like I like the thoughts but the thoughts also come with anxiety, twitching, and so much fear. I can’t tell who I am anymore. I was so strong in being straight and I’m terrified I was a pedo but never knew it. These thoughts feel like I truly like them and I’m so worried

I’m confused and scared. I never questioned this before but now that I am it feels so real