I’ve had anxiety almost my whole life but it’s started when i was 5 since i was getting bullied for various things  and you’d think at home it would easier but it wasn’t i lived with my stepmom and she was an asshole and always criticized me for anything i did and sometimes called me names and told her friends negative things about me a lot and i was like 10. thankfully after that school year i was never bullied again but i still had my stepmom always watching everything i did and having some sort of issue and i was never really always a pretty quiet dude and she would force me to communicate even though she knew i was like this and it lasted like this up until i was 15 or 16 until i moved in with my mom and even my dad apologized for having us go through this but ever since then i’ve always thought about what other people’s opinions of me i’m always super nervous of messing up and letting people down and i’m also a pessimist but i’m pretty sure if i never went through that experience as a kid i’d be totally different person i’m sorry for rambling i never told anyone about this EVER but if anyone has any advice they can give me on how to deal with this it would be greatly appreciated