Last night I had a moment of clarity and actually reflected on my decisions that I've made in the past few years.
The least I can say is that I've felt like I fucked up a lot.  I was fired at my last job a few weeks ago over something that I could have prevented and it was so stupid on my part.
I have a new temporary job until I can get things worked on.
But lately every day seems like they have blended together and I haven't much motivation to do really anything at all.
Ive kind of neglected my friendships in the past and I'm trying to mend them back from before.
Idk if its because I'm in a bad spot or that Ive always been like this but I think I may have depression.
I question it because I do things, I don't lay around in my bed all day although at this point it seems like it.
Idk what I'm trying to say here but maybe you guys can relate here?  I don't think I'm in a horrible position in life but its just seemed kind of bland.
One positive is that Ive stopped drinking before it got into a serious problem which I know would have happened if I didnt force myself to stop.
Can anyone relate or no?