Like the title says I get super anxious when the end of the month rolls around. I live on with my boyfriend and I’ve been able to support my self for a year now. I’ve had some help from my parents but for the most part I try to do thing on my own and if I borrow money from anyone I pay them back as soon as I can. I have a hard time going to others for help, id rather figure it out myself. This really isn’t the case I know I have money right now and I know my bills will be paid but I can’t help but get extremely anxious. Money is one of the things I think about a lot, I grew up poor so when I was younger I told myself I will try my best to provide for my self. I’m only 23 but because of this mind set I’ve kinda pushed myself out of work with having so much anxiety and putting so much stress on myself. My boyfriend and I split bills but I pay my own things like my car, phone, all that bs. I have savings but not enough, I got a work from home job in hopes of that it’ll help with my anxiety. I start this coming up Monday, I’m not making as much as I would like but I’m hoping to work my way up since I have a good amount of experience with the role I’ll be going into. I’m scared that I’m going to get burned out again, then it’ll be my 5th job I’ve quit. I I want to provide for myself but I also just want to live in a hole. I have to work or make money some how because I have bills to pay but my anxiety and depression make it so hard for me. I always find a way but I feel like all of this just makes my anxiety worse . With my new job I’ll get benefits right away so I’m hoping it’s decent so I can go to therapy. I used to be able to work no problem but now I can’t leave my house with out having a panic attack and throwing up. I don’t know what happened to me. I hope there’s someone who is struggling with the same problem because I feel so alone.