Fucked up. Again. Blew up on my boyfriend over my fuck up. Ignored. This is actually day 2 of being ignored. Watched him interract with his female friends on social media and now feeling extra miserable.

This is the first time he has deliberately ignored me. Ever. Part of me is dying because he wont talk to me. Another part of me is hoping he’ll just never talk to me again because I’m tired of him determining my entire mood.

I’ve been getting better at coping, but right now, the skills I learned in DBT almost feel insulting.