Hi guys, I’m going to try keep this as short as possible, I need some advice.

I’ve been depressed since I was probably 16ish, I’m 24 now, I’ve been unemployed for years and I’ve no social life whatsoever, no friends and still living with my parents who I love dearly and they love me.

I can’t stand my life, especially the last 6 years, I’ve wasted them. I have extremely low self-esteem, crazy bad social anxiety, and absolutely no confidence. I consider myself a hollow shell, almost lifeless, just coasting through life day to day doing absolutely nothing, waiting for a miracle to happen. 

Anyway to get to the point of this post, apologies. I’ve been told by one doctor that I’m depressed a few years ago, he retired a couple months ago so I got a new doctor recently who referred me to a health care clinic to get professionally diagnosed by a psychologist or whatever he was I can’t remember exactly. He asked me a bunch of questions and chatted and such but he came to the conclusion that I’m not depressed but just very sad? And that I’m not mentally ill so they can’t treat me.

Now I can be quite good at hiding my depression when out in public and talking to strangers, so I’m worried that I acted too normal when being diagnosed by him and it’s ended up fucking me. He let my new doctor know and now he’s also convinced I’m not depressed and I just need to motivate myself to kick on in life and I’m just like ??? Bro I’m so fucking lost now at this point and don’t know what the hell to do. I’m 100% convinced I’m suffering from some form of depression.

Do I find a new doctor? This shit is making me even worse…