Spent my day with my FP (work thing). Sadly I gave the FP too much. Ruined it. Had a good talk and I promised to be good. However I know I’ll fall off at some point. Kinda hurts that things can’t be the way I want them to be but I do feel my emotions and angst getting back to normal for the first time in many months. 
Hope this lasts for at least a minute.