I've been job hopping since I started working in 2020. I go in feeling all confident, and I do well. But once I start making mistakes, it makes me extremely anxious and upset. Then I'll go into work everyday feeling depressed. It'll get to a point around the 3rd/4th week where suicidal feelings appear, so I impulsively quit. Every. Single. Time. I'm almost 21 and I am getting so sick of this. I don't even know if it's strictly an anxiety thing... it definitely triggers my depression.

My limits on what jobs I want are so bad because I only want to work overnights (0 customer interaction), and I only want to do things that I KNOW I'm good at. Like baking. I'm okay with stocking too, but I have scoliosis so it hurts my back sometimes. Ugh. 

I'm too scared to step out of my comfort zone because I know it will trigger many anxiety attacks as usual. So far I've decided to see a therapist once a week and I did start Wellbutrin last week... but other than that, I am so fucking lost on what to do. I feel like such an embarrassment and a failure to everyone. I've had around 5 jobs now that I barely stuck to for more than 3-4 weeks and it looks awful on my damn resume.

Just wanted to vent I guess...