So, i am diagnosed with both borderline personality disorder and bipolar 2. I was just prescribed lamictal to treat symptoms of both. I really need help with my depression, as it makes my struggles with ed/sh/si/bpd episodes much more severe. I don’t have huge issues with my hypomania, and honestly kind of enjoy it most of the time. I was really hoping to treat my depression before getting on mood stabilizers, because I am afraid to be numb. In some ways i am grateful for the highs and lows of the human experience, and much of the work im doing in therapy revolves around widening my emotional bandwidth. 
Im curious to know if anyone on mood stabilizers is still capable of having big moods, but have more manageable depression? 
Sorry this is kind of all over the place im having a hard time conveying my thoughts.