I've just lost it all. My family what matters most. I just can't. I can't see my kids. We separated. Completely cut off. Supposedly she's even pregnant with our thrid child. I only say that because she posted a belly pic on Facebook. Otherwise I wouldn't know. It just wasn't supposed to be like this. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I've off and on struggled with situational depression. I just don't think I can get through it this time. Everything I've chose. Everything I ever did. Failure.