I have issues with controlling myself. Like a little over two weeks ago I almost lost my battle. Something I've learned being in and out of treatment the passed year (in adult units in the psych) is that I see so many older people in there and it takes me back bc they're in there for their bipolar as well. And part of me is like "dude you know what you're gonna be dealing with this for a long time, get comfy" and the other part is just so heartbroken seeing people sm older it puts it all in prospective how seriously fucked up your life can be with untreated mental illness (sidenote, Ive grew up with an aunt who is Schizoaffective and has BPD and my mom is bipolar)  anyways. I guess I just wanna know how do I make it to 23?