My best friend is definitely my FP. It feels like I have never loved and will never love someone as much as I love and need her. But I know I am a toxic person and even though she has been so good to me I feel like I am stopping her from living her best life. She deserves so much better than me. She recently moved away, and though at the beginning I used to text and call multiple times a day, about a month or two ago I decided to reach out as little as I could. I thought it would also help me because I would not be disappointed when she didn’t match the crazy expectations that I put into her. So far, it’s awful, my life feels empty and whenever she texts me I feel like I want to jump into the cycle again. Have you guys gone through something like this? Does it get easier?