The only reason he is with me is because he is inexperienced. He does not know how handsome he is and probably thinks he deserves someone that is temperamental, unemployed and physically unappealing.

If I were to disappear, he would eventually get over it. I do not know how he has stayed for as long as he has, but it is too much strain and pressure to deal with me. I can not offer him anything. I only bring pain to everyone around me.