I've been battling with depression for years, and the society and people keeps stressing me out. 

What decides your fate? 
Is it your outlook in life?

Then I asked myself: what's my outlook in life?

I can be positive about things occasionally.

Sometimes its just one day. My payday.
It's not so Bad that day.

You can afford good outlook if you have money.

The saying that love makes you kind has some truth to it.

Whether it's money or a man, if you have something, you become positive.

But do I have a money or a man?

I have neither.

So how am I supposed to be positive and have a good outlook on things?

I thought I'd feel better if I had my hair done, but sometimes it just made me feel worse.


I was in my boat but there's no wave or current to help me get me to the shore, so I jump and drown myself.