I’ve had a SUPER long day, and I’m completely exhausted. My head hurts and I just want to cry. I look fine on the outside, but on the inside I’m screaming. My parents don’t know that anxiety can make me irritable at times, which I feel bad about. 

This evening, my mom kept nagging me about certain things, and I sort of snapped at her in front of my dad, because of how I’ve had such an exhausting day and don’t want to talk to anyone. They don’t know what anxiety is like, but I can’t help but feel bad for snapping at my mom. They asked me “why are you so snappy?” If only they knew. I don’t want to blame anxiety for the reason I yelled at my mom. Also, my parents come from a different generation, so they sometimes act like things like ACTUAL anxiety don’t exist. I don’t know what to do. I want to cry. I also feel extremely guilty. And I overthink things I say, which doesn’t help. 

I just feel so done. I want to bawl. Yet I have to act like things are normal because I don’t want to seem weak in front of my family. They’re supportive, but also they tell me to suck it up. I don’t know how to feel.