I just realized that I've been alive for about 20,000 days.

For that whole time I've been bombarded by the bluffing of spineless cowards who were afraid of how vulnerable they were to me.  Because they were weak and afraid they falsely projected omnipotence and invulnerability.

I was born with the strength to take the world at face value and the courage to be completely open.  The cowardly weaklings all around me were frightened by that.  In their sick minds they mischaracterized it as "naive and gullible" and went out of their way to mistreat me and abuse me.  Over time, by a million paper cuts, they eroded my strength and my courage until they had reduced me to nothing.

Their spitefully malicious calculus was to classically condition me to be soft and fearful like them, but that can't be done.  They were only able to annihilate what I already was and must be, replacing it with nothing.  As a result all hope for the world is gone.

My task in life was to safeguard Truth and remember Truth.  I failed because my open heart was always doomed to fail under a million pathetic mosquito-stings of venal perfidists and dung-eaters.  With Truth forever lost to the world because of my failure, the world perishes.

Congratulations those of you who hated yourselves enough to want the world to end.  You have what you wanted now, even if it will take a few years.