Hey, first time post, let me introduce myself. I'm 17 years old, male (gender identity under questioning) and have lived in the same village my whole life. Growing up I had quite a few friends as my school was local, then it started to go downhill when I hit secondary school and had to commute to the next town over. Now I'm going to school even further away.  Any friends I had here have moved away, including my best friend, who's moving at the end of the month. It's just a shit, cramped place to live with nothing to do. Over these past few years I've resorted to online gaming and also have a few friends in other parts of the world.  


At my new school I've got a pretty good group of friends and I really enjoy hanging with them, but my weekends and evenings are really, really miserable. I have to plan like a week in advance if I wanna go and do anything, my parents getting pretty irritated if I spring anything on them. This place is a literal wasteland, and soon I won't even have that one friend to meet up with and make some sort of fun out of this desolate shit-hole. I get home and just feel awful, I never get anything done and often spend hours wasting time on pointless hyperfixations (stuff like rewatching show clips over and over), I think I may have ADHD but I've always been shut down whenever it's brought up.  


I don't really know what I wanted to come from this, maybe just to see if anyone can relate or offer any advice. I really don't know how I'm going to put up with this for another two years, studying is already really difficult and I've lost all drive for my hobbies (photography, drawing, anything creative at all). The anxiety is constantly rampant and I can't get any support beyond hotlines, not that I think it would necessarily help. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it.