I just got off the phone about 10 minutes ago with a guy from the drugs and alcohol team at my nearest mental health service, who got in contact with me because yesterday I went to A+E when I was suicidal. I talked a lot about all the shit that worries me and about how I function blah blah blah. I told him about how a psychologist at King's College had suggested quiet BPD to me in the past but my Mum wouldn't allow me to get a diagnosis. I talked about her covert narcissism and how she like much of my family experienced trauma and everything. The guy on the other end of the phone then laughed jokingly and suggested maybe my Mum is the one with the personality disorder(?!!) 

He was pretty chilled out and everything so I feel bad to be this angry but even so it felt hugely invalidating to me for him to make a joke like that, because it makes the concept of personality disorders sound like a joke and because i've literally been told by a psychologist that I could have a personality disorder. I've researched everything about it for the better part of a year, and I display every symptom of it. and now I just feel invalidated again, like i'm being an imposter this whole time?? Almost like just because I'm self aware he assumes I don't have a personality disorder? It feels massively fucking offensive.

I've got a person to person meeting with him on Friday, and it sucks because I know i'm gonna have to bring this up, and I don't want to upset him, but I also am really pissed off tbh