I'm probably going to sound incredibly attention seeking in this post. My doctors and family have noticed I've improved but I feel like I no longer get the attention I liked from being worse off, when my self harm and suicidal thoughts were severe. In a self sabotaging sense I want to get that back because I like the treatment I get from being in a worse state. I secretly hate when my psychiatrist tells me how great I'm doing. Am I bad for feeling this way? I feel selfish and like I want to fake problems to get attention again