I’m participating in a research study at a renowned psychiatric hospital which includes a brain scan that I get a copy of after. I am interested in how it will look because I have read about structural differences in the frontal lobe of a bipolar brain. Im also interested because I suspect i’m edging mania right now, I have enough insight to recognize when im not sleeping much/highly irritable/impulsive and reckless. Kinda dawned on me as I was doing 95 in a 40 last night because getting pulled over for speeding is a huge fear of mine lol. And I bleached my hair and went to work (at a hospital) with orange hair looking like Chuckie. I hate when people minimize hair dying/cutting as. symptom, it seems minor until you’re literally working in direct patient care looking like a possessed doll and realizing you are literally wearing concrete evidence of your diagnosis for everyone to see, although I suppose they won’t always assume it if they don’t know. Unfortunately i’ve overshared in the past while manic. And im realizing this is a tangent. anyway i’ll share if anything notable pops up. Luckily I work with psychiatrists and I could ask them to interpret it anonymously, and have my own obviously who could do it too