So this is a bit of a weird one. When I’m having a bad symptom day and just want to have a comfort food like Starbucks, I usually just order through Ubereats and tell them to leave it on the doorstep. This used to not bother me at all because I wouldn’t have to deal with driving while I’m heavily dissociating and risk getting into a car accident, and I also don’t have to talk to people. Win!

Well the last few times I’ve done this, I’ve been getting really weird anxiety about it. I’m always afraid they’re going to get lost and just drop my stuff off somewhere else, even though it’s never happened before. Or that they’ll call me and want directions and I’ll freeze up, which once again has never happened before.

I’m trying my coping mechanisms but it’s so weird that this fear came out of absolute nowhere. I’ve only ever had positive experiences with food delivery services, so it just doesn’t make sense.