(35F) I’m prescribed Xanax, and I have been on and off for years. I’m about to move across the country with family and have recently started having panic attacks more frequently. Normally they’re once a year. In the last month I’ve had a few. (I just recently had to remove myself from a flight that was already heading towards the runway. Fun.) These last two days it’s just been all day that I’m trying to hold it together. 

I have medication to take, that I know works well and does what I need it to. Except, these last few weeks I’ve developed an anxiety around taking them and then a bit later feeling them hit my system and make me feel ‘woozy’ and not in control. I’m prescribed 1mg Xanax to take as needed, but yesterday I took half a .25mg pill I have left from a previous script literally piece by piece, we’re talking a grain of sand size, over the course of several hours so I wouldn’t feel it hit all at once. 

I need to be able to take this medication on this road trip. It’s literally a giant circle from TX to FL, up to New England and then all the way back across the US to the west coast. 

Has anyone else experienced this and if so, what the hell did you do?