A few months ago, due to realisations I made in therapy, I decided to cut off the majority of people I was friends with due to their toxicity. No hard feelings, but just recognised they were not good for me. It made me realise how much I rely on others to regulate both my mood and my sense of self. 

I never considered myself hyper-social, or someone who couldn’t be alone, in fact I spent a lot of time alone (or so I thought!). I’ve come to realise I was never truly alone as I would always be messaging people on social media. 

Now that I am refraining from this I feel empty. I don’t know who I am. I find I cannot sit and meditate or read a book without feeling depersonalised, like I don’t know who I am and it’s terrifying! I get this overwhelming sense of fear/anxiety/loneliness that can only be resolved by interacting with someone. 

Do any of you guys relate? Any tips?