Chronic GI infections leading to being doubled over in pain every day for at least an hour at a time, nausea and vomiting waking me up in the middle of the night, chills from the bacteria coming back, completely disabled. PTSD nightmares and flashbacks, no family to support me. Family doesn’t believe PTSD or depression even exists. They don’t care about me at all. I don’t want to die necessarily I just want to end my chronic suffering. I can’t just live in a mental hospital for the rest of my miserable life. Is there any extremely dangerous job I can take on or project I can attempt that will just kill me?