Hello, I am 21 yrs old, and have just been diagnosed with MDD and high functioning anxiety. Honestly, now that I look back, it’s not a bummer since I had been there for a long time (I have a history of self harming), but it’s official now that I was finally able to seek help. I just began with my postgrad college, with a course I had always desperately wanted to do. I am where I have wanted to be, except I am not. This was supposed to be the best time of my life, and there’s so much guilt inside me. Everyone keeps telling me that it’ll get better now that I have begun with medication and if I carry on with therapy. But I am not sure, I have a cousin who’s been batting this for years and his life is still the same—turned upside down. Even on the internet, I see people talking about how you’re never the same after this. I am terrified. I have been advised to stay at home for a while as I get used to everything, so I am missing classes already. Being at the campus makes me feel guilty, I see people having fun and being grateful. Would I even be able to finish college? I can’t see the light at the end of this dark tunnel. Is there any? I am already worried about how time is slipping away like it does. The world doesn’t stop when we are sad, and that makes me even sadder. Will things ever be the same? Will I ever be completely okay?