For clarification,
It's mostly yelling and talking ill of her to others and to my s/o who is VERY much a dog person.
We got the dog in 2018 to be my service animal and we got her when she was very young so we could mold her to be well behaved and to be in tuned with my emotions. I even purposely imprinted on her so we could be closer.
Big mistake. All of it was a mistake.
I some how forgot I don't like owning dogs. I grew up with chihuahuas and a boxer and I just don't like owning them. The licking noises, the barking, just everything about owning a dog is stressful and infuriating to me. I'm 100% a cat person but I digress.
We couldn't train her, my s/o treated her like he did his childhood dogs so she basically wasn't trained on his end and I would constantly get mad at him and her because of it. And I didn't know how to train her without it being undone later.
She failed her service animal training because  of it and because she has severe anxiety. She barked 3 hours straight at the evaluator.
Her anxiety is worse then mine and is on par with my s/o.
Because if all of that I wanted to rehome her but I was told absolutely not. I have this sad mentality of "dogs are more of a working animal, like a farm animal and if they don't work you rehome them" I know it's messed up and I'm sorry for that.
So she is staying.
I'm miserable. I'm angry, I yell at the dog who has me on edge 100% of the time and when I get mad at her my s/o gets scared of me. I don't do anything I just get really mad and storm off but still. I had to move out of our bedroom because I can't stand sleeping with her in the bed.
Idk what to do. I have this conflict that, maybe I do love her and stuff but even in the chilled out state I'm just ok with her and in my emotional state I just hate that she's there and I want to rehome her with someone not like me.
Idk what to do.