TL;DR
Checking into a psychiatric ward for the first time in my life, and I'm incredibly nervous. Any positive/encouraging advice would be wonderful. 




I've been on a leave of absence from work for a month now.

After yet another failed attempt to find a therapist who doesn't drop me after only a few sessions,

or dismiss my dissociative episode that led to me waking up the next day with burn marks I don't remember giving myself as "So you forget things occasionally, 

Or, tell me that if I feel like I'm not ready to return to work because of my constant crippling panic attacks that often trigger asthma attacks, it probably means that  I'm not equipped for the job I have, and that losing it wouldn't be the end of the world. 

Easy for a guy who charges $250 an hour (to my insurance,  albeit, but still) to say.

I've yet to have an even remotely positive experience with a therapist, but luckily my PCP is really great. He saw me within an hour of me calling, and actually ended up staying after his official hours to help me.

He has affiliations with a really great psychiatric hospital and placed calls to both the Attending physician at the ER, as well as the on call psychiatrist, and the social worker who will likely be taking my case, and talked to them in advance. He also gave me his personal cell phone number and told me to call any time if I needed something. I'm so glad to have at least one medical figure in my life who I can trust explicitly. 

For a long time I was embarrassed about my disorder, and thought I could handle it on my own. I'm finally at a point where I can admit that I need more help than once a week therapy can provide me right now, but more importantly I've realized that it's okay to need help.

I'm super nervous about going, which is why I'm procrastinating a bit on Reddit, so any encouraging advice would be much appreciated. 

Thanks in advance!  