I had no idea there was a concept such as an ‘FP’ before I joined this sub. I obviously understand it in terms of the primary attachment and how it can be projected onto other people . But the terminology ‘favourite person’ weirdly came to me as a shock after spending 2 years in analysis because the idea of a ‘favourite person ‘ is so commonly used but not understood in the context of BPD . 

It has helped put so many things into perspective. All these people and the intense relationships I had with them and how quickly they all fell apart over my fear of abandonment , being misunderstood and this constant longing of complete merging with them. To want them all to myself. And now when I see it I realise that this person whoever they are at that moment (since it’s a different person every few months) become the centre of my universe and nobody else matters. 
But now I’m beginning to get tired of these people. Not sure if this tiredness is a result of making my way around being on my own and not depend on these FPs or I’m actually giving up and retreating more into depression.