**I am not looking for a diagnoses and/or attention I just want someplace to share what has happened. As well as wanting other peoples opinions..**  


I want to learn about this, I have done research on this topic and I want to learn more, I am scared to ask my parents to allow me to see a professional to know if I do or not.  I am scared because I don't want them to shut it down and say I am dramatic, I agree with them so they don't think I'm crazy. I am not crazy, I am not crazy. I don't depend on a 21 year old man but I do at the same time, for happiness and its nothing sexual cause then he would go to jail obvi, I am gay as well lmao. I was manipulated by my last person of friendly interest. I am now helping his girlfriend, I don't want her going through the same thing, I didn't want to meet the girlfriend, I would get wrapped back up into it. She is so nice. He doesn't deserve her tbh. He's awful, but he knows how to get my attention, he knows personal information about me, but I have his address so he better know when to shut the hell up. One second I love my manipulator and the next I hate him. I don't know why. He is so perfect. I think I am okay, but is any of this real?