I just feel like everyone hates me. They don't even know me,but everyone I come into contact with is just rude to me. Here on Reddit people just love to hate on certain comments and when you stick up for yourself just to say, "well, you don't know me and that's your opinion." they continue to tear into you. People love to hate. 

Then in my everyday life, people are so rude. I recently moved to a region I'm not familiar with. I'm from the south. Everyone is respectful and polite. But here in Illinois... it's strange how the majority are rude. I've never had such a problem going out in public until moving here. I try to not care but I just can't help it. I tell myself they don't know me, they only care about themselves. But as soon as someone is rude to me I start blaming myself. It's hard when you grew up being taught that it was your fault for how people treated you. It's hard to ignore it when it happens way too often.

I hate it here, and I don't feel like I could ever like it. I want to go back to Colorado. We lived there for three years, and I was so happy there. It took awhile because I was in a bad state of mind when we first moved, but Colorado healed me. Illinois is bringing me down again. I don't want to go out because just thinking about being in public scares me. I can't put my finger on exactly why. The only reason I think it could be is because I can't stand the people. 

None of my friends back home have really talked to me since I moved. My husband is getting to that point where he'll ignore me or my needs. I just don't want to do anything because I just feel like everyone is annoyed by me. I don't want to talk to anyone because it's like shouting into the void...I miss feeling okay. I just wish I wasn't so messed up. 

Please be nice. I can't take harsh comments right now...