Couple years ago I had a breakdown and spent some time with psychs and talking to a lot of people about my mental health. It really took a tole on my wife's grades in school and she actually flunked first year of nursing school. I don't think she blames me but I blame myself. She only got kicked out by 3 points.. 1 answer. These last two years I've been in this war by myself.. it's like to her I'm cured but my second face has just gotten stronger and better. I'm doing less around house/prioritys again I feel like my mental health is tearing down my body because I also am a workaholic quite literally. I work 12 to 16 hours a day as a chef because I just rather be in the kitchen ignoring the world trying to fast forward..
Truly I'm suffering in silence I can admit that to you guys but no one else, schools starting January 18th again, her second chance at this I'll need to go two years more until she graduates. But I already feel like I'm going to explode or she's going to leave/resent me at the end of all this but I keep telling myself it's for her I know if I came out about it she would be distracted and you just can't be in nursing school. 
Idk I'm just typing maybe all this doesn't make sense. I've tried all the meds I've tried talking to people for a long time.