i dont know who i am under all these layers of bs. i have 0 hobbies interests passions or goals. my class is graduating and applying for universities and planning there lives and it struck me how i have no idea or desire to do anything. surreal feeling, i knew addiction ran in my family since I was a kid being warned abt it by family but seeing myself fall to it is crazy. worst part abt is I don’t care and have no desire to get sober. cant see myself making it past this year, shits truly a disease through and through. hope all of you are having a good day