My life changed badly after I had graduated highschool and came to college. My girlfriend who said will be with me forever disappeared after saying she dropped her college. My parent forced me to study engineer which I didn't want. I had changed from productive student with excellent grades, top 10 of my highschool, to one who didn't even know what to do with his life. It's been 2 years since then, I began to accept it by denying and thinking life would be better.

Until yesterday, I had a dream where I was in my highschool, for a brief moment, it was so real that I think that was a reality until I wakeup realize everything was fake. I cried a lot, look at how much I have changed since then. I missed my old me, my friend, my ex and my life back then. I worst when I realized how bad I'm now. 

I wish I didn't even have that dream in first place.