It doesn't really need comments I just want to express things to people I know will understand. I feel like I'm never going to be happy again. I feel like every day small things just upset me more and more and I already don't have a good domestic situation. All my friends leave me or just don't talk to me. I have one friend but I can't bother them all the time. I just feel really alone.

Whenever my friend says someone is the best or comments on something they post online and has a discussion with them without trying to text me when we used to talk all the time, it makes me feel awful. They say they're busy with work and personal stuff and then won't try to talk to me first ever, but I feel like when they're online for some time, wouldn't that be enough time to send a quick text to me knowing how I am?

I just feel really upset. Like I bother everyone I know. I don't have a family to be here for me. I don't really have friends. I've been trying to fight the overwhelming sadness for so long but I feel so alone and I feel like the only way to make it stop is to die. I cry almost nonstop every day and I can't do it anymore. I feel like it's a never ending circle and I'm never going to feel okay.