Letting my FP have his own life just kills me sometimes. I want his attention at all times but I also want him to leave me alone. He’s got a full time job and has his own life, which I’m glad for because he deserves it. But knowing that he could be paying attention to me instead of doing something else tends to drive me nuts. I try really hard not to constantly message or call him but when he contacts me first it feels like I’ve just taken ecstasy. I love him, I just want to be a healthy person in his life.