If I could slit my wrists an bleed
All of the pain
All of the hurt
If I could inject acid
That would burn away the dark
If I wrapped the noose around my neck 
And swung free of my insecurities 
I would pick up the blade and cut with abandon


If I were to swallow a bottle of pills
And cease the screaming
If I drowned
To stop the tears
If leaping left
A beautiful corpse of this broken shell
I would jump


But I'm not suicidal
I don't get an easy fix
Death doesn't stop pain 
The torture of unending rape
The fear that you're no one
Knowing you're without notice
Always the last thought




I'm not suicidal
I just want this me to die
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