They insist that they do. They remind me all the time. They're there for me a lot when I actually tell them that I need them. But why the fuck can't I actually believe that they mean it? It's been well over a year now and we've only gotten closer but why does it feel like they're lying? How can I know if it's because I just think that they're lying or if they actually are? Why would they? I can't think my way out of this doubt and it sucks.