The title is pretty self explanatory, but today I was told how my grandmother, I never met, committed suicide. This is being written on an alt for privacy reasons.

My dad has always been sensitive on the topic of his mother, whenever her name is brought up in conversation, he becomes uncomfortable and has never wanted to tell me the cause of her death. Until today, I presumed it was pneumonia or TB, o' how wrong I was.

Today, I was discussing the portrayal of mental health problems in the media with my mum, and she mentioned how my dad had to instead find out the hard way, because of his mother committing suicide back in the early 1980s. Even now as I'm righting this I am finding it difficult to comprehend that this had happened. I was however, born a couple decades later, so was never able to know her as a person.

It must be hereditary, as I have suffered severe depression and anxiety in the past, and used to fantasize about suicide and self harm on the daily. However, I have taught myself know the value of my life and accept myself for who I am, my mental health has improved since. Please, those of you out there considering self harm, I beg you not to. You humans are a weird and wonderful species and every one of you are beautiful. Stay safe. Thanks for reading.