I feel like no matter what I do I can't ever be loved. Maybe it's because I'm young. But the girl i just got out of a relationship with is my person and I love her to the end of the earth. But it hurts. We were together for almost 1 and a half years. I feel like I'll never be able to be loved because I'm such a complicated and difficult person to deal with

I'm been in a horrible episode since Thursday. I balled my eyes out for about 2 hours today, didn't go to sleep the night before and stayed up with my mom all night. I had a horrible episode. I wanted to just end it and do everything that was self destructive. I need help and I can't get it.