I recently took a trip to L.A. just for the weekend in order to visit some family and experienced something I’ve never really had before. Intense delirium. The kind you get when super sick with a fever, except much worse. 

It was the very first night I was there, about 11 o’ clock Ish so not very late and I had slept relatively fine the previous night. (I would like to mention a lot of my anxiety is related to my stomach and I have a very hard time eating under stress, so I had barely eaten the whole day.) I got into bed, very nauseous which wasn’t out of the ordinary and that’s when I began having my issue. It wasn’t something sudden that noticeably happened, I more so just weened into the mindset. In short, the whole world became tinted a navy blue, smoke filled up the room and it was as if there was a filter put over my vision of cobwebs, but they weren’t necessarily cobwebs. I remember interpreting them at the time as plant roots that completely filled up the room from floor to ceiling, but thinking back on it they looked much more like dense cobwebs. On top of all this, I was also convinced my cousin was a drug dealer, and that I was going to be forced into the cocaine business the very next day.

The next morning I felt like absolute shit. This isn’t necessarily out of the ordinary because I do often get morning sickness, even when not anxious and in my own home. Usually it dissipates by noon and I’m completely fine for the rest of the day, which is exactly how said day went. The nausea was gone by noon and the day went completely normal afterwords. However, I had one more night to spend. And once again, I experienced the exact same thing. Smoke, vines, cobwebs, whatever they were filling up the room and only inches from my face, and the horrible fear that people were in the house watching me and waiting to kill me. The next morning I visited the beach, continued to pack my stuff up and get the hell out. I’ve never experienced it since and have never experienced it before, coming from someone who’s had very severe anxiety since kindergarten and have been in much more stressful situations than a simple weekend vacation to visit family.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? To clear any suspicion I’ve never done drugs, was not on anything frankly, and wasn’t sick. My temperature was completely fine even at the peak of my nausea. I’ve never heard of anyone else experiencing something like this and am just genuinely curious as to what caused it.