I’m honestly not doing well. I’m fine throughout the day but I smoked with my friends on friday and I keep thinking about how stupid I was acting during the situation. I stopping texting my friends this weekend and nobody cared so I started splitting on them. I’ve been having intense episodes of crying recently and I don’t know how to stop it. The anxiety of them leaving me is too much so I start to hate them. I hate that they don’t validate me or my emotions. They know I’m struggling, so why don’t they give a sh*t. These thoughts in turn make me think back to all the times I fucked up in my life. This, in turn, makes me redirect my anger to myself and how im ‘faking’ my feeling for attention and that nobody would like me if they saw me in this state because I’m acting like a fucking crybaby. This causes me to start down a spiral of self loathing and hatred. How do I stop this from happening, because, honestly, I’m sick of it?