Ready to end it


Soooooo tonight I looked at my husband’s phone and saw he has been regularly texting his ex of 4yrs.  He also called her while he was at work today and they were on the phone for 11 mins.  

This is an ex that he had saved nude photos of and used them to masturbate to during a dry spell in our marriage.  He says it’s nothing but he was hiding it, didn’t mention he was all buddy buddy with THIS ex, and got super pissed when I confronted him.  I’m so angry I’m shaking.  

He told me if I leave I can’t come back.  It’s nice to know that keeping in contact with his ex is worth more than his wife, and our children.  After he got super mad and called me a psycho, garbage, and bitch, he came back in the room and tried to hug me.  It made my skin crawl.  We had been doing so well too!  I hoped I would see nothing but he has been accusing me of being grumpy, moody, sensitive the past few days (which only brought it into fruition when I wasn’t to begin with...) and that was kind of my red flag right there.  

I also saw he has been talking to chicks on Snapchat.  He saved one where (just days from my birthday) he told some chick she was “on fleek.”

I think I’m destined to just be a single mom.  Fuck him and guys that think it’s ok to be shady and dismissive to the woman their supposed to love.  Fuck him... he’ll regret losing me. I hope he knows This is the last time.

I have money to leave but have been a stay at home mom for the better part of 8yrs, have very little work experience, and the only income I have is from child support.  I want to send my daughter to live with her grandma, my son to live with his biological dad, and leave my infant daughter with my husband....  how the fuck would I support my children or find a cheap home... especially with this virus bullshit going around...

He has guns all over the house... it wouldn’t be so hard to pull the trigger and end it...