I haven't been formally diagnosed with BPD but my therapists have said I have a lot of borderline traits with the exception of one who wanted to diagnose me as hypomanic (Bipolar 2 I think). My question is how long did it take for you guys to get diagnosed? Was it during one evaluation or over time? My current theorist said I exhibit a lot of intensity in my emotions but that BPD is harder to diagnose. Even then I feel like he only sees me and my emotions at the surface. I feel like when I talk to him I don't wanna scare him off or make him think bad of me which I know makes no sense cuz a therapist is there to help you and not judge you but even when he says he'll never judge me I can't really fully trust him. So I feel like I'm not being 100% heard, not by fault of him or anything but because I have a hard time being upfront in therapy and the times I have been more upfront with let's say cheating fears, abandonment fears, trust issues with my S.O., my previous therapist was like "it's just anxiety or depression " when I feel like there is something else up with me. I know I'm not a professional and can't be doctor Google and immediately diagnose myself with whatever my current symptoms line up to but idk. For years, pre-teen, teen, and now young adult I've always had a very intense personality that at times I can tell scares some people off. Unless I'm being paranoid? I've always struggled with regulating and controlling my emotions, I always thought it was me being a hormonal teenage girl but even now at almost 21 I feel worse than ever. It's impossible to feel stable. I'm a 0-10 person with no middle ground. I've always been the type to obsess over a person or have a FP until they do something wrong and I think to myself "omg I hate them" until they do something"good." I struggle with a lot of emotional outbursts especially with my S.O. always thinking he's cheating and going off on him. Feelings of emptiness then feeling every possible emotion at once then back to nothing again. Self harm. On and off with being clean from it. Always thinking my friends will leave me. It's really hard, I'm on anti depressants and anxiety meds but they don't do anything despite the dosage being raised. Any suggestions or opinions?