I’m shy, so I was quiet most my life, which made me a target for bullying. Once I got over the shyness a little and talked, still bullied. I’m just tired of myself. Tired of being weird and sick (I have bpd). Tired of being walked all over and rejected. Tired of assuming the worst. Tired of being emotionally needy and abusive. Tired of being misunderstood. Tired of being too nice. 

I’m working on these, but it’s like come on, when are you going to be okay. I genuinely care too much about people ad what they think of me. I feel like I’m in prison for something I never did.