people just don’t hear me. so often i say things and the people around me don’t even acknowledge my words. even in complete silence. but i’ve been to therapy. so i try again. again. again. still, nothing.

occasionally it gets so bad that i truly start to wonder if i’m losing it. if maybe i’m not actually talking and i just think i am, or some curse has fallen that prevents anyone from hearing my voice. but no. i just get ignored. almost no one likes me, almost no one is interested in what i have to say. i have one friend. one. and i’m so grateful for them, but i can’t help but think there has to be something wrong with me. there’s no other explanation.

i’m just so lonely. i’m just so sad.