I don’t trust my emotions, not even one bit. I’ve learned that lesson so bitterly countless times, from social isolation to people being weirded out by my actions.

Over the years I stopped paying any attention to my emotions, relying solely on reasoning and logic. It sounds great but I feel like I’m becoming devoid of any emotion. I can’t tell the difference between right and wrong. 

Everything is starting to look like a tool, used to fulfill some larger objective. Why should there be anything wrong with murder/war if it gets the job done efficiently?

Stuff like the last sentence is scaring me. I’m 17. 

Please, if anyone has any experience with this, share your stories and any advice you might have. I don’t think this will end well.