Hi I’m violet. I am 23f lesbian. 

I moved to Washington recently. I met a super cool girl and we hit it off so well. Things went amazing in the beginning and the obsession in my side started to take roots. I started opening up to her about my childhood and life and she did the same you know? We kept getting closer and closer and I would obsess more and more. We hung out every single day even though she lived an hour away. I wanted to text her constantly because if I wasn’t texting her she was abandoning me. I dug my sharp nasty abused claws deep into her soul trying to keep her close and keep her near… she slowly started to fall out of love with me. She tried to fight it… I started to mirror her when it happened. Tried talking less, touching less, just trying to be what she wanted… I never was though, and she fully lost interest. I loved this one guys. The break up hurt so bad. Usually if it’s me just trying to fill the hole the breakup sucks and then I move on but it’s been 3 weeks and I’m still in agonizing emotional pain. I checked myself in a week ago and spent a week in inpatient. She came to visit me and called me every night. She told me even though she can’t love me anymore she would be there every step and made all these plans for when I got out… she didn’t follow those plans though. She fell off again. Stopped responding. Why am I like this :/ why do I push everyone away when all I want is to hold someone close…