My head's been treating me awfully lately. It's hard not to blame myself because I just really think all the awful feelings, thoughts, emotions, and more is my fault even though I very much know it isn't me. I just wish I can protect myself more from all of these but I can't. It's very overwhelming how horrendous life and the world is. It's hard to witness the fact that life isn't fair at all, it's a pill that's very hard for me to swallow even if I'm living it already. What makes it harder to live is me believing that someday I can finally say I'm happy that I'm alive, proving myself wrong. Life's hard, man.