I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety my whole life. I also have PTSD from a previous abusive relationship with my children’s father. Grew up with a narcissistic mother and I think I’m pretty codependent. I’ve noticed how being in a relationship makes my depression 10x worse.. my codependency and fear of abandonment make it all so so so much worse, so much that I feel like I’ll accept these tiny breadcrumbs of love just to feel anything. The past year I broke my sobriety and have SH a few times as well - all over a relationship where I feel so unloved and unwanted. Anyone else struggle with relationships and their depression. I honestly think I feel the worst while I’m dating. Am I better off alone at this point?