Hi, so.

its 00:31 AM on a monday. and i just dont know what im doing wrong.

Lets start by talking a bit about myself.

Im a 23 year old M. I have just graduated highschool and today i completed the registration for my own freelancing company. I already started working a couple weeks ago at the best job i could have ever wished for. I work full days from 9-5 but it feels like only 3 hours pass after a workday. it takes me about 2 hours to get to work with the train, so i dont have a lot of time for myself after a days work but its worth it.

I have the most amazing girlfriend i have ever had in my life and i dont want anyone else for the rest of my life. She is kind, supportive, funny, beautiful inside and out, she always tries her best to make me happy and we never fight, everyday the relationship seems to get better and better.

My home situation is pretty good, i live alone with my mom (my dad left me when i was an infant so i never knew him, i dont mind this though because of the reason he left. fuck him.) i have good contact with my mom, ofcourse we argue sometimes but its fine, i know she loves me and i love her too.

I have 3 friends, 2 of which i dont speak everyday but we speak enough to stay good friends and hang out etc.

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My problem is that i get told by everyone that im doing everything right, that they admire how passionate i am about work and that nothing seems to get in the way of what i want. I should be happy, but i seem to dislike myself. all my "accomplishments" are just the baseline to me, i dont know how else to describe it than: i need to do better...

I feel like i could work 24 hours and still feel like i never did enough.

I feel like if  i take some time off of work that im useless, a waste of space, like i need to do something with my time otherwise i shouldnt be here.

I feel like i dont give my girlfriend the attention she deserves, she says shes fine and that i give her enough attention and love, but i feel like she deserves more.

Basically. i feel like im not enough for anyone or anything, whatever i do.

I dont know what to do to fix this, a psychologist isnt an option since i have almost no free time. I hoped it would go away by itself but when im alone i feel like im always in a state of pure numbness.

Sorry if you're reading this and find it very anticlimactic or boring/a waste of ur time... just needed to get this out..

(also, idk if this counts as depression but i didnt know where else to go.. whenever i talk to friends about this they just tell me that they admire me etc. so they're not of that much use in this case..)