Just looking for some advice.
I’ve been struggling with my symptoms to varying degrees (for instance, I’ve broken up with and gotten back with my boyfriend twice this month. I don’t even remember the reason why). But the one that is crippling me the most is the impulsivity. I’m stuck in debt and I cannot get out of it because of stupid habits and spending. 

I have around £4500 worth of debt. My income is £18950 before tax annually. After tax I take home around £1300 for the month. A good £900 goes straight to outgoings which I can’t change (including paying back debts monthly). So that leaves me with £400 monthly. Doesn’t seem so bad right? 

But the coping mechanisms…. They’re expensive. I’ve worked out I spend £300 between alcohol and vaping every month. I’ve tried to quit or find cheaper alternatives so many times. But I’ll change my mind so quickly and won’t care anymore, even for just an hour, and then it’s already over. If I don’t have these stimuli, I can’t function or feel anything.

So £100 left for things such as food and travel for the whole month.

This leads to more debt on my credit cards or to friends…. Which I have to pay back the next month, on top of the ones I already have. It’s a vicious cycle which I’m struggling to break.

Does anyone have any wise words for this situation?