I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post this? Please let me know if this isn't allowed.

I (F20) have been dealing with (maybe undiagnosed?) anxiety for as long as I can remember (I've done some research on anxiety but don't want to diagnose myself as I am not a medical professional, but I do experience some symptoms of anxiety regularly.) I developed this response to an anxiety/panic attack. During my anxiety/panic attack I struggle to breathe and cry hysterically. Sometimes I will make myself stop breathing in attempt to calm down which makes me stop crying abruptly. After I do this, I feel emotional and physical numbness in my body. Like I said, I've been experiencing this for a long time, but I can't find any information about this feeling.

Does anyone else experience anything similar to this or know anything about it? I haven't been to therapy because I can't afford it and I don't qualify for free or affordable health insurance.