I go to work, see my girlfriend, interact with people, and overall act normal. Since I was younger I've always had the feeling that I'm insane deep down. I have schizophrenia and usually remain unmedicated because I feel like the medicine dumbs me down and turns me into a robot. Usually I'm a productive person and do alot of things throughout my day but I've always had the feeling as if im just making it all up in my head. The people I meet aren't real, nor are the places I go, the things I buy, or the food I eat. Really I think I just sit in my house and make it up. It's such a strange feeling really that at times I don't even know if the things happening around me are real. Sometimes even the people I interact with act strange and the behavioral patterns I thought I once knew start to change and I can almost see someone else. For the record I know I'm not suffering from capgras syndrome because I don't think the people I know were replaced but changed and the world that I think of isn't really what is happening. It drives me insane to think about. I don't know what has changed in me but I've become emotionless again. I've become alot more aggressive as well. I don't even think I exist to the outside world to me it's all in my mind.