I'm too burnt out too talk about it too much, but I handled a recent breakup extremely poorly. Getting angry, self-harm, sending him pictures of my self-harm, blaming him for the self-harm, begging him to help me, blaming him for if I die, attempting suicide, talking to him during my second attempt, etc. 

It's taken a significant toll on him and he opened up about how hard it's been on him recently. He said it was just too hard for him anymore and that I have to leave him alone now. The moment he did that, this huge wave of guilt hit me. I've been feeling ashamed of my behaviour for the last few months but seeing it for myself hurt even more. I apologized for everything and told him none of it was his fault, anything that I do is on me, and only I'm responsible for myself. And that he shouldn't feel guilty or responsible for anything I've done to myself. I've left him alone since, but it's been so hard. 

I deeply regret everything I did and seeing him blame himself for it hurts to watch. I'm getting professional help and I'm on a dosage of meds that's helping me now, but I feel like it's too late to undo the damage I've done to him.  I wanted to post here instead of a vent sub because I had a feeling you guys would understand.