I was diagnosed with BPD at 18 but due to when I was diagnosed I showed symptoms and was treated at around 16-17 using DBT. 
 At first I enjoyed this therapy but it ended up triggering a pretty severe string of multiple suicide attempts, like I couldn’t get over the things we had talked about no matter how much trauma I induced to distract myself. 

It’s been about 5-6 years since then and I see a psychiatrist but have been avoiding specialized therapy for this reason as unpacking things tends to send me spiraling if I don’t talk about them when I’m in a specific good mood. 

However I feel like I’m at a plateau in my BPD  recovery and would like to learn how to talk about things that bother me while they are happening and truly do see a benefit in trying again, but I also haven’t attempted since then and I’ve been deathly afraid to go back for this reason. 

Has anyone ever gone back to DBT and been successful? What are ways I can cope if it gets too heavy for me in between visits?