I know it probably sounds incredibly immature, but every time i lose in video games i get super upset with myself. It feels like it's a sort of catalyst for all my negative feelings and self hatred and i just don't know how to deal with that. I usually avoid games that have this kind of "one wins one loses" structure but i'm also mad cause i hate this being such a Thing, and playing video games is one of the main ways i connect with my best friend. Reflecting on it, i think it must be about needing to win to prove to myself that i'm worth it, but even realizing this i really don't know what to do to help myself when i'm feeling that way. Does anyone else deal with this? If so, do you have aby advice?