I feel like a black hole. Everyone loves to marvel at me and I guess I seem pretty cool from a distance, but as soon as you get close to me and cross my event horizon, your light is stolen and you get ripped to shreds. My interpersonal relationships with those closest to me are a continuous hell, yet everyone who I keep at a distance seems to think I’m great. And I’m just at the center of it all, constantly warping, shifting, and destroying everything around me. How did I get here? Was there ever a time where I could get through a day without the, for lack of better terms, emotional rollercoaster? Yet I face everyone with a smile on my face and a perpetual storm inside. This is hard.