I’m a 29yr old m diagnosed with dysthymia and a father of two I don’t get to see my children due to issues with they’re mother . I’m also being evicted from my place in the next two weeks due to new property owners . I work two jobs at a grocery store and a fast food joint across the street and I hate both. I am in the process of going to college this fall to pursue a career in finance but I’m still trying to figure out how I’m going to balance that out with the rest of my life. 

Everything is just  a mess right now and I just feel hopeless about it all. I miss my kids so much it hurts, I feel like a huge loser and I’m so disappointed in myself . I thought I’d have a lot more going for me by now but I don’t . I don’t want to end up like my father or as I like to call him Houdini ( poof he’s gone  and never came back) . I don’t want my kids to view me as some jerk off loser like him. I want to go to the court and fight for some custody but with out a place to live or car to pick them up with it just feels pointless right now . 

Of course I know that in time with hard work I can get on top of this but today my depression is winning it just feels like a lost battle with everything . And I could really use some kind words to help me get through this day of doubt and voided feeling.