Does anyone else with (especially childhood se*ual ab*se) trauma hate CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy)? I have a therapist who uses CBT rn and I really don't like the "thoughts control our feelings so we need to control our thoughts" mode of therapy. It's not very helpful to me because I don't feel like I deserve to even change and become healthy and reprogramming that is not really gonna happen because it's a core belief. 

I'm really thinking I need to get on some medication because I've had anxiety and depression for over 15 years and my depression is only getting worse and has caused me to self h*rm. 

Does anyone who has trauma experience this and what types of therapy and medication has helped you?