I'm tired. Absolutely exhausted. The world isn't real to me and I just feel like I'm floating. I have gone through Dialectical Behavior Therapy twice and it helped a ton, but I can no longer practice the most important part of the therapy -- mindfulness. Every time I check in with my world, I become painfully aware of how flat everything is. It's like watching everything in 2D on a slightly fuzzy screen. Nothing has an impact. So I spend every single day just existing and doing what I need to do to survive. It's a mundane, monotonous way to live and I abhor it, but what else am I to do?

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Unfortunately, I am too strong to end my life. But I just want a break from this. If anyone else has gone through the same thing, please say so. I need to know I'm not alone. And is there a light at the end of the tunnel? Will I ever feel the world again?