this past week i was diagnosed with bpd. Its something ive suspected for a long time and now that someone told me i have it i feel like i dont. I have convinced myself i dont bc i dont think i devalue ? I get hurt and think people dont care about me and i tell them that and they get hurt but i dont mean to hurt them i just need them but am i doing that to get them to like me or care about me? I literally cant tell and its making me feel crazy. I know ive done crazy things, for example-create multiple new phone numbers or ig profiles to contact my ex immediately after he would break up with me (extremely toxic on both ends) and make him talk to me or i would do things bc i knew he’d come back bc he always did and i asked him if i would lash out and he said ya but idk how i would ,,and my current bf, i feel like im slipping and he doesnt notice and i want him to and i dont feel like i care much about him rn but i do but i dont feel love like i did , i feel nothing, also im confused but sometimes i genuinely feel like he doesnt care about me and i just cant function and i just am confused about everything. and i just like need someone to tell me so i txted my ex and he said it fit and i still feel like no for some reason??? What is this am i just exaggerating normal???