I have chronic pain, I’m double jointed. Without continuously exercising every muscle around my joints, they’re inclined to tear or dislocate. It’s stopped me from doing the thing I’ve loved more than anything in life. It kills me.

I also have severe social anxiety and high functionally autism, also I’m suspect that I may have adhd, but I haven’t been diagnosed so I won’t claim that.

I feel like the combination of both of these things is just too much me to bear.

I used to deal with the incredible amount of emotion from anxiety and autism through physical exercise. But, being double jointed has gotten in the way.

The constant reminder of everyday pain and anxiety has been killing me inside. I hold so much emotion, mostly in the form of anger. 

I don’t know how to accept what I’ve been given. Any advice is appreciated


God I’m sad.