my mental state is collapsing, i feel incredibly manic but I know what will follow. I'm so tired of the same set schedule, im so tired of the constant negativity, my boyfriend isnt even doing well and I can barely help, when i try he shuts me down, i cant move out and im broke with no mental help. i have a disconnect on friends as a whole, the concept doesnt make sense, i have hallucinations and memory fog, i feel awful.