Anyone with multiple conditions? I’ll never know if epilepsy was really meant for me or not. I don’t know if bipolar came first. A normal MRI in 2019 after my first seizure, scarring as of January 2022 in my left temporal lobe. I don’t know what if currentmy manic episode is due to bipolar or epilepsy and brain damage. I can’t work, stayed up 80 hours last week straight. I can’t get my life back feels like. Applying for SSD today, can’t drive so often because I get so many auras lately. I never know anymore. I guess I’m just tired. I wish I knew how bad it gets, because the longer I wait around it seems my prognosis gets worse. Hearing about eventual brain surgery in the neurologists office yesterday was startling. I wish I knew. I never had epilepsy before, was diagnosed in 2019 after two seizures a few months apart. I was diagnosed bipolar in 2017, and many anticonvulsants I started on were for bipolar first. But now yes, I’m like, did epilepsy happen because of bipolar? Was I supposed to be epileptic before? Didn’t start getting auras before my seizure in 2020, now I get them all the time (auras). I wish I could hold down a job and get my life together, but I truly don’t even know why it’s like this to begin with. There’s no point in asking why me, and I should be grateful that things aren’t worse. But lately I feel like such an ineffective human being with all my struggles, I just… frustrated I guess.