I worked up the courage to start “dating” by looking on tinder a bit, and honestly I also did post an r4r. 

Nothing irl yet b/c I’m not brave enough. 

And, it’s so weird because everyone has all of these photos of them out and about with friends and they’re like, DOING things. 

I feel really pathetic. People are like “oh, I’m about to go out with friends, wbu?” 

I’m gonna sit here and watch the same stupid shows and listen to the same stupid music I always do because my anxiety prevents me from wanting to do anything else. 

I haven’t been out with/ taken a photo with another person in years. 

Feeling kinda self-loathing tonight.