For a couple of years now I’ve been pretty up and down, but the last few months have been... Uneventful. 

Sometimes I get angry and I cry and I can’t explain to my friends and family that I’m not crying because I’m depressed, I’m crying because I’m not happy and I don’t know if I will ever be again. They just don’t really seem to understand, they often suggest going to the doctor and switching my meds but I know that that’s not it, the way I felt before going on meds a couple of years ago was almost unbearable. This is... Well this is just boring. It’s a numb feeling. 

Do you feel like you haven’t experienced true joy in a long time too? 

