i read stories all the time of people developing mental illnesses due a bad childhood, being bullied, a traumatic event, being sexually harassed, etc and nothing bad ever happened to me. the only "bad" thing about my life was my parents were divorced, but they have always been civil around each other. i grew up not wanting for anything, i lived in a wealtht neighborhood, got accepted to a private university but my life is still shit. im extremely depressed to the point i turned to drugs and dropped out of college. my mom took me back in and is in full support of me which im extremely thankful for. but i just want to die or be high all the time. nothing fucking matters. the sun will explode in a few billion years and nothing that has ever happened will matter. why not feel good all the time by using drugs if ur life doesnt matter? i just feel like shit even more because theres no reason i should feel this way. i have friends and family who support me, ive never ever been in need of money. i feel like a waste, like people are depressed because of things that never happened to me. why should i be depressed? i dont hate my life i just hate myself