I told my therapist a lot of people assume first hand I'm on drugs, like speed or something. She asked why and I said  I'm guessing because I don't speak much, I constantly examine the environments I'm in and a lot of emotions can show through my eyes without me realizing it. I've been clean for nearly three years, I never got addicted though I just fell into the lifestyle. I get psychotically depressed from marijuana (I use to smoke everyday until I got into hard drugs, I couldn't go back.) so I can't stand it and alcohol gives me a splitting headache very quickly so I don't drink or smoke pot. I understand bpd can cause our reactions and responses in life to be very neurotic or disassociative. Thing is my partner believes it's more than that and finds it hard to believe I'm not still using. I'm wondering if it's a common thing for NT's to believe or perceive us as high on drugs. I know personally I can often feel like I actually am super high for bad or worse, but I know for fact I am not consuming any street substances. I understand and know some psychiatric drugs can intensify bpd or make us appear stoned or worse. I trailed Effexor for a long time and my pupils were like saucers day and night and I was always super dehydrated and grinding. It was basically like doing mdma without the good feeling. What I'm wondering is why do we sometimes or all the time appear or behave like we are on drugs. Is it because parts of the brain are over active inhibiting our emotional regulating and over activating our instinctive responses?