Hey Guys, I’m 28 years old and I live in Germany. 

The last few weeks haven’t been easy for me. 
I have an severe episode of anxiety and depression right now. 

But my sleep is making everything worse right now and it gives me a great deal of fear. 

FYI: for the last 5 weeks I nearly sleept up to 3-5 hours a night (sometimes less) with frequent waking up’s etc. 

So yes i am really really tired and can’t really function, since weeks. 

But there is a thing that makes me scared of sleeping. 

First: When I drift of to sleep I am often half awake and can notice myself drifting into a dream/sleep. Then I often start dreaming mildly but I am still half awake. Most times I fall asleep within a minute or two. But sometimes I jolt up and I am wide awake then. 

Second: When falling asleep like described in Point 1, I sometimes hear a voice when drifting into sleep. Once it was my Girlfriend saying : it’s alright honey, the other time it was a women I know laughing ( met her the same day), the third time it was random chatter or a conversation. 

This freakes me out. 

I am so scared of developing Schizophrenia and it causes me a lot of distress. 

Third: tonight I was asleep for like 1 hour. Then our dog opened the door loudly and jumped into my bed. I woke up with a scare and the second I woke up and my dog came into my bed I remember that it felt dreamy and I saw my dog like it was another breed of a dog for like 2 seconds. I didn’t cared First but after realizing I was scared because my fear of Psycosis. 

Fourth: Every, really every morning when I wake up I feel really confused and drowsy, like you feel after a long nap, can’t think straight and disoriented. 

But this last for me like an hour or two. It’s hard to deal with this. 

—————-

This all started to get frequent for like  5 weeks, in a phase of not enough sleep, severe anxiety, stress etc etc. 

My Therapist told me I am not developing a psychosis, but I can’t get my head out of it. 

It really makes it hard to deal with my life right now. 

Edit 1: this sensation of being half asleep/half awake is not new to me. I experienced it earlier in life, mostly when sleeping in a driving car, bus or train, or when falling asleep in school lol 

Can someone please ease my mind?