First of all I am very impatient about my first apointment that is in November(f my country). I am NOT shure I have BPD but I am diagnosed as bipolar, but understanding everything more clearly why I did things I did in my past as I strongly belive I have BPD. My sister has BPD also (but I know that doesn't mean anything).

So I wake up in the morning, having all the problems in my mind mixed with anxiety and depression(going trough stressfull and hard times in my life). Then I reaserch and make strong opinions about who I am and what I am and feel more happy and at peace with myself. 

As the day goes by I am falling more and more down and down and thinking about all the stuff and overanalysing myself and things that stress me out but I am at piece somewhat.

When I start to wake up STRONG anxiety and panic kicks in as every morning for the past week. Like I am reliving the same day over and over again. 

I am also on medications and witdrawls(maybe that is the problem).

Did any of you had simmilar expiriences or can realte in any way possible? Would apriciate if you tell me I am going insane also idc really at this point...