I hate this. I have so much anger deep down but at the same time I feel nothing. I hate not knowing if I should trust my feelings/brain on things. I hate when it seems my brain is correct then I overreact and things aren’t how they seems. I want people around me but I push them away the moment they get close or I hate them for being nice to me because I know pretty soon they’ll know the real me and leave. And its so crazy how one outburst and they are gone.