It just always hurts so damn much I haven't been able to sleep for 2 weeks since I found out. It just fucking sucks that I already had an anxiety problem and now I have trust issues too. I can't stop obsessing over this. 

I did not even see it happening with my own eyes, but I can imagine it so vividly, I was traumatized and did not eat properly or sleep for several days after I found out. I am slowly "recovering" but the images of my friend and my boyfriend fucking just wont leave my mind. I imagine them laughing at me and talking shit about me saying how stupid and unattractive I am. It just fucking hurts so much and it won't leave my mind. Distractions work a little bit but then it just instantly comes back. i have taken medicine for my anxiety but once the pills effect wears off it just comes back. I can't rest

I can't enjoy anything without thinking about it even once.