I am 17 F from Italy.


Not long time ago i was diagnosed with BPD.


My illness is really destroying my life and relationships with friends and boyfriend.


Since 2020 I have a bf, we love each other so much but he started to change and this drove me crazy, I started to be obsessively jealous, call and text him all the time, I even threatened to take my life because of him..


Now I feel like that my ill brain is consuming me, everyday, I am so depressed, I feel numb, hopeless and i feel like people are tired of me and don't love me.


I really don't know if i want to end it, a side of me is scared of death, i want to grow old, I don't wanna died at only 17 yo, but sometimes I think that this problem (bpd) is bigger than me and this makes me thing that the best thing is to take my life.