I feel so overly aware about my existence I feel like I can kill myself by giving myself a brain aneurysm or a stroke just by thinking about it everything feels like a dream and I don’t know how I’m suppose to feel like I don’t know what normal feels like anymore I wasn’t always This way I was a high functioning adult with a girlfriend and a great job this all changed after i had parathyroid surgery after finding out I had a tumor in my parathyroid gland nothing has felt right since this was close to a year ago I live everyday afraid of my own mind I can’t even go out anymore my confidence has been destroyed I feel like a totally different person I hate it so much I ust to be so happy and had dreams and ambitions now I feel at any moment I’m going to die ive talked to my doctor and he keeps telling me it’s just aneixty but I really do feel like something with wrong with that surgery I had I’ve looked a lot into disassociation and I think that’s what it might be any help would be highly appreciated.