I've been doing DBT for about a year and a half now and the past few days it's starting to sink in: I'm actually getting better. I don't feel that intense, desperate desire to kill myself every day, I feel capable (most of the time) of handling problems that come up, and I can tolerate strong emotions and still engage with my life in the ways that I want. I have hope for my future, for my education and career, and a level of nervous excitement for life that I haven't felt in years. I actually think I might be okay some day. Like really okay.