I am 17 and going into my senior year of high school. I have trauma that all started from the age of 4. I have been abused in every way, my mom struggled with drug addiction until I was 16, and I have grown up with a narcissist(stepmom). When I was 5, my mom lost custody and my dad married my stepmom. Ever since, I have lived in a home where I haven’t been treated fairly and I am constantly walking on egg shells. I have counted down to the day I graduate and I’m so relieved that it is close. The problem is, I have struggled so much with anxiety and it leads to overthinking. I can’t get out of the mindset that I’m not going to actually get to move out, as in something is going to happen to me between then and now. I try not to let my anxiety effect my thinking, but this is something I can’t get rid of. How can I get out of this mindset?