I have been depressed most of my life, and two years ago I tried to kill myself but it failed and I was very lucky to be alive.

Since then things have been going really well up until recently. I’m a music producer, I don’t have any friends or family, it’s been the only thing keeping me going recently after some success. 

However I just had a major setback where I’ve been cut off from the people I worked with for no reason, they’ve all just blocked me and I can’t find out what’s happened, now I will have no source of income. These were the people I considered my only friends, even though I’ve never met them and they live on the other side of the world. This has made me feel very lonely and I keep having panic attacks.

This has triggered my previous thoughts and feels like where I was two years ago. How do I deal with these failures and setbacks in life without feeling like this? It’s very scary and I know more things will happen like this in life. 

Any help or advice would be appreciated