This was one of many times we broke up for that exact reason, but this one is definitely feeling like the final one. I keep trying to go back to her thinking I could change or do it differently and she won't feel as bad. But now I'm not gonna try again because I don't to keep hurting her. 

It sucks cause she tells me I'm perfect and she loves that I'm a weirdo. I struggle with relationships also, so it feels like I lost the one. Its sucks hearing that she wants to date someone else that's a loser like her :(. I wish she didn't feel that way about herself.

Thanks for listening to me I never told anyone about her BPD nature so I could only talk about it on here.