I don't know what to say, I am trying my best but nothing seems to work out in my case. I am trying so hard, but I am not getting the results. Life feels like a scam these days, I don't know what am I even doing now and what I should be even doing?

I just wish I could let it all go and just leave forever. I wish to kill myself because nothing seems to make sense anymore. I wish to give up because I am tired of trying. I wish to just be happy for once. Is it too much to ask for?!