There ain’t no point to me waking everybody's time I'm taking up I got nobody, there ain’t a shoulder near. for me everybody holds a hate I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake ill disappoint you, and I will let you down You don't understand, so don't say you do. I got court coming up I stole a truck. I wanna get high but I got piss tests. I got no family I stole they shit. Restraining orders and I still won’t quit. I been missing for a year nobody’s looking. I got beat down and my shit tooken. I look ahead and all I see if more of the same. And I keep dreaming about cutting heads off with a shovel…the dreams are getting serious I think I’m in trouble. I don’t hold memory for more then a hour im tired as fuck. There’s no clothes that I look good in. It don’t matter, I’m doing this shit in the garage trying to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage. This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me. Fuck it im about to do it.