My bf (M19) and I (f19) got into a really big blowout about three days ago. A lot of arguing that ended up w me yelling, screaming, throwing things, you know how it goes. We ended up making up but I just felt weird after. I told him that when we fight I don’t see him as a bf, but as an enemy. As corny as that sounds it’s true. So now here I am three days later, and I’m still questioning my feelings toward him. (I’ve been keeping track to see how long it lasts.)

I mean we’ve laughed and have had sex since then which was nice but it still feels like there’s something missing. I’m not really sure how to describe it. On top of that, this seems trivial but I saw that he requested to follow this girl on Instagram from our old high school and he never follows girls. He knows I saw too because I saw the notification of her accepting it when I was casually scrolling through his feed with him. It wasn’t a rule but an unspoken respect thing. I was kinda confused and a little hurt, which I’m still thinking about but it makes me want to jump ship even more. I don’t wanna be in a relationship where I compare myself to other girls. So yeah. I definitely could use an outside perspective. Any advice?