I feel like being in love, like having genuine feelings for someone fucks my brain up. I always have meaningless crushes and fps just because I like to suffer. But I found someone who I really like… like for real. Told him to go fuck himself because he didn’t give me enough attention. I Blocked him on everything and now I’m unable to feel anything like my brain has just switched from love to being hurt to nothing at all. I feel like he was showing me that he kinda liked me and that made me so scared I had to push him away. Makes me sad because I feel like I wont have a serious relationship ever. I’m so scared of love. I feel like I’m not worth it. Tbh I’m not. The only emotion that I can feel right now is rage.