I have my first Ketamine Session coming up on Monday, the 1st of August. Two days, I went to a psychiatry expecting to just have to try another antidepressant or choose the other option i had, insteading of what my heart was telling me to do, the other option was MAOI’s, specifically tranylcypromine or phenelzine.

I’ll be doing 6 sessions over three weeks, mondays and thursdays, starting at 0.5mg/kg. It’ll be to treat trd, tr-gad, pd, ptsd, sud/oud, and social phobia. I have been severely depressed for about 5 months this time around, having both social phobia and constant racing, intrusive thoughts for years, with three traumatic, unrelated events also occurs all in the last three years. I also just quit drugs and alcohol, daily use of ice, coke, fet, kpins, weed, and alcohol daily. 

I made an intention and set, have a few albums of music that i can pick from, so i’ll be bringing a blanket, eyemask, airpods, phone for music, and notebook and pen for afterwards to write how i was feeling and my experience. I’m really hoping to help simplify my mental health conditions and their symptoms, and to get closer to my spirituality during this first infusion.

I’m ready to dig deep into the pain of my mental suffering and try and find ways to fix that, make lifestyle changes, and hopefully have better quality of living aftwards, after ~29 treatments i’m excited to see if i can make some improvements.

What i’m doing right now to keep me sane-ish:
• Journaling
• Poetry
• Therapy
• Psychiatry
• Alcoholics Anonymous
• Trying to Build Back Relationships w/ Friends/Family
• Trying to get Involved in Fellowship
• Trying to Keep In Touch w/ Friends

What i’m doing right now in terms of medications:
• 35mg Dexedrine Spansules (20mg q8am, 15mg q12pm) For ADHD
• 8.6/2.1mg Zubsolv QD For Opioid Maintenance Therapy (3 Months in Recovery)
• 50mcg Clonidine QHS For Sleep Onset
• 0.5mg/kg IV Ketamine for TRD, TR-GAD, PD, PTSD, SUD/OUD, and Social Phobia
• 10mg Loratidine QD AM for Seasonal Allergies
• 40mg Famotidine QHS for GERD
• 0.125mg Hyoscyamine DID PRN (For IBS-M Related Abdominal Cramps *never really use*
• 300mg Trimethobenzamide QD PRN (For Chronic Nausea *never really use*

Recently Discontinued:
• 7.5mg Remeron (Didn’t work for Depression, Anxiety, or Sleep)

Supplements:
• 150mg Adrafinil + 135mg Citicoline + 100mg Phenylpiracetam + 15mg Noopept Combo QD AM
• 30 Billion CFU’s Probiotic QD AM
• 500mg Turmeric + Curcumin QD AM
• 500mcg Vitamin B12 QD AM
• 30mg Saffron Gummy QD AFT
• 1,000mg Vitamin C QHS
• 1,000mg N-Acetylcysteine QHS
• 200mg Magnesium Bisglycinate QHS
• 100mg 5-Hydroxytryptophan QHS
• 50mg Zinc Gluconate QHS
• 125mcg Vitamin D QHS
• Multivitamin QHS
• Flaxseed Oil QHS
• 1,000mg L-Tyrosine PRN *never really use*
• Both 200/100 &amp; 100/200mg L-Theanine + Caffeine PRN
• 200mg L-Theanine PRN

Only Other Drugs I Use:
• Cigarettes 
• Vapes
• Caffeine
• Sometimes Nicotine Gum, Lozenge, or Pouches

If anyone has experience with Ketamine Intravenous Infusions after trying many other substances, please comment what types of music you listened to, how your experience was, what it felt like, how it helped with mental health, and how long the effect lasted you before you had to get a booster.

The only dissociative i’ve ever used with recreational, i’m embarrassed to say, but high dose dxm. It was a positive experience, my psychiatrist asked me about it and was glad i had a good experience with a dissociative and that the infusion might be easier for me since i had a good time with dxm, don’t remember any therapeutic aspects except i wasn’t as depressed in the days after. 

I’ve also tried nitrous, but it was awhile ago and i forget my experience. 

Any experiences would be great, to be honest i’m kind of nervous, but know i really want to do this, my mental health is getting bad, and i’m confident this might be the one that helps. I’m a very spiritual person and asked my higher power to put whatever he thought would benefit me in my life the day before my psych appointment, and it ended up being the day after i’d go to the appointment and be able to start ketamine treatment 4 days afterwards, so i’m hoping this’ll be the one. 

Thank you for reading i’m excited to read your replied! Be sure to respond if it helped you with your addiction as well!