text: Have you ever felt personally victimized by Shonda Rhimes? Well, you've come to the right place! Because so have we! But, isn't that sort of why we love the show? Regardless, here are 19 times that Grey's Anatomy kicked us right in the heart parts!
  This was one insanely heartbreaking moment. Even if she could get a little annoying from time to time, we all fell in love with Lexie (and her relationship with Mark) immediately. She did not deserve going out like this!
  OMG. We were shocked when we saw this for the first time. Honestly, it takes our breaths away every time we rewatch, too. Two of our favorite OG interns in danger? Hell no!
  SIGH. Probably one of the most devastating and infuriating deaths in Grey's Anatomy history. I mean, IT DIDN'T HAVE TO HAPPEN! He was almost out of the woods when, suddenly, he wasn't. We lost McDreamy to something that McDreamy could have fixed himself. And Mer...poor Mer. It's just so sad!
  Since his departure in Season 11, Grey's has shown multiple flashbacks and mentions of McDreamy to torture the hearts of fans! Despite showing us that Mer may finally be moving on with her life, it is heartbreaking to watch Mer go through all of it in waves. She truly loved him. They were extraordinary together, after all.
  What was she thinking? She put her life and our hearts in danger in one fell swoop! And then, when she got out of it safely, Shonda went off and killed Coach Taylor (a.k.a. Dylan Young). Damn you, Shonda!!
  This was so sad to see, especially since we aren't 100% sure if Mer stopped swimming out of choice rather than hypothermia. It chills us to our core just thinking about it.
  And then it's just as heartbreaking to see Derek so broken, as he sits in the waiting room to see whether or not Mer will live. We cannot get over this scene.
  What's more devastating than the Calzona divorce? How could Shonda possibly top that? A custody battle between Callie and Arizona..of course. We're pretty happy things turned out ok in the end, but we definitely raged when it happened.
  It hurt a lot when Cristina found out it was Henry. But, when Teddy found out, it was like Shonda personally came to our homes to rip out our hearts for fun. After all, not only did Teddy lose her husband, she lost her best friend, too, since Owen was the one who decided to lie to her face.
  After Lexie's death, Shonda gave us hope by keeping Mark alive. He even got better for a good two seconds! However, that's when things just fell apart. We sobbed as Mark's two best friends said goodbye, and we cursed Shonda for getting our hopes up.
  Kudos to Sandra Oh (who plays Cristina Yang) for this heartbreaking, yet so incredibly well-done scene. But, it definitely broke all of us to watch Cristina go through that.
  Reed's death was shocking. Alex getting shot was distressing. Charles' death was infuriating. And Derek getting shot was heart-wrenching. NO. NO, SHONDA. YOU DO NOT GET TO DO THIS. NO!
  This episode is probably one of the more devastating episodes of earlier seasons. When we thought he was safe, Denny just...died, completely alone and without Izzie. Just gut out our insides, why don't ya?!
  This was JUST. SO. SAD. Maggie didn't know that her mom has breast cancer. In fact, everyone let her believe that her mom was getting a boob job. By the time Maggie found out, it was too late. Maggie crying over her mom's death was probably one of the most devastating moments of mid-season 13.
  We were all on the edge of our seats when Mer got beat up by a patient. Scratch that. We were terrified and upset! She didn't deserve that and we still wince every time we watch the scene. But, it's when Alex says this that we desperately gasped for air with full on sobs and ugly crying.
  Poor Jackson. Poor April. They've been through so much, and when Samuel died, it broke both the couple and the audience, whether they were Japril fans or not.
  This entire dinner was so intense in the quietest way possible. The tension was building the entire time and had us sobbing by the end of the night. We were all shocked when Mer told everyone that "Perfect Penny" killed her husband. We were torn apart when Amelia kept demanding to know what happened to her brother.
  WOW. The last two episodes of Season 13 not only reminded us of why we love Grey's Anatomy, it also made us fall in love with how badass Edwards was. She lit a rapist on fire, jumped in front of an explosion, and survived (thanks to television magic). It made us panic from beginning to end, but it broke our hearts when she thanked Webber for everything he had done for her, but ultimately quit in the end.
  A lot of fans will say that the show hasn't felt the same without Cristina Yang. She played a huge part in why we love the series. Dancing it out with Mer was the best and worst thing that could have happened for Yang's exit. It was beautiful, but it shredded our hearts into a million pieces.
  Kerry Greenwood is the author of twenty-seven novels and the editor of two collections. Previous novels in the Phryne Fisher series are Cocaine Blues, Flying too High, Murder on the Ballarat Train, Blood and Circuses, Death on the Victoria Dock, Ruddy Gore, Urn Burial, Raisins and Almonds, Death Before Wicket, Away with the Fairies, Murder in Montparnasse, The Castlemaine Murders and Queen of the Flowers. She is also the author of several books for young adults and the Delphic Women series...When she is not writing she is an advocate in Magistrates' Court for the Legal Aid Commission. She is not married, has no children and lives with a registered Wizard.