text: Despite his long illness, I do not recall Roger ever complaining. Even in recent times, the world of music still occupied his being. The radio in his room at Lulworth, permanently tuned to ABC Classic FM, broadcast without interruption. I am sure that the presence of this music went some way to transport him from the terrible illness which had overtaken his body.
  During a recent visit, I was able to talk with Roger about a composer whose music I had just heard performed in Vienna. The composer was the French Canadian, Claude Vivier. Interestingly, Roger’s body moved in recognition of the name as it was spoken. In a few precious but muted words, Roger was able to share with me his enthusiasm for Vivier’s music, and also relate the common ground they both had with Stockhausen. It was like a brief moment of musical conversation with the old Rog., I knew so well.
  Two years ago, I had the good fortune of attending Roger’s 70th birthday celebration. At that event, I was asked to offer a few words about him. I chose to conclude my comments with a quote, which I would like to share once more. The musical idea expressed in the quote, in my opinion, deeply reflects the very essence of the Roger we know so well. The quote, from the journal, The Listener of 12 August 1971, is Roger in his own words, describing the compositional process of his work entitled Beat Music which premiered at the 1971 Proms concert with the ensemble Intermodulation:
  ‘I am continually trying to get away from the feeling that I am composing the music, and closer to the sensation that the music is composing itself. This sensation, which I experienced more strongly than ever before while writing Beat Music, is extremely difficult to verbalise, but I could describe it as the feeling that if you descend deeper and deeper into the materials of music until you reach the smallest and most insignificant-sounding object (say a C natural so low that it is no more than a click every second), you will merely have to disturb it slightly with the point of your pencil – push it around on the manuscript paper a little – and it will release the most phenomenal amount of energy.’
  A fine tribute, to a fine musician, whose music deserves to be long heard – and not just in Australia or here in the UK.
  Roger was a decisive figure in the way I developed both as a musician and as a person, from our first meeting in 1969. Piano duets; listening to Stockhausen; both improvising and reading detailed composed scores with Intermodulation; shared meals and journeys. Thank you Roger. I treasure all your recordings, especially the Aussie works, Piano Concerto onwards. Peter Britton (registered as anon because I don't know what these other categories mean!)
  
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