text: The Plan | my gossamer life
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  July 9, 2011 by mygossamerlife
  After years of stumbling thru a dark tunnel, not knowing which direction to go, feeling helpless and hoping to be rescued, I have decided it is time for a plan to "rescue" myself from this toxic marriage. A simple plan, really, but one that, I am trusting, will result in a better life. Easier life? Maybe not, but I can not continue indefinitely on the path which I have been nor "until death us do part", under the current conditions.
  STEP ONE – Begin seeing a new therapist to address:
  1) my own dysfunction
  2) ways in which I can help my children re-connect as a family
  3) confronting my husband with the responsibility of his own dysfunction and the ways it has affected me
  STEP TWO – prepare myself financially for the possibility of supporting myself & the children without my husband by:
  1) applying for a benefitted position at work where I will have guaranteed hours and accrue PTO, as well as be eligible for medical benefits
  2) making the maximum payment (that I can afford) to each of my credit cards in order to have them paid off within the next 2 years
  3) instead of refinancing our mortgage in 2 years as planned, when the time comes, if the situation with my husband has not changed, I will tell him that we need to sell the house, split the equity and separate.
  Yes, 2 years is still a long way off . . . but with a plan, I am now going to "move" towards these goals and take control of my future, rather than continue living each day, in response to my husband, my circumstances and the influences around me.
  "Life doesn't give you a re-write; it only let's you keep telling the stories you've got and offering fresh pages." http://deeperstory.com/the-gift-of-your-beginning/
  I am so ready for a new story . . .
  Posted in a deeper story, christianity, faith, family, marriage, parenting, relationships | Tagged bad behavior, control, depression, family, finances, life, love, marriage, marriage counseling, money, parenting, relationships, troubled marriage | 2 Comments
  on July 11, 2011 at 11:16 am | Reply Tamara
  It's inspiring to see someone really taking those words and using their fresh pages. I'm humbled. Thank you.
  on July 12, 2011 at 5:34 pm | Reply mygossamerlife
  Thank you, Tamara! The posts I read in a Deeper Story require me to really look at my life. Your words are appreciated!