Then I read books with pictures on the covers of guys that looked wise and Godly, with long beards and religious clothing, but I knew the books were wrong because they said that GOD was not to be feared,17 that GOD doesn’t threaten people, and that you could sin without going to Hell.18 I wasn’t worried about a god like that; I worried about finding the GOD that threatened me,19 the GOD that showed me Heaven and Hell, making me do something no one else could make me do, something I never wanted to do.
Basi nikaenda kwenye makanisa mengine, lakini hata huko pia sikumpata. Kisha nikasoma vitabu ambavyo majalada yake yalikuwa na picha za watu walioonekana wenye hekima na wamchao Mungu, wenye ndevu ndefu na mavazi ya kidini, lakini nilijua vitabu hivi vilikuwa na kasoro kwa maana vilisema kuwa Mungu si wa kuogopwa,17 kwamba Mungu hawatishi watu, na kwamba unaweza kutenda dhambi na usiende Jehanamu.18 Sikumwogopa Mungu wa aina hiyo; nilimwogopa Mungu aogofyaye,19 Mungu aliyenionesha Mbingu na Jehanamu; akanifanya nitende kitu ambacho hakuna mwanadamu yeyote ambaye angenifanya nikitende, kitu ambacho sikutaka kukitenda. Sikuwahi kufikiria kwamba ukweli ungeweza kupatikana kwenye Biblia, kwani zilikuwepo kweli nyingi na zilipatikana kila mahali.