The recollection of what I then said, of my conduct, my manners, my expressions during the whole of it, is now, and has been many months, inexpressibly painful to me.
Ha eszembe jut minden, amit akkor mondtam, ha a viselkedésemre, modoromra, szavaimra gondolok, az emlék most is kimondhatatlanul kínos nekem, s az volt hosszú hónapokon keresztül.