She did not renounce all she had learnt, but realized that she had deceived herself when thinking that she could be what she wished to be. It was as if she had recovered consciousness; she felt the difficulty of remaining without hypocrisy or boastfulness on the level to which she had wished to rise.
Non rinnegò tutto quello che aveva ultimamente conosciuto, ma capì che ingannava se stessa, illudendosi di poter essere quello che voleva essere.