This St. John opposed; he said I did not want dissipation, I wanted employment; my present life was too purposeless, I required an aim; and, I suppose, by way of supplying deficiencies, he prolonged still further my lessons in Hindostanee, and grew more urgent in requiring their accomplishment: and I, like a fool, never thought of resisting him--I could not resist him.
Saint-John si oppose assicurando che non avevo bisogno di distrazione, ma di lavoro, e che la mia vita aveva bisogno di uno scopo. Forse, guidato da questo pensiero, prolungò sempre più le lezioni d'indostano.