Amongst them all I found not one whom, had I been ever so free, I--warned as I was of the risks, the horrors, the loathings of incongruous unions--would have asked to marry me. Disappointment made me reckless.
Le désappointement me rendit nonchalant; j'essayai de la dissipation, jamais de la débauche, je la détestais et je la déteste: c'était là le vice de ma Messaline indienne.