Mélanie
Si mal à l'aise...
C'était comme si les insectes rampaient et glissaient à travers sa chair de porcelaine lisse, la fille tremblant comme si dans les spasmes ses yeux fatigués et sanglants regardaient la feuille de papier devant elle. C'était une chose d'essayer de parler aux gens dans le couloir, mais... en ligne? Ils pourraient être n'importe qui, même... même une de ces filles de l'équipe de pom-pom girl qui n'arrêtait pas de la harceler. Une masse se formait dans sa gorge, et elle était sûre qu'elle pouvait sentir la piqûre salée de larmes jaillissant dans ses yeux de la peur accablante qu'elle sentait se lever dans son intestin, mais néanmoins un soupir profond et aiguisé séparait ses lèvres tremblantes et son stylo était pressé au parchemin, griffant son nom, son âge et tous ces autres renseignements personnels. Ce n'était pas comme si les profs allaient partager cette merde avec tout le monde, mais quand même... Melanie était appréhensive.
Peut-être qu'elle en ferait une amie? Un ami... Oui, c'est ça. Qui a-t-elle trompé?
Soupirant à nouveau, elle s'est remise en forme et a déjeuné, assise à son endroit habituel à l'extérieur sur le terrain du campus sous le grand sycomore ombragé. Avec l'argent qu'elle avait, elle avait acheté un sandwich, la dinde avec avocat et la mayonnaise légère sur le blé, son préféré, sans parler d'une pomme de smith mamie, un petit sac de bretzels salés et un thé vert. Elle était habituée à manger seule, entourée d'un silence total avec seulement ses pensées pour la compagnie. Il y avait aussi sa musique. Elle a tiré de sa poche le petit iPod nano rose, collant les bourgeons dans ses oreilles et appuyant sur le jeu. En quelques secondes Mt. Washington s'enfonçait tendrement dans ses oreilles. Elle ferma les yeux, la penchant contre l'épais tronc de l'arbre... laissant la musique l'emporter... de tout...
What is your real name?
"It's Batgirl. No no! I'm totally joking! It's Melanie...umm...Melanie Thornhurst."
Are you male or female?
"Umm..last I checked, I'm pretty sure I was a chick right?"
What is your age?
"Hehe...yeah, why don't you have a seat over there? For the record I'm actually 16."
When is your birthday?
"October 31st. Yeah I'm umm...kinda proud of it, I guess."
What grade are you in?
"Freshman . I got held back because...because we moved around so much and I...fell behind."
What are some of your hobbies and interests?
"I'm well...my hobbies are just...kinda lame really. All I usually do is spend time in my room watching indie movies on my laptop or messing around with my acoustic guitar. I'm not much of a party girl and I don't really like any sports at all. Oh and umm...did I also mention I'm kind of a cinemaphile? I really love obscure and thought provoking films that no one's really heard of, especially if they're about quirky romances or a life changing adventure. Sometimes, I even picture my own life as a movie. Other than that, I also love to listen to alot of indie artists like Local Natives or Syd Matters, and the occasional Silverstein and Hawthorne Heights. I also watch alot of anime too from time to time, only if it's good though, and I do like to draw and write poetry."
How would you describe your personality?
"Well for starters....*sighs and looks away* I've been suffering from depression since I was in middle school, mostly because we kept moving from place to place, and I barely made any friends at all. It doesn't help either that I'm afraid of everyone around me and I don't like to meet new people since I'm scared of getting hurt and all. I try to smile and act like the cheery, bubbly girl I'm supposed to, but when I'm home and....and I'm all alone...I.....I...." *sobs into her knees* "I-I don't know why I'm like this at all.... I used to be so happy when I was little, but....now I just feel...like this... Like a doll with a cracked face. You can see she's pretty on the outside, but her flaws...they're just...so hard to ignore..." *looks at the cuts on her arms*
What has your life been like so far?
"Please....can we stop talking about this? I don't think I can tell you any more... You're nice, and...I know you care, but....I just don't want to talk about it right now, okay?"
What will you pick as your screen name (and alias if asked)?
"Hmm....what about Mellon_Collie? Sounds cool huh? N-not like that. It's...it's like an homage to my favorite Smashing Pumpkins album, but...yeah...you're right. It does kinda fit me huh...." *lowers her head*
What are your thoughts on the project?
"I don't really want to talk to someone I barely know, but if it's what's gonna get me through English, then I guess I have no choice. Who knows? Maybe...maybe it will be fun and....maybe I'll make a friend out of it."
Anything else you'd like to add?
"Umm...umm....p-please don't tell anyone, but I....I think I'm...well...you know....I think I really like...other girls." *blushes* "I mean I've....I never really done anything with a girl before, but....but I did have a crush on quite a few... I just...never really told them I did.... And if my mom and dad ever found out....I don't know what they would do..."


Heartbeats - Jose Gonzales
Crosses - Jose Gonzales
Obstacles - Syd Matters
Santa Monica Dream - Angus and Julia Stone
Mountains - Message to Bears
Lua - Bright Eyes
Youth - Daughter
Run - Daughter
Medicine - Daughter
Mt. Washington - Local Natives
Piano Fire - Sparkle Horse
Shining, Burning - Jeff Woodell
Pictures of Nothing - Jeff Woodell
Drawing Lines - Jeff Woodell
The Sense of Me - Mud Flow
Kids Will be Skeletons -Mogwai