Great Expectations by Charles Dickens, Chapter
1.
My father's family name being Pirrip, and
my Christian name Philip, my infant tongue
could make of both names nothing longer or
more explicit than Pip. So, I called myself
Pip, and came to be called Pip.
I give Pirrip as my father's family name,
on the authority of his tombstone and my sister,—Mrs.
Joe Gargery, who married the blacksmith. As
I never saw my father or my mother, and never
saw any likeness of either of them (for their
days were long before the days of photographs),
my first fancies regarding what they were
like were unreasonably derived from their
tombstones. The shape of the letters on my
father's, gave me an odd idea that he was
a square, stout, dark man, with curly black
hair. From the character and turn of the inscription,
"Also Georgiana Wife of the Above," I drew
a childish conclusion that my mother was freckled
and sickly. To five little stone lozenges,
each about a foot and a half long, which were
arranged in a neat row beside their grave,
and were sacred to the memory of five little
brothers of mine,—who gave up trying to
get a living, exceedingly early in that universal
struggle,—I am indebted for a belief I religiously
entertained that they had all been born on
their backs with their hands in their trousers-pockets,
and had never taken them out in this state
of existence.
Ours was the marsh country, down by the river,
within, as the river wound, twenty miles of
the sea. My first most vivid and broad impression
of the identity of things seems to me to have
been gained on a memorable raw afternoon towards
evening. At such a time I found out for certain
that this bleak place overgrown with nettles
was the churchyard; and that Philip Pirrip,
late of this parish, and also Georgiana wife
of the above, were dead and buried; and that
Alexander, Bartholomew, Abraham, Tobias, and
Roger, infant children of the aforesaid, were
also dead and buried; and that the dark flat
wilderness beyond the churchyard, intersected
with dikes and mounds and gates, with scattered
cattle feeding on it, was the marshes; and
that the low leaden line beyond was the river;
and that the distant savage lair from which
the wind was rushing was the sea; and that
the small bundle of shivers growing afraid
of it all and beginning to cry, was Pip.
"Hold your noise!" cried a terrible voice,
as a man started up from among the graves
at the side of the church porch. "Keep still,
you little devil, or I'll cut your throat!"
A fearful man, all in coarse gray, with a
great iron on his leg. A man with no hat,
and with broken shoes, and with an old rag
tied round his head. A man who had been soaked
in water, and smothered in mud, and lamed
by stones, and cut by flints, and stung by
nettles, and torn by briars; who limped, and
shivered, and glared, and growled; and whose
teeth chattered in his head as he seized me
by the chin.
"Oh! Don't cut my throat, sir," I pleaded
in terror. "Pray don't do it, sir."
"Tell us your name!" said the man. "Quick!"
"Pip, sir."
"Once more," said the man, staring at me.
"Give it mouth!"
"Pip. Pip, sir."
"Show us where you live," said the man. "Pint
out the place!"
I pointed to where our village lay, on the
flat in-shore among the alder-trees and pollards,
a mile or more from the church.
The man, after looking at me for a moment,
turned me upside down, and emptied my pockets.
There was nothing in them but a piece of bread.
When the church came to itself,—for he was
so sudden and strong that he made it go head
over heels before me, and I saw the steeple
under my feet,—when the church came to itself,
I say, I was seated on a high tombstone, trembling
while he ate the bread ravenously.
"You young dog," said the man, licking his
lips, "what fat cheeks you ha' got."
I believe they were fat, though I was at that
time undersized for my years, and not strong.
"Darn me if I couldn't eat em," said the man,
with a threatening shake of his head, "and
if I han't half a mind to't!"
I earnestly expressed my hope that he wouldn't,
and held tighter to the tombstone on which
he had put me; partly, to keep myself upon
it; partly, to keep myself from crying.
"Now lookee here!" said the man. "Where's
your mother?"
"There, sir!" said I.
He started, made a short run, and stopped
and looked over his shoulder.
"There, sir!" I timidly explained. "Also Georgiana.
That's my mother."
"Oh!" said he, coming back. "And is that your
father alonger your mother?"
"Yes, sir," said I; "him too; late of this
parish."
"Ha!" he muttered then, considering. "Who
d'ye live with,—supposin' you're kindly
let to live, which I han't made up my mind
about?"
"My sister, sir,—Mrs. Joe Gargery,—wife
of Joe Gargery, the blacksmith, sir."
"Blacksmith, eh?" said he. And looked down
at his leg.
After darkly looking at his leg and me several
times, he came closer to my tombstone, took
me by both arms, and tilted me back as far
as he could hold me; so that his eyes looked
most powerfully down into mine, and mine looked
most helplessly up into his.
"Now lookee here," he said, "the question
being whether you're to be let to live. You
know what a file is?"
"Yes, sir."
"And you know what wittles is?"
"Yes, sir."
After each question he tilted me over a little
more, so as to give me a greater sense of
helplessness and danger.
"You get me a file." He tilted me again. "And
you get me wittles." He tilted me again. "You
bring 'em both to me." He tilted me again.
"Or I'll have your heart and liver out." He
tilted me again.
I was dreadfully frightened, and so giddy
that I clung to him with both hands, and said,
"If you would kindly please to let me keep
upright, sir, perhaps I shouldn't be sick,
and perhaps I could attend more."
He gave me a most tremendous dip and roll,
so that the church jumped over its own weathercock.
Then, he held me by the arms, in an upright
position on the top of the stone, and went
on in these fearful terms:—
"You bring me, to-morrow morning early, that
file and them wittles. You bring the lot to
me, at that old Battery over yonder. You do
it, and you never dare to say a word or dare
to make a sign concerning your having seen
such a person as me, or any person sumever,
and you shall be let to live. You fail, or
you go from my words in any partickler, no
matter how small it is, and your heart and
your liver shall be tore out, roasted, and
ate. Now, I ain't alone, as you may think
I am. There's a young man hid with me, in
comparison with which young man I am a Angel.
That young man hears the words I speak. That
young man has a secret way pecooliar to himself,
of getting at a boy, and at his heart, and
at his liver. It is in wain for a boy to attempt
to hide himself from that young man. A boy
may lock his door, may be warm in bed, may
tuck himself up, may draw the clothes over
his head, may think himself comfortable and
safe, but that young man will softly creep
and creep his way to him and tear him open.
I am a keeping that young man from harming
of you at the present moment, with great difficulty.
I find it wery hard to hold that young man
off of your inside. Now, what do you say?"
I said that I would get him the file, and
I would get him what broken bits of food I
could, and I would come to him at the Battery,
early in the morning.
"Say Lord strike you dead if you don't!" said
the man.
I said so, and he took me down.
"Now," he pursued, "you remember what you've
undertook, and you remember that young man,
and you get home!"
"Goo-good night, sir," I faltered.
"Much of that!" said he, glancing about him
over the cold wet flat. "I wish I was a frog.
Or a eel!"
At the same time, he hugged his shuddering
body in both his arms,—clasping himself,
as if to hold himself together,—and limped
towards the low church wall. As I saw him
go, picking his way among the nettles, and
among the brambles that bound the green mounds,
he looked in my young eyes as if he were eluding
the hands of the dead people, stretching up
cautiously out of their graves, to get a twist
upon his ankle and pull him in.
When he came to the low church wall, he got
over it, like a man whose legs were numbed
and stiff, and then turned round to look for
me. When I saw him turning, I set my face
towards home, and made the best use of my
legs. But presently I looked over my shoulder,
and saw him going on again towards the river,
still hugging himself in both arms, and picking
his way with his sore feet among the great
stones dropped into the marshes here and there,
for stepping-places when the rains were heavy
or the tide was in.
The marshes were just a long black horizontal
line then, as I stopped to look after him;
and the river was just another horizontal
line, not nearly so broad nor yet so black;
and the sky was just a row of long angry red
lines and dense black lines intermixed. On
the edge of the river I could faintly make
out the only two black things in all the prospect
that seemed to be standing upright; one of
these was the beacon by which the sailors
steered,—like an unhooped cask upon a pole,—an
ugly thing when you were near it; the other,
a gibbet, with some chains hanging to it which
had once held a pirate. The man was limping
on towards this latter, as if he were the
pirate come to life, and come down, and going
back to hook himself up again. It gave me
a terrible turn when I thought so; and as
I saw the cattle lifting their heads to gaze
after him, I wondered whether they thought
so too. I looked all round for the horrible
young man, and could see no signs of him.
But now I was frightened again, and ran home
without stopping.
End of Chapter 1
