(sequins rustle)
(whispers) You like that shit?
Yeah.
Ahhhh.
I'm doing this for all the white women
who grab my hair without asking.
Right?
It's good, right?
You can hear the sequins.
Isn't that, oh yeah.
I'm sorry I'm not used to this whole
ASMR thing.
But my friends and I have
been doing AMSR comments
and I'm pretty excited to bring it to you.
Because everyone has wanted to know
what I feel about all
the beautiful comments
in my comments section.
So here I am to answer and respond.
To every single one.
All right so here's a really good one
on a topic that is really
popular on my channel,
though I no longer care
as much as you think.
Cultural appropriation.
Stop stealing from our culture.
Use a black invented camera to record,
use a black computer,
black internet, black language,
black invented car to
drive to the EBT office,
and then back to your black built home.
Oh that's right, they
don't make any of those.
So you have to steal ours.
Useless.
So I feel live I've
explained appropriation
far too many times on my channel
to really feel like you don't get.
But appropriation is not
something like music,
something invented by a person
that is not black.
Let's say you have money, right,
and I take the money.
That is me appropriating your funds.
And when you talk about cars, food,
inventions in general, and things
and now different cultures have used them,
that's called cultural exchange, right.
When you talk about apropriation,
you're talking about
someone taking something
from another culture
and claiming it as their own.
And I know that you know that.
Which is why I hate explaining it.
(speaking louder) It is so hard.
It is literally so hard to whisper.
It's the hardest, I don't know
how people do these videos.
(whispering) All right, here's a good one.
A very common comment on my channel.
Very, very productive as well.
Shut up, you are not hot.
Guys don't catcall you.
Don't try to put yourself in the
group of women who deal with this.
Now, I'd like to believe that catcalling
is about women being attractive.
But like most of these things,
it's about power.
It's about the way that men usually
are trying to impress their
buddies, their friends.
It really doesn't even matter
if the girl's attractive.
It's an exercise in masculinity.
And I get catcalled quite a bit.
I travel alone all the time.
It is just a part of my day to day.
So. Yeah.
You know whether or not I'm
attractive is up for debate,
but I like myself and
I've never struggled.
So, yeah.
No, they are not women.
The main reason for
this, among many others,
is they do not have a womb.
The word woman derives from the
word womb and man, ie human.
A woman is a human with a womb, so a man,
regardless of what he's
done with plastic surgery
to make himself look more like a woman,
is not and cannot be a woman.
If I mutilate a dog and make
it look more like a chicken,
is that dog now a chicken?
(laughs)
now to be complete honesty with you guys,
I've been on Youtube
since I was 15 years old.
Comments like this are just part
of being a transperson on the internet.
Now I've said this a
couple different times,
but I will literally always find
the cis people's perspectives
of trans lives to be funny,
because it doesn't matter.
I will say that there are quite a bit
of differences between
transowmen and ciswomen.
Ciswomen do have to
deal with having a womb.
Ciswomen have to deal
with that being the thing
that they have to navigate
around in their life.
They have to actually be conscious
about their choices and their...
Not even their choices,
but their life, you know.
They have to be very conscious about that
because they have a womb and
that does change their life.
And so there are many ways
in which we are similar,
but we are quite different.
That's okay for me to acknowledge.
That being said,
to me, and my experience,
the fact that I don't have a womb, right,
has really not changed at all
how I factor into society.
And so when cis people sit around
and debate about whether or not
transwomen are actually women,
I kind of, I dunno it's funny in a way.
Because it doesn't matter.
Transgender women are no more
women than a cat is a dog.
What is it with you people
and animals? (laughs)
women don't have to
explain why they're women,
they just are.
Nature will always be the
truth maker for transwomen.
Every hormone pill you have to take,
there's nature.
Every appointment that's
made to feminize yourself,
there's nature.
Every man you come across that you are
afraid to tell your little secret,
there's that little nagging nature.
The list goes on and on and on.
Point being, wow, on and on.
Point being, a woman or girl never
will have to go through such
extreme measures to be women.
Just simply is what it is.
A boy or a man can never
be a woman point blank.
The period.
You know, I hate saying this
because I know a lot of cis people
operate from these very
sort of foolish perspectives
and transgender people have to go through
so much to be who they are.
And that's actually quite true
for I would say most trans people.
Most trans people do have to go through
quite a bit to be who they are.
Me personally, not so much.
You know I have never
had surgery of any kind.
This is all natural. (laughs)
I mean I have makeup on,
but you know what I mean.
This is all natural.
I've never surgery
and you know I've taken hormones.
But I'll tell you this,
hormones don't do much.
Like you said, there's nature.
So hormones don't actually do much.
And none of that, none of that,
whether I would have
done it or not done it,
would make me more or less of a woman.
You know. I am a transwoman.
That means that my experiences
are different than a ciswoman's.
That means that I a woman in a
different way than a ciswoman.
And to me that's okay.
But to pretend that I'm a man,
will always be funny.
Because I'll always ask
this question to people,
I'll say that, in what
functional way am I man?
In what functional way, in what,
because the reality is that has never been
anything I have ever experienced.
I don't know what that feels like.
I don't want that's about.
I've never been in that position.
I've never lived that life.
I transitioned at a very young age.
And I just don't know what
it is like to be a man.
That's not my experience, at all.
So I'd like to know,
in what functional way, if
you look at your standard man,
like Donald Trump for example,
that's a great example of an amazing man,
in what way am I, and Donald Trump, men?
In the same way.
In what useful way am I a man?
Because I'll tell you right now,
that is not many ways to be honest.
So you know, it's you'll
have your opinion,
I'll have mine.
I'll continue being a woman,
whether you agree or not.
All right this is a comment
about Rachel Dolezal.
Rachel is more black woman than you,
because even you are a man.
Okay, all right. I'm back though.
So.
Transwomen are men.
Why do yo hate science?
I love science.
You can't change your DNA.
You're either a male or a female.
Let me ask cis people this question
because this shit will
always be funny to me.
How often have you ever, ever,
had to present proof of your DNA,
or your genes, or your chromosomes,
before a person who was meeting
you in a social situation
decides that you are a man or a woman?
How often?
Because I've never had to do it.
And I'm pretty well accepted as a woman.
So I can't imagine that that's
something that cis people do.
You know when cis people talk,
I think that sometimes
they must live in like,
reality this alternative reality
Where people talk like this,
because that's you know...
So what. So what.
I can't change my DNA.
What point are you making?
You can call me a man until
you're blue in the face,
and I will nod my head and
acknowledge that you said that.
And continue living my woman ass life.
It's just how it's gonna be.
I don't know what to tell you.
I think it's just it is what it is.
I'm not cis.
And therefore there are
things that are going to be
uniquely different about
my life because of that.
But I'm trans and that is who I am.
And I'm a woman and so
that will also inform it.
And you know the thing is,
when the previous comment said,
that you know women don't have to explain
that they're women, that
woman have to do that,
neither have I.
I've had to go through life
and to certain situations
were I've had to debate with people
and go see doctors and
go to this and that.
But I don't generally live a life
where I have to explain that I am woman.
It's just generally accepted.
It's just embraced that I'm a woman.
And so like I literally never spend time,
with the exception of
Youtube and social media,
I never spend time debating my gender.
Ever.
Especially these types of comments,
they're hilarious to me.
Because it's just my life
is literally not like this.
It just isn't the case.
Because the end of the day,
people are not thinking like
the way you think they think.
Yeah, anyway, moving on.
I wish you Negroids would stop trying
to teach whites who we are.
As if we're going to listen to
you thieves of every culture,
liars, destroyers of your own country.
Holier, holler slave
injustice to me again.
You product of your own doings.
Turkey brought you from your own people
who took some who were
indentured slaves and others
who were taken from your
own traitorous people.
You have been given everything possible
and now you throw it back. (laughs)
you throw it back that
we're other than you.
Racist.
I am a wite Caucasian who swears by God
that you folks were rightly
cursed by Father Noah.
He didn't have to go so far as to
make you black as the curse.
Yet this gives you away
as you argue equality
in virtue, moral standing,
and social stability.
I personally find you impulsive,
lazy and loud, and manipulative cons.
That was really deep.
That was really deep, like
you really went there.
To be completely honest,
I love when I get comments like this.
Because my general argument
is that racism exists.
People still are racist,
I wouldn't say everyone,
but a lot of people still are.
And we should work and fight against that.
Now there's layers in this
comment that are problematic,
first of all, I'm an Atheist.
So you just sound like your
siting fairytales to be honest.
But there's the other added layer of like
you're just being fucking
racist and disgusting.
And so you're proving the
point that I ultimately have.
You know if white people
would just stop being racist,
if they would just stop.
I would have nothing to talk about.
I would literally...
And I would love that.
I would love to be able to never say
that racism is a thing we still discuss.
I would love that. That would be amazing.
But unfortunately there's
just so much content over
and over and over again that
I can't stop talking about it.
And I wanna make it clear
that a lot of white people,
not all, because I know some
of y'all are sensitive as fuck,
(laughs)
really do rely on black
people never standing up
and speaking against racism
because it allows them
to feel that much better.
That's why this person, faceless person,
wrote this long ass comment.
Because at the end of the day,
they are above me.
Above people of color.
Above people who are not white.
And when you really think about at,
when you really break that down,
that's quite pathetic.
You are a freak of nature.
Everyone that supports you is
a victim-hood indoctrinated
lunatic that displaces
blame to white people
for their misfortune and grievances.
Now I wanted to talk
about this one real quick,
because I feel like it's really important
for people to be able
to understand about me,
my personality, and
actually my world view.
A, I'm someone who's been
through a lot of shit.
And I would have never been
able to be here, right now,
with the confidence to make
the videos that I make,
or the confidence to
leave the fucking house,
interact with the world the way that I do,
have I ever looked at myself as a victim?
If I ever sat inside of a
victim of my circumstances?
now i operate from the
position that as a society
we can be better, we can do better,
we can be more than what we are currently.
And so it's less about
making people feel like
they're victims because I
don't think that's productive.
It's more about acknowledging
the inequalities exist.
Listen, I'm a black transwoman.
There's people that are gonna always
view me a certain type of way.
That has never stopped
me from aggressively
pursuing the shit that I do.
And so, that will always
be more important to me
than some person who calls
me a freak of nature.
Personally, I'm okay with that.
I'm okay with being a freak of nature.
I think that's kinda cool.
Wow, you can tick four,
yes four, victim boxes.
I bet Youtube and Google
love you, don't they?
Imagine you don't have
any problems whatsoever
with Youtube classing your verbal shit
as inappropriate content do you?
That's because you are a media creation.
All of your delusions exist solely
through cultural programming.
Weak minds are susceptible
to social engineering
and your trans and mistaken belief of
minority victimization even your greed.
Oh my god, what does this say?
Is the perfect example of what a lifetime
of continual indoctrination
of lies and manipulation
can do to an already
unintelligent, weak mind.
Hence, whey they focus
on the blacks having an
already unintelligent and unimaginative
mental capacity and faculties.
This brainwashing perfect.
This brainwashing perfect.
Interesting.
So. (laughs)
To reiterate my point,
I have never seen myself as a victim.
It is a little annoying when
people think that about me,
because it's like, I literally never have.
I think you know what it is,
I think that most people,
white people usually,
cis people usually,
don't actually understand
the amount of work
you have to do to get to
the point where I'm at.
Where I can sit here and confidently
speak to you about my life.
And be fucking un-bothered.
That has been a journey.
A journey.
I'm someone who's had to
fight socially and legally,
to change my gender marker.
To change my name.
To carve out a space for
myself in terms of employment.
And I've fucking done it.
Do yo understand how much
perseverance that requires?
My big thing is I never want for anyone
to have to work as hard as I've had to.
To do as much as I've had to do.
To be in so many shitty,
scary, terrible positions
just because we live in a world
that isn't catered for us.
And so again, I'll go back
to what I said earlier.
If you want us to stop
talking, just make shit easier.
If you make it harder for us,
we're gonna continue to
have these conversations.
And personally I would love it,
I've always said this,
I would love to get to a point
where we never have to talk about this.
First of all, you're not a woman.
You're a young, confused back male
who has rejected your
birthright as a black man.
I understand you're not
wanting to be a black man
because we get murdered by
the police and each other.
That's the self-hate that you exhibit
by denouncing your masculinity.
Because of your poor self-image,
it appears to me that your father
or another strong male
figure was not in your life.
And your woman kinfolk have
screwed up your head completely.
now while me and my father
have never been on the best of terms,
I come from a family where my mother
and father are still together.
Which is more than I'm
sure most of you can say.
And my father is an
incredibly hard working,
amazing black man.
And while we have our disagreements
and we have not always got along,
it's silly to say that
he has not been there.
The idea that I've transitioned
because of something
other than being trans,
is quite silly.
This is me.
You don't have to like it, but this is me.
You know there's nothing
about being a black...
Listen, if I were a black
man this world would
be that much more easier
for me to navigate around.
Why would I make the
decision to be a transwoman?
To be a black woman?
(phone beeps) Oh shit.
Why would I make the
decision to be a black woman?
The most hated of all women.
Why?
Why I would a decision to forgo
the even minuscule amount of privilege
that is afforded to you as a man?
So that I could be a woman.
For what?
For what reason?
I'd love to hear the (laughs)
logic behind that because it doesn't
really make a lot of sense.
This girl is so close to insufferable.
I only have the strength to hang in there
because she makes good points.
But oh my god, what a condescending,
annoying voice person.
Yeah, I guess I am kinda condescending.
And I guess I'm a little annoying.
So I have no response there honestly.
Thanks for subscribing.
That's all my hate comments.
Now I know that there are some of you guys
who are upset you that you
weren't included in this video.
So go ahead leave your mean comment
in the comment box below.
I will not read it.
But you can do that.
I am welcoming you.
And just wanted to tell you guys that I
have not been on Youtube for a minute,
going through some personal stuff,
really big changes in my life.
I am moving soon.
Gonna be moving hopefully to a house
in Los Angeles sometime soon.
So that's a big, big move of mine
and I'm probably going to
end up taking a hiatus.
Until January, but don't think that
the content is slowing down
or that I'm not gonna be working,
because listen, my plan right now
is to bring you guys nothing but content.
In the coming year.
I'm trying to shoot stuff ahead of time
so I can bring it to you
guys and knock it out.
Knock it out, knock it out.
I know you guys have
missed me, or whatever.
But I'm here now, so what's up?
I will say that my channel is
going to be changing a bit.
I've made the decision that I think
it would be better for me to actually
be less visible on my channel.
Not because I have a
problem with my appearance.
What I've recognized is that my content
is not about my appearance,
my content is not about what I look like,
or even really in many ways, who I am.
What I want to do with my channel
is encourage learning,
sharing, and growing.
And that's a two way street.
You educate me, I educate you.
And so I want to do videos that are more,
or video essays, I'll
probably pop in every video.
You know I'll say hi, I'll
say bye, all that stuff.
But it's not always going to be about me.
I'm saying this because I know some people
might check out of this channel
because it's gonna change a lot in terms
of the type of stuff that's on here.
So I'm letting you guys know ahead of time
that's what's gonna be happening.
One thing that's really
important to understand about me
is I am an artist first.
And so I'm constantly creating,
growing, and changing.
My approach, my perspective.
You all are gonna get
a lot of repeat videos
that are just repackagings,
because I want to change
the way I do stuff.
So it's gonna be a very different format
and you know honestly I'm excited
because I really wanna sort of make
this channel more clear in
its goals, its approach.
So, yeah.
I do have another channel that's
just gonna be called Katherine.
That's just really all
about my life and stuff
because one of the biggest
things I recognized
with a lot of the stuff that's
going on in my life right now,
is I have so much growth
to do as a person.
I have so much growth to do.
And so I'm kind of returning
back to my old format of let's
hunker down and have
conversations about our growth.
I have so much growth to do.
I think until very recently,
I felt like I had a lot
of stuff figured out.
I realized I really don't.
You'll probably also notice that
a lot of my videos now are privated.
I privated a lot of my videos.
That's largely because I changed my mind.
I changed my opinion.
And I'm shifting in my perspectives.
I think that's okay.
But I wanna sort of make it so that
my channel is a representation
of the way that I feel today.
Not a representation of the
way that I used to feel.
I looked at some of my old videos,
and I was like the hell?
Why did I make a video about that?
(laughs)
sometimes you have to go through stuff.
Sometimes you have to see
things and do certain things
to get a clear vision
of what you want to do.
So for me, I am very happy with
the way my channel is going.
Don't think my channel is dying.
Don't think it's going,
you know not popping back up.
I'm going through very
drastic life changes.
You will see me change as a person
and you all will just need to
get over that because I'm 27.
I'm growing up in many ways
and so I'm gonna change.
And that's okay.
My biggest goal with my
content on this channel,
is going to be to produce content
that can stay at any point in time
and still be relevant, still make sense.
So this channel will be more general.
I have a rant channel where I'm going
to be doing more hot topic kind of stuff.
Stuff that kinda pops up
that I want to rant about.
So watch that. Watch my other channel.
Check Katherine channel,
and that's what's gonna
be going on right now.
Thank you so much everyone
who has been supporting me.
My Patreon supporters have
been really, really amazing
to me for the past couple of months
where I have been going through shit.
My Patreon supporters are like my family.
We talk about pretty much everything.
Stuff I will never discuss publicly,
so thank you so much for
supporting me, being there.
You all know who you are.
Shout out to Rasheeda, you're
always getting me. (snaps)
you're always commenting,
thank you so much.
So yeah, that's that.
I will see you guys next year probably.
Unless something comes up.
I'm just gonna be working
really hard on some new content
and I need some time to
re-settle myself in new setting.
It's gonna be a lot.
I'm having to adult, it's really scary.
So anyway, on that note, I
will talk to you guys later.
And I want you guys to always remember,
and to never forget,
that you are beautiful.
Enjoy your love.
Bye.
