hey guys today i turn 32 weeks so in
this video i'm gonna be talking about my
midwife appointment that was two days
ago
and also the symptoms i've been
experiencing this week
in all honesty i have not logged any
symptoms this week
everything i've been experiencing has
been the same except for yesterday and
today so those are new
developments but starting this out with
stats
i weighed myself this morning and was
159.8 pounds
meaning that in 32 weeks i've gained 35.2
pounds
and baby should be measuring about
four pounds and she is getting
bigger the midwife measured
my fundal height i'll get into that but
she is definitely getting bigger so i'm
gonna say she's about four pounds
and just under 17 inches my belly button
i noticed this morning
is a full outtie now i mentioned in
a previous video that it was
getting a little bit of a nub
but it's protruding out if i
didn't have a belly button ring in
you would be able to see from the side
that my belly button is actually like
three dimensional from the side you can
see it popping out of my stomach at
this point it's like an
actual button also something i just
noticed is that it's become a lot easier
to breathe i'm still
short of breath i'm still having
that pregnancy shortness of breath you
get that no matter what
but since she's moved down into my
pelvis and i'm feeling that
pressure down there
she's put less pressure on my
diaphragm because she's coming down
however as she grows she kind of
goes back up
even though she's down in my pelvis
she's growing up so there's no way to
say how long that's gonna last
i just noticed that
i was getting
super out of breath when i would
eat too much
and in general i feel like
it's lifted a little bit
with her moving down into my pelvis
though i have
been experiencing constipation really
the past couple days i've been
experiencing constipation i skipped my
smoothie
i usually have a smoothie with
frozen fruit
and spinach and protein and chia seeds
for fiber
and i have a fully
loaded smoothie
every single day no matter what because
i'm not really a fruits and
vegetables kind of girl even though i'm
vegetarian
and that is like no matter
what i'm getting my fruits and
vegetables every day
along with the protein and fiber
but i skipped it a couple days in a row
because of
the distant learning and trying to
navigate this new schedule
and that immediately made me start
getting constipated and
this leads me into- i have a hemorrhoid
again
i noticed it yesterday but it was
very faint soreness it wasn't bad
like
at 10 weeks if you saw my 8 to 18 week
update where i compiled all of my symptoms
from week 8 to 18 i'll link that up
here if you haven't seen it
i had gotten a hemorrhoid and i wear
thongs
so it got agitated by me wearing
thongs and it just got worse and
really painful
this yesterday was like nothing
but it was like okay well i have
a hemorrhoid great i need to be more
on it with prunes and
making sure i'm having my smoothie and
i'm eating fiber
but this morning when i
went to the bathroom i wiped and there
was blood
TMI WARNING obviously it's a
little late to say tmi warning but
there was blood on the toilet paper
from the hemorrhoid it's not super
painful like that one i had at 10
weeks
but it is bleeding i know that
this is all a
side effect of baby moving down
into your pelvis and putting pressure on
everything down there and
your bowels don't have as much
space and everything's being all crammed
so it's normal
i haven't done anything i'm
still wearing my regular underwear
because of the position that it's in
it's not being bothered by my
underwear but
i have witch hazel pads for my
postpartum recovery and
i haven't used those i don't feel like i
need to use them because it's not super
painful but
when i saw blood it was like oh okay
maybe this
is kind of a big deal but i'm just
trying to
be more on it and make sure that i'm
having my smoothie because
that really does help the fiber
from the berries
and all around there's so many
nutrients in my smoothie that's why
i make a point of having it
every single day no matter what another
thing
that happened this morning- it's really
strange because i had no symptoms i
was planning
to do this video and it was going to
pretty much just be my midwife's
appointment because i haven't had any
new symptoms
but something that happened this morning
i was standing in the kitchen i think i
was cooking breakfast
and all of a sudden i had a sciatic
nerve pain and
i probably had it in my
pregnancy was summer because i was a
waitress and i was on my feet a lot
and i weighed more but
i don't think i had it with
anakin and i haven't had it this
pregnancy at
all it was
all of a sudden a lightning jolt of
pain in my lower back
it went down my butt cheek and all the
way down my leg like a
lightning rod
all the way down my leg basically to my
foot
and i've looked up sciatic
nerve pain before
so i know that's what it was but it
was a strange
new symptom i hope it doesn't continue
since i'm 32 weeks i have started
drinking the red raspberry leaf tea just
one cup a day
i will over the next couple weeks ease
into drinking two to three cups a day
three towards the end of my pregnancy
but i'm just drinking one cup a day i
actually started two days ago because
i planned to start at 32 weeks like last
pregnancy what's 31 weeks and five days
it's the same thing to me so
at 31 weeks and five days i started
doing that and i started eating my two
dates a day
now if you've seen my how to prepare
your body for labor video
even though you're supposed to start
having
six dates a day at 36 weeks to help your
body prepare
i like to start having the two dates a
day early on just so i'm doing a little
bit of something
plus that extra fiber is always good for
your body and
there's nothing dangerous about eating
dates but in that video i mentioned that
i would go to the bulk section in winco
where you can get the fresh
dates individual and then weigh
them out well you can't do that with the
virus right now i actually went
over to that section in winco and
they're pre-bagged and
super
hard they're in those bins but
they're all pre-bagged in
little plastic baggies
and very hard so i actually checked this
a few weeks ago and
i went on amazon and found
these organic dates
and they're the same kind the
medjool dates they taste amazing they
just came in the mail and that's kind of
why i decided to start taking them two
days before i turned 32 weeks because
everything just came in the mail and
i was
super excited to start preparing my body
but
they're really good i keep them in the
refrigerator
they're in a little ziploc bag and
it's big it should last me
i may wind up having to get one more
toward the end of my pregnancy the last
couple weeks if i don't go into labor
early but it should last me
and i'll link it down below they're
really good
i don't particularly like
the taste of dates but
they're tolerable and
actually they taste better because
they're refrigerated to me
it's easier to take i have my cup of
raspberry leaf tea and then i
have my two dates at the same time
so the hot and cold
together makes it easier to eat
them for me but i actually enjoy them
and they're the same exact ones
that i had
when i was preparing my body with anakin
so it's definitely called
the medjool dates those are the ones
that you want to eat this morning when i
woke up
i felt clementine on my left side she is
still on my right side but i'm feeling
her
kind of shift but i felt
i'm assuming her elbow because it was
lower left and it was a bone
i was rubbing on her body on her
actual bones it
could have been her shoulder i guess
but
i was feeling an actual body part and
the actual bones
in her body it was so crazy and i
haven't felt that at all
i'll feel like her butt
or a very cushy resistance
throughout my pregnancy up until now i've
felt that resistance where i know
that's her body
but being able to push on my stomach and
feel actual bones and
movements grinding on my-
it's so miraculous to me because
i actually looked this up at this
point if she was born right now
she would have a 90-95% chance of surviving
she's just so close to being done
i mean we still have at least another
month left but
it is crazy to me that she's like
fully developed and really just putting
on fat at this point so like i was
talking about in my last
update summer has started distant
learning
and if you are new to my channel my
daughter has intellectual disability
she is in a special class and
basically they have so many hours that
she gets this so many hours a day that
she gets this
and because she's in a special class
she has to be
getting special instruction
and there's so many hours they have
to fulfill
so monday tuesday thursday and friday
she is on live
the mic is completely on
everyone in the classroom can
hear each other they split into little
groups but
she is on live for three and a half
hours for those three and a half hours
i have to be quiet
it's like a total invasion of
privacy it's like i'm
in her classroom and i have to be quiet
and i have to keep anakin quiet
and if he wants to play with any
electronic toys-
i have to have her at the
kitchen table where i can help
i can jump in
and tell her to write her numbers
i have to constantly be
watching her and make sure that she's
staying
in the classroom and paying
attention and doing what they're asking
and responding and help her with her
answers and all of that stuff
but i also have to be quiet
in the background but i can't
put on headphones and
entertain myself or entertain
anakin with music or anything
because we have to be completely quiet
in the background and
for her it's been wonderful because
she's getting to see all her teachers
again and we got
the approval for her to be able to go to
her school that she's been going to
since she was in tk even though it's
across town
because we moved to this house we're in
the same school district but there's a
school just down the street from us that
is her assigned school
and they approved her transfer request
so she's getting to be
with the same teacher as she was last
year and to finish out
through fifth grade to middle school at
that school that she's been at for so
many years and i'm so thankful for that
and she's doing so much better
because goes on the computer at 8 o'clock every
day
wednesdays are minimum days in our
district so
it's only an hour and a half but
my point is it has been so hard
and i've been strategizing
i've been trying to nurse anakin
before the meetings start
i've also tried having them go outside
while i make breakfast and
watching them
i don't like them going
outside unsupervised but
i've been trying to get them a little
bit of outside time and anakin a little
bit of outside time
and i've been trying all these different
methods to make sure that he's happy
while she's doing her meetings for all
of these hours
and while i'm like trying to help her and
keep us quiet and
i broke down yesterday
i've just been about
strategizing and trying all these
things
like i can do this and other people
have it so much harder but yesterday i
finally just crashed and burned
literally toward the very end of her
meeting when the teacher was pretty much
saying if you don't have questions you
can go i took her computer and closed
it i was like
that's it and then she went and played
and
i started bawling and
i was crying so hard
i can't remember the last time i
cried
this hard i was like scream crying i
actually had to
put anakin in his room with his books
and get him situated and
i just left i needed to just
leave i had to go outside into the
backyard
sit on the bench and just collect myself
and literally for the rest of the day
it was like every single thing was
setting me off because i had just opened
pandora's box
and even right now i still
feel emotional
and i don't know if this is hormones i
don't know if this is
just the circumstances normally
i can tough it out
i can do anything
i have been through some horrible things
in my life and i've overcome them and
i know that it's all about like putting
yourself in the right headspace to where
i can overcome this like just
stay positive this is just a minor
obstacle right now
it's temporary it's not forever
and i just
completely broke i just broke and i
was getting emotional at everything the
whole rest of the day
every little thing was making me
blubber up
and i'm not like that
it's just not how i normally am so i'm
trying to figure out if this is just
my hormones going out of whack or
if i am
just taking on too much
i do have a couple more strategies i
want to try
for the next couple meetings but at this
point i'm close
to calling her teacher and just being
like i can't do this
we have a very small
house it's a thousand square foot house
and a lot of it i think is just the fear
of what am i gonna do when clementine
comes
if she's still completely distant
learning
and her mic is on and everyone can hear
me with my baby with my toddler
that's an invasion of privacy
it's starting to feel like that to me
it's starting to feel like a huge
invasion of our privacy i can't
even talk
to anakin because everyone in the
classroom can hear me
because i have to be close by summer
while she's on the computer and
it just feels i don't
know how to really explain it it may
just all be in my head it may just be
the hormones
but this is what i'm feeling right now
and yesterday was a
bad day it was just one of those
hopeless downward spiral
how am i going to endure
more of this one of those days
i rarely get those days because i just
try to overpower my mind and stay
positive and
name all of the good things and focus on
all the good things but
with this virus and with
everything that's to come with the baby
i don't know and i chose to be
a single mom but i did not sign up
for these circumstances
i still have a couple more things i'm
gonna try
to make this work but i'm
having heightened emotions right now
okay so getting into my midwife
appointment
sorry about that downer let's just come
on out of it
at my midwife appointment the
fundal height has grown which i was
thinking does that mean she's
gone up and she's like no
your baby has grown it's been two weeks
i can't remember the number i think
she said it was
28 i don't know i don't sit there with
a pen and paper she did tell
me this time
but she looked
at the the previous one and my fundal
height had grown which means that baby
has grown which is a very good sign
i didn't have any movement from her the
day before which was wednesday
i had no movement from her and i think
it's just because i was up and going and
we had done our groceries
i was going a lot so when i went to lay down-
if i don't
feel her if i'm having any doubts
whatsoever
i immediately want to pull out my
doppler and see what's going on because
if her heartbeat is low or if i can't
find a heartbeat i want to get to the
hospital immediately i want to be
on top of it so i'm always looking for
movement especially after i eat because
when i eat i'll prop myself on the couch
afterward or during but
that's what i like to pay attention to
her
movement like right now she's moving but
if i'm not getting that after i'm eating
if i'm not noticing that
then i'll come lay down on the
bed and laying down flat
always makes her move i think it
irritates her when i'm completely
flat because of the blood flow or
whatever
but i did lay down flat and she started
moving finally but i checked her
her heartbeat on the doppler and she was
151 beats per minute so she still has a
really
nice fast strong heartbeat and then on
thursday the midwife checked it and
it was 148 beats per minute so
it was confirmed that
my doppler is pretty much on point
that she's still got a really nice fast
heartbeat now at this appointment i
finally was
able to ask her why the right side is
not ideal because clementine is still on
the right side
she she did look for the heartbeat in
several spots
even though obviously we know
it's on the right side
but on the left side
angled in toward the belly button she
was able to get a very small heartbeat
so
i think she is maybe hopefully shifting
over to the left side a little bit this
morning i'm noticing that i'm feeling
her a lot over on the left side so
it's possible i'm feeling
different movements on the left side
literally when i asked the midwife why
the right side isn't ideal
she pulled out a little baby doll
put the baby doll on her stomach
and was showing me how
the baby turns and exits the body which
i have pictures of anakin coming out of
me so
i get how the baby turns as they
come out so the shoulders can
go
in a certain way and everything and i
told her i think the baby's
anterior and
she said the reason the
right side is not ideal
even if they're in the anterior position
is because they often
shift when they're on the right side
during delivery
when they're on the left side and
they're in anterior position
babies that are in that position usually
stay in that position
and they come out perfectly and they
turn perfectly through the pelvis the
shoulders the head
the head exits the right way and
everything
just happens better if the baby is on
the left side
there is less chance of the baby
shifting
because you have your heart on
this side your kidneys on this side
all your organs your biology
baby was made to be on the left side
it just happens better when the
baby is on the left side
now with the baby on the right side if
she's in anterior position she still
could
come out the right way and everything
could be good however
odds are she's going to be sunny side up
or her shoulders can get stuck because
she's not rotating the right way
also her head-
when you think about your head you've
got an oval right you want
this narrow part to come out
the ideal way you don't
want the lengthwise of the head to come out
the shorter part of your
canal you want it to
come out a certain way so
baby is much more likely to come out
sunny side up
which is where their spine- and you'll
have back labor as well if the baby
shifts to sunny side up
you're gonna have really bad back labor
there's just a higher
chance of everything not happening as
smoothly
if baby is on the right side so that's
why it's not ideal anterior is the ideal
position
for birthing so if she is in the
anterior position which it seems like
she is
although she is kicking this way
like she's transverse
if she is anterior
that's great but if she
stays on the right side
during labor she is much more likely to
shift it is the way it is
that is our biology and the way our
organs are and the space
the baby has on certain sides and the
way it guides baby but she's gonna do what
she's gonna do
some other questions that i asked at my
appointment i wanted to know if she is planning
to check if i'm dilated at
all
at the very end the last few weeks
usually your doctor will check and tell
you how dilated you are
she said immediately no we
don't need to do that we don't need to
bother you
i think a lot of times doctors do that
because they want to do the sweep honestly they
want to get you in labor
get things going so
that patient's done time for a new
patient i mean i don't really know what
the motivation is behind it but it's
standard practice for them to check you
and tell you how many centimeters
dilated you are before you're even in
labor
she said she doesn't do that i'm
sure she would if i asked her
but i'm not gonna do it i mean i
really only want to know so i can tell
you guys
especially with prepping my body
i'd like to be able to give you the
feedback that my body is very prepped
ahead of time again but
you don't really need to
know that
it can be quite defeating especially
with summer when i was 41 weeks pregnant
and i was a fingertip i wasn't even one
centimeter dilated
that was very defeating so
she's not going to be checking me
i asked her
throughout labor and she was like
no and she said when i
want to push
i'll push i know what to do i've had a
natural labor before and she's totally just
let things happen as they're
gonna happen because
for me when they kept checking me
during labor it just made things hurt so
much more every time they
checked me they sped it up because they
were going in and stretching and
interfering with the process and your
body knows what to do it doesn't need
anyone up there
messing with things and then my other
question that i had was
because
they're going to be doing one in home
visit
when will they be coming to do that
visit so my next appointment
will be my 34 week
appointment but technically i'll be 33
weeks and five days
because all my appointments are on
thursdays two days before i turn
the next week so my next
appointment will be my 34 week
appointment
and that will be at her office and then
at my 36 week appointment
they will be coming into the home
to see where i live and i'll probably
show them my birth kit and
get acclimated so
i'll be having that appointment here my
36 week appointment
because at 37 weeks you
can do the home birth that's going to
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