- There's something poisoning my water.
Not the kind of poison you use to say,
turn an emperor into a llama
because he just fired you.
No. It's more subtle.
Almost invisible from my perspective
but it's drying out.
Choking my growth before it really begins.
The water looks clear
but something's amiss.
Sometimes no matter what you do,
you feel like your life's a
flaming hot Cheeto's mess.
You're not organized enough,
you have too much stuff,
you always oversleep,
that is when you're not
plagued by insomnia.
You feel about as disciplined
as a cranky four year old,
you don't have a routine,
you cheat on your diet,
you feel stuck.
You say that you're fine but
you're not.
Don't get me wrong.
I work really, really hard.
Like, doing calculus
without a calculator hard.
Like name 10 black
Oscar-winning actresses hard.
I've always worked hard.
That's why I excelled in school,
it's why I excelled in my job.
I did what I was supposed to do.
I followed the current.
The water seemed fine.
So, why do I feel so
drained and not refreshed?
There was something in the
water that I couldn't see.
See, when I report to the
Man or to an organization
or to an institution, I kill it.
Give me a fixed deadline and I'll meet it.
Or I'll ask for an extension
and then I'll meet it.
I'll get it done.
Get 'er done.
But, when I'm reporting to myself,
well, it's a bunch of broken promises.
I let myself slide.
I waste time, I give up, I
put it off until tomorrow.
I'm polluting my own success.
I'm what's in my water.
I've been documenting
my life and my thoughts
on this channel for a long time
and it's taken me six years to figure out
what this channel is really about,
what I'm really about and
it's always bothered me
that it's looked so scattered.
I talked about college life,
how to get into Harvard,
social justice, social awareness,
adulting, productivity,
heartbreak, allyship,
self care, but stepping back
there is a through-line.
My videos have always
been about me discovering
and helping you to discover
how to be the best version of yourself.
The most knowledgeable,
thoughtful, productive,
socially-conscious, healthy, open-minded,
creative, high-spirited, uncongested,
well moisturized, emotionally at peace
version of yourself.
That's what I've been
trying to figure out.
You can't beat yourself up
for not being there yet.
Progress can be slow and steady
and it takes a lot just
to set up your life
and figure out what
you wanna do post grad.
You have to focus on serving
employers and bosses,
on networking and landlords and roommates.
I've learned a lot about those things
and it's knowledge that I
wanna share here with you.
I've done videos on this before
but there are plenty more things
that I wish I knew post grad
but I also wanna serve myself
and sure, slow and
steady can win the race,
but I don't wanna feel like a tortoise.
The shell is too heavy.
It just isn't comfortable.
Let's take this year and
kick it into high gear.
I said let's take this year
and kick it into high gear.
I'm doing a complete overhaul
of my organization systems,
my wardrobe, my time
and energy management.
I'm breaking down patterns of
behavior and thought patterns
that are holding me back.
There are certain
disciplines, certain habits
that if I could adopt them
would be life-changing.
You deserve the fine points in life.
You deserve to hang your
pictures on the walls.
You deserve a clear desk,
things that spark joy,
work that makes you proud.
You deserve to be healthy and grateful
and mentally at peace.
You are worth taking the
time to get yourself together
as best as you can.
This year instead of
just making resolutions,
I'm making habits and
there are really five areas
that I'm trying to focus on.
Things like organization
habits and wellness routines
to really get myself
in order and operating
at peak performance.
And I wanna take you
with me on this journey
as we bit by bit try to become
the best version of ourselves.
At least one of my videos each month
will be focusing on implementing
one of these habits.
A get better with me, if you will.
Until at the end of the year,
we've gotten better than where we started.
If you're someone who
regularly watches my videos,
if you're one of my brilliant beans,
then you probably wanna make a positive,
meaningful impact in the world.
We're ambitious.
We wanna do big things.
We wanna share our
talents and our passions.
But if you wanna do big
things for other people,
you gotta do right by yourself.
You can't pour into others
if your own bucket is empty.
So if you didn't have it already,
this is me giving you
official guilt-free permission
to focus on yourself.
It is your life after all.
♪ It's your thing, it's your
thing, it's your thing ♪
♪ Do what you wanna do ♪
♪ Ha ha ha ha ha ♪
♪ I can't tell you ♪
♪ How to get your groove ♪
No matter what time of year it is
you can always turn a new leaf,
plant new seeds, fetch fresh water.
It's time to grow and in the next video,
I'm starting with what, for
me, is the most important habit
I need to set a clean slate.
Come get better with me.
Hey, it's your girl Ahsante
helping you live consciously
and creatively through life
and let's get it this 2019.
Let's go.
We are going to be our best selves.
We're going to get our
ish together, all right?
This is our year.
If you liked what you saw then
be sure to like this video
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We are back.
If you already joined,
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that goes into a little bit more detail
than what I wanted to hear.
So you should check it out.
Just join the club.
That's all I'm saying.
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and help support the channel,
then you can join my Patreon community.
My patrons are the bee's knees
and shout out to my newest
patron, Heather Fleming.
Heather, thank you and welcome.
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As always, remember to live
spiritedly and think creatively
and I will see you next time.
(popping)
