to be honest, because we are honest here
i've been feeling quite a lot recently
and it's hard to wrap my head around some ideas
when like there is so much happening inside my head
so while i was in that zone
of not knowing what to do
and basically i trapped myself in some kind of a void
so whenever i was feeling anxious or very mellow, sad
i used to create a song about it
so it would help me get through this situation
and help me heal from it
then if someone comes across
the same type of problem
maybe my song would help this person
go through it
so let's clear my head together
and bring some hope to this september mood
so what i normally do is i just jam around with a guitar
and sing my heart out basicall
and then when i come across lyrics that seem kind of interesting
i just start making a song around it
i've been really feeling a lot of bad things coming back to me
sometimes your deepest struggles and anxieties have to come up to the surface
because you need to see how you handle with them now
and you cannot let them overtake your life again
you have to learn all the time
and grow all the time
so it's actually for them to show up
but you know sometimes it's just a little bit much
for everything to come back
when you think you're already over it
making a song out of a situation you're currently in
is incredibly helpful
especially if you don't know how to put
whatever you think into words
and you don't know how to speak with anyone
like making a song out of it
it just makes sense
just remembering about all of those situations
makes me go back in time
instead of growing
instead of becoming someone else
and i feel like this hopeless kid again
i don't know what to do
i don't know how to do
remembering about certain situations in the past
makes me feel like
this is repeating
the story is going on again
okay so we have quite a bit of a song
this song took me about 20 minutes to write
it would still need some polishing
and finishing touches
but it's just what i feel right now
what i need to let out
in order to go forward
in order to heal
so i hope you'll find some messages in it
i don't know
maybe you will just enjoy it
okay i may actually get pretty emotional after this
 
i think i really needed this you know
i feel very vulnerable and emotional right now
because i just shared something with you
that i feel and it's always scary
but i always feel like when you share something that is so important
and you show your fragility
and you show your emotions and you pour it all out
the world becomes a little safer
and a little bit more welcoming for people
to share their experiences
to share their feelings
and it makes the world listen
it makes the world understand
if there's someone out there who struggles right now
i just want you to know that i am so proud of you
for doing the big scary things everyday
for overcoming your challenges everyday
and at the end of the day i just want you to remember
that you did it
you survived this day
you survived 100% of your bad days
you are incredibly strong
you are beautiful
you are loving
you are caring
and i'm sending you lots of love
lots of good energy
lots of encouragement
because i know you will achieve anything
you'll put your thought into
and trust me i really know
that the world is scary and it can bring you down
and that makes me even more proud of you
do something you enjoy today
nurture yourself
even if it's just drinking a cup of good tea
or eating something nice
talking to someone
share some love today
be kind to yourself
and i'll see you in the next video
bye
