Hello, everyone.
So I know things look a little different right
now.
My light just went out,
so I'm using the light from another source.
So...
we'll just - we'll deal with that.
So I wrote this thing like a month ago
and...
it was like a list of topics, I'm like
"What am I gonna make a video about next?"
Like,
you know making videos,
it can be very tiring.
Especially in the summer
'cause it's so hot.
But you know, I thought it was time that I
made a video.
So, I'm making one right now,
in the most
well lazy way possible
like, I didn't really do anything
to myself for this video
because I just didn't feel like it.
And also my light went out, so there was that
too.
So annoying.
But I wanted to make this video about like,
the pursuit of "perfection"
and how it's so annoying-
not just for girls, but for guys too obviously.
Or just basically anybody
'cause you know, it really hurts people
and their self-esteem.
Whoo!
Holding camera is hard.
So that's the video we're gonna be going into
right now.
And I hope when I edit this
it's gonna look a lot better than I actually
feel right now,
because I'm using the front camera.
Hmm.
Kind of an awkward thing to do, but at least-
I can't even see myself
‘cause I'm not wearing my glasses so-
probably better that way.
I think-
I don't know if it's just the way humans are
or just maybe animals, or just maybe something
wrong with our brains,
but I think
the "perfection" thing is like,
our brains see something that's like out of
place
and they're like
"That's wrong, it has to be fixed!"
Do you ever see somebody with like,
(chuckle)
it's not their fault, but like,
an annoyingly symmetrical face-
like, their nose is like perfectly straight
their face is like,
they have huge eyes
and they have like,
perfect mouth, the perfect everything.
You're basically supposed to look,
well...
white.
I mean, that's what people consider
"beauty" today.
Even though it's not,
like everyone looks great.
This is the thing about growing up is that
like,
you don't care about
what's right or wrong.
You just wanna fit in.
And that was me when I was growing up.
Like, I...
(sighs)
It was probably because of the shyness thing,
but I did-
well, I think I did not look good at all when
I was little.
And, I personally believe that's part of why
the kids avoided me,
also because I was shy and I never talked
to anyone.
But I think it was the combination of those
two things-
at least in my head it makes sense.
And you know, there is one person that I follow on social
media,
and I follow a lot of people, so,
this is a celebrity.
And this person is someone I consider to be
perfect
in like, every way.
Like, their face is like symmetrical.
They're nice,
they always...
seem to know the right thing to say,
they-they're dating someone.
I never hear about them having a bad relationship,
ever.
And, yeah this person's-
I mean-I-I really like this person, like,
I can relate to them a lot.
But there's this part of me,
you know the insecure part that's like...
But I think that's also another problem
when you look into, like, celebrities.
When we see people on TV,
especially if they're good-looking-
we tend to believe that that's how
everyone in the world should look.
Even though, acting is like not very...
it's not the most...
it's not the easiest job to get, obviously.
And not just acting, you know like
other people on YouTube.
You know, those kind of people?
They only present, like, a small, very small,
portion of people who actually look like that.
And also,
let's not forget that these people wear make-up
all the time, so
there's a reason why they look the way they do.
I mean, they look fine, but you know, the
make-up adds more.
There's also another side to it, because,
you know,
think about how the person who is perfect,
like, how do they feel about it?
'Cause there are some people in the world
who look "perfect"
not because it's natural,
but because...
people kept telling them to be perfect.
Like, they put like,
make-up
and everything on their face.
They study really hard to get straight As.
When you care so much about being "perfect,"
you become a people-pleaser,
and that can be very
exhausting, because you're always worried
about what people think.
And it creates this illusion of like, "perfection,"
where it's like,
you must never say the wrong thing,
you must always know what to say,
there cannot be,
you can't have any awkward pauses,
you know, uncomfortable moments,
you have to always know the right thing,
at all times.
This is why I don't like the,
the "cancel" thing that people have going on.
I think- I think it's very annoying.
Because, for me,
I think it's stupid, because, if I was
a teenager during this time,
I would get canceled for sure.
(sighs)
I'm sitting down, 'cause I got tired.
So anyway like I was saying, like,
when I was eleven years old,
I had a friend.
And, I became friends with her in like fifth
grade when we were ten.
And, I'm not actually sure how we became friends,
which should've been a red flag.
But anyway, we were fr...iends.
Like, she was someone who tolerated me,
like, who allowed me to hang out with her,
which is what…a friend was for me back then.
So anyway, we were in middle school, and she
became friends with this new group of girls,
like, they were kinda mean, but I would like,
I kinda ignored it, because you know, it was like, they were her friends, so like,
what could I do.
So...
fast-forward to,
a little bit into the school year.
My friend, she had her birthday party,
and I went there with her other new friends,
and she got a gift, from-
I think it was her mom,
or someone in the house.
And it was like, a nice little bracelet,
and the mom actually bought it from
um...
starts with a "W,"
but she got it from there.
That's what I remember.
And I made a joke, I was like,
"Oh, did it cost five cents?"
'cause you know, it was from that place,
which is known for being cheap.
So they say.
And I thought- I mean, I was just joking,
like,
now I realize it was like,
"Ehh, that was probably not a very good joke,"
but you know, I was a kid,
so like, I didn't know any better.
And you know, most sane,
or most normal people-
or, I like to think that most normal people
would be like,
"Hey, that wasn't very funny,"
I'm like "Oh."
And then you know, just one awkward moment
and then like,
it's done.
It's like, you just forget about it,
you never say it again.
So fast-forward to Monday...
at school.
The girls are acting very strange.
And they're saying stuff about me,
they're like, making fun of me.
So, what happened was,
one of the nice girls in the group,
she came up to me,
and she said that they didn't want to be my
friend anymore,
they wouldn't let me hang out with them,
and that they were gonna abandon me.
And I was left alone the whole year.
And I mean, the nice girl she,
she would try to sneak off, and hang out with
me sometimes,
but you know, that barely happened.
So, I was basically alone for the whole year.
And then in seventh grade, I found like actual
good friends,
and like eighth grade I did,
ninth grade I found good friends,
and like tenth grade,
um...
I became friends with people
who would still be my friends today.
But yeah, back then in sixth grade, it was
like,
the most world-ending, like,
awful thing that happened to me.
Like, I was alone at lunch the whole year.
I was so lonely.
It was so- it was so devastating for me,
but now I realize it was kind of a blessing because,
if you have people who...
shut you out for saying something,
like if you make a mistake-
and if they...
shut you out after saying the wrong thing,
then they're not really good people.
They're not understanding people, 'cause like,
you can be like,
"Hey, don't say that.
That's not very nice."
And they'll be like,
"Oh.
Oh! Oh! I didn't reali- oh I didn't realize!"
And you can make someone become self-aware
that way.
But the fact, that the girls didn't even say
anything,
like they never said why.
That's why I hate this whole
idea of "canceling" someone,
'cause, like, unless they're-
did something really really horrible,
or they're very violent,
you know, I don't think they should be "canceled."
I mean, that's what I think.
Or something like that.
Or maybe I'm just a little biased, because
you know I've been through,
the idea of being "canceled" myself.
Like, I was canceled before "canceling" was
even a thing.
So, yeah.
But that's why I don't like people,
this is another reason why I don't like "perfection"
because it's like-
you have to say the right thing,
you can never say anything wrong,
if you say something wrong, people will reject you,
I mean there are some people like that because
people are just, ugh...
There are some people that are just...
they want everyone to be perfect,
probably from some insecurity or something,
but you don't have to be perfect.
So yeah, that was my, uh...
video on "perfection."
(sighs)
I can't believe I don't have light in my room anymore.
(sad groan)
(deep sigh)
But it's okay, I'll find a way around it.
I just wanted to make a video about perfection,
and how it's so annoying to our society,
because at the end of the day, no one's perfect.
Just like this camera work is not perfect,
because
I keep- I can't really see what I'm doing.
And this lighting is just...ugh.
But we'll make it work.
So yeah, thank you guys so much for watching,
and I will see you next time.
Hopefully with a better video, and better
lighting.
Bye!
