
Italian: 
Beh per mia madre... 
ci sta ancora lavorando
-Quanti anni hai?
-Ne ho 30

English: 
- Hi everyone
- Hi everyone
- I'm Zaira
- And I'm Shamilla
and we are a couple
we are a couple baby, yes
so, we thought about putting something about us here on YouTube
we'll start from a video that "makes the difference" because unfortunately, even if we live in 2019
we're still talking about coming out and declare ourself, say to people that we are gay

English: 
cause we're still not complitely accepted from society
so we'll start from here, right?
right, I just want to say that we don't actually do this videos because we want people to watch our business
we just want to show that you don't become someone you're not and is not unfeasible to spend our life with someone of the same sex
whatever is your orientation, you just need two people with two brains, two hearts
that want to walk together
everything else is outline
so, let's start from you... what do you say?
let's start from you I say

English: 
that's how we are
ok, amazing
first of all, the question everyone ask is 
"when did you understand you were a lesbian?"
what I always say is that I never understood I was a lesbian
I just saw in years, growing up, that I didn't feel any attraction for men
so for me the fact of feeling attraction for women was normal
because I always lived it like that
but when I began the middle school I saw that all other girls talked about that guy they liked
or how they were supposed to do
And I didn't, basically

English: 
so I realized that i didn't think in the same way
and I liked to spend time with my girls classmates
or sometimes I used to like them a bit
and that's it
despite everything, to follow them, I had a boyfriend too
sure
I'm talking about middle school
so it was really nothing
that is the moment where people discover sex in general
someone first
other people later
with time I saw that even if I tried with my little "boyfriends"
I'm just talking about going skating together on a Wednesday afternoon out of the school
it was really nothing special
but in the meantime...

Italian: 
Quindi, quando ti sei resa conto che eri attratta solo dalle ragazze?

English: 
I had a lot of girls friends
so, I had another discover
(she's calling me octopus)
so this was in middle school... 11-12 years old then
then with time everything were static, it wasn't really important for me
let's say my first real expieriences I was 13-14 years old
way before!

Italian: 
Ok, quindi... quando è stato? Quanti anni avevi?
Caspita Zocco, eri piccola
Eri piccola, Zocco!

English: 
I just wanted to feel like other girls
and i tried, but for me it was just walking around at afternoon
it was nothing
until I had that experience that made me say 
"ok, that's what I want! That's what I like!"
13-14
I wasn't forced to do that
She was a girl of my age
and it just came out, it was like a game to understand what we liked or not that went on a bit
but it went on automatically, we didn't know what we were doing
- may I ask you something?
- sure
- did you ever regret that?
- no
why should I regret it?

English: 
out there there are people who may think that you were led astray cause you saw people like this or stuff
no, no absolutely
I was the queen
People were curious because of me, cause I used to talk to my friends of that time
and I used to say "girls for me is just like that"
I had the certainty of that when that thing happened
let's just say, I was 14 years old
I still tried with a guy I thought I liked
 because I was growing up you know...
but no, I ran away
litterally
and I went by a girl
then, my coming out was...
the first person I told was my best friend but long time before
In family...

English: 
it came out...
I didn't say it, they asked me
and I didn't answer
my mother asked me and I just kissed her cheek and I said I had to range my room
I killed her
maybe she was expecting that but she wasn't at the same time
it was hard for her
I originarly come from south Italy, where the mentality (not always) in my case...
my mother had to open her mind with time because I'm her daughter
but for her it wasn't automatic

English: 
it was difficult for her
in fact, we didn't talk about that for a long time
and I just gave her space
I'm talking about years
I was 18
so, from 15... it's 3 years
from there, step by step she opend her view a bit
someone came home too
everything is ok now, you know Mary right?
she is super ok now, but it wasn't really easy for her
so, that's my experience
more or less that's it

English: 
I never had big problems with homophobia
I was really lucky on that because not everyone can live this thing like that
maybe some "jokes" like 
"you still didn't find the right man"
but this never really hit me
that's it
do you want to tell us something about you?
what can I say... 
I'm gay

Italian: 
Io sono Shamilla e vivo in Inghilterra a Southampton da un po' più di 3 anni
Prima di questo ero a Belfast e sono cresciuta principalmente in Italia nella zona di Varese
-Davvero?
-Sì, moriremo tutti!

Italian: 
Mi piacevano semplicemente entrambi
il mio backround è principalmente musulmano, mia madre è per metà africana e per metà indiana
sono originaria dello Zimbabwe, ma mio padre è italiano... quindi
siamo stati cresciuti in una famiglia mista, in casa c'era principalmente una cultura musulmana

English: 
I actually identify myself as a bisexual
I always had the dual direction instinct
since young age I used to like males kids and females
without any question, easy
but I also have to say that

English: 
because of the fact to be always indoctrinated
you regulate yourself to
So, basically you tried to take out all those thoughts from your mind
because it wasn't an option
but my instincts went in both directions
growing up then I began to put some humor on that

Italian: 
quindi le regole erano più o meno tipo "se sei gay brucerai sicuramente all'inferno", senza dubbio
quindi non c'erano dubbi nella mia testa che se anche avessi avuto un minimo pensiero nei confronti di una ragazza
ero tipo: "no ragazza, questo no"
ma l'ho sempre avuto
ma a causa del
non far caso a certi pensieri o a determinate cose che sai che sono malate in sostanza

English: 
do you remember the spot of Maxibon on '90s?
Maxibon...?
Two tastes is better than one
that's it!
so I tried to help myself with humor
to understand...you know...
"who you are, why you are in this world"
"what you like"
without count too much what other people could think
my sexual life was always really intimate
I knew that, the involved people and not more than my best friend
because anyone had to know
It wasn't something to do
growing up I noticed that even though I had instincts towards both sexes
I fall in love only with women
not really with men...

English: 
so my first sexual experience that made me understand

Italian: 
mi piace una donna per tutto quello che è
se mi piace il pesce o la carne è stato quando avevo 15 anni, quando mi sono presa profondamente
possiamo chiamarlo amore o sbandata... comunque la prima volta è la prima volta
per una donna
perchè io ero giovane, ma lei era una donna
avevo 15 anni ed è stato quando ho capito al 100% che mi piacevano le ragazze
ma combattevo ancora con il fatto che fosse qualcosa che non potevi fare, pensare e continuare

English: 
how did it come out then?
no, wait... who did you tell as first?
who was the very first person you talked about this?
and?

Italian: 
nemmeno fantasticare perché era brutto, quindi ho continuato ad uscire con ragazzi fino ai 20-21 anni
credo che la mia ultima relazione con un ragazzo sia stata quando avevo 21 anni
ma sono comunque uscita con dei ragazzi
non è da molto che....
che sono diventata "vegetariana" se così si può dire
quindi, questo è quanto
che mi piacciono le donne?
credo con mia cugina
in verità era "ok" con la cosa, perché il fatto che io abbia chiamato una cugina per parlarne...
cioè, siamo unite, abbiamo lo stesso sangue

Italian: 
siamo famiglia... chi chiameresti quando hai bisogno di parlare se non i tuoi familiari...
e lei è stata la persona che ho chiamato per discutere di questo "problema"
perché io ero confusa, volevo anche capire se non fosse normale
nella mia vita non avevo mai conosciuto nessuno che aveva questi sentimenti per qualcuno del suo stesso sesso
quindi per me era tipo "ok, sono pazza di sicuro"
"c'è di sicuro qualcosa che non va in me"
perché non conoscevo nessuno che avesse questi pensieri
finché non ho traslocato
a 18 anni sono andata via dalla casa dei miei genitori
ed lì che ho pensato "ok, quindi non sono sola"
quindi, che mi dici della tua famiglia?
come ho detto la mia famiglia è mista, mia madre viene dallo Zimbabwe ed è metà indiana e metà africana

Italian: 
ma la sua famiglia è musulmana e mio padre è italiano
ma lui  non sottostà a nessuna religione in particolare
la sua famiglia è cattolica... di base in Italia sono cattolici giusto?
Beh per mia madre...
ci sta ancora lavorando
quanti anni hai?
ho 30 anni
ci sta lavorando
sì, chiudiamola così
mio padre in realtà non ha mai tirato fuori
con un'opinione, non credo che sia contento di questa cosa ma

English: 
How do you live that?
for me everything is normal
I couldn't live it in a different was because that's my normality

Italian: 
è più il tipo da "che tipo di essere umano diventi
in questo mondo... cosa puoi fare ed essere per te stessa. Non importa con chi dormi
mi importa se sei la persona che avevo intenzione di crescere"
Questo è papà
mamma ti ama infinitamente ma... come ho detto:
"brucerai all'inferno"
saremo ovunque, organizzerò un sacco di party!
Cosa c'è? Bisogna ridere, su!
in realtà non è come la vivi

Italian: 
è come le altre persone ti fanno sentire, ma solo se non sei sicura di chi sei
perché se tu sai chi sei non c'è modo di farti sentire qualcun altro
Esatto.
Io la vivo bene, cioè, è quello che è
mi è capitato di piacermi una ragazza, se fosse un ragazzo sicuramente la mia vita sarebbe più facile, diciamolo
diciamolo, non è una scelta... perché se avessi potuto scegliere...
lo sai che ti amo vero? Ma...
se avessi potuto scegliere... ho detto SE
ma non ho potuto
quindi lasciamo perdere
caspita mi stava puntando tipo *zzz*
come la vivi tu?

English: 
yes, anyone can let you down

English: 
I'm actually ok, as I told you
I was lucky, I never had problems
All people know that I'm into women
not because I like to tell everyone
it's just topics you talk about with people
when they ask you "are you with someone?"
"what's his name?" or "where does he come from?"
and I just say it's not a "him"
it's "her"
what, yes!
then, there are people who tell you
"oh! Ok, I'm sorry"
as in "I didn't want to take it for granted it's a man"
and who says
"really?"
"I can say I met one!"
or still
"I'd never had say that"
I really don't understand this one actually
"I'd never had say that"
What does it mean?
exactly, we don't have to put it here like this
but, I'm really ok

Italian: 
tipo che c'è un'uniforme
"LESBICA"

English: 
I never had actually problems
not at work, or at school when I went there
- not outside, in the village where I live
- that's true
because I live in a very small village in Switzerland
I never felt uncomfortable for that
it's true I have to say, even when I lived in Italy
on the homosexuality thing
I never felt hate against me
or discrimination
is also true
when it comes out with people
90% of the times
they don't believe I'm a lesbian
even in gay pubs

Italian: 
anche qui a Southampton, me lo chiedono 3 volte prima di dire "ah, ma quindi SEI lesbica"
"davvero?"
-è come se qualcuno aspettasse...
-hai detto che sei bisessuale in realtà
hai detto che sei bisessuale
sì ho detto che sono bisessuale, mi sento così

English: 
just some...
Bless you
I was waiting for that!
just some unhappy jokes
like "I will make you change your mind"
my God!!!
"you didn't find the right man"
yeah, here you are
I'm sure you are the right man
I was actually waiting for you

English: 
just that
let's say... they never could make me feel uncomfortable
maybe I'm just strong with these things
and they can think whatever they want
I'll sleep with who I want anyways
no, baby not in that sense!
I mean it's not because they say this things that
I change team
everyone does what he likes
always in respect of other people freedom

Italian: 
ok, buono a sapersi!
ma devo dire che ci sono delle differenze tipo
è meglio essere gay in certe nazioni piuttosto che in altre

Italian: 
per esempio, io preferisco "essere gay" in Inghilterra perché sento di essere molto più tutelata prima di tutto
e più integrata nella società
e posso sposarmi
posso avere una famiglia che sia considerata legalmente come una famiglia
mi sento più al sicuro di molte altre persone che sfortunatamente devono vivere in paesi dove è addirittura illegale o rischi la morte solo ammettendolo
quindi mi sento fortunata in un certo senso

English: 
but we can say in Europe
things are changing everywhere
a bit slower in Italy
but I can't explain myself why
because if you have a look
all people seem to be pro
but no new laws are coming
if you watch talkshows 
everyone applauds
when is said "family is where is love" and stuff
but there is no result

English: 
so, I don't know
yeah, but they'll get there i think
For now that's all
like the video if you liked
follow us on instagram
we have our channel
@themomoship
I'll see you in the next video
comment with everything you like
ask questions
we are here
and we are also to confront with you
We'll be pleased to do that
right?
thanks for watching
see you!
Ambro and Zocco
over and out.

Italian: 
per me l'Italia e altre nazioni, in confronto a dove vivo, sono molto indietro
sì, ma nel mentre starò dove possono vedermi e dove valutano quello che sento

Italian: 
mi ucciderà!
ecco perché devo parlare inglese... devo restare con la mia lingua!
oddio!

English: 
little extra
I grew up *wtf???* in Varese
how did you grow up?
*trying to repeat*
come on, another one...
can you hear someone moaning?
can you?
amazing, someone is discovering her sexual attractions in this moment
perfect,

English: 
It's not easy to focus right now
come on Ambro!
try to say no...
"come on Ambro!"
can you hear her?
who's that? downstairs?
so there are life forms in that house
they always fight
yes, but they also make peace
I think they are now
I can't!!!
then you say it's me!
you hear her too!
ok, we'll cut this one.

Italian: 
no, questi ci stanno dando dentro!
eh, ci distrae... perché lei si sta divertendo di brutto!!!
