 
-So it got so bad you had
to go for food stamps.
I did.
And that was a stunning moment.
I was looking around
me and thinking,
these are people who
have made a career
out of making bad decisions.
So you're in the line--
Yeah, judging people.
You're in the line
judging the other people.
Yes, yes, I was.
And then this woman's
jacket slipped.
And she had a name tag on it.
It said RN.
And I thought, what
a fool you are.
I mean, this woman does
good work every day.
And she slipped on the
ice, just like you did.
And I went into the office,
the woman gave me my card,
and then in a moment of supreme
irony, took a stack of my books
out from under
her desk and said,
would you please
sign these for me?
Oh, my goodness.
I cried hard that day.
And that was, in part, when
I started to be free again.
I guess I started to recognize
that this was bad luck and not
necessarily something
that I needed
to assign blame to myself and
my husband for the rest of time.
But how did your
marriage survive?
I mean, don't tell
me you weren't mad,
you weren't mad at your husband.
Don't even try to tell me that.
I mean, I was so
angry at him, I
did not-- I could not imagine
living in the same house
with him anymore.
People kept saying to me,
well, you married him,
you trusted him.
And after a while,
I started to say,
yeah, I did, and we're going
to push through this somehow.
I'm really glad that we did.
And I got to the point where
I was able to see that there
was no malice in this.
